Seeing Myself...
It helps to have the objective view of friends and family. I've been so discouraged lately from the struggle to stay safely out of the way as I determine who I am and how this part of me fits into who I am overall. I may never step any further out of the closet, and I've felt that I've been somehow depriving Andrea of life.
Because of dear ones like Randa and Kelly and Bobbie and Alison and Diana and Ronnie and Liz and Renee and so many others, I've been able to remember that the woman I am inside is who I am, regardless of how I am compelled to present myself in real life. Sure there is always hope that my family may come to a place slowly of accepting me, and I will eventually reveal more and more of myself via my writing. But for now stretching into an indeterminate length of time, I'm trying to remain content with what can be as opposed to what might be. So my avatar has evolved. I haven't entirely abandoned my cartoon self, but the picture above more carefully and accurately perhaps reflects who I am inside. I have been blessed these past several months in that I've gained three daughters, several sweet and adorable sisters, and a few special nieces and at least one nephew, so to speak. I cannot begin to tell you how fulfilling it has been to know at least a few folks out of the several billion who dwell along with us on this globe know and care and love Andrea. To all of you I say thank you!
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Andrea
You are who you are. I'm not saying that you cram that down your family's throats, or your friends, or anyone else. Just that.
Going from there, as most of us know, you have so many things to weigh, balance, and consider.
I'd offer advice but that generally doesn't work out so well so all I will tell you is this.
You are you no matter how you present.
You have my prayers, for what those are worth, and my well wishes.
Maggie
Three steps forward, two
Three steps forward, two steps back can feel like you aren't getting anywhere, but slowly you have been emerging.
My hopes that 2012 will bring good things for you, my partner in crime... I mean comedy.
Hugs,
kristy
To My Mother, from a proud daughter
When we met, both of us were much less sure of ourselves... you have helped me through rough patches and i have tried my best when you needed love and support. you have, to quote Tom Petty, "A heart so big, it could crush this town"
Some days are diamonds, Some days are rocks, Some doors are open, Some roads are blocked
Sundowns are golden, Then they fade away, And if I never do nothin', I'll get you back some day
'Cause... You got a heart so big, It could crush this town ,And I can't hold out forever, Even walls fall down
And all around your island, There's a barricade, It holds out the danger, It keeps in the pain
And sometimes you're happy, Sometimes you cry, Half of me is ocean, Half of me is sky
But... You got a heart so big, It could crush this town ,And I can't hold out forever, Even walls fall down
Yes, they do.
Oh!
And some things are over, Some things go on, And part of me you carry, Part of me is gone
But... You got a heart so big, It could crush this town ,And I can't hold out forever, Even walls fall down
Baby... You got a heart so big, It could crush this town ,And I can't hold out forever, Even walls fall down
Yeah, I guess they do
Yes, they do
They fall down
In my interpretation of this song, it is about being willing to wait, being there for each other and loving... but your mileage may vary
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zJl0pe-DWy8
Love is what Matters
Love is what Andrea is to me
Hugs and Kisses Mommy,
Diana
Like Lady Josephine Porter, KCB
Dear Andrea;
Your picture reveals a beautiful, self assured, mature woman, who presents herself in a wonderful, caring and loving way to her family, friends, and readers here at BCTS.
You are truly blessed because you have two families who love and adore you. Obviously your wife and son are the first.
But your second family, includes all of your sisters, daughters, cousins, nieces, and friends who do sing your praises.
RAMI
RAMI
'Drea, you bless me every day
I wish I could give even half the blessings back to you, sister. I have no sage advice, but my loving and prayer-filled support no matter what happens. Big hugs, sis.
Andrea Lives!
You are who you are and we're all glad you are who you are!
Love ya, lady,
Joanne