so here is another one after so many years coments well come rip it apart
darkness one lone tear
Darkness , the kind that is solid, unforgiving and infinite.
up down left right stillness .BBleeprup.......bluureeep.
Noises in the darkness all around close closer like nails on a marble floor.
Blllureep.........blllrueep.
Mumblings and more noises , the darkness holding them back holding me back .
Breep.....brreeep distant voices talking .......
Faintly hearing a name being called "m........ch......... struggling to listen M......Cha.........
Pain ! White hot like light nerves crying out .
Voices clearer.. Mr.......Cham....
More pain all over now.
Mr......Chambe.............
I mumble a faint "yes", with my dry mouth .
I open my eyes.... things badly out of focus i struggle to look a the near by form.
A voice softly speakes "Mrs Chambers" it said ....." congratulations your SRS has been very sucessfull rest now" .
I faintly smile as one lone tear slips down my cheek and darkness returns.
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It hurts like hell...but so does childbirth
Pegasus Flight (July 2011)
The music has started, the carousel spins,
I’ve accepted myself and my journey begins.
Long hours have I lain tormented by fears,
tossing and turning as my pet demons sneered.
Yet in that dark furnace I both lost and I gained.
The bonds that once held me, the dread weight of my chains,
are now a bright crystal that pierces the mist,
to now see what may be, what may not, and the risks.
The music runs faster, my steed spreads her wings,
Pegasus breaks free from her bonds as she springs.
Behind lies regrets, below lies old fears,
ahead lies a future, unformed yet so clear.
This flight is no fantasy, this journey no quest.
The dangers are real yet still I feel blessed,
for at last I can see who I was, who I’ll be.
And soon in my heart I know I’ll be free.
Persephone
Non sum qualis eram