I received the following message to day from Goldie's sister. I thought I would pass it on to you all.
Jerrie

Jerrie,
It took a while to find the story you mentioned. Goldie's filing system was really weird and it took forever to find it. I've attached it to this message. While I was trying to take care of everything in her computer, I came across a letter she had written to you a week and a half before she died. I thought I would add it to this message and let you get it that way.

Sue

Nov. 15, 2009

Dear Jerrie,
I wanted to thank you for being my friend all this time. Our conversations meant a lot to me and hopefully they did to you too. Thank you for your efforts to edit my work even when the time was presious to you otherwise. I tried to reciprocate to others the efforts you gave me. I am the worst judge of my own writings and you made it look so much better than I could make it on my own. I know you still feel bad about the mistakes you missed in the editing but no one is perfect, and i'm not one to complain. I feel bad abotu letting Paul Lell down in not finishing his story, Stiletto but I couldn't continue with it due to my time constraints and physical issues.

I'm sorry I never mentioned this before but I hope you understand why. But when my doctor told me that I had had congestive heart failure and that was causing all my tiredness, I didn't want to burden you or anyone else. The doctor could not tell me how long I had to live and I could care less. He wanted to put me on a transplant list but you know how hard it is to get an actual transplant when your insurance doesn't cover it adn you can't afford it. Oh well. I tried to live my life after my surgery as best as I could but things in the end just made me say, Thanks for the fun that I had. Hopefully this message will make it to you after I'm gone. I wish I could have finished The Greener Mile but the old muse refused to free up any information. Oh well, it won't be the first story to go unfinished. Tell everyone at the Crystal Hall and Topshelf i'll miss them but not to grieve. My life was good after I had my surgery even though I tried to play it up. My family never really agreed with me about my actions but my younger sister Sue never had a problem. I do regret never taking the time to meet you in person but my fears of discovery/abuse kept me from doing so. I was going to try to meet with Penny Cardon and Sephrena Miller but I couldn't go through with that either.

Take care my friend. I'll miss you.

Goldie