Back in October, I got into another domestically abusive situation & left. I was travelled several hours away & since, this event, I have been in 2 shelters (homeless/women's/coed).
I had not been feeling well the last couple of days. Due to my respiratory issues, I figured it was just pneumonia, sinus infection, bronchitis etc again.
Well I was given a rapid test & I am positive for Covid as of tonight 8:58PM.
I have not been well & my breathing is extremely laboured, I was suffocating earlier. I hate spitting & I know it is unladylike, but I did my best to do so, to clear my throat, rather pathetically.
When I get ill, it takes longer then most for me to get relatively better.
If I pass, it is unlikely anyone will get here to update anyone. I have cut out the entirety of my family... despite my being NC with my mum, I updated her this evening.
Truthfully I am hoping my doctor calls back, I would rather ask to be Euthanized. Course, I do not doubt that I will not get it, unfortunately.
You all have been my family, where my heart is. So I share this with you all
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You've had a bit of a rough ride
Have you not had any of the covid vaccinations? I hope you feel better soon and that things improve as we go into spring. Do keep us informed, we do care about each other here. Take care and get well soon.
Angharad
Vaccinations
I wish I could upvote that no end.
Vaccinations will help to absolutely minimize the chances of severe disease. I am very sorry for those who had not gotten one due to some stupid political stance and have died and/or crippled by it.
And NO vaccinations are not guaranteeing you can't get it which idiots and equivocated it as meaning that vaccines are not needed. The idiots.
2 Needles
I had a Moderna first, followed by a Pfizer,
I will try thxs....
I cannot help but think, I finally have come to the end.
My immune system is horrid as it is & I have severe respiratory issues.
I have had a couple monets lately where my throat got tight enough I struggled to breath.
I have no real fight, I am hoping my doctor gets ahold of me soon, I desire euthanasia, can go out, correctly by my own terms & not by my own hands.
I am extremely tired, slow & weak.
My body feels like brittle glass & cold while perspiration is abnormally consistant.
Hundreds of episodes suicide attempts, rapes, abuse etc & this is what the fates have seemingly choosen.
I can barely breath & even my speech is off, like crackly, coughing etc almost consistently.
Very tired & the migraines are overwhelming.
With Love and Light, and Smiles so Bright!
Erin Amelia Fletcher
Hospital
Can you get to one? It sounds like it is a definite emergency.
Rather not
I dunno, though I do believe unless its completely out of their hands, I won't be.
Truthfully, would rather let this be the end of it.
Tired of fighting & maybe this is my chance to move on & be reborn right
I lost hope for the future long ago, I see no future as it is
Why prolong fate?
With Love and Light, and Smiles so Bright!
Erin Amelia Fletcher
Don't know your history
For me the idea of dying choking and drowning on my own mucous is not how I would want to go.
I have a weak respiratory system also, colds linger a very long time with me, I would cough for over a month and suffer through one for two weeks and then have this long tail of horrible coughing that lasts weeks after.
If fate deems that you would die then being in the hospital won't prevent that.
But if you are not fated to die then you will survive the experience.
In either case, at least in a hospital you can pass more peacefully, it is the least you can do for yourself.
Please get to hospital.
Please get to hospital. Respirators save so many lives. So many people with covid recover completely. I am asthmatic, I know how it feels to stuggle to breath when I have a chest infection. It makes you wish it would just end, but without this horrible virus you may feel life is worth living.
I don't know you Erin, but please don't give up. The recent variants of covid are proving less fatal than the original, but you need treatment.
Hugs and kisses
Leeanna