I have, no doubt, alienated some friends, and have been generally hard to get along with. I know that my health issues are certainly a big part of this. Not knowing exactly what's going on with my health is preying on my mind. Additionally, there is some pain associated with what's going on, and that makes me irritable as well.
There are some personal issues as well, which will remain unnamed. All of this has led to strained relations with my housemate and best friend, Tina. I've also managed to place a barrier between me and my Goddaughter... the light of my life... my little girl. Well, not so little anymore.e She's 17 and driving, but still...
I am scheduled into the Buffalo VA hospital on Friday the 26th for further testing and diagnoses. I know that most of my irritability is coming from the not knowing, but knowing that doesn't help. I will be taking my laptop and cell phone with me to the hospital, although as far as I know, there is no public wireless network there for me to use. I've loaded dozens of stories onto my laptop so, if I can't get online, I'll at least be able to have something to read. I'll call a couple of people on the cell, to let them know what's happening, and they, in turn, will let you all know how I'm doing and what's being done.
I appreciate the well wishes I received fro you all when I first mentioned my health issues, and I hope you will all keep me in your prayers and good thoughts as I find out more. Hopefully it's something simple that can be resolved by a simple *snip, snip.* My doctor here at the local VA clinic has recommended removal of the offending pieces of useless flesh between my legs, since it seems that at least one of them is directly or indirectly involved in my current problem, and the other one is in not great shape.
The best I can hope for is a simple removal of both of them. I don't like to think of the worst. I've been on HRT for ten years, including T-blockers, and that's known to be a contributing factor in the development of testicular cancer.
Anyway, I will let you all know, one way or another, after Friday the 26th, what the doctors want to do, treatment-wise. I'm sorry if this blog seems impersonal, but the only way I can deal with everything is to depersonalize it all.
Thank you, my friends, for your patience and good wishes. I love you all.
Scared as hell,
Catherine Linda Michel
Comments
This is anything but impersonal
...my prayers and love go with you as I am sure will our dear friends' and family's love and best wishes.
Dio benedica la mia bella amici
Love, Andrea Lena
You Are In My Thoughts
You are in my thoughts and I sincerely hope for the best for you. I know how scary this can be. I had an Ultrasound on mine last year because I had been having pain down there. My doctor didn't find anything, but it still makes me wonder if I will have to deal with this again down the road. Stay strong Honey.
Hugs,
Jen
Hey Girl.
Hang tuff. You know you have all our support and prayers. There may not be a public wi-fi available, but there may be one in the Cafe area for the docs and visitors. Maybe. There may also be one for the staff. You could maybe get someone to sign on long enough for you to check your email and open a few attachments and save them to the disc if you run out of reading matter. I would be happy to attach some to an email for you. That way they could not trace where you might be surfing or denied to a "restricted site"
Even better, I bet you could be flooded by an influx of mail of flash drives with "stuff" on them.
Good Luck!
Think positive - I know it may be hard when you've still got a week to go, but hopefully within a fortnight you'll be out again, in better physical health, and hopefully a better state of mind as well. Just make sure everyone knows you're being cranky for a reason, so "on the other side" you can resume normal happy relations with them!
--Ben
As the right side of the brain controls the left side of the body, then only left-handers are in their right mind!
BE BRAVE ,
ALISON
'Dear one.Even on the other side of the Pacific we will be thinking of you and praying for you.Much love to you,dear girl.Alison
ALISON
No wonder you seemed a bit *off* of late
Having a big health scare and not knowing has to be very stressful
Get well and we forgive any odd behaviour on your part. It's understandable.
John in Wauwatosa
John in Wauwatosa
My friend
I'm always here for you. As always my hopes and prayers are with you.
Hugs!
Grover
Cathy,
RELAX! WE LOVE YOU! Please take it easy and heal.
May Your Light Forever Shine
May Your Light Forever Shine
All I can say is
Cathy, you're in my prayers. I hope and pray that you are well soon, and that the personal issues you mention can be resolved too.
You're very special to us around here.
~~~love, Laika
What borders on pure insanity?
Canada and Mexico.
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