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Assimilate This! (1 of 5: Mia)

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  • Laika

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  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

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  • Science Fiction

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  • Teenage or High School

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  • Bizarre Body Modifications

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It was my sixteenth birthday and all my dreams were coming true. We were in my uncle's spaceship, traveling at Warp 8.5 to the famous pleasure planet Risa, where I was scheduled for a miraculous makeover in a modified transporter that would make me a real girl at last!

The 24th Century was a wonderful time to be alive. Trans people like me were understood and supported, medical science had advanced to a point where changing your sex on a genetic level was possible; and all the wars, famines + bigotries that had plagued Mankind since the dawn of history were a thing of the past!

But the Universe was still a dangerous place. And unbeknownst to my two mothers and I every lightyear we traveled was bringing us closer to an unscheduled encounter with the greatest menace anyone in the United Federation of Planets had ever faced... The Borg!

ASSiMiLATE THiS!

A story in the STAR TREK universe
Laika Pupkino ~ 2023

PART OO1 - MIA

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000.000 DEBRIEFING

Another debriefing? Sure, if it helps. Especially if you say all you want is a summary. I've been away so long, and finally seeing Mother Earth down there every time I look out the window is making me anxious to beam down and get back to my life, to my family. Or what's left of it...

I didn't expect to spend a whole week up here getting scanned and questioned, but I do understand why you had to be so thorough. You had to make sure I'm safe and won't go running around assimilating people. Which I don't think I'd be able to do even I wanted to.

As the Enterprise was bringing the six of us home that nice Dr, Crusher did a surprisingly good job of getting me out of that damn rubber suit, removing as many of my implants as she could and deactivating the nanoprobes in my blood. Except the anti-graft rejection nanoprobes, those need to stay functioning for the rest of my life. But I know she could only do so much, and I'll never pass as completely human; Some of this hardware is in me too deep, too integrated with my biology. If you took it all out my head would probably fall off. I'm a bit of a Bride of Frankenstein even by Borg standards.

Although the whole head-swap thing wasn't actually the Collective's doing. That happened later, when we were struggling to survive on that planet. It was our resident mad scientist's best idea for bringing me back to life, and I'm actually pretty happy with it. The female body I'd always wanted, although not in the way I was hoping. A much cruder and more piecemeal version of the transformation my parents and I were on our way to have done when all this started. But I guess that's me now, Little Miss Piecemeal.

And I really can't complain. The Borg took everything from me but I got back the most important thing, the thing that if you don't have it nothing else means anything; or if it does mean something there's no one there to know it; like that tree falling in the forest everyone talks about.

After five years and eight months of being nobody and nothing I'm glad to be me again. Mia...
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001.000 MIA

001.001 Appointment on Risa

I don't know what the Stardate was when we set out on our trip, 45363 point something is about as close as I can guess. If I still had my internal chronometer I could work it out in a heartbeat but I'm glad to be rid of it. The less of this circuits and solenoids garbage I have in my body the better.

And I can tell you the exactly day it was by the Common Era calendar we still use here on Earth: May 11, 2368; A date I'd circled with a red heart on the old-fashioned plastic calendar I had hanging above my desk in my bedroom. A day that seemed like it would never get here as I waited to turn sixteen and be eligible for the procedure.

It would've been exciting just to be taking my first real space trip; not just to the Moon but into actual outer space; clear out of the Solar System and across all those light years to the Risian system. Risa is a lot of folk's favorite tourist destination---Christmas, honeymoons, hornymoons; and I hear it's a total zoo during Earth's spring break!---but for me going there meant so much more than just taking a vacation.

We could've booked passage on one of those Jamaharon Express flights that depart from Earth almost daily. But people go to Risa mostly to party and get laid, and a lot of Terrans have exaggerated notions about how much of an “anything goes” culture Risa actually has. The Risians are the most mellow people in the galaxy until you start acting like a total jerk, then you're on the next ship home without a refund. But too many people headed for Risa don't know this. They start pounding down the Risian Sunsets and hitting on the other passengers before the ship even goes to warp, because ir's Risa, where “everybody fucks everybody all the time and stays totally blitzed 24-365; So why not start now?”

Which can make the three day trip pretty annoying for anyone who's headed there for some other reason.

So my moms and I were glad we'd be traveling in our own ship. Or not our ship. It belonged to my Tio Ignacio, who's general manager for the Lancaster-Victorville Fabrication Hub, where they make hardware that's needed in space by just about everyone in the whole Federation. Yeah Uncle Iggy's our family's big shot, but he's just a big kid at heart, and when he learned where we were going and why he insisted we take his private ship; hugging all three of us over and over and saying, “I can't wait to meet my new niece when you get back!”

My uncle had already known me me as his niece for a third of my life---he threw me a big quinceañera for my birthday the year before---but I knew what he meant by his new niece. The next time I saw him I'd have a freshly made body that would be different in so many important ways.

While we did plan to take a quick beam-in from the Risian Transport Center to some of the planet's must-see scenic wonders, and to spend a day at that famous beach resort before heading home; our main destination was an ordinary looking hospital high in the forests on the southern continent, the Sexual Wellness Institute; where I had appointment in its gender medicine wing to be treated with a device called a body restructuring transmaterializer.

A BRT is basically like a transporter, except it doesn't beam you across space or even across the room. It converts your body into energy like a transporter, but while you're bouncing around in there without a body it rewrites the godzillions of bits of information that make up your 'pattern', a mathematical blueprint of everything you are and know; changing all your cell's chromosomes from XY to XX or vice versa, and reconfiguring your anatomy to one that's appropriate for your new sex. Of the handful of places that do that kind of restructuring they say Risa's the best. Their technique, the staff, and all the fun stuff you can do on their planet as long as you made the trip there anyway. Risa's not just for horny people, it's for families too.

This procedure could easily done on Earth, but since technically it's doing genetic engineering on people it's illegal here, because of- You know, that whole mess back in C-21 with the Eugenics Wars and that crazy asshole Khan Singh that still has ou planet afraid of “tinkering with Nature's handiwork”. But I think Nature must've been asleep on the job when was born a boy!

But at least this is one type of modification they'll let you travel off world to have done since it's not trying to make you into some superman, just an ordinary man or women who's comfortable in their own body. But they still check you out, map your new genome against your original one to make sure you didn't get yourself augmented somehow; kind of like the way your doctors here checked me out to see if I was dangerous. I guess that's one part of our original plan for fixing my dysphoria I got to experience...

Sixteen of our years old was Institute's minimum age for using the BRT on Earth people, but my birthday happened on our second day in space so I'd be old enough when we got there. I'd had my first name legally changed from Danny to Mia when I was ten and had been living as a girl ever since. And I'd seen all the doctors and counselors you need to see to have this procedure done. But the specialists at the Institute would evaluate me again when we got there, and could refuse to treat me if they weren't 100% convinced it was what I wanted and needed.

Everyone at the Wilshire Gender Clinic assured me there was zero chance I'd be refused. Their doctors weren't quacks with fake medical degrees on some dodgy little jerkwater planet, but were known and respected by the ones on Risa. And two minutes with the Institute's Betazoid counselor would show her that I hadn't been tricked or pressured into doing this; which is the Risian's other big concern. You can't bullshit a Betazoid. Their species has that emotional telepathy that can tell exactly how you feel, sometimes better than you can yourself. And the next morning I would lie down on the transporter bed, disappear, then be reassembled in the body I'd always known I should have.

Both of my moms, my Uncle, my friends from school; all of them were totally supportive and excited for me. Even my dad, living way the hell off on Setlik III heard about me getting this done and sent me his best wishes. But no one was more excited than I was!

What none of us could have guessed was that Mom, Nunu and I would never show up for my appointment, or that my journey to having a female body would be a lot stranger and darker than the one we'd started on.
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001.002 SPACEDOCK

On the morning of the 14th we caught an air cab to the Palos Verdes spaceport and then the ferry up to Earth Spacedock. We stopped for lunch at the replimat before heading out into the black, more for the gorgeous view of the planet below than for the cuisine, especially since the food materialized by the replicator on Uncle Iggy's ship was so much better; Being not-quite-legal reproductions of dishes created by some of the best chefs on Earth.

“How's the empanada, Nunu?”

“Okay, but not as good as your mama makes,” she said, smiling at her wife.

“How's yours, Mom?”

“I had a better slice of pizza on Nimbus III, where I think one of the toppings was rat...”

“Ewwwwww!”

When you have two parents of the same sex it can get a little confusing when you say “Hey Mom!” and they don't know which mom you mean; So we worked it out that I'd call my biological mother Carmencia by Mom; and would call Edi Zijaan, the woman she married Nunu, which is the affectionate short-form word for Mother on her home planet Trill.

“How's your corn dog, Mee?” asked Nunu. My name is Mia but they call me Mee, which means something in Trill. Pet, beloved, precious; something like that.

“It's a corn dog,” I said, wondering why I'd even ordered it.

Earth Spacedock's main hangar bay was enclosed but it wasn't pressurized, so it was basically just an unbelievably huge room full of outer space. Smaller vessles lined its walls while Starfleet's mammoth Galaxy Class Yamato floated untethered in the center. The Yamato was breathtaking sight, but I wouldn't have traded it or any of the other ships in here for my uncle's gorgeous little space yacht.

The City of Industry was wider than it was long; a streamlined configuration kind of like a giant boomerang that he called a “flying wing”. The bridge was located top, front and center inside a big teardrop-shaped view dome and there was a warp nacelle aat each of the big wing's ends. Uncle Iggy had said that in theory it should be able to enter a planet's atmosphere and land unpowered, like a 20th century space-shuttle; but he hoped he would never have to attempt it. We crossed the forcefield-protected open gangway to it, and as Mama punched the combination into airlock hatch's key pad she muttered, “Let's hope Iggy didn't leave us any booby traps...”

By booby traps she didn't mean anything dangerous, but her brother was quite a practical joker. Like the time he brought a piñata for my eighth birthday that he'd filled with red gagh, making us kids all scream when one managed to bust it open and the big hairy squirming blood-red worms came pouring out. Then he pretended to be surprised that we weren't all delighted with this alien delicacy.

“What's the matter, don't you like gagh?! Good Klingon food! Make you big strong warrior!” he said in some kind of cave-man accent, thumping his chest. But he did have candy for us all, he wasn't that mean!

And two years later when I came out as trans his birthday surprises lost any trace of grossness or teasing, and he had my mothers worried that he was spoiling me with extravagant gifts and events. Uncle Iggy and his wife had already raised three sons by then; but from the way he started treating me I think he'd always wanted a daughter, and it was like he'd finally hit the jackpot having a young relative he could treat like a princess.

I know none of this has anything to do with my time as one of the Borg, but it's important to me to remember who I was before that happened to me; which I'm still in the process of doing. And that's something you do need to know about the few of us who manage to return from being something so inhuman. It doesn't all come back at once.

The first thing we did when we got inside the City of Industry was turn the heaters on. Small ships get cold when they're powered most of the way down, and we hadn't brought along any heavy jackets or gloves on our trip to the climate-controlled tourist planet. When our breath didn't make little clouds anymore my Human mom sat down at the helm and began powering up all the rest of the ship's systems.

It had been a decade since she'd last flown those massive freighters that carried all the stuff her brother's company made to places all over Federation space and a bit beyond. But she'd kept her helmsman's license current, a Class 3 license that made Mom more than qualified to pilot a little private ship like this.

As Mom went through the pre-flight check I noticed a phaser of some kind sitting on the console off to the side of her. It didn't seem like the kind of thing my uncle would even own, much less leave just laying around. I picked it up. I didn't know much about particle guns but to me it looked cheaply made; the kind of weapon they call a "zap gun" and that you might procure from some skeezy-looking Orion in some alley in the bad part of town; only to have it blow up and take your arm off the first time you fired it!

“Be careful with that, Mee!” warned my Trill mom.

“Really, Nunu? I thought I'd start firing wildly at the bulkheads.”

“Don't be a smart ass,” she smirked, and took it from me. She looked the phaser over and went: “Uh oh...”

“What is it?” asked Mom as she adjusted some control or other.

“This doesn't have settings!”

One thing I did know was that if a phaser only had one setting there was no just stunning someone with it; it was permanently set to kill. Which made it an even stranger thing for Uncle Iggy to have.

“Then just put it away somewhere. In those cabinets back ther,” Mom said, and as her wife did this she spoke to the control panel, “Spacedock Control, this is the City of Industry. We're ready to depart. You have our course plan, right?”

“Sure do, Industry. You're clear to go,” said a male voice from the comm, and as the hangar bay's giant door opened he added wistfully, “Man, I wish I was goin' to Risa... Have fun!!”

Mom flew us smoothly through the opening, and when we were a safe 100,000 K from Earth we went to warp.
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001.003 Warp 8.5

The ship would be flying itself until we got to the Risian System, so Mom wouldn't be stuck sitting behind the controls for the whole trip, but just had to stay close enough to get back to them if a warning sounded. If she had to go take a shower or use the head one of us would stand watch, and hope we would know what to do if the ship's computer's voice alerted us to some danger. This wasn't too likely to occur; but if it did, you can bet that's when it would happen. In space all problems seem to come up when you're on the toilet.

This was how you did things when you only had one qualified pilot for a multi-day trip. There was a couch sitting in the bridge, a replica of an ugly old plaid pre-war thing from the late 20th or early 21st that my uncle loved for some reason. This was his bed when he flew solo somewhere, and would be Mom's bed for the next three days. Nunu and I would probably sleep in here too, dragging in mats and bedding so the three of us could treat the whole trip like one long slumber party. And if Nunu or I needed some alone time there were four cabins to chose from.

With the computer flying the ship we all sat down on the couch and watched the stars outside the big dome streak past like glowing white parallel lines. Traveling at warp was something I'd only done once before (Our vacation to Nix Olympus Planetary Monument, when Mars was clear on the other side of the Sun + getting there on impulse power would've taken all day...) and the sight had been utterly mesmerizing, even through a much smaller window at only Warp 2. It was just mind-boggling and a little scary to think that every time I blinked we were taking a thousand trips around the world.

Sitting snugly between two moms I felt like a mom sandwich. At home they usually sat together on the love seat but they were letting me know this trip was all about me. Each took one of my hands.

“Are you excited about getting your new body?” asked Mom.

“It's all I've been able to think about all week! I'm pretty sure I did crappy on that history test yesterday. Things I should of known. Things I did know, but not when I needed them.”

Nunu made a Pssshhhhh!! sound. “The day you get less than a B on a history test I'll eat my spots! I've looked in on you from the parents room down at the holo-arcade. While the other kids were battling demons with magic wands in Tales of the Sorcerer Knights, you were attending the second Continental Congress. The real one, not the version with the zombie attack. Or marching down Pennsylvania Avenue with Alice Paul and the National Women's Alliance giving Woodrow Wilson the finger...”

“My little Suffragette!” said my 'real' Mom proudly, like I'd actually done something.

When I was six years old my father had wanted our family to move to Setlik III. The settlement there needed civil engineers, and he'd needed a challenge- to help build infrastructure on that rocky windswept planet at the very edge of Federation territory. But Mom didn't think any planet that close to those warlike Cardassians was a safe place to raise a kid, and after a couple of bad fights about it she told him to go follow his dream---no hard feelings---but we were staying here; And when I was seven he did.

Shortly after that Mom met and fell madly in love with a beautiful Trill woman, and they got married fairly quickly. My father had been a reasonably good dad, and I knew he loved me, but my new mom really seemed to understand me. We were the same in so many ways, and she was so much fun!

My moms both laughed when I took a printer-pen and painted two rows of spots all the way down my body from my temples to my feet; and they let me go to school that day as a Trill girl, in the cute party dress I had fallen in love with when I saw it in a shop's window and wore around the house sometimes. M y three best friends at school---Dawn, Hanami and a really cute Orion girl named Givvi---were delighted, and said I made an adorable girl!

As I was turning ten I had a huge revelation: That my “I feel like a girl sometimes” thing was actually a “Who I was, period!” thing, and my name was Mia.

“You know it's okay to just be a feminine boy, right?” said Mama when I told her about this.

“I know it is,” I told her, “But I'm not a feminine boy. I'm a girl.”

She still had doubts though, wondering if I only thought I had to be a girl because the whole rest of our household and most of Mom and Nunu's friends were females. Probably something she had read could happen in one of those ebooks she had about single-sex parenting. But my Nunu believed in my ability to be the best judge of who I actually was pretty immediately. At least about something that came from as deep inside a person as gender identity did. We'd had an amazing rapport right from the start, and I think she had seen this coming.

If you only know one thing about the people on planet Trill (aside from the fact that they look mostly human but have those spots) it's that they have a symbiotic relationship with another sentient species, these eyeless sluglike thing the size of a baguette that live in underground lakes on their world. When a Trill is selected to be “joined”, the “symbiont” is placed inside their abdomen and lives there for the rest of the humanoid's life, if it's ever removed both of them die. The host and the symbiont have a mental link, and the slug's first host's mind is influenced in subtle ways by the symbiont's consciousness.

It's when the symbiont's host dies that things get interesting. The slug-creatures can survive if it's quickly placed inside another Trill. And suddenly the new host remembers the whole life of the symbiont's previous host. They say it can be disorienting for a male Trill to suddenly remember what it's like to have a baby. The new host also takes on abilities, tastes and personality traits from the previous host, becoming a slightly different person. Each of the symbiont's new hosts remembers more and more previous lives. It's a way for Trills to live on a thousand years or so past death, or sort of. ..

If you only know two things about Trills, the second is probably that there are a lot of Trills and very few symbionts, enough for about 1% of the people on Trill. It's a status they consider a sacred honor, and every Trill dreams of the day when they might be chosen to become joined.

Every Trill except my Nunu, that is. She'd never had the slightest desire to be joined with a symbiont, and in fact found the whole idea deeply repugnant.

“I like being who I am,” she told me when I asked her about it, “One life is enough for me to figure out. Who I am and a how to become a better person. I don't need a bunch of dead people being backseat drivers in my head; telling me what I feel, what I like or don't like, what I think!"

Nunu took her personal credo from one of those long fancy speeches in Hamlet: This above all: To thine own self be true. I'm sure this philosophy had a lot to do with how quick she was to support me in wanting to be true to my girl self.

“As you go through life a lot of people will try to tell you who and what you should be. And there are things you should at least listen to someone's advice about, and think it over; if that someone has earned your trust. But even your Mama and I don't get to tell you that. Nobody gets to decide who you are but you!”

[Which made what would happen to us the next day ironic on top of all the other ways it was horrible. In twenty four hours none of us would have a self to be true to...]

But it didn't take my Human mom long to trust that I knew what I was talking about, especially after a real professional counselor who specialized in adolescent gender issues backed up what Nunu and I were saying. Because it's not like she was against me being a girl for some weird moral reason, like people used to have back in the Dark Ages when being gay or transgender was considered a mental illness and having homophobia or transphobia wasn't.

And I guess some people think like that even today; on those miserable religious-colony planets that have cut themselves off from the rest of this sinful, wicked galaxy and have all kinds of weird barbaric laws. Anyone like me or like my moms who's living there must be going through Hell. I know the Prime Directive has to be what it is but sometimes I wish Starfleet would make an exception, go into these places and start kicking ass and taking names if they're abusing people.
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001.004 Sulok

After a dinner from the replicator of copyright-protected meals by famous chefs---starting with Greek salad and ending with a desert of Thai sticky rice and mangoes---we were in the mood for some holographic entertainment. Iggy's ship did have a holosuite (more like a holo-broom closet) but none of us felt like running around in some imaginary place interacting with imaginary people and having to figure out what to do next. Sometimes you just want to sit on the couch and watch something made by a good director, with a music score and better actors than just you and your goofy friends in there playing King Arthur or Zephram Cochran. And that's why good old fashioned holofilms hadn't died out as an art form like they were predicting would happen when holosuites became a thing. Watching 3-D scenes projected into the air in front of you is something people will be doing for a while.

Iggy had the bridge set up so he could watch holoflickers from this couch and keep one eye on the helm. We had the computer dim the lights and put on a flicker that my moms and I had been meaning to see but none of us had yet in the nine months since it came out. This one seemed appropriate with where we were going; Rendezvous on Risa, the holofilm that seemed like it would be the last one created by the beautiful young Vulcan actress Sulok.

People on Earth loved Sulok as much as the Vulcans hated her; Although they'd never admit to something as blatantly emotional as hating someone. But they definitely denounced her---in strictly logical terms---for her rejecting her culture's values and embracing emotions, then moving to Earth and becoming a writer, director and star of four holofilms in that most un-Vulcan of all genres of fiction, the comedy.

To the Vulcans everything from her fashion sense to her Holo-wood lifestyle seemed like a great big slap in the face; even though she was never one of those "dangerous radicals" who wanted to change Vulcan society and liked to go giggling through the streets as a form of protest. She'd merely done what she needed to when she realized she would never fit in there; Finding a world where she could be happy and try to make other people happy with her art.

Watching her first flicker I'd had a 13-year-old's crush on the gorgeous twenty-something starlet, and a 14-year old's when I watched her second. But her third production was my favorite, because instead of playing opposite a male romantic lead like the first two her third was a lesbian Rom-Com, and when she kissed the girl I dreamed she was kissing me.

As her comedy recorded on Risa began my 16-year-old's crush was in full bloom...

“You like her, don't you?” teased the mom on my left.

“I love her,” I admitted, “She's amazing!”

But then didn't everyone? Me, both my moms, Uncle Ignacio, the critics; and she had fan clubs on some of the most unlikely planets. Even Qo'noS; where her flickers were banned for some reason. And here on Earth, the way she saw our world with fresh eyes and that SMILE she faced life and its challenges with made us remember to appreciate what we had here- our lives, our loves, our freedoms; all the things we valued.

Rendezvous on Risa had Sulok's character arriving on Risa for an archeological symposium, where---thanks to some magical artifact no one knew was magic---love was in the air, and she found herself suddenly torn between falling in love with a charming Bolian male, a cute soft-butch half Human/half Klingon female, and a person from that androgynous race the J'naii, who suspected that they had a gender but couldn't decide which it was.

In the final act the holoflick got kind of weird, ending more like an art flicker than a rom-com. She didn't chose any of her three suitors and seemed conflicted about her life in general. She went for a late night walk on a lonely stretch of beach under the Risian moons, where she met a Medusan- those energy creatures that live in a containment chamber and are supposedly so hideously weird looking that anyone who looks inside their levitating box will instantly go crazy and never get sane again.

Sulok and the Medusan got to talking, and you could tell they were falling in love. She asked the Medusan if she could see what it looked like, but it didn't want to drive her insane. She talked it into it, opened the cover on its container and peered inside, and we saw what she saw. I assume it was special effects but swirling in the air on City of Industry's bridge it was both totally abstract and pretty damn disturbing; until the swirling chaos of the fake Medusan began to change, and somehow became incredibly beautiful, like a hundred rainbows of pure goodness and joy all making love together! And we heard Sulok's voice say “Oh wow... You're beautiful!” and right then the story ended.

“What the Hell was THAT?!!” cried my Earth mom. She thought this was the most weird, stupid, pointless, out-of-left-field ending it could have had, and that it wrecked an otherwise charming flicker.

And my Trill mom just said, “I'll have to think about this one...”

But this ending moved me in some way I couldn't explain and I thought it was a pretty good holo all around, but not as good as her lesbian one. And it seemed like a shame that this would probably be her last venture into holofilm making.

Right after completing Rendezvous on Risa Sulok posted a message saying she needed to get away for a few days to think about some stuff, and then vanished.- A few days turned into a few weeks and by now it had been nearly a year since anyone had heard from her. There were all kinds of crazy rumors and theories. One said she'd reconciled with her people's culture and was at a monastery on Vulcan, and another claimed that the Vulcan government had assassinated her; and some were just plain silly; but no one had a single shred of evidence to back these theories up...

And as our talk turned to the missing Vulcan star I speculated, “I wonder if she'd been planning it a while; and the reason this flicker ended like this is it's a clue she was trying to give us...”

“That's it, she ran off with a Medusan!” said Mom, and she and Nunu busted up at her joke.

“No, not that!” I said, “But maybe it was like... symbolism. About finding beauty in something most people are afraid of. Or maybe she's saying she was sick of her life and wanted to disappear, and got a job as a waitress some little town where nobody will find her. Or- Oh hell I don't know!”

“Maybe,” admitted Mom, “Her just dropping out is more plausible than these articles talking about time travel or evil alternate universes. I swear, they'll publish any old crap these days!”

But of all the weird theories circulating the one I never heard mentioned seems so obvious now. The same reason billions of other from all over the galaxy have disappeared. Maybe the notion that such a beautiful, lively intelligent young holo-star was now shambling around a Borg ship without the slightest glimmer of individual awareness inside her was just too ghastly for anyone to want to think. It might be fun to spin wild theories about Unit 31 or parallel timelines since there's mystery and glamour in those; but being assimilated by the Borg is about as mysterious or glamorous as hitting your head, landing face first in the toilet and drowning.

Before bedding down for the night I took a nice long bath, grateful that my uncle had splurged on a real sit-down tub and plenty of hot water for his ship instead of just the usual sonic shower. People say they're relaxing but I hate everything about those things, and the fact that sonic showers is all they have on those big fancy ships like the Yamato or the Enterprise is probably the main reason a career in Star Fleet never appealed to me.

As I toweled myself dry I looked at myself in the full-length mirror and wondered what my new body would look like. Probably not that much different than the one I had now except it would be curvier where this one was flat and flatter down where it needed to be.

My face probably wouldn't be too different either. I know it's what's on the inside that counts, but I always liked it when girls at school said I made a pretty girl. I was lucky that I'd inherited my mother's delicate features, her cute nose and straight raven black hair; and not my dad's wide squashy nose, big square jaw, his ginger-ish hair and complexion. He wasn't ugly, but no one ever assumed he was female and I'm sure he was glad of that

But my wanting this genetic makeover on Risa had never really been about how I looked so much as needing to be a female in every way I could, inside and out. And I'd always had this sort of ache inside me to be a mom myself someday, and I was happy that it would soon be possible; although if and when I did it wouldn't be until some time after college at the soonest.

I slipped into the favorite nightie I'd brought along, white lace and very pretty but not some skimpy little thing designed for showing off your curves, which this scrawny androgynous body of mine didn't really have. I dragged a mattress and blankets in from one of the cabins, while my moms grabbed the bigger one from the captain's stateroom.

Our “slumber party” on our first night in space wasn't quite the giggly all-night gabfest I'd assumed it would be. Me and both of them were all fairly talked out and sleepy and didn't really say much more than good night. There would be time for giggling tomorrow.

I lie there watching the hypnotic sight of the stars streaking past at many times faster than lightspeed. It put me right to sleep. My last thought before I conked out was I could get used to a sight like this. Maybe those sonic showers that Starfleet ships or the commercial freighters had wouldn't be so unendurable after all...
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001.005 Grace

I slept soundly all night and woke up sort of wondering about my day at school, until I opened my eyes and saw the stars warping past us around the bridge's dome and knew this wouldn't be a school day for me. Then I remembered it was my birthday, and where we were going, and why. And I smiled.

Mom and Nunu's mattress and bedding were rolled up and leaning against the bulkhead. Nunu was sitting on the couch in her jammies reading something on her PADD. She glanced up, “Ah, you're awake. Good morning, Sweet Sixteen! Breakfast will be ready in a half hour.”

“A half hour? What takes a half hour to replicate?”

“You'll see,” she said, and held up her PADD, “Your uncle left a message saying he has a whole day planned for us in the holo-room since he couldn't be here today. You know how he is about your birthdays and all the Earth holidays. But today is your day and we don't have to if you don't want to.”

“No, it sounds fine. What's the program?”

“It doesn't say, Mee. Just 'American Fun, 1963' and that it's six to eight hours long.”

The only event from American history I knew for sure was in 1963 was what happened in Dallas that year. Uncle Iggy might have some weird notions of fun but it wouldn't be that weird! Maybe we'd be watching one of those old chemical reaction rockets get launched from that first spaceport in Florida, which they must've been doing in 1963 if we got to the Moon by 1969. That would be fun.

A voice called out from the dining nook. “Come and get it!”

The little table was set with three real china plates, each of which held two eggs cooked sunny side up, frijoles refritos sprinkled with cheese, a spoonful of chile verde, a big warm tortilla with actual scorch marks, a few slices of avo and some salsa ranchera. Good old North American comfort food.

“What restaurant's this from?” I asked.

“Velasco's in Santa Monica,” said Mom.

“You cooked this? But how?”

She slid a big hatch in the wall open to reveal a little refrigerator and an oven with four burners on top that I never knew were there. As she pulled her chair out and sat down she said, “I can cook.”

I stabbed some eggs and chunk of pork with my fork, ran it through the refritos and popped it into my mouth. I swallowed it and said with a big grin,“I guess so!”

Mom cleared her throat like I'd done something wrong. I looked over and saw she had her hands clasped together.

“You're kidding!” I said. This really was an old-fashioned breakfast.

“My cooking, my rules,” said Mom, and after Nunu and I put our hands together she addressed the stars dopplering past overhead, “Heavenly Father, we thank you for this meal, for this spaceship and for bringing us together as a family. We ask you to keep us safe on this journey, and bless and guide our beautiful daughter on her journey to being complete, and all our days ahead. Amen.”

It was odd that Mama had insisted on saying Grace, which we'd only ever done when we had meals with my Abuela, who wasn't a Quantum Catholic or Church of Christ, Metaphorical but the real deal. And now years later I'm wondering if my mother hadn't somehow sensed that we were in danger and in need of divine protection. If she did I guess we were just too far out in space for God to hear.

We finished our huevos rancheros and as we all headed for the holosuit I realized there'd be nobody to keep an eye on the helm and asked, “So how are we gonna do this, in shifts?”

“We'll be okay in this stretch of space,” said Mom, “The ship will alert us if anything goes wrong, and even in 1963 I 'll still only be thirty paces from the controls.”

I realized I was still dressed in my nightie and said. “I better go put on some clothes.”

“Why?! she laughed, and with a nod in her wife's direction said, “If those NPC's in there won't notice she's an alien they're not gonna care if we're in our pajamas.”
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001.006 A Fistful of Ignacio

Nunu told the holosuite what program to play and we stepped into a whole simulated world. The ground was flat and covered in that black stuff they used to make roads out of--covered with neat rows of automobiles slotted between painted white stripes--that stretched off as far as the eye could see under a beautiful blue summer sky. The ground vehicles of 1963 were all big bulbous whimsical looking things. A lot of them were painted two different colors, a few looked like they were partly made of wood, and they all had what looked like weird shiny metal mouths on the front of them, sparkling and gleaming under the bright summer sky.

I said, “Wow, these are GREAT! Can we drive one?”

“You might find one with the keys in it, but then you'd probably get arrested,” said a familiar voice from behind us.

I turned around and there was Uncle Ignacio, dressed in a bright blue shirt with pink hibiscuses on it, goofy looking plaid shorts, and sandals with socks. I threw my arms around him and hugged him tight. He hugged me back, saying, “I'm not really here, remember? But thank you anyway, Sobrinita.”

“Oh right,” I said, realizing I wasn't really hugging anyone, and let go.

“Sorry I couldn't get the time off to be here or I would've flown you all to Risa myself.”

“That's okay,” I told him, “So where are we?”

“This is a place where people went for fun in 1963 called an amusement park.. And this is just the parking lot,” he said, “the fun starts over there!”

I turned, and there at the end of a parking field was a building that was supposed to be a bunch of buildings, like a shining green metal city. Of course everything in here was fake, but the city-building was supposed to look fake or he would have done a better job with the trick perspective and the smaller buildings toward the top would have actually looked farther away instead of obviously just being built smaller. Between the outermost tall green towers at each end was a huge sign that arched over the whole fake city, with cutesy green neon lettering on it spelling out: MIA LAND.

“Wow,” I said.

“And that's just the entrance, wait'll you see the rides! But here comes your tram, so...”

“Tram?” I asked the space where he'd just disappeared from.

A thing like a gasoline-powered fiberglass Chinese dragon pulled up alongside of us. Its seats were full of holo-characters in period clothing. The driver, who was Uncle Iggy in a clean white Mia-Land uniform said to hop on, and it took us to the green metal castle-thing, where the the lady selling tickets---who was also my uncle minus his mustache and goatee---told us we were already paid for and to go on in.

Which was a good thing, because I'd only ever seen money in a museum.

“Remember to stick close together,” said Mama as we headed for the entrance, not because of any danger here but because if any of us got more than a few meters apart one of us would bump into one of the holosuite's walls, which were invisible to us but very hard.

We hopped on the shiny gold moving sidewalk like everyone else was doing, and it carried us into the simulated city, past a scene where a bunch of fake looking robot Ferengis and a much larger fake robot human girl in red shoes were dancing around singing about a dead witch.

“What's with the Ferengis?” I asked.

Mom laughed. “Those aren't Ferengis. 1963, remember? Those are Elves.”

The golden sidewalk took us past some pretty rainbow fountains and a bunch of other scenes with more singing and dancing robots that didn't make much sense either, to the far end of the building where where the moving sidewalk ended, where all the rides all were, hundreds of them extending forever to our left and right, but not as far in front of us because they were on a big wide pier sticking out a kilometer or so into whatever ocean that was supposed to be out beyond it.

One thing we didn't have to do was stand in line for the rides like everyone else was doing. They all treated me and my moms like royalty and insisted that we go on ahead of them. But it didn't take long for the way all these strangers were going “Yay! It's Mia!!!” and wishing me a happy birthday started to feel kinda creepy.

“We've got to stop meeting like this,” said the Uncle Iggy in lederhosen who helped us into the little bobsled-shaped car of the first ride we got on, a sort of roller coaster that zoomed around and through a big fake plaster mountain.

This was what people did before they had holorooms. they actually built their fantasy worlds. We rode a simulated parachuting experience that dropped us on a wire from a high tower, then rode the “Jetsons” ride that was supposed to show the twentieth century people what the future would be like, but from the way the other guests were laughing I think they knew it was pretty inaccurate. We traveled deep under the ocean on the “Irwin Allen's Voyage to the Bottom of the Sea” ride, then rode another submarine ride called “Fantastic Voyage” that was just bizarre, because our little three-woman glass sub had supposedly been miniaturized and was taking us on a tour through a human body! Each ride was bigger, wilder and more imaginative than the last; and my moms and I agreed that Uncle Iggy had really outdone himself with this program...

While out beyond the walls of this little holographic fantasy land the City of Industry was wandering farther and farther off course, and for reasons I will never know the ship's computer failed to notify us of this.

What finally made us leave the holographic amusement park was hunger. None of the food that was for sale everywhere in here was actually edible; so we decided to halt the program, go eat and have my birthday party then come back and see the rest of Mia-Land later.

A clown in a rainbow wig who was selling balloons with my picture on them overheard us and said, “Be sure to come back tonight for the fireworks and the Princess Parade!”

”There's a princess parade?” I asked.

“You're in it, Mee. On the Big Float!”

I remembered something I'd been wondering about since yesterday and asked him. “Hey what was the deal with that phaser that way laying on the helm controls?”

“A phaser?! On my ship? I have no idea! You'll have to ask the real me,” said Iggy the Clown.

Then we saved and exited the program, revealing the tiny empty room with grid-patterned gray and white walls we'd been in the whole time.

“I love my brother, but I think I'd go crazy if I kept having to see him everywhere like that!” said Mom.
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001.007 THE LAST BIRTHDAY PARTY

We had Indonesian for lunch, then following the instructions on her PADD Nunu told the replicator to make us “Mia's Sweet Sixteen Cake.”

It somehow materialized with sixteen already-lit candles on top. My moms brought it over to the table singing the song, I did the wish thing and we dug in. It was a white chocolate mango ice cream cake from some bakery in Seattle, and it instantly became my favorite kind of cake! (I'm having some at that bakery later today when I beam down to Earth from here; if they'll serve someone who looks as much like a Borg as I do...)

I didn't get boxes and boxes of presents but the two envelopes I got were exactly what I needed. Uncle Iggy gave me a bunch of downloadable replicator patterns (probably one of his “fell off a truck” acquisitions, whatever that means...) for clothes I could have our machine at home make when we got back from our trip and I knew my new sizes for sure. And from my mothers I got gift cards for a clothing botique and a jewelry store on Risa.

Then I saw the cash amounts the cards were for, “That's a lot of zeroes. Are you sure we can afford that?”

Mom laughed. “Where else are we going to spend it but on a planet that uses money? Don't worry about it, Sweetie!”

“We'll then thank you so much,” I said, and hugged them both. And where did they even get money??? If I live to be 150 I'll never understand 24th Century economics...
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001.008 Anomaly

My moms and I planned to go back to the holochamber for the rest of the amusement park program but we were feeling stuffed and sluggish after one too many slices of rich ice cream cake and all wound up back on the couch, listening to an old pre-War Earth musician Nunu liked named Miles Davis, who could make his trumpet sing like an angel.

As I sat gazing at the stars out beyond the view dome, stretched into blazing white lines by the warp effect I saw something strange. One of the lines was a whole lot fatter than all the others. It was pastel pink and blue instead of white, and not quite as bright. I squinted to make sense of what I was seeing. “What is THAT?!??”

“I think that's what a nebula looks like when you're moving at warp.” Nunu said; then asked her wife, who had logged a lot more days and weeks in space than she had, “Isn't that a nebula?”

Mom gawked at it. “It sure is, but I don't know how it got there! There shouldn't be any nebulae that close by on this course we're taking.'

“Maybe it's a new one. Not on the charts,” I said. It didn't happen that often but sometimes they had to update the maps because an aging star had blown up and become a nebula.

“Then it wouldn't be that big. It takes years for them to spread out that far,” said Mom, who I guess could tell how big it was even when it looked like this. She asked the ship, “Computer, what are the City of Industry's current coordinates?”

“Unknown,” replied the ship's female voice flatly.

“What the f-” Mom lept off the couch like we were in Moon gravity, rushed over to the pilot's seat and started hitting buttons. The stars outside shrank from lines to points of light and came to a stop.

Now I could see the dead star off our port bow in its true shape. I had never seen one with my own eyes before. A glowing pink and blue cloud in space bigger than a solar system, it was shaped like a butterfly and astonishingly beautiful, but I wasn't enjoying the sight. Something was seriously wrong here.

Mom scowled at the console's star map display, muttering, “Coordinates unknown?! We're only two days from Earth, we have to be somewhere the stupid thing would know!”

“Maybe the new nebula has it confused,” suggested Nunu,

“It's not a new nebula!” snapped Mom. She was clearly worried. She said, “Computer, run a diagnostic on-”

Suddenly the bridge was flooded with an eerie light as an enormous jagged hole opened up in space, with ugly whorls of black and purple energy churning inside of it. There was something unwholesome about it that reminded me of the special effects in that Sulok flicker we'd seen, the part where it was showing what a Medusan supposedly looked like. But I doubted if this angry wound full of surging and spasming energy and lightning hitting itself was going to become beautiful all of a sudden.

“Okay that's not normal,” said Nunu, “Some kind of wormhole?”

Mom said, “If it is it's not a natural one.”

“Then could it be one of those artificial ones the Zonn left behind?” asked Nunu. The Zonn Empire was a half-mythical civilization that had conquered half the galaxy and then disappeared long before Humans or Trills had even evolved. The legends described a race that was as wondrously technically advanced as they were ruthless and cruel, making whole worlds just vanish for minor infractions of their rules.

“Except no one but the Zonn ever figured out how to open those wormholes,” said Mom and began backing our ship away from the opening, “I don't know what that thing is. Unless it's a transwarp conduit.”

“Let's hope not!” gasped Nunu, “Let's hope the Zonn are back!”

“Why?” I asked. (What could be worse than the Zonn?!!)

“That's why!” said Mom as something came creeping out of the hole at impulse speed.

Something impossible huge, and square, and black. The gigantic vessel moved silently in the vacuum of space, but if this was a holoflicker deep ominous sinister music would be thundering.

It was the Borg.
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End of Part O01. NEXT: Assimilated

Any comments will make me deliriously happy!
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THE AFTER-THE CLOSING-CREDITS THINGY:
(Deleted scene)

I fell asleep and dreamed that I was serving on a Federation vessel, a big exploration ship, but this was back in the past during that brief period about a century ago when the top ranks of Star Fleet had been infiltrated by a secret cabal of lecherous old men who made all the women in the fleet wear dresses so short that their panties were always at risk of showing. But I was female now and had the legs and the boobs to pull off such an outfit, and unprofessional as this outfit was I liked how I looked in it. And I was having fun flirting with a cute blonde yeoman named Rand; probably more confident and forward than I would be when I was awake.

Our ship was on a humanitarian mission, carrying thousands of tons of grain to some starving planet. Which seems weird because they've always had freighters for that, but dreams never make any sense.

And there were tribbles everywhere.

Assimilate This! (2 of 5: Borg)

Author: 

  • Laika

Caution: 

  • CAUTION: Referenced / Discussed Suicide

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Serial Chapter

Genre: 

  • Science Fiction

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Elements: 

  • Turned into an Object

Other Keywords: 

  • CAUTION- IDENTITY DEATH (But she gets better)

Permission: 

  • Fan-Fiction, poster's responsibility

The moment that tractor beam hit our little ship we knew our fate was sealed. My moms and I had been abducted by the most feared beings in the galaxy, merciless creatures who saw us as nothing more than raw materials for their quest to turn everybody, everywhere into what they were. The drones ignored my screams as they replaced my left eye with a more efficient visual apparatus, then replaced other parts of me with tools suited to the tasks I had been assigned to perform. Wires snaked into my brain, and when my mind was linked to the collective I wasn't me anymore. I was no longer anyone.

But I'll say one thing for being turned into a Borg, it did eliminate my gender dysphoria for more than 5½ years. When you're nothing but a component with the designation 13-of-13 gender identity is irrelevant...

ASSiMiLATE ThiS!

A story in the STAR TREK universe
Laika Pupkino ~ 2023

PART OO2 – WE ARE BORG

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My wonderful 16th birthday party in space had seriously turned to crap. In the middle of ice cream and cake we'd discovered that our little yacht was off course and our ship's computer couldn't even tell us where we were.

Then a transwarp conduit opened in front of us and an enormous Borg cubeship came lumbering out of it.

So now instead of arriving at the planet Risa for our appointment at the clinic where my doctors were supposed to turn me into the pretty girl I'd always wanted to be it seemed I was going to be assimilated by the Borg and turned into a clunky grey-skinned thingamazoid out of any sane person's worst nightmares!

There was only one thing we could do to avoid such a horrible fate, and it was absolutely horrible too...

Happy Birthday, Mia Velasco.

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002.000 BORG
002.001 TRACTOR BEAM
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As the conduit closed behind the mammoth ship my mother started powering down our ship's systems.

Nunu screamed at her, “Are you CRAZY?! We need to get out of here!!”

“Running is the worst thing we could do,” said Mom, “It would get their attention. They say that when a Borg cube is on its way somewhere it won't even notice you if you're in a ship this small and you just power down and hold still.”

But this cube definitely noticed us. It came right up to us, stopping so close that just a small portion of one of its sides filled our whole field of view. An ugly black wall of metal plating, bolts, hatches, catwalks, vents, pipes, knobs, rung ladders, conveyor systems that seemed to go nowhere, electrical transformers and sensors that made it look more like some factory or refinery from back during the Industrial Revolution than a modern day spaceship belonging to a race that had absorbed the knowledge of a thousand spacefaring civilizations.

With no geniuses or innovators to lead them and a cross-averaged collective IQ of 100, the giant mishmosh of individuals and species that the Borg has become is actually less than the sum of its parts. All their super-advanced technology was someone else's idea, and they tend to use it badly. And thank God for that! It's the only reason the Federation has been able to defeat them so far.

As we sat there holding our breath and hoping they would move on the whole bridge was flooded with an almost blinding green light. It only lasted a second.

Mom said, “They just scanned us, but don't panic. Now that they know it's just us they'll probably decide three people aren't even worth the bother.”

But for some reason they decided we were worth the bother. What they didn't feel was worth bothering to do was announcing themselves to us- that chorus of a million voices telling us they were the Borg, that they would add our biological and technological distinctiveness to their own, and all that. They only give you the “Be reasonable and give up” speech if they think your resistance actually might inconvenience them slightly. But with us they skipped the introductions and the explanations and went right to the assimilating, figuring once we were linked to the Collective we'd know all they needed us to know.

A tractor beam lanced out, locked onto our ship, and began dragging us toward where a hanger bay door was opening.

“Can we break free by going to warp?” asked my Trill mom.

“Not with a beam this powerful. It would tear us apart,” said my Human mom, and after a long pause she told her, “You know what we have to do.”

Nunu nodded glumly and asked, “How?”

“Warp core breach. At least it will give them an owee. Let them know they messed with the wrong ship.”

“You're gonna KILL us?!” I asked. It came out as a terrified shriek.

“If they get hold of us there won't be any us, Mee. It's the same either way.”

We all like to fantasize that we'd be brave in a situation like this. Then it happens, and you realize you're about to die when just minutes ago you were laughing and eating birthday cake and everything was fine; and you aren't at all prepared for the horrible violence and then eternal nothingness you see barreling down on you! And that hero's fatalism you imagined yourself having---facing death with some perfect little quip---is not only nowhere to be found, you don't even think to go look for it. You feel like you're falling and falling through space, yet somehow also numb- not quite attached to that person you hear whimpering and blubbering, “Oh Mom... Noooo! Please?!”

“Don't make this any harder, Mee-Mee!” Mom begged me, then asked, “How long should I set it for? A hundred and twenty?”

Nunu judged our distance from the approaching cube. “About that.”

“Computer, commence Iggy's Boom Boom Sequence. Two minute countdown.”

“Enter Authorization Code,” said the computer.

“Shit,” muttered Mom. She didn't know it. So there went the antimatter option.
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002.002 The Zap Gun

“Open the airlock?” suggested Nunu.

“It's idiot-proofed,” said Mama, “New regulations, new sensors in there. You have to be docked-and-locked or totally zipped before it'll even open, and getting suited in those old Starfleet surplus things of Iggy's takes minutes.”

Minutes we didn't have. We were halfway to the cube's big open door. Inside I could see several ships the size of ours that they'd captured, piled haphazardly on the deck like trash.

“I'm afraid this will have to be messy,” said Mom. “Find something, anything! And hurry!”

“The kitchen!” said Nunu, and headed for the galley.

“But maybe they'll let us go!” I whined, desperate to believe this could go some other way.

Mama put her arms around me and kissed my forehead, “I'm so, so sorry Baby, but it's got to be like this. They won't just turn us into them. After they do we'll be turning other people into Borg too. and you'll be glad to do it. Your uncle, your friends at school, that little Orion girfriend of yours; you'll look right at them and they won't mean a thing to you but how the Borg can use them.”

Givvi wasn't my girlfriend but I loved her like a sister, and I pictured myself being like that and doing that to her, feeling nothing the whole time...

Mom and Nunu were right. My dream of having a body that matched my real self was ending before it even started. But there really were fates worse than death. What the Borg took from you was so much more than just your life.

She hugged me, saying I was the best thing that ever happened to her, and kept repeating how sorry she was. We didn't even notice Nunu approach us until she said: “I just remembered we had this.”

She had returned not with a big knife from the kitchen but with the cheap little zap gun I'd found yesterday, which she'd stashed in the cabinets just three meters away. She handed it to Mom, saying, “I can't...”

“It's all right, Love,” Mom told her softly. Nunu was always the tender-hearted one.

I pushed free of Mom's embrace, took one last look at my two wonderful parents and nodded that I was ready. I said, “Do me first. I don't wanna watch you die. Please?”

Not a hero's bravery; just barely brave enough that I didn't try to run away and hide. And the sooner I didn't have to stand here being even this amount of brave the better. I scrunched my eyes shut tight. “Just do it!”

I waited for it, the blast of pain then no anything forever. But it seemed to be taking so long I started to wonder if time was stretching out in front of me like it did for the condemned man in a story we read in my North American literature class; I don't think it was by Edgar Allen Poe but it was from around that time and it was his type of story. It started with the guy standing on a bridge over a river with a noose around his neck; and the whole rest of the story about how the rope broke and he got his hands untied and swam away dodging bullets and managed to run almost all the way home with the Yankees and their bloodhounds chasing him... was just a daydream he had in the split-second before the rope snapped his neck.

But I wasn't getting some “Here comes the Cavalry with all new Borg-fighting weapons!!” rescue-fantasy, just more afraid than I'd ever been in my life! And after another long second or two I unscrunched my eyes just enough to take a peek...

Mom wasn't aiming the little gun at me but had it lying in her palm, and was sort of weighing it.

“This seems awful damn light for a phaser, the power pack alone should weigh more than this. Is this thing even real?” she asked, then pointed it at the holo-projector and fired.

Instead of a beam of energy a pencil-sized plastic rod slid out of the end. A little square flag unfurled from the rod. It had a word printed on it:

ZAP!

My uncle the practical joker had struck again.
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002.003 SUICIDE RUN

We were inside the Borg cube now. The tractor beam set us down on the deck of the hangar bay and shut itself off, and the door we'd been pulled in through was rolling shut. But Mom had one more trick up her sleeve. She began pushing buttons on the helm console and powering us up again. Way up.

When it realized what she was trying to do the ship's computer said loudly: “Warning! Engaging warp engine is not currently recommended.”

As suicides went, us going to warp from a standstill inside a closed room would be a quick one, and there wouldn't be anything left of us to assimilate. Plus City of Industry hitting that heavy hatch at faster than the speed of light would do substantial damage to the cube.

But before she could take us to warp a small forest of jaggedy red transporter beams appeared and six Borg materialized on the bridge. Two of them grabbed each of us by the arms, and as the weird red energy cloud enveloped me and my two captors I saw the same thing happening to my moms and their four escorts.

Then we all went off to the next phase of our existence, a hollow place that isn't life or death but something in between. Wherever Mama and Nunu were taken to it wasn't the same part of the cube where I was. I never saw either of them again and I never will. They're on the bottom of the ocean on that planet with 1,500,000 other dead Borg.

I know they would be happy that Mom had failed to murder us if they knew I would survive my time as a drone, would survived our cube's crash landing and four months on a wilderness planet; that I'd learn to be a person again and fall in love, and would get a weird emergency version of the male-to-female body restructuring I'd always wanted; and would even get rescued and brought home to Earth- a miraculously fortunate ending compared to billions of others for whom being assimilated by the Borg was strictly a one-way trip to nowhere.

But mine wasn't a completely happy ending since they're not here to share it with me; And saying “they would be happy” doesn't feel like much of a consolation for losing these two beautiful women who gave me and taught me so much and who I loved so dearly.

But at least they're free of the Borg now. There's that at least.
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002.004 Assimilated

We materialized next to what I now know as an assimilation chamber. Without a word my captors slammed me back against a slanted steel panel. A copper band emerged from slots on either side of me and locked itself around my middle and a boxy plexiglass lid swung down to lock in place over the panel, like I was in a display case.

As metal pincers ripped my nightgown off me and sinister power tools at the ends of jointed metal stalks positioned themselves in front of my face and other parts of my body two more Borg joined them. I could only see them when they were right in front of me because something hard had clamped shut around my head and was keeping it pointed straight ahead. The four of them conferred silently in the Borg mathematical language---all procedure and measurements---their blank expressions never changing. There was awareness of what was going on in their eyes but nothing else; and my terror went into overdrive as I thought: “Soon my eyes will be like that!”

I was only half right about that.

Then there was nothing but pain. A device like a small ice cream scoop unscrewed my left eye from its socket and snipped the nerve. Then a thing like an immense steel dildo with spikes all over began to rotate and plunged itself into my bleeding-

But I'll spare you the slice by slice description of the agony I went through, except to say that after the wires snaked into my brain and I could sense my memories, opinions and hopes all disappearing as my mind was linked to the Collective's mathematics based consciousness I was glad to be losing everything I was if it meant the pain was going away too. My last thought as an individual was that brief flash of regret over how I'd never get to see the fireworks or the Princess Parade in that holo-program my wonderful uncle had created for me; and then there was no "I" or "me". My organic brain still had everything Mia Velasco knew stored in it somewhere but the drone I'd become couldn't have made sense of such things even if she'd had access to them.

The stalks with power tools on them withdrew, folding back up on their rack; then they and the inside of the assimilation chamber's perspex lid were washed clean of the blood that had splattered everywhere by jets of antiseptic cleaning solution. When my transformation was complete I was nearly unrecognizable. My arms had been hacked off just below the elbow and discarded, and where my left hand had been was a thing like a big steel lobster claw. My right forearm had a cylinder with a motor inside that could power different attachments---from drills to bone saws to screwdrivers---that were kept behind a panel inside my other arm. All the hair had been removed from my body and the follicles deadened, but you wouldn't know it because of the dull grey rubber Borg-suit that covered everything from my neck down. The suit and its built-in boots were actually part of me and never came off in the whole time I was a drone and even after; until just a week ago on our way home.

My left eye was replaced by this saucer-sized device you see bulging about 3cm out from my face, its base wedged in the eye socket behind it. The electronic spirally thing that you'll see it doing when it's not just glowing red means it's operating, which it often does all on its own, taking periodic readings. It can see wavelengths way above and below the human visual spectrum, and I can use it as either a microscope or a telescope, and also as a recording device. It's a brilliant piece of engineering that I wouldn't mind owning, just not as part of me.

As I think of the drones I dealt with while doing my job on that cube it seems like no two of us were constructed exactly the same way, with the same attachments in the same places. Some had several different alterations done to them but many had been left more or less intact. With both my arms and an eye replaced by Borg hardware my modifications were fairly extreme. But least they didn't turn me into one of those nightmarish wheeled units like that one I saw once that was a mass of robot arms and gizmos with no more of the original person at the center of it than was necessary to keep it alive.

Everything the Borg cobble together to just get the job done with zero thought to how it looks is lumpy, ugly and asymmetrical, and as a drone I was too. I'm grateful for everything Dr. Crusher was able to do to return the six of us to as close to our original state as was possible; like finding a solvent that could get us out of those damned rubber suits, and removing most of the Borg components, including the ones you wouldn't have but were inside our bodies.

She was able to reactivate the follicles on my head and said my hair will grow back pretty quick; But this eye thing is gonna be part of me from now on. Its cone-shaped base extends clear into my brain and is attached to it in ways that she said she couldn't even begin to figure out. While some of those who got rescued with me might pass for a normal member of their species, with this eye and this gold band around my neck and the fact that my head is so obviously a whole different species from this new body of mine I'm always going to be a freaky looking ex-drone, and be hated by people who don't understand that no individual Borg is responsible for what the Collective as a whole has done; all the assimilated planets and the tens of thousands they murdered at Wolf 359.

Back when I was sixteen a lot of people used to say my big long-lashed brown eyes were my prettiest feature, and I still have one of them but no one's going to notice it once they see what's next to it. But all in all I really can't complain too much. The new body Greg was able to give me on that planet is female at least, and nicely shaped with a really exotic complexion; but the thing I'm most happy about is that I know who I am again. That's the most valuable part of me those machine bastards took away, and I'm so grateful to have it back!

But I'll always be sad that I never really got to say goodbye to my moms when they separated us. That part happened so quick. If I ever did see them on the cube the empty soulless husks we'd been turned into didn't recognize each other. I just hope they were never sent to the place on that cube I worked at. I wouldn't have even known who they were, so they might have been. And that's my nightmare...
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002.005 DRR-30

I was given the designation 13 of 13 and assigned to Diagnostic Repair and Recycling Unit Thirty; which consisted of three rooms way down near the bottom of the cube; that I only left a few in those five years; and I would still be there now if Species 8472 hadn't intervened. And what we were diagnosing in DRR-30 and repairing if we could--or decommissioning and stripping for usable parts if we couldn't--was other Borg. We were the cube's gruesome equivalent of doctors.

Before I was assimilated all I knew about medicine was how to read someone's vitals with a hand scanner, run a dermal regenerator over a scrape or call the nearest hospital for an Emergency Room beam-in. But the hive-mind's information cloud had all the knowledge I needed to do the job they'd given me. When a drone's performing a task they've individual thoughts about what they're doing, but only about the task at hand. There's no daydreaming, no speculating about what tomorrow's workload will be like, no "I wonder what Mom and Nunu are doing now..." And we still fthought of ourselves as being synonymous with the collective as a whole, as "we"...

And actually our unit's repair chamber we put our victims into did a big portion of the work by itself. It was very similar to that clear box I'd been assimilated inside of. Drones from the cube's six bottom decks that were getting worn out or seemed to be acting up were ordered to report to DRR-30 for evaluation. Or they were dragged there kicking and screaming.

Sometimes drones experienced a malfunction called Spontaneous Regression, where they suddenly regained their individual consciousness, remembered the person they used to be and the life they'd had before they became Borg. These drones would become extremely agitated, wouldn't respond to commands and might go running down the corridors in a blind panic screaming, or even start attacking other drones. Drones with SR could sometimes be repaired with cortical implants but they usually had to be decommissioned and stripped for parts; crying and pleading with us for a mercy we had no concept of, until their biological functions were terminated and we dumped them down the chute to the chemical reclamation unit for separation into water, calcium, iron, oils for making plastic; things like that.

But the most common type of malfunction that would mean a drone had to be decommissioned were the ones that will happen to every Borg eventually, even our cube's queen; when they break down simply because they're too old and their bodies are wearing out. These drones were given the command to report to DRR-30 for recycling and obeyed it like it was any other order from the collective; stepping right into the chamber to be euthanized. Which made killing them go a lot quicker and more efficiently than the ones who tried to fight us, or that one who bit me that time.

You might suppose we preferred the terminations that went smoothly to the more difficult ones, or that we'd be glad when we could fix a drone and give them a few more years of usefulness, the way doctors are glad when they can save a patient. But nothing we did seemed any different to us than any other thing we did. We simply made our diagnosis and performed whatever action the checklist in our heads said we should, without any opinion about it.

And of course now I feel horrible about what we did in there. That was some real Nazi concentration camp shit we were doing and anybody who wouldn't feel horrible should be put on that registry for dangerous psychopaths they have and monitored 24/7. But I have to remind myself that anyone who got assimilated would do exactly what I did in there. It's a total bullshit fantasy to think you'd be the exception. There's a lot of things a person with a strong enough will can resist---brainwashing drugs, possession by non-corporeal entities who want to take over your ship, those forced mind-melds that are like the worst crime there is on Vulcan---but not a million other people's minds all pouring into your head like a tsunami into a teacup.

Everyone that I've ever heard mention Captain Jean Luc Picard has said he's a man of character and a great captain; with even my friend Givvi's cynical Orion mom calling him “Everything your Starfleet should be about”. And when I finally got to meet him on the Enterprise he really was all that; plus decent and kind and even funny in a dorky sort of way. If a guy like him couldn't do anything but what the Collective told him to do when he was Locutus, then nobody can!

Everything about being a Borg makes independent thought impossible. The mathematical language the Borg use to communicate assigns a number to every object, action or quality that make up a drone's existence. You would think I'd be fluent in this language after the 5 years, 8 months, 3 days and 17 hours I spent conversing in it but I remember very little of it. It's just too alien to the way I think now.

One thing I do remember is that most of the things that make us human don't even have a number in that language we used, so for the Borg they don't exist. Things like love, freedom, individual happiness or even the very notion of an individual self. The closest thing to a word for freedom in Borg might be the number that means “unassimilated”. Concepts like these, that are beyond the scope of what the Borg can understand---and there's a lot of them---are all assigned the number triple-zero. All the Collective knows about these things is that it has no use for them; and in English 000 translates as “irrelevant”. This is why irrelevant seems to be their favorite word when speaking to anyone who isn't Borg...
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002.006 Hiveworld

There were thirteen of us in DRR-30. We worked in one room, stored stuff in another and had our special regeneration pods in a third. That was our world. And when we did leave our little unit it was to someplace off the cube completely, like the few times they sent us over onto a smaller Borg vessel that needed us for some reason, doing the same job in a different room.

And one time we got beamed down to a planet whose whole population had been assimilated to do some variation on our job there for reasons that were never explained to us. The change of scenery I got from walking around in the perpetual twilight gloom of that planet made it without a doubt the most interesting thing that happened to me in the whole time I was 13 of 13; but the strangeness and the novelty of the experience was lost on the drone I was then. It was only after we got our minds back that I could appreciate what a bizarre and terrifying place that planet had been.

People describe the images of Borg hiveworlds that our unmanned reconnaissance drones send back as “eerily beautiful”, and I can sure see what they mean by eerie. But any beauty those places have comes from the culture that was there before. The historic architecture, the dead unused parks, the great monuments that go unnoticed by the billions of half-mechanical ants scurrying past them. If those cities are beautiful it's in the way we find ruins beautiful; that romance people have about lost civilizations. But crop anything that isn't Borg out of those images and I defy you to show me a single goddamn thing that's beautiful about them.

So aside from that one field trip my entire existence was mostly just dutifully sorting out one drone after another, the same slicing and dicing with my multi-tool arm or hacking things off with my bone-cracker lobster claw one; the same replacing batteries and inserting implants, or pulling them out if they we'd terminated the patient; awake-cycle after awake-cycle and year after year.

Which is why I can't tell you as much as I'd like to about the Borg. I know next to nothing about what was going on in other parts of the cube; it was only after we'd crashed on that planet that Derp the Ferengi told me what happened to the bodies we dropped down the chute; something Borg-me hadn't even been curious about. There was a hierarchy among us when it came to knowledge, with higher-ups directly under our Queen sorting the information that came in as new drones were assimilated, deleting what they didn't consider relevant (anything about the lives they'd had as people) and sending the “important” stuff to where it would do the most good; with individual drones not knowing much more than what they needed to in order to do their jobs. While all the minds in the hivemind are linked, every mind doesn't know everything that's in every other mind. That would just be too much information for any one organic brain to hold. Maybe there's some species somewhere with a head the size of Ceres that could handle it, but not in this galaxy.

Computers would probably be better for storing and routing information, but for some reason the Borg's collective identity doesn't like the idea of that. I guess because if you're going to have a machine mind then you might as well not have any organic parts at all---like that android I met on the Enterprise---and then they wouldn't have the fun of assimilating people. And really, it's better for us if they don't become a thousand times smarter and more efficient, unless it made them realize 'Wait! Why are we going around trying to assimilate everybody?! This isn't a nice thing to do at all!!!'”

But I'm too pessimistic to think becoming more intelligent would actually make them be better. I never used to be such a cynic. As a kid I looked at the progress Humans have made in the last 400 years and assumed it was some inevitable natural trend- that over a long enough time the Klingons would become peaceful, the Romulans and Cardassians would become honest and trusting and the Ferengi would start being generous. And even five years ago as I turned 16 I was young and optimistic. The fucking Borg took that from me!

Our cube was trying out a new type of regeneration chamber for us to sleep in. It wasn't the usual Borg alcove that you plug into and sleep standing up but a tub thing with a lid, like a coffin or a cryostasis chamber. It was filled with this rubbery pink biogenic goo that you lie completely submerged in with the top sealed and locked. Not a good place to be if you're claustrophobic but that's not an issue for drones. While your batteries recharged the pink stuff would also replenish your biological systems; and if it worked like it was supposed to it would add years to our usefulness. One hundred drones were selected to take part in this ten year test, including me and the twelve others in DRR-30. At the time it was just another thing they'd told us to do, but now I'm really glad they chose us. That pod full of goo saved my life!
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002.007 Species 8472

Our cube was destroyed by creatures from a race that the Borg call Species 8472. I've never heard any other name for them, and they aren't a species anyone from the Federation has ever come in contact with. But I have a bad feeling that we will. The place where they attacked us and where the Enterprise rescued us from is just across the border in the Beta quadrants, and as far as that is it's still way too close to Earth for my liking!

Species 8472 considers all other life forms impure and doesn't want to conquer us, they want to eradicate us. They took out a giant Borg cube with one tiny ship in about five minutes and they're the one species the Collective fears. The Borg are as afraid of Species 8472 as we are of the Borg. So if those creepy looking things do decide to pay us a visit...

You know how the old United States used to test nuclear weapons out in the Nevada desert? All of our Federation worlds would be like some ants living at Ground Zero trying to stop one of those hydrogen bombs!

The attack happened during DRR-30's regeneration cycle. I was lying dormant in the goop's warm embrace---probably dreaming of wires---when I was awoken by a General Alarm. It was the one the type of communication that everyone on the cube would get; if they were awake or asleep or whether they'd be called on to help counter the attack or not. And from the apprehension flooding into my head from the 1,500,000 other Borg on our ship I/We knew we were in big trouble.

My pod didn't unlock itself and I didn't receive any instructions so I knew I wasn't needed. But I was given access to what my shipmates were all seeing, and we watched as a sleek little green organiform spaceship approached us and stopped a few hundred meters away. Suddenly I knew what the Collective knew: That the alien ship belonged to this race that came from some weird parallel universe, and that the Borg had been at war with them for the past year.

Our cube transmitted the “You will be assimilated. Resistance is futile” announcement to the vessel's inhabitants, and as I chanted along with it in my mind I felt what the others felt, and together we became more confident. We were Borg. We were mighty.

The enemy ship didn't bother replying. Instead they fired on us, an intense white energy beam that was impossibly wide for any weapon on a ship that size, and powerful enough that it punched a round hole clear through the middle of our cube, big enough to fly a Galaxy Class starship through. In an instant hundreds of thousands of Borg were vaporized, and if our subgroup hadn't been off toward the bottom of the cube we would have been among them. But as big and damaging as the hole was, this by itself it wouldn't have been enough to cripple our cube. All its systems were ridiculously redundant, and it was already beginning to repair itself. And our collective mind was angry now, determined to obliterate the little ship, hitting it with everything we had!!

But the weapon they discharge next was one the Borg had never encountered before, and it was totally devastating!

The last guy that interviewed me, Commander Benton, was really interested in that weapon, and it's obvious why, I'd love to be able to tell Starfleet how to make one but all I don't know anything more than what I experienced; how suddenly my head was filled with intense painful heat and something in my brain went sizzle- POP!! And for the first time in almost six years I knew what it felt like to be completely on my own.

Lying there in the pitch blackness I was horribly confused, not having a clue what was happening outside of my steel coffin; unable to feel the presence of the other drones and with my own thoughts being the only voice in my head---scrambled thoughts I was barely able to form, I was so out of practice --- feeling tiny and weak and oh so alone. I was terrified, my heart pounding in a way that just by itself was alarming, since my pulse rate hadn't varied by more than ten beats a minute in the whole time I'd been a Borg!

I waited. For my link to the hivemind to be re-established, for my pod to go click, click and open, for anything besides this awful isolation and helplessness.

And I waited. My regeneration pod had become a sensory deprivation tank. I'd said the Borg don't get claustrophobia and ordinarily they don't, but nothing about this was ordinary and I was freaking out! Alone in the absolute darkness and silence it felt like I was the only thing that existed in the entire universe, and this “self” that I'd lost all memory of and had no name for was an alien and terrifying place to be!

Seconds ticked by, then minutes. I felt like I was suffocating in that suddenly awful goop, but I was so totally conditioned I just lay there because no one had told me to do anything else.

After close to an hour I noticed something changing. It was starting to get hot. Very hot. I started sloshing around in the goop inside my box, thrown this way and that until I was banging violently against all six of its metal sides despite the thickness of the gunk I was suspended in; and I felt myself tumbling and tumbling---crazily and with no pattern to the chaotic motion---for what seemed like hours, but when it finally stopped I thought to check my internal chronometer and found it had only been 24 minutes and 33.62 seconds. I had no idea of what had happened, why it had stopped happening, or where I was.

And then I waited some more, in the grips of something I had never experienced in all my time as a Borg- sheer terror!

What I didn't know then was I was one of only a handful of drones who hadn't died when our cubeship had come down like a meteor on an uninhabited Class M planet. And that while I'd miraculously lived through the crash I would be facing many more perils and challenges to my survival in the months ahead. But at least I would be facing them as myself again- Mia Velasquez, ex-drone. And with some interesting new friends...
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End of Part 002. NEXT: Borg Family Robinson

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Please leave a comment. I'm lonely out here in the cold...
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THE AFTER-THE-CLOSING-CREDITS THINGY:
(Scene redacted from official Starfleet transcript)

Oh yeah. There's one other thing that happened to me on that cube that I honestly don't know what to make of, it was so weird...

As a drone nothing ever seemed good or bad, as pretty or interesting or scary or boring or anything as I sleepwalked through my hollow existence. But this one thing that happened struck me as baffling and disturbing because it had struck every Borg throughout the whole of time and space that way.

Something, this presence drifted up to some Borgs, I don't know if it was our cube or where it was, when it happened or maybe will happen some day, because when the entity spoke every Borg everywhere heard him, drones that were long dead and ones that wouldn't be assimilated for a century.

“Now what do we have here?” the entity asked, sort of like he was talking to himself. I say “he” because it was an identifiably male voice. And then the Collective could sense him studying us.

We didn't know what to do. We couldn't assimilate this thing, we couldn't fight it, it was everywhere and nowhere. But we didn't have to do anything because he'd lost interest. Or actually he sounded like he was repulsed by us.

“Well congratulations,” he said, “You corporeal lifeforms have finally lived down to your potential. You are without a doubt the most tedious thing I have ever encountered. You're like entropy personified. I could have more fun harassing a turnip. Adios muchachos, and good luck!”

And then he was gone.

But he came back a short time later to say one last thing. “On second thought I think I'll introduce you to a friend of mine. That might be amusing. And it would definitely take that insufferable blowhard Mon Capee-tahn down a few pegs. I'll show him 'What a piece of work is Man'!”

And then he went away and never came back. I don't know what you can make of that, but it sure was different. About the only thing that happened to me in all those years that wasn't totally routine...


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