“Sorry,” I said resuming my examination of her tongue and chest. Keen to move my examination on my hand drifted to her lower regions, and began to slip up her thigh towards the promised land. Just as thing’s were getting really interesting the peace was shattered.

It was Gordy: “Right, lads, put down who you’re doing and gather round. Lesley’s got a plan to fix Professor Prick for good.”

By Karin Roberts

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It’s been a nice day–not too hot with a light breeze–as I recline back on a Lilo, a glass of white wine in one hand and a long white menthol cigarette in the other. I watch as the sun glints on the water in the swimming pool. The water gently, lapping against the side of the pool. My mind drifted back to just around 15 years ago when thing’s were not as good as this and life was so different. Let me tell you about it…

At that time my name was Craig Adams; I was born in 1971 in a small town just under 10 miles from Glasgow. In my years at Primary school I was very much a loner and I struggled to make friends. Around the time I was due to start secondary school my mother discovered that my dad was having an affair with a woman at his work. They split up and divorced soon afterwards. With all this change going on I decided to implement changes to my own life.

I resolved to become more outgoing and get some friends into my life.

By the time I had started second year I had a growing band of friends, some may have called us a gang. We hung around the leisure centre, the shopping arcade and the local cinema. Gradually our high spirited behaviour became a bit more serious. We became involved in small gang fights, and some minor shoplifting. I was glad I now had so many people that I could call friends, but was a little disturbed by our new pursuits. As you do in situations like this you go along with the group, not wishing to be seen as a softie and lose my new-found friends, I became involved in the small scuffles, all the while being careful that I was one of the last into the fray. When a fight broke out I picked my target carefully trying to ensure that I got to one of the weaker members of the opposing group first, thus keeping my end up in the group and minimising any injury to myself. When the shoplifting was going on, I made sure I was one of the lookouts and was never the actual thief.

As we became a bit older our interests changed, suddenly girls and alcohol were the flavour of the day. We would meet up in a wooded area with as local dialect would have it a “carry-oot” and drink and smoke ourselves into oblivion. Each person pairing off and “lumbering” any available female. For those not from these parts, this was local dialect for kissing and feeling each other up, and basically trying to get your partner to go as far as you could. It was during one of those sessions that my life was about to take a surprising turn!

One night in early summer we were all gathered around a small fire, the cigarettes being passed around and the alcohol flowing freely. The toughest guy of our group and self-imposed leader was a guy called Gordon or Gordy for short. Anyway this night his particular girlfriend Lesley was missing.

“Where is the bitch?” he growled, as the drink began to take affect and his mood started to become a bit irritated. “If she does not turn up soon, one of those other hotties will be facing the force of the Gordy boy tonight and she can go fuck herself,” he announced as he glanced over at the four or five girls sitting drinking in the shadow of one of the trees.

About 15 minutes later Lesley burst into the clearing in a clearly angry mood. “Where the fuck have you been?” snapped Gordy. “That little weasel Professor Prick got me a punishment exercise today from Mrs Kerr the English master. The prick kicked over my bag in English, and what do you know out popped my ciggies and a couple of condoms. After a lecture on the danger of smoking and pre-marital sex she gave me the exercise and threatened that if it was not handed in tomorrow, then she would see to it that my course work was failed in Health and Beauty.” Now if there was one thing that came close to Gordy in Lesley’s life it was her desire to be a Beautician.

“I’ll rip his balls off,” Gordy bellowed. “No, I want him out of the school. I don’t know how yet, but this time he’s history.”

Professor Prick, as Lesley had mentioned, was the quiet guy at school, you know the type–the class swot–the geek, the intelligent guy we all love to hate and make fun off. Like the others, I had given him my share of grief but with some reluctance. In him I could see myself at Primary school, the loner, the outsider, the victim of children’s cruelty. So although I had taken part in some of the pranks and abuse dished out to him, I did so with a certain degree of sympathy–I knew what it felt like. By this time the fuss over Lesley’s arrival had calmed down and she and Gordy were fast trying to make up for lost time. I joined the other guys and girls further over the clearing. Keen to make my night worthwhile I started chatting up a girl called Tracey, she was not the best looker in the group but I was only interested in how far she went.

As the others paired of we also parted and sat at one side of the clearing snogging each other if our life depended upon it. My hand drifted towards her breasts and rather roughly began to fondle them.

“Careful; don’t be so rough,” she said as I prodded at her.

“Sorry,” I said resuming my examination of her tongue and chest. Keen to move my examination on my hand drifted to her lower regions, and began to slip up her thigh towards the promised land. Just as thing’s were getting really interesting the peace was shattered.

It was Gordy: “Right, lads, put down who you’re doing and gather round. Lesley’s got a plan to fix Professor Prick for good.”

For the next few minutes Lesley outlined her plan to the stunned group. At the end she said, “Ideas anyone?”

The group exchanged glances before Dave spoke; “It’ll never work. Where are we going to find a guy who’s willing to dress up and try to be the Prick’s girlfriend?”

“There must be someone who owes us a favour,” Lesley replied.

“What about wee Brian? He owes you a favour, Gordy, for sorting out those two guys for him,” said Andy,

“Don’t be a dick, Andy, he’s way too fat, the idea is to get The Professor to fancy her. Nobody could ever fancy Brian.”

“Even if we do find someone, how exactly is that going to get him kicked out of school?” asked Angela.

Lesley explained; “Well, we get them alone, Professor Prick’s got a dose of the horn and takes the hottie into into a bedroom. One thing leads to another, the guy gets his skirt up exposing his dick we burst in take photo’s then leak them all over the school. There’s no way he can come back after that. Just think of the embarrassment.”

“But what about the guy in the pictures? Won’t he be in the same position?” I asked.

“Don’t be daft, Craig, it’s only his dick that will be in the pictures. If I showed you a picture of some guy’s piece from school would you know whose it was?” replied Lesley.

“It might work,” said Angela, “but we’ll need to get someone quite quickly it’s only 7 weeks till the end of term.”

“That’s right, it’s perfect timing because if we time it right, it will even screw up his exams and he won’t be able to take them; so no University for him.” Lesley laughed.

“Now, get your thinking caps on, gang,” said Gordy.

With the announcement over we returned to the business of the evening. I was still keen to see how far I could get with Tracey and thought the best place to restart was where I left off, my hand slipping up her thigh that bit higher. Her own hands were doing there own wandering and she was now massaging a fairly large bulge in my shorts, with her other hand running up and down my back. Just as it was getting really interesting and her hand snaked inside my shorts, the effects of the alcohol from the evening kicked in, and I had this overwhelming urge to pee. Not willing to take the risk of filling her hand with warm piss, I explained that I needed to take a leak and went of to the other side of the clearing behind some bushes.

Once relieved, I started to walk back to Tracey, just as I stepped into the clearing a voice piped up, “Craig, just stop there, don’t move; just stand there.” It was Lesley. “Morag, put Dave down and come over here.” she shouted. “Now, Craig, just do what you did a minute ago,” she asked.

“What?”

“The way you pushed your hair back.” In those days my hair was a bit long. To give you an idea, if you can remember the boy band Hansen, then my hair was very similar in style. With both hands I pulled my hair back from my ears and let it flop back down just as I had when I came into the clearing.

“You’ve got a point, Lesley, with his teeshirt over his shorts it looks a bit like a short dress and the hair could be worked on. Hey, guys, I think we just found ourselves a girl for the Prick!”

“Oh no , no way, I’m a guy’s guy, you’re not getting me in to this.”

Just at that point Andy stood up and announced, “I think we better can this for the minute; there’s a couple of cops coming along the path.” Sure enough further down the path a couple of local constables were walking towards us. “Dave, throw that bag of empties behind those bushes and let’s get moving.”

Dave took the bag and ditched it behind the bushes. I rejoined Tracey and putting my arm around her waist we all headed off towards the cops. They passed us without any hassle as we walked back towards town. It was getting late so we split up to take each of the girls home.

As we parted, Gordy turned towards me and said, “We’ll talk tomorrow, Craigy boy.”

I walked Tracey home in silence and after a brief snog on the doorstep I headed off home. “See you tomorrow,” she called as I went down the path.

“Eh yeah,” I answered, but in all honesty my mind was very preoccupied with what tomorrow just might bring.

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To Be Continued...

You see, Craigy, that’s what mates do, help each other out, now are you in or out?”

“Look this would only need to be a couple of times?” I asked.

“Sure.”

“Okay I’ll do it”

By Karin Roberts

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I awoke next morning after what had been a rather restless night. The closing events of last night were weighing heavily on my mind. There was just no way I was doing this. I went downstairs for breakfast. My mother was busy in the kitchen. “Morning, Craig, you want something to eat?”

“It’s okay. Just fruit juice will do for me,” I replied as I opened the fridge to pour myself a glass.

“You going out today?” she asked.

“Yeah, a little later,” I said. Leaving the kitchen I went through to the lounge and flicked on the television, settling back on the settee I tried to watch while flicking through the sports’ pages of the morning newspaper.

About a half hour later I heard the telephone ring, “Craig, darling, it’s Gordon for you,” my mother called.

“Shit,” I silently whispered, rising to take the call. “Craig, darling,” he mocked.

“Leave it out, Gordy,” I replied.

“Just calling to ask if you had thought any more about last night,” he enquired.

“I can’t do this, Gordy.”

“Sure you can; Lesley’s confident she can make you passable, and it’s not as if we are asking you to do anything with him, just get him in the right place at the right time and we will do the rest. Look Lesley and Dave are coming over later. Come round, I may have a little incentive to change your mind.”

“It will need to be more than a little incentive to make me do this, I’ll see you later.”

Later that day I walked round to Gordy’s. “How you doing,Craigy? Made up your mind yet?”

“I still don’t think I can do this” I said.

“Well I’ve been thinking, Craigy. It seems that being part of this gang is maybe second on your list of priorities. I got to thinking today about all the thing’s we’ve been involved in. It seems to me you’ve always been on the edge looking in, sure you were involved in the fights, and took and gave a few blows, but you were never really in the mix, were you? Then the stealing, always the lookout, never the stealer.”

“You know I would do anything for you guys,” I replied.

“So what’s your problem then?”

“You don’t see this as a bit to far?” I asked.

“No I don’t and it will get you the undying respect from the others and me. Look follow me I’ve got something which might help you make up your mind.”

Gordy led me to the shed in his back garden and opened the door. “Lift the sheet at the back there and see what’s underneath.” Below the sheet was a very expensive Hi-Fi system. “About  £500 quid’s worth there,” he announced. “You remember Eric that left last year to work in the Electronics factory? Well, he had a little trouble with two of his workmates; asked me to help him out, so I did. He repaid me with that, it’s yours if you pull this off. You see, Craigy, that’s what mates do, help each other out, now are you in or out?”

“Look this would only need to be a couple of times?” I asked.

“Sure.”

“Okay I’ll do it”

“Looks like we’ve got ourselves a volunteer,” he announced to Lesley when we walked back to the house.

“I knew you’d come through,” she yelled and threw her arms around me and planted a kiss on my cheek. “Be at my place by noon tomorrow for a practice.” The rest of the afternoon we spent discussing the plan and having a few beers in the back garden. I trotted off home slightly the worse for wear and very apprehensive about what lay ahead.

The next day I arrived at Lesley’s just after noon.

“My parents are out so let’s get started. Margo’s here to help,” she said as she passed me a pair of white silky panties and a roll of tape. “Get undressed in the bathroom tape your dick up that will give you a more female outline, and then slip these on. There’s a dressing gown in there; when you’re finished come into the bedroom.”

I went into the bathroom and did as she asked, she was right about the tape as it certainly gave me a more female outline, slipping on the dressing gown I returned to the bedroom as ordered.

“Take a seat at the dresser, me and Margo can start your make up.” For the next 45 minutes they worked with creams, brushes, tweezers–the works. “There, finished now. We’ll do your hair and then let you have a look.”

Another half hour with cold and heated rollers and hair gel and the transformation was complete. “Right, then first stage of Project Nikki complete. Go have a look at yourself.”

I walked over to the mirror and my jaw dropped. “Jesus how did you manage that?” looking back from the mirror was a really attractive 17 year old. My hair had been curled in at the back and sides and parted on top leaving a shot fringe to just above my eyes. The eyes had been shaded in two colours of blue, opening them out and making them look bigger. Mascara had been used to lengthen and thicken the lashes and the eyes had been lined with dark blue eyeliner. Finally the lips had been painted with a raspberry red lipstick not too bright or slutty.

“Well I am studying to be a beautician” Lesley replied

“I think you just passed” I joked.

“Now let’s get you dressed.”

Lesley tossed me a pair of black opaque tights. “Slip them on and I’ll get you a bra to match the panties.” Opening the drawer she pulled out a white silky bra and brought it over. “We’ll need to pad it with something” she said.

“Ah well, that’s where I come in,” said Margo. She picked up a bag from the floor and dropped two silicone breast forms onto the bed. “These were my aunt’s before she passed away from breast cancer. I was really flat chested when I was younger, so I liberated them for my own use.”

“You diamond, Margo. Here, put your arms through the straps and fasten the catch at the back.” As I fastened the catch, Margo slipped them into the cups.” They’re a bit big; look, they’re, bulging out of the cups. They’re even bigger than mine. I’ll need to keep an eye on Gordy when you’re around, Nikki,” she joked.

Next, Margo appeared with a white mini corset. “You’re quite slim, but if we slip this on and just tighten it a bit it will give you a much better shape,” she said. She fastened it around my waist, pulling the laces in just a bit. The outfit was completed with a straight black knee length skirt and a white tee shirt with “Girls Just Want To Have Fun” printed on the front. Finally she handed me a pair of two and half inch black Cuban heels. “We’ll start you off on something a bit smaller in the heel but in no time you will be up to 4- and 5-inch heels just like us,” she announced. Margo handed me a small handbag inside were my cigarettes, a gold lighter and a small purse. “Put the lipstick I used on you in your bag and take that bottle of perfume on the dresser give yourself a spray and we’ll be off.”

“Be off?” I asked.

“Yeah, you need to get used to being outside, the guys are picking us up in 15 minutes.”

“Do I have to go out just yet?”

“Well, you don’t have to, but if you stay here you’ll need to keep my parents company ’cause there just coming up the drive.”

Sure enough as we stepped downstairs, Lesley’s mother and father were just opening the front door. Her mother looked up and said, “Hi, girls,” as she made her way through to the kitchen with bags of groceries; her dad stood at the bottom of the stairs as we descended. “Where are you off to, girls?” he asked.

“We’re off to the amusement park with a couple of friends, Mr Kerr,” Margo piped up.

I was aware of his gaze switching towards me. “And who’s this?” he asked.

“Nikki,” I mumbled.

“Glad to meet you, Nikki, I’ve not seen you with the girls before have I?”

Lesley interrupted; “No you’ve not; she’s Margo’s cousin from Hamilton and stop being an old perv and looking at her chest,” she said, opening the door to let us out into the garden.

We stepped out, me aware of her dad’s gaze still on my chest, and then my legs as I followed them out. As we got to the end of the street I saw Andy’s car approach and slow up to pick us up. Andy and Gordy were in the front, so me and Margo and Lesley got into the back. Both guy’s turning to check me out. “Jesus, babe, you’ve done a first class job I would never have recognised him. This is going to be easy, I doubt if Professor Prick has ever had a girl look at him, far less a fox like that take a close interest in him,” Gordy said.

“Look, let’s just get tonight over with. I’m nervous enough as it is,” I replied.

We drove more or less in silence to the amusement park Andy parked up and we got out. Mingling with the crowds I felt a bit self-conscious at first, but as the night went on and I was introduced to several people, including a few people from my own school none of whom seemed to notice, or have an idea that they were really speaking to Craig. Margo and me split off, and went to the diner to get a coffee. “How are you feeling?” she asked.

“Okay. It was rather strange at first but I’m settling down now.”

“You look great, you’ll pull this off no problem,” she added. Once in the diner we sat at one of the booths and Margo went to order two coffees. I took my cigarettes out of the bag and lit one, blowing a cloud of smoke in the air. I noticed two guy’s in one of the booths further down but paid no particular attention to them. Margo returned with our drinks and sat down. A couple of minutes later the two guys got up from the booth and moved towards us.

As they approached I recognised one of them as Ross, a guy who had left our school a couple of years before. They stopped at our booth, the other one–who I did not know–asked, “Mind if we join you, ladies?” Now I knew that Margo had harboured a secret crush on Ross, so she eagerly agreed and they sat down. The four of us chatted away before Margo got up and announced that she needed to go to the ladies leaving me and Ross and his friend alone.

With Margo gone, Ross asked, “So, where do you come from Nikki? I’ve not seen you with Margo before.”

“I’m her cousin from Hamilton,” I replied.

You going out with anyone?” he asked nervously. I slid another cigarette out of the packet and lit it.

“Y-y-yes,” I stammered.

“Pity. Look we need to go, but take this and give me a call if you break up,” he said as he handed me a card as they got up. “It’s been nice meeting you,” he added as they both walked away and left the diner.

A minute or so later Margo came back. “Heh where’d they go?” she asked.

“They just left a couple of minutes ago. Ross was asking if I was seeing anyone then handed me this,” I said as I handed her the card.

She looked at the card. “This is his business card,” she said. “You bitch! I’ve been trying to get into his knickers for ages and five minutes with you and he’s giving you his number.”

“Keep it,” I said, “I don’t think I’ll be using it.” With that we left the diner and went to join the others.

For the remainder of the evening we messed around in the arcade. By the end of the night I was pretty tired walking up and down in my heels. As we drove home the others questioned me on how I had thought the evening had gone, and was I more comfortable now? While I was not any happier with the situation, I was now feeling more comfortable that I would be able to pull this off. Margo even had to tell the group about my earlier encounter with Ross and how he had left me his number. Gordy found this particularly funny and commented that if I had fooled Ross then I would have no problem with impressing the Professor on Friday.

“Friday?” I said.

“Yeah, he goes to the Chess group at school on Friday evening, so I think we’ll deliver our little surprise then.”

When we got back to Lesley’s she sneaked me into the house and upstairs to change back. Once I was changed, we agreed on one more practice session for Wednesday at Margo’s before Nikki was introduced to the Professor on Friday. At that I headed home deep in thought about what had gone on tonight, but also quite pleased with how I had coped with my first outing.

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To Be Continued...

While she was doing my face, Margo was working on my hair; with some curling tongs she put a slight curl on my fringe at the front and bottom of my hair. Lesley finished off my eyes with black mascara before outling my lips with a deep purple lip liner and then filling in the remainder of my lips with a pale lilac lipstick. Finished with my face both girls let me have a look at their creation. Looking back in the mirror was a very attractive seventeen year old–in fact I even fancied myself!

By Karin Roberts

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The week went quickly; the second practice session at Margo’s had gone well on Wednesday. The girls had dressed me and we had gone for a Burger at our local McDonald’s before having a walk around the local shopping centre doing some window shopping. So, with my confidence increased I was more assured as Friday and my big night arrived.

The plan was simple. We all had to meet at the school around seven-thirty PM; when the chess club ended around eight o’clock, we would wait for the Professor and, after some sort of altercation, I would be left to take him away from the group and befriend him with the hope that he would ask to see me again and then put the final part of our plan in place. I left school with Lesley and Margo, having told my mother that I was going to Gordy’s to do some studying. Both Margo’s parents were working so we had the freedom of the house to carry out my transformation for the night ahead.

Lesley went into the bathroom and ran a hot bath adding some typically girly bath salts. Handing me a jar of cream she asked me to go and spread the cream on my legs arms and torso. “What’s it for?” I asked.

“Oh just to make your skin a bit softer,” she replied.

Once in the bathroom I slipped out of my school uniform and put it away in the holdall I had brought with me. Smearing the cream over my legs arms and upper body I stepped into the hot bath. There seemed to be a sort of burning tingling sensation once I was immersed in the water but I put this done to the temperature of the water. I soaked for around fifteen minutes and then got up to dry myself of. Getting up I noticed that all of my body hair had gone and I was completely smooth. Grabbing a dressing gown from the back of the door I stormed angrily into the bedroom. “What the hell have you done to me, Lesley?”

“Don’t panic the hair will grow back in it’s just for a couple of days” she replied. “Now go and sit at the dresser and I’ll start your make-up”

“Okay but no more surprises, Okay?”

“Fine, whatever,” she said.

Seated at the dresser, Lesley began to work on my face choosing a foundation to match my skin tone. She massaged it into my temples and then the rest of my face. I must admit she did have a really good touch and I began to find her fingers working on my face quite relaxing. Finishing of with a slight dusting of powder, she began to outline my eyes with black liquid eyeliner and some pink and purple eye shadow.

While she was doing my face, Margo was working on my hair; with some curling tongs she put a slight curl on my fringe at the front and bottom of my hair. Lesley finished off my eyes with black mascara before outling my lips with a deep purple lip liner and then filling in the remainder of my lips with a pale lilac lipstick. Finished with my face both girls let me have a look at their creation. Looking back in the mirror was a very attractive seventeen year old–in fact I even fancied myself!

“Let’s get you dressed then, so we can get ready ourselves,” said Margo.

Margo handed me a pair of white silky panties, a pair of tan tights and some tape. Turning away, I taped my manhood back as I had previously and slipped into the panties before rolling the tights up my legs. She tossed me over the waist shaper and I slipped it on. This narrowed my waist sufficiently. As I stood Lesley came behind me and asked me to put my arms up. Both her arms slipped around my side and positioned the breast forms in place.

“That look okay? “she asked Margo.

“Fine,” came the reply. As she held them in place I was aware of a cold sensation around there edges, holding them in place for a couple of minutes she stepped away and let them drop. But they didn’t!

“What’ve you done?” I asked.

“Don’t get your knickers in a twist; it’s only a little amount of glue. They’ll come off quite easily and it won’t leave a mark.”

“It’d better not,” I said. With that, Margo handed me a strapless bra and as I slipped ‘my’ breasts into the cups she fastened it behind me. I must admit it was a strange feeling walking and feeling the breast forms attached and moving in response to my movements. With work completed on my underwear it was now time for my outfit for the evening.

Mt first item was a tight hip hugging white denim skirt which was an inch above the knee. Then a deep purple halter neck top, which fastened by a stud, at the back of my neck. The top had a low neckline which showed of some cleavage. Taking some foundation and a little powder Lesley dusted the edges of my breast forms so that appeared that they were perfectly natural. Finally, I was handed a pair of three and a half-inch white patent stiletto heels. I slipped them on; they were a bit tight and high.

“Walk around in them while we get ready. They’ll stretch and ease off a bit,” said Margo, as both girls left the room to get ready.

“Is it okay if I smoke?” I asked.

“Yes, but open a window and sit at the window sill so my parents don’t smell it,” she replied. I slipped open the window and sat down picking up a packet of white menthol cigarettes I took one out and lit it. Inhaling deeply, I blew a stream of smoke out into the early evening air, I must admit that I was beginning to like the taste of menthol cigarettes rather than my normal brand so I settled back to finish my ciggy and wait for the girls to come back.

Around 30 minutes later both returned; Margo was dressed in a black leather skirt with a white top and black four-inch stilettos, white Lesley had a pair of tight white jeans and a tight pale yellow top and pale yellow three and a half-inch stilettos to match the top. “You both look great” I said.

“Well so do you, and we can’t go out with our guys with you looking better than we do,” she joked.

Margo stepped over to the dresser and came back with a handful of jewelery. She handed me a pair of two-inch hooped gold earrings. I already had both ears pierced as this was the fashion at the time. Removing the studs that I already had in, she helped me to replace them with the hoops. Then she handed me a gold heart-shaped locket and a few gold bracelets, a ring and a gold-plated watch.

Slipping these items on, Lesley announced, “We’ve got about twenty minutes before the guys pick us up lets have a drink” Leaving the room she retuned a few minutes later with a chilled bottle of cider and three glasses. We sat by the window each of us smoking a cigarette and waiting for the guy’s to arrive and thinking about the night ahead.

About ten minutes later we heard a car horn. “That’s them let’s go,” said Margo. I picked up the small white leather shoulder bag that had been left on the bed and followed the two girls downstairs. Only Andy and Gordy were in the car Angela, Elaine, Brian and Dave were meeting us there.

“Evening, gorgeous,” Andy piped up as I got into the car.

“Fuck off and just drive,” I responded.

“You okay? You seem a bit tense,” asked Gordy.

“No, I’m fine. Let’s just get there and get it over with. Okay?”

“You know what to do?” he persisted.

“Yes, now can we just get going?”

“Okay, keep your hair on.”

Andy hit the road. “A Princess has her Prince Charming to meet,” he said with a snigger.

Less than ten minutes later we were parked beside the lane that led away from the school. We got out and met the others, all of them surprised at how good I looked. Andy was joking around thrusting his pelvis towards me and asking if I would like this in my mouth or when not doing that trying to touch my arse and being a right pain in the neck.

After about the third time he tried to touch my arse I snapped. “Grow up you prick” and I stormed over to the small boundary wall where Angela was sitting. Sliding myself up on the wall I said to Angela, “He’s such a prick.”

“Yeah, I know. I really don’t know what Elaine see’s in him,” she responded.

“Ciggy” I asked.

“Yeah, okay.” Taking two out of my packet I gave one to Angela and taking my lighter from the bag we both lit up. I sat on the wall secretly hoping that the Professor either was not at the Chess Club that night or would spot us on leaving the school and high tail it in the other direction, a couple of minutes later though I was to find out as the Professor emerged from the gates.

Not knowing what was good for him he headed straight in our direction. Just as he got to about ten feet from us I think he realised his mistake, Gordy stepped out in front of him and said “Good to see you, Professor. I’ve been meaning to have a chat with you.”

You could see the look of fear in his face as Gordy stepped towards him, “Hello Gordon” he weakly responded.

“Heh, listen to him! Hello Gordon,” Andy mimicked. I slipped off the wall and moved a little closer to the action.

Gordy continued; “You see, Professor, my girl Lesley, here, tells me that you got her into some trouble the other week.” he edged a little closer to him.

“No I didn’t.”

“Oh, so now you’re calling her a liar,” his tone rising.

“No, not really.”

“Well, what is it then? She’s either lying or you are, so what am I to believe, the girl I am seeing or a little useless piece of shit like you?”

The Professor finally responded; “It was an accident,” he admitted as Gordy got closer to him.

“So it DID happen then? Well, that’s unfortunate, especially for you.” With the closure of his sentence Gordy lunged forward burying his forehead squarely in the Professor’s nose. The blow knocked him of his feet and just as he had hit the ground, Gordy kicked him hard in the ribs lifting him off the ground again. Before standing over him I was on my feet, slipping in front of Gordy, I protested; “Cut it out; you’ll hurt him, you’re a bully, Gordy.”

“What do you care, Nikki?” Gordy shouted back, as Lesley gripped his arm and pulled him slightly away from me.

“Look, leave him. Look at the size of you compared to him,” I continued. Squatting down I asked him in my best femme voice “You okay?”

Holding his nose which was now gushing with blood, and struggling for breath he said, “I think so.”

“Look, lean on me and I’ll help you up and get you out of here.” His hand went to my shoulder and I helped him up, his other arm gripping his side where Gordy’s kick had landed.

As we walked away Gordy called, “That’s right, Nikki, get the little prick out of here before I kick his head in.” We walked away the professor leaning on me as we went, my first task successfully completed the rest was now up to me.

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To Be Continued...

Margo was waiting for me on my return. “Well how did it go?”

“Fine, he took the bait he’s going to take me to the amusement park, but there’s only one slight problem,” I responded.

“What’s that?”

“He wants to take me out this Saturday as well, and I had to agree in order to get him to agree to the other date.”

”Date did you say?” Margo said jokingly.

By Karin Roberts

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I helped the Professor away from the group his hand clamped over his still bleeding nose while his other arm rested around my shoulders. We were about 500 yards away from the group when I said, “They’re not following. Let’s get a seat in the park and we can clean up your nose.”

“Okay,” he mumbled in reply. We stumbled into the park and I led him over to one of the wooden benches easing him down as he clutched his side in pain. Opening my clutch bag I took out a packet of tissues and handed them to him. He wiped the blood away from his face and tossed the tissue in a bin.

“Tilt your head backwards; it will stem the flow of blood. It’s not broken, is it?” I asked.”

“No, I don’t think so but it hurts like hell.” We sat in silence with the Professor sitting head back and clasping his nose with another tissue. I took out my cigarettes and lit one up inhaling deeply and wondering how to make my next move.

About ten minutes later the Professor released his grip on the tissue. “I think it’s stopped now,” he said. “Thanks for that back there, I thought he was really going to do me some damage”

“That’s okay, Gordy can just be a big bully.”

“Won’t helping me get you in trouble with the others?” he asked.

“Sure, he’ll be as mad as hell, but Margo’s my cousin so he won’t take it out on me–or her–as she’s best mates with Lesley. How’s your side?” I continued.

He stood up and slipped off his school blazer, tugging his blood-stained shirt out of his trousers and wincing as he lifted the shirt up to have a look. “You’re going to have one hell of a bruise there tomorrow,” I said standing up and tossing my cigarette on to the ash path. “Come on, I’ll walk home with you,” I insisted.

We started off towards the housing estate where the Professor lived. “I’ve not seen you around school,” he said.

“No, I left last year, but was actually at Hamilton Grammar School” I replied as we neared his house. “I can’t keep going on calling you professor, what’s your really name?” I enquired.

“It’s Edward, Edward Wilson.”

“Hi there, Eddie, I’m Nikki.” I replied, offering him my hand we shook hands.

“Good to meet you, Nikki, and thanks again for tonight.”

As we got to the end of his street we stopped and I waited for him to ask to see me again. ‘No come on,’ I said into myself. “Well I better get back,” I said out loud.

“Yeah, it’s getting dark,” he responded. “Well, it’s been nice to meet you, Nikki, and thanks again for tonight.”

“No problem,” I replied, as we shook hands once again and I turned to leave. Damn! It was not going to happen.

I was about ten paces away from him and then, “Nikki, wait up a minute,” as he jogged back to me. “Look, I was thinking just to say thanks for tonight, can I take you for a coffee sometime?”

“Yeah, that would be nice,” I answered. “How about next weekend, say around two o’clock? I’ll meet you at the town hall.”

“It’s a date then, see you Saturday,” I responded.

As I walked back to meet the others the first part of our plan complete. About 10 minutes later I had rejoined the group. Lesley eager to find out if I had pulled it off. “He wants to meet me on Saturday.”

“See I told you you would be perfect. Another meeting and he’ll be putty in your hands and then we can set about ruining his life,” she said happily. We messed around the shopping centre for the next couple of hours me mixing easily in my fem attire with individuals young and old. By about ten o’clock I was beat; the high heels were killing my feet and calves and I needed out of them badly. We all returned to Andy’s car and got in heading back to Margo’s when we returned the light’s in her house were still out so I had no problem with changing back to Craig. Once showered and redressed, Lesley came over and grabbing my hand lent forward and gently kissed me on the lips. “Thanks, I really appreciate what you’re doing and how hard it’s been for you, but it’ll soon be over. Oh, and don’t breathe a word to Gordy about that little kiss, otherwise you might end up as female for good, if you know what I mean?”

“Yeah, I do. Look I need to head home so I’ll see you during the week.” Turning, I left the bedroom and headed back to the car where Andy and Gordy sat waiting to take me home.

Once back home I went into the kitchen and grabbed a Coke. “Is that you, Craig?” my mother called. “Did you have a good night?”

Poking my head in the living room I said, “Yeah, it was okay. Look, I’m dead beat; I’m just going to bed.”

“Okay, darling, see you in the morning.”

Mounting the stairs I headed up to my room, my mind awash with what had gone on tonight. I had really made somebody believe close up that I was a girl, even to the extent that they had asked to see me again. I didn’t know whether to be pleased that I had pulled it off, or still embarrassed that I was going around with my friends dressed as a cute girl. One other small point was worrying me though I had enjoyed it more than I should have!

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The next week went by with lightning speed and come Saturday I was ready for my next adventure as Nikki.

Turning up at Lesley’s just after noon, she was ready to transform me back into Nikki and once undressed I slipped into the bath robe they had provided for me. Covering my face with foundation and powder she applied some dark pink eyeshadow to my eyelids before using a lighter shade on my eyesocket, some mascara and a bright glossy pink lipstick for my lips. My nails were then painted in a matching pink colour and left to dry.

Margo, like before, was working on my hair. “Your hair’s getting a bit longer. Let’s try a pony tail,” she said. Pulling the hair tight into the side of my head she slid a hair scrunchie over the end and moved up to the crown of my head. “Yeah, that works quite well,” she said as she slipped a pair of gold Creole earrings on my ear lobes. Lesley handed me a gold necklace with a gold dolphin hanging from it, a couple of ring’s and a watch to complete the look. Taking the tape I had used to secure my manhood previously and a pair of pink lacy panties that Margo handed me, I retired to the bathroom to secure my penis away. Once it was taped away I slipped on the panties and admired the female form that the concealment gave me before returning to the girls.

The breast forms were once again secured to my chest and encased in a matching pink lacy bra. Margo gave me a pair of tan 10 denier tights which I slid on before Lesley tossed me a pair of white jeans. “Here try these on, they might be a bit tight but give them a try. I stepped into the jeans and pulled them up my body pulling them over my hips and tried to fasten them but they were too tight. “Hang on a sec.,” said Lesley as she produced the a small white waist clincher. “Here, slip this on first.” Fastening the clincher, I once again tried the jeans and this time they fitted. Lastly Margo gave me a bright pink v-neck top which was quite low cut and showed ample cleavage; the top was of a wrap around design and tie fastened at the side.

“It’s a bit low at the front,” I said.

“Well, we want to keep his interest,” said Lesley as she slid her hand along my arse, “You’ve got quite a nice girlie bum,” she added as she walked over to the cupboard and returned with a pair of 4-inch pink high heels. Handing them to me, I slipped them on.

Margo handed me a white leather shoulder bag which had already been packed with essentials such as lipstick, mirror, perfume, cigarettes etc. “You’re ready,” she announced.

“What about you two” I enquired.

“You don’t think were coming with you?” replied Margo. “It’s a date after all, so you’re on your own. Now get going, you’ve only about twenty minutes to get there and you don’t want to be late.”

“Now remember, next weekend is out as me and Gordy are at a concert, so you need to get him to agree to take you out the following week that’s the week before the exams start,” Lesley added.

“Yeah I know.”

“Well, get going then and good luck.”

I stepped out of Lesley’s and walked towards the main shopping centre where I was to meet Eddie. The streets were busy with cars and pedestrians but my confidence was such that I paid no attention to the passers by although I did notice a couple of dirty old men staring at my chest as they passed me. The sound of my heels echoed on the concrete. In the distance I could see Eddie standing by the Town Hall; as I approached my nerves were beginning to build up the nearer I got. As I got to him, he said, “Hi, you look good.”

“Thanks,” I replied rather shyly.

“I thought we could go to the café and get a drink before maybe going to see a film” he asked. I was a bit taken aback, but agreed and we headed of to the café. When we got there Eddie said that he would get the drinks and I should go and get a table. I was aware of a couple of others from our school in the café and I could see them whispering and pointing in our direction. I walked over and slipped into one of the booths.

Opening my bag, I took out my cigarettes and lit one just as Eddie returned with the drinks and slipped in beside me. “How have you been “ I asked.

“Okay. My side still hurts a bit,” he said, raising his tee-shirt slightly and showing me a nasty bruise on his side. “What about you? Have you seen Gordy? Did he give you a hard time?”

“No he was okay about it; in fact he asked me to tell you that he was sorry as he think’s he overreacted a bit.”

“That’s big of him,” he said sarcastically. As we chatted more over our drinks, I slipped another cigarette out of the packet and lit it “You know I never really liked smokers before but there’s something about you I just find so–”

“–So what?” I asked.

“S-s-s-sexy” he stammered.

“Oh, you do do you?” I said playfully, punching him in the arm.

“Ouch that hurt.”

“Ooops, I don’t know my own strength,” I giggled.

When we had finished Eddie stepped out of the booth and offered me his hand. Startled a bit at first, I took it and stepped up beside him before he asked, “What film do you want to see?”

“I don’t care. You choose.” And with that we left the café, hand in hand, and headed towards the local cinema.

We walked along the pavement towards the cinema; “How about Crocodile Dundee 2?” Eddie asked as we entered the cinema.

“Yeah that’ll be fine with me,” I replied.

Eddie bought two tickets and we walked in to the auditorium just as the first titles were rolling on the screen. We sat in the second row from the back. The theatre was not busy–maybe only a couple of dozen at this mid afternoon showing. Around 15-20 minutes after the film started Eddie asked if I wanted some popcorn. With a positive response he headed of to the booth in the foyer. When he returned he handed me the packet and his other arm snaked around the back of my seat. I opened the packet and offered him some which he took and sat back to enjoy the rest of the film. I’m still not sure if it was a conscious decision or not, but I somehow leaned towards him and found myself snuggled into his side, his hand moving forward to rest on my shoulder. We stayed that way for the remainder of the film. Once the movie was over we got up and headed back to town.

Eddie stopped and bought us some chips before we settled on a seat in the town centre to eat them between us. I lit a cigarette and lounged back on the seat as he finished off our snack. “I’ve really enjoyed today,” he said.

Taking a long inhale, I blew out the smoke and replied, “Yeah, so have I.”

“Can I see you again” he asked.

“Yeah. Well, I was thinking Margo and the gang are going to the amusement park two weeks today. She asked me if we wanted to tag along.”

Eddie looked at me “Is Gordy going?”

“Well, yes,” I replied.

“Well maybe that’s not such a good idea given recent events.”

“It’ll be okay; you’ll be with me and he’ll not give you any hassle, anyway, it’ll be a good way for him to say sorry, and you would like to go with me, would’nt you?” I said reaching out and clasping the top of his hand.

“Eh, well yes, okay, when?“

“Two weeks today,”I repeated.

“Can’t I see you before that?” he asked eagerly.

This time it was my turn to stutter. “W-w-well, eh I’m not sure.”

“What about next Saturday night? There’s a disco at the town hall.”

“Eh well I don’t know,” I said.

“Go on. I’ve agreed to your date so you can agree to mine.” Finding myself slightly caught I agreed and we started to walk back towards the housing estate.

“I walk you back,” he said.

“Okay but I’m going to Lesley’s first as Margo’s over there.”

“Okay let’s go.”

We walked back hand-in-hand in the direction of Lesley’s house,stopping at the end of her street. “So I’ll see you on Saturday,” he said.

“Okay, where and when?”

“Well about seven PM at the Town Hall?”

“Okay.” Just at that point Eddie reached forward and his hand came to rest on my shoulder. As I turned my head towards him his head moved towards mine, and before I knew it, his lips touched mine only for a couple of seconds.

As my head turned back, “Everything’s okay isn’t it?” he asked.

“Yeah, sorry, you just took me a bit by surprise,” I lied. “Look I need to go” I said, and leaning forward I gently kissed his cheek. We parted and I walked the short distance back to Lesley’s my mind in turmoil. What was I doing kissing guys and letting them kiss me? I had to remind myself it was an act and I was doing this for a purpose.

Margo was waiting for me on my return. “Well how did it go?”

“Fine, he took the bait he’s going to take me to the amusement park, but there’s only one slight problem,” I responded.

“What’s that?”

“He wants to take me out this Saturday as well, and I had to agree in order to get him to agree to the other date.”

”Date did you say?” Margo said jokingly.

“Well you know what I mean,” I said sharply.

Just then, Lesley appeared; “So how did our protégé get on?” she asked.

Margo interrupted; “She’s done well. The Prof took the bait, but she needs to see him this Saturday as well.”

“No problem is there Margo? You can handle that on your own,” said Lesley.

“Yeah, I suppose so.”

“Okay let’s get you changed back,” said Lesley.

We went inside and upstairs to Lesley’s room. I went into the bathroom and began to undress. I had slipped off the jeans and the top when there was a brief knock at the door and in stepped Lesley. “Heh, I’m getting undressed here.”

“Calm down, it’s not as if I’ve not seen you like that before is it?” she said, stepping towards me as she locked the door. “I just wanted to thank you for all your putting up with for me.”

“Yeah, you’ve already told me,” I replied.

“Yeah, I know, but I figured you deserved more,” she said as her hand sneaked behind my head and eased me forward before planting her open mouth over my lips her tongue probing its way into my lipstick-covered mouth.

I jerked backwards. “What d’you think you’re doing? What about Gordy?”

Moving forwards again she said, “This will be our little secret. Anyway you’re still dressed as a girl, so it’s not as if I’m cheating with a guy,” she said, fondling my breast form before sliding her hand down between my legs and slipping the tape off my cock which was rapidly beginning to grow. Well, Lesley’s a really stunning girl so as she eased me back on to the toilet seat she found little resistance as she began to slowly wank me off. Then her head moved down and her mouth opened and tightly clamped on my cock. Easing her mouth up and down my shaft while her tongue licked and teased inside her mouth. Within minutes I was moaning and she removed her mouth before finishing me off with her hand as spurts of cum shot into the air. She tore off a piece of toilet paper and wiped her hands before getting up and heading for the door. As she did, she turned and winked. “Our little secret,” she said.

“Yeah, I know. I’ve no intention of telling anyone as I don’t like hospital food, and that’s where I’d end up if Gordy finds out.”

“Good,” she said and stepped out of the bathroom.

I finished getting cleaned up and dressed back into my own clothes. Lifting all my femme clothing, I went back to the bedroom and found Margo alone, sitting listening to some music. “Where’s Lesley gone?” I asked.

“Oh, she’s off to find Gordy; be back in about ten.”

”Right–well–I’d better get off. I’ll see you at school and then next Saturday.”

“Yeah no problem” she replied as I left the room to head off home. My mind was so confused: within the past hour I had kissed a guy and had a great blow job of my mate’s girlfriend. What the hell was that all about? This was really turning into a weird experience and my problem was I was unsure in my mind which I had enjoyed better ! Once home I skipped up stairs switched on the radio and lay back in my bed to try and get a handle on how I was feeling, within 30 minutes I was no further forward and also firmly asleep.

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To Be Continued...

“Good, come with me,” I said, and led him into the alley. My mind was racing what was I doing but I was excited at the same time. We stepped into the shadow and I turned my back to the wall and slipped my hand behind his neck and the other still holding my bag on to his waist and eased him towards me. Our lips met and opened with eager tongues finding each other and exploring our mouths as the passion increased.

By Karin Roberts

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The next week went very quickly and no sooner had it been Monday than Saturday came around and I was heading back to Margo’s for my latest adventure. I arrived there just after five PM; her parents had gone out for a meal and then a film so we had time to complete my look for the night. As soon as I arrived Margo had run a bath for me and left some cream to use to make my body smooth. I was comfortable with doing this now as the hair had just started to grow back, so I was happy that there would be no permanent hair loss. I soaked in the bath and then drying off I sprinkled some talc on my hairless smooth body. Slipping into the dressing gown I went back to the bedroom for Margo to work her magic on my face.

She started work on my hair which was getting longer by the week, in fact just earlier that day my mother had been getting on my case about it saying, “You’ll need to get that cut or you will look like a girl.” If only she knew, I thought to myself.

Using heated tongs Margo achieved a really curly bouncy hair style. She took some foundation and squirting a little on to her finger tips she massaged it into my face. “This looks like a much better colour for you; much more natural and it’s giving your face a kind of shine,” she said. Dusting some powder on to my face with a little touch of blusher she set about my doing my eyes. Some dark blue eye shadow with a lighter shade on the eyelid she then outlined my eyes with navy eyeliner before applying some blue mascara to finish off. She completed my face by outlining my lips with a dark red lip liner before applying a slightly lighter shade of red lipstick.

“Special treat for you tonight; you can pick your own outfit,” she said as she pointed towards her walk in wardrobe. I stepped over to the wardrobe and opened the door to find a vast array of clothing searching through each item I finally chose a rather short pale blue slinky dress with thin shoulder straps. “Good choice,” she said, “but you’d better wear the waist clincher with that as it’s even a bit tight for me.” Taking it off the rail I laid it on the bed as she handed me over the white waist clincher. I slipped it on and she tightened the laces before handing me a strapless white bra and some lacy white panties to put on I slipped into the panties before she approached with the breast forms and attached them to my chest, holding them in place till the adhesive set. Going back to her dresser she came back with a white suspender belt and a pair of sheer white stockings, “Here. put this on,” she said, handing me the belt as I sat on the bed. Fastening it round my small waist, she fed the suspenders inside my panties and then slipped the stockings up my legs before fastening them to the clips at the end of the suspenders. “Very sexy; if he catches a glimpse of these tonight it will blow his brains out,” she said pointing to the lacy stocking tops.

Taking the dress off the bed she took it from the hanger and handed it to me “You’ll need to just slip it up over your hips as there is no zip,” she said. Taking it from her I stepped into it and slipped it up. Breathing in, I managed to get it over my hips before slipping my arms through the straps.

“Perfect. It fits in all the right places; have a look in the mirror.” She was right it was tight on the bum and waist and emphasised the rather generous breast form I have been wearing. She walked back over with a pair of white four-inch stiletto heels. “Try these,” she said handing them to me, with a bit of a squeeze I managed to get them on and although when I stood up they were a bit uncomfortable, but I figured they would stretch a little bit with wear. She had already packed a small white leather clutch bag for me with all the essentials including a purse that she had filled with the money that I had in my jeans. Handing me a couple of rings and a gold watch and a white leather choker that had a blue rhinestone in front she set about fixing some gold earrings with a rather large pear shaped pearl hanging from the end of them. I slipped on the other items.

“There, finished and still half an hour to spare so let’s have a ciggy.” I walked over to the window as she opened it and pulled an ashtray from below her bed. Taking a cigarette from my purse she offered me a light and I inhaled deeply, blowing a cloud of smoke out of the window. “So you know what you need to do tonight? Make sure that he’s up for next weekend, whatever it takes just get him to agree to go”

“Yeah, I know. I don’t think it will be much of a problem with me looking this good,” I replied.

“No, neither do I,” said Margo with a smile.

Half an hour later I set off from Margo’s and walked the short distance to the Town Hall to meet Eddie. My confidence was high knowing I would pull this off and Eddie thought of me as a girl. I knew that he fancied me, but what confused me about all this was my own feelings and the where this was all heading.

“You look fantastic,” Eddie said, smiling as I reached my destination.

“Thanks, you look good yourself” I replied as I let him take my hand and plant a gently kiss on my cheek as he led me towards the entrance to the disco. Once inside we found a free table and I sat down to have a cigarette while Eddie headed off to get a couple of drinks. As I lit up I spotted several people from our school none of whom had any idea who I was and some just looked bemused as to how Eddie was there with an attractive girl.

We sat and chatted and had a couple of dances and I was struck by how intelligent Eddie was. He spoke about his hopes of going to University and how he saw his future and what he would like to do, but above all, he was charming and had a sense of humour that I suppose most of us never knew he possessed, as we had been so busy making fun of him. All in all he was just good company.

Lost in ourselves we were unaware of the couple approaching us from the dance floor. “Hi, Nikki, ’n Eddie, mind if we join you?” Turning towards the sound I was shocked to see Andy standing there with another girl.

“Eh, Eh, Andy, sorry I never saw you there,” I stammered as they both sat down.

“Didn’t know you were dating the Professor, Nikki,” he sneered.

“Well obviously Margo doesn’t tell you everything then, and anyway what are you doing here?”

Turning to the girl he was with he said, “Tracey, why don’t you take the Prof up for a dance while me and Nikki have a chat.” Tracey and Eddie headed out onto the dance floor leaving me and Andy along at the table.

I knew Tracey she had a terrible reputation as being a girl who was very free with her sexual favours to boys and her appearance tonight only backed that up she had a very short black skirt on, a see-through, white lace, very low cut top, at least five-inch black stilettos and lashings of make up and jewellery. “What the hell are you doing with her and what about Margo?” I asked.

“Well a boy needs to have his fun, Nikki, and if Margo’s not putting out then there’s always others who will. Anyway your not about to tell her in your situation are you?” he asked as he put his hand on my knee.

“Cut it out, Andy, I’m here to help Lesley.”

“Well that’s fine, Nikki, we can just tag along kind of double date,” he said smirking to himself as Tracey and Eddie headed back towards us.

Tracey sat down on Andy’s knee her short skirt riding up to expose the top of her stockings. “Here get some of this down you,” she said as she handed me a half bottle of Vodka. “Just pour it in your Coke but don’t let anyone see you” she whispered.

“I’m not sure,” I said hesitating.

“Get it down you, girl, it’ll help you relax and you do look a bit tense,” she insisted. Pouring some in, I took a drink and wondered about this unexpected turn.

About two hours later the disco was winding up we had been dancing and drinking and in truth I was beginning to feel the effects of the alcohol a little. Andy suggested that we go for a drive in his car so all four of us left the hall and headed to the car park. Once in the car me and Eddie in the back and Tracey and Andy in the front we set off. After driving for about ten minutes Andy parked up and Tracey produced another half bottle of Vodka and some Coke. We had a couple of cigarettes and another couple of drinks by this time I was feeling rather tipsy. Andy leant forward and drew Tracey towards him his mouth finding her neck as she moaned and slid her hand towards his groin. I looked at Eddie who was looking towards my crossed legs in the dimly lit car. I could see that my dress had ridden up a bit and Andy’s gaze was on my lacy white stocking tops which had become partially visible. Caught looking he cast his glance away embarrassed that he had been caught. Tracey’s moans became louder from the front seat as I caught Andy’s hands begin to massage her breasts. Eddie took my hand and pulled me towards him finding my mouth he kissed me expecting a response. Not wanting Andy to see it I turned away saying to him that I felt a little sick and could we get out for some air. Making our excuses we climbed out of the car and left them together walking towards the Town Centre on our own.

“What’s the matter,” Eddie asked as we found a seat in the shopping precinct and I took out a cigarette and lit up as he sat down beside me. “You just don’t fancy me,” he persisted.

“No, don’t think that, I do,” I said surprising myself. “I just felt a little sick it must have been all that alcohol. Just give me a minute and I’ll be fine.” I said reaching out and clasping his hand. His arm slipped around my shoulders and a shudder rang through my body.

“You cold?” he asked.

“No, I’m fine. Just hold me for a minute.” We sat for a couple of minutes until I had finished my cigarette, and dropping the butt on the pavement, I extinguished it with the tip of my shoe and said, “Let’s go. You can walk me back to Margo’s; the girls are having a sleep over there tonight.” Taking his hand I got up and we walked hand in hand along the open shopping centre. Just as you get to the end of the shopping centre there was a small alley which led to the service area as we approached it I stopped and asked “Eddie you do like me and fancy me don’t you?”

“Off course I do you’re lovely and the best thing that’s happened to me in ages”

“Do you mean that?”

“Yeah of course I do, silly.”

“Good, come with me,” I said, and led him into the alley. My mind was racing what was I doing but I was excited at the same time. We stepped into the shadow and I turned my back to the wall and slipped my hand behind his neck and the other still holding my bag on to his waist and eased him towards me. Our lips met and opened with eager tongues finding each other and exploring our mouths as the passion increased. Eddie fondled my chest as his other hand slipped up my thigh and on to my arse pulling me closer. I could feel his hardness through his trousers. My hand slipped from his neck and traced its way down his body to find his zip, pulling it down my hand moved inside his pants and found a six or seven inch rock hard cock eager for attention.

Eddie broke the kiss. “Nikki, you don’t have to do this if you don’t want to,” he said.

“I want to” I answered resuming the kiss with eagerness then it happed after three strokes from my hand Eddie tightened and exploded over my dress.

“I’m so sorry, I’m an idiot” he said, stepping back and looking away from me in embarrassment.

Opening my bag, I took out some tissues and wiped away the cum from the front of the dress, planting a kiss on his lips I whispered in his ear “It’s okay, there’ll be other times,” I said taking his hand and leading him out of the alley.

We walked in silence back to Margo’s my mind in turmoil. What exactly was going on and what was happening to me? I felt so safe in Eddie’s arms so wanted and needed and I also thought that I needed him. Reaching Margo’s house I stopped “You still on for next week?” I asked.

“Wouldn’t miss it, I just love being with you.”

“Thanks I feel the same about you” I said. His hands on my hips we kissed again a long lingering gentle kiss then I turned. “See you Saturday then, around eight PM.”

“You will; can’t wait,” he said as he turned and headed home.

I walked up the path. Slipping round the side of the house as agreed I tossed a small pebble up at Margo’s window to attract her attention as she opened the window I said “Let me in.”

“Yeah, fine just come to the back door.” Moving round the back she opened the door and we went inside and upstairs to her room “What happened to the dress?” she asked spotting a stain on the front.

“Oh, Eddie bought us a Burger on the way home and I dropped some Mayo on it. Sorry.” Well, there was no way I could tell her that it was Eddie’s cum.

“No matter it will need washed anyway. You’d better get changed my parents will be back soon. We still on for Saturday?” she asked.

“Yeah he’s coming,” I said with a smirk to myself.

“Good, I knew you could do it. Now get changed.”

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To Be Continued...

Moving his face to within centimetres of mine he said, “I know all about your kind; I’ve read articles and seen a few books on TVs. This is what they want; to be submissive, be tied up and have some guy take advantage of them.” he growled. Startled and scared by his actions I was silent as his hands wandered up my thighs and under my skirt and across my bottom “Well isn’t it? Look at you in your short skirt, tight top and high heeled boots, and made up like a tart; you’re begging for some guy to restrain you and have you aren’t you?” he added, fondling my breast forms.

I was scared and not sure what he was going to do...

By Karin Roberts

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The week passed like lightning my mind in turmoil with different thoughts. This little adventure had proved surprising the incident with Lesley the way I felt with Eddie so safe and feminine in his arms, I enjoyed being with him his sense of humour his kindness and more than anything the way my body tingled when he touched and kissed me. Concentration was a problem during the week with several lapses being spotted by the teachers and landing me in some trouble along the way. My mother also noticed it “Are you okay, Craig?”

“Yeah, fine just concerned over the exams in two weeks,” I lied.

“You’ll do fine, dear,” she responded, oblivious to what was really going on.

So with the week gone I set off for Lesley’s house on Saturday, ready for the final instalment but also looking forward to seeing Eddie again.

Lesley and Angela were already waiting for me when I arrived. “Where’s Margo?” I asked.

“She’s got held up. Something to do with an argument with Andy,” said Lesley. “Anyway, Angela’s going to help and she’s good with fingernails, so go let’s get started.”

Angela led me into the bathroom and began cutting my fingernails; happy with them, she brought out a box from her bag. “What’s that?” I asked.

“Just some false long nails. We just glue them on, then you soak them in acetone later and they will fall off, so don’t worry,” she said, beginning work by selecting the appropriate size for each finger. “I really admire what you’re doing for Lesley; not many guys would do it,” she said as she glued the last nail in place. “There, they’re finished; just like mine,” she said, holding up my hands to show long tapered nails which matched hers. “Quite sexy,” she said, and she began to stroke the inside of my thigh.

“What’re you doing?” I asked.

“Well, Craig, as I said, I admire what you’re doing for Lesley and you’re quite nice looking.” Her nails traced their way up my now erect cock, her mouth covering mine and her tongue probing into my mouth. Guiding my hand under her short skirt, she pushed it towards her pussy. Getting up slightly, she slid her panties down. “I want you to finger me off with those long nails.” She resuming the kiss, and my fingers slipped inside her: I soon found her clit and the increased passion in her kisses told me she was getting worked up as my long nails flicked her joy button. Minutes later she moaned and I felt her warmth as her orgasm hit. “Ooh that was good,” she exclaimed, sliding down in front of me and gripping my still erect member. “Now for your treat,” she said as her mouth opened and slid over my shaft sucking furiously. She had me at boiling point within minutes and soon I burst inside her mouth spurting for all I was worth. Standing back she tore of some toilet paper and wiped her lips. “There now, get a bath. Lesley will be waiting,” she said as she casually turned away from me and left the bathroom.

Jesus this is getting weirder and weirder I thought as I turned off the taps having run my bath. Dropping some expensive Chanel bath salts into the bath I savoured the aroma and slid into the hot soapy water. Soaking in the water I tried to focus just on what I had to do tonight and tried to block out all the other side issues that were going on. The plan was for us to meet Eddie at the Amusement Park, goof around for a while and then all go back to Margo’s as her parents were away for the weekend. Gordy had already got some alcohol and we would have a party before I was to lead Eddie to his doom. With the offending photographs of him in a compromising situation they would then set about ruining his reputation in the school. I drifted in the aroma until there were three sharp raps on the door “Hurry up, Craig, you’ve been in there for over 40 minutes,” shouted Lesley.

“Oh sorry, I lost track of time. I’ll be out in a minute,” I said as I began to dry myself. Stepping out of the bath I took the tape from the window ledge and secured my penis up between my legs and went to join the girls.

“Where’s Angela?” I asked as I stepped back into the bedroom.

“Oh she’s gone off to get changed. Let’s see your nails?” she asked and I held my hands up. “Oh very nice. Now let’s get started; there are panties, a suspender belt and stockings on the bed. Put them on, then I’ll come back and do your make up.” She stepped out of the room. I slipped the suspender belt around my waist and gently rolled the sheer stockings up my legs, securing them to the clips at the end of each strap on the belt. Then I pulled on the black lacy panties Lesley had left for me. She came back in with her make-up bag and we moved over to the dressing table. The usual procedure followed with the application of foundation, some rouge and, a light dusting of powder. She then set to work on my eyes; using black eyeliner she outlined my top and bottom eye socket before applying a dark grey eye shadow with some silver on the top lid to make the eye look bigger. She applied some mascara to my eyelashes and then outlined my lips with a dark burgundy lip liner before using a lighter shade of wine lipstick. To finish the effect she brushed on some clear lip gloss to give my lips a nice sheen.

“There now let’s get your hair sorted; it’s really getting quite long,” she said as she smoothed it back leaving a front fringe. She secured it in a pony tail and brushed out the fringe. “You know you really do pass well as a girl. If I hadn’t known you, I would never be able to tell. I can see how the Prof has been fooled,” she said, as she attached some three inch hoop earrings to my pierced ears. Taking the breast forms from the dresser she applied some adhesive and carefully fixed them to my chest before applying some foundation and powder to conceal the seams. Handing me a black lacy under wired bra which seemed to push up my fake breasts even more we were now ready for my outfit for tonight.

Lesley produced a black body suit which had popper fasteners for between the legs which I fastened and pulled the suit up my torso it was made from tight Lycra and was really figure-hugging and low at the back finishing off with a narrow halter neck strap which also fastened with poppers behind the neck. This was followed by a really short leather skirt which had a slight two inch slit at the left hand side which only really covered the top of the stockings by about two inches.

“You don’t think this will be a bit short?” I asked.

“No, just make sure you don’t bend over otherwise everyone will get an eyeful!”

For footwear she produced a pair of black knee length boots with four-inch stiletto heels, which I pulled on and zipped up my legs. “They’re my mum’s,” she said. “I borrowed them so watch what you do with them. She’s a size bigger than me so they should be more comfortable,” she added. “Look I’m going to get changed so help yourself to some jewelery and have a ciggy. I’ll be back in about ten minutes.” She left me alone in the bedroom.

I looked through her jewelery box and selected a couple of gold bangles and a watch, a gold necklace with a heart at the end of it and three rings which I slipped on my fingers. Crossing to the window, I opened it and took the ashtray from under Lesley’s bed. I lit a cigarette; looking at the lipstick mark around the tip, I blew the smoke out the window and sat down deep in thought about the rest of the night. It was too late now I had to go ahead with this: I worried about the consequences for Eddie and my life getting back to normal if it could. I finished the cigarette and waited for Lesley to return crossing my legs in the way that Margo and Lesley had taught me in the early days–which now seemed so far away. Minutes later she returned looking absolutely stunning in a white see-through lace dress with only some discreet solid panels to cover her breasts and groin area. White five-inch stilettos completed the look.

“You look stunning,” I said.

“Well you look not so bad yourself. Let’s have a drink,” she responded as she produced a bottle of white wine and a couple of glasses. She poured me a glass and I offered her a cigarette which she took and we both lit up. The sight was quite surreal two good looking young ladies sitting smoking a cigarette and having a glass of wine waiting on their boyfriends to take them out for a Friday night on the town.

Finishing our cigarettes and the wine, Lesley produced some nail varnish–a colour matching my lipstick–and proceeded to paint my, now extended, nails, blowing on each one as she finished to aid the drying process. At the same time she went through the plan for the night and how her plan should turn out. Still listening, I meanwhile was thinking about the consequences if it all went wrong. When she had finished my nails she said, “Now, is everything clear? You know what you’re doing?”

“Yeah, I’m clear,” I responded.

“Oh and, Nikki, thanks,” she said. This was becoming rather confusing if she was even thinking of me as Nikki! Another five minutes and a car horn sounded. “That’s Gordy let’s go.”

I sprayed some perfume on my neck and wrist and some down my chest as Lesley had shown me and we walked downstairs to the car.

About ten minutes later we pulled up outside the Amusement Park. Margo and Angela stood with a guy at the foot of the steps. As we arrived both looked suitably stunning for the night; Margo with a short, red, tight Lycra dress and red and white stilettos, and Angela in a silver lurex top, with a short black skirt and silver stilettos. With them was a guy called William who was Margo’s cousin and whom she had been trying to pair off with Angela for some time.

We stepped out of the car with Gordy and Andy and walked over to meet them. As we reached them Margo spoke. “William, you know everyone except Nikki, I think,” she said, gesturing towards me. William stuck out his hand and I shook hands with him

“Nice to meet you, Nikki.” All the time his gaze was on my nipples which were showing through my tight top,

“Likewise,” I said and broke off the handshake.

“Where’s Eddie?” asked Angela.

“He’ll be here,” I answered as the three guys climbed to the top of the stairs, us four girls following behind, our heels clicking noisily on the tiled steps.

As we reached the entrance foyer, I stopped just inside and said, “Look, I’ll wait for Eddie here. You lot go on and I’ll meet you in the café.”

“Okay, but don’t be long,” snapped Gordy. As the others left, I walked to one of the small benches and sat down. Opening my bag, I took out my cigarettes and lit one to wait for Eddie. Several guys went back and cast a look at either my boots or my chest so by the time that Eddie appeared less than ten minutes later my confidence was high.

He was dressed in a pair of black jeans with a white shirt and black leather jacket. “You look stunning,” he said as he took my hand and helped me up from the seat. He leaned forward to place a gentle kiss on my lips.

“You look good yourself. You okay about tonight?” I asked.

“A bit nervous,” he answered.

“You’ll be okay; nothing will happen when I’m with you,” I said squeezing his hand reassuringly. “The others are in the café,” I continued, as I led him towards the door.

As he opened the door I let go his hand, not wishing the others to see the contact between us. We walked in and joined the others at the booth. “Hi, Prof,” said Gordy.

“Cut that crap now. His name’s Eddie,” I snapped at Gordy.

“Okay, Okay, keep your knickers on, Nikki,” Gordy replied. “Sorry, just ignore me, Eddie,” he added.

“Hi, Eddie, don’t you scrub up well,” Angela said, batting her eyelashes in his direction.

He blushed and said, “Hi, Angela.”

“Right, let’s get a drink and then get on with enjoying ourselves,” announced Margo, gesturing for the waitress to come to our booth. Our drinks ordered, we sat and chatted like any group of teenagers on a night out, laughing and joking and making plans for the night ahead. The group had settled into four couples which was intended, but I was a bit uncomfortable with the way I kept catching William looking at my legs and chest. Putting it to the back of my mind, as the group left the café and headed out into the park, to enjoy some of the rides.

The group moved around the different attractions, laughing and joking and enjoying each other’s company. Gordy and Andy decided to go on the Waterslide. We girls deciding that we had no desire to get sprayed with water, we opted out, standing well away from where splashes of water were cascading over the side each time the carriage plunged through the bottom of the steep incline.

Lesley passed the cigarettes around and we all lit up. William and Eddie were about ten feet away from us and once more as I turned, I caught Williams’s gaze upon my person. Margo mentioned that she wanted to go to the toilet so I volunteered to keep her company. Extinguishing our cigarettes in the sand bucket close by, we headed of to the nearest facility. Once inside Margo slipped into one cubicle and me into another; the bathroom was quiet, with only one other middle-aged lady inside. When we emerged we were alone and went to the mirror and opening our bags took out our lipsticks and lip gloss to touch up our make up. “Margo, can I ask you something?”

“Yeah, no problem.”

“Well, it’s just does William know about me? I mean does he know that I’m Craig?”

“Yeah, I explained it to him last night and about what’s going on and he’s fine with it, why?”

“Oh, nothing really. It’s just the way he’s looked at me a couple of times.”

“Listen, Nikki, he looks at all girls like that, so don’t worry.” There, it happened again–someone using Nikki as my real name. I was in danger of losing my identity.

We spent another hour in the park before we all agreed to return to Margo’s. Her parents were away for the weekend and her older brother would most probably stay at his girlfriend’s for the night, so we would have the place to ourselves and Lesley’s devious plan could spring into action.

We all piled into Andy’s car, the girls on each of the boy’s laps, and headed the short distance back to Margo’s. Piling out of the car, Margo got Gordy and Andy to set up a barbecue while we girls got the food out and set up a table with the substantial amount of alcohol that Gordy had somehow managed to provide. It was a still balmy night so we took a Hi-Fi outside and while Andy and Eddie cooked, we girls danced away to a few tunes played by the local record station. Once the food was ready, the guys all grabbed a beer, and we girls, glasses of wine, and we mostly paired of with plates of food for each couple. Margo and Andy at the wooden garden seat, Gordy and Lesley sat at the patio table and Angela and William on the small dividing wall between Margo’s and her neighbours. Eddie and I found ourselves sitting on the three back steps that led into the kitchen.

Once we had finished our food each couple sat chatting to each other. I was sat close in to Eddie, his arm on my shoulders. “Nikki, can I ask you something? It’s likely that after the exams I will be going to University. I’ve applied for St Andrews or Edinburgh so I won’t be around. Can we still see each other during the holidays or maybe you could come through?” he asked eagerly.

“You’ll find lot’s of new girls once you go to University–clever intelligent ones,” I answered.

“I don’t care who I meet I’ve got all I want here,” he said as his lips gently touched the back of my neck and his breath sent tingles down my spine.

“We’ll see,” I said looking into the distance deep in thought. Five minutes later Andy and Gordy were larking about like idiots. In the garden, the music was still playing and I needed the bathroom. Handing Eddie my glass, I got up and said, “Get me another glass of wine babes; I just need to go to the loo.” Taking my bag and walking into the kitchen and upstairs toward the toilet.

I’m not sure why maybe it was because of what Eddie had just said and I wanted some time to clear my head but I let myself out the front door leaving it ajar, walked past the gate that led to the back garden and stood leaning against the garage door. Opening my bag, I took out a cigarette and lit it allowing the cool menthol taste to seep into my lungs and try and relax. The night was quiet and it appeared that we had most of this street to ourselves the light’s were out in nearly all the houses apart from one up at the top of the street.

I had only been there a minute or so when William stepped out the front door. “Ah, that’s where you’re hiding,” he said.

“Oh hi just taking a break,” I said.

“Yeah, me too, Angela can be a bit heavy,” he said as he stood beside me. “You know for a guy you do make a sexy girl.”

“Thanks, but this is Nikki’s last appearance.”

“Pity. Hey, Angela tells me that she done your nails today, I just love girls with long nails,” he said, taking my bag from under my arm and putting it under his arm. I dropped my cigarette and put it out with my foot and offered him both my hands. With lightning speed he produced a half-shut plastic cable tie from behind his back and slipped it over both my wrists, pulling it tight in the process.

“Hemmmph!” as he put a hand across my mouth and pulled me to the other side of the garage and up the small gap between the garage and the neighbour’s wall. With his hand still over my mouth he looked up and spotted some hanging plant pots reaching up he removed one and dropped it on the grass before pushing my hands above my head and slipping my bound hands over the wire pushing me back I could feel the garage wall on my bare back. Removing his hand he looked at me.

“What the hell are you doing?” I said quietly.

Moving his face to within centimetres of mine he said, “I know all about your kind; I’ve read articles and seen a few books on TVs. This is what they want; to be submissive, be tied up and have some guy take advantage of them.” he growled. Startled and scared by his actions I was silent as his hands wandered up my thighs and under my skirt and across my bottom “Well isn’t it? Look at you in your short skirt, tight top and high heeled boots, and made up like a tart; you’re begging for some guy to restrain you and have you aren’t you?” he added, fondling my breast forms.

I was scared and not sure what he was going to do so I just said, “Please let me go, I’ve got a job to do here tonight.”

“Yeah, I know all about that and that’s why I’m about to cut that tie off. Just as well, because if you didn’t, me and you would be getting to know each other a whole lot better by now.” With that he grabbed me by the pony tail and forced his mouth over mine pushing his tongue roughly between my lips and into my mouth. He reached up and took my hands down. Slipping a small pocket knife out of his pocket he cut the tie. “Now run along, Nikki but we’ll do this again, Nikki, and on my terms, I promise you.”

Shaking and nervous I picked up my bag and ran into the house nearly colliding with Margo at the foot of the stairs. As I started to go up, she said, “What’s up? Gordy says it’s time.”

“Yeah, just tell him I’ll be down in a minute. I think I might be going to be sick with the nerves.”

“Well, don’t be long,” she called out as I opened the bathroom door and went inside locking it behind me.

I sat on the edge of the bath and took out my cigarettes lighting one up I sighed and thought to myself this is getting mind blowing. What had started out to be favour for Lesley to get revenge had led somewhere I never had dreamed off. So far I had had a blow job off Lesley, snogged the face of a guy and wanked him off, and then fingered off a girl in her loo before she had sucked me dry, and now I’d had a bondage experience with a guy at a party, and next I was to lure a guy upstairs and have pictures of him taken with my cock in his hand! Inhaling deeply, I knew that the time had come, so I dropped the cigarette in the toilet and flushed it away. Re-applying my lipstick, I opened the door and headed downstairs.

Stepping out into the garden I was met by Eddie “Hey, where you been? I was worried,” he said, handing me the glass of wine I’d asked for.

“Sorry, I was taking to Margo,” I lied, lifting the glass to my lips. I took two drinks and had emptied it. “Get me another, babes.” I added, handing him the glass. Eddie made his way over to the table and I returned to the steps and sat down once .Lighting a cigarette, I waited for him to return. From further down the garden I could see Gordy look in my direction and then point towards his wrist watch. It was time! Eddie returned and sat behind me, his arm slipping around my waist, “You do trust me, don’t you?” I asked.

“Of course I do. I love being with you. I told you the other night, you’re the best thing that ever happened to me,” he said as he placed a gently kiss on my bare neck.

“Good, and you would do anything I ask?”

“Yes.”

Setting the glass down I took his hand and said, “Then come with me, I need to talk to you.”

As he rose and I led him into the kitchen, glancing back I was aware of Lesley tugging Gordy’s sleeve and gesturing with her eyes in my direction as we went inside.

As I reached the bottom of the stairs I broke into a run tugging Eddie behind me “Hey what’s the hurry” he said as I yanked his arm.

“Look, just move!” He started to run behind me. We had one chance: Margo’s house was very similar in design to ours. I knew that her mother’s bedroom window would be adjacent to the garage the gap between the window and the garage roof was only one paving slab we could climb out and drop on the roof. Once we slid down from the garage there was only one house to the right before some waste ground and beyond that there was a wooded area. If we could make it there, then we would be safe.

Pushing Eddie into the room I closed the door behind us and slipped a chair under the door handle. Bending down I unzipped the boots and slipped them off looking around I saw a pair of maybe three inch block heels I picked them up and headed towards the window, opening it as fast as I could.

“Look, what’s going on?” Eddie asked.

“I don’t have time to explain, you said you trusted me; now just do what I ask and follow me out this window,” I said as I began to climb out, tossing my bag and the pair of shoes on to the garage roof. I jumped the short distance and landed as quietly as I could. I could still hear the others in the garden so they had obviously decided to give it a couple of minutes before coming into the house to carry out the plan.

I saw Eddie at the window and gestured for him to follow me twice before he started to climb on to the ledge. Just as he got ready to jump, I could here Gordy say, “Right, gang, we’ve got a goose to cook. Let’s go.”

Eddie landed beside me. “Come on,” I said, “down here.” Leading him towards the edge of the garage I sat down and dropped to the concrete runway with my shoes and bag in one hand. Eddie dropped beside me and at that point I could here Gordy banging on the door.

“Hey! Let me in!” Grabbing Eddie’s hand, I started to run turning right past the last house.

We were past it and on the short piece of waste ground before I could here Gordy bellow out the window “You two are dead meat.”

We reached the trees and just kept on running finally we stopped beside an old farmers building catching our breath I was convinced that we were probably safe. “Care to tell what the hell that was all about” Eddie asked. “It’s a long story” I began.

I told Eddie about the set up meeting between us the plan to have him caught in a compromising situation and the plan to ruin his school career. Interestingly though the one thing I left out was the fact that I was a guy!

“So you were just using me?” he said angrily, stepping away from me.

“Well at first, but I didn’t know you then,” I said, lighting another cigarette.

“So how would l have been compromised found making out in a room with you” he asked.

I had to think quickly “Well, I had to use a dildo on you,” I lied. “Then they were going to tie you up and Margo and Lesley were going to make you up as a girl, take pictures and show them at your school.” Taking a draw from my cigarette I got up and slipped on the shoes I had taken and stepped towards him dropping my cigarette as I went.

“It’s just that since I’ve got to know you, I’ve realised how nice a guy you are. You’re smart, you’re kind and you’ll be successful what ever you do. You don’t deserve having your life ruined for a silly accident that happened weeks ago,” I said as I took his hand and sat on the wall beside him. “And besides I…”

“You besides what?” he asked.

Looking at the ground, I said, “I think I might be in love with you.” Did I just say that? I thought.

“You might be?” he asked.

“No, I am,” I answered.

His arm slipped round my waist and with his other hand he reached towards my head and turned it towards him, “That’s okay then, because I’m in love with you as well,” he said and his mouth moved to cover mine. My two hands on his shoulders, we kissed gently at first, and then as the passion rose our tongues eagerly played with each other.

One hand slid down his firm torso and settled in his groin area kneading at what was a growing bulge as his hand caressed my back and breasts. I unzipped his trousers and slid my hand inside his pants, sliding it along the length of his erection. Breaking the kiss I said, “Stand up a minute,” and as he did so, I hooked my hands either side of his trousers and pants and slid them down, while easing him back against the wall, my new long nails tickling his balls as my mouth moved towards his erection.

I teased the tip of it with my tongue before pushing back the foreskin with my lips and taking it in my mouth. My head bobbing back and forward it was not long before I could feel Eddie tighten and his hand gently on the back of my head. “Oh, Nikki, I love you,” and with that he exploded into my mouth.

We sat on a tree which had been recently cut down me smoking a cigarette and Eddie with his arm around my shoulder. He broke the silence “You’re going to get flak for helping me get away tonight.”

“Yeah, but it was worth it,” I said, smiling at him. Tossing the cigarette away I added, “We’d better get home, it’s getting late.” As I stood up taking his hand we walked towards the end of the wood where we could here traffic.

“I think it might be wise if we took a taxi,” he said. “They might be out looking for us. How much money had you got left? I’ve only got about 4 pounds.”

Opening my bag I checked my purse; “About seven pounds,” I said.

“Well that should get us both home, are you going back home?” he asked me.

“Well, I can’t go back to Margo’s, but I have another friend–I’ll call her.” We had just reached the main road and we looked around for a telephone box. Finding one, I said, “You flag down a taxi and I’ll call her.”

Leaving him I stepped into the phone box and pretended to drop some money in and lifted the receiver and dialled a fake number pretending to speak on the phone while Eddie had just managed to get a taxi. Putting the receiver down, I stepped out of the box. “Did you get her?”

“Yeah, it’s fine. Let’s go.”

We both climbed into the cab. “Where’re you going folks?” the driver asked.

“Mason Street” and then Carver Lane,” I said, as he drove off. About three hundred yards down the street, true to form we saw Andy’s car with Gordy and William inside combing the streets looking for us.

“This will do here, driver,” I said as we approached the end of my street. Stopping, I turned to Eddie.

“When can I see you again?” he asked.

“I’m not sure. Look, I’ll get in touch,” I replied. He eased my head forward and gently kissed me “Goodnight,” I said as I opened the door.

“Goodnight, Nikki, and thanks again for tonight,” he said as I closed the door. As I stepped away from the car Eddie rolled down the window and called back “Nikki, I love you” and with that the car started to drive off.

I slipped off my shoes and walked barefoot down to my house. Now here was a problem; me fully dressed and needing to get back into my own house still wearing Lesley’s stuff. The front of the house was in darkness, so I figured that my mum had gone to bed. Slipping along the path, I looked round the corner and sure enough the bedroom light was on. Going back I knew where my Mother would have planted a key for me, so moving a large ornamental flower pot, sure enough there it was.

Quietly I slipped it into the lock and opened the door, closing it softly behind me, I slipped through into the kitchen and grabbed a plastic carrier bag I also knew that my mother had some nail polish remover in a drawer in the hall so taking that as well I started to climb the stairs.

“Is that you, Craig?” she called as I reached the top of the stairs.

“Yeah, sorry I’m late, we got caught up at Andy’s,” I lied. Her bedroom door was ajar, but she couldn’t see me from that angle. “Is it okay if I take a quick shower” I asked.

“Yes, but don’t be long.”

Relief swamped over me as I edged into the bathroom and locked the door behind me. Stripping off all my fem stuff I took some baby cream from the cupboard under the toilet and a chunk of cotton wool and began to wipe the make up off my face satisfied that I was clean I dumped it in the loo pan and flushed it away.

Starting the shower I stepped in and soaked away the problems of the night. Life was going to be difficult for me in the next week or so, of that I was sure, but deep down I felt that I had done the right thing. Picking up the bag of clothes I wrapped a towel around me and slipped out of the bathroom “Goodnight, Mum,” I called.

“Goodnight, dear, see you in the morning.”

Stepping into my room, I stashed the bag of clothes at the back of my wardrobe, under some of my own stuff and went to bed. Minutes later I was sound asleep and dreaming of Eddie.

I awoke the next day troubled and a bit withdrawn. After breakfast I retired to my room and pretended I was doing some studying. My mother popped her head in early in the afternoon “You okay? Not going out today?”

“No thought I’d do some extra studying,” I said.

“Good for you, dear, it’s nice to see you making a real effort,” she said, leaving me to my thoughts.

A couple of times I rose and stared out the window. At the top of the street, just shaded my some trees, I was convinced that Andy’s car was parked, waiting on their chance to even the score. After dinner I watched some TV and then went to bed complaining of a headache. Sleep was difficult; I watched each hour go by on the clock as I tossed and turned, wondering how I was going to get out of this situation. When my mother came to wake me in the morning I feigned illness.

Feeling my forehead, she said, “You are a bit hot and look a bit peaky. I’ll ’phone the school and let them know you’ll not be in today. Now just get some rest and I’ll give you a call from work.” Satisfied that my ruse had worked, I relaxed and drifted off to sleep.

As we all know however, pulling sickies is only a short term solution and sure enough the next day I found myself leaving for school with a heavy heart and with mostly likely some serious music to face.
I knew that the classes that I had today would mean that I had minimal chance of bumping in to the gang today, and only my first class of the afternoon had Angela in it. As she had really only been a bit part player. During break I was anxious to find out what Eddie’s fate had been and went to look for some of his classmates. Seeing a girl who I knew studied Chemistry with him, I went over and made an excuse that I had borrowed a book from him. She confirmed that he had not been in school yesterday or today and in fact there was a rumour that his dad had pulled him out of school. Relieved that he was spared whatever the group had now dreamed up for him, I was disappointed that I would not see him again. The remainder of the school day passed without incident with only a smug smirk on Angela’s face during class I was relieved that the day was over and started off home.

I was a few streets from my house when I noticed Lesley and Margo hanging around a street corner having a ciggy, anxious to avoid confrontation, and sure that they had not spotted me I turned down a lane which ran adjacent to the street and would allow me to still get home just as quickly. Around half the way down I realised that this was a mistake as Andy appeared from the other side turning around my heart sank as approaching now from the other side were Gordy, Margo and Lesley. Trapped like a rabbit in headlights, I knew that my time had come.

Gordy spoke first; “Hi, Craig, we never got a chance to say goodbye the other night when you vanished with your boyfriend.”

“I can explain,” I said.

“Oh well, that’s nice because we would all like to hear it.”

“I just did not think it was fair to ruin somebody’s chance in life over a small thing like that,” I stammered.

“Well that’s where you and me disagree; you know I’ve always said that I did not think that you were really committed to this group.”

Trying to save my skin, I said, “Well if that’s what you want, then I’ll stop hanging around with you, guys.” Looking around there were nods of agreement.

Gordy began to turn and for one short minute I thought I’d saved my skin. Turning back and moving a bit closer he said, “Oh, there’s just one other thing, I think you might have some items that belong to my girl.”

“Yeah, I’ll drop them over later.”

“No rush, as you might want to wear them the next time you see your boyfriend.” Quickly and with no warning his foot connected with my groin area and my head exploded in stars as I crumpled to my knees. A punch to the side of my head saw me hit the pavement before Andy’s foot connected with my nose and blood flowed freely from the blow. Two kicks to my side and I was beginning to lose consciousness. As I rolled on to my back I was aware of Lesley standing over me and then her foot with her block heels crashed down on my groin. The day went black as I passed out.

I’m not sure how long I had lain there, but I awoke sore and with a raging headache. Touching my face I could feel some dried blood at my nose and some around my eye. My groin felt like that it was on fire and my testicles felt like footballs as I staggered to my feet wincing in agony as a pain flashed through my side.

Stumbling the remainder of the way home I fumbled open the door and lurched into the hall. My mother was in the kitchen and dropped the plate she was drying. “My god Craig, what happened to you? Who did this?” she screamed as she ran towards me.

“Just let me sit down,” I said and she helped me to the sofa, returning to the kitchen. She came back, bringing a bowl of hot water and a cloth. She began to wipe the blood away from my face.

“Was this Gordy?” she enquired.

“Mum just leave it,” I said.

“No, Craig. Look at the state of you. I’m taking you to the hospital to get you checked out.” She put down the bowl and helped me to my feet. Three hours later we were heading back home in a taxi, me with two cracked ribs and plasters over my eye and a whole heap of questions that she wanted answers for. Surprisingly when we got back I was sent to bed and the matter was not pushed any further but I knew that answers would be required sooner rather than later.

The next morning my mother brought me breakfast in bed. “How you feeling?” she asked.

“Still a bit sore, but better than yesterday” I replied.

“Okay. Well eat up, but I’ve taken the day off work so we’ll have a little chat later.” she said, leaving the room. There was nothing else for it; I was going to have to tell her the whole story. She returned about an hour later and pulled up a chair beside my bed.

“So what’s this all about then?” she asked.

“Just a minor disagreement,” I replied.

“Look you don’t get beaten up like that for something minor. It was Gordy, wasn’t it?”

“Yes,” I replied.

“Well, I’ll just go round there and ask him then.”

“No,” I said. “I’ll tell you.” For the next half hour I told her of how I had longed to be part of a group and had felt so alone and how we had got into some scrapes and how I had been coerced into this plot against Eddie, and how I had been dressing as Nikki to frame him. Needless to say, I left out all the weird things that had happened along the way.

She looked at me in wide-eyed amazement at the things I was telling her. “I’m not sure I believe you,”

“See for yourself,” I said telling her about the bag of clothes. She went to the dresser and pulling out the bag she emptied it on the floor there were the shoes I had borrowed, the breast forms, the short skirt, top and lingerie I had been wearing a couple of night’s previously.

“So that’s why you were reluctant to go and get your hair cut?” she said. I nodded. “Oh, Craig, I never knew you felt so alone and to do this only to be part of a group. But in the end, dear, I think you did the right thing. You can’t waste someone’s life over something as trivial as that. Now where does Lesley stay?” she asked, putting all the clothing in the bag. “I’ll let her have it back. It’s okay, I won’t say anything, I’ll just leave it on the doorstep.” I gave her the address and she said, “Get some rest. I won’t be alone."

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To Be Continued...

She pointed, “There’s a bag in the living room for you. I’ve ordered a taxi and it should be here in about five minutes, so go and get it.”

I walked out of the kitchen and into the lounge. A small clutch bag was on the couch. Opening it I saw a small mirror the lipstick and nail polish she had used, a couple of make up brushes, a powder compact and a purse which had around  £100 in it.

Returning I said “What’s all the money for?”

“Spending money. A girl can’t go shopping without enough cash,” she replied.

By Karin Roberts

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There was no question of me returning to school, as my injuries prevented me taking my exams. My mother arranged for me to take them at a local Further Education college during the summer, which made special arrangements for those who were unwell and could not sit them at the time. This was in fact ideal and some valued extra study time allowed me to catch up and prepare better, with the result that by the time I got my actual results through I had exceeded my own expectations. Fully recovered, I enrolled at the same College and began taking a Diploma in Administration Studies. Life was getting back to normal as the Christmas break approached. One day in early December I returned home, and opening the fridge I took out some fruit juice and poured it into a glass. My mother was making dinner by the sink.

“We had a visitor today,” she said casually.

“Oh who?” I enquired.

“Eddie.”

The glass dropped from my hand and smashed on the floor sending juice everywhere.

Grabbing a cloth and a brush she stopped in front of me and brushed up the glass before drying off the floor, while I stood there transfixed to the spot. Finally I spoke, “What did he want? How did he know where I lived?”

“He wanted to see Nikki and he said that he knocked on every door for three streets to find the right address.”

“What did you tell him?”

“Just that I would ask her if she wanted to see him, he left a contact number. So?”

“So what?” I asked.

“Does she want to see him?”

“How can she? She doesn't exist!” I said, sitting down at the table.

“She could though.”

“What do you mean by that?”

“Well I could help you to be Nikki again.”

I stared at her “You don’t mean that.”

“Look, I think you owe him an explanation. Don’t you?”

“Well maybe, but I could do that as Craig.”

“No that would be too much of a shock. At least this way you could maybe just get out of it. Tell him you met someone else or that you’ve changed your mind.”

“Oh this is too much to take in,” I said getting up and heading towards the door.

As I left she said “Oh, and by the way he says he still loves her!”

A couple of hours later I made my way back downstairs.

“Did you really mean what you said about helping me be Nikki again,” I asked.

“Only if you want to dear. I’m not forcing you.”

“Well I suppose it wouldn't hurt, and I do owe him some sort of explanation of who Nikki really is and why we can’t be together. So I suppose I could.”

“Good. I think you're doing the right thing, Craig. You’re a kind and generous person, you did the right thing the last time and I’m proud to have you as my son- or in this case daughter,” she joked, handing me the number. “Now go and call him and make arrangements to meet him.”
I stepped into the hall to call him. Closing the door for some privacy I picked up the receiver and dialed the number. A woman answered.

“Can I speak to Eddie,” I asked.

“Yes I’ll just get him. Who's calling?”

“It’s Nikki.”

“Oh Nikki I’m so pleased you’ve called! Eddie’s done nothing but talk about you since he went to University; He’ll be so pleased. Hang on…”

So Eddie had got in to University. I was pleased for him.

“Nikki it’s so good to hear from you, I’ve missed you."

"How are you? I hear you got in to University, I’m pleased,” I responded.

“Yeah it’s cool, and it’s all thanks to you.”

“Well I’m just pleased I could help.”

"What about you? Did you get in to any trouble with the gang?”

Obviously I could not tell him about getting beat up, so I said, “Well Margo’s really pissed and has not spoken to me since; but I’m at College now doing an Administration Diploma so I don’t really have any contact with her.”

“Good, I was worried about you. Look I go back to University tomorrow, but the Christmas Break is in 5 weeks. Can we meet up during the holidays? I really want to see you.”

“Yeah that would be nice,” I said.

“Where can I call you?” he asked.

“Well I’ve got this number. So when do you get back?”

“I finish on the 10th, so you could call me any time after that.”

“O.k. I’ll look forward to it. See you soon,” I said.

“Yeah see you soon. And Nikki?”

“What?”

“I love you.” And with that he hung up.

Returning to the lounge I told me mother what we had agreed.

“Your doing the right thing dear,” she said.

I gave her a hug and said, “I hope so.”

Nothing was said for a couple of week’s, and then one Friday after dinner my mother said, “You got anything planned for tomorrow?”

“No nothing.”

“Well I thought we could go shopping and get Nikki an outfit," she said. "My stuff is too old for you, we need something younger.”

“O.k.” I responded.

“But you will need to go as Nikki 'cause you’ll have to try things on,” she added.

“I can't do that. Look how short my hair is now.” “I’ll take care of that. Now go upstairs and take a bath. Use my hair removal cream to get rid of the hairs on your legs.”

Going upstairs I ran a bath and rubbed the cream into my legs arms and chest. I was familiar with this process already so the slight burning sensation was no surprise as I slipped into the hot scented water. Around 20 minutes later I emerged smooth and smelling of Chanel body lotion. I slipped into a pair of jeans and a teeshirt and went downstairs.
“Mum, if we go into town tomorrow won’t you be recognised? And if they do they'll wonder why your with a girl and not your son,” I remarked.

“That’s ok, dear, we're going to go to Edinburgh so nobody will know us there.”

Now that scared me a bit. It was ok walking around a small town, but a big bustling city was quite another matter. How would I cope?

“Now go to bed. We have an early start tomorrow.”

My mother woke me around eight dropping the bag of clothes that I had worn on Nikki’s last outing onto the bed.

“I thought you were taking those back,” I asked, surprised to see them.

"No I figured it would be too hard for Lesley to explain how a bag of clothes and a pair of breast forms appeared on their doorstep so I just kept them back, lucky or what.” she said with a smile, adding, “Now just put on the panties and the bra. And I bought some new adhesive for the breast forms. And then come and join me in my room.”

Leaving me to it she closed the door. Obediently I got out of bed and did as she asked. A few minutes later I stepped into her room.

“You’ve got not a bad figure," she joked, "Now come here and I’ll do your make-up.”

Sitting by the dresser she set to work with foundations and powder and brushes. “You know it’s great that you have such good skin for a boy. It makes using make-up so much easier,” she said as she brushed two colours of pink eye shadow on to my eyes before lengthening the lashes with mascara. She topped off the look with a glossy looking pink lipstick, and painting my short nails with a similar shade of nail varnish.

“What about my hair though? It still looks boyish,” I asked.

“Just wait and see,” she grinned. She walked away to her walk in closet and came back with what looked like a hat box. Opening it she took out a long blonde wig.

“Where did you get that? I’ve never seen you wear it before.”

“I borrowed it from a girl at work. Told her that I was going to a fancy dress party in a few weeks” she answered as she fixed it to my hair with a couple of hidden clips. Brushing it out I could feel the curly hair rest about four inches down my back.

“There," she said, "The perfect look.”

Once my nails were dry she handed me a pair of black opaque tights, and said “Put these on, I don’t think stockings are in order for a shopping trip. And then go and put your other clothes on.”

Slipping into the stockings, taking care not to rip them, I padded next door and put on the body suit and skirt. I could tell that they had been washed since I had last worn them, the shoes I had borrowed as we had made our escape had also been cleaned.

Fully dressed I went down stairs to wait on her making myself a coffee and sitting at the breakfast bar I crossed my legs as I had learned in my role as Nikki. Around 15 minutes later my mother came down dressed in a black skirt with her black boots and a red blouse.

“You know walking in here, looking at you all lady like at the breakfast bar, I would never have imagined that you could look so feminine and so much the young lady. Here take these-” she handed me a five bar gate gold bracelet and one of her old watches, a pair of pear drop gold earring’s and a necklace that had Nikki in gold letters on it.

“Where did you get that” I asked.

“I saw it in a charity shop the other day, only 2 pounds. So I thought it was fate and just bought it.” She handed me her Chanel perfume and I sprayed some on my neck and wrists as I had been taught to do.

She pointed, “There’s a bag in the living room for you. I’ve ordered a taxi and it should be here in about five minutes, so go and get it.”

I walked out of the kitchen and into the lounge. A small clutch bag was on the couch. Opening it I saw a small mirror the lipstick and nail polish she had used, a couple of make up brushes, a powder compact and a purse which had around  £100 in it.

Returning I said “What’s all the money for?”

“Spending money. A girl can’t go shopping without enough cash,” she replied.

A car sounded outside. “Take the little leather jacket off the coat rack that should fit you Ok and let's go.”

I picked up the leather jacket and put it on making sure that I took my longer hair out from the collar and let it fall down my back. As I made my way to the door I glanced in the mirror. Nikki was most definitely back, and looking as good if not better than ever.

Twenty minutes later we were on a train speeding towards Edinburgh. The train was not too busy, but as I looked out the window I wondered how I would take to the crowds of a bustling city. Around ninety minutes later I was about to find out as we stepped of the train in Waverley Station, the sound of me and my mother's heels click clacking loudly as we walked along the concrete platform and up the stairs to Princes Street.

About an hour later the buzz of the city had faded and I confidently followed my mother around shops looking for clothes to buy. So far we had managed to pick up a bra and panties set, a pair of black 4 inch stilettos, and a pair of 4 1/2 red inch stilettos that had a t-bar ankle strap. Having been on our feet for a while my mother suggested we get a bite of lunch, so we found a pub that did bar lunches and went in. Locating an empty booth by the back wall we took our purchases and sat down. Looking at the menu the young waitress came over and asked if we would like to order. “Yeah can I have a cheese and salad baguette please. Nikki what about you?” she asked.

“Eh, can I have the Tuna Mayonnaise sandwich platter please,” I said nervously.

“Anything to drink with that, ladies?” she asked quickly.

My mother said, “Yes can we have two large glasses of the house dry white wine please?”

“No problem, I’ll be back in a minute,” she nodded as she left us.

“Mum you ordered me alcohol,” I whispered.

“It’s to help you relax a bit. Look no one has given you a second look and the waitress just said ladies, didn’t she? And the guy sitting in the booth across from us had been watching your legs from the minute we sat down.”

“Mum!” I said, exasperated with her.

“I’m only telling the truth. When you get a chance glance over, you’ll catch him,” she said. Taking her cigarettes and lighter out of her bag she lit up. Waiting a couple of minutes I glanced round and sure enough caught him in the act as he avoided my gaze nervously with a blush.

The waitress returned with our meals and drinks and we proceeded to eat our lunch. Finishing our meal my mother took another cigarette and lit up as we sat sipping our wine. Now my mother was not a big smoker and only really on special occasions, or when out for a drink socially; then she smoked a special brand called More Special Menthol, which are longer and thinner than the average cigarette. I had always found it quite sexy when she smoked. Anyway she must have caught me watching her and said “Nikki, did you start smoking?”

I blushed and looked away.

“You have haven’t you?” she persisted.

“Only on the odd occasion,” I said sheepishly.

Lifting her packet she opened it and held it towards me, “Here, take one.”

I hesitated. She said, “Go on, take one!”

I reached forward and took one of the long slim cigarettes from the pack. She handed me her lighter and I put it to my lips and lit up.

“It’s ok I don’t mind,” she said as I exhaled a cloud of smoke. “We’ll get you a packet of your own when we leave here.”

We paid our bill and left the restaurant. Before I left I could not resist glancing at that guy, once more catching him in the act of admiring my legs and embarrassing him once more. Much happier with myself we resumed our shopping trip.
 
 
Our first stop was a specialist tobacco shop where my mother bought two cases of More SM and a slim gold plated lighter which had a very lady like narrow flame. We moved on to another department store and looked for some more items. I selected a pink jersey top which was split up down the sleeve with only a gold ring holding the sleeve together. There was also a gap just at the chest area which had a similar gold ring pulling it into a ruched effect. This was followed by a figure hugging tight black skirt which came to about two inches above the knee, and finally a red lacy blouse which was practically see through, and which resulted in the purchase of another set of satin red bra and panties.

Leaving the shop I said, “That should be enough. I’m probably only going to see Eddie once or twice at the most to explain.”

Sighing my mother said, “Yes, your probably right Dear. I suppose we should head back to the station.”

As we headed back we passed a particularly expensive designer shop.

“Let’s have a quick look in here” my mother said as she maneuvered my in to the shop. We had been in there for about 5 minutes when she said “Look Nikki. You just need to get that dress, it’s simply stunning!”

Over by the wall on a mannequin was a short strapless dress in black Lycra with an asymmetrical hem, which had narrows a fringe of small beaded strips.
“
I don’t need a dress, and besides I’ve nearly spent all the money”

“Oh please try it on. If it's o.k. I’ll buy it for you. And since Eddie comes back at Christmas there might be some party he invites you to.”

For peace I said o.k., I would try it on.

Getting an assistant to bring one in my size, we both stepped into the changing area and I put it on.

“Oh you look amazing in it. With long evening gloves and the right shoes it would be fantastic,” my mother squealed.

By the time I had handed it to her and changed back, she had plundered the shop for a pair of gloves and another pair of shoes. She also managed to get herself what I thought was an equally stunning tight red velvet dress, which was ankle length but had a split up one side to mid thigh.

Happy that we had all we needed we headed back and boarded the train that would take us home.

Once back home we had a light dinner and I went upstairs to change.

“Don’t change just yet, I’m going to open a bottle of wine. Let’s have a girly night in, a couple of glasses of wine and a few ciggies while we watch TV.”

I joined her in the lounge and she poured me a large glass of wine and tossed me a carton of the Mores. I sat down and opened them, kicked off my shoes and pulled my legs up onto the couch. Opening the first packet I took out the narrow cigarette and with my newly purchased lighter and lit it.

“Did you enjoy today?” she asked as I sipped on my wine, seeing the lipstick mark on my glass.

“Yeah it was o.k., but we bought too much. I mean one meeting with Eddie will probably be enough to explain this to him.”

“Yeah your probably right. But a girl can never be too prepared, and needs the right clothes for what ever comes up” she said taking a drag from her cigarette and blowing a cloud of smoke in the air.

Two or three glasses of wine later and a couple of more ciggies and I was beginning to feel tipsy, so I made my excuses and headed upstairs. As I went she said, “Goodnight dear, and I enjoyed today as well.”

Finally the 11tth December arrived and I called Eddie.

“How are you?”

“Oh it’s great to hear from you Nikki. I’ve been counting down the days to finishing, just to see you.”

“So when do you want to meet up? Is Saturday o.k. for you?”

“Yeah that would be great. We could go for a meal, then maybe a drink,” he said.

“Yeah that sounds good. Saturday around seven then? Look, if there’s any problems you can call me here at 257613…”

“Looking forward to it,” he responded; and with that our meeting was arranged.

“So when is it?” my mother asked as I walked back into the lounge.

“Saturday,” I said.

“Good. I’m not working on Saturday so that will give us all day to prepare.”

I spent the remainder of the week wondering how I was going to break the news to Eddie about Nikki’s true identity. I rehearsed several stories in my mind but the easiest and best was still really just the plain truth.

Saturday came around, and after a light lunch I was despatched upstairs to get ready. Bathing in some scented oil and rubbing on some more hair loss cream, I emerged smooth and smelling lovely. Drying and taping up my maleness, I put on the pair of red lacy panties I had bought, and the glued on my breast forms before encasing them in the matching red bra. I opened a pair of black shear tights and slipped them up my legs before putting on the bathrobe and returning to the bedroom, where my mother sat waiting to do my make-up.

She smoothed on a new foundation she had bought---which seemed to suit my colouring really well---before setting it with a light dusting of powder. She outlined my eyelids with black kohl pencil before brushing on some smokey grey eye shadow, then silver on the top lid to brighten them up. She had just finished my mascara when the phone rang.
“Hang on a sec, I’ll just get that,” she said leaving the room. She returned a couple of minutes later, saying, “That was Eddie.”

I looked up. “He wants to cancel?”

“No, not at all. In fact he just wanted to say that his Mother & Father are coming along to meet you.”

“What,” I cried, “That screws up the whole plan! I can’t confess to him with them sitting playing gooseberry, can I?”

“Maybe they will just stay for the meal and then go. You can tell him after,” she tried to reassure me.

She finished off my make up in silence, applying a dark wine glossy lip-colour which she brushed on expertly.

To complete my transformation I took out the red lacy blouse I had purchased and put it on. I buttoned up the front before taking the short black skirt and tugging it over my hips before zipping it up. I slipped on the new black stilettos that we had bought and took the jewelery that my mother had left on the dresser; and started to put it on. A single pearl ring, a choker with four strands of pearls, the gate bracelet I had worn previously, then her own gold watch (which was an expensive Rotary model but very nice, with a solid bracelet type band), and then a pair of earring’s with a pearl drop.

She had left a black clutch bag on the bed for me, and opening it I found all the usual essentials, including two packs of Mores and my new lighter, with lipstick, tissues and a purse with around  £40 and some change in it. She came back into the room and said, "Very nice, that skirt really hugs the curves. Now lets get your wig on and your nails painted and that will be you."

I had been letting my nails grow and last night my mother had cut and shaped them so by now I had just 3 or 4 millimetres of nail showing above the tip but beginning to look feminine and narrowing my fingers no less. She brushed out the wig and secured it to me head using a couple of clips and a little gum on the forehead cap for extra hold. Painting my nails she told me to stand up, have a look. It came as no surprise that looking back at me from the mirror was and attractive eighteen going on nineteen year old waiting to hit the town.

The process of getting ready had numbed my thoughts a little, and it was only when I returned to the lounge that it struck me that I was about to meet Eddie’s parents.

“Mum I need a drink. I don’t know if I can carry this one off, I’m so nervous. Is it o.k.?” I asked.

“Sure, no problem.”

She went to the fridge and opened a corked bottle of wine. Returning with a glass she handed it to me. I sipped on the wine took a cigarette from my purse and lit up.

“Look it will be fine, Nikki. How many people did we met when we went to Edinburgh. How many people did you meet when you were first seeing Eddie? And anyhow a girl is always nervous meeting a guy’s mother for the first time. I know I was,” she joked, trying to make light of the situation.

“Oh Ha Ha,” I said rather sarcastically, taking another draw from my cigarette followed by a sip of wine. Minute’s later a car horn honked.

“That will be the taxi.” Getting up and crossing to me she kissed me on the cheek and said, “Have a nice time. Now take the coat I bought you yesterday, it’s on the coat rack. And here’s my Chanel perfume."

Spraying some on me liberally she handed me the bottle and I put it in my bag. I crushed out the cigarette and went into the hall. Sure enough there was a short black overcoat on the coat rack which she took down and helped me on with, being careful that my longer hair was pulled out over the collar. Nervously I opened the door the sound of my heels echoing loudly on the concrete, as if they wanted to announce to the whole neighbourhood that I was going out. I walked towards the taxi. Opening the door I got in the back and gave the driver instructions and we were on our way.

Fifteen minutes later the cab was approaching The Lotus Flower, which was probably the most expensive restaurant in the town. Pulling up at the kerb I walked towards the entrance. I knew that there was a small lounge bar where diners waited before being called to their tables, and that was where Eddie said he would meet me. I stepped into the restaurant and into the lounge. I could see Eddie in the corner. His Mother was sitting with her back to me, his Dad side on. Eddie rose and came toward me, “You look lovely.”

“Nervous,” I said.

“Don’t worry, they will love you,” he smiled as he led me towards them.

His Mother and Father got up and turned towards us as we approached. His Mother was an attractive looking lady probably around 5-10 years older than my mother, with deep auburn hair and just the first sign’s of greying. His dad was an equally attractive man with greying hair, and a bit serious looking. His Mother was first to greet me, extending her hand.

“I’m so please to meet you Nikki. Eddie never stops talking about you, he’s mad about you,” she said as I began to blush.

“Don’t. You'll embarrass the girl," his Dad said as he offered me his hand and I shook it.

“Here sit by me dear,” his mother said, making space for me to slip into the booth.

“Would you like a drink Nikki?” Eddie asked.

"Yes please. A glass of Dry white wine please."

“I’ll get these. Same again folks?” his dad asked, and with our nods he headed of to the bar.

I was by now really nervous and opened my bag to take out my cigarettes. Holding up the packet I said, “Does anyone mind?”

“Not at all dear," his mother said, "In fact I’m a smoker myself. I don’t believe I’ve tried that brand, would you mind if I had one?”

I offered her the open packet and she went to take one. I immediately noticed her very long tapered perfectly-manicured nails, which made it difficult for her to get the narrow cigarette from the packet. I moved the packet back and slightly pulled one up.

“Thank you,” she said as I offered her the packet again and she slipped the cigarette out.
Taking one for myself I offered her a light and lit my own nervously, blowing out a big cloud of smoke. Making conversation I said, “I do like your nails."

"I have a friend does them for me. In fact I think I have her card here. She’s just started doing extensions, so if you would like some give her a call it’s not expensive,” she said handing me a card.

“I might just do that,” I said, dropping the card in my bag.

Eddie’s Dad returned with the drinks and I took a sip from the glass began to relax. Me and Eddies mother were smoking and girl chatting away while Eddie and his Dad sat and talked between themselves. Ten minutes later the waiter called for us and we went through to eat, the waiter taking our coats as we left the table and entered the restaurant proper.

Two hours later we had finished our meal and were leaving the restaurant. As my mother had suggested his Mum and Dad had just come for the meal and we were indeed going on for a drink ourselves.

As we waved them off in a cab Eddie said, “There, that wasn’t so bad was it?”

“I liked your Mum, but your Dad's a bit serious.”

"Oh don’t let him fool you. He is like that with everyone but he warms up after you’ve been in his company a couple of times. He liked you anyway.”

"Did he say that?” I asked.

“No but I caught him looking at your gorgeous legs three or four times.”

“Oh quit it” I said, pushing him playfully as he hailed down a cab.

Twenty minutes later we were in a trendy bar in town. I sat down at a booth and lit up a cigarette while Eddie popped off to get us some drinks. Once he was back he said “You o.k.?”

I puffed nervously on my cigarette, “Yeah. There was just something that I wanted to talk to you about.”

No sooner did I say it than- “Eddie, what a coincidence! what are you doing here?”

We looked up and there was a guy with a pretty slim red headed girl.

“Matt and Anne, imagine meeting you here.” Standing up he said come and join” us as he ushered them into the other side of the booth. “Nikki this is Matt he’s studying in the same year as me, and this is Anne who I’ve known since Primary school”

“Pleased to meet you both,” I smiled, shaking each of their hands in turn and detecting a certain coolness when I looked towards Anne. We chatted as a group and I noticed a certain bitchiness towards me by Anne and, in particular, a definite dislike to cigarette smoke as I caught her two or three times making little waving gesture’s when smoke came anywhere near her. We sat for around 3 hours chatting before Matt suggested that we share a cab home together “Yeah that would be fine” Eddie said and Matt went to retrieve our coats from the cloakroom Anne went to powder her nose.

“What’s her problem,” I asked.

“What?”

“She’s been bitchy to me all night.”

“Just ignore her. And anyway you’ve caught her with a couple of shots back,” he joked.

“She definitely fancies you she hangs on your every word,” I said.

“You jealous?”

“No.”

“No, and neither should you be, because I’ve only got eye’s for you,” he said leaning forward and planting a gently kiss on my lips.

“Hey you two lovebirds, quit it," Matt said. As we turned he and Anne were standing with our coats and Anne with a face that could kill!

We managed to catch a cab, and we had just dropped off Matt when Eddie asked, “You wanted to ask me something earlier?”

“Oh it’s not important. It will keep to the next time I see you,” I said as the cab pulled up outside my house. Leaning forward I gave Eddie a slightly longer kiss, knowing all the time that our other passenger was seething in her seat.

“See you later,” I said as I stepped out and waved them off.

Walking up the path I could see the lights were still on, and guessed that my mother had stayed up for a report on the night. Sure enough, when I got in she was sitting with a cigarette and a glass of wine waiting on my return. “Well did you tell him?”

“Pour me a glass of that, will you?” I said as I slipped a cigarette out of the packet and lit it. Sitting on the other chair I crossed my legs and took another draw on the cigarette, looking at the lipstick ring on the filter.

“Well I’m waiting,” she asked again as she placed the glass of wine in front of me.

“No I didn’t tell him."

“Why not?”

“Because I never got the chance,” I said, taking a drink from the glass. “We had the meal then went on ourselves to a bar as you said. But when we got there I was just about to start, when two of his University buddies showed up. We were stuck with them all night and then shared a cab home, so I couldn't tell him.”

“Oh well you’ll get another chance. When does he go back?”

“He goes back on the 31st because his folks are going back down with him to Cambridge, as his Dad’s got a brother near there. They are spending the New Year with them.”

My mother got up, taking my half empty glass and her empty one and filling them up. She offered me a cigarette and took one herself as we both lit up.

“Look I’ve got an idea,” she said.

“What?”

“Well you know that I’m going to a Christmas Eve Party at the Tavern Inn with a girl from work.”

“Yeah?”

“Well there are tickets left. Why don’t I get you and Eddie one, and you two can come as well?”

“But surely she knows you have a son,” I responded.

“Yeah she does, but I’ll make it known this week that it’s a young neighbour and her boyfriend that are coming. She’s never met you and anyway you pass perfectly, don’t you? So what’s the problem?”

“Well that might work, I’ll phone Eddie tomorrow and ask him.” Finishing my drink and cigarette I said, “Well I’m off to get changed and go to bed.”

As I passed she asked, “Nikki, did you like Eddie’s parents and enjoy tonight?”

“Yeah. His Mum’s very nice and his Dad’s quiet but o.k., and the night was fine,” I said, bending and giving her a kiss on the cheek.

“Ok. dear goodnight,” she said as I left the room.

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To Be Continued...

“There’s nothing to talk about. We can never be what you want us to be.”

“Why not?” he responded.

“Because I’m….”

“Yeah, you’re a guy.” he said.

I stopped. “You know?”

“Yeah I know. Now let’s get out of the cold. We can go into the all night café round the corner and talk,”

By Karin Roberts

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The next day I called Eddie and asked him if he would like to go to the party.

“Yeah I’d love to.”

“It’s not going to be a problem with your folks you going out on Christmas Eve?” I asked.

“No not at all. They were raving about you last night, how nice and sensible you were. You made a real impression on my Mum, and as I said last night your legs made an impression on my dad,” he joked.

“Ha Ha,” I said.

“So I’ll see you Friday then?”

“Yeah I’m looking forward to it already,” I said, and hanging up.

“Well is he coming?” my mother asked.

“Yes, he wants to come,” I said, heading back into the kitchen.

“Ok, I’ll call Sandy who’s looking after the tickets and order another two. I’m looking forward to it, should be a good night.”

“Yeah, well just make sure you get your cover stories right,” I said as she went to use the telephone.

On the Wednesday I was sitting at home when my mother came home early afternoon. She made herself a coffee and settled into her chair.

"I was clearing up the stuff you were wearing the other night, and came across this," she said, holding up the card for the beautician that Eddie’s mother had given me. “I think we should get our nails and eyebrows done for the party.”

“But they are permanent,” I said.

“No they're not. If we can trim them the next day no one will tell the difference and your eyebrows will grow back in. Come on, my treat! And I don’t often pamper myself, I’ll get mine done as well.”

"Well, as long as you’re sure,” I said.

“Ok. I’ll make an appointment for Friday morning.

The week passed quickly. At times it seemed that my mother was more excited than me about the coming date. As Friday dawned she was up and about early, and woke me around 9:00am with breakfast in bed.

“Looking forward to tonight dear? I am,” she said as she handed me a tray with some two bacon toasties and some fresh orange juice.

“Yeah, but I’m not looking forward to telling Eddie the truth,” I said. “I have led him on so much, that he’s going to be pretty pissed. And he will have some explaining to do to his family, now that I’ve met them.”

“Oh I’m sure he will cope. He can just tell them you fell out or something,” she said “Anyway eat up, we’ve a busy day ahead…"

Once I finished breakfast I dressed in the white lingerie we had bought during our shopping trip, and the black skirt and pink top and my black stilettos. Once dressed, my mother applied a light make up job to my face and fixed my wig. We collected our coats and were off to the beauty parlour.

Arriving about fifteen minutes later, my mother was attended to by a girl called Linda while I was paired of with Margaret; and hour later I had shaped dyed eyebrows and new false pointy nails about half an inch longer than my finger tips. Leaving the salon we made our way to a local coffee shop where we had a coffee and a cigarette before heading home to prepare for tonight.

For the rest of the day we prepared food for Christmas dinner and generally tidied up around the house, me finding it difficult to handle things with my new longer nails. My mother sent me to have a bath and start to get ready around 4 p.m.

“Remember and use my hair loss cream.” she said as I stepped into the bathroom. I soaked in the bath for around half an hour before returning to my room to start and get ready.

My Mother had left lingerie for tonight lying on the bed. A black lacy under wired bra which was strapless and black lacy panties, neither of which I remember us buying, and a fresh pack of what the packet said was to hold up stockings.

Taping up my dick between my legs, I pulled on the panties and bra before the usual process of gluing my breast forms in place and encasing them in the under wired bra, producing an ample visible cleavage. I opened the pack of stockings, which seemed thinner and glossier than normal, and carefully rolled them up my legs before I settled the gummed lacy top on my thighs. Putting my dressing gown back on I crossed over into my mother’s room.

“Where did this stuff come from?” I asked as I opened my dressing gown.

“Oh that’s just a couple of items I bought on the way home yesterday. Do you like them?”

“Yes,” I said, “But isn't it a bit of a waste of money for one night?”

“Don’t worry. I’ll wash the lingerie and take it back after Christmas, make out it was too small and get the money back. Now sit down. Because remember, I need to get myself ready as well.”

After the application of foundation and powder my eyes were done in a dark wine and pink eye shadow with a purple eyeliner and mascara, my lips were coated with a rich wine lipstick, and some lip gloss applied to give them some sheen. The party dress that my mother had so insisted on buying during our shopping trip hung on a hanger on the closet door. Taking it out of the protective sleeve I slid down the zip and stepped into it.

“Can you help me with the zip?” I asked.

Sliding the bodice over my cleavage, my mother stood behind me and slowly pulled the zip up. "Let’s get your shoes and the wig on, and then you can see the finished article."

I sat back at the dresser and my mother pulled out the wig. She had obviously been working on it because turning it into a cascade of blonde curls. Finally she handed me the pair of shoes that she had bought on impulse after seeing this dress. I opened the box to find a pair of black five inch spike heels with a gold metal heel.

“They are lovely,” I said.

“Yeah I thought they would really suit the dress.”

Stepping into them they were surprisingly comfortable and easy to walk in. A selection of jewellery had been left out for me. A solid choker around one inch high, which I fastened to my neck. I’m not sure what type of stones were in it but they were like clear glass. There was a matching bracelet and a gold watch, and a pair of chandelier-type earrings, very similar in style to the type of thing the women in the TV programmes Dynasty and Dallas might have worn around that time.

Sitting by the dresser, my mother painted my nails in a matching rich wine shade. Waiting for them to dry, my mother went to the bathroom to begin to dress herself. About five minutes later with my nails now dry, I went to take a look in the mirror to see what I looked like.

I was amazed! The dress was absolutely stunning, and the young girl inside it was just as stunning. Leaving the bedroom I called to my mother that I was going downstairs to get a drink.

“O.k. dear, I’ll be down in about 15 minutes,”

I went downstairs and uncorking a bottle of white wine I poured myself a large glass. Taking out a fresh packet of cigarettes I pulled one out and placed it between my lips. Flicking my lighter, the narrow flame appeared and I lit the cigarette. I was now becoming rather nervous. This was the night I had to confess all, how would he react? Would he be angry, blow up and make a scene? I had helped him after all; but God's sake I had sucked his cock dry, and I was a bloke in real life. I sat down taking a large drink of wine to calm my nerves and smoked my cigarette, quick crushing out the remains of it in the ashtray.

A couple of minutes later the doorbell rang. Shit, who was that?

Placing my glass on the table I walked out into the hall. As quietly as possible I called upstairs, “Mum someone’s at the door.”

“Well just answer it. I will be down in a couple of minutes,” she replied. I walked towards the door and nervously opened it. There stood a guy in his mid forties, about six feet tall.

“Can I help you,” I asked.

“Oh you must be Nikki, Carole’s daughter,” he said.

“Eh yeah,” I stammered.

“I’m Robert. Carole’s date, for tonight.”

I stood in silence for a few seconds, wondering what the hell was going on. “Oh yes, you better come in.”

“You are looking stunning tonight, dear. Your Mother’s description of you does not do you justice,” he said.

“Eh thanks” I replied, all the time thinking she had been discussing me as Nikki with this guy. Showing him into the lounge I asked, “Would you like a drink?”

“A beer would be good," he said, and I went to the fridge to get him one. Returning I handed him the bottle and a glass.

“I’ll just see if she’s ready yet. Have a seat,” I said as I left the room and proceeded upstairs.

My mother was still in the bathroom, so I spoke quietly through the door to her, “What the hell’s going on? You said that a girl from work was going with you! And why have you been discussing me as Nikki with this guy?”

“Keep your wig on,” she replied. “Anne had to pull out at the last minute. I did not want you to go alone, and Robert’s been asking me out for ages. It's only a one off. It’s not as if I’m going to get serious about him.”

“But what if he mentions your daughter at work when they all know you have a son?”

“He won’t. He doesn't work with me; he runs the coffee shop where I get my lunch sometimes. Now go down and keep him company for a couple of minutes. I’ll be down in five.”

I went back downstairs and into the lounge. “She’ll be down in a couple of minutes,” I said picking up my cigarettes and taking one for the packet.

“Here let me,” he said as he produced a lighter from his pocket and flicked it into life for me. Placing the tip in the flame I inhaled. I removed it from my mouth, saying, “Thanks.”

“So who is this boyfriend of yours, and how long have you known him?” he asked.

“Eddie.” I replied, “eh only a couple of months.”

"Is it serious?" he asked. He was getting nosy.

“No it’s kind of complicated. I don’t know if it will last much longer,” I said as I sat down and picked up my glass of wine and took a sip. “So how do you know Mum?”

“Oh she comes into my coffee shop, you know. Lunchbox, in the High Street. I’ve been trying to get her to come out with me one time for a while now.”

I nodded acknowledging that I new where it was. Taking a long draw on my cigarette I inhaled craning my head upwards I blew a long thin stream of smoke towards the ceiling. Suddenly I was aware of Robert’s gaze falling on my chest as I did so. A minute later my Mother stepped into the room. She was looking better than she had for years; with the tight red dress she had bought, a pair of five inch red stilettos very similar to mine, and a wrap round silk lacy shawl over her shoulder. She had put her hair up in a much more modern style and was wearing far more make up than I think I had ever seen her wear before.

Robert got up to greet her. “You look gorgeous, Carole.”

“Thanks. You look well yourself,” she replied as he gave her a quick peck on the cheek.

“You look great Mum,” I said from the chair.

“Thanks dear. I think we’ve got time for one drink before we need to leave,” she said, taking my glass and pouring another glass of wine for me and one for herself. “Would you like another beer Robert?”

“No I’m fine with this,” he replied. She sat down and picked up her ciggies, and as with me Robert was quickly on the scene to offer her a light.

We sat and chatted for about ten minutes, me explaining to Robert that I was at college doing Admin, and my mother telling him about her work. Just as chit chat was running a bit dry there was the sound of a car horn outside.

"That’ll be the cab! Nikki your gloves and coat are on the bed," she said, "Bring mine down as well.”

I picked up my bag and went upstairs to collect the jackets. On my bed I was shocked to find a short white fur coat along with my long black satin evening gloves. Pulling them on, they reached the middle of my upper arm. Crossing the landing I found a black fur coat the same length as mine, which I picked up and took downstairs. Handing it to my mother she put it on, and we went out to the waiting cab.

It was a short cab ride to The Tavern Inn where the party was being held, and as we pulled up I spotted Eddie standing near the entrance. He looked really smart in a black suit with a light mauve shirt and tie. My mother and I stepped out of the cab as Robert paid the driver and I walked over to Eddie. He had a huge smile on his face as I approached.

“You look a million dollars,” he said, leaning forward and kissing my cheek.

“You look smart yourself. Shall we go in?” I asked.

He took my arm and let me to the entrance. Finding our reserved table the four of us sat down. Robert summoned the waitress and to my horror it turned out to be Angela, one of the gang from school. She approached and took the order.

All the time I felt as if her eyes were boring into me, but she made no comment and left to get the drinks. I gently kicked Eddie under the table and gestured my eyes in Angela’s direction. He reached over, took my gloved hand and gently gave it a reassuring squeeze, mouthing silently, "Don't worry it will be o.k."

Returning with the bottle of champagne, Angela put the ice bucket on the table and left four glasses. I was sure she winked at me as she turned and left.

The night had got off to an uncertain start for me, but after a couple of glasses of champagne I was beginning to relax. My mother offered me a cigarette, which I took and lit with my lighter. Both me and her were chatting, me explaining about Angela quietly and her reassuring me. Eddie and Robert were talking football amongst themselves as another bottle of champagne arrived. As both of us gently inhaled on our cigarette at the same time, I saw Robert look across at Eddie and say, “Eddie my man, what luck guys we are to be sitting here with the two most beautiful women in this hall.”

“I could not agree more Robert. We are the luckiest men alive!”

“Quit it you couple of flatterers; and take these girls up to dance,” grinned my mum, crushing out her cigarette. Robert offered her his hand and led her to the floor, as did Eddie to me, and we closely followed.

My head was spinning as we danced slowly to the band; whether it was the effects of the champagne, or the closeness of Eddie---the touch as his hand where it supported my bare back as we danced around the floor---or if it was the secret I had to reveal to him before the end of the night…

The night went quickly and in no time at all we were on the countdown to Christmas. As the assembled group counted down from ten we sat counting with them, hand in hand with each other waiting on the clock chiming. As the hour arrived the general greetings went from person to person, handshakes and kisses traded between friends and strangers, as is custom. In time all settled down and once again we returned as a group to the dance floor.

A slow dance was playing and Eddie held me close, my head lightly resting on his shoulder. He leaned forward and kissed me on the lips. I responded at first but then gently pulled back.

“What’s wrong?” he asked.

“Look, we need to talk. And I need the toilet. Meet me outside in the entrance lounge in about five minutes,” I said as I slipped out of his arms, and picking up my bag went to the ladies room.

I could not miss the sight of my mother and Robert kissing strongly and passionately out on the dance floor as I went into the toilet. Inside, I slipped into one of the stalls and took deep breath. Now was the time. Finishing my business I touched up my make—up and went out the other exit into the entrance lounge. Eddie was not out yet, so I took out a cigarette and lit it, inhaling nervously. As I waited for him to arrive I gazed out of the window at the lightly falling snow.

The scene would have been really romantic if we had been a normal couple but we were not. Unaware of Eddie’s approach, I knew nothing until his two hands slipped onto my waist and his lips gently kissed my neck. “Hi gorgeous, what did you want to talk about?”

I stepped away from him. Dropping the cigarette, I crushed it out with the toe of my shoe. I began, “Eddie I need to tell you something. It’s about me, and it’s difficult. I do care about you and would never want anything to happen to you, but we can’t be together at least not in the way you think.”

“Why not?” he asked.

“Well you know that me and you getting together was a set up.”

“Yes.”

“Well there’s more to it than that you see, I’m-” I stopped.

“You're what?”

"I’m-” At that point he put a finger to my lips and I stopped again.

“Wait,” he said as his hand came from behind his back and produced a small box. Opening it, I saw a gold ring split into two narrow bands, at the top of which was mounted a rather large diamond. He said, “This is for you. I want us to get engaged.”

I stood transfixed like a rabbit in headlights for a few seconds, tears beginning to well up in my eyes. I pushed past him and quickly went to the cloak room. Collecting my fur jacket I slipped it on and made my way towards the door as quickly as I could in these high heels. As I walked down the steps and crossed the car park out on to the main road I heard Eddie call, “Nikki come back! Please, we can talk about it.”

Tears began to flow as I continued my flight down the street and away from the inn.

As I walked down the road I realised that it probably was not safe to be out walking at this time, dressed as sexily as I was and in drag. I really should have got a cab but there were none in sight so I continued to walk, heading back in the direction of home.

I had gone another 100 yards when I heard the sound of some drunken revellers coming to meet me. It sounded like a mixed group but I had no wish to meet them. Besides the fact that I was a guy in drag they would probably notice that I had been crying, as my mascara had run down my face. Not wishing to come into contact with them I ducked into a bus shelter and waited for them to pass.

They passed by the back of the shelter, not noticing me. I stayed put, lighting a cigarette and waiting for them to move off. As I calmed down my heart rate began to slow. This had gone way too far, I thought.

I was just about getting ready to leave when I heard footsteps approach. Backing into the shelter 'til they went away, I waited. As they got nearer they stopped, and suddenly Eddie appeared at the entrance.

“Go away Eddie,” I said.

“No. We need to talk.”

“There’s nothing to talk about. We can never be what you want us to be.”

“Why not?” he responded.

“Because I’m….”

“Yeah, you’re a guy.” he said.

I stopped. “You know?”

“Yeah I know. Now let’s get out of the cold. We can go into the all night café round the corner and talk,” he said reaching for my hand. I refused but followed him anyway.

As we entered the café they must have wondered what the hell we were doing there all dressed in our evening clothes. The clientele that were present, a couple of down and outs sheltering from the cold over a cup of warm coffee, and a trio of taxi drivers enjoying a break before going back out on the road. I went straight to the ladies room to touch up my make —up, and Eddie went to the counter to get served.

Having fixed up my face, I returned to the café and found that Eddie was seated in a remote booth away from the other customers, with two piping hot mugs of coffee. I sat down beside him. Opening my bag I took out my cigarettes and lit one.

He began, “After our last night together I just could not get you out of my mind, so I decided that on my first return from university I would get in touch with you. The trouble was that you told me you stayed in Hamilton, and I went to look for you. I walked the street each day hoping that I would spot you, but of course I couldn't find you.

"Then by chance I happened to bump into Angela. Now although she was part of the group any time I met her alone she was always nice to me, so I plucked up the courage to ask where I could find you. She told me the whole story about who you really were and that you were in fact Craig. I was shocked at first, but the longer I thought about it the less I cared and the more I just wanted to see Nikki again. You see, I have never been popular with girls but we gelled from the first minute, and I know you’re not a real girl but the thing is I still love you. I’ve thought about you constantly. I’ve missed you your company your kindness, your touch, your sense of humour- everything! I just needed you back.”

Stopping him, I said, “Yes, but what about our families? Your Mum and Dad, my Mother; what are they going to think?”

“Do they need to know? Your Mother seems quite cool about it. When I went to see her I told how I felt, and some of the things we had done like kissing, et cetera. I didn’t tell her about the last night, but she agreed to float the idea with you and see if you would play ball, and you have. And as for my Mother she’s done nothing but talk about you since we went for that meal. 'When are you seeing Nikki again? When are you going to bring her over?'”

Taking my hand he said, “Look, you’ve had your nails done your eyebrows done. Doesn’t that tell you something? That you like being Nikki, and furthermore you like being with me?”

“I need to go to the loo. Hang I’ll be back in a minute,” I said. Excusing myself and walking towards the toilet I went in, my mind deep in thought.

I stood looking into the mirror at the reflection staring back at me. A couple of things were beginning to fall into place now. My mother’s enthusiastic approach to our shopping, the salon visit, the introduction to Robert …..… It was as if she was pushing me in the direction of being Nikki. But is that where I wanted to go? I certainly liked being with Eddie, and I had cooperated with everything right from way back in the beginning with Gordy and Lesley. Nothing had been refused, every change they had implemented I went along with showing little resistance. But why?

I opened my bag and took out my lipstick. Rolling it up I applied some more of the deep wine lipstick on my lips. Smacking them once---as I had learned to do---I was finished. I began brushing out my hair.

Eddie was right, I did like being Nikki. The attention I got, the looks from men and the enviable looks I got from women were something that I had subconsciously noted but not really thought about. I sprayed some perfume on my neck and wrists and some on my cleavage, another clearly feminine gesture that I had learned over the last few weeks. When not dressed as Nikki I had even found myself standing like a girl, with slightly bent knee, and crossing my legs when I sat down. Closing my bag I went back out into the café.

I returned to the booth. Once I was seated, I lit another cigarette and looked at Eddie. He had the same look in his eyes as before he knew I was Craig, the same smile as he looked into my eyes.

“This is crazy. We could never pull this off forever,” I said.

“Yes we can,” he replied. “Nikki I need you, I want you with me.”

“But what about sex?” I whispered.

“Sex isn’t everything. We get on well; we enjoy each other’s company. That’s enough for me.”

“Is it? You're sure?”

“I would not be sitting here if it wasn’t,” he said. His hand moved towards his pocket and once again produced the jewellery box. Opening it once more he said, “Well what’s it to be? Will you be my partner Nikki?”

Before I could stop myself the answer was “Yes”, and he put the ring on my finger.

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To Be Continued...

"You know that you will need to live as Nikki for a couple of years before you can undergo surgery, and will have to take hormones to develop your chest and general shape,” Mother reminded me.

“That’s o.k. …… I mean Eddie’s got another three years to go at University, so by the time he graduates Nikki will have been born.”

“You know, I think you are making the right choice. I mean it’s not as if I didn't love Craig, but I always felt that although you were born a boy you had a strong feminine side. Just the way you acted at times, and how easily you can get emotional over things. I think I’m going to like having Nikki as my daughter,”

By Karin Roberts

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We left the café and walked hand in hand back to the party.

“Where have you two lovebirds been for the last hour?" my mother said with a smirk.

“Oh just chatting,” I said. “Can I see you for a minute Mum?”

I walked back towards the foyer with her following me. Once outside she said, “What happened?”

“I think you probably have a fair idea,” I said, peeling of my glove and pushing my hand towards her.

“Oh my God, he asked you to marry him?”

“No, not really. He just wants me as his partner, but then you already knew that.” I said.

“Well when he came looking for you and told me all that had been going on, I just wondered if you felt the same way; and so I gently encouraged you to see how it would turn out.”

“I think there was more than gentle encouragement. The extra clothes you bought, the salon trip, you springing Robert on me. You backed me into a corner,” I answered.

“Well you can still get out of it,” she said.

“Yeah I know, but at the moment I don’t want to,” I said.

“O.k. lets get back to the guys. We can talk about this more soon,” she said. I pulled my glove back on and we went back to the party.

Around 4 a.m. we all decided we'd had enough, and Robert ordered a cab.

As we drove Eddie home, he said, “Nikki, you and your Mother are invited for dinner at my place tomorrow.”

My mother piped up, “Oh I’m sorry Eddie, but me and Robert have something planned for tomorrow night. But Nikki would love to come, wouldn’t you dear?”

“Yes, I can go,” I answered , drawing her a startled look. It was the first I had known that she had something planned.

“Fine then. Nikki see you around seven darling,” Eddie said.

As the car pulled to a stop, Eddie leaned over and kissed me on the lips. He got out and walked up the path, as I waved from the departing cab.
 
 
Once back home, I decided to leave Robert and my mother alone. I went upstairs, grabbing an ashtray from my mother’s room and went into my bedroom. Opening the window a little, I lit a cigarette and looked out at the moon. Lifting my hand in front of me I saw the long painted nails, and my eyes moved downward to the diamond ring on my finger. I still could not believe that I had said yes, and I was still worried about how we were going to pull this off or indeed If I fully realised what I had just agreed to. Finishing the cigarette, I decided to see if Robert had left so that I could have a further chat with my Mother.

Opening the door I stepped onto the landing. To my left I could hear noises, and soon became aware that instead of leaving Robert and my Mother had gone to bed with each other. Quietly I slipped downstairs and poured my self a large glass of wine. Sitting in the living room I lit one of my mother’s cigarettes, and a plan began to form in my head.

The next morning I rose early. Aware that Robert might still be here I darted across the hallway and locked myself in the bathroom.

My Mother’s make-up bag was there, I figured that I had watched enough of people making up my face that I could probably do a good job myself; so I squeezed out some foundation and massaged it into my skin. A quick dusting of powder, a little mascara, a touch of silver eye shadow on my eyelids and some of the wine lipstick from my own bag, and I was ready to get dressed.

I slipped out of the bathroom and back across to my room where I had slept in the breast forms, so there was no need to reattach them. I put on a pair of black lacy panties, a matching bra and some tan stockings. I put on my knee-length short black skirt and my pink top before I pulled out the pair of white mule slippers that I had borrowed from my mother the previous day. Finally I pulled my blonde wig back on and with a look in the mirror set of for the kitchen.
 
 
Once downstairs, I made myself a coffee and sat at the breakfast bar with my coffee and a cigarette, glancing through one of my Mothers women’s magazines. Life was certainly beginning to change for me, and I was surprised by the interest I was taking in fashion and the articles in the mag. Around ten minutes later my Mother came down…

“Morning Nikki. Sleep well?”

“Did you?" I asked with a wry smile.

“Eh yes, sorry about that.”

She poured herself a coffee and sat beside me. “So are you still o.k. with what you decided last night?”

I looked down at the ring and said, “Yeah. I had a long think last night. And I think I’ve come to the right decision, if you’ll back me.”

“And what’s that?”

“Well if I’m going to be Nikki then I want to really BE Nikki,” I said.

“What? You mean change sex?”

"Yes, it’s the only way I can make it work. Will you support me?”

She nodded, “Well sure darling. It’s a big step, but if that’s what you want of course I will!”

“Well that’s what I want.”

“O.k.” she said pouring out another cup of coffee, “I’ll just take this up to Robert and then you and I are going shopping.”

“You mean he’s still here?" I asked.

“Yeah, he’s sleeping like a baby. I think I tired him out,” she said with a smile as she left the room.

About half an hour later I went upstairs to collect a coat and bag for our shopping trip. I could hear giggles from my mother’s room where the door was slightly ajar. Moving over I could see my mother dressed and ready to go, leaning over the bed.

“Can’t you just come back to bed?” asked Robert as he opened a couple of buttons on my mothers blouse and slipped his hand inside massaging her breasts.

“No, I need to go shopping with Nikki and get her something to wear for tonight. You go home and get changed, and come back around 7:30. We'll have the house to ourselves and we can play then,” she said, her hand moving under the bedclothes and towards his groin area, where it was apparent she was massaging his penis.

“You are an awful tease,” he said. “I kind of like it,” he groaned as her hand moved.

“Well I promise it will be all action tonight,” she said, standing up straight and re-buttoning her blouse.

Embarrassed---but happy the she now had somebody---I went to my room and picked up the bag I had last night, before descending the stairs and collecting a short leather jacket of my mothers from the coat stand.

Two hours later we had plundered Boots Chemist, buying up all sorts of facial products and perfumes lipsticks, eye shadow, mascara, foundation, powders, face creams, moisturisers, two or three different perfumes- the works. We had also bought a good deal of lingerie in all colours and styles, and we were ready for a break. Spying a local coffee shop, we stopped and went inside. Sitting near the window, we ordered a coffee and a sandwich while we chatted over a cigarette.

“So you really want to go through with this?” my mother asked.

“Yes I do. I love Eddie and I would not be comfortable in the role unless I became a full fledged female," I replied.

"You know that you will need to live as Nikki for a couple of years before you can undergo surgery, and will have to take hormones to develop your chest and general shape,” Mother reminded me.

“That’s o.k. …… I mean Eddie’s got another three years to go at University, so by the time he graduates Nikki will have been born.”

“You know, I think you are making the right choice. I mean it’s not as if I didn't love Craig, but I always felt that although you were born a boy you had a strong feminine side. Just the way you acted at times, and how easily you can get emotional over things. I think I’m going to like having Nikki as my daughter,” she said as the waitress approached with our order.

Finishing our lunch off with a cigarette we headed of to find something suitable for Nikki to wear tonight. This time I was obviously much more picky as I was fully behind this trip; Trying on lots of dresses in various shops before we eventually stumbled upon a short red dress, which was very tight and had spaghetti straps that attached to the dress at back and front through a thin gold metal ring.

“Oh this is stunning! I need to have it,” I cried, racing to the fitting room to try it on. It was a touch too tight for my current figure, but I figured with the little waist clincher I still had, it would be no problem. So with it safely tucked under my arm I set about finding some shoes to suit, and in no time we had located a pair of red leather four inch heel stilettos which had a thin ankle strap. Pleased with both items, I headed of to the cashier to pay.

While I had been busy finding a dress and shoes my mother had been off buying up a couple of other skirts and blouses, along with some ladies jeans and tee-shirts. Weighed down by bags, we decided to head home and have a break before what I knew was going to be a nervous night for me, and---from my mothers earlier conversation---she knew would be a pleasurable one for her.

Returning home I took a bath. Filling it with one of my new scents and smearing hair removal cream over all my body, I slid in and soaked in the hot scented water. Emerging beautifully smooth, I walked into my bedroom and opening one of my new purchases took out a red lacy bra and matching thong. With my maleness secured away, I slipped in to the underwear, my breast forms had been attached all day, and in truth felt very much a part of my own body now. Grabbing the small waist clincher from the cupboard, I put it on and tightened it slightly, bringing my wait down an inch or so to accommodate the new dress. I took out a pair of new tan tights and slid them over my smooth legs. Lifting the dress from the hanger I pulled it on. The waist clincher had done its job and it now fitted well in all the right places.

Picking up my shoes I walked across to my mother’s room for some more make up instructions. Under her watchful gaze I applied my own make up, with her correcting me if I went wrong. Half an hour later I had applied blue eyeliner and eye shadow, dark blue mascara and a light dusting of rouge on my cheeks, finishing of with some pillar box red shiny lipstick.

I put on my new shoes and sat at the dresser as my mother repainted my nails in a red nail varnish that matched my lips, before once more fitting my wig securely to my head. With my gold necklace with "Nikki" on it, and a couple of borrowed gold bangles and hoop earrings, I was ready to face Eddie’s parents for the second time.

An hour later I was stepping out of a taxi in front of Eddie’s impressive house. Walking up the path I rang the bell and awaited a reply. Seconds later Eddie arrived at the door.

“Stunning as always,” he said, looking me up and down as he escorted me into the house. We were no sooner inside than his mother descended on us, rushing towards me and hugging me tightly.

“Oh I am so pleased! Eddie told us about the engagement let’s see the ring” she said excitedly. I held my hand up. She took hold of my hand and looked at the gleaming ring. “Oh, it's so lovely!”

Eddie’s father appeared walking over he said, “Congratulations my dear. Welcome to the family” as he bent and kissed me on the cheek.

“Let’s go through dinner is about to be served,” his mother said, taking my arm and leading me into the dining room. The room was rather grand and held a full table set out for six people.

“Oh, Eddie’s brother and his partner will be joining us for dinner. I hope you don’t mind,” she said.

“No, not at all," I responded, nervously unprepared for this, as up until then I did not even know he had a brother.

Minutes later Eddie’s brother Chris joined us, and to my surprise his partner turned out to be a guy called William!

After an excellent dinner (which surprisingly was served by a maid, indicating a certain degree of affluence in the family) the four men retired for a game of snooker, while me and Eddie’s Mother went into the lounge area.

“You know Nikki, I was so exited last night when Eddie told me about you and him. I shouldn’t really say this but with Chris being gay I was worried that I would never get the chance to be a grandmother. But now you and Eddie are together, my wish might come true yet.”

Blushing nervously I said, “Thank you, but that’s still a long way off.”

“Oh yes, I know. Sorry if I seem to be rushing things, but as I said I’m so exited.” She exclaimed as she passed me a glass of champagne and offered me a cigarette. Taking it I opened my bag and took out my lighter. Flicking the narrow flame into life, I lit the cigarette and offered his mother a light as well.

“Thanks. Oh I see you took my advice and got your nails done. Was it at the salon I suggested?”

“Yes, I’m not really used to the length of them yet but I’m getting there,” I replied.

“I always think it shows good character if a woman has long nails. It shows that she pays attention to the little things, and likes to look presentable. And you my dear are a picture of beauty!”

For the next hour or so we sat chatting about all manner of things. I learned that Eddie’s dad was surgeon and his mother had been a nurse before they met, that they holidayed every year in the Caribbean and had a second holiday home in the South of France. Clearly as I had assessed earlier they were substantially wealthy. The men rejoined us and we sat in the lounge chatting and having a couple of drinks. I asked if I could use the bathroom and Eddie agreed to show me where it was, escorting me upstairs. It was the first chance we had had to be alone all night and I was eager to speak to him!

“It’s just in there,” he said pointing to a room at the end of the hall.

I turned to face him, and backed to the wall as he moved forward towards me. His hand came to rest on my waist and the other encircled my waist from the other side. Pulling me towards him, we kissed slowly at first- bells ringing in my head and my knees going weak with his touch! As the passion rose I could feel the blood pumping furiously through my body and the heat between us increase. Finally I broke the kiss.

“Well you appear to have warmed to the idea," he smiled as my hands came to rest on his shoulders.

“I have," I said, "But I've also done a lot of thinking since last night.”

“Oh, and what have you come up with?” he asked.

"Well for one thing, I’ve just been chatting to your mother, and it’s obvious that she sees kids for us on the horizon. Hardly likely, is it? And for another, I still don’t think I can pull this off.”

“Sure you can. The whole family’s crazy about you,” he replied.

“Well how would you feel if I really became Nikki?” I asked.

“What do you mean?”

“Well what if I was to change sex” I asked.

“You mean the whole hog?" he said in a surprised tone, "You would do that for me?”

“Well I would not just be doing it for you. I would be doing it for me, and ultimately for us. And I know it’s really what I want.”

“If that’s what you want, then I’m so happy! Oh Nikki, I really love you and I just know it’s going to work out,” he said excitedly before resuming the kiss.

The remainder of the night passed without incident, with Eddie constantly by my side, touching and smiling at me every chance he got.

Around midnight Eddie ordered me a cab, and as we waited in the hallway for it to arrive he squeezed my hand gently and said, “You know, I'm so lucky to have found you.”

“No, I think I’m the lucky one. Because you have given me a life I might never have known. You know when I used to watch the others bully you I knew how you felt. I'd had it rough when I was younger, and was an outsider too. But now you make me feel more wanted and loved than ever, so I think it’s me who should be thanking you,” I said softly as I leaned forward and kissed him on the lips.

“Let’s not disagree. Let’s both be happy that we found each other, and that we have a lot to look forward to in the future,” he replied.

“Yeah, I can be happy with that,” I said as we kissed again, and outside a car horn sounded.

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To Be Continued...

Given that we were moving towns, I chose to move to the college and we made an appointment to see the Principal of the college.

We met with him and explained the situation: That I was transgender and that I wished to continue studying, but as Nikki. He was very understanding, and my grades had been sufficiently good at my previous college that he was happy to offer me a place. With that off my mind it was time for us to settle down and make arrangements for the move.

By Karin Roberts

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Around a month later I had my first appointment with a Gender Reassignment Consultant. My mother and I had to embellish the truth a little and say that I had been cross dressing for years and not just a few months. With that out of the way, a few month’s later I began hormone treatment.

I was finishing off my first year at College as Craig and dressing as Nikki in the evening and weekends. I was in regular contact with Eddie, updating him on how the treatment was going and keeping our long distance relationship very much alive. I was getting closer and closer to his mother, Louise ; going on frequent weekend shopping trips with her. I felt rather embarrassed, as she spent lots of money on clothes, shoes, make up, etc., and I would often try to get her not to buy me stuff. But the answer always came back the same: “If you can’t spend your money on your own family, then who can you spend it on?”

Eddie would reassure me during our long telephone calls that I should just take what she bought without question; Saying that I was a substitute for the daughter she had never had, and that our trips were valuable retail therapy for her, as she was often quite lonely in what (up until now) had been a family of men. Very soon I had a bursting wardrobe, with clothes and shoes for every occasion imaginable. Casual, smart, formal- You name it I had it!

Elsewhere, my Mother’s relationship with Robert was blossoming and they were now very much an item. Robert had never know me as anything else than Nikki, and as far as I was aware my Mother had never told him that I was really a boy undergoing a sex change. So he treated me very much as his girlfriend's daughter; taking me to the pictures, asking if I missed Eddie, taking me and my Mother shopping …… all the thing’s that a normal family would do.

My Mother too was blossoming. Gone was the hurt, which I had never really noticed before, that my Father had inflicted on her. She was taking much more care in her appearance, she was more outgoing, and I think having me around helped as well. As with a daughter, she could now share her feelings with, more than she had been able to do with Craig. Our conversations now revolved around fashion, make up, cooking, love story books, and our activities were all the Mother daughter type activities. All in all everyone was bearing up well.

As my first year at college came to a close there were some doubt’s beginning to surface after all. I had now made a group of friends at college. So how would they react to Nikki coming back next year? As the changes in my body were beginning to become noticeable there was no way that Craig could return next year.

As luck would have it, my Mother received a promotion in her job, which meant that she was moving to work to a town a few miles away. This was also closer to Robert. So after discussing it with me she decided to move in with Robert, and me along with her. Given that we were moving towns, I chose to move to the college and we made an appointment to see the Principal of the college.

We met with him and explained the situation: That I was transgender and that I wished to continue studying, but as Nikki. He was very understanding, and my grades had been sufficiently good at my previous college that he was happy to offer me a place. With that off my mind it was time for us to settle down and make arrangements for the move.

Eddie’s mother was a bit less happy, as it meant that we might not be able to spend quite as much time together. But I reassured her that our shopping trips would continue, and this seemed to please her no end.

It was during one of those shopping trips, a few weeks after we'd moved, that I thought that my cover was going to be blown.

We had just finished shopping in some stores in town. As usual, Louise had lavished gifts on me. Clothes, shoes, make-up; thing’s that I barely needed. Having been out all afternoon, we headed for a local bar to grab a drink before I headed off home. We entered the bar and found a booth at the back.

Putting down the parcels, Louise announced that she needed to visit the ladies so I went over to the bar to get us a glass of wine.

I never noticed the guys at the bar but as I ordered the two glasses of wine from the barman I glanced to my right. To my horror there stood Gordy and Andy, with some other guys I did not know.

Before I could avert my eyes, Gordy looked at me and said, “Hello darling, don’t I know you from somewhere?”

“No I don’t think so," I mumbled as I picked up the glasses, and with a quickly beating heart headed back to the booth.

Sitting down I picked up my bag and took out my cigarettes. Nervously lighting one and inhaling deeply, I blew a cloud of smoke into the air. Staring at the table I hoped that that was the end of it, and he would just leave it at that. Some chance!

A minute or so later he stepped across the bar and slid into the booth beside me, asking me, “I’m sure I know you from somewhere. Did you go to The Grammar?”

“No,” I said quietly. His arm slid along the back of the booth and rested on the wood panel.

“Well I think we really should get to know each other,” he said, moving slightly closer to me as I tapped ash nervously from the end of my cigarette. As he moved closer his hand strayed towards my knee, coming to rest on it. I froze at his touch as he gently massaged it.

“And what do you think you are doing young man?” came the noise from behind him as Eddie’s mother returned from the bathroom.

“Beat it grandma, I’m just getting to know this little fox.”

“Well you thug, that 'little fox' as you call her is engaged to my son! So just take your hand off her leg and get away from her!”

“O.k., o.k.! Keep your wig on," he replied as he stood up. Turning to me he winked and said, “Some other time then Babe, when grandma’s not around-” and walked away with a smirk on his face.

“Are you o.k. Nikki?” she asked as she sat down beside me.

Still unsettled by my run in with Gordy I took a large drag on my cigarette and said, “Yeah, I think. Can we just leave?”

I finished my glass of wine in one go. She did likewise, and we got up to leave.

“See you sometime Babes.” called out Gordy as we walked to the door. And rubbing his groin area with his hand he leered at me,

“Oh, and Grandma? I'd probably do you too if I had another couple of drinks!”

As the door closed behind us she huffed , “What a disgusting young man! You don’t really know him, do you?”

“No. I’ve seen him somewhere before, but I don’t know who he is,” I lied as we walked to the car.

In the safety of the car as we drove home I realised just how far Nikki had now come. Here was a guy who just over a year earlier had been a friend, and had beaten the shit out of me, yet he had failed to recognise the new me. If he had known that it was Craig he was trying to pick up, and had been groping his knee, then he would probably have inflicted grievous bodily harm and then some!

A wry smile crept over my face as we approached home. Nikki was really taking shape and her new life was firmly on track! As we approached the anniversary of my engagement to Eddie, Nikki’s body was really developing . I had developed a size 38 bust and my waist was narrowing.

In general; my skin seemed softer, my hair had now grown to just below shoulder length and was very thick and luscious. Several colourings had now led to it being a golden blonde in colour. I had grown used to having long nails, and I seemed to increase the length of them by a fraction with each visit to the beauty parlour.

All in all I was happy with my progress, as was the doctor overseeing my transition to female. I had a group of girl and male friends at college who accepted Nikki without any doubt that she was just a natural girl who was devoted to her boyfriend at University. I had a great relationship with Eddie’s family, and my mother could not have been more supportive of my decision to change sex.

But just when you think that life is perfect there is always something that puts a spoke in your wheels!

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To Be Continued...

My first thought’s had been relief that I was still alive and the burning desire to call the police and report the rape. The longer I sat and considered it though the idea of what that would result in was somewhat unappealing. No one except Eddie, my mother and of course William knew my secret.

Reporting the incident would open up a whole can of worms, some that I did not want to escape.

By Karin Roberts

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Eddie returned home for Xmas and New Year holidays and we spent a lot of time together. Me visiting his parents, and him visiting my mother and Robert. I was also able to introduce him to a few of my new found friends from college going out for drinks and meals as foursomes and doing all the normal thing’s that couples would do.

All in all the festive season and the dawn of the new year went well and it was with great sorrow that the two of us parted again as the holiday season came to a close. Tears were shed at the airport as I waved goodbye to Eddie with his family on his return to University. His mother hugging me and consoling me “You really do love him dear don’t you” she asked “Yes, I’d do anything for him” I replied through floods of tears, “and so would he for you my dear daughter, you’ll soon be together and hopefully for always” she said wiping my tears with her handkerchief as we saw him disappear from sight.

It was back to college for me and a new term. This was my final session on my course so a lot of hard work was ahead to gain my qualification’s and it was no surprise that with my mind fully focussed on the task ahead the first few months flew by. A few days before the final exam myself, Carol and Fiona who were the two girls I had become firm friends with agreed that we would celebrate the completion of our courses with a girls night out at a local night club, little did we know that what was to be a celebration of achievement would turn out to be a nightmare for me !

Coincidently around the time of the end of my exams Robert had planned a romantic long weekend for him and my mother in Venice. Although I would have liked to tag along, I had a feeling that he had some other motive for taking her away on her own, and I was fairly sure that by the time they returned I may well have a new step-dad to look up to. So I resigned myself to staying behind.

It was the first time I had been left alone to fend for myself either as Craig or as Nikki so I was looking forward to being the lady of my own home for a few days. So on the day of my big night out I waved them off as they drove to the airport and then set about doing my household chores for the day. Around 4pm Clare one of the girls I was going out with tonight rang,

“You still on for tonight “ she asked.

“Yeah no problem”

“Should be a good night I’ll pick you up around half seven” she said,

“Ok fine see you then” I had around 3 hours to get ready so I went upstairs and ran a bath liberally sprinkling some of my mothers “Eden” bath salts into the water. Waiting for the bath to fill I stripped off, my figure was really taking shape now my skin was much softer than it had been, my legs seemed shapelier and my chest had developed into a 38C so I was amply provided for. The only blemish was the shrinking penis that was still between my legs but hey in time that would be gone too I thought to myself as I slipped into the hot perfumed water and began to wash my self down. Twenty minutes later I was patting myself dry and with a towel wrapped around me heading into my room to get changed.

Although it was a girls night out I had already decided to be slightly conservative in my choice of clothes, while I new that Carol and probably Fiona would be out to pull I had no intention and was only out to celebrate the end of the college term and hope that I had done well in my final exams.

I took a red satin strapless bra from my drawer and quickly encased my boobs in it. A matching pair of red panties next. I put on my bath robe and sat down at the dresser to do my make up. I applied a light coating of foundation to my face and then a brief dusting of powder and a spot of blusher. With my eyes I applied a dark grey eye shadow to my bottom lids and a silver colour to my upper lids blending them together. Just a little mascara followed by a burgundy lipstick to finish off.

There was no need to paint my nails tonight as I had recently had a set of French Tips fitted and the style these days was for the straight white tipped nails.

I rose from the dresser and walked over to my closet to select an outfit for the evening. It was a hot night and no doubt the club would be busy and sticky as well so I wanted something light and cooling. I selected a red lycra body which Eddies mother had bought me recently, it had a round neck and was not low cut but had red lace sleeves down to your elbow pulling it over my head I slid it down and fastened the poppers between my legs.

I was torn between a skirt and wearing slacks and finally decided on a pair of black boot cut leather trousers and a pair of strappy sandals with a three inch stiletto heel.

Returning to the dresser I picked up a couple of extra ring’s the engagement ring that Eddie had given me was a permanent fixture of course but I slipped on another couple of rings to my other hand before fixing two inch gold hooped earring’s to my ears, a gold chain with half a heart hanging from it this half had Eddie engraved on it. Eddie had the other half which naturally enough had Nikki engraved on it finishing of with a rather swish gold watch that Eddies mother had also bought me. I picked up my small black handbag and headed off downstairs.

I walked into the kitchen and took a bottle of white wine out of the fridge uncorking it I poured myself a glass and returned to the lounge. I sat down and glanced at the clock it was ten to seven so I had time to finish my drink before Carol turned up, lifting the remote I flicked on the TV and reached for my bag.

Eddie’s mother had recently made a flying visit to New York to do some shopping with a friend who was going through a messy divorce. On her return she had brought me around a dozen carton of American cigarettes VS 120 slims they were called I loved them the long narrow menthol cigarette which I thought was even more sexy then the UK brands that I usually smoked.

Taking the packet out of my bag with my slim gold lighter I took one out and placed it in my mouth, flicking the flame into life I lit the cigarette and took a deep inhale before removing it from my mouth and blowing a cloud of smoke ring’s into the air. In no time I heard the sound of Carol’s car horn and got up. Leaving my glass on the table I grabbed another packet of ciggies and put them in my bag. A couple of sprays of my mother’s Eden perfume to my wrist and neck and I dropped the glass bottle into my bag. I was ready to go.

Opening the door I stepped out, closing it behind me I headed down the path to meet Carol opening the car door I gracefully slid in and grabbed the seatbelt.

“Hi babes, ready for a good night out” she asked.

“Yeah I’ve been looking forward to it” I replied.

“Well we’ve worked hard these last couple of months and we deserve it, and I for one want to get shagged silly tonight” she said with a wicked grin.

“You go for it girl” I said.

“Oh don’t worry one lucky guy will be getting it tonight” she said with a wink of her eye as she pulled away from the kerb and drove towards town.

We hit a couple of trendy bars in town all of us in good form having a laugh and a joke Carol and Fiona doing a power of flirting with guys and me, Anna and Liz watching their antics with care so that they did not get involved with the wrong type of guy’s. Around 10.30 we decided to head to a club so me Anna, Liz and Carol pilled into a taxi while Fiona who had picked up a guy called Brian followed on in another taxi.
Arriving at the club we paid to get in and got down to some serious dancing all four girls together, Fiona and her new man friend dancing together further along the dance floor. We had been in the club for around an hour when Carol eventually pulled and paired of with a guy called Mike so the three remaining girls without company continued to party while the others got to know their partners a little better.
Around that time I thought I saw a face I knew but it was only a quick glance and quickly forgot about it.

Anna and Liz decided they needed to visit the loo so I trotted of to the bar to order another couple of drinks. Returning from the bar I put the drinks on the table and slipped up on to the stool and lit a cigarette. Just at that I was aware of a guy approaching me.

“Hi babes you on your own” he asked.

“No just waiting for my friends to return” I said.

“Can I buy you a drink or would you like to dance” he asked.

“Thanks but I’ve just got one” “

Well what about the dance then”

“Sorry I’m engaged” I said.

“I never asked to marry you just dance with you” he said with a laugh

“Well maybe later, when they come back”

“Oh come on” he said.

Taking another drag from my cigarette I exhaled out a cloud of smoke and crushed it out in the ashtray.

“Ok, just one dance remember” and I got down of the stool and we headed out on to the dance floor. When the music stopped I said thanks and we headed back to where I had left Anna and Liz they were back by now and chatting to Carol and her guy.

“Who’s this “ Anna asked.

“Oh this is Andy” I said.

“Pleased to meet you girls” he said in particular eyeing Liz’s chest which was sparsely covered by the top she had chosen for the night. I sat back down and slipped out another cigarette Mike immediately offered me a light and I could see Carol growl as he paid some attention to me.

Andy by this time had moved closer to Liz and I picked up my drink and took a sip. Carol was busy whispering in Mike’s ear and within a couple of minutes she looked at me winked and announced to the group that they were going to head off. We said our goodbyes and I cheekily said to Mike as they left to have a good time knowing full well what Carol had in mind for him.

Andy continued to chat up Liz and Anna headed of for another round of drinks, while I headed off to the toilet asking Liz if she wanted to come with me she slipped off the stool and headed to the toilets with me.

Once inside we went into separate cubicles to do our business and then met up again at the mirrors to touch up our make up. I applied some fresh lipstick and a touch of mascara.

“So do you like this guy” I asked.

“He’s quite cute really”

“What about Steve though” ( Steve was Liz’s partner at college)

“Thing’s have not been right between us for a while now, and I think he might have been messing around with that little tart Mandy that’s doing the Admin course with you”

“Oh I see” I replied.

“Oh I don’t know, I really love Steve but maybe it’s time to move on” she said.

“You don’t have any proof about him and Mandy do you”

“No only rumours” she said,

“Well then sort it out with him first and then decide what you want to do, if you like this guy take his number then you can call him later if it goes belly up with Steve”

“Thanks Nikki, you’re a real friend” she said giving me a little peck on the cheek and wiping away the slight lipstick mark with a tissue.

“By the way where’s Fiona gone”

“Oh I think she sloped off with that Mike for some night time manoeuvres“ I responded both of us giggling as we headed back out into the busy club.

It was getting close to closing time when Liz who had still been the subject of Andy’s considerable attention began to complain of feeling light headed and dizzy, Andy immediately offered to take her home.

I was immediately a bit suspicious, getting Anna alone I said “Look I’m not sure about this what if he has put something in her drink”

“You mean drugged her”

“Yeah you hear about it happening all the time I think we should see her home, and the guy just seems a bit sleazy to me. First he was all over me then Liz. I just don’t trust him, Ok”

“Yeah fine by me” she responded.

Going back to the table I lifted my bag “Look Andy thanks for offering but I think we should take her home”

“It’s no problem really my cars outside” he answered,

“No she’s our friend, it’s up to us to see she gets home ok” I said a bit more forcefully, he seemed slightly angry about this but obviously not wishing to make a scene in a crowded club he accepted it and said “Maybe see you girls in here again sometime” as he walked off.

Liz by this time was really drowsy and we had to help her to her feet and towards the exit on the way out once again I caught sight of a face I thought I knew but had more on my mind helping Liz so ignored it again. We finally got her outside and Anna stayed with her while I grabbed a taxi, we piled into the cab and set of on the short journey to Liz’s flat.

Fifteen minutes later we were back safely in Liz’s flat she had already been sick once and kept drifting in and out on consciousness.

“I really do think she has been drugged” I said.

“Do you think we should call someone the police a doctor” asked Anna

“No let her sleep and she can decide in the morning if she wants to call or report it to anyone,” I responded.

“Look I’m going to stay the night with her you go home if you want to” said Anna, not wishing to undress give away my secret I agreed with some further persuasion and called a taxi.
Ten minutes later the cab was pulling up at my front door paying the driver I stepped out and walked up the path to the side door my heels clicking noisily on the garden slabs as I made my way to the steps. Standing under the light I opened my bag and took out the keys, just as I went to put the key in the lock a hand clamped tightly over my mouth and nose.

“Mmmnn” as another arm encircled my waist holding my free arm in and causing me to drop my bag I tried to pull the hand away but the assailant was too strong. They were close to me holding my head and I could not turn in what seemed like seconds I could see black dots flash in front of my eyes as I fought for breath and soon I descended into a still blackness.

I am not sure how long I was unconscious for but as I awoke I was groggy my first senses told me that I was lying on my back and there was something in my mouth. As my eyes began to clear I was become more aware of my situation. I was lying on my back in my bed my hands were tied tightly above my head and attached to the headboard. My ankles were similarly tied together and secured to the foot of the bed and there was a wad of cloth or something inside my mouth which was secured inside by some tape.

I had been partially undressed and only my bra and panties remained. I looked around the room with my limited vision and could not see anyone in here with me. Starting to struggle and moan a bit in the gag I tested the bonds. It quickly became obvious that there was no way I could get loose. As my struggles began to wane I could hear someone approach the room I was about to find out who had done this and why.

The door opened and in stepped William now if you have been keeping up with the story you’ll remember that this was the guy who attacked me at the party where I was supposed to betray Eddie.

“Ah Nikki, I’m glad to see your awake” he said as he stepped towards the bed, it was him that I thought I had recognised in the club tonight but he had changed quite a bit in what had been just about two years, he now had a beard and had put on quite a bit of weight as well.

Sitting on the bed his hand drifted on to the inside of my bare calf and began to move upwards.

“I promised you this night would come, didn’t I” he said as I tried to pull my legs away but, the rope held them fast. “Well tonight were going to have some fun” he said with a manic look on his face. “Now there’s two ways we can do this you can be cooperate and maybe even enjoy it. Or you can put up a fight, either way it’s going to happen and if you choose the later then someone could get hurt and it won’t be me” he said forcefully as he produced a curved knife from a sheath on his side.

I could only mumble in protest as he moved the silver blade towards me as he climbed up on to the bed, my head shaking from side to side with unrecognisable sounds of vain protest.

“Now what’s it to be” he said as the knife slipped under the centre of my bra and with a yanking motion spilt the fabric in half, pulling the fabric, away from my breasts.

“Oh very nice, you have been busy growing a nice pair like this now it would be a shame to waste them if you don’t play the game” he said as the cold flat blade was placed flat over my nipple and pressed downwards. “Or maybe you would prefer that I got rid of this for you,” he said as he moved backwards removing the blade from my chest he slid it downwards and with a similar motion as to before slipped it into the side of my panties and with a single tug slit them open as well.

“Well , I would be doing you a favour wouldn’t I “ he said with a smirk as the blade point pricked my penis now as much as I wanted to lose the thing between my legs I had no wish for it to be hacked off by him either. He let go the knife and reached down to grab my testicles pulling them and squeezing them hard with a grin he looked up at me

“Well, I’m waiting, what will it be” he said with an edge pulling harder as pain tore through every pore of my body and tears began to well in my eyes with pain “Well is that a yes for the easy way” he said looking up at me and in much pain I nodded my head “Good then lets get on with enjoying ourselves” as he released my testicles and got up off the bed and began to undress.

I’m not sure exactly how long the attack went on but I had been bound and tied in about three or four different ways each time having to satisfy William either orally or anally or even both. By this time my hands were tied tightly in front of me and a strand of rope led from my wrists to the headboard of the bed. My legs were stretched apart and my ankles secured to each side of the bed, my mouth was filled with a wad of cloth and a cleave gag was tightly tied to keep it in place, I was on my knees and facing downwards with William behind me so you can guess what was coming next.

My body ached in places I never knew I had from a result of the continued attack. There had been no attempt to lessen my anal anguish by using any type of lubricant and my anus had been stretched to its limit. For the fifth time William entered me roughly driving his penis deep into my already aching body. His thrusts grew faster and his breathing harder as he continued his rape.

As his strokes became faster and I could sense that his climax was not far away once again his hand encircled my face and clamped over my nose. Quickly I began to struggle for air and coupled with the hard driving motion and pain my heart felt as if it was going to burst. My first thought was he’s going to kill me panic set in, soon once again I was drifting into a black hole as I lost consciousness.

I don’t know how long I was out for but I woke up cold, exhausted and aching from every bone in my body. My ankles were still tied to the base of the bed and my wrists were still tied but not fixed to the headboard but loose by my side the gag had been removed and my mouth seemed as dry as a desert. As my head began to clear I began to try and unravel the knot with my teeth which was a long process, finally I achieved enough slack to loosen my bonds and as pain racked my body reached down to untie my ankles.

Finally free I got up off the bed and immediately was overcome with the need to be sick. Racing to the bathroom I fell to my knees in front of the toilet and threw up, once I was content that I had finished I got up and splashed some cold water on my face returning to the bedroom I sat down on the bed and began to cry.

My first thought’s had been relief that I was still alive and the burning desire to call the police and report the rape. The longer I sat and considered it though the idea of what that would result in was somewhat unappealing. No one except Eddie, my mother and of course William knew my secret.

Reporting the incident would open up a whole can of worms some that I did not want to escape. With my mother out of the country I decided to call Eddie instead. Leaving the bedroom I went downstairs all the time aware that William could still be lurking around but somehow I believed that he was well gone.

It was around 5am in the morning when I picked up the phone and when I heard Eddie’s voice I was reduced into a blubbering wreck of tears.

“Nikki is that you, what’s happened” I heard him say.

“Oh Eddie I’m so glad to hear your voice” I replied through deep sobbing.

“What’s happened has something happened to your mum”

“No I’ve been attacked” was all I could say.

“Have you called the police” he asked.

“No not yet” through another set of tears I said.

“Well call them now and I’ll be home in a couple of hours” he said.

“Ok” I mumbled as he hung up and I broke down in tears again.

Over three hours later I heard a knock at the door, in the time that had passed I had taken 3 baths and cleaned my teeth what must have been about a dozen times, the rest of the time had been taken up with prolonged crying and smoking cigarettes.

I was sitting on my bed legs tucked up under my chin and my arms grasping them tightly to me, my hair was wet and stringy and I was wearing a loose sweatshirt and a pair of tracksuit bottoms. Lifting myself of the bed still in some pain and discomfort I headed downstairs.

Nervously I approached the door calling out “Who’s there” the reply cam back “Nikki it’s me Eddie” still unsure I stepped forward and put my eye to the peephole sure enough there he stood, quickly I opened the door.

“Oh darling what happened” he said as I fell into his arms in another flood of tears leading me away from the door and closing it while I clung to him, he led me into the lounge. “Here sit down” he said practically having to rip me from his arms as he sat down beside me his arm around my shoulders still holding me close by.

“Tell me what happened” and so grabbing my cigarettes and lighting one inhaling deeply I began the story.

I’d never told Eddie about what happened at the party that night explaining how William had cornered me beside the garage and his threat, how I had not expected to be Nikki by this time and how the threat had gone out of my mind. I told him about our night out and the guy in the club who we suspected had drugged Liz and how we had taken her home and then when I got home how William had been waiting for me and had knocked me out and tied me up, I missed out a good deal of the sexual element of the attack not wishing to let my fiancé hear the worst but just enough to let him know how I was feeling, about half an hour later and four more cigarettes the story was told.

“And you called the police” he asked.

“No”

“Nikki why not you need to report this”

“I can’t” I sobbed,

“You have to”

“No, how can I , I’ve built a life as Nikki how can I wreck it now, when the police arrest him the story appears in the press everybody gets to know I’m trans-gendered your family my friends. I don’t even know if Robert knows, I can’t do that I can’t run the risk of losing you”

“You won’t loose me”

“I still can’t do it I just can’t take the risk”

“So your going to let him get away with it are you”

“I don’t see that I can do anything else, in a little while I’ll be Nikki for real and we can put this all behind us.”

Eddie rose “I need a drink , you want one”

“Yeah a brandy would be nice, please don’t be angry with me Eddie you must see what involving the police would mean”

“I’m not angry with you I’ll be back in a couple of minutes.” Eddie left the room and I began crying again pain still wracked my body and I looked like a drowned rat. I got up and tried to fix my hair a bit hearing Eddie come back upstairs I returned to the bed and climbed up.

“Here drink this” he said sidling up beside me and putting his arm round my shoulders I tensed a bit as he placed a kiss on my cheek.

“Well be ok won’t we” he said.

“In time” I said closing my eyes I was asleep in his arms within a couple of minutes.

I’m not sure how long I slept, but when I awoke I was under the covers and it was daylight outside. I got up and slipped on a pair of jeans and a blouse and a pair of flat sandals , leaving my bedroom I walked downstairs.

“Eddie you there” I called ahead of me.

“Yeah in here babes” came a call from the kitchen. I reached the bottom of the stairs and headed towards the kitchen.

“Thought I’d make you a spot of lunch”

“I’m not that hungry, what time is it”

“It’s gone 2 o’clock, you slept like a log” “I had a horrible dream” I said beginning to slightly sob again.

“Here sit down, have this soup I made you” he said gesturing towards the table I moved across and sat down as he put the plate in front of me. I picked up the spoon and took a mouthful.

“It’s nice” I said as he sat across from me.

“The dreams will go Nikki time will heal”

“I hope so” I said just then the phone rang.

“You stay there I’ll get it” he said rising from the table from the kitchen I could hear some raised voices from the hallway I rose as I reached the doorway Eddie came racing in and grabbed his jacket.

“What is it” I said.

“That was that rapist on the phone gloating asking if you enjoyed yourself” my hand went to my mouth as Eddie shot past me.

“Where you going” I screamed.

“He’s not getting away with this Nikki”

“No please Eddie don’t do anything” I said moving forward and reaching for his arm I caught his sleeve.

“Nikki let go I’m going to find him” as he shook of my grip and went out the door, I sank to the floor behind the door and the tears began once again as I heard a car start.

I sat for hours it had gotten dark I had no idea where Eddie had gone or the consequences of how his action would turn out. I had figured that he had not gone to the police because if he had then they would surely have called round by now.

So he must have gone looking for William that scared me just as much. I though of the consequences my true gender becoming known the reaction from friends, Robert, Eddies parents should the truth come out. Maybe it would be for the best after all Eddie’s brother was in a gay relationship so his parents might be ok about it, but I kept thinking about how they would feel about all the deception maybe we should have just told them from the start. I had spent most of the several hours that Eddie had gone either smoking, drinking or crying and some times all three.

I got up to pour another drink and find another pack of cigarettes when I heard a car pull up, I raced over to the window and in the dim street light’s I could see Eddie step out on his own, well at least he’s ok I thought not beat up or anything. I heard the door open and I moved towards the door.

“Eddie where have you been” I said as I moved towards him and into his arms, from our embrace I could tell he was shaking.

“Your cold” I said moving back slightly from him I looked up his face was ashen white

“What’s wrong” I asked “Are you ok”

“He’s dead, Williams dead” he said and I broke our embrace.

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We moved back into the living room.

“What did you do, did you kill him” I asked as he moved over to the drinks cabinet and poured a drink.

“Do you really think I could kill someone” he asked turning towards me

“No, I just, what happened, you were so angry”

“I think I was right to be angry not only does the guy rape my fiancé but then he phones up to gloat about it” he said.

“Your scaring me Eddie, what happened”

“I went to look for him all the places I thought he might be. Your right when I left here I could have killed him, but I got a bit calmer as I looked for him. Eventually I was just going to give him a hammering then I was just going to warn him off. Anyway I could not find him and I was heading back here anyway as I passed the nightclub you were in last night who did I see but William chatting to a couple of girls, I parked the car and got out. I was walking up the street towards him when he saw me he just turned and bolted I started to run after him but he ran straight out onto the road and was hit straight on by a taxi”

“Oh my god” I said as a hand went to my mouth.

“The police came along interviewed the two girls and some others me included, no one had seen me start to chase him so the police had no idea why he had started to run and neither had the girls, he was killed outright.” I walked over to Eddie and gave him a hug.

“It’s ok, at least you safe I was so worried” I said this time it was Eddie’s turn to cry, as I held him I thought at least my secret is safe for now. and in a funny way my abuser had got a reward he deserved.

The following day both us spent time with each other Eddie trying to console me over the rape and me trying to reassure him over the events surrounding William’s death. Both of us agreed that both incidents would remain between us and that neither set of parents or friends would be told anything of the events of the weekend, and that we would help each other with the recovery of our lives.

We stayed at home most of the day briefly Eddie briefly popped out to pick up a take away meal for us. After our meal we snuggled up in front of the TV and watched some bland movie which I suppose neither of us was really concentrating on. Around 9pm my mother called to remind me that she would be back tomorrow and that I had to order her a cab.

“Everything ok there darling”

“Yeah fine mum, I won’t forget your taxi, see you tomorrow”

“Ok Nikki, I’ve missed you”

“Yeah I’ve missed you too mum.”

Early the next morning Eddie packed up and headed back to University “You be ok” he asked as we kissed and cuddled in the doorway

“Yeah I’ll be fine, and you drive carefully, give me a call when you get back”

“I will” he said and with a final kiss he was on his way.

After Eddie left I called the taxi company for my mother and Robert and set about clearing up the house. A few hours later the taxi pulled up and my mother and Robert got out tanned and looking refreshed they headed up the path, looking happy in each others company. I opened the door to greet them.

“Did you have a good time” I asked.

“It was superb” my mother gushed “Let’s get inside we’ve got something to tell you”

As I had suspected they then proceeded to tell me that Robert had proposed on holiday, I’d had a feeling that that was part of the reason for the trip so with kisses all round and congratulations a plenty I excused my self and headed into the kitchen to get a bottle of champagne to toast the occasion my mother following me through.

“You ok really with our engagement” she asked.

“Yeah I’m pleased mum you deserve someone in your life again”

“Good I just worried that you might be scared of Robert finding out”

“You mean he’s never known about Craig”

“No I’ve never told him and he suspects nothing”

“But what about when I go for the final change”

“We’ll cross that bridge when we come to it, but rest assured we won’t get married, till your finally Nikki in the fullest sense of the word” she said reaching forward and hugging me.

“Thanks mum” a slight tear in my eye.

She saw it “Hey what’s wrong” she asked.

I struggled to hold myself together a bit “Eh nothing” I said wiping it away with my knuckle, “I’m just so happy for you.” She stepped forward hugging me tight.

“Now let’s get these glasses and the champagne and toast all our futures” she said.

“Sounds good to me” I replied through a slight sniff, taking the bottle from the fridge and heading back to the lounge to toast the happy couple.

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The following month’s were difficult for me, I was jumpy and nervous when left alone, I knew that William was gone but some nights I would dream of that night the tight ropes binding my hands the feel of cloth stuffed in my mouth muffled sounds escaping as William continued his sexual assault on me.

At least twice I had woken up my mother calling out in my sleep fortunately nothing that she had heard had uncovered any of the events of that night. I had managed to pass it off just as some nightmares and my mind and continuing body changes due to my continued hormone intake.

As time passed however thing’s began to ease a bit and indeed if anything it seemed that Eddie was having a harder time with coming to terms with his part in the incident than I was. As with our life history though there was always just something around the corner which we did not expect.

We had all celebrated Xmas together Eddie’s family my mother and Robert and everything was perfect. Sometimes I still had to pinch myself to realise that this was happening but when I did I soon realised that I was deliriously happy that it had and in truth I could not remember ever being as happy as I was as Nikki.

The holiday season finished and Eddie headed back to University somewhat calmer than he had been at the start of the holidays. I on the other hand had finally found myself a job. It wasn’t much, just an Admin Clerk / Radio Controller with a local Taxi company. The owner knew of my trans-gendered status and in truth I think I somewhat shocked him as he had clearly been eyeing up my legs and cleavage during the interview.

Thankfully though this proved no problem and so I had secured my first job. The job was shift work but I enjoyed the challenge working with the other controllers and the drivers two of whom had already asked me out on a date, I had declined and put them clear that I was a one man girl and after what had happened with William I was always careful about trying not to lead men on. I knew what had happened had not been my fault but there was still a raw nerve and I was being careful not to push my luck.

The winter had been a harsh one several covering’s of deep snow and bitterly cold. Still by early February we were suffering severe cold snaps. I was on nightshift that week and by the Saturday morning I was absolutely bushed finishing my shift around 6am. Steve one of the early drivers picked me up to give me a lift home as local transport had not started yet.

“Quite night” he asked as I climbed in.

“Not too bad usual busy spell when the clubs finished, but got a bit quieter then. At least it gave me a chance to clear all the account invoices so clean slate when I start on Tuesday” I responded.

“Never like doing weekend nights, too many lippy drunks who throw up in the back more times than suits me, more hassle than it’s worth” he said. Idle chatter continued till we pulled up at my house, “Have a good weekend” I said climbing out “You too” he said as I closed the door and headed up the path.

Quietly I slipped my key into the lock and opened the door, Robert had probably stayed last night. Mum and him had been going to a Charity Night at the local pub. A smile crept over my face well at least with me on nights it would have given them the chance to spend some quality time together in bed.

I stepped into the kitchen and filled the kettle with water plugging it back in flipped the switch to make a coffee dropping the newspaper on the table that I had collected at the all night garage on the way home I sat down and waited for the water to boil. Once it had come to the boil I dropped some coffee in a mug and poured myself a drink returning to the table.

I opened my bag and took out my cigarettes taking one out of the pack I placed it between my lips and flicking the lighter inhaled the cool menthol smoke. Ah that’s better I thought to myself the office was no smoking and it had been about 1.30am since I had managed to slip out and have a quick ciggie before the rush.

I flicked through the newspaper nothing of major interest except for the stories surrounding the local third division football team who had just made it through to the last eight of the Scottish Cup for the first time in 25 years.

I thought back to the times that would have had me elated don’t get me wrong I still followed their progress and had even gone to watch a couple of matches with Eddie when he had been home but there would have been a time I would not have missed a match for the world and would have been there shouting and abusing the opponents the lot really.

I took a final draw from my cigarette and crushed it in the ashtray. Picking up my mug I closed the paper and left it for mum and Robert and set off for bed. I had barley put my foot on the first step of the stairs when the telephone rang “Shit who could that be at this time of the morning” I said to myself stepping back down and walking towards the phone I picked up the receiver.

“Hello” I said.

“Nikki”

“Oh hi babes, what you doing calling this early, I’m just back from work”

“Nikki there’s been an accident”

“Are you ok” I said with concern in my voice.

“No it’s not me it’s Mum and Dad they were in a car crash”

“Are they ok” I said.

“Eh” I could hear the emotion in his voice. “Eddie are they ok” I asked again “Eh... no there both dead” he said choking back the tears as I let my cup of coffee drop from my hand and crash to the floor. There was momentary silence as I searched for something to say, what could I say. In the end what I did say didn’t seem quite enough in the circumstances.

“Oh Eddie, I’m so sorry” tears beginning to run from my eye’s now, “What happened”

“I don’t know all the details yet, just that they were on their way back from a seminar my dad was speaking at and they crashed” his speech interlaced with sobs as he spoke. “Look, I’m coming home as soon as I can, will you meet me at home”

“Yeah just ring me when you get there, and Eddie drive safely darling I love you”

“I love you too I’ll see you later” he said hanging up.

I looked at the broken cup on the floor the wet patch where the coffee had landed. I could not believe it, both Eddies parent killed, I sat at the foot of the stairs for about ten minutes trying to think about how he must be feeling I’d never experienced anything like this, yeah my dad had left but I knew he was still alive somewhere I could not imagine what it must feel like.

Rousing myself I went upstairs knocking on my mothers door and opening it slowly I slipped my head inside sure enough Robert was there.

“Mum” I said quietly.

“Eh Nikki, what do you want darling” she said drowsily.

“Can I speak to you a minute something’s happened”

“Eh your worrying me, you ok”

“Yeah I’m fine it’s about Eddie” I said tears beginning to flow.

“Eh ok give me a minute” I shut the door and crossed to my room, a couple of minutes later she came into my room in her dressing gown. I told her what Eddie had told me both of us in tears and hugging each other as mothers and daughters do, half an hour later I was in bed trying to get some rest but I knew a hopeless task as I awaited the call from Eddie to announce he was home.

A few hours later I was on my way to Eddie’s dressed in a pair of black slacks with a white blouse and low heeled shoes I stepped up the path towards the front door, my hair tied back and only minimal make up I rang the bell. There were several cars in the driveway as I stood waiting for the door to be answered. Seconds later the door was opened by a lady in her early fifties I imagined.

“Eh hi” I mumbled.

“You must be Nikki” she said.

“I’m Eddies Aunt Lillian” offering me her hand and leaning forward at the same time to plant a kiss on my cheek.

“Hello, I’m so sorry” I said quietly

“Thank you yes tragic my dear.”

“Where’s Eddie” I enquired.

“Last I saw him he was in the kitchen, you know your way through” she asked.

“I need to see to his grandmother she’s very upset” “Naturally” I replied.

“I’ll be ok I know the way” I said turning and heading towards the kitchen as his Aunt moved towards the lounge. I walked along the hall and pushed open the door to the kitchen. Inside stood Eddie his brother and two other men who I did not know.

The sound of the door opening drew there attention towards me Eddie stopped talking put down his glass and moved towards me as I entered the kitchen. We met and I could see the puffiness in his eyes as his arms encircled me and we hugged.
“I’m so sorry darling” I whispered in his ear as my head lay on his shoulder. The remainder of the day was a blur tears and sadness around the household and endless cups of tea, coffee and sympathy, introductions for me to friends, relatives and all as I accompanied Eddie and his family around the house.

Soon it was late evening and I stood with Eddie on the front steps waiting for my taxi to go home.

“It’s been quite a day” I said.

“Yeah, I’m glad you’re here, I’m not sure how I would have coped without you around” he said.

“I’m so sorry” I repeated for what seemed like the thousandth time that day.

“I know” he said as he leaned forward to kiss me as my car approached, our lips met and tears began to come to my eyes,

“We will be ok” I asked.

“Yeah we’ll get through this together” he said as he led me by the hand towards the car.

“I’ll see you for the funeral on Wednesday” he said as I climbed into the car.

“Yeah see you then babes, and take car of yourself” I said as the door closed and the driver began to pull away.

The next few days dragged I kept in touch with Eddie by phone, I was not really avoiding him but I knew that as a family they had much to sort out and I did not want to be in the way and although no one had remotely read me on Saturday I wanted it to stay that way. Wednesday finally arrived and I rose early to get ready for what I was sure would be a long day.
After a shower and a light breakfast I began to get ready for the funeral, my shrinking manhood taped away I stepped into a pair of silky white panties a matching white bra encased my chest before I put my dressing gown back on and sat down to do my face. I looked in the mirror at the canvas before me; the electrolysis that I had undergone had left me with a lovely smooth soft complexion. Foundation and powder completed I coloured my eyelids with an ashy grey crá¨me eyeshadow and then lengthened my eye lashes with a thick black mascara. Twisting my lipstick tube a deep red lipstick appeared which I applied to my lips evenly.

Rising from the dresser I moved to my wardrobe and selected a plain black skirt around knee length and a white top to wear, the top was sleeveless and ran straight across my back just above the shoulder blades the top was completed by a wide strip which ran up from the front and had a round collar which fastened at the back of the neck by small metal studs.

After slipping on the top and skirt I grabbed a pair of black leather 3 ½ inch heels from the wardrobe and stepped into them, lifting a black tailored jacket from the wardrobe I pulled it on walking back to the dresser I combed out my hair attaching a small pair of single diamond stud earring’s to my ears and picking my gold watch an a black leather clutch bag and small pillbox black hat with a black net veil hanging from the front.I stood up and walked towards the door. Downstairs I found my mother dressed in a simple black dress and jacket.

“You Ok” she asked as I walked in “Yeah I’m fine” I replied “Just wish it was all over” “Yeah me too” she said. Silence descended as we sat together and waited for the taxi to arrive.

Thirty minutes later we were pulling up at the funeral parlour, a group of people stood around outside as we stepped out of the car and walked towards the steps. Mounting the steps we passed them mutual head nods greeted our arrival as we walked past and stepped inside. Inside we slid into a vacant wooden pew and sat down awaiting the arrival of the family and the other mourners. I looked around recognising a couple of the people that had been at Eddie’s house earlier that week as the numbers of mourners grew. Minutes later the organ burst into life and the assembled group rose. The door opened and a each oak panelled coffin was carried in and placed at the front a tear’s forming in my eye’s I took out a tissue from my bag and lifting the veil of my hat from the front of my face I lightly dabbed the corner of my eyes. Soon the family followed behind Eddie looking pale and drawn his brother much the same as they and the other family members made there way to the front of the funeral parlour.

Forty minutes later the service was all over and we all filed outside the building behind the heavy oak coffins. I glanced over at Eddie who weakly smiled in my direction as he stepped into the funeral car.

We grabbed a lift with another mourner and our car fell into line as the funeral procession set off. Once at the graveyard we all huddled around in a circle as the minister conducted his ceremony and the bodies were lowered into the ground.

Sobs of grief could be heard all around as each person stepped forward and dropped either earth or a flower into the grave. The crowds began to disperse as Eddie walked towards me.

“How you doing darling” I asked as he planted a soft kiss on my cheek

“Ok I guess, see you back at the house” he asked gripping and squeezing my hand.

“Yes see you soon” I said as he turned and moved towards the car. My mother slipped her arm around me and we walked towards the car that had given us a lift to the cemetery. Arriving back at Eddies’s house several people milled around outside talking we thanked our fellow mourner for the lift and went inside.

The house was busy with mourners milling around chatting over the unfortunate circumstances and how the day had been in general. You know the usual stuff wasn’t it a nice service, weren’t the flower’s lovely the usual idle chit chat the people make at occasions like these.

Mom and I made our way to the kitchen to help out. Inside we found Eddie’s Aunt Lillian who I had met earlier that week and another lady busily preparing drinks and snacks for the guests.

“Can we help” my mother asked.

“Sure you can” Lillian replied.

“How are you Nikki” she asked.

“Fine” I said.

“This is Nikki, Eddie’s fiancée” she said turning towards the other lady in the kitchen,

“Oh your Nikki” she said turning towards me “I’m Clare, I went to school with Eddie’s mum, she talked so much about you, she was so happy you and Eddie were together” she said as she walked towards me and opening her arms hugged me to her chest.

“Thanks, eh this is my Mum Carol” I mumbled as we broke the embrace.

The three women exchanged greetings with each other like they had known each other for ever. “Here you can help me with the coffee and sandwiches” she said as my mother and Lillian paired off to work at another worktop. We busily made up some sandwiches and a large pot of coffee before going back out into the assembled throng to pass out the fruits of our labour.

A couple of hours later and a steady stream of cars and taxi’s arrived and left as mourners began to make their way home. We had finished washing up and were still in the kitchen, “Let’s grab a ciggie” I said to my mother as we slipped outside on to the decking at the back of the kitchen. Light was beginning to fail as we sat at down at the wooden summer seat and lit up.

“It’s been a sad day” my mother said blowing a cloud of smoke into the air.

“Yeah I so sorry for Eddie” I replied.

“I’ll need to get back soon for Robert what are you going to do” she asked.

“Oh I might stay on a bit, grab some time with Eddie I’ve hardly seen him all day” I replied.

“Ok” she said, at that the door from the patio windows slid open and Eddie stepped outside and walked towards us, my mother stood and crushed out the remains of her cigarette.

“She you later” she said walking back towards the house stopping to hug Eddie and plant a kiss on his cheek and exchange some final words of condolence.

As Eddie approached I took a final drag from my cigarette and crushed it out in the ashtray as he slipped on the seat beside me.

“Hi babes” he said as he slipped his arm around my waist and kissed my cheek.

“How are you bearing up” I asked,

“Ok I’m still numb I think, It’s not really sunk in yet” he replied.

“I really am so sorry darling” I said taking his hand and squeezing it gently as I nuzzled into his neck. He pulled me closer and kissed my forehead as we sat together.

“Look I wanted to ask you something” he said.

“What is it” I asked as I looked up into his eyes.

“Eh would you stay tonight, I need you here with me I need someone with me” he repeated as a tear began to run from the corner of his eye.

Tears began to well in my eyes to as I said “Sure I’ll stay with you babe, you know that were going to be together for ever” I said as I placed my mouth on his and gently kissed him, “Thanks, I just could not bear thinking of being here alone tonight” he said, taking my hand he gently pulled me to my feet and we walked back towards the house.

As we stepped inside I asked “Is your brother not staying tonight, Eddie”

“No he’s gone back to his boyfriends, Lillian is but she’s gone over to a friends and will be back later, but I really appreciate you staying over” he said.

“Won’t she mind me being here when she gets back” I enquired.

“No I said to her earlier that I was going to ask you to stay and she was ok with it”

“Fine well I need a change of clothes I’ll just go and phone mum and get her to send some over” going back inside I picked up the phone and called my mother 45 mins later the door bell rang and as a taxi driver delivered a holdall filled with fresh clothes.

“I’m just going upstairs to change” I called to Eddie. “

“Ok babes I’ll make us a drink for when you come down” he called back as I climbed the stairs. Entering Eddies mum and dads bedroom felt spooky, I moved quickly into the en-suite bathroom and striped of the clothes I had been wearing to the funeral today. I opened the bag and had a look at what my mum had sent over grabbing a knee length white denim skirt I slipped it round my waist the skirt buttoned all the way up the front so fastening each button I secured it to my body before taking out a royal blue blouse and putting it on. Tucking it in to the skirt I brushed out my hair and freshened up my make up, finally taking out a pair of 3 inch white heels my mother had sent over I slipped them on and packed away my other clothes, leaving the bedroom I turned out the light and walked to Eddie’s room placing my bag on the floor inside I headed back downstairs.

“You look lovely honey” Eddie said as I stepped into the room and he handed me a glass of white wine. Taking my bag from the table I took out a cigarette and lit it before sitting down beside Eddie and snuggling in to his side.

“It will get easier in time babes” I said gently kissing his cheek

“I know but I’m really going to miss them”,

“So will I your mom treated me like a daughter “I said

“Well that’s what you were going to be” he replied “Eh I guess” I said as I looked up at Eddie and he planted a kiss on my lips.

We sat in silence for a while both of us in our own thoughts about the today the past and I guess what the future held for both of us. All too soon Eddies Aunt arrived back and we busied ourselves making her a light snack before we all sat around chatting for a couple of hours,

“It’s been a long day darling’s” she announced just after 10pm “I’m going to go to bed, I’ll see you in the morning” she said as she rose and headed for the door Eddie stood and kissed her on the cheek and as I stood up she hugged me and kissed me on the cheek before leaving us together.

“You want to turn in as well” I asked.

“No let’s have another glass of wine and then well go up”

I still was not sure what sleeping arrangements Eddie had in mind for tonight as there was another two bedrooms upstairs and although we had had oral sex but nothing else had happened between us. We had slept together on holiday but I had tried to avoid sex as I really wanted to be Nikki for real before we went that far.

I lit a cigarette as Eddie poured another glass of wine for us, lifting the glasses he returned and placing them on the coffee table and sat on the settee beside me. Silence descended as we sat close together each staring into space lost in our own thoughts. Sipping the some of my wine and crushing out the cigarette I snuggled closer to Eddie and looked up at his strained face.

“What you thinking about” I asked.

“Oh just thing’s, what happens now. It’s strange being on your own” he said.

“You’re not though I’m here and you have your brother” I said reaching up and stroking his cheek with the back of my fingers.

“Yeah sorry I didn’t mean it that way, just Mom and Dad gone it seems so strange”

“It’ll get easier in time” I said

“I know” he said pushing some hair that had fallen over my face away he leaned forward and our lips met, my mouth opened accepting his tongue in as it probed around my tongue greeting his as the kiss intensified. I switched my position settling further back in the settee and pulling him towards me as the kissing became more frantic. He broke the kiss and leaned forward further nuzzling into my neck his lips gently kissing my neck the electricity of the moment shooting through my body as his gentle kisses sent me into bliss.

I could feel his erection pressing against my leg as my hand massaged his buttock and pulled him tighter to me. Breaking off he said “Let’s go upstairs” he said standing and offering me his hand I took it and followed him flicking of the lights we headed upstairs and towards Eddies room.

Quietly opening the door we slipped inside the door shut behind me as Eddie moved forward and pressed my back to the door my left foot raising of the ground my heel flat against the door as we resumed our now passionate kissing. Eddie’s right hand moving over my breast massaging it I could feel my nipples harden at his touch. I broke the kiss “What about your Aunt” I said breathlessly.

“It’s ok she’ll be sound asleep by now she’s on sleeping tablets.”

“Good” I responded as we resumed our kiss as my hand began unbuttoning Eddie’s shirt my sliding inside and massaging his chest and moving over his nipples my long nails tweaking them as I continued to rub his chest. Tugging the shirt free from his trousers we began to edge towards the bed, as we did I kicked off my shoes and reached down to find the zip of Eddie’s trousers finding the metal tag I began to slowly pull it down as Eddie slid me back on to the bed my hand was finding it’s way inside his boxer shorts and slipping around his bone hard dick.

“You sure about this” he said “Couldn’t be more sure” I responded as my hand moved behind his neck and pulled his head forward to resume the kiss and my other hand cupped his balls in my hand and gently massaged them.

Eddies hands began to unbutton my blouse as I lay back on the bed pulling it from my skirt he opened it and his hands moved over both breast’s massaging and squeezing as I moaned in pleasure at his touch. Eddie eased down on top of me I could feel his penis prod my belly as our kissing continued. I slid his shirt from his shoulders pulling it down and over his wrists before tossing it on the floor. Eddie found the catch to my skirt and undid it before sliding down the zip and I lifted my hips of the bed as he pulled it down and threw it to the other side of the bed, while I took off my blouse and loosening the catch of my bra I slipped it off and threw both items in the same direction.

Our bodies merged skin to skin my nipples hardening as Eddie gently and lovingly kissed my neck as I arched my head backwards and moaned at his touch. My hand eased down his boxers and an erect cock sprang out poking my leg as I freed it from its cotton prison.

As he eased upward I wiggled under him and turned to offer him my rear. Slowly massaging my shoulders and kissing my neck he moved forward and his penis passed between my legs at that moment I yearned for the vagina that in the future would be there for him. He moved back and reached over to the drawer.

“I don’t want to hurt you so I got this to ease the passage” he said taking a jar off lubricant and a condom from the drawer he opened it and massaged some on his fingers before moving them forward and entering my anal passage, I flinched slightly before relaxing and allowing his fingers to move freely and spread the lubrication.

Satisfied that he had supplied enough he tore open the condom bag and took it out, “Don’t use it” I said “ I want to feel your cum inside me” as I peered back over my shoulder. He dropped it on the bed and moved forward his cock gently probing at the entrance before edging slowly inside me, I relaxed my muscles as much as possible, at that moment the rape by William flashed into my mind but left almost as quickly this act was something entirely different this was a consensual act by two people in love and not a forced action.

By the time my mind was clear Eddie was fully inside me and gently moving back and forward I found myself moving back to meet his mild thrusts. As the pace increased slightly several moans escaped my lips “Oh Eddie I love you so much” I could hear myself say.

“I love you too darling” he said in a gasping tone as I realised that he was nearing climax I continued my movements back to meet him and within minutes his cum exploded deep inside me as a moan of satisfaction escaped his lips.

As he removed his penis from my rear I could feel some cum trickle from my passage. We lay in each others arms silent and just holding each other in what seemed like minutes I recognised that Eddie’s breathing had changed.

“You asleep darling” I asked there was no response I placed my head back on his shoulder and minutes later I had followed into a land of sweet dreams as well.

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To Be Continued...

I turned at looked at Eddie laying in bed his half empty breakfast tray in front of him.
“What, what do you mean were millionaires” I stammered.
“Come here and sit down” he said patting the bed I walked over and sat on the edge of the bed.
“It’s like this” he began...
 

By Karin Roberts

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The next morning I woke first Eddie was still fast asleep, I got up and took his bathrobe and headed to have a shower. Drying myself I took some fresh lingerie from the bag I had phoned home for last night and put it on. Picking out a black Lycra body suit from the back, I slipped it over my head and pulled it down over my head and chest before fastening the poppers beneath my legs. Next a pair of tight blue denims fastening the zipper at the rear I completed my dressing with a narrow chain belt through the loops of the denims.

Teasing out my ruffled hair with a hairbrush I then applied a light coat of foundation and a light dusting of powder. I took out a pale pink eye shadow and lightly dusted my lids before a small coat of mascara and coated my lips with a matching pale pink lipstick. Returning to the bedroom I picked up my discarded white heels and put them on. Looking at Eddie asleep on the bed I thought back to last night’s loving experience and with a smile on my face moved forward and gently kissed him on the forehead, a slight stir came from his sleeping body as I moved away and crossed the room quietly closing the door as I left.

Downstairs I approached the kitchen and entered his Aunt was by the breakfast bar drinking a coffee and smoking a cigarette.

“Morning dear, sleep well” she asked as I entered.

A slight blush rose to my cheeks mildly embarrassed about me and Eddie sleeping together last night. I calmed myself with the thoughts of so what were engaged so it’s no big deal.

“Here let me get you a coffee” she said rising form the stool.

“I thought I’d make Eddie some breakfast” I said,

“Good idea dear” she said returning with the cup placing in front of me she offered me a cigarette and I took one out reaching for her lighter I flicked it to life and lit my cigarette. Sitting down at the other side of the breakfast bar I sipped my coffee

“You sleep ok” I asked,

“Under the circumstances not bad “she added, “I do take a mild sleeping tablet so they helped” she finished.

We sat in silence for a couple of minutes finishing off our coffee and cigarettes before rising I said, “Well I’d better start on that breakfast.”

“Ok let me give you a hand” she said as we both moved toward the fridge and cooking area.

Fifteen minutes later a plate of sausage, bacon and eggs with some lightly buttered toast and a large glass of grapefruit juice sat on a tray.

“I’ll go up and wake him” I said as I picked it up,

“Ok I’ll clear up here” she replied as I left the kitchen and headed towards the stairs.

Upstairs I balanced the tray in my arm and turned the door knob of Eddie’s bedroom.

“Hi sleepy head” I announced as I entered, “Thought you would like some breakfast” I said moving towards the bed.

“Morning babes, been up long” he enquired as I reached the bed,

“About 45 minutes, here eat up” I said placing the tray in front of him. He reached forward as I bent with the tray and our lips met.

“This going to be what it’s like every morning when were married” he asked.

“Only if you’re good like last night” I replied with a wicked grin.

“You were not too bad yourself” he said. I sat on the bed beside him,

“Looks good enough to eat” he said,

“What me or the breakfast” I joked

“Both” he said with a smile crossing his face.

“Enjoy” I said getting up and crossing the room to tidy up my clothes.

There was silence for a couple of minutes as Eddie tucked into his breakfast, I walked into the bathroom and fiddled with my hair as he ate.

“Nikki can I ask you something” he called,

“Sure babes what is it” I called back,

“Come out here a minute” he continued I picked up my discarded hair brush and stepped back into the bedroom.

“You know when you went to see the doctor about your reassignment, you mentioned the waiting list and that it could be done privately” he stopped.

“Yeah about 4-5 years wait but it could be done privately but it’s way too expensive for me” I replied.

“Where was best to have it done privately” he asked,

“Well Switzerland but it’s over 20 grand there’s no way I could afford that” I replied.

“Come and sit down” he said, I crossed to the bed and sat down,

“How do you go about organising it” he asked,

“Through your GP he will refer you to a clinic in Switzerland and then you organise timing’s and everything with them, but I can’t afford it” I said,

“But I can” he said, I stared at him,

“Yeah right your on a university course, where you going to get that kind of money” I said a bit sarcastically.

“No but I can” he continued,

“Look quit kidding around and finish your breakfast” I said rising and turning from the bed.

“No I mean it Nikki were multi millionaires,” I stopped in my tracks.

I turned at looked at Eddie laying in bed his half empty breakfast tray in front of him.

“What, what do you mean were millionaires” I stammered.

“Come here and sit down” he said patting the bed I walked over and sat on the edge of the bed.

“It’s like this” he began, “My grandfather was a farmer, years ago when they were building a new motorway he was offered about 1  ½ million for his land as my dad had no interest in farming he took the offer and bought over a small Public House it turned into a little gold mine and by the time he was due to retire he was lucky enough to sell it on for a large profit to one the main brewers chains. My grandmother had passed away a few years before that he had never been the same person after her death so he also passed away soon after he retired, as dad was the only child he ended up with around 4 million in his will.”

I interrupted,

“So you’re saying you and your brother will have around 4 million to split between you”

“No” he went on “Dad bought this place with some of the money and the holiday home in France the rest he invested wisely in shares on the stock-market in particular he got some good advice on a couple of electrical companies and the money he invested tripled in a couple of years so we are really sharing around 12 million between the two of us plus I get this house and my brother gets the holiday home.”

My mouth dropped open as I stared at Eddie silently my mind struggling to take this in.

“How do you think that mum was able to splash out all that cash on you when you went shopping? My dads salary was more than enough to keep them comfortable the interest on the saving’s was more than enough to allow her to indulge herself in regular blow outs on shopping trips. So that’s how I have enough to pay for your operation as soon as you like” he said reaching out and squeezing my hand.

It took a silent minute or so for all this to sink in,

“You’re not joking” I asked,

“Not at all” he responded,

“So you really have about 6 million due to you”

“Well just about once the funerals bills are paid then we’ll have just under that so your Op is top of my shopping list” he repeated “Then I want to invest in a small business maybe a Chemist’s shop with a small laboratory behind it so when I finish my course I can do some research” he said smiling at me.

The full enormity of what he had just said finally hit home in my head and a broad smile broke out on my face, it seemed a bit bizarre and in bad taste to be smiling at this time after such a tragic event, but I was so happy.

“Oh god I don’t believe this” I said excitedly leaning across the bed I kissed Eddie full on the mouth,

“I hope you’re not after my money” he joked,

“Not at all sir” I said as I rose from the bed,

“Where are you going” he asked as I turned “I’ve got loads to organise” I said walking towards the door.

“Remember only the best surgeon available he called after me” as I reached the door I turned and blew him another kiss.

“I love you so much Eddie” I said “I know” he responded as I left the room and headed of to make preparations for my final transformation to Nikki.

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To Be Continued...

“Listen darling, I’ve told you before I could not have wished for a better son and I just know that I’m going to get an even better daughter, and I know that Eddie is going to get a loving and attractive attentive wife, it’s been a pleasure having Craig as a son and it will even more of a pleasure having Nikki as a daughter, now get some sleep”

By Karin Roberts

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Within three weeks all plans had been finalised for my final transformation to Nikki. Switzerland was the chosen venue for my operation at a top clinic just outside Zurich. My mother had made some excuse to Robert and would accompany me on the trip with the story that it was a girly break away paid for by Eddie as a thank you to us for our kindness and help following the death of his parents.

Eddie by this time was back at University, so with cases packed one early April morning we set off for the airport. As I called Eddie from a phone booth at the airport to thank him for what must have felt like the millionth time I watched my mother and Robert share a passionate embrace as the said their goodbyes.

“Babes” I said as his phone answered.

“You ok” he asked

“Great just at the airport now our flights in an hour” I replied.

“You scared” he asked.

“A bit, I suppose”

“It’ll be ok you’ve got the best surgeon that money could buy” he reassured me.

“Your right it’ll be a breeze” I said with renewed optimism.

“Well call me when you’re fit enough” he asked.

“I will and Eddie I Love you so much”

“Not as much as I do you” he replied,

“Oh yes I do” I countered.

“Let’s not get in to this debate” he said with a laugh in his voice “Just be safe” he said “I will see you soon” I said as I ended the call and headed back out into the airport. Ninety minutes later we were in the air and I was on my way to meet my destiny.

We checked in to a rather plush Hotel in central Zurich and unpacked. Changing into a short red skirt and white blouse with 3 inch red high heels I touched up my make up and then grabbing a red leather purse I dropped in my cigarettes and left the room to meet mum for dinner. Knocking on her room door I entered, she was dressed in a white skirt with matching heels and a silky deep pink blouse.

“Hungry” she asked,

“Yeah a bit” I replied.

“Well make the most of it, your admitted to the clinic early tomorrow night so this is the last meal before your surgery” she said.

We walked along the lobby and waited for the lift guests looked and smiled at what to all of them seemed to be an attractive woman with her daughter on the way to the restaurant. We picked a table over by the window with a view of the bustling city as commuters made their way home from a busy day at the office. I took out my cigarettes and offered one to my mother flicking the lighter into life I lit it and inhaled the cool menthol flavour removing it from my lips I stared as the red lip mark on the filter held my the slim fingers with long red manicured nails holding it so delicately.

“Penny for them” my mother asked,

“Oh just thinking” I replied,

“It’s been quite a journey” she continued.

“You know dear I’m proud of you” she said reaching out and taking my free hand she gently squeezed it.

“You have been through so much, and you’ve been so supportive of Eddie through his loss” A tear began to form in my eye.

“I love you mum” I said with a stammer in my voice as I choked slightly on a tear putting out the cigarette I took a tissue from my bag and gently dabbed the corner of my eyes.

“Let’s eat dear” she said as a waiter approached. After our meal we returned to the
Hotel bar for a couple of glasses of wine. We found a booth near the back of the lounge and sat down lighting cigarettes we sat and chatted over our drink. I noticed a couple of well dressed men probably in their late thirties standing at the bar and caught one looking over at us and saying something to each other. Soon the picked up their drinks and headed towards us.

“Sprachen sie Duetsches” one asked my mother took the lead.

“Eh no sorry”

“Ah English” he replied.

“Well no Scottish” she responded.

“Can we join you” has asked.

“Well were only staying for one more” she said.

“Nonsense, Kurt please get these ladies a drink” he gestured to his friend and he walked back to the bar. The guy sat down next to my mother and the once the other returned with the tray of drinks he slipped in beside me in the booth.

“You ladies here on business or pleasure” he asked,

“Just a shopping trip. You” she asked, I was so glad she was taking the lead on this as I was as nervous as a kitten as it was obvious these two were trying to pick us up.

“Business we fly back to Frankfurt” tomorrow he said.

“What do you do” she continued,

“Well we work for a Pharmaceutical company as contract managers” he replied,
“I’m Wolfgang and this is Kurt” he said gesturing towards his friend we all shook hands as my mother replied,

“I’m Clare and this is Nikki my daughter” she said,

“Oh I would never have put you old enough to have a daughter that age” he said with a sleazy smile, the usual tired old chat up line I thought or maybe an insult to me did I look quite old I thought.

The chat continued and it was obvious that they were trying to come between us Wolfgang chatting away to my mother while Kurt tried his best to chat me up.

“You are married” he asked

“No, engaged” I said extending my hand towards him and showing my ring.

“Very nice” he said taking hold of my hand his middle finger stroking the inside of my palm as he held my hand. Awkwardly I removed my hand from his grasp and returned it to my lap. Aware of his gaze down my cleavage with my other hand I buttoned another button of my blouse. At that point my mother announced she was going to the toilet and Wolfgang rose letting her slide out as he went to the bar to get more drinks leaving me and Kurt alone.

Nervously I reached for my bag and took out my cigarettes,

“Here let me” he said picking up the complementary book of matches on the table and tearing one off he struck it into life and moved it towards my cigarette I bent forward immersing the tip in the flame and inhaled.

“Thanks” I said.

“So what does your fiancé do” he asked.

“Oh he’s studying ay University to be a chemist” I replied.

“Ah he’s in a similar line to us” he responded his hand moving on to my knee as I froze a little.

“Eh yeah I suppose” I stuttered as I took a nervous drag from my cigarette and blew out some smoke.

“I could help you” he went on “How’s that” I asked.

“Well” he said moving a bit closer to my ear.

“I could get him started in the business maybe a research post with my company good salary car private health insurance” he said his hand caressing my knee as he spoke.

“And just what would I need to do to earn that” I asked pulling on my cigarette again.

“Well maybe we could go upstairs get to know each other a bit better” he asked, lifting his hand from my thigh I said.

“No thanks I don’t think so my fiancé will do just fine without your help” I continued crushing out the cigarette and picking up my bag I stood and stepped out of the booth round the other side.

“Your loss” he said as I left “No actually yours and my fiancée’s gain” I said turning and blowing him a kiss as I left.

I found my mother in the lobby of the hotel on the telephone to Robert.

“Oh here’s Nikki coming, I need to go” she said hanging up the phone as I approached. As I stepped towards her she instantly knew something was wrong.

“What happened” she asked.

“Can we just go to our rooms” I asked.

“Yeah ok, Nikki what happened” as we moved towards the lift,

“I’ll tell you upstairs” I snapped as the doors opened and we stepped inside. Back in the room I told her of Kurt’s proposal.

“Oh dear I sorry, I shouldn’t have left you alone with him I knew they were trying to chat us up.” I lit a cigarette and sat on the edge of the bed.

“It’s ok I suppose I need to get used to that type of thing,”

“Yes you do my dear because someone as attractive as you well face it one day again, but judging from how you handled it, it seems you won’t need any coaching from me” she said sliding her arm around my shoulder and giving me a hug.

“Suppose I better get some sleep” I said standing and crushing out the cigarette “long day ahead oh me tomorrow” rising behind me she said.

“Sleep well dear I’ll see you in the morning” as she kissed me on the forehead. I turned and left the room heading back to my own room to spend my last night as Craig.

I stripped out of my clothes and put on a powder blue teddy nightgown before going to the bathroom and removing my make up. Back in the room I fluffed up the pillows and climbed into bed relaxing back I clicked out the light and put my head down to sleep. Sleep did not come easy and about and hour and a half later I was still tossing and turning a bit. I wasn’t sure if it was excitement or second thoughts that were going through my mind, finally I rose again and walked to the Mini-Bar in the room opening it I took out a small bottle of Chardonnay and opened it pouring it into a glass picking up my cigarettes I retired to a settee in my room and pulling a coffee table slightly closer to me I put down an ashtray and lit my cigarette and took a drink of wine from the glass.

I could not have been there more than a minute or so when there was a light tap on the door,

“Who is it” I asked.

“It’s me Nikki” my mother’s voice came from the other side of the door. I got up and crossed the room opening the door.

“You still awake” she said walking past me and into my room.

“Yeah how did you know?” I asked,

“Mother’s intuition, you got one of those for me” she asked looking at my drink,

“Eh yeah help yourself I think there’s another one in there.” She walked to the mini bar and took out another small bottle unscrewing the cap she poured it into a glass and returned to join me on the settee.

“You having second thoughts” she asked.

“No It’s not that, it’s just nerves I think worrying if thing’s go wrong or what happens in the future and if me and Eddie don’t work” I said.

“Look Nikki, I don’t think you have anything to worry about on that score the surgeon is the best we could get, he’s done hundred’s of these all the prognosis’s have been good and with regards to you and Eddie I don’t think I’ve ever seen a couple more in love than you two, so if anyone can make it work you two will, trust me I know what I’m talking about after what happened with your dad” she finished.

“So what about you and Robert” I asked,

“We are fine, ok I’ll never love him the way I loved your father but he comes close and that’s good enough for me” she said lighting one of my cigarettes.

She went on “Listen darling, I’ve told you before I could not have wished for a better son and I just know that I’m going to get an even better daughter, and I know that Eddie is going to get a loving and attractive attentive wife, it’s been a pleasure having Craig as a son and it will even more of a pleasure having Nikki as a daughter, now get some sleep” With that, she rose and crushing out the half smoked cigarette she hugged me again and kissed me on the forehead once more before turning towards the door.

“Mum” I said,

“Yes”,

“Love you so much,”

I know dear now get some rest.” Putting out my cigarette I finished my glass of wine and returned to bed this time sleep came easily.

The next morning I awoke and took a leisurely shower before pulling on some clothes a knee length black skirt and wine blouse I reapplied my make up and called my mother’s room.

“What do you want to do today” I asked,

“Let’s just have a walk around town, you need to be at the clinic by six” she said.

“Ok meet you in the lobby in ten” I said replacing the phone. Picking up my jacket and bag I left the room and went downstairs, looking at my watch I saw it was just after nine, so I figured would still be able to talk to Eddie. I picked up the phone and dialled his number.

“Hi Eddie” I said as the phone was answered.

“Is that you babes” he asked,

“Who else would it be at this time of the morning, you got another piece on the side stashed away” I joked.

“Not likely there’s only one girl for me, and I’m talking to her” he said,

“Good keep it that way,”

“I will, how’s it going anyway you ok, I wish I could be there,”

“Its ok mum’s been great” I said,

“Were just off to do a spot of window shopping” I said,

“I’m not due at the clinic till six” I continued.

“Well treat yourself to something sexy on me” he said,

“Thanks I, but you’ve given me enough already” I responded.

“No seriously get yourself something it will keep your spirits up,”

“Well maybe” I said,

“Look I need to go I’ve an exam at nine but you be careful, and Nikki I love you so much” he said,

“I know babes I love you too, and I miss you,”

“I miss you to” he said as we parted company for the moment the next time we would talk Nikki would have finally reached her goal.

A few hour’s later after having gone shopping we were back in the hotel packing our overnight bags for the clinic. I put away the rather sexy white lingerie that Eddie had talked me into buying knowing that when I finally wore this for him all the right bits would be in the right places. Packed and ready I met my mother downstairs as we made our way out to the Taxi not to our surprise we spotted two familiar looking Germans trying to chat up two Oriental air stewardesses in the bar, a smile crept across our faces,

“Some people never give up, what do you think Kurt would have said if he’d known” my mom asked,

“Never had a chance” I replied,

“That’s my girl” she said as we climbed into the taxi and it pulled away from the hotel.

Forty minutes later we were checking into the rather plush clinic in the Swiss countryside. The clinic had private facilities for family members to stay over during the course of the treatment so we were allocated adjacent rooms. About an hour later I was stripped and in bed waiting for a final meeting with my surgeon, my mother by my bedside. The final chat with the surgeon was just to go through the procedure once more check that there was no second thought’s and reassure the patient that everything would be ok. With that over and my mother back in her own room I settled back to read a book soon I was asleep and tomorrow would be a big day.

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To Be Continued...

“You ready for this” she said with a sly grin.

As I went to speak her mouth moved forward and planted itself on mine her tongue moving inside at the same time a bit shocked it took me a minute to realise what she was trying to do before I responded back to make it look like a passionate kiss, once more form the corner of my eye I could see the two guys this time mouth’s open as they stared at the scene before them. As the music stopped we broke the kiss and hand in hand began to walk back to the booth.

As we got there I said, “How about another drink guys, this is thirsty work”

By Karin Roberts

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I awoke early the next morning the sunlight streaming in my window as stretched out in my bed. Shortly a nurse appeared and spoke to me,

“You all set for today” then she asked,

“Yeah can’t wait” I said,

“It’s not often in this job that you here someone so desperate to go for an op” she said with a smile.

“Well meet the exception” I said.

The connecting door opened and my mother walked in,

“Morning darling” she said as she reached the bed bending down and kissing my forehead, “Sleep well” she asked,

“Yeah I did, you”

“Like a log” she responded.

“The anaesthetist will be along in about 15 minutes I’ll see you after the op” said the nurse who had been busy pottering about in the room as she left us.

“Well today’s the day and second thoughts” asked my mother as she plumped up the pillows behind me.

“None what so ever” I replied my mother opened a small bag she had been holding and handed me a white envelope and a small box,

“Eddie asked me to give you this” she said, eagerly opening the envelope I took out the card opening it I read,

“To my Darling Nikki good luck, I wish I could be there, Love you now and always, Eddie”
Placing the card on the bedside cabinet I opened the box to discover a pair of sparkling earrings,

“Oh there beautiful” I exclaimed,

“Real Diamonds" my mother said. I took them out and fitted one to my ear my mother taking a mirror from the cabinet held it so I could see it on my ear.

“There lovely darling wish I had a pair” she said at that the door opened and a couple of hospital staff entered.

“Ready for you anaesthetic” one asked,

“Ok” I said.

Removing the earring from my ear I put it back in the box and handed them back to my mother, one of the staff took my arm began rubbing a cold liquid into my arm producing a syringe he pricked the top of my arm and then said,

“All done couple of minutes and you will be sleeping like a baby” before he walked to the other side of the room. As he predicted I began to feel my eyes grow heavy and the last I can remember was my mother kissing my forehead and saying,

“I’ll be here when you get back darling” then only blackness surrounded me.

My eyes began to open a grogginess surrounding my brain as I began to awake from the anaesthetic I was aware of the bandages surrounding my face then it came back to me as well as the reassignment operation they had been carrying out a minor alteration to the shape of my nose just a minor reduction in the main bone to slim the shape a bit. I had a tube in my mouth and an oxygen mask covering my mouth to ease breathing.

I turned my head slightly and the first thing I focussed on was a huge bunch of flowers on the cabinet next to my bed. I heard movement and tried to lift my head slightly a voice,

“Your awake darling” as my mother appeared by my bedside, a plastic cup in her hand, looking at the flowers again she acknowledged my stare.
“Yeah there from Eddie and me, the operation went really well the consultant said he will come down and see you later today to check on you, the bandages need to stay on for a week but they were really happy with the way that went as well, how do you feel” she said sounding more excited than me.

“Oh silly me you can’t talk just now can you, well just nod your head, do you feel ok” I nodded.

“Good well you just rest and let healing take its natural course” I lay back soon I was back asleep.

The weeks passed reasonably quickly and after 3 weeks wjer mum had been a daily visitor I was strong enough to be released. I had seen both consultants at times throughout the stay in hospital both had been really happy with the results of my operations. My reassignment consultant had said that it was one of the easiest ops he had performed and was really happy with the end result; my cosmetic consultant had also been pleased and expected minimum bruising and discomfort once the bandages were removed. I had been issued with my dialator which had grown In size over the time. I had nicknamed it my “toolkit” which Mum hated and looked scornfully at me every time I used the term.

So on Saturday morning with mother by my bedside the unveiling of the new Nikki took place and the bandages were removed, in truth I looked a bit like a panda with some bruising round the eyes and cheeks but otherwise everything seemed fine.

So later, that morning I left hospital, 100% Nikki for the first time. We were due to stay in Switzerland for another 3 days so we spent the time wandering around and seeing the sights. The night before we were due to fly back I phoned Eddie,

“Hi babes” I said.

“Hello Nikki how you doing”

“Good we fly back tomorrow when can I see you, I’ve missed you so much it seems like an eternity since I say you last”,

“Well I might make it up in two weeks” he said,

“Two week’s not before then” I asked,

“Sorry babe’s really busy period with course work just now but I’ll make it up to you”

“You better, I’ve got something new to road test with you” I joked he laughed,

“Looking forward to it, I was thinking we all deserve a holiday in the summer, what do you think”

“Sounds good to me some sun sand sea and sex” I said once more he laughed,

“Think I might have created a bit of a nymphomaniac here” he said jokingly.

“No just someone who wants to please her man” I said “Well I’ll see you soon, love you babes” “yeah and I love you too, take care” I said and with that he was gone.

Two weeks later I nervously waited for Eddie to arrive home, I had been to a local GP to check the progress of my surgery and everything was ok even better all signs of my nose op had vanished and for such a small change the difference to me seemed immense my feminine looks appeared to have been enhanced quite considerably to the extent that even I did not recognise any of the old Craig in my facial features. During my transformation I came to realise certain characteristics that I never new I had, well maybe they had been there buried away in Craig, now that Craig was gone Nikki seemed to have brought them to the fore.

One was the thrill of risk taking, that probably comes as no surprise as I had been taking risks since I agreed to go ahead with the scheme of becoming Nikki in the first place. In short I was still learning to be a woman and what might have been safe for Craig was not always safe for Nikki. The second was being impulsive I sometimes acted without thinking about the consequences. Now both characteristics are ok if you know you have them and can combat and control them but if you let your guard down and allow them to influence your life, then combined together they can be a dangerous position as I was to find out later today.

It was mid afternoon when the phone rang Mum answered it,

“Nikki dear it’s Eddie for you” as I walked towards the telephone Mum and Eddie were engaged in pleasantries, taking the phone from Mum I said,

“Hi babes, when will you be home I’m dying to see you,” then a short silence.

“Eh that’s just it Nikki the cars broken down I can’t get home,” he replied,

“Eddie I was so looking forward to this, it’s the first I’ve seen you from the op”

“I know babes but I can’t help it, it’s going to take hours to fix it and it would be too late by then” I was angry, upset , emotional I don’t know but we were having our first row,

“I went to all that trouble of getting the op done and you can’t be bothered to come home” I snapped.

“It’s not the Nikki, it’s the car. I really wanted to see you as well, but I can’t help it”

“Yeah sure” I said.

“Honest look I need to go that’s the Roadside Rescue just arrived I’ll make it up to you, you know I love you” he said.

“Yeah whatever” I said as I hung up. I’m went upstairs and cried I’m not sure why tonight had been such a big deal but it just was. Well I wasn’t going to stay in all night I wanted to be out and about as Nikki so half an hour later I had phoned Carol my old buddy from college and we had arranged to go clubbing , now what to wear ?

So by half past seven I was seated at my dressing table finishing of my make up dark blue and slate grey eye shadow with lots of mascara and some eyeliner and vibrant Red glossy lip colour on my lips I was painting my nails a matching colour to the lipstick before finishing of with a coat of clear varnish. I pulled on a short red Lycra mini skirt before sliding a tight white cotton top over my chest the top was not that deep cut but just at the top of the cleavage it had a gold ring which left a view of some of what was underneath. Tying the halter straps around my neck I put on a gold necklace that Eddie’s mother had given me. Thinking of Eddie again renewed my disappointment a bit more and dimmed my mood a bit.

I picked up my shoes red stilettos with a gold metal heel 41/2 inch heels with an ankle strap with a gold buckle. Shoes on I checked my bag ciggies ,lipstick, lighter, purse, spare pair of stocking’s everything I needed for the night ahead. I slipped on a couple of ring’s but strangely for me I slipped off my engagement ring and put it back in my jewellery box. A gold watch and a gold charm bracelet completed my jewellery; I loved that bracelet the way the charms clicked together as you moved you hand. I left the room and went downstairs Mum and Robert had gone out for a meal so I poured my self a drink. Vodka with some diet Irn Bru and some ice I picked up the telephone and called a taxi.

Sitting on the settee I lit a cigarette and watched the smoke drift lazily up to the ceiling as I could see the slim cigarette in my long nailed painted fingers, a car horn sounded and took a final drag of my cigarette as I extinguished it and headed out for a night on the town.

The taxi slowed to a halt as we reached the Town Centre , I spotted Carol by the clock as we had arranged looking almost indecent, silver stilettos with a shiny silver mini skirt and matching halter neck bra top. I paid the driver and got out she waved as I waited for a gap in the traffic. This was the first time I had seen her for a few months so she had never seen my minor nose job.

“God you look hot tonight” she said as I approached.

“Yeah and you look positively boiling” I quickly replied, We laughed and as brushed each other cheeks with our lips as me made our way towards a pub. Inside the spacious bar we found a spare table and I went to the bar returning with two Pineapple alcho pops complete with straws we began to catch up.

“You look a bit different” she asked,

“Eh well I had a small op”

“Where” she asked,

“Just on my nose they shaved a little bit off the bone to make it a bit thinner”,

“Jesus girl a nose job, how much did that set you back,”

“Oh not that much Eddie paid for it”

“You lucky bitch a good looking boyfriend and he has money” Carol didn’t know how much and of course she never knew my other secret either but so what we were friends. “So what you been up to recently” I asked,

“Same shit, work , crap luck with guy’s the usual, but who knows maybe my luck will change tonight, we both can’t fail looking like this” she said pushing forward and wiggling her less than covered boobs, laughing we lit up a cigarette each and continued our gossip.

As we approached closing time we drained our drinks and stubbed out cigarettes as we got up to go to a club we’d agreed on a new place that had opened up around the beginning of the year which neither of us had been at yet. After paying in we climbed the staircase comments coming from behind us as a couple of slightly drunk guys tried to see up our skirts.

“Grow up shithead” Carol said turning towards them as I gently took her arm and led her the last few steps to the top.

The club had not really kicked into life yet; I spotted a booth and pointed to Carol as she made her way to the bar to get drinks for us. As the club got busier two guy’s targeted us introducing themselves as Alan and George they bought us a drink and we got talking I knew right away the Carol was not interested as her nose turned up a bit out of sight of the two guys. After around 10 minutes it became clear that these two were so full of themselves and ultra boring in their conversation.

“I need the bathroom Carol announced come with me Nikki” , co the two guys stood up and let us slide out of the booth I could see George lightly run his hand across Carol’s arse as we left the booth.

Once inside the toilet Carol spoke,

“Have you ever been so bored in your life, those two would have you asleep in ten minutes I bet they have never had a good fuck in their life, their partner would be asleep in no time”

I could hear giggling from a girl in another stall as Carol let go with her rant. Once we had freshened up our lipstick Carol said, “Look we need to loose these two otherwise I’m not going to get shagged tonight”

“So what do we do” I asked.

“I have a plan just work with me on this one.”

So with that we left the bathroom and headed back towards our table. We slide back in beside the boys and Carol took out her cigarettes offering me one we lit up and began chatting about ten minutes later a rather slow track began from the DJ booth, Carol put down her drink and took my hand I looked at her in some surprise and she winked.

“You don’t mind boys if I take my girlfriend up for a dance do you” she said flashing a wicked smile in Alan’s direction,

“No not at all” he replied we rose and Carol led me to the dance floor but close to the booth we had been sitting at,

“Now go with me on this” she said whispering into my ear.

Out the corner of my eye I could see the guy’s watching us as Carol put her arms around my neck pulling me a bit closer our bodies touching as we swayed to the music, gradually I could feel one of Carol’s hands slide slowly down my back finally coming to rest on my arse where she squeezed gently.

“You ready for this” she said with a sly grin.

As I went to speak her mouth moved forward and planted itself on mine her tongue moving inside at the same time a bit shocked it took me a minute to realise what she was trying to do before I responded back to make it look like a passionate kiss, once more form the corner of my eye I could see the two guys this time mouth’s open as they stared at the scene before them. As the music stopped we broke the kiss and hand in hand began to walk back to the booth. As we got there I said,

“How about another drink guys, this is thirsty work” George looked up.

“Eh I don’t know I think we need to be going both working tomorrow” he said as they both stood and walked from the booth, as they left me and Carol collapsed into the booth with a fit of giggles.

The club was now pretty packed and Carol decided it was time for another drink we were both getting a little tipsy now but still having a good time. She seemed to have been away for ages and I was getting anxious, “what the hell was keeping her” I said to myself opening my small clutch bag I took out my cigarettes and took one from the packet, I fumbled about in the dim light in my bag looking for my lighter finally finding it I lifted it from the bag, as I did so my hand bumped the table and I dropped the lighter. I fumbled around in the dark feeling the floor with my hand bending down my hand brushing the floor. Then a voice spoke,

“You looking for this babes” and I looked up there in front of me stood Gordy with my lighter in his hand!

It took a few seconds to get over the shock, just behind Gordy stood Carol her arms around Andy.

“Is this yours” he asked again,

“Eh yes sorry I was in a dream there” I mumbled,

“Hope you were dreaming of me” he said with a smirk on his face, he leaned forward and flicked the lighter into life I slipped the tip of the cigarette into the flame and inhaled the menthol smoke blowing out a white stream he handed the lighter back to me and I dropped it back in my bag.

“Thanks” I said as all three of them sat down.

“This is Andy, the guy I was telling you about earlier and that’s Gordon”

Carol piped up introducing them to me not that she needed to, when we were catching up earlier Carol had told me about a guy she had met at a club a few weeks before she said they had great sex a little rough how he had tied her hands above her head and brought her off with his mouth before he had entered her and pounded away at her while she was begging for her to untie her hands before he had brought her to another powerful orgasm. I figured that would be Andy’s style given what I knew of him.

I sat with my cigarette held high in my right hand away from my face my other arm tucked across my chest just below my chest. Legs crossed I looked down my skirt revelled a bit too much thigh I tugged it down with my left hand and replaced the arm across my chest.

“Hey you three must have been at school together” Carol half shouted above the noise of the music.

“Don’t think so” Gordy said as I glanced at him I could see him leering down at my tits and legs.

“I would have remembered this hot little honey” he said his arm snaking around my back pulling me a bit closer to him. I took a nervous draw of my cigarette as Andy spoke.

“Yeah, Nikki what’s your second name” maybe we do remember you eh,

“Adams” I stammered nervously,

“You remember her Gordy” Andy asked “No can’t say I do,”

Eh I was a rather late developer” I said as I moved a bit closer to Gordy figuring that maybe attack was the best form of defence.

“And you developed rather nicely” Gordy whispered in my ear his mouth moving closer to me as his tongue flicked my ear. I turned towards him the first thing I noticed was a tattoo on his hand, a heart with Lesley on it,

“That your girlfriend” I asked,

“Yeah it is” I looked at him he was big when he was at school, but more just bulk than muscle he seemed to have toned up gym weightlifting no doubt I wondered what it would be like to be held in those strong arms taken by him, christ snap out of it the drink was really getting to me. Inside my heart was beating furiously.
“Eh I’ll get us some drinks” I say taking a drag from my cigarette and extinguishing it in the ashtray.

I picked up my bag and got up, Gordy makes no attempt to move and I try to slide past him he moves his legs slightly and as I slip in front of him his hands rest on my waist sliding down to my thighs before I moved away from him and towards the dance floor. Instead of going straight to the bar I go to the Toilets. Inside I slide inside an empty cubicle and lean back against the door, opening my bag I take out a cigarette and light it.

Jesus what the fuck am I doing here, I think to myself blowing a cloud of smoke in the air. I need to get out of this, but how, the smart thing to do was just leave now but I worried about Carol, get a grip of yourself I thought, go get the drinks and go back make an excuse, headache anything then get Carol to leave with you, maybe she won’t but then that’s her choice but you get out of there. I opened the door and stepped out walked over to the mirror’s and touched up my lipstick, the sound of a girl being sick from too much alcohol in another stall as another entered the toilet,

“Someone seems to have enjoyed themselves a little too much” she said “Sounds like it” ad I left the toilet and headed towards the bar.

At the bar I bought three drinks vodka and coke for Carol and two beers for Andy and Gordy I walked back with the tray and stopped in front of the table Carol was half way down Andy’s throat and his hand was firmly lodged between her legs.

“Eh Carol can I talk to you for a second” I ask,

“Sure babes what’s up she said finally breaking the kiss and removing Andy’s hand from beneath her skirt. She got up and walked over to me.

“Look I’ve got s splitting headache I’m going to go home you coming” she looked back at Andy,

“Eh no I think I’ll stay, if that’s ok” she asks,

“Yeah you do what you want its ok by me but be careful” I said offering a weak smile.

“I call you tomorrow give you all the juicy details” she says with a smile as she turns back and I turn to leave.

I walked down the stairs and out into the night turning right away from the club I headed to the taxi rank to get a cab. The club was under a railway bridge so the street was a bit poorly lit and deserted. Suddenly I heard two steps and someone grip my arm and pull me into a little alley. It was Gordy,

“Hey what you doing” I said,

“You left the party early babes, I just wanted to say goodnight he” said his arm out baring my exit from the alley.

“Look I just didn’t feel too well maybe a bit too much to drink” I said,

“It’s ok babes I just wanted a chat” he said, I had my back to the wall opening my bag I took out my cigarettes I figured the best way of getting out of this was at least to be nice to him.

I put one to my lips and Gordy flicked his lighter and lit my ciggie. I leaned back one my knee bent the sole of my shoe placed flat against the wall foot slightly raised of the ground. Lighting a cigarette himself he said,

“You know I’m sure I would have remembered you from school we only had one Adams in my year I think a guy called Craig you know him he asked”

“Eh no” I stammered taking a drag from the cigarette I blew out the smoke my eyes avoiding Gordy as I did so.

“Oh is that so” he replied

I lifted the cigarette to my mouth once more and inhaled holding the smoke in my open mouth for a snap inhale as the cigarette moved away from my mouth Gordy swung into action his hand shot forward and grabbed the wrist the was holding the cigarette pushing it back against the wall I dropped it, in unison his mouth moved forward and before I had a chance to move his mouth covered my open mouth trapping the smoke his tongue dived deeply into my mouth his other hand gripped my other wrist and forced it upwards Jesus he was strong his body crushing me against the wall as the kiss continued my once both my hands were above my head his large hands held them there and hi free hand moved downwards he broke the kiss and his hand covered my mouth as he looked deep into my eyes.

“Your not going to scream now are you” he asked, I needed to talk my way out of this so I shook my head.

“Good Nikki” he said as his hand was removed his breath tickling my face as he spoke

“You see I know it’s you Craig,” the bottom fell out of my world.

“I know all about your change and Eddie, this is a small town word gets out rumours and stuff you know and you do have a history of playing the sexy girl don’t you. Remember that day in the pub with the old bird; I knew it was you then as well”

“So what do you want” I asked,

“Well I thought that might be obvious, don’t you” he said as he leered at me, I had to think fast,

“You remember that day in the alley” he continued “when I knocked fuck out you”

“Eh yeah” I replied,

“A bit ironic isn’t here we are in an alley and I’m going to fuck you again” I needed some way to get out of this keep him talking the club would be closing shortly I thought,

“I didn’t think I would be your type” I said “being an ex guy and that”

“Well these are real aren’t they” he said his hand massaging my breast the nipple hardening against my wishes.

“See a sign” he said his fingers tweaking my enlarging nipple “and from what I’ve heard there been some developments down below recently” his hand moving downwards tracing the front of my skirt.
“Oh dear, there you go something appears to be missing” as he increased the pressure on my groin area.

“It doesn’t have to be like this though” I said,

“We could do it properly” His grip on my wrists slackening slightly.

“But your with Eddie” he said.

“No we split out today” I lied, “look no engagement ring” he looked up I bent my finger slightly to let him see. I was gambling now but I had nothing to lose my head moving forward my tongue snaked into his ear whispering,

“You know some quality time together, take a lot longer time for a bit muscular guy like you to make me squeal with delight” as my mouth moved towards his opening as I spoke meeting his lips my tongue moving between them as I kissed him he responded at first then stopped.

“Nice try” he said, “But I’ve got a reputation to think of you know me Gordy with a someone who changes sex, don’t think so, you see this way I get my fun and nobody knows just like William did” my breath caught in my throat.

“Yeah that’s right I know about his little visit, sick fuck phoned me to tell me all about it thought it might get him into my good books somehow” the words had just left his mouth when all hell broke loose.

“You sick bastard” a girls voice the sound of breaking glass Gordy let loose as he buckled a bit.

This was my chance I dodged right, a punch thrown at me from my left ducking I missed it and moved forward bending as I did and taking of my heels an arm grabbed me and spun my round the long nails tearing the skin of my inner arm as I spun round I caught a glimpse of Lesley.

“Yeah that’s it tart get out of here” she yelled swinging another punch at me she caught the top of my forehead and yelled as she hurt her hand, I turned and began sprinting down the street the yelling continuing as I fled, talk about déjá  vu I thought turning the corner I spotted a taxi slowing I walked towards it and opened the door giving the driver instructions as we drove off we could see the altercation continue,

“Same every week babe, people over indulge and then it kicks off,”

“Yes” I said quietly as we drove away.

The taxi pulled up and my house and I paid the driver rushing up the path I took out my key and quietly put it in the lock. Opening the door I slipped inside and headed straight for the lounge grabbing a bottle of vodka I went to the kitchen and picked up a glass. Pouring a sizeable measure into the glass I opened the fridge and dropped in some ice and some topped the vodka up with some Irn-Bru** I sat at the breakfast bar and opened my bag removing my cigarettes I took one and lit it my nerves were shattered and my head all over the place. I took a large gulp of the drink swallowing the cold liquid and another puff from the cigarette and then the tears came. I put down the glass and dropped the cigarette into the ashtray covering my face with my hands I wracked my body with sobs of despair. I don’t know how long I had been crying before the kitchen light burst into life,

“Nikki, darling what is it” as my mother rushed to my side I moved my hands the mascara and eye shadow had run all down my cheeks.

“What happened darling” as my mother reached me her arm going around me in the motherly fashion.

“It’s all a mess” I said through tears and hugged her back.

Half an hour later another drink and a couple of cigarettes between us and I had recounted the nights events to my mother.

“Nikki how could you lead him on like that” she said in surprise.

“I don’t think I did well not a lot I was angry that Eddie never came up, I never knew he was going to be there” maybe I just thought he would never recognise me you know get my own back a bit for how he treated both of us back then” I said through some sobs.

“Eddie’s phoned several time for you tonight” she said,

“What did you tell him?”

“Just that you went out with Carol”

“I’m going to have to move Mum, they know about me and the swap, I can’t stay here” I said through more sobs.

“Look calm down he’s a thug and a small minded individual, you’ve have never done anything to harm anyone in your life. Your setting out on a new life with someone you love just ignore them, now go and wash your face and get some sleep, it will all look better in the morning” taking a last draw from my cigarette and extinguishing it in the ashtray I picked up my bag and shoes and climbed of the seat, kissing my mother on the forehead.

“Love you” I said,

“Love you too babes, now goodnight” I left the kitchen and headed upstairs to the bathroom.

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To Be Continued...

I looked at Eddie worried that this would change things between us.

“So did he hurt you” he asked.

“No Lesley came out and hit him and I managed to sneak off in the commotion. It doesn’t change anything between us, Oh and promise me you’ll leave it alone and not challenge Gordy about it?"

He looked at me and said “Why would it change anything? You know I love you and care for you. Just please be careful Nikki. I can’t think of what I would do if anything happened to you. I’ve lost enough in this lifetime. Losing you would just be the final straw.”

By Karin Roberts

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Mother was right the next morning thing’s seemed a lot brighter, I decided that I would tell Eddie about last night not right away but when the time was right I most definitely didn’t want him going after Gordy the way he had with William, so I had to pick my moment.

Carol called to find out what had happened last night as she had heard there was some commotion and Gordy had been involved, I explained what happened and she listened and sympathised.

“You should report him to the police, I mean that’s assault.”

“Eh I don’t want to do that” I replied.

“Why not”

“I just can’t” I insisted

“Look is it because you had a sex change”

There was silence on the line; she knew how did she know.

“Nikki you there Nikki”

“Yeah I’m here” I replied.

“Look it makes no difference to me about your past, you will always be my friend, and I don’t see anything other that an attractive female” she added.

“Thanks, how did you find out?”

“Andy had a go at me after you left asked what it was like to go around with some sort of freak. I tipped a glass of beer over his head and left, shit for brains that gut. Anyway I don’t care I’m here fro you if you need me.”

“Thanks, I better go”

“Ok you stay safe and I love you babe”

“Me to” I said as I hung up the phone.

Later that day Eddie called, “You ok babes” he asked

“Yeah I’m sorry about yesterday, time of the month thing” I joked.

“I really missed seeing you I’ve just been so busy with course work and all that I should have got the car checked out”

“Its ok babes I shouldn’t be such a stroppy cow” I replied.

“I was thinking” Eddie went on “It’s only a few months till I finish this session, we could all do with a holiday, why don’t I book something we can get away from it all just chill and relax, what do you say”

“Sounds good to me, where do you have in mind.”

”Don’t know leave it with me I’ll get back to you, Love you” he said “I miss you babes” I replied as he hung up.

Me and Carol met up on Wednesday lunch time for a coffee; Carol was keen to learn more about me in an interested friendly way rather than prying into my business.

“So you’ve had the full op then.” I explained the circumstances from the beginning the plan to ruin Eddie the plan how I never went through with it, Eddie’s search for me our subsequent dates and the surprise of me falling in love with him and him with me, by the time I had finished there was a slight tear in Carol’s eye,

“Oh that’s so sweet” she said, “wish I could meet a guy like Eddie instead of some of the jerks I’ve been with, the latest areshole included” she said with an ironic chuckle.

“Look if it helps you I had absolutely no idea that you had been a guy, and more to the point I don’t give a damn we are friends and that’s it, if other people have a problem with it the too bad. I’m not going to say anything to anyone so you’re secret is safe with me” she said.

“Thanks” I said. Our lunch date over we headed our separate ways agreeing to meet up soon for a drink,

“But no guy’s” this time she said laughing as we parted company. Late that night when I got back home mum was in a state of great excitement.

“What’s up” I asked,

“You need to phone Eddie” she said, “He called earlier today he’s got some news for you”

I picked up the phone and called Eddie’s dormitory after a couple of minutes he was on the line,

“Hi babes look I don’t have long going to an evening lecture in about 15 minutes, I just wanted to tell you that I booked our holiday”

“Great where we going” I asked.

“Well it’s hot and sunny”

“Yeah” I said,

“It’s far away” he said.

“Look just get on with it” I said bursting with excitement.

“It’s 10 days in Thailand and Bali” he said,

“Oh” I said,

“You don’t sound happy” he said,

“No it’s great I said just thought that you might have picked somewhere closer to home” I said.

“Look I hope you don’t mind but I’ve booked it for four so that your mum and Robert can come as well, it’s been a rough year for us all and we need a break”

“No I don’t mind that was thoughtful of you” I said

“We’ll speak soon, I need to go” he said and with that hung up.

“Isn’t it great” Mum said as I walked back into the kitchen.

“Yeah it’ll be great; I’m looking forward to it.” I said sitting up on a kitchen stool and lighting a cigarette.

The weeks and months passed we had Christmas and the New Year together as usual before Eddie went back to University. Four people excited by the prospect of a great holiday early in the New Year.

Just over a year after my surgery we all stood in the airport departure lounge waiting for our flight to Thailand. Me and Eddie walked hand in hand in the lounge the first time we had spent any time together since Christmas. We found an empty smoking booth and Eddie walked in with me to have a cigarette, I lit up,

“Eddie there’s something I need to tell you, it’s been bugging me for a few weeks now”

He looked at me intently I took a draw on the cigarette and blew a cloud of smoke away to the right from his face.

“What is it babes I thought you’ve been a bit tense”

“You know the night that the car failed and I went out with Carol”

“Yeah” I continued, “Well something happened we were in a club and this guy followed me out and dragged me up an alley and kissed me”

I took another long puff on the cigarette then speaking through smoke I said “The guy was Gordy”

“You what” he said.

“You see Carol was seeing Andy, I didn’t know that till on that night she mentioned some guy but never said who he was. Anyway they were at the club and came over, I left and he followed me, the thing is he knows about my op and us being together”

I looked at Eddie worried that this would change things between us.

“So did he hurt you” he asked.

“No Lesley came out and hit him and I managed to sneak off in the commotion. It doesn’t change anything between us, Oh and promise me you’ll leave it alone and not challenge Gordy about it?"

He looked at me and said “Why would it change anything? You know I love you and care for you. Just please be careful Nikki. I can’t think of what I would do if anything happened to you. I’ve lost enough in this lifetime. Losing you would just be the final straw.”

I looked at him and just had to kiss him my mouth opening greeting his tongue eagerly. Had we not been in an airport departure lounge I think our first sexual adventure would have happened right there, I was tingling with excitement I wanted him inside me and I knew that within the next day or so he would be, we broke the kiss and just looked into each others eyes.

Just then an announcement came over the tannoy, “That’s our flight darling let’s go on holiday” he said.

“Yeah let’s" I crushed out my cigarette and stood up taking his hand, and together we walked back towards our departure gate.

Several hours later we touched down in the early hours of a Thai morning, a taxi transfer to our resort we stepped in to a marble reception cool and welcoming from the oppressive heat outside. Eddie claimed our keys and directions to the two cabins which we had in the grounds of the hotel my mother spoke first.

“When I packed I packed two boys cases and two girls cases so it needs to be me and Nikki tonight and the two boys sharing as well, we can sort out all the stuff tomorrow once we have had a sleep.”

Tiredness had rendered the rest of us silent and we meekly accepted the situation and trooped of to our cabins. Once inside we collapsed into our beds and sleep followed quickly.

The next we awoke late morning and me and mum wandered down to the restaurant area for some fresh fruit, cereal and black coffee to try and kick off some of the jet lag. Over a coffee and a cigarette she asked,

“What you two going to do today” she asked,

“Oh just chill out do a bit of sunbathing” I said continuing I said.

“I told Eddie about what happened with Gordy in the airport yesterday”

“What did he say” she asked,

“He was angry I think but he’s ok with it now, I just hope he doesn’t get any ideas when we get back on taking him on about it”

“He won’t” she replied “He’s a sensible guy and if you asked him not to then he won’t because he loves you” As we took a last draw from our cigarettes we put them out and picked up our bags to go and find the guys.

Robert was dressed and sitting flicking through the satellite TV when we walked into there cabin

“Ready lover” mum asked him crossing the room and planting a kiss on his lips I cringed as all people do when the see affection between parents.

“Where’s Eddie” I asked.

“He’s in the shower shouldn’t be too long” Robert said.

“Ok we ready to hit the road” he asked my mother.

“What are you two doing” I asked
”Eh we arranged a hire car were going to have a little drive around, give you two some time to yourselves” my mum said.

“Ok enjoy your day” I said as she took Robert’s hand and they left the cabin. I could hear the shower running in the bathroom, maybe I could take advantage of this I thought.

I was dressed in a wrap over skirt with a bikini underneath and flat sandals. I undid the skirt and let it drop to the floor walking towards the bathroom. All the cabin’s appeared to be of a similar design so I knew that when I went in Eddies back would be to me. I opened the door quietly and slipped into the misty room slowly I walked over and stepped opened the shower cubicle a splash of water hitting my leg as I did so, quickly I stepped inside pulling the door behind me.

My arms encircled Eddie’s waist and my lips touched his shoulder. “Morning darling” I whispered in his ear my hand moving down his flat stomach towards his groin finding his penis growing by the second as I kissed his neck gently. I wrapped my fingers around the now fully erect member and slowly pumped him with my hand, he turned,

“You’re a naughty girl” he said with a smile.

“I’ve not been naughty yet , but I intend to be” I said with a shy seductive look on my face as I put my arms around his neck and our mouths met, two tongues showing ferocity as they battled it out in each others mouths. The kiss broke and I traced my hands down Eddies body feeling his nipples stiffen as I began to bend , pushing in the chest him with one hand against the tiled wall I crouched before him my hand cupping his balls and gently squeezing them as the tip of my tongue teased the tip of his penis moving forward I fixed my lips to the side of his cock and slid it into my mouth moving forward until his wet pubic hair pricked my nose and chin. My pace was gentle as I moved backwards and forward while my tongue ran up the shaft or curled around it.

Moans began to escape from Eddie’s mouth “Nikki, Oh yes Nikki” my pace increased I could feel Eddie’s hands tighten on the side of my head and increased throbbing in his manhood before it erupted in my throat.

“Aaaachh jezsus Nikki” he said as I stepped up a little speck of his juice on my lip I touched it with my finger and seductively put the finger in my mouth the full length before slowly drawing it out. I moved forward and we resumed kissing Eddie’s hand on my hip I eased it away and drew it across between my legs pushing his fingers against my new toy.

The kiss broke “Wait Nikki, I need my breakfast” he said I looked in amazement “Really honey there will be plenty of time for us but I really need some food” I stood back and he took my hand and opened the shower door and led me out while Eddie dried off I blew dry hair and put my skirt back on ten minutes later we were seated together in the hotel restaurant.

I lit a cigarette and blew out a stream of white smoke away for the table as Eddie tucked into a bowl of cereal. Nervously I worked away some ash from the tip by running it around the side of the ashtray before inhaling once more,

“Eddie can I ask you something”

“Sure” he said lifting his fruit juice and taking a drink.

“We are ok, aren’t we you know after the Gordy thing”

“Sure we are” he replied, I spoke quietly nervously tagging another drag on the cigarette,

“It’s just back there when I wanted to you know” a flush of embarrassment on my cheeks
“You didn’t seem to want to,”

He reached forward covering my hand speaking quietly he said “Look I did want to, god I’ve been waiting to do that with you for so long, it’s just…. Just that I want the first time to be special for both of us, it’s not that I didn’t enjoy what you did, I just want it to be something we will always remember, ok” as he squeezed my hand gently, I looked up,

“Ok” I said,

“Fine now lets do some sunbathing before your mum and Robert get back otherwise they will think we spent all day in the room.”

Mum and Robert arrive back around four and we all headed back to our cabin’s to grab a quick nap before dinner. Around seven with a change of clothes I wore a short white denim skirt tight on my hips and a pink cotton halter top and pink stilettos while mum had a tight navy skirt with matching high heels and a red cotton tube top. Both of us arrived just before Eddie and Robert we sat and lit a cigarette watching the other diners

“Did you have a good day, see anything interesting”

“Not much really just seen a bit of the town visited a couple of shops, you”

“We did some sunbathing goofed around a little nothing major”

Eddie and Robert approached I got up both guys planting a kiss on their respective partners cheeks we settled down to eat. After dinner Mum and Robert retired to the guys cabin with a half empty bottle of wine, while me and Eddie strolled hand and hand along the beach we reached a small broken down wall and sat down I opened my bag and took out a cigarette lighting it we gazed at the stars,

“You enjoy today” Eddie asked.

“Yeah it’s a really nice place and the foods lovely” I said.

“You remember the first time we sat on a wall like this”

“Yeah it was just after we escaped the evil clutches of Gordy and his gang”

“We’ve come along way since then” he continued “and I want to go a lot further” he slipped of the wall and knelt in front of me. Quickly opening a box “Nikki will you marry me” In front of me was a eight cluster diamond ring surrounding the biggest diamond I think I have ever seen in my life,

“But how we can’t I mean you know”,

“No we can” he said “it’s perfectly legal here and it’s booked for Saturday” I stood up so did Eddie I dived up into his arms my two legs around his waist.

“So that’s a yes then” after a long kiss.

I replied, “It’s a yes then, now I need to find mum” dropping out of his grasp a very excited little lady scampered up the beech with shoes in hand to find her mother.

I never even thought of knocking as I burst into the cabin Mum and Robert were having a bit of a snog on top of the bed as I rushed in.

“Mum, Mum, Eddie wants to get married out here”

“So I guess you said yes” then looking at the smile that was spread across my face.

Both of us beginning to cry tears of joy, as she wrapped her arms around me, hugging each other tightly. The tears had just subsided when Eddie arrived back at the cabin Robert shaking his hand and congratulating him.

“What am I going to do for a dress though” I said in a panic a slight smirk crossing my mother’s face as I uttered the words the suddenly I realised.

“Wait a minute this has all been pre-planned hasn’t it, the separate cabins, mum and Robert being here, the reason you chose Thailand, this morning” mum interrupted “How what happened this morning”

“Eh nothing” I said with a blush on my face the others were beginning to laugh a bit.

“Oh I’m so dumb I can be so blonde at times” I said sending the others in to laughter, my mum squeezed my shoulders and said “What do you think me and Robert were up to today, you’ve got an appointment with a dressmaker in the morning and a salon appointment fixed up for next Saturday morning for your hair and nails prior to the wedding, returning the hug I began to cry a bit again,

“I love you mum”

“I love you too dear,” Robert bent down and produced a bottle of champagne in an ice bucket.

“Time for this I think then and let’s drink a toast to Mr and Mrs Wilson” he said as he poured us a glass each.

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To Be Continued...

I slipped on a dressing gown and me and mum sat on the couch awaiting the arrival of the beauty consultant.

“I don’t think in my wildest dreams I could ever expected this day to happen” she said offering me a cigarette as we lit up.

“Well you must have expected your son to get married some day” I replied.

“Well yes but there’s something different when it’s a daughter” she answered.

By Karin Roberts

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The week began with frantic appointments to try and make arrangements for Saturday. Eddie and Robert were abandoned to their own devices as me and Mum flew around like headless chickens trying to make arrangements. The first appointment was with a dressmaker the choice was simple, well relatively to begin with, did I want a Western style of dress, or did I want to go Oriental. My mind had been pretty clear that I wanted Western in fact I had no idea what a Thai wedding dress would look like, but after seeing the types of dresses available I decided on Oriental. With the measurements and other arrangements made we left the dressmaker alone to return on the Thursday for a final fitting so that the dress could be available by Friday.

After a meeting with some hotel staff we arranged a buffet for after the ceremony and managed to upgrade our room so that following the ceremony we could have the Honeymoon Suite for what was our last night in Thailand before going on to Bali. We had to find another two witnesses for the ceremony and , this didn’t prove to difficult as Eddie and Robert had befriended a husband of an English couple who were staying in the hotel and they readily agreed to take part. We arranged for a small cake to be made by the Hotel staff and visited a local flower dealer who arranged for bouquets and some flowers for our tables for the meal.

By Wednesday night we were both exhausted and me and mum retired to the hot tub in the Hotel to chill out. As we sat with a bottle of wine and a pack of cigarettes girly talk was in the air you know are you excited looking forward to it, sex which is somewhat embarrassing discussing it with your mum as we got a little tipsy Eddie and Robert joined us at the side of the tub with the couple who were to witness the ceremony. The evening ended with an impromptu sing along as we all got more tipsy before we all headed of to bed, I had my final fitting tomorrow and there were only two days to go !

We travelled to the dressmakers early on Thursday morning and I became a tailors dummy as she made the final minor alterations. I won’t describe the dress yet we will leave that to the wedding day but suffice to say me and mum were very happy with how it looked and my mother’s dress was also finished so we packed that up and took it back to the hotel with us. With some spare time, me and Eddy took a well earned wander along the beach holding hands as we strolled along the sand.

“You excited about Saturday” he asked.

“Excited doesn’t even begin to describe it, I’ll be a bag of nerves on Saturday”

“Well that’s every brides prerogative” he said with a smirk.

“What about you any regrets” I asked.

“No none whatsoever, you know you’ve come a long way and I would still be with you even if you had not had the op, I just want to spend the rest of my life with you” he said reaching across he caressed my cheek and kissed me our lips parting and tongues finding each others mouths.

We continued to stroll along “I’ve been thinking when we get back I’d like to sell mum and dads house if you don’t mind” he looked at me for a reaction.

“Well if that’s what you want” I replied.

“It’s just that there are so many memories in there for me and I’d like to start afresh with you.”

I spoke “ I must admit that I was thinking something similar but for different reasons if Gordy and his crew know about me then they obviously know your address so it could make it difficult if they want to bring attention to us” I hesitated.

“Your right I hadn’t thought about it that way”

“So where are we going to live” I asked.

“Well I’ve got to go back and do my final year, you’ll be at your mums so you could look for a place in your spare time”

“Where would you like to live then”

“Well I don’t want to go to the other side of the country and I’m sure you don’t want to be too far away from your mums so within say 15-20 miles of Hamilton.”

“So what am I looking for, something big?” I asked.

“Well big enough oh and I would like some space that I could develop into a lab, do some research of my own once the course is finished.”

“So something large but not too large with some space for development”

“That’s about it”

“I’ll get right on then honey when I get back” leaning over I kissed his cheek and we turned to head back to the hotel complex.

Friday came and went in a flash we picked up my dress and confirmed all the final details with the hotel and the registrar who was performing the ceremony. So early evening Eddie , Me, Mum and Robert and our two witnesses got together for a pre wedding meal it was a pleasant balmy evening and by 09.30pm we were all back in our rooms and ready for bed tomorrow was going to be a long day.
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I awoke around 8pm mum had already been up and had brought me some fruit juice and and some cut fruit. We ate on at the small table in the room before she left to order a cab to take us to the salon. Once inside the salon I was ushered to a workstation the assistant excitedly discussing my wedding asking about the dress etc etc while working on my hair, while another worked on my nails and feet.

Around 90 minutes later my hair had been piled up on top of my head a mass of waves and curls with only a few curly strands left hanging down the side of my face. French square nail extensions half an inch above the tip of my finger had been fitted and my toe nails filled and painted a mid pink shade. We paid our bill and the salon assistants extended their congratulations to me once more as we headed back to the hotel for an appointment with a beauty consultant to do my make up.

Safe back in the confines of the hotel I changed into my underwear putting on a while lacy basque with four suspender straps and pulling on a pair of white shiny silk thong panties. Mum had produced the traditional blue garter for me to wear causing me to blush by requesting that later I get Eddie to remove it with his teeth. I slipped on a dressing gown and me and mum sat on the couch awaiting the arrival of the beauty consultant.

“I don’t think in my wildest dreams I could ever expected this day to happen” she said offering me a cigarette as we lit up.

“Well you must have expected your son to get married some day” I replied.

“Well yes but there’s something different when it’s a daughter” she answered.

“I’ve got to pinch myself as well at times, about how I’ve changed and what I’m about to do, but I know deep down that I’ve done the right thing and that I’ll be happy” I said taking a final drag from my cigarette and blowing out the smoke I crushed it into the ashtray.

“Well I guess that’s all I wanted to hear, it’s all a mother ever wants to hear is the her children are going to be happy” she said hugging me just as there was a knock at the door.

The next hour was taken up with meticulous work on my face, a really light foundation which the girl explained work better and lasted better in the balmy condition’s no powder which she explained would dry and crack in the heat. My eyebrows were shaped a little before she applied a deep pink eyeshadow to the socket before lightning across my eyelid to open up my eyes a bit some black eyeliner and a generous brush of a mascara to lengthen my eyelashes. Finally she outlined my lips with a dark pink lip liner before filling in the remainder of my lips with a light coral pink lipstick.

Next the dress what can I say I was so pleased that I had decided to go oriental when I had tried it on yesterday after getting it from the dressmaker it fitted like a glove so light and fresh and I felt incredibly sexy. It consisted of white gold and red silk with a shoulder sash held by a gold metallic looking belt. The sash going over one shoulder falling to around just above knee level while at the back the sash dropped to just below knee level. Indeed words fail to describe it so I needed to include a picture to let you have the full picture. Once the dress was in place I stepped into a pair of 4 inch white patent pumps with a narrow gold stiletto heel.

Mum produced a slim gold necklace,

“Here” she said “Robert and me bought you this for today” standing behind me she fastened the necklace a slim gold chain with a hollow gold heart with a diamond set at the top of the heart.

“It’s lovely” I said.

“Well you’ve got the blue and the new so now you need something borrowed” she said moving to the dresser she removed another jewellery box.

“Eddie asked if you would wear this” she said “It was his mothers,” opening the box she pulled out a gold charm bracelet that I had often seen his mother wear and had admired from afar “I’d love to” I said fastening it to my wrist.
Twenty minutes later after my mum had changed into her light pink oriental style dress she stepped out, “You ready” she asked handing me a bouquet of flowers

“Yeah ready” I replied.

“Ok then lets do it” she said opening the door we stepped out into the bright sunlight.

Thirty minutes later me and Eddie were standing hand in hand on a small white wooden podium as the registrar spoke “Nikki and Edward will now say their Wedding Vows that they have specifically written for each other, Nikki” nervously I turned my head toward Eddie and spoke.

“Edward I promise to love and care for you and I will try in every way to be worthy of your love. I will always be honest with you, kind, patient, and forgiving. But most of all, I promise to be a true and loyal friend to you. I love you.” Eddie smiled.

“ And Edward”

Nikki I promise to love and care for you and I will try in every way to be worthy of your love.
I will always be honest with you, kind, patient, and forgiving. But most of all, I promise to be a true and loyal friend to you. I love you.”

“Do we have the ring’s” Robert stepped forward and handed the ring’s to the registrar In turn we each took a ring and slipped it on to each others finger.

“By the powers granted to me by the Council of this State of Thailand I now pronounce you man and wife you may kiss the bride” Our heads went forward and met mouths open to greet each other not passionately but gently and sweetly we kissed as fireworks went off around the pool area we hugged and turned to our assembled guests. Nikki was a married woman.

We returned to a small marquee which had been set up where our party sat down to a meal before we all returned to the main hotel where we somewhat became guests of honour for the evening with a prime table as the evening entertainment kicked off with the band dedicating it’s first number of the night to the newly wedded couple so on a deserted dance floor me and Eddie glided along as the band played “True” by Spandau Ballet before gradually several other couples my mother, Robert and our witnesses joined us on the floor.

Back at the table with our three complimentary bottles of champagne we continued our celebration all of us becoming slightly tipsy but having a fun time the dancing and merriment continuing. Shortly before ten our group beginning to feel the pace of a long day decided to call it a day so after me and Eddie taking a final waltz around the floor while the band played their version of Roxy Muic’s “Jealous Guy” we all headed for our rooms hand in hand the three couples caught up in the mood of the day strolled back to our cabins.

Finally on our own as we approached the door Eddie stopped “Mrs Wilson I’m going to carry you over the threshold” stooping he swept me off my feet my arms encircling his neck as he slipped in the door an pushed it open inside he put me down and we kissed.

“It’s been a fantastic day” I said. “And it’s going to be a fantastic life, because I love you so much” Eddie continued. “I’m so happy” I replied our kiss resuming becoming more passionate by the second our tongues probing more deeply and eagerly. Releasing myself for the kiss gently pushed Eddie backwards till he slid onto the bed. “Stay there no touching” I said as I fumbled with the gold belt around my waist opening it and letting it drop to the floor slipping the sash from my shoulders I dropped it as well loosing the dress I slid out of it and stood before Eddie in white lacy basque and panties stocking’s and white high heels one hand cocked against my slim waist. “Like what you see” I said. “Very much” he replied. “Good then let’s make love” I said sliding on top of him and easing him back. Now I’m sure that there are those reading this who would like all the gory details of our first night together but what happens on a wedding night is between a husband and his wife so all I’m going to say is that around 4 in the morning two sweaty drained bodies finally went to sleep and when Eddie had entered me that first time the fireworks in my head were far louder and brighter than those that had signaled our wedding.

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To Be Continued...

“You know I get more proud of you every time I see you” she said, I blushed slightly “No really! You’ve taken everything in stride, right from the moment you decided to be Nikki, and as much as I loved Craig I don’t remember or see him any more. I just see... my beautiful daughter.” she said extinguishing the cigarette and planting a motherly kiss on my cheek,

“I couldn’t have done it without your help and support though. I guess I must have just about the best mother in the world.” I said hugging her.

By Karin Roberts

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We slept long into the next day and woke up in time just to catch a light lunch, in truth my mother and Robert looked pretty done in as well so I guessed they had had a pretty passionate night as well. It was a weary group therefore that packed up and left for the airport for our early evening transfer to Bali.

A short flight later we landed and grabbed a cab to the hotel which would now be the sight for our honeymoon. As a group we located our rooms and then met up in the pool bar area for a drink, two drinks later we were all beat and decided to call it a night. The next three days were made up of sightseeing and some leisurely sunbathing oh and mixed in with lashing’s of sex as newly weds do. So by midweek we all returned to the airport for our flight back home.

Back in the UK Eddie had one final surprise for me as we arrived home low and behold a brand new Honda car in a racy red had been delivered for me, planting a kiss on my cheek and presented me with the keys, he announced “Your final wedding present darling and to assist you with your house hunting” as I hugged him and returned the kiss with a real smacker of my own.

By the end of the week Eddie had returned to University for his final term and I took up the role of finding us a place to stay and monitor the sale of his Mum and Dad’s old house. A few weeks later we had a final offer of just over  £125,000 which we accepted and closed the deal with a middle aged couple who were moving to the area for work reasons. With that complete and the money banked I began my search in earnest for a place for us.

So with Eddie back at University I began house hunting driving around various towns and villages in the region looking for the perfect venue for us. It was tiring and frustrating properties that were ideal but too small or the right size, but with no room for expansion and the creation of some sort of lab or work room for Eddie. Then one day I stumbled on it. I had been to see a property just outside Glasgow and was returning rather dispirited. The description had been over exaggerated the size of the house was smaller than I had been advised and the space that they had described as available for development turned out to be nothing other than a poky little garden which if built on would left us with no space at all left. Making it clear that it was not what I was looking for I headed back to my car and began to drive home. On the way home I decided to stop at a snack bar and pick up a coffee and a bite to eat. With my coffee and a bacon sandwich I sat in my car watching the day go buy listening to the radio frustrated that another trip had ended in failure, it was nearly 3 month’s now since Eddie had gone back to University and in another 4 or 5 weeks he would be finishing up for the Xmas break and I still had not found us anything !

Then I saw it just up ahead a building down the a small incline a sign clearly displayed, “Retail Opportunity” finishing my snack I started the car and moved out onto the road reaching the slip road I turned down it and into the car park in front of the building. Parking I got out the heels of my black leather boots clicking on the cobble stoned car park as I walked towards the building. Suddenly I remembered this had been the old station, a new modern station had been built ten minutes down the road, I looked at the building and sized up the prospects it was a old stone building built in 1912 judging by the mark above the door, a newer extension had been added which had acted as the waiting room and ticket office latterly it complemented the building well as I walked round the path at the side the back had the old stone platform and a couple of small outbuilding’s which must have been used for storage the railway line was still intact as it was still used but it was only a local rail service with limited trains so I figured it would not be two noisy the steps over to the other side of the line were still intact and another small covered structure sat over that side where people would have waited for trains. I walked back to the car and retrieved my camera snapping away I took a lot of photographs from all angles the roll of film used up I returned to the car and drove of, this maybe had possibilities I though as a smile broke my lips.

The next day I handed in my film and called Eddie, “It could work” I said having explained to him what I had seen “There’s and old factory which has been cleared at the other side of the tracks it’s being redeveloped with new houses and just up the road there doing the same where Honeyman Electric’s used to be. I drove up and down there’s not another chemist for five miles either way and there’s plenty of space, maybe we could even let out part of the building to someone else bring them on board as well” I blabbered excitedly “It needs a good bit of work but I think it would be great” I went on

“Calm down Nikki, I’ll take a look at your photo’s when they arrive in the meantime phone up the seller and get some costs then we’ll talk again.”

“Ok then, how are your studies going” I asked.

“Good but I can’t wait to see you at Xmas”

“Neither can I, I miss you” I said.

“I miss you too darling” he replied

“Love you” I said “Love you more” he replied then he was gone.

The next day I collected the snaps of the house I had taken and mailed them off to Eddie. I called the seller of the property to check out the price,

“Well it’s a complete package the whole building the car park as well right up to the edge of the platform at the back and the other side of the tracks as well the only part you don’t own is the bridge over the tracks, that’s a right of way so it can’t be closed off” the developer told me.

“Oh that’s ok cause it’s a retail outlet we had in mind and a conversion so we could live there” I replied.

“Well the whole lot’s on offer at offers over  £95,000” he said.

“Eh that sounds ok, I need to get back to you once I’ve spoken to my husband” I replied, it still seemed a bit strange saying husband but I was getting comfortable with it.

“Ok well offers close in two weeks we only have one so far,”

“Ok I’ll get back to you” I said terminating the call.
 
 
By the weekend a large envelope arrived for me from Eddie inside were plans and detailed drawing’s of the property converted it looked stunning with a large rough stone wall with climbing plants out the back, blocking off the platform from the track the platform converted to a small garden. The main shop replacing the ticket office and another small unit tacked on to allow for another retailer to use. The main house had been converted with some interior pictures of how it might look all in all it was fantastic and I was bursting with excitement as I phoned Eddie that night.

“Where did you get all these plans” I asked.

“Oh I passed on your photo’s to a guy doing architecture and he did the drawing’s for me, you like it” he asked.

“Like it I love it our own little love nest” I blurted out.

“Well how much is it going to cost us” he asked.

“Well offers over  £95,000 secures the lot except the bridge” I told him.

“That’s not too bad still leaves some money from the house sale to start the conversion, any offers in” he asked.

“Yeah one” I said “closing date for offers is in another ten days” I said.

“Well put an offer in for  £98,000” he said.

“Ok I’ll call him tomorrow” I said.

“Only three weeks to Christmas break, I can’t wait to see you” Eddie said.

“Yeah me too” I replied.

“Call me when you’ve spoken to the property developer”

“I will” I replied

“Ok see you soon darling”

“Yeah see you soon” I said as I hung up, oh how I missed him but as he said only three more weeks and then after Christmas only a few more months and then we would be together forever.

The following Friday around 11:00 am the telephone rang, I picked up the handset,

“Hi can I speak with Mrs Wilson” the caller asked.

“Speaking” I replied.

“Oh Mrs Wilson I’m pleased to tell you that your offer on the property at Hallbank Street has been accepted”

“Fantastic, when will the sale go through?”

“Well all the details should be completed by Christmas so you should be able to start any conversion in the New Year”
 
 
So two days before Xmas with Eddie back from University we completed the deal. We had already approached builders and accepted a quote for conversion of the property into a living quarters and two shop units, the outbuilding on the other side of the tracks was to be converted into Eddie’s lab as he put it, later we would discover that that would be our best investment of the lot !

A family Christmas with Mum and Robert and Eddie ended with plans for an extravagant New Year, Robert had booked us into a five star hotel so we set off on the 30th December for our loch side hotel.

Our first night we spent having a lovely meal and a quiet drink in the hotel bar, New Year Eve was to consist of an extravagant ball. Me and Mum spent the next day pampering ourselves a massage and light waxing followed by a spa bath and then we both had our hair done mine highlighted with some light red streaks through the blonde and my mum getting some blonde streaks added to her dark brown hair. We finished off with some acrylic French manicure nails.

We retired to the bedrooms to get ready for the evening ahead; Eddie and Robert were busy playing snooker in the sports bar as we began our preparations for the night. Stripping off I stepped into some white silk underwear pulling on a dressing gown I sat down at the dressing table and began my make up super light foundation with a really light dusting of powder my skin and complexion had changed so much in this last couple of years that I did not need extravagant cover on my face any more. I moved on to some eye shadow and used some midnight blue for a dark effect with some lighter blue and a splash of pink to add some colour. Finishing off my eyes with some black eyeliner and mascara I opened the tube of lipstick and applied the deep red colour to my lips before brushing on some lip gloss to create a permanent shine. As I finished the door opened and in stepped Eddie,

“Looking good babes” he said heading towards me and leaning down he placed a small kiss on my cheek.

“Heh you I’ve just done my face” I said playfully slapping him on the rear.

“I hope your not going to be like that later tonight” he said with a smirk.

“Good things come to those that wait” I said.

“Yeah I know I got you didn’t I” he said pulling out by bra strap slightly and letting it ping back on to my back.

“I’m going for a bath” Eddie said heading towards the en-suite toilet.

“Ok don’t be long we’ve to be seated by eight thirty and its gone seven now” I responded as the door to the bathroom closed.
 
 
Less than an hour later we were both dressed and ready to go, I had bought a red spaghetti strap dress the dress had silk bodice top quite tight but not too revealing moving down to a fuller cotton body with a flared skirt effect, this was topped of with red 41/2 inch heeled strappy sandals with thin laces that wound up my calves and tied at the top.

I had a gold solid necklace which was in a V shape at the front of my neck the centre encrusted with around 6 diamonds a present from Eddie at Christmas. Long red evening gloves covered my hands to the elbow and Eddie’s mum’s gold charm bracelet that she had left me adorned the outside of the glove, a sparkly red evening bag completed my look. I sat on the dressing table stool and lit a cigarette as Eddie fiddled with his bow tie watching my husband I exhaled the menthol smoke and looked forward to the night ahead. A couple of minutes later we were ready to go taking a final drag from my cigarette I crushed it out in the ashtray and taking picking up my small bag I took Eddie’s arm and we headed off to dinner.

Joining Mum and Robert we sat through an excellent meal with some lovely wine to wash down our food. Once the meal was over me and Mum lit a cigarette as the two men went get us some drinks.

“You enjoying married life” she asked.

“I’m loving it though I can’t wait till were together all the time” I told her.

“Only a few months now” she said taking a drag from her cigarette,

“You know I get more proud of you every time I see you” she said, I blushed slightly “No really! You’ve taken everything in stride, right from the moment you decided to be Nikki, and as much as I loved Craig I don’t remember or see him any more. I just see... my beautiful daughter.” she said extinguishing the cigarette and planting a motherly kiss on my cheek,

“I couldn’t have done it without your help and support though. I guess I must have just about the best mother in the world.” I said hugging her.

“Well enough of the self congratulations, here come the guy’s lets dance” she said taking my hand and pulling me up we went to meet our partners.

The hour’s ticked by and soon it was midnight after the customary New Year celebrations we sat down both couple arms around each other, my mother broke the temporary silence.

“Nikki , Eddie we’ve got something to share with you two, me and Robert have finally set a date to get married it’s going to be on the 31st March, and Nikki I want you to be chief bridesmaid naturally, and there’s more Nikki your going to have a little brother or sister”

I sat stunned while the news sank in, Mum was pregnant and I was going to be a bridesmaid at my mother’s wedding as congratulations went on around me a slight tear’s leaked from my eye’s and then all I could do was hug her tightly while we both cried.

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To Be Continued...

Upstairs I led him into my old bedroom and seated him on the bed slowly I untied the halter — neck dress and eased it down my body over my hips as he watched.

“You like what you see” I asked “Very much” he replied.

“Good! we aim to please!" I said as I kicked of my pastel blue high heels and moved towards him.

By Karin Roberts

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The next few months were manic with me supervising the work on our new home and helping Mum with arrangements for her wedding.

As Nikki I still had a bit to learn about décor and colour’s shades but I was learning fast. By late February the conversations had been finished and we had also picked up another business to rent the second retail unit from us bringing in some handy rent money in the process. With building work complete I set about stocking out our chemists and hiring some help to work behind the counter. By the middle of March everything was complete in our new home. I had moved in and the other shop was already up and running, we were scheduled to open at the end of March with a locum pharmacist in place until Eddie finished his degree. Thought’s turned to the wedding and I increased my help in that area, my mother as excited as a I had been and as any first time bride would be even though she had been through this all before. We had girly days out looking for dresses in preparation for the big day.

Finally the big day arrived I awoke back in my old room at my Mum’s having stayed overnight. I was slightly hung-over, the results of too much wine, from our long chat last night about out lives. How great it was to see her truly happy again, I liked Robert he had been good for her, I never noticed it that much as Craig but she had blossomed again, gone was the kind of dowdy look she had had before and now she was back looking like the attractive sexy forty year old that she was, the fact that she was pregnant made her glow even more and although classed as an older expectant mother she was in very good health, she had given up smoking for the duration of her pregnancy and although she admitted it was a struggle and she frequently craved having one she was doing well. In support I had made a conscious effort to try and not smoke in her presence which I knew she appreciated.

The house was already a hive of activity as I slipped into the bathroom, running a bath I dropped in some perfumed bath lotion and waited for the bath to fill. Downstairs I could hear my mother’s work colleagues fuss around as they helped with the preparations, the wedding was only really a small occasion as we had no direct family both grandparents on my mother’s side had died and she was an only child so when she had got divorced that really only left me and her. My real dad’s family had moved to Australia many years ago indeed I had only met them once when I was a baby and could not even remember them that well, contact with them had ceased as soon as the relationship between my Mum and Dad ended. In truth I suppose that had helped in my wish to become Nikki as there was no family to get involved in the debate. There were only around fifty guests invited and yesterday we had set up a marquee across our back garden and the neighbours, a private bar and band were also organised and were mostly likely setting up now as I soaped my body and relaxed before I had to join the bedlam downstairs.

Back in my bedroom I took out the light blue lacy underwear that I was wearing under my dress, pulling the panties up my legs I fitted them snugly to me before encasing my boobs in the under wired bra in a matching light blue. I fixed the suspender belt round my waist before opening the pack of light tan stocking’s, carefully rolling them up my legs I fastened them to the clips and stood straightening any kinks in them. Picking up a dressing gown I pulled it on and stepped into a low heeled slipper and headed downstairs to join the rest. Stepping into the kitchen I was greeted by Angie one of my mums colleagues,

“Morning sleepy head”

“Eh morning” I repeated, grabbing a mug I put on the kettle to boil, dropping some instant coffee in the mug, water boiled I poured a cup and sat at the breakfast bar and pulled out a cigarette and lit it.

“You excited?” Angie asked yeah

“I’m really pleased for her, Robert’s a great guy, Where is mum anyway” I asked

“Oh she’s in the lounge having her hair and make up done, you’re next” she said picking up one of the flower bouquets and leaving me alone to finish my cigarette and coffee.

Two hours later we were all dressed and ready to go, as this was Mum’s second wedding she choose not to get married in white but had chosen an unusual midnight blue wedding dress all the bridesmaids were in a light pastel blue the embroidery and detail on the bodice of the wedding dress was identical to that of the bridesmaids, our dresses were halter necks while the wedding dress was in a typical off the shoulder style. While as is traditional the wedding dress had its long train the bridesmaids dresses were floor length straight with a rather generous slit up the back to aid our movement. As we stood getting a picture taken by a neighbour the wedding car slowly appeared round the corner. Arriving at the church we picked up the train of the dress and slowly we entered the building the wedding march playing as we filed down the aisle towards Robert a gleam in his eye as we reached him and the service began.

An hour later the wedding party arrived back and the guests sat down to a meal. Speeches over, it was time for the party to begin. Free from me responsibilities I at last got the chance to hook up with Eddie, he had flown up this morning only to have been delayed and just made it to the service in time

“Sorry about this morning” he said as he led me to the dance floor,

“It’s ok, not your fault” I replied as I put my arms round his neck and snuggled into his body.

We moved around the floor in tandem with the other guests my Mum looking radiant as she danced with Robert.

“They make a wonderful couple” Eddie said with a lump in his throat, I knew immediately he was thinking of his own departed presents.

“Yeah I’m so happy for her, and I know how thing’s like this must bring it all back to you” I said nuzzling into him and gently kissing his neck. “It’s ok , I’ll never get used to it but I’ve got my own family now” he said looking down at me and kissing the top of my head the mood lightening he said “Isn’t it traditional that the bridesmaids always get lucky at weddings” he said with an impish grin as his hand roamed across my arse. Smiling I said “Maybe if you play you cards right” I said as I kissed him lightly on the mouth.

A couple of hours later with Mum and Robert gone for a short honeymoon the party was winding down, I stood outside the marquee with Carol having a cigarette when Eddie appeared,

“Hi Carol how you doing” he asked planting a light kiss on her cheek

“You got yourself a man” yet he asked

“Shit no I manage to drag up every dickhead under the sun” she replied drawing deeply on her cigarette and blowing out a fountain of smoke as she tossed the cigarette on the ground and crushed it out with her shoe.
“It’ll happen one day” I said to her gently squeezing her arm.

“Well I hope it’s not too far away otherwise I’ll dry up like an old prune downstairs” she said as we all burst into laughter, “Look I’m going to head off, you two be good” she said with a cheeky smile “We will” Eddie said as his arm slipped round my waist as she walked along the side of the house to call a taxi.

“Well is it time for the bridesmaid to get lucky then” he asked as he kissed the back of my neck, “Could be” I said as I took his hand and led him towards the back door.

Upstairs I led him into my old bedroom and seated him on the bed slowly I untied the halter — neck dress and eased it down my body over my hips as he watched.

“You like what you see” I asked “Very much” he replied.

“Good! we aim to please!" I said as I kicked of my pastel blue high heels and moved towards him. Easing on to his lap our mouths met an eager edge to our kisses gained from being apart for a couple of months his arms snaked behind me and unclipped the brazier and slid it of my body while I unbuttoned his shirt and pushed it back down his shoulders and finally of our bare torso’s meeting his medium chest hair tickling my breast and causing my nipples to harden even more.

Our kisses increasing we slid on the bed side by side my hand eagerly working with the front of his trousers to free the noticeable bulge as he tugged my panties over my bottom and down my legs as they reached my calves I took over responsibility of kicking them off with my feet as he tugged down his trousers and underpants to reveal his throbbing cock. Undressed he eased on top of me and moved forward slipping inside of me, my legs curled behind his back to trap him there. Slowly he began to pick up a rhythm moving in and out of me as he sucked my hardened nipples into his mouth one by one my long nails running over her chest as he picked up more speed, soon we were in totally harmony as our bodies united and the passion began to build, soon I knew that he was reaching climax and I felt him stiffen slightly as his juice began to flow and that warm feeling began to fill my body.

We lay side by side in the darkened bedroom; I grabbed an ashtray and lit a cigarette.

“I’m curious” he asked

“Curious about what” I responded.

“What you looked like as a guy”,

“You know we were at the same school” I said taking a draw from my cigarette.

“Know I don’t really think I noticed you, do you have any pictures” he asked.

“Why” I said nervously.

“Just curious” he said.

“Wait a minute” I said lifting the ashtray and depositing the half smoked ciggie in it I walked over to a small bookcase and looked for a novel finding the book in question I took out an old photo from the dustcover and walked back to the bed handing it to him.

“Which one are you” he asked looking at the large black and white snap of a boy’s football team with a trophy.

“You work it out” I said taking a final draw from my cigarette and crushing it out as I slid back down on the bed beside him.

“That one” he said pointing to one of the three light coloured boys’ in the snap.

“No” I said.

“That one then” he said.

“No wrong again” I teased.

“Well it must be that one then” he said.

“Well done” I said.

“God you’ve changed” he said with a smile.

“I bleeding hope so” I said gripping his semi erect cock and twisting it playfully.

“When was it taken” he asked.

“Oh when I was about fourteen” I said, going on.

“It was probably the happiest time of my life as a boy the only really happy time I remember really. We had won the Schools League and I had been picked to play for the county team as well”,

“Why did you stop” he asked.

“Oh it was just after that Mum and Dad split up”

“Oh sorry” he said.

“No it’s ok”,

“Got any other’s” he asked.

“No I got rid of them all when I became Nikki, just kept that one” I said he leaned forward and kissed me on the lips handing me back the photo I rose up slightly in the bed and began to tear it up.

“Hey what you doing” he asked.

“That’s in the past now, this is the present and the future” I said as I dropped it into the bin by the bed “Now make love to me again” I said as I slid on top of him and moved my tongue into him mouth.

The next morning I rose early and went downstairs and began to tidy up from the night before, Carol had promised to come round later and help out and the company that we got the marquee from were due back to take it down today, later me and Eddie had planned to go and see our finished home for the first time together. With the kitchen clear, I made some toasted bacon sandwiches for Eddie and one for me and with a pot of coffee and some orange juice I went to wake him up.

“Eddie” I called be out in a minute he said as I heard the shower shut off, he emerged hair wet with a towel wrapped around him, “Breakfast, babes” I said.

“You’re a darling” he said sitting on the bed and picking up one of his sandwiches and biting into it. We ate together washing down our food with some coffee and juice, breakfast finished Eddie announced that he was going to take a shower and I took our breakfast dishes down to clear up. Once I had cleared up I sat in the kitchen and lit a cigarette waiting on Eddie joining me. Just as I got settled the door bell rang and Carol arrived.

“Let’s get cracking then” she said peeling of her jacket as she followed me into the kitchen, crushing out the cigarette I opened the patio doors and we went out into the garden armed with bin liners to collect the rubbish, we moved from table to table picking up paper plates, ashtrays and an assortment of other rubbish filling our bags and depositing them at the side of the house for transfer to the rubbish tip. Empty glasses were put in crates for washing and return the company we had hired them from, just as we were finishing the last tables and clearing away some wilted flowers Eddie stepped into the marquee with the men who had come to take it down. Finished we left them to it and returned to the kitchen with our crates of glasses I made Carol a coffee and me and Carol had a ciggie as the three of us sat and chatted in the kitchen.

An hour later with the marquee all packed up and moving away from the house we all piled into my car to head over to our new house, I dropped Carol off at her flat and we continued on to our house, pulling into the car park I asked Eddie what he thought,

“Looks good from outside” he said as we got out and walked hand in hand to the shops first. Taking the keys I opened up and we went inside the shelving all complete and ready to hold it’s goods, racks and stands in the centre of the shop ready for use the booth for the pharmacist at the back clean and ready for action.

“You’ve done a wonderful job” Eddie said putting his arm around my waist and pulling me close as we moved outside and locked up. Next door we looked inside at the bare shop awaiting the occupation of its tenants.

“When do they want to open” Eddie asked.

“Well I had a chat with the owners last week the shop fitters are going to put in all their fitting’s next week and they hope to open by the end of the month”
“Oh that’s good then so we’ll they will be up and running like us”

“Yeah our stock should arrive this week and I’ve got another assistant hired and we could get a locum pharmacist quite quickly”

“You have really turned into the proper little business woman” he said slipping his hand behind me he gently squeezed my arse.

“Hey you” I said “Let’s see the house” I said excitedly as I took the keys out of my bag and slipped them into the lock.

Half an hour later the house tour was concluded as we moved from room to room I could see Eddie’s approval of the décor and how we had furnished the house. The fitted kitchen and bathroom obviously met with his approval, as we visited the last room the main bedroom.

“So what do you think” I asked.

“It’s brilliant very modern very tasteful very us” he said kissing my forehead.

“Good I’m glad you like it” He turned to the bed and stepped over pressing the mattress to feel its spring. As he did I moved towards him unzipping the short black leather blouson jacket I had on letting it fall loose reaching him I put my arms around his waist and whispered in his ear.

“Thought we might test it out” I said as he turned to seek my naked torso under the leather jacket.

“Ehm your terrible” he said in a snigger as my hand found his zip and started pulling it down while I kissed him deeply with open mouth his tongue accepting it’s fate as it moved inside my mouth. I stepped back breaking the kiss my hands eagerly undoing Eddie’s belt and shirt taking the off I dropped of my jacket and he unzipped my skirt as it fell to the floor revealing only a black silk thong.

“You’re becoming insatiable” Eddie said.

“Well I’m a woman with needs that need satisfying” I said as I slid on to the bed “Do you think you can measure up to that” I said gripping his cock and guiding it towards me

“Well I won’t fail for the lack of trying” Eddie said as he slid inside me and we began to make love again.

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His face moves close to my ear whispering,

“This is it bitch, Lesley chucked me after our last little meeting and I’ve not had the pleasure of any female company since” his hand over my mouth as he spoke. “So me and you are going inside to have some fun, I’ve god bags of seed saved up and I’m going to empty it into you, every hole you’ve got, by the time I’m finished with you, you’ll be begging for more rather than have it off with that little pussy you married, so move”

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The next few months’s after Mum’s wedding flew in, our Chemist opened on schedule and after a slow start business was beginning to pick up. The completion of the two housing estates nearby helped and with lots of young couples moving in medicine and supplies for babies was in high demand. Eddie graduated from University which we all attended and worked in the Chemist at weekends while during the week he worked away in his own private lab, on what I had no idea, but he was committed and kept talking of getting that big discovery that would make us rich. I was not that bothered as the money Eddie had inherited gave us a comfortable living combined with the takings from the shop and the rent from our second shop unit we were doing well.
 
 
In late September Mum had a surprisingly easy birth and Nikki had a little sister called Melanie to spoil and help look after. Robert was thrilled as his previous marriage had brought no children and even though he had always said that he thought of me as his own I could see Melanie was something special to him. My mum’s delivery though made me wonder if me and Eddie would ever have children. Before you all shout impossible, well I know it is but maybe we could adopt or have a surrogate child. I tentatively brought the subject up one night Eddie was not dismissive but wanted to wait so I shelved the idea for the time as we had only been married a year and still wanted as much time too ourselves as possible as a couple so I was quite happy with that. Another Christmas came and rolled by, but this year there was more of a family feel to it, with only month’s old Melanie being spoiled with gifts even although she was too young to realise it we all made a special effort and as adults do made excuses that it was for the child when indeed a sizable amount of the pleasure was for our own benefit.
 
 
The year closed and on we went the business was getting busier and a construction of a new housing estate had begun just up the road so extra business was a strong possibility. We hired another shop assistant to help out. One morning in early February I got a call from a tearful Carol asking me to call round, so later that day with the shop closed and Eddie busy in his lab I drove over to see her.

“Come in” she said through tears.

“Help yourself to a drink” I poured a glass of wine and sat down as she tossed me over a pack of cigarettes I took one and lit up.
“What’s up” I asked.

“I’m pregnant” she said as tears began to flow.

“Oh that’s great is Mike pleased” I asked, she’d been seeing this new guy since autumn last year and they seemed happy.

“Mike’s fucking married” she said as the tears welled up.

“Oh honey, I’m sorry” I said standing up and crossing to sit with her I hugged her

“Needless to say he’s not interested”

“So what you going to do” I asked.

“Don’t know” she answered, I got up and poured her a drink and filled up my own glass

“You could always get a termination” I said.

“No chance I don’t believe in abortion” she said snappily.

“Well I guess your going to be a mum then”

“Looks that way, could you stay the night I need somebody here,”

“Eh sure, I’ll just phone Eddie” I said leaving the room I called home and explained to Eddie.

“That’s ok babes see you in the morning say hello to Carol for me, she really does know how to pick the shit men,”

“Yeah doesn’t she just, I’ll see you in the morning sleep well”

“And you” Eddie said and we hung up. A few glasses of wine later we both hit the sack for the night hoping thing’s would be better in the morning. Next morning Carol felt a bit better and was resigned to the fact that she was going to be a single mum, I promised to be there for her at every stage as a friend would, and left her with a hug promising to go to the doctor’s with her later that week for her first appointment.
 
 
Back home Eddie rushed to meet me as I entered the house.

“Babes you need to read these” he said handing me two letters. The first letter was from a company called Univer and the second from a company called CK Industries the content of both letters were much the same,

“Thank you for sending us your research we were interested in your findings and would like the opportunity to discuss it with you further” both letters had appointment times at two venues in London in early April.

“What’s this all about” I asked.

“Well I’ve been doing some research on an oil dispersal agent” and I sent down some information to four companies these two want to talk to me about it, this could be our big break” he said hugging me.

“A what” I said.

“You know oil tanker crashes, leaks oil, causes natural disaster, well I’ve been working on a foam that you would spray on the oil that would break it up and disperses it limiting damage”

“Oh” I said most of it beyond me.

“Let’s celebrate” he continued “I’m taking you out to lunch” so after a quick change we headed out for a spot of lunch Eddie tried to explain more to me about his work but to be honest is was a bit above my head so I just listened and nodded as I thought appropriate but I had this feeling that something was about to change!
 
 
By the middle of the next week a third company had appeared on the scene and had arranged an appointment in Edinburgh for late March. So as I kept the shop going with orders and the day to day running of the shop, keeping accounts up to date and the 101 other thing’s a shop owner has to do. Eddie worked away in his lab to all hours trying to put together a presentation for his interviews with the three companies while do further work on the product he hoped to sell to them. So we saw little of each other over the next couple of weeks I was usually asleep when Eddie came back from the lab having been in the shop all day and Eddie was usually fast asleep when I got up in the morning to open up. So as women do I began to feel neglected.

Just before Eddie’s first appointment in March I was working one Tuesday lunchtime stocking some shelves while our two assistants dealt with the customers. It was a bright sunny day the sun reflecting on the glass shop front the glare making it hard to see from where I was anyone entering the shop, I heard the small bell ring above the door signifying another customer I had my back to the door I only glanced slightly in that direction as the door closed.

Finishing what I was doing I turned to walk back to the counter, then I heard the voice, stopping in my tracks, the voice was unmistakably that of Gordy! I stopped behind the display rack hoping that he would not see me, waiting for him to go. For some reason having purchased what he came in for he turned and came straight down the isle I was standing in, I was like a rabbit in headlights as he moved towards me brushing past as he did a slight smirk on his face as he passed and left the shop. Panic stricken I went straight through the back and grabbing my cigarettes went out the rear entrance to the shop and lit up. He had been dressed in builder’s clothes so I guessed that he was working on the new housing development up the road nervously puffing on my cigarette I cursed our luck that was all we needed.
 
 
Each day after that was nerve racking would he come back in, as the rest of the week passed there was no sign and I began to relax a bit maybe he hadn’t recognised me, my style had changed a bit since my last encounter with him and I had also dyed it a deeper blonde with some dark streaks. Not wishing to upset Eddie I kept Gordy’s visit to the shop a secret so on the Monday of the following week keen to be away from the shop I joined Eddie on a day trip to Edinburgh to attend his first interview.

The company in question was a German company called Bavar Chemicals the meeting was in a rather plush Edinburgh city centre hotel so while Eddie went to meet with them I did some window shopping on Princes Street before going into the same diner that my mother had brought me to all that time ago when I was just starting out. Sitting there smoking a cigarette with some coffee I thought about the change in me, before there had been a nervous teenager sitting sacred that everyone would know that he was a boy, now sat an attractive woman who men admired and desired.

Putting out the cigarette I finished my coffee and walked over to the counter to pay exiting the café. I climbed the short flight of stairs to the main street and headed off to meet Eddie. Looking at my watch I noted it had been two hours since we had parted so surely he was finished his interview by now. I approached the Hotel and entered asking at reception where the interviews were taking place.

“Are you here for an Interview” the receptionist asked.

“No it’s my husband, Edward Wilson” I told her.

“Oh yes he’s still with them yet, can you have a seat over there, he shouldn’t be much longer” she said pointing to a leather settee by the window.

“Can I get you anything while you wait” she asked.

“Eh a glass of wine would be nice, thank you” I said.

“No problem madam I’ll get a waiter to bring it over to you.” The waiter approached with my wine.

“Is it ok to smoke” I asked.

“Yes madam” he replied as I paid him for the drink and reached for my bag, as I lit the cigarette Eddie appeared.

“How’d it go” I asked rising out of my seat and kissing him on the cheek.

“Not bad, I think their interested but I wasn’t all that impressed with their offer” he said, catching the eye of the waiter he ordered a drink for himself.

“You have fun” he asked.

“Oh just a bit of window shopping and a coffee,”

“So you went window shopping and never bought shoes” he asked with a smirk.

“Hey you cheeky” I said.

“Well that’s usually what you come back with” he said with a silly grin on his face.

“Well I never bought a thing” I said “Ok let’s finish these drink’s and go for a meal before we go home” he said, picking up my glass I drained the drink and we stood up and left the hotel hand in hand.
 
 
A week later Eddie received an offer from Bavar he contacted them and explained that he had two other interested parties and he would let them know after the other interviews. So the days passed and finally Eddie was getting packed up to go to London that night. One interview was scheduled for the Wednesday and the other for Friday, Eddie was travelling down Tuesday night and would be flying back early on the Saturday morning. He had asked me to go with him but I declined as one of our shop assistants had just resigned to go to University so we were a bit short handed. So after dinner on the Tuesday evening I drove Eddie into Glasgow to catch his flight a quick hug and kiss in the car I wished him well and drove home the next couple of days were going to be lonely without him.
 
 
Wednesday went quickly and at night I went over to Carol’s to see how she was getting on. It had only been a couple of days since I had last seen her but she had really started to sprout.

“My you are beginning to show” I said as we sat in the living room.

“Well I am nearly four month’s” she said.

“Any contact from that bastard Mike” I asked.

“Yeah he phoned me the other night to ask if I was ok,”

“I hope you told him where to go” I said.

“Something like that the word began with an F anyway” she said, we both laughed.

“So are you keeping ok” I asked.

“Yeah I’ve been fine got another doc’s appointment tomorrow, could you drive me over” she asked with a pleading look on her face.

“When is it?”

“About three” she said.

“Yeah ok I’ll take a late lunch and pick you up around 2.30 ok”

“Thanks babe I owe you” she said. For the rest of the night we sat girly chatting until it was time for me to head home.
 
 
Thursday I was awake early the empty space next to me a reminder of Eddie’s absence. I rang his Hotel and got them to put me through to his room no reply. Looking at the clock it was just before nine in the morning probably at breakfast I thought as I sat at the breakfast bar with a steaming hot cup of coffee and pulled a cigarette from the pack. Flicking the lighter to life I poked the cigarette into it and the familiar menthol fumes filled my mouth. I’ll call him later I thought as I heard the morning paper being pushed through the letter box. Getting up I went to retrieve it, back in my seat I poured through the usual stories of crime or war interspersed by the odd story of cheer that is all too familiar these days. Finishing my coffee I rose and went to upstairs to get dressed, I still had time for a shower as the shop does not open till ten on a Thursday as we stay open later at night.

Thirty minutes later I was downstairs dressed and leaving the house. Opening the door and window shutters I pushed them up and then unlocked the door. Inside I flipped on the lights and went to cash up the till, going through the back I opened the safe and took out some notes and some change counting it and making a note on the desk ledger how much I had taken out I returned to the front shop and opened the till pouring in the coins and the notes, a knock at the window startled me slightly but looking up I saw Rachel our assistant and Ryan the pharmacist waiting to be let in both had been pretty chummy recently and I figured that there were seeing each other in some way. Exiting the counter I walked to the door and let them in.

“Morning, have a nice night” I asked.

“Yeah great” Rachel said casting a glance at Ryan, yeah there’s definitely something going on I thought

“What about you” Ryan asked.

“Oh just went and visited my friend Carol, nothing special, buy the way she has a Doctor’s appointment today and I need to take a late long lunch, ok” I said as we put on our white coats and went out to open up for the day.

“Yeah no problem” Rachel replied.
 
 
The morning was slow with not much trade it had been raining steadily all day and it was pretty cool for the time of year. Around twelve I let Rachel go for lunch telling, an hour later Rachel returned and as Ryan closed up the Pharmacy to go and get his lunch I went upstairs to get changed. Dropping my coat on the bed I took of my denim skirt and white blouse and tossed them in the washing basket which was gradually filling.

“Damn I need to get going” I said talking to myself as I put on a short black leather skirt with a two inch slit at the top of the right leg. From the drawers I took out a red cotton lycra top with a low back the elastic front just covering above my chest, I freshened up my make up and put on a pair of gold hoop earring’s and a gold bangle. It was still raining so I picked up my black leather stiletto boots and pulled them on pulling the zips up; taking a small clutch purse dropping the car keys my lighter cigarettes and lipstick into the bag. I pulled on my short leather jacket fastening the zip half way up; I pulled in the belt to hug it to my waist. A few minutes later I was in the car and pulling out of the car park to get Carol.

I pulled into her street tossing the almost finished cigarette out of my rolled down window as I parked outside her house, honking the horn to announce my arrival. A couple of minutes later she emerged and we set off. Just under ninety minutes later I was on my way back to the shop, the appointment had gone well and the doctor was pleased with her progress, although worried about what the future held for her I think she was also excited at the prospect of having a child. Parking I opened the car and stepped out crossing the forecourt I went into the house picking up my shop coat from the bed I went back downstairs.

“Sorry guys, took a bit longer than expected” I said as I entered the shop taking of my jacket and putting it in the office I pulled on the white coat and buttoned it up.

“We been busy” I asked.

“Ok but not as busy as usual, rain must be keeping people indoors” Rachel said.

“Yeah looks like it’s here to stay for the day, look why don’t you knock off at five” I asked her.

“Eh well I could but I’d need to come back as Ryan gave me a lift this morning” she looked over at Ryan.

“That ok if I go do some shopping, and then come back,”

“Yeah no problem” he said smiling at her.
 
 
Five o’clock came and went just after seven I asked Ryan if he would watch the shop give me a call if anyone came in so that I could go and do some paper work in the office. I grabbed a can of coke from the shop and went through to the office taking of my coat I put it over a chair and sat down opening the can and taking a drink before picking up the ledgers and starting to complete some stock sheets for next week. Once they were finished and the orders ready I switched on the PC and logged in.

Locating our suppliers Internet page I accessed it and began to feed in our order with that complete logged out of the Net and opened our Accounts folder taking the last two night’s takings figures I entered them to our accounts and recalculated the spreadsheet, thing’s were looking good we were on course for another profit this month, the figures were even better than I thought but I suppose they were over inflated as we were one assistant down just now after Tracy had gone back to University. I heard Ryan calling, switching of the computer I picked up my coat and put it back on to return to the shop.

Walking out into the shop I stopped dead in my tracks standing there with dirty jeans and mud spattered shirt was Gordy. Nervously I approached the counter.

“Erh can I help you sir”

“Yea can I have these please” he said picking up a pack of six condoms from the display and handing them to me along with a can of Irn Bru (Scottish soft carbonated drink)

“Ok that’ll be  £3.50 sir” I said popping the condoms in a paper bag and handing them and the can back to him. Taking his money I rang up the till and picked up his change, dropping 50p in the display as my hand shook.

“Oh sorry” I said.

“No problem” he said retrieving it and turning to leave. He went out the door and disappeared from sight, I slowly followed him to the window and watched as he walked along the path and started up the incline back to the main road. Looking at the clock I noted it was just gone half seven, good he’s going home I said to myself and he never recognised me.
 
 
Another half hour and it was time to close up Rachel had arrived back 15 minutes ago and was busy showing Ryan her purchases while took today’s takings from the till and went through to the office to count them and make up a float for the morning. Ryan popped his head in to say goodnight and I followed him through and locked the door behind him, before returning to the office. I counted the takings arranging the notes into bundles and bagging up coins before logging the entries in the books and on to the spreadsheet. Figures were a bit down on a normal Thursday but then it had been a horrible day for the time of year. I took some bags of coins and topped up the float for the morning and then returned the till tray to the till. I put out the lights and went back to the office picked up my bag and leather jacket put it on and walked back to the front door. Opening the door I stepped outside and locked it behind me pulling down the aluminum shutters on door and main window and locking them in place.

The car park was empty as I turned to start and walk towards the front door my high heeled boots clicking on the cobbles, a noise behind me running footsteps I half turn a fist catches me on the temple knocking me back against the wall my face scraping the concrete, stunned I try to turn but feel hands pushing me against the wall as I drop my bag, a hand reaches down and pulls the loose leather belt free from my jacket.

“Gimme your hands bitch” I freeze unmistakably Gordy’s voice he pulls my hands down wrapping the belt around them knots it tying my hands behind my back, I can feel a small trickle of blood run down my cheek as he crushes me into the wall.
His face moves close to my ear whispering,

“This is it bitch, Lesley chucked me after our last little meeting and I’ve not had the pleasure of any female company since” his hand over my mouth as he spoke. “So me and you are going inside to have some fun, I’ve god bags of seed saved up and I’m going to empty it into you, every hole you’ve got, by the time I’m finished with you, you’ll be begging for more rather than have it off with that little pussy you married, so move” He grips my arm bending slightly to pick up my bag, he edges me to the door, reaching it he grips my tied wrists with one hand and fumbles with the clasp of the bag to open it and get the keys.
 
 
Then it happened I heard a voice a smack and then his hands released my wrists turning I see some well built guy grab Gordy from the floor and strike him again, a boot aimed at his crotch connects and he buckles writhing on the floor. Pulling me towards him he unties the belt and free’s my wrists.

“Let’s get inside and call the cops” he says handing me my bag I open it with shaking fingers finding the keys I fumble them into the lock and open the door he follows me in and we close the door locking it I turn towards him,

”Thanks” I say reaching up I feel an abrasion to my cheek.

“Let’s phone the police” he says.

“No don’t” I say.

“Why not,”

“Look go in there and make yourself a drink, while I clean up my face” I ask pointing to the lounge.

“Ok your call” he says.

I went to the bath room and examined my face there was a little bruising beginning to form on my cheek a small cut and some grazing. I took some antiseptic from the cabinet and dabbed some on with a cotton wool ball wiping away a little dried blood. The wound started to bleed a little more and I covered it with a plaster before tossing the cotton wool into the toilet and flushing it away. Opening the door I walked back downstairs and into the lounge picking up my bag I opened it and took out my cigarettes nervously putting one in my mouth I flicked the lighter and inhaled deeply.

“You ok, I still don’t understand why you don’t want to call the cops,” I took another deep drag of my cigarette and blew a cloud of smoke to the ceiling, keeping the cigarette dangling in my mouth I unscrewed the top of a bottle of brandy and poured a large measure into a glass, downing it in one I poured another and crossed back to the dining table picking up an ashtray as I went.

“Look thanks for the help but it’s complicated, he’s an ex-boyfriend he’s already beat up my husband once” I said lying slightly as I crushed out one cigarette and reached for another.

“But he was going to rape you” he said.

“No he wouldn’t” I lied he was just trying to scare me, we used to play bondage games” I lied again.

“Oh well it’s your choice”

“Thanks look I never caught your name” I asked “Derek, Derek Hood” he replied.

“Well thanks Derek for everything would you mind having a look outside see if he’s gone” I asked “Yeah no problem give me five” he said putting down his drink and heading for the front door.

“Thanks” I replied.
 
 
I watched as he went his strong muscles rippling under his tight tee shirt, broad athletic thigh’s and a tight arse as he walked away. I rose and went to have another drink the brandy warm and settling in my stomach but beginning already to have an affect on my brain.

Downing that one I poured another,

“Christ Nikki get a grip” I said to myself just as Derek appeared back in the lounge.

“He’s gone, no sign of him anywhere, I checked round the back the bridge he’s nowhere to be seen” he said picking up his drink and draining the last of the can of lager.

“Thanks look this might sound strange but would you mind sleeping on the settee tonight, I’m still quite jumpy, I would have driven over to my mum’s, but I’ve had too many of these” I said holding up my glass.

“I don’t know I’m supposed to be meeting my girlfriend tonight”

“Oh, ok” I said then I began to shake and tears began to flow he moved towards me and put a comforting arm around my shoulders I could feel his muscles as he guided me towards the settee.

“Here sit down, I’ll get you another drink” moving away he poured another glass as I lit yet another cigarette.

Returning he sat beside me handing me the glass

“Thanks” I said wiping my tears away with my hand, mascara marking my fingers “I must look a mess” I said.

“No you look fine under the circumstances” he said. He reached over and moved some hair away from my forehead I sucked on the tip of my cigarette and looked up noticing for the first time his enticing hazel eyes.

“It’s ok if you can’t stay I’ll be fine” I said rising to get up Derek also getting up at the same time I took a drag from the cigarette and bent to crush it out in the ashtray as I tried to straighten up the alcohol must have took effect and I went dizzy and staggered, Derek caught me in his strong arms I looked up.

“Thanks I’m a bit tipsy” I said as I looked up straight into his face, I moved forward my lips engaging his my tongue probing for an entrance he responded his muscular arm encircling my waist and pulling me too him my arm slipping round his neck increasing the pressure on the kiss. I could feel his hand snake on to my thigh my other hand finding his thigh and moving to his groin, Christ he was big as I found his erect and bulging cock as we continued to kiss his hand now on my arse cheek. Then my mind snapped back into gear I broke the kiss my arm leaving his neck and my hand moving away from his groin.

“Oh Derek I’m sorry that shouldn’t have happened I’m married” he still held me round the waist but his other hand had moved from under my skirt. “I don’t know what I was thinking of, it must be the alcohol or all that went on tonight, I shouldn’t have tried to lead you on like that” he took his arm away.

“Your right, I was maybe taking advantage of the situation as well, I’m never really like this with women usually take ages to get round to the physical side but your such a gorgeous woman Nikki, look I better go” he said moving away towards the door I followed him as he left the front door I said.

“Derek I’m really grateful for your help tonight you saved my life” as he turned back to me.

“Glad to be of service now you take care now and if you do decide to involve the cops get in touch I’m working at the building site up the road,”

“Ok I will” and with that he was gone.

Twenty minutes later I was in a taxi and heading to mums my head all over the place and in tears, on arrival I explained the bruise as getting a bit drunk with Carol and falling, that seemed to be accepted and after calling Carol to ask her to back me up explaining I would tell her later what happened I was back in my old room on a camp bed in what was now Melanie’s room.

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To Be Continued...

“American Airlines Flight 53 to Chicago is now ready for boarding” I stopped and turned

“That’s me” I said a tremble in my voice, mum moved forward and the tears began.

“You take care Nikki, I love you so much and I’m going to miss you so much” she said both of us now sobbing freely.

The hug seemed to go on for ever then it broke Robert moved forward.

“You take care now daughter” he said it was the first time he had said that and the tears were freely flowing again and I could see mum from the corner of my eye still crying at will.

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I awoke the next morning with a large hangover and an even larger portion of guilt heavy on my brain. What the fuck was I thinking about last night, could I tell Eddie, would it ruin us, could I keep it a secret, was that fair, my mind was reeling. I dressed and took a taxi over to the house. The car park was quiet as I arrived Ryan was sitting reading his paper in his car as we pulled up, he got out.

“Where you been, what happened to you face” he asked pointing to the plaster.

“I’m sorry I slipped last night and fell coming out of the shop and stayed at my Mum’s last night and overslept this morning,”

“No hassle, Rachel’s gone to get us a bacon sandwich.” I opened the door and stepped inside Ryan following me, walking into the lounge I picked up the key’s to the shop and handed them to him.

“Look do you think you can manage without me today, there’s a bit of a problem at Mum’s” I lied.

“Sure no sweat, I’ll just put the key’s through the letter box at closing is that ok,”

“Yeah that will be great Ryan, I’ll see you tomorrow” I said as he turned and left. I went upstairs and took some fresh clothes from the dresser and was back downstairs in a few minutes, noticing the light flashing on the answer machine I pressed the button nervously and listened to the message, it was Eddie “Where are you babes, the interview went well yesterday high hopes for that one give me a call, Love You.”

Guilt racked me as I heard the message rewind. Outside I climbed into the car waving to Rachel as she approached carrying Ryan and her breakfast, reversing out I drove back to mum’s.

“Your back” mum asked as I opened the kitchen door and went in.

“Yeah I’m just a bit spooked living in that house alone at night, I’ll go home tomorrow when Eddie get back that ok” I asked.
“Yeah that’s fine in fact you can look after Mel and I’ll go and get some groceries for the weekend”

“Ok where is she” I enquired.

“She’s in the lounge in her buggy sleeping” she replied as she headed of to get changed. I went through and wheeled her back to the kitchen leaving the back door open so I could watch and hear her I stepped outside and lit a cigarette, what should I do should I tell Eddie about Gordy and Derek or should I keep quite, inhaling the menthol smoke into my mouth I could feel some tears welling up. I may well have fucked this up if I tell but could I live with the secret if I didn’t. The rest of the day passed slowly, finally I got to speak to Eddie after he returned to his hotel after his interview he had been impressed with the final company and expected offers from all three to take over development and production of his idea, he was on a high and I was guilty as I might be about to bring his high to a crashing fall.

I left Mum’s early on Saturday morning and returned to the shop in time to cash up do the books and have the till ready for the morning. Midday I left to go pick up Eddie from the airport. As he exited Arrivals I hugged him and he held me tightly.

“I missed you, you should have come,”

“Yeah I wish I had I replied, let’s get your bags in the car” I said taking his hand as we walked towards the car park. The drive home was full of Eddie telling me about London the interviews what they had asked what they were interested in and how he felt they were certain to make an off

“Your quiet” he asked stopping his flowing conversation.

“I was just listening, you really are excited about this” he reached over and squeezed my arm.

“It’s almost the most exciting moment in my life, but only almost, marrying you was the most exiting” he said stretching over and placing a kiss on my cheek. I pulled into the car park and switched of the engine as we arrived back home.

“I’m going to unpack” he said

“Ok I’m going to see how the shop is going” as we parted and headed in different directions.

I finished off about 5pm and returned home Eddie was fast asleep on the couch; I noticed a message on the answer phone and played it back.

“Nikki its Mum bring Eddie over for dinner tonight, see you about seven.” I went over and gently woke him.

“Hey sleepy head, mum wants us over for dinner tonight, better get ready were due at seven.” I said kissing him on the forehead and heading upstairs to take a shower. By the time I came out Eddie was dressed and ready I slipped on a white lacy bra and panty set and some tan shiny tights, a denim knee length skirt and a yellow blouse with matching yellow three inch heeled shoes. Fixing my make up I applied green and yellow eye shadow a light touch of mascara and eyeliner and some pale almost skin tone lipstick. Picking up my bag I headed downstairs and hand in hand we headed to the car.

Dinner was great Eddie impressed Mum and Robert with tales of the interview while I washed up and played with Mel till she dropped off and mum took her upstairs to bed. Eddie and Robert shared a couple of beers in the living room while me and mum went out into the conservatory for a cigarette, I closed the door behind her and opening my bag took out my ciggies and offered her one we both lit up,

“You’ve been strange for the last couple of days” she enquired.

“Thing’s on my mind” I said

“Like what you know you can always talk to me” she responded

“It’s just Carol has upset me a bit her situation and that” I lied.

“No there’s more too it than that Nikki” she said tapping some ash from her cigarette in the ashtray and taking another drag on it. My eyes began to fill up and she noticed a slight tear.

“Nikki what is it are you crying” tears began to tumble as I wiped them away. She walked over sat down hugging me too her, the story already bubbling out of me. Finished she looked at me sternly.

“And that’s all that happened” she said

“Is that not enough, nearly raped and then I snog and feel up another guy” I said in surprise

“Well the first one is not your fault and the second well at least you stopped it”

“Yeah but part of me wanted it to happen”

“I know dear but you said yourself you were feeling a bit left neglected, now don’t think I’m condoning it but thing’s like this can happen. Let me tell you a story years ago before your father left and before he started messing around I was at a Christmas Party with the office, at the time me and your dad were arguing a lot over money you were about four and we were a bit broke he was out of work and we were struggling. Well at the party another married guy I worked with me came on to me at first I ignored it but that night at the party thing’s got out of hand, we ended up in a store cupboard in the office kissing and feeling each other up his hand inside my pants you know what I mean, anyway like you I pulled out at the last minute, who knows maybe I should just have let it happen because we all know what happened a few years later but no I stopped it.” I looked at her in surprise taking a draw from my cigarette and blowing out a white plume of smoke.

“Can I ask you mum did you tell dad about it”

“Yeah I did maybe that was part of his excuse when he started having it off with his workmate but I never went that far I stopped it before it got too far” she said.

“So you’re saying I should tell Eddie” I asked.

“Well it’s your decision but I know one thing you’ll feel better for it if you do. Now go and fix your make up before the guys wonder what were doing.” she said grinding out her cigarette.

Back home later that night I fixed myself a gin and tonic and sat with a cigarette while Eddie checked out the shops and workshop for security.
“Ready for bed babes” he said when he returned with that familiar look in his eye.

“Can I have another drink” I asked handing him my glass he took it and went over to the mini bar, fixing one for himself he returned with the two glasses and sat beside me.

“Eddie you know how you said I was quiet, well I need to tell you something” taking a gulp for my drink I started, five minutes later with tear streaming from my eye’s once more I waited for a response.

“Eeeddie what are you thinking” I said through sobs.

“I can’t believe after everything we’ve been through you could let that happen” he said “I need some air” he said rising.

“Eddie please come back talk to me” I said as he left the room and I could here the front door close. I put down my glass and ran upstairs falling on our bed the sobbing started again racking my already sore ribs as I cried. Some time later I heard the front door open and close but no footsteps came up the stairs, I got up and changed for bed slipping under the covers I waited in time sleep came but no Eddie.

The next morning I got up and the house was empty Eddie had obviously made himself some toast and coffee and left. I looked outside the car was gone. I phoned mum blabbering down the phone that he’s left me, she trying to reassure me all the time that he just needed time me near hysteria she hung up and drove over bringing Mel with her.

“Did you tell Robert” I asked.

“No not yet” she said sitting by me as we smoked a cigarette.

“He will come back Nikki both of you have too much wrapped up in this relationship to throw it away now” she said.

“But he might want to end it here” I sobbed.

“You love each other too much to let a silly thing like the other night ruin it all, ok it was stupid off you and not to mention dangerous, but he knows you care about him look how far you have come for him” she answered We sat around me silent and tearful while mum tidied up and Mel slept blissfully unaware of any crisis in the family. Around four the front door opened and Eddie walked in.

“Can me and Nikki have some time alone” he asked looking at mum she nodded and picked up Mel, kissing me on the forehead she said.

“Ring me,”

“I will thanks” I said through a stomach that was in knots as she left.

Eddie sat down across from me.

“Where did you go” I asked breaking the ice.

“Just drove around parked in some park sat around thinking” he replied. I looked at the floor in a nervous guilty way.

“Nikki I don’t know what possessed you the other night, Gordy well that’s to be expected but this other guy,”

“I know I don’t know what I was thinking maybe it was the shock maybe the alcohol, I don’t know I just wish I could take it all back, but I can’t” I said in a trembling voice.

“Well I think we’ve both come too far to go back now, I’m disappointed and hurt but I’ll get over it, so do you want to give it another go” the answer was in my reaction as I leapt on him and the tears flowed as I continually said “Yes oh yes oh yes.”
 

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A week later and we had three offers from the companies that Eddie had been to see the German firm were offering a sizeable amount of money with bonuses on sales the American and Australian firms were offering a good payment as well but in addition they were offering Eddie a place in their company if we moved abroad. So one quiet Sunday afternoon we sat down to consider our options.

Eddie had always been leased impressed by the German company so we almost ruled them out straight away although they did not want us to move. I saw by Eddie’s initial reaction that the thought of a brand new start away from here was favourite in his mind and given that Gordy had found us recently and seemed to continue to want to make our lives hell the offer to move kind of appealed to me as well.

“So what do you think Australia or America” he asked.

“I don’t know really there’s hardly any difference in the money so either seems attractive to me” I replied.

“Ok then close your eyes,” he said

“What”

“Close your eyes” he repeated so I did. I could here him moving towards me reach out and pick one he said, I moved my hand forward and found his leg.

“Up a bit” I brushed paper then up another bit.

“Pick” he said, my hand moved right and took the piece of paper out of his left hand.

“Open them then, where are we going” I opened my eyes and opened the envelope it was headed Univar “Were going to America” I said as we both hugged at the thought of our new life.

The next morning me and Eddie left Ryan and Rachel in charge and went round to see Mum. Obviously she had been aware of Eddie going to these interviews but not off the offers that we had been made by luck Robert was off work so both were at home as we parked the car and strolled up the path hand in hand.

“Hey you two what you doing here bright and early in the morning, who’s watching the shop” she asked.

“Ryan and Rachel are looking after it they’ll be fine, can we talk to you and Robert” I asked.

A worried look appeared on her face “It’s ok it’s not bad” I replied.

“Ok I’ll just get him” she went to the bottom of the stairs and called on Robert who appeared in his dressing gown having just stepped out of the shower. We sat on the settee hand in hand while I began to explain about the interviews and offers.

“So I said we’ve decided to go with the American company” I said.

“Oh that’s wonderful, did you get a large payment” she asked exited by the news,

Eddie took over. “Well the money’s good but there’s one other detail, I’ve been offered a post in America with it and were going to take it.”

Silence descended on the room as what he had just said sunk in to the assembled group, then tears.

“You, you’re going to America” mum started in a broken tone.

“Yeah” I nodded, she rose crossing the room to me.

“But what am I going to do without you” she said.

“It’s a once in a lifetime offer it’s too good to miss” I said. As she hugged me wet tears splashed on to my cheeks, silence descended again and it was some time before the crying stopped and the silence was broken.

The next few months were chaos Eddie had to fly to the states twice to tie up the details. On his first visit he returned with some house brochures for us to look at although the job included an apartment in Sacramento most employees lived outside the city and commuted to work. Eventually we decided on a bay side house on San Pablo Bay which was around 80 miles out of Sacramento and gave Eddie the option of travelling or staying over at the town house should he wish. Details were ironed out during his second visit and we became owners of the property, issues around my passport were also ironed out as it still showed male but this was smoothed over by the company only two people the Managing Director and his secretary were aware of my true gender.

While Eddie was in the US I was busy this side of the water arranging the sale of the house and business. The businesses went first as a going concern which I was happy about Ryan and Rachel were now living together so I would have hated to see them lose their jobs. The house went soon after so by late August with Eddie still in the US I had moved in with Carol to see her through the last few weeks of her pregnancy. Mum was distraught and cried a lot but inside I knew she was excited for me. A date was set for us to finally leave the UK in mid October so I just hoped that Carol would deliver in time.

One early morning two weeks ahead of schedule Carol woke me up her waters had broken ensuing chaos and panic ruled for the next five minutes which seemed like an hour as I grabbed her bag and other personal items and shuffled her out the door and into the car. Three hours later a healthy young lady called Stacy was brought into the world and the look on her mother’s face showed that she had no regrets in deciding to continue with the pregnancy and she was now a happy single mother of a bouncing baby girl.

Two weeks later it was a solemn but exited bunch of people who gathered at the airport. Mum, Robert, Melanie and Carol with Stacy all stood around with me as I waited for the flight to be called.

Mum and Carol with tissues in hand anticipating the tears in a short while.

“You got everything” mum asked.

“Passport, money”

“Yes mum I’ve already checked three times” I replied. The public address system opened up

“American Airlines Flight 53 to Chicago is now ready for boarding” I stopped and turned

“That’s me” I said a tremble in my voice, mum moved forward and the tears began.

“You take care Nikki, I love you so much and I’m going to miss you so much” she said both of us now sobbing freely.

The hug seemed to go on for ever then it broke Robert moved forward.

“You take care now daughter” he said it was the first time he had said that and the tears were freely flowing again and I could see mum from the corner of my eye still crying at will. Last but by no means least came Carol.

“You jammy bitch” she said through tears “Wish it was me, I’m going to miss you say Hi to Eddie for me” we broke as the announcement sounded again.

“You’ll come over and visit” I said.

“You just stop me soon as Stacey’s a bit older I’ll be on the first flight out, put aside some nice American guys for me will you” I laughed.

“Will do” I said lifting the handle of my cabin luggage and turning I walked towards the departure gate reaching the end of the queue I turned Mum was wrapped in Robert’s arms waving and wiping away tears at the same time as Carol held up Stacey and waved I handed over my passport and moved through the gate to a new life.
 

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I drained the last of the white wine and stood up, taking one last draw from the Virginia Slim I crushed it out in the ashtray. Kicking of my white high heeled mules I stepped forward. The tight white, one piece bathing suit clings to by body. My nipples hardening slightly as a slight breeze caught me, it was cooling down. I walked towards the pool my long tanned legs and arms shining in the sunlight as I reached the edge I flexed my arms, my long sculptured nails painted a deep pink caught my eye as I dived forward and broke the water, surfacing I began to swim to the other side of the pool.

That story was five years ago now, two years after we got here I began pestering Eddie about children and finally he agreed to adopt. We saw several possibilities each one with a sad story to tell. I knew Eddie secretly had hoped to find a boy but when we were asked to look at a little girl called Kristina I knew that this would be the one. She had melted my heart from the minute I saw her but when the story of her parents and brothers death in a freeway accident was told I knew that would clinch it. So Kristina became ours and is now fully adjusted into our family, it was hard at first but she’s now blooming. Reaching the end of the pool I kicked and started my swim back to where I had entered the water.

Climbing out of the pool I picked up my towel and patted myself dry.

What of home you may ask, well I’ve been back a couple of times for a break once on my own and once with Kristina to introduce her to the family. Robert has got a contract with a company in Fort Bragg which is just up the coast for two years starting in November so Mum will be moving out with him. I’m naturally thrilled at that. Eddie bought a diner on the highway not far from here for me where I work part time and mum has promised to help me out to keep her busy.

Carol, well Carol was true to her word and as soon as Stacey turned three she came out to visit she arrived to spend Christmas with us just in time for the companies Christmas party. There she met Brett a Distribution Manager and although out to see us spent the whole second week with him in Sacramento. Eddie tells me that he calls her all the time and is going over to the UK on an Exchange visit to examine UK distribution with the intention of asking her to come back with him. I’ve talked to Carol lots on the phone and I know the answer to his question will be yes and I would not be surprised if she’s on the same flight back with him or at least the one after that.

I picked up my cigarettes, the slim gold lighter and the empty glass. Slipping on my shoes I clicked my way along the side of the pool and on to the path leading to the house.

So what of the other’s I hear you say.

Well, Brian and Dave disappeared off the radar, they both took jobs down south and got married and had kids. We all know what happened to William with little regret.

Angela was probably the most naturally beautiful of the group and always said she would bag a rich husband. She eventually captured a Premier League footballer but as his career hit the lower division she hit another mans bed and was last know to be living with someone who owned a couple of public houses.

Andy eventually got Margo pregnant and moved in with her, his constant cheating with Tracey eventually caught up with him and so did his love for speed as he wrote of his car and himself in an accident two years ago. Margo has since moved on and has a new man in her life let’s hope he’s more trustworthy than Andy.

Gordy well what did you expect really, he had narrow scrapes with the law for a number of years, fight’s, stealing a number of thing’s his luck eventually ran out after Lesley sensibly ditched him and he got into an argument after leaving a pub. His vicious assault on the other guy was the last straw and a four year prison sentence followed.

Lastly Lesley, well her sense in dumping Gordy led to an upturn in her fortunes, Eddie apart I would say she was the most intelligent of the group and she had always been driven to have her own business. She started off with one salon in our home town and now has four across the region, she is very much the career woman married to a lawyer they are successful and comfortably off. I don’t grudge her any of that as I doubt that I would be standing here today had it not been for her idea, I owe her a lot and would probably thank her if I ever met her again.

Climbing the stairs I reach our master bedroom and step inside to get dressed.

Dressed in a lacy white see through blouse with a white bra underneath, a black pencil skirt with stocking’s and three inch heeled black velvet patent pumps, I pick up my evening dress in it’s protective bag and my overnight bag.

Eddie’s company is hosting a reception tonight following a successful merger with another company in the US. Kristina is on a sleep over with one of her friends tonight so I’m free to go out and party. I set the alarm and close the door hanging up the dress in the back of my four wheel drive SUV and put my overnight bag in the back.

Looking at my watch it’s just gone three so I’ve got time to spare as I reverse out of the drive and turn the car stopping at the intersection I pop the cigarette lighter in and pull a VS120 from the pack on the dashboard. The lighter pops out as I check for oncoming traffic, I immerse the tip of the cigarette in the heat and inhale before popping it back in it’s slot. I roll down the window and glance right before pulling out into the roadway and towards the freeway and my route to Sacramento. My hand rests on the top of the wheel as I glide along the light catches the small stones that the Beauty salon Assistant fixed into my long nails yesterday, the slim cigarette between the fingers with a slim plum of smoke being pulled towards the open window.

I glance back at the overnight bag which contains a change of clothes for tomorrow. Inside though is also a sexy figure hugging white latex nurses uniform with fishnet white stocking’s and six inch metal heeled leather stilettos which I got off the Internet recently. After the reception is over I plan to slip away into the bathroom of our flat and change into it, after all my husband has been working hard all week for our benefit and he deserves a treat, which I intend to deliver for the rest of the night. Life has never been better and the future looks even brighter.

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