I really shouldn't be posting right now. I'm getting a head cold - at least I hope it's just a cold - and it's ridiculously late, but I've been putting off a "I'm okay" type thing too long.

First of all, I'm still alive. After gram's funeral, I slowed down a little, took a few months to reevaluate my life. I didn't come to any life-changing conclusions, but I did find what I was looking for: clues to the puzzle that is me. Ironically the biggest one came from watching a documentary on Sigmund Freud, and some of his theories on child psychology.

I won't get into all that here, but suffice to say, I feel comfortable, even at ease with what I've learned. I used to think Freud was just some crackpot who had an unhealthy obsession with sexual inuendo. Now I think the man was a genius.

My ten year class reunion was last week. I didn't go, but I did reconnect with some old friends with whom I didn't really part on the best of terms. At least, that's how I remember it. None of them remember the drama fest, so who am I to argue? I'm just glad they don't hate me :)

As far as writing, I've started kicking around a few new ideas. Those few of you who saw my previous attempt? Yeah, forget that dreck even existed. IF I do this, it's going to be a serious story with dark overtones. I love horror, gothic or otherwise. I can't fight my muse, so I may as well have fun with it ;)

Being the perfectionist that I am, I'm leaving that "if" as a big one, as always. To date I've started hundreds, if not thousands, of projects that I can never seem to finish, but I really like the idea I'm working with for this one, soooo ... we'll see.

One of the things my afforementioned friends commented on was being worried about something happening to me more than anything, and it reminded me that I haven't been by BigCloset in awhile. It's like someone once said; the internet is a lot like a gigantic revolving door. Anonymity allows us to come and go as we please, and we sometimes forget there's real flesh and blood behind the nicknames.

Well, to paraphrase one of my favorite anime characters, I think I'll go on being Zoe Taylor a little longer. ♥

Anyway, this thing's already too long, and I'm feeling a little lightheaded, so I'm going to try and get some sleep.

Take care everyone, and sorry in advance if anyone was worried about me. Other than this stupid cold, I'm okay.
~Zoe

Edit: Couple of quick formatting mistakes I missed on the preview. Going to bed now, honest!