I was born on March 17, 1979, in upstate New York, to Irish Roman Catholic parents. My dad is completely Irish on his mother's side plus Irish and Pakistani on his father's side. My mom's heritage is Irish along with many other nationalities from ranging from the Americas to Asia. She has often said that she is "Heinz 57", and she's not far off.

The First Decade - Part 1

Jamie always felt like he was a girl. He would dress in his sister's clothes when he was younger, always feeling like he was whole in those precious moments.

However, Jamie would go outside in girl clothes. As he approached his teens his parents soon became worried about what people would think of their son. Jamie's girl time with his sister was stopped abruptly by his parents, and they had a talk with his younger sister about what boys are and are not allowed to do.

Jamie's sister Amy used to be the only person who Jamie could feel like 'her' true self around. However, after the talk with her parents, Amy became sickened by the thought of Jamie wearing her clothes. After Amy's change of heart, Jamie would sneak Amy's clothes into the bathroom and put them on, especially her school uniform, since it made Jamie feel like a normal girl getting ready for a day at school.

After Amy caught Jamie in her uniform in the bathroom once, Jamie was never able to wear clothes in private in the house again. Amy would push on the door to get in the bathroom when Jamie was in there, and when she would see him in her clothes, she would tell their parents. Jamie would get punished, each time with more furious actions from his parents. His mother would scream at the top of her lungs about how it is wrong for him to wear his sister's clothes. At one point, Jamie's father grabbed him roughly by the ear and dragged him out of the room and into his parents' bedroom and had a talk about how it was disgusting for a boy to be wearing his sister's clothes.

After the rough treatment by his father, Jamie no longer wore his sister's clothes, but he did keep some girl things he treasured in a toy construction set box under his bed that no one in his family knew about. Inside, he had a Barbie doll, one of his sister's school uniforms that he no longer dared to wear, and a picture he drew of himself as what he wished he could be: a normal girl.

His home life had gotten better, but his school life had become much worse. He always had feminine mannerisms, and while he tried his best to hide them by mimicking the boys in school, they always seemed to come through. His nickname of Jamie didn't help either. Jamie wasn't actually his real name. His name was Timothy Richard Jameson. Jamie came from his last name, which was a nickname that his grandfather also used. The boys at school would use it as ammunition by saying that Jamie used a girl's name rather than his real name because he really was a girl.

Jamie liked the nickname precisely because it could also be a girl's name, but wouldn't dare tell anyone that. He really did wish that he was a girl, especially when he started Junior High. In grade school, he was constantly teased, and while the teasing hurt his feelings, Jamie was able to pretend to ignore their comments and continue with his day. In Junior High, however, the tormenting turned to violence.

Jamie was beaten every day. Since Jamie had few friends among the boys, when it came time to explain the situation to the principal, Jamie would have no one to back his story up. The bullies would always say Jamie was the one who started it, and since Jamie was among the tallest kids in the school, the principal would believe the stories. It didn't help that Jamie appeared in the principal's office for fighting at least once a week. Jamie would go home with a bloody nose, a black eye, or hurt ribs, while the bullies would have no injuries. It didn't matter to the school though, since Jamie was a known trouble-maker. To them, the lack of injuries on the other boys just meant that Jamie was a poor fighter.

His home was the one place that Jamie could feel safe, but after so many out-of-school suspensions, his home life became tense again. His father began to think that Jamie was out of control and that he had a horrible anger management problem. Amy used this to her advantage when the siblings would get into arguments. She would rub her arm until it turned red to show her father how hard Jamie had hit her. It didn't matter to her father when Jamie would tell him that she hit him. Jamie's dad would tell him that Amy was a girl and that she was weaker than him. Jamie shouldn't hit girls under any circumstances, especially due to how big and strong he was. After Amy cried to her father several more times, the discussions between Jamie and his dad became more serious. His dad would tell Jamie that he thought he had an uncontrollable temper and that he was afraid that Jamie would hurt or kill his sister one day out of anger. Jamie would try to explain that Amy was the one who would throw the punches and that they hurt a lot. But, his dad would point to the fights at school and the marks on his sister after their fights. In Mr. Jameson's mind, this only showed him that Jamie's temper was completely out of control.

His dad had threatened to send him to military school, which was a thought that completely terrified Jamie. He couldn't imagine having to spend the rest of his education at a school full of nothing but big, strong, angry boys. At least he got a few minutes of peace at school during lunch when he would sit at the girl's table. Strangely, the bullies never used that as ammunition against him, probably due to the fact that Jamie went to all the other tables at school and was refused a seat before the girls allowed him to eat with them.

The bullies probably saw it as a last resort, rather than Jamie actually wanting to eat with them rather than the boys. However, Jamie really did want to eat with the girls, as he hated being around the boys. Lunch was the only time in his life that he felt completely comfortable. He didn't have any friends among the girls at the table, as they viewed him as the weird kid. Jamie would often come across as clownish when trying to imitate the boys at school. However, even without any real friendship among these girls, he still felt happy for the forty minutes he was able to eat with them at school. Of course, he would never dare reveal that fact to anybody.

In his second year of Junior High, Jamie had finally become used to his life. His home life became manageable since he avoided any arguments with his sister and just let her have her way. This had the added benefit of keeping his dad off his back. Jamie became a fast runner at school and was able to easily run away from the bullies if any bad situation crept up. Because of this, the fights at school had finally ended as well. Plus, the few minutes of peace at lunch kept his life from feeling completely like hell. He had finally felt like he had found a routine that he could feel comfortable with.

That all changed one day when a boy caught him off guard in the hallway. Jim, who was one of the offensive linemen on the football team, tripped Jamie when he was walking out of the lunchroom. "Watch where you're going, girl." He picked Jamie up, and Jamie put his hands in front of his face as he prepared for the inevitable beating. Jim's football friends now were all around them, and Jamie feared for the worst. Jim pushed Jamie into the girl's bathroom and shouted "that's where you belong!" The boys were laughing and Jamie looked around scared. There was no one in there, but Jamie couldn't go back out with the boys out there. He ran into one of the stalls, pulled his feet up and sat on the toilet in a fetal position, and started crying.

After a while, he heard a voice. "Are you alright in there?" Jamie's heart dropped to his stomach. Now, what was he going to do?

Jamie held his breath and hoped the girl outside the stall would go away. "Do you need help?" The last thing Jamie needed was more people coming in here and catching him in the girl's room. Jamie squeaked out "I'm OK."

"You don't sound OK. My name's Karen. I'm here for you if you need someone to pour your heart out to."

Jamie's breathing got more rapid. He knew the voice. It was Karen Clemens. She was one of the girls he sat with at lunch, and she wasn't going to go away. How was he going to get out of here now? She'd freak out on him if she found out that he was a guy in the girl's bathroom. His only time of true peace at school at lunch with the girls. That was going to surely end now. She'd tell her friends how much of a freak he was for being in the girl's room. His life was over.

"It's OK, just open the door and we can talk. Or not. It's your choice. But you can't stay in the stall for the rest of your life." Jamie seriously thought about trying to do just that, but he knew he had to face the music sometime.

He sighed, unlatched the door, pushed the door open, and quickly blurted out "I'm sorry I'm in here. Please don't be mad. Jim Cleary pushed me in here. I ran into the stall. I didn't know what else to do! Oh god!" He started crying again.

Karen was momentarily surprised to see that it was Jamie in the stall, but her face softened when she heard how Jim had treated him. Jamie was a weird kid and always seemed like the class clown. She knew that he'd been picked on, but figured that was just to be expected considering how he acted. She'd never seen him break down like this. She really felt bad for him.

"Don't worry Jamie. I'm not mad at you." She held out her hand to help Jamie up to his feet. Jamie smiled and reached his hand out to hers. "Let's get you out of here, though, before things become bad for you."

As Jamie and Karen walked out to the hallway, Jamie was glad to see that the jocks were gone. Karen walked with Jamie down the hallway and stopped. She looked concerned and Jamie was afraid of what she was going to say. "I never knew that the teasing bothered you so much. You should lay off the class clown routine. I know you probably want attention, but you're attracting the wrong kind of attention. I don't want to be mean to you, but I don't want you hurt. To be honest, no one is really comfortable with your act. Everyone thinks you're really weird." Karen knew, as soon as she said it, that she had gone too far. "Oh, Jamie. I'm sorry, I didn't mean that."

Jamie started crying hysterically. The hallway soon filled up with students who were now staring at Jamie. "No, it's true. I know what people think of me. I can't help it though. I don't want attention. I like it when I'm left alone. I try to fit in. But I can't. And you're right, it is all an act. But I can't be myself. You don't understand. I just can't!"

Jamie didn't care that there were two hours left of school. He had to get out of there. Everything was messed up. His tolerable life suddenly became a whole lot less tolerable. He always suspected people thought he was a freak, but now he knew for sure that it was true. He turned around and ran for the doors.

Karen tried to stop him. She shouted "Jamie wait! I'm so sorry!" But Jamie was already out the door.

He ran home as fast as he could, crying like crazy the whole way home. He ran up to his room and flung himself on his bed. He felt totally empty inside. His life was over, there was no way he could face anyone at school ever again. The scene he made in the hallway was sure to seal his fate as the school freak for the rest of his life. He sunk his head in his pillow just as the doorbell rang. He heard the front door open as far as the chain lock would let it, followed by Karen's voice. "Jamie, I'm really really sorry! Please let me in."

Jamie was surprised to hear that Karen followed him home. He wiped the tears from his face with his shirt sleeve and headed down the stairs to the front door. He unbolted the lock, and let Karen in, with his eyes pointed downwards, ashamed to meet hers. He thought about how he had admitted to the entire school that his life was just an act. "I guess you must really think I'm a freak after that." Karen's eyes welled up, and she hugged Jamie tight. "I don't think you're a freak, and I really don't think you're weird either. I'm so sorry I said that Jamie."

"The truth is I do enjoy your company at lunch." She thought carefully before she said her next line since she didn't want to hurt Jamie again. "You seem so happy then, but you seem so different the rest of the day." Jamie backed out of their hug and his eyes got big. Did she suspect anything? It would be terrible if she found out he wanted to be a girl. He was a boy and boys just don't think like that. Karen saw the worry in Jamie's face and quickly added, "But after today I know why you act like that." Jamie gulped, expecting the worst. "With those jerks on your case so bad, it's no wonder you're not comfortable in school." Jamie relaxed, and Karen noticed immediately. "Thank goodness," she thought, "the hard part is over. Now I just have to make it up to him."

"You have more friends at school than you think. You might as well stay home now since school is almost out, but when you get to school tomorrow, don't worry so much. Just be yourself, I'll get the word out and we'll make sure that those jerks leave you alone." She smiled at Jamie and gave him another hug. "The kids at school will be glad to meet the real you. I know I'm glad I did." She left Jamie's house. "I'm going to head back to school. I promised Julia and Megan I'd meet them after school. See you tomorrow, and remember you have nothing to worry about."

Jamie sat after she left thinking to himself. How much of himself did he really want people to see? It's his natural behavior that got him in trouble in the first place. He couldn't let himself act like a girl, that's for sure. He definitely had to still try to copy the movements of the boys so he didn't stand out as a freak. But, no more acting stupid. He hated acting like that anyway. However, people noticed how odd he moved and acted, and he found that if he exaggerated it more, people would laugh at him rather than beat him up. If he really did have people watching over him as Karen said, then maybe he wouldn't have to worry about getting beat up. That thought brightened Jamie's mood considerably. "That's what I'll do then", Jamie thought. "No more acting weird, and I'll see where it goes from there."

When the rest of the family came home, Jamie was still in the living room thinking. His dad looked at him, "What's on your mind son?" Jamie looked back at his dad briefly, then turned his head towards his knees. "Nothing. I'm just thinking." Mr. Jameson noticed how sullen Jamie looked and decided that it was a good time as any to try to turn his mood around a bit. "Well, your mom and I have been talking, and we really think you should get out of the house more. We hate seeing you looking so down all the time. You really need to make some more friends. You should join the football team. You're the tallest kid in your school. You'd make a great linebacker." Jamie cringed at the tallest kid comment. He hated being so tall. He cried about it to his parents once when he was younger, but his dad just brought one of his friends' sons over to tell him how great it was for a man to be tall. Jamie hated the thought of becoming a man one day and almost told his dad right then and there that he wanted to be a girl, but thankfully he kept it in. His life had become terrible since when his family caught him in girls' clothes, Jamie shuddered to think what his life would be like if he actually told them that he wanted to be a girl.

Jamie's mind got back on track. Oh no, football. That's the last thing he needed. They smash into each other for fun. And that didn't seem like fun at all to Jamie. He wanted desperately to not get beat up anymore. Getting hit around in his free time sounded awful. "Actually, I was talking to Karen Clemens earlier. I'll probably be spending time outside of school with her."

Jamie's dad got a huge grin on his face. "So, you've got yourself a girlfriend?" He saw Jamie blush and picked him up into a bear hug. "Of course you do. You have the looks of your old man." Jamie cringed at that thought but gave his dad a forced smile. At least the football crisis seemed to be averted for the moment.

When Jamie's mom called the rest of the family in to dinner, his dad told her about Jamie's new girlfriend. Jamie blushed, and his mom told him that she'd love to meet her. When both his dad and his sister replied that they'd love to meet her too, Jamie knew that things had taken a sharp turn really quick. He barely knew Karen and hoped that he hadn't made things worse by bringing her up to his father.

That night Jamie tossed and turned as he thought of the day ahead of him. Will things get worse? Will Karen get mad at him because his family thought they were dating? Will he screw things up even worse by acting like a girl instead of acting less goofy? Will the kids see right through his charade?

The alarm went off, and Jamie woke with a start. He hadn't had a very restful night's sleep, but then again he hadn't rested well for years. "Well, time to face the music", Jamie thought. "Hopefully I don't screw things up too bad."

His mom and dad had already left, but his mom had left him and his sister their lunch money as usual. His sister would be up in 15 minutes to be in time to catch her bus, but he had to hurry off on his bike if he wanted to make it on time.

He made it just in time to hear an announcement calling Karen and him to the principal's office. "I'm very disappointed in you two for skipping school yesterday. Karen, I'll let you off with a warning since you've never been in trouble before. But this young man," he turned to Jamie with a stern face, "has been in my office too many times to count. I thought those days were behind us, but it seems they aren't. I'm afraid I'm going to have to call your parents and give you in-school suspension, Mr. Jameson. Karen spoke up, "Mr. Munsen, it's not Jamie's fault. He was being picked on by Jim Cleary and his friends." She held her head down as she continued, "I called him a freak. I didn't mean it, and I tried to tell him, but he broke down crying and was already out the door by the time I could say anything. I followed him home and apologized to him there." Mr. Munsen thought for a few moments. He did remember the commotion in the hallway. "Thank you for your honesty, Miss Clemens. Since no one was hurt from the commotion, I'll let it pass this time. I'm glad you're not resorting to violence to solve your disputes anymore, Mr. Jameson. But next time, come to my office instead of leaving the school grounds. I promise I'll always be here for you if you have a problem." The kids thanked their principal and went to their first class.

Jamie couldn't get the meeting with Mr. Munsen out of his head. "It seems like everyone is offering me support lately. I hope it stays that way." As he thought that, a rubber eraser hit him on the side of his head. It was shot by Brad Loomer, one of the football players. He and a group of his friends started laughing, and Jamie's thoughts of peace quickly dropped. "Knock it off you jerks. Don't worry about them Jamie, they're just idiots." It was Susan Thomas, another girl Jamie ate lunch with. They kept laughing, but Jamie smiled broadly. He never had anyone stick up for him before, and he had two people do it for him in one day. "With this much support, maybe I can try to be myself after all", he thought.

The rest of the day went by smoothly. All of the girls that Jamie sat with at lunch stuck up for Jamie, and the jocks never gave Jamie any trouble outside of the eraser incident, except that once during sixth period Math when Jim Cleary flicked him with his forefinger in the back of the head. Jamie soon realized that it wasn't the whole school that was against him, but just a small group of idiot boys. Jamie figured that he could live with that.

At the end of school, Karen surprised him by asking him if he wanted to go to Denny's after school with her friends. He thought back to his conversation with his dad. "I guess I really am going to be doing stuff with her." He smiled and said to her, "I'd love to."

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As I've been updating this story, the other three chapters just needed a few tweaks. However, this one and part five just didn't flow right, so I changed part four's ending to better fit the established personalities of the characters.

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Jamie dialed home on his cell phone to ask permission to go with the girls to Denny's. His dad answered the phone and was thrilled to get the call. "Of course you can go to dinner with your girlfriend, son. What kind of father would I be to say no?" Jamie thought that he should end the girlfriend talk then and there and tell his dad that Karen was just a friend. He thought better of it though, since his dad seemed prouder of him now than Jamie could ever remember him being.

He didn't want to hurt his relationship with his father, so he changed the subject. "Why are you home so early, dad?" His father was an elementary school teacher, so he normally doesn't get home until Jamie gets home, or slightly later. "We had a half-day. I don't get the whole half-day off like the kids do, since we have work to do. But I still like half-days since we still get to go home earlier than normal." Jamie found himself wishing he could get a half-day. He missed his old school, where his dad worked now. They were right next to a creek bed, so half days were always called if the water rose too high.

His father broke his train of thought. "I've got to go son, have fun. I have a special night planned for your mother, but she knows nothing about it. I've got a lot of work to do before she gets here."

"OK dad, have a nice time with mom." "I will son, you have a nice time with your girlfriend." His dad's voice seemed to get louder as he got to the last part of that sentence. Jamie could imagine his dad's face beaming with pride at his son, the "chip off the old block". Jamie sighed. "If he only knew who I really am", he thought.

Luckily, Jamie had no time to wallow in self-pity, since his friends arrived at that moment. Susan asked, "Are you ready, Jamie? My mom's picking us up out front."

Jamie was nervous about meeting Susan's mom but tried to put any fear aside. "Yeah. I just called my dad. He said it was OK for me to go." Karen smiled. "Good! There's your mom now, Susan!"

They all piled into the back of the van. Mrs. Thomas was a little surprised to see a boy in the group since her daughter had a very close-knit circle of friends. "Who is your new friend, Susan?" "This is Jamie Jameson. He's become a part of our group at lunch." Susan smiled at Jamie. Mrs. Jameson became even more surprised at this revelation since her daughter's group didn't expand too often. And, she never once saw a boy join the group. She didn't say anything, since she figured the girls were growing up. But she decided she would keep an eye on him though, just in case his hormones got the best of him. She just hoped that too many more boys wouldn't join the group. She didn't think she could handle that.

Mrs. Thomas was pulled out of her trance by a bunch of girlish laughter coming from the back seat. She looked in her rearview mirror and was surprised to see Jamie giggling right along with the girls. They burst into "Fly with Me" by the Jonas brothers, and Jamie was singing right along. She knew then that this wasn't your typical 13-year old boy. He looked the part when he first got in the van, but looking in her rearview mirror, she couldn't help but see five giggling girls. Even if one of them was about six feet tall with short hair. She stopped her thought process there. She can't let first impressions cloud her judgment, either for the good of her daughter or for Jamie. This was a boy after all. She had to think of him as such. She looked back again, just as Jamie was singing "tonight.. I.. can see the world through your eyes" and broke into a girlish giggle fit. She smiled to herself and thought, "it's not going to be easy".

Jamie and the girls were still giggling when they got into the restaurant. They had just sat down at a table and ordered grand slams when Jamie's worst nightmare came true. Out of nowhere, Jim Cleary pulled Jamie hard out of his seat. While Jamie was on the ground, and before anyone could react, he kicked Jamie repeatedly in the ribs and twice on his head. The jocks were laughing, but the rest of the restaurant wasn't. A large man pushed Jim down hard and looked down at the crying boy. "Are you alright, young man?" Jamie grabbed his midsection and tried to get up. It hurt so badly that Jamie ended up falling back to the ground, screaming in agony. Jamie had never felt pain like this before. The girls were all on their knees, teary-eyed as they hugged their friend. Jamie, feeling his consciousness failing on him, whispered what he feared might be his last words to his friends. "Thank you for letting me feel like a real girl." He barely got the words out as the darkness enveloped him.

An ambulance showed up five minutes later and took Jamie directly to the hospital, however, the wait for the other girls' ride to get there was excruciating. Once they finally got into Susan's mother's van, the girls were all silent as they rode to the hospital. They knew Jamie was effeminate, but his revelation before he passed out hit them hard. Emily, a brunette who had joined the group a year ago, and one of the two girls who talked to Jamie the least spoke up. "I feel so bad. I never talked to Jamie since I thought Karen was just being nice to him to get him to stop acting so weird." As she said that, she started crying. "It's no wonder he acts so weird. God, it's got to be so hard for him feeling like that." Mary, the short red-haired girl who shared Emily's previous views on Jamie put her arms around Emily. "I know exactly what you mean. I always tried to avoid him and never really accepted him into our group. But, now... can you imagine how hard it must be being a boy who feels like a girl?" As Mrs. Thomas heard this, she now knew her assumption about Jamie was correct. She wondered if his parents knew, and feared what they might say if they did find out. The last thing Jamie needs now is more trauma, but she knew his parents had a right to know what she knew. She'd have to find a way to break it to them before someone slipped it out, possibly making things worse.

As the girls got to the hospital, they saw Mr. and Mrs. Jameson were already at the hospital, their faces looking ravaged from crying so hard. Mrs. Thomas introduced herself. "I'm Mrs. Thomas, I'm Susan's mom." The girls looked sheepishly at his parents. Susan spoke up. "We've never actually met. I'm Susan Thomas, this is Emily Thompson, Mary Martin, and Karen Clemens. We're Jamie's friends." The two looked at Karen. Mrs. Jameson spoke up. "Hello Karen, we've heard so much about you. It's too bad we couldn't meet under better circumstances. You must be a wreck." Karen sniffed and nodded. Mr. Jameson added, "Don't worry, the doctors say Jamie's going to be alright. He's got a fractured rib and a concussion, but luckily he doesn't have anything too serious. He's a strong boy, he'll pull through."

Emily broke down at that and uncharacteristically shouted as her emotions were running high. Emily shouted at him, "She's not a strong boy. She's not even a boy! She told us she felt like she was a real girl when she was with us! I thought she was just a weird boy too, but after she told us her deepest secret we can't help but see her for what she really is!" She started crying. "And you should too!"

Mrs. Thomas covered her mouth, looked at her husband, and braced for the worst. However, Mr. Jameson simply stood up and calmly stated "I've got to go out and get some fresh air". With that, he walked past the girls and then walked out of the hospital.

In his hospital room, Jamie was conscious now, but the pain medication he was on made him woozy. He saw his mother come in, however, his father was nowhere to be seen. His mother sat by his bed and kissed his forehead. "Oh, my poor angel. I'm so sorry. I wish I hadn't been so blind to how you really felt."

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As I said in the previous chapter, I've been updating this story. This chapter needed the most work. It was rushed to have a happy ending, people acted out-of-character, and it had weird, unexplained, local terminology that didn't fit in the story. It still has the same ending sentence, but it's not as happily-ever-after as before, in order to save room for chapter six.

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Jamie was surprised that her mom now knew her secret. She never would have said it if she hadn't thought she might make it through the blackness back to the land of the living. However, it was out now. There was no turning back.

What surprised Jamie the most though, was her mom's reaction. She couldn't remember the last time she kissed her on the forehead like that. She's sure her mom probably did it when she was little, but her mom didn't show affection like that to avoid embarrassing her "son".

Her mom choked back her tears. "I need to ask you a question sweetie. Do you want to live like a girl? I mean, all the time?" Jamie couldn't believe her ears. Despite her pain and grogginess, Jamie got a huge smile on her face. Her mom smiled at this and then frowned a bit. "I can talk with your principal and teachers, and try to keep you from getting hurt again. But I can't promise anything. And, you know we live in a neighborhood with a lot of religious people. The neighbors might give you a hard time. Sorry to say it like that, but that's the world we live in. If you choose this, I feel really bad about what you have ahead of you. Your life isn't going to be easy."

Jamie looked at her mom. "My life has never been easy. But it will be a lot easier if I can be who I really am." Her mom smiled. "I'll get everything worked out for you. You just get your rest now."

Back in the waiting room, Jamie's mom saw that her daughter Amy was here, talking with Jamie's friends. Amy looked at her mom. "Is Jamie alright? Can I see him?" "Jamie's fine, but he needs his rest." He then addressed Jamie's friends, "Did you tell her?" Amy spoke up, "Yes, they told me. To tell you the truth, I always suspected it. Is he going to have a sex change?" Both Amy and Jamie's friends looked at Mrs. Jameson, as they all wondered what she would say. "It's too early to say. Jamie's going to have to see someone so they can figure out together what's best for him."

She looked over at Jamie's friends and added "What he needs now is support. It's not going to be easy for him. I'll call my friend at family services and try to get everything set up for Jamie once he's up to it." She then got a stern look in her eyes. "But first, I'm going to call Jamie's dad and get him to talk to the father of that punk that put him in here."

Back home, Mr. Jameson was waiting for his wife. "I talked to Larry Cleary. It turns out the manager at Denny's called the cops, and they pressed charges against him for disorderly conduct and assault. He tried to talk me into dropping the assault charges, but I couldn't. Especially after I saw Jamie in that hospital bed. His son has a date at the juvenile court in a month."

Mrs. Jameson looked at her husband with a worried look on her face. "What about Jamie. I mean, what do we do from here?" Mr. Jameson looked flustered. "This is way too much to me. I love Jamie, but I really don't understand at all. He's a big strong boy, so why would he want to be a man in a dress? I'm going to stay at my mom's for a few days, and talk this over with her. I know she loves Jamie more than anything, so maybe she'll have some kind of idea how to talk him out of it."

Mrs. Jameson frowned at her husband as she watched him go outside and get into his car. She then decided to stop getting worked up over her husband and decided that she'd like to take some time to bond with her oldest daughter instead.

Mrs. Jameson smiled at that thought. "I can't wait to meet her."

When Mrs. Jameson arrived back at the hospital, she saw Jamie talking to his friends. Although she could tell that it was painful for him to talk, Jamie was more animated than she could ever remember him being. He had a huge smile on his face as his friends talked to him. When she heard the girlish giggle escape from Jamie's lips, she knew that this child truly was her daughter.

When she saw her mother walk into her hospital room, Jamie's smile became even wider, if that was even possible.

"Mom!", she shouted in a hoarse voice. Mrs. Jameson could see the pain in her daughter's eyes after she talked but was happy that her child was so glad to see her. Despite her injuries, Jamie was still the happiest she had seen her since she was a little boy... er, girl?

At that thought, Mrs. Jameson thought back to Jamie's childhood. She remembered Jamie dressing in her sister, Amy's clothes. That was the last time she saw Jamie this happy. A tear trickled down her cheek as she thought how horrible it must have been to Jamie when she was punished for wearing girls' clothes. She now knew that Jamie was her daughter, and such a punishment felt absurd to her now. She was going to have to make it up to her. Nothing meant more to her than the happiness of her children, so she vowed that she would do anything in her power to make sure that Jamie retained that gorgeous smile she had at that moment.

Jamie's smile faded a bit, though, when she saw her mother crying. "Are you OK, mom?"

Mrs. Jameson knew that Jamie always put others ahead of herself, but now was Jamie's time to be in the spotlight. She grinned at her daughter and told her that she was just glad to see how happy she was.

"When you get out of the hospital, we're going shopping for a whole new wardrobe for you. Your old clothes hardly seem appropriate for a girl of your age to wear."

Jamie's grin returned, and her friends all let out a collective squeal. Karen smiled at her friend and told her "this is going to be so much fun. I can't wait to help you on your path to girlhood."

Susan grabbed Jamie's hand softly and told her friend "you think you felt like a real girl earlier, but you haven't felt anything yet. Just wait until we're done with you. You'll feel like a princess."

Jamie smiled at that. However, at that point, she realized that her dad didn't come into her room with her mom. She felt a pit in her stomach as she thought about what her dad would think about their girlish shopping spree. He definitely would be livid to know that his mom was getting thier 'son' a girl's wardrobe.

Jamie looked over at her mom. "Mom, where's dad?"

Mrs. Jameson swallowed hard, as she was dreading this conversation. She wanted to be as diplomatic as possible since she knew that Jamie really worked hard to try to please her father. She wanted Jamie to be herself and feared that she would retreat back into her shell and try to be the boy that she now knew that she wasn't.

"He's at your gran's. He's having a hard time dealing with this, but he really does love you. And your gran does too. She loves you and Amy more than anything else in the universe. I'm sure that she'll help turn your dad around."

Mrs. Jameson loved her mother-in-law almost as much as her own mother. She was a sweet lady who cared about the welfare of others over herself. Jamie got a lot of her personality from her gran. Jamie also loved her gran at least as much as her gran loved her. Since she had gotten older, the love only got stronger. Jamie's gran used to be a cook for Good Housekeeping, so she was always making delicious meals for the family. Jamie always rode her bike to her gran's house, keeping her company and learning new recipes.

Her mother-in-law might be part of the older generation, but Mrs. Jameson was sure that she would care about Jamie's happiness more than anything else. She might not be happy about Jamie wanting to be a girl at first, but once she saw how happy Jamie was, and how naturally girlish she acted around her friends, Mrs. Jameson was sure that her mother-in-law would come around to the fact that she now had two granddaughters to spoil.

Jamie wasn't sure about what her mother had told her, but she did love her gran and she knew that her gran loved her. She thought about how understanding her mom was and figured that her gran would be understanding as well. She knew that their bond was close, and hoped that now that she was allowed to be the girl she had always been, her bond with her gran would only get stronger.

She also knew that her dad loved his mom. If her gran really did end up supporting her desire to live as a girl, she knew that her gran could bring his dad around too. If anyone could show her dad the light, it would be her gran. She was so kind that she had more than enough light to get her dad to understand and would still have plenty of light to spare.

As the group descended towards the counselor, I practically ran into the hallway. I lept into action and stood defiantly in front of the counselor. My declaration of “crew, get back to your stations immediately” was met with comments about how my “kind” were just as bad as the “splicer-babies”. The situation was much worse than I had first thought, and at the rate that it was escalating, I was sure it would quickly get completely out of hand. Thinking fast, I ordered “Counselor, follow me to the command station.” As the arguments began about why I would be taking “one of those things” up to the command deck, I let out a sigh of relief as my plan had worked. They were more concerned about my announcement than about our actions.

As soon as the counselor and I got into the lift, I gave a command to the computer to emergency close the elevator door and proceed to the command deck. In a swift motion, we were now safe from our would-be attackers. It’s disturbing that these people were our colleagues, and, we thought, our friends. As we arrived at the command deck, I was in for another surprise. As we walked towards the front of the deck, it became clear that the entire command station was completely empty. No one was here to guide the ship, as everyone had left their post to join in the riot downstairs. It was clear that this was no longer merely a situation of disrespect for my position, it was tantamount to downright mutiny.

I quickly ordered the computer to set the systems to high alert and to lock all doors on the senior staff wing of the upper deck. Then I called down to the holding cells. “All security personnel report to the senior staff wing. All of the officers in that area are to be taken to the holding cells for inciting a brawl.” I had debated adding the word “mutiny” to the end of my order but thought better of it. It’s better not to use heated language, as that could make the situation worse. As the counselor and I reached the central command station on the bridge, I called down to the rear of the upper deck. I knew that it was necessary to contact the junior staff, as we still had a ship that needed to be properly looked after. I ordered the highest-ranking among the junior officers to report to the command deck and ordered the rest of the junior officers to report to the senior staff wing. They'd likely remain there for a while. The exact length would have to be determined once things calm down, and I had the time to properly assess the situation.

I looked over at Maria, who looked like she had been hit by a bus. “How are you doing, Counselor?”, I asked. “You don’t have to report back to work. Head back to your quarters. Doctor Coleman will be able to take over for you.” She looked at me and seemed to calm down a bit. “I could say the same for you. You’ve been through the same thing, and you look just as stressed as I’m sure I look right now.”

I sighed and shrugged my shoulders. “I really wish I could, but that’s not an option right now. My authority has been challenged, and I really have to let the rest of the crew know that everything is to continue as usual.” She looked me straight in the eye and responded, “There’s nothing usual about this. It’s been over a century since this kind of behavior has occurred on this ship, at least violence on this level. No one on the ship today has ever experienced this kind of behavior.”

“I know, and that’s exactly why I have to continue to assert my authority. Things could easily escalate from here, and that’s the last thing that anyone needs. It’s hard enough living in the same cramped conditions for your entire life. I have to try to calm the situation down. It’s not like we can go to port for a holiday.”

“I know, and that’s why I should stay on duty too. If we want to show that it’s business as usual, we have to conduct our business as usual. I can handle it, Captain.” I looked her in the eyes, which were now burning with a conviction that I haven’t seen since she was going through the process to get her doctorate. “I know you can, Counselor. There was never even any doubt about that.” I sighed, involuntarily, and continued, “all right, we both need to report to our stations, then. If anything happens, be sure to contact me immediately.”

“I will, Captain. Thank you.” And with that, she headed back down to the medical bay, and I headed down to the senior officer’s wing to make sure that everything had been handled, and that the junior officers were settling in alright in their new positions. I also hoped tensions weren’t rising. After I dealt with that, I knew I had to head down to the cells, and confront the senior staff. I didn’t look forward to that meeting at all. So much for the uneventful start to my captainship.

As I was walking down to the senior officer’s wing, Tiffany Accado, the principal for the secondary school, confronted me. She was an elderly woman, with piercing blue eyes. Her skin was pale and unusually smooth for her age. However, it’s quite apparent that she’s been quite worried lately, as she had more visible wrinkles than usual, especially under her eyes. I, myself, began to worry about what she could be concerned about. Troublingly, my worst fears were soon realized.

“Is it true that all of the crew is now in the brig?” I was more than a little surprised that news had already spread outside of the ship’s crew. It was my job to make sure that everyone on the ship, people of the crew and civilian alike, stayed safe, and content. However, as of today, it appears I haven’t done a great job accomplishing that. “Only the senior officers have been sent to the brig. A fight broke out on the deck of the senior staff wing, and the junior staff officers are now handling things. There’s nothing to worry about. Once they have a chance to cool down, things will go back to business as usual.” She looked unsure, but responded, “That’s good. Everyone’s worried that the ship’s crew is falling apart.”

I was worried how much of the ship’s three hundred thousand-plus passengers were included in her assessment of “everyone”, but didn’t relay my worries. “It’s really nothing to be concerned about. There are always tensions during the transition of power on this ship. I’ve seen my fair share of it when I was a junior officer, and my mother told me stories of it, even during her time as captain. Things always calm down after everyone gets used to the new order of things.” Ms. Accado visibly relaxed, and responded, “good to hear. I’ll let everyone know that there’s nothing to worry about.” I didn’t like the idea of gossip, but since it already started and would no doubt get out of hand if not dealt with, I decided that I could use her help. “Thanks, Ms. Accado, I appreciate it.” She looked me in the eyes and gave me one of those kinds of smiles that only kind, elderly, women could properly deliver. “No problem, Captain. You’ve been doing a great job so far. Your mother would be so proud of you.”

I smiled back, doing my best to return her smile, although I still had several decades before I had enough life experience to do the smile justice. “Thanks, I really appreciate it.” I really did. She had been my fourth form instructor when I was young and had always been one of my favorite teachers. Her opinion still meant a lot to me. I just hoped that I could instill that level of confidence in the crew. It was true that every new appointment of captain led to some level of anxiety. However, nothing had ever reached the level of dissent that had occurred this afternoon. At least, nothing like that had happened in recent memory.

Ms. Accado and I parted ways, just as I had reached the senior officer’s wing. I really hoped that I could get through to the senior staff and that this situation really would be just a temporary one. The last thing I wanted to do was to extend the lockup of the senior staff, many with whom I had worked for several years. That train of thought had to be temporarily derailed, however, as I had to deal with the junior staff right now. The senior staff would have to wait.

I summed up all of the courage I had and made sure that I put on an aura of authority. I tried my best to portray the image of a person in power without appearing too stand-offish. It is a feat that I had always attempted, but it’s a tight-rope act that’s hard to pull off. I thought I was doing a good job at it, but it appears that the senior staff had seen through my act. I pushed my doubts aside and reminded myself that it had been years of hard work and dedication that had gotten me in this position. Thinking that I was just acting like I was in charge wouldn't help anyone. I am in charge, and I earned this position. I deserve my recent promotion, and it was high time I made sure that not only the crew understood that, but that I do as well.

Any lingering doubts had to be pushed to the back of my mind, as it was now time to gauge the level of confidence the rest of the crew had in my leadership, firsthand. I walked through the doors leading to the senior staff wing, hoping that the junior officers weren’t as hostile as their superiors.

The junior staff members were discussing the situation as I walked in. “But this hallway was completely empty. There’s no way everyone was locked up.” It looks like I got here just in time, as Ms. Rahman’s comment was exactly what I was expecting. I was glad that the situation didn’t get a chance to escalate among the junior staff, so I can set matters straight without resistance.

Mr. Jackson’s reply, however, was what I had feared most. “My brother said he was going to teach that splicer baby a lesson. I’m sure the captain locked everyone up. He’s always sticking up for that freak.” Today was a feminine day for me, but I wasn’t going to correct the pronoun usage. Besides, none of the junior staff had seen me yet today. However, I definitely had to do something before this got out of hand too. Luckily I got here before another brawl broke out. “There will be no talk like that, Junior Lieutenant Jackson. She’s part of this crew, and she deserves your respect. She earned her position just like everyone else here.”

Mr. Jackson’s pale skin seemed to immediately turn two shades of red. It’s clear that he had no idea that I had entered the room. “I’m sorry ma’am. We were just getting nervous since all of the senior staff are gone. It was a slip of the tongue due to anxiety. It won’t happen again.” It was clear that his words went deeper than mere anxiety, but now is not the time to press the matter. I had a situation to try to get under control, and although the lieutenant's comment was a part of it, I had already made it clear that derogatory remarks would not be permissible.

I found myself thinking about Counselor Corben and wondering what could be done about the situation. It was sad that so much of the crew seemed to be against her, for something that she couldn’t help. I had at first thought that we were kindred spirits in that regard, and maybe we would have been centuries ago. However, the pure vitriol lobbed at her was something that I had only seen in the historical recordings. I had suffered verbal scorn, but a good portion of the crew was ready to bear physical harm against her and had fought their own peers in trying to do so. I just hoped that she had more supporters on this ship than detractors. I realized that I had lost myself in thought, and regained my composure.

I then addressed the entire junior staff on the senior staff wing. “Junior Lieutenant Rahman is correct that the senior staff is currently in the brig. And despite the language he used, Junior Lieutenant Jackson is correct as well. The senior staff members were engaged in a brawl when I arrived, and it did indeed stem from negativity towards Counselor Corben. I haven’t yet assessed the situation fully, but for now, I ask that you all be prepared to serve as senior officers until further notice. Because I’m asking you all to do so with no advance notice, if anyone can’t do so, I’ll make concessions, within reason. But, please understand the circumstances that led to this decision. It was done to protect the safety of this ship, and won’t remain permanent. You will all receive the benefits of the senior staff during this period and will be up for consideration for promotion once this is over, pending your performance. I thank you all during this tough time for your understanding and for your service.”

I was about to head up to the bridge, but I decided that it was best to make it clear to the entire crew that discrimination would not be tolerated. “It goes without saying, but I must make it clear. There will be absolutely no tolerance for discrimination of any kind. You are all here to ensure the safety of the rest of this ship, civilian and crew members alike. I expect that you all remember that in your actions, as well as your words.”

Mr. Jackson and Ms. Rahman both immediately replied “Yes captain”, followed by the rest of the junior staff. Satisfied that the situation here was under control, I gave the command to the lift to bring me up to the bridge. This was the most important part of my attempt to normalize the situation. I knew that the crew members that I had assigned to the bridge could handle running the ship, but the abruptness of the situation has complicated things. I had to make sure that the command deck was secure, and bring the bridge crew up to speed on the situation as well.

The elevator reached the front of the ship, and I stepped onto the command deck. The junior officers here were rigid and seemed nervous, and their senses seemed heightened. The most senior among them, Lieutenant Mario Rodriguez, spoke up as soon as I entered. “Captain on the bridge.” Everyone stood to attention but still looked anxious. I decided to get through with the official briefing first, and then I’d do my best to try to ease tensions a bit.

“At ease. You were all brought up here because there was a brawl on the senior staff wing, and all senior staff has been temporarily detained in the brig until the situation can be properly assessed. It has come to my attention that some of the crew feels strongly about Counselor Corden’s new position. As I said to the other members of the junior crew, discrimination will not be tolerated at all. You are now bridge crew and are the people that are looked up to the most to keep peace on this ship. I expect your decorum to meet those expected standards.”

I looked around, noticed that the crew still seemed troubled, and continued “That said, I know that your promotions were sudden. You will be expected to keep these positions for some time until the situation can be properly assessed and dealt with. Due to the fact that there was no advance notice, I will not be against anyone who has a reasonable objection towards working on their new post. However, know that your assistance at this time will be most appreciated, and you will receive all the benefits of the senior bridge crew during this period. You will also be first in line for promotions, pending your performance.”

I eased a bit, and continued, “I know this is a tough time for everyone.” I then waved my finger to turn off the data recorder. “Off the record, how is everyone doing?” Mr. Rodriguez, still in the rigid stance of an officer stated, “We’re fine, ma’am.” I smiled at him and continued. “Relax, Lieutenant. I know that my post as captain is new, and this situation is hard. But you don’t have to be so tense around me.” He visibly relaxed, and his dark brown eyes seemed to sparkle a bit. “Thanks, ma’am. I don’t speak for everyone, but I know that you’ll handle things well. I just hope that this situation won’t last long.” I gave him a half-smile, with a little involuntary nervousness apparent on my face as well. “I hope the same thing, Mr. Rodriguez”.

I knew that I had to head down to the brig, but, even though I wanted to find out the particulars of the situation, the thought of doing so emotionally drained me. I tried my best not to repeat my display of anxiety and addressed the bridge one final time before I headed to the bottom of the ship. “You all seem to be handling everything well up here. If there are no questions, I have to be heading to the detention cells.” I actually hoped that there would be some questions, to delay the inevitable. However, just as I had thought, the junior bridge crew were quite capable of running things in the stead of their senior brethren.

I waved my finger again to turn the data recorder back on and straightened myself up. “OK crew, I now leave the bridge in your capable hands. If there are any further problems, don’t hesitate to contact me.” At that point, I, somewhat reluctantly, entered the elevator. “Lift, to the detention cells.” I had to face the inevitable, as even though I wanted to see how Counselor Corben was doing, I knew that I had to face the senior staff first. I was now about to find out exactly what happened during that brawl. I was most curious as to why the bridge was left abandoned, as that is a situation that I couldn’t fathom occurring before this week.

Just as the lift was approaching the brig, my aural sensor went off. I held my finger to my temple to initiate the video link. It seems that my trip would be postponed after all, but not in the way I had hoped, as Tiffany Accado was on the line. “Captain. Your presence is needed at Caperstone’s Bakery. It’s an emergency. Another fight has broken out. Emily Caperstone is being attacked.” I responded immediately, “I’m at level one now. I’ll be there as soon as I can. Don’t intervene. Keep safe until I arrive.”

“Cancel the lift to the brig.” I called down to security and ordered, “Security personnel to level 4, Main Street. There is a fight in progress at Caperstone’s Bakery. I then ordered the lift to proceed to level 4 as well. Two fights in one night. I really wish that my mother was here, so I could seek her advice. Although, I’m not sure how much help she could give me, as this is beyond even what she had to deal with.

It seems that the problem went beyond the crew. I just hoped that it didn’t seep too far into the population. I silently cursed the people who had instituted the segregation. Although they meant well, it just made the hatred part of the system. If history has taught us anything, systematic prejudice is a lot harder to fight.

"Ms. Corben... Maria. It's true that we have only officially worked together for a short time. However, if you factor in the fact that we attended University at the same time, we've actually known each other for years. I feel I've gotten to know you pretty well during that time, so I'm sure that you're going to want to go right back to work after you leave here. As your counselor, I'd advise against that. You've been through a traumatic experience and you need time to relax and relieve the stress you've suffered from this ordeal. As your friend, you don't have to face this alone. I can fill in for you for as long as you need to take. You have deserved to take a holiday long before this, so seize this as an opportunity to take care of yourself for a change."

At first, I was upset at Doctor Coleman when he told me that I should take a break. I needed to be strong. I needed to continue on despite the harassment against me. But, as I looked at my hands, I realized I had not stopped shaking since it happened. I couldn't get the image of so many people coming towards me, wanting to do me harm. It boggled my mind so many people would hurt me simply for being a child of a splicer, who adopted a genetic trait that I had no control over. Begrudgingly, I had to admit that I was in no condition to help anyone if I didn't attend to myself first. Edward Coleman was more than capable of dealing with the mental health of the people on this ship. After all, he managed to convince me to help myself.

I was planning to go back to my living quarters to relax, but I decided to head down to Main Street instead. It's been a long time since I've allowed myself some time to just window shop. This area was designed to be a replication of the main streets that were once common in the smaller towns on Earth. It was originally designed to give the original crew a comfortable sense of feeling like they were at home. Now, centuries later, it serves as a living memorial to the planet that we left behind. But, most importantly, it's just fun to go down there and browse. There are so many little shops that offer pretty much anything you could imagine.

When I got there I was greeted by the fresh smells coming from the hydroponic garden. I'll definitely have to pick up some fruits and vegetables while I'm down here. There is so much you can do with fresh tomatoes. I love trying out recipes from the archives. The Earth was such a large place, with so many different cultures. It would take forever to try every recipe we had stored in the ship computer's storage system. However, it's definitely fun trying to do it.

Many of the recipes call for meat, though. No animals were brought on-board when the ship left the Earth's orbit, as they felt that they would make the ship unsustainable. They were almost certainly correct, but I can't help but wonder what actual meat was like. We have substitutes, which are quite tasty. Of course, with no reference to go by, I have no way of knowing how close they are to the real thing. Earth was so abundant in meat that they served it quickly in places called "fast-food restaurants". I wondered just how fast these restaurants really were, and what a beef burger with cheese would actually taste like. We have substitutes made from seasoned vegetables and fungi, but I can't imagine that plants actually taste much like animal meat, no matter how they are seasoned.

I laughed inwardly as I caught myself drifting off into some odd thoughts. I always do that when I come down here. Edward was right. I needed a break. This is the best way to get my mind off of things. I walked into the grocer and grabbed some tomatoes, oregano, onions, garlic, salt, flour, and yeast. I also went into the cooler and grabbed some cheese, or at least our approximation of it. I had always wanted to try a pizza, and I had been pleased to find a recipe that was relatively easy to follow in my last journey into the Earth archives. I paid the clerk with my work credits, and he bagged my purchases. It always amused me that we kept up this tradition when our orders could just as easily be ordered from and sent up to our quarters. However, I knew that tradition was important, to help keep us grounded.

I walked down the sidewalk and saw many shops with handmade items. The people who didn't work on the ship's crew usually worked down here on Main Street, and they often made such wonderful things. I really admired the craftsmanship that went into the items that were for sale here. That's one of the reasons why I went into training as a mental health officer. Well, actually, the main reason was that I genuinely liked to help people. The second reason was that I wasn't good at crafting anything. In school, my clay pots always came out looking like the pictures in the database of the ashtrays that were once common on Earth. I would not make any money-making things like that. Since the original crew didn't include any plants that could be rolled up and smoked, an ashtray would be completely useless to anyone aboard this ship.

I continued to walk down Main Street and saw the shop that sold electronics. I walked inside, to see what kind of augmented reality programs were available that I could use to relax later that night. I then noticed a table that displayed many different breeds of robot dogs and cats. My mind started to drift off towards Earth again, wondering what it would be like to have an actual animal as a pet and companion. I spent a lot of time in my youth reading the newspapers from the Earth archives and remembered reading an article that claimed to have a pet to cuddle greatly reduced your stress levels. I could definitely use a cuddly pet right about now.

I began to think that there might be something to that study since I was feeling more relaxed just thinking about it. I began to think that the day might just turn itself around when my thoughts soon came crashing down to reality. A spine-chilling scream came from the end of Main Street, near the fountain in the middle of Market Square.

I knew I should just let security handle it since I was here to relax. However, I couldn't do it, as it is just not in my nature to leave the helping of people to others. If someone was in need of assistance, I have always been the first one there to help as best I could. Once I got there, though, I'm sure the attacker wished that I had ignored my instincts. The mother of one of the men who tried to attack me, Carla Jackson, was kneeling on top of my mother, pounding her so hard that my mother's blood was dripping from her fists.

One security officer was trying to pull Carla off my mother, while two others were just standing there watching. At that point, I think Carla said something, but I can't be sure, since the blood in my body rose straight up into my head. Before I knew it, all sense of reality was out the window, and I jumped at Carla. I was now on top of her, doing exactly what she had done to my mother, only trying my hardest to do it twice as hard.

I had just begun to beat her when I felt two arms circle around me. I struggled at first, then looked up, to see the captain herself. "Don't worry Maria, the medical team is here. Your mother will be OK. I'll make sure she gets the best care possible." At that, Carla just laughed, and I became enraged, even more than before. Luckily, the security personnel had both of us in restraints at that point.

"She got what she deserves. The real question is: what about me? Did you see what that freak did to me? Did you hear that inhuman hiss it let out when it pounced at me? We're not safe with freaks like that on board."

I couldn't listen to any more of the acid coming out of her mouth. "What about my mother? She didn't do anything to you, but you beat her anyway. You're conscious and talking. My mother isn't so lucky."

The witch just laughed again. "All of you freaks should be put down. It's only a matter of time before your animal instincts kick in and you reveal yourselves to be the monsters you really are."

I stared coldly at her, completely surprised at not just her lack of compassion, but at her complete lack of reality. "The only monster I see here is you."

The captain put her arm around my shoulder and addressed the security officer. "I'll take her down to the holding cell myself." The guard looked surprised, but answered "Yes, captain."

When we got to the elevator, the captain turned toward me with a sad look on her face. "I'm sorry that I have to detain you at all, as I know without a doubt that I would have done exactly what you did in your position. You'll only be there overnight, but I'm afraid we're going to have to place you off duty for a while. Not because of your actions today, but for all of the stress you've been under because of this nonsense. Doctor Coleman will take over your duties, and I'm afraid you'll be under his care for a while."

I just nodded. All of my energy had been completely drained from my body. I looked over at the captain and sighed. "Did I really hiss at her?" The captain looked surprised at the question, then frowned. "I'm afraid you did."

I furrowed my brows in thought. "Maybe we really are part animal. No one knows the full side effects of gene splicing. Maybe we can't be trusted to keep our emotions in check when we're in the middle of a dangerous situation."

The captain surprised me and actually pulled me into a hug. "You have more human compassion than most of the people on this ship. You just did what anyone would do to protect their mother, myself included."

I actually smiled, in spite of everything that had just happened. In all the time I had known her, I had never seen the captain allow herself to show her human side while she was on duty.

My name is Kevin Jackson. I am the third man in my family to carry that name. It used to mean something on this ship, but it doesn't hold much weight anymore. My grandfather was captain, my father was the science officer and second in command, and I'm working the cash register at Main Street Electronics.

I stared up at the clock, thinking about what time it would be if we didn't use a system based on rotations of a planet that was who-knows-how-many lightyears away. All this adherence to a foreign culture that none of us had ever experienced really annoys me at times. Our experiences should be our own, not that of some people on a swamp-covered ball in a galaxy named after cow juice.

If I didn't need the money, I'd quit my job. I'm really sick of having to deal with people complaining about the lack of colors available on our line of robo-puppies. People on this ship are so obsessed with emulating everything from the planet we left behind, but they still end up asking for replications of pets in crazy colors that never existed. When we had to study Earth history in upper form, I don't remember seeing anything about phlox poodles, but I get dozens of requests for pets in insane shades like that every day.

Ugh, finally. Oh-seventeen-hundred hours on the tick. I can't wait to leave this madhouse and get home to my wife and sons. I am so glad that my son Jonathan put in the request to authorize my use of the crew corridors, and I'm even more glad that the captain approved it. It's so much quicker to go through the crew corridor just outside of Main Street than it is to walk to the housing district directly. In my case, it's not a matter of favoritism over the fact that my sons are part of the crew on this ship. An accident left me as half of the man I once was, literally.

I used to work as a digital component programmer in a simulated sawmill that was located in the ship's simulation of the Scottish Highlands. It was a great job until the electronics on the saw arm malfunctioned, and I lost my limbs in an excruciating minute that felt like an eternity. The audit of the accident showed that the machine's processor was faulty. As it was a hardware issue rather than a software issue, the ship's treasurer, Adam Rockseed, authorized complete payment for my hospital stay, rehabilitation, and for my robotic appendages.

The good side of that ordeal was that my pension would still grow as long as I worked, even if it was not at the sawmill. That was music to my ears, as I got far away from that God-forsaken place as soon as I could. Thus, I moved, with my wife and infant sons, from one simulated Earth location to another. We left our residence in the artificial Scottish Highlands to reside in the residential living quarters just off of Main Street in the simulated United States of America.

My sons are now grown men, but we still live off of Main Street. However, we're now in a much more convenient location. It is nice since, due to the fact that my sons are officers on this ship, we're allowed to live in the living quarters in the area reserved for senior crew members. Plus, now with my access to the crew corridors, I can leave work and go straight home.

Our sons have their living quarters, separate from my wife and me, but our family is still together. The three spacious living quarters, each with their own toilet area and shower, are combined with a kitchen and a living room in a structure that has the facade of a domicile designed following Victorian-era architectural norms.

Even as a juvenile, I was a genius when it comes to programming, so as you can imagine, living on a ship sailing through space meant that I had my pick of careers. At the time, I didn't want my life to be determined by the career path of my father and grandfather, so I went against their wishes and took a civilian job. That was the biggest mistake of my life.

I chose the Scottish Highlands simulation because I thought it was so beautiful and lush with vegetation. After the accident, all that I can do is look at it and see nothing but its artificial components, and I can't help but see that even its existence is artificial. It attempts to mimic something so precisely that no one on this ship has ever actually seen. Everyone on board this ship only has an inkling of what Earth really looked like due to the digital archives created centuries ago by our ancestors.

To be honest, I can't help but see every part of the ship that way now, as I feel that we can be so much more if we forge our own path in architecture and design instead of using designs created by people who died ages ago. The Main Street location allows me to remain close to my sons, who are now both officers on this ship, so I don't let anyone else know about my inner thoughts. I grin and bear it, as my family is more important to me than anything else.

When I finally left work, on the way to the elevator, I walked past the pathetic attempt to recreate the stone, gravel, and sand that made up the faux-asphalt in our simulated, sanitized, 20th-century-America-inspired downtown facade. Our ship's depiction of Main Street is so far off from the virtual augmented reality simulations that we viewed in school.

The real downtown districts from that time period had real character, style, and a sense of being that we sorely lack. The real, unfiltered, storefronts of Earth sold similar items to our stores, but the owners weren't afraid to show the dirt, grime, and decay that naturally occurred on the planet over the decades. They were actually proud of it, as our dictionary notes that they coined words for the natural aging of buildings, calling them "weathered", which was seen as a positive trait. They also had phrases that emphasized their approval of natural progression, stating that "things only got better with age".

We have a clean oxygen supply throughout the ship, but Earth's atmosphere is an amazing cocktail, containing many disparate components such as nitrogen, oxygen, carbon dioxide, hydrogen, and water vapor. That's not even going into the chemical byproducts of pollution that gathered within the perimeter between the Earth's atmosphere and the cold vacuum of space that we are always floating aimlessly through, but do our best to pretend we're not. I can't even imagine what it would be like to breathe that wonderful mix of elements into my lungs, but I'm sure it tastes a lot sweeter than the cold, sterilized oxygen that we're forced to breathe.

My parents took me to a theme park simulation in the ship's Augmented Reality Entertainment Network Archway as a kid, and even their make-believe Main Street seemed much more realistic than ours. The builders on Earth made these romanticized attractions to escape from reality, but our sterile attempts at mimicry are not an escape, they are our reality.

I can't speak from experience, of course. Maybe our downtown really is accurate. Maybe the dirty, gritty, virtual AR simulations that I experienced in school were just a fluke. It's possible Earth's downtowns really did resemble the ARENA records of a theme park's Main Street. But, if that is the case, at least the saccharine structures in the theme parks were real. There was a designer who wanted to bring back the joy of the Main Street storefront that he or she remembered. Our attempts to rebuild the theme park version of 20th century America are hollow. None of us ever experienced the real thing, nor did our parents or grandparents.

Well, enough reminiscing. I'm finally home. It's time to kick back, relax, and enjoy some downtime with the people I love.

Chapter Six

The atmosphere in the Jackson household was anything but relaxed. Junior Lieutenant Stephen Jackson was waiting for his father to arrive home from his shift at the electronics shop, and he was not the harbinger of good news. He only had a few minutes of break to talk to his father before he had to return to his new position on the bridge crew, but he aimed to make the most of the time he had. His father had to be told about what happened to his wife and oldest son, and he was adamant that he’d be the person to tell him.

Kevin Jackson opened the door and was surprised to see that his son Stephen had arrived home before he did. He could tell by the angry look on his son’s face that something had happened at work. The fact that his son was standing here meant that he likely hadn’t been involved in a brawl, but the look on his face made him apprehensive. What on virtual Earth had made his son so angry?

“That freak of a so-called-captain locked up mom and Jonathan. The splicer baby that calls itself a counselor beat mom senseless and the captain had the nerve to lock them up! The splicer spawn only got a day in the brig, while mom and Jon are being held with no set release date.”

The elder Jackson now had a look of anger on his face that made his son look like the Dalai Lama in comparison. “He did what?!”

His son didn’t say a word, but instead reached into his pocket and pulled out a small, metallic, silver disk approximately the size of a quarter of his pinky nail. He held it in the palm of his hand, then spoke. “Play file. Timestamp one-five-point-three-six-point-oh-seven.”

The room became filled with colored light as the augmented reality surveillance disc turned the Jackson family living room into Main Street. Kevin Jackson’s face turned white as he watched the monster beat his wife. That thing had actually come into the shop today. He wished that he hadn’t ignored her. If he’d beat the living tar out of her, as her kind deserves, he could have spared his beloved Carla from any pain.

As he recalled the blood-curdling high pitched scream that he heard this afternoon while he was in the repair room at the back of the shop, his blood boiled as he began to wonder if that was his wife that screamed out in agony. With his temper now at its peak, he turned to his son and asked for the disc. “Give me that disc, son, and head back to duty before you get into trouble too. I’ll make sure everyone on this ship knows just what kind of demon spawn these splicer babies really are.”

With that, Stephen handed the disc to his father. They didn’t need to say a word to each other, as they knew exactly had to be done. They both walked out of the house, silently, and entered the crew corridors. The son headed for the bridge, while the father walked towards the maintenance tunnels.

Just as Kevin had suspected, he did not have proper clearance to enter the maintenance area. Putting his programming skills to the ultimate test, he downloaded the code to his memory banks and quickly set to work decompiling and reverse engineering the detection code. Since he needed a hasty solution, he simply altered it to skip the bio-scan completely, and hardcoded the system to always register as a specific individual. Kevin Jackson might not be able to go wherever he wants on this ship, but that shouldn’t be a problem for Lieutenant Rodriguez.

Once inside, Kevin quickly made his way to the emergency alert system. He needed to be extremely fast, as his quick-and-dirty hack meant that it would be extremely easy to detect. If any crew member entered the maintenance corridors now, they would definitely be suspicious if the bio scan tells them that they are Mario Rodriguez.

He quickly set up wireless communication between the two devices and copied the relevant portion of the video straight to the storage unit. Now that the video was in place, he set an emergency timer to begin in half an hour. That should give him more than enough time to remove any traces of his code and his presence from the maintenance systems. He gave himself enough leeway to do what needed to be done while still setting the presentation to start in a relatively short amount of time. He didn’t wish to delay the retribution of the race of creatures that had attacked his wife. Soon the entire ship would see these things as the bloodthirsty monsters they are.

At the exact moment that Mr. Jackson had finished erasing all traces of his unauthorized entry into the ship’s systems, the ship’s captain was finishing a conversation with the ship’s counselor, the latter of whom was presently being held in the brig. “I’ll do everything I can to try to calm tensions down. Sadly, there’s bound to be increased anger after today, but luckily it was just one small part of the ship that witnessed everything. I’ll make sure that the people of Main Street know the whole story. Hopefully, once they know everything, the people of Main Street will quell the gossip on the other areas of this ship. It may not seem like it now, but most of the people on this ship are caring people.”

“Don’t worry, we’ll nip this thing in the bud. Your safety and the safety of everyone else on the ship is my primary concern. I’ll do everything in my power to make sure that it doesn’t get out of hand.”

At that moment, it seemed that the universe had conspired to play another cosmic joke on them. All of the emergency screens on every part of the ship turned red with the dreaded emergency alert text. Both counselor and captain tensed up as they braced for the worst. However, the video that followed was far worse than anything that they could have imagined.

The entire ship had just seen video footage of Maria Corben, the ship’s counselor, savagely beating Carla Jackson, the mother of two of the ship’s officers. There was no context, as the video of Carla beating Maria’s mother was nowhere to be seen. All that could be seen was Maria punching Carla as hard as she could, and all that could be heard was the primal growl that Maria had uttered due to her desire to protect her mother. However, as far as the people on the ship were concerned, the video showed Maria Corben reverting to an animal-like state, savagely beating a mother of two without provocation.

Both ladies opened their eyes wide with fear. They have now entered the absolute worst-case scenario. Neither had any idea how they could possibly get things back to normal without serious repercussions.

The alarm began to blare out, and the ship’s computer spoke two of the scariest words known to humankind: “Emergency: Code White”.

“Heilige kak!” I cursed myself inwardly for my unprofessional outburst, however, outwardly my body more than matched my panicked tone. The color in my face must have changed at least six shades, as I turned as white as the emergency code blaring through the ship’s speakers. It’s my worst fears come true. The highest alert has just been sent out, and I haven’t had enough experience as a captain to handle this. Sure, I had dealt with alerts before during my tenure as second of command of this ship, but they were nothing more than mere scuffles among the crew, or among the people downtown. I had trained for code white emergencies, of course, as a cadet. But that doesn’t prepare you for the real thing, especially when my bridge crew is in the brig.

After what felt like days, Lieutenant Mario Rodriguez called in. “Captain, this is an emergency. That video caused panic all over the ship. There’s violence going on everywhere, fear, and panic like I’ve never seen. As is the protocol, the off-duty security team went in to try to help the situation, but it’s not enough. I sent the entire bridge crew down to help. I’m the only one up here! Please, send help.”

Completely numb, and acting on nothing but pure adrenaline and instinct, I began to try to control the situation. My words seemed to come out automatically, as I felt like I was standing outside of my body watching someone else handle the situation. “Release everyone from the brig. We need to be at full staff.”

As the doors opened, I looked at my shamed crew, hoping that simply being in the brig would be enough to snap them out of it. If that’s not enough, hopefully, my speech will do the trick. I don’t consider myself a wordsmith by any standard, but I’ve always been able to inspire the crew to rise above and beyond. I hope I can still do that today. “All of the senior officers are to return to the bridge. Remember, you are all officers of this ship. Put all of your anger aside, and do your duty to make this ship as safe as it can be. You are the face of this vessel, as all civilians on this ship look up to you for moral guidance. Everyone here earned their position, and I have faith in you all to overcome your demons and be the best officers that you can be.”

As the officers all began to leave the room, I looked over at Carla Jackson and Maria Corben. The physicians were amazing. They both had no outward scars from the fight, and that fact led me to think of a plan. It was a risky plan, but I was optimistic that it could work.

Both women were looking at me curiously, obviously wondering if they would be free to leave as well. I mustered up all the courage I had and hoped I could muster up a speech to help them rise above their hate as well. This will be the real test of my leadership, as the hate between these two is so raw, and my plan won’t work without them both.

“Maria, Carla, I need you two the most. I know that you are both furious at each other right now, but please overcome your hate for now, for the safety of this ship. Maria, as the ship’s counselor, I’m sure you want to do everything you can to ease the situation. Carla, as the mother of two of the ship’s officers, I’m sure that you care about the safety of the ship as well, and especially about the safety of your sons. I’m going to address everyone aboard the ship, and I need both of you to help. Please, help me convince everyone to settle down. The presence of you both together should be enough to get things back to normal.”

Maria Corben agreed without hesitation, but Carla Jackson didn’t share her enthusiasm. “I don’t want to be near that… her. If people are beating the splicers, good. That doesn’t affect me or my family. Splicers shouldn’t be able to mingle with the rest of us anyway. I’m not participating in your ridiculous ploy. This riot doesn’t affect me, and it won’t affect my sons. None of us were insane enough to change our genes and lose our humanity.”

I displayed the security footage of Main Street, and gritted my teeth, hoping that I could make my point without losing my cool. “That’s the electronics store where your husband works.” The scene showed people, non-splicers, breaking the windows, smashing the products that were on display outside the store, and stealing everything they could inside. “Don’t tell me this doesn’t involve your family. It’s bedlam out there, and anyone could get hurt in this. Please, please, help me stop this.”

Carla’s eyes widened as she saw the scene, hoping that her husband was alright. His livelihood, and more importantly, his life, was in grave danger. Begrudgingly, Carla admitted that the situation had gotten out of hand, and agreed to try to help calm the situation. I began to address the people on the ship, with both women at my side.

“Please stop this violence Both of the women shown involved in the fight this afternoon are fine, and neither wants this kind of violence to continue. Remember, we may all be different, but we all came from the same planet. We are all on this ship together. We’re not just neighbors and colleagues, we’re family.” At that moment, Carla, surprising both Maria and myself, took the initiative and spoke up: “Don’t destroy our community over me.” Maria, for the first time not sure what to add, simply stated: “Please stop.”

The gamble seemed to pay off as reports of fights began to lessen. The violence didn’t stop completely, of course, but it tapered off enough that the security crew could manage things. I allowed Maria and Carla to return to their homes. I was exhausted and was tempted to go home as well. However, I couldn’t stop yet. The ship’s alert system was reduced to yellow, or medium alert. There were still pockets of violence, but it wasn’t near the ship-wide panic that we previously confronted.

However, the continuing violence wasn’t the part of this situation that troubled me the most. The computer system had obviously been hacked. Someone took the surveillance video, edited it to remove the beating of Maria’s mother, and then streamed the edited video through the emergency broadcasting system. This meant that the person, or people, involved in this had extensive technical skills. Even more worrying, the computer system is only accessible in corridors that are restricted to crew members. All evidence so far seems to point towards that as the most likely scenario. However, I shudder to think that a member of the crew would sabotage the alert system in order to promote violence against people on this ship.

I just finished talking to the junior and senior crew. I told the junior crew I'd give them full compensation for senior benefits for the day, even though the senior staff members were in position. I warned the senior staff that the next brawl would result in anyone involved losing their commission. That should hopefully set them straight, and keep them from doing anything foolish.

Tensions are still high, but the ship is under control and fully staffed again. And I'm off the clock. On alert, but officially off the clock.

I went down to the ship's arboretum and found my favorite spot. Letting my thoughts drift for a bit, I thought back to the events of twenty years ago.

I took off my mag-shoes and let myself float above it all. I looked out into the market square as I floated up to my favorite spot up on the highest maple tree on the ship. I grabbed onto the branch and peered out. I looked at the magnificently carved dragons, especially the yellow one with the scales and fins. That one was my favorite. I pulled out my drawing pad and flipped to my picture of the dragon.

Last week while eating at the Ming restaurant, I asked Mr. Ming what the yellow dragon's name was. He told me it was named Huánglóng, and represented the Chinese Emperor and the center of the four directions. That's why it was my favorite. I'd climb up onto the tree and draw Huánglóng so I could get myself centered after a bad day.

"I knew I'd find you up here Angel. Had a tough day again, huh?"

I looked over at my mother's face and saw the telltale bags under her eyes that let me know that she had a tough day too. I didn't want to ruin her day more with my problems.

"No, I just wanted to draw a little."

"It's OK sweetheart, I know something's bothering you. You know you can always talk to me."

I looked down at the mismatched socks on my feet. I put quickly put on a red one and a pink one this morning because I was so excited to be going to school since I felt like a girl again after so long feeling like a boy. I frowned at that thought and continued to stare at my feet. "The kids made fun of me again when I came into school as a boy, after being a girl for almost a week. Maybe they're right, I should just pick a gender and stick with it. It would be so much easier."

My mom took off her mag-shoes and floated up towards me. After she gripped onto the branch by mine, she lifted my head towards hers. "Honey, don't even think of going against who you are. You need to do what feels right to you. I know that it's hard, but you need to be true to you. You're lucky that you know who you are at age 10. I didn't know who I was until much later." She smiled that big bright smile that I loved so much and kissed me on my forehead. "You're special, and I know you're going to do great things."

With my mind back in the present, I wiped my tears and hoped that my mom's faith in me was well-founded.

"I knew I'd find you up here Angel."

What?

I looked down from my perch on the tree to see the tired face of the retired Captain Martin looking up at me.

I pushed myself off of the tree, as I had many times before, with enough force to push me back down to terra firma. I quickly put my mag-shoes back on and met my mentor and friend.

"I am so glad to see you, Captain."

"You know there's no need for that formality now. I'm retired, you're Captain, and I'm just Rob."

Heaven knows how much I needed this man's advice right now. I grinned broadly and hugged him as tightly as I could.

"Let's go grab a bite to eat while we talk. I'm sure your usual table at the Ming is still there waiting for us."

Walking past the dragon sculptures at the entrance to the Ming that I loved in my youth seemed to melt my troubles away, at least a little. And, wouldn't you know it, the table under the large sculpture of Huánglóng actually was available.

Míng Zhāngwěi, the son of the Mr. Ming that I knew in my youth, and the eleventh generation Ming to own the restaurant, came up to our table.

"Hello, Captains. It's great to see you two together again."

Zhāngwěi was also one of the children I went to school with. He actually turned down an opportunity to become a cadet in order to continue his family's business. My mother and Captain, well at the time, Commander Martin, tried to convince him otherwise, but he was steadfast in his resolve. I think that's why we got along so well, since we were both deadset in following the family business, even if opportunities tried to pull us elsewhere.

I wish I could remember what else he had said, but despite my insistence that my worries had somewhat dissipated, I'm afraid that they hadn't. All I can be sure of is that I ordered the kǒushuǐ jī, or mouthwatering chicken, as that's what I always ordered when I was here. I must have been out of it for a while, since, no longer than I thought this, our meals appeared at our table.

I picked up the chopsticks and poked at my food. "OK, might as well just jump into things, I thought".

"I assume you heard the announcement."

Captain, er, Rob Martin, nodded. "You did a great job mitigating what could have been a terrible disaster. Things are back to relative peace. I know your mother would be proud of you. Heck, I'm proud of you. I'm not even sure I would have done as good of a job had I been in command."

"Don't say that sir, I know that if you had been in command..."

"Let me stop you there. First, you don't have to call me sir. I'm not your commanding officer, I'm your friend. Second, I honestly don't know how I would have reacted. Nothing like what happed this afternoon has happened on this ship in centuries. You did more than an excellent job, getting all parties to come together. Releasing that shipwide video message with the fighting parties calling for unity was a masterstroke."

"It's not my message that bothers me. It's the one that came before it: the one that showed the counselor beating the mother of two of my crewmen. It only showed part of the situation, and worse still, it was unauthorized. I'm going to have to investigate the crew for sabotage."

I actually took a bite of my food, the first since I had come into the restaurant. "It's this kind of stuff that I dreaded when I became Captain of this ship."

Rob Martin rubbed the dark skin at his temples and furrowed his brow, deep in thought. "Yeah, you and me both."

I looked at my friend of many years and smiled. "Let's forget about the issues on the ship for a bit, and just enjoy the meal."

Captain Martin returned my smile. "Sounds good to me. When we're done though. I really have something I need to show you."

I enjoyed the chicken and the company. It was great catching up. It's only been a week since I've been captain, but with everything going on, it has felt like a year.

At the end of the meal, although the food at the Ming was just as delicious as usual, I bid farewell to Zhāngwěi and took the rest of my food in a takeaway bag for later. I had much more on my mind right now, and Captain Martin wanted to show me something.

He led me to a passage behind the Ming before stopping. "I was hoping to wait a bit before showing you this, but fate had a different idea. Step through the looking-glass Alice, because your world is about to get turned upside-down."

He opened the door, and it led into a back-alley that I never even knew existed. There were a lot of people with spliced genes here, none of whom I had met before. There were other people here as well, some who weren't spliced, and others of whom I wasn't sure. There was a heavy-set woman with pale skin, dark black hair, brown eyes, standing at approximately 182 centimeters tall, with missing teeth. She was talking with a green-skinned man, standing at about the same height, with jet black eyes and spiky green hair. I wasn't sure if his appearance was the result of spliced genes, or if he simply dyed his hair, dyed his skin, and changed his eye color. It could be either, really, since there wasn't any lack of people here with all kinds of body parts in all sorts of unusual colours.

All these different sorts of people were inter-mingling and just getting on with their daily lives. These people spent their time in a way I had never even known existed until today, living in an area was dirtier than the rest of the ship. No, not dirtier. That doesn't describe it at all. It wasn't unsanitary, or unsavory, or anything that word would conjure up in the mind. It was lived-in... and less... sterile than the rest of the ship.

And, the smells here were positively heavenly. As I walked with Rob further down the rabbit hole, I could see why things smelled so good. There was actually a butcher here, with what appeared to be real meat!

I stopped and turned to Rob. "That's a real butcher. Those are real animals. It's supposed to be illegal to grow animals on this ship. Not to mention, the DNA to do so was supposed to be destroyed."

My eyes widened as I realized the truth. "You knew about this. How did you let this go on while you were the captain?"

Rob looked at me with heavy eyes, although I'm not sure whether that was due to weariness, guilt, or both. "There are hundreds of thousands of people living aboard this vessel. It's just not feasible, or even possible, to enforce every single penal code with that many people, with that many differing mindsets."

He continued, "Back on Earth, our ancestors had countries and cities and villages, each with their own police force. We have one ship, with many different areas modeled after Earth, but with one captain and one crew. We were supposed to be a ship of a couple of thousand people sailing through space for a century. Instead, we've been sailing for four times that. We've built up and out to accommodate the rising birthrates. Yet we keep the same system, at least in public. Splicertown here was a way to keep things going like clockwork."

"The less 'desirable'"... he actually made air-quotes with his fingers when he said it, if you'd believe it... "stuff happened back here while the rest of the ship ran smoothly under the pretense of following the same set of rules our ancestors did. It seemed to work well."

I glared at him, my eyes piercing his like daggers. "Until today."

He shook his head, wracked his neck back and forth, and then dropped his head with a sullen look. "Actually, the situation has been bubbling up much longer than that."

I gave this man I thought was my friend and mentor a cold stare, unbelieving that he hadn't told me any of this until now. "How long exactly has all of this been going on?"

He looked crestfallen at that, unable to even look me in the eye. "It all started about 10 years after the splicer children were integrated back into the school system."

At that statement, I must have looked a sight like one of those animated videos from the old Earth archives, with my mouth gaping wide open. That would be about twenty years ago. That's when my mother was captain of this ship. That was back in a time when I was only ten years old. It was back in the time when I thought things were happy on the ship. It was Back in the time that I drift to in my mind when things get rough so that I can pull myself back together.

I guess Rob wasn't kidding when he said that stepping through that door would turn my world upside-down. If my mother was involved, I don't think I'd be able to process any of it. She was my role model. No, she was more than that. She was my rock. She was my everything. She couldn't have, wouldn't have, knowingly let this go on. But I knew I had to ask. I built up my courage and decided to just rip the proverbial adhesive bandage off to get it over with quickly. "Did my mother know about any of this?"

His eyes started tearing up. Oh, no. This is not going to be good.

"Not at first. But when your mother found out about this, her eyes were burning with the same anger that I see in your eyes now. She was positively livid. She vowed to shut everything down and did everything in her power to shut it down."

I relaxed a bit. At least my mother acted as the same principled woman I knew her to be. "Why's everything here still going then? Why didn't my mom put an end to this? What happened?"

He gave me a fearful stare, his lip trembling like I never saw in his eyes before. No, his eyes gave off an expression, unlike anything I've ever seen before. "She tried hard to shut it down. Even went against her better judgment and hired a detective from Splicertown to get to the bottom of things. And he was good, but they were better. The people who started this hid their tracks well. Too well."

I probably had the same scared look on my face that Rob did, as I dreaded his response to my next question. "What do you mean 'too well'? What happened?"

"Your mother was murdered."

I looked back just in time to see my sister, Jake, before she headed deeper into the forest. That’s a weird thought: Jake, my sister. Maybe Jacqueline would fit her better? Nah. She doesn't really seem like a Jackie.

My dad looked over and saw me looking back. “Well, it's certainly been an unusual night. That definitely was weird, wasn’t it, son?”

I thought a bit before replying. “Well, yes and no. I mean, I was just thinking that Jake is a weird name for a girl.” I laughed a bit at that. “She’s going to have to come up with a better one if she hasn’t already. But I’m not surprised, ya know?”

“I know what you mean. I was surprised to see her shoot that purple spark out of her finger, that’s for sure. But I’m not shocked that she’s actually a girl. And, I don’t just mean that only girls in your mom’s family get magic when they become teenagers.”

I rubbed the stubble on my chin. “That’s true. She always did seem to be kind of, I don’t know, longing when he would have to split from the girls at the mall to join us guys." I cringed at my lack of grammar. "Don’t mind the mixed pronouns there”. I gave my dad one of my patented nervous laughs.

“Those darn pronouns are definitely going to be tough to keep straight, but I’m sure she’ll understand that this is all new to us. She’s always been a good kid.”

As we turned into the last path before the cabin, I replied. “I’ll admit it does confuse me a bit that she’s into sports and things. She did really seem excited to come up here with us to the cabin. When she wasn’t watching the ladies blast magic fireworks into the sky, that is.”

We stepped up onto the little porch out front and my dad took out his keys to unlock the cabin door. “That doesn’t negate her feelings, son. Lots of girls her age enjoy doing sports. Heck, your mother is still a bit of a tomboy.”

That last sentence startled me a bit. Tom… boy. “Do you think she’ll be able to use her magic to make herself into an actual, functioning, girl?”

“You are asking the wrong parent that question. You’ll have to ask your mother.”

My dad turned on the outdoor lights and headed out back, but I just stood there.

“You’ve gone uncharacteristically quiet, Nathan. Something bothering you?” When I didn’t respond, he added, “Don’t worry son. You can tell me whatever’s troubling you and I won’t get mad. You know me. Comments are to me like water is to a duck. They just wash right over me.”

I wasn’t sure about my father’s duckness, but I wasn’t going to tell him that. I sucked in a bunch of air and nervously blew it out. “Do you think you would be this accepting of Jake being a girl if he didn’t perform magic?”

That question seemed to stick and ruffle my dad’s feathers a bit, as he hesitated a bit before replying. “Wow. You don’t pull punches, do you?” He sighed. “I’m a bit ashamed to admit that I don’t know. I mean, intellectually, I understand that he’s a girl. But we got to see unmistakable evidence when she did something guys just can't do. But without physical proof, I really don’t know how I would respond. I’d like to think I’d do the right thing and be supportive, but it would probably take me a while for me to come to terms with it. How about you?”

I was a bit thrown by my dad tossing my question back to me, even though I should have expected it. "I think I'd have some trouble too. But I'm sure I would be civil to her, even if I wouldn't understand. I don't really understand, even with everything that happened, but I still love her."

"I'd be the same way, I think. It would not be easy, but I'd still love him, as I love you."

My dad grabbed the sumo suits. I'm glad that we're still doing sumo, even without Jake here. My dad thinks he can beat me, even after I thrashed him thoroughly when I was 13. It's five years later, and I'm not a kid anymore. I'm certainly not built like one. Dad's going down, again.

My dad continued his train of thought, even if my excitement had thrown my own track off its track. "I would never be an ass... specially angry person to any of my kids."

I laughed out loud at that. "Nice save, dad. Now, let's get ready to sumo!"

We the People aboard the Starship Cooperation, henceforth to be known simply as Cooperation, create a true first for humanity. This fully functioning country aboard a starship will bring about the best that humanity has to offer as we explore space searching for a planet that can support life. When an appropriate planet that can produce sustenance and comfort for human life, the people aboard the Community will enter the planet to create a new human settlement.

Article I

Power shall be bestowed equally between experts voted by a simple majority among the members of the crew. There shall be a President of Agriculture, Artificial Environment, Artificial Intelligence, Augmented and Virtual Reality, Commerce, Community Management, Computer Hardware and Software, Education, Energy, General Technology, Health, Housing, Labor, Mathematics, Security, and Transportation.

The only people who may apply for any position as President are those who were top of their class in university and have had at least five years experience working in a related field.

More presidents shall be added by majority vote among the people and a consensus among all existing presidents.

Addendum Year 46, Day 169: An exception to the rule of experience shall be the President of Community Relations. This person shall be a member of the community that will handle social issues of those aboard the Cooperation. Anyone, regardless of wealth or status, shall be eligible for this position.

Addendum Year 472, Day 362: Splicing animal DNA with human DNA is strictly forbidden. No person with genes spliced with animal DNA shall be eligible to run for President in any position.

Article II

A judicial court shall be established. Each judge is elected by a simple majority. Judges must have been top of their class at university with at least 10 years as a lawyer.

The number of justices shall be related to the population count of the Cooperation. There shall be one justice for every two-hundred-fifty people.

Addendum Year 2, Day 14: The above shall be henceforth be known as the high court. Lower courts shall be established in each of the settlements established. These judges shall be elected by a simple majority. One judge shall be appointed to each settlement except in the case the population of a settlement is in excess of one hundred. In such a case, An additional judge shall be elected to a settlement at a population of one hundred, and additional judges shall be elected for each additional hundred people in a settlement.

Article III

For the purposes of record keeping onboard the Constitution, the timekeeping methods from Earth shall be applied. There shall be sixty seconds in one minute, sixty minutes in one hour, twelve hours in a day, and three-hundred sixty-five days in a year.

The concept of months shall not be carried forward, nor shall the concept of leap days. The afforementioned time period shall be symbolic rather than scientific as time aboard the ship shall not be calculated by rotations around a sun.

Article IV

Fifteen days after the moment that all crew members sign this document, the Starship Community shall leave the planet to begin its mission. Upon leaving the atmosphere of Earth, this document will go into effect.

The four thosand initial crew members will be joined by their family members, making up a total of 20,004 people aboard the Cooperation when it departs Earth.

Ratified on Year 1, Day 1, by the undersigned:

Margaret Allison, Anako Akane, Akira Amano, Kathleen Anise, Abeba Aregawi, Robert Annison, Kimberly Astley, Alinta Baymarrwangga, Jennifer Beckam, Maria Bianchi, Charlie Blaze, Paula Bauer, Brian Baxter, Leroy Black, Frederick Boyer, Stephen Carson, Amy Cedar, Altanchimeg Chuluunbat, Karen Cokeley, George Cramer, Melanie Cranberry, Friedrich Daege, Sarah Danza, Maeko Date, Sunny Drake, John Dunham, Erica Estavez, Traci Fralin, Lucy George, James Halwood, Hana Hamzawi, Kevin Han, Kathleen Hanson, Patricia Hart, Dennis Hartford, Richard Houser, Kaja Irmscher, Anya Jackson, Cochise Jicarilla, Megan Jones, Akira Kasuga, Hinata Kashiwagi, Nigel Katel, Ai Kawasaki, Hideo Konoshi, Barbara Lace, Dennis Lake, Alfred Land, Hua Lui, Jeramiah Lyagushka, Sun Li, Gwenhwyfar MacMuireadhaich, Saeko Makimura, Betty Marsh, Carla Martin, Mary Mint, Miah Monte, James Murdock, Hiseo Nakaya, Peninah Nasae, Seraph Ng, Mai Nguyen, Nicholas Norman, Shenjīng de Nushì, Scott Nye, Colleen O'Beollain, Peter Oak, Akari Ootake, Ananda Osgood, Kara Osmond, Xavier Oxford, Theodore Pablo, Ho Pak, Siah Park, Aarav Patel, Pradeep Pattem, Nikolay Pavlov, Vladimir Pavlovsky, Drake Potter, Leroy Bolan Price, William Quick, William Quigley, Jill Rankin, Mark Roland, Anika Robinson, Peter Samuel, Chun Sang, Takako Saito, Haruka Sato, Michael Smith, Leroy Stern, Albert Strickland, Kazuma Suzuki, Hana Tanaka, Hikari Tachibana, Michiko Toda, Takaya Ugaki, Catia Undalov, Esmeralda Villanueva, Hua Wang, Thomas Walsh, Aiko Watanabe, Awinita Watie, Li Wu, Talita Ximénez, Mei Yang, Adriel Yazzie, Chun Zhang, Fen Zhao, Eliza Zimmerman