I apologize in advance, for what i am about to tell u all, fair warning this is very sensitve announcement and im scared, im so scared i fear what i thought i concered,

I am shaking and crying, i feel my end is coming near.

I have had 3 spine operations in my teen years and at the last one i was led to believe i never had to worry again of scoliosis.

today i went to the er, to see why my namonia hasent went away

I was told i no longer have namonia,

Happy birthday to me happy birthday to me, closer to 6 feet under at 23 lol huggles everyone :) It be my birthday today, I am 23!!! i hope u all have a great day too, cause me bones r cracking which is funny, see im getting older and in elven years im 137 lol

Happy thanksgiving everyone, or more or less my fellow canadians huggs alot and kisses

Erin Amelia Fletcher

Thank you all that commented andleft Private messages in my inbox all your help is greatly apprecitaed with all the love to you all hugs

Erin Amelia Fletcher

It is the Time to Act!!! The Time to wish and to ponder, the time to the time to desire and the time to quest!! We all have a life time to accomplish so much and everyone either belives they have the time to accomplish there desires or the time itself not worthy to waste on desires or even that there desires are ou of reach for some either honest or made up reason. Well that stops now!!

I'm freakin crazyly happy, of course its last minute but hell if i ain't smiling...the long wait for my first appointment with my endocrinologist is here friday afternoon, I am so syked I have been waiting since february 2010 and livin fl time (without name change)(family doc retired just before i went to book the appointment needed to sign a section in the application) :( since April or May woot woot hormone train is just around the bend i can't wait :)))

Spent and hour in a half in the washrrom this morning to make my hair and makeup perfect,come upstairs and my relatives dogs decided to lick my face clean and mess up my hair with there claws, before the funeral service today. I love em but hey i think i was alright to get a little upset with them, afterall who likes to build a buildin and for 3 years and have it torn down in a week, for no reason right. Silly but eh, cant get this pretty without work and effort and deffinitely dont like to spend another hour fixing it back up grr. I hope next time they leave the dogs at home.

My sister had a bundling baby today, of course at this time biologically is believed to be male, and no questions otherwise, so i am happy...thought to share it :) hip hip harray :)

with love and ligth and smiles so bright

Erin Amelia Fletcher

After a year of being totally stifled, and unable to begin my transition, I am finally about to start, come March 11 or this year. I am moving with my dad and grandparents, after his telling them about my predictament etc. So I will be busy for the next little while, though I do hope to post 'The mother in me' soon, though a date is yet established or determined yet. Hope you all good wishes

With love and light and smiles so bright

Erin Amelia Fletcher

Just came back from counseling and found out by my counselor that OHIP (Ontario health insurance plan) only covers transition if you go through a specific trans-clinic. They make you go through RLT for 2 years before you can even have hormone therapy. Yet they have a 90% decline rate. They make you go through 4 years of HRT before the Srs and still can decline you.

If you dont go through the clinic, you can have it all sooner however its more expensive. Either or however Hormones come out of own wallet/purse.

I would like to know if I am doing something wrong, or doing something right with my story.

I am getting concerned that maybe others are loosing interest in it, and am thinking of possibly pulling the plug on it seems how, The comments on my story, is getting rarer and rarer, and sometimes none at all. examples (13 and 16)

I enjoy writting the story, in fact I was hopeing to contiinue it for a rather long time, its hardly just begun, even where it is now, as I planned to continue wtritting it for many more monthes or even years, like an episode as each instalment.

I cut my bangs bymyself today, and screwed it all up, to such a point I hid the shame by taking my raizer and shaved off the stubs of my bangs. It was my first time ever doing it bymyself, mum usually performs that task on me.

Never went to any form of hair establishment since i was 7. scared and excited, don't know what to do. Some sites say grow them out but hide them though is difficult. other sites say cut all hair to length with the bangs bad idea, as i have finally for the first time in my life besides having my bangs cut been able not to have my hair cut.