Just reporting things as I observe them. I'm also not going to be wearing anything to show these changes off, at least not normally, so pretty sure no one's going to notice... much. Definitely not trying to turn anyone on.

I am considering buying some women's cycling skins with my next paycheck though... I've always wanted to have proper kit, but never could quite justify buying it over other things of interest, and now I can justify it, I'm certain men's skins aren't gunna fit the way they're supposed to for the entire point - reducing drag. The second point for the shorts would probably still be fine - padding, though perhaps a little too well...

Actually, I went over to the local bike shop a few days back and tried on the mens tops... really bad fit, even the small was baggy all over except the boobs, where they were excessively tight. Didn't bother trying the shorts, I already had a pretty good idea what would happen there. Haven't had a chance to try on any women's skins, want a little more privacy to do so, everyone at the bike shop know me. There's a Dick's in town, so hoping they have kit and some proper changing cubicles for privacy.

I'm also hoping to find the skins with women's cut, but gender-neutral appearance. I'm not actually trying to be a woman, have no intention of getting SRS, nor do I want to walk around in women's clothes any more than I absolutely have to, like underwear... as I've mentioned before, men's boxers ride into my bum and roll down my waist towards my hips, because I have to wear them so big to fit over my hips. Women's underwear are far more comfortable. That I need a bra is fairly obvious at this point. I wonder how big they're going to end up, since the typical on hrt is that they keep growing for years, so if they're already this big less than a year into hhm, who knows what could happen.

At least right now, I can get away with wearing men's pants slightly big to fit over my hips and just belt them at either my waist - for better comfort - or where a male waist would normally be - for appearance sake. And baggy male shirts fit over me comfortably enough.

Also more commonly known by the inaccurate nickname of Mormons. Mormon was merely the prophet who compiled the records that became the "Book of Mormon". By our beliefs, that doesn't make him any more special than any other prophet. It's Christ we follow, and God we worship, same as any other Christian.

Well, technically, this is a very complicated issue in the church, and not blanket "evil" or "sinful". In my case, full SRS would be, since I don't feel as though, spiritually, I should be female.

Even if just because of body changes I do wind up in a position that gets me excommunicated, I'll still hold to my LDS faith, I'll just have to do so as a non-member and with no access to priesthood ordinances. In other words, I'll still live an LDS life, just without church attendance, since it'll be forbidden me. I won't simply attend a different church.

If something changes and I do start to feel as though I do in fact have a female spirit, the BCTS community will be the first to know, then my parents and bishop. At that point, there'd be no reason to try to conceal it, since it'll be far too obvious when I seek counseling and full transition.

Right now though, I'm pretty sure where I stand: an asexual guy with some mixed up wiring causing some behaviors to tend towards the femme and strange sexual fantasies when I sleep of being a woman. I also don't mind the feminizing of my body. I accept this situation fully as it stands, and hope that in spirit form after I leave this life I can be whole, whatever that really should be for me - which no one can really know in this life unless God chooses to tell me, and then, I'd be the only one in this life.