Author's Note: This is a Non-TG Story.
One minute I was driving along Highway 20, just outside La Porte, Indiana, when—in the next instant—all existence seemed to blink out and then I was sitting on the shoulder of an unpaved road, engine running and transmission in neutral. Dense forest was all around me, a stark contrast to the rolling, sparsely wooded hills of Indiana. I touched my forehead, feeling a bit disoriented, when—again, suddenly—everything seemed to snap into place. I was now in the northern section of Michigan’s lower peninsula. To be more specific, I was now on an unimproved dirt road in the western corner of Custer Township in Mason County. Don’t ask how I knew where I was. I just knew, it was as simple as that. That talent has always been with me.
I put the car in gear and glanced in the side mirror to be sure there wasn’t any traffic barreling up behind me. Wait a minute. I frowned and turned off the car’s ignition.
Someone had hitched a U-Haul trailer to the back of my car.
I got out of the car and took a look at it. The trailer was one of the old-style ones, painted with that dull, lusterless silver paint and had the age-faded orange stripe. I hadn’t seen a trailer like that in years. Where had I picked this one up? I looked up and down the road but no explanation came to me. Obviously, I must have rented it from someone—Right? But when or how…? As far as I knew, no one on this planet made a hitch for my limited-production sports car. I knelt between the trailer and the rear bumper. The hitch assembly was neatly welded to the car’s frame. Pretty slick. Professionally done. I shook my head. Why on Earth would I want to hitch a trailer to this car? Had they gotten so close that I hadn’t had time to find the proper vehicle for towing the trailer?
I stood and brushed the dirt from my jeans. This didn’t feel right. But I remembered that I was late. I had an appointment to keep…somewhere. I climbed back into my car and reached up to grab the handhold and closed the forward-hinged, vertically opening door. I reached over the center console and opened the glove compartment. I riffled through the papers but found nothing new. Just license, registration and insurance papers. I had hoped that I would have found a trailer invoice or something.
I restarted the engine and checked the gauges on the instrument panel. The car was prone to overheating and electrical problems. Over the years I have managed to fix most of the car’s design flaws but the electrical stuff still gives me troubles. Electronic Technology is not one of my fortes—my talents lie in other areas—but I have always considered myself as a sort of “patron saint” of the technologies. I’ve promoted their advances again and again, time out of mind. I pulled out onto the dirt road and accelerated carefully—mindful of the trailer behind me, of course.
Five miles and I reached paved highway. The notion I was running late had grown to a conviction, so I turned northwest, shifted through the gears and pegged the speedometer needle. Scenery sped by in a blur. It was very rural; dense forests and some cleared areas which were all deserted. Nobody much seemed to be out and about. In fact, no one at all. The houses I passed all seemed to be abandoned and in various stages of disrepair. Then, up ahead, some buildings appeared. In front of the buildings, at the edge of the roadway, was an old, faded and rust-streaked service station sign with a faded green dinosaur painted on it. I felt an immediate sense of recognition.
This place was my destination.
I slowed the car and pulled in. Three buildings, grouped together. I parked the car next to the concrete island with rusted pumps. I shut off the engine and got out of the car. The glass faces of all the gas pumps had been broken out a long time ago. No one was here to greet me. I looked toward the other two buildings to the left of the station. Concrete block, commercial structures with large front windows. The first was an abandoned grocery. The second had been some sort of implement store--farm or hardware, I wasn’t sure. A summer’s worth of grass had grown up around all of the buildings and grew from every crack in the asphalt around me. The air was hot and still. I didn’t like it. Sweat was forming on my face, arms, and forehead. The dust, which had been stirred up when I’d pulled in, settled on my skin like a gritty talc. I felt an angry irritation begin to flow through me.
I hate the heat. I hate sweat and the accompanying feeling of being dirty and grubby. Bad memories of the days of being a crippled shepherd boy and only being able to bathe monthly, if at all. I shook off the memories and headed toward the implement store to look around. The door had been removed long ago and some sort of plywood substitute had been clumsily put in to take its place. It was damp and rotted, so I just sort of kicked it out of the way with my good foot, which felt good. It took some of the edge off. And it was cooler inside. Well, maybe not, but at least I was out of the sun. I let my eyes adjust to the darkness—the absence of the sun’s glare—and looked around.
No one.
Strange. I was certain someone was going to be waiting here. Waiting for me. Someone I knew. Well, no matter. I headed toward the open back door of the building. I had thought, when I first assessed the building’s interior, that the back door had been propped open somehow, long ago. But as I got closer, I could see that the door and hinges had been removed entirely. And recently. Had it been removed as a sort of invitation, I asked myself. Removed in the hope that I would just walk through it and become at that moment outside, an exposed target? Dazzled and blinded momentarily by the bright sunlight? These were cynical, distrustful and foreboding thoughts—ones to which I am usually unaccustomed to thinking. I’m normally an easy-going, trusting, laidback kind of guy. Ask anyone. I looked outside and found that I needn’t have bothered. No one was out there. It was just as deserted as the rest of the place had been.
I turned and walked back to the front of the building and found that she was waiting for me outside, next to the car.
Instead of going out, I stayed inside the building and watched her. I knew her, or rather, I have known her, since a time long before. I studied her carefully. She was different, somehow. Taller, I thought. I watched as she opened the car’s semi-gull wing door. She’d been with me when I had purchased it, so many ages ago. Her hair was different, too. It was still long and flowing and wild and red—but the texture and look of it was different.
A confused wave of emotions rose inside me and, for a moment, almost overwhelmed me. It was difficult to sort them all out, but a part of me was pleased to see her again—we owed each other so much—while a different part of me was alarmed, while and a third and fourth part put forth equal amounts of distrust and misgiving. I chewed my lip and wondered how to proceed. I was going to have to be very careful and my instincts weren’t giving me much in the way of guidance.
She was wearing everyday clothes. She had her back to me and I took a moment to admire the curve of her back, hips, and thighs. Since she wasn’t facing me, I couldn’t see her eyes, but I remembered that they were an odd shade of blue. They were changeable, like the weather. One moment they could be a dark and unfathomable blue, and then her mood or the light would change and they would be green, the color of the sea before a storm.
I scanned the parking lot but my car was still the only one there. Had she walked to our meeting place? Maybe. From where? I didn’t know. I did know that she hadn’t been here when I had arrived because I would have sensed her presence. I remembered my moment of unease inside the implement building. Perhaps that was when she had arrived.
I stepped from the doorway and she whirled to face me. The movement was fluid and lithe, like a ballerina, and there was a flash of light as a knife appeared in her left hand. Then she recognized me and the knife seemed to fold in upon itself and it disappeared. There was a story from way back that she’d been born with it. It was the reason for the redness of her hair. An omen. Like the rose which wept bloody tears for the lover whose heart she had cut.
“Hello, Jake,” she said and smiled. “I was beginning to worry that something had happened to you.”
“And I, you,” I replied. “It’s been a long time.”
She nodded. “Several lifetimes.” She looked me up and down. “How’s the leg?”
I resisted the urge to look down at it. “The same as ever.”
“Things never change, I guess, much as we would like.” She glanced at the car. “You kept the car.”
I shrugged my shoulders. “It’s quick and it’s fast. There was no reason to throw it away.”
She nodded again. I knew that she was just talking this way to give herself time to study me—as I had studied her. She looked behind me. “Have you checked all the buildings?”
“Of course,” I replied. "They’re clear, but someone’s been in one of them recently.”
“Good. It’s nice you’re showing caution for a change. You weren’t always that way.”
I shrugged my shoulders. “Some people have the ability to change.”
“Yes,” she said. “And others don’t.” But she didn’t give me a chance to react to that. After saying it, she immediately turned and motioned toward the car. “Shall we be going? It’s not wise to remain in one place too long.”
“Okay.” I pulled the keys from my hip pocket and tossed them to her. “You drive.”
She nodded as she deftly plucked the keys from the air and we climbed into the car. She started the engine and spun the tires as we pulled onto the roadway. There was a sharp rattle of protest as gravel from the tires ricocheted off the metal panels of the trailer and she laughed at my sudden curse to be careful.
“Cars are just tools, Jake,” she said, shaking her head so that her hair seemed to crackle around her. “They’re made to be used and then thrown away.”
I said nothing. I knew better than to challenge her opinion when she was on edge. She was like me that way. It reminded me of a story I used to tell, of a strongman who thought he was so strong that he challenged the rule of the gods. The gods, being the jealous types that they are, had reacted quickly. They sent one of their own, disguised in the form of a crippled, young boy—a goatherd, dirty with long, ragged, uncut hair, with a longhaired red dog who was always at his side. The boy challenged the strongman to a fight and they fought for two days and two nights. Then—on the third day—the boy broke the strongman’s back and left him to die in a field. It’s said that where the strongman’s blood fell, the grass withered and never grew there again, to mark the spot where the arrogant folly of the challenge of man suffered swift retribution from on high.
Or so they say. But...well, that’s not the way it actually happened.
Her name is Fiona, by the way. It’s a Celtic name, old—older than my own—meaning white, or fair of skin. Pity it doesn’t mention her red hair. That is her best feature. Much more attractive than her flawless skin.
A change in the engine note brought me out of my reverie. Ahead, maybe two miles, on the other side of a small rift in the landscape, were a pair of vehicles. They were parked on either side of the roadway, facing our direction.
I glanced at Fiona and said, “Trouble?”
She nodded her head, her red hair crackling.
I stared at the cars through the windshield. Nothing around them appeared to be moving as a shimmering haze began to fill the air ahead of us. I glanced out of the corner of my eye at Fiona. Her face was intent, her concentration on the road in front of us an almost physical thing.
“Which way, Jake?” she asked. She looked at me. Her eyes had turned an intense shade of blue. “Right or left?”
I looked at the car’s speedometer. Almost fifty miles an hour. She would have to slow down if we were to make a ninety-degree turn. I looked ahead. A half-mile to the bottom of the hill. The two cars ahead of us now moved, their shapes distorting as they left the road’s shoulder and entered the haze which was now thickening to obscure the roadway. They accelerated toward us.
“Come on!” Fiona’s voice acquired an almost animal-like snarl. “Which way? Right or left?!”
I took a deep breath and everything seemed to slow down. Ahead, a crossroad seemed to appear, chewing through the landscape. Its edges were illuminated by sparkling lines of intense blue light. I sighed. Every pathway has a choice. Right or Left. Life or Death. Always a knife’s edge of choice between the two. I felt very tired.
“Left,” I said. My voice seemed to come to me from someplace far away.
Fiona didn’t hesitate. She spun the steering wheel and the sports car’s low-profile tires howled in savage protest. There was a lot of loose dirt and gravel on the pavement where the crossroad had cut across the roadway. The front wheels of the car slid a little as they hit it, then chirped as they bit into the asphalt and regained traction. Then the rear wheels hit the gravel and we fishtailed before they, too, regained their grip on the blue-limned asphalt. I half-turned in my seat to see if the trailer was going to make it with us, or flip over and snap the hitch.
We were lucky. The trailer slipped sideways, off the pavement and onto the dirt shoulder of the road without overturning. I looked forward again as Fiona downshifted and we accelerated. The car jumped and a wave of distortion flowed through us as we drove through the wall of blue light and followed the crossroad away from the main roadway. I turned back again to look. The wall of light was collapsing upon itself as the two black cars appeared behind us.
“They made it through,” I commented.
“What?!” Fiona snarled the question like it was an expletive.
“They managed to follow us through the portal,” I replied.
I settled into my seat and continued to watch the cars behind us through the passenger door’s side mirror. We were in Michigan no longer. Where—exactly—we were now, I couldn’t say. It was extremely hilly. The crossroad’s asphalt was cracked and broken as it followed the contours of the landscape. It clung to the sides of the hills and then dropped down their sides in steep, sweeping descents.
The two black cars started closing on us. Fiona increased our speed and the tires howled as we took every decreasing radius turn, but it wasn’t enough. The shocks began bottoming on every dip, scraping the undercarriage. The flat six engine was also howling as Fiona overrevved the engine to coax a little more speed from the car, but the cars of our pursuers were faster. Bigger engines, perhaps, or maybe it was because of the deadweight of the trailer we were pulling. Either way, if we didn’t do something, they would catch us within the next mile.
“Well?” Fiona asked.
I looked at her hands. Her knuckles were white and I could see the muscles working in her arms as she tried to keep control of the car. We couldn’t force another crossroad. There are just some rules you have to obey. But we needed something. We needed an edge.
Luck? I thought. I turned slightly in my seat to face her. “Turn onto the next dirt road,” I instructed.
She looked back into my eyes and grinned. She’d guessed what I was thinking. “Dirt would be an advantage,” she replied, her voice edged with excitement. “We would kick up a hell of a lot of dust and unless our pursuers have x-ray vision, they will have to slow down."
“Be ready,” I said. “If it happens, it will happen fast!”
“I’ll have to slow down,” Fiona pointed out.
“Whatever,” I replied. “I don’t think they’ll ram us.”
“And once in the dirt—off this stinking asphalt—we’ll be home free. We’ll either outrun them, or we’ll reverse direction and catch them in an ambush.” She nodded her head in satisfaction.
We crested the next hill and there it was, right in front of us. We didn’t have time to think. Just react. Fiona slammed on the brakes and the tires screamed as the trailer’s weight caused the trailer hitch to act as a fulcrum and push the rear of the car sideways. I grabbed the edges of my seat as Fiona spun the steering wheel to the left in an effort to keep the car and trailer from jackknifing. I closed my eyes. This wasn’t going to work. I could hear the car’s chassis protest as she pumped the brakes hard, locking the wheels and then releasing them, in an effort to spin us out of our sideways stance. It didn’t work. We continued our skid and I knew it was only a matter of seconds before a tire blew, a strut snapped, or a shock tower collapsed. Then we hit the ditch and came to an abrupt stop.
I was thrown against the seat belt and shoulder harness and then bounced back against the seat. We both reacted instinctively, unsnapping our seat belts and shoulder harnesses.
“Go!” I said as I reached across her and pulled her door release. Her blade appeared in her hand as I turned and opened my own door, using the power in my arms to lever myself up and out of the car.
There were six of them, three from each of the black cars. My boot twisted on my crippled foot as I got out of the car and I went down. I heard Fiona’s cry of attack as I rolled to a half-standing, half-kneeling position. They had divided themselves into two groups. Two men were attacking Fiona while the rest came to attack me.
One of the men circling Fiona was already dripping blood from a deep gash on his forearm. I dodged a kick toward my bad leg and gave that man the honor of being first. I came up with a rush and caught him with an uppercut which lifted him from the ground. Power flowed through my limbs, sweeping away the centuries of civilization and replacing them with something more savage, immediate, and primal. I didn’t have time to savor the feeling though, because two of the man’s compatriots grabbed my arms from either side.
I shook them off and then I spun, kicking backward with the reinforced boot of my crippled leg and caught one of them in the stomach. The blow knocked the wind from him, cracking his ribs and folding him in two. I was attacked again as I stood with my leg at full extension and I was knocked down. I struggled, losing one of my boots. I backhanded someone, breaking his nose, and rolled to my feet. I was badly off-balance without the thickened, reinforced sole under me, and someone threw something at me—a rock, perhaps. It missed my head as I lurched forward, but it struck me in the shoulder, hard.
The pain set free the rage coursing inside me and completed the transformation to the older, more original, me.
I grabbed the man’s wrist and snapped it as I jerked him toward me. I roared as I felt the bones grind together and heard the man scream. He tried to get away but I wasn’t done with him yet. I took a deep breath, grabbed a leg and a shoulder, and raised him above my head. Then I turned and slammed him against the side of the trailer. I felt the anger flowing through me like a living thing. I picked the man up and threw him against the trailer again. And again. And again. Then someone grabbed my arm and I swung around, furious.
I stopped my fist just inches from Fiona’s face.
“Stop,” she said, putting both of her hands over my clenched fist. “Enough. Stop it now.”
We stood like that for several minutes, until my breathing slowed, the anger bled away, and I could finally unclench my fingers.
“Okay,” I said and she let go of my hand. “Let’s take the car and get out of here.”
She nodded and the keys appeared magically in her hand. “How long before they find us again?”
“Not long,” I replied. “Maybe days. Maybe a couple of years—if I haven’t spent all our luck.” I looked at the bodies strewn upon the ground. “I don’t recognize any of them,” I said. “Not a one.”
“They’re the new gods,” she replied. “The old ones you once knew have all gone away.”
I looked at her. “So why haven’t they given up?” I asked. “All I asked for was three things. The last was for them to leave me alone and in peace.”
“But you didn’t stop doing what you do.”
“If they had left me alone, I would have!” I snapped.
“But you didn’t and war and destruction have followed you wherever you go.”
I waved my hand, dismissing her argument. “It’s their meddling which caused it all in the beginning.”
“Gods have huge, massive egos, Jake. They don’t like to be crossed.” She shot me a look of cold amusement. “You should know that.” She cocked her head to one side. “Did you really think that stupid story about the crippled shepherd boy upholding their power was going to assuage their anger at what you did?”
I ground my teeth, feeling the anger start again. “It was a good story! But they reneged on the deal.”
“Which part?” she asked, studying me carefully.
“The part about letting me stay a god.”
“But they did let you stay a god,” she said and laughed in my face. “You’re the god whom the other gods have pledged to destroy—until the end of time.”
“Words!" I gave her a sour look and wiped at the blood which was still flowing from the cut from where the rock had hit me. Then I muttered a sullen, "oh...whatever!" and then, "Let's go."
I drew a sign in blood on the trailer—for luck—and then Fiona and I got into the car. She started the engine and we jumped…someplace…other than here.
Author's Note: This is a sequel to my Non-TG Novel, Missing Without A Trace: A Kelly Mitchell Mystery by Charles Schiman.
This is also a non-tg novel. However, I am a male writing the novel first-person as a female. And I created Kelly as the female person I thought I could have become--my alter ego, if you will--had I been born a girl.
The first novel, Missing Without A Trace: A Kelly Mitchell Mystery, is available for purchase online as a Nook Book at the Barnes and Noble Nook Store.
Author's Note: This is a sequel to my Non-TG Novel, Missing Without A Trace: A Kelly Mitchell Mystery by Charles Schiman.
This is also a non-tg novel. However, I am a male writing the novel first-person as a female. And I created Kelly as the female person I thought I could have become--my alter ego, if you will--had I been born a girl.
The first novel, Missing Without A Trace: A Kelly Mitchell Mystery, is available for purchase online as a Nook Book at the Barnes and Noble Nook Store.
“Hi,” I said, “I’m Kelly Mitchell.”
I smiled as I greeted the family as they entered the Cooper Air hangar. I was really feeling good that morning. I had, in fact, awakened that morning feeling wonderful, cheerful, wide awake even before my two cups of mandatory instant coffee before breakfast. I glanced across the half-empty floor of the hangar and felt the corners of my mouth quirk up into a happy grin as I pointed at the old boat-hulled amphibian—my old Grumman Goose—gleaming in the bright light pouring in through the hangar’s open main doors. I pointed to it and added, “And that’s the plane which will be taking you to the campsite of your vacation.”
The Olsens—the family in question—stood there for a split second, looking at the aircraft, taking in the arching expanse of the hangar, the gleaming white and blue-trimmed high-winged twin-engine aircraft with its boat hull fuselage and floats suspended downward a couple of feet inboard of the ends of each wing; and then they smiled, too. I was hoping that they felt that everything looked just the way they had pictured it in their imaginations when Jack Piper had suggested Cooper Air to them as the perfect outfit to handle their proposed one-week vacation on the shores of an isolated northern wilderness lake.
“That is a beautiful plane,” Mister Olsen commented, nodding his head. “I’ve never seen one like it before.”
“It was built back in the late nineteen-thirties by Grumman Aircraft,” I replied. “It was refurbished and modernized number of times before my father acquired it. Its present engines are more powerful than the ones Grumman originally used and the fuselage was beefed-up and strengthened and the passenger windows enlarged. It can carry eight passengers plus cargo.” I paused and then added, “It’s not as fast as modern floatplanes but is very easy to fly and is very stable when moving on the water. I love flying her.”
“Cool,” the daughter commented. She was a little shorter than I was, maybe ten or eleven years old, thin as a rail, full of energy, and cute. “Mister Piper told us that he taught you how to fly and that you can fly a plane better than he can!”
I felt my face turning red. “Well, I don’t know about that,” I said. I looked at her father, “I don’t know how well you know Jack Piper, but he’s a great pilot in his own right around here.”
“Did you really catch a gang of kidnappers and rescue everyone?” the girl asked, interrupting her father’s answer. I felt my face getting more red.
“Annie,” he said quietly, “You know Mister Piper said that Miss Mitchell would probably not want to talk to anybody about that.”
“But, he said—”
I raised my hand. “It’s okay.” I turned to her and said, “Jack was probably exaggerating when he told you about that.” I looked at her parents. “I was part of the group that was taken hostage by them. I managed to get loose and make it to one of the planes and call for help. It really wasn’t anything extraordinary.”
“What about the grenades and shooting at ‘em with machine guns?” Annie demanded.
“Um—what?” I said, startled and looked at her parents. “Jack told you about that?”
They nodded. The mother looked amused and said, “He made it all sound very impressive and very exciting.”
I ran a hand through my hair nervously. “Well, it wasn’t like I was running around with an M-16 in each hand—I was just trying to get them to stop shooting at me.” Then I added, “Jack’s always thought of himself as kind of an Indiana Jones type wilderness bush pilot, so I think he might have been projecting a little there when he was telling you about me. I’m really more of a quiet, by-the-book type who doesn’t like looking for trouble.”
“Can I look at the inside of the plane?” Annie asked.
I grinned at her. “Sure, why not! I’ll even let you sit in the pilot’s seat.” I looked at her father. “If that’s okay with you, Mister Olsen.”
“Call me Jim,” he replied and gestured toward the plane with an open hand. “Lead on, Miss Mitchell.”
“Call me Kelly.”
“Okay.”
“And you can call me Charlotte,” Mrs. Olsen said. She was taller than I was, with long hair, blonde, like her daughter. “Or ‘Charlie,’ for short.”
I nodded and led the way into the plane, showing them the handholds, so that they could easily climb in through the rear passenger door. The amphibian only has the one rear door for people to get in and out of the aircraft. The designers had forgone adding forward doors to the fuselage in order to make the boat hull as strong as possible—to withstand the shock and stress of water landings.
I showed them the aircraft, starting at the rear, pointing out the passenger seat accommodations and the various cargo and equipment compartments built into the interior walls inside the aircraft. We moved forward into the cockpit and I motioned for Annie to place herself in the pilot’s seat. I slid into the copilot’s seat next to her. As she wiggled into the seat, Annie noticed the twin sets of foot pedals in front of each seat.
“How come two sets?” she asked. “Is it so if one of you guys gets taken out, the other can take over and fly the plane?”
“Yep, pretty much,” I said and nodded my head. “If you look at the instrument panel, you’ll see that pretty much everything is duplicated on each half of the panel. Same idea with the control wheels—which are called ‘yokes.”
“Yokes?” she looked at me.
“Yes. The whole assembly is called a yoke. That’s because the control wheels are not for turning right or left, like in a car. The control wheels control the ailerons, which cause the plane to bank left or right. The yoke also slides forward and back, too, to control the plane’s upward and downward movement, through the horizontal wing on the tail which is called an elevator.” Then I pointed to the pedals below her feet. “And those pedals are not for the clutch and gas.”
“They’re not?” She looked at me for a moment. Then, when I didn’t say anything further, she asked, “Okay, what are they used for?”
“When you turn the control wheels, the plane banks to go into a turn. But the rudder is controlled by the pedals. The pedals are actually attached to a horizontal rod and the pilot uses his or her feet to turn the whole pedal assembly while he or she turns the control wheel and that is what makes the plane go into a controlled turn.”
Annie nodded her head and frowned, looking straight ahead through the windshield in concentration. She gripped the pilot’s control tightly with both hands and turned the wheel slowly, in a tentative turn. I glanced down and smiled. Her toes were straining to touch the pedals and she was activating the tail rudder carefully in time with the movement of her hands. Without breaking her concentration, she said, “You look different than in your pictures.”
My smile was replaced by an expression of confusion. Pictures? “What do you mean?”
She turned her head to look at me and smiled. “On the internet. When Dad first talked to Mister Piper about a wilderness vacation and he suggested hiring you, I Googled you on the computer. Your hair looks different. Your face, too, somehow.”
My hand went to my hair and then I touched my cheek. “I’m wearing my hair a little longer now.”
“How’s that working out? I find it a bother—it keeps getting in my face.”
I chuckled. “The jury’s still out about that. But you’re right,” I said and gave my head a little shake, “any kind of breeze and my hair wants to either get in my eyes or go in my mouth!”
She laughed with me and then her expression became serious. “Your head injury. It was serious, wasn’t it?”
I nodded. “Yes, it was. I spent almost two months in the hospital before they let me go home. I’ve only been flying again for a couple of months.”
“But you’re okay now?”
I nodded my head emphatically. “As right as rain.”
“Good. I was worried.”
“Don’t be. Everything is just fine.” Then I slapped my hands against my thighs and said, “What do you say to getting out of the plane and I’ll show you and your parents the lake where you’ll be spending your vacation?”
We got up and headed out of the cockpit. I wasn’t really surprised to find that Jim and Charlie Olsen had taken the two passenger seats immediately aft of the cockpit and had been sitting there listening to us the whole time. I smiled and motioned for them to follow Annie and me as we headed toward the open rear door of the amphibian, saying, “If you two will just follow us, I’ll show you some maps and pictures of the lake that you’ll be camping at, and then we can go get some lunch and meet with the guide who will be running your camp, taking you on hikes, and generally looking after you.”
We went into my office and I got out my maps. I spread them out on a table while saying, “The lake where you’ll be staying is part of the state’s National Forest Park System. It’s a designated wilderness area. The public is allowed to camp in the National Forests, but they aren’t allowed to do anything which might cause permanent damage to the wilderness. This includes the felling of trees, the wanton killing of wildlife, and pollution of waterways or dumping of trash, garbage or sewage.” I paused and then added, “Generally, you are expected to leave your campsite as neat and clean as possible.”
“No problem, there,” Jim said quietly.
“Good.” I nodded my head. “Now, the man I hired to head-up your vacation is a guide who is well respected in the area among both hunters and recreational campers and hikers, as well as fishing enthusiasts.” I paused to brush my hair back, out of my eyes. “Since the lake is about ten miles from the nearest highway, Dean—the guide—will be equipping all of you with headset two-way radios, which will keep you in touch with a powerful transceiver at the main camp. That way, if there is any kind of emergency, you will be able to call Dean or the camp for help. He can also, through the radios, summon any of you back to camp if he needs to. I will also be on call—either here at Cooper Air, or through the Police Department—to provide emergency air service if anything happens where you would need to be evacuated from the campsite in the event of an accident or an emergency.”
Annie’s mom looked worried. “How dangerous is it out there?”
“Not that dangerous,” I replied. “But accidents do happen. Hatchets can miss while chopping firewood and kindling. There are bears out there.” I paused and looked at each of them. “One thing most people forget is that you should never leave snacks or food lying around at a campsite. It attracts animals—like bears. Racoons and skunks can also be attracted and can attack people who try to scare them away.” I nodded to Annie and added, “It might also be wise not to carry anything edible in your pockets, too.”
“How do we store our food supplies?” Jim asked. “I assume there’s a special way of doing things out in the woods?”
“Yes, there is,” I replied. “Dean will be providing bear-proof containers. They are all metal and are watertight and leak-proof, and the bears will not be able to smell whatever food is inside them.” I waved my hands and said, “Well, that about sums everything up. I’ll explain all the flight and aircraft loading instructions when we get ready to fly to the camp. That’ll be tomorrow morning, bright and early. Now, how about we all meet Dean at the restaurant and have lunch!”
I led the way to the restaurant, the Olsens following me in their car. Dean was waiting for us. The restaurant wasn’t crowded, so we were seated immediately. I introduced everyone to Dean.
Dean was a second-generation guide, having learned the business from his father and uncle. He was tall and lean, with rugged features that you would expect from someone who spent most of his time outdoors, in all kinds of weather. “The lake you will be staying at is beautiful. There’s good fishing—if you’re into that sort of thing—and the site I’ve chosen for the campsite is at the lake’s southern end. There’s a flat open area that requires minimal clearing to pitch your tents. We’ve used the site before, so there a stone-lined firepit for campfires and cooking meals.” He paused and then went on. “There won’t be any hunting of game this trip. From what Jack and Kelly have told me, you’re interested mainly in swimming, hiking, and exploring.”
The Olsens all nodded in agreement.
Dean smiled. “Good. It makes my job easier.” He pulled his chair forward and leaned forward a little. “Now the area of the National Forest where the lake’s located has not been “improved” in any way—other than keeping the campsite cleared of small trees and brush that grow up every spring. By that, I mean that there are no maintained or purpose-constructed hiking trails or rest areas. There are established deer paths that the deer maintain themselves. Those are fun to explore, but you have to keep in mind that—generally—the trails don’t really go anywhere. They just connect feeding areas that deer have sort mapped out and travel to regularly enough to wear-in the trail.”
He continued on, telling them of several beautiful spots he would take them to see, such as following the small river-stream which gave the lake its supply of fresh water. There was a small—like slightly more than a couple of feet—waterfall, where the stream poured down from a rocky ledge and made a little pool before continuing on to the lake. Stuff like that.
He wrapped up the talk with an explanation of the sanitation setup at the camp. That consisted of burying the garbage each night in a deep hole that he would dig every afternoon for that purpose. Restroom facilities consisted of another set of holes and a toilet seat built on a stand where human waste would be deposited and covered up and buried to become compost when they left to return to civilization.
That all done, we left. The Olsens went off to their motel to unpack a little and then do some sightseeing. Dean left to go and start ferrying his equipment over to the Cooper Air hangar, while I headed back to the hangar to wait for him and then load the amphibian with his gear, tents, and supplies.
Steve came by in the late afternoon and helped me lay out all the equipment and supplies Dean had brought over. We weighed each item—and I carefully noted each of them and their weight on my clipboard—and then placed each item on the hangar floor next to the amphibian. The amphibian could carry eight thousand pounds of cargo and people in flight. Dean’s equipment and food supplies didn’t come anywhere near that limit, but I liked to weigh everything and then figure out where each item should be stowed in the plane so that the aircraft would remain balanced. Some pilots just stowed stuff willy-nilly and just used their piloting skills to compensate if the plane ended up nose heavy or tail heavy, but I think it’s better to just get it right before you ever get the plane off the ground and into the air.
The next day dawn bright and sunny. The Olsens arrived and Dean and I loaded their suitcases into the back of the passenger area of the amphibian. There was enough room back there, because Steve and I had removed all of the passenger seats of the amphibian except for the four seats that Dean and the Olsens would be using when I took them to the lake.
The trip out was noneventful. The Olsens ooo’d and ahh’d over the sight of the forests below them and Annie squealed in excitement as we made our water landing and motored—"just like a boat!”—right up to the point where I beached the nose of the aircraft on the shore.
I helped unload the plane and then we all helped Dean as he laid out the camp and told us where to place the tents, all the food, and the camping equipment. After checking with Dean for the radio frequency he would be using and the time each afternoon when he would be checking in with me and updating me on how things were going at the camp, I climbed back into the amphibian. Dean and Jim pushed the plane free of the shoreline and I turned the tail rudder to full right and started the engines. Then I took off headed back to North Liberty.
The next two days were pretty uneventful. Dean checked in that afternoon and Annie got on the radio to tell me that they had gone exploring and she had found some beautiful crystals of rose-colored quartz. Dean had chipped them free of the granite shelf they’d found them on and she was going to keep them “forever.”
The second day they were going to have an evening bonfire and roast hotdogs and marshmallows.
The third day was the game changer when Dean failed to make his radio call and—for all intents and purposes—the camp went off the air.
End of Chapter One.
Author's Note: This is a sequel to my Non-TG Novel, Missing Without A Trace: A Kelly Mitchell Mystery by Charles Schiman.
This is also a non-tg novel. However, I am a male writing the novel first-person as a female. And I created Kelly as the female person I thought I could have become--my alter ego, if you will--had I been born a girl.
The first novel, Missing Without A Trace: A Kelly Mitchell Mystery, is available for purchase online as a Nook Book at the Barnes and Noble Nook Store.
By four o’clock I was pacing the floor of my office. Why hadn’t Dean made his radio call yet? Had there been an accident? Had something happened to his transceiver? Had something terrible happened? I chewed my lower lip between my teeth. I would give Dean until five o’clock. No longer.
I walked quickly into the hangar and started checking the amphibian. I checked all the control surfaces of the aircraft and then climbed inside and sat in the pilot seat and methodically checked all the controls, looking out through the side windows at the bottoms of the wings to make certain the ailerons, rudder, flaps, and tail elevator were all functioning properly.
At a quarter to five, I couldn’t wait any longer. I picked up my phone and called the North Liberty Police Department and asked for the sheriff, my life-long friend, Hank Wallace. After an interminable wait, which was probably only a couple of moments, he came on the line.
“Kelly,” he said. “How are you?”
“There’s some sort of trouble at Spirit Lake,” I said without small talk or preamble. “I’ve got a family of tourists spending a week out there with Dean as their guide. He’s missed his radio check.”
“You are about to go check on them, right?” Hank said. Before I could answer, he went on. “Spirit Lake’s pretty tame, as I remember. Isolated, but no rough terrain or danger areas. Maybe something just went wrong with his transceiver.”
“I still need to go check on them. They’re the first tourist charter of the season, Hank. As far as I know, they’re the only camp out there right now. It’s too early in the season.”
“Do you want me to fly out there with you?”
“Um—no,” I said, after a moment of hesitation. “There’s no need for that. It’s probably just a broken wire or a burnt transistor or diode or something. I just wanted to let you know that something was up.”
“Okay then,” Hank replied. “You be careful out there and let me know what you find when you get there.” He paused and then added, “And take a breath and calm down a little. You sound nervous as hell.”
“I’m just fine,” I snapped into the phone. The nerve of that man! “If something is really wrong, I’ll call you on the radio and have North Liberty tower patch me through to your police radio center.”
“Okay,” he replied. “Keep me informed.”
“I will,” I said and hung up the phone.
I grabbed my leather flight jacket from its hook since it would probably be a little chilly at the lake. Then I opened the hangar doors and wheeled the amphibian outside before closing the doors and locking up. I climbed inside the amphibian and went forward and settled into the pilot seat. I belted in and then switched on all the plane’s electrical systems. I started and warmed up the engines, then I radioed the tower, giving them my destination and asking for clearance to takeoff. By the time I reached the runway, they had given me clearance. I pushed the throttles forward, accelerated down the runway and surged into the air.
The flight to Spirit Lake was swift and fast. I didn’t buzz the camp or do anything dramatic. I just landed the amphibian as quick as I could and raced in to the shore, nose up, twin geysers of spray arching high along the sides of the aircraft as the deep “vee” of the bow of the boat-hull cut the surface of the water. I chopped the throttles about five yards out from the shore and felt the nose of the amphibian drop precipitously as the forward speed suddenly dropped as though brakes had been applied and the carrier wave of water of our wake overtook us and lifted the rear of the plane.
The amphibian leveled itself as our wake wave passed under us and then we grounded, nose cutting a groove in the soft sand of the lake’s shore. Before the plane had really stopped moving, I was slapping off switches and shutting down the engines and everything else with one hand while yanking on the release buckles of my seat harness with my other hand. I hurried aft and swung the rear door all the way open, letting it bang against its stops as it locked into position against the outer skin of the aircraft’s fuselage. I hopped down from the open door into the water, which was about knee-deep.
I turned and scanned the shoreline, then moved my focus to the open clearing and the camp itself. As I did so, I was hit with a small gust of wind which swept over me as though the camp itself was expelling a breath outward into the lake. A disquieting sense of déjà vu hit me and I shivered. The camp seemed empty. Oh no! This can’t be happening again! I swallowed, my throat dry.
Then I waded ashore and stopped as I stepped onto the beach. I forced myself to just stand still and look around. Just stand still and look at everything. Don’t start running around and messing everything up. I took a deep breath. Had anybody landed at the beach besides myself? I didn’t think so. I could still see a depression in the sand which was all that was left of the imprint made by the amphibian three days earlier, when I had beached her the first time, bringing Dean and the Olsens to the clearing.
I rubbed the palms of my damp hands against the fabric of my jeans and walked up the slight incline into the camp. Conduct the search systematically—don’t wander around checking out everything that catches your eye. I nodded to myself. Yes. That’s what I would do. I would conduct myself like Hank—the sheriff—would.
I angled my path toward the firepit. How recently had it been used? At noon for lunch? Earlier? Maybe as far back as the night before? I remembered that Dean had talked about an evening bonfire in the firepit on the second day check-in call. The day that Annie had told me that they had gone exploring and she’d found some rose-colored quartz crystals. Could that little exploration trip have anything to do with their disappearance? Had someone been lurking in the forest and spotted them? Followed them back to their camp and then done whatever it was which had been done to the family?
I knelt beside the firepit and examined it. Maybe. The charred pieces of wood were all pretty damp—either from morning dew, or from getting doused with a bucket of lake water to kill any leftover embers the evening before. I figured that if they’d had a fire at noon, for hotdogs or something, the burnt wood would be more wet, having gotten soaked only a few hours before they missed their afternoon check-in call.
Not good enough, Kelly. The timeframe is still ‘iffy.’ I made a face and stood up, trying to rub the damp carbon from touching the wood in the firepit from my hands. I looked at each of the tents. There were three of them, all the same size. These were large enough to hold four people comfortably—yes, I know that the manufacturers always say that their tents hold a couple more than they seem to in real life, but that’s probably because the tent makers think in terms of how many people can lie in their tent with maybe an inch or two of space between them. No way are normal people going to pack themselves into a tent like they were a bunch of sardines in a can.
So…one tent for the Olsens. I was pretty sure that they would want their daughter in the same tent as themselves, simply because of the fact that they weren’t used to being in the wilderness and, therefore, would be hyper-aware that there could be wild animals prowling around the tents during the night. Second tent would be Dean’s. It was big enough that he would probably keep his gear and most of her personal equipment in there with him. Third tent was the “cook” tent. Open sides with roll-down netting to keep out the insects. Not for cooking inside the tent, but for eating their food away from the mosquitoes and horseflies and things.
I knew that Dean kept a journal of his guide trips. Plus, there would be a radio log; where he would record check-in calls, transcribe the messages which were sent and received, and make observations of conditions around the area and excursions and trips with guests to sights outside the camp—either around the lake or in the nearby areas of the forest—which he might want to remember so he could repeat them on other hunting or fishing guide trips in the near future.
So, Dean’s tent would be my next stop. I walked over to it and unzipped the flap. Dean had rolled up his sleeping bag and closed-foam ripstop cordura-covered mattress that morning. Or he never unrolled it to go to sleep last night. Um, yes—it could be either one. So much for narrowing the timeline. The transceiver was inside the tent. It was sitting on a table made from using one of the ice chests that the food and beverages had been packed in. I smiled. That was pretty clever. Back in the early days of exploration, the old-time British explorers had been from the gentry class, and they’d thought nothing of bringing along furniture-type tables to hold their equipment. Even today, some campers thought that bring fold-up aluminum tables for their computers and things was standard procedure. I liked Dean’s practical sense more and more. It showed that he probably thought ‘outside the box’ on a number of different things.
I sat down cross-legged in front of the transceiver and studied both it and the top of the case it was sitting on carefully. Both the log book and Dean’s little journal were placed neatly beside the radio. I reached forward and switched on the transceiver. It was one of the newer ones, digital, with a little computer inside and frequency scanning capability. It only took a little while to boot up. I punch up the list of frequencies Dean had been using and then set the transceiver to the one that the two-way headsets used. I picked up the earpiece rig with the little boom mike that the transceiver was equipped with and cleared my throat.
“Testing, testing,” I said. “This is Kelly Mitchell at the Olsen camp on Spirit Lake calling. Anyone hearing my voice, could you please reply?”
My boom mike, which was voice activated, stopped the transmission and the transceiver went to receiving mode.
Nothing. Of course, the two-way headsets only had a range of a mile or two. Less, if the wearer was out of line-of-sight, down in a little valley or had an intervening ridge or hill in the way.
I repeated my call twice with no reply. I sighed. Why did I never get into easy situations? I always seemed to land in crappy head-scratcher situations with no light at the end of the tunnel. I switched the transceiver to the airport tower frequency.
“This is Kelly Mitchell from Cooper Air calling North Liberty Tower,” I said. I made my voice firm and matter-of-fact. Didn’t want the tower guys to think for a minute that there were any scaredy-cats out here. No siree! “I am calling from the Olsen Camp at Spirit Lake. I need you to patch me through to Sheriff Hank Wallace. We have a situation here.”
“Roger that, Kelly,” the tower replied. “Are you declaring an emergency?”
“Not yet,” I replied. “The camp missed its radio check-in earlier this afternoon and flew out here to check on them. I found the camp deserted, but no signs of foul play. I need to talk to Hank so he can get a team together and fly out to the camp and decided what to do next.” I paused. Then I added, “I’ll stay here and keep an eye on things until he arrives with re-enforcements.”
“We will relay the message,” the tower guy responded. “Unless, that is, you wanted to talk to him personally, Kelly.”
“Nope,” I replied. "That will work, just fine.” I signed off.
I switched the transceiver back to the two-way frequency. The I picked up the radio log and look at the last couple of entries. Nothing. Just last check-in call he made to me the day before. I put the radio log down and grabbed his journal. Hmm. A creative writer Dean was not. Simple sentences. Not much description. Heaven forbid he ever told you what he was feeling. I did, however, get the impression that Annie had made a real impression on him. I smiled to myself. Yes, the kid was a charmer—that was for sure. And if I wasn’t mistaken, the little girl had developed a huge little-girl crush on the rugged guide with the deep tan and ready smile. Then I came to the last bit. It was about Annie and Dean’s excursion the day before.
She had wanted to explore one of the deer trails which ran up hill toward the east of camp. Dean tersely noted that the trail ‘did not go anyplace’ and then noted that ‘at the summit’ they had found an outcropping of crystals.
Then there were the words, ‘Also an odd marker. Can’t tell how long it been here. First time I’ve seen it. Small cairn of rocks. Marked with some sort of metal beam. Aluminum or something else. No corrosion. Looks like it might have come from a plane or something.’
There was nothing else to say where, exactly, this “cairn” was located. I sort of half-turned and looked over my shoulder at the opening of the tent. East of the camp? Up near the summit? Summit of what? A hill or something?
I leaned forward and switched off the transceiver. Could this cairn have been the catalyst which started the events which led to Dean and the Olsen family’s disappearance? I got up and peeked out of the tent toward the east side of the camp. There were several hills in sight. I wondered which one Dean had been talking about. I tucked some of my hair which had fallen forward back behind my ear. I really needed to get my hair cut short again. This was a nuisance.
I glanced toward my plane. I suddenly felt very vulnerable, alone here in the camp. Someone could be watching me even now, from the edges of the forest. I didn’t like just standing around. When I didn’t have something to do, I thought too much. I glanced at the plane again. I really shouldn’t leave the camp. Hank would be here soon and he would be really pissed if I wasn't here to meet him. But, I mean, how many deer trails could there be east of the camp? Not that many, I would wager.
Hank would have to get a team together. Get their equipment and hand it out. Call Jack Piper and arrange transport to the camp. Jack would have to get his floatplane ready and Hank and his team would have to drive out to the airport. Then they would have to fly out here.
I headed for the plane. Inside it was my little GPS device. That would keep me from getting lost. I waded out and climbed into my plane. I grabbed my rucksack from a compartment near the cockpit and put the handheld GPS in the pack. Then I unlocked the compartment I’d built to store the lever-action 30-30 I’d picked which nobody but Jack knew I owned. I figured it might come in handy. After all, I had no idea what I might run into up there, south or east of the camp. I pulled out a box of ammunition from the compartment and loaded the rifle. I closed the box and added it to the GPS inside the rucksack. Then I closed and locked the storage compartment for the rifle.
I climbed out of the plane, being careful to hold the rifle up high, so that it wouldn’t get wet, and headed for shore. I stopped in the camp just long enough to grab some bottled water from the cook tent, which I placed inside the rucksack with the ammo and handheld GPS.
I went back to Dean’s tent, where I opened his little journal to the place where he mentioned the crystals and cairn and bent the notebook so that it stayed open to that page. For good measure, I put the transceiver headset on to of the journal, placing it on top of the open pages.
Hank would be able to figure it out.
End of Chapter Two
Author's Note: This is a sequel to my Non-TG Novel, Missing Without A Trace: A Kelly Mitchell Mystery by Charles Schiman.
This is also a non-tg novel. However, I am a male writing the novel first-person as a female. And I created Kelly as the female person I thought I could have become--my alter ego, if you will--had I been born a girl.
The first novel, Missing Without A Trace: A Kelly Mitchell Mystery, is available for purchase online as a Nook Book at the Barnes and Noble Nook Store.
I got the handheld GPS out of my rucksack as I reached the edge of the forest on the east side of the camp. I turned it on and waited as it booted up and acquired the signal of three overhead satellites. Then I locked in the location of the camp as my starting point. Then I put the device back in the rucksack and took a moment to examine the forest before me.
It didn’t look so bad. The undergrowth immediately surrounding the edge of the tree line went from being four-to-ten inches of grass and weeds, to a little over knee deep. I figured that it would thin out considerably after I got inside the forest where the drop in the sunlight reaching the ground would have limited the growth rate of the various plants and small trees which struggled to grow in the shadows of their huge brothers.
Before stepping into the forest, I also took a moment to spray myself with insect repellant. And, sure enough, as soon as I entered the confines of the forest, clouds of mosquitoes and gnats and things rose from their resting places on the ground and formed a dancing cloud around me, inches from my body, face, and hair. I kept my mouth shut and used my free hand to wave away anything which tried to fly up my nose as I inhaled as I walked deeper into the forest.
There had been several deer paths which opened onto the east side of the camp. I chose one of them at random and, luckily, I think I guessed right, because the path headed uphill, directly toward the east. It jogged left and right, following the easiest path up the hill. This part of the National Forest was dotted with rocks and boulders left from when the glaciers of the Ice Age had melted. As the pioneers had discovered—and then later farmers and more recent landowners—the boulders were mostly hidden below ground. They were like icebergs. Sometimes, only a small portion of the rock poked above the ground. What might look like a small, two-foot long half-buried rock, becomes a massive underground boulder after you dig a ten-foot-wide hole around it and only uncovered eight inches of the stone’s depth.
I reached the top of the first hill and had to decide whether or not I wanted to continue following the deer path. I was tempted to used the GPS to cut in a straight line across the forest to the start of the next hill. But I had the niggling suspicion that Annie and Dean might have come across something that I might notice but they might not have grasped its significance. What if the marker Dean had written about wasn’t the only one. Maybe there were others which he had missed and had only come upon the last one, the one which marked the cairn, by accident?
So I stayed on the deer path and, even, I also almost missed the next clue. It was kind of well hidden, slightly off the path in a little cleared space. I would have missed it, too, because I had chosen that moment to refresh my insect repellant which I was walking and wasn’t really paying attention to where I was going. I had just closed my eyes, to spray around my face and head, when the toe of my shoe caught against something sticking out of the ground and tripped me. I fell forward, sprawling flat on my face, losing my grip on my rifle and knocking the wind out of me.
As soon as I could breathe again, I rolled into a sitting position and scrambled to get hold of my rifle again. Dam!Dam!Dam! I frantically wiped the dirt and crud off the rifle, fearful that I had damaged it somehow. Why did I always have to be so clumsy! It looked okay. I was lucky I had been smart enough not to added a bullet to the firing chamber when I was loading it. Otherwise it might have gone off when it hit the ground—had the safety jarred loose when it had hit the ground. I scowled at my pant legs as I realized that, because they were still pretty wet from wading in the lake, all the dirt and wet mulchy stuff from the forest floor that had gotten on the was going to work its way into the wet fabric. Crap.
I turned my attention to what had precipitated my fall. On the edge of the path was a half-circle of rectangular stones. Bricks? I leaned forward and brushed the dirt away. No. Not bricks. They were made of clay which had been hardened with fire or something. The ground inside the circle seemed empty, so I grabbed a stick and started scraping. A corroded piece of angle iron appeared about a half an inch below the surface. It formed a kind of pointer, I decided. The bottom of the rod touched the bricks which connected with the edge of the deer trail. The top of the rod ended several inches from the opposite edge of the circle, pointing slightly to the north. Both ends of the pointer were staked into place with what looked like rods which had been bent into a ‘u’ shaped and hammered into the ground. I took out the GPS and bookmarked the site of the ‘pointer.’ Then, taking a heading on the pointer, I began walking a straight line toward the next hill.
Every once in a while, I would stop and try to brush some of the dirt and stuff from my jeans and pantlegs. I was not very successful. I was able to get most of the mulchy stuff off me, but there was no way I was going to my pants back to their pristine, pre-tumble in the muck, look. Near the summit of the hill, I began to see granite poking through the ground cover, in the form of angled shelves of rock. This was probably near the spot where Annie got her quartz crystals. I reached the summit and looked around. At first, nothing leapt out at me. Then I noticed something odd over on the side of the hill farthest away from me. I moved a little and something glinted in the sunlight.
Getting a better grip on my rifle, I hurried toward it. Whoa! It was more impressive than anything I was expecting. Most guides and hikers think of cairns as stacked piles of flat rocks, maybe two or three feet high at the most. Like a little sign post or something. A playful attention-getter. This was obviously built for more than just getting your attention.
For one thing, the base of the cairn was built upon a perfect circle of carefully placed flat stones. I glanced back over my shoulder. Whomever had constructed this had, quite probably, pried away flat sections from some of the granite shelves which were protruding out of the hill. Then they had dragged them to where they wanted to build the cairn. Each flat section had been placed into the ground and levelled carefully. The cairn itself was built like a little tower, but it looked solid and not hollow. No windows, nor was there any sign that they’d constructed stairs or things to aid the workers doing the construction.
It was, maybe, six or seven feet high. Four feet in diameter. Kind of thick and squat. The sides angled in at a shallow angle and it the top was not ‘a piece of metal’ maybe from some aircraft or machine. It was a ten-inch thick wing spar. In spite of having its thickest end anchored into the top of the cairn, the spar had the aerodynamic curve necessary to generate the lift needed for an aircraft. Each long edge of the spar had an ‘I’ beam shape and a series of lightening holes had been milled into the spar in decreasing sizes up the spar’s length as it tapered to a narrow point.
Dean’s comment that it was ‘odd’ didn’t say the half of it. It was a memorial to a crash. Some time in the past, an airplane or a floatplane, or some sort of an airfoil flying vehicle, had crashed somewhere near this memorial. Perhaps there had been fatalities and the survivors—or their surviving relatives—had built this in memory of the event. Or maybe they had built it hoping someone would see it from the air and come looking for them. I really didn’t know.
I looked up at the sun and was surprise at how low it was in the sky. More time had passed than I’d thought. I got out the GPS and bookmarked the location of the cairn. Hank was going to want to see this.
Then I clicked to the menu and set the GPS to guide me back to the camp.
It took me less than a half hour to make it back to the camp. I spotted Jack Piper’s Cessna floatplane sitting on the shore next to my boat-hull amphibian and I could see Hank and three of his men photographing and checking things out. They hadn’t spotted me yet, so I walked into the camp to where Hank was standing next to Dean’s open tent.
“So-help-me-God,” Hank was saying to one of the troopers, “I’m going to shake some sense into her if it’s the last thing I—"
“Hey, Hank, I’m back,” I said, interrupting him. “Wait ‘til I tell you what I found!”
He whirled to face me. “Don’t you ever do something so stupid as that again! Didn’t you even think to take a radio along with you so we would know that you were all right?”
“I didn’t have a radio I could take with me,” I protested indignantly. “I only have the one that the amphibian’s equipped with.”
“What about the handhelds that Dean equipped the campers with?” he growled, unappeased. I wasn’t going to get off easily on this one.
“There wasn’t one,” I said. Then I added, “I looked,” actually I hadn’t, but you understand, “but Dean obviously only had the base transceiver and four headsets. When he left with the Olsens—either with them or to find them—he must have taken the fourth headset for himself and left the one for the base transceiver behind. That one’s just a headset mike, it can’t work away from the transceiver.”
I blinked my eyes and gave him my innocent look. “Did you read Dean’s journal?” I asked hopefully. “I left it open on the table next to the transceiver.”
“I did,” Hank replied. “A lot of good it did me. He doesn’t even give any directions.”
“East of the camp,” I said. “I found it. You’ve got to come see it.”
“What about the missing campers?” Jack suddenly demanded from beside me. I jumped a little, startled. Where had he come from? “I swear, you’re like some dumb squirrel who’s spotted a new shiny object sometimes!”
“I am not!” I snapped. I looked back at Hank. “Annie might have taken her parents out to the cairn. We should look for them out there.”
“What about Dean?” Jack snapped back at me, not giving Hank a chance to respond to my suggestion. “He took the remaining headset with him. That means he thought something bad happened. Otherwise, he would have called you on the transceiver and given you a head’s up before going out to check on ‘em.”
“Whatever!” I said, scowling at Jack. I looked back at Hank. “What did you guys find? Any blood? Any sign of foul play or that they were forcibly abducted?”
“No,” Hank replied. He eyed me for a moment. Then he decided to let everything slide. “Dean’s rifle is missing. He probably took it with him when he left the camp.”
“So,” I said, “if they’re not here hiding from us in the camp, then they’re out there in the forest somewhere. Therefore—”
“Oh god, here comes the logic bomb again,” Jack said.
“Therefore,” I repeated. “It is the only logical thing for us to do. Go up to the cairn and search the area around it for clues. Annie and Dean were there the day before. It’s only logical that Annie would take her parents back there to show them what she and Dean had discovered.”
Hank looked at Jack. Then he looked around at the three other troopers.
“Okay,” he said. “Listen up. We’ve got, maybe, two hours of daylight left.” He looked at Jack. “Jack, we need some high power portable lights. Both for photographs at the cairn thing and for when we get caught in the dark coming back to the camp.”
“I have a bunch of ‘em, Hank. How about one for each of us?”
“Sounds good,” Hank said. “Go get them.” He looked at one of the older troopers who was standing nearby, holding a digital camera. A macro lense for the camera dangled from a strap halfway down the front of his uniform shirt. “Bill, you can wrap up photographing the inside of the Olsens’ tent. It pretty much looks as though whatever happened to them and Drew took place someplace other than at the camp.” Bill nodded his head. Then Hank looked at me. “Kelly, I’m letting you come along with us, seeing as how you are the one who found where the cairn is.”
I smiled. “Thank you, Hank.”
“Leave the rifle in your plane. It’s not coming with us.”
“But—”
“Go put it in your plane. Right now. We don’t want to have you shooting somebody by accident.”
“I’ve never shot anybody by accident!” I protested.
“What about yourself,” Jack asked, his voice quick.
I whirled and frowned at him. “That was an…”
He laughed as my voice dropped off and my face got red.
“Yeah, an accident,” Hank said sourly. “I remember it well. Get moving and lock that gun up. We’re wasting daylight.”
Keeping my irritation at Hank and Jack in check, I nodded my head and headed toward the amphibian. Once inside the aircraft, I found a rag and carefully wiped down my rifle. Then I unloaded the gun, replacing the bullets in their box. I locked both into their compartment and sighed to myself. Jack was right when he’d said I’d let myself get distracted by the sight of the cairn. Confronted by a mystery—who had built it, where had the aircraft spar come from, had there be some sort of crash, what was the incident the cairn was supposed to remind people about, why didn’t any of us in North Liberty know about it—those thoughts had led me, once again, to fail and screw up.
I refastened the top of my rucksack and left the plane. Jack, Hank, and the rest of the troopers were waiting for me. The three troopers were all wearing bulky backpacks; full, I assumed, of evidence bags, sealed empty vials for collecting liquid samples, and stuff like that. I handed Hank the GPS, which I had turned on before I left the plane so that it was all up-and-running when I reached the group.
I pointed to the first bookmarked location. “That’s where I found a small marker of brick-like stones. There was a metal bar anchored into the ground, pointing northward, off the deer trail.” I paused, glancing toward the trees. “I think Annie and Drew missed seeing it. Or they didn’t know what it meant. Anyway, I think they continued following the deer trail. It probably led them eventually to the cairn. By following the pointer’s direction, I cut straight to the hill, taking a shorter route. I think the deer trail that Annie and Drew followed brought them to the cairn on the opposite side of the hill than the way that I went.”
Hank nodded. “Then that’s what we’ll do. We’ll check out this first spot—the stone circle. There might be something else to find there. Let’s go.”
Examination of the brick circle was quick. Hank was right, in that there wasn’t much more to learn from the marker. It was pretty simple. There were no tracks around it to be found—except my own, which I had left there when I’d found it. Jack made an interesting observation about the marker. If it was indeed put there to tell people the direction of the cairn, that meant that whoever put it there knew the cairn was, if not secret, then at least the marker maker knew that the cairn monument was unknown to the general public.
Bill, the older trooper commented quietly, “Yes, it could be either one of the two reasons. But what bothers me is what timeframe we’re talking about here. When did the cairn thing come about? Ten, twenty, thirty, forty years ago? It couldn’t be earlier than the nineteen-thirties, because most of the aircraft flying back then were of wood and fabric construction. Metal-bodied aircraft with aluminum spars and metal support structures were unknown until just before the Second World War.”
Jack cocked his head to one side, thinking. I was, too. This area was pretty uninhabited back then. Not pioneer times, but a lot of the forests were unmapped and unknown. Could a plane back then have crashed around here and the survivors had become like castaways from a south seas shipwreck—but instead of being castaways on a deserted sea island, they’d been stuck inside a vast and unmapped forest primeval? Maybe the monument had started out as a signal tower. Maybe, instead of an aircraft spar, there had been a signal fire, trying to alert the outside world of their plight?
Hank picked two of the troopers and told them to follow the deer around until they reached the cairn. They were to keep watch along the way for any signs that the Olsens had been waylaid somewhere along the trail and abducted. That done, the rest of us set off, up the hill, taking the shortcut to the cairn.
At we reached the summit, Hank stopped walking and halted the group.
“We unpack our gear, here,” he said. “Then we examine everything, step-by-step. We are looking for evidence. Footprints. Damaged vegetation. Evidence that anybody’s been here. Blood evidence. If the Olsens and their guide were attacked up here, somebody might’ve dropped something in the struggle. We’re looking for evidence that they might’ve been injured or killed. If they were killed,” and here, I swallowed a little convulsively, thinking about Annie, “then there will be fairly large places where we’ll find blood. If they were just slightly injured and taken away from here, then, not so much.” He looked at each member of our group individually. “But they have to have left something behind.” He turned to Bill. “Bill, I just want you to use the camera to document the resting point of each piece of evidence. We don’t need photos of the whole crime scene—if that’s with this is. Understand?”
Bill nodded. “Yes, Hank.”
“Then let’s get to it. Remember: Don’t get too far out ahead of everybody else. I don’t want anybody accidentally contaminating the area with their own footprints. Sing out if any of you see a foot or boot print in the dirt. That boot or foot print will give us clues as to who we’re looking for. If we’re lucky, those footprints will also give us a rough idea of how many perpetrators we’re looking to deal with.”
In less that five minutes, one of the guys yelled, “Over here! I’ve got boot prints!”
“They could be mine,” I said in a low voice to Hank.
“I don’t think so,” he replied. “You ain’t wearing boots.” He raised his voice. “I need two men over there to help him make some plaster casts of the prints! Move carefully! There are probably more foot prints close-by!”
“Sneaker prints over here!” Jack yelled. “Not Kelly’s! These are kid-size!”
My hand went to my mouth. Annie!
“Is there any blood?” I called out to him.
Jack’s head came around and he looked at me for a moment. Then he said, “Nope. It’s looks like she was running away from the cairn, toward the woods.” He paused and then straightened up. “I’ve got some big boot prints following the sneaker prints into the forest.” He pointed to a point where the tree line started back up, part way down the hill. “That way!”
“Stay where you are!” Hank yelled. “Everybody! Keep searching the ground! I want to know where the parents were standing—where Dean was standing—where the perpetrators came out, onto the scene! We need to know the complete situation that unfolded up here before we go running off on a hasty pursuit.”
End of Chapter Three
Author's Note: This is a sequel to my Non-TG Novel, Missing Without A Trace: A Kelly Mitchell Mystery by Charles Schiman.
This is also a non-tg novel. However, I am a male writing the novel first-person as a female. And I created Kelly as the female person I thought I could have become--my alter ego, if you will--had I been born a girl.
The first novel, Missing Without A Trace: A Kelly Mitchell Mystery, is available for purchase online as a Nook Book at the Barnes and Noble Nook Store.
Processing the area around the cairn seemed to take forever. I kept getting more and more wound up as every time it seemed as if we could get moving, someone would find something else to check out and look at. The only sign that Hank was also getting tense was that he had shifted his stance so that his legs were more farther apart and he had folded his arms across his chest and was glowering a bit.
I will have to admit that we did learn a lot more about the situation than if we had just gone charging into the forest, following the boot prints of Annie and her pursuers. We determined that a group of seven had confronted the Olsens. They’d come at them from three sides, with the cairn blocking the out the fourth side as a possible escape route for the family. It appeared that there had been some sort of a struggle and that someone—possibly Jim Olsen, I thought—getting some cuts and leaving some small smears of blood against one of the sides of the cairn. Someone had either hit him with their fists, I thought, or tackled him; throwing his back against the stone side of the squat tower, where he’d scraped his head against the rough surface of the rocks.
One odd thing that we learned was that all of the assailant boot prints had a distinct identifying feature: the lugged soles of their boots each had a deep “V” cut across the bottom of the heels. One of the troopers commented that this would make them easier to track and Jack had replied that it also made the assailant’s job of tracking the family easier because they would know immediately whether or not any tracks they came across were left by one of the family or whether it was an old foot print which had been made long before by someone on their own side. Since Jack was the most experienced tracker, he was the one who examined the ground on either side of where Annie’s tracks went into the forest.
“Well,” he said after a moment. “One thing I can say for that little girl, is that she can think where others would panic.” He gestured at the point she had plowed through the brush. “She didn’t waste time heading for one of the deer paths. And she’s fast. When I met and talked to the family last year, that kid could run like a deer!” He moved a couple of feet to the side of where Annie had entered the brush. “Here’s where her first pursuer went in after her.” He studied the ground. “Two men, by the size of the boots. The other five were probably busy getting Dean and the parents under control.”
Hank agreed with him, saying, “And it looks as though the five took the Dean and Jim and Charlotte Olsen west.” He gestured toward Jack and me. “While your two followed Annie, south.”
“So, what do we do?” I asked. “Pick one group to follow? Or split up?”
“You and Jack, follow Annie’s trail and try to catch up with her. We’ll follow the larger group and see if we can catch up with them.”
“I’m unarmed,” I pointed out. “Those two who are chasing Annie are probably armed to the teeth.”
“Jack’s got his rifle,” Hank replied. “And you each have one of our police radios. You’ll be okay. Just be careful and don’t go charging into something without looking first.”
Trooper Bill grinned at me. ‘I can loan you my combat knife,” he said, “if you promise not to cut yourself.”
“That’s not funny, Bill,” I said. Then, thinking about it, I said, “Okay. I promise.” I stuck my hand out and raised an eyebrow. “Hand it over.”
Bill looked over at Hank for guidance. Hank shrugged his shoulders as if to say, ‘It’s up to you.’ Bill hesitated a moment longer and then unclipped his black double-edged knife and sheath from his service belt and handed it to me.
It looked especially lethal. I took it and clipped it to the waistband of my jeans. “Thanks,” I said quietly. “I’ll be careful with it.”
“It’s double-edged,” Bill replied. “If you have to use it, Kelly, slash—don’t stab with it. Stabbing slows you down.”
“Um—” I swallowed My throat suddenly felt dry. “Thanks for the tip.”
“Don’t mention it.”
Hank rubbed his chin, as though he was thinking about saying something. Then he just nodded at me and then pointed at Jack. “Jack, watch yourself.” He looked around at the other trooper. “That goes for all of you. Move quickly, but as quietly as you can. Right now, these guys don’t know that we’re after ‘em. Let’s keep it that way—at least, until it’s too late for them to do anything to stop us.”
I turned and followed Jack into the waist-high scrub and weedy grass which formed a kind of barrier between open space around the cairn and the edge of the rest of the forest surrounding us. Annie and her two pursuers had punched a sort of opening through the tangle of high weeds. The weeds really thinned out once we were inside the forest itself. The shade created by the foliage overhead created a “dead zone” of relative darkness inside the forest proper. The forest floor was a thick carpet of moist dead leaves. We determined that Annie had run downhill in a fairly straight line, zig-zagging left and right to avoid protruding outcropping of shelf granite. I could also see the two trails of her pursuers. One had entered at almost the same place as she had and I figured this one must have been the person she’d broken away from when she escaped. The other trail stated almost twenty feet away from the point where Annie and the first man had broken through the underbrush and into the relatively clear slope of the forest floor. Annie must have heard him as she ran, because her trail abruptly angled to the left, away from the side from which the second man was coming down the hill.
I swallowed, my throat a little dry. All this had happened hours ago. For all I knew, Annie’s fate had already been decided. I looked over at Jack, whose mouth was set in a grim line. He was thinking the same thing. I looked ahead and there was a small creek running along a little gully which was formed by the bottom of the hill we were descending and the base of the next hill. The small creek was following the downward slope between both of the hills. It was partially choked by deadfalls—old trees and branches which had fallen and then been moved down to the creek by erosion and thawing snow and water during the spring. We reached the creek and Jack paused and studied the banks upstream and downstream from where we were standing.
“Which way do you think she went?” I asked.
“Downstream, probably,” Jack replied. He looked at me. “She’s smart. She knew the second man would cut her off if she turned upstream.” He looked across toward the upward slope of the hill on the other side of the creek. “And running in a straight line would have meant running uphill. That’ll wear you out fast and you can run faster going down a slope than running up one. So—if I was her, I would move along the bank and head downstream as fast as I could.”
“Sounds good,” I replied.
“I’ll take the lead,” Jack said. “That way we won’t move too fast and miss her tracks. She could see a path or an animal trail or something and head down that at any point along here.”
I nodded my head and we set off, along the bank of the creek, downstream. It was pretty easy going, at first. The grass went all the way to the edge of the creek. There wasn’t much of a drop-off to the water. The bed of the creek was composed of stone, mostly broken granite, washed down the hillside by runoff during the spring thaw and from rainstorms during the rest of the year. A half mile downstream, the going became rough as the creek circled round the bottom of the hill and butted up against two more hills. There was a growing pile of fallen trees piled up here, almost as though something had happened up on the hillsides a long time before.
Jack had hopped down onto a moss-covered trunk which was half-submerged in the creek-bed, and was reaching up, extending his hand to help me climb down when I heard a small voice whisper right next to me, “Kelly?!”
I jerked my head around and stared for a moment. Annie’s face was staring back at me from an open space between one old deadfall and the tree trunk I was climbing down to. I almost lost my balance fell. Jack took a half-step closer to me and clapped his hand against my hip to steady me. I looked at him, wide-eyed.
“What is it?” he asked.
I pointed toward the gap next to me. “Annie,” I whispered. “She’s here! Next to me!” I looked back at Annie as Jack scrambled to climb back up to where I was. “Jack Piper’s climbing back up, Annie. We are part of the team that’s out looking for you guys.”
“Oh—that was Mister Piper?” Annie exclaimed. “I thought he was one of them!” Even in her surprise and fear, her voice remained low. Almost a whisper. “They went by here a while ago. They didn’t realize I was hiding in here. I was afraid that they’d come back!”
“How deep is that space you are hiding in?” I asked. It looked pretty small in there. This log was probably forming part of the creek’s bank.
“I’m not sure,” she replied. “It seems kind of deep. And the floor’s funny. It’s got these evenly spaced ridges—they are like ribs that curve up toward the ceiling. It’s so dark in here that I can’t tell how far back the cavern goes.”
Jack stood beside me. “I’ve got a portable flashlight,” he said. “Step out of the way, Annie, and I’ll light up your little cavern.”
Jack switched on the big electric torch flashlight—which really wasn’t all that huge, I reminded myself. It was about twice the size of a regular police light, the increase in size coming from both its battery, which hung, box-like, beneath the long carry handle which doubled as part of the reflector assembly, and the wide lense which covered the reflector. He leaned into the opening and aimed the light upward, so that the beam bounced off the cavern’s interior roof and then defused, filling the dark area behind Annie more evenly than if he had just flashed the beam around the walls to see what was in there.
I gasped in surprise. The inside of the cave was not composed of rocks and the trunks and branches of fallen trees. It was metal. Bare weathered aluminum. I felt the fingers of both my hands touch my lips as I covered my mouth.
“It’s part of an aircraft’s fuselage,” I said softly.
Jack set the portable flashlight inside the cavern and then unclipped his radio from his belt. He pressed the transmit button and said, “Hank? This is Jack.”
There was a pause while, I assumed, Hank got his radio out to reply. Then Hank’s voice came through, saying, “I hear you, Jack. What’s going on?”
“We’ve found her,” Jack said quietly. “She’s okay.”
“Great!” Hank said, relief evident in his voice.
“We found something else, too,” Jack said.
“What, exactly?”
“Part of a wrecked aircraft fuselage. Buried next to a creek.” He paused. “It’s been here a long time, Hank. Maybe decades, from the amount ground that’s accumulated over it and the moss and decay of the deadfalls that have fallen over it.”
“Mark the location on your GPS,” Hank instructed. “We’ll check the wreckage out at some later date.” There was a pause. “We are about a mile northwest of the cairn. We are certain where the attackers are taking the victims. The maps we’ve got show nothing but forest north of here. Terrain’s getting rougher.” There was a pause and then Hank said, “According to Bill, if you head north-northwest, you are only about three miles from us. Head this way and we’ll meet up. I’ll call if our guys change their direction.”
“Roger that,” Jack said and returned the radio to his belt. He smiled at Annie. “You’re a smart and brave little girl,” he said quietly. “I would never have thought to hide in there to get away from those guys. How did you know this was big enough for you to hide in?”
“I didn’t,” Annie replied. She glanced at me. “And I wasn’t very brave—or smart. I was scared to death and I only found this place by accident.”
“Being brave doesn’t mean not being scared,” I said. I reached in and squeezed her shoulder to reassure her. “It’s continuing to move forward instead of letting your fear freeze you in place.” I paused and then gave her a small smile. “Let’s get you out of there. Okay?”
She nodded and Jack and I each grabbed one of her hands and helped her slide out through the narrow opening.
“You know,” Jack commented as he helped Annie get to her feet on the creek bank’s narrow edge, “I don’t think that opening’s big enough for me—or Kelly—to have wiggled through.”
Annie laughed. “I am pretty small for my age.”
“That you are!” Jack replied. He leaned down and looked inside the cavern again. “That section of fuselage is not very big,” he commented. "The inside space only runs back a couple of feet. No windows in the expose metal, that I can see.”
I leaned forward and looked inside, too. “There’s not enough there to tell what kind of an aircraft it was, either.”
Jack straightened up and looked at Annie. “Did you see your two pursuers after you slid inside the cave?”
She nodded, gulping. “Yes, I did. But I ducked down. I was so sure that they had seen me fall, right here, and that they would check inside the opening. But they just kept on going. They never even noticed the opening.”
Jack rubbed his chin. “That’s a good thing.” He studied the slope downstream. “Now…if they keep following the creek, they’ll be heading southeast. Away from us.” He looked at me. “I think we’ve spent enough time standing here. Let’s make tracks and head north.”
We took a few minutes to let Annie wash some of the mud and muck from her hands, arms and pant legs, then we headed uphill and made our way back to the cairn. Jack figured that it would be easier to take a north-northwest bearing from the open area around the cairn, plus it would lower our chances of running into Annie’s two pursuers if we did not retrace our path along the creek.
When we got to the cairn, Jack contacted Hank on the radio. Hank informed us that his group had tracked the abductors another mile but had not made contact with them. Hank was picking a spot for them to make camp for the night and gave me the coordinates of the location of their intended camp. I entered it into my little handheld GPS. Then, using those coordinates as the destination point, set up the GPS to ‘home’ in the that location. Thus, we would be kept constantly on track instead of me trying to keep us on a directional bearing as we moved.
As I was doing this, I had glanced upward into the sky and my gaze rested for a moment on the aluminum wing spar which rose from the top of the cairn. Briefly, I wondered if the five or six-foot section of broken aircraft fuselage which had formed part of the side and ceiling of Annie’s hiding spot was part of the same aircraft. There really wasn’t any way to tell. There hadn’t been any visible marking on the interior piece of fuselage. Any identifying numbers would have probably been painted on the aircraft’s exterior—not inside. If it was part of the same aircraft as the cairn’s wing spar, I wondered what had happened to the rest of the plane.
Had the piece which had ended up buried in the bank of the creek sheared off during the crash? Did that mean that there were countless other little pieces of the aircraft’s body buried around the creek’s banks? If that was so, it meant that the plane had lost its wings first, as it broke apart, making the fuselage and its occupants a wingless missile. The wings, having aerodynamic surfaces, would act like sails and come to earth some distance from the main body of the wreckage. The fuselage must have broken up as it plowed through the trees on the last leg of its final descent.
I sighed. If that had been the case, it would have been a wonder if anyone inside the plane had survived.
End of Chapter FOUR.
The headlights had an aura around them because of the circular scratches in the motorcycle helmet’s face shield just a few inches from my face. I could feel my long hair streaming over my shoulders from the cold wind. The headlights had been three or four miles away when they first made their artificial sunrise. Now they fill my universe. First the stars disappear in the plastic-hazed glare in the face shield. Then the mercury vapor lights in the surrounding farmyards are obscured, and then, finally, so is the motorcycle’s speedometer and odometer; just two feet in front of my eyes.
For the next few moments there will be nothing for me to see but the single blinding brightness closing at two hundred feet per second.
I flash my High Beam up and down, but he doesn’t dim his lights.
Idiot. The thought is automatic and so is the thought which follows it. Will this be the time? I have always been a fatalist. People find that odd. So pretty and so cynical an outlook. But when my time is up, it’s up; and I figure that there are only three kinds of people out riding on the road at two in the morning. Drunks; half-drunks; and me.
I tense as I slow down to forty-five and wonder what it will be like if this turns out to be The Time. The time when my time runs out.
I wonder how everyone that I know will find out about it. Will they see it in the newspaper some time tomorrow? Or will they hear it on the radio in the morning? I wonder if they will cut out the little half paragraph and save it. Maybe running across it in the back of an old drawer in a year or so; the paper it’s printed on looking all yellow, dog-eared and worn.
The impact of the event will fade, no doubt, with time. Probably a very short period of time, all things considered. I know because I have experienced it myself. It’s nothing personal, it’s just the way things go. Besides, the length of time doesn’t really matter. The effect is the same. Memory relegated to the past. To be revisited occasionally when the person is forced to remember something about it.
How many cups of coffee have I drunk with them? How many discussions and friendly arguments over things that meant, really, nothing at all? I have a reputation for expounding arcane facts and knowledge; for stretching the truth, exaggerating and bending logic until you would swear that you would hear it snap in two. They knew all of that. They all knew me. And yet, they didn’t know the real me, really, at all. There are things inside my head that I’ve never told anyone and I never will.
I think that some of them will go and take a look at my motorcycle, wherever it ends up afterwards; perhaps out of a morbid sense of curiosity. “It’s sort of strange,” they’ll say, “but it doesn’t look that bad…considering what happened to her.”
Motorcycles never do, do they? Nothing bad. A few scratches. Scrapes. Dents, here and there. Turn signals and the tank and the engine’s side cover crushed or missing. There will be the pungent smell of gasoline and spilled oil and the uprooted weeds and grass wedged into the crevices along its sides will have turned a very light brown, almost white; like tiny little bones.
They will look at the odometer and note the miles I had accumulated, and wonder what the last six-tenths of the ride had been like and if I had been having a good ride before it had all happened. They would remember how much I loved that bike, how much time I had spent cleaning and generally fussing away at it. And they will think that they know how I would feel if I could see it sitting there forlorn like that.
And they would be wrong.
There is a slight buffet of wind as the car goes by maybe ten feet away on the left. My eyes try to adjust to the darkness again.
Plenty of room.
There is always plenty of room.
I know that because I am an optimist.
I always have been.
Chapter 1
by Charles Schiman
I sat in my bed, in my tiny apartment, wondering where it had all gone wrong. I'd been doing that a lot lately. I was halfway to heaven, a little over fifty years old, and I couldn't help but think that they were, pretty much all of them, wasted years.
It hadn't always been so. I was, supposedly, an academic prodigy. All my teachers had said so. But here I sat, not even a college degree. Never lived up to my potential--too easy to take the easy way out and just do enough to get by in class and just be average. I could be brilliant later. I was always a loner, not many friends, not by personal choice. I’d thought things were looking up when I got married. I was wrong there, too. Everything was fine at first, in fact, better than fine. But then it went away. The breakup was amiable. I had a couple of flings after that, but love seemed beyond my reach.
So I sat there thinking (cue the sad violins) "Who would want me?" I was overweight. Smoked a pack a day. Lived in a dump. Locked in a job that sucked. Really. What did I have to offer?
I decided to give up thinking about it...and pretended to read. Then, all of a sudden, I didn't feel so good. It felt like someone clamped a set of vise-grips around my chest. At first, I thought it was heartburn. That was something I got regularly, but this was bad. The pain ran across my chest and traveled down my arm. Stabbing pains shot through the muscles of my neck and I began to realize that this was the real thing.
I was having a heart attack.
Geez, it figured, I told myself; although I'd always thought I would come down with lung disease before my heart packed it in. As I said earlier, my cigarette habit was up to a couple of packs a day.
I looked at the phone, thinking I should call 911 and get some help. But the pain turned to white-hot agony when I tried to sit up. I flopped back onto the bed and gasped for air. What was the point in calling for help? I mean, who would miss me? Maybe my parents. But they were old. My brother? Yes, but he lived on the other side of the country. I hadn't seen him in years. And my sister and I didn't get along. That took care of just about everybody who would notice, so maybe it was better this way. Maybe it was time for me to pack it in. Meet God and see if Heaven was all it was cracked up to be.
I closed my eyes and the pain, if anything, increased.
I felt something crack inside my chest and, for an instant, felt a deep sense of peace flow through me.
Then everything went black.
When I came to, it was morning.
I lay there, puzzled. One deep breath. Another. No pain at all. I could feel the blood coursing through my veins and arteries. Everything felt okay. Maybe I hadn't died after all.
I opened my eyes and looked around. I wasn't in my room. I wasn't even in my apartment. What the--? I frowned. Something was familiar here. I had the distinct impression I'd been in this room before...and then it hit me. Yeah, right. This was my room, but I hadn't been there since my childhood. How did I get here, I wondered. Then I wondered how the room could be here. My parents' house had been torn down years ago.
I swallowed and looked around.
The room looked exactly like it did during my childhood, but the Beatles posters were missing from the walls. I remembered putting them up back sometime when I was in the eighth grade. I looked at my feet under the covers and felt a sudden shock. I was thin, ridiculously skinny! But I had only been that way when I was small. I didn't get fat until after I quit college the first time.
This had to be a dream, I decided. Didn't it?
I heard the door open, the one outside my room and down the stairs.
"Charles!" I heard. "Get up! You don't want to miss the bus to school!"
"Okay, Mom," I grumbled, seemingly automatically. And then...wait a minute. School? Mom? What was going on here? Where was I? Or, more accurately, when was I? I got up, stumbled over to the mirror in my room, and looked at myself. What looked back was a kid who looked to about twelve. It was me, but I was fourteen years old. When I was a kid, I always had looked a couple of years younger than I was. It was one of the many crosses I had borne. All the grown-ups thought it was cute but I never did. This had to be a dream.
I slapped myself. I pinched myself. Anything to wake up, but it didn't work. Okay, fine, I told myself. Just go back to sleep. When you wake up, you'll be back in your apartment and everything will be fine.
I went back to sleep...and the alarm went off.
"Charles! Get up! Breakfast is almost ready!"
If this was a dream, I was still in it. I got up, found some clothes, and pulled them on. Gathered up my books. What grade was I in? Eighth, a part of my brain supplied. Oh, yeah. Right. Eighth grade. Shit.
As I got ready for school, every move seemed automatic. It was as if I had two sets of memories. The first set, the prominent, or, dominant, set contained all the events of my life up to the heart attack. The other set of memories were sort of floating around in the background. They were the memories of the kid, Charles. These memories I could access almost like a database or something--memories of things that I wouldn't have been able to remember after all these years. The little things--day-to-day stuff, like where I kept my clothes, what day it was, my class schedule. Stuff like that.
I sat on my bed, thinking. While I was thinking, I realized that I wanted a cigarette. No, needed a cigarette. Whoa! How could that happen? It must be the older me needing the smoke. It had to be. The younger Charles hadn't started smoking yet. So, the craving is psychological, I told myself. Get over it.
I headed downstairs.
Mom and Dad were there. I took one look at Dad and had a shock. Boy, did he look young! Oops. Of course, he looked young, I told myself. Or, more accurately, younger. Mom also looked...well...shockingly young. She would've only been, what, thirty-four? And I was looking at her with eyes that were fifty, yesterday--well, of course she looked young. My sister Carol--who was maybe ten or eleven--was sitting at the breakfast table. So was my brother, Craig, who had turned nine in July.
Mom was dishing out bacon and eggs and we ate, while that "other" set of memories kept me acting how I was supposed to act, saying what I usually said, letting me know what current jokes were passing through the family.
After breakfast I trudged off to school. I instinctively remembered where it--and the bus stop--was, too. I kept asking myself, How can this be real? When do I wake up? Quite honestly, if some supreme being he decided to send me to Hell, plunking me down at the beginning of my eighth-grade year would have been diabolically clever. Eighth grade had been the worst time of my life. I couldn't remember a lot of it but most of what I did remember was one long unhappy blur of emotional pain and agony and loneliness.
That was the year I went to school every day knowing I had a fifty-fifty chance of getting the living daylights beaten out of me. I had no friends. I was skinny. Not physical or into sports. I was smart enough to wreck the curve for the other students in my classes, since I could ace the tests most of the time without really cracking the books. A lot of the stuff bored me, so sometimes I would refuse to do my homework, which didn't make the teachers like me, either.
I sat on the bus, by myself, and it all washed over me. I felt despair creep in. I began to remember, in detail, just how horrific my eighth-grade year had been...and now I was going to live through it again. Whose idea of a sick joke was this? Hell was looking like a good explanation.
I didn't get beat up that morning, but I was pushed around a bit. I was also taunted, but it was the pushing and the physical intimidation which bothered me more. This time. I mean, this time around. When you're a kid, you think that's just the way it is. Some things will never change. And so, I was confronted with my fourteen-year-old physical weaknesses. A skinny kid who looked a couple of years younger than everybody else was a tempting target for all the bullies and low-life’s who are part of any group of kids.
I ate lunch and headed for English class. After that, I made it through the rest of the school day relatively unscathed and got on the bus to go home. When I got home, I did my homework before supper. Not that I had much to do. As I said, I got good grades without cracking a book. Then, homework done, I wandered around my room, looking for something to do. To my delight, I found a book; one of my favorites in my childhood. It was a large compendium of science fiction. I hadn't seen it in years and thought it had gotten lost. I fell asleep reading it and dreamed uneasily; wondering where or when I would wake up.
By my fourth day "back" it had sunk in that this was going to be real--or as real as reality gets, anyway. It looked like I was going to be stuck here. What I decided I needed to do was be an eighth grader and use my older experiences and memories to make this time period better for me. I was, as a fifty-year-old, much more confident and, relatively speaking, witty and eloquent. I'd outgrown my nervous habit of stuttering when I got excited, and I could draw on that, use it for me, not against me. I started looking for things to change.
On Saturday, I asked Dad about the possibility of purchasing a weight set. At first, he looked shocked that his lazy, bookworm son would want to lift weights, but he was all for it. We went right out and found a set. I started lifting weights and I started running. I also decided I needed to learn how to study, so I wouldn't wash out of college again.
The next couple of weeks went fine. I was still experimenting with how I reacted to things. Just subtle changes. But I was trying to change my attitude and tried to walk around with more confidence. It seemed to be working, somewhat.
It was about this time that I realized something. I knew the future. I knew what stocks were going to be doing well when I was fifty. But what could I do with that information? I was just a kid, here. Who would believe me when I made stock purchase suggestions? I would have to figure something out about that. What, I didn't know, but something. I also wondered what would happen to the future I came from if I changed too many things here. Would it be a case of a butterfly's wings flapping in Malaysia causing some catastrophic event later on? I didn't know.
Anyhow, I found an old guitar that one of my aunts had bought me a few years back. It was a nice acoustic. I knew that this was about the time I had started playing the guitar the first time around. Of course, this time around, I learned much more quickly. In my future, I had been playing the guitar for fun for more than thirty years.
So I was suddenly a different son to my parents. I quit moping in my room. Instead, I was actually reading my textbooks, doing my homework without complaint, and spending hours running. I got odd looks from them but ignored their confusion. After all, I was becoming the model son, wasn't I? Wasn't that what every parent wanted?
Saturdays were spent running. I alternated my running routine so I wouldn't get bored. Some Saturdays, I went for a couple of miles in a loop, heading through the neighborhoods to the east of our house. Sometime I headed through Cabot Park. a neighborhood a half mile in the other direction from my house.
A lot of kids I knew lived in Cabot Park. One of them was Kathy. I never ran down her street, Roosevelt, but I did run through the adjacent subdivision. One of her friends, Kelly Stevens, lived there. I'd known Kelly since the first grade. Kelly had actually been my first crush, back in the third and fourth grade. Of course, when I was that young, I showed my affection by throwing various bugs, dirt, and other critters at her. As I ran up Mohican Drive, there they were, Kathy and Kelly, walking together.
"Charlie?" Kelly said as I ran towards them.
I hated being called "Charlie." My name was "Charles" and I knew Kelly was doing that deliberately. In fact, she had instigated a conspiracy with all the other girls I knew to have everyone call me "Charlie." But I would be cool, I said to myself. You know better than to get wound up. Your voice will crack and then you'll start stammering. So, I kept it simple.
"Hi," I said as I came to a stop by them.
"Hey, you've taken up running?" Kelly said.
"Yep," I said and nodded. "And I'm lifting weights now." I hesitated and then added, "I'm really sick and tired of being out of shape."
"Good for you!" Kathy said with genuine enthusiasm.
"You're not fat, though," Kelly said.
"I will be," I said and laughed. "If I don't watch out. I just had a growth spurt this past year. When everything catches up...well, fat runs in my family. I'm going to try and break the mold."
"Oh," Kelly said, as if she wasn't really certain she understood what I meant but agreeing, anyway.
"I'm also getting tired of getting picked on in school," I added.
"Yeah," Kathy chimed in with what sounded like sympathy. Maybe she wanted to get into the conversation. "I notice everybody seemed to be picking on you last year."
"I hope I don't get fat," Kelly piped in, "because I can't touch anything right now with this thing on." Kelly gestured toward the large brace on her back. She had been diagnosed with scoliosis and her doctor had put her in a brace. At the beginning, Kelly had fought against wearing it--saying it made her look like a freak--but her parents had put their foot down.
"That brace doesn't look so bad," I said. "Just don't eat." The three of us laughed and then I asked, "How long will you be in that thing, anyway?"
A sour expression appeared on her face. "Six months to a year. Maybe longer," she replied, her voice dark.
"That sucks," I said, "but it's all for the best." I gave her a pat on the shoulder. "Just hang in there, okay?"
A smile appeared like a ray of sunshine. "Thanks."
I nodded my head in an imitation of a little bow. "Least I could do." I looked around. "Well, back to running. See you later, ladies."
At the one-month mark, I took a day off from running and sat in the city park, thinking. Things were going fairly well. I had accepted that this second childhood was "real" and that I was not going to be waking up to my old life any time soon. My parents had expressed surprise with the speed with which I had learned to play the guitar. I'd also gotten a paper route, started making some money and bought a bunch of new clothes. I would never be outrageously handsome, but I figured that I could dress better. I also got new glasses. I couldn't get contacts--at that time they were way too expensive--but I could get glasses that weren't so damned ugly, like the ones I had picked out the first time around. I don't know what that other me had been thinking when he'd picked those the first time.
The new glasses were noticed by all. My parents began making references to the "stranger in the house" and even my sister noticed them. I was now in control of things. I had changed myself and began working on plans to change our family finances. I was now a fixer, not a loser. Like a god, I could change everything for the better. I could fix all the problems that had plagued me all my life.
Then God spoke and said, No you can't. Not everything.
I was sitting in the lunchroom eating lunch when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I looked up and there was Beth Adler. I had known her since we were toddlers. I felt something throbbing in the back of my head. Why hadn't I seen her here before? I had been so busy running and stuff I guess I hadn't noticed. Where had she been? Then my brain supplied the answer and I said, "Beth! You're back? You're out of the hospital?"
"Yup," she said and nodded. "Chemo's over and I'm in remission. Cross your fingers." Then she grinned and walked away.
The throbbing got worse and I almost ran for the boy's restroom. Luckily there was no one in there. I was alone. I went into a stall and the tears started almost immediately. Beth had leukemia and I knew she would go out of remission and be dead and buried before the Easter holidays. I had lived through it once before and now I was going to have to go through it again. There was nothing I could do to change what was going to happen to her. I didn't have a cure for leukemia in my back pocket. It still hadn't been cured in my time. There were better treatments, bone marrow transplants had become commonplace treatment, but they still didn't always work.
I took the next day off from school, pleading illness. Since I hardly ever missed school, Mom let me get away with it. In fact, I think she might have been secretly relieved. This was more like the "old" me. I stayed in my room all day, thinking. I wasn't too proud of the way I had dealt with Beth during last days of her illness. So, I decided that that was what I was going to change this time around.
Beth was strong-willed and smart. She could detect a con or a platitude the instant it hit her ears. She knew exactly what was wrong with her. In the beginning, she had demanded to be told everything, no matter how bad. And then she had gone to the library to make sure what they had told her was the truth. For her strain of leukemia, the survival rate was five per cent for five years. Twenty-five per cent lived two years. Half lived for one. It was a death sentence and she knew it.
So, this time around, I would be the supportive friend that I wasn't the first time around. This time, I would be different.
It was strange, but after I made the decision, I didn't feel any better. I felt like I should do more. Do a little pushing back against God or Fate or whoever had decided that Beth had to die before she had even had enough time to be alive. After supper, I was sitting with my Dad. He asked if I was feeling better and I told him that I was.
Then I said, "I had a really strange dream last night."
"Oh?" Dad said. "What was it?"
I put on an uncomfortable look. "You might think it's strange. Like I'm clairvoyant or something."
He gave me an odd look and then laughed uneasily. "Okay. Let's hear it and I'll tell you if you've got ESP."
I gave him my intense, serious look. "The message in the dream was kind of murky." I paused and then said, "Eye protection."
He stared at me. "Eye protection?" he echoed, his voice puzzled.
"Yeah," I replied, nodding my head. "I know the dream was about you, so if you even have a glimmer of a thought that you might need eye protection, get some. Don't take a chance."
An expression of skepticism had replaced the puzzled one, but after a moment he nodded and said, "Okay, Charles. I'll keep that in mind."
"Thanks."
There was no dream, of course. But sometime during the next three months my Dad would be in a bar, getting a cold one after work. The place had strange floor mats. They were made of rubber but surrounding them on the outside was a strip of metal. On the day in question, the owner of the bar asked him if he could fix one of those mats. One part of the metal edging had broken and was sticking up in the air. The owner was afraid someone would step on it while wearing some thin-soled shoes and get hurt. Maybe resulting in a lawsuit or something. Dad was known as a kind of fix-it man and always carried his tools with him in his truck. He went out and got his wire cutters but didn't put on his safety glasses. He didn't lose an eye or anything, but the metal piece had cut through one eyebrow and embedded itself in the boney ridge of his skull, just above the eye socket. They'd had to remove it at the hospital. The doctors had said at the time that if he'd only been wearing his safety glasses, the metal piece would had probably hit the glasses and bounced away instead of embedding itself in his skull.
Two days later was Saturday and I was running again. Besides keeping me in shape, I found running was good for thinking. On this particular Saturday I had pushed myself. It a good day for running, just about fifty degrees--cool, not too hot, but not really frigid, either. I'd gone longer than usual and when I wound my way through Cabot Park, I was winded. By the time I reached Mohican, I was basically walking. I had overdone it a little bit.
"Hey, it's Running Man! But he's walking!" I looked over and on Kelly Steven's porch sat Kelly and Kathy, chatting. Kelly was the one yelling.
"Hi, girls," I said and gave them a little wave.
"Sit," Kathy said, grinning. "Rest a bit."
"Okay," I said. "Maybe I should." I grinned and sat next to her.
"Hold on," Kelly said and ran into her house. She came back out with a glass of lemonade.
"Kelly, you're a doll," I said and happily accepted it.
"We've been talking about you," Kathy said and then added, "Kelly and me."
"Oh, really?" I replied with a grin--something I never would have been able to pull off a couple of months ago.
"Yes, really," Kathy grinned back. "You've changed. A lot. In like just two months."
"I'm trying to," I admitted. "I haven't been too happy with myself...lately."
"Does it help?" Kathy asked. "The running?"
"Sometimes. I think lot while I'm running."
"Hey," Kelly interrupted, "I've been meaning to ask you. I've seen you talking to Beth so, obviously, you know her. Is she sick?"
I looked at the ground. "Yes, she's sick." Beth wasn't keeping it a secret, but she wasn't broadcasting her illness to anyone and everyone. But she had told me as soon as she'd found out...the first time around. I brought my gaze up and looked Kelly and Kathy straight in the eye and said quietly, "Beth has leukemia."
Their eyes got big.
"Oh," Kelly said. "Is she going to...?"
"Most likely," I replied. "The prognosis isn't good at all."
"Oh, that's terrible," Kathy said.
I took a deep breath. "You girls have known me for a long time," I said quietly. "You know the list of people I consider friends is very short. Beth's at the top of it. I've known her since I was born. She's like a sister."
"I am so sorry," Kathy said, lightly laying a hand on my shoulder. Kelly nodded, looking as though she wanted to put a hand on my shoulder, too.
"Thanks," I said, "to both of you. It means a lot." I stood up and forced a smile. "Well, back to running. Thanks for the lemonade, Kelly. It really hit the spot."
"Anytime," she said and grinned.
I took off.
Time went by and I got complacent. You see, I had been back for almost three months, and then Mark Herron nailed me in shop class. I hated shop. It was one of those mandatory things schools do to make guys into guys and the girls (who have to take Home Economics) into girls. He was sitting behind me and thought it would be fun to take a piece of sheet metal, heat it up with his lighter and then grab my hand and slap the hot metal onto my palm and curl my fingers over it.
This had happened the first time around, but later. I wasn't expecting it. And, just like the first time, I got second degree burns on my hand. What happened next hadn't happened the first time around. Strengthened with adrenaline from the pain, I had gotten out of my seat and nailed him with a backhanded left, knocking him out of his seat. His head hit the floor and knocked him cold.
It was the first fight I had ever won in my life.
The last time around, Mark had gotten in trouble for burning my hand. It pissed him off, so later in the week he had beaten the crap out of me. I figured this part of the future would repeat. More so, given that this time I'd knocked him out in front of the shop class--skinny little me. And in case you are wondering, the trouble he got into for burning me was just a stern lecture from the principal. No suspension or reprimand. But it still pissed him off.
Later that week came the fight, just like the first time. We were in gym class, waiting for something, I forget exactly what. Maybe for Coach. I knew I wasn't a match for Mark. Even with all the weight lifting and running, he was almost a foot taller and thirty pounds heavier than I was. Of course, I was different this time around. One thing I had learned as an adult was that bullies like Mark could smell fear. And the first time around I had been a walking bundle of fear. This time I wasn't scared. I knew the world wasn't going to end with this fight. My adult self knew what to do. First, I didn't wait for him.
I walked right over to him and said, "Hey, Mark, I hear you want another go-around."
He looked at me as the rest of the gym class formed a group around us.
So I said, "Why do you want to fight? I think putting second degree burns on my hand should have been enough for somebody like you. But if you want to go at it again, we can do it."
He moved his feet, settling himself into a stance...reluctantly, it seemed to me. "I have to keep my rep," he said.
"As what," I asked. "The school asshole?"
His face turned red. "Better than being the school wuss," he spat at me.
So we went at it. I held my own and he didn't mop the floor with me but it was more or less a draw. He got a few good hits in, but I did too, and then Coach and a couple of gym teachers came in and broke it up.
We were sent to the principal's office. The principal seemed to want to place more of the blame on me than on Mark. The, "It takes two to fight," theory, I guess. So, I interrupted him and said, "Tell me, why don't students who give other students second degree burns get suspended?" The principal stopped talking and stared at me. I went on and said, "Maybe if you'd clamp down on some of this shit, you wouldn't have to spend so much time yelling."
This time, Mark joined the principal in staring at me.
I was suspended for three days.
As I headed home to tell my parents that their "Perfect, Good Son" had just been suspended for profanity and fighting, it hit me. I was entering uncharted territory. This hadn't happened the first time. The first time, Mark and I had just gotten chewed out by the principal and then sent back to class. When I got home, Mom and Dad were in the kitchen talking to each other in quiet tones. When I came in, they looked up, startled.
Mom spoke first. "What are you doing home so early, Charles? Are you sick again?"
I shook my head and swallowed. "No, Mom." I hesitated and then decided to just say it. "Um, Mom, Dad...?"
"Yes?"
"I've been suspended from school for three days."
They blinked and then looked at each other. I guess that me getting suspended was the last thing they had expected. The three of us stood there for almost a minute. Then Mom said to Dad, "Carl, I think I'll let you handle this."
She got up and left the kitchen. Dad studied me for a moment.
"Do you want to tell me about it?" he asked.
I shuffled my feet. "Well, there's not much to tell."
"Try me."
I hesitated and then said, "Okay. The guy that burned my hand came after me again. We fought. They sent us to see the principal. When I saw that he wasn't going to do anything again, I got mad and said some stuff."
Dad nodded. "I see."
"I told him if he clamped down on some of this shit, he wouldn't have to spend so much time yelling."
"The suspension is for three days?" Dad asked.
I nodded my head.
"Okay. You're grounded for three days. No TV, no reading, no lifting weights, no running. Understood?"
It was my turn to be surprised. That was it? I nodded my head. This was okay with me.
Dad studied me for a moment and then said, "Charles, come and sit down at the table." I did and for a couple of minutes Dad drummed his fingers on the surface of the kitchen table. He stopped and then studied me again.
"You've really changed a lot since you started running and using those weights," he said quietly. I didn't reply. After it became apparent that I wasn't going to answer, he continued, saying, "You've changed a lot...emotionally, as well."
"Adolescents change a lot as they grow up," I commented in an offhand tone.
His head came up and he studied me in a way that made me feel uncomfortable. "You've been doing and saying a lot of things lately which aren't like you. Your mother is worried."
"Why?" I asked. "Haven't I been acting like the kind of kid a parent would kill for?" I was speaking off the top of my head, trying to think of a way to defuse the situation. Dad frowned and I saw my mistake. "Um, sorry," I said hastily. "Wrong choice of words." I ran my fingers through my hair. "What I meant to say, was--"
"Never mind," Dad said, cutting me off. "Then there is your dream. Your mother wants me to take you to a doctor."
I was puzzled. "What dream?" I asked.
He rubbed his mouth and then said, "Eye protection."
My mouth almost fell open. What? It had happened? This morning? "But that wasn't supposed to happen until some night after work," I said without thinking.
Dad's eyebrows went up in surprise. Then he frowned quietly and went on to explain that he had gone to the grocery store that morning to get some stuff for Mom before he went to work. The grocer asked him if he could trim this metal strip which had just come loose after they'd opened. Dad had gone out to his truck to get his wire cutters, no big deal, when he remembered my "dream" and grabbed his safety glasses, too.
"I couldn't believe it," he told me. "That little piece of metal snapped loose and shot right into my face." He pointed toward the kitchen counter and I saw his safety glasses sitting there, left lens cracked at a forty-five-degree angle, all the way across.
"If I hadn't been wearing those glasses," Dad said quietly, "I would have lost an eye."
"Whoa," I said.
"Yeah," he said. "Whoa." He slid his chair so that it was next to mine. "Charles, we were talking about this when you came in. We're both worried about the changes that are happening to you, so we are going to have a doctor check you over. Just to make sure that nothing is wrong with you," he added hastily.
Well, okay, I thought. I've taken all kinds of assessment tests as an adult. I couldn't see any pitfalls looming.
"How soon can we do it?" I asked. "I've been kind of worried about things myself."
The day before Thanksgiving Break, I was walking from one class to another. I was in an area of the school that didn't get much traffic. It was the end of a hallway, with stairs leading down to the bottom floor. There were only a few classrooms down there. The school was on a hill and instead of excavating for an entire floor of "underground" class rooms, the school district had simply extended the "upper" floor out and built a couple of class rooms underneath--sort of like an upside-down "L" with four class rooms under the end of the building which extended out from the top of the hill. There was a side set of stairs midway down the hall which angled to the rooms along with the stairway at the end of the building. It was quicker to just zip down the angled stairs. Because of that, the end staircase was usually deserted.
But today, it wasn't.
Up ahead, I saw Kelly Stevens at the top of the stairs, but she wasn't going down. She was surrounded by three of the nastier bullies of the school. They were taunting her, making fun of her back brace, calling her Quasimodo and making a bunch of hunchback motions and saying, "Here comes the cripple!"
Kelly looked like she was about to cry.
Did this happen the first time around? I searched my memories but couldn't remember. I felt a rush of anger. Where did these guys get off hassling those who were less fortunate?
I walked up to the ringleader and stopped. He and his two companions quit talking and looked at me. After a moment, he said, "So, what do you want?"
"I want you to leave her alone," I replied. I was careful to pitch my voice low so I wouldn't do that pubescent squeak. I hated it when my voice cracked and this would have been a bad time for it to happen.
"Yeah?" the asshole sneered. He leaned against the railing.
"Yeah!" I snapped back. "Don't you have anything better to do than pick on the nicest girl in school just because she's got a bad back?"
He glanced at his two buddies. "Look at this!" he said and laughed. "The school wuss!" He looked back at me. "What do you plan to do about it?"
I cocked my head to one side. "How about I toss you over the railing?"
He looked startled and involuntarily glanced over his shoulder. It was a long drop down. His two buddies looked at me nervously and started to edge away. Their movement was not lost on the ringleader. He glared at me and said, "You're lucky it's almost time for class, you skinny little shit." He glanced at his two cohorts. "Come on, let's go."
They stalked down the hall.
I turned and watched them go. I felt weak, but good. I had really not expected it to turn out this way. When I turned back around, Kelly was looking at me like I was some kind of alien who had just stepped out of a spaceship. Hell, I couldn't blame her. I was just as surprised by my actions myself.
"C'mon, Kelly, let's get you to class," I said. I grabbed her arm and steered her toward the stairs. We walked down the stairs and the whole time she looked at me like I had four heads. We got to the bottom and headed for the class rooms. Hers was right across the hall from mine.
"Are you okay?" I asked as we got there.
"Yes, I'm fine," she said. And then she kissed my cheek! "Thank you, Charlie," she said and disappeared into her class room.
I pretty much floated into mine. In class, I thought about what I should do next. I figured, what with the way bullies seem to think they have to maintain their bully status, that I would just keep quiet about the incident and not say a word to anyone about the altercation on the stairs. Well, I did tell my parents, who seemed proud of me, although they also looked worried at yet another example of strange behavior on my part. But I didn't tell anyone about it at school. I figured the bullies sure wouldn't be telling anyone about it, so I figured that any repercussions would be avoided. But I had forgotten about Kelly. Never one to keep quiet, she told all her friends about what had happened and how I'd come to her rescue. The next day she was waiting for me at the top of the stairs and walking down them together to our respective first-floor class room became a daily occurrence.
A week after the stairway incident, I was dawdling around my locker and missed my school bus. This had been a long-term problem of mine the first time around. I tended to lose track of time. Some things are hard to change. I gathered my school book and headed for the pay phones in front of the school. Christ, I missed cell phones! I dropped my spare change into the coin slots and called home. No answer. Crap. Where was Mom when I needed her? I scowled and slammed the receiver down, and the shoved my hands into my pockets and glared at it. Then I heard someone behind me giggle. I turned around and there was Beth, grinning at me.
"Missed your bus and your Mom's not home again, right?" she asked.
I nodded my head. "You got it, Beth."
"Well, come on, then. We can walk over to my house and you can call her again from there. Just like old times."
Beth lived close enough to the school to walk. I couldn't remember how many time in the last year or so that I'd walked home with her to her house and then hung out there until I could get hold of my mom. There was a short cut we always took from school through an undeveloped lot which formed a ragged "C" behind the hill the school was built on.
So," she said, "is what I hear true?"
"It depends on what you've heard," I replied. Beth didn't say anything, so I said, "So...what did you hear?"
"That you're in love with Kelly."
"What?!" I stopped short and frowned at her. "Who told you that?"
"She did," she replied and grinned. "She's nuts about you! You are all she wants to talk about."
"Oh." I laughed and felt uncomfortable. "Well, yeah--I came to her rescue. But anybody would have done what I did. So, 'nuts about me'? No, you're wrong. I don't think so."
"Hey, I don't think 'anybody' would have done what you did. I think that your coming to her rescue was sweet."
"Sweet?" I echoed. "Oh, yeah, right. Geez, Beth, guys don't get the girl by being sweet!"
"How would you know?" Beth retorted.
I thought about that for a moment. "Okay," I conceded. "Maybe I 'don't' know. But I do know that wusses don't get the girls, either."
"You're not a wuss!" Elizabeth snapped. "It's just those Neanderthal pinheads who say so. You just need someone to watch out for them for you!"
"Hey, I know I'm not a wuss," I replied. "And I know you were watching out for me all last year and I want to say, thank you."
She stopped walking and looked at me in complete shock.
"What?" she gasped.
I took a deep breath. "You helped me get through last year. I don't know what I would've done if you hadn't been there." I paused, thinking, and then you got leukemia. I took another breath and continued. "Seventh grade was the worst year of my life. I felt like a complete outcast. But you introduced me to your friends. You told the jerks to get off my back in English class. If you saw me eating alone, you dragged your friends over to eat with me. Last year was hell, Beth, but the bright spot was you." I stopped talking. A lump had come into my throat. Beth was looking at me like I was an alien being. I took a deep breath and added, "And then they discovered you had leukemia and now you might die."
I watched her reaction, wondering how she would take my words. The first time around I hadn't said them. I had swallowed the words and the feelings that I had felt and started avoiding being around her. And then she had died and it was too late to say them. It had haunted me into adulthood. I saw tears forming in her eyes and thought, "Oh, crap! I've blown it." I had made her cry.
Then, without warning, she threw herself against me and I was holding her in my arms, her face buried against my chest. I didn't know what to do or say, so I didn't do or say anything. I just stroked her hair as she sobbed and let her cry it out.
Finally she calmed down and tried to explain what she was thinking. "I'm sorry, Charlie," she said. "But lately I've been worrying...wondering, you know, if my life's going to mean anything at all. You know...have I done anything good? Life seems so short. I mean, I won't have done anything in my life...before I, you know..."
"Die?" She looked at me, her eyes tragic, and I continued, saying, "Hey, I know how you feel because I've thought about that a lot, too. Ever since you told me about having leukemia."
"So...you know I'm probably going to die?" She pulled a tissue from her coat pocket and wiped her eyes. I nodded and she blew her nose, noisily. Then she started walking again and I fell into step beside her.
"Good," she said, looking at the ground ahead of us as we walked, her voice sounding a little harsh. "Everyone else around me seems to be in denial."
"That's not true," I protested.
"Oh, it's true, all right," she said kicking at some gravel. "Mom, my Dad, all my aunts and uncles," she glanced at me, "most of my friends. Everyone either won't talk about it, like pretending it isn't there is going to stop it from happening, or they act like there's going to be some freaking miracle or something and then I'll live happily ever after." She scowled, as if daring me to disagree with her.
"Beth, they want you to have some hope."
"Yeah, hope," she agreed, "but I'm a realist." She gestured angrily with her hand. "Somebody has to be realistic! The odds are against me. Stacked as high as the sky. I don't think anyone really thinks that I'll be living to a ripe old age." She pulled the tissue out and wiped her nose again. "And then they say, focus on the future. Like that's ever going to happen! 'Honey, maybe this treatment will work. Maybe that treatment will work.' Here, take some vitamins, they'll make you stronger. Shit, for all they know, maybe Marvel Mystery Oil will work or make me stronger!" She stopped and faced me, her hands on her hips. "I can't keep doing that. If I focus on a future that never comes, I'll have wasted the present--which was here when I still had the time to be focusing on it and living in it!"
We started walking again and I said, "So, what's your plan?"
She shrugged. "I don't have a 'plan.' I don't have any answers, either. I just wake up each morning and lay there in bed making sure I'm really still alive. Then I go to school and go about pretending I have a life." She looked at me. "Is that a plan?"
I shrugged my shoulders. "I guess."
"A good plan?"
"I guess."
"That's not much help."
I put both hands on her shoulders. "Any time you need my help, ask. I'll support you in any way I can." I gave her shoulders a little squeeze and added, "Count on me. I got your back."
Beth's dad greeted us when we arrived at her house. Her dad worked as an investment advisor and I suddenly remembered my idea of making a fortune on my knowledge of where stocks would be when I was fifty. That idea abruptly crashed to the ground when I asked about setting up an account in my name.
He smiled at me, indulgent amusement in his eyes. "Going to be one of the great Robber-Barons of the Twentieth Century, eh, Charlie?"
I frowned. "I have some ideas about investing," I said. "I would like to try them out. Why?"
He smoothed the indulgent expression from his face. "Well, if I were you, Charlie, I would read the stock sections of the newspaper and note the stocks you want to buy and how many shares you can afford to purchase. Then, when you plan to sell them, note the selling price and the profit gained."
I folded my arms across my chest. "And this helps me...how?"
"Hey, don't get mad at me, Charlie," Beth's dad said quietly. "You're only fourteen. You need to learn the basics before you play the game. Do what I suggest and it will help you learn and understand the fundamentals of the market--buying and selling."
I felt the blood rushing to my cheeks. He thought he was looking at some little kid with pie-in-the-sky fantasy dreams of being a stock broker and wasn't taking me seriously. He was doing everything but patting on the head and telling me to go back and play with all the other little kids.
"Just suppose I want an account set up now," I said. Oh man, I sounded like a little kid--even to me. I took a deep breath and continued. "How would I do it?"
"You wouldn't," he said bluntly. "You're a minor, Charlie. Brokerages and banks can't set up a commercial purchase account until you're twenty-one."
"But I have my own savings account."
"In your parents' name."
Crap. I'd forgotten about that. Funny how I kept forgetting that I wasn't an adult with "adult" privileges. I was going to have to think of another way to do this. "Okay," I said, smiling to show there were no hard feelings. "I see. Thanks for talking to me, anyway."
"Sure, Charlie," he replied. Then he added, as if as an afterthought, "If you decide to try that little exercise, Charlie, let me see the notes in a couple of months and we can talk further."
"Okay," I said.
Beth's mom came into the room and asked if I wanted to come into the living room and have some cookies and watch TV with Beth while I waited for my mom. I went out into the living room and ate a couple of cookies while waiting for Beth to come in from the kitchen. The cookies were good. Totally natural, made with real oatmeal and molasses. Beth's parents were really going all out on the all-natural, organic foods and vitamin thing. I could have told them that it wasn't going to make any difference...but why ruin their hopes?
Beth came in, looking a little green from swallowing all her afternoon medications, plus all the extra herbs and things her mom was making her take, and said, "Hey, what were you talking to my dad about?"
"Stock accounts," I said with a superior tone in my voice as I grabbed another cookie. Boy, they were good--even if they were organic.
"What about them?"
"Well, I want to set up an account for myself and I didn't know how to go about doing it. I thought your dad could help."
"Did he?"
"Not really. He shot down the idea before I could really go into detail about what I want to do."
She grinned at me. "What are you going to do, Charlie? Become a millionaire stock market tycoon?"
"I just have some ideas about buying penny-stocks on margin accounts," I said.
"I have no idea what you're talking about," Beth retorted.
She grabbed the television remote control. "What show do you want to watch?"
End of Chapter.
Capter 2A
by Charles Schiman
Later that night, after leaving Beth’s house and returning home to supper, I found my thoughts fixated on Beth’s health problem—her fate, I guess—and my own problems with what I should do to cope with my own situation. Needless to say, I wasn’t very talkative during supper and I think everyone was wondering and speculating as to what, exactly, was eating at me this evening.
My parents were probably worried about my mental state; whether I was suffering from some form of mental illness or whether or not I was just going through a more intense and catastrophic form of adolescent angst.
My brother and sister were a different story. They were unaware of the premonition I had had concerning dad’s eyes—they were trying to relate my current behavior with the sibling that I used to be, someone who was quiet, shy, withdrawn, and afraid to rock the boat, with the current me who seemed determined to become something of an athlete where before he has hated all sports and physical endeavor; now sassing his parents and seemingly antagonistic to following the rules of the world while simultaneously slaving to achieve honor student status, while at the same time acting to get himself suspended from school for getting into and starting several fights.
Hell, I didn’t blame them for being confused. I was confused. I was just playing things by ear; dealing with problems and crisis with no overall plan in mind at all. Sure, the first couple of decisions were made in reaction to my…um…supposed heart attack and death—although, as far as I knew, I could very well be laying comatose somewhere in some kind of an ongoing dream state. But—if this was reality—worries about the consequences of what I was doing seemed to darken the outlook of the future which was laid out before me.
Was the Future written in stone? Maybe. Although it seemed to me that the changes I’d made in my life, while really sort of small in the grand scheme of things, had had some significant results. They had actually changed the Future; in fact, they were still altering it—maybe putting me into a slightly different trajectory, so to speak, but causing things to really change, anyway. A different path, mostly still the same—but different.
Maybe it was the same for everybody else, but I retained the memories of my previously projected future and was able to compare the changes which happened when I alter my behavior and did something different than what I did before. One big problem which had come up, though, was that in changing the timeline, I was only sort of altering things but the big stuff still happened. The big fight happened earlier than it had in my “previous” life. Ditto with the accident my dad narrowly avoided. I had thought that my warning might side-step the accident and might even keep it from happening, but no—the accident jumped forward to happen on the same day that I really broke from my past, swore at the principal and gotten myself suspended. Coincidence? Deep in the back of my mind I didn’t think so. They almost felt like one had caused the other—or both—to “fast forward.”
We finished dinner and I headed upstairs to do my school work. I did the homework quickly. It was almost like only half of my mind was concerned with working through and solving all those niggling math and English problems. The question that kept me preoccupied was one with which I had grapple with most of my life: Why am I Here? And: What am I supposed to be doing about it? That was the big question, wasn’t it? If I really tried to think about it, I couldn’t get my mind around the enormity of that question. I was still trying to reduce the situation into something that could be explained away as inconsequential. You know, small potatoes; not mindboggling, world-shattering or world-changing enormity.
I chewed my lower lip. Could I change the world—with my inner knowledge of what was coming in the future? Should I? Or was even thinking along those lines setting myself up to become some kind of monster, should I make some catastrophically bad choices or decisions; the kind which might cause some global catastrophe?
There was a tap at my door and I turned in my chair to face the door. “Yes?” I asked.
“It’s me,” my dad’s voice sounded from outside my door. “Can I come in so we can have a little talk?”
“Sure,” I replied. “I’m pretty much done with my homework.”
The door opened and my dad came in. He closed the door behind him and gestured toward my bed. “Do you mind if I sit down? This talk might take a while.”
“Sure,” I said, waving my hand toward the bed. “Have a seat. What did you want to talk about?
“What’s happening tomorrow,” he replied. He paused and then said, “We’ve made an appointment for you to see a doctor.” He hesitated and then added, “A specialist.”
I studied him for a moment, wondering, What sort of specialist? Instead, I said, “Okay. Since you came up here to tell me about it now, I guess that means that the appointment is going to happen during school. Right?”
He nodded, but didn’t say anything else. He looked like he wanted to, though, but wasn’t sure how to proceed.
Well, I’ve never been afraid to rush right in, so I said, “There’s something else, isn’t there?”
He nodded his head. “Your mother and I will be taking you to the appointment,” he said quietly. “We’ll be leaving early in the morning—the place where the specialist works is about a two-hour drive from here.”
“Okay,” I said quietly, nodding my head.
He frowned at me. “You don’t seem surprised.”
I shook my head from side to side. “No, not really. I would think that what’s going on with me is a little beyond the scope of a small-town G-P.”
Dad pursed his lips and then nodded grudgingly, saying, “Yes. Beyond the scope of even our local hospital.”
“So, I figure that this guy that we’re going to see, specializes in the human brain but more advanced than your run-of-the-mill neurologist. Perhaps, specializing in unusual diseases of the brain, possibly affecting cognition, perception, impairment and emotional stability.”
His eyes widened. I had scared him. “How do you even know this stuff?”
I looked down at the floor. “I’m not sure, dad. It just comes to me.” I looked back up and we looked at each other. “I really think seeing this doctor is a good idea. I think that I’m scared, too.”
He nodded his head and got to his feet. He looked tired and fretful. His eyes were troubled. “Well, hang in there, sport,” he said quietly. “We’ll get this thing sorted out.”
Everyone got up early the next morning. Breakfast got a little quiet after my sister, Carol, wanted to know what the doctors were going to do to me later in the day. The itinerary did not go over well, especially when my sister discovered that—after taking all the tests—it would still be a week to ten days before we would be notified of the results.
The drive to the hospital was boring. I tried to doze or look out the window at the passing cars and scenery, but didn’t have much luck with that. My mind kept worrying at all the troubling aspects of my situation. The hospital was a little more fast-paced. We checked in; were directed to the floor and room where the specialist seemed to be waiting for us. We had a short interview, with him questioning my mom and dad when I couldn’t articulate the answers that he wanted to his questions.
Then he handed me off to one of his physician assistants, who took me to a room where they collected a bunch of samples of my blood. From there we went to an office type of room where the assistant gave me a series of verbal cognition tests. Those started out pretty easy, with stupid questions like, ‘What is the name of the current President of the United States?’ And, ‘What city is this hospital in?’ After that, the questions became more involved, testing my short-term memory, math skills (requiring that I do the math problems in my head, without the use of pencil and paper), reading retention, and vocabulary. They also had me draw abstract shapes, including a three-quarter perspective drawing of a cubed box. That one was probably to determine if there was impairment to the right side of my brain, which normally handles spatial tasks and drawing three dimensional things, and language. Abstract concepts, like numbers, letters, alphabets, and grammar, are usually handle in the left frontal lobe of the brain.
The cognition tests took about four hours. We had a break for lunch. When we came back, the specialist met us and ushered us all into his office. There, he went over the results of the cognition tests.
He grinned at me. “You’re a very smart boy.”
“I get by,” I replied. Then I caught his gaze with my own. “But I’m not a genius, by any stretch of the imagination.”
The specialist blinked and the smile dimmed by a little bit. “Maybe,” he conceded, “but your vocabulary and reading skills tested out at near college age levels.”
My mom piped up on that one. “Charles has always been a reader. When he was growing up, he would rather hide in his room and read books instead of playing outside with his friends.”
Dad leaned forward. “What about the other tests—the non-verbal ones? What are those tests going to tell us?
The doctor made a steeple with his hands and contemplated us over the tops of his fingers as he spoke. “Well, we are conducting a full battery of tests. A full blood workup. That will show us whether Charles’ body chemistry is within the normal ranges for a boy his age. Hormone levels are also being tested, as well as oxygen and other gas levels. After I finish talking with you, Charles will be taken down to imaging for a head and chest MRI. That will show us that layout and physical state of his brain—so was can rule out any tumors of abnormalities there, and also his neck and chest, which will show any abnormalities in his lymph nodes, lungs or heart.” He put his hands down flat on the desk. “Then you can go home.”
The talk concluded and I was taken down to the imaging department, to be examined using a new type of scanner which was called an MRI, which stood for ‘Magnetic Resonance Imaging.’ Magnetic Resonance Imaging had been developed in the late nineteen-seventies. It was now supplanting the older x-ray scanners and cat-scan devices which used high doses of radiation to form negative images of the body. MRIs used less radiation—magnetic radiation, generated by using huge, shaped, superconducting rare-earth magnets—which produced highly detailed images of the brain, major organs, and soft tissue where the old x-ray technology showed only clear images of bones and metal. Soft tissues and organs like the heart and brain, appeared in x-ray images as faint fuzzy shapes, devoid of any sharp detail.
The MRI machine which scanned me, however, was huge, clunky, and pretty primitive piece of equipment, compared to what I knew I would have experienced forty years in my future—just before my heart attack had been somehow, seemingly, sent back here to my past.
As we left the hospital and headed for home, dad said, “Well, sport? Are you feeling better now that we’ve got some tests under our belts?”
“I guess so,” I said. I wasn’t feeling better at all.
“That MRI thing is state of the art,” dad continued. “They installed it about a year ago. They created a whole new department to utilize it. The doctor you saw today is the head of the department. You should be very impressed. He thinks your case is very interesting. He thinks that his MRI machine might prove to be ground-breaking important in understanding what’s been happening to you.”
I pursed my lips but didn’t say what I was thinking. If the level of technology from my future wouldn’t give a clue to how I ended up back here, how would the first generation of that technology do any better at answering that question?
End of Part 2a.