[May 2015. At an office in the centre of Newcastle upon Tyne]
“Flowers for a J Parsons?” came the cry from the deliveryman who’d just entered the busy office.
Almost everyone stopped what they were doing and turned to look towards a small man whose desk was right at the far end of the office and almost hidden by six grey filing cabinets.
The man went bright red in the face.
“I…. I’m John Parsons.”
The office went silent as the delivery man walked to the far end and placed the flowers on John's desk.
John scrawled his signature on the clipboard that was thrust under his chin by the delivery man. The man left the still silent office with a little smile on his face. After all, it was not every day, that a man was given a bunch of 60 roses, and red ones as well. For someone regarded as almost invisible to the majority in the office this was going to get juicy in terms of speculation, innuendo and gossip.
As soon as the delivery man had disappeared, the silence ended. Furtive glances were made in his direction. John did his best to hide the embarrassment by hiding behind the roses.
Eventually, one person stood up and went to his desk, and after being unable to find a card in the bouquet, she asked,
"Well, John, aren't you going to tell us who sent you the flowers?" asked Spencer Mount, whose desk was nearest to that of sat John’s. Those were the first words he'd said to John in almost a year.
John knew all too well who had sent them. Someone he didn't even dare to think about, much less talk about in the office.
He stared into space thinking ‘If only I hadn’t…’
John didn't bother to answer his question.
“Can’t you see the poor boy is embarrassed…” said another colleague.
John sat frozen to his desk, unable to move or speak. The arrival of the flowers meant that his present life, such as it was, was well and truly over.
The silence in the office had attracted the attention of the Office Manager, a weasel eyed man named Ken McCall. He came out of his office and glared at everyone.
“What the heck is everyone doing? We need those customer accounts finalised and sent out by the end of the day.”
Gradually everyone got back to work. Everyone apart from John. He sat motionless, unable to take his eyes off the flowers. The manager came over to John's desk. As soon as he saw the flowers, a devilish smile spread over his face.
"So… pretty boy has a secret admirer. You must be very special then pretty boy, to warrant such a nice present. They look far too good for a loser like you. I know someone who would appreciate them a lot more than the nobody that you are."
Then, and as calm as a cucumber, Ken picked up the flowers and took them back to his office.
Everyone in the office watched him walk back towards his office. The smile on his face grew and grew so that by the time he closed the door behind him, he was grinning like a Cheshire cat on steroids.
John's embarrassing day wasn't over until he left the office along with everyone else. For once, they didn't rag him about his diminutive frame and very effeminate manners. Instead, they gave Ken McCall a dose of verbal's. Openly stealing the flowers that had been given to John was beyond the pale.
John ignored the chatter that went on around him. He’d learned to tune it out many years before. He headed for the first of two busses that would take him home for the weekend.
Despite, a lot of searching and even appeals on TV, no further leads of any significance came to light. No one ever mentioned the delivery of flowers that had could well have been the catalyst that had triggered his disappearance.
Over time, the image of John Parsons, such as it was, faded from memory. The truth was that no one missed him. He was just a face that was quickly forgotten in the mass of information that bombarded people from all sides in this day and age.
The case remained open but… John was like several thousand people from all over the country who just vanished and very much didn't want to be found.
“Fifty-three to control,” said the security officer.
“Control to Fifty-three. What is your problem.”
“There seems to be an abandoned BMW in the Departure’s Drop-Off zone.”
“I’ve got it on the screen,” said Control.
“I think we should get it towed ASAP. It has been there for almost twenty minutes.”
"I'll get the tow organised. In the meantime, I'll get onto the Police and run the plates. This isn't the first time that we've had a car left there because the owner was late for their flight."
"This one is brand new, though. Those other ones were mostly old clunkers.”
“Just keep the traffic moving around the obstruction. Control out.”
Twenty minutes later, the tow truck arrived and took the almost new BMW 1-Series away to the impound yard. It was going to cost the owner several hundred pounds to be re-united with their car.
The BMW sat unclaimed in the impound yard for a few days before the Police started to investigate. The DVLA [1] records showed that the owner lived in the nearby town of Crawley. It soon turned out that the owner was away on holiday and had been for almost two weeks so it could not have been him who took the car to the airport and left it there.
After consulting the videotapes from the airport, it became clear that the car had been stolen. The owner was a man in his early 60's, and the thief was clearly a lot younger.
On the off chance that the owner knew the thief, the Police showed photos of the person suspected of stealing the car to its owner.
“That’s my grandson, Davy Cartwright,” said newly returned from holiday owner.
Armed with the grandson's address, the Police conducted further enquiries. They failed to find the grandson, but there was plenty of evidence to support the theory that he'd left his bedsit in something of a hurry. What did surprise the officers was the presence of a large bouquet of red roses lying on his small table. There was no evidence of who had sent the flowers, and none of the local florists was able to help, so that was just another dead end. He’d not even given notice at his job as a plumber for the local council. One officer remarked that it was almost like the Marie Celeste.
Nothing on his social media accounts, gave any hint as to his whereabouts or even that he was thinking of disappearing. He'd arranged to go to watch the local football team, Crawley Town, play their first home match of the new season with a friend. This was something that they'd done many times before.
Davy lived within walking distance of the ground and would meet his friend at his place before they walked to the match. The friend had tried to call Davy on his phone when he didn't answer his doorbell. The Police had found the phone in his home. They soon discovered that the phone had been wiped clean of all data. That didn't bode well in the search for him.
At first, the Police assumed that Davy had gone to the airport in order to take a flight but his name was missing from all the passenger manifests.
After a lot more scanning of the CCTV from the Airport a lead was found. It showed Mr Cartwright buying a train ticket from a self-service machine and then taking a Southern Railway train to Portsmouth, where the trail ended.
Yet more inquiries revealed that no one by that name had taken a cross channel ferry that day or any day for the following week. They checked video from the ferries that went back and forth to the Isle of Wight. He was seen looking back towards the mainland as the ferry came close to the terminal at Ryde. After one image of him walking through the town on the Newport Road, the trail went cold despite the Police on the Island keeping their eyes open for him.
After two months, the Police decided to halt their investigations. Davy Cartwright, had like many others just dropped out of sight. Most of those who did that would eventually reappear in the future. A certain percentage of missing people just kept off the radar for many, many years. The facts of the case suggested that he'd left and just did not want to be found.
The case became another file to be added to the ever-growing pile of 'cold cases' that may or may not see a resolution in the coming years.
[Township of Boston, Georgia, USA – September 2015]
"Wayne, can you go to the store and pick up our order?"
"Sure thing Mom but can it wait until after the game? Georgia Tech is playing the 'Tar Heels', and Brad's brother is playing Linebacker for the Tech? He’s invited me over to watch on their new big screen.”
Wayne's Mom smiled. She was torn between being thankful for her son not being big enough, or as she put it, dumb enough to play any sort of Football and wishing that he was a bit more of a jock at school. That would have gotten rid of the bullying. It was only last week that his truck, a lovingly restored 1940 Ford pickup had been spray-painted with the words 'queer', 'pervert' and what was even worse, the use of the word 'rapist'.
The summer break had been one of one unmitigated disaster after another for her family. Her husband Al, was Engineering Officer on a Nuclear Sub. He was away on one of his regular 3-6 month deployments. She'd been on her own when it became known that her son was about to be charged with rape had emerged. It had taken money that they didn't have for their lawyer to get the allegations dismissed.
The Police dropped their investigation of him when Wayne produced a speeding ticket that he'd received on the outskirts of Atlanta when the offence was supposed to have occurred. But as with all rumours, once they had spread, they were never far from the surface. His son had been down to Atlanta to pick up a new mattress for his bed at the time. CCTV clearly showed him at the store and loading it onto his truck.
Their lawyer threatened to sue the girl who alleged that Wayne had raped her and made her pregnant to get a DNA test. The real culprit, Cole Wright, had eventually come forward and said, 'it was me'. He didn't get charged because his father just happened to be the Chief of Police. The phrase ‘Justice Matters’ was an alien concept in their part of the world.
“Sure, thing but, remember not to drink any of the shine that Brad's other brother brews up. Last time, you had a sore head for three days."
"Sure thing, Mom."
Wayne left the house and drove his truck the three or so miles to Brad’s home to watch the game.
After the game, Wayne headed for the local supermarket and picked up their family’s order. He never made it home.
The local Police Department found Wayne's truck at a Truckstop on I-85 the next day. There was no sign of Wayne. The grocery order was still in the front passenger well, and a large bunch of red roses was found still wrapped in cellophane on the bed of the truck.
Despite intensive investigations, no sign of Wayne was ever found. His Mom thought from the outset that the same people who had spray-painted the truck were behind the disappearance. She maintained that the local P-D was not putting every effort into finding her son. Without her husband around to help keep the pressure on, efforts to find her son were scaled down after less than a day. It might have been different, if Wayne was a minor but, since he'd turned eighteen, he was legally free to go wherever he wanted.
People would talk about her family behind their backs. No one was willing to come forward and say outright that it was a good thing that her son was gone. Such is life in a small town in rural Georgia.
When Wayne’s father returned from his tour of duty, he tried to get the case re-opened but to no avail. The general feeling of ‘good riddance’ towards his family caused them to move away before the end of the year.
[Dudley Avenue, Newhaven, Edinburgh – March 2016]
“Hi Dad,” said William Murchison as he answered his phone.
"Sorry, son. I won't be able to go with you to the match tonight."
William sighed. This wasn’t all that unusual.
“What is it this time? A tourist stubbed their toe climbing Arthur’s Seat?”
That was a standing joke between them. As a child, William had stubbed his toe doing that very same thing and had broken the little toe on his left foot.
“Just a dead body in ‘The Grassmarket’.”
“They are a dime a dozen these days, aren’t they?”
“Yes, but this one is different. It is your favourite MSP [1]. I’m afraid that he took a dive from a window of Madam Vicky’s.”
Madam Vicky’s was a well known ‘Gentlemen’s Club’ that was well known to have a brothel attached. The club was frequented by Edinburgh's male elite, including government ministers. The place was strictly off-limits to the Police on official investigations. This sort of incident was just too public to brush under the carpet.
William laughed. He knew of the place by reputation.
"I get you, Dad."
"Thanks, son. Enjoy the match."
Both of them were season ticket holders at Easter Road, the home of Hibernian or ‘Hibs’ for short.
“It should be an easy win for us. Alloa is not the toughest opposition we have faced this season."
His father laughed.
“Don’t take it for granted. A playoff place is at stake.”
“I know. See you after the match in the Guildford Arms?”
"Yeah. I should be finished, placating the political numpties down at Holyrood by then."
William’s father, Donald Murchison, was Procurator Fiscal for the city of Edinburgh. His duty that night was to supervise the investigation into the death of the MSP. He'd much rather be at the football match at Easter Road but… duty calls.
"Did William come home last night?" asked Donald to his wife Heather.
“I thought that I heard him come in just before eleven. Why?”
"I was supposed to meet him for a pint in the Guildford Arms after the match but, the First Minister wanted my report in person. As if a few hours would make any difference."
His wife tittered.
"Did Gregor finally get caught with his pants down?"
“Yeah, and that was his final act. The cobbles of the Grassmarket are really no place to meet your maker even for a philandering scumbag like him.”
“The city won’t be the same without him to brighten it up on an almost weekly basis.”
“There is no sound coming from William’s room,” said his mother.
“If he does not appear soon, he’ll be late for work… again.”
Her husband smiled and took the hint.
“I’ll give him a nudge.”
“Thanks, dear.”
He went upstairs in search of his son. After getting no response to a knock on the door to his bedroom, he went inside.
A shock of cold air greeted him. The bedroom window was wide open. William's bed hadn't been slept in. The investigator in him took over, and he came to the conclusion that his son was missing. His wallet and phone were on the table at the side of his bed. Then there was the huge bunch of red roses lying on the unused bed.
He backed out of the bedroom and went downstairs.
“Well? Is he moving yet?” asked his wife.
"William isn't there. Something's not right. His wallet and phone are on the bedside table, and his bedroom window is wide open."
“So?”
"There is a big bunch, and I mean very big… bunch of red roses lying on his bed. William would never buy roses even on St Valentine's day for the woman he was going to marry. He’s just not that sort of person, is he?”
His wife, Heather, had to agree with that.
“What are you going to do?”
"Call in the troops. I'm going to have to recuse myself, though."
His wife of almost thirty years came over and gave him a big hug.
“I understand but, please do your best to find our son. He's all we have got."
“I will do everything I can to find him. He’s not the sort of boy to go off like this.”
"He's hardly a boy, my dear. He's twenty-three."
Donald didn’t answer but gripped his wife tightly. He knew just how many people in the city went missing every year and just how few of them were found alive after a year. Donald had to keep that sort of information from his wife.
[to be continued]
[1] MSP = Member of the Scottish Parliament.
Donald Murchison tried his hardest to keep at arms-length from the investigation into his son's disappearance, but after a very frustrating month, the lack of progress eventually spurred him into action.
Being a part prosecutor and part investigator, the Procurator Fiscal has a lot of leeway in what they do and how they do their job. Donald had become frustrated at the lack of progress by the Police. Their almost instant dismissal of the large bunch of red roses, as a major clue was just plain wrong in his eyes. He'd told the Police right at the outset that his son would never buy red roses for anyone, but they didn't act on this at all. No matter how much he protested, progress in the case stalled. Donald knew the next step would be to put it into the ‘Cold Case’ file and promptly forget all about it.
Donald was left with no other choice but to do some sleuthing on his own. His first step was to consult the ‘HOLMES’ [1] system.
What was little more than a hunch soon revealed itself to be very significant indeed. Just asking the system 'had there been any missing person cases where; a very large bunch of red roses was left behind' produced immediate results.
Seven different cases had involved the roses. Two cases were related to women who had gone missing on or around Valentine's day and had been resolved within a week. The remaining five, which included his son involved young adult males and none of them had been closed. What surprised Donald, even more, was the period over which the cases had been reported. The oldest dated back to 1986, some thirty years ago. To his mind, this meant that it was highly unlikely that a single person was behind the disappearances.
This discovery left Donald with a bit of a problem. By rights, he should have gone back to the Police and updated them about his discovery. Instead, he began to collate what information he could. He was convinced that all of these cases were linked. There was an itch that needed scratching.
To find out that there were several similar cases in just one search on HOLMES made Donald very annoyed. Why couldn't the Police have done the same search as him? It only took a few minutes but they didn't. This was all down to the tickbox regime that was modern policing. Thinking outside the box was a dying art at least in the Lothian Police Force.
Donald put those frustrations behind him and concentrated on the search results.
All the outstanding cases involved young men who were not high flyers in the business world. None of them had attended University for more than one term. Yet, none of them was in his eyes, an outright failures in their lives. None had a criminal record. Only one had a driving conviction which was a single fixed penalty notice for a faulty tyre. None of the more recent cases had any significant presence on social media. The picture he was getting was that of a group of very normal young men who were almost invisible in our increasingly connected society. They were all ‘loners’. To Donald, all these cases were linked but no matter how hard he tried, he could not fathom out why this was.
After even more reflection Donald began to admire these young men. To have such a small little internet footprint in the second decade of the 21st century was an admirable achievement.
The downside of their invisibility was that they were the ideal candidates for abduction. In four of the five cases, the disappearance had not been reported for almost a week after their last sighting. What was most worrying to him was that his son was the third disappearance in a little over a year.
Their geographic spread from Edinburgh to Newcastle to two towns south of London was troublesome. If organised crime, was behind this then it would need an organisation that had almost nationwide coverage and to his knowledge, no such organisation existed.
If they had been abducted then where were the ransom demands? There were none.
Donald sat on his findings until he returned home that evening when he briefed his wife.
At the end he said,
“Almost all of these other cases show the missing person travelling alone on public transport for several hours after they left home. To my mind, that rules out abduction unless blackmail was involved.”
“But William wasn’t gay, was he?” argued Heather.
“As far as we know he wasn’t.”
Then Donald remembered something.
“Remember how he’d stand looking at the window displays in Frazers and other stores along Princes Street? Weren’t they all women’s clothes he was looking at?”
Heather remembered her son over a decade ago being fascinated by women’s fashion. They’d put it down to puberty kicking in and, in any case, it hadn’t lasted.
“You don’t suppose…?” said Heather.
It was almost as if she was too scared to say the word.
“Suppose what?” asked Donald.
“Suppose he liked to dress up in women’s clothes?”
“Like a Transvestite?”
“Wouldn’t we have found some evidence of that in his clothes when we went through them?”
"Yes… Well, we should have but, there was nothing. No girly magazines either."
Heather laughed.
“Remember when you got caught with a copy of Playboy by your Father?”
Donald shuddered as the memory came back. It was not a pleasant one.
“Don’t remind me. That almost put me off women for life. I was grounded for a whole year and made to go to confession three times a week to ‘cleanse my body of evil thoughts’.”
“That didn’t stop us from meeting on the bus going to and from school, did it?”
Donald loved his wife dearly, and that love stemmed from how she'd helped him get through the punishment that had been dished out with a good deal of venom by his deeply religious parents.
That, and many other events had turned him away from religion. The last straw with his parents was compounded by the fact that he was marrying a protestant from the wrong side of the city. Even worse, they were getting married in a registry office. He'd been banished from his family ever since. Their loss of face in their world had been too much to bear.
Even the news of their grandson’s disappearance had not broken the ice between Donald and his now elderly parents. Every time Donald remembered his last encounter with them, the word 'excommunicate' rang around his brain. Both of his parents had decided to cease all contact with him. From then on, he was no longer their son. Every so often, he'd encounter families like that in his official capacity of Procurator Fiscal. Most of the time, the cases were pretty ugly before he got involved, and there was very little that he could do to rectify matters but every so often, his personal experience helped sort things out so that people could at least get on with their lives without threatening to kill each other.
Donald dragged his thoughts back to the here and now.
“There is a lot we didn’t know about William isn’t there despite our door always being open to him.”
"Telling your parents that you are gay is one thing, but telling them that you should have been born a different gender, is another thing entirely. Everything that the parents wished and hoped for their child, could very well be torn down in seconds."
“You sound as if you have experienced that at work?” asked Donald.
Heather was a teacher at the nearby ‘Trinity Academy’. She taught Maths to 15 and 16-year-olds.
"We had one case last year where a girl came out as trans and completed the year living as a boy. His parents split up over it, and the father took his own life just before easter last year."
"Oh yes. I remember it. I didn't take the case as coroner because the family lived in Dudley Crescent and had known them when I was growing up in Dudley Avenue. I read the reports after the case was over. It was very nasty.”
“We are speculating, aren’t we?” asked Heather.
“There is no evidence that William was like that at all?”
Donald held his wife of almost thirty years hand. He knew that she was troubled.
"I know, so don't worry yourself over anything. We just don't know what reason or reasons triggered William to disappear so suddenly."
“Do the Police have any idea where he went when he left here?”
"All they know is that he took the last train to Queen Street, and then he disappeared until just before six when he took the first train to Ayr. After that, he disappeared. There, is a fuzzy video of someone looking like William getting onto a ferry to Belfast a few hours later. They are waiting for any CCTV evidence from the PSNI, but I'm not holding out much hope."
“So, they don’t have a clue?” asked Heather.
“Not surprising with Clouseau in charge.”
‘Clouseau' was the nickname the Procurator Fiscal department had given to Chief Inspector Connors due to his almost innate ability to crash any of the force's cars, that he was allowed to drive. Now he had a constable assigned to drive him everywhere. The cost of that was less than the cost to the force of damaged police cars.
Heather looked worried.
"That tells me that HQ doesn't regard the son of the P-F going missing as a high priority.”
"Don't worry, my dear. I'm going to rope in some help."
“Help? Who will go against Clouseau, when his father is Minister of Justice at Holyrood?”
"No one here, and that's a racing certainty. That's why I'm going to give Lee Greenaway a call tomorrow."
“Lee? What can the FBI do?”
“I want him to search their files for any ‘Red Roses’ cases.”
Heather looked worried.
“Why on earth would there be?”
"Whoever is behind these disappearances is very well organised. William knew exactly, what to do, where to go when the Red Roses appeared. The same goes for the others if the information on HOLMES is correct. That needs organisation and a good one."
“And you think that there might be more cases like this?”
“There might be so. Isn't it worth asking the question? Besides, there is nothing to lose, is there?"
“I know but…”
"I'm worried as well, but I have to try to remove any emotion and think logically. If I don't, then, there not much is no hope in us finding William."
Heather looked sad but didn’t answer her husband. Both of them were thinking the unthinkable but dared not say it out loud.
Other duties got in the way of Donald calling his friend Lee Greenaway at the FBI. Lee was an instructor at the FBI HQ at Quantico near Washington D.C. They'd become friends when a US Army Captain, had been murdered during the Edinburgh Festival/Fringe about a decade earlier. Lee was, at the time, the FBI liaison officer at their Embassy in London and had travelled north to help out with the investigation. His job had been made more complicated because the suspected killer was a Corporal in his unit. The Corporal had gone AWOL from their base in Germany. It was later discovered that this was to get even with the captain, for apparently sleeping with his wife. Because of the thousands and thousands of people who flock to Edinburgh every August for the Festival and Fringe, Hotel beds for miles around were non-existent, so Donald had offered Lee a room at his home for the duration of his part of the investigation. They soon became firm friends and had remained in contact even after Lee's assignment in London had come to an end.
It was more than a day later before Donald had the time to make the call to Washington.
“Lee? Donald.”
"Yes, I'm fine, and so is Heather. How's Alice?"
“Good to know.”
“No, this is not a social call. I need a favour.”
“William has gone missing.”
“Yes, they are involved but… they are not very interested in a missing person when the juicy underbelly of political society, here in Scotland, is being exposed on an almost daily basis.”
"Yeah. That's right. Once the fairly notorious MSP, Gregor MacBain took a dive out of the window of a Grassmarket brothel while high on Skunk is far too juicy for the media and the Police to ignore, especially when his records show a plethora of government officials and politicians under his thumb. Twenty senior civil servants have already resigned. There will be a good number of politicians getting a bit itchy under the collar before this all blows over. By contrast, a missing person is just not on their list of things to do even if it is the son of the Procurator Fiscal."
“William just disappeared into thin air. No warning, no nothing.”
"The mystery was that he left without taking any clothes, credit cards and phone, but he did leave behind a large bunch of red roses. I mean large in that there were 30 stems in the bunch."
“HOLMES brought up five other possible cases. I was wondering if…”
"You got it in one, Lee. Is it possible?"
“I can make it official if you want?”
“I’ll send you an email right away.”
“I’d like for there to be zero hits on VICAP[2] or whatever you call it this week.”
"Thanks, Lee. I owe you one."
Donald heard nothing from Lee that day. He didn't expect it because he knew that Lee had other duties to perform, and it might be late that evening before he heard anything from Washington, even if it was just a message to say that it was 'work in progress.
It was more than a full day before Donald heard from Lee. As soon as Lee spoke, Donald knew that something was wrong.
"What's, wrong Lee?"
“What? How many?”
“But… Lee… Fifty-three similar cases in the past thirty years is serial killer land. Surely no one has thought to do that simple search before?”
“That makes things a little difficult. Perhaps we should forget the whole thing?”
“They have? You got my email requesting help?”
“Why? Do those people at the DOJ have something to hide?”
“Oh. I see. If one of those missing is the estranged son of a former Secretary of State, then I can see why it would want to be kept quiet especially, with the Presidential Election just a month and a half away.”
Donald thought for several seconds before answering Lee’s next question.
“Perhaps a leak to say the Guardian from this side of the Pond might make a few people get off their backsides and start investigating?”
"Ok, Lee. Just be discrete. I'll hold fire from this end, but it is clear that that there is a lot more to this than meets the eye."
"Give my love to the family. Don't be a stranger, ok. You know how much Alice liked the Festival and Fringe. Heather would love to have you stay with us next year even if this has not been resolved by then."
“Yeah. Bye.”
Donald put the phone down and began to think about what he should tell his wife. Heather had started to pester him about any results of the inquiries from the USA. One thing was very clear to Donald, in that he was not going to mention the Secretary of State to his wife.
He also considered asking to see the First Minister. She could formally ask for help from London, now that there was a clear connection between the UK and US cases.
Donald felt the frown lines on his face growing deeper by the minute. Not for the first time, he considered that it might be time to retire.
[to be continued]
[1] Home Office Large Major Enquiry System
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/HOLMES_2
[2] VICAP is the FBI Violent Criminal Apprehension Programme.
Lee sent over what the FBI had on the cases that could be released to Donald's department without all sorts of very lengthy approvals. Even with huge amounts of redaction, it took Donald two days to go through the files. They didn’t make pretty reading because it was as if he was reading a report from West Midlands rather than one from West Virginia. The similarity between all the cases was uncanny and slightly unnerving.
The victims were all very much loners. None had steady girlfriends, had been married or had significant financial problems. The most any one of them owed was just over $1000 and that was the balance outstanding on a car loan.
None of the US cases had any student debt outstanding which puzzled Donald. He didn’t know much about the US education system but he did know that student debt was a huge millstone around graduates. It was also a small but growing problem in some parts of the UK.
All but one of the missing persons in the US were graduates. Someone must have paid off their debt. Donald sent an email to Lee asking that very question.
Less than an hour later, Donald’s phone rang.
“Hello?”
“Son? Where are you? Are you safe? Are you well?”
“Yes, I’m listening.”
Donald listened to what his son was saying for almost a minute.
“But William! Your mother is worried sick about you.”
“Yes son, I’ll tell her that. Why can’t you come home and tell her yourself?”
“I know that it is your life but…”
“Ok son. I’ll tell her that you love her. Don’t leave it too long before you come home ok?”
The line went dead.
Donald sat thinking for several minutes. Then he picked up his phone and called the number that the call had come from. Even before it connected, he knew that it would fail. The number, while apparently presenting itself as being from the Newcastle area, had too many numbers. It was a non-existent number.
The automated response telling him that the phone system was unable to connect to the number came as no surprise.
That alone made life even harder for him. It was good that his son was alive, but it was not good that he or someone that he was associated with had gone to so much trouble to hide his whereabouts. It was very, very troubling.
Over the course of the next hour, Donald picked up his phone to call his wife. Each time, he put it down again. Telling his wife would have to wait for him to speak to her face to face.
There was little he could do on that front. At least he could keep Lee and his colleagues in the USA up to date.
Donald sent off an email to Lee outlining the call he’d received before heading off home.
“I have some news. Please sit down while I tell you?”
“Noooooooooooooo!” shrieked Eileen.
“He’s not dead.”
“But you told me to sit down?”
Donald nodded.
“William called me today. He said that he is fine and well.”
“Where is he? What is he doing?”
"I don't know where he is. He called from a spoofed number in Newcastle. All I know is that he is fine and well and that we should stop looking for him."
“Didn’t you try to get him to come home?”
"I did but, he was firm in that he has a new life and they… well… we… I… should stop looking for him.”
Eileen was silent. Her pain was evident as the tears rolled down her cheeks.
“Why has he done this to me?” sobbed Eileen.
Donald put his arm around his wife.
"He's ok. Isn't that what matters?"
“He’s my baby boy. I want him back!”
“Shhh, darling. He's a grown man. He's not your baby any longer."
“I want him back.”
"He was clear that he has started a new life, and from the tone of his voice, he seemed happy."
“How can you say that! He walked out on us!”
“He’s an adult darling. How could I have stopped him? He has done nothing wrong, broke no laws.”
“He’s my son!”
“And mine,” said Donald as he held his wife tightly.
Donald spent the rest of the day consoling his wife. Eventually, she came around to the fact that William had the right to choose his own future. As it was a Friday, Donald spent the weekend wondering what to do next. Nothing was the easy course of action but, deep down, he knew that there must be something he could do but what? That question remained unanswered.
Several emails were waiting for Donald when he arrived for work the following Monday. Two of them were from Lee in the USA.
Several dozen more cases had come to light from all over Europe. They all followed the same pattern. Firstly, the delivery of some red roses, then a disappearance. All of those involved were adults and without any dependents. The various Police Departments were reluctant to get involved because of those facts.
A further email detailed the payments of the student debt. All the money had come from a reclusive Swiss organisation called the Mashley Foundation. Its source of money was a multitude of offshore accounts located in various tax havens around the world. Lee also said that the US Treasury was already looking into those accounts. The general opinion was that these accounts were being used for money laundering.
Lee had some bad news to go with this information.
He told Donald that almost all of the funds that had come from the Foundation were used for the settlement of student debt. Because of that, the US Government were reluctant to pursue the matter further. Lee had given Donald a heads up about a message that was to be sent from Washington to the UK government about the missing persons. Lee had used the words 'hands off' at the end of his email.
Donald knew that it would take at least two days for any 'stop' directive, to work its way through Whitehall, then to the Scottish Office, then to the Scottish Government and finally to his boss in Holyrood.
He had 48 hours to continue his investigations before the official word to stop would reach him. His only problem would be where to start.
His only lead was this shady Swiss foundation. Donald spent most of the rest of the day researching the funding of the Mashley foundation, its origin and particularly how it got its funding.
All too soon, it was the end of the day, and Donald had gotten nowhere. This in itself, puzzled him but, there was little he could do without any firm leads. He had one problem with the student debt. Because of the policies of the Scottish Government, the level of student indebtedness was an order of magnitude lower than in England. Due to the lower level of debt, it wasn’t uncommon for students to pay off what debt they had incurred in one go. Nothing in the records available to him showed anything suspicious relating to payments of debt.
In the case of his son William, he hadn’t been to university so his name would never come up in any of those lists. Another dead end.
Donald went home feeling frustrated. Frustrated at his lack of progress, and that he'd used half his time before the official 'cease and desist' notice, would be applied to him.
Donald was no farther forward by the time he went for his usual lunchtime stroll the next day.
As it was a Tuesday, he headed for the Botanical Gardens. He only stopped along the way to pick up a sandwich from a shop in Cannonmills. A brisk walk later, he arrived in the haven that was the gardens. In the spring, the sheer variety of flowers that were in bloom always astounded him. He was a total jinx when it came to gardening. Any living thing he touched would soon keel over and die but Donald did appreciate the beauty of the natural world.
That left his wife Eileen, in charge of their garden at their home in Warriston. She'd made it an oasis for anything in the insect world. Every spring, a beehive would mysteriously appear at the bottom of the garden. When the hive was removed in October, a few pots of honey would make breakfast times very enjoyable. Donald enjoyed the fruits of nature but from afar. He also kept his distance from the hive. He was not a fan of insects in general and even less of those who could fight back. A bee had stung him up his nose when he was seven. Since then, he’d been afraid of insects that flew.
The relative silence of the gardens would also make his lunch enjoyable. The faint hum of traffic from Ferry Road was downed out by the rampant birdsong making the place a veritable oasis in the middle of the city.
Donald sat down near a large Forsythia. Its vibrant yellow flowers were nearing the end of their life but he didn’t mind. They’d been a constant patch of yellow since March.
As he ate his sandwich Donald contemplated what he could do in the few hours he had left before the order to stop his investigations arrived on his desk. He felt empty in that everything he'd tried had led nowhere. It wasn’t often that he had to admit defeat but this was one of them.
Donald contemplated staying there for the remainder of the afternoon. But Donald was not a quitter. He felt that he had to do something. The question was what that something was.
His daydreaming was interrupted by someone sitting next to him. His nose told her that it was a woman. Her scent was alluring. He didn't want to stare, so out of politeness, he didn't turn to look at her.
"Hello, Dad," said a soft voice.
Donald almost leapt out of his skin. The voice belonged to his son. He turned around, wanting to know just who had mimicked the voice of his missing child.
Then he saw the face. It was Williams but…
“Son?”
"Sorry for startling you dad, but I knew that you would be here today. I'm not William any longer. My name is Dianna."
“But…?”
"I know that you have a million questions but, that's not why I'm here. You have been looking into the disappearance of people like me, haven’t you?”
"Yes, but?"
"Dad, just stop it. Stop trying to find us. We are all living a new life. Lives that were not possible before we left. I have been given, the chance to be the person I could never be if I had stayed here in Edinburgh. We have all been given that chance so please, just stop and ask yourself why that is?"
“You mean your mother, Eileen?”
Dianna smiled.
“Exactly. Mum would never in a million years accept me looking like this.”
Donald looked at the person sitting next to him. Deep down, he knew that his dear wife would never have accepted William, becoming Dianna. He'd always been put on this pedestal by his wife. She'd sulked for months when William told her that he wasn’t going to university. That wasn’t the future that she’d planned for him ever since she’d given birth to him at the Western General Hospital.
Donald nodded his head.
“Good,” said Dianna.
Then she carried on with her story.
"I was offered the chance to be the person I've always dreamed of being. I'm just starting on my journey. Many of us have completed that journey and are living out in the open, in society as the person we have always wanted to be. That is the journey I want to take myself."
“You talk about ‘us’?”
"Yes, Dad, 'us'. I am living with others just like me while I complete my transition. Then I'll find a partner and live my life as I want to, not as mum wanted me to."
“She only means well.”
“I know that but in her eyes, I should have gone to university, started working for a bank or insurance company and be married to someone from a good Morningside family, live in a villa[1] out near Penicuik and have a child on the way. Am I right?”
Donald had to admit that Eileen's plan for their son had been well telegraphed many times over the years to anyone who would listen. It wasn’t Donald’s plan and to his pleasure, William had rebelled against her plan right from the start. In recent years it had become clear to Donald that William was not going to even remotely fit the mould that his mother had cast him in. What Dianna was saying made perfect sense to him.
"You know your mother. I'm a failure in the eyes of some of her family, and I'm the Procurator Fiscal. Nothing short of First Minister would do for them, and we get the 'wee poison dwarf' as the first minister.
“Dad! That’s no way to talk about the leader of Scotland.”
“She’s not my leader. Never will be and never could be.”
Dianna laughed.
“That’s as maybe, I never wanted to be like her.”
The words ‘be like her’ hit Donald hard right in the solar plexus.
“I love your mother.”
"I know but, your grandmother had a plan for her daughter. As soon as her mother saw you, you were doomed. Your mum told me about it when I became a teenager. She told me to enjoy my time before my mother's plan for my life was put into action. I was to do as I was told to if I valued my life until I found my course in life. I have done just that."
Donald laughed.
"Your gran was a formidable woman before she went doo-lally."
"I know. I got the sharp end of her, tongue often enough. I just wanted to be me, and that was not remotely like the model that mum had for me."
“But to be a woman?”
“Yes. I’ve always wanted to be one. I knew from an early age that I was born wrong. Mum would have nothing to do with it. I told her once and she went mad. She told me in no uncertain terms that I could never ever be a woman and that I was to be the man that she’d wanted me to be since the day that I was born.”
Dianna looked down at the floor.
“When I was approached at last years ‘Pride’ I never hesitated to say yes. I’d pretty much forgotten all about it until the bunch of roses arrived. I had to leave when I did or my chance would be gone.”
“You never told me? She never told me?”
"I know. I was scared too. I was going to tell you when we met after the match, but you got delayed. Everything was in place for my exit later that night, so I had to go right then."
"Was that you, we saw getting on a Ferry to Ireland?"
Dianna laughed.
“No, it wasn’t. I went down south in a van. It picked me up when I got off the train at Falkirk High.”
“You say that there are a number of you?”
"I can't give too many details, but yes, there are. I don’t know the true number but my guess is that it is around a hundred at any one time. We are here and in a few other places around the world including the USA. All those missing people that your friend Lee told you about? They are alive and well. One of those told us about your enquiries."
“You have a mole in DC?”
Dianna shook her head.
“I don’t know the details but there is one of us who is living their life as they want and is working in a certain US government department. She alerted us about the investigation that led back to Scotland. As soon as I heard the word ‘Edinburgh’, I knew that it would be you who was behind the investigation. I’m here today as a result and to ask you to in legal terms, ‘cease and desist’.”
“You want me to stop looking for others like you?”
“Please. You know that I’m ok. What you tell Mum is down to you.”
“Will I see you again?”
Dianna shook her head.
“Not for a while. I might come back when I have finished my transition, but I honestly don't know. Lots of things are up in the air. Mum and how she would react to me is just one of them."
“Can you promise me one thing?”
“I’ll try but please don’t ask me to speak to mum just yet.”
I shook my head.
“No. I wouldn’t ask you to do that yet.”
“Ok, what is it?”
“Can you try to get whoever is running the… the thing that you are with to get all the others to at least put their parents and loved ones out of their misery. Just not knowing is beyond cruel. Just to know that their sons are alive and well will help them deal with life a bit better.”
Dianna smiled at me.
“I will try. Just being here today has helped me no end.”
“Please do what you can. Now that I have seen you, I know that you are in a better place than before. It would be nice if at least some of the other parents could… you know what I mean.”
“I do dad, I do.”
Donald just sat there in the sun, trying to understand what was happening. His son… now living as a woman looked happy and content within herself.
"I have to go now, Dad," said Dianna.
She gave him a hug. That was something that William would never have done.
“When you have become the real you, try not to be a stranger, ok!" said Donald as Dianna stood up.
“We’ll see dad, we’ll see,” she said as she walked towards the exit to the gardens.
Donald sat there for another half an hour trying to think what, if anything, he would or could say to his wife. In the end, he decided to say nothing of the encounter. He knew how his wife would react to the news about their former son and now new daughter, Dianna.
Donald left the Botanical gardens with the outline of a plan in his mind but it would mean telling a lie and that was something he’d never done in thirty years of marriage. He’d buy his wife a nice bunch of flowers but definitely not any red roses. They were off the menu for the foreseeable future.
[The end]
[1] A villa in this case is a local term for a bungalow. A single storey house on its own plot of land. Many have extra rooms built into the roof.