I waited for her in front of the theatre and as usual she was late. We had been together for four years and she kinda had made it a habit. It irked me a lot but the moment I saw her, It was as if all my frustrations disappeared. Despite that we had our fair share of fights .

We were in the same class in college and had been dating since we joined it four years back. It wasn't easy getting her attention , but with time and lots of luck I won her over . Since then she had been a rock by my side , supporting me , loving me . She made moving to a new city without any friends easier. I had a tough childhood moving in with my foster parents from the orphanage . They had their hands full with the Six other kids already. I didn't feel much welcome there ,but they were loaded and didn't hesitate on spending money on us . It was the emotional connect that was missing. I moved out and to this city when I joined college and that's when I i met her .

She stepped out of the cab and looking at her like everytime and like everybody else I thought ,"why is she even dating me??". We went inside. She hadn't had a good day . It was evident from her face . I didn't want to poke the bear by mentioning about her being late. She was quiet through the movie. We went for a quick bite after the movie.
"My parents don't want me to go abroad",she said. It was her dream to go to Europe for masters degree post college and like most Indian parents ,hers were skeptical. Her eyes were moist. I tried to confort her. Put my arms around her. She hugged me back .

She had been talking to her pen friend Shreya the entire day. She had become her bestie in the last few years. Things she wouldn't tell me ,she would discuss with her. Whenever I objected ,the answer I would get is "only a woman can understand another woman properly". I didn't like this as I would have loved it if she would have discussed everything with me as I was her boyfriend.I was upset as well , as she would be moving away from me in months. The thought of not able to be with her drove me restless. And i knew, long distance relationship won't work . We came back to my room . It was 'our' room now. She had almost moved in . She stayed with me most of the time in the pretext of studying. I didn't realise when her stuff in our flat had become double of mine . It was as if I am staying at her place. The wardrobes were hers,the racks,table, everything. None of it mattered to me as I was madly in love with her. Kissing those chubby cheeks made everything alright. The only thing that bothered me little was that she would trust a girl she had never met , never seen over her own boyfriend. And the reason she was mad was because even Shreya didn't want her to go abroad, to go against her parents and since nobody was believing in her dreams, she was upset .I told her I am with her,that she should realise her dreams ,even though I wasn't. I didn't want her to go away.

Time flew by very quickly. We had a lot of memories together over the years. We had gone on numerous dates, trips, excursions and now we are almost at the end of our college life. It had been good four years for me marred by a bit of insecurity . She was frequently hit on by other guys . Guys whom I considered better than me .It made me very insecure,but somehow we lasted.

We graduated from college after few months and there was a huge party thrown for us students by our juniors . There was booze,food ,weed ,etc . All i could see was drunk people running here and there and didn't take us long before we were one of them. I didn't realise we had been separated for a while as the alcohol had kicked in. I started looking for her . I tried everyone and looked everywhere without success. She wasn't answering my phone either. I found her after 30 mins. She was in tears , tears of happiness . She heard back from the college and she had got it.

I was happy for her but then it hit me she would be going away from me. I couldn't hold back my tears .She tried to stop me but I went straight back to my room. I knew things won't go well if we talk now. I kept ignoring her calls and texts. Our life together flashed by my eyes ,my mind trying to look for what could I have done differently.

I switched off my phone and kept it aside. I opened my drawer and took out my second phone from the secret compartment. I opened Facebook and logged in . The screen read ,"Welcome Shreya !!".
There were unread messages from 167 people and the top one from Ankita read " Girl we need to talk..I don't know what to do anymore...Need you .. Reply asap".

****To be continued****

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