The Night part 1

The rain pounded against the window and the tree outside scratched the pain with the force of the wind it wasn’t too late like 7:oo pm and Johnny’s mom was supposed to be home from work for at least three more hours and his dad was out of town on a business trip. Johnny had the small desk lamp on for some light to see but he didn’t want the room light on incase the neighbors were watching he knew that the neighborhood was full of gossips! He was standing in front of the mirror in his parent’s room looking at himself knowing he must be doing something wrong but he felt so much more comfortable when he was wearing his mother’s clothes, today he had chosen a black one-piece mini, black seamed thigh highs, his moms 3 inch heels. The shoes were a little big but they fit well enough for the short amount of time he would get to play. As he was studying his reflection looking at his 5’ 10” frame he couldn’t but help to wish that he didn’t get any taller and his 115 pounds was plenty as far he was concerned. His shoulder length hair was full and thick with some natural curl that some of the girls he went to school with he knew they were jealous. His dad was always screaming for him to get a haircut and his mom would say “Johnny do you want me to start calling you Jasmine”? Johnny would automatically tell her “NO” but inside he was screaming “YES finally” but he never told anyone his secret, so he lived in mental pain and agony as a boy. Seeing the reflection made him realize that he was and always had been a girl but there was something missing? Ah make up he’d never tried before but tonight “hey why not” I’m going all the way; he had watched his mom several times so he had an idea of what to do. He smiled as looking in his mom’s makeup kits. Choosing a light colored foundation, a blue eye shadow to bring out the green in his eyes and black eyeliner to improve their shape. Having to redo his eyes several times he started to get the hang of it and finally they looked ok, picking up a red lip stick and applying it almost perfectly, a little blush and the look was complete in the mirror looked to be a 17 year old girl instead of the 16 yr. old boy he was delighted with how Jasmine looked!

The tree smacked the window with such force that it broke and Jasmine swore that at that moment the rain lighting and thunder picked up and the room was getting soaked. Running well not as fast as he could because have you ever tried to run in 3” heels wow they are hard to move in but she loved the way they made her body swish anyways, down the stairs to the kitchen and threw the basement door she found the old boxes they had stored there, grabbing one and stopping in the kitchen for some tape she headed for the hamper on her way back upstairs she grabbed a towel and ran back to the window. Taping the card board over the broken part of the window she used the towel to mop up the rain water, doing so she knocked the lamp off the desk and it shattered on the hard wood floor, sending the room into total blackness oh damn mom’s gonna be so pissed when she gets home! Suddenly the lighting popped right in front of the window filling the room with an eerily bright light it only lasted seconds but he saw the dark shadow in the door way seconds before the bedroom light flicked on. There standing in the door frame was his mother “oh shit” exclaimed Johnny as he stared at his mom and she stared back at him, he had lost track of time and now he was in it way deep he just knew he was dead.

Shirley stood open mouthed at the figure next to the window, she was so shocked to see a girl standing there instead of her son and then when she looked closer she saw that it was her son she went from shock to anger to confused all in about 30 seconds. Not knowing what to say she only said what popped into her head at the moment “you better get out of those wet clothes and get cleaned up and ready for bed then come downstairs to the living room evidently we have the need for a serious conversation”, Turning on her heel she went downstairs for a cup of coffee her head was beginning to hurt.

Johnny stood his face doing the goldfish look all he could think was oh boy I’m so dead. Finally he shook the shock of his mom from his mind and went next door to his room and got out of the wet clothes, going to the bathroom he washed his face, putting on sweats and a t-shirt he headed downstairs putting his moms wet clothes in the hamper as he went.

Shirley was sitting on the couch in the living room waiting for her son to come down to talk, oh my god what do I say how should I handle this, did we do something wrong as parents, is he gay? Is it a sexual fetish? Even as these thought entered her head she knew that she had to remain calm and not get mean or mad for if she did Johnny was sure to clam up and not say what was really going on. Damn what would she tell Kent, Johnny’s father he would be sure to blow a gasket. She heard the floor creak from above and said “Johnny its ok I’m not going to scream at you, but I do need to know what’s going on”!

Standing on the first stair Johnny heard his mom call, she seemed calm not ready to eat him for lunch maybe this would be ok and he could just say he’d never do it again and that he was sorry and that would be the end of it, I mean it’s not like I broke the window although he had broken the lamp he need to make sure he said he was sorry for that to! Walking into the living room his mom looked up at him and patted the couch next to her, he sat about as rigid and tense as could be, his mom seeing the fear and tension on her sons face and feeling how he sat down she slid next to him and grabbed him a tight hug, holding him tight like she used to when he was a little boy she was wiping tears from her eyes as she remembered when Johnny had first told her he was too big and old for hugs and tonight he never flinched instead he returned the hug just as tight. Slowly they separated a bit and his mom looked him right in the eye and said
“um you still have eyeliner and mascara on”

“oh I’m sorry mom I’ll go fix that” he went to get up she grabbed his arm “it’s ok later you can, right now I think we need to talk”. “Look mom I’m sorry I’ll never do it again can we just forget it ever happened”?

“No Johnny we can’t, by your appearance tonight I’m guessing that tonight was not the first time you have done this, is it”? “You looked very good it took me a minute to recognize you”.

Johnny blushed, “your right mom, if I tell you promise you won’t be mad, call me a freak or hate me”?

“Johnny if I was going to be mad I’d be screaming right now, don’t you think”? Johnny nodded. “Look I have some questions, you answer them and then you can tell me what’s really going on ok”! Nodding again Johnny let out a slow breath still waiting for the hammer to fall. “Ok first of all what happened to the window and the lamp”?

A little taken aback by the question he shrugged and smiled, “the tree broke the window because of the storm and I broke the lamp cleaning up the mess”.

“Well I’m glad you were home to fix the window that could have been a real mess”. “Now how long has this been going on, the dressing and makeup”?

“I’m sorry mom,” taking a breath and slowly exhaling he jumped into his answer. “I’ve been dressing in your clothes for years, at least every chance I get, at least five years, tonight was the first time I tried makeup I always thought you would notice before”.

“So why try the makeup tonight”? “It’s Friday and I could sleep in tomorrow so I felt I could really get it off and you wouldn’t see”. “Ok, so are you gay? Is this a sexual thing”?

Ah, he should have been anticipating this question. “I don’t think I’m gay cause guys don’t do that for me, but I did get an arousal from it when I first started but like tonight I just feel so alive and free and it seems like it’s a part of me that wants to be out and free”.

“I see”, not really understanding but not wanting to sound like she didn’t understand the whole thing, thinking boys are born with a penis and girls with a vagina how could a boy feel like they were a girl? “Well, I need to think about this some more and I’ll tell you what I think tomorrow, so off to bed”! “Um mom we don’t have to tell dad do we”? “I don’t know yet we will have to see”.

Getting up to his room, the storm still going on outside making Johnny think that’s how my insides feel, and I’ll never get to sleep. Climbing into bed it was a matter of a minute before he was lightly snoring. Climbing the stairs Shirley opened her son’s door to check on him, she had done it ever since he was born and she wouldn’t stop now. Looking at her son she saw the peace in which he slept and she couldn’t help but wonder if it was the dressing that had made her son feel at piece inside.

Lying in bed she ran the nights events through her head, one thing for certain she couldn’t tell Kent he would freak and want their son examined in a mental hospital or worse he would try to beat it out of Johnny and she knew that would only make things worse. She had always wanted a daughter but it wasn’t in her cards and they were fortunate to get Johnny at all. Something was wrong with her plumbing and when Johnny was born they had to do a hysterectomy. Thinking of Johnny she thought back on his child hood, he had always been so happy playing with the neighbor kids and with her and Kent, but as he got older she remembered him mostly playing with the girls of the neighborhood the boys were few and far between so that’s what she thought it was, as he got into school it changed as he made a few friends that were boys doing the sleep over thing, camping and fishing. He was a boy scout he loved to go with his dad hunting and out riding horses when Kent could he was always so busy, Johnny played basketball and baseball clear until high school when not having any more fun he stopped but he had joined the track team and played football so he was all boy right? He had a girlfriend, oh shit did she know? God that could destroy him if his dressing as a girl got out. She decided to sleep on it and hopefully have some ideas in the morning.

Johnny was sleeping peaceful and having a great dream of being at peace with himself and knowing he was a girl it didn’t matter he had been born in the wrong body it could be fixed he knew he looked online computers were so cool, he was dressed in the same clothes from earlier tonight looking at stuff on the internet chatting with some friends online that were like him when the door burst open and there stood his father looking like the devil he had red eyes and he was screaming at the top of his lungs “No kid of mine is gonna be a pansy ass faggot and he was gonna beat this shit out of him”! his father walked in and proceeded to punch him in the body, the face and finally he ripped all the clothes off of him, Johnny was on the floor and Kent kept at it only kicking him in the ribs and head as his hands were sore from the punches. Moments later Shirley ran in to see what was going on she found Johnny on the floor shivering, crying and just plain scared when she was able to calm him down Johnny realized it was just a nightmare, he felt embarrassed about having woke his mom and for having a nightmare he was too old for those. Regaining his composure he said “sorry mom, didn’t mean to wake you it was just a stupid dream, what’s the matter with me”? Whispering to him “Nothing’s wrong with you we all have bad dreams its ok lay down and go back to sleep”.

Laying back down he fell into a restless sleep, waking up with a start he looked over at the clock wow 6:00 am he never got up this early, oh well might as well get going, getting up he went into the bathroom got into the shower and as the water started to beat the tension from his body he couldn’t help but to wonder how it would feel if he had real breasts? He looked down at his deformity and began to get depressed, quickly getting washed he rinsed off and got dried off. Going back into his room he got dressed in the normal boy clothes black t shirt and a pair of blue jeans, he hated how rough guy clothes were to the smoothness of his moms from last night. Slipping on his tennis shoes he went down stairs, he would make breakfast his mom would be up soon and she would appreciate the gesture.

Going into the kitchen he started the coffee, and looked into the fridge for the eggs, ham, bacon and some eggs, he couldn’t make much but he could do omelets! He was just whipping the eggs and adding the meats when his mom came down for her coffee he handed her a cup. Surprised that he was up let alone cooking she hesitated to take the cup, seeing the hesitation Johnny looked at the floor set the cup down was about to head out the back door at a dead run
when his mom reached his arm, “Johnny I’m sorry it has nothing to with last night I was just shocked to see you up and cooking, she giggled your never up before ten”!
Looking up at his mom seeing the way she looked at him he understood what she meant, “I thought I would do something nice for you since you didn’t kill me last night”. “Well thank you, but I was never going to kill you”. “Your father on the other hand just might”.

“Oh shit you’re going to tell him”? “No honey, I think that he doesn’t need to know, but you need to promise to stop doing this because I believe that the outcome could be devastating for you and us”. “Ok mom, you are the only one that knows and I know I won’t say anything”. God I hope I can, thought Johnny but I’m going to try hard to keep mom happy.

It being Saturday Johnny went upstairs and called his girlfriend, “Hi Julie what are your plans for today”? “Let’s go shopping and to the afternoon movie”. “Sounds good to me, I’ll be over in a moment”. He loved going shopping with Julie she was gorgeous and loved to try on lots of clothes and he got to see her in them and wonder how he would look in them, god her in a bra and panty set sent him into orbit, oh he would pretend just enough that she didn’t wonder if there was something up.

He went out and got into his older 90’s black Camaro, it was a present from his parents on his 16th birthday he and his dad had spent lots of weekends working on it to get it drivable. New tires, rims a new engine and suspension Johnny had spent hours washing and waxing the paint to get it to shine, and of course the stereo was a kick ass pioneer system.
He pulled into Julies driveway and ran up to the door, his mother would kill him if he ever honked the horn for a girl, knocking he waited for an answer.
Julie’s mom answered and invited him saying “Julie Johnny is here”. She came out in a yellow sundress that came just above her thigh and wow he just stared her makeup was flawless and her lips just so kissable. Johnny just stared and smiled at her Julie grabbed his arm and pulled him towards the door “let’s go goofy”. Smiling sheepishly Johnny followed her out to the car.

The Night
Part Two
By Michelle Kelley
Part Two Continues Here
Special thanks to Richard for editing this story

On the drive to the mall Julie was talking excitedly about all the new clothes that she wanted to try on and the jewelry that would go with them! As she talked, Johnny was lost in thought as he himself was wondering how he would look in the clothes? He shook his head trying to clear his mind, Julie seeing the movement asked, “Um Johnny are you ok, your awfully quiet and not really paying attention to what I’m saying?”

“Sorry sweetie I am listening to you, I just like to hear the excitement in your voice,” said Johnny smiling weakly.
“Ok but I think something’s on your mind and you know you can tell me anything and trust me completely”.
“I do trust you; it’s just something I have to think about first ok, I’ll tell you soon if I can’t work it out first ok?”
Feeling a little put out Julie replied “Alright.”

The remainder of the trip was silent except for the music from the radio. They pulled into the mall and headed for the first store on Julies list which was one of Johnny’s favorites ‘Victoria’s Secret’. Once inside, they both seemed to replace the uneasiness between them with Julie getting excited again; it was defiantly time for some retail therapy thought Julie. She tried on all her favorites the sexier the better she would show Johnny just to see him squirm.

He loved to see her in her sexy bras and panties but today it just wasn’t as fun as it usually is and he couldn’t understand. I mean even if I like to wear the clothes why can’t I be my usual happy self? He thought, maybe it’s because I’m not supposed to wear mom’s clothes anymore. Is there something wrong with me?
The thought struck him like running into a wall, maybe there was what should he do? Who could he talk to? His mom, she was calm the last time but who knows maybe not to this extent. He could look on the internet but come on you can’t trust all the quacks that are out there. Maybe he could trust Julie!
Coming to the best possible conclusion he caught Julie in between changes, “Hey Jule’s can we talk outside and in private?”

Wondering if this had something to do with the ride over she replied, “Sure, where do you want to go?”
“Um can we go for a ride?”
“Yep let’s go.”

Leaving the clothes there that she didn’t want and buying the three that did make Johnny squirm the most they headed for the car.

Upon entering Johnny turned to Julie “Ok, after we get done if you never want to see me again I’ll understand and take you right home ok.”

Shocked Julie could only wonder what could be that bad. “Are you breaking up with me?”
“Because if you are just take me home, I don’t want to hear your excesses!”

“No I’m not breaking up with you; I can’t imagine my life without you in it!”
Pulling onto the road Johnny headed for the canyon road as he neared the straight away he opened up on the gas and made the next quarter of mile in four sec, he laughed out loud as Julie screamed you would think she would be used to his driving he always drove fast when he could.

They stopped at the overlook that looked out over the reservoir, it was usually quiet during the day but a mess at night when everyone came to play tonsil hokey among other things. Johnny got out and opened Julie’s door, after which he sat on the hood of the car and pulled Julie close to him.

“I love you, you know that right Jules?”

“I love you to, what’s wrong Jonny I’ve never seen you act this way!”
“What’s going on? Please tell me, I hate to see you hurt and act this way!”

Pausing for a minute to collect his thoughts, Johnny blurted “I’m not like other people and by that I mean like other guys, sure I do some of the same stuff but most of the time if I’m not with you I’m by myself.”
“I’ve only ever truly been friends with girls you know that.”

“OH MY GOD, YOU’RE GAY!”

“No I’m not Gay, why is that the first conclusion people jump to good god?”

“If I were gay why would we have been fooling around like we have?”

“Will you just let me finish please”!
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To\ be continued…..
 © Michelle Kelley 2013 All Rights Reserved

The Night
Part Three
By Michelle Kelley
Part Three Continues Here
Special thanks to Richard for the editing :)

Johnny looked at Julie; he was trying to gage if she was going to freak out on him again or if he should just clam up and not say anything. “Ok Julie are you going to listen to me and let me explain? Or should we just forget it”?

“Yes Johnny, I’m sorry I over reacted I’ll let you say what you need to” whispered Julie.

Johnny decided he had to play it safe because now he was sure she would freak out and go running to tell the world. He knew it would be complete and utter torture for him if anyone knew, so he went with plan B. Slowly reaching into his pocket he pulled out something and kept his fingers closed around it. Taking Julie’s hand in his other hand he looked Julie in the eyes, he was shaking so bad his voice broke, “I love you Julie and I hope that you love me to”.
Then he slipped his other hand in hers and removed his after letting what was inside into hers. When Julie looked down she gasped at what was there. It was the most beautiful gold ring that was engraved and inlaid with emeralds; the center stone was jade.

Julie stared from the ring back to Johnny; the shocked look on her face was almost too much for Johnny. “It’s only a promise ring and I can take it back if you don’t like it or you think we shouldn’t do this.”

Johnny started to back away from Julie as he decided that this had really just blown up in his face. As he approached the edge of the overlook he felt arms come around his chest and grip him very tight. Looking over his shoulder he saw Julie with the biggest smile on her face that he had ever seen on anyone before and he could do nothing to stop the chuckle that escaped his lips.

Turning so he was looking at her they looked into each other’s eyes and Julie finally spoke, “I love you too Johnny and I would beat you up if you tried to take this ring back!!”

“Johnny I love this ring and you, but why all the stuff about your friends being girls and being weird at the mall?”

“Well I was just nervous thinking that if you had the ring and stuff that things would change.” I can’t ruin the moment it was too perfect, I’ll think about this some more before I do anything to ruin us, he thought.

“Can we go back to the mall and the movie I want to show this ring off,” said a beaming Julie.

“Sure, what store do you want to visit next?”
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Back at the mall they went to lots of stores, Johnny was able to smile and play around with Julie and he was going to be happy today if it killed him. Although he still couldn’t keep the thoughts of what he would look like in the cute outfits that she was trying on he just let it roll off his back, ignoring the pain it caused him and just smiled. After the movie Johnny took Julie home as she had dinner plans with her family.

Before dropping Julie off, they sat in the car at a small park (only minutes from Julies house) kissing those deep sensual kisses that leave you gasping for air. They explored each other’s body and as Johnny slipped his hands up her shirt he traced the outline of her nipples through her bra and got a pleasant and sexy gasp from Julie. He lightly squeezed her perfect C-cup breasts and fingered the nipples some more. He never cared that Julie was unable to do much because her kisses drove him over the edge she would sit on his lap and they would grind into each other’s hot spots, Johnny was into it bad as was Julie they were moaning and breathing hard they were close to losing themselves in ecstasy when Johnny arched his back and drove his pelvis harder into Julies he exploded in his underwear with a momentous groan. Squeezing Julies breasts as he came she came with a sexy small scream. They sat there panting and holding each other for what was too short a time. Johnny pulled into her parents driveway and Julie ran to the house and went inside, waving to Johnny as he pulled out of the drive way. Looking at the clock on the radio it was 6:30 pm cool he had gotten her home a half hour early her parents would like that.

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Upon arriving home Johnny noticed that both his parents’ vehicles were gone. When he entered the house and walked into the kitchen he found a note stuck to the fridge,

Johnny,
We went to the store for groceries we should be back by 9pm there is some stuff in the fridge for a sandwich and some chips in the cupboard, do not make a mess tonight please Honny we could be home sooner, ok!
Love, Mom

Leave it to mom to leave a hint not to dress up even though I told her I wouldn’t she must figure I didn’t listen he grinned. “Oh well what she doesn’t know won’t hurt her!”

Running upstairs to his room he got out of his soiled clothes and ran to the bathroom, started the water and grabbing a razor and some shaving cream he climbed into the hot water letting it cascade down his body and relieving the tension brought on by today’s events. Washing his body, getting the shaving cream he started with his legs and shaved all the hair off his body, which wasn’t much he, was thankful for that. Stepping out of the shower he patted himself dry and put a nice smelling lotion on his skin he loved to be soft and smooth. Going back into his room he looked in his small suitcase in the back of his closet and pulled out a pair of red silk panties and a matching bra that was an A cup so it wasn’t easily detected then he tucked his stuff between his legs and pulled the panties up receiving an electric shock through his veins as he did so. Next he got his sweat pants on and a big baggy t-shirt and ran back down stairs to make his dinner.

Sitting on the couch eating and watching a lame scary movie on TV, he was half asleep when his parents came through the door.

“Go get some of those bags out of the car would you Johnny?”

“Sure dad, no problem.” Grabbing his flip flops he went out to help pack stuff in after it was all brought in he gave his parents a hug and ran up to his room it was time to get some sleep and he needed to check some stuff out on the computer.

Once in his room he booted up the computer and when his home page appeared he typed in the search line “cross-dressing”, he would have done this before but he had just saved up the money for his own computer and he had never wanted to look on the family computer for fear of being checked upon by his parents. The window for the search results popped up and it was full of all kinds of stuff that he knew wasn’t what he wanted. Finding a cool story site he clicked on it and looked through the titles they were interesting he book marked the page and went back to his search; finally he found a published article from a well-known psychologist that sounded like it could get him some answers. In the article it talked about the difference between cross-dressing, drag queens and transgendered people.

Skimming over the high points he landed on the part of transgendered people, reading through it he found several areas that pertained to him, describing how he felt, both in boy clothes and in girls’ clothes. There were all sorts of theories as to how and why this happened and it happened a lot both to males and females. He discovered that it was ok for him to feel the way he did and that there were things that he could do to help him understand things better. The first thing that could be done was to see if this was what was really going on or if it was some sort of sexual phase. So he needed to talk to someone that dealt with transgender people, (he liked that phrase better than the transsexual phrase that was often used). Next he needed a close network of supporting friends and family to help him stay optimistic and confident. Well first things first let’s find someone to help me. Looking at the clock it was well after midnight, let’s get some sleep and search for a Dr. of psychology tomorrow.

Waking up from a peaceful sleep, Johnny glanced at the clock OMG its 11 am half his weekend was gone and he still had his homework and house chores to do.Throwing on some clothes he laughed out loud as he noticed he was still in the bra and panties. Oh well he loved the feel and besides he wasn’t going to be found out he was at home and he could hide things well enough. Finishing getting dressed he ran down stairs and outside to the shed to get the lawn mower and weed whacker. It took him an hour to mow the lawn and trim the edges. Next he took a hammer and some nails and went to the fence that went around the house and tightened up the loose boards he was going to paint it next weekend unless his dad made him do it now. Finishing that up he was all sweaty and gross he went upstairs and took a shower hiding his undergarments under his bed he put on a fresh set in white and got dressed in pants and a shirt wishing the whole time he was in a pair of girl’s tight short shorts.

Making his way down stairs into the kitchen his mom was just starting dinner, “Can I help with anything mom”? He asked.

Looking up from the counter where she was getting the vegetables ready to go in the oven Shirley looked up at her son he never wanted to be in here unless it was to eat!

“Are you feeling ok Johnny?” She asked with a puzzled grin.

“Course, Mom just had some time to spare and thought I would help but if you don’t need me I’ll go to my room and work on my homework till dinner.”

“Well I have everything done and ready to go into the oven for our chicken dinner, but if you could help me clean up afterwards that would be great.”

“Ok mom, glad I can help” said Johnny as he went towards the stairs to go to his room.

Shirley stared thoughtfully after son as he went out. What the hell is going on with him? She asked herself. He’s never wanted to help me before especially on a Sunday with football on TV and with Julie being his girlfriend. I guess either he is growing up or he has a problem and wants to talk hell what could be bugging a teenage boy to the point he would help his mother out with dishes? Hopefully he will say when he comes back down.

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Inside his room Johnny tried as hard as he could to focus on his homework but he just kept thinking about what he had read last night and what he needed to do and shit he had just told his mom he would help with the dishes and help her clean up after dinner. God that was sure to raise a red flag. Deciding to forgo his homework he jumped onto the computer and looked up psychologist in his area. There were none in his town of Richman; but there were a four in the city of Blackrock, that was only a half hour from here. Clicking on the names to read about them as much as he could, three were male and one female he felt that it would be so much easier to talk to a lady than a man about this she would be least likely to laugh he thought, besides the psychologist that wrote the article was female. Ok, Dr. M. Sullivan I hope you can help me. Writing down her information he stuck the paper in his book bag and cracked open his books again this time he was able to get through his homework without much distraction.

He was just finishing up when his mom called him for dinner, putting his stuff away he headed for the stairs and went into the kitchen, his mom and dad were there waiting.

Kent looked up as he came in, “Hey son, are you gonna paint that fence today?” “I saw that you tightened the loose boards.”

“Well I was gonna do that next weekend I sorta promised mom that I would help clean up after dinner.” Johnny replied as he felt the blood rise to his cheeks.

“Um well ok if that’s what you want to do, but it had better be done by next Saturday understand.” Kent’s reply had a slight tinge of annoyance to it.

“Ok dad, thanks I promise it will be done”.

Shirley eyed her husband, what was that about it was perfectly fine to have a boy do dishes, even if Johnny never had before at least on his own accord anyway. She wondered herself what was up but the help far outweighed her curiosity at least for the moment.After dinner Kent went into his study to do some paper work while Johnny and Shirley worked on getting the kitchen cleaned.

“So Johnny did you get your homework done?”

“Yea!”

“Ok baby tell me what’s going on because you are not evidently going to approach the subject without a push.”
“I’m here to help you ok, is this about the other night?”

“Geesh, Mom all I wanted to do was help you out and all of a sudden you turn into the Gestapo, I’m glad were done cleaning cause I need to go see Julie for a while.”
Walking out the door he let the front door close rather hard, jumped into his car and left, leaving a trail of black rubber as he pulled out of the driveway, well he would hear about that when he got back.

Driving through the neighborhood towards Julie’s house he paused smacked his hand against the steering wheel and made a sharp left he headed towards the freeway to Blackrock, he needed some speed to clear his head, cranking up the radio he hit the on ramp and pulled into traffic at 80 mph and was soon at 100 cruising along with the road and hitting turns feeling free for the first time in a long time he grabbed another gear and hit 120 it was the best feeling ever. He was almost in sight of the city looking at the city lights when the car that was behind him finally caught up and hit the red and blues.

“Oh shit, shit, shit, well that was fun too bad it’s over and I’ll be lucky if my parents don’t take my license away till I’m 21”.Johnny slowed down and pulled to the side of the road, he looked in the glove box for his information and rolled down the window as the officer approached the window.

“Boy do you know how fast you were going?” “I clocked you at 130 and you never even saw me go by did you?” “You could kill others or yourself driving as fast and reckless as you were!”

Johnny started, “I’m sorry I was just out clearing my head and wasn’t really caring what I was doing or how fast it seems the faster I go the better I can think.”

“Well that’s a lame ass excuse boy do your parents know where you are?” “Give me your info and I want your home phone number.”

Oh shit I’ve really done it now I’m so dead I’ll never see the light of day! Handing over his info he wrote his phone number on a pad the officer gave him.

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Shirley was on the phone with Julie, “Ok you’re sure he never stopped by and told you where he was going?” “He left here saying he was coming to see you.”

“I wouldn’t lie to you Mrs. Baxter he hasn’t been here,” replied Julie.

“I know sweetie I’m just worried he left in such a hurry he is going to be cleaning up the drive way for a month he left so much rubber and Kent is about ready to kill the poor boy if he comes home.” Just then the call waiting beeped in, “I have to go Julie someone is calling and it might be Johnny.”

“Ok Mrs. Baxter tell Johnny to call me when he can if not I’ll see him at school tomorrow.”

“That will probably be better he’s gonna be in trouble after this!”

“This is the Baxter residence”, said Shirley as she answered the new call.

“Yes this is Lieutenant Jacob Black with the State Highway Patrol”.

“NO, NO not my Johnny,” screamed Shirley!

Kent hearing his wife’s deathly scream came running into the room seeing his wife curled up on the floor sobbing he sat down next to her and held her and then took the phone from her limp hand.

“This is Kent Baxter, who am I speaking to?” he said in torn voice.

“First let me say Johnny is fine and I apologize to your wife, this is Lieutenant Jacob Black and I have your son stopped on the highway for speeding and reckless driving and since it was late and he is a minor I wanted to check things out.” “Um I usually would impound the car and take Johnny into custody and make you pick him up at the station but because of the trauma I caused your wife if you would come to me I will let one of you guys take the car and one take Johnny home.”

“The court will probably suspend his license for a time not sure on that, anyway I am just outside of Blackrock if you are coming I will stay otherwise I’ll get a tow truck coming.”

“Thanks officer we will be there soon, thanks again for finding our boy alive.”
Upon hearing the boy alive part Shirley went from hysterical sad to extremely pissed off, “That boy is so gonna die when I get him in the car to bring him home!!”

“Easy honey maybe I should drive him home and you the other car.”

“No way and besides you know I can’t drive his car it’s too fast and scary.”

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Johnny sat in his car and stared at the night through the windshield god he’s been gone for hours it seemed, if he called mom and dad I think I’m gonna run right now! He looked in the rearview mirror as Officer Black got out of his car he walked up to the window.

“OK son your parents are on their way.”

“Oh Shit um ok I need to stretch my legs for a minute is that ok?”

“Ya, but don’t do anything dumb cause, if I have to chase you down you will go to jail!”

Well Jail will be safer thought Johnny as he got out of the car, it was pitch black no moon very few stars where would he go anyways they would all find him in a day at the very longest and he had no money better to stay and face the music I guess. Dad’s gonna be so pissed I’m so dead.

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The car ride over to pick up Johnny was rather silent both parents lost in their own thoughts, what was going on with their son maybe it was just hormones, but he had never been this stupid before. Normally Johnny was reliable and smart about his actions he was for the most part a very responsible kid they both knew that other kids in Johnny’s school had been in trouble with the law, could he have gotten mixed up with them?

Shirley sat softly crying and wondering if this had something to with the other night when she had caught Johnny dressed in her clothes and she had told him he could never do it again was this some way her fault god the guilt that she felt was unreal.

They saw the flashing lights of the cop car long before they got to them, Johnny was leaning against the side and the officer was standing next to him keeping an eye on the situation. As Kent pulled the car up behind the cop’s vehicle he looked over at his wife.

“Shirley I will go talk to the officer you slide over here and I’ll send Johnny, ok?”
Shirley only nodded her head in agreement. Kent sighed and opened the door and walked towards the two. Officer Black watched him come up and the two shook hands.

“Johnny if it’s ok with Lieutenant Black you can go get in the car with your mom?” Lieutenant Black nodded and Johnny walked very slowly to his mom’s car, as he was walking he heard the two men talking.

“Thanks for letting us come get him and not taking him to jail, he’s usually a great kid I don’t know what’s been going on the last little while but it’s been kind of bad”.

“You’re welcome Mr. Baxter I have a couple of kids too and I know how hard it can be some days.” “Try to have a good night and if you need to get some help for your boy.”

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As they left Johnny tried to just melt into the seat of the car, hoping it would just swallow him up but it didn’t. He glanced at his mom and could tell she had been crying and he knew it was because of him that she was so sad.

Shirley glanced at her son and finally spoke, “Do you know that I was worried about you and I even called Julie and found out you hadn’t been there I had all kinds of crazy thoughts going through my head and then when the Officer called and told me his name I fell apart thinking some of the terrible things I had been thinking had come true, do you know how devastated I was?” “If your father hadn’t been there to find out what was really up I would have been a mess by the time somebody could have really told me what was going on.”

“You are grounded for at least two months and your chores will be done daily and you get one hour a week to talk to Julie and that’s because I like her.” “I will get your cell phone and no outside activities what so ever, do you understand me young man!!!”

“Yes Mom,” whispered Johnny.

“What the hell is going on with you? You have never acted this way before, are you into drugs or alcohol?” “Listen honey you can tell me, I have never seen you so distraught or unable to control yourself do you need to talk to a “shrink” are you depressed? What Johnny you have to tell me something because I will not put up with this shit anymore do you understand!”

“Yes Mom, look I’m so sorry about how I’ve been acting I don’t know what’s wrong with me I have been fine until recently and I don’t know why or what to do and I’m a bit scared.” “I mean I was driving 130 mph and didn’t even flinch I was lost in my own world and I never even watched what I was doing.”

“I need to ask you about something and I need you to try not to flip out on me, ok?”

“Finally ask away because I’m already flipped out!”

“I found some stuff on the internet about why I… Um dress in girls clothes and I found a psychologist that works in Blackrock and I was wondering if I could go see her?”

“What did you find out?”

“It’s called gender identity disorder; it’s where a person of one gender relates to that of the opposite gender.”

“What?”

“Mom I’m a girl in my mind but a boy on the outside and I don’t know how to fix me I’m hoping that Dr. Sullivan can”.

“Does this Dr. know anything about this… this disorder?”

“Yes?”

“Well, ok then when we get home you bring me her number and meet us in the study, because it’s going to be a long night and you have school tomorrow and your father has some stuff to say too as well”.
When they returned home Johnny ran upstairs to get the phone number, he heard the phone ring wow it was like midnight and who would be calling?

His mom answered “Baxter residence, oh hi Julie, yes he’s fine but in lots of trouble he can talk to you tomorrow ok, yes goodnight.

He met his parents in the study and by the look on his father’s face he guessed mom had told him everything. God why had he been so stupid and pulled this shit?
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To be continued…..
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