Another birthday come and gone
I still stand alone in the crowd
Standing still in time watching life pass by
Friends get married, have kids, divorce, and try again
For me there’s nothing
The piece that doesn’t fit

Another party
I’ve turned a year older but no one celebrates me
Standing in a corner for someone I’ve never met
I’m supposed to know this man
Everyone says we’re close
To keep the peace I pretend
And then the voice
The voice from in my head chimes in
One more year,
One more year you broke your promise
You promised to fix this make everybody see
You said you’d do it all those years ago
I took the pistol out and spared our life
You tried till it got hard
You gave in to those who refuse to see
Now you can’t even look at yourself without hatred
You hate your self
Who you try to be for the love of those who refuse to see
You wish it could end you pray for the end you begged not to come
Now we’re back to that same place we were years ago
The gun or the promise
Quit pretending to be someone you’re not
Fix this body and life
Or if not quit trying and end it
Today the promise wins just barely
Tomorrow we shall see