I wanted to thank everyone who has been praying for me and loving me and encouraging me. I found out that my doctor's practice is going to accept my insurance coverage without expecting my share of the cost of my testing. I will also be blessed with my counselor's sage advice and encouragement next week, as well as EEG Biofeedback, which is expected to significantly reduce my tremors and brand new speech problem...I do an excellent imitation of Jeff Goldbloom in Jurassic Park. I "came out" in a manner of speaking to my counselor yesterday. In our time together, I discussed how I had started writing fiction. She noticed a decided reduction in my tremors while I was discussing how much the people I had met on line had meant to me. You folks make a difference in my life, and for that I cannot thank you enough. I didn't explain what the fiction was about, but I promised and subsequently sent her an e-mail with an attachment of one of my stories as well as directing her here to see just what I've discovered about myself, along with my nom de plume so she could see who I am in part. Her return e-mail reminded me to breathe and that she was all about acceptance and encouragement and no judgment. What a blessing. I know that somehow, someway, someday, my wife will find it in her heart to learn to love Andrea, but for now, despite the lament I posted, while I remain sad, I do not despair without hope because you and others have given me hope. I found this quote, and it means a lot to me, since it exemplifies all that God has provided me through you precious friends. "As each day comes to us refreshed and anew, so does my gratitude renew itself daily. The breaking of the sun over the horizon is my grateful heart dawning upon a blessed world." ~Adabella Radici Thanks again 'drea