Hi everyone.

First I think I need to tell you that I stopped dressing a few months ago. I purged all my clothing, my makeup and accessories. I have nothing left. I had to do it. The duality of my life was getting so bad that it was crushing me. I must say that it really did help me. It really eased up on my stress and fear of discovery from my family. The only thing I have been doing is going online and reading here and at other sites.

But now, I miss my clothes so much. I miss my longer hair. I miss my powder fresh deoderant. I miss my nail polish. I miss my night gown so much. It's been getting bad this past week. I'm going to be house sitting in another town for my grandma and it is so tempting to have some stuff shipped there or to go buy some new clothes. I want them so bad but I do not know if I can face that much duality in my life again, or the risk of being found out at home.

Jessica Marie

P.S. I just spent 25 minutes looking at bras online. Found one in my size(very big size) on clearance for $9. Damm that's tempting.

Danger, Danger. Drama Rising. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!