Coward?

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Coward?

He sits there, trapped by his fear, his cowardice.
He's afraid to do anything that might draw attention to himself.
He's afraid to meet with his co-workers off hours.
He's afraid that he won't be able to bluff his way through all that guy talk.

He's afraid that he'll have a bad time.
He's afraid that he'll have a good time.

He's afraid that he'll meet a girl and won't be man enough for her.
He's afraid he'll meet a guy, and won't be woman enough for him.
He's afraid of his bisexual feelings.
He's afraid that he'll meet a guy and that he'll like it.

He's afraid that his family thinks he's gay. They have asked him about it over the years.
He wants to make love to a woman, but he wants to be a woman too, when it happens.
He wants to make love to a man, but he wants to be that man's woman.

He wants to have children, but he wants to be a mother, to carry life inside.
He wants to be pretty, but he's ugly.

He wants to wear soft, beautiful nightgowns, but he'll have to settle for worn boxers.
He wants to wear dresses, but he will have to settle for slacks.

He's tired of feeling like a freak, he just wants to be normal.
He's tired of being alone, he just wants to let people into his life.
He's tired of living a lie, he's just afraid to tell the truth.

He's tired of being strong, he just wants to be soft.
He is sick of being tall and fat.
He wants to be average hight and weight.

He wants to be a normal, girl next door, kind of girl.
He's getting tired of being Steven all the time.
He wants to be Jessica, but he's afraid that he can't.

fin

I would like to thank my editor Catherine Linda Michel.
She took my ramblings and made it so that you can read it.
This is my first time posting my writing anywhere and I
would not have had the courage to do it if it were not for
Catherine. Thank you.



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