Late again but at least its the right day!

Happy Canada Day everybody. For some reason, it feels more important this year. Cant imagine why . . .

Got a new essay up.

please read, like, and leave a comment

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/107180/three-pillars

So yesterday, I had to take Sharon to the ER because of high blood pressure. She finally got to go home today, and was told she has to take BP meds, and that she could have died.

So a near miss, I guess. I hope she takes the warning seriously.

and with the solstice at the weekend, i guess that means its officially summer!

Mostly, when I'm out and about, I try to avoid using the restroom. There's a Walmart neighborhood store in the area that I generally have cause to be out and about in. The restrooms there are rarely busy and only once or twice have had to interact with anyone there. If I find myself in need, it's my restroom of choice.

Apparently the angry demonstrations are taking place all over America, and who knows where else? I am of two minds about it all and my PTSD is really rearing its head. Not getting much sleep. Arthritis or Fibromyalgia is really being painful.

The Federal Troops are setting off very loud flash bangs

I worry that my legally adopted daughter has or will be deported back to Korea. I have lost track of her.

For those who pray, please do?

Gwen Brown

As the world seems to spiral down into darkness, I am reminded of something Fred Rodgers said.

He said "look for the helpers"

Look for the EMTs, the nurses, the doctors, those volunteering in soup kitchens and donation depots. But also look for those doing small things like helping a neighbor clear their sidewalk or visiting a senior home. In times of cruelty, look for kindness, look for mercy.

talked my mom into coming with me to church, and several people there made a point of telling her how kind and giving I was, and she would top them by saying how much I do for her and my family.

I blushed like crazy the whole time . . .

So I got a new story up, and got some encouraging news about Sharon.

She went to a doctor to get medical info for applying for unemployment, and it looks like Sam will have a part time job being a aide to a young disabled man.

So double good news (I hope!)

by the way, the story is here: https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/106912/charm-ing-gift

Okay, i might be a bit late for that but it is June the first.

conclusion to the week!

Sharon just called me to tell me she has lost her job. Sighs, just when we were starting to feel hopeful about Mike, we get a new problem to replace him . . .

So last night I dreamed I was back and school, and even though I was doing okay in class, I felt like there was a barrier between me and the other students, one I could see through, but could never cross. I would never truly connect with them, nor they with me.

That's pretty much how I felt in real life too - and I still struggle with feeling like that today.

twice today my right leg buckled.

This wasn't a dislocation, just a moment where it seemed like it wasn't going to support my weight.

soon as I can, I will be calling my doctor, and meanwhile, all hugs and prayers accepted.

from Gods Own Country!

And what a few days its been

So last night, i had 2 very different dreams.

In the first, I was back in college, and was approached to take a seat on the Student Court as one of the judges. I told the person asking me that I was concerned about my grades, since I had struggled the previous semester, but I really didn't want to become that visible, as I had apparently planned to begin dealing with my gender issues by feminizing my appearance slowly.

I've had several medical professionals tell me this is the worst allergy season they've seen. The actually didn't have to tell me; I can feel it.

Also, for the first day or so after getting allergy shots (every two weeks) I feel very sluggish. I got my shots yesterday. Oog.