Jason's Story
By Kristine Roland

Chapters 1 - 5. This is the story of Jason, a young boy coming to terms with his transgender nature. Helped by his mostly supportive family.

Authors Note: I originally started this story several years ago and posted the first four chapters on fictionmania, then real life intervened, and it sat. I have finally had time to get back to it and am up to about Chapter 15, so I wanted to post it in parts to get some feedback. More tomorrow.

Kristine

Chapter 1

Jason was in the living room, waiting for his Mom to get off the phone. He knew that she was getting ready to head out for the afternoon, and he could not wait to be home alone. A few minutes later, his Mom was off the phone.

“Jason, are you sure you don’t want to come with me?”

“I’m sure Mom. I’m just going to read a little, and watch some TV.”

“Well, ok. I’ll be home in a couple of hours. Be good. Love ya.”

“Love you too, Mom.”

Jason said, as he gave his Mom a hug, and a kiss goodbye.

With that, his Mom walked out the front door. Jason watched as his Mom got in the car and drove off. As a precaution, he waited about ten minutes to make sure that his Mom would not come back, having forgotten something.

When ten minutes, which felt like a lifetime, went by, he headed up to his parents room and went straight to his mom’s dresser. He knew exactly which drawer to open, and quickly he took a bra and a pair of panties from the bottom of the pile. He would have liked to take a skirt and blouse, but he was too afraid to take these. A skirt or blouse would be missed much more readily then a single pair of panties. The bra was more dangerous, because his Mom did not have as many of them, but she did have a quite a few, and he hoped she would not miss one if he somehow did not get it back before she got home. He would have preferred to get them from the laundry hamper, but he had already checked and knew there were none currently in the laundry. His mother had already done the wash.

He took them back to his room. As soon as he was in his room, he closed the door, took off his clothes and put on the lingerie. Jason loved the feeling of the bra as he felt it hugging him tightly. He took some socks from his dresser and balled them up to stuff the bra, and he started to imagine real breasts to fill the bra, and a real vagina in his panties.

Jason did not know why he liked wearing his mother’s clothes, but try as he might, he could not help himself. He thought to himself that he dearly wished that he could have his own bras and panties, not to mention skirts, blouses and dresses. And don’t forget nightgowns, he thought. He felt guilty about stealing them from his mother but, at 14 years old, he could hardly go out and buy his own.

Jason liked girls, and the image in his mind of breasts and vaginas was very erotic. Between the sensations of the clothes and the images in his mind, Jason soon found he had to take care of the inevitable. He had to remove the panties, as ejaculating in them would definitely have caused him a big problem. When he had finished, the guilt hit full force. He thought to himself angrily, “What am I doing, I’m a boy! I should not be wearing my mother’s underwear, and should certainly not be masturbating while doing so!” He was filled with guilt and shame, and he quickly removed the bra, got dressed and brought them back to his mother’s room. He carefully folded them as they had been, and very carefully replaced them, trying to be sure that they were exactly the way they had been.

After about 15 minutes, the need started to fill him again. He tried to fight it, but it came on very strongly, and he soon found himself taking the bra and panty again. Back in his room, he quickly got re-dressed. He decided that he just couldn’t stand it anymore; he was going to risk it, and keep them. He tried to think of where to hide them. He went into his closet to see what would be the safest place. He found his art supply set. It was sort of like a briefcase, with pencils and paints in a plastic tray. The tray could be lifted out, and there was plenty of space below it, he thought it would make a good spot for his panty and bra.

It was getting late, and Jason knew his mother and father would both be home soon, so he reluctantly got changed, and put on his own underwear. He stashed the lingerie into its new home. The guilty feeling returned and he was considering putting them back when his mother came home.

“Jason, I’m home!”

Jason quickly went out, and his mother put him to work helping bring in the groceries that she had picked up on the way home. She then started to prepare dinner, and Jason set the table. His father got home soon after, and they had a quiet evening.

Jason went to bed, and was afraid that his mother would notice the missing underwear. He could not sleep, fearing that she would be in to accuse him any moment. However, he heard them come up to bed and after a while, he got up to use the bathroom and found that they were asleep.

When he got back to his room he quickly got changed. He decided he needed a nightgown too, so he used one of his largest t-shirts. As he got into bed lying face down, he felt the rolled up socks that were his breasts pushing into his chest. He was overcome with desire for the real thing. Before going to sleep he set his alarm to wake him at 5am, long before his parents would be up.

When the alarm rang, he instantly turned it off, and got up to change. He put his things into their hiding place, and went back to sleep.

When he got up in the morning, he was again half expecting his mother to come looking for the missing underwear. When she didn’t, he got up and went downstairs and got himself some breakfast. His mother came into the kitchen while he was eating, and he noticed that she was fully dressed for the day. So he knew she had to have been in her drawer. He braced himself for the “talk,” but it did not come.

Days went by, and the talk did not come, so Jason knew he had gotten away with it. On the one hand, he was glad that he had not been caught. On the other hand, he was really struggling with the guilt he was feeling about stealing from his mother. Jason had a very good relationship with both his parents. They were great parents, and he hated lying to them.

Eventually, Jason could not take it anymore. He decided he had to talk to his mother about his need. It wasn’t easy, and he was afraid of what she would say. He was even more afraid to have his father find out.

He finally worked up the nerve, and he went to his mom, and said “Mom, I need to talk to you.”

“Sure, honey, what’s up?”

“I think I might be gay.”

“Oh… Are you attracted to a boy?”

“No, nothing like that.”

“Ok… Are you attracted to girls?”

“Yes”

“Hmmm… Well then what makes you think you are gay?”

“It has to do with clothes.”

“Clothes?” his Mom asked, with a puzzled look on her face.

“Girl’s clothes. I love to wear girl’s clothes.”

“Do you want to be a girl?”

“I don’t know. Maybe.”

“Have you worn girls clothes? What kind of clothes, and where did you get them?”

“Yes. They were yours, usually from the hamper. Bras, panties mostly, but also skirts.”

“I see.”

“I’m sorry Mom, I just can’t help myself. Are you going to tell Dad?”

“I have to, honey, I can’t keep something like this a secret from him. You know that we love you, and we will figure out what to do about this. Stay here.”

Jason’s mom left him, and soon his father came in. “Well, Jason, your Mom tells me that you and she just had a little chat. I’m disappointed that you would ask her to keep this from me. You know that I love you, no matter what.”

“I know, Dad, but it’s hard. I know that I’m your son, and I don’t want to hurt you or Mom.”

“Jason, you should never feel like you have to keep something from either your mother or me. I’m not saying I understand what you are feeling, but I can tell you that everyone wonders from time to time what it would be like to be the opposite sex.”

“I think about it a lot, Dad.”

With that, Jason’s mom knocked and asked if she could come in. His dad replied, “Come on in, Kristine.”

“Richard, I think that we are going to need to get some expert advice on how to handle this situation. Jason, I’m going to contact Dr. Adams, I’d like to have him talk to you about this.”

Jason looked frightened, “Do you have to, Mom?”

“Yes, honey, I’m afraid we do. Don’t worry. He has been your doctor since you were born, and I’m sure he will be very discreet about it.”

“Ok, Mom.”

Chapter 2

“Well, Jason, why don’t you tell me why your Mom wanted us to talk?” Dr. Adams asked.

Jason was sitting in Dr. Adam’s main lobby on one of the comfortable chairs. It was in the evening, after the normal office hours. His mother and father had gone to get some coffee to give Dr. Adams and Jason time to talk.

“I’m sure Mom told you,” Jason replied clearly embarrassed.

“She did. But I’d like to hear about it from you. Don’t worry, Jason, while I don’t see much of this in my pediatric practice, I know enough to know that you are not the only one who feels the way you do.”

“Really, Doctor. There are other people like me? Boys that like to wear women’s clothing?”

“Yes. But there are quite a few variations on it, and I’d like to try and figure out where you seem to fit.”

“Oh. Ok. I’m not really sure what to tell you. I just can’t help myself. I get an overwhelming desire to put on Mom’s clothes. I can’t take it, and then when I do, I feel so bad for stealing them.”

“Ok, is it your mother’s clothing that you want, or just women’s clothing in general? I mean to say, if you could go to the store and buy your own women’s clothing would that satisfy the need, or does it need to be your Mom’s?”

“I would much prefer to have my own. If they were mine, I wouldn’t have to feel so guilty, because I wouldn’t be stealing from Mom.”

“What kind of clothing would you want?”

“All kinds. I would love to be able to wear a skirt. It drives me crazy, girls get to wear them, and most of them never do anymore!”

“Your mother tells me that you mostly have worn her underwear.”

“Well, I really like bras. There is nothing that is more feminine then a bra. I wish I had breasts.”

“Do you want to be a girl, then?”

“I think about it a lot. I don’t know if I would like it or not. Some things about being a boy are pretty nice, but I’d sure love to give being a girl a try!”

“How do you get along with the other boys?”

“Ok, I guess. I have some good friends.”

“Are you attracted to them?”

“Oh, no. Not at all, Dr. Adams!” Jason was quite adamant about this fact.

“Ok, Jason. Do you ever masturbate when you are dressed?”

Jason turned red, but answered, “Yes.”

“Don’t be embarrassed, Jason; it’s a natural behavior. What are you thinking about when you do?”

“Girls that I know. Usually, I fantasize about being abducted by aliens, and being forced to switch places, so she is me, and I am her.”

“So, you fantasize about being a woman with a man?”

“I fantasize about being a woman with me, but also with me with her as herself. It’s confusing sometimes.”

Dr. Adams chuckled, “I guess you need a program to help you keep track. I’m sorry, Jason; I don’t mean to laugh at you. Actually, I have to tell you, I am very impressed that you were able to go to your Mom and tell her. It speaks very highly for the trust you have in your parents. Many people like yourself are not so lucky.”

“I love them, and I know they love me. I hated lying to them. I figured it couldn’t really be any worse for them to know. Although if they had gone ballistic, which I was afraid of, I’m not sure what I would have done. It would have made it very difficult, since I don’t think I can quit doing this.”

“Have they given you permission to continue?”

“No, but Mom hasn’t tried to take back the bra and panty I took.”

“Did you tell her that you have them?”

“No, not exactly. I guess I didn’t. I don’t know what I will do if they make me give them back. I don’t want to steal from her, but I don’t think I can stop.”

“I don’t know whether you can or not. This is not my area of expertise, as you know. I have some thoughts on the subject, but I think you should speak to someone that is very familiar with transgender issues.”

“Transgender?”

“Transgender is a generic term for many types of people that are not comfortable with their physical gender, or gender role. There are psychologists that have made a career out of helping transgender people.”

“So you are saying that I am crazy, I need a shrink.” Jason started to get upset.

“No, Jason, not crazy. Psychologists help people that are confused, or need a little help understanding themselves. You are most definitely not crazy, but you are most definitely having some transgender issues. So you could use some help figuring out what is right for you, and a psychologist that is strong in that area would be of considerable help to you.”

Jason calmed down and said “Ok Doctor. If you think it will help. Will that cure me?”

“If you mean by that make you quit cross dressing, I don’t know. I’m not even sure that that should be the goal for you. One way or the other though, I hope you will come away feeling better about yourself in the end. But, Jason, I must say to you, you are NOT sick. You don’t need to be ‘cured.’ You need a little help in getting in touch with yourself and who you really are.”

“Ok.”

“I see your mom and dad just pulled in the parking lot. I will need to talk to them in private for a few minutes. Why don’t you go play the video game for a little while.”

“Sure, thanks, Dr. Adams. I really appreciate this talk, I feel a lot better.”

“You’re welcome, Jason.”

Chapter 3

The ride home was quiet. Jason could not read his parents’ expressions after they had spoken with Dr. Adams. When they got home, Jason went into his room and picked up a book to read. A short time later, his mother and father came in and sat on the bed next to him.

“Jason, we need to talk to you,” his mother said.

“Ok, Mom.”

“As you know Dr. Adams has suggested that we take you to see a psychologist that specializes in helping people with transgender issues. He also told us that we should not get our hopes up that this is something that would likely go away, or that you would grow out of. Even with treatment, he said, the odds are that you will always feel this need. I’m not sure that I accept that, and I am going to reserve my judgment on it until we have met with Dr. Daniels. In the meantime, I understand that you have some underwear that you took from me. Dr. Adams suggested that for the moment that I should let you have them. You may have them, but I want you to promise me that you will not take or use anything else of mine. No more sneaking into my drawer or the laundry; is that clear.”

“Yes ma’am.”

“In addition, I don’t want them hidden, so please get them from wherever they are hidden and put them in your underwear drawer. And they need to be washed when they have been worn.”

“But I only have one of each.”

“Jason, I expect you, at least for now to try to resist wearing them at all. I am allowing you to keep them, because Dr. Adams says that if I take them from you, you might be unable to control yourself from stealing something else from me. I don’t want you to have to do that, if you simply must do this.”

“Yes ma’am. I’m sorry that I have disappointed you.”

“Jason, we love you, and you have not disappointed me.” She nodded to Jason’s father, who nodded his agreement. Then she continued, “I don’t understand this at all, but I love you, and we will meet with Dr. Daniels and try to figure out what is best for you. It may be that I will have to accept that this is who you are. If so, I will still love you. But I can’t say that it doesn’t worry me. I want you to be happy, and, someday, to find someone to share your life with. You tell me that you are not interested in boys, so you are not gay, but it will be very difficult for you to find a woman that will want to be with you if you are dressed as a woman yourself. That saddens me.”

“Mom, Dad, I love you both. I’m sorry, I don’t want to hurt or worry either of you. I don’t understand it all myself, I just know that I need to do this. I will try to control it, but I have tried before, and just haven’t been able to. I will try again. When will we be meeting with Dr. Daniels?”

“I have to call and make an appointment with him.”

“Ok.”

“All right, it is getting pretty late. Why don’t you get ready for bed, and call it a night. I will call Dr. Daniels tomorrow and get an appointment.”

“Thanks Mom. Love you.” Jason hugs his mother, and then turning to his father, says, “I love you too, Dad.” He and his father exchanged a quick hug as well. “Good night.”

Chapter 4

When Jason got home from school the next day, his mother told him that she had made an appointment with Dr. Daniels for the following Wednesday. When Jason went into his room, he found that his mother had washed the panty and bra, and placed them in his underwear drawer. He couldn’t believe they were really his now, and that they belonged in his drawer. He just had to reach out and touch them, as if to make certain they were really there.

Jason was hit with an incredible desire to put them on right then and there, but he knew his mother would be very disappointed, and he resolved to try to resist as long as he could. With great effort, he closed the drawer and got started on his homework. His mother came in to check on him in a little while. “Jason, how was school today?”

“It was ok,” he replied.

“Do you have a lot of homework tonight?” his mom asked.

“Not really. Just some math, and some reading,” he answered. “I’m actually almost done with the math, and it is only a few pages in the Social Studies book.”

“Good. Did you notice I washed your ‘things’ and put them in your underwear drawer.” Her face looked pained as she said the word ‘things.’

“Yes, I noticed. Thank you.” Jason said quietly. “It is driving me crazy having them so close, and not being able to wear them. I know how much that hurts you, Mom, and I will try very hard to resist the temptation.”

“Oh Jason, I’m not trying to torture you. I guess it is a little like leaving a bottle of 20-year-old scotch just out of reach of an alcoholic. I would take them out of here, but then my things are just as close by. I don’t know, Jason; I just am so confused. What did your father and I do that brought this out in you? What should we have done differently?”

“Mom, I don’t know much about this yet, but Dr. Adams implied that it is not that uncommon. As far as I’m concerned you and Dad are the best parents anyone could ask for. I don’t know why I feel this way; I’m hoping that Dr. Daniels can help me to understand it myself. But I do know that I really don’t believe it has anything to do with you and Dad. I just can’t see how that is possible.”

“Well, I guess we are just going to have to take it a day at a time and see where this leads. Your father and I will be behind you, no matter what happens. I know it is hard, but I am going to ask you to keep trying to resist, for now. But, Jason, I don’t want you to torment yourself. If you are really tearing your hair out, then do what you have to, I’m not going to get mad at you.”

“Thanks, Mom, that actually helps.”

Jason made it through about three days before he just couldn’t take it any more. Each morning he woke up, and getting a clean pair of underwear out of his drawer, he would see the panty and bra and it was driving him up the wall. Finally, on Saturday morning, he just could not take it any more. He put on his bathrobe and went out and found his mother was in the kitchen having her morning coffee.

“Mom, I can’t take this anymore! I have tried, but I can’t go another day like this.”

“Ok, Jason.”

“Ok?”

“Jason, I told you I would not be angry with you, and that I did not want you to torment yourself. You have done very well, and I appreciate the effort that has gone into it. If you need to, you need to. We do have some errands to run today, but they can wait a little while. I would think you probably would not want to go out with bra straps showing under your t-shirt.”

“No, I don’t think that would be a very good idea.”

“Well, it is ten o’clock now; let’s plan on leaving by noon. Why don’t you take a quick shower, and then get dressed until it is time to go.”

“Thanks Mom. Do I have to stay in my room?”

“No dear. I may have to get used to this, so you may as well come on out.”

“Thanks.”

Jason raced into the bathroom, and very quickly took a shower. Once finished he went into his room and quickly put on his clothes. As soon as the bra was on, he could feel himself starting to relax. He thought about stuffing the bra, and decided not to push it. He knew his Mom was doing something that was very difficult for her, and did not want to make it any harder then it was.

Still he could not keep the smile off his face. He finished getting dressed, and then tentatively went back to the kitchen.

“Come on in, Jason. I’m not going to bite. You don’t really look that different. Since I know you have it on, I can see it, but would probably not even notice otherwise. Oops, when you turn around, I can definitely see the straps outlined. I would not suggest that you go out with that on. But I have to admit, you seem more relaxed and frankly happy then I have seen you in months.”

Jason blushed at the thought that his mother could see his bra straps, but he said “Mom, I just feel so comfortable right now. And I could feel the stress flowing from my body, as I got dressed. It just feels so right to me.”

“Well, if you continue this way, tell me a bra is comfortable on a hot, humid summer day, and we will see how you feel then!”

“Oh I understand that, and, really, that isn’t what I mean by comfortable anyway. It is more like I feel comfortable with myself, like I’m not hiding the real me. I know that probably doesn’t make sense to you, but it just is a very strong feeling for me.”

“I may not understand why dressing like that is making you feel like that, but I think I understand what you mean. Why don’t you fix yourself some breakfast; I’m sure you are hungry. Then, since you can’t go out and cut the grass dressed that way, you can help me inside with my chores.”

“Ok, Mom.” Jason grabbed a bowl, the milk and some cereal.

“Jason, I will admit, I’m curious.”

“About what?” he answered between bites of cereal.

“Well, I know that you have occasionally worn a skirt or blouse of mine. But you said that was fairly rare.”

“Yes, only if I could find something in the laundry. I was too afraid I would wrinkle or mess up something from your closet, and since you usually do the laundry Saturday morning, it was rare that I would have an opportunity. But I really loved it when it would happen.”

“I see. So you usually would wear them with your clothes? You really look no different dressed this way, unless you look very close.”

“Well, I would do some other things to appear more feminine,” he turned red as he answered his mother. “Plus it didn’t matter what I looked like, as much as what I felt like.”

“I see. I guess it would be hard to ignore the fact that you are wearing a bra. I barely even notice mine now; of course I would notice if I were not wearing one, but you don’t have breasts.”

“No, but I would fake them.”

“Oh, what did you use to stuff your bra?”

“Just rolled up socks. It was all that I had.”

“Why didn’t you do that this morning?”

“I did not want to push you too much. I know that this is really hard for you, and I did not want to make it any harder.”

“I see. Jason, go stuff your bra.”

“Mom, it’s Ok.”

“Jason, I don’t know what is going to happen in the future. We may ultimately reach a point where you move past this need, or I may ultimately have to get used to you as my daughter. If it is a possibility that you are going to be my daughter, then maybe I better start getting to know you. Besides, you are more likely to resist the temptation if, when you do get to do so, it is fully satisfactory. Now, please go stuff your bra.”

“Yes Ma’am.”

When Jason returned, his mother looked him over, and said, “Well, now you look a little more like a girl. But those rolled up socks are a bit lumpy, and they don’t move quite right. Obviously, if we do decide to explore this direction further, we will have to do something about that. For this morning though, that will do. Are you finished with breakfast?”

“Yes, I’ve had enough.”

“Ok, then why don’t you start by cleaning the kitchen? I’m going to go work on the laundry.”

“Sure, but what do you want me to do?”

“Well to start with, the things in the dishwasher are clean, put them away, and then take this morning’s breakfast dishes and put them in the dishwasher. Then clean the counter tops. Make sure you do under the toaster; there are bound to be plenty of crumbs there. When the counters are done, sweep and mop the floor.”

“Ok.”

Jason got to work, and was just about done mopping the floor when his mom came in. “Very good, Jason, thank you for helping me. We still have about 45 minutes, why don’t you take the guest bathroom, and I’ll do the upstairs one. If you finish up and have time, run the vacuum in the living room.”

Jason was finishing up the living room when his Mom called out, “Jason, great job, but it’s time to get moving. I’m afraid you have to go get changed. Hand me your lingerie after you take it off, I’m just about to run that through the wash.”

Jason reluctantly agreed and went into his room and got changed. He came out, handed his bra and panty to his mother, and said “Thank you, Mom, I really enjoyed this morning.”

“You’re welcome, Jason. And thank you, I appreciate the help you gave me this morning.”

“You’re welcome, Mom. What are the errands that we have to run?”

“I need to go to the grocery store. And then we are going to stop at the mall; we need to pick up a few things there.

Chapter 5

That night Jason reflected on the day. He had very much enjoyed the morning, working with his mother dressed at least in part as her daughter. He now knew for certain that no matter what happened after he started meeting with Dr. Daniels, that his parents would accept him.

He had been mildly disappointed that the trip to the mall had been only to pick up a gift, card and wrapping paper for his young cousin’s birthday. He had fantasized that his mother would add to his wardrobe, now that she had seen how much he needed this part of himself. Still, he understood how difficult this morning had been for his mother, and he was determined to make this as easy as possible for her.

Sunday morning he woke up and got ready to go to his cousin’s birthday party. As he put on his dress shirt and slacks, he wished he could have a nice party dress to wear instead. “Maybe next year,” he thought to himself. “I guess that really depends on what happens when I meet Dr. Daniels.”

On the way to the party, he asked, “Mom, you haven’t mentioned anything about, um, well you know, to Grandma and Grandpa or any of the rest of the family have you?”

“No, Jason. I don’t think it is necessary for them to know about that yet. I think we need to see how things go with Dr. Daniels before we make any decisions on telling them about it.”

“Jason, your mother and I will love and support you, no matter what happens. In the end, so will your Grandmother and Grandfather, but it will take some doing to bring them around. Aunt Sally will be fine, she is pretty liberal, and has a number of gay and lesbian friends. I suspect however, that your Aunt Jessica will have a total conniption, should she find out. She will start misquoting scripture, and condemn you to eternal damnation. She is not a very tolerant person.”

“I know Dad. I’ve heard her go off on all kinds of people. I guess that is why I was a little nervous about going to their house right now.”

“I doubt you would be welcome at their house if she knew, Jason. Which would almost be a blessing.” His father said with a grin.

“Richard! Is that any way to talk about your sister?” his mother said, although she had a grin on her face as she said it.

“Well she was alright until she met Bob. You can be certain that he would not allow Jason in his home, if he were to find out.”

“Dad, do you think they might be right. Maybe I am committing some huge sin.” Jason asked, looking upset.

“Jason, I don’t claim to know why you have this need to do this. But you are 14 years old, and from what you have told us this has been going on for several years already. You didn’t start this because it was ‘wrong.’ Something inside has made you this way. Maybe you can learn to overcome it. Maybe not. If you can, then that would help you because in this society, this is going to cause you problems. If not, then you will have to learn to deal with those problems. Either way, this does not seem to me to be something you ‘chose’ to do, and if that is the case, then my belief is that God made you this way. I just cannot bring myself to believe that a just god would do that to you and then ask you to spend your entire life trying to fight this need. The God I believe in is not that cruel. And I don’t care how many Old Testament quotes your Aunt Jessica throws out at me.”

“I agree with your father. I simply do not believe that God cares at all about the man-made artifact of clothes and which ones you wear. I’m sure he cares about how you use the body that he gave you, but he also gave you your mind. So no, I don’t think they are right.”

“Ok. I hope you are right, because I really don’t want to go to hell.” Jason said.

“Jason, if this is cause for God to send a 14 year old boy to hell, then he is not worthy of our worship or respect.” Jason’s father said passionately. “I’m sorry Jason, I don’t mean to sound disrespectful. I just get really upset about people that are so self-righteous and think that they have all the answers, and use that to look down or judge others. And I am overly sensitive to it, where my sister is concerned.”

“Well Richard, lets not borrow trouble. Jessica has no reason to know about what Jason is going through, and we aren’t going to give her one for now.”

“Agreed.”

“Yes Ma’am” Jason replied.

“Jason, just to be sure, you aren’t wearing anything right now are you?” Jason’s mother asked?

“No, it was tempting, particularly for the panties, as they would not show, but I was good.”

“That is good because here we are.”

Jason's Story
By Kristine Roland

Chapters 6 - 10. This is the story of Jason, a young boy coming to terms with his transgender nature. Helped by his mostly supportive family.

Chapter 6.

Jason and his family walked into his Aunt Jessica’s home, and found everyone already in the living room.

Jason, his mother and father, all said, “Happy Birthday, Billy!”

Jason’s Mom added, “Four years old today! What a big boy you are getting to be.”

As Jason was making the rounds and saying hello to his Aunts and Uncles, a young girl, about seven came running up to him and shouted, “Jason! Are you going to play with me?”

“Of course I will Emily. But you have to remember that today is Billy’s birthday, not yours, so I have to make plenty of time for him too.”

Jason’s Aunt Sally said to her daughter, “Jason is right Emily, I’m sure you and he will have plenty of time, when Billy takes his nap.”

“That’s ok.”

Billy’s older brother Tom came in and said, “Hey Jason. How’s it going?”

“Fine, Tom. Heard your football team won the championship this year. Congratulations.”

“Yeah, we did. Thanks. How did your team do?”

“I really don’t care much for football; I played soccer instead, we finished third.”

“Whatever,” Tom said with obvious disdain, and then added, “well, see ya, I’m going up to my room to play some X-box.”

Jason frowned for a moment, then put on a smile and turned back to Billy and Emily. “So what would you two like to do? Billy, it’s your birthday, so you choose.”

“Wanna play with cars.”

“That sounds like fun. Emily, do you want to join us?”

“Ok.”

Jason took Emily and Billy by the hand and went with them into the playroom in the basement. There he found Billy’s collection of toy cars. He got the box down off the shelf.

Billy, Emily and Jason proceeded to play with the tiny cars for about an hour or so. Billy was starting to get glassy eyed, when his mother came in to get him.

Aunt Jessica said, “Billy, it is time for you to take a nap.”

“Don’t wanna!”

“Billy, you do what your mother tells you to do, or I won’t be able to play with you any more!”

“Oh, ok.” Billy said with a pout on his face.

“Thanks Jason,” his Aunt Jessica said with a smile.

“No problem, Aunt Jessica.”

“So Emily, what would you like to do now?”

“We could play with my Dolly?”

“If you like.” Jason settled down with Emily and followed her lead, playing with her.

A little while later, Tom came into the room.

“Dolls, Jason? You don’t like football, and you play with dolls. Sheesh.”

“What’s your problem Tom? I’m just being a good cousin.”

“Boys don’t play with dolls.”

“Tom, don’t be an idiot,” Jason replied. “Emily doesn’t have anyone else to play with, and this is what she wants to do. I played cars with Billy because that is what he wanted to do.”

“Whatever.” Tom sneered back at him.

“Why shouldn’t Jason play dolls with me,” asked Emily?

“Because dolls are for girls. Boys don’t play with dolls!” Tom said.

Emily looked puzzled, “What do you mean, my friend Christopher plays with his He-man and GI-Joe dolls, and he is a boy.”

“Those aren’t dolls, they are action figures,” said Tom. “It’s not the same. He probably stages battles and fights wars with them; he doesn’t have tea parties and play dress up with them.”

“Yes he does, he is always changing his uniform, and his accessories. How is that any different?” Emily was completely confused.

“It just is. I’m sure he would not want to play with your dolls.” Tom said.

“Tom you are being ridiculous. I’ve seen Emily and Christopher play, and they set up elaborate plots. GI Joe sometimes does sit down with Barbie and have tea, but then they go off and get involved in some international intrigue. Emily’s Barbie could give James Bond a run for his money.”

“I’m sure.”

“Was there something you wanted when you came in here Tom, or did you just come to be a pain in the butt?” asked Jason.

“I’m just getting my baseball glove; I’m going to hang out with some friends.” Tom got his glove and left.

“Why is he such a jerk?” Emily asked.

“I don’t know Emily, don’t worry about Tom. He doesn’t know what he is talking about.” Jason replied. “Forget him; let’s get back to our game.”

The rest of the afternoon passed without incident. After dinner, cake and the opening of Billy’s presents, Kristine said, “Ok, Jason it is time to head home.” Jason nodded, and said goodnight to his Aunt and Uncle, Billy and even Tom.

Richard pulled his sister Sally aside and asked her, “Do you have to head straight home, or can you come by our house for a bit?”

Sally gave him a bit of a questioning look, but responded, “It’s pretty much on the way, so we could stop by for a little while.”

“Thanks Sally. We will meet you there.” Richard replied.

Chapter 7

Jason was quiet as they got into the car to head home. He was thinking about how Tom had acted earlier today, he knew without question that Tom would never accept him if he found out. Moreover, he knew that Tom’s attitudes were just a reflection of his parents. Knowing that once they find out that he will probably never be able to see Billy again hurt.

“What’s the matter, Jason?” his mother asked.

“I’m just thinking about how sad it is that I may lose touch with Billy. Tom jumped all over me today just for playing with Emily and her dolls. I wasn’t thinking about being a girl, just Emily’s older cousin. I like that Emily and Billy enjoy my company. Is there anything wrong with that?”

“Of course not Jason. It’s true though that most boys your age would rather go out and play with other boys their age, then hang out with their younger cousins,” his mother said.

“Mom, I like going out and playing ball. And I would have had a good time if I had gone and played with Tom and his pals, but Billy and Emily would have been disappointed, and I would hate to do that to them. I don’t see them every day, I can always go play ball with my friends.” Jason replied.

His mother nodded, “I understand, Jason. But you know that may just be another manifestation of the whole thing. You are much more nurturing then a typical boy your age. That is not a bad thing, in fact it makes you special, and if that is part of what is going on here, I would not want to do anything that would change that part of you.”

“Dad, why did you ask Aunt Sally to stop at our house?”

“Your mother and I talked it over, and we would like to talk to her about you. Sally is very liberal, and she is friends with lots of people that lead ‘alternative’ lifestyles. If things go the way that Dr. Adams thinks they will, then her contacts may be able to assist us. There is no doubt in my mind that she will be very supportive to you, no matter what path turns out to be right for you. I am also confident that she will be discrete for now.”

“Oh. You really think she will accept me?”

“Jason, it will be far easier for her then it is for your mother and me.”

“I’m sorry Dad. I don’t want to be a disappointment to you.” Jason said in a small voice.

“Jason, I keep telling you, you are not a disappointment to me, or your mother. It may not be easy, but you are our son, and we love you, no matter what. It is just going to take some adjustment on our part to fully accept this.”

With that, they pulled into the driveway at Jason’s house, and went inside.

They all headed into the living room. Jason’s mom and Aunt Sally put together a tray of soft drinks and brought them in.

Sally said, “Ok, Richard what did you want to talk about?”

Richard looked at Jason and Emily. “Emily, I need to talk to your mom for a little bit about a private matter, but I need Jason to be a part of it. Can you go play in the rec room for a while on your own? Jason will be in, in a little bit.”

“Ok, I guess, Uncle Richard.”

“Jason, take her in, and come on back please.”

Sally raised her eyebrow, but did not say anything. A few minutes later, Jason returned.

“So, what is this about, Richard?” Sally asked?

“Jason recently admitted to us that he is transgender. We are not really certain yet as to whether he is a cross-dresser or a Trans-sexual. He actually is going to be seeing a psychologist starting on Wednesday. Knowing some of your friends, I was wondering if you had any advice you might be able to give us.”

“Well, that is a bit of a surprise. Jason, come here.”

Jason walked over to his Aunt. Sally reached out and gave him a great big hug. “I want you to know right now that no matter what happens, I love you. You will get nothing but love and affection from Emily and I.”

“Thanks, Aunt Sally. I really appreciate that.”

“Jason, I’m not going to lie to you, it is not an easy life. Depending on just how far you need to take this, it can be very difficult. You have the advantage that your parents will love you whatever happens. Many young people in your position are not so lucky. Can you imagine what would happen if Tom told his parents such a thing?” she asked?

“Yes, I can imagine it. I think about how they are going to react to me, which would be a drop in the bucket to what they would do to Tom.” He said.

“Well, lets hope Tom is not harboring any secrets. Or if he does that he has the sense to keep them secrets for now.” She said. “But enough about Tom. If he is transgender is he is certainly doing his best to over compensate. Emily told me about the way he went after you today. That boy is going to be a problem soon. His father has pushed those ideas on him, and Jessica has bought into it all.”

“In any case, Richard, to answer your question, I do have some contacts, but I think that it is best for you to start out with the psychologist. Assuming of course that you have one that is truly knowledgeable about Transgender issues. If he starts talking to you about treatments to ‘cure him’, before he really, really gets to know Jason, run, don’t walk away. Now, I’m not saying that there is no chance that Jason can work through this and get beyond this. But in my experience, limited as it is, most of the time, suppressing the need leads to depression and worse.”

“Dr. Adams, Jason’s pediatrician, said that Dr. Daniels is highly respected in the area of Transgender problems.” Richard told her.

“Dr. Daniels? Dr. William Daniels?” she asked.

“Yes, I think that is his name.” Kristine answered.

“Jason’s in good hands then. I’ve never met him, but I know of him. Definitely work with Dr. Daniels first. Once we know more of what Jason is dealing with I can introduce him to the right people.” Sally said.

“Thank you Sally,” both Richard and Kristine replied. Jason gave her a hug and said, “Thanks Aunt Sally, it is nice to know that I have your support too. Now, Dad, can I go back to Emily, I don’t want her feelings to be hurt.”

“Run along.”

Chapter 8

“So Jason, can you tell me when you first started wearing your mother’s clothes?” Doctor Daniels asked.

“I don’t remember exactly, but I was probably 4 or 5. Mom was not home, my Grandmother was watching me. I remember seeing a bra in the hamper in the bathroom and reaching out to touch it, and trying to figure out how to put it on.” Jason replied.

“And then what?”

“I don’t really remember too much after that, and I don’t remember doing it too many other times after that until a couple of years ago.” Jason answered.

“What happened then?”

“Well, Mom had to run an errand, and I was watching a show, she let me stay at home. When she was gone, I started to feel a strong need to try on a bra again. It had been quite a long time, but I was remembering what it had felt like, and I just needed to do it. I went into the hamper and found some panties and a bra, and put them on. I could not believe how good it felt.”

Dr. Daniels asked, “In what way?”

“I felt, I don’t know, relaxed, but also excited, and well… aroused. And then I felt a little guilty because I felt aroused, but I just could not stop.”

“What did you find arousing?”

“I’m not sure. I was thinking about breasts filling out the bra, and other things in the panties.”

“Your mother’s breasts and vagina?”

“No... I mean sure, I knew these were hers, but I was not thinking about that, I was thinking of my own, or some of the girls at school.”

“Did you masturbate?”

“Not intentionally, I really had not done that before, but basically I did, without realizing it.”

“What happened then?”

“I felt really, really guilty. I did not really know what I had done, but I was sure I should not have done it. I took everything off, cleaned up as best I could and put everything back in the hamper. Then I swore I would never, ever do anything so stupid again.”

“How long did that last?”

“A few weeks, but then I just could not help myself, and found myself doing it again. Eventually I got brave enough to even go into Mom’s drawers when there was nothing in the hamper. But I love my parents and I hated lying to them, and I hated stealing from my Mom. I finally took a bra and panty and kept it, and then I just felt awful with the guilt from that, till I finally had to tell Mom, a few weeks ago.”

“How did she handle being told this?”

“Well she was concerned, but she did not punish me. She and my dad took me to see Dr. Adams. We had a good talk about it, and he suggested that I come speak to you, to learn more about myself.”

“I’m glad that you and your parents have a strong relationship. That will be very helpful for you.”

“I asked Dr. Adams if you would be able to cure me, and he said he was not sure whether that was the right thing for me or not. What do you think?” Jason asked?

Dr. Daniels put his hands together and replied “Jason, it is too soon to tell what the correct path for you will be. I think the word cure is wrong, because I don’t think that you are sick. What I am going to try to do is work with you to help you to decide what is right. Now let me ask you another question. Are you only interested in wearing girl’s clothes when you masturbate, or do you want to wear them when you are not aroused?”

“Doctor Daniels, if I could throw away all of my boys clothes and start wearing only girls clothes, I would do it in a heartbeat. Pretty much the only time I could do it before was when I could sneak them, and I would get excited, and have to do that. But last Saturday, I told my Mom that I could not take it anymore, and she gave me permission to get dressed. I felt so relaxed, and I did not get aroused. I helped Mom with the cleaning and spent the morning just helping out. It was great.”

Dr. Daniels asked many more questions and Jason answered as best he could. Towards the end of the session, the doctor asked Jason to wait in the waiting room while he spoke with his parents.

“Jason is a very nice, well mannered young man. You should be proud of him. I know that you are concerned about his cross-dressing, as well you should be. But it is clear that you have a strong family, and you will all come through this just fine. It is too early for me to give you a diagnosis. However, here are some observations.”

Jason’s mother and father, nodded their understanding, and waited for the doctor to continue.

“First, Jason began cross-dressing in earnest as puberty started to kick in. He had done it occasionally as a younger child, but it got tied with his earliest self exploration of masturbation, as such it has the risk of becoming a quite strong fetish for him. However it is more than that. Jason told me about his spending the morning with you on Saturday, dressed, which was completely non-sexual. I think that is actually good for him at this point. We want to disassociate the cross-dressing with sexual response. Before now, you combined the imagery of the appropriate body parts, and the thrill of taboo, and risk of getting caught, and that is quite a powerful thing to a 12-14 year old. By making dressing non-taboo, and just clothes, the link to sex will go away. Then from there we can determine if Jason really wants to be a girl, or just to dress like one once in a while. He may even get to be bored with it, and move on, although I must caution you, that it is rare.”

Jason’s mother asks, “So you want me to encourage him to dress?”

“Not necessarily encourage, but certainly don’t discourage it. There needs to be guidelines as to when, but I think that having him help you Saturday mornings is probably a good start. You could also have him help you in the evenings. You want to normalize the behavior, don’t force him, but I really don’t think you will have to twist his arm, at least at first. Later on, he may get tired of it, he may not, but we will have to play that by ear, and I will keep seeing him.”

“How far do we go with this? Just the underwear or full outfits? What about makeup and the rest? And do I make him change into boys clothes for bed?”

“I would start somewhat small, but certainly the underwear, and yes I would buy him a couple of outfits suitable for working around the house. No, if he wants to sleep in his girls clothes, let him, get him a basic nightgown. Don’t make it taboo. He will certainly still masturbate with them, but if it is not taboo, he will fairly quickly stop focusing on the clothes, and concentrate more on whomever he is currently finding arousing.”

“Make sure that when he is dressed as a girl, that he gets treated like a girl. He needs to understand that being a girl is more than just getting to wear different clothing. That girls are treated differently and have different expectations put upon them. Can you do this? Both of you?” Dr. Daniels asked.

Kristine looked at Richard, and he said, “Doctor, I love my son. I don’t understand this at all, but I will love him and support him no matter what. But I have to play devil’s advocate here. If we do this, are we not pretty much making the decision that Jason is never going to move past this? He is going to get so comfortable with it that it will just be what he wears? And then what, how is he ever going to find someone to spend his life with. That is what Kristine and I are afraid of. And what if he decides he wants to go all the way and have surgery?”

“Richard, it is much too soon to worry about surgery. So far, Jason strikes me as much more likely to be a cross-dresser then a trans-sexual, but again it is too soon to tell. If Jason gets that comfortable, then frankly in my experience he was never going to move past it. If you force Jason to ‘quit,’ he will continue to find ways to sneak around. And he will feel terribly guilty about it, as he has already shown. That cannot lead to anything good, believe me I have seen enough of that, and you do not want that for Jason. The other possibility is that once the ‘thrill’ goes out of it that he will move on. I can’t tell you which is going to happen yet, but in my opinion this is the best thing you can do for Jason.”

Kristine takes Richards’s hand, “Honey, I think that it is worth a try. I don’t want Jason to have to feel guilty. Maybe he will get tired of it, but if not, then we will take it from there. Doctor. Thank you.”

“You’re welcome, Mrs. Anderson. I’d like to see Jason every Wednesday for the next few months, until we see how this is working. Same time next week?”

“That will be fine Doctor.” Kristine replied.

“Then I will see him next week, good night.”

“Good night.”

Chapter 9

The ride home that night was quiet. It was kind of late, so the Anderson’s stopped for a quick dinner at a local diner. They discussed school, the upcoming baseball season and basically avoided the topic of what was discussed during Jason’s session with Dr. Daniels.

When they got home, it was time for Jason to get ready for bed. He gave his Mom and Dad a kiss and a hug goodnight, and went off to bed.

Richard and Kristine went to their own room and closed the door, and turned on the TV to make sure that it would be difficult for Jason to over hear their conversation.

“So Richard, are you going to be ok with this?” Kristine asked.

“I meant what I said to Dr. Daniels, Kris, you know that.” he replied.

“I know, Rich, but seeing him dressed up at night. Saturdays are not such a problem for you since you are working most of the time, but you won’t be able to avoid it if we allow it during the week.”

“It will take some getting used to hon, but I can handle it. How about you? You told me it was really, really hard on Saturday.”

“Yes, it was, particularly at first. Of course, I split up our work so we would be in different rooms, which gave me some time to get myself together, but I have to admit, he just looked so much more at peace when he came in to the kitchen, that I could not have done anything else.” She admitted, and then went on, “he is going to want a skirt. Even though it is just for hanging around the house, and most girls his age would just wear jeans, sweats or shorts, he will want a skirt. That is going to be a little bit hard and to see him with ‘sock’ breasts, oh my… If we are going to do this, we really will need to do something better than that.”

Richard replied, “I would say we start off slow, pick him up a couple of outfits, including some girls blouses, and proper clothing for around the house, and get him one ‘nice’ outfit he can wear here for Saturday and Sunday night dinner. Enough underwear for a week, or perhaps two weeks, so that it does not have to be washed every day, and as Dr. Daniels said a basic night gown, and he will need to have a bath robe. If I’m supposed to treat him like a girl, then he should not be running from the shower to his room in underwear anymore.”

“That makes sense. Should I just go buy them, or should I take him with me?” She asked.

Richard thought for a moment and replied, “I think he should go with you. He won’t be able to try things on, because there is no way anyone will believe he is a girl, but he should have some say in what you get, within reason of course.”

“All right then, I will take him out tomorrow after school. Are you going to call Sally and let her know what Dr. Daniels said, or do you want me to talk to her. You know she is probably going crazy wondering how it went.”

“I will call her in the morning on my way into work, it’s a bit late for tonight, you know that Emily wakes up when the phone rings, so I’m sure she won’t be expecting to hear from us tonight.”

“Ok, thanks. We should probably think about having her and Emily over for dinner soon. I don’t think that Emily will have any problem with Jason being dressed as a girl, although Sally will have to make sure she understands that it is something that is a secret for now. See what she thinks. I would say not until after this weekend though, let’s at least get through the first one ourselves before we have Sally and Emily involved. Also for now, Jason will have to understand that he is only to dress at home and when we do not have company, I am not ready to deal with Jessica and Bob finding out.”

“Agreed.”

Chapter 10

When Jason got home from school the next day, his mother was waiting for him in the kitchen. She asked him to sit with her. After the normal questions about his day, and how much homework he had tonight, she told him that she wanted to discuss what she and Jason’s father had decided, based on their discussion with Dr. Daniels the night before.

“We are going to make some changes, to accommodate your needs, and we are going to try some things out. First off, we do not want you to ever feel you need to hide this part of yourself from us again, we don’t think it is good for you to have to sneak around and lie and steal, and we believe that forcing you to quit would be forcing you to do so. So, from this point forward, the restriction on you dressing is lifted, within certain boundaries. First, you are only to dress in this house, and only when we do not have company. We may relax that to not include Aunt Sally and Emily, but we have to discuss that with her first. While we know Sally is supportive, she may not be ready to have Emily know about it yet, since Emily would have to be asked to keep it a secret. That may be too much to ask of Emily, and we will let Aunt Sally make that decision. Do you have any problems with these restrictions?” His mother asked.

“No, not at all,” Jason replied, trying to restrain his excitement.

“Good, I did not think you would object to them. When you are dressed like a girl, we will be treating you like a girl. You can’t have it both ways. You need to understand that being a girl is not all about wearing pretty clothes, etc. There is much more to it, and society treats girls differently from boys. When you come home from school, I will expect you to help out with getting dinner ready; you need to learn to cook. This is not that much different, since you sometimes helped before, as neither your father or I are particularly hung up on the standard gender roles in that way anyway, but more will be expected of you as a girl, then as a boy. Again, you and your father usually helped with the cleanup already as well, so that is not a big change. On the weekends, we will have to see what we can do, since you are supposed to cut the grass, but you can’t go outside dressed, and it still needs to be done, and girls can cut the grass just as well as boys can. On the other hand, I want you to help me out in the house like you did this past week, so we may have to find an alternative way of getting the lawn done.”

“Not a problem, I can do it, and then come in and help you.”

“Jason, you will still be in baseball, and any of the other activities that you enjoy. You will have to be on the boys teams of course, and I don’t want you to give up your friends for this. But there will be plenty of time for you to spend dressed. You know, if you are going to be treated like a girl when you are dressed, we really will need to come up with a name for you, since Jason will hardly fit. Do you have one that you think you would like?”

Jason thought for a moment and said, “I always liked the name Kelly.”

“Kelly it is then. Ok, Kelly, we are going to need to get you some more clothes. A bra and a panty are not going to cut it, if you are going to be helping me out every evening, and on the weekends. So, I’m going to need to take some measurements, please go get changed, and put on your panty and bra, and nothing else, and I will be in, in just a moment. I need to go fetch the tape measure. Oh, please make sure you use your padding, I’m afraid you still need a little help in the chest area my dear.”

Jason practically jumped out of his chair and headed into his room. “Oh… My... God…” he thought. “I cannot believe this is really happening to me. Mom is taking me shopping for girl’s clothes, for me!” Jason went straight to his dresser drawer, took out his bra and panty, and got out of his boy clothes as quickly as he could. He pulled up the panty, and put on the bra, and grabbed some socks and filled the cups as best he could. A moment later, his mother knocked on the door.

Jason was suddenly embarrassed as he realized he was going to be standing in front of her with nothing on but a bra and panties, but he opened the door and let her in. Kristine noticed that Jason was blushing, and he was trying to cover up both his crotch area and, to her amusement, his chest.

“Now Kelly, there is no reason for you to be embarrassed. I have seen you naked since the day you were born, and you have never been worried about me seeing you in your underwear before, so there is no reason for you to start now. Although, you will have to be careful about letting your father see you in your underwear now. It is just not the same for a father and a daughter as it is for a mother and a son. Chalk that up as one of the first differences you will have to learn.”

“Now unfortunately Kelly, at least at this point there is no way that anyone is going to think that you are a girl. In time, we may be able to help you with that, but puberty is certainly not helping you there. I’m afraid you are going to be dealing with some body hair issues fairly soon, as you are showing all the signs that you will be following in your father’s footsteps. For now, we are not going to worry about it, as you will only be Kelly here with your father and I, and maybe Aunt Sally and Emily. If after some time, we all feel that you need to go further down the line toward becoming a girl we can start to look into how to hide the masculine features and emphasize the feminine. But that is something to worry about in the future, after we have a better idea of what you need. OK?”

“Ok, Mom.” Jason replied his expression and tone a little deflated.

“Kelly, don’t let this get you down, your father and I, and your Aunt Sally are all definitely here for you, and we are going to make this work out, one way or the other for you. If you are going to do this, we need to start somewhere. Now the only reason I even mentioned it is because, we are not going to be able to go and try things on at the store. That would be a little difficult to explain. So we need to take really good measurements so that what we buy will fit. This is especially true for the underwear, because we can’t take it back, once it has been opened. Ok.”

“Ok” Jason replied with more enthusiasm.

Kristine took all of the measurements, and wrote them down, and then said, “Ok, Kelly, I’m afraid you have to take off the bra. But I’ll tell you what, leave on the panties, just this once. No one is going to see them through your jeans. Just be glad you don’t wear them down around your butt, like some of your peers do, as that would not work. Make it quick, so we can get moving.”

Jason probably never got dressed so quickly in his life.

“Kelly, I’m sure that you have had fantasies about going shopping for a complete new wardrobe, but I want you to understand that we are not going to go hog wild today. We are going to start by picking up several packets of sensible panties, a couple of bras, a couple of around the house outfits, and one nice outfit for Saturday and Sunday dinners. And of course any basic extras needed to complete the outfit, like hose, trouser socks, and a pair of nice shoes, and around the house shoes. You will probably need a slip too, since I’m assuming you are going to insist that the nice outfit be a dress. But we are not going to go crazy, and we are not going to do any makeup or jewelry for the moment. Understand?”

“Yes Mom, I do.” Jason replied. He knew his mom thought that he might be disappointed, but quite the contrary, as he heard her list of what they would be looking for, Jason thought he would burst with joy. “Oh… God… a COUPLE of bras, and several packets of panties! A nice DRESS, and a slip... and everything! OhMyGod, OhMyGod, do not let me wake up and find this was all a dream!”

Soon they pulled into the local mall, and after parking headed into the slightly upscale department store that Jason’s mother usually shopped at. They headed to the lingerie department first. Jason had really only seen his mothers panties, so he was shocked to learn that there were so many more styles available. His mother told him that she was not about to buy him thongs, and she suspected they would be quite uncomfortable for Jason anyway, and she likewise thought that the bikini styles were probably risky for Jason at least at the start. She let Jason chose between cotton and nylon, and between full briefs and hi-cut briefs. Jason’s mom typically wore nylon full coverage briefs, so Jason knew he liked the feel of the nylon, so he chose nylon, but he thought the hi-cut briefs were more feminine, so he chose that style. Kristine picked up several packages with a variety of colors and patterns, in his size.

Then she said quietly to him, “Kelly, as you can see, there are literally dozens of styles of bras, and different styles for different needs, etc. We really don’t have time to go through them all here tonight, so since you seem to like the style I have been using, I am going to suggest we just pick up a couple more of those that actually fit you. Mine are a little bit small for you, as your band width is actually a bit bigger than mine. From now on you really need to leave mine alone because you will stretch mine out and I will not be able to wear them. Ok.”

“No problem, Mom. I won’t need to do that anymore.”

“Good.” Kristine went over and picked up two basic white bras in Jason’s size, well Jason’s size with socks anyway she thought. As she thought about that, she looked around, and saw what she was looking for. She found some gel shaping pads, and picked them up. She told Jason that this would work better then socks. She said, “I’ll bet there are a number of girls in your school that are using a bit of ‘help’ too.”

Next they picked out a printed sleep shirt, with a v-neckline with a pretty pink bow, yellow with cute pink polka dots. Then they found a super soft, luxurious bath-robe, it was short and came to about knee length.

Kristine paid for the purchases, and then they headed over to the juniors section.

Here they started to look in earnest for some outfits for Kelly. There were a number of sales people around, so she said perhaps a little loudly, “Jason, you know Kelly better than I do, I need you to help me to pick out some things that she will like.”

Jason was quick on the uptake and responded, “I’ll do my best Mom; I don’t know much about girl’s clothes though.” Kristine smiled, “I know Jason, but you know what she wears, so just try to imagine her in what you see, and think if it seems to be similar to what she would chose for herself.”

“Ok Mom, I’ll do that.” He smiled back at her.

Jason thought about a girl in his school that he really liked, and who he thought was very pretty. He tried to think about what she would wear, and used that to guide him as he worked through the department with his mother. His mother told him that they were looking for a couple of nice tops, and some comfortable slacks or shorts for around the house. Kristine was pleasantly surprised as they went through and looked, to discover that Jason actually had fairly good taste. In the end they chose a nice, white short sleeved peasant top, it had a tie-neck with a keyhole front, and was shirred at the hem with a simple ruffle. Then they picked out a couple of basic beaded, scoop necked tees in a ribbed cotton, since they were buy one get one. They got one in tropical pink and another in a light green.

They picked out a pair of black cropped leggings, and a pair of basic white stretch Capri pants. Then Jason saw, a pleated denim skirt, knee length, with an A-line shape, and he just had to have it. Kristine knew she was not going to get away without picking up a skirt, so she let Jason get that as well.

Then they went to look at the dresses, so that he would have a nice weekend meal outfit. They found a pretty navy sheath dress that came to the knee. After paying for the outfits, they headed back over to the lingerie department and picked up a slip, and knee highs, trouser socks and panty hose to go with the various outfits they had picked up. Then they headed out into the mall to the one of the self service shoe stores.

“Ok, Jason, this is going to be the tough part, because we really cannot buy shoes without trying them on. So we are going to have to find something here. Come on back towards the back of the store.” She led Jason to a set of chairs out of sight from the entrance way, and had him sit down. “Wait here.” She told him. A few moments later she came back with a pair of nylon footies and a women’s shoe sizing tool. “Here, take off your shoes and your socks and put these on.”

“What are these?” Jason asked.

“They are footies. Your socks are too thick, most women’s shoes, except sneakers of course, are designed to be worn with nylons, bare feet, or thin ‘trouser’ socks. You can’t try on shoes with bare feet, so shoe stores keep these ‘footies’ to allow women to try on shoes. Here is a pair of boys’ shoes, so that it looks like you are trying them. Ok, now let me measure you.”

After taking the measurements, she went and grabbed a pair of simple slip on flats and a very basic pump with a minimal heel.

“Jason, again, there are tons of styles, but we don’t have time for me to teach that to you tonight. These are pretty basic shoes to start you out with, and will work for the outfits you have right now. Try them on quickly. Fortunately the store is pretty empty. I’m sure that there is probably a surveillance camera, but that can’t be helped.”

Jason quickly tried on both pairs, and they seemed to fit fine. When he stood on the pumps, even with the low heel it felt very strange, but he knew it was something he would have to get used to, if he was going to dress as Kelly.

His mom was satisfied that they would work so she told Jason to go ahead, and that he should go wait for him in one of the sitting areas by the mall entrance.

Jason went and found a seat, and started to think about all that they had done this evening. He was hard pressed to keep from going into the bags, and reviewing, but he knew how that would look, so he avoided it.

While he was waiting, a group of girls from his school walked by. “Hi Jason, what are you doing?”

“Hi Julie, Kathy, Sue. Nothing much, just waiting for my Mom. She had some shopping to do, and needed some help carrying things. She is just paying for the last of it, and so she let me come out here to take a load off. How about you?”

“Oh we are just hanging out, you know us girls; love to go to the mall. My Mom is supposed to be here any minute to pick us up. Mind if we sit here with you while we wait?”

“No, of course not. Here let me make some more room for you.”

“Looks like your Mom was busy, I love that store. What was she getting?”

“Oh, just some clothes.”

“Did you get anything nice?”

“What do you mean?” Jason asked startled.

“Well they have some really nice clothes for boys in there too. I figured since you were here with her, you might have gotten something too.”

“Um, no, most of this is for my cousin Kelly. Her birthday is coming up.” Jason improvised.

“Oh, how old is she?” Julie asked.

“Um… She is our age.” Jason replied.

“Can we see? You know Mom’s are out of touch, maybe we can help make sure that Kelly is going to like her presents.”

“Um… I don’t know, I don’t want to mess anything up, and Mom will be here in just a second.” Jason stalled.

“Oh, we would not mess anything up silly, we do this kind of thing all the time, right girls.” Kathy and Sue both agreed. Jason was not sure what to do, but fortunately he heard his mother say from behind him, “Do what kind of thing all the time? Hi Jason; who are all of your friends?”

“Hello Mrs. Anderson. I’m Julie, and this is Kathy and Sue. We go to school with Jason, and he was just telling us that he came here today to help you carry around the stuff you bought for his cousin Kelly. We were offering to take a look at what you got her to make sure that a girl our age would like it.” As Kristine raised her eyebrows, Julie quickly added, “Oh, I did not mean to be offensive, Mrs. Anderson, but you know our Mom’s have decidedly different tastes then we do, and since you don’t have a teenage daughter, well…” Julie was embarrassed. “Oh, my, really I’m sorry, that sounds horrible when I hear myself say it, but really I was not trying to be.”

Kristine laughed, “Julie, it is a pleasure to meet you. Kathy, Sue you too. I understand what you mean Julie, believe me, I had the same problem with my mother when I was your age.”

“I’ll tell you what, I will satisfy your curiosity, but let me open the bags, because frankly, I also picked up some unmentionables, and I don’t particularly want to be parading them out in the mall lobby.”

The girls laughed, and Jason blushed.

“Jason hand me that bag, the big one that has the gifts for Kelly.” Jason handed the bag over, and Kristine pulled out the capri’s and the leggings first. The girls acknowledged that while not overly exciting, they were basic pieces that would certainly be welcome. Then came the peasant top, which the girls liked a lot better, and they thought that the two tees were cute. They loved the denim skirt, in fact Kathy asked how much it was, and when she heard the answer, she said, “Oooh, did they have more?” When Kristine told her yes, she said “I have got to go get one of those.” They also liked the navy dress.

Julie said, “Mrs. Anderson, you have fine tastes.”

“Thank you Julie.”

Kathy said, “Julie, I’m going to run over there quick, I’ll be right back, I love that skirt.”

“Ok, but hurry, Mom will be here any minute, and she will not be happy if she has to wait for you!”

“Ok,” and Kathy hurried over to the store.

“She will never get back here in time,” Julie said. “She will see 5 other things, and have to try them on and oh… Mom is going to be annoyed.”

“Is you’re Mom going to be coming in, or are you supposed to meet her outside?” Kristine asked.

“She will park and come in; she does not like us to wait outside, because all of the smokers hang by the door. She does not want us to have to breathe all of that smoke.” Julie replied.

“Well, Jason and I can wait here with you and I can try to distract her, while you go fetch Kathy, if necessary.”

“Really, that would be great. Jason, your mother is cool.”

“Thanks, Julie, I think so too.” Jason replied in all honesty.

A few minutes later, Julie’s mother came in the mall entrance, and came over to greet her daughter. “Where is Kathy?” she asked as she rolled her eyes.

Julie replied quickly, “She just ran back for a minute, let me go get her.”

“Make it quick, Julie!”

“Ok Mom, by the way this is Mrs. Anderson, and Jason. Jason is in my class.” Julie said and then rushed off to get Kathy.

“Hello Mrs. Anderson and Jason.”

“Hi, and its Kristine, I’m afraid, Julie forgot to tell me your name.”

“Oh, I’m sorry; I’m Shelly, Shelly Sanders.”

“I’m afraid the delay is my fault. The girls were critiquing my choices for gifts for my niece, Kelly. Kelly is the same age as this crew here, so they thought they should make sure I was not getting her old lady clothes. Not that they put it that way… Sue don’t worry, I really thought it was funny. Anyway, Kathy saw the skirt I bought Kelly and had to go get one herself.”

“That sounds like Kathy. Jason came along with you to shop for his cousin?”

“Yes, I needed help with the bags, and actually Jason was a lot of help, keeping me on track with what he has seen the girls his age wear.” Kristine replied.

“That was very helpful of you Jason. I wish my son were as helpful. He is a year younger then Julie, and there is no way I would bring him along, because I would spend the whole time yelling at him. Of course if I brought Julie, it would cost me three times as much, as she would see so many things she would just have to have!”

Kristine laughed. Julie and Kathy came running back, Kathy with a new bag in her hands. “Thanks Mrs. Anderson, I got it. Sorry Mrs. Sanders, I did not mean to hold you up.”

“Oh, alright Kathy, but next time… Anyway, get your stuff, I have to get you all home, and get dinner ready. Nice to meet you Mrs. Anderson, Jason.”

“See you at school tomorrow Jason.” Julie said to Jason. Jason replied, “Good night, see you tomorrow.”

After they had gone, Kristine said to Jason, “Ok Kelly, grab your bags, and let’s go home.”

Jason picked up the bags, and walked with his mother out of the mall.

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 11 - 15. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgender nature, and his mostly supportive family.

“I was in the shoe store yesterday.” Julie told him.

Chapter 11

When they got home, Jason carried the bags into his room, and his mother said, “Ok Kelly, you need to try everything on and see how well we did with your measurements.”

Jason got undressed down to his underwear, and opened up the first packet of panties. Kristine turned her eyes as he replaced the stolen pair with his first pair of panties that was actually purchased for him. They fit quite well, much better than the pair that he had acquired from his mother’s drawer. Then he took one of the new bras and put that on. Kristine stopped him from grabbing a pair of socks and told him to get the box with the gel pads. He opened it and placed the first one in his left bra cup, and the second in the right cup.

Jason could not believe how good they felt. Although they were a little cold at first, he could feel them starting to warm up almost immediately, and they quickly felt like they were almost attached to his skin. Jason knew then and there that he would not be using socks ever again if he could help it.

Kristine looked at Jason, seeing the look on his face, knew that Jason was never going to give up Kelly. She thought to herself, “Dear God, I hope that I am doing the right thing.” She kept this to herself though, and said to Jason, “Well, when I picked up the pads, I should have thought about the fact that they would not fill out the cups to the same size as your socks did. That bra will be too loose, and won’t hold them in place. I should have gotten a smaller cup size. Maybe you should put in the socks.”

Jason’s face fell.

“Oh dear, I’m sorry honey…”

“It’s ok Mom, its just that they feel so much better, almost like a part of me, so different from the socks.”

“Alright, well keep them on for now, lets see how much trouble you have with them. Eventually, I guess I will have to look into full size forms for you, but I think they are rather expensive. These pads are designed to add a cup size, but they do make larger ones. They were originally developed to help women that lost their breasts from cancer, to feel better about themselves. Ok, we have to get moving, because we still need to get dinner together.”

Jason, next tried on the leggings and the tee, both fit fine. Then he tried the capris, and that also fit without a problem. The peasant shirt was perhaps a little loose in the bust area, but looked good, particularly when he switched to the denim skirt. Jason could not help himself; he had to twirl with the skirt on.

Lastly he tried on the navy dress, and he was very disappointed, because it was too tight. His mother said, “that is obviously too tight, it is cut small for its size, and you are going to have to go up a size. I’m sure though that will be fine. I’ll return this tomorrow and pick up the next size higher. That is another thing for you to learn. Unfortunately women’s clothing in particular is difficult to judge by size, because different brands and styles fit vary so much that it really is tough to know how something will fit until you try it on.”

Jason put the peasant blouse and the denim skirt back on. His mother told him he needed to wear hose with the skirt. He opened a package of panty hose and started to try to put them on. His mother quickly stopped him and said, “You have to roll up the leg so that you put your foot into the bottom and then pull it up,” as she showed him how to do so, “Here now you try.”

He quickly did as she had showed him, and soon he had them on. Then he got out his flats and he was dressed for the evening. He put all his new clothes away, except for the navy dress, which his mom took along with the receipt so that she could exchange it the next morning.

Then they went out into the kitchen and started to get dinner together.

“Your father will be home shortly, so we are going to have to do something simple. I picked up hamburgers and salad fixings. Go ahead and set the table, then take the big salad bowl and toss the salad for me. I’ll go get the grill going.”

Jason went and set the dining room table for the three of them, then taking the big salad bowl he took the romaine and washed and drained it, tearing it up he added it to the bowl. Then he chopped some carrots, onions, tomatoes and some baby bella mushrooms. All of these were added into the bowl. Then he added some shredded cheddar cheese. He then took the big salad spoons and tossed the salad ingredients well, and put the bowl out on the dining room table. He grabbed all of the salad dressings in the refrigerator and brought them out to the dining room table as well.

His mother was back inside, and had grabbed a paper grocery bag and was shucking corn. He sat down next to her and grabbed another ear, and started peeling as well. In a few minutes they had them all done. His mother grabbed a big pot and filled it with water, washed the corn and set it to boil.

After looking in at the table, Kristine said, “Kelly, nice job on the salad. Your father will appreciate the cheese; I always forget that he likes that. So, while we have a few minutes, tell me about Julie.”

“Not much to tell really. She’s nice enough, but I don’t really know her. I’ve seen her around school, and she is in a couple of my classes, but we had never really talked before. I was kind of surprised she stopped and said hello today.”

“Hmm… that is interesting. Well of course you were sitting where she was supposed to wait for her mother, so it could be that she was just being friendly, but there were other seats, she did not have to come over and sit by you.”

“No, she didn’t. As I said she has always been nice, she is not one of the ‘snooty’ girls, if you know what I mean.”

“Yes, I know exactly what you mean. Does she have a boyfriend?”

“How should I know?”

“I suppose that is true. Probably not, but it won’t be too long, and I’m sure she is already starting to think about it. How about you, is there anyone that you are interested in?”

“I don’t know. Sure there are definitely some girls I think are really pretty, including Julie, and for that matter Kathy and Sue too. And I like to think about them, but it gets confusing. When I look at a pretty girl, part of me wants to, well you know, and the other part of me is looking at what she is wearing, and getting all jealous because I can’t be dressed that way, and even if I could will never look that good. So it is really confusing.”

“Hum, what about boys? How do you feel about them?”

“What do you mean?”

“When you look at a boy, do you get at all confused about your feelings?”

“No. Its just a boy. Someone I can go play catch with, or whatever, but I’m not interested in what he looks like, or what he is wearing. If it’s a friend, then I’m thinking about what we can do, if not then I pretty much ignore him.”

They heard the garage door opening, so Kristine said, “Kelly, please go wait in your room. I want to make a proper introduction of you to your father.”

Jason quickly went to his room. A few moments later, his mother came in and asked him to come with her. They walked to the living room, and his mother said to his father, “Richard, may I present your daughter, Kelly.”
Jason’s father came over to Jason, gave him a hug and said, “Kelly, I love you my dear.” He then hugged Jason even harder.

“Oh, I love you too Dad, and you too Mom.”

After a long, hard group hug, they headed into the kitchen. The burgers were quickly cooked, and they sat down to dinner. Dinner was just like every other night, talk about the day, just like nothing had changed. Jason thought to himself that he had to be the luckiest kid in the world.

After dinner, Jason had to work on his homework and then it was time for bed. When he changed into his nightgown, he left his bra on with the gel pads. He had a very hard time getting to sleep that night.

Chapter 12

The next day at school, Jason was sitting with his friends during lunch, when Julie came over and asked him, “Hi Jason. Do you have a minute; I need to talk to you about something.” His friends John and Steve looked at him in astonishment. Julie may not have been the snobby kind of girl, but she was very pretty, and John and Steve could not believe she would be coming to their friend.

Jason said, “oh… sure Julie, no problem.”

Jason followed Julie out of the lunch room and onto the field where the other kids that were done eating were gathering. They found a spot that was quiet, where they could talk, and sat on the grass.

“Jason, I have a confession to make.” Julie started.

Jason wasn’t sure what Julie could possibly be trying to tell him.

“I was in the shoe store yesterday.” She told him.

Warning bells started going off in Jason’s head, as he started to think of what to say.

“Oh… don’t worry Jason; your secret is safe with me. But I heard your mom telling you about footies, and then saw you try on those flats and the pumps. And I’m sure that all of those clothes were not for your cousin.”

Jason’s heart was beating a mile a minute as he was thinking to himself that he was absolutely dead.

“Jason, I’m serious, please don’t worry, I am not going to tell anyone! Even Kathy and Sue don’t know, because they were not with me. They were in the accessories store next door, and they had both picked up some things, and the line was long, and my Mom was due any moment, and I wanted some sandals, so I went into the shoe store by myself. I saw you, and was going to say hi, when I heard your Mom. And then I felt so bad because I was not trying to eavesdrop, but I couldn’t help it. Can you forgive me?” Julie was either the best actress that Jason had ever seen or she was truly upset.

Jason answered, “It’s not your fault, it’s my mother and mine, we were not careful enough. This was the first time we ever went shopping for me like that.”

“Jason, answer me one question. Are you doing this because you want to, or is it being forced on you by your mother?”

“It’s me, Julie. It is something I need to do.”

“Good. I would want to help you either way, but I liked your mother last night, and I would hate to think that I was that wrong. Am I correct that you are actually Kelly?”

“Yes. I don’t have a cousin Kelly. That is the name I chose for myself when I dress.”

“Do you want to be a girl?”

“I don’t know. Sometimes I think so, but sometimes being a boy isn’t so bad.”

“So you are trying out being Kelly sometimes for now?”

“Yes, that’s probably a good way to put it.”

“Well, one thing about girls is that they really need a girlfriend to share with. I would really like to be Kelly’s girlfriend, if you will let me. I have always thought that you were a nice guy Jason, and now we can share this, if you will have me.”

“I think that I would like that, but I promised my parents that Kelly would only exist at home for now. I have done enough lying about this to them, I won’t do any more.”

“Fair enough, if this is going to happen, your mom needs to know anyway. Mine, can’t know. She would never, ever accept this, and she would forbid me to see you.”

“Well, I will have to tell Mom about it. She is going to want to talk to you herself. I could ask her if we can invite you to dinner tonight. I did not have any other plans tonight, so we were just going to have a family movie night. We were probably going to pick up the sequel to National Treasure.”

“I’d like that. I loved the first one, and I’ve only seen the sequel once in the theatre. Actually it would be perfect, because my brother is having friends over tonight, and Kathy is going with her family to her grandparents for the weekend, and Sue has to spend this weekend with her father. Her parents are divorced. So I was going to be closing myself in my room to keep away from the boys anyway. I’m sure my mom won’t object.”

Julie wrote her number down on a piece of paper she had in her purse. “If your mom says it is ok, give me a call. Mom will want to speak to your mom to make sure it is all ok.”

The rest of the afternoon went slowly, but finally school ended. On his way home he took some good natured ribbing from John and Steve about being pulled away and spending his lunch recess with Julie. Jason took it with good grace, as he knew if the situation was reversed he would be doing the same to them.

When he got home, he told his mother that they needed to talk. He told her about the conversation that he had had with Julie, and his mother was horrified. “Jason, I am so sorry, I just did not think. We should have gone to a mall further away. I put you at so much risk! And now Julie knows, and lord knows what she is thinking.”

Jason replied, “Mom, we got off lucky. I believe Julie; like I said she has always been one of the nice girls. I really don’t think she is playing a game, I think she really feels bad about over hearing us, and I don’t know why but I think she really wants to be my friend. Can we have her over tonight for dinner, then you can feel her out yourself and see if you trust her.”

“That is probably the best idea. We can’t put the genie back in the bottle, so let’s see what happens now. Go ahead and call her, then I will speak to her mom. You said that Julie said that she can’t tell her mom about this.”

“That is what she said.”

“Ok, so I won’t need to answer any of those questions.”

Jason went to the phone and called Julie’s house. Julie’s brother answered and Jason asked, “Um… Hi is Julie there?” He could hear her brother calling, “Julie, some guy is on the phone for you.”

Julie, picked up the phone and shouted down to her brother to hang up now. “Hello?”

“Hi Julie, its Jason. I spoke to my mom, and she said it would be alright to invite you for dinner, would you like to come over, have dinner and maybe watch a movie?”

“Sure… I’ll have to clear it with my mother though. Wait.” Jason could hear her asking her mother. Julie came back and said, “My mom would like to speak to your mom to make sure it’s ok.”

“Mom, Julie’s mom wants to speak to you.”

“Ok Jason. Hello, hi Shelly, yes this is Kristine, we met last night… Yeah, its fine, Jason said that Julie was going to be stuck hiding out in her room tonight because her brother was having a few of his friends over, so he thought she might like to have dinner here, and watch the video with us… I’d be happy to come pick her up, and drop her off later after the movie… Really, it is not a problem at all. Ok, what is the address? Alright, I will be there about 5:30, ok? Great, see you then.” Kristine handed the phone back to Jason.

“Julie?”

“Jason, I’ll see you in a little while then. Thanks for calling.”

Chapter 13

Jason and his mother rang the doorbell at Julie’s house, right at 5:30. Julie’s brother answered the door, and said, “Oh, you’re not Bill. Julie, your ‘date’ is here.”

Mrs. Sanders came to the front hall and said, “Brian! Be nice. Hi Kristine; hello Jason. Julie will be down in a moment. It was nice of you to invite Julie tonight, she really did not want to hang around with the boys being here tonight, and her girlfriends are all out of town. I hope she did not invite herself over?”

Jason replied, “Oh no Mrs. Sanders it was my idea. I did not know about that until after I asked her. She had said that she liked National Treasure, and we were going to be watching the sequel tonight, so I thought she might like to see it too. I knew it was kind of last moment, but I figured it could not hurt to ask, and it seems like it worked out well for her too.”

“It really is not a problem; we usually rent movies on Friday nights. Sometimes Jason has a friend or two over, sometimes not, but it’s a family event, so Jason’s father and I will be watching too.”

“Sounds like fun, let me see if I can get Julie to hurry up.” Mrs. Sanders went up the stairs, and shortly came down with Julie. When Jason saw Julie, he took a sharp breath, as Julie was quite beautiful. Jason’s pulse rate went up, and Kelly’s jealousy peeked as well. He struggled to get both under control, and said, “Hi Julie.” Julie was wearing a denim skirt, and a shell and sweater set.

Kristine said, “Hello Julie. My don’t you look nice tonight. Are you ready?”

Julie looked at her and said, “Thank you Mrs. Anderson. Yes, I’m ready, and Jason, thank you for inviting me.”

“Shelly, I should have her home by 10. I will call if we are running a little late, I’m not sure how long the movie runs, and Jason’s father sometimes gets stuck in traffic, and we wait for him. Is that Ok?”

“That’s fine, since she will be with you.”

Julie kissed her mother, and they all went to the Anderson’s car. After they pulled out of the driveway, Kristine spoke up, “Julie, first off, I want to thank you for being discrete about what you saw yesterday. I’m sure you know that if word got around school about that, Jason would have quite a bit of trouble with some of your classmates.”

“Mrs. Anderson, I understand. Believe me, no-one will ever find out about Kelly from me.”

“I hope that you mean that, Julie. When we get to the house, I’d like to discuss your intentions a little bit more, and Jason, I think that it would be best if you give us some privacy for that. Is that ok with both of you?”

Jason and Julie both told her that it was fine.

When they got to the house, Jason went to his room, and Kristine led Julie into the family room. After offering her something to drink, she said to Julie, “Jason mentioned that you want to be Kelly’s friend. I have to ask you, why? You already have Kathy and Sue, and you told him they don’t know, so how do you think this will work? You know that if you start hanging around with Jason a lot, people are going to assume you are a couple. You are a little young yet, but in the next couple of years that will possibly be a problem for you.”

“Mrs. Anderson, you seem to be a really good Mom. There is something I want to tell you that I could never, ever tell my Mom. But knowing how you are handling Jason’s needs, I feel like I can trust you, and trust has to start somewhere.”

“Go on.”

“Mrs. Anderson, I don’t like boys the way that Kathy and Sue and the other girls do. Most boys are just so… I don’t know, but when I try to think of them the way that my girl friends do, I just don’t see the attraction. So I’ve tried to think about girls that way, thinking I might be gay, and while I think girls could be a little bit more interesting, when I start to thinking of another girls well, you know, it’s like ‘gross.’ So to be honest I was beginning to think I just was just not interested in either gender. But last night, the thought of a boy that is also kind of a girl, well I have never felt like that before.”

“Julie, you and Jason are too young…”

“Mrs. Anderson, I know that. I don’t know if Jason and I will ever be more then friends, but I realized last night that I wanted to be friends with Kelly. To help her anyway I can, and if we become more then that when we are older, then great, but if not, then at least I will have another good friend. One I can tell my secrets too, and who can tell me hers. I am not worried if everyone assumes we are dating. Maybe we will someday… I suspect that I would be happy if that happened, and I think that it might just make Jason happy too.”

“What if Jason decides someday that he wants to go all the way and become a girl? Although he says now that he has no interest in boys, you never know what will happen down the road as he frees himself to explore this.”

“Then I will either have another good friend that is a girl, or I may have grown to where that is ok with me too. I can’t see that far down the line, and neither can you, Mrs. Anderson. I won’t hurt Jason or Kelly, if I can help it. I won’t out him that I can guarantee.”

“And your family?”

“They are really conservative. They will never accept any of this, so I will just have to keep it from them. I wish my parents were as cool as you are, because I really would like to not have to hide my own feelings, but I’m going to have to until I am old enough to live on my own.”

“Ok Julie, that’s enough third degree. I am going to allow it. I think Kelly can use a friend, and to be honest, you have just answered one of my biggest concerns for Jason. He says he is interested in girls, and he is definitely interested in you, I think he almost had heart failure when you walked down the stairs tonight. Your really are quite beautiful you know.” Kristine smiled at Julie, and went on, “But I could not imagine that he would ever be able to find a girl that would be interested in a boy that dresses like a girl. Well, that did not take too long did it? That gives me hope for him. I know that it won’t all be this easy for him; there are a lot of pitfalls coming that much is certain. I put him at significant risk yesterday, because I was careless, but got off lucky, because it was you and not a gossip that caught us. Thank you for being a caring person.”

Kristine gave Julie a hug, and then grabbed some tissues to wipe their eyes. “Let’s go see if we can find Kelly, and bring her out to introduce you.”

Chapter 14

“Ok, Kelly and Julie, listen up. I have agreed to allow this. Kelly after speaking with Julie, I agree with you that she can be trusted.” She gave Julie a look that said that she better be trustworthy. “But there are going to have to be some ground rules, and you both have to agree to them. Kelly is still a boy, where it counts.” Looking at Jason, she said, “at least for now. Kelly, I am doing my best to treat you like a girl, as that is how you want to be treated, but in this instance I have to do what is right for both of you. And that means that you and Julie have to be properly chaperoned. I am pushing it by letting Julie keep this part of your relationship a secret from her parents. I am willing to do so, because it would put Kelly at risk otherwise, and because in my book Julie is old enough to make this decision. You have told me that your parents would absolutely disapprove, which puts me in a tricky spot of course, but my conscience is clear on this. But it won’t be if you two abuse it, and end up in trouble. And you are both old enough to know what I mean by trouble.” She looked at them with a stern face.

“So that means that you two are not to be alone in a room with a closed door. Julie, you are not to be here when there is no adult present. No getting changed together, etc. I know that those are all ‘normal’ things for girl friends to do, but you two are going to have to deal with the normal boy/girl restrictions. Is that clear?”

“Yes Mom.”

“Yes, Mrs. Anderson.”

“Ok. Kelly you need to get changed. Julie you can go in and help Kelly pick out her outfit for tonight, but leave the door open. Kelly, get changed in the bathroom.”

“Thanks, Mrs. Anderson. Come on Kelly; let’s go get you ready for dinner.” The two of them went into Jason’s room, making sure to leave the door wide open.

“Kelly, I wore my denim skirt because I knew that you had one. So let’s start with that. Do you have anything other than the things I saw last night?”

“No, not yet. I wore the skirt last night. It was the first night at home as Kelly and that’s the only skirt I have.”

“Did you hang it up?” Jason nodded his head yes. “Then it should be ok. Normally, I wouldn’t wear the same skirt two nights in a row, but you don’t have much to choose from yet, so I would not worry about it for now. Which top did you wear? Oh, wait I know, you had to have worn the peasant blouse.”

Jason looked surprised and said, “How did you know?”

“It was the prettiest of what you got. You would have either worn that outfit or the dress.”

“The dress did not fit, and it is supposed to be for Saturday and Sunday dinner.”

“Oh… I love getting dressed up to go out for dinner.”

Jason shook his head, and said, “I’m not ready for that, and may never be. But we try to have a family dinner on the weekends.”

“That sounds nice. My family rarely eats together, unless we go out for some occasion. Anyway go with the pink tee. How about makeup and jewelry?”

“I don’t have any.” Jason replied, with a sad look on his face.

Kelly smiled, “Well that is something I can help you with. Go get changed, and then come back here. Is there another chair that we can use at your desk?”

“We could use one of the kitchen chairs.”

“Ok, I’ll get it while you get changed.” Julie went to the kitchen, and Jason went into the bathroom to get changed.

“Oh… I like that, and that looks nice on you, Kelly. And you even have some boobs, nice.” Julie said when Jason came back into his room.

“Kelly, I brought practically everything I have, because I thought we might get to do this, and I figured it was unlikely you had any yet. I don’t know if the colors I have will really work for you. I wish Kathy could meet you, because she is really good at makeovers, but that is not going to happen. So we will just have to make do. Sit down right here.” She pointed to the chair at his desk. She pulled the makeup out her purse. “I brought my largest bag tonight, so that I could bring as much as possible, Mom thought it was silly but I told her I was bringing some CD’s. Why don’t you put something on the CD player while we do this?”

Jason took one of Julie’s CD’s and popped it in.

“Now sit still. I’m not going to try and teach this to you tonight. I need to play a bit to see what works, and as I said, Kathy is better at this then I am, so just let me play with it. If it doesn’t work, I promise we will take it off. Ok?”

As she started to work on Jason’s face, Kristine came by to check on them, raised an eyebrow but did not object. She did tell Julie, “Don’t do anything permanent, like shaping her eyebrows.”

“I was not going to Mrs. Anderson. Though I think a little cleanup would not hurt her, but I’ll leave them alone for now.”

“Ok. Have fun.”

Julie continued to work on Jason’s face. She tried different things, wiping some off, and than trying a different combination. Jason was getting a little fidgety. “Kelly, hold still. I can’t do this if you are moving around. Do you want to quit?”

“No, I’m ok. Just nervous I guess. My father has been great, but I am worried what he will think of this. I know I look silly enough in the clothes, and don’t want it to be any worse for him.”

“Kelly, I promise you, you can trust me. I am going to do my best to make you look as nice as you can. If it does not work, I will not let you leave the room. Ok? Please trust me. I really want to be your friend, and to help you to figure out where this is going to go for you.”

“I believe you Julie. I don’t really understand why you are doing this, but I believe you. I have to be honest though. As Kelly, I am so happy to have you as a friend. I’m jealous of you though, because you are so pretty, and you are everything I have always wished I could be. Then on top of that, I don’t know if I can keep Jason from wanting a different kind of friendship with you. But I can understand that for that you are going to want a ‘masculine’ guy, not a guy that wears dresses, and is also your friend Kelly.”

“Jason, look at me.” Jason looked Julie in the eyes.

“Jason, I don’t see any difference between you and Kelly. You are the same person whether you are in boy’s clothing or girls clothes. I like you, and always have. Since we are being honest, I’m attracted to you. Before last night, I would have said you were handsome, but I was not attracted the way you mean, not because of anything to do with you, but because I have never been attracted to a boy, or for that matter a girl before. I love the fact that you have some of both, and now this guy that I always thought was nice, turns out to be more than I ever thought about, and I realized fairly quickly last night that I liked it. So that is my big secret. I am glad that your Jason side finds me attractive, maybe after you have had time to explore being Kelly too, she may find she also likes me. She may not, she may find that despite what she thinks now that she actually does like boys, but right now it does not matter. We both have so much growing up to do before we can really let that go anywhere. Your mom is right about that. So let’s just see how it goes. But Jason, I would be honored if you were to ask me to be your girlfriend, and I don’t mind if the whole world knows it.”

By the time she finished, both she and Jason were crying. Julie could not help it; she reached out and gave Jason a hug.

“Now, stop crying, you are going to ruin all the work I have done.” She smiled as she pulled away. She showed him how to dab his eyes to avoid smearing the mascara, by drying her own eyes.

“Julie, I… don’t know what to say. This has been such an incredible couple of days for me. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop, but I can’t tell you how happy I am that you saw me and Mom at the shoe store yesterday.”

“Me too, Kelly, me too. Now that is the best I can do with your makeup. I think it looks ok, I know that it can be better, but I’m just not good enough at it. Do you have a mirror in here?” Jason shook his head no.

“No… well, I know what to get Kelly for her birthday. No mirror.” Julie shakes her head in disbelief. “Alright, lets go into the bathroom so you can check out my handiwork before your father gets home.”

They went into the bathroom; again making sure the door was wide open. Jason looked into the mirror. While he was still obviously a boy, the makeup changes were subtle. They brought out his eyes more, and added color to his cheeks. He decided he liked it, but would wait to see how his mother felt about it before subjecting his father to it. Julie then said, “now what we need to do is to see what we can do with your hair. Thank god you don’t have a buzz cut. I think we can do something with it, without having to cut anything. Your mom would kill me if I cut your hair. Come on back in the other room, and let me see what I can do. Bring your brush. Do you have a hair dryer?”

Jason shook his head no again.

Julie shook her head and said, “boys! Ok, your mom has to have one, let me ask her. Go back and sit down.”

Julie went and found Jason’s mother. “Mrs. Anderson, can I borrow your hair dryer? Don’t worry; I’m not cutting her hair.” She added at Kristine’s startled expression. “But I want to see if I can do something by brushing it back. It really isn’t long enough to do much with, but its worth a try. Of course with that length I could do more with a curling iron, but I’m assuming you would prefer I not do that.”

Kristine replied, “I think that would be best for now, although anything that will wash right out should be ok. But that would take a lot of time, and Kelly’s father will be home soon, and dinner will be ready. Come with me, and I’ll get you the hair dryer. So how did the makeup session go?”

“I think that it can be better then I managed, but that would take someone more skilled then me, and probably with a wider selection to chose from. I think it looks ok, but Kelly wants you to approve it before her father sees it.”

“I’m sure it looks fine. I’m going to have to work with Kelly’s aunt to get hold of someone that is transgender friendly to help with this sort of thing. I know from her, that they can really do a lot.”

“I did not know that Kelly had an aunt that was so knowledgeable about this sort of thing.”

“One of his aunts has quite a few friends with ‘alternative lifestyles.’ She is actually quite conventional herself, but she is a very warm person that is not quick to judge. She has a young daughter named Emily. Unfortunately, Emily’s father died a couple of years ago in a car accident. So she is a single Mom now.”

“I’m sorry to hear that. It must be so hard on them both.”

“It is at times, but we do what we can to help. Emily spends a lot of time here. And Sally has lots of friends. So she does ok for herself and for Emily.”

While they were talking they had retrieved the hair dryer and returned to Jason’s room. When they got there, Kristine asked Jason to come over to the light. “That is very nice work Julie. I doubt I could have done much better. Kelly, that will be fine. Your dad will probably not even notice it. He tends to be oblivious to this sort of thing.”

Julie told him to go into the bathroom and get his hair damp. When he came back, she had him sit down again. This time she stood behind him, and started working with his hair. She combed it back, and used the hair dryer to try to put some lift into it. When she was done, she said, “Kelly, I’m sorry, there just is not enough to really do much with, at least not without cutting some things, particularly the sideburns. We will just have to let that go for tonight.”

“It’s ok, Julie, I appreciate the effort.”

Julie put the hairdryer back where she and Kristine had gotten it from.

Soon after, Jason’s father got home, and came in to introduce himself. “Hi Kelly, and this must be Julie. Hi, I’m Richard, Kelly’s father.”

Julie stood up and said, “Hello Mr. Anderson, it is a pleasure to meet you.”

“The pleasure is mine, I assure you. It is nice to know that Kelly has a friend like you, and that she will not have to go through this by herself. Anyway, Kelly, your Mom says dinner is almost ready and asked if you and Julie would come help her set the table.”

“Sure Dad, I should have been helping her anyway, sorry.”

“Don’t worry about it, your mother would have asked for it if she needed it, she knew you and Julie needed some time together.”

They sat down to dinner.

“Kelly, I got a call today from your new baseball coach. You are going to be on the Mets. Your first practice is going to be next Thursday.” Jason’s mother told him.

“That’s great Mom. Julie do you play any sports?”

“Yes, I’ll be playing softball. Too bad we can’t be on the same team,” she replied.

“Kelly, you are going to need some new cleats, your old ones are not going to fit you, so we need to head to the mall tomorrow.”

“That sounds good to me.” Jason answered. He saw Julie looking like she wanted to say something. “Mom, would it be ok if Julie came with us? She probably needs to pick up new cleats too.”

Julie’s face lit up, but she waited to hear Jason’s mother’s response.

“If she would like to go, and if it is ok with her mother,” Kristine answered.

Julie said, “I would love to go. I don’t think Mom would have a problem, but I can call her after we finish dinner and ask.”

After dinner, Julie called her mother and asked if she could go with Jason and his mother to the mall the next day. She told her that they were going to pick up new cleats for baseball, and she could get her new softball cleats at the same time. Once again, Julie’s mom wanted to speak to Kristine to be sure that Julie was not imposing. Jason and Julie listened to Kristine as she spoke to Julie’s mom.

“No, it is no trouble at all. I have to take Jason for his; it is certainly easy enough to take Julie along…. They seem to be having fun. My husband Richard was a little late. They helped me with the table, but mostly they were listening to some CD’s and talking.” Kristine winked at Julie. “Well they are at that age when the opposite sex stops having cooties. Yes, this is the first time for me as well, but it’s just a sign they are growing up. I know you really don’t know Jason yet, and for that matter, I have just met Julie. She seems to be a pretty smart and sensible young lady to me, and I know that Jason thinks so. Well, yes, he also thinks she is very pretty, as he should since she is. I’ll tell you what, since it appears these two are going to want to spend more time together, why don’t we plan on having a picnic at our house next weekend, that way we will all get to know each other better. They will probably both have practices on Saturday, so how about Sunday, around 2ish? Great… Don’t worry about it; we’ll just do some hotdogs and hamburgers… If you insist, just bring something for desert. Oh of course Julie’s brother is welcome… absolutely. Ok… We are going to go start the movie in a few minutes, the movie is just over 2 hours, so we will probably not finish until just about 10, so is it ok if she is home by 10:30? Ok… We will drop her off by 10:30, thanks.”

“Ok, Julie you can come with us tomorrow. And so it begins, your mother is already concerned about you dating so young. Are you both ok with knowing that everyone is going to think of you as a couple?”

“Mrs. Anderson, Jason and I spoke about this… Sorry Kelly, but I think this is about your Jason side. We don’t see any reason I can’t be Kelly’s friend who is a girl, and Jason’s girlfriend. So when Mom asks, I won’t be lying when I tell her that Jason has asked me to be his girlfriend. He has, and I have told him that I would be. I am also going to be Kelly’s friend, and I’m going to help her to decide on just how much of a girl she wants to be. That part I won’t be telling Mom about, she doesn’t need to know.”

“Ok. Well, next Sunday your family will be joining us for a picnic, so we will all get to meet. Well all of us except for Kelly that is. As you say, she is going to have to stay away for the evening.”

“That sounds good to me, Mrs. Anderson. Once my parents get to know you and Mr. Anderson, this will be easier, because they won’t worry so much when I’m here. They will know that we will be what is that word… you mentioned it earlier… oh yeah chaperoned.”

“Julie, that makes them good parents. They just want to make sure you are ok.”

“Mrs. Anderson, they are good parents. They love Brian and me, and they do take good care of us, I don’t want you to think that they neglect us, because they don’t. They are busy with work though, and so we don’t spend as much time as a family as you all obviously do. I am not saying it is bad, just different. I kinda like the closeness that I see in your family though. I wish that I could believe that my mom would be able to handle Kelly, but she does not like things to be out of the ordinary. So we don’t subject her to it, and we don’t put Kelly at risk, it is simply not worth it.”

They all went to the family room and watched National Treasure, Book of Secrets.

When the movie was over, Jason went and got changed so that he could go with his Mom and Julie to take her home. He carefully washed off the makeup, and had Julie and his mother check to make sure he had gotten it all. When they got to Julie’s house, he walked her to the door, said goodnight, and waited while she opened the door and went inside, before turning around and getting back to the car.

When they had pulled out of the driveway on the way home, Jason thanked his mom for allowing Julie to come over.

“Jason, it was my pleasure. I like her. I think you got extremely lucky yesterday, and we are going to have to do better about it in the future, but things happen for a reason. Anyway, I think you have made a good friend.”

“I do too Mom. I do too.”

Chapter 15

Jason woke the next morning and laid in bed thinking about the last week. He had to put the gel pads back into his bra, as they were not held by the cups that were meant for a larger size. He ran his hand over his stomach and up his chest, feeling the material of his sleep shirt; he lingered over the small bumps from the pads. He could feel that pressing on his own skin, and thought about how much he would love for them to be real. Then he thought about Julie, and how much he would like to be touching her breasts, and then he thought about how much he would like her to be touching his breasts, and he almost had an orgasm on the spot.

At her own home, Julie woke up and was thinking about Jason. She thought about how he looked last night in his denim skirt, and pink tee. With the little padded boobs. She thought to herself that she would have loved to have played with them, and had Jason playing with hers. Knowing that what he had in his skirt was not ‘gross’ like the other girls, she found herself truly aroused for the first time in her life. She started to knead her own breasts, thinking about them being Jason’s. As she started to lose herself in her passion, a knock came on her door. She quickly got herself under control and said, “Come in.”

Her mother came in and said, “Good Morning, honey. Sleep well?”

“Good morning, Mom. Yes, I did. Just woke up a few minutes ago actually.”

“So, did you have a good time last night? We did not get much time to talk when you got home, since it was kind of late and I had to get the boys to settle down.”

“Yeah, it was nice. I enjoyed that movie when we saw it at the theatre, and Jason is a nice guy. His parents seem to be really nice too.”

“Jason and his mother did seem to be nice when we met at the mall the other night. I have to ask, are you thinking of Jason as a friend that is a boy, or as a boy friend?”

“Mom, I like him, he is handsome, and he is nice. I want him to be my boyfriend.”

“Well, I assume that since he asked you to come over, that he would like you to be his girlfriend as well. At least we know he has good tastes!” Julie’s mother teased her.

“Yes, he does.” Julie teased her mother back.

“I know that you already know about the birds and the bees, we had that conversation right before you first started your period, and I am sure that Jason is a nice boy, but I think we need to talk about ground rules if you are going to start dating. Ok.”

“Sure Mom. I understand. For what its worth, Mrs. Anderson made some rules pretty clear last night as well. Like no closed doors, we cannot be together without an adult present, etc. Most of the evening we were with Mr. and Mrs. Anderson, but before dinner, we listened to some CD’s in Jason’s room, which is on the same floor as the kitchen, with the door wide open. Mrs. Anderson came by and checked on us several times.”

“Well, I’m glad to hear that, and those are pretty much the rules that I was going to put into place as well. But I also just want to make sure that you realize that first crushes seldom last for long. I don’t want you to get too hurt if things don’t work out. You are a very pretty girl, and will have lots of boys wanting to date you over the next few years. Enjoy yourself, but be careful.”

“Thanks Mom, I will. I love you.”

“I love you too, Julie. What time are they picking you up to go to the mall?”

“Mrs. Anderson said she had some things she had to do this morning, so it was going to be around noon.”

“Well, you better get ready, you slept in, its already quarter of 11.”

“I need to get moving then.”

Julie was just about ready when the doorbell rang, and Jason and his mother were at the door. She could hear her mother answer the door, and inviting them into the living room. Her mother yelled up the stairs to hurry up, that the Andersons were here. Julie grabbed her bag, and headed down the stairs. As she came into the living room, she heard her mother saying, “It’s ok with me, as long as Julie doesn’t mind.”

“Mind what, Mom?” Julie replied.

Kristine said, “Oh, hello Julie. I was just asking your mother if it would be ok if you stayed with us after the mall. I have a couple of other errands to run, and I have to stop at Jason’s Aunt Sally’s house to get some things. Your mother was saying that she did not mind, as long as it was ok with you. If you had other plans, I can drop you back here before Jason and I run the other errands we have to do this afternoon.”

Julie said, “I don’t have anything else going on. Kathy and Sue are both still out of town. I don’t mind going with you all. Besides I’d like to meet Jason’s aunt, and will her daughter Emily be there?”

“Yes, I’m sure she will be. I was telling Julie about Sally last night. Sally is Richard’s sister. Her husband was killed in a car accident a couple of years ago, so we often have Emily spend time with us, to help Sally out when she needs.”

“Oh my, it is hard enough to be a parent with both of us, I’m sorry she has had to do so on her own. How old is Emily?”

“She is just seven, and that is why we do our best to lend a hand, it is good that they live fairly close by.”

“That must have been so hard to lose her father when she was only five; it is heartbreaking, when things like that happen.”

“It was, but Emily is really great, and they both helped each other through it. Well, Julie, are you ready?”

Julie’s mom said, “Wait, you are picking up cleats for softball. Here is some money for them. I expect change, young lady; don’t go spending it on anything else.”

“Thanks Mom, I won’t.”

“Have fun.”

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 16 - 18. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgender nature, and his mostly supportive family.

“Look at that, he does have balls. Jason, I’ll move on when I’m ready.” Brad pushed Jason.

Authors Note: This section only had 3 chapters, because I have posted all that I have written so far. Please let me know if this is a decent size for a post, or whether you want me to hold off until I have more chapters done. Now that I'm caught up, I'll have to slow down a little bit, but I promise to keep at it.

Kristy.

Chapter 16

At the mall the first place they stopped was the sporting goods store, where both Jason and Julie picked out cleats for the upcoming baseball and softball season. Julie asked, “Mrs. Anderson, do you mind if I run into the shoe store, I never did get those sandals the other day.”

Kristine smiled, and said, “Of course not, Julie. No problem.”

The three of them went into the store, and Julie started to look for a pair of sandals.

Jason for the first time really noticed just how many different styles of shoes there were for women. “So many styles!” He said.

Julie looked at him and laughed, saying “Yeah, you are probably like my brother, one pair of sneakers, one pair of dress shoes, and a pair of winter boots. Plus the sports shoes like the cleats of course, but I don’t count those, there more like equipment.”

Jason said “Pretty much that is all a guy needs.”

Kristine said, “Women are expected to co-ordinate their entire outfit, including the shoes and purse. So we have to have different styles and colors of shoes to go with the rest of what we are wearing. While a man or a boy might have three or four pairs, it is not uncommon for women to have a dozen or more. Some women go a little bit overboard on it though. How about you Julie, are you a shoe addict?”

Julie said, “Not really, I mean I do have a soft spot for a nice pair of shoes, but I don’t go crazy about it. Sue on the other hand, can’t pass up a cute pair of shoes; she gets it from her mother. I’m just looking for some basic sandals. My old pair fell apart last week.”

Kristine said, “How about these?” She held out a white slide with crossover leather straps and side notches.

Julie looked at them and said, “Those are nice, let me see them. Do they have them in my size?” Julie looked through the boxes and found a pair in her size. She slipped off her flats and slid on the sandals. She stood up and walked in them and asked Jason, “How do they look?”

At Jason’s look of incomprehension, Julie laughed. “How about you, Mrs. Anderson, I’m sure you have an opinion. Jason, stick with me and you will certainly learn how to tell.”

Kristine held back her own chuckle, and asked “Julie, I think they look good. Are they comfortable?”

“Yes, they are. Ok, I’m going to get these.”

“Do you have enough? You were supposed to bring your mother change?” Kristine reminded her.

“Oh, I’m not using Mom’s money. I brought some of my own money, too. And yes, I have enough.” She replied.

“Ok, just making sure.”

Julie went up to the counter and paid for her shoes.

As they left the shoe store, Kristine asked, “Julie did you eat? Jason and I did not get a chance, and could really use something.”

“Actually, no I didn’t. I overslept and just barely got ready in time. I did have piece of fruit, but nothing substantial.”

“Ok, let’s get something from the food court. What do you like, Julie?”

“I can get something from most places, where are you thinking of going?”

“We would probably just pick up something from Wendy’s” Kristine answered, “But you can get something else if you prefer.”

“Wendy’s is fine.”

“What would you like?”

“Can I have a single, with a side salad instead of fries, and a diet coke?” Julie replied.

“Of course you can. Jason?”

“umm… I guess that sounds good to me too.” He replied.

Kristine raised her eyebrows, but decided not to say anything. “Ok… Why don’t you two go grab a table, I’ll get the food.”

“Ok” they replied.

They found a clean table, and Julie said to Jason, “I take it from your mother’s expression that that was not your usual order at Wendy’s.”

“No, but I think I need to start to eat a little differently.” He answered.

“Well, it won’t kill you to eat healthier then most boys do. That much is for sure.”

While they waited for Jason’s mother to come by, several of the guys from school noticed them and came over. “Hi Julie, what are you doing here with Jason.”

“Brad. I’m here with Jason because he invited me along.” She replied coldly.

“Oh really, he invited you did he? Well Jason, that took some balls, didn’t think you had it in you.”

Jason stood up, and said “Brad, I think it is time for you to move on.”

“Look at that, he does have balls. Jason, I’ll move on when I’m ready.” Brad pushed Jason.

“What the hell is going on here?” Kristine hissed as she came to the table with lunch.

“Nothing Mom. Brad was just leaving.” Jason said as he looked Brad straight in the eyes.

“Yeah. Nothing. We will pick this up another time, Jason.” Brad said as he and his buddies walked away.

“What was that all about, Jason?” his mother asked, after they were gone.

“I’m afraid it’s my fault Mrs. Anderson. Or at least it’s because of me. Brad has been trying to get me to go out with him for a while, and I have told him that I was not interested. He does not like being told no, and now he sees me here with Jason, and so he is taking it out on Jason. I’m sorry Jason, I know he is a bully.”

“Julie, don’t worry about it. I can take care of myself, and he won’t push me around, and Julie, you let me know if he bothers you too.”

“Jason, you stay away from him.” His mother told him.

“Mom, I won’t go looking for trouble, you know me better than that, but I have to be able to stand up to him, if it comes to that, because if I don’t it will only get worse.” Jason replied. “I’m sorry, but I’ve lost my appetite, can we take it with us?”

“Ok with me, how about you Julie?”

Julie was looking at Jason, and she said quietly, “that’s fine.”

They got to the car, and headed toward Sally’s house. The ride was quiet, as all three of them were thinking about what happened. Jason kept looking over at Julie, and finally he said, “Julie are you ok?”

“I’m fine.” She replied.

“Have I done something wrong?” he asked.

Julie sighed, “No, Jason, you didn’t… I guess I was just surprised that you were so, I don’t know, masculine in the way you responded to Brad. I guess I was thinking about how Kelly would have reacted, and oh… I don’t know. I’m sorry… I don’t know what to think.”

“Julie, I don’t like having to respond like that. In fact I hate it, but as long as I’m Jason to the world, there are certain things that I have to be prepared to do. I’m not much of a fighter, in fact I’m awful, but I know what happens to boys that don’t fight back, and I’m not going to be someone’s punching bag. I have found that bullies don’t like to actually have to fight someone that fights back. Most of the time simply calling their bluff is enough to get them to back down. I’m sorry; I wish it was not like that. I wish I could be Kelly and not have to deal with jerks like Brad.” Jason answered.

“Trust me, being Kelly would not prevent that. I am a girl and I have to deal with him. He won’t take no for an answer, and now he is going after you because of it.” She answered with more than a touch of annoyance.

“I’m sorry; I did not mean to imply that it was easier for girls. It’s not; I know that, it’s just different. I hate having to put up the macho front, Julie, but I have to do it. I’ve never seen Brad get physical with a girl, has he?”

“No, Brad hasn’t, at least not that I’ve heard of. He does have a temper, though, and I would not want to be alone with him. If he did decide to get physical, I would be so vulnerable, I could never push him away, because he is so much stronger then I am. That scares me. Seeing you today, I saw you fully as a man, standing up to him. I did not see Kelly in you there at all.”

“Julie, believe me she is here, but I had to suppress her then. Can you accept me, Julie? I don’t want to lose my new friend. Can you accept that when it is necessary, Jason will assert himself to protect himself, and you? Can you?”

Kristine continued to drive, wanting to intervene, but holding her breath to see what Julie was going to do.

Julie thought long and hard before she took a deep breath and said, “Yes Jason, I can. I hope that someday your real nature can be your public face, but I understand. I don’t want you to get hurt, so you have to do what you have to do to protect yourself. But Jason, unless you catch someone trying to physically harm me, I don’t want you to go all macho to protect me. Let me handle it myself, is that ok?”

“Ok, if you insist. But I will not stand by and watch someone attack you physically, I just can’t do that.”

“Understood,” she smiled and held his hand, “and appreciated. Mrs. Anderson, I’m sorry.”

“That’s ok Julie. You two had to work that out between you. I’m sorry that I don’t have a glass partition like a limo driver, so that I could have put it up to give you some privacy, as I’m sure that was difficult for both of you knowing I’m sitting here. I will tell you I’m proud of you both, because you got it right out, then you talked it through to come to an understanding. If you can always remember to do that, you may have a very long friendship, or more. That is really the hard part in a relationship.”

Chapter 17

A few minutes later Kristine pulled into Aunt Sally’s driveway.

“Mom, I thought you had some other errands to run before we got to Aunt Sally’s?” Jason asked.

“Well, I had intended too, but frankly I’m hungry, and I want to eat our lunch. I’m sure you would both like to now as well, so I thought we might as well just come straight here. Jason, please grab the food bag.”

“Sure Mom.”

They went up to the front door and Kristine rang the doorbell. Emily came and opened the door, “Mom! It’s Aunt Kristine and Jason! Jason, are you going to play with me? Oh, who are you?” Emily looked surprised at Julie.

“I’m Julie. I’m a friend of Jason’s.” she replied.

“Are you his girlfriend?” Emily asked wide eyed.

“Yes, I am, and you must be Emily. I’ve heard a lot of good things about you, I have been looking forward to meeting you.” Julie answered.

“Oh, well… It’s nice to meet you too Julie. Jason, will you still be willing to play with me?” she looked at Jason with a face that almost broke his heart.

“Emily, of course I will. You know me better than that! Do you mind if Julie plays with us too?” he looked at Julie, hoping she would not mind.

Emily’s face lit up bright as the sun, and said, “No, of course I don’t mind. Julie is that ok with you?”

“I would love to Emily. Can it wait until after we have had our lunch though, I’m starving!” Julie replied.

“oh.. Wendy’s! Did you bring something for me, Aunt Kristine.” Emily said excitedly.

“Oh dear, Emily, no we had not intended on coming here with it when I picked up lunch, or I would have called to see if you and your Mom wanted something. I’m sorry.” Kristine answered.

Emily looked disappointed, but her mother came down the stairs and said, “Kristine, that’s ok. Emily you just had lunch, you can’t be hungry. Come on in, no reason to hang out on the stoop.”

Kristine, Julie and Jason came in, and they followed Sally to the kitchen. Emily followed them, but quickly decided that she was going to go back to playing her video game in the play room.

Kristine said, “Sally, this is Jason’s girlfriend, Julie. Julie, this is Sally.”

“Julie, its nice to meet you.”

“Thank you. It is nice to meet you as well.”

They all sat down at the table, and Jason passed the sandwiches and salads to his mother and Julie. While they were eating, Sally asked, “So, Jason how are things going?”

“Aunt Sally, I can’t tell you how good this week has been. Oh and by the way, Julie knows about… well you know.”

“I see. Well that will make things a little easier for you, and means I can relax and ask more straight forward. How did your first session with Dr. Daniels go?”

“It went well. He seems really nice, and we talked a lot about things.”

“I spoke to your father the next morning; he said he thought it was going to help you a lot. So I hear that you will be spending some time helping around the house, has that started?”

Kristine said, “yes, in fact that is how Julie came to find out about things. She saw us at the shoe store of all places and overheard us talking. We are going to have to be a whole lot more careful in the future.”

“Oh my, yes that could have been awkward. Julie, that must have seemed awfully strange to you.” Sally asked.

“I was surprised, and I felt bad for eaves dropping. Jason had always been a nice guy, and I felt like I had violated something special between him and his mom. I know I did not do it intentionally, but I really felt bad. I kept quiet so that I could think about what I should do about it. I could not stop thinking about it that night, and decided I wanted to let Jason know, and to help in any way I could. So here we are.”

“Well you are a remarkable young lady then. I think that most girls your age would have been on their cell phones, or texting away and spreading the gossip around before they even got out of the store.”

“I’m not like that.” Julie said quietly. “But I know that a lot of the girls are. I’m just glad it was me, and not someone like Courtney.”

Jason shuddered at the thought.

Kristine said, “Well, it was a lesson learned. We will have to be much more careful going forward. I know that Richard asked you to think about how to handle things with Emily. I know that you and Emily will be supportive, but since this has to stay a secret, that might be a bit much to ask of her.”

“I know, and I have given it a lot of thought. I think that she will understand, and I don’t think that it will do her any harm to be asked to keep this quiet, but I can’t guarantee that she won’t forget and say something at the wrong time, without even realizing she is doing it. I’m ok either way, but it is your secret Jason, it’s you that would be taking that risk, so I think it should be your decision.” Sally replied.

“I’ll have to think about it. I don’t want to hide it from Emily, but let me give it some serious thought.”

“Fair enough. One way or another, though, I do want to meet my niece some time.”

“and Kelly, wants to meet you too, Aunt Sally.”

“Kelly. I like it. You know you had a great, great Aunt Kelly. She was a strong lady, and was very active in the women’s suffrage movement. I think she would have approved.”

“I did not know that, but I think that is great.” Jason replied.

Emily came back in looking for Jason and Julie. “Are you done eating yet? I want to play.”

Jason said, “I’m done, Julie are you coming?”

“Yup, let’s go.”

Jason and Julie joined Emily and went into the play room. Emily had set up her tea table for three places, and asked them if they would like some tea. They both thanked her, and sat on the small chairs. Emily poured.

They spent the next hour playing with Emily, at whatever games she wanted. As might be expected many of the games were quite girly. Julie watched Jason playing with his little cousin and saw Kelly through the boy again. It made her feel warm inside, and she felt the acceptance solidify in her even more. She had been startled this afternoon, watching Jason react so strongly as a boy. She had not expected it, and it had bothered her. After all one of the reasons she was not interested in boys was that aggressive hard aspect. But as she thought about it more, she started to really comprehend how difficult this was going to be for Jason. For now at least, he was going to have to walk a fine line. She certainly knew that being a girl was not easy, but she had just gotten a hard glimpse at the difficulties a boy faced, and the thought of Jason, who was going to have to deal with both sides in his life, well her heart went out to Jason and to Kelly.

She knew that part of her job, was going to have to be helping Jason to walk that balance, to be able to be Jason when he needed, and to help him find Kelly’s strength as well.

Chapter 18

The rest of the weekend had passed. Julie had stayed for dinner on Saturday night, got to see Kelly in her new Navy dress, and then had to go home. Sunday they both had to be other places and did not see each other.

Jason and Julie agreed to meet up at lunch.

“I want to sit over there,” Julie pointed over toward the table that Jason was sitting at with his friends John and Steve.

Kathy and Sue looked at her like she had two heads, and said, “what is going on?”

“Jason and I got together this weekend. We had a really good time, I like him.” She answered.

“oooh… Julie is finally interested in a boy! And it’s Jason Anderson. Why him Julie? I mean he is a nice guy, I’ll grant you that, and he isn’t Quasimodo, but he isn’t Johnny Depp either. Julie, almost any of the boys would like to be with you, so why him?” Kathy asked.

“I don’t know, I just like him. I think he is cute, and I don’t like Johnny Depp.” She stuck her tongue out at Kathy.

“Ok. Ok. I’m just teasing. Julie if you like him that is good enough for me. But don’t expect us to date his friends for you!”

“I won’t ask you to, although John and Steve are not so bad. You might find you like one of them, if you give them a chance.”

Kathy and Sue shared a look and said, “Not!”

“Well, be nice anyway. Please” she pleaded with them.

“Oh ok.” They laughed, and went with Julie to sit with Jason and his friends.

“Hi Jason, do you mind if we sit here?” Julie smiled at Jason.

“No, of course not, Julie. Hello Kathy, Sue…”

“Hi Jason, Hello Steven, Hi John.” Kathy replied as they sat down.

John and Steven stammered, and replied, “oh… yeah, Hi.”

The girls giggled.

Kathy looking at Jason, said, “So Jason, I understand you and Julie had a fun weekend.”

John and Steven looked over at Jason with surprise.

“Yeah, I had a good time. I hope you did too, Julie.” Jason said, ignoring his friends.

“Yes, I did. The movie at your house on Friday was fun, and I loved meeting your cousin Emily on Saturday, she is such a sweet heart. I think she has a crush on her older cousin.” Julie smiled.

“Well, she has had a tough time, as you know. I just try to be a good cousin.”

“I know Jason; I think it is great that you are so good with her.” Julie replied. Then she turned to Kathy and asked her, “how was your weekend at your grandparents?”

“Oh, it was fine. Mom and I went shopping with my Grandmother, and got some cute stuff. We also saw a show at the local theatre; it was pretty good, all in all. How about you Sue, how was your weekend with your Dad.”

“It was ok. His girlfriend was there though.” She said, and it was obvious she did not like her father’s girlfriend.

They continued to make small talk. Brad and his buddies came to the table.

“Well Jason, you don’t have your mother here to protect you today, do you.” Brad sneered at him. “Now isn’t this fascinating. Julie, Kathy and Sue slumming with this crew.”

Julie, said, “Brad, what business is it of yours who we sit with. Why don’t you go crawl back under a rock.”

Kathy added, “Brad, I’ll sit with anyone I darn well chose to, and no Neanderthal is going to tell me otherwise. John, would you care to go for a walk.”

Sue, said, “What she said, Steven?”

John and Steven, both looked at them confused, but then quickly said, “um… sure, of course.” They took their arms and headed out to the field.

Julie stared at Brad, who then turned to Jason, “Hiding behind a woman again. Letting Julie and your mom fight your battles. Pansy.”

Jason stood up, “Brad, I’m not hiding. Anytime, you want to step outside.” Jason stared him right in the eye, and bared his teeth.

Brad broke the eye contact first, “I can’t afford to get suspended again. But I’ll catch up with you outside of school.”

Jason, replied, “Fine, name a time and place. I’ll be there.”

“Just wait. You will see.”

“Fine, like I said Brad, anytime.”

Brad walked away, and Jason sat down. “I’m sorry Julie. I know how much that bothers you.”

“No Jason, you were right the other day. The only way for you to deal with Brad is to face him down. You called his bluff, and it worked.”

“For now, he won’t go one on one with me now. He is more likely to get a couple of his buddies and try to ambush me on the way home, but hopefully I can avoid that.”

“Well let’s go find Kathy, Sue and John and Steven” she replied.

“Yes, before John and Steven have dropped dead from shock.” He replied.

Julie giggled, and said, “You know Brad could not have done anything more to push Kathy’s buttons. She may actually try to get to know John now.”

“He is a nice guy, she could do worse.” Jason replied.

“I’m sure you are right. Well lets go find them.”

They cleaned up the table, including their friend’s meals and then went out to the field.

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 19 - 21. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgender nature, and his mostly supportive family.

Chapter 19

Jason managed to avoid Brad that afternoon, though he was not sure whether that was because of the way he had faced Brad down, or if Brad was simply biding his time.

The next day at lunch, as Julie and her friends came out of the lunch line, Kathy and Sue looked at each other and said, “I suppose you want to sit with Jason and his friends again.”

Julie replied, “Do you really mind?”

“No, not really, we’re just teasing you. Yesterday was certainly entertaining. I thought John and Steve were going to pass out when Kathy and I asked them to take a walk in response to Brad.” Sue said.

“I know, but really they seem nice enough. When Jason and I found you, you both looked to be having an alright time with them.” Julie answered.

“Yeah, they were kind of funny. To be honest, we did apologize once we got outside for using them that way, and they said it was ok, and that they understood. I was glad, because they are nice and they don’t deserve to be used.” Kathy said, and then added “But that doesn’t mean we want to date them.”

Julie just smiled and said, “Fine, I never asked you to date them. I just want you to be nice.”

They walked over and sat down with Jason, John and Steve.

Kathy said, “Hi boys. It is ok if we sit here isn’t it?”

John quickly said, “Hi, no problem at all.” Jason and Steve quickly agreed.

Sue asked, “So, do you think we will get through lunch today without any dramatics?”

Jason just shrugged. “I don’t know. There is only so much we can do about Brad.”

Kathy said, “You know it was all around school yesterday afternoon how you stood up to him. You even challenged him. It really surprised a lot of people. That was very brave of you.”

Steve added, “Brave, it seems more like suicidal to me. Brad can beat the crap out of Jason, and everybody knows it.”

Jason said, “Look, I wasn’t trying to be brave, and I’m certainly not looking to get beaten up, but it’s either stand up to him, or knuckle under. I’m not going to do that. If it comes to it, he will probably beat me up, but he is going to know he was in a fight. Hopefully he will decide it isn’t worth it. I’m more worried about him getting his buddies to help him. I was expecting him to be waiting for me last night though, and I did not see him. But I really don’t think it is over.”

John said, “Not damn likely. You just wait, he is just waiting. He is not as stupid as he acts sometimes; he knows if you get beaten up right now, everyone, including the teachers will know it was him after yesterday.”

Jason replied, “That’s kind of what I was thinking too.”

Julie answered, “Well, you be careful. I’m just sorry that this is happening because of me.”

Jason said, “Julie, this is not happening because of you. Are you the only girl that Brad has tried to get to go out with him that has said no?”

Kathy and Sue both said, “Hell no! He has hit on a lot of the girls.”

“So if he had seen me with either of you at the mall, do you think it would have been any different?”

“No, it probably would have been exactly the same.” Kathy said, and Sue shook her head in agreement.

“There you go. So it is because he saw me with a girl. He thinks that because he is bigger and stronger than me, that I should not have a girlfriend if he doesn’t have one. It is an affront to his manhood, don’t you know.”

Julie said, “Gee, that’s nice Jason, what you are really saying is that ‘Julie you aren’t anything special, it could have been any girl, I’m the one he was upset over.’ I’m glad you think so highly of me.”

“Julie, you know that I think you are special. The fact is I would not have been there with anyone but you.” Jason replied.

Julie laughed, “I know, Jason. I had to tease though.”

Meanwhile, their friends shared a look, and rolled their eyes, and Kathy said, “Ok you two, that’s enough of that, you will send me into diabetic shock.”

From there conversation turned to more mundane topics, and when they were finished eating, they all cleaned up, and headed out onto the field together. Lunch time came to an end quickly, and they all parted to head off to their respective afternoon classes.

At the end of the day, Jason, and his friends John and Steve walked home together.

John said to Jason, “So you and Julie seem to be getting along pretty good. That was quite sudden. What happened?”

“Well, I was out with my Mom the other night at the mall, and Julie, Kathy and Sue ran into us while I was waiting for my Mom to pay for some things she had picked up. We just started chatting. Then as you saw she and I talked some more at lunch last week, and found we had a number of things in common, so I asked her to come over Friday night. She did, and we had a good time.”

“Wow, you are so damn lucky. Why can’t something like that happen to me?” Steve asked.

“Maybe it will. You and Sue seemed to be getting along ok yesterday when Julie and I found you.” Jason replied.

“Well… I like her, and I would like that, but you know darn well that was only because they wanted to piss off Brad, because they did not like what he said. They even apologized to us when we got outside for using us like that.” Steve said.

“Just be yourself. Let her get to know you, and you never know.”

“Look at that, he has been dating for three days, and now he is the expert.” John gave Jason a light shove.

Jason laughed and pushed him back.

“So, I’m on the Mets, what teams are you on? With all that nonsense with Brad yesterday, you never told me.” Jason asked.

“I’m on the Cards” John said.

“and I’m on the Dodgers.” Steve said.

“Too bad, we are all on different teams this year. Oh well, may the best team win.” Jason offered his hand, and the others shook on it.

They came to Steve’s house and Steve told them he would see them the next day, as he went into his house. John and Jason continued on and soon came to John’s house and John went on in. Jason took a deep breath and continued on toward his own house. He kept alert, and was careful as he passed blind areas where Brad and his friends might be waiting for him. Fortunately, he came to his own house without a problem, and went on in. He let out his breath, and thought to himself. “What the hell have I gotten myself into?”

He got changed, and felt himself relax as he did so. He worked on his homework, until it was time to help his mother get dinner ready.

“Everything ok honey,” she asked?

“I’m fine, Mom.”

“Are you and Julie getting along ok?”

“Yes, she’s great. I still can’t believe everything that has happened in the last week, but that part is wonderful.”

“So what is bothering you? Come on you know I can tell that something is.”

“It’s Brad. He came after me again at lunch yesterday. Nothing really happened, but I don’t think it’s the end of it.”

“You want me to call the school. You know they don’t tolerate bullying.”

“Mom, they can’t be everywhere. I have to handle this on my own.”

“Jason, damn, I’m sorry. Kelly. You don’t have to face these things on your own. Something can be done about this guy.”

“Mom, it’s ok, I’m still Jason, no matter what I’m wearing. I like the name Kelly, and when you call me that it makes me feel accepted, but don’t worry about it if you forget. Ok. Anyway, if you go to the school, what can they do? He hasn’t touched me yet, except for a small push and that was at the mall. All it will do is make him more determined. Please, let me deal with it. If it gets out of hand I will let you know.”

“Ok… but be sure you do.”

“I promise.”

Chapter 20

“So Jason how was your week?” Dr. Daniels asked Jason.

“It was pretty incredible.” Jason replied. Jason went ahead and told him all about going shopping, meeting Julie and her friends at the mall. Then about Julie confronting him with having overheard his mother and himself at the shoe store, and how she had become his girlfriend as a result. He also mentioned the run-in with Brad.

“Well, seems like you had a very busy week. You got pretty lucky with Julie. She seems like a very, very nice young lady.”

“Oh, she is, Dr. Daniels. She is fantastic.” Jason said.

“So how did you feel when your Mom told you that you were going to go shopping, and what you were going to pick up.”

“It was like a dream come true. I kept expecting someone to jump out and tell me April Fools or something.”

“I can imagine. How much of your time have you been spending dressed?”

“Most of the time when I’m home. Mostly evenings. And of course I have the nightgown for bed as well.”

“When you are dressed, are you finding yourself aroused?”

“No, not really. I’m just relaxed, mostly. It was great on Friday night, with Julie over. She was helping with my makeup, and it was just comfortable.”

“How about Julie, I know you think she is nice, and she is acting as a female friend, but also as your girlfriend.”

“Well that is a bit confusing. On the one hand, she is beautiful and I look at her and I just want to be with her. On the other hand, I am jealous of her because she looks so good, and I would love to look like that. And then there is the part that is just enjoying having her as a friend, and knowing she is helping me to look as good as I can, and to learn as much as I can about what being a girl is all about. It is so confusing.”

“Well that is going to take some time for you to work through. Julie presents a challenge for you because she is complex, she wants to be your girlfriend, but she also wants to be your female friend. You two seem to make a good pair, if you can continue to work through all of this.”

“As for Brad, you need to be very careful, people that act like that are frequently quite violent when they are embarrassed. And it sounds like you embarrassed him publicly yesterday. I suspect he will be trying to find a way to get at you, without risk to himself. If it escalates at all you need to let your mother and the school authorities know.”

“I will.”

Dr. Daniels continued to delve into Jason’s feelings about the last week. Towards the end of the hour, he asked Jason to step out and to send his mom in.

“Hello Mrs. Anderson, how are you and Mr. Anderson handling things? Jason had a busy week.” Dr. Daniels asked Kristine after they had sat down with the door closed.

“It’s been a little tough. Thursday we went to the mall and got Jason some clothes and Richard got to see him for the first time dressed. He really was wonderful with Jason, made sure that Jason knew that he was accepted. We talked that night, and he admitted to me that it had really been hard. Seeing Jason in a skirt, with small breasts. Jason does not really look like a girl even then so that makes it hard.”

“How about you, what did you feel, you went with him to the store, picked out the clothes etc.”

“I just kind of tried to imagine we were buying for a girl that Jason knew. But I have to say that night when we got home and he was trying on his clothes, and he put the add-a-cup pads in, the look on his face… Doctor, Jason is never giving this up. I just knew it right then. I’m going to have to accept that fact, because I love him, and I won’t lose him to this. Richard is the same.”

“Jason is very lucky to have you both as parents.”

“Well, he is a great son, and I guess he will also be a great daughter as well. We will get used to it, and if that is what it takes, we will work to help him with his appearance. Puberty is not helping, he is going to have hair problems, it’s already starting. But I know there are ways to deal with that. My sister-in-law Sally has some friends that can help with that.”

“Good. How about Julie?”

“Oh… God, did we get lucky with her. I can’t believe I was that careless! We got caught the first time we went out. That could have been disaster. But she really is something, and she is not only not put off by his dressing, she is actually turned on by it. I’m going to have to watch those two closely, because they are walking hormones. And then her mother doesn’t know anything about the Kelly aspect, or that Julie is not interested in boys per se. I feel guilty not telling her mom, but I just can’t do it and put Jason at further risk.”

“I understand, but I would not beat yourself up over it. You would have handled it, even if you had been caught by someone not as discrete as Julie, you are such a strong family. As for Julie’s parents, you barely know them. Trust Julie for now, maybe she is underestimating her parents, maybe not, but you have to trust her on this for now.”

“I know. And she has earned that trust at this point.”

“Yes, she has.”

Chapter 21

Jason again got through the day on Thursday without running into Brad. He, Julie and their friends had settled down to eating together as routine. Jason noticed that her friends were relaxing more around his friends, and he wondered where that would lead. He knew from Julie that they had initially not been interested in John and Steve, but neither of them was sure that would continue. Jason did not know whether to encourage his friends or not. He decided that discretion was the better part of valor and to let things take their course naturally.

He had baseball practice on Thursday night, so he could not get dressed when he got home. Instead he got on his baseball pants, and a t-shirt, and worked on his homework until it was time for practice.

When the team had all arrived, He was relieved to see that Brad was not on his team. Jason did quite well in the drills. He wasn’t the best player on the team, but he was not the worst by far. He had played second base the last year, and was most likely going to play there again this year.

Jason enjoyed the practice, and looked forward to playing games once the season started. Because of the wet winter, the league had started practices a little late, so they would only have about two weeks of practices, games would start a week from Saturday. Jason’s team had practices on Saturday, and then another on Tuesday night. They were going to try and get another one, but the coach did not think they would be able to get a field, so he was not going to know until next week.

He got his schedule from his coach and brought it home with him.

His mother looked over the schedule and saw that some of the games were on Wednesday nights.

She said, “We need to make a copy of this and bring it with us to Dr. Daniels next week. You are going to have to miss a few appointments; I don’t want to pull you from games, that is not fair to your team.”

“Thanks Mom, I was wondering about that.”

Jason had gotten changed out of his baseball clothes and was now dressed in his Capri’s and a Tee. “Mom, can I invite Julie for movie night again tomorrow?”

“I don’t see why not. Have you given any further thought about Emily?”

“I really want to say yes, but I don’t know what to do. What if she says something to Grandma or Grandpa, or worse in front of Aunt Jessica?”

“That is the concern. We will ask her not too, but she is only seven. It is a risk.”

“What do you think I should do?” he asked his mother.

“I don’t know honey. It’s a tough decision. I don’t want to deal with Jessica finding out. But Emily does not spend much time with them, so I don’t know how much of a risk that is. She does see your grandparents more often though. But I really think that they will keep come to accept you as well, and even before that I can’t see them telling Jessica. I think it’s a small risk, but a risk.

“Well if you and Dad are ok with it, then it’s ok with me. I’ll take my chances.”

“Well, I’ll talk to your father tonight, and assuming it’s ok, we can invite them over for Saturday night dinner. Sunday we have the Sanders coming, and we can’t do it then.”

“Sounds good to me. Thanks mom.”

They were just finishing up with making dinner, when Jason’s father got home. “Hello ladies, how was your day?”

“Pretty good, hon.”

“Me too, Dad.”

“How was baseball practice, Kelly?”

“It was good. I got Coach Osborn again, will probably play mostly second base.”

“Good, I liked him. He was good about remembering that this is a rec league. Not one of these guys that is all about winning, and not about having some fun. Of course, winning helps make it fun. Your team did well last year.”

“Yeah, second place, not too bad. We have most of the same kids, a few of the older kids moved up a league, and a few new younger kids, but the core is basically the same. John is on a different team this year, for some reason.”

“That’s a shame; it was fun having him on your team last year.”

“Honey, dinner is ready, why don’t you go get cleaned up, and Kelly and I will put it on the table.”

“Ok, be out in a minute.”

They sat down a few minutes later to dinner. Jason’s father quickly agreed that it would be nice to invite Julie over again for movie night. “I really like her,” he said.

They discussed the pros and cons of telling Emily, and decided that they would go ahead and invite Sally and Emily over for Saturday night. That decided, they cleaned up dinner, watched some TV and then it was time for bed.

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 22 - 23. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgender nature, and his mostly supportive family.

Brad’s face showed his seething rage, and he said, “I am going to kick your ass, you know that.”

Authors Note: Sorry this one is a bit short, but it is all I had time to write, and I felt it was a good stopping point. Also, please be warned, this episode does have some strong language. I do not intend on over using such language, but in this particular section, I felt it necessary.

Chapter 22

The next day at school Jason found Julie and asked her if she would like to come over again for movie night that night. Julie said that she would like to but that she would have to check with her Mom to make sure. Then she asked him if he would like to come with her, Kathy and Sue on Saturday night, they were planning on seeing a new movie.

“I’m sorry, Julie, I would really like to, but Mom invited Aunt Sally and Emily over and I have to be there.”

“Oh, so you decided to go forward with that did you?”

“Yes.”

“Darn, I wish I could be there for that, but I already promised Kathy and Sue.”

“I think Mom wanted this to be small, so that we could explain things to Emily.”

“I can understand that, but that does not mean I don’t wish I could be there. I like your Aunt and Emily.”

“Well, I think it’s a given that you will have plenty of opportunities to get together with them. And we will be seeing your family on Sunday.”

“Yes, that is going to be interesting.”

Later on in the morning, on his way from his social studies class to his math class, Jason was walking when he was suddenly pushed from behind. Falling over, his books sprawled all over the hall. He tried to look back to see if he could see who did it, but could not see through the crowd.

“Damn it.” He said, and started to pick up his books. Some of the other kids helped him get his books, and looked on with sympathy. He got himself composed and headed off to math class.

When lunch time came Julie and her friends sat with Jason and his friends without even needing to discuss it, as it was now simply assumed.

Sue was the first to bring up the incident in the hall, “So are you ok. You know it was Brad don’t you. Everyone is talking about it.”

“I did not see him, but it had to be him or one of his pals.” Jason answered.

“I told you he wasn’t going to let it go.” John said.

“I know. I did not think he would.” Jason said.

“What are you going to do?” Julie asked.

“Nothing, I can’t prove anything. I’ll just have to watch out more.”

“You be careful.”

“I will. Let’s talk about something else, ok?”

When lunch ended they once again headed off to their own classes. Jason was careful to keep very aware of who was around him the rest of the day. On his way to his locker at the end of the day, he saw Brad waiting nearby. He took a deep breath and went to his locker.

As Jason opened his locker, Brad came over and said, “I’m going to get you Jason, just you wait. This is not over.”

Jason looked at him and said, “Fuck off, Brad.”

“What did you say to me?” Brad asked incredulously.

Jason slowly put his books in his locker, closed the door, turned toward Brad, stared him right in the face, and said, “Fuck you.”

Brad’s face showed his seething rage, and he said, “I am going to kick your ass, you know that.”

Jason sighed, “So you keep telling me Brad. I don’t know what you think that is going to prove though. If you manage to beat me up, that will just confirm you are the asshole that everyone already knows you are. Of course since you have rather publicly gone after me I’m sure that assault charges will be filed. If I on the other hand manage to win, you will be a laughing stock, because no one expects me to win. The really stupid thing about it all is that none of this is going to get you anywhere with the girls, which is supposedly what you are upset with me about. So are you planning on following me home today, so we can get this over with, or you just gonna keep talking about it?”

Brad looked around and saw that they were being watched by a bunch of the kids. “What are you all looking at? Get out of here.” He turned back to Jason and said, “There’s too many people here right now, and I have baseball practice tonight, so I don’t have time to kick your ass today. But you keep watching your back, I’m going to get you, when you least expect it.” Brad pushed Jason hard against his locker.

“Promises, promises.” Jason replied.

“Mr. Johnson! Get your hands off him.” Mrs. Jeffries said. Brad turned his head to see the school guidance counselor looking at him. “Break it up. If I see any more of that, you will both be suspended. You know there is zero tolerance for fighting in school. Now get your stuff and go home.”

Brad let him go and headed down the hall toward his own locker.

Jason took another deep breath, opened his locker and got his things. John and Steven met up with him for the walk home. They all tried to avoid discussing it any further.

When Jason got home, he went into his room, fell onto his bed and started shaking. “What the hell am I going to do?” he thought to himself. He curled up in a ball and just started sobbing. Eventually Jason felt wrung out, so he got up, pulled out his jean skirt, and his nice peasant blouse. As he got dressed he could feel the stress flowing off of him. A few minutes later the phone rang, and it was Julie.

“Hi Jason, Mom says it’s ok for me to come over tonight, as long as it is ok with your mom.”

“I asked Mom, last night, so I know its fine with her.”

“Cool. Mom says she has to drive by your place anyway, so she is going to drop me off. Is 5:30 ok?”

“Sure, Mom should be home in a few minutes, so that won’t be a problem.”

“Ok, good. I’ll bring my CD’s again, if you would like.”

“Umm… oh! Yes, please that would be wonderful.” It had taken him a minute to realize that she meant her makeup.

“I’ll see you around 5:30 then.”

“Great.” Jason answered.

Chapter 23

As he hung up the phone, he thought, “oh, damn… I’m going to have to get changed again. Well I don’t have to right away.”

Jason sat back down and tried to think about everything that was happening in his life. On the one hand, he loved that he was now free to be Kelly when he needed to be. It just felt so natural to him to sit here, dressed in a skirt, wearing a bra and all the other things that a teenage girl should be wearing. And his feelings for Julie were mind boggling. He still could not believe that she was interested in him, both as a boy and as a girl, that with her he did not even have to choose between Jason and Kelly.

This was all so fantastic. But this thing with Brad scared the heck out of him.

Then there was tomorrow night. On the one hand, he wanted to share Kelly with Emily. He knew that Emily would love having another girl in the family. She was the only girl of all his cousins, and he just knew that she felt let out sometimes. But on the other hand, bringing her into the little circle that knew about Kelly was quite a risk. He knew that if he thought that things were tough now at school, he could just imagine what would happen if Brad ever found out about Kelly.

And yet, he just could not imagine giving up being Kelly. Whatever happened, he was sure that Kelly was going to be a part of his life forever. He knew that his parents were hoping this was just a phase. They had been so great since he had first told them. And unbelievably great since his first session with Dr. Daniels, hard to believe it was just over a week ago. But he could tell that they were struggling quite a bit with it. He could see it in their eyes, even though he knew the love and acceptance they gave him was real.

He heard his mother’s car pull in the driveway, and soon he heard her calling out, “Jason?”

“In my room Mom” he called back to her.

His mom came to the door, which was open.

“Hi Jason…. Oh… sorry, Kelly.”

“Hi Mom.”

“So are we going to be seeing Julie tonight?” she asked.

“Yes, her Mom will drop her off about 5:30.”

“I don’t think you should meet her at the door dressed like that.”

“No, I know, I’m going to have to change again. I wasn’t thinking, when I got changed. But since I was already changed, I figured, I’d wait until I had to, before I changed back.”

“Well, you should probably do it soon, just in case they get here a little early. How was school today?”

Jason looked at his shoes, and said, “Fine.”

“Jason. What happened?”

Jason proceeded to tell his mother everything. By the time he was done, he was almost ready to cry again. Kristine was livid, and when Jason mentioned that Mrs. Jeffries had threatened them both with being suspended, she was ready to take on the world.

“So let me get this straight, she sees you get shoved into a locker, and does nothing more than break it up, and then tell you that if she saw that again, you would both get suspended.”

“That’s the rules, mom. Zero tolerance, she said.”

The conversation was interrupted by the ringing of the doorbell.

“Damn, look at the time! Kelly, you have to get changed, that is probably Julie and her mother. Hurry up; I’ll go let them in.”

Kristine headed out to the front door, closing Jason’s room door behind her. Jason quickly got out of his skirt, hose, bra and shirt, and put back on his jeans and the t-shirt he had been wearing that day at school. He quickly put it all in a drawer, and then headed out to the living room, where he found Mrs. Sanders and Julie.

His mom and Mrs. Sanders were talking about the situation with the school, and what to do about Brad.

“Hi Jason, Julie tells me your having a bit of a problem with Brad Johnson.”

“Yeah, I seem to be his target of the week.” Jason answered.

“Julie says you have been quite brave, standing up to him. From the way Kathy and Sue have been talking about it, you have impressed the whole school. Be careful though, that is a dangerous game to be playing against someone that is as unstable as Brad Johnson.”

“I’m doing the best I can.”

“Well, we can talk more about it on Sunday. Have fun tonight. What time should I plan on picking up Julie?”

“Don’t worry about it; I’ll bring her home again, Shelly. Somewhere between 10 and 10:30 when the movie is over, if that is ok.”

“That’s fine, as long as it is not too much trouble.”

“No trouble at all.”

With that, Mrs. Sanders kissed Julie and headed out the door.

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 24 - 25. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgender nature, and his mostly supportive family.

Emily broke free of her mother’s hand and ran into the living room, seeing Jason she stopped in her tracks. “Jason! Oh… You look so pretty in that dress.”

Chapter 24

“Ok Kelly, let’s go get you ready for the evening.” Julie said. Julie and Jason headed into his room, and Jason retrieved his clothes.

“I had to do a quick change, back into boy clothes to come out and greet your Mom.” Jason told her sheepishly.

“Yeah, that outfit would have had my mother’s head spinning,” she laughed.

Jason went into the bathroom, got changed and came back into his bedroom.

“So Kelly, do you want me to teach you how to do what I did for you last week? I know it’s not perfect, but it is a start?”

“Yes. I would love to.”

“We are going to need a mirror. I know you don’t have one yet, and I could not sneak mine over here. Let me go ask your Mom if she has something we can use.”

“Ok”

Julie went and found Kristine. “Do you have a mirror that Kelly and I can borrow? I want to teach her how to do what I did for her last week.”

“I don’t have a portable mirror. I usually get ready in our bathroom, you saw it last week when we got the hair dryer.”

“Oh. Yes, I guess if I had a bathroom like that I wouldn’t be doing mine at my desk.”

“Well, the double vanity is nice. Particularly when you are married, I get my side, Richard has his. And since the shower and toilet have their own little room, it is very convenient in the morning.”

“I can imagine. I have to share a bathroom with my brother. Ewww.”

“I guess I am going to have to pick up a makeup mirror for Kelly. Tell you what; the guest room has a dresser with a large mirror. Take a couple of chairs in there to work.”

“Ok. Thanks, Mrs. Anderson.”

“No problem.”

Julie went and got Kelly, and they grabbed some chairs from the kitchen and brought them into the guest bedroom. Julie worked with Jason showing him what she had done last week. She made Jason do it himself, and they would clean it off and keep doing it until he got it right. Kristine came in to check on them after a while, and sat down on the edge of the bed and kibitzed. Kristine made a note of what Julie had used, so that she could pick Jason up his own supplies.

They were still sitting in the guest bedroom, mostly done but talking about various make up techniques and what was appropriate for what situations and generally just laughing and having a good time, when Richard came in looking for them.

“Hello ladies, I was wondering where you all were hiding.”

“Oh… Hi honey, I’m sorry we did not hear you come in.”

“Hi Dad.”

“Hello Mr. Anderson.”

Kristine got up and gave her husband a hug. “I had planned on making that roast for dinner tonight, but I did not get it in the oven. Kelly and I had some things to talk about and then Julie got here, and I’m afraid, we are going to have to save that for tomorrow night. Any objection to pizza?”

“No, that’s fine with me, Kris”

“Girls?”

Julie and Jason both said they were fine with pizza. After confirming that everyone liked pepperoni, Kristine said, “I’ll go call in the order.”

Richard went to get changed into comfortable clothes. Jason and Julie put away Julie’s make up supplies, and brought the chairs back to the kitchen. They then went ahead and set the table for dinner. Kristine said that it would be nice to have some salad with the pizza, and asked if they would toss it.

They both agreed, and Jason and Julie worked together chopping the various ingredients. They soon had the salad together and on the table. It wasn’t too long before the doorbell rang and the pizzas were delivered. Jason made sure to stay out of site as his mother answered the door and paid for the pizza.

After dinner, they all went into the family room, and Kristine said, “I think we should let Julie pick tonight’s movie. Any objections?”

Richard and Jason both agreed. Jason showed Julie to the cabinet with the Anderson’s fairly extensive DVD collection. Julie looked through, and came across one that made her laugh. “I think it has to be this one.”

As she took the DVD out and showed it, Richard and Kristine both laughed, and Jason blushed. She was holding up Tootsie.

“Ok, Tootsie it is then.” Richard took the DVD and popped it into the machine.

Julie sat next to Jason on the couch, took his hand and whispered, “Are you ok?”

“I’m fine. If I couldn’t laugh about it, I don’t know what I would do. Besides it could have been Mrs. Doubtfire, at least Dustin Hoffman looks pretty decent as a woman.” Jason assured her.

Julie laughed and said, “Especially in that red dress on the cover. I’ve never actually seen this movie, but I’ve heard about it. Mom had a crush on Dustin Hoffman. We were watching this weird movie, Stranger than Fiction, and Mom was drooling over him. Dad was teasing her about him in Tootsie.”

With that they settled down and watched the movie.

When the movie was over, Jason had to get changed again, and clean the makeup off his face. Kristine and Julie made sure that he did not miss anything, and they brought Julie home. Jason again walked her to the door, said goodnight, and waited for her to go inside.

Later that night Richard and Kristine were in their room getting ready for bed.

“Well, what do you think? Are we doing the right thing here?”

“Yes, I think we are. I had never really seen it before, but there really is a girl inside of Jason, dying to get out. It is not just the clothes. Sitting in there with Julie and him, it was just like when I was a girl hanging out with my friends. If we try to stifle that, what will it do to him?”

“I don’t know hon. I don’t want to lose my son.”

“Richard, Jason will always be your son, no matter what happens, even if he ultimately becomes your daughter. You know he is still going to enjoy ball games, and hockey and the other things that you two have shared. And I know we were worried about him finding someone to spend his life with, but maybe that is not as impossible as we thought. Look at Julie. She is really wonderful. I know they are only fourteen. But it just shows that there are girls out there that won’t spurn him. I can’t tell you how much that means to me.”

“I know that, Kris. I will handle it, you know that.”

“I do, because you are a great father. We have a bigger and more immediate problem to deal with.”

“Oh… What is going on?”

Kristine filled him in on what had been going on with Jason and Brad.

“Well, I guess he knows how to be a man.”

“Richard!”

“I’m not saying that as a knock. I’m actually proud of him for standing up to this kid. He is going to need that strength if he is going to face the world, especially if he ever comes out as Kelly.”

“Rich, he has to find ways to deal with things without having to fight.”

“I know, Kris that is not what I’m saying. He hasn’t fought. He has just shown this kid his inner strength, and has the guy thinking about whether it is worth it or not. Now he needs something to help diffuse the situation. This kid isn’t likely to back down. I do think it is time we had a chat with the principal on Monday, although Jason is right, they can’t be everywhere and it is likely to make the kid more determined, I think it has to go on the record that we know about the situation and we will press charges if this kid lays a hand on Jason. I suggest we go there on our way to work.”

“Ok.”

Chapter 25

Jason got up in the morning, and got ready for baseball practice. His mother dropped him at the field, and told him she would be back in time to pick him up. Jason kept his mind on the drills. When it was his turn for batting practice, he found he was able to focus on the ball better than he had the year before. He was taller, and he could reach the balls on the outside of the plate better than before and he was stronger, so he was hitting the ball harder.

Coach Osborn was impressed with the improvement in Jason’s hitting, and told him “You are going to surprise some people this year Jason. Your bat speed has definitely improved, and your reach. If you can get some time in a batting cage, you are going to be a pretty good hitter.”

“Thanks Coach! I’ll talk to my dad about it.”

Kristine picked up Jason after practice. They went back to the house and Jason grabbed his new bathrobe and took a shower. When he was finished, on his way into his room his mother told him, “Kelly, we have to run to the mall, so please hurry and get dressed.”

Jason was a little disappointed because he was going to have to dress in his boys’s clothes. When he was ready he asked his mother, “What are we going to the mall for Mom?”

“A couple more outfits for Kelly, and a new dress for tonight.”

“Oh! Why?”

“Because you really need a couple of more things for the evenings, and I want you to really look nice tonight for Sally and Emily. Of course if you don’t want to….”

“No… I want to, just wasn’t expecting it. Thanks Mom!”

“We are going to go to the mall in Springfield though, so we have to get moving.”

“Not taking chances. Look at how well the last one worked out.” Jason said.

“No, not taking any more chances. We won’t get that lucky next time.”

“I know Mom. I’m just kidding.”

They made the hour drive to the mall in Springfield. They headed into the mall and headed to the juniors section and started in the dress section.

They had to rule out a lot of them. Kristine said quietly to Jason, “Kelly, you need something that has sleeves and full front coverage. I don’t know how well a strapless bra would work for you, and you need something to hold up your breasts.” That ruled out a lot of the dresses that they came across, and they were getting discouraged when they found a dress that Kristine thought might just be perfect. “Kelly, this may be exactly what we are looking for.”

The dress she was holding was a ruched turtleneck, draped little black dress. It had puffy cap sleeves, and ruching throughout. It had a flyaway panel on the left hip.

“This would be your first LBD. But there is no way to be sure without trying it on for size. It looks like it is sized kind of small.”

“LBD?”

“Little Black Dress. It would be overkill normally, but we are looking to make tonight special. I’ll dress up, too. Sally and Emily are already planning on dressing nicely, because I warned her.”

“How can I possibly try that on?”

“Come on.” She took the dress, and they headed over to the boys section. She grabbed several pairs of jeans, and said loudly, “Jason, come on I need you to try these jeans on.” She took him into the boys changing room. They found an empty stall, she handed the jeans and the dress in, “Ok, try on the jeans.”

Jason went into the room, put the jeans aside and got undressed, and put the dress on.

Kristine said, “Are you ready?”

“Yes.”

Kristine made sure no one was around, and said, “Open the door, let me see.”

Jason opened the door, and Kristine went in with him. “Ooh… that looks great. Turn around.”

Jason turned around slowly.

“Ok, that works. Go ahead and get back in your regular clothes.” She opened the door a smidge, checked that no one was right outside, and then stepped back out.

Jason took off the dress put on his clothes and grabbed the jeans and folded the dress. He opened the door, his Mom quickly took the clothes, and they headed back to the juniors section, dropping the jeans back on the shelf as they passed.

They then looked for some other tops. They found several more cute tops and a couple of more capris in different colors.

They also stopped at the drug store in the mall and picked up the cosmetics that Julie had used, and a lighted makeup mirror.

“We are going to have to pick up a different pair of shoes for you, though. Here we go again.” They headed into another shoe store. Kristine grabbed some footies, and they looked for some shoes that would go with the LBD. They found a strappy pair of sandles, with a fairly low 2  ¼ inch heal. Black with rhinestones along the upper straps.

Jason tried them on, while Kristine kept a look out for others. He stood on them, it was clear that they fit, so he quickly changed back to his sneakers.

They stopped and grabbed a snack at the food court, and headed out to the car.

On the way home, they talked about their escapade in the changing room.

“I have never been so nervous in my life, Mom.” Jason admitted. “But it was exhilarating.”

“I know what you mean, and I said this morning, no more risks! But that dress really does look good on you, and it will work with a regular bra.”

When they got home, Jason got changed into one of her new tops and capri pants, and came out to help her Mom with getting dinner started. They were having the roast that they did not have the night before. Jason was asked to work on peeling potatoes. His Mom prepared the roast, and put it in the oven, then came and helped Jason finish with the potatoes. Jason ran the vacuum for his mom, and she went and worked on finishing the laundry, she had started that morning while Jason was at practice.

Jason’s father came home. While he did not always work on Saturdays, he had been putting in a little bit of time for the last couple of months on a big project.

“Kelly, it’s time to get ready, Sally and Emily will be here soon. Richard, get cleaned up, and we are having a formal dinner tonight, please.”

Richard said, “Oh, what is the occasion?”

“Sally and Emily will be meeting Kelly for the first time, so we are going to make it right.”

“Ok. Sounds like a reasonable excuse for a party to me.”

Jason went into his room, got out his new dress, and removed the tags. He put on a slip, and hose. Then he sat at his desk, and pulled the mirror out of its box. He put on his makeup, just as he had learned last night from Julie. It took him a couple of tries, but he finally got it as close as he could.

He put the cosmetics and the mirror into one of the drawers in his desk.

His mother knocked on the door. “Kelly, can I come in?”

“Sure, Mom.”

She came in and saw Jason in his slip just getting up from putting on his makeup. “Oh good you remembered that you needed to do that before you put the dress on. Now be very careful as you pull it on, so you don’t get makeup all over it.”

She helped him to pull it on safely. He put on his sandals, and had to struggle a bit for balance.

“Kelly, you look really nice. We really need to do something more about your hair, but it is simply going to have to do for tonight.”

“Thanks Mom.”

Kristine was wearing one of her little black dresses as well. It was a sheer-neck beaded dress. “Mom, you look really good too.”

“Thanks Kelly.”

They headed out to the living room, where Richard was waiting for them. Richard was turning on the lights, as it was a little dark in the living room with the drapes closed. He was wearing his black suit and a tie, when he turned and saw Jason, he said, “Oh my. Kelly, you look.. Really nice.” Jason could see the surprise in his eyes, and he wasn’t sure how he should take that. He decided it was a complement, and said, “So do you Dad.” Jason carefully walked into the living room, gave his father a hug.

He took his arm and walked him over to the recliner to sit. Jason, carefully sat making sure to keep his skirt from getting caught up.

“So, Kristine, how is this going to be done? Is Sally going to talk to Emily before they get here, I would think that would be better than having Emily just seeing Kelly without any warning?”

“Yes, Richard. Sally and Emily were going to discuss it today. Sally called just a little bit ago, and told me that she had sat down with Emily this afternoon to discuss it. She said that Emily asked a lot of questions, but that she had been very proud of her. They also talked about how some people might not approve of Jason, and Emily immediately brought up Tom and what he had said at Billy’s birthday. So they talked about how it was important that we only talk about Kelly with people that know her. Sally asked her if she wanted to meet Kelly, and Emily was quite sure that she did. Then Sally told her they were going to get all dressed up, like for a fancy party and come to our house and meet Kelly. Emily was quite happy; you know she loves to dress up.”

Richard chuckled, “Yes. Well good for her then. Kristine, since this is a party, would you care for a cocktail?”

“I believe that I would.”

“I’ll make a Shirley Temple for you Kelly.”

“Thanks Dad.”

A few minutes later the doorbell rang. Kristine went to answer the door, and let Sally and Emily in. Jason stood up, and waited for them to come into the living room from the front hallway. He could hear Emily saying, “Where is Kelly? Am I gonna meet her now?”

“Emily, please be patient. You will meet her in just a minute.” Aunt Sally said to her daughter.

“Kris, is Kelly ready for us?”

“Yes, she is right here in the living room. Emily, she has been really looking forward to meeting you.”

Sally and Emily followed Kristine into the living room. Sally had a bag that she brought in with her, with a box wrapped in pink paper with bright ribbons.

Emily broke free of her mother’s hand and ran into the living room, seeing Jason she stopped in her tracks. “Jason! Oh… You look so pretty in that dress.”

Sally said, “Emily, when Jason is dressed like that he would prefer it if you would remember to call him Kelly.”

“That’s ok Aunt Sally. That may take Emily a little getting used to, I have to think about it myself still. Emily, thank you. I feel pretty in this dress. I really like it, and I hope that you do too. You are very pretty in your dress tonight as well. And you too, Aunt Sally.”

“Thank you Kelly. I have a gift for you. Maybe you and your Mom and I can head into your room and you can open it. It’s not something you are going to want to open out here.” Sally looked over at Jason’s father.

“oh… Ok.”

“Emily, you wait here. Perhaps Uncle Richard can fix you a Shirley Temple like the one that Kelly is drinking, would you like that?”

“Yes, Mommy. Would you please Uncle Richard?”

“Of course, come with me, Emily.”

Emily went off with Jason’s father, and Sally, Kristine and Jason went to his bedroom.

Sally handed him his present.

Jason took it, and sat down at his desk. He carefully removed the bow, and the ribbon, and then peeled back the wrapping paper. There was a plain off white box, without any markings. He opened the lid, and he saw two forms that looked like his gel pads, but bigger.

Kristine said, “Sally, you shouldn’t have… Those are expensive.”

Sally said, “Kelly, your Mom mentioned that the pads she bought really were not the right size for a girl your age. I spoke to a friend of mine that has a shop that caters to a variety of people and he was able to give me a good deal on these. Kristine, I got them at his cost, it was not nearly as expensive as you think it was. I wanted to do this for my new niece. They should only be about a small B on you Jason, but they will seem huge to you I’m sure.”

Jason had to remove his dress in order to put them on, so he carefully pulled it back up over his head. He removed the gel pads, and put them in their box, and put in his new fuller forms. These fully filled the cups on his bra. They felt heavy, and he could feel an actual pull on the straps of his bra, that he had not really felt before. As he moved, he could feel them moving as well. They felt wonderful.

Jason put his dress back on, then he said, “Aunt Sally, Thank you so much!” He hugged her tight.

“You are welcome, Kelly. It is my pleasure.”

They headed back out into the living room. Richard’s eyes nearly popped out of his head when he saw Kelly’s new features. Emily said, “Jason.. I mean Kelly you got Boobies!”

“Emily!” Sally said, “You know we don’t discuss other people like that.”

“I’m sorry Mom. I’m sorry Kelly.” Emily looked like she was going to cry over being scolded.

“It’s ok, Emily. It is a bit of a change.”

“I’ll say.” Richard said quietly. Jason looked at his father, but did not reply. His father mean time shook it off and said, “Sally here is your drink. Kelly you still have yours, and Kristine?” They all showed him their drinks. “Then, let us drink to Kelly. Welcome to our world, may you find peace and happiness, wherever life takes you.”

“Here, here.” Sally said in reply, and everyone but Jason raised their glasses to Jason, and drank.

Jason said, “Thank you, and may I say, To Family, the strength that makes it all possible.”

To that they all took a sip from their drinks. They sat in the living room and talked about things. Emily started to get antsy, so Jason took her into the family room and they set up the Playstation. He let her pick a game and then played along with her.

“Kelly, why do you want to be a girl?” Emily finally asked.

“I don’t know Emily. I just do sometimes, other times I’m happy enough being a boy. But it’s just something I need to try out, because there is this part of me that has always felt off.”

“It’s not because of what Tom said to you is it? Boys can play with dollies too.”

Jason smiled, “I know that Em. This has been coming a long time before that conversation. I’m doing this for me, not for Tom or anyone else.”

“Good. What about your girlfriend Julie? Does she like Kelly?”

“Yes she does. That is kind of what got us together. She found out about Kelly, and she decided she wanted to be my friend. Then she decided she liked me as more than just a friend and so she was happy to be Jason’s girlfriend.”

“Is Jason going away?”

“I don’t know, Emily. Not right now, and maybe never. But even if I were to become Kelly permanently, the part of me that is Jason, and that loved his little cousin and enjoyed playing games with her, is never going to go away.”

“Good. I could not like Kelly if she was going to hurt Jason, and so far I really like Kelly.”

“I like you too, Emily. In fact, I love you, just as much as Kelly as I do when I am Jason.” He reached over and they hugged.

“Mommy says I can’t tell anyone about you.”

“Well, it would be best if you didn’t. Some people don’t understand. Like Aunt Jessica and Tom. What do you think they would say?

“I think they would be mean, just like Tom was.”

“Yes, and they don’t really need to know, at least not for now.”

“Ok.”

“Thanks Em. I love you.”

“You too, Kelly.”

Sally came in and said that it was time for dinner. She sent Emily off to wash her hands. “How you doing Kelly?”

“I’m pretty good. Thanks for everything Aunt Sally.”

“Nothing to thank me for, I haven’t done anything.”

“Yes you have. You have shown me love, and support, and I think that you have helped my parents as well.”

“Maybe a little, but they were already on the right track. Let’s go eat, I’m starving.”

They sat at the table, enjoying a nice meal of roast beef, mashed potatoes, green beans some salad and cornbread. Then they headed back out to the living room, Emily was getting tired, so they put her in the recliner, with her portable DVD player and headphones.

The others spent the evening just enjoying each other’s company. Jason enjoyed just being there, nobody really treating him any differently based on how he was dressed. He just was himself.

When it was time, Sally gathered up Emily, gave them all kisses, and said goodnight.

Jason headed into his room, got ready for bed and quickly fell asleep. It had been a long but good day.

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 26 - 28. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgender nature, and his mostly supportive family.

As they pulled out of the driveway, Jason felt his cheek. His first kiss from a girl. That little kiss had gone through him like a shock.

Authors Note: Thanks to Joni W for editing this section for me!

Chapter 26

Jason woke up the next morning and felt an unusual pressure on his chest. It took him a moment to realize that he was sleeping on his stomach, and what he was feeling was his new breast forms pushing into his chest. He just laid there for a while enjoying the sensation. Eventually though he got up, put on his bathrobe and headed out to the kitchen. He found his mom sipping on her morning coffee.

“Good morning, Kelly.”

“Good morning, Mom.”

“So, what did you think about last night?” Kristine asked.

“It was really nice. Aunt Sally is great, and Emily is going to be cool about it. We had a nice talk while we played video games.”

“Good. Hopefully she will remember to keep it quiet though. That is my biggest concern. I really don’t want to deal with Jessica.”

“She will do her best Mom.”

“I know honey. She is a sweetheart, she wouldn’t deliberately hurt you.”

“No she certainly would not.”

Jason made himself a bowl of cereal and sat down.

“Mom… Are you and Dad ok? I know this has been happening so fast. Most of the time you both seem to be, but I know it is hard. Dad really seemed to be struggling last night.”

Kristine took a deep breath, let out a sigh, and said, “We are fine, Kelly. I won’t lie to you, it is hard. We don’t really understand why you feel this way, but we get that you do. For myself, I can see the girl inside you now, trying to get out. I don’t know her yet, but I am coming to know her, and I know that I will love her, just as much as I have always loved my son. It is hard though, because it feels like we are losing our son, even though we are gaining a daughter. I think that is particularly hard on your father. But he loves you, and he will accept you. You did shock him last night, when you walked out with breasts. You came a lot closer to looking like a girl last night. It hit him pretty hard, but give him credit, he recovered fairly quickly, because he does love you. Don’t let it worry you, Kelly. You have to figure out what is right for you.”

“I’m sorry Mom.”

“Kelly, you don’t have anything to be sorry about. You need to feel free to be who you are. Right now you are just exploring this part of you that has been hiding for a long time. I have never seen you more happy and content than last night.”

“It was just so nice to be sitting there with you and Dad, and Aunt Sally, and feeling truly accepted as Kelly. Not talking about it, just being relaxed as myself. I can’t describe it, I felt so good.”

“Good. Ok, Julie and her family will be here around two, we need to get the house cleaned up. It doesn’t need much, but let’s get it done.”

Jason threw on a pair of leggings and a top, and then he and his mother worked on getting ready for company. His father took care of the yard work, and getting the deck area ready.

When they were done, Jason got ready to take a shower. He cringed as he had to take off his breast forms. It was like losing a part of him. He shook it off, hopped into the shower.

Putting on his bathrobe, he gathered up his other things and headed back into his room. He put his clothing in his hamper and put the forms away.

He got dressed in his boy clothes.

A little after two, the Sanders arrived. Jason let them in, and invited them into the living room. His mother and father soon came in, and after introductions all around, they all headed out onto the deck.

Mr. Sanders said to Jason, “So I hear you are playing baseball this spring. Julie says you are on the Mets.”

“Yes sir, I am. In fact that reminds me, Dad; Coach Osborn thinks I’m going to be a much better hitter this year. He suggests that I could use some time in a batting cage. He said that since I’m a bit taller, I can cover the plate better and I’m also a bit stronger.”

Richard looked at his son and said, “Well, we will have to get over to the batting cage then.”

“That is definitely the way to improve your hitting. I should take Brian and Julie over as well. Julie does quite well in her softball league. Brian made the all-star team last year.”

Kristine said, “You know, we have a bit of time before we were going to eat. Why don’t you guys take Julie, Jason and Brian over to Funland. They have batting cages. Shelly and I can hang here and get to know each other.”

Richard said, “I’m game. How about you Ken?”

“Sure why not.”

They all agreed, so Richard agreed to drive, Ken got into the front seat, and Brian, Julie and Jason sat in the back. Jason rather enjoyed the tight quarters of the rear seat with Julie in the middle. They got to Funland, and bought a number of tokens for the batting cages. Julie and Jason went first. Julie set on softball, Jason on baseballs. A bit rusty at first, they both quickly zoned in on the pitching machines patterns, and were quickly slugging the balls quite hard.

Brian and his father went next. Then Richard and Jason went again.

They continued rotating around for an hour or so, before packing it up and heading back to the Andersons.

Kristine and Shelly had spent the time talking. Mostly they talked about Jason and Julie, reminiscing about their own first loves.

When the batting contingent returned, they found the ladies laughing and sitting sipping iced tea out on the deck. Richard said, “So are the problems of the world resolved?”

“Sure, we just agreed that we just need to vote out all of the men and replace them with women.” Kristine teased back.

Richard and Ken looked at each other then back at the women and said “Phblt” making the noise often called the Bronx cheer.

Everyone laughed.

“Richard, why don’t you light the grill? We’ll start to bring out the food and get this picnic down to business.” Kristine said.

Richard nodded and started taking the cover off the gas grill. Jason, Julie and their mothers went to start bringing out the makings of the picnic.

“Brian, get off your butt and give us a hand. Nobody had to tell Jason to help.” Shelly told her son.

“What about Dad?” he asked her.

Ken said, “I’m helping Richard, you go help your mother.” He went over to where Richard was lighting the grill. Shelly rolled her eyes, but said to Brian, “Come on, ask Mrs. Anderson what you can bring out.”

“Hey that’s a nice grill. You have it hooked up to the house gas?”

“Yeah, I got pissed off the last time I ran out of propane right in the middle of cooking a steak. So I had a line run out to here. I needed a new grill anyway, so I got this one, which can be configured to work with either propane or natural gas.”

“I’ll have to look into doing that.”

Jason brought packages of Italian sausage. “Mom said you would need these first.”

“Yup they take the longest to cook. Thanks Jason. I’m going to need a garbage bag and a plate.”

“Ok, I’ll get them for you.”

Richard opened up the packages of sausage and put them on the grill. Jason brought him his garbage bag and the plate; he also brought the barbeque utensils. “Thanks Jason.”

Jason headed back inside to continue helping to bring out the food.

“So I hear that Jason is having a bit of trouble with Brad Johnson.” Ken said.

“That is what I’ve been told.”

“From what Julie has said, he has stood his ground so far, but she is worried that Brad will corner him with some of his friends.”

“That’s about the size of it. I know he wants to handle it on his own, but Kristine and I are going to stop by and have a chat with the principal tomorrow. Jason can handle himself just fine, but with the way things are these days, you just don’t want to take any chances. God knows if pushed enough, it could get worse than a simple fight. I certainly don’t want to be on the national news because everyone just ignored it. This kid Brad seems to be completely out of control.”

“I agree. Especially since from what Julie tells me it was just seeing her with him that set him off in the first place. Thank God, Julie did tell this brat no. But I am pleased to see that Jason is willing to stand up to the bully to protect her, and he seems to be very respectful of her as well.”

“Jason is a good son.” Richard said quietly, shaking his head he added, “I have no doubt that he will treat Julie very well. They are young and they are the first boyfriend, girlfriend for each other, so this could be over before next weekend, or it could go on for years. No way of knowing. But I can say that he has excellent tastes. Julie has spent a fair amount of time here the last couple of weeks, and she is a remarkable intelligent, likeable young lady. Kristine and I have very much enjoyed her company. I’m sure I don’t have to tell you, she is also a very pretty young woman. I know that Jason thinks so too.”

“Well I’d have to be blind to not notice it, but you know, she is still my little girl. It is taking a little getting used to that she has a boyfriend. But from what I have seen so far, I do like Jason, and I think she has chosen well. Frankly, Shelly and I were starting to get a little worried. Kathy and Sue, Julie’s two best friends have been talking about boys for a couple of years already. Julie would join in the talk, but never really seemed all that interested. So we were pleasantly surprised when all this came about.”

Richard nodded his head in acknowledgement, stared at the grill, and worked on turning the sausages.

Shelly came out carrying a couple of bottles of beer, and said, “We thought that you might need something to quench your thirst from slaving over a hot grill.”

“Thanks Shelly.” Richard said.

“Thanks honey.” Ken said putting his arm around his wife.

Julie came out next, bringing a plate with hot dogs and hamburgers. “Mr. Anderson, here, these are for when you are ready for them.”

“Thanks Julie. Just put them right over here.” He pointed at a side table that was near the grill.

As the sausage came off the grill, Richard cooked some hot dogs, and some hamburgers. The table was set with all kinds of food. Potato salad, fruit salad, garden salads, shredded lettuce, sliced tomatoes, red onion, sautéed mushrooms and onions, ketchup, mayonnaise, brown and yellow mustard, pickles, relish and a variety of salad dressings, were all set up on a long table. A second table was set for sitting at.

Everyone fixed themselves a plate, and sat down to eat.

“Kristine, there is enough food here for 20 people!” Shelly said.

“I know, but I figure what we don’t eat today, we can have as leftovers tomorrow. If you like, I can send some home with you too.”

After dinner, Jason got a Frisbee out, and the three kids threw it to each other for a while. The adults kicked back on the deck and talked. When it started to get dark, Richard lit the outdoor fireplace and they sat around and roasted some marshmallows.

The evening passed, and since it was a school and work night, they broke it up around ten o’clock. Jason held Julie’s hand and walked her out to the car, with the rest of her family, as well as his mom and dad. They said their good nights. Julie gave hugs to both Jason’s parents. Jason hugged Julie’s mother, and shook her father’s hand. Brian just said goodnight. Julie gave Jason a quick hug and a kiss on the cheek, and got in the car.

As they pulled out of the driveway, Jason felt his cheek. His first kiss from a girl. That little kiss had gone through him like a shock.

“Come on, lover boy. Time to go inside,” his mother said.

Chapter 27

“So Richard, what did you think of Julie’s family?” Kristine asked.

“They seemed very nice,” he answered. “I feel really guilty though. Like we are lying to them and that they really should know about Kelly. When you were getting the food and Ken and I were getting the grill going, he told me that they had been concerned about Julie not liking boys, and that they had been pleasantly surprised when she and Jason got together. I really did not know what to say. I could hardly say, well you were right, your daughter is only interested in Jason because he is part girl.”

“I know, Shelly said something similar when you all were out at the batting cages. I got the impression that Julie might be wrong about her parents, but I can see why she thinks what she does. They are really very conservative. Not overbearingly so though. But we just have to let it be for now. Who knows how long they will be together. It may be that they never really need to know.”

“True enough. But I really don’t like keeping secrets about someone else’s child. I would be pretty upset if the places were reversed.”

“So would I, but I still don’t think we can betray Julie’s trust at this point.”

“No. So how did you feel, watching your son get kissed by a girl? Even if it was just a kiss on the cheek.”

“Old. My baby is not old enough to be getting kissed by a girl.”

“I thought he would fall over right where he stood. I bet he doesn’t go to sleep at all tonight.”

Kristine laughed. “Well I’m going to. I’m exhausted.”

With that they turned off the lights and went to sleep.

The next morning they got up and all headed to the school. They arrived a little bit before the opening bell. They all went straight to the office and asked to speak to the principal. They were escorted to some chairs just outside the principal’s office.

A little while later, the principal came out of the office and invited them in.

“Mr. and Mrs. Anderson, Jason. What can I do for you this morning?” He asked.

“We want to report a situation that is occurring that has been escalating. Jason has been having trouble from another one of your students. While the first incident happened off of school property, it has been continuing to occur here.” Kristine spoke and then related a carefully edited version of the facts. She left out the language and minimized Jason’s confrontational response.

“I had a report of an incident on Friday, from the school guidance councilor.” He replied.

“Yes, on Friday, Brad shoved Jason into a locker, and she broke it up, and told them that if she saw anything like it again they would both be suspended. I find that completely unacceptable.” Richard answered.

“Mr. Anderson, fights are rarely completely one sided. I have heard your side, but I have not heard Brad’s side.”

“Mr. Conklin, you know as well as I do, that bullies pick on kids they know cannot, or will not, fight back. Suspending both kids is just not right.”

“Nevertheless it is the school policy.”

“Mr. Conklin, I will tell you right now, that if my son is hurt in any manner by this boy, I will hold you and this school personally responsible. Not to mention the boy and his parents. I have already spoken to my attorney, and we will file any relevant claims against both you and the boy’s parents. Perhaps you should warn them.”

“Very well, Mr. Anderson. I will speak with my staff and we will keep a lookout for any altercations. I will also speak with Brad and his parents.”

They took their leave; Jason was given a late pass and sent off to his first class.

The day was otherwise uneventful, until once again at the end of the day, Brad was waiting for him at his locker.

Jason once again, took a deep breath and prepared to be met by Brad.

“So you told your parents. Hiding behind your mother are you. Just wait. I will get you.”

“Brad, you keep saying so, but I still have not seen any evidence. My parents heard about it from someone else’s mother. You know as well as I do, the whole damn school has been talking. What was I supposed to say?”

“You just keep your mouth shut, like a man, not a pussy. But I knew you weren’t a man.”

“Maybe not, if being a man means being an asshole like you.”

Brad looked around, saw Mrs. Jeffries watching them, and whispered, “I will get you. You wait and see.” With that he turned and walked away again.

Chapter 28

Things began to settle into a routine. On Wednesday nights, Jason would talk with Dr. Daniels, unless he had baseball. Jason and Julie would spend Sunday’s at his house; Julie would come over early, giving them most of the day together to enjoy as Kelly. Most Saturday nights they would get together with John, Steve, Kathy and Sue. Sometimes they would get together at Julie’s house, sometimes at Jason’s, and sometimes at one of the other friends homes. Sometimes they would do something like ice-skating or a movie.

The first time they were able to get together, just the two of them, after the picnic, Jason showed Julie his new LBD. Julie said, “Oh, that must look great on you. Let me see.” Jason went into the bathroom and got changed. This was also the first time she had seen his new and improved breasts.

“Oh my god! You have real boobs.” Julie exclaimed. “They look great.” Then quietly she said, “Actually they look quite hot.”

That statement went straight to Jason’s penis.

Julie said, “Kelly, can I touch them? I know your mother is right out there, and we can’t do much, but I really, really would like to see how they feel.”

Jason thought he might just orgasm on the spot. They could hear his mother working in the kitchen, so he replied, “Yes. But it will have to be quick.”

Julie came over to him, reached out and brushed her hand over his right breast, and then cupped it lightly. She said, “It feels very real.” She took his hand and put it on her breast, “See.” And she let out a soft moan. Then they both pulled their hands back, knowing that if they didn’t they would get caught.

“Julie, I…”

“I know Kelly. Me too, I think it may be a long night.”

“Yeah. I could use a cold shower right about now.”

Julie laughed, and said, “I’m sorry. I’d help you if I could. Why don’t you go get changed, that dress is overkill for tonight.” She whispered, “I won’t get upset if you take a little long, just think about me. I know that I will be thinking about you first chance I get.”

“Um… ok.” Jason blushed, grabbed his outfit for the night and practically ran into the bathroom.

Julie later told him that she had indeed, “Thought about him, repeatedly, later that night.”

He assured her that he had as well.

One Sunday afternoon, Jason and Julie were watching a movie, and Julie said, “Kelly, could you believe Kathy and Steve last night?”

“You mean doing all the couple’s skates together! Not to mention John and Sue. I would have been much less surprised to see Kathy and John, and Sue and Steve.”

“I know. After all of their protesting too! I wish you could have come to the ladies with us. I have to teach you about girl talk. You would have been most amused. Anyway I was teasing them about what they had said to me when we first started. Kathy blushed! Kathy never blushes. She said, to me ‘I know… I was wrong, what can I tell you. He is just such a nice guy, and he is actually kind of cute. And we have been hanging out together so much, well, I saw something … Oh, damn, now that song from Beauty and the Beast is going through my head. You know that one about something being there that wasn’t before?’”

Jason laughed at the thought. “Great, just what I need is for Steve to be thinking of himself as Beast.”

“Yeah, well better Steve then John. John already has a bit of an ego. Though he is really nice too, and he is treating Sue wonderfully. He brought her flowers! They actually went out to the movies last Friday night, just the two of them, did you know that?”

“No. He did not tell me. Well I guess I can’t complain too much, there are things I have not told him either.”

Jason had not had any further run-ins with Brad at school, or for that matter outside of school. He was hoping that Brad had moved on to something (hopefully not someone!) else.

It was several weeks later on a Saturday afternoon, when Jason’s team the Mets, was finally playing the Tigers. Jason discovered that Brad was on the Tigers, and was pitching that day.

Brad was the cleanup hitter as well as the pitcher for his team. Jason’s Mets were the home team, so Brad’s team was up to bat first. Sean, the pitcher for the Mets started off a bit wild, and walked the first two batters. The next batter swung at a bad pitch, but managed to connect just enough to put it in just the right spot, and loaded the bases for Brad.

With the count two and one, on Brad, he hit a hard line drive towards the second base side. Jason made a dive to his left, caught the ball, got up and flipped it to the second basemen to double off the man on second. Brad threw his helmet in disgust when he got to the bench.

The next batter popped out to the shortstop and they got out of the inning without giving up a run.

Jason did not get up in the first inning, as Brad struck out the first three batters.

The Tigers did not score in the top half of the second inning either.

Brad gave up two singles to start the second inning, and walked the next batter on a close call with a 3 and 2 count, bringing Jason up with the bases loaded.

Jason could see the rage in Brad’s eyes. The first two pitches were wild. Brad’s coach came out to calm him down. Jason watched Brad take a deep breath, and took a curve ball for strike one. The next pitch just missed, so the count was now three and one.

The next pitch was like slow motion to Jason, he watched it come in, straight down the middle. He swung as hard as he could, made contact, and hit a solid ground ball just beyond the reach of the shortstop. Two runs scored, as the left fielder played the ball into the infield.

The Mets went on to score 3 more runs in that inning, making it five to nothing.

The next time Jason came up, it was with no one on base. Jason got into the batter’s box. He could see the look in Brad’s eyes. The first pitch was way inside, and Jason dropped to the ground to avoid it.

The next pitch, there was no avoiding. It came right at his forehead. Jason turned his head just in time, but it still hit him solidly on the helmet. Jason collapsed at the plate.

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 29 - 31. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgendered nature, and his mostly supportive family.

"Gentlemen, is there a problem here?" Officer Dowling asked.

Authors Note: Thanks to Joni W for editing this section for me!

Chapter 29

The crowd erupted in anger. Everything seemed to happen at once. Coach Osborn rushed to Jason, while yelling at the umpire, Brad and the coach of the Tigers.

Brad tried to give an innocent look, putting both arms out in a questioning way, saying, "What, it slipped."

The Tiger's coach ran out to the mound shouting at Brad, "Not on my team!"

The umpire immediately pointed at Brad, and said, "You, you are out of here. That was deliberate."

Meanwhile, Jason was holding onto his head, his coach had reached him and said, "Jason, hold still. Are you ok?"

Brad was arguing with his coach and the umpire. The crowd, made up of families from both teams, was united in yelling at Brad. Brad finally walked off the field, into his dugout and kicked the helmets, dumped the box of practice balls, and threw the water cooler. He was completely out of control.

Brad's coach and one of his assistants, finally grabbed hold of Brad, and sat him forcibly down on the bench.

"Brad, you sit right there, and don't move. Don't say another word. Nobody on my team pulls the kind of stunt you just did. You sit there, and I don't want to hear another word from you. I have not seen your parents today, are they here?"

Brad shook his head no; his eyes glued on the scene at home plate.

Jason was now sitting up; he had taken his helmet off, and was sitting on the ground. His coach was kneeling in front of him. Kristine and Richard were close at hand as well.

"I'm ok, Coach, really." Jason said.

"Jason, that was a pretty good hit on the head, we have to make sure. Thank God you got your head turned at the last moment; it was headed right for your nose."

"Coach, it hit the helmet. It felt like a bell ringing around me, and knocked me over, but I'll be ok."

"Ok, stand up slowly, take it easy."

Jason got up slowly. Took a couple of good deep breaths, and closed his eyes. The umpire and the Tiger's coach came over, and asked, "Is he ok, Coach?"

"I think he will be. Jason, take your base, but I am going to put in a pinch runner. I think you need to sit out the rest of the game. You look pretty shaken."

Jason made the obligatory attempt to protest, but really did not push too hard.

Jason walked to first base, and the crowd clapped in acknowledgement. Once he touched first base, Coach Osborn sent out a pinch runner for him, and Jason walked into the dugout, to another round of applause.

The rest of the game was uneventful. Jason's team coasted the rest of the way to an easy win.. Jason and his parents spoke with Coach Osborn after the game.

"Ok, first off, you should know that the umpire, their coach and I signed a formal complaint to the league about Brad. Not only did he throw at you, which there is no doubt of, but the tantrum in the dugout shows he has no control of his temper. He will at the very least be suspended, but I expect he may even be kicked out of the league. We have also filed an injury report, so please have Jason checked out, and submit any out of pocket expenses to the league. That's what our insurance is for. Here are the forms."

Brad was still sitting on the Tiger's bench. His coach had called his father, and Brad was not allowed to leave until he had taken responsibility for him. Brad continued to stare at Jason with rage in his eyes.

As Jason finished packing up his equipment and was heading to the car with his parents, Brad's father pulled into the lot. He got out of the car, slammed the door and headed over to the Tiger's bench. As Jason and his parents were putting his equipment bag in the trunk, they heard Brad's father and coach getting into an argument.

"What do you mean suspended. For hitting a kid with a pitch! It's part of the game, you jack ass."

"Not deliberately throwing at the batter. No sir, it's not. Brad was upset because the kid made a great play on him, and got a hit off of him, the previous time he was up at bat. He threw at him twice, the second time right at his head. This is not acceptable. Then when he was ejected, he tore up the bench area. He needs to learn about anger management."

"That's bullshit. You wait, you will never coach in this league again you moron. Some wuss gets hit by a pitch and cries, then you kick the best kid you have off the team."

"Mr. Johnson, go ahead and try. I know the league rules, and they are not going to take this incident lightly. This complaint was signed off by the umpire, me and the other coach. As for the boy your son went after, he didn't do anything to deserve being thrown at, this is a rec league and it's about sportsmanship. Something you and Brad obviously don't get."

"I know about this kid, he has been giving Brad a hard time at school too. Almost got Brad expelled a few weeks ago. He is hardly innocent."

At that Richard lost it.

"Alright Johnson, enough of that nonsense. Your son is the one with the problem, not Jason. Brad objected because Julie Sanders was not interested in him, but was interested in my son. He went after Jason at the mall, and then at school. There are plenty of witnesses that saw it. I'll tell you right now, this has gone far enough. Brad could have killed him today. You had better get him into some counseling, and perhaps get some for yourself."

Brad's father turned toward Richard, and said, "Or what, gonna have your lawyers come after me. No wonder your son is a wuss."

"Well at least we know where your son gets it."

Mr. Johnson came up to him, Richard stood his ground.

"Gentlemen, is there a problem here?" Officer Dowling asked. "Johnson, I think it's time for you to cool down. Richard, go take care of Jason."

"Ok Tim."

"Johnson, I'm writing this up. If I find out that there are any other problems between you and Richard or Brad and Jason, it will be on record. Now take Brad and go home."

"Fine. Brad, come on." Brad and his father got into his car and left.

"Richard, I can't do too much, but if Brad keeps after Jason, let me know. Maybe we can work on building a harassment case. I'll talk to the D.A. about this and see what we need."

"Thanks Tim. I just don't want this to keep escalating like this. That boy needs to be reigned in, but the apple doesn’t fall short of the tree."

"No, it doesn't, does it."

Jason's Coach Osborn came over, "Tim thanks for getting over here quickly. I thought that was going to get ugly."

"No problem, thanks for calling me."

Richard said, "Thanks guys, we need to get Jason over to the clinic. I'll catch up with you later."

"See ya. Hey Jason, great game today. Get the all clear, we need you on Tuesday."

"Thanks Coach."

Chapter 30

They spent the better part of the afternoon at a local walk-in clinic, where Jason was checked for any signs of concussion. Fortunately, he was declared to be fine, but was told to take it easy, and to be very careful if he felt any dizziness, or got a headache.

Jason and his friends had intended to go skating that night, but his parents ruled that out. He called Julie and told her about what had happened and that he would not be able to go. Julie called back after speaking with the others and they decided to skip skating and asked if they could come over to Jason's house. His parents were fine with that.

They popped a movie in the player, in the family room, and paired off by couples. The conversation steered to discussing the events at the game.

"So what do you think is going to happen?" Kathy asked.

"I don't know. I think Brad will be suspended, probably kicked off the team. His coach wants him gone. Dad got a call from the D.A. tonight as well. They are looking at whether they can build a case for harassment. They want to get Brad in front of a juvie judge, if they can and get him ordered into some kind of anger management program. They agree that he seems to be out of control. The D.A. was not sure they could make a case of it though. They have started a file and will be speaking to the school on Monday."

The movie was awful, so they turned it off, and put on some CD's.

"Oh, I love this song!" Kathy said, "Come on." She pulled Steve off the couch to dance.

Steve said, "But I don't know how."

Kathy replied, "Then I'll teach you, silly. It's not hard. Just do what I do. Come on girls, drag them up here too!"

Julie and Sue laughed and pulled Jason and John up. They cleared some room by moving the coffee table to the side and the girls taught the guys how to dance. They were not about to win any contests, but the boys relaxed and started to have some fun.

Then a slow song came on. Kathy and Sue were going to take a break, but Julie took Jason by the hand and pulled him close. Jason was awkward, having never danced a slow dance before. Julie said, "Like this. Let me lead for now."

The other four watched for a few moments, and then Kathy took Steve's hand, and Sue took John's. Again they were awkward, as they moved with the music.

When it was over, Sue asked Julie, "Where did you learn to dance like that?"

"From my father," she replied. "He and Mom love to dance, and they started to teach Brian and me almost as soon as we could walk."

"Can you teach us?" Sue asked.

"Sure. If you would like?"

The others all nodded in agreement, so they queued up some more slow music, and Julie showed them the basics.

Kristine came down to check on them, and found a full-scale dance class going on.

"What's going on?" She asked.

"Julie is teaching us all how to dance." John answered.

"So I see. You all seem to be getting the hang of it." Kristine said with a smile.

"I think so Mom. Would you care to dance?"

"I'd love too." Jason took his mother's arm and began a dance.

Richard came in, and with a smile, reached out to Julie. When the song was over, Kristine said, "Well, that was fun. Thank you Jason."

Richard said to Julie, "You are quite good. You have obviously danced a lot."

"Yes sir. Mom and Dad feel that everyone should know how to dance, and they made sure that Brian and I learned right from the start."

"Well as much as I hate to do it, it's just after 10, and I'm afraid we have to take you all home." Richard said.

They helped clean up, and then got into Richard's car. He dropped off everyone else before stopping at Julie's house. Jason walked her to the door, and asked, "Are you going to be able to come over tomorrow, Julie?"

"Yes, I'm looking forward to some time with my friend Kelly." She answered.

"She tells me she is looking forward to seeing you as well."

Chapter 31

The next day Julie came over early.

"My Aunt is coming over with one of her friends this afternoon. She is an expert with make-up." Jason told Julie.

"Cool! You think she will give me some help too?" Julie asked.

Jason laughed, "I can't see why not, but don't hold me to it."

"I won't. Too bad Kathy can't be here. She is really good, like I told you, but she always likes to learn more."

"You know, I wonder how Kathy and Sue would react if they were to know about Kelly. There are times when I really wish I could come out to them. I know I can't, especially since if they were to find out, Steve and John would have to know, and I am definitely not ready for that."

"You know, I think the girls would be fine with it. I don't know John and Steve well enough yet. It might be more of an affront to them and it would definitely be more difficult for them socially. Guilt by association."

"I know. Oh well, not going to happen. But it makes me appreciate you even more. I love our Sunday 'girl' time. Not that I don't enjoy our Saturday boy/girl time! Last night was certainly fun."

"I feel the same. You know, it really doesn’t matter much to me how you are dressed, your just you."

Jason just sat back and enjoyed that thought.

"So what are you doing for summer vacation? It's only another month away." He asked.

"I don't know. We will probably go someplace, but Mom and Dad haven't told us where or when. How about you?"

"We always go up to the lake house for a couple of weeks. Usually in early July."

"That sounds like fun."

"I wonder if Mom and Dad would let you come. John came one year, and Steve did another year. There are three bedrooms. We don't usually use the extra room. I'll have to ask."

"That would be really cool."

"Yeah, it's very secluded. I already talked to Mom; I'm planning on spending almost the entire time as Kelly. We are even gonna get me a girls bathing suit for swimming in the lake."

"Isn't that a bit risky? What about tan lines?"

"I burn really bad. So I use a very high SPF suntan lotion, so I rarely tan. We’re going to stick to a one-piece swimsuit. Mom said we would pick something that will look like a tank top, if I do tan."

"Ok… I guess that would work."

"Why don't we go ask her if you could come?"

"That sounds good to me. I might have to work on my parents to get them to say yes. They do like your Mom and Dad. I had to laugh, because they said, 'There kind of liberal, but not rabidly so.' I know your Mom told me that mine are 'kind of conservative, but not oppressively so.' She thinks my parents may not react as badly, as I think they will, if they find out about you and more importantly, about me."

They went and found Kristine, and Jason asked her if Julie could come with them.

"Maybe. We would have to get permission from your parents Julie. We certainly have the room. I guess the question is whether your parents would trust us to properly chaperone you two. Let me talk to Jason's father, and if he is ok with it, then I'll give your mother a call, Julie."

Later in the afternoon, Sally, Emily and Sally's friend Michele arrived.

They set up in the kitchen. Emily went into the family room to watch her cartoons.

"Ok Kelly, we’ll start with you. Don't worry Julie, I've got lots of time, we’ll make some time for you too."

"Thanks!"

"Now Kelly, we really need to do something about your hair first. Kristine, if you will let me, I will need to cut her hair. Trust me, I won't do anything to cause problems when he presents as Jason."

"Well ok.”

Michele clipped a wrap around Kelly's neck. She went to work, while Kristine looked on with trepidation. When she was almost done, she said, "Now, if we brush it like this, no one is going to think it is at all feminine."

"I will agree with that." Kristine answered.

Michele dug into her supplies, and pulled out a set of clip in extensions, selecting the ones that most closely matched Jason's hair. She went back to work, applying the extensions and then reshaping Jason's hair.

Kristine and Julie both looked on with major interest. Michele made sure that they could all see exactly what she was doing. When she was done, Kristine said, "Wow. I've never used extensions, but they look great. It totally changes her look."

"Ok, let's work on the face now. I'm going to clean up your eyebrows first. Again, not enough to cause you problems at school. But even guys brows don't need to be quite that bushy."

She then cleaned off the make-up that Jason had put on painstakingly that morning.

"This was not bad, but let me work with you here."

Michele got out her make-up kit. Julie looked on with great interest, and said, "I had to work with what I had."

Michele said, "Julie, it was actually very good. But I have some experience, particularly with girls like Kelly."

"You work a lot with transgendered people?" Julie asked.

Michele put her finger to her mouth and said, "shhh.. I'll let you in on a secret… I am a transgendered person."

"You are a man?" Julie said with surprise. Jason's eyes also went wide.

"Well, not anymore. But I was born male." Michele answered.

"So you’ve had the operation?" Jason asked, but then said, "Oh… I'm sorry that was rude."

"Yes. I have," She told Jason, "And it's ok for you to ask. That is one of the reasons that Sally asked me to come here today. We know that you have a long way to go before you will be making any kinds of decisions about such things, and you may find that you don't ever want to. If you find that you and Julie stay together, you may both decide that you don't want to lose that little bit of you that is all Jason. I know you are working with Dr. Daniels. He is really great; I worked with him too. He will definitely help you to figure out what is right for you. Now let me get started on showing you how to bring out your beauty."

Michele began to work on Jason's face. She showed her exactly what she was doing, both how and why. She explained why she was choosing each color and shade.

When she was done she brought out her mirror and showed Jason. Jason just looked on wide mouthed. "Oh my god, is that me?"

Kristine said, "That's amazing. I would never have guessed that she was really a boy, if I didn’t know her."

Julie looked at Jason and said, "Kelly, you look great."

Sally said, "Michele, I knew you were good, but that really is incredible."

"So Julie, would you like me to work on you next?"

"Oh, would I!" she replied.

"Have a seat."

Michele cleaned Julie's current makeup off, saying "Let's start with a clean slate."

Twenty minutes later, it was Julie's turn to stare in the mirror wide eyed.

Kristine said, "Michele that is just remarkable."

"They are both beautiful girls, all I did was help to bring out what was already there." She put together a package for each of the girls, with all of the make-up that she had used on each of them.

Kristine asked, "How much do I owe you?"

"Nothing."

"Nothing? You have to let me pay you for the supplies at least."

"No. I owe Sally my life. She was there for me when I needed a friend. This is just a down payment on what I owe her, and it was really my pleasure. This has been a lot of fun."

Michele packed up her things.

"Kelly, I mean it, if you have any questions, or ever need to talk to someone that has been through what you are going through, give me a call."

"Thank you, Michele, I will. I'm sure that I will take you up on that some time."

"Good, you do that. Sally, I'm going to have to go. I have to get back, or I'm going to be late. I'll see you next week?"

"Yes. Thanks for everything." Sally replied.

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 32 - 33. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgender nature, and his mostly supportive family.

Kathy's eyes went wide with sudden comprehension, "Oh my god, Jason is Kelly, isn't he!"

Authors Note: Thanks to Joni W for editing this section for me!

Chapter 32

Kathy, Steve, Sue and John were having dinner at the food court before their movie started.

"So guys, have you thanked Jason yet." Kathy asked.

Steve looked at John and said, "Thanked him for what?"

"For getting us together, silly." Sue replied.

"Well… Not exactly, though I guess we should. I never would have believed that you and I would get together. You, Julie and Sue are all so pretty, and popular, you could be with any of the guys, but here you are with us … not that I'm complaining!" John said.

"You know guys, if we hadn't started hanging out together, because Julie wanted to be with Jason, we would not have gotten to know you. It's funny how that works, but I know we are both glad it did. I guess we all owe Jason's cousin Kelly, a thank you."

"Kelly? Jason doesn't have a cousin Kelly." Steve said.

"Sure he does. He and his mom both told us so."

"I've known Jason since kindergarten; his family lives here in the area, and I've met them all. He only has one girl cousin, and her name is Emily, she is about seven. He has a couple of boy cousins, Tom and Billy, and that's it. Right John?"

Sue and Kathy looked at each other, and Kathy said, "Oh … well I would have sworn that is what they said, I must be confused."

"You must have misheard them."

The next day Kathy and Sue called Julie together.

"Ok… What the heck is going on Julie?" Kathy said.

"What do you mean?"

"Jason doesn't have a cousin Kelly. We know darn well that he told us that he and his mom were shopping for his cousin Kelly, and his mother confirmed it." Kathy told her.

Julie tried to think fast, and in order to stall asked, "How do you know he doesn't have a cousin named Kelly?"

"Steve and John told us last night. They know all of Jason's family, and told us that Jason only has three cousins, Emily, Billy and Tom." Sue replied.

"Maybe Kelly is a friend of the family, you know like my 'Aunt' Joan, who really isn't my aunt."

Kathy and Sue looked at each other, showing they both found this unlikely. Kathy said, "The Aunt is honorary, so that you are not calling her Mrs. Peterson, but you would not refer to Cheryl as your cousin. Come on Julie, we know, you know something."

"Kathy, Sue…. "

Kathy's eyes went wide with sudden comprehension, "Oh my god, Jason is Kelly, isn't he!"

"No! What would make you think that?" Julie said, perhaps a bit too emphatically.

"It has to be. Why else would he lie about a cousin he doesn't have, and you know all about it. That's why you suddenly found him so interesting."

"What?" Julie was now panicking.

"Come on Julie, we've been best friends for years. You don't think that we did not know that you were just faking interest in boys, all this time? Sue and I have always thought you were gay, and if you are, it doesn't bother us. Jason must seem like a godsend, a boy that is also a girl. You can have it both ways. That explains everything. You left us in the accessories place to go next door, to the shoe store, but you came out with nothing, and then you went right over to Jason and started talking to him. That is so not like you, you must have seen, or heard something, in that store. In fact, now that I think about it, Mrs. Anderson had a bag from that store when she came over and joined us. You did see something there!"

"Kathy, you are nuts."

"Julie, I don't think so. Look I understand. If I'm right, then you can't acknowledge it, because I know you would never betray a friend. But Julie, you know me, I wouldn't either; and neither would Sue. You have been our friend forever, and Jason has become a friend, if he really is Kelly, we won't betray him. We are not going to ask you to either. But please, if this is true, talk to him for us and tell him he can trust us. We don't want secrets like this between us."

"Kathy…"

"Julie, it's ok. So are we all getting together tonight? We promise we won't bring this up. I doubt that the guys would be ready to deal with it … assuming I'm right of course."

"Kathy ... yes of course we are getting together tonight. I'll see you later."

Julie hung up the phone, and called Jason right away.

"Jason, we have a situation. Kathy and Sue have figured out that you are Kelly."

"What! Did you say something to them?"

"No, of course not. I didn’t tell them anything. I haven’t even confirmed it."

"How could they have figured it out? You sure you didn't say something by accident?"

"Jason, you know me better than that! John and Steve told them that you don't have a cousin named Kelly. They put two and two together and came up with the truth.

"Oh my God. Damn, I should never have told that lie. But damn it I never expected you three to get to be such close friends. What the hell are we going to do?"

"They wanted me to talk to you and tell you that you can trust them. I think you can, but Jason, I can't promise that for them. I'd say we need to have them over and talk to your mom. Maybe we can get together at your place, before we all go out tonight. Could you go ask your mom?"

“Ok, let me ask her.”

Julie waited for Jason to come back to the phone.

"Mom agrees, we need to talk to them."

"Ok, I'll give them both a call, and set it up. Jason, it will work out. You and I will deal with this together."

Julie hung up, and called Kathy and Sue back.

"Kathy, look, I called Jason. We all need to talk. I need you both to come over to the Anderson's house with me, before we go out tonight."

"So is that a confirmation then?"

"No Kathy, it is not. But you are not going to believe me either way, so we need to get together and talk it through. I'm sure there is a logical explanation, and we are going to get it, before you jump to conclusions, ok?"

"Fair enough."

Chapter 33

Julie, Kathy, Sue, Jason and his mother sat in the family room.

Kathy started off, "Mrs. Anderson, Jason, I know this is awkward. I'm sure that Julie has told you what I suspect. Last night we were out with Steve and John. We were talking and I mentioned your cousin Kelly. Steve and John were adamant that you don't have a cousin named Kelly. I tried to figure out why you would have lied about it. Sue and I have long suspected that Julie is gay, so we were pretty shocked when Jason and Julie got together. The way that it happened, was just so sudden, such a change, it just did not make sense. Jason you are a nice guy and we have gotten to know you, John and Steve since then, and believe me, I'm glad. We just couldn’t figure out what had made her go over to you, at the mall. Then lunch the next day."

"Go on." Jason's mother said.

"But once I realized that you had lied about having a cousin, that you were buying all those clothes for, I remembered that Julie had come out of that shoe store, and went right to you. Then I remembered that you had a bag from the shoe store yourself Mrs. Anderson, it all clicked into place. She must have seen Jason picking out girls shoes. Jason is Kelly, isn't he?"

Jason's mom answered for them, "Let's say for the sake of argument that this was all true, what would you do with that information? I'm sure you know that even the rumor of such a thing, would be very dangerous for Jason, especially with this lunatic Brad after him."

"If it is true, then our best friend Julie, has found someone that has made her happier than we have ever seen her. We would be happy for our friend Julie, and would want to share in her happiness. I would want to be able to talk to her about it, and to really get to know the person that is making her happy. I would not want anything to hurt her, or my new friend Jason."

Sue shook her head in agreement.

"Ok, that is a very fine answer, Kathy. What about Steve and John? You both are getting pretty close; this would be a pretty big secret to keep from your boyfriends."

"Mrs. Anderson, there may come a time when that might be an issue, but I don't see how it is any of their business, at this point. We are just dating. I like him, he likes me. We are getting to know each other, but I am not about to tell him my friend’s secrets, nor do I expect him to tell me about his friends. If I were gay, or was a guy, he would have a right to know, before we got too involved, but the fact that one of my friends is secretly gay, or that another one wants to be a girl, it’s not something he needs to know about."

Sue said, "That's how I feel about it too."

"Jason?" His mother looked at him.

Jason closed his eyes, took a deep breath and said, "Mom, I have to trust them. Kathy, you are right. I am Kelly. "

Kathy said, "Jason, thank you. I promise that you won't regret it. In the past couple of months I have really gotten to know you as Jason and I have seen how good you are for Julie. I hope that I can get to know you as Kelly some time as well."

Sue, "Jason, you don't have anything to worry about from me. I would like to get to know this friend of Julie's, that has made her so happy."

"I think I'd like that." Jason answered.

Jason's mother said, "I think I'm getting a headache. I can't believe how this has snowballed from a stupid mistake. Jason, I'm sorry, I should never have taken you to that mall."

Kathy and Sue made to protest, but Jason's mother put up her hand to stop them and said, "I don't mean that as a dig on you girls. You have all been unbelievably supportive, but it is only blind luck that it was you three and not someone that would have made Jason's life hell. Even with that, Benjamin Franklin once said, 'three people can keep a secret, if two are dead.' The circle has just grown, and sooner or later, it will expand, not because you are trying to hurt Jason, but because someone will catch on. Maybe it will be Steve or John next and they may, or may not, be able to accept this. Maybe it will be one of your parents, but sooner or later, it's going to come out. There are too many people that know now."

The girls gave her a look of apology.

"It's not anyone's fault, it just is. We’ll deal with it as it happens. Ok, I think you all have dates tonight, if I'm not mistaken."

Jason and his friends all nodded.

"Good, then I'll drive. If the boys ask, you three were over at Julie's house and I picked you up first."

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 34 - 35. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgender nature, and his mostly supportive family.

Jason soon succumbed to peer pressure and went up and changed into his black dress. When he came back down, Kathy and Sue just stared dumbfounded, and Julie laughed at them.

Authors Note: Thanks to Joni W for editing this section for me!

Chapter 34

The friends were taking a break from skating and sharing some fries at the snack bar.

"So Jason, I hear you did fairly well in your game today." John said.

"Yeah, much better then Tuesday. On Tuesday I struck out four times, because I was flinching with every pitch. I just couldn’t help it. My dad really worked with me the other night, and today I was able to stay in there, and got a couple of hits."

"I hear Brad is out of the league." Sue said.

"Yes, his father went nuts about it. They had to have the police come and have him escorted out of the hearing at the league board office." Jason told them.

"I guess that explains where Brad gets it from." Kathy said.

"I would say so." Jason replied.

Taking advantage of a lull in the conversation, Julie asked, "So Kathy, Sue do you know what you are going to wear to the eighth grade graduation dance next week?"

"Yes, Mom and I picked up a new dress." Sue answered.

"Mom and I are going to go shopping tomorrow." Kathy answered, and then asked, "How about you?"

"I have that dress I wore to my cousin's wedding in May. Mom says that will have to do." Julie said.

"Oh, I remember that dress, you look great in it." Sue said.

"I know, I do love it, but I would have loved to have gotten a new one." Julie answered.

"I'm really looking forward to it, especially with the dancing lessons you have been giving us all." Sue said.

"Yeah, I'm actually looking forward to it too." Steve said; John and Jason both agreed.

"It's hard to believe that school is almost over for the year. We have just a couple more weeks to go. Next year we will be in high school." Kathy said.

"Yeah, back to the bottom rung of the school again. It was kind of nice being the top dogs this year." John said.

"It was at that. So what are you all doing for the summer?" Sue asked.

"Well, we’re heading up to our lake house for a couple of weeks, right after school gets out. Julie is going to be coming with us this year." Jason said.

Steve said, "Oh Julie, you should enjoy that. I know I did last year. Lots to do up there, boating, fishing, swimming."

"Yeah, it's lots of fun. I got to go a couple of years ago." John added.

"I think it sounds great, but I hope you guys don't resent Jason asking me to go this year instead of one of you." Julie said.

"Oh, don't worry about that Julie. We have both had our turn. Besides, I can hardly blame Jason for wanting to spend time with you. If I had a place like that I'd have asked Kathy. Anyway, my parents are taking us to Disneyworld, so I couldn't have gone with Jason this year anyway." Steve said.

"I wouldn't mind going to Disneyworld with you," Kathy teased.

Steve replied, "If Mom and Dad would let me, I'd have asked you. But we won't have a spare bedroom, and somehow I don't think they’re going to let us share a bed."

"No, I suppose not." Kathy said.

Jason asked, "How about you Sue, what are you doing?"

"I have to go spend two weeks with my Dad, and I'm sure I’ll have to put up with his girlfriend. Argh. But I'm sure we’ll do some fun stuff, like six flags. Mom and I will probably spend some time at the beach; she usually rents a place for a week." Sue answered.

John said, "That's what we do too. I wonder if we could get them to arrange it for the same week. That would be really cool."

"Maybe, Mom hasn't set it up yet, so why don't you find out what your parents are doing and let me know." Sue said.

Jason said, "I don't know about you, but I'm ready to get back out on the rink. Julie?"

"Sure, let's go."

With that they cleaned up their table and headed back out to skate.

Later that evening, Jason took Julie aside, "John is going to a ball game with his family tomorrow, and Steve has a big birthday bash for his Grandfather's sixty-fifth birthday, do you think we should invite Kathy and Sue to hang out with you and Kelly tomorrow?"

"I think they would like that, and it would be a good time, since the guys are busy elsewhere. You sure Kathy isn't going with Steve?"

"Yeah, I asked him, and he said it's at some fancy expensive restaurant, and he was told that they really could not afford to invite her."

"Ahh. It's your call. They know about Kelly and they really would like to meet her. Of course, Kathy is going to want to meet Michele. She was already jealous of my new look."

"Well, that is not going to happen tomorrow, but I will see what I can do. By the way, what did you tell your Mom about that?"

"Oh that a friend of your Aunt's is a makeup specialist, and that she was having some fun with your mother, and did a free makeover for me, while she was at it. I told her that you were bored to tears, although you had to admit I looked pretty nice after she was done. I also told her that she made up a gift for me, because she had so much fun. Mom was kind of jealous. She said, next time, call her and she’ll pop right over."

"Oh that would be good. Then I'd have to be the jealous one, since I would have to sit and pretend to be bored."

"Poor Jason…" Julie laughed. Then she said, "I'll ask Kathy and Sue about tomorrow."

"Sounds good."

Chapter 35

The next day, Julie was over at Jason's house early. Julie wanted to make sure that Jason looked his best for when Kathy and Sue first met Kelly. They added the extensions into Jason's hair, and then set it as close as they could to the way that Michele had done it.

When they were done, Julie said, "Damn Kelly, I cannot believe how much different that makes you look. Kathy and Sue are not going to believe that it’s really you."

About noon, Kathy's mom dropped Kathy and Sue off at the Anderson's, on her way to work. She watched from the car to see Jason's mom open the door, wave hello, and let the girls in, before pulling out of the driveway.

Once inside they met up with Julie who told them to wait in the family room. A few moments later, Julie came into the family room with Jason. Julie said, "Kelly, let me introduce you to my friends, Kathy and Sue."

"Is that really Jason?" Kathy said.

"No, it is really Kelly." Julie said.

"Oh… I'm sorry, Kelly, that is going to take a little getting used to, but wow, you look good."

Sue nodded in agreement, and said, "You don't have to worry about us telling Steve or John, if they saw you dressed like that, we could lose them."

Jason blushed, but said, "Sue, that is very sweet of you, but I know that I don't look half as good as the three of you. But even if it were true, which it is not, you would have nothing to worry about, because I'm already taken, by Julie."

They popped some CD's in so that they could sit around and talk.

"Kelly, Sue and I are here and we intend to treat you just like any other girl. But we are going to need at least one promise from you first."

"I guess that depends on what you are asking me to promise." Jason said.

"If we are going to treat you like a girl, that means you are going to hear us talk about things that we would only share with other girls, and that means that anything you hear as Kelly, you need to keep to yourself when you are with the boys as Jason. We will also expect that things you hear as Jason, that are meant to be between the boys, you won't share as Kelly." Kathy said.

"I have no problem with that, with the exception of, if I heard about someone doing something to intentionally hurt someone." Jason said.

"I think that is fair." Sue said, "I would want you to try to stop something like that."

Kathy nodded her acceptance then said, "Do you mind if we ask you some questions. We are really curious, but it's ok if you don't want to talk about it."

"I don't mind. If I'm not comfortable answering, I'll let you know." Jason answered.

"Do you want to be a girl, or do you just like dressing like one?" Sue asked.

"I'm not sure. The time that I get to spend as Kelly is really wonderful. When I get dressed, I can feel myself relax and just get comfortable with myself. When I'm Jason, I feel more … tense and like I have to watch what I do and what I say, so that people don't see Kelly in me. I think a lot about how wonderful it would be to actually be a girl. At the same time, I know that I can never really be biologically a girl on the insides. There are surgeries and medicines I could take to help me look and feel more like a girl, and I do think about them, but they scare me. The thought of cutting off my, well you know, is kind of scary, though there are times when I would do it in a minute, if I could. Then again, someday I want to be a parent and I need that part of me for that to happen. Plus, if Julie and I somehow manage to stay together, till we are old enough, she might have something to say about that as well."

"Kelly that will be your call, if we are still together, we will work it out. I guess I wasn't able to hide how I felt from Kathy and Sue, there is no doubt that I like the way girls look. But I always thought that a girls, well you know down there, is gross. But if we are still together at that time and you need to have that surgery to make you look like a girl down there, I think I can get past that."

"Ok, but why do you think you feel this way?" Kathy asked.

"I wish I could answer that. I just do. Dr. Daniels tells me there are lots of theories. Some suggest that it's all controlled by the way the brain is wired. Apparently, studies suggest that transgendered men have brains that look more like women's brains. I don't know; I just know it feels right."

Sue looked thoughtful, "Even with surgery though, like you said, you can never be fully female. You can't get pregnant; you don't have to deal with a period."

Julie jumped in, "Sue! ..."

Sue looked at Julie and said, "Julie, wait. Look those things are so much a part of being female. Kelly I don't mean to sound condescending, because I want to be supportive, but what do you think about that. I want to understand."

"Julie, it's ok. I told them I would answer their questions, and it is a fair question."

"No, Kelly it isn't. Are women that have gone through menopause still women? They can't get pregnant, and they don't have periods. Sue would not say they were not fully women." Julie said indignantly.

"Of course not, but they spent most of their lives dealing with it. It's not the same." Sue answered.

"Sue, there are also women that for various reasons cannot have children and there are some medical problems that can cause a women to never have a period. You still would not question it." Julie said.

"Julie, I don't know. I really don't. There is more to being a woman than periods and worrying about being a baby time bomb, but I don't know. I just want to know what Kelly thinks about it. I am not trying to attack her." Sue stated.

"Sue. I don't have an answer for you. I am jealous of you all because someday you can have children. I know what a period is, from health class, but I have no real understanding of what it means to you as women to have to deal with it every month. I know enough to know that it is unpleasant. But let me ask you a question, if you could take a magic pill, and wake up male tomorrow and never have to deal with another period, would you?"

"No. Periods are a nuisance, but I like being female. I don't want to be a guy." Sue said.

"Whereas, I'm sure that if I could take that pill to make me fully female, I would do it in a minute; I would deal with the nuisance too."

Sue nodded, saying, "I see. Alright Kelly I understand." Sue got up, went over to Jason and gave him a hug. "Kelly, you are as much a girl as I am."

Kathy picked up the discussion, "Kelly that's interesting; you said you were not sure about surgery, but you wouldn't hesitate to take a pill?"

"No. The hypothetical pill would make me completely female, without any of the negatives from surgical solutions."

"What if you found that you really preferred being male afterwards?" Kathy said.

"It would still be worth it to finally know. Part of my problem is that I have this incredible desire to know what it feels like to be female. What is it like to have real breasts, and to have a pus ... I mean vagina instead of a penis down there. You know you girls actually have an advantage; you know what it was like to not have breasts. For me it's like this incredible itch that I can never scratch. Hell yes, if I had the opportunity to really know, I would jump at it. Sorry Julie, you might as well know that now. God knows what they will come up with in our lifetime."

"It's ok Kelly. Hell, maybe I'd take the male pill if you take the female pill. I like being female, but if you got any prettier…"

"Ok, ok… ladies, enough…" Kathy laughed.

"So Kelly, when are we going to get to meet this wonderful makeup specialist? I love makeup, and you and Julie had makeovers without me!"

"I don't know Kathy, but I will ask my Aunt if we can have another session sometime with Michele."

Julie said, "Well if we are done grilling Kelly, how did you do today, did you find your dress for the dance?"

"Yes, it's great. Mom wouldn't let me bring it in to show you, but it's perfect."

"You should see the little black dress Kelly has; I wish she could wear it to the dance. She looks so hot in it." Julie said.

"I wish! I'll be stuck with a boring dress shirt, slacks and a blasted tie." Jason said.

"I'd rather wear a tie then pantyhose." Kathy said.

"I'd put up with pantyhose to wear the dress." Jason replied.

"Well, you have to show us this dress then." Sue said, and Kathy immediately chimed in with her agreement.

Jason soon succumbed to peer pressure and went up and changed into his black dress. When he came back down, Kathy and Sue just stared dumbfounded, and Julie laughed at them.

"See I told you, it really is a shame she can't go to the dance that way. I would love to have her on my arm, wouldn't that cause an uproar?"

"Oh yes, it certainly would." Kathy answered.

"Kelly, if anyone ever questions your being a girl, they could not have seen you like that." Sue said.

"Thanks. Now, I'm feeling remarkably overdressed, so if you don't mind, I'm going to go get changed back."

"Go ahead Kelly." Julie told him.

When he was gone, Julie said, "You two ok? I'm sorry that I couldn't tell you before, especially about me. I hated keeping it a secret, but I really care about Jason, and I don't want him hurt."

"Jules, we meant it. We are happy you have found someone to make you happy. We liked Jason right from the start, but now that we have seen him as Kelly, I can see how much she is a part of him. If he tried to suppress her, it would kill him. We’re going to do whatever we can to help."

"Thanks Kathy; thanks Sue." Julie said, giving them both hugs.

Jason walked back in and said, "Hey, where is mine!"

Julie went over and gave him a big hug too.

They spent the rest of the day listening to music, talking and just hanging out. They got on the Anderson's computer and had Jason create a screen name for Kelly, so that she could join in their online chats, since time for the four of them to spend together, with Jason as Kelly, would be limited; it would seem a little strange for them to be over at Jason's house without John and Steve, on a regular basis.

In Jason's dreams that night, he was at the dance with Julie, in his black dress, walking on clouds.

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 36 - 37. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgender nature, and his mostly supportive family.

"Because you aren't Jason anymore. You're this girl I don't know..."

Authors Note: Thanks to Joni W for editing this section for me!

Chapter 36

Julie and Jason walked into the school gym with John, Sue, Kathy and Steve. The gym was decorated with balloons and streamers and a sign that wished the graduating eighth graders luck in high school.

A DJ was up on the stage and there were refreshments along one wall. There were a few couples and a few more girls out on the floor dancing to a fast paced song, but most of the boys were congregated over by the refreshments, and most of the girls were gathered up by the stage.

The three couples went right out on the floor and danced together. After the first couple of songs, they took a break. Jason, John and Steve went up to get drinks for themselves and the girls. Julie went up to the DJ and put a request in for a slow love song and also an older big band tune, the DJ was a bit surprised but agreed to play them soon.

As they cooled off with their sodas, Julie told them to get ready to show off. They had practiced quite regularly and all three couples were now pretty good together.

They were ready and headed straight out to the floor when the DJ played their first selection. They were the only people on the floor, and everyone was watching them very closely. When the second selection came and they got into the swing of the song doing some fancy moves, the crowd got into it and was clapping to the beat of the music.

When the song was over, they walked off to the applause of their classmates.

"Whew that was fun!" Julie said, as they got in line for some drinks. Jason noticed Brad on the opposite wall glaring at him. However, the party was well chaperoned and Brad couldn’t really do anything more than glower. Jason just made sure to stay away from him as much as possible.

Several of the other students came up to them and asked where they had learned to dance like that, and they freely shared that Julie had taught them.

Later that evening, Jason and the three girls had set up a private chat room and were discussing the evening.

"Well I hope you all enjoyed that as much as I did" Jason wrote.

"I know I did!" Sue replied.

"Me too," Kathy added.

"It was great. I just wish you could have been there as Kelly. You were quite handsome, but you’re beautiful in your black dress. The guys would have been quite jealous and you would have been with me." Julie said.

"I would have liked that as well, I'm sorry that you did not get to have your wish. I know how good that feels though, because you were beautiful and the guys were all jealous that you were with me."

"Especially Brad." Kathy said.

"Yeah, did you see him; if looks could kill you would be dead." Sue said.

"I saw him and I stayed as far away from him as I could. I was glad when he decided to leave. I was also glad that Mom was picking us up so we didn’t have to risk walking home." Jason answered.

"Well that's enough about Brad. Kelly, you all ready for next week?" Julie said.

"Yes. How about you?" Jason replied.

"Yup. I can't wait, two whole weeks with my girlfriend Kelly is very cool." Julie said.

"It's going to be fun. I'm looking forward to it."

"Julie told us that you got a really cute one piece suit, Kelly. I wish we could all go together." Sue added.

"I like my new suit. I wish I could get away with wearing a bikini like Julie's, but it will have to do." Jason said.

"You are really going to be Kelly the whole time?" Kathy asked.

"That’s the plan. The lake house is really secluded; we don't typically see a whole lot of people, unless we head into town. We will bring one boy's outfit just in case, but we are not planning on using it." Jason said.

"Damn! Mom is yelling at me. I have to go; it's still a school night." Sue said.

"Me too." Kathy said.

"I'm afraid I do to." Jason said.

They all said goodnight and logged off.

Chapter 37

Julie splashed Jason and dove under the lake water.

"Hey!" Jason said and dove under the water after her. When he caught her, he grabbed around her waist and pulled her to him. They came up for air, and Julie gave him a quick kiss. They climbed out and sat on the edge of the wooden dock. On the other side of the dock, a small motorboat named Kristine was tied to the dock.

"Kelly, this is great! I am so glad you invited me."

"I'm glad you were able to convince your mother to let you come. I wasn't sure she would go for it."

"I don't think she would have, but she trusts your Mom and Dad to make sure we don’t do anything stupid."

"I'm sure she trusts you too." Jason said.

"Well probably, but I'll admit it, if it were not for your parents, I might do something we might regret."

"I hear you. Well, we should be good about that, but it doesn't mean we have to be perfect angels."

"My word Kelly, I do believe you just might be trying to seduce me." Julie winked.

"Who me? I'm a good girl, really I am." Jason laughed.

"You most certainly are. You look good in that suit."

"Thanks, but nothing compared to you."

"Don't sell yourself short, you look good. I doubt anyone would be able to tell that there is more to you than meets the eye." Julie said seriously, then added, "That trick that Michele taught you really helps to hide your, you know what."

Jason blushed, and to change the subject said, "So you want to stay out here and swim some more, or something else?"

"Well, I'd like to get a bit of sun, but you really shouldn’t tan. However with that 50 SPF, it would take quite a bit for you to tan, but you still need to take care because you will still tan, even with sun block, especially if you spend too much time in the sun."

"No problem, I'm putting my wrap on."

Julie laid out her towel on the dock in the sun, and put on her sunglasses, lying on her back. Jason sat in a lounge chair under a deck umbrella and opened up a book.

A bit later, Jason's Mom and Dad came down with a pitcher of lemonade and some cookies.

"Hey, how is it going down here?" Jason's mother asked.

Julie sat up and took off her sunglasses. "Great. This place is wonderful, thank you so much for inviting me to come with you."

"It's our pleasure my dear." Jason's father answered, than he asked, "How is the water?"

"Nice, Dad. Maybe a little cool, but once you are in its refreshing." Jason said.

Jason's dad, acknowledged it, took off his shirt, and jumped into the lake. When he came to the surface, he said, "Phew… you call that a little cool?" He then swam out to a buoy about 20 yards out in the lake and then back. He climbed back onto the dock and sat in another chair near Jason.

"So what do you two want to do the next couple of weeks?" Richard asked them after a while. "Julie, have you ever water skied?"

"No, I haven’t." She answered.

"Not today, it is a bit late, but maybe tomorrow we’ll go out on the lake. It's fun if you want to give it a try."

"Sure, I'd like to give it a try." Julie answered.

"Kelly, are you still going to go fishing with me or are you going to give up on fishing." Jason's father asked him.

"Dad, you know I love to go fishing with you, why would you think I wouldn't want to?" Jason asked with a puzzled look on his face.

"I don't want to make any assumptions, Kelly. Jason liked to fish, but I’m still getting to know my daughter Kelly. Besides, you have a guest."

Jason frowned, "Dad, I'm still me. I like the same things I always liked and that isn't going to change. As for Julie, I don't know if she likes to fish, but if she wants she is welcome to come with us, if she doesn't, I'm sure she can find something else to do or more likely she can enjoy sleeping in."

"Kelly, I'm just checking." Jason's father said.

"Dad, you never asked that when John or Steve were here with us. You and I have gone fishing in the mornings ever since I was old enough to hold a fishing rod when we were here at the lake. You know I have always looked forward to it. John and Steve were welcome if they wanted, or not if they didn't. Why do you all of a sudden feel that would change?" Jason said.

"Because you aren't Jason anymore. You're this girl I don't know. I just don't know how to respond to all of this, I'm sorry. You know I'm trying to be supportive, damn it, but it's too much too fast sometimes. You and your mother agreed that this whole trip you would be Kelly, I haven't tried to fight that, but forgive me if I have trouble knowing how to react to it. I'm doing the best that I can, so just don't take it the wrong way."

"How would you like me to take it Dad? Because I'm a girl I shouldn't like to fish? Are you worried that I'm going to be squeamish about worms all of a sudden? This is who I am Dad, I've always been Kelly, you and Mom just didn’t know it."

"Kelly! … Damn, I'm sorry, look I did not mean it that way. I know that many girls like to fish, your Aunt Sally for instance even Jessica enjoyed it when she was younger. But you are changing Kelly, you have interests that you didn’t have before and that may mean that you’ll lose interest in the older things. Look at you, standing there! All I see now is a pretty girl, I know that Jason is still there somewhere, but you look so different the way you are dressed, it is hard."

Jason took a deep breath, while his mother and Julie looked on.

"Dad, I'm still me. This is who I am. I have never felt so … I don't even know how to describe it … at peace, I guess, with who I am in my whole life. I can’t help it, that's how I feel. If I could throw a penny in the well, make a wish and have it come true, I would wake up tomorrow with real breasts and a vagina and I would’ve always been Kelly. I know that is not going to happen. In fact, what is going to happen is my body is going to start to change even more, this damned body hair that is still mostly light, is going to get darker and thicker, especially on my face. My voice is going to finish changing and my Adam's apple is going to become pronounced. I still look ok today without too much help, but not much longer and I hate it, Dad, I just hate it. My goddamned body is betraying me. I don't want to grow up to be a man! I'm sorry that hurts you. I see it in your eyes whenever you are looking at me and you think I'm not watching, you don't know how much it hurts to know how much I've disappointed you. … Damn."

With that Jason broke down and started to cry and then ran into the house to his room. Julie was the first to react and ran into the house after him.

His father started in as well, but Jason's mother stopped him. "Richard, this is not going to go away."

"I know Kris. I have known that for weeks. I was not trying to attack him. Really I wasn't. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm doing the best I can."

Kristine sighed, and said. "I know you are. I don't know what to do either. I didn’t realize how much he was worrying about the changes his body is going through. I know I was hoping that he would grow out of it as he went through puberty, but I really don't believe that is going to happen. And if that is the case, he’s right; his body is about to make things much harder for him. If things go the way I really think they’re going to go, the changes he’s going through are going to make that so much more difficult. There just isn't much time left before that happens and it is too soon to make any decision like this. He needs more time, but his body isn't going to give it to him."

"No, it isn't."

"Unless we do something to give him more time." Kristine said.

"What do you mean?" Richard asked.

"I've been doing a lot of reading, as you know. There is a relatively new treatment option. There are some medicines that can delay puberty. The process is reversible, but it is still controversial. It would buy him time."

"That seems pretty drastic. Is it safe?"

"Cutting his penis off is drastic, but ultimately that may be what happens. This is far less drastic and is at least reversible. From what I have read it appears to be safe. I don't even know if we could get his doctors to approve it, but I think we have to talk to them about it and soon."

Jason's father looked resigned and nodded his agreement. "We better go in and talk to him."

"Richard."

"Yes?"

"We better go in and talk to her." Kristine said.

"I'm sorry; yes you’re right, we better go in and talk to her." He replied.

They walked into the house and knocked on Jason's door. They could hear him still crying and Julie trying to comfort him. After a moment, they heard Jason say, "Come in."

They opened the door and saw Jason lying on the bed, with his head on Julie's lap. Julie was holding him and caressing his hair and back making soothing sounds. She looked at his parents, particularly his father with barely restrained anger, daring them to make things worse.

Jason's father's face showed remorse and Julie's expression softened.

"Kelly, I'm sorry that you felt attacked; I really did not mean it that way. I know that this is not easy for you either. Your mother and I really need to talk to you about what you just told us, but before we do, I have to tell you again, you are not hurting me, or your mother. We love you and while we don't always understand, that is not going to change. Whatever path you chose, that is not going to change. I can't tell you that I won't miss Jason, but I will love Kelly just as much." Jason's father said.

His mother and father sat next to them on the bed, and started to rub Jason's back.

Jason sobbed for a few more minutes, finally got himself under control and sat up.

"I'm sorry for losing it." He told them.

"No, Kelly, I'm sorry." His father said.

"Kelly. You are worried about the changes your body is going through?" His mother asked.

"It's more like disgusted, than worried. I know what is happening and why, I just don't like it."

"I've been doing some reading and there may be something we can do to postpone those changes, while we figure out what is right for you." His mother said.

At that Jason and Julie both looked at her with surprise. "Postpone, what do you mean? How?" Jason asked.

"There are drugs that can put puberty on hold so to speak. They are reversible, so if you decided you wanted to continue becoming a man you could stop taking them and let nature take its course. But if you ultimately decide to have surgery, then you would start taking female hormones to go through puberty as a girl." His mother explained.

"Really, they can do that?"

"Yes, from what I have read it is possible. You would still be genetically male, but you would at least avoid having to go through the electrolysis, and your voice will not deepen any further. Also the body fat distribution would be more feminine."

"What do we have to do? Would you allow it?" Jason asked.

"I don't know; we have to speak with your doctors. If they agree and it is medically safe, then yes, your father and I have already agreed that we would allow it." Kristine looked at Richard, who nodded his agreement.

With that Jason reached out and hugged his parents, then turning to Julie, invited her into the group hug.

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 38 - 39. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgender nature, and his mostly supportive family.

"Get out of my way Kristine; I will not subject my children to this sickness."

Authors Note: Thanks to Joni W for editing this section for me!

Chapter 38

Early the next morning, Jason and his father took The Kristine out on the lake and over to their favorite cove for fishing. Once they got settled in, they baited their hooks and cast their lines in opposite directions. As they watched the sun rise to the eastern side of the lake, Jason poured them both a cup of coffee and opened up the box of Entenmann's chocolate covered donuts.

They sat quietly together as father and daughter, occasionally reeling in their lines, checking the bait and recasting.

"Kelly…"

"Yes, Dad?"

"You're sure this is what you want?"

"What do you mean?"

"Are you sure you want to be Kelly. Please don't take this the wrong way; there is nothing at all wrong with being a woman. But in your case becoming a woman is fraught with problems and challenges to overcome. I just want to be certain that you really understand what it means to give up being Jason. I think about you having this surgery and I just can't imagine having that cut off."

"Dad, I don't know yet about the surgery. It scares me too. Sometimes I think about it and I feel just the way you are feeling. But other times I just hate it, and I just want it gone. I don't know how to make you understand how I feel. Every morning I get up and have to get ready for school. The first thing I have to do is take off my breasts; it feels like I am ripping a part of me off, I can't tell you how much I dread it. And then as I get ready and become Jason again, I feel like I'm pulling on a disguise, that I'm pretending to be someone I'm not. When I get home and can relax and let Kelly come out it is so freeing. I know that you probably can't understand that. Just think how you might feel if you woke up tomorrow as a woman, everyone believing you had always been a woman, but you knew that you were really a man. That is the only way I can describe it."

"I can't even begin to imagine what you are feeling, I know that, and I'm really not discounting it. You know it won't all be as easy as it has been for you, if you do go ahead with this. Your mother and I will be with you and your Aunt Sally and Emily are as well. Julie is remarkable, but you never know what is going to happen as you grow up, she may find that she wants a husband, not a wife, or she may very well stay with you. But you are going to find that many people are not going to accept you. You know that your Aunt Jessica is not going to and there are plenty of people like Brad and his father. I can just imagine what they will say, if it becomes known. I worry about you getting hurt. You know we read about transgendered and gay people getting beat up or worse. I don't want that to happen to you."

"Dad, I know you are worried. I am too; people like Brad can be dangerous. If I could wave a magic wand and suddenly be content to be Jason, I suppose that would be great, but I just don't think that is going to happen. I don't want to spend my life feeling like this. I have to do what I can, to feel right in my own body."

Jason's father nodded his head in agreement and they fell back into quiet contemplation. A few minutes later, Jason felt a nibble on his line.

"Dad, I've got a nibble."

Jason's father turned his attention to Jason's line. "Ok Kelly… pull it in just a little. And then let it sit."

They watched, and then all of a sudden the bobbin was pulled down, Jason felt the tug on the line, he gave a little jerk, and the tug became harder. Jason began reeling in the line, pulling hard against the fish. "I've got him now, Dad."

"Ok, yes you do, don't lose him. Take it easy."

Jason continued to work it in. "Get the net, Dad!"

Jason's father grabbed the net, it took them a while but when it was done, they had landed a nice sized bass. All the awkwardness of the earlier conversation was forgotten, as father and daughter celebrated their catch.

A couple hours and several more fish later, they pulled back into the dock. They tied The Kristine to the dock and headed up to the house with their catch. Jason went inside briefly, and when he came back out he and his father went to work cleaning the days catch.

Julie and Jason's mother came out and joined the early risers on the porch.

"Julie, I hope you like fish, because here is tonight's dinner! There is nothing like fresh caught fish, cooked over a wood fire." Jason said.

"I love fish, I'm sure I will enjoy it." Julie replied.

Jason cleaned up and wrapped up the fish and put it in the refrigerator.

"So did you two fill up on donuts and coffee, or would you like some bacon and eggs?" Jason's mother asked.

"I could use some bacon and eggs." Jason's father said.

"If you are making it anyway…" Jason said.

Chapter 39

After breakfast, they changed into their bathing suits, and headed out on the lake in The Kristine to teach Julie to water ski.

Jason went first to show Julie how it was done.
Julie got in the water next, and grabbed the rope. The Anderson's all gave her advice, and Richard made sure she was ready and throttled up. Julie started to come up, and promptly fell over. Richard pulled around made sure that Julie was ok, she insisted on trying again.

It took all morning, but it finally clicked for Julie and she got up and stayed up.

When they got back to the dock, Julie was ecstatic. "Mr. Anderson, thank you so much for your patience! That was fun."

"It was my pleasure Julie." Richard replied.

Later in the week, Jason and Julie were rowing a canoe around the lake. Another canoe carrying two boys came upon them from the opposite direction.

"Damn, Julie, what do we do now?" Jason asked.

"Just stay calm, Kelly. Do you know them?"

"No."

"Just remember, you are Kelly, and let me do most of the talking, ok?"

"Ok."

The boy's canoe came upon them, and the boys said, "Hello."

Julie said, "Hello." Jason nodded his greetings.

"I don't think we have met, I'm Kevin, and this is my brother Sean." The taller of the boys said.

"I'm Julie, and this is my friend, Kelly." Julie replied, nodding her head toward Jason.

"Are you staying on the lake?" Sean asked.

"Yes, we are. How about you?" Julie asked.

"For a few days. Our grandparents have a house here and we are visiting."

"It's great up here, I'm sure you must be having a good time." Julie said.

"Yeah it is, it's our first time here, and we are still getting used to everything. It's nice to see some people our age though. Say, there is supposed to be a big bonfire in the town center tonight, are you going to be there?" Kevin asked.

"I don't know." Julie replied.

"Would you like to come with us?" Sean asked.

Julie smiled and said, "It's very nice of you to offer, but I think my boyfriend Jason and Kelly's boyfriend Jake, might object."

"Oh. Of course, they would be welcome to come too." Sean backtracked.

"We will have to see, I'm afraid I'm not sure what the plans are for tonight and since we are guests of the Anderson's we’ll have to see what they are doing. Maybe we’ll see you there tonight?"

"That would be great. The more the merrier. I hope we see you and your boyfriends later." Kevin said. With that they pushed away and headed back the way they came.

Jason and Julie turned around as well and headed home.

"Thanks Julie. I guess I have to learn how to deal with that, but I just wasn't ready."

"No problem Kelly. They were nice boys though; I hope they find some others to hang out with."

"I almost lost it when you mentioned Jason, but who is Jake?" Jason asked.

"I am, silly. Who do you think your boyfriend is?" Julie said.

Jason raised his eyebrow and said, "I never quite thought about it."

"I didn't either, but I wasn't about to tell them your girlfriend Julie would not approve, now was I. I don't really want to be a guy, but for you, well, it could be fun to try some time."

"Hummm. You know, you delight in making me 'think about you' don't you." Jason asked.

"Yes, I do; because when I 'think about you,' I love to think about you 'thinking about me.'" Julie laughed, then leaned over and kissed Jason.

"Umm… We better get back to the house." Jason said.

"Yes, we probably should…" Julie replied.

They both focused on paddling the canoe and heading back towards the Anderson's lake house.

The next day, Jason woke up and headed out to the kitchen, where he was promptly greeted with shouts of "Happy Birthday, Kelly!" by his parents and Julie.

"Thanks."

They sat down to a full breakfast of pancakes, bacon and eggs. After cleaning up, Julie and Jason got ready to go take an early swim. As they walked down to the dock, two cars pulled into the lake house driveway. Jason saw that the front car was occupied by his Aunt Jessica, and his cousin's Tom and Billy. The second car had his father's parents. Jason turned pale, as he realized he had nowhere to hide.

Jason's father came out of the lake house at the sound of the cars, and said, "Oh shit. Kristine, get out here."

Jessica got out of the car, shouted over to Richard and said, "Surprise Richard, we came up to wish Jason a happy birthday."

Jason was frozen in his tracks. Jessica looked at Julie and said, "Hi, you must be Julie, I've heard a lot about you, but who is your friend?" Jessica looked closer at Jason, and her face started out with a look of confusion, then shock, followed by disgust. She walked right up to Jason and said, "What do we have here. I should have known, I always thought you were a bit of a pansy. Tom get back in the car, and make sure that Billy stays where he is. We will not be staying." She slapped Jason on the face, turned and headed back toward her car.

Richard and Kristine headed her off, and Kristine got into her face first. "How dare you! You have no right to hit my child."

"Get out of my way Kristine; I will not subject my children to this sickness."

"Jessica, you are the only one here that is sick. You think that you have all the answers don't you. Well you don't. If you want to leave, than leave, you weren’t invited anyway. You and I both know this was just an excuse to come and use the lake house and you couldn't care less about Jason, or his birthday."

Billy was shouting, "But I want to go swimming, and play with Jason. Mom you promised!"

Tom was pulling Billy back into the car.

"What the hell is going on here?" Jason's grandfather said.

"Your grandson is a faggot. He’s over there dressed like a girl. In a one piece bathing suit with boobs!" Jessica shouted, then looking at Billy said, "Billy get back in the car. We’re not staying."

"What? Richard, what is going on?"

"Dad, you and Mom come inside, Kris and I will explain it to you. Jessica, if you are willing to listen and be polite, you can come inside as well, otherwise, the road is that way." Richard said.

"There is nothing to listen too. Your son is going to hell and you are obviously encouraging it. I'm not subjecting Billy to this. Don't let Jason come near my son again or I will file molestation charges." Jessica said, and she got back in her car and drove away.

"Richard?"

Richard sighed and said, "Mom, Dad, come on in. It's time we had a talk. Kelly, you and Julie better come inside too."

Jason just buried his face in his hands. Julie hugged him and said, "It's going to be ok, come on let's go inside."

Julie led Jason into the house, followed by his mother, father and grandparents.

"Will someone please explain what is going on around here?" Jason's grandfather said. "Why is Jason dressed like that?"

"Dad, I promise we will explain, but give us a few minutes. Julie, please take Kelly into her bedroom, I'll be right in." Jason's mother said.

Julie led Jason into his bedroom. When the door was closed, Jason's mother turned to her in-laws and said, "Mom, Dad, please sit down. I know this was a bit of a shock and believe me we didn’t plan on you finding out about this like this. Obviously, if we had known you were coming, this would not have happened. I need to go take care of Jason, but will be back out as soon as I can. Let Richard fix you a drink, I'm sure you are going to need it."

"Come on Mom, Dad. Have a seat, and tell me what you want." Jason's father said, as Kristine headed into Jason's room.

She found Jason lying on the bed in a fetal position, rocking back and forth. Julie was holding him and trying to calm him down. Kristine went over and sat next to them. "Kelly. It's going to be ok. Shhh…
Honey, it's ok. We, Julie, your father and I are all right here for you. It's going to be ok."

After a few minutes, his mother mouthed to Julie, "Help me to get her to sit up."

Julie said, "Kelly, come here… sit up and let your mother and I hold you," as she gently tried to pull him towards her. Jason allowed her to pull her in and she put her arms around him, his mother moved in closer and hugged him as well. Jason just held onto Julie as tightly as he could and wept.

The three of them just held on to each other until Jason was wrung out and simply could not cry any more.

"I'm sorry. I knew that Aunt Jessica was not going to react well, but I just did not realize how much it was going to hurt. I can only imagine what awful things she is telling Billy about me. You know, Tom is not going to keep quiet about this; he has friends that go to our school. I'm dead."

"Kelly, we will deal with this as a family. We knew this was likely to happen eventually, if it gets out, then we will face it. Julie, I don't know what this will mean for you at home."

"Don't worry about me, Mrs. Anderson. I will not betray Kelly. It may force me to have the conversation I've been dreading with my parents. I hope they are half as good as you at accepting me."

"I'll do what I can to help."

"Mom, why did Aunt Jessica say she would file molestation charges? What does that mean?"

Jason's mother's expression turned to extreme anger. "She means that she will accuse you of inappropriate sexual contact with Billy. She means that your behavior is perverted and that you would naturally go after her child. It's utter nonsense and it is an awful thing to charge someone with, especially one that is innocent."

Jason looked ill, "I would never do anything like that! How could she even think such a thing?"

"Because she is a religious nut, Kelly. She has no grasp on reality. Everything is black and white to her. Look Kelly, this is her failure not yours. Don't let it worry you. You are going to be just fine. Now, I need to get back out to your grandparents. Your father is probably ready to kill me for leaving him alone with them."

"Oh god, what must they be thinking about me."

"I'm sure they are concerned, they got quite a surprise coming upon you like this. But they did not storm out of here, so I would take that as a good start. You two stay in here for now, Ok?"

When Julie and Jason both acknowledged with a shake of their heads, Kristine got up and headed out of the room.

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 40 - 44. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgender nature, and his mostly supportive family.

"Kristine, introduce me to my granddaughter and her girlfriend please." Jason's grandmother said.

Authors Note: Thanks to Joni W for editing this section for me!

Chapter 40

"Is Kelly ok?" Richard asked Kristine as she came into the living room.

"She will be. She is just really hurt by Jessica's reaction." Kristine replied.

"Why do you keep referring to Jason as Kelly? What the heck is going on here?" Jason's grandfather asked.

"We learned several months ago that Jason had been hiding this need to express himself as a girl. He was feeling terribly guilty and ashamed of his feelings. We have been working with a psychologist since then. Jason is transgendered." Kristine said.

"What do you mean? Trans what? Jason is a boy, he is a good ball player, loves to fish, he is not effeminate. What about this Julie, did she do this to him." Jason's grandmother said.

"No Mom, she didn't. We found out about this before he and Julie got together. Julie has been very supportive of him, but she is not the cause. I know that it is hard to understand, hell, I still don't fully understand it, but there is no doubt about it. Jason is far happier as Kelly then he ever was as Jason." Richard told his parents.

"And what does this psychologist say. Surely with his help, Jason can be cured of this foolishness? And why are you letting it go on?"

"Dad, it isn't foolishness. Look, we have had to do a lot of research on this recently. This is more common than you would realize. We could forbid Jason from expressing this, but the research shows that forcing transgendered people to suppress their inner selves leads to serious depression and worse. I would much rather have Jason become my daughter Kelly, then for him to sink into depression and possibly kill himself. That is what happens." Richard said.

Jason's grandmother gasped.

"So what exactly did this psychologist recommend?" Jason's grandfather asked.

"That we give Jason the time to figure out what is right for him. He said that some, though not many, may grow out of it. But he also told us that most never do. The important thing is to figure out just how far he needs to go with this. From what we’ve seen, Jason is not going to grow out of this. He is Kelly. Looking back, he has always been Kelly; we just didn’t realize it. Kristine and I are fully behind him… No… Kristine and I are fully behind her." Richard looked at Kristine, reached over and took her hand, giving it a loving squeeze. Kristine returned the squeeze and smiled at him.

"Mom, Dad, I know this is a lot to take in. But I also know that you two love Jason and want him to be safe, healthy and happy in his life. He needs this to be happy. I know in my heart that we are doing the right thing for him. He is going to need as many people to help him face the challenges ahead; as many as possible. We know that Jessica will never come around and that is unfortunate. I hope that you will give Kelly a chance, because she certainly wants you to be a part of her life. She is in her room right now, worrying about how you are going to react. Are you going to be like Jessica and disown her, or are you going to be like Sally and accept her for who she is?" Kristine asked.

"Ira, I am not going to reject my grandchild and neither are you; and you know it. Jason has always been a wonderful grandson and I'm sure that Kelly will be a wonderful granddaughter. Kristine, I want to meet my granddaughter."

"Lizzie…"

"Ira, I mean it. You know Richard and Kristine are good parents. If they tell you that this is the right thing for Jason, you know that it is, to the best of their ability. We are not going to add to their problems. Jessica is going to get an earful from her mother tonight, because her behavior was not very Christian in my book! At least not in the way I was brought up and not the way we raised her either."

Ira sighed, looked at his wife, his daughter-in-law and son, and said, "Of course, Lizzie. You’re right."

"Kristine, introduce me to my granddaughter and her girlfriend please."

"Mom, it will be my pleasure." Kristine replied, and led Lizzie toward Jason's room.

They knocked on the door, and then went in.

Jason and Julie were sitting on the bed holding hands, with Jason's head on Julie's shoulder. Julie was trying to keep Jason calm. They both looked, with slight trepidation, at the two women that had come into the room.

"Mom, this is your granddaughter Kelly." Kristine said.

"Don't just sit their girl, come and give me a hug!" Jason's grandmother said.

Jason expression showed his relief as he got up from the bed and went to his grandmother and hugged her, saying "I love you Grandma."

"Shhh… It's going to be fine. I love you too, Kelly. Now how about introducing me to your girlfriend. Julie, I believe, isn't it?"

"Ohh… I'm sorry, yes, Julie this is my Grandma Anderson."

Julie came over and said, "Hello Mrs. Anderson, I'm happy to finally meet you."

"Please call me Lizzie. It’s a pleasure to meet you as well, Julie. I'm sorry that things got off to a rough start here today. But we’re going to put all that behind us and get on with celebrating Jas... I'm sorry, Kelly's birthday. Kelly, I'm sorry, but I suspect that the gifts we brought are not quite appropriate now. We will just have to go shopping soon and get you something better."

"I haven't changed that much, Grandma. I still like the same things I always did." Jason replied.

"Well, I don't think the shirts and pants I bought are quite right now. Besides, you know I love shopping for my grandkids. If you tell me that you don't want to go shopping for some new clothes, I'm going to wonder if you really are a teenage girl." She said with a wink.

"Oh, no… I can always use some new outfits."

Julie laughed at that. "See, she really is a girl. You should see her trying to figure out what to wear when we go out."

Grandma Lizzie chuckled. "Ok, I have to ask, are you Kelly's girl friend, or Kelly's Girlfriend?"

"I'm both. I don't care if she is Kelly or Jason, she is my best friend."

"Fair enough. Well Kelly, are you ready to meet your grandfather? I promise he won't bite, but he’s probably going to take a while to warm up to you."

"Yes, I guess so."

"Then let's go."

With that, she took Jason by the hand and led him out to the living room.

Chapter 41

"Ira, come meet your granddaughter."

Jason watched as his grandfather came over to him. Jason closed the gap and went to hug him, his grandfather hesitated, opened his arms, as he looked down at Jason holding him, he sighed and returned the hug, softly at first, but then with feeling.

"Kelly. Happy Birthday."

"Thank you, Grandpa." Jason squeezed him tightly one more time, and then said, "Grandpa, this is Julie."

"Hello Mr. Anderson." Julie said.

"Julie. It's a pleasure."

"Julie, you can call him Ira." Jason's grandmother said.

"Oh… Of course, thank you Lizzie. Julie, please call me Ira." Grandpa said.

The rest of the morning and afternoon, they spent in various activities. They had an early dinner, followed by the birthday cake, which said Happy Birthday Kelly. After cake, Jason opened his presents. From his parents, he got a necklace. Julie gave him a pretty top. "You have to tell my Mom that I gave you a nice shirt."

Grandma Lizzie said, "As we discussed, we will go out for something when you come home."

Soon after opening his presents, his grandparents had to leave to go home.

"Kelly, I have watched you all day today. I see how happy you are and I want you to know that I love you. Your Grandmother and I will be here for you."

"Grandpa, you don't know how much that means to me. Thank you! I love you!" And he gave them both hugs and kisses.

Chapter 42

"Jessica, I was ashamed of you today." Lizzie said to her daughter, later that night, on the phone.

"Mom, I am not going to expose my children to that perversion."

"Jessica, you claim to be Christian and you would not even give your own brother the benefit of hearing him out. You slapped your nephew!"

"Somebody needs to tell him that it is not ok. But no, my brother just lets him do it because he thinks he wants it. It's a sin; it says so in the bible."

"Really… it does? Where?"

"Mom, I'm not debating it with you. You know as well as I do that the bible condemns faggots."

"Don't use that kind of language to me! And no, I don't know that. I know that your husband and your preacher interpret certain passages that way and that they ignore those things that are prohibited that they don't want to give up. But even if it is, Christ said, 'love the sinner, hate the sin.' You should be supporting your family, but instead you wrap yourself in self-righteousness. Don't pull that nonsense with me. I brought you into this world. Your beliefs do not justify the act of hatred you exhibited today."

"That wasn't hatred; it was an act of love. I was trying to wake up my brother, so that he can save his son from eternal damnation. Jason needs to understand that it is not acceptable and then he will quit this sinful activity. He is just looking for attention. Well he got it."

"You know Jessica, it's love like that that got Christ crucified. If you weren't my daughter, I would really love to be there when you meet him. As it is, it would hurt too much to watch him reject you the way you rejected your nephew today."

"That is blasphemy. I will not sit here and listen to you blaspheming my Lord and Savior."

"Fine. I'm done. But if you or Tom cause problems for Jason, you are turning your back on your family, your father and I are supporting him fully."

"Jason has made his own bed; he will have to lie in it. When all is said and done, I hope he comes to his senses, better a bit of problems here on earth, eternity is a long time."

"I'm not bluffing, Jessica."

"Neither am I, Mom. Goodbye." Jessica hung up the phone.

"Damn!" She slammed the phone down on its hook. "Ira!"

"What?"

"Where the hell did I go wrong with her. She is a self-righteous bitch."

"You did not let me shoot that bastard that she married."

Lizzie laughed, "Well yes, that probably was a mistake."

"I take it your call did not go well?"

"No, she can rationalize anything she does. It's God's work."

"Is she going to out Jason?"

"I think she is going to let Tom do it. He may have already done so. I told her we were fully supporting Jason and that if they cause problems for Jason, they were turning their back on the family. She did not care."

"I guess we’ll find out when Richard, Kristine, Jason and Julie get home, just a couple of more days."

Chapter 43

Tom sat at his computer, looking at the picture from his camera phone. Seeing Jason all dressed up as a girl made him sick to his stomach. He attached it to an e-mail, and addressed it to two of his friends that lived in Jason's town, and hit send.

Kathy and Sue looked at the computer screen. "Oh, shit." Kathy said.

There, in an e-mail, that had been forwarded over and over again, probably to three quarters of their classmates already, if not all, was a picture of Jason standing next to Julie. Jason was wearing a one-piece bathing suit, with long hair, and of course breasts. The caption clearly labeled it as Jason, and while that might have been questionable, there was no question that it was Julie, and since people knew full well that the two were dating, no one was going to question it.

The phone rang.

"Hello John. Yes, I just got it. No, I don't think it is doctored. Look, come on over, we can talk it through here. Kathy is here too." Sue said. "Oh this is going to be fun. He is not a happy guy right now."

"I'm sure he isn't."

A little while later, John was sitting in Sue's kitchen. "What the heck is going on? Did you know about this?"

Sue sighed. "Yes, we figured it out a few weeks ago."

"And you didn't tell me!" John said.

"John, it had nothing to do with you and it was too risky for Jason. It would have been better for him, if we had not figured it out. I don't betray my friends."

"But you know everyone is going to assume that I knew! They're going to think that I'm gay."

"But you are not gay and Jason isn't either. He is not interested in boys. He and Julie really are together." Sue said.

Kathy had been quiet till now but she said, "Look, Jason has been your best friend for years. If it wasn't for Julie and him getting together, you would not have Sue here, have you forgotten that. The fact is, it was because Julie found out about Jason that they got together in the first place. She likes it. Jason is a great guy and by the way, a nice girl too. So are you going to be a friend, or are you going to turn your back on him."

"I don't know. I don't know what to think. I've known him most of my life and we have been friends forever. We have shared a room together and this whole time he has kept this to himself. I feel like he has been lying to me our whole lives."

Sue said, "John, I understand, but try to put yourself in his place. You know how people are going to react to this. He only told his parents a few months ago, he surely couldn't have told you before them. He didn’t tell Julie, or us, we caught him. Julie saw him buying girls shoes with his mother and remember we told you that they had told us that he had a cousin Kelly, well he is Kelly. He fought this for years and is only now coming to terms with it himself. Please John, give him a chance. They will be home tomorrow; he’s going to need all the friends he has."

John looked at them both, let out a sigh and said, "Ok, I'll try."

Chapter 44

They pulled into Julie's driveway. The whole town knew about Jason. Her mother had called last night, after having been called by one of her friends.

Her mother originally wanted to come up and get Julie and bring her home right then. However, considering the hour, and the fact that they were coming home in the morning anyway, she consented to allow her to stay the one final night.

Her mother would not listen to her attempts to explain.

After much discussion, Julie had told Jason's parents that they could push her mother to talk to her about her own sexuality.

Richard opened the trunk and got Julie's bag out. The front door opened and Julie's mother came out. She was clearly upset.

"Julie, go inside." She said.

She started to reply, but her mother cut her off, "Don't say a word. Go inside, now."

"You and Kristine have a lot of nerve. How could you keep this a secret from Ken and me? We trusted you to keep Julie safe."

"She was safe."

"Oh… then why is she in a picture with your son dressed up like a girl? What does that make her and how safe will she be in school. What chance will she have to find a real boyfriend? No boy will want to be with her now, because everyone will assume they are gay, like your son."

"Jason is not gay. He is transgendered. There is a difference. Trust me we are all just as upset as you are about that picture being circulated. The one thing I do know is that Jason is going to hold his head up high and face it. You need to speak with your daughter and listen to her. There is a reason that she and Jason came together. I know you know what I'm talking about, because Ken told me about your concerns. I'm sorry that Julie has been brought into this and we will do whatever is necessary to protect them both. I know you don't think so right now, but we have come to really care for Julie, we don't want her hurt, any more than you do."

"You and your family will stay away from Julie. Do you hear me?"

"Yes, I hear you. Speak to her."

Richard closed the trunk, got into the car and drove away.

Julie's mother went inside and sent Brian out to get Julie's bags. She went up to Julie's room and found her lying on the bed crying.

"Julie. You are not to go anywhere near that boy again. You stay away from him; you don't talk to him, no e-mails, no contact. He does not exist, do you understand?"

Julie sat up, looked at her mother and said, "No. I understand, but no. I will not desert him. Especially now, when he is going to need me the most."

"Julie this is not open to negotiation. You will not have contact with Jason."

"You're right about one thing; it is not open to negotiation, I am not going to turn on him."

"Julie, you have already seriously damaged your reputation. It’s going to be difficult to overcome this and until you do, no boy is going to want anything to do with you. The longer you stay with him the harder that will be."

"I don't want any boys. I have never wanted a boy. Don't you understand; I don't like boys that way. I don't like girls that way either. That is what got me interested in Jason in the first place. I caught him buying girls shoes and it was like a whole world opened up for me. I confronted him with it and that is why I got invited to their house that first night. So his mother could find out if I was going to use that information to hurt him. I used to think I was going to be alone my whole life, than I met Jason. I don't know if he and I will still be together when we get older, but I know what I am looking for now."

Julie's mother looked like she had been punched in the stomach.

"You don't like boys? So you are gay?"

"I don't know Mom. I don't like boys, I kind of like girls, though I'm a little bit grossed out by the thought of touching a girl down there. Though not as much as the idea of being with a boy. Yuck. But Jason is a little bit of both and I have to tell you, I really like that."

"Julie, you are too young to know that. You just think you’re gay."

"You're not listening Mom. I don't think anything, but I know how I feel. It isn't going to change. I know you love me Mom and I know you don't like things that are outside the norm, but you are going to have to accept me as I am. You know, one thing I did learn from the Andersons, they accept people as they are. Mr. Anderson had a lot of trouble with Kelly, but he never lost sight of the fact that he loved his child and that her happiness and well being were the most important thing. I hope that you and Daddy can open yourselves up to accept me. This is who I am, Mom. You can either accept me, or reject me, but you cannot change me."

Julie lifted her head up as she was speaking. Her eyes watering, but defiant.

"Julie…"

"Mom, I love you, but that's the choice; accept me as I am, or reject me. Can you meet me part way? Are you willing to try to accept, I don't need unconditional acceptance this second. If you are willing to try, I have the phone number of Jason's psychologist. He can work with us as a family to help you and Daddy, and frankly me to learn to accept me. If you are not willing to try, then I will have to leave."

Julie's mom sat down in Julie's desk chair.

"Leave? Your fourteen years old, where do you think you would go. Did the Andersons put you up to this?"

"No, they didn't. I'm sure they would give me a home though, while I tried to work things out with you and Daddy. But I also think that Kathy or Sue's parents would put me up. None of them would let me go live on the street. Should I leave?"

"No, of course not Julie, I don't want you to leave, and neither would your father. I don't know what to think. I'm very upset about this picture and I'm furious that the Andersons knew about this and did not think it was something we should know about."

"Mom, they did not have much choice. I made them promise and they could not tell you without putting Jason at risk. They had to trust me and I had to trust them."

"They still should have told us."

"Mom, they couldn't. Please, can we call them and arrange to get together and clear the air. We’re all going to need each other to get through this. The whole town knows about Kelly and me. Kelly is going to have a really tough time of it. Now that it is out, I think that Kelly is going to go full time. She has nothing left to hide."

"I don't know... Damn, oh alright, I will call them."

"Thank you Mom. I do love you, I hope you know that."

"I do, Julie. I love you too. Do you have any more secrets I need to know about?"

"No, I think this one is big enough."

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 45 - 46. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgendered nature, and his mostly supportive family.

"I want to be Kelly. I am so much happier when I'm Kelly. I've talked to Mom and Dad and I want to start living full time as Kelly." Jason said.

Authors Note: Thanks to Joni W for editing this section for me!

Chapter 45

"Jessica, you have really gone too far this time!" Richard hissed into the phone. "Having Tom send that picture out and outing Jason is the most despicable thing I have ever seen you do. No matter what your beliefs, that was downright wrong. Why don't you just call for a lynching, you know what that is going to do to him at school! I swear Jessica, if anything happens to him, I will make sure that you pay for it. As it is, my lawyers are looking into whether or not we can sue you for anything. I have put up with your nonsense for years because you are my sister, but no more. Goodbye." Richard slammed the phone down.

Jessica hung up the phone, and went into Tom's room.

"Tom, what did you do?" She asked.

"What do you mean?" he replied with a puzzled look on his face.

"Where did you get a picture of Jason in that girls bathing suit, and why would you send it out into the world?"

"I took it with my camera phone while Uncle Richard and Aunt Kristine where arguing with you. I sent it out to shine the light of God on Jason."

"I thought you were going to confront Jason about it, not expose his sin to the world."

"I followed the teachings of Reverend Tripard. Reverend Tripard preaches about what we should do when confronted with perversion. He always tells us that abomination hides in even the most God fearing families. In our shame we let it fester and grow like a cancerous growth, because we are ashamed that we have found it in our own families. We must expose sodomites to the light of God, and never let our shame in their acts give them aide and shelter. Jason will feel the light of God now! You know this, Mom; surely you are not going to tell me that Reverend Tripard is wrong?"

"No, of course not Tom, I would never say such a thing."

"I am praying that Jason will learn from this trial and put this behind him."

"I know Tom, me too. Sometimes we must do things that are hard. Unfortunately, the rest of the family does not understand. We are going to have to shoulder this burden ourselves; none of them are going to support us."

"I'm not surprised. It is a shame that Jason will take them all down with him, I will add them to my prayers."

Chapter 46

"Well Jason, a lot has happened since we last met." Dr. Daniels said.

"Yes, it sure has."

"How are you handling it?"

"It's hard, but I have a lot of support. Mom and Dad have been great. Julie, I can't say enough about Julie. She stood up to her mother and told her about her own issues. I think they are going to be calling you. We all got together later on that night. It was a little tense at first, as her parents were really upset at Mom and Dad for keeping all of this a secret. Especially Julie's sexuality, but they eventually acknowledged that Mom and Dad had been in a no win situation on it and had done what they could to make sure that Julie was being supported. After that we talked about how to face the community. When we got home the answering machine was full."

"Tell me about the calls?"

"Some of them were supportive. Some were quite nasty. I think the worst were the ones that were false supportive."

"How do you mean?"

"One lady called, and said 'Oh, Kristine, it must be so difficult. I don't know what I would do if my son were gay. If there is anything I can do for you, please call.' It was just so… I think I preferred the ones that were just outright nasty. It seemed more honest. That is aside from the fact that she does not know the difference between gay and transgendered."

"Yes, I can see what you mean. How about your friends, have you spoken with any of them?"

"Well, Kathy and Sue both dropped by and gave me support. Kathy's parents were taken aback, but told her they were proud of her for taking a stand. Sue's mother was fine. The hard one was John. He was kind of pissed at me. I think it will be ok eventually, but he is upset because he feels like I have been lying to him our whole lives. At the same time he acknowledges that he would not have gotten together with Sue if it were not for Julie and I getting together. Sue made sure he knew that Julie and I would not have gotten together if she had not caught me. So we shook hands and said we would see how things go. I have not seen Steve yet; he just got back from Disney today. Kathy spoke to him though and she thinks he will come around."

"Then you have done remarkably well. The people closest to you are being supportive. So where do you want to go from here?"

"I want to be Kelly. I am so much happier when I'm Kelly. I've talked to Mom and Dad and I want to start living full time as Kelly."

"What about school?"

"Everyone already knows, so how much worse can it be. I'm not going to deny it. I will face it, whatever is involved. Mom and Dad are willing to fight for it with the school board if necessary. My bigger concern is the changes that have already started to happen in my body. Mom said that she had read that there were some medicines that could stop or slow down the start of puberty."

"Yes there are. If we decide that that is the right option for you, I can recommend a doctor that can prescribe that for you."

"You can't do that?"

"No, you need an endocrinologist to make sure that your body can handle it properly."

"Oh. Will you recommend it?"

"I have to speak to your parents. I might, because it would buy you some time."

"You will talk to my parents about it then?"

"Yes."

Jason and Dr. Daniels continued to discuss things, until shortly before the end of his hour. Dr. Daniels asked him to send in his parents.

"Well things have certainly gotten a little out of hand." Dr. Daniels said to them.

"Yes, my sister really put Jason in a tough place."

"Yes she did. Jason said he wants to go full time. How do you feel about that?"

"I think it is something he needs to do. Everyone knows already, so there is no risk of discovery." Kristine said.

"That is true. There are those that will be even more confrontational if they come on him as Kelly. You will also have to fight with the school, they are not likely to want to have to deal with this. Although the fact that he is switching schools may make that easier and schools around the country are starting to deal with transgendered students. There is precedence."

"What about the blockers?"

"They are very expensive, and they are not covered by insurance."

"I know, I've been doing the research. We need time, doctor. I'm not ready to do anything that is irreversible, or even partially reversible. We will find a way to pay for it."

"Ok, I agree. I'll give you a referral to an endocrinologist."

"Thank you, Doctor."

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 47 - 49. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgendered nature, and his mostly supportive family.

There is a letter to the editor, blasting the High School for admitting you as a girl. It reads,"

Dear Editor,

It has come to our attention that the High School has recently admitted a 15 year-old male student, who will attend school as a girl. An assembly is planned for the first day of school to instruct the student body on acceptable behavior toward this student. As a parent of a child that attends the high school, I find this highly unacceptable. Why my child must be exposed to this deviant, perverted behavior is beyond me.

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Authors Note: Thanks to Joni W for editing this section for me!

Chapter 47

Richard, Kristine and Jason dressed as Kelly, sat in the high school principal's office. They were there to meet with Mr. Martin, the principal and Mr. West the school superintendant.

"Mr. and Mrs. Anderson, surely you know that such a request is highly irregular. This is a place of learning, and having Jason attend dressed as a girl would be quite a distraction. I don't think that it would be fair to the other students." Mr. Martin said.

"Mr. Martin, the whole town already knows about Kelly. It is going to be a distraction anyway and most likely abusive, so the school is already going to have to deal with this situation, whether Kelly attends as Jason, or as Kelly. It is our hope that meeting Kelly will put a human face to the problem and actually aid her in being accepted. The documents in front of you have been prepared by Kelly's doctors; recommending that Kelly begin full time real life trials. She is under the care of a psychologist, a pediatrician and an endocrinologist. You also have several briefs prepared by my attorneys regarding state law and transgendered children's rights to an education. The fact is in this state the law is fairly clear, and is on Kelly's side." Richard said.

Mr. West looked over the papers and looking at Mr. Martin said, "They are correct. State law is fairly clear on the rights of Gay, Lesbian and Transgender students. The paperwork appears to be in order, so we will be prepared to enroll Kelly in September."

"Good, than we need to discuss the safety precautions that you will take for Kelly and Julie. They have both been the target of a lot of hate mail this summer. And they will need to be protected here at the school." Richard said.

"Do you have the names of the people that sent those?"

"Yes, here is a list. The violent ones have been reported to the police."

"Harassment will not be tolerated here, we will insure that. We will have to address this to the student body when school starts, including some education on what transgender is. Starting with sensitivity training for the staff, I can think of some on the staff that are going to have trouble with this." Mr. West told Mr. Martin.

"I expect you to review the assignment of teachers for Kelly and Julie to insure that they are not in a class with a teacher that is unable to be fair and objective." Kristine said.

"We expect all of our teachers to be fair and objective, Mrs. Anderson. We will do our best to make sure that the standards are met." Mr. Martin replied.

"One further detail needs to be agreed upon from a logistical standpoint. Parents will be understandably concerned about Kelly using the girl's bathrooms. I don't believe that having Kelly using the boy's bathrooms is quite appropriate either. Also, changing clothes for gym presents a similar problem. I think that the best solution to both of these logistical issues is for Kelly to use the individual bathroom, located in the nurse's office, for both purposes. Is that agreeable?" Mr. West asked.

"Yes, that is agreeable. We do not want Kelly in the boy's bathrooms or locker rooms, and we actually do think that having her in the girl's rooms at this time is probably not advisable." Kristine said.

"Then we are in agreement. Any other issues you would like to cover at this time?" Mr. West asked.

"No, I think that is it for now." Richard stated.

"Kelly, I wish I could tell you that everything was going to be fine and that you will have no problems in the next year, but as a realist, I can say that there will be those that will give you a hard time. What I can say is that we will do everything we can to keep that to a minimum and to address the problems as they come up. Be sure to let us know what is happening and what we can do to help." Mr. West said.

"Thank you Superintendant West." Jason said.

Chapter 48

"Well, you made the local paper today." Kristine said to Jason.

"What? What did it say?" Jason asked.

"There is a letter to the editor, blasting the High School for admitting you as a girl. It reads,"

Dear Editor,

It has come to our attention that the High School has recently admitted a 15 year-old male student, who will attend school as a girl. An assembly is planned for the first day of school to instruct the student body on acceptable behavior toward this student. As a parent of a child that attends the high school, I find this highly unacceptable. Why my child must be exposed to this deviant, perverted behavior is beyond me.

This is just further evidence of the demise of our culture. That the school would even entertain such a request, instead of contacting family services to report child abuse is a testament to the world of political correctness. How a confused fifteen year old can be presumed to have enough knowledge to make such a decision, and his parents to allow him to act on it, is pure and simple a travesty. This child will clearly never be cured of his delusion, since he is not being treated for it.

That is bad enough, but to inflict this confusion on our healthy children! This is why public schools should be closed down and replaced with a vouchering system to allow parents the choice of private schools to send their children too.

The Board of Education meets next Wednesday, I encourage all parents to attend that meeting and demand that this student be expelled.

Signed Angry Parent.

Editor's note: The above letter was edited to remove the name of the student.

"Like there is anyone in this town that is not aware of whom that would be. I guess we will be going to the Board of Education meeting on Wednesday night, what do you think Kelly?" Jason's mother asked.

"I'm sorry Mom." Jason replied.

"Don't be. Your father and I expected as much. I wonder which of the school staff wrote this letter or I suppose is more likely leaked it to someone else to write the letter. It does not really matter. The state law is very specific on this subject; they cannot really deny you. We are quite fortunate that we live here, because in most states, you would not have protection."

"I just hate that I have put you and Dad through this. I've heard you telling off people you have been friends with since as long as I can remember. Now you have to go fight the town at the board meeting… I just feel so guilty about it all."

"Stop it Kelly. You are not doing this to make our lives difficult. This is happening because there is something in you that needs to do this. You feel guilty because these people we thought were friends are not acting like friends. They are not supporting us when we need them. That is not because of you, that is because they aren't really friends. Some of them may come around, others won't. Those that don't I don't need. We have had quite a few of our friends be truly supportive. I know John took it hard, but he seems to be coming around. You had the whole gang here yesterday, and it seemed like old times."

"Mostly. Steve and John's eyes nearly popped out of their heads the first time they saw me. Sue and Kathy laughed at them and told them to stop drooling, or they were going to make them jealous. It was kind of funny, but even though I have no interest in boys, it felt kind of nice that they thought I was attractive." Jason smiled.

"That is something I understand. It is always nice to be appreciated; even though it is also a bit disconcerting the way men look at us sometimes. Well, let me call Julie's mother, we are going to need them on Wednesday as well."

Chapter 49

Jason and his parents walked into the Board of Education meeting, followed by a large contingent of their supporters. Jason was dressed in a simple but pretty dress. Michele had done his hair and makeup for the evening. Julie held Jason's hand, and gave it a squeeze of encouragement. Kathy, Sue, John and Steve and most of their parents were also there. All four of his Grandparents, and his Aunt Sally were there as well. His mom had gone over to her parent's house as soon as they got home and explained things, fortunately before they had heard about it through the grapevine.

The Board of Education meeting had been moved from the relatively small town hall to the high school auditorium, in anticipation of the large crowd. Jason looked around and it seemed to him that the whole town was present. The board was set up at a table that was set upon the stage, and each of the board members had a microphone.

A podium was setup with a microphone in the orchestra seating area.

Jason and his group made their way to the front section, and took seats that had been reserved for them. Jason noticed people staring at him and pointing in his direction.

Mr. Lewis, the board president, used his gavel and asked for the crowd to quiet down and take their seats. It took a few minutes, but the crowd did settle down.

Mr. Lewis asked Jeremy Stone, a sophomore, to lead them in the pledge of allegiance. When he was done, Mr. Lewis, said, "Thank you, Jeremy. Ok the meeting is now in order. Members of the board, I suggest that considering the circumstances that we dispense with the normal business of the board for this meeting and address the issue that has brought out the community in such large numbers. Any objections?"

Mr. Lewis looked at each board member, and said, "None noted. Before we allow members of the community the opportunity to speak, I will start by adding into the record, that the student in question has properly applied as per state law, to be considered a transitioning student. She has properly met the requirements of submitting affidavits from her attending doctors, including a licensed psychologist that she has begun the real life trial. State Law is clear and concise as to our responsibilities to the student in question and we will carry them out. Also, to clear up the inevitable question, the student will be using the single occupant restroom in the nurse's office, for her bathroom needs, as well as for changing for physical education classes. Now everyone that wishes to address the board will be granted the opportunity, but I will ask that you try to keep your comments brief; a maximum of five minutes, and keep it courteous. If you wish a turn, please see one of the two students at the desks on the far right and far left, to sign up. We will call your name when it is your turn."

A number of people got up and signed up. A runner brought the first few names up to Mr. Lewis, who pounded his gavel and said, "Alright, first up, Karen Jones. Come up to the podium please."

Karen Jones went over to the podium and said, "Thank you Mr. Lewis. From your statement it sounds like this meeting is a waste of time, you imply that you have no options under state law to change this ridiculous decision. I don't understand how our legislature could have enacted such a crazy law, which would allow a boy to come into this school dressed as a girl. What are his parents thinking to allow, even encourage this behavior, by sending their child to school this way. Why is the state not stepping in and putting this child into the care of responsible people that would teach this child that just because you wish for something, does not mean you can have it. It is a sad statement on society that we are even having this discussion today. Thank you."

A number of other parents expressing similar views were heard from next.

Mr. Lewis then called Shelly Sanders. Julie's mother made her way to the podium.

"Thank you, Mr. Lewis. I have sat here and listened to the prior speakers come up here and give their opinions as to why this young lady…"

"You mean sissy, he's no lady! And your daughter is dating him, does that make her a dyke!" A voice from the crowd shouted out. Others shouted in agreement.

Mr. Lewis banged his gavel. "That will be enough of that. Any more outbursts like that and I will have Officer Dowling start removing people!"

The crowd quieted down.

Mr. Lewis said, "Mrs. Sanders, please continue. We are resetting your five minutes."

"Thank you, again, Mr. Lewis. As I was saying, I have been listening to all of the reasons why this young lady should not be allowed to attend our high school. What I have heard is a bunch of ignorant people that no nothing of what it is to be transgendered, or what the family has done to arrive at this point. When I first learned about Kelly, no sense using euphemisms, we all know who this is about, and came to know that my daughter Julie was dating a boy that wanted to be a girl; my first reaction was to forbid her to see Jason any more. Julie, however, stood up for her friend, and told me that she would not, in fact could not, obey such an order. She made me listen and learn. The Anderson's are not doing this on a whim; they have been working with a psychologist. They have done their homework, and what they know, that most of you don't know, is that most children that show transgendered tendencies never outgrow it. And that those that are not given the opportunity to express themselves, as they see themselves, sink into depression and many try to kill themselves, quite a few with regrettable success. The Andersons would rather have a live girl child, then a dead son. That makes them good parents to me. Those of you that question the Andersons as good parents, have no idea what that means. Most of you know me, my husband and I are known to be highly conservative. I am here to support Kelly and her parents, because it is the right thing to do. Thank you, Mr. Lewis."

"Thank you, Mrs. Sanders."

The meeting continued on like this, some people arguing against Kelly, others offering support. Mr. Lewis called on John Fienberg.

"Thank you, Mr. Lewis. Most of you knew my son, Chris. You also know that Chris killed himself several years ago. What most of you don’t know is why. I suspect that most of you assumed that the casket was closed because of how he killed himself. The details were never released. Chris was very much like Jason Anderson. Unlike the Andersons, my wife and I were unable to see or understand Chris's need. He had tried to talk to us; I shut him down. I told him that there would not be any sissies living in my house. I made him try out for football, which he was good at, though he hated it. And he suffered, quietly. Until the one day when Chris could not take it anymore. My wife and I found Chris, in his bedroom. He had taken a concoction of sleeping pills and alcohol, and he was already dead. He had left us a note, where he explained that he was sorry that he could not be the son that I needed…."

Mr. Fienberg was struggling to speak at this point, and the auditorium was quiet, except for the sounds of people crying for him.

He took a breath and said, "I'm sorry, it is difficult to talk about, but I must share this with you all, so that you can try to understand why this is so important, and why the Andersons deserve your support, not these senseless attacks. Chris said that he was sorry that he could not be the son that I needed, that he was a girl, and he hoped that there was something to re-incarnation, because he needed to try again. He made one last request; on the bed next to him, neatly folded was a black dress, and everything else that goes with it. He asked to be buried in this outfit. That is why his casket was closed. I could not bear the community finding out, yet my wife and I could not refuse this final request. I wish that I could have had the courage that the Anderson's have shown and been able to give my boy… oh, my boy… my boy… I wish I could have been strong enough to let my boy go and welcomed him as my daughter. Kristine, Richard you are better parents than I was, may god bless you."

With that Mr. Fienberg, broke down. His wife came to him, and Kristine, Richard and Jason, came over and helped her walk him out of the auditorium.

The crowd remained quiet and stunned. There were sounds of people crying, and the board members themselves were struggling to keep their composure.

When the Anderson's returned, Mr. Lewis said, "Well… I guess we need to continue on." He started to read down the list, and one after another declined, saying that everything had already been said.

Then Mr. Lewis called on Brad's father Mr. Johnson.

"Well, well, so we get to hear a sob story, about another sissy. One that was such a failure that he offed himself and we are supposed to feel guilty now and let this crap go without a fight. If Chris Fienberg wanted to be a girl so much, maybe he did the right thing. Maybe he is a girl now somewhere, since he believed in re-incarnation. Maybe that is what anybody that is so screwed up in the head as to want to cut off their dick should do. Maybe they just need a little help. What they don't need is to be told that it is ok for them to prance around the school in drag. And we shouldn't be letting them."

Mr. Lewis banged the gavel, "Mr. Johnson, this is on the record. Threatening to kill someone is a criminal offense!"

"I ain't threatening anybody. I'm just saying if they are gonna kill themselves they need help. Are you saying that they don't?"

"Not the kind of help you are talking about sir. I suggest you take your seat before I have to have Officer Dowling arrest you."

"That's fine, I'm finished talkin' anyway." Mr. Johnson walked out of the auditorium.

"Evelyn, please make sure you make a copy of that recording and forward it to Officer Dowling."

"Yes, Mr. Lewis."

"Alright, is there anyone else that wants to speak before I yield to Kristine Anderson?" Mr. Lewis, looked around, no one rose.

"Ok, Mrs. Anderson, your turn." He told her.

"Thank you Mr. Lewis. Well… I had a lot to say about statistics, etc. I am not going to bore you with them. If Mr. Fienberg's testimony is not enough for you to understand why Richard and I are supporting Kelly, then no amount of talking from me is going to convince you. The bottom line is that regardless of what your beliefs are, state law is clear. Kelly has every right to attend school, in the manner that is most conducive to her learning. We would have preferred to have kept this secret for a bit longer, to be certain that it is what is right for her, but since she was so publicly outed, we feel strongly that this is her best chance to get the education she deserves. We know that there are those of you that have strong feelings on this, but we expect you to be adults and to treat our daughter at least civilly."

"Thank you Mrs. Anderson. Now you have all had your hearing. As I said at the outset, state law is very clear, perhaps now you understand better why the law is what it is. I want to publicly thank Mr. Fienberg, on the record, for his courage in sharing his story with us today. I cannot imagine what it was like for him to do so. With that I am going to call for this meeting to adjourn."

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 50 - 52. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgendered nature, and his mostly supportive family.

As he was crying for Chris, and feeling unworthy of the support he was receiving, he suddenly realized that it was not a matter of being worthy or not. In fact, he realized both he and Chris were worthy of the support of their loved ones and the shame was not on either he or Chris, but on those that could not or would not give them support. This was Mr. and Mrs. Fienberg's failing and he realized that Mr. Fienberg knew that too. In fact, it is what he had said. For himself it was his Aunt Jessica's failing that she and Tom could not handle this. They may never recognize that, but he knew it now and knew it implicitly.

He could forgive them, as he was sure that Chris would forgive Mr. Fienberg, if he could.

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Authors Note: Thanks to Joni W for editing this section for me!

Chapter 50

That night while Jason lay in bed, he thought about all the changes going on in his life and how he had gotten to this point. Earlier in the day, Julie, Julie's mother, Kathy, Sue, his Aunt Sally and his mother were all with him as Michele did her magic. He had spent a lot of this summer fully as Kelly, but had kept away from the general public as much as possible.

Mostly he and his friends had gathered at one of their houses. Julie's family had a pool, so a lot of the time was spent there. He laughed as he thought that at least he had not had to worry about the tan lines.

Of course he had gone to the school to meet with the principal and the superintendant as Kelly. He had thought the butterflies that he felt that day were bad, but they did not hold a candle on what he had felt tonight.

This was different, he had thought that he was going to be seen by just about every person in town, and he was not too far off with that estimate.

As he sat there and listened to each and every person that got up to speak, knowing that he was at the center of the division, he kept wondering if this was the right thing to do. Sitting there and listening to the horrible things that some of them had to say about his parents, hurt him and made him angry. "Who the hell are these people to judge my parents? What do they know about how hard this has been for them and how hard they try to do what is right?" Jason thought to himself.

Then he thought, "Maybe I should just put it all aside and be what they all expect me to be. Could I do that?"

He thought about taking all of Kelly's things, bagging them up and taking them to good will. He knew of course, that he would be teased about it forever; even if he did at least it would be over. Even as he was thinking that, he knew it would never be over.

His heart ached as he thought of never being able to be Kelly again and he knew that if he tried to completely remove Kelly from his life, he would never be happy. He thought about Chris Fienberg and knew without a doubt that without the acceptance that he had from his parents, that he could easily be Chris. A wave of empathy for Chris washed over him. He began to cry for what could have been and should have been. A feeling of guilt came over him wondering why he had so much support and why Chris had to fight his way alone.

As he was crying for Chris, and feeling unworthy of the support he was receiving, he suddenly realized that it was not a matter of being worthy or not. In fact, he realized both he and Chris were worthy of the support of their loved ones and the shame was not on either he or Chris, but on those that could not or would not give them support. This was Mr. and Mrs. Fienberg's failing and he realized that Mr. Fienberg knew that too. In fact, it is what he had said. For himself it was his Aunt Jessica's failing that she and Tom could not handle this. They may never recognize that, but he knew it now and knew it implicitly.

He could forgive them, as he was sure that Chris would forgive Mr. Fienberg, if he could.

"God, please let Chris Fienberg's soul be at peace. Please let her find what she was looking for and could not find here on Earth; and please tell her, I won't let them get me down. I'm going to overcome them for her, for every transgendered person that never got support, I will be strong."

With that, he fell asleep exhausted.

Chapter 51

"Well this has been a pretty big week. I understand there was a big debate at the board of education meeting. How did that go?" Dr. Daniels asked Jason.

"I was really nervous going into it. It was quite difficult to sit there and listen to everyone arguing over me. Some people said some truly nasty things about my parents, and that made me angry, others came to their defense. Then Mr. Fienberg talked about his son Chris and why he had killed himself, which was very sad." Jason replied.

"So how did this make you feel?"

"A whole range of emotions, angry, sad, angry, guilty, angry, proud, angry, did I say angry?" Jason laughed.

"That sounds about right."

"I thought a lot about it later that night. At first I started to think about whether I should just give it up and just bag up Kelly's things, and put her in my past. The thought of doing that just makes me so unhappy; I cannot see her not being a part of my life."

"What about Jason. Can you see giving up being Jason for the rest of your life?"

"I don't know. It's hard to imagine not ever being Jason anymore. I don't really think of Kelly and Jason as being different people anyway. I like being called Kelly, it feels like I'm being accepted, but it still feels a bit strange to me when I hear it, like it's someone else."

"Forget about the names, because you are right, you are not two different people. If you were, we would be treating a very real psychiatric problem. But can you see giving up being identified as male, forever? You have already realized that you can't give up being identified as female, forever. Basically you have three options, one of which you have ruled out. So of the remaining options, you can work towards becoming fully your female persona, or you can try for a balance."

"I don't know." Jason said.

"And yet you have embarked on the path of being Kelly full time. Are you certain this is what you want?"

"Yes, I'm sure. It's a bit scary, but yes, I have to do this."

Chapter 52

The first day of school came too quickly for Jason. The night before he had gone to Michele's salon and she worked her magic. Since Jason no longer had to preserve the appearance of a masculine hairstyle, Michele had much more freedom. Jason's hair, while still somewhat short, had grown out some over the summer giving Michele more to work with, without having to resort to the extensions.

Julie, Kathy and Sue had all helped him pick out the perfect outfit for the first day of school. They decided that Jason needed to avoid any ambiguity by dressing as feminine as possible that first day. He could settle into the comfort of jeans, once their schoolmates got used to seeing him as a girl. In a show of support, all three girls agreed that they would also dress up, until he was ready to relax.

He and his friends walked into the high school for the first time as students. They all shared the same homeroom. Superintendent West had pulled strings and made sure that the assignment of classes insured that Jason and Julie had supportive students in each of their classes.

As they walked through the halls looking for their classroom, other students looked at them and pointed at Jason.

"Look there he is..."

"He actually looks pretty good..."

"Faggot..."

Jason and his friends just tried to ignore it, as he held his head up and walked into his homeroom.

Mrs. Kaufman was their homeroom teacher. They sat together towards the middle of the classroom. Once the final bell rang, Mrs. Kaufman asked for their attention.

"Welcome to Jefferson Regional High School. I'm Mrs. Kaufman and I will be your homeroom teacher this year. I'll begin by taking roll call and passing out your class schedules. Your locker assignments are also listed on your schedule."

She began calling out each of the students names, when she said, "Kelly Anderson?" a few of the students snickered.

"We will have none of that! Kelly will be treated with respect in this school, do you all understand?" Mrs. Kaufman said, as she stared at the students that had snickered. The room got very quiet. "Well?" she asked again.

"Yes, Mrs. Kaufman" the class responded in unison.

She continued her stare for a moment and then said, "Good. Now, Kelly Anderson."

"Here, Mrs. Kaufman." Jason replied.

She smiled at Jason and handed him his schedule. "Here you go, Kelly. Welcome to my classroom. If I can be of any assistance to you please let me know."

"Thank you, I will." Jason smiled back at her.

Shortly after the roll call was completed, the intercom crackled with the morning announcements. They began with the reciting of the Pledge of Allegiance, and then Principal Martin came on and said, "Welcome to a new year at Jefferson Regional High School. I hope that all of you will take time to welcome our incoming freshmen and to help them ease into this transition from middle school to high school. I'm sure all of you remember how excited and nervous your first day was here. To our seniors, congratulations on making it to your final year! This year will fly by for you; before you know it you will be graduating in June and preparing for college or for whatever career you choose. It should be lots of fun and I hope that you will have many happy memories of your senior year to look back on."

Principal Martin paused, and then added, "I know that many of you are aware that this year we have a situation that is new to all of us. First period this morning, we will have an assembly to address what we expect from each of you. Thank you."

The room again got very quiet and everyone looked at Jason. He could feel the blush come to his face. Forcing a smile as he broke the quiet by saying, "That sounds like fun; I wonder what that could be about?"

The rest of the class laughed.

The homerooms were dismissed by grade to head to the auditorium. The freshmen classes were seated in the upper left hand section of the mezzanine area, sophomores in the center, juniors in the right, while the seniors were seated in the orchestra seats.

As they took their seats, Julie held Jason's hand and said to him, "Kelly, it's going to be ok."

"Thanks, I know it will. I just have to get through the next couple of days, and things should settle down."

Principal Martin soon called for their attention.

"Good morning everyone. As many of you know, this year we have a transgendered student that is enrolled in our school, undergoing real life trials. For those of you unfamiliar with the term, transgender refers to one of a number of things, but in general it refers to a person whose physical body's gender does not match their perception of who they are. It could be a born male that knows he is a female trapped in the body of a male, or a born female who knows they are really a male trapped in the body of a female. There are many theories as to what can cause this to occur. This condition is more common than you might think; though no one is certain how common. Although, it is often thought that it could be as high as ten percent. Even if it is not this high, in a school with an enrollment of around 1500 students, it is very likely that there are at least several other students that are transgendered. For many transgendered people, the anguish caused by the perceived gender and physical sex is very real. Changing the way that a person perceives themselves is very, very difficult, if not impossible. There are methods however, to allow the physical sex attributes to be changed, to bring the body and mind into harmony. As you might suspect, this is a rather drastic approach to resolving the problem, so transgendered people are required to live at least a year full time in their chosen gender role, before such a solution can be considered, since it is pretty much a one way street. This is referred to as their real life test. Our student is currently going through this test. I know that many of you are already aware of this, because most of your parents were at the school board meeting a few weeks ago. I also know that there were some very strong feelings, both positive and negative expressed at the board meeting, so we are going to review the guidelines."

Principal Martin paused for a moment and looked over the students.

"This is a place of learning and we welcome a diverse student body. No person shall be discriminated against on the basis of race, religion, gender or sexual preference. Our state law provides for this and we will uphold it as it is the basis for community. We will have ZERO TOLERANCE of harassment towards ANY student, and that includes this student. Let me make this perfectly clear, the staff has all been instructed to be vigilant about any form of harassment and action will be immediate. "

He again paused to allow that to sink in.

"Finally, if you have any questions or concerns about this, Mrs. Grey, the school psychologist, is available to meet with you on a one on one basis. You may also speak with any of the staff. Thank you for your attention. Hopefully we will have a great year."

With that, Mr. Martin walked off the stage and the teachers began letting the students leave the auditorium by class, first the seniors, then juniors, sophomores and finally the freshman.

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 53 - 55. The continuing story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgender nature, and his mostly supportive family.

Meanwhile, Julie, Kathy and Sue walked into the girl's locker room. As they walked in and searched for an open locker, Courtney Myers said, "Look out girls. Cover yourselves, unless you want Julie the dyke to see you naked."

Authors Note: Thanks to Joni W for editing this section for me!

Chapter 53

Jason's first class was Algebra. As he walked to his class everyone looked at him and people stopped talking as he came by. He was very much aware that he was the topic of conversation, how could it be otherwise, after the assembly. The whole school knew who he was, so it was so silly when the official communication referred to him as the Transgendered student.

So far he had not seen Brad, for which he was quite grateful, though he suspected it was too good to last. He was going to enjoy it as long as he could, though. He did know that he and Brad would not have any classes together. Brad and his father were on the hate mail list, and none of the students from those families were in any of Jason's classes. Fortunately this was a big enough school, with enough classes, that they could do so fairly easily.

That did not mean that he was not going to face students that did not approve, but at least the ones that had been passionate enough to send particularly nasty messages were not.

Kathy was in his Algebra class, and they sat together. The boys that came in carefully sat as far from Jason as they could, Jason wondered if they thought he was contagious. Some of the girls came over and said hello. Jason and Kathy smiled at them and said "Hello" back.

One girl in particular, Kirsten, looked at Jason and said, "Jason, I've known you since kindergarden, and I would never have thought that you were a girl. But damn, look at you. If I did not know you were not born a girl, I would never guess."

Kathy said firmly, "Kirsten, her name is Kelly now."

"Oh, I'm sorry, Jas… I mean Kelly. I had not heard that you had changed your name; though I suppose that makes sense, you really don't look like a Jason anymore. Really, you would think that would have been something Principal Martin should have told us, so we would know."

Jason could see from her expression that Kirsten had not meant to be offensive and in fact, she seemed offended that Principal Martin had pretty much insured such encounters.

"It's ok, Kirsten. I was just thinking about that myself. I felt a bit strange being referred to as 'the transgendered student' instead of as Kelly or even Jason."

"Maybe you should wear a name tag… you know, Hello — I'm Kelly Anderson." Kirsten and several of the other girls including Jason and Kathy chuckled.

"Not a bad idea you know." Kathy said, and then added, "I'd be willing to wear one too, so that you did not feel singled out."

Several of the other girls said, "I'll do it too."

"Great, but where are we going to get hello labels? By tomorrow it won't be necessary."

"They have to have something like that at the office." Kristen said. "Mr. Stokes, can I be excused to see if I can get some labels?"

"Make it quick, class is about to begin." Mr. Stokes said.

Kristen came back a few minutes later, and took a seat near Jason. She had a couple dozen sheets of 3 x 4 inch labels. She wrote on the first one, Hello I am Kirsten Carlin, and peeled it and placed it on her blouse. She passed several sheets to each of the girls that had agreed to help, and told them to spread it out in the rest of their classes.

Mr. Stokes brought them to his attention and began in on day one of Algebra.

The rest of the morning went by quickly, and Jason felt honored every time he came across another girl wearing a nametag. It was by no means all of the girls, but there were quite a few and he felt good knowing that he had some support.

At lunch, Jason and his friends sat down together.

"So, how is it going? Anyone had any real problems?" Sue asked.

John spoke up with a rueful look on his face, "I've had a few of the guys give me a hard time, saying that as Jason's best friend I had to have known about this and maybe I was gay. I pointed out that gay guys don't usually date beautiful women like you. They just said that since Julie is obviously into girls, or at least guys that want to be girls, that maybe Sue and Kathy are really dating, and Steve and I are together. So according to them, we are all just pretending so we can try to hide being gay."

"Ick…" All four of them said.

Jason said, "I'm sorry that you have to deal with this, it's my fault."

"Yes it is…" Steve said with a smile, "and don't think we are going to let you forget it."

"Gee, thanks."

"Don't worry about it, Kelly. The guys will get over it. Now if we did not have these lovely ladies to console us, I would probably have been a bit more likely to punch you in the nose, at least when you were still looking like Jason. Somehow, I can't see you as Jason anymore. After spending most of the summer with you as Kelly, it really is clear how much happier you are, this way. And really, if I had not known you all these years as Jason… I never would’ve suspect." John said.

As they sat and ate their lunches, Brad walked over to the table. "Well, well, lookie here, we have the queer table. Fags, dykes and its. Shit Jason, I always said you were a faggot, and here you are all dressed up in drag. So Julie, now I know why you were never interested in me, you’re a dyke, or maybe even worse, a wanna be dyke. You can't even go for real women; you go for fake women. Jason's not a man, but he ain't no woman either."

Julie looked at him and said, "Brad, you know what, maybe I'm bi, male, female it doesn't matter to me, which Kelly is, but I do insist on human, so I'm sorry you don't qualify. I don't date asses."

Most of the students that overheard the exchange from the surrounding tables laughed at this. Brad turned red and said, "You bitch! ..."

Brad started towards Julie, but was stopped by a hand on his shoulder.

Mr. Stokes said, "Mr. Johnson, I believe you were given a warning about staying away from Kelly and Julie? I suggest that you head back over to your own table before you get yourself suspended from school before we even finish out the first day."

Brad turned and looked at Mr. Stokes, and said, "Fine."

When Brad had gone Julie said, "Thank you, Mr. Stokes."

Mr. Stokes turned and said, "It's going to be a long year. But it will be longer still, if we don't nip this stuff in the bud right now. Let me know if he comes after you again."

Mr. Stokes went over to one of the other teachers, and then headed out of the lunchroom in the direction of the office. Another teacher soon came in to take his place.

When lunch was over, Jason, Julie, Kathy and Sue all had gym as their next class. Jason told them he would meet them after he changed, and he headed to the nurses office.

Mrs. Hammond was the school nurse. When Jason arrived in her office, she looked up and said, "Can I help you?"

"I'm Kelly Anderson; I need to use the bathroom here to get changed for gym." Jason told her.

Mrs. Hammond gave Jason a funny look, and said, "I guess we are going to be seeing a lot of each other this year."

"Yes, I suppose we are." Jason replied, not quite able to read her expression.

"Well, it is right over there. Do what you have to do." Mrs. Hammond said pointing at the bathroom door.

"Thanks." Jason said, and went into the bathroom to get changed.

Meanwhile, Julie, Kathy and Sue walked into the girl's locker room. As they walked in and searched for an open locker, Courtney Myers said, "Look out girls. Cover yourselves, unless you want Julie the dyke to see you naked."

Kathy said, "Courtney, if you are so worried about being seen naked, why do you walk around three quarters exposed all the time anyway? Is there anyone that you haven’t shown your boobs to?"

Kathy, Sue and Julie found three lockers together. Kathy and Sue deliberately made sure to take their time changing their tops and their bras, to their sports bras and gym shirts.

Julie made a point of keeping her focus on her locker while everyone changed.

After they changed they all found their way to the gym. Jason joined them there. Courtney once again determined to cause trouble, said, "Look it's in our class. I thought this was supposed to be girl's gym. Anyone got a hair pin we can use to pop those water balloon tits?"

A girl that neither Jason nor his friends had met before spoke up and said, "Give it a rest. I'm sure she is not the only girl in this class that is using a little bit of help. I think she is doing remarkably well." The new girl came up to Jason held out her hand and said, "Hi. I'm Meghan. I'm new here and I want to tell you I think that you are quite brave to face up to all of this nonsense. I hope that we can be friends."

Jason took her hand and said, "Thank you, Meghan. It's a pleasure to meet you. This is Julie, Kathy and Sue."

As they each acknowledged each other and Courtney watched them with disgust, Coach Evers came out of the locker room. "Ok girls, form a line."

After taking attendance she had them run three laps around the gym. Then she had them grab a field hockey stick and headed them outside to the field.

Jason had not played field hockey before, so it took him a while to get used to the feel of the stick. About half way through the class he started to get the hang of it and was heading up field toward the opposing goal, when Courtney took a huge swing at his legs, tripping him up. Jason fell to the ground and grabbed at his lower leg. Coach Evers blew her whistle and said, "Hey… None of that! Courtney, you know better! Go sit on the sidelines." Coach Evers came over to Jason and asked, "Are you alright? That was a pretty bad hit?"

Jason said, "I'll be fine, though I suspect I'm going to have a pretty good bruise from that soon."

"Let me see." Jason pulled his hands away, and pulled down his socks and it was clearly already bruising and swelling. "Alright, your done for today, head into the nurse and get an ice pack on that."

"Ok, Coach." Jason got up and started to limp off.

"Julie, help Kelly get to the nurse's office, then come on back."

Julie came letting Jason lean on her and together they made their way to the nurse's office. Coach Evers blew her whistle to start the game up again, then headed over to Courtney and spoke to her privately.

Chapter 54

In the nurse's office, Mrs. Hammond looked up and said, "Well that was a short class. What happened?"

Julie said, "Courtney took a hack at her with a field hockey stick. She needs an ice pack."

Mrs. Hammond had Jason sit on the bed, and had her show him his leg. "Yes, that is already swelling quite a bit, and I'm afraid will be quite bruised. Hold on, I'll get an ice pack."

"Kelly, you are not going to want to put your hose on when you get changed." Julie said.

"But I'll look ridiculous with that skirt without hose!" Jason replied.

"Kelly, it won't be that bad, and you will have the ice pack. Are you going to be able to walk to your next class?" Julie asked.

"I don't know."

"I'll come back and help you, just wait here for me, ok?" Julie said.

"Ok."

"I have to get back to class." Julie said.

"Go on, I'll be fine." Jason said. He squeezed Julie's hand lightly, and smiled at her.

Julie squeezed it back and then headed back to the field.

Mrs. Hammond came back from her storeroom with an ice pack and a towel. "Here, put this on the bruise. It will help."

"Thank you." Jason said.

Mrs. Hammond went back over to her desk and made some notes.

"Mrs. Hammond." Jason said.

"Yes?" she replied.

"I make you uncomfortable, don't I?" Jason said.

"To be honest, Kelly, yes you do. As a nurse, I have studied and understand and even can intellectually agree with the path you have chosen. But sometimes it is difficult to reconcile that with my own religious belief of right and wrong. Please don't misunderstand me, I am a professional Kelly, and I am aware enough of my own biases that I won't let them get in the way of treating you properly. I take my responsibility as a nurse very seriously, and my job is to ensure the safety of all of the students in this school. I promise you that I won't be your enemy, Kelly. No matter what my personal bias is, what Courtney did on the field to you was wrong. But I would be lying to you if I did not admit that you make me a little uncomfortable, if for no other reason than that you make me have to face my own biases."

"Thank you."

"For what?" Mrs. Hammond asked, slightly puzzled.

"For being honest with me. I am sorry to cause you discomfort, but I appreciate that you are honest enough with yourself and to me, and that you are a professional. I can't ask for more than that. I am going to be spending a lot of time in this office, getting changed, using the facilities, and I don't want either one of us to dread that time."

Chapter 55

That night Jason and his parents were sitting down to dinner. He had continued to have trouble with walking, and his mother had had to pick him up after school, as there was no way he was going to be able to walk the almost two miles to his home.

She had taken him to the clinic, and an X-ray showed that he had received a hairline fracture. So he now had a cast on his leg, and a set of crutches. Courtney had received a week of detention, and had been given a strong warning about any future incidents.

Jason's parents were of course concerned about the incidents with Brad and with Courtney, but they were heartened by some of the examples of support that Jason had received as well. His mother was very interested in his conversation with Mrs. Hammond, and said, "Give her a chance, it sounds like she is going to try, and it is worth it to give her that chance. But if you start to feel that having to go there every day is getting unbearably uncomfortable, let us know."

As they were finishing dinner and just about to clear the table, a large crash came from the living room. Jason's father raced to the living room and found that a large brick with a note tied around it that had been thrown through the big picture window. "Kristine, call the police. Kelly stay out of the living room!"

Richard raced to the front door and out side to see if he could see who had thrown the brick, but all he saw was a pick up truck racing down the hill. He headed back inside.

"Damn. I think that was Johnson's truck, but I can't swear to it." He said as he came back inside.

"The police are on their way, Richard."

"Good. Don't touch anything, especially that brick. Maybe they can get something off of it." He said.

Within minutes, the first squad car had arrived. Neighbors poked their heads out and came over to see what had happened. The officer asked everyone to please stay back, that the detectives were on their way and would probably have questions, if anyone saw anything.

When the detectives arrived, they came in and looked at the damage. They asked if anyone had been hurt, and then if anyone had touched anything, and Richard told them, "No. We were in the dining room, and we have not even read the note."

The detective put on latex gloves and then picked up the brick with the note. He carefully opened it up and saw that it said, "Faggot, get out of our school." It was made up of letters cut out from various newspapers. "Of course, everyone knows that is how you do it to not be traced, because everyone watches damned TV." He put the note into a plastic evidence bag, and the brick into another.

"Did you see anything?"

"No, unfortunately not. I saw a big pickup flying down the hill, but I can't swear that it was involved."

The detective went out and started questioning the neighbors.

He came back a bit later and said, "We might have gotten lucky. One of your neighbors noticed a big black pickup that doesn't belong in this neighborhood making several passes through here. So they wrote down its license plate number. I called it in, and guess what; it belongs to the Johnson's. We might finally have something to bring them in on."

Jason's Story

by Kristine Roland

Chapters 56 - 58. The final part of the story of Jason, a young boy that is coming to terms with his transgender nature, and his mostly supportive family.

"Well, look around. On the one hand this is a typical boy's room. The color scheme on the walls, the curtains, even the bedspread, are all very masculine. Then you have all of those sports posters. It looks quite a bit like my brothers room. Then you have your makeup mirror, all of your makeup, etc. on your desk. When we look in your closet you have a bunch of boys clothing shoved in the back and then you have all your new Kelly clothing. It looks like you are just visiting here and you're staying in this room, but it really isn't yours." Julie said.

Authors Note: Thanks to Joni W for editing this section for me!

Chapter 56

"That is good news." Richard Anderson said.

"It gets better. He said that when he got suspicious he went into his house and he peeked out through some curtains. He said that the pickup came around again, stopped in front of your house. A boy, maybe fifteen or sixteen, got out, took the brick and tossed it through your window. He saw the man egging on the boy and then gave him a high five when the boy jumped back in after breaking your window. He did not recognize them, so we will have him pick them out from a lineup."

"Who is the witness?" Richard asked.

"Mr. Weller," the detective replied and then added, "his statement is important, because assuming it really is Brad and his father, we can charge Brad with throwing the brick and we can charge his father with contributing to the delinquency of a minor, and possibly other things. The DA is already working on getting a warrant so we can pull them in and get Mr. Weller to ID them."

The next morning Mr. Anderson was outside with the glass repairmen, when Mr. Weller walked across the street and said, "Good Morning, Richard."

"Good morning, Sean. Excuse me one second," he said to Mr. Weller and then turned back to the repairmen and said, "Ok. Go ahead and fix it." He signed the estimate authorizing the work. Then he turned back to his neighbor.

"Sean, I have to thank you for coming forward last night."

"Richard, I know that you are aware that I am not comfortable with the decisions that you and your family have made regarding Jason and that as a devout Christian, I find it distasteful. However, violence is never the answer, and if I did not come forward, I would be just as guilty as that boy and his father. Also it needs to be stopped here and now, before it gets out of hand."

"Sean, I respect your beliefs. That is why I appreciate you even more, that you took a stand and spoke with the detective last night. I know there are those in this town that will not approve of your turning them in. Kelly has already been attacked at school and had her leg broken and now this with the window. As you said, it needs to stop here and now."

The two men shook hands and Mr. Weller headed across the street to his home.

Later that afternoon, the Andersons, Mr. West, Mr. Martin, Officer Dowling and the detective held a meeting at the High School.

Mr. West said, "Thank you all for coming here to the school. Obviously the first day of school did not go off quite as well as we had hoped it would. Kelly, I am sincerely sorry for what happened in gym class yesterday, I think you are aware that Courtney is serving after school and lunch time detentions all this week, and has been warned that any further incidents will result in suspension, and possibly expulsion. We are also aware of the incident at your home last evening, which is why the police have been invited. Can we get an update on that from you, detective?"

"Yes, Superintendant West. The warrants for Brad and his father were served this morning and they were charged with several counts. They of course denied that they were anywhere near your home last night and claimed to have been out of town. They were put into a lineup and Mr. Weller came and picked them out from the lineup. They have posted bail, and the DA is pushing to get at least Brad's case in front of the juvenile judge as soon as possible. We were also able to get some fingerprints off of the note. Funny they went to so much trouble to use newspaper clippings, but they just used a piece of notebook paper, probably from one of Brad's school notebooks. It was covered in fingerprints."

"Thank you, detective. Ok, so that leaves us with how do we protect Kelly and your family? I knew we had some strong opinions out there, but I really wasn't expecting this much violence in our town. I'm actually shocked by it." Mr. West said.

Officer Dowling said, "We are going to increase the frequency that our patrol cars go past the Anderson's house, for starters."

Mr. Anderson said, "At their urging, we are also looking into having security cameras installed to provide us with coverage, so that we don't have to rely on luck and Mr. Weller."

Mr. Martin said, "As for here at the school, I have already had an additional staff meeting and the staff will be even more vigilant. I know that Kelly was hurt in Gym yesterday. It would have been difficult to prevent that, since it was done as part of a field hockey match. Of course, at least for the next few weeks, as a result of that injury, Kelly will be excused from Gym. With the extra care in the halls and classrooms, I believe she is safe here at the school. My bigger concern is the walk to and from school. There is very little we can do to protect her on her way home."

"Well for the moment, I have had to arrange for her to get a ride, to and from school anyway, since she is not about to walk two miles on crutches. She should be safe enough, at least for now." Mrs. Anderson said, and then she asked, "I have to say gentlemen; I'm more than a little scared right now. The violence yesterday was fairly mild. How do we keep it from escalating?"

"All we can do is be on the alert. From what I heard from the staff, the one good thing about what happened yesterday and last night is that the reaction of the vast majority of the students was that no matter what they think of Kelly, that Courtney and Brad were over the top. That swings sentiment towards Kelly. More importantly, peer pressure is very strong. Courtney found herself being given the cold shoulder by the vast majority of the student body today. I suspect Brad would have too, but he was not in school today. That will help deter future outbreaks." Mr. Martin replied.

"Mom, I have to agree with that. I can't tell you how many of the people, that were downright cold to me yesterday, came up to me and told me they were sorry for what had happened. Not everyone of course, but it was noticeable."

"Kristine, we are going to have to just see this through."

"I know, Richard, but Kelly is sitting here with a broken leg, we had our house attacked last night, what makes anyone think this is going to just stop?"

"No one has said that it is going to stop, Kristine. We have to take every precaution we can, and make sure we don't let them have an opportunity for anything more."

They all just sat there quietly.

"Mom, I have friends in every one of my classes. They are not going to let anyone hurt me without a fight, and I can take care of myself. I did so as Jason, and I will do so as Kelly."

"You shouldn't have to!"

"No Mom, I shouldn't. I should not have been betrayed by my Aunt and my cousin either; but I was. I forgive them, because I won't sink into their hatred and bitterness. I'm going to hold my head high, and face whatever comes. I have to do this Mom."

"Kris… I'm as worried as you are, but Kelly is right. She can't let them chase her away from here. She would not be able to respect herself. Everyone in this room is committed to keeping her safe. We will just have to be vigilant."

Kristine looked at them all and finally said with a sigh, "Fine. But Kelly, you have to promise me that any form of harassment needs to be reported. If things start to escalate, we need to know about it and figure out how to make sure to keep you safe. Is that clear?"

"Yes, Ma'am, it is perfectly clear."

Chapter 57

"So what do you think of high school so far, Kelly?" Julie asked. They were sitting in the Anderson's kitchen, working on their homework.

"Oh, you know, boring. Nothing exciting has happened yet." They both chuckled.

"Well, I'm finished with my homework now. Why don't we go into your room and pop on a CD?"

"That sounds good to me."

They packed up their homework, grabbed their soft drinks and headed into Jason's room. As Julie looked around, she said, "You know Kelly, it's kind of funny coming into your room."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, look around. On the one hand this is a typical boy's room. The color scheme on the walls, the curtains, even the bedspread, are all very masculine. Then you have all of those sports posters. It looks quite a bit like my brothers room. Then you have your makeup mirror, all of your makeup, etc. on your desk. When we look in your closet you have a bunch of boys clothing shoved in the back and then you have all your new Kelly clothing. It looks like you are just visiting here and you're staying in this room, but it really isn't yours."

"I see what you mean. I kind of feel like that sometimes. I have been Jason my whole life and I've only really been Kelly for a couple of months. On the one hand, I feel really, really, comfortable as Kelly. I can relax and be myself; I don't have to be this macho 'boy.' But I don't feel like a different person, it's more like I feel like myself. I like being called Kelly; it makes me feel accepted. But I always have to stop to realize what it means to me. You know yesterday, Kirsten called me Jason and it was Kathy that jumped all over her for it. I remember thinking at the time; it was funny that she was bothered by it more than I was. I was fully expecting people to call me Jason still, after all, how would they know what to call me. You know, I never really thought about a new name until Mom said I would need one the day we went to the mall, and you caught me."

"Well you sure don't look like a Jason now."

"I know that. But Jules, I have to admit, part of me is scared. Sometimes I feel that taking this new name is a loss of me, Jason, like by changing my name to Kelly, I'm not going to be me, Jason, anymore. I don't know how to explain it."

"You know, I might understand. Mom and I talked about something similar once. She told me that it was really tough for her when she got married. She had been Shelly Gartner her whole life, and when she married dad, she gave that up and became Shelly Sanders. She said it really bothered her, like she was losing her identity. She seriously considered keeping her name. But as you know, mom and dad are pretty conservative, and daddy would have felt incredibly rejected by that, so she did it. I wonder, if what you are feeling is similar?"

"Maybe. I'll let you know if I feel the same when I marry you and have to give up Anderson." Jason said with a grin.

Julie looked startled, and then laughed. "Well that would make my parents heads spin again. Don't tell them that, there still trying to get used to us, as it is!"

"Your parents have actually been great. Much better then you thought they would be."

"Yes, I suppose they have. I guess I was wrong and it probably would have been better if I had just talked to them myself. A good part of the worst of it was, that they were upset about that blasted picture."

"You should remember that the next time you have something to tell them you don't think they are going to like."

"Yeah, you're right." She conceded.

Chapter 58

"How are you feeling, Kelly? You had quite a welcome into High School, I hear." Dr. Daniels asked.

"I'm fine. It was a rough first day, but it has settled down some, since."

"Well that is good to hear. Yet, you look troubled, is there something you want to talk about?"

Jason told him about his conversation with Julie about names, his room, and who he was.

"So do you think that you are just visiting?" Dr. Daniels asked.

"No, I don't. I can't see going back."

"Ok. What is the real change? What is the difference between being Jason and being Kelly?"

"Nothing, really. Two names for the same person."

"But there is a difference, think about it."

"To me, there isn't. I'm Jason, I'm Kelly, my likes and dislikes are the same either way."

"Ok, if that is the case, just keep the name Jason."

"I can't! I can't tell people that I'm Jason, when I'm dressed like this."

"Why not, it's your name and there isn't a difference?"

"Because they won't accept me as Jason, it would just make things more difficult."

"But they will accept you as Kelly?"

"Not necessarily, but it is certainly more likely."

"Why?"

A dawning of comprehension came on Jason's face, "Because, they perceive me differently as Kelly, then Jason."

"Yes they do."

"So the difference between being Kelly and being Jason has to do with their perceptions of who I am?"

"Yes. But what does that matter to you?"

"Because how they perceive me dictates how I'm treated."

"Correct. How do you want to be treated? Do you want to be treated as Kelly, or as Jason? You are the same person, but how do you want others to treat you?"

"I never thought of it like that."

"Well, our time is up. I suggest that you think about it."

Jason tossed and turned in his bed later that evening. He kept thinking about his conversations with Dr. Daniels, and Julie.

"Who am I?" He thought to himself.

"Am I a boy, am I a girl? Am I both? What do I want?" Jason thought hard about how he wanted to be perceived. He tried to think of what he missed about being Jason, these past couple of months. He could not think of anything. "I am me!" He thought.

"Yes, but who am I?"

"I am Jason," he thought, picturing himself as a boy.

"I am Kelly," he thought, as he pictured himself as a girl, he started to get a warm happy feeling.

"I am Jason," he tried again, the happy feeling diminished, replaced by a decidedly uncomfortable feeling in his gut.

"I am Kelly. I am Kelly." The warm happy feeling returned.

"Who am I? I am Kelly." The warm happy feeling continued to build. "I am Kelly."

"I am me, and I AM Kelly!" With a crescendo of emotion, the warm happy feeling became an overwhelming wave of acceptance.

"I AM KELLY," Kelly shouted.

She shot out of bed, grabbed her bathrobe, and hobbled on her bad leg to the kitchen. She opened the cabinet under the sink and got out the large black trash bags.

"Kelly, what is going on? Are you ok?" Her mother asked looking frightened.

"I'm great Mom. I AM Kelly!" She said crying.

"I know you are honey, but what are you doing? Why are you crying?"

"I'm happy Mom. I am just really, happy. I know who I am; I'm me! I'm still me, but I am Kelly! I need to bag up Jason's clothes. I'm not just visiting, I'm here to stay and I want my room to be my room."

"What are you talking about?"

"Mom, I love being Kelly, but I was afraid that I was going to lose myself. It's funny, I yelled at Dad for treating me like I was somebody else just because I was Kelly, but I think it was because I was afraid of it too and did not want to think about it. It was keeping me from really accepting myself. But no more, I AM Kelly and I am still me. I'm not going back, and I need to bag up all of Jason's clothes, and purge them. We can give them to good will."

"Can't it wait until morning?"

"No, it can't. I have to do it right now."

"Let me get my bathrobe, I'll come and help."

"No, I need to do this myself. Mom, I want to redecorate my room; I'm here to stay! Can you help me with that? I don't want it to be a boy's room anymore."

"It might take some time; we can certainly make some changes that will make it yours."

"I love you, Mom." Kelly gave her mother a big hug.

It did not take her long to bag up all of Jason's clothing. She took the bags out of her room and down the stairs to the garage and left them by the car. She said, "Goodbye, Jason."

She turned around without looking back and went to HER room.

Authors Note:

This is where Jason's Story comes to an end, and Kelly's story begins. I'm not sure what the sequel will be called, since there is a Kelly's Journey already on the site, I will try to come up with something different to avoid confusion. Thanks to everyone that has given me encouragement and feedback, I hope that you have enjoyed, Jason's journey to Kelly. Kelly certainly has lots of trials ahead of her, and that will continue in the sequel.

I want to especially thank Joni W for all her help in editing each section since she took on that job. I truly appreciate her efforts!

Kristy