Finding Julia
By Julie Dawn Cole

“Sorry but you can’t come in.”
I was taken aback. We had arrived a few hours earlier to this nice hotel in Rhodes and we were really impressed so far. This was our first meal and we were celebrating the anniversary of our engagement one year ago and had had a few drinks in the lounge as part of our all-inclusive package. I guess I was a little bit excitable after two cocktails and a beer and I wasn’t happy to be told we weren’t allowed in the restaurant. We had saved ourselves all day for this dinner. It was my responsibility to sort this out to save our relationship that had been waning recently. Eve and I weren’t as active as we used to be between the sheets. Our wedding day was on hold.

I couldn’t contain myself any longer. “Why? What’s wrong with us? We are residents and we have the all-inclusive package that includes dinner. I could feel myself getting angry and my girlfriend Eve had to pull on my arm.

“Sorry just stand aside please whilst these guests come through to their table. I’ll deal with you two in a minute.”
That just made things even worse. She spoke to us as if we were children and she was looking down her nose at me. I suppose it wasn’t too difficult since she was taller than both of us and her high heeled shoes were like stilts. I was used to being a squirt around the guys but never got used to having to look up to women. It was demeaning. I avoided them as much as possible at school and in college. Girls seemed to ignore me until Eve came along. I guess she had made the first move and cornered me and before I knew we were on the dance floor in bare feet. She had stepped down to my level to make me feel more comfortable and didn’t mind my initial shyness. She still had a way of making me feel tall but I wasn’t feeling so tall at the moment.

“Calm down Julian. She is just doing her job. We have a table booked so just show her our room card and she can check with reception.”
I looked up and smiled. At least she calm about it. Then the woman on stilts came over to us. I was getting in first before she got too close.
“Look lady, we booked a table here is our room number. We are all-inclusive. I reserved a table on arrival for 7pm.” I hoped Eve would be proud of me but she was frowning.

“That’s not the problem so you have to understand it’s compliance with house rules. I can’t let you in I’m sorry.”
“What do you mean and no need to say sorry we are guests and we checked in earlier today. We’ve been in the bar having a drink and they served us OK. We are old enough. So what’s your problem since we were looking forward to a nice romantic dinner? Just let us in. I booked a table on the balcony with a sea view.”

“Sorry sir you can’t.”

I was reacting badly again. “Look get the manager this is ridiculous.”
“I am the Manager Sir, I’m the Restaurant Manager. There is nobody higher.”
I mumbled under my breath “You can say that again.”

She must have heard me. “No need to be rude sir. You can’t come in dressed like that. It is a house rule. Men must be dressed appropriately and shorts and beach shoes are not appropriate. We have standards to meet.”
“But I’m on vacation and so are my legs and feet. I don’t get chance to wear shorts at home. Especially this time of year.”
“Sorry sir, the lady is fine but you need to go change.”

“Look please I can’t change I only have shorts. I’m on vacation.”

“Well I suggest you dine in your room unless you go along to Rhodes town and you’ll find the shops are still open. The restaurant closes at 9-30pm so you might have time to get there and back”

“No way this is getting even more ridiculous. It’s plain stupid. I’m not wasting my money on taxi fares and trousers I don’t want to wear. Didn’t you get it? My legs and feet are on vacation.”

She didn’t react she just turned to attend to more guests who were arriving. Eve pushed me onto a seat in the corner to calm me down again.
“Leave it Julian you are only making things worse. You don’t need to be rude. Stay here and let me go have a quiet word.”
I felt so angry I didn’t think I could calm down. Eve and the lady had a chat and at least Eve had made her smile as they kept looking over to me. Eve came back and took my hand to pull me up. “Come on squirt I found a solution. If we hurry up she’ll hold our table.”
We headed to the lift and then back to our room.

“What’s her problem? Has she changed her mind?”

“No. As she explained it’s your shorts.”

“Yes I know, that’s just her being a bitch. There’s nothing wrong with them. These are new. They are my best pair. These cost me big time. There’s nothing wrong with them.”

“No nothing except you have bare legs and men’s hairy legs put people off their dinner. Especially if they have varicose veins or knobbly knees.”

“ Thanks very much but my legs aren’t hairy and they are tanned. I keep myself in trim on the stepper as you know. “

“Yes I agree. Are you sure you don’t shave or wax them? They are so smooth. You might be short but your legs are long. All the way up to your chunky little butt. Not bad at all.”

“ So why was I refused entry it’s just prejudice. Reverse prejudice. Women are allowed to go to dinner in mini skirts, shorts or cropped trousers. Anything goes. Men can get upset too you know.”

“ Yes I know. Especially you. Anyway during the day shorts are fine in the restaurant for both sexes but in the evening for dinner it’s their rules. You’re just the wrong sex for dining I’m afraid my love.”

“ No I’m the right sex for anything including dinner. I’m just too short and easy to bully. I’m always at a disadvantage. Bigger guys would have gotten in I bet.”

“ Probably too sweetheart but no point fighting her. We need a solution for tonight and to be fair to her she tried to help. She gave me an idea.”

“What sort of idea?”

“She said she thought we were two girlfriends at first and almost let us through to our table.. Then she looked more closely because your hair is not so long but it’s your chinny chin chin sprouts. Your poor attempt at a beard. I can almost count the number of hairs and give them each a name.”

“ Eve don’t. It makes me more mature. Doesn’t it?”

“No and I’ve told you it’s a menace and puts me off when you kiss me. Upstairs and downstairs.”

“Oh you never said before and anyway they are soft. Do you want me to shave it off?”

.”Yes do it now and then let me tidy you up a bit so we can get in. We’re losing time.”

“How so? What do you mean? Why don’t you call the front desk you’ve been here before on vacation.”

“ Hurry up and just leave it to me. Come on we’re wasting time.”

When I finished I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked the image of my mother and sister. No sign of my father in me at all. It had taken me 10 weeks to grow my beard and I’d had to use one of Eves ladyshave razors. She used them to keep trim below and had insisted to give me a trim before our vacation so at least he was visible. I even did my under arms to please her. As I re-entered the bedroom Eve had opened my case and emptied the contents onto the bed.

“See there’s the problem. We travelled with one suitcase each. I travel light and you half-filled my case with your gear. It’s a good job I wasn’t stopped at security with all that underwear and your beach gear and all those shoes. How many pairs of shoes can you wear on vacation? We are only here 7 nights.”

“Shut up and sit down and let me show you the plan. We just need to fix you up a bit and make you more gender neutral.”

“What difference will that make? I’m a guy and your fiancé to boot. Look at my muscles?”

“Ok superman but not exactly proof. Look at mine.”

I sat down as instructed. Eve had just as much muscle definition as me and she was an inch or so taller. Well 35mm to be exact. She took out a plastic bag from my suitcase and unsealed it.

“What’s that?”

“These are hair extensions my sweet. They should do the trick. I guess I can spare them since it’s in a good cause.”

I had to humour her I suppose but eventually she became so excited she had to turn me around to look in the mirror.

“There you are Julia. You shall go to the ball.”

I was a bit taken aback and slightly embarrassed for Eve to see me like this. I’d tried my sister’s wigs before and even done the make-up bit that she’d recorded and threatened to post on You Tube a few times as a joke so I knew the girl in the mirror. But Eve had never met her.
She came back with a brush and her make-up bag. “You see she was right. If you looked a bit more feminine she’d let you in.”

“What about the shorts?”

“ It’s a rule for men not women. Shorts are OK for us since it gives the guys a thrill. You’ve got the legs so how about we fix your face and fill you out a bit.'

Within 10 minutes she’d finished. The bra fitted and was filled with tissues. I wasn’t as big as Eve but she felt that I was in proportion and anyway if they were bigger they may get in the way since I wasn’t used to them. I was a little disappointed but I played along.

“Come on let’s change your shorts and put some proper undies on. Here try this thong to hold you tight below. Not that there’s much to pull back. You better not get excited or you’re in trouble. And use a tissue if you visit the bathroom.”

She handed me a pair of her shorts that were cut a bit differently and made opposite hand with the zipper for some reason. I wonder if men have left hand zippers to leave the right hand free to Free Willie.

“You are amazing. We should try this again sometime but for now you just need a bag and some shoes. Here try these wedges that should fit you and be easy to walk in.”

I ended up with a small shoulder bag to hold my wallet and i-phone. Eve popped some other things in and helped me into her wedge sandals.

“There you are another problem solved. You can almost look her in the eye now and I don’t have to worry about wearing my kitten heels. Come on Jules let’s get back to the restaurant before she lets our table go “

So by the time I’d walked the corridor to the lift I’d mastered the wedges with a bit of guidance from Eve. She stopped twice to take snapshots. I didn’t look gender neutral I’d moved beyond neutral to the other side. It gave me a wonderful feeling in my tum just like the first cocktail had done.

As we left the lift in the restaurant foyer Eve insisted that she sprayed a little fragrance on me. I tried to waft it away but it seemed to disappear and then cling to me. It was intoxicating and Eve felt it was the final touch to her handiwork to guarantee entry. It was true.

“Good evening ladies. Do you have a tabled booked? Ah yes of course you came down earlier didn’t you? It’s Eve isn’t it. Who’s this?”

“ This is my girlfriend Julia. We are celebrating and booked a table on the balcony.”

“Of course you did ladies. Everything is waiting together with a complementary bottle of sparkling wine on me. I apologise for mistaking your girlfriend as a boy.”

We were escorted to our table by Angel. He let it be known he was attracted and commented on the fragrance. Eve just smiled and whispered in my ear.

“Mmm what a nice little butt. I think we may have some fun later so let’s eat light with not so heavy on the garlic. We’ll pop back to the bar after dinner for a nightcap and then maybe we might try a nightie-cap to make this a night to remember. Are you up for it? ”

“Not quite but I’m sure some oysters will help.”

“We don’t need oysters Julia my love. I’m hot already and I’ve brought my friend along in case together with batteries but I don’t think we’ll need him this vacation with a bit of luck.”

Now I was feeling hot but shivering at the same time. Was this Eve’s plan all along?

Finding Julia
by JulieDCole

Since it is Thanksgiving today I decided to post another chapter of this story in case any USA readers found time to relax. I hope it works.

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Chapter 2

Angel held my seat for me to sit down and I froze for a moment. I felt embarrassed so I looked at Eve for confidence. I felt like I needed to up and run to safety. I looked around at all the faces that seemed to be staring at us. Eve leaned across the table and took hold of my hand. She said it was like ice and so was the other one even though it was still more than 30degC outside. It wasn’t as if I could escape anywhere but over the balcony or the alternative was back through the dining room. The balcony was looking tempting for a few moments but I knew it was a long drop and I’d have to sprout wings to reach the swimming pool. As I felt the warmth of Eve’s hand I felt better.

How stupid was I to have agreed to this solution?

Eve let go and smiled.

By co-incidence I now had a pain low in my stomach so I rubbed it gently. It was getting worse. I had been tightly restrained and there was no bulge evident so I extended my fingers to check I was still intact. I was never very well endowed but I did expect some sort of show so I wondered if this was why I had a pain. I thought I’d better investigate in case I’d damaged myself and so I made the excuse I needed to relieve myself. My God if I’d done some permanent damage just to satisfy the hotel rules they’d pay for it somehow. I might never satisfy Eve now and my hopes of her agreeing to marry me could be gone. There was nothing there and Eve noticed my pained expression.

I managed to locate the sign for the bathrooms and I told her I needed to take a leak urgently. Eve whispered to me ‘Don’t be such a man. Come on hold on. It’s not as difficult as you think. We women can hold it and just accept the pain. Try to at least act the part. Come on pull in your tummy and cross your legs.’

‘I daren’t cross my legs it’ll be worse.’

‘No it won’t trust me. You should be still tightly packed and we haven’t drunk much today.’

’ oooh.’

‘Whimp. What’s wrong now?’

‘I think I need to check myself out. I think I could have done some permanent damage. It felt like my plums had been crushed to prunes when you pulled me tight but they might have disappeared inside.’

‘OK you’d better go then but you realise you can’t go to the boy’s bathroom don’t you? The girls is over there.’

‘Oh. Will you come with me in case somebody complains?’

‘I suppose so. Just wait whilst I get some bread rolls and olives so the table looks occupied. Shall I get the ones with stones in or pitted?’

‘ Very funny. HaHa. Come on please hurry up.’

Angel had disappeared and returned with some wine. He tried to strike up a conversation whilst Eve was missing and he insisted to put my napkin on my lap whilst checking out my fake bust. Creep!

I tried to just nod and shake my head without encouraging him but he was scaring me a bit. I didn’t speak for fear of my voice giving me away and it seemed an age before Eve came back. She saw that he was making me feel uncomfortable so she attracted his attention and flirted a bit with him that diverted his eyes away from me. I watched how Eve handled him and let him feel like he was in with a chance by whispering in his ear and giggling with him. He responded and it soon became apparent that she was turning him on. He seemed embarrassed covering himself with his tray and excusing himself. As he turned to the side I could see behind the tray that he was almost bursting out of his trousers. My eyes must have been popping out of my head in amazement he was so big. Could that really have been him? Eve laughed saying he’d probably have been able to balance the tray on it and should use it to point the way to tables.

It felt a bit weird to be experiencing a woman’s view of men. Well not all men are like him I hope. I certainly wouldn’t react like that to some flirting and in fact even with a lot of encouragement from Eve at best I would just perk up a bit and penetration was difficult. Not enough to satisfy either of us that was part of our problem leading up to coming on this vacation. She had decided we needed chance to get to know each other better whatever that meant. I never did understand women’s speak.

I shuddered a little and felt the pain intensify as I thought about how enormous Angels stack was. It couldn’t have been real surely. Eve stood up and took my hand and beckoned towards the restrooms. She had seen me wince with pain. ‘Come on let’s check you out.’

She seemed un-phased as we wended our way past the busy tables with me behind clinging onto my hand. It made me think she was enjoying this and I wondered if she’d had set out to feminise me and why I had so readily accepted. She’d seemed to have had a permanent smile on her face ever since I agreed. I hoped she wouldn’t use it against me back home and tell my family and friends.

Eyes were upon us again as we closed in towards the restroom area and I felt eyes looking us up and down and especially drawn towards my legs and my lower tummy. If I’d been in my own shorts and I doubted that many of the female clientele would have stared as much as the men were doing. I was lucky that at this end of the restaurant there were a lot more women than men and lots were our age or a little older. The downside was there was only a small restroom for women with a small queue. There was no queue at the men's.

Eve started chatting to two young women who were waiting for a cubicle whilst admiring themselves in the large mirrors. It was my first experience inside a women's bathroom and I felt nervous. At least in the men's we don’t hang around much. Well I mean that in the waiting sense not anything else. Eve exchanged names and introduced me as Julia and I had no choice but to speak. I got away with it without any comment and in fact my confidence increased since they never blinked.

They asked Eve if we were attending the organised functions and it appeared there was some sort of convention taking place. Eve said we’d be joining in most things but we hadn’t had chance to register yet. I’d no idea what they were talking about and I wondered if Eve had been keeping something from me.

A cubicle came free that might have been a problem in the men's bathroom since I never like to follow people and rarely use them unless I’m desperate but I had no choice. The pain was getting worse and I was grateful to get the chance to jump the queue whilst Eve chatted to the two girls who didn’t seem to have any urgent need. The young woman who held the door smiled and said hello so I had to look up and respond. She was taller than me with legs all the way up to her armpits. She was well tanned so must have been there for at least a week and a mini skirt really set off her legs. I found myself staring and she just smiled as my legs turned to jelly. Wow. I could never have dreamed this experience. I closed the door and locked it and couldn’t wait to unfasten my shorts. Mmm opposite hand that was a nuisance but I managed.

I pulled down everything as quickly as possible and nothing dropped so I made a grab to ensure I was still intact. Little Julian was there but no sign of plums or even prunes. I explored and found they had pushed inside. I needed to relive myself so I hoped that would help them to drop. With my shorts and panties around my ankles it seemed better to sit and after a bit of effort a trickle turned to a flow. I was still able to reach normal power with plenty of fluid pressure that was a relief in more ways than one. But whilst the pain disappeared nothing had dropped. I fumbled around a bit after wiping myself and finally found that my pressing my tummy I could feel them so they were just hiding. I pressed and down they dropped. Well they showed more like rather than hanging. I was intrigued so I cupped them with my hand and found I could push them back without any problem and hold them inside. I tried to push little Julian to join them but he kept dropping out.

I heard the 3 girls leave and Eve asked if I was OK. I wasn’t about to let her in or have a detailed discussion with 2 more cubicles occupied so I just said I was finished. Both doors opened and two more women spoke to Eve and she must have gone inside one of the cubicles. The two girls were obviously friends and they chatted about their plans for the evening as they tidied themselves. I waited until they’d left before securing little Julian and fastening my shorts. I was smooth and flat again so Julian must have found somewhere to cushion his head.

I looked in the mirror as Eve came out and she smiled at my reflection. ‘You look perfect. I did a great job on you. Do you feel OK. Any problems down there.’

‘No I think I needed a leak but what is strange is that my plums are definitely more like prunes and have shrivelled up and they seem to have found a place to go. They are inside my tummy and yet it doesn’t hurt.’

‘That’ll be the effects of your treatment and the medication you’ve been on so don’t worry. They just need a boost and a tonic. Maybe a bit of swimming and some sunshine this week will help.’

‘I’m only taking antibiotics and they don’t have side effects. They shouldn’t have done this surely.’

‘Maybe not but who knows?’

‘But what about the tablets you gave me? Is it them?’

‘I doubt it since they are just to boost your sex drive and build up your strength. They are simple boosters from a Chinese Medicine shop I contacted on line. They are natural herbs, nothing more.’

‘Well if anything my sex drive has diminished rather than increased these last few weeks. I feel tired and weepy sometimes and you know I’ve struggled to respond to your advances.’

‘I know but I understand and I wasn’t meaning to upset you I was testing for any changes.’

I felt a bit emotional and Eve put her arm around me and passed me a tissue from the box on the counter. ‘Don’t spoil your make-up. Come on let’s see how the week goes as we relax. I’ll keep an eye on your medication from now on to make sure you are taking the tablets regularly.’

Two more women came in and I felt the ladies restrooms needed a turnstile rather than a door. The men’s restrooms are more functional and never have so many visitors.

They saw that I was upset and asked if everything was OK. Eve just nodded and said it was my time of the month that astounded me. As if!! ‘She’s had bad tummy ache but she’ll be OK thanks.’

One of the girls reached into her bag and took out a packet of tablets called Feminax. @Have you tried these? I find they help me a lot.’

I muttered a reply. ‘Thanks but I’m OK I have some tablets in my room that I take.’

When we got outside Eve burst out laughing so I punched her arm. ‘You are mad. I feel so stupid. You’ve made me out to be a real girl to several people now and they all fell for it. No more please.’

‘Come on Jules they don’t know you from Adam or should I say from Amy? I told you not to worry. You passed easily and I never had any doubts.’

‘Look Eve this has already gone too far can’t we just leave now and find a snack bar somewhere after I change to my clothes?’

‘Don’t be such a spoilsport. I love this and I always wanted to see your feminine side. If the truth be known I quite like you as a girl since you have the look and you carry it off so well. I reckon you’re a natural. You ought to take it up professionally.’

‘HaHa. Very funny.’

We headed back to our table and enjoyed some bread and olives with our wine. At least the pain had gone and I was able to sit comfortably. The shoes were surprisingly easy to walk in as we headed to the buffet and Eve was attentive helping me to select items that were low in carbs and easy to digest. Angel sent somebody else to serve the wine and was keeping a low profile behind his tray.

I received quite a looks as I wondered back and forth and a lot were from young women around our age. There was definitely a bias towards female at this hotel that I assumed was because it had a reputation for being safe. It turned out that many were together and they had no fear of showing this with lots of touchy feely going on. Eve said it was a free world and not to stare so much so I tried my best.

After dinner that was most welcome I was feeling the effects of 4 large glasses of wine so I had to hang on to Eve or I’d have had to remove my shoes. She steered me towards the bar and we sat at two bar stools to watch the entertainment and take a coffee. She insisted we had two large glasses of Baileys with ice that made the coffee especially enjoyable.

By the end of the evening entertainment I’d recovered enough to manage to dance with Eve and whilst the shoes weren’t ideal for the wooden dance floor I was no Fred Astaire or should I say Ginger Rogers. For the last dance Eve took the lead and stopped me from bumping into other couples many who were young women getting more than friendly. There was definitely something about this place and since Eve had been before with her girlfriends I asked her if this was my imagination. She finally admitted that there was a convention being held by an association that was 100% women so there was bound to be a lot more women than men.

By the time we reached our room I was feeling really relaxed and Eve opened the door. She stopped me from falling as I tripped and I turned to thank her. She pushed the door closed with her foot and I removed my shoes. She was taller than me now so she looked down into my face and cupped my chin planting a deep kiss to my lips before pushing her tongue deep into my mouth. We both tasted of Baileys so it was pleasant and letting Eve take control was nice. We moved to the bed and Eve removed my top and my shorts and left on the bra and the panties. She stripped right down to nothing and coaxed me under the sheets taking me in her arms and carrying on where she’d left off.

I did things to Eve that night that I’d never done before and all the time I remained ‘dressed’ with Eve stroking my breasts and touching me between the legs where little Julian stirred but not enough to pop his head out. I had no sensation of an erection yet when Eve was climaxing I had a discharge.

I don’t know how many times Eve climaxed since I didn’t have a calculator to hand but she finally crashed and I snuggled closely to her neither of us having showered before bed and changed to nightwear. That was a first and I slept through the night for the first time in months.

Julie

Chapter 3

Julian has enjoyed his first night of real action under the sheets and is on vacation with his fiancé who has delayed wedding plans until both are happy that their relationship can work. Recent performance have not met Eve's expectations and Julian has lost his confidence and his ability to perform.

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I was awoken by the sound of the bathroom shower the next morning. No I hid under the sheets but they had no effect at all so I tried a pillow. It was too big to stuff in my ear so eventually I sat up and leaned over on one elbow to look for my i-phone to see what time it was. The last I recall it was in the purse that Eve loaned me that I located. It was hanging on the wardrobe door. The curtains were slightly drawn and the sun was up. It must be time to get up my I felt so tired and my chest was sore. I still the bra on but no padding. It was the nipples that hurt but in a nice tingly way. I could touch them and as I cupped what appeared like a small breast I couldn’t resist to take the nipple between my fingers and I had an instant reaction as it became erect. Maybe it was the massages last night and Eve had been very attentive to my budding busts threatening to work them until they were as firm and rounded as hers. Impossible really but it certainly turned her on and the harder she worked the better I felt. I didn’t have to do much work. Eve pretty much did everything. I was sore between the legs because she’d been there too.

I desperately needed a drink of water as my tongue was dry as a desert that I knew was part alcohol but mainly due to Eve’s attention and my training in French Kissing. I never realised that a tongue to reach so many parts and behave like a sex organ until last night.

I pulled back the sheets to get out of bed. Who was that in the wardrobe mirror? It looked like me but I was a girl. I was still wearing the panties and bra and I’d slept with the hair extensions that were still intact. I didn’t have any make-up on but that didn’t seem to make any difference. I knew I wasn’t the most masculine guy but I didn’t realise how girly I was until now. Eve had commented when we first met but hadn’t made an issue of it since.

I needed to relieve myself and for once there was sign of life inside the panties. It had been a long time since I had been erect morning noon or night so I wondered if last night had really happened or if I’d been dreaming. It wasn’t stiff like it was when I was a fourteen year old but it was sensitive and it did look a bit sore. Eve had worked it hard for a while with her mouth and had threatened to bite it off and eat it at one point. Fortunately I was still intact. I reached inside the panties. My testicles had shrunk this last year but at least they were back in place having been pushed inside me the night before when I was wearing Eve’s shorts.

I slugged a whole bottle of water but what goes in must come out when your full to capacity so I couldn’t wait any longer for Eve to come out of the shower. I ran in and gave my apologies for the intrusion. Eve turned off the shower and smiled through the last drops of water running down her face. She started laughing after she said to feel free and I dropped my panties. If I’d been erect I could never have taken aim to miss the seat like I did. Eve said I should have sat down since it was more hygienic and I ought to join her in the shower and she’d help clean me down from last night and soap my back and butt. She nodded towards my nether regions that had become placid after the relief. I never have understood how that works.

I removed the bra and soiled panties in readiness but then remembered about the hair extensions. Eve took my hand to help me step over into the bath and pulled the shower curtain across. She said the extensions could stay in and to forget they were there and behave as if it was my hair. They were intended to stay in and might just ned adjusting.

I’d expected to remove them last night until we were distracted. Now it seemed Eve had other ideas. She said longer hair suited me and she wanted me to disobey the rules at work and wear what styles were in fashion and most men now pleased themselves. I was afraid I wasn’t a non-conformist. I had always kept my head well below the parapet ever since I started school.

She soaped by back using the shower wash that smelled nice and moved her hands to my butt and commented on its smoothness and the firmness that I suppose I’d inherited from mum. She moved to my chest and cupped my ‘breasts’ tickling the nipples that reacted again. The soap was like a lubricant and Eve asked that I pay attention and learn. Her fingers were quick and she pulled on my nipples under they became hard and then she moved lower down but the response wasn’t so immediate. I was embarrassed but she just whispered into my ear to relax and cupped my breasts. She blew into my ear and then her tongue gently caressed it and flicked in and out. I responded and whilst I was still fairly limp I suddenly had the urge to turn and press against her and she pushed back. I couldn’t penetrate her because I lacked the reach and rigidity and she just smiled but in a comforting way and she wasn’t making fun.

Try as I may I couldn’t reach a climax but Eve did somehow. She had caressed herself and when I looked down I could see she was shuddering with excitement and she climaxed several times before letting out a cry of relief. I guess I felt incapable of taking the initiative and I was embarrassed at my pathetic attempts. I felt frustrated and I reached down to try pump action but failed.

I was breathless but I managed to utter words asking what time it was. ‘ It’s girly time again Julia. Don’t worry and just relax and with more practice we’ll find the answers. Isn’t girly time nice?’

It was nice for Eve but I wasn’t sure I’d done the job I’d done before we fell asleep and I’d expected to be able to carry on where we’d left off and at least ejaculated. There was nothing. We let go of each other and I stepped out of the bath leaving Eve to wash herself down with her sponge.
I used the excuse that I was hungover and that I needed to clean my teeth. Eve seemed to accept my excuse.

After I cleaned my teeth she stepped out and we dried each other before putting on the complementary bathrobes and slippers. We dried our hair gently with small towels that I’d rarely seen the point of before in a hotel bathroom. Eve wrapped her towel around her head but I couldn’t. There must be a trick to it. I then sat me the bed and Eve quickly combed my wet hair so it would dry properly taking care to check the extensions. They seemed secure so she started to blow dry my hair with the drier until it was semi dry. Then she turned her attention to her own air.

As she did she brushed it she was starving after the morning work-out and she was ready for breakfast. It was already 9am and we wanted us to miss the late rush so she suggested we let the sun dry our hair completely if we sat on the balcony in the restaurant. She said she’d arranged that a table be saved for us at 9-30 am.

As she turned her attention back to her hair I lifted my suitcase onto the bed that I’d not unpacked. It was locked and I couldn’t remember what I’d done with the key.

‘I told you not to lock it last night. Nobody is going to steal the contents in this hotel It’s up market. Anyway just leave it for now and we’ll find the keys after breakfast. I’ll lend you something again if you like.’

‘No it’s OK I can wear my togs from yesterday for now. Where are they? What did you do with them last night before we went for dinner?’

‘Oh I’d put them in a laundry bag in bathroom along with mine but they might be a bit smelly don’t you think?’

I headed back into the bathroom. ‘No they’ll be fine for now. Where are they? There’s no bag here. There’s nothing in here.’

Eve came in to check. ‘Oh the maid must have taken them last night when she turned the bed down. They are all so efficient at this hotel as you can see.’

‘Charming! Efficient? This is all I need. Where could my suitcase keys be?’

‘They were in your purse if you recall because you put them on the side of the basin with your comb when we were tidying up. Then the girls came in. Check your purse.’

‘No they’re not there unless I left them. Or they must have dropped out or maybe somebody stole them.’a few days

‘We’ll check at reception after breakfast so come on you can wear those shorts of mine that you wore last night and I’ll loan you a fresh pair of panties and a clean bra. I’ve got lots. I always bring at least two sets of underwear for each day.’

‘Oh pigs!! Here we go again. It was bad enough last night facing everybody. Now I’ll never be able to explain away that I dressed for an emergency. Anybody who sees me will assume it’s a passion. I can’t get away with it twice. People will know it’s me.’

‘So what? Nobody knows you from Adam here and anyway you were accepted as Julia last night so why not again? Just relax and o with flow. We can sort things out later. Anyway I found it was quite a turn on. It’s a long time since I enjoyed sex so much and then again just now. It’s not all about laying down in the missionary position and a quick in out and nighty night. You’ll never know the number of times you left me feeling frustrated and had to sort myself out whilst you were asleep. Maybe I won’t need to buy batteries for my friend. ’

I reluctantly agreed for a repeat visit dressed as Julia. This time the bra didn’t need padding since it was a push up type. Eve pulled my soft tissue to create the appearance of a cleavage. The panties were quite tight and held me in place. I put on the shorts and then Eve selected a brightly covered top. That would attract attention for sure but whey hey I’m past caring at this stage. What’s the worst that can happen? My boobs were my own, nothing showing in the shorts and nothing likely to show unless the chef put Viagra in the yoghurts and the hair extensions were still intact. So what if I was confronted by some super sleuth on the look-out for ‘perverts’ or transvestites on vacation? I looked OK and Eve wouldn’t have let me show her up so I must look the part.

Before we left the room Eve insisted to apply some light make up to both of us. It was easy for her since she was more tanned than me since she’d invested in an all over spray tan the weekend before we left the UK. Apart from my legs I was a whiter shade of pale to quote a song that was my all-time favourite by Procul Harem. It brought a smile to my face since as we were told at school Procul is latin for ‘far off’ or ‘far away’. The teacher was a big Procul Harem fan. That was about the only piece of latin I remembered before dropping the subject. Yes a ‘Far-away Harem’ was what all the boys dreamed about at school. For me I soon found that I couldn’t satisfy one girl never mind an armful in a harem. Even Eve saw the joke when I explained what brought a smile to my face when she was trying to apply the finishing touches to my face with a coat of lipstick.

At least I knew I could handle walking in Eve’s wedges and I gathered my purse and my i-phone and we headed for breakfast. I needed something in my stomach. It was rumbling already.

Guess who was saving the table. By a small co-incidence the very person who denied me entering the restaurant the night before in my shorts. She greeted Eve with a big smile and a hug and looked me up and down with a slight smirk on her face. Eve wasn’t telling me something. They were very friendly as we walked to the nice sunny spot on the balcony. It was more of a terrace really. Still not so many men about and lots of bare arms and legs on display. There was lots of giggling and chattering so I felt completely out of place.

Chapter 4

‘Eve, come on please tell me what’s going on. Why is she so friendly?’

‘Don’t worry about it. We met last year and we’ve communicated on Facebook and Snapchat that’s all.’

‘So why was she so rude to me. She knows I’m Julian right?’

‘Of course she does it was her suggestion that you changed but she’s not about to make a fuss just look around you. Do you feel out of place?’

‘I don’t see anything. What do you mean? Well other than there are lots of women at breakfast and they are all gossiping. Am I missing something?’

‘Well you are right that there are lots of female guests this week because 3 hotels are hosting some events that are very popular.’

‘What sort of events? There are still men here as well so it can’t be exclusive to women.’

‘Well a lot of us have the same interests and there are actually a few more men than might be apparent at first sight. Some of these women have experienced life as men. It took time for them to understand and accept their true sexuality.’

‘Strange. But then why are we here? Was it like this last year when you came with your girlfriends.’

‘I’ll explain later. I’m famished after last night’s work out.’

We were served coffee that was most welcome after last night’s drinking. It was nice to sit in the sunshine and gather my thoughts whilst Eve loaded up a plate and a small basket with cold meats and bread. I served myself with yoghurt and fruit.

‘Tell me more about why we’re here please Eve. You’ve tricked me and I’m beginning to think you planned dressing me in this garb.’

‘Don’t make such a fuss. You know I like to explore my sexuality and this convention helps people like us’

‘What do you mean like us. What’s it to do with me?’

‘Come on Jules you are a little bit mixed up sexually. You easily pass and you’re not exactly macho are you?’

‘Yes but I know what I like and I like what I know.’

‘Then explain last night then. Didn’t it turn you on just a little bit to try something different. Our relationship was in decline but if dressing you like this improves your performance then who knows? It’s like it released something inside you.’
‘You make me feel embarrassed. It was down to you not me. You were really turned on and I suppose it had a big effect on me. I’m very shy in bed as you know. I’m not exactly the sort of guy women are attracted to am I. In fact I was lucky to meet you and at work at least I can relate more to female colleagues now and understand them a bit more.’

‘Except for your boss. You seem to struggle with her and it’s held you back. We need to solve that if we’re ever to get married since you should be above her on the ladder with your qualifications. She was just a secretary so how did she jump over you?’

‘Leave it please Eve I don’t like to think about it. We’re on vacation and she has a lot more confidence than me that’s all. ‘

‘OK but I have a motif in inviting you to come here with me instead of coming with my friends. I hope you’ll join in with me and particularly come to some of the meetings this week that are more social events than anything.’

‘You’ll have to be a bit more honest and let me know what this is all about before I commit. I wanted to get a nice tan on this vacation and chill out with you.’

‘OK we’ll go register after breakfast and there will be an events list where we can pick and choose what we do.’

‘But my priority is my suitcase after breakfast and I can’t register like this. Do they allow men to join in I’ve got the impression it’s a convention for women.’

‘Look this is just an organisation called Biocom and I joined last year. Mostly it’s UK people of a like mind who might be classed as gay or transgender or of mixed sex etcetera.’

‘But we aren’t any of those we are normal.’

‘Really? I have thoughts and feelings that this organisation helped me understand and I’ve considered my relationship with you and even discussed it with your mum and your sister.’

‘Eve that’s a bit much don’t you think? I could fall out with you if you aren’t careful.’

‘I didn’t do anything wrong. They were both very open about you and some of the problems you had growing up. They were pleased about our relationship. Relieved in fact. ‘

‘So that’s like you were checking me out insn’t it? Am I a freak or something?’

‘Not at all, I just wanted to help you. Look now I know you had very few friends that explains your shyness. I gather that you played with your sister and her friends a lot. She told me you liked dress up games but that you told her you’d grown out of it. That’s all we’re doing here isn’t it?’

‘I did play for a while but I stopped dress up after my sisters friends started treating me as a girl whenever we met. It was too embarrassing. Anyway that was a long time ago.’

‘Well it might explain why you were so convincing last night at dinner. You were very natural and walked easily in my wedges. Maria was very impressed with how quickly you changed.’

’Oh yeah. Is that her name. I thought it might have been a set up.’

‘Well she did help me set it up. I thought you might resist and it took a bit of preparation. I’ve wanted to see what you look like for a while now. You are a natural and I quite fancy you like this. I don’t mind if you want to explore a bit more. It doesn’t bother me like it would to some. I quite like feminine men and I’ve had relationships with girlfriends as well as boys.’

‘Look this is awkward for me. I’ve lost our respect and your buddy Maria will be laughing behind my back. I thought she had a downer on men. She must like to humiliate them.’

‘No she doesn’t and she is much more open than you might think. She meets lots of people like us and she suggested this venue last year for this convention. There are quite a few people here already and I hope we can both attend. I can nominate you for membership if you like.’

‘So the convention was a set up as well was it? I thought this was a bonding vacation but it seems like it was all a trick. I’m learning new things about you every day. What sort of convention is it and why drag me into it. In drag as well.’

‘It’s more a fun weekend it’s nothing formal. It’s social with chance for people to bring friends along and it’s a mix of people who are bisexual or like to experiment or try something different. The organisation is called BiCon and I’ve met some great people. You’ve met some of them. Philippa and Jenna are coming and Fran and Nicky from work. Vicky is bringing her boyfriend who you’ve met but not as Claudia.’

‘Oh my God I’ve been sucked right in haven’t I?’

‘No you haven’t. It’s up to you. There will be a mix of people and there are a few men who attend. They do tend to hang out together though.’

‘Eve I’m not happy about this. I don’t know what’s wrong with me these days and now I just want to cry. It’s all a bit of a shock.’

‘Look let’s eat and enjoy the sunshine and we can chat about it. I promise I won’t force you to do this if you change your mind. But on the other hand we can just relax and explore a new slant on our relationship. I’ll take the lead if it helps and who knows you might find it turns you on.’

‘OK I’ll go with your suggestion.’

Great we’ll have a fantastic time I promise.’

‘No I mean I’ll stay like this and have breakfast and a chat. After that I’m not promising anything. You’ve a lot more explaining to do.’

Finding Julia - Chapter 5


‘Look Jules I’m not forcing you to do anything and from what I’ve seen so far you’ve adapted quickly and it seems a shame not to explore more. Why not let the other side of you come out or at least join in for a few days. I think it will do us both good. What’s to lose?’
I was confused and a bit stuck for words as I looked around wondering if I’d wasted my money and if I ought to head home and leave Eve to her friends. I didn’t want to take such drastic action and we had saved for this vacation and I’d used up most of my holidays already. It wasn’t like I could claim my money back and I’d have to buy new flights home that are never cheap unless booked in advance. Eve sensed my hesitation and held my hand to try to re-assure me.
I probably would have felt better if only our waitress hadn’t decided to top up our coffees. I tried to put my hand out to stop her and the next thing I knew the cup tipped as I caught it and the full contents went into my lap.
On top of that in her efforts to help she spilled hot milk over my hand that caused me to cry out in pain. Eve said I’d actually squealed like a girl so she’d jumped out of her seat to cover my hand with a napkin and poured cold water over it from the ice jug. Everybody on the tables surrounding us seemed to turn towards us and so our waitress panicked. Luckily Eve’s quick action stopped the pain but it was the shock rather than anything. I needn’t have squealed. I supposed that my problem was the disturbance and me being centre of attention.
Maria came rushing over that was the last thing I needed. I was already wet through to the skin so Eve just sat laughing looking at Maria as I was left to try to soak up the coffee and the milk. It had quickly gone through the panties.

I daren’t risk Maria or the waitress trying to help even though they started to fuss. I was relying on the panties to hold me in place and I wasn’t going to give Maria the chance to touch me or embarrass me and she had a silly smirk on her face.
Our waitress was devastated and Maria snapped at her to go get more napkins. I tried to intervene and reassure her whilst frantically wiping myself down and admitted it was my fault. It fell on deaf ears but at least I’d tried. My voice was a pitch or two higher than normal. It worried me because it seemed to come naturally and I didn’t have to try. The upside was it meant I was not clocked.
It already felt like I’d peed myself and I only had these shorts available until we found my keys. Eve’s solution was to swap places so the sun shone directly into my front so I’d dry more quickly. Some solution I thought. ‘What about the coffee stain and the sticky mess?’
‘You should have worn bikini bottoms under your shorts and it wouldn’t have mattered so much. You could have jumped in the pool.’
‘Eve please don’t make me laugh or I’ll make the wet patch worse.’
She smiled and it was agreed that I’d pop into the bathroom whilst she went to get a change for me from our room. ‘ I’ll be back in a jiffy, I have some boy short style swimwear so you might be more comfortable if you don’t want the bikini bottoms. Let me check if they are dry from yesterday.’
I didn’t have chance to say anything more because she was quick to her feet and was soon disappearing down the restaurant. Maria decided to intervene and escort me to the bathroom that angered me. She took my arm and guided me and when we reached the small foyer outside the restaurant I thanked her to let her return to her duties. She wasn’t having a moment more satisfaction or laughing at me for being dressed like this and entering the women’s restroom. I never contemplated heading to the mens’ room because how could I dressed like this?
I entered the womens bathroom to be greeted by a perfumed aroma and luckily it was empty. I could remove the shorts and relieve myself and to examine myself to check that I wasn’t scolded. I went into the first cubicle and looked down at the wet shorts that I quickly removed. The panties were tight with the wet and almost see through.
There was only a small bump that was hardly noticeable. My penis was almost finger size and hardly detectable even though I was used to finding it blindfold. My ball sack was tight and my testes seemed to have disappeared. There wasn’t much evidence of them so I panicked and I pulled down the panties and stepped out of them. My penis was hardly protruding from my bush let alone being large enough to show under tight panties. I was really upset and I burst into tears.

At least no serious damage seemed to have been done by the coffee but what was weird was that I had lost my testes over a matter of weeks and 2 days ago when we left UK I was still hanging. I panicked and had to step outside the cubicle to look in the large mirror to take a closer look. I searched to try to feel them and since my sack was tight I pressed my tummy to see if they had been trapped inside. I could feel them and it seemed I could push them back into position but they wouldn’t stay down. By now my face was a mess with the tears and the mascara Eve had applied was clearly not tear-proof even though she’s assured me it was water proof.
Then I heard voices so I stepped back inside the cubicle and closed the door. I hoped it was Eve but it wasn’t. A strangers voice called out to ask if I was OK and I stuttered a response to reassure her. She told me I’d left my bag and my mobile phone at our table in my haste to dry myself so they’d looked after them and brought them to me. Thank goodness it had my credit cards and cash and I needed my i-phone for sure.
I pulled up the panties and opened the door stepping out to meet them. I tried to cover the small bulge in my panties using the damp shorts and saw it was two women who had been sitting at the next breakfast table. They seemed concerned that I was upset and one of them put her arm around my shoulder whilst the other handed me some clean tissues. They introduced themselves as Katy and Helen and I told them my name was Julie without any hesitation and then realised what I’d done.
They asked the whereabouts of Eve and insisted to wait with me. They were both so nice to me and were concerned I might have been scolded. Helen wanted to check the top of my legs inside my thighs. I almost froze with fear and to avoid a scene and lifted the leg of my shorts to show I wasn’t hurt.
I glanced across to the full length mirror I was relieved that my bulge wasn’t so big that it would cause suspicion. At least there were no comments from either of them that was a relief. They both said they felt I’d been lucky. As they scrutinised me more closely I felt like I used to feel as a small child when my mother when she was checking my shorts to ensure that I hadn’t wet myself. Katy almost touched me and appeared interested in my small bulge. She was so close that I broke into a sweat. I wasn’t sure was out of curiosity or if she was looking to my other thigh for signs of scalding.
They both thought I ought to apply some cream or body lotion and asked if I had any. I told them I had a medical pack in our room with some aftersun and Calamine lotion if it was necessary but I felt OK.
I was relieved that even with a bulge I appeared no bigger than many young female members of our gym. I often admired them as they move around the gym in their tight shorts and leggings. Nothing seems to be left to the imagination and they get lots of admiring glances from male members, young and old. There are all shapes and sizes at our gym but most are super fit and Eve is in good company. She is well toned and very firm and quite strong already due to some extra training she purchased from a personal trainer. She can already match me with the weights in less than 2 months.
At least I had no reaction to being the centre of close scrutiny and my bulges was still. It was more of a small mound really much like Eve presents when she wears tight fit leggings or shorts and even after she’s trimmed her bush. She insists I trim mine on a monthly basis and threatened me with wax strips if I didn’t do it myself. I can’t imagine why women torture themselves with these things.
It’s amazing how many thoughts were zinging through my head and I knew that Eve was in fact quite proud of her bulge and particularly of her sensitive and responsive clitoris that she’d taken great pride to present to me on more than one occasion in an attempt to excite me. It has some sort of resemblance to the head of my penis and she seems intent on developing until she can match me in size.
That wasn’t too difficult recently since there wasn’t much response on my side even with this foreplay and now my testes had almost disappeared front on there was some similarity that seemed to please Eve rather than her be sympathetic on my part. Last night there had been extra efforts on my part to penetrate Eve but to no avail so she had decided to take control and coach me in alternate methods of satisfying her. I tried to say my flaccidity was due to the alcohol I’d consumed but we both knew this wasn’t the case. Eve did nevertheless climax several times and crashed out before me.
Katy and Helen were making conversation and invited us to join them for dinner later that I said I’d discuss with Eve later and I wasn’t sure how I was going to be able to present in my normal garb since more and more people were seeing me as Julie. I prayed that Eve would arrive before the situation got out of control and my prayers were answered when I heard the outer door open.
‘Eve it’s you at last.’
‘Who else were you expecting I told you I wouldn’t be long? What’s this then?’
‘Oh Eve this is Katy and Helen who brought me my bag and my i-phone. I’d left them behind in my hurry to get dry.’
They all smiled and I realised they’d already met each other. It appeared Katy and Helen were girlfriends and they were attending the seminar/conference that Eve seemed so keen for me to sign up to. They knew each others names and were all on Facebook seemingly in regular contact. They hugged each other like women do and I felt a little envious and in need of a hug. I was becoming much more sensitive these last few weeks and clearly Eve noticed so she extended an arm around my shoulder. Eve immediately accepted their invitation to make up a foursome for dinner without any consultation with me and went on to arrange to meet by the pool where there was a game of volleyball being planned. There friends would make up a side of six with us and Helen would enter our team . Eve said we’d be nominating me as a member of BioCom after breakfast and I’d be clear to join in.
I was wondering if I was in the room during this conversation. Eve then presented me with a clean pair of panties and a bikini and crop top and told me I could decide which to wear. The panties were pink lace that was clearly her preference and the girls made complementary noises.
I went back into the cubicle and closed the door behind me without dropping the latch and I tried to listen to the conversation outside as I changed catching that there was some sort of event taking place at 11am which they hoped Eve and I would attend. Then I heard Katy and Helen leave and Eve opened the door. ‘Change of plan so I think you’d be better to at least try the bikini since we’ll be playing volleyball in the pool later. You can wear the panties for now with the shorts but just make sure the bikini fits and looks OK below since its cut higher up the leg. We can change after breakfast in our room but I prefer to hurry to get towels and some sunbeds in partial shade so we don’t burn too much today. Come on hurry up we need to get back to our food.’
‘Eve are you mad or something. You don’t even ask me. We’re going to reception to find my keys so I can change to my clothes not carrying on this charade. You seem pleased with this but I’m not. Now these two recognise me as your girlfriend not your boyfriend. How do I get through to people I’m a man not a woman? ’
‘You must be joking Jules dear. You look so cute and even if you got your clothes back you may find you are assumed to be a bit of a tomboy at best or my butch girlfriend but it’s better if I take that role in all honesty since I know the form and you need to get your head straight and build your confidence this holiday. I can help you.’
‘Eve this is madness.’
‘Jules dear you are just as sensitive as any girl I know and you clearly have a strong feminine side that I like and others are already seeing. Anyway I already checked at reception on the way back and no keys were handed in.’
‘Oh no. Why didn’t we go together?’
‘I was passing so I asked. I thought I was doing you a favour so you didn’t have to show yourself to the girls on the desk. They can arrange a maintenance guy later but suggested I check with the registration team for the seminar. We can ask when their desk opens.’
‘Eve I’m in too deep already. I’ve had it haven’t I? You seem to want me to stay like this for the whole vacation. I don’t think I can do it. It’s not me.’

‘ What’s wrong with joining in and playing along a bit. You easily pass as a girl and we can share things. I think we’ll blend in better as girlfriends anyway. Come on let yourself go a little and let me show you how to have some girly time. ‘
I tried on the panties whilst I thought things through. They fitted perfectly and I didn’t look like a man at all. I had a slim waist and decent enough hips for a woman so I had no real defence. When I tried the bikini bottoms there was nothing protruding and once again the bulge was minimal. Eve held it in her hand and kissed my neck. I shivered and she moved to my lips before asking if I’d do it. I nodded.
‘Great. I really fancy you when you display your vulnerability like this. Come on lets hug. ’
I let her hug me and whispered to her ‘Eve this is mad. Surely we could have broken the locks ourselves or tried your keys, or even we could have bought shorts and a T shirt from the shop in the foyer. ‘
‘You already nodded so why look back let’s look forward. Put the bikini top on and let’s see if you can pass without any packing. This has uplift so it should create a cleavage.’
It did after we pulled loose flesh into position. My man boobs were like a small bust and the bikini was a comfortable fit.
‘Oh Jules you look amazing. Just humour me and be Jules for a few days. We’re on vacation. Let’s live a little and who knows it might help bring you back to life down there. It’s not like you’ll get aroused until we sort out what’s causing your shrinkage.’
I felt stuck but at the same time I realised Eve was really turned on by the prospect. She hugged me and pressed her bulge against me that seemed solid and it was clear she was excited. What else could I do if she liked it but try my best. I tried to smile and she cupped my butt and guided me to the mirror to tidy my make up and hair. I wasn’t going to beat her so I went with the flow.
‘Come on let’s go back to the table and get some fresh eggs. I need to eat if we are playing volleyball.’
‘Eve I can’t play in this bikini. What if I lose the top or I fall out.’

‘Come on this is a game between girlfriends not an Olympic event. You just let me do the physical bit and you do your best to keep the ball up.
We headed back to our table that had been cleaned with a vase of fresh flowers on display and our own basket of breads and fruits.

Finding Julia - Chapter 6

I was a little uncomfortable walking in a bikini through the restaurant even though I’d put on a top to cover my chest area. The bottoms left no room for error.

‘Tell me again why we’re here please Eve. I’m still feeling that you’ve tricked me and I’m thinking that you planned this whole thing. Have you drugged me or hypnotised me or something, or is this all a dream ‘cos I can’t understand what’s going on and how I’ve been put in this position?’

Eve just laughed and reached out and touched my cheek.

‘Jules you look so pretty as a girl. Don’t make such a fuss out of nothing. I’ve told you that we are just having a bit of fun.’

‘But I’ve given in so easily. Why? It’s not like I’ve wanted this.’

‘ OK, I only make sure you take your tablets everyday but it’s your choice. Nobody forces you. I only recommended the Chinese medicine shop that recommended them so nobody has drugged you silly.’

‘But I can’t seem to stop myself so maybe I’m dreaming. Ow that hurt!’

‘ So you’re not dreaming then?’

‘Look now everybody is looking. So have you hypnotised me then so I just do as I’m told? ’

‘As if. Why would I do such a thing? You might just like it. That’s what your mum and sister said.’

‘No I don’t. I grew out of that and we just played games.’

‘So did you go onto one of these self-hypnosis websites then because I never used a pocket watch and chain to hypnotise you.’ I smiled uneasily.

‘I don’t go onto any of these stupid websites. I only download games and DVD’s to watch when I’m bored.’

‘Well you shouldn’t accuse me. Just because I encouraged you and we had a good time last night doesn’t mean I want you to change sex and have a vagina and breasts.’

I fell quiet and decided not to say any more for now. I must be dreaming this since I’m sitting here dressed in Eve’s clothes and 2 more women have now accepted me as a girl as well as Maria and the waitress who almost disfigured me with hot coffee and milk.

I guess I was quiet and a little confused as we ate breakfast. There was a sudden rush of last minute diners who quickly scavenged the buffet before it was closed. I suppose most of them had stayed in the late night bars or had been to nightclubs in Rhodes town.

‘Come on Jules let’s go register for the social events and collect your membership card. The desk will be open.’

‘Are you telling me I’m already registered as a member? Who proposed me and filled in the application?’

‘I did it on line before we left. I paid your fees as well.’

‘So do they have male members in this association then?’

‘Yes.’

‘Well I can’t sign in like this then can I so they’ll have to wait until I get my case opened.’

‘You are registered as Jules not Julian so no problem.’

‘Fine, just dandy. You did that as well without telling me. I must be dreaming all this. You wouldn’t be so devious. You wouldn’t would you?’

‘Might, could have done since it’s easier that way.’

‘You mean I’m stuck like this just so we can attend this damn conference? Let’s not bother and let’s just have a normal vacation.’

‘No Jules look at me please. This will be fun and it will be good for you. I promise you’ll not come to any harm and when we get back home you’ll have a new outlook on life. You might even be able to stand up for yourself and get your job back.’

I looked into Eves eyes and then she said something that seemed to confuse me. My knees felt a bit weak and I had to steady myself on a table. Eve made me sit for a while before asking if I was ready to go. I took her hand and we left the restaurant. We cut through reception and I tried to join the queue but Eve reminded me she’d already sorted things.

By the time we reached the meeting room where the Biocom staff were based I was feeling OK again. There were about 4 or 5 young women seated looking at the itinerary and 2 sitting at the desk filling out forms. It seemed they all knew Eve since there was a few minutes of smiling and hugging and then everybody was introduced to me as Eve’s new girlfriend. The next thing was I had a name-badge ‘Julia’ and a welcome pack. Eve was laughing and joking with some of the girls so I sat down to look at the pack. Today was getting to know each other with various activities arranged and lunch by the pool.

A rather good looking girl came across to the sofa where I was sitting. We acknowledged each other with a smile and she introduced herself as Alex. She was wearing a sarong type sundress over her swimming costume and when she spoke her voice was definitely deeper than mine. She had a strong handshake with long fingers compared to mine that I supposed looked so long due to her bright red fingernails.

‘Are you new?’

‘Yes I’ve come with my girlfriend Eve. She’s over there chatting.’

‘Oh yes I know Eve from last year. We keep in touch on Facebook and Snapchat. But she never mentioned you. In fact I thought she had a boyfriend who was pestering her to get married.’

‘Oh really. I don’t know. She was single when we met and I don’t think she is into boys these days. We aren’t so close. Well not yet at least.’

‘Oh that’s a bit of good news Julia. Would you like to spend some time together since I’m here on my own hoping to make some new friends.’

I was struck dumb for a few moments and I felt myself staring at her and especially at her long tanned legs that were smooth as silk. She obviously exercised or swam since she had strong shoulders and toned biceps and calves. I looked for signs of an Adams apple in case she was in fact a man but there were no obvious signs.

‘Well then Julia are you OK. Will you join me today then? Maybe you can bring Eve along if she doesn’t trust you. Are you both an item or not?’
‘Sorry Alex I misled you a little. Our relationship is quite close but no commitments either way as yet.’

‘Oh so you two aren’t tied or engaged so both join me then or should I say would you mind if I joined you.’

‘Err no. I’m sure it’s OK. I’ll have to wait though until Eve tells me what she’s got planned. As far as I know we are making up a team with two girls we met at Breakfast. There is some sort of competition in the pool.’

‘Yes I usually play. It’s teams of 5 or 6 so perhaps I could be in your team. I’d like that a lot. It gets a bit lively sometimes and I will look after you if you haven’t played before.’

I was being pulled by an attractive young woman who was taller and stronger than me. She was A class and here I was unable to believe my luck. I felt a tightening in my panties and tried to get comfortable.

I smiled and said I’d look for her at the pool and headed for the safety of Eve ensuring that Alex saw me link arms and hang on. Eve turned and kissed me that wasn’t as embarrassing as it would have been and I let her extend her arm around my waist. What if Alex tried it on? Better I lie low and stick close to Eve.

‘What’s up babe. Is everything OK. I saw you talking to Alex. I was just coming over. This is Meghan and Natty by the way. They just got engaged. ‘

We shook hands and they leaned forward to kiss so I did my best to respond without any lip contact. In fact I found they were both skilled at greeting like this with just the faintest of contact. Both were wearing nice perfume and I found myself commenting. Both wore engagement rings but Meghans was a simple gold ring whereas Natty’s had three small diamonds on a white gold base.

‘I talked to Alex and she said to send her best wishes. She says you both communicate and you met last year.’

‘Yes babe didn’t I tell you?’

‘No. I think she’s on the look out so she made me a bit uncomfortable.’

Meghan laughed and looked at Eve who smiled in return.

‘Am I missing something? What’s wrong?’

‘Nothing wrong it’s just that she had a crush on Natty last year and Meghan had to warn her off. So she’s keeping a safe distance. She’s blotted her copy book but she’s OK now. I quite like her so did you say she tried to pick you up?’

I found myself protecting her ‘Not exactly. She was just being nice and making me feel welcome. Are you OK if she makes up our team or do we need six players?’

‘We can let her play. If the other sides have six players we’ll still win with Alex on our side. She played a lot of beach volleyball and she is an athletics and hockey coach. Hence her physique. She’s stronger than most men I know and proud of it too.’

‘Oh. I will look a right fool then.’

‘Why’

‘Well I’m no athlete and I can’t swim. She’ll make me look a real weed.’

‘It’s only a bit of fun. It is not the Olympics.’

We excused ourselves and went to hire bath towels and headed out into the sunshine to find a sunbed. Alex was waving to us. She’d saved two beds next to hers in a nice grassed area and she’d set up two umbrellas.
I watched as Eva and Alex hugged and chatted and I looked around at the other guests since I could sense eyes looking at us from all angles. I reached to place my shorts that Eve was loaning me on the arms of the umbrella in the shade and Alex took them from me since she was taller and she examined them.

‘Nice. Where did you buy these? They look like designer shorts so very expensive.’

Eve cut in ‘ She didn’t. I bought them as a gift for her. I had a bonus at work and I like to spoil her. ‘

I looked down to my feet and then up to Alex since I knew she was looking at me and then I turned to Eve who reached an arm to hold my hand which she squeezed. I must have gone red with embarrassment. I was the centre of attention for two attractive women that never happened ever as a boy or as a young man.

I let go and moved towards the furthest bed from Alex to let the sun see my pale legs so Eve was a barrier between us. At the other side of me were four sunbeds with towels spread to secure them for other guests and I made sure that there was enough room between us to gain access.

I sat on the edge of my sunbed and tidied my towel. I tried to sit correctly with my legs to the side to avoid displaying my crutch area. I didn’t want to display any bulges and none were evident for obvious reason. There was not much to worry about in all honesty so I felt safe to wear the bikini.

I took off my top and folded it and Alex hung that alongside my shorts. She stared directly at my chest and the small boobs that were showing and searched for sun cream in Eve’s beach bag where I found two pink baseball caps with the motif ‘Girlpower.’

Whilst I knew we’d need hats to avoid sunstroke the fact they were matching made me more convinced that Eve must have been planning this all along.

Finding Julia Chapter 7
by Julie D Cole

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Sorry for the long delay to add this chapter. It's difficult sometimes to pick up and focus attention with many distractions. I must do better. Or was it I must try harder when in trouble at school. I was never known for writing stories or standing up in front of classmates. This site has helped me a lot.
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So I was trapped as Julia and save admitting I was a man in front of an audience of pool side sun worshippers and Eve’s friends that seemed a poor option I could only think of finding an excuse to run for cover or bluffing my way through this with Eve’s support. I discounted the option of speaking out since there were no holes to hide in and I’d be the talk of the hotel. Running for cover was a serious consideration but as much as I looked for a safe route some sort of voice in my head was telling me to calm down and relax with my friends. I was confused and not used to voices in my head.

Eve sat beside me and reached out to hold my hand having noticed my confused state. ‘Jules dear don’t worry I’ll take care of you whatever. Are you OK?’

Her concern made me well up so I nodded and turned away trying to hide the tears in my eyes. She squeezed my hand and moved alongside me on my sunbed putting an arm around me for re-assurance. She reached to my bag for a tissue and passed it to me. I tried to smile and hold back the tears but it was hard. Alex had walked over to the edge of the swimming pool so at least we had some privacy whilst I tried to compose myself.

‘I don’t understand any of this Eve. I feel so emotional and scared. I’ve never felt like this in all my life so what’s gone wrong? I don’t want anybody to think I’m a freak. We should never have started this dress up thing. Now I don’t know what to do. People seem to think I’m female. But I’m a man as you know. I have all the bits even if I’m not very muscular. Just look at me dressed like this. I am a man but I look and behave more and more like a woman since we arrived here.’

‘Jules don’t worry about it. I told you that this hotel is open about these things and don’t fight it or feel guilty. It’s not as if anyone knows you and ok I might have encouraged you but I know how much of a man you are underneath and maybe this can spark our relationship back into life. When we are intimate I don’t mind taking over responsibility for a while. You’ll soon be back to your old self I’m sure.’
That worried me even more so I let out a huge sigh. ‘That’s better let it out. Come on let’s just have some fun for now. It’s just us and these strangers and nobody is going to know back home. I’m turned on so what’s to lose? I’ve always wondered what you’d look like as a girl so now I know. You turn heads that makes me a bit envious if the truth be known.’

As I calmed down Eve insisted to help me feel more comfortable by combing my hair into a pony-tail, using a tie to hold it in place. She fitted the baseball cap pulling my hair through the gap at the back before handing me some sunglasses from her beach bag. They were Gucci brand, probably copies in truth and definitely feminine style with much larger lenses than my own.

Eve whispered in my ear ‘Julia they are perfect and in keeping with your image.’

I felt more comfortable again and adding the shades did give some sort of cover which helped boost my confidence as I looked around the pool area realizing I was not the centre of attention after all. We were just poolside guests like everybody else around us.

I looked across to a small group of girls surrounding Alex who was glancing towards us and had been watching. She smiled that caused me to blush and look away. I pulled the cap over my shades so it wasn’t so obvious that I was looking at her. She was used to being the centre of attention according to Eve because she was tall like a model with wonderful features and a firm bust to die for. She was very slim around the hips and it was obvious that she worked out. I’m sure many guys were attracted but she did seem more interested in her own sex.

She put me in mind of a beautiful actress Laura Sanchez from a Spanish soap that Eve liked to watch on her i-pad. Mannish but so feminine at the same time she played a tough cop called Pepa. I decided it was because of having seen so many episodes that was what had attracted my attention to Alex. I had immediately responded when she spoke to me and she made me feel special. If I had been born a woman I’d have been very happy to look like Laura Sanchez or Alex for that matter.

At least that brief interlude of reflection of my passions helped me settle down and Eve broke my chain of thought by asking me to apply her suntan lotion. Like most men this was a job I hated but I couldn’t really complain after Eve had been there for me minutes before. Eve turned onto her tummy and unfastened her bikini top so I could spray her back and then rub in the lotion as gently as possible. I took care to be especially gentle and Eve let out a gentle murmur of appreciation as I massaged her neck and shoulders.

‘Mmm you have soft hands and strong fingers. We should do this more often but with body cream. You are almost as good as a professional. ‘ Then she fell into a gentle doze as I applied lotion to my arms and legs. I’d have to give my back a miss for now but in any case I was happy to focus on tanning my front. I guess most people were relaxing to digest their breakfasts since there wasn’t much movement or noise other than the gentle sound of the waterfall at the end of the swimming pool.

I lay back and closed my eyes covering my face with the peak of my baseball cap. It wasn’t so bad after and in all honesty I’d nothing to complain about really. We’d be doing the same thing even if I’d managed to access my own clothes. The bikini bottoms were a bit tight and certainly held me in place but at least I’d get almost a full leg tan for a change instead of having white thighs. I was glad my legs were hairless since I could look forward to a smooth and deep tan like Eve enjoyed. Maybe we ought to go the full Monty on our balcony later. I decided to suggest it to Eve when we went for lunch.

The pool attendants were already opening the poolside bar by now and the played some soft music over the loudspeakers that caused Eve to stir and open one eye. She’d had a night of excursion so it was understandable that she needed to rest. I couldn’t disturb her yet.

I guess that Alex saw the opportunity to come back over and she sat on her bed. It didn’t take her long to start chatting and before long I was blabbing without thinking and for some reason I told her that she reminded me of Pepi in the Spanish series we watched on Eves i-pad. I only really looked over Eves shoulder so I’d no idea why I had to say I was a fan. She did however know the series and she told me she was flattered that I felt she looked like such a beautiful actress. It gave her chance to ask if I thought the lesbian relationship between Pepi and Sylvia was realistic and well acted. I admitted that I felt it must have been difficult for both of them to maintain their relationships at home with so many scenes and the practice sessions that must have been required.

‘Did it ever turn you on Julia or are you straight?’

I was taken aback and struck dumb for a moment or two until Eve intervened lifting her head to speak. ‘ Alex if you don’t mind this is Julia’s first trip and she is under my care. I promised her mother she would not get into trouble on this trip. He’s not available so mind your tongue please.’

Alex went quiet and I gave her a half smile trying not to ignore her but letting her know I shouldn’t answer. I don’t know what my answer would have been but it would have been difficult to be untruthful to Alex with her beautiful blue eyes fixed on mine. As a man I fancied her. As a woman I was flattered by the attention and I so much so that it gave me such a nice feeling inside. This was how Eve must have felt in our early relationship and we’d lost our way a bit in recent times before this vacation.

Alex tried to be a bit more friendly towards Eve explaining about the game of pool volleyball that was being organised and saying that four teams of five were arranged so we were already in the semi-final. The prize for the winners was a large bottle of Prosecco and 5 tickets to a theatre show in Rhodes town. They both seemed to know the venue so the tickets were worth winning in their opinion. I hadn’t forgotten that by joining in I’d have to take care not to be too active and risk losing my swimwear. Eve had advised me to wear a T shirt as a precaution and she had one in her bag.

I needed to visit the bathroom before the first match and we were second on luckily so I didn’t need to rush. I opted to go inside the hotel for more privacy since the poolside facilities weren’t great. The inside bathrooms were private enough so I headed off with my bag after popping on my shorts and top for politeness. As I entered the foyer I noticed the reception was quiet so I decided to ask if any keys had been handed in or if maintenance had been to our room to open the case. Tracey was the supervisor and she double checked to advise that nothing had been reported and the maintenance man would be available after lunch and we needed to be in attendance.

Tracey was very nice and she didn’t seem to have any concerns about me. I was having no difficulty passing as Julia and somehow she even knew to call me by that name.

On the way back from the bathroom she smiled and waved beckoning me over to apologise for the misunderstandings about the dress code and giving me a card with the address of a small boutique owned by a friend of hers if Eve and I wanted to take a trip out and treat ourselves. She offered a free lift with the hotel car so I couldn’t do anything but accept and advise that we’d get back to her after lunch to fix a time.

This was turning out to be a very friendly hotel after all and the guests and the staff were kind. I doubted they’d be so kind if they realised I wasn’t exactly the person they thought I was so it was getting more and more awkward to suddenly revert to male mode. I hoped to find a way out before it was too late.

Finding Julia - Chapter 8
by Julie D Cole


This was turning out to be a very friendly hotel after all and the guests and the staff were kind. I doubted they’d be so kind if they realised I wasn’t exactly the person they thought I was so it was getting more and more awkward to suddenly revert to male mode. I hoped to find a way out before it was too late.

The trouble I was having was that Eve wasn’t helping and in fact she seemed to have no issues at all with me dressed like this. In fact she quite liked me being placed in an awkward situation where she could take control.
That thought make me take a long hard look at myself and I could see a definite change in my stature. I appeared more slender and even smaller even though neither was likely. I guess I wasn’t trying to appear more macho like I had to do as a smaller built guy and in fact as I looked more closely at myself I quite liked my look as a girl and I looked a few years younger.

Since Eve was so calm about my dilema I wondered if she’d actually planned the problem with my lost suitcase and it being locked with no keys. She’d been to this hotel before so she even would have known I’d be prevented from entering the restaurant in my normal shorts.

Funny but the more I thought back the more I recalled instances where Eve tried to encourage me to try out a feminine look. She could have helped me get some replacement male attire but my agreement to go to into the restaurant in her shorts and top had resulted in her telling me that she was right and that I had just as many feminine features as male ones. It wasn’t the first time she’d encouraged me to try make-up and I’d had to almost fall out with her when she pressed me to wear a skirt since I had shapely legs that any woman would be proud of.

I accepted that I had enough feminine features to pass a girl but I’d never have expected to try it out in public and would have preferred we kept this between us. I’d dined out, mixed with the girls at the pool outside and now I was even inside a girl’s bathroom having entered alone and I didn’t even consider the consequences if I’d been spotted as male.

Luckily it was quiet I spent a longer time than I ought to have done admiring my reflection in the mirrors. This wasn’t me looking back and to be honest I felt it was like my sister looking back at me. I tried some different poses and there was even a close resemblance to mum and no sign of dads strong features.

Dad was very macho and much bigger than me. He had a muscular frame and a square chin with a strong nose like most men. I was different and both my sister and I had mums soft features and her turned up little nose that dad loved to tease her about. The three of us were peas in a pod and my sister used to tease me and she often called me Julie when I had a tantrum whilst growing up. She sometimes laughed about it in front of Eve and it never seemed to put Eve off continuing our relationship.

I decided it was high time to get back to the pool so I checked myself over. The shorts and a top seemed to fit well and thankfully there was no evidence of my boy bits that Eve had secured with a G string under the bikini bottoms. How could a strand of knicker material retain my manhood never mind shrink it to nothing more than a small bulge. I’d seen women with more package at the front than I had.

So everything stayed in place but I was a bit concerned that I seemed to have lost most of the feeling recently. I hoped it wasn’t going to be permanent since I’d always enjoyed making love with Eve and if I lost the feeling then she’d probably soon lose interest in sex with me and in our relationship.

I lifted my top to look at my stomach and adjusted the bikini to ensure it would stay in place by the pool and decided if I was forced to play volleyball I’d be better to wear the top or borrow a T shirt.

I admired my reflection for a few minutes. Eve had done a good job on me and yet at the same time I was looking much less masculine than normal and I felt my features had softened in recent weeks. Maybe it was just my imagination because of how I was dressed but where was my facial hair and my eyebrows were slim. My arms had thinned and my butt seemed rounder and less firm. It helped the look in Eve’s rather tightly cut shorts but I wondered if I’d be as comfortable in my own when I could get them out of my suitcase.

I was nervous about the image that I was presenting and how easily it seemed that I’d been able to convince people so far that I was a woman. I tried to recover my normal look and revert to my masculine self by posing with my legs wide apart and I flexed my arms to show my biceps as best I could. Poor show though.

I looked like a young girl trying compete to look muscular. My arms were slender and hairless so they looked pale that I’d hoped would be solved with some sunbathing. I needed to get my own gear so I could lay in the sun without a bikini top. I couldn’t risk tan lines. I’d seen more muscle in my arms when I was about 12 years old starting senior school. I seemed to be weaker as I got older.

I tried a fierce look by grimacing but with make- up and the hair extensions I just looked like some of the women at work when it was that time of the month and they were under pressure. I’d have to get Eve to help to remove the extensions since they seemed to be fixed permanently and almost sown in. At least they wouldn’t have taken root.

I was satisfied with the pony tail Eve had created and I tidied it up as best I could with a brush from my bag. I replaced my baseball cap and put on the sunglasses. Dressed like this in Eves top and shorts I looked quite sporty. I’d never achieve a sporty look in my normal mode. For some reason I couldn’t lose the femininity. My face seemed to have changed in some way and my skin was much smoother. I was concerned that this might carry on if I dressed like this and wore make-up for too long but realised I was being stupid.

I decided that I needed to visit my doctor when we got home. I wondered if I needed some boost of male hormones or to change my diet. Maybe following Eve’s healthy diet plan to support her efforts to control her weight was starving me of testosterone and I felt I needed a booster. Hopefully a few drinks rather than injections

I needed evidence of my concerns so I picked up my phone and took a selfie through the mirror. I wanted to show Eve and compare with photos in the phone memory on both our phones and also on my i-pad. We had lots from our time together this last few years. I was sure she’d see what I could see and help me find a solution. I took a few shots removing my cap and with and without the pony tail and also removed my top to show my concern about muscle loss. Luckily I wasn’t disturbed but I knew I needed to get back to the pool before Eve sent a search party.

I hurried back through reception conscious that I shouldn’t run that would likely as not attract attention. I was aware of the bust that Eve had created protruding in front of me and pointing the way to the pool. I was already getting used to them and they felt almost part of me. I touched them and recalled how Eve had massaged them last night that did feel nice and had caused a reaction.

My newly formed bust and tightly fitted shorts didn’t go unnoticed by a male clerk behind the reception. He seemed younger than me but old enough to show interest. I never remembered ever being noticed by female clerks anywhere when in my normal male mode. I looked back to check if his eyes had followed me and he nodded and waved.

I’d already decided to arrange for some early morning swims and an exercise programme with the hotels fitness team to try to rebuild some of my muscle. I was beginning to think life wouldn’t be all that complicated if I’d been born as a girl since weakness doesn’t matter. As easy at it sounded I couldn’t have handled the cramps and the monthly cycle that Eve went through when I first got to know her at school. I never wanted to discuss or know the detail.

There was a small cheer as I went outside into the sunlight and once I could focus I saw most of the girls in the pool waving. Some started to whistle and call out asking if I’d struck lucky. I was so embarrassed so as quickly as I dropped my bag and shoes at my sunbed and intended to watch. They wanted me to play but I daren’t take the risk of going in the water so I tried to resist as best I could.

Then I had a shock. I was whisked off my feet and it caused be to let out a scream as I sensed I was about to be thrown in the pool. I’d no chance to see who it was but they didn’t let go and we sunk under the water where I seemed to swallow half the pool before surfacing. I coughed and spluttered as I managed to get my balance but I’d lost my cap and my sun glasses. I panicked in case I’d lost my shorts or bikini top and exposed myself.

Fortunately nobody noticed me checking myself out and I turned around to see who had picked me up and jumped in with me. There was Alex standing legs apart and arms folded laughing at my drenching and especially at my panic reaction. But she did have the good manners to ask if I was OK as she quickly recovered my cap and sunglasses. She looked across at Eve and they seemed to have fixed expressions. Eve was not a happy bunny.

I sensed it was not the time to complain so I tried to laugh it off and agreed to stay in the pool to join them playing volleyball.

Finding Julia - Chapter 9
by Julie D Cole

Completion of this story is long overdue. A quick update:
Julian and Eve are taking a vacation in the Mediterranean in Rhodes that Eve has booked. They were due to be married but their relationship wasn’t the same and Julian was not as active as he had been between the sheets and he was not performing as well at work where he was now reporting to his former female assistant.
En-route to Rhodes one of their suitcases mislaid and Julian only had a limited quantity of clothes in the case that arrived that led to him being feminised by Eve so he could dine in the restaurant. It appeared that Eve had pre-planned everything and that they were in fact attending a convention at the hotel that was for members of the BioCon group and primarily female.
Julian was unable to stop himself from dressing and acting as female since Eve was persuasive and had attended the same convention with a group of girlfriends the year before. Julian was accepted into some of the group and one was particularly attracted to him much to Eves displeasure.
The story continues with the group relaxing in the swimming pool where a volleyball game has been arranged.
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One of the holiday reps blew her whistle and outlined the basic rules of the game that required both sides to knock the ball over the net without it falling in the water and the first team to reach 25 points were declared winners. They would meet the winners of the second game that followed us and after a break the two teams who had won would play each other for the prizes that were provided by the hotel.

I was surprised how many girls appeared around the pool and in the water. We were arranged in 4 teams of 5 players. No sign of any male players joining the competition nor on sun loungers.

We had our team arranged earlier by Eve and we had one substitute who didn’t really want to play and she said she preferred to watch. I wasn’t given a choice. We stayed together as agreed and we were given pink bracelets the other teams wearing red, blue and yellow. Eve and Alex were our best players since they both played at school and they knew the rules. Through the game they were the most active and most competitive.

It did seem that Eve was trying extremely hard to prove herself at least equal to Alex who was bigger and stronger than both of us. In the game we were only allowed to touch the ball three times between us before it had to go over the net so they quickly demonstrated the best techniques to win points. They needed to co-operate and help the three of us who were novices so any rivalry soon disappeared.

I felt really confident that I could match their skill level but I soon learned otherwise. I’d lost my muscle mass recently that lessened my strength and power. I wasn’t able to hit the ball hard and it kept falling short of the net and furthermore it hurt my hand. I hardly seemed able to get more than two feet out of the water when I tried to jump and I was being out-jumped by our opponents. The harder I tried the more frustrated I became so Alex told me to start hitting the ball to her and she would get it over the net. At least we started winning some points.

Unfortunately, when it was my turn to serve my serving technique was so poor we lost the serve to the opposition and got no points. We only got two attempts to get the ball over the net. Furthermore, I was worried about my false breasts falling out or my appendage working loose so that didn’t help my game either so I seemed to be targeted by our opponents. As a joke Alex lifted me a couple of times from behind that scared me. She was getting a bit too friendly.

Luckily our opponents had nobody to match Alex and Eve so we won the game by 2 clear points much to my relief. Our team squealed with delight and I found myself joining in as I was pulled into a group hug. I’d not contributed much to our win apart from occupying space and I was totally drenched because I had ended up under the water a few times.

Since our game was finished we could get out of the pool and towel ourselves dry and we let the sun do the rest. I checked myself to ensure that everything was intact and in place before I climbed the steps and then I shared a sun bed with Eve to watch the next game. Eve whispered to me to stay close because she needed to demonstrate to Alex that we were an item and she should keep her distance.

I wondered how I was going to get out of this mess and explain why I had pretended to be a girl once I got my clothes back and I tried to stay as quiet as possible and avoid the chat that was going on around me. The sooner the better to get the extensions out and free willie because I was losing my confidence in the relationship with Eve. I was relying on her too much and she was taking charge of whatever we did. I never felt so nervous before and I wasn’t happy that I had been so readily accepted as one of the girls. The longer I stayed like this amongst women the more scared I was about this being leaked at home or at work since Eve had been taking photos with her i-phone and I knew she had at least one video clip.

I looked around to see if there were many men sun-bathing or at the outside bar because luckily none had been watching us play. I couldn’t see any apart from the bar staff and the maintenance crew cutting grass. It seemed that there were no male guests around or attending the conference even though Eve had suggested it was for those with girl on girl sexual preferences. She inferred some men attended and that they may be transvestites or transgender.

I started scanning again looking more closely at the women around for any tell-tale signs that they us trying to determine if any had masculine features or bulges but whilst we were all shapes and sizes I only really spotted those who were deliberately butch but didn’t hide the assets they were born with. If there were any trans women about then they were very feminine and not extrovert. Maybe some hadn’t registered yet or had gone sight-seeing. I wondered if I was the subject of similar scrutiny so tried to avoid eye contact with anybody by putting on my sun-glasses. Surely I couldn’t be considered a girl. I was a guy plain and simple and I had no desire to live my life as a woman.

Alex moved a little closer and started chatting about the next game but she was edging closer pulling her bed next to ours. Why would Alex be so attracted if she thought I was a guy? Was she actually transgender since she was tall and strong for a woman. But as I’d already noticed when we first met she had perfect breasts and the perfect shape with long legs nice hips and a slim waist. She was hot and with her in close proximity I was surprised that there was no reaction in my bikini bottoms.

She stood up and moved a sun shade to provide some protection from the hot sun as it was approaching mid-day. She asked if I needed to apply any extra sun cream since I had fair skin. Eve re-buffed the offer before I had chance to speak saying that was her job. Alex just smiled and decided to leave us, She went to order some drinks from the bar for the three of us.

Once again Eve told me to be careful with Alex because she didn’t care about causing trouble between girl friends and was an out and out lesbian with a long list of conquests.

‘I’m safe then because I’m not a lesbian and clearly I’m not what she is looking for.’

‘She has identified you as her target so you have to let her know you are not interested. You’d have no chance as a guy if that is in your thoughts.’

‘No way. She is hot though but I wouldn’t do that to you. I don’t know what she’ll do when I get my stuff back and revert to normal,’

‘Well we ought to think a bit more about that and discuss it later. Just look around. Maybe you stay like this for the rest of the vacation and nobody in our group will complain.’

‘I couldn’t because it’s wrong. I might get arrested or at least kicked out of the hotel. I’ve been using the ladies restrooms for a start.’

‘Think about it since I told you that this is a BioCon convention primarily established for LBG people but extended recently so it now incorporates transgender. Normal convention rules don’t apply this week and the change in policy gave me a chance to bring you along with me. But I couldn’t register you as your boy self and I had to say you were in transition.’

‘But I’m not in transition and I never even considered it. Just because I played dress up doesn’t mean I ever wanted to be a woman. Your lifestyle is not for me.’

‘Well you are making a poor show of it. You haven’t resisted.’

‘No and I can’t understand why. I do get uncomfortable after a while though and every time I try to stop myself dressing like this something happens or you persuade me to change my mind.’

‘Never mind it’s not a crime. We are getting on much better already Julia and we are only in day 2. You seem much calmer and less irritable. I think this is how you need to be at work.’

‘Do you really think so? I must admit I haven’t had any more arguments since I was told we couldn’t go in the restaurant by Maria. Since I went back dressed in your shorts and with longer hair and make-up she has been really kind and helpful.’

‘Yes you see her attitude is much different towards women and you are much more inclined to leave things to me.’

‘Well I guess I’m too scared to speak out in case my voice gives me away.’

‘Your voice is fine. You are a different person as Julia. I love you so much more and this is the person I fell in love with before you started having problems at work.’

We had to stop there since Alex arrived back with a waiter carrying our drinks on a tray. Since we’d be playing our next game shortly she’d ordered fresh orange juice rather than anything alcoholic or fizzy. The second game was just finishing and we had a twenty minute break before we got back in the pool. Alex and Eve were really pumped up and clearly this meant a lot to both of them. At least they weren’t on opposite sides.

I tried my best and at least I scored a few points with my looping serve that Alex told me to try. It just about crawled over the net and was almost impossible for any of our opponents to return. I actually had the winning shot in a tight game so Alex decided to lift me and throw me into the deeper water so I was out of my depth. I went under and at the same time I was hanging onto my bikini bottoms and felt like I’d swallowed half of the pool by the time Eve took hold and let me recover my breath.

There was a lot of laughter and jumping and splashing and I was at least able to join in. We were told to collect the free tickets from reception and the large bottle of Prosecco was delivered on a silver tray with 5 glasses. The cork went flying into the water and Alex shook the bottle to spray half the contents around but enough was left to share with our opponents as more glasses appeared.

We didn’t have time to shower and change so we opted to eat at the snack bar where a salad buffet was available for all-inclusive guests. We found a table and Alex and two of our opponents joined us. I used my towel to cover myself as best I could tying it around my waist and knotting it like a sarong with Eve’s assistance.

Alex ordered a bottle of house wine and by the second glass I was joining the conversation. It sounded like the nightclub who provided the free tickets was well known to most of the girls attending and was attached to a bar frequented by the lesbian community. I was told I had to pretty myself up and we’d go to the bar and then the nightclub that evening after dinner in a fleet of taxis.

I whispered to Eve. ‘I can’t go surely. Can’t I just give my ticket to somebody else. Why don’t you just go with Alex and I’ll stay in and sort out my suitcase. I need to break the locks if necessary and buy another case.’

‘Don’t be silly Julia this is bonding before the start of the first day of our convention. I’ll lend you something to wear if that’s what is concerning you.’

Alex was listening and chipped in to say ‘Come on Julia this is a really lively bar in the middle of the town with a live group in the club as well as a DJ.’

It seemed rude to decline.

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BioCon is not a registered organisation. It is part of the story and was established by a group of LGB activists. The name came from the Greek root of Bio meaning 'Life' and Con meaning tricking or deceiving someone. The group opened its doors to LGBT members.

Finding Julia - Chapter 10

By Julie Dawn Cole

The afternoon was spent lazing around sun-bathing with a chance to sleep off the wine we had with our snacks. It was hot and with no cloud cover we had to apply lots of sun cream and move under the umbrellas from time to time. I focused on getting my legs tanned and this was an advantage of high cut bikini bottoms rather than my swimming shorts,

Eve suggested I needed a pedicure as my feet were not as smooth as hers and said that if we were going out for the evening I’d stand out if I didn’t have the hard skin removed and my toenails trimmed and painted.

‘Eve please stop this. I am beginning to feel like I am treated as a mannequin and I’m losing my identity. Let’s go sort out my suitcase and drop this charade.’

‘Julia. Please relax and enjoy this experience. Just have a good time with the rest of us. Getting pampered is what we girls do. Why not try it there is a salon and it doesn’t look too busy?’

Eve squeezed my hand and her puppy dog eyes sent a shiver down my back. I couldn’t find an argument to refuse and found myself nodding.

‘Why don’t you take a dip and cool off a bit and I’ll go check availability at the salon and I’ll fix you up. Then we’ll go sort out the suitcase.’

I took a shower to remove some of the sun cream and welcomed the chance to slip into the water that was a perfect temperature so I swam around for a while avoiding some guests throwing balls around and splashing about. I was drying myself off when Eve arrived back and she suggested we have a coffee at the snack bar.

‘We’re in luck you have an appointment booked at 5pm and I have some good news for you.’

‘What news?’

‘When I was getting my room card out of my sun bag I found your keys to the suitcase in the side pocket. We can go sort it out but I hope you will not change your mind.’

‘Great let’s go sort it out and we can shower and change.’

We left the others by the pool lounging around in the sunshine catching as many rays as possible before the convention started. The first event was a welcome dinner planned for the following evening so not many days of freedom and my own expectation of lazing around and trying to focus on our relationship were disappearing by the hour. This convention came out of the blue.

Alex had disappeared somewhere and hadn’t been seen since lunch that was a relief whilst Eve was away. One of the other girls was also missing that had raised a few eyebrows as we chatted over our coffees.

We chatted on the way to the room and Eve told me that finding the keys shouldn’t interfere with my promise to join the girls on the night out in Rhodes town and I should focus on looking as nice as possible and she’d help me with my hair and make-up. I didn’t feel like arguing I just wanted our relationship to work out and at least we’d made love together that was a start. Eve seemed a lot happier so I decided to go with the flow and hope for the best.

As soon as Eve opened the door I saw my suitcase on the bed and sighed with relief. Eve unlocked it and I opened it immediately.

‘Eve this is not my case look these are not my things.’

‘Yes it’s your case look the name tag is here. Look it’s tagged from Manchester as well.’

‘But where are my clothes and other things these are all womens things. Look there are no male clothes in either half.’

‘But these are my things in this half so it is your case.’

‘Eve I packed myself. Somebody must have interfered with my case. Where are my clothes and personal grooming things.’

‘Julia these are your things I re-packed before we left and you can see I put in some dressy things for the events we are attending.’

‘ But where did they come from? I haven’t bought them and look lots of them are brand new with labels. Underwear, swim togs and everything. Did you really take out what I packed?’

‘Yes don’t worry it’s all at home packed in another suitcase. You don’t need it this week this is far more appropriate.’
‘But look these are dresses. It’s bad enough wearing swimwear and your shorts and tops but a dress is another thing.’

‘You’re not scared are you? Lot’s of us at the convention will be wearing dresses so you won’t be out of place.’

But Eve I’m a man not a woman like you and the others.’

‘Well this week with your hair extensions and a change of dress code you are more like my girlfriend. That fits very well as you’ve seen so you don’t stand out. You have been welcomed.’

‘All this is so weird. You don’t seem embarrassed to be with me. I’d expect you to be ashamed to be seen with me.’

‘Not at all. Our group are very tolerant and whilst it was started as a lesbian group we now welcome all non-heterosexual groups. But we are still probably at least 90% lesbian.’

‘How long have you been doing this? I never knew.’

‘I’ve been a member of Biocon for 5 years since before we met. That’s where I met your sister.’

‘But she isn’t a lesbian is she?’

‘Just because she is pretty like you doesn’t mean she is straight. It was her idea that you came here with me since she told me you were like sisters growing up.’

‘But she never encouraged me at all. I was small and quiet and did spend time with her friends but there weren’t many boys about.’

‘Yes I can see the effect has had on you. Now I know you perform better between the sheets as Julia rather than Julian I hope we can explore more, But we need to get moving and get in the shower. We really ought to wash our hair before we go down to the salon.’

‘But what about these clothes?’

‘Let’s take a look at them as we hang them and see which dress suits you best. You might like to look inside the tissue paper there since there is a gift card.’

‘It’s to Julia wishing you a good time. Love from mum and sis.’

‘Open the wrapping paper then. Let’s see what’s inside. I resisted to take a peek.’

‘It’s a silver locket and chain. It’s inscribed with Julia and a picture of mum and me inside. Where did she get that? I am dressed as a young girl.’

‘It’s your sister isn’t it?’

‘No it’s me. It was a fancy dress party I went to. Mum let me dress as a girl and I won a prize. She said I’d have been called Julia if I’d have been born a girl.’

‘ You were very pretty. No wonder you won a prize.’

‘Yes dad wasn’t best pleased though. He told mum it had to stop.’

‘And did it?’

‘Yes. After that no more fancy dress as a girl. No more Julia.’

‘Mmm that explains something.’

‘What?’

‘I’ll tell you later now is not the right time. Let’s choose something appropriate for tonight and you’ll need to press it when we get back from the salon.’

Eve then ran the shower and stripped inviting me to join her. I saw my reflection in the mirror as I stripped. I was looking tanned already after our first day in the sun although it was obvious that I’d been wearing a bikini since there were clear lines. Regrettably my boobs were marble white in comparison with my chest, stomach and arms despite me using sun cream. I didn’t think I’d tan so quickly. Eve giggled and said I might have to go topless and spend time in private on our balcony.

It didn’t seem to register with me and we carried on with our shower using some luxury shower soap that Eve had brought rather than the soaps provided by the hotel. We washed our hair too and then towelled ourselves dry and wrapped ourselves in the soft white dressing gowns. Eve helped me put a wide bristle brush through my hair and the extensions remained in position.

We applied after sun and body cream and Eve decided that we’d visit the salon in fresh panties and shorts with loose tops but without bras or bikini tops because we were both slightly sore from the sun. I realised that if I bent forward then anybody standing above me could see my boobs but Eve said not to worry since the salon girls were used to seeing girls completely naked so wouldn’t blink. She mentioned the intricacies of a bikini wax but luckily that was not on the agenda.

I stayed close to Eve on the way down to the salon feeling slightly nervous since it was to be my first ever pampering session and I knew that I was ticklish under my feet and a foot massage was part of the package Eve had ordered. We were met by Selene and Phoebe who were waiting and luckily both spoke good English so communication was easy. We were shown to the area set up for foot treatments and soon we were relaxing in warm soft water with petals sprinkled on the surface.

Selene looked after me and was soon busy working to remove hard skin and trimming my nails. Then came the massage using foot creams and my feel felt so much slimmer and lighter. Eve helped me select a summer shade of nail varnish and I agreed to have the same colour on my finger-nails. Another girl was busy working on my hands while I was having the foot massage. I tried to resist nail extensions but Eve persuaded me after I saw hers and they didn’t seem too long. Well not until afterwards when it felt like I’d grown claws.

Attention moved to my face where my eyebrows were shaped and then make-up applied. Nothing too extreme because it was summer and Phoebe suggested a natural look. I already looked and felt completely female. The final part of the package was styling my hair with soft curls.

Where had Julian gone?

I almost skipped back to our room but Eve insisted we slow down and take our time looking at our reflections at every opportunity. She had arranged to meet some of the gang in the bar for a pre-dinner drink but we still had half an hour to finish getting ready.

I was used to a quick turn around and half an hour seemed ages to me but we ended up running late. All was going well whilst I was pressing the dress but when I stripped and looked through the selection of bras available Eve decided she couldn’t wait any longer and pushed me down onto the bed kissing me and fondling me. It didn’t take long for her to reach a climax that was the most intense she’d ever experienced. On my part I also felt a dampness in my panties so I had to change.

We tidied our hair and refreshed our make-up and I put on the dress that Eve fastened for me. It was cut just above the knee and Eve recommended I wore flat ballet style shoes since she said my legs were shapely enough and I didn’t need heels. I gave a twirl and flicked my hair as I showed off to her and looked in the full mirror. Eve fastened the locket around my neck and gave me one of her silver bracelets to wear.

I felt an urge to show myself off to the gang so I was ready to go but Eve wanted me to go onto the balcony so she could take a few shots. Before I could object she sent two of them to mum and sis by WhatsApp and then posted one on her Facebook page.

Finding Julia - Chapter 11

By Julie D Cole

I had no idea what suddenly came over me to agree to wear a dress but it looked good and Eve said it fitted perfectly although it was low cut at the front, quite short in length and sleeveless. There hardly seemed enough material to fit me anywhere.

I felt quite awkward because the dress was so short if I bent over my panties would show but that seemed amusing to Eve. She just said not to worry as some of the others would have short dresses too.

‘Why can’t I just wear shorts’

‘Don’t let’s go there again. You look cute like that and you should enjoy the experience. It’s nice to get admiring looks.‘

‘But I’m a guy in a dress and you are dressed in shorts. Why am I wearing your dress anyway if shorts are allowed?’

‘Well that’s because I’d be wearing a dress if I felt OK because I like to look nice. I’ve just started my period and I’m too uncomfortable. That’s a discomfort you don’t have to go through.’

‘Oh I’m sorry.’

‘Don’t worry about it honey I know how to deal with my tummy ache by now. You will find most of the gang wear dresses and I’ll be out of place. You wouldn’t want to feel out of place as well would you.’

‘No I suppose not but it’s a strange feeling to be going out like this.’

‘Just enjoy and we just have time to take a few shots before we go.’

Eve said she had always wanted to take photos of me dressed like this and she had me doing several poses standing and seated out on the balcony. I was keen to look at them but she said to wait as we had to meet the girls and she wanted to send them by WhatsApp to mum and sis. We hadn’t got out of our room before sis responded with thumbs up Emojis and she said she wished she was with us to see her ‘sis’ in the flesh.

‘See I told you that you look good. I’ve sent them to your phone as well. Come on let’s go have some fun.’

‘Do you think I’ll be OK dressed like this when we leave the hotel? I won’t get arrested will I?’

‘Don’t be silly not where we are going it’s a bar and club that will be filled with people just like us.’

‘What do you mean?’

‘We are a couple so just stick together and in any case nobody will challenge you dressed like this because you are Julie aren’t you?’

‘Yes I didn’t think I was a girl but it seems like I am.’

‘Yes you are and we are girlfriends and don’t forget we are engaged so if anybody tries it on let me know. Especially if it’s Alex. She’s been getting a bit too fond and I think she’s on heat.’

‘I don’t encourage her. She just appears from nowhere.’

‘Well don’t worry because if you stick with me you’ll be fine. Anyway if I know her she will be like a kid at a candy store with all the young chicks about.’

When we arrived downstairs at the bar most of the girls were seated with an array of drinks. They were waving and calling us as soon as we entered and moved around to give us too seats together. They made a fuss of me saying how my dress suited me and I guess I blushed. Eve took my hand and whispered not to be nervous or embarrassed and to take care to cross my legs when I sat down. It wasn’t like I had chance to think about anything since I was fussed over so much. Before I knew it I had a drink forced into my hand that I eventually had chance to sip. It tasted very fruity but it had a kick. Eve indicated I should take care not to spoil my lipstick.

The drinks seemed to be flowing and soon I had several in front of me. Nobody was paying because we were on an all-inclusive package and I was a bit worried in case anybody couldn’t handle the alcohol but to be fair it seemed they could all drink me under the table. Our party got louder as the drinks were consumed and Eve tried to maintain some control. It was a new experience for me seeing women behaving in such a boisterous way but I found myself laughing so much I was spilling my drinks.
Once the girls were well lubricated taxis were called. I already felt a little wobbly myself since I was not used to alcohol so I hung onto Eve. Everybody formed a line for the taxis and we filled each one to save on fares. I soon found myself sitting squeezed between two girls who I’d met for the first time over the drinks. They had arrived that afternoon and the introduced themselves as a couple Emma and Claire. We were squashed into the back seat of our taxi since both were much bigger than me but neither seemed concerned about their choice of dresses. My two legs were like matchsticks compared to theirs and neither had chance to sunbathe so they were marble white.

They directed Eve into the front seat to communicate with the driver in her best impression of a Greek accent that was funny. Luckily the driver understood the name of our venue Senses Music Bar in Rhodes Old Town. As we made the journey he kept looking me in the eye through his driver rear mirror. I tried to ignore him as best I could but his gaze was fixed. He was not much older than us and I wondered what was attracting him since I was a man like him.

Claire must have noticed so she cut in and said that she was ready to party and hoped we were. She’d been preparing her speech for the following day since she was one of the speakers. I wasn’t sure what sort of a seminar this was going to be or why Eve had registered us other than it was a subsidised vacation. I hoped Claire would be careful since I could never stand in front of an audience sober never mind with a hangover.

However one good thing was that she was twice as big as me with seemingly endless capacity for alcohol. Maybe her body could absorb it more easily so it wouldn’t affect her as much as it seemed to be doing to me. I already felt I was slurring my speech and I’d had just 3 drinks.

All the taxis arrived one after the other as if we’d travelled in convoy so it must have been quite a sight for locals with all the legs on view. The bar was busy with music inside and lots of people standing as well as seated outside. It seemed to be an equal split of men and women that made Emma happy since only 2 years previously it was a gay bar full of men with some dressed as women. There didn’t seem to be any segregation but we found an area that was almost 100% female.

We all contributed to the drinks kitty with Eve taking charge and she kindly put in my share whilst instructing me to watch my bag and my credit cards. I wasn’t used to carrying a bag so I’d no idea how to hang onto it. Eventually I slung it across my body with the strap between my bosoms.

Luckily the bar was still serving food as well so we ordered some snacks and set them out like a small buffet. Of course it attracted a few visitors, mostly girls, but nobody misbehaved.

When Eve went to the bathroom I was looking at a drinks list when I was approached by two other girls who were on vacation. They were English and they were regulars at the bar. Since it was my first time they warned me that Rhodes was still anti- gay and lesbian and I should take care outside the bar but this was the safest bar in town for the LBGT community that was left alone by angry residents in the area. It sometimes got raided by the police if anti-gay residents caused a fuss and complained.

I didn’t want to end up in a cell overnight so I hoped we’d picked a quiet night. I looked at my image in one of the large mirrors. What was on earth was I doing dressed like this with a gang of strangers?

The girls chatted again and told me that in recent years more younger locals were visiting the bar and liked the scene. Unlike a generation before females in Rhodes were becoming a lot more independent and not taking up jobs as skivvies in hotels and bars. Some were very beautiful and left Rhodes for the mainland and it seemed that lots were looking for education and friendships overseas. Any chance to leave a prejudiced place like Rhodes. This vacation was getting more weird by the hour. I was getting more and more confused.

When Eve arrived back the girls introduced themselves and asked who we all were and where we lived. Eve explained that this was a seminar/vacation package and we were all from different parts of the UK.

They were in a relationship and they were interested to find out more about the seminar so Eve suggested they come to the hotel the following day and find us. They were nice but I was feeling a bit out of place and a little bit dizzy. Eve took my arm and looked me in the eye asking if I could follow her finger. ‘Julia would you like to sit down it might be all the excitement and the alcohol so just let me get your drinks so I know they aren’t being laced.’

‘What do you mean?’

‘Well looking around I can see a few might try it on lacing your drinks and hoping to get into your knickers.’

I seemed to recover quickly and decided to drink some water to dilute the booze. After a while we danced together since some of our gang had already started and the dance floor was already half full.

I had no idea how to dance and I felt nervous and awkward. Eve encouraged me to try. I was looking around at others and I tried to copy their style that made Eve laugh. Then she explained that I should slow down a bit and follow the music.

The dance floor seemed to fill and we were into our third dance when I felt someone behind us and two hands took hold of my waist and whispered to my ear. ‘Hi gorgeous you look beautiful, can we cut in?’

I turned around. It was Alex with one of the female entertainment staff from the hotel called Victoria who was working at the hotel through the summer. She was a fitness instructor who ran the exercise classes and was a lifeguard at the pool. She was gorgeous.

‘Sorry to miss out on the pre-drinks but Vicky and I were distracted a bit whilst getting ready. It’s her day off tomorrow so we are here to have some fun. Who wants a drink?’

Eve jumped in ‘It’s OK we are in a kitty with the girls so best we stick with them.’

‘It’s only one drink so come on let yourselves go.’

‘ We are all at the seminar tomorrow so we can’t go mad thanks.’

‘So am I if I manage to get up. It depends on Vicky here since I am hoping she asks me to stay over.’

Vicky chipped in ‘ I might if you are lucky but remember that I have a boyfriend.’

‘Well he is welcome to join us if he wants but he won’t get a look in I can assure you.’

Eve and I looked at each other. I couldn’t believe these two. Surely Vicky had more respect for her boyfriend. What was the world coming to?

Finding Julia Chapter 12
By Julie D Cole

I was feeling a lot more relaxed after dancing and staying clear of alcohol for a while. The water was helping I supposed but after consuming so much I needed to relieve myself. Eve pointed me towards the bathrooms and made no offer to come with me. I knew I had no choice but to follow the symbol for the women’s bathroom.

Just as luck would have it there was a queue inside and only 3 stalls. It seemed we were either British or German and 2 Scottish girls took pity on me and gave up their places. Two German girls didn’t seem in any hurry but took the first cubicle that became free. They entered together. I couldn’t see them being in a hurry the way they were behaving. Relief at last when a door opened and a cleaning lady came out having cleaned and tidied it. I was fortunate I supposed not to have arrived 10 minutes earlier.

I took my turn washing my hands and realised others were freshening up their lips and tidying their hair so I did the same. At least the hair extensions were intact and I wondered when Eve was going to remove them. I quite liked the longer style and thought I might grow my hair out when I got home from vacation.

As I left the restroom I looked around for Eve. I couldn’t see her with the rest of the girls but Alex and Vicky were there hanging onto each other. A fresh drink was thrust into my hand and luckily it was a long one with plenty of orange juice. Alex insisted I stand with them and put an arm around my shoulder. It seemed that Vickys boyfriend was out on a stag night in town somewhere and she didn’t expect him to be back to their apartment or in any fit state the following day that was his free day. I guess Alex was taking advantage of the situation and Vicky liked both male and female attention.

Alex realised I was looking for Eve and nodded towards a rear exit onto an area used mainly by smokers.

‘She doesn’t smoke so why is she out there?’

‘Best to go find out if you are worried. She is with somebody but it’s none of my business.’

‘Oh. But the girls are all here.,

‘Well when the cat’s away…’

I nervously waited clutching my drink and sipping it consistently. Alex kept smirking and raising her eyebrows and she winked and blew me a kiss. I kept looking towards the doorway and finally I couldn’t wait any longer. She’d encouraged me to join everybody and come out in a dress and I felt unable to resist her prompts. I felt disserted and scared since the music was loud and everybody was drinking, laughing, giggling talking loudly or dancing. I could only see women wherever I looked apart from the bar staff, one who was in drag and the other his gay partner.’

Finally I put my drink down and Alex watched as I headed through the throng of girls in various states of inebriation. I held my dress down after one girl made a lude comment and suggested I show my knickers.

As I reached the doorway I looked outside and could see Eve with a small group of girls with two of them smoking. They seemed to be laughing at something Eve had just said and as she turned and saw me approach them she looked a little bit awkward. Nevertheless she beckoned me over and I tried to let her see that I wasn’t comfortable.

‘Are you OK you look a bit uncomfortable?’

‘I am confused since I’ve just been in the restrooms and I went in the ladies without a second thought. I should be using the mens but I can’t. How can I go in there in a dress? Nobody even seems to blink an eye. I seem to behave the same way as everybody else. How?’

‘ Calm down please Julia. Come on and meet the girls. This is Phillipa and Jenna who are my friends from way back. They’ve just got engaged before they left the UK. This is Fran and this is Nicky both who I work with. Everybody this is my girlfriend Julia.’

I did a round of hugs and we all looked at Jennas engagement ring. A beautiful cluster of small diamonds not unlike the ring I’d bought for Eve. Why did she refer to me as her girlfriend. She is my fiancé.’

I didn’t really like to be outside in the smoking area and the two smokers, Fran and Nicky quickly, extinguished their cigarettes so we could head back inside to meet back up with the rest of the group. They all knew each other so it was squeals and hugs all round. I got dragged in and didn’t fight to get free. These were a crazy group and I’d never experienced anything like it before.

By midnight the bar was closing and the music had stopped. We all walked to the taxi stand and I had to hang onto Eve as I wobbled a bit due to my heels and the effect of the alcohol. Philippa [Pippa, Jen, Fran and Nic] were staying in a separate hotel close by so took a taxi together. Eve and I ended up sharing with Alex and Vicky and Eve sat in the front whilst I was squashed in the middle on the rear seat. Alex was definitely feeling frisky and I wished I’d sat in the front. The driver seemed a safer option.

Luckily everybody was focused on the seminar so no late night drinks when we got back to the hotel. It was a relief because I wanted to remove my dress and shoes and most of all to take a shower. I could taste the cigarette smoke from earlier and I decided to hang Eve’s dress out on the balcony.

I stood in front of the mirror in my underwear waiting for Eve to finish in the bathroom. There wasn’t much sign of my manhood in panties that seemed to fit more comfortably each day. How on earth was I going to be able to satisfy Eve without any rigidity. I wasn’t being turned on by anything yet I had been surrounded by women since we arrived. Some of the women around the pool seemed to have bigger frontage than this.

Eva was now snuggled in her bathrobe leaving the bathroom free for me to shower. I removed my bra and saw the suntan lines from my bikini top. I daren’t go home like this and I needed to discuss how to solve it with Eve. I seemed to be developing a bust but I felt that was due to the effect of the bra pulling my soft flesh.

I put on a shower cap and stepped into the bath turning the shower head to massage position and enjoyed the strong pulsating jet on my neck and shoulders then on my lower back. I reached down to ensure I still had feeling because I had been packed tightly for so long. I used to be able to get it to respond so easily and now it didn’t want to play. I directed the power spray and increased the water temperature but still nothing. How could I expect Eve to marry me like this?

Eve came to the door to ask me to finish and get dry and offered to help. I had a tear in my eye and she wrapped her arms around me.

‘What’s wrong? Why are you upset? Have I hurt you?’

‘No I’m OK it’s so confusing. I don’t know what’s happened to me. Since we arrived here I feel like I’m not in control of anything. I don’t speak out or anything. I just feel weird but at the same time I’m relaxed.’

‘Well you looked beautiful tonight. All the girls thought you looked great in that dress and were envious.’

‘Yes but I’m a man not a woman but I behave like a young girl.’

‘You have enjoyed yourself haven’t you. I know you are surrounded by us women but you seem to be growing in confidence and I’m so proud of you.’

‘Yes but then why did you say I was your girlfriend. I’m not. You are my fiancé and one day we’ll marry.’

‘Julia please. Calm down. Here sit on this stool let me help you tie your hair back and remove your make-up. You need to do that before you shower in future.’

I looked in the mirror and Eve smiled. I didn’t want to argue and once all the make- up was removed I still looked cute according to Eve.

Eve gave me a silk shorty nightdress with matching knickers that she said would match hers and she removed her bathrobe and let it fall to the floor. Where had these come from? I never saw them in her case when she unpacked. Not that they took up much space.

‘Come on Jules get a move on. We have to be up early tomorrow for the seminar and I don’t want to have to drag you out of bed. We need an early breakfast and I’ve arranged for Pips and Jenna to join us since they are in a sister hotel and I’m sure that Maria won’t mind if she is on duty.’

‘As long as they don’t turn up in shorts like I did first day. They’ll be kicked out.’

‘Don’t be silly. I know you are joking. Anyway we girls are allowed to wear shorts in the restaurant as you know.’

‘Yes I was joking. I can’t see why there is a problem with men wearing shorts. It’s not like there are many of them around. You don’t think this is a lesbian venue do you?’

‘What if it was. You fit right in with all the other girls. Would you feel awkward with more men around?’

‘No. In truth I feel safer and nobody seems to object to me wearing your things even tonight in town.’

‘I guess that’s because you seem so relaxed and content. I haven’t seen you smile so much in a long time.’

‘Well I don’t feel under pressure or anybody expecting me to be something I’m not. I could stay here longer if we could afford it and I am in no hurry to go back to work.’

I joined Eve under the sheets and we cuddled. I was very conscious of my soft and flaccid appendage and the lack of any response when I’d tried to bring it to life in the shower. Eve didn’t seem to mind and she was happy to cuddle and encouraged me to kiss her breasts and tummy. Before I knew it she was naked and my nightdress had been removed. She stroked my nipples and returned the favour kissing my tummy and then removed my panties. It felt wonderful so she moved lower down and suddenly I felt a stiffness.

I found myself squealing and almost panting and she rolled me onto my back and moved to my mouth pushing her tongue deep into my throat and tried to reach my tonsils. I suddenly exploded. Well not so much an explosion but enough to bring a smile to Eves face.
‘See you did it. It wasn’t so difficult was it. You excited me too and maybe next time I’ll let you do the work and teach you more techniques in love making between two women so you can bring me properly to climax.’

Finding Julia Chapter 13

By Julie D Cole

Eve fortunately had set the alarm on her phone otherwise I fear we would have slept all morning. The combination of the evenings alcohol and the late night love making had whacked us both out. Eve jumped out of bed first to make us both a mug of tea before we showered.

We sat up and I turned on TV to watch the international news. Nothing much seemed to be happening so I flicked over to the channel that highlighted the hotel events and its facilities.

Our seminar was highlighted together with a list of guests and speakers. There was a photograph of the key-note speaker and the other speakers. I was puzzled when I looked at the photos and one lady seemed familiar. I asked Eve if she knew who she was and if we had seen her before somewhere or on tv in the UK.

‘She is a professor who specialises in treatment of people struggling with Gender Identity ad she speaks at Conferences around the world. Next year she booked to speak at several International Conferences on Gender Identity and LGBT Rights and we are honoured to have her speak.’

‘But I feel like I’ve met her before. Have I? Have we met her or seen her speak? I don’t recall going to any conferences or seeing her on tv.’

‘I’ve met her before through our organisation. I learned about her when I came here last year. She is very nice and she’s becoming quite famous. We are lucky to have her attend. She was one of our founder members and she is the husband of Ann Nightingdale our lady chairman who took her family name for some reason. We will be meeting them at the seminar along with a few other attendees. Pips and Jenna will also be there.’

‘I just feel I’ve met her. It’s puzzling me.’

‘Never mind that for now. We’d better get a move on so let’s shower and get ready. I’m sure you’ll remember when we meet her if indeed you have met her before.’

‘But I’m confused. I feel like I want to shake my head to try to wake up out of a dream. Look at me I’m in your nightdress. Where are my shorts and tee shirt.’

‘Julia. Come on snap out of it. We need to get moving. I’ll go in the shower first whilst you finish your tea.’

I heard the shower running so I snuggled back under the sheets and reached for my phone and googled Professor Nightingdale – Gender Identity. She was indeed an authority on alternative techniques to help people who are encountering problems with their sexual identity. Maybe it was because she was in a lesbian relationship that she was interested in helping people. She wasn’t very old to say she was a Professor. She must surely be older than she looked.

I put on a shower cap and removed my nightdress and panties and looked at myself in the steamed up mirror as I wiped it with a hand towel. I wasn’t sure I wanted to go to the seminar since I’d come here assuming it was a vacation. Moreso this was a holiday destination and the sun was shining so why have a seminar here? Who wants to be inside all day?

I guess I had to attend since I’d already promised Eve and she had obviously booked it taking advantage of discounts provided to BiCon. Furthermore there were clearly a large group of Eves friends here too.

The image in the mirror was that of me as Eves girlfriend not of her boyfriend even without clothes or make-up and with a shower cap. My facial features had changed these last few months and now when I turned sideways it seemed like I had small breasts. I pushed them together as if they were held in a bra or bikini top and I had cleavage.

I stepped into the shower after Eve shouted for me to hurry up and used the body soap that Eve had brought with us rather than the freebies provided by the hotel. My skin was soft and free of hair save my bush that was hiding my appendage. I was bigger than this when I was 12 years old. Alex seemed to have a bigger bulge in her swimsuit than I had in Eves bikini.

I dried myself and wrapped the towel around me taking care to cover my chest area like Eve had done. Not that I had much to hide but it just seemed to be why the towels were so large and extra fluffy.

Eve had already laid out some clothes on the bed and removed the shorts and top that was on a hanger. She was in bra and pants and was sitting at the mirror and applying her make-up. Fresh underwear was laid out for me along with a lemon coloured cotton dress that looked a bit on the short side.

‘What’s happened to the shorts and top that I was going to wear?’

‘That is in the wardrobe. Today is the seminar and nobody will be wearing shorts. Even though it’s hot weather we’ll all be wearing more formal dress. Summer dresses are fine. That’s my favourite that I’m lending you but it’s a little bit tight on me and I expected to shed a few pounds before this trip. I will fit you I’m sure since you are not as big as me in the butt. I will be heading to the gym when we get home. Pop your underwear on and let’s see what you look like.’

‘Do you think this colour will suit me?’

‘Jules my love you look good in any colour. It will bring out your tan just wait and see.’

I held it up against me and then stepped into it. Eve had to zip it up at the back because I couldn’t do it. It accentuated my waist and it flared out but it was shorter than the dress I’d worn the night before. I looked in the mirror on the wardrobe door. Eve was right it was a beautiful colour and it was soft and light to wear. Eve ensured my bra straps weren’t exposed and helped me with my make-up and hair and then told me to sit properly in the chair and to keep my legs crossed.

Her dress was a deep pink and she twirled in front of me to seek my approval. She looked good and it fitted her perfectly and showed her ample bosoms very well.

‘You see your dress is a little more conservative. Better not to show too much cleavage. Maybe one day soon but not today.’

The bag I’d used the night before looked ok with the dress and the sandals so I was ready. Eve had a small brief case sort of bag to carry her laptop and some papers.

Pips and Jenna were waiting in reception when we exited the lift and after hugs and compliments we headed to the restaurant on the first floor. Maria was on duty and she smiled as she greeted us and gave us a hug. Welcome at last.

Since it was early we found a table on the balcony overlooking the sea. It was a beautiful day with a calm sea and no wind. Such a shame not to be relaxing by the pool.

We were served with coffee and then went to select some items from the cold buffet. Eve decided to watch her figure and selected some yogurts and fruit. Pips did the same but Jenna and I decided to have cold meats, cheese and fresh rolls. I resisted the croissants.

Pips spoke first and I realised her voice was a little deeper than normal which I’d not noticed the night before. As we laughed and joked and talked about the mornings presentations I suddenly noticed Pips adams apple. I didn’t think women had them and mine was non existent same as Eve.

I was dying to mention it but thought better of it and waited until Eve and I were alone at the table.

‘Eve excuse me but have you noticed that Pips has a more prominent Adams Apple than normal. Is that why her voice is deeper than yours?’

‘Oh Jules my love you are so sweet. Remember that I told you that there were some men here at the seminar. Well Pips is going through the change and she still has her crown jewels. She was referred to Professor Nightingdale 2 years ago before she started HRT. Her breasts are all hers and sometime soon it will be snip,snip, plop plop. Problem solved.’

‘So Professor Nightingdale does she do the snips?’

‘No she helped her through her dark period so she could face her colleagues and her family who were very difficult and not co-operative.’

‘So she was a man. I don’t believe it. She is so beautiful.’

‘Well she’s a woman to me and to all her friends. Her family are a bit difficult but less of a problem these days since she moved in with Jenna. They are a great couple. Perfect for each other. I’m delighted to hear they will marry soon.’

‘So is Jenna a man as well? I mean does she have the bits?’

‘No so don’t dare say that or she’ll be hurt. She’s all girl and was quite a character until she me Pips. Slept around a bit according to rumours but they were mostly spread by men trying to get into her panties.’

‘ So Pips looks so happy now just look at them rubbing up against each other. The chef can’t focus on making his omelettes.’

When they came back to the table they ordered coffee refills and Eve and I selected our next course. I ordered from the chef who cooked me a mushroom and pepper omelette and Eve went for some fresh salmon and seafood with some salad items. It seemed like she wanted the dress back sometime soon.

As we ate I decided to ask about the seminar and if the three of them would attend the International Conferences that were scheduled. I asked about Professor Nightingdale and said I had a strange feeling that I seen her before or met her some place. I noticed Pips and Eve look each other in the eye.

Pips spoke in response and said that she’d met her at the university where she had lectured but she had a private practice in Manchester as well and maybe I’d seen her on tv.

Nothing was clicking so we left the subject and headed downstairs to the conference rooms to pick up our name tags and papers. They took a while to find mine.

‘Eve you’ve registered me as Ms Julia Coleman so when I said Mr Julian Coleman they couldn’t find anything.’

‘Not to worry it’s all sorted now isn’t it. Come on I need a quick word with Madam Chairman before this thing kicks off. Do you want to be finding the others. I’ll have a Fran and Nicky water please.’

When Eve arrived back we had found some seats together and Fran and Nicky were in the row behind. We were all chatting together when Vicky arrived with Katy and Helen. She’d spent the night with Alex and it didn’t look like she’d had much sleep. I wasn’t sure if Vickys boyfriend was here or not and then a young woman came up to us. She didn’t look very happy and she beckoned to Vicky and they went over to a quiet area to talk.

‘Who’s that?’

‘Don’t worry that’s Claudia her boyfriend. He was out all night celebrating and he hasn’t got his key.’

.But that’s a woman not a man.’

‘Only when he goes out. He is a transvestite and so are some of his friends.’

‘Eve this is so weird. My head is spinning. I need some water I think.’

‘Hurry up then go get a bottle. It looks like the introductions are coming up. You need a clear head to listen to what is being said.’

Finding Julia Chapter 14
By Julie D Cole

I walked over to the table where our good friend Maria was on duty so I almost turned back in case she barred me again. She smiled and handed me a bottle and even lifted the cap for me.
‘You look very pretty today Julia. So does Eve. Please tell her I said so. There is going to be a cold buffet lunch in the open air dining area so I think you’ll be fine dressed as you are. I hope that you’ve thrown those awful boy-shorts away that you were wearing on your first evening.’ She winked as she said it.
I tried to smile and took a sip of water managing a quiet thank you. I felt her eyes following me as I returned to my seat next to Eve. She took my hand and asked if I was OK and I nodded and she’d seen I was talking with Maria. I thought it was better not to say anything apart from her saying we both looked nice.
‘Funny she saw us earlier at breakfast and she didn’t say anything to me.’
‘Well I’m only the messenger. She even had the audacity to wink at me.’
‘Forget it she is not being serious. It’s her sense of humour.’
Eve looked around the audience that had grown quickly. There were at least 50 people and probably more. She then whispered and reminded me that there were men at this seminar who were happy to be there and I didn’t need to feel uncomfortable.
I looked around as best I could before the speakers took their seats without being seen to stare. I supposed I could have identified a few if pushed but in an audience like this at a seminar about the LGBT community it wasn’t as if any of them needed to dress and act like fashion models. Eve then told me that in fact 80 had registered and she knew that at least six were in transition. There were a few transvestites and the rest were females attending as couples or in groups of three or four.
‘You see that you have nothing to fear about dressing in feminine style. It suits you and you are as pretty as anybody here. Nobody here is going to judge you if you want to express your femininity and all I can say is that you are a different person now compared to three months ago. You are completely relaxed and a lot more self-confident like this. I’ve fallen in love with you all over again,’
‘But Eve I feel so strange now and I worry. It seems wrong and if this gets back to my friends at home or at work then I’m going to be an outcast forever. My boss will ridicule me even more than she does. I know she found out that I’ve cross dressed and been out and that I once posted photographs on the internet. She implied as much when she was working for me and she’s taken advantage of the situation ever since.’
‘Maybe you are right but then again maybe not. It’s down to you to deal with her and confront her in my opinion but you have to decide what you really want and whatever your decision I’m here to help. You know where you ended up by staying silent and I watched you lose all your confidence and slide into deep depression. I almost gave up on you if it hadn’t been for your mum and your sister. I hope you’ll listen today and that we’ll all benefit.’
‘But you can’t be happy to see me like this. I’m like a girl.’
‘I like girls and I like some men. I have many lesbian friends and I had boyfriends before I met you. I chose you. Well you chased me in actual fact and I let you catch me.’
‘But I never let you see me cross dressing. Who blabbed?’
‘Nobody. I saw some of my things had been disturbed when you stayed over and I found some more evidence in your room at home. Then I was looking at your phone over your shoulder one day and thought you had a library of photos of your sister. When I met her I knew they weren’t photos of her.’
‘What did you do about it?’
‘Nothing for a while because I didn’t want to upset you.’
We had to stop chatting since Ann Nightingdale, the Chairlady stood up to welcome everybody. She introduced each speaker in turn and thanked Professor Nightingdale for taking the trouble to be with us considering her busy schedule and then she ran down the agenda for the 2 day event.
Eve had opened her laptop and was making notes already and had the papers already in her file. I noticed that she had the papers before we’d left the UK so why she hadn’t told me I didn’t know.
Ann outlined the schedule of events for the International Conferences that would take place over the forthcoming year and how to apply to submit papers or to attend. I doubted anybody from BiCon would write papers but it would be interesting to read some of them. I didn’t expect that we’d be going to any although Eve might have other ideas.
Professor Nightingdale then stood up to warm applause of welcome for giving up valuable time. Her voice seemed familiar as well as her face as she started her keynote address. It was accompanied by a few presentation slides on a large screen. She then told us that she has agreed to do a separate presentation in the afternoon since one of the speakers had cancelled. She said that she would focus on transgender issues and outline some of her case experiences.
Her speech touched on many things and she emphasised that in her own analysis covering the last 50 years there had been an acceleration in the acceptance of the LGBT community. She felt that she hoped that the same progress could be made with the right to choose gender because there were far too many incidents of abuse, bullying and violence. But more worrying to her was the rise in suicides as families rejected those facing this dilemma.
One of the presentations would discuss the changes in society attitudes towards gay men and lesbians but made an assessment of the number of men and women living painful lives closeted away in fear of exposure. More often their lives were being ruined through no fault of their own and talent was being supressed.
Eva whispered to me that she had many patients on her books who felt trapped in the wrong bodies coming from all walks of life and she had helped many come to terms with the problem and go on to flourish.
‘Where does she practice?’
‘In Manchester so it’s not so far from us.’
‘Maybe I’ve seen her around Manchester she does seem familiar.’
She handed over to Ann to introduce the next presenter and sat back down to a round of applause. I looked around and was surprised how everybody seemed satisfied to be listening to lectures when we were in such a beautiful location with wall to wall sunshine. By now me included.
The next presenter led us up to a coffee break with her topic - Is Transgender a Mental Illness. Eve nudged me and said that the presenter worked alongside Professor Nightingdale at an Institute in Manchester and I should listen carefully. She explained that she was in fact transgender herself but she had the softest and most feminine voice albeit a little husky. I recalled seeing her by the pool the day before. She was beautiful and had removed her bikini top to avoid white bits.
‘Are you sure she is transgender I saw her yesterday. I thought she was a model.’
‘Of course she is. I’ll show you her profile on my computer later. I met her in Manchester for lunch one day along with Ann Nightingdale to get some advice.’
‘What sort of advice?’
‘Ssh. Listen people are looking at us.’
Her name was Georgina Kennedy and she had changed her name from George to avoid any confusion. She had new documents and a new passport and was properly registered as female that she had considered a priority.

I listened carefully as she related her experiences in her early teenage years and she’d had a variety of consultations as she struggled with her identity. Her family had rejected her pleas to live as a girl and failed to understand her problems. She was adamant that she was a girl despite having male genitalia. She hated living in a boys body. She had been bullied and beaten several times growing up and eventually her parents referred to a psychiatrist who had tried to convince her that she was a boy and arranged for full examinations to prove it. In the end he recommended that she be sent to an all male school to be surrounded by other boys and take up boys activities.

It was a sad story because it made things worse. She ran away and eventually was found miles away on a bridge about to jump into the Manchester ship canal. By a stroke of luck a passer-by stopped and talked to her. She listened to her and tried to understand what had driven her to such extreme action. As luck would have it that passer by was Professor Nightingdale who stopped her car and ran to her. After persuading Georgina to climb down she took her home and sat at spoke at length to her parents.
She maintained contact and eventually convinced the family that it had been a mistake to treat her problem as a mental illness and to let her help. During the next 3 years Georgina was allowed to dress as a girl and immediately moved to a new school to finish her education. She thrived in the new environment making friends with other girls and being totally accepted. Eventually that resulted in hormone treatment and bust enhancement. She was due to have her final surgery within the coming 12 months.
There were quite a few questions from the audience and she explained the mental torment she had experienced that was first of all due to her being bullied and then rejection. She explained that she just wanted to be normal and to be loved. Her family were shocked that their reaction and actions had caused such pain to her.
Professor Nightingdale looked a little embarrassed at the accolades especially when Georgia turned to her and said she was forever grateful to her for stopping that day and giving her chance to be happy. Her parents were equally happy to have a daughter and they were no longer ashamed.
At the coffee break I queued whilst Eve made her way to talk to Georgia and when she came back she said she’d arranged for her to sit with us and Pips and Jenna at lunch. I was a bit surprised but very happy to get the chance to ask her questions. I started to get flashbacks of something that had happened to me and I wondered if she really would have jumped in the canal.
I couldn’t remember much about the next two presentations before lunch since my mind was all over the place and I was feeling in a daze. I tried sneaking off to the bathrooms and took the chance for some fresh air. After 5 minutes I felt well enough to go back to my seat. Eve checked that I was OK and I told her not to worry.
When we broke for lunch Eve found us a table with the help of Maria who arranged for a waitress to find Georgina and show her where we were. Close up she was even more striking than she’d looked on stage or by the pool. She was quite a bit taller than me but probably that was her heels. She acted as if she knew me.
We had a cold drink then headed to the buffet. I was standing next to Georgina helping myself to salad when Professor Nightingdale approached and smiled at Georgina and complemented her. Then she turned to me.
‘Hello Julia you look very pretty today. I am pleased to see you here with Eve and you’ve already caught the sun so take care please. You have fair skin.’
I managed to smile and say hello. How did she know my name? We’d never met as far as I was aware.

Finding Julia Chapter 15

By Julie D Cole

I went back to our table and sat down next to Eve to eat my lunch. I still felt in a daze. Eve obviously noticed and took my hand.

‘What’s wrong because you look uncomfortable?’
‘It’s just that Professor Nightingdale spoke to me as if she new me. She said I looked very pretty and I should take care in the sun because of my fair skin. Do I know her?’

‘Please drink some water and eat something and take one of your tablets to calm down. Do you want to go to the room to lie down?’
‘No I’ll be fine. I just need to understand what’s happening to me. Am I going crazy? Professor Nightingdale recognised me as a girl and called me Julia I’m sure.’

‘Well that’s your name isn’t it?’
‘My name is ….. My name is Julian not Julia. I’m your boyfriend.’

‘Julia please. Just calm down. We all know who you are around this table. Just relax and be yourself and to put your mind at rest we’ll try to have a chat with Professor Nightingdale later.’

I sat back in my seat staring out of the windows at some fishing boats and a speed boat that was giving them a hard time.
Eve urged me to answer her.

‘I’ve got no appetite. Ever since we arrived I’ve felt in a state of confusion and it all seems to have started the first night at dinner. Do you think it’s the food or something?’

‘No I’m sure it’s nothing like that. I’m fine and so are all the others so it can’t be the food.’
‘What is it then I’m feeling so strange these days.’

‘All I can say is that you seem so much more alive and you look so much better in yourself. These last 2 days you’ve had a smile on your face and colour in your cheeks enhanced by make-up. No wonder Professor Nightingdale complemented you. That colour dress really suits you.’

‘Thanks. I like it too. The dress is yours though, but it fits quite well. The complements should be to you because it was your choice not mine. I have no experience about style or fashion compared to you.’

‘Do you like it? It’s yours if you like. You may keep it.’

‘No I can’t it’s yours and I don’t want to spoil it.’

‘Don’t worry I have enough outfits for the two of us. Sharing is caring isn’t it? It’s not like we are here for a long vacation or anything. It’s just a few days.’

I began to feel much better after I took a few sips of water and decided not to accept the offer of wine and I managed to eat most of the salad items and some fresh bread with butter. By now the others were tucking into cake and deserts which I avoided. Eve left the table and I saw her talking with Professor Nightingdale and her wife Ann.

It gave me chance to slide across into Eves seat to talk with Georgina at last. She had been chatting with Pips and Jenna but she turned her attention to me. I didn’t know what to say to get to the questions I really had in my mind. She smiled so I complemented her on the presentation and told her how I admired her courage to stand up and talk about it. I took the opportunity to ask about Professor Nightingdale and how she’d helped turn her life around.

‘Well as you know from my presentation she saved my life by persuading me not to jump. I was feeling so lost and I felt all alone in the world. She offered to take me somewhere to sit and talk so I climbed down and we sat in her car for a while. Traffic was busy and drivers were peeping their horns.’

‘So she was a complete stranger?’

‘Yes I had no idea who she was or that she was a professor. She didn’t seem that much older than me although she obviously is and she took my hand and eventually I stopped shaking. I think she guessed what was wrong without me having to go into detail. I didn’t look like I do now. I was stronger and my make-up was cheap that I hid in a case at school along with the dress, underwear and shoes. I was sharing a room at the time and I’d been disturbed whilst being myself. I was dragged out into the quadrangle and before I knew it half the school were out and they were laughing at me and calling me names.’

‘Didn’t the teachers come to help?’

‘No they just stood by. Then my house master came over to me and took me to the headmasters office. He was angry and he rang my father to tell him that I had no place at their school and I was suspended.’

‘Did you want to be a girl?’

‘No I am a girl. I knew then that it was more than dressing the part. I told the headmaster that I hated the school and I didn’t care if I was suspended. I was born a girl.’

‘So did your parents come to collect you and take you home?’

‘My father said he would drive over after he finished work so I was sent back to my room and told to change back into my uniform and escorted by a senior student. He said he felt sorry for me and he thought the students had been cruel and unkind.’

Georgia was sobbing and told him that nobody ever listened to her and she was treated as an embarrassment to her family. Her father would be really angry when he arrived for wasting his money and would punish her. The student hugged her and then allowed Georgia to change in privacy in her shower room. Her upset turned to anger so she locked the door behind her, threw her uniform out of the window and sat on the floor to cry. The boy was knocking on the door and trying to dislodge the lock so she leaned against the door telling him to leave her alone.

He seemed to go for help so Georgia looked for an escape. She realised the window was big enough for her to squeeze through if she climbed on the sink. It was a struggle and she contemplated jumping to the ground even to kill herself but it couldn’t be guaranteed as it wasn’t high enough. She reached a drainpipe that was loose but strong enough to take her wait and scrabbled down to the ground. She ignored her clothes that were scattered on the ground and scaled a fence and ran across the fields to the main road. She intended to hitch a lift anywhere but the traffic was light.

As she approached the village she saw an open backed truck and climbed aboard hiding behind its load when she saw the coast was clear. Within an hour the truck had pulled up at traffic lights in a built-up area on the outskirts of her home-town Manchester. She jumped out of the truck and she saw the bridge so she headed towards it. She stopped as she entered the footbath over the bridge and stopped and leaned against the fence looking down to the water below. It was a busy canal used for transporting goods rather than pleasure craft.

As she stared into the murky waters below she felt really down. She hated the idea of going home to listen to a non-stop barrage of abuse and threats of punishment. She had suffered it as long as she could remember and nobody ever listened if she tried to explain.

It took a while for her to pluck up enough courage to end it all and the more she reflected on her life the more upset she became. She’d encountered bullying as long as she could remember even from girls in her class. If she went into the boys bathroom she’d be ducked in the sinks where cleaning staff filled their mop buckets. If she dared to dream of entering the girls bathroom dressed in her boys uniform the screams would echo all around the school as some bully girl would drag her by her hair down to the floor and to the exit. She wasn’t accepted wherever she went.

She explained that she had known from the age of four that she was a girl just like her elder sister on who she doted. She’d played with her rather than her two brothers one of whom was older and the other several years younger. She kept away from the boys as much as she could without her father intervening whilst her sister would laugh and giggle with her and teach her girly games and how to dance.

She would be included in the plays her sister arranged with her friends and even allowed to borrow a leotard to put on a dance performance for her mother and parents of their friends. But as she got older this was discouraged.
She kept the leotard and built up a stock of hand-me-down clothes from her sister in the following years that she wore whenever possible but more and more in privacy.

She knew that her sister knew how he felt and she confided in her about her true feelings. She’d tried to support her with her parents when everything blew up one evening. It all came out after Georgina had been bullied and beaten by a group of boys on the way home from school.

Her face seemed so sad and pained whilst she was telling me her story and then she told me that she decided to climb the barriers and then the fence of the bridge ready to jump down into the canal and end it all. She had to wait for a long convey of barges to travel under the bridge but she was determined to jump. That was when Professor Nightingdale appeared at her shoulder. She persuaded her to climb back down telling her the water wasn’t deep enough to drown and that she wouldn’t like the taste anyway so it was no way to go.

All the time I was captivated by her tear filled beautiful blue eyes. How could anybody mistake her for a boy. Why couldn’t her parents help and see the daughter they had? Her sister could see.

She was of slight build and perfectly in proportion. I couldn’t stop myself.

‘Are those real breasts?’

‘Yes of course they are. They have been enhanced a little but the medical treatment I had after Professor Nightingdale intervened helped them form.’ She had taken Georgina home and sat and talked at length with her mother before her father arrived home. Her mother was horrified at the prospect of losing her child and began to understand that it was nobodys fault and nothing to be ashamed of. After a few weeks Georgina was allowed to dress and present as a girl and Professor Nightingdale kept a close contact.

‘How did your family react to your change in appearance?’

‘ Not happy at first but I suppose they saw the change in me and with input from a colleague of Professor Nightingdale things started to change. I finished my education like this and everything was explained to students by the headmaster who was really kind. Nothing like him at the boys only school.’

‘So now you live and dress as you like and I assume your family have accepted the situation.’
‘Ha ha. Not so easy. It took a lot of persuasion from Professor Nightingdale that I wasn’t some form of mental case and that I was unlikely to ever change whatever they might do. The risk was me throwing myself under a train or taking an overdose or even slashing my wrists.’

‘Would you have done any of those things?’

‘Well would you have done that. You were in the same situation once weren’t you?’

‘What do you mean? Who told you that? Are you telling me that you know more about me than I do?’
‘Julia. Why don’t we sneak off and have a coffee together and have a proper chat. I really like you. Do you think we can be friends?’

Finding Julia Chapter 16

By Julie D Cole

I looked across to confirm that Eve was still occupied. I didn’t think she’d mind if we sneaked away to have a chat so I nodded to Georgina and we excused ourselves.
As I followed her through the dining room I found it hard to believe ever been mistaken for a boy admiring the way she almost floated when she walked. She wasn’t quite as tall as Eve or me for that matter. But then she was wearing flats and I had a sandal with a heel that Eve said showed off my legs better. That made me think of work and I shuddered slightly. Several of the girls at work seem to tower over me that gave me a bit of an inferiority complex in Eves opinion that she tried to get me to overcome by wearing insets in my shoes.

I’d tried to forget all about work and especially my new boss who always stands over me when she is taking issue with my work and lecturing me. I couldn’t imagine anybody picking on Georgina. She seemed so sweet and I was so happy to have met her.
We headed across the hotel reception to the coffee shop that had an outside balcony that was unusually quiet for this time of day. That was better for us to have privacy so we could have a nice chat without fear of interruption.
The barista welcomed us and seemed happy for guests. He was one of the barmen from the previous evening and he recognised me and smiled. I felt myself blush and I looked away. He waited until we settled into two comfy chairs that gave us a view of the sea before welcoming us and taking our order. He even knew both our names. First ones of course. We selected house coffee with fresh cream on the side, as a treat and settled down to chat. I did my best to sit properly in the chair with my legs crossed like Georgina was doing. There was a nice gentle breeze over the balcony and plenty of air movement thanks to a large ceiling fan above our heads.
I couldn’t hold back any longer. ‘What did you mean when you said I had been in the same situation as you?’
Georgina didn’t respond straight away. She was obviously thinking about her response so neither of us spoke for a minute or so that seemed to be an age. Our coffees arrived to break the silence.
‘I’m sorry Julie. It’s not really my business and I didn’t mean to be intrusive or to upset you. It was just a comment. I don’t really know anything about you other than you are Eves girlfriend and she has asked you to marry her. Did you say yes?’

‘Yes it’s true that we are engaged and in fact it was me that asked her. I’m not her girlfriend. She is my girlfriend.’

‘If it helps to stir your memory at all I did overhear that you are receiving the same advice and treatment that I had after I met the professor that seemed to help me a lot. It’s really not my place to interfere in your life. Can’t you remember anything at all. You must have met the professor.’

‘Honestly I can’t remember anything and maybe it’s because I had a problem with anxiety attacks some months ago. I had trouble with high blood pressure, shaking and unexplained outbursts at work. I couldn’t sleep at night and I was having hallucinations. I was terrified of my boss and I was making more and more mistakes.’

Before I could reflect anymore I was distracted. I could see Eve entering the coffee shop and heading towards us. Georgina stood up and hugged her and she said she’d decided to come looking for us since she felt like taking a break from the tedium. She ordered coffee and took the chair next to me so that I was in the middle.

‘Julia was just explaining some of the difficulties she’s had at home and we were trying to work out where she might have met the professor. She has no recollection have you Julia.’

‘No. I don’t recall ever meeting her before but she seems to know me. She said as much whilst we were at the buffet.’

Eve responded much to my amazement. ‘ To be truthful you met her briefly once when your sister and mum sought her help. I gave them the contact details but didn’t go to the meeting. At that time you were in a terrible state and we couldn’t snap you out of it.’

‘I don’t recall anything. Are you sure?’

‘Of course I’m sure. I’m not surprised you don’t remember anything. That’s part of the treatment you received before we came away.’

‘But Eve I don’t recall any treatment.’

‘Probably not but don’t worry it’s par for the course. You were on the edge of a breakdown. It started with too much pressure at work and you went into a downward spiral. I couldn’t snap you out of it and neither could mum and your sis. I’ve told you that you know more the job than Liz Naylor will ever know. She is a con artist and a bully. I went with you for an appointment they made with the professor.’
‘I have no recollection whatsoever.’
‘The professor said that it was her opinion that I had some other issues and it wasn’t just work related. She recommended unearthing these with a hypnotherapist and she made a call to the one who helped Georgina recover from her depression.’

Georgina chipped in ‘And my desire to commit suicide even though the professor had stopped me from jumping from the bridge. You mean Dr Kerr helped Julia too?’

‘Yes she is helping her and whilst I wasn’t in the room on any of the 3 visits I agreed with her recommendations because I knew about your case through Biocon. It seems to be working quite well so far. But the real test is when we get home.’

‘But I can’t remember anything about any Dr Kerr and I’m your fiancé Julian. I know I am.’

‘Julia. Just sit still and calm down for a few minutes. You can see Georgina how lovely she is. Dr Kerr is an NHS therapist who specialises in hypnotherapy. She is not some hypnotist performing club acts.’
Georgina turned to me and spoke ‘ What caused your depression then? Was it the same problem that I had?’

‘Eva please. My problem was at work not depression or attempted suicide. I told you that I’d fix it.’

Eve chipped in again. ‘Look Julia it started at work and as things got worse you lost your confidence. Then Dr Kerr identified another key problem whilst you were being analysed. So your inferiority complex wasn’t helping.’

‘Well Eve I’ve not felt right since we arrived. Is it the medication?’

‘No they should be helping you and I can see the difference. Look at your complexion. You are calmer and less opposed to changes.’

‘What changes? I have to admit that I’m feeling strange as if all this is not real. It’s a funny sensation and whilst I feel relaxed it’s as if I’m dreaming. It’s like being at work in the company of girls but without the aggro. Do I look alright dressed like this? You two don’t seem to mind and nobody makes fun of me here.’

Both nodded and smiled at each other and we sipped our coffees and I gazed out to sea reflecting on the problems I’d been experiencing in my job whilst they chatted about the Professor and Dr Kerr. Eve was then distracted by a call on her mobile and walked along the balcony to talk more privately without the barista overhearing anything.

Georgina then asked what job I did at home.
‘I was an office manager with a staff of about 20 women of various ages and one supervisor reporting to me. I had that job for 12 months even though I was quite young when I was appointed. Then I was cast aside because I allegedly took too much time off work. But I didn’t. I’d just used up my outstanding vacation because it was year-end.’

‘It seems strange. Didn’t you have any cover from the supervisor?’
‘Yes she took over whilst I was away. I’d been having problems with her ever since I started because she was jealous of me being given the job ahead of her. She was very disruptive always challenging my decisions.’
‘The company had no right to do that surely. You are entitled to take vacation.’
‘Yes but as a manager the job has to come first and we were missing deadlines because of the disruption and the way she was allocating work and then rejecting it before I had seen the summaries. She challenged my decisions and if I insisted she misled the staff with bad instructions. At times I just wanted to scream.’
I couldn’t speak for a while and Georgina reached across to hold my hand to comfort me. The memories came flooding back of an embarrassing argument after I criticised her. The next time I left my office she confronted me and said I didn’t focus on my job and let her do her job. Words were exchanged and it got heated in the open office. After a few expletives I was called a pervert by this woman.

‘So what happened. Did you lost your because of this woman?’

‘Yes I lost my confidence and the respect of the staff who were her friends. I guess I’ve never recovered since. I was so hurt that I broke down in front of everybody. It was such a shock after I had worked so hard to build up team spirit and efficiency.’
‘So what happened?’
‘When I returned to work after my vacation break I was raring to go. My office door was closed and it was clearly occupied with sign saying do not disturb. I knocked and went in to be greeted with get out and I’ll see you when I’ve finished. It was her supervisor Liz Naylor and my boss from Head Office was sitting across the desk from her.’

I carried on explaining trying to keep as calm as possible as I had flashbacks.

‘I was told to wait outside and close the door behind me. My boss was looking out of the window and he didn’t intervene. I wanted to tell her to get out of my seat and go back to her desk. It was like a stand-off and I just seemed to freeze. I know I should have asked what was going on but I was in shock. I went outside and started to shake with frustration. I didn’t know what to do. Should I walk out and go home or turn back around and stand up for myself. Some of the staff had arrived early and were making coffee clearly keeping out of the way.’

‘Poor Julia. This seems so unfair.’

‘After 10 minutes my boss came out and he didn’t even look at me. He walked straight past me without a word of explanation and this woman who I’d wanted to sack a number of times shouted for me to go in. She didn’t invite me to sit and she left me standing in front of my desk like I was a schoolboy being reprimanded. She told me that improvements had been made whilst I was away in line with her ideas that had worked so she’d been put in charge taking over the department with immediate effect.’

‘So no input from your boss or explanation?’

‘No it was left to her. She’d already decided I had a choice to resign or accept some re-training and she’d review my situation periodically. She even had a draft letter ready for my resignation. I asked to have a meeting with my boss that she declined. Then if I was to take over her role as supervisor reporting to her. She just told me I had to work in the open office doing admin jobs. She’d moved my belongings to a spare desk and another girl had been promoted to supervisor.’

‘That’s constructive dismissal.’

‘I couldn’t afford to lose my job so I decided to say nothing and call Eve as soon as I got the chance. When I was dismissed from her office I met Emelia the new supervisor who pointed to my desk and explained that I was to assist some of the girls and do menial tasks including filing and photo-copying. I was to be almost the office junior. I’d also have to take my turn covering reception duties. It was so demeaning. ‘

‘What did Eve think?’

‘I rang her as soon as I’d unpacked my things and cleared the box away. At least I had privacy in the mens room. She calmed me down and I told her that I’d had no notification of any changes. She told me to check my mailbox since I had told her I had lots of messages whilst off work. I went back to my desk and started my computer. I needed to call IT who came and set it up. I scrolled down my phone and found 3 e-mails from my boss and one dated a few days before said a letter had been sent to my home address explaining his decision and my salary and terms and conditions were being adjusted. I was no longer considered suitable for a management position and the Company was going through some re-structuring.’

‘ So that was it?’
‘My new Manager was a bitch and she instructed IT to give me a new password and to restrict access to management reports. I had no more access to the files I used every day in the job I’d been doing. Cast adrift.’

‘I’d have walked.’

‘Easy to say. The rest of the morning was a blur. I was the only male and some of the girls were sniggering and whispering and clearly they delighted in giving me jobs to do. I had a few urgent filing tasks and some photo-copying so one of the girls showed me how the copier worked. I never got chance to sit at my computer. I was kept busy through until the lunch break. ‘

‘How embarrassing. I bet you were livid.’

‘I was so I called Eve again and we agreed that I should call my boss and ask to meet him. I tried all through my lunch break but he didn’t pick up his phone. Eventually his secretary answered. She just said he had left on a business trip and she’d pass the message to him.’

Finding Julia Chapter 17 [FINAL]

By Julie D Cole

When Eve came back she noticed I was shaking a bit and she asked what was wrong so I told her what we’d been talking about.

‘Did you explain that I told you to walk out.’

‘No I just said we’d chatted and I’d tried to set up a meeting with my boss but he wasn’t available.’

‘And did you explain to Georgina that you are more qualified than Liz and you were transferred to the department after being identified as Senior Management material. She was one of the candidates who were rejected much to the annoyance of your boss.’
‘No because that wasn’t the problem and I hadn’t got that far.’

‘Well that is the root cause, in my opinion and you found out from the girls that they were having an affair.’

‘But that is just girl talk around the office. It was the accusations and the threats made against me that caused a loss of respect from my team that was reported back to my boss. As you know I didn’t want stories to get back to you.’

‘You should have been open about it. I don’t bite do I?’

Georgina looked puzzled and since she’d been open about her story I felt I could trust her I felt able to talk. With more than a little encouragement from Eve of course.

‘After lunch I sat sorting through a few of the jobs I’d been given when Liz popped her head out of her door, my door, and she called me into the office and asked me to close the door. This time she asked me to sit down. She said she’d been told that I’d asked to see my boss and she was now my boss so what was the problem.’

Eve just said ‘ The stupid bitch.’

‘She said that she’d been shown some photographs that were posted on YouTube and she had felt obliged to report it. The Company did not look kindly on its staff posting on the internet and the photos were obscene and inappropriate for a Manager of the Company.’

Georgina seemed taken aback and asked if they were real and if I’d posted them. They were taken by one of the students and I was dressed as a tart sitting on a Vicars knee that I didn’t try to deny. It was high spirits and my fellow student had kissed me and fondled my false breasts. Several of the female students had dressed me and styled my hair applying make-up. Liz said I was a pervert and she had more evidence of me dressing regularly in female clothing and she said she had to disclose this along with the details of a web-site filled with pornographic photos of transvestites displaying themselves having sex with naked models. I denied any involvement but found myself immediately on the defensive with Liz getting more and more aggressive.
At the end of our discussion she said that she’d recorded it to pass to our boss Mr Frazier and update him but I had a choice.

‘What choice?’

‘She said I could accept her decision of being re-trained or sign a letter of resignation that admitted lewd behaviour and leaving with immediate effect and giving up all rights and possible claims against the Company. I was in a panic but she gave me 5 minutes to make a decision. The recording had been stopped. She took a comfort break.’

‘Does Eve know all this.?’

‘Yes it came out later in discussions with her, mum and sis’. I made the stupid decision of signing the resignation letter and was dismissed back to my desk.’

‘But this woman was blackmailing you.’

‘She had photos from a site that I never found and the record of the discussion. I was a mess. I broke down later that afternoon and as the weeks went by things got worse. The girls weren’t too bad and two or three of them hated Liz. They tried to help me but my standards were slipping and I was making more and more mistakes. It wasn’t like me at all. I never made mistakes.’

‘How long did this go on?’

Eve chipped in ‘About 3 months until I had a chat with Professor Nightingdale who offered to help. Mum and sis’ agreed to follow her advice and we visited her and then the hypnotherapist.’

‘I was losing weight and some of my business suits were hanging off me. I had no energy and somehow Eve stayed faithful to me and was trying to motivate me. She still believes in me and I owe her so much.’

‘But what of the photos on the site? Was that true?’

‘Yes the dressing was true but I never posted anything and I never found the site.’

‘Did you enjoy the dressing then? Was it something you did regularly or sometimes in secret?’

‘At university I’d done it quite a few times but only in fun. But I never told Eve.’

‘No you didn’t but to be honest I was never interested in big hunks or hairy monsters. I liked your sensitivity and your cuteness. You treated me as an equal and with respect.’

‘Georgina I’m sorry but something has happened to me recently. I know your life changed after your treatment so what exactly happened.’

‘I started to behave as the person I was born to be and my parents accepted that I suffered from gender dysphoria and it was permanent. That acceptance was the key to me moving on and I finished my studies with high grades.’

Eve took my hand and looked into my eyes. ‘You have been fighting a losing battle but not to the same degree as Georgina. Look at you now. Who are you?’

‘I’m your fiancé Julian.’

‘No who are you?’

‘I’m Julian.’

‘Julia. Who are you?’

‘I’m Julia.’

She leaned forward to hug me. Tears were running down my cheeks.

‘Eve I can’t go home like this. I would be ridiculed.’

‘So being humiliated and treated as office junior is not being ridiculed?’

‘No it’s just until I get back on my feet. I’ll get another job.’

‘So who will give you a reference and hire you when you lost all your confidence.’

‘I suppose I’ll have to work on it.’

‘Why not call their bluff and confront them. Lots of students have fun at university. So what if you did dress as a girl and joke with your friend? Is it a sackable offence? I don’t have a problem and neither does mum or sis. You are who you are.’

‘But my boss has a problem with perverts.’

‘No your boss has a problem period.’

‘What is the dress code at work then?’

‘Just smart and casual on Fridays. Ties no longer necessary.’

‘Do you like the clothes you’ve been wearing here?’

‘Yes but we are on vacation.’

‘What if you told your employer that you were a pre-op transsexual and went to the office as Julia?’

‘But I’ll be sacked.’

‘No you won’t it’s illegal. Your sis and I took advice from an employment lawyer. Your boss can be done for harassment if you complain and suspended immediately pending an investigation. Both of them in fact.’

‘That would be sweet revenge for what they have put me through.’

‘I think you would also have a good chance of being reinstated as Manager. Do you think you’d handle the job better as Julia? You have an all-female department after-all. But it depends what you want and if you could live as a girl.’

‘But what about our relationship. Would you find a new boyfriend?’

‘Do you think I’d have gone to all this trouble if that concerned me. I like you as a person. I love you as Julia. I would be supporting you all the way. I’m not an ogre. ’

‘I don’t know. It’s a big step to take.’

‘Not in one go. First you have to decide if you will be happy and then take the necessary steps one by one. So after your experience here do you think you might just be happier and more confident as Julia?

‘I guess I would.’

‘What do you think Georgina?’

‘I think you found Julia and lost Julian on this vacation. Go for it girls. Just be happy.’

Finding Julia - Epilogue
By Julie D Cole
The decision had been made thanks to a heart to heart chat with a new found transsexual friend Georgina and Eve was delighted that the recommendations of the hypnotherapist and the guidance of Professor Nightingdale.

For the remainder of the short vacation Julia found herself enthusiastically chatting to other Biocon members and she registered as a member after a nomination by Eve and seconded by Georgina.

The news was conveyed to mum and sis that evening before dinner on a Skype video call with Julia desperate to show off her outfit and her make-over that Georgina had done. Mum could not believe how pretty she looked and sis couldn’t wait to meet the sister she’d always wanted. The awkward question was asked by mum related to the engagement and any future plans. Eve had no hesitation in saying she was very happy and she hoped Julia still loved her. Julia just burst into tears and nodded profusely whispering I do.

After the skype call Eve arranged for a gathering of the gang to have a proper celebration of their engagement with Prosecco flowing and lots of nibbles and Eve made a short speech saying how proud she was of her girlfriend who made her very happy and who she felt would make a beautiful bride.

Julia and Georgina became best friends and had endless chats on-line and sometimes met up for weekends. Julia and Eve agreed that she would be a bridesmaid along with sis.

Julia realised she had to face up to Liz at work so confronted her when she returned to work. She had met with personnel department and explained everything that had happened and wore make up and a trouser suit and blouse providing a letter of confirmation about her intention to live permanently as a woman for 12 months and her goal was to have a full sex change. She intended to marry within that period and she wanted to be re-instated as Manager.

After one month of review and investigation whilst Liz was under suspension Julia was back in charge and Liz resigned. Her boss was transferred and lost his Directorship. Julia was much more confident than ever before and soon had everything back ship shape and staff really responded to her leadership style.

Julia and Eve booked a vacation back in Rhodes and sis joined them along with Georgina. They seemed to hit it off and Julia hoped they would get it together since sis had found it difficult to find a true soul mate.
At the wedding that followed Eve toasted her bride in front of all their friends and said she was the luckiest woman alive to have found Julia. Mum did what mums do and burst into tears.

Julie D Cole

Sorry if my Final chapter was a little rushed but I felt it was important to focus on other stories seemingly more popular.