I realized late last night that I'm hitting another gully in the cycle of depression and recovery. I have the stories running around in my head, but can't find the enthusiasm to write them down. I want to just lie in bed and cry for hours
I guess I just feel myself slipping away, bit by bit. I'm losing weight, but not fast enough. I'm writing, but my head continues to fill to overmuch. There's a possibility of new romance on the horizon, but am I just fooling myself?
I went up to be early (for me, anyway) last evening. Then I lie there in bed and cried, tears thoroughly wetting my pillow. I think I fell asleep shortly after sunrise... meaning I'd been lying there at least four and a half hours
No real point to this entry, just getting thoughts out... sorry to disappoint, but Sk8r Grrls 15 will wait. I'll likely be back up enough to finish it in time for Tuesday. Maybe I'll include a bonus of some kind to make up for missing a week
Edeyn
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Virtual Hugs!
Edeyn,
Whatever the physical distance, you still have listening ears and caring hearts here.
Warm hugs,
Itinerant
Nicole (a.k.a. Itinerant)
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Veni, Vidi, Velcro:
I came, I saw, I stuck around.
I'm sorry to hear you are
I'm sorry to hear you are unwell and I wish you back to full health as soon as possible.
One of the things suggested in depression is to take exercise regularly as this helps to programme your body back towards a normal state. It can also help to physically tire you and to enable you to relax while doing it. Walking is good, for a minimum of half an hour per day.
While doing things is good, allow yourself some levity and don't set deadlines which make you feel pressured, because that increases the anxiety and boosts the cycle.
Get well soon.
Angharad.
Angharad
The loss of a muse from depression
Dear Edeyn,
I wholeheartedly understand how you are doing. I suffer from long term depression plus combat related PTSD (and a few other initialerd things). In the past three weeks I have had two episodes of PTSD that have made it difficult for me to write. The ideas are there, the will to put them on paper to be creative is not.
Just when I had gotten over the 4th of July as well as two thunder and lightning storms I began to feel creative and was editing a story I am preparing for publishing, when the second episode of PTSD reared its ugly head.
When I saw your Dilemma, I figered to let you know you are not alone. I do not know where you reside, but if I can make a suggestion. If you are in the U.S. contact a NAMI representative, i fyou are overseas contact a mental help professional. I take prozac and it helps the majority of the time.
Jill Micayla
May you have a wonderful today and a better tomorrow
Jill Micayla
Be kinder than necessary,Because everyone you meet
Is fighting some kind of battle.
Hugs as well
I came across your stories later than most. I didn't read the whole series until this last week.
Take your time. Even though I would be thrilled to see more of your work everyday, because frankly you are that good, I am patient enough and understanding enough to be able to wait.
As for life, the only thing I can say is that it is a journey. The things we experience lead to who and what we are, and I wish you the best.
Shannon
Samirah M. Johnstone
Cycles are cycles
Relax and try to enjoy the downs as well as the ups. Is there anything so beautiful as a melancholy morning? Is there anything unjoyful about a tear well-shed? When you know there are mountains, the swamps become places to rest and recharge.
We'll wait for you. ::smile::
-- Donna Lamb, Flack
-- Donna Lamb, ex-Flack
Some of my books and stories are sold through DopplerPress to help support BigCloset. -- Donna
Take care and check your medications if you are on any
If you are on any medicines or supliments make sure you are on the right dosage or if any were added or subtracted from your regimine seek info about drug interactions.
We have had people here before whose prescription got goofed up or was seeing several doctors and somehow none of them concidered interactions.
Hell, my dad was on a heart medicine after valve replacement and felt dizy from a new prescripion. The one doctor said to take it before bed. He felt awful the next day and his cardoligist saw him, saw what he was on, and was shocked. They'd put him on a potent blood pressure reducing pill when he was tending towards low presure.
Take good care of yourself. A neighbor has battled depression for years and it has laid him low at times. Execise does seem to help him.
John in Wauwatosa
John in Wauwatosa
Depression
Hey Edeyn.
Recently, I was feeling pretty depressed myself. I've found that less time in front of the computer, less time writing, more time exercising, and more time interacting with other people in the "real world" has helped a bunch. I still like to get my writing and computer fixes, but I honestly believe that there is no genuine substitute for real world fun and games.
Good luck with the new romantic interest; I hope that works out well. I'm sure your story will be wonderful when you get back to it.
Jodie
xoxo
spirals
Yes I have those, as I'm pretty sure a few others that come here do. Nothing quite like a lonely wet pillow is there? And then you get all stuffed up and end up with a sinusy headache all the next day. Barrel of monkeys or something. See... nuts.
I don't do medication for that and yes I do see a psych every so often. I can see them coming and I know them as I think do you. Just get through it as you do and we'll be here whenever. But always, if it gets too far... make a phone call.
Be lookin' for the next bit... when it gets here is fine.
Kristina