The Shady Post Shadowed's Personal Blog From the Depths of Her Mind by: ShadowedSin

My thoughts on the world and what is coming about for the future! Expect at least one post from the Shady Place of my mind at least once a week or once every two weeks when I'm busy.

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Dia daoibh mo gcairde! Nó sa bearla, "Hello my friends!"

A week has gone and come again. The blog I usually post near the weekend has been delayed for various reasons. As you all know I'm an "Essential Worker" (cough cough Sacrificial), and most of my customers are pretty nice. Most respect me asking people to remain six feet apart and it has worked thus far. Not a single person at my store has tested positive for coronavirus and no one in my household unlike many in Washington State is sick. We've avoided the brunt of the worse of the pandemic and so far things are good. One problem though is that this does tax me as a person and with my changing "mental diagnosis" I am likely looking at a change-up in medicines as well.

I take about seven different prescriptions each managed a different thing in my head and body. Three are for my transition; three for my various mental illnesses and one to keep my migraines at bay. So far the seventh has been slipping in how well it works. Of course, this has led to a slew of problems meaning that my caffeine withdrawals now result in me getting very painful migraines. I need caffeine though to help function on the worst of my lows which leaves me lacking any energy.

Last week I had two very painful manic highs. In both cases, the mixture of paranoia anxiety resulted in sobbing and worse. It took me about three days to recover from both and not have fixations related to them. Most if not all of my original support system including my gym is closed. I work out still, but I don't have the heavyweights or the machines which allow me to zone out safely. I can go running in town, but I prefer it when it's not bright out and I've had men creep on more than once here in Mount Vernon.

This has, in turn, affected my productivity of things. So - days, where I should have plenty of time to write, are being very rendered into very unmotivated and just tired. I love it.

Now, I plan on getting a good chunk of my work for Scald 2 Chapter 6 done soon. Getting into Grainne's mind has been taxing as of late since this particular Chapter requires a lot of exposition. Plus, there's managing the various scenes from three different points of view I plan on writing for this particular scene. End of the day, as long as I manage what I'm feeling today and the rest of my "days off" should be without too much stress.