The doctors wanted me at the hospital early yesterday for a conference. Basically, they told me that it is unlikely that Jeanne is going to leave the hospital or even the ICU. She has numerous infections, she's unresponsive most of the time and she's bleeding internally somewhere again. They want to know what she would want done about resuscitation efforts and the like. I told them to give me a day or two to think.

I drove home in the rain, singing all the sad songs I've ever written.

This is still the dry season here, but for the second week in a row, the rain comes down steadily making the freeways slick and the drivers stupid. The radio said it's the wettest October in twenty years.

I believe it.

-- Joyce