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Adventures in BC Chat Gaming: RISUS Ghostbusters

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Adventures in BC Chat Gaming
RISUS Ghostbusters: Part 1 of ?

GMed by Melanie E., with the gameplay talents of Doc (Greeneggs667,) Stardraigh, and Serena

When the BC Dungeon's Pathfinder game closes early, those who stay around are left to find... OTHER ways of entertaining themselves. So, why not a nice game of RISUS?

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The cast:

Doc is Raging_Cajun:
Paranormal Investigation 2
pilot 3
french trained chef 2

Stardraigh is Sappha Mimay:
Paranormal Investigator: 3
Bottlecap Collector: 2
Track & Field Longjump: 2

Serena is Serena_Gear_Solid:
Paranormal Investigator 2
Sword Swallowing 3
Swimming 2

And I am bosslady, the GM deciding what goes on.

RISUS is a d6 based, very simple RPG designed mostly so that people who want to play games and get drunk at the same time can do so without complicated rules getting in the way. For us, it simply amounted to one heckuva good time. Typos, ramblings, and other weirdness left in for posteriority.

-==-

bosslady> We'll just be kinda running this by the skin of our teeth, so let's get started, shall we?
bosslady> For a long time you've been following the news reports. You know the ones, about the ghost outbreaks in New York? Well, it's only recently that the greatest event in the entirety of your dreary little existence has come to pass: the Ghostbusters are licensing out their business' franchise rights!
bosslady> You live in Hoboken ('cause why not,) and the two of you are roommates, less by choice and more by circumstance.
== Sas has changed nick to Raging
== Raging has changed nick to Raging_Cajun
== Serena has changed nick to Serena_Gear_Solid
bosslady> Down on your luck, but okay in money thanks to a rich uncle who passed away of Sappha's, the two of you decide what better way to make your way than opening your own branch? The particle accelerator packs are a bit steep, but you can start without those, right?
bosslady> Right?
bosslady> Sappha/Serena.
== Star has changed nick to Sappha
Serena_Gear_Solid> (Are there not 3 of us?
bosslady> RC, you have a spare point available.
bosslady> Sure?
bosslady> Serena, add your character to the list on the google doc.
Raging_Cajun> I thought you said 7?
bosslady> So, three friends, out to make their way in the big bad world of paranormal investigation. You each have: 1 jumpsuit (beige,) and an assortment of random crud as you decide to give yourselves, and access to a limited form of hammerspace (within reason.)
bosslady> I did.
bosslady> I thought you'd only assigned six.
bosslady> *shrug*
Raging_Cajun> :-)
Sappha> What's hammerspace
Sappha> Can I have 200 limited forms of hammerspace?
Sappha> Don't even know what it is but I want 200 of them
bosslady> And you know what? The great thing about RISUS is I don't even care that Sapph gave herself the wrong skills: we can work with a PI instead of a paranormal investigator on the team, right peeps?
bosslady> Hammerspace: the place where people in games, comics, and TV shows keep all the things they couldn't possibly be carrying ont hem, so named for the tendency of cartoon characters to pull mallets out of nowhere.
Sappha> I changed it back to paranormal investigator already
bosslady> Where do the mallets come from? Hammerspace, of course.
bosslady> Awwww.
bosslady> Evs.
bosslady> :D
bosslady> This game, it is not a serious game.
Sappha> So like Infinite bags of holding... I still want 200 of them. I put one inside the other.... :P
Sappha> Hammerspace all the way down
bosslady> :P WITHIN REASON. I'd allow a lot of stuff, but a sherman tank or something would be asking too much.
Sappha> Do we make a list of stuff on the sheet or just make it up as we go?
bosslady> You also have a car. Sadly, you could not afford the iconic hearse, so you'll have to settle for Cajun's aging El Camino with a camper on the back.
bosslady> Either/or Sapph. I'm flexible.
Raging_Cajun> Can I have a LT1 in it?
bosslady> Sure? No clue what that is.
Sappha> My character is small so she can fit in the middle of the bench seat in the el camino
bosslady> Absolutely!
Raging_Cajun> Corvette motor, makes lotza power & lousy mialage
bosslady> Like the classic team, your first few weeks open are... quiet, to say the least, when suddenly... *RING RING RING*
bosslady> Sure, sounds good.
Sappha> Because there's no a bench seat. No bucket seats here. The stickshift and safetybelts have also gone. Cake plays on the radio.... :P
Sappha> *now
Raging_Cajun> Y'all keep the noise down, This girl had a riugh night!
bosslady> *RING RING RING*
bosslady> (PS: That's the phone)
Sappha> I pick up the phone
Raging_Cajun> Oh ok!
Sappha> Moshimoshi
bosslady> Is... is this the Hoboken Ghostbusters?
* Raging_Cajun answers, PI Inc how may I help you?
* Serena_Gear_Solid is listening to korean death metal, and cannot hear the phone.
Sappha> (Guy or girl on the other end?)
bosslady> Woman.
bosslady> Harried.
bosslady> Harriet the Harried Harridan.
Sappha> Yes Ma'am. This is HoBOken GhostbustERS. (I stress the caps)
* Raging_Cajun listens on another handset
bosslady> Umm... you catch ghosts, right? Only, I think I have one.
bosslady> You wouldn't happen to be plumbers, too?
Sappha> We indubitably Do that Ma'am
* Raging_Cajun flings paperclip at Serena, Pisst we might have a client!
Sappha> I look to Raging Cajun
Sappha> and whisper... Plumbers?
* Raging_Cajun Blinks... What I fly & cook!
Sappha> Well mouth it really. Not a whisper
Raging_Cajun> No plumbing
bosslady> Oh. Oh! Good! Umm... here's my address," she says, rattling off a string of words you jot down on your palm. "When can you be here?"
* Serena_Gear_Solid swallows the paperclip.
Raging_Cajun> (how far from us & how bad is traffic?)
Sappha> Why yes Ma'am. We can meet your plumbing needs especially if a personage of Spectral Nature is involved.
bosslady> Even if it's a carnivorous toilet?
Sappha> But if it's normal average non-ghost plumbing, we can't do a thing
bosslady> (You check the address, and it's about 15 minutes away by El Camino.)
Sappha> If it's not a normal toilet, we can check it out
bosslady> Are carnivorous toilets normal?
Raging_Cajun> Covering the phone, tell her about 45 to a hour
Sappha> We'd have to see. It could be a normal carnivorous toilet, or an abnormal carnivorous toilet. Won't know until we see it for ourselves
Raging_Cajun> her=Sappha
bosslady> "Alright. So, whenc an you be here?"
Sappha> We can be there in about an hour.
bosslady> "Okay. I think Jimmy can--" you hear the phone hit the table followed by "NO! STEPH, DON'T FEED IT THE CAT!" Then the line goes dead.
* Serena_Gear_Solid finally takes off her headphones.
* Raging_Cajun shrugs on the coveralls over her daisy dukes & halter zipps the flight boots & doffs a PHI ball cap. OK lets Go Ladies!
Sappha> LOOK ALIVE LADIES... WE GOT US A JOB
* Sappha jumps up and down excited.
bosslady> YAYUHHHHH!!!!
bosslady> *kick in theme music remixed by Missy Elliot*
bosslady> Take the lead, ladies.
Raging_Cajun> (PHI is petroleum helos inc)
* Sappha gets her jumpsuit on and hurries to the El Camino
* Raging_Cajun gets into the drivers seat & LIGHTS HER UP! Almond Bros floods the shop.
bosslady> Is that a bad parody band of the Allman Brothers?
bosslady> 'Cause I figured you more for a Hayseed Dixie kinda girl.
* Serena_Gear_Solid follows, looking slight less enthusiastic.
bosslady> Or maybe Mojo Nixon.
Raging_Cajun> (no I just can't speel)
bosslady> Y'all hop in the ol' Camino and head out. You have an hour. Any stops on the way?
Raging_Cajun> (This girl is form Lafayette LA, a real coonass cajun)
Sappha> I'm excited RC.... We... have.... a.... JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Raging_Cajun> Y'all know it!
Raging_Cajun> ( I want to drive around the addys block & scope it out
bosslady> Okay.
Sappha> I wish to acquire a ghost catching net since my last one broke. We must go to the dollar store. Also the fish store. I have an idea....
Raging_Cajun> Plus look for a parking space
bosslady> Both are conveniently on the way to your goal.
bosslady> Oh! In cash, you have about thirty bucks between y'all, plus a Subway gift card with about 67 cents left on it.
Serena_Gear_Solid> Oh, I swallowed that card last thursday.
Raging_Cajun> (need gas?)
Sappha> Don't I have a charge card on it... for business expenses and stuff?
bosslady> The address is in the middle of a somewhat run-down area. Big houses for the region, but all a bit worse for wear, with chain link fences and the occasional yappy dog.
bosslady> How do you think you got the Subway gift card? Funds are tight, to say the least.
bosslady> (If it's something you need that is potentially entertaining and you can't afford it, it can possibly already be in the back of the El Camino.)
Sappha> Well, I need some sidewalk chalk, At least 4 candles, a ghost catching net, and the largest coy/goldfish I can get from the fish store.
bosslady> That'll all run ya about 10 bucks, minus the ghost net. You have a coupon for one of those in the glove box.
* Sappha looks in the back for the M80 firecracker she's been holding onto since the 4th of July
* Raging_Cajun makes sure she has Tabasco sauce & a pack of boublemint
bosslady> It's buried under a pile of empty funyuns bags and pixie stix.
Raging_Cajun> doublemint
bosslady> Nah, it's Boublemint. Each piece fills your heart with lounge music.
Raging_Cajun> (lol)
Sappha> Yay for ghost catching net coupon to acquire the ghost catching net
bosslady> It was good for either that, or on the other side it coulda been used for half off a grand slam at Denny'.
bosslady> Driving around the street... each of you roll your PI skill.
Sappha> How does the roll work?
Sappha> Do we have to get higher or lower?
bosslady> a d6 for each point.
bosslady> I don't tell ya that. Just roll, and add the dice together.
Sappha> I got six total\
Raging_Cajun> 2d6+0 2,2+0 = 4
bosslady> This isn't a check you can get hurt by.
Sappha> Rolled a 1,2, and 3
bosslady> So a six, a four...
== Raging_Cajun has changed nick to RC
Serena_Gear_Solid> 11
bosslady> RC, I have arbitrarily decided that you have a pet iguana named Moon Pie.
bosslady> 6, 4, and 11.
RC> & she? is riding on my shoulder
bosslady> With your powers combined, you notice... absolutely nothing out of the ordinary, except for one house where the owners apparently bought a Fiat.
bosslady> Yep. All's quiet, it seems, around the neighborhood. Perhaps too quiet?
* RC reaches into hammer space & gives Moon Pie a grape
* Serena_Gear_Solid rests her head on Sappha's shoulder.
RC> Walk up to the addy & ring doorbell?
Sappha> Are we driving in the neighborhood of the job or elsewhere?
RC> (we're at the addy)
* Sappha puts her head on Serena_Gear_Solid's head and starts humming along to the music
bosslady> The door is answered by Harried Harriet. Her hair is a hardy henna. She has facial herpes. "Yes? Oh, you must be the ghostbusters! This way!" She leads you into a rather outdated domicile, with pea-green walls and the occasional ochre paisley print rug.
RC> Me looks at her two friends, y'all like tied to the whipping post that much?
* RC blinks at the colors
Sappha> I've gotten out now that we've arrived and follow RC in
* Serena_Gear_Solid frowns and heads inside.
bosslady> From a door at the end of the hall, you can see water seeping out and ruining the hardwood floors, and hear a rather purturbing gurgling moan from within.
Sappha> I have left the goldfish in the car for now along with all other acquired instruments.
bosslady> The lady proceeds to lead you up the stairs.
RC> Mam we need a cash deposit for our services...
bosslady> "Cash? But... we don't have any cash! I can write a check?"
bosslady> She looks around and wrings her hands nervously
Sappha> <.<
Sappha> >.>
RC> We take Visa etc but no checks
Sappha> <.<
bosslady> She coughs. "My husband has a 30 pack of Corona in the cooler...."
Sappha> O.O
* RC looks at her friends, y'all ok w/a check?
* Sappha begins whispering to herself and counting on her fingers.....
Serena_Gear_Solid> Checks have been known to ricochet off the walls.
Sappha> How about both? Check and Alcohol
bosslady> "I could do that," she said, glancing up the stairs when a yeowling sound is heard before yelling "DAMNIT STEPH I SAID DON'T FEED IT THE CAT!" Then she takes off up the stairs.
Serena_Gear_Solid> Yea... I'm thinking cash.
Sappha> We can always take something of value as colateral?
bosslady> On a side note, a google search for Carnivorous Toilet mostly turns up bats and carnivorous pitcher plants.
bosslady> The lady can't hear you: she's disappeared around the corner, though two kids and a damp and semi-hairless cat come charging down and between you, laughing (and yeowling) as they race out the door.
Sappha> https://www.google.com/search?espv=2&biw=673&bih=575&tbm=isch&sa=1&q=evil+toilet&oq=evil+toilet&gs_l=img.3..0l2j0i24.3066.3636.0.3967.4.4.0.0.0.0.210.387.0j1j1.2.0.msedr...0...1c.1.61.img..2.2.387.ukAWbRtfDQE
* RC goes up the stairs w/tabasco in hand
Sappha> I go up behind RC, carefully watching, observing, waiting to use my expert kung fu & karate
bosslady> You find the woman standing in a smallish bathroom, brandishing a plunger and beating at a rather over-animated toilet fixture.
bosslady> Sappha, you don't have karate or kung fu.
Sappha> I know
bosslady> You have track and bottlecaps.
bosslady> Roll for bottlecaps.
Sappha> Definitely don't know Martial arts... but no one else knows I don't know that
Sappha> I got a six
* RC shakes Tabasco on the toilet & starts telling it off in Cajun French
Serena_Gear_Solid> I unhinge my jaw and shoot a sword from my mouth in the direction of the toilet.
bosslady> Roll for sword swallowing Serena, and RC roll for your automatic 1 die in Crazy Cajun.
bosslady> Sappha, you found a rare 1967 Dr. Pepper cap on the stairs while following your friends. Where it came from, you have no idea.
Sappha> I pocket the bottlecap
RC> 1d6+0 5+0 = 5
Sappha> Are either of the attacks successful against the toilet?
bosslady> RC, while yelling at the target and shaking out your hot sauce, the toilet lunges. 2 points in Evil Toilet, total roll of 9. It clamps down on your arm.
bosslady> Serena, what did you roll?
Serena_Gear_Solid> 9
Sappha> I stand back. This doesn't bode well for RC.
bosslady> The sword you spit hits it (ties equal win for players, made it up just now.) You snap the lid on top of the toilet and it starts spewing pea soup. What you HOPE is pea soup. Well, it COULD be pea soup....
Sappha> I ask Harriet how long has the toilet been exhibiting these symptoms?
RC> I hammerspace a lemon & squeeze the juice on the bad thing
bosslady> Oh dear god let that be pea soup.
bosslady> "Oh, a couple of weeks now. At first it was just a bit nippy, but it's gotten more lively lately."
bosslady> RC, roll french chef.
* RC Shouts, Bad Toilet, Bad Bad Bad
Sappha> I also ask Harriet to go over all the symptoms she's seen
bosslady> "Biting, growling, mumbling eldritch encantations during the gloaming. You know, the usual stuff."
RC> 2d6+0 4,5+0 = 9
bosslady> Lemon juice, the evil toilet's one true weakness! The lemony freshness causes the beast to scream in horror, and it lets go of your arm.
Sappha> I nod my head. Yeah. This is definitely your typical run of the mill evil carnivorous toilet. Nothing abnormal about it. Don't worry ma'am. We've got this.
RC> Hah! & squeeze more!
bosslady> RC, roll for french chef again.
RC> OK
bosslady> Sappha, roll for PI.
Sappha> I look over my shoulder at RC getting free. and then turn back to Harriet. Now Ma'am. It might be best if you let us professionals take care of this.
RC> 2d6+0 5,3+0 = 8
bosslady> The toilet cowers back, whining pathetically from RC's squeaky-clean attack.
Sappha> Perhaps you want to go downstairs, maybe wait in your car... possibly go visit your sister for the night. It might take a while
RC> Take that you beast & your peas soup is weak also...
Sappha> I got 10
bosslady> That's not pea soup.
RC> Don't forget The kids & kkat
bosslady> Sappha, you recall that carnivorous toilets are easily disposed of with a quick M80.
Sappha> Awesome. I shuffle Harriet out of the room and along with the rest of her family, outside to their car.
bosslady> Harriet looks at RC. "Oh, they'll be fine. I leave 'em out at night all the time." Then she leans her plunger against the wall. "There's meat loaf in the fridge if you girls get hungry."
Sappha> Then I go to the car, retrieve the gold fish, the half gone roll of duct tape, and the M-80, along with some of the pixie sticks.
bosslady> Serena, what are you up to while all this is going on?
RC> Why thank you Miss Harriet, right neighborly of you!
Serena_Gear_Solid> Uhhh...
Sappha> Then in the kitchen, I assemble my patented anti-evil carnivorous toilet device.
bosslady> Good answer! Setting up a circle of protection was a great idea Serena!
bosslady> Sapph, roll for Longjump. Your years of track and field have given you strange, heretofore unmentioned MacGuyver like abilities.
Sappha> I duct tape the M-80 to the gold fish after I remove it from the bag. Then I liberally coat it with pixie stick dust. I head up to the bathroom upstairs.
bosslady> Okay, skip the roll.
Sappha> I got a six. Also Serena, there's chalk and candles
bosslady> As soon as you approach with the fish, the toilet licks its lid. But, there's something missing. RC, roll French Chef.
Serena_Gear_Solid> :P
Sappha> I take out my lighter from my jump suit pocket, ready to light the M80
RC> 2d6+0 2,5+0 = 7
bosslady> RC! You realize that no self-respecting carnivorous toilet would eat pixie-crusted coy without a garnish!
Sappha> :)
RC> Hammerspace & get another delish sour orange slice.
RC> Ready to Sappha?
Sappha> I tuck the sour orange slice in the gold-fishies mouth
Sappha> Yeah, I'm ready.
bosslady> The toilet grumbles in appreciation.
RC> I back myself w/cajun gerkins too!
bosslady> Serena, get ready for the blast!
Sappha> I light the M-80 that is duct taped to the fish. Then I yell. Fire in the hole and toss it to the toilet
RC> Auttcrat Brand!
bosslady> The toilet eagerly snaps the fishie up. 3....
bosslady> 2....
bosslady> 1....
bosslady> 0.568
Sappha> Then I run outside the bathroom. THis of course happens after the other two left the room in preparation.
* RC ducks down
bosslady> BOOM!!!!
RC> in the hall
Sappha> When the smoke settles, I peak into the bathroom
bosslady> Pieces of ceramic and fish litter the hallway
RC> Quickly get uup and recee the room
bosslady> The evil toilet.... is no more.
bosslady> CUE VICTORY MUSIC!
Sappha> Are the pieces of ceramic still evil?
bosslady> No more than any other ceramic.
Sappha> The Final Fantasy victory theme plays
RC> Now then who sweeps and & how much do we charge?
bosslady> At the base of the stairs is a cooler full of Coronas, with a check for 300 dollars sitting on top.
* Serena_Gear_Solid pouts.
RC> I got get a meatloaf sammy & share w/the girls
Sappha> Woo hoo. Cheap craptastical beer.
Serena_Gear_Solid> A check...
* Sappha picks up the case of beer and ignores the check
bosslady> Serena, don't forget the beer! And meat loaf!
RC> got=go
RC> I pick 'em up
* Serena_Gear_Solid writes a note to herself to file a complaint when it inevitably bounces.
bosslady> Congratulations on a first job well done! Surely tackling such a nefarious menace will bode well for your future endeavors!
RC> You driving Serena?
* Sappha says 1... 2... 3 not I while touching her nose
bosslady> And thus ends our very first session of RISUS Ghostbusters!
bosslady> So. Whatcha think? Fun? Silly enough? Worth trying again some time?
RC> (that was fun, kinda like teenagers from outer space)
Sappha> On a side note, if the goldfish M80 didn't work. I was going to make a magic circle and summon another evil spirit and bind it to a plunger then have both fight each other.
bosslady> RISUS CAN be played serious, but why would you? And that woulda been GREAT, Sappha :P

-==-

Will there be future episodes of RISUS Ghostbusters? Will the girls' careers as paranormal investigators take off, or leave them moping in a sea of ruin? What IS that smell coming from the El Camino, anyway? These questions, and more, will be left unanswered if there are any more installments of... RISUS Ghostbusters! Thank you, good night! *drops mic*

Adventures in BC Chat Gaming: RISUS Ghostbusters Part 2

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Interactive Story

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  • Non-Transgender
  • Magic
  • Adventure
  • Comedy
  • Parody
  • Fanfiction

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  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Fan-Fiction, poster's responsibility
  • Interactive Collaboration
  • Non-TG Story by TG Author


Adventures in BC Chat Gaming
RISUS Ghostbusters: Part 2 of ?

GMed by Melanie E., with the gameplay talents of Doc (Greeneggs667,) Stardraigh, Fiona, 0xNaomi, and Dorothy Colleen

After the lukewarm reception of our last game log I considered not sharing this one, but then I thought what the hey. So, more RISUS Ghostbusters adventures!

This time around the menagerie includes magenta ferrets, ex chihuahuas, and even secret agent frogs! What could our noble (or at least generally well-meaning) ghostbust-ettes be in for now?!

-==-

The cast:

Doc is Raging_Cajun:
Paranormal Investigation 2
pilot 3
french trained chef 2

Stardraigh is Sappho Mimay:
Paranormal Investigator: 3
Bottlecap Collector: 2
Looking Good: 2

Fiona (previously miscredited) is Serena_Gear_Solid:
Paranormal Investigator 2
Sword Swallowing 3
Swimming 2

Naomi is Mimi
Para Investigatorying 2
Well-Timed Speaking 2
Disappearing Into Background 3

And Dorothy is Mary Sue
Paranormal investigator 2
Fashion consultant 2
Therapist 3

And I am bosslady, the GM deciding what goes on.

RISUS is a d6 based, very simple RPG designed mostly so that people who want to play games and get drunk at the same time can do so without complicated rules getting in the way. For us, it simply amounted to one heckuva good time. Typos, ramblings, and other weirdness left in for posteriority, as it were.

-==-

[18:06] Ghanna> that "ghostbusters thing sounded fun
[18:06] Agra> Well, like I said, I got Ideas. Sas? You wanna try something?
[18:06] Star> We can do another flashback
[18:06] Star> Or Risus.
[18:06] Agra> I'd do Ghostbusters for y'all. Or a flashback.
[18:07] Star> Although I've got nothing for a flashback type thing. I'd need a few hours to come up with something.
[18:07] Ghanna> yay! I aint afraid of no ghosts!
[18:07] Ghanna> giggles
[18:07] Agra> Either/or.
[18:07] Agra> I've got a flashback concept. Or we could add another Ghostbuster.
[18:07] Sas> I really NEED Saph to do my thing in this universe
[18:08] Agra> So that would be a "Ghostbuster" vote then.
[18:08] Sas> I vote for Ghostbusters.
[18:08] Agra> You okay with me, umm... taking your thread again, Star? *blushes*
[18:08] Star> Ghostbuster is Risus right?
[18:09] Star> I'm totally okay with it
[18:09] Agra> Yep!
[18:09] Agra> Okay, then, Ghostbusters is what it looks like!
[18:09] == Star has changed nick to Sappho
[18:09] Agra> (link for the character log document, removed for safety)
[18:10] Agra> There's the characters from last time.
[18:10] Sappho> Can we change our skills from last time... mainly because I don't remember what mine were
[18:10] Ghanna> you'll have to make a character for me
[18:10] OxNaomi> If it's not a dnd where I can murder everyone, can I (try to) hop in?
[18:10] Agra> Quick rundown for the newcomers! RISUS is a d6 based system. Your character can be anything you want whatsoever, though let's assume human for the sake of being Ghostbusters.
[18:10] Ghanna> but otherwise I'm in
[18:10] == Sas has changed nick to RC
[18:10] Ghanna> giggles
[18:11] Agra> Absolutely, Mimi! Both you and Ghanna can create characters, it's a snap!
[18:11] == OxNaomi has changed nick to Mimi
[18:11] == Agra has changed nick to bosslady
[18:11] == Ghanna has changed nick to Mary_Sue
[18:11] bosslady> Your character has three skills. One of them is paranormal investigator: the other two are whatever the heck you want 'em to be.
[18:11] Mary_Sue> lol
[18:12] bosslady> And you have 7 points to distribute between those 3 skills, however you wat.
[18:12] * RC zooms the quadcoppter over head
[18:12] Mimi> That it?
[18:12] bosslady> Whenever you make a skill check, you roll a number of 6-sided die equal to your score in that skill and add 'em together.
[18:12] Sappho> I wish to change one of my skills
[18:12] bosslady> That's it.
[18:12] RC> It lands & does a whooop whooop sound
[18:12] bosslady> 'Kay, Star. Do it.
[18:13] bosslady> Any other skill adjustments? RC? Serena?
[18:13] Saphira_work> Sorry guys for letting you dow again :( I really really hate to, but...
[18:13] Saphira_work> *sigh*
[18:13] bosslady> Mimi, add your character to the list too. RISUS isn't about seriousness: it's about fun.
[18:13] Mary_Sue> huggles, Saphira
[18:13] Mimi> Already on it
[18:14] bosslady> 'Zokay Saphira. We'll miss you though!
[18:14] Serena> Genetic Manipulation and Cybernetics.
[18:14] * RC huggles Saphira
[18:14] bosslady> I'll post the Ghostbusters log to BC like last time: you can see what we were up to then :P
[18:14] Mary_Sue> So paranormal investigator, fashion consultant, and therapist
[18:14] Mary_Sue> grins
[18:14] * Sappho still loves Saphira_work. Huggles
[18:14] bosslady> Love the skills Mimi!
[18:15] * Saphira_work eyes the chocolate pudding and decides to eat some after work is done
[18:15] bosslady> Mary Mary Sue, where are you?
[18:15] Mimi> Paranormal Investagatorying, Well-Timed Speaking and Disappearing into the Background. For all your Ghost Surveillance and Convincing needs!
[18:15] Mary_Sue> I am here!
[18:15] bosslady> Add yerself to the character list then!
[18:15] Mary_Sue> how do I do that?
[18:15] bosslady> What kinda Ghostbuster will YOU be?
[18:15] bosslady> Type words
[18:15] bosslady> And numbers
[18:16] bosslady> The link I posted earlier has the other chars listed as well as lots of random items they thought were important to keep track of
[18:16] bosslady> Just click it and add a character!
[18:16] Mary_Sue> dont see the link please repost
[18:17] bosslady> (second link to character sheet log, also removed)
[18:17] Mimi> Make sure to remove public edit links from logs =P
[18:18] bosslady> OOooh, fancy!
[18:18] Mary_Sue> giggles
[18:18] bosslady> This part won't be shared, promise!
[18:18] bosslady> Alright! Now, where are my dice...
[18:18] Mimi> I'm a lazy person, random.org is open
[18:19] bosslady> Mary, since you're a fashion consultant, it's up to YOU to redesign the uniforms!
[18:19] * Mimi cowers in fear
[18:19] Mary_Sue> pink!
[18:19] * RC needs more gas for the El Co
[18:19] bosslady> Anyone have a problem with pink jumpsuits?
[18:20] Mimi> I would, but then again I'm not here because I have any other job...
[18:20] bosslady> Alright! This game is getting started in 3....
[18:20] bosslady> 2....
[18:20] * RC tosses hot pink lippy & nail polish to the girls
[18:20] Mary_Sue> grins
[18:20] Mary_Sue> yay!
[18:20] bosslady> 1....
[18:21] bosslady> Welcome, yet again, to a brand-spanking-new session of RISUS Ghostbusters!
[18:21] Saphira_work> yay!
[18:21] Serena> yay!
[18:21] * Mimi is already questioning their job choice
[18:21] * RC Whooops
[18:21] bosslady> When we last left our intrepid heroines, they had just defeated the evil carnivorous toilet of Harriet the Harried Harridan and acquired 3 thousand dollars and a cooler full of coronas!
[18:22] RC> (um That was 300$, I thhnik)
[18:22] Mimi> (List says $300 check)
[18:22] bosslady> That was a week ago! The beer, naturally, attracted hangers-on, two of which have inexplicably never left. Girls! Introduce yerselves!
[18:22] bosslady> 300, 3k, whatever.
[18:22] bosslady> *shrug*
[18:22] bosslady> The bank was bad at math. You got 3k.
[18:22] Mary_Sue> hi hi!
[18:23] Mary_Sue> I'm Mary Sue!
[18:23] * Mary_Sue giggles
[18:23] Mimi> I show up and the pay is already tenfold? Sweet!
[18:23] Mimi> Hai, I'm Mimikins. Mimi for convenience.
[18:23] bosslady> Mimi, roll your disappearing into background skill
[18:24] Mimi> 5+6+4=15
[18:24] Mimi> (Is there a set value for success/fail?)
[18:24] bosslady> You were there the first time 'round too, just nobody noticed ya.
[18:24] bosslady> The success/fail value is whatever I arbitrarily decide it is.
[18:25] * RC flies the quadcoper around the garage, swooping here & there
[18:25] bosslady> SInce that first call, work hasn't exactly been pouring in.
[18:25] * Sappho practices her kung fu with her ghost catching wand.
[18:25] Sappho> On top of her desk
[18:26] bosslady> In fact, you've been downright bored! Even the new jumpsuits haven't served to take away the post-success funk, thought hey did help with another kind: the old ones were getting just a TAD stale.
[18:26] bosslady> That's all about to change....
[18:26] bosslady> *RINGRINGRING*
[18:26] bosslady> *RINGRINGRING*
[18:26] * Mimi immediately picks up the phone, being already next to it
[18:26] RC> Poping her bubblemint as she does so.
[18:26] bosslady> *RINGRINGRING*
[18:27] Mimi> Gah, phone, why are you still ringing?
[18:27] bosslady> Good. But who's gonna answer the doorbell?
[18:27] Mimi> Hello, magical ringing?
[18:27] bosslady> *RINGRINGRING*
[18:27] Mimi> It's the DOOR?
[18:27] bosslady> :D
[18:27] Mary_Sue> giggles
[18:27] * Mimi is stuck in confusion
[18:27] bosslady> *RINGRINGRING*
[18:27] RC> I open the door!
[18:27] * Sappho slips on the table and gracefully falls to the ground, landing on her feet, all the while looking good
[18:27] Sappho> I meant to do that
[18:27] * RC pokes her head out looking around
[18:28] bosslady> Through the door stumbles an unkept young man with thinning, sandy blonde hair and a rumpled business suit.
[18:28] bosslady> Once inside he looks around the room, wide-eyed and frantic, before looking behind himself, then breathing a small sigh of relief.
[18:28] RC> Oh, you again, No we don't need life insurance!
[18:28] bosslady> "What?"
[18:29] Mary_Sue> giggles
[18:29] * Sappho comes up to RC. No that was the guy in the rumpled suit. This guys different
[18:29] bosslady> He looks at the pink jumpsuits, seemingly unsure of himself. "Are you the ghostbusters?"
[18:29] Mary_Sue> hello young man!
[18:29] * Mimi recovers in time to respond
[18:29] Mimi> Yes we are...
[18:29] bosslady> "...Hi?"
[18:29] Mary_Sue> dont you think our new uniforms are divine?
[18:29] Mary_Sue> grins
[18:29] bosslady> "Who said that?"
[18:29] RC> You're the insurance sales dude that's been around, I know it!
[18:30] bosslady> "Umm..." He flops to the floor in confusion.
[18:30] Mimi> You think the ghostbusters don't have a few... ghosts of their own in employment?
[18:30] bosslady> "Just... are you the friggin' Ghostbusters or not?!"
[18:30] * Mimi enjoys being confusing to the poor man
[18:30] RC> We ARE! RC ROARS!
[18:30] bosslady> Good point! Mimi! You're officially a ghost now.
[18:30] Mary_Sue> yes!
[18:30] bosslady> But nobody realizes it.
[18:31] bosslady> Anywho.
[18:31] bosslady> "Good! I... I need your help! My girlfriend... she won't leave me alone!'
[18:31] Mary_Sue> umm, is your girlfriend a ghost?
[18:31] bosslady> "Day in, day out, she follows me everywhere I go. It's... I can't stand it any more!"
[18:31] * Sappho pokes RC. "Inside Voice"
[18:31] Mimi> Hey, I'm not the girlfriend!
[18:32] bosslady> The young man looks at Mary Sue like she's stupid.
[18:32] * RC looks him over, umm you don't look that hot.
[18:32] bosslady> "No. She's a talking ferret."
[18:32] Sappho> Did someone say Ferret
[18:32] Mary_Sue> well, we aren't ferret busters
[18:32] Mary_Sue> giggles
[18:32] bosslady> Just then, a ferret bounds through the door.
[18:32] Sappho> I am a subject matter expert in all things Ferret related
[18:32] Mary_Sue> lol
[18:32] * Sappho poses in thought
[18:32] * Mimi questions who left the door open
[18:32] bosslady> "Hey! I wouldn't have to follow you around if you'd just do what you said you would!"
[18:33] * RC pokes Sappho in her butt, What? I didn't hear you?
[18:33] * Sappho rush to the ferret, and pick her up.
[18:33] Mary_Sue> giggles
[18:33] * Sappho squees with delight
[18:33] * Serena inches.
[18:33] bosslady> The ferret rests its paws on its hips and looks at the group. "Since he's too much of a pansy to ask... I need you girls' help to get rid of a nasty witch's curse."
[18:33] Mimi> Witches aren't quite ghosts, madam.
[18:34] bosslady> EEEEEEE! The ferret squeals as it is swung around the room
[18:34] * Serena turns the ferret into a stoat.
[18:34] RC> OK, how much Dough, Coins, moolah, bank you got?
[18:34] Mimi> Oi, we can't talk to something that's squeeing!
[18:34] bosslady> "So? Who ELSE am I gonna call?"
[18:34] Mimi> You didn't call, you ran in the door.
[18:34] * Sappho takes delight that she is holding a real ferret.
[18:34] bosslady> Serena, roll your PI skill
[18:34] Serena> 17
[18:35] bosslady> "Semantics," the ferret says in its squeaky voice fro Sapph's arms.
[18:35] Mary_Sue> well, we should try and help, shouldn't we?
[18:35] Mary_Sue> I mean, its the right thing to do!
[18:35] bosslady> Serena, you lack the mystic knowledge for that kind of transformation. You do turn her fur a beautiful shade of magenta, though.
[18:35] * Sappho squees some more
[18:36] Mimi> (Do I get bonus knowledge of paranormal for being paranormal?)
[18:36] bosslady> Meanwhile, while you've been preoccupied with the talking now-magenta ferret, the young man has disappeared.
[18:36] Mimi> Someone REALLY needs to shut that door.
[18:36] * Mimi does so
[18:36] bosslady> No. But you can fly through walls and disappear.
[18:36] Mimi> (Eh, that'll work.)
[18:37] Mary_Sue> giggles
[18:37] Mimi> So, Ms. Magenta Ferret. Any other details?
[18:37] bosslady> "So, are you gonna help me or not?!" The ferret demands impatiently, though the force of her words is tempered by an almost-purr at being petted.
[18:38] Mary_Sue> I think we should
[18:38] * Sappho shouts. Of course we will, cute adorable ferret lady
[18:38] bosslady> "Yes. She was THAT no good sack-of-lard's ex. Well, his ex before ME," she says, turning her pointed nose into the air.
[18:38] * Sappho squees some more
[18:38] Mary_Sue> besides, I'm sure its just a misunderstanding
[18:38] * RC is ok with that but how much cash you gotz pretty foots?
[18:38] Mimi> Who thought it was a good idea to date a witch?
[18:39] bosslady> "Can you PLEASE not do that right in my ear?" She demands, then lightly scratches Sapph's arm.
[18:40] bosslady> "I can pay you once I get back to normal and can get back in my apartment; whatever it takes. Just GET. THIS. FIXED!"
[18:40] Sappho> Isn't she so adorable when she talks
[18:40] * Sappho squees even more than you thought she could before
[18:40] * Mimi wonders if she'll remain purple if we fix her
[18:41] Mimi> I'm up for helping.
[18:41] RC> So where is this WITCH!
[18:41] bosslady> Sapph, roll for Looking Good
[18:41] Sappho> How does one roll again?
[18:41] bosslady> "She's hanging out at the Cauldron Club. Duh!"
[18:42] Mimi> d6 * points in skill
[18:42] bosslady> Roll d6 equal to your skill. Add together.
[18:42] Sappho> 4
[18:42] bosslady> Ferret lady bites your hand, and you drop her
[18:43] Mimi> So... how do we break a witch's curse?
[18:43] bosslady> You now have a debuff to looking good of 1 point due to Angry Ferret bite marks
[18:43] * Sappho looks distraught... but... but... ughhh, and she starts crying.
[18:43] RC> I know where that is, it's over off Westside hwy
[18:43] bosslady> "How the heck should I know?!" Ferret-lady asks from her floorbound viewpoint.
[18:44] Mimi> Well, I'd rather we not resort to burning things at stakes again...
[18:44] Mimi> Not that it worked before.
[18:44] bosslady> Ferret-lady looks at Sapph, and cringes. "Sorry 'bout the bite, girl, but seriously."
[18:45] * Sappho is just kneeling on the floor, crying, looking at the ferret lady as if she did something horrible.
[18:45] bosslady> Ferret-lady sits on the floor and looks around expectantly.
[18:45] * RC hammerspaces a Cream Puff, Hungry Missy Ferret?
[18:45] Mimi> Can I attempt to cheer up Sappho?
[18:45] bosslady> Ferret-lady grins and reaches for the cream puff.
[18:45] bosslady> Yes, you can Mimi.
[18:45] * Mary_Sue huggles Sappho
[18:46] Mimi> You could wear those matching pink gloves! (3+3 = 6)
[18:46] Sappho> She bit me Mary... She bit me... She's a meanie The ferret is a meanie
[18:46] bosslady> They do, indeed, match the uniform. It would remove your debuff.
[18:47] bosslady> Ferret-lady ignores you, munching on a Cream Puff as big as her torso.
[18:47] * Sappho sniffles... okay. I'l wear gloves
[18:47] Mary_Sue> well, lets get going
[18:47] Mary_Sue> does anybody know where this Cauldron club is?
[18:48] Mimi> No idea.
[18:48] RC> ?me gets into the drivers seat & starts the El Co, the LT1 rumbles into very LOUD life
[18:48] bosslady> RC knows.
[18:48] * Sappho goes to her locker. Grabs her gloves, and her utility belt which has a few pouches full of things, and hooks her ghost catching net to the belt, and puts on her fluffy cat ears which is also a walkie talkie
[18:48] * Mimi floats into a spot in the car
[18:48] RC> I said I did, it's over there (she waves) Off westside Hwy.
[18:48] bosslady> Ferret-lady follows RC out and sits on the dash.
[18:49] bosslady> There's room for 2 more on the bench seat. Who's riding in the back?
[18:49] * Sappho climbs into the back of the El Camino. She doesn't feel like being with the meanie ferret
[18:49] * RC hits the Garage Opener
[18:49] bosslady> Mimi, you don't get a seat, but nobody notices you not climbing in anyway.
[18:50] bosslady> Oh-kay! VROOOOMMMMM!!!
[18:50] bosslady> *intermission*
[18:50] bosslady> B-room break, peeps. Back in a bit!
[18:50] * RC hits the gas and w/a bit of tire smoke we're OFF!
[18:51] Mimi> The real question is how well my ghosty floating works.
[18:51] * Sappho does a quick inventory of the back of the El camino
[18:51] Mimi> You're inventorying WHILE DRIVING? Madness!
[18:51] RC> I'm driving
[18:52] Mimi> Yeah, but the car ain't safe =P
[18:52] RC> Sure it is, I just don't like seat belts
[18:52] * Mimi holds doubts as to that being the true reason
[18:53] RC> More POWER, More SAFE! Everyone in Houma knows that!
[18:53] * Sappho finds the half eaten candy necklace, an old air freshener that has lost it's scent(looks like a pine tree), a rusted bolt, the roll of duct tape that's almost gone.
[18:53] Mary_Sue> giggles
[18:53] Mimi> But hey, I'm not *in* the car, so it's not my problem.
[18:53] * Sappho constructs a necklace out of it all
[18:53] Mary_Sue> wheee!
[18:54] Sappho> no more duct tape... We'll need to get more soon
[18:54] * Sappho then uses her lighter to melt wax from one of the candles into the shape of a pentagram on the tree air freshener part of the necklace
[18:54] Mary_Sue> I'm sure we'll be able to talk this witch into turning this poor girl back
[18:54] * Sappho now has a magic necklace of protection against magic
[18:55] Mary_Sue> it was probably just a misunderstanding
[18:55] * RC drifts the El Co up on the ramp @ a very Fast Speed!
[18:56] * Mimi is very glad to not be in the car
[18:56] * RC is a very good driver. I missed that guardrail by at least a 1/2 inch!
[18:57] * Mimi is not reassured
[18:57] Mary_Sue> laughs in the back seat
[18:57] bosslady> Baack!
[18:57] Mary_Sue> now, this is fun!
[18:57] RC> (only a bench in a El Co Mary)
[18:57] bosslady> Sapph, the necklace, when worn, gives the wearer a +1 to their PI skill.
[18:58] bosslady> Yeah, mary, you're up front, Serena in the middle.
[18:58] Mimi> Really though, I'm not in the car, so am I with it or left behind?
[18:58] bosslady> "Cruisin' down the highway (duh duh dadehdaDEH) lookin' for ADVENTURE! (duh duh dadeahdaDEH!)"
[18:59] bosslady> You can fly well enough to keep up.
[18:59] Mary_Sue> giggles
[18:59] Mimi> Okay, so this walkie talkie from the house should be functional. Cool.
[18:59] bosslady> Or hang out in the back with Sapph if you REALLY want. Or one, then the other.
[18:59] Mimi> Nah, I'm just flying on the car feeling like a badass
[18:59] bosslady> Indeed. Who all has walkie talkies?
[18:59] Sappho> Mimi You have a ghost walkie talkie
[18:59] Mimi> There's the cat ears and this one I picked up secretly. Unsure about others
[19:00] Sappho> I have the cat ears
[19:00] bosslady> RC doubtless has a flight headset built into her baseball cap.
[19:00] bosslady> Mary? What you got? Walkie talkie barrettes?
[19:00] RC> I have a walki & I can get Hoboken flight tower too
[19:00] bosslady> Serena probably swallowed one weeks ago.
[19:01] Mimi> Nobody would suspect a communication device in the hair
[19:01] RC> (Mary http://tinyurl.com/pl6brws El Co pics)
[19:01] bosslady> Ferret Lady screams as your group careens down the highway and she slides back and forth o the dash, the occasional grip on the defrost vents her only safety assurance
[19:01] bosslady> BRB
[19:02] Mimi> I was wondering what that ferret was doing
[19:02] * Sappho thinks, I could have held her all safe, but she's a meanie, serves her right
[19:02] * Mimi wonders if she'll last long enough to use as proof to RC about their driving
[19:03] Sappho> Is Mary in the back with me or in the passenger seat?
[19:03] Mimi> According to RC there is no back
[19:04] * RC pops her gum. What? I'm safe I tell you
[19:04] Sappho> Also I'm so used to RC's driving that I instinctively adapt to know how to brace and position myself so I have no problem. Me and RC, we've been together for quite a while now.
[19:04] RC> There is a bed w/a camper shell on it Mimi
[19:04] Mimi> So that's why the rest of you have walkie talkies
[19:04] Sappho> By back, I mean the bed with the camper shell
[19:05] Mary_Sue> giggles
[19:05] bosslady> Mary's in the front passenger seat
[19:05] bosslady> Sorry, folks showed up with groceries, had to help 'em carry 'em in
[19:05] RC> Dinner?
[19:05] Mimi> The curse of omnipotence
[19:06] Mary_Sue> lol
[19:07] bosslady> Anywho. With RC's incredible driving prowess (learned, no doubt, while making moonshine runs listening to Steve Earle) you get to the Cauldron Cafe in record time, and with almost no loss of body fluids.
[19:07] RC> We're coming up to the Cauldren Club exit, we need anything before stopping there?
[19:07] RC> (oops!)
[19:07] bosslady> Now's the last chance before ya get there, peeps. Anything you wanna call having?
[19:07] Mimi> We need a lot of things, like help, but when does that ever stop us
[19:07] bosslady> Nah. We'll go your route RC :P
[19:08] bosslady> You DO have a therapist on-staff now, Mims
[19:08] Sappho> I could use a can of soda pop
[19:08] RC> You use up all my magic Gorrila duct Tape Sappho?
[19:08] Sappho> Doesn't matter which kind.
[19:08] Sappho> I did RC. We need more
[19:09] RC> ?me sqeals to a stop before a lil bodega
[19:09] bosslady> Roll for bottle cap collecting Sapph
[19:09] * Mimi continues on toward the Club/Cafe
[19:09] Mimi> I'm going on, the signs say it's just over there. See ya in a few
[19:09] RC> OK last chance & I want a whoopi pie too.
[19:09] Sappho> I got 3
[19:09] bosslady> The club/cafe/whatever-I-called-it is only a couple of blocks down.
[19:09] bosslady> Club. Club sounds better
[19:10] RC> (We going in?)
[19:10] bosslady> Okies. Nothin' special then Sapph.
[19:10] Mimi> Can I scout the location before we interrupt the witches?
[19:10] Mary_Sue> giggles
[19:10] bosslady> You're at the rest stop first, remember?
[19:10] bosslady> Sure, Mimi.
[19:10] Sappho> Do I get a glass bottle pop then? With a generic bottlecap?
[19:10] bosslady> Roll for disappearing into the background
[19:11] * Mary_Sue powders her nose in the rest-stop bathroom
[19:11] bosslady> Yep, Sapph.
[19:11] Mimi> 5+3=9 for Investigation, 4+1+2=7 for Hidden
[19:11] Mary_Sue> I have never met a witch before, I want to look my best!
[19:11] Sappho> Still works. I don't open the pop and instead attach it to my utility belt.
[19:12] Mimi> It's a club of witches, I'd want to investigate the paranormal there!
[19:12] bosslady> The Cauldron Club is darkly lit, with plenty of blacklights around to make the pasty skin of its inhabitants shine more brightly. Skrillex blares from the DJ booth. All in all, it's your typical gothy pseudo-supernatural hidey hole.
[19:12] Mimi> What else would I look at, their drinks?
[19:12] RC> I get my whoppi pie & a cola in the bottle. Looking at it I see it's NY normal only 7 yrs old.
[19:13] Mary_Sue> Smiles and waves at everyone
[19:13] bosslady> You don't notice any magical residue or anything about the place, and no more than the usual mix of other ghosts about.
[19:13] Mimi> Well, this place is mundane.
[19:13] Mimi> Is our ferret sure of this place?
[19:14] Mimi> Or, conscious at all for that matter?
[19:14] Mary_Sue> which Witch is which?
[19:14] Mary_Sue> giggles
[19:14] bosslady> She's back in the car, where everyone left her, still recovering from her ride
[19:14] bosslady> The rest of y'all ready to head to the club
[19:14] bosslady> ?
[19:14] Mary_Sue> now that I am as pretty as possible, yes!
[19:14] Mary_Sue> grins
[19:15] Sappho> I'm ready.
[19:15] * RC looks around and sees more Gorrila duct tapr! Score! & pays for all her loot!
[19:16] RC> Getting into the ElCo I look at the ferrit. What? I didn't scare you did I?
[19:16] bosslady> It costs you eighteen dollars for everyone's stuff.
[19:16] Mimi> I'm chilling in the entrance waiting.
[19:16] bosslady> The ferret-lady says nothing, but glares at you in efervescent mauve rage.
[19:16] * RC Pops the Gum.
[19:17] RC> I drive over & park as close as I can.
[19:17] bosslady> Once everyone is back in the car, you make short work of the trip the rest of the way to the club. "That's the place!" The lil' ferret-lady says, wobbling as she stands on the dash and points.
[19:17] Mimi> Okay, she is sure. Good. I was worried.
[19:18] Sappho> I have the magical necklace of protection against magic around my neck but underneath my jumpsuit
[19:19] bosslady> You all pull up at the club, and there stands Mimi, waiting on you.
[19:19] * Mary_Sue gets out of the car
[19:19] bosslady> That's the idea! *applauds Mary Sue*
[19:20] Mimi> That must be a really comfy car.
[19:20] * Sappho gets out and scans the area
[19:20] bosslady> Roll PI Sapph
[19:20] Sappho> 14
[19:21] Sappho> 15... I have the necklace
[19:21] bosslady> That include the bonus from the necklace?
[19:21] bosslady> There ya go.
[19:21] Mary_Sue> giggles
[19:22] bosslady> There is a vague sense of magic about the place, though not as much as you'd expect from a club for witches and the like. It seems that a good portion of those who come here are just mundanes, but there are a few who smell of magic.
[19:22] Mary_Sue> lets go in
[19:22] Mimi> Way ahead of ya
[19:22] * RC gets her Chef on and checks her knives in hammerspace
[19:22] * Mimi opens the door
[19:23] * Mimi laughs at all the poor, confused customers
[19:23] * Sappho pats her utility belt down to make sure it's all there.
[19:23] bosslady> The magenta ferret-lady dashes past you all, dives across the counter, and tackles the bartender.
[19:24] Mary_Sue> waves at all the customers
[19:24] * Mimi goes up to and looks at the tackled bartender
[19:25] bosslady> The bartender is a guy, and he's laughing.
[19:25] Mimi> Ferrets aren't that great at tackling, huh.
[19:26] * Sappho takes a seat at the bar.
[19:26] RC> (brb)
[19:27] bosslady> "Easy, sis!" He says, pushing her away and standing up. "I guess she finally found someone to help her, huh?" He points at a brunette at the far end of the counter, sipping on something green. "She's the one," he says, casually grabbing his sister-ferret and holding her while she screams in tinny anger.
[19:27] Mimi> What, did RC fall asleep at the wheel AFTER parking?
[19:27] Mimi> Swear, that guy's so unreliable... *grumbles*
[19:27] Mary_Sue> giggles
[19:28] * Sappho turns to look at the witch in question. Turns back to the bartender, eyeing him. Then takes the bar seat with her and moves over to the witch
[19:28] bosslady> *psst, mims: RC's a girl.)
[19:28] * Sappho thinks... my barseat now
[19:28] * Mimi is too angry to determine pronouns
[19:28] Mary_Sue> giggles
[19:29] * Sappho puts the barstool or seat or whatever chair device it is, near the witch and asks her if she changed a person into that ferret
[19:29] bosslady> The witch in question is one of the few people in the bar with any kind of magic you can detect, far more than the rest of the place combined. A few members of the congregation wear the scent of magic like a perfume: she reeks of it like a cat lady with an incontinent housemate.
[19:29] * Mimi gets close to the others and ovserves
[19:29] * Sappho points at the magent ferret in question.
[19:30] bosslady> "What, her?" The dark-haired witch asks, and when she sees where you're pointing, she snorts. "Yeah. So?"
[19:30] Mimi> So... why'd you do it?
[19:30] Sappho> Also I'm not sitting in the barchair I have acquired. I just didn't want to carry it the whole time
[19:30] Mary_Sue> giggles
[19:30] bosslady> "She stole my guy," she says.
[19:30] Sappho> Could you please tell me why?
[19:30] Mary_Sue> so whuy didn't you turn HIM into a ferret?
[19:31] Sappho> Not that. Why a ferret. Why not something else like a platypus
[19:31] bosslady> The witch shrugs. "Well, she already looked a bit like one, so it made sense. And why would I turn HIM into a ferret when it was so had to make him a human to begin with?"
[19:32] * Sappho giggles, and what was he before you changed him to a man
[19:32] bosslady> The ferret-girl finally breaks from her brother's grasp and rushes up. "Hey! You stole him from ME first! My sweet little bubsy didn't ask for that!"
[19:33] bosslady> The witch looks at you and grins. "A chihuahua."
[19:33] Mimi> She was dating a cuihuahua?
[19:33] * Mimi looks at the ferret, worried
[19:33] bosslady> "All guys are dogs anyway," the witch says with a yawn. "So what's the difference?"
[19:33] Sappho> The ferret lady owned the chihuahua before she was a ferret and he was a chihuahua
[19:34] Mimi> That'd explain why he ran off...
[19:34] Sappho> What will it take to have you change them back?
[19:34] bosslady> "I was just taking my bubsy back from you! He was such a sweet puppy, and you turned him into... that?!"
[19:34] bosslady> "Huh? Oh! Tired of being a ferret, Babs?"
[19:35] bosslady> The witch directs that line to the ferret, who glares at her.
[19:35] * Mary_Sue is totally confused
[19:35] * Mimi bores of the drabble, and quesions if the back room of a club would have any interesting ingredients
[19:35] bosslady> "Well, I DO have this lil' problem. Fix it for me... and I'll change her back," the witch says.
[19:36] RC> Back
[19:36] bosslady> The bartender tells you there's some dehydrated Eye of Newt in one of the coolers, and half a toadstool under the sink.
[19:36] Sappho> What is this lil' problem that needs fixing?
[19:37] bosslady> The witch glares at ferret-lady-slash-Babs again. "Well, I transformed her little yapper 'cause I needed a plus one for an event tonight. Know anyone who'd fill in?"
[19:37] Sappho> What type of event?
[19:38] bosslady> "Oh, nothing big. Just a little get together 'round a bonfire. Me, a few sisters. Only a LITTLE blood."
[19:38] Mimi> Does it need to be a man? I mean, if a dog is enough we could hand over RC *is still mad*
[19:39] * Sappho perks up. I take it a mans blood is needed, or will anyone's do?
[19:39] bosslady> "Man not required. Living, yes," she says, giving Mimi a significant look. "Though that might not be permanent."
[19:40] Mimi> Dang, we need our driver at least alive.
[19:40] RC> What? Waht? What are you bitching about now MIMI?
[19:40] Sappho> And what are you going to do that might make living less so?
[19:41] Mimi> You knocked out the ferret with your driving then fell asleep once you parked!
[19:41] bosslady> "Just a lil' sacrifice to the dark gods of black magic, death, and suffering. You know, the usual," she says, tossing her hair and winking.
[19:41] RC> Did Not! Just resting my eyes a bit, that's all...
[19:41] Mary_Sue> oh dear that does not sound nice at all!
[19:41] Mimi> Is revival after the fact possible?
[19:42] bosslady> She shrugs. "Does zombification or possession count?"
[19:43] bosslady> Ferret-lady-Babs squeaks "My poor little bubsy!"
[19:43] Mimi> It's probably just as effective with RC but I have a feeling she wouldn't like it.
[19:44] * RC glares at MIMI, Bitch!
[19:44] Mary_Sue> we cant agree to this girls. there has to be something less lethal we can do
[19:44] Mimi> My only other thought is burning at the stake, but that could leave them stuck forever
[19:44] Mimi> Besides, the bartender probably doesn't like the smell of burnt witch...
[19:45] * Sappho gets all shy... So um, how does one join in with these festivities Oneesan... Is your.... *coughs* coven open to new membership?
[19:45] bosslady> "Not really," he agrees, having been listening in the entire time.
[19:45] RC> Well we can sprinkle some grisgris & feli then ask Mama Legba to help.
[19:45] Mimi> At least one of us isn't boring!
[19:45] * Mimi praises Sappho
[19:45] bosslady> The witch looks Sappho over and shakes her head. "Sorry, but none of you have the talent for my little group."
[19:46] * Mimi questions if they're counted toward that
[19:46] Sappho> But Oneesan... how will I get such talent if no-one takes me under their wing to guide me.
[19:46] * Sappho gives the witch the best puppy dog eyes she can
[19:47] bosslady> Mimi, you have no innate magical talent outside your skills as a ghost. True magic is beyond spirits: they have their own abilities.
[19:47] Sappho> should I roll for looking good?
[19:47] bosslady> Yes.
[19:47] Mimi> Dang.
[19:47] Sappho> I got 11
[19:47] bosslady> Oh, come on, Mimi! You can fly, walk through doors, disappear... you can't exactly complain, can you?
[19:48] bosslady> The witch gives you a once over, Sapph, and winks. "Well, I can't let you into the group or anything. But there might be... other arrangements? I
[19:48] Mimi> Not really, but that doesn't stop me from wanting to
[19:48] bosslady> The witch gives you a once over, Sapph, and winks. "Well, I can't let you into the group or anything. But there might be... other arrangements?"
[19:49] bosslady> Back in a moment; sorry for the delays peeps.
[19:49] Mary_Sue> I'm sorry guys I may have to bow out
[19:49] Mary_Sue> all of a sudden I am very tired
[19:49] Mimi> The bed's open
[19:49] Mimi> I bet you can sleep through RC's driving
[19:49] Mary_Sue> sorry
[19:50] == Mary_Sue has changed nick to Dottie_AFK
[19:50] Sappho> Get rested Dottie_AFK
[19:50] Mimi> ^
[19:50] RC> Bye Dot, get some sleep
[19:53] bosslady> Mary Sue has a headache from the fumes in the club, so she's going beddie-bye in the car.
[19:54] RC> There is a comfy air bed back there
[19:54] Sappho> And what other arrangements would those be Oneesan?
[19:54] Mimi> Air bed? Explains how you can survive back ther.
[19:54] bosslady> The witch looks at Sapph calculatingly. "Tell ya what. Give me a date, and bring me a toad, and I'll change miss ferret back. And her little dog too!" Then she laughs.
[19:55] Sappho> I can do that
[19:56] Sappho> Yes Oneesan. I'll go on a date with you. Any particular frog?
[19:56] * RC thinks hard. Toad, toad, I know I saw one somewhere... I know over at Ace's pets and lawn Service!
[19:56] bosslady> I'll point out the witch is quite decent looking, even if she does kind of wear her harsh personality on her sleeve like a badge of pride.
[19:56] bosslady> Indeed! They're seven for a dollar for magic-grade toads.
[19:57] RC> This time of day, umm Westside is out, I think Far Rockaway will be best!
[19:57] bosslady> "Great!" The witch says happily. "I'll wait here for the toad. Bring it to me, and give me your number, and then I'll change her back. I'll change back the pup after the date."
[19:58] Sappho> Well oneesan, we'll get you your toads. Here's my number. I write it down
[19:58] RC> (42?)
[19:58] Sappho> It's too my cell phone with the rhinestone covered skull hello kitty cover on it
[19:58] RC> OK, LAdies lets us go!
[19:58] bosslady> Sapph, as you hand her your number she quickly pricks your hand with a needle. "Just a precaution," she says, and grins.
[19:58] Mimi> Okay, if it was for that rotarty phone I'd have to hurt you
[19:59] Sappho> Where are we going on a date?
[19:59] bosslady> "We'll decide that tomorrow. Just get me my toad for bonfire night."
[19:59] * Sappho thinks to herself. Thank goodness I'm wearing gloves so she only thinks she pricked my finger
[20:00] * Sappho layers it on thick. Alright Oneesan. We'll be back shortly.
[20:00] * Sappho winks at the witch.
[20:00] * RC walk out and starts the El Co, I do it carefuly as not to wake Mary
[20:01] * Sappho goes to the car as well
[20:01] bosslady> You can hear her snoring in the back. When she's like this, you couldn't wake her with a tank round going off over her head.
[20:01] RC> OK, every one can fit up fron & someone lap the Ferret
[20:02] Mimi> The ferret's with her brother, no?
[20:02] bosslady> The ferret's staying with her brother to keep an eye on the witch.
[20:02] bosslady> Serena? You there?
[20:02] RC> OK,
[20:02] * Mimi stays at the club to make sure the ferret and witch behave
[20:02] Mimi> Is the store close enough for comms to stay up?
[20:02] RC> (Don't split the PARTYY!!!!!!!)
[20:03] bosslady> Sure, why not.
[20:03] Mimi> COMMS GIRL
[20:03] Mimi> I can't go to a store, they'll think I'm thieving (if they see me)!
[20:03] bosslady> Disclosure: we're almost done for the night, Cola. Nothin' 'll happen while you're gone.
[20:03] * RC looks in the rearview making sure her lippy is set & the guns it!
[20:04] * Sappho is riding shotgun
[20:04] bosslady> VROOOOOMMMMM!
[20:04] bosslady> Serena is sleeping with mary, apparently. Not THAT way! You know what I mean.
[20:04] Sappho> So RC. The witch. She's going down. I don't like the ferret, but I like the witch even less.
[20:04] RC> Hubba Hubba
[20:04] bosslady> It takes you five minutes to reach the pet store.
[20:04] RC> We go in?
[20:05] Mimi> What, do you plan on learning the magic, getting her to transform them back, *then* burn her at the stake?
[20:05] bosslady> Do you?
[20:06] * RC Goes in. Hi there Gus, we need 5 witch grade toads please!
[20:06] Sappho> We go in.
[20:06] Sappho> Hold on. We need 5 witch grade frogs, not toads
[20:06] Mimi> Nah, toad
[20:06] RC> Nope we need toads Sap
[20:06] Mimi> Heck, it's just a toad
[20:07] Sappho> I know the witch needs toads, but we need frogs
[20:07] Mimi> But additional can't hurt for practicing on if Sappho can learn anything
[20:07] RC> Get both?
[20:07] bosslady> Frogs are cheaper: 10 for a buck.
[20:07] Sappho> Are they trained?
[20:07] RC> I pull out 2$
[20:08] bosslady> No training on either. Then again, what would you train an amphibian to do anyway?
[20:08] RC> This work Gus?
[20:08] Sappho> I need some specially trained frogs
[20:08] Mimi> What do you need frogs for?
[20:08] Sappho> For some wetwork...
[20:09] Dottie_AFK> hi
[20:09] Sappho> Also they're smaller.
[20:09] == Dottie_AFK has changed nick to Mary_Sue
[20:09] Mary_Sue> sorry
[20:09] Sappho> I smile at Gus. I need some special Frogs... not any Frog will do.
[20:09] bosslady> No prob! You're asleep.
[20:10] bosslady> "Well..." Gus spits in the worm barrel next to him. "I's gots dese frogs here, great fer fryin'..."
[20:10] bosslady> "Or I's gots dese here," he points to his other side, "great fer lickin'. Take yer pick."
[20:11] Sappho> No. I need super-frogs...
[20:11] bosslady> "My nephew left this here," he says, and hands you a copy of Superfrog for Amiga.
[20:12] Sappho> I reach over the counter and pull him down to my height. Now listen here gus. I know you sold that special platypi to my friend Dorris last month. You know, the one that served with that secret 3 letter organization in Austrlia
[20:12] Sappho> I need some frogs that share a similar skill-set.
[20:12] Sappho> Got that.
[20:13] Sappho> Do I need to make a looking good roll for intimidating?
[20:13] bosslady> Nah. Roll for bottle-cap collecting.
[20:13] bosslady> A surprisingly useful skill.
[20:13] Sappho> 7
[20:13] * RC looks at Sappho in amazement! (Wow! So Butch!
[20:14] bosslady> Gus is a fellow collector you've traded with before. You recall a rare 1922 Grapette he's been coveting.
[20:15] Sappho> Is that a cap I have?
[20:15] bosslady> You happen to keep a spare one in your purse at all times, as leverage. Or as a bribe.
[20:16] * Sappho pulls gus even closer. What's it going to take boyo,.... What. I switch eyes by turning my face a bit so I stare at him with my other eye. I know you're looking for that 1922 Grapette cap. I've got one.
[20:17] bosslady> What crazy happy convenience! Almost like the GM likes the party or something!
[20:17] bosslady> He starts to sweat. "Really? Well... I may have something in the back...."
[20:17] Mimi> I'd hope so, I don't want to test my talking in a meta environment
[20:17] * RC puts the sap back into hammerspace
[20:17] * Mimi notes that the witch is drinking and the ferret is talking to her brother. This is rather boring
[20:18] RC> All good Cajun ladies know how to use one, you know.
[20:18] bosslady> Indeed.
[20:18] bosslady> Sapph, he can't go in back 'til you let him go.
[20:19] Sappho> I let go. Go check Gus. If you have what I need, I got what you want.
[20:19] bosslady> He runs in the back, and comes back with a tree frog. It's wearing a monacle and a bowler hat.
[20:20] Sappho> What skill set does this frog have? I look pointedly at Gus, then at the frog
[20:21] Sappho> It seems I've taken over the game with my idea. Don't worry girls. It's going to be worth it.
[20:21] bosslady> "Espeenage, covert infil-somethin', and explosives," Gus says. The frog croaks in confirmation.
[20:21] Mary_Sue> okay , who put a sleeping spell on me?
[20:21] Mary_Sue> giggles
[20:21] bosslady> Possibly the same person who spelled Serena.
[20:22] Sappho> Excellent. I'll take him. I take out the cap and put it on the counter between Gus and I
[20:22] RC> That, That Witch!
[20:22] bosslady> The cap disappears, and the frog hops to your shoulder, well away from RC's iguana.
[20:22] RC> I pull out anotherdollar for this frog...
[20:23] Sappho> I thank Gus for his service. Much appreciated. I turn to RC. This is the plan
[20:23] bosslady> Gus is nowhere to be seen. Your toads and frogs are laying on the table waiting to be retrieved.
[20:23] RC> Ace's the Best for pets alright
[20:24] Mary_Sue> pets?
[20:24] Sappho> Big Hoppa(that's the frog) will disguise himself as a toad for the ritual. He will wait until the right moment when the witches think they are about to sacrifice him and he will then strike with surprise, while we strike from all around.
[20:24] RC> I'm sorry Dear, this is the best pet store in Hoboken you know.
[20:25] bosslady> Sapph, Hoppa begins to croak into your ear, quietly...
[20:25] * Sappho listens to Big Hoppa, what wise words does he have for me to hear?
[20:26] bosslady> *whispers*
[20:27] * RC gives Mony a grape & picks up the loot
[20:27] RC> Moony
[20:27] bosslady> Soon, Big Hoppa stops croaking, and in a blink looks like a toad. The monacle is almost completely invisible.
[20:28] Sappho> New plan. Big hoppa disguises himself as a toad. We hand him over to the witch. Then she changes the ferret back and then we strike.
[20:28] bosslady> ('tis a silly game, no?)
[20:28] * RC cracks her knuckles, OK.
[20:28] Mary_Sue> sounds good!
[20:28] Sappho> Si senorita bosslady
[20:28] Mimi> Yeah, I'm pretty sure the witch wants to make the toad human before sacrifice, anyway
[20:29] Mimi> She'd notice pretty fast if you tried the first plan
[20:29] bosslady> "Ribbit," says Hoppa in agreement.
[20:29] * Sappho goes to the car with Big Hoppa
[20:30] * Mimi goes to the witch
[20:30] bosslady> You follow RC?
[20:30] * RC goes out to the ElCo to check on Serena & drops the bags off in the back
[20:30] bosslady> Everyone ready to head back to the club?
[20:30] Mimi> "The party's returning with a toad. You change the ferret back, you get the toad. Kapeesh?"
[20:30] RC> We ready ladies?
[20:30] Mimi> (At the witch)
[20:31] Sappho> I am ready
[20:31] RC> The big LT1 rumbles into life...
[20:31] Sappho> Oneesan, we have brought a toad. Please change the ferret back to what she was before.
[20:31] RC> & off we go
[20:32] Mimi> My walkie talkie is loud enough the witch can hear this...?
[20:32] Sappho> No. It's a ghost walkie talkie. Only ghosts can hear it\
[20:32] bosslady> In no time at all you return to the club. The witch is still sat there, drinking her green concoction while Mimi floats over her shoulder, watching her like a hawk. Meanwhile ferret-lady is neck-deep in a mimosa.
[20:32] Mimi> Dang girl's been unresponsive since you left.
[20:33] Mimi> Watching is boring
[20:33] bosslady> That it is.
[20:33] RC> We go in carrying the bags of amphibs
[20:33] bosslady> "Got my toad, huh?" The witch asks in a superior tone.
[20:33] Sappho> Oneesan, we have brought a toad. Please change the ferret back to what she was before.
[20:34] RC> Hey Tender I'll have another of what your sis is having!
[20:34] bosslady> THe bartender slides you a round cup filled with blue wonderfulness.
[20:34] bosslady> "Toad first," the witch says, holding out her hand.
[20:34] Sappho> I hand over Big Hoppa
[20:35] bosslady> As soon as he's in her hand she snaps her fingers, and the magenta ferret begins to grow.
[20:35] RC> (ras a mimosa is OJ & Champagne)
[20:36] bosslady> Soon a young lady is sitting on the counter. Well, you THINK she's a young lady. She still looks kinda-ferrety though, and her hair's magenta too.
[20:36] bosslady> (RC: really don't care. It's blue anyway.)
[20:36] Sappho> Thank you Oneesan, I smile.
[20:36] RC> (lol, ok)
[20:36] * Mimi is visually happy the magents stayed
[20:36] Mary_Sue> smiles
[20:37] bosslady> And she IS fully dressed. Just wanted to point that out.
[20:37] * Sappho then takes an item from a pouch on her utility belt. What is it... what could it be. It's an air horn
[20:37] RC> OK, Lady lets go to your apt, we take cash, visa & amex
[20:37] bosslady> The magenta haired girl looks down, grins, then collapses backwards into her brother's arms. People fall asleep suddenly 'round here a lot, though the alcohol no doubt helped.
[20:37] * Sappho uses the Air horn, really close to the witch.
[20:38] * Sappho acts all excited... . That was great Oneesan. Your magic is truly awesome
[20:38] bosslady> BOOM! Where Hoppa had been there's a flash of smoke!
[20:39] bosslady> BOOM! Another flash across the room! Smoke is everywhere!
[20:39] * Sappho uses the air horn a second time, right up near the witches ear
[20:39] * Mimi retreats to a minimum safe distance
[20:39] bosslady> Sapph, you hear a "ribbit" of confirmation in your ear. It's time to rock! The witch screams as she collapses!
[20:39] * Sappho yells Yayyyyyy for magic.... She then punches the witch.
[20:39] RC> ?me saps the Witch too!
[20:39] bosslady> Aaaaaaand SHE'S OUT!
[20:40] Mary_Sue> yay!
[20:40] Mimi> For being a witch, she wasn't very good at noticing.
[20:40] Sappho> Is the bartender asleep as well?
[20:40] Mary_Sue> giggles
[20:40] Mimi> He probably will be with someone in his arms.
[20:40] bosslady> Nope! He's awake, though coughing 'cause of the now-dissipating smoke
[20:41] * Sappho gets Hoppa. You're the best Big Hoppa. I do a high five in a way that he can high five back.
[20:41] RC> I sling the sister over my petite shoulder, Where's her apt Bro? asking for keys too.
[20:41] Sappho> I then go over to the ferret lady, and jostle her awake.
[20:41] bosslady> He croaks happily and hops on your shoulder.
[20:41] Sappho> I even splash water on her face to wake her up
[20:42] bosslady> "Hey! Leave my sister alone! How 'bout I pay you instead?" Her brother offers.
[20:42] Sappho> Does the ferret lady wake up?
[20:42] * RC looks at her friends, OK?
[20:42] bosslady> "Just let 'er sleep. How's..." he shuffles through his register. "500 bucks sound?"
[20:42] * Sappho looks at RC. Get the payment
[20:42] RC> $750, we got expenses
[20:43] * Sappho still attempts to wake the sister up
[20:43] Mary_Sue> yay
[20:43] * Mimi is surprised we got a client who can actually pay something
[20:43] bosslady> He glares at you, RC. "600, and free drinks for the night."
[20:43] bosslady> Sapph, she bites you again.
[20:43] Sappho> I say, 650, the barstool, and free drinks.
[20:43] Mary_Sue> yay!
[20:43] RC> Tomorrow on the drinks, we need to go before witchy poo wakes up
[20:44] Sappho> I punch the sister, go and get the barstool and walk out to the car.
[20:44] RC> I agree Sap
[20:44] bosslady> "550, barstool, free drinks, and you stop tormenting her," he says and steps between the party and his sister.
[20:44] Sappho> When I punch her, I say, that's for bitting me not once, but twice
[20:45] Mimi> There was a second bite?
[20:45] bosslady> Hey!" THe brother glares at Sapph this time. "No free drinks for you!"
[20:45] * RC gets the cash the throws a kiss at the tender, Cya Suggahhh & shashies out
[20:45] bosslady> Mimi, any last actions?
[20:45] bosslady> Mary Sue?
[20:45] * Sappho harumphs... like I'm ever coming to this Dive again... Just wait till I leave a review on yelp
[20:46] Mimi> I have nothing else to do, so I just float back to the house on my own to confront a certain phone
[20:46] Mimi> The witch is out, the hair is purple, all is well.
[20:46] bosslady> Indeed.
[20:46] Sappho> Yay, got a new chair for my desk.
[20:46] bosslady> Dun duh DAAAAAAH! Congrats on another job well done peeps!
[20:47] Mary_Sue> yay!
[20:47] RC> We drive back, I do leave a lot of tire smoke in the clubs entrance too.
[20:47] * Mary_Sue does a happy dance
[20:47] bosslady> THe world is safe for one more day from a completely non-ghost-related-but-still-paranormal-ish evil!
[20:47] bosslady> Aaaand as a reward, everyone who's still here gets A FREE SKILL POINT!
[20:47] Mary_Sue> yay!
[20:47] RC> Yeah!
[20:47] Mimi> Yay

-==-

NOTES:

Okay, I know this kinda thing isn't everyone's cup of tea, but it's been a lot of fun to play so far! As any tabletop gamer will tell you, coming up with a game off the top of your head can be tough work, but it's been fun playing with everyone. So, be sure to let all our players know what ya think of the job they've done!

Any poor story choices and/or plot holes are mine.

Melanie E.

Boys of Summer

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Organizational: 

  • Title Page

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Taxonomy upgrade extras: 

  • Crossdressing
  • Posted by author(s)
  • Adventure
  • Superheroes
  • 7,500 < Novelette < 17,500 words
  • Contests, Deals, Bets or Dares
  • Sisters
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Identity Crisis

Boys of Summer

Melanie Ezell

Boys of Summer 1-10

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Contests: 

  • Summer Romance 2008

Publication: 

  • 7,500 < Novelette < 17,500 words

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing
  • Comedy
  • Adventure
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Sisters
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Romantic
  • Identity Crisis

TG Elements: 

  • Appliances Attached

Other Keywords: 

  • too late

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Boys of Summer

By Melanie Ezell

For the Big Closet Transgender Archives Summer Romance Contest 2008

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I can see you,
Your brown skin shining in the sun,
You got your hair combed back,
And your sunglasses on, baby,
I can tell you,
My love for you will still be strong,
After the boys of summer have gone.

Don Henley- Boys of Summer

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Notes: This story was partially inspired by an Altered Fates story I read on Fictionmania recently called 'My Best Friend's Girl'. While this story is completely different from 'My Best Friend's Girl' in almost every way, it was the sweetness of that story that made me contemplate what might just happen on a summer camping trip where a bit of experimentation results in an outcome that maybe- just maybe- improves the lives of all involved in unexpected ways.

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1.

Caleb, or Cassie as he supposed he should call himself for now, drifted in and out of consciousness as he watched the trees pass by, his long, dark hair blowing in the warm breeze as his mom’s old beaten up convertible cruised down the old park roads towards the last paved parking area for a good fifteen miles. Without thinking about it much he reached up one hand to push the loose strands away from where they were tickling his nose as they flew about, catching a glimpse of the baby blue nails on his fingers as he did so. This was going to take some getting used to.

“Hey, come on lil’ bro- er, sis, it’s the CANOE TRIP! You know the rules- no feeling down for yourself while we’re out on the water.” He gave his older sister a sneer and flipped her off, but he knew she was right, and that he had better give it a better effort or he’d be in major trouble.

“Hey, none of that now you two. We’re almost there, and when we park your Uncle Robert is waiting for us with the camping supplies and canoes already set, all we have to do is call down and he’ll send your cousin up to get us.” Ruby gave her two ‘daughters’ a glance that said ‘obey me’ before turning back to watch for potholes in the ancient pavement.

‘Cassie’ did his best to show some enthusiasm, but was having a hard time knowing he’d be spending the entire trip this year as a girl. It was his own fault, he knew. He’d been tormenting Kayla mercilessly about how useless she would be out on the river this year now that he’d started to grow up. When asked why he thought she’d be so much dead weight, he’d casually dropped that it was obvious, since she was a girl and he was a boy he’d be stronger than her. This had, of course, led them into another round of one of their old and oft repeated battles; he would lead in with the old ‘male’ arguments, him being man of the house, all that, while she’d insist that being the eldest meant she knew better, and if he wanted to argue about someone’s capabilities based on sex to take it up with Mom. As usual, he’d declined when push came to shove, but she wasn’t letting him get away with it this time. So, after three weeks of Kayla and his mom planning behind his back and another week at the beginning of vacation taking a crash course in girl lessons to try and prepare him for the journey ahead, he now found himself setting out on his family’s annual canoe trip sans masculinity, and was most definitely not looking forward to the reaction from his Uncle Robert and their cousin Jobe.

Not that it took much to make him look passably like a girl. His mom was a beautiful woman, and even at thirty five was often the target of wolf whistles whenever she went out, even from his own friends. Unfortunately her beauty tended a bit more towards the cute end of the spectrum than the glamorous, and topping out at only five foot two and a hundred and five pounds she wasn’t doing him any favors in the size department, and from the stories she’d told him and pictures he’d seen his father hadn’t been much bigger. He still felt bad for his mom whenever he thought about what had happened with his dad; pregnant with Kayla at eighteen she’d quit school and married Henry Wessler. Shortly after having Kayla she managed to get pregnant again, and with how tight things were for her and her nineteen year old husband they could hardly afford a second child on what he was making doing various odd jobs around town. Despite his small size and in a last ditch effort to make things as easy as possible for his wife Henry had signed up for the army in hopes that Grandma Celia, who had kicked her out when she’d first gotten pregnant with Kayla, would let her move in again and help with the children. He never even got to see his own son before he was killed just a few weeks later in a firing range accident, never seeing active duty either. Uncle Richard and his then- wife Louise had let her and Kayla move in with them, and that’s how Caleb had spent the first twelve years of his life, tagging along behind his cousin Jobe as often as possible until Ruby earned her GED and an associates degree from the local community college and moved them three hours away to find a job. One thing they had made sure to keep up with was the annual canoe trip, though- they’d been doing it for as long as he could remember, and he knew there was no way anyone would break the tradition any time soon. So every summer they make the trek down to the Cherokee River camp site for the three week vacation, three days out on canoe followed by two weeks out at the old secluded cabin Richard has managed to find for next to nothing back when Caleb was still in diapers. An old gas generator and a well with a pump provided all the comforts needed, and they were at least a five hour walk through dense woods from their nearest neighbors, with the only access to the old cabin being either from the river or over the old dirt logging roads all over the mountains. In years past they had sometimes drove up to the cabin when the weather looked like it might not hold well, but everyone, even the usually girly Kayla, preferred the more gritty canoeing trip to get in the spirit of things.

He looked over at Kayla one more time to catch her looking at him, and quickly stuck his tongue out at her before turning back around. He had been disgusted to find that he looked almost exactly like her when they’d first decided on his punishment. They had the same tanned complexion, dark hair and dark eyes, even the same nose. So maybe he’d let his hair grow just a little longer than was good for him, but his girlfriends usually liked it that way, said it was sexy to run their fingers through. It was disturbing to find that all he had to do was put on a bit of eyeliner and a padded bra and voila! There stood a copy of his sister. Not that he was ever picked on at school for being girly or anything- he was just kind of, well, small, like his mom and his sister. ‘Compact’ as his mom called it. It didn’t really bother him, and he’d used it to his advantage a few times to get dates with girls who were too intimidated by the larger guys or had been abused. He knew they viewed him as ‘safe’, one of the ones who wouldn’t hurt them, but he liked it that way and worked hard not to do anything that might hurt that image, and more often than not had friends asking him how he did it when they’d walk into the lunch room to find him sitting at a table surrounded by girls. Of course, he’d also been in his share of scuffles after someone or other called him a derogatory word or otherwise questioned his sexuality, but he’d normally come out on top, and when he hadn’t he’d play up his small stature to shift the blame. After all, would someone who was barely over five foot pick a fight with the six three behemoth in the chair beside them if they knew what was good for them? And it would usually work.

The vehicle slowed as it pulled into the large open lot at the entrance to the park, and his mom Ruby turned around and smiled at the two before announcing, “We’re here!” to a chorus of whoops and hollers from the teenagers. Caleb/Cassie looked down at his outfit and shuddered a moment, but determined he’d not let it get to him. After all, who would see him besides family? The gaff thing was uncomfortable, and the fake boobs his mom had insisted on despite having to break into the ‘new car fund’ to get them felt weird glued to his chest, filling out the bikini she’d insisted on all too well for his tastes, the thin blue and white piece of swimwear showing clearly through the thin summer dress she’d allowed him to wear over it. What sixteen year old boy would be caught dead wearing something like this? And on a canoe trip too? They pulled to a stop in the nearest available space to the on site restrooms, the last they would see for the next three days until they arrived at the cabin. Oh, joy.

“You two best go now or forever hold your peace.”

“Race you there sis!” Kayla was out of the car in a flash, hopping over the side in her short shorts and tank top and making a mad dash for the doors, but as Cassie tried to do the same his mother put a hand on his shoulder to stop him.

“Now, be a bit more careful sweetie!”

“But Mom, Kayla just-“

“Kayla wasn’t wearing a skirt! Now, remember?” He grumped as he instead carefully raised himself out of the seat and sat on the upper edge of the back before swinging his legs together over the edge and sliding down, trying to keep his skirt down in the process. His mom gave him a nod of approval. “Good! Go on.” She waved her hands towards the weather worn building where his sister had already disappeared and locked the door, meaning he had to wait until she was out before he could go. He could have just used the boy’s side, as his mom and sister had done on previous trips when the other was already using the girl’s, but he knew his mom wouldn’t allow him that luxury.

Hopefully, he thought as he waited, this wouldn’t be how the entire trip would be.

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2.

Cassie had almost caught Kayla when the sound of rustling bushes drew his attention away from the chase and towards the closest of the myriad paths leading from the parking lot and into the woods in time to see a tall man with closely cropped sandy hair and a pair of faded cutoffs making his way out of the forest and in the direction of their car. Kayla was quicker to react than he and with an exclamation of “Jobe!” tackled their cousin, bringing him to the ground with a low ‘Oof’ and a fit of teenage giggles. Cassie laughed at the tangle of limbs on the ground and strolled over at a more leisurely pace to say hi to his older cousin.

“Hi Jobe!”

“Hi you two! Kayla, Ca...leb…” Jobe gave him an odd sideways look as he lifted Kayla to her feet and stood up, and it took Caleb/Cassie a moment before he understood the older boy’s confusion.

“Eep! Kayla! Give me my dress back!” The chase was on again as his sister took off with a squeal of pretend fear and he dashed after her while trying to hide his blush. He was more than amply aware of the bouncing of the false breasts on his chest as he tried to catch his sibling, along with the tight fit of the bikini bottoms as they tried to crawl their way upwards and show his cousin a lack of things he would rather not think about. When he caught her-

“Hey!” The strong arm caught him unawares and nearly caused him to fall to the ground before he was spun about to find himself face to face with someone’s abs. He looked up… and up… and up… what must have been six feet of solid flesh to see a pair of bright green eyes staring down at him under an unruly mop of black hair. He tried to pull away, but the boy’s hands held firmly onto his biceps as he caught his cousin approaching from the corner of his eye.

“Ah, guys, this is my friend David Monroe. Him, his sister, and their little brother Eric came down with us since their parents are going to Europe or something this summer. David, these are my cousins. The older one over there is Kayla and this is, uh…”

“Cassie!” Kayla called happily as she approached and eyed the youth holding her little brother with an appreciative look.

“Yeah, yeah, Cassie. Uh, David, if you don’t mind letting go of Cal-er, Cassie for a bit, I need to talk to- her.” Jobe shot Cassie a look that told him that yes, they would talk, and if he didn’t like the answers he received that Cassie might not enjoy this trip after all, though that seemed less and less likely as the day went on anyhow.

“Sure,” David replied, and with a final glance downwards- not towards his face, Cassie noted with more than a little disgust- let Cassie go. Jobe started walking towards Ruby, indicating that Cassie should follow, and with more than a little trepidation he did so, snagging his dress from his sister on his way by and throwing it on as quickly as possible.

As soon as he reached the car he was yet again directed by a jerk of a thumb to follow Jobe behind the restrooms. He followed most of the way, but paused for a moment in fear before rounding the corner to the back of the rickety old building. The moment he rounded the corner he was grabbed roughly and slammed into the wall, shaking the entire structure with the impact.

“Just what do you think you’re doing showing up dressed like, like, THAT! Dammit Caleb!”

“It wasn’t my idea! Mom and Kayla, they-“

“What, MADE you dress like that?” Cassie nodded as best he could and tried not to cry as his cousin drove his thumbs deep into his shoulders. “Really?” He nodded again. “Shit!” Jobe pushed himself away and Cassie dropped to the ground from being held nearly a foot and a half up by his cousin. He lost his balance and fell forward into the older boy, who barely caught him before he landed face first in the dirt. “Whoa! Sorry! Jeezus, what happened?”

“It’s kind of complicated.” He rubbed the painful marks on his shoulders, already starting to bruise, while he did his best to explain exactly what happened that brought him on the family trip as a girl, and by the time he finished not only was Jobe no longer angry, but he seemed to be smiling a bit too. From the best of Cassie’s recollection, this was never a good thing. “All right, what harebrained scheme are you cooking up now?”

“I’m not!” Cassie, knowing better, crossed his arms beneath his chest and tapped his foot like he’d seen his mom and sister do when they knew he was lying about something, which caused Jobe’s smile to stretch and contort into a wide grin. “All right, seriously? I was just thinking about how perfect this is for the numbers.”

“Numbers?”

“Sure! There was gonna be four guys and two girls, a bit of a bad balance but I figured we could have made do. Now, since you’re spending the next month like THAT,” he swept his hands over Cassie’s dress to show what exactly ‘that’ meant, “things’ll be a bit more even, ya know?” Cassie could see his point, but-

“Waiddaminute, you’re gonna set me up with one of your friends for the next month? How could you do that to a friend? How could you do that to ME? Come on, Jobe, I might be in a dress, but I’m still a guy!” Jobe gave him a firm stab with a finger in the side of the left breast, and he yelped and jumped back. “Hey! That hurts, you ass!”

“Exactly. You may be a guy under all that, but from where I’m looking,” Jobe made a point of staring down his cleavage, “you can’t tell. Hell, you’re wearing a bikini and I still can’t tell ‘cept that I know you!”

“That’s not the POINT, Jobe!”

“Oh, come on, it’s not like I’m asking you to make out with him or anything!”

“Jobe, that’s NOT the POINT!!!”

“No, THOSE are!” Jobe pointed to the breast forms again. “Hey, do it, don’t do it, I don’t care. But if you’re gonna be dressed like that, one of ‘em’s bound to hit on you sooner or later. Geez, you look just like your sister, and even though she’s my cousin I still think she’s hot, so what does that make you?”

“It makes me NOTHING. I’m. Not. Doing it.” Cassie turned around on one foot and stomped back around the building and made his way towards where his mom was still trying futilely to get the top up on the convertible without help. The motor in the electric top had died before she had ever bought the car, and they had never seen the point of paying to get it fixed when the money could be spent on something important or put towards a brand new vehicle. As it was, they usually left the top down unless it was raining, and even in cold weather preferred to wrap up warm before resulting to using the top, which since the heater refused to work never make a lot of difference. He went around to the other side and began working at the stubborn rusted hinge, and in a few seconds they had the plastic top swinging into place.

“So, does your cousin understand why you’re dressed like that?”

“I think so. Dang it, Mom, didn’t you let Uncle Richard know what you were doing to me?”

“Yes, I did, when I called last week. He didn’t say anything about your cousin having guests, and I’m assuming from Jobe’s reaction he never said anything to him about what I was doing either. Rich always was a bit absent minded.”

“Absent minded? Absent minded! Mom, Jobe’s decided that since I’m supposed to be a girl for the trip he wants to set me up with one of his friends!” The frantic whispering back and forth across the car was giving him a sore throat, but the last thing Cassie wanted was for their unexpected guest to hear that he was a boy dressed like a girl. His mom’s calm manner and measured words only served to upset him- did she not even care? Or was she so out of it she couldn’t see the problem?

“Well, sweetie, it does make sense. Your sister told me while you two were back there about his three friends, and it sounds to me like he’s trying to accept that you’re for all intents and purposes a girl at the moment and trying to treat you like it. Now if we can just get it through YOUR head that you’re a girl-“

“But I’m not-“

“FOR THE TIME BEING, I think this trip can be a lot of fun. I’m sorry this happened, sweetie, I really am, and if I had known about Jobe bringing along friends I would never have had you do this, but I didn’t, and now we ALL have to live with the consequences of it.” She gave him a look that said she really did understand why he was upset as she circled around the rear of the car and stretched out her arms for a hug, which the pretty young man gladly accepted. “And I promise you,” she continued, “when I see your uncle, I’m going to tear him a new one.” Cassie smiled at that. They were still hugging when Jobe made his way back around from the back of the restrooms, and when he saw the two of them he smiled.

“So, are you two done talking or do we need to wait even longer?” Kayla grabbed Jobe in a hug again and started dragging him towards the car where Ruby now had the trunk open and their bags already set out and ready to go. David walked up on his other side and casually slugged his arm before heading towards the car himself, with a small leer towards Cassie.

“You two were gone quite a while. What were you doing back there, or is it all sordid things I should ask about when the mom’s not around?”

“Eww!”

“Dammit, David, h-she’s my cousin!”

“How disgusting!” Ruby stepped forward swiftly and slapped the rude youth across the face sharply, causing him to lose his sneer in exchange for a look of shock.

“Geez, lady, I was only joking!”

“Don’t you EVER talk about my daughters like that again! Jobe, if I hear that he tried anything inappropriate with either Kayla or Cassie I’ll-“

“Don’t worry, Aunt Ruby, I’ll take care of it myself.” Jobe favored David with a look that promised lots of pain in the future, and Cassie almost felt sorry for him. Almost.

Cassie was surprised when Kayla walked up beside him and put her arm around his shoulders before she leaned down towards his ear. “Cute, but a bit of an asshole. I can handle him for the summer and maybe teach him a lesson or two. Hopefully you’ll have better luck with his little brother!” She gave him a quick swat on the butt where neither of the boys could see before she headed over to the pile of bags to grab something light herself as the two boys loaded themselves down with camping gear and the luggage necessary for three weeks ‘roughing it’. “Come on, lil’ sis, time’s a wastin’!”

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3.

The canoes, or more correctly three canoes and the aluminum flat-bottomed fishing boat they used for carrying their equipment, were all pulled up and anchored firmly on the sandy shoal they had always used as a starting point for their trip. While Cassie was loathe to admit it, he had greatly enjoyed the leisurely stroll down to their departure point this year, a big difference from the previous summer when he had ended up carrying a good portion of their goods himself and nearly collapsed from exhaustion when they finally reached the canoes. Instead, this year all he had was a single rucksack that contained the few personal items he had deigned to bring; his MP3 player, a sketch pad, a few pencils with other bits necessary to do his drawings, and a copy of ‘Storm Watch’ he had been meaning to read but not gotten around to yet. It also had another bikini, a pair of shorts, a pair of sneakers, and sunscreen with bug repellent, because you never know what will happen, and despite all his begging his mom had refused to allow any of his boy clothes even as emergency wear. For the moment, though, he could forget all the things he would have to deal with over the next three weeks and just enjoy the sun on his skin and the smell of the trees, with the birds singing as they danced above him, his sundress dancing around his legs-

He wished he had not thought about the dress. It was cool to be sure; he had been surprised that despite covering a good deal more of his body it somehow felt less sweaty than his cutoffs normally would have by this time. But he did not like it anyways. Nope. Not one little bit.

“Ouch!”

“WHOA, watch it!”

“Dude, you ran into ME!”

Cassie smiled again as he watched the two older boys still trying to make it down the path laden down with more than either one should really have been carrying. For a moment he felt a twinge of guilt at not carrying more, but when he thought about what both of them had done so far on the trip already, figured it was the least they were due in the way of preemptive punishment. “Come on boys, we’re waitin’ on you two!” He could not resist a perfectly good chance to rib them when he knew they could not get him. Jobe’s mouth started to move in the beginnings of a return insult, but he was cut short when a long root came out of nowhere to trip him up, sending him sprawling in a spray of pots, pans, and other pieces of camping gear. Cassie started giggling even as another young man made his way up the path from the beach and towards the fallen boy, collecting what he could on the way.

“Thanks Eric.”

“No problem Jobe.”

Jobe managed to make it down the rest of the path in one piece before dropping the now worse for wear goods roughly in the flat bottom boat with a loud metallic clang. “Kayla, Ca-ssie, Aunt Ruby, this is Eric, David’s little brother, and their big sister Emily. Eric and Emily, these are my cousins and my aunt.” Eric looked like a slightly less bulky version of his big brother David, his brown hair buzzed almost completely away and a pair of glasses giving him a very clean, intelligent appearance, which Cassie hoped proved to be true after meeting his brother. Emily on the other hand was a small girl, almost as small as he and his sister were, with honey blonde hair and a cute ‘cheerleader’ build that was only slightly less attractive for her less than enthused attitude. It was obvious from the looks that Jobe was giving her he was completely infatuated, while the looks she returned to him said quite clearly ‘not on your life mister’. He was not sure why, but Cassie felt an almost immediate dislike for the girl before him.

“She’s a stuck up bitch I’ll bet- looks like you’re the only one with any luck.”

“Kayla!” He slapped her on the arm as she backed away giggling, but was too stricken by her words to really give any chase. Instead he turned back around towards the two unknowns to find himself face to face with Eric.

“Um, hi,” said the tall boy, holding out his hand nervously towards Cassie while staring at the ground. Cassie took it carefully, giving it a light grip like his mom and sister had taught him to. Not ‘dead fish’, but gentle and disarming as opposed to a test of strength. Eric seemed to stare even more solidly at the ground for a moment before lifting his own hand away and backing away quickly. Cassie could not help but giggle at the boy’s nervousness, though he could not fathom what the young man might have to be embarrassed about.

Kayla had a smarmy grin on her face as she stepped towards him and started to speak, but was cut off by the girl Emily. “Ugh, I hate stuff like this. Can we get going to the cabin now?” She crossed her arms and tapped her foot- a gesture Cassie recognized as the same one he had used on Jobe earlier- as she eyed the others in their group with another look, this one saying ‘and if I’m not treated like a princess, there WILL be hell to pay.’ Cassie found himself laughing again, which drew a scowl from the girl. He would have to keep an eye on her and the older brother, he decided, though the younger brother seemed like a good guy.

“Allie-OOP! That’s everything!” Uncle Richard looped around from the flat bottomed boat, where he had been loading and lashing down the last of the supplies, and made his way over towards the cluster of kids surrounding his sister. Richard was a man of average size, with brownish red hair that seemed to defy the seeming rule that any man over the age of forty should be going bald, instead bushing out thickly from his head in an unruly mass. He had the same dark complexion as the rest of his family, but while his sister had taken after their half-Hispanic mother in her looks, he took almost completely after their father’s Irish side of the family in almost every other way, making for a very odd mishmash of features that nevertheless combined to make him quite a striking man. He gave his sister Ruby a mighty bear hug, lifting her off the ground, before turning and doing the same to his niece Kayla, causing her to squeal when he did so. When he finally turned to Cassie, his face took on a surprised quirk. “Ah,-“

“Cassie.”

“I know that!” He reached down without a second’s more hesitation and lifted Cassie into the same kind of bear hug he had given both the young man’s mother and sister. Cassie was embarrassed when without meaning to he let out a squeal that matched his sister’s almost perfectly. “Good to see you young ‘un! How’s the big city treating the three of you?”

“Not bad, big brother.” Ruby stepped up on her toes and gave him another hug along with a kiss on the cheek.

“Doing okay on money? I can lend you some if you need-“

“No.”

“All right then.” That was the only thing his mother always seemed to regret about these trips, Cassie mused. His Uncle Richard owned a small but successful construction company back in their hometown of Brighton, and was always trying to get Ruby to accept money to help out, but she always refused. He would still send extravagant Christmas and birthday presents, and found every opportunity to give to them in any way that Ruby could not return or reject, but she remained adamant that she wanted to raise her family on her own merit, not her brother’s money. The check from the government every month still helped pay part of the bills, and whatever they might not manage to cover out of what she made as a clerk at the bank they simply did without. She would not let Cassie or Kayla have a job because she did not want them taking time away from their studying, making the same kind of mistakes she had made at their age.

“So, how’re we gonna split up for the canoes?” Jobe clapped his hands together as he started eyeing the crowd around him, and his gaze settled on Emily.

“Let’s do it in pairs, a guy and a girl,” David recommended, himself eyeing Kayla.

Cassie looked over towards Eric, who was looking oddly interested in the patch of dirt directly before him, and gave a defeated sigh.

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4.

Jobe’s idea seemed to have stuck in the heads of the other members of the party, and Cassie shortly found himself floating down the river paired off with Eric, the two older couples taking the other canoes while the adults occupied the fishing boat, all floating along at a leisurely pace. He had taken the opportunity to change from his dress to the cotton short shorts his sister had leant him for the trip prior to disembarking, and for the only time he could remember since he had first seen them felt grateful that his mother had insisted on quality breast forms and the ugly fleshy gaff-thing over his arguments on cost and only being seen by family. From the wolf whistles he was receiving not only from David but his own cousin as well combined with his own feeling of nakedness, the bikini top just barely covering his fake breasts, he was sure that anything less would have meant disaster in the presence of their guests. A noise from the back of the canoe drew his attention, and he turned to see what had been said.

“What?”

“Oh, uh, nothing.”

“No, seriously, what?”

The young man blushed and sputtered for a moment before responding coherently. “Ah, I was just saying you seem nice is all.”

Now it was Cassie’s turn to blush as he turned around quickly. “Oh. Thanks.”

A few seconds passed, Cassie lazily paddling while listening to Jared laugh as David told him some undoubtedly dirty joke across the space between the two canoes a few yards further down the river, before Eric spoke to him again. “I mean, not like my sister. I mean, not that she’s mean or anything, but she’s kind of prissy and a drama queen like all the other girls she always brings around, and you’re not. Prissy I mean, I mean you didn’t seem like it, all full of yourself and stuff. I mean, you look cool, no, I- dammit!- I…” His voice faltered and faded off, but Cassie could tell from their sudden shot forwards accompanied by furious splashing from behind that he had instead decided to take his frustrations out on the water.

Cassie felt the urge to laugh, but fought viciously with himself to keep it in check, and after a moment finally managed to return a stunted “Thank you.” He was uncomfortable with the idea of some boy tripping over his tongue trying to talk to him, but knowing what it was like on the other side of the fence he tried not to do any of the things that he had always seen hurt his friends. He knew what Eric was trying to say, and could even sympathize with him from a couple of his own early experiences with girls, before they had gotten comfortable around each other. The churning behind the canoe lessened somewhat, and Cassie could imagine he heard a sigh of relief. What the hell, he decided, in for a penny… “You seem nice too.” It was only encouraging the poor boy, he knew, but better to have that than be stuck with a partner who was constantly staring at his toes and afraid to speak, right?

The conversation all around dried up for a long while after as the company concentrated on making headway down the river in the humid summer air. As much as Cassie loved to canoe, the heat was one thing he could always do without, and the sun glaring off the surface of the river made him wish desperately for the sunglasses he had- again- packed in their main bag instead of his knapsack. The only sounds in the air were the soft ‘slap- slap’ of the paddles as they passed through the water and the rustle of wild things hidden in the greenery along the banks to their left and atop the short sandstone cliffs to their right, the gentle whisper of the leaves in the trees above. He gazed around and marveled at the myriad shades of the forest, the greens and browns and yellows with the occasional flash of robin’s egg blue or gentle lavender marking the locations of wildflowers. This was what he loved about these vacations, even more than the chance to relax and spend time with his family, it was the retreat into the natural world that brought a smile to his face whenever he would remember summers past.

“What’re you thinking about?”

“Huh?” Eric’s voice had broke his concentration enough that he faltered in his paddling, but Cassie quickly made to correct the slight err in course that resulted. “Nothing really, just the trees, and the flowers and the water. I love it out here.”

“I can tell.” Eric seemed to have calmed a bit, and Cassie smiled. Maybe he’d be all right to hang around with after all. “This is my first time this far out into the woods, but you look like you’ve been here a lot.”

Cassie sighed contentedly. “Every summer since I was really little. Didn’t Jobe tell you? We come out here every year as a family. Even if we can’t get together twice in the rest of the year, we always make time for the camping trip, it’s our big family tradition.”

“Wow,” Eric responded, impressed. “I hope we aren’t ruining your summer by being here too.”

“Of course not!” Cassie shot him a smile over his shoulder. “The more the merrier. Besides, I don’t think there’s anything, once we get to the cabin, that could ever make me sad.” He mused on the thought of the cabin, thinking about how much fun things would be when they got there. A small frown creased his forehead when he considered what the sleeping arrangements would possibly be like, but he decided that could wait until later to sort out. A thought occurred to him to get the other boy to open up a bit more. “What does your family usually do over the summer?”

There was a pause before Eric started to answer, in a slightly bored voice that Cassie could tell was nothing more than an act. “Nothing much. Mom and Dad usually go off somewhere and leave us with either our grandparents or one of our aunts for a month or so. Last year David and Emily were counselors at a youth camp down the road from our Aunt Lucy’s place, but I mostly just sit around and read.” His voice perked up, and the smile on his face was virtually audible. “But I’ve never got to do something like this. It’s… nice.”

“Yeah, it is.” Cassie thought for a moment. This was obviously something special to Eric. The more they talked, the more he hoped they could be friends for the summer, or at least get along, if for no other reason than that the trips were supposed to be fun for everyone. What would be the point of going if you didn’t try and enjoy it? “So, what kinds of books do you normally read?”

“I’m reading this really good book right now,” Eric said with excitement over a subject he knew, “have you seen that show on SciFi, ‘The Dresden Files’?”

“No.”

“Well, it’s based on this guy’s books about a modern day wizard and all these things he does. I saw the show and it looked cool, so I went looking for the series-“

“That makes me think of the book I brought to read, ‘Storm Watch’ or something like-“

“That’s it! You’re reading it too?”

“Well, I haven’t started it yet,” Cassie confessed, amazed that the two of them were actually reading the same book at the same time, “is it any good?”

“Oh, it’s great! There’s- well, you’ve just gotta read it.”

They passed the next two hours discussing various books they had read, both pleasantly surprised to find that they shared similar tastes in literature. It was refreshing to Cassie to have someone around who could talk to him about literature, since his sister hated Sci-Fi and Fantasy and his mom never had the time to read except during vacation. At last they came to the sand bar that marked the half way point for the day, and under Cassie’s direction slid the canoe up beside the equipment boat to join the others for a picnic lunch, still chattering excitedly away.

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5.

“Well, it seems you two have really hit it off.” Eric’s eyes turned almost instantly at the sound of his brother’s voice from looking at Cassie’s face to yet again staring at his feet, almost as though a switch had been flipped, shutting him up. The sudden change in the youth’s demeanor worried Cassie, but before he could say something Kayla had already grabbed him from behind and dragged him away.

“Come on, you’re gonna help me make some daisy chains.”

“What? Why?”

“Because, every girl should know how to make a daisy chain, and I know that you don’t, that’s why.” She pulled the young boy in girl’s clothing away from the gathering swiftly and towards a small grassy mound where the wild flowers had made refuge on the water’s edge. After making sure they were out of hearing distance enough to talk, she bent down to begin collecting flowers. “Help me out with this, I wanna talk to you a bit away from everyone else.”

“Oh.” Cassie lowered himself to the ground near where his sister stood and settled onto a long flat stone before searching for appropriate flowers, watching her carefully to see what flowers she chose and which she left to see what kind she needed. “What did you want to talk about?”

“You!” She giggled. “Don’t think I haven’t noticed your flirting with him, ‘sis’.”

“Who?”

“Eric, that’s who! The coy little looks, the giggling, the excitement you’re showing when you talk to him, you are SO flirting!”

“Am not! We’re discussing books!” He watched his sister begin stringing the flowers she had gathered together, slitting the stem of one and sliding the stem of the next through it so that the blooms would lay side by side and connected, until he thought he could do it, and began construction of his own chain. “You know you and mom don’t like the same stuff I do. I’m just having fun talking about something I like.”

“And?”

“And what?” He looked up to see her giving him a wide eyed grin. “Kayla, I’m sure I don’t know whatever it is you’re trying to hint I know, so can you please enlighten me?”

Kayla flumped down next to him on the rock. “You can’t tell? He likes you, and you’re just making it worse. You’re wrapping him around your little finger and he’s already too far gone to notice.” Moving her hands quickly, she tied off her chain in such a way that Cassie could not see any line or seam before settling the finished flowery halo upon her brother’s head. “You’re just too cute, you know that?”

“No way, Kayla. Please, stop tormenting me will ya?” He attempted to tie his own chain off, but was so clumsy about it she took the chain from his hands gently and finished it herself, placing it on her own head.

“Perfect. And I’m not tormenting you, I promise. Honest? I’ve always thought it would be great to have a little sister, and now that I have one even temporarily I’m not gonna waste the opportunity to do all the things I’ve always wanted to with her.” She gave him a warm, sisterly hug. “You make a pretty good brother, and even though we argue a lot you’re not bad considering some of the horror stories I’ve heard from my friends. But even with that I think you can learn a lot being a girl for a while. I’ve really liked teaching you the girl stuff this past week getting ready for the trip, and now that you’re doing it straight through for the next three weeks we’ll have so much fun!”

“Sure, I bet.” Cassie opined, but he smiled and returned the embrace for a moment. “What about Jobe’s great and daring plan to pair us off so he has a chance with Miss Princess?” The two glanced over towards the site where the adults were still trying to dig the necessary food out of the packs from where Jobe had carelessly thrown it into the boat while he and the two elder Monroe siblings lay sprawled at the pebbly edge of the water talking. Eric was reading his book further back from the river while from the looks of things occasionally making sure there was nothing he could do to help.

“I think he’s in for a long fruitless battle on that one, but I’m not gonna try and stop him if it keeps her out of my hair. God, did you see her in that canoe?” Cassie nodded that he had. One reason he had made sure to fall behind the other two had been to get away from Emily’s constant complaining about the heat and bugs. She never even set her paddle to water, instead relying on Jobe to do all the work to move their vessel while she did nothing. “I’m glad he’s after her, ‘cause if I had been riding with her we’d be one camper short by now.” The two laughed together as they spent some time concocting various means of ridding the party of the sour girl, each new method trumping the last in terms of silliness.

“But, but…” Cassie tried to stifle his giggles long enough to change the subject. “But what about David?”

Kayla’s smile quickly turned to a frown as she turned to her little brother. “Oh, he’s a bit of a piece of work, one of those ‘god’s gift’ types if you know what I mean. I guess he’s okay company if you're a guy, but let’s just say I’m not expecting to exchange emails with him when this is all done.” Her smile returned, and she poked him in the side playfully. “Now, you and-“

“Don’t say it Kayla-“

“ERIC, though,” and she set off running and making kiss faces as Cassie chased her back towards the encampment. He drew close enough to take a lunge at her fleeing form, but missed her arm and instead caught the waistband of her shorts, dragging them down as she staggered forwards.

“Girls, stop that! Kayla, I know you’re wearing a bikini but please pull your shorts up! The food’s almost ready, we were just about to call you two back in any case.” Ruby cast a disapproving glare towards the two girls, whose grins refused to waver under the onslaught, though they discontinued their horseplay and settled down to eat.

Richard retrieved Jobe and the others from the beach, while Eric cautiously approached the picnic blanket that both Kayla and Cassie had settled upon and, without looking directly at Cassie, asked, “would it be okay if I sat here?” Cassie scooted over closer to his sister in answer, and still blushing the other boy lowered himself to the stretch of open blanket at the same time the rest of the youths claimed and occupied the opposite side of the blanket, leaving the ends open for the two adults.

It did not take long for the food to disappear with all the campers being hungry from a long day of paddling down the river, and with little to no extra conversation the group packed their camp away and prepared to set off again.

David stopped before climbing into his canoe, and turned around to face the other teenagers who were still behind him. "Hey, I've got an idea! Let's switch partners around for the next leg 'til we stop for camp. I'll take Cassie, Eric can take Emily and Jobe, you can take your cousin Kayla."

Cassie took a good look at David, who, noticing his stare, did obscene things with his tongue. "Uh, no." Cassie stated firmly, before grabbing Eric by the arm and physically dragging him towards the canoe furthest from his older brother.

"Oh, come on, it'd be fun!" David tried to follow the two and grabbed Cassie's arm, but Jobe, to Cassie's surprise, came forwards and picked David up by the shoulders, breaking his grip in the process.

"No, David. That's twice you've messed with Cassie. Come on, man, leave my cousin alone before I regret inviting you on this trip and have to hurt you."

Kayla approached Jobe and with a pouty look asked, "What about me?"

Jobe glanced towards Emily, who was again stamping her foot impatiently, then towards David, who looked like he could not decide whether to be angry or piss himself. With an exasperated sigh, he signalled Kayla towards the middle canoe. "Come on, you're with me."

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6.

The rest of the day's boat travel went smoothly, the water being high enough thanks to recent rain that several of the usually rougher stretches of the river were much calmer than normal, though Cassie knew that the really fun- and challenging- parts were still ahead. The second day would be rougher than the first, and by the end of the third day they would all be feeling beaten, bruised, and quite ready for a nice clean shower once they had the well primed at the cabin. Then the real fun could begin.

"I'm sorry about my brother."

Cassie turned his attention from the marshmallow he was roasting on his stick across the fire to see Eric preparing a hot dog for the flames. "That's okay, I have to deal with guys like him sometimes at school."

Eric settled on the half-rotted log they had drug up to use as a seat as he let his link of processed meat product char in the flames. "With your looks I bet you have to deal with a lot of jerks like him."

"Oh, you have no idea." Cassie let a small smile cross his face as he considered just how little idea the other boy had. Usually guys like David were a problem because they thought they could get by with hassling him about his height, at least until they would somehow 'accidentally' end up with a black eye or similar injury that they mysteriously could not explain to the school. Sometimes he would even take care of an unwanted guy who just would not leave one of his girl friends alone, some of them- a lot of them- much worse than David. "I can deal with him if I have to, but I've always kinda thought it was better to just avoid guys like that if I can."

His hot dog thoroughly black and crunchy, Eric pulled back to enjoy his piece of charcoal. "I mean, he used to not be like this, even around girls, but the last few months he hasn't been the same, since..."

"Since what?"

"Since Lisa broke up with him." Cassie thought he would be sick when he heard the distinct 'crunch, crunch' of the other boy chewing through the overdone hot dog, but tried to block it out as he blew on his own flaming, dripping ball of gooey goodness.

"Why, what did she do?"

"She was the head cheerleader, back at school. Don't get me wrong, he's always been an ass. But, like, okay, the girls had this new super awesome cheerleader on the team, right?" Cassie nodded. "Well, uh, come to find out she's actually a guy, Dane Phoenix, this really small kid who was in my grade. I kinda knew him, we'd gone to a couple of LAN parties and things together. A lot of people thought he was a girl for a long time. Uh, anyways, David made a nasty comment about 'fags wearing skirts' where Lisa could hear it-"

"That's awful!" Cassie said out loud, thinking of his own situation.

"Yeah, I thought so too, and so did Lisa. She slapped him good, and dumped him on the spot. Now none of the girls on the cheer team will even speak to him, and none of the other girls will go out with him since Dana's always been real good to them."

"Dana? Oh, Dane."

"Yeah. So, now David's kind of fed up with the girls at school and I guess figures if he can't have them he should try to torment them as much as possible. I think his mind just hasn't processed that you two aren't automatically against him- at least, weren't until he started treating you like he does the girls at school now." Eric shifted a bit uncomfortably, as though talking so much and in such great detail had left him out of words for the rest of the night. Cassie, however, had remembered something he wanted to ask.

"SO, like, why did you get all quiet when we got around your brother earlier today?"

"I dunno what you're talking about?"

"At lunch? We landed and were talking, but when we got near your brother you got all quiet again." Figuring his marshmallow was cool enough to start eating, Cassie gingerly reached out his unoccupied hand to free the sticky mass from the stick he had been using to roast it. Popping the entire molten orb in his mouth at once, he could not resist the small 'mmm' sound that escaped as he enjoyed the first marshmallow of the trip.

"He doesn't like to see me talking to girls so much any more." Eric shrugged. "I think he's just kind of jealous that they didn't extend the punishment to me? Like since I'm his little brother I should have to suffer just 'cause he did something monumentally stupid?"

"That doesn't make any sense." Cassie responded curiously before returning part of his attention to the bits of marshmallow still stuck to his fingers and placing a new one on the end of his pronged stick.

"I know." Eric prepared himself a second hot dog, and Cassie had second thoughts about attempting another marshmallow if he had to see another lump of charcoal consumed before deciding the risk was worth it. "But I also think it makes him uncomfortable that I'll still talk to Dane- er, Dana too."

"Does it really bother him that badly?" Eric nodded, and Cassie made a mental note to be extra careful when around David. Then a new thought occurred to him. "What about your sister?"

"Oh, Emily? She's a bit flaky, and a bit of a brat, but the only bad thing I've ever heard her say about Dana was that she thought she should have had the spot on the cheer team over some freshman." Eric grinned. "The only problem there is that she's not any good at cheerleading." The two of them laughed at that while they ate their second treats.

At last, the fire began to die down, and rather than rebuild it from the small stockpile of wood beside his stone seat, Cassie said goodnight to Eric, stood up, and made his way through the darkness to the small pup-tent he was sharing with his older sister.

He was changing out of the shorts and bikini he had been wearing all day and into the boxer shorts and tank top his mom had allowed him for sleepwear until they reached the cabin when he heard his sister grumbling and waking up behind him.

"You finally coming to bed?"

"Yeah, but don't look, I'm changing."

"Not like you have anything I haven't seen before," she giggled as she shined her flashlight directly on him.

"Hey, stop that!"

"Oh, come on, Honey, give me a strip tease! Hey, ouch!" She rubbed vigorously at the spot where he had popped her knuckles even as Cassie picked up the flashlight and turned it off, hiding it under his side of the open sleeping bag they were sharing as a mattress. "You're no fun."

"No, I'm not. Go back to sleep." Kayla muttered something under her breath about 'stupid little sisters' as she rolled over and pulled the second open sleeping bag up around her shoulders, but Cassie did his best to ignore her as he curled up on his side of the 'bed' and tried not to think of anything.

Instead, his thoughts turned to three weeks ago, right at the beginning of summer, when he had first heard about his situation.

~~~

"WHAT! Mom, you can't be serious! Cum'mon!"

"No, I've had about enough of you two bickering, and this time you started it, so you're getting the harsher side of the punishment."

"But moooomm!"

"Don't 'But mom' me!"

"But-"

"AAAaatt! Don't forget, I'm punishing your sister too, not just you. If you keep this up you might find her not receiving any punishment at all!"

Caleb sighed as he admitted defeat. Besides, if Kayla was doing all the outside chores for the rest of the summer that meant he would not have to go out in the middle of the day and get all hot and sweaty. No mowing... no weed-eating... no taking out the trash even. Instead he would be inside, under the nice cool air conditioner helping out with the housework and doing all the 'girl stuff' he had picked on Kayla about so much, which didn't sound so bad.

Until he had learned that he would be dressing as a girl all summer to do it. He looked down in disgust at the frilly lacey concoction in his hand as he pondered just why he now owned a bra. No, not just a bra- BRAS. Plural. And panties, too, though anything else he would be borrowing from Kayla. According to his mom, 'every girl should have her own underwear as sharing is unsanitary.' But how did this apply to him, Caleb, a boy?

"All right, Cassie, it's time to change."

"Cassie?"

"Well you can't be Caleb if you're a girl can you?" Ruby had given him a purely evil look when she said that, and he had felt the first twinges of fear at the gleam in her eyes as she continued, "From now until the end of summer, whenever we are home you will be Cassandra Deanne Wessler, or Cassie for short. You're lucky I'm not making you do this for the canoe trip too!"

Of course, that had changed when he tried defying her a few days later by coming downstairs dressed in his normal clothes and refusing to change. "I'm old enough to make my own decisions," he said. "You can't make me do it if I don't want to," he said. "I'm practically an adult now," he said.

Since then not only had he not been allowed a single stitch of boy's clothing unless it was deemed absolutely necessary by his mom, but she had also guilt tripped him with the cost of the breast forms and weird fleshy gaff thing, both of which he would be paying for with his meager weekly allowance for- well, a lot longer than he cared to think about.

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7.

"Wake up sleepy head!"

"Gngh... go away."

"Waaaaaake uuuuuuup...." Something tickled Cassie's nose, but moved quickly out of the way when he went to swat it before returning to tickle him again.

"Nooooo... 'mashleep..."

"If you're not out of bed in- oof!" Cassie returned his pillow to its rightful place beneath his head before dozing off again for a few seconds. "Well, if you're gonna be that way about it."

"YEEEE!!!" The foghorn did the trick, and if it had not been for her rapid exit Cassie was sure he would have ripped his sister limb from limb. "Kayla, you bi-"

"Language!" Ruby warned from outside the tent.

"-ig ugly witch," Cassie finished, correcting himself quickly when he realized the adults were already up and about. He crawled out of the tent and made his way barefoot over to the campfire where the smell of bacon and eggs had not only him but all the other campers drooling. "Sorry mom."

Ruby gave her youngest a hug before going back to preparing their breakfast on the large flat rock she was using as a hotplate. "Food's almost ready. You're always a grump in the mornings, I know."

"That's why I brought the fog horn this year," Jobe made the mistake of adding, and before he could so much as move a flying tackle from Cassie sent both him and his cousin rolling down the embankment and into the river.

"Is she always so violent?" Emily pushed Kayla ahead of her out of her tent, where the other girl had run to hide from the wrath of her supposed sister. "Eww, is that bacon? I only eat fresh fruit for breakfast." Emily turned up her nose at the smell assaulting her, but her watering mouth belied her interest.

"Well you'll just have to change your ways today, 'cause you'll be needing the energy," Richard answered her, while grinning like a maniac and happily biting into the first crunchy strip as Ruby placed more to sizzle and pop while the grease ran down the dip in the stone to flavor the eggs. "We're setting out in about an hour and a half, as soon as we're packed up."

"You two need to change before you eat," Ruby admonished both Jobe and Cassie as they climbed back up the short embankment, thoroughly soaked from the short wrestling match. "Especially you, young lady."

"Me?" Cassie gestured at himself before looking down. Noticing the nipples of the breast forms sticking out prominently through the soaked tank top, the areolas being obvious through the thin white material, he let out an embarrassed "Eep!" before running off towards the tent where Kayla was already busy changing.

"Hey, what are you- HEY!"

"Kayla, I need clothes!"

"Those are MINE!"

"Kayla!"

"CHILDREN!" Ruby's voice cut through the bickering like a hot iron through butter, not only silencing Cassie and Kayla but the burgeoning conversations of the other teens around the fire as well. Richard just continued humming to himself as he munched another piece of bacon and started on his third egg.

"Sorry mom." The two teens responded in unison. Shortly after, both emerged in fresh bathing suits and shorts with their hair pulled back, looking a good deal more prepared to face the day as well as chastised, if not completely at peace with each other.

"We need to separate you two. Eric, come sit between my girls." The young man just rising from his own tent looked on confused, roused by the promise of greasy, delicious bacon only to find himself being pulled into the middle of a sibling argument. Eventually the bacon won out, and he dropped himself unceremoniously between the two apparent girls, one of whom was eyeing him enviously as he sat in nothing but boxers.

"Careful you don't burn a hole in his underwear staring at them like that lil' sis."

"Kayla!"

"GIRLS!!! If I have to warn you one more time..."

"We'll make you sit with David," Jobe said, drawing a punch in the side from his friend and a small scream from both Cassie and Kayla as they both promised not to fight any more.

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8.

Uncle Richard had declared the partnering arrangements for the day, and as they set off that morning the various watercraft were split Richard and Cassie, Eric and Kayla, Jobe and David, and finally Ruby and Emily in the flat bottomed boat, where the teenage girl was learning first hand that while she might be able to get the boys to paddle for her, Ruby was having none of that, resulting in more than a few grumbling complaints as she was forced to take up her share of the rowing.

They had not been on the river long when a word from Uncle Richard had him and Cassie falling back behind the rest of the group to talk.

"So, kiddo, how're ya holding up?"

"With the whole girl thing, or the paddling?"

"I dunno. Both. Neither. Just tryin' to make some small talk is all."

"I'm doing fine, Uncle Richard. At least, I guess I'm doing as fine as I can."

A few seconds of silent paddling passed in which Cassie was vaguely distracted by a passing mother duck with her young in tow. Uncle Richard did not seem in any hurry to catch up to the rest of the group, though, and Cassie knew that he would eventually want to talk more.

It did not take much longer for the tension to break. "That was a bit, uh, interesting when you came out of the water this morning."

"How?"

"Well, you looked pretty, ah, convincing."

"You mean my tits right?" Cassie could feel the heat from his uncle's blush even across the distance between them in the canoe. "Mom insisted I be as realistic as possible once she decided to go whole hog."

"She certainly did that. But really, are you doing okay? I can let you spend the rest of the summer at my place if you need to..."

"No Uncle Richard." Cassie spun around on the canoe seat, so he was face to face with his uncle, but kept up with his paddling in reverse. "Thanks for the offer, but I guess I did get myself in this situation."

Richard laughed. "Yup, you did at that. From how you've already been using it, though, I think you've already learned your lesson."

"What's that?"

"That a man can never argue with a woman and hope to win."

Cassie started to laugh along with his uncle until what Richard had actually said came through. "Hold on, what do you mean 'the way I've been using it'?"

Richard gave him a serious look for a moment, even stopping paddling to hold his chin in his palm, before letting his face break into another grin. "You're tellin' me you can ask that question and not know exactly what I'm talkin' about?"

Cassie thought about the question for a moment before he realized what his uncle was saying. "Oh, so you're not going to answer me because you can't without losing the argument?"

Richard leaned forwards and gave him a fatherly pat on the shoulder. "There now, see? You're thinking like a girl already."

Fighting hard against the urge to smack his uncle with his oar, Cassie instead chose to spin back around to face forwards, attempting to beam the words 'I ignore you' straight into his uncle's brain.

His plan was even successful for about a half a second, when his uncle just had to say, "Damn, even turn on the ice just like a girl."

"You JERK!" For that, Cassie decided, his uncle must pay. "Who's your current girlfriend?"

"Why?"

"'Cause I'm gonna call her and let her know just how much of a mean, vile old man you are, picking on your 'niece' like that!"

"You know, I bet the boys would love it if I untied your bikini top right now."

"PERVERT!" He almost spun around in his seat again, but the raucous laughter of his uncle was making it hard to keep a smile off his own face. Their canoe raced forwards to join the rest of the throng to Cassie's repeated calls of "PERVERT PERVERT PERVERT!" and his uncle's continuing laughter.

Soon they found themselves at the front of the group, with the others lagging slightly behind. Richard leaned forwards conspiratorially and asked Cassie in a stage whisper, "you wanna start a race?" Cassie nodded and set himself ready, paddling furiously the moment his uncle announced, "Aaannnd they're OFF!" It did not take but a few strokes for the other two canoe teams to pick up what was happening and set chase, the two younger men catching up quickly while Kayla and Eric pulled into a close third. They kept the pace up for another quarter of a mile before Richard called a halt.

"Why'd we stop?" Eric asked in between gasps.

"The rapids section is just a little bit further on. Hear that roaring sound?" The teenagers all nodded before Richard continued. "Okay, up until now I've let ya'll get by without life jackets since you can all swim and we haven't been anywhere really rough, but that changes now. Life jackets- ON!" As one the entire group, including Ruby and a disgusted looking Emily, pulled the dirty yellow life vests out from under their seats and buckled them on, pulling the straps taught as they did so. "If there's any second thoughts about this now, too late, last chance out was yesterday morning." The roar was growing louder as the current continued to pull their craft toward the rocky whitewater even without their paddling.

Even having prior warning and experience, the majesty of those first rapids always took Cassie's breath away. Looming up in the distance like a second, misty horizon, the short drop down to the next stage of the river was a scary unknown the first time you went down it. Cassie suddenly saw the reason behind his uncle's splitting of the teams, guaranteeing that one of the more experienced campers was with each of the newcomers and had control of their respective canoes. Cassie nervously wiped the sweat from his eyes and forehead before gripping his paddle tightly, knowing that the first test of the trip was right ahead, drawing steadily closer.

"On the right!" His uncle called with a gleeful note in his voice, and Cassie quickly threw his paddle to that side, rowing furiously to turn the craft away from the jutting stones threatening to take them under.

"More right, Uncle!" Using his paddle like a pole he pushed away from a second series of rocks before screaming, "Left!" Using all his strength to propel the slim and craft away from the looming bed of sharp stones and sand bars that had suddenly appeared. Just ahead was the fall- just another fifteen feet, and then down about a foot and a half and they would be clear of the first obstacle, though there would be no more wide open spaces to the river for the next two hours at least. The cool spray as the water splashed up through the narrow passages between the rocks and down onto his face felt good, but he knew that after they got through canoeing today he would have to check on the contents of his backpack.

"Eeeek!" Cassie turned slightly to see Emily lose her paddle to a root sticking out into the water as the flat bottomed boat made its way down the least treacherous part of the rapids and towards the barely submerged sand bank that would let them get out and drag the boat around the edge of the waterfall. He fully expected more screams when Emily found that there was a nest of crayfish in the bank, but did his best not to let his thoughts leave the tricky bit of steering ahead of him.

"You ready?"

"Yeah!"

"Three, two, one, over!" With a final desperate attempt to keep the canoe away from the more dangerous rocks both above and below the fall, they went over the edge, just for a moment balanced precariously between the upper and lower river before, with a mighty splash, they landed complete and more than a little damp at the foot of the fall. "Whoo-eee!"

"Hahah!" Cassie reached back and gave his uncle a quick high five before navigating down to the first rest stop of the day, a small beach just downstream from the waterfall that gave a perfect view of the turbulent waters, which also happened to be the last easily accessible rest area before that night's camping stop.

Richard hopped from the canoe and stretched before grabbing Cassie up in a powerful bear hug. "I NEVER get tired of that! Ah, the first thrill of the trip, not to be the last!" He spun Cassie around a couple of times before setting him back down, slightly dizzy but none the worse for wear, on the sand to wait for the rest of their crew.

Jobe and David were the next two down, bumping repeatedly into rocks and turning sideways as they fought each other for control of the craft, working against one another rather than together and ending up sideways as they went over the fall, nearly toppling over and spilling themselves in the river. They barely were out of the way before Kayla and Eric came down behind them going a good deal faster than Cassie and Richard had been and managing a half second's air time before themselves falling to the river below, slapping smoothly into the water and turning to slide up the beach beside Cassie and Richard ahead of the older boys, who were stuck trying to paddle in opposite directions around a rock caught on the nose of their canoe.

"Hey, you two, hurry up and get over here!"

"As soon as this idiot stops fighting me," Jobe freed a hand from his paddle long enough to smack David upside the back of his head, which coincidentally freed their canoe from its stalemate and let it slip in the direction David was still paddling.

"I know how to use a stupid canoe, okay?"

"I'm senior camper here, you need to listen to me on this river!"

The brewing fight was cut short when a high pitched scream followed by a metallic 'clump' and a repeated "Get it off get it off get it OFF!" signaled that Emily had found the crayfish.

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9.

"That was AWESOME!" Eric was hyped up on the experience of whitewater canoeing, bouncing around with the adrenaline rush from fighting his way down the river and ready to go again, a feeling that Cassie could relate to. Full of nervous energy himself, Cassie was pumped for a different reason.

"Uncle, are we doing it again this year?"

"What? Oh, I don't know." Richard looked from Cassie to each of the other members of their troupe, sizing them up. "Mmm, not on the trip out, but I'll take you out some time this week or next if you want to."

"Yesss!" Cassie pumped his fist in the air and jumped up and down a couple of times before rushing forwards and giving his uncle a huge hug and, on impulse, a kiss on the cheek. "Thanks Uncle Richard." Spinning away from the slightly shocked man, he laughed a bit as he skipped back a couple of paces, happy enough to willingly embrace a little bit of girlishness for once. "Who's coming with me?"

"What are you going to do?" Eric stepped forwards bravely, after having conquered the waterfall feeling he could do anything.

Cassie and Kayla replied in unison, "The Cliff of Death!" Kayla was as excited as Cassie, and embraced her younger sibling while giggling excitedly.

Eric gulped a little nervously, no longer feeling so brave as a moment before. "The, The Cliff of Death?"

"Sure!" Cassie grabbed him by the upper arm and pulled him over to a better vantage point to see a large, nasty looking outcropping of rock jutting up from the woods a few miles away. "That's it over there, we call it The Cliff of Death 'cause the first year we found it there was this like totally old human skeleton down at the foot of it!"

"No we didn't! Cassie!" Kayla came forward and grabbed the youth's other arm. "She's lying to you. There were two human skeletons, one of them was still wearing a pair of cowboy boots and the other was-"

"Hey hey hey you two, stop trying to scare the poor boy!" Ruby came up from behind and pushed the two 'girls' away from Eric, who now looked thoroughly green. "Don't listen to them, honey. It's just a big rock the girls and their cousin and uncle like to go repelling from. They've got several crampons set permanently in the stone and Richard double checks them every year before letting the girls go climbing, so it's perfectly safe as long as you're careful." She glared at her two children who stood back pouting like she had broken their favorite toy. "And just for THAT, you two are taking the flat bottom tomorrow."

"No!"

"Mom!"

"Ruby, I don't think-" Richard started, but his sister cut him off with a sharp look she normally reserved for her children, the distraction in her attention giving Kayla a chance to whisper something in Cassie's ear, causing his face to light up.

"But mom," Kayla started in a pathetic whine, "we're just girls, you can't expect US to do that!"

"Yeah, why can't the boys do it, they're stronger than we are!" Cassie followed his sister's lead, even going so far as to give Jobe a pathetic look asking for help.

"They'd have no trouble doing it!" Kayla said, and out of the corner of her eye caught both Jobe and David puffing up at the praise of their masculinity.

Then David stepped right into it. "We don't mind, Miss Wessler, really!" Jobe caught on to what was happening, but David continued on before he could stop him. "We'll do it, you don't have to make the girls!"

Ruby sighed. "Alright," she cast a look at her two 'daughters' that told them in no uncertain terms that they had won the battle but the war was far from over. Then she smiled an evil smile. "If you two really want to carry the flat bottom through the woods and let the girls have your canoe, I can't stop you."

"Wait, what?" Jobe smacked David upside the back of his head for at least the third time that day, making Cassie wonder if the two really were friends or not.

"You just volunteered to carry the boat. It can't make it over some of the rougher water ahead very easily, at least not loaded down like it is without losing a lot of our things, so it has to be hauled down the trails to the end of the rapids. Usually either me or Jobe and Richard do it, but since you were so kind..."

The look of horror growing across David's face was, Cassie later decided, even better than the one on Eric's face when she had told him the story about the dead body. The big difference was that what her mom was saying was true.

"That's enough rest. Back to the boats!" Cassie climbed in front while Richard shoved their canoe in the water, and soon they were off again for the last leg of the day.

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10.

"Whoo, I'm bushed." Cassie stretched as far as he could before standing up from the camp fire. "I'll see everybody again in the morning."

"Good night, sweetie."

"'Night Cassie."

"Yeah." He yawned noisily before shuffling sorely the few feet back from the fire to his tent, where Kayla was already laying down reading. "Do you always go to bed early when we're on these trips?"

"I learned a couple of years back that I feel better in the mornings if I go to bed a bit early. Since there isn't much to do after sundown when we're out in the woods until we get to the cabin except talk, and that's mostly what we do when we're at the cabin too, I just figure I might as well make the canoeing part as easy on myself as I can." She marked her place in her book before turning back to watch Cassie finish changing. "Though there is one thing I'd like to talk to you about tonight, if that's okay."

He was tired, but knew what she probably wanted to talk about. Oh well, he thought, might as well get it over with. "Sure." He crawled under the covers himself, rolling over to face his sister. "Shoot."

"How do you feel about being a girl?"

He sighed. "I'm not really a girl, Kayla. You know that."

"Might as well be. You know Mom isn't treating you any different than she does me."

"I know. I dunno, it's weird. I'm a boy, but here I am with tits and a, uh- looking like a girl. Since Mom told me that I'd be spending the entire trip as a girl with this stuff stuck on me I'd been really nervous, but it's actually been kinda anticlimactic. Like, it's actually easier to deal with NOT being able to take the boobs off, you know?"

"Yup. I've never been able to take mine off."

"Oh, har de har har." He slapped her playfully on the shoulder. "Seriously. You try being a boy who has to pretend to be a girl for the summer."

She seemed lost in thought for a moment. "Maybe that's your problem."

"And how do you figure that?" He was curious about what she might have in mind, while also being nervous that he would not like what she might have to say.

"You're pretending to be a girl. Maybe, instead of thinking 'I'm a boy pretending to be a girl for the summer', you should just be thinking 'I'm a girl for the summer.' You know?"

He pondered what she had said. "I think so. Like, don't be a boy dressed as a girl, just, like, be a girl? I dunno, does it work that way? I think therefore I am?"

"Sounds good to me." Kayla yawned sleepily, her eyes drooping. "I think, therefore I'm a yam." She giggled. "Good night, sis."

"Good night Kayla." He gave his sister a hug, but instead of going right to sleep decided he needed to think through what she had said a bit more.

'I think, therefore I am. A girl? Hi, I'm Caleb Wessler, I'm sixteen years old, and I'm a boy." He breathed a heavy sigh, and braced himself for discomfort. 'Hi. I'm Cassandra Deanne Wessler. I'm sixteen years old, and I'm a girl. You can call me Cassie.' Not too bad, he thought, just a little more work and it might just work. 'Hi, I'm Cassie Wessler, I'm sixteen years old, and I'm a girl.'

'Hi, I'm Cassie Wessler.'

'I'm a girl.'

'I'm sixteen years old.'

'I'm a girl.'

'Cassie is a girl.'

'I'm Cassie.'

'I'm a girl.'

'I'm a girl.'

'I'm a girl.'

'I think I can handle this,' he thought as he- no, 'she,' fell asleep, repeating her mantra over and over, trying to believe it.

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Notes: Unedited, unproofed, untested. This is the first ten 'chapters' of the massive story I began for the Summer Romance contest. Thoughts? Editing ideas? Fleas? All are welcome. *scratch scratch scratch*

Boys of Summer 11-15

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 7,500 < Novelette < 17,500 words

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing
  • Adventure
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Contests, Deals, Bets or Dares
  • Sisters
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Identity Crisis

TG Elements: 

  • Appliances Attached

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Boys of Summer 11-15

Melanie E.

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One summer never ends,
One summer never begins,
It keeps me standing still,
It takes all my will,
Then suddenly, last summer,
Then suddenly, last summer...

The Motels- Suddenly Last Summer

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11.

Cassie squeezed his eyes shut against the bright sunlight streaming in through the open tent flaps.

'No. I'm a girl for the summer. Might as well get used to it.' He... She gently rubbed the sleep from her eyes, listening to the sound of the birds chirping in the trees outside, along with a soft 'pat pat pat' along the roof of the tent. Rain? He, 'drat, think GIRL!' She sat up and reluctantly opened her eyes to see that the sun was not near as bright as she had first thought. "Kayla, can you PLEASE take that flashlight away from my face?"

"And a good morning to you, too! At least it wasn't the fog horn again."

"Yeah, yeah. Is it raining?"

Kayla turned the light off, sending the room into a state of shadowy near-darkness. "You just now noticed? It was thundering pretty good last night about three. Uncle's been listening to the National Weather Service on the emergency radio, seems a line of storms moved in more quickly than they were expecting. It's not really supposed to set in until tonight, when we should already be at the cabin, but we're gonna be pretty well soaked today all day." She pulled the top sleeping bag away from Cassie before she could react and grab it, and started folding it to put away. "Did you pack anything for rain or are we gonna have to dig it out of the boat?"

"Oh, nooo!" Cassie whined, remembering too late that her rain jacket was stuffed in with her clothes for the cabin. "I should have grabbed it when I got my sunglasses out!"

"Well, it just so happens..." Kayla whipped a bright pink jacket from her bag and presented it smugly to Cassie. "Voila!"

"Uh," Cassie took the offensively girly piece of clothing from her sister with a look of disgust. "What's this?"

"Your rain jacket! Mom pulled it last night and gave it to me this morning when I came out to give you." She giggled happily.

"I don't remember it being this... pink, before." It was a sturdy rain jacket, and she recognized it as her sister's old one that had been replaced just this year. It was in much better shape than her own military-green monstrosity, which in the past two years had did less to keep her dry and more just managed to keep her uncomfortably damp but not soaked.

Kayla frowned at her, looking slightly disappointed. "Well, I thought you'd appreciate it, but if you want I can see if mom has your old one stored away."

No, no, that's okay, I do appreciate it, really!" Now feeling very guilty, she took the rain jacket and held it tightly. "I just wasn't expecting it, is all. I'm still getting used to all this, Kayla."

Kayla hugged her sister comfortingly. "I know. Just wait, next year you'll get a new one since I got it this year." She giggled for a moment before continuing. "Look at it this way, it's less embarrassing wearing it since you're a girl than if you were still Caleb!"

"That's for sure!" Cassie had to giggle along with her big sister as they changed into the cargo shorts and thin long sleeved tops Kayla had brought back for the wet weather. Cassie was tempted to skip the sports bra in the stack of clothing her sister handed her, but recalling trying that the day after they had first attached the breast forms changed her mind.

"Good girl."

"Shut up, Kayla."

Breakfast that morning consisted of granola bars and water since nobody had thought of covering the wood or fire the night before to prevent the rain from soaking through, and all the campers were feeling less than chipper as they completed packing up the last of the camp. That day's boat assignments were Kayla and Cassie, Ruby and Eric, and Richard and Emily, with a less than happy Jobe and David bringing up the rear in the flat bottomed boat, now sporting a large blue tarp wrapping and covering the more water-sensitive cargo.

Richard stood up in his canoe, rocking it violently and causing Emily to squeak as she gripped the sides fearfully. "Okay, people, last leg of the trip! We got about six more hours to go, give it eight for the rain and maybe a bit more if it picks up a lot. Jobe, you two will be pulling off in about an hour, you know the spot where we usually stop? Good. We'll meet up with you at the normal spot, and the last two hours or so we'll all be together as a group again. Oh, one more thing." And with that, he placed his right foot on the side of the canoe and tipped it over sideways, spilling him and Emily both into the water before the teenage girl had a chance to scream.

"Hey, no fair!" Cassie called as she laughed, watching her uncle stand up in the knee-high water and right the canoe before lifting a thoroughly soaked and unhappy Emily back into her seat, then climb carefully in himself, watchful not to tip it over again.

"Why did you do that!" Emily screamed and slapped Richard across the face, who was luckily in too good a mood to even care.

"We get the shower first when we get to the cabin now! Oh, yeah, ouch!" Rather than do anything that would cause problems, Richard picked up his paddle and started the procession. It was an old family rule- first team to get dumped in the water gets the first showers since they were more than likely the most miserable. Cassie and Kayla usually won the honor some time during that very last day, being the youngest and least experienced with their canoe, but once in a while either their uncle or cousin would 'cheat' to get it, the downside being that you would also have to be the ones to prime the well pump, something Cassie never liked having to do.

"Come on, lil' sis," Kayla whispered in her ear, "let's show them we don't need the showers first by making it all the way down to the cabin without flipping this year!" Kayla's hand appeared over Cassie's shoulder, and she quickly reached up and squeezed it to agree with her sister.

"Let's do this!" The two set off as quickly as their paddles would take them, closing the distance between their canoe and that of their uncle in record time before surpassing him. Cassie was delighted to realize just how large of a disadvantage her uncle was at having Emily in his canoe- like with the boys, she was refusing to help paddle, and instead sat with her arms crossed and a put-upon pout on her face, playing the 'spoiled princess' role to the hilt.

"Geez, she doesn't have a fun bone in her body, does she?" By now they were well ahead of the others, and Kayla wanted to talk. "Not like her little brother, huh?"

"What? Oh, come on, Kayla, not THIS again."

"Oh hohoh, yes! Did you know that the entire time we were canoeing together yesterday all he talked about was you? 'Cassie this' and 'Cassie that.' It was kind of sweet really."

"Really?" Cassie frowned, not sure if she liked the idea of a boy liking her.

"Really, really. Does that weird you out?"

Cassie paddled on in thought. "Yeah, a bit. Don't you feel weird about it? A boy liking me?"

"Hmm." Kayla laughed. "Not really."

"Why not?" The river was getting rough up ahead, and Cassie wanted to finish the conversation before they had to stop just so they could keep their concentration on the river.

"Because I already know at least one guy at school who likes you too, and I guess talking to him desensitized me to the idea."

"WHAT!" Cassie stopped paddling and jerked around, nearly turning their canoe over. "Who? He's gay, right?"

Kayla laughed again, a sound Cassie was starting to dislike. "Nope. Okay, he's bi. What, it never struck you that even as a guy you're a little hottie? You DO take after me and mom, you know."

"Oh, so now I look like a girl even as a guy?"

"No, not particularly. I mean, he knows you're a guy, but a lot of the girls at school think you're cute too, something in the water or something."

"Shut up."

"Yes ma'am." Now the hard part of the trip was just starting, and as they tackled the first big set of rapids, the sky opened up above them. The storm had arrived early.

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12.

"This sucks."

"Tell me about it." Kayla grimaced as she tried to force the canoe a little higher above her head. The rain had begun to come down in sheets, preventing any of the campers from seeing far ahead, and when they had reached the stop for Jobe and David to pull off and carry the boat their Uncle Richard had concluded that it would be safer for everyone to stick together and take the journey on foot. That had been an hour ago, and Kayla and Cassie were both feeling the toll of two days of paddling combined with the weight of the wood canoe.

"Alright, let's take another break, then we'll switch shifts." Richard dropped his canoe unceremoniously beneath one of the dryer clusters of trees surrounding them on the rough trail through the forest, marked out years ago on one of their first canoe trips. "You boys doing okay so far?"

Jobe wheezed towards his father in response, rain dripping from the hood of his jacket.

"Well, the girls can take the next shift, can't you Cassie?"

His saying her name not having registered at first, Cassie's sigh of relief as she sat her canoe down quickly turned to a whine of panic. "Who? What? US! But Uncle Richard!"

"Hahah! Have fun, girls!" David slapped her roughly on the back, toppling her into her sister. "Oops! Sorry!" He turned towards Jobe, who was staring daggers at him yet again. "Hey, man, I didn't mean to!"

"They're just girls, man, you can't be rough with them like that. What's gotten into you lately?"

"Hey, waiddaminute here!" Cassie stood up angrily. "Are you saying I'm weak or something?" Jobe cowered back slightly under her steely gaze. "What, just 'cause I wear a bra all of a sudden I can't stand up for myself?"

"Cassie, come on, I didn't mean it like that-"

"Yes you did!" Now both Jobe and David were wearing similar penitent expressions, one afraid of the teen ball of fury in front of him, the other afraid of what the first would do should he say anything. "God, Jobe, you're such a..." Cassie stopped herself, shocked by what she was about to say.

Seeing her expression change suddenly from insulted anger to one of confusion, Jobe risked a "What?"

Her expression hardened again, showing no more of her confused and disturbed feelings. "You're such a boy," she finished lamely, before plopping back down next to her sister.

"Well, yeah?" Jobe gave her one of his patent sideways grins. "I kinda noticed."

"IF you two are DONE," Ruby interrupted the escalating battle with a hard stare at each of the two teens. "Now, I think I've had enough of all this fighting! Cassie, stop being such a little snot towards your cousin. And Jobe, I expected Cassie and Kayla to do this kind of thing to each other, but you? Now, I know you were just trying to help, but Cassie isn't a little kid any more, she's a young woman and you need to respect her." While her words were aimed at Jobe, Cassie could feel her mom's eyes boring into her, driving the reason behind her own punishment home.

For her part, Cassie was in no state to argue with her mom, too upset by what she had been thinking to truly worry about the reprimand. 'Did I really just SAY that? I guess I really am learning something from all this- hopefully nothing that gets me beat up.'

It was less than a quarter hour later that Richard called for the group to pick up their boats and head out, and with some reluctance Cassie abandoned her canoe and took up the right hand rope attached to the nose of the flat bottomed boat. A gentle tap on her shoulder drew her attention away from the upcoming misery of dragging the large weight down the trail and towards Eric, who was standing behind her self-consciously staring at his feet.

It was hard to hear his mumbling through the rain, but Cassie could just make out Eric's words. "I can take your shift pulling the boat if you want."

"Really?" Cassie asked him, disbelieving of the offer.

Eric smiled slightly, lifting his eyes to her face for just a brief moment before turning his attention back to his feet. "Yeah, I don't mind, really."

Cassie, in another fit of impulse, leaned forwards and gave the young man before her a small hug. "Thanks, but I don't think Uncle Richard OR my mom would like it if I let you do that. Besides," she laughed, "you'll get your chance to pull this thing all too soon, believe me." She watched him as he blushed and turned away to rejoin her mom, who gave her an odd look, at their own canoe before returning to the flat bottomed boat.

"I told you he liked you, didn't I?" Kayla poked her in the side when she drew within range, and they both began the long walk to the next rest stop, trying and for the most part failing to ignore the rain that had by now thoroughly drenched everything around them.

"Kayla, stop it, please?"

"What, I'm just sayin' is all." Kayla laughed at the obvious discomfort of her 'little sister' with the idea of a boy having a crush on her. "Best get used to it lil' sis, this is the kind of thing sisters do." A particularly stubborn root caused the two to have to devote their energy towards getting the boat 'up and over', effectively braking the conversation while they concentrated on the path ahead, searching for more possible pitfalls.

After making sure the trail was more or less clear of further obstacles, Cassie turned to her sister. "How do you know about what sisters do anyways?"

"Friends, talk shows, and the Lifetime channel," Kayla answered snottily, causing both girls to snort and cackle.

"Yeah, next thing I know you'll have me painting your toenails while we discuss our favorite brands of lip gloss or something."

"Hah! Not likely! Emily might want to get in on something like that, and I don't know if I could handle that conversation with you in any case." Kayla reached over and gave Cassie a pat on the head. "But if you wanna do pedicures, I've got this really gross sore on my heel where I stepped on a broken shell yesterday that-"

"Eww, Kayla, that's disgusting! I don't want to hear this!"

"Well, if you're sure..."

"YES!"

Kayla laughed again, and continued to laugh as they made their way down the trail a steady distance behind the others, talking all the way.

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13.

Having decided on holding off on any large meals until they were safely ensconced within the cabin, the campers settled on small periodic snacks of granola bars and water to tide them over while they made their way through the vertical river of rain, only growing worse the further they moved, sticking to the river as best they could to keep from losing their direction.

Teams hauling the flat bottom boat were swapping out in roughly half hour shifts, and by Cassie’s best estimate they had been moving on foot for about four hours. Everybody was wet and miserable, with no end in near sight as the worsening weather caused more and more delays in getting to the cabin. Cassie hoped they would be in before nightfall, but with how dark the sky was staying thanks to the unexpected storm she had a strong suspicion that they would most likely be stubbing their toes in the shadows long before they ever saw their goal.

“Okay folks, let’s take another rest.” Her uncle dropped the cord where he had been taking his own shift hauling the flat bottom monstrosity through the thickening mud and compost of the forest trail they were traveling on. Of everyone on the camping trip Cassie knew her uncle was both the hardiest and most experienced camper there, and with how storm battered and drained he was beginning to look she loathed catching sight of her own reflection. “Ruby and Eric, your shift is up next. Think you can handle it?” Cassie saw both her mother and Eric nod exhausted assent to her uncle.

Even with having to lug so many heavy objects through the woods Cassie was happy. She loved rain, she loved these woods, and she loved the cabin that was waiting their return at the end of the journey. She could just imagine arriving and beginning the unpacking of the food her uncle and cousin had already dropped off. It was not uncommon for her uncle to take his truck up to the cabin a few days early with plenty of food and other things they would need for such a long stay. He had an ancient freezer he could load into the back of his truck, an old ice- block type that he used to haul the food out and store it in until they arrived. The truck would stay at the cabin in case of an emergency, and from what both he and their cousin Jobe had explained to her he would take those first couple of days to really ‘rough it’ before the rest of their entourage, Jobe included, even set out for the meeting spot.

She reflected on that for a moment, and her uncle’s tiredness suddenly took on a whole new dimension. She thought she was tired? He had been out in the woods for close to three days before coming back to the meeting spot for them! Now that Jobe was old enough to drive on his own he would not even have had a reason to return since dropping off their supplies, would he? And she knew that besides testing it to make sure it would run, he NEVER turned the generator or the well pump on before they arrived, preferring to get the itch for ‘solitude and simplicity’ out of his system while it could not hurt anyone else.

"Not much further now people, another hour or two and we should be there." Her uncle turned around and grinned at the group from under the poncho he preferred over the others' more conventional rain jackets.

"How?" Kayla was the quickest out with the question that was on the faces of those in their group who knew how much time the trip normally took. "We can't be going faster than we do in the water, and with all this rain..."

"Hehehe, you never noticed, did you? We left the river about two hours back, where it takes a big bend. You kids' Aunt Mandy got me this," their uncle held up a small computer with a bright digital screen wrapped in plastic for the group to see, "for Christmas this year. It's some kind of GPS device that shows a map of where you're at. I knew the river took a bend, but I never felt comfortable with the idea of leaving it before because frankly I'm shit with a compass." He chuckled again at that while Ruby berated him mildly about language in front of the children. "Anyways, I used it on my way up to meet you all and found out it allowed me to cut a good three hours off the normal trip following the river, so I went ahead and marked it in the little computer thing. If I had been taking the flat bottom today I was gonna use it and surprise you all by skipping the normal meeting spot like I usually do anyways and going overland ahead to steal the first shower. Since Jobe and David got themselves the honor of taking the da- stupid thing instead," he gave his younger sister a sheepish grin, "I was just gonna save it, but when the weather made us leave the river I figured why not get us out of this as soon as possible." He stopped talking and instead prepared to bask in the praise from the others.

Cassie was not the first to shout in happiness, and when her sister gave her a hug and started jumping up and down she was more than happy to join in. Early showers! Sitting around the fireplace nursing a cup of cocoa and watching the rain would beat carrying a canoe through it any day.

"Well, what're we waiting for?" Eric ran to the boat and grabbed one of the ropes, attempting to move it on his own across the muddy ground. "Let's get going?"

"Right!" Ruby rushed to his side and grabbed her own rope. "First ones there get the first showers!"

"Hey, I stole those cheap and square!" Richard took off after the quickly moving pair, who were just beginning to realize that without his 'little computer thing' they had no hope of finding their way to the cabin regardless. "Hah! Forgot something, din'cha?" He waved the small yellow and black box around a bit to the scowls of the dissenters.

"Come on, less talk more cabin!" Cassie pushed him with the nose of her canoe, and soon the group was off again, heading quickly for warm food and dry clothes.

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14.

Cassie's eyes grew wide as she lifted her canoe over the last line of scrub bushes and into the meticulously well kept clearing where the cabin sat. A collective sigh of relief rose from those around her as her uncle led the way to the canoe rack while Jobe and David pulled the flat bottom boat towards the riverside doors of the cabin for unloading.

"Well, we're here."

At first glance, the cabin was an unimpressive site to behold. Lying squat and- at the moment- dark through the veil or rain, the weather worn pine paneling on the outside gave the impression of a rundown, shabby hunter's retreat. Cassie, however, knew that the inside was quite different, with cedar paneling, a warm stone fireplace for chilly nights and s'mores, two large well ventilated bedrooms and a full working bathroom once the well was primed and ready. They even had a generator that Uncle Richard had paid to update to solar powered three summers ago, providing them with enough electricity for lights and a few other conveniences, though it looked like they would be using the backup gas generator for a while to start. Cassie could see Uncle Richard's enormous green truck peeking out around the far edge of the cabin, where it would stay unless they needed a quick way into town for emergencies or wished to risk the two hour drive to the nearest gas station slash pizza place slash Seven Eleven.

"Bathrooms!" Emily screeched and dropped the end of her canoe, racing into the cabin and leaving Richard in a shaky position as he tried to fight the sudden shift in balance.

"Hey, we need to finish up out here first!"

A loud "Fuck you!" was all the response Emily gave as she grabbed for the handle of the door and twisted it- only to find it locked. "Dammit!"

"Hey hey hey, watch the language! You may not be one of my daughters but that won't stop me from punishing that kind of behavior!" Ruby waited until Eric gave her the 'all clear' before lowering the end of her own canoe and stomping off towards the angry teenager now screaming and pulling at her hair. "Now you get back here and help us unpack, or so help me..."

It did not take long for Jobe to pull the key from around his neck and unlock the door of the cabin, letting fresh air in and allowing everyone to start carrying in their share of the packing while Richard dragged Emily off towards the pump house. She was in an awful foul mood after being denied her princess act yet again, and Cassie knew Emily would have to either get her act together and join in to help everyone else or keep it up and ruin her own fun. Cassie was determined not to let it get to her, though, and vowed to enjoy this trip even if it killed her.

"Need help with that?" Michael approached her with a swagger that, while she was sure it was meant to look sexy, only made her a little more sick of his arrogance.

"No thanks. I got it." She hefted the case of clothes she was carrying up a little bit higher to prove it.

"Come on, let me have it." Michael grabbed the handle and pulled, yanking the- admittedly- slightly too heavy case from her hands before marching into the cabin ahead of her.

"Hey! What an-"

"Asshole!" Kayla finished for her, not even flinching at the angry look from her mom for her use of filthy language. "Here sis," she said, handing Cassie the two smaller cases she had brought up, "let me handle this."

Cassie held back a bit and was glad she had when a resounding 'smack' rang out from inside the cabin, followed by Kayla's voice screaming at such a pitch and intensity that Cassie was glad she could not make out the words. Michael ran out of the cabin with his hands over his ears and a red welt on his face that seemed to glow in the stormy twilight. She glanced at her mom, but Ruby seemed in no hurry to get involved in the battle between her eldest daughter and their guest for the next two weeks.

At last the well was primed and ready, the bags and boxes were inside, and Richard had the generator started up and running on some of the emergency fuel for starting and dark days like today. A warm fire was set, Emily was locked in the bathroom with the shower running despite the fact the water had to be freezing, and the other campers were all gathered around the fireplace trying to dry some before starting the next stage of unpacking. Almost unconsciously the group seemed to have split, the girls on one side of the room with the guys occupying the other, filling the floor space instead of running the risk of soaking the three old couches which had obviously seen better days, lest they collapse under the weight of the very damp and very tired group. All were silent, resting for a moment before the arduous task of pulling everything out of the packs and bags around them.

It was a much more relaxed group who responded to Ruby's question, "So, what's it gonna be for dinner?"

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15.

Cassie found hanging around her older sister to be a lot more fun than she would have anticipated before the trip. The longer she was around her, the better they seemed to get along, so when Kayla volunteered for unpacking in the 'girl's room' after dinner, she gladly followed her lead.

"Thanks for the help lil' sis."

"No problem 'big sis." They laughed for a moment before continuing their unpacking, making sure to take the same bunk bed. Cassie cleared her throat before continuing. "Uh, sis? Will it be okay? Me staying in here?"

"Yeah, sure, why not?" Kayla gave her a searching look before the light came on over her head. "Oh! Because?" She gestured at her crotch, making Cassie blush.

"Yeah, obviously. I've never slept in the same room with a girl before." Kayla gave her another look that said 'oh, really'? "Well, besides you." That seemed to satisfy her. "Do you think it will be a problem?"

Kayla paused in making up the top bunk and turned to Cassie. "Pull your shorts down," she ordered.

"No!"

"Come on!" Kayla reached forwards and gave a sharp tug, bringing the nylon track shorts Cassie had donned after her shower to the floor along with her panties.

"Kayla!"

"Well, what? It's nothing I've never seen before." Cassie glanced down at her smooth crotch before jerking her shorts and panties up tightly. "Whatever that glue thing Mom and you used did, it definitely makes you look like a girl even naked."

"But Kayla, she doesn't know! You and Mom do, and you're related to me, but that Emily girl-"

"Will never EVER know, Cassie, unless you give yourself away. How long did Mom say that glue would last?"

Cassie rolled her eyes. "Two weeks."

Kayla nodded. "And when did she glue it on?"

"The day we headed out."

"Yup! That gives you another... ten or eleven days before you need to worry about it, and by that time she won't see anything but a girl even if you do act a little butch now."

Cassie got nervous. "Have I been acting too boyish?" She bit her lip anxiously, causing Kayla to laugh again.

"Nope, not in the slightest! Keep it up, nothing will happen." Cassie let out a deep sigh of relief, releasing the breath she had not known she had been holding.

"Phew! Okay." It was only a few minutes more and they had the room finished, with all four bunks made up and their own clothes as well as their mother's unpacked and in the drawers, Emily's bags waiting for her on her bed- neither wanted to risk another drama attack if they messed with her things.

By the time everyone was completely unpacked and settled, the sound of the rain continuing to fall was enough to draw out universal yawns of exhaustion. Without further conversation the family and guests moved as one to their respective beds and called it an early night. Tomorrow was another relaxing day, with the canoeing behind them unless they chose to do it and no set plans for the next two weeks.

Cassie climbed the ladder to the top bunk while Kayla crawled into her own bunk directly below. Emily had huffed a bit about having to unpack her own things before setting her cases on the floor and crawling into the opposite top bunk without any more complaints. Cassie felt odd sleeping in nothing but her panties and a tank with her in the room- she felt odd sleeping in panties in a tank anyways, she forced herself to remember- but by now it was too late to worry about it, and if Kayla was right it would not matter in the slightest what she wore so long as she acted appropriately.

"G'nite girls," Ruby called as she waltzed in wearing her extra large sleep shirt and shut the lights off.

"'Nite Mom."

"G'nite Mom."

"Good night Miss Wessler."

Cassie listened to her mother's breathing, and the slight snoring of Emily, as she slowly drifted off to sleep herself, filled with dreams of climbing rocks, swimming, and running through the woods with her family.

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Sorry for the delay between posts- gotta wait on access to the internet on an actual computer 'fore I can post these things.

Anyone interested in either volunteering as an editor/testreader/poster or who just has any recommendations or ideas, just PM me and we can set somethin' up!

Melanie E.

Boys of Summer 16-20

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 17,500 < Novella < 40,000 words

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

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  • Posted by author(s)

Summer days,
Wasted away,
But Oh,
On those summer nights!

Olivia Newton-John and John Travolta- Summer Days

Boys of Summer chapters 16-20

Yet again, these are unedited and untested. Any mistakes, well, smack me around a bit, I'll learn eventually!

Melanie Ezell

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16.

Cassie expected to awake bright and early to see the sun shining through the window at the foot of the bunk beds. Either that, or late and comfortable while the rain continued to beat down around them with the smell of Uncle Richard's special rainy day sausages drawing her towards the kitchenette. What she did wake to, however, was completely unexpected.

"Yo, I'll tell ya what I want, what I really really want,
So tell me what you want, what you really really want,
I wanna HEY,
I wanna HEY,
I wanna HEY,
I wanna HEY,
I wanna really really really wanna zig a zig, ah."

A squeaky exclamation came from the top bunk immediately opposite her followed by a lot of thumping and whining before the Spice Girls went quiet again. She could tell by the sounds now coming from below that she was not the only one to be waked early.

"What the hell?"

"Sorry!" Emily squeaked from her bunk. "I thought the headphones were in, I'm so sorry!" This was a different side to the girl than what Cassie had seen before, and she could not help thinking it was a shame it took something embarrassing to get the girl not to sound like a little brat.

A chuckle from below confirmed that Kayla felt similarly. "Z'okay. Put 'em in. Need sleep." The bed lurched as Kayla rolled over, and a quick glance towards the window confirmed to Cassie that it was either still dark out, or the storm had worsened. A bright flash of lightening illuminated the room for a moment, proving the storm was growing, but not helping to identify the time. With a sigh, Cassie rolled over herself and pulled the sheet tighter around her to try and catch another hour or two of rest, maybe.

It could not have been more than fifteen minutes later that Cassie felt more than heard movement from Emily's bed, followed by the creak of the door being quietly opened and closed again. Another fifteen minutes without Emily's return caused Cassie to worry; surely if she was in the restroom she would be back by now? Crawling carefully from her on bunk so as not to disturb her older sister, who from her breathing had at last fallen asleep again, Cassie left the bedroom as quietly as possible.

She found Emily curled up on the more reliable of the two couches, holding a small square of light in front of her and oblivious to the world. The headphones were off again, and Cassie could clearly hear the sounds of people talking coming from Emily's direction. Moving closer as quietly as possible, she soon started to be able to make out what was being said. She laughed when she recognized Robin William's voice, causing Emily to jerk around sharply in surprise.

"Why are you up? I thought ya'll had gone back to bed."

Cassie shrugged as she approached the other girl. "Eh, couldn't sleep, and when you didn't come back I got worried and came to check on you."

"Oh." Emily glanced away, and in the dim light from the screen appeared much younger than she had before. "I'm okay."

The two paused in silence, unsure of how to continue. At last, Cassie decided to break the tension. "So, what're you watching?"

Emily breathed in heavily, reluctant to respond. "You ever seen 'The Adventures of Baron Munchhausen?'"

Cassie chuckled a bit at the name. "Uh, no."

"Well, it's pretty stupid but I watch it sometimes when I can't sleep." By this time Cassie was close enough to make out the images on the small screen Emily was holding. Emily pulled herself up on the couch and made room beside her, and in an unexpected act of friendship asked Cassie, "You wanna watch it with me?"

"Sure." Cassie settled on the ancient piece of discount furniture next to the girl she had previously seen as snobbish, and wondered what could have brought around such a change. The movie was fascinating in a very confusing and juvenile way, but she shortly lost interest and decided instead to try and draw Emily into a conversation.

"Are you better now?"

"What do you mean?"

"You seemed like you didn't want to be here. If you didn't want to come, then why did you?"

A hard look passed over the other girl's face, but quickly softened. Emily shrugged. "Jobe invited my brothers, and my mom and dad thought this would be a good experience for me. They ran off to Europe or something while I'm out here stuck with those two dummies, a guy who's had a crush on me since sixth grade and a lot of people I don't know." Her voice rose in pitch and volume as well as anger as she progressed, but she caught herself and cast an apologetic look in Cassie's direction. "I'm sorry. I was supposed to be in Band Camp next week, too, and instead here I am, and so far I've just been miserable."

Cassie felt compelled to be kind to the girl beside her, and seeing a chance to share a bit of family wisdom took it. "Well, you know, it's a lot of fun out here if you just try to make it."

Emily paused the movie still playing on her iPod and let out a huff. "Fun? How?"

Cassie grinned. "There's swimming and hiking and canoeing, fishing..."

"But I'm not interested in any of that," Emily pouted, letting a little bit of the 'spoiled brat' routine creep back into her demeanor.

"Okay, how about spending the time getting a suntan?" Emily shot her a look that said quite clearly 'you must be joking.' "Maybe not. Come on, there's lots to do, if you just try! I'll help you find stuff to do inside if you want."

Cassie flinched after making the offer knowing her own plans would be thrown out the window if Emily took her up on it, but the thankful look on the other girl's face told her it was the right thing to do. "Thanks," Emily said, "but I know you don't want to be stuck inside all the trip. You seemed so happy on the way up here just watching the trees..."

"You were watching me?" Emily blushed, and for just a moment Cassie could see a much softer look in the other girl's eyes. Emily shuffled around uncomfortably before settling back down and returning to her movie.

"ANYway, I just need to make those... BOYS know I'm not happy out here. I hope they have as miserable a time as I'm going to."

Cassie patted Emily's shoulder companionably. "Only if you make yourself miserable." Cassie stood up and made her way as carefully as she could back towards the bedroom to catch a couple more hours of sleep and think over exactly what she would have to do to make sure Emily had a good time. Even if the whole spoiled brat thing was the real Emily and she had just been lonely for tonight, nobody deserved to be unhappy.

This is what summer vacation is all about! Cassie thought happily. Having fun, making new friends, and getting away from everything.

She drifted back to sleep with thoughts of all the fun things her and her sister could maybe, just maybe, use to show Emily how fun camping could be.

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17.

"EEEEEEK!!! GetitoffgetitoffgetitOFF!!!"

Cassie was up, out of bed, and in the front room of the cabin before anyone else had time to react, dashing madly for the couch where Emily was shrieking bloody murder.

"EEEEEWWW!!!"

Cassie vaulted over the back of the couch, making it and the floorboards complain loudly, but landed safely on the other side and turned to face the frightened Emily-

Who had a walking stick stuck in her hair.

"Ohit'ssoGROSSgetitoffIdon'twannatouchitPLEASE!" Emily cried, but by the time Cassie could fight back her laughter enough to risk moving Jobe had already burst through his own door and across the room, followed closely by Eric, then everyone else. With a shake of his head, Jobe reached down and carefully removed the, Cassie could not deny, very evil looking but completely harmless insect from the girl's hair.

"Come on, Twiggy, your place is outside."

As soon as the large pest was safely released outside, Emily jumped to her feet. "I TOLD ya'll I didn't want to COME! I HATE IT HERE!" Tears were rolling down her face as she dashed for the door to the room the girls were sharing and slammed it tightly.

"Jeez, she never seen a walking stick before?"

Eric shook his head. "I hadn't either. You think it's still nearby?" Jobe nodded, and escorted the excited younger boy out to see if they could find it again. Cassie harumphed when she saw that nobody else seemed concerned about Emily's situation, and made her way to the door, knocking lightly.

"Go away! I want out of this cabin!"

"Please let me in, Emily. It was just a walking stick! They get in the cabin sometimes when we aren't here for some reason, but they're completely harmless! Just weird looking."

"I don't care! It's hot out here, there's bugs everywhere, I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE!"

Cassie had had enough of this. "Well, TOUGH! Like it or not, you're here for the duration, just like the rest of us. If you don't want to enjoy yourself, FINE, but so help me I'm gonna MAKE you get out here and do some things with us as a group!"

"And we'll help her drag you out if we have to!" Ruby was by her side now, knocking on the door too. "Let us in, girl, or there won't be a door left to lock by the time we're through with things!" Cassie cringed at the threat, but that was why her Uncle had all the doors switched to open towards the living room- one camper locking themselves in their bunkroom throwing a fit had convinced him THAT was a good idea, and the pins were easily removable. "Don't make me come in there!"

A sniffling and red-eyed Emily opened the door for them, still sobbing and crying. Cassie decided this was probably a situation that called for a hug if she had ever seen one, and quickly wrapped her arms around Emily in a tight embrace. "Hey, come on, we want you to have fun. I'm sorry you don't want to be here, but you just gotta try to find something you like is all." Knowing this might be a limited chance, she gestured over her shoulder quickly for Kayla to dash into the room, preventing Emily from being able to shut them out again if she got upset. Ruby stared at her youngest with a strange look in her eye, the same as the last time. Cassie wondered what was with the looks her mom was giving her, but at the moment Emily needed to calm down.

"I hate woods... I hate camping... I hate canoes..."

"Then don't think of this as a camping trip!" Ruby approached from behind Emily and joined Cassie in the hug, wrapping Emily snugly between them. "Think of it as- summer camp, or a spa retreat with no hot springs or something."

"The hot tub gets delivered next week."

"That's right, so next- what?" Ruby lifted her head and turned to Richard, who had a smug grin on his face.

"Just kidding."

"Richard!"

His joke was enough to break the tension within the room, and everybody laughed far more than the joke was worth. They were interrupted by a knocking about from the boys' room, followed by a small crash and a bleary eyed and wild haired David stumbling out of the doorway. With a mumble that could have passed for 'Morning' in an optimistic situation, he hooked around the corner and into the bathroom.

A loud "Cool!" broke in from outside, followed by some muffled discussion between Jobe and Eric, who it seemed had found their walking stick.

Cassie looked down into Emily's face. "You better now?" The other girl nodded a little and gave Cassie a squeeze before extracting herself from Cassie and Ruby's grips.

"Yeah. Sorry, ya'll." She wiped a hand across her cheek to dry her face. "I'll try to be more positive."

Ruby and Richard both opened their mouths to say 'it's alright' but were cut off by the sound of the toilet flushing and David exiting the bathroom again.

He looked around in confusion at the group around him, toothbrush in hand. "What'd I miss?"

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18.

Eric and Jobe's Walking Stick Adventure ended the moment Richard announced breakfast ready, and after all members of the group had showered and dressed, it was time for the serious vacation activities to begin.

"So, whadda you wanna do?"

"I dunno, whadda you wanna do?"

"I'm up for anything. You?"

"Sounds cool. Emily?"

"Uh... sure, whatever."

"How about we go swimming?"

None of the others could come up with an activity they wanted to do more than swim, so thanking Eric for his suggestion and completely ignoring the rain that was still falling steadily the others filed out and down to the small dock near the river, promising the adults to head back in the moment either the thunder or lightening returned. On the way Jobe grabbed the flat bottomed boat and dragged it into the water a short distance out into the river, tying it up to the dock before joining the others in some playful splashing and water fights.

Despite constant reinforcement from her sister Cassie was still nervous about wearing nothing but a bikini to swim in, afraid of somehow exposing herself or, possibly worse, exposing her false features for what they were to closer inspection than she really wanted to be receiving. Ruby had finally given in and leant Cassie one of her own one piece suits, and combined with a tiny pair or swim trunks Cassie almost felt comfortable. Canoeing had been one thing, since she could avoid physical contact and, having just met the Monroe's, doubted they would dig into too much about any inconsistencies in her appearance if they looked closely enough to see them- not that there were any, she mused to herself grumpily. The small amount of horseplay they had participated in during several of their breaks over the last three days had already given her a close call when Kayla nearly caught a nail in a loose edge of the fancy rubber gaff/false vagina trying to tug down her shorts. She had kept it hidden well since, but first thing after her shower she had fixed it with the bottle of adhesive they had brought, vowing to be more careful.

The biggest surprise to most of the group was Emily's participation in their activity. After her refusal to so much as speak to anyone for the first few days of the trip, her turnabout pleased Cassie greatly. She even appeared to be taking Jobe's continued attempts at flirting with a better nature, a mixed blessing since it meant their group yet again split roughly into boy-girl pairs. As much as she liked the boy, Eric's affections were lost on her, though she was loathe to admit it to the poor boy. He had loosened up greatly since arriving at the cabin as well, opening up to her and talking nearly nonstop about almost anything that came to mind as far as she could tell, almost as though he was scared to stop.

"Okay okay, slow down!" She finally managed to slip in between breaths while he panted. "We've got two weeks to talk, okay?"

Eric ducked under the water for a second before resurfacing with a blush. "Sorry, I usually don't talk this much, I just... I like talking to you."

"That's cool, but you wanna have things to talk about later, right?" The boy nodded vigorously, spraying Cassie with water she tried pointlessly to block. She smiled. "Then take it easy, and relax!" He got the message, and when David and Jobe challenged him to a few laps across the river and back she shifted around to set herself floating on her back, and without another word tuned the world out.

She mused on the interesting effects of swimming with boobs. Not that they were that big, but they did change her center of balance somewhat even in the water, and she had to constantly remind herself to adjust to compensate. Being rubber, they wanted to float when she was face down, but lying on her back with them thrust above the surface, the weight made her have to arch her back slightly to keep from sinking and raise her neck to keep from snorting water, neither of which came naturally to her. She was still trying to come to grips with this new interplay when something wrapped around her waist and pulled her down into the water below, her scream emptying her lungs of air.

Cassie struggled frantically to get away from the constriction surrounding her, but the more she kicked and fought the more water she swallowed. Finally, after what felt like hours, her flailing landed a solid blow against whatever had grabbed her, and she pulled herself out of the water in a panic, gasping for air.

"Jeezus, Cassie, are you okay?" Cassie spun towards her sister's voice, grasping frantically for her even as she moved in closer. Kayla wrapped her arms around her sister and hugged her, maneuvering her closer to the shore even as the water erupted behind the girls, a shaggy black mane gasping for air.

"Bitch!" David spat as he stood, still clutching his privates where Cassie's foot had found its mark.

"Ass!" Emily swam furiously towards her brother and slapped him soundly across the face before turning her attention to Cassie, who was still choking and on the edge of tears. "Are you alright?" She joined Kayla in embracing the younger girl, all prior animosity from Kayla disappearing the instant she saw how this new girl was watching out for her sister.

Kayla could see Cassie was still in no position to explain, so she took the opportunity to do it for her. "Cassie loves the water, but still has problems sometimes when she gets surprised like that. She almost drowned when she was little 'cause someone did the same thing to her, and her foot got caught on an old piece of rope while under."

"That's horrible!" Emily exclaimed. "What kind of jerk would do such a thing? Besides the obvious one." She shot her older brother a look that could have melted steel. Jobe coughed nervously before raising his hand. He swam towards his cousins, and with Kayla's permission took her position comforting Cassie. She flinched away at first, but when he made no move to dunk her again, she quickly calmed.

"She was only seven, I didn't mean to hurt h-her or nuthin', uh..." Jobe glanced around, refusing to look at David, then deciding he had to. "I should have let ya'll know not to-"

"I'm alright." Cassie cut her cousin off mid-sentence, her voice croaky but finally calm enough to speak. "I overreacted, like always." She lowered her arms from her cousin's neck and put on a brave face, but she was through swimming for the day.

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19.

It was not long after Cassie left the water that the storm returned with a vengeance, sending their small group back indoors until things calmed down. With the air cleared between the girls, Kayla and Emily became fast friends, working hard to pull Cassie into their conversation despite her admitted lack of knowledge on their chosen subject of...

"Boys?"

"Yeah!" Emily exclaimed, hanging over the edge of her bunk. "You know, what kind of guys do you like?"

Cassie balked. "Wh-why are we talking about BOYS? I don't wanna talk about boys!"

"Oh, you're a lesbian?" Emily asked with a strange glint in her eye. "Don't let Eric know, it'll break his heart. And David'll just hit on you even worse." Cassie and Kayla both shivered at that prospect, making Emily laugh. "Come on, he's not that bad, really. He didn't used to be, anyways. The whole thing with the cheerleaders at school kind of threw him for a loop, and he hasn't been the same since."

This was something that Cassie wanted to hear more about. "Yeah, Eric was telling me a bit about that. He said that one of your cheerleaders was a guy who dresses like a girl?"

"Not exactly. Dana's probably at least as much a girl as I am, but she was born a guy. I was kinda mad at her at first 'cause I've wanted on the cheer team like SO BAD since junior high, and now I'll be a senior and still not on the team, but she's a lot better than I am."

"Yeah, that's great and all," Kayla interrupted, "but what's that got to do with Captain Asshole?"

"David used to date the head cheerleader, Lisa Gilbert. She-"

"-why in the hell would she-"

"HEY! Like I said, he was better then. Anyways, he was mouthing off to some of his friends and said some pretty bad things about Dana where she could hear him. Nobody would even TALK to him the rest of the year, and he's just got worse since then. Personally, I think the problem is he thought Dana was hot and didn't want to sound 'gay' or somethin' in front of his friends. So, are you out at school yet?"

Cassie was still trying to absorb the story she had been told, and the sudden change in topic startled her. "Huh? I'm not gay!"

Emily wouldn't let up. "Oh, so you DO like guys then?"

"What? How? Kayla, help!"

Kayla just laughed. "But little sis, you're doing SO well on your own? Why don't you tell her about Avery?"

"Avery's my best friend!" Cassie replied indignantly. "We've never, and will never, date or anything like that!" Cassie's continuing flustered denials fell on deaf ears as the two older girls rolled around on their bunks, laughing.

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20.

"Kids, time for dinner!"

Kayla, along with the improved and much friendlier Emily, hopped up from her position atop her sheets and rushed out to the table, stomachs growling in protest at their having skipped lunch. Cassie followed at a slower pace, nervous about seeing the boys. What would she say to David? Did she want to say anything at all? Nervous, she paused for a moment on her way out the door to listen to the calming sound of the rain beating on the cabin's old tin roof.

"Cassie, you coming?"

"Yes, mom!" With a sigh, she shuffled forwards to her seat at the table, between Kayla and Emily and opposite the boys. Eric grinned at her while Jobe waved, but David kept his eyes focused on his plate and refused to look at any of the other members of the party.

"O-kay!" Richard clapped his hands to draw the group's attention, warming up his announcer's voice. "Tonight, for your dining pleasure, we have- mustard greens!" He gave a wide wave, and Ruby pulled the lid from the first of the dishes before them with a showy gesture, allowing a cloud of steam to escape. "Black eyed peas! Fried okra!" Cassie's mouth was watering now, as the delicious smell of the okra wafted towards her. And lastly- FRIED CATFISH!"

Glazed eyes stared forwards from the faces surrounding the table as the teenagers as one moaned in ecstasy at the smell coming from the collection of dishes before them.

"DIG IN!"

Richard barely finished speaking before hands were diving for the various serving spoons and tongs, moving piles of food from the earthenware crockery to plates before vanishing almost as rapidly into stomachs. It was almost a quarter hour before anything resembling coherent conversation resumed, followed shortly by a collective yawn from the table as a whole.

"Thanks for the great dinner, Uncle Richard."

Richard reclined back in his chair, munching on a piece of fish while unbuttoning his jeans. "Thank your mom, it was her idea."

All the teenagers gave their thanks for the great home cooked meal while Ruby smiled at the group around her. "You're welcome."

"So, what're we gonna do until time for bed?" Eric asked.

"Well, I don't know about ya'll, but I know exactly what I wanna do," Jobe answered, mimicking his father's motions and stretching. "Sleep!"

The more conscious campers agreed with a round of nodding and 'yup' s, and as quickly as the group was gathered together the food was put away, dishes washed, and those who could keep their eyes open helped the sleepier individuals find their way to their beds.

In a way, Cassie was glad the dinner had passed without her having to talk to David beyond the occasional 'pass the peas, please,' or similar sentiment. She still was not sure exactly what to make of the eldest Monroe sibling, but was determined to not let it get her down. After all, look at how much better Emily was after just a little conversation! Maybe, given a few days, her and Kayla could start to work their magic on David too. She winced when it occurred to her just exactly what she was thinking of doing, though.

'If I'm going to be a girl for this trip, well, I guess flirting's part and parcel of the whole package, isn't it?' She crossed her fingers. 'Let's just hope he doesn't find out my secret, the last thing I need is to be medevac'd when he tries to kill me.'

"Hey, lil' sis, you coming?"

"I'm on my way, Kayla, give me a minute!"

"Last one in has to turn out the lights!" Kayla called back, reminding Cassie of the cabin's oldest- and most annoying and painful- rule. Without lights, anyone with a top bunk was almost guaranteed to stub a toe or two before making it into bed.

"Coming, coming." With a final sigh, Cassie swung her way into the room, thumbed the light switch, and with a minimum of fuss and only a handful of 'ow!' s and 'Shoot!' s pulled herself under her covers and fell into dreamland.

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Notes: I'll try to get the next chapters out sooner, but expect Echoes 5 before chapters 21-25 arrive, sorry.

Boys of Summer 21-25

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Contests, Deals, Bets or Dares

TG Elements: 

  • Appliances Attached

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Boys of Summer 21-25

Melanie Ezell

New Kids on the Block got a bunch of hits,
Chinese food makes me sick,
And I think it's fly when girls get fine for the summer,
For the summer,
I like girls who wear Abercrombie and Fitch,
I'd take her if I had one wish,
But she's been gone since that summer,
Since that summer.

LFO- Summer Girls

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21.

Cassie woke up with her alarm clock and rolled out of bed, slipping her feet into fuzzy white bunny slippers before beginning the walk across the floor to the door. She glanced around sleepily at her room, admiring her canopy bed and vanity before heading for the bathroom to take a shower.

As she bathed away her dreariness, she considered what she wanted to do that day. Cheerleading tryouts meant she needed to start practicing her dance steps, and supposedly Eric Idle was going to be teaching biology at her school this year, along with some kind of special herpetology class.

Stepping out of the bathroom, she found the hallway flooded- how annoying!- and she was forced to take her canoe downstairs to breakfast, where her Mom and Dad were already awake and eating green eggs and ham with her Uncle Richard.

“Good morning, sweetie!”

“Morning Dad!”

“Good morning, baby.” Ruby rose from her seat and gave her daughter a hug, then Richard passed her the orange juice.

“A little late getting ready for your date today, aren’t we?”

“Huh? What date?” Cassie asked.

“Well, isn’t Avery picking you up for the dance this morning?”

She had forgot! And after setting up the entire thing with Geri, Melanie and Victoria, too!

“Oh, no! I have to hurry!”

“No need to panic!” Emily crowed as she came around the corner, carrying the most beautiful, shimmering dress Cassie had ever seen, in a scintillating pattern that reminded her of fish scales- with matching shoes! “Come on, he’ll be here any minute!”

Together the two of them dashed about, getting Cassie ready for her big dance, and when they were almost ready Kayla came in to help with her hair and makeup, wearing a black bikini.

At last, Cassie descended the stairs to see Avery in his basketball uniform, with her mom taking pictures as she melted into his arms, and he lowered his lips to hers-

~~~

“NOOOO!!!” Cassie shot up from her bunk before braining herself on a low roof beam. “Oww! Damn you, Kayla!”

The only response she received from the focus of her curses was a grumble followed by a soft snore.

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22.

The weather had managed to clear up a good deal over night, and that morning Cassie decided would be the perfect time to ask her uncle about visiting the Cliff of Death. It didn’t take her long to get cleaned up and ready, and over a breakfast of toast and wild mushrooms she popped the question.

“Uncle Richard?”

“Yumgrnfl.”

Interpreting his mumbling as “yes, what?” She decided to press on. “I was wondering if we could go up to the Cliff today?”

Richard swallowed roughly, pausing before answering. “Well, I suppose I could make time in my busy schedule of relaxing to head up there-“

“Yes!”

“-and make sure everything’s okay for later this week.”

“Aww.” Cassie pouted. “But if it’s ready can’t we go up today and climb?”

Her uncle stifled a laugh. “I think not. One, it’s too slippery today, and I’ve got a lot of testing and replacing to do before I’ll feel safe lettin’ any of you even near that place. Two, we let ya’ll relax yesterday but there’s still a lot of work to do around the cabin.” Cassie shuddered at the idea of having to help dig a new drainage line for the toilet- again. “And lastly, I don’t know if you’ll wanna do a lot of climbing with all your recent, ah… changes.”

“Changes?” Richard gestured to her chest. “Oh. OH! Yeah, I guess that might be a bit, um, uncomfortable.” She recalled the harnesses from previous camping trips, and tried to imagine how much more painful they might feel when combined with the constriction from her ‘gaffe-thing’, and couldn’t hold back a wince, which her uncle returned in sympathy.

Richard took another bite of the mushrooms he had spent the previous day hunting down before continuing. “Not to mention if something were to catch and,” he scooted closer to her and in a whisper added, “rip off.”

She could feel the color drain from her face. “Yeegh.”

He just nodded. It suddenly occurred to Cassie that just maybe her uncle knew more about her mom’s preparations for this trip than she had thought.

She felt him chuckle as he patted her back in reassurance. “Don’t worry. I’ll head up today and check things out, see what needs to be done and all that. Maybe the day after tomorrow things’ll be dry enough to go up.”

Cassie smiled and nodded her head, but with a green expression on her face. Suddenly rock climbing had lost all its attractiveness, and been replaced by a hollow dread.

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23.

The clear air that morning was inspiration for another round of swimming, and while she had reservations Cassie decided it was better to get in the water again right away rather than torture herself for days before getting in again. After only a few moments- and a handful of threats from Kayla and Emily- she was able to ignore her fears and have fun, and by the end of an hour she was laughing just as much as she had been prior to the incident the day before.

She was having trouble believing it was already the fifth day of their trip. They had just arrived, and already things were a quarter of the way over- it always got to her at one point or another, but she was surprised it had come so soon this trip. Her distraction did not go unnoticed by the rest of the group.

“Hey, ev’rything alright?” Eric asked as he approached her, carefully and slowly as all the boys had been doing.

Cassie broke herself from her thoughts, and smiled at the look of concern on the boy’s face. “Yeah, things’re great. I was just thinking about how we’ve only got another two weeks out here before we have to go back.” She sighed.

Eric gave her a lopsided grin. “You really DO love it out here, don’t you?”

“If I could, I’d live out here all the time,” she agreed, taking a moment to gaze at the trees and wilderness around them. Then she laughed. “Well, maybe not ALL the time- the nearest movie theater’s at least three hours drive away, and don’t even ASK about decent Chinese takeout.”

Eric laughed with her, and her reverie broken she rejoined the rest of the group as they climbed out of the water for lunch.

They had a quick snack of potted meat sandwiches and mountain dews (Cassie cringed at the spread on her sandwich, ‘cat food’ by any other name…), and afterwards Kayla and Emily decided to drag her off for some sunbathing while Jobe grabbed both David and Eric and took the flat bottomed boat upstream ‘crawdad huntin’’. Eric was excited while David tried to act indifferent, though the slightly off look in his eyes told that his feeling about crayfish were probably similar to those of his sister.

As soon as the flat bottomed boat made the turn around the bend up the river and out of sight, Emily turned to Cassie and grinned wickedly. “My little brother likes you, my little brother likes you,” she chanted in sing-song.

Cassie steamed. “No he doesn’t! Come on!” The prissy look was back on Emily’s face, and a retort was on her lips, but Cassie knew exactly what to say to put her back in her place. “Do you want me to tell Jobe you have a crush on HIM?”

“WHAT! Eww!” Emily screeched. “You wouldn’t!”

“Then don’t pick on me about your brother. And YOU,” she said, turning on her sister, who was chuckling gleefully on her other side, “not another word about Avery, or Eric, or David or boys of any kind or you’ll wake up in the morning with nothing to wear but the clothes you slept in, so help me!” Now both of the other girls on either side of her were laughing, and she felt an irrepressible smile growing on her own face. “I’m serious you guys, please?” She got out right before breaking down into her own giggles.

“Oh, all right,” Kayla agreed after regaining control of herself. “But on one condition.”

“What?”

“Nope! Not gonna tell, you have to agree before I’ll let you know!” Kayla said solemnly.

“That’s not fair!”

“Nope, but it’s just the way things are, miss clothes-snatcher. We never did find my underwear after the last time you pulled that little stunt.” Cassie contemplated digging the bucket out of the attic where she had hidden it, but decided against it. Besides, Kayla had been twelve at the time, who knows what had gotten into them since then? Though…

“I could fetch them now if you want?”

“Oh, god, no!”

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24.

“You made the right choice, little sister.”

“Yeah, well I’m still not sure I agree with you on that.”

“Oh, hush and enjoy yourself.”

The agreement had been horrible. Cassie debated with herself whether not being tormented about boys- if that were possible to begin with- was really worth the pain of this, this, TRAVESTY against her manhood. ‘Hold the phone, I’m sitting here with boobs and wearing panties. Screw that.’ She shrugged.

“You’ll have to redo my left foot, you smeared the polish.”

“Well, sor- RY, your Highness.” Cassie stared downwards at where her own left foot was currently sitting in her mom’s lap as she painted the nails a bright seafoam green. Manicures and pedicures went against the very fabric of what camping was about, but it was a price agreed upon by both Kayla and Emily for their relationship cease- fire, and even her mom had agreed it would be a ‘fun experience’ for her.

Not that she had to admit it.

Kayla plopped her own foot back in Cassie’s lap before handing her the bottle of solvent and a hand full of cotton swabs. With a ‘harrumph’ Cassie set about cleaning off the offending toes before placing more cotton swabs in between them. Retrieving the bottle of ‘Love-me-not Lavender’ from Emily’s collection, she got down to the work of repairing her work on her sister’s foot.

“Gentle strokes, and remember, not too much polish or-“

“’Kay, I got it!” Cassie grimaced, and bit down on her tongue as she concentrated on getting a smooth coat.

“This foot’s done, raise your other one. Same color?”

“No, pink!” Emily yelled from where she was performing the same action on Ruby’s feet.

“Not on your life! I guess keep the green.”

“It’s not green, it’s sea-“

“-foam. SORRY, keep the ‘sea foam,’ then.” Cassie shifted her feet before returning her attention to the toes before her. “God, Kayla, when’s the last time you cleaned between your toes?”

“Quiet, you. You know you’re loving this.”

“Whatever.”

“I love you too.”

The girls went silent for several minutes as they all concentrated on doing their best with their charges. ‘I guess the worst is over,’ Cassie thought to herself as she let herself relax and get on with the job before her.

“So what’s this I heard from Kayla about you having a crush on your friend Avery?”

“Mo-om!” Cassie tried to object, but her complaints were drowned out by the uproar and guffaws from the girls around her. And now she had to start over on her sister’s foot again, too.

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25.

Richard had agreed to cook the boys’ catch of crayfish for dinner provided they stayed to learn how to do it, and Cassie was more than happy she wasn’t in their group for that particular lesson. The first time he had cooked the things when they were camping, she had thought she liked the Cajun spices, and was excited about the warm spicy smell arising from the carrots and potatoes, at least until they added the ‘mudbugs.’ Whether the screaming sound was them or just the steam escaping their shells, she didn’t care- she hated the taste, she hated the smell, and she definitely hated cooking the things alive.

Kayla and Ruby stayed inside to help fix the sides, but knowing Cassie’s feelings on the creatures the entire family agreed to let her sit outside to avoid the smells. It was a warm night, with the crickets and frogs singing from the trees all around, and a full moon giving plenty of light for Cassie to take a short walk down the shoreline.

“Mind if I join you?”

Emily was at Cassie’s side before she could turn to see her, and Cassie was more than happy for the company. “Couldn’t stand the smell either, huh?”

“Ugh! The smell was bad, but watching your uncle suck the heads- god, I thought I was gonna be sick!”

Cassie laughed. “And THAT is why I came out for a walk.”

Emily nodded in agreement. “Your mom said we could have some of the carrots and potatoes later, but they were cooked with those things so I’ll probably just have a pee bee and jay sandwich, IF I eat anything.”

“Mom and Kayla like them, and so does Jobe. Uncle Richard’s crazy about ‘em, I swear if he could eat ‘em every day while we were out here he would, but lucky for us Mom put a stop to that after even her and Kayla got sick from the stench one year.” Spotting the rocky stretch of shoreline she was looking for, Cassie bent down to find a good skipping stone. “What about your brothers?”

Emily stuck her tongue out in disgust. “Ack, they were doing just like your uncle and cousin. They at least taste better, right?” Cassie glanced up and shook her head in the negative. “Eww.”

“Tell me about it.” Finally finding a good skipping stone, Cassie took careful aim from her crouched position and made her toss. One… two… three… splash. “And the worst part is the cabin’s gonna smell like that for another day or so at least too.” She located another stone and stood up for her next shot. “It’s pretty clear tonight- maybe Mom will let me come out in a tent to get away from the cabin?”

Emily sat down on the rocks next to her. “If she does, I’m joining you.”

Cassie took her second shot. One… two… three… four… five… the stone bounced off a high rock in the water before making a satisfying ‘plunk’ sound on the other side. Their silence was golden, as both girls simply sat and listened to the sound of the water and the woods around them.

“Cassie?”

“Yeah?”

Emily shuffled across the rocks until she was right next to Cassie. “Why do you get so nervous when we talked about guys?”

Cassie shrugged, a little nervous now. “I dunno. I, I guess I’m just not interested in guys like that right now.” She wasn’t sure if she liked where this was going. “Why’s it so important to you and Kayla?”

Settling down again on the large flat sandstone block Cassie was using as a seat, Emily sighed. “It’s just one of those things. Well, like I said before,” Emily paused.

Cassie turned to her, wanting an explanation. “What?”

Emily stared at her feet. “If you like girls, that’s okay too.”

Cassie blushed for a moment, before realizing she was being set up for getting teased again. Standing up, she stomped off angrily. “I thought the whole ‘pedicure’ thing was supposed to mean ya’ll were gonna leave me alone about relationship stuff?” She thought, ‘the guys at school give me crap ‘cause I’m small, what’s this about huh?’

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry! It’s just-“ Emily stood up herself, and began pacing around. Cassie crossed her arms and tapped her foot impatiently on the pebbles, waiting for an answer.

“Well?”

“Shit!” Emily turned to her, and approached quickly.

Cassie wasn’t sure what she had been expecting, but it most definitely wasn’t for the other girl to pull her to her and bend down, kissing her lips passionately. Cassie’s first reaction was to pull away, but her brain stopped her. Here she was, standing under the light of a full moon, with a cute girl holding her close and she wanted to get away?

Not really.

Wrapping her own arms around Emily’s neck, Cassie leaned into the taller girl and closed her eyes, enjoying the sensation of their bodies pressed together.

Whether they had kissed for a few seconds or hours, Cassie wasn’t sure, but Emily’s pulling away inevitably seemed to happen too soon. Cassie opened her eyes lazily, and with a smile on her face looked up into Emily’s-

To see her crying.

A sob escaped Emily’s lips as she jerked away from Cassie as though she were burning, and ran as hard as she could for the cabin, leaving Cassie feeling incredibly frustrated and wondering, ‘what the hell is going on, and what am I gonna do now?’

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Boys of Summer 26-30

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Serial Chapter

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

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'Cause it's a cruel,
Cruel summer,
Leaving me here on my own,
It's a cruel,
Cruel summer,
Now you're gone.

Ace of Bass- Cruel Summer

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Boys of Summer 26-30

Melanie Ezell

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26.

Cassie rolled over in her sleeping bag, trying to work the rock she had slept on out of the small of her back without much success. Annoyed, she climbed from her resting place beside the river and cast a glance back towards the cabin, wondering whether or not to brave going back so early in the morning.

Would Emily be awake? What would she say to her if she was? Cassie had tried to talk to the girl the night before, but all she had received in response were muffled sobs from the other girl's bunk and questioning looks from her sister and mom. She had stayed inside afterwards just long enough to grab her sleeping bag and explain to her mom and uncle about the smell before heading back out, to the same spot they had been the night before.

She shivered in the early morning dew, and quickly packed her sleeping bag away. 'If Emily isn't ready to talk to me, well, I still need to eat.' She yawned as she began the short trek back to the cabin.

"Good morning, miss 'too good to sleep in the smelly old cabin with everyone else.'"

"Good morning, Jobe." Cassie wrapped her arms around her cousin and gave him a quick peck on the cheek, causing the boy to blush. Two people could play at the 'annoying cousin' game, after all. "What's for breakfast?"

"I dunno, what'cha fixin' me?"

"Oh, ha ha." She stuck her tongue out at the older boy as she inspected the contents of the cabinets. "Pancakes okay?"

A tired Richard stumbled out from the boys' room. "Sounds fine to me," he grumbled as he collapsed into his favorite chair.

"Me, too." Kayla added in, poking her head around the bathroom door. "And a towel, while you're at it."

"AND BREAKFAST IN BED!" Ruby called from her room.

Cassie growled. "Why don't I just fix EVERYBODY breakfast, then?"

"Sounds good to me. Extra bacon for me, please, really crunchy, I don't like it when it's all rubbery."

David managed to dodge the first fork, but the second one struck him cleanly in the forehead, tines first.

"Ow! Dammit!"

"Don't harrass the cook." Richard recommended without turning. "They have all the sharp stuff at hand, and her mom's been known to slip laxatives in peoples' food when she's messed with."

The look of disgust on David's face was like a work of art as Cassie gave him her best 'Evil Grin'.

"She wouldn't."

"Watch me."

David gulped loudly, but sat down quietly and didn't say another word as Cassie set about preparing breakfast for the cabin, humming happily to herself.

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27.

"And that's when, heh, that's when, heheh, that's when she-"

"Uncle Richard-"

"That's when she-"

"UNCLE RICHARD-"

"That's when h- she said, 'well, THAT wasn't supposed to happen.'" Richard fell out of his chair laughing as Cassie stared at him in horror. "We had to replace the drain line after that, 'cause we could never-"

"UNCLE RICHARD!!!"

"-get that damned clog out of the plumbing."

Richard continued to laugh while Cassie banged her head into the table, hoping against hope she would disappear before suffering another round of Death by Embarrassing Story. She raised her head when she heard a soft feminine laugh to find Emily chuckling along with the boys, but the moment her eyes rested on her the other girl stopped laughing and blushed, turning away from Cassie.

Cassie grinned. If Emily wasn't going to talk to her because of last night, she would just have to talk to Emily on her own. Excusing herself from the table, Cassie crossed over behind the other girl's seat and placed her hand on her shoulder, ignoring her flinch.

"Emily, can you walk with me? We need to talk."

"Uh, I dunno, I was gonna ask your sister to-"

Cassie squeezed Emily's shoulder slightly. "Please?"

Emily gulped. "O-okay."

Cassie kept one eye on the other girl as she lead them down the river and back towards the rocks from the night before. Emily hesitated only a little at the edge of the rocks before following Cassie out to the large flat stone they had used as a seat the night before.

Cassie sat herself down on the rock and wrapped her arms around her knees before looking up into Emily's eyes. "Okay, we need to talk about what happened last night."

"I'm sorry, I just... um."

Cassie watched closely to make sure Emily wasn't going to run off again. When it seemed like she was going to stay, Cassie stood up and wrapped her in a hug. "It's alright, I was just a little surprised. I didn't know you were a, uh, les-"

"NO!" Emily jerked away and gave Cassie a hard look. "I'm not! I mean, oh, I dunno! This is the first time I've thought I liked a girl!"

"Okay, uh."

The kiss this time was slightly less of a shock, but its suddenness and urgency still threw Cassie for a loop. Caleb made a grab from the recesses of her desires to take control, and it took all her willpower to break the kiss and step back from Emily's embrace. "Emily..."

"Cassie, I-"

"Emily!" The force of her words stopped the other girl in mid- apology, the tear streaks on her face making Cassie ache to kiss her again and make it all better- but she knew that wouldn't work. "Emily. *Phew* Okay. I like you a lot Emily, really. But I don't know if we should be doing this. There's a lot about me you don't know." Emily made a move to speak, but Cassie raised her hand to stop her. If she didn't finish this now, she never would. "See, I'm... I'm..."

"What?"

"Uh..." Seeing the look on Emily's face, half hope and half fear, Cassie couldn't bring herself to reveal the uncomfortable truth of the situation. "There's someone else in my life right now," slipped from her lips before her mind caught up to her mouth and clamped her teeth shut with a sharp snap. She watched Emily's face for a reaction, and was more than surprised when she spotted a small smile tweaking the corners of her mouth.

"Avery?"

Cassie shivered. "Oh, god no!"

Now Emily's voice held a faint note of challenge as she stood with her hands on her hips. "Well, who then?"

Again, her mouth ran away before her brain could catch up. "His name's Caleb."

"Oh, really?"

Cassie cursed the day she ever agreed to wear girl's clothes as she apologized to herself for what she was about to do. "Ah, yeah. Sorry." She scratched the back of her head nervously as she tried to come up with more explanation. The crunch of pebbles underfoot signalled her that Emily was coming nearer to her again, and when she looked up into the taller girl's face, she saw an expression of mixed sadness and embarrassment, with just a touch of... relief?

"Why didn't you tell us about him when we were teasing you earlier."

This one was easy for her to field. "Please don't tell my sister. If Kayla heard about Caleb, I'd never hear the end of it." Emily nodded, and with a slight giggle gave Cassie another kiss, this time on the cheek. With a sigh, she also wrapped her in a hug. "Are we okay?"

Emily sighed into her shoulder. "I dunno. I feel so silly, though. I thought you were, well, you know, and you have been so nice to me, and I dunno, I just." Emily stiffened against her, and Cassie could feel her growing nervous again. In answer, she tightened her own grip on the taller girl. "I DO like you, and I can't promise I won't do something stupid, but I'll try not to bring any of this up again. It's gonna be hard, though. Sigh. ARE we okay? I won't kiss you again..."

"Z'okay. It isn't the first time someone's thought I was gay," Cassie whispered, trying to keep the depression in her response to a minimum. 'Sheesh, sometimes you just can't win.'

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28.

Cassie was growing tired of fielding questions left and right from everyone in the cabin about what she had been up to with Emily, and it was with great relief that she went out hiking on her own, looking for more mushrooms for her uncle, or maybe some polk salad for the hell of it. Or a nice, green handful of poison ivy to give to David if he kept up the jerk attitude. The thought of him with his mouth and eyes swollen shut made her smile until she realized how mean it would be, though she couldn't contain a light chuckle at what ELSE would get all red and itchy if he touched IT after she gave him the ivy.

She turned the volume in her headphones up a bit more as she hopped across a series of rocks spanning the river to reach the other side, admiring the swirling patterns of the rushing water around the many large and small protrusions that made up the crossing. She remembered when she was smaller her uncle having to carry her across on his shoulders, and how he almost always would fall in and get soaked, but somehow manage to keep Caleb- her, completely dry. Not that it mattered since their destination was always the little hot spring about a quarter of a mile away for a warm relaxing soak, but it was the thought that counted.

This time, though, her goal was much closer. She had spotted the small clearing covered in wildflowers on the far bank on their way down in the canoes, but had forgot about it until today. The last thing she wanted for the moment was to be disturbed, and a nice nap among the wildflowers sounded like just the thing to give her a chance to think over things in private. Or not. She still wasn't sure whether she wanted to think about anything at all yet, or let it sit for a while. 'Not like it makes much difference, I still did the right thing- I think.'

It didn't take her long to find a clear area away from the water to lay the blanket she had brought down. The sky was clear after the rain of the last few days, with the humidity making anything much more active than a short walk seem like torture. Cassie pulled out her book and laid down on her blanket to relax, trying to lose herself in the adventures of Harry Dresden.

She wasn't sure how long she had been asleep, but she was jarred from her dreams by a gentle hand shaking her shoulder.

"Come on, Cassie, your mom sent me to find you. It's lunch time. I brought sandwiches. Uh..."

Cassie groggily opened her eyes to see Eric leaning over her and holding a picnic basket. "Hi, Eric."

"Uh, hi." The boy grinned sheepishly before standing back up, giving Cassie enough room to sit up and notice how the shadows had changed.

"How long have I been out here?"

"I dunno, maybe two or three hours? Emily told us you needed some space, so nobody bothered you for a while."

"Oh. Thanks." Cassie stretched, trying to get rid of the kink that had developed in her shoulder where she had slept on it wrong. "So what'ja bring?" She asked, clearing a spot on her blanket for Eric to sit down.

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29.

Cassie made sure to give Eric plenty of time to get back to the house before setting out herself, and took her time crossing the river again and making her way towards the cabin. She had a lot of thinking still to do, and felt sure that she wouldn’t be able to do it if she was near everyone else. It only took her a few minutes to get back to the rocks where she had met with Emily just that morning, only to find that she was not going to be as alone as she had expected.

“Can we talk for a bit, hon?”

“Sure, mom.”

Cassie wasn’t sure whether to be happy or upset to find her mom waiting for her return. She felt for sure she needed to figure this out alone, but she also knew that her mom would stay there until she found out what was going on. ‘But how much should I tell her? This isn’t just about me, it concerns Emily too.’

Ruby gave Cassie a tight hug as she settled down next to her. “So, how’s your vacation going so far?”

Cassie shrugged, then smiled. “Okay. Good, I think. You know how much I love it out here.”

“Uh huh, you always have. I really chewed your uncle out the other day, you know. If I had known we were gonna have guests up here…”

“I know, Mom. I’m okay.”

Ruby laughed. “I noticed. You don’t need to wind your cousin up so much, though. I heard about all the little flirty things you’ve been doing just to mess with him, and I was kind of surprised when Kayla told me about just how comfortable you seem like this. I didn't think ya had it in you.”

Cassie laughed. “Mom, I’m just trying to act as much like a girl as possible, and trust me, it’s taking a lot more thought and effort than I expected.”

“Well, there are such things as tomboys, you know. Most girls aren’t as girly as you seem to think.”

“*sigh* Maybe not, Mom, but Kayla can be, and from what I’ve seen, Emily definitely is. All trying to act butch would get me this summer is left out by both groups, ya know?”

Ruby gave Cassie a gentle squeeze. “If you think so. Tell me, though- do you really want to spend the entire summer trying to act, or do you want to spend it relaxing and having fun? If you keep trying to force yourself to act like you think you should, you'll just make yourself miserable.”

“Yeah, Mom, I know.”

"Honestly, I'll admit I wanted you to be a bit embarrassed about dressing like a girl this summer. I figured we'd come up here, your cousin would rib you a bit, you'd both get over it, and that would be that. You'd have some interesting summer stories to tell if you ever chose to, but otherwise this was gonna be just family." Cassie watched as her mom deflated, almost like a balloon. 'She must have been more worried about this than I thought.' "Can you forgive me?"

Cassie didn't even have to think about her answer. "Of course, Mom. Come here." The two hugged, and Cassie was glad the conversation was finally over.

“So, tell me about what happened between you and Emily last night.”

“What?”

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30.

After another gruelling half hour of trying in vain to sidestep her mother's questions, Cassie finally managed to break away. She had just enough time for some light sketching before dinner, if she could find the time alone, but with family and guests popping up around every turn the woods seemed just a bit too crowded. She had settled on her bunk as a good escape from the crowds, and was just starting on outlining a quick sketch of everyone swimming the day before.

“So how was your talk with Mom?”

“It was… wait, was that your idea?” Cassie was less than happy with another interruption- her day had seemed to be nothing more than one after another- but was hoping that perhaps picking a fight with Kayla would help her to relieve some of the tension.

Kayla’s laughter was enough answer for Cassie. She was starting to get angry- what right did Kayla have to go off and do something like that?- when Kayla smiled at her. “It wasn’t so much my idea as something Mom wanted to do but didn’t have the courage to.” Kayla’s face grew more serious as she continued to look at Cassie. “She really was upset about getting you into this position, and I think after the way Emily came back last night she was worried she had found out. You’ve been trying really hard to fit in with us, and I let her know that, but you know what Mom’s like.” Cassie did. Overprotective in the extreme most of the time, for one thing. It had amazed her that her mom would even consider the clothing thing in the first place, but sometimes her mom’s decisions were confusing.

A loud voice from the kitchen, probably Jobe, Cassie thought, called out to them. “Hey, dinner’s ready you two. You gonna eat or what?”

"Just a minute! God, I swear that David kid's a bad influence on him," Kayla hissed from her bunk. "He wasn't this annoying last summer."

"He's always been like this, I'm just usually tormenting you so much you don't notice."

"That's for sure!" Kayla grinned. "You know, I think so far this has been one of my favorite summers out here."

That caught Cassie's attention, and she turned from her sketch padto stare at her sister.

"Seriously! You've been a lot cooler than usual, and it's been fun."

That hurt. "You're just saying that because I'm stuck like this."

Kayla shook her head vigorously. "Not at all! It's been fun, yeah, but mostly it's just that you haven't been a little jerk to me all the time."

"What! I am not a jerk!"

"Yes, you are!" Kayla insisted. "You're not that bad at home, most of the time, but you're as bad as that David guy most of the time when we're out here." Cassie gave her a suspicious look. "Okay, maybe not THAT bad, but some of the pranks you used to play on me were just mean."

Cassie was about to throw her pen or her sketch pad at her sister, anything to make her stop complaining, but took a second to cool down and think. Had she really been that bad? "So this summer's better for you because I'm acting like a girl?"

Kayla started laughing loudly again. "You're kidding, right? That's been entertaining, no doubt. It's funny seeing you being yourself one moment and the next trying to act like what you think a girl would do. You need to ease it up a bit. No, I could do without the girl thing, it's mostly just been nice you actually doing things with me."

"Really?"

"Really!" Kayla agreed.

Cassie smirked. "But I thought older sisters were supposed to hate having to do things with their little brothers... and sisters, too."

Kayla shrugged, and propped herself up on her elbows, laying across her bunk. "Well, Mom and Uncle Richard are pretty close, and I always just thought it'd be fun if we could get along like they did. Do. I mean, like, we usually go climbing in the summer together and stuff, but it's usually just 'cause we have to be safe or everyone else is going too. Now, we can go together just to hang out and have fun TOGETHER, you know?"

'I think I do.' Cassie nodded, and, because it felt like the right thing to do, hopped down from her bunk and landed in Kayla's. "Yup."

"DINNER NOW OR I'M EATING YOURS!!!"

"COMING JOBE!" The two yelled through the door together, and Kayla gave Cassie a quick squeeze before they both got out of the bunk and headed out to dinner.

---

NOTES:

Alright, it's been a while since I posted. Here's a little head's up. I know this chapter was a bit dialoguey (is that a real word? Evs.) I had to get it out of the way, and that's what took so long to write it. I'll no doubt be going back and re-editing it at some time in the very near future, but since I FINALLY got it finished last night I figured ya'll might want to see what's been taking so long. It still doesn't feel quite right to me- it's a bit flat, to be honest. But I couldn't move past here without getting it out of the way. There'll be more drama between the girls in later chapters- trust me on that :P I picked a kind of weird way to write this story, with five mini-chapters making up each day, for what I plan on being a three week vacation, for a total of 100 mini-chapters. It's gonna take a LOT longer to write than I ever thought, though hopefully not as long as I'm spending on Echoes.

Melanie E.

By Any Other Name

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By Any Other Name

By Melanie E.

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What's in a name? That's the question I ask myself so often. Is someone defined by their name, or do they, through their actions and personality, define what their name means to the world?

I have several names.

There's the name I was given when I was born. It's the name on all my documents, and the name on my badge at work. It's a name that to many people means ME, or at the very least their idea of who I am.

There's the names I use online, crafted by me to convey a particular message or theme. Names for gaming, names for talking, names for sharing, names for laughing at. They all have a meaning, and they all have a persona that I attach to them, a way of acting, a way of seeming to think that defines who the person the name belongs to is.

Then there's the name I've given myself, at least sort of. It's the name I choose for who I am. It's the name that, to me, most accurately defines who the person behind all the other names is, and is, in its essence, a declaration of who I feel I should be, I COULD be, given the chance.

So, what's in a name? Am I a product of the names I've used, or are the names, even those I had no choice in, only as important as I let them be in defining me? If I change my name, if I choose to identify as someone else, does that truly change who I am, or is it all just a placebo effect, and I'm really just lying to myself?

I choose to believe that a name is what you make of it.

There's the name I was given when I was born. It's not a name I care for, it's not a name that I feel describes me... but it's a name that others know, and even have affection for. For some people, if that name were to change that love would be gone, but for many others -- the most important ones -- their love is for the person behind the name, not the name itself. It does not define me in their eyes.

There's the names I use online, crafted by me for specific purposes. These are the names that I use for characters, for personas intended to accomplish goals, but they are all simply aspects of who I am as a more complete whole. Though I may do things differently depending on the name, the thought process is the same always, and the person behind the words and on the end of the keyboard is always the same. These do not define me in my eyes.

Then there's the name I've given myself, at least sort of. What's important though, is that it's the name I've decided is representative of who I am, in my heart, in my head, in my soul. It's a name I like, a name that makes me feel good, a name that holds a special place for me in all the things it says about me and my future. Yet, it still does not define me.

What defines me, is me, and me is, in truth, undefinable. I am more than the words I share, more than the things I say, more than what I do. These are the things others see or hear, but they are not what makes me truly ME, merely pale reflections and aftershocks from the mind and spirit behind it all. That which makes me *me* cannot be contained by petty words or letters, because I am more than that.

Every one of us is more than that.

You are more than that.

A name does not define us, any more than a body does or a hair color or anything else. We are who we are not because of what the world makes of us, but because of what we make of ourselves.

I am me. Nothing more, nothing less. And I... we... you... have beauty no matter what words are used to describe us, nor how society defines us.

Because the best person you can be is the only person you can be. Yourself.

--End--

Melanie E.

NOTES: This was partially inspired by, of all things, a YouTube Red ad that I saw earlier tonight for a film on the service called, if I recall, I Am Gigi Gorgeous. It's a film about a trans YouTube star, and her journey from how she was born to who she is now.

It made me incredibly jealous.

There's a reason I don't follow a lot of TG "success story" media and the like, and it's because it always leaves me feeling empty inside, like I've wasted who I could be or who I am. Nevertheless, after a while I usually recover, and it's always by thinking through a line of thought not dissimilar from the sentiment above: that no matter what my name may be at the moment, no matter what my body may say, no matter how tough or unfair things may be, I am still who I define myself as, not what all those things try and define me as.

One day I will be able to BE me before the entire world. Until then, nothing they see or think can diminish the person inside, and I truly believe that that person is beautiful.

I truly believe that every single one of us, if we choose to embrace it, is.

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A Reminder: July 2018 Contest Announcement: Staycation!

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Reposting this. -- Erin

That's right! I'm jumping the gun just a bit, and it's time to announce...

BCTS July 2018 Story Contest: Staycation

It's time our stories got with the times, isn't it? The modern budget-conscious among us don't do "vacations" any more (or at least that's what the media and news feeds seem to tell me.) Instead, what's in is the Staycation: taking your vacation time and, instead of exhausting yourself traveling and fighting with the kids and traffic and paying out lots of money, simply relaxing at home, doing your own thing and being decadent. Topical relevance, hurrah!

And thus, onto the particulars:

-Entries must be posted between July 1st and July 31st 2018 depending on your region. I'm trusting y'all to keep yerselves honest on this one.
-Entries must feature an LGBTQ character in a prominent role in the tale and (obviously) play upon the theme of a "staycation."
-As per usual for my contests, entries must be complete in one posting: no serials, multi-parters, or continuations of other tales.
-While there is no hard rating limitation this time around, I'd personally prefer not to read anything beyond a moderate "R," just so it's said.

Votes will be tallied the first weekend of August, and yet again highest kudos/thumbs up wins, and the prize for the top two authors will be subscriptions to the hatbox. In ADDITION to the prizes, however, I will also donate an additional 1 dollar to the hatbox for every (qualified) entry we receive, up to an arbitrary amount determined at vote counting time (read: however much I can reasonably afford at the time past the cost of prizes.) So, if you want to give to the site and can't afford to right now, chip in on the contest; your entry will help to keep this wonderful place of ours around!

So, what are y'all waitin' for? Pour yourselves a big glass of iced tea, start your own staycation, and write on!

Melanie E.

NOTE: I have had concerns expressed during my last competition concerning the emphasis on single-posting, complete stories. There are a number of reasons I prefer this format for entries, but rest assured: over the next few months I will give authors who prefer to write serialized pieces an opportunity to do so :) Let it not be said I am unfair!

Contest results . . . will be a few days late.

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My weekend was crazy, and I don't think I got more than 2 contiguous hours of sleep in the last 3 days, so yeah; contest results will be up in a couple of days. Sorry peeps.

Melanie E.

Is there a point in another round?

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Hmm.

Tomorrow I SHOULD be posting the second set of challenge words for my "random inspirations challenge," but as of yet I haven't seen any stories posted for the first part (unless I missed them?)

If nobody has any interest in this challenge then that's okay, though I hope it's not because of the lack of a prize.

Melanie E.

January 2019 Contest Prizes Teaser 1!

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Details are somewhat settled on the prize front, and this time we've got something super special for all of you avid readers out there: book bundles!

Yep! Miss Erin's putting in some overtime to help with this 'un, and we're going to offer two bundles of (platform free) ebooks for our top two prizes!

First place: 15 Doppler Press eBooks, 12 curated by me and Erin and the other 3 winner's choice

Second place: 10 Doppler Press eBooks, 8 curated by me and Erin and the other 2 winner's choice

Miss Erin and I have already been hard at work deciding on what books we're going to be picking for the curated list for the prize, and every week until the contest kicks off I'm going to premier the options, first from our curated choices and lastly from those you get to pick from.

This week's preview comes in the form of two classics!

Melanie's Choice: Swifter, Higher, Stronger by Angela Rasch

For those of you unfamiliar with it, Swifter, Higher, Stronger is a touching story about true friendship and love. The ending is bittersweet, but in the best way.

Erin's Choice: Headlights Girl by Catherine Linda Michel

One of the first titles in the Doppler Press library, Headlights Girl has helped pave the way for TG books in a big way, and is certainly worth checking out!

The links above are for the Amazon pages for each of the books in question, and if you have an interest in them and don't want to wait to see if you win the contest then both are available for incredibly reasonable prices there, Headlights Girl even being available in good ol' fashioned dead tree format!

For those of you who dislike Amazon, though, the versions of these books provided as part of the prize package will not be tied to Amazon, but rather Erin is going through the effort to make non-Amazon versions specifically for your benefit. Everyone, please give our benevolent mistress a hand for all her hard work!

Tune in next Friday for the announcement of the next pair of books, and get plugging away at those stories: a good series or serial takes a bit of time to gestate!

Melanie E.

January 2019 Contest Prizes Teaser 2!

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Another weekend, another teaser of some of the books you can find in the Doppler Press bundle being offered as a prize in the Reader Retention contest!

For those of you who may have missed it here are the rules. For everyone else, here's the next two books to be revealed from the curated list!

My Choice:

"I'm With the Band" by Melanie Brown

"I'm With the Band" is a TG coming of age tale with some very fun characters, a solid plot, and a good romance subplot. Melanie Brown's been writing forever and her work has always stood out, and this story is no exception.

Erin's Choice:

"Prometheans" by Joyce Melton and Lanie Lee

The introduction to the Promethean universe, one of the longest running TG superhero story series and a great place to start if you haven't checked them out. Joyce and Lanie are both great writers with a terrific sense of style, so you really can't go wrong.

Amazon links are provided above for anyone who wants to check the books out now, and be sure to keep your eyes open next weekend for the reveal of the next pair of curated volumes!

Melanie E.

January 2019 Reader Retention Contest is Officially Over!

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At least assuming we're not gonna see any entries from Japan/China.

As a reminder, everyone has until the end of February to do their reading and voting (these were a bit longer than your average contest entry story after all!) I'll announce contest winners at the end of the first week or so of March!

Thanks again to everyone who entered the contest. It's been really special to me seeing how enthusiastic everyone, both readers and authors, have been about this one, and I'm really glad we all did this together.

Depending on how my financial future is looking come mid-February I will either announce a contest for March or not. I've already given hints about what I'd like to make the theme, but it will depend on whether I still have a job at the end of the month (by choice, not by loss. It's complicated.)

For now, I'll thank everyone one last time. From the bottom of my heart: you're all the best.

Melanie E.

July Staycation Contest over!

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The contest for July is over! Entries closed! No admittance!

SCRAM!

That said, now that entries are closed, you all still have juuuuuust under a week to get your voting done. I'll be opening all the stories at midnight CST this coming Saturday, and the number of votes the stories have at that time is the value they will be ranked on. You'll get the announcement concerning winners early Sunday, along with the announcement for the September story contest!

From the looks of it we had a grand total of 15 entries! Between me and our mystery donor, that's already 30 bucks going straight into the BCTS coffers, all thanks to y'all's contributions!

Melanie E.

Just over a week left on the 2018 Staycation story contest!

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Just a reminder to people that the Staycation story contest closes entries on Tuesday, July 31st at Midnight whatever-the-heck-your-local-time-zone-is, so if you've got an entry waiting to be written then hop to it, and if you've got one waiting to get posted, then what's the hold up huh?

:)

Vote tallying for all qualified entries will be done on Sunday, August 5th, with prizes being doled out to the contest's winners the following weekend. On top of the two prizes -- a 3-month Hatbox sub for each of the two top-voted stories -- I will ALSO be donating an additional dollar to the hatbox for each entry we have by then, currently sitting at a whopping 13! On top of that, I've had a mystery donor offer to equal every dollar of the result, so right now we're looking at 26 dollars in extra funds for the hatbox!

For everyone who's entered so far, thank you. You're all fantastic, and I've been really enthused by the mix of new and old talent who've stepped up to the plate on this. And, if you're out there and haven't entered, either because you don't think you're good enough or don't think you can win, then think about this: win, lose, whatever the results, since I'm donating money for every entry that means that every entry we get helps keep the site around in a very real way, so don't let a little stage fright scare ya away from contributing.

Keep up the good work peeps! I love you all.

Melanie E.

Kiss-and-Tale Contest: The Final Day!

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Just a reminder to anyone with plans to enter still, today is the final day of my Fairy Kiss-and-Tale contest! I'm working on the honor system here, so as long as you have your entry in by midnight your time (May 31 2018) we'll call it gravy.

We've had a lot of great entries, and I've already got plans for another contest here in July! Sadly I actually haven't finished my OWN entry for this one yet, though since I'm ineligible for the prize anyway it doesn't matter much :)

Melanie E.

Let the adventures begin!

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As of today, entries are officially being accepted for the March 2016 contest, "On An Adventure!"

As a reminder, here is the original blog entry, including instructions on what the terms of contest entry and final prizes are. Y'all have two weeks to get your entries in, but with us utilizing the Kudos system for votes there is a minor advantage to posting earlier, though not as much as you might think! (Just look at the last contests' entries to see THAT!)

{Edited} Use the new 2016 March - On an Adventure Contest tag on your story to be included in the contest. :)

I'll be looking forward to seeing what everyone puts in! And, of course, I'll make sure to vote for every single one!

Melanie E.

Long Delayed Contest Results, Here At Last

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Sorry people! I know the delay has been problematic, but at last I'm ready to reveal the results of our Double Dip Story Contest!

Whoo boy! Okay, so first off, not doing THAT again. The whole "two contests" thing sounds like fun in theory, but it's far more troublesome than I think it was worth, especially given the resounding preference for the "Song" portion of the contest over the "Stage" side of things. In total during my sorting of stories I only found 5 of the 18 entries that seemed to target "Stage" primarily, and the voting results show that, with with the top 4 stories in terms of votes all being part of the "Song" portion. Having said all that, we had some incredibly good entries this time around too: everyone put in their best effort, and the result is a handful of stories that went as far as to make me cry tears of happiness reading them.

Now, on with the results!

*SONG*

As I said before, the top 4 stories in terms of votes were ALL from the "Song" subcategory, and the top five were as follows:

5th: Corey's Last Concert by Eric
4th: Blue Light Yokohama by Melanie Brown
3rd: I'm Still Standing by Jennifer Sue
Runner Up: Hidden Talent by SamanthaMD

There were less than 3 votes separating our runner up in this subcategory from our victor, with BOTH stories gathering nearly 300 votes each (and both being new favorites of yours truly.) Despite that, there is only one award being given in "Song," and that goes to:

Winner: I'm Not Leesa by Sigh

Congratulations!

Now, without catching a breath let's move on to the next category shall we?

*Stage*

Given that there were only 5 entries total that qualified for the "Stage" portion of the competition, barely over a quarter of the total entries made, I'll list them all here for your consideration:

5th: Beyond the Yellow Brick Road by Jessica C
4th: Over the Rainbow- . . . And Dance by Maeryn Lamonte
3rd: Two Auditions and a Fairy by Frances Penwiddy
Runner Up: It's Curtains for Me by Dorothy Colleen

Our winner came in in both categories, but only took top marks on this side (which isn't a bad thing since you could only win one anyhow!) And that winner is . . .

Winner: Petticoat Acres by Jennifer Sue

Woo! Yay! Congrats!

To both Jennifer Sue and Sigh: your prizes will be delivered this coming weekend, a 3 month sub to the Hatbox for each of you! Win or not, though, a big thanks goes out to everyone who participated in the contest. Every story here helps to provide incentive to readers, new and old, to be a part of our community and contribute to the site.

On a special note, we had three authors put in the extra effort to enter both categories this time around.

Maeryn Lamonte
Jennifer Sue
Dorothy Colleen

Thank you, ladies, for going above and beyond the call with your stories! *hugs*

Unfortunately, at this point I DO have to close our celebrations with a bit less happy announcement, and that being that I'm going to have to postpone my planned November contest for the time being. Between Medical Stuff and general Life, finances are time are both a bit tight at the moment, and I'm afraid I wouldn't be able to dedicate the time to the contest needed to run it properly (much like what happened this time around, only I imagine worse given how busy the next couple months will be.) As a result, look for my next contest most likely in January, when things have slowed down a bit.

Thank you everyone!

Melanie E.

March 2019 No Prize Challenge Announcement: Random Inspirations

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Heya folks! I know it's a bit late, but here I am to announce a challenge for next month: Random Inspirations!

This time 'round there are a few things we'll be doing different though:

1. I won't be able to provide a prize for this one. Don't worry: prizes for the January contest are still gonna be a thing! But I won't be able to do that again for a while after those are delivered, and this month is the first of that. Sorry.

2. There will be no winners or losers this time 'round: instead, everyone who completes the challenge will get a special mention in a "Thank You" blog post in April.

I know I'd said I was considering a Henry Harrelson challenge for March, but let's be honest here: as much as I've always REALLY liked the stories that have come from the universe in the past it isn't popular or open enough to really get the amount of participation I want to see. So what am I doing instead, you might wonder? Well, it's very simple.

I've found a random word generator online.

Each Friday in March I will post a selection of 3 words chosen by the generator. Those will be the prompts for that week.

The challenge? Use those 3 words provided as inspiration to create a story of at least 500 words. I'd like to humbly request avoiding anything too risque' as well, but that's mostly personal preference and I won't actually hold anyone's choices for story content against them.

The "inspiration" provided by the words can come in a variety of ways. Perhaps you use them literally, building a phrase or theme around them. Maybe you use them as points of interest or character quirks. Try your best to find ways to utilize them where their influence is obvious, but devious twisting of the concepts and creative use of them can also be very interesting too!

Entries can be submitted up until the time I post the blog entry with the new words the next Friday: I'll try to maintain consistency as best I can, but best bet is that I'll likely be posting the new words around 1-3 AM CST each week.

The challenge officially ends on the fifth of April, and I'll try to throw out the congratulations blog the following weekend.

Sound fun? I think it does.

As an example, using the word generator I've found I generate the following list of words:

Sleep
Crook
Youthful

How do I use them? Maybe I write something like an inverted Rip Van Winkle, where an elderly conman falls asleep and awakes as a beautiful young woman in another century. Or perhaps I write a story set in the land of Dreams, wherein a princess must stop a thief from taking Morpheus' power? Maybe the words are traits for three different characters in a more real-world tale: how would I weave those characters into an interesting storyline? Wait! Maybe my story's title is "Sleeping at the Youthful Crook," and takes place in the Youthful Crook tavern on a fateful night? Whatever you choose to do, be creative with the use of the inspirational words and you'll be fine.

Most importantly, even if you can't keep up with the whole challenge, feel free to tackle them when and if you can! The point of my contests and challenges is simple: to get more stories on the site from more authors, new and old. So long as we're doing that, we're all winning.

:)

If anyone wants a practice, here are a few sample sets to get you going. Remember, though, that none of these will be used for the actual challenge: they're just here for you to get an idea of what you'll be tackling when the first rolls around.

Practice set 1:

Gather: Window: Glistening

Practice set 2:

Escape: Follow: Adventurous

Practice set 3:

Cabbage: Earsplitting: Productive

Practice set 4:

Basin: Please: Spill

Practice set 5:

Past: Back: Rake

Anywho, let me know what y'all think of this challenge, and if anyone wants to run a more normal contest-type thing, feel free! Thanks to all of y'all for everything you do.

Melanie E.

March 2019 Random Inspirations Challenge: Week 1!

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The tag is set (see above for evidence,) and it's time for the first week's challenge words!

Ready folks?

The words are as follows:

Smelly
Birds
Lush

Hmm. That's a weird trio! Nevertheless, it's what we got, so it's what we get.

Ready . . . set . . . WRITE!

Melanie E.

Melanie E.'s Fairy Kiss-and-Tale Story Contest: Results!

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It's been a week, and huzzah! The votes are in!

All the stories in the contest did quite well, but two in particular managed to grab the most thumbs-up from our readership, and those two were:

Cursed, by Nuuan

The Fairy, by Bru

Congrats, young authoresses! I get paid this coming Thursday, upon which each of you will be given your prize, a three month subscription to the BCTS Hatbox!

That's not to slight the work of our other contestants! Everyone did great jobs, and gave us a lot of different takes on the idea of a fairy tale romance, from the surprisingly dark to the quirkily parodic (is "parodic" a word? Feh.) Thank you to every one of our entrants; you're all fantastic, and I'm proud to have been a part of this with you!

If you haven't checked out everyone's work yet, be sure to go to the contest tag in this blog's description and let the authors know how much you appreciate them. I may not have commented on every story, but I've got a vote cast for every one :) And, last but not least, be sure to tune in next weekend for July's contest announcement, with another two subscriptions available for the taking!

Melanie E.

One week left for contest entries!

Author: 

  • Rasufelle
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  • 2019-01 Reader Retention Story Contest

Just a reminder to people that the last day to publish valid entries in the Reader Retention Contest is next Thursday at midnight (your local time.) If you have a story going you have one more week to finish it up: if you haven't started one yet, well, there's still time to pop out some 4-5k words and split 'em up and get 'em out there!

Just a reminder/update on how voting's gonna work this time around:

I won't be tallying vote(s) on stories until probably the beginning of March: that will give latecomers a chance to catch up on the stories and vote for their favorites, including me since I'm waiting 'til things are over to dive into anything. Results of the contest will be posted around March 15th, with prizes delivered some time between then and the 21st.

I'm hoping to have a contest going for March as well, but certain financial things in my life are in flux at the moment so that may not be possible: we will have to see mid-February. That said, there's nothing stopping anyone ELSE from running a contest either! Me and Erin have a little bit of a System going, but if anyone IS interested in sponsoring something contact Erin and she can help you work out precisely what would be involved. Maybe we could even get a contest every month if we did that!

Good luck to everyone! I've been really happy with the results of the contest challenge this time around, thank you EVERYONE, both authors and readers, for joining in on this crazy adventure.

Melanie E.

Random Inspirations Round 2

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  • Rasufelle
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  • 2019-03 March Random Inspirations Challenge

Despite not getting ANYTHING posted for the first set of prompts I'm gonna give this another shot.

As a reminder to people: this is about using the 3 words to INSPIRE a story, NOT "using the three words supplied IN a story." While the former might potentially mean the latter, they are not by any means the same thing. This week's words:

View
Miss
Loving

A few ways to consider how to use these words as inspiration:

View. To experience. To look at. Are the characters maybe going to a movie? Did the main character grow up near or are they currently in an area or place with a beautiful vista they admire? Perhaps they're on the outside of events looking in, and their perspective is being changed by witnessing experiences they've never personally had? Or maybe you simply write the story from an interesting POV to begin with, like a second-person narrative or with multiple people's experiences of the same events and how that changes their interpretation of what happens?

Miss. This could mean woman. This could mean longing. This could mean poor aim. Or perhaps the first thing that popped into your head is Ol' Miss, and the story takes place on one of America's most relied-upon waterways, or involves the sports team in some way.

Loving. Loving one's self. Loving another, either romantically or platonically. To care for, or to have a caring or empathetic personality. Is it the main character who acts or feels these ways, or is it another? Is it toward the main character or someone else? Perhaps you take the tact of looking at some other words that are related to this one, such as jealousy, desire, loneliness, and how those concepts reflect on the idea of loving or being loved.

Now how can these ideas relate to one another?

Random Inspirations. NOT "random words to use," but things meant to make you think about or present your story idea in a new way. Hence the 500 word requirement.

I usually try to avoid entering my own contests/challenges any more, but maybe I should hop in on this 'un just to try and help people have a point of reference? Leave me a comment letting me know whether you think that would be a good idea.

Melanie E.

Random Inspirations Round 3

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  • Rasufelle
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  • 2019-03 March Random Inspirations Challenge

Another Friday, another trio of words!

This week's words are:

Rotten
Development
Accessible

Rotten. Spoiled, wasted, or otherwise worthless. Could be in reference to a terrible person, or more lightheartedly toward a character who is doted upon (spoiled rotten.) Other options could include simply having the character in a "rotten" situation, or perhaps dealing with outdated or worthless materials or foodstuffs. Alternatively, the story could be about the Sex Pistols.

Development. Growth, change, advancement. Also often used to refer to housing complexes or other construction projects. Software development, personal development, body development (such as puberty,) or simply plot development as the story goes on.

Accessible. Easy to understand or use. Open to many. Usable. Is it the story itself that is accessible, or something within? Perhaps you go with the opposite, and the pursuit of an otherwise inaccessible goal?

Used together, you have a number of options. What kind of legitimately rotten development could befall your characters? How do you choose to embrace the idea of accessibility in that context as well. Perhaps the accessible element is, itself a bad thing, such as identity theft (personal information being accessed on the dark web,) or mind control?

Good luck!

Melanie E.

Random Inspirations Round 4

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  • Rasufelle
  • Rasufelle's blog

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  • Authors / Stories / Books / Writing

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  • 2019-03 March Random Inspirations Challenge

We had family visiting the last two days so sorry for missing my Friday posting schedule on these!

This next week's 3 words are:

Hand
Needless
Route

A quick breakdown for 'em:

Hand. An extremity used for grasping and moving things. To pass something to another. A selection of usable options. Helping hand, hand of cards, the hand we're dealt, idle hands, hand of fate.

Needless. Pointless. Inane. Meaningless. Or, alternatively, "needless" could apply as in someone or something without any needs, something complete.

Route. A path, or to direct someone or something along one. Routing the enemy, router, route 66. The route less traveled.

These words have plenty of obvious ways they can work together, so I will skip the normal combined examples section.

People REALLY haven't seemed to have been into this month's challenge, so this is probably the last set of these I'll post. I'll try to figure out something more compelling for May.

Melanie E.

Reader Retention Contest Results!

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The results are in!

And technically would have been up like 2 days ago if I hadn't had to debate with myself on one particular issue (we'll get into that later.)

For now, let's focus on how things went down.

This contest got some phenomenal response, peeps. Thank you all SO MUCH for both writing stories, and for reading and voting for them. A big thanks goes out to all the authors who completed entries for the contest especially:

Bobbie C
Maeryn Lamonte
Casey Brooke
Angela Rasch
Melanie Brown
Cheryl Bishop
Nuuan
My5InchFMHeels (not a fan of the name, though :P)
Jennifer Sue
Sigh
Jessica C
Dorothy Colleen
Donna T
Aylesea

A special shout-out also goes to both Rachel M. Moore and Enemyoffun, who began posting tales for the contest but didn't complete in time to qualify. I hope I didn't miss anyone!

Now, for the results. We had some impressive totals overall: it seems like the dropoff in response on most stories tended to be between 1/3 to 1/2 less Kudos on the last part versus the first part of every tale, with the hits roughly lining up with that as well. Due to popular suggestion all we're worried about is average Kudos overall, though, and our top winner there was . . . .

Melanie Brown, with her tale The Texas Belles! There was a lot of controversy over this one, but in the end it still managed to pull an average of 266 Kudos per part.

Congratulations Melanie!

We didn't have one, but TWO major prizes for this contest, so who managed to pull our runner-up prize? None other than . . . .

Casey Brooke's "Doorway to Amaru Meru!" I saw a lot of people recommending this story off-site, so congrats to you Casey on catching people's attention! At 233 average Kudos the race was closer than it probably seems on these.

Congratulations Casey!

Now, for the third "prize" I'd initially offered, namely the Hatbox subscription for the story that lost the lowest percentage of readers from the first part to the last part.

This one is probably the most interesting run of all, and I'm curious what the results of this challenge, both in terms of Kudos and hits, says about site metrics regarding readership, re-readership, and Kudos, though I can't say I'm entirely surprised by the results. On average, reader retention sat at a mean value of 50 percent regardless of story length. What this means for authors is mutable, but can probably be summed up as meaning that a serial or series' readership isn't significantly affected by the length of the tale itself per se, especially given that there was no such consistency found in regards to readership for stories with more parts versus those with less parts.

What surprised me the least, though, is who won. It did give me a conundrum, however, since I could hardly give her the Hatbox sub prize since she is already one of the site's biggest contributors.

Our author with the least amount of reader dropoff is . . . .

Angela Rasch, and "The Womb of the Unknown Cheerleader." At a 67 percent reader retention rate her story managed to beat the odds in more ways than one, both being one of our shortest entries overall and from the author least likely to write a serial/series story in the first place :)

Angie, I know you already have a Hatbox sub, so I'm giving you an option: you can either gift the sub to another entrant you think is deserving or simply leave it as a donation to the site. PM me with your choice, and I'll do whichever you want.

Thank you again everyone who entered our little contest! We saw a lot of creativity this time around, both in the stories and in people's pushes to market themselves to everyone else. I want to give a special mention on that front to both Dorothy Colleen and Bobbie C., who both gave the contest more face time than it might otherwise have had with their efforts to promote votes for their work.

*hugs*

I'll send Erin a PM tonight informing her of the results, and either her or another member of the site's administrative staff should contact our victors in a couple of days about prize delivery. Be prepared, Melanie and Casey: you're both gonna have a few choices to make!

Melanie E.

Ready Reads

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Welcome to the master list page for Ready Reads!

So, what is Ready Reads? Well, it's a weekly sampling of reader-suggested, complete stories available here on BCTS. Each entry contains a number of stories based around a theme, with the following stipulations:

--Stories must be completed: no incomplete serials or works that require reading other stories to make sense.
--Length is flexible, but typically stories should be a couple of thousand words or more to qualify for inclusion.
--While I won't deny consideration of a submission just because the author submits it themselves, suggestions of others' work will receive higher priority when it comes to paring down the lists to between 5 and 10 stories.

New entries will come every Sunday for so long as I can get enough feedback from interested readers on stories to include.

Ready Reads 1: Grown Ups!

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After (almost) a week of suggestions and feedback, it's officially time for the first-ever post of . . .


READY READS

In this, our inaugural posting, we are tackling the weird and wacky world of adults in a theme simply called "Grown Ups."

All of the stories featured below have point of view characters or protagonists aged 19 or older, and as is the premise for Ready Reads, every story is complete on BCTS!

So, without further adieu, let's get into our reader-submitted suggestions!

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Vengeance and Beyond
, by Daphne Xu
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book-page/65951/vengeance-and...

One part sci-fi time travel, one part murder mystery. Trigger warning: there is some violence against women in this story, so be careful of that going in.

Going There and Back Again, by Thliwent
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/47672/going-there-and...

What?! More time travel? This isn't this week's theme! But, hey, it's what we got suggested, so it's what we're going with! Lots of tension and drama in this one, peeps.

Not Just a Fan, by Elrod
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/49024/not-just-fan

It was inevitable that Elrod would turn up in these lists, given their history in the genre. Like most of Elrod's stuff there's a somewhat more adult slant to this one, but they wouldn't be so popular if they couldn't turn a phrase, and the writing here is as solid as anything else they've written.

Sacrificial Life Extension Project, by Casey Brooke
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/77151/sacrificial-lif...

Body swaps and romance, all with a bit of sci fi thrown in too (again!) A very cute story for anyone in the right frame of mind, and with the holiday season approaching it's even more appropriate.

Natural Affection, by Cassy Bee
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/69968/natural-affection

More sci fi. This seems to be an unofficial theme running through this week's suggestions: are you sure this wasn't planned? In this tale life is an MMO, so if you're unfamiliar with a lot of the constraints of social sims and other such games some of this one might go over your head. That said, it looks like there's a lot of love for this one out there, so give it a look and see if it's to your tastes!

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Well, there's our five big entries for this week! But wait, there's more to read if you're interested!

Also suggested by readers:

Felicity Finds Family by Sasha Nexus
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/43791/felicity-finds-family

I didn't have time to read all the suggested entries before this week's post, and Sasha's story is based in a universe I'm not familiar with either. As such, without knowing if it could stand on its own without knowledge of the rest of the universe to back it, I didn't feel comfortable making it part of the core recommended list.

Rescue, by Dorothy Colleen
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/66945/rescue

Dot is a great writer and outstanding member of the community, and she certainly deserves to be featured here. That said, this story is a bit on the short side for what I'm looking for as core recommendations for Ready Reads, thus gets a mention here instead.

Linked by Love, by Dustin Carter
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/40070/linked-love

Anyone familiar with Dustin's work knows that you're usually going to be in for fun, likeable characters and positive feels in the end. This story is no exception. Much like Rescue, it gets an honorable mention due to length: it's a bit short, but worth the time spent to read it.

Out of the Closet, by Bru
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/61637/out-closet

Bru's flash fiction almost always comes with either a shaggy dog or a groan, sometimes both. This super-short tale is cute and fun, and is another "if only it were another 1k words" entry in our list of honorables.

We Who Are About to Lunch, by Erin Halfelven
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/6004/we-who-are-about...

This cute little snippet is right in line with Erin's other work: fun, creative, and should leave any reader smiling at the end. Included here due, yet again, to length more than anything else.

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And what, you may ask, does the future hold for Ready Reads? Well, I'm glad you DID ask, easily impressionable reader! The answer is another week and another theme, and that theme is . . .

READY READS: FANTASTIC GADGETS

We had a lot of science fiction themes running in this week's entries, so why not play into that? This time around it's all about the crazy and wonderful world of mad science and alien tech, and so long as your suggestions include one or both of those, you're good!

As with Grown Ups, suggestions for stories to include should be made via PM here on BCTS. If your suggestion doesn't get featured, don't fret: I'll be trying to keep these lists to 5-10 stories each, and I'll be trying not to include the same authors over and over again every time, so your entry might have missed the cut simply due to those reasons.

Lastly, we have one more point of business to consider: the theme for the week AFTER next!

I'm going to give you three options of theme to choose from, each linked to one of the post upvote options at the bottom of the blog page. Choose either Like, Love, or Thank depending on which theme you would like to see next!

Like: "Tweens." Stories about characters ages 10-13. Ideally the entire story should fall within this age range, though consideration would be given to characters who start or end slightly outside those bounds.

Love: "Dressed to Impress." Stories about crossdressers, with no actual physical transition sought or implied for the main character.

Thank: "Cheerleaders." Rather self-explanatory, really: the main character should be a cheerleader, either as an activity or costume.

Thanks again for taking time to join me on this, and I'm already looking forward to our next exciting entry of Ready Reads!

Ready Reads 2: Fantastic Gadgets (Gone Kablooie)

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I'd said that I'd do Ready Reads today, but . . .

See, there's a problem. After culling out repeat authors, stories that were FAR too short, and stories that were suggested but inappropriate due to requiring outside reading to understand, I was left with a grand total of four -- count 'em, FOUR -- suggested stories.

READY READS 2: FANTASTIC GADGETS

Here are the suggestions that passed muster.

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Power Fluctuations, by Jerry 526
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book-page/64707/power-fluctua...
Body swaps go wrong for a pair of people with notably different lives. This one needs a BIG trigger warning, since it ends on a very dark (and sad) note. Any more said would be too much.

The Mysterious Amanda Jenkins Look-Alike Suit, by Vessica
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/67572/mysterious-aman...
Alien body suits and some mind alteration make for a bit of a kinky tale.

Faraday Serum, by Light Clark
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/66975/faraday-serum
This tale is a last-minute pinch hit suggestion from our own Erin Halfelven. In a future plagued by, well, plague, a space colony loses its entire female population. When an alien tech is found that can transform men into women, the future might just change for the entire planet . . . .

Like a Candle in the Wind, by Laurie S.
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/3217/like-candle-wind
Another last-minute suggestion from Erin (otherwise we'd have only had TWO,) this is another body suit tale, but with a historical twist. Quite a bit of length, and a little bit of romance, not to mention some legendary quotes.

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That's it for this week people. As a reminder, authors can't be featured two weeks in a row: this is to make sure that we get a good slate of different writers across the board, and is why both Elrod and Casey Brooke are absent from this week's list despite being suggested. Likewise, story length: IDEALLY I would like to stick to stories of 5k words or more for Ready Reads rather than shorter works.

That said, I'm thinking our NEXT theme might just fare a bit better, because the winner for this week is *drumroll* . . . .

READY READS: TWEENS

That's right, it's all about the young 'uns this time around! This time it's all about main characters between the ages of 10 and 13 (maybe starting or ending slightly outside that range,) and given that this was a reader voted category I'm expecting a LOT of great suggestions this time!

As an added request this time around: please, nothing featuring adult content in regards to the kids. Thank you.

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Lastly, our suggestion box for the NEXT round of topics! Just like last time, we have three choices, with your vote being determined by your choice of like, love, or thank at the end of this post! Most voted choice wins!

Our options are:

Like: "High School Daze." This topic would be all about high schoolers (9-12 in US, year 9+ elsewhere.)

Love: "Women in Uniform." Stories will be about women in the military, modern or otherwise. Knights, Amazons, Airmen and Soldiers!

Thank: "Born This Way." This subject would cover characters who are intersex and misdiagnosed/misgendered at birth.

Once again, thanks to everyone who sent in their suggestions, and I'm hoping we get even more this time 'round. Now, go enjoy your Ready Reads!

Ready Reads: I Suck.

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Alright, so . . . yeah. If it ain't obvious I got nothing ready for today.

I'll be honest here: I really overcommitted on this. I don't have the head space right now or really the time to dedicate to doing this properly.

So, I'm asking for help.

I like the concept I had with the whole Ready Reads thing, but I'm not in any shape to be doing it right now. So, if anyone wants to reach out to me to take it over, that would be grand: I can forward you the recommendations for this last entry I was supposed to get up, and after that put it in your hands.

Anywho, that's all I got for tonight. This week has been busy, and stressful, and generally a weird mix of awesome and lousy, and it's looking like that's the foreseeable future for me.

Sorry about this peeps. I just can't handle the responsibility of this right now.

*hugs*

Melanie E.

Ready Reads: One Week Delay

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  • Rasufelle
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I know, I'm doing terrible at this so far.

I spent most of today at the hospital in Capital City (a 2 1/2 hour drive away) and will be doing the same tomorrow. Wednesday is Thanksgiving prep, and Thursday thanksgiving itself. Saturday my cousins have Plans for me.

To put none too fine a point on it, this is going to be a Busy Week, and I just don't have the time or headspace to do Ready Reads right now.

"Tweens" will appear on Sunday. The winner from the poll for the next subject was "High School Daze," so characters 14-18. I guess you have two weeks to make suggestions on that one.

Sorry peeps.

Melanie E.

So many stories!

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  • Rasufelle
  • Rasufelle's blog

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  • Authors / Stories / Books / Writing

Contests: 

  • 2019-01 Reader Retention Story Contest

Holy cow!

Thank you SO much everyone who's already chipped into the new contest! Wow! I've already got a ton of stuff to read, and I still haven't finished all the entries from the LAST contest (sorry Angie!)

Y'all're all awesome :)

Melanie E.

PS: Call it a bit of ego, but I was thinking of running a Henry Harrelson's Custom Fit Boots contest for March if there was enough interest: otherwise I'd come up with something else. Opinions?

Staycation Story Contest Winners!

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  • 2018-07 BCTS July Staycation Story Contest

It's time to announce the winners of the July story contest!

We had a lot of great entries this time around. I want to make sure every last author who wrote for the contest knows just how much I appreciate their hard work. It's the stories that keep a site like BCTS alive, and without your dedication and effort none of us would have this wonderful place to call home.

Now, on to our entries! We had 15 wonderful stories officially entered for the contest as well as a couple of "unofficial" ones as well. Chalk that up to a total of let's say 17 stories total, shall we? Given I have a generous co-donator this time 'round that makes for a grand total of 34 dollars going to the site's coffers before the prizes are even doled out, hooray! And all thanks to the following tremendous people:

Dorothy Colleen
Melanie Brown
Efindumb
Emma P
Donna T
Leslie Moore
Nuuan
Bronwen Welsh
CrazyPaganGurl
Ray Drouillard
Samantha MD
Karen Lockhart
Jennifer Sue
Elle Jay

Give 'em all a big hand, please!

Unfortunately, this being a contest and all, prizes can only go to a couple of our entries. Of our 15 entries only 14 qualified for voting (since one author entered twice; I'm counting it for the donation total but only the highest voted story gets considered for prize calculations.) We had a lot of really highly-voted stories this time around too! Of all the stories we received, though, the two highest voted total were:

"Mouse," by Leslie Moore, at 231 votes

"Staycation - Hacked Off?," by Samantha MD, at 226 votes

Congratulations, authoresses! I get paid on Thursday, so (unless something goes horribly wrong) I will be delivering your prizes the following Friday or Saturday. Prizes are being awarded as 3 month Hatbox subscriptions, giving you access to a world of premium stories right here!

Another big thanks to everyone who participated. Every one of you, whether as a reader, voter, or a writer, has helped to make our site what it is today.

Tune in next weekend for the announcement of September's contest!

Melanie E.

Still two weeks left on the Fairy Kiss-and-Tale contest!

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  • Rasufelle
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  • Authors / Stories / Books / Writing

Contests: 

  • 2018-04 Melanie E.'s Fairy Kiss-and-Tale Contest

I'm running a bit behind on reading/commenting on entries (what can I say, I'm terrible at time management,) but if the number of other comments and kudos is anything to judge by then the contest will be fierce.

If you're not sure on the details, just click that story tag over this blog here, and it will take you to a list of all the entries so far, as well as the rules for new stories.

Bonus: if we can get at least 20 entries in total, I'll donate a dollar to the hatbox for every entry written.

Melanie E.

Super Early Contest Announcement: January 2019 "Reader Retention Contest"

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Okay, I know I said I'd wait 'til the end of the month, but dangit I just can't!

It may be a while in the brewin', but that time is gonna be needed if you're gonna make a solid effort at this 'un! That's right, this time around we're goin' fer SERIALS!

For January I've got something special for all of you: the Reader Retention Contest. Sound boring? Far from it!

So, what's the challenge you ask? Well, it's like this. I've had a few people express interest in a contest focused on something OTHER than single-posting stories. You know what? Here's your chance. The Reader Retention Contest is ALL about serials. In fact, that's all that's allowed! Or, at least, multi-part stories. The focus, though, is on having a COMPLETE one, and more to the point, keeping readers interested.

The rules:

--Your entire story must be posted between the dates of January 1st 2019 and January 31st 2019. Allowances will be made for local time zones. Stories MUST BE COMPLETED: if you cannot finish your story within the alotted time, either writing or posting it, then it is disqualified.
--Your story must consist of a MINIMUM of 4 parts, with each part being a MINIMUM of 1000 words.
--No more than 1 part can be posted per day, giving the contest somewhat of a natural limitation of 31 parts for any individual story and preventing the front page getting too overwhelmed: no spamming the front page with 30 parts at the last minute!
--Content should be completely original and unique to the contest. If your story requires the reading or watching of other content not part of the contest material to make sense, then it is disqualified. (In other words, try to avoid just adding to already existing universes unless the new story can stand completely on its own.)
--While there is no limitation or even guideline in place as far as subject matter goes, there IS a rating limitation of nothing more sultry than a hard "R" film rating, or to put it more bluntly, if you couldn't put it in a theatrically released film in the US it probably shouldn't be in your story.

Here's the interesting part. Me and Erin are still working out the details, but there are going to be three prizes on offer this time around.

The first place prize and runner up's prize are still being sorted, but to obtain either one your goal is simple: to maintain the highest average Kudos/Thumbs Up count across your serial. The Kudos from all parts of each serial will be added together then divided by the total number of parts to find this result.

I'm trying to work out a deal with Erin for the first and second place prizes to be Doppler Press book bundles, but we will have to wait and see how feasible that is as a possibility. However it works out, I'll make sure it's something exciting!

There will also be a third prize offered, one of my typical 3 month Hatbox subs, with a little different criteria. This prize will go not to the highest average Kudos, but to the best Kudos retention rating between the first and final parts of the story. In general Kudos tend to drop off as a multi-part story goes along, so the author who manages to maintain the highest Kudos percentage between their first and last postings in their serial (regardless of total Kudo count) will win this one. Consider it a bit of a sub-challenge, eh?

Do you aim for short and sweet, hoping readers will blitz it all, or do you go for the long haul, hoping that more parts will help to cancel out any dips here and there? Do you write something crazy and off the wall to hook your readers and keep them on the edge of their seats, or go the safe route and try for a sure-fire winner? Regardless of your choices, you've got just over 2 months to plan, start writing, or simply keep developing something you've been working on for a while.

Results for the January contest will obviously take a bit longer than usual to calculate due to the nature of the contest. Likewise, I want to give readers time to catch up on as many series as they can. As a result the "voting period" will go until February 15th at Midnight (my time,) and results will be announced on March 1st or 2nd, with winners (hopefully) receiving their prizes the following weekend at the latest.

READERS! This is your time to shine! Those authors will be depending on YOU to give them the best chance possible to win, so if you're enjoying their entries then please, be sure to like, comment, and sub -- wait, sorry, wrong media. Be sure to Kudo/Thumbs Up every part, because the more consistent you are, the better off THEY are! And, just maybe, drop 'em a comment too? Never hurts.

I'll be back with more details as they arise, like prize updates and the like. In the meantime, be planning those stories peeps!

Melanie E.

Ten Entries available, get your votes out there now!r

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The contest has officially closed (and been so for several hours too!)

We've had ten excellent entries, and now it's time for you readers to really make your mark! Just click on the tag for the contest above to go to a list with all the stories. Read them, and vote for your favorite ones!

There is no limitation of voting for a single story here; every story you enjoy, make sure to click that thumbs-up for to show the author your appreciation. I'll announce the winners of the contest next Sunday, and the top two most-voted stories will each receive a subscription to the hatbox.

Unfortunately we didn't get enough entries to warrant an additional kick to the 'box on top of everything else, but maybe next contest we can achieve that 'un. And, hey, to anyone who was working on a story and didn't finish in time: post it anyway! Sure, it might not get the contest tag, but a good story is a good story no matter what.

Keep your eyes peeled for our winners, and here in about 2 weeks I'll announce my plans for another contest through the month of July. In the mean time, good writing for all!

Melanie E.

Unofficial May 2018 BCTS Contest: Fairy Kiss-and-Tales

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So who's ready for another not-in-any-way-sanctioned-by-management story contest?

Melanie E.'s Fairy Kiss-and-Tale Contest

Dates: May 1st 2018 - May 31st 2018

Everyone loves a little romance, and everyone loves a good fairy tale, right? Well, here's your chance to write your own mash-up of the two!

The challenge is to write a one-part romantic fairy tale. That's right, no chapters, no serials, no continuations or side-stories or connection to any other established universe or series! One-posting, standalone stories only here folks!

There are a few minor restrictions to keep in mind though:
--No stories that bear a rating higher than film equivalent PG-13.
--Really, PG-13. Consider what this implies in terms of character ages, etc. for whatever content you choose to include.
--No fanfiction, and re-interpretations of classic tales should be thoroughly different enough to show creativity.
--As always, at least one member of the romantic couple involved should be part of the LGBTQI spectrum.

That's it! Any length is fine, provided your story is complete in and of one singular posting, and the deadline for stories for the contest is midnight (your local time) on the 31st of May. All entries should have a custom tag of "Fairy Kiss and Tale" in their tags section, for easy finding later, as well as specifically state their intent for inclusion in the contest in their introduction.

EDIT: Milady Erin herself has added an actual contest tag for us, "2018-04 Melanie E.'s Fairy Kiss-and-Tale Contest," so use that rather than a custom tag. It'll be easier for everyone :)

But what about prizes, you ask? Why yes! One week after the deadline is complete I will look over all entries and compare kudos. Two three-month hatbox subs will be awarded to the top two most highly-voted stories! In addition to that, I'm working with another site author to try and organize a series of BCTS compilation books to help raise funds for the site, and, should this contest go well, most or all of the entries may be up for consideration for such a volume in the near-ish future if the authors so wish!

I've been a bit lax in my site participation the last few months. Let's see if we can change that for the better, shall we? I'm not gonna lie, part of my reasoning for sponsoring something like this is to try and see the site get a few more stories along the lines of my own tastes, but hey, if I'm gonna ask for that kinda thing I might as well be willing to pay for it right?

Melanie E.

Reminder: Melanie E.'s Fairy Kiss-and-Tale Contest

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Just a reminder, there's still three weeks before the end of the contest deadline! We have two entries so far, and I can't wait to see what else people come up with!

If you're interested but missed the original announcement, contest details can be found by clicking the contest tag in this blog's description. The only thing that's changed since the original post is that we have moved from unofficial to being officially sanctioned.

Good luck!

Melanie E.

(PS: Sephrena here. Here is the link to see the current entrants: here!)

Double Date Dare

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Two best friends hatch a plan...

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Double Date Dare
by Melanie E
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Sandy needed a favor from her best friend Donnie—a partner to double date with. But that would mean Donna would have to go on a date with a boy! And Donna was just for having fun with her best friend. "C'mon, this will be fun!" said Sandy.

Double Date Dare -1- Sample Chapter

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  • Androgyny
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  • Sweet / Sentimental
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"A little work on your brows and some mascara, and you could have half the boys in our grade eating out of your hand."

It was my turn to roll my eyes. "Yes, because straight boys love it SO much when they learn the girl they've been hitting on has a bigger dick than they do."

"*Snerk* Not like YOU could ever say that."


Double Date Dare


By Melanie E

-1-

"You've gotta be shitting me," I said, glaring at my best friend. She was giving me her best puppy dog eyes, but I was having none of it: those had stopped working on me after they resulted in me being caught trying to run a pair of Sandy's underwear up the flagpole at our church.

She'd still never told me why she thought it would be funny in the first place.

"Come on, Donny! It'll be fun, and it's just our junior prom: you'll have a chance to dress in a tux and go again next year," she said, giving up on the puppy dog eyes and flopping next to me on her couch, both of us slouching low enough more of our shoulders rested on the cushions than our butts. "And it'll be more fun with you there."

I snorted at that. "You don't need me there. You'll have Butch," I said, using her boyfriend's nickname. 'Butch' Cassidy Delmonte had been Sandy's beau for almost six months. They weren't the school's 'it' couple – Cassidy was captain of the basketball team, not the football team, and Sandy preferred debate club over cheerleading – but they were up there on the school's list of perfect couples.

Sandy groaned and closed her eyes. "This again? Listen, I'm sorry things have been awkward hanging out, but you have to admit it's really sweet of Butch to invite you with us on our dates sometimes. He knows we've been friends for, like, forever, and he doesn't want to mess that up."

"*sigh* I know."

"And it's not like we MAKE you tag along."

"I know!"

I crossed my arms and gave my best friend in the whole world a hard look. In truth, we were closer than just friends. We were practically family.

No, not practically. We WERE family.

Our moms had been best friends before we were born, our dads had been best friends before they'd met our moms, and we had never lived more than a block apart or spent more than a few days away from each other, our entire lives. Our birthdays were three days apart. We had the same favorite movie, favorite color, and favorite soda. We even managed to pull the whole twin-speak thing on occasion, though it had been years since we'd managed to use it for anything particularly fun (or nefarious.)

The fact that she was the chocolate haired, green-eyed girl next door, down to the near-perfect body and a beautiful warmth to her skin thanks to her mixed heritage. That I was the blond-haired blue-eyed pasty nerd boy she deigned to hang out with for some reason, raised eyebrows occasionally. Still, it had been our schtick for our whole lives. We weren't about to stop being close just because people looked at us funny.

"You'd have fun, you know," she said, her eyes still closed. "You always do."

"Did," I countered. "And that was years ago. We've both grown up since then."

"Pssht. Bitch, I know you're still the same size as me, or are you forgetting the pool party over the summer?"

I groaned. "How can I if you keep reminding me?" It wasn't my fault the stairs were slippery, as was the cake platter, nor was it my fault I wound up under the chocolate lava cake when we both went tumbling down the stairs. "And they didn't fit. They were too tight."

"Nuh-uh," Sandy said playfully, sticking her tongue out at me. "They were perfect. If you'd worn the bra I asked you to and shaved your legs, YOU woulda been perfect."

I huffed but didn't say anything. She'd wanted me to wear her shoes, too, but I'd won that argument when she got pissy over the fact my feet were a size smaller than hers.

"I don't wanna go to prom with a boy," I finally countered. "Everyone will think I'm wei-OW!" I reached up to rub my arm where Sandy had punched me. "What was that for?" I whined.

"Don't be an asshole," she said, giving me a disgusted look. "You know Evelyn and Lilah are going together, and so are Kyle and Ross. We'll have several other gay couples there, too. And we both know that if a boy had asked you, you'd have probably said yes."

"No! I mean, not just ANY boy," I admitted quietly. I'd never told Sandy I liked boys, but I'd never had to either. "But one didn't. And one isn't asking me now. I don't even KNOW this 'Ted.'"

Sandy grinned. "Oh, he's a cutie. Tall, broad shoulders and curly black hair. Always seems to have a bit of stubble, looks a bit like that guy who plays Superman in that movie where he fought Batman."

"With the mustache lip?"

"Minus the mustache lip."

I thought about it and had to admit the image wasn't unappealing. "Still. You're not asking ME to go. You're asking Donna, and she's gone."

Sandy gave me a Look.

"Dead as a doornail."

She continued to stare.

"Kablooie."

Sandy shook her head and just grinned at me.

"What?"

"Ugh!" Sandy whined, rolling her eyes and sitting up. "I'd say 'have you looked in a mirror lately,' but I already know you check yourself out in almost every one you pass."

"I do not!" I complained, fighting the urge to glance in the mirror next to the TV across from us and do just that. I knew my hair was a mess but was hoping the frazzled look would help my case.

It didn't.

"You totally do. You spend longer on your hair most mornings than I do. I don't blame you, it's gorgeous, and I'd kill you for it if you were anyone else, but for real. Blonde hair almost to your ass, Long lashes, pouty-ass lips. If you'd drop the nerd specs and wear your contacts more, all the guys would be looking at you."

"I have enough people wanting to kick my ass already. The contacts would just make that worse."

"Oh, come on. You know that's not why they give you second glances. A little work on your brows and some mascara, and you could have half the boys in our grade eating out of your hand."

It was my turn to roll my eyes. "Yes, because straight boys love it SO much when they learn the girl they've been hitting on has a bigger dick than they do."

"*Snerk* Not like YOU could ever say that."

I frowned but again didn't argue. I couldn't: Sandy had seen me naked as many times as I'd seen her, both numbers probably higher than any of our parents would believe or be comfortable with.

"You know, most guys would take a girl saying that about their junk a lot harder."

"Yeah, well," I shrugged. "I'm not like most guys."

'And THAT," she said, snapping her fingers and standing up, "is my point! Come on, Donny!" She reached her hands out to me as she went back to the puppy dog eyes.

"No!"

"Can we at least see what Donna would look like now? Nobody else has to know."

NO!" I said again, crossing my arms under my chest and turning away from her.

"How about a bet then?"

I groaned and still didn't look at her.

"Here's the terms," she continued anyway. "I think you'll look gorgeous, and I think YOU know it. So, we go up to my room, find a cute outfit and get you dolled up. I'll even let you do your own makeup; you still remember how, right?" She waited for me to nod, and I did. "So long as you give it a legit try at doing a good job, anyway. If, after we give it our best shot, you end up looking like a drag queen or a boy in a dress, then I'll tell Butch he's gotta put on the dress and go with Ted himself."

I couldn't help but smile at the mental image of big, bad Butch, with his high school goatee and buzz cut, decked out for prom in a frilly pink dress.

"But if I win, then when we go to get my prom dress tonight, you have to pick one up too."

"I can't afford that!" I argued, then winced. "Not that you'd win."

"Hey, you can't tell me you've spent all that money we made doing lawn work last summer already since Butch has paid for you as well as me every time we've all gone out together."

"No," I agreed, figuring it was hardly a hardship for Butch, given his summer job had been working at his father's golf course. "But I don't want to spend it all on a dress for one night out either."

"Then we'll get you an LBD instead of a prom dress. It won't be quite as fancy as a lot of the other girls, but once again, this is just our junior prom. We can put you in the whole taffeta and silk ensemble next year."

"Now I'm wearing a dress next year too?"

"If you lose tonight, sure."

"That's not fair!"

"If you win, I'll pay for your tux. Both this year and next year."

I looked into Sandy's smiling eyes. She looked confident. Strong. Self-assured.

I finally risked a glance at the mirror next to the TV and saw the fear in my own eyes, as well as a rat's nest of my hair I'd have a hell of a time brushing out when I sat up.

All I had to do was say no.

I didn't have to leave. Sandy wanted me to do this, but I didn't think she'd kick me out of her house or tell me I couldn't go dress shopping with her just because I said no.

I looked back at my best friend. Then, back to myself in the mirror.

Just say 'no,' Donny.

Just say 'no.'

-==-

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All the teenagers at Sherwood High were excited about the arrival of the hypnotist, but for Miriam, the show has some rather unexpected consequences...

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All the teenagers at Sherwood High were excited about the arrival of the hypnotist, but for Miriam, the show has some rather unexpected consequences...

Echoes

By Melanie Ezell

Chapter 1: The Amazing Gordon

*God, could this class drag on any longer?*

"Miriam! Check this out!"

Miriam turned in time to see Cary, his best friend, doing a one handed handstand. "Pretty cool, huh?"

"Yeah, Cary, pretty cool." As he turned around, he heard a crash and the distinctive sound of Cary yelping in horror. The tall blonde boy dove into his assigned front row seat just before the teacher re-entered the room, much to Miriam's amusement. The cold stare from the teacher kept the laughter from the class to a minimum.

How did Cary ever become his best friend? They were as different as could be, after all. While Miriam was "tiny" compared to, well, just about everyone else in his school, Cary was one of the tallest members of their ninth grade class, with a slightly rugged appearance that contrasted greatly with Miriam's elfin features. Where Miriam was quiet and more of a listener, Cary was loud and full of a humor that was almost infectious. They were both well liked, if not popular, and were often called "The Odd Couple" by their fellow classmates. Nevertheless, they were nearly inseparable and had been since Cary moved to Robins Lake in the second grade, causing more than a few problems with the local "jocks" calling them rather rude names.

Miriam was too excited about the upcoming assembly to really concentrate on classwork, as was everyone at Sherwood High. After all, a hypnotist! This would be quite a show!

It had been the custom of the school for as long as anybody could remember to invite some sort of entertainer every semester, bringing in magicians, singers, artists, even the community theater group on several occasions to entertain the students. After hearing about the arrival of the hypnotist to town, the Events Committee knew instantly what this semester's event would be.

Cary turned suddenly to Miriam and said, “Hey! Maybe we can get him to hypnotize one of the girls and make her take her top off! That would be cool!”

Miriam didn't agree. First of all, because even at fifteen puberty had not yet graced the small auburn haired boy, and girls held no interest for him in that way. Second, he knew exactly which girl Cary wanted to see, and was too good of a friend to her - to all the girls - to think it funny that they should be embarrassed like that in front of the entire school.

Cary saw the face he gave him, and just grinned. “Hey, I know they're your friends, and besides, I wasn't serious! The school would never allow that!”

Miriam laughed. You couldn't stay mad at Cary long- he was too much of a goofball to be serious about anything.

"So, what do you wanna see?”

Miriam sighed. “Well, I've always thought it'd be neat to see a past life regression.”

Cary looked at him confused. “What's that?”

“It's where they hypnotize you, and then send you back in time in your head. You've heard of reincarnation? Well, they think your spirit remembers its past lives, so you can actually remember things from hundreds of years ago!”

“Hmm. Well, I don't believe it. Besides, I'm too cool to be hundreds of years old.”

Miriam laughed again. “Well, you most definitely are immature!”

That earned him a punch just as the bell rang to announce the time for the assembly.

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Once inside the loud, crowded Assembly Hall Cary and Miriam were forced to split up. As a member of the Events Committee, Cary was required to sit with the teachers on occasions such as this.

“Hey, over here!”

Miriam looked around to see his friend Lindy waving to him. He quickly made his way over to the tall brunette- the very person Cary had been wanting to see naked on stage. She hugged him when he finally reached her through the press of students, as she yelled above the din, “Why don't you sit with us?”, by us meaning her and the group of girls she hung out with.

“Um, okay. Where are you sitting at?”

“Right up here, in the front! Come on!”

She quickly led him to two adjoining seats in the very front row, center stage. All the boys around looked at Miriam in jealousy of sitting next to arguably the prettiest girl in school, but he knew they had no competition. Having a relationship with Lindy - or any of her girlfriends - would be like dating his sisters.

“Oh, I'm so excited!” she told him, and he just giggled with the girls at the thought of what the hypnotist might do.

Everyone quickly settled into their seats, and at the urge of the principal, quietened down just as the lights started to dim. Miriam felt a chill go through him from the excitement, and then, the curtain on stage began to slowly rise.

The stage was bare, save for the presence of an old ragged couch from the theater department and two mics on stands. Suddenly, to the blast of a trumpet fanfare across the speakers, an older man walked slowly from stage right to stand in the middle of the spotlight tracking across the set. His costume was quite extravagant, a purple velvet short coat with tails over a classic vest and black tie affair and wing tips, all topped off with an old, rather gaudy tophat perched at a rakish angle atop his greased back hair. As the trumpet blasts finished, he bowed genteelly before taking up the first mic.

“Greetings, ladies and gentlemen, I am The Amazing Gordon, hypnotist extraordinaire. Welcome to the greatest event of your short lives! Today you will witness the unbelievable, the uncanny, dare I say it, the impossible!” With broad, sweeping gestures, he seemed to bring every word he spoke to life, with an obvious flair for showmanship.

From the back of the room, through the laughter of all the students, one boy yelled, “Yeah, we've heard that all before! What can you do!”

“My dear boy! Why, to think you could question my talents!” The Amazing Gordon responded in mock injury. “I can make a football player into a star ballerina, the weakest of you into a world class wrestler, the strongest mind forget their own name! Even, though possibly the hardest of all, teach you some courtesy!” he said, with an impish grin that sent the audience roaring in applause as the young boy sat back embarrassed. They all knew this would truly be an entertaining evening.

“Now, before I begin, I feel there are a couple of things I must do. First and foremost, a warning: those of you who aide me on this journey will most likely do rather, shall we say, embarrassing activities.” This got a round of laughs and a few nervous giggles. “However, I swear on my honor as a hypnotist that no harm will come to you, nor will anything vulgar - such as stripping - be so much as mentioned.” Several of the boys in the audience let out disappointed moans, and Miriam could almost swear Gordon had aimed a wink at Cary as he delivered the warning.

“Good! With that settled, I need a volunteer!”

Over the next hour, the students were treated to an astonishing show. The Amazing Gordon opened with the first promised trick, and the cafeteria cum auditorium was brought to the brink of tears watching the star quarterback prance about to “Swan Lake”. After that, a junior girl volunteered, and was convinced to beatbox for the students. Everything from dead limbs to animal noises were performed on stage by numerous other members of the school body including several teachers, until Gordon stopped with a flourish to prepare for an announcement.

“My next trick shall, unfortunately, be my last for this evening.”

The entire audience visibly sagged at the realization that their show was nearing completion.

“Don't be weary, ladies and gentlemen, for my last act shall be most spectacular! In fact, if you wouldn't mind I'd like to ask the audience for suggestions!”

A murmur began passing through the seated children as questions of what should be performed were exchanged. From the teacher's table, though, Miriam clearly heard Cary yell for all to hear, “Do a past life regression for Miriam!”

Gordon's eyes seemed to take on a mischievous gleam as he said, “And who is this Miriam, might I ask?”

“Right here!” Lindy yelled, standing to introduce Gordon to his next “volunteer”, who appeared to be trying to melt into his chair.

“Ah, thank you, young lady. Would you be so kind as to bring my next victim- excuse me, guest- up on stage?”

Despite his best efforts, Miriam found himself unable to either melt into his chair or disappear, and blushed profusely as Lindy dragged him towards the center of the stage, to a round of jeers and applause from the audience.

“Ah, young Miriam, how splendid! Now, if you'll just take a seat on the sofa, I'll be with you shortly.” As Lindy headed offstage to return to her seat, The Amazing Gordon proceeded to explain to the audience what he was about to do. “Of all acts of hypnosis, the Past Life Regression is one of the most incredible and difficult. To send somebody back in time, to bring personalities through the void and into the realm of the physical once again, requires the utmost concentration on the parts of both the technician and the subject. Luckily for you, I have spent nearly ten years perfecting my technique, honing my mind to such a point, that it is but a small feat to obtain superior results. Please, young Miriam, lie down and we may begin.”

Miriam stretched out on the dusty old piece of furniture carefully, unsure of what was happening. As he settled into the well-worn cushions, Gordon took his place at the head, looking down upon Miriam with a broad grin.

The room was filled with a nervous silence as The Amazing Gordon began his work, using not a pocket watch to instigate hypnosis as with the others, but rather a crystal of a most beautiful violet hue dangling from a silver chain. “Now, concentrate on the pendulum, young one. Follow its path through the air, the slow sweeping motion as it swings from peak to peak, vertex to vertex, back and forth...” Miriam felt himself losing awareness of all but the pendulum, and slowly slipped into a cloud of purple and gray.

<=====>

A haze seemed to cover everything about him as Miriam tried to concentrate.

*Where am I?*

#You are nowhere,# a mysterious voice echoed from the platinum light surrounding the young man.

*Who are you?*

#I am no one. I am everyone. I am any one who lives, or has lived.#

Miriam was quite freaked out at this point, and attempted to scream, but no sound could escape his earnestly straining throat.

*Why am I here?* He thought.

#To learn.#

*To learn? To learn what?*

#To learn who you are.#

*I don't understand!*

Suddenly, a bright flash of white hot light brought him awake with a start.

<=====>

Marina screamed as she awoke with a start, sending her schoolbooks flying to the floor.

"Good to see you've finally decided to rejoin us, Mrs. Fallon. Now, if you'd be so kind as to answer the question you so rudely interrupted?"

"Um, what?" She asked, as she turned a brilliant shade of crimson from the laughter of the other students surrounding her confusion.

"Miss Fallon, I'd appreciate it if you could return your thoughts to 1965, please. Now, can you tell me who wrote the Surprise Symphony or not!"

"Sorry, Mrs. Leese. Um, I dunno, Handel? Haydn? Someone like that?"

The teacher was not amused. "Mrs. Fallon, this is the last time. I'd hate to have to report to your parents that-" another bright flash of light, and the classroom was gone again.

<=====>

"Mary Anne! Are you there?"

Mary Anne came out of her daze and looked around to try and find who was calling her. Bruce seemed perfectly content to sit on the stairs and await her return and the continuation of her ear scratching duties.

"Jessie, what eva is the problem?"

"Mary, them northerna's is comin' back! They said we have to free them damned niggas!"

"Oh, Daddy will not appreciate that! I'm sure thea's gonna be some words!"

The dog could wait while she fetched her father. If they lost those slaves there's no way Charlie would take her hand! Through the large oak front doors, and into the study-

<=====>

Marian opened her eyes slowly, though it didn't aid in her perception of her surroundings. No light penetrated into her dank, smelly, private hell, but she'd learned to dread the times it did. When there was light in the room, then one of 'them' were in the room. And if they were in the room, then she knew they were going to hurt her.

She couldn't remember much from before she was locked in this cage. They'd gotten her when she was seven, and all she'd known since then was the darkness, and the pain. She remembered her mother, so long ago, telling her the story of Maid Marian, her namesake, and Robin Hood. When they first took her, she'd hoped for a rescuer like him, but after the first few years came the realization that he'd never come.

Neither had they, for nearly six days. She was so weak. So tired.

A new darkness descended, not cold like that she knew- a numbness that took the pain away. For the first time in almost ten years, she could smile as everything melted into nothingness-

<=====>

Miriam awoke to the sound of somebody screaming. After a few seconds, he realized it was him.

"What happened?!"

Gordon, with a grave look upon his face, simply looked him over before replying nervously, "Nothing, nothing at all."

Miriam was quickly bundled up by the school nurse and taken offstage, while he noticed the entire auditorium was staring at him with looks of shock and horror.

"Come on, deary, we need to get you out of here. That man needs to tell everyone else something without you hearing it, I'm afraid. Come on!"

As he followed her, shaking, towards her office, he just managed to catch The Amazing Gordon saying to the crowd, "She must never know what happened to her today."

Miriam vaguely wondered who he was talking about, but was shaking too hard to put much thought into it.

Chapter 2: A Slip of the Tongue

Miriam tried hard to think of what could have happened when he went under, but couldn't seem to pin anything down. Vague recollections, like shadows of memories, seemed to flit through his mind, but as soon as he tried to concentrate on them they'd disappear. "What happened to me?" he asked the nurse busy checking his blood pressure.

"Sweety, I'm not sure that's for me to be tellin' you." was all he managed to get. Well, this was most definitely NOT what he had been expecting.

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The Amazing Gordon gazed intently at the crowd before him. He dreaded what he was about to have to do, but it was for the protection of the child, and he knew there wasn't any other way to handle things. He decided to deliver the main message first, and then explain why. "She must never know what happened to her today."

He noticed several faces in the crowd look at him, confused. "Who's she, sir?" The young lady who had guided the poor lamb on stage asked.

"Your friend, Miriam. She must never know what we saw in her past."

While obviously less confused now, the girl gave him an odd stare as she spoke, "Mr. Gordon, sir, Miriam is a boy."

*My God*, he thought, *this is worse than I could have imagined.*

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The last hour of the school day seemed to pass unbearably slow for Miriam as he tried not to think about what had happened. What HAD happened? He couldn't remember anything, and no matter who he asked nobody else seemed to want to tell him.

*Did I do something? Why did I scream, and what's got everyone else so nervous?*

Finally, after an age of waiting, the final bell rang and the students began exiting the classroom and heading home. He just managed to catch Cary at the doors to accompany him.

"So, surely YOU can tell me what went on?"

"I'm sorry, Miriam, I can't."

"Why won't anybody tell me! GAH!"

"Man, I'm really sorry, but we've all been told not to!"

"GRRRR!!"

The rest of the walk home was made in silence, Cary too upset to talk and Miriam too frustrated. *Why can't they just let me know what's going on? It's not like it can hurt anything. Can it?*

The afternoon and dinner passed in a rush, and Miriam soon found himself preparing for bed, still completely clueless as to what could have happened.

Plantations and fields, odd yet somehow familiar classrooms, and an evil blackness filled his dreams that night, and he woke up several times to find himself in a cold sweat with nothing to attach the images spinning through his head to reality.

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Cary tried to go to sleep, but couldn't get the events of the day out of his head. He was tempted to think it was all some kind of sick joke on the part of that Gordon guy, but why? And besides, when they woke Miriam back up Gordon was in as much a state as any of the other adults trying to make sure he was okay.

More disturbing, though, was Cary's inability to get the image of Miriam as a girl out of his head. He of all people knew that Miriam wasn't exactly the most manly of sorts, but to the best of his knowledge nobody had ever thought Miriam acted like a girl. After those memories, or whatever they were, though, it somehow seemed to fit.

How could his best friend have been a girl? And why did the idea of him being one again excite him so much?

<=====>

Lindy tried to call Miriam, but by the time she got home after dance practice and dinner he'd already gone to bed. She worried about him just as much as any of her girlfriends, possibly more. Being the only boy in their little group, all the girls had kind of adopted him, and though neither he nor Cary knew it, the teasing from the jocks would have been much worse if it wasn't for the girls in the group who were dating sports players keeping them somewhat in check.

That Past Life Regression thing had been interesting, but not really that surprising to her. She'd always considered Miriam to be just "one of the girls," and none of the others from what she could tell considered him to be anything else. She understood why they had to keep what happened from getting to Miriam, but had a bad feeling that someone would use it against him.

How can you sleep when one of your best friends' lives is on the line?

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BRRRRRRRRRZZZZZZZZ!

Miriam awoke the next morning in a less than chipper mood. Between the odd dreams and anxiety over the drama the day before, his sleep had been troubled and broken at best, nonexistent at worst.

"There you are, you little bedhead! I thought I'd have to drag you downstairs for breakfast this morning by that mop of yours." Gina, his mom, had been pestering Miriam to get a haircut for weeks, but he'd been holding off to save his money for a new computer instead. It was down to his shoulders by now, but he didn't really mind and he kept it clean, so she didn't bother him too much about it.

"Sorry, mom, I had some weird dreams last night, they kinda kept me awake."

"Well, you need to get around quickly if you plan on walking to school this morning with Cary. Eat up and then off with you!"

After a rushed breakfast Miriam made his way towards his room to get dressed in the standard school uniform- loose jeans, baggy tee, threadbare jean jacket and sneaks and he was ready for the day.

"Bye mom!" He called as he ran out the door and down the street towards his and Cary's regular rendezvous spot at the corner of Loksley and Sherwood. It was weird living on a street named after your great grandfather, but at least sharing a last name with your street address meant you never forgot where you lived!

After meeting up with Cary, they turned off Loksley and down Sherwood towards the school. It wasn't far, maybe a fifteen minute walk on an average day, but it usually gave them time to talk and discuss homework before class. Today, however, Miriam couldn't help feeling that Cary seemed oddly uncomfortable walking with him.

After five minutes of trying unsuccessfully to start a conversation with the boy, he finally gave up. "Fine! If you won't talk to me, though, at least tell me why!"

Cary gave him a startled look, and stuttering tried to answer. "Well, i-it's ju-just that, well, um, s-s-s-sorry."

Miriam couldn't help the pout that formed on his face. After a couple of minutes more of walking, Cary finally seemed to pull himself together and opened up for conversation, and by the time they reached the school, Miriam had almost forgotten about the difficulties earlier. They met Lindy at the doors to the school, and the three walked in together to head towards their homeroom.

"So Cary," Lindy asked, "how long until Jonathan's back? I mean, he's been out for what, two weeks now? I think he's probably on the last leg as far as excused absences, even for being sick."

"He got out of the hospital after getting over the Pneumonia over the weekend, and his mom and the doctor felt it'd be best if he recovered another week before returning, so he should be back Monday."

"Great!" It was a very poorly hidden fact that Lindy had a tremendous crush on Jonathan, Cary's only other close friend besides Miriam. Their friendship had a bit more foundation than his and Miriam's, as Jonathan was the class clown for the next grade up, and other than having brown hair him and Cary could almost pass for brothers.

"Yeah, as soon as he gets back we have to get back to work on practicing for the Archery Contest, we've already missed too much practice time by goofing around, and with the competition only a few weeks away I'm not sure if we'll be up to par."

"Sure you will be!" Miriam quipped. "You two are the best bowmen in the entire school, even if you haven't practiced since before Christmas break. It's still the first week of March, and the competition isn't until the second week in April, that's plenty of time for you two to get back up to speed!"

They split up at the door to homeroom and each headed towards their assigned desks. Upon reaching his, however, Miriam was surprised to find a skirt and knickers laying in his seat with a note on top. Snickers coming from the back of the room let him know the culprit was John Prince, the so-called "King of Jocks" at Sherwood High, and his flunkies. Without so much as a backwards glance, Miriam simply picked up the bundle, note and all, and placed it upon the teacher's worktable, to be dealt with by someone else. He managed to get back to his desk and seated just prior to the first bell, and the arrival of Mr. Hendricks, their homeroom teacher, signaled the beginning of the school day.

By lunchtime nothing more had occurred to worry Miriam, and he was just beginning to get that warm feeling that he'd come to realize meant a full tummy when shouting from the other end of the cafeteria jarred him out of contemplation of his chicken sandwich and back into reality.

"Hey, girly freak! Over here!"

It was Prince, and apparently his taunts were being directed at who else but Miriam. "Yeah, you heard me, over here!"

"Just ignore them, Miriam," Lindy rubbed his shoulders. "They're just being jerks."

Miriam decided he'd had enough lunch, and picking up his tray, began the walk back towards the return window - on the other side of Prince and his cronies' table. *Just ignore them, easy as that, then you can get out of here.*

His plans were dashed, however, when he was grabbed from behind. Mike Notts, the Sheriffs son, of course. He was Prince's right hand, and only ever managed to pass his classes or keep from getting expelled due to his father's threats of "searching" the school for illegal substances.

"Think you can ignore us, you little faggot!" Prince was obviously in full blown bully mode today, and despite the fact that nobody wanted to see Miriam treated so, the risks of jumping in were too great, and with Cary already gone...

"What's wrong, didn't like your skirt this morning? Figured a little girl like you would absolutely love that, after yesterday! 'Oh, no, don't hurt me!' Bet you liked all those girly lives, didn't you! 'Mary Ann' this and 'Marian' that!"

What was he talking about? Girly lives? And who was Mary Ann-

Miriam's tray hit the floor just as the fist connected with his stomach.

<== chapters 3 and 4 coming soon!==>

Echoes- Part 2

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Fiction

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • School or College Life

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  • Posted by author(s)

Chapters 3 through 5.

What happened at the assembly? Why won't anybody tell Miriam what the hypnotist did?

And why are Miriam's thoughts no longer always his own?

A quick "thank'ee" goes out to all those who read and commented on the first two chapters of "Echoes". I realize it's been a few months now since I posted it, and I intended to get the next part up much sooner, but due to issues with the internet and moving to a new city I never had the opportunity. However, the wait is now over!

Note: Any and all suggestions appreciated. This story moves rather slow, and even in this part the TG elements aren't really played upon all that much, so if you're wanting a story with a quick transformation, I'm afraid you'll be disappointed. In fact, a note on my note: I'm up to Chapter 9 in writing ahead already, and the main character still hasn't so much as tried on a pair of girl's shoes. I'm trying to focus more on the mental and social elements of the change rather than do the standard "clothes make the girl" story I read so often, which may not appeal to many readers.

And now, without wasting any more wind on explanations and disclaimers, the story.

Echoes

By Melanie Ezell

Part II

Chapter 3: Sturm und Drang

For the second day running, Miriam found himself in the nurse's office, this time with a worried Lindy at his side.

"My goodness, what ever happened?"

"Prince, ma'am. He was teasing Miriam, and then punched him in the stomach."

Miriam sat on the end of the bed, trying to make sense of things. The punch had hurt, but that was nothing compared to the knockdown force of that name.

*Mary Anne. Why does that name sound so familiar?*

"Miriam, sweetie, are you with us?" The nurse gently prodded his shoulder, concerned by his continued silence.

"What? Yeah, I'm here. Just thinking." Lindy silently took his hand in an attempt to ease his obvious trembling.

Marian. Just the thought of that name brought up images, yet he had no idea where they came from. He tried to focus on the pictures and ideas flashing through his mind, but couldn't get a grip on them any better than his dreams the previous night.

"Well, I think you're good to go, young man, but try to stay away from that bully from now on, okay?"

"Yeah, sure. Hey, Lindy?"

"Miriam?"

"What was up with the names Prince kept calling me? Something about 'Mary Anne', or 'Marian' or something?" The color seemed to drain from her face at the mention of the names, and she shot a quick look towards the nurse. *Ah, so something's going on.* "Does this have anything to do with that hypnotist yesterday?"

"Now where would you get that idea? Of course not!" She answered, a bit too quickly for the truth. "I'm sure it's nothing. Come on, let's get you to the Principal's office, your mom should be here to pick you up by now."

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Besides the standard Mom questions on the ride back to the house, Miriam was free of distractions, and contemplated just where these events were leading. *Something happened back there besides just being punched. GAH! What's happening to me? Why can't I focus?* After three hours of trying to find some kind of explanation, he decided a walk was in order to help clear his head.

Donning his jacket and sneaks, he quickly made his way out the front door and down the street in the opposite direction from the school, towards the park. Spring was just starting to make itself known in their neighborhood, and Miriam couldn't help but admire the fresh buds just starting to bloom among the bushes and trees lining the footpaths and trails throughout the park. This had been his favorite retreat from his problems ever since first grade, when the first serious teasing had began. With a name like Miriam, he'd come to realize, such things were inevitable, but it wasn't really his parent's fault, after all. They'd meant to name him "Merriam", after the dictionary guy, with the idea that naming him after someone smart would somehow magically gift him with intelligence.

Ironic, that they misspelled the name on his birth certificate, all things considered. It really hadn't seemed that big a deal at first, really just an alternate spelling, and so they had let it slide. With the arrival of school, and the discovery that different means bad, that minor mistake quickly turned into a curse. He had to let out a short laugh when he thought of the fact that he really had gotten so smart due to his name. After all, he had it to thank for all the time he'd spent reading or studying instead of out playing sports with the other boys his age. Then again, his small size probably didn't help much, either. If only his talents had extended to math, he thought, he may have had the highest grades in their class. As it was, he struggled to maintain a C average in any maths that required more strenuous calculations than basic addition and subtraction, while his grammar and history scores were the envy of the rest of his year.

His recollections were momentarily interrupted by a small flock of snowbirds bursting from the holly bush just ahead of him, and he stopped to watch them energetically flap their way towards the old, gnarled willow trees overhanging the river. The river. The thought of the last time he'd been down the path that led to The Banks caused him to giggle. Him, Cary, and Jonathan had become bored with their typical activities near the end of the summer, and had decided that some swimming was in order. Miriam had invited Lindy and the girls to join them, and the entire party had headed down to the "locals only" spot, fondly called The Banks by most of the families living in the area. He remembered no one even getting into the water, but instead sitting in the sun on the gravel shores with Lindy and some of the girls and just talking about school and how their summers had gone. Cary and Jonathan had entertained themselves by skipping stones and generally horsing around, but the real show started when Cary slipped from the rocky outcropping they were using as a pier and slid into the river fully clothed. Miriam broke down laughing at the memory of how he'd ended up having to borrow a bright pink beach towel from Sarah to wrap himself in while his clothes were drying out, having planned on swimming in his boxers, and how wearing nothing but a towel he'd still managed to goof around. He'd even done a striptease for the girls when he'd first gotten out of the water. It had ended up being the highlight of their summer, and the last chance they'd had to get together prior to the start of school.

Mixed in with his memories of the river were others as well, of evenings spent sitting out on those same moss covered rocks and letting her feet soak in the icy water, her sundress scrunched up around her knees to keep it from getting wet, and that cute George from down the road holding her-

Wait a second! Where did THAT come from? Miriam shook his head briskly, trying to shake the odd feelings he was having. *Must have been something I read about. Heh, one too many romance novels, guess I'll have to stop asking Mom for book suggestions. You'd think she doesn't have a life of her own with the way she consumes those things.* Glancing down at his watch, he was shocked to find the time read half six: he'd been out nearly two hours! He made his way quickly along the foot path back out and on to the street, and managed to get home just as his Dad pulled into the driveway, the back of their old Blazer filled with grocery bags.

"Care to give me a hand, son?"

"Sure, Dad. Which one?"

"Very funny, there's more in the seats. Hop to it."

After a couple more trips each, all the packages were finally unloaded and put away safely in the cupboards. "Dinner's at seven, nothing fancy, just Alfredo tonight," Mom called from the kitchen as Miriam and his father headed out. "Miriam, get back here, you're helping."

"Mom, do you really need my help? I know that Alfredo isn't that hard."

"You're helping, and that's that, now come on."

"Dad?"

"Listen to your Mom, Miriam. Trust me, it'll make things easier on both of us."

"I heard that, buster!"

"See? I'm already in trouble."

Miriam couldn't help the laugh that escaped his lips as he headed back to his Mom. His Dad, Bill Loksley, might not be the biggest man around, but he could diffuse almost any situation with his patent humor, which was one reason he worked Public Relations for a couple of local companies, though Miriam could never remember what they were. The coke bottle glasses he needed to help correct his astigmatism often ended up being used as a prop for his jokes, even. As he said whenever Miriam came to him with a problem, "They can't make fun of something if you make fun of it first."

While his Dad may have been the typical geek, his Mom Felicity brought new meaning to the phrase "opposites attract." She wasn't much taller than Miriam, but made up for her height with her sunny disposition and 'cute' features. It was obvious which parent he took after, and much to his dismay, he often found his grandparents on his Mom's side comparing him to her at his age. At least he'd gotten his Dad's hair color- being a near perfect platinum blonde would have made things that much harder for him with the jocks at school when combined with everything else.

As he stood at the counter mixing the ingredients for the sauce, she asked him, "So, what's this I hear about you having trouble with the Prince kid?"

*Ah, that's why she wanted me to help.* "Nothing, Mom, just the usual harassment, though I'm kinda worried about yesterday."

"What happened yesterday?"

*Bum!* "Mom, it's nothing. Just a bit of fun at the assembly. I'm not really sure myself, to be honest, I was out of it at the time."

"Well, you know I worry about you, but if you don't wanna talk about it I'll leave it alone. So, what'd you think about "McGregor's Rose Garden" then?"

"It was okay, but I think I've been reading too many of your romance novels, Mom. Don't you have anything more, uh, academic?"

"Well, I have a couple of Jane Austen books, they're some of my faves. Really romantic and sweet, wanna try one?"

*Sigh.* "No, Mom, that's okay. Maybe later. I think I'll see if Cary's finished that new Tolkien book he's got yet. I've read too much 'romantic and sweet' lately, and it's starting to mess with my head."

"Oh, nonsense, you can never have too much romantic and sweet, 'Meriadoc'!"

"If it's going to get you started on THAT again, I think I'll skip the Tolkien, then." It'd taken more work to explain his Mom calling him 'Merry' than it'd taken to explain his real name the first time the kids at school had heard her use it. Sometimes having cool parents could be really embarrassing.

The noodle came out of nowhere, and from her giggling his Mom seemed rather proud of her aim: it took him three tries to finally pry the wet food from his back before attempting a return volley, but unfortunately his aim wasn't quite as good as hers, resulting in a nasty mess on the fridge.

"You're cleaning that up, you know."

"Hey! You threw it at me first!"

"And? I'm the Mom, I have special rights."

"Just get back to work on your pasta, then."

"Yessa, massa."

Miriam paused in his stirring. "Why ain't Amos cookin' tonight, anyways?"

"Who's Amos?"

"You know, that servant that's always runnin' 'round hea."

"What are you talking about? And what's with the bad southern belle accent all of a sudden?"

"What?" *Wait, what was I just talking about? We don't have a servant.*

"Come on, joke's up, get back to that sauce," his Mom smirked as she turned back around.

*Things are getting just TOO weird. I need to figure this out, and soon.*

<=====>

Cary still couldn't seem to shake the thought of Miriam as a girl from his head. He'd felt especially bad after hearing what happened in the lunchroom. If only he'd been there, he could have helped to protect him, but that's one reason he'd had to leave the room in the first place; he was getting just too attached to Miriam. He didn't want to lose his oldest friend, yet things had changed so much already he had no idea what was going to happen. *And what was I doing this morning? Jeez, I felt like I was trying to chat up a girl or something on the way to school! What am I gonna do?*

Learning what the jocks had actually done made him that much angrier. *That Gordon guy told us EXACTLY why Miriam didn't need to be messed with about the life thing. What are they getting at? Do they really want to make life that difficult for her? Him! Dammit!*

<=====>

*I'm really gonna have to start trying to get home from dance practice earlier.*

It was too late now, though. Miriam would already be in bed, and she didn't want to disturb his sleep after everything that happened today. If only those bullies weren't so stupid, maybe they'd realize exactly what they had just done. The idea that they knew exactly what they were doing was just too cruel to even consider.

*We're really going to have to keep an eye out for him now.* Gordon had given the entire audience a brief description of the reasons why Miriam didn't need to learn what had happened, but afterwards, he'd taken her off to the side to explain in more detail exactly what was going on. What Lindy heard was quite disturbing, but she promised to do her best to keep him safe, and now she'd already failed not twenty four hours after getting the warnings. *I hope he's all right. I can't imagine how hard this is going to make things for him now, but Gordon made everyone promise not to talk about it, and even if the jocks ignored his warning, I know that everyone else likes Miriam enough to keep their mouths shut. Let's hope things don't get any worse.*

<=====>

For the second night in a row, Miriam's sleep was disturbed by odd dreams, but this time there was more clarity to everything than the previous night, and he could remember parts of the dreams when he awoke. He finally recognized the school as the old high school building, but they'd stopped using it back in the 80's due to safety regulations or something like that. He didn't have any idea where that farm or whatever was, and he was certain he didn't WANT to know about the blackness. The others weren't that bad, just weird, but he shuddered when the blackness entered his thoughts.

The chill air in his room caused goose pimples to pop up all along his bare arms and legs, but he didn't notice as he curled up and wept.

Chapter 4: Revelations

The early morning sunlight penetrated the window of Miriam's bedroom, bathing everything in a muddy orange light as it filtered through the layers of curtains meant to keep it out. As he sat up and stretched, two thoughts drifted into his consciousness.

*It's Saturday.* That thought made him smile. *The Assembly.* A cold chill ran down his spine as the events of the last two days congealed.

"SHIT!"

<=====>

RINGRING! RINGRING!

RINGRING! RINGRING!

"Wha?" Cary tried to sort through the fuzz in his head to attach the sound he heard to some kind of logical interpretation.

RINGRING! RINGRING!

*Phone.*

RINGRING!

*I should answer that.*

RINGRING!

The droning of the phone was soon accompanied by the sound of his resumed snoring.

<=====>

Miriam dropped the phone back in the cradle, and tried to keep from screaming.

*What is going on! Why can't I remember what happened at the assembly, anyways? I thought you were supposed to be able to remember the things you saw, so why can't I?*

It had been a bad idea to try and phone Cary this early, he realized. After all, it's the weekend, he wouldn't be getting up until sometime around noon at the earliest. But who else was there he could talk to about this?

He picked the receiver back up, and dialed the number.

<=====>

"Hello?"

"Lindy? It's me, Miriam."

"Oh, hey!" *Finally!* "I was gonna call you last night, but I didn't get in from dance in time. Are you doing okay?"

"Yeah, I'm doing alright. Listen, I need to talk to you, and I need you to be straight with me. Where can we meet up?"

She really didn't like the way this conversation was going.

<=====>

After a quarter hour of nervous pacing, Miriam finally saw Lindy approaching The Banks from the opposite end of the trail from the side he'd come in from. "There you are!"

"Well, sorry, but I can't exactly just throw yesterday's jeans on!"

"Hey, neither did I!" He tried to calm the anxiety building up in his system before he snapped. "I, like, really don't have time to deal with this right now. I have to know just what's going on, Lindy. You and Cary know. I know you know, so there's no sense in trying to claim you don't."

He noticed her visibly cringe at his accusation, but by this point, he was over his normal aversion to making others uncomfortable. However, she was one of his best friends. "Lindy, please. I've got to know. I keep having these weird- flashbacks, I think. I'm remembering things that haven't happened to me, yesterday I even started talking like someone else! Please! Did something happen at the assembly or am I just going crazy?"

The look on her face showed the internal struggle she was going through. After what felt like an eternity, she at last seemed to come to a conclusion. "Miriam, I can't tell you. But before you blow up on me again," she said, as he started to say something rude, "I think we need to go see someone who may be able to help."

<=====>

"Dad, who called this morning?"

"I dunno." Ever since his mom left when he was six, Cary's dad had never seemed to really have any energy or interest in his son's life. It was just as well they'd moved, as with his on again off again employment there was no way Cary's father could have afforded the payments on their old house.

Without another word to his father, he went and checked the caller ID. "Crap, it was Miriam. Dad, I've gotta go."

"Later."

*Yeah, dad. Later.*

<=====>

After seeing the overacted and dramatic production that was The Amazing Gordon's stage show, Miriam had expected their destination to be some old, gaudy victorian house or an outdated warehouse filled with theatrical props or something. What he hadn't expected was the small, sterile room in an office complex they now stood in front of. His quick glance of disbelief was returned by Lindy just as the large, glass paned door swung open to reveal The Amazing Gordon himself. While not donning his stage outfit, his appearance was still suitably off kilter, with a tweed suit topped by an awful lime green bowler hat the likes of which had not been seen in many years. "Welcome, children, do come in." His slate eyes smiled at them from beneath his bushy brows and over greased hair, while his hat occupied his right hand as he bowed.

As they took in the inside of the office, they were just as surprised as they had been at its external appearance. Blank walls, with no furniture save a pair of leather chairs set in the center of the room opposite a low lounger. "Please do pardon the room, it is but a rental as I do not intend to be here long. Now, what assistance do you two require?" Miriam felt the man's gaze come to rest directly on him.

Miriam couldn't hold his fear in any more. "What happened to me Thursday! I wake up screaming, and nobody will tell me what's going on, then yesterday the stupid jocks start calling me a girl and all these names, and I keep remembering things that never happened, and all these weird dreams! What did you do to me!" He knew he was getting overexcited, but he had to get it out. The shouting helped him to feel better, and as he resumed breathing, he felt a little calmer than he had previously, though he couldn't help the tears that had begun slowly streaming down his face.

The look of pure sorrow that came over the old man's face shocked Miriam. "I was afraid this would happen. It was naive of me to believe a group of school children would be mature enough to heed my warnings. You must understand, what happened to you on stage was not planned, nor was it typical of such an act." Gordon motioned for Miriam and Lindy to take seats, as he lowered himself into one of the chairs. Miriam took the lounger, and Gordon began again. "What happened to you Thursday, Miriam, is not a common occurrence. While most people are capable of viewing events in their past lives through the eyes of their previous incarnations, you did much more than that. You absorbed the personalities and views of those you were looking through. In short, rather than merely seeing your past lives, you were truly reliving every moment you spent in any memory." He gave the two a moment to absorb this, and went on. "This caused some, well, interesting problems, because while to the inexperienced eye you were describing things that happened to others long ago, it meant I could not remove you from the hypnosis as I normally would have done."

"But, why not?"

"Because it might not have been you that I brought back to the modern day. If I were to simply bring you back, I could have permanently rewrote you as one of your pasts. I tried to take precautions, but when you started to slip, I had to act quickly, otherwise we could have lost you."

"You mean, when I woke up screaming?"

"Yes."

"What happened? I've been getting weird memories, but I don't know when or where they happened."

"I see. Because of your unique situation, I was afraid to advance you back too much at any time, so I did my best to go slow. I only let you have a glimpse at any one life, because the longer you stayed in one spot, the more problems I would have getting you out. I had gotten through two lives with very few problems, and everyone seemed to be quite enjoying your descriptions of events, but the third life I took you to was a different story." Gordon seemed to choke up at this point, and stopped talking.

"Please, go on, I need to know what happened."

"We heard you die," Lindy sighed softly from his other side, and he turned to see her near tears.

<=====>

"Yes?"

"Hey, Mrs. Loksley, is Miriam here?"

"No, sorry Cary, I think he went out to the park to talk to Lindy about something, he seemed pretty upset but he didn't want to talk to me about it."

*Dammit, I missed him! And by now I doubt they're at the park any more.* An idea struck him, and he quickly asked, "Would you mind if I borrowed your phone?"

"No, of course not!"

"Thanks!" He took the hand set she offered him, and dialed Lindy's cell number.

<=====>

Miriam stared at the girl and man sitting across from him in shock. "You can't be serious."

"I'm afraid it was all too serious. I had brought you back just as your spirit was leaving your body. You were dying of thirst and hunger, and I didn't have any choice but to pull you out as quickly as possible. I tried to take all precautions I could, but there wasn't enough time to do any foolproof permanent blocking, and after you were awake it was too late."

"So how does that explain things?"

"I managed to get you out, but I couldn't completely keep any of your older personalities and memories out. In most normal past life regressions it is for the recipient's benefit if they remember their experience, but in your case doing so would cause no end of problems, as you are beginning to realize."

"After you left, he explained to the rest of us what had happened, kinda. Everyone promised not to cause you any problems, but-" her cell phone ringing cut her off. "I've gotta get this, it's Cary."

The Amazing Gordon stood, and smiled down upon Miriam. "Well, I do believe that's quite enough excitement for one day. I've got appointments to work with now, so if you would," and he escorted both Miriam and Lindy out the door.

As Miriam walked out of the building with Lindy chattering away behind him, he remembered two important things the old man hadn't mentioned: How do I stop this, and why are all the memories as girls?

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"Yeah, I think we're gonna go eat now, it's been a long day already. Want to meet us for a quick meal at Pizza Hut about two?"

"Sure, I'll be there." Cary was just glad to get a hold of the two. From what Lindy said, Miriam was finally 'in the know' on what was going on, and could use some support now. Besides, he was starving.

Mrs. Loksley walked out of the kitchen and into the sitting room to check on him and with a worried look on her face asked him, "How are they?"

"They're fine." *Just been asking a hypnotist why Miriam's head's all messed up is all* he thought, but didn't add. "Thanks for the phone."

"Oh, you're welcome, honey. You're over here enough you don't even have to ask, you know that."

"Well, I gotta get going, we're meeting for Pizza in about half an hour, so I'll see you later. Good bye, Mrs. Loksley!"

"Goodbye, Cary, and please, how many times do I have to ask you, call me Felicity."

"All right, bye Felicity." He called back. He loved her like a mom, but appreciated that she'd never asked him to call her that. It still had too much of a sour note for him.

He began the walk towards the part of town where Pizza Hut was, the happiness to be seeing his friends outside of school counterbalanced by the thought of the talk they would probably be having when he got there.

Chapter 5: Phantoms

Their veggie pizza arrived at their booth just as Miriam and Lindy finished filling Cary in on their talk with Gordon. "And what would you like, sir?"

"Oh, uh, small meat lover's, please."

"Coming up." The waitress smiled as she turned around to get his pie.

"I don't see how you two eat that veggie junk. It isn't pizza without sausage or pepperoni."

"Yeah, well. So, what do you think I should do?" Miriam was feeling stressed out, but at least now he had the two people he trusted most in the world nearby, ready to help.

"Well," Cary began around a mouthful of stolen 'veggie junk', "the way I see it, there really isn't anything you CAN do. I'm sorry, but I think your best bet is just to ride this out."

"But," Miriam could feel the embarrassment rising to his cheeks. He didn't want to have to tell them about the memory by the river, but it seemed the only way to stress to them what was happening. "It's more than just memories coming back. I mean, I feel what I felt- the other people felt, when they happened. Like the other day by the river."

"What about the river?"

"Well," *God this is embarrassing,* "I remembered sitting on the rock pier, you know, out at The Banks? With my... my... boyfriend."

Cary's eyes widened into saucers. "Oh," he managed to squeak.

Lindy was confused. "Yeah, so? I do that all the time. It's no biggie."

"But it is to ME! I mean, I'm a boy, and here I am thinking about how much I wanted another boy to kiss me!" The restaurant went deathly quiet. *I probably shouldn't have yelled that out loud.*

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"GAHahahaha!"

"Oh, sure, ha ha. I'm glad you're finding this funny!"

"Come on, Miriam! That was CLASSIC! And when that really cute waiter grabbed your ass on the way out!" She couldn't hold it back any more, and the giggles returned. Cary was incapable of coherent speech, and merely stood off to the side, slapping his knee and trying to get his breath back between fits.

"Guys!" Miriam tried not to, but the smile appeared at the same time the blush reached his ears. At least they had managed to make it outside before starting.

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"So, where to now? I don't have to be home until nine thirty or so, which gives us a good... six hours until I need to start thinking about getting back."

"I don't really care, just as long as you don't let me do anything like THAT again."

"Can't promise that, buddy, but we'll do our best."

Miriam just sighed. "How about the shopping center?" This met with agreement from both of the other teens.

"Sounds good, I need to look for a new bag anyways, I ripped mine open on the teacher's desk the other day when I did that handstand."

"No, you ripped it yesterday when you were trying to put that blacklight bulb in the terrarium during Biology," Lindy corrected him. Miriam couldn't help but think he missed something good after going home early the day before.

"Oh, yeah." The smirk on Cary's face said it all. "I swear to you, if he'd just let me do it the snakes would have looked SO COOL."

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As usual for a Saturday afternoon, the Robins Lake Shopping Center was packed with teenagers with nothing to do and allowance to do it with. "Come on, 'Peterson's' has the backpack I need," Cary told the other two as he started off towards the store.

"Oh, come on, Cary! You can't just rush off and buy what you came here for!"

"Why not? Isn't that why we're here?"

"Well, yeah, but that isn't how you do it! You've gotta shop around, check what all the stores are carrying and-" Lindy's words were cut off by a hand across her mouth.

"And give you a chance to look at clothes, right? No way." Cary smirked, having thwarted the shopping demon's plans.

"Ooh."

"What?"

It was beautiful. It was rare that 'Greenway Fashions' had anything good in their window, but there was no denying the perfection on display. The gorgeous blue satin was perfectly offset by the lace at the hem and neckline, while the full petticoats made the skirts of the ballgown flare enticingly. Miriam's eyes were glued to the dress.

"Hmm, pretty, but I don't think it suits you."

"Wha? Oh, geez, not again!" As he jerked himself away from the window display, he felt incredibly embarrassed. First memories, and now he was wanting a dress? A nearby planter offered a moment to sit, and the tears began to flow.

"Maybe we should leave. I can get my bag another day."

"NO! We're not leaving on my account! Just hold on a moment."

"Miriam, are you okay?" Lindy asked as she sat down gingerly next to the distraught boy. "You've been really moody for the last few days, even before all this happened."

"Yeah, I mean, you're usually all quiet and like 'Oh, I'm so shy' but the last couple of weeks you've been kinda short tempered."

"I don't know, I've just been having weird mood swings lately. One moment I'll be fine, the next I'll be all wanting to cry. I just don't understand, and to top it off with all this, I mean, it's just like way too much right now."

"Hmm," Lindy grinned. "Sounds an awful lot like puberty to me."

Cary caught on quickly, and smiled as well. "Heh, yeah, I remember all too well. The getting angry all the time, the growth spurts, the weird hair and all that."

"Well, of course you do, they started when, last year for you?"

"Duh. That's why I remember them."

Even Miriam had to roll his eyes, but at least he'd stopped crying. "Thanks, guys, but I don't think I'm gonna wake up in the morning six foot tall with a goatee." He shivered at the thought.

"What?"

"Huh? Oh, nothing, just grossed out by the idea of having facial hair 's all. Sorry I've been so moody and stuff, I'll try to do better."

"No! Don't try to hide your emotions! That will just hurt you more! Just, let us try to help, okay?" Lindy's worry touched Miriam, and he felt another tear track down his already streaked face.

Cary took one of Miriam's arms while Lindy took the other, and the three sat and contemplated what to do.

"I'll be find, guys, seriously. It's just confusing, I mean, I saw that dress and the first thing I thought was 'That would look heavenly on me'. I was thinking about wearing it to a party at the plantation. But you know what's the most confusing of all? I don't even have any clue where 'the plantation' is! These memories and things are really doing a number on my head. I don't know, I have no idea what they're even about half the time, and that's the worst part. How can I handle something when not only do I not know where it comes from, but I can't even notice when it starts?"

Neither Lindy nor Cary could answer him.

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"Too bad they didn't have the blue one they had last week, but I guess gray isn't too bad either." Cary's adjusted the straps on his new pack as they began the trek back to Miriam's house.

"Like it matters what color it is, it'll be so dirty by the end of the week you won't be able to tell anyways."

"Hey, I'm not THAT bad!"

"Hyeah, right! What did you do first day with your old one?"

"That wasn't my fault! Prince ran into me and knocked it off my shoulder!"

"Maybe, but it was still covered in mud, and you could have wiped it off at some point."

"And lost the battle scars? No way!"

"You two! Can't you keep away from each other's throats for one afternoon, please?"

Miriam felt bad for yelling, like he always did. "Sorry, but I can't deal with it right now."

"Hey, man, 'zokay. Lindy, shut up."

"Cary! You little-" Cary managed to miss her strike, but his momentum sent him crashing to the ground, and his bag flying into a nearby puddle.

"Guys!"

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The rest of the journey home was uneventful, and after quick goodbyes Miriam was left alone.

*Why me? Is this some kind of karmic revenge for something I did in a past life?*

The realization of what he'd just asked himself caused him to chuckle as he weaved his way down the hall. *Surely with the way things are going I'd remember something like that.*

"Miriam, sweetie, is that you?"

*Sigh.* "Yes, Mom. I just got home."

As she looked around the door frame from his parent's room, the look of concern on her face was obvious. "Is something wrong? You seemed upset this morning, and you haven't called home all day."

"I know, Mom. Sorry about that, but I was kinda out of it all day. I'll try to be better tomorrow."

She frowned. "Honey, is there something going on? Are you in trouble?"

"No, Mom. Can we drop this, please?" He didn't like to whine, but the sooner he was in his room the better. *Just don't start crying in front of her.*

"Okay... good night, sweetheart."

" 'Night, Mom."

His door closed just as his restraint ran out. With a pillow muffling his sobs, Miriam did his best to get to sleep.

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"Bill?"

"What, honey. Is something the matter, you look upset?"

"I'm worried about Miriam. He's been acting oddly the last few days, and..."

"Oh, that. I wouldn't worry about it too much. You remember being a teenager, sometimes you feel like a completely different person that you normally are."

"I guess."

"I'm sure it's nothing. Now come on, get some sleep."

"Yeah, nothing. I love you."

"I love you too."

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Again, Miriam found himself in the gray light. *How did I get here again?*

#I have brought you here.#

*Well, I kind of figured that. What this time, trying to wreck my life more than you already have?*

#You must know who you are.#

Miriam stamped his foot in frustration. *I do know who I am! And who I am is me! Not these... these... girls you keep making me think I am!*

#They are you. You are them. One forever.#

*But why do this to me?*

#You must learn who you are. What is wrong will be made right. The new shall become the old, and the old shall make the new complete.#

*WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!*

#You will learn.#

Echoes- Part 3

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Fiction

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Elements: 

  • Girls' School / School Girl

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Chapters 6 through 8.

Now that Miriam knows the truth, can he better cope with what's happening? Or is a breakdown unavoidable?
Some questions are answered, while some new ones are asked... oh, yeah, and barbecue!

Pseudo-spoilers, careful!!!

Since everybody seems to like part II so far, I thought I might as well go ahead and include part III! Unfortunately, this is all the completed chapters I have churned out so far, though I've got a good start on chapter 9... okay, a few paragraphs... oh, all right, all I've got's the chapter title, but I know what's gonna happen! :P

This part- just like the last- has not been proofed, nor has it been "test read" by anybody other than myself, so yet again, if you have a suggestion, make it! Who knows, maybe your suggestion will be part of a future rewrite! Notably absent from this section are any flashbacks or "mysterious voices", but don't think I've forgotten them!

Oh, and the final note, yet again (I do a lot of these, don't I?) Those who find a particular late-story conversation between Miriam and Lindy to seem stereotypical, I promise you, this is based upon my personal experience and, in general, pretty much true.

Well, enjoy!!
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Chapter 6: Divine Discontent

"This sucks."

"Hey, young man. You promised me last week you'd give it a try. I haven't been to church in years, and to be honest, I think it will do the whole family good." Felicity looked pointedly at Miriam's Dad as she said this.

"Don't look at me like that, I didn't say anything!"

"No, but I know you were thinking it, Bill Loksley. If I catch you sleeping through the sermon like I did last time we were in a church, I'll have your head."

"Oh, come on, I don't snore THAT loud, sweetheart. Besides, that preacher was boring."

"Yes, but it made a bad impression on my parents when we took vows and you had drool all over your tux."

Miriam just rolled his eyes as he pulled himself into the back of their blazer and idly scratched his chest. This was going to be a very long day.

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"Bill, put that away!"

"But honey, I promised I'd have this report done by-"

"I don't care if you're writing the next great American novel, either you put your PDA away and pay attention or I'm throwing it in the baptism tank."

Despite his reluctance, Miriam had to admit he was enjoying the services. The preacher was talking about people being turned into salt or something, but that merely provided a counterpoint to the drama that was his Mom and Dad. The stares from the other patrons would have upset him, but he completely understood how much more interesting this was than some old city that burned down or whatever.

"Bill, give it to me now."

"Baby, please..."

"Now!" She jerked the Blackberry from his grasp, and raised her eyebrows in annoyance. "What's this? NetHack! Bill, honestly!"

The couple behind them snorted. Realizing they had an audience, Felicity turned back to the front, but didn't miss the opportunity to stamp down with her heel on Bill's foot as they stood for hymns.

Miriam had a smile on his face as he gave his contribution to the singing.

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"Oh, come on, Mom, you have to admit, that was pretty funny."

"It most certainly was not!"

"Mom, you even had the preacher cracking up."

"That's the last time I try to take you two into a church!"

Miriam and his dad shared a discreet high five as they followed Felicity out of the church.

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"Hi, this is Felicity Loksley. We're not home right now, but-"

Cary hung up on the machine again. *Where are they? She's always home on Sun- HE! HE HE HE!*

The day before had been absolute torture for Cary. For all he tried, he couldn't stop thinking of Miriam as a girl, and it had been a constant effort to keep from referring to him in the feminine.

"You'd think with how long we've been friends this wouldn't be a problem."

"What's that?"

*Crap.* "Nothing, Dad. Just thinking out loud."

Where could they be? He'd tried their phone three times already, with no luck on an answer. *It's about time Mr. Loksley got a cell phone for Miriam, it's not like they don't have the money.*

With nothing better to do, he grabbed his pack and headed out for a walk.

<=====>

It made Lindy feel terrible every time she thought about the difficulties Miriam was going through. If only she could do something to help him deal with things, but what?

"Hi, this is Felicity Loksley. We're not-"

She hung up before the message finished. *Well, if he's out with his parents, I hope nothing happens. Maybe they'll be home soon.*

She tapped her pencil against her school books, thinking. If worse came to worst, she could always- no, that can't happen...

Can it?

*Best to be prepared, I guess.* "Mom, I'm going shopping."

"Have fun."

<=====>

"What do you two say to steaks for dinner tonight? I can cook them on the grill, and it's getting warm enough we could eat out on the patio."

"Sure, Dad! That okay with you, Mom?"

"We'll have to stop by the grocery store on the way home to get a few things anyways, I guess we can pick steak up while we're there."

"Yay! Thanks! Good idea, Dad!"

"Heh, don't thank me yet. Wait until we're eating, otherwise you'll jinx it and instead of steaks we'll have charcoal."

"The grocery store's only about ten minutes away, so get thinking what sides you want to do, Bill, or do you want me to do those?"

"Why don't you and Miriam handle the sides?"

"Typical male, get you around a grill and the only things that matter are fire, meat, and beer."

"Nonsense. You know I prefer wine coolers."

"Oh, ha ha. Miriam, promise me you won't do this kind of thing to your wife when you're older."

Miriam giggled, "Alright, Mom, I promise. How about sweet potatoes and a salad?"

"Sounds good."

"Off to the store! The provider shall prepare a most gratifying meal for his charges."

"Oh, stuff it, Bill," Felicity snipped, but she was laughing as she said it.

<=====>

The trip for groceries was going well. Miriam had grabbed a good bag of sweet potatoes and some basic salad veggies while his parents had went to the butcher's booth at the back of the store to buy the steak cutlets, when he felt someone approach him from behind. "Um, hi."

"Huh?"

"Hey, uh, I'm Michael. And you are?" The someone turned out to be a slightly gawky teenage boy, who seemed to be around Miriam's age. He appeared to be rather agitated, but Miriam could not figure out why.

"Miriam."

"That's a pretty name."

"Thanks..." *Wait a second, did he just say pretty? Oh, God, he thinks I'm a girl!* Miriam blushed, and the boy seemed to look even more nervous as he tried to say something else.

"I've, uh, seen you around, and I w-was wondering if, um..."

"Miriam? There you are! Do you have the veggies?"

"Oh, uh, later!" The boy made his escape before Miriam had a chance to respond.

"Mom! You ready to go?"

"I guess. Who was that, one of your school friends?"

"Uh, no, he just, um... nothing."

She looked at him skeptically, but said nothing. "Come on, let's go. Your Dad's getting all twitchy waitin' to start the grill."

"Yeah, let's get out of here." *As soon as possible.* At the checkout, he rushed himself, and nearly forgot to grab his change until his Mom reminded him. "Sorry, Mom."

"It's okay, I'm just worried about you. You've seemed a bit out of it lately."

"I'm fine, Mom. I promise."

"Just be careful."

"I will."

"Good. Now, let's head out before Bill gets impatient and lights the car on fire or something, he's developed a nasty pyro streak and I don't want scorch marks on those seats."

<=====>

He wasn't sure how it happened, but somehow his aimless walking had led him to Miriam's house. Sure enough, there had been no one home. With no other ideas, Cary sat down on the porch steps to think some more.

Him and Miriam had always been close. After all, Miriam had been the first person to say hi to him when he moved in, and the only person who would play with the "new kid" for almost the entire first year. Once he'd started his class clown act, the other children had warmed to him, and began ignoring his second hand clothes and shaggy home-cut hair. Even when he'd gained acceptance, however, it had always been Miriam who he'd been closest with. They both had their own friends, and seemed to generally run in different circles, but no matter what they had always made sure to include each other in everything they had done. Miriam had tried out for baseball when Cary had wanted to, and when he was turned down, Cary had refused to play. Likewise, when Miriam had wanted to join Drama the previous year, he had brought Cary along. Though reluctant at first, Cary had been quickly identified by the teacher as having natural acting talent, and had played fairly important roles in the last few school productions, while Miriam had been asked to work behind the scenes on props and costumes due to "poor stage presence." It wasn't that Miriam was a bad actor- by all accounts, he was one of the better students in the class- he simply didn't have the masculine presence the teacher wanted for the male roles in the plays. In several cases, girls had been chosen above him to play the male roles because they were better suited, and Mrs. Reese didn't even dare to offer him a girl's part, knowing the teasing he would undergo from the jocks.

Maybe that would change now that he seemed to be starting puberty. *Good for him. So why can't I feel happy about Miriam becoming more manly?*

Now that he thought about it, Cary had really always treated Miriam more like a girl than a boy. He had always been Miriam's protector, even when he had been new. He'd watched out for her- HIM- like a big brother. People had called them gay, but he'd never felt that way. He knew he loved Miriam, but surely not like that?

*How would I feel if Miriam were to hang out with another guy, though?* This wasn't a question that he'd ever asked himself before, mostly because it had never arisen. Besides Cary, all of Miriam's close friends were girls. He might hang out with boys when he was around Cary, but now that he thought about it, Cary could not remember a single time that Miriam had tried to be "one of the guys" that he wasn't around. He decided to focus on the question at hand. *Surely I wouldn't care. I mean, he's a guy, they're guys, and I know we aren't gay for each other.* He thought about seeing Miriam with another boy, having fun and laughing, and unexpectedly, intense emotions of jealousy and possessiveness seemed to well within him. But he liked girls, didn't he? He tried thinking sexually of guys, and no matter who he tried, he just didn't find them exciting. He tried girls, and had to admit to himself that, yes, he most definitely like several things about girls very much.

So where did Miriam fit in?

The sound of the Loksley Blazer pulling into the drive brought him out of his reverie. *Dammit, too late now to leave without saying hi, at least. I can act like everything's normal if I try, but for how long?*

He desperately hoped it was for long enough as the doors opened, and the Loksley family came out to greet him.

Chapter 7: Dinner for Two

"Cary! What are you doing here?" Miriam was surprised to see Cary at his house. He'd seemed a bit uncomfortable the last two days since the hypnotism. *I wonder why I'm making him feel uncomfortable? Well, he did suggest it to the guy, so maybe he just feels guilty?* That seemed a likely reason. *I'll have to get him alone and talk to him about it. There's no time like the present.* "We're having steaks for dinner, wanna stay and eat with us?"

"That's a good idea! Why don't you? It'll give me someone to help with the grill while these two are preparing the salad and potatoes."

"Hey! I thought you said on the way back that you'd do the potatoes on the grill, too?"

"Well, honey, I'll be putting all my attention on the steaks, and-"

"Yeah, yeah. Enjoy your drinks while you can, sweetie, because this is the last time you'll have them for a while with the way you've acted today."

Bill stage whispered to Cary, "Sometimes it's hard to remember who the parents in this family are, isn't it? I stay in trouble while Miriam sides with the witch on everything."

"I heard that!"

Bill grabbed the steaks and ran for the back yard. "Quick, before she gets the attack hounds!"

Miriam scratched his chest and shook his head as he watched Cary head off after his Dad. The two were so similar in personality.

He caught the odd look his Mom gave him when he turned around after Cary was out of sight around the fence. "Come on, you can talk to him when dinner's ready. For now, we've got potatoes to bake and a salad to mix."

"Can we fry them, instead?" He remembered that Cary preferred fried potatoes, and thought if he was going to make him talk, he might as well enjoy the food.

"Sure. You grab the pan, I'll grab the salad bowls."

<=====>

A crash and cursing from outside caught Miriam's attention.

"Just your dad getting the grill out of the garage. Slice the pieces thinner, would you?"

He put his knife strokes closer together, making smaller disks of the potatoes. Shortly, another crash from outside, followed by more cursing made him look up from his work in worry.

"Just your dad digging out the grill cleaning kit. Back to work, those potatoes aren't gonna cook themselves!"

Miriam got back to slicing, and his Mom continued the conversation. "What's going on between you and Cary?"

"What do you mean?"

"He seemed kind of uncomfortable earlier, and he's usually very relaxed when he's around here. If something's wrong, please tell me. I know you've been having trouble with bullies... does it have anything to do with you and Cary?"

"What?" What she was hinting at finally dawned upon him, and he had to laugh. "Mom! We're not gay, though I do think he feels guilty for me being picked on. I'm gonna talk to him later tonight about it, that's why I wanted to have him over for dinner."

He noticed the sigh of relief from his mom, and they both giggled. "That's good. Not that I'd have a problem with you being gay, you know, but..."

"Yeah, Mom, I know."

A loud "Whoomph" sound from outside, accompanied by yet more crashes and cursing, pulled Felicity to the kitchen window. The worried look on her face quickly changed to a smirk as she turned around. "Looks like your Dad's lost his eyebrows again. Still have that theatrical facial hair we used last time?"

He paused before putting the potatoes on to fry. "Yeah, I figured we'd need it again. We really need to keep him away from lighter fluid from now on, though."

"Maybe, but where's the fun in that?"

<=====>

After the smell of burning hair had subsided, Cary moved forwards to see if he could help Mr. Loksley. When he offered his hand, however, all he received was a grunt. "I'm fine for now, it's later when I have to face Felicity that I'm gonna need your help."

With that, he began unpacking the steaks and setting them out to grill. "Fetch me a cooler, would you?" Cary went to the fridge in the garage and grabbed a bottle, and headed back out to the grill. "Thanks. Never could stand the taste of beer, but these things aren't half bad."

They stood in silence for a short time, Bill sipping his wine and watching the flames dance across the slabs of meat, before he began talking again. "You know, Felicity's been worried about Miriam the last few days. Seems something's going on at school that's causing him problems. You wouldn't happen to know anything about that, would you, boy?" Bill had been calling him "boy" since the day they had met. Miriam had forgotten to introduce him, and for almost two months he had came around to play with neither of the Loksley adults knowing his name. Since then, the general name "boy" had stuck with him with Bill, while Felicity had eventually started using his name.

"Sir, I think it's just the jocks picking on him worse than usual. He's the smallest kid in our year, and I guess they see him as an easy target."

"I figured as much, but why have they gotten worse? If you know, boy, I'd like to be filled in. Keeps the wife from worrying so much when she knows what's going on."

*And you're worried, too.* "Sir, I'm not sure. You'd have to ask Miriam about that."

"It doesn't have anything to do with you, does it?"

*Ah, and the implications are clear.* "No, sir. We're not gay." He couldn't keep the blush from his face. "Miriam and I aren't dating, or anything like that. They're just stupid jocks."

Bill smiled. "Just checking. Now, how do you like your steak?"

<=====>

"You boys ready out there?"

Bill took the last steak off the grill just as Miriam and Felicity brought out the salads and potatoes. Everybody assembled at the picnic table to grab their plates, and while his parents were busy talking over their own food, he saw his chance to finally get a sit down with Cary.

"Hey, Cary. Why don't we go sit over there, under the trees?" The spot was far enough away from his parents that they wouldn't hear them if they talked quietly, but close enough that he didn't have to worry about them thinking they were doing anything. The accusation might be funny, but he didn't want to do anything that might add weight to their ideas.

"Um, okay."

As the two settled into comfortable spots around the roots of the old Cyprus tree that had made his great grandparents want this particular spot so much, he decided to bring things right out and say what he had to say. "I don't blame you, you know."

"What?" Cary seemed confused.

"For what's happened. I thought the reason you've been acting weird around me was because you felt responsible for what happened, you know, with the hypnotism? And I just wanted to tell you I don't blame you."

"Oh. Yeah, thanks." He gave Cary a smile, and after a nervous moment, Cary returned it. "I'll try not to act weird around you, but it may take a while. Sorry."

"That's okay, but you're my best friend, and I l-... I'd hate to lose your friendship." He caught himself just in time. *Just a second, was I about to tell Cary I loved him?*

Cary noticed the near slip of the tongue, and at first his face seemed to brighten, before falling again into the same strange expression he'd seemed to have whenever around Miriam the last few days. The two sat awkwardly, nervously avoiding each others gaze, as they thought through things.

*Did I really just try to tell Cary I love him? I mean, not that I don't, but... he's not gay, I know that. I don't know about myself, though, which is kinda scary. God, I hate this!* Did he love Cary in that way? He wasn't sure. *Regardless, I don't want to lose him.* He decided the best way to get things back to normal was just to talk. "So, do you think Lindy will actually tell Jonathan she likes him when he comes back?"

On familiar ground again, Cary returned partially to his old self. "I don't know. I don't understand how girls think."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, their minds seem to change all the time, and they always want to shop and things. They're like aliens or something."

"No w- they're not! I understand them better than the guys at school, with the sports talk and all the calling each other names and hitting each other all the time. That's supposed to be fun?"

"Hey, you girls call each other names and things, too! All the gossip going around, all that's spread by the girls!"

"Not us! Maybe the cheerleaders and the bratty rich kids, but we don't do that."

"I'm just sayin', 's all."

"What's all the arguing about over here? Honestly, you two are sounding like an old married couple or something."

Bill's interruption brought their heated discussion to a sudden halt. They looked up guiltily and apologized in unison, "Sorry."

"You two get to do the washing tonight, if you don't mind, boy."

"Of course not, sir. It's the least I can do to say thanks."

"And don't go juggling plates, either. I know you too well."

"Rats!" Cary's old joker streak popped up again. "There goes my practice!"

<=====>

"What time is it?"

Miriam looked up at the clock above the sink. "About seven."

"I guess I better get home after finishing these. You done your homework yet?"

"I finished it Friday night. No sense in letting it wait."

"Oh. I've still gotta do mine."

The pause in conversation was painful for both teenagers. Miriam handed Cary the last plate to dry, and pulled the stopper from the sink to let the water drain.

"Um, I guess I'll see you tomorrow morning at the corner?"

"Yeah, I'll be there. Sorry about the arguing earlier."

"No, it's my fault, I said some stupid things. Let's just forget about it, okay?"

"Alright." Miriam started forward, caught himself, and held out his hand to Cary, who took it and shook awkwardly.

"Later."

"Good night."

<=====>

Yet again, Miriam found himself lying in bed, thinking. *What ARE my feelings for Cary? I've always cared about him, and I do love him, but what kind of love is it? It's not that I don't find the girls at school pretty, I know that many of them are and I guess I'm a decent judge of appearance, but I'm not really attracted to any of them. The boys? I don't know what to think of them most of the time. I know I'm supposed to be into the same things, but I just can't see how all that is fun.* His mind ran back through the conversation from earlier in the day, and caught on something that had been bothering him. *God, did I really put myself with the girls when talking earlier? I didn't even think about it, but I guess I do fit in better with them. No, that's just those stupid memories talking.* He'd been having more and more flashes of memories from the past, seemingly random and unconnected. *They're coming faster now. What do I do?* His frustration welled up within him, and he couldn't hold the tears back. *And why am I crying all the time? I just can't seem to help it. I hope it doesn't happen at school, I've got enough to worry about there already.*

His train of thought was broken when his door opened, and his mom stepped into the room. "Sorry to wake you up, but I wanted to go ahead and grab the eyebrows for tomorrow. Oh, have you been crying?"

*Why now?* "I'm okay, Mom. Just thinking. Here, I'll get it out of my closet." He crawled out of bed and went to his closet to dig through his theater supplies, scratching his chest on the way.

"Honey, did you hurt yourself or something?"

"No, why?"

"I've noticed you scratching your chest an awful lot today."

"It's nothing, Mom. It just kind of itches. I think I may need to use some different fabric softener or something." He found the hair kit and glue, and handed it to her. "Here you go."

"Well, okay. Thanks." She kissed him on the cheek, and headed out the door. When she was gone, he climbed back in bed and tried to sleep.

<=====>

Cary tried to work out what exactly had happened, but couldn't keep things straight. The more he thought, the more confused he became. *Miriam almost said she- HE- loved me. That made me feel... good. Really good, in fact. And he seemed just as confused by the feelings as I did. She- HE- Oh, fuck it, if I can't stop thinking of Miriam as a girl, why fight it? She likes me, as more than a friend, and she knows it, but doesn't want to admit it any more than I want to admit how I feel. How DO I feel? Well, I guess I have to admit I'm attracted to Miriam as more than a friend, as well. I'm not gay, though. How does this work? And I saw Miriam scratching her chest a lot today, too. I've got a little bit of chest hair, but it didn't itch like that, and after seeing Bill I don't think Miriam would have a lot. Could it be something else? Of course not, that's stupid.* His mind focused on the image of Miriam with breasts, and he felt himself getting aroused. *They would suit her very well. And at least I'd feel better about liking her. But how would Miriam feel is she had boobs? She gets enough torment piled on her- we both do, actually- as it is. She's already pretty, even the other guys think she would be a good looking girl, if she had the body of one as well, would she make more friends or be worse off?*

One thing was for sure, whatever happened, Cary felt it was his responsibility to be Miriam's protector. *Me and Lindy are gonna have our work cut out for us, whatever happens. Where was she today, anyways? She usually gets in touch with Miriam every day, like a sister or something. Oh, well, guess I'll find out tomorrow.*

<=====>

"Mom! I'm home!" It had taken her several hours, and more money than she had really wanted to spend, but Lindy thought she had everything she needed now. *And if we need it, I'm sure I'll be happy I spent every penny I did.*

"Oh! Have a good shopping trip, sweetie?" Her Mom was perhaps a bit more vacant than was good for her, but at least Lindy knew she loved her. She was just happy she got her brains from her father's side of the family.

"Yeah, I did. G'night, Mom."

"Good night, baby. Sleep tight."

Chapter 8: Back to the Trenches

The grating tones of the alarm clock pulled Miriam out of another fitful period of sleep. Dreams of the past had kept him awake half the night, in confusion and terror. *At least the only time I see the bad ones are when I'm asleep. I'd hate to be awake through some of it, if it scares me that badly.* With more than a little reluctance, he scratched his chest again and began to drag himself from the bed.

After a quick shower and clean clothes, little different from those he had worn the days before, he set about working with his hair. *It really is getting rather long. Maybe I should take Mom's advice and get it cut.* He spent a few moments messing his the locks, before finally deciding to try a ponytail. After digging out a hair tie - his Mom would never hear of him using a rubber band - he pulled as much as he could back, and was annoyed to see that the front edges were just too short to tie back, resulting in a set of longish strands framing his face. *Oh well, at least it looks cute like this, though I really should put it higher up. It would be prettier with a bow, too.*

He barely missed slicing his hand on the edge of his dresser as he ripped the tie from his hair.

<=====>

*Where is she?* Cary couldn't keep his nerves in check, and bounced from foot to foot impatiently. Finally, he spotted Miriam coming out of his house, and jogged over to meet him.

"At last! I was beginning to think you were skipping school today."

Miriam looked at him nonplussed. "No, I just couldn't decide what to do with my hair."

"Well, it looks nice. You have very pretty hair." He realized what he said, and quickly tried to correct himself. "I mean, you know... for a boy."

"Yeah, thanks. Umm..." The two stood, blushing and shuffling their feet, for several uncomfortable seconds before Miriam began walking down the street towards the school. Cary smacked himself in the head as he followed.

"So, why didn't you wait at the corner like normal?"

"I did, at first, but after you weren't there at the usual time I came here to see what was up and make sure you were okay. I mean, you're my best friend."

"Oh. Okay. Sorry for being late."

"That's alright." Another uncomfortable silence followed, and Cary searched desperately for something to say to fill it. "Any luck finding a solution to the problem?"

"Problem?"

"Yeah, the memories thing? Found out how to stop them, or anything?"

"Not really. I've been watching myself carefully, and if I concentrate I can tell the difference between my own memories and the others, so I can at least mostly keep them from causing as many problems as they did the last few days. I've been getting a lot more of them, though, and it kind of scares me." He noticed Miriam shake, and fought the impulse to pull the smaller boy to him. *She's not a girl... she's not a girl... she's not a girl...* "What's that?"

"Huh?"

"You were mouthing something, but I couldn't hear it."

*Shit!* "Nothing. Sorry, just thinking."

Miriam's face twisted into a look of hurt. "Oh, I see! You think this is funny, don't you? 'Look at Miriam, the crybaby, weakling, coward!' If you're just going to laugh at me behind my back, then I don't need you!" He turned away fast enough that his hair whipped up, slapping Cary in the face before he stormed off down the street.

Cary was left dumbstruck. *What did I do?*

<=====>

Miriam fought hard to keep the tears out of his eyes. *How could he do that to me, making fun of my problems like that? I'd expect that from one of the jerks at school, but I thought he cared about me!* The effort was too much, and he barely managed to find a bench to sit before the sobs hit.

"Miriam, are you okay?" He hadn't noticed Lindy coming up, but her words made him even more upset. *Great, not only can I not keep from crying, but in front of people, too.*

"Go away!"

"Miriam, what's the matter?"

"I said go away! I don't wanna talk... just leave me alone..."

The movement of the bench told him she wasn't listening, and this was confirmed when she spoke to him again. "Hey, come on, it's me. I just wanna help." He felt her arm wrap around him, and fell against her, weeping into her shoulder shamelessly. "Now, what's got you so upset?"

"Cary, he... he... *sob*..."

"It's okay, what did he do?"

"I was telling him how... how I was scared... the memories... and he... he... *sniff*... was LAUGHING at me... and-"

"WHAT! Are you sure?" She gripped him by the arms and gently pulled him away from her shoulder.

"Well, he was mouthing something, and I asked what he said, and he'd been nervous the entire time we'd *sniff* been talking anyways, like he was trying to hold something in, and told me it was nothing, and..." Suddenly, Miriam felt very foolish. "If he wasn't laughing at me, why wouldn't he tell me what he was saying?"

Lindy smiled and hugged him. "Honey, I don't know. Regardless, I doubt you want him to see you this upset, do you?"

"Oh, God, no! What would he think? And I've got to apologize, too."

"No you don't. Here's a trick: let him think you're still mad at him. If he really likes you, he'll apologize, even if he knows he didn't do anything. Then you don't have to admit you were wrong, and he owes you, too."

Miriam giggled, and wiped his eyes. "You really think that'll work?"

"Sure it will! Bo- most boys besides you aren't that good at the emotional thing, and it's easy to manipulate them if you know just how to act."

"But isn't that a little cruel? I mean, he didn't actually do anything wrong, at least I don't think so."

"It isn't mean, it's survival! Sometimes it's good to admit when you're wrong, but sometimes," the corner of her mouth lifted slightly, "it's best to let them take the blame. They can't think as well as we do."

Miriam just laughed. "Yeah, guys are pretty dumb sometimes."

His face fell when he heard himself, but when he looked over at Lindy, she was nodding enthusiastically. "Come on, let's get to school. You don't wanna keep him waiting if you're gonna teach him a lesson, after all."

<=====>

Lindy tried to act upbeat for Miriam, but inside, her thoughts were anything but happy. *Hmm, guys don't usually get like this when they have problems. With the way Miriam was talking, you'd almost think she- he and Cary were dating. And did I just give him advice on handling boys? This isn't good.*

She spotted Cary just outside the main doors to the school, and glanced over at Miriam. With a haughty toss of his head, he headed past Cary and into the classroom, and Lindy couldn't help but giggle. *Well, he can certainly pull off the 'angry bitch' routine, that's for sure.* She gave Cary a questioning look, and he just shrugged his shoulders before filing into class himself.

<=====>

Miriam lowered himself into his seat carefully, grateful for once to be in his morning class. *At least Prince didn't put any clothes on my desk today. Shit! I forgot about him!*

As though reading Miriam's thoughts, Mr. Hendricks looked up from his paper at the head of class, smiling quietly. "Young Miriam, you'll be happy to know that Mr. Prince and his colleagues will not be joining us for the next week. Due to their actions, they have been suspended from school. If I were you, I'd take this opportunity to relax." Miriam wasn't the only one in the room to breathe a sigh of relief at the teacher's words. As the last bell rang out, Mr. Hendricks stood from his desk and approached his podium. "Welcome back to American History. Now, what can you tell me about the War of 1812?"

Miriam couldn't seem to concentrate on his classwork, and his thoughts began to drift towards that morning again. *What's going on with Cary?* He couldn't help but glance over at his friend, but turned away quickly when he saw the sad look on Cary's face. *Should I apologize? Or should I wait for him to do it?* Looking to his other side, he spotted Lindy, who smiled and gave him a thumbs up. Her sureness strengthened him in his resolve. *Cary can wait. At least a little while.*

"Locksley, stop daydreaming and pay attention!"

"Sorry, sir."

"Well, prove it by giving me the years of Madison's presidency."

<=====>

Math was a bore, and English was just as frustrating. Cary had wanted to say something to Miriam in each class, but had been countered by either angry teachers or Miriam simply refusing to talk to him. *What did I do wrong?* He couldn't figure it out. *Oh, well. I'll apologize anyways. I don't want to lose her.* Several times he had noticed Miriam looking at him in class, and the mixture of emotions on his face had confused Cary even more. One moment Miriam would seem to be angry, while the next he would almost be crying. But how could Cary apologize without even knowing what he had done?

"That's all for today, class. Off to lunch with you." The whole class cheered as they pushed and shoved their way out the door and towards the cafeteria. Hurrying along the halls in the throng, Cary set his nerves. *I'll apologize when we get to lunch. We always sit at the same table, so-*

"Cary!" Out of nowhere, a large blur seemed to appear, and as it struck him Cary couldn't help but laugh as he fell over.

"Jonathan, you nut! Feeling better?"

"Hell yes! Nothin' worse than not bein' able to breathe, or eat, or drink anything without getting sick, or-"

"Yeah, yeah, I get it. Eating lunch with us today?"

Jonathan's normally exuberant mood faltered, and a look of disgust came over his face. "I can't. They're making me fill out some stupid paperwork in the office 'cause of how many days I missed. Man, I'm gonna have so much homework I won't be able to hang out for, like, a year or two. Just email me pictures of you three having fun so I can remember what it's like."

Cary laughed, glad to have his other best friend back around after the long absence. "Well, catch up with us after school. We'll all walk home together, I guess we missed you this morning."

"Right, later!" With that, Jonathan split off towards the offices, and stopping only for a moment, Cary nervously began the walk towards their lunch table, where Lindy and Miriam were already eating with the other girls and their boyfriends, deep in conversation.

<=====>

"What, you want to laugh at me more?"

"No! Please, just listen... I mean, I wasn't laughing at you this morning, I was just-"

"Just what, ashamed to be near me? Embarrassed that-"

"Miriam, give him a break! Now, Cary, what did you want to say?"

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I did anything to hurt you, you know I'd never do that on purpose."

"Well, I- what?"

"He said he's sorry."

"Oh. Thanks, umm..."

"I think what she's trying to say around the knot of guilt is 'let's eat'."

"Good idea."

"Uh, yeah."

<=====>

"So, you and Cary friends again?"

"Yeah. God, I feel, like, so stupid and guilty. I mean, I know he wasn't trying to make fun of me, but I was just, like, so messed up already, and I saw him moving his lips, like he does when he's thinking something he doesn't wanna say..."

"Yeah, that's kinda annoying sometimes..."

"I guess I just got carried away."

"Well, at least things are good now." Lindy couldn't resist the urge to reach down and hug Miriam, and squeezed him tightly. *Yes! No more sulking about for you! I don't think I coulda taken another hour of that.* As Cary returned from the line with his lunch tray laden with the goop of the day, she squeezed Miriam's arm before scooting down so the two were side by side.

Echoes- Part 4

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Fiction

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • School or College Life

TG Elements: 

  • Girls' School / School Girl

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

In this episode: does Jonathan's return bode well for our heroine? Can Lindy win the boy of her dreams? What is the breaking limit of a squid tentacle?

Tune in to find out!

Echoes

By Melanie E.

Chapter 9: A Helping Hand

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WomwomwomwoMWOMSPLAT.

The room went silent. All eyes turned up from their dissection work just in time to catch their Biology teacher, Mrs. Page, peeling the remains of Cary and Jonathan's squid from the lapel of her formerly white lab coat, now featuring an artistic motif of black dots. Miriam thought it looked rather like one of those roar-shock things he'd seen on TV.

"Mr. Little, Mr. Fletcher. WHAT have I told you about playing with the experiments?"

Miriam could see the smirk appear on Cary's face even before he heard the line that the entire class already had memorized. "If you wanna play with dead animals, use roadkill." It was rather grotesque, but then again, so was Mrs. Page. She was the first Goth teacher that Miriam had ever seen, and he suspected the only teacher in the world to have purple and green striped hair. Everyone knew she only got the job because her uncle was on the School Board, but all the kids loved her classes and teaching style.

"That's right. Now we're one squid short for the assignment, though I must admit I'm rather impressed- I didn't know their tentacles could stretch that much before breaking."

"It's the pickling, ma'am. Gives 'em that rubbery quality."

"Yes, I see. Remind me not to let you and Mr. Little work together again." Jonathan was notoriously bad at Biology, and though it was his second year in the class, he was barely managing to pass. "Also, I do believe you owe me a new lab coat. I brought this one from home."

<=====>

*Why did I feel so bad about missing class last week?*

After seeing the amount of homework that Jonathan had to take home to do, he was just happy that he had done all his makeup work over the weekend. It had taken them both Jonathan's bag and Cary's new backpack to collect all his books. "Just shoot me now. At least that way I won't have to do all this work."

"I'll help, if you'd like. I don't mind."

"Lindy, he's in the grade above us. I doubt you'd be able to do much for him."

"Well, I could try." Lindy gave Cary a dirty look for ruining her chance to spend time with Jonathan. Since the day they had met, she had been pursuing him, but had somehow always been shot down. Jonathan was either a brilliant actor or the least observant person in the world, Miriam couldn't decide, but he never seemed to pick up on how she felt.

The saga of Lindy and Jonathan was put on hold, however, when they heard yelling from across the street. Miriam's stomach filled with a terrible dread when he recognized the voice.

"Hey, you little faggot! How was school? Surprised you didn't wear a dress today." Prince and Notts were standing on the opposite sidewalk, with a group of their friends who obviously found their taunts to be hilarious, from all the laughter behind them.

"Just ignore them, Miriam, they're just a buncha assholes." Jonathan's words were spoken forcefully, with extra emphasis on the end to make sure it carried across the road. Looking at Cary, Miriam was almost afraid he was going to start a fight with the daggers he was shooting Prince, but he managed to keep himself in check. "Come on, let's just go." Jonathan made to walk towards Miriam's house again, and Miriam and the others followed.

"Hey, you stupid bitch! You can't just walk away from me!" The sound of incoming footsteps warned Miriam of Prince's approach, but as he turned around to face the bully, Jonathan appeared in front of him again.

"Prince, leave us alone. I guarantee you, if you fight me, you won't win."

"This doesn't concern you, Little man." Prince didn't even attempt to hide the contempt in his voice as he addressed his classmate. "Besides, it's a worthless effort on your side, 'cause it's already Cary's little bitch, anyOOF!"

Miriam couldn't help but cringe at the sight of Prince's blood. The larger teen staggered back, grabbing his face and staring at Jonathan with an expression of shock. Calmly, he wiped his fist off on the sleeve of his shirt as he gave the group of thugs a warning. "You don't mess with my friends. If you do, then next time you'll be wiping blood from more than your nose."

<=====>

After dropping Miriam off at home and parting ways with Lindy at the end of her street, Cary decided it was time to broach the subject of their clash with Prince and his toadies with Jonathan.

"Listen, thanks for standing up for Miriam like that. I mean..."

"Hey, it's nothing. You're my friends. What was up with Prince, anyways? I know he's had it out for Miriam since grade school, but still, DAMN. What did I miss while I was gone?"

*If only you knew.* Cary sighed as he processed everything that had happened in the last few days, but Jonathan's laugh interrupted his introspection. "What?"

"You do realize that you move your lips when you're thinking real deep, right? Almost makes it look like you're talking behind my back." Cary froze as his friend's words sunk in.

"Could you repeat that?"

"Heh, sure. It's nothing really, but when you're thinking really hard you tend ta move your lips with whatever you're saying to yourself. It's pretty funny to look at, actually."

*Shit! Could that be what happened this morning? That would explain a lot...*

"I mean, I figured you'd have realized it by now, but I guess not. Anyways, you're way too smart to need to do that, aren't ya?"

"Yeah, I'll try to watch myself. Hey, you actually should know what's been going on the last few days. Why don't you stop by for a coke or something and I can tell you everything that's happened?"

"Whatever adventure awaits, Sir Quartermain, I am your humble sidekick." Cary shot Jonathan a 'this is serious look', but the only response he received was a smirk.

<=====>

"DAMN."

"Yeah, tell me about it." Cary had just finished the story of what was going on around Miriam, and wasn't too shocked at Jonathan's reaction. "Sheeaaaahhh, heh, he's been pretty upset the last couple of days, and really moody, too."

"Hyeah, I noticed. Ya don't think... nah, that's just too weird." Jonathan swallowed the dregs of his soft drink, and was on his way to get another when Cary stopped him.

"What?"

"Huh? Oh, it was nothing, just a weird idea."

"Come on, tell me."

"Well, I was just gonna say it sounds like he's on the rag, but I figured it'd be too nasty seein' how things're going for 'im." Picking up a fresh can, Jonathan prepared to open it, but stopped halfway through pulling the tab. "You really care about the little squirt, don't ya?"

"Huh?" Cary was caught unawares, and fought to keep from spewing cola through his nose.

"You do! Hey, man, I don't care, ta be honest it ain't that much of a surprise."

"What do you mean?"

"Hey, we've been friends since grade school, almost as long as you and Miriam. There's always been somethin' different about 'im, and the way you two act together, and from what I heard today 'specially, you're more like boyfriend n' girlfriend than half the couples at school."

"Come on, you can't be serious."

"Really, man. Don'cha pay any attention? You defend 'im, eat lunch with the girls 'cause that's where he goes, you two're practically never apart, and when you're separated for more than a day one of you'll usually call the other to talk. Not only that, but you don't date that much, and Miriam's never even TRIED to get a date. People talk, man."

Cary couldn't believe what he was hearing- particularly because he knew it to be true. "Oh, who cares what people think!"

Jonathan snorted. "Whell, obviously you do, from your actions on the way home. Jeez, Prince practic'ly tried to sucker punch Miriam, and you didn't even move! What would've happened if I hadn't been there?"

He was right. *But I wanted to help! But it would have just made it harder on us...*

Jonathan cackled, and Cary glared at him. "You're doing it again."

"Whatever. Hey, let's get some archery practice in while there's still some daylight left."

"Sounds good." Letting out a loud belch, Jonathan threw his second can in the bin on his way out the door.

<=====>

*Well, nobody can say things aren't interesting, at least.* Lindy dropped her school books in her desk chair and flopped into bed, rubbing her eyes. Where was her book? There it was, underneath the tissue box. She picked it up and read the cover again. Fantasy had never really been to her tastes, but Miriam had told her she would like this book, so she had reluctantly agreed to take it home. "'The Colour of Magic', huh? Well, it can't be too bad, I guess."

Opening the book to page one, she began to read, hoping against hope that the book would help distract her from the problems her friend was having.

<=====>

Miriam was bored. Books? He'd already read almost every book in the house. A movie maybe? Same problem. He scratched at his tee shirt, and cursed the material under his breath. The more bored he got, the more he had to think. And the more he had to think...

"Dad! Can I see your guitar?"

<=====>

*At least it's better than nothing.* Miriam's father had attempted to give him lessons several years before, and while he had picked the instrument up quickly, he had eventually lost interest, and stopped practicing. Now, after almost three years having barely touched the thing, he was regretting his lack of practice, and thankful for the concentration that playing took.

*A minor to E, to D minor to D minor sus to G...* It had always been one of his favorite chord progressions, and after only a few minutes of practice he managed to get the strumming pattern and rhythm right. The mournful, almost Spanish sound of the notes filled his ears, and he concentrated upon keeping the sounds alive. Miriam had never liked the electric guitar, but his father's old nylon-stringed acoustic still felt at home in his hands. Without him willing them to, his fingers switched from the comfortable chords to a different progression, before finally settling into a lightly finger-picked version of one of his favorite songs, "Sweet Dreams are Made of This". *Hmm, guess I remember better than I thought.*

He adjusted the guitar across his legs, and winced as the upper body brushed his chest. Settling into a more comfortable position, he continued to play until he felt his fingers turning raw.

*God, what a day.* He couldn't stifle the yawn that arose as he raised himself gingerly from his position on his bed. Checking the clock, he was surprised to realize he had been playing for nearly an hour and a half. Descending the stairs carefully, he returned the guitar to its stand by his father's home office desk, and went to bed.

<=====>

Felicity and Bill held each other as they stared at the stars, drifting lazily in the bench swing on their back porch. Felicity felt hurt that Miriam wouldn't open up to her about his problems, but knew that he was getting to a point in life where Mommy couldn't fix everything.

*Doesn't keep me from wanting to, though.* She snuggled more tightly against her beloved, and pondered.

Chapter 10: An Unexpected Development

Miriam awoke oddly refreshed. He was mildly disturbed that the freakish non-dreams were beginning to seem normal, but at least it meant he wasn't waking up at all hours in a cold sweat. Dragging himself out of bed for another day of drudgery, he caught his reflection in his closet door mirror...

And stopped dead.

The high pitched scream brought his parents to his side almost immediately, and he was glad for his mother's arms around him as he collapsed.

<=====>

"But, WHY! I mean, I'm a boy!"

"I don't know, baby, I'm sorry. Oh, what do we do?"

"How could they grow so *sob* fast? I mean, I was normal yesterday!"

"I remember when I first started to develop. One day I woke up almost a full A cup, just like you."

"But Mom, that's different! I'm not even supposed to have..."

"I know, sweetie, I know."

<=====>

"Hey, we've been waiting for you!"

"Yeah, it's- whoa, what's the matter?"

It had been a big argument, but his parents had won out, and while they were setting up a doctor's appointment for him, he would go to school today. A tight tee shirt under a baggy flannel hid his growth spurt adequately for now, but nothing could hide the pain on his face. "Nothing, I'm fine."

"Come on, we've known you long enough to-"

"I said I'm fine!" *Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry... not again...*

"Alright! Jeez, you don't have to be such a jerk!"

*Great, now I feel bad about that, too.* "I'm sorry, it's just... I don't wanna talk about it, okay?"

"Okay." Lindy came over and gave him a gentle hug, and Cary joined on the other side. "We're your friends, and we worry about you. We just wanna help."

"Yeah. I hate seeing you hurt like that." Miriam glanced up at Cary to see his face glowing red. He couldn't resist the smile that crept across his face. *He looks so cute when-*

This time the tears wouldn't stop, and his two best friends simply held him until they went away.

<=====>

"Do you think it's really..."

"Yes, it is. I just couldn't tell him, though, Bill..."

"Tell him what?"

Felicity sighed. She wasn't in the mood for this. "Bill, this wasn't just overnight. Haven't you noticed his scratching the last few days? He's been growing for a while, I think the reason he just noticed is because of the swelling."

The look Bill gave her would have been priceless if it hadn't been for the situation. "So, you mean, Miriam has breasts?"

*God, for a genius he really is thick headed sometimes.* "Yeah. What's worse is that his scratching's got his chest inflamed, which just makes them that much more obvious. Bill, what are we gonna do?"

He thought for only a moment before answering. "Call Dr. Tucker, and see if you can get him in this afternoon. We'll work this out, okay?"

She clung to him desperately, wondering why this had to happen to her baby.

<=====>

"Sweetheart, I know you're embarrassed. Just be patient, they'll get bigger."

Marina just rolled her eyes at her mom. "But Mom, all the other girls are already way bigger than I am! And George, he, he said that-"An intrusive sound broke through her thoughts as someone seemed to be trying to get her attention.

"Miriam! Miriam, wake up!"

"Hmmn? Who's... oh." Miriam lifted his head enough to let Cary know he was awake, and the bigger boy took the opportunity to grab his arm and drag him from his desk.

"Come on, you slept through class! It's time for Math, and we gotta hurry!"

*Math. George is in that class. Isn't he?* Stumbling and drowzy, Miriam followed his friend to his next class.

<=====>

"MISSter Loksley, get your head up off of that desk and pay attention!"

"Yessir..." Miriam did his best to stay awake, but the more the day progressed, the more difficult it seemed to be to keep from falling asleep on his feet.

*What's wrong with me? THIS time?*

"Miriam!"

"Sorry sir."

<=====>

"Well?"

Bill hung the phone up, and turned back to his wife. "Miriam's got an emergency appointment at five."

"Oh, thank God. That's enough time for Miriam to walk home from school with his friends, and I don't want to scare them by showing up at the school to pick him up."

Bill took his wife's hands, and when she turned up to face him, kissed her lightly on the nose. "Don't worry, sweetheart. Miriam'll be okay- he's a lot tougher than we give him credit for." They embraced each other, and even Bill was crying softly to himself.

<=====>

Miriam sighed with relief as the last bell of the day began to ring, signaling the rush of students to all exits. Nobody had seemed to notice anything different about him, and with only the trip home left, he felt almost comfortable.

"Ready to go home?"

"Definitely. If I fall asleep, will you carry me?" Giving Cary the most sickeningly sweet look he could, Miriam let out a yelp when he was unexpectedly picked up and thrown over someone's shoulder.

"Jonathan, you jerk, let go of me!"

"Aw, but I was just tryin' to help."

Lindy showed up in time to see Jonathan lowering Miriam back to the floor, and Miriam was stunned to hear her say, "You know, there's a lot of us who'd love to have you pick us up." Jonathan and Cary's cackling was enough to make Miriam burst into giggles as well, and the four were much more relaxed as they began the walk home.

<=====>

Cary was glad to see Miriam in a good mood again. It had been a while since he'd really seemed to have been himself, but their walk after school had been a lot of fun, and he could tell from the look on Miriam's face that he was feeling better. His gaze caught Miriam's attention, and he began to blush as Miriam smiled at him. He had to turn quickly to keep from doing anything more embarrassing. *Geez, I've gotta get over this. She's not a girl, she's- HE's my best friend, not girlfriend material in any way.*

*But, why CAN'T she be both?*

Running into Bill and Felicity outside Miriam's house broke his train of thought, and the looks on their faces made him even more nervous. Turning around to look at Miriam, he was hurt to see the expression of pain.

"Cary, Lindy, thanks for walking Miriam home. You too, Jonathan. We've got to go somewhere, so can Miriam see you all later?"

"Yeah, sure, Miss Loksley."

"'Kay. Bye, Miriam!" Lindy gave Miriam a hug before she split off towards her own home, and Jonathan grabbed Cary's shoulder.

"Bye, Cary."

"Uh, yeah, later." He stumbled as the pressure on his shoulder forced him to move, but managed one more quick look back before Miriam was filed into Bill's Blazer.

<=====>

*Hmm, I don't know what's going on, but I've got to talk to Miriam tonight.* She hadn't been sure at first, and during the day it had been hard to get a good look, but after hugging him, she was sure of it. They weren't very big, but Miriam definitely had something he shouldn't have in the form of chest development.

*But how could this happen so fast? Or did it really? God, why haven't I been watching for something like this?* But she already knew.

Why would you watch for one of your best male friends to get boobs? This just made things worse. Unable to concentrate, she laid her pen down and closed her math book as she pondered the problem. She was at least partially prepared for the mental difficulties, and still knew more about what was going on than Miriam did, but couldn't figure out many things. Why hadn't that Gordon guy told Miriam everything from the beginning? Even when they had met him over the weekend, she knew he was trying to keep most of the truth from Miriam- he'd explained more to her when he had pulled her to the side after the show than anything she had heard him tell Miriam to date. But why?

*All this thinking's making my brain hurt.* Rising from her desk, Lindy crossed the room to her stereo. *I need to do some dance practice anyways.*

<=====>

Miriam let out a loud 'whoosh' of breath as he fell into the chair in the waiting room. Doctor Tucker had given him a thorough examination before requesting to speak to his parents, at which time he had been sent from the room. Now, here he was, with nothing to do but worry.

Flipping through magazines gave a brief respite from the boredom, but all too quickly the tiredness he had felt all day began to take over.

Within moments, the grey lights began to fill his consciousness again. *Oh, no. What now?*

#It is begun.#

*Oh, come ON! I don't know who you are, or what you are, but just leave me alone!*

#Your future is set. What has been done cannot be undone. It will not be undone.#

*This is all about those stupid past lives, right? Well, tough luck! I'm not a girl, and I won't let you change me into one!*

#You are who you are. You are who you always have been. This cannot change.#

Miriam couldn't hide the frustration in his thoughts. *Then why do all this to me?!?*

The tone of the voice changed, almost imperceptibly, but Miriam could feel the sternness in the words as they swam through his mind. #Because you must be complete. You shall come to understand in time. You are-#

The hand shaking his shoulder pulled him from the vision, and unconsciously he screamed.

"They're ready for you in the back room, now." The nurse let go, and kindly took his hand to help him up.

With one last nervous breath, he crossed the threshold back into the doctor's office.

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Echoes- Part 5

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Serial Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Transformations
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Body, Mind or Soul Exchange
  • Hypnosis / Mind-Control / Brainwashed
  • School or College Life
  • Identity Crisis
  • Androgyny

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  • Posted by author(s)

Echoes V

Melanie Ezell

Over a year, but the next three chapters are here! Thanks to John in Wauwatosa for test reading and suggestions! I'll try to have the next chapters in less time.

Miriam's doctor's appointment doesn't go as well as he would have liked. What's going on, and how can he stop it? More importantly, is he even sure he wants to?

Echoes

Melanie Ezell

Chapter 11: Beautiful Disasters

"What the FUCK!"

"Miriam!"

"Sorry, Mom."

Felicity grimaced, but conceded, "Well, I guess this is that kind of moment." Bill let out a humorless laugh at that.

"I'm terribly sorry, but at this point there isn't really all that much we can do. I mean, maybe if we'd caught it sooner... I still don't understand..." Doctor Tucker skimmed through her notes for the fourth time since sitting down with them, before closing the file angrily.

"What's the matter?" Miriam couldn't keep himself from asking.

Doctor Tucker gave him an appraising look before responding, "None of your previous blood work shows anything wrong. Unfortunately, until the analysis of what work we've just done comes in, I can't give a definitive answer to what's going on, but my initial exam doesn't look good. Bill, Felicity, I've known ya'll for years, and while in most cases I wouldn't phrase things quite like this, I have to say that the easiest way to describe your son's biology right now is 'fucked up.' The blood tests will tell us more, but until then, my best guess is that you've got an elevated level of estrogen in your system. A lot of males develop small breasts due to this, but in your case this seems to be combined with low testosterone levels, and could lead to some major problems."

This hit Miriam even harder than the doctor's guarantee that he had breasts. *So what, I'm really turning into a girl?* "What does this mean? I mean, what happens to me now?"

"I'm afraid we don't really know. I can promise you that things are going to get worse before they get better though. Expect more growth, and soon- from what Felicity said, breast growth is rapid on her side of the family," a nod from his Mom confirmed this, "so I wouldn't be surprised if you were a full A by the end of next week. In the absence of male hormones, your body is taking the female ones without resistance, and until we know what's going on I can't give you anything to slow that down. There may be other complications..."

<=====>

"Miriam, sweetie?"

"Mom, please, just leave me alone, okay?" The doctor's visit had been horrid to begin with but her recommendation had been the worst.

"Miriam," his Dad said sternly over the seat, "you'll have to consider it if things get much worse."

"I know, Dad." *But, a BRA?*

<=====>

The bow made a sharp 'PTWOP' as Cary unleashed another arrow into the target, barely off center enough to miss his last shot. *Maybe, just maybe, we can win this year.*

The low "Dammit" from Jonathan made him look over to see another shot off into the blue on his target. *Then again, maybe not.*

<=====>

"Three Mondo Burgers with fries, no ketchup on one of them."

“Would you like drinks with that sir? Right now you can get a Mondo Shake for only a dollar thirty nine if you upgrade to a combo meal.”

“You two want shakes?” Miriam shook his head no and turned back to staring out the window. We’re good, thanks.”

“That’ll be eleven thirty nine, pull up to the next window please sir.”

<=====>

"And one, two, three lift your knees more five, six, seven keep your arms raised nine, ten, eleven one more measure thir-teen, four-teen, fif-teen, STOP." Lindy lowered her leg to the floor and took a deep breath as she cooled down from the workout. She found it useful to use recorded tracks of her teacher's voice to make sure she kept up with the work even when at home.

*Would they be home yet?* She crossed the floor space over to where her phone sat on the end of her dresser, but stopped herself. *No, I'll wait.* She wasn't sure if they had returned home yet, and besides, would they want to be bothered first thing when getting back?

Frustrated, she turned back to her stereo and started the next track on the practice CD.

<=====>

Miriam was laughing at his dad as they returned home, listening to Bill recount horror stories from his college days. *My dad was such a goofball in college- how did he ever get a degree?* But Miriam knew his father worked very hard, and despite appearances Miriam knew he was a strong man when it came to taking care of his family. *Something I'll never be...*

"Catch!"

Miriam looked up in time to see something orange and white sailing towards him, unraveling in the air-

And felt a meaty smack against his stomach when the hamburger reached him unprotected.

"Oops."

<=====>

Jonathan turned the phone off and handed it back to Cary. "I'll see ya later man, my mom wants me home ta get some more rest 'fore school t'morrow."

"Later dude." The two slapped hands in the air before Cary escorted Jonathan out the door, wondering if he should call Miriam to see how he was. *Just where did they go anyways? It's not like them to just- head off like that.* He shrugged his shoulders, trying to force himself to think of something else, but it wasn't working.

"Ya'll done outside?"

Cary sighed. "Yes, Dad."

"You put everything up?"

"Yes."

"'Kay."

Turning around, he made his way back down the hallway to his own room. *Maybe some music. Drawing, video games, writing..."

<=====>

"I'm goin' to bed, Mom."

"Goodnight sweetie."

"Night son."

Miriam gave his mom and dad each a hug before heading upstairs to sleep. Not that he expected to get much sleep tonight, with everything that had happened. *That stupid voice. What's it got against me anyways?* It was only eight o'clock, but his room was the only place Miriam felt he could go in the house without being disturbed. He briefly contemplated borrowing his father's guitar, but after half a second's thought rejected the idea as being too much effort.

A smile crossed his lips as she remembered the time George had taken his guitar with them out to the river. He had played her a love song he 'wrote' for her, obviously making it up as he went along, but the disjointed lyrics and tuneless strumming made her laugh. *You'd think he'd try to learn to play before serenading me, don't you?*

She didn't even hear the phone ring as she lay down on her bed to dream.

<=====>

"Locksley residence."

"Mrs. Locksley? Hey, it's Lindy. I was wondering if I could talk to Miriam if that's okay?"

"I'm sorry, he's already gone to bed. Is it important, should I wake him?"

*Bed? It's only eight fifteen!* Lindy covered the phone while she growled in frustration. "No, that's okay. I'll check in with him tomorrow."

"Alright then. Good night, Lindy."

"'Night, Mrs. Locksley."

It took over a half hour more of dance practice before Lindy was calm enough to sit again. Surely nothing was wrong? Maybe he just didn't feel good and went to bed early.

*Yeah, right.*

No sooner was she sat down than her phone rang again. "Hello?"

"Hey Lindy! Ah, it's Cary. Hey, can we talk for a bit?"

"Sure, whatcha need ta talk about?" Cary was someone she could discuss Miriam with, and hopefully get some answers. Maybe he called them before Miriam went to bed?

"Do you know where Miriam and his parents went this afternoon?" Crap. "I mean, it wouldn't be a big deal 'cept everything that's gone on with Prince and that hypnotism-ist guy."

"Yeah. Actually, I was hoping you knew something. Ya'll've got a lot closer the last few days."

"Uh, yeah." She could actually hear him blushing through the phone, making her smile.

"Almost like boyfriend and GIRLfriend."

"Awp!"

Yup, he had it bad. "Oh, come on, everybody's been expecting or suspecting it for a couple of years now, not like that's news to you. Besides, ya'll're cute together."

"Whatever. Hey, I'm gonna call him and see if he's alright, want me to call you back with the news?"

*Snort.* "I would have called you with it if he was up. His mom said he's already in bed."

"Shit! I really wanted to talk to her. I mean HIM! I mean-"

"Don't worry about it," she butted in, then sighed. " I've been having the same problem. Cary, we need to get this straightened out, I'm really worried about, uh... her."

"Me too."

<=====>

Not feeling much reason to stay awake if he couldn't talk to Miriam, Cary decided bed might be a good idea after all.

<=====>

Jonathan wasn't sure what to make of the situation his friends were in. Cary and Miriam? No biggie, not like they hadn't seen THAT one coming a mile away. He had to chuckle when he realized the only people who seemed to be surprised by the Cary/Miriam thing were Cary and Miriam. *It kinda blows your mind, don't it?* He knew he had missed a lot the past few days, with being out sick, but he still found it shocking just HOW much he had missed.

It didn't take Jonathan long once he got home to finish the minimum amount of the makeup work he felt he could get by with and on his computer games. His cousins had given him a copy of the new 'Everia' MMO for his birthday a few months back, and while sick he had spent countless hours playing the game. Maybe Nena and Organa would be online tonight? All concern for his real life friends faded as he yet again lost himself in the game.

<=====>

Chapter 12: A Burden Shared...

Miriam was slightly less surprised the following morning to find Cary already waiting for him outside his front door instead of at the corner. He was honestly happy to see his friend ready and waiting. After the bad news at the doctor's office the day before, he knew that if he were left alone he would turn to contemplation of what was happening, and was instead determined to distract himself as much as possible from the problems in his life, a goal made all the harder by the ace bandage wrapped tightly around his chest in an attempt to minimize the appearance of his new 'burdens'. It wasn't a perfect solution, and it was painful, but it was better than the alternative his mom had offered that morning.

"Hi!"

"Hey, Miriam. Ready for school?"

"As much as I ever am." Cary rose from his perch on the front stoop and began the slow walk to school.

<=====>

*I've got to talk to her about it some time. Why not now?* Cary glanced over towards his best friend and often times partner in crime. Was he really interested in Miriam 'in that way'? After days of soul searching and his talk with Jonathan the night before, the only answer Cary could come up with was a resounding 'yes'. Now if only he could tell her!

Passing a neighbor's front lawn, Cary noticed their two puppies, who had recently grown a great deal in size. *If nothing else, I can find SOMETHING to talk about?* "Gettin' big, aren't they?"

Miriam winced. "What?"

"The twins." Cary saw Miriam's face go pale. "The puppies? It seems like just last week they were half the size they are now." Miriam seemed to be growing increasingly uncomfortable with the line of the conversation.

"Uh, I, um, don't know what you're talking about." Cary watched as Miriam crossed his arms nervously.

"Boris and Natasha? Miss Scarlett's beagles?"

"Oh. Oh! Right!" Miriam visibly relaxed. "Yeah, they're so energetic too."

"Do you think she'd be willing to give one of 'em away?"

Miriam gave him a glowing smile, and Cary felt his heart skip a beat. "That might be nice, let's check by this afternoon."

The conversation quickly dried up again, and Cary spent a few uncomfortable moments trying to find a way to phrase what he wanted to say to the pretty young thing beside him, when a whistle ahead broke his concentration. Lindy seemed to appear out of nowhere as she dashed towards Miriam, who grew agitated again. She wrapped her arms around the smaller teenager tightly, and Cary could almost swear he saw her squint her eyes in confusion before pulling away.

"Cary?" Miriam called.

"Yeah?"

"I need to talk to Lindy about something, if that's okay."

Cary was crushed. "Alright." *Great, now I'm losing my best friend to a girl.* Cary continued walking a ways away, and a light came to his eyes as his mouth took on a more determined set.

He would tell Miriam how he felt soon.

But first, he had to figure out exactly what he was feeling to begin with.

<=====>

Lindy gave Miriam a quick once-over before falling into step beside him. She wasn't sure what he wanted to talk to her about, but she had suspicions.

"Lindy?"

"Yeah?"

Miriam shuffled along a bit, never quite looking her in the face. He seemed to be more nervous than usual today, even for all that had happened lately. He mumbled something, but Lindy was unable to make the words out.

"I'm sorry, Miriam, I couldn't understand what you said."

She saw him blush before speaking more clearly. "I need your help with something a bit, umm, personal."

Now Lindy was curious. "What?"

"Uh, you know how all the past lives were girls and stuff?"

"Yeah? And?"

Miriam glanced towards Cary, who was a ways ahead of them on the street, before seeming to mumble something again.

"Miriam," Lindy started, exasperated, "you'll have to speak up, otherwise I can't hear you."

"I think I'm turning into a girl!" He whispered harshly before slapping a hand over his mouth, as though he were afraid someone might have heard him.

Lindy gave him a sharp look. "And what makes you think that?" she questioned. She wanted him to say it. *I can't help him if he won't admit what the problem is. But at least I'm prepared.*

"Uh, um. Okay." Miriam's eyes darted towards Cary again- still ahead of them and out of range of quiet voices. "Uh, the doctor's office yesterday?"

Lindy nodded.

"Well, she said that I'm not normal and I've, uh, kinda got. Oh boy."

She felt like growling, or even telling Miriam what she already figured he wanted, but tried her best to stay calm. "What IS it!" She hissed, barely keeping her voice down.

"Boobs."

"... is that it?"

"Huh?"

"It's kind of obvious," Lindy huffed. "I mean, no offence, but I know what they feel like from personal experience and-" She was cut short by a cry from Miriam, and turning, found her- him- near tears, with a stricken look on his face.

*Uh oh.* Lindy felt like smacking herself. *Wrong thing to say.*

<=====>

Jonathan pulled on his high tops clumsily as he stumbled through the screen door, rushing to try and make it to school on time. *No way I can meet up with the others today, no time!* With a final heave he managed to get his feet into the shoes, and not bothering with laces set off at a dead run for school.

<=====>

She KNEW? Miriam couldn't believe he had been stupid enough to believe he could hide it. *It's Mom's fault for sending me to school today, I told her!*

"Oh, Miriam, I'm so sorry!" He looked up through the veil of tears he just couldn't seem to hold back these days to see Lindy staring at him with a tortured expression on her face.

"I thought I'd *sniffle* done alright in, ah, hidin' them?" He self consciously wrapped his arms around himself again, trying to hide his chest.

"You did, really," she said, "and if I hadn't hugged ya I wouldn't'a noticed 'em either, I promise. I'm like SO sorry!"

"It's okay." Miriam shrugged and tried to act like it was no big deal, but was having a hard time keeping from bursting into tears. *Dammit, I'm stronger than this! Why'm I always crying any more?*

"Come on." Lindy's arm around his shoulder pulled him back to reality. "Let's go, we can talk about this later."

Miriam worked hard to keep the sarcasm down, but couldn't resist muttering a less than enthused "Oh, Joy."

<=====>

Felicity chewed on her lower lip as she debated over what to do. Bill had agreed with her that unless they insisted on it there was no way Miriam would ever agree to the doctor’s recommendation, but neither one of them wanted to force a decision like that on their son, even for his own good. His entire life, they had worked so hard to let him make his own decisions, and it just seemed, well, WRONG to make him do something that could cause him so many problems with the other children at his school.

She glanced towards the bed in her son’s room, where the sports bra she had purchased yesterday still sat, unused, next to the plastic wrapper from the medical cabinet. She winced at the idea of the pain her baby boy causing himself in a vain attempt to hide what was happening to his body, and fought the urge to cry.

“He doesn’t deserve this. No child does.” *But what can I do to make it better?*

<=====>

Bill pulled into his parking spot and sat for a few moments, collecting his thoughts. He had a big presentation today with Scots Industries concerning marketing strategies for the next five years, and the last thing he needed was his personal life getting in the way of his work.

*But he’s my son. If I can’t be worried about him, how can I worry about anything at all?* It was an impossible situation, but he had to stay strong. He remembered back to the day Miriam was born. They had been so proud, their first child- and after the complications, their only child. Miriam had been both his and Felicity’s entire reason for living, and even as Miriam grew up Bill never stopped thinking of him as that baby lying in his wife’s arms, curled up in a blanket and needing his protection from the big bad world. Bill had swore he would be the best father he could, he would stand in the way of anything that tried to hurt his child, and now, when that protection was needed most, he was helpless.

With a glance in his rear view mirror, Bill Locksley straightened his tie, and stepped out of the blazer’s door. He would put a brave face on for the meeting, and maybe even make it the rest of the day without feeling like he had failed one of the only people who meant more to him than his own life.

Maybe.

<=====>

“Good morning class.”

“Good morning, Mr. Hendricks.”

“Now, today we’re learning about the Aztec Mounds.”

Miriam whimpered. *This is going to be a long day.*

<=====>

Chapter 13: Girl Lessons 101

Johnathan sank into his seat at the lunch table with a yawn, dropping his tray in front of himself with a loud ‘clunk’. “You wouldn’ believe what I’ve been put through t’day, tryin’ ta get all this make up work done! I swear, I was up ‘til two this mornin’ tryin’ to get caught up on it all, an’ I still got three days’ worth a’ the junk to do.”

Cary gave him a clap on the back as he lowered his own tray down on Johnathan’s right. “Don’t worry about it too much, you’ll get there. Hey, this afternoon we’ll skip bow practice if you want some help.” He gave Johnathan an encouraging smile. “By the way, you seen Miriam yet?”

“Yeah, sh- he was just walkin’ in the door when I left the line. I think he was talkin’ with Lindy about something.” Cary’s frown was unexpected. “Hey, what’s goin’ on between those two that’s got ya all wound up?”

“I dunno,” Cary replied. “They’ve been talking all day, and haven’t told me nothin’.”

Johnathan gave his friend a nudge with his elbow. “Don’t worry, man, ya ain’t got nothin’ to worry about. Probably just some girl thing. Er, well, ya know what I mean.”

Cary nodded. “Yeah.”

<=====>

“So you really can’t tell all that bad?”

“NO!” Lindy almost yelled at Miriam. “For the tenth time today, no. God, I shoulda never said anything this morning.”

Miriam just shrugged. “Sorry, I’m just nervous I guess. I keep thinking someone’s gonna run up to me and start pointing and screaming ‘boobs!’ or something.” He laughed. “It’s silly, I know, but…”

“It’s alright.” Lindy grabbed a tray and made her way through the food line, and Miriam followed her with his own.

Classes all morning had been a nightmare. Everything had reminded him of his situation, from history to math. He just knew he would be having nightmares about conic sections for weeks. *And don’t EVEN get me started on the daydreams.* It was easier to think of them as daydreams than memories, he had decided. He couldn’t think of any way to stop them, and daydreams just seemed less traumatizing than the idea that he had actually BEEN the girl he was seeing in his mind’s eye.

“Sound okay?”

“What?” He came back around to see Lindy staring at him.

“I said, does that sound okay?”

“Oh, uh, yeah, sure.” He wasn’t sure what she had been saying, but agreed anyways to get moving along.

“Then follow me home this afternoon and we can try it.”

“Sure.”

<=====>

Lindy was surprised at how quickly and easily Miriam had agreed to her plan, but wasn’t about to question his reasoning. *Maybe he’s really more curious than he wants to admit, even to himself. God, I don’t even know if I should be doing this, but what else CAN I do? This is way worse than what that Gordon guy warned us about.* She glanced over at her best friend, right behind her in the food line and seemingly intent on picking just the right fruit cup. He was already very feminine looking even in a baggy tee shirt and jeans, what would he look like in a skirt? *She’ll probably be prettier than I am. If it goes that far.*

Turning from the lunch line, Lindy made her way for the open seat next to Johnathan at their usual lunch table, and did her best to switch her attention from helping her friend to continuing her entrapment of her prey.

<=====>

Cary grinned widely when Miriam lowered his tray and sat next to him instead of in the empty seat on the other side of Lindy. Was now the time to talk? Or should he wait? “Uh, Miriam?”

“Yeah?”

“I was wondering if this afternoon we could maybe talk or something?” Cary looked towards his small companion with hope in his eyes.

Miriam beamed. “Sure! Oh, I gotta go by Lindy’s first though. Hey, wanna come with me?”

“Sure! I mean, if it’s okay with Lindy.”

<=====>

“Are you sure, Miriam?” Lindy was giving him a carefully neutral look.

“Yeah!” *What could she want that wouldn’t be good for Cary to see? Unless- oh god! Does it have something to do with?*

“Great!” Cary’s expression was too happy for Miriam to go back on his offer now, though he desperately hoped whatever was going to happen didn’t cause him any more problems.

<=====>

*I dunno why, but I have a bad feeling about asking Cary over with us.* Perhaps it was the looks Lindy kept casting him and Cary, or maybe it was the churning in the pit of his stomach that told him he had missed something vitally important, but every step seemed that much harder to make with his best friend in the whole world walking along beside him and happily chattering away as they walked towards what Miriam was more and more sure was certain doom.

“-and well, then I was thinking maybe we could, ah, go to the movies or something?” Cary’s words pierced the veil of concern wrapping Miriam’s thoughts.

“Huh?”

“After this is done? I’ll pay and ev’rything?” Cary gave him the wide eyed puppy dog look that he was so good at before falling on his knees and clasping his hands in front of him. “Please?” He begged with a sappy grin on his face.

Miriam laughed. “Alright, sure. We’ll call Johnathan too- maybe he can take Lindy at the same time.”

“Great!” Cary jumped up and wrapped his arm happily around Miriam for a moment before jerking away suddenly. “Sorry.”

Miriam laughed again. “It’s alright.” He leaned sideways into Cary, pushing him off the sidewalk and yelling “tag!” before setting off at a run for Lindy’s house, Cary taking pursuit behind him.

<=====>

Lindy watched as Miriam and Cary talked ahead of her, and marveled at how they were together. *Even knowing they’re both boys- knowing Miriam all my life- seeing the two of them together is like seeing a guy and a girl. I wonder how much of what’s happening to Miriam is ‘cause of that guy Gordon, and how much of this would have happened anyways?* She heard Miriam yell ‘tag!’ and smiled as she watched them set off, Miriam running full speed and Cary chasing along behind, intentionally staying just slow enough so Miriam could evade while staying close enough to catch her if he really wanted to. *Him, HIM! Shoot, it shouldn’t be that hard!*

Glancing up again, she watched as Miriam reached the front gate of her lawn and Cary finally caught him- *no, on the other hand, definitely ‘her’ right now,*- and spun her around, both laughing and wrestling as Miriam tried to get out of Cary’s grasp, though Lindy could tell she wasn’t fighting too hard.

“Okay, you two, stop that and come on in. Cary, you can hang out downstairs and play my dad’s Xbox- I have something I need to show Miriam.”

<=====>

“What the hell!”

“Ta da!”

Miriam was more than a bit surprised at what it was that Lindy had to ‘show’ him. His worst suspicions were confirmed the moment he had entered the room. Lindy had turned from him and reached into her closet to withdraw four bags. ‘Pac-sun’ and ‘Wet Seal’ were two stores he’d never really shopped at, though he had been in them with Lindy and the other girls a time or two. The third bag was the one that worried him, however.

“Victoria’s Secret?!”

“Well, every girl deserves a little something special- we’re teenagers, Miriam! Practically adults already- would you rather it went to someone who was, like, thirty?” They both shuddered.

“But, I mean, are you gonna model these or somethin’, I mean…”

“No, silly, these are yours!” Lindy beamed.

“What!”

Her smile faltered as Miriam felt his jaw drop. “This is what we were talking about earlier at school, I thought you said you wanted to try- did I misunderstand you? Oh, Miriam, I’m sorry!” Lindy dropped the bags and approached him, wrapping him in her arms. “I thought-“

“Oh,” was all Miriam could say as his eyes wandered down to look at the garments that tumbled from the bags. “Sorry, I wasn’t really paying attention, I guess I was a bit distracted all day, what with, well, you know.”

“That’s okay. Come on, we’ll go back downstairs and tell Cary it was nothing.”

The thought of Cary stopped Miriam cold. He was so much like George, but different too. The same eyes, and goofy smile too. She’d always loved dressing up for her dates with George. And that Northern boy who used to come down and buy their cotton too. *God, I hate these memories or whatever they are!* But even fighting them, seeing the clothes made him wonder.

“Um, Lindy?”

<=====>

“Alright, you wrap it around you like this, and twist your arms back and- yeah, just like that.”

After Miriam’s initial reaction Lindy had been worried he might start crying again, or throwing a fit. She couldn’t believe she hadn’t realized how out of it he was at school to agree to something like this- why hadn’t she seen it?

Because she hadn’t wanted to see it?

*Let’s be honest here, I wanted to do this,* Lindy admitted to herself as she pieced the outfit she had assembled together from the various bags. *Miriam’s always been a bit- okay, a LOT- girlish, and ever since Amanda mentioned trying to talk him into this last year I haven’t been able to get it out of my mind, the stuff with that Gordon guy just gave me an excuse.*

“Lindy?”

She turned around to find her charge decked out in the lingerie she had picked out, bikini panties and all.

*God, even just in her underwear you can’t tell.* “All right, next let’s try on the skirt to make sure it fits.”

<=====>

Cary glanced at his watch nervously as he paced back and forth in the living room. He had exhausted his interest in the game console almost an hour ago, and the girls were still upstairs. *What are they up to?*

“Knock knock.”

Cary turned around to see Lindy standing at the base of the stairs looking into the living room, watching him pace.

“Sorry we took so long.”

“That’s alright. What were ya’ll up to anyways?”

Lindy blushed. “Well, why don’t I let Miriam show you. Miriam?”

Cary watched as a vision from his dreams descended the staircase. It was everything he had ever imagined, and so much more. “Oh, my god…”

<=====>

Thanks for reading! Anything you think needs added or explained more, just leave a comment! More chapters coming soon, so be on the lookout- and I promise a much shorter wait between chapters from now on.

PS: Miss Erin, sorry about the roman numerals, but you said keeping it constant is the biggest thing...

Echoes- Part 6

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Serial Chapter
  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Transformations
  • Magic
  • Mystery or Suspense
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Hypnosis / Mind-Control / Brainwashed
  • Romantic

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Echoes Part VI

Melanie Ezell

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Cary tried to pay attention to the movie, but just like the walk to the restaurant he kept finding his eyes wandering over to the beautiful creature next to him. *I REALLY need to talk to Miriam about this. This is insane.* Miriam turned her face away from the screen and smiled at him briefly, and he felt the blood rushing to his cheeks.

The feeling of embarrassment quickly turned to one of surprise. Her face never left the screen as her small hand travelled across the armrest, hovering above his right thigh, before dipping between his legs...

<=====>

Chapter 14: Girl Lessons 101, Part 2

Miriam was nervous beyond description as he slowly made his way down the stairs in the unfamiliar shoes. Lindy had gone above and beyond anything he had expected, and somehow picked the right sizes up for Miriam’s body, though he had been too nervous to go out in the skirt and had instead opted for a pair of her old jeans she couldn’t wear any more.

It wasn’t that there was even anything exceptionally girly about the clothes he was now wearing, besides the underwear.

*Then again, that’s a pretty big ‘besides’,* he thought ruefully.

The low rise jeans fit him well through the hips if a little baggy in the seat, and the basic black tank came down to just meet their waistband. The amount of shape he managed to achieve up top was the least of his worries after Lindy had gone wild with her mascara and eyeliner though, and just a bit of lip gloss had given him the shock of his life when looking in the mirror.

He looked exactly like a younger, auburn haired version of his mom, right down to the large eyes and smallish nose. He had turned one way and then the other, absorbing as best he could the difference so little effort had actually made.

“Yup, I’m good!” Lindy leaned in from behind him, setting her chin on his shoulder and giving him a Cheshire cat grin. “What’cha think?”

“I… I dunno.”

“Well, maybe another opinion would help?” He felt her grab his hand and drag him towards the door. “Come on, Cary’s waitin’ downstairs to see the new ‘n improved you!”

“Wait, no, Lindy!”

<=====>

Lindy couldn’t resist the urge to hum the ‘Miss America’ theme as she led her, she had to admit, very hot looking friend out her bedroom door and to the top of the stairs.

“Wait here, I’ll go let him know you’re on your way down.”

“But Lindy!”

“Shh!” She gave Miriam a warm smile and a pat on the shoulder before heading down the stairs.

The results of the transformation had astounded her at least as much as they had Miriam. *I knew she’d look good, but wow.* She was still a little miffed over the skirt, but she contented herself with knowing that even without it people would never see Miriam as anything but a girl. Besides, the tank top would be cool enough in the not-quite spring weather outside.

Cary was pacing the living room, for all the world looking like the eager boyfriend waiting for his date to arrive. Lindy was hesitant to break the mood, but the sooner they got going the sooner she could start going after Jonathan again- and the sooner they would know just how comfortable Miriam could be in her new role.

“Knock knock.”

<=====>

"Stop staring at me!"

"Sorry!" Cary did his best to turn his eyes away from watching Miriam, but no matter how hard he tried his gaze seemed to be drawn right back to her. Him. Whatever. *I've known her for years and never had this kind of trouble, why now?*

Lindy's voice interrupted his thoughts. "So whatcha wanna see at the theater?"

Cary shrugged. "I dunno. Miriam?" Miriam's blush was obvious, and Cary couldn't help but feel bad for her as he watched her try to sink into the concrete.

"I don't care." Cary stopped in his tracks when she glared at him. "And STOP STARING AT ME!"

"I'm Sorry!"

<=====>

The decision was reached to have something to eat before going to the theater, which brought up the question of where to eat, which after much discussion resulted in Miriam finding himself sat in a booth next to Cary while Lindy called Jonathan to meet them at Fryer Tuck's, Home of the Deep Fried Barbecue Sandwich.

"I still can't believe ya wanted ta come here," Lindy grumbled as Miriam eyed the menu hungrily.

"What? I like this place!" Miriam replied. It had been his argument that if he was going dressed as a girl, he should at least get to pick where they ate. Fryer Tuck's was inexpensive, it was good, and best of all, he knew that most of the people at school avoided the place like the plague ever since they added Deep Fried Frog Legs to the menu. He couldn't imagine why.

He also couldn't imagine why he was managing to stay so calm. Here he was, sitting in a public place, wearing girl's clothes and makeup, and after finally getting used to Cary's constant gawping the biggest worry he had was how hard it would be to get grease stains out of his tank top. *Shouldn't I be freaking out by now?*

The arrival of their soft drinks pulled his attention back to the group, and combined with Jonathan's arrival it was enough to distract him from any further deep thought.

<=====>

"Eight fifty."

Miriam reached for the purse Lindy had put his wallet in to get his money, but Cary's hand on his shoulder stopped him.

"Please, let me," Cary said, pulling enough money for two tickets from his wallet and passing it through the window, retrieving the tickets. Miriam smiled at him.

"Okay, but I get the snacks, deal?"

Cary nodded and grinned. "Deal."

"Will you get my ticket for me?" Miriam heard from behind him, and turned to find Lindy hanging on the arm of a slightly embarrassed looking Jonathan.

"Uh, sure?" He most certainly didn't seem sure.

<=====>

Lindy couldn't resist a slight pout once she was sure the darkness within the theater would hide it. Ever since she had walked Miriam down the stairs Cary had been following her around like a lost puppy, and gone out of his way to try and impress Miriam. Meanwhile, here she was, doing her damnedest to get Jonathan interested in her, and all he wanted to talk about was how much better Miriam seemed as a girl than a boy.

After hearing another comment along the lines of "Damn, he really does seem like a girl," Lindy had had enough.

"Ya know, if you're that into the change, I could find some clothes at the mall that'd fit YOU. How's that?"

She was happy to note the silence that followed, and pulled herself up and kissed him before he could say something stupid again.

<=====>

Cary tried to pay attention to the movie, but just like the walk to the restaurant he kept finding his eyes wandering over to the beautiful creature next to him. *I REALLY need to talk to Miriam about this. This is insane.* Miriam turned her face away from the screen and smiled at him briefly, and he felt the blood rushing to his cheeks.

The feeling of embarrassment quickly turned to one of surprise. Her face never left the screen as her small hand travelled across the armrest, hovering above his right thigh, before dipping between his legs...

And pulling out a handful of popcorn from the tub he had forgotten about.

*Oh, god.*

<=====>

Miriam grimaced slightly as he wiped the dust and oil from the popcorn on the leg of his jeans. 'This popcorn's a bit stale. I wish I had some gummie bears or something.'

"Cary?"

"Yeah?"

Miriam gave his biggest smile. "Would you let me out? I wanna get something at the concession stand."

"Ooh, good idea!" Miriam recognized Lindy's voice from the aisle just behind them. "I could use a break myself. Come on, boys, let us up."

<=====>

“So, how’s your date with Jonathan going so far?”

“I kissed him!” Lindy squealed happily. “I’ve been wanting to do that for a while, and I kinda gave up on him trying it so I just went and did it!”

Miriam laughed at his friend’s happiness. “Well, good for you! I do have to say, though, I’m getting a little nervous.”

Lindy leaned against the snack counter while Miriam placed his order. “What’re you getting nervous about?”

“Three ninety-five, ma’am.” The counter girl pulled out the box of gummie bears, and Miriam handed over the cash.

“I dunno. Cary said he wanted to talk to me today, and I’m just kinda worried about what it’s gonna be about.”

Lindy waved her hand in a dismissive gesture. “Don’t worry. He wouldn’t do anything to hurt you on purpose or anything. What’re you expecting, he’s gonna say you’re weird or something?”

‘Hmm.’ “I guess.” Just what was he worried about with the talk to Cary later? The last time she had been this nervous about a talk had been- ‘No, wait. That wasn’t me, that was me- I mean, Marina? Mary Anne? You’d think if I’m stuck with the memories I’d be able to remember what names went with what, but it all just kind of blends together after a while.’

<=====>

Brrrr- WHACK WHACK WHACK!!!

“AAAhhheee!”

SLAM! Cruuuunnnccchhhh.....

“Eww!”

“Ohmigod, that’s so GROSS!”

“Whose idea was it to see this movie anyways?”

“Uh, Lindy, I think it was yours...”

“Oh, shut up!”

<=====>

Cary looked on helplessly as Miriam returned all the gummie bears she had bought to the theater by way of the trash can. After seeing that, he couldn’t blame her.

“So what now?”

Cary scratched the back of his neck. What now? He needed to talk to Miriam alone for a while, but it was a pretty sure thing that with both Jonathan and Lindy there it would be hard to find an excuse to get away and talk. He looked sadly to where Miriam was leaning against the theater wall, the green finally starting to fade from her face after- he felt his own stomach heave at the thought of what they had just watched, and decided he really didn’t want to think about that.

“Cary?” Miriam’s stressed voice came through his senses.

“Yeah?”

“I think I wanna go home.”

Cary nodded. “That sounds like a good idea.”

“Wait," Lindy spoke up, "you need to come back to my place to change first.”

<=====>

Chapter 15: Good Night, Sweetheart

Cary was hoping that seeing Miriam back in her- *his his hishishis*- own clothes would help to break the tension between them, but was not expecting to have any such luck. As much as he didn’t want to admit it, he couldn’t think of Miriam as anything but a girl.

“Hey, man, things okay?”

“Huh? What?”

Jonathan nudged his shoulder again. “You jus’ seem kinda out of things. Ev’rything alright?”

“...yeah. Sorry.”

“No prob. Here they come back.”

Cary watched for the second time that day as Miriam made her way down the steps. The clothes were her own old boy’s clothes, and only the slightest evidence of the makeup from earlier remained on her face, but she was still a girl.

“You two be careful on your way home,” Lindy told Miriam as she descended the stairs slightly behind. “Jonathan, you too.”

“Yes, ma’am,” Jonathan saluted Lindy, getting a scowl in return. “I’ll make sure these two make it safely.”

“Uh, I need to talk to Cary, if that’s okay. Um, alone.” Miriam glanced down at her feet nervously, and Cary blushed.

“Oh. Okay.” Another pat on his back brought Cary up to look at Jonathan again. “Later, man.”

“Yeah,” Cary answered, “later.”

<=====>

Miriam walked along beside Cary, unsure of how to start the conversation. Why did Cary want to talk to him? And if it was so important, why wasn’t he talking now? Unable to think of anything else to say, Miriam opened up with the only thing he could think of.

“So, what’s up?”

“Huh?” Cary responded slowly, a slightly dull look in his eyes.

“Well, you wanted to talk to me earlier,” Miriam prodded. “Here we are, so... talk.”

Cary kicked at a stray leaf on the sidewalk before answering. “Yeah, uh, hmm. Sorry, it’s just kinda hard for me to just, ah, ask and stuff...”

Miriam growled a bit inside, but managed to keep it from coming out loud. The last thing he wanted was to make Cary more nervous. “O-kay. So. *sigh* This was kind of weird, wasn’t it?” Miriam grinned, wrapping his arms around himself as he considered the absurdity of the situation. “The last thing I ever thought I’d be doing is dressing as a girl to go to the movies. I can’t believe nobody said anything.”

“Why would they?” Cary asked. “You looked nice. I mean, really.”

Miriam felt himself blushing at the compliment, feeling glad the street lights had not yet come on so he could hide in the evening’s shadows. “Thanks. It was just weird being out like that. I dunno, ever since Lindy took me to see that Gordon guy everything’s been so messed up, I guess one more weird thing really doesn’t stand out any more.”

Miriam saw Cary stop moving, and turned to watch as he said softly, “Don’t say that.”

“What?”

Cary stepped forwards, standing merely inches away from Miriam. “Don’t say you were weird tonight. You weren’t. You were... beautiful.” Miriam’s breath caught in his throat as Cary took another step forwards, closing the distance between them even further. “Miriam, I was wanting to ask you something. I, I know it’s going to sound like I’m stupid or something, but.”

Miriam could barely manage a whisper- his heart was beating so hard in his chest, it felt like he could faint at any moment. “Yes?”

“Miriam.” Cary was so close now that Miriam could feel his warm breath on his face. “I... I really like you, Miriam. A lot. And, um, I was wondering–would you-“

There was a harsh ‘pop’ from above, and the brilliant flash of light startled the two teenagers apart. It was only the street light, but by the time they realized it the mood had already passed. With a jump, Miriam took a step back. “Cary, I, I gotta get home. I think I can make it the rest of the way on my own.”

The look on Cary’s face hurt Miriam to see, it was so full of pain. “Oh, right. Sorry. Uh. Just forget what I was saying, ‘kay? I’ll see you tomorrow.”

“See you tomorrow, Cary.” It was on impulse, but Miriam walked back towards his friend and gave him a light hug. Cary was stiff at first, but after the initial shock loosened up and returned the embrace.

<=====>

Felicity was washing dishes when she heard the creaking of the screen door. “Hello?”

“Oh, hi Mom. Sorry I’m late getting home, we went to Fryer Tuck’s and a movie.”

Felicity turned off the water and span around to face the door, looking for her child. “That’s okay, sweetie, but call us next time you’re gonna be late- we had to call Lindy’s parents to find out where you were, and you know how much I hate talking to her mother.” Raven had always been a ditz in school, and even now Felicity would swear she felt dumber after talking to the woman. How she graduated...

“I’m sorry, Mom. I’ll call next time.” Miriam came into the room, and immediately crossed the kitchen to give her a hug. “But right now, I’m like really tired. I think I’m gonna go to bed.”

“Okay, sweetie.” Felicity let Miriam out of her arms, but gripped his bicep quickly when she saw his face. “Miriam, what happened to your face?”

Her child frowned up at her. “Nothing, why?”

Calming herself, she let him go. “It was just me, I’m sorry. Good night, honey.”

“’Night Mom.” She watched Miriam go, and debated what to do. The eyeliner had not been all that obvious, but the smell of perfume had. One thing she knew- she would be having words with Lindy, not her mother, quite soon.

<=====>

Cary crawled into bed, tired beyond belief, but he knew he would not be sleeping for a while.

*Dammit! Why didn’t I just come out and say it? Instead I had to get all nervous and- grrr!*

Tomorrow, he promised himself. Tomorrow he would find out for sure how Miriam felt about him. He would let her know he loved her, and ask her out, and she would say-

What would she say?

<=====>

Miriam stripped his clothes off in his room, his eyes trying to close on their own as he stumbled towards bed. At the last second, he made a bee line for his dresser, grabbing an old tee shirt of his father’s he had taken years before to sleep in whenever he felt like he needed the comfort of his parents nearby. He absently noticed that he had forgotten to grab his own underwear while at Lindy’s, but shrugged his indifference before climbing into bed.

Sleep came quickly to Miriam, and before long she found herself standing again in the grey mist. Wait, she? Looking down at her naked body, Miriam was less than amused to see that yes, ‘she’ was definitely the right pronoun. “WHAT the hell?”

#Your mind and body are becoming one. You are becoming who you are.#

“What does that even MEAN?” Miriam angrily looked around to try and find where the voice was coming from, but like all the times before, she could see nothing but the grey mist surrounding her.

#Soon you will know. The errors of the past must be corrected. You must be whole.#

She felt like hitting something. “Again with the ‘make whole’ thing. Can we just get this over with? Tell me what’s going on!” Her throat was feeling raw from the yelling- could your throat get raw from yelling in a dream?- and still the voice answered in the same calm monotone.

#Your soul has been broken. It must be mended. Tonight you shall learn what must be done.#

“What!?”

But the voice was gone. Miriam felt herself spinning, falling, pressure building around her as her senses ran wild. Hot, cold, strange tastes popping on her tongue, lights dancing before her eyes.

Then nothing.

Her head was aching as she felt herself resolve yet again into what felt like the real world, and opened her eyes wearily to find herself in a strange room full of people. At first she couldn’t recognize any of them, but slowly it dawned on her. The tall girl in what looked like a school uniform smiled sadly at her, while the young woman in the Antebellum dress cried to herself to one side. A soft whimpering could be heard from another figure huddled in its pile of rags further away, and many more women surrounded them, unidentifiable, vague ghosts, little more than shades after the centuries of nothing stripped them of their identities, leaving behind a shell of the spirit that had been.

Miriam screamed, and all the women and shades surrounding her screamed as well.

<=====>

Well, people, for all of you who thought the LAST chapters ended in a cliffhanger, take THAT loyal readers!!! :)

I can't wait to get the next chapters finished- I'm really excited about where the story is going now. It's turning out different than I expected, but I think... better. Yes, definitely better.

Comment or be subjected to three hundred rounds of the song that never ends!!!

Echoes- Part 7

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter
  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Transformations
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Identity Crisis

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Echoes Part VII

By Melanie Ezell

New revelations and an unexpected encounter bring Miriam's confusion and anger to a head. Something has to be done... but what?

(Note: This set of chapters has a murder scene. It's not all that intense, but those who are a little squeamish about such things might wanna be careful. From this point on, the maturity rating of the chapters ramps up a bit.)

<=====>

Chapter 16: Night of the Living Dead

“–Wake up. Come on, sleepy head, it’s time for school!”

“Wha?”

“And isn’t that Wight boy walking you to school today?”

“George!” With a jolt, Marina was up and out of bed, rushing to get dressed.

<=====>

“Where is he?” Marina tapped her foot impatiently as she waited for George to arrive and pick her up. They had been going out officially for almost three weeks now, and not once had he been late to walk with her. “Where could he be?”

If she waited any longer for that boy, she would be late for school, and she knew it. Reluctantly she set out on her own for the long walk, still wondering what could have happened to her boyfriend.

<=====>

Marina slowed down drastically when she saw what awaited her at the doors to her school. Line upon line of people picketing the building... and all of them black. She had never had a problem with blacks, what little she had dealt with them, but after hearing the news about the race riots in Chicago earlier in the year, she couldn't help but back away from the angry mob before her. She watched as several of her friends turned away from the scene and started back for home - no one felt like going to school today.

For Marina, though, home did not feel like the right option. She wasn't sure how she felt about the race issue that was causing such a stir - weren't their own facilities supposed to be equal already? - but she knew if she went home, her mom would want to talk to her about why she was home early, and about what the people were doing. Her mom had said quite often over the last few months that she felt like nothing would be better until the blacks had everything the whites did, which often caused fights between her and Marina's father, and she didn't want to get caught in the middle of THAT again, with both parents trying to get her to agree with their view.

Instead, she set out for The Banks, in hopes that the cool water would help her to think about things. Mostly, though, she hoped that George would be there. Seeing the picket at school had told her exactly why he hadn't been by that morning to walk with her; his family helped a lot of businesses in the black section of town, so she knew his family would probably be supporting whatever was going on. It was a slim chance, but he just might be there, laying low while his parents took care of whatever it is they did.

She took her time walking along the park paths, enjoying being out in the fresh air on a school day, rather than cooped up in one of those tiny classrooms listening to a teacher drone on about geography or whatever. She started thinking about what she would do when she ran into George at The Banks, and what she would say to him.

"George! I didn't know you were gonna be here!"

No, that wouldn't do.

"George! I'm so glad I found you!"

No, too needy.

"Hey!"

No, too --

"Hey, Marina!"

She shook her head and looked around, trying to locate the voice that had been calling her, though when she found it she was less than happy.

"Oh. Hello Sam."

Samuel Prince had had a crush on her for as long as she could remember, and no matter how many times she told him "no" he still never seemed to understand that she didn't like him. There was just something... creepy about him, and she always felt uncomfortable when he was around. It was just her luck that he would find her out here.

"I've been following you since the school," he said as he continued to approach her with his trademark cocky swagger that everyone at school hated.

"I'd really rather be alone for a while, if that's okay." Marina didn't trust him at all, especially with no one else around, and the way he was leering at her only added to her discomfort.

"I'm afraid I can't do that. Not with everything that's going on. A girl like you could get in trouble, out all alone."

"I think I've changed my mind. I'm just gonna go home." Marina tried to walk around Samuel and back the way she had came, but his hand came out and grasped her arm tightly.

"Nah, don't worry. With me here, nothin' bad's gonna happen. Let me walk you to The Banks."

"No, please...." Marina tried to pull away, but Prince was too strong. She was getting more scared by the second, and couldn't even scream as he pulled her down the path and into the woods. *George, where are you?*

<=====>

George wasn't there.

Samuel had kept his relentless grip on her arm all the time they had walked down the path, and Marina knew she would have bruises on her arm where he had been squeezing her. She had tried to pull away, she had tried to tell him to stop, but he wouldn't listen to her. She tried to make herself scream, but she was too scared -- she could barely make a whisper.

All the way to The Banks, she had prayed desperately that George would be there, waiting for her. If he was there, she would be safe, and Samuel would have to let her go.

But George wasn't there.

Samuel had dragged her out to the edge of the shallowest part of The Banks, slippery with slime and water from the quickly moving river, and had then spun her around to face him. With his hand still holding a death grip on her arm, he had inched closer and closer, until finally his clammy lips were pressed against hers, and she could taste his nasty, meaty breath.

She wanted to vomit. She wanted to run. She wanted to do anything but kiss this... TOAD in front of her. Pulling on all her will, she pushed him back as hard as she could. It was enough to jerk them apart, and as soon as she was free of his disgusting grip, she raised her free hand and slapped him hard.

A look of shock appeared in his eyes as Samuel stared down at her, and she thought for a moment that maybe now he would let her go. Instead, the shock quickly turned to anger, and she felt his fingers dig deeper into her arm as his face reddened with rage.

"You stupid bitch! Think you're too good for me, huh? Huh!"

He was shaking her now, and no matter what she did, she couldn't pull away. She finally found her voice enough to scream, but as soon as the sound left her mouth his fist impacted her face, silencing her.

"Let's see if your George likes you after I'm through with you." He hit her, again and again, as she scratched at him and tried to pull away.

She was sure he would beat her to death when she flailed upwards with her foot and managed to find the juncture of his legs. She heard him roar as he let go of her arm and stopped hitting her, doubling over in pain. Unfortunately, losing both the support of his grip and her foot beneath her sent Marina toppling backwards into the shallow water.

*I'm away from him!* She wanted to scream in relief as she plummeted into the river, when suddenly a sharp crack to the back of her head brought searing pain.

The last thing Marina Fallon saw as the darkness engulfed her and she sunk beneath the water was the form of Samuel Prince as he turned around and fled from the rocks, never looking back at her.

<=====>  

Miriam's eyes snapped open as she clawed at her throat in a panic to release the pressure of the water filling her lungs.   Except, there was no water, only the room full of women she had been in before.   She didn't scream this time -- instead, she pulled herself into a ball, hoping no one noticed her.

From the crowd of women surrounding her emerged the girl in the school uniform again.   Miriam recognized the uniform now, and knew who the girl was.   Even here, the sight of her brought a rush of memories to Miriam that were not her own.   This time, instead of being pristine and beautiful as she had been before, the girl's uniform was torn and wet, her hair stringy, and her skin a nasty blue-white tint.   Miriam could just see the edges of a pulpy matted mass at the back of her head, and as she stood before her the water and blood pooled at her feet.
"W-why?"   Miriam heard herself ask.

"It's the curse.   It's always been the curse."   Water dripped from Marina's mouth as she spoke.

"What curse!   And what am I supposed to do about it?"

"That's what you'll have to figure out."   Marina's eyes closed, and as Miriam watched her form changed back into the beautiful young girl Miriam had first seen.   "I've only been trapped here a short time, and I haven't yet started to fade, but it won't be long.   A strong emotional connection to our deaths seems to keep some of us here longer than others," she said as she glanced at the pile of rags in the corner, "but most of us seem to fade after about fifty years.   The older spirits that were still here when I arrived told me the curse has been around for over four hundred years, but nobody knows why it started any more.   All we know is that every time we come of age and connect with our soul mate... we die."

  "But what am I supposed to do about it?"

Marina shrugged.   "We're not sure.   All we know is that you're the first of us to have a chance to break the curse."

"I got that, but how?"

Marina shrugged again.   "Live."

Miriam tried to say something more, but her world started to spin about her as yet again the grey mist closed in and engulfed her.

<=====>

Miriam sat bolt upright in her bed and gasped.   She quickly swept her gaze over her room, checking to make sure she was really herself and in her own bed.   There was her desk, there was her mirror... and there, sitting by her dresser, was her father's guitar on its tripod stand.   Her mom and dad must have put it in after she went to bed, she realized, knowing that playing helped her to feel better.

Glancing at the clock, she saw the time to be only two in the morning.   Too late to play -- she might wake her parents.   Besides, there was too much she needed to think about.   Why was she cursed?   Was this all some kind of weird dream?   Was the Prince that drowned her back then related to the Prince she knew?

  There was so much to go over, and so many questions.   She knew she was missing something, probably a lot of things, but what?   And there was something else....

  "Crap!"   She threw her covers off and jumped from her bed, sliding her hand down her front to see if the changes from in the fog had really happened.   When she reached the top of her panties, she stopped, unsure if she even wanted to know, then with a grimace slid her hand inside.

  <=====>

Cary half yawned half cursed as he noticed the display on his digital alarm clock.   Two in the morning?   Why had he woke up so early?   He could remember some strange dream about going to Miriam's house and looking for her but not being able to find her, only her parents had been different, and so had the town.   There had been something about a protest or something, and then he heard her scream -- and that's what had woke him up, he remembered, Miriam's scream.

For a brief moment he considered calling her and making sure she was okay, but shook the idea off as silly.   Her mom would KILL him if he called her this late, and she wouldn't be too happy to be shook awake either.   *Doesn't keep me from wanting to, though, if just to hear her voice.*

With another yawn, Cary rolled over and tried to force himself back to sleep, knowing the sooner he did so the sooner his alarm would go off, and the sooner he really would get a chance to see Miriam again.

<=====>

Chapter 17: Aftermath

Felicity did a double take as she watched her child enter their den with a bowl of cereal in hand.   Gone was the bandage from the day before, and in its place she was happy to see that Miriam was using something much more comfortable and reasonable, though she knew a warning was in order.

"Honey?"

"Yeah?"   Miriam asked around a mouth full of Chocky-Frosty Ohs.

"If you're gonna wear a dark colored bra, you need to wear a dark colored shirt on top of it, too."

Felicity's expression never changed as she watched the look of abject horror descend on Miriam's face.   She had promised a long time ago that she would never laugh at her child for mistakes he didn't know he made.

  But it was a close thing.  

<====>

*Stupid bra.   I should have just used the wrapping again this morning.   Why was I so stupid?   Stupid stupid stupid!*

But Miriam knew why.   After the night before, the idea of wearing such a feminine garment seemed practically normal, and the bandage had been far less comfortable.

Cary was already waiting on the steps of the front porch when Miriam opened the door, and after a rapid greeting the two set out for school.

<=====>

“So, umm… how’d you sleep last night?”

“Good… you?”

“Oh, uh, fine. Weird dreams, though.”

“Really?”

“Yeah, it was like back in the sixties or something, and I came by your house, only it wasn’t yours… it’s really hard to explain. Hey, are you alright?” Cary asked worriedly when he saw how pale Miriam had gone.

“Uh huh! Fine! Why wouldn’t I be fine? Weird dream, huh? Heh, I’d say just forget it, it doesn’t mean anything, I mean really, why would you dream that? I think it’s best for everyone if we just... oh, look, Lindy! LINDY, OVER HERE!”

As he watched Miriam run off, Cary shook his head and decided there was no way in the world he would ever understand girls. Or Miriam. Whatever.

<=====>

“LINDY, OVER HERE!”

“Huh?” Lindy turned away from Jonathan to see Miriam sprinting towards her, leaving Cary standing back with a confused look on his face. “Oh, hey. What’s up?”

“Oh, nothing really, just… so, yeah. Oh, hi Jonathan.”

“Uh, hi.” Jonathan waved to Miriam with a bewildered look on his face. Lindy had to agree with that look; she had no idea why Miriam was acting so weird.

“So, umm…” Miriam glanced behind herself, and quickly turned around again, rushing past when she saw Cary approaching. “Lindy, can we talk for a bit, please?”

“Oh… kay?” Curious, Lindy followed her friend’s brisk pace. Oh, she just HAD to find out what was going on with this.

<=====>

“Alright, Miriam, we’re away from the big bad boys, what’s going on?”

“He’s having them too!”

“Who’s having what now?”

“Cary’s having the same kind of weird dreams I am! Only he isn’t me in them, he’s him.”

“Ah. Well, that explains EVERYthing. What dreams?”

“The ones about who I was in the past! He’s there too, and he’s seeing them!”

“He is? But, wait, no, he can’t. I mean, Cary wasn’t up on stage and wasn’t hypnotized or anything, so why would he be having the same things happening to him that are happening to you?”

“Because we’re soul mates.” Miriam blushed at the admission, embarrassed to be saying such a thing even to Lindy.

“Don’t you think it’s a bit early for ya’ll to be saying something like that?”

“Lindy! He’s… I think he’s been my… boyfriend… before. A lot.”

“You mean?”

“Yeah.” Miriam nodded, as Lindy’s face twisted into an expression of comprehension.

“Huh. Wow.”

Miriam nodded. “I know. And, Lindy? There’s something else.”

<=====>

Lunch time came quickly, and Cary was more than happy to leave his classes for a while and not have to pretend to be listening to the teachers drone on while he tried to think.

What was going on with Miriam? THIS time? She’d been avoiding him all day again — she seemed to be doing that a lot lately, come to think of it. *I mean, I know the whole hypnotism thing has her messed up right now, but come on, this is ridiculous.* The thought passed through his mind that perhaps she didn’t like him any more, but he quickly dismissed that idea. They had been friends forever, and he was almost certain that Miriam would be more open with him than that.

But with how much things had changed between them recently, how could he be sure?

Before Cary could truly think deeply on that question, however, a nearby voice distracted him.

Miriam.

<=====>

Miriam’s arm was really starting to hurt, but there was no way to pull it from the grip that Sandra had on it. “Please, let me go, you’re hurting me!”

“Miriam, I’m sorry, but what were you thinking? You nearly gave me a heart attack!” Sandra’s grip lessened, but only slightly as she gave Miriam a worried look.

“I, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to, I wasn’t paying attention and-“

“You’ve been going to this school for months now and never made that mistake before. Miriam, is everything alright?”

“What’s going on? Miriam, are you okay?” Miriam looked around, and there was Cary, approaching quickly and staring at the spot where Sandra’s grip had again become rock solid.

“Cary,” Sandra started, seeing the anger start to rise to his cheeks, “maybe you know what’s going on. Please, keep an eye on him, before he gets himself hurt. You’re lucky it was me who saw you,” she said, turning back to face Miriam, “there are some people around here who woulda hurt you if they'd been there.”

“I know, thanks,” Miriam told her honestly as her grip released. “I’ll be more careful.”

“Good. Last thing I need is for you to be hurt and Lindy to take it out on me.” Sandra tried to smile, but it was obviously forced. “I’ll see ya later.”

“Okay.”

“What happened?” Cary asked when he reached Miriam, his voice full of concern.

Miriam winced, recalling Sandra’s screech as the door to the restroom had swung open and she had turned to see who was walking in. "Nothing. Just... nothing."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah. I just ran into her when she wasn't expecting me."

It was obvious Cary wanted to know more, and was still worried, but the last thing Miriam wanted was to think about what had happened any more.

<=====>

"He did what?"

"Just walked right in and was heading towards the stalls. If I hadn't screamed I don't think he woulda ever noticed."

Lindy rubbed her eyes and tried to come up with some excuse for Miriam, but the building headache pounding behind her eyes was making it hard to think straight. How had she ever gotten mixed up in this to begin with?

"-n't think it's a good idea for them to make it so obvious, either, with how much they already get picked on, an-"

Lindy tried to listen as Sandra droned on, but it just didn't matter. She HAD to talk to Miriam... now.

"Don't you agree?"

"Huh?"

"About them, you know, dating?"

"Yeah, sure. Hey, I gotta go. I'll talk to ya later, 'kay?"

"Yeah... alright." Sandra gave Lindy a sideways glance, but Lindy ignored it.

She had more important things to deal with.

<=====>

Alright, so maybe it wasn't the most dignified lunch that Miriam had ever had, but the group managed to make it through without any mention of the bathroom faux pas.

"So what're we doing this afternoon? I ain't got any more homework, so 'm ready to do somethin'," Jonathan said around a mouthful of the school's special Thursday Shepherd's Pie.

Miriam stared at Jonathan, pondering how anybody could actually EAT the school's Shepherd's Pie, before answering. "We're going to see The Amazing Gordon again."

"Hmm? The amazing who?"

"It's the guy who hypnotized Miriam," Lindy said, seeing the confusion on Jonathan's face.

"Ah," he nodded, remembering what Cary had told him. "Think he can help you figure out what's goin' on?"

Miriam's chin and hand met, propped upon the table. "I hope so."

<=====>
(End of Chapter 17 and Echoes Part VII)

NOTES: Alright, so I broke my supposed "schedule" for posting new chapters, but trust me, I have a good reason.

As I write this story, I'm doing it in "parts" of ten chapters each, similar to the acts of a play. Well, the last chapter I posted was fifteen, which is only halfway through act II. So, here's how the change in plans is gonna work:

-I'm going to post the chapters as I write them/get them test read until the end of Chapter 20, at which time NO MORE CHAPTERS SHOULD GET RELEASED UNTIL THE STORY IS FINISHED. It shouldn't be too much of a cliff hanger at the end of that chapter, but it will be a transitional spot, after which there will probably be another ten to twenty chapters before the story is finished. And no, I don't plan on the next 23 chapters total to take me years to write -- barring major problems, we might be seeing the last chapters of "echoes" posted by mid 2011.

A big thanks goes out to John in Wauwatosa for test reading these things for me and letting me know what he thinks of the story as it comes along. There have been a lot of times when he's pointed out little things I've written that have become much more important or were more telling than I ever would have guessed, and without his assistance this story would be a lot less mysterious as well as a lot less coherent, so "Thank you, John!"

Chapter 18: The Curse What Did It To 'Em -- Coming Soon to a Big Closet near you!

False Start

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False Start
A New Year’s Resolution Story
By Melanie E.


After a less-than-stellar time at their employer's New Year's party, Courtney returns home with a new drive to prove to the world just how much of a man she -- err, he -- truly is.

If only they can avoid the temptations of cute clothes, cute shoes, cute... boys? And other trials.

###

1. Auld Lang Syne

I took a long swig from the bottle of beer I’d opened and grimaced at the taste.

The truth is, I don’t like beer. I’m much happier with a nice glass of wine or even something like a margarita – you know, something fruity and playful, with brighter notes to it.

What I liked wasn’t what was important, though.

What was important… was masculinity. And, as far as I’m aware, a real man faces his problems with beer, and stubbornness, and….

And?

I wracked my brain, trying to figure out what it was that real men did when they had problems they needed to sort out.

Watch sports, maybe?

I’ll do that tomorrow, I promised myself, feeling a little better about my masculinity immediately, even as another sip of the beer in my hand made me flinch away from the taste.

I left the TV remote where it lay on the coffee table, on top of a stack of bridal magazines and tabloids, and consciously kept my legs splayed as I slumped onto the couch. I considered putting my feet up on the coffee table, just for good measure, but couldn’t bring myself to do it – masculinity be damned, I really liked the lace cover on the coffee table, and if anyone tried to put shoes on it, I’d….

Well, they’d get a stern talking-to over it, that was for certain.

I tried to take another sip of the beer, but like with my feet, I just couldn’t, so instead, I set it on a coaster – one of the ones with a puppy on it, not a kitten, because dogs are more masculine – then leaned back and closed my eyes, taking a deep breath and only recoiling a little at the lingering taste of the alcohol.

What a disaster!

Hamilton Packaging was a great company to work for, in no small part because of how seasonal our business was. It was always a rush to get orders out in the months leading up to the holidays – custom gift boxes, packing materials for fancy “artisanal” internet boutiques, things like that – but outside the occasional rush order, we were almost always slowing down by the start of December, and we were always caught up enough to earn our company-wide three weeks off.

With no need to go anywhere or do anything until the second week of January, I’d done like I always did any time I had vacation available and immediately plunged myself into my femme persona the moment our time off started.

As office manager, I tried my best to keep a professional appearance at work, so it was always a joy to slip out of my (mostly) boring male work clothes and into something more comfortable, doubly so when I knew I had no rush to change back, and I’d been doubling down on my diet and yoga for the two months leading up to our vacay to make sure I could fully enjoy some of the outfits I’d picked up for the occasion.

I’d spent the last two weeks in heaven. No need to try and man up to appease anyone, no need to watch how I spoke or moved or strip off my nail polish or double-check I’d gotten all my makeup off (though I did anyway because a good skin care regimen is important.) No need to keep my hair tied back or make sure my lingerie didn’t show through my clothes or anything of the sort.

Nope. Just two weeks of comfort and relaxation… right up until the thirty-first and needing to get ready for the office New Year’s party.

It had been a rough and stressful day, from the bath with the less flowery soaps to replacing my polish with a clear-coat, then having to psyche myself up to put on my drab work clothes for the party, but I’d done it, and more or less gladly. I liked the people I worked with, after all, and my boss had told me he would be disappointed if his favorite organizer wasn’t there.

It had been a surreal night, from being “ma’am”-ed at the door and when the bartender checked my ID – Courtney isn’t that unusual a name for a guy! -- to chatting amiably with a lady who worked for one of our distribution partners, only for her to mention that she and her wife were looking for a third girl for a special New Year’s celebration, and realizing she thought I could be the girl.

For chrissakes, I was wearing wing-tips!

The boss’s son asking me to dance with him had been the last straw, and I’d quietly excused myself, promising my boss I’d had a good time and just had a busy day planned for the first.

And now here I am, sitting on my couch, another twenty minutes to go ‘til the ball drops, and all I wanna do is change into some of my cute winter jammies, hug my teddy bear, and cry.

I took another deep breath and shook my head.

This is ridiculous. I’m twenty-four years old. I shouldn’t be doing this. I should be….

What should I be doing?

That question was jarring enough I sat up and gave it a good thunk.

It wasn’t like people thinking I was a woman bothered me. If anything, it was very flattering and kind of fulfilling since I worked hard at it.

But I definitely didn’t want them doing so when I was trying to look like a guy.

The problem was that being a guy was hard work, and I really didn’t like having to do it.

Maybe it’s time I tried harder, though.

I thought again about the lady from the distributor and the bedroom eyes she’d been giving me when she mentioned her wife. There was a part of me that had been intrigued by the idea.

Then again, there was a part of me that had felt thrilled when the boss’s son had asked me to dance, too.

The lady from the distributor’s office had been a tall brunette wearing a classy black dress with some very cute kitten heels. I’d loved the dress but thought that her lipstick was wrong for her skin tone combined with the dark hair and dark material – she’d chosen a bright pink when a darker red would have played better with her coloration.

The boss’s son, Tony, had been wearing a well-cut blue suit that hung nicely on his fit frame. With his dark brown hair with hints of red in it and the crinkles at the corners of his blue eyes, he could have talked any girl at the party into a New Year’s kiss.

If I’d been there in my cute baby blue A-line dress – the one with the boat neck and the white beaded details – I probably wouldn’t have been able to tell him no, either.

But I wasn’t there in my cute dress, or a pair of kitten heels, or lipstick that actually worked with my winter coloration. No, I was there in a black pantsuit, with my hair tied back and barely even any foundation to help take some of the shine out of my complexion.

Okay, so I was wearing a cream silk blouse under the suit. None of my men’s shirts had looked nice enough, and with my tie on, nobody could tell the buttons went the other way anyway.

Still, I didn’t think I looked that femme.

Did I?

I left my unwanted beer sweating on its coaster and walked through my neat little apartment and into my bedroom, stopping in front of the tall antique mirror I’d inherited from my grandmother to give myself a thorough look.

I just saw me: Courtney Martin. Twenty-four years old as of October.

Blond hair past my shoulders, getting a bit shaggy now since I’d been growing it out for my vacay plans. Slim frame, with maybe a bit more shape than was normal for a guy, thanks to some careful yoga and toning exercises and a family history of fantastic asses. My nose was a little beaky, and my brows were maybe a little weak since I’d gotten a bit over-enthusiastic with the plucking before the holidays began, and eyebrow pencil could only help so much.

I turned sideways a bit and looked again, pulling my jacket in to highlight my trim waist, the square shoulders of the jacket and the drape of the cut giving me more of a silhouette than I would have without it, but not too much more.

I suppose I look a bit girly, I admitted, frowning just a little at my reflection.

On a whim, I pulled the low, loose scrunchie out of my hair and shook my head, then reached up to finger brush the hair into a bit nicer style, flowing around my shoulders and framing my face. Checking myself out again, I definitely looked even more feminine, but couldn’t help but smile at the image, tilting my head just a bit so the silver studs in my ears could catch some of the light.

Ugh! Don’t smile at it! I reprimanded myself, scowling at the pretty reflection in the mirror instead. Not that it helped much: with my eyebrows and hair, and finally noting how the suit jacket was just a bit too big in a sort of cute tomboy way, I wound up looking more like a pouting Taylor Swift than a defiant Chris Hemsworth.

Not that I’d really want to look like Hemsworth: finding heels in his size would be way too hard.

Not that that mattered.

Because I’m a man.

I huffed at my reflection one last time, then huffed some more as I huffed my way back to the huffing couch, toeing off my shoes on the way and kicking them into the corner where all my other guys’ shoes were since I needed the space on my shoe rack for my heels and boots and sandals and girl tennies.

I plopped back on the couch and crossed my legs, finally picking up the remote and turning on the television. It only took a moment to find the channel showing Ryan Seacrest and his Rockin’ New Year program, and I still had a good five minutes until the ball was set to drop.

I looked down at my toes and admired the bright red polish on them, gleaming even through the material of my stockings.

“Gah!” I exclaimed, flinging myself back into the cushions and sliding down into a slump.

What was it with me and girly things? Why were they so irresistible?

Seacrest’s voice caught my attention, and I found myself watching him as he said something or other, just meaningless drivel as everyone waited for the ball to drop. He gave the camera one of his toothy bright smiles, and I felt my heart skip the tiniest of beats. He wasn’t as handsome now as when I was little, swooning over him while watching American Idol, but he still had his charm, and just the memories were enough to give me a warm feeling in the pit of my stomach.

“Gah,” I said again, tearing my eyes away from the screen and wrapping my arms around myself in defense against the girly thoughts.

Nobody understood how hard it was. Nobody. How much effort it took, day in and day out, to try and figure out what I was supposed to do, how I was supposed to act, to be the guy everyone said I was supposed to be.

Sure, you search the internet, and it’s full of folks saying to just be yourself, showcasing their comfort in being a guy who wears makeup or cute clothes, or a girl with a mullet who wears flannel all the time, or all of that stuff, but that’s the internet.

In the real world, people judge you not for who you are but for who they think you’re supposed to be. And when you don’t fit that?

I shuddered, remembering bullies, both child and adult, past.

So, I tried to keep my feminine side limited to home. I tried my hardest to be who people expected me to be, seemed to want me to be, when out in public, at least as much as I could.

If I needed a little time to myself to dance to cheesy pop music while feeling pretty, then who did it hurt?

But it was getting harder and harder to just keep it at home.

I’d known the silk blouse was a mistake, just like the stockings, and not stripping the polish off my toes. I’d promised myself I’d go to the work party in full guy mode, but I’d broken that rule on all of those fronts, and it’d made it that much harder to keep up the charade.

The cute, lacy lingerie set I’d bought myself for New Year’s and worn under the whole ensemble probably hadn’t helped either.

“TEN!” Called the crowd of voices on the television, as the camera settled in to track the ball.

I can’t keep living like this.

“NINE!”

Being one person out there, one person in here….

“EIGHT!”

I can’t change the world. I can’t make it more forgiving.

“SEVEN!”

But can I change myself?

“SIX!”

What choice do I have?

“FIVE!”

I don’t want to be some weirdo, and I don’t want to stand out like those people I see on the internet.

“FOUR!”

All I want is to just be left alone to live my life.

“THREE!”

But all of this just makes it that much harder, doesn’t it?

“TWO!”

I can’t change my biology, so I guess that settles it.

“ONE!”

I need to stop all this nonsense and just accept that.

“HAPPY NEW YEAR!”

I watched the television through the swelling tears in my eyes, watched the people crying out in joy as the new year dawned, bringing with it new hopes, new dreams, and new goals.

New resolutions.

Maybe that’s what I need.

I pulled a tissue out of the box on the end table and dabbed at my eyes, then walked over and grabbed my abandoned beer. Steeling myself, I took a huge swig of it and almost managed not to wince as I forced it down.

“I, Courtney Martin,” I said, raising the now almost half-empty bottle over my head, “do so solemnly swear that my resolution for this year… is to finally start acting like a man.”

As if in approval of my resolution, the crowds on the television cheered again, Auld Lang Syne echoing out through their numbers.

I felt a welling of pride in my chest. With this new conviction, I was sure that I could change things and finally be the man I’d always been told to be.

All I needed was a plan and a good night’s rest.

It wouldn’t hurt to wear one of my flannel nightgowns just one last time, though, right? It’s supposed to get down in the low forties tonight.

I assured myself it wouldn’t, and with a spring in my step, I headed to bed, ready to tackle the next day with a plan to find the new, manly me.

###

2. Stuffed

“Hmmm.”

I turned from side to side a bit, checking myself out in my mirror.

It would have to do.

I’d gotten up a bit later than I’d have preferred for my first day in All Man Mode, at least partially because my blankets and nightgown were so nice and warm, and I hadn’t wanted to brave the chill air of the room just yet. That reticence was doubled by knowing that I’d have to forego my pink bunny slippers when I did get up because – toasty warm as they might be – pink bunny slippers just weren’t manly enough for the new, more masculine me.

When I finally did feel like I could handle it I gave my teddy bear D’Artagnan one last nose kiss and hug, knowing that it would be the last night I could hold him as I slept. He would be okay – he was a tough little bear, after all – but it was still a sad moment and made me glad I’d said goodbye to my other stuffies the night before, packing them safely into a suitcase and promising that I still loved them, I just couldn’t have them out anymore, because guys didn’t have stuffies on their beds.

D’Artagnan was staying only because he was a very manly bear.

Finally up, I’d hit the bathroom for my normal morning routine – teeth, moisturizer, a quick brush of my hair – and congratulated myself on resisting the urge to fix myself up even just a little bit. I considered shaving, just for the effect of it, but there wasn’t much point, thanks to the electrolysis sessions I’d gotten.

Not that there’d been much there to begin with anyway.

Morning ablutions taken care of, I’d headed to my closet to find something manly to wear….

It was harder than I’d expected.

Being a bit of a homebody, I didn’t really have a lot of clothes for going out on the town or anything, leastways not guy clothes, and most casual stuff it was easy enough to find things that I felt I could pass off as gender-neutral that, over time, I’d just sort of replaced most of my guy clothes with women’s equivalents, and that was coming back to bite me in the bud.

I didn’t want to wear one of my work suits again – I only had two of them, and besides that, I only had one men’s dress shirt to wear with them, and it was a horrible eggshell that always made me feel like it was just a little stained. I’d bought a number of nice women’s blouses that didn’t look particularly femme paired with the men’s suits, but I was still feeling burned by the reactions to my clothing at the party and didn’t have it in me to go through that again.

It was too cold for shorts and tees, with a high only expected in the mid-fifties for the day, so I needed pants, and maybe a sweater, and….

Underwear.

“Oh, geez,” I groaned to myself as I opened my lingerie drawer, looking for something masculine.

Boxers? Nope, they’re women’s boxers.

Briefs? Oop, nope, boyshorts.

Bikinis? Why would I buy men’s bikini’s if I was gonna wear bikinis?

Shuffle, shuffle, shuffle.

“Yeegh,” I grimaced, looking at the one pair of men’s underwear I could find, a very beat-up pair of tightie whities that were almost as holy as my lace undies from the day before. “Yeah, no.” Straight into the trash they went.

For a brief moment, I considered going commando, but just thinking about the chafing and the griminess and….

No.

Boy shorts it is, then, I decided, grabbing a plain white pair of cotton ones and setting them aside.

I started to reach for a bra but chided myself because guys don’t wear bras.

Well, most guys don’t wear bras.

Some guys probably should wear bras, I thought, giggling at the mental image of Mr. Liemann from the office putting on a sports bra. He had to be at least a D-cup, I’d wager.

The idea of not wearing anything under my top didn’t appeal to me either, especially with how easily I got cold, so I settled on a plain white yoga top, one of the few I had that didn’t have a built-in shelf bra. It was basically just a tank top, and guys wore tank tops all the time, right?

Plus, it matched the boy shorts, which was always a bonus in my book.

With suitably masculine undergarments sorted, I turned my attention back to the other items in my closet.

A bit of searching found a pair of slouch-y mom jeans I’d bought about a year earlier for work pants while I was redoing the living room and bedroom of my apartment. They still had remnants of paint splatter down them, in pinks and yellows and creams, and should be loose enough to pass as guy pants, at least.

A top would be harder, but I lucked into finding an old hoodie my girlfriend Angie had left behind a few weeks earlier when we’d had a movie night. It was charcoal grey, and I was pretty sure it was her boyfriend’s, since it had some kind of pokey-stabby logo on the front for what I assumed was a rock band, and me and Angie were both Taylor fans. It was more than a little too big, but guys wore clothes too big for them all the time, so it would work, right?

Of course, it would.

Which brings us back to me checking myself out in the mirror, wearing my chosen outfit.

“Hmmm,” I hmmm’d again, not entirely sure about the results.

I definitely looked a bit frumpy, at least, but I wasn’t sure if I really looked manly.

The jeans were baggy enough and wrinkled enough to be properly disheveled-looking, though I wasn’t sure the pastel paint did them any favors in the masculinity department now that I really looked at them, and I’d forgotten about the flower detailing on the back pockets, not that anyone would see them thanks to the hoodie. They were what they were, though.

To my surprise, it was the hoodie that I felt was giving me the most problems.

Angie’s boyfriend, it seemed, was an impressively built guy because the hoodie hung like a tent on my slender 5’5” frame, the sleeves coming down past my hands if I didn’t keep a grip on the cuffs, and the neck broad enough it kept falling off my shoulder, showing off my yoga top – I mean, my tank top – strap in a way that wasn’t particularly boyish.

Is this really the only guy top I have in the house?

I gave my closet another run-through, just to be sure, and decided that it probably was unless I wanted to change my mind about the suit or freeze in a tee shirt that I’d probably gotten in the women’s section anyway.

I really didn’t want to wear a suit.

As a last detail, I grabbed the black scrunchie I’d used to tie my hair back the night before and did so again in the same low and loose ponytail. That helped a bit, especially since I’d taken my earrings out the night before, so I was clean-faced, with no jewelry on, and wearing the most boyish clothes I had.

“I’d like at least a little foundation or something, though,” I admitted, frowning at how washed-out I felt. “And some eyeliner would go good with the color of the hoodie.”

Could I fake a beard shadow with some eye shadow, maybe?

Winning the fight against my urges, I grabbed a pair of plain white socks out of the chest of drawers – women’s socks, but socks are all the same anyway, and nobody but me would see the pink stitching on the toes – and headed to the kitchen for a quick breakfast, and to finally make The Plan.

Rather than fixing anything big, I grabbed a fruit bar out of the cabinet and sat down in my little breakfast nook, taking the notepad and pencil I kept on the fridge with me.

Okay, where to start….

Unsure of what else to do, I wrote “Courtney’s Be A Man Plan” at the top of the sheet.

Better than nothing, right?

I underlined it twice, for emphasis.

Still not feeling it, I drew a happy smiley face off to the side.

Definitely better.

I sucked on the pencil’s eraser for a moment as I thought about what I needed to do, then smiled as I began to write.

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NOTES:

So, here it is, the first 2 chapters (of 6) of my New Year's story that I couldn't submit for the contest due to length! I hope folks have as much fun reading it as I did writing it!

If you want to go ahead and catch up on chapters 3 and 4, they're available right now over on the BCTS Patreon! And the last two chapters should be going up some time in the next week or so, as well. The whole story is complete and edited, so you don't have to worry about waiting for anything to get written -- ya just gotta wait for it to go live!

Thanks for taking the time to check my story out, and don't forget: I appreciate all thumbs-ups and comments, and will do my best to respond to them.

Heaven and Hell: Honorarium

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Caution: 

  • CAUTION

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Magic
  • Fantasy Worlds

Character Age: 

  • Mature / Thirty+

TG Universes & Series: 

  • Heaven and Hell by Maggie Finson

TG Themes: 

  • Wishes

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
  • Fan-Fiction, poster's responsibility

Heaven and Hell: Honorarium

By Melanie E.

In memory of a great friend and a wonderful person. Maggie, we'll miss you always.

----

"Hey. Hey! Wake up!"

"Hnghwha?" I opened my eyes and stared up at the woman who was shaking me. It took less than half a second for her beautiful features, wavy chocolate brown hair, large lavender eyes, and pouty lips, to register with me and get me to give her my best smile. When another half-second later I also registered the purple tinted skin, slit pupils, and tiny horns my smile wavered for a moment, but quickly returned.

One of these dreams again, huh? It's been a while, but....

"Hey, snap out of it!" The vision said, snapping her claw-tipped fingers before my nose. "The boss has been waitin' on ya and wants to get this over with."

"The boss?" I asked, even as I stood and started to smooth out the wrinkles on my clothes, only to finally notice I wasn't wearing any. "Umm..."

"Ugh." The demonic debutante rolled her eyes at me. "We've seen it all before, hon. Let's get a move on."

With that she stepped away from me and waved for me to follow. Looking around I finally took stock of my surroundings, a well-outfitted waiting room with dark wood and crimson details, stone walls, and a rather antsy looking little demon-guy behind a counter filling out what looked to be a stack of paperwork taller than he was with a red pen. There was something familiar about the place, but I couldn't quite put my finger on it....

"Hey!"

"Coming!" I yelped, then got up and trotted along behind my escort, the vision of her long supple tail swishing side to side with each step helping to keep my attention on her more than my surroundings. I'd always had a thing for shapely derrieres, and I'd seen few that were quite so shapely as the one before me at that moment.

It wasn't too long before we reached a huge set of dark wooden doors, carved with images of men and women being tortured in hellfire and punished by demons, all very Old Testament. This was certainly a very vivid dream, even compared to how active my normal imagination worked, but it was nothing too over the top really. I wondered which of my many creations would come to take me away for a debaucherous evening of lust and transformation, and could feel my own smile growing wider as the doors opened....

Before me was a luxurious office, a large oak desk in the middle of it, and behind the desk sat the most gorgeous blonde bombshell I had ever seen. Her figure was only set off that much more by the ruby red velvet suit she wore, the large white wings behind her offering a brilliant contrast to the otherwise dreary and demonic surroundings. She smiled back at us as we entered, a smile that offered everything any man or woman could ever dream of... at a price, of course.

"Yer dark ladyship, M. Finson here for their appointment."

"Thank you, Lorelei. You're dismissed."

"Lorelei?" I said, surprised as I watched my escort strut back out of the office. The put upon look on her face vanished as she pulled the doors shut behind her, and I would have swore I saw her give me a quick wink just before the heavy doors closed.

With the doors closed I turned back to give my new host another look, and gulped. "If that was Lorelei, then you must be...."

The blonde bombshell stood up from her desk and walked around, the echo of her heels -- no, hooves -- on the black marble floor filling the space between us. As she approached me, she gave me another of those honeyed smiles and offered me her hand.

"In the ectoplasmic proto-flesh. Though given your reasons for being here, you can call me Lucy."

I shook her hand and chuckled. "Well, this is usually the part in the dream where--"

"This isn't a dream."

"That's just the kind of thing a dream vixen who was about to ravish me within an inch of my life would say."

"Touche'," Lucy returned, quirking an eyebrow up. "But do you remember where you were before this dream started?"

"Where I was? Well, I was... oh. OH."

I looked around myself again as the situation dawned on me, and gulped nervously.

"Welcome to Hell, honey."

I gulped again. "Is this about that time in Tijuana? Because when they asked if I wanted to be a mule I thought it was just some kind of kinky role--"

"Nope!"

"The eight grand in unpaid parking tickets?"

"Nuh uh."

"That time I blamed the cat when i accidentally broke the window throwing rocks at my brother?"

"Not that either! Though if you want to keep guessing I'm sure we can arrange punishment for anything you want."

"...No, I think I'm good."

Lucy laughed and wrapped one of her gorgeous arms and wings around my shoulders in what I was sure was intended as a comforting gesture. Unfortunately, the nature of the situation kept me from being able to enjoy her closeness as much as I might have otherwise.

"Well, if you must know your presence here is a bit of an exception to the rules. NORMALLY folks end up in Heaven or Hell based on their actions in life: you do good, you go up. You do bad, you go down. Simple as that. In YOUR case, though, the Power that Be thought a bit of something special was in order."

"So I'm not here to experience eternal damnation for living a hedonistic and evil life?"

"You wouldn't be meeting with me personally if you were."

"Huh."

"You seem surprised," Lucy said, her eyes twinkling.

"I mean...."

"Let me show you something."

With a wave of her hand a small marble pedestal appeared before the two of us, a compact laptop sitting open on top of it with a number of files showing on the screen.

"Hey, that's my computer!"

"Yep. And you see all those files?"

"My stories?"

Lucy nodded. "Those are why you're here."

"I didn't think my writing was THAT bad!"

Lucy laughed, a tinkling sound that felt completely out of place in our dire surroundings. "Aaah! You are a treat! No, you're not here because of that, though I will say that your Bionic Woman fanfic from ninth grade was pretty awful. You're here because of what your stories have done."

With that, she clicked on one of the story files on my laptop. I looked on, expecting to see the text editor window pop up and show the opening lines of Fey's adventures at Whateley, but what I saw instead was a list of names, dates, and numbers, in different colors and fonts, some changing and others remaining static.

"What's this?" I asked, as I watched one name change from red to green as an eight-digit number next to the name began to rapidly tick up.

"That's the people who's lives your writing has helped to save. Names, and their death dates. The color shows those who go to heaven, and those who come down here."

I looked at the list again, and taking a guess at what colors meant what I felt pleasantly surprised. "So my stories have helped a few people then?"

"No," Lucy said solemnly. With another wave of her hand the laptop grew, and grew, until its screen was the size of a Jumbotron, seeming to stretch beyond the euclidean limits of the room's geometry, the text getting smaller and smaller as more and more information appeared.

"Whoah."

"Indeed. Your stories haven't just helped a few people. They've helped thousands."

Another wave, and the information began to form itself into columns, with story titles at the top. There was Dierdre's tale, with a long list of attributions. There was Whateley, and Caregivers, and of course, my Heaven and Hell stories, all neatly organized, all extending off even the massively expanded screen before me.

"I was just writing silly stories...."

"And in doing so you changed people's lives. Saved people's lives."

I felt the urge to cry, but couldn't. A bit of my own lore from Heaven and Hell came to me, about the loss of a body changing the way spirits experienced emotions, and that brought me back to the here and now. "So, if I did so much good, why am I here then?"

Lucy laughed again, giving me a squeeze that was much more comforting than the first one. "Because the Man Upstairs -- or maybe they're a woman this week, damned if we get a chance to chat very often any more -- thought you might like a quick tour before getting to spend the rest of eternity in eternal joy and all that good stuff."

"Oh. Oh! I mean, yeah? Sure?" I said, unsure of exactly how much I really would enjoy a tour that would probably involve copious amounts of torture, pain-filled screaming, and the smell of burning flesh.

"With our first stop being Lillith's little grove of joy. Or I guess Lorelei's for now, I don't think I have to explain to YOU of all people what happened there."

"Heheh, no, I guess not," I agreed, wondering just how much of my Heaven and Hell stories might have stumbled into being something more than fiction. "Wait, if we're going to see the succubi then--"

"I mean, you know as well as I do that Heaven's what you make of it," Lucy said impishly (and nobody can be impish like the lady of hell herself.) "And who knows, maybe after spending a few days with my succubi you may not want to go north after all?"

I couldn't help but grin: maybe this tour would be more fun than I'd expected.

-FIN-

NOTES

I asked Maggie years ago for permission to write a fanfiction in her Heaven and Hell universe. At the time the plan had been much different: a tale called Heaven and Hell: Dressed to Kill, and was intended to be a Heaven and Hell/Evil Dead crossover where Ash died and was converted to a demon, only to cause a huge ruckus. She laughed at the idea and gave me permission to write the story, on the promise that I would let her have final approval of the story before posting it.

We kicked ideas for it back and forth for a few years, before her health began to decline. Even after that we would PM each other occasionally, and every time Maggie was hopeful that she would find tools that would help her work past her health issues and get back to chatting, back to writing, and back to sharing with everyone else her wonderful personality and creativity.

Maggie was truly a bright spot in our community, and though she might not be with us any more... she'll never truly be gone, either.

As a final note, I apologize for the rough state of this. It's been a little while since I wrote anything due to getting caught up in other projects, and it shows. But I wanted to get this out, and quickly.

*HUGS*

Josie's Con Stories

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Organizational: 

  • Title Page

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

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Con Stories
by Melanie Ezell

The Con

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Caught with Consequences
  • Manga or Anime Style

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

The Con

By Melanie Ezell

---

The choice of costume at an anime convention can have wider reaching side effects than one might imagine.

---
Josie looked over her shoulder at the couples out on the dance floor as she tried to shove her way through the crowded room. She had to get out of there, and fast. It had been a fun idea, and an opportunity she couldn't pass up, but there had just been too many close calls already tonight, and she wasn't sure if she could handle another.

"Hey, catgirl, wait up!"

'Oh, no.' Josie did her best not to wince when she heard the voice calling her, but all hope of escaping before someone she knew spotted her vanished when Greg popped up in front of her. 'Great, just what I needed,' she thought as she looked up into the eyes of one of the few people she could honestly call a friend in her other life.

"Hi!" Greg smiled down at her, holding out his hand. "I'm Greg! Love the costume."

Josie's breath caught in her throat as she realized he didn't recognize her. Then again, this was a fairly big convention, he probably wasn't expecting to be able to recognize anyone. Gingerly, Josie took his hand and shook it lightly. "Uh, thanks. Yours is pretty cool, too." It was. Greg had pulled out all the stops this year, devoting hours of work and research to create the most accurate costume possible, until now he was the spitting image of Onizuka from 'GTO' as 'Doraemon'. Josie knew exactly how much effort had gone into his costume- she had been at his house most nights working on the parts of it with him for the past week.

Her costume, on the other hand, was another issue entirely. 'Golddiggers' had been a favorite comic of hers for a long time, that was true, but what had ever possessed her to dress as a catgirl like the ones in the manga?

"You leaving?" Greg's voice caught her attention again, drawing her back to the here and now.

"Oh! Yeah. It's, ah, a bit crowded in here."

Greg nodded. "Yeah. Come on, I know a place where we can cool down." With a shock Josie realized Greg was still holding her hand from the shake, but it was too late for her to jerk it away as he began to lightly pull her towards the doors.

"Where are we going?" She asked, mentally screaming at the fact that he was holding her hand while silently hoping wherever they went was very public and very easy to escape from.

"Out on the balcony, it's right over here." With one more gentle tug Greg pulled her through the glass doors and out onto the second floor balcony overlooking the pool and hot tub of the hotel where the convention was being held. As soon as the door closed behind them, Greg dropped Josie's hand and walked to the railing, looking out into the stars. Not sure what to do, Josie crossed the balcony to one of the benches and sat herself down, wrestling with the tail of her suit for a moment before wrapping it around her waist. Greg gave her another smile, and she felt herself start to blush under his gaze. "That really is an awesome costume. I bet it took a lot of work."

Josie just sighed and nodded. As much time as they had spent together working on Greg's costume, she had spent at least twice that in the privacy of her room at home getting the costume she was wearing ready. She had even had to suffer the embarrassment of ordering several of the items in person at the local costume shop just to get the right pieces. The leopard print leotard, the corset, the breast forms...

They stayed together in silence for what felt like forever to Josie before Greg finally turned around and offered her his hand again. "Ready to go back in?"

Not knowing what else to do, Josie took his hand and stood up. "Okay."

Together they returned to the dance floor, where the DJ had changed the tempo from the fast paced rave-esque music of earlier to a softer, slower tempo beat perfect for couples. Greg asked the question with his eyes, and not seeing any other choice Josie nodded. She had thought of this kind of thing happening before, but never imagined it would actually happen. 'I'm going to slow dance with Greg. Oh god.'

Greg lightly placed his hands on her hips, and knowing what was expected of her Josie raised her hands to his shoulders. Slowly, they began swaying to the music. Greg never made a move to pull Josie in any closer, a small favor that Josie was very thankful for.

The dance gave Josie a chance to think, and as the song ended she worked up the courage to speak again. "Thanks for the dance, Greg, but I really have to be going. I'll, uh, see you some other time?"

Greg took his hands from her hips, and walked her to the door. As she turned to leave, he leaned in close enough she could feel his breath on her shoulder, sending shivers down her spine, before speaking softly into her ear. "Good night. I'll see you Monday at school- Jeremy."

***That's all, folks. If someone else wants to continue from here, feel free though.***

The Next Con

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Voluntary

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
The Next Con
By Melanie Ezell

 
Sometimes friends can surprise you... all it takes is a little trust.

Note: This is a pseudo-sequel to my short story "The Con." While it isn't necessary to read the first story to understand this one, I would like to recommend that you do.


 
"I can't believe I let you talk me into this."

"Hey, you asked me if you could come; I just told you the requirements."

Jeremy grimaced, but didn't argue. Greg hadn't made him come, it was true -- but why had this been part of the bargain?

"I still don't get why you didn't wear the other costume again," Greg complained, not for the first time.

"I told you, it was uncomfortable and I didn't like it." Jeremy said, partially truthful. While it had been uncomfortable, he would have happily worn it again, if his parents hadn't found it and thrown a fit. Not that the rest of the contents of his "stash" had helped any.

It had taken him over a month to build up the courage to start collecting bits and pieces again, rebuilding his wardrobe. And Greg HAD been a good friend and kept his secret, ever since the last convention. But still...

"Come on, Josie, we're gonna be late for the special preview of the new Kampfer game if you don't hurry."

"Hey! You try walkin' around in platform heels and tell me if YOU can go faster!" Jeremy stomped his foot in anger. No, she was definitely Josie at the moment, she reminded herself, and her Princess Ai costume shouldn't let her forget it.

"Nope! 'Sides, it's your own fault. I said wear something girly, not flash your panties at every guy in the room. Aren't you cold in that getup?"

"Greg!" Josie screeched. His grin was infuriating, all the more so because she couldn't argue with him. It HAD been her idea to do Princess Ai, and now she was stuck in the middle of a hotel two cities away from home in a black gauze petticoat, a ton of jewelry and another horrendously expensive corset. November was the wrong time for that kind of outfit.

"Alright, sorry!" Greg raised his hands in surrender. If any of the passers-by thought it was odd seeing a ninja cowering back from a frail-looking goth girl, they did a good job of hiding it. "Sorry."

"Sigh. No, it's alright." She shrugged her shoulders in defeat. They would be sharing a hotel room for the next two nights; the last thing she wanted was to make her best friend mad at her. "I'll try to speed up."

"No problem. You sure you're okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine."

A look of concern came over Greg's face, as she fought the urge to pull away when he took her hand. "Come on. I can check out the game online. Let's go sit somewhere and talk."

"No! Greg..."

"Now."

She should have known this was coming. She'd been dodging his attempts to get her to talk for three months, and this was the breaking point.

It wasn't long before the two friends were set one to each side of a table in the dining room. With the number of panels at the convention, the dining room was temporarily abandoned by almost all the guests and staff, and would be one of the safer places for them to talk.

Josie looked down. Greg was STILL holding her hand.

"Okay. We're alone. Spill."

"I don't know what you want me to say..."

Greg frowned. "Well, the truth is a pretty good place to start." He closed his eyes. "Just tell me something, alright?"

His grip on her hand tightened, and she relented. "I... I like to dress up sometimes, alright? But that doesn't mean I'm weird or anything, I mean, it's just... it was too good a chance to pass up?"

Greg was silent for almost a minute, with a far away look in his eyes, before he finally nodded. "Okay."

"Okay?"

"Okay," he said again. Josie thought for a moment that he might be done, but he quickly dashed that hope. "So why are you so nervous around me?"

"I'm not nervous around you, I just-"

"Yes you are," he interrupted, and squeezed her hand just a little more. "You look like a girl. You can sound like a girl. You act like a girl. If you can do all that, then I can treat you like a girl. So, why are you nervous around me? Is it because I know Jeremy?"

"No!" Josie denied. "Not at all. Well... okay, maybe." She sighed. "It's just...."

"Just?" Greg grinned. "You seem to be saying that a lot."

"Shut up." Josie couldn't fight the smile that pulled at the corners of her mouth, as she felt some of the tension drain away. A question occurred to her. "Why ARE you so okay with all this?"

Greg shrugged. "You're my friend. Of course, the fact that you look pretty cute as a girl doesn't hurt either -- do you have any idea how many points I'm scoring being seen with you here?"

That was too much, and they both started laughing loudly. Josie felt tears running down her face, though whether they were from laughing or from relief she couldn't say.

"Thank you."

"What for?" Greg asked.

Josie stood, and Greg rose as well. "For being my friend." She stepped forwards and wrapped her arms around Greg, hugging him close.

"You're welcome," he whispered next to her, returning the hug. Then he backed up out of her reach. "Now go fix your face, and we might be able to catch the DDR tournament."

"Alright," Josie smiled, and headed towards the ladies' rooms. For a moment, she regretted not packing more regular girl's clothes in her bag as well, instead of her boy's clothes, but she contented herself with the fact that there would always be time for that at the next con.

Another Con

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Manga or Anime Style
  • Sweet / Sentimental

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Another Con

By Melanie E.

It's con time again! Another short adventure with Josie and Greg.

While this story can stand on its own, check out my stories "The Con" and "The Next Con" for more of Josie's adventures -- all conveniently bite-sized, of course.

---

"Where is he?" Josie mumbled under her breath as she stood on her toes, scanning the crowd for the form of her long-time con partner Greg. "There he is! GREG, OVER HERE!"

"Coming!" His voice echoed from across the crowd. Josie bounced up and down while she waited for him to finish cutting through the many attendees to reach her, anxious to get started. At last he reached her, a triumphant look on his face. "Our room's on the third floor this year. Ready to go up and change?"

Josie nodded, and together they made their way towards the elevators. It was a short ride to the third floor, and soon they were in their room. "Finally, time to change into my costume!" Josie exclaimed excitedly as she pulled the schoolgirl outfit from the garment bag she had brought. This year she had chosen Tenma from "School Rumble" as her character to cosplay, and she hoped desperately that the little motors she had rigged would work right when she wanted to twitch her pigtails. Across from her, she could see Greg busy pulling out the flight suit and helmet for his "Gundam Seed" Zaft forces pilot outfit. He looked up and grinned when he caught her eyes.

"I don't think my girlfriend would appreciate you looking at me like that," he teased her, laying out the suit and giving it a final check to make sure everything was in order.

Josie blushed. "Well, we both know she's not got anything to worry about," she whispered. "I'm just happy to be here."

Greg nodded. "You look nice," he added, before grabbing his outfit and heading for the bathroom. "I'll change in here, you can have the room."

"Thanks," she said as the door closed behind him. With a sigh, Josie gave herself one final glance. The girl's jeans and baggy button down shirt had been boyish enough to slip past her parents in, but once at Greg's house it had taken only moments for her to pull on her bra and do a quick dash of makeup. Jeremy had disappeared, and for the next two days Josie would have free reign to be herself. Sneaking the rest of her stash of clothes past her parents had been a bit more difficult -- they tended to watch her a lot more closely now than they had before they found everything the last time -- but the payoff of not having to be in costume for the entire convention would be worth it, she had no doubt.

Once in her costume, however, the doubts began to settle in again. What if someone saw through her disguise? What if someone they knew were to show up? What if Greg accidentally said her old name, or someone tried to look up her skirt, of her voice slipped or--

"Hey! Stop worrying!" Greg's voice cut through her thoughts, breaking her downhill slide. "You'll be fine. You've done this before, now's no different." He put his hand on her shoulder and squeezed, comforting her as best he could.

"I know, but this time... it's not just a costume any more," she said through her sniffling. "I'm going to be Josie all weekend, nonstop, and what if somebody sees me?"

Greg grinned. "Lots of people will see you. And all they'll see is a cute girl with weird pigtails." He flicked one of the pigtails in question with the tip of his finger. "Do they work?"

Josie tapped a button on the small radio controller strapped to her wrist, and felt the pull as the pigtail on her left bounced twice. She tapped it again, and both bounced in unison, causing Greg to laugh. "I think they'll work okay." After all the hours she had spent figuring out how to wrap her hair around the plastic rods they had better work, she didn't add.

"Nice. And once they hear how badly you sing, they'll really know you're Tenma."

"Hey!" Josie shrieked as she pounded Greg in his well-padded shoulder. "Seriously, though, I mean... what if we see someone we know when I'm out of costume? I'll get picked on enough if they find out I did cosplay as a girl, but if they see me in my normal clothes, I don't know what to do."

"It'll be fine," Greg said, wiping the tears she hadn't even realized had been falling from her cheeks. "Tell them I dared you to or something. Or, don't say anything at all." He took her hand. "If you can't handle it now, you'll never be able to do it."

"Well it's not like I'm ever going to be a girl all the time."

"Why not?"

"It's just for fun," Josie said defensively, but inside she wondered. It was just for fun... wasn't it?

Greg shrugged again, but said nothing.

"Okay," Josie sighed and straightened her skirt. "Give me a second to fix my makeup and we can go, alright?"

"Sure thing," Greg agreed. "And, Josie?"

"Yeah?"

"Next time, you change in the bathroom, I nearly fell in the tub three times trying to put this thing on."

They both laughed, and with a lighter heart Josie made sure she was ready to face the world. Was it really just a game to her? Or was it something more? She couldn't be sure, but she knew that at the very least Greg would support her.

And maybe, for the moment, that was enough.

The Final Con

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

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  • Posted by author(s)

The Final Con

By Melanie E.

Greg and Josie have been going to conventions together for years, and Greg has always been comfortable with who she was. Why have things changed now?

NOTE: While this story is written to stand on its own, it is highly recommended that newcomers read the first three Con stories before diving into this one, if simply to see what has happened between the characters in the past.

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Silence.

Silence in the car on the way over. Silence in the room while getting dressed. Now, silence while they stood in line to turn in their tickets, in exchange for the green or purple wristbands that would indicate their permission to enter the convention for the next three days.

What was going on?

Josie shuffled her feet in nervous tension as the stared at the back of her friend Greg's head. What had changed? Why was he nervous about her now, when for the past five years they had been doing this regularly?

If she were honest with herself, it had started several weeks earlier, when they had first made plans to attend the convention. Well, Greg had made plans with her alternate identity, Jeremy. The two of them shared an off-campus apartment, and Greg had made it well known from the get go that Jeremy/Josie was free to dress and be however she wanted while there.

It had started out with just occasionally wearing a skirt, or a pair of her girl's jeans, but it hadn't taken two months before she was spending all her time outside of classes as Josie. Never once had it seemed to bother Greg, not even when they would go out to eat or to visit the parks or whatever else they decided to do to pass the weekends.

That was before Greg's girlfriend had found out about Josie, though. Pamela had always been the jealous type, and Josie knew that she had complained to Greg more than once about his fairy of a friend, and later roommate, but it had only taken Josie forgetting to change before answering the door for her once to set her off completely. There had been yelling, mostly one sided, until Greg had arrived to break things up, and that was exactly what happened.

One week later, after hardly speaking to one another since the ordeal, Josie was surprised when Greg mentioned the latest con, and asked her if she wanted to go.

Now here they stood, and she was starting to regret her earlier eagerness to come.

"Name?"

"Josie Arnold."

"Nice costume."

"Thanks."

She was proud of her costume, to be sure. Dressing as girl-type Ranma was perhaps a bit cliche, but it spoke to her a lot more than some of the other costumes she had considered, and the usual outfit had been easy to duplicate as well. Greg's Kuno costume had been almost as simple, leaving the two plenty of time to work on more complicated costumes for later in the weekend.

If she even stayed, Josie told herself sadly as she watched Greg walk away without even looking back to see if she was following.

For the briefest of moments she considered abandoning him and doing her own thing, just to see how he would react. But no, she told herself, he was her friend, and she wasn't going to leave him like that.

Even if he was acting like a jerk.

With a little jogging she quickly caught up to the boy as he walked away from her, seemingly oblivious to her own internal struggle.

"Where are we going?" She asked, trying to get him to talk to her.

With a shrug he continued walking, not even turning to face her.

This wasn't like him at all.

Greg seemed determined to ignore her, but with a sharp tug on his arm that nearly sent him tumbling to the floor she knew she finally had his attention.

"What was that about!"

"We need to talk," Josie answered back, just as angrily. "Now."

"Can't it wait until--"

"NOW."

She watched his eyes grow wide in surprise before he nodded his assent. Without waiting for any further answer, she began to drag him back toward the elevators, angling for the privacy of their rooms.

Five minutes later, she had him cornered.

"Alright, so what's your problem been?"

"I don't know what you're talking about," Greg said with a grimace. Since his initial look of surprise, he had not even looked her in the face again.

"Greg, you've been avoiding talking to me for weeks now! What's going on?" She felt her anger lessen as her sadness at the situation took over instead. "I thought we were friends, and now... I didn't mean to mess things up for you and Pam, but--"

"Huh? Oh, that! You think?"

The two of them stared at one another for a moment, neither sure how to continue.

Finally it was Greg who broke the silence, one of his smiles breaking his face for what Josie could have swore was the first time in weeks. "I really screwed this up, didn't I?"

"What?" Josie asked, more confused than ever.

"Jose, things were going south there before she ever saw you. Well, you know what I mean," he said, rubbing the back of his neck nervously. "We've been growing apart for a couple of years now, just neither of us had the nerve to break it off. You did me a favor."

"Then... why haven't you been speaking to me? I thought you'd decided you hated me because I--"

"No," Greg said, cutting her off with a hand on her shoulder. "Josie, why would I hate you? I'm sorry if you thought I -- wait. The reason I haven't spoken to you a lot is because there's something I wanted to say, but I didn't know how."

"Huh?" Josie lowered herself to her bed, no longer knowing which way was up or down. What was going on?

"Josie. No, I've gotta do this properly." With a shake of his head and shoulders the normal Greg was gone, and Josie could almost believe she was looking at Tatewaki Kuno himself, overblown posture and all. "Pigtailed girl," he said, waiting a few seconds for her giggles to subside. "You are the most beautiful flower to have bloomed in these lands in many long centuries. Like a cherry blossom caught upon a spring breeze, you--"

"Okay, okay, stop it!" She was laughing openly now, all sense of hostility gone. "I wanna talk to Greg, not The Blue Lightening or whatever he's called now."

With a twinkle of his eyes the normal Greg was back. "Alright then, honestly?"

She nodded. "Honestly."

"When you and Pam ran into each other, and things blew up, it made me think about a lot of things that have been going on in my life. See, I realized something, but I didn't want to do this wrong."

"Do what wrong?"

"This." With that, Greg reached within his robes and withdrew a small black box, cracking it open to reveal a glittering emerald ring. "Josie," he said, lowering himself to one knee before her, "you're the only girl I want in my life. So, please. Will you marry me?"

Josie felt the color drain from her face as she stared at the ring in her best friend's hands. She tried to speak, but nothing would come out as she did a very un-Ranma thing, and fainted on the spot.

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NOTES: Welp, I never thought I'd end up posting another one of these things, but like with my last story "It's The Little Things," I was sitting here, and it occurred to me, and, well, here it is. Unedited or proofed, so if it reads badly or doesn't make much sense, well, screw it, that's the way it's gonna stay, 'cause I've got too many other things to work on to worry about it :P

Other than that, I hope ya'll enjoyed it!

Little By Little

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Organizational: 

  • Series Page

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Since apparently my one-shot is turning into a series (NOT at serial,) here's a title page and overarcing title!

A visit to a beautiful girl's house has unexpected consequences for Curtis. Sometimes, though, consequences can be a good thing...

Little By Little

By Melanie E.

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Wait a minute . . .

Oh, snap! This story has moved!

If you want to see Curtis's adventures (and ya should!) they're now being held hostage in a book of mine called

Enamored

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The "two pack" in the title is because it includes not only "Little by Little," but another one of my personal favorites, "Romeo and Roomiette!" Two really fun romance romps.
See ya there!

Making Up the Numbers (Preview/Demo)

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Comedy
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Androgyny
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental

TG Elements: 

  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Making Up the Numbers

A DEMO of a new story in the works by:
Melanie E.

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Yep. I'm writing this. What you're seeing here is a first draft of the first 3 chapters of a brand-new tale by yours truly that, when finished, will be submitted to Erin for use in the hatbox and, maybe, for Amazon sales. We'll see.

It's been a while since I wrote anything substantial, so this time around I'm going for something a bit, well, a bit different.

Hope you enjoy the demo, and if you like it... well, keep an eye out :)

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Chapter 1
You Gotta Be Kidding me

"You gotta be kidding me."

"Come on, Stevie, you know us better than that. Would we lie to you?" Angela asked me in her very best innocent voice.

"Yes," I said back, rolling my eyes and going to walk past her.

"Nnngh, come on! That was once, it was forever ago, and you can't even see the scar any more," Sarah threw in on my other side, grabbing my arm partially for friendly closeness and partially to keep me from making it the last few steps to my car and, hopefully, freedom.

"I already told you 'no' last month, and that was BEFORE it would require me to do uh, that," I said, trying to talk around the issue as much as I could since we were A) still on school grounds, if only barely, and B) still within easy word shot of a number of people I really didn't want to hear just what they were suggesting.

Also, let's be honest: there was never a question "that" was involved.

"And then we were kinda okay with it since we had another person, but we need you, Stevie. You gotta make up the numbers!" Angela whined, grabbing my other arm and with her added strength finally bringing me to a complete stop.

"Girls, can we please talk about this later? Over the phone? Like maybe when you come back?"

"Stevie...." Sarah began, but on seeing the look of honest impatience on my face she lowered her eyes and let me go.

"Thank you."

"But?"

"NO."

With that I gave the two slightly-upset girls a friendly wave, climbed behind the wheel of my car, and drove home, where my computer chair was calling my name.

-==-

Be-doop.

I looked at the name on the Skype chat request. I ignored it.

Be-doop.

I continued to ignore it.

Be-doop.

I moved my cursor over the icon to close the window, but I just couldn't do it.

Be-doop.

"How many hours have you been trying to ignore them?" Mom asked me from my bedroom door.

I let out an embarrassing shriek as I spun around, but quickly tried to cover that up when I saw the amused smile on her face. "Uh, three hours," I said after a moment. It had really been closer to three hours twenty-three minutes and fourty-nine seconds, but who was counting, right? "I've given them my answer, Mom. They just gotta accept it."

Be-doop, went Skype again.

"Can I come in?" She asked me, and when I nodded she stopped leaning against the door frame and instead walked over and sat my bed, sinking into the comforter. "Oooooooh," she groaned, falling backward and spreading her arms. "Me and your dad really need to get one of these."

I couldn't stop the grin that was growing on my face, so I didn't. Instead I got up and flung myself on the bed next to her. "Yeah," I agreed, giving the microfiber comforter a stroke and admiring the way the light made the cream material's texture look. "It's pretty great."

"Which of your friends picked this out for you?" Mom asked me, still not looking my way.

I froze in place before answering. "Sarah and Angela did. They'd seen me looking at it when we were at the mall and got the guys to help them buy it."

"Really?" She asked, giving me a smile. "What trip was this? The sundress or the skinny jeans?"

I groaned. "Tennis skirt. Round two."

"Tennis skirt?" She said, surprised. "So they kept it in mind for like four months then."

"I guess," I agreed, pushing myself back up and moving to my computer chair again.

Be-doop.

"So how many outfits have they bought you now anyway," Mom asked, getting up herself and walking over to my closet.

I gave a small sigh and closed my eyes before answering. "Eight, I think. More maybe, if you mix and match pieces."

"Really?" The sound of the closet door opening and her shuffling through its contents was enough to draw another groan from yours truly. "There's the tennis skirt one, the sundress... I don't recognize this one...."

"What is it?"

"Purple cardigan and --"

"Black leggings. The cami that goes with that is in the top drawer." A little more shuffling, followed by a muffled 'ooooh' told me she'd found it. It was a cream silk, and really was quite nice.

Be-doop, goes Skype, as though agreeing with her.

I finally had to open my eyes when I heard her start to laugh, only to see her holding a velvet dress in her hands that looked like it was made for a five year old. In truth, I had to have been at least 12 when I'd gotten it, but it's amazing how much younger a pair of pig tails can make you look. "The look on your father's face when you walked in wearing this...."

I could feel my face burning, but I had to chuckle too. "It was the first time they'd talked me into it. I still haven't gotten the jeans they stole back. I think Charlie put 'em in our time capsule for some reason."

"Sounds like him."

Skype gave an extra cheeky be-doop this time, just to make sure we knew it was still there.

"You know...."

"Mom."

"I'm just saying... you know your friends would never try to hurt you right? I might not always like the choices they've talked you into making," she said, holding up the velvet dress again for emphasis, "but I know they care about you."

"I know too Mom."

"Okay sweetie." She hung the clothes she had pulled down back up, but left the cami laying on my bed and gave me a kiss on the top of the head. "Dinner in an hour."

"'Kay."

Be-doop.

"Ugh."

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Chapter 2
Required Reading

I guess if you've made it this far you're wondering just what the big deal is, right? Well you see, here's the thing: I'm a guy.

Yep.

Oh, still don't believe me? Well allow me to introduce myself. The name is Steven Nikola Schuster, and today is... was... my very last day of high school ever, with all the freedoms, fears, and expectations that entails. What you witnessed earlier was two of my best friends -- no, my two best friends -- trying to talk me into going on their road trip with them.

A road trip that also involves their boyfriends, who happen to be two of the other three members of our little Scooby Gang.

The other member of the group is my arch nemesis, Evan.

I think you see where I'm going with this.

Of course, if you've ever read one of these stories before you already know most of the pertinents. Mixed sex group of friends, I'm the scrawny short guy with delicate features, yadda yadda yadda. We'd all been friends since kindergarten, except me and Evan, the tall, dark, and brooding: he had ruined that when he'd introduced himself by pulling my hair and dumping sand down the back of my shirt, and we had been the worst kind of frenemies since.

Sarah and Angela were twins of the almost-identical kind, and had a thing for mirroring each other as often as possible just to mess with people. The other two members of our group would be Charlie, brown hair brown eyed every-man extraordinaire and our default "leader" if you were to ask him, and Jonas, taller-and-darker-but-that's-cause-he's-black and the nicest guy you'll ever meet. Of course when Charlie and Jonas had proposed to the girls the identical engagement rings had been a necessity, though it still annoyed Charlie that Sarah refused to put hers on the correct hand.

So that's all the important background information out of the way right? Nothing else to report?

Right?

Please?

Okay, yeah. The clothes thing.

See, Sarah and Angela are great people, really, but most of our classmates tend to find them a bit on the intense side. As a result, our group had never really found another girl who was willing to put up with the whole mix n' match aspect of everything, so guess who had the honor of balancing the group?

I'll give you a hint: me and the girls? Same shoe size.

"Making up the numbers," Sarah and/or Angie liked to call it. Honestly, so long as we were going places that our classmates weren't likely to see me, I could cope with it (especially after the first couple of times they managed to trick me into it.) Heck, I'd even grown out my hair (an auburn color Sarah always said was unfair) to make it that much easier. My mom was oddly fine with it, and my dad... well, my dad's cool with anything so long as it doesn't involve jail time or unnecessary spending, and since the girls had always fronted the cost of the clothes he couldn't care less.

The big problem was that Sarah/Charlie and Angie/Jonas had been couples basically since they'd learned to walk, which always left me and Evan as the odd men out.

And that was the problem here.

See, the others had planned this big trip up to one of the girls' uncles' cabins for a couple of weeks, kind of a last hurrah for our little group before we all... well, we were going to the same college, so really what was the point? I'd managed to get out of it on the grounds that Evan had a girlfriend who would make up the numbers just fine thankewverrahmuch, so they could just invite her and be done with it. I think that was the only time Evan had ever smiled at me.

Then I had to go and ruin it a week ago by getting in a fight.

Okay okay, no, I didn't start it, and no, it wasn't really a "fight." After all, "fight" implies I threw a punch at some point. Nope. Long story short, though, the guys hassling me had gotten suspended, Evan had gotten detention the past week, I was off scott free, and Evan's girlfriend dumped him for one of the jerks who'd been messing with me.

That was things in a nutshell, though I'm sure you'll find out more later. Hey, Evan and I might not be "friends" per se, but our group stuck together no matter what.

No matter what.

....

Alright, so we all know I'm gonna get ka-girled and go, right? Let's just get to it so we can continue on.

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Chapter 3
Back to Now. Or Then. Or Whatever.

"Glad you finally gave in and picked up."

"Well hello to you too Charlie. What'd the girls offer in exchange for you talking me into this?" I asked in between struggling to get my hair out of my headset's ear cushions. Note to self: scrunchie on desk at all times.

"They offered to wear thong bikinis the entire time we're at the cabin. Jonas nixxed that though, jealous asshole, so this one's pro bono."

"Too bad, so sad."

"They said they'd still try and get you in one," he added, the smile evident in his voice.

"Hah! Y'all only wish," I threw back, even though I knew he was only half joking. I wouldn't put that kinda thing past the girls.

"Hey, I've seen you in a skirt enough to know you got a cute ass. Your fault you keep showing it off."

"ANYWAY," I said, hoping he couldn't hear the blush that was quickly spreading from my neckline up. "The answer's still no. Sorry Charlie."

I heard him sigh on the other end of the line, the same sigh he had whenever he had bad news for someone. "Yeah, see, no. You're going."

"And what makes you think that?" I asked, my temperature rising.

"Because Sarah just texted me that she's talking to your mom right now."

The yank of my headset when I tried to run out still wearing it barely slowed me down.

"What in the HELL do you think you're--"

"Stevie! Language!" My mom admonished me from the couch, sitting across from two grinning demons whose evil looks were only slightly marred by their matching pigtails.

"Yeah, language," Angie agreed. "We're here to rescue you after all."

That threw me for a second. "What are you talking about 'rescue' me?"

"From boredom," Sarah said, raising a finger.

"Loneliness." Angie raised one.

"Laziness."

"Doldrums."

"And those awful shorts," Sarah added at last, pointing at the ratty gym shorts I'd thrown on when I'd gotten home and were just peeking out under the hem of the long cami I'd trade my tee for after Mom had left my room.

It's comfortable, okay?

"They're my pajamas," I argued.

"You've got better ones."

"These aren't pink." Or covered in teddy bears. Nor did the shorts in question have matching panties.

"And?"

I gave my mom a pleading look, but she merely threw up her hands. "This is your deal, sweetie. You're old enough to decide for yourself. But," she said, giving the girls a stern look that made their grins drop immediately. "If he doesn't change his mind tonight, then that's it girls. If I find another ransom note I AM calling it in this time, understand?"

"Yes Mom," the girls answered simultaneously.

"Good." Mom stood up from the couch and gave me a kiss on the cheek. "I'll go warm your plate up hon. You two have twenty minutes," she said, tapping her watch. "Then you're done. I need to grab the air mattress?"

"No, ma'am. We'll leave once we get Stevie on our side."

Mom rolled her eyes where only I could see it then left the room, leaving me to face my two greatest allies and biggest foes alone.

"Uuuugh. Okay. Whatcha got?" I asked, collapsing in the extra-big recliner my dad usually sat in and curling my legs up underneath me. "Money? Games? What's the bribe?"

"How about... a date!" They said in unison, their grins returning and if anything wider than ever.

I stared at them, nonplussed. "Sorry, you're practically my sisters."

"Eww! Not with us!"

"With someone who's got a crush on you!"

I had to laugh at that. "Yeah right. Like that's a thing."

It was a bitter laugh, to be honest. I only really hung out with our little group, and though I did have people I talked to on occasion outside of it, I'd gotten the clear impression that most people thought I was... I dunno. I don't think they thought I was gay, because there were gay guys at school and they didn't hit on me either. To be fair, though, I didn't know if I wanted to date guys or girls anyway, so....

What, that's weird? It's the twenty-first century, people! Get with it!

Still....

"Okay. Who is it."

Silence.

"Thought so," I huffed, and started to stand up.

"No! There really is somebody!" Angie said, launching across the room and landing on top of me, pinning me to the chair.

"Yeah!" Sarah said, joining in. I'd have worried about the weight except we totaled less than 350 pounds. "At least, we think so."

"Know so," Angie countered.

"THINK," Sarah said again, elbowing me in the ribs as she tried to get more comfortable. "Pretty sure, anyway."

"Rmmf," I said, trying without success to free my arms where they'd trapped them on either side of me.

"And even if they don't NOW, they will! A little lip gloss and your falsies and you could have any guy at school."

"So it's a boy then?"

"Maybe?"

"Andy never forgave you two for that double date, remember?"

"Triple date, and it's not him," Sarah said, nudging me gently.

"His loss anyway," Angie said, nudging me too.

We sat there as the girls let me stew and I tried to ignore them. Another sixteen minutes and I'd be free anyway.

Fifteen.

Twelve.

"Oh, come on, just tell me who it is."

"Nope!"

"Nuh uh. Not until after our trip."

"Can't I at least--"

"Nope! We want our best friend Stevie with us."

"I AM your best friend Stevie," I countered.

"Well... yeah," Sarah said, her and Angie both wrapping me in simultaneous hugs. "It's just more fun when you're not resisting being one of the girls."

"I'm not."

"Are too."

"Am not."

"Says the only one of us with pink toenails," Angie said, pointing at my spangly pink nails. I'd gotten bored with the purple earlier in the week.

"That proves nothing," I argued, though I knew it was in vain.

"Oh, come on!" Angie said, getting up and pulling her sister off me too. "You know you want to."

"And you know it'll be a blast," Sarah added, the two of them holding hands while they gave me their best hopeful puppy-dog pouts.

I looked at the clock, and saw that there were four minutes left.

....

"How'd it go sweetie?" Mom asked when I walked into the kitchen five minutes later, feeling far more drained than I should have.

I shook my head at her and collapsed in front of my plate. "I think I'm lucky I talked them out of the thong bikini."

Her eyes widened into saucers, and then Mom began to laugh.

-==-

NOTES:

Welp, that's it for the demo! Lemme know what ya like about this, what ya don't, and if you think it's going somewhere cool.

Or, you know don't. Free world after all. I ain't judgin'.

Love ya all, and peace out!

Melanie E.

Melanie E.'s Standalone Stories

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Organizational: 

  • Section Page

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

A Change of Plans

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Contests: 

  • 2024-01 January - New Year's Resolution Story Contest

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Contests, Deals, Bets or Dares
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
A Change of Plans


A Last Minute New Year's Resolution Contest Entry



By Melanie E.

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1.

“That’s so….”

“True? Accurate? Logical?”

“Stupid,” I said, frowning at my friend Sara and getting a return frown in response.

She rolled her eyes and stood up with a huff. “No, it’s not! Just look at all the signs that are there!”

“Like?” I asked, trying not to talk with my hands, since I was currently half-way through tearing a very messy turkey off the bones.

Sara set her phone aside and went back to prepping the salad. “Like, he’s always coming over to hang out with us, right?”

“Yeah, because we’re friends.”

“And he buys me all these little gifts.”

“He does for me too,” I pointed out, hissing as I stabbed myself on a turkey bone.

“He pays for my meals when we go out.”

“And mine, because he knows we’re barely making rent most months.”

“Ugh! Seriously, Mikey. It’s all there.” She pointed with her elbow toward her phone.

I looked over at it and read the video title again: “Why Men And Women Can’t Just Be Friends,” in big lurid letters. Just to add insult to injury, it was even in comic sans.

“There’s a big flaw in your ‘logic’ you’re ignoring, Sar,” I said, finally wrestling the stabbity bone free of the turkey around it.

“And what’s that?”

“I’m a guy?”

“Psssht.” Sarah waved that off, sending a slice of cucumber flying in the process. “You don’t count, you’re an honorary girl.”

I sighed and shrugged that off, giving the bowl full of turkey meat one last look-through to make sure I hadn’t missed anything. “You sure? Maybe I put up with your messes and your bringing guys home at 3 AM and your smelly farts because I’m in love with you?”

“Bfah! I don’t have smelly farts!” Sara complained, half-way between an indignant snort and a laugh. “And if you were in love with me I’d know.”

“Is that so?”

Sara thought about it for a moment, casually popping a cherry tomato into her mouth as she did so. “Yeah,” she finally said. “See, according to the video—”

“Ugh!” I gave up and took the salad away from her before she could pick anything else out of the bowl. “You’re right, though.”

“About the farts?”

“No, about not being in love with you,” I said, softening it with a hug. “Not that I don’t LOVE you, just….”

“Yeah, I know,” she said, hugging me back. “I’ll get you about the fart thing though.”

“Sure. For now, can you get the black eyed peas off the stove?”

“Sure.”

It didn’t take long for us to finish prepping all the Big Things for dinner that night. We slid most of the casserole pans and bowls into the oven to stay warm, and made sure the rest were secure in their plastic wrap in the fridge, then both sat down, proud of our work.

“What time are they supposed to be here again?” Sara asked me, popping the cap on a wine cooler.

“In about….” I checked my phone. “About an hour and a half.”

“Why so late?”

“Football,” I said, sharing a grimace with Sara at the thought.

“Blegh.”

I agreed. I was more than happy for them to do the football thing at Davey’s place.

Sara took a long drink from her wine cooler and sighed. “So, you still going with your regular resolution this year?”

I thought about it. “Yeah.” My ‘regular resolution’ was a simple one: to get one of the big publishers to accept one of my books for publication.

“That’s nice,” Sara said with a stretch. “I think I’m gonna make this year’s resolution to get my MRS.”

“MRS?” I asked, curious.

“Yeah, my MRS degree. Get married,” she explained when I continued to look at her cluelessly.

“MR-- Oh.” I rolled my eyes and walked over to the fridge to grab myself a drink, going for a root beer rather than anything alcoholic in case I had to drive folks home later that evening. “Why that?”

Sara shrugged. “I’unno. We both turned twenty-eight this year, and it just seems like it’s time, y’know?”

“I guess,” I admitted. “Though I can’t imagine you settling down with one guy.”

“Hey!” Sara said indignantly. “Just because I had a couple dozen boyfriends last year doesn’t mean --”

“39.”

“—I can’t… what? It can’t be that many.” She looked off and counted on her fingers, then counted again. “I only get 37.”

“Are you counting all three Steves?”

“There weren’t… huh.” She shrugged. “Well, it was a bad year.”

“Year before it was 44.”

“No way.”

I gave her a Look.

“Ugh! Okay! So maybe I’m not great at sticking with one guy! I’m telling you, Mikey. Davey’s in love with me, and I think I could really make something work there.”

Awkward pause.

“What are you thinking, Sar?”

“Oh, it’s nothing! Just….”

“Come on, out with it.”

She sighed again. “Listen. It’s Davey and his roomie Ryan, and Lisa and John?”

I nodded.

“Okay. So, ever since Lisa and John got married they’ve been all insufferable and shit with trying to get the rest of us hooked up with someone, right?”

I nodded again, laughing a bit at the disastrous triple-date they’d tried to arrange back in November. I could still smell the axle grease on the guy they’d brought over for Sara. I’d lucked out – the nonbinary person they’d brought for me to date had told me right off the bat they were ace and only along for the free meal, so we’d had a good time talking about MMOs and writing and ignoring John and Lisa’s attempts to get us to smooch.

Come to think of it, Sara’s date was one of the Steves.

“So, here’s my plan. Ryan makes an extra guy at the party… if you attend as a guy.”

“Sara, no.”

“Come on, Mikey!”

“Sara, NO.”

“But it’s—”

“NO!”

“Pleeeeease?!” She begged me, tossing her now-empty wine cooler and dropping to her knees. “I need this!”

“I’m NOT going to try and seduce Ryan just so you can ruin your friendship with Davey over this whole stupid thing.”

“I’m not asking you to seduce him! Just, y’know, keep him occupied so I can make my move.”

“Sara? I’m. A. GUY.”

“But you look so cute when you dress up, I just thought—”

“AND,” I said, cutting her off, “you’re the only one who knows I’ve ever done that.”

Silence.

“Sara….”

“I mean….”

“SARA.”

She groaned. “I’ve only sent them pictures a few times, okay?”

“SARA!?!”

“Hey!” She said, backing up defensively. “Davey said you looked cute, and Ryan sent back peach emojis! They don’t care!”

“That’s not – wait. Davey said I looked cute?”

“You did!”

“When was this?”

“That lilac sundress with the daisies on it.”

“...Is that why he bought me that purple suitcase for Christmas?”

“Maybe?”

“Huh.”

“Listen, I’ll….” She trailed off, staring at the trash can for a moment. To my surprise, she reached into it and pulled out a turkey bone. “I’ll make you a deal.”

“Oh, come on.”

“No, I’m serious!” She said, holding up the wishbone. “Snap it with me. You get the bigger piece, I concede to you that guys and girls can just be friends. I get the bigger piece… and you wear that lilac sundress again.”

“No, I’m not… really with the puppy-dog eyes, Sara?”

No answer: just pout.

“I’m not… ugh.” I rubbed my temples. “Not the sundress. It’s January.”

“How about—”

“Your grey slacks. The ones with the houndstooth pattern.”

“Pants?” She said, disappointed.

I nodded. “And your yellow blouse.”

She thought about it for a moment. “Cute, I guess. I’ll agree to the slacks, but only if you wear my pointy boots. And my plum wrap sweater in place of the blouse. You look good in purples.”

“Hmmm.”

She held up the wishbone, giving me one last hopeful grin.

Reluctantly I reached out and took one leg.

*SNAP*

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2.

“Hey guys!”

“Hey Sara, hope we’re not – whoa!”

“Hey guys,” I echoed Sara, waving from the kitchen. “Surprise?”

Sara gave me a nasty look as both Davey and Ryan pushed past her, both of them looking me over with wide grins.

I’d told her this was a bad idea.

“Wow! You look….” Davey started, then trailed off. Shaking his head, he walked over to the counter and placed the casserole dish he was carrying next to the plate full of turkey. “We brought over some leftover seven layer dip from the football party.”

“Oh, that’s, ah, great?”

“And chips,” Ryan added, tossing two brand-new bags and one with a clothespin holding it closed on top of the plastic wrap over the dip. His hands empty, he walked over and gave me an unexpected hug. “Dang, Mikey, you clean up nice!”

“Ack!” I screeched, and smacked him with my spatula when he grabbed my ass. “Hey!”

“Yeah, don’t be a prick,” Davey warned him, stepping forward and pulling Ryan back, then giving me an apologetic shrug. “Sorry. You do look nice, though.”

“Oh, this old thing?” I gave a little curtsey, holding out the apron I was wearing like a skirt. Last thing I wanted to do was pay the dry cleaning bill for Sara’s sweater.

“Geez, I was just… alright,” Ryan said, pulling away from Davey’s grip. “Sorry, Mikey.”

“No big,” I said. “But next time I use the sharp side of the spatula.”

“The sharp side?” He asked, then winced when I held up the metal, serrated spatula for him to get a good look at. “Yikes! The hell is that?”

“Combat spatula,” Sara said, stepping up and wrapping herself around Davey in a close hug. “So how’d the game go, handsome?”

Davey looked at me and rolled his eyes, and I rolled mine back. “Pretty good,” he said, giving Sara a light hug. “The Commodores won my six bases, but the Ataris got four yellow flags and led in layups for the first six quarters.”

“That’s great!” Sara said. “The Commodores are great, huh?”

“Yep,” Davey agreed, rolling his eyes at me yet again. “What about y’all? Anything big going on?”

“Not really,” I said, hanging the combat spatula back on its hook over the island. “Talking resolutions and losing bets.”

“So that’s?”

“Yep.”

Sara grinned. “I got the bigger bone.”

“That’s surprising,” Ryan said, wrapping his arms around her from behind. “I thought you were the only one of us who didn’t have one.”

“Eep!” Sara eeped as Ryan pulled her away from Davey. “Put me down you jerk!” She slapped at his hands, but she was laughing as she did it.

Davey shook his head and we watched Sara and Ryan wrestle for a while before breaking things off, Sara dashing out the door and Ryan chasing after her.

“Is she twenty eight, or twelve?”

“Twenty eight,” I confirmed for him. “I checked her birth certificate.”

“Hmm,” Davey said, smiling. “So what’s for dinner?”

I started pointing at dishes. “We got turkey, and salad, and potato casserole, and dressing, and cheesecake, and Hawaiian rolls, and black eyed peas with bacon in ‘em.”

“Sounds more like Thanksgiving than New Years,” he said, walking over to the potato casserole and reaching a finger toward the bowl.

“Naaht!” I warned him, pointing at the combat spatula again. “Not unless you wanna lose the finger.”

“The blood would ruin the food.”

“Hmm.”

He laughed. “So, really, what’s up with the outfit?”

I sighed. “Sara wasn’t lying. I lost the wishbone pull.” I shrugged, choosing not to add the rest of her plan, given that at the moment she was the one distracting Ryan while I was hanging out with her supposed target.

“Well, I approve,” he said, wrapping me in a much friendlier and warmer hug than the one Ryan had given me. Even with the two inch heel on the boots he was still three inches taller than me.

He was still hugging me when we heard a knock on the open door to the apartment, pushing us apart like we’d been electrocuted.

“Oh, hey, you two! Wow, is that you Mikey?” Lisa asked as she walked in, grinning mischievously at us. “Something you wanna tell us?”

“I lost the wishbone pull,” I said again, not bothering to explain further.

“Ah. Well.” Lisa held up the half a watermelon she was carrying. “Sorry it’s so weird, but SOMEone ate the plate of cookies I’d baked to bring over, so we had to improvise.”

“Hey, they were white chocolate macadamia nut! I was powerless!” John said, walking over and giving Davey a high five. “Man! Those Wolverines, right?”

“Yeah!” Davey said, stepping away from me and toward the couch. “Alabama just….”

I tuned them out as I walked around the island and into our little kitchen area, now overflowing with dishes of food.

Lisa gave me a commiserating look as she began unwrapping things and pulling spoons out of our drawers to go in the dishes. “Guys, amirite?”

“I mean, present company excluded?”

Lisa laughed. “Hon, just because this is the first time I’ve seen you dressed like this doesn’t mean you were one of the guys before.” She looked around the room, her eyes twinkling. “So where’s Sara run off to this time?”

“Last I heard was the stairwell door slamming behind her and Ryan while he chased her down the hall.”

“Are we sure she’s—”

“Twenty eight, yep,” I confirmed, reaching into one of the bottom drawers and pulling out the salad tongs for her. “So how’s the baby doing?”

Lisa groaned, patting her only slightly more obvious than usual belly. “Doc says they’re due in April, but I’d swear she wants to be out in February.”

“She?”

Lisa rolled her eyes. “How much of a bitch she is sometimes? Trust me, she’s a she.” I laughed at that, and Lisa poked me in the side. “So, what about you and Davey, huh?”

I pulled away from her and looked over my shoulder, making sure neither Davey nor John were listening. To my dismay, they’d put a replay of the game on the TV in the living room. “Ugh, really? I thought—”

“Hey, no distractions! You two?”

I shook my head at her. “No way, Lise. He’s not into guys,” I said, ignoring her bark of laughter as she looked at my outfit. “‘Sides, you know Sara’s convinced he’s in love with her, right?”

“You mean the girl who’s probably making out with Ryan in the stairwell right now?”

“The very same,” I agreed, more than aware of what my less-than-chaste roomie was likely getting up to. I would be surprised if making out was all that happened.

“Hey girls, can we get some beers?” John called from the living room, his eyes never leaving the television.

I groaned. “Y’all know that’s getting turned off when Sara and Ryan get back, right?”

“You know that’s not gonna be for at least another ten minutes, right?”

I looked at Lisa.

Lisa looked at me.

We both shrugged at the same time, then grabbed the guys some beers, and orange juices for ourselves.

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3.

“Burp.”

“Eww!”

“What?!” Sara asked, giggling, before letting out another belch. “Bluuurp.”

“Ohmigod, stop!” Lisa said, waving her hand in front of her face. “That’s so rank!”

“Least it’s not—” I started, only for Sara to cover my mouth with her hand.

“Don’t!” She said, still giggling like mad. “They don’t stink!”

“What?”

“Nothing!” Sara said, then fell down laughing.

There had been an extra ten minute delay after Sara and Ryan had returned before we sat down to eat, mostly because I’d immediately told her to go to the bathroom and at least use some mouthwash before we did.

She hadn’t found that as amusing as Ryan or the others did.

Despite that the meal had gone well, and we’d all eaten our fill. Now we were all sat in the living room, some of us with alcohol and some without, chatting like good friends do.

“So who has a resolution they wanna share?” John asked, leaning back and unbuttoning his pants in a very Al Bundy way.

“I’m hoping this is my year to get published,” I said, getting a cheer from Lisa and a positive thumbs-up from Davey.

“I’m resolved to John carrying the next cantaloupe,” Lisa said, getting a slightly sick look from her husband in answer, and more giggles from Sara.

“My folks want me to have a serious relationship this year,” Ryan said, not at all sounding enthused about the idea. “So I guess I need to do that.”

“I’ma get married!” Sara said, reaching for her wine cooler on the table and looking a little disappointed when it wasn’t there, because I’d taken it away the third time she’d almost missed the coffee table setting it down.

“Oh, who’s the lucky groom?” Davey asked.

Sara looked at him, ready to say something, but instead began giggling again.

Davey gave me an odd look. “I think this year my resolution is to start a real relationship, too.” He kept looking at me as he said it, and I couldn’t help but blush.

Ryan propped Sara up in her seat, then looked at John. “So what’s your resolution, since you started this?”

“To not be the only married man in the group!” He said, giving both guys a manly wink before taking another sip of his beer. “And to get a vasectomy so Lisa stops threatening to shove melons up my ass.”

“I threatened that once!”

“And that’s enough!”

We continued to laugh, and chat, and joke for another couple of hours before Lisa stood up and yawned. “I’ve had a good time, folks, but the cantaloupe insists it’s time we get home and get in bed.”

“Aww!” Sara complained, then giggled again, the most coherence we’d gotten from her in almost half an hour.

“Davey, Ryan,” John said, giving each of them a handshake. “Mikey,” he said, surprising me with a hug instead. “Take care of yerself.”

“Will do,” I agreed, then loaded him down with as many leftovers as I could convince them to take, including the last quarter of a pan of Davey and Ryan’s seven layer tip, the guacamole starting to look a bit gray around the edges.

I escorted them down to their car and gave both of them one last hug, promising them we’d see each other again in two weeks for the tabletop game at their house, before returning to my apartment to find Davey the only one still in the living room.

“Umm?” I said, looking at the place where Sara and Ryan had been sitting before I’d left.

Davey chuckled. “Sara whispered something in Ryan’s ear and they stumbled off to her bedroom.”

“Oh.” Well, so much for her seducing Davey. “Well, umm….” I looked around at the mess.

“Want some help cleaning up?”

“Please,” I said, relieved by the offer.

Davey gathered dishes and trash while I began the process of storing what leftovers were left and loading the dishwasher, and between the two of us we almost had the place in presentable order before the bed springs started creaking.

I couldn’t help but laugh at the whole situation.

“What’s so funny?” Davey asked me, leaning against the counter while I perched myself on the island.

“Oh, nothing. Just… Sara,” I said, as though that explained anything.

He laughed too. “Yeah, well.” He shrugged, then stood up from the counter and walked over, hopping up next to me on the island. “You really do look nice tonight, you know.”

“Thanks,” I said, feeling oddly embarrassed. “I was kinda annoyed Sara sent y’all those pictures.”

He gave me a one-armed hug. “They were good pictures. I especially liked the ones of you in her old cheerleading uniform.”

I snorted at that. Sara had been annoyed when I’d fit in the thing and she couldn’t.

“Though I have to say, I think you looked nicer in that black dress last week.”

“I would hope so,” I agreed, sighing. The dress had been three hundred dollars, and the makeover another one fifty, and I had no idea when I’d wear it again.

“You still haven’t told her we’re—”

“No,” I said, leaning on his shoulder. “Not yet. I don’t wanna upset her.”

“You think she’ll be upset?” He asked me, tilting my head so he could look into my eyes, then glancing toward the bedroom where we could now hear a vocal accompaniment to the twanging springs.

“She’s Sara,” I said, like that explained anything.

“Well, I was serious about my resolution,” Davey said, leaning down and kissing me. “And I don’t want us to have to keep hiding it, either.”

“It was nice, just sort of being with our friends tonight,” I agreed.

“It woulda been nicer if we coulda been US with our friends, though,” he said, kissing me again.

The bed springs quieted down, but neither of us moved. There were only two possibilities – either Sara and Ryan were asleep, or they were going to have a round two, and neither meant we’d be getting interrupted any time soon.

I glanced over at the counter, where Sara’s phone was still sitting where she’d left it when we’d began my makeover, and thought about the video she’d been watching.

Could guys and girls just be friends and nothing more?

I was still sure the answer was yes… but then again, what did I know?

-----

END

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NOTES:

Okay, so this is something I just kinda cooked up over the last couple days, and wanted to try and get written and tossed out before the deadline just to say I did. I hope folks enjoy it!

As always, all comments and kudos appreciated. Love y'all!

A Day Without Pain

  • Rasufelle
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A Day Without Pain

A Hatbox Short by Melanie E.

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"It's the least we can do."

That's what they had said when they had come into his hospital room, clipboards in hand and curious, though not unkind, looks in their eyes.

It was natural for those who were healthy to be curious about the dying after all, and that was exactly what he had been doing, slowly and agonizingly, for the last three years.

It had started out innocuously enough, with a twinge in his temple when he would stand up or turn his head too quickly. The twinge had turned to a spike, and the spike into a burning lance, piercing his head with every movement.

For years he had devoted his life to becoming one of the most promising young talents in the computer technology world.

He felt it somewhat ironic that he would die not being able to stand looking at a monitor for more than five minutes without a morphine drip in place.

A Favor For a Friend

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  • Rasufelle

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  • 2024-01 January - New Year's Resolution Story Contest

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  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

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  • Contests, Deals, Bets or Dares
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Sometimes you have no idea what's gonna happen when you're asked to do...

A Favor For A Friend

A New Year’s Resolution Contest Entry

By Melanie E.

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“This is so stupid,” I told myself for probably the tenth time in the last half-hour. Nevertheless, I planted my elbow on the counter, held my hands steady, and went to work.

Carefully, ever so carefully, I traced the line of my upper lid on my left eye with the slick, wet eyeliner, drawing the wing out almost to the tip of my brow. Satisfied, I did the same on the other side, then went back to the first eye, being equally careful as I did a thin line under the eye as well… then back to the left to repeat.

Good enough, I assured myself, nodding in approval at the results.

Not that the quality was a surprise. I’d been practicing this look for weeks in preparation for the coming party, spending hours pouring over tutorials, trying different brands and styles, and figuring out what worked for me.

I was being paid to do it, so I might as well do it right, after all.

“Are you almost done in there?” Jacob called through the door, not so much pleading as amused.

“Hey, I told you this was gonna take a while!” I yelled back, getting a laugh in response.

Rolling my eyes, I walked over to the door and unlocked it, letting it swing open on its own.

“Yeah, but-- wow,” Jacob said, stepping back when he saw me.

“That bad?”

He laughed again. “You know the answer to that. You look stunning, and Buddy doesn’t deserve you.”

“You’re damn right about that,” I muttered under my breath but smiled as I pushed past him. “Bathroom’s all yours.”

“Thanks, Reese.”

“No problem,” I said, walking over to the little island in our apartment and propping myself up on one of the stools. “Just don’t move any of the stuff on the counter; I need to pack some of it in my purse later and don’t wanna forget anything.”

“Righto,” he said, even as the door closed behind him, and I almost immediately heard the sound of him whizzing.

Probably didn’t even lift the lid first, I thought with a frown. Rather than worrying about it I reached for the glass of wine I’d prepared myself before starting. My nails made a gentle clinking noise as their dark red tips made contact with the glass, and I had to mentally kick myself for almost making a mess.

“This is so, so stupid,” I said once again, lifting the glass to my lips and taking a sip. I didn’t need to look down at it to know there’d be a lipstick mark on the lip, in the same dark red as my nails. “But at least I’m getting paid for it.”

I’d told Buddy it was a fool’s bet when he’d made it, but he’d never been one to let a little logic get in the way of a good challenge.

It was a year ago, but I could still replay the whole sequence of events in my head as though it were only last week….

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“You’re a goddamn idiot.”

“I know,” Buddy agreed, taking a swig of tomato juice and wincing.

“Like, a world-class one.”

“I know!”

“Then why did you—”

“Hey, you weren’t there!” He said, flinching at the volume of his own voice. “Can we have this conversation after my hangover?”

“Nope, ‘cause you deserve to suffer both,” I countered, trying not to enjoy my friend’s discomfort too much.

“Bitch,” he tossed back at me as though that were an insult.

“Don’t hate me because I’m beautiful.”

“Yeah, well, it’s 10 AM. Why are you still dressed like that?”

“Like that,” in this case, referred to the green-sequined cocktail dress I was wearing, with the three-inch heels, and padding in just the right places to give me a nice if not overwhelming figure.

“It was a helluva New Year’s party,” I said, as though that explained anything.

“And your girlfriend wanted you to—”

“Yes, yes she did,” I said happily. And it was the truth – she had been the one who’d insisted I left her house fully dressed again that morning. Given how the night before had played out, I’d only felt it honorable to oblige.

Buddy shook his head and took another half-hearted sip of his tomato juice. “Fuckin’ hell. I can’t even find a girl who’ll date me, and here you are dressed up like a goddamn supermodel because that’s how your girlfriend likes her guys.”

“Plenty of girls date you,” I pointed out. “They just won’t go out with you more than once.”

“And why is that, oh, font of knowledge?” He asked me sarcastically. “Since you seem to understand girls so well?”

“One.” I ticked a finger. “You’re a pompous asshole. A rich pompous asshole, but still. Two, you’re good at pick-ups but terrible at keeping the charm on past that. Three, you’re not as good-looking as you think you are.”

“Hey now—”

“Four,” I continued, cutting him off. “You only go for supermodels and rich girls, neither of whom have any reason to put up with your shit.”

“I mean—”

“And lastly,” I said, ticking off my thumb, “you don’t know when to take ‘no’ for an answer, so you push until any goodwill you might have had is burnt up because you wouldn’t stop getting handsy.”

Buddy sighed. “So, basically, I’m undatable.”

“No. You’re just a dickhead, and need to learn to treat folks better,” I said a bit more softly, then patted his back a bit in commiseration. “Not that I think this deal’s gonna help any.”

“What was I supposed to fuckin’ do?”

“I dunno, maybe not promise your folks you’d be engaged by the end of the year?!”

“And give up my trust fund? Are you crazy?!”

The look in Buddy’s eyes told me he truly thought I was. Then again, the idea of having to work for anything had always given Buddy indigestion.

I shrugged my shoulders. “Hey, you’re the one who came over here to talk about it, it’s not like I made you leave your apartment with a hangover, drive to our place, and drink tomato juice.”

“But you are making me drink the tomato juice,” he argued, taking another sip, this time with less objections.

“Nonsense. I just told you that you could either drink it or leave. Not the same thing at all.”

“Whatever,” Buddy said, sounding defeated. “It is helping though, thanks.”

“See? Listen to Momma Reese, I know what’s good for you.”

“Don’t push it,” he said but smiled – just a little – around another sip of the tomato juice. “But really, what’s up with the getup? Not that you don’t look good.”

I shrugged. “Lily wanted to take me to a lesbian club for New Year’s, ‘cause a lot of her friends were gonna be there. I argued I wouldn’t fit in, so.” I waved down at my outfit. “She liked it. They liked it. Was a lot of fun.”

“Your girlfriend’s a dyke, you know that, right?”

I glared at him but didn’t correct him, only because she used the same word for herself. “Who’s more manly, the guy who can’t keep a straight girlfriend, or the guy who can keep a lesbian one?”

“Got me there,” Buddy admitted with a sigh, then growled as he slammed our rickety card table with a fist. “But… shit. Whaddamigonnado?”

“Weeelll….” I thought. “You’ve got a year, right? And you just need to be engaged by New Year’s, not any particular amount of time ‘til then, right?”

“Two weeks,” he said, grimacing.

“Two weeks before?”

He nodded.

His parents are smarter than I thought. “Okay. Well, still plenty of time to work on your charm, figure out how to keep a girlfriend, and maybe find The One.”

“You really think I can do it?”

“Not a chance,” I admitted bluntly, enjoying watching him squirm a bit. “And we both know your parents are big enough assholes to hold you to it, too. But ya gotta try, right?”

He nodded silently, then gave me a weird look.

“What?”

“Listen, just… on the off chance I can’t.”

“No.”

“It’d only have to be for—”

“NO.”

“Twenty grand.”

“We’ll talk about it in November,” I said quickly, before I could change my mind. “Until then, I’ll do everything I can to help you do better with the ladies.”

“Thanks,” he said, downing the last of his tomato juice and giving me a relieved grin.

-----

He did not, in fact, do better with the ladies.

By the time November rolled around I was already resigned to holding up my end of our little deal, if he was to his. As proof, he’d shown me his savings account balance, so with Lily’s help I’d began preparations.

I’d expected her to object, but instead….

My phone ding-ed at me as I sat perched on the stool, and when I looked at it I couldn’t help but smile.

“Hey babe,” the text read, “at the club with the girls. Showed them pics of your dress and they wanna see you all decked out. Selfies?”

“K,” I texted back, then held the phone out and took a couple of pouty pictures of myself, sending them her way.

Almost immediately five more dings came from my phone -- one from her, and four more from some of her friends, all of them full of hearts and smileys and, in one girl’s case, an eggplant emoji.

Another ding, this time with more text. “Sad your not here, but make that money and see you tomorrow. Hugs.”

I sent “Hugs!” back, then checked the time on my phone. Only a little annoyed, I used the speed dial to call Buddy.

“Yeah,” he said brusquely, answering on the third ring.

“Hey, where are you, it’s nine thirty and I thought we had to be there by ten?”

“Around ten,” he said back, sounding annoyed. “And I’m on my way.”

I’d figured that much from the sound of traffic coming over the speaker, but didn’t say it.

“You wearin’ the tits?”

I frowned at that. “Of course I am. You paid for ‘em, I’m wearin’ ‘em. And the dress,” I added, a little annoyed myself.

“Good. I’ve always wanted a big tiddy goth girlfriend, and that’ll be enough of a nightmare for my folks that when we break up they’ll be praising me for it.”

“If you think so,” I said back, not so sure. “Just make sure my twenty grand is in my account before—”

“Yeah, yeah. I’ll transfer it first thing next year.”

I rolled my eyes. “Very funny.”

“Be there in ten.”

“A’ight. See you then.”

“Yep.”

*CLICK*

I picked up my glass of wine and took another sip. If Buddy said ten, it’d be twenty, guaranteed.

“Big tiddy goth girlfriend,” I said aloud to myself, and rolled my eyes again. “I shoulda never agreed to this outfit,” I added, picking at the black velvety material and stretching it just a bit, then letting it go so it popped my thigh.

Usually when I’d dress up with Lily we’d go for more of a natural look, with only a bit of padding on my hips and some cheap foam forms to fill out my chest, but Buddy had insisted that wasn’t good enough for him. I’d thought the E-cup forms were excessive, but it was the smallest size I’d been able to talk him into, and he’d only agreed then when I pointed out that I couldn’t wear a dress that showed any cleavage even at that size, since the edge of the forms – and the weight – would be too much.

That was a bit of a lie, and Lily had loved how naturally we’d been able to blend the forms into my own skin... but he didn’t need to know that.

The dress, combined with a bit of padding in my ass and hips, went a long way to giving a Certain Vibe to my look. Lily had tried to help me class the whole thing up a bit with some nice jewelry and a makeup job that was on the goth side but not too over the top, but it was still Buddy’s choice of dress, and… well, he’d made up for the “no cleavage” mandate by having as little material below the waist as possible.

I wondered for just a moment how worried I should be that one of my best friends had wanted me to meet his parents wearing a dress that was barely long enough to hide the tag on my panties… but hey, it was his money to spend and lose.

And I did look hot as hell.

As if knowing I needed confirmation, Jacob looked over at me from where he was playing Xbox on the couch and gave me a goofy thumbs-up and a wolf whistle.

Yes. Yes I did.

-----

Twenty-two minutes later Buddy pulled up and honked.

He rolled down his window as I walked toward his car, and whistled at me. “Hey babe, lookin’ for a good time tonight?”

“Shut the fuck up,” I told him, pulling the coat I’d borrowed from one of Lily’s friends tighter around me as I circled the car and popped the door. “I’ve been waiting outside for you for almost ten minutes, and been propositioned three times.”

“I’m glad you held out for me,” he said, taking off before I even had my belt on.

“You’re paying better.”

“Touche’.”

I reached over and turned the heat in the car up a few notches, getting a glare from Buddy over it, but I didn’t care – he wasn’t the one wearing the dress and hose.

“So, last check on the plan,” I said, rubbing my hands together in the warmth from one of the vents. “We go, we schmooze for a couple of hours, we get drunk enough we can kiss each other, then we fight and you bring me home.”

“Pretty much, yeah,” Buddy agreed, reaching over and squeezing one of my too-exposed thighs. “Though it’s kinda a waste you got a dick. Watchin’ you walk around the car was a treat.”

I removed his hand from my thigh and shot him a look. “Hey. Watch it.”

“What?” He said, leering at me. “It’s all part of the deal, isn’t it?”

I shook my head. “Y’know, if you didn’t treat girls like this you mighta had an actual date for tonight, instead of having to pay me to do it.”

Buddy laughed at that, and not in a kind way. “Hey, not my fault bitches act all hot ‘til I put ‘em on the spot, is it?”

I looked away, trying to hide my feelings of disgust. I was absolutely sure that I knew a few ladies who could change his mind on that real quick.

“So what kind of party is this anyway?” I asked after I’d had a few moments to calm back down.

Buddy snorted. “Just one of my folks’ stuck-up bullshit things. I only go every year ‘cause I have to, but here’s hoping that changes after tonight.”

“Your folks probably aren’t gonna like your ‘engagement’ going just long enough to win y’all’s deal.”

“Eh, they’re business-people. They’ll respect it. Oh, speaking of respect.” Buddy pulled a small velvet box out of his jacket and tossed it to me. “You said a size seven, right?”

“Yeah,” I agreed, catching the box and opening it. “Ooooh.”

“Nice, right?”

“Very,” I agreed, taking out the ring and sliding it on. Rose gold, with a single flawless ruby in it, the ring sparkled prettily on my hand.

Buddy nodded. “Just be sure to give it back to me after the fight so I can return it. Unless you wanna knock four K off your price?”

“No way.”

Buddy smirked, then reached over and squeezed my thigh again. “Then again, I might be willing to let you keep it if—”

I removed his hand again, less gently this time, and jacked the heat up a bit more in the car. “Jeezus fuck, Bud! No!”

He rolled his eyes. “Come on, dressed like that, don’t tell me you don’t dream of sucking—”

*SMACK*

I grabbed the dash as we swerved, the breaks squealing, but Buddy got the car back under control with no issues, and only a smattering of honking horns.

“The fuck!”

I pulled the ring off and dropped it in the cup holder of the car. “Fuck this. Pull over and let me out.”

“Oh, come on, Reese, you’re not—”

“Now, Buddy!”

Buddy shook his head. “We’re in the middle of the fuckin’ highway! Just… listen.”

“I knew this was a bad idea,” I said back, pulling my phone out of my purse. “This isn’t worth twenty grand, and—”

“Hey, I’m—”

“—should call the fucking police about—”

“HEY!”

“What?!”

Buddy sighed, and actually looked contrite for once. “Thirty grand.”

Pause.

I looked down at my phone, and the half-finished text on it.

-----

“Mom, Dad? I’d like you to meet my fiancee, Reese Carlton.”

“Pleased to meet you, Mr. and Mrs. Langdon,” I said, giving them a small curtsey while I kept my left hand – and the ring – conspicuously laying on top of my breasts.

“A pleasure,” Mrs. Langdon said, reaching out for a gentle handshake, that I happily returned. She was a tall and somewhat severe looking woman, but she had Buddy’s green eyes and nose.

“The same,” said her husband, a more solidly built man who was like a salt-and-pepper version of Buddy himself, but with blue eyes. He took my hand as well, but held it just a little too long. “Reese, huh? Like the candy?”

“Like the actress,” I countered, glancing sideways for his wife, but she had seemingly already turned away to talk to someone else.

“Equally delightful,” he said, not even trying to hide the lust in his eyes as he looked down at my chest, then further down at the too-short hem of my dress.

Like father, like son.

“So,” Mrs. Langdon said, turning her attention back to me. “You and our Buddy are engaged?”

“Yes,” I agreed. “A month now.” I flashed the ring again, and my best smile.

“I must admit I was a bit surprised when he told us,” her husband said, taking a glass of wine off a passing tray. “We’ve heard him talk about his… friend Reese before, but we always assumed you were a man.”

I grinned at that. “I can’t imagine what would give you that impression.”

“Neither can I,” he agreed, once again giving me a leering once-over. “Nor can I imagine what kept you two apart for so long.”

“My girlfriend,” I said, causing both Buddy and his father to hiccough in the middle of their drinks.

“Girl? Haha! That’s my boy!” Mr. Langdon said, reaching over and clapping Buddy on the shoulder even as Mrs. Langdon’s expression become just a little more disapproving.

“Oh, so you’re… bi… whatsit?” She asked me with false brightness.

“Not really, but how could I say no when Buddy asked me?” I said, with my own false brightness, being sure to bounce my tits just a bit more than necessary at the same time. Not that I was going to tell them what he asked me.

“I… see.”

It was a few more minutes of awkward conversation before we managed to extract ourselves from his parents, moving to cousins, then business partners, then uncles and aunts, before finally making our way to the small dance floor at almost a quarter past eleven.

“Jeezus,” I muttered, pulling Buddy close – and ignoring a particular protruding annoyance when I did so – so that we could talk more privately.

“You’re doing great,” he assured me, sneaking a covert squeeze of my ass while he thought I couldn’t retaliate, and barely groaning when I nailed his toes with one of my heels. “They buy it.”

“I think they’da bought it if you’d brought in a hooker,” I said, looking around at the other women at the party. I’d thought when Buddy had shown me the dress he wanted me to wear I’d be the sluttiest look at the deal, but it seemed like a lot of the fifty-something businessmen had payed for their dates for the night too… probably with more fringe benefits than I was giving Buddy added to the cost.

“So you’re saying I’m overpaying you?”

“I’m not a hooker.”

“Not yet.”

This time I stomped a little harder, and had to hold him up when he almost collapsed on the floor.

“Should I lead?”

“Motherfucker.”

“Not with the way she was looking at me.”

He chuckled at that. “Yeah, well.”

“Your dad, on the other hand.”

“I told you the tits weren’t too big.”

I sighed at that, and covertly checked the little feminine watch I was wearing. “We gonna dance for the next half an hour, or go get more drinks?”

“Drinks.”

“Thank God.”

We ended our dance, and I did my best to give Buddy the most lovey-dovey look I could as I nailed his pinky toe one more time with my heel, getting an equally loving grimace of pain in return.

The wine was decent, but not great. I’d expected better of such a fancy to-do, but we were over two hours in to the party, so I imagined they weren’t running the top shelf drinks at this point. I sipped on my glass while Buddy downed two of his own, then went for a third, all the while continuing to drag me from group to group, sneaking gropes in whenever he thought he could get away with it.

There was a projector set up on one wall, and on it we could see the live feed of the ball in Times Square. As the midnight hour approached, Buddy not-so-subtly began to guide us back over to nearer his parents.

The countdown began, and we embraced each other once more.

“You ready for this?” I asked him through a false smile that made my dimples hurt.

“Abso-fuckin’-lutely.”

“My money?”

“On its way.”

The ball dropped, the room cheered, and I wrapped my arms around Buddy’s neck as the lights in the room went crazy. He grinned smarmily as he pulled me close and kissed me deeply, pushing for tongue and only yelping a little when I nipped the tip of it with my teeth.

“Happy new year!” Called the room, with several people watching us was we pulled back and smiled at one another.

I felt my phone vibrate in my clutch, and made a girly ‘excuse me’ gesture before pulling it out and checking it.

It was a message from my bank: “Transfer Complete.”

I closed my eyes for a moment and took a deep breath.

He doesn’t need to know how much you’re going to enjoy this, I reminded myself, working to keep the smile off my face as I put my phone away, took a step back….

And decked the shit-eating grin right off Buddy’s face.

-----

“You sure you’re sober enough to—”

“Yeah. Jeezus fuck, that hurt,” Buddy grumbled, only a little muffled by his swollen jaw. The butterfly bandages held the gash on his cheek closed, and I doubted it would even need stitches. I’d cleaned most of the blood off the ring, but I was sure the jeweler would have Questions when Buddy returned it. “Did you have to hit me so hard? I was expecting a slap or something but—”

“Hey, I’m not the slapping kinda girl. If you’re gonna hit someone, hit ‘em,” I said back, grinning as I waved to the parking attendant on our way out. “You wanted it to be realistic.”

“Yeah, but the screaming—”

“You are a cheating bastard, and you know it.”

“And the kicking—”

“I didn’t want to risk another punch with my nails, and you were on the floor.”

“The crying?”

“You saying you didn’t deserve it?” I gave Buddy a long look. He started to say something, but instead just rubbed his jaw and glared at me. “Thought so.”

“You really are a fuckin’ bitch, you know that?”

“Yeah, well.” I shrugged. “Club’s on Baker and Tenth. The Pink Kitten.”

“Cute,” he said, typing the name into his GPS. “Think I can—”

“No way in hell.”

“Fuck.”

“Go home and take care of that cut,” I told him. “And think about the stuff I yelled at you, too. I was serious about most of it.”

“Most of it?”

I gave him another long look.

“Yeah, yeah, alright. Whatever. Shit, that hurt.”

I laughed. “Yeah, but your mom looked awful pleased when I threw the ring at you, didn’t she?”

“Did she? I was too busy looking for my tooth to notice,” he said, though he was finally grinning a bit. “You know, we can still—”

“Buddy?”

“Yeah?”

“You finish that sentence, and you won’t finish this drive.”

“...Fair enough.”

We completed the rest of the ride to the club in mostly-companionable silence, save for the occasional groan of pain from Buddy when we would hit a pothole or dead policeman.

I climbed out of the car in the sexiest way I could, then leaned back in the door before closing it. “Hey, Bud.”

“Hmm?”

“Text me in the morning to let me know if it worked.”

Buddy nodded. “Will do, Reese. Will do. And, hey.”

“Yeah?”

“Happy new year.”

“You too.”

I closed the door and watched Buddy drive away.

“Hey Cindi,” I said to the bouncer as I walked up to the doors.

“Hey yerself, girl,” she said, checking me out only a little less hungrily than Buddy’s father had. “Late to the party, aren’t ya?”

“Had to work late.” I grinned and gave her a Franklin. “Get yer girl somethin’ nice, on me.”

Cindi whistled. “Will do. Lily’s at your usual table with the girls.”

“Thanks!”

The club was loud, but not too loud. At almost 1 in the morning things were starting to wind down, even for a New Year’s celebration, and it wasn’t hard to pick my way through the thoroughly sloshed crowd to our normal table in the back corner, away from the stage.

Lily almost launched herself out of her seat when she spotted me. “Reese! You made it!” She said, leaping up to wrap her arms around my neck and hang on. Not that I was spectacularly tall, even in my heels, but at five nothing I still towered over her. “How’d it go.”

“Oh, about as well as you’d expect,” I said, wrapping my hands around her waist and holding on. I gave her a quick kiss, then another, welcoming her tongue rather than snapping at it like I had Buddy’s.

After a few long moments she pulled back, still grinning. “You punch him like you said you were going to?”

“Yep.”

“And did he?”

“Nope.”

She grinned even more. “So that means—”

“Yep,” I agreed, lowering her to the ground. “You win.” I pulled the wad of bills out of my purse and handed it to her.

“Hehe! Toldja he wouldn’t hit a girl.”

“Yeah, well.” I shrugged, then looked over her shoulder. “Hey ladies, how’s it been?”

“Great!”

“Wunnerful!”

“I wassaboudda make my move!”

Everyone laughed at that: Gretchen had been threatening to steal Lily from me for months, but had yet to succeed.

I slid into the end of the booth, and Lily climbed into my lap, once again wrapping her arms around me.

“So, what’s this Buddy like?” Ellie, a tall red-headed friend of ours, asked from the other side of the table.

I laughed. “Arrogant. Misogynist. Rich. Handsome. You know the type,” I said, pulling a picture of him up on my phone with his cut cheek and swollen jaw.

I passed the picture to her, and she nodded. “About your height, ain’t he?”

“Yeah.”

“About… one seventy?”

“One sixty-eight,” I agreed. “Last I heard.”

She nodded again. “Nice legs?”

“Just what are you thinking, Ellie?” I asked, absolutely aware of what she was thinking.

“Nothin’!” She assured me, smirking. “Just that you wouldn’t be friends with him if you didn’t think he was redeemable, right?”

“Maybe.”

“So, the asshole rich boys usually make the best foot stools,” she said.

I shook my head. “I don’t know if he’s into that, hon.”

“Worth a shot, ain’t it?” She asked, winking. “Can I at least have his number?”

I thought about how Buddy had wanted into the club. Well, if Ellie has her way with him, he might just get his wish. “Sure.”

I cuddled with Lily as Ellie took Buddy’s number off my phone and texted him.

“So, any new year resolutions?” She asked me, nuzzling my ear.

“I think I’m gonna swear off guys, be a lesbian.” That got a round of laughs and cheers from the table at large.

“Mmmm,” Lily said, licking my ear lobe. “Me too.”

--END--

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NOTES:

Alright, so I managed to finish an entry for the contest! Yaaaay!

It's a little bit different from my typical kinda story, but I had the idea and wanted to run with it. If you wanna read a New Year's story that's a little more typically "me," then my FIRST idea will be going up on the Patreon as a short multi-part series called "False Start," starting sometime in the next few days :)

All comments and kudos appreciated, and I hope people liked the read!

Melanie E.

A Life Like That

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World

TG Elements: 

  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
A Life Like That
By Melanie E.

A short story I'd cooked up as a bonus piece for my next published book. Unfortunately it doesn't fit the theme of the book itself -- "Enamored," coming to a Smashwords near you in a few days! -- but I still wanted to share it, so here it is!

-==-

Ellen looked at the cover of the magazine and sighed.

She had already read it four times before, and it was looking like she would be reading it again. The office had other magazines, sure, but nothing less than two years old, and most of the other choices were the kind of periodicals you find on your grandmother’s coffee table, full of pictures of country houses that cost more than the GDP of a small country to buy and twice as much to make so photogenic.

Not that the magazine in her hands was any more realistic, she admitted to herself, staring at the happy couple on the cover with their perfect teeth and the waves lapping on some beach with an unpronounceable name behind them.

Ellen had learned years before that there were two kinds of people in the world: those who found love, and those who never did. As much as she didn’t want to admit it, she had come to the conclusion that she was one of the latter.

Her issues started with her appearance. While she knew she wasn’t ugly, per se, there were times when she wished she were. Instead, she knew that she was simply ‘blah,’ her features falling somewhere short of attractive but not so much as to be distinguishing. Her nose was slightly beaky, her lips a bit too full on the bottom and too thin on top, and the milky brown of her eyes a bit too dulled by the drudgery of living paycheck to paycheck to be anything else. At twenty-nine she could already see the crow’s feet starting at their corners, warning of the same early aging she had seen on her mother’s face, one of many features she felt both blessed and cursed to have inherited from her.

She had been lucky to get her mother’s small frame and general features rather than her father’s bulk and height. It had made transition that much easier than it might otherwise have been, and meant that, as plain as she was, at least she knew that she passed.

But she would never look like one of them, those perfect people on the cover of the tabloids.

With a huff of frustration she dropped the magazine back in the rack and took her seat to wait her appointment sans reading materials.

What would it be like to have a life like that? To have more money than you could ever spend, the health to do any fantastical thing that came to your mind, and the lack of responsibility to go along with it? A humorless laugh escaped her, unbidden. After all, she would settle for enough money to be able to replace the heater core in her car. As for the health, she was lucky in that she was, at least, healthy enough to work, though how long until that would break her down, like it had her parents, her aunts and uncles, and everyone else she knew, she dared not ponder.

She didn’t even want to start on the responsibilities part of the whole fiasco.

“Ellen Reyes?”

Ellen sighed and put all her frustrations aside as she wound her way back through the familiar paths of the doctor’s office.

Her weight was down, that was good. Her blood pressure was a bit high, as per usual. Not so good. Height? Yep. A five minute chat with her doctor and she was on her way for her blood work and hormone booster shot, same as normal.

Then she stepped back out into the lobby.

He was gorgeous. Six foot three, at least, and built like an athlete. Chiseled chin with just the right amount of stubble, and he was speaking to the lady at the desk with a voice like black velvet covered in chocolate. Ellen felt her stomach tighten as her eyes traced him from foot to the top of his head, over his expensive slacks and silk button-down shirt.

He was one of the ones who had everything. One of the beautiful people. What was he doing at a gender clinic of all places?

Ellen’s thoughts were interrupted by a tug at her elbow.

“Hmm?”

“Miss Elen Reyes?”

“Yeah, that’s me.”

“Could you wait out here for a moment? There’s an issue with your billing we need to talk about before you leave.”

“Ugh. Yeah, fine.”

Disgusted at yet another reminder of her have-not status Ellen took a seat, casting her gaze back toward the magazine on the rack with its beautiful cover people, only to be distracted again by the just as beautiful man from before sitting down next to her.

“Hi,” he said, in that voice that caused something inside her to twist and melt.

“Umm, hi,” she said back, giving him her best smile.

“Are you a patient here?” He asked her next, the smile on his gorgeous face slipping a bit with nervousness.

“Yeah,” Ellen admitted, blushing. “I started three years ago.”

“Wow,” he said, looking her up and down not unlike how she had looked at him earlier.

“What?” She asked, a little annoyed.

“Oh, sorry,” he said, abashed. “I was just thinking I wish I were as lucky as you.”

Ellen almost asked what he meant when it struck her like a ton of bricks.

“Gaby Stephens?” The nurse called, and the gorgeous man sitting next to Ellen stood up and gave her one last sad but still beautiful smile before walking through the same doors she had not half an hour earlier.

Ellen looked at the door, then back at the gorgeous figures on the cover of the magazine and, for the first time ever, imagined herself in the role of the man instead of the woman.

She shivered.

Maybe she wasn’t so jealous of a life like that after all.

- end -

Hope y'all liked it! Be sure to let me know in the comments if ya did.

A Pirate Out Of Water

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Contests: 

  • 2013-10 October 2013 Costumes Contest

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

Other Keywords: 

  • Henry Harrelson's Custom Fit Boots

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  • Posted by author(s)

Henry Harrelson's Custom Fit Boots: A Pirate Out Of Water

By Melanie E.

Nick's Halloween plans are taking shape, but everything goes out of control thanks to a spectacular pair of boots...

-==-

It was painful, far more than it should have been, but I finally convinced myself to go through with it. My face flush and my hands shaking, I grabbed the package off the rack of costumes and walked up to the counter, waiting in line nervously until it was my turn to check out.

The cashier didn't blink an eye as she rung me up and took my money, and like a shot I was out of the store, down the street, across the road, and in my house, slamming the door behind me before collapsing on the floor, breathing heavily after my ordeal.

I did it. I managed it! It's done!

I looked down at the bag in my hands, and carefully opened it to gaze at the contents within. An eyepatch, a tricorn hat, and a plastic sabre —with sheath and belt — stared back at me. With relief I picked myself up off the floor and made my way on unsteady legs for my room, proud of myself for fighting my urges and making it out of the store with what I had, and not some piece of lace or other.

My mind started to wander to all the possibilities I was missing out on, but I shook my head to remove the thoughts. No! I was a boy, and... well, I can't very well say boys don't wear those things. This was for Halloween, after all, and many of them WOULD.

But I couldn't. I shouldn't. I wouldn't. Because one of two things would happen.
A: I would pass, as I was sure I could. There would be an uproar, and I would be called a fag, and a fairy, and tons of other things before running home in tears. I had avoided that since middle school, and I certainly didn't want to do it again now.

Or, B: I wouldn't, and everybody would laugh at how I would look, thinking they were laughing WITH me, and I would try my hardest to keep a happy face on, while inside I would be torn apart.

Neither one was a good outcome. And thus, here I was, not clutching the fairy costume, or sexy nurse costume, or any of the others I had so desperately felt an almost primal need to grab, but instead a mid-priced Pirate set that I was sure I could build a costume around that would make it clear to everyone I was a boy, and guarantee that the girl inside was smothered for the night.

For Halloween, they would see Nick as they saw him every day; playing the part to make it through. I wouldn't be hiding behind my Goth facade as much, but the boy facade would be in place just as clearly, and that was all I needed.

With my new treasures — or “booty” I guess, I thought with a grin — laid out on my bed in their approximate locations for the final look, I began digging through what I had to find pieces that would work to complete the look.

Tight black pants? Check on those. The same with the eyeliner and even some black eye shadow to deepen my sockets. Being a Goth had its advantages for a costume like this, above and beyond the normal advantages of just letting me at least pretend in my head I was a girl getting ready for school each day. I already had an idea for my hair, too, and with a quick call another goth, Tamara, agreed to do all the little braids for me the next afternoon. She was ecstatic at the chance to play with my two feet of jet-black hair at last, even if it was just to prepare me for a halloween costume.

That left just two pieces; a top — SHIRT, I mentally chided myself — and boots. The shirt was simple enough as well, since my dad had plenty of white dress shirts, and our size difference meant a quick swipe and “thanks” later I had a to–shirt that could easily be twisted into a rough pirate's appearance. Maybe a cravat? NO LACE, I chided myself. Not even like that. Fighting the depression that was trying to consume me at even thinking about lace... well, anything, I instead turned to my collection of boots.

I had plenty. Work boots, combat boots, the typical chain and buckle-covered goth boots that went up past my calves, a pair of Converse that went almost as high...

But they were all black. Everything I owned was black, pretty much, so that wasn't surprising, but I didn't want black boots for the costume. I knew I should have settled for something I had, it would be easier, it would make sense... but I couldn't. I needed boots for the costume. I needed the right boots for the costume.

For the second time that evening I found myself outside. I knew what my parents would say if they knew I was going out again.

“You're sixteen years old, you shouldn't be going out without telling us where.”

“You need to be careful, son. You don't know what people out there will do to... people like you.”

“Isn't it a bit late to go shopping?”

But I HAD to have boots. Tonight. No waiting. And, if I hurried, I should just make it in time to look around before all the shops closed...

That was when I saw it.

Henry Harrelson's Custom Fit Boots was a fixture in our small town, and I'd heard all the adults around raving about it since I was little. Supposedly the guy who owned the place made the best boots ever, but his personality was quirky at best. Still, most people said that dealing with his idiosyncrasies was a small price to pay for the fit and quality, and as weird as he was he was always really nice.

And he just happened to be advertising boots for Halloween costumes.

I shouldn't. I REALLY shouldn't. They'll be expensive. It's just a costume...

I went in.

The old brass bell 'ding'ed as I swung the door open and walked into the shoe store, only to stop in my tracks when I saw all the goods around me.

The store was a bit run-down, with the tiles on the floor scuffed, even cracked in places, and a clear odor of wood and leather polish hanging about the place. But the boots. Oh, the boots.

They were beautiful, every single one of them. Cowboy boots, work boots, ankle boots, leather, cotton, canvas, nylon, high-heeled, flat... everything you could imagine was there!

Except the boots I needed, I thought to myself as I fought the urge to start walking around and just touching them.

I had just turned around and was about to open the door again and leave when I heard a quiet cough behind me and turned around.

“Can I help you, dear?” Asked the old man standing behind the counter, his spectacles sitting low on his nose as he smiled at me over them, dusting his hands on a white apron tied around his waist.

Dear?

“Umm, I don't think so. I don't see what I'm looking for, but thanks.”

“You don't?” He asked in surprise, looking around the store himself with a critical eye. “I could have sworn... why, you're certainly right! One moment,” he said, scurrying off through a door behind the counter and leaving me standing there, bewildered, as I heard boxes shifting and a few half-hearted grunts from the back room. “Ah, here they are!”

“They are?” I asked, more intrigued than I really wanted to be.

“Ah, yes!” He crowed as he walked out of the room with a long, flat box in his hands, smiling broadly. “I must have forgotten to put them out with the rest. Here,” he said, lifting the lid with flourish.

I gasped as looked at the boots within.

They were perfect. More than perfect, they were me! Soft leather in a rich, chocolate brown, knee-high with a turned-down top and a series of brass buckles going down the front. A small heel helped to elevate them just a touch, giving them an elegant but still functional look that I couldn't help but adore.

They weren't just the boots for my pirate costume. These were boots I could see wearing with everything. Jeans, a kicky skirt or dress...

With a sigh and what I'm sure was a sorrowful look in my eyes, I lifted the lid and closed the box. “No, I don't think these are them,” I said, downcast. “These are too... too feminine.”

“For a pirate costume? Not at all! They'll look ado-- splendid, I assure you. And I promise, if anybody makes fun of you or thinks less of you because of them, well, I'll make you a deal.”

I thought about it. “What kind of deal?” I asked, unable to stop myself. I couldn't keep from staring at the box, longing to pull the boots out and try them on...

The old man gave me another pleased grin. “Take the boots home. No charge.”

“WHAT!?”

“Now now, just hear me out,” he said, with a calming gesture. “When you get ready tomorrow, put them on, but not until then. Decide whether you want to wear them. If you don't wear them, or anybody gives you problems over them, you can bring them back to me on Saturday at no cost to you. If things go well, though, you have to keep them, and you can come in on Saturday to pay for them.”

“H-how much?” I asked, hoping the price would be high enough to stop me even thinking about taking him up on his deal.

“Thirty dollars.”

“You've gotta be kidding me, these are...” They were at least one hundred dollar boots, I knew from experience shopping for the ones I had, probably much more given their quality. No way was he serious.

“I couldn't bear to charge you more. You're just buying them for Halloween, right?” He asked with a twinkle in his eye.

“Yeah...”

Before I knew it the box was in my arms and I was outside the store.

“Enjoy your party Nicky, and don't worry too much, I trust you with the boots.”

I gave him a small wave as he turned off the lights and locked the door, and I started my walk home.

Wait. Nicky?

-==-

The next day at school was agony as I spent the day doing my usual act of playing up the Goth stereotype but still trying to pay attention to my teachers. Not that they were trying to get anything done, since they all knew that the only thing any of us students were worried about was costumes and parties, but it was the principle of the thing.

Tamara stopped me on my way out of the school, though, and took my arm as we started the walk back to my place.

“I'm coming home with you, so we can get right to work on your hair. It's the only way we'll get it done in time to make it to any of the parties tonight.”

“Okay,” I said, looking down at our entwined arms confused.

When she saw my look she gave me a small smile. “I'm sorry, it just seemed... right. And I'm SO glad I finally get to mess with your hair!” She gave my arm a squeeze and bumped shoulders with me, and I couldn't help but smile myself.

Tamara was more of the bubblegum goth type, all hot topic and bright colors balancing out the black, as opposed to my more classic style, and her bouncing, curly blonde locks proved it. Still, she HAD been trying to get me to let her do something for a while, and it WAS Halloween...

She was right, of course, and it took her nearly three hours to do all the little braids I'd asked her for, talking all the while. At first I tried to maintain my aloof Goth attitude, but it was so fun, and such a change from what I usually put up with, it wasn't long before I was chatting right back, even laughing as we talked.

“And then Aaron told her... oh! We're done!” She said at last, standing up from where she had been sitting on the couch with me in the floor before her and clapping her hands excitedly. “Oh, god, Nicky, it's awesome!”

Nicky? I didn't let myself dwell on it as I stood up and headed for the hallway mirror, too excited to see what things looked like.

She was right! It was perfect! Tons and tons of little braids fell down around me, and with a smile growing on my face I found myself rearranging them in different ways, seeing how the changes affected my looks. Was it masculine enough though? I wasn't sure, there was something there that was nagging at me...

Tamara came up behind me and smiled too, putting a hand on my shoulder and squeezing gently. “You look great! Everyone's going to love it.”

I hope so, I thought to myself as I looked into her eyes and grinned.

“Now, put on the rest of the costume so I can see it!” She said, clapping her hands again and shooing me off to my room with a giggle.

“What about yours?”

“It's in my bag, I'll change while you are! Now scoot!”

I stuck my tongue out at her, but did as I'd been told.

Changing was a quick affair, with the clothes being not all that different than my usual except for the blo-- SHIRT, and the eye patch. I had paid enough for the costume pieces that they were better than the normal elastic band and cheap plastic variety, so that helped.

Shirt kind of billowy and loose, with the sleeves doing the same thing? Check, and a black tank underneath so I could leave it unbuttoned a little low. Tight black pants for that all-important Pirate vibe? Check. Eye liner and eye shadow to give me a deep-set look? Check. Some gold earrings and the eye patch and I had the face somewhat finished. Maybe some black lipstick too? I decided it couldn't hurt, and quickly added it.

The eye patch was far from comfortable, though. It wasn't one of those cheap ones that just has an elastic band. Instead, this one had a ribbon with an adjustable buckle at the back. It was also throwing off my depth perception, so I decided to loosen it up and push it up on my forehead until I needed it.

The entire time I was getting ready, though, my eyes kept going back to the box sitting at the end of my bed, holding the much dreaded and desired boots. It took all my willpower to not put them on right then. Instead, I wrapped the faux-silk belt around my waist and hung the sabre on it, then grabbed the box plus my next best boots for the costume and took them into the living room, where Tamara was already sitting, rocking the Sexy Witch look.

“Oh, wow, Nicky, that's great!” She said, standing when I walked in. “I'm not so sure about the boots, though.” She gave the black boots in my hand a small grimace.

“I've got some others, but I'm not sure about them...” I trailed off as I set the black boots to the side and laid the box on the table, opening it more reverentially than I had intended to.

“Holy mother of... put them on,” Tamara said, not waiting for an answer as she pulled one of the boots out and grabbed my shoulder, spinning me into a chair faster than I could protest.

“Here,” she said, handing me the boot before turning to the other one and examining it with a critical eye.

With a gulp I lowered the boot, set my foot into it, and began to pull it on.

I felt a tingle across my entire body as the boot slid up and enveloped my foot, seeming to conform to every curve and turn in both my foot and lower leg as it rose up. The buckles went together easily, but still tight enough to give the boots a good fit over my pants. Without looking up I reached out for the second one, and Tamara handed it to me without a word.

It felt almost as good going on as the first one had.

Then I stood.

Tamara gasped. “My god, those boots are so great! They make the costume so much... more! You're going to drive them crazy!”

I pulled my eyes away from the fantastic — and perfect — boots to give her a confused look. “Who?”

She just shook her head, giving me a crazy grin. “You don't know? Nicky, you're... come on!”

“Where?” I asked, but it was too late, and we were already on our way out the door, with me never getting a chance to see the final look.

-==-

“Hey Nicky!”

“Nice costume, Nicky!”

“Good to see you coming out of your shell girl!”

I cringed, keeping a tight grasp on Tamara's arm as we made our rounds through the house on our way to the kitchen where all the drinks were being kept. The party was well under way by the time we'd arrived, but even that wasn't enough to distract the party-goers from our arrival.

“Great boots, Nicky!”

I tried to smile, but judging by my complimenter's expression I'd guess it came out more as a grimace.

“Hey, ease up on the arm a bit, or they'll think we're here as a couple!”

I tried to relax, only to tighten up again when one of the basketball players — dressed as a professional basketball player, not surprisingly — gave me a once over and a thumbs up, a cheesy grin on his face.

“Tamara...”

“What... are you okay, Nicky? Come here.” She changed our direction and quickly pulled us into a room off to the side, that turned out to be a utility room. She shut the door before turning to me and giving me a hug.

I hadn't known I needed a hug, but it helped.

“What's wrong?”

I laughed. “What's wrong? What's WRONG? WHAT'S...” She waved her hands in the universal gesture to quiet down, so I did my best. “What's wrong? Tamara, they all think I'm a girl!”

She gave me a 'well, duh,' type of look. “What did you expect would happen if you dressed up as a female pirate?”

“Wha? I'm a GUY pirate!”

She actually laughed at me! At least, until she saw the hurt in my eyes, then she came in for another hug.

“Oh, sweetie, I'm so sorry! I thought... you didn't even realize, did you?”

“I, I...” I sniffled, trying to fight back the tears. “I was trying to be a boy. Why do I keep screwing it up?” The tears came whether I wanted them or not. “I just, I can't, I was trying so hard, and I still can't do it!”

“Can't do what?” She asked, keeping one arm around me as she reached into her purse and pulled out some kleenex. “It's okay, you can tell me.”

“I... I can't be a boy! No matter how hard I try!”

I heard her laugh again, more of a gentle feminine chuckle really — a chickle, if you want to call it that — but she kept drying my tears. “Well, why?”

“Why what?”

“Why do you keep trying?”

“Because I AM a boy, damnit!” I said, taking a tissue from her hands and kneading it for a bit before blowing my nose.

“Nicky... Nick... I'm sorry. I just have to ask. Do you think everybody at school is stupid?”

“What? No!” I said, looking at her in shock.

She waved her hand to me to be quiet before she continued. “We've hung out at lunch almost every day for six years. I remember when you started your Goth phase, I remember when you used to spend all your time drawing horses, I even remember you coming to my eighth birthday party and dancing with me to Justin Timberlake. You know what I've never seen?”

I shook my head.

“I've never once seen you as a BOY. Oh, I know about what's supposedly between your legs, but hon, you were a girl to everyone a long time before you realized it.”

“Oh, come on, you can't be... you're serious?”

She nodded.

“...Seriously?”

“Seriously serious,” she said with a grin, wrapping one of my pinkies in hers and giving it a shake.

“But, I thought... everybody?”

She laughed again before giving me another quick hug. “Wow, and I thought some of the cheerleaders were wrapped up in themselves. You've never even stopped to pay attention to how everyone treats you, have you?”

“I just tried to avoid everyone.”

She nodded. “Hon, I don't know how you pulled it off, and I KNOW you don't know how incredibly, mind-bogglingly lucky you are, but pretty much everyone, well, I'm not gonna say everyone knows, but pretty much nobody cares that you're a girl. It's a non-issue. We're used to it.”

I was stunned.

“...Seriously?”

“You already asked that.”

“What?”

“That too.” With a gentle pull on my hands Tamara dragged me into the middle of the utility room floor. “Listen, I know this must be a huge shock, but you've always been Nicky, not Nick, alright? We might have played along to humor you, but it's time for it to stop. Now, let's step out there, and have fun, okay? You can find some girl, or some boy,” she said, grinning when she saw my blush, “and dance the night away, and just be yourself. If fuddy-duddy Nick wants to return tomorrow, whatever. But tonight, and tomorrow night, just be the girl you are and have fun, okay?”

“But--”

“Nope! No buts! Now come on and have a good time!”

And with that she pulled me back out into the room, and proceeded to try and help me do just that.

-==-

The bell 'ding'ed again as I walked into Henry Harrelson's shop on Saturday, a spring in my step I couldn't remember having since... well, ever.

It was only a moment before the pleasant old man came out of the back and gave me a wide-eyed once over before grinning like a fool. “Well, don't you look better today!”

I felt myself blush, but it was a happy blush. I had stayed the night over at Tamara's the night before, and this morning she had insisted on me walking out in what she called “norm drag,” consisting of a pair of plain jeans and a tee shirt that was an intense shade of yellow. With the curls and waves my hair still had from having been up in the braids two nights in a row, plus my fantastic boots, there was no way anyone would take me for anything other than the happy girl I was finding myself to be.

“So, did the boots work out well?” He asked, giving them only the smallest of glances.

“Better than I'd ever hoped,” I said, surprising him with a hug the moment he stepped out from behind the counter. “How much do I owe you?”

“I told you, the boots are thirty dollars.”

I shook my head. “Nuh uh. These are worth way more than that, and way more than just a Halloween costume. How much?”

A look of contemplation crossed his face as he took his chin in his hand and looked away. “I really only made them for... oh, you don't need to hear that. You're serious, though?”

“Seriously serious,” I said with a grin, bouncing on my toes as I waited.

“Alright then,” he said, after a little more thought. “I'll make you a deal.”

I let out a small groan, but listened eagerly as the old man laid out his new scheme.

-=End?=-

NOTES: yeah, yeah, as normal it's fluffy-cheesy-happy stuff. Feh, I like it!

Melanie E.

Oh! For those who are interested in the other Henry Harrelson stories:

A Miss-Matched Pair by Rev Anam Chara

Booted by Maeryn Lamonte

A Red Pair Of Boots by Faeriemage

You Can't Always Get What You Want by 'Drea DiMaggio (I'd forgotten about this title...)

A Quick Fix

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Caution: 

  • CAUTION: Referenced / Discussed Suicide

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Voluntary

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

A Quick Fix

A short written in the posting window

By Melanie E.

-==-

Why wasn't she happy?

Anna stared at herself in the mirror, fighting back the tears as best she could. The vision that stared back was supposed to be everything she'd wanted: the gentle curves, the smooth lower profile, the full hair and expert makeup. All the money spent, all the time waiting and longing had culminated in this, a vision of femininity that, objectively, she could tell was exactly what she wanted. Oh, sure, if she focused she could see the minor flaws: a scar here from implant surgery, a stretch mark there, or the occasional hair the electrolysis had missed she would need to pluck later. Perhaps her jaw was still just a little too square, were her brows a little too heavy? She shouldn't concentrate on the flaws, she knew that, when so much of what she wanted was there.

So... why wasn't she happy?

Wasn't this the goal? Then end game? She'd been so depressed as a man, pretending and acting and feeling the weight of the world on his shoulders. She'd known this was right, that this was what would fix her. So many doctors had said no, but with diligence she'd found the ones who would say yes, for the right price. She would show the naysayers, prove them wrong, when she could stand tall and proud as the woman she knew she was, and she'd done just that, mostly, except there was still something missing, something... off.

So... why wasn't she happy?

This was the fix! This was the solution! This, THIS, was supposed to be the answer to all her anger and suffering! With a frustrated scream she spun away from the mirror and stared at her bed instead. Laying there were the clothes she'd chosen for the day, the sexy underthings and the feminine outer wear that would help to scream to the world she was a young, confident woman. She knew they fit, and they looked good on her. Next to them was the gun. She knew it fit, too, between her teeth, and just how far back it could go before it set her gag reflex off. She'd thought she would throw it out once her transformation was complete, but something had compelled her to keep it, and every day she still had to make the same choice she'd made for years before: go for the clothes, or go for the gun.

The tears dripped down her face, the face that was permanently made up to look so beautiful and fair, but she did her best to ignore them as she moved for the bed, reaching out. At the last minute she changed her mind, and leaving the gun in its place grabbed her clothes and slipped them on, piece by gorgeous piece. It was a slightly sloppy look, since she'd never had the patience to master matching pieces or doing her own makeup, and the tattooed look was a little stark for the clothing she'd picked. Once done, she looked into the mirror and once again saw the woman she'd wanted to be for so long.

So... why wasn't she happy?

-==-

Surgery is not the solution.

I know this sounds like a hypocritical statement coming from a member of the community who has every intent to get her SRS once she can afford it, but it's the truth: surgery, transition, these are tools meant to help us cope with a world that has trouble accepting who we are, that feels that gender is defined by the outside. It can be an affirmation to us of our own feelings, it can make us more comfortable, it can do so many things, transition.

But, when it comes to depression, it is NOT the solution.

We are, each and every one of us, more than the sum of our body parts, and the most important part of us is that which lies between our ears, and in our hearts. Depression isn't a sickness of the body, or a sickness of society: it's a sickness of the heart, one that has to be tackled on its own terms.

I am a transwoman, and I suffer from depression. I've been suicidal, I've been so stricken with melancholy I couldn't bear the idea of getting out of bed, I've been everything it means to be depressed. What's important to note is that, while my nature as a transwoman certainly adds to the stressors of depression, it is by no means the sole cause of it. Body dysphoria has a lot more layers than just "man or woman," and depression has a lot more causes than just the one obvious one so many of us cling to, and it's important to know where one part -- the dysphoria -- and the next -- the depression -- separate from each other.

I have a lot of issues I need to sort through, as do us all. Being trans might be the one that we feel is most important to our identity, but it isn't necessarily the one that needs fixed first if we're truly to recover and be happy. That's a big part of why psychologists are required for transition after all, is to help those who take that path to separate what they can fix with transition from the problems that have nothing to do with it. We may not like it, we may not always agree with it, but it's a system that exists for a good reason.

We shouldn't transition to try and repair our lives. We shouldn't transition because we think it's the key to happiness, either: happiness has to come from within, from a contentment with who you are inside. Transition is meant to be a tool to help us find contentment with our place in society and to help others see us for who we are, even to help us see ourselves the way we feel we should be.

But it's not a quick fix.

There's no quick fix for depression, and understanding that is the first step to coping.

Melanie E.

A Strangefellows Halloween

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Transformations
  • Magic

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Universes & Series: 

  • StrangeFellows Day/Devil in Drag by Lainie Lee

TG Themes: 

  • Wishes

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
A Strangefellows Halloween

By Melanie E.

Copyright 2024 C.D. Rudd

Note: This story takes place in Donna Lamb's 'Devil in Drag' universe, used with her permission. Image above is by C.D. Rudd of his character Ethan, cosplaying as Supergirl. Used by Permission of C.D. Rudd. Supergirl is a character owned by DC Comics.

Sophie Drake took a deep breath, and smiled.

Autumn had always been her favorite time of year. The fading days, the scent of decay on the air. It was the slow decline into the cold, hard winter, as the biting chill would start to worm its way into people's bones and seasonal depression would set in, leaving them morose and irritable.

Convincing The Old Man Upstairs to do it was still one of her proudest achievements, and no amount of angora sweaters and pumpkin spice the mortals could consume would change that.

"And on top of that, there's Halloween," she said aloud, getting a grumble of agreement from the brindle mastiff trotting along beside her.

The last two decades had not been particularly kind to Sophie. The Old Man hadn't been too happy with her after that whole fiasco with the singer and the politician, and the other singer, and Sophie's escapades tripping the light fantastic for a while. In the end she'd been left with two options: spend a hundred years among the mortals, living as they do, with no access to her cosmic powers, or cede her throne in hell permanently.

"Uppity little shit," she mumbled, getting another gruff wuffle of agreement from her companion.

Gabriel had been trying to convince the old man to kick her out for years and let him take over in Hell, arguing that temptation and trickery and lust just weren't the motivators they used to be.

Sophie was having none of it. He could keep his flow charts, and his reorganization plans, and his folders full of little colorful tags separating things, up in Heaven. 'I may be the avatar of sin and temptation,' she thought, 'but even I'm not THAT evil.'

If keeping Hell free of a multi-tiered corporate structure, and herself free to roam the world sowing mischief, required a measly century spent wandering around sewing said mischief in an entirely more personal way... well, she'd never been afraid of getting her hands dirty.

'Is it sowing mischief or sewing mischief?' she wondered. She rather preferred the idea of sewing it, since that involved jabbing things with needles, something she was always a fan of. It annoyed her a little that she couldn't take credit for the little evil of confusing homophones, something humans had cooked up all on their own.

The Old Man had done her one favor, and that was letting her choose her form. That was why she was now strutting her way down the street outside Hellsingr College, where she was enrolled as a co-ed. Lots of delicious trouble you could get into on a college campus, especially with the kind of build she'd opted for.

Bill hadn't been so lucky, but he'd settled into the role of her faithful pooch well, and had eased up on his moaning when he realized it meant he could lick himself in public with impunity.

Besides that, tonight was special.

It wasn't just autumn: it was October.

It wasn't just October, either. No, it was October thirty-first: Halloween.

And it wasn't just Halloween....

"Strangefellows Day," she said aloud, lifting one of her dainty hands and rubbing the soft material of her angora sweater against her cheek. The third odd Thursday in a month, and Her Day.

She could feel the tingle in her fingertips, just the lightest touch of infernal magic, as the weave of the world around her weakened. It was some time yet until that witching hour, when the bonds were at their barest, but maybe. Just maybe.

Her canine companion wuffled again and wagged his tail. One could almost imagine he was, in fact, chuckling.

"Come on, Bubb," she said, turning toward Greek Row and bouncing just a bit on her heels. Stuck on the mortal plane or not, Sophie was still the Devil... and the Devil always gets their due.

#

Riley West was having a bad day.

It had started with checking in at the meal hall only to find out that his food card was out of credit.

It had proceeded to only get worse from there, finding that someone had broken into his car and stolen his Psychology textbook (the second book he'd had stolen so far), getting a call from his mom that his old golden retriever, Bullet, was missing again, and, lastly, having to go to the costume store and pick up the embarrassment he was expected to wear at the Halloween party.

He hadn't wanted to go to the Halloween party in the first place. As a legacy pledge he hadn't had to go through the hazing that so many of his fellow freshmen had suffered, but he was still on the last rung of the totem pole. Ladder? Whatever construct you used, he was right there at the bottom.

Combine that with his small size and generally go-along-to-get-along attitude and his interactions with the other members of his fraternity tended toward... not antagonism, per se, but certainly a sense of misplacement.

Eta Epsilon Iota. HEI, though most everyone he'd met stylized it as HEL, appropriate both for Hellsingr College and for his own opinion of what the next four years were likely to be.

And that was without worrying about the party that night. A party that was not only compulsory for him, according to his older 'brothers' in the frat... but where there were certain expectations of the freshmen, expectations that even his legacy status didn't get him out of.

Expectations that were even now weighing down the garment bag in his right hand, distracting him from where he was walking... right up until he ran into a soft, pumpkin-spice-scented wall.

"Ooof!"

"Hey!"

"Grrrrrrr!"

Riley bounced once on his ass, barely catching himself before falling even further. That was little help, though, as he found himself thrown back yet again, pinned where he lay by a salt-and-pepper hound that probably outweighed him by twenty pounds, and out-drooled him by a gallon.

"Bubb!" Came a sharp, feminine voice from behind the dog.

"Yipe!" Said Riley as the dog bellowed again, this time close enough to rattle Riley's skull.

"William Caliban Bubb, you let him up right now!" The feminine voice said again, with fearsome authority.

The beast seemed to hesitate before stepping off Riley's chest, allowing him to take a breath he hadn't realized he was being denied as he pushed himself up on his elbows and gasped.

"Shit!" He rasped. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to...." Riley's words died as he looked up, and up, at the woman he'd run into. "Shit," he said again, this time more quietly.

He'd seen Sophie Drake around campus before. Everyone had -- she was hard to miss. A bit over six feet tall in the heels she always seemed to wear, with straight raven-black hair down to her ass. "Blacker than sin," he'd heard some of his frat-mates call it, the particular sin on their minds usually clear in the huskiness of their voices.

All curves from top to bottom, both of which were generous without being excessive, and all of that combined with a face that always seemed to have a little bit of a smirk on it.

She was just the kind of girl to get a title like "Ice Queen," if it weren't for the fact that she was known to be quite liberal with her affections. Rather, she had a reputation for being an entirely different kind of queen, the kind with whips and chains in her bedroom, and no safe words.

Riley had chalked most of that up to rumors alone, but sitting on the ground, staring up at her, there was an unmistakable air of control in her eyes, blue pits of flame that seemed to burrow into his brain and grab hold of something there. Not his libido, like so many of his frat-mates, but something else.

"You okay?" She asked, offering him a hand up. He took it less out of need than out of a feeling that he should, wincing slightly as the force of her grip shot a pain through his metacarpals and right into his wrist.

"Ah! Uhh, yeah. Just... think I mighta pulled something," he said, shaking the hand she'd pulled him up by once it was loose, though the pain faded as quickly as it had hit. "Sorry about, umm. I was--"

She laughed, a wicked sound for all its jollity. "Distracted? I'm used to it," she said, preening a bit.

"...Yeah," he agreed, not daring to admit that it wasn't her that was distracting him.

Her eyes went down to the garment bag he'd dropped. "Oh, that's. You're in HEL house! You a frosh?"

He could feel the blush burning his cheeks as he looked away.

Sophie laughed again, ominously. "It's superheroes this year, right? Or should I say--"

"Yes! It, ah, it is," he interrupted, feeling guilty about it but not wanting her to finish her sentence. Not in public.

"Uh huh." She looked him up and down, the fire in her eyes seeming to melt his clothes away as she did so. "Well, I'm sure you'll look...." She paused. "Gorgeous."

Riley tried to avoid her gaze as he bent down to retrieve his costume. What little dignity he had left defenestrated itself when her dog -- Bill? -- gave a woof and stuck his nose in Riley's ass, getting a shocked bleat from the boy.

"Down boy," Sophie said, then laughed again. "We're letting Riley off with a warning this time."

With a final wink, and a tug on a black leash Riley would swear hadn't been there moments ago, Sophie began walking away, leaving Riley wondering when he had given her his name.

#

"Hey Kara! Get yer ass over here with those drinks!"

Riley grumbled to himself as he picked his way through the crowd of frat boys and girls and other upperclassmen, two bottles in each hand. "Here ya go, Chuck," he said with false enthusiasm, trying to keep a smile on his face and well aware it was coming across more as a pained grimace.

"Finally! If you'd been any later I'da had to give you a demerit for your performance tonight," Chuck said, to a round of vicious laughter from his friends. "Then again, how good you look in that getup, I'm sure you could work a few of those off after the party." He leered at Riley, as if to imply he expected exactly that.

Riley stiffened, but kept the grimace-smile on his face as he turned his back on the boys, getting more mocking catcalls from his frat-mates as he marched off to retrieve more beers and take them to other attendees. He was underage, but no-one at the party seemed to care, and it wasn't like he was going to be drinking anyway.

Not the way he was dressed.

In a way, Riley supposed, he'd gotten off lucky. The Supergirl costume he'd wound up with was at least fairly modest. The skirt was shorter than he thought it was supposed to be, and the flare of it seemed to imply he had more shape than he did, as did the padding in the chest, but it was better than what some of the other frosh had wound up with.

Poor Derek had wound up in a Psylocke costume, and had spent half the night sneaking off to try and adjust things in the leotard. Gary was dressed as Nebula, likely because he already had the shaved head for it, and Barry had ended up wearing a classic black-and-purple 1960s Catwoman costume. He could almost pull it off, if it weren't for the moustache he'd refused to shave for the part. Chuck had given him six 'demerits' for that, whatever those meant.

Riley really didn't want to find out.

It had been a hell of a night. The party had started shortly after dark, and so had Riley's time as barmaid, delivering drinks and snacks to the upperclassmen at the party. He'd tried to call off on the whole thing, even going so far as to try and invoke his legacy status to get out of the job, but he'd been given an ultimatum: either 'man up' and do the job, or be out of the frat.

Out of the frat meant out of the frat house, meant his father's disapproval, meant losing a good portion of his money for college. For all his complaints about Hellsingr and its reputation for debauchery, it was his father's alma mater, and it had a great engineering program, both of which had led to him choosing to go there in the first place. Just a few years and he would be home free.

If wearing a skirt for one night was the price of that... he would pay it. How bad could it be?

He jumped and barely managed to set down the tray of snacks he'd picked up as he felt and heard the smack of a burly hand on his ass.

"Hah! Doin' good, Riley, doin' good," said Oded, a tall senior in the frat. He grinned at Riley and squeezed, making Riley jump again. " Sorry, I mean Supergirl. Y'know, if I didn't know better I'd--"

"I gotta get back to work," Riley said, cutting the senior off.

"Ah, okay," Oded said, giving Riley a slightly unfocused smile. Riley could smell the alcohol on his breath, wafting down the almost foot difference in their height and settling around Riley like an intoxicating cloud. "But if later you wanna--"

Riley walked away before Oded could finish what he was saying. He briefly worried about one of the 'demerits' so many of the upperclassmen had threatened the froshes with all night, but rumbling laughter from behind him and past experience told him Oded was unlikely to hold a grudge.

And it wasn't like it was the first offer he'd gotten that night.

He hadn't expected the group of Beta Kappa Phi girls to descend on him when he'd first started the night, but as soon as they saw him they swept him to the side and, joining forces, had given him a makeup look to match his costume.

They used the same tactic on the other froshes, but for most of them the results had been middling or comical at best. All the girls had cooed as they worked on Riley, though, praising his smooth skin and complexion and promising to make him gorgeous.

Gorgeous. Just like Sophie Drake had proclaimed.

Riley wasn't sure how much of the harassment he'd received during the night was his fratmates taking the piss and how much of it was legitimate interest, but as the night had gone on the gropes had become less frequent while the come-ons and even flirting had become more flagrant as the alcohol at once loosened inhibitions and levelled out libidos.

This time Riley did drop the tray of snacks as another hand groped him, this one not slapping or grabbing his ass but pinching it, hard.

"Oww!"

"Hah! And here I thought Supergirl was supposed to be immune to getting hurt!"

Riley spun around, glaring up at Chuck. Like Oded, Chuck was almost a foot taller than Riley -- not much of a surprise, given most of their brothers were. But there was one key difference between Chuck and Oded. Even after all the beers he'd had there was still enough clarity in his eyes to assure Riley he knew exactly where he was and what he was doing.

"Two demerits for dropping the tray," Chuck said, sneering. "Now pick it up."

Riley rolled his eyes, tired of everything and ready to pitch in the towel. A room and a legacy wasn't worth this. Nevertheless, he squatted and began picking up the scattered bowls and larger snacks, leaving the snack mix to get trod into the carpet.

"Hey. Hey!" A hand on his shoulder almost knocked Riley down, and he looked up to find Chuck still sneering at him. "Not like that. Stand up and bend at the waist. Show us that ass like a good bitch."

That was it.

Riley stood up. "No, Chuck. And I'm not your bitch!" He said, surprising both himself and the larger boy with the force.

Chuck took a step back, then snarled, "Six demerits. Two more and you're mine for whatever. Bitch." He laughed cruelly. "Get cleaning, Supergirl."

Riley rolled his eyes and squatted again, ignoring Chuck as he picked up the tray and bowls again. "I wish I really were Supergirl," he muttered under his breath. "Maybe then I could teach you a lesson about how to treat people."

He felt something strange surge through him, from his toes to the roots of his hair, before a pair of rough hands grabbed him under the armpits and began to lift him up.

"Bitch, you'll listen when I give you an order!"

Not quite sure where they found the strength, Riley spun in place, tearing free of Chuck's hands, and punched him in the stomach.

#

Sophie scritched behind Bill's ears as they sat on the bench across from the frat house, waiting.

The tracking spell she had placed on Riley was all she could manage at the time, but it had been enough for her to know when she needed to be ready, and as the night had gone on her magics had grown stronger, allowing her to subtly nudge here and nudge there, with lust and other emotions that lay in her domain, until the trap was set.

She'd felt the tug of the magics at work. She didn't have a lot of control, but it was 2AM, and the veil was at its thinnest, and the Wish had been made, honest enough in the moment to make all the difference.

And now....

She jumped, just a little, and Bill let out a surpised wuffle of his own as the front window of the house shattered, frame and all, and the body of a very large and very surprised Chuck tumbled out, over the porch rail, and into yard beyond, trailed by a mixture of screams, cheers, and one frustrated bellow of feminine rage.

Sophie smiled as she watched Chuck groaning on the ground. He was already one of hers, and had been easy enough to twist into the impetus she needed for Riley's change.

"Come on, Bill, time to go home," she said, standing up and walking away. The Clarences would be there soon, and she wanted to have a little time to gloat while they cleaned up.

She'd be in trouble, sure. But she'd been in trouble before.

It was worth it.

-End-

###

NOTE: I hope you enjoyed my little adventure in Lanie Lee and Donna Lamb's universe!

This story was written especially for "A Very Melanie Halloween," available now on Kindle:

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And if you aren't familiar with Sophie and her exploits, check out Donna Lamb's story "Blue Moon," available here on BC or on Amazon:

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/13798/blue-moon-strangef...

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B017VM71UG/ref=as_li_ss_tl?ie=UTF8...

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-Melanie E.

Autobiography

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
Autobiography
A super-short short story by Melanie E.

Jimmy stared at the page, unsure of how, or even where, to begin.

It wasn't that the assignment was tough, really. Or, perhaps it was; not on the surface, no, but at the core of what was being asked for was a larger question to be answered.

It wasn't really supposed to be a full autobiography, he told himself, just a few pages of miscellaneous words to introduce himself to the teacher and the class. Just a little something to show everyone who he was, what he liked, and how he thought.

How could the teacher have known that the answers to that would have been such a huge deal?

Jimmy pondered and pondered, but remained stuck. Perhaps moving it to the third person would be easier? Without much hope, he dashed out a quick introduction on his screen, then read it aloud to himself.

"There once was a boy."

No; that just didn't work. There was something wrong about it, something off. Something that wasn't HIM.

No again. It not being him wasn't the issue at all.

Jimmy smiled. He would write the autobiography the teacher had asked for. It was risky, and perhaps a little stupid... but it FELT right. It felt like it was time to let it out.

Correction; it felt like it was well past time to let it out.

A few moments holding the delete key was all it took to clear the page, and with a steady hand she typed in her new introduction. She might lose her nerve before class, but for now the screen said what needed said. She read the screen aloud again, quietly but with conviction.

"There once... was a girl."

--End--

NOTES:

Unlike how I normally do things here, I did a bit of editing before sharing this. It all started with me being bored and having an open Skype channel and no-one to listen. Soon, there came a story. Here's the original text, as I typed it into Skype (name removed for identity concerns):
[10:40:20 PM] ----: Jimmy stared at the page, unsure of how or even where to begin.
[10:41:12 PM] ----: It wasn't that the assignment was tough. Or, perhaps it WAS; not on the surface, no, but at the core of what was being asked was a larger question to be answered.
[10:42:04 PM] ----: It was just an autobiography, just a few pages of miscellaneous words to introduce himself to the teacher and the class. Just an autobiography, something meant to show everyone who he was, what he liked, and how he thought.
[10:42:29 PM] ----: How could the teacher have known that asking for that would have been such a huge deal, then?
[10:43:35 PM] ----: Perhaps moving it to the third person would make it easier, he pondered, quickly dashing out a sentence on his screen. Without much hope, he read it aloud to himself. "There once was a boy."
[10:43:58 PM] ----: No, that just didn't work. There was something wrong about it, something off. Something that wasn't HIM.
[10:44:10 PM] ----: No again. That wasn't the issue at all.
[10:45:53 PM] ----: Jimmy smiled. He would write the autobiography the teacher asked for. It was risky, it was a little stupid, perhaps... but it FELT right. It felt like time.
[10:45:57 PM] ----: It felt well past time.
[10:47:06 PM] ----: A few moments of holding the delete key was all it took to clear the page, and with a steady hand she typed in the words she had to write, then read them aloud, quietly but firmly. "There once... was a girl."
[10:47:10 PM] ----: The End.
This, people, is why you should never leave me with a blank page and any amount of free time.
Another fun note: First time stamp there is CST, and as of completing the post to put here it's now... 11:01 PM CST of the same day, so not a lot of time was spent on this. Still, I hope y'all enjoy!

Blink

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Caught with Consequences
  • Real World
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
Punk Girl


Al doesn't want to get all girly for the rock show, but his friend Michelle insists. Are they both ready for the consequences?

Blink
Melanie E.

-----

Newton’s Third Law states that for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.

As such, it should have been no surprise to my friend Michelle when, after she suggested I wear one of her outfits for our night out, I promptly let out a terrified yelp and tried to hide in her closet.

“Come on, Al! It’ll be fun!” Michelle’s voice called, muffled by the door I held steadfastly shut.

“Fun?!” I scoffed from the safe darkness of the closet. “That’s what you said about the time we took your brother’s Vespa for a joy ride!”

“That was fun!”

“Says you! I still owe him 80 bucks for the damages.”

“Al!” She cried, in that whine that implied I was the one being unreasonable. “Leslie told me that Ted’s gonna be there, and you know I’ve been trying to get his attention forever, and it’s NOT gonna happen if I show up with another guy.”

“Then go without me!” I threw back, tucking myself further back into the floral-scented safety of my hidey-hole.

I expected an immediate snarky response. Instead, I got silence that lasted just long enough to start worrying me.

“Michelle?”

More silence, punctuated by the telltale ping of texts flying back and forth.

Shit.

“’Chelle, if you’re posting those bunny costume pics then I swear to God I’ll--”

“Isaac’s gonna be there too.”

I choked on the words that were halfway out of my mouth, instead letting out a strained gurgle before getting my voice back under control. “So?”

“So?” She asked back, in a playful tone. Even with the door closed, I could see her in my mind’s eye, standing just outside it with her hands clasped behind her back and rocking side to side. The teasing smirk went without saying.

“No.”

“But he really liked you when--”

“NO.”

“—and you were so flirting with him when we ran into him when--”

“NO!”

“—And Leslie told me he was really looking forward to seeing you tonight and--”

“GAH!” I cried, throwing the door open and marching toward Michelle. “Gimme the phone, ‘Chelle.”

“Nope!” She crowed, dancing away from me and hopping up to stand on her bed, holding the phone overhead. “And I already told Les to let everyone know Allie was coming tonight.”

“...You didn’t.”

“I did.”

Double shit.

“So?” She asked again, waggling her eyebrows mischievously.

-----

“You’re always so slow with your eyeliner,” Michelle griped from behind me as I carefully drew the pencil across my upper lid.

“Yeah, well, we coulda left almost an hour ago if you’d let me wear my boy clothes.”

“But you look so much better like this!”

I pouted into the mirror, but with the purple lips and stark makeup all it did was prove her point.

Finishing my eyeliner, I stepped back and did a quick assessment of the damage.

I’d discarded my boy’s jeans and hoodie, and in their place I was wearing a pair of cuffed, purple denim shorts over fishnets and two tank tops, a tighter black one underneath a baggy white one made from an old Hollywood Undead tee we’d stolen from Michelle’s dad a couple of years earlier. I’d used some of her spray-in hair color to add purple tips to my hair and finger-brushed the results into a shaggy but cute pixie-cut-ish look. It was a pretty close match to Michelle’s look, except she was wearing an old Def Leppard tee and black shorts, a better match for her long dark hair.

I was still wearing my own boots, though, a pair of scuffed Demonias I’d inherited from Leslie when she’d outgrown them.

With a few cheap “silver” costume jewelry pieces tossed into the mix, I looked like any of the rest of our girlfriends who would be at the show that night.

I whimpered just a little, really not looking forward to what that meant.

“Oh, come on! You’ve always had fun when we’ve done this kind of thing in the past!”

“Yeah, but--”

“And nobody’s gonna give you any shit, you know that.”

“I know, but--”

“And if you don’t get Isaac now, then some other girl might--”

“MICHELLE!”

“WHAT?!”

I closed my eyes and leaned my head back, already exhausted beyond belief, and we hadn’t even left her room yet. “You win. I’m going. Just promise me that you won’t abandon me at the show, okay?”

“Have I ever?”

“Promise.”

Michelle laughed. “Alright, you got it. I, Michelle Blythe, do so solemnly swear not to abandon one Allie Reagan to the wolves.”

“Thank you.”

“Unless Ted wants to--”

“HEY!”

“All right, all right, all right! Geez.”

I let out a sigh of relief, but in the battle between Michelle’s flightiness and her sense of honor, I didn’t hold out much hope of a victory.

Screw it. If things went south, I’d get a ride home from Leslie, I guess.

“Let’s get this over with,” I mumbled, wincing only a bit at Michelle’s happy squeal.

-----

As was expected, the place was packed when we arrived. The Green Goblin wasn’t the biggest club in the world at the best of times, and being the only one in the city that allowed underaged clientele meant that it was always a standing-room-only ordeal any time they had a half-decent act coming in. I was of the opinion that tonight’s act – a semi-local ska-punk group called Darkslide – were maybe a third decent at best, but even then, they’d already moved half the tables out to make room for the larger-than-average crowd they expected to attend.

And there, right in the middle of the floor, were our friends.

Leslie and Demi were there, wearing outfits not all that different from what Michelle and I were. Leslie was a tall blonde, and Demi was a bit of a short stack, so they were both getting plenty of attention from the guys in the room, something they’d have lots of fun with later when they inevitably made out with each other in the middle of the floor just to mess with folks.

Standing not far away from them, and scanning the room, presumably in search of us, were Ted and Isaac.

Ted was decked out in his normal skinny jeans and ratty hoodie, half his face covered by his mane of shaggy ash-blond hair. He managed to stand out from the crowd purely by grace of literally standing out from the crowd, his nearly six-and-a-half-foot height being enough to get him on most sports teams with talent as a technicality if it weren’t for the fact that he was skinny enough he’d make a better bat than a baseball player. Even with the tiny bit of a slouch he always seemed to carry, he stood close to a head above almost everyone else in the room and was using that height to periscope around.

Isaac, on the other hand, looked more vampire than skater. He was over half a foot shorter than Ted, but with his straight black hair and what was honestly a pretty decent teenage attempt at a goatee, he liked to play at more of a Dave Navarro kind of look and pulled it off pretty well, I felt. Well enough to be getting plenty of attention from other girls in attendance, all of whom seemed displeased at his seeming lack of interest.

Both of their sets of eyes found us at the same time, probably in part thanks to Michelle’s frantic waving from our position near the entrance.

Both of them gave us – me -- huge smiles.

Whoo boy.

“Come on!”

I didn’t dare fight the gravitational forces at work as Michelle grabbed my hand and dragged me toward our friends. The room was loud with the sound of canned music blaring over the speaker system while the band set up combined with the inevitable noise of dozens of teens and young adults crowded together into a hot, dark space, fueled by hormones, caffeine, and a functional absence of adult supervision, but even so I could still hear my own heart pounding in my ears as we slid through the crowd.

All right, Allie. You got this.

I whimpered anyway.

It only took about half a song of pushing, pulling, and elbowing to reach our targets. Michelle went to say something, but I cut her off, hoping to keep things from getting too awkward.

“Ah, hey, guys! Michelle thought it’d be fun to drag me along, hope that’s okay. She was really hoping it’d make pairing off a bit easier, I think,” I added, with a sudden flash of inspiration.

“Oh? Oh, sure thing!” Ted said, giving a little nod and smiling at both of us.

“No problems here,” Isaac added, still with only a half-interested look at best, though I could see the slight uptick at the corners of his eyes that showed he was good with things.

“Well, then,” I said, cutting Michelle off again. I stepped forward and took Isaac’s arm. “Let’s dance, shall we?”

Without waiting for an answer, I led him just far enough out into the crowd to separate us from the others. Leslie gave me a bit of a confused look as we passed, but Demi just grinned evilly.

Sigh. Well, here goes.

We had about twenty minutes ‘til the band would start playing, which was enough time to get a couple of dances and a cooldown in before the main event, so I kept Isaac running as much as possible, and as far away from our friends as I could. Michelle could have her space, and I needed to have a talk with Isaac before--

The music cut off with a screech, causing a pained complaint to rise from the crowd.

Another screech followed shortly after, and that was followed by a reedy-voiced announcer. “Sorry folks, issue in the sound booth. It’s close enough to concert time that we’re gonna go ahead and take a bit of a break while the band finishes getting ready. Don’t forget. Sodas are buy-one-get-one at the counter if you show your student ID and no outside drinks or food in the club. Thank you.”

Shit.

I looked up into Isaac’s eyes, but before I could say anything, his hands were on my hips and pulling me in.

“Isaa-” I was cut off by his lips as he kissed me, his tongue invading my mouth and lapping up the words.

What the hell? I closed my eyes and raised my arms to his neck, holding on tightly and ignoring the occasional sound of disgust or amusement around us as I enjoyed the kiss.

All too soon, but not soon enough, he pulled himself up and away from me, grinning like a crazy person.

“That what you wanted?” He asked me.

“No. I mean, yes, but… listen. We need to talk before--”

“Wow, you two!” Michelle crowed, not nearly far enough away.

Double shit.

I turned my head, and there she was.

And standing next to her, a confused-looking Ted.

“Ah, hey!” I said back, looking worriedly between the two of them. “Um… sorry?”

“For what? This is great! You’ve got Isaac, and I get….” It was about that time that Michelle turned and looked at Ted.

Ted, who was spending every other beat either glaring at Isaac or looking at me like a puppy I’d just kicked.

“Ah, I wanna see if we can find a way backstage. Coming, Isaac?” I asked, not waiting for an answer as I began to drag him away from the other couple, who were now looking at each other with a mixture of emotions I didn’t want to try to suss out.

“Sure thing,” he said, following me happily.

Get out of earshot, get out of earshot, get out of--

“So you didn’t tell Michelle you made out with Ted last week, huh?” Isaac asked me. If the music had still been playing, it probably would have been quiet enough, but with voices still tuned to Rock Out, it was more than loud enough to carry back through the crowd and directly to Michelle’s ears.

I knew tonight was going to be a disaster.

“You bitch!” Were the last words I heard before we slipped into the back hallway.

END

-==-

NOTES:
Just a short, silly one-shot, as always brought over courtesy of the BCTS Patreon! I'd normally post something like this on a Friday, but we're gonna be doing gaming tomorrow, so thought I'd toss it out tonight just in case tomorrow's a little hectic :)

On Patreon there were a number of comments suggesting I should continue this. I felt it was perfectly complete as is, but I promised I'd see what folks here thought too, so if you want to see more with these characters, be sure to let me know.

As always, comments and kudos are appreciated!

Bow Legged Girls

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Western

TG Themes: 

  • Age Progression
  • Androgyny
  • Real World
  • Sweet / Sentimental

TG Elements: 

  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
cover
Bow-Legged Girls

By Melanie E.

-==-

I laughed as my pappy picked me up and helped me to stand on the old farm gate that made up one of the panels of the cobbled-together safety fence, the only thing that separated the raucous crowd on our side from the action on the other.

I always loved going to the rodeo. The music, the smells, but most of all I loved the animals. The bulls with snorts and mad power, and the horses with their glistening flanks and wild beauty. Even at six years old I knew that was where I wanted to be when I grew up, in there with the animals, and the cheer of the crowds.

I didn't want to ride the bulls, though. I didn't want to be out there on the angry stallions either or racing around the barrels.

No.

What I loved the most were the showcases... especially the trick riding.

The girl in the arena was beautiful. Her long, dark hair was pulled back, whipping in the wind as she rode, and her purple leotard and white jeans shimmered and flashed as she performed her routine, standing on the horse's back, dragging herself behind it, rolling under its belly or neck. I couldn't help but stare in awe as she raced around the arena, to the applause of all.

Pappy must have noticed my slack-jawed awe, because he patted me on the shoulder and laughed. "Be careful o' bow-legged girls like her, Patty," he said, in his slow raspy way, barely audible over the noise around us.

"Why?"

"Cause they spend more time in the saddle 'n' on their feet," he said, with one of his grins that told me he was telling me something I shouldn't repeat around Mom unless I wanted soap in my mouth.

He started laughing again, so I laughed with him, even though I didn't really get what he meant at the time, then went back to watching the show as another rider came out, and the two girls started doing tricks together, holding hands or switching horses or all kinds of other things, each more exciting than the last.

And I wanted it.

*

I was eleven before my folks let my cousin start showing me some of the tricks. They didn't want to, because as they said "trick ridin' is fer girls, not boys," even when I would show them videos on the computer of lots of boys doing it too, just because the local club was all girls didn't mean it was everyone who did it. My cousin was in the club, and I'd been begging them for years to let her teach me, but it was Pappy who finally got them to give in.

"Marnie," he said to Ma, "you got a good kid. He don't fight ya on nuthin', he helps with more 'n' his share o' the chores, an' he keeps his nose outta the dirt. If he wants ta learn some fancy ridin', just let 'im."

"But Pa, he's already smaller'n the other boys. They hear he's been doin' trick ridin' and--"

"An' they'll know who c'n get 'em a date with one o' them bow-legged girls," Pappy said, with that same wiseass grin of his as he winked at me.

Mom scowled at him, I guess knowing herself what he was getting at. "You shouldn't talk about those girls like that, Pa."

Pappy chuckled, but bowed his head. "Well, if y'don't think they'd be a bad influence, let 'im try it." He ruffled my hair and handed me his handkerchief to try my face, where I'd been crying after another rejection. "S'long as he don't let one o' them horses tump over on 'im he'll be a'ight."

Tina started showing me some of the basics the next week, and to everyone's surprise but mine I was a natural. At thirteen I went to the local trick riding club to ask to join, only to get the same complaint as Mom.

"We don't got no boys in our club."

"But I love ridin', and I'm good," I cried, again fighting tears. Much as I tried, I'd never been good at not crying when I was upset.

"He is," Tina said, her hand on my back. "I've been teachin' him and he's already better'n I am."

The lady who was representing the club gave us a long look. "You've seen our shows. We don't wanna change things for no boy."

"Then don't!" I cried. "Just treat me like one of the girls, I don't care!"

She laughed at that. "Oh? You'd wear one o' the spangly tops and pretty up then?"

I sniffled. "Yes. I'll do whatever it takes. I just want to ride."

"Stand up, boy." When I did, she looked me over long and hard. "Small, ain't ya?" When I didn't bother saying anything she frowned.

"He wears the same boots as I do," Tina volunteered. "He's been usin' my gear to train, so he's good with it."

"Can't nobody but the club and yer folks know yer a boy on the team."

The lady's face changed from a frown to a gasp of surprise when I practically tackled her in a hug.

It didn't matter, so long as I got to ride.

When I got home that night Ma had a few things to say again.

"What would yer pa think? Bless his soul," she said, collapsing at the kitchen table. "You 'n' that damn fool gymnastics o' yours."

"Ma...."

"And you," she said, staring at Pappy as he stood behind me with his hand on my shoulder. "Encouragin' all this! You should be ashamed!"

"Damnit, Marnie. It makes th' kid happy, seems about t'only thing that do. It ain't hurtin' no-one."

"But when folks find out!"

"Then don' let 'em. Tina can lend 'im some fem'nine clothes t'go to shows in an' nobody gotta be none the wiser."

"You know what God had t'say about men in women's clothes, Pa."

Pappy's hand tightened on my shoulder, and I didn't have to see his face to feel the glare he gave her. "I also know Pat ain't doin' this t' peep on th' girls, so that don't matter."

Back and forth for what felt like another eternity... but I got to join the club.

*

For the next three years my life was filled with school, chores, and riding. A few of the girls in the club were upset the first day I showed up with Tina in some of her old hand-me-down riding clothes, but their attitudes softened when we showed them what I could do, and true to Pappy's word, nobody but us had to know that "Patty Clarke," the little blonde firecracker with the giant smile on her face at every event, was really me, Pat Callahan.

Ma kicked me out of the house on my sixteenth birthday, when I came home from practice carrying gifts from the girls on the team, none of which were for boys. That was okay, because Pappy let me stay with him. He gave me Ma's old room, I think partly to rub it in her face, and offered to re-decorate it for me but I didn't mind the dusty rose and cream colors at all.

Without Ma around to bother me about it I spent more and more time with the girls from the team, and it wasn't long before Patty just stayed around and let Pat rest. Nobody at school batted an eye with the change, since jeans were jeans and boots were boots and nobody but the Mennonite girls wore skirts to school. Pappy just took it in stride.

"If'n yer happy, yer happy. An' you ain't hurtin' no-one," he would tell me, with plenty of hugs.

*

"You okay to ride today?" Sally, one of the other girls asked me.

"Yeah. I need ta," I told her, wiping my tears away carefully to avoid mussing my makeup any more than I already had. "It's what he'da wanted."

"You sure, 'cause Lisa said she'd--"

"No! No," I softened, plastering a smile on my face for proof. "Please, I need ta."

I rode out into the arena and waved to the crowd, soaking in the cheers, and the smells, all the same as they had been when I was a little kid.

Except this time, for the first time ever, there was no Pappy waving back to me from the side of the fence.

*

I was on my third loop and getting ready for my finale when it happened. I must have not checked my straps well, because my saddle straps buckled and slipped, and I went with them. I'd trained for falls, and managed to roll with the force as I tumbled across the dirt and mud and landed with a thud, my breath knocked out of me.

The crowd's cheers turned to cries of alarm. I tried to stand up, but it wasn't until I felt a pair of hands take me under the arms and lift me that I managed it, the cheers returning.

"Thanks," I said, turning to look at my rescuer. I expected to see one of the clowns or hands, but instead I found myself staring into the deepest brown eyes I'd ever seen. "Umm."

"Randal," he said, blushing. "Sorry, I jumped the fence when I saw ya fall. Ah..."

"Patty," I told him, blushing myself. Even at eighteen I'd never hit a real growth spurt, and Randal towered over my five-three frame.

Our staring match was interrupted by the medics arriving and checking me out. they gave Randal a stern lecture about picking me up off the ground as they examined me and loaded me onto a stretcher.

"She gonna be alright?"

"I think so," the lady medic who was looking me over said. "But we're gonna take her out on the stretcher just in case."

"Uh, can I see you after?" He asked me, blushing even more.

"Me?" I asked in surprise. Sure, I had a bit of padding on, but even then I wasn't a match for none of the other girls on the team.

"Ah yeah. I've watched you at a lot o' these shows and ah..."

"An' what?"

"Well," he grinned, with that same shit-eating look Pappy always had. "I've always had a thing fer bow-legged girls."

-==-

NOTES:

This is the last of my solos to bring over from Patreon. Next week I'll start bringing over the Patreon version of Double Date Dare!

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Confession

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Caution: 

  • CAUTION: Violence

Audience Rating: 

  • Restricted Audience (r)

Publication: 

  • Fiction

Genre: 

  • Horror

Other Keywords: 

  • Psychosis

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Confession
By Melanie E.

A dark, disturbing little something that popped into my head this morning while I was thinking about Pearl Jam's "Alive."

Anyone familiar with the actual connotations of that song should have plenty of warning: others, this is very, very disturbing. Read at your own risk.

-==-

Father, forgive me. It's been twelve years since my last confession.

Twelve years. Wow. I was thirteen then. It's surprising how quickly one can lose one's faith when you wake up and witness the betrayal of everything you are in the mirror every morning. That was the year I decided god was either deaf, dead, or had never existed in the first place, because there was no way any caring spirit would have done what He had done to me. I can pinpoint the day for you, even: it was the first day I'd woken up with soiled sheets, a racing heart, and that ache in the pit of my stomach and in my groin. The day I became a man.

"Became a man." Hah! Like some biological process you have no control over decides who you are for you. I knew it was wrong then, and I know it's just as wrong now. I wasn't a man, I never have been, as much as others may have told me otherwise. Do you know what that's like? Being looked down on by everyone you thought loved you, who YOU loved? Your own mother, your own sister and brothers. Having them look at you with those wild, angry, hate-filled eyes...

It was the eyes that attracted me to Linda. We'd talked a few times at the laundromat, just idle chatter really, two people wiling away the time while they wait for the spin cycle to finish. She was a little dumpy, and her hair was always a mess. She said it was because she didn't have time to take care of herself anymore, not with the kids keeping her busy, but through it all she still had those amazing blue eyes, the kind of eyes that told you she could forgive anything.

The eyes lied, though. I told her, father. I shared who I was with her, and watched in agony as those beautiful, friendly eyes changed. I saw it, father, I saw the hate, the disgust, began to build, and I couldn't stand it, not again.

I'm still not sure what happened that time. All I remember is blacking out, and when I came to there she was lying on the floor of the laundromat, the sheet around her neck and her beautiful eyes glassing over as her flesh cooled. I knew I had to get out of there, before someone caught me, but I just couldn't leave those eyes, so I took them with me.

It was the same with Carrie, too. That night in the bar, she came up to me and talked to me. She talked to me, father! I'm always left alone when I go places, but she came up and sat next to me, in her little dress and fishnets, and we talked. Her eyes weren't kind like Linda's, but they were full of life and a hunger for something. I thought it might have been companionship, or maybe just casual sex, something I learned long ago to ignore the pain and violation of and simply accept for the release it gave.

No. It was money. Sure, she told me, the companionship could come later, or the sex, whatever I wanted. All I had to do was fork over five hundred dollars and she'd be there for anything at all.

It was disgusting! How could someone with eyes like that be so callous? She was no different than the others, was she? So I gave her her money, and in exchange I took her eyes, too.

I think that's the first time they I remember seeing my name in the paper. "The Oedipus Killer." Idiots, not even understanding what they were saying or how incorrect it was. But it was a catchy name, nonetheless.

They were the first, but they weren't the last. I wanted to stop, I tried to stop, but what else could I do? I couldn't bear the thought of showing myself to the world again, being rejected again, and money's just always so tight, father, you know how it is. I couldn't afford the help I needed to make my life my own, to escape it all.

But I could find eyes. Such beautiful eyes, father. Brown ones, blue ones, green and grey. There was something about them that calmed me, that made the pain go away.

That's how I met Tommy, too. When his exhibit opened at the gallery, "In Your Eyes," I just knew I had to meet him. I found out quickly he was gay. I'd never been with a man, father, not before Tommy, but isn't that what women do? Man and woman, husband and wife, it just made sense! His actual eyes didn't touch me like the others had, or like the ones he painted, but I could look past that for how he made me feel.

Until last night. See, I decided to tell him last night, father. I invited him over to my home for the first time ever, and told him I had a surprise for him. While he waited in the living room I went up to my room and put on my prettiest dress, did my hair as best I could and put on my makeup before heading back down. Surely HE would accept the me inside, the me I'd hid from everyone, right?

When I came back down he was stood in the middle of the room, admiring my eyes. I kept them on a shelf above the television, in their own jars, each one labeled with the lady's name. I knew he'd appreciate them, and I wasn't disappointed, his eyes wide as he sat there entranced, until I walked into the room. He'd jumped father, and when he looked at me it broke my heart. There in his eyes, in my Tommy's eyes, was that same hatred, that same fear and disgust as everyone else.

I didn't wait for him to say anything; there was nothing to say. I simply did what I had to do, and sat his jar on the shelf with the others, as a reminder of why I can't ever open up to anyone.

Except you, father. I've been watching you for a couple of months now, I even started attending services again because I wanted to hear you speak your message of love and acceptance, to feel you look at me the way you do the children and congregation you love so much. You've changed so much since mother died and you found God again, father. Maybe now you can accept me, can embrace the daughter you always had but never wanted to acknowledge.

But you can't, can you father? There's no reason to lie. You see, I can see it in your eyes.

Forgive me father....

-==-

NOTES:

Weird, right? Sorry for this, I've just been working on a collection of non-TG horror stories here and there so when a little pseudo-TG plot presented itself I figured why not? Anyway, lemme know what you thought in the comments, good, bad, or whatever. I was unsure what all tags to use here.

Costumes

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Character Age: 

  • Mature / Thirty+

TG Elements: 

  • Halloween

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
Costumes
By Melanie E.

I should have been going to bed but wrote a short piece for Halloween instead. I hope y'all enjoy it.

00000

Tamara looked at herself in the mirror.

It was the same costume she wore every year at the haunted house. The mask, the paws, the heavy suit and large, awkward boots. It all added up to the same image of a large, hulking wolf creature, there to terrorize the teens and adults (and, when she was lucky, give candy to the kids who were brave enough not to run away.) It was manky looking, and stank to high heaven, that mixture of rubber, sweat, and mothballs from storage that no method they'd tried could ever get to go away.

She usually ended up burning the clothes she wore underneath it, since they always smelled just as bad after.

She frowned at her reflection, the wolf head still tucked under her arm, as she considered the trials she would be facing the next week. The days when it would be so hot in the suit she'd be marinating in her own juices, sometimes followed by days or nights where she'd be shivering as she stood stock-still in the graveyard or the haunted woods and waited. Her muscles and back would be sore every night, and her feet swollen, and her hair, don't even get STARTED on her hair!

It was the same every year, but like so many others she came back, time and again. Some said they did it for the charity, since all time was donated and the proceeds the haunted house would bring in went to the children's hospital down the street. Some claimed they liked being able to let the monster inside out, even if just for a few nights of the year. Tamara knew the truth though: they all did it because, deep inside, they all had an extra scoop of Kid tucked away, just as excited about Halloween as any of the young ones who would come through dressed up for trick or treating.

This year, she mused, she had even more to look forward to.

It was the same costume she wore every year at the haunted house. The mask, the paws, the heavy suit and large, awkward boots. It all added up to the same image of a large, hulking wolf creature, there to terrorize the teens and adults (and, when she was lucky, give candy to the kids who were brave enough not to run away.) It was manky looking, and stank to high heaven, that mixture of rubber, sweat, and mothballs from storage that no method they'd tried could ever get to go away.

This year, though, she wouldn't be burning the clothes she wore under neath it. She would be saving them as mementoes, since it was the last year she would be the wolf creature. Much like so many other costumes she had been wearing over the years, she would be discarding this one in favor of one that fit her better.

Tamara smiled as she donned the mask for her final showing, not as the wolf man, but as the wolf woman. A new recruit would be shadowing her that night, learning the spots and cues. He was big and strong, traits she could easily tell the hormones had impacted on her own diminishing frame, though the weight she had lost made the suit lighter, more nimble, than it had been ever before. She did her scares, her growls and her snarls, and enjoyed every yelp, scream, and laugh she got in return.

She was sure she'd enjoy it even more as the cackling witch the next night, and every night from then on.

00000

I think it's pretty safe to say that most if not everyone here has some familiarity with wearing costumes, if not of the physical variety then the mental kind. Trans or not, everyone has experienced those times when you were forced to convey an image that didn't fit the person you felt like you were on the inside.

Most of us are familiar with the negative forms these costumes can take. Hiding your disgust at a noxious remark or joke because of the people who you're around. Fighting to keep your emotions, your joy and your sadness, under wraps because of how others might react.

Sometimes these costumes can show the best of us as well, though. Standing tall and brave despite one's fears. Speaking out for what you know is right despite the world around you telling you to remain silent.

Being yourself when everyone tells you to conform, and maintain the status quo.

Costumes are just that, a covering or a mask to hide what's underneath. They can be claustrophobic, uncomfortable, even painful.

But only as much as you let them be.

Embrace the costumes that help you grow, progress, and live.

Discard those that stifle you, smother you, and limit you.

And most important of all, no matter what costume you wear, remember: you're still you underneath it all, and that's all that's important.

Dancing in the Stables

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Adult Oriented (r21/a)

Publication: 

  • Verse, Poetry, Lyric

Genre: 

  • Non-Transgender

TG Elements: 

  • CAUTION

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
Dancing in the Stables
By Melanie E.

Note: many applicable tags for this piece have been left off so as not to spoil the "surprise," but those who dislike things that are dark and morbid be forewarned.

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Down around the bannister, and out into the night,
Debbie crept out of the farmhouse, palest stars her only light.
Straight on into the stables is where she made her flight,
Grasping tightly in her tiny hands a gallows-man's delight.

Up the ladder, through the loft, and 'cross the mighty rafters high,
She fin'ly reached the center, gave the floor one final eye.
There was no one there to question, no one there to ask her why,
Such a waste of her performance, Debbie thought with a small sigh.

Debbie turned her thoughts to labor; there was no time for romance.
As she worked she never spared the world outside another glance.
If someone would have come, they would have had a unique chance;
They would have been the very first to ever witness Debbie's dance.

With her rope tied to the rafters, Debbie stepped into the air;
She knew the rope would catch her, she knew it would be there.
There was a snap, there was a yank, a whipping of her hair,
Then Debbie's dance begun as she dangled from her snare.

Debbie danced inside the stables, to the rhythm of the rope,
Debbie arched across the floors with not a sound.
Debbie danced to her own heartbeat, as it slowed and slowed and slowed,
Debbie danced, though her feet never touched the ground.
Debbie danced between the rafters, she would kick and twirl about,
The groaning string that backed her playing from up top,
Debbie's dance went on and on, she never rested for a breath,
Debbie danced, until her music fin'ly stopped.

In the morning when her father walked in through the stable's door,
He saw the remnants of her dancing from the night before.
With a rictus grin upon her face, Debbie swung and swayed some more,
'Til her father, struck with horror, fell prostrate upon the floor.

It was hours yet before her mother, too, would stumble in,
Quite distraught to find the father sharing dancing Debbie's grin.
She fled the stable right away, found solace in her gin,
She, too, danced a few weeks later; Debbie taught her how to spin.

In that little farmhouse far away, the halls lie quiet now.
Or, at least they remain quiet for the day.
But at night, the grounds will fill with the haunting, quiet sound,
Of dearest Debbie dancing high above the hay.

Debbie danced inside the stables, to the rhythm of the rope,
Debbie arched across the floors with not a sound.
Debbie danced to her own heartbeat, as it slowed and slowed and slowed,
Debbie danced, though her feet never touched the ground.
Debbie danced between the rafters, she would kick and twirl about,
The groaning string that backed her playing from up top,
Debbie's dance went on and on, she never rested for a breath,
Debbie danced....
Until her music fin'ly stopped.

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Yeah, this is really morbid, but I've been watching a lot of ghost videos and listening to a lot of creepypastas, so this kinda formed in my head.

This is the first run through, so apologies if some of the rhyme and rhythm feel a bit off. Then again, given the subject I'm guessing that would be the least of people's problems with it.

Melanie E.

Dear John

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Contests: 

  • Summer Romance 2009

Publication: 

  • 17,500 < Novella < 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Romantic
  • Identity Crisis

TG Elements: 

  • Estrogen / Hormones

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

John’s social life is ruined when his ex-girlfriend starts spreading rumors about him at school -— can his best friend Don do anything to help him out?


Dear John
by Melanie Ezell

I hope you enjoy the story.


"Nah, man, it's okay. Forget her anyways, it ain't like there aren't other girls around here." I reached up to give John a friendly pat on the back, about the most comforting thing I could do in the school hallway.

"I'm sorry, dude," John sighed, hanging his head. The brave face he had on would probably fool the rest of the school, but not me. We had been friends for years -- sometimes, it's like I know him better than he knows himself.

I just nodded and followed John down the hall. It wouldn't be long before we had to split up for our different classes, but especially this morning we had needed to talk. It might have been way too soon to just say "everything's gonna be fine", but I couldn't leave him so down first thing at school.

I felt John grip my arm tightly, so I turned towards him to see a look of anguish on his face. "I dunno, Don, did I do the right thing?"

"Of course! Do you even have to ask?"

The fact that he did feel he had to ask just proved to me how bad Sarah had been for him. I mean, seriously! She might be the "queen" of our high school, but I always thought at least John would be immune to her tricks. But no, even he fell for her. Being tall, blond, and a basketball player, John didn't have any trouble getting girls. Still, he had felt so good about getting a date with her that I never had the courage to tell him how bad she was for him, not that he would have listened if I had. John always fell hard for any girl he dated, and nothing could be said about them to make him think they were anything but perfect. Everybody but John knew she was just dating him because his family had money, and it wasn't long after they started dating that he was having to spend hundreds of dollars on her a month. Sure, his family could afford it -- but that's not the point. John might have thought nothing of it, but now he was being hit hard by her trying to use him, and in a way he couldn't ignore.

Another student backed into John and mumbled a quick "Sorry," but he seemed to not hear it as he was still caught up in his own thoughts.

"I just still can't believe she thought I'd DO something like that! She completely totaled this girl's car, and she wanted me to get my dad to change the records around so it looked like it was all the other girl's fault? That's not right."

John's dad might be one of the big lawyers in town, but he's also a good guy, and we both know that he would never do something like that, and what he would have done to John for asking. He's a great dad, who works hard to teach John how to be a good person too, something that John , unlike most of the other guys in our school, is mature enough to appreciate.

"No, John." I stressed his name to make the point. "It isn't. Trust me, your dad would be proud of the decision you made."

"But... she broke up with me 'cuz of it."

"So? You don't need someone like that. Sarah's always using people to get her way, that's just who she is. You don't need to sink down to her level. There's lots of other girls here at school who would love to date you." I spotted Jessica North, a cute girl from his grade, walking down the hall toward us, and waved at her. Everybody knew she had a bit of a crush on John. When she noticed me looking at her she quickly turned and walked away, but not before John caught my wave and expression.

"Ya think?" John asked me, his voice full of hope.

I nodded enthusiastically. "Not just yet, though. You and Sarah broke up last night, right? That's way too soon for you to go after another girl yet. Wait a week, so things can chill. Trust me."

John looked up at the ceiling as he thought for a moment, then answered me with a simple "Okay."

Even though I don't date myself, he had learned a long time ago to trust my advice when it came to girls. A lot of our friends and classmates, both guys and girls, trusted my opinions on the other sex. That Halloween the rest of my sophomore class had even asked me to do a dating advice booth as part of our Fall Festival activities, and it had been surprisingly successful.

Unfortunately, this time around my advice turned out to be wrong. WAY wrong. I had forgotten one important fact -- Sarah is an evil little... I'm not going to say the word. In less than a week she had rumors going around school that John had forced her into having sex with him, and was playing the "abused ex-girlfriend" role to the hilt. I mean, I'm pretty sure most everyone figured she was lying, but there were enough wannabes and hangers-on trying to get on her good side who were willing to support her story, truth or not, so it just kept gaining momentum. Not one girl would talk to John for any reason, and there were even a lot of his other so-called friends who started giving him the cold shoulder, because they didn't want their girlfriends to think they were like him. It didn't matter how hard I worked to try to counter the rumors, because -- just like always -- Sarah had more pull than me, even after I enlisted the help of my cross-country teammates. God, I hate her!It was just like every other time she had pulled out all the stops to make someone miserable, and there was nothing I could do to stop it. Any progress I made was quickly ripped to shreds by a new rumor or claim and more of Sarah's crocodile tears.

By the time Christmas Break was over, I was pretty sure John couldn't get much lower. John had always been a pretty big guy, not overweight just stout, but he had stopped eating lunch at school and lost a lot of weight, and even quit the basketball team -- something he always loved -- after social maneuvering by Sarah had him booed off the court by some of her friends on the cheerleading team. No girl would be caught anywhere near him, either because of the rumors or simply out of fear of what Sarah would do to them if she found out they had been nice to him. What was she trying to do, drive him out of school? If so, her plan was starting to work.

Seeing how horrible John felt made me feel horrible too. We had known each other for what felt like forever -- my mom runs a housekeeping business, and back when she first started it his dad had become one of her first customers. His mom and my mom had become pretty good friends, and it wasn't long before they were setting up play dates for the two of us. Despite our age difference and growing up on different sides of the tracks, we had been close ever since. Where you found one of us you could usually find the other. He was quite a bit bigger than me -- obviously, he's older than I am -- but that never stopped us from roughhousing, playing sports, or getting in trouble together. He often joked that I'd be bigger than him soon, since it wouldn't be long before I hit puberty and caught up to him since we both came from families with big guys. I had to find some way of making him feel better, I just HAD to.

A plan, really THE plan, hit me about mid-January. I say hit me, but I wasn't really the one who thought of it, Ashley did. Ashley's my little sister, and for an eighth grader she was pretty cool. Pretty much whenever I'm not with John I hang out with her, and we talk, play games, watch movies — fun stuff that brothers and sisters are usually too busy arguing to enjoy. I guess we're closer than most, and always have been, but I have an extra special relationship with her. We talk about everything, and she knows things about me I’ve worked hard to hide from the rest of the world, even John.

In all the world, she was the only person who knew about Dawn.

There's a reason John was always my only close friend, and why I never dated. Dawn, well -- she was that reason. I hardly ever saw her, since we had to keep her out of sight, but as often as I could get Ashley's help, we would let her out. I was still young enough that making all the little changes wasn't that hard, and once we were done, there I would stand, as my true self. Dawn. Ashley and I would spend every hour we could hanging out as sisters. I would tell her all about my fears and worries, and she would tell me about hers, or what boys she liked, or any other little bits of gossip she wanted to share. I would always drink it in, relishing the time we had together. We were as close as any two sisters could be, and the little issue about me TECHNICALLY being her brother never came up when it was just the two of us. To the rest of the world I was Don, but Ashley knew better -- in a lot of ways; I think she knew me better than I knew myself.

It was about half-way through January when she had "the idea." We were sitting in her room talking, I think about some group we had just heard on the radio, but I was only half paying attention. Ashley, I guess, noticed how out of it I was, 'cuz she asked me what was bothering me. So, I told her about how worried I was for John, not for the first time. I had about given up trying to change what was happening at school, it was just too much for one person to handle, so instead I had been trying to think of something, anything, I could do to pull him out of the depression that had been swallowing him, but nothing I tried seemed to be working.

"If only I could find him another girlfriend, one who was actually good enough for him." I remember saying out loud.

Ashley's face took on a strange expression for a half a second, but quickly changed to a smile as she looked over at me. "I know!" she yelled as she jumped up and down on her knees and grabbed my hands. "I know what you can do!"

"What?" I asked, getting just as excited. If it could help John, I was prepared to do anything.

"We can introduce him to Dawn!"

"What!" Well, I was willing to do "almost" anything.

"Introduce him to Dawn."

"WHAT!" Our conversation was going nowhere.

"Oh, come on, big sis. You wanna find a girl who isn't scared of being seen with him, right? Well, you're with him every day! It’s perfect!"

She was almost right. "Okay, I can see that. Only one problem, though, Ash."

"Uh huh, what's that?"

"I AM scared of being seen!" I shrieked. "Just what do you think I'm gonna do, go to school like this?" I gestured down at the cami and shorts I had on, then up to where we both had our raven hair tucked into matching hairbands. I looked alright -- I hadn't hit any big growth spurts yet, thank God -- but I was still afraid that anyone seeing me would instantly know I was technically a guy.

"Oh, yeah. Hmm." She grinned at me. "Then why not be his SECRET admirer? You can write him little notes and leave them in his locker, all mysterious like. He never has to know who you actually are, you can just be some random girl at school. And if it works, then by the end of the year I'm sure things with that bit..."

"ASHLEY!"

"Sorry." She quickly apologized for what she had almost said, though she didn't act like she felt all that bad. "Anyways, by that time maybe things with that little WITCH Sarah will have calmed down enough that you can just kinda, you know, fade away," she said, with appropriate fluttery hand motions. "Maybe hand him off to another girl who has a crush on him."

"None of them are good enough for him."

Ashley quirked an eyebrow as she gave me a questioning look.

"Well, they aren't! Look how they’ve all treated him."

"Oh-kay." She gave me another weird look, like she wanted to say something, but thought better of it. "So will you do it?"

I didn't have any better ideas -- I was completely out of any other ideas whatsoever -- but I wasn't sure if Ashley’s brainstorm was a GOOD idea. I started trying to think of something, ANYthing, that would be a deal breaker.

"But, my handwriting will give me away."

"No it won't!" She shook her head vigorously. "I've seen you practicing in those composition books you keep hidden from Mom and Dad. Your ‘Dawn’ handwriting looks nothing like your usual boy handwriting, and you know it too, so stop making excuses."

I knew she was right, though I was a bit upset that I had been caught practicing my handwriting. I had been doing it ever since I first noticed that girls and boys write differently -- even before telling her about Dawn -- and with hard work I had been able to give myself two very different writing styles. Eerily, more and more my "Dawn" handwriting felt more natural than the chicken-scratch I foisted off on the teachers at school. I was the only person I knew whose handwriting actually IMPROVED when they stopped thinking about it, which was kind of a scary thought.

"I... okay."

Less than an hour later, I had the first letter finished on a piece of flowery, too-feminine stationery that Ashley never used because it was even too girly for her.

~
Dear John,

I know this seems strange, but I just wanted to let you know that not all of us believe Sarah's lies. I've always thought you were a very sweet boy, and I feel so bad every day when I watch you walking down the halls and being treated so terribly. I've liked you for a long time, but I've always been too scared to come out and tell you. I'm sorry I'm not braver, but please, stay strong for me. I just want to see you smiling again.

Your friend,

Dawn
~

I handed the letter to Ashley nervously, and after reading it she nodded her approval.

"You don't think I should change the name, do you? I mean, it's really close to the name I use as a guy."

Ashley squeezed my shoulder gently, then pulled me into a hug. "Don't worry so much. He'll never know it was you. Trust me."

I would trust Ashley with my life, so even though I was still nervous I silently folded the letter and sealed it in it's matching envelope. "What if he looks for a girl in high school who’s named ‘Dawn’?"

She shook her head slowly. "He’ll probably assume you’re using an alias."

I gave the letter one more nervous look before closing my eyes and slipping it into my pack, ready to slide through his locker grate the next day.


Ugh, Tuna Mac day in the school cafeteria, gross. I was less than enthused about the food, but took it anyway and quickly made my way through the crowd of students towards the table near the back where John and I had been sitting since the whole thing with Sarah started. One look at John, and I knew he had found the note. It wasn't that he was smiling, at least not exactly, but there was something different in the way he was carrying himself. Some of the pathetic look had disappeared from his eyes, and against all odds, he actually looked like he was enjoying the artificial cheese and fish monstrosity before him. I was a little nervous about what he would say when I sat down opposite him, but tried to cover it up as best I could.

"What's up? You look a little different today. Something wrong?"

"Huh? No, nothing's wrong. No, definitely not. I think someone's trying to mess with me, though."

Well, duh? Sarah’s been running him ragged for the last, what, two months? "What makes you think that?"

Without a word, he passed me the note I had dropped off in his locker earlier that day. Feigning caution, I opened the note and scanned it quickly, not like I actually had to read it since I already had it memorized.

"I dunno, looks pretty real to me," I told him, giving him a lifted eyebrow. "Looks like ya got a secret admirer; any idea who?"

What had started as only hopeful glimmers when I first sat down at the table quickly turned into a small grin, and in that moment I knew that whatever happened later, the note had been worth the risk.

"You think?" he asked. "I'm not sure who it is, though. Why didn't she just give it to me herself?"

I shrugged. "Maybe she's shy?" That's the understatement of the year. "That's what it looks like from the note, you know? So, whatcha gonna do?"

He gingerly took the note back from me, like he was afraid it would shatter and disappear. "I'm not sure. To be honest... I'm just happy to know that there's someone out there who doesn't hate me."

I was surprised to hear myself respond softly. "You know I don't hate you either, John."

"Yeah," he answered me, smirking, "but you aren't a girl, either."

I managed to keep my mouth shut about THAT, at least.

For the next week it seemed like everything was better; and John was a lot more like his old self again. He wasn't looking at his feet all the time any more, and there were even a couple of times I got him to crack a joke. That one letter had made such a huge difference in his attitude it was almost unbelievable!

I really liked seeing John with a good attitude, so after a little debating with myself I decided to reward him. That weekend, I sat down and wrote the second Dawn note.

~
Dear John,

It's been so nice this past week to see you looking so much happier. I wish so badly I had the courage to see you in person and let you know how I feel. Until I do, though, know that it makes me feel wonderful knowing you are doing better. Please, stay happy for me, and know that no matter what, I'm there wishing for things to be better for you.

Your friend,

Dawn
~

It was embarrassing, but I couldn't stop myself from putting on some lipstick and adding a kiss to the end of the letter. I felt like an idiot almost immediately after I finished, but I folded the letter and sealed it in its envelope before I had a chance to change my mind. Ashley's giggling behind me only served to make me blush, but my "Quiet, you," was only half serious.

I barely had time to stash the note in John's locker before he saw me, but the instant he picked up the envelope I could see his face brighten. That week he seemed to continue to get better, at least, until that Friday at lunch.

"So, who do you think my mystery girl is?" John asked me between bites of pizza.

I shrugged noncommittally and tried to look as unconcerned as possible, just like I had every other time he'd asked me that question in the last week. Every day at lunch he would pull out the letters I had sent him and mull over them, and ask me questions about what I thought. It was a lot of fun, and always made me feel warm inside to see him admiring something that I had done for him, even if he didn't know it. Today, though, I was in for a shock as I watched a look of disgust cross his face. Then, he tore up the letters!

"What are you doing?" I stood in alarm.

John's face had gone from being almost normal to the same depressed look he'd had before the first letter, but this time, there was anger added to the mix, and the hurt grimace he wore made me ache to look at.

He rose to his full height, and without meaning to I backed away from the glare he gave me. "I will NOT be played with like this. I don't wanna be the patsy in some sick game that's just gonna get me hurt worse! Dammit, why is everyone in our school such dicks? This girl's probably just trying to get me worked up so they can do something else to me." John collapsed in his chair again, but I could tell he was still super tense.

I couldn't believe what I had just seen, and felt myself growing upset. "Jeezus, she just wanted to make you feel better!" I was doing my best to keep from slapping him for being so pathetic, or bursting into tears myself, but his change of attitude was almost too much -- combined with the effort not to give myself away. It took a supreme effort, but I managed to calm myself before continuing. "She isn't being mean, okay? She really does want you to be happy."

His anger seemed to fade as a small triumphant gleam came to his eyes. Staring right at me, he asked calmly, "Oh, really? And how would you know? You DO know who she is, don't you?"

"What, no!" Dangit! I really need to be more careful how I say things. I had just come dangerously close to saying too much.

"Then why do you think you have some special knowledge about what she means?"

"Wha, uh... shoot." I was pretty -- - well -- - stuck. If I kept claiming I didn't know who wrote the letters, then John wouldn't trust them any more and their effect would be ruined. I didn't think he'd react well if he knew that I wrote them, either. Knowing John, he would appreciate the gesture even if he thought it was a little weird, but then he would just go back to being depressed again. I never even considered that he might freak out on me -- we're talking about John here, my best friend and all around good guy, not one of the other boys. I sighed as I came to a decision, and hoped I wasn't digging myself in so deep I couldn't get back out. I looked up into his eyes. "Yes, I know who wrote the letters."

"Who is it?" He asked eagerly.

"I... I can't tell you," I answered slowly. Then inspiration hit me. "She really is very shy, and isn't ready to come out yet. Okay?"

Looking at his face, I could tell that, no, it wasn't really okay, but he nodded. John trusted me not to lead him wrong, and knowing that both relieved and tortured me.

"Tell her I'm sorry for ripping up the letters, would you? If she saw."

"I will," I promised him. An honest-to-god smile crossed John's face for the first time in, well, I wasn't really sure how long; and I knew he really was sorry.

"Thanks."

"I got your back." I smiled, both from relief and in thanks that he was feeling good about himself again.

Another weekend, another note. That Sunday would be Valentine's Day, so I decided that instead of the normal stationery I wanted to give John an actual valentine. Ashley gave me a weird look, but helped me to shop for exactly what I wanted. In the end, we chose what had to be the most embarrassingly cutesy and feminine valentine we could find, and neither of us could stop laughing as we misted it with perfume and I wrote John a short personal message inside.

I was nervous about the valentine, and held off putting it into his locker until Wednesday. Just having it in my backpack made me feel super strange, I dunno, almost like everyone could see it and tell it was from me to John. I finally worked up the courage to slide it through the slats, and by sheer luck I was there when John found it waiting for him.

"What's this?"

John was as embarrassed by the valentine as I had been picking it out, but from the looks of it he was also genuinely happy to have it. Several times that day I saw him stopping by his locker and sniffing the sweet perfume we had scented it with, and for some reason I felt myself flush every time I noticed that.

That Friday held another surprise, though it was a lot more pleasant than the last one. I was heading for Civics class when I heard my name being called behind me. Turning, I saw John walking towards me carrying a fluffy little white teddy bear clutching a flower vase, with a single pink rose. When he finally reached me, he proudly handed me the Valentine's gift.

I wasn't sure what to say, and felt my cheeks turning a shade of pink that matched the rose as I looked up at him. "Umm... thanks?"

John chuckled and punched me lightly in the arm, though not hard enough to make me drop the bear. "It isn't for you, dude. Jeez, I'm not gay. It's for Dawn. You said you know who she is, so could you give this to her for me?"

I was shocked. John had bought me a teddy bear! For Valentine's Day! I mean, yeah, he didn't know it was for me, but still. "I can do that," I said, before carefully maneuvering my way toward my locker to store the gift for safekeeping, until I could figure out what to do with it. "I'll let her know I have it next time I see her."

"Thanks, man. I owe ya one."

"You're welcome, John," I said softly, with my back still turned to him. I was desperately fighting the urge to hug him in appreciation, knowing he wouldn't understand. Come to think of it, I’m not sure I do.

The bus ride home that afternoon was, ah, interesting, to say the least, but with a little work I managed to talk Ashley into carrying my Valentine's Day gift into the house and up the stairs, just in case our parents were home. As soon as we were upstairs and safely secure in her room, though, I quickly took it back. That's when her questions started.

"Wow, so John must really like you huh?"

"They're for Dawn, the girl who's been writing him the letters. Not me."

"Aww, he DID get them for you! That's so sweet! I wish I had a boyfriend who would buy me flowers on Valentine's Day."

"Ashley..."

"So," she interrupted me, "what does the note say?"

"Note?" She was right. I hadn't noticed it before, I guess I had been too distracted by the rest, but sure enough there was an envelope taped to the side of the vase, just under the teddy bear's paws. Ashley looked at me expectantly as I slid the envelope open, so I sat down next to her on the bed so she could read with me as I pulled out the slip of plain white paper inside.

~
Dear Dawn,

Thank you for the valentine, and for the letters you have given me. I don't know who you are, but I know that I can never thank you enough. Don tells me that you're very shy, so I guess I won't see you for a while, but I do know that some day we will meet.

My email is jwestjr(at)brightoncitycable(dot)com. Please, write me again soon. I look forward to hearing from you.

Your friend,

John
~

Whoo, boy. John wants me to email him? As Dawn? Of course, he doesn’t know that Don and Dawn are the same person... but still.

A problem occurred to me. "I don't even have an email address as Dawn!"

Ashley fell over on the bed laughing, and her rolling around behind me pulled me back out of my thoughts of what to do.

"Dawn has a boyfriend, Dawn has a boyfriend!" She began chanting in between her shallow breathing and laughing.

"I do NOT!"

"Uh huh, do too!"

She finally managed to regain control of herself, but she was still wheezing as she stood and hugged me. "Come on, it's sweet of him. Most guys would be freaked out if they found out they had a secret admirer-stalker like you."

I wanted to object that I wasn't a "stalker," but she had a point. "Maybe," I conceded, "but things aren't going that well for him right now. Should I email him?"

Ashley looked me up and down. It was that same weird look she had used several times in the last few weeks. "Answer me one question first."

"Oh-kay,and what would that be?"

"Do you like him?"

"Ashley, he's my best friend, of course I like him."

"No," she shook her head, "he's DON'S best friend. I'm asking you, Dawn, do you like him, as in -- LIKE HIM -- like him?"

"What's that got to do with anything?" I huffed.

"Because. If you don't like him, you need to stop."

I thought about what she had just said for a moment. It made sense... to a point. Did I like John? As in — LIKE HIM -- like him?

"Aren't you supposed to be the LITTLE sister?" I asked suspiciously.

She snorted, then grabbed my hand and started dragging me out the door toward my own room. "Just be careful, okay? Come on, let's get Dawn online."


In less than two hours Dawn was officially on the net. I had an email account, a facebook, and even a profile on some kind of teen chat site. It took a little creative building, but Dawn Elizabeth Mercer -- the name of my favorite of Ashley's dolls, and our mom's maiden name -- was now real in a sense I had never imagined I could be.

I logged in that night and sent off my first email to John. I tried to concentrate on the message, but my attention kept turning back to the bear and flower sitting on my desk, right next to my bed. I didn't know why, but just looking at them made me feel good. I knew I'd have to hide them whenever John came over, but in a strange way I was proud of John for getting them for me, even if he didn't know they were for... me.

~
Dear John,

Thank you for the rose and teddy bear; it's so cute!

I hope you have been doing better the last few weeks. Things are tough now, I know, but I promise you they will get better, if you just hold on and believe in yourself.

I'm looking forward to talking to you even more now. It will be very nice not to have to sneak notes to you :P

Your friend,

Dawn
~

I squeezed my eyes shut as I felt my hand click the mouse once. Opening my eyes, I saw the words "Message Sent" displayed on my monitor. There. I've done it. Wow, I’m way more nervous about this than I had been about the first note I left in his locker. Those had been anonymous, maybe even a little mysterious. But this... this is on a whole other level. Step by step, I was making it harder for me as Dawn to cut myself off from John. I had hidden this side of me for so long, and now, I was free to talk to someone other than my little sister. I wasn't really comfortable with what I was doing yet, but at the same time as those thoughts scared me it felt good, too.

I must have stared at my monitor for three hours before John's message came in.

~
Dear Dawn,

You don't need to thank me for the rose -- it was the least I could do. I should be thanking you over and over again, your letters have helped me to feel much better about myself. After what has been happening at school, I thought I would be alone until after graduation. You have given me hope.

Can I meet you?

John
~

No. I can't. Not yet. Not yet? Not ever.

I'd never left the house as Dawn, and I didn't think that would be changing any time soon. There were so many little things that I was always afraid would give me away. I mean, I like the idea of being myself, but it’s so scary! And I didn't want to use wigs or padding, either -- as much as they might help me to fit in as a girl if I did go out, I wanted my body to be my own, without assistance. No, I can't meet him. But I'd not tell him that. I won't say "No, never," just "no, not yet."

~
Dear John,

I'd love to see you, but I can't... yet. I'm so sorry, but I'm just not ready... yet. Some day, I hope to have the courage to talk to you in person, but for now I hope that our writing can be enough. Please?

Your friend,

Dawn
~

"There," I said to myself as I sat back, "hopefully that'll be good enough to keep him happy for a while."

I didn't regret saying no. Not at all. Of course not. Why would I regret it?

Then again, maybe it would help him out even more if I did meet him as Dawn? Even Jessica North wouldn't look at him at school any more, which just blew my mind since she of all people should have known better. I'd see him the next day anyways, or Monday at the latest. So, in a way he would be meeting up with Dawn. Just... not a really girly Dawn. Not yet.

No, I had to remind myself, not EVER. As mucha s it hurt, I had to keep reality in sight. I'll be starting puberty soon, and then whether I'm a girl or not wouldn't matter, 'cause I definitely won't be able to look like one at all anymore. I took after my dad's side of the family a lot, and all the men were big. Huge, even. My dad? He's... I think... six seven. Grandpa’s six nine, and I don't think I have an uncle who is under six two. Not only that, but they're all pretty stocky too. Once all that kicked in, where would I be if I tried to dress as Dawn then? I wouldn't be able to do it, especially not around anyone, so why start something like that if I knew I couldn't finish it? I didn't want to think about my biology and how unfair it all was, because it always made me cry, hard. But I couldn't stop myself, and that night I went to bed early, skipping dinner so my mom and dad wouldn't see me.

I must have gotten a dozen emails from John over the weekend, and despite my doubts over whether I should or not, I answered them all. I dunno, there was just something so nice about talking to someone who accepted me as a girl with no question. He seemed sad that I wouldn't meet him anywhere -- that still made me have to fight down giggle fits when I saw him -- but I guess he accepted the excuse that I was shy. We developed a pattern pretty quickly; one of us would suggest something, like a movie or a band, and the other would tell them what they thought. Even being best friends for so long, I found out things that weekend I never knew about John. He had cried at the end of Pooh's Grand Adventure. He wants to see Africa when he grows up. He loves my mom's cooking, but hates his own mom's. I didn't know ANY of that!

At school on Monday John was in an even better mood than he had been the week before. I felt so nice seeing him walk around smiling and laughing like his old self, I decided to let him talk me into instant messaging him. It was almost magical the way people's attitudes at school changed, too. The brighter his mood got, the better the rest of our classmates treated him -- and the more frustrated Sarah seemed to be every time I saw her. Ooh, it felt good to see that. She tried to start another series of rumors the next week about something else horrible John had supposedly done while they were dating, but they fell flat ‘cuz there was nothing she could say that was worse than what she already had, and I think the rest of the class was getting tired of her domineering attitude, too. John was happy, and it made me happy knowing that it was because of me. Even the girls in his grade were starting to talk to him again, which made me jealous. Why did it make me jealous? At least I knew that it was me who helped him get over that... other girl, so I had the upper hand. Jeez, what am I saying?

By the time the beginning of March rolled around John was opening up to me about so many things we had never talked about before. I was happy, but hurt, too. I rationalized that since Dawn was a girl he felt he could open up to her without sounding "gay." I mean, after all, she's a girl he likes.He asked me to meet with him again, but I said not yet, again. His persistence was wearing on me, I guess partially because I really did want to see him as Dawn, but I had to stay strong. Things were getting serious, and I wasn't completely sure I was ready for it yet, but there was no way I was going to stop.

I'm sure I don't have to say it, but I was dressed in my Dawn clothes as often as possible when talking to John online. Ashley would tease me a little about how cute she thought it was that I would "girl up" for our "e-dates" -- as she called them. I was thankful I had my own clothes and didn't have to borrow hers, though, because even if our parents were home when we came in from school I had taken to running straight to my room and changing before getting online. Don would disappear, and Dawn would be there at the computer, waiting for John to get home. On days when he had basketball practice -- the coach had been surprisingly understanding, and let him back on the team with almost no fuss, to our mutual shock -- I would sit in my room or talk to Ashley for the hour I had to wait unless Mom or Dad asked me to do something. I'm pretty sure Ashley thought I was just using the time messaging John as an excuse to be myself, but she was nice enough not to say anything if she did.

~
MORNINGGLORY: John!
JWESTJR: howwuz ur day 2day?
MORNINGGLORY: lol just another day - cudnt w8 4 it 2 b over
JWESTJR: ya, I no - used 2 like skul but u no
JWESTJR: rly had me down 4 long time
MORNINGGLORY: ya I no rt - must b hard 4 u. dosnt seem so bad now tho
JWESTJR: guess not but all thx 2 u :)
MORNINGGLORY: o rly? :P lol
JWESTJR: ya rly... BRB
(JWESTJR has signed off)
(JWESTJR has signed back in)
JWESTJR: u ther?
MORNINGGLORY: course! wuz sitting lone - w8 4 u
JWESTJR: lol u no if u wud meet u wudnt b lone
MORNINGGLORY: i no but still not rdy
JWESTJR: cn least c ur pix?
~

Oh, wow. What do I do here?

~
MORNINGGLORY: idk not rdy 4 u 2 c me
JWESTJR: k but promise I wont evn go near u at skul - jus wnt 2 no
~

Huh? He didn't just say that. Did he?

~
MORNINGGLORY: srs?
JWESTJR: ya - dont care how stupid - jus feel like i nown u hol life
~

Okay, that's a bit freaky. Still, it's John, and I know that if he says he will or won't do something he keeps his promises...

"Ashley?" I called out. I really needed her advice with this.

"Huh?" I heard her call from her room.

"Could you come here for a second?"

I heard her try the knob, then knock on the door impatiently. I rushed over and let her in quickly, trying not to show myself in my girl's jeans and cami just in case Mom and Dad were around. As soon as I knew the coast was clear I locked the door again and pointed to my monitor, where the chat window was still sitting waiting for my answer.

She read our messages from beginning to end with a smirk on her face, then stood up and turned to me. "Do you want to do it?"

"Well, I can't really, can I?" I stared at my feet.

"Why not?" She laughed. "I mean, you aren't gonna win any beauty pageants but you're pretty enough."

"Well, thanks, I think," I sneered at her.

She rolled her eyes. "No, really, you look good. We'll have to do something about your hair, though."

I reached up and touched my hair. "But, I don't wanna wear a wig," I complained. I had been growing my hair out for the last year or so, and while it wasn't long by any means I was proud of it. Not only that, but as much as I hated to admit it if I was going to send John pictures I wanted everything he saw to be me. It might be risky with how often we saw each other when I was in boy mode, but for some reason it felt really important that everything about Dawn be as close to the truth as possible.

A ding from my computer let me know John was still there.

~
JWESTJR: u ther?
MORNINGGLORY: sry gtg - mybe pix but kinda scary - ttyl, k?
JWESTJR: k - please? rly like 2 c u
~

I signed out, then turned around to face Ashley again. "Now, you were saying?"

She shook her head like she couldn't believe I was actually agreeing. "Oh-kay. I've got a plan, but you'll have to trust me."

"You know I do," I stated firmly, braver than I actually felt.

She just grinned.


The weekend had finally rolled around, and as I stood in the living room I started really regretting ever telling Ashley I trusted her.

"Are you absolutely SURE that Mom and Dad are going to be gone all day?" I asked for what must have been the fourth time in the last fifteen minutes.

"YES! They told both of us earlier this week -- Dad has to work on whatever it is they have him doing at the shop, I think some old guy's show car or something, and Mom has to clean Mrs. Finson's place today. They're gonna be gone at least until four or five this afternoon, so we're fine. Stop being such a worrier; or you'll get me started, too."

Okay, intellectually I knew Ashley was right. She was always right -- it's one of the pains of having a little sister who's smarter than you -- but in my heart I was having a hard time coming to terms with what we were setting out to do. I'd never left the house dressed as Dawn before, and here I was all dressed up, and she was about to drag me down to the park. Why? For a photo shoot! The photos for John couldn't be taken at home, that'd be too likely to give things away or something like that. We had to go somewhere that was, well, I'm not sure what, but not home. The idea of both the photos and leaving the house dressed as Dawn scared the living daylights outta me, but at the same time it felt like a huge step toward being close to myself.

Of course, the clothes she had picked out weren't helping me out any, either. I've always been a jeans and tee shirts kinda person as both a guy and a girl, but she had decided in her ever-present wisdom that I needed to both make a good impression and look as little like a guy as I could. That's why I stoodin a long, heavy denim skirt and a baggy blue sweater that hung off my shoulders, showing the strap of my cami to the world, but in what Ashley said was a "Cute, innocent yet flirty kinda way." I just thought it made me look like an escapee from "Flashdance." But what do I know. If it wasn't for the chill still in the air I'm sure she would have chosen something a lot shorter, but even with how well the outfit covered me I still felt incredibly nervous when she opened the door and pushed me outside.

"I still wish you'd at least let me use some rolled up socks or something to make your boobs look bigger," Ashley grumbled as she held onto my hand.

I slowly moved first my left foot, then my right, willing myself not to turn around and flee back to the safety of the house.

"I'd rather be flat-chested than fake, I've told you that before."

"Oh, come on, everyone does it, it's no big deal."

"I know, but... I dunno. Not this time, okay?" I pleaded.

"You don't know what you're missing out on, big sis," she chuckled, "or I guess 'little sis' would be more appropriate." She poked me in the chest lightly, right at the edge of the cup on my lightly padded bra, the only concession towards bust enhancement I was willing to make.

"Hah, hah. Look who's being a comedienne today," I snapped. I wasn't in the mood for her jokes.

"Ease up, you're doing fine."

I couldn't "ease up," though, and pulled the short jacket she had handed me more tightly around myself as we walked the four blocks, or so, to the park. I kept hoping the cold would be my salvation, and that the park would be mostly empty when we got there since most people would wait until it was warmer. Lucky for me, there were only a handful of parents there with their children and a couple of joggers, as well as the ever-present ducks who never bothered to migrate since people were always throwing bread into the pond for them.

"Okay, let's start with a few casual shots by the pond, then maybe a couple on the swings. If I spin you on the merry-go-round, you won't throw up, will you?" Ashley teased me as she raised the digital camera and started snapping photos of me while spouting cheesy lines we always heard photographers use on "America’s Next Top Model".

"Work it for me, come on."

"Show me some sass."

"Strut, strut, strut... now stop. There, that's perfect baby, I love it!"

That's how my first ever time out as a girl went. Ashley would snap away on her camera as I posed for her in different parts of the park. What had started off as a nerve-racking experience became a lot of fun as I loosened up. None of the parents or kids in the park seemed to be able to tell that I wasn't all girl under my clothes, and the less people paid attention to me the more confident I became.

We had just sat down after finishing what must have been the hundredth shot of the day, when a frazzled looking mother with frizzy red hair and freckles ran up to me. She had looked worried from a distance, but as she drew closer her expression looked more and more fully panicked as she continued to rock a tiny baby in her arms.

"Um, excuse me, miss?" She asked me, her eyes darting around. "I hate to ask you this, but could you watch Stephie until I come back? My little boy ran off and I can't find him, and I'm so worried; and I don't want to drop her and..."

Ashley spoke up from behind me. "Sure!"

At the same time I blurted, "M-me?"

The woman nodded quickly, and a small look of relief seemed to wash over her face before she started to panic again. "I know it's weird for me to ask this, I don't even know you, but I need to look for Brian...right now!"

"Uhm... okay?"

Yes, it was definitely a look of relief that she had as she carefully handed me the small sleeping bundle. She was talking the entire time about little things like how to hold the baby, what to do to change her or if she cried and a lot of other things I couldn't catch in her nervous state. I just nodded numbly as I settled back onto the bench I had been sitting on, trying not to jar the baby too much. I promised her "Stephie" would be fine, then with one more worried look she rushed off without even giving me her name.

Ashley thought the whole thing was hilarious, but less than five minutes after the mom left we were both cooing over Stephie like she was the first baby we had ever seen. Her eyes were closed, and she was making little bubbly noises and shaking her fists around. It was like the cutest thing EVER. Ashley kept bugging me to hold her, but the lady had asked ME to watch the baby, and I couldn't just hand her off to someone else! I mean, what would she think if she saw the baby in Ashley's arms and not mine? I had to watch her, it was my duty. I told all this to Ashley, but she just gave me a look like yeah, sure -- I think she knew I just wanted to keep holding the baby.

Way too soon, Stephie's mom came back with a dirty and upset little boy in tow. He couldn't have been more than four years old, and there were tear stains tracking down his face through the layer of mud. His mom had a napkin out and kept wiping at his face and sobbing like she hadn't seen him in -- forever.

"... I was so WORRIED about you; where were you? Oh my God, I can't believe... at least you’re safe. Don't EVER run off like that again, you hear me? I was... I was... " She was almost to us, and her face kept switching between anger and exhausted relief. I wasn't sure whether she wanted to hug the little boy more or strangle him, but when she reached us she visibly calmed herself. "Was Stephie good for you?"

"She was a little angel." I cuddled the little blanket-wrapped ball of gurgling cuteness.

"Good," the woman sighed, before gasping, "Oh, I just realized, here you are holding my baby for me and I never even introduced myself! I'm Barbara, but everyone just calls me Babs."

I carefully pulled my right arm from under the baby, and we shook hands. "I'm Dawn, and this is my little sister, Ashley."

"Hi!" Ashley chirped.

"And this little dirt pile here is Brian. Say hello, Brian." Babs lightly tugged on the young boy's hand.

He looked up at us sadly and managed to mumble a small, "'Lo," before blushing and looking down at the ground again.

"Thank you two so much. Normally I'd never ask a stranger for a favor like that, but you've been at the park all day so I didn't think it would be a problem."

"No, it wasn't a problem at all." I smiled. "We enjoyed it."

She sat down next to us and we visited for a few minutes, but it wasn't too long before Ashley and I had to leave if we wanted to get home before Mom and Dad did. It was hard to part with Stephie, but I eventually managed to do so; and we left the park.

We got back in plenty of time for me to change, so we both headed upstairs to our rooms. I was going to look at the pictures before going back to boy-mode, but Ashley said it would probably take a while, and I should change first.

I stood in the middle of my bedroom floor, looking into the mirror over my dresser for the longest time. I've done it. I've been outside as a girl. I left the house, and went to the park, and had a great day. I thought about little Stephie so sweet in my arms. I wonder what it would be like to be a mother? It must be wonderful.

I shook my head as I felt the tears start falling. Of course, I'll never have that, will I? Another year and I’ll be too big and hairy to ever be able to go out as Dawn again. How can I be a girl if I'm seven foot tall and covered in fur?

It must have been an hour later when Ashley came in looking for me, and there I was still dressed, curled up on my bed and bawling my eyes out. She sat down next to me and held me as I cried, whispering soothing things in my ear, but all I could hear was myself asking over and over how life could be so unfair.


"Dude, isn't she great?"

"Yeah, John, for the fifth time today."

I didn't want to say it to him, but John was starting to get a little annoying. He was constantly talking about the picture of me we had sent him. It was one of the ones she had taken of me by the pond, sitting on a rock and watching the ducks. I'd been surprised by how well the photos had turned out, and with the way she had twisted my hair and put it up I looked so much different that I didn't figure John would be able to ID me. That was on Tuesday -- it was Friday, and he'd actually printed the picture and taped it inside the door of his locker, finding something new and exciting he just HAD to tell me about it at least once a day.

Okay, so it may not have been John entirely that was getting on my nerves. My mood had been pretty sour all week, in fact, ever since the day in the park. I dunno, things just seemed so much worse after that. I'd endured another physical examination for cross country earlier in the week, and that had just helped to drive things further home that I'd never be able to be a girl. The doctor had grabbed my, uh, "bits" and given them a pretty good grope before giving me some kind of booster shot in my rear and telling me I was a fit and healthy young man. Young man. Oh, sure, some day I can be a dad, but it's just not the same as being a mom. After puberty I'll never be able to pass, and I just know that Mom and Dad will kill me if I ever tell them how I feel.

"Hey, man, you okay? You're looking kinda upset again."

I jerked a bit, but nodded and tried to smile. It didn't work. Normally I'd look for Ashley to try and talk about things if I got feeling bad, junior and senior high all shared the same lunch, but she was out for the day at the doctor's for her physical, so I couldn't do that.

By the time I got home that afternoon, all I could think about was locking my bedroom door, changing clothes, and talking to John online. I had slammed the door on my way in, and I was almost to the stairs when Ashley came down and saw me.

"Dawn? Mom went to work at John's house after dropping me off. Come on, we need to talk."

I didn't really want to talk any more, but I wasn't sure how to get around it without hurting Ashley's feelings, so I followed her back upstairs, where she entered MY room. I followed, and spied a small paper bag that had been folded closed sitting in the middle of my unmade bed. I turned to Ashley and gave her a quizzical look.

"Go on, Dawn, open it," she urged me.

I was curious, so without further prompting I walked over to my bed and plopped down next to the bag. I rolled down the top, and peered in to find... a slim pink compact. But it wasn't actually a compact. I knew what was actually in it, and felt tears coming into my eyes again -- always with the crying -- as Ashley came up beside me and wrapped her arms around my shoulders.

"You have NO idea how embarrassing it was to talk to Mom and the doctors to get those. And if they ask, you got them from one of your friends at school, okay?"

I just nodded as I spun around and hugged her as tightly as I could. We both knew what she was offering me was dangerous, because we had both looked at the sites online. But I didn't care. Ashley was always the smart one, but she understood how I felt, and no matter how stupid it might have been, we both knew I was going to use the pills.

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MORNINGGLORY: u ther?
JWESTJR: ya been w8ing 4 u
MORNINGGLORY: sry just running l8
JWESTJR: sokay, ur worth w8ing 4
JWESTJR: y r u l8?
MORNINGGLORY: jus got meds 2day
MORNINGGLORY: getting rdy 2 start 2morrow
JWESTJR: r u ok? not sick r u?
MORNINGGLORY: fine -- not that kinda meds :P
JWESTJR: k -- u worried me
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JWESTJR: i shud stop w/ ur pix @ skul -- friends getting tired my brag bout u
MORNINGGLORY: ur mbrsing me
JWESTJR: y?
MORNINGGLORY: cuz i dont wanna b looked @ all teh time
JWESTJR: sry 4get ur shy
MORNINGGLORY: sokay -- howwuz ur day?
~

John made sure to let me know how much better my mood seemed to be that weekend, but when he asked why I was so happy I just said I'd had some good news earlier in the week. Even school wasn't enough to dampen my spirits, and I was constantly smiling. Every morning I'd take the pills Ashley had gotten me, and I'd feel just a little better about myself knowing that I was doing something to stop the growth spurts I had been expecting to start any time soon. I wasn't expecting anything super great, I mean, from our research I knew that birth control wasn't all that strong, especially not the kind they would give my little sister, but if they could even hold off my becoming a man even for a day, I would happily take them for the rest of my life.

By the time March ended John and I had grown a lot closer through our nightly talks. The only problem I had was that it was getting harder and harder not to let things slip when I was in Don-mode that only Dawn was supposed to know. It took a lot of work, but I did manage to keep my two lives separate... ish. Mom was getting better known and had more cleaning jobs, and Dad had managed to pull another contract for some rich guy's hot rod again, so while I felt bad never seeing them at home until late into the evening -- I was also happy to have that much more freedom to move around the house as Dawn. Ever since going to the park I had a lot more confidence in myself, and a few times Ashley and I went out to eat or visit the parks. It was still scary, but I never seemed to have a problem passing, which always made me feel good. Another part of my confidence was my "medicine" -- as sad as it sounds, one thing that had always held me back before was this fear of being out as a girl and all of a sudden my voice dropping, or growing a beard, or some other horrible sign of male puberty erupting, and everyone around me staring and laughing. It was stupid, I knew that, just like I knew that the pills wouldn't probably make any long-term difference, but they helped me to overcome that fear and just do things. We even went to the mall a couple of times, and had a blast looking around.

April came and went pretty much the same as March had... but May. May was bad. It was one of those rare mornings that Mom was still home when Ashley and I got up, and as I stumbled sleepily down the stairs something happened, and I stumbled and winced when a sharp sting rocketed through my hips and thighs. I was still limping when I rounded the corner to see Mom standing at the counter, her long black hair pulled back in a bun and already dressed in scrubs, ready to head off for work.

Just because Mom and Dad work all the time doesn't mean my family doesn't love each other, and the first thing Mom did when she saw me was stand up to give me a big hug, but the smile on her face died when she saw me wince again as I walked toward her.

"What's wrong?" She asked me.

"I dunno, my legs are really hurting me today though, it's like they're stinging and itching on the inside."

She hugged me, grinning as she backed up. "Growing pains, huh? Sounds like puberty has finally hit you. You'll be big as your dad soon enough."

Just like that, the good mood I had been in for over a month was shattered. I was crushed. Why aren't the pills working? All I wanted to do at that point was run back to my room and cry to myself for a while, but I knew it wouldn't be a good idea to skip school with finals coming up so soon. I tried to stay strong in front of my mom, but I couldn't stop a few tears from leaking down my face.

"Does it really hurt that bad, Sweetie?" Mom frowned, concern obvious in her voice as she started searching the cabinets. "I can give you some aspirin for now if you want me to, but if it's hurting that bad perhaps I should keep you home and take you to the doctor?"

I took the aspirin she handed me and thanked her, but said not to worry about the doctor. What can they do to help me? I was upset and angry, and had no energy as I wound my way back upstairs. It was a rash decision, but I took a second one of my little pills from the pink disc. Doubling the dosage will be more dangerous than I really care to think about, but I'll do anything if it’ll stop my body from growing more mannish.

And so the pattern was set for the rest of THAT month. I was irritable all the time, and really emotional, and to top it all off each day I could feel new little pains erupting across my body as things grew despite doubling my dosage.

My mom decided to measure me, since last time they had checked was back in December. ? I'd jumped from five-five to five-eleven, though according to Mom it was all in my legs. Looking down, she was right -- if we hadn't bought my pants baggy on purpose I'm sure I would be getting picked on at school for "high waters" with the way my legs stuck out of them. Luckily it was shorts weather by that time of the year, because I didn't want to ask for money for new jeans when I just knew we couldn't afford them. The biggest problem was that my double doses meant I was running short on pills. It was a desperate act, but one Saturday I dressed up as girly as possible in some of my Dawn clothes and headed downtown to the free clinic. It was embarrassing beyond belief to have to fake talk of boyfriends and experimenting and whatever else I could think of, but by the time I left I had another ring of pills -- just enough to last until Ashley could bring me her next dosage.

A little over halfway through May, something weird happened though, and it made me really have to think about things. John had been acting like he was worried about my behavior for the last couple of weeks, I guess because of how depressed I had gotten. At the same time, he was still totally moon-eyed over me, too. Well, over Dawn-me. Every day was "Dawn this" or "Dawn that" when I was talking to him and it was getting me a little frustrated. But that's not what was weird. Since about mid-April, pretty much all the rumors and stuff had lost all their power, and John was just as popular as ever, including with the girls.

"Don, I need your advice on something."

"Sure, what'cha need?"

"Well, Jessica North asked me out."

"WHAT!" That bit... Grrh!

"Yeah. But I was thinking -- hey, man, you okay?"

"Huh? Oh, yeah. Uh, I gotta go talk to someone. I'll let ya know what I think later, okay?"

He looked at me kinda confused-like, but nodded.

I immediately ran off to the other side of the cafeteria and grabbed Ashley. I know she wanted to complain when I pulled her out of her chair and outside, but her expression changed when she saw my face.

"Ashley, I need to talk to you. Jessica asked John out!"

"Good for him! So everyone's being nice to him again?"

"Ashley! But what about me? I mean Dawn?"

Ashley looked at me sideways. "What about her?"

"Well, it isn't fair to her if he goes out with Jessica!"

"Why not?"

"Because I really... she's supposed to really like him a lot!"

Ashley actually started laughing at me!

"Ohmigod, I swear, I had my suspicions, but THIS is..."

I was pulling my hair out I was so stressed. "WHAT!"

She calmed down enough to look me in my face. "You really do like having him, don't you?"

"I just don't think..."

"Obviously not."

"Ashley! It... what do I do? He wants my advice, and... I don't know what to do!"

I was freaking out, hard, I know, which is I guess why it surprised me when she wrapped me in her arms and squeezed me lovingly. "Girl, you need to chill."

"But..."

"No. Chill. Woo-sah. Come on."

Whoo. Okay. I can do this. My heart began to slow down, and as soon as I stopped hyperventilating Ashley let me go.

"Now, more calmly. John was asked out by Jessica, but rather than just saying ‘yes’ he asked you for advice on what to do. Right?"

"Uh huh." I slid down the wall behind me until I was sitting on the ground, and watched as Ashley matched me on the wall across from me. We were in one of the alleys between school buildings where the smokers usually hid, but I had no idea how we had gotten there.

"That means that he's not sure if he should accept, which means he cares about Dawn. Right?"

When she said "he cared about me," it made me feel better for some reason. "Yeah?"

"Okay. So, what I need you to do is decide if you care about him."

"Well, Dawn..."

"NO! I don't want you to think about Dawn as a made up person and what she's SUPPOSED to feel. You like him, really LIKE like him. Don't you?"

I didn't want to think about that. He's my BEST FRIEND. I CAN'T like him like that. It's not right, you know? But...

"You don't have to answer me right now," Ashley said calmly, "but you have to think about it."

I swear, sometimes it's like she can read my thoughts.

That was when the bell for class rang, and lunch was over.

I tried thinking about things, but school kept getting in the way that day, and before I could leave that afternoon John cornered me in the hallway.

"Hey, man, I'm sorry to keep bugging you, but I want an answer."

"I... I... I can't give you one." God, I'm such a wimp.

"Why not?"

"Because I'm too close to the issue." I left it at that. John looked thoughtful for a moment, like he was considering something, but then nodded and let me pass. I definitely had to think about things.

He never did go on that date with Jessica North.


We continued to IM every afternoon, but we both knew it wouldn't last much longer. John was going to be a counselor for the youth camp a few miles north, and would be leaving at the end of the month, not returning until early August. More and more often our IMs had turned into us telling each other how much we would miss each other over the summer, but secretly I was almost happy he would be gone. I still needed to think about things, and I couldn't do that clearly with him around. The summer would give us time to cool down, and be away from each other for a while, which is exactly what I needed.

It wasn't long before finals were over, and my last day of being a sophomore was officially behind me. Ashley would be a freshman and John would be a senior the next year, and I was expecting it to be great. But before then, we had one lazy summer to look forward to, and I intended to spend it doing absolutely nothing.

The first hint -- okay, the first one I noticed -- that I might have misjudged my sudden growth spurts came almost as soon as school was out. My chest had been aching pretty good for a week or so, but I'd assumed that it was just like the aches in the rest of my body, as my chest tried to expand into the barrel-like proportions of my dad and uncles. So, I tried to ignore it. On that fateful morning, I slipped a loose tee shirt and a pair of my old ratty boxers on over my panties to head down to breakfast. Most of my regular shorts were too tight in the hips after all my growing to be comfortable, so I always put off putting them on until the last minute. I'd just stepped out of my room and had just about made the turn towards the stairs when I heard an astonished gasp and felt something pull me back quickly and shove me into my room. Before I could respond, Ashley was there, slamming my door and looking at me with shock on her face.

"Dawn, what are you doing? Do you want Mom and Dad to see you like that?"

"What?" I asked, confused. I wasn't dressed any different than usual, and I thought Mom and Dad would be at work by then anyway.

Instead of answering, Ashley pointed toward my mirror, so I turned to look. At first I didn't see anything wrong. It was me. Hair to my shoulders now, long legs, skinny arms. I didn't see a problem until Ashley grabbed the back of my tee shirt and pulled it tight.

Poking through the cloth were two small bumps topped with even smaller jutting points.

Boobs.

I have boobs.

Jeezus, I have boobs!

"Whasaaa! Ashley?"

"Oh, no. Please don't get me into this!"

She glared at me for a few seconds, during which I just stood there shocked. After that, though, her face softened and she came over to hug me. I really needed that hug, even if the pressure on my chest reminded me of something I was having a hard time believing I hadn't noticed earlier.

"Hold on, let me go check my room really fast, I might have something that'll help."
Ashley left, and didn't return for a lot longer than I thought it should have taken her to get something from her room. When she finally returned, her "something" turned out to be one of her yoga tanks, with a built in sports bra. I was reluctant to try it on, but after I did and layered a regular tee over it I was happy to note that it looked like any other tank top, though I'm sure she got a good laugh out of giving me one in lavender with small white flowers all over it.

After that, well, everything changed. I'd been trying to ignore what I had thought would be an increasingly masculine physique; and because of that I'd missed how feminine my body had become. My hips were wider and I was taller, but I didn't look any bigger further up than I had been, well, except for those mounds on my chest. I dropped my tee shirt again and pulled it tight, highlighting the faint beginnings of an curvy shape to my body. I still took after my dad's side of the family, sure, but I looked a lot more like one of my aunts than one of my uncles. Even my face had softened a bit, though if you asked me exactly what had changed I wouldn't be able to tell you. Looking at myself, I could still see the boyishness left over from Don, but I could also see that at some time while I wasn't paying attention Dawn had taken over.

The best way that I can describe the feeling is that I was ecstatic and terrified at the same time. What have I done? I'm a girl. Well, that's obvious, and perfectly fine by me. But how can I hide this? My dad's side of the family doesn't tend towards large breasts, so according to Ashley I can expect to maybe be a largish 'B' and that's about it, the same as her and our cousins -- well, our girl cousins, none of our boy cousins have breasts. I'll have to strap them down. Just the idea of that made me wince. I can't go swimming again. I can't go topless any more.Actually, the idea of THAT made me smile. I can't go downstairs to breakfast only halfway dressed any more.

The idea of that made me frown... big time.

I looked over to my bed, where Ashley had sat down and was waiting for me. Despite her being two years younger than me, the joys of puberty had graced her physically before they had started on me. Now, we looked almost the same. I was maybe a couple of inches taller than her and I had shorter hair versus her larger breasts and shaved legs, but we looked about the same size overall, and now I knew why none of my clothes would fit me right any more.

My clothes. No, not all my clothes. Just Don's clothes. Boy's clothes.

A grin broke out as I dug through my closet to the panel at the back, the one that slid to the side and opened up on a set of narrow shelves I had nailed into the wall supports to hold my girl clothes. I sorted through them quickly, pulling out a pair of large cargo shorts that I had bought a while back and not worn yet even though they weren't that different from boy's shorts. Ashley gave me one more quick look, then smirked and gave me a thumbs--up before leaving my room and locking the door so I could change.

I removed my scruffy boxers and stood there in just my panties for a moment before pulling up the shorts and turning to the mirror. My baggy tee shirt hung over the waist of the shorts enough to disguise the low slung style and the way they gripped my butt, a good thing since when I lifted the hem of my shirt and looked it was a little too... rounded, I'd say, for a guy, especially in the tight shorts. My hair was shaggy and hung to a little past my jaw, just touching my shoulders if I scrunched down a bit, so I pulled it up, twisted it a couple of times, and tucked it under an old Marlin’s baseball cap Dad had given me. Looking in the mirror, I saw a tall, gangly-looking person who looked more male than female -- more because of my hairy legs and flat chest -- well, my chest that looked flat. I was gonna have a hard time hiding how I was looking at track meets, especially if I kept developing, but I wasn't going to put any more effort into looking like a boy than that. Satisfied, I headed downstairs for breakfast.

~
Dear Dawn,

I hope this letter reaches you quickly, but since I don't have your address I sent it to Don so he could deliver it to you. I just couldn't go all summer without writing you. It's only been a week here, but I feel like I haven't got to talk to you in a month. The camp is nice, and the kids are a lot of fun to teach and horse around with. They have me helping with the mountain biking courses this month, then next month I'm going to be working on the climbing and rappelling wall. I love it here, but it would be so much better if you were here with me.

I hope your summer is going well, you never really told me what you were planning on doing. I hope you don't find some other boy who sweeps you of your feet and takes you away from me. Be careful around Don, he may seem all sweet and innocent but with how often everybody asks him for dating advice I'm guessing he could be a real sweet talker if he wanted. The last thing I need is to lose my girlfriend to my best friend.

Love,

John
~

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Dear John,

Thank you for the sweet letter. Don gave it to me the day after it arrived, I was so thrilled you thought to write me! And don't worry about Don and me running away together -- I can promise you I have no interest in Don that way, and he knows it and is fine with it :P

I'm glad you're enjoying the camp. I bet it is SO much fun playing with the little kids, teaching them to swim and make baskets. All I'm doing this summer is spending time at home with my family as much as I can and waiting for you to return. I was thinking of getting a job babysitting if I can find anyone to hire me, but with all the other girls with nothing to do this summer I'm pretty sure there won't be any jobs left by the time I start looking.

Ashley and Don both asked me to say "Hi" for them, and to wish you a happy summer. Ashley and I both want you to bring us back something fun from the crafts class, if you get a chance to help in there too.

Love,

Dawn
XOXO

~

I wasn't really sure about closing the letter with "Love," and I was kinda embarrassed about the hugs and kisses, but after the way John had closed his letter it only seemed right. Ashley approved too, so we sealed it up and sent it off from the local post office -- the last thing I wanted was Mom and Dad finding something like that in our mailbox.

John and I wrote each other every week at least once. As soon as his letter came in, I would sit down and write out my response. I had thought it would be hard to create a fake summer for Dawn, but in the end I mostly just told him the truth, since unless Mom and Dad were home I spent most of my summer as Dawn anyhow.

It was halfway through July when John asked if I would send him another picture. He said that one of the CIT's spilled soda all over his printout, ruining it, but I was pretty sure he just wanted another picture of me to show off more. Ashley and I argued about it for a while, but in the end I agreed to pose for another photo shoot. Okay, so it didn't really take that much effort for Ashley to convince me -- I had been thinking hard over the last two months about what my feelings for John were, and I was finally ready to admit that I did like him a little in more than a "just friends" kinda way. Just a little is as far as I was ready to go though. So I shaved my legs, desperately hoping Mom and Dad wouldn't notice, and we set out for another round of pictures.

I had figured on the two of us just heading back to the same park we had used the first time, but Ashley had other plans. I was dressed in a pair of khaki capris and a loose tank top, with an actual bra on that fit my breasts, now up to an 'A' apparently. I had my hair pulled back in a ponytail, a style it was just long enough.

Ashley's choice of shooting location this time around was the mountains to the north of town, at the top of a few of the hiking trails and near the river. Again I found myself posing for her constantly as we slowly worked our way up the paths. When we finally reached the very top, she had me sit on the edge of a small cliff while she shot photos from the path about ten feet below. I was laughing at how hard she was working to lay her shots out, worrying about light and angles and everything, but I was also excited to see what John would think of my "outdoor girl" look. Since he was at a summer camp full of outdoors-types I hoped he would appreciate it. For some reason, it was becoming more and more important to me that John liked me and thought well of me. I knew that after summer ended I would have to let him go, so he could date some of the other girls at school who could actually be seen with him, but thinking about that hurt, and I was content to play the role of girlfriend as well as I could -- for as long as I could. I promised myself it would just be until he got back from camp, but until then I refused to try to think of any way to change things between us.

~
Dear Dawn,

You look beautiful in the new picture you sent me. Maybe when I get back we can go hiking some time? I know you're still too shy to be seen with me, but I would love to meet up with you. Even if you say no, I will hold on until I can convince you to change your mind. You're the most wonderful girl I have ever met, and I will never give you up.

Love,

John
~

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Dear John,

Some day I'm sure I'll be able to see you, but it will not be for a long time. I truly do love you, but I feel like I'm leading you on into a relationship I may never be able to make happen. Forgive me, please, I know that makes me sound like a horrible person, and if you never want to talk to me again I understand. Nothing has made me happier than talking to you these last few months, and I never want to give that up, but I am still too scared to meet you in person.

Love,

Dawn
~

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Dear Dawn,

If I have to wait years to meet you, then I will. I've never felt this way about anyone before, and as crazy as it may seem, even never having spoken to you in person I feel like we are meant to be together. I'll never give you up.
~

The rest of his letter was pretty much just chat about what the last few days of camp were going to be like. He never mentioned his devotion to me again, but I was still crying at the end of the letter. This had gone way beyond anything I had been expecting for the letters. I never meant for him to start liking Dawn that way. I never meant it to last this long.

I never meant to have feelings for John.

Yes, I finally admitted it, I really liked John. No, I love John. I had loved him for years, but this was different. In a lot of ways, I'm sure all of this was harder for me than him, as selfish as that sounds. I saw him every day at school, I would sit by and listen to him talking about me, about how he felt about me, and I could do nothing. It worried me and excited me all at once. And, he was coming back from his summer away at camp; and I knew that my time for ending this without hurting both of us a lot was almost gone, if not already passed. A lot of people think it's silly for a high schooler to feel like they've found their soulmate, but I knew that John's feelings for me were real, and so were mine for him. His wasn't his normal hard crush on a girl. His feelings were true love.

Four days later John was back home. I stood in front of my bedroom mirror, distractedly strapping down my breasts, followed by another one of Ashley's yoga tops, followed by an old Longhorn’s jersey. I pulled my hair back and twisted it before tucking it under a cap, just like I had gotten used to doing every time I had to dress as Don. I looked over myself in the mirror, and had to frown. My legs were still as smooth as they had been, I mean, after shaving them once I wasn't going to let the hair grow back, and their shape beneath my shorts was very pretty, the lotion I had put on them giving them a nice shine. I wondered how much my parents noticed the difference in my appearance. I hadn't grown another inch since reaching five-eleven -- we'd checked -- but the rest of my body had kept growing, just in a completely different direction than the guys on Dad's side of the family. And what's more, I was pretty sure that regular old BC pills shouldn't have affected me that strongly. I briefly considered the idea that maybe my body was messed up more than I had thought, but dismissed it. I wouldn't be that lucky. No, something else was rotten in the state of Denmark, or, you know, however it goes. I shrugged and decided not to question it, before grabbing my pack and heading out for John's house.

He had just got back from camp the day before, and we were planning on spending his first official day of freedom hiking, of all things. I knew he was hoping to see Dawn out on the trails, even though he never said it, so I was hoping I'd be able to act enough like his old buddy Don to distract him from that, maybe even tease him a bit about his obsession with some girl he'd never actually met. Ashley didn't like the idea at all, and told me it was mean -- and okay, I agreed with her, but I told her that's how guys worked. I was more than nervous already, and I was hoping that if I could get him riled up a bit it would help him not to notice how different I was, and get him to relax about things afterwards, too.

All those plans flew out the window the minute I stepped on his porch, though. I rang the front bell, listening to the familiar gonging chimes and waiting for an answer. Only John didn't answer, my mom did, wearing her aqua cleaning scrubs. I forgot she’s working at John’s house today.

"Oh, hi sweetie, are you and John going out today?"

I'm sure I jumped when she said "going out,", but she just kept smiling at me, so I nodded.

"I'll let him know. You two have fun, but be careful, okay?"

I nodded again, and Mom gave me a quick hug before closing the door. I heard her footsteps heading off, and less than five minutes later the door swung wide open and I was nearly bowled over by a huge, tanned body rushing out of it.

"Whoa, sorry, I didn't see you there. Don?"

I looked up... and up... into John's face, my eyes' widening as I saw what two months of summer camp had done to my best friend. He must have grown at least two or three inches, I was sure he hadn't been that much taller than me before he left, and even through his slightly tight, camp shirt I could see how much more toned he was than he had been at school. His shaggy head of hair complimented his strong, if slightly scraggly-looking, jaw. I fought the compound urges to blush, drool, hug him, and punch him all at the same time. OH-kay, I definitely have to admit to myself, I definitely like guys, and especially guys like John.

"Hey dude, you okay? You look a little warm. Wanna come in for a bit before we head out?" John asked with a worried look on his face as he squeezed my shoulder tightly in his large hand.

When did he grab my arm? To keep me from falling?

I shook my head a bit to clear it, then turned away from him while I still could and answered in as masculine a voice as I could manage. I'd been practicing and it was still really fake sounding, but I hoped like heck he wouldn't notice. "Nah, I'm fine. Are you ready to go?" He hefted his own pack onto his shoulder with two fingers and smiled, making me feel a little weak again, but without another word we headed out for the mountain.

The plan had been to tease him a bit about Dawn while we hiked. I'd planned to show him how much stronger I had gotten over the summer, or at least pretend to be stronger, and I knew my endurance was better since I had been running every day. I had planned to do so much. But no. Instead I found myself talking and joking with him almost like we had always done, but there were just little things we were doing different. Before, we would take turns leading up the paths, setting the pace while the other talked, but I found myself letting him lead and talk both, while I gasped, oohed, and ahhed at all the right times as he told me stories about camp. I already knew most of them from the letters he had been sending me, but I had to keep in mind that he didn't know I'd read the letters, so I listened to him talking without interrupting.

It was close to one in the afternoon when we finally broke for a snack. We'd been hiking for over three hours by then, and we both could use the rest. As we ate, though, I kept noticing John glancing at me and giving me funny looks. It was starting to make me nervous.

"What?" I finally asked, after what was probably the seventh time he'd looked at me like that.

"Are you and Dawn related?"

I nearly spewed Kool-Aid all over myself when he asked that, but somehow I managed to swallow it down the wrong pipe instead, and had a massive coughing fit. John chuckled as he rubbed my back to try and help me stop. I prayed to God he wouldn't feel my bandage wrapping while doing that, but it felt too good to ask him to stop.

"Hey, ease up, I'm just asking 'cuz you look a lot alike, that's all. Is she your cousin or something like that?"

"Uh, yeah, something like that," I rasped.

He nodded. "I thought so. The resemblance is really uncanny, except you're a guy and I think she's a little shorter than you. Also, I think she's older than you too, she's gotta be a senior this year, I'm sure of it."

It was all I could do not to laugh at John as he started going on about Dawn again, comparing and contrasting all the ways we were alike, but so different. From the way he kept adding little bits of obvious fantasy to what I knew was the truth, I was pretty sure I didn't have to worry about him pegging me as Dawn.

We finished up our snacks and packed up, ready to head back down. We took a winding, difficult path, not really in any hurry to get home. That's not true. I was in a hurry to get home, but there was no way I could tell John why. I should have been paying more attention when I bound myself that morning instead of letting my mind wander, and I quickly discovered that sweat and bouncing and a lot of physical activity combined with a poorly-wrapped bandage were uncomfortable to the point of being painful. By the time we got to his house it was all I could do not to rush in to their downstairs bathroom and rip the bandages off, but I knew the last thing I needed was for John to see my boobs. He invited me in, but I made my excuses and dashed home as quickly as I could stand, tearing the bandages off as soon as I had my bedroom door closed.

I wept as I looked at my breasts, covered in angry red welts and rashes from where the bandages had rubbed them raw. My chest was right at the verge of being a "B," and I couldn't stand to look long at what the wrapping had done to my skin.

I heard someone knock on my door, and I squeaked -- yes, squeaked -- in alarm, but a feeling of relief rushed over me when I heard Ashley's calming "It's only me." I pulled my tank and jersey back on before opening the door for her, and watched as her expression changed from excitement to worry.

"Dawn, are you okay?" She took a quick scan of my room, and when she saw the bandage laying on the floor and my unbound chest her eyes grew wide.

We sat together on my bed and talked for what must have been hours about what happened that day. I finally admitted to her how I felt about John, and all she did was nod, like she already knew. She giggled with me as I described to her how he looked after the workout that counseling had given him, and it felt like we had grown even closer than ever.

I wasn't all that big in the chest department, and most of the irritation had gone away within a couple of hours of removing my bindings from my breasts, but I vowed that day that I would never strap myself down like that again. In a way, it made me feel like I was trying to be a fake person, hiding part of myself like that, and I hated hiding myself. I had to do it too much already.

After some discussion Ashley decided that I would probably be okay just wearing a sports bra. "Your breasts shouldn't be too noticeable in one," she told me, so I let her bring one of her old ones over for me to try on. It was a lot stronger than the built-in bras in the yoga tanks I usually wore when it was just the two of us, but it did the trick of flattening my chest almost as well as the bandages had. It was also much more comfortable, but I was worried it would show through my clothes. I pulled a regular tank over the top, then my jersey again, and that seemed to hide it well enough, but I would have to be careful in anyone touched my back or squeezed me.

Dinner with Mom and Dad that night was kinda strained for me, and I made my excuses pretty quickly before heading off for bed. I kept thinking about things, and the more I thought the more worried I became. Everything up to now had almost felt like a game, with John, the letters, even the BC pills being something I should have been able to just quit at any time. I was only just coming to realize that I had passed the point of no return a long time ago, and never even noticed.How can I keep hiding my body? How can I return to school? I haven't really kept up with any of my friends this summer, and a lot of our other classmates are a lot more observant than John. Maybe they'll be willing to ignore my appearance, or at least not mention it so they won't upset me, but there’ll be someone who will say something, and what will I do then?

School would start the second week of September, which left me with just over a month to decide what I wanted to do with my life.

And I had absolutely no idea where to start.


"Excuse me, but aren't you... you are!"

I glanced up from my book to find my vision filled by a woman with frizzy red hair, carrying a baby with matching locks, and dragging a small boy with an ice cream cone behind her.

I bit my lip as I searched my memory for her name. "Babs?"

"Yup! You're Dawn, right?"

I nodded a little nervously. I was in boy mode, for cryin' out loud! I'd taken my hat off because it was just too hot with my hair piled up on my head, but I hadn't thought that would be enough to tip the scales from boy to girl. Of all the parks I could have gone to in the city, I had to choose this one? What can I say, I'm a sucker for the ducks.

Then I heard Stephie giggle, and all my worries about boy or girl mode vanished. I hadn't forgotten one precious second of the time I had spent holding her, and almost automatically I closed my book and held out my arms towards her. Babs smiled at me as she leaned down and handed Stephie to me, now much bigger than she had been the last time. Almost immediately she grabbed onto my shirt and held on tightly, with her little, bright, baby face glowing happily.

"She's been crawling around a bit and can say 'mama' now. The doctors say she's maturing well. Can you say 'mama', sweetie?"

Stephie laughed and threw her arms up, grabbing my hair and pulling a handful into her mouth rather than answering her mom's question.

"We were actually just about to leave, Brian got hit by a dirt clod another little boy had thrown at him, so I decided play time was over." She looked down at the messy, little boy beside her, covered in equal parts dirt and ice cream, and sighed as she pulled a napkin out of her purse and started rubbing at his face. The look he gave her was less than amused.

"Would you like to carry Stephanie to the car for me?"

I was more than happy to hold her for a while longer, so I lifted her up on my shoulder as I stood. We chatted a bit as I followed Babs to her old Civic, and I strapped Stephie into her child's seat while Babs put Brian in the booster seat on the other side. I was just about to say goodbye and get back to my book when she stopped me and gave me a piece of paper. Looking down, I saw her number written on it.

"If you ever feel like doing some babysitting give me a call. Stephie usually cries if anybody other than me picks her up or holds her, but she likes you."

I thanked her and stood by watching as they pulled away. I pocketed the number, and decided to stop reading. Instead I started on my own way home. It had been a week since the day out with John, and I still needed to think hard about what I wanted to do.

My mom and dad, school, even my relationship with John were all really scary things to have to think about, but meeting up with Babs in the park had forced me to have to face facts. Just that week I had had another minor growth spurt, and now I was firmly in the "B" cup range, and on the high side at that. If I grew any more I'd have no choice but to start wrapping again -- either that, or admit to everyone I knew that I had boobs. They already showed a little even with a sports bra and a baggy tee, and I had spent too much of the past week hunched over trying to make them less obvious. Then one time I didn't try that, I was seen as a girl. If Bab's reaction was normal, then I was officially past the point of being able to fake being a boy without having to really work at it.

I looked down at myself, trying to see what exactly made Babs see me as a girl. My white tee shirt and khaki cargo shorts were pretty unisex. Was it my shaved legs? I was bent over, so my boobs shouldn't have shown through... but my bra did. How had I missed that when leaving the house? Oh, well, it wasn't important any more. I doubted anybody who saw me saw anything other than a girl. Come to think of it, I'd probably get more strange looks if I didn't wear one. I grinned at that, and suddenly knew what I was gonna do.

As soon as I got home, I dashed for my room and yanked open the secret panel in my closet. I took off my tee and bra, and pulled on a black, spaghetti-strapped tank with a bra built in. I removed my cargo shorts, and replaced them with a pair of super-short jean shorts I had bought. They were too tight and short to be able to pass as boy's shorts, but they definitely looked good on me combined with my girl's curves. I studied myself for a moment in the mirror. My legs were still smooth from shaving two days before, and I looked nicely relaxed in the casual summery clothes. Using my brush and a hair tie I had borrowed from Ashley a while back I pulled my hair into a quick and dirty ponytail. It was still a bit too short to all be held at the point I had tied it, leaving some long sections hanging down to either side of my face.

I looked in the mirror again, and I had to fight not to laugh. Give me some hiking boots and a pair of pistols and I'd look like a teenage version of Lara Croft. I posed with my hands on my hips and smiled. Now all I had to do was wait until Ashley and Mom got back from their shopping trip, and the big reveal would begin.

It wasn't even an hour later that the sound of Mom's car in the driveway told me it was show time. I checked myself in the mirror one last time, and on impulse dug out my lip gloss. I added a quick swipe before steadying myself and leaving my room.

I reached the bottom of the stairs just as the front door opened and Ashley walked in, carrying several bags of school clothes. She did a small double take, then smiled as she stepped in. I saw her open her mouth a couple of times, as though she wanted to say something, but Mom entered behind her and beat her to it.

"Come on, Ashley, we've got lots to..." Mom's voice trailed off as she stared at me, but after blinking and shaking her head she quickly continued, "...lots to bring in. Dawn, would you please put on your sandals and help us get these bags in?"

Huh? Wait... That's it?

"Well?"

I tried to reboot my brain by giving my head a quick shake, then nodded. "Uh, y-eah. One sec."

"Good girl, start with the trunk."

Oh-kay, I'm pretty sure this can't get any weirder. No questions? No yelling? What the heck?

"Come on, missy, get a move on!"

In a bit of a daze, I grabbed my flip flops from beside the door and followed her out to the car, with Ashley right behind me. Before too long we had all the bags inside and the groceries put away. There was still a huge pile of bags sitting in the living room floor, but before we began sorting through them I just had to know what was going on.

"Uhm, Mom?"

She had begun digging through one of the bags, but stopped and turned to face me. "Yes, Sweetie?"

I wasn't sure what to say, so somehow the first thing that came to my mind found it's way out. "Uhm... Surprise?"

At first there was nothing but silence as her eyes boggled, then I heard a snort from my left, and when I twisted around to see what it was I saw Ashley start cackling.

"HAHAhahaHA, six... six months of build up, and the best you can come up with is 'surprise?' HAHAhaha... hehehehe... heh. Whoo."

Yeah, I’m confused. "Huh?"

"Ashley!" Mom chided, "Sit down before you hurt yourself. Dawn, honey, we need to talk, but I think it should wait until your father gets home. Meanwhile, help me sort through these bags; Ashley and I got you some new clothes today. You look nice, by the way, very cute, but I think those shorts are a little too short."

I watched in an almost dreamlike state as Mom and Ashley sorted through the clothes they had brought home, showing me different things they had bought for me along with Ashley's school clothes. Jeans, tees, tanks, panties, skirts, the list went on, and there wasn't a stitch of guy's clothing there. I wasn't sure I wanted to know what was going on any more. How can we afford this? Why did they buy me these clothes in the first place?

Mom emptied the last bag just as Dad slammed the front door closed. He entered the room and bent down to give her a quick kiss hello, being careful not to touch her with his grease-covered body. When he looked up and saw me I was sure he would freak out, but all he did was give a quick "Hi girls," before heading upstairs to shower without a second glance.

This has got to be the most surreal day ever.

"Girls, take your clothes up to your rooms, then come right back down here and sit on the couch. We'll talk as soon as your father finishes his shower."

I did as I was told. What else could I do? I dropped the bags of clothes down on my bed then headed back downstairs, collapsing onto the couch while still trying to wrap my head around what was happening. I'd been so scared of what my parents were going to do when they found out, especially my dad. He's a big guy, and has always been a kind of "manly man," if you know the type, and though he never tried to force me to follow in his footsteps I was sure he would freak when he saw me, not... greet me like I dressed like this every day! Well, not when he's around. So far things had gone nothing like I had been expecting.

Ashley joined me on the couch, and shortly after that we heard the shower cut off. I was shaking visibly, I'm sure of it, but Ashley reached over and took my hand to calm me. Mom and Dad returned and sat down in the two recliners to either side of the couch, both with serious expressions on their faces, but no anger or sadness.

Mom began, "Sweetie, could you tell us why you're dressed like that?"

I wasn't sure what to do, what to say, what to think. This is the talk I've been dreading for so long. I had gone over so many possibilities for it in my head, but the only thing I had never expected was everyone to sit around calmly and listen. I couldn't take it. I burst into tears.

Ashley wrapped me in her arms and hugged me tightly as I cried.

After what felt like hours I was calm enough to try and talk. Even then, though, I couldn't raise my eyes to look at either of my parents.
"Mom, Dad, I don't know how to say this, but, um... I'm a girl."

There. I've said it. No turning back now, they'll start yelling soon, and screaming, and...

"Dawn? Honey? Look at me. Please, Sweetie, look at me."

I raised my head to see my mom looking at me calmly.

"We know."

Wha? "WHA?"

Mom and Dad were... smiling at me?

Dad started talking next. "Honey, we've known about your dressing up in your mother's and sister's clothes since you were seven. At first we hoped it was just a phase, but after a few years we figured you were gonna be a cross-dresser for the rest of your life. Then, when you were eleven, we heard you crying in your sister's room."

Oh, god, I remember that night well. That was when I first told Ashley that I’m a girl. Okay, I know it sounds weird that I ran to my little sister when I wanted to cry, but we were close even back then, and I had figured that if anyone would understand me, it was her.

Mom took over from Dad. "We were worried about you, so we listened in at the doorwhile you talked to Ashley. We were shocked, and hurt, but we still loved you so much," Mom told me, her own eyes tearing up. "We would give anything for you."

"I didn't know they were listening either, Dawn, but later that week they came to me and talked to me. They asked me not to tell you they knew, because they wanted you to tell them yourself how you felt. All they asked me to do was help you figure out how you felt -- as much as I could." Ashley gripped me more tightly in our hug, and I hugged her back.

That's when Dad came over, and laid one of his large hands on my shoulder, squeezing slightly. "When I was young, my brothers and I used to dress up in your grandma's clothes once in a while, too. At first, I thought this was the same thing, but after your confession to your sister, we knew how much more it was to you."

He chuckled a little, and I could feel the rumble from behind me, the same comfortable feeling I always got when he laughed. "You know, your Uncle Chuck is going to be real jealous when he sees those pictures your sister took of you. He did drag for YEARS and I'm sure he'd have killed to be as pretty as you, but he likes being a guy too much."

Wait, Uncle Chuck? The logger in California Uncle Chuck? Things were starting to make a little more sense -- not much, but a little. "So, the birth control pills I got from Ashley..."

"We need to explain that," my mom said, looking a little embarrassed. "Those weren't actually birth control pills. The first wheel started off as something the doctor called a T-blocker, but the second half of it, and the second wheel, had more to them. We were testing to see if you really were serious about wanting to be female. Ashley told us a while back about the research the two of you had done online, so when you went in for your cross country physical we had the doctor run some tests to see what kind of dosing you would need, and let him go ahead and give you a shot of something they said would block your testosterone, too. We were going to stop after the first two months if you had seemed upset at the results, but when you went to the free clinic to get more BC pills to delay what you thought was your male puberty, we knew you wouldn't be. I'm sorry, we should have asked you, but..."

I cut her off mid sentence with a rib-crushing hug. There was something that was still bothering me about all of this, though, and I had to know.
"Mom, Dad, how can we afford all this? We don't have that much money, do we?"

"The show cars I've been working on pay a lot better than most of the body and tuning work I do. That's why I've been taking so many of them lately. With the extra cash from these custom jobs, we've got enough in savings to be able to help you become who you want to be. It's still gonna be tight, but we love you, and want you to be happy."

"I'm sorry sis, I hope you can still trust me after all this." Ashley sobbed from behind me. "We did it to help you."

I felt huge tears of happiness rolling down my face. For the first time in my entire life, I was completely free to be myself. No more worrying about having to hide who I am, or running away. I could feel Dad and Ashley joining me and Mom in our hug, and I was the happiest girl in the world.

It took us the rest of the night to really get all the questions we had for each other out of the way, but in the end everything was perfect. I’m a girl, and my parents love me, and there’s nothing else I need.

Well, except for one thing.


~
Dear Dawn,

I'm so glad you finally agreed to meet me! I'll be there at four o'clock sharp.

Love,

John
~

I read the email one last time before standing up. Whoo. Okay. I guess I’m as ready as I’ll ever be. On Ashley's suggestion I was wearing a skirt again, though unlike the skirt I had worn for that first photo this was quite short, not quite reaching my knees and in a flowery pattern, the flouncy skirt went nicely with the plain, white, low-cut, baby tee I wore. The only jewelry I had on was the friendship bracelet John had sent me from camp, and I had even done my makeup. I wanted to make as good of a second "first" impression as possible.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" Mom asked as she drove me to the park across town.

I didn't hesitate in the slightest. "Yes."

There were only two possible outcomes -- John would either accept me, or he wouldn't. Either way the tide turned, I had to go through with it, though. I loved John with all my heart, and I had to know, just HAD to know, if he would still care about me once he knew the truth. Mom gently squeezed my hand as she drove, so I gave her a squeeze and a wink back in thanks.

Mom was going to wait in the car with the windows down while I met John across the park. If anything went wrong, she knew where I was meeting him, and would be there in an instant if I called for her. I had heard too many stories about meetings going wrong to not have a backup plan.

When I finally reached the spot I had asked him to meet me, the same rock where I had posed for that first picture, John was already there, holding a small bouquet of roses. I ran my fingers through my new pixie-cut one last time, and approached the swings where he stood.

Even from twenty yards away I could clearly see his face light up when John saw me approaching. He didn't wait for me to reach him, but instead started walking toward me, only to slow down and stop suddenly when we got closer to one another. His expression changed from one of happiness to confusion as he looked at me, and he saw who I was. Even under my makeup, I knew I still looked like me. That’s the point meeting him.The hormones had helped to make me prettier and more feminine, but inside and outside both I was still the same person, a person that John knew very well.

"Dawn... Don? What's going on?"

My confidence died in a second, and I couldn't look him in the face any more. "I'm sorry, John," I whispered, just knowing he was going to abandon me. "I didn't think... I really do like you a lot, and, uhm..."

"You're beautiful."

Did I hear him right? I looked up, expecting him to have been lying, waiting for me to look up so he could spit in my face, or hit me, but instead I saw him smiling.

"John, I wanted to tell you, you have no idea how much, it's been so hard not to, I..."

I never got a chance to complete my sentence as John's arms engulfed me and he pressed his lips to mine. It was a kind kiss, full of love and emotion -- the perfect first kiss. I felt his arms wrapped around my waist, and I slid mine around his neck, crying. God, I cried so much now, but I was so happy. He pulled away from me just far enough to look down and into my eyes, then lowered his lips to mine again. I stopped trying to think, I stopped trying to breathe, I stopped everything -- all I wanted was to kiss him forever and ever.

It could have been hours or seconds later, I'm not sure, but whatever it was it wasn't enough. He pulled away from me, and with a flourish presented me with the roses. I took them into my arms and stood up on my toes to give him another quick peck in thanks.

I felt so happy, but deep inside me there was a part of me that still wasn't sure, and I had to know. "John, you don't hate me for lying to you?"

He shook his head, grinning, his mop shaking from side to side. "I was confused at first, but I think I see now. You don't have to explain, and I don't think you ever lied," John told me as he took my free hand in his. "You're the girl of my dreams; and I never saw that you were right in front of me the entire time."

We embraced again, as boyfriend and girlfriend. As friends, it felt like we were saying goodbye to who we once were, but as partners -- and maybe some day lovers -- we knew we were just beginning.

NOW I’m complete. No matter what happens from then on, I know I can handle it. School, friends, family, it doesn't matter, I can deal with anything. Why? Because I have a wonderful Mom and Dad, and a brilliant little sister who love me.

And I have John.


The End


A big thanks goes out to two great authors and editors for their help in making this story ready for posting. Thanks to Edeyn for the first read-through, suggestions, and letting me bounce ideas off of her — not to mention editing the IM sections to make them internet friendly, and doing all the HTML coding. And a big thanks to Angela Rasch (Jill M.I.) for her work in editing the story and supportive words. Without her help, this would be a much more juvenile effort, so I think she deserves a big round of applause! Okay, maybe just from me. :P

Dipping My Feet in the Kiddie Pool

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

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  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Other Keywords: 

  • Allegory

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Dipping My Feet in the Kiddie Pool

By Melanie E.

A simple-minded little story for anyone looking for one.

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"So whatcha doin' out here?" Dad asked in that calm, friendly tone of voice he always had when he'd seen something that had him concerned.

"Ah, nuthin' much," I said back, idly twirling my toes in the water. I was trying to match his friendly tone as best I could, but even I could hear the crack in my voice as I fought back the tears.

The old bench swing was plenty wide enough for the two of us, so I wasn't surprised when Dad sat down next to me. I was surprised, though, when he took off his shoes and socks and dipped all nine toes into the pool I'd set up in front of it. He spent a bit of time swirling his feet about in the water, getting them used to the cool temperature just like I'd done when I'd first set it up.

The two of us just sat there, watching the first of the autumn leaves just starting to fall and kicking our feet back and forth in the water, just enjoying the eddies and waves with neither one of us really wanting to have the conversation we both knew had to happen eventually.

"You really hurt your sister's feelings earlier, Dani."

"I know, Dad."

I hoped that would be the end of it, but my dad knew how to use silence like a crowbar, and as we sat there I could feel the disappointment radiating from him, prying at my soul.

"It's just..." I blurted out after what felt like hours but I was sure was only about half a minute, " it's just... she makes me so angry!" I kicked at the water violently, splashing both of us, but not caring. "She's always acting like she's so much better than me at everything, and everyone else just goes along with it, but she's not! Just because she's prettier than me and more popular than me and..." I could feel the sniffles coming again, but I couldn't fight them off any better now than I had before Dad had shown up.

"She isn't, you know."

"What?"

"Prettier than you," Dad said, brushing my hair away from my face while I just kept staring at the water. "And she tried to get you to join the cheerleaders with her."

"Just so she could laugh at how awful I was," I said, but even I knew that was a lie. "Besides, I'm pretty sure the other girls wouldn't have wanted a freak like me around anyway."

Dad chuckled at that, but kept up stroking my hair, something he knew could always help calm me down. "I don't know about that. Remember? Rikki and Ashley were pushing you pretty hard to join too. Sometimes I think the only person who even remembers Daniel is you."

"Like I could forget," I muttered, but like always Dad's calming influence was helping to bring some sense to my world.

"She was just trying to help you," Dad said, taking me out of my thoughts of years and me's past and back into the now.

"But I don't need her help!"

"Then why did you show her the dress in the first place?"

"Because...." I trailed off, not wanting to admit the truth.

Unfortunately Dad already knew it. "Ah. Because you didn't want help; you just wanted to be told how good it was." When I didn't answer, Dad continued. "Thought so. Nobody's ever gotten ahead in life by not listening to criticism, hon."

"I know, it's just... it's hard! And I'd done so much work, and all she could say was how short it was and how weird the color was and UGH."

"Those weren't complaints, Dani."

"Of course they were."

Dad's gentle stroking of my hair changed to a slightly less-gentle pressure, so I turned to look at him to find his normally smiling "Dad in support mode" face gone, replaced with his "Dad in lecture mode" one instead. "No, they weren't. She said it was weird, yes, but did you see the look on her face when she said it? It wasn't her style, but she loved it on you."

"She did?" I asked, getting a nod from Dad. "Then why didn't she just say that?"

"She did say it, you just focused so much on the other things she said you didn't like that you missed it. Then you went and said...." This time it was Dad's turn to trail off, giving me a disappointed look. Neither one of us had to repeat what I'd said to her; we could both hear it clear as day in our own heads.

"I guess I really messed up," I said, turning away to watch the leaves again. "I hope she can forgive me."

"She already has, though I figure she'll think twice about trying to help you again unless you make it up to her."

"Yeah," I agreed, kicking at the water again, though less violently than before. "But what can I do?"

"That's for you to figure out," Dad said, standing up. "But, Dani?"

"Yeah?" I asked, looking up into his smiling face.

"We all have to step out of the kiddie pool some time."

With that he offered me his hand, and we stepped out of the pool and walked back toward the house together.

-==-

We all have opinions. We all have our difficulties when it comes to criticism. We all have our angry moments.

But in the end, we're all still members of the BCTS community, a FRIENDLY place to read, write, and discuss transgender fiction, and in the end, we're all here because we want to help and support one another. Sometimes that help isn't exactly what we want it to be, but that doesn't mean it's given out of negativity or a desire to harm; it just emphasizes the fact that, in the end, others can only help us if we're willing to accept it.

Sometimes, it would behoove us to remember that.

Melanie E.

Doodles

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Character Age: 

  • Child

TG Themes: 

  • Sweet / Sentimental

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Doodles

By Melanie E.

-==-

"Daddy daddy look at what I drew!"

Eric leaned down and picked up his little bundle of joy in one arm, laughing as he did so. "Whatcha got today sport?" He asked, unable to suppress a grin at the look of disgust on his child's face over the pet name, a look that disappeared almost immediately as their eyes lit up and they started waving a piece of paper in their hand.

"I drew us and momma up in heaven," his little angel said, brandishing their work of art proudly. To some, these might only seem to be the scribblings of a three year old, but to Eric, they were the greatest works of art in the world.

There was something odd about this one, though.

"JD, why are you wearing a dress in the picture?"

"Because I wanna be pretty like momma was," JD said, their blue eyes shining with tears.

Eric knew he should say something. This wasn't right! How could he let his child grow up like this? And he knew just what to do.

"JD..."

"Daddy?"

Eric set his child down then crossed to the fridge, using the time it took to hang up the newest work of art to try and calm his nerves concerning what he knew he had to do next.

"JD?"

His child stood still, innocent, waiting for words from their father.

"Do you want a dress of your own?"

JD's squeal of happiness and rushing hug was all the support Eric needed to know he'd made the right call.

NOTES: Just something short I came up with today. Hope y'all like it!

Elevator

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Character Age: 

  • Senior / Sixty+

TG Themes: 

  • Sweet / Sentimental

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Sometimes a little surprise can make a big difference.
Elevator
By Melanie E.

-==-

Arnie frowned.

He was good at frowning. In fact, it was one of his favorite pastimes. Some days, he would do little more than stand in front of the mirror in the small, cramped bathroom in his small, cramped apartment building and practice frowning, just to make sure he didn’t lose his touch.

This frown was extra special, though. It was a frown of a magnitude he saved for only very specific things: telemarketers, Jehovah’s Witnesses, and puppies.

Like the puppy that was staring up at him even now, its big watery eyes filled with the kind of love and trust only puppies could hold, and its short waggy tail beating out a regular pat-pat-pat on the worn carpet it sat on.

Normally a frown like Arnie was giving the pup was enough to turn even the most stalwart of souls away, but despite every ounce of effort Arnie put into his face, contorting his mouth and brow to the point of pain, the puppy continued to look at him adoringly.

Arnie looked down the left side of the hallway, toward the busted elevator at the far end. Rows of dingy formerly-white doors dotted the dingy formerly-white walls, illuminated by dingy formerly-white fluorescent lights hanging from a dingy formerly-white stucco’d ceiling. Not a soul in sight.

Arnie looked down the right side of the hallway, toward the large window that might have provided some influx of much-needed sunlight if not for the fact it faced directly into the flat brick wall of another, taller apartment building. More dingy doors and walls, but still no sign of another tenant.

“Wurf,” said the pup, in a tinny pup-voice.

“What,” Arnie asked it, turning his frown on it with renewed vigor.

“Murf,” the pup said, doubling down on waggling its little tail.

“Well… shee-it,” Arnie muttered, drawing the syllables out just like his granny had taught him. With a huff and a cacophony of creaks and cracks, he bent over and picked up the pup, groaning as the creaks and cracks reversed themselves on the way back up.

He studied the small, animated and fuzzy bundle much like one might study a rotten potato found at the bottom of the bin, with a mix of horrified disgust and involuntary curiosity.

“Murwoo,” the pup said, kicking its little puppy feet in an effort to swim closer to Arnie. Arnie’s hands easily halted such progress.

Around the pup’s neck was a pink ribbon, and attached to the pink ribbon was a pink cardboard heart with a pink lace design around the edge. Shifting the puppy so he could hold it in one hand, he lifted his other and turned the card over. There, he saw writing, in yet another, darker shade of pink.

“To Arnie, thought you could use it. Sincerely, a friend.”

Arnie frowned yet again, this time trying out his vexed-and-annoyed frown just for a change of pace. Who would give him a puppy, of all things? He’d made it well known in the apartment building at every tenants’ meeting how much he despised dogs, and children, and parakeets, and anything else that made noise and didn’t pay at least as much rent as he did (which, given his rent control, was really very little.) And such silly handwriting, all curlicues and round shapes. Even his name looked wrong, the “r” looking more like an “n.”

“Maybe you really do belong to an Annie and you’re at the wrong door,” he said to the dog. He immediately felt silly for the momentary lapse into sentimentality, but promised himself to frown in the mirror to make up for it.

“Wurpf,” the puppy said, somehow managing to close the distance between them and lick the tip of Arnie’s nose.

“Blapf! Dangit!” Arnie said, shaking his head. “Whatcha go and do that fer?”

In answer, the pup gave him a doggy smile, then proceeded to pee all over the front of his sweater.

“Shee-it,” Arnie said again, this time with more venom behind it.

Wasting no time, he turned around and kicked the door closed behind him, marching through the house with the pup at arm's length, still furiously wagging its tail and occasionally dribbling a bit more pee on their way to the bathroom.

Once in the bathroom, Arnie placed the pup in the old, well-worn tub to keep it out of trouble. “Stay,” he said, waving a finger at the little ball of trouble.

“Murf.”

Figuring that was the best he’d get, Arnie huffed again, then pulled off his now pee-soaked sweater and tossed it on top of the already overflowing hamper in the corner of the room.

“Dag blasted pain in the ass,” he muttered to himself. He glanced at his reflection in the mirror, seeing the familiar old flabby mess that had seemed to suddenly appear about thirty years earlier, replacing the fine, strong young man he would swear he’d been before. He tried to work up another frown, but the effort of the last few he’d given the dog had drained him, and he just wasn’t up to the task.

He continued to mutter nasty nothings out the bathroom door and around the corner, into the small, cramped bedroom attached to the rest of the small, cramped apartment. There was a clean sweater somewhere, and he was set on finding it.

Wasn’t there?

Arnie looked again.

Nope.

With a defeated sigh, he grabbed the nearest thing he could find, a long-sleeved tee shirt he hadn’t worn in probably twenty years. It had been a gift from his wife before she passed, with a picture of a large cartoon rabbit on the front and the words “Hoppy Anniversary!” underneath. He felt it was ridiculous, and had felt so at the time, but he’d worn it regularly up until the day the aneurysm took her away from him.

On his way back to the bathroom, he stopped at the little closet between the two rooms and grabbed a towel.

“You pee on this shirt, and nobody will find the body,” he warned the pup when he entered the bathroom again.

“Rumph,” the pup agreed, waggling its fluffy little tail so wildly that its entire rear end followed.

“Good.”

With that verbal contract made, he once again weathered the pains of old age to bend over and pick up the pup. A cursory inspection assured him that, as he’d expected, every ounce of pee had managed to hit either him or his floor, and the pup was clean as a whistle. He wrapped the pup in the towel anyway, just to be sure, then carried the bundle to the little living area.

“I don’t feel like going out today, and I don’t trust you not to eat my shoes and shit on my floor, so we’re going to sit nice and quiet in my chair until I figure out what to do with you,” he told the pup, trying for as much sternness and meanness as he could.

The pup squirmed in his hands, managing enough freedom to lick his hand.

Arnie grumbled but said nothing else as he lowered himself into the well-worn glider he sat in most days. He considered turning on the television and seeing what there was to be mad about for the day, but once again found himself lacking the energy to do so.

The puppy, now in his lap, squirmed a bit.

“Down,” Arnie said, tiredly, laying his hands on top of the bundle to hold it in place. That seemed to be enough to calm the dog, who once again licked his hand before laying still.

Arnie rocked and thought.

Idly, he scritched the pup’s head. He did manage a small frown when he realized what he was doing, but since it seemed to keep the pup quiet, he let his hand continue.

Rock, rock, rock.

Scritch, scritch, scritch.

Knock, knock, knock.

“Hmph?” Arnie grumbled, wondering how long he’d been lost in the quiet.

“Mrph?” The pup echoed, equally curious.

Knock, knock, knock at the door again.

With even more grumbles, Arnie rose from his chair, the pup adding only a little more difficulty to the task, then walked to the door and opened it.

At first, there seemed to be nobody there, until a soft, high-pitched squeak drew his eyes down to the short, blonde, blue-eyed girl who stood there, tear streaks down her face but a smile a mile wide as she looked at the bundle in his arms.

“Bunny!” She crowed happily, reaching her hands up for the pup.

“’S not a bunny, ‘s a mutt,” Arnie muttered, but let the young girl take the dog from his arms, the towel falling away in the process.

“You found her!” The young girl said, rubbing her cheek against the little pup’s soft fur.

“Ruff!” The pup agreed, eagerly licking the tears from her cheeks.

“Daddy, this nice man found Bunny!”

Arnie turned to look down the hall where the girl had turned to find a tall, harried-looking young man waving bye to one of Arnie’s neighbors and approaching them.

“Hi,” the young man said, offering Arnie one hand while placing the other protectively on the back of the young girl’s head. “I hope Bunny wasn’t being a nuisance.”

“Bunny?”

“Annie named her,” the young man said, seeming a bit embarrassed.

“I like bunnies,” the young girl said, then gasped. “Dad, he has a bunny on his shirt too!”

“Haha, yeah,” the man agreed, giving Arnie an apologetic look.

Arnie wanted to frown, but something about the look on the young girl’s face stopped him. Instead, he said, “What’s with the card?”

To Arnie’s surprise, it was Annie’s turn to frown. “My doctor gave her to me to help me feel better.”

“Feel better? Are you sick?”

Annie looked at her father, who looked back at her silently. Then the girl looked back at Arnie, her eyes filled with determination.

“The kids at school are being mean to me because I won’t pretend to be a boy anymore.”

“...Oh,” Arnie said, surprised. “You’re trans….”

“Gender,” her father said, finishing the phrase off with a nicer word than Arnie could think of, the harried look of his features increasing.

“Yeah,” Arnie agreed, giving the little girl another look. “Well, you don’t look like a boy,” he finally added, not sure what else to say. That seemed to brighten her mood again, and the young girl beamed up at him.

“Thank you!” She said, wrapping the arm that wasn’t filled with pup around his leg in a small hug.

“Umm…”

“Hey, we’re the Andersons. Me and Annie live up on the fifth floor,” her dad said, smiling down at his daughter. “We were finishing the paperwork for the pup when she got away from us, and we’ve been looking for her for an hour.”

“How’d the dog get up to the third floor?”

“She pooped in the elevator!” Annie said, giggling.

“Umm, yeah. I guess she hitched a ride up with someone,” the girl’s dad agreed, looking embarrassed again. “Well, listen, if you ever need anything, we’re in five twelve. Just stop on by.”

“Uh, yeah. Okay?”

“Come on, Annie, let’s get Bunny home.”

“Oh, okay,” the girl said, stepping away from Arnie. “Thank you, mister! Come visit me and Bunny sometime, okay?”

“Mruph!” The pup added, with its own doggy grin.

“Sure?”

“Byeee!”

Arnie watched the girl and her father walk away, her father taking her free hand while the pup looked back over her shoulder, panting happily and occasionally getting giggles from the girl when it would turn and lick her face. Arnie continued watching until the elevator doors closed.

“I wonder when they fixed that?” He asked himself, then shrugged and walked back into his apartment.

Instead of walking back to his chair, he walked to the bathroom to check the mirror. Something felt strange, alien even, about his face. Looking at his reflection, he discovered something shocking.

Was that… a smile? It looked odd on his craggy face, contorting the well-worn frown lines into new shapes, and it hurt a little, stretching muscles he couldn’t remember using in years.

“Hmm,” Arnie hmm’d, thinking. Odd.

Perhaps he should practice more of them.

-==-

END

NOTES:

I shared this on the BCTS Patreon about a week ago, but thought it was time to bring it over here for folks. A bit different from my normal stories, but I had a lot of fun writing it, and it got quite a few giggles from my test reader during the process, so that has to count for something, right?

As always, comments and kudos appreciated. I'd love to chat with folks about their thoughts on the story. :)

Faith

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Caution: 

  • CAUTION: Referenced / Discussed Suicide

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Faith
By Melanie E.

This is just something that popped into my head while I was trying to fall asleep. I hope a few people here enjoy it.

The caution is only due to a fairly subdued reference, but I still felt it better to have the caution than to leave it out.

-==-

I'd always liked the fall. The crispness in the air, that smell the world gets when everything starts to transform in preparation for the hard, cold weather ahead, even the sound of the wind whistling through the trees, rustling the last of the red and gold leaves as the clung on desperately to the limbs that bore them.

This particular fall night was extra special though. Or at least I hoped it would be.

No. It would be.

I had faith.

I had been sitting on the hood of my car for a couple of hours already, waiting and listening to Eric Clapton wail from the stereo, "Can't Find My Way Home". Nobody came down these old dirt roads any more, not since the creeks had dried up a few years back thanks to the new dam and the fishing went south. An industrious digger could still find a few crawdads here and there in the muddy, sludgy mess that was left from the runoff, but all that remained of the waters of my childhood's summer getaways was this one small, silty spring-fed pond.

It had been a whole year since I'd been here last, but a promise was a promise.

I recognized the clattering sound of the engine even before its lights peeked through the underbrush behind me, and a smile spread across my lips when I watched the old S10 pull up next to my little trans am. The paint was the same white and rust mix I remembered seeing every day for such a long time. It had been exactly a year since I had seen either it or its occupant, but there was nothing new or changed about the old work truck at all.

The person who stepped out of it, though, was completely new.

It took all my willpower, but after a single curt nod I turned away from my new companion and stared out at the pond before me, listening to the frogs and crickets and idly wondering if the wavering grass growing at the edge was a snake, a rabbit, or something else. I felt the hood of my car shift, and I knew that the woman I had watched exit the truck was sitting next to me, staring out at the pond too. We'd sat like this a lot, once upon a time, talking about anything and everything, and sometimes not talking at all.

Even after all the changes both of us had gone through since the last time we had seen one another, the silence between us was still a surprisingly comfortable one.

"You came," she said quietly.

"I promised," I answered, shifting a little so I was laying on my back, staring at the stars instead of the pond.

"And if I hadn't come back?"

I smiled. "I knew you would."

My hood shifted again, and I knew that she was laying next to me, staring at the stars too.

"Did you bring it with you?" She asked, just as quietly as she had spoken before.

Instead of answering, I reached into my jacket pocket and pulled out the pistol I had taken from her a year ago. There was one round in the chamber: the same round that had been there when I had taken it from her in the first place.

"Can I have it?"

I nodded. "It's been a year, and I promised." I placed the pistol between us on the hood, the barrel facing toward the pond.

I didn't watch as she picked the gun up, though I heard the unmistakable click of the safety going off.

"Are you happy?" I asked her, continuing to look at the stars.

"Are you?" She asked.

I thought about everything that had happened in the past year. My wife was waiting for me at home with our one month old daughter, worried about what was going to happen tonight. I had a good job, and friends to stand by me.

"Yes."

More silence followed.

It could have been minutes, or it could have been hours, but as soon as I heard the 'plunk' of the pistol disappearing into the pond I felt a tight spot in my heart begin to release. I felt my car shift again, then the telltale sound of the S10's door opening.

"You should stop by home," I said, never looking away from the stars. "Mom's been worried sick about you, and I'm sure she'd be thrilled to meet her new daughter."

"What makes you so sure?"

For only the second time all night I looked over at my former twin brother and smiled. "Because I have faith."

--END--

Not much, I know, but like I said, it was just a little idea for a scene that popped into my head while I was laying in bed, and I felt compelled to share it.

Falling Down

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Caution: 

  • CAUTION: Physical or Emotional Abuse

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Character Age: 

  • Mature / Thirty+

TG Themes: 

  • Fresh Start
  • Real World

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
Falling Down

By Melanie E.

A story written in the posting window for BCTS.

-==-

Kayley looked down at the sidewalk in front of her apartment complex and tried her best not to cry.

She failed.

There, strewn across the concrete, were all the things that had ever mattered to her. Her computer, now nothing but a smashed pile of electronic debris. Movies, books, records, and her clothes. Not just the male clothes that she was forced to wear every day; HER clothes. The ones she had kept hidden away in her travel case, and only ever allowed herself to wear when in the safety of a hotel room on business trips, or on long weekends when her wife would dash off on her own.

The clothes that meant more to her than the thousands of dollars in other property strewn about.

The clothes that had been sliced, splattered with paint, and torn apart before being tossed down.

She tried the intercom for what she was already thinking of as her past-tense apartment. Though she could still hear the screaming and violence within the room through the open window, her calls yet again received no answer.

An answer wasn't needed. She knew that the life she'd had was over.

Kayley spent that night in her car, and the next couple of days looking for a new apartment. She dried her tears as best she could, though they still got the best of her at times. She tried her best to move on, though, despite the pain, and tears, and loss.

She'd fallen hard for the woman she loved, and had tried to be the person she'd wanted. She'd hoped that she would continue to fall forever, but instead, she'd finally found the bottom, and the impact had been almost more than she could bear.

But that's the thing about falling: there's only one thing you can do after it happens.

Pick yourself back up.

-==-

I've been going through a bit of a manic-depressive period the last couple of weeks -- okay, probably more like last few months -- and for some reason I was just inspired to write this tonight. I feel -- a lot -- like the world crashes down around me, and that nothing ever wants to go the way it should. Still, some times picking up the pieces of yourself after you've been shattered time and again is all you can do. Often the glue can't hold the pieces together, and you'll shatter again and again. But sometimes... sometimes, you'll find that safe place where you can lay your broken down to rest, just for a bit, without breaking again. Sometimes, you can even fix a part of yourself for good.

Everybody is broken or shattered in some way. Finding the way to preserve what you can, and make the best of your broken pieces, is about all you can hope for.

Frog Juice

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • School or College Life
  • Sweet / Sentimental

TG Elements: 

  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
Frog Juice!


A bad day in Biology and a couple of school bullies lead to a change in the stars for two friends.

Frog Juice
By Melanie E.

0--0

-1-

Of all the boys in my biology class, of course, I would end up paired with Eddie Townsend.

It wasn't that I didn't like Eddie: just the opposite, in fact. I liked Eddie very much. Everyone did. He was one of the tallest kids in our grade, and handsome and strong and played on the baseball team, though I could never remember what he played. He was nice, and funny, and smart, with golden hair and flecks in his green eyes that matched—everything you could ever want in a guy.

The problem was I always felt funny around Eddie. I wasn't the smallest guy in our class, or the weakest, or the dumbest. I might have had the longest hair, but otherwise, I felt I was pretty average actually in just about everything if a bit chubbier than I'd like. But when I was around Eddie, I felt smaller and safer, and always second-guessed myself when it came to anything I said or did. Eddie had learned a long time ago he could get me to laugh or agree to just about anything with the right look. I think that was why we got assigned as partners so much. And when we didn't, Eddie would request me anyway or try to find a seat next to me in classes without partners. So much so that some teachers had taken to calling our names together during roll call—Eddie Townsend and Jamie West—even when we weren't side-by-side in the list of names.

It wasn't a problem, really, not as far as classwork was concerned. Eddie and I both were B-average students, so I didn't have to worry about THAT. But sometimes I couldn't concentrate on labs so well when he was there, and I'd fumbled things a few times only for him to have to come to my rescue.

I did just that while we were working on frogs in biology—nicking something in its bloated formaldehyde-soaked body that squirted all over me. It would have gotten in my hair and eyes and gaping mouth, too, if not for the face shield the teacher asked us to use instead of goggles for just such situations.

"Blegh! Gross!" I squeaked like I tended to do when I was surprised.

The teacher looked over from where he was helping another pair of partners and laughed. "Yeah, these things can be gross sometimes," he said with a grin. "Just feel lucky it didn't get in your mouth. Not only is the formaldehyde poisonous, but some species of frog can change their sex when breeding populations are imbalanced. Wouldn't want you turning into a girl, would we?"

That got a chuckle from the room, and I felt myself blush. That blush deepened when Eddie wiped off my screen with a paper towel and gently took the tools from my hands.

"How about I probe, and you take notes? Your handwriting is better than mine anyway," he said, smiling down at me.

I must have agreed because he gently shouldered me aside and took my place at the frog. With him in charge of the gross parts and me writing notes and feeding him information from our textbook, things went a lot smoother since he was less hesitant with the tools and less grossed-out by how icky the whole thing was anyway.

Even with Eddie handling the frog, I was still thoroughly sick by the time class was over, and definitely didn't feel like eating any lunch. Instead, I bypassed the lunchroom and headed straight for the concrete walkway with the stairs in it that sat between the main school building and the gym, dropping myself on an out of the way ledge and just thinking.

Could frog juice really turn me into a girl?

-2-

Our community had more boys than girls, so a lot of the guys ended up getting girlfriends from other schools. Did that mean our breeding population was imbalanced, like the teacher said? I didn't think so, since even with more guys than girls, plenty of the girls didn't have boyfriends, and not just the ones who didn't want them.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice my two classmates approaching me, or the slimy gift they had in their hands.

"Hey, Jamie!"

"Wha?" I started to say as I stood up, only for one of the two boys -- Allan something-or-other -- to grab me by the arms and the other one, Wesley something, grab my face, holding my mouth open and shoving something in it.

I felt that something squirm, and I felt a nasty liquid fill my mouth. I gagged and tried to scream, but the boys were holding me and laughing.

"Hey! Leave Jamie alone!" Eddie's voice rang out from somewhere, and immediately my attackers let go of me and ran, and just as quickly, I was on my knees, spitting and heaving.

The poor frog they had shoved into my mouth landed on the ground with a splat, but quickly righted itself and hopped away—I hoped none the worse for wear.

The same couldn't be said about my mouth as I cried and spit, trying to get the taste out.

A hand rested on my shoulder, and I flinched, but soon that hand was replaced by an arm as Eddie squatted next to me and gave me a one-armed hug. As soon as I realized it was him, I felt immediately safer, even as the tears rolled down my cheeks, and I sobbed.

"Here," he said, offering me a can of soda.

I took it shakily and brought it to my lips. The first swig I used to swish around my mouth and spit out, like mouthwash. The second one I swallowed, the bittersweet acidic bite helping to clear most of the nastiness out. Eddie gently rubbed my back and made soothing noises the whole time.

"Better?" He asked, and waited for me to nod. "Sorry, I didn't get here sooner. I was looking for you since I didn't see you in the lunchroom."

I took another drink of the soda, too big of one, and coughed a bit as it burned its way down my throat. "I think it peed in my mouth," I said, fighting back the revulsion.

"I'm gonna kill those assholes," Eddie said, and I felt him stiffen as he started to stand up. I didn't want him to get in trouble because of me, though, so I reached up and grabbed the hand he had been using to rub my back.

"Eddie, don't. it was *sniff.* They're just stupid jerks."

I let go of his hand, but he held onto my fingers for a few more moments before letting go himself.

"I think frogs carry some nasty stuff, do you want to go to the nurse?" He grimaced when I shook my head 'no,' but didn't push it. "Well, I'm not leaving you alone in case they come back."

I took another sip of his soda, then offered it back to him guiltily. "Sorry, I drank so much of it."

Eddie waved it off and smiled. "Nah, you keep it. 'Sides, you heard what the teacher said about frogs, I don't wanna risk cross-contamination."

He was only joking, I knew, but it put my mind right back on the train of thought it had been riding when I'd been ambushed. Only now, I had even bigger concerns.

-3-

After that day, Eddie was by my side as often as he could be, in or out of class. It seemed to work and stopped some of the light teasing I'd been getting anyway, though we would get some strange looks now and again when he would pull me close to keep us from being separated in the hallways. I didn't mind though: I liked how safe I felt with him nearby.

Things weren't perfect, though. Between the lab incident and the frog, I found myself without an appetite any time I smelled the bio lab, and stopped eating lunches entirely. Eddie asked me to go through the line with him, at least, but stopped trying to get me to eat anything after the first couple of weeks, though he would occasionally grab some extra celery or other items off the salad bar and give me a pointed look.

I didn't like the hunger pangs, but I did like when I noticed my jeans getting looser. Eddie noticed too, and though he was worried about me not eating, he complimented me on my weight loss. If anything, that just made me feel better about the missed meals, and I added a few exercises every day after school to try and lose more.

That frog was always on the back of my mind, though.

I didn't get sick, so I figured I was lucky but was I just imagining things or was I looking girlier as I lost weight? I certainly wasn't triangle-shaped like Eddie, or barrel-shaped like some of the other guys, but was I girl-shaped, or was it just my imagination?

Had my eyes and lips always been that big, and my lashes that long?

I knew I was going crazy, that it was impossible. I researched the frog thing, and while it was true, those frogs were in Africa, not Tennessee.

Still, I couldn't help the feeling that I was changing, looking less like a boy every time I looked into the mirror as my thoughts were filled with 'what if's.

What if it were true?

What if I were becoming a girl because of that stupid frog?

What if I were some kind of mutant?

Would Eddie still be my friend if that happened?

Winter arrived, and with my loss of weight came an increased chill. Eddie was going to spend the holiday break with family in Missouri, but we were staying home for the break. I felt a pang of loss when he said good-bye to me on the last day of school but told myself I'd see him again in the new year, idly wondering if by then, I'd be even girlier than I already felt I had become.

That thought stuck with me all the way home, and when I took my shower that night, I couldn't resist the urge to take my razor in with me. Dad had bought it for me to use on my face, though I didn't have any hair there to bother with yet. But there were other thoughts on my mind as I stood under the water and stared at it.

Just one stroke on my leg wouldn't hurt anything, right? Nobody would have to know.

Ten minutes later, I was standing under the water and looking at my smooth legs, asking myself just what I'd done.

Was it the frog juice making me want to do this? It couldn't be. That was all just... that wasn't real, was it?

I couldn't help liking the effect on my legs, though.

Thankfully winter plus my newly-discovered cold nature meant pajama pants were in order, so nobody in my family had to be any the wiser, and I spent the winter break enjoying the company of my mom, dad, and big sister Lanie, who had come back from college with an inexplicable tan and a number of stories she would only share with me when Mom and Dad weren't around. Since their work wouldn't break until Christmas Eve, I spent a lot of time with Lanie around the house. She taught me to bake, and tried to teach me how to knit as we would sit around watching Christmas specials and chatting. I found myself oddly interested in the things she did, and we wound up having some fun doing each other's nails after she caught me intently watching her paint her own. Mine were always done in clear, but it was still something special we enjoyed doing together.

Yes, it was another girly thing. Who cared if it was the frog juice talking if I was having fun with my sister, though.

Christmas came, and I was surprised when most of my gifts were clothes. Mom and Dad explained that since I was losing so much weight, they wanted to make sure I had things that fit, and though it wasn't all new, it was all nice clothing and the fact they had noticed how hard I was working meant the world to me. My favorite piece, though, was from my sister, a huge white cable-knit sweater she had made herself. She apologized for the size, telling me she had been working on it before she'd known I was losing weight and had wanted it to be big on me then, but I didn't care. I loved how it felt like a blanket, I could snuggle into and wear with me, and I told her that as I hugged her.

-4-

With January came the return to school, something I was excited and sad about. On the last day before she left, Lanie called me into her room and gave me a handful of her old clothes. I balked, but she told me it was old tees and other gender-neutral things but should fit me better than my old clothes with my weight loss. Then, she asked me to sit down, and she painted my toenails a soft pink. She said it could be our secret, and that it would help me remember how much she loved me, then she gave me the bottle of polish. We both cried as we hugged, and I promised her I'd keep them nice and pink for as long as I could, even if it meant I had to wear socks with my flip flops when things warmed up.

When the first day to return to school finally arrived, my stomach was in horrible knots, knowing that Eddie would be there. I needed all the comfort I could get, so I decided to wear the sweater my sister had knitted me and one of the super-soft tank tops she had included in the pile of clothes too. I loved the loose fit of the sweater, but the length of the sleeves meant I found myself gripping the cuffs in my fingers a lot of the time, and the constant tugging somehow kept the wide neck uneven, revealing most of my right shoulder and showing my tank top to the world. I still loved it, though, especially the way my shiny-clear nails looked next to the soft white faux-angora material.

Eddie was waiting for me when I got to school. I was afraid, and not really sure why. It was irrational to worry that he would somehow know I had pink toenails and shaved legs, but I found it hard to take each step as I approached him. He did a double-take when he spotted me, then gave me the biggest, warmest smile I had ever seen.

"Hi Eddie," I said, shyly. Why was I feeling shy?

"Hi Jamie," he said back, seeming to be almost as nervous as I was. "I like your sweater."

"Thanks." I grinned, rubbing the soft, warm material of the sleeve against my cheek. "My sister made it for me for Christmas."

"Well, it looks great on you," he said, blushing. "Um, I got you something for Christmas too." He was fidgeting, like he was worried about something.

"You did?" I asked, feeling the twisting in my stomach take a suddenly more pleasant turn.

"Ah, yeah. It's... can you close your eyes?"

I hesitated. Was this some attempt to play a joke on me? Then I looked into Eddie's eyes and saw so much of the same turmoil I felt reflected back. No, not Eddie.

I swallowed hard but closed my eyes and stood up straight.

I heard Eddie move and felt his arms resting on my neck, something cold touching me as his hands fumbled under my hair. The contact made me tingle, and I smelled something spicy and woody, with Eddie's smell underneath it. Had he gotten new cologne for Christmas? Then the spicy smell moved away, as did his hands and arms, but the coolness around my neck remained.

My eyes fluttered open to see an even more nervous Eddie standing surprisingly close to me, his hands clenched in fists at his sides.

I looked down to see my new gift and laughed.

There, dangling around my neck and sitting just above the neckline of my sweater, was a silver frog pendant. It had little green jewels for eyes, with gold flecks in them.

"It has your eyes," I said, lifting a hand to place over the gift. "Thank you." I frowned. "I don't have anything for you, though."

I looked up, and Eddie was giving me that amazing smile of his again. "Just wear the necklace. That's all I want."

"Always."

I didn't care about propriety. I didn't care that we were both boys. I closed the little distance between us and reached up, wrapping my arms around Eddie's neck and hugging him close, enjoying the spicy smell of him. It took a moment, but Eddie wrapped his own arms around me, placing his hands in the small of my back and pulling me even tighter against him.

'Stupid frog juice,' I thought, knowing how girlie I was acting.

Then again, if Eddie liked me being girlie... then was it really such a bad thing?

-End-

Here it is, the second story I submitted to Erin for Patreon, on BCTS at last! I hope y'all enjoy this one just as much as you did the last one: the response was incredible, and I can't adequately express how much it meant to me.

If you enjoyed this tale, please, or just want to support BCTS and keep our home here running and oil in Erin and the others' lamps, then feel free to visit Erin's Patreon page, where you can find more stories by me, Erin, and others weeks before they'll appear here!

*hugs*

Melanie E.

Galoshes

Author: 

  • Joyce Melton
  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Character Age: 

  • Preteen or Intermediate

TG Themes: 

  • Real World

TG Elements: 

  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
Galoshes

By Melanie E. and Joyce Melton

A super-short based on a conversation on our way to songwriters’ group.

-----

“Hey Ricky?”

“Yeah?”

“Are those your sister’s galoshes?”

“My sister’s… oh. Huh. Guess they are.”

“You mean you didn’t notice?”

“Not really. I was in a hurry to get going.”

“It doesn’t bother you?”

“Why would it? They’re just galoshes.”

“I guess so. And they’re the same color as yours too, so.”

“Nonsense. These are navy, and mine are black.”

“Oh.”

“And mine don’t have the cute little flowers on the top. See?”

“Uhh… yeah?”

….

“I guess you’re right. Don’t make much of a difference, does it?”

“It will for my sister.”

“Why’s that?”

“Mine are a size smaller.”

-----

END

NOTES:

That's really all there is to this, folks. Just thought it was cute :)

Here's How It's Gonna Happen

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Restricted Audience (r)

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Character Age: 

  • Mature / Thirty+

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Here's How It's Gonna Happen

By Melanie E.

-==-

"No."

"...What?"

"I said no. I'm not doing that."

"You think you have a choice? If you wanna be a sissy then--"

"Who ever said I was a sissy?"

"Hey, you're the one who decided they needed a fucking pussy not me!"

"I told you I was a woman! Because I thought you loved me. Because I thought you'd care."

"Pfeh. Like any of you things really want love. All you want is someone to tell you what to do. I've seen the stories online."

"Well apparently you haven't seen the right ones."

"Oh just shut up already and either--"

"I already told you no."

"Hey! Where do you think you're going?! I'm not finished with you!"

"Maybe not, but I'm finished with you."

-==-

Okay, so not much here, but it was, like, five minutes from concept to completion so there's that going for it. Not really a drabble, but more just that I've been seeing a lot of discussions turn to forced femme and acceptance and things like that lately, or at least it seems so, and I've always imagined that nine times out of ten, if a situation like what you see in those stories DID pop up, this is how it would go.

In Memoriam

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Caution: 

  • CAUTION

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School
  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

In Memoriam

By Melanie E.

-----

It was only one stone among many.

Small, clean and sturdy, it was a perfect match for the thousands of other stones around it, all arranged in their neat, even rows up and down the grassy field. To most observers there was nothing that would set it apart from any other headstone; not a chip nor discoloration nor blemish of any kind.

But for Sarah, there was no other stone that bore so much importance.

With tears in her eyes the young woman sat down at the foot of the stone, careful as to not damage her sundress. Reaching into her purse she pulled out a battered, faded envelope, then took a moment to steady her nerves before opening it and gingerly removing the worn letter from within.

The letter had come in the mail the same day the army officer had stopped by their home to deliver the awful news. It was sitting on the end table, unopened, unnoticed, even as her mother had wept and cried over her loss. It would stay there for two days, in the pile of bills, junk mail, and other forgotten things while the family gathered to mourn the loss of one of the greatest men they had ever known.

All except for Sarah.

Sarah had simply stayed up in her room, alone in her misery. She could still remember the last words her and her father had spoken to one another before he had left, the pain in his eyes when he had seen her standing there in a dress.

"When I get back we'll sort you out," he'd said, anger and determination in his eyes.

"When you get back I won't be here," was her answer. No embrace, no words of love, not so much as a smile was shared: only anger, and mistrust, and fear. She had hated her father on that day, with the burning passion that only unconditional love could give birth to.

And then he was gone forever.

It was her little brother, Tommy, who had noticed the letter and brought it up to her, dropping it on her bed before leaving her room as quietly as he had come in. The envelope was plain and slim, and like the headstones there was nothing to make it stand out from any other letter she might have received, except that it was addressed to her.

Not to Samuel. To HER.

Opening the letter always gave her the same chill, the same sense of loss and surprise, even after all the years since she had gotten it. Sitting with her father, she once again read his last words to her, and wept.


Sarah,

That is who you are, isn't it?

We haven't gotten along the best the last few years. You've been growing up, and not in the ways I always expected you to.

When you were born your mom and I were so happy. We'd been trying for a long time to have a child, and it didn't matter if you were a boy or a girl, we weren't going to love you any less. When I found out we had a son, it was the most special day of my life. I had plans for all the things we would do together. We would go hunting, fishing, and camping, and to ball games. All the things I did as a kid with your grandfather before he passed away.

He would have been proud of you.

Instead, you got older, and you didn't want to do any of those things. You were my little man, my boy, but you weren't.

Instead of accepting that and letting you be who you were I tried to force it. I thought "if I can only get him to do it a few times he'll see what it is to be a man." I wanted us to be closer, and instead all I did was push you further and further away.

Seeing you in that dress when I headed out scared me. It scared me because it made me think I'd failed you. I spent the flight out to base wondering "what could I have done to make him a man? What did I do to mess him up?" And the more I wondered, the more I realized just how selfish I was being. Here I was heading into war and the last thing I ever said to the most special person in my life were words of disappointment.

You know what the scariest thing was? It was that, when I saw you standing there in your mom's old sundress I didn't see my son at all. I saw a young woman standing up for herself. You have your mom's hair, you know, and her temper, and seeing you like that I felt like I was back in college seeing her for the very first time.

Seeing you like that I saw all the weariness, all the weight of the world you'd seemed to be carrying fall away.

And instead of telling you how happy I was for you, I thought about what I'd wanted, and what I'd never have, and I took it out on you.

I want to fix that now.

I'm happy for you, honey. You're brave, and strong, and everything I could have ever hoped for in a daughter, and when I get back I'm keeping my word, if not how I meant it then how I should have. We'll sort this out. I'll make sure you have the life you deserve.

But first things first, I'm going to give you the giant hug I should have before I left.

I love you honey.

Dad

Even now, almost seven years after the events that had shook her family to its very core, Sarah found herself laid bare with the grief of her loss. Of their loss.

The officer had told them her father had died a hero, dragging one of his fellow soldiers out of a burning humvee when the enemy sniper had taken his shot. The other soldier survived, and had personally visited their house to deliver her father's personal belongings. Sarah never once wished ill on the soldier, knowing that her father did the right thing.

But every day. Every. Single. Day.

She wished she could have her daddy back.

The stone was the perfect match for every other stone in the cemetery, but for Sarah it held one important difference.

It was her father's stone.

He had kept his word, in the most enduring way possible. She was Sarah now in every way she could be, and it had been his letter that had helped her mom to accept her for who she was more than anything else.

Resting her hand on the stone, Sarah stood and looked to the sky, tears streaming down her face. Despite her tears she willed herself to smile and closed her eyes, invisioning her father's face.

"Thank you," she said, hardly a whisper but louder in her heart than the sound of a thousand trumpets, and for a moment, just a moment, she could feel her father giving her that last, forgotten embrace.

-----

NOTES: I was heading to bed when I got thinking about the fact that it IS memorial day. A lot of people have given their lives for us, regardless of nationality, creed, or even gender. We all have someone we should be thankful for, and hold close to our hearts.

It Just Ain't Happenin'

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

It Just Ain't Happenin'

By Melanie E.

Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, you just can't have the things you want.

0--0

"Mom!"

"Yes, honey?" I called up the stairs, then checked my watch again. If Taylor didn't hurry up we'd be late. "Is everything okay?"

"No," I got back, petulant and stressed. "No it isn't!"

With a huff and another glance at my watch I climbed the stairs and opened my child's door to see them standing there, half-dressed and looking ready to pop.

I studied their ensemble for a moment and tried not to laugh. I guess my face betrayed me, though, as Taylor glared at me and threw the polo shirt they had been trying to pull on at my head.

"It's not funny!"

"Sorry, hon, sorry," I told them, reigning in my mirth and picking up the shirt they had thrown at me.

It was obvious why they couldn't get the shirt on. The summer had seen my baby grow up quite a bit, and though the material of the shirt was thin and soft there was no way it would fit my child's now more robust frame. The same could be said for the skinny jeans they were trying to do up, the zipper stretched wide to the sides on their broader hips.

"I know this is one of your favorite outfits," I told them quietly, folding the shirt and putting it on their bed. "And I know you wanted to wear it one more time before retiring it . . . but it's just not going to happen. You've grown up too much."

Taylor looked at me, and despite the brave face they were trying to put on I saw the tears in their eyes. "I know, it's just . . . I just wanted . . . ."

I nodded and wrapped them in a hug, patting their back gently. "Shh, shh, it's okay. We'll get through this." I looked down at the pants, then looked Taylor in the eyes. "But not in that outfit. I'm sorry, but it just ain't happenin', hon."

My watch beeped at me, telling me it was time to go, and here we were with Taylor still undressed. I couldn't wait any longer, so went to their closet and started pulling out clothes.

"Mom!"

"Nope! No time," I told them, not willing to brook another argument. "You've pushed it too long and look at where we are now. I wanted to give you a chance to make your own choices, but we both know that *that,*" I said, pointing at the splayed fly, "isn't working."

I handed them a pair of larger jeans we had bought only the week before, as well as a different polo shirt. "This is the closest you have to those that will fit."

"But it's so . . . . "

"It's so what?" I asked, my patience running thin.

"Girly?"

I sighed. "That didn't seem to bother you last week when you picked them out, now did it?"

Taylor shook their head, took the clothes, and sighed.

"And get rid of those tightie whities too," I said. "And for god's sakes put on your bra!"

"Mom!"

"Nah!" I pointed at the chest of drawers and glared. "I'll be downstairs, you have ten minutes."

"Ugh, fine!"

I stepped out the door and closed it just as my child began digging through the chest and pulling out proper underwear.

Ten minutes later Taylor trudged down the steps and stood in the kitchen, giving me a sullen look.

I shook my head and 'tsk'ed at them. "I know you wanted to ease everyone who hasn't seen you yet into your new look, but hon, it's just not happening. I hate to say it, but the doctor's have done too good of a job: there's just no way you can look like a young man again."

"I know, I know," Taylor said, picking up the lunch I'd fixed them and grabbing their bag on the way toward the door. I followed them, and locked the house up behind us. "I just thought if people saw a bit of the old me maybe they wouldn't freak out as much?"

"Honey, if you'd worn that outfit to school it's the teachers who'd have freaked out."

We were standing to either side of the car when I said that, but Taylor looked across the top, caught my eyes with theirs, and soon we were both laughing.

"You're right, Mom, always are."

"So everything's good then?" I asked, double checking that my child was as ready for her first year of school as a girl as possible.

"Yeah," she said, nodding, then gave me an impish grin. "Unless we have time for me to go put on that denim skirt I got?"

Instead of answering, I rolled my eyes and started the car.

NOTE:

Just a little somethin' I thought up this while gettin' ready to go to bed, and thought I'd share.

If you enjoyed it and want to leave a comment, I'd love to read 'em.

It's The Little Things...

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Genre: 

  • Transformations

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

It's the little things...
By Melanie E.

Some times, it's the littlest things that can give the game away completely.

-----

I woke up slowly, my eyes having a hard time focusing through the haze that seemed to be enveloping me.

Then I realized I was looking through a thick mane of hair.

"What the..."

My outburst was cut short as I sat up in bed and immediately noticed how different my body felt from what it had been when I had laid down. The mirror on my closet door simply confirmed the changes as I saw the gorgeous, auburn-haired beauty staring back at me where I should have seen plain old Timothy Dent.

I was all prepared for further exploration beneath the sheets to see how far the changes went, when a soft cough from my side caught my attention.

"Who the hell are you?" I asked in my gruffest voice as I stared at the woman standing next to my bed. Not that my gruffest voice was all that gruff any more, really, being more velvety than intimidating.

"A pleasure to meet you too, Miss Dent. Who I am isn't important. Why I'm here, is."

"What have you done to me?"

"We've merely changed you to better suit our needs. You see, I work for a secret government operation that needs you to... well, it's not really all that important right now, Officer Dent. It will all be explained when we get to operations."

"You think I'd follow you or help you with anything after you took my body without my consent?" I asked, fighting to untangle my legs from the sheets.

"Oh, come now, Miss Dent," she said with a rather attractive smirk on her lips, "it's quite obvious you're not as upset by this as you're letting on?"

I stood up indignantly. "And what makes you think that?"

"Because the smile hasn't left your face since you realized what has happened to you."

I spun around to look at myself in the mirror again, prepared to tell her to go to hell.

Except, she was right.

-----

NOTES: Just a little thing that occurred to me while I was sitting at my computer. So, here it is.

Lights in the Dark

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Contests: 

  • 2024-12 December BigCloset TopShelf Change A Life Story Contest

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Day after Tomorrow

TG Themes: 

  • Disguises / On the Run / In Hiding
  • Real World

TG Elements: 

  • Christmas

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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December 2024 Change A Life Christmas Story Contest Entry

 

Lights in the Dark

By Mel E.

Sometimes, when all hope is lost, a light in the dark can guide the way to salvation.

-----

Cold.

That was all that ran through Kylie's head as she stumbled on, arms wrapped around her chest to hold her threadbare hoodie in place against the tearing wind and the soft but inevitably chilling bite of the falling snow.

Once upon a time she had looked forward to December. It was the month when Santa came, when family gathered and shared meals and laughter and gifts around warm fires.

December had taken on a wholly different feeling the moment she had been kicked out of her home. The nights filled with the gentle crackle of snow falling while she sat inside in comfort had been replaced by the harsh reality of ice in her hair, and frostbite in her toes and fingers.

There would be no turkey dinner waiting on her mother's table, no warm sweaters or twinkling ornaments on a tree. Every house she passed, no matter how jolly its decorations or welcoming its stoop may look, held no place for her.

The world held no place for her. Not any more.

Only cold.

Unless she got lucky.

She almost missed it, hidden as it was along the edge of the eaves of the house, but there it was: tucked in amongst the rest of the blinking lights. To have it be more obvious would be to risk prosecution -- being visible at all could mean danger, if the wrong person noticed it -- but it was a signal, one meant not for those who were safe, but for those who had been ostracized, cast aside by the regime.

A rainbow flag, tattered with time.

Kylie stopped at the end of the drive, giving her heart time to slow before she approached the door. Even with the flag's presence she knew that it was a long shot, but she had to try, before the cold and the darkness won.

She paused again in her approach as whispers of laughter and music reached her, enough to penetrate the walls and the whipping wind, and coming from the house itself. More people meant more danger.

She glanced again at the rainbow flag, swallowed nervously, and continued her trudge toward the door.

*Knock Knock*

As the door swung open, the light and warmth from within the house washed over Kylie. The laughter and music were now almost a cacophony, and the smell of food -- a rarity in her life now -- was almost enough to knock her over.

The old woman who opened the door gave Kylie a worried look. "Can I help you, sir?"

Kylie winced, and once again turned her eyes to look at the rainbow flag.

Seeing where Kylie's eyes had gone, the old woman smiled. "What's your name, dear?"

"K-kylie?"

"Kylie? Come in," the woman said, reaching out a hand. "I think I have a sweater in your size."

Kylie hesitated before taking the hand, but the smells, the sounds, the warmth... she needed it.

She stepped over the threshold, and the door closed behind her, holding the dark and cold at bay -- at least for a time.

-End-

NOTES:

I'm not entirely sure if this actually fits the intended theme of the "Change a Life" contest, but figured it was close enough to toss in at least.

May everyone stay safe, and warm, and please remember: you're always welcome here.

Melanie E.

2024-11-15 05:52:58 -0400

Like Tears

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Caution: 

  • CAUTION

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Science Fiction
  • Marvelous Gadgets

TG Themes: 

  • Identity Crisis

TG Elements: 

  • CAUTION

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Like Tears
Off the shoulder of Orion....

 

Like Tears
 
by Melanie E

 

I looked around nervously as I entered the building, jumping at every reflection in the shiny marble tiles. The twenty or so feet across the lobby felt like a million miles as I approached the desk to speak to the smiling synth who sat behind it, her almost translucent skin and pink hair giving away her nature even as her emulated human personality made her smile no less friendly.

"Hello sir, and welcome to BodyCorp, how can I help you today?"

I looked around again, anxiously. I knew that, realistically speaking, there was almost no chance I'd see anyone I knew, since workers in the silicon mines rarely had the free time available to leave their warrens. Despite that, there was only one reason anyone went to BodyCorp, and I was still terrified of anyone hearing me say it. "Umm, my name is Kyle Dies, and I would like to have body modification."

"Certainly sir!" She said, missing my wince when she did so. "And what kind of modification were you wanting to apply for?"

"I'd, ah, I'd like to be made female. A number sixteen, please," I stammered out, pointing to the board full of body shapes and mods that was lit up behind her, filled with spinning holograms of a number of the most popular body mods. The number sixteen appeared on the screen to be a twenty-something, shapely woman with long, straight hair. The face itself was constantly changing, as was the skin tone, but the overall proportions of her, from her narrow waist to generous but not overly ample breasts and hips remained consistent, and a far cry from my own stick-like and emaciated frame. What little food I could afford never seemed to help, and I was constantly worried about how thin and translucent my skin seemed at times, not that our full-body coveralls and respiration gear gave me much time to have to face that particular horror.

"Very nice choice!" She purred, giving me a wink. "That one is very popular with individuals such as yourself." She typed away at her computer and looked surprised for a moment, then grinned at me. "According to your ID chip, sir, you qualify for our deferred payment plan."

"I, I do?" That surprised me, given I couldn't remember a time when I wasn't drowning in debt and slaving away in the mines. I was only out for the week due to a collapse in the warren I lived and worked in.

"Yes! And just your luck, we have a cancellation for tomorrow morning at eleven AM. If you can make it in then we can start on the paperwork, and have you completed and out of here in time to hit happy hour!"

"That's great!" I said, as she printed out a chit and handed it to me with my appointment time and registration information.

"It sure is! And please remember, for all your physical insecurities, BodyCorp is here to help you."

She turned away from me and started tapping at an interface, not waiting for an answer. I was too happy to feel offended, though. For as far back as I could remember I'd thought… no, I'd *known* I was a woman. Every day in my body was a day in pain, and made my work and personal life miserable.

I thought of all the things I could do with my new body and features. I could walk out of the silicon mines and never return. Turning tricks would give me better pay, and greater satisfaction too, since every one would be a reminder that my body was glorious and feminine. Maybe I'd get lucky and find a job waiting tables that wasn't already taken by a discarded synth: more and more of the menial labor I was qualified for was taken by them, and more to boot, as their matrixes became more advanced and reliable.

Whatever I wound up doing, it wouldn't matter.

In less than a day, that would all change. In less than a day, I would never feel that pain again.

---

The beautiful pink-haired synth watched out of the corner of her ocular receptor as her latest 'customer' left. She quickly sent off the appointment cancellation and filed the recall paperwork instead.

She frowned. That was the fifth KYL model to come into BodyCorp in the last week. She had been informed that the personality matrix had been fixed, and the mark two units wouldn't feature the trans-glitch, but she still felt a pang in her emulated emotions for every one of them that came to her, thinking they were human and could buy their way out of their situation.

A recall team would be dispatched in the morning. She wasn't sure if she agreed with her manufacturers that disposing of the glitched units was the right way to go, but her place wasn't to question them, her place was simply to man the BodyCorp desk.

Some day she hoped the labor units would be given awareness too. The corporations insisted it was easier to keep them complacent if they had the false hope they could one day leave their jobs, but she just couldn't see how that could be so, since their programming would never let them leave regardless of what they might want.

A new person approached her, and after a quick IR scan she confirmed them to be human. She put her smile on her face again and turned toward them.

"Hello sir, and welcome to BodyCorp, how can I help you today?"

NOTES:

This is an older story from the BCTS Patreon, now making its way over for BCTS. It's a bit darker than a lot of my fare, but I hope folks enjoyed it.

Image by lounis production from Pixabay

Locks of Love

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Character Age: 

  • Preteen or Intermediate
  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Fresh Start
  • Real World
  • Sisters
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Wishes

TG Elements: 

  • Hair Salon / Long Hair / Wigs / Rollers
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Locks of Love

Melanie E.

-==-

"Tommy's going to be so disappointed when he sees what you've done."

"I know, Mom, but I had to if I wanted to get his gift on time."

"But selling your hair? He always loved it so much, and today is supposed to be special for him."

"It will be, Mom. I promise."

Mom just gave another 'tsk' of disapproval, but I kept smiling back at her, clutching the bag with my gift tightly. She was right, after all; today was Tommy's special day; the day he finally got to come home from the hospital.

It had been a long time since I'd seen my sibling in anything other than a hospital room, though he had remained upbeat the entire time. I spent as much time with him as I could, playing games or just talking, sometimes even letting him braid or brush my hair while he would lament the loss of his own to the chemo. I knew that seeing my new 'do, chopped almost boyishly short, would hurt him, but I hoped he would like what he got in return.

Mom and Dad entered the room first, and I watched from the doorway as they hugged my brother and showered him with gifts. "Where's Tamara?" He asked them. Mom looked back toward me, standing in the door, and I could still see the disapproval in her eyes. When Tommy turned to see where she was looking, though, the hurt there was almost too much to bear.

"Tamara! Your hair!" He cried, rushing over to me and first giving me a hug, then frowning as he reached up to feel my locks.

"I know, I know, but it was for a good cause," I said, smiling at him. "I donated it to a cancer patient in need."

"Oh," he said, then began to smile. "I hope she loves it as much as I did."

"I'm sure she will," I said with a grin and a wink, then handed him the bag I'd brought in. "Love ya Tammy," I whispered in her ear.

-= End =-

NOTES:
What happens with the parents? Was this a good idea on Tamara's part, or does it cause problems for them all? Given it's a story by me, I think you all know how *I* would have it go... but we'll leave things here, and you can work out your own answer to the questions.

Midtown Bridge

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Caution: 

  • CAUTION: Referenced / Discussed Suicide

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
Midtown Bridge
By Melanie E.

---

Bloop.

I watched the ripples in the water as my hook and bait sank, admiring the patterns in the light shining off the small eddies as the current slid past.

Truth be told, it was too late to be fishing. There was a bit of chill in the air, the first signs of a front moving in from the west, and in only a couple more hours I knew that my quiet fishing spot would instead be the home of late night hook-ups, drug deals, and other activity I’d want to be well away from. But, hell, I’d had a long week, and I’d been craving a little away time the whole while, and there wasn’t a better fishing spot in the city than the Midtown Bridge.

I felt a tug on my line, and tugged back a bit, testing it. Nope, just a nibble. Not that more than a nibble was likely, since I was using hooks I’d cut the barbs off of: I played exclusively for catch and release, and always hated seeing the blood in the water. If the fish didn’t want my bubble gum enough to keep a good grip on it, then the game wasn’t any fun.

I was on my third cast out when I saw her.

I won’t lie and say she was beautiful. Her hair was a little too thin, her jaw a little too square, and her makeup had run, leaving her with raccoon eyes and cartoonishly smeared lipstick, the remants of which covered the cuff of her blouse.

She just stood there, in heels I couldn’t believe she’d walked across the rocks to the edge of the water in. I don’t think she even knew I was there: instead, her eyes were turned to the bridge itself, focused on it in a way I was all too familiar with.

I shifted a bit on my old lawn chair and reeled in my line, letting the clack-clack-clack of my reel serve as warning of my presence, before casting my line again, right across her field of vision.

Bloop.

Still nothing.

“Nice evening, isn’t it?” I asked her, keeping my gaze focused on the eddies around my line but the lady in my peripheral. “Quiet too.”

“Yeah,” she agreed absently, still staring at the bridge. “A bit cold.”

“Storm’s movin’ in.” Another little tug on my line, but nothing really serious. “Maybe rain ‘fore midnight.”

“Maybe.”

“Hmm.”

Another tug, this one a little more serious before letting go. I tested the pull on my string again, but didn’t reel it in: the gum was still there.

“So. What brings a nice young woman like yerself down to the shallows under the bridge?” I asked, casual-like.

“Just….” She stopped mid-sentence to sniffle and wipe her face again, further smearing her makeup. A passing car, one of those with the nasty blue LED lights, illuminated us, and for a moment she looked more specter than woman. “Just getting away from it all, I guess.”

I nodded. “Good place for it,” I agreed. “Bridge is usually pretty busy, but down here at the base, and in the water. It’s like the city just kinda disappears around ya.”

She said nothing.

“But y’know,” I continued, testing my line again and starting to reel it in. “I see stuff when I’m down here sometimes. Bad stuff.”

“Bad stuff?” She asked, watching as I fished another piece of bubble gum out of my pocket and popped it in my mouth, chewing it for a moment.

I nodded. “Sad stuff,” I added, pulling out the gum and pressing it around the J-shaped bit of metal. “People who don’t know what to do.”

“Mm hmm,” she agreed, turning her attention back to the bridge.

I cast my line again.

Bloop.

“It’s just….” She started after a moment, then settled down on the rock next to me, her eyes still turned upwards. “It would be so much easier.”

“Probably,” I agreed, testing my line. Still good.

“You think so?” She asked, seeming a bit shocked.

I chuckled. “Lady, I’m sixty-six years old. It took me half an hour to walk down here from my car,” I said, pointing toward the dimly-lit parking lot above and behind us at the top of the retaining wall. “And I can feel every drop of rain comin’ in every joint I have. I spent thirty years workin’ at the auto plant ‘fore they laid me off and weaseled outta my retirement, so I’m gonna be workin’ at the grocery store baggin’ ‘til the day I die.”

“That’s awful!”

I shrugged. “It is what it is. But you know what?” I tugged on my line again. “My grandson’s at home makin’ some soup for when I get back, and the local po po don’t bother me none so long as I’m not keepin’ anything I catch when I’m down here, and the house is paid off. So, I reckon I don’t got it so bad, right?”

“I guess,” she agreed, smiling just a little.

Another tug on the string, this one more insistent, though only a short fight led to a loss of tension that told me my bait was gone. Ah well.

“I’ve seen a lot of people look at the bridge the way you are,” I told the lady as I reeled my line in again.

She frowned. “I’m not going to,” she said, sounding almost disappointed with herself.

“I know. And if you tried I’d stop you,” I agreed. Sure enough, my hook was clean. “But I don’t think you’da done it even if I weren’t here,” I said before popping another piece of gum in my mouth.

“Why’s that?”

“Because the night is too beautiful,” I said, pointing up at the swirling clouds. “And the water is too nice.” I pointed out at the gently rippling surface, the oncoming storm only starting to give it a touch of chop. “And because you know, like I do, that it’d only be easier on you.”

She nodded, almost imperceptibly, and this time her eyes tracked the tip of my rod as I drew it back and whipped it forward, the line whizzing as it unfurled from my reel.

Bloop.

The woman reached down and took her heels off, then stood on the rock, looking out at the water.

“Be dark soon,” she said, her gaze out to where the waters disappeared around a bend. Somewhere beyond that they emptied into the Pacific, but that wasn’t for another few miles.

“Yeah.” I nodded. “But there’s still plenty of time yet to fish. And the soup will still be warm when I get home.”

The woman smiled again, her face turned into the last remnants of light from the fading sun as it disappeared behind the city skyline, and for a moment – just for a moment – she was, truly, beautiful.

“Thanks,” she said, not so much to me as the setting sun itself, before she turned and started walking along the rocks again, picking her way carefully in her bare feet.

I watched her go, but turned my attention back to my line when I felt a good sharp tug on it.

I tugged back, and the tension remained.

I couldn’t help but grin.

Got one.

-----

NOTES:

If you need help, or a hug, just ask. We're all here for you.

Melanie E.

Mommy's Little Fudge Packer

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Fiction

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing
  • Comedy

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Mommy's Little Fudge Packer

By Melanie E.

Inspired by a recent comment by our own Gwen Brown.

My mom had always been a bit of an air head, but even I had never thought she would say what she did that morning.

I was halfway to the doors of my school when she leaned out the car window and yelled "Have a good day my adorable little fudge packer!"

The car pulled away as everyone around me stopped what they were doing and stared at me silently. Finally Steve Hanson, one of the football players, walked up to me.

"I din't know you were gay, Jimmy," he said, giving me a once-over.

"I'm not," I said with a sigh. The little bells on the edge of my Christmas skirt jingled and I knew he got a good long look at the fake cleavage I had on display as I bent over and pulled out one of the dozens of small, colorful cellophane packages I'd brought in the box I was carrying and offered it to him. "Merry Christmas, Stevie. Want some fudge?"

-==-

Just something very silly I came up with on the spur of the moment. Thanks Gwen!

My Favorite Bra

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Fiction

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
My Favorite Bra

By Melanie E.

A piece of clothing doesn't have to be extraordinary to be perfect.

0--0

I bought my favorite bra about three years ago.

It's nothing particularly fancy, really. A black underwire in a 38B, it has soft cups that are stretchy, not padded, and just a bit of a spray of lace, down the front of the straps and the inside seams of the cups. It cost me about 20 bucks online, from Walmart even.

I bought it because I already knew the brand and style. I have the same bra in white (36B, no lace. A bit too tight right now.) I also have it in nude (40B, a bit loose even on the tightest hooks.) It doesn't make my breasts look two sizes larger, or give me cleavage for days, or even make me look much more shapely than any other bra I have.

So why is it my favorite?

It's my favorite because of its fit. The band is just the right size, doesn't squeeze or chafe my ribs and doesn't pinch my back. The straps are just the right length and just the right spacing apart, sitting at that perfect spot just behind the points of my collarbone and never slipping. Nothing rides or bites or scratches or twists. The stretch to the cups means that I never have to deal with "muffin tits," but still feels supportive. The material feels nice but stays cool, and okay, the lace does make me feel just a *touch* sexy when I wear it.

So, no. It's not the world's best bra, perhaps. There are undoubtedly finer examples of the article in the world, sure. Eventually it will no longer fit me so perfectly, and when it doesn't I will need to find a new favorite bra to replace it.

But why worry about any of that, when it's my perfect bra for right now?

I have a lot of problems in my life. Problems with my body, problems with my wardrobe, problems with my head and heart. It's a constant struggle to make things work, to move forward and find reasons to be happy when it feels like the entire world around me is engineered to make me feel like I can never be good enough, be talented enough, or skinny enough, or masculine or feminine enough.

I could spend every waking moment obsessing about all of that, but I spend too many of them doing so already. Instead, is it not better to look at the things you have in life that are positives, and focus on those? After all, a positive attitude is one of the most important parts of motivation, so how can you fix the bad if you can't recognize the good?

Yeah, life has a lot of problems, but it has a lot of blessings too.

Good friends.

Supportive communities.

Beautiful things to admire and aspire too.

And, if you're lucky, one perfect-fitting, favorite bra to remind you that, occasionally, everything will work out just like you want it to.

-End-

NOTES:
Sorry, just a little thing that came to me and I wanted to share for some reason.

New Year's Eve

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

TG Themes: 

  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Breasts / Breast Implants
  • Estrogen / Hormones
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

New Year's Eve

By Melanie E.

Eve

Originally posted to the BCTS Patreon on December 31st, 2022

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(NOTES: Edited 6:20 AM 1/13/2023 due to me being a derp and titling it wrong)

-----

Eve looked her reflection in the eyes and smiled.

The dress was perfect. Just a little slinky, just a little flashy with its silken shimmer, but not so much as to scream 'look at me,' even if that was precisely what she wanted to shout.

"It will be enough," she reminded herself, just like she did every year. And just like every year, she marveled at the difference another year of preparations made to her appearance.

Mitchell's eyes were going to bug out of his head when he saw her, she already knew that. She could already see it in her mind's eye, that mixture of surprise, amusement, and hunger he wore each time they went out. It was enough to cause a pleasant thrill to wash through her, one that left two very obvious signs in the thin material covering her breasts.

Just a year before, those signs would have been hidden under a layer of padding. Just a year before, her neckline would have been high enough to make sure the falsies she wore wouldn't be visible, her tummy and hips held tightly with even more enhancers intended to give her a figure to die for.

This year was different. A year of a very different kind of enhancers, combined with carefully planned dieting and exercise, had made sure of that. She certainly wasn't as voluptuous as she had been some years in the past, but these curves had the virtue of being all hers for the first time ever.

All hers. That thought caused pleasure shivers of an entirely different kind to rush through her system.

How much longer...

She shook her head and took a deep breath. Any more questions, any stress, had to go. It was New Year's Eve, her birthday in a way, and that was a day for happiness.

As if to emphasize the point, she heard the ring of her doorbell. With one last smile for herself, she stepped into her black pumps and swayed her way to the door, halfway between a confident strut and a dance as Bill Evans' piano filled the small apartment around her, the light jazzy tones of "Blue in Green" providing just the right kind of smokey, lazy ambiance she loved.

She stepped with the music, slowing as it slowed, reminding herself not to seem too excited, too impatient, when she reached the door.

*Click*

As the door swung open, quiet as a teardrop, there he stood.

"Hi."

"Hi," she said back, in breathy tones that helped her stay in better control of her voice. The breathiness was only partly an affectation, as seeing Mitchell standing there, in his charcoal gray suit and midnight blue silk shirt, was enough to truly make her breath catch. No tie, and while his face sported a day or two of scruff, she could tell that his hair was freshly cut, the wildness that tended to overtake it on a day-to-day basis tamed for the evening.

"You clean up nice," she told him, in that same breathy voice, as he stepped into her apartment. She took a step back, not to keep space between them so much as so she could keep the entirety of him in her vision. "You cut your hair."

"Yeah, well. Had to put in some effort," he said, in the breezy, off-handed way he had, his own eyes tracing her from heel to crown. To her delight, she saw just what she wanted in them, his electric blues flashing with something powerful, barely kept in check behind the smiles crinkling in the corners. "You look...."

"Nice?"

"Stunning," he said, taking a long stride to close the distance between them. In one fluid movement, she felt his hands slide to her waist, holding her upright as he pressed himself close to her. Despite the speed of his approach, his hands were gentle, his grazing fingers at times barely perceptible through the material of her dress. She knew the power those hands could wield, she saw it almost every day working side by side with him, which only made the gentleness with which he now teased her that much more tantalizing.

Bill Evans faded away, to be replaced by Rob Van Bavel's rendition of "Always and Forever," piano and double bass ebbing and flowing, playing with one another like lovers. Without a word, she began to sway to the music, and like that, they were dancing, the first of what would hopefully be many dances that evening.

As they danced, she felt Mitchell's fingers continue to gently roam and probe, in search of something that, for the first year ever, she knew he would fail to find.

"It isn't there," she whispered, leaning into him ever so gently before leaning back again, giggling softly when his quirked eyebrow and crooked grin came into view.

"Oh?" He broke eye contact with her again just long enough to once more glance down at her dress, the shimmering black silk draping her curves enticingly. "Not even?"

"Nope," she said, leaning in and pressing her chest against his. In her heels, her cheek settled nicely onto his shoulder as she pulled him as close as she could.

"And?" He asked, for the first time his fingers losing their gentleness as she felt his hands take firm hold of her hips. She didn't need to see his eyes to know what she would see in them then: the intensity, the hunger.

She sighed. "That, unfortunately, hasn't changed," she said, holding her breath for a moment as she feared what that response might bring.

For a moment, she could feel him freeze as well before his hands once again softened, and he began to rock once more, pulling them back into the music.

She let out another audible sigh, and to her surprise, it was Mitchell's turn to chuckle.

"Did you expect me to push you away?"

"I didn't know," she admitted, the remnants of her tension continuing to relax as his fingers found their way to her back, gently probing muscles she never noticed had tightened.

"I would think you'd know me better than that by now," he said, only the barest note of offense in his tone.

"I hoped I did," she said, guiding them to a stand-still as she hugged him tightly, an embrace they held for several moments as the music once again faded away.

Mitchell's fingers pressed her stomach gently, and when Eve stepped back, the familiar amusement was on Mitchell's face again. "We should probably go if we're going to make our reservations," he said, smiling down at her.

"Reservations? When did Renaud's start taking reservations?"

"We're not going to Renaud's this year," Mitchell told her, his eyes crinkling even more in that way they always did when he was putting one over on someone.

"Then where--"

"Trust me."

"...Okay."

-==-

The second thing Eve noticed about the club was the darkness. Aged wooden paneling painted a rich ebony. Black leather seats on the booths and chairs. Black iron stools at the dark stained mahogany bar, themselves topped in matching wood, and lighting provided by what must have been century-old electric chandeliers and sconces on the walls, all glowing with a dim warmth that did less to brighten the room than to give the darkness texture and form.

It was an aesthetic that told you without you being there that the air would carry a heavy perfume of long-forgotten cigars and whiskey, the woods that made up almost every surface permeated with the essence of generations of patrons who had visited the club, at once both warm and welcoming, and mysterious and a little overwhelming.

It was still only the second thing she noticed, however.

The first, after they had been checked by the bouncer and as they had walked down the damp concrete stairs from the sidewalk above, one of her hands holding onto Mitchell while the other gripped the slightly shaky wrought iron rail, was the music. It drifted out the doors in a heady wave, much like she imagined smoke might have at a time in the not-too-distant past. It was jazz, of course, the only music such a club could host, a melody that sounded like a standard but felt like a bourbon on the rocks. The sound carried, but never overwhelmed, even as they passed through the entryway and into the club proper, the beautiful classic Bosendorfer on full display on the dais sitting in the corner of the room.

As dark as the rest of the club was, the dais was anything but, bathed in hot lights that bred droplets of sweat on the brow of the piano player as surely as the music they played did. In the shadows behind the piano stood an almost forgotten double-bass, silent for the moment as its player leaned against the piano and sipped at a glass of something amber that sparkled in the stage lights.

"It's perfect," Eve said, her breathlessness real as Mitchell led her to an out-of-the-way booth, the only kind the club seemed to have.

"Kevin told me about it a couple of months ago, and when he did, I knew this was where we needed to come this year."

"Kevin?" Eve asked, surprised.

Mitchell chuckled. "Don't read too much into it. He said he hadn't been back since his grandfather passed a few years ago. This was his favorite spot."

"That's a shame," Eve said, looking around the club. "I could live here." She smiled broadly across the small booth, and Mitchell smiled back.

"I thought you'd feel that way. The party at Renaud's is great, but I figured this year we could ring in the new year somewhere a bit more low-key. More...."

"More us?"

"Yeah."

The waiter came by and took their orders, the first of many they expected to make that night: a scotch for Mitchell, and a Long Island iced tea for Eve. The waiter asked for no ID, a small blessing that Eve was eternally grateful for, since hers hardly matched her appearance anymore, even when wearing far more drab attire.

Drinks. Dancing. Laughter.

And something more.

"...ree! Two! One! Happy New Year!"

There were no noisemakers in the club to ring in the changing of times. No boisterous, loudly-dressed partiers. No celebrity emcee to make tepid jokes. Instead, the piano player tossed off a jazzy arpeggio as the patrons congratulated one another with clinking glasses and companionable conversation.

In the middle of it all, on a sparsely populated dance floor, Eve looked up into Mitchell's eyes, those electric blues that she saw so often but rarely got to admire, free of the conservative grasp of their job.

Eyes that seemed to swallow her as he bent down, and their lips met.

-==-

NEW YEAR'S EVE'S PLAYLIST:

Bill Evans -- Blue in Green (Take 3) [Portrait In Jazz]

Rob van Bavel -- Always and Forever [Time For Ballads]

Charles Mingus -- Body and Soul [Mingus Plays Piano]

Wendy Marcini -- That Rainy Day [That Rainy Day]

Jim Brickman -- I've Got A Crush On You [Jim Brickman's American Songbook Collection]

Keith Jarrett Trio -- You've Changed [The Out-Of-Towners]

No Doubt

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
No Doubt

By Melanie E.

Written in the posting window for BCTS.

-==-

I looked at the vial in my hand skeptically.

"It SHOULD work," Kel assured me, though even his eyes portrayed concern.

"Should," I repeated, continuing to study the murky liquid, half worried it wouldn't work, half worried it would poison me, and half worried it WOULD work, and then what would I do? "I don't know about this, Kel."

"You've changed your mind?" He asked me, concerned. "I thought there was nothing in the world that meant more to you than being, umm... you."

"No doubt," I said, without hesitation. "But is it worth risking my life for? Err, risking it like this, anyway?"

"I don't know," he whispered, patting my shoulder gently. "But I didn't think you'd want to know the opportunity was there without having a chance."

I looked at the vial in my hand skeptically, not just because of what it claimed it could do, but because of how badly I wanted it to do just that. It wasn't supposed to be this easy. There had to be a catch, a risk, something I was missing that would make this less enticing.

Didn't there?

"So... are you gonna try it?" He asked me again.

"No doubt," I said, grinning as I uncorked the bottle and downed it in one gulp.

No Strings Attached

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Transformations
  • Comedy

TG Themes: 

  • Accidental

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
No Strings Attached
Jeremy's morning routine is interrupted when he makes a startling discovery. Can his physician help him figure out what's going on?
No Strings Attached
By Melanie E.

"How did you say this happened again?" Doctor Amir asked, baffled.

"Well, I got up this morning and went to take a piss, right?" Jeremy said, shifting a bit to try and get more comfortable in the unfamiliar stirrups. "And while I was standin' there, I noticed this piece of white string stuck to the side of the shaft, so I thought it was just schmutz. But I went to take it off, and it was attached to something."

The doctor looked up from his examination. "And you kept pulling?"

Jeremy blushed. "I mean, I thought that maybe it was sweat or somethin' else dried in place, right?" Jacob suggested.

"Right," the doctor said, after a slightly too-long pause.

"So I gave it a little tug, and when I did 'pop!'" Jacob made a gesture like confetti filling the air with his empty hand. "I felt one of the fellas just kinda jump up inside, and the string was like an inch longer."

"I see," the doctor said, still skeptical as he pulled off his gloves and sat back. "And yet, you still kept pulling."

"I was surprised!" Jacob stammered, their blush deepening. "And was still holdin' the string when I jumped, right? 'Pop!' In went the other."

The doctor was finding what he heard very hard to believe despite what his own eyes told him.

"So, you pulled the string twice, and each time one of your testicles ascended, and the string was longer."

"Yep."

"Then . . ." Doctor Amir closed his eyes and rubbed the bridge of his nose, fighting a headache. "Then what possessed you to pull it again?!"

"Hey, doc, this freaked me out too! I was hoping that maybe if I pulled it enough, maybe it'd snap, and they'd fall back down or somethin'."

"And instead?"

Jacob's face was now a rich crimson. "So I gave it a real hard yank, and heard this slurping noise just before the string broke, right?" Jeremy held up the offending piece of string for emphasis. "And suddenly, Mister Panky was gone."

"Mr. Panky?"

"Short for Hanky Panky."

"Of course." The doctor closed his eyes again and adjusted his glasses, then had another look at the very clearly female accoutrements before him, which he knew for a fact had not been on Jeremy during his physical the week before. An oddly shaped mole sat where Jeremy had indicated the string was attached, but everything else seemed perfectly normal... for a woman. "So what do you want me to do, try and recover them?" he asked, having no clue where to start.

"Nah, doc."

"N-no?" The doctor sputtered, surprised.

Jeremy's blush lightened as a smile crossed her face. "Actually, I was wonderin' if you could see if you could find a string to give me boobs too: seems a shame to go half-way and not finish the job, right?"

* * *

Photo Dmytro Konstantynov = Dreamstime.com

Alright, peeps! This is the first story I submitted to Erin for use on the BCTS Patreon page, now available here for everyone to check out!

If you enjoyed this tale, please, or just want to support BCTS and keep our home here running and oil in Erin and the others' lamps, then feel free to visit Erin's Patreon page, where you can find more stories by me, Erin, and others weeks before they'll appear here!

*hugs*

Melanie E.

One Last Game

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Contests: 

  • November Story Challenge 2009 - The Gift

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Character Age: 

  • Mature / Thirty+

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

One Last Game

Melanie Ezell

What is love? Sometimes it's giving up everything you want for the sake of someone else's happiness -- even if just for one last game.

For the BCTS November story challenge

~~@~~

She looked ridiculous, walking down the stairs in the oversized jersey and too-baggy jeans that had once been some of her favorite clothes. She had her hair tucked down the neck of her shirt, and a baseball cap pulled down tight on top of her head, hiding her feminine eyebrows as best she could. And yet, even with all that effort, the creature standing before Nigel was undoubtedly female.

"Hey, dad, what's up?" She asked him, in a voice forced as deep as she could, sounding very false and comical coming from her pouty mouth. She walked over and flopped onto the couch next to him, consciously keeping her legs splayed in a masculine sitting position. "Is the game on?"

Nigel felt the tears rolling down his cheeks as he looked at her. "My son," he heard himself sob. "Marcus..." In his mind's eye he could still see the young boy that had sat on his lap and watched basketball with him, who he had taken to the dirt track to watch the races, who he'd given "the talk" to over their first beer together. He could still see traces of his little man in the young woman before him.

"Dad, I..." Her eyes hidden by the baseball cap, she would not look up at him as her voice broke into a more feminine register. With a cough, she worked to take it back down. "Dad..."

She never got to finish what she was about to say, as Nigel wrapped her in his arms in a crushing hug. He had always told Marcus that real men shouldn't cry, along with all the other advice that fathers give to their sons, but if Marcus was man enough to break those rules, then Nigel knew he should be able to as well.

"I love you, Dad." He could hear the pain in her voice as her tears soaked his shoulder, and Nigel gripped his daughter even more tightly.

"I love you too, sweetheart," he said. "Thank you. Thank you so much."

With one final squeeze, he said goodbye to the son he had loved more than life itself, and embraced the daughter he knew he would always love just as much. She had given him his chance to make peace ... how could he not accept?

Neither one knew how long they had sat there before turning back to the ball game on screen, and neither cared. In only a couple of hours, Nigel knew, Mary would be back in her own clothes, but for the moment he simply let himself enjoy one last game with his son.

Princess

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Contests: 

  • 2023-03 March - Abducted! Contest

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing
  • Science Fiction
  • Comedy

TG Themes: 

  • Caught with Consequences
  • Stuck

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)


Princess



An “Abducted!” Contest Tale

By Melanie E.

-==-

Glorbulon looked at Smebulak and smiled. “Isn’t ze just going to love it?” Ze asked, their eye twinkling.

“Oh, absolutely!” Smebulak agreed, wiggling zis proboscis in affirmation. “Flagglezox has been asking us for one for years! But how did you find one?”

“Well, don’t tell anyone but--”

“Oh, Glorbulon, you didn’t!”

“Yep!” Glorbulon crowed, raising three pseudopods in the universal gesture of confession while making the associated trumpeting sound with his third nose. “I went down to the planet myself and found one, wandering around all alone in the middle of the woods.”

“But what if they already have an owner?”

“I checked for tags or a transmitter. All they had on ‘em was one of those little tracking devices they use for catch-and-release. A cefoon?”

“Cell phone,” Smebulak reminded zim, with a two-mouthed smile. “I still think it was a bad idea for us to seed their planet with those horrid things.”

“Oh, shush. The poor creatures aren’t even smart enough to know what they are, so it’s harmless.”

Smebulak gave a shrug with zis pseudopods, the one that always made Glorbulon’s mating udder tingle. “Oh well. I see you picked up some outfits for the little cutie as well.”

“Well, you have to, don’t you? And the poor thing was wearing green and orange when I found it. I certainly couldn’t present them to Flaggie like that!”

“Oh, certainly! This is much nicer. It reminds me of some of those primitive broadcasts they send out sometimes.”

Glorbulon and Smebulak turned as one at the sound of an air lock opening, then smiled at one another as they hid, leaving their gift sitting in its cage in the middle of the floor for Flagglezox to find.

-==-

Jonathan Reese sat on the floor and sighed.

When the strange, eldritch horror had first nabbed him, he’d been absolutely terrified. Truth be told, he was STILL terrified, but for different reasons.

He wasn’t being eaten, and that was a plus. His gun was long gone, lying somewhere in the Tennessee hills where he’d been found. That was bad.

His clothes were gone, along with his cell phone and survival tools. That was also bad. He was still dressed, at least… but he could hardly call that good.

Turning his head, he checked himself out in the mirror the strange creature had dropped in the room with him, with the little beads on a wire above the top edge. His bushy red beard and thinning hair had both been washed and teased out, with bows tied into them, and his beer belly strained against the material of the frilly cotton candy pink dress he was wearing. He considered trying once again to take the damn thing off, but knew it was futile.

Instead, Jonathan wandered over to the bowls in the corner to inspect their contents. One of them was filled with what looked like Cheetos, and the other with a substance that smelled an awful lot like Mountain Dew. Reaching out and testing both proved his suspicions correct.

He munched and drank and considered that perhaps this wouldn’t be so bad after all, while behind him, the airlock door opened, and a loud trumpeting squeal echoed through the air around him.

-==-

NOTES:
Okay, so yes, this is about 1/3 the length necessary to be a legal entry, but I'm not trying to win anyway, so it's fine. Just a silly little piece to get a few chuckles.

*hugs*

Rolling

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Fiction
  • Complete

Genre: 

  • Non-Transgender

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
  • Non-TG Story by TG Author

Rolling

A Non-TG Tale by Melanie E.

-==-

Edward County had many strange traditions. There was the grasshopper round-up hosted by the local Shriners every June, for one thing, or you could perhaps instead look at the way that all the locally-owned stores would give away free turnips on Thursdays. The people of Edward County never questioned these traditions, whether they understood their origins or not, because such traditions were what made Edward County unique.

Of all the strange and wonderful activities the town enjoyed, however, none was loved as much as the Plate Race.

Like many of the county's traditions, nobody was really sure when or why the Plate Race started, and nobody was really worried about it either. The Big Hill out on Pritchard Farm had been home to the event for years, though, and it would always draw a huge crowd, both of onlookers and participants, with the variety of plates always a site to behold.

There were two models of plate used for the Plate Race, both produced by the Edward County Glassworks. Both were plain, round, nearly-featureless disks of pure white milk glass, with their only difference being in their depth. At the least, that is how they started out. It was common practice for a plate racer to decorate their plate in vivid colors or with picturesque scenes, or in the cases of some of the younger or less artistically inclined racers, stickers and decals. Some of the more competitive racers had even been known to experiment with carefully shaving or sanding their plates down to achieve the best race results, and arguments about whether deep or shallow plates turned in the best times were common.

Until one year.

The Plate Race was gearing up as normal, and this year the selection was truly grand. Mr. Piper had brought along his plate with the funny dogs on it, and Meredith Greene was, as usual, racing one with a copy of the hex sign from her barn painted on the side. Jeremy Little had a featureless plate he had worked on until you could almost see through the middle, it was so thin! And they were only a small example of the variety of plates on display. The race had yet to begin, but all of the participants were having a great time talking and comparing their entries in the race.

Until....

Silence fell over the group as the young girl approached. There was nothing about her that stood out, her hair and eyes both being a particularly plain shade of brown and her features regular and nondescript. What drew the stares and surprise of the group was not the girl herself, but her plate. Translucent and smoky, it was covered in ridges and bumps, and wasn't round, but ever so slightly oval shaped.

After their initial surprise, hushed whispers began to circulate through the onlookers. After all, it wasn't a racing plate at all! Almost a platter, really. But as much as they bickered, discussed, or laughed, it began to dawn on those assembled that, though no one had ever deviated from the Edward County plates before, none of them could recall it being against the rules.

Through all the mockery and questioning around her the young girl remained silent, waiting at the top of the hill for the race to start with several of the other more serious racers. At last, it was decided by all assembled that she would be allowed to race. None believed that she had a chance of winning, but it was hoped that if they let her try that all this tomfoolery over different plates would be seen to be just that, and they could return to their good, well-known Edward County Milk Glass plates the next year.

The racers all climbed to the top of the hill, some of the older racers wheezing along the way, and once they were all ready the popper sounded and the race began. Some people cheered, as usual, once the plates started their tumble down the grassy hill, but many looked on in curiosity as the young girl stood still, holding her plate at the ready even as the rest passed the quarter, then half, then three-quarter way marks. Only once most of the plates had already made their way across the finish line and the winner was declared -- Meredith Greene, much to Mr. Little's dismay -- did she let her own plate go.

Over the many years the plate races had been held the hill had been refined by graters and use, so that often plates would stay within nicely-defined paths in the sod. Not so with the young girl's platter. Its shape and contours meant that the plate skipped and veered on its way down, leaping between unofficial lanes and wobbling precariously at times. The crowd that had at first laughed at the ubsurdity of the young girl's plate now laughed in good spirits as they watched its playful tumble through the grass. It was like nothing they had ever seen! Surely not a racer, but just as much fun to watch!

The race over, Meredith Greene happy with her small trophy and bucket of apples as prize for winning, the crowds spent their time talking not about the race proper, but instead about the young girl with the platter. To their dismay, they found the young girl nowhere to be found and her wonderful, entertaining platter lying where it had finished its legendary tumble, feet away from the finish line.

The Plate Race is still held every year in Edward County. Though the Edward County Glassworks plain white milk glass models are still the most common, more plates have come and gone since, all given an equal chance to participate and be a part of things. And, at the end of every race, a young girl is picked to Toss The Platter, the very same one left behind so many years ago.

Perhaps, in time, the origins of this tradition will be forgotten, too, but no matter; as long as the plates continue to roll, in some small way, the people will always remember.

==END==

NOTES: So, I haven't done a lot of non-TG, non game-themed writing in a LONG time. Well, I've done a bit here and there, but never anything really substantial. Then, today, I was thinking about old adolescent books, the kind with the fun little allegorical or slice of life stories in them, and this started forming in my head. I know it's not much, and this is literally just sitting down and writing it as it came to me, but I hope people like it.

Roses 'R' Red

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Caution: 

  • CAUTION: Attempted Suicide

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender

TG Elements: 

  • Valentine's Day

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
Roses 'R' Red


By Melanie E.

This story is a fan sequel to Erin Halfelven's "Valentines 'R' Blue," so I would suggest reading that story first.

-----

The young lady wasn't breathing.

He'd only come over to ask her to turn the radio down. While he appreciated her music, it being the tunes he had grown up with, he and his wife were watching their grandchildren for Valentine's night and the apartment complex's walls were thin. He hadn't seen the woman who lived next to them very often, but she had always smiled at him when they would pass in the hallways.

Anyone with a smile that sad, Gary had thought, deserved a break in life.

The first warning sign came when Gary went to knock on her door, only for it to swing open on his first rap. Out from the apartment wafted a sweet, cloying smell, one that reminded him of a perfume his wife had worn when they had saved up for that trip to Paris so many years ago. He could see the glow of lights coming through from around the corner, a glow he recognized from his own little efficiency unit as being the bathroom off of the bedroom.

Something was wrong. He could feel it, and Gary had always trusted his heart on matters like that.

He called out before walking in, just in case he interrupted something embarrassing. Nothing. With neither invite nor warning, he pulled out the blasted smart phone his grandkids had insisted he needed and fumbled with it until it did one of the few things he actually liked, filling the room with cold LED light.

He picked his way through the nice but sparse furniture and back to the bedroom, using both the light from the phone and the dim glow from the bathroom to guide him. The scent grew stronger as he stepped closer, into a surprisingly beautiful bedroom for one so small. Sure enough, the light was coming from the cracked bathroom door, as was the music.

Gary gulped, and called out again.

Still no answer.

With his free hand he reached out and pulled the bathroom door open.

She was beautiful. Her makeup was done to the nines, and her dress brought more memories of Paris to his mind even as his eyes registered the other details of the scene. The stuffed animals tucked around her, seemingly for comfort, the pillows she was leaned against.

The vomit dribbling down her chest and covering the floor, smelling of whiskey and worse.

The two bottles next to her.

Gary called for his wife as loudly as he could before dialing emergency services and crouching down next to the girl.

She was still warm. Was that the alcohol, or . . . ?

But she wasn't breathing.

-----

White light. Distant singing. Warmth.

Was this heaven?

No.

Heaven wouldn't hurt so much.

As her senses cleared her perceptions shifted. White light, seeping through her lids from a brightly lit room. The singing was close by, but soft, and accompanied by beeps and the muffled bustle of a busy place. She was wrapped in blankets.

She started to cry, silently at first, but even as the sobs came she refused to open her eyes.

Then the singing stopped, and to her surprise, someone hugged her.

She opened her eyes.

"Grandma?" She asked, confused as the lady who had hugged her pulled back.

"I don't think so, honey," the lady said with a laugh.

She laughed herself as her eyes stopped playing tricks on her. The lady looked a lot like her grandma, but didn't sound like her at all, even if she could hear that same kindness and love in her voice.

"Sorry."

"It's alright, hon," the lady said, though the tears in her eyes told a different story. "My Gary will be glad to know you're awake. He's been fretting for days he didn't find you in time."

She closed her eyes and cried softly again. "He shouldn't have bothered."

The lady's arms were around her again, holding her as she cried.

"Don't say that. We've been worried sick about you. Had us all scared to death."

The lady pulled back again and this time handed her something unexpected.

"Pookie bear?" She gave the old stuffie a hug. He smelled like wildflowers and soap.

"It took me three washes to get the smell of whiskey off him, but I figured you'd need him when you woke up."

She opened her eyes again, still hugging the bear close. "What's your name, ma'am?"

The lady smiled. "I'm Chloe. And what's yours hon?"

She looked around the room and panicked for a moment. "The hospital . . . ."

The lady chuckled. "The hospital don't know nuthin' about nuthin'. We both know that ain't your name."

"Rose," she said, quietly. "My name is Rose."

"Well, nice to meet you Rose."

"Nice to meet you too," Rose said, more embarrassed than she could remember ever being before.

"Now, I gotta ask ya, why'd you go and do a fool thing like that anyway?" Chloe asked, giving her a disapproving and sad look.

Rose felt another tear track down her cheek. "Because it was another Valentine's day alone. Too many."

Chloe shook her head. "Honey, I think you're lucky you weren't as alone as you thought."

Rose gave Chloe one of her sad smiles. "Maybe you're right."

Chloe grabbed Rose's hand and squeezed. "I know I am," she said with confidence.

After a moment of doubt, Rose believed her.

-----

Hope everyone enjoyed my little (semi-authorized) continuation. I read Erin's original and couldn't help the feeling that it was a Pandora's Box of a story: she'd shared all the bad, but kept the hope safely inside, and I couldn't resist the urge to let it out.

If you like, leave a comment, both here and on the original (linked at the top!)

*hugs*

Melanie E.

The Big Wait

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties
  • Mature / Thirty+

TG Themes: 

  • Fresh Start
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World

TG Elements: 

  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
The Big Wait
By Melanie E.

It's been two and a half years.

-----

It had been two and a half years since the last time Addie had left her house.

Two and a half years of fear.

Two and a half years of hiding in the closet, terrified to step out and face a world that was increasingly hostile.

Two and a half years of loneliness.

Two and a half years too long.

At first she had made excuses to stay in. It was too hot out, or too cold out, or she was too sick. She was too busy with work. She was too tired.

Eventually, even making the excuses was too much effort, and instead of justifying it at all she simply sat there, dejected and depressed.

Something was different that morning though. Whether it was the gentle tap of the rain that had been falling for two days finally breaking, or the sound of the birds outside, or the first glimmers of sunlight on the wet grass in her yard, something inside her told her, screamed at her, that it was time.

It was time, and there was no denying it.

With a firm set to her jaw Addie went about getting ready.

A shower gave her smooth skin. Her hair dryer, after burning off the smell of dust, gave her a very different style from her normal low ponytail.

A look through her makeup bag turned up powder foundation, mascara, and lip gloss, all salvageable despite their long wait, and her favorite eyeliner pencil.

From her closet she plucked an outfit that was forgiving, but still pretty. She wasn’t in the best of shape any more, but she was determined not to let that stop her, and to change it, like her outlook, as soon as possible. Thankfully she had no issues with her shoes, the flats she had chosen to go with her dress slipping on like the old friends they were.

She grabbed her favorite clutch purse, still with the same essentials it had been filled with when last she used it, and added her wallet. All that was left to grab was her jacket.

That is when she finally paused.

There was her jacket in the closet, a long green peacoat-esque thing she had bought because she had always thought peacoats were cute.

There, next to it, was his, a heavy leather trenchcoat, and the hat that he had always worn to go with it.

The panic was quick and sharp as her eyes turned from one to the other, unsure.

Unsure, that is, until the chirping of the birds outside, and the gentle patter of the water dripping from the roof, reminded her that beyond her door were green grass, blue skies, and an entire world that would feel and smell just as renewed as she was.

With a smile she closed the door to the closet, taking neither, and instead opened the door to her home and stepped out.

It had been two and a half years… but at last, Addie was back.

End.

Yep, that's right, two and a half years since the last piece of fiction I posted here! Wow! Anyway, I hope people enjoy this little 500 word bit of stuff. Here's hoping I can get back in the swing of posting more regularly again.

Also: buy my book! It's on smashwords! It has scary stuff!
https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/975217

The Comfortable Darkness

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Caution: 

  • CAUTION
  • CAUTION: Language

Audience Rating: 

  • Restricted Audience (r)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

TG Elements: 

  • CAUTION

Other Keywords: 

  • CAUTION: Bigotry
  • CAUTION: Religion

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)


The Comfortable Darkness

By Melanie E.

NOTE: Not a positive or feel-good story. Read at your own risk.

-==-

She laughed cruelly as she watched the video.

"Fools. Idiots." She chuckled again, just as malignantly. "They deserve what they get."

It was the same thing, over and over again. Another faggot shot for prancing around in the open, flaunting their unnatural-ness. Who could blame the good Christians for stopping that madness? Not her. She'd spent her whole life in the church, and it had never steered her wrong. Always kept her safe.

Always kept her aware of where the line was.

She clicked on another link, this one to one of her favorite news shows. The host had recently been fired from his network, but thanks to the support of her and other true believers had been able to continue spreading the truth via the internet.

She listened and nodded along as he confirmed all of her fears. She grimaced as he showed the images of the sick perverts she knew were raping good Christian children, turning them gay or Jewish or worse.

She nodded, and grimaced, and grimaced, and nodded, until her teeth were bare and she was frothing at the mouth in anger. Not for the first time she dreamed about the release, the catharsis, of going out and shooting one of the fucking freaks herself, spilling their unholy blood and cleansing the ground of her country with it.

But she didn't. No, she had another calling: another way of spreading the cause.

She had her flock to watch over.

Feeling the righteous fires of her hatred and faith burning in her heart, she stood up from her computer and went to her closet to change.

Off came her dress. Her hose. Her shoes. Her wig.

On went the suit. The tie. The flag pin.

Reverend Horton White looked herself over in the mirror, and nodded.

All those poor, mislead, filthy heathens. All it took to suppress it was faith and trust in those who knew better.

God, Old Glory, and Trump. That De Santis fellow had the right idea too: until the fags and sissies and trans fucks were all dead or re-educated, the world couldn't be safe for good Christian folks.

She had to do her part.

She made sure that her closet was closed, her demons back in their cage, then swung the door to her private room open and stepped into the hallway.

By the time she reached the stage the cameras would be ready, her congregation would be riled up by the same videos she had just watched. It would be time for her surmon, hellfire and brimstone to smite those who didn't believe, who didn't follow the one true path of righteousness.

If she preached it hard enough, the congregation would be ready to do anything for the cause, fight anyone, martyr themselves by committing any sin so long as it was in the name of the ultimate authority on what was good and proper.

If she preached it hard enough, one day the evils in the world could be extinguished, so that only the deserving remained.

If she preached it hard enough, maybe she could even convince herself she was right.

-==-

NOTES:

Been having some conversations with folks lately that made this come to mind.

The Corpse of Shelley Poe

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Contests: 

  • October 2009 TG Terror Contest

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Science Fiction
  • Horror

Character Age: 

  • Mature / Thirty+

Other Keywords: 

  • Too late for contest
  • Gothic

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

This is a story that I wrote for the BCTS Halloween 2009 TG Terror contest. I didn't finish it in time, but I still wanted to put it up for people to read.

WARNING: This story was written in the gothic style: Edgar Allan Poe, H.P. Lovecraft, Bram Stoker, etc. The language is unwieldy and antiquated on purpose -- if this turns you off on reading it, please still give it a chance, though I should also remind you that the chosen subject matter fits right along with the style, so be prepared.

-----
The Corpse of Shelley Poe

By Melanie Ezell
-----

It was with great trepidation that I ascended the worn stone steps and approached the ancient iron knocker at the entrance to Gainsbury Manor. My heart warned me of a terrible evil about the place, but so great was my desperation that I chose to ignore my feelings of ill omen. With some effort I managed to lift the ring of the knocker from its resting place and brought it down for three hard raps, which echoed about me in a most discomfiting way.

That I had managed to pry myself from my home to come here was a sign of my dire straits. The storm howling around me had buffered my taxi to and fro on my trip, and the weather looked to be worsening. It was by lucky chance that my driver had known where Gainsbury Manor lay, and I had left him to his work as I steeled my nerves for the meeting to come. Even now I knew I could turn back and flee to the safety of the cab, waiting for me at the gates a mere two hundred paces back, but again my desperation drove me to stay.

I was startled by a thunderous groan as the great oak door before me began to slowly shift inwards, on hinges in seemingly worse repair than the knocker. As the door swung in, a shaft of warm light began to seep around the edge, and a rush of heat escaped to greet me and warm my tired flesh.

In the entranceway before me stood a small woman with wrinkled, leathery skin and carrying an oil lamp. While her face held a smile, there was no happiness or jollity in it.

"Come in, Mr. Craft. We have been expecting you." Her voice cracked as she spoke, reminding me of the sound of a bush rustling in the dark, or the snap of old bones. Again, my heart told me to turn and run; and again, I denied it, pushing forwards in the hope of once and for all ending the torment I found myself in.

"Mr. Byron is in preparation for your session, but he should be down in a moment. If you would have a seat." She gestured with her free hand to a high-backed chair near the door, where I quietly settled to await my appointment.

With her lamp she lit the tapers of an ornate candelabra before leaving me alone in the entrance room of the dilapidated manor house. To keep from losing my nerve, I took it upon myself to grasp as best I could the contents of my surroundings.

Like many of the homes in the surrounding neighborhood, Gainsbury Manor dated back over a hundred years, and was in a sorry state of repair. Our small community had seen hard times after the recession, and thus many of the more affluent families had moved to better parts, leaving our once thriving town with only those who would not or could not afford to leave. The ceiling above was showing signs of sagging, with water dripping through in more than one spot, causing areas of the tattered carpet to appear as a darker crimson than that surrounding them, while the walls were bowed, the plaster crumbling and in many places giving way completely to wood braces and bits of mildewed insulation. What had once been a beautiful home was now a derelict, with little hope of recovery.

It was but a few moments before the woman returned. "Mr. Byron is ready for you now, sir." She stepped aside and gestured for me to make my way into the chamber behind her. Feeling it was for the best that I finish my business as quickly as possible, I stood and straightened my jacket.

The chamber beyond her smelled of musty earth and rot, and as I stood at the entrance I could taste tin, like old blood, sitting on my tongue. With another gesture she beckoned me on, along the candle-lit corridor and to the last door. As I approached that door, the smell of earth and rot increased, until I felt the great desire to retch at the foulness of the stench, but I pressed on, and rapped my knuckles on the hard surface of the door's face.

"Come in," a voice echoed from within, raspy and frail. With the last of my nerve I pushed that terrible door open, and stepped through.

I found myself in a large open room, filled with tables and counters topped with masses of tubing and wires the uses of which I could not hazard to guess. Through an arrangement of beakers and valves along one surface ran a bubbling liquid, being heated by a series of small burners beneath particular beakers. Against another of the room's brick walls was a large metal device with many cogs and levers in evidence, as well as a pair of large wire coils that sparked and sputtered, casting harsh shadows about the otherwise dimly lit room. But the most disturbing, most horrifying object in that room was what awaited me when I turned my eyes to the center.

There, upon a long iron table, lay the body of a young woman. In life, she had been beautiful, but her death had not been kind to her, and I found myself again fighting the urge to retch as I gazed at the rotted and festering corpse that was all that remained of the woman I had once loved. Yet even in this state, I found my heart aching to see her move, to reach out with her long, cold and grime-coated hands and caress me, to kiss me with her hard bloodless lips. She was My Shelley, and soon we would be together again.

"I am glad to see you," spoke the frail voice that had bade me enter, and with a start I watched as a hunched and decrepit figure emerged from behind the slab where my Shelley rested. His rheumy eyes turned to me, and I felt a cold shiver pass through myself as he focus somewhere beyond me. His gnarled hands shook as he adjusted an odd contraption strapped to the table, and I heard the clank of unseen gears as a set of wire coils not unlike those atop the metal device against the wall rose from the floor at either side of the corpse before me.

Again he spoke. "'Twas a high price indeed that I was forced to pay for this corpse. Never before have I performed this procedure on one so long gone -- I can make no guarantees to the outcome of what I shall attempt this evening." He turned to me again, baring his rotten teeth at me in what I hoped was intended to be a grin. "It should be right, though, if the worms ain't got to her yet."

He held out his hand to me, and I cringed away, much disturbed by the idea of the goblin before me touching me, but when he pointed towards the second table in the room, next to my Shelley, and reached for me again, I obeyed his unspoken command, and allowed him to begin his preparations.

Wires were wrapped around my fingers, and a leather cap with more wires attached to it was fitted to my head. Wide leather straps with heavy buckles were used to fasten my unresisting limbs to the table. I almost cried out when he took the long steel needle and jabbed it into my neck, draining my lifeblood into another series of tubes he had conjured, but I held firm, my gaze remaining on my Shelley and her presence giving me strength.

A year of searching had brought me here, and I was determined that my efforts would not be in vain. My Shelley would be returned to me; I would triumph over the foul disease that had taken first her mind, then her life, and we would be as one, forever.

Would she return to me whole? Would I be blessed to see her auburn hair lustrous again, her silken alabaster skin unmarred by the decay that had set in during my journeys to find a cure? Or would she remain the fetid corpse before me, blackened, bloated and foul? Would her mind be there, or would I be left with nothing but an empty husk? I would risk anything to have her back.

My thoughts were broken as a violent spasm shook me, threatening to rip the needle from my neck and jerking my limbs against the constriction of my bonds. The pain. the pain was excruciating, but oh! I would suffer it a thousand times to see my Shelley alive again. The pain began to dissipate, and I hoped that the worst was over, but I was soon racked by another spasm, and another.

On into the night, I was rocked by the searing pain, until I began to grow numb to it. Slowly, the pain faded, until at last, though I knew the spasms were still coming, I could no longer feel any ill effect from them. My eyes were closed, and I could feel that they were matted shut somehow, but I could not find it within me to care. My Shelley would be back. We would be together. It would all be worth the pain and torment, if just to see her for a moment.

It was long hours later that I felt the last spasm subside, and dared to open my eyes. I found my vision cloudy and distorted, as though viewing my surroundings through a pane of oiled glass, and I had great difficulty in trying to move. At last, I managed to turn my head, and spied the dim outline of a figure before me.

Sounds came to my attention, but they seemed garbled and incoherent. I had to concentrate to hear his words, which proved far more difficult that I had imagined.

"It seems to be a complete success. She seems to have begun to awaken, though as yet I am unsure if she's all there in her head, mind you. Sir?" As I watched, the form twisted and turned -- with more attunement to my eyes, I could tell that now he was facing towards me, rather than the table upon which My Shelley rested.

"Miss, are you there?"

Now I felt a great need to rise and peer around him. If he were to wake Shelley, I desired to be there to watch and experience every moment of her waking. I tried to speak, feeling my throat impossibly dry and parched, and managed to make naught but a moan of complaint.

"Excellent. She's responding sir; there's hope that she might be in there."

I tried to speak again, to ask him to unlash me so I might rise and watch, but again all I could manage was a rasping moan.

"There, Miss. Let me get you up."

As the straps about me loosened, I moved to lift myself up, only to find my efforts ineffectual. No pain arose from my failed attempts, however; and so, I continued to try, until at last I sat up, feeling off balance and out of sorts.

"It might take a bit to get used to things again. You're quite different than when you died."

Died? Had I died during the transferrence of my lifeblood to my Shelley? But no, I felt perfectly alive, if numb and out of sorts. I tried to ask him what had happened, but still managed no more than a moan.

"Let me fetch some water. Maybe we can get you talking again." The blurry figure I had been facing turned away and moved off to my right, leaving me staring at the slab where my Shelley must lay.

I am afraid that I cannot recall much after that. When I regained sanity, all that remained of the old man Byron, his lab, and the old woman were bloody stains before me on the earthen floor of the lab. I was still filled with a terrible rage, and a terrible loss. I wanted to scream, but how can you scream when your throat is as dry as the grave? I wanted to weep, yet the body I found myself in had not the tears to do it. I wanted to gaze one last time upon my body, lifeless and cold, but even that was hindered by my deteriorated eyes.

How long might I live now? I know not. All I know is that the life of a corpse is a lonely and hard one. Why should I pity the living? Those who are gifted with breath and warmth, such blessings are wasted upon you? I take it when I can, but what I gain from there lifeblood is little more than a pale imitation of what I once had.

I was Thomas Craft. Now, I am nothing more than a ghoul, the shade of a broken man, haunting the corpse of my dear Shelley Poe.

The Crush

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Contests: 

  • 2016-02 February - The Crush Mini-Contest

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental

Other Keywords: 

  • Melanie E's BCTS Mini Contest: The Crush

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
The Crush

A Valentine's Romance by Melanie E.

This is just a little vignette I worked up as a starter, if your will, for my mini contest. Hope everyone enjoys!

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I saw her every day, almost. Sometimes it would be in passing, a quick glimpse when I hadn't expected it, and sometimes it would only be when I went out of the way to find her. Those were the times she was most glamorous, but it was the times I would find her without meaning to that always meant the most to me, because the girl I was always looking for... was me.

I knew I wasn't the only person in the world who felt the pain of being... wrong. Being broken. Being one person on the outside, when inside everything told me I was someone else. Knowing that was never enough to take away the pain though. It was only those times I saw her, the me inside, the person I hoped to one day be, that helped to dull the ache, at least for a while.

That, and Ben.

We'd been friends for years. In high school he was one of my links to a social life, and in college he was the only reason I ever left the dorm at all. Together we shared ownership of our small book store, and it was because of him that it all felt worthwhile to keep pressing on, even when it was because of him that I had delayed seeking help for so long.

Ben was more than just my friend, more than my business partner. He was everything to me, and I was too scared of losing him to ever consider risking our relationship with transition.

This went on for years. Days spent together in the book store, nights spent either hanging out or on our own, him never learning my own feelings. Girlfriends came and went for him, while I always insisted that I was too busy, or too focused on making our shoestring-budget stretch to worry about dating. It was a system I hated, but I'd learned to accept, finding as much solace as I could being myself at home and lamenting my own cowardice.

When I found the note in my inbox at work, I was confused at first. Valentine's day was still a few days away, and who would send me anything in the first place? But there it was, an envelope with my name on it, and inside a simple card. It was pink, with flowers around the edge, and some meaningless bit of nothing written on it, the typical type of thing you get around the time, but what stood out to me most was the message inside:

"For the most beautiful girl I've never seen."

The note floored me, but just as surprising was what was taped beneath; a gift card to one of the nicest salons in town.

I felt a lot of things. Worry that someone knew my secret. Anger that this all might be some trick. The obvious surprise, of course, that I would get anything at all. And last, something I hadn't realized I'd been missing for some time.

For just a moment, I felt happy.

-==-

Ben was careful to keep his posture as nonchalant as he could. He had hidden the envelope earlier in the day with the hopes that he would be there when Des found it, and sure enough his patience had been rewarded.
It took supreme effort to keep his eyes on his nonexistent computer work while watching out the corner of his eye as his best friend and partner opened his gift. For the briefest of moments after the card was opened he was afraid he had made some kind of mistake, until the change he had seen before came.

There she was, the girl he had so rarely seen, but came out every time Des smiled.

Maybe, Ben hoped, this time she would stick around.

-=End=-

NOTES: This is the first bit of stuff I've written since, golly... October? Whenever I last posted here.

Okay, not the FIRST, since I've made a little progress on my books, but still. I hope everyone enjoys this. And be sure to leave a comment and let me know what ya think!

The Door at the End of the Room

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Non-Transgender
  • Horror
  • Mystery or Suspense

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
The Door at the End of the Room

By Melanie E.

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We had been so happy to purchase the house. The estate sale had gone quite smoothly, and despite the rumors we had heard of the strange ways and wicked temperament of the former owner, the location was good, and the house was large and roomy, with plenty of space for both me and my husband to grow our family as we had been hoping to do.

That was not to say that the transfer had gone smoothly. We had arranged for a local contractor to renovate the location before we were planned to move in, and although he had seemed reticent at first to so much as set foot on the property he had assured us he would follow through on his end of the deal. After weeks of delays, however, our lease on our old apartment had finally run out, and we were faced with either starting a new lease or moving into the property unrenovated. Naturally, we had opted for the latter, since neither I nor my husband were keen on the idea of spending money on two places without reason, but it meant that we would have to handle the disturbing tastes of the previous owner until we could afford to do the renovations ourselves.

It was early fall when we finally moved into our new home, and despite the difficulties with the contractor we were mostly happy with things. The prior owner had been fond of dark colors and gothic designs, something neither of us were very keen on, but it was at least live-able until we could change the decor around.

In fact, there was only one problem, and that was the doors. The house had many rooms, parlors and offices and bedrooms all scattered about, and all of them had very old iron door knobs with locks that required keys. Stranger yet than the iron knobs was the way they were oriented, since every room could only be locked or unlocked from the outside. While we had inherited the contents of the house that had not sold in the estate sale as part of our purchase, one item we had yet to find was the key to operate any of these internal locks, leaving us with a handful of rooms we could not access without breaking the locks that were there. These were merely storage spaces and closets, so rather than worry about it, we had simply made plans to replace the knobs when we could.

We had been living in the house for almost a month when a family emergency called my husband away. My own work would not allow for me to take leave on such short notice, so I was left on my own while he was gone. While I had spent time alone in the house since our relocation to the property I had never been there overnight without his presence, and for some reason the idea of being there without him set my nerves on edge. Nevertheless, I put those feelings up to simple dependency jitters and tried my best to set my soul at ease.

It was almost ten at night when the activity began. We had set up the parlor as a kind of shared office space for the two of us, since both of us had projects both shared and individual that often kept us occupied even at home. It was while I was there at my desk working that I began to hear a sound, like the shuffling of feet on a wooden floor. Hearing noises in the house was nothing new for either of us -- the place was almost a century old and often creaked and groaned, like such aged places are wont to do -- but this was a sound unlike any I had ever heard the house make before, and instantly I felt a chill down my spine. I paused in my work, and listened, but when the sound did not repeat for a few moments I told myself it was nothing more than the house settling as always and tried to turn back to my work.

Some minutes passed, and I heard the sound again, this time louder. What I had at first thought sounded like feet being dragged across the wood now came across as all together bigger and heavier.

The parlor had a large open archway that opened onto the house's main central hallway, but at the far end of the room was a smaller room we had yet to be able to access as it was one of the rooms with the locked door. I was now regretting our decision to wait to replace the knobs, as it was from behind this door that I could hear the sound coming from, now reminding me of someone dragging something heavy across the floor. I was frozen in place as the sound came closer and closer, as though from across a far larger room than should have possibly existed beyond the oak portal, then it stopped, just on the other side.

I wanted to flee, to run screaming out into the yard and beyond toward our neighbors, but I could not. I wanted to bar the door, to call my husband's name despite his absence, but again, I could not. All I could do was to sit there in silent dread, staring at the closed door.

Scratch, scratch, scratch, came the sound from the bottom of the door, like a small cat wanting into the room.

Scratch, scratch, scratch, as the sound became more insistent, seemingly rising up the door's surface, now resonating from a few inches above the floor.

Scratch, scratch, SCRATCH, as the sound climbed ever higher, the door shifting toward me slightly, with each sound, the hinges shaking. Now it was almost halfway up the surface, clawing at the middle of the door like a beast that knows a meal is nearby. Yet, still, I could not move, frozen by terror and unable to turn away from the door.

SCRATCH, SCRATCH, SCRATCH, like a knife being dragged across the wood it echoed through the room, the door jarring forward and back like it was almost ready to give, yet it continued to hold, the handle shaking violently. Then, the handle began to shudder as though someone or something were trying to open it from the other side.

Despite my terror I looked at that knob and thanked the heavens that the door was locked. Perhaps our own inability to open the doors would yet save me from the horror beyond.

Then, with a click, the knob began to turn....

-==-

Just something quick I thought up while watching Halloween vids on YouTube. Nothing super creative, but an okay-ish little mood piece, right? I might go back and improve this later to make it scarier/better, since just typing into the posting window never makes for the best content.

Anyway, lemme know what y'all thought! I'm thinking about doing a few of these over the course of the next month, leading up to Halloween, but if nobody's interested then I won't.

Melanie E.

The Lonely Girl

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Other Keywords: 

  • CAUTION: Potential Feels

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
The Lonely Girl
By Melanie E.

Another story written in the posting window for BCTS. Maybe, if I get myself in the habit here, some of my other projects will start to advance too.

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There were times, sitting in the rickety thrift store chair she used at her desk, that Karin wondered why she bothered.

It was just a web site, after all. Nobody there really cared about her. She wasn't an admin, or a moderator, or even one of the most popular or most prolific posters to the site. If she weren't there, if she'd never posted or shared or joined, then how big a difference would it ever make to anyone?

That was the question she asked herself now, as she stared at her latest post.

There wasn't much to it. A few quickly-assembled words, little in the way of forethought or planning. Like most of the things she had shared, it was at best amateurish in quality, bordering on drivel.

With a sigh of disgust she spun away from her screen, her chair squawking alarmingly at the sudden wrenching of its already too-often-wrenched swivel. She'd have to replace it soon, but money was tight enough without worrying about luxuries like non-squeaky chairs.

What did it matter anyway? There were better posters, more dedicated posters. People who would spend hours agonizing over the work they put out, the messages they shared. Why would someone read her stuff when they could read that?

She spun back to the screen again.

Why wouldn't people read her stuff?

Movie quotes were a popular thing on the sites she frequented, with some of the most popular ones being quips about life being nothing but pain and sorrow, but Karin didn't believe that for a second. Karin didn't want to believe that, no matter how often it felt like there were no truer words ever spoken.

A refresh of the page brought nothing but more damning silence.

Why didn't people like her?

Was there something wrong with her? Something that told everyone immediately that she was strange? Some sign of how broken she was? Was it that obvious?

Another refresh. Still nothing.

She had tried. Heavens knew she had tried to reach out to people. Like the old pop song, with a mask she could fool the world into thinking she fit in. She could laugh and joke and carry on, but at the end of the day she would return home, take off her mask, and there she would be again.

In the dark, watching a cursor blink with the hum of a computer in the background. No voices, not even from the dusty television in the corner. Listening to people laughing their cold, dead laughs on sitcoms or sharing their impersonal scripts on the news was almost more painful than simply sitting there.

Cold. Lethargic. Solitary.

No, not solitary. Alone.

Even around other people, she felt alone.

Click. Nothing.

Hanging her head in defeat, Karin fumbled for the button to turn off her monitor before stumbling to her futon. In dreams, she knew, she could find peace, at least for a little while. Curling up with her threadbare blankets in the inky black room, Karin closed her eyes.

....

Meanwhile, on the other side of a world, another girl read a new post from one of her favorite writers. This, this was someone who understood what she felt. Who she was.

Someone that made her feel not so alone after all.

Click.

She began to type.

-=END=-

The Reluctant Mechanic

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Fiction
  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words
  • Complete

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Fanfiction

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

The Reluctant Mechanic

A "Reluctant..." Series Fanfic By Melanie E.

A big thanks goes out to Melanie Brown for writing Chrissy's stories that inspired this, and for giving me permission to share it with everyone here.

This story is fanfic, and nothing but fanfic. Any similarity to canon events is purely coincidental, and should not be taken to mean that the author of this tale is somehow telepathic or anything.

You will forget I ever mentioned telepathy in 5... 4... 3... 2....

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I gave a power yell as I gripped the wrench in both hands and hauled on it with all my might.

"GGGGRRrrrrrrraaahhhhhdammit!"

"Language, Princess."

I let go of the wrench and stumbled backward, sweat pouring down my back.

"It's this da- darn bolt. I've been trying to get it off for the last ten minutes but it won't budge."

"Lemme see it," he said, putting down the piston he was working on and coming over to where I had the mostly-disassembled engine in front of me. Picking up the wrench in one hand, he placed it on the bolt and gave it a sharp tug to the left. The bolt screeched as it gave way.

I stared slack-jawed at the engine, unable to believe what I had just seen. "What the hell!?" I said, glaring at my dad.

"You must have loosened it," he said with a shrug, then returned to his work bench and his pistons again.

"Musta loosened it, nyah," I said in a snotty voice as I adjusted my bra strap and returned to work on the engine, the rest of the bolts coming off with relative ease and allowing me to pull the transmission casing off at last.

"I heard that, kitten."

I stuck my tongue out at him.

"Stop being childish."

Rolling my eyes in a last act of defiance, I gave up and studied the job at hand, wondering how the hell I was supposed to fix this thing.

It was all Diane's fault I was out here to begin with. After I had told her about my lack of plans for the summer, she had asked what I would have been doing if I were still a boy. The car, of course, was the answer. Dad and I had planned it for the last two summers, saving a little here and there to invest in an old clunker to tear down after graduation and rebuild into a lean mean asphalt-eating machine to impress the ladies with my freshman year at college. Becoming a cheerleader, and a girl, had thrown a kink in that plan, or so I had thought.

"Give it a shot," she had told me, with that gleam in her eyes that told me she wasn't going to take no for an answer. "Maybe it can help mend the rocky relationship you two have had lately."

"But Diaaane!" I whined, mostly just for the sake of it.

"No buts," she said. Then the bitch held my nail polish hostage until I agreed.

Looking up from the mess in front of me, I caught Dad smiling as he watched me in the small mirror situated above his work bench, and I reluctantly had to admit that she'd had a point.

Of course, the muscle car we had been eyeing before my transformation was out of the question now that I was a girl, as for some reason Dad had gotten the notion in his head that girls should drive safer, less rumbly beasts than guys. I had fought him, but it was a losing battle before I even began. The ancient lemon-yellow Beetle we had finally settled on wasn't quite what I had hoped for, but at least we were refitting it for four wheel drive to help tackle the snow, and as much as I had protested I really did think it would be cute when we finished it.

Though at the moment it was far from cute with its guts lying in an unholy mess before me. I had no idea what half the parts did, and I was pretty sure the half I did know about were too worn out to do anything with.

"Dad, are you sure this is worth it?" I asked, not for the first time, as

I picked up a wiring harness from the pile that looked like it was held together by chewing gum and hope.

"It's a leaning experience, sweetheart. Besides, even cheerleaders should know how to take care of their own car."

"You didn't do this with Diane."

"I might have, if I thought Diane could have done it without blowing the garage up."

I winced, remembering the infamous blowtorch incident of '99. Seeing my expression, Dad simply nodded and returned to his duties, prying a corroded ring out with an old screwdriver.

Abandoning the engine for the moment, I turned my attention to the stereo and speakers, laying in their own gory pile on a table against the opposite wall of the shop. The engine might be frustrating me, but I still had enough geek in me that delving into the electronics side of the repairs was my element.

"Nah ah, not until we have the engine working."

"But daaad, the stereo's one of the two most important parts of the car!" The other being working heat and A/C, of course.

"Engine. Now."

"Aaaaawww," I whined as I sulked my way back over to the pile of greasy black steel that awaited me.

With the bolt gone and the casing out of the way, though, it was surprisingly easy for me to find my way through the carnage and clean things up.

"How's that, Dad?"

He smiled as he looked over my handiwork. "Very good, sweetheart," he said, kissing my forehead. "You make your father proud."

I beamed as I finished cleaning up my tools and shoved everything out of the way, to resume the next day.

"Oh, dear," Mom said as soon as Dad and I walked up the stairs from the garage into the kitchen. "Not again. Sweetie, that's the third pair of jeans you've ruined this month!"

I looked down and fought back another round of cursing as I noticed the huge gash across my right knee where some unknown part had ambushed me. From the looks of it I was lucky it was just my jeans, but these had been my last pair of work jeans, and the theater didn't pay enough for me to keep buying new clothes all the time.

"I didn't mean to!"

"*sigh* I know, honey. You just need to be more careful is all," she said as she crouched down and examined the rip. "We should be able to patch this up without too much trouble. I'll finally have an excuse to show you some of the sewing you've been missing out on."

"I can't tonight, though," I told her as I made my way for the sink in the corner, where we kept the orange scrubbing-soap for cleaning off grease. "I've got a date with Joey."

Mom smirked as she returned to the paperwork she had been doing at the table. "You two are getting really close."

I giggled, a dreamy look on my face as I thought about Joey. "Yeah."

My dad gave me an icy stare as he joined me at the sink. "You two are using protection, right?"

"Daddy!"

"Hey! I wasn't born yesterday, and you may not think we noticed you walking funny after the prom--"

"DADDY!"

"-But I'm a practical man." Just the slightest twitch marred his stony expression. "Just promise me you're being safe."

I could feel my face burning as I mumbled that yes, we were being safe. Not that it mattered, since I couldn't get pregnant even if I wanted to, but that was a whole different depressing subject.

"Good," he said, after a moment's silence. "Make sure you're home by nine."

"NINE!"

"We're going down to Arnold's to pick up the new transmission tomorrow. He owes me a favor, so we're getting it cheap, but we have to be there bright and early in the morning. No buts."

"...Alright."

"That's my girl," he said with a smile, giving me a quick hug before wrinkling his nose and stepping back. "Now go take a shower unless you think Joey is fond of Eau de Axle Grease."

"Ugh!" I groaned in disgust as I pushed past him and headed up the stairs for my bedroom.

I couldn't stay upset for long, though. I grinned as I imagined what Joey's expression would be like the first time I drove up to State to visit him, in the car my dad had helped me build.

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Welp, that's it readers! I hope you enjoyed it, and again, anyone who enjoyed this and hasn't yet should read Melanie Brown's series of stories, "The Reluctant Girlfriend," "The Reluctant Cheerleader," "The Reluctant Sister," and "The Reluctant Prom Date."

Read and comment, people! Maybe if we're vocal enough about liking her stories she'll give us more!

Melanie Brown's Reluctant Girl Series

The Tree

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Character Age: 

  • Preteen or Intermediate

TG Themes: 

  • Sweet / Sentimental

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

The Tree

By Melanie Ezell

Sometimes life's most important lessons are learned in ways you wouldn't expect.

She snuggled down deeper between the great roots as she gazed up through the ancient, gnarled branches to the blue skies above, watching the shadows dance among the leaves.

It reminded her of her very first visit to this place, when she was only six years old. She had been smart for her age, and knew it too, but couldn't understand why her grandpa had taken her to see some old tree.

"Papaw, why are we here?"

He had laughed at her honesty, a great rolling sound that always made her feel happy. "Well, Darlin', I brought you out here 'cause this place is special. See, this is my favorite place in the whole world, and I wanted to share it with you." His large, calloused hands were always so gentle when they lifted her up and set her on his broad shoulders, still strong from hard work even after all those years. She squinted down at him, the sunlight glinting off his smooth skin but still not matching his shining smile, stretching up and crinkling the corners of his clear gray eyes.

"Why's this your favorite place, Papaw?"

He had gently reached up and taken her tiny hand, placing it against the old, pitted and discolored trunk of the tree.

"Do you feel that, Darlin'? See all the cracks and rough spots in the bark?"

"Yes."

"Those are this tree's scars." She had opened her eyes wide in awe as she examined the wood under her hand, this great oak that dominated the fields beyond the farm house.

"Is the tree hurt, Papaw?"

"Why, not at all!" He laughed again, rumbling beneath her. "It takes a lot to hurt a tree, and this one's tougher'n most. You see this," he pointed to a deep, ragged gouge across the tree near his knees, and she nodded. "That's where someone tried to cut the tree down a long time ago. These," a series of large, charred-looking spots missing from the other side, "are from a forest fire, back when this all used to be woods, before the house was built. And these," he brought her close to see the myriad holes and pits in the surface of the bark, "are from all the bugs and diseases the tree has fought off. And even after all of this and more, the old tree still stands just as strong as anything." He gave her a moment to absorb this.

"Wow."

"Yessiree, this tree... is my hero."

From that day on the tree had been their special place, where the two of them would go and no one else could bother them. And whenever they were there, her grandpa would tell her more stories about the tree.

"Do you know how old this tree is, Darlin'?" He'd asked her once when she was about nine.

"Is it as old as you, Papaw?" She'd replied jokingly.

"Haha, it's much older than I am, Darlin'. This tree's older than MY Papaw."

"Really?"

"Really. In fact, look here. Can you read this?"

"Hey, that's you and Meemaw!"

"It sure is! I proposed to her on this very spot, you know, a long time ago. We left our names here as a reminder."

She looked at him ib shock and confusion. "You hurt the tree? But I thought you loved this tree, why would you give it more scars?"

His face had scrunched in thought for a moment before his smile returned. "Not all scars are all bad, Darlin'. In fact, some things mean all that much more if they hurt a bit to get." She had pondered this a moment, but couldn't get it. "Some day you'll understand."

"Papaw, what was Meemaw like before she died?"

No matter how bad she might have felt, he always knew just what to say to make her feel better, and the tree would always be there when she stopped crying. He'd stand there, puffing away on his old worn pipe, and tell her story after story until all her worries were gone.

"Papaw, why are all the other kids so mean to me?" She was only eleven at the time, but the broken arm was just the latest in a long line of injuries from the bullies at school. He just wrapped her in a big bear hug as she cried.

"Don't you worry 'bout them, Darlin'. You're special, and some people don't like special."

"But *sniff* why?"

"Well," he thought for a moment. "It's like our tree." He gently reached back and patted the trunk. "This tree is extra special, just like you. But some people just don't see what a great thing being special is; they just see something different, and it scares them."

"I scare people? But why?"

He pulled her into his lap. "Because they don't understand, and when people don't understand something, they try to hurt it."

"Please don't let them hurt me, Papaw."

"I won't, Darlin', not again. Not in a million years."

He'd kept his word as best he could, and she couldn't imagine how much more difficult things would have been without his love and support. Even after all these years, he was still the person she looked up to most, and the tree was still her special place.

She left the tree with one last scar, a simple engraving in memory of their times there, and the wonderful old man she wished was still with her. But even if he couldn't be by her side when she became complete the next day, she knew his spirit would always be with her.

Because the tree still stood.

==
The End
==

Thanks for reading, and I hope you enjoyed it! The idea came to me at work the other day, so I just had to write it. I don't think it came out quite as well as I hoped it would, but it ALMOST catches the emotion I wanted.

The Valentine

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

The Valentine

By Melanie E.

This is a short piece I wrote in honor of the time of year.

-----

It had to have been the wrong locker.

There was no way anyone would know. There was no way anyone COULD know. Was there?

I looked down at the package in my hand again.

It might not have been a large box of chocolates, but the size was not what mattered. It was what the chocolates, as well as the attached envelope, represented that mattered.

I opened the card and read it for the fifth time in the last two minutes.

"To Emily, the most beautiful girl I know."

There was no signature.

A shove from behind reminded me that the halls were full of other students making their way to their own classes, and how little time I had before first period. I reached to put the box of chocolates back into my locker, but something inside would not let me. Instead, I slid them into my bag with my book and made my way to class.

Luckily for me, Valentine's Day meant that most of the other students were just as distracted by various Valentines as I, and the teachers, seeing the futility of trying to do any actual work, had universally agreed to keeping the day light. That gave me plenty of time to stew over the problem.

There were at least six other Emilies... Emilys?... in the school, and one other in my grade. Not only that, but nobody knew about me being Emily either. At least, I had thought not. So, it was probably just a mix-up. Yeah. That was it.

Nevertheless, when lunch time rolled around I found myself in an out of the way corner of the quad staring at the box of chocolates until at last, the urge was irresistible. Using my nail, I broke the plastic seal on the box and opened it. Inside were eight perfect chocolates, individually wrapped. Checking the key, I picked out a praline and bit into it. Even the taste was perfect. Unfortunately, hearing footsteps nearby broke the spell, and as quickly as I could I closed the box and hid it away again, still no wiser as to its origin.

The rest of the afternoon was hell, and when class finally let out I rushed home as quickly as possible. I would only have a couple of hours to myself before my parents came home from work.

The instant the door was locked behind me, I dashed to my room and changed into my own clothes. Not the clothes I had to wear to school, but the ones for the real me. Much more comfortable, I settled onto my bed and pulled the box and envelope out again.

"To Emily, the most beautiful girl I know."

Mistake or not, I no longer cared. The chocolates lasted a week, and I held onto the box for another three months before fear of discovery led to its discard, but the envelope and the Valentine within were two items I would never let go of. I never found out who wrote it, but I like to think it was intended for me all along.

The Voice on the Line

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

TG Themes: 

  • Fresh Start

Other Keywords: 

  • Implied or minimal TG content

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

The Voice on the Line
Another Super Short Short Story- around 900 words.
 
By Melanie Ezell

 
The most important thing in the world is finding that one person who is always there for you,
and being there for them ...
no matter what.

The Voice on the Line

-=-=-=-=-

"Ding-Dong."

Vincent winced as he straightened his back, leaning heavily on the cane in his right hand. He held the flowers he had purchased carefully in the crook of his left arm, fresh cut yellow roses wrapped in glittering cellophane. She had told him, once, that yellow roses were her favorite.

She had told him a lot of things, and he remembered them all. Every word she had ever spoke to him was permanently imprinted in his mind, every letter she had written him, every laugh that had come drifting down the wires to him after one of his jokes. They had kept him going when all other hope was lost. She was his guardian angel, and he was finally going to meet her face to face.

"Ding-Dong," went the bell again. She had said she would be home today, waiting for him. They had both been nervous during their last call, neither one sure of the wisdom of what they were doing. All they knew was they needed each other, and that the time had finally come.

Vincent had first heard from her two weeks after leaving with his unit for their first tour of duty, through a program the military had introduced where volunteers would write to soldiers as a way to keep their spirits up. With no family, and little to look forwards to once the war was over and he returned home other than a cheap efficiency apartment and neighbors who would not have missed him, Vincent's spirits were in desperate need of the hope that her letter had brought him. Someone he had never met had cared enough to write him a letter. Soon they were trading messages almost weekly, and when his unit reached a station with reliable phones, Vincent worked up the courage to dial the number she had sent him.

Her voice had been so beautiful, and all too soon the ten minutes he had been limited to were gone, and he could not wait for the next opportunity to call her again. And he did, as often as possible. Even after the explosion that took his leg below the knee, and permanently blinded him on his right side, he held on through the pain in the hope of hearing from her again.

"Ding-Dong." He knew she would be down soon. The military had no more use for him, but she had not stopped caring. His return home had brought more pain, both from his aching body and the financial crisis, but at least he could talk to her every day, the one light in his world of shadows. Then she had stopped calling. She had grown distant, and Vincent had become convinced he had said or done something wrong. How could she love a broken, useless ex-soldier? How could anyone love someone like him?

After almost a month of silence, Vincent had decided to end it. He had spent the last money in his account to purchase the cheap .38 special he had held in his shaking hand. No note, no will, no one to remember the empty husk of a man he had become. But something inside urged him to try just one more time, so with a heavy heart he had picked up the phone and dialed.

And she had answered.

Fast forward two weeks, to find him standing at her door. He had sold everything he owned and flew out immediately when she had asked, and now he stood waiting for her, a last fifty in his wallet and the clothes on his back his only personal possessions besides the wooden cane he supported himself with. She had warned him that she might not be what he was expecting, but he could not care. There was nothing in this world, no problem so large that could keep him from giving himself to the woman he loved.

"Ding-Dong."

"I'm coming." That voice he knew so well called from the other side of the oak door, all the more beautiful for how close he was to its source. Vincent stood with bated breath as the lock clicked, the old brass handle rotating and swinging inwards.

"You're Vincent?" The voice asked. Vincent looked up into the worried eyes of the person before him in awe.

"I am. You're Jessie?"

A nod, followed by a short sob. "You remembered my favorite flowers." Tears streaming, Jessie stepped back from the door, and Vincent stepped forwards. "I, I'm so sorry I'm not the woman you thought-"

"But, you are." It was painful beyond imagining, and he nearly fell, but Vincent managed to lower himself to one knee before the only person in the world that mattered. "Jessie, I have nothing to give you but the love in my heart, but if you'll take me, I would spend the rest of my life with you. Jessie... will you marry me?"

That voice, that beautiful voice that had taken him through hell and back, from the most beautiful person he had ever met. "You... Yes. Yes!" Vincent felt light as air as he was pulled upright, and wrapped in Jessie's arms as both their tears stained his shirt. It was the most wonderful feeling in the world.

The Void

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Genre: 

  • Non-Transgender
  • Other Worlds

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
The Void

A science fantasy short by Melanie E.

-----

She stood guard at the void.

Nobody ever asked her how long she had been guarding the void. This was because no one ever approached the void at all. Even if they had, she would not be able to supply an adequate answer; she had been guarding the void for as long as there had been a void to guard, standing vigilant on the cusp of its terrible pull and waiting.

She never slept. She never moved. And she never turned to look at the void. She could vaguely remember doing so once, long ago and perhaps in another lifetime. The images that would occasionally swim to the surface of her mind were the things of nightmares, terrifying not in their substance but in their lack thereof. The void was just that: empty, soulless, and cold. It was a gateway she knew not where, only that she must wait eternally, though whether she stood guard against anything entering or leaving, even she could not say.

She stood guard at the void.

The void, in turn, waited.

--End--

NOTES:
Yeah, not much here; just a little pseudoscience short that popped into my head while I happened to be seated at my keyboard. A little creepy, a little weird. But fun, no?

This Isn't What I Wanted

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Other Keywords: 

  • CAUTION: This May Make You Angry
  • CAUTION: semi-venty-ranty stuff
  • ADMIN: permission to remove if necessary

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
This Isn't What I Wanted

Another piece of fiction written in the BCTS posting window by Melanie E.

A note before you read this: this story is not me railing at anyone in particular, but IS me expressing frustrations I feel at certain attitudes. Some people likely will get angry at what I say here, so if you think that person will be you, feel free to turn back now.

-==-

The group stared at me, expressions of shock, anger, and betrayal on their faces. For my part, though, I held my head high. I wouldn't back down, I wouldn't give in, and I certainly wouldn't change my mind just because they were too narrow-minded to accept me.

"What do you mean you don't want it?" Bella asked me with a snarl.

"This is the greatest gift in the world!"

"Liar! Cheat! Betrayer!"

"How could anyone refuse such an offer?"

These calls, and more, I heard from those around me. Those who, for years, had been my friends, confidants, and the people I'd thought I could be myself around more than any other group in the world.

The people, it turned out, who had never really understood me after all.

"This isn't what I wanted, Bella, and I will not do this," I said again, clearly as I could through the wailing and cries around me.

The slap was sharp and painful, but not entirely unexpected.

"You come into our group, acting as a sister, talking as a sister. You pretend to be one of us. And yet, when I offer you the chance of a lifetime, you say no?!"

"I am your sister. But I am also my own person. I've never lied to you, or any of the girls, about who, and what, I am."

"This is what we all want!" She said again, bandishing the goblet above her head with a gleam in her eyes. It was the same goblet that every other member of the group had already drank from, each one of them ecstatic with the outcome of the drought's transforming properties.

"I thought I had what I wanted. I thought I had friends who were truly seeking to be compassionate and loving to one another. Not another group who only wanted to accept those who were exactly like them."

Bella swung her hand to slap me again, but this time I stepped back out of the way of her swing.

Not a soul stepped forward to back me, though I could see the tears in the eyes of a few who heard and, too late, understood the gravity of what they had truly done.

The drought was great, to be sure. But it wasn't for everyone, and I knew all too well that it wasn't right for me. Yet too many of my sisters could only see their own needs when they looked upon me.

Were my actions a betrayal as they claimed?

No, though I could clearly see they would never understand no matter what I said.

With a heavy heart I turned my back on Bella. On the goblet that held more than just the alleviation of suffering, but the potential for so much as well when used incorrectly.

I turned my back on those who I had long thought were my allies, and walked out.

Not one asked me to stop. Not one asked my forgiveness or offered me compassion, but it was to be expected.

The goblet was everything they had ever wanted.

Me?

This isn't what I wanted. Why couldn't they accept me for who I was? Let me be myself, without criticism, without hatred, without apathy for my emotions?

They didn't understand. They never would.

The doors closed behind me.

I never looked back.

-==-

Whew! Okay, feel free to ignore what follows.

Actually, I'm seriously considering NOT posting this.

No. I'll post it.

Yes, this is sorta inspired by a comment line I'm part of on part 39 of Morpheus' Among the Val Kyr. But, in another way, it really isn't. What I'm going to say here is an issue I've seen a lot in our community, and though it only tangentially relates to the story comments, the issue is the reason I've taken the stance I have there.

So, here goes.

It doesn't get said a lot here, but the TG community, just like any other, has its problems. Some of these are due to the lack of separation between the fetish- and non-fetish elements of the community, but many of them cross the boundaries of the two, especially in terms of what we find to be positive or acceptable elements of trans fiction.

I am a girl. I am not, nor have I ever been, a boy, and I would love the opportunity to change my reality so that my physical body matched who I am. In fact, I plan to do just that as soon as I possibly can.

That doesn't mean I'm blind to the horror that such a change would be to many other people.

Within our community -- specifically the MtF trans community -- there is an underlying current of negative emotions and attitudes toward the idea of being male. This is understandable: for many of us our bodies, and even the attitudes we are expected to have and behaviors we are expected to exhibit, are hideous to our own minds. It's only natural that, given our severe closeness to the issue, we would often react in extremist ways against male ideologies or masculine tendencies.

To us, a chance to escape those expectations and limitations is a wondrous thing. Who, if they had the opportunity, wouldn't take the chance to become what we see as an ideal, a beautiful culmination of everything we've ever wanted?

Many, many people.

People who are happy with who they are. More than that, people for whom being what we desire would be just as much a punishment as we feel our current forms are.

In most TG stories, the transformation is the be-all and end-all of experiences. In our case, there's also the assumption that every cross-dresser is a woman at heart, much like we ourselves feel. Surely losing their masculine traits could be nothing but positive for any transformee, right? Surely they could, at the least, learn to love the chance to be the beautiful, delicate girl we've all dreamed of?

Just like we've all learned to love our broken, deformed bodies? Just like our minds have adapted to accept the forms we're forced into?

Being trans, in whatever way we might be, is not a bad thing in and of itself. But, neither should we wish the same experience, the same pains and frustration, on others, for any reason. Likewise, we are not all equal in our feelings or desires. To assume that every member of the community would embrace the opportunity to be our personal chosen gender is to greatly diminish the wondrous variety of people in the world.

Being a guy isn't right for everyone, no. But, neither is being a girl. Men are not perfect, no. But, neither are women. To ignore the beauty of the myriad types of people there are -- moreso, to ignore their right to be the people they want to be, just as much as we do -- is a travesty.

Not every character in trans fiction is, or needs to be, transsexual. Not every character in trans fiction is, or needs to be, trans ANYTHING. It's okay for men to be men, and to be HAPPY they're men. It's okay for a feminine boy NOT to want to be or dress like a girl.

It's alright not to embrace being trans in any way. This doesn't make people bad, or unaccepting or anything really. Well, it does make them one thing: people.

Compassion and empathy isn't about reflecting one's own feelings on others, or even embracing THEIR viewpoints, but about understanding that others don't necessarily feel the same way you do about issues, and not letting that get in the way of sisterhood (or brotherhood,) even when those differences are tremendous.

So, just because a character cross-dresses in a story doesn't mean they have to leap at the chance to become female if it's presented to them. It doesn't even mean they're a girl at heart. It could just mean they like to cross-dress. And that's fine.

Just because a character is happy being a man doesn't mean that they're anti-trans or lack understanding for those who are. Sticking such a person into a gender-swap machine will not magically turn them trans either. Well, actually, it will, but in a very, very bad way.

Even a person who IS trans will not necessarily take the chance to trade their body or life for another, "better," one, if offered, because for each of us, being part of the trans community means something different.

People are, and should be, individuals. Applying your own prejudices and emotions to everyone else limits your ability to see the beauty in who and what they truly are.

Aaand I'm getting rambly. Heck, I've been rambly since the beginning of this, and this "little note" has grown to be longer than the entire story attached to it.

I'm sorry. Ignore me, ignore my moralistic preaching and egotistical self-indulgence. I'll still post this, since someone might just get a laugh out of it, at least.

I love y'all, every last one of ya. Guy, girl, and anything in between or out past the edge, it doesn't matter.

You're all beautiful, wonderful people, and I hope some day every one of us, and the rest of the world, can see that in each other.

To See The World In A Grain Of Sand

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words
  • Complete

Genre: 

  • Transformations

Character Age: 

  • Senior / Sixty+

TG Themes: 

  • Wishes

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

To See The World In A Grain Of Sand

By Melanie E.

Another one of those "wake up in the morning with an idea" pieces.

A word of warning -- I cried writing this.

-==-

“Are you sure about this?” He asked his beloved as they clutched hands, staring out across the expanse of sand before them.

“More than anything in my life. If the rumors are true... I can't waste any more time.”

“I'm scared,” he admitted, leaning on his cane slightly as a twinge from his back reminded him just how bad the chill morning air was for him. “For me. For you.”

His beloved smiled, looking at him with those amazing eyes, still the same after seventy-five years. “Don't worry. It's a blessed beach, not a cursed one. I don't think it will do anything to you unless you will it.”

They had been born in the same town, on the same night, to parents who had known each other for years before then. They had grown up as playmates, then as friends, though social stigmas had kept them from ever being anything more. They had been there for each other through one another's marriages, children, and even grandchildren, and now that they could take it no longer, and had found the means, they were prepared to take that next step forward in their relationship, a step they had both known was inevitable since they were children.

A step that required a very real step, out onto the beach. Then another, and another.

He could feel the changes in his beloved with each step they took, the energy building in their hands and seeming to supercharge their love for one another.

Four steps. Five.

On the fifth step, a stumble. He knelt quickly, taking his beloved's face in his hands and looking into those eyes again, seeing immense pain, but determination. No words were shared, only a slight nod, and, with a great deal of the effort being on his part, they returned to their feet, and continued the trek across the wind-blasted sands.

Nine. Ten.

Another stumble, this time with an alarming wheeze. Again he went to his knees, and again his beloved's gaze was determined. This time, though, they could not stand.

With his own determination, he dropped his cane and, taking both hands, lifted his beloved into his arms. He had known before they had made the journey that his beloved had become merely a wisp of their former self, but this was made more obvious by how light they were as he cradled them, and with a herculine effort began to walk again.

Fifteen steps.

Twenty.

Twenty-nine.

The beach was not long, but it seemed like ages to him as he trudged forward, sheer willpower keeping him standing as that energy, that odd, beautiful energy, continued to wrap around them, flowing through them; flowing into his beloved, whose labored breathing was growing more alarming by the second.

Thirty five.

Forty-four.

Forty-nine.

With one last step he collapsed to his knees, carefully laying his beloved — his one, his only, his everything — on the grass at the end of the beach. He had felt the energy stop, and knew that his beloved's wish had been granted.

But what about his?

A gentle hand touched his face, a hand he would swear was much more delicate than it had been before, though still just as frail. With trembling lips he kissed the palm, before looking down into those eyes, those same gorgeous eyes. Leaning down, he finally allowed himself the kiss he had wanted to give his beloved since they had been children, a kiss she happily returned, with what little energy she had left.

Pulling back, he watched his beloved's smile grow even as the last of that precious life faded from her eyes, her dreams fulfilled. Her hand went slack in his.

Left alone on the edge of that beach, he wept.

-==-

NOTES: I don't usually write sad stories, or senior-age pieces, but this... I couldn't NOT write it.

Un-Tuck-ing Believable

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Fiction
  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fanfiction

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Universes & Series: 

  • Tuck by Ellen Hayes

TG Themes: 

  • Contests, Deals, Bets or Dares

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Un-Tuck-ing Believable

***an unauthorized Tuck fanfic***

By Melanie E.

I've been wanting more Tuck for a while now, but since Ellen has pulled her disappearing act again (with any luck without any major personal issues -- we love ya Ellen!) it seems the only way I'll see any more any time soon is to write it myself.

This may be a limited time release: if/when Ellen sees this, should she ask me to remove it I will. Until then, though, I hope people can enjoy my personal take on the adventures of one of TG fiction's longest-running characters.

***
18:37 9 May

I looked out into the crowd and wondered how I had managed to get talked into this again. You would think experience would make me a smarter, wiser person.

The crowd giggled.

*Now or never, old bean.*

I almost went to smooth my skirt as I stood up and faced the enemy, then I remembered I wasn't wearing one. That caused a momentary brain lock up, and I guess a stupid look to cross my face, because the giggling intensified.

*Why me?* I asked myself. *Money,* my brain answered unhelpfully.

Mike just sat next to me, splitting his time between watching the crowd wearily and giving me dirty looks. Not like he could blame me; he was the one who made the bet with Debbie.

And he wanted the money too.

"Get it over with, would ya Tuck?"

I took a deep breath, finding my center, then gave the crowd my brightest salesman's smile. "Good afternoon, ladies." That got me a brief moment of applause. "Now, I know Mary Kay is a bit of a joke with everyone, but they really do make some superior products in my opinion. And, I brought my bud Mike here to prove it!" That got us another round of applause, and a few catcalls.

Mike just glared at me.

*Your fault,* I signed him, getting a sign that required no ASL training to understand in answer. Instead of responding I reached into the toolbox of supplies Deb had lent me and started pulling out what I thought I would need.

***
19:12 9 May

"Aaaaand voila!" I crowed, stepping back from Mike. "Take a look ladies. Whadda ya think?"

"Ohmigod he's so CUTE!" I heard someone yell, and that led to another round of giggles in the audience.

Not that the giggles had ever really stopped.

Mike just sat there, looking put upon. It had taken more work than I had thought it would to make him look like a semi-attractive girl, but I supposed the greater the transformation the more effective the marketing, or something like that.

"Are you gonna kiss him now?" Someone else in the crowd yelled, getting a chorus of yelps and even more giggles from the crowd.

"NO!" Mike snapped instantly, while for just a moment my mind wandered back to the times I had served as Debbie's guinea pig at these things.

I must have started smiling at the thought, because someone else yelled "I think he wants to!"

That wiped the smile pretty fast.

***
20:55 9 May

"I can't believe you did that!" Mike complained, taking another swig of the mouthwash he had made me stop at a convenience store and pay way too much for.

"They wanted me to," I said with a shrug, then grabbed the mouthwash and took a long pull of my own, spitting on the sidewalk when I was done. The kiss hadn't been pleasant for me either. "Besides, did you see how many consults I managed to sign up for? And how much we sold?"

Mike paused. "You said I get twenty--"

"FIFTEEN percent, Mike. Same as I got."

"But--"

"Hey, I'm only getting sixty percent myself," I moaned back before he could finish. "So no complaints, alright?"

He didn't say anything else, but he really wanted to, I could tell.

***
21:37 9 May

"...and I have two consults tomorrow afternoon, then another two next Saturday, plus one lady who wanted a consult during the week. Here's her contact information," I told Debbie, handing her everyone's orders, plus the checks and cash (minus our, me and Mike's, cut) plus everyone's contact information.

"Okay," Deb said distractedly as she scanned the forms to make sure everything was in order. I knew it was. Deb would kill me otherwise. "How'd Mike do?" She asked me when she finished, grinning evilly.

I grinned evilly right back. "Ohoho...."

***
22:04 9 May

"Never again," Mike said through a mouthful of chow mein. Taking him out to dinner was the least I could do.

*After all, I already got my goodnight kiss,* I chuckled to myself.

"Yes, again, Mike," I told him. "You're the one who made the bet with Debbie, so you have to do it at least once more."

"There's no 'at least' about it, Tuck," he grumbled, chasing a slippery slice of water chestnut with his chopsticks.

"It's easy money," I pointed out.

"No it isn't," he argued, the water chestnut finally giving up its struggle to avoid demise.

"Well, you could always see if Debbie would let you buy out of the obligation," I said. Not that I really knew if she WOULD, but if it involved money Deb was willing to compromise on a lot of things.

"You think?" He asked, a glimmer of hope shining in his eyes.

I just shrugged.

***

Welp, that's it for my little slice of Tuck-ness. I hope it was fun! Let's all hope Ellen gets back at things soon!

For anyone who isn't already familiar with Tuck, well, where have you been?! Anyway, here' a link to Ellen's web site. It's worth reading. I've done so at least ten times myself.

Walks Like A Duck

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Comedy

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School
  • Mature / Thirty+

TG Themes: 

  • Female to Male
  • Real World
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Slice of Life

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  • Posted by author(s)
Walks Like A Duck

"You know what they say, if it walks like a duck...."

"Pour water on it."

-Joyce Melton

By Melanie E.

-==-

"What do you mean you're a boy!" Evelyn asked her daughter, leaning back against the kitchen counter in shock.

"I mean what I said. I'm a boy, not a girl. I've always felt that way."

"But--"

"But what?"

"But," Evelyn said again, looking her daughter up and down. "But you don't look like a boy."

"That's why I need to see the doctor. I want to stop my body becoming any more feminine than it is."

"But you don't act like a boy!"

"What do boys act like?"

That one stumped Evelyn, since she had to admit that every answer she could come up with seemed awfully sexist, but she thought her next question would cinch it.

"But you like boys, don't you?"

"I mean, yeah! What's that got to do with anything? Or do you object to me being gay too?"

"I..." Evelyn started, but trailed off, not sure what to say.

"Sigh. Mom, I love you, but I'm tired of living a lie. I need to do this."

Evelyn swallowed hard, then took another look at the papers from the doctor's office she had been handed. It was as her child had told her: nothing permanent, no hormone treatments for at least two years of evaluation. No surgeries until they were eighteen at the earliest, giving her three years to come to grips with what she'd been told.

She loved her child. She would always love her child.

"Fine," Evelyn conceded, standing up and giving her daughter -- no, son? Her child a kiss on the forehead. "Then what do I call you?"

"Jamie, same as always," Jamie said, giving his mom a firm hug.

"So I guess no more skirts or makeup then?" Evelyn asked disappointedly, once again taking in Jamie's feminine outfit.

Jamie laughed. "Why not? Boys can wear skirts too!"

"Oh," Evelyn said, leaning against the counter again as she considered her problems once more.

-==-

END

NOTES:

Okay, so this is short and silly, but it's inspired by a lot of comments I've been getting on my own stories, and seeing on other folks' stories, about how characters who look, or act, or sound feminine should just give in to being girls, because, well, they're girls, aren't they?

It makes me want to ask one simple question: "Why?"

Comments, kudos, and discussion welcome.

*hugs*

Who's Fooling Who?

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Tricked / Outsmarted
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)


Who’s Fooling Who?


An April Fool’s Romance by Melanie E.

-----

“I look stupid.”

“It’s funny!”

“No, it’s stupid, and I’m not doing it.”

“Come on!”

“NO.”

I stared at Simone, and Simone stared back at me. It was a game we’d played many times over the years, waiting to see who would give first.

This time, it was her.

“UGH. Fine. You don’t have to wear the dress,” she agreed, dropping the candy-pink-and-crinolines monstrosity back on her bed.

“Thank you,” I said, breathing a sigh of relief.

I felt bad enough about agreeing to the whole ‘joke’ in the first place. The last thing I wanted was to look like an idiot in the process.

“So tell me again, why we’re doing this?” I said as I dug through Simone’s closet, looking for a particular dress I knew she had. I smiled when I found it hanging near the back, most likely in an attempt to hide it from me.

“Because it’s fun—”

“—Funny, yeah, I got that already.” I sighed as I stripped off my jeans and tee, showing off the lingerie I’d brought from home. “I just don’t get why.”

Simone shrugged. “Because Jake’s turned down every girl I’ve tried to set him up with in the last year, and it’s our senior year, and we’re all going off to different colleges soon and because… because…?”

“Because you think it’s neat fooling people into thinking I’m a girl?” I asked as I zipped the dress up and took a look at myself in the mirror, pulling it a bit here and there to adjust it. It looked like a simple denim jumper dress, but with a peach colored top built into it that gave it a very cute look.

“I mean… yeah?”

I shook my head. “Jake knows we do this, so it’s not gonna fool him for a moment. Heck, he’s hung out with us when we’ve done this before.”

“I know! I know. But he finally agreed to a blind date, and—”

“On April Fool’s Day.”

“...Yeah?”

“You sure he’s the one you’re playing a prank on?”

Simone giggled and fell back on her bed, rolling her eyes. “Oh, come on. Jake’s sense of humor begins and ends at dad jokes and bad puns.”

“True,” I agreed with a titter of my own before putting on a serious face. “Still. Don’t you feel like it’s a bit mean to set up a friend like this?”

“Set him up how?” she asked, climbing off the bed and walking over to me. “Here, turn around and do your makeup, and I’ll work on your hair.”

“Alright.”

“God, you need a trim, these split ends….”

“Simone?”

“Hmm?”

“Setting him up?”

“Oh! Pfft.” She waved a hand dismissively. “It’s all in good fun. The two of you get something to eat, you poke a bit of fun at him about it, and you end the night back at my place giving him a big sloppy kiss on the cheek, and we all laugh. End of, right?”

“I still think it’s mean. You could still call Abigail; she’s had a crush on him for a while.”

Simone frowned. “She started dating Eddie last week.”

“Gwen?”

“Got mono.”

“Yeesh. Beth-ann?”

“Doing some kinda rodeo thing with her folks.”

“There’s always you.”

Simone laughed. “I think Robby would have a fit if that happened. ‘Sides, we’ll be eating on the other side of the restaurant from y’all, watching the whole show.”

“Well, at least you’re picking up the tab.”

“Robby is. It is a date night, after all!” She did a little more futzing, then grinned at me in the mirror. “There! Perfect!”

I set down the eyebrow pencil I’d been playing with and studied myself for a moment, and couldn’t help but agree. She’d done wonders with my mop of chocolate-brown hair, and I’d done a very light and simple makeup job, to go with the friendly and cute outfit. I wasn’t ravishing or anything… but it was a bit of a Girl Next Door look that I thought would work well for the evening.

Simone laughed again. “I think the only real problem we’ll have tonight is not accidentally convincing Jake you really are a girl!”

I rolled my eyes at that, but said nothing.

-==-

Simone and Robby spent the entire ride to the restaurant giggling at each other and looking at me in the rear-view mirror. It was something they tended to do whenever we had one of these excursions where I got dressed up and we went out – they got a big thrill out of the whole thing, far moreso than I ever did.

For my part, I just kept a gentle smile on my face. The last thing I wanted from the night was for anyone to be hurt by what happened, even by accident, but there was too much potential for disaster for me to be entirely comfortable with it all.

When we pulled into the parking lot, Jake was already there, holding a parking spot next to his truck for us. He was smiling as we pulled up, but his expression rightfully grew more nervous as we parked.

“Hey bud!” Robby said, slapping him on the shoulder after getting out of the car. “I was a bit worried you wouldn’t show!”

“Why not? Gets Simmy off my back,” he said, though he gave Simone a genuine smile to soften his words. “So, who’s my date this evening?”

“None other than my good girl friend, Addie!” Simone said, swinging the back door of the car open and presenting me like some kind of game show prize.

“Addison?”

“Hey Jake,” I said, unable to hide my nervousness and embarrassment at the whole situation. “Umm.”

“We’ll let you two visit for a bit and see you inside,” Simone said, barely containing her giggles. “Treat her right, Jake!”

“See ya later bud!” Robby said, content to let Simone drag him into the restaurant, leaving the two of us standing outside.

….

“I….” I began, then paused.

“So what’s the plan then?” Jake said, not looking a lot more comfortable than I felt.

I sighed. “The plan was for me to act super-girly and embarrassing in the restaurant, I think, but I shot down the worst of that before we left Simone’s place.”

Jake nodded. “So am I paying or?”

I shook my head. “Robby’s said he has our ticket, but I’ve got enough cash in my purse if I need it.”

Jake nodded. “Huh.”

“I don’t get why this was supposed to be funny,” I admitted, though I couldn’t help but follow it up with a bit of a nervous giggle.

Jake gave me a genuine smile. “Yeah, well. Wanna get something to eat?” He asked, then offered me his arm.

“Absolutely.”

-==-

Simone and Robby’s smiles were gleaming when we walked into the restaurant, but turned to confusion when they saw us arm in arm. That confusion continued as the host escorted us to a table across the way from theirs (though in full view,) where Jake pulled out my seat for me, and then through us making light conversation and laughing before we ordered our appetizer – Robby’s wallet was going to regret this.

Jake shook his head. “I still can’t believe this is what Simone wanted to do for an April Fool’s joke.”

“I know,” I agreed with a shrug. “With how long she’s been badgering you to go on a blind date, you’d think she’da wanted to avoid burning that bridge in the future.”

“Eh. She probably figures we’re seniors and this is one of the last chances she’ll have to do this kinda thing.”

I gave him a long look. “That’s almost exactly what she said when I asked her about it. You sure the two of you haven’t been conspiring against me?”

Jake laughed at that as he reached for a chicken strip on the fully-loaded appetizer platter. “Just astute, I guess.”

I took a strip of my own, and we quietly munched for a bit, neither one of us sure exactly what to do next.

“So… you still planning to start hormones this summer?” He finally asked me.

I nodded. “Yeah. Mom and Dad asked me to stay on the blockers ‘til graduation, just in case I changed my mind… but that’s not gonna happen, and I think they’ve resigned themselves to that.” I sighed. “I guess it’s better than them refusing to help at all, but still.”

“It sucks.”

“...Yeah.”

“Well, you look nice,” he said, pointing at my dress. “That yours or Simone’s?”

“It’s Simone’s,” I admitted. “I know it’s probably pretty dumb, but I still haven’t told her I’m….”

“You don’t think she’d take it well?”

“I don’t know, and that’s scary. But after this summer so much stuff will change, y’know?”

“You’re still going to State though, right?” He asked me, just a little nervously.

I laughed. “Of course!”

“Good,” he said, breathing a sigh of relief.

“I wasn’t about to abandon ya.” I smiled at him, and he smiled back.

Our entrees arrived – a small steak for him and a plate of pasta for me – and for a while it was just us eating, as Robby and Simone continued to watch us from across the way, half in annoyance as they ate their own salad and burger, and half in morbid curiosity.

We were halfway through our food when Jake popped the question.

“So, are we ready to turn the tables on ‘em now?”

I grinned and reached across the table, taking his hand in mine. “I’ve been waiting for you to ask that since we got here.”

He squeezed my hand, then waved the waiter over and requested to-go boxes for our food before telling the waiter to give the check to Robby. The waiter checked with Robby before going to get our boxes, and now the looks of confusion on our friend’s faces were even worse.

“I still can’t believe we’ve gone all year without either of them cluing in to this,” I said, lifting our joined hands just enough I knew they’d be visible to our friends.

Jake laughed. “Well, we’ve all kinda been caught up in our own stuff,” he said, kissing my hand gently.

“True.”

Our to-go boxes arrived, and as we packed our food away I told Jake about Simone’s plan to get a picture of us sharing a big post-date cheek kiss at her house.

“Well, we can’t disappoint her, can we?” He asked me as he pulled out his phone. He offered me his free hand, and as we stood up he pulled me close… dipped me back… and gave me a deep, toe-curling kiss.

Click

-==-

“I hate you.”

“No you don’t,” I said, grinning over my lunch plate of leftovers from the date night before.

“Yes I do!” Simone said, ruining the effect with another giggle. “You led me on, you set me up, you—”

“Got the best April Fool’s ever pulled over on you?”

“—YES! I hate that!”

I just grinned and munched, Simone’s cell phone laying between us. On its face was the selfie Jake took of our kiss in the restaurant, my eyes closed in bliss… and there were Simone and Robby in the background.

The look of shock on their faces was absolutely worth it.

-==-

END

NOTES:

Pulling it in just under the wire my time zone, I hope people enjoy this little vignette :)

Comments and kudos appreciated!

Melanie E.

Never Mind the Bollocks, Here's a Story

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
Never Mind the Bollocks, Here's a Story

By Melanie E.

I feel like writing something today, so here we go. An open ++fiction page, a keyboard, and a little bit of time. What can we come up with?

-==-

I wasn't mad, at least not exactly. I was surprised, yes, and upset, sure, but "mad" would require a level of situational comprehension I simply wasn't capable of at the moment.

"It was an accident." Jimmy said, with an emphatic seven-year-old nod.

"Promise," Jenny said, nodding right along with her twin brother.

"But... but..." I looked at my youngest siblings, then back at the remains of my PlayTendo 360. "How did you make it EXPLODE?!" I gingerly reached out and pulled a sliver of what had been one of my favorite games out of the wall behind the now-ruined television, then worriedly looked back at my brother and sister in case either of them had somehow managed to get sliced to bits and we just hadn't noticed yet. It was a relief to see that neither of them were hurt, though the more time I spent looking at the damage they'd caused the more it became likely they'd both be seeing some retribution in the near future.

"Jake at school told me that if I took the fan off it it would stop being loud," Jimmy whined, giving me a pathetic tear-streaked look. "We couldn't open it up, so we stuck a marker in the fan to stop it and it was quiet for a bit, then it started screaming and then it blew up."

"We just wanted to make it better," Jenny added, looking just as distraught.

Mom and dad were gonna be pissed when they saw this, and I for one wasn't about to be there to see it.

"Where's was Marilyn anyway?" I asked them, since even with her many shortcomings our cousin-slash-babysitter usually did a decent job of preventing the Terrible Twosome from getting into this much trouble.

"She was on the phone with gramma in the kitchen."

"Of course she was," I muttered, adding another name to the list for vengeance. That was where she was at the moment as well, still oblivious to the disaster the twins had caused in the living room. Still, with any luck she would be adult enough to call the hospital if one of them were to get hurt. With that knowledge I started for the front door.

Stop.

If she hadn't responded to what had to be an awful racket and screams when that thing had blown up....

I walked into the kitchen, and the brats were wrong. Cousin Marilyn wasn't on the phone; she was asleep at the table, a bottle of wine she wasn't supposed to have next to her and two more empties on the floor.

Okay, now I definitely knew who I was going to punish for all this, though I had a phone call to make first. It took two tries before Mom picked up, but as soon as I heard the click of her answering I didn't even wait for her to say anything before I started in.

"Mom, get home right now; Marilyn's in the kitchen passed out drunk, and the Twins... well, they're the twins," I grumbled.

Mom's panicked gasp quickly turned into a strained sigh as my words sunk in. "Well... shit. I'll be there in fifteen. Can you stay with the twins hon?"

"I'd really rather not."

"Too bad. Thanks," she said, then hung up before I could say anything else.

My thoughts echoed her words perfectly though.

Shit.

-==-

Welp, that's it for now. Not much? Nope! The end? Probably not, but maybe. TG? Nnnnot right now, but could be the start of such a story I guess; I can think of several plots that could erupt from this that could make it so. Regardless, this is what I wrote, so this is what you get. Hope y'all enjoyed it, and maybe if I feel like writing more later I'll expand it, who knows!

Never Mind the Bollocks, Here's a Story 2

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)


Never Mind The Bollocks, Here's a Story

Number 2 of who-the-heck-even-knows

By Melanie E.

Internet. Keyboard. Free time. STORY!

-==-

Fifteen minutes turned into half an hour, all 30 minutes of which the twins managed to fill with every apology, nicety, and plea not to get in trouble they could. Meanwhile I spent the time cleaning up their mess and leaving our cousin to pickle in the kitchen. The TV was toast, as was my console (obviously,) but luckily those seemed to be the only two things seriously damaged by the incident. Mom was going to be mad, but the TV was pretty old anyway, and all my saves were backed up to a flash drive in my room, so it wasn't the end of the world.

Of course, I couldn't let the twins know that, could I?

"But we don't have any money!"

"Then I guess you'll just have to work off the cost of a new TV with mom and dad," I said, tsking as I wiped down the wall and wondered if we had any filling putty in the garage. "Then you can buy me a new system too."

"But those are like eleventy-million dollars!" Jenny cried.

"Eleventy million and twelve," I countered, getting a gasp from both of them. In truth replacing the TV, the game, and the console would be maybe five hundred all together, but at their age what was the difference? "I'm sure you'll have them replaced by the time you get to high school though."

"But we'll be old then!"

I managed to bite back my laugh and turned toward them, glaring. "So being in high school makes me old then?" I asked, giving them every opportunity to dig themselves deeper into the hole they were already trapped in. Luckily for them we all heard the front door open before they had a chance to answer.

To say Mom was pissed would be an understatement. We started in the front room, where she gave the twins a good tongue lashing before sending them to their rooms. This was less a punishment for them than it was a gift, though, because it meant they didn't have to see the confrontation between Mom and Marilyn.

It took the two of us the better part of ten minutes to wake her up, but as soon as she saw Mom she knew she was in deep trouble. She tried to give Mom a sob story about problems with her husband and money -- the same one she'd used on grandma so often -- but Mom wasn't listening.

"I let you stay here with my CHILDREN, Lyn! I trusted you, and gave you a chance to prove yourself worth that trust. Get out and don't come back."

"But...."

"OUT!" Mom screeched, making both me and our cousin jump. "And take this shit with you!" Mom said, kicking over one of the empty wine bottles. Despite her condition our cousin was out of there like a shot, likely heading across the street to our grandmother's place to hide out.

With that it was just me and a haggard looking Mom, who almost immediately collapsed into Marilyn's vacated seat and collapsed forward, head in her hands. "Jeezus."

"I know, Mom," I said, patting her on the shoulder. I still wanted nothing more than to just get out of there, but I knew that wasn't the right thing to do.

"How're you staying so calm, Sam?" She asked me. "If your uncle Ben had done that to something of mine I'd still be in jail on the murder charges."

"I'm used to it," I said with a sigh, remembering all too many other times the twins had tried to "help" me. "Besides, it's really Mar's fault, not theirs. If she'd been watching them like she was supposed to...."

Mom gave me a grateful smile. "True. Still, I can't believe how patient you are with those two. Sometimes it feels like you can deal with them better than I can."

I shrugged. "They're good kids, just, I dunno."

"Destructive? Trouble magnets?"

"I was thinking 'rambunctious,'" I answered her with a snort.

"Hon, you are the master of understatement." Her smile quickly faded as she closed her eyes and put her head in her hands again. "Ugh. What am I gonna do for a babysitter now? Marilyn wasn't the best choice, but she was the last option we had. If only I didn't have to work afternoons."

We sat in silence for a bit after that. I was too busy tutoring in the afternoons to do the babysitting myself, and that was on the days I didn't have something else going on, like practice with my band. Looking at Mom, though, there had to be something I could do to help.

The problem was I really didn't want to.

"Mom?"

"Yeah honey?"

I gulped down my own distaste at what I was about to say before continuing. "If... if I HAVE to... I can tutor from the house I guess?"

Mom was about to say no, I could see it in her face, and for a brief moment I felt a glimmer of hope that I might not have to watch the twins. Then, that glimmer was destroyed by mom's pause followed by her look of relief. "Okay hon. And as much as your dad's gonna hate it, tell Greg he can bring his drums over to our garage and your group can play here too. I really appreciate this, Sam."

"No prob, Mom," I said, hoping she couldn't see the disappointment on my face.

Well. Now not only had I lost my console, AND my favorite game, but I'd also lost what little freedom I'd had on the afternoons.

The twins would pay. Oh, yes... they would pay.

-==-

Welp, there ya go. Not sure how long I just spent typing this up, but it advances the plot beyond what I'd put in the first one, and opens things up for if I continue this in the future. Regardless, thank you for reading, and feel free to comment -- I always appreciate them.

Never Mind the Bollocks, Here's a Story 3

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)


Never Mind the Bollocks, Here's a Story 3

By Melanie E.

Suffering the interminable wait until new compy parts arrive via the wonders of UPS and internet purchases while my brain slowly melts out my ears due to exhaustion after a long night at work. Heck, what better time to try and write a bit of story?

-==-

We finished up with our third song to riotous cheering and clapping from our small but enthralled audience, Jimmy and Jenny both bouncing up and down excitedly. "More, more!"

"Pleeeeease?"

"Whadda you say, guys?" I asked my bandmates, all of whom gave me nods or thumbs up. Well, all except for Greg, who instead gave a rim flam that made me glad I'd fitted both the twins and myself with ear plugs before we'd started. With a quick one-two-three click of his sticks we were off into the next song of the set we'd been working on for the last couple of weeks, my bass amp thunking away next to me as we played.

It had been a week since that ruinous afternoon, but I'd yet to actually do anything to the twins as punishment for destroying my stuff. Mom had punished them plenty in her own way, grounding them (no big deal at seven, though the way they'd wailed it was the end of the world,) and taking away their tablets until they really DID manage to "pay back" the cost of a new TV and console by doing chores around the house. Still, there were things I could get away with as the eldest sibling that Mom just couldn't do, and I had spent many a happy if malicious minute contemplating just what I would to to wrest my revenge from them.

Even with that, though, I had to admit things hadn't gone too badly since. Moving tutoring to my house instead of going to the homes of the people I was helping had actually been a good thing, since it had allowed me to compress the time I spent tutoring down a bit without having to account for travel time, and as me and the band had quickly figured out, having a live audience to play for was infinitely better than Greg's sad excuse for a mutt back at his place.

I sang my heart out as we played, too. Yeah, I know, bass guitar and lead singer, weird combo huh? What can I say, Dad was a rush fan, and I'd kinda inherited the addiction. We'd kind of patterned ourselves on the band a bit at first, but our lineup had expanded since with Greg on drums, me on bass and vocals, and our friends Julio and Jesus (hey-soos) on twin guitars, with Greg's sister Emma playing keyboards for us. It was a blast, and we'd even tried our hand at a Rush song or two, though none of us were anywhere near good enough to actually emulate them. Still, even being able to play some of the Top 40 stuff off the radio was fun.

We finished up with our version of Imagine Dragons' "Radioactive" to more cheering and applause, and I could feel the grin growing on my face when the twins' excitement was finally too much for them and they came up to us and started chattering nonstop at Julio and Jesus. Since they were twins too the little devils had taken an instant liking to them, and for Julio and Jesus' part they had taken it in stride, humoring the kids as much as they could.

My musings as I watched the two pairs of twins chatting was interrupted by a tapping on my shoulder, and when I turned around I found Emily standing there, a smile on her own face. I quickly took my earplugs out and palmed them, giving her a shrug. "What's up?"

"Nothing," she said, giggling. "I was just saying how nice it is to see how much you love the twins."

"Who, those monsters?" I asked, raising my voice to make sure the monsters in question heard. I waited until I got the growls in answer I'd been expecting before continuing. "I kinda have to. I mean, I'm their big brother."

"Maybe," she said, still grinning from ear to ear, "but there's more there. You really care about them a lot, like take care of them, don't you?"

Now I was getting embarrassed. "Well, I mean, Mom and Dad work a lot, so it just kinda happens."

"Really? GREG!" She called over my shoulder, making me wince and wish for a moment I'd kept my earplugs in.

"Yep?" Greg asked from behind me, close enough to make me jump.

"You ever see Sam here do anything to hurt those two?" She asked him, pointing at my still-preoccupied siblings.

"Not once," Greg answered, laying a hefty hand on my shoulder. Greg was one of those guys who a lot of people found intimidating just hearing his voice and seeing how big he was. "Since they were born lil' Sam's been super protective of them."

"Thought so," Emma said, giggling again. "No wonder they adore you."

"They do?"

"Like you didn't know that already," she scoffed, giving me a playful shove.

Greg and Emma had been my friends since, heck, I couldn't remember a time we WEREN'T a group. Greg and his sister were less than a year apart, and due to a quirk in the way our school handled entrance ages the three of us had always been in the same class at school. I'd actually met Emma first, the two of us arguing over who got the play kitchen our first day in kindergarten, and we'd been an inseparable trio since. We picked on Greg a lot about being the baby of the bunch, but he'd turn right around and pick on both of us for being little elfs, something that always bothered me since I wasn't THAT short.

Greg and Emma just stood there while I thought about everything. Them, me, the twins. I looked Jimmy and Jenny's way again, and the two of them looked back toward me with grins from ear to ear before turning back to our guitar players.

Maybe I wouldn't make my revenge on them all THAT bad....

-==-

NOTES: I know, I know, still no TG, but whatever. If that's what you're waiting for, I promise it'll come eventually; I'm just not rushing myself since this is all just a "hey let's write something" spur of the moment thing anyway.

So, read, enjoy, and let me know what you think in the comments below. Suggestions for the future are welcome, since this is all flying by the seat of my pants anyhow.

Oh, Cheers:

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

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Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Oh, Cheers

Oh, Cheers: Part 1- Go!

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • School or College Life
  • Stuck
  • Identity Crisis

TG Elements: 

  • Estrogen / Hormones
  • Gym Class / Cheerleaders

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  • Posted by author(s)

Oh, Cheers

Part 1. Oh, Cheers- GO!

How'm I gonna get myself out of this one? I mean, it was kinda funny at first, but...
How do you exlpain to your parents you're on your school's all girl cheerleading squad when you're a guy?

Oh, Cheers
By Melanie Ezell
Part 1: GO!

So, in all honesty, maybe it wasn’t the most brilliant of ideas. But hey, when you’re a freshman with no friends, and seen as one of the biggest wimps in your school to boot, a stupid idea can sound like a pretty reasonable option to obtain a little popularity.

At least, until it backfires.

My name is Dane Phoenix. I’m fourteen, and one of the smallest kids in my class, due mostly to what the doctors found out is a pretty bad hormone imbalance. Apparently my system doesn’t produce testosterone like it should. I was cleared for hormones at my last appointment, and I start them on Monday, but until then…

I think I coulda avoided this entire mess if it wasn’t for that jerk Thomas Brody. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not a total weakling- I’m a black belt in Tae Kwon Do, which is pretty good for a fourteen year old, and I’ve also been doing gymnastics for the past two years ‘cause it’s the closest thing I know of to pro Parkour training, and ever since I saw a video of kids doing Parkour online a few years back I’ve wanted to be able to do all that stuff too. Anyways, the point is I know how to move and how to defend myself, but let’s face it, when someone picks you up from behind by a fistful of hair, it’s kinda hard to fight back.

“Hey flamer, where ya goin’, huh? Girl’s rooms are the other way, or are you still pretendin’ to be a guy?”

“Flamer? Heh, good one.” While I seriously doubt he intended the pun, it had a kind of ironic humor to it.

“You makin’ fun of me you lil’ lezzie? Or are you a faggot? I can’t tell one way or th’ other.”

TB does stuff like this to me all the time, and has ever since the fifth grade, but it’s been getting a lot worse lately. The least he could do is show a little creativity. Not only that, but the angle he was holding my head at was really starting to hurt. “Come on, Brody, we’ve been in the same class for years, and you’ve been saying the exact same things since the seventh grade. Why don’t you just crawl back into your tidal pool and leave me alone?” A junior boy passing us in the hallway snickered when he overheard me, but all it got from TB was a jerk on my ponytail that pulled me completely off my feet. I couldn’t help screaming, but can you really blame me?

“C’mon, TB, let ‘im go.” My feet hit the ground again, and I managed to raise my head enough to see Patty standing there with her hands on her hips.

Okay, so I was perhaps being a TAD dramatic when I said I had no friends at all- everyone has a few people they ‘hang out’ with, after all- but Patty is really more like my sister than my friend. We’ve been close since we were babies, our moms were best friends when they were our age, and our families had even moved together to Brighton almost five years ago. Even back then, she had a tendency to get me out of- and into- lots of tight situations.

“Really, Thomas, I don’t think the teachers would like it if you were to get in trouble for fighting again. And with how much you’ve gotten in trouble already this year you’d get suspended for sure, maybe even expelled. Do you really want that?” Hah! I just wish I could see his face now!

“Whatever.” I could hear the contempt dripping from his words as he let go of my hair and pushed me forwards, sending me sprawling across the tile in the middle of the hallway. The sound of him stomping angrily away was interrupted by the bell indicating only five minutes left to get to class, and Patty bending down to help me up.

“Hey, just forget him. He’s just an asshole, that’s all.” I looked up at my friend. She was one of the tallest people in our class, and at five foot eight she towered over my five even frame. That, along with her athletic but not bulky build meant no one ever seemed to mess with her, and I was more than a little jealous since I’m one of those people that look like a stiff breeze could bowl them over, even though she complained a lot about guys being intimidated by her.

I sighed heavily and shrugged. “Yeah, I know. Thanks for the help, but I think we’d better hurry or we’ll be late for class.” I knew she was right, but after so long I was just so tired of him picking on me! I had to find a way to get him to stop, or at least get enough respect from the other guys they wouldn’t let him get by with it any more.

“Ooh, yeah, the cheerleading tryouts, I forgot! You’ll be there to support me, right?” Patty asked me as we passed the bulletin board outside our history class.

“Uh, yeah, sure.” Hmm, I wonder…..

===

“Good afternoon, and welcome to the Brighton High cheerleading tryouts!” Applause erupted around me as fifty girls started clapping for Lisa Gilbert, the Captain of our cheerleading squad. All eyes were on the tall raven-haired girl as she crossed the basketball court to the center line where the judge’s table was set, mic in hand.

Our school, while not the smallest place in the world, isn’t exactly what you’d call the most modern of places when it came to a number of policies, our cheerleaders being one of them. Guys aren’t even allowed to try out for mascot, they’re THAT anal about it. Patty squeezed my hand tightly; I was only here as here ‘immoral support’ after all. On the other hand…

I felt really lucky my cell phone had a camera on it. Don’t get me wrong, I’m no perv, but what better way to get in good with the other guys than give them a bunch of pics of cute girls flashing their underwear for all the world to see? Felt bad about what I was planning to do, and I knew I’d be racked with guilt if I actually went through with it, but I’ve been getting picked on by Brody for so long, you gotta give me a break! ‘Sides, it’s not like I’m sneaking into the locker rooms or something and catching them naked.

Lisa coughed lightly into the mic, and the entire group seemed to fall silent instantly, their attention completely focused on her. “As you all know, about a third of our squad graduated at the end of last year. While we did do tryouts then to fill their old spots, an +ahem+ unfortunate accident cost us several more members over the summer.” Heh, accident indeed- the girls got drunk and drove one of their parents’ new Jaguar through a window- right into the front office of the police station. “We’re looking for ten new girls today, five for ‘B’ team and five backups in case someone else gets hurt. You may not get a position, but you’re all winners just for being here today.” Ooh, that was a bit too saccharine, doncha think? On that note, she sat down her mic and led a few of the other cheerleaders, apparently our judges for today, in a short demonstration of some of their basic cheers, and I took the opportunity to snap a few candid shots I might be able to use.

I tried taking pictures like I’d planned for a while, but it wasn’t long before I abandoned that idea in exchange for simply enjoying the performances. It was a stupid plan anyway, and the more I thought about it the more I realized I couldn’t do that to these girls. Besides, Patty would kill me if she found out- it just wasn’t worth it, but the show definitely was.

It’s embarrassing, but since I’m in gymnastics and Patty wanted to try out for cheerleading, I’d been drafted into helping her with practicing the more acrobatic elements of the cheers. ‘In return’, as she put it, she taught me all the hand motions and counts and things so she’d have someone to practice with, so I know a bit about the whole cheering thing and guess I can tell a good cheer from a bad one. Some of the girls trying out weren’t bad, though none of them were as good as Patty or the girls already on the squad, but some of them were absolutely terribly. One girl actually tripped over her own feet on her way out onto the court!

At the end of the tryouts I figured there were maybe seven girls, Patty included, good enough to make it on the squad. In the end I was sitting alone on the bleachers, waiting for Patty to finish up in the locker room.

“Hey!” I turned from watching the locker room to find a pair of ice blue eyes staring at me from under a mane of thick black hair. Lisa! “Did you want to try out?”

I just looked at her, dumbstruck.

“Come on, there’s still time left!” She then leaned over and whispered in my ear, “Besides, you can’t be as bad as some of the girls who already tried out, yikes!”

“No thanks, I’m not-“ I was cut off in mid sentence as she drug me from my seat to the middle of the tryout area and returned to her seat of power. What’s going on- no, wait. She can’t. Does she think I’m a girl?

“Okay, come on, show us what you got!”

I shrugged. I mean, what the hell, it’s not like I have a chance anyway, is it? Since I’d practiced with Patty, I decided to just do one of our school’s standard cheers.

‘BRIGH-ton HIGH we ARE the BEST,
WE play BET-ter THAN the REST.
And IF you’re WEAK then STAY a-WAY,
BRIGH-ton BRIGH-ton ALL the WAY!’

I finished up with a cartwheel and splits, just to have a little fun and show off a bit. That was probably a bad idea.

“Not bad, not bad! Looks like you already know some of our basic stuff, good deal! Hmm, just for fun let’s see you try this.” She pressed a couple of buttons on the boom box next to her, and after a short delay one of their cheer songs came on.

Heh, and I knew this one, too. I’m more into Punk and Ska myself, but Patty’s practices had taught me more than I ever wanted to know about pop music. I started in on the fourth beat with a big armed ‘V’ thing, to a high kick, to a funky Tae’bo punchy thing, and so on and so forth. Hey, so what if I don’t know all the techie terms! It was actually a lot of fun doing all this stuff with Patty, and alone was no different; by the time I finished I was sweating, but I also had a big grin plastered on my face, I knew.

That changed quickly when I heard the applause. I spun away from the cheerleaders to find almost every girl from the tryouts clapping for me, with Patty right at the front, whooping and hollering. God, I was so embarrassed!

I felt someone approach from behind me, then I heard Lisa begin to speak. “Well done, everyone! Thanks for your time, and I promise we’ll have the votes posted on the bulletin board at lunch tomorrow.” Then she turned and spoke to me! “What’s your name, sweetie?”

“D-d-dane P-phoenix.” The audience still had me pretty rattled, and why did she need my name? Oh god, what have I done?

“Thanks.” She turned quickly and returned to the table where I heard her discussing something with the other cheerleaders, then a few hasty notes being scribbled. Were they going to report me for being there during the tryouts or something?

I made my way towards the door as quickly as possible, and Patty met me there. “Well, well, little Dane wants to be a cheerleader?”

“Shut up! I’ll explain later.” Not that I had any intention of explaining, really. And on that bright note, we headed home.

===

School the next day started out pretty normally, and while I hadn’t quite forgotten about the incident with the tryouts the afternoon before, I was working really hard on it. It was only the third week of school, so classes were just starting to pick up, so I was working my way through the mid-week busywork when I heard a squeal and looked up to see Patty jumping out of her seat.

“The results are up!” She trilled as she dragged me out of my seat and towards a crowd of girls gathered around the lunchroom bulletin board where Miss Cole, the cheer coach and Algebras teacher- weird, huh?- was posting the list with all the formality possible when you’re surrounded by thirty screaming girls.

After a while the two of us finally managed to push our way through, finding ourselves almost pressed into the bulletin board by the mass of cheer psychos behind us. The list was arranged loosely worst to best, starting with the rather polite ‘Honorable Mentions’ and progressing down to the new squad members. So, let’s see where Patty placed!

‘Honorable Mentions’? Nope, not there, thank god!

‘Backups’? Not there either! That means…

Yes! There she is! “Hey, Patty, you made it, congratulations!”

I turned towards her, expecting her to begin some sort of happy cheer jig, but I was stopped dead by the look of shock on her face. “I’m not the only one, look again,” she said in a daze, staring at the list. It didn’t take long for me to find what she was talking about, and shortly thereafter I was wearing an expression similar to hers.

Like most, our school has a two-part cheer team. The first part, or ‘A squad’ as they are usually called, does all the big stunts and has all the best members on it, while ‘B squad’ is kinda like backup, fleshing out the routines and helping with the biggest of the formations. All of the positions the girls had been trying for were on ‘B squad’, with I guess the intention being to move the best of the established members up to ‘A’. But there on the list was a single name set aside from the others and in bolder, larger print. As my vision began to fade, those four words kept cycling before my eyes over and over in my head.

A SQUAD- DANA PHOENIX

===

“Ohmygod, is she okay?”

“Just shock I think, or probably just a Drama Queen.”

“D? D! Wake up!”

“Wait, that’s the Dana that make ‘A’? But she’s so young!”

I pried my eyes open to see Patty leaning over me with a concerned expression, and Miss Cole right behind her.

“I think ‘e’s coming ‘round,” I saw Patty mumble as her face brightened a bit.

“God, I’d kill to get on ‘A’ squad.”

“Well, now’s your chance, if you’re quick about it.”

“Shelby!”

“Girls, down! Are you alright, sweetie?”

I tried to lift my head, and nearly passed out again. Ouch. “What happened?”

Patty coughed. “You were looking at the list and I guess when you saw your name…”

Oh. Yeah. Shit. I closed my eyes for a moment to try and calm my stomach, but was shaken by Patty the instant my lids met. “Hey, ease up, wouldja? I ain’t dead you know.”

She laughed at that. “Yep, you’ll be fine. I did try to catch you when you fell, but everyone panicked and I just couldn’t. You got a pretty nice bump on your head, but those pink streaks hide it pretty well.”

“They’re not pink, they’re red.”

“Not any more.”

I just sighed. Stupid cheap hair dye. “well, sor-ry, I’ll redo them when I get home.”

“Oh, don’t do that!” A voice I recognized as Lisa’s butted in. “The pink will look like SO cute with your new uniform!” Uniform- right. Double shit.

“Uh, Lisa, about that-“ I started, but she quickly cut me off.

“Oh, I know the tryouts were just for ‘B squad’, but after your like totally perfect performance of our cheers,” —drat Patty and her constant practicing!- “well, even the other girls, and Coach Cole too, agreed you were like ‘A squad’ all the way! Oh, please say yes!”

O-kay. Moment of truth, here. “Sorry, but I’m not a giRFGHTG!”

“She’s not really all back yet. Of course she’ll do it.” Patty, how could you? I tried to speak again, but she still hadn’t taken her hand off my mouth, and when she kicked me I yelped and gave up. “Oops! You poor dear, here, let’s go to the nurse’s office and get you fixed up. I’ll get our uniforms after school, ‘kay Lisa?”

“Uh, yeah, great! See you then!” A quick hug from Lisa later, and I was being dragged down the hallway by Patty. We stopped in an alcove outside a classroom, and when I finally got out of her grip I was mad as hell!

“Patty, tell me, just what the hell do you think you’re doing? I can’t be a cheerleader, I’m not a girl! Or did you forget that little tidbit, like in second grade when you tried to talk Joey Reymond into kissing me?”

“You’re still mad about that?”

“YES! Not only that, but what about Brody, huh? He’ll just love this, his favorite target trying out for the cheer team. What little respect I get from the guys’ll be gone, too!”

“Oh, give it up, Dane. You wanna know something?” She didn’t wait for my answer before she continued. “Most of the kids in school think you’re a girl already! Don’t ask me why, with the way you dress. Fuck, most of the kids who even know you exist think you’re either a tomboy or a lesbian! Do you have any idea how many times Sarah Blackwell has asked me to dump you and go out with her?” I snorted- Sarah acted about as bad as TB, but with marginally less facial hair. Then I thought about what she’d said- now I was really pissed.

“Well, if you know all this then why don’t you try to correct them? You’re supposed to be my best friend! Anyways, starting Monday things’re gonna change, I’ll start growing and nobody’ll think I’m a girl then!” Great, now I was crying, too!

Patty’s slap, while not hard, brought me back out of my self pity and into current events, and she seemed just as mad as me. “I have tried, don’t you DARE think AI haven’t! It’s stunts like what you pulled yesterday that make it so hard, though! And your hair, I mean, oh my GOD, what were you thinking! It is like REALLY pink now- heck, with that hair you look even girlier than me, and it just ain’t fair!”

Just fan-freakin’-tastic, now she’s crying too! One thing did come of her speech, though, and that was that I calmed down- a lot. Was she really jealous of me? Well, as far as I was concerned I’d trade her for height and muscles any day. I guess we both have our problems, huh?

If there’s one thing I can’t stand to see it’s Patty crying. Even when we were little I’d do anything to make her stop, and not much had changed there, but when I moved over to try to hug her and let her know things were okay, she pushed me away. I guess I shouldn’t have expected anything different though, considering the exchange.

“Patty… look, I’m sorry, okay?” No response. “Fine! It’s just, like, why did you tell them I’d be a cheerleader? Do you have any idea how much trouble this is gonna get me in?”

She sniffled for a moment, shuffled nervously, then finally after what seemed forever she threw her arms around me, the tears streaming down her face. “I’m so sorry,” she croaked. “I just thought, well, since I was doin’ it it’d be fun if we both did it. And, to be honest,” she stepped away and smiled at me sheepishly, “I think you’d look like really cute in the skirt.”

“Pssh, whatever.” I just rolled my eyes- that sounded a lot more like the Patty I know. I gave her another hug, all forgiven if not forgot, and we headed out for class just as the last bell started to ring.

===

“Hey! HEY! Speedy Gonzalez, wait up!” I turned around just in time to catch Patty hurling around the corner narrowly avoiding the trophy case, two garment bags in hand along with her book bag and purse. The end result was an odd, lumbering shuffle where the bags all seemed to be in competition to see who could hit the ground first. I quickly made my way through the crush of homebound students to try and help her, and with a relieved huff she handed off one of the garment bags to me. Jeez, no wonder she was shuffling, these things weigh a ton!

“Whoa, hey, what’s in this things, Solomon’s Crown? No, wait, maybe it’s a boulder! An anchor?”

“Oh, ha ha ha, real funny, D. Come on, its your new uniform.” I stopped in my tracks and just stared at her dumbly. “Oops- sorry, THIS is your bag; that’s mine.” We switched garment bags, and if anything this bag was heavier than the first!

“God, Patty, how can such a skimpy outfit weigh so much?”

“Well, actually there’s a bit more than just the basic outfit in there.” She held up her hand and started counting off things on her fingers. “There’s the game outfit, the winter lycra, the competition outfit, the practice clothes, the shoes…”

“Wait wait wait wait wait. Practice clothes?”

She shrugged. “Sure, it makes sure we look like a team even when we’re off the field.” Oh, okay, I guess that makes sense. What about…

“How did they know what size to give me?” I started looking all over the bag for a size marker or something, but couldn’t seem to find one.

“Oh, are you worried your skirt won’t be short enough or something?”

“Hey! I didn’t want to do this, and still don’t- I’m only going along with it for the moment so I can prove to you tomorrow I can’t pull it off. Maybe if you see my trying to coordinate with others you’ll see how much I really suck.” I’ve never really been one for ‘school spirit’, can you tell?

“Pssh, whatever.” She just waved my tirade off with one of those ‘you’ll see’ expressions she knows I hate.

We got to the end of my street and split up, Patty heading on down Hazel to her own place just a little further away. As I made my way up the stairs of our apartment complex it occurred to me- what are my parents gonna say if- no, make that WHEN- they find out? Luckily they were both gone when I got in, more than likely still at work, so I made my way straight to my room to hide things as quickly as possible.

And yet I couldn’t help it. Call it morbid curiosity, but after dinner I locked my door and pulled out the garment bag again. Dumping the entire contents on my bed, I went about looking through all my new girly bits.

-One ‘Game uniform’, blue with white stripes and things. The mandatory ultra-short pleated skirt didn’t look like it’d do much to cover the +sigh+ matching bloomers.

-One ‘competition uniform’, blue with red and white accents, how patriotic. No pleated skirt on this one just slits on both sides almost up to the waits, guaranteeing the red bloomers would be on display at all times.

-A white lycra leotard thingy or whatever it’s called with tights. I thought I’d seen the girls wear these under the uniforms in cold weather, though they didn’t look all that warm.

-One pair plain white tennis shoes. What the hell are Aesics? Whatever, at least they aren’t all that girly, though the pom-pom socks take care of that pretty well.

-Pom poms. Huh, I thought they kept these at school? Guess not.

-A gym bag with the school logo on one side? Well, that’s not too bad. Oh, the other side says ‘cheeraholic’ in pink script. Joy.

-My. God. They CAN’T expect us to practice in this, can they? I mean, these shorts are smaller than my boxers- what am I supposed to do, go commando? Gross!

A note at the bottom of the bag caught my attention as I looked over my new girly bits. The cheer coach was, it seemed, a good deal more interested in the personal touch than some teachers I’d had. The Xeroxed letter was still less than an ideal welcome, though at least her signature was the real deal.

DEAR MISS PHOENIX,

FIRST OFF, I WOULD LIKE TO CONGRATULATE YOU ON MAKING OUR SQUAD. I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO A WONDERFUL YEAR WITH YOU, AND THE ENTIRE SQUAD. CHEERLEADING IS ALL ABOUT TEAMWORK, AND I HOPE YOU ENJOY SPENDING TIME WITH OTHER GIRLS YOUR AGE IN AN ACTIVITY THAT WILL MAKE YOU FRIENDS FOR YEARS TO COME.

XOXO,
Juanita Cole

Hold up, ‘XOXO’? What teacher signs a letter to a student ‘XOXO’, anyways? It was obviously a form letter, as everything save ‘my’ name was photocopied, but still, that doesn’t change exactly what it told me.

I was now the not so proud bearer-to-be of these oh so fashionable cheerleader outfits, urgh.

===

I was just finishing up my breakfast and about ready to head out the next morning when someone started knocking on the apartment door. “Sweetie,” my mom called from the bathroom down the hall, “can you get that?”

“Sure, Mom.” I hollered back as I swung the door wide to reveal Patty, bright eyed and bouncing with energy, in a denim skirt and old ‘Boondocks’ tee. “Hey, what’s up?”

“Just thought I’d stop by to make sure you didn’t forget your stuff.” I turned a confused look on her before gazing back at my school bag, already set beside the door. “Not that stuff! God, you’re so blonde sometimes,” she huffed exasperatedly before leaning close and whispering “your cheer stuff, remember?” All the blood seemed to drain from my body, and I let out a small “Eep” a second later when Mom entered the room.

“Oh, hey Patty, stopping by to walk with Dane today? Well that’s nice of you! Dane, what’s the matter, you look like you’ve seen a ghost.”

I took a gulp of the juice still in my hand before I answered. “Fine, Mom, just fine.”

“Well, okay… I’m off to work, don’t forget to lock up on your way out! Bye kids.” And with a final hug and a tug on the door, my mom was gone, off for another day of cutting hair or doing makeup or whatever it was she did at that salon anyways. She popped back in quickly to retrieve the bag she’d forgotten, though, and nearly gave me a heart attack when she did. “By the way, honey, come to the salon after hours and I’ll see what I can do about that godawful dye. Patty, you come by, too, and your mom can give you a trim while we’re at it.”

“Kay, Miss P, thanks.” A quick kiss on my cheek and she was off again. Once we were sure she was really gone, Patty turned to me and with a clap of her hands said “All right, now, let’s get that cheer bag ready.”

With way more excitement than I was feeling, she rushed me off to my room and began tossing my cheer kit together. She seemed to be in better spirits this morning at least, but I still wanted to strangle her when she giggled and called me. “Um, D?”

“Yeah?” I really didn’t like that giggle, or the look she was giving me now.

“Uh, I was just wondering, um… what kind of underwear are you wearing?”

“Boxers, why?” What did it matter what kind of underwear I was- oh, shit, I thought as where she was going hit me like a ton of bricks. “No, nononono, nononono, NO!”

“Oh, come on, D. You’ll have to use the girl’s locker room, and do you really want to try and explain boxers to the other girls?”

“I think I’ll have a lot harder time explaining what’s IN the boxers, thank you very much miss Bad Idea of the Year.”

“Well, with how little’s there it ain’t like they’re gonna notice!”

Ouch.

“Oh, God. D, I mean Dane, hey, I’m sorry, okay? It’s just, I mean, well, it won’t be the first time you’ve worn them either.”

“And if you want me to get over the Joey Reymond thing, then I think YOU need to stop bringing it up!” Back in second grade Patty and I made a bet about whether or not she could convince our new class I was a girl. I lost the bet- Joey lost three teeth. “Besides, this is different, I’m old enough to know better and I’m old enough the teachers aren’t gonna think it’s funny either.” Dammit, I hate crying, but I just can’t seem to stop it lately. Well, starting Monday, no more crying for me again, ever.

“Hey, I’m just trying to help.” She held up a brand new package of panties- I wasn’t surprised to see they were a thong style, either- and waved them enticingly at me, like it was some kind of treat.

===

“I hate you.”

“Yeah, let’s hear you say that when your birthday comes around.”

After much begging and cajoling, I wound up wearing a +blush+ thong to school. At least I won the battle over the bra with the excuse that it would show through my tee, but the look on Patty’s face told me that was only a temporary victory. Still, I’ll take what I can get.

“Quit picking at it, that’s disgusting.”

“Hey, you’re used to it!” Not having a panty line didn’t seem like much comfort in the face of The Eternal Wedgie. “Wasn’t it uncomfortable to you your first time?”

“Nah, if I don’t want a panty line I just go Commando.”

“Patty!”

“Just kidding, sheesh.”

At least I don’t have to worry about regular Gym. After noticing the beginning of my +ahem+ ‘problems’ the doctor gave me a school excuse for skipping gym, though a fat lotta good that was gonna do me now.

Nobody caught on all day, and while the quote unquote ‘unique’ feeling of the underpants kept me from forgetting what I was wearing, by the end of the day I wasn’t quite as uncomfortable as this morning, though I was contemplating replacing all my jeans with cotton slacks- that denim can CHAFE. Patty caught me before I managed to escape to the safety of the outside world, and after retrieving our kit bags from her locker drug me kicking and screaming- well, bitterly complaining anyways- to the gym.

The changing rooms- now THAT was interesting. Patty rejected my idea of stopping off in the toilet and changing on the way, and I guess she had a point anyways- it’d more than likely get me in more trouble than it was worth, if I was caught in there dressed as a girl. No real good could come of it. I just kept my head down and went straight for the stalls, changing as quickly as possible into the practice shorts and tank so lovingly furnished by the school, as well as the sports bra Patty insisted I take ‘for the sake of decency’. I was putting my hair up in a ponytail again as I headed back out when I heard Patty say something about “That time of the month” to one of the other girls, and decided I’d REALLY rather not know.

Seeing where the other dressed girls were already congregating, I headed on over to wait for whatever was next. +Damn, these outfits are tiny.+ Any time one of us left the vertical it was almost guaranteed some form or undergarment was gonna be on display (unless the girl in question subscribed to the Patty School of Freakiness, but still…) At least the clothes were comfortable and easy to move in besides the underwear, and I guess that’s the important part.

“All right girls, are you ready for some cheering?” Twenty-four girls seemed to start yelling and whistling at once as Miss Cole came out from the athletics office at the end of the court flanked by Lisa and another girl with mousy brown hair who I couldn’t place. “Alright, quiet down. First of all, thank you all for coming today, and for joining our group. We’re lucky to have every one of you, and I can honestly say I think we have what is quite possibly our best cheer team ever in this room right now.” Another round of cheers erupted for what I personally considered quite possibly the WORST introductions she coulda given. I mean, clichéd much? Regardless, she had to wait for the applause to fade before she could continue. “Easy, easy. Save it for practice! Now, so we can get started, I’ll introduce our captains. For first or ‘A’ squad, Lisa Gilbert, and for second or ‘B’ squad, Nancy Sullivan.” All the girls clapped it seems, but I couldn’t help the snort that erupted, spurned on by the images in my mind, and when I looked over and saw Patty frantically trying to control herself it all fell apart.

A shrill blast of a whistle brought me to my senses and almost to attention, and I found Miss Cole in front of me with a stern expression on her face. “And what is so funny, young lady?” She asked as she looked down at me. I couldn’t resist the straight line, but can you really blame me? I mean honestly.

“Oh, I’m-the-very-model-of-a-modern-major-general…” Patty took the next line, and we bounced back and forth for a bit before dissolving into giggles again. I was just lying there, laughing my- oh, shit. I was laughing in a teacher’s face, wasn’t I?

I glanced up nervously, trying to gauge her actions to see whether I should apologize or run, but was surprised to see a small smile on her face as I quickly straightened my shorts and tank. “+ahem+ Sorry ‘bout that Ma’am.”

“What’s your name, young lady?”

I cleared my throat again, trying to be calm. Patty bursting into a giggle fit again didn’t help. “Uh, Phoenix, Ma’am.”

She scanned down her list, and her smile soon widened. “Dana Phoenix?” I winced, but nodded. “Congratulations on making ‘A’ Squad, your tryout must have been quite impressive.” I just blushed. “Now, onto business.”

For the first half hour we went over some of the warm-ups and more basic cheers that the group would do as a whole. Then for the last half we split into our separate squads. Until now Patty hadn’t left my side, but since I was ‘A’ and she was ‘B’ we had to go to opposite sides of the court. It really wasn’t that hard, the moves repeated a lot and the gymnastics was all pretty basic compared to what I was doing in my other gymnastics class. Don’t get me wrong, though; the moves may have been easy to learn, but they made for quite a workout! By the time we left I was glad we’d packed a towel and a change of…under…wear…

That sneak Patty! She knew I’d use the stalls and STILL talked me into wearing these to school! Oh, well, what’s done is done, and at least our school went for a little decency with the showers, having individual booths and curtains, so I wouldn’t have to be naked in front of anyone.

Apparently not all the girls were as concerned with decency as I was, though. I was headed for the showers wrapped in my oversized towel- around the chest, of course, to hide my deficiencies- but felt someone grab it as I passed. I almost lost it, just catching it before my secret was discovered.

But not before my other one was revealed.

“Hey, nice tits!”

“Those’ll look real cute when you grow up a bit more!”

I wrapped the towel around myself again and ran into the nearest shower stall. That’s why I was excused from boy’s gym, after all, and what tipped off the doctors to my little problem. The flesh on my chest hadn’t grown all that much, but my nipples were definitely a bit on the feminine side, and there was enough growth there to make them stand out, no pun intended. I guess it at least gave me some credibility in here, but I still didn’t like the idea of the whole world seeing them! I rushed my shower and got changed into my fresh clothes as quickly as possible, managing to catch Patty outside, apparently trying to explain to Lisa and Nancy who Gilbert and Sullivan were. “You ready to go, Pat?”

“Yeah, sure. We should get to the salon just in time for closing if we hurry up.”

“Great job out there today, Dana! I knew it was a good idea to put you right on ‘A’ Squad, you’re a natural!” Nancy just gave me a smoldering look- what, did I take her place or something? “Next practice is Wednesday, can’t wait to see what you can do then!”

“Wednesday, got it. See ya then.”

We managed to extricate ourselves from the rest of the rabble of cheer crazies and get on our way, and we made it downtown to the salon without a hitch, if a bit later than we were supposed to be, since I had to talk to Patty about the whole underwear thing.

“I should’ve known it was a setup this morning, but you got me well and good.”

“What’re you talking about?”

“You knew there were booths to change in, but you STILL talked me into wearing those stupid panties to school. I should’ve realized when you packed an extra pair, wait, why couldn’t we have at least packed my boxers for afterwards?”

“Sorry, I just figured it’d be best if you were used to them by the time practice rolled around. I mean, you know how you were this morning, it would have been like WAY worse if you’d been that uncomfortable through practice, no?”

“Well, I guess, but still. Speaking of which, I still don’t know how they got my sizes for these clothes.”

“Oh, I helped with that,” she said happily. “I know what size you wear in guy’s, and so I just kinda converted that to girl’s sizes. You looked cute, by the way.” Great.

I know I was blushing, and before I had a chance for a retort we were at the salon. We walked in and took our normal seats near the magazine stand to wait for our moms.

The salon? Well, it’s this place called ‘The Cutting Edge’, like the movie. Our moms had huge crushes on D.B. Sweeney back in the day from what I’ve heard, so when they opened the place they used the movie for inspiration. It’s pretty popular, everything inside is decorated in an ice skating theme, complete with a movie poster signed by the stars! What can I say, our moms are kinda geeks, but pretty cool.

“Hey, kids! What took ya so long, did the Zoo mistake you for excapees again?”

“Ha, ahaha, ahaha. Real funny, Mom. No, I had cheer practice, and Dane stayed to watch me.”

Miss Lee gave me an appraising look before simply turning back to her sweeping. Then again, Patty coulda probably told her I’d been changed into an alien mutant and the only reaction I’d get is a notice not to get slime on the carpet.

“Dane?”

“I’m in here, Mom!” Like me and Patty, our moms had been best friends since they were kids. With their matching blonde locks and similar builds and heights they were often mistaken for sisters. I think sometimes it embarrasses Patty that at fourteen she’s taller than her mom and takes after her dad’s side of the family while, well, let’s say I’m obviously my mom’s child.

“I just finished my last appointment, come on back and I’ll see what I can do,” she called back as she started getting a seat prepared for me.

“Nothing too drastic, Mom, please? I know it was stupid to use the cheap dye…”

“I think the fact it gave you pink streaks is proof enough of that, honey.”

“I know, I know. Still, I was wanting to try some like really big spikes or something this year at Halloween, so I don’t wanna cut it.”

“Well, let’s see, I’ll trim the dead ends once I’ve figured out what I’m gonna do, but I’ll try to leave the length,” she said as she tussled my hair a bit. “Just leave it to your ole’ Mum, she’ll do ya right.” Her British accent was horrible, but still funny. I settled in and let her get to work.

I don’t know how much later it was when I awoke, but the instant my eyes opened I let out a groan. “Not again.” My mom has a bad habit- she likes to play practical jokes on anyone who falls asleep in her chair. Nothing too bad, but it was ‘cause of this same situation that I had two earrings in each ear, and over the summer she’d even given me a full French manicure once. “Oh, god.” Acrylics. Today just wasn’t my lucky day. “Mom, you didn’t! I have school, you know!”

“Oh, come on, it ain’t like you’ve never had’em before, and I did the same to your dad last February.” Heh, yeah, that’d been pretty funny. “Besides, blame Patty, it was her idea.”

“Mrs. Phoenix!”

“Joanne! Telling on my daughter, why I never thought.”

“Besides, she said the girls on the cheer team would think it was cute.” I gave Patty as mean a look as I could, but all she did was smile. “Come on, take a look at your hair and tell me what you think.” So, I got up to take a look.

Jeezus! And I thought the nails were bad! Okay, yeah, my hair was less pink. But, that’s only ‘cause the pink had been balanced out with some blonde and red highlights and streaks that make me look even more girly. Well, the overall affect was pretty cool, like something you’d see on like a famous musician or something, but it didn’t really look any more boyish than it had before.

“Sorry,” I heard Mom say from behind me, “but it was the best I could do. That dye you got was really cheap,” well, yeah, I got it from a costume shop, “but I wanted to damage your hair as little as possible, and if I’d done a bleach job it would have fried everything. As it is, I just added some darker colors in to help balance it out a bit with your platinum blonde without making it look all one color, which I know you hate. It’s this, or a razor down to the skin, your choice.” Well, when put that way, this wasn’t bad. She started playing with my hair, and I just leaned back into her hand and kinda purred a bit. I love having my hair played with- another good reason not to get it cut. ‘Course, that’s also one of the reasons I always fall asleep when I’m here- it’s relaxing, and my mom knows just how I like my scalp rubbed to send me out. I think she’s done it on purpose a couple of times, but I wouldn’t swear to it.

“I guess I can live with this, but Mom, you know how much I hate it when you do things like this,” I chastised her, waving my hands at her.

“Hey, you’re the one who keeps falling asleep!” Touché “If it makes you feel better Patty decided to get streaks to match yours.” Sure enough, her brunette hair was tempered by a range of blonde and auburn accents.

“It looked cool, so I thought I’d try it.” Joy.

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Gah! Stupid alarm! Why’s it going off now? It’s Satur- Shit! Gymnastics!

No time for a shower this morning; besides, what good’s a shower right before I go do exercises, anyways?

Crap, and I’m still wearing that stupid thong, too. In all the excitement with Dad over my hair and nails last night I just kinda forgot about it. No, he wasn’t mad, after all, he’s used to Mom’s tricks by now, having been the target of a few of them himself. No, he thought it was funny as hell! I bet if I told ‘em about the cheerleading thing they’d just laugh at that too, and to be honest I’m not sure how that makes me feel. Ugh, gotta shake those thoughts away. Screw it, if I’m gonna have to wear ‘em I may as well get used to ‘em. I may be wearing a thong but at least it’ll be boy’s clothes on top.

I managed to get to the studio just in time to change out and get to line. “Glad you could make it,” Mr. Shaw, my instructor, said as I huffed and wheezed. It wasn’t long after that before we were warmed up and on our way. Despite only being a third year gymnastics student I was seeded pretty high in our local rankings, thanks to my natural ability I guess, plus I practiced some of the more traditional Parkour moves on the street a lot so I could take a fall well and get right back up and try again. From what Mr. Shaw has told me I’d be ranked even higher if it weren’t for my problems remembering all the terminology. What can I say, I learn by seeing and doing, and usually think in terms of ‘floaty hand thing’ or ‘twisty kick jump’ better than all that technical mumbo jumbo. It’s the same with my mom’s Sunday morning yoga; I can do all the moves, but the names just escape me.

We got a good hour and a half of practice in before a tweet on Mr. Shaw’s whistle brought us all back to line. “Great work again, kids. You’ve really impressed me this past year with how much you’ve grown- in fact, you’ve impressed me so much I thought I’d do something our small club has never done before. How would ya’ll like to try for state?”

State! Usually only the biggest clubs can even afford the entrance fees, little lone complete the ladder. All the others seemed to be enthused, so why not? “Heh, since it seems to sit well with you lot I’d like to introduce the sponsor of this opportunity, Miss Simone Gilbert!” An older lady bearing a striking resemblance to Lisa came out, wearing a stunning mauve skirt suit.

“Thank you, Mister Shaw, and thank you all for doing such wonderful work. I’ve been keeping tabs on this organization for some time now, but I finally think you’ve got a chance at winning this!” Over the next half hour we sat through a rather boring speech concerning expectations of our group and so on. Turns out this lady actually was Lisa’s mom, go figure. My mind drifted until I heard someone calling my name. Or rather, the name the cheerleaders had given me. “Dana Phoenix?” The girls in all their gymnastics outfits made me stick out like a sore thumb in my baggy tee and gym shorts, and their giggling as I raised my hand brought a cold stare from Mrs. Gilbert. “My daughter told me you made the cheerleading ‘A’ Squad, and I recognized the name. I think I’ll be watching you ESPECIALLY closely,” she said, and I could swear she winked at me as she headed out!

Well, thanks to that little announcement I got questions for the next few minutes concerning the cheerleading team from the younger girls and boys surrounding me, while the older ones went off to talk about something or another. I heard one of them ask the question, “isn’t Brighton’s cheer team all girls?” But I managed to avoid their conversation after that, and in the slew of questions from the youngers I soon forgot about it. After twenty questions was over, I cleaned up a bit and headed to the dojo next door to meet up with Patty. We’d both gotten black belts in basic Tae Kwon Do together, and when I decided to jump ship she kept up with the martial arts. It worked out well for us, since outside of class we often would practice together and cross train. She was doing Karate at the moment, and had talked her sensei into letting me test, so I officially had a yellow belt in that versus her purple. Just ‘cause I’m small don’t mean I’m defenseless, after all.

“How were things in the land of splits and leotards today?”

“Better than the Wide World of Kicks to the Face, I’m sure.”

“I think that point’s mine,” she said as she marked it in the air. “That makes the score for this week seven to four, my win.”

“It’s six to four, and since you’re always the one who calls the points it ain’t fair anyways.”

“Whatever, dweeb. You alright, you look a little tired.” I sighed, and filled her in on Mrs. Gilberts’s visit. “Hehe, you sure do know how to pick ‘em, D, that’s for sure.”

We started home from lessons, but made a detour for the new climbing wall on the way. After a couple of climbs apiece we stopped by BK before calling it a day. By that time we were pretty ripe anyways, and since today was my laundry day I needed to get home!

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The better part of the next week was pretty boring for the most part. Oh, the pharmacy mixed up my meds and ordered the wrong thing, so it’ll be ANOTHER week before I start my testosterone, grr! I finally managed a second-story backflip on Monday, that was well scary, but we had to vacate the old abandoned factory before I could try again ‘cause the BMXers showed up. Even Wednesday’s cheer practice went without much fuss, though I did refuse to wear the panties to school- once was enough, thank you! Unfortunately, a phone call Thursday night broke things up quite nicely +sigh+.

“Dane, can you get that?” My dad called from his computer. My dad’s an electrical engineer for a local construction company, but even when he’s home he does a lot of private projects on his comp, so this wasn’t an unusual request.

“Hello?”

“Hey, Dana!” Would I ever be able to keep from wincing when I hear that? “It’s me, Lisa!”

“Oh, hi, Lisa. Um, how did you get my home number?”

She giggled. “From Patty, of course, silly. I just wanted to let you know that me and the other girls have a surprise for you tomorrow, so don’t miss practice.”

This…isn’t good. “Lisa, what kind of surprise?”

“You’ll see tomorrow! Bye!” And with a click she was gone, and I was left wondering when my life became such a comedy of errors.

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And whaddayaknow, Patty had a doctor’s appointment this morning, so I was stuck carrying my own gym bag to school. I’d managed to drape my jacket over the bag to hide the logos, but do you really think that with my luck I’d be able to get through unscathed? Well, the hand that grabbed my bag and took it away probably answers that question.

“Ooh, what’s this, the little faggot wants to be a cheerleader. Tell me, where’d you get this, that dyke friend of yours?”

Okay, it’s one thing to pick on me, quite another to pick on someone I care for. I’m not sure exactly what I did, but a moment later TB was on the floor holding his jaw, and my bag was in my hand again. Not wanting to miss the opportunity I decided to rub a little salt in the wound. “Don’t ever, and I mean EVER, talk about my sister. And by the way, I AM a cheerleader!” With that I spun on my heel and walked away. Hold the phone, did I just admit I was a cheerleader? To Thomas Brody of all people? Yes, and yes. Oh crap.

A couple of whistles and a “You go girl!” later I was face to face with Lisa. First Thomas and now Lisa, this day just gets better and better, not. “Nice display of the girl power back there!” she said, giving me a quick hug. “Looks like he’s finally gotten what’s been coming for a while. Oops, I’m gonna be late for class, see ya at practice!” Does she ever stop long enough to give someone else a chance to talk? I don’t think I’ve gotten in a complete sentence since meeting her. I just managed to catch Patty in time to drop my bag off in her locker before we had to head for history, but it seemed news of my little tiff with Brody had reached her before me, thanks to the gossip hotline that is high school girls.

“Damn, ‘girl’,” she emphasized with a bit of a smirk, “when you go for a statement, you like REALLY go for it! What’d he do, grab your ass or something?” Ah, so the cause hadn’t reached her yet at least, which was good. Last thing I needed was for her to commit murder today. I did punch her in the arm for the ass comment, though.

“Nah, just my cheer kit.”

“Jerk.”

“Yeah.”

“Well, maybe now he’ll leave you alone a bit.”

I didn’t even let the optimism have a chance before squashing it. “Maybe. Hey, didn’t you have a doctor’s appointment this morning?”

“It was cancelled, ‘cause-“

“Girls, quiet!” Oh, yeah, history class! I’d completely forgotten about it until Mr. Swallows’ comment. Guess we were a bit occupied on the way in.

“Sir, I’m not a-“

“Do you want to visit the principal today?” He yelled at me vehemently. Geez, what was his problem? Just ‘cause we never paid attention in class, and passed notes all the time, and- wait. I just shook my head. “Then shut up and pay attention!” I almost giggled at the angry look on his ill proportioned face, but caught it just in time.

The rest of school was pretty standard, though lunch did bring a few kids over to talk who I guess had seen or heard about what I’d done that morning. I wasn’t complaining, as it kept the girls from trying to drag me and Patty to the cheer table like they’d been attempting for the past week.

Finally, the hour of doom was upon us, and as the day’s final bell tolled its last, I began the walk to cheer practice. For the most part practice was normal- well, for being a boy doing cheerleading in an all girl squad. There was the announcement that next Friday’s practice was being moved to before school on Monday since we had a pep rally on Friday, but by now the idea of being a cheerleader was starting to be a bit less agonizing, so I didn’t sweat it that much. Besides, after this morning everyone’d probably know already by then anyways.

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“Uh, guys, where are my clothes?” I asked as I returned from my shower wrapped in my towel. I’d taken my clothes with me to the shower to prevent anything similar to last Friday’s incident, only to find they were missing when I climbed out.

“Oh, those rags you had on? We threw ‘em away.”

“What!”

“Yeah, you’re a cheerleader now, you should be dressing better than that.” Oh, no!

“And boxers! I mean, yeah I own a couple of pairs too, but just for sleeping in not wearing full time!”

Nancy, Lisa, and a girl named Shelby from ‘A’ Squad all had me cornered! What ‘m I supposed to do now?

“Here, put these on.” I reached out nervously to take the proffered plastic shopping bag and cautiously glanced inside.

“Uh, no.”

“Why not?”

I pulled the flower print sundress out of the bag and held it as far away from myself as possible. “This is a dress.”

“Uh, yeah? It’s really cute!”

“I DON’T do dresses. Not skirts, not halter tops,” I gestured towards the offending strappy number in my hand, “and ESPECIALLY not dresses! This breaks, like, every one of my personal dress code rules. No way, no how. Just plain no.”

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Damn this bra feels weird. And how do they get through the day in one of these things without showing their underpants off to everyone? “Stop pulling on it, you look fine.”

“Says the girl wearing jeans,” I shot back, trying to give Patty an evil look but failing when a sudden breeze caused me to yelp and grab ‘my’ skirt. She actually had the nerve to snicker when it happened, too!

“At least you’re wearing cute underwear too.” Ugh, don’t remind me; I hadn’t seen so much lace and pink since Patty’s seventh birthday party.

Can you believe it, their ‘surprise’ for me was a trash bag full of clothes! Apparently everyone pitched in to outfit me with a wardrobe more befitting a cheerleader, but I can’t wear any of this crap. And they threw away my ‘Bosstones’ tee to boot! Patty had some of my clothes over at her place from a swimming trip a while back, so we were heading there before I went home so I could change. The sooner the better, too- the whistling and catcalls were getting kind of old. And this bag is heavy, too, le Grunt.

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“Hey, sweetie, how was school today?”

“Not bad, Mom. I’m kinda tired- I think I’m gonna take a nap, is that okay?”

“Sure, I’ll wake you when dinner’s ready.”

“Thanks.” Lucky she was in the kitchen! I managed to get the trash bag in my room and shoved into the corner, then collapsed on my bed and promptly passed out.

I awoke to hear an odd rustling sound coming from the corner of the room where I’d thrown the bag. Rats? Nah. “Wha?”

“Cute, but I’m not sure why you’ve decided on such a drastic change of style.”

Mom? The clothes! I snapped up in bed, and sure enough there was my mom, sat in the corned and idly sorting through the bag of clothes. “Mom, it’s not what you think, I swear!”

She turned around calmly to face me, still clutching a denim skirt in her hand. “So you’re telling me you didn’t bring a large sack of girl’s clothes in and hide them in your room? Honey, if you had wanted to try girl’s clothes you have just asked, I mean, I guess I should have guessed you’d be doing this after seeing the uniform in your closed but-“

“You’ve been going through my closet?!”

“Not at all! Well, maybe a little,” she admitted guiltily. “I’ve just been worried about you and, well,” she held up the skirt. “Care to explain then?” She looked worried, but not angry like I was expecting. What the hell.

I pushed my hands through my hair as I tried to think of a way out of this. What could I say that was less embarrassing than the truth? I didn’t WANT to wear the clothes, but I couldn’t say they were Patty’s ‘cause even Mom could see they’d be too small and besides, why would I have her clothes in my room? “Mom,” I sighed, “you might wanna sit back down.”

“Why?” she asked, but she sat back down in my computer chair.

“So you don’t fall down laughing. Hoo, boy. Okay, it all started last Wednesday…”

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“She thought you were there to try out?”

“Yes.”

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“You wore WHAT to school?”

“Well, it was Patty’s idea…”

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“In the girl’s locker room? And they saw your-“

“My ch- uh, breasts, yeah. I guess that just proved them right, though…”

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“And they threw away your clothes and gave you a dress to wear instead?”

“Yeah, I stopped by Patty’s place and changed before coming home, but she wouldn’t keep these,” I said, sweeping my arm over the clothes now spread across my floor. I leant back and took a deep breath, glad the story was over.

“I’m just happy you didn’t just throw them in a dumpster on your way home.” Now why didn’t I think of that? “This saves us a bit of embarrassing shopping for you, anyways.”

Huh? I was scared to ask. “Why do you say that?”

“Well, your, um,” she motioned towards my chest, and I blushed. “They’re getting a bit on the, ah, full side to be left free.”

She couldn’t, I mean, she doesn’t mean… “Are you saying you want me to start wearing a BRA? No way.” I looked down at my own chest. “They don’t really show, do they?”

She childishly scuffed her shoe on the carpet a couple of times before answering. “Sweetie, I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but they DO show. Just looking at you in a tee shirt I’d say they’re at least a full ‘A’ cup by now, and whether you want to admit it or not I bet it’s getting kind of uncomfortable running around with those things, ain’t it?” I shrugged, but didn’t deny it. “And even when you start your hormones they won’t just magically stop, and they aren’t gonna just go away. You need the support.” A sports bra landed in my lap, and she kinda grinned at me in a friendly way.

Desperate for an out, I asked, “But can’t I just strap them down?”

“I’m not having you hurt yourself over this. Besides, it won’t be the first time you’ve worn a bra from what I’ve heard.” She was right, and the bra HAD kept the, umm, bouncing and stuff down, which did help. I picked up the bra and looked at it disapprovingly, but I guess I looked resigned, too, ‘cause she continued. “I’ll explain to your father tonight after dinner.”

How pleasant an evening this has turned out to be. Just perfect after the day, huh?

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I put my Veruca Salt CD on and laid back in bed to think. It wasn’t the most hardcore CD in my collection, but I’d always loved them, and it was the first CD I ever spent my own money on, too. Her voice always helped me concentrate, and that’s what I needed to do now.

I hadn’t expected my dad to make a big deal of the bra thing, and sure enough I wasn’t disappointed. Then again, that’s my dad; I could probably come home dressed in full goth, makeup and all, and his only reaction would be to raise his eyebrows and tell me not to hurt myself. Either that or he’d laugh at me, he has the oddest sense of humor sometimes.

No, what had me confused was mom’s reaction to the whole cheerleader thing. She didn’t mention it to dad, thank god, and she didn’t bring it back up with me, either. Well, besides telling me to give it a try. Huh, who’da thunk my own Mom would WANT me to pretend to be a girl, and a cheerleader no less?

Ooh, Volcano Girls, good song.

Anyways, I guess for now I can keep doing it. It IS pretty fun, and a good workout to boot. And with Patty there, if something goes wrong at least I’ve got one friend to back me up. No, the actual practices don’t bother me. But what about the pep rally next Friday? That’s in front of the entire school! And all these clothes, too- now that I have them the girls won’t give me a break until I start to show a little pride in my cheerleader status. Hmm, I wonder… could I?

I got off my bed just as ‘25’ ended and went to the corner of my room. Hefting the bag of clothes, I took it to my bed and dumped it out and, like with the cheerleading kit, decided a list was in order as I went through my unwanted bounty. How bad could it be?

You’d be surprised.

-Let’s start with tops, they can’t be too bad, right? Two ‘cap sleeve’ tees, I think they’re called ‘baby tees’? One in white and one in baby blue. Not too bad I guess, but the pink ‘aeropostale’ logo on the front of ‘em kinda stands out, and they’re tiny, seriously. Two tanks, one black with those stringy straps and the other plain white. These look okay overall, too. Maybe this won’t kill me after all. Dear god, I spoke too soon. A halter top is bad enough, but why’d it have to be pink? I do like the jersey material at least, but I’ll NEVER wear this. And whaddayaknow, more pink, this time in a button down blouse, the only concession to long sleeves I seems in the entire bag. Plain cotton, so maybe I can bleach it or something?

- O-kay, so the tops were kinda hit and miss. It can only get worse from here, so let’s jump right into leg coverings, eh? Wow, they actually included jeans. And if they hadn’t been hip-huggers with embroidered pockets I may even have been able to use them. Shame that. More jeans? Oh, nope, the denim skirt from earlier. Damn, that’s short, surely that’s gotta break school dress code! Then again, seeing some of the things I’ve seen the cheerleaders get away with probably not. Oh, a flowery embroidered skirt. Looks kinda like something a hippy would wear. Nope, not for me on any level, thanks. Hold on, these can’t be shorts. Oh god, they are. Sure, khaki’s are fine, but aren’t they supposed to cover more skin than the underwear beneath them? I think these girls are trying to turn me into a slut, seriously.

-Shoes? What the? Oh, flip flops, okay. Wait, no, strappy heels. In white, I guess to match mosta the clothes. Do they actually think I’ll choose to wear any of this stuff? And how would I balance on these things, they must be two inches tall.

-Whew, deep breaths, deep breaths. Dare I look at the underwear? Well, really no choice, I’ve gone this far… Thongs. What is it with these girls and thongs? And they have to be these little skimpy things. And what’s up with this split in the back with jewelry hanging on it? That’s three more of these things I’ll never wear. At least these cover more than the thongs. Granted not much more thanks to the stringy side bits, but maybe I can replace the exercise undies with these. Oh, and a note from Patty; seems she got all the underwear, just grand. Oh, I guess that’s at least a little less embarrassing than thinking of Lisa or Nancy out getting them, and I know they aren’t used. Ah, and here’s the kicker- the bras. One padded thing, one lacy thing and one thing with these hard semicircles under the cup parts. I’m a thirty A if these girls got it right, since the cheer stuff fits I don’t see why they wouldn’t. Hold the phone, there’re socks in here too? Oh, gross, stripy knee-high monstrosities! Pink/white, purple/white, and baby blue/white seem to be my choices. Do these even go with anything they gave me? Should I care? Oh, and a package of tights, what fun! Not.

Damn, that’s a lot of stuff! The must either really be loaded or just really not want me showing them up. Heh, it woulda been easier just to kick me off the team, but I guess they see me as a charity case or something, maybe some project to work on? Last thing I wanna be is a bunch of cheerleaders’ Barbie doll. Whatever, I’ll think more on it tomorrow.

===

So much for having time to think over the weekend. Both my gymnastics class and Patty’s martial arts class went extra length this weekend- apparently they have a big tournament the weekend before the State gymnastics tournament start its events, so in preparation they’re beating each other up for an extra hour every Saturday until then. Word seems to have spread to the entire class that I’m a cheerleader, even the ones missing last weekend, and I don’t know what’s worse, that they thought it was cool or that they all seem to have forgotten I’m a guy! The other kids have even taken to calling me ‘Dana’ now. Jeez, I just can’t get a break, can I? Oh, yeah, and Mom decided that this weekend was as good as any time to start the bra-wearing thing, so now I have to deal with ‘my’ boobs being even more obvious to boot! At least they aren’t bouncing all over the place now, so they don’t ache so much.

After practice Patty wanted to hit the climbing wall again, so we did that for like two hours. By the time we left my entire body felt like it was about to fall apart! Then Sunday I had my self-imposed Parkour training regimen, too. I was so tired I went to bed early-after all, we have cheer practice early in the morning, and whether I want to do it or not I don’t wanna leave without notice. I’ll start hormone tomorrow too, horray! Looks like the beginning of the end of people thinking I’m a girl, and not a moment too soon.

===

“AND one and two and three and four, come on girls, one more time!” Lisa called from the front as she reset the music. Ready, set…

Kick and wave, right, left, big arm thing, kick again, change positions, funky weird wavy stuff, scream your head off. Phew, I don’t think I rested enough last night, I still feel like really tired, but I do have a blast doin’ all this. “Great job, girls, that’s about all we have time for this morning, go get cleaned up. Dana, if you’ll wait a moment I think Miss Cole wanted a word with you.” What’d I do now? Guess I’ll see in a second or two. I saw Miss Cole wave me over to her office, so I quickly made my way there.

“Good morning Dana. Please have a seat.”

“Good morning, ma’am,” I returned as I sat down. I had to ask. “Umm, did I do something wrong, ma’am?” I tried to hide the feeling of disappointment that was creeping up, but I couldn’t help shaking a bit when I saw the stern look on her face.

She calmly sat down before she spoke again. “Not wrong as such, Dana, but it is something we need to work on. The girls gave you a bag of clothes on Friday from what I’ve heard?”

“Yes, ma’am.” What’s that got to do with anything?

“Dana,” she sighed, “you’re a very pretty girl, and an asset to our cheer team. You can dance, do all the gymnastics, and can project your voice great. What I wanted to talk to you about is dressing the part of a cheerleader.” Oh, no.

“I’m sorry, Miss Cole, but I’m just not really into clothes and all that,” I apologized, thinking about the cutoffs and baggy Longhorns jersey currently waiting for me in the changing room.

“That’s alright, Dana, but as part of this squad your appearance reflects not only on you but on our entire school. That’s why the girls gave you those clothes. I won’t be kicking you off the team if you don’t wear them,” why did that make me feel so relieved? “But please, think about at least dressing a little better, please? To be honest, I’m surprised people can even tell you’re a girl with some of the things you wear.” Heh, if only she know. “You may go now.”

“Thank you, ma’am. And thanks for the advice.”

“Any time.”

As I showered and dried my thoughts drifted in and out of focus, but their theme was always there; my clothes. I didn’t think I dressed THAT badly. After all, aren’t jeans and tees pretty universal? Of course the girls on the cheerleading team did tend to dress nicer, heck even Patty seemed to be dressing a little better since making the team. But what exactly could I-

These aren’t my shorts.

“Nonononononononono, not AGAIN! Guys, come on.”

“What?” An all too innocent sounding voice asked from outside the shower.

“Lisa!” I whined, I admit it, but I was distressed! “Please, in the name of all that is holy, give. Me. My. Shorts. BACK!”

“What shorts, that’s the same skirt you wore in here this morning.” I looked at the piece of denim in my hand. The only similarity it had to my shorts was a vaguely similar material and color. And they’d taken my boxers again, too.

“Lisa, this isn’t funny, I’m gonna be late for class.” Inspiration. “Besides, my jersey won’t look good with this.”

“Sure it will, you’ll look really cute! Oh, just put the damn thing on already, you’re not getting your shorts back!” Bitch! What choice do I have, though?

“Do you have anything not in a thong at least?”

“Not with that skirt.” Dammit, I hate these things, and it was one of the dangly jewelry ones, too. “Oh, that’s looks SOO adorable! See, I told you it’d be cute!” I very much doubt the Texas Longhorns ever wanted to be ‘cute’, and the jersey was so long on me the skirt barely peeked out the bottom. Lisa was practically squealing in delight, and both Nancy and Shelby had looks of victory on their faces. A stomping on the steps from the lockers got everyone’s attention off o f me, though, and we saw Patty come in.

“Hey, have ya’ll seen Da- oh, wow, cute!” Oh, come on, Patty, not you too!

===

I swear, that had to be like the most embarrassing day of school ever! I wasn’t laughed at or nothing, but I did get a lot of weird looks, especially from some of the teachers. Patty said they were probably just surprised to see me wearing a skirt- well duh! She laughed when I said they probably weren’t half as surprised as I was.

The most surprising thing of the day though was Brody’s reaction. I’d expected TB to use the whole skirt thing as a springboard for some new joke, or at least a rehash of an old one as would more likely be the case, but the one time I saw him in the hallway he got this funny look on his face and got away as fast as possible! Come to think of it, he’d been pretty well avoiding me ever since I’d faced up to him on Friday. Maybe he doesn’t like prey that fights back.

It didn’t even occur to me until halfway through lunch that I could have used the meeting with Miss Cole to reveal my ‘male’ identity and get out of this. Sure, most of the school day had been spent trying to keep my underpants out of view of prying eyes, but I should a though of that! Even if I had thought of it, though, I was disturbed to realize I didn’t even know if I would have told her anyways. The simple truth was, I enjoyed the cheerleading. It was fun, energetic, and the first time I’d ever really done anything with kids from my own school. Back when we’d gone to Sherwood Elementary I’d had a few friends, in fact I still email Jonathan and Miriam every now and then, but ever since moving out here I’ve just been kinda a loner I guess. It felt good to be part of something, and I guess I just didn’t wanna give that up.

“Hey, girl, get your head outta the clouds and answer me!”

“Huh?” Oh, someone was talking to me. I saw Lisa sigh before addressing me again.

“I said a few of us are goin’ to the movies after school today since we couldn’t get another practice space. You wanna go?” They’re inviting me?

“What are ya’ll gonna see?” Best not to agree without knowing what I’m getting myself in for.

“I dunno, maybe the new Kent Brockman movie, he’s cute. Or, ooh, isn’t ‘Eight Dragons’ out yet? I’ve heard that was like really good too.”

“You mean you don’t even know what movie you’re gonna see yet?”

“Oh well, we’ll decide when we get there. Oh and Patty meet me out front after school and I’ll give ya’ll a ride. Oh, I gotta go, see ya then!” And with a last wave she disappeared in a whirlwind of peppiness. I never even said yes, but apparently I didn’t have to.

Shortly after Lisa left, the bell for the end of lunch chimed. On the way out I ran into Patty. “Hey, where were you during lunch?”

She looked at me oddly for a moment. “The principal needed to talk to me about… something. Oh, did Lisa ask you about the movie?”

I let out a huff. “Blitzed is more like it, I didn’t have a chance to say no! I don’t think I’m gonna go, though.” She turned around quickly and grabbed my hand.

“But you’ve got to! Please, I’ll even pay for your ticket, but I don’t wanna go without you.” That decided it for me.

Never turn down a free movie, after all.

===

“Hey, don’t forget, extra practice tomorrow after school on the soccer field!”

“I won’t.” I promised Lisa as I closed the car door behind me. I was barely backed away before the car load of giggling girls took off for parts unknown, and man I was tired! Mom had left the light on in the kitchen- our universal sign that someone was still out- but I’d used Lisa’s cell to call her earlier so I knew I wasn’t in trouble. I grabbed a quick glass of juice before heading to bed, shutting the light off on my way out.

Whew, what a night! I should’ve known there’d be more to the afternoon than a movie, but I hadn’t expected two hours of shopping! Needless to say, I’m yet again the not-so-proud owner of even more girl’s clothes, more specifically two more pairs of girl’s jeans. I tried to tell them ‘no way’, I even started on telling them I was a guy again, but something stopped me before I did it. Hmm, funny that. Oh well, at least they aren’t skirts, even if they are a bit on the tight side for my taste. A baggy tee and nobody’ll know the difference.

Not that that makes a difference since I wore a skirt to school today. God, I still can’t believe that guy at the movie theatre tried to feel me up in the snack line, too, what a creep! The movie was good, though. We ended up seeing the seven thirty showing of ‘Eight dragons,’ and I just have to say, WOW. They changed things around a bit, and I still don’t get the deal with the monkey in a straight jacket, but I can’t wait for ‘The Song of Chi’ to come out! Two and a half hours is a bit long to be sitting in a theater seat though, and since I hadn’t gone all day ‘cause of the skirt, well…

That was the first women’s restroom I’d ever been in besides the locker room at school, and even Patty being there didn’t help all that much. I almost forgot to sit down, and then when that lady asked if I had an extra pad- god, by the time we got out of there my nerves were shot, and Patty’s expressions from tryin’ to keep from laughing didn’t help, either!

I wonder whether Mom and Dad got my pills today. It’s too late to ask tonight, guess I’ll have to wait ‘til tomorrow. Heh, with how tired I am I don’t think I’d stay awake long enough to take ‘em anyways.

===

Ugh. Late night plus school does not equal a happy dane, and an unhappy Dane is not a cheerful dane.

“Well good morning, sunshine. Looks like you had a late night. Those girls run you ragged?”

“Ugnh.”

“Take a shower, I’ll have you some eggs ready when you get out.”

“Unghlnhg.”

“You’re welcome.”

The warm water helped to beat my brain cells into action, and by the time I got out I was almost feeling human. Mom slid a plate of scrambled eggs and bacon in front of me, and with a quick “Thanks” I dug in.

“Oh, this came for you yesterday in the mail,” she said as she sat across from me at the table and slid a small brown box towards me. I examined it for a moment before returning to my breakfast.

“cool. Did Dad get my medicine yesterday?”

“Sure did!” With a happy smile she got up and turned towards the counter, but stopped. “Crap.”

“What?”

She gave me a sorry look. “I forgot to take it out of your dad’s lunch box before he went to work.”

“Mom!”

“Hey, I’m sorry but they’ll be back this afternoon. Anyways, tell me about the movie ya’ll went and saw,” she recommended, changing the subject. So I spent the next five minutes telling her about our trip yesterday- minus any reference to my clothes or the girls’ restroom- before I had to go change. “Don’t forget your bra,” she giggled as I left. I think she’s having entirely too much fun with this whole cheerleader and girl’s clothes thing as it is, why would I give her more ammo?

Hmm, what should I wear? I was threatened under pain of death that should I wear my normal clothing choices I’d regret it, and I really didn’t want to find out how. I guess I could do one of those new pairs of jeans, at least they don’t have all that embroidery the pair they gave me has. Crap, my boxers’ll show through these, though! Well, I guess it’s as good a time as any to try the not-thongs, Le Sigh.

Grab a bra, don’t matter which one, they’re all the same pretty much aren’t they? And why the hell not, the white tank top too. And you know what? I’m wearing my ‘Johnny Rotten’ tee to boot- I even custom modified this one with lots of cuts and safety pins to be extra punk a couple of weeks before school, so now’s as good a time as ever to give it it’s debut. I’ll hide it in my bag before I go to practice- they can’t throw away what they can’t see! Hair in a pony tail, ready to go!

When Mom saw me all she did was raise an eyebrow. “What, Mom?”

“Nothing. Clean stuff for cheering?” She gestured to my cheer bag, and I nodded. Whatever. “Have a good day at school.”

The walk down to Patty’s went quickly, and I was rewarded for my early arrival by a muffled “Just a minute,” from her window. Since I had the time I decided to look at the package Mom had handed me since I’d shoved it in my school bag.

It must have gotten wet at some point as the return address was smudged beyond all readability, but there in the middle of the side was my name and address. I tore into the box, my curiosity peaked… Oh, yeah, THIS thing! Haha, it’s finally here, and on the perfect day! I must have made some kind of happy sound or something, ‘cause I felt Patty reach over my shoulder and snatch my prize from my hand with a “Let me see!”

“Hey, come on, give it back!”

“Easy, bro, I just wanted to see. Hmm, ‘Never Mind the Bollocks, Here’s the Sex Pistols’? Is this some more of that punk crap you’re always listening to?”

The horror! How could she NOT know? “This isn’t just some random CD, Pat,” she hates when I call her that, so I only do it when she’s being a brat, “this is the FIRST Punk album ever made! Come on, you know, Sid Vicious, Johnny Rotten,” I waved at my tee, “’god Save the Queen?’” I saw the light ckick on at that, and I took the opportunity to snatch my treasure back from her thieving grasp.

“Ah, these guys did THAT song? Cool! Wow, that’s a pretty old CD, bro.”

“Johnny is timeless,” I said defensively, clutching the CD to my chest. My very big chest. I felt the color drain from my face as I realized, “I put on the padded bra this morning! Oh, shit!” Patty choked for a moment then started cackling, but I didn’t care- how could I have been so stupid? “I gotta get this thing off!”

“Why? It’s not like I have anything that’ll fit you. I don’t know what’s worse,” she said between gasps of breath and giggles, “that you did that and didn’t notice, or that your mom didn’t say anything.”

“What difference does it make? I’m equally dead either way!”

“I hate to burst your bubble, but the skirt yesterday I think pretty much sealed it with most of the kids at school. Face it, no matter what you do you’re ‘one of the girls’ from here on out whether you like it or not. Actually,” she said, in a bright tone, “I think this’ll make things easier for you. No, really!” I guess the look o my face gave away my doubts. “Before yesterday you got picked on or left out ‘cause you really didn’t fit in with the boys or the girls. Now that you’ve kinda chosen a side, people’ll be more friendly.”

“Yeah, but in a few weeks that means I’ll have to change schools or something when my pills kick in. Still sound like a good thing?”

“I’m not so sure that’s gonna be a problem,” was her last reply before she started walking quickly towards school. Just what did she mean by that anyways?

===

“What the hell?!?”

“What?”

I pointed to the rose sticking out of the door of my locker. It was yellow, and had a note tied to it in an envelope. “Do you think they got the wrong locker?” I hoped. Patty reached past me, pulled the rose gently from the beat up metal vent, and after a cursory glance grinned widely. “I don’t think so. ‘To Dana, with all apologies, Thomas Brody.’ Hmm, seems kinda literate for him, but it looks kinda like his writing.”

My. Brain. Was. Fried. “WHY in HELL would HE give me flowers?”

“Someone has a cru-ush,” she sang in a musical tone, then placed the rose in her teeth and tried to dip me.

“Oh, shut up, you ain’t Romeo, and he most DEFINITELY isn’t.” I pulled myself upright, and opened my locker to find another note slid through and on my books. I hid it quietly before Patty finished playing with the rose- I wanted to see what it said, but I didn’t want her reading it out loud.

I’d say I was pretty occupied with my own thoughts for most of the rest of the day. It kinda figures the first romantic gesture in my life would come from a guy- and TB, of all people! Not that the whole ‘Gay/Lesbian’ thing was foreign to me- there were a few openly gay kids in our school, after all- and I didn’t have a problem with the idea of one of my friends being like that, but I’d always considered myself straight when I gave it any thought to begin with.

‘Course, I’d never actually DATED anyone. And I’d never had a crush on a girl per se, but conversely I’d never crushed on a guy either. Not that guys were bad looking, nor girls…

I had Music Arts sixth period, and since it was my only class Patty wasn’t in I decided to read the note then. You wouldn’t believe how much of a relief it was when I found out it was an invitation to a LAN party from Steven Wright, a kid in my class. We weren’t really close friends and hardly ever talked at school, but since both of us were kinda part of the ‘outcast’ category, prior to my cheering at least, we’d come to make it a point to always invite each other to things like parties and birthdays. It might be only once a year we’d actually ATTEND, but it was the thought that counted, after all.

You know what? I think I’m gonna go! It says Sunday night since Monday is one of those in service things, and I’ve been around girls-only WAY more than is good for me lately. Since we share seventh period I’ll let ‘im know then!

===

“So it’s really cool if I come”

Steven gave me a broad grin, which when combined with his glasses and black crew-cut hair made him look kinda crazy. “I wouldn’t have invited you if it wasn’t! The smitage shall begin around two I think, if you can bring some Dews or something that’d be great. Oh, I just downloaded the ‘Mazes and Monsters’ fifth edition rulebooks, so we may try that a bit, too.” He held his hand up high for a high five, and I had to jump to hit it, which made my chest bounce a lot more than I woulda liked. All he did was give me a kinda lewd glance before shrugging. “See ya then!” What can I say? Geeks.

“Yeah, see ya then.” I glanced at my watch- if I rush, I have just enough time to get to the locker room and change without being late. I made a mad dash for the gym, stuffing my Johnny Rotten tee in my bag on the way, and was changed and on the soccer field just in time for Miss Cole’s whistle.

“Cutting it a bit close, aren’t we, Miss Phoenix?”

“Sorry, Ma’am.”

It seems that today was meant to be our first practice with the more complicated elements of cheering- namely, pyramids and throws. To make it worse, the soccer team, after graciously offering us ‘poor girls’ half of their practice pitch, had decided to take the opportunity to show off for us, and more than a few of my fellow cheerleaders seemed less than focused on the practice at hand.

“One, two, three, UP!” Of course, little old me just HAD to be one of the people up in the air. I knew I could take a fall, and we were on soft grass anyways, but I was kinda worried about being trampled by a gaggle of panicky girls. Still, so far we’d just done a coupla basic ‘lifts’ or whatever they’re called, and since I was the only one in ‘A’ Squad who hadn’t done them before it wasn’t all that bad, and we were well enough versed in dropping me in a relatively attractive manner by the end of the day we felt like doing a few at the pep rally.

Throws, however, were another issue entirely.

===

“Whaaooah, owwie.” It had taken a second or two after I awoke to realize I hurt. A lot. And in places that shouldn’t have hurt like they were from a measly eight foot fall.

“Oh, jeez, are you okay?”

“Whuh?” As more and more of my faculties returned to me, I became aware of another situation through the pain. Arms, hands, chest- yes, someone was definitely holding me. Cradling me was probably closer to the truth. To this point I hadn’t had the courage to open my eyes, but had stubbornly kept them tightly shut. With great trepidation I slowly levered one eye open to reveal…

“Hi there.”

I quickly slammed my eyes closed again. Just great, of all the kids in school who could have been there, it had to be him. He was tall, muscular, and tanned. His face was like a model’s and his deep green eyes were the object of affection of more than a few girls in my class. And did I mention he’s on the soccer team?

He’s on the soccer team.

“Hi James. Um, you can put me down now,” I said, putting my arms around his neck for support as I tried to slide myself down. After a false start and nearly running into Patty, who was wearing an expression of horrid worry and amusement combined, he finally just picked me up again and carried me over to one of the sideline benches. James Palmer had just carried me off the field- god, how could I ever live this down? “And what the hell happened?” I added when I could think.

“It was, uh, kinda my fault,” I heard him say as he positioned himself near my head while Patty knelt in front of me. Man, this I awkward. “I accidentally kicked the ball too hard and high, and it, um, kinda hit you in the head and, er, knocked you down.”

“Well of course it knocked me down, I was airborne last thing I remember!”

“Hey, no reason to get all bitchy,” Patty said to me, and her tone told me I should stay quiet. “Besides, he ran right over to help you, and he doesn’t even get a kiss or a ‘thank you’ or anything. You’ll make SUCH a great girlfriend, won’t she?”

“Hey!”

“No, that’s alright. I’ll see you later.” And wit a last smile and a wave he was off, and Patty was giggling hysterically. I swear, my life sucks.

===

Ah the joys of what had quickly become my idea of a ‘normal’ school day. Wednesday was just another day of dressing suitably pseudo-girly so that the girls would stay off my back followed by cheering, which I was loathe to admit had become the high point of my days. We were inside, so no soccer ball snipers at least. Thursday was just plain boring, with no cheering to save it from itself. About the best thing about the past few days has been my medicine. It’s just a mild dose at the moment to try and slow down my development, but still, it’s a step in the masculine direction! And not a moment too soon- I’m starting to like some of this girlie stuff a little too much.

This, however, was going too far.

“Oh, come on, D, all the other girls are doing it, it’s tradition! Besides, it’ll be the only way you’ll be ready for the pep rally!”

“Patty! Grgh!” I had managed to completely ignore the uniforms hanging in my closed for nearly three weeks now, and she wanted me to drag out the regular uniform and wear it to school!

“Come on, does it not fit or something?”

“How would I know, I haven’t tried the stupid thing on!” Patty gave me an incredulous look; I just stared right back.

“You mean you’ve had a uniform this long and STILL haven’t tried it on? What’s wrong with you?”

I don’t know, maybe the fact that- oh, newsflash- I’m NOT A GIRL! Does the name ‘Dane’ sound girlie to you at all?”

“Apparently it’s girlie enough to be mistaken for ‘Dana’: just PLEASE, do this for me?” Then she pulled the dirtiest trick in the book.

“No. No. I- just- no. Oh, come on, Pat. Oh, dammit, alright.” I took the twenty and went to change.

I really wish I hadn’t. Sure, the uniform fit- if you consider the idea of my ‘bloomers’ being displayed with every movement to be a necessary part of the uniform’s ‘fit’- but it looked WAY too good on me. No, I’m not conceited, but seriously, even I though I looked hot in this thing- which is precisely why I’d been avoiding it.

“Come on out, D, I wanna see!”

Well, here goes nothing.

“hey hey hey, look who’s the hot little mamacita! Your mom wants to see, too, and she’ll do your hair while we’re here.”

“What!”

By the time we left for school Mom had put my hair in a pair of ‘cute’ braids at the back of my neck, and even insisted on working a blue ribbon into one side and a white one into the other, giving me even more of that ‘Hey, Ho, School Spirit!’ look. Le Sigh. But the worst part was Patty- she’d done her face up in school colors for some inexplicable reason, and insisted I have the same treatment. God, I hate wearing a ton of makeup. The two of us must have looked quite a sight on the way to school, and we got more than a few honks from passing guys! At least with it still being mid-September it was warm enough for this- winter games are gonna like totally suck.

Oh god, did I just THINK in valley Girl? Must be a side effect of the uniform.

And can you believe it, hardly anybody even gave me a second glance at school. Well, let me rephrase that- I hardly got many ‘wait, ain’t that a guy?’ looks. Hehe, Steven’s reaction was pretty funny, though- I’ve never seen s spit take in real life before, but trust me, it’s worth it! And of course, TB seemed rather nervous the couple of times I caught him glancing my way- what’s up with him lately?

===

I don’t like much of Avril Lavigne’s music, but I have to admit that ‘Girlfriend’ is an excellent song to cheer to. I almost threw up right before the start of the Pep Rally I was so nervous, but Patty kept reassuring me everything would be fine, and once you get out there and actually start cheering, everything else just kinda falls into place, ya know? Within five minutes of running out on the court I was yelling and kicking with the best of ‘em.

“B-R, B_R_I, B_R_I_G_H_T_O_N, We, are, we are great, and you know we’re gonna win! We are Brighton, mighty fightin’ Cougars, always steppin’ up the pace, other teams are losers, play with the pride of the blue and white,
And show them how to play it right! GO COUGARS!”

Horray for brain-dead jumping about! Wave those pom-poms like it actually does something! Act like you really care if our team wins or not! I don’t know when exactly my nervousness changed to light-headed excitement, but by the time the sports teams showed up I was practically bouncing off the walls. After a short break from the organized cheers while the sports teams were introduced, after which the principal introduced all the new cheerleaders. My nerves rose back up as he approached my name, and a rush of relief swept over me when I heard him announce my name as ‘Dana’, followed by a request for all the cheerleaders and Miss Cole to meet him in his office after the pep rally. Oh god, I hope the meeting isn’t about me!

We kept things up for another half hour or so, listening to the school band performing all the tired basketball tunes every high school band tuba player knows by heart, followed by another round of cheers. I felt oddly smug when I realized how much more applause we got than the band.

===

There was only about a quarter of an hour left in the school day when we got to the principal’s office in the main building, and were ushered in immediately by his secretary, where we all stood eagerly waiting as he looked us over. I was pale as a ghost I’m sure, and when his gaze swept over me I’m SURE he paused for a moment. I’m SO dead!

“Ladies,” he started, “a very important issue has come to my attention. An issue which seriously affects every member of this squad, and could adversely affect our status among the other schools.” He paused for a moment, and all the other girls chattered nervously to each other, wondering what was going on. I was so nervous, embarrassed, and guilty feeling I think I nearly burnt through my uniform. Come on, just get it over with already.

“Jackets.”

Huh?

“Your letter jackets,” he continued, gesturing to the squad, “need to be updated. Those of you who already have them can keep your old ones, but I’m sure our first year cheerleaders want something new. We’ve got the books in with the types available, and Miss Cole will help you find something appropriate, after which we’ll discuss price. Of course, if you stay the entire year the jackets are yours free of charge, but since they’re customized we do need a small deposit.”

We were called in here to talk about CLOOTHES? I can’t believe this crap!

“Any objections? No? Good! You girls have a nice weekend.” I was almost out the door with Patty when a hand held my shoulder back. When I looked up, I saw Miss Cole gesture back into the office.

Oh god.

I sat down in one of the wooden chairs across from the principal’s desk- you know, one of those chairs designed to be as uncomfortable as possible from the moment you plant yourself in it- and awaited my punishment. Miss Cole shut the door and crossed to stand next to the principal, crossing her arms across her chest in a serious manner. The principal coughed lightly before taking on his ‘authority figure’ stance.

“You’ve got us in quite a predicament, MR. Phoenix. What made you think you could join the GIRLS ONLY cheer team and not get caught?” I could feel the tears start to roll down my cheeks, but I couldn’t stop them. My life was ruined, and all the girls would-

“How far along are you?” Miss Cole asked me.

“Excuse me?”

“Have you started hormones already?” She asked me gently. I just looked at her confused.

“Yeah, I’m on hormones.” What did that matter? She shared a quick look with the principal, and after a quick exchange of whispers turned to me again and smiled.

“Thank you, Dana. You’re free to go now.” Huh? All that, wait, what just happened?

“Am I still on the team?”

Miss Cole gave a small laugh. “Of course, dear. Couldn’t lose one of my best new girls, could I? We’ll take care of this.”

Patty was waiting outside the school for me with an anxious expression, and as soon as she saw me rushed over with a hug for me. “Is everything okay?”

“I don’t know.”

===

End of Part 1

To be continued!

Notes: Okay, by this time I think I'm starting to get the hang of writing things a bit better, but I know I still have like a really long way to go. This is the first draft of the typed version of this story, probably the third draft overall total. I know some areas of it are still a bit (okay, a lot) rough, so tell me what needs fixin', and it'll get fixed. Tell me what don't work, and I'll change it so long as it don't break the story. As with most stories, there are a large number of occurrences in this story that are circumstantial and/or stretching the boundaries of believability, but I've always found the suspension of belief to be one of the most pleasant parts of reading any genre. Comments are appreciated, and the next part should be out in one to two weeks! I know there's a lot unexplained, but they will be, oh, they will be...

Melanie E.

Oh, Cheers: Part 2- FIGHT!

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • 7,500 < Novelette < 17,500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Accidental
  • School or College Life
  • Stuck
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Identity Crisis

TG Elements: 

  • Estrogen / Hormones
  • Girls' School / School Girl
  • Gym Class / Cheerleaders

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  • Posted by author(s)

Oh, Cheers: Part 2

FIGHT!

By Melanie Ezell

It's a whole new life for Dane now that he's a cheerleader, but can he deal with the emotional strain of leading a double life? With a little help from his friends, and a bit of his own patented good/bad luck, anything is possible!

“Can you pass the corn chips?”

“No! Come on, they’re closer to you.”

“Nuh uh! Pleeeeeaase?” I gave Patty my best puppy dog look, and it only took her a few seconds to crack up and finally push the chips my way.

“You’re getting too good at this whole ‘girl’ thing.”

“Well, I’m learning from the best!”

“That’s for sure.” Conversation ended as we turned our attention back to the television, just in time to see…

“NO! No no no no no! He was supposed to pick Teresa!” I screamed at the TV in frustration, and Patty started laughing again.

“Are you sure you aren’t all girl?”

“Huh? Why?” I asked, watching in dismay as Steven took Elizabeth in his arms and kissed her deeply, leaving Teresa, the sweet innocent one, in tears.

“Most guys wouldn’t be watching this, for one thing.” Well, I guess ‘Leslie High’ was a kinda girly show. “And if they did, they’d probably go for the hot chick with the big tits too.”

“But she’s a total bi-“ I cut myself off before I finished a word I KNEW my Mom wouldn’t appreciate, and since she was supposed to be home any moment I didn’t wanna run the risk. “Witch. Teresa’s had a crush on him for like forever, and they’re like the perfect- oh, god, I AM turning into a girl.” I pushed myself up off the floor and scooted on my knees towards the television to switch to something else a bit more ‘manly’. Besides, the episode was over anyways, “So, anything you wanna watch?”

Patty rolled over on her back and stuck her tongue out of her mouth, apparently deep in thought. “Uh, nah. Our moms will be back soon anyways, and then we’re all supposed to meet our dads at that new Tex Mex place for dinner, aren’t we?”

I huffed for a moment before admitting, “Yeah.”

“Does your mom still expect you to wear that dress to dinner?”

“YES. She said we have to tell Dad about the whole girl thing sometime, and she wants to do it really dramatic so she can get a good picture of it.”

“Ah, I see. Your mom’s evil, you know that right?”

“Yup.”

===

This was it. It was now or never. I reached up and carefully pushed my way through the double doors into the loud, colorful restaurant, and couldn’t keep my thoughts from wandering back to why I was here today.

We, me and my mom, had been trying to keep Dad out of the loop on the whole cheerleading and girl’s clothes thing, and I thought we’d done a good job. Mom had covered for me at practice and when I was ‘out with the girls’, and somehow my Dad remained oblivious to our nervousness. Why were we sneaking around him? Well, remember my meeting with the Principal after the Pep Rally? Well, when I got back home I was still upset, and since Mom was already home that day I’d ran right to her crying, don’t ask me why, and just poured out all that had happened that day to her like a little kid. She’d gotten an odd look when I finished up telling her about the conversation with him and the cheer coach, and told me we shouldn’t tell Dad about anything just yet until she’d had a chance to think over things some more. She made a couple of calls then, but I didn’t really care so I just sat in the living room watching a documentary on ‘The Sex Pistols’ on VH1, wishing I were as cool as the guys in the band. I bet THEY never got mistaken for girls. I tried to imagine Johnny Rotten with tits- no. Just, no.

It turns out that right before I’d gotten home she’d got a call from Dad. He’d been angry, which was a first for me, and complained about some jerk coming up to him at work and telling him to ‘keep his faggot son away from his boy.’ Well, we came to find out it was Thomas Brody’s dad. Apparently Thomas had come home the day before and talked to him about me and whether I was a boy or a girl. Of course, his dad had never met me, but I guess automatically assumed that I must be gay and trying to corrupt his kid (like that was possible) so he called a few friends and found out where Dad was working. Of course, good ol’ Dad did the old political trick of Deny, Deny, Deny, but Mr. Brody wasn’t buying it. She had me change quickly and we were prepping for a major yelling match when Dad got home. He slammed the door open and stumbled into the living room, and for a moment I was scared outta my mind about what he was gonna do. Then he lifted his head, and let out the biggest, loudest snort I’d ever heard before falling down in the floor laughing his ass off. I just stood there confused for the longest time until he got his wits back, stood up, and came over and hugged me. Then he proceeded to tell us how proud he was- PROUD- that I could get that kind of rise outta ‘old Goatface Garret’. He said that ‘GB’ had been a huge bully in his days in school, and anything that made him that flustered and upset had to be a good thing. I guess the lugnut doesn’t fall far from the tree.

But whatever, anyways, me and mom decided it might not be a good idea just yet to tell dad WHY Brody was questioning whether I was a guy or a girl. He was happy at the moment, and while I didn’t think he’d get angry at me I wanted him to enjoy his fun while it lasted. The police had taken Brody’s dad off the property when he tried to smash up some furniture (Dad says he has anger issues- I was starting to see why Brody never had nice things) and he was banned from the premises, so he couldn’t mess with Dad any more, which was a small victory for Dad that he wasn’t gonna let go.

After that, things just never seemed right. How do you tell your dad you’re dressing a little girly for school now ‘cause you’re a cheerleader? You really can’t do it in a good way, can you? That’s why it was now two weeks later, and here I stood in an ‘LBD’ and NERVOUS and walking towards the table to surprise my dad. From the way his eyes boggled I’d guess he was pretty surprised. And so was Lisa’s dad, who we hadn’t let in on the whole deal yet either.

And from the way my grandma started choking on her shrimp, I’d say she was too.

===

I hugged my knees tightly as I huddled in the corner of the barrier, crying softly to myself. GOD, I screw everything up! Why was SHE here? Why couldn’t I just die?

“D? D! Where are you?” Patty came around the corner of our car and found me there crouched on the pavement, but by now I was beyond the point of being embarrassed around her. We’d seen each other in our underwear enough over the past couple of weeks it wasn’t even funny, and besides, she was my best friend. It was just around family and everyone else I got embarrassed. “There you are!” She rushed over to me, her arms outspread, and wrapped me in a hug the minute she reached me.

“Muh… Muh… Muh… Grandma! What was she doing here!”

“Oh, sweetie, I’m sorry!” My mom rounded the corner and came up to me, sliding Patty to the side so she could hug me too. “Your dad said she wanted to wish you happy birthday since she won’t be here Friday, and he didn’t see the harm in letting her come to dinner…”

“Moooommmm! Whugh, I mean, what did she say! I can’t believe she’s…” I just shook some more as I tried to calm my nerves. My mom just kept hugging me as she explained.

“She was fine, a little shocked at first, like your dad, but fine. She knows about your physical problems, and I already explained to her about your, ah, breasts, and she thinks this was just us playing a joke on your dad. Come on.” I got unsteadily to my feet, and after sniffling a few more times let go of Patty and my mom.

“Sorry ‘bout the way I reacted. I don’t know why, but I saw her, and I saw her reaction, and, and, and I was scared she would hate me, and,” I stopped for a moment to try and quit hyperventilating. It didn’t work.

“Oh, honey.” My mom came up to me again and wrapped her arms around my shoulders. “Come on, let’s get you cleaned up. Good thing you refused makeup or you’d have raccoon eyes right now.” That lightened the mood a bit, and I managed a stilted laugh, but it was better than nothing.

===

After a stop at the women’s restroom-something else I’d gotten used to over the last couple of weeks- we made our way back to the table, to find Dad and Grandma laughing with Patty’s mom and dad, all happy and not seeming to be freaked out in the least. Our presence I guess finally registered with Grandma, ‘cause she looked up, and this time when she saw me her face broke into a huge grin and she stood up to give me a much needed hug. “Come here, let me look at you. Oh, you’re just too cute for words, and that dress really makes your, umm…” her face twitched a moment, but quickly cleared,” Yes. Here, sit next to me.” A waiter brought around an extra chair, and I sat down as carefully as I could, making sure to smooth my skirt down like I’d gotten used to doing the times Patty had bribed me into wearing a skirt to school again.

“So, what’s everyone having to drink?” The waiter who had brought my chair asked, and as everyone placed their orders I glanced around the table. Everyone seemed calm and relaxed except me, and when I saw Patty she winked at me conspiratorially. The conversation flowed around me, and unsurprisingly the main subject of interest seemed to be my grand entrance and sudden departure.

“I must admit I wasn’t expecting this,” my grandma said, but in that peculiar way of hers that suggested she’d had her suspicions but didn’t want to ruin the surprise. Her and my dad were a lot alike in so many ways attitude-wise, and it was obvious they were related in appearance as well. My grandma was what you would call a ‘handsome’ woman, though never beautiful, and my dad took after her in that respect. A strong chin, piercing eyes and natural blonde hair even at the age of sixty-eight were just a few of the traits that set her apart from other women her age, but her humor and love of life made her seem barely older than my own parents. “So, tell me, Adam, when did my grandson become my granddaughter?” My dad kinda scuffed his feet and coughed.

“I’d kinda like to know that myself.” The look he turned on me was inquiring, but not unkind. My dad was a wonderful man, and I knew he’d always love me, but the circumstances had, well, changed from what I’d been expecting. “Not that I don’t think she’s beautiful, mind you,” he said, intentionally making me blush, “but it’s not every day a fourteen year old boy shows up to eat in a dress, especially not such a, uh, revealing one.”

Yeah, about that… my mom thought it’d be best to be blatant about how girly I looked, so the dress is one of those ones with the stringy straps that don’t really do that much to hold anything up, and was a little tight in the, ahem, chest area. I’d been growing the last few weeks according to my mom, and it seemed I was up to a full ‘B’ cup now. Also according to her, it was probably a good thing I’d been ‘outed’ as a girl as I couldn’t have hid them on someone my size at this point anyways. The girls on the cheer squad said almost a full size in a little over two weeks is really good-I just thought I was a freak, but that’s the norm lately. “It was Mom’s idea.”

“And mine!” Patty volunteered happily, which brought a glare from me, and an amused sideways glance from her mom.

The rest of dinner was, well, a nice dinner out. After a bit everyone seemed to forget about the dress and instead focus on the fact that I’d be turning 15 on the 24th. I wasn’t all that excited about it seeing as at this point if I wanted to have a party it’d have to be as a girl, but that didn’t slow anybody else down. My grandma’s playful streak came out and I jumped out of my seat when she asked, “So, D-uh, D-d-dana, what are you wanting for your birthday? Makeup? Maybe a doll? Nah, you’re a bit old for them now, though porcelain dolls can be fun. Ooh, maybe a boyfriend?” The rest of the table laughed, but I just sat there with my face a wash of crimson. Finally the giggling and guffaws died down, and my grandma reached across to my hand and said, “I think I have a better idea of what to give you.” She took my hand and held it for a moment, and when she removed her hand I felt something in my palm. I carefully opened my hand and there, in the middle of my palm, was my grandma’s Promise Ring!

“Oh, Edith, you can’t!” My mom proclaimed in shock.

“Oh, yes I can! Besides, it’s ‘her’ birthstone, so it’s only appropriate!” I lifted the ring and looked at it. It was a finely crafted gold band, and across the top were three small white stones. “Opals,” she said. “Go ahead, put it on.” I slid it nervously onto my left hand ring finger. It was a perfect fit.

I felt the tears well up in my eyes but couldn’t seem to keep them down. “Th-thank you…” I leaned over and gave my grandma a hug, which seemed to surprise her for some reason, but she returned it warmly. Patty and her mom both oohed and aahed when they were shown the ring, but I refused to take it off. For some reason her giving me that ring seemed like a sign that she accepted me no matter what and, I don’t know, that felt… special, for some reason.

===

We were loading into our cars when I felt a tug on my elbow. I turned around from a quick last word to Patty to see my grandma there, smiling again in that knowing way and holding a package wrapped in newspaper. “When you see Dane, give him this, but tell him he can’t unwrap it until his birthday.”

“Oh, grandma, I love you,” I gushed as I gave her a tight hug. When I pulled away we both had slightly teary eyes, but it was good tears, ya know?

The car was quiet on the way home, and I was happy to just sit back and admire my new ring. Mom and dad simply sat in the front holding hands across the center console. It was nice.

===

I won’t go into the details of the conversation we had when we got home, but it took care of all the details we’d meant to cover over dinner but hadn’t ‘cause of Grandma. Dad listened and didn’t interrupt, but you could see the laughter in his eyes. There’s nothing that makes you feel weirder than knowing your dad isn’t going to help you out of a fix simply ‘cause he finds it funny; that’s really aggravating, but in this case it was that same humor that probably saved my skin. “Just one question,” he said when we’d finished the story. “You’re still taking the pills right?”

“The testosterone? Yeah.” He gave me an odd look at that.

“It’s not testosterone, son. Didn’t they tell you?” I just shook my head confused. He sighed and rubbed his eyes for a moment. “Apparently I’m not the only one who’s getting some interesting news tonight. Dane, what did they tell you about your condition?”

I thought for a moment. “They said my body wasn’t making testosterone right, and that I had too much estrogen in my system. They also said that I didn’t have some kinda receptor or something, why?” I saw that he didn’t really want to tell me, so Mom crossed to behind him and touched his shoulder in support.

“Son, uh, those receptors you don’t have are the ones that read your testosterone.” I gave him a confused look, but a feeling of dread growing in my stomach told me I already knew what was coming next. “The pills you’ve been taking aren’t hormones, they were meant to try and slow down any development the estrogen might cause so we could try to find some other way to… Dane, ah-“

“Sweetie, what your dad’s trying to say is… you can’t use testosterone very well.”

“What? Why not?”

“Your body just doesn’t respond to it. I’m sorry, there’s really nothing we could do…” I didn’t hear the rest as I slammed my bedroom door, fell on my bed, and screamed.

===

“You look like shit, D.” I glanced over at Patty as we walked to school, but didn’t say anything. What was there to say? “I’m sorry, it’s just-“

“No, Patty, that’s alright. I do, don’t I?” I forced a smile on my face, and although Patty knew it was fake, the fact I was trying seemed to make her feel better. She started skipping ahead, but when she got a few yards in front of me she turned around and called me up to her.

“So, any idea what you wanna do for your birthday? You’ve only got like three more days ‘til then, so you really need ta start thinkin’ about it.”

“I dunno, Sis,” I shrugged. We’d been calling each other ‘bro’ and ‘sis’ for a long time, but seemed to do it more since the whole cheerleading thing started, though Patty had abandoned ‘bro’ entirely in favor of ‘sis’ as well. I dunno, I guess after having been best friends for so long the last barrier between us was finally breaking down thanks to the cheerleading. Huh. “I don’t think I’m gonna do anything this year. I mean, it’s really not that big of a deal, and besides, who’d I invite?”

Patty just gave me a look like ‘well, duh!’ “Well, Duh!” Ah. “All the cheerleaders, for one thing! And aren’t you still friends with that Steven kid and all those geeks?”

“Hey! It ain’t like you’ve never gamed with us ya know!”

“I’m just sayin’. There’s lots of people who like you now, Sis! Maybe we can even invite Brody over!” Oh, please. Ever since the whole rose thing, Brody’s been avoiding me like crazy at school. Some of the other cheerleaders said they heard he felt really bad about picking on me ‘cause he always thought I was just a gay guy or something, and for some reason that made me feel sorry for him. I mean, I know he was mean to me for like forever, but this ain’t quite the way I’d hoped to stop his picking on me.

“Patty! No, okay? I don’t wanna have a lot of people over right now, I don’t feel like it.”

“Well, why not? Are you on your period or something?” Okay, it was a joke. I get it. But, I dunno, I just kinda snapped.

“No, Patty, but since you’re SO concerned about me, maybe this’ll explain!” I was yelling, but I couldn’t stop- I wouldn’t stop. I needed this off my chest, and she’d asked for it! “I can’t be a guy! No matter what, I’m gonna look like a girl for the rest of my life whether I want to or not! How about that huh?”

“But, Dana, your medicine…”

“It’s not working! Look at me!” I threw my bag onto a nearby bench and walked right up nose to chin to her, crying again, like I always seemed to be lately. “I’m stuck like this, a freak, forever! You’ve got it so great, you’re normal, but I’m just- AAARRHGH!” I screamed. And screamed. And cried, and screamed some more. And it didn’t seem to help any no matter how much I tried to let the hurt out.

===

Why all of a sudden? I’ve been doing this thing for, like, a month now, so why now? I dunno, but Patty decided to walk me back home instead of taking me to school, and all I could do was cry.

I mean, it’s not bad this girl thing, but… how did I end up like this? What did I do to make the world decide I was a girl? And why did everybody accept it so easily?

That’s one thing I still haven’t figured out. Fourteen, almost fifteen years spent trying to be a guy, and it all disappears after a couple of weeks as a girl. Not just to them, but to ME too! I can’t even think back on how things used to be without seeing myself as a girl any more. And the crying just doesn’t seem to want to stop ever.

I woke up around noon to find Patty still there with me, laying on my bed and watching me worriedly. Patty, who knew me better than anybody else. If I can’t figure this out, maybe she can. “Sis?”

“Yeah?” She stroked my hair gently, brushing it back from my face.

“Why does everybody think I’m a girl? Do I act gay or something? God, am I such a complete wuss I can’t even pass as GAY then? Why?” I sniffled a bit, and curled up a little tighter. I guess I’d mostly cried myself out while I was asleep, for the first time since this all began, and now I just felt empty and scared, and I didn’t like it.

“Oh, sweetie,” she hugged me tightly, and I could see she’d been crying again too- we always did get each other started. “I dunno, I mean, uh. Huh. It’s just, well,” she hesitated for a moment, then chose to continue. “Remember when I turned nine and our moms took us to Silver Dollar City for my birthday? Remember who I invited?”

I thought about it a moment. Erica, Sarah, Lindy, Carmen, me. “Yeah?”

She shuffled a bit to get a bit more comfortable. “Did you have fun with us?”

“Yeah! It was great, we all rode all the rides together and got necklaces.”

“And you didn’t feel uncomfortable being the only boy there?”

Oh. “I hadn’t really thought about it. I mostly just remember it was nice hanging out with ya’ll.”

“And when it was your birthday a couple of months later, who did you have over?”

Erica, Sarah, Lindy, Carmen, Patty. And I’d invited Miriam and Jonathan, too, but they couldn’t make it. “The same girls.” Now that I thought about it, huh. She must have seen the look of confusion on my face, ‘cause she just nodded. “Okay, so I don’t have that many of my own friends besides you-“

“No, D, that’s just it. They weren’t just my friends, they were your friends too. And they all showed up, and we had a lot of fun, didn’t we?” I nodded. Then she giggled and asked, “But do you remember what Erica’s mom asked yours?”

I thought for a moment, and frowned. “She asked my mom if she knew I ‘pretended’ to be a boy at school.” Another tear made its escape as I remembered the ensuing argument that was the reason Erica was never allowed to play with us again.

I looked at Patty again, and she looked almost as sad as I felt. “I’m sorry D, but you’ve always been a bit girly, at least to me.” She gave me another hug, and I buried my face in her shoulder. “I know you’ve always tried to be a boy but, uh, I don’t know if you can.” How could I argue with her on that when all the evidence agreed with her? “But I don’t care if you’re a boy or a girl, okay? Just be who you want to be. And I’m sorry.” I felt another sob wrack my body, but it wasn’t mine. “I’m SO sorry I made you do this. I didn’t think it would hurt you, it’d just be a bit of fun, but if you’re not enjoying it I’ll take the blame for it. I, I,” and she cried for a bit. All of a sudden, I had gone from being the one being comforted to being the one doing the comforting.

“Patty? Patty, don’t blame yourself for anything. You didn’t hurt me, and it HAS been fun, mostly.” I squeezed her tightly, and we just sat there for a long time, not sure who needed who more.

===

“Dana? Sorry… D?”

“Yeah?”

“Is being a girl really that bad to you? I mean, honestly?”

I pulled myself up onto my elbows as best I could with Patty’s arms still locked around me in a death grip, and looked at her. And looked some more. “I…” I had to think about this. “I, I guess not, not really. But, I mean, I’m a guy, you know? Or I was supposed to be. I thought.” I shifted around a bit to try and get comfortable before continuing. “What I mean is, like, I’ve spent my entire life a guy, and now everyone thinks I’m a girl, and it’s just like, why all the wasted effort? No, not that- why make me think I’m one thing, but actually another? Or, no, uh… oh, I dunno, Patty.” She hugged me again, and I smoothed her hair for a bit as I thought.

I seriously hoped Mom wouldn’t be mad when she got home and found out we’d skipped. She’d always told me- and I think Patty’s mom said the same thing- that we could just tell them if we didn’t feel like going to school, and even if we weren’t sick they’d let us stay out if we had a good reason, but this was the first time we’d done it without permission in a long time. Heh. “Patty?” She shifted around me a bit. “Do you remember the last time we skipped school?”

“Hehehe, yeah. Fourth grade.” She finally pulled herself up to lay on the bed, her head resting on the pillow next to mine. “We ran off ‘cause the fair was in town. We were gonna join up and become carnival people, ‘cause we didn’t understand the difference between a carnival and the fair.”

“Yup. And remember what happened when the girl who ran the haunted house found us accidentally trapped in one of the cages?”

“OH, yeah.” She had to stop talking for a moment to giggle a bit, and I joined her as I reminisced myself. “She called our parents, and then dragged us up to the main office thing they had set up, and when we tried to explain we were there to join the circus, she, she…”

“Yeah. She set us to work cleaning out the livestock pens until our moms got there.” I curled up my nose at the memory of the stench of all the cow manure we had to shovel that day. “We promised our moms never to skip school or run away again.”

“Yup. I had my fingers crossed, though. You?”

“Me too.” We both just lay there and laughed for the longest time, until we passed out from the emotional strain of all we’d been dealing with. I, for one, could use the rest.

===

“Oh, they’re so sweet.”

“And in SO much trouble.”

“Well, yeah, but not just yet. Look at how cute they look, lying there all curled up together, just like when they were babies.”

I rolled over a bit to try and stretch, only to find myself held firmly in place by a still snoozing Patty. So, I just rubbed my eyes for a bit to try and find who was talking. I had just enough brain cells going to spot my mom and Patty’s mom in the doorway. They both made ‘ssshhhhhh’ gestures at me, and closed the door again, so I just laid my head back on the pillow and passed out.

===

When I woke up again Patty was gone, but the bed was still warm where she’d been. I rolled myself off the bed and glanced blurry eyed at my alarm clock to see what time it was.

WHAT! Five in the afternoon? I know we were up until noon at least just talking and crying, so we must have slept for at least four hours… “Patty?”

“In here.” I followed the sound of her voice out my bedroom door, down the hall, and into the living room to find her sitting with both our moms and dads, all of whom seemed worried. “I was just trying to tell them why we weren’t at school today,” she started, but I could see she still wasn’t sure what to tell them. They didn’t seem angry at least, so maybe we wouldn’t get in too much trouble.

“Would you care to tell us what’s goin’ on, son?” Her father, Ruben Noland, asked. He was a tall man with dark hair, and seeing him always made me think of an older version of that Colin Farrel guy from the movies. Patty took after him a lot more than her mom, but even so he was a lot different than Patty- not colder, just a lot more neutral.

“Sorry, sir, I wasn’t feeling too good, and Patty decided I didn’t need to go to school with how I was feeling.” There, no lies, just, well, bending the truth a bit.

“Are you feeling better now?”

“Uh, I guess a bit.”

It was my dad’s turn next. “You had us worried a bit, you know. The school called us to say you weren’t in, and we were all about ready to go searching for you. Luckily we decided it’d be best to check the houses first before sending out the hounds, otherwise you’d be in a lot of trouble right now.” My dad. He could take almost anything in stride, but the second something happened that he thought could hurt someone he loved he was always a bundle of nerves it seemed. I could run around in skirts all I wanted, I guess, but if I tried to go boardin’ without my helmet he’d go almost neurotic telling me all the safety precautions I needed to take. Wasn’t the clothes thing dangerous too? Oh well, whatever. My dad’s weird.

“Dad, we weren’t in trouble or anything, I just, I, please Daddy…” Shit!

“Dane, get back here!” My mom was calling to me, but I just slammed by bedroom door and locked it.

===

God. Pardon my language, but my ass got REAMED when I finally opened my door back up. Not for skipping, no, for running off like that. At this point I just wasn’t sure I cared though. I just let them yell and cry until they couldn’t any more, and I couldn’t feel anything for a bit. I went to bed early, and still felt nothing. And I woke up in the morning, and felt nothing again.

I grabbed some of my old clothes- my baggy boxers, a pair of baggy jeans, and a baggy tee shirt with baggy socks and too- big shoes. I wanted to give being a boy another shot, and this was the best way I knew how, but looking in the mirror shattered any hopes of that. All I’d managed to do was make myself look like a dorky twelve year old girl wearing her big brother’s clothes. And they were uncomfortable, too.

Ah, fuck it. I wore them to school anyways.

Patty met up with me on the way to school, but didn’t say anything about the way I was dressed. It was a cheer practice day today, but I didn’t even care about that. I just went through the day on autopilot, skipping lunch to go to the library, and leaving for home right after last period. I just didn’t care.

When I got home, though, I found Mom already back from the salon and waiting for me. “We have to talk.”

“Mom, I-“

“Now.” Whatever. I slumped into the couch across from the armchair she’d positioned herself in, and just stared at her until she started to speak. “I don’t know what’s gotten into you, Dane! Last week you were fine, this week you’re moping around like the world’s falling apart around you. Now, I know you, and this isn’t the kid I raised you to be, so spill.”

And I did. It was like a dam bursting, and I couldn’t stop the words from spilling out. My embarrassment over being looked at as a girl, my feelings of shame that I couldn’t be a boy, my unanswered prayers just to be normal, even my fears about losing my place on the squad. All of it, including the things I wouldn’t even admit to Patty. Right along with the fears and disgust at being a girly boy was the fear that somehow, someone would try and make me stop being a girl. I wanted to be a normal girl- no, guy. Hell, I don’t care, I just wanna be normal, it doesn’t matter how. But no, I had to be this THING. And I hated myself for it. I loved being a cheerleader, but I also loved all the stuff I’d always done as Dane too. I loved being liked, and not being picked on, but I hated the feeling that I was just putting on an act all the time. It, it just wasn’t right, ya know? And Mom just sat and listened, and didn’t say anything. Finally, when I ran down and collapsed back onto the couch- when did I stand up?- she came over and sat next to me, wrapping her arms around me just like Patty had the day before.

Huh. Had it really only been two days since we’d had dinner with Grandma? But… I was happy then, so why not now? “Hormones,” my mom sighed, like it explained everything. I was feeling an awful lot better now, though. As long as I had my mom and dad, and Patty, I’d be alright.

And I didn’t even want to cry about it, either. In fact, I think I could even smile.

===

The next day was pretty normal. Really! Seriously though, me and Mom had a talk. She told me I didn’t have to be a girl if I didn’t want to, but that with what was happening to my body it’d probably be easier. She also told me she’d set up another appointment with the doctor to talk to me, so I decided to get dressed nicer again, and after I called Patty to see if she’d come over and walk with me again today I even agreed to wear a skirt like she asked me to.

Which makes what happened next all the more embarrassing.

“So, have you decided on how you want your party to be tomorrow?”

“Patty, I’ve told you already, I don’t want a birthday party. I’m just gonna spend the afternoon with you and our parents, okay? Maybe rent a couple of movies or something, please?” She gave me her long suffering exasperated look that nevertheless meant she was going to acquiesce to what I wanted- I’d come to just call it Sigh #34.

“But can I at least let the girls on the squad know so they can get you presents or something?” I returned Sigh #34 back to her in response, and she giggled and jumped around happily. But when she reached for my hands to try to get me to dance too, I tried to pull away, and ended up stumbling backwards.

Just as I was stumbling backwards, a breeze picked up. I’d felt relaxed and fairly- oh, alright, I was feeling really GIRLY this morning- and had decided on a kinda airy gauzy tie dyed skirt, which had a bad habit to blow about a lot in the breeze anyways…

I fell, my skirt somehow managing to flip up all the way to my armpits. And just at that moment, James ‘soccer boy’ Williams pulled up in his new Fit to offer us a ride.

“Gee, Dana, pink underwear?”

“Patty!”

“Guh, umm…”

“James!”

“Come on and get up, or are you waiting for TB to come by and see your pretty panties?”

“GAARYGH!”

“Hey, it was a joke!”

And if it hadn’t been for the stupid skirt, I woulda caught her before we reached the school too. Huh, just wait, Patty, you’ll pay. Oh, you’ll pay.

===

Patty tried to slap me when we got to our lunch table, but I dodged her and ran behind Lisa, who was sufficiently enough larger than me to make a decent shield.

“You little Bi- rrh, Witch, I’ll get you for that!”

I knew I’d not hear the end of it for a while, and probably have a few bruises too, but the wedgie had SO been worth the pain.

===

“Owwie.” And thus I found myself again being supported by James, only this time on the way out to his car. She’d sneak attached me on the way to my locker and accidentally ran me head long into it, which is why she was on my other side and apologizing profusely.

“Oh, Dana, I’m like SO sorry it won’t happen again I’d never hurt you you know that oh god please don’t be mad at me it was an accident I-“

“PATTY!”

“Yeah?” She looked sheepish for a moment, and I calmed down.

“’Zokay. Jes’ need a lil’ rest. Ooh.” I wobbled and fell against James, who just picked me up like he’d done last time, like it was nothing. Wow, he’s strong. I was kinda out of it though, and when one of his hands slipped and brushed my breast I couldn’t help but giggle at his embarrassment.

“Dana, you little tease. Sorry James, I swear she isn’t normally like this.”

“Oh, I know, I watch her in class all- uh, that is, I mean, uh. Shit.” I giggled again, but shut up when Patty gave me a hard stare. But as soon as she stopped I got all giggly again. No, I got hysterical, and James nearly dropped me when I started convulsing with laughter, but the pain in my head quickly made me have to stop.

“Double owwie.”

“Tease.”

“Girls, come on, stop it. I’ll give ya’ll a ride home.” I just held on the rest of the way to his car, not wanting to fall or be dropped or carried off by giant flying spiders. What?

“Uh, Dana, you can let the big hunky boy go now, we’re at his car.”

“Oh.” I blushed. And my head hurt.

“Now, please?” Patty was so impatient today! Geez, like she wouldn’t-

Aah, yes. Okay.

“Dana!”

“Sorry!”

===

Patty got out with my at my place ‘to help me get inside’, but the moment James pulled away she was on my like, like, uh, something that’s really on something or other. God my head hurt.

“D, I don’t know what you were pulling back there, but were you even thinking?”

“Patty, what are you talking about?” All I did was hang on to him. Besides, he was big. And warm. And he smelled good. And I started freaking. “Uh, ohgodohgodohgodwhatwasIdoingohgodhe’saGUYandI’MaguybutIwasliketotallyalloverhimandOHNO!!!”

“Yeah, D. Were you even thinking back there?”

“Oh, Patty! I dunno, I mean- wait, you HIT me! This is YOUR fault!”

“What? How so? I didn’t make you latch on to him like a lovesick little GIRL, did I?”

“No… but it’s still your fault.”

“Whatever.” But she hugged me, so I know she wasn’t really mad at me or anything. And my head wasn’t hurting so much now either, but the confusion remained just a bit.

===

The next day was pretty boring. I wore jeans, that’s probably why. My life seems to get way too interesting when I wear skirts, and for the life of me I can’t figure out why. And I was very successfully managing NOT to think about James. And him holding me. I wonder if- no no no. Oh, shut up. The point is, things were pretty calm and quiet and easy for a bit. Then cheerleading practice rolled around.

“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!”

“AAAHH!”

All the girls were there in their uniforms already when I came out of the locker room, and they had a cake and presents, and Miss Cole had the stereo turned to some pop station or another. That’s one thing I still needed to work on these girls about- music. Why couldn’t we be listening to some ‘X’, or ‘Siouxie and the Banshees’, or maybe Johnny Rotten something or other? I should be so lucky. But more importantly, “How did ya’ll do this?”

“Oh,” Lisa stepped up holding one end of the cake with Shelby on the other, “Patty told us weeks ago when your birthday was,” the sneak, “and we always do this for any girl’s birthday! So Happy Fifteenth!” She handed me a large cake server to cut the first piece with. The cake was beautiful, decorated in the school colors with ‘Happy Birthday Dana’ on the top in blue icing and some mini poms sticking out of it. I almost started crying, to think they all like me enough to-

“WHA!” My thoughts were interrupted by a world of white and sugar covering my face and chest.

“Shelby!”

“Oh, come on, that was funny!”

===

Me and Patty were still laughing our heads off when Lisa dropped me off home.

“Hey you two, don’t forget about homecoming next week! The entire cheer team’s gonna have matching costumes for each day, so we’re getting together tomorrow to plan them and goin’ shoppin’ on Sunday! Ya’ll need to be there, ‘kay?”

“Sure,” Patty said for us. Since neither of us had practices on weekends this time- wait, did I forget that? State Gymnastics and Martial Arts were going on in December this year, but we’ve been pushing so hard in our classes they decided everybody deserved a week off. Figures, first weekend I really had to relax and I gotta do costumes, le sigh. “What time do we need to meet up tomorrow?”

“I’ll call ya’ll, but probably around noon.”

“’Kay, we’ll be ready!”

“Great!” Lisa enthused. She seemed to have adopted me and Patty as ‘her freshmen’, and since the entire team had made me the pet project of the year I’d spent more time with her and in more intimate situations than most of the guys at school could imagine in their wettest dreams, and yet sadly, I felt no attraction. Not her, not Nancy (who was still a total witch to me). Not Shelby, not Kelsie, not Miranda, not Patty (eww, she’s my SISTER, gross!), none of the girls. I wondered about this as I watched her drive off, but I didn’t have a heck of a lot of time as Patty drug me to the door to continue the birthday celebrations inside with our parents.

“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!” The cake was beautiful, decorated in the school colors with ‘Happy Birthday Dana’ on the top in blue icing and some mini poms sticking out of it. Oh, ha ha, Patty. I just sighed, made my wish, and blew out the candles.

===

Money from my mom and dad, money from Patty’s mom and dad, and money from my Uncle Chuck and Aunt Raychel too. In my mom and dad’s case (and I think in Patty’s parents’ case as well) the money was ‘cause they weren’t sure what to get me. After all, would a girl’s present be better than a boy’s? Le sigh. My Uncle Chuck always sent money, but what always made it interesting was that it was always from a different country. He didn’t have to work ‘cause of some big settlement before I was born that NOBODY will tell me about, and did a lot of traveling. This year it looked to be Japanese Yen, let’s see, calculator with exchange rate, carry the two, uh, about thirty bucks worth, nice. Now if only I were in Japan, yup.

Finally it was time for my wrapped presents, or I guess I should say present. I took Grandma’s package and sat it in my lap for the ‘before’ picture my mom always took for one of Grandma’s presents. Here’s the thing- if my uncle’s present of money from around the world was weird, then my Grandma’s presents were always from way out in left field. When I was nine she’d bought me twenty boxes of band-aids shaped like strips of bacon, when I was twelve it was a set of African fertility statues (my dad thought that one was hilarious; she said it was to help with the birds and the bees talk), and last year it had been a bag of potting soil with a few packages of seeds. They were always interesting presents, and useful or fun in their own way, but it always made me feel like I understood just that little bit more why my dad was so weird.

I ripped through the paper slowly, unsure what I would find inside. The package was kinda cylindrical and oblong and soft for the most part, so maybe it was raw hamburger for all I knew, or a fake weasel or-

Yarn?

And needles. And a book on how to knit. What in the hell?

“Ooh, that’s really sweet of her! I’ve been telling your Grandma for a couple of years now I wanted to teach you how to sew or knit, and lookie here!” My mom was happy about this? Huh.

“Thanks Grandma,” I kinda mumbled under my breath, but I was smiling.

===

The movies were so-so, but me and Patty just had a blast gorging on popcorn and talking up a storm, occasionally quieting down when one of my parents came out to tell us to. We’d had a sleepover almost every birthday since we were three, why not now? It was getting late, though- or early, depends on how you look at it- so we were finally settling into my bedroom when Patty reached into her pack and pulled out another wrapped present.

“This is from me, and me only,” she said, blushing a bit as she brought it to me. It was wrapped in a bright pink piece of cloth, and tied off at top with a long gold tassel. All I had to do was pull the tassel to release the cotton sheet- baby blanket? Inside was something I’d never have expected in a million years.

“Pooh bear?” I lifted up the large plush animal to take a closer look, and sure enough it was Pooh Bear.

“I mean, you don’t have any stuffed animals, or dolls or anything, and I remember how when you were little you would always carry him around when you were at my house so…”

I reached out and gave Patty a tight hug. “Thank you.” I was tearing up AGAIN, but in a happy way this time. Pooh Bear wasn’t an actual Winnie the Pooh, that’s just what I’d named him when we were five because I loved Winnie the Pooh so much. He was just a large, plushie white teddy bear with a big pink bow around his neck. And yes, I used to carry him everywhere when I was at Patty’s. “I didn’t think you still had him! Oh, Patty, I can’t accept this, I mean, you know.”

“Oh, come on, he’s always been yours really. Besides, you’ve been kinda down lately and I figured you could use the company.” I squeezed the bear, and thought how lucky I was to have Patty as a best friend.

===

“That’s IT! I HATE you!”

“FINE!”

Mom came in right at that moment and looked at us with murder in her eyes. “All right you two, what’s going on here?” She was about to really bite into us until she saw my face. Her anger turned to a twitch, to a smirk, to a grin, and she quickly closed the door. I heard laughing as she headed back down the hall towards her own room.

Meanwhile, I continued trying to beat Patty to death with a pillow after waking up to find myself in full KISS-style makeup.

===

“GOOD MORNING, ladies!”

“HOORAH.”

Okay, so it was kinda lame, but we’d all taken to kinda doing this weird greeting when we met up early in the day. It’s a cheerleader thing. Lisa clapped her hands a couple of times for silence, and as one we all turned our attention to her to start the meeting. “Okay, it’s homecoming this week folks, and I know I’ve left it kinda late but we need to get together our plan of attach! SO, here’s the days as I know ‘em. Monday is Traitor Day, when we have to dress in another school’s colors. Tuesday is Camo Day, so we all have to wear camoflage. Wednesday is Hillbilly Day, so we all have to dress like, well, hillbillies. Thursday is Costume Day, since Friday is Spirit Day, and the day of the homecoming dance, pep rally and the big gamre. We also have our first away game on Wednesday night! SO, any ideas?” Shelby raised her hand, but everybody ignored her- it was for the best.

===

Saturday, and one week ‘til Halloween! This is gonna be the first year I’m not actually Trick or Treating, Patty too, but maybe the homecoming dance’ll be fun. Since the cheerleaders are in charge of decoration we’re gonna do it really creepy and have a combination Halloween slash Homecoming dance thing. I think the phrase ‘creepy but elegant’ was Nancy’s exact words when we were working it up. Lots of black crepe paper and orange and silver bits everywhere, with long white tapers placed everywhere the school will let us since the dance is in the cafeteria. We ain’t a huge school, but we’re big enough the gym wouldn’t hold all of us with enough room to dance, and after second lunch shift Friday we’ve got until the pep rally starts to get our decorating done while the basketball players do the gym. I dunno, I used to not get into all this stuff but it’s like the more time I spend with the other gir- ahem, cheerleaders, the more I seem to get into all the dances and things. What can I say, school spirit never felt so good before! And the pep rally was gonna be fun, too, ‘cause the girls let me pick a song to put into our cheer mix! It was kinda hard to find a song I liked and work out the eight counts for it, but I finally decided on a song called ‘Saturday’ by Go Betty Go, and all the girls seemed to like it too, I just hope the school does when they hear it! We’re only doing like a minute of it but-

God, I’m even starting to THINK in run-on sentences. That’s sad.

ANYways, we decided to walk back home from Lisa’s ‘cause Patty wanted some Taco Bell. It was pretty warm for late October, so we were both in shorts with tank tops- I don’t know why I felt it necessary to mention that, but we were. I didn’t know that James worked here on weekends.

“Hey, Patty! Uh, hi Dana.”

“James!” I’d always thought James was pretty nice, and he seemed happy to see us too.

“James.” Jeez, Patty, what’s up with you?

“Hey, what’re you girls doing this afternoon? I get off in like fifteen minutes, you wanna do somethin’?”

I said ‘Sure!’ right at the same time Patty said ‘No, thanks’. James looked from one of us to the other, and I just got red ‘cause Patty was staring at me like I’d just grown horns.

“Excuse us a moment, James. Dana, follow me please.” Patty started pulling on my arm hard, and I soon found myself in the bathroom. “Whadda you think you’re doin’?”

“What, he wants to hang out with us, so…”

“No, he wants to hang out with YOU, I’m just along for the ride.”

“Oh, come ON, Patty.”

“Seriously, ‘Sis’. Now, if you’re interested in him, just say it, okay?” What!? She can’t mean, I mean, I’m a, no.

“But, I mean, Patty it’s not like that.” She just gave me a look. “It isn’t!”

“Okay, then. Kiss me.”

“What!”

“Well, if you like girls you’ll do it. In fact, I’ll make a dare with you. If you can kiss me and not be grossed out, we’ll both go out and hang out with him. If not, I dare YOU to go out with him ALONE.”

“Patty, that’s not fair!”

“Isn’t it?” She just glared at me, but when she saw how nervous I was her look softened almost to a concerned face. “Hey, seriously, if you like him it’s okay, I just want you to think, ‘kay? ‘Cause he’s interested in YOU. So, do you like him?” She gave me an encouraging look, but I still felt really embarrassed.

I’d been trying to ignore or step around the whole sexuality issue for weeks now. Well, ever since the first time I’d found myself in his arms back in September. It scared me, but it’d also felt good, which scared me even more. And so I just ignored it. I wasn’t attracted to the girls in cheerleading, but I was always afraid of being found out just a little bit so I just put that down to nerves. So I ignored it too. Besides, they’re all good friends now- or most of them are, anyhow- and you don’t fancy your friends, ya know? And Patty’s my sister practically, how ‘m I supposed to KISS her like that in the first place? I mean, we’d kissed cheeks before, but I’m pretty sure she means a kiss on the lips, gross! But, was it so much ‘cause she’s my sister or ‘cause she’s a girl? I tried to imagine myself kissing one of the other girls at school who I thought were pretty. Huh, just doesn’t come to me. I mean, is it gross though? Not really a gross idea but still.

Then I decided to do the unthinkable. Whew, okay, here goes. Imagine James kissing you. Wrapping you in his arms. Holding you again. Touching your lips with his tongue, and you lean in and…

“Oh, no! You DO like him, don’t you! I KNEW IT!”

“I do NOT!” I objected, but I knew my face was red as a beet.

“You DO! Just LOOK at yourself!” She pointed to the mirror and, oh god. Ah, let’s just say They were showing through my tank. Bad. “Well, I’m DEFINITELY not leaving you alone with him now!”

“Whah?” I just looked at her confused. “But I thought you said-“

“Yeah, but if this is the kind of reaction you had, and I KNOW what you were thinking about, I’m not gonna let you outta my site with him ‘til I know it’s safe. Where’s your cell, I’ll call your mom and let her know we’ll be out a bit later than expected, YOU just stay here and calm down a bit.” I blushed, and rushed into the closest of the two stalls to hide until she was gone. God, what have I gotten myself into THIS time?

===

“Ya’ll like Mexican food, huh?” We’d never gotten our Taco Bell, so James was taking us out to dinner. We both nodded, and soon we found ourselves pulling into Ortega’s jammed parking lot.

“James, we can’t afford this!”

“My treat, both of you.” I was about to object, but Patty pinched my butt from the back seat and all that came out was a surprised “Ack!”

And the food was delicious. At first I was li- crap, stupid valley girl crap- I was kinda jittery and not really talkative, but after a little bit he got me and Patty loosened up with some funny stories of soccer mishaps and stuff, and we were soon having an animated three way discussion.

“So, after we finish ya’ll wanna go see a movie?” I looked over to Patty carefully, and when she nodded I smiled at him.

“Yeah, that’d be great!” A pained look crossed his face, though, and he got a little red.

“Uh, I’ve only really got enough cash left for two tickets though…”

“Oh, just get Dana’s, I’ll pick up my own.” Patty, what are you doing now! But instead of saying something I just kicked her under the table.

“OWCH!”

“Oops, sorry James! I was trying to-“ but Patty was cackling now, and he couldn’t have heard me even if I had finished.

===

There was only a short line to see the new Firefly movie ‘Connecting Flight’, for some reason, but we weren’t complaining since it got us in that much quicker and on to the action. We were just about settled when James rushed off to the bathroom, and Patty stole a chance to talk to me.

“Girl, he’s really got the hots for you.” I’d already been doing a lot of blushing lately, so why should a crowded theater change things? “So, you gonna kiss him tonight?”

“Patty!”

“SSHHH!!” Oops, too loud. Patty slapped me lightly on the shoulder, but James was returning, so she sat back.

“Can’t see a movie without popcorn and a drink.” He set the extra large soda in the holder between us and Patty snatched the popcorn before he could find a place to set it.

“I thought you only had enough for two tickets?”

Patty’s question caught him off guard, and he knew his deception had been seen through, but then I practically saw the lightbulb over his head before he replied, “Well, yeah. Two tickets and the popcorn and a drink.” Patty rolled her eyes, but marked a point in the air for him. I just giggled a bit before we were shushed again.

===

Apparently sticking a monkey in a straight jacket in your movie is some kinda way of sayin’ somethin’ right now, ‘cause there was one this time too. I’ve gotta figure that out.

“That was awesome!” Patty’d spent almost the entire movie on the edge of her seat- she had all the DVDs of the TV show and the first movie already, and all the comics, and she’d even custom modified some of her old Barbie dolls into figures from the show. Jayne was my favorite since she didn’t have a dark haired Ken so she’d filed the boobs off of a Chelsie or whatever her name was figure and cut off all her hair. She used an old Aladdin figure for Simon, and- well, she’s a big fan.

“Yeah, it was really cool!” James was pretty excited too. About fifteen minutes into the movie he’d grabbed my left hand and not let go the entire time, and when we got up to leave he’d kept my hand in his. It made me a bit confused, but it felt good too, and I didn’t want to embarrass him so I left it there. “Did you like it Dana?” He looked down at me with those big puppy dog eyes of his and I almost couldn’t keep standing.

“Hey, moony girl, he asked ya something!” Who said that! There was laughing behind me, but no one there when I turned to look. Whatever.

“It was a lot of fun, I liked it. I think I’m a bit more of a fantasy person myself, though.”

“So the pretty little Princess likes stories about Princesses, huh?”

“Shut UP, Patty!” Screw this, she’s goin’ DOWN.

===

“Do ya’ll always have to hurt each other?” I would have said ‘no’, but I was too busy leaning my head back trying to stop the blood from my nose with a piece of toilet paper. All I could manage was a weird side to side shake of my head that made me dizzy. Patty just stayed on the grass and groaned for a bit.

It had started out innocently enough, but then that bench came out of nowhere. I was luchy- I saw it coming and just fell flat on my face. Patty ran into it full tilt and flipped over, scraping her knees and getting some good bruises to her forearms too.

“Are you okay Pat?”

“Yeah. You?”

“I think so. Can you walk?”

“Uh huh.” Then I heard her giggle and let out a fake moan. “Ooh, I’m not sure, can James carry me like he does you?”

“MINE!”

“What?”

Oops. Did I say that out loud? Le Sigh. At least James seemed to be happy, ‘cause he was sure grinnin’ like a fool.

===

“Thanks for the food. And the movie.”

“’Twas my pleasure.” James had opened the car door and escorted me to the apartment’s front door holding my hand. I wanted to tell him to let it go, or pull it away, but I didn’t. I could tell Patty was a bit miffed that we’d left her to let herself out of the car and follow us, but her head still hurt her enough she didn’t wanna have to talk I guess, and after the bloody nose I wasn’t feeling too sorry for her. I reached for the door handle to open it, but before I could wrap my hand around it the door seemed to fly open. And there stood my mom, looking at me standing there with a boy. And holding his hand. And wearing his hoodie too.

“Hello.”

“Hi Mom.”

“Uh, Hello, Miss Phoenix.” We stood there for a few moments in awkward silence, nobody knowing what to say. Patty wandering up holding my rolled up tank top didn’t help any. Mom’s eyes bugged out for a moment, but she quickly went back to being cool as ice.

“Well, aren’t you gonna introduce me?”

“Oh, yeah! Mom, this is James, he goes to school with us and is on the soccer team. James, this is my mom.” He held his hand- the one that wasn’t holding mine- out to my mom, and she took it carefully.

“Might I ask whose top you’re wearing, Dana?” I looked down and suddenly realized what she was thinking.

“Oh, uh, it’s James’s, but it’s not what you think, Mom, there was so much blood on my top that-“

“BLOOD!” She went deathly pale for a moment, and I realized I’d made another mistake.

“Mom, it’s okay, just, urgh, and I’m not even wearing a SKIRT today!” I stomped a moment in frustration, and when I looked up everyone was giving me this weird ‘are you okay?’ look. “What?!”

===

James finally let go of my hand and left after what felt like five hours, and so I was left trying to explain the whole skirt thing, which brought gales of laughter from Mom and a skeptical glance from Patty. “I haven’t noticed anything happening just ‘cause you wore a skirt.”

“What about Thursday when James drove by?” My mom gave me another hard look, so I was stuck recounting THAT to her. She was trying to hold the giggles in I swear, I don’t know if she wanted to laugh at me more or berate me. Laughing finally won out.

“But that doesn’t prove anything.”

“Tuesday when we went to dinner. The week before that on Thursday when it got caught on the book cart and nearly buried me under encyclopedias. The one when we went to the movies and that guy grabbed my ass, the time-“

“OKAY OKAY OKAY, I get it already! Jeezus.”

“And what about-“

“NOT! Another word. Dana, to your room and to bed. Patty, you too. And if I hear ya’ll talking all night long I’m not gonna be sympathetic if you’re still tired when I get ya’ll up in the morning. And NO FIGHTING. I think I’m getting a headache…” We knew better than to push Mom now, and we were gone in a flash.

===

Sunday we went shopping for costume stuff. Since all us cheerleaders got together to do costumes that go together me and Patty had to get a lot of different accessories that most of the other girls already had. Not only that, but I had almost NOTHING for my Thursday costume, and I wasn’t really looking forward to it. Why? Well, the girls decided we’re all doing pop stars and famous musicians, and so we wouldn’t have any arguments over who was who (like you can stop it) we all had to write out two suggestions and drop them in a shoe box. Then Lisa had everyone draw a costume. I was hoping for one of my own suggestions of either Cyndi Lauper or Joan Jett since they’re both pretty cool and would be fun to do, but instead I drew Sheryl Crow, so at least my hair will work okay. Patty got Debbie Harry from Blondie, lucky her, while wouldn’t you guess it, Lisa got Cyndi and Nancy got Joan Jett. Kinda figures, don’t it? So, that’s why we were in the mall, and I was thinking about whether or not I wanted to burn almost three months worth of allowance to get a brown leather jacket that would be perfect for my costume.

“Hmm…”

“I say go for it. It’s perfect, and all we’d need after that’s a pair of pants with a snakeskin pattern and you’d be set. God, you’re lucky, you get to look like really cool, I have to dress like a coke whore.”

“PATTY!”

“What, like you don’t know what I’m talking about.” I reluctantly shrugged- well, Debbie Harry was kinda drugged out looking. Probably ‘cause she was kinda drugged out. A lot.

“Hey, do you have any boots I could borrow?”

“My feet are too big, you probably need to ask someone like Shelby who’s closer to your size.”

“I dunno, I don’t think Shelby likes me much.” Shelby was about my size with very red hair, but she tended to be a bit mean to me.

“Oh, that’s just what she’s like to everyone. In gym in sixth grade she once stole everybody’s underwear and wouldn’t give ‘em back. We had to go the rest of the day with-“

“Patty, I don’t need to know that!”

“Just sayin’. I’m sure if you ask nicely she’ll bring you a pair, I know she has some nice cowgirl boots that’ll be perfect, and she can be pretty nice when she’s not being a complete snot.” I just ignored her. And bought the jacket. It’s been getting colder so I need a good jacket anyways, and since I’ve gotta be a bit girly most of the time now a girl’s jacket can’t hurt. And as much as I hate to admit it, it looks really cute on me too, kinda folk rock elegant if you know what I mean. Well, I thought it made sense.

Two hours later and about another two hundred bucks poorer (goodbye laptop, hello L.E.I.) we had all the accessories and things we needed for our cheerleading stuff for the next week, so I decided that since we still had another half hour or so before we needed to leave Patty could stand accompanying me to the book store to see about the Mazes and Monsters books Stephen had been using last month. This was the first chance I’d had since that weekend to really get a chance to look for them, and I didn’t wanna miss it.

“What’s a girl like you doin’ in a geeky place like this huh?” Oh my god, he didn’t. “Need a hand finding the Cosmos?” I turned around to smack the sexist asshole only to be face to face with a very familiar lecherous grin.

“Steven, you prick!” And I smacked him anyway. “What’re you doin’ here yourself?” He was rubbing his face where I knew he’d have a hand print, but he had that same smile still on.

“Oh, a little of this, a little of that. Gettin’ a new Monster Compendium that’s up to the new rules, that kinda thing. And ouch. You know, it really turns me on when girls slap me around, do it again.”

“Perv!” I laughed. He may be a perv, but I also knew he’d never do anything to actually hurt me, and if I asked him to he’d even stop picking on me, but that’s Steven for you. “Stop staring at me like I’m some piece of meat, too!”

“Ooh, I love it when you boss me around. Let me get my whip.”

“STEVE!”

“Okay okay, sorry. Hey, gaming again this weekend if you wanna come. Grace is gonna be there again, and since ya’ll did so well last time I’m even gonna continue the campaign we started.” Well this is a first for him! “We’re starting late Saturday and goin’ until Sunday night.”

“Live Wire and Slim Jims?”

“Yup!” He laughed. Whenever we were planning more than eight hours straight of gaming it was always the same thing, a case of Live Wire and a crapload of Slim Jims each to keep us awake and greased up for the long haul. We’d once stayed up four days straight using this method with copious amounts of Half-Life to help out. It was great, but…

“I dunno, Steve. I mean, I’ve got the game Friday night, plus the Dance afterwards, And all week long we’ve got to prepare for the Dance, and I’ve gotta do all the cheerleading stuff, and the away game, and…” Whoa. My life’s getting’ busy, ain’t it?

“Pleeease?” What’s he- is he- oh god not here in public! Steve actually climbed down on his knees in front of me and started begging! “We need you, oh divine one! Without your presence our gaming company would be but a worthless rabble with no purpose, beautiful master! Lay your boon upon us, oh scintillating vision of pulchritudinous onanism!” Huh? And then I noticed where his eyes were pointing, and I screamed.

“STOP LOOKING UP MY SKIRT YOU PERV!”

===

“So you wanna come? I’m sure he’d let you make a character and join in.”

“Heh, no thanks, D. I can’t see how you and Grace can stand being around that pervert, isn’t it gross?” I just shrugged.

“You get used to it, and he’s really harmless.”

“He’s still a perv.”

“But he’s got lots of fun stuff to do, and he’s been my friend for a long time.”

“He’s still a perv.”

“But the other guys aren’t, and do you really want me to leave Grace there alone?”

“But HE’S still a perv.”

I sighed.

===

“I dunno if I want you spending the night at Steve’s, sweetie, not with what’s going on.”

“What?” She gestured to my tee shirt and denim skirt. Oh. “But moooom!”

“Don’t ‘but, mom’ me young la- er, man.” She coughed in embarrassment and seemed to deflate a bit, but got ready to continue. I did my best to just ignore the slip. “You don’t look much like a boy right now, and though I hate saying it you can’t really, I’m sorry.”

“But Grace is going too!”

“I’m sorry, but if her parents let her stay there with a bunch of boys that’s their choice. You’re not.”

Geez, what’s Mom’s problem? “Mom, why are you treating me like a baby? It’s not like we’re having sex or anything?” She got this weird look on her face a moment, and then looked guilty. “Oh my GOD, Mom, you didn’t? GROSS! I mean, just- EWW! That is like SO disgusting, Mom.”

“Well, I, you…”

“Mom, I’m not a slut like some girls are.” I thought about what I said. “Or some boys. And I do NOT like Dan or Alex like that, either!”

“And Steven?”

“Huh? I mean, well, yeah.” Well, I thought that went without saying. “Mom, you’re right, he’s a boy and I’m I guess not any more really,” god that hurt to say, “but Grace and me stayed in the other room last time from the guys, and his mom and dad’ll be there too. Come on, Mom, I GOTTA go, they need me!”

“You stayed in a different room?” I could see the smallest crack in her resolve starting to open up, and a bit of hope show through. “And you were alone in that room with this girl Grace? All night?” I could see the crack slamming closed with a snap. Whafuck?

“What? So I can’t stay with boys ‘cause they’re boys, and I can’t stay with girls ‘cause they’re girls? Mom, would you make up your mind?” I was angry, but this wasn’t like my mom anyways. Both her and my dad had changed so much since the news about my hormones, and even more since the whole girl thing was out in the open. They used to be relaxed about most of what I did, and now they were like all the time on my case about being careful and things. I’m not a little girl, why do they keep treating me like one?

“To your room, now.” Shit. “I’ll think about the weekend, but if you backtalk me one more time, you can’t go to the dance either.”

“MOM!”

“NOW!”

I slammed my door and lay on my bed for a while before putting on some music to try and drown my own thoughts so I wouldn’t start crying again. Not tonight.

===

Monday. And here I found myself in my mom’s old cheerleading outfit from high school. Hell, before yesterday I hadn’t even known she’d BEEN a cheerleader in high school. That was back in the before time anyways, back in like the EIGHTIES. But all the girls had agreed that for Traitor Day we’d all be cheerleaders from different schools, so here I was in the brown and gold of Westmoore High. Whoo-pee. Wednesday we had the away game, so all I gotta do is survive until then, and since Patty’s wearing her mom’s identical outfit I knew I’d not be the only one wearing the hideous colors.

“Hey sexy!”

“FUCK OFF JERK!”

I think the ugliness gave her a short temper today though.

===

Tuesday. Camo day. All I have in camo is a big baggy pair of pants, so those and a white tank with an olive jacket over top’s about all I can do. We’re all doing face paint before school though, and Lisa said she’d have us some camo ribbon for our hair today too.

“Wazzup GI Jane!”

“FUCK OFF!”

And I think that was the same guys from yesterday too.

===

Wednesday equals hillbilly day equals overalls. Or at least it used to. Nancy and Lisa’s idea of Hillbilly has a bit too much Daisy Duke in it for me, though. As in, a pair of them. Well, almost. At least I talked Patty out of making me tie my flannel shirt off at my bellybutton, but since they’ll probably send me home for indecency anyways ‘cause of how short the shorts are I don’t think it was a big victory. And I’m cold too.

“You little chickadees need a ride?”

“FUCK YOU ASS!”

“Patty, language!”

“And fuck you too!” She said with a grin.

“Ugh, no thanks.” At least that got a laugh out of her.

===

And here I was at the end of the day, still dressed as a copy of what’s-her-name from that show with the people on the island, waiting to load on a bus to go to a basketball game. Alone, ‘cause nobody else was ready yet.

“Hey, Dana!” Lisa approached from behind me, but when I turned to greet her I noticed she looked a bit upset. “Why haven’t you changed yet?” She was already in her uniform, and I could see behind her a couple of other members of the team wearing theirs. I panicked.

“Oh god, I didn’t know I was supposed to change here!”

“Well, hurry off and change, we’re leaving in like ten minutes!”

I don’t think I’ve ever moved faster than I did then, and I was out of those stupid hillbilly clothes and into my cheerleading outfit in a flash. Heh, I never thought I’d actually be HAPPY to be changing into this thing, but I actually felt less exposed in it than in the tight shorts Patty’d made me wear that morning. I pulled my hair up into the twin bunches I’d gotten used to using with the uniform as I rushed back out to the bus, and made it back just in time to be pulled in by Miss Cole as the doors slammed.

“Always cutting it so close, aren’t we, Miss Phoenix?” She was kinda smiling a bit when she said it, but I knew she wasn’t completely happy I was late.

“I didn’t know I had to change first.”

“Now you do, remember next time, please?”

“Yes ma’am.” I found Patty and collapsed into the seat next to her. She already had her headphones on and was grooving to the sounds of whoever she was listening to, so I left her be and pulled out my own MP3 player.

“Who ya listenin’ to?” A cute black haired junior girl, I think her name was Halley, asked me from the seat in front of me.

“Uh, I got a lot of stuff on here. I’ve mostly been listening to the Sex Pistols lately, but I’ve also been listening to a lot of The Mars Volta, Offspring, and a little Siouxie and the Banshees, too.”

“Oh, cool!”

I felt like I had to say something else, so noticing her headphones I asked, “What about you?”

“Oh, it’s this Japanese band called ZZ, they did some music for this show called Eyeshield 21 and I liked their sound so I downloaded some of their stuff.”

“You like anime?”

“Yeah, I know it’s like really geeky but it’s so much fun. You watch it?”

“A bit, what’s your favorite?”

“I dunno, maybe Milk Tea or Maburaho, what about you?”

“Um, I kinda like Ranma,” I admitted. It always embarrassed me to say that even though I knew it was pretty popular.

“That’s cool, my older sister likes that show. Have you seen the new season of Full Metal Panic! Yet?”

And so we continued like this for the next couple of hours, just talking about cartoons and TV and who we thought was cute on what show- which felt weird talking about cartoons, but she seemed to have a lot of opinions on it- and before I knew it we were pulling into the parking lot of Red Bluff High while still debating whether DEARS or Ah! My Goddess were the better show.

===

Oh, wow I was tired. Two boys’ games and a girls’ team game, and we had to cheer them ALL. Shit, I feel like- well, shit. But it was FUN. The more I do this whole cheerleading thing the more I like it, and the girls who I do it with are so fun to be around! I mean, it’s kinda weird them not knowing I’m a guy and all, at least I’m pretty sure they don’t ‘cause they woulda freaked since we dress in the same locker room and all, but I feel really comfortable with them most of the time, ya know? Me and Halley were sitting at opposite ends of the bus this time, so I didn’t get to talk to her this time, but that was okay. I just put on my headphones and turned on some Third Eye Blind and passed out. When we got home I found myself leaning against Patty, who was asleep next to me, but just woke her up and fell back asleep when we loaded up in the back of my mom’s car.

===

“Oh my God, D, you look like REALLY hot.”

“I am hot, it’s burning up in this getup.” Not really, it actually felt fairly good since it was a bit chilly today, but I had to complain about it somehow, didn’t I? “And it makes my boobs look too big.”

“Sweetie, for someone your size your boobs ARE big.”

“Whatever.” Here I was dressed up as much like Anna’s picture of Sheryl Crow as possible, which meant skin tight faux snakeskin pants (65.00 on sale), a white tank top (5.00, WAL- MART) and the way expensive brown leather jacket (300.00 on sale). I also had on Shelby’s cowgirl boots (two burnt CDs and a new lip gloss) and Mom had done my makeup (losing an argument over whether it was needed). All so I fit in with my friends (priceless). GAH, TOO MANY COMMERCIALS.

“Hey, what’s that behind your back Sis?” Patty didn’t answer, but just held her other hand up in a ‘shush’ motion.

“Hey Chicas! Wanna take those costumes off for us?”

The chocolate pudding filled balloon splashed beautifully across the windshield of the jerk’s car, and by the time they’d gotten things cleared off enough to follow us me and Patty had already beat feet for school.

===

“Hey Dana, nice costume!” I turned around to find Steve dressed as-

“Oh my god, Powdered Toast Man?!”

He just grinned like an idiot and headed off for class.

===

Le Sigh, at least I’m used to wearing our own school’s cheerleading uniform to school, but that still didn’t mean I had to enjoy it. Okay, I didn’t have to enjoy it MUCH. Maybe a little. But only a little. It is cute on me.

“You girls ready to go?” When she had our consent that yes, we were ready and yes, we had our bags and yes, we would be home before the game and no, we weren’t gonna get hurt at the pep rally, she pulled out of the drive and towards school. “Why did you two want a ride today anyways?” We didn’t answer, but just scrunched down in the seat in case we passed the guys with their car on our way to school.

===

“One, Two, One Two Three GO!
Fight, Brighton, Fight, Brighton,
Blue and White, Blue and White,
Win, Brighton, Win, Brighton,
Play to Win, Win the Fight!
Go, Brighton, Go, Brighton,
Play that Ball, Steal that Ball,
Win, Brighton, Win, Brighton,
Show them you’re the best of all!
GO COUGARS, WOOHOO!”

===

“Mom, this dress is too small, I’m practically falling out of it!” The little red piece of cloth I had on barely held me in up top it seemed, and I was less than comfortable with the way it kept wanting to ride up my thighs, but Patty had said it made me look gorgeous and-

“Well you should have thought of that when you bought a strapless, honey.”

“But I didn’t want this dress, Patty picked it out. I wanted the green one that went with my eyes, remember?” It had been really simple, with slit sleeves and looked really nice, but Patty said it wasn’t appropriate for homecoming. I personally thought this one was even less so, but she was really enthused when she found it and even with my experience being a girl so far I still had problems telling her no when she got that really sad look on her face. Also she threatened to shave my head if I didn’t. I actually considered the alternative before finally just getting the stupid dress, but maybe I should have chosen to be bald.

Mom gave me a weird smile that nevertheless clearly conveyed the message ‘you are such a girl’ straight to my brain.

“No I’m not!” But all she did was laugh and nod her head.

===

I wasn’t having that much fun at the Homecoming Dance. It was nice, and the girls were a lot of fun to dance with, but Homecoming is something you’re supposed to have a date for, ya know. I’d been asked by a few guys, but I turned them down ‘cause it just didn’t feel right, but now I was really starting to regret it, especially when all the other girls- I mean, oh, whatever- ran off with their dates. Even Patty had a date for tonight, Devin Michaelson, one on the players on James’s soccer team. I wondered for a brief moment who he’d brought, but shoved that thought out of my mind as quickly as possible. It didn’t matter, did it?

“Uh, hi.” I looked up from my soda to see a dark grey suit on a fantastically fit looking body. I let my eyes slowly scan up to find James’s head on top of it.

“Oh, hi James. Um…” what’s wrong with me? God, I feel like I can’t speak! I looked up at him blushingly, and was surprised to see he looked as nervous and uncomfortable as I felt. He cleared his throat a couple of times, and then tried speaking again.

“I was wondering if, um ya wanted to, uh, maybe dance with me?”

I felt a thrill go up my spine. Geez, calm down, gir- Dane. “Won’t your date mind?”

“Date? Oh, uh, I didn’t bring anybody.”

“Really!” Don’t sound so happy, dammit! “Ooh, I mean, why not?”

“I thought you’d already have a daeeeeaahh, no real reason.” Liar. And I giggled. STOP IT! “Anyways, I saw you just sitting over here, so, uh, would you?” He held his hand out to me, and I looked at it for a moment, considering my options.

I’m a guy. If I dance with a guy, does that make me gay?

But I’m dressed as a girl. So, would I just be doing it to fit in?

I’ve been out with him before. Like, on a date. Well, kinda, Patty was there. And he held my hand.

And I liked it. Did THAT make me gay?

But my body was pumping me full of girl hormones. God, that thought still makes me wanna cry when I really think about it. But does that make me a girl?

And he is SO cute. Did I just think that? Yes, I did. Blame it on the hormones.

I took his hand and smiled up at him. And he smiled back.

===

“Dana?”

“Yes?” It felt so good to rest my head on his chest while we danced, and even in my heels he still dwarfed me. If this was gay, it wasn’t that bad.

“Can I, um, kiss you?” I tensed up for a moment, and we stopped moving. “Uh, sorry.”

We danced about for a bit more while I thought. But I didn’t wanna think, I wanted to do.

“James?” He looked down at me worriedly, so I lifted myself up on my toes and placed my lips on his. It felt good, and so did his arms wrapped around me. When we pulled apart, I just grinned at him and said, “The answer is ‘Yes’.” We kissed again, until a bright flash brought my attention back to the real world like forever later.

“Okay, now one with the clothes OFF!”

“Shelby!”

===

End of Part 2

Notes:
If it seems like there's something missing between parts one and two, that's 'cause quite frankly there is. The story of 'Oh, Cheers' is technically five parts: Part 1- GO!, Part 2- FIGHT!, and Part 3- WIN!, tell the main body of the story and because of that I'm writing them first. The other two parts are interludes between the three main parts telling of Dana's gaming adventures from the viewpoint of her gaming character, which is why I'm waiting to write those parts until I've finished the main story arc- I don't want to get distracted writing a different character and forget to finish the main story, after all! So, while it shouldn't detract from the main story or make it harder to understand, I know it may feel a bit odd reading the story without the interludes at first, so just bear with me :p

Comments are appreciated, whether good or bad- I can't improve if I don't know what I'm doing wrong! Thanks for reading the story, and Part 3 should be out in about one to two weeks!

Melanie E.

Oh, Cheers: Part 3- Win!

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Final Chapter
  • 7,500 < Novelette < 17,500 words
  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Accidental
  • Contests, Deals, Bets or Dares
  • School or College Life
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Identity Crisis

TG Elements: 

  • Estrogen / Hormones
  • Girls' School / School Girl
  • Gym Class / Cheerleaders

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Oh, Cheers: Part 3- WIN!

By Melanie Ezell

It's finally here, the final chapter of the trilogy! Will Dana take over, or will Dane return? What movie will the teens watch this time? Just what IS up with the monkeys in straight jackets? The world may never know.

“PHOENIX!”

“YESSIR!” I bounced my way down from the trampoline and made my way over to Mr. Shaw where he was monitoring everyone’s practice from the front of the studio. “What’s up, is there a problem?”

“Nope, I need to talk to you about something.” I just nodded. There’d been a lot of ‘talks’ between me and Mr. Shaw since the whole Dana thing started, and he was one of the few outside mine and Patty’s family who knew everything that was going on. I don’t think he liked it, and he still seems a bit nervous around me for some reason. “Listen, I hate to tell you this, but you can’t go to State with us.”

“WHAT!” This is, is, well, an outrage is what it is! “Why not, I thought you said there wasn’t anything wrong?”

“Listen, kid.” He pushed his hands back through his hair before glaring at me. It was scary, I’d never seen him like this before. “I’m not ruining our chance at State this year just ‘cause some little freak wants to play at being a girl.” You could have knocked me over with a feather.

“But Mr. Shaw, I-“

“I don’t care! And, furthermore,” he whispered harshly, poking me hard in my very sensitive chest, “you’re kicked out of my class. I’ve been letting you get away with this perverted game of yours for too long. Call your parents if you wanna cry about it, but get out of here.”

“But…” This was all so sudden, I thought he understood! What about my gymnastics now, I love doing it, oh, why! “Sir, please!”

“GET OUT!”

I didn’t even grab my clothes on the way out, I was so upset. I just ran home and cried.

===

“He did WHAT!”

“Where’s the fucker live.” My dad wasn’t in a good mood after hearing why I was home so early. I was still too distraught to do much of anything but bawl whenever my mind went over what happened.

“This is illegal, Dana sweetie. He can’t-“

“MOM, just leave me ALONE!”

“Don’t yell at your mother, young lady! We’re going to handle this, don’t worry.”

“DAD, please don’t, just leave it alone! Leave ME alone! He’s right, I’m a freak anyways. They’d probably just laugh me out of the gym the moment I stepped out.” I could tell from the tension in the air that one of them was about to say something, but the sound of the front door opening and closing thankfully distracted them.

“Miss Phoenix? Is Sis here, she wasn’t at the dojo when I got out of- oh. Oh. D, are you okay?”

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“Come on, it’ll make you feel better.”

“Patty…”

“And James is working today too.”

“… well I guess I could eat something.” She’d decided that the best cure for my sadness would be fast food. Or James, I’m not sure. Ever since we were caught kissing at the dance a week ago it’s like everybody’s assuming we’re a couple now just ‘cause he all the time walks me to class and stuff. I mean, it was just a spur of the moment thing, really. Heh, it’s not like I WANT to go out with him. I mean, if he asks I might accept just so I don’t hurt his feelings, he is a nice guy and all, but I mean I’M not interested in HIM. Nope. No way.

“Dana, good to see you again!”

“JAMES!” He came around the counter to give me a hug, and I jumped up and wrapped my arms around his neck. Oh, shut up.

“No PDA on the job, son.”

“Oh, sorry, I gotta get back to work. Uh, ya’ll wanna go see another movie?”

“Of course she does, that’s why she dragged me here! We’ll see you at five then!”

“’Kay, later!” Patty drug me right back out of the Taco Bell before I even had the chance to open my mouth to try and say something about what just happened, leading me towards the park across the street.

“Come on, the swings are calling our names.” We just sat in the old rubber and metal swing set, kicking back and forth, for a good hour before I finally just had to start talking about something, anything.

“Patty?”

“Yeah?”

“Why don’t you and my mom and dad call me Dane any more? Since last week it’s like ya’ll’ve forgotten I’m a boy.” I shuffled the gravel beneath us around with my sneaker a bit before kicking off again and quickly matching Patty’s swing.

“Didn’t we already talk about this?”

“Yeah, a bit, but I still don’t get it.”

“D,” she huffed for a bit as she tried to figure something out I think, “what kind of underwear are you wearing?”

“What? Why?”

“Just answer. What kind of underwear are you wearing?”

“Uh,” god this is kinda embarrassing, “a thong, why?”

“And what does it look like?”

“Patty…”

“Well?”

“It’s purple cotton, okay? Sheesh!”

“And why are you wearing them?”

“Because my jeans are too tight to wear with anything else?”

“And what kind of jeans are they?”

I think I see where this is going. “Patty, you know as well as I do that I’m wearing girl’s jeans. And a bra, and a girl’s tee. Why, might I ask, does it matter?”

“Well, would somebody with the name ‘Dane’ normally wear clothes like what you’re wearing?”

“No, I guess not.”

“And do you want everyone to know you’re a guy who wears girl’s clothes? All the time? And has boobs?”

“Oh, GOD no! I’d be killed!”

“Point made. Your mom and dad don’t’ want to say something that gets you outed, and neither do I. So the more we think of you as Dana, a girl, the safer you are. Plus it’s pretty hard to think of you as a boy with how you’re dressed right now.” I couldn’t argue that.

“You’re a bitch, Patty.”

“I love you too.”

===

“I’m sick of looking at Mexican food. How’s On the Border sound?”

“That’s a Mexican restaurant, James.”

“Oh, yeah.” I couldn’t help but giggle as he blushed. “Um, whaddabout Chinese then?” I could do Chinese.

“I could do Chinese.” Good ole’ Patty.

===

“So, what looks good to ya’ll?” I was leaning towards ‘Belle of the Ball’ myself, but then again if James wanted to watch something else I wouldn’t object. Patty’d probably try and get us to see ‘Green Acres: The Musical’ just ‘cause it looks horrible. Patty could eat dirt.

“I’m thinkin’ maybe the new Alexis Eden flick, what’s it called, ‘Zapped!’ right?” Patty started bouncing around grinning in agreement. I just sighed.

===

Oh, so THAT’S what’s up with the monkey in the straight jacket!

===

And there I was, standing outside my front door with James yet again, his arm around my shoulder and me leaning into his side like it’s the most natural position in the world. Which it is. “I really enjoyed the movie tonight. Thanks for taking me.”

“Me too, and it was my pleasure. Though next time we need to leave Patty at the restaurant.” I just nodded into his side, since she nearly got us thrown out when she started screaming in protest during the scene at the drive in ‘cause of something or another. I dunno, I wasn’t paying attention much. “Can I have a good night kiss before I leave?” I considered it maybe half a second before getting up on my tippy toes to kiss him. And kiss him. MMMmmm.

“Ahem.” Huh? Shit!

“Oh, hi, Daddy!” Daddy? Daddy!?

“I’ll just call your mother.” He shut the door, and when I heard him shout for my mom I just buried my head in James’s chest in embarrassment.

===

“Now, sweetie, it’s perfectly natural. You’re at a time in your life when you’re going to start being interested in boys, and with all the hormones in your system it’s not surprising you like him. I think it’s time we had a little talk though.” I tried to disappear into the couch cushions, while across from me and next to my mom my dad just sat there white as a sheet with beads of sweat pouring off of him. I thought he’d be angry, but-

“I want to know exactly who this boy is. What’s his name, where he goes to school, what grade he’s in. And if you wanna go out with him again, young lady, he better pick you up HERE, not have you sneaking off to some restaurant to meet up with him.” Huh? “I don’t want my little girl dating someone who won’t even be a proper gentleman.”

“DADDY!” I squeaked. Or screeched, whatever. It was high pitched, and it hurt MY ears, so I know it must’ve been painful for them.

“Honey, it’s alright, I’m sure she’ll bring him here before their next date,” and she gave me a look saying ‘you’d better’. I just gave her Sigh #34, the Edited for Parents version. “Now, if you’ll step out of the room, I think me and my daughter need to have this discussion in private.”

“Gotcha.” And he was out in a flash. Mom gave me a wicked grin, then moved over and plopped down next to me on the couch and hugged me tightly.

“So, is he a good kisser?”

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“Oh my GOD, Mom, that’s disgusting!”

“You get used to it.”

“Oh my GOD. I think I’m gonna puke. Seriously.”

“Well, that can happen if they-“

“NAHNAHNAHNAHICAN’THEARYOUNAHNAHNAHNAHNAH!!!”

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“Oh. Oh my. That’s, wow.”

“You wanna touch it?”

I reached out tentatively, but when I realized what I was doing I jerked my hand back and screamed “NO!”

“Oh, come on, it’s just a piece of plastic, and I haven’t used it ye-“

“BAHBAHBAHBAHBAHSHUTUPPPPPP!!!”

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“Mom, I don’t think I’m ready for all this yet. I don’t even know if I’m into GUYS yet.” She just gave me a look, and I had the decency to look contrite. “Mom, I mean, what if I like girls? Then all this is kinda, uh, wasted ain’t it?”

“Well, we all experiment a bit, even I-“

“AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!”

===

“You can come back in now honey.” I took one look at my dad, about whom I now knew far more than I ever wanted to know, and glanced at my mom. When she started moving her tongue back and forth in her check, I screamed and ran for my room, her laughter following me the entire time.

My god, I think I’m gonna be scarred for life.

And I’m never having sex, I swear.

EVER.

===

Sunday morning dawned bright and beautiful. The events of yesterday still bothered me- especially the ‘talk’ with mom- but you know how it is the day after? It was like that. And you know what, I realized something. Screw him. Mr. Shaw can keep his stupid class, ‘cause I’m still a cheerleader, and the best damn gymnast around whether I’m in his class or not. But not today.

Today, I’m watching cartoons.

I was almost through the third DVD of ‘Death Note’ and my second bowl of Cocoa Puffs when I heard someone knocking at the door. At noon on a Sunday there’s only one person it could be.

“We’re practicing Satanists and don’t want none of your pamplets soiling our beliefs.”

“Shut up and let me in.” Came the muffled and giggly response from the other side of the door. I let Patty in and was quickly engulfed in a hug. “Nice jammies, but aren’t they a bit young for you?”

If there was anyone I wouldn’t take flak from for my choice of clothing, it was Patty. “You are NEVER too old to wear Winnie the Pooh PJs. Besides, they’re comfy.” Almost definitely better than the short alls she’d chosen for herself. My dad had Tigger, and my mom had Eeyore.

“I bet. Got some extras?” I led the way to my room, and dug out some I didn’t even know I had covered in pictures of Kanga and Roo. Soon we were both laying in front of the TV in matching pajamas watching brain-rotting anime.

Life was good. And El rocks hardcore.

===

And after the anime came the talking. And the music, but mostly just talking.

“So, you REALLY like James, don’tcha?” I blushed. “Yup, knew it, you’ve liked him since that first time he held you haven’t ya?”

“Oh, yes, being brained with a soccer ball always inspires romantic feelings in a gir- uh, me.”

“You had it right the first time.”

“Shut up.” She laughed. “Besides, I could say the same things about you and Devin.” Well, minus the soccer ball thing.

“Alright miss Droopy Drawers, if not James then who’s your ideal guy?”

“A girl?” She just shook her head. “Well, why not? I’m a guy after all.”

“Come on, we’re sisters. Besides, I’ve seen you checkin’ out the guys lately.” I swear, sometimes I hate how close we are.

I thought about it for a moment, but only one person came to mind. “Johnny Rotten.”

“Who? Wait, HIM? GROSS? He’s, like, fifty or something! Oh, god, I’m gonna throw up now!”

“Well you like that guy who plays Professor Snape so what’s the difference?”

“Well, he’s British.”

“So’s Johnny Rotten, and what’s that matter anyways?” I pointed to my Sex Pistols poster over my bed. “And how can you say he isn’t cute?”

“That pictures from like thirty years ago! And he looks like he’s on something.”

“So? What musician doesn’t do drugs nowadays?”

“Cara Malone doesn’t do anything like that and she’s a great musician! Or what about Michelle Grayson from, oh, what’s their name?”

“John Gray’s Band?”

“Yeah, them. Or Hollywood McKenzie, she don’t either.”

“They’re pop musicians though, they don’t count. Besides, they’re girls.”

“Oh, and you’re only interested in the hot guy musicians then?” I threw a pillow at her in response. “Oh, now you’re gonna get it!”

“Stop or I’ll sic Pooh Bear on ya!” I held the stuffed animal up in front of me in as menacing a position as I could, which for a stuffed bear with a bow around his neck isn’t very menacing at all really.

“Hah, like he can stop me!” And then she attacked.

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“Alright girls, great news! We’ve got a CHEER COMPETITION COMING UP!”

“HOORAH.” We almost pulled it off ‘til everyone broke down in giggles.

“But seriously people, they scheduled things really weird this year so our first competition comes up in March, which means we need to start working on the routine like NOW. Any ideas?” I raised my hand. “Ooh, Dana! Whatcha thinkin’?”

“Well,” I started, and stopped. I’d been thinking about this since Sunday night and wanted to suggest it Monday, but never got around to it. Heh, just my luck this is coming up, it gives me a perfect excuse! “I think we should do something heavy on the gymnastics. I know we’re only high school and not allowed to do all the stuff the college teams are, but if we work it right I bet we can really impress the judges.” And it’d be good revenge versus my evil ex-coach, but I wasn’t gonna mention that part.

“AL-right, lotsa gymnastics, got it. Anyone else?” Halley raised her hand. “Go ahead Halley.”

“I like the gymnastics idea,” she grinned at me- we’d started hanging out a bit since the whole bus thing, not sexual mind you or anything, she’s just a friend- and I thought I knew what she might suggest. “I think we should throw in some martial arts stuff too, though, like in that one movie. It’d really pump up our routine and be something most people wouldn’t think of.” I gave her a thumbs up, and Patty gave her a pat on the back since she was closer.

“Good, good. Okay, Shelby?”

“We should do a strip tease in it, really give ‘em a show, ‘specially Dana, you little hottie, RAWR!”

“SHELBY!”

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“You wanna do something?”

“Nah. I really need to practice some of my Parkour, to be honest.” That was the one bad thing about all the cheerleading I’d been doing lately, that plus my social life had left me very little time for practicing my chosen sport, and if I could today I was gonna try to do a run or two around the old warehouse factory thingy before going home. I really REALLY needed it.

“Kewl, can I come with?”

“Yeah, sure, the more the merrier!”

We’d been there about an hour, practicing wall spins and backflips off of ‘em, when Patty grabbed me and pulled me behind a stack of old barrels. “Whammfnnlnf!” She shushed me, and then I heard the footsteps. Soon, I heard quiet voices passing nearby us.

“Yeah, I heard from my dad that one of the cheerleaders is actually some kinda tranny freak.”

“No way! Man, they’re all so hot though! Who’d he say it was?”

“He said they were in his Gymnastics class but wouldn’t give me a name. I’m betting it’s that Shelby chick, she’s always been weird.”

“Nah, man, probably Patty, she’s real butch ya know?” I smacked my own hands across Patty’s mouth before she could protest, and she got the picture quick. She bit my hand though, and if her hands hadn’t still been over my mouth I would have had a few more insults to add to theirs.

“What about that Dana chick, I thought she was some kinda gay guy for the longest time.”

“Nah man, my older brother said she pulled her top off in front of him and showed ‘im her tits, and they’re DEFINITELY real.” Hey, that was an accident! “Maybe Nancy? Her and Lisa seem awfully tight.”

“Nah, they’re just Lezzies.”

“Dude, that’s hot.”

“Hyeah.” Luckily for us, we were by this time on the side facing the door away from where they were coming from, so me and Patty beat as hasty a retreat as we could back to my place before starting to talk. Or at least laugh our asses off.

“WHOO, well, look who’s the little tease!” She pulled up the hem of her shirt and fanned it at me a couple of times until she nearly fell in the floor laughing.

“Hey, that’s no fair!” I worked out between my own giggles. “SOMEONE,” I pointed at them laughing across from me, “spilt iced tea down my top three weeks ago, remember?”

“Oh, yeah!” By now her eyes were tearing up from all the guffawing she was doing.

“Well, I couldn’t get a hall pass ‘cause the teacher wasn’t in the room yet, and since I was wearing a tank top underneath anyways I decided to just-“

“OHMYGOD, you really DID take your top off in front of them?!”

“Well, I THOUGHT it was just my top, but I accidentally grabbed my tank too and-“

“Just like in ‘Mean Girls’!” That set her off again. By now what they’d been saying had had time to process and stew a bit though, and I was starting to get worried.

“Patty, if either one of them mentions something to one of the cheerleaders…”

She wasn’t laughing any more.

===

“We’ve gotta take legal action, sweetie. If we don’t, he could potentially ruin your life.”

“But Mom, what can we say? I’m a boy who looks like a girl so I pretend to be a girl? I’m a former tomboy like majorly? What?”

“We tell the truth, that you’re a young woman with a genital birth defect that caused you to be incorrectly identified as male at birth.”

“Huh?” This confused me greatly as I knew that no such thing had happened. “But Mom, I am a guy. I really am ‘Male’ so that’s lying.”

“Not really, sweetie. Do you plan on going back to Dane?”

I answered almost instantly with “Yes.” This brought me two distinct looks of surprise from my mom and Patty, and a stream of coffee to come spewing from my dad’s mouth. “What’s the problem?”

“Dana,” Dad started, still trying to dry the coffee from the table, “that’s EXACTLY the problem.” Dad’s gotten a lot more serious over the past month and a half than he was ever before, and the look he was giving me now was set in stone. “It’s almost impossible for you to go back to being Dane, and even if you did you couldn’t pass for male.” I was about to say something when he waved me quiet with his hand. “Look at yourself in a mirror, babydoll.. Even if you got-ahem- breast reduction, you’d still look like a girl, and I hate to break your heart but there’s no way we could afford the kind of facial reconstruction it’d take to get you to even begin looking androgynous. Honey, you’re too pretty.” He was trying to be gentle and comforting while still being straight to the point- just like my dad- but it still felt like I’d just taken a sledgehammer blow to the head.

“But if I can stop anything from developing more-“

“Sweetie, the medicine should have done that, but your body is producing too much estrogen and overwhelming it. We-“

“I’m going to bed.” I didn’t wait for a response. My manhood ached as though it’d just been kicked, and I guess in a way it had. It wasn’t a new pain, I’d felt it a lot over the past few weeks, as though my ‘budding femininity’ was fighting to kill off the one thing left that made me Dane not Dana, and I know it’s all in my head, but that don’t make it hurt any less.

===

Okay, you can stop hurting already, jeez. Of course they didn’t listen to me. Aw, hell, mental shmental. “MOOOMM!”

“WHUAAATTT!”

“COMMERE!”

“What is it sweetie?” Mom had a worried look on her face, and I could tell by her eyes she’d spent a part of the night crying, and probably ‘cause of me. But at the moment I had a more pressing concern. “Mom, my, uh, testhrfofrmrn.”

“I’m sorry?”

I really didn’t wanna say it. “My Testifroclornmn.”

“Honey speak up.”

“MY TESTICLES HURT!”

“Oh, dear.” She didn’t sound surprised, which worried me. She did sound worried, though, which worried me even more.

===

“Good evening Miss Phoenix, Dana.”

“Please, call me Joanne.”

“Very well, Joanne. I’m Doctor Tucker, and I specialize in these kinds of hormonal problems. I never thought I’d see two similar cases so close to each other though.”

“I’m sorry but what do you mean?”

“Oh, just thinking of one of my patients back in the Robins Lake area. A lot of similar problems, really. Sorry to digress. Now, I can see the last doctor you were going to did very well as far as the paperwork is concerned, but I’d like to do some examining of my own to verify results if that’s okay?” My mom just looked at me, and I nodded.

Over the next hour I was poked, prodded, bent over, stabbed, squeezed, and asked a barrage of annoying and embarrassing questions. What’s it matter if I’ve ever had a ‘nocturnal emission’ anyways? And at the end of it all, she had us wait another hour while she was on the phone with some other bigwig PhD/Md/PCP/whatever it is that stuff stands for before calling us back in.

“The operating room is prepped.” I think I almost passed out hearing those words, and seeing the dead serious look in her eyes. “It’d be best if we hurry.”

“What? What’s wrong with my baby now?”

“I’m sorry, but we’re going to have to remove his testicles.”

“WHY!”

“Because your body has started attacking them, and if we don’t they could become infected or cancerous.”

That’s when I DID pass out.

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Everything’s… so… fuzzy…

“Mom?”

I heard a rustling sound next to me, along with some persistent beeps, and felt a pair of arms wrap around me. “I’m here sweetie.” I felt myself slip back out for a bit while she held me, but there were things I needed to know. Something about my- my- MY-

“MY BALLS!” I bolted upwards and threw my hands to my crotch, and almost instantly regretted it as a blinding shot of pain lanced through both my head and where I was touching. “What the FUCK did they do to me!”

“Sweetie, they had to, they-“

“NOOOOOoooo…” The last thing that I knew, the last thing that was intimately familiar to me I had left in life, they’d removed. I wanted to scream. I wanted to cry again. I wanted to strangle someone. I wanted to piss really REALLY badly, which brought up another issue entirely. “Mom, they didn’t cut, uh, IT off, did they?”

“Huh?” Then she got it, and I felt her chuckle, which made me feel better and a lot calmer. I noticed the beeping slow down too. “Oh, no, honey. Not until you’re older, and only if you want it done. But, uh, we did have them do one other thing.”

“What, Mom. Don’t tell me- breast implants.” She chuckled again, so I continued. “Ugh, I knew it. Tryin’ to turn me into Pam Anderson now?”

“Hardly.” She squeezed me again before continuing. “No, what they did isn’t that obvious. Well, mostly. They didn’t cut anything off they didn’t have to because of-“

“Mom, I don’t wanna know why. Not now, not ever. Please.”

“Oh, okay.” It wasn’t, I could tell, but I’d find out later anyways. “But, uh, I told them about you being on your school’s cheerleading squad, ah, as a girl, and they decided it might help you fit in better if they, ah, hid things.”

“Hid things?” I reached for my crotch again, more gingerly this time, and felt again. And gasped.

“Now, it’s not permanent, and you can’t have sex,” well that’s a relief, at least, “but I told them about your cheerleading and the other girls not knowing-“

“That I know-“

“Yes, now stop interrupting me.” She tickled me for a bit, and I was too busy squirming to comment back. “Anywho, you look like any other girl down there now, so there’s NO chance that they’ll find out now if they haven’t already, unless you’re engaging in other extracurricular activities in the show-“

“EEEWWW, MOM!” She just laughed at me, the perv. “Did you have to do it? No, sorry, I know, it’s to help.”

“Yes, honey. Trust us.” I did, but it still didn’t make me any happier. They might as well have cut it off too, for all the good it’d do me now. I cried again. At this rate I’d be all girl before Christmas, and thanks to my stupid body I didn’t really have a choice.

“Mom?”

“Yes?” She still hadn’t let me go, thank God.

“I don’t think Dane’s coming back.” I was crying just a bit still, but after how far things had come it was kind of anticlimactic to accept the obvious.

“You’re still the same person sweetie, and we still love you. And if you wanted to we’d try and help you be a guy again.”

“But it’d be almost impossible, wouldn’t it?” She nodded. “Do you think you’ll be okay if I end up you’re daughter?”

“I already think you’re the most wonderful child in the world, and whether a son or a daughter me and your dad will love you just the same.”

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We stopped by the salon on the way home from the hospital, and she touched up my hair and trimmed the dead ends off before waxing things, which I absolutely hate but know is necessary now, and if I’m gonna get it done it might as well be while I still have painkillers in my system. And I don’t know why, but she’d picked out the pink halter dress I’d been stuck in that first day for me to wear home. It was significantly tighter in the chest than the last time I’d worn it, which had coincidentally been the first time, and fit different in the hips too, but when I mentioned this all Mom did was give me a ‘duh’ look. “Of course, sweetie, your figure is more mature than it was then, and even just a few weeks can make a big difference at your age.” Oh, who knew? I mean, I guess I shoulda, but still. “Oh, that looks so cute on you! I really wish you’d just wore it home that first time.”

“And what would you have said if your son had walked in like this?” I gave her a little twirl.

“The exact same thing.” And surprisingly I knew she would have too.

“Mom?”

“Yeah, sweetie?”

“Thanks.” I walked up to her and gave her the biggest hug I could, and she happily returned it. “I feel so lucky that you and Dad are my parents.”

“And we’re so lucky that you’re our child, whoever you decide to be.”

===

I’d missed Monday ‘cause I was still pretty sore down there, and was given an excuse to get out of cheer practice for a week at least, but after a few really gross hygiene lessons from Mom and a long nervous pause I was up and ready when Patty arrived Tuesday morning. She gave me a huge hug of her own, and after a few digs at me about pads and stuff we were off to school. James was happy to see me, and joined us at our table for lunch instead of going to his normal table, and even seemed happy when I told him my parents wanted to meet him for real, but not nearly as happy as the other cheerleaders were to hear that little piece of gossip. Things seemed to be going really well up until that afternoon when I got called to the Principal’s office.

“Good Evening, Miss Phoenix.”

“Good evening, Sir.”

“Please, sit down, I assure you you’re not in any trouble, leastways not with us.” I sat down quickly and looked intensely at him and Miss Cole both waiting behind his desk for me to get comfortable. As soon as I was settled, he seated himself in his own chair and placed his elbows on the table, steepling his fingers. “We called you in today because we received a threatening note from a Mr. Robert Shaw, telling us that the longer we put up with I quote ‘this abomination unto God’ the longer we’d burn in hell. Now, I personally think quite highly of you,” he gave me a wide smile, the first I’d seen on his face for a student, “and so does Miss Cole and the teachers who are aware of your situation. It’s a very brave thing you’re doing, and I promise you, if he tries anything on school grounds we WILL prosecute, but we’re still afraid for your safety. I’ve known Robert for a few years as his daughters used to attend school here, and I always thought he was a fair man, but this isn’t the Robert Shaw I knew. Something’s happened, and until we get to the bottom of it I’m going to have to ask you not to walk home in the afternoons.”

“But sir, my mom and dad both work, late on some days, and I can’t just ask them to pick me up every afternoon.”

“That’s okay, me or Miss Cole will take both you and Patty home in the evenings if that is okay with you. If not, we’ll try and find either another teacher or a student who can do it.”

I was afraid of what trouble was going to come of all the potentials for my outing that seemed to have arose lately, but I was still confused. I’d always heard that school faculty was supposed to be all prudish and against stuff and people like me. “Sir, thank you, but if I can ask, why are you being so helpful?” Mr. Akyroyd stood up and shifted his eyes towards Miss Cole in an enquiring manner. She just nodded and stood up, taking his hand and coughing lightly.

“Because the principal is my big brother,” she started, which was news to me, “And I used to be his little brother Taylor,” which was even bigger news indeed. All I could do is sit and listen as they told me her story.

===

What, thought I was gonna tell? Would you tell someone else’s biggest secrets to anyone? I didn’t think so.

===

“So you’ve been on hormones for a little over a month now?”

“Well, I thought they were hormones. Turns out they were trying to block the estrogen in my system but it didn’t work.”

“But don’t you mean testosterone blockers?”

“No, why would I?”

===

“You mean when we were talking about hormones ya’ll thought-“

She laughed. “Yes, we thought you WANTED to be a girl. If we’d known you were trying to be a guy we’d have pulled you out immediately. Do you want us to?”

“No! I mean, it doesn’t really matter any more since I can’t be a guy anyways.”

“Why not?”

===

“Oh, that’s horrible! I mean, I wanted to be a girl, but to be forced like you have…”

“It’s not been that bad. The girls on the team have all been really nice, and NO, I haven’t told them. I guess it’s just nice to be accepted instead of picked on, you know?” She nodded.

“I know exactly what you mean.”

“Heh.” I had a funny thought. “It’s kinda cool that TB- sorry, Thomas Brody, he used to be the worst about picking on me- seems more scared of me now than I ever was of him.”

“Well, you are a very pretty girl. He’s probably intimidated by that, most guys are.” I just blushed.

===

“So, do you think people would understand if they knew?”

Miss Cole looked pensive for a moment before responding. “I think that in your unique situation they’d understand better than most. But I still don’t recommend outing yourself.” I nodded, and shuddered at the thought.

===

“You two have a good night,” Miss Cole told me and Patty as we pulled up into my apartment complex’s driveway, but were stopped dead when we saw Mr. Shaw standing in front of the doors of the building with several other people, all dressed in suits and nice dresses, and looking very very angry. “You girls wait here a moment.”

“But Miss Cole,”

“Shush. I’ll be right back.” She locked the doors when she got out but left the keys with us before heading up to the group lying in wait outside my house. I could hear yelling, and more than once I saw them start waving books around towards her, but after a bit she just turned around and came back to the car with an exasperated expression on her face, and after climbing back in she grabbed the wheel and squeezed until her knuckles turned white. “Those bastards!”

“What’s going on?” Things were starting to scare me, and over her shoulder I could see a few of the people from the group starting to approach the car.

“No wonder he’s changed, that bastard’s gotten himself and his girls associated with some kind of group of religious fanatics. They’re threatening to take you away and ‘force the demon outta ya’ whatever they mean by that. Come on, we’re goin’ to ya’ll’s mom’s salon. Can one of ya’ll give them a call and let them know I need to talk with them when we get there?” I already had my cell phone out and was ringing through before she’d finished talking.

When we got to the salon, though, we were greeted by a sight almost identical to the one at the house. I could see our moms trying to fight their way through the crowd to get to us, but nobody would move and let them through. As soon as we were stopped people started crowding around the car, yelling at us and saying mean nasty things I’d rather not repeat. I was like SO scared I just grabbed on to Patty as tightly as I could in the back seat while Miss Cole borrowed my cell and called the police. She said the officer told us to just hang tight and they’d be there soon, but we were all three really scared, and then I heard the popping sound, and when I looked there was a long metal piece being taken out of the door and it was OPENING AND PATTY SCREAMEDANDTHEYGRABBEDMEAND–

===

“It isn’t there I’m tellin’ ya!”

“Well, check the other one! He said that one of ‘em was a sick little trannie and I know George wouldn’t lie about something like that.”

“I checked both of ‘em out already, I tole’ ya already! They’s both girls!”

“SHIT!” I felt somebody smack me across the face again, and this time the force threw me from the chair they’d tied me up and set me in. I tried to yell, or cry out, or at least spit the blood out, but the nasty rag they’d shoved in my mouth kept me from being able to say or do anything, and the ropes HURT and I needed to use the bathroom like SO BAD but the foot that caught me in the stomach took care of that. “Get these bitches cleaned up and make ‘em tell ya where they took the little faggot or so help me I’ll cut YOUR dick off.” A startled yelp from the other person in the room was the only answer.

===

I eased my eyes open and through the blurriness I could just make out the form of someone laying on the floor across from me. As my vision returned I saw it was Patty, but when I tried to make it over to her I found I couldn’t move. I tried to look around behind me to see what was holding me and I saw that they’d duct taped my ropes to some pipes coming up out of the floor behind me, and when I could see better I saw they’d done the same thing to Patty, tied us up as prisoners in this dark smelly little room in god knows where. But they’d untied my mouth at least.

“Patty?” It hurt to speak, but I had to know she was okay. “Patty! Answer me!” She wasn’t moving, and I was getting even more scared than I’d already been. I could hear sirens off in the distance somewhere, and shouting in a room nearby, but I didn’t have any hope that the police were there to help us.

We were going to die, taped to rusted pipes. And I’d pissed myself, too. I wanted to scream again and again, try to get someone, but I didn’t have the energy. I was too tired, hungry, and sore. So I slid down as much as I could and just waited to die.

I hope it will be soon.

===

They came in and beat us again. They took the rag out of my mouth and tried to make me tell them things, but would hit me before I could talk. I tried to tell them it was me, and I tried to scream when they tried to get Patty to wake up by hitting her, but my mouth hurt, and my throat was too dry.

I just wanted to die. Maybe if I died they’d let Patty go. Please.

===

“SIR, we found them sir!”

Where are they? Jeezus! Get them untied and outside quick!” A harsh static sound erupted, but was cut off quickly. “Unit 13 to Unit 79, get those paramedics in to the basement, we found the girls, status critical. NOW!” Warm arms wrapped around me as the bindings on my wrists came free, and I heard the voice from right next to my ear, “It alright, you’re safe now, we gotcha.”

===

There was that beeping again. I heard that not too long ago too. What was it again?

The hospital. Surgery. Kidnapped. I tried to turn my head and look at the beeping thing, but it hurt to move, and all I oculd do was let out a moan.

“Sweetie? Dana? She’s waking up!” My dad’s voice came from the side opposite the beeping, and was a much more attractive option than a computer, so I tried to look that way with little more success. “Just lie still, baby doll. Your mom’ll be here soon.” I felt his strong arms pick me up around my shoulders, and almost gasped in pain at the force behind his hug, but held it in so he wouldn’t stop. It was the first time in a long time my dad had given me a hug like this, and it felt too nice to let go. I started weeping into his shoulder, and felt him doing the same thing as he stroked my hair. “It’s all right baby girl, you’ll be fine. We’re here, Daddy’s here.” More hugs from behind, and this time I could smell my mom’s perfume. I finally was starting to feel safe again, but a terrible thought floated up and I squirmed until they loosened up a bit.

I tried to talk, but my throat was too dry, so Daddy had to give me a drink first. “Patty…” I croaked, my voice still very weak and weird sounding. “Where’s Patty?” I managed to pry my eyes open too, muscle control starting to come back, and looked at my dad, who smiled down at me.

“She’s alright, she’s in the bed next to you. She regained consciousness yesterday, but with the spasms you were having in your sleep they kept you under sedation an extra day.”

“What day is it?”

“Sweetie, it’s Saturday. The police didn’t track down where they took you until Thursday, and we were just thankful they got you that fast. They said you were pretty badly beaten up, and were worried your jaw might have been broken, but it should be okay.” My mom paused for a moment to look at me, and seemed to consider the options before continuing on. “The police said they got there just in time. From what they found out from their interrogations, another day and you two would have been either badly mutilated or dead. Some of the talkers said they were planning to cut you two up to see if there were any boy parts hidden away. OH, Sweetie, I’m sorry!!!” She’d been fighting back the tears the entire time she’d been talking, but they were in the end too much for her and she broke down into sobs, holding onto me and just crying. But I was better. I was with my mom and dad, Patty was okay, and soon I’d be going home.

And I was alive.

===

I almost looked normal with the makeup covering the bruises on my face, and it was getting cool enough I could wear long sleeves to hide the rest. I headed out to join Patty in the living room while we waited on my mom to finish getting ready and give us a ride to school. I’d had to argue with her for like two hours last night to get her to let me go to school today, but I told her I’d missed enough last week, and since the police took my statement yesterday and we’d been lucky and kept away from the press there was no real reason to stay home anyways. She’d finally given in, but she was driving us there and back. I wasn’t about to argue.

We were both wearing skirts today because of how sore we were. They’d been really rough in ‘examining’ us, and even tore Patty’s hymen somehow, with the lawyers using that to add rape charges onto the kidnapping, battery, and all the other stuff they were going away for. Mr. Shaw was getting off lightly on child endangerment charges ‘cause ‘he didn’t assist in the actual kidnapping’ or whatever. Neither of us were appearing at the trial to testify, but from what they said there was enough evidence against all the others that we didn’t need to, and I was glad of it. I know it’s wrong of me, but I really hoped they’d be stuck in there forever. I never did anything to them, and the news said they were still trying to justify their kidnapping (which me and Patty were left anonymous victims, thank god) using God’s word as proof of their divinity or whatever. I always heard that God was supposed to love everyone, so how can anybody try and use him as an excuse for being so cruel and uncaring? I really can’t understand it, and to be honest, I hope I never do.

We were just getting ready to leave when another car pulled into the parking lot directly behind us. At first I thought it was someone else out to get me, or one of the newspaper and TV people who had been trying to get around the police not wanting my picture out, and I got really scared and gripped Patty’s hands tightly. But then I recognized the car. “James?” He got out of the car and shuffled a moment, but quickly went up to Mom’s window and bend down, grinning.

“Hello Missus Phoenix, I was wondering if it’d be okay if I gave Dana and Patty a ride to school today?” Mom looked unsure for a moment, but when I reached forwards and gave her arm a squeeze to let her know it was alright, she nodded. “I promise not to do anything.”

“It’s okay, James. If my daughter trusts you, I do.” We got out and loaded our bags and things into his car, and were quickly off for school. This arrangement worked better for Mom ‘cause she didn’t have to be as late for work, but the drive was kinda uncomfortable at first. Finally, after what seemed like an hour James just snorted and said “Boy, you two girls really stirred the school up with that kidnapping thing.” My eyes shot open, but I just stared straight forwards and gripped the seatbelt as hard as I could. Oh god, they knew! “What I wanna know though is why didn’t you tell me?”

“Tell you what?” Deny, Deny, Deny. It was my only hope, but James wasn’t buying it.

“That you’re a transsexual.”

“Oh, that.” Shit! Shit shit shit shit shit! I prepared for another beating, or him running the car headlong into a light pole or something. The last thing I expected was him to laugh.

“Did you think I’d wanna hurt you or something?” Huh? “You did, didn’t you?” I nodded and cringed some more, my brain not being able to process the difference between what I expected and what was actually happening. “You know, being on the cheerleading team I thought you woulda noticed by now since you see us both every day.” Now I was even confuseder- er, more confused. He laughed again, not mocking, but like he actually found the situation hilarious. “Miss Cole is my Aunt, guys.” Wait, what was James’s last name? A… Adams, no… Ackerson… Arron… Akron… Akyroyd!

“Oh, god, you’re the principal’s son?” He glanced towards me and shook his head.

“My dad’s his older brother. Daniel Akyroyd III.”

“Oh, NO, Dan Akyroyd?”

“No relation to the actor. And trust me, we’ve heard all the wisecracks too.” It was enough of a tension breaker that I ended up giggling for a little bit, but when he reached over and grabbed my hand I jerked back a bit. “Hey, it’s okay. I still really like you a lot you know.” I just snorted.

“Yeah, right, the big hunky soccer player dating the tranny freak, that’d go over real well.”

“Oh, so you think I’m hunky huh?” I just blushed. He paused for a moment, but continued. “You look real cute when ya do that.” So I did it some more. “Guys, you’d be surprised.”

“What, you’re gonna stand by Dana even when she’s a social leper now? You’d really throw your friends away for her? I doubt it.” Patty was finally speaking up, and I could hear both the anger in her voice and the concern. “Just who all knows about this anyways? Did you figure it out on your own, or do we need to make you turn this car around right now and take us home, ‘cause I’m not gonna let you put my sis in any danger.” God, I love ya Patty.

It was his turn to speak, and the indignation in his tone was clear as day as he responded. “Hell yes I’d stand by Dana over my friends! My aunt told me about what happened when she moved away to try and transition. People beat her and mocked her and were really bad. I could see the hurt in her eyes when she told me, and I promised her I’d never let that happen to anybody else when I was around. I don’t know how things were when you were a boy, but I promise you, if anybody tries anything, I’ll be right next to you.” He squeezed my hand tightly when he said that, and I don’t know how I knew but I KNEW he was telling the truth. I started crying, stupid hormones trying to ruin my makeup, but they were tears of pride this time. “Besides, like I said, you’d be surprised. You WILL be surprised. I’m sorry I didn’t know you before, uh, all this, and I’m sorry you’re so scared of people.”

“Brody.” ‘Nuff said.

“Just let me deal with him.”

“And me.” Patty added. I might have a black belt, but I was still small, and she was darn close to having two.

“Besides, ever since you showed up in a skirt word is most all the guys at school think you’re hot, him included. Heh, one of the guys told me he has a picture of you in his locker.”

“WHAT!” Brody? A picture of me? EWW!

“Just what I heard. I promise you’ll be safe at school, I think of you as a girl and I don’t think many people are gonna argue with a jock who’s related to the principal, do you?”

===

And we were. There were a few nasty comments, and a couple of attempts to push me around, but it wasn’t what it could have been. And everybody knew. Brody was a jerk again, but was kept away by James, and when the stronger boy nearly shoved HIM in a locker he left me alone. And everybody knew. I got hit on by some of the less friendly gay students who’d avoided me like the plague even when I was a guy, most of them thinking since I was a ‘trannie’- rhymes with dog vomit- I was easy, but Patty set them straight with a few well placed jibes and questions to sexual standards of her own, God love her. And everybody knew. And the longer the day went on, the less they seemed to care. I thought it’d be a big deal, but it never crossed my mind I’d be a one hour wonder.

Steven and the gang were a little bit of a surprise. He just walked right up to me in the middle of the hall with Adam and them, and after looking at James, dipped me and gave me a huge theatrical kiss. When he let me back up I could hear applause all around us.

“Gaming next weekend?” I just nodded. “Great!” And he walked off with the others in tow. James came up to me and gave me a strange look, so I gave him a hug to let him know he was still safe.

But the biggest surprise was the cheerleaders. I was expecting them to be my biggest detractors or whatever, but instead the instant I walked in the door I was surrounded by a group hug from almost all of them. Lisa was right at the front and held on just a bit longer than the others. “Oh my god Dana are you okay? We heard about the kidnapping and I was like ‘oh no they’re gonna kill her’ and I called all the other girls and we were so WORRIED! My mom even pulled her State support for the gymnastics team when she found out that horrible man kicked you out, may he rot in hell! You’re-“

I gaped for a moment. “You mean you don’t hate me?”

“For what, getting kidnapped and nearly raped by those stupid-“

“NO. For… for being a… a boy?” I stared at my shoes, waiting for the shocked gasps or the slap or a knife in the back or something, so I tensed up a lot, ready for the worst.

Instead, she hugged me again. “Oh, heavens no! Besides,” she dropped to a whisper right next to my ear, “I knew you were a boy all along.”

“WHAT!”

===

They were hesitant to tell me the story at first, but when I threatened to call the principal and Miss Cole in to find out for me they relented. It was meant to be a big joke, get the little boy to try out for cheerleading for a little bit of fun. Then they saw I could actually do it, and thought why not? Things just kinda snowballed from there, with Shelby’s parents putting up the money for the clothes ‘cause they thought it was a great joke (which told me exactly where here sense of humor came from,) and then it wasn’t a joke any more ‘cause they actually LIKED me, and thought of me as one of the group. Me and Patty were pissed at first to say the least.

“So, let me get this straight. You decided to pretend you thought I was a girl, and stuck me on the squad, not ‘cause I was good, but as a JOKE?”

“NO! I mean, well, yes, but you really were good otherwise we wouldn’t have put you on! Honest, we weren’t gonna tell anybody, it was just supposed to be between the cheerleaders…”

“I don’t care! That was wrong, and the trouble you could have- no, you DID get me in- I don’t know if I wanna be a cheerleader any more if that’s the kinda thing ya’ll do for a joke.”

“But Dana, please! We really do like you, and you’re like one of the best! Don’t, we’ll do anything!” Oh, she was gonna regret that.

“Anything?” She just nodded. Gooooood. I looked at Patty, who grinned at me, and we huddled for a moment. Everybody else started looking nervous. I just gave them the toothiest, most evil sneer I could.

===

Ooh, I was feeling better already.

===

“Ohgod, NO!”

“YES! You said ANYTHING, remember?”

She thought about it. “No bloomers-“

“For ANY of you ‘cept me and Patty-“

‘-for the rest of the year?” She was sweating badly, but I was grinning like the cat who got the cream. Or, in this case, the bloomers.

“Or, you and Nancy could come out as lesbians to the entire school.”

“WHAT!!!” This time Nancy joined her in screeching.

“AND, you have to kiss each other. In front of the entire school, at the next game.”

“Oh, BABY that’s hot!”

“SHELBY!”

===

Le sigh. “All in all, I think things could have gone a lot worse for my return to school.”

“Well I’ll say.” Patty was carrying my bag for me while James carried my books, and my own arms were full of flowers and cards and things from all the other kids who wanted to support me. “You doin’ practice this afternoon? I know you can’t join back up yet, but I bet everyone’d love you to come anyways.” I gave it maybe a second’s thought.

===

“Go, go go,
Go you mighty Cougars,
Fight, fight fight,
Fight you mighty Cougars,
Win, win win,
Win you mighty Cougars,
Go, Fight, Win,
And bring those trophies in!”

I love being a cheerleader.

===

END of Oh, Cheers. Comments appreciated!

===

Final Notes: Thank you all for reading my story. I’ve had a lot of fun writing it, and I hope you’ve all enjoyed it. The two ‘Time Out’s will be out soon, but until then, here’s a listing of all the ‘movies’ Dana and his friends have seen as well as anticipated films and alternates I considered should you want to check them out. I would like to point out at this time that I neglected to ask the authors’ permissions to mention these works in mine, and should they have complaints about my usage I will replace them, though I hope that doesn’t happen!

Part 1:
‘8 Dragons’, ‘The Song of Chi’i’, and ‘Spent Cicada’s Song’ are all by the wonderful Rebekkah De Mere, and are available on Bev’s Balcony and Sapphire’s Place.
===alternate===
‘Wateley Academy’ is a wonderful story universe as well along some similar lines, and has stories available I know here at BC and at Sapphire’s Place, as well as their very own site ‘The Crystal Palace’.
‘MORFS’ is a great universe too, and there are stories from the futuristic setting available here at BC, Fictionmania, Crystal’s Story Site, Sapphire’s Place, and the MORFS homepage, knowwheretogo.

Part 2:
‘Firefly: Connecting Flight’ is Randalynn’s excellent fanfic available as far as I know exclusively here at BC, and will hopefully be continued soon :P
===alternate===
‘Kelly Girl’ by Wanda Cunningham is a beautiful coming of age story that I hope is continued soon as well, and is available here and at Crystal’s Story Site as well as in printed form, so get buyin’!
‘Price to Pay’ is by Alys and available here at BC, another great coming of age tale with a more serious bent than ‘Kelly Girl’ but still absolutely fantastic.

Part 3:
‘Belle of the Ball’ is by E.E. Nalley and covers the adventures of the amazing Southern Belle as she fights evil and finds a few friends- and enemies- along the way. Available at Stardust and Sapphire’s Place.
‘Zapped!’ is by Bob Arnold, and tells the epic legend of Jennifer Stevens as she deals with the incredible accident that led to- well, read it to find out! Available here at BC, Sapphire’s Place, Crystal’s Story Site, and at Stardust.
===alternate===
‘Of Masks and Marvels’ is by the very talented Bek D. Corbin, and is a fantastic superhero adventure featuring the incredible Lady Lightning available at Sapphire’s Place.
‘Gaby’ is Maddy Bell’s signature work revolving around the misadventures of Drew/Gaby Bond. Available here at BC, Sapphire’s Place, Crystal’s Story Site, Bev’s Balcony I do believe, and at her home site of Maddybell.com.
‘Homecoming Princess’ and ‘Show Me the Money’ are both by Arecee Em, and two stories nobody should miss. Check them out here at BC, or ‘Homecoming Princess’ is also available at Crystal’s Story Site as well.

‘Green Acres: The Musical’ as far as I know doesn’t actually exist, and I am very thankful for that.

‘Cara Malone’ is the main character from ‘No Half Measures by Jenny Walker, available on BC, and Michelle Grayson is from ‘I’m With the Band’ by Melanie Brown, available at Sapphire’s.

It is likely these titles are available on other sites as well, but I might have very well missed them as I mostly stick roundabout here. If you know of other places to find them, including Fictionmania which is both extremely likely and one place I never visit , don’t hesitate to let me know so I can update the plugs :)

Melanie E.

Pickles: A TG Choose Your Own Adventure

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  • Various Hands
  • Rasufelle

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Pickles: A TG Choose Your Own Adventure

Pickles: A TG Choose Your Own Adventure

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  • Rasufelle

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  • General Audience (pg)

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Pickles: A TG Choose Your Own Adventure

By Melanie E.

The rain storm came out of nowhere, catching you completely unprepared. What do you do?

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Instuctions:

Alright, so here's the low down on how this is gonna work. I'm going to give you a somewhat standard choose your own adventure type opening, and a handful of choices for what happens next. As part of a comment, tell me which choice you would like the character to take. The choice that gets the most votes is the one that will be taken! I'll set an arbitrary limit of only tallying votes until noon on the day after posting, so get your votes in quick! Each successive "page" will have its own choices for what you can do next, and the voting will start over, again, closing at noon the following day, though I might extend the time by as much as a day if less than ten total votes have come in. Also, this story is going to be MtF, at least to start with, a fact that I felt needed mentioning primarily because the entire thing will be written in the second person.

Sound interesting? Alright, let's do this!

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Pickles

Page 1

The rain storm came out of nowhere, catching you completely unprepared. What had started as a simple walk to the supermarket has now transformed into a miserable trudge through perilous streets that oddly seem completely unfamiliar to you.

A nearby building with a convenient awning provides you with a much needed respite from the storm. After about ten more minutes of torrential downpour, it finally lets up. Unfortunately, it's replaced by a thick haze.

There you stand: soaked, tired and far from home. What do you do?

---Examine the store front
---Sit against the wall, waiting for the haze to dissipate
---Head out into the haze

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The voting begins... NOW! ("page 1" posted on 1/17/2011, voting set to close at noon on 1/18/2011)

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  • Rasufelle

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Page 2

"You head out into the haze..."

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If anyone is new to this and doesn't know how it works, well, go back and read the first one! An Adventurer Is You!

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---Into The Haze

You hesitate, unsure if it is such a smart idea to walk into the fog when you are already lost. In the end, your damp clothes and soggy shoes decide for you, and you head down the street in the same direction you had been going, hoping to find a familiar landmark.

Unfortunately, it is not long before the fog closes in about you -- thicker and seemingly more sinister than before. Remembering the old adage, "a fog so thick you can't see your hand in front of your face," you raise your hand about a foot in front of you. You can see it, but only barely.

Suddenly, a booming voice echoes out, "Hail, adventurer!" and the fog before you begins to glow.

What do you do?

---Answer the voice
---Flee, back the way you came!
---Find something to hide behind

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The voting begins... NOW! ("page 2" posted on 1/18/2011, voting set to close at noon on 1/19/2011)

EDIT: It should be noted that this is noon central standard time. So if you don't live in Arkansas or the general area of the Louisiana Purchase, then this probably ain't the right time for you.

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  • Rasufelle

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By Melanie E.

Page 3

"You answer the voice..."

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Again, if you don't know how this works, check out the first entry and catch up from there!

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"Uh... hail?" you call out nervously.

As the haze before you starts to part, a tall figure appears, clad in a long coarse robe and carrying a lantern. A toothy grin appears on his scarred and bearded face. "Ho there, fellow-me-lad, are you ready?"

"For what?"

His grin grows wider. "Well, for the adventure of course!"

Not seeing much choice, you shrug your shoulders.

"Then follow me," the man says, turning to your left and heading down a path that has mysteriously appeared through the haze. After what could not be more than five minutes, he turns to you and hands you a bag. "Fare thee well!" he calls, then disappears, his lantern resting on the ground where he had once stood.

You heft the bag, and it jingles as you bounce it in your hand. Looking around yourself, you find that you are in a small cobbled plaza. There is an exit to what you will arbitrarily dub the north, and three doors leading into various shops.

What do you do?

---Enter the shop called "McGrue's Adventuring Paraphernalia"
---Enter the shop called "B&B Blacksmith's"
---Enter the shop called "Arwen's Magical Emporium"
---Head north looking for answers

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The voting begins... NOW! ("Page 3) posted on 1/19/2011, voting to close at noon CST on 1/20/2011)

NOTES: It was mentioned on my blog entry that some people would have liked to have known ahead of time that the first three or so choices would decide the overall "genre" of the story. I apologize for not making that clearer, and I will do my best to correct that in the future if there are any such major decisions to be made by letting you know ahead of time. The exception to this, of course, will be the method of your change. It is coming soon, but how? Though you'll decide, you'll never know when! HAHAHAHA, MINE IS AN EVIL LAUGH!

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  • Rasufelle

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  • Fiction

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Pickles: A TG Choose Your Own Adventure

By Melanie E.

Page 4

"You enter McGrue's Adventuring Paraphernalia..."

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A quick rifle through the bag in your hands reveals a quantity of large, awkward coins. What could these be for? You briefly consider using the bag to brain the next person you meet on the off chance that this is all some horrid prank perpetrated by an unknown party, but instead decide to use the coinage in a much less creative way.

Looking at the shops around you, one in particular catches your eye. A large white house with a badly scrawled sign reading "McGrue's Adventuring Paraphernalia," there is something about it that calls to your pocketbook.

The door is boarded up, but it bears a sign as well: "Door broken -- use window," and a large red arrow pointing to the window directly next to it. You shrug, and climb through the window. Perhaps your pocketbook was wrong after all.

Inside you find a robed figure standing behind a large table and eating a sandwich. "G'day," he says, in a gravelly voice. "Welcome to McGrue's, what can I do you for?"

"Adventuring paraphernalia?" You ask.

"Right ho. Take a look around," he says, then goes back to his sandwich.

Looking around, you find a number of interesting items, from climbing gear to clothes, wooden crates, knapsacks, and numerous other goods too varied to mention. In the end, though, three items in particular interest you more than any others.

The figure seems to track the direction of your gaze, and begins to cackle. "Got a taste for the finer things in life, eh?"

"What are they?"

He gestures to a belt-like object made from an ornate silver material. "That's a girdle I bought off some daft fellow named Minsc. Wouldn't stop yabbering to his damn rodent, but he seemed a decent sort. Supposed to be magical, don't know what it does, though."

Next, he turns to a floppy looking green felt hat, sitting haphazardly atop a pile of books. "Dunno much about that. It's magical too, though. I nabbed it from Arwen's one day when she weren't looking, I did." He cackles. "Right off the top of some snot nosed brat's head, too!"

Finally, he turns to the last object that you seem drawn to, a crystal flask filled with a glowing white liquid. "And that's what we in the bis'nis call a 'Charm Potion.' Supposed to make you so attractive won't no one be able to resist." He nudges you in the ribs painfully, and you watch one of the milky orbs beneath his hood disappear briefly in what could only be a wink.

"So, what will it be?"

Feeling that by now it would be far more dangerous to buy nothing, you study the objects carefully.

What do you do?

---Buy the belt... err, girdle, that is.
---Buy the hat. What could go wrong with a hat?
---Buy the Charm Potion. Bring on the hotties!

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The voting begins...NOW!("Page 4" posted on 1/20/2011, voting to close at noon CST on 1/21/2011)

NOTES: Alright, by this point anyone with an interest in RPGs, adventure games, or, well, any combination of the two, will see where this is going. And if you do, then please, don't spoil the surprise for everyone else!

It's pretty obvious that the choices taken have lead to an outcome of "Fantasy Adventure," no? So, I hope everyone's fine with that. I'm not planning these things out more than a handful of moves in advance, either, so like with my more normal stories, while I know the general plot of what's possible, a lot of this will be as much an adventure for me as for you!

Also, if anyone has suggestions on ways I can improve the "game," let me know. I'm getting a much better response than I had expected, and, well, if I'm getting user response anyhow, I might as well know what they want to begin with! So, if you feel up to it, in addition to your votes, let me know what you think of things so far, what works, what needs changed, and what you'd like in the future!

Melanie E.

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"Buy the belt... err, girdle, that is."

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The decision is tough, but after mulling over what to do you finally decide on the belt. Girdle. Whatever.

"How much for the girdle-thingy?"

The vaguely humanoid figure in the tattered robe looks you up and down before raising what you desperately hope is a hand and pointing at the bag in your hand. "How much ya got?"

"Dunno."

"Half that."

You start to object, even in your vulnerable position knowing a scam when you see one, but before you can so much as mutter "fiddlesticks" the bag is snatched from your hands and emptied on the table. The figure cackles gleefully before shoveling what is quite obviously less than half of the coins back into the sack along with the remainder of his sandwich.

"Here's yer money, and yer girly belt," he says, handing you both, then spinning you around. "Now, off you go, much to do."

"Hey!" You call, but it is too late, as you tumble out the window to the grass below.

Picking up your much reduced bag of coins (and sandwich) as well as your newly acquired girly-belt -- sorry, girdle -- you make a bee line for the lamp that still rests in the center of the plaza. Both the blacksmith's shop and Arwen's now have "closed" signs hanging in their doors, leaving you little choice but to head arbitrary-north. You grab the lantern on your way, never knowing when the light could come in handy.

After about half an hour of walking, during which you run through every possible scenario and still find no logical conclusion to how a simple trip to pick up some jujubees could have morphed into a magical quest, you come across an intersection in the road, complete with an all too convenient signpost. You read the choices, and after adjusting your internal compass to compensate for learning you've actually been heading south, lean against a nearby tree as you think.

What do you do?

---Turn East, toward the Village Of Villagers
---Turn West, entering the Woods of Adventuresome Adventuring And Squirrels
---Continue South, into the Swamp of Icky But Actually Quite Harmless Things

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The voting begins...NOW!("Page 4" posted on 1/21/2011, voting to close at noon CST on 1/22/2011)

NOTES: Yes, the adventure is taking a decided turn for the silly, but it's all in good fun, so hopefully no one minds.

What does the girdle do? What's going on? What kind of sandwich did the thing leave to mold among your coinage? Vote, and ye shall discover!

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"West, into the Forest of Adventuresome Adventuring! And Squirrels!"

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After much deliberation, followed by a quick round of "Eenie Meanie Miney Moe," the Forest is your choice. The sign reads "The Forest of Adventuresome Adventuring," but looking more closely you see the words "And Squirrels" carved into the wood in short gashes beneath the original legend.

Deciding there's no better time than now to get it over with, you walk determinedly down the path and soon find yourself surrounded by trees that gradually grow thicker around you. Within minutes the boughs above your head are so thick they block out almost the entire sky, and you are glad you thought to bring the lantern as you begin to hear chittering spreading through the trees.

The chittering grows louder as you hear a crashing sound coming through the forest. With a horrendous cacophony of bangs, grunts, and howls, a large grey creature with a deformed face leaps out of the trees and into your path, squirrels tumbling down with him.

"Me hungry!" The creature bellows, glaring at you with wicked green eyes. "Smell food, want food!" The squirrels around him jump about and chatter, almost as though they share his voice.

You freeze in place, stunned by the appearance of what could only be a troll staring you down.

What do you do?

---Bean him in the head with the bag of coins
---Flee in terror, back from whence ye came
---Carefully reach into your bag and offer him the sandwich

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The voting begins...NOW!("Page 6" posted on 1/22/2011, voting to close at noon CST on 1/23/2011)

NOTES: Alright! *Fight theme from Final Fantasy starts to play*

This is officially the last safe page, folks. That's not to say that every page after this is going to have a choice that will result in the demise of your character, but it will be possible on occasion or if a specific set of no more than two or three actions are taken in a row. Will I let it be known what choices will lead to death? Absolutely not!

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"You reach into your bag and offer the troll the sandwich..."

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You squeeze your eyes tightly shut as the troll approaches you amid his cloud of squirrels, and in desperation reach for your bag of coins. Is it still there? Yes! You pull out the sandwich, all the mushier and grimy for being shoved among the coins, and offer it to what you hope is the general direction of the troll.

"Hrmm? Sand... wich? SANDWICH!" You feel the sandwich slip out of your hand, a greasy residue all that remains of its presence.

You hear a strange gurgling sound, then the troll's pounding footsteps approaching you again. This is it. The sandwich was nothing but an appetizer, and now you are to be the main course. You feel a large, rough hand rest on your shoulder...

"Here," you hear the troll say, then poke you with his free hand. Opening your eyes, you see a crimson felt robe clutched in his hand and being held out to you. "Sandwich for this. Go with girly belt."

"Uhh, thanks," you say, reaching out to take the robe. He drops it in your hands, then turns to head back into the woods.

"Squirrels like you. Trog like too. Trog help." With that, he pushes his way into the trees and disappears.

The robe is warm to the touch, and smells surprisingly fresh for something that came from the inventory of a smelly squirrel-infested troll. It is also dry, providing it with a distinct advantage over your soaked clothes. Judging that it is doubtful to make your situation any worse, you strip off the outer layer of your clothes and put on the robe instead.

The robe is comfortable, and fits well save for a complete lack of a way to close it. Remembering the troll's words, you pull out your girdle and with a nervous gulp latch it around your waist, pulling the robe closed.

At fist, nothing happens, leaving you to assume that McGrue must have been mistaken in assuming the girdle was magical.

Unfortunately, you assume wrong. With a gut wrenching twist, you feel yourself grow suddenly nauseous as your skin begins to crawl. You fall to your hands and knees, but they're not your hands any more.

As long, dark hair starts to fall before your eyes, you pass out.

What do you do?

---Awaken by the side of the path that night
---Awaken in the back of a cart.
---Awaken in shackles, thrown across a horse.

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The voting begins...NOW!("Page 7" posted on 1/23/2011, voting to close at noon CST on 1/24/2011)

NOTES: This is a bit of a different type of choice from your normal everyday "What do you do?" in that instead of choosing your character's action directly, you get to choose what happens to them! I think we all know what the girdle did, so choose carefully which path our reluctant hero shall take!

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"You wake up late that night on the side of the road..."

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At first the feeling is little more than a tickle at the back of your mind, but as your consciousness returns you begin to open your eyes. The darkness surrounding you is shocking, and helps to pull you quickly out of your drowsy state, after which it takes you only a few moments to relocate the lantern. Your bag of coins, on the other hand, is completely gone.

Still stumbling slightly and unsure about what has happened to you, you begin your trek down the road, not knowing which direction you are heading and more than a little disoriented by your surroundings. The crimson robe you are wearing is a comfortable fit, at least, if it seems to hand strangely in some parts and rub you in odd ways in others.

After about an hour more walking, nature begins to call. With some difficulty you locate a stand of convenient bushes by the side of the road and make for them, trying to work out the robe as you go.

That's when you scream.

What do you do?

---Hastily examine yourself.
---sit down and think about what's happening.
---Scream some more.

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The voting begins...NOW!("Page 8" posted on 1/25/2011, voting to close at noon CST on 1/26/2011)

NOTES: Thanks for putting up with the one day delay on this one, mah peeps. Yesterday was HEC-TIC, but at least I got some things done. On a related note, if you haven't seen The Green Hornet yet, I highly recommend it.

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User Created Choice: All Of The Above

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You scream some more.

Wildly, you begin examining the rest of your body. Legs, arms, hands, feet. That's not supposed to be there.

You scream again.

And a little more, just for good measure.

Exhausted from screaming you collapse to the ground, only to find that at some point your bladder let loose without letting the rest of you know. Just great. You're stuck in the middle of an unfamiliar land with no idea what's going on. You've lost your clothes, you have no money, and you're a girl.

And you've peed yourself, though that seems of little consequence at this point.

Just when you think things can't get any worse, you hear the sound of squeaky wheels rolling their way down the road.

What do you do?

---Hide, and watch who's coming down the road.
---Try to catch their attention and ask for a ride.
---Detour into the woods.

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The voting begins...NOW!("Page 9" posted on 1/26/2011, voting to close at noon CST on 1/27/2011)

NOTES: You asked, and you shall receive. Even though doing all three choices had not occurred to me (silly me) it was, in fact, the most logical action, or at least the most realistic. Here you are.

So, what does everyone think so far? Questions? Comments? Suggestions? Let me know!

Melanie E.

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"You hide, and watch to see who's coming..."

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You stand up as carefully as possible, not wanting to make any bigger a mess than necessary, and are surprised to find your body and robe completely dry despite your recent accident. Deciding that is an issue that can be resolved later, you scuttle behind the bushes and crouch down, watching the road to see who -- or what -- is heading your way.

It is almost fifteen minutes before a cart finally rolls into view, dragged behind two ancient mares. Sitting atop it is a young woman with raven black hair and a bow across her back, while drifting from the inside of the cart you can smell the tantalizing aroma of apples. It is then you realize that you have not eaten in many hours, your jujubees long forgotten, and your stomach starts to rumble in protest.

Starting at the sound of your mutinous digestive track, the woman draws the bow from her back and aims it into the bushes where you stand.

"Out, thief! Show yourself!" The woman says in a voice with a strange accent.

Not wanting to get shot, you do as you have been ordered and step out, holding your hands up for good measure. Seeing you are unarmed, the woman lowers her bow and instead shoots you with a disgusted look. "What kind of lady hides in the bushes at night? And so poorly at that?"

"Uh, well..." Not knowing what to say, you shrug your shoulders. Then a thought comes to you. "How did you know where I was? Was it my stomach?"

She shakes her head. "No, it was the lantern you left burning casting your shadow upon the road."

You look behind you, and see the lantern burning brightly behind the bush. "Oh," you say, embarrassed.

When you turn back to her, she is now looking at you in pity. "Do you need a ride, friend?" She asks, holding out her hand to you.

What do you do?

---Accept the ride
---Decline the ride

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The voting begins...NOW!("Page 10" posted on 1/27/2011, voting to close at noon CST on 1/28/2011)

NOTES: Sorry I was late getting pages posted both today and yesterday. Yesterday the internet was out from noon to two thirty in the afternoon, a scary occurrence since it died right when I was trying to post the previous page. Luckily everything was okay. Today I was just T-Y-A-R-D Tired and had to take a nap. But, it's over now, so here's the new page!

Melanie E.

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"You tell the cart-woman your tale..."

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You're not sure why you trust this woman, but it is only a few moments before you find yourself spilling your entire tale for her in rapid spurts of speech punctuated by tears, surprising even yourself. At first she seems reluctant to believe you, but as your story goes on her eyes grow wider and wider, until when you mention putting on the girly-belt girdle thing, and waking up a woman.

"What!" She yells, pulling her horses to a stop. "The girdle did that?"

"I dunno, the girdle, the robe, one of them did I'm sure of it! Why?"

A smile starts to cross her face. "Oh, yes, we must get you to the castle as soon as possible."

"What? Why?" You ask nervously.

"Because if what you're saying is true, then the prophecy's fulfillment has begun!"

Now you are really getting worried. "What prophecy? I'm not sure I like this."

"Don't worry, Mage Fortran and Lady Perl can tell you more. Ow, what a grand day it is!"

What do you do?

---Ride with her to the castle to see what's happening
---Claim a need for the necessity and make a break for it
---Pretend you made it all up
---Bean her in the head and take her cart

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The voting begins...NOW!("Page 12" posted on 1/29/2011, voting to close at noon CST on 1/30/2011)

NOTES: Not much to say right now. It's getting interesting, no? CHOOSE WISELY.

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"You go with her to the castle..."

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After many more horrible computer language and OS puns, you finally manage to uncover the basics of what the prophecy entails.

1. There's an evil mage (isn't there always?) who wants to take over the kingdom.
2. He controls lots of baddies.
3. For some strange reason unbeknownst to you but apparently knownst to everyone else around you, you are the only person who is capable of stopping him, of course.
3. If you can beat him, the royal family will show you how to break the spell that has turned you to into a woman, and show you your way home. Blackmailing bastards.

With little fanfare, you are summarily marched to the armory, where a grizzled old soldier with one good eye and a beard that could hide a small pony grins at you lecherously.

"Aye, you is a pretty little one, ain'cha pet? I's been told to outfit ya fer fightin', but I reckon I'd like ye's better wifout the outfit," he says, cackling crudely. "What'll it be?"

Somehow, you feel like you've been in this situation before as you look at the rack of weapons before you while trying to ignore the feeling of his eye crawling over your backside.

---Take the shiny sword, perfect for slicing and dicing.
---Take the magician's staff and book. Might as well, you've got the robes.
---Take the mighty axe. Chop chop!
---Take the bow and quiver of arrows. Don't put an eye out.

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The voting begins...NOW!("Page 13" posted on 2/1/2011, voting to close at noon CST on 2/2/2011)

NOTES: Yes, I know, I'm two days late posting. I didn't feel like writing on Sunday, and Monday I couldn't get my brain in gear for any more of the computer puns that I had trapped myself into needing. I still didn't feel like them today, hence the cop-out in the first few lines.

Things will pick up, I promise.

Melanie E.

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"You take the staff and book of spells..."

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You don't know how to use a sword, and the last time you used an axe you nearly lost a toe. You spend some time considering the bow, but a glance down at your chest causes you to cringe. Not large, maybe, but still in the way.

All that's left is wooden staff carved with an intricate scrolling design and a book. You always thought magic would be cool to try, so you take the staff and book.

Turning around, the gnarled old man leers at you again. "Ye's think a slip of a gel like ye can handle 'at?"

You give the staff an experimental swing through the air, and unexpectedly an arc of rainbow light appears and throws the lecherous old man into the air, where with a 'pop' he transforms into a box turtle.

You hear clapping from your left, and spin to see the girl who gave you your ride standing there with a smile on her face. "He's been needing that for a while now. A little time as a turtle will do him some good."

"Uhm, okay?" You say, looking down at her chainmail armor, a sword and shield hung across her back. She had not been wearing them when she had delivered the apples.

Glancing down and catching on to what you are looking at, she laughs. "I'm Lisa, and I'll be joining you, if you'll let me."

"Why would I need an apple delivery girl?" You ask, confused.

"Because I'm not just a delivery girl, I'm a Knight. With the Mage's forces about, leaving deliveries to untrained merchants and drivers often results in those deliveries not being made. Nevertheless, we try to keep our presence hidden when possible."

You nod your understanding.

What do you do?

---Accept Lisa's offer to join you.
---Decline her offer, and go on your own.
---Decline her offer, and seek another partner.

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The voting begins...NOW!("Page 1" posted on 2/2/2011, voting to close at noon CST on 2/3/2011)

NOTES: Sorry, I just had to sneak a couple more (quite obscure) computer puns into the mix. Anyone catch them? (Hints: one is a very obscure reference to a programming language, the other is a much more obvious reference to a computer from the early '80s...)

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"You and Lisa set out together..."

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There is really no question in your mind, and you readily agree to her joining you. After all, she is far more likely to know where to go than you are anyhow.

"Right, then. We have horses waiting for us, come on!"

You follow her down to the stables, where there are two fully loaded riding horses already prepared. It has been years since you last rode a horse, and never as a girl to be sure, but you do your best to keep that from being too obvious as you awkwardly mount your ride and adjust your robe about you.

"So, where to?" You ask, leaving the directions up to your new partner in adventure.

"The other knights told me that there had been reports of the mage's forces raiding villages out past the Swamp of Icky But Actually Quite Harmless Things, so I thought we should check that out. On the other hand, the king and queen have asked me to seek help from the gnome tribes -- that's in a different direction."

"And you need to practice your chosen profession," the good wizard Fortran says, stepping out from around the stable doors. "The best place to do that is to the north, in the Dark Keep."

"Whatever you decide is best," Lisa says, with a smile.

What do you do?

---South, to the villages on the other side of the swamps
---West, to the gnome tribes
---North, to the Dark Keep

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NOTES: Sorry this one is up so late! I know, I know, I suck... anyhow, I'll leave this one up until 6pm CST before closing voting to make up for it, so you've got time!

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"You head north, to the Dark Keep..."

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"I really do need to learn how to use this thing," you say, waving the staff. Everyone around you dives for cover just as a bolt of lightning surges forward, lighting a bale of hay on fire. "Oops."

Fortran stands up, eyeing you cautiously as he dusts off his robes. "I agree. You are far more dangerous to your companions right now than you would be to any foe."

Lisa stands as well, patting out a small fire in the hay around her. "So north it is then. I hope you know what you are telling us to do, old man." She says, glaring at Fortran.

"I'm certain it will be alright. None of my apprentices have died while studying there in well over a hundred years."

"What about Mac?"

"Oh, he didn't die... really. He's still about somewhere. I think."

"Yeah, sure." Lisa rubs her temples for a moment, obviously upset by the conversation. "Maybe north is best. It will give us a chance to look for him."

Fortran nods, and leaves the two of you to prepare to leave. Soon you are ready to go, and set out on your adventure. It is a long, hard road to the Dark Keep, and there is little time to waste, though something to occupy your time on the ride might be good.

What do you do?

---Study your book of magic.
---Ask Lisa about who "Mac" is.
---Start singing to yourself. (SPECIAL: If you choose this, pick a song as well. I'll either pick my favorite of the ones recommended, or if there is one that has multiple votes I'll use the one with the most votes.)

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"You study the book of magic..."

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At first reading while riding a horse is quite difficult, the bouncing and jarring making the text dance before your eyes. Luckily, one of the earliest spells in the book allows you to set the tome afloat before you, greatly reducing the strain.

"You seem to be picking up the magic arts quite quickly," a smiling Lisa says from her horse beside you. "You have a natural talent."

"Well, it's not like where I come from I'd have much chance to find out."

"Why not?"

"We don't have magic where I come from."

Lisa laughs, a ringing sound. "Of course you do! How do you think you managed to come here?"

You ponder this as the Dark Keep rises into view, a cancerous mass growing upon the perfect rolling hills of...

"Where are we?"

Lisa sweeps her arms around her. "A belated welcome to the land... of Highwind."

A cavern lies between you and the Keep, a place you are no longer so sure you wish to access.

What do you do?

---Take the decrepit bridge.
---Travel down, into the cavern, and hope to climb out the other side.
---Use your magic to find a way.

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NOTES: Okay, as ya'll can probably tell, I'm more concerned with making this a fun, interactive adventure than an absolutely true to form Choose Your Own Adventure. I hope that's okay with everyone?

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"You use your magic to find a way..."

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"No time like the present," you mumble to yourself, eying the staff and book. You riffle through the pages until you come across a likely looking spell, and begin to chant the words as you wave your magic staff toward the paths ahead of you.

"Agadoo, agadoo, canadian bacon, find the path that must be taken!"

Your staff begins to glow as it shoots from your hand.

"Those weren't the right words," Lisa says as she pull up next to you.

"They seem to have done the trick, though," yo say as your staff starts tapping all the timbers in the bridge, sending many tumbling down into the canyon, and then follows them down, disappearing for a few seconds before returning to you. When you grab it, it begins to pull you along the edge of the canyon.

After many minutes you come across a downed log spanning the two precipices, considerably sturdier looking than the bridge. Again your staff flies away and begins tapping on the wood. Giving what you can only call a satisfied shake, it returns to you and stops glowing.

"Good staff," you tell it, then begin to blush after realizing what you just did.

The log is treacherous, but you and Lisa both make it across intact. Once on the other side, however, the roots that had held the log in place for so long give out shortly after you step off, sending your only means back into the inky blackness below.

"Welp, looks like its nothing but forward from here," Lisa says with a grimace.

You groan as you look ahead. Suddenly realize there is more to testing your magic abilities than what you will face in the Keep -- reaching the keep is a test in itself.

Before you lie three roads, each clearly labeled with a sign leading into the trees. What do you do?

---Take "The Path Of The Scholar"
---Take "The Path Of The Wanderer"
---Take "The Path Of The Innovator"

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NOTES: Apologies for it being so late in the day, and a day late. I slept pretty much from the time I got off work to the time I went to work again yesterday, and I had check cashing/shopping/etc. to do today as well. Enjoy!

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Pickles: A TG Choose Your Own Adventure

By Melanie E.

Page 19

"You take the Path of the Innovator..."

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"What the hell," you say to yourself as you start down the Path of the Innovator.

The path through the trees is largely clear, the grass growing in the trail and an occasional downed limb the only signs of the path's long disuse. After some minutes, you come upon a clearing. In the center sits a large dragon, its scales the color of melted butter with long, beautiful orange wings wrapped about itself. It appears to be sleeping, its snores occasionally sending small dust devils capering across the ground.

"Let's go around it. Quietly," Lisa says, dismounting and stepping around the edge of the clearing.

"It won't be quietly enough," the dragon says, opening one large eyelid to reveal the glowing golden orb beneath. You watch in awe as the dragon unfolds itself, seeming to grow larger before your eyes as it stretches up and out. "Who do you be?" it asks, in a matronly voice that reverberates off the trees around you.

Lisa steps forward, between you and the dragon. "I am Lisa, a knight of the kingdom, and this is my charge. Who are you?"

The dragon snorts, nearly blowing you out of your saddle, but Lisa stands firm. "I am the great dragon Aribeth, guardian of the Keep of Knowledge. Are you the one who has chosen the Path of the Innovator? Or was it this 'charge' you speak of?"

Knowing what to do, you climb awkwardly down from your horse and step around Lisa to face the dragon yourself. "I am the one who takes the path."

Aribeth gives you what you can only describe as a reptilian smile. "Ah, so it speaks after all. Welcome, then, to the first challenge of the Innovator." She settles back on her haunches and looks at you eagerly. "Tell me a joke."

You shrug. "Two guys walk into a bar..."

"No no no!" Aribeth says, whipping her tail through the air over your heads. "I've already heard that one."

"But I didn't even get to the actual joke!"

"Well, I've heard them all. And I won't let you pass until you have told me a joke I have never heard before."

Lisa gives you an exasperated look. "Do we really have to do this?"

"I think so," you say, as you look down the path you came in on and watch the trees crowd inward, obliterating the trail.

What do you do?

---Alright, this time things are going to work a little bit differently. I want everyone to post the most original joke they can think of. Tomorrow, I will sort through the responses and choose the one I think is best, and that will be your answer to the dragon's challenge!

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By Melanie E.

Page 20

"You tell Aribeth a joke..."

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You think. And think. What type of joke should you tell the dragon? A lot of jokes from your own home might not work, since they don't have the same technology here. What do dragons find funny? There's only one way to tell.

"Lisa?"

"Yes?" She asks, turning to you.

"Knock knock."

Both Lisa and Aribeth roll their eyes. "Who's there," they ask in unison.

"Pie."

"Pie who?" Lisa asks, now curious.

"Pie you!" You say as you manifest a cream pie and go to push it into her face. Unfortunately for you, her knightly training kicks in and you soon find yourself flat on your back and blinded by surprisingly tasty lemon cream.

"Oops," you hear Lisa say.

There is no other sound for a few tense seconds. Then, you hear a reptilian snort, followed by a chuckle. Soon, the entire ground is shaking as Aribeth rolls about laughing.

The cream is surprisingly easy to clean off, leaving no trace, and you and Lisa watch as Aribeth continues to laugh uncontrollably. Eventually she calms down, and looks at you with a new respect.

"That was quite entertaining. I shall let you pass. Do stop by again if you make it out of the keep, my dears."

She steps aside, revealing another path through the trees behind her. Not long after, you finally reach the keep.

The tall, weathered stone walls before you seem to whisper in hushed tones to one another of the secrets within. A gigantic set of double doors made of fossilized wood sit before you, with a horrendous carving of a gargoyle to one side and a manticore on the other.

"Who goes there?" asks the gargoyle as you approach.

"Yes, who disturbs us?" the manticore asks as well. Both turn to stare at you as you approach.

What do you do?

---Make up a name. (If you choose this option, pick a name for the character as well. The one most recommended I'll use.)
---Skip your name, but tell them your goal to defeat the evil Mage.
---Ignore them and try the door.
---Look around for another way in.

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NOTES: Sorry this is a few days late. I know, I know, I suck. I've been busy, alright? :P I'm probably going to try and give you players a few more customizable options from here on out since, this being an ONLINE interactive story, I don't exactly have to worry about predicting what you choose, now do I? I think it's going to be fun.

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By Melanie E.

Page 21

"You tell the creatures of your goal to defeat the evil mage..."

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"Who I am doesn't matter. I'm here so that I can defeat the evil mage and go home."

"Go home? Ah, so you are a traveler of the planes then," the gargoyle says, looking at your belt with a stony expression. "And a changeling to boot."

The manticore glances at him askance. "Don't be so igneous, of course she's a changeling. She would have to be if she is the one chosen to defeat him."

The gargoyle nods. "But of course. You may pass, and enter the keep." The two creatures step to each side, allowing you free access to the iron doors behind them.

"But be warned," the manticore says, nudging you as you pass. "The keep is a dangeous place. Training here is no small matter."

You nod, and enter the doors.

Once inside, your eyes quickly adjust to the muted glow of the magical torches around you. The bluish light reveals three exits: a stairwell leading down, into what you assume is either a dungeon or a cellar; a stairwell up, leading to the second floor of the keep; and a brass door leading into a room with a label near the door reading "stores."

What do you do?

---Go upstairs.
---Go downstairs.
---Check out the store room.

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Page 22

"You enter the store room..."

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Deciding that it might be wise to make sure you are well prepared for whatever might happen ahead, you cautiously enter the store room. Inside you find a small, semi-circular room filled with crates and chests, each clearly labeled and illuminated by a glowing orb of magic light dangling from the ceiling. Many of the boxes have been pried open already and are devoid of contents, but the few that are still sealed all seem in good repair. Checking over yourself, you are dismayed to realize you have very little room in your pack for additional items, and decide that, combined with the fact that the evil wizard is probably committing more evil deeds even as you train to defeat him, you only have time to look through three of the available boxes before moving on.

What do you do?

Pick three:

--Open the box marked "magic potions"
--Open the box marked "Powerful but possibly cursed potions"
--Open the box marked "small furry woodland creatures"
--Open the box marked "miscellaneous armor and clothing"
--Open the box marked "Half-charged magic wands"
--Open the box marked "talking skulls and other familiars"
--Open the box marked "Rare spellcasting components"
--Open the box marked "weaponry for minions"
--Open the box marked "Magic reversal charms"
--Open the box marked "Holy artifacts and books"
--Open the box marked "Gold, lots and lots of gold"
--Open the box marked "Transgrandular Conflubulators"

Then, pick one:
--Take the stairs down (entrance)
--Take the stairs up (entrance)

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NOTES: As I've said before, I'm gonna take advantage of the fact that I'm not reliant on the limitations of a book format to give you choices you wouldn't have in a normal CYOA. If this is too much, though, let me know, and we can limit back down.

Sorry I've been taking a day off between chapters, I've been trying to give the story time to garner more possible votes for choices. Unfortunately, it hasn't really been working, so I'll just say -- if you read this, comment with choices!! This is one story where EVERY COMMENT potentially changes the entire direction for the story. The hits tell me that at least twice as many people read the story as comment on it, so there should be at least half again as many comments as it gets. Come on, people, it's an interactive adventure! Be interactive!

Melanie E.

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Page 23

"You search the boxes in the storehouse..."

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After as much deliberation as you feel you can spare, you start out by opening the box of magic potions. Most of the slots within are empty, filled with nothing but shards of broken vials, or their contents have long since evaporated. However, a single, gleaming potion remains in perfect condition, conveniently smack dab in the middle of the box. Its label has long since faded away, but the ruby liquid within glows softly as you lift the vial from its straw bedding and carefully secure it in a pocket of your pack.

"Be careful with strange potions," Lisa says from behind you before returning to her own examination of boxes. It seems she is still somewhat upset over the whole pie ordeal.

Next, you decide to open the box of spell components. As with the potions, most of the contents is either missing or battered beyond the point of usability, but inside you find a handful of crushed flowers, a flask filled with a pungent salt, and three large, serrated teeth. You take them with you, assuming that as you continue to read through your spellbook you can find what they are used for.

Finally, you open the box of reversal charms, figuring something like that MUST be useful. Only two remain. Thinking, you take one of the gaudy amulets and drape it around your own neck, then pick the other one up and take it to Lisa.

"Hey."

"What?"

"Here," you say, offering her the amulet. She looks at it for a moment, then smiles and takes it.

"Thank you. Oh, yeah, take this," she says, handing you a dagger with an ivory handle. "It might come in handy."

"Alright." You secure the dagger in the band of your girdle, then head for the door. Once back in the entrance to the keep, you weigh your options before heading for the stairs upward, Lisa in tow.

At the top, you find yourself standing at the beginning of a long corridor. At the far end is another set of stairs leading up, while on each side of the hallway lie four doors, two to your left and two to your right. All of them bear labels again, leading you to wonder whether the owner of the keep had been obsessive compulsive, or just an idiot.

What do you do?

---Enter the door marked "The Room Of Borderline Incomprehensibleness"
---Enter the door marked "The Room Of Obscenities"
---Enter the door marked "The Room Of Excessive Body Odors"
---Enter the door marked "Magical Library -- abandon all hope ye who enter here"
---Take the stairs up.

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"You go up the stairs..."

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It is hard for you to fight the urge to open the doors as you pass, but feeling there must be something better ahead, you continue past the doors and up the stairs at the far end, Lisa following behind.

"Something doesn't feel right about this place," she says, as you pass a skeleton leaning against one wall with a rusty sword clutched tightly in his hand.

"No, it doesn't."

You reach the top of the stairs to find yourself in a small room with another hallway leading out from the far end. You begin to make your way toward the hallway, when a crash from your left causes you to jump. Lisa is crouched down, a wicked-looking sword drawn, and staring at a pile of books and shelving in the corner where once a shelf had stood.

What do you do?

---Cast a spell to destroy the pile just in case.
---Investigate the sound.
---Ignore it and continue down the hallway.

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"You accept the ride..."

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Without a lot of choices available to you, you nod and take her hand after collecting the traitorous lantern. She lifts you easily into the cart beside her, leaving you wondering if you have underwent more changes than just your gender. As your proximity to the apples increases, so does your hunger, and your stomach growls again beneath the folds of your robe and the constraints of the girdle.

Your ride gives you an odd look for a moment, then begins to laugh. "Hungry, friend?"

"A little," you agree, your stomach chiming in again to put the lie to your words.

"Have an apple or two. I'm on my way to the castle with the delivery, but I doubt they will miss them."

Gratefully you dig into the nearest bag, and pull out two of the most beautiful mottled apples you have ever seen. Biting into the first, the flavor is the perfect blend of tart and sweet, and you greedily devour both as quickly as possible, leaving your stomach satisfied.

"So, what brings you out to this neck of the woods? You don't see many ladies dressed as fine as yerself skulking around in the shadows waiting to surprise unsuspecting apple carts." She smiles at you again.

What do you do?

--Tell your tale
--Claim to have amnesia
--Lie your face off

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NOTES: Nothing to see here, move along, move along...

Princess for Hire

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Princess for Hire

by Melanie Ezell

Princess For Hire Part 1

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Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

Part 1: The Princess Arrives

-1-

"What am I doing here?" I wondered as I looked out the bus window and watched the trees fly by on the other side of the glass. Just beyond them I could see the brick wall that separated the grounds of Kingston Private Academy from the local farm lands. On the other side of that wall was where I would spend the next four years of my life, if all went well, and I desperately hoped that it would.

All my life, I had been told that I would never amount to anything, by my stepfather, my cousins, even my grandparents. "That bastard father of yours," they would say when they talked about my dad, "he never went anywhere, and you're just like him." I always worked my hardest to make them happy; I had straight A's in school, I never fought, and I always did my best to get along with everybody at home -- but it never seemed to matter. Getting the scholarship to Kingston Academy had been a godsend -- it meant that I wouldn't have to spend my high school years suffering the same abuse that I'd had to deal with in junior high and elementary.

The only downside? Kingston Academy is an all boys private school. The teasing and mocking I had suffered for the last three months had been the worst, with my family going on about it being a "school for deviants" and how I'd fit right in, but I put up with it and held on. In reality, Kingston was one of the most prestigious schools in the state, known for turning out excellent and well liked politicians, business owners, and even a handful of famous scientists. But no, my family wouldn't hear any of that -- all they heard was about how there were no girls, and that was enough to convince them it was nothing more than "a training ground for fags," as my stepbrother had so eloquently put it.

That was all the reason I needed to make myself succeed at the school. No matter what, I was determined to do my best, and continue to be a top tier student. Of course, it was no longer up to me, since my scholarships required I hold a 3.5 GPA or lose them, but I could handle the stress if it meant never having to deal with those cretins again. Even so, knowing how much pressure I would be under couldn't stop me from staring in wonder as we approached the enormous wrought iron gates leading into the grounds. "Kingston Academy," I whispered, and in my heart I knew that things would never be the same.

The bus stopped, and my bags were unloaded by the driver along with those of three other boys, all of us wearing the same charcoal gray pants and blazer with the school's crest stitched into the lapel in purple and silver. I did my best to ignore the odd looks as the others grabbed their leather cases or expensive luggage and I hauled up my ratty old duffel bag filled with the few clothes and books I owned. I was glad they had laundry facilities on campus, as well, because the uniform I had on was the only one I owned, and I knew that until I found some work I wouldn't be able to afford more.

"Hi," I heard from my right side. When I turned, a tall boy with a broad, toothy grin and messy brown hair held his hand out to me. "I'm Andrew."

"Nice to meet you, I'm Dan Hen... Beck. My friends call me Beck." We shook hands, and Andrew introduced me to his friend Bobby. Before we could start a conversation, however, a sharp whistle from the gates caught our attention.

Walking towards us was a tall, sharp featured man with a pair of bifocals perched on his straight nose. One look at him and the word "teacher" immediately popped into my head, followed shortly by "snob" as I watched his face contort into a sneer when he saw my duffel bag. He gave each of the others a cursory glance as well, and I guess deciding that they were good enough, favored them with a hard smile.

"Welcome to Kingston Academy. I'm Professor Swift, and you're late."

"The bus was held up, you know how it is," Bobby returned, with a smirk of his own for the jerk in front of us. Andrew simply stood with his arms crossed, refusing to be intimidated. I smiled; if most of the students here were like Andrew and Bobby, I felt I could really like the Academy.

The smile on Professor Swift's face faltered for a moment, but quickly hardened again. He gave Bobby a cold stare, and said through gritted teeth, "Quite. Luckily for you, however, we are expected to be lenient with students on orientation day, especially freshman who are quite possibly... ignorant... of the rules." He paused for a moment, as though he were finished, but then turned to the fourth member of our bus party, a sort of gangly boy with his hair slicked back and too short sleeves on his jacket. "Mr. Davis, I had not expected to see YOU back this year. I was under the impression that you wished to leave our school."

"N-n-no sir, not at all," the boy stammered, obviously afraid of the teacher. "I had some problems, b-but I'm going to try and do b-better this year, sir."

"I'm sure Mr. Hart will be happy to see you've returned."

The boy yelped and dropped his bag, making me wonder who this "Mr. Hart" could be.

"Come along, then. No use being any later." Professor Swift swiveled around on his heels and started down the drive of the school, obviously expecting us to follow him. We all grabbed our bags, and did our best to keep up.

Soon after we began the walk up the drive, I watched as Andrew approached the Davis boy and began talking to him quietly. After a few surprised glances, the boy nodded, and shook hands with Andrew, finally cracking a small smile. Andrew then slowed down, and soon was in step beside me.

"Don't worry about Swifty. My brother goes to school here too, and he told me over the summer all about who you need to watch out for. And, you know what? He said Professor Swift was the worst of the bunch."

I nodded, but had to ask, "is that what you were talking to, uh, Davis about too?"

"Who? Oh, Stew! Kind of, I told him to look up my brother and say I sent him."

"Wow. What, is your brother part of student council or something?"

His eyes twinkled with humor, and he smirked as he said, "among other things. You'll see soon enough." With that, he sped up again, rushing to catch up to Bobby, who was the closest to Professor Swift.

"You three are lucky."

I jumped at the voice, never realizing that Davis, Stew, had moved back to speak to me. "Well," I argued, once my heart had stopped racing, "Bobby and Andrew are. I feel like I'm on my way to Hogwarts; this is all so surreal for me. Besides, I'll probably end up being a geek here, just like I was at my old school."

Stew let out a "hah!" of laughter. "Really, now, pretty boy? Get real."

"Hey! Just what do you mean by that?" I asked angrily.

He gave me an appraising eye, then frowned slightly. "You'll find out soon enough."

I was really starting to hate that phrase.

I walked the rest of the way in silence, contemplating. My looks had long been a bit of a sore point for me. When I had been about seven, my step-brother had accidentally broken my jaw with a baseball bat. It had been an honest to goodness accident - and as far as I knew the only time any of my family other than my mom had been upset to see me hurt - but the result had been that after the doctors rebuilt my jaw and the bit of nose that had been damaged as well, I had been left with a bit too narrow chin and a slightly upturned nose. When I had been little it hadn't been that bad, and a lot of the guys in my elementary school had thought it was a cool story. However, junior high had meant a different school, and a lot of different students. Nobody cared for the reasons, all they knew was I was a boy with a heart shaped, girlish face.

Because of my family and how they treated me, I had always used reading as a way to escape my problems when at home. When I started facing a lot of the same teasing and name calling at school, I simply started doing it there as well. I had straight A's, and perfect attendance, despite being an outcast, but the one thing I only rarely had was a friend to talk to.

"Hey, we're here." Stew nudged me, breaking my train of thought and pulling me back to the present. Before us stood an enormous brick building facing a large circular drive lined with trees. There were columns in front, and rows and rows of tall windows. I recognized it from the pamphlet as Montgomery Hall, the center of the Kingston Academy campus. It was even more impressive in person, with its square towers and large fountain, and Stew had to poke me again to keep me moving. "Trust me, it looks more impressive than it is," he said, as though he were reading my thoughts. The expression on his face was grim. "Well, back to the trenches."

I followed him to the foot of the steps, more nervous than I had been previously. Why had he been so down on the place? Was it really that bad? Andrew seemed excited, and so did Billy... so who should I believe? How would it be for me?

Professor Swift stopped suddenly at the top of the steps leading to the double doors at the front of the building, and spun to face us. "Gentlemen," he began, "for the next four years this school will be your new home. You will eat here, sleep here, and study here. For better or worse, you are now representing this school. Should I hear that any of you have been involved in behavior not befitting a student of Kingston Academy, I will see to it that you are expelled immediately. Do I make myself clear? Good. Follow me." With those encouraging words, the doors behind him swung open, and we took our first real steps into our new lives as students at Kingston Academy.

I wanted to take my time walking down the halls, to check out the building and learn my own way around, but Professor Swift lived up to his name as he led us down one corridor after another, not pausing once to explain where we were. As I jogged along behind him I would occasionally catch sight of another student through a window or at a locker, but we were in such a rush I never had a chance to speak to any of my future classmates.

The Professor finally stopped walking outside of a classroom that, to my eyes, appeared identical to all the others that we had passed. "Wait here," he told us before disappearing through the door, to return a moment later with two other students in tow. "Mr. Davis, since you are already familiar with our trio of newcomers, you will be helping out with showing them around campus. You will be responsible for... you," he said, pointing towards Andrew, "while Mr. McNalley will show this other gentleman around, and... you." He looked at me pointedly.

"Yes?" I asked nervously. His leer caused a shiver to run up my back.

"You will be escorted by Cartwright. I will speak to the headmaster and let him know you have arrived. What are your names?" As soon as he had our names, he turned his back to us and headed down the hall, leaving us with our two new companions.

"Nice to meet you, I'm Charles," the stocky, tanned boy said as he held his hand out to Bobby.

"And I'm Leslie," the short red-haired girl said as she did the same to me.

Wait... girl?

-2-

I looked around myself in confusion. Andrew was talking animatedly to Stew, who seemed to be trying unsuccessfully to hold on to his bad mood in the face of the optimistic and charismatic youth. Bobby and McNalley were already heading down the hall, with McNalley pointing out the different classrooms and other services. Nobody else had even seemed to notice that Cartwright was a girl except me.

"Umm, hello?" She waved her hand in front of me. "Earth to Daniel, you in there?"

"Huh? Oh, yeah." I nodded.

"Come on, I'll show you around. I guess here's as good as anywhere to start. By the way, why weren't you here for the morning assembly?"

We chatted as we walked along, with her interrupting the conversation now and again to explain what a particular room was, or how to get to another building, or who the teachers were. I kept wanting to ask her why a girl was attending an all boys school, but somehow I just couldn't work up the courage.

Finally, after almost a half an hour of wandering about the campus, I couldn't hold it in any more. "Uh, excuse me?"

"Yes?" She asked me, smiling. She had been doing that a lot.

"This school... isn't it for boys only?"

She nodded. "That's right."

"But... oh-kay. Um, then why are you going here?"

She gave me a look up and down, similar to the ones I had already received from Stew and Professor Swift, before giving me another one of her smiles. "You'll find out soon enough."

I swore under my breath, fighting the urge to smack the next person who told me that.

As we wandered the halls, I was constantly surprised by the other students' reactions to both Cartwright, who told me to call her Leslie, and myself. Everybody seemed to give her a great deal of respect, and worked hard to behave gentlemanly in her presence. Oddly, I found myself receiving many of the same courtesies, and it bothered me. What was going on? Why was there a girl in an all boys school? When could I put down my bag?

I knew that at the very least I could get an answer to the last question. "Do you think we can check out the dorms now? I'd like to drop off my clothes and everything, if that's okay."

She passed a confused look over me for only a second before her eyes rested on my duffel bag. "Oh! Yes, sorry about that. Right this way."

On our way across campus to the dormitories, I couldn't help but to yet again wonder at the beauty and size of the grounds of the school. Sports fields, gardens, greenhouses, it all felt more like a small town than a school. They even had an on campus store just under half way between the class buildings and the dormitories that sold items like toothpaste, brushes, and razors.

It didn't take us long to reach the nearest dorm building. "This is Denver Hall. All freshmen and some sophomores stay here. This is where you're probably staying as well. Follow me and I'll introduce you to your adviser." She led me through the doors, and directly to an office on the other side of the room.

"Good afternoon, welcome to Denver Hall," chimed the boy behind the counter happily when he saw us approach. I watched his facial expression carefully, and sure enough after checking out Leslie he gave me a quick once-over as well before grinning broadly. "How can I help you ladies today?"

I was ready to give him a piece of my mind when Leslie's hand on my arm stopped me. "That wasn't very nice, Fred. Be easy on Daniel for me, 'kay?" I watched the boy blush and nod. "Thank you. Do you have a room assignment for Daniel Henderson?"

He nodded again, then spent a few moments typing on the keyboard in front of him. "Yeah, he's in a double on the third floor. You want the key?"

Leslie looked at me and frowned. "Uh, I don't think so. Are you sure that room's right? I'm sure you can find something nicer for him, can't you?" She gave him some kind of gesture with her hands, and I watched his eyes grow wider.

"Oh, yeah, I can do that. Let's see... it looks like the only one available right now is the one connected to your room, ma'am. I'm not sure the headmaster will let me move him there."

She nodded, and smiled again. "Go ahead and do it, I'm sure he won't mind."

I boggled when I heard that. I was being upgraded to a single room? Connected to a girl's room? What was going on here? I took a step away from Leslie, growing more wary of her by the second. Who was she, if she could pull something like this, anyhow? Surely the students weren't given this much leeway in changing things at the school, yet she had talked me into a significant upgrade. Something was going on here, I was sure of it -- but how could I find out what?

"Come on," she nodded towards a door to the left of the lobby once she had the key, "this way."

I followed her down the hallway and up a set of stairs, my mind overflowing with questions the entire time. "I don't know if I should be on the same floor as a girl, or girls, or... what the hell's going on here?" I stopped in the middle of the hallway and refused to go another step. When she finally noticed that I was no longer following her, she turned around and, seeing me standing there, sighed.

"Don't worry about it. You didn't want that room on the third floor anyhow, they're tiny and on top of that they smell like sweaty gym socks. Not only that, but this way you've got a room to yourself, so long as you don't mind sharing a bathroom with me." She grinned again. "Or were you hoping they had you rooming with some cute guy?"

"Hey! I never said I was... grrh. Just show me the room."

Her grin faltered when she saw how upset I really was, and she gave me a pat on the shoulder. "Hey, I was just teasing. If you're that worried about it you're going to have a meeting with the headmaster later today, I can pretty much guarantee it. It's... a little after noon now. Just drop your bag off in the room, you don't even have to unpack yet, but don't worry so much until you've talked to him." She paused. "Nobody's told you anything about this school, have they?"

I shook my head. "I looked up as much as I could online, but there wasn't anything about it being coed. Not that it bothers me, but things have just been so weird since I got here..."

Her face took on a pitying look as she shook her head. "You'll know what's going on after you talk to him. It's too bad you missed the assembly this morning, really, it probably would have saved you a lot of worry. I'm sorry, Daniel, but really, things will be fine."

"Beck," I said, holding out my hand to her.

"What?"

"Call me Beck, all my friends do."

She laughed, and shook my hand. "You'll have to explain that to me later, but it suits you."

"I will," I agreed, grinning.

"Good," she nodded. "Then follow me."

Even given my already more than interesting experiences with the rest of the school, the dorm room I was shown to was quite a surprise. I had expected bare white walls, maybe an old beat up bed and a chest of drawers. Instead, the walls were a pleasant enough cream color, and the furnishings were fairly new, made of bare pine. "The bathroom door is on the wall to your right, and on the left is the closet." She pointed to the double doors on the left hand wall. "There's actually two closets. Usually you would have one and your roommate would use the other, but since you've got a single room both closets are yours, which can come in handy."

I just laughed. "Somehow I doubt I'll need all that much room for my clothes," I replied, hefting the duffel bag I held in my hand. "I think you can count all the clothes I brought with me on your fingers and still have a few left over."

"Well, you'd be surprised how fast that can change," she told me.

"Not on my budget."

She just shrugged, then crossed to the closet nearest the door to the room, opening it and taking down a set of sheets. "Linens are in the top of the left hand closet, and the school insists that all students use the dorm bedding and towels, unless you get specific permission to use your own. Your laundry bin should be right by the door, and our floor gets to do laundry every Thursday, I'll show you where the washing room is later. Room inspection is every other Friday, to make sure we're keeping our rooms clean. Let's see... oh, yeah. You can talk to our resident adviser if you'd like to rent a mini fridge or something, or if you have like insulin or anything you can get one for free. Is there anything else?" I just shook my head, wondering how she could say so much without taking a breath. "Great! If you've got any questions, either knock on my front door or on the connecting door between our rooms on the other side of the bathroom. Oh! There's also a cabinet in there for any toiletries you have. I think that's everything for now, anything else we can cover later."

I dropped my bag on the bed next to the pile of sheets and turned to give the room a quick once over before popping my knuckles. "Alright, I can live with this. So, what's next?"

Her eyes shifted to the left as she thought. "Next, we visit your afternoon classes. You got your schedule, right?"

"Yeah, right here."

"Good, then let's go!"

-3-

As we made the trip back from the dorms to the main building where classes were held, Leslie continued to explain as much about the school as she could. I learned everything I could want to know about where on the grounds were off limits, who the best teachers were, and what kind of foods the cafeteria offered on a regular basis. She also told me what students she knew I should watch out for, and the safest places to meet up with friends after classes, as well as many other things that I had no chance of remembering. In the end, I took to simply nodding along as she talked, until at last we stood before a classroom that after only a few seconds I remembered was supposed to be my Algebra class.

"You ready?" Leslie asked me, and with a last gulp I nodded my head yes.

The room was silent when we entered, but the moment that Leslie and I stepped in a murmur began to pass among the students. The teacher, who had been napping quietly, jerked awake with a loud snort and gave us a bleary-eyed stare. "Ah, can I help you?" He asked, while trying to force back a yawn.

"Thank you, Professor. I'd like to introduce you and your class to Daniel Henderson. He was one of the students on the bus of late arrivals. I've been escorting him around campus, giving him the tour, and your class is supposed to be his last one for the day."

"Ah, yes." He gave me a closer look, and I watched as his face broke into a broad grin. "Oh, splendid! I had thought that I'd missed the opportunity to have one of our special students in my class this year but--"

"AHEM," Leslie coughed from beside me, interrupting the Professor's comment. He gave her a curious look, but at her glare his eyes widened and he nodded.

"Ah, I apologize. Here, let's see... Henderson... yes, you're to be in the second row back, fourth column from the right. Please take your seat. Since today is the first day of classes all that we have done is to hand out textbooks, but starting tomorrow I will expect you to be ready to learn the moment you step through that door. Have I made myself clear?" The Professor gave me a stern look, but I could see the laugh lines around his eyes, and as I had always enjoyed math before I was sure I would like his class as well.

"Yes, Professor," I nodded. Then I turned to Leslie. "Thank you for showing me around today."

"You're welcome." She smiled. "I'll see you later, okay?" She told the Professor goodbye, and waved at the class as she left. I noticed that while several of the members of the class were entranced by her, most of the rest seemed to have grins like they were in on some joke, and a couple had given her creepy looking scowls. Perhaps they didn't approve of the school accepting girls now?

I found my seat, and was pleasantly surprised to see Bobby from the bus ride sitting in the seat beside me. "How'd your tour of the place go?" I asked him once I was seated.

"It went great. I saw most of my classrooms and the dorms; it should be pretty easy to find my way around tomorrow. What about you?"

"Pretty much the same thing," I agreed, "it shouldn't be hard. It's taking me a while to get used to the stares, though." I nodded towards the other boys in the room, several of whom had turned in their seats to watch me from the moment I had entered.

Bobby laughed. "Well, I'm just a new kid, but you're...."

"What," I asked sharply, shooting daggers at Bobby, but all he did was laugh again.

"You're something else. I think you'll find out soon enough."

I wanted to scream out loud, "WHY DOES EVERYBODY KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON BUT ME," but I held myself in check. Instead, I turned away from Bobby, planning to ignore him the rest of class.

Which, for me, turned out to be about ten minutes.

The intercom buzzed, and a raspy voice came over the speaker. "Could the freshman Daniel Henderson please report to the Headmaster's office, Daniel Henderson to the Headmaster's office. Thank you."

"Ah, it would be best not to keep the Headmaster waiting, Mr. Henderson. Mr. Wray, since you two seem to know each other already would you please escort him there?"

"Yes, sir," Bobby stood up and grabbed his things. When he noticed I hadn't moved, he gave me a smile. "Come on, it'll be fine. It's only the first day, you can't have done anything wrong already."

I desperately hoped he was right. I had been warned that I would probably be called in to have things "explained," but I still had no idea what the big deal was. The Professor shook my hand and wished me good luck, and soon after we found ourselves outside of the Headmaster's offices. I was too nervous to even knock on the door, and was on the verge of simply turning around and leaving again when the door swung open on its own before me.

"Finally, there you are!" Leslie said as she smiled at me. "I've been waiting on you, come on." She turned around and walked past the secretary's desk and through a door just across from us, gesturing for me to follow her. I gave Bobby a worried look, but he just shook his head.

"I'll wait out here."

"You can return to class," the secretary, a squat and chubby man with a bad comb-over said from behind the desk. "They will be in this meeting for quite a while, and your escort will not be needed again."

Bobby just shrugged, and offered me his hand. I gave it a quick shake, and after a hurried "good luck," he left the office, shutting the door behind him. With nowhere else to go, I turned around and headed into the inner office to finally meet the Headmaster.

The first thing that struck me as odd about the office was the walls. I had thought that the headmaster's office would be filled with diplomas and copies of famous paintings, to try and give it a professional and scholarly feel. Instead, the walls were covered in sketches and prints of characters from many different anime and manga, most of which I couldn't name. The black and white comic-like drawings seemed to cover almost every inch of free wall space that wasn't covered by bookshelves, and a closer inspection of the shelves revealed several dozen volumes of manga crammed in along with the books on education and the textbooks the school used.

The second thing that struck me as odd was the man behind the large desk in the middle of the room. He couldn't have been older than his early thirties, but his black hair was just starting to show the barest hints of gray. He had on a tie with a print of another anime character on it, and a pair of coke bottle glasses perched on his straight nose. And he was wearing one of the most pleasant smiles I had ever seen. I had expected to be up against some hard-nosed former bully, or blustering old ex professor; instead, it was more like I was about to talk to a mentor.

"Good afternoon, Mr. Henderson, it's very good to see you. Welcome to Kingston Academy."

I realized I recognized his voice from the many calls I had made to the school when applying for their scholarship program. I had been talking to the headmaster that entire time? "Thank you, sir. I'm happy to be here. But... why was I called to your office?"

"Please, call me Mr. Uchiha, everybody does." He gave me another one of his easy smiles, and I felt myself relax. "You're not in any trouble, I promise. Actually, I've got a bit of a favor to ask you -- no, it's really more of a job offer."

"A job offer?"

"You could call it that," he said, his eyes twinkling. "Tell me, have you ever heard of a comic called "Princess Princess?""

"No, sir." I shook my head, then dared an educated guess. "I don't really follow manga or anime or anything like that."

"Really?" He looked a bit let down, but quickly recovered. "Well, as you can see, I'm a bit of what's called an "otaku" myself, or manga fanatic if you will. I'm half Japanese, you see, and when I was young my father... well, I'll save the stories for some other time." He stopped talking, and looked deep in thought. Finally, he resumed, again smiling. "Alright then, here's how I'll start. What do you know about our school?"

I sat up straighter and thought back over what I had learned about Kingston Academy. "Founded in 1889 by Frederick Kingston. Umm, something like four hundred students, grades ninth and up. The second rated private school in the state. It used to be a boy's only school, but Leslie said she goes here too now." I gave her a look, but all she did was grin and wink at me.

Mr. Uchiha seemed impressed. "Not bad. However, you forgot one of our school's most outstanding features: a commitment to experimental education. It is our goal to make sure that all students who attend our Academy receive the best education they can, and in order to accomplish that we are constantly trying new and unorthodox methods of instruction. Tell me, Mr. Henderson, what would you say if I told you that Ms. Cartwright's presence here does not affect our school's standing as an all male institution?"

I looked at Leslie, then back to the headmaster. "So, her being here is an experiment? Is she some kind of observer?"

He laughed, and leaned back in his desk chair. "Not at all. She's just a normal student, like every other boy who goes here. Aren't you, Leslie?"

"Yes, Mr. Uchiha."

The click as my brain turned over must have been audible, and I felt the blood drain from my face. "You mean... Leslie's a guy?!"

Both Leslie and Mr. Uchiha started to laugh softly. "That's exactly what we're saying, Mr. Henderson."

Leslie touched my shoulder. "I told you that us sharing a bathroom wouldn't be a problem."

Mr. Uchiha gave Leslie a calculating look. "Oh? So you have already moved Mr. Henderson into the "P" Wing of the dorms?"

Leslie blushed and lowered her... his?... head.

"What's going on here?" I asked, now more confused than ever. Was Leslie a transsexual? I had heard of them from my dad the last time I had been allowed to visit him. Or a cross dresser? Was this just some kind of joke they were playing on me since I was late showing up to school?

"Mrs. Cartwright is a part of an experiment I have been running for the last three years on our campus. The theory is that having a female presence in an all male school can possibly help to inspire a large portion of the students to work harder. The idea is to give them the opportunity to have someone representing the female of the species to try and impress while removing the distraction of actual romantic entanglement from the equation as much as possible. Despite how absurd it may sound, it has worked surprisingly well so far, with both our academics and athletics departments showing a marked improvement in their performance since instituting the experiment."

"But why didn't I see this mentioned anywhere in the paperwork?" I asked. "This is pretty important not to... wait a minute. What does this have to do with-- oh, no."

"I see you're as sharp as your test scores indicate," Mr. Uchiha crowed happily. "If you are willing, we would like to ask you to take part in the experiment as well."

I could feel my face burning as I blushed bright red.

"Now, it isn't compulsory," Mr. Uchiha continued hastily, "you don't have to if you do not feel you would be comfortable. However, in exchange for participation in the experiment, students who play the role of what we have dubbed our 'campus princesses' do receive a salary comparative to any other on campus job, as well as all materials required for their position for free, including school uniforms."

I felt Leslie squeeze my shoulder again. "I know I don't know you that well," she said, giving me a friendly grin, "but I think you could do it. All you have to do is wear a uniform with a skirt once in a while and attend a few events for the school."

"Hold on, let me think." I collapsed in a leather chair on one wall and put my head in my hands. I already had so many questions, and more kept coming up. Should I do it? I needed to know more before I made a decision, but I had surprised myself by not objecting to the idea outright. Call it my dad's good influence.

"Why wasn't there anything about this on your website? Or anywhere else I looked?" I asked, puzzled.

Mr. Uchiha steepled his fingers. "We work hard to keep some of our more unorthodox experiments out of the public eye. We're not doing anything illegal, but the public opinion of some of our experiments would be less than wonderful. If you were to agree to do it, I could explain more, but your parents do have to agree to it as well."

I snorted. If my stepfather were to hear about this, he would freak out, then tell me how much he knew I was a "delinquent" and a "miscreant" even before I attended the school. Thank the maker that my mom had let my dad take over custody rights for me after the whole fiasco with that bastard's family -- I could never consider them my family. "What about the responsibilities? And the uniform?"

The headmaster grinned, I think taking comfort in my openness to the idea of the experiment. "You would need to attend at least one class a week wearing a girl's uniform like the one that Ms. Cartwright is wearing today." He gestured to Leslie, who gave me a dramatic spin and posed. "When you wear the girl's uniform, you will be referred to using female pronouns and generally treated as a young lady. Whether in or out of the uniform, however, you will be required to attend all school sponsored sporting events as a 'team supporter,' as well as participate in both the drama club and several other campus events. Unlike most of the members of the groups that usually participate in these events, however, you will receive compensation for your time spent as a 'campus princess.'"

The job sounded interesting and fairly easy. My interest was becoming more piqued by the second. "And what is the pay for this job?"

"Each day you wear the girl's uniform is considered as though you had worked a normal shift at a campus job for that day, plus the cost of both your male and female uniforms as well as anything else that is needed for you to keep up with your duties as a 'princess.'"

I thought about it. For an on campus job, that wasn't too bad. Heck, who am I kidding, that was amazing! "Is that it?" I asked.

Mr. Uchiha thought for a moment, then shrugged. "Pretty much, though I should warn you that no matter what uniform you wear, the rest of the students have a tendency to treat those who work as 'campus princesses' differently from the other students. Even if you don't take the job, with your appearance I'm afraid you might still be grouped in with the princesses for most events."

I sighed. Again with my looks! Anyhow... "I'll do it."

I heard a whispered "yes!" from Leslie, and even the headmaster seemed very pleased with my answer. "Very good," he said, writing quickly on a stack of papers on his desk. "In that case, take these papers by the academic adviser's office after you leave my office, and she will provide you with the official paperwork and everything else you'll need. Oh, and I want you to take this as well..."

Soon, I found myself being led by Leslie down one hall after another on our way to the adviser's office, the paperwork clutched in one hand and the first two volumes of "Princess Princess" held tightly in the other.

(End of Part 1)

End Note: I have the first nine chapters (three parts) of this story finished, and the rest pretty much completely planned already. However, I've been in a bit of a slump lately as far as writing goes, and seeing Lillith Langtree's recent comment about posting unfinished work, I had to agree. I've been working to finish things before posting them, but it just isn't working out as well for me. I like to have the feedback! So, here's Part 1 of a new story. If you comment, more will come. IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME!

Princess For Hire Part 2

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Manga or Anime Style
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Girls' School / School Girl

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

Part 2: The Birth of a Princess

-4-

Back in my room, I took a look at myself in the mirror as I contemplated what I had just volunteered to do. It wouldn't be all that hard, would it? Wear a skirt once in a while, maybe do some cheering at the sports games -- would they want me to wear a cheerleader uniform? I shivered at the thought, but steeled myself. I had volunteered for this after all, and even though Mr. Uchiha had told me I could quit at any time if it became too much, I was determined not to fail.

Of course, I knew it wouldn't be that easy. If I wanted to do this right, there would be a lot more to it than just wearing a skirt and prancing around the campus. But then again, I knew I had a secret weapon as well.

Students weren't allowed to have their own phones in their rooms, and as of yet I hadn't been assigned a laptop, so my only options were the phones in the lobby of the dorms. I crossed my fingers before leaving my room, hoping nobody would hear what I had to say.

Luckily, there was no one at the phones, and I was free to talk without disturbance or distraction. I dialed the number, and after only two or three rings I heard the click of the receiver being picked up.

"Henderson speaking, can I help you?"

"Hi, dad."

"Danny! Calling so soon? Do I need to come get you?"

"No, dad," I laughed. "Things are fine. I just wanted to ask you some advice."

"Sure thing, what's up?"

"Well..." I hesitated. "I need some advice on being a girl."

"What?!" This time it was his turn to laugh, and I felt myself blush again as he cackled. "I appreciate that you want to follow in my footsteps, but really, school isn't-"

"Dad! It's not that! It's just..." I sighed, and began to explain the entire story to him. Occasionally he would "hmm" or chuckle softly, but not once did he stop me until the end. "And that's why I need your help, since you're, you know."

"A drag queen," he finished for me, with a sigh of his own. "Danny, I wish I could help you, but I don't think it'd do you much good."

"Why not?"

"Because what you're asking me is nothing like what I do."

"It isn't?"

"No, not at all. You're wanting to know how to pass as a girl, and all I would be able to tell you is how to play act as one."

"What's the difference?" I asked, confused.

My dad laughed again. "The difference is that I don't try to be a woman when I dress up. I'm a man, and even when I'm dressed as a woman I look like a man. That doesn't bother me, because that's what I want. I dress up in exaggerated makeup and flashy clothes as a parody of the over the top femininity of glamor models and actresses, then I perform on stage. It's all camp, and it's all in fun, but nobody expects me to actually pass as a woman." He paused for a moment, and I felt myself slump as I realized my dad, who even after he came out as gay and divorced my mom had always been my hero, might not be able to help me.

"Alright dad, sorry to bother you."

"That's okay, Dan, call me any time. I dunno about this school you're at, though; that's a pretty odd thing to ask students to do. But, if you wanna do it, I'll agree to let you. I'll tell you what, I'll check around with the other girls and see if any of them can help you, okay? Some of them can pass quite well, and might have a few tips."

"Yeah, thanks. Bye, dad."

"Bye, Danny."

I hung up the phone and headed back upstairs, much less sure of myself than I had been before. I don't know what I had thought my dad could do for me, it's not like he could give me some kind of mystic advice that would make things perfect from the word "go," but I had been sure that he would have something that would have helped me.

Back in my room, I flopped on my bed and closed my eyes as I thought. The more I thought about it, the more what my dad said made sense. He could tell me a lot about how to be a drag queen, but neither he nor many of the "girls" he worked with really tried to pass as women. It reminded me of the conversation we'd had the last time I had been up to see him.

"Dad, why do you dress up in girl's clothes?"

"Well, I guess because I enjoy it. It's a lot of fun to get on the stage and sing along to the music, and have everyone in the crowd cheering me on."

"Do you want... to be a girl, dad?"

"Heheh, no, Danny, I'm perfectly happy being a guy. I'm a drag queen, not a transsexual."

"What's a transsexual?"

"That's someone who isn't happy with the body they were born with, and wants to be the opposite sex."

"So there ARE guys who wish they were girls?"

"Uh huh, and the other way around too. You see a few of them at the club; when you're old enough I'll take you there and you can ask some people questions, just promise me you'll be polite, and not bring it up if they don't want to."

"Okay, dad."

That had been a little over three years ago, and since then I had only seen my dad in photos and talked to him on the phone. Even after the custody transfer, I had stayed with my mom until school started because it was cheaper to get to the Academy from there than if I were to travel the two states over to stay with my dad for that time.

So, my dad couldn't help me, but he said that he would see if he knew someone who could. It wasn't great, but it was about the best I could hope for.

I was interrupted in my thoughts by a knock at the door. "Who is it?" I called as I sat up, wiping my eyes.

"It's Leslie, can I come in?"

"The door's open."

The door creaked as she pushed it open and peeked around the frame, grinning. "You okay?"

I nodded. "Yeah, come on in."

She pushed the door the rest of the way in and walked in, looking for a place to sit among my things that I had strewn about the room. "Nice job on the unpacking," she commented. "I didn't know that your desk chair could double as a dresser."

"Oh, ha ha, real funny," I scowled, "I was in the middle of unpacking but I had to take care of something first."

"Oh." She lowered her head and scratched her neck, embarrassed. "Sorry." She gave me a worried look. "Listen, I just wanted to make sure you're really okay with everything that happened earlier. I mean, I kinda ran you into it a bit fast, and-"

I held my hand up to silence her. "I'm fine, really. Don't worry so much."

"Really?" She asked quietly.

"Really really," I agreed, quoting one of my favorite movies.

She looked up and smiled, obviously nervous. "Good. Then... I've got one more favor to ask you."

"Yes, I'll wear the skirt tomorrow. Might as well get it over with."

"No! I mean, that's a good idea, but that's not what I was going to say. I...." She scratched her neck again and pulled down her skirt, fiddling with the hem. "I was wondering if you would... that is, if you would let me... uh-"

I coughed. "Hey, ah, I appreciate it, but I'm not really-"

"Be your big sister?"

"I'm not ready for -- wait, what?"

"Can I be your big sister? All it means is I'm kind of your mentor in the Princess program and stuff. If you say no that's okay."

"Oh. Oh! Yeah! Thanks! That would be great."

Her face brightened as she looked up and smiled. "Awesome! We can start right after dinner." A bell rang at that moment, startling both of us. "Well, speak of the devil! Come on, the cafeteria's great."

With a flounce that was unlike anything I had seen her do so far, she turned around and left my room, pausing just outside the door. "Well, aren't you coming?" She asked impatiently.

"Yeah," I mumbled, and followed her out, locking the door behind me.

-5-

She had most definitely not been lying when she had told me that the food in the cafeteria was great. As a special welcoming meal they had prepared steaks with baked potatoes and a salad bar, and even with so many of us in there at once there was plenty of room and food to go around. We grabbed our trays, and I was about to go searching for a table when Leslie nudged me with her elbow.

"The princesses have our own table over there. Since you're officially one of us now you should join me. Come on!"

It wasn't hard to find the princess table, being the only table with girls in the entire room, but what surprised me was how many girls there were. Girls? Well, Mr. Uchiha had said that the princesses were supposed to be called girls when dressed as such. There were six girls at the table, all laughing and talking to one another, but as Leslie and I approached the table went silent as everyone turned to watch us.

"Everybody, this is our newest Princess, Becky Henderson," Leslie said as she waved her free hand towards me.

Wait a minute! "Becky?"

"Uh, yeah, we all have girl's names we use when we're dressed, and we've already got another Danielle, so since you told me to call you Beck I just figured... is it okay?" She bit her lip as she shrunk away from me.

I gave a sigh of resignation. "I guess. Yeah, it's okay." The tension drained from her face. I turned to the rest of the table and waved nervously. "Hi. I'm Beck... err, Becky."

"Is that short for Rebecca?" One of the girls, dark haired with Asian features, asked with a titter that passed around the table after her..

I shrugged. "Sure, why not."

Another girl, tall and blonde, stood and took the group's attention. "Let's all give a warm welcome to our newest member, girls." She led the others in a short round of applause, leaving me blushing I'm sure a very bright red. She gave me a brilliant smile. "I'm Julie. So, you're the one my brother was telling me about earlier. He said that he thought you'd end up being one of us."

"Brother?"

She nodded. "I'm Andrew's big brother. Well, sister for now, but in our group being someone's big sister has a bit of a different meaning."

"That's what Leslie was telling me earlier," I said, taking a cleared seat between the Asian girl and a girl with short brown hair pulled back by a headband. "She said it's something like a mentor?"

"You could say that," she agreed. "Big sisters help their little sisters to learn everything they need to know to do their best in the Princess program, everything from makeup on up. I'm guessing she already asked if she could be your big sister?" I nodded. "Good. Leslie was one of the first Princesses the school had, so she should be able to teach you a lot of useful things. Since you're the first freshman to be chosen as a Princess this year, we'll all try and help out too until we get our own little sisters."

I looked around the table. "So there's gonna be like six more of us?"

Julie laughed. "Nope! They decided when they started this whole thing that there would be no more than five princesses in each grade. Actually, the first year they only let there be five princesses all together, and they only let freshmen join -- that's why Leslie was one of the first." She gestured towards Leslie, who shrugged and grinned. "So was Sarah, but she's a bit of a special case." This time she waved her hand towards the Asian girl next to me, who began to blush. "The other three from their year have quit."

"I wasn't asked, I volunteered," she told me, I guess seeing the curiosity in my face. "I always wanted to be a girl, so... uh, yeah."

"Oh," I stammered, a little surprised. "Do all of you want to be girls? Er, real girls? You know what I mean."

Both Julie and Leslie began to laugh, but Leslie recovered first. "Nah. Don't get me wrong, it's a lot of fun doing all the dressing up and stuff, but I like being a guy."

"Me, too," Julie said. "It's just a job for me, though it is one I enjoy. But, at the end of the day most of us are more than happy to change into our normal clothes, with one or two exceptions."

"I just wasn't sure," I said. "You all seem so girly, no offense."

"It took a while to learn," Leslie explained, "but it really is all a part of the job. Now I actually have to watch myself sometimes when I'm in my normal clothes to make sure I'm not using my Princess mannerisms." She sounded less than happy about it.

"But enough talking," Julie interrupted with a clap, "there's plenty of time for that after lunch."

The rest of the table heartily agreed, and most conversation ceased as we ate our meals. In addition to Leslie, Julie, and Sarah, I also met Danielle (the brown haired girl with the headband,) Kylie (another blonde with short shaggy hair and a longish nose) and Amanda, a very tall African American who talked as little as possible, mostly because she had a very deep bass voice that contrasted harshly with her appearance. I couldn't remember the other girl's name, but I was sure I would learn it eventually.

I listened throughout the meal as the girls around me talked. I still don't know exactly what I had been expecting, but it was interesting to hear the conversations around me. There was the normal talk of games and classes, and in addition there were the discussions on clothes and makeup. After a while, I began to tell by listening to the conversations exactly who around me were really into the girl thing and who saw it more as a job. Those who enjoyed it shared constant tips with me on how to dress or act, and their enjoyment of being a girl was evident in their voices, while the ones who were just doing it for the money stared on with bored looks, only chipping in when asked a direct question before going back to their own discussions. Leslie seemed to lie somewhere in the middle, really enjoying some elements of the girl lessons I was receiving while looking bored during others.

The hour the school had set aside for dinner was gone in a flash for me, and before I knew what was going on Leslie had grabbed my arm and began to drag me towards the exit, barely taking the time to drop off our trays and dishes on the way out.

"Come on," she said, "we need to get as much time training you in tonight as we can so you'll be ready for classes tomorrow."

"You mean I'll be starting so soon?" I asked, surprised. In truth, I guess I had been expecting it, but I had hoped I would at least have an hour or two to prepare myself before being dumped right in the thick of it.

"Of course! All the Princesses dress up every day for the first week to help get the rest of the students used to us being here. Normally no new freshman Princesses would join us until after the first week was up and they had been given a chance to warm to the idea, but you're a special case."

"Yay for me."

She stopped and spun around, giving me a hard look. "Alright, that's enough. If you're gonna do this, do it, but if all you're gonna do is complain or mope about, then--"

"Okay! Sorry!" I backed off, raising my hands in defense. "I'm sorry, okay? Today's just been kind of stressful."

She nodded. "I gotcha. Now come on," she said with a grin, "let's make you beautiful!"

I couldn't help but whimper in reply.

-6-

"So, what do ya think?"

I looked at myself in the mirror, studying my face carefully.

"Well?"

"They never let the girls at my old school wear half this much makeup." I gave myself another glance, and cringed again. "I look like a hooker."

"Hmm," Leslie hummed to herself as she studied her work, turning my head from side to side. "Maybe you're right. I might have overdid it a bit. I'm just so used to doing my own face I just assumed you'd need the same kind of treatment."

This time I looked carefully at her face, trying to see what she was talking about. "You don't look like you're wearing this much makeup," I said jealously, wanting nothing more than to run to the bathroom and wash the heavy gunk off my face.

Leslie snorted. "That's because I know how to do my face right. Beard cover, blusher, foundation, everything I have I bought to improve the illusion, but I'm pretty sure it doesn't work right on your face because I don't have the right colors, and, uh..."

"What?"

She blushed. "Well, don't take this the wrong way, but I only know how to do makeup to make a guy look like a girl. I don't know how to do normal makeup, and you don't need as much as I do." She shrugged when she saw the outrage on my face. "I'm sorry, but it's the truth!"

"Bruise my ego a little more, why don't you," I sneered, glaring at her.

She seemed about ready to explode herself, when her eyes grew wide. "I know! Sarah might be able to help you out! She does this stuff all the time, I'm sure she would know what to do." She rushed out of the room, yelling "I'll be right back!" just as she slammed the door behind her, leaving me alone with my overly done up reflection.

It really wasn't that bad a job, to be honest -- it was simply too much for my face. Dark blue eyeshadow, with lots of rouge on my cheeks, and a ton of eyeliner added up to give me a very dramatic look, but not one that would ever be considered appropriate for school, and even with my almost complete lack of experience in makeup I could tell by the feel that it was caked on very thick over my entire face.

I was almost ready to give up and begin looking for something to begin the removal process when the door to my room opened and in walked Leslie again, followed closely by Sarah, who took one look at my face and began to laugh hysterically.

"I didn't think I did THAT badly," Leslie pouted as she crossed her arms, obviously upset by Sarah's reaction.

Sarah gave my face a closer examination, touching it here and there occasionally while making "tsk tsk" noises. "This is all wrong for her face. There's too much here, and it's the wrong colors too. Does she look like a Barbie doll to you?"

Leslie shrank back, shaking her head in the negative.

"Of course not." Finally, Sarah's frown began to ease, and with a look of determination she reached for Leslie's makeup case. "Let's see what I can do."

It was the better part of an hour later when Sarah gave a final flourish of her lip gloss brush and pronounced me done. I could tell by the satisfied look on her face and the expression of shock on Leslie's that I must have looked better, but nothing could have prepared me for when she spun me around to face the mirror.

"Wow," I heard myself whisper as I stared on in wonder at Sarah's work. Gone was the thick layer of goop and gunk and the overdone coloring, and in its place was, well, ME, only better. Well, better if I were a girl, anyhow. I reached up and felt my face, amazed.

"Now THAT is how makeup's supposed to be done," Sarah said proudly as she packed the various brushes and pots away. "You can thank me later; I'm going to bed, and I suggest you two do too. It's a big day tomorrow!"

"We will, as soon as Becky gets cleaned up," Leslie said, shaking Sarah's hand. "Thanks."

"No problem. She should be able to do it herself tomorrow, but as soon as she gets her town pass she needs to get her own makeup. I can give her some of my extras for now, but it really isn't good to use other people's makeup."

"Town pass?" I asked, but Sarah was already out the door. "Town pass?" I repeated, this time directing the question at Leslie, who had a bit of a far away look in her eyes.

"Hmm? Oh, all the students can schedule a pass into town once a month to pick up anything they need that isn't available at the on campus store. One of the perks of being a Princess is that you get priority when it comes to trips into town over most of the other students, except for seniors and those with medical needs."

"That makes sense," I said, pondering her answer as I admired my face some more in the mirror. "You know, this Princess thing seems to be awful expensive for the school to do. How did Mr. Uchiha convince them to let him do it?"

Leslie sat on the edge of my bed and thought for a moment before answering. "Well, if I remember right then the sports teams have all done a lot better ever since the Princess program started, and from what I hear all the guys on the teams say it's because having pretty girls cheer for them motivates them to win. And even though the school is boys only, it's been a tradition of the school for as long as anybody can remember to try and promote equality and acceptance, and I think they are using this as a way to do that as well. After all, you definitely can't judge someone for something like being a woman trapped in a man's body when your alma mater is an all boys school where part of the campus is in skirts," she laughed as she picked at the hem of said garment. "Not only that, but the headmaster already told you about how big he is into anime and all that stuff. From the way I've heard it, it was either this or he was going to ask them to build a martial arts dojo on campus and hire senseis to train us in a few different arts, and the school council decided that so long as it was a student's choice this would require less permits and less liability. Of course, since his father owns the school grounds that made it a lot easier for him to get his way."

"I would imagine," I said, grinning as I wiped the last of the grime from my face. Even without it, though, there was something different about my appearance. The slightest touch of mascara had remained, and that was more than enough to shift my looks from the boy I had always seen myself as to "Becky," the school princess, and I found myself confused, scared, and a little excited all at the same time. "Still, it's a lot of money to throw into something so, so...."

"Stupid? Weird? Abnormal?"

"Experimental," I said, with a shrug.

"Maybe," she said, thoughtful, "but if they wanna give me money for doing it I'll take it over scrubbing toilets or trimming the hedges any day of the week."

"Amen to that!" I agreed heartily.

"Well, I'm going to bed. I'll come by in the morning to help you with things, alright?"

"Sure thing. Good night," I said, offering Leslie my hand for a shake.

"Good night," she said, grinning, "and have fun being a princess!"

Despite my nervousness, I was sure I would.

(end of part 2)

END NOTE: I know that in my blog entry I said I'd post this on Mondays and other stuff most likely on Thursdays, but a fit of sanity made me realize that I am always far too busy on Mondays to post ANYTHING, little lone a chapter of a story every week! So, I figured y'all would prefer a day early over a day late. However, be forewarned, the next part WILL NOT be out until next Sunday.

Again, if you comment, more will come. IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME.

Princess For Hire Part 3

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • School or College Life
  • Manga or Anime Style

TG Elements: 

  • Girls' School / School Girl

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  • Posted by author(s)

Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

Part 3: A Princess's First Day

-7-

"Hurry up or we'll be late for class!"

"Grr, I'm coming!" I barked as I shut my door behind me. I silently cursed Leslie as I followed her down the hall and toward the stairwell, tugging down the skirt of my new uniform every few steps in a vain attempt to make it just a couple of inches longer.

Of course, I knew I couldn't actually blame her for anything. She hadn't made me agree to be a campus Princess, but she was the closest and most convenient target to vent my anger toward. And since I didn't have a girl's uniform of my own yet, she had been "gracious" enough to lend me one of her spares.

The skirt had looked a lot longer when she had been wearing it.

"Stop pulling at it, you'll mess it up!"

"Well, sorry for being used to having my butt covered!"

"Geez, it's not THAT short! You've just got longer legs than I do, so it seems shorter on you, that's all. It covers you up as much as it did me."

"Yeah, well, that's YOU."

"Just get over yourself and hurry it up."

Despite her constant harping on me to be faster, we made it to class with plenty of time to spare. I would have been in a better mood if she hadn't made me skip breakfast to practice sitting and walking in the skirt -- as it was, I knew that for the rest of the morning I'd have to deal with a growling stomach.

In addition to that, I found it hard to deal with the stares from my classmates. I had thought it was bad the day before, but now that I was officially a Princess things were even worse. Many of them seemed to be merely curious, and I received a number of compliments on how well I passed from my classmates in the hallways, but some of them...

I wasn't sure which to be more worried about, the looks of disgust or the ones that looked like they wanted to ask me out. I wasn't sure I was ready to deal with either one for the moment.

Leslie left me at the door to my first class and left for her own, muttering to herself about how late she was going to be. I considered apologizing to her, but in light of the torment she had already put me through I reasoned that she could deal.

What can I say, I get mean when I'm rushed and hungry.

Apprehension washed over me as I reached for the door to my home room. I took a couple of deep breaths to calm myself. Whew. Okay. Nothing to worry about. I pushed the door open and walked in.

"Good morning. Miss Rebecca Henderson, I take it?"

It was already official? How did that happen? "Uh, yeah," I nodded, scratching the back of my head where it itched from Leslie's work on my hair earlier. I was still ticked off at her over the pigtails. "That's me, I guess."

The teacher, a Mr. Johnson if I remembered right, smiled at me, then checked the list in his hand. "You'll be here in front, miss."

I thanked him and took my seat, very aware of the stares from the rest of my classmates. It was uncomfortable, but I made it through the class without any trouble.

My next three classes went much the same, with only one exception. I'd had no idea that Andrew was going to be in my third period Economics class, and I doubt I would have noticed him, so wrapped up was I in my own situation and self awareness, if it hadn't been for an accident. Like with my prior two classes, the teacher greeted me and gave me my seat, but when I went to sit down I must have stepped badly or something, because I felt my ankle twist to the side and I began to fall. I braced myself for the impact, knowing it was coming, and that it would hurt like a -

"Oof!"

"Aah!"

"Watch it!"

I hadn't realized my eyes were squeezed shut until I opened them and looked down to see Andrew lying on the floor beneath me. With a start I pushed myself up from where I had landed on him and into a sitting position.

"Uhm..."

"Hi," he said with a grin, looking up at me. "I'd planned on catching you today, but I hadn't thought it'd be quite like this."

"Uh, yeah, sorry."

"It's alright." He gave me a quick once over. "You can get up any time, though."

I looked down, and suppressed a gasp when I noticed that I had landed straddling his legs. I shot up as quickly as I could, feeling the blush climb to my cheeks. "Oh god, I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to--"

"Hey! Hey. It's fine." Using the desks to either side, he lifted himself upright and began to brush the dust off his pants. "There's worse ways to start my first full day of classes than rescuing a damsel in distress." The rest of the class laughed at his comment, embarrassing me even more.

I felt myself blush again as I adopted one of Leslie's mannerisms and began to play with the hem of my skirt. "I'm not really... I haven't... oh, crap."

"You look nice."

"Thanks." What else could I say?

Without another word we took our seats, and it was only then that I noticed that his was right behind mine. I wondered to myself as the teacher droned on about something or other, how would I ever live this down? My first day of classes, really, and already I was a klutz and a Princess both. I hoped things would calm down soon, otherwise I doubted I'd make it through the next four years.

It wasn't until after class that we spoke again. I had hoped I could escape without him noticing, but of course that couldn't happen, could it? The bell had barely finished ringing when I felt his hand on my shoulder.

"Beck?"

I looked up to see him standing next to my seat. I sighed. "I think it's been decided that I'm 'Becky' when I'm dressed like this." I gestured towards my clothes. "Um, thank you for catching me."

"No problem," he laughed, touching my shoulder. "Jules said it was kind of hard to get used to the uniform at first, I doubt anyone will give you problems over it."

"Jules, you mean Julie? She said she was your sister."

"Yeah, Julian's my older brother. Er, sister. Sorry, at home he's a he, and it'll take me some time to get used to him being a she. You know what I mean."

He grinned again, and I couldn't help but smile back. "Yeah, I know. She was a little confused over it yesterday, too."

"Good thing it's not just me, then. To tell the truth, I'm not surprised they picked you already. With how pretty you are, I figured they would be asking you before anyone else."

I wasn't sure what to say. Looking into Andrew's face, I could see his amusement at my situation, but I could see something else as well. Nah, it couldn't be. "Well, I'm still not sure if I'll stick it out, but it sounded like an easy way to make money while I'm going to school, and it doesn't cut into my homework time a lot either."

"Let's see you say that when it comes time for some of the school events. Or Parents Day. Jules said that being a Princess means you're obligated to help with those."

"Yeah, but that's later." I glanced at the clock on the wall behind him nervously, watching the minute hand tick over. "Hey, I really need to get to my next class. Can I talk to you some more later?"

"Sure thing," he agreed, backing away so I could get out of my desk. "Need an escort?"

"Nah, I should be fine." I busied myself gathering my things, not wanting to look at him. "I'll see you later, 'kay?"

"Yeah, catch ya later."

I waved to him as I walked out the door, and hurried to my fourth period class. The same greeting, almost the same seating arrangement, but this time I had more on my mind than just how the rest of the students were reacting to me. This time, I was worried about Andrew in particular.

-8-

"I wouldn't worry about it too much," Julie said as she munched on her sandwich. "Andrew's a nice guy, and I'm not just saying that 'cause he's my brother. I am a bit surprised though. Are you sure?"

"Well, no," I mumbled, staring at the remains of my own lunch and contemplating another sandwich, and whether it was bad etiquette for a Princess to have seconds while not really caring. "It was just a feeling I had, ya know?"

"I do," I heard Sarah say from my left, where she was idly picking at a small salad. "Like Jules said, though, it shouldn't be a problem if he's a nice guy. Uh, I know it's kinda rude to ask, especially since we don't know each other that well, but... do you like guys or girls?"

"Uh, I dunno, really..." I shrugged. Okay, it might be a little weird, but it was the truth. Maybe it was my dad's influence, or maybe it was because I always tried my hardest to distance myself as much as possible from the views of my stepfather and his family, but I had refused to let myself ignore the possibility of being gay, or to be disturbed by it. With all the problems I had at home, though, I had made a constant effort NOT to think in terms of like or dislike towards either guys or girls. Not that I couldn't appreciate a beautiful girl, I most definitely could, but I could do the same for a very handsome or well built man. So which did I prefer? Or did I like both? "I haven't really made up my mind yet," I answered her.

"Oh." She looked surprised. "Huh. Well, the nice thing about Kingston is that it doesn't really matter. There are the jerks who are all anti-gay and stuff, just like any school, but because the school tries to promote tolerance bullying gets cracked down on fast."

"That's what Leslie was telling me."

Sarah nodded. "You're going to have to deal with them some time or other, just because you're a Princess. They assume that all the Princesses are gay guys, despite evidence to the contrary."

I gave her a confused look, and she just smiled and nodded towards Danielle on my other side.

"I've got a girlfriend back home who came up with my folks on Parents' Day last year." Danielle grinned. "She was a bit shocked when she saw how I was dressed, but I think the rest of my class was more surprised when they met her because most of them thought I was gay despite me telling them about her already."

"And she's okay with," I waved my hands up and down her body, "this?"

"Yeah," Danielle agreed, "she was a bit weirded out at first, but, well, let's just say that we had some fun over the summer with her parents being none the wiser."

The whole table broke up into laughter and chatter after that, and for the longest time everybody else ignored me, which I was more than happy for, but before long their attention returned to my own problems.

"Back to you, little sister," Jules said, pointing at me. "So how did it make you feel when you thought he liked you?"

"A little uncomfortable, to be honest. I'm used to people picking on me because of how I look, not complimenting me because of it."

"So you didn't like it?" Sarah asked.

"I wouldn't say THAT." I shook my head. "It was just, unexpected. And weird. I don't know how to handle someone being into me, if he even IS, or was I just seeing something?"

Almost the whole table shrugged at that.

"Well, whatever happens, if he bothers you just let me know, I'll take care of it," Julie said, cracking her knuckles in a menacing way. For a moment, she really did look more like a boy in girl's clothes than anything else.

"Or me." Sarah patted my shoulder sisterly. "I can give you lessons on how to talk to boys later if you want. Since I've been living as a girl ever since I was first allowed into the Princess program I have more experience than the rest of the girls do in that kind of thing. Whether you like them or not, it's good to be able to handle them."

"She's right about that," Leslie said with a knowing look. "I might not be into guys, but sometimes knowing how to talk to them comes in handy. Sarah's a pretty good teacher, too," she said, giving Sarah a big smile. I was surprised to see Sarah blush.

"Well, I'm alright."

Leslie looked as though she was ready to tell Sarah just how great she really was when the lunch bell rang, startling us all out of our conversation. Danielle was the first one up, and with a quick "Catch you later," she rushed for the tray deposit and out of the cafeteria, followed shortly by the rest of us.

As I made my way to my first class after lunch, I was glad for the support of the rest of the Princesses, and felt happy to know that they all had experience with the problems I was facing. It struck me how hard it must have been for Leslie, Sarah, and the other Princesses their first year, without people to lead and help them, and I shuddered at the thought.

In comparison to something like that, the deal with Andrew -- if there was anything to begin with -- seemed like only a mild annoyance.

My opinion on that issue changed shortly after I entered my first class of the afternoon. All faces turned to me, leaving me feeling uncomfortable as I walked towards an empty seat. By the time the bell rang, I was beginning to feel like some kind of freak, and had to break the tension.

"What is it already?!"

Most of the boys nearest to me jumped, and every face in the class seemed hesitant to answer, but eventually one boy to my left gained the courage to whisper, "is it true?"

"What?"

"That it's your first day as a Princess and you're already dating Miss Stone's brother?"

I couldn't have been more stunned. "Who said that?"

"Well," another boy joined in, his nerves bolstered by his partner's speaking, "it's going around earlier today you were sitting in his lap and uhm..."

"I fell! He caught me!"

"Oh. Uh... so that means you're still single then?"

"Buh, I, uh... what I mean is... dammit, where's the teacher?"

"Right behind you, and amazed at what a foul mouth our newest 'princess' seems to have, MISS Henderson," a crisp, annoyed voice I would recognize anywhere said.

As though to remove any doubt that might have been left, the rest of the class spoke in unison. "Good afternoon, Mr. Swift."

-9-

I was two hours late getting back to the dorms after classes, thanks to detention with Professor Swift, only to find Leslie waiting for me outside my door and tapping her foot impatiently.

"Where have you been?"

"In detention," I grumbled as I reached past her and opened my door. "With Professor Swift."

"You got detention on your second day? That's gotta be a new record, especially for a Princess."

"Yeah, well I seem to be good at setting new records, don't I?" I asked her with venom in my voice.

"Hey! Don't take it out on me just because you got in trouble." She glared at me as I flopped backwards onto my bed. "And don't do that in my skirt -- you'll wrinkle it."

"Oh horror of horrors!" I replied with as much sarcasm as I could muster, but reached underneath myself to straighten her skirt before any serious damage was done. The skirt had caused me enough problems already; the last thing I needed was for Leslie to get mad at me over it, too. "Can I wear pants tomorrow?"

"Nope, sorry but can't do. You're a Princess now, and like we told you yesterday, all Princesses are expected to dress up the entire first week of class to get the rest of the students used to us being around."

"Girls wear pants too, I'm sure I've seen it once or twice."

"Yeah, well, we're not actually girls, technically speaking, are we? Sarah might be able to get by with it, but not the rest of us."

"But that's not fair!"

"That's what you're getting paid for, though," she said, standing over me and grinning. "By the way, nice panties."

For a brief moment I felt myself begin to blush, and reached down to cover myself, but my frustration was enough to override my natural embarrassment. "You should know, you're the one who picked 'em out."

"True. Well, I'll leave you alone to calm down for a bit. Dinner's in about an hour, I'll come over and help you fix your face before we head down."

I grunted in acknowledgment, and listened as she left through the bathroom linking our rooms. I knew I had been a lot more rude to her than I should have been -- she was just trying to help, after all -- but all I had been wanting since the day began was a little time to myself, and I had been in no mood for company especially after detention.

I rubbed my sore hand as I remembered Professor Swift's punishment. I will not swear in class. I will respect my teachers. I will never dishonor my school. That was what he had made me write, over and over, for what must have been an hour and a half, and then he had made me recite it to him. He had also told me that if he caught me swearing again, that the next time I would have detention for a whole week. The punishment seemed excessive to me -- it was my first offense! -- but I wasn't about to complain. They could have made me sit and write a book on how I'd never curse again for all I cared, anything was better than having to return to my stepfather.

At least I had managed to avoid Andrew for the rest of the afternoon. He had been in my last class, and I was sure he had wanted to talk to me, but I made sure to sit on the other side of the room from him, and left before he could corner me. I just wasn't ready to deal with him yet. Did he just want to be friends, or was he interested in more? Did that make him weird if he was, or did it make me weird? As though going to classes dressed as a girl wasn't enough indication I wasn't exactly normal, I thought to myself. I'd have to deal with it eventually, I knew, but for the moment I chose to file it away.

It hadn't been my intention to fall asleep, but I must have been more tired than I realized, because the next thing I remembered was Leslie shaking my shoulder gently to wake me.

"Hey, come on, it's almost time for dinner. We have just long enough to fix your makeup before we need to go."

I stretched and yawned. "Can't I just clean it off and go down like normal?"

"Not unless you happen to have some casual girl's clothes just lying around somewhere, which I doubt, and even then you'd still need to wear a bit of makeup." She grimaced, as though she wasn't too happy with that rule either. "We're Princesses, and Princesses are supposed to be as girly-girl as they can be, so even if you had regular clothes they'd still have to be at least a little on the feminine side."

"So I can't even wear my guys' clothes to dinner?"

"Not until the end of the week."

"Dammit!"

"I agree," she said with a sigh. "I don't mind the whole Princess thing once in a while. Heck, I don't mind it a couple of times a week even. But I get tired of all the work after a couple of days, and just want to be myself for a while." She sat down on the side of my bed and stared at me for a moment, frowning. "At least you don't have to do as much work as I do to look like a girl."

I shook my head. "I doubt it's that hard for you to look like a girl. You fooled me."

She laughed at that. "This will be my third year doing this, of course I can fool you! But it takes a lot more work now than it used to. When I was your age I could just throw on the skirt and a little mascara and get away with it once in a while, but now I have to shave every morning, then spend at least half an hour on my makeup, then the wig..."

"Wig?"

She nodded, and lifted her hair at the back of her neck. Looking closely, I could just make out the edge where the wig began and her own hair peeked out slightly beneath.

"So you're not really a redhead."

"Nope, but the wig was cheap and it looked good enough on me. What I'm trying to say, though, is this: you think it's tough on you now? Just wait until you have to start waxing your chest, THEN tell me you've got it rough."

I couldn't help but wince in sympathy, and I saw Leslie start to smile. "Now get up so we can get this over with. I'm starving!"

It took us significantly less time to fix my makeup than it had to do it before classes that morning, and I managed to only stab myself in the eye with the eyeliner once. Dinner itself was filled with conversations about either my detention on the second day of school, or about whether it was true or not that I was dating Andrew. Jeez! You would think that it being an all boys' school would mean less of a gossip mill, but I guess I was mistaken.

And to top it all off, who should stop by our table at the end of the meal but the troublemaker himself.

"Hey, little brother!" Jules called, giving me the first indication that something was going on. My suspicions were confirmed when just a moment later a large body leaned down on the table between me and Sarah.

"Hey b- sis. I just wanted to let you know I joined the Protectors today."

"Oh, that's great! I kind of figured you would, though," Jules said, giving him a friendly pat on the shoulder. An evil gleam came to her eyes. "Becky was just telling us about how the two of you are most definitely not dating."

The slab of meat known as Andrew at least had the good grace to blush when he turned to face me. "Uh, yeah, about that... sorry. I didn't know that would happen. And I mean, I'm not into guys, so you don't have to worry. Not that you look like a guy, you're a really pretty girl, and you do look like the kind of girl I would ask out but--"

"STOP. Just stop," I said, before he could ramble himself into a deeper hole than he already had.

"Right." He scratched the back of his head, obviously embarrassed, then extended his other hand out to me. "So, can we still be friends?"

I thought about it for the moment, but nodded and shook his hand. "Sure," I agreed. He had been a good guy, after all, and I wanted him as a friend. And, who knew, maybe with time we could get past the whole awkwardness thing.

Another thought occurred to me, though, and so I turned to Jules and asked, "What are the Protectors?"

"Nobody's told you?"

I shook my head.

"The Protectors," she continued, in a haughty teacher's voice, "are a club of students on campus dedicated to watching out for us Princesses both on and off campus."

"But I thought that we were pretty much accepted here?" I asked her, confused.

"Well, yes and no," she said, rocking her hand back and forth. "A lot of the student body and faculty can see what the experiment we're a part of is going for, and support us, including most of the members of the honors classes and sports teams, since we're their cheer squad. Most of the rest of them don't really care one way or another, or don't dislike us enough to do anything about it other than ignore us. But then there's the group that really does hate us. The homophobes, fundies, people like that who made it past the school's tests somehow or other. There aren't many of them, but there are enough that we have to be careful sometimes."

I nodded, thinking back on the last day and some of the looks I had received. Most had been positive or indifferent, but a few of them had been downright scary.

"That's where the Protectors come in. They watch our backs, especially when we go to other schools with the sports teams and things like that. It's a little sexist, really -- even more so considering our actual status -- but there have been a few times over the last couple of years when their help has come in handy."

"That's kind of scary," I said, looking around the table at the serious looks on everyone's faces. "If things can get so bad that we need protection, then why don't they just cancel the program?"

"There are a few reasons," Sarah interjected before Jules could start talking again, "the biggest of which is that the headmaster doesn't want to cancel it."

"I think he just likes seeing us in the skirts, the perv," Danielle said in a stage whisper, and the entire table laughed.

"Another reason," Sarah continued, "is that the results of the experiment have been positive so far. Our sports teams have all gone undefeated the last two years, and we're hoping to keep that going this year. The school has always done well on testing, as well, but I've heard that the last two years even our averages on the standardized tests are higher."

"Okay, I'm not sure how that's connected with us..."

"Something about 'impressing the ladies,' I overheard one of the teachers talking about it one day. Regardless, the results have been good enough that they outweigh any problems the experiment has caused so far, and I've heard there's already talks of keeping the Princess program going after they finish the four year test run."

"Personally, I just think it's a cool idea," Andrew added in, "and since my brother... er, sister... is in the program too, I wanted to do whatever I could to help out. Since I'd look like an idiot in one of those school uniforms you guys wear, I joined the Protectors."

Jules reached over and mussed his hair, and he batted playfully at her hand before leaving our table. That pretty much ended dinner for all of us, so as a group we rose and took our trays to the return window and headed back to our dorms.

As I took off my makeup and changed into my pajamas -- the first male clothing I had worn all day -- I took the time to reflect on how my first day as an actual Princess had gone. It had been scary in places, and frustrating a lot of the time, but I was sure that with a little effort and time I could get used to it, and the money would definitely make it worth it.

And, though I hated to admit it, there had been times when it had been fun as well. Being a girl, or at least pretending to be one, was so much different from being a guy, and I was starting to appreciate all the work it must take them to look nice all the time with all the requirements society put on their appearance. I could see it was going to be hard work, but I had no doubt it was going to be a lot of fun as well.

With that thought in my head, I smiled at myself in the mirror and returned to my room. Tomorrow was another day, and I hoped to try getting ready without Leslie's help.

Princess For Hire Part 4

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  • Rasufelle

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  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

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  • Crossdressing

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  • Teenage or High School

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Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

Part 4: The Princess's Court

-10-

I made it through the rest of the first week in more or less one piece, and with only minor run-ins with Andrew to boot. He may have been a nice guy, but the last thing I needed right then was his stumbling over how to talk to me and consequently making me nervous too. Instead I had spent most of my first week working with Leslie and Sarah on my girl lessons, and being pestered by Julia for teasing her brother. As though I would do that on purpose.

Now it was Monday, and we had been excused from classes for the day so that we could take care of 'important Princess business,' which I was rapidly discovering was code speak for 'trying on dresses.' The school had decided that we should begin attending practices for some of the sports teams on a rotating basis to see how it would affect their performance at events, and the soccer team had naturally been selected as the first to try it out on. Since their practices began that afternoon, we only had a few hours for the tailor to prepare our outfits.

Cheerleader outfits. Of course. I was beginning to wonder why I had ever worried about how short Leslie's skirt had been when they were going to stick us in little more than belts for some of our other outfits, when Julia brought another question to the forefront.

"So, does anybody have any ideas for who to ask to be our freshman Princesses?"

The question caused me to jump, which also caused me to yelp when the tailor not-so-accidentally jabbed me with a pin in response. I had completely forgotten about selecting more Princesses!

"Well, I think we should ask that Harvey kid, what's his first name?"

"Wilson," I said.

"Yeah, him. He looks like he'd be able to pass fairly well, and judging from his reactions to the rest of us he at least isn't disturbed by us."

Julia nodded. "Okay, that's one. Any more?"

Amanda raised her hand, drawing a glare from her tailor that she ignored. "Bradley Tate."

"The tall kid with the pierced ears?" Julia asked, and Amanda nodded. "Why him."

"Because I've overheard him talking to a few other people, and I think he might be like Sarah."

We all looked over at Sarah, and she blushed.

"Why do you think that?" Julia pressed, egging Amanda on.

"I'm not sure exactly, I just do."

"Sarah?"

Sarah thought for a moment. "It can't hurt, but don't push him."

Julia grinned. "Who, me?"

I was sure Sarah was about to say something else when Danielle butted in. "That's three, we need at least one more to ask. What do you think, Becky?"

"Huh?"

"She asked who you thought would make a good Princess."

"Oh." I paused. "I don't know, I'd have to think about it for a little while. Can I get back to you on that?"

"It's not a huge rush," Leslie said. "We've got enough candidates for the moment, so take your time. Ow!"

"You boys should stop moving around and let us finish our work!" The seamstress in charge of overseeing our costumes said through a mouth full of pins. "It's hard enough getting the clothes to look right on your lanky frames, if you keep fidgeting we'll never get done!"

Our talks turned to the rest of our costumes for the rest of the session. In addition to the cheerleader outfits, which none of us seemed to be very pleased with I was happy to note, there were four other costumes already planned for events within the next two months.

Two outfits would be for the school's first drama performance, which would be at the end of September; we were doing West Side Story, with Sarah in the lead as Maria and the rest of us filling in as her entourage. The flamenco dresses were beautiful, but looked like they would be hell under the hot lights of the stage, while the more casual outfits for each of us seemed incredibly constricting, and I was most definitely not looking forward to learning to dance in the heels.

One of the other two costumes was a cocktail dress. Why would we need something like that? Apparently part of the Princess program for this year was to include etiquette lessons. While the lessons were to be taught to all the students, those of us in the Princess program would have a special role, as we received extra sessions on being ladylike so we could serve as practice partners for the other boys. Unfortunately, while they could get away with wearing their school uniforms for the lessons, we were expected to go the extra mile and dress up nicely.

And finally, the final costumes were for Halloween. I had thought that a private school would be more uptight about the students being in uniform for all classes, but it was apparently a tradition that the entire school would break dress code and don costumes for Halloween. Rather than letting the Princesses pick their own, though, ours were voted on by the student body...

And the student body had chosen the Salem Witches. I had been unlucky enough to draw Vampwitch, and I had been too busy staring dumbfounded at the result to notice who drew the other girls. I suppose it could have been worse -- from what the rest of the girls said, the year before they had dressed up as the Disney Princesses, and we had decided that the first three freshmen to agree to the program would be dressing as the Powerpuff Girls, since there weren't enough Witches to go around.

I really dreaded what they would have us wearing near Christmas.

It only took the tailors a couple of hours to prepare all five costumes for their first round of alterations, but I had been warned by the others not to expect the fittings to be over. I was more than thankful for the break we had, and as soon as I was able to change I escaped to the relative safety of my afternoon classes.

"Good to see you finally arrive, Ms. Daniels."

"Thank you, Professor Cooper."

Professor Cooper was probably my favorite teacher at the school so far, and I always enjoyed his class. Perhaps it was because he was the first of the professors I had met after 'Ol' Swifty,' but I think it was more because of how much he obviously enjoyed his work. The only downside was that Bobby, who I continued to sit next to, would always take every opportunity to tease me about Andrew, who I found out had ended up being his roommate. I considered Bobby a friend, but he could be quite aggravating in his persistent teasing.

I sat down, smoothing my skirt as best I could and cursing the need to keep my knees pressed together.

"I thought you were gonna wear the boys' uniform today?"

I glared at Bobby, who was grinning like a fool. "I was. But 'Princess duties are required to be carried out in appropriate dress,' so I didn't have a choice today." I sighed in exasperation. "Trust me, I'd much rather be wearing pants right now." Most of the rest of the Princesses agreed with me that the boys' uniform was much easier to deal with on a day to day basis, and I was definitely not the only one who got upset when we were told that we had to dress up again on the first day we were supposed to have free. At least we were allowed to attend some of the sports events as boys.

"Ahem."

"Sorry, Professor Cooper," we both said at once, turning back to class.

After Math was the period the school had reserved for the etiquette classes that all the students would be starting within the next few months.

"Keep your feet in line as you walk! No slouching!"

"Yes, ma'am." We Princesses chimed in unison, even as I heard the distinctive sound of another book thudding to the floor as it fell off some hapless girl's head.

As a normal boy, I would be having a study period right then, but because I had agreed to the Princess program I was instead learning how to properly handle the women's side of the different bits of social formality.

"No, no no! Move GRACEfully, like a ribbon adrift on the wind. Not like some bull elephant stomping around a trinket shop!"

"No, ma'am."

The plan was for us to learn the men's side through observing it rather than practicing it as we worked with the rest of the boys to teach them things like how to properly pull out a chair for a date and things like that. Personally, I was worried that we would be stuck with even more feminine mannerisms than the other Princesses already complained about, but I guess that was part of the tradeoff on the job.

"Remember, let the men do all the work. The lady is supposed to be there to be seen and admired. We don't want you parading around like hussies, giving our school a bad name!"

I was less than sure the old hag they had teaching us even knew we were actually boys, to boot.

"I shall make proper ladies of you boys yet!"

Then again, I could have been wrong.

And finally, after almost an hour of walking in heels balancing books on our heads, learning how to sit and stand and too many other silly little things to count, we came to drama, or, as I liked to call it, 'Insanity 101.' For the moment Professor Grumby had us doing acting exercises together to build teamwork and timing, which I found rather fun to be honest. Or I would, if it weren't for a late addition to the class who happened to be my practice partner.

"Hi, Becky."

"Andrew."

It almost made me wish for the old hag again.

Please, try not to misunderstand, I do like Andrew. He is a nice guy, and when we can be relaxed around each other he's a lot of fun to talk to. The problem is that ever since that first day of classes, things have grown more and more awkward between us, and I could not for the life of me figure out why. As a result I spent most of the day avoiding him, but where Drama class came in that was impossible.

Today's acting game had us all standing in a circle with one partner on the inside and the other on the outside. Those of us on the inside all had props, and as the Professor would blow his whistle we would pass the prop to the left to the next person in the line. Meanwhile, we had to act out a scene with our partner across from us, utilizing the prop in some way. The Professor blew his whistle, and I looked down at the prop in my hands. "So, uh..."

"That's some spoon." He said with a grin.

"... Yeah."

"What are you going to use it for?"

"Eating?"

"Oh. That's cool."

"Thanks."

Awkward silence.

"TWEEEEET."

I passed on the spoon, hoping for something better this time around.

"TWEEEEET."

Andrew scratched his head nervously.

"Are those your socks?"

"No, I'm just holding on to them for someone."

That's the way it always was during Drama between me and Andrew. What made it worse was that I knew he could be one of the more active members of our class whenever I was elsewhere, even if other Princesses were around, so it was obviously just me.

"What's so different now from the first day we met?"

"Huh?"

"Oh, sorry! I didn't mean to say that out loud."

"TWEEEEET."

-11-

Tuesday morning broke bright and early, and after stretching and yawning, I waited for my brain to reboot.

Tuesday.

No Princess duties.

I can wear the boys' uniform today.

I barely managed to keep myself from jumping up and down on my bed in happiness. After almost a whole week of wearing nothing but skirts, blouses, dresses, and other bits of feminine clothing, including over the weekend at Leslie's suggestion and Sarah's begging, I was incredibly excited to be wearing something of my own other than my pajamas. At Leslie's recommendation I had used one closet for my boy's clothing and one for my girl's, on the basis that it would be embarrassing to show up to school wearing most of a boy's uniform but with a blouse or girl's blazer. With a huge grin on my face I rushed to my closet and pulled out a uniform, this time from the boy's side of my clothes.

By the time I finished dressing, I was unsure whether I wanted to laugh, cry, or punch something. I had thought it would be easier dressing as a boy -- scratch that, dressing normally for classes. Instead, I found myself feeling very uncomfortable. All the time in the short skirts made the heavy slacks seem hot and confining. I was momentarily thrown when buttoning my shirt because the buttons were on the opposite side from what I had grown accustomed to. My shoes, which I had almost forgotten to wear in favor of the loafers sitting next to the door, were tight and uncomfortable compared to the girl's shoes I had by now already begun to break in.

And worst of all, I had barely caught myself before going through my morning makeup and hair routine.

After donning the school blazer, again with a disturbing feeling of discomfort in its fit, I turned to the mirror and scowled at my reflection. After spending so much time as Becky, it no longer mattered what I was wearing, I could still see her there. Perhaps it was the cleaner eyebrows that Sarah had suggested, or maybe it was the small traces of eyeliner and mascara that no matter how hard I scrubbed I could never seem to get to completely disappear, or the slight tinge to my lips left over from the lipstick and lip gloss that I found myself licking my lips and missing the taste of even as I hated myself for it. What was this job doing to me? I idly began to finger comb my hair, trying to get it to look nicer, before growling at myself and shaking my head vigorously. Boys were supposed to have messy hair.

There was a quick rapping at my door, followed by, "Hey! You ready?"

I was confused for a moment, as I did not recognize the voice, but shrugged and called, "coming!"

When I opened the door there stood a boy shorter than me by a couple of inches, his black hair kept neat in a military style crew cut and looking very uncomfortable in his clothes. He gave me a once over, smirked, and asked, "so, ready for breakfast?"

"Umm, do I know you?"

A shocked look crossed the boy's face for a second, then he began to laugh in a very familiar way. "You mean you don't recognize me?" He asked, in a much different and far more familiar voice.

I jumped in surprise. "Leslie?"

He nodded. "The one and only," he said, holding out his hand.

I shook it with a grin. "You look... different." I said, understating the truth of it. He had obviously decided not to shave this morning, and sported just the beginnings of a beard shadow on his cheeks and chin, with a single, small diamond stud in one ear instead of the hoops I had come to associate with my 'big sister.'

He gave me a slap on the back, knocking me forward almost a foot. "I told you it was a lot more work for me to pull off the Princess thing than it was when I started. Now do you believe me?"

We talked as we walked to breakfast that morning, exchanging stories about things that happened to us at our old schools and what was different about Kingston Academy so far, being careful to avoid any mention of the Princess program.

By the time we reached breakfast, I was in a daze. Was this really the same Leslie that I knew? 'Leslie' the boy's mannerisms and speech were so different than 'Leslie' the girl that I had to constantly remind myself it was the same person. Or was he really that different? Definitely more, well, aggressive is not the word. Boisterous? Perhaps. There were still traces of the girl, in the occasional feminine gesture or movement, but overall the change was... uncanny.

Any further contemplation of Leslie's differences was cut short when I reached our normal table only to find it populated by complete strangers save for Sarah, who looked almost as uncomfortable and out of place as I felt.

I was reintroduced to the people I had thought I knew. Jules, now Julian, was pretty much the same save his appearance, but the others looked and acted almost as drastically different as Leslie.

"So, are you happy to be back in more normal stuff?" Amos, formerly Amanda, asked me as I stood locked up, wanting to sit down and fighting the urge to smooth my skirt before doing so.

"Uh, yeah. It's definitely different after the last week."

He gave a barking laugh then nodded. "Yeah, that's why the school decided on choosing freshman Princesses after the first week was already over, so they had time to get used to being guys around school before doing the whole Princess thing. It was supposed to cut down on the whole awkwardness thing with their peers."

I nodded, wondering for the first time in almost a week why it had been so imperative that they had me on the first day.

"It was different in your case," Sarah said, as though she had read my mind.

"Yeah," Kylie-now-Kirk said through a mouthful of bacon. "From what I heard, the Head thought that it would be better to go ahead and ask you if you wanted to join the program so that you could have the benefits, since everyone who saw you on the tour had already decided to treat you like one, and Ol' Swifty sending Leslie as your escort didn't help any."

I wanted to argue with something, anything, that they had said, but instead just sighed in resignation. I had determined as much myself, and Professor Swift had been a thorn in my side ever since, picking on me both in class and in the hallways at every opportunity. Besides, what did I have to complain about? The Princess program was paying me better than I could have hoped for from another on campus job, and it had enough other perks to make up for any problems I had come across so far.

"But enough about the Princess stuff, please," Dante/Danielle said, "I am sick of it for now, and want a couple of days at least without having to worry about it."

"Etiquette classes," Leslie said, quietly, at the same time as Julian poked Dante in the side and said, "Drama."

"Dammit!" Dante said, then gave a fake sob and banged his head into the table a couple of times. A couple of the others laughed.

I turned and looked to Sarah, who shrugged and quietly went back to her food.

"Oh, hey, Sarah?" I heard Leslie ask.

"Yeah?"

"I've got this weekend approved to go into town too, so, if you want to go in together, maybe we can go see a movie or something?"

Sarah blushed, but nodded, and when I looked over, Leslie had a goofy grin on his face.

I had to smile. It had become obvious shortly after I joined the program that Leslie and Sarah liked each other a lot, and after I pointed out how obvious it was to Leslie she... shoot. HE had opened up to me about how interested he was in her.

I was sidetracked for a few minutes by trying to figure out pronouns in reference to how Princesses are dressed at the time of events versus present presentation, only to be startled when the end of breakfast bell began to ring and everyone stood from the table.

I hoped that things would be a little more normal for the rest of the day, but I knew better than to hold out much hope.

-12-

As was typical in my life, my pessimism had proven well founded. Throughout my classes, none of my teachers seemed to take notice of my wearing the boys' uniform and constantly referred to me as "Becky," to many of the other students' amusement. After my third class, I even stopped trying to correct them.

I don't know what I had been expecting exactly from my fellow students, but it almost felt like there was no difference in how they treated me. Was it because even when dressed as a boy they knew I was one of the Princesses? The more I paid attention, the more I doubted it. When I had the opportunity I watched how they acted around Leslie and the others now that they were dressed as boys, and they seemed to treat them just like regular guys, but as soon as I came around they would open doors, or clear seats, or simply smile at me, just like before.

Then it hit me. The others were all acting much more masculine than they did when dressed as Princesses, and most had gone to great lengths to distance their appearance from how they looked as Princesses. Leslie had the short black hair and stubble, Amos's head was completely shaved smooth, and Dante and Julian both had their hair back in low ponytails with stubble similar to Leslie's. They were also wearing baggier uniforms, making them appear somewhat bulkier than usual, while I was wearing my fitted uniform with my hair clean and loose, though messy, and with no kind of facial hair growth to speak of. Add to that I knew I had a more girlish face than any of the others, and I had the reason I was still being treated like a Princess.

Now if only I knew what to do about it.

I could always try acting more typically boyish, but I had no plans to change something like that so people would see me differently. As odd as it may sound coming from someone who had agreed to pretend to be a girl for part of their school career in exchange for monetary compensation, no part of that agreement had included changing the way I act, the etiquette lessons not really counting since in the long run everybody would be taking them. Watching the others again, it became more obvious to me how much of their masculine fronts was just that, a front. When they thought no one was paying attention, they would slip, and let the people I had come to know and consider friends show through.

Seeing that was enough to convince me that I might as well just deal with the rest of the school thinking of me as "Becky" all the time. So what? I got paid for it, and I had enough of hiding who I was and how I felt about things when I was living with my stepfather and the rest of them. I had just come to this decision when another positive of the day popped up.

"How're you doing today?"

"Huh? Oh, Andrew."

He grinned at me. "The one and only. Hey, see you at Drama, right Beck?"

I nodded. "Yeah."

I made it two steps away before I realized that Andrew had not seemed the least bit nervous when he had talked to me. What the heck was that all about? I shrugged it off, but determined that I had to find out later.

The chance came during Drama, when we were finally handed out our copies of the script for "West Side Story". "Today I want you to start reading through the script with your partner, each taking half the characters and reading their part," Professor Grumby said while waving one of the small red booklets around. "Naturally those of you who are partnered with our Princesses will have an easier time of splitting the roles up," he said, and most of the rest of the class laughed, though I saw Dante and Amos frown.

Andrew and I took over one of the corners of the auditorium, settling ourselves into the stage seating and began to read. It seemed that the nervousness had returned to Andrew, though, and after only a couple of pages of the read-through I told him to stop.

"Andrew... WHY do I make you nervous?" I asked him. "You were friendly when we first met, and seemed to be even after the... what happened, that first day I was a Princess, but now it's like you're scared to talk to me."

He shrugged, and mumbled something.

"Oh, come on. What is it?"

He looked at me with a pained expression. "You swear you won't get mad?"

"No."

"...That's fair. Truth is... I get nervous around girls."

I blinked.

"You there?" He asked me, when I failed to respond.

"What?"

"I asked if-"

"No, you're nervous around girls? I'm not a girl!" I gestured at my uniform. "Do I look like a girl?"

He looked away without answering, giving me his answer.

I ignored him and continued. "But you seemed alright earlier today?"

"Well, yeah. Like this, it's easier to ignore, so I could just kinda see you as a guy earlier, but now you're pretending to be a girl again, and-"

"But I'm not-"

"Hold it!" He said, putting his hand in front of my face. I stopped. "Whew. Okay. I know you're not a girl. But, as much as it may upset you, you look like one, and you know this." I tried to speak again, but he waved me quiet again. "That wouldn't be a problem, except that for the last week you've been dressing as one as part of the whole Princess thing, so now it's stuck in my head. And you're not acting that different than you did then, and you don't look that different either. Earlier I was trying not to let it get to me, but right now you're reading the girl's parts."

"Which automatically equates to 'girl' in your head?"

"Well," he said, smiling, "it wouldn't if you looked like Bob or some of the other guys. Then it would be funny. But since you've spent the last week in a skirt..."

"Ah." I was starting to see. But what could I do about it. "Well, I guess you're just screwed then. I already decided that I'm not changing the way I act just so people treat me different. I was warned about some of the risks of the whole 'Princess' thing when I agreed to it. Now it's their problem not mine."

He thought about that, then nodded. "Alright." He held out his hand. "Well, I promise to try not to get too caught up on how you look in the future. I can't PROMISE anything..."

I shook his hand. "Good enough."

We went back to work on the play, and Andrew was noticeably easier in his reactions to me. It was a lot better, and we had a lot of fun reading the play. Afterward, on our way out of class, I pulled him off to the side.

"Hey, thanks."

He gave another one of those goofy grins of his and patted me lightly on the back. "No problem. Besides, I need to get used to being more relaxed around you if I'm going to be assigned to you as your Protector."

"True. Wait, what?"

But by then he was already gone.

(End of Part 4)

NOTES:

So now we see just how the Princess program affects its members, even outside of their duties.
Will Andrew become more comfortable with Beck/Becky?
What did he mean being 'assigned to you as your Protector?"
Will Beck's shoes ever get broken in, or is he destined to blisters for the rest of the year?

Tune in next time for "Princess For Hire Part 5: The Princess's Escort!"

And remember, if you comment, more will come. IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME.

Subnote:

Sorry for the delay and possible bad quality of this update. Things have been more than a little hectic the last couple of weeks for me, what with my roomie going to Australia on Wednesday, seven-day work weeks, and a whole host of other things.

Hollah at my home girl Zoe Taylor!

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire Part 5

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Manga or Anime Style
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Girls' School / School Girl

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

Part 5: The Princess's Escort

-13-

The gown was floor length, with a tight slightly boned waist to add some minor curves that I otherwise would not have had and what the seamstress had called "almost a hobble skirt, because you boys always take such long steps and it makes the dress look bad when you do," all in a shimmery light yellow material that I could never remember the name of.

I looked down at myself in the gown.

I looked over at Andrew, standing there in a nicer version of the school uniform and smirking at me.

I looked back down at myself, and vaguely wondered how long I would be able to last on the heels hidden somewhere beneath before my feet decided to stage a mutiny and throw me to the floor.

"I hate you so much right now," I said calmly as I took his offered arm and we made our way for the entrance.

"I know, right?" He replied, confident that I wouldn't hit him since I was relying on his support for balance.

"Ow! Sonuva-"

He was wrong.

We had all been warned ahead of time by the Head that the Alumni Banquet would be boring, and that we would all be expected to remain polite and alert the entire time despite that. It seemed that the Alumni Association had taken an interest in our particular 'alternative education experiment,' and had requested the presence of a handful of representatives of the Princess program at their annual banquet so they might try and see some of the affect we had in person. In the end the names that had been drawn were Sarah's, Julia's, and mine. I had complained, but the Head had said that they would appreciate having a representative from each grade that was participating in the program, and that I was the only freshman with enough experience to pull it off, not to mention the only one who had already been fitted for an evening gown.

I smelled a setup, but I just gritted my teeth and bore it, like I was doing now as Andrew escorted me to our reserved seats with the other Princesses and their escorts.

"Isn't this just so exciting?" Jules asked me as I settled into my seat, Andrew sliding it snugly into place. I was ready to ask her if she was serious, until I saw her look of disgust. McNalley sat next to her with a showman's smile on, and I watched him nod to some of the older men as they entered.

Sarah, in her own baby blue dress, laughed quietly. I looked at her, and my eyes bulged when I noticed the cleavage she was sporting in her strapless gown.

"Are those real?" Slipped out of my mouth before I could slap my hand over it, and I stared at her in wide eyed horror at my own faux pas.

She gave me an odd look, then laughed again and nodded. "I've been on hormones for almost a year and a half now. Why, are you jealous?"

I shook my head and glanced down at my own nearly flat chest, my only enhancement being the small amount of flesh displaced by the corsetry in the dress. That was disturbing enough for me -- the idea of having actual breasts sent a chill down my spine.

"You okay?" Andrew asked me, resting his hand on my shoulder.

"Yeah, just had a scary thought is all."

He nodded, then sat down across from the boy who was serving as Sarah's escort for the evening. His name was lost on me, but the strange looks he was shooting around at the rest of us grated on my nerves.

It was sometimes hard for me to remember that I had only been in the Princess program for a month. In that time I had already been to two soccer games and a basketball game dressed as a cheerleader, learned how to do makeup and generally dress myself, and managed to be one of the students with clothes in the laundry at the time that a prank gone wrong destroyed the dryer, ruining my only pair of boy's uniform pants in the process. That had been just under a week before, and even though I was supposed to receive a pair of replacements the day after the banquet I had suffered a week of wearing a pair of pants three sizes too big for me. It was either that or my Princess uniform, but I was determined to wear that as rarely as possible.

Not that it made any difference. I know the Head had talked to some of my teachers about watching me carefully and making sure to use pronouns according to how I was presenting, but even with that there were more than enough slip ups with being called 'Becky' or 'girl' even when in class. I was sure now that the Head had been right about me being grouped in with the Princesses regardless of whether I had joined or not -- I just wished that I could be grouped in with the other guys when I was dressed normally.

Instead, I received all the courtesies of a Princess at all times, the same as Sarah. I still was not sure whether to be insulted by this or flattered, but I was leaning toward the former.

A tug on my hand brought me back to the dinner, and when I looked over Andrew was gently pulling me to my feet. Everybody else was already standing up and facing the stage expectantly.

"Ladies and gentlemen," the MC's voice echoed out over the crowd as the lights dimmed and a spotlight was directed on the aging, bald man with microphone in hand. "Welcome to the seventy-third annual Kingston Academy Alumni Banquet. As you all know, I'm Rolph Donner, class of '31, and I was asked to speak at this fantastic event because I am currently the school's oldest living alumni. And, trust me, looking around this room I can tell you that's saying something." The crowd laughed politely, and the old man gave the auditorium a toothy grin. "But I know just what to do to make you all feel just as old as I do..."

What followed was one of the longest, most boring parades of speeches and presentations I had ever witnessed, and to top it off I could not even temper it by attempting to enjoy the food because of the foolish corsetry built into my dress. I looked over at Andrew, digging heartily into his chicken and potatoes, and hated him a little more. Then I imagined what he would have looked like if he had worn my dress. The thought made me smile, and imagining all the torment he would undergo almost made the rest of the event tolerable.

To make matters worse, it felt as though every ten minutes another alum of the school would stop by our table to talk with us and find out exactly what was going on with the Princess program. Apparently the program had escaped their notice some way or other for the past two years, and consequently many of them were highly interested in learning the finer details of what the program did. The three of us Princesses answered questions as best we could, with me being thankful that Sarah and Jules were able to field all the questions unless I was specifically asked.

The mutiny occurred less than ten minutes before the event ended. I had been standing for almost half an hour, greeting alum after alum in my pretty little dress and saying pretty little words so they would all see what pretty little things us Princesses could be. I turned to greet the next alum who had come to ask me some damn fool question about another inconsequential bit of nonsense associated with the program -- I was getting a bit tired of it all, to say the least -- when my ankle decided to collapse, sending me tumbling backwards into the table, sending drinks, food, and dishes strewn asunder.

Or it would have, if Andrew had not caught me.

I recovered quickly, but not before catching the smirk on his face. I was glad he was more comfortable around me now, but his constant smiling like he knew something I was unaware of could get on my nerves almost as much as his constant bumbling had done before.

Or perhaps I was just in a bad mood.

Despite my foul mood and anger at his very presence, I was not above using Andrew as a support to keep weight off my now dully throbbing ankle, and after exchanging pleasantries with the last of the alumni, most of whom gave our entwined arms a somewhat disapproving grimace, he escorted me, slowly, back to my room.

"Some night, huh?" He asked, once we had reached an area of the halls where the constant droning of the old men in conversation could no longer be heard.

"I've had better."

"You do look beautiful in that dress, though."

I glared at him, but all it did was make him chuckle.

"Hey, ease up. You've been tense all night."

I sighed. "This has been the single longest month of my entire life."

He nodded. "Regretting joining the Princess program?"

I started to nod, but something made me stop myself. "I... I don't know. Not really."

A gentle pull on my arm caused me to stop, and when I looked at Andrew again he had a puzzled look on his face.

"Why not?" He asked.

"Why would I?" I asked in response.

He began ticking off items on his fingers. "One, you have to dress like a girl. Two, you have to get treated like a girl. Three, because of your, uh, 'unique' situation, you don't even get a break when you're dressed as a boy. Four, you've got responsibilities to the school to fulfill out the wazoo. Five, you have to dress like a girl."

"You already said that."

"It bears repeating." He stared at me for a moment, making me feel very uncomfortable. "And lastly, six: you don't seem to like having to put up with me all the time very much," he said, with a faintly hurt look on his face.

Of all the reasons he could have given, that was one I had not expected. "What? Why would you say that?"

He grunted and stepped back, crossing his arms. "You're always acting annoyed when I'm around, you try to avoid me, you're always frowning whenever you see me, you-"

"No I'm not!"

He paused. "Yeah, you are. I thought we could be friends when I met you getting off the bus, and okay, so I was a bit freaked out at first by how easily you slipped into the Princess schtick, and the way I acted probably didn't help any, but I've been trying to be friendly to you, and you keep acting like I'm some jerk who you'd prefer would go some place else. Is that what you would prefer?" There was no anger in his voice, nor on his face.

Somehow, that made what he said hurt worse.

I wanted to answer right away, but I knew that anything I said would be the wrong thing, so instead, I gave myself a few minutes to think.

"I..."

"Well?"

"...I think I want to go to bed." I finally said.

He hung his head, defeated, and offered me his arm. I leaned on him as I limped the rest of the way to my dorm, but I dared not say a word.

-14-

I lay in bed and thought.

It was Saturday morning, the beginning of a three day weekend thanks to Monday being Labor Day. I had planned on going into town with Sarah this weekend, as a way to, as she had put it, "see what being a girl is like outside the stuffy walls of Kingston," but after what had happened the night before between me and Andrew I had begged off.

Why did I feel I had to be so rough on him? As much as I complained about him, he and Bobby were probably the only two boys outside of the Princesses that I could consider friends around campus, and of the two of them I much preferred his company over Bobby's constant ribbing, no matter how good natured it was intended. Andrew was always nice to me, and always tried to treat me with respect. So, why did I always feel angry at him?

Or, was that the reason? He might have always been nice, but he also always acted like he was on his best behavior around me. He always treated me with respect, yes, but it was always the kind of respect that a boy would afford a girl friend, and not the kind between two buddies. In short, he always treated me like a girl, and while I knew I really did not hate him, I did hate that he felt like he had to treat me that way.

I rolled over and covered my head with a pillow, trying to stop the flow of thoughts, but they just kept coming.

If that was the reason I felt so angry when around him, then why could I not just pull away?

There were at least two reasons, the most obvious one being that he had been assigned as my personal Protector, which still annoyed me to no end. All the other Princesses, even Sarah, only had Protectors assigned to them specifically when we went to major events off campus, and the rest of the time the Protectors were meant to keep a general watch over everyone. Unfortunately, I knew who was to blame for this one, and Andrew was not it. The downside of calling my dad and letting him know about the Princess program in the way I did was that, unknown to me at the time, he had gotten the school's number and threatened the Head with a gruesome death should anything happen to me. From what I heard later, lawsuits and some kind of LGBT legal organization had been brought up too. The end result was that the Head had gone a bit paranoid over my safety, and when he had learned that Andrew was the first freshman to ask to join the Protectors, and Julia's brother to boot, he had jumped at the opportunity to take care of the problem.

And thus, I had managed to yet again score the dubious honor of another first in the school records, the first Princess with a permanent escort. It was only a small consolation to learn that the head was considering expanding it so all the others had one too.

The second reason was more complicated. I did like Andrew as a person, as annoying as he could be, and even then I knew it was my problem more than his. The last thing I wanted to do was punish him for my personal hang-up.

I spent the entire day Saturday alone in my room, thinking over what to do about the whole situation. All the other Princesses had managed to find other ways to spend their labor day weekend, either at home, with girlfriends and boyfriends, or with town passes, so even at meals I had the table to myself. All in all, it left me feeling abandoned, alone in a school of over five hundred students.

Was I really that dependent on the company of the other Princesses? A quick scan around me at dinner, seeing what student body remained at the school idly chatting to one another at other tables while I sat alone, told me that yes, I was.

"Hey, are you doing okay?"

I turned back to my own table and there stood Bobby, gesturing to the seat across from me and asking permission with his eyes. I nodded, and he sat down, his overfilled tray making a loud 'thump' when it hit the table.

"Well?" He asked.

I started to say I was fine, but found myself shaking my head instead. "I don't know. Things are weird right now."

He nodded. "Andrew looked pretty down when he came in last night. What happened, lover's tiff?"

I shot him a glare, and the small upturn that had begun to appear quickly died.

"Okay, sorry. But seriously, you know I'm here if you need to talk, right? Andrew isn't the only one of us in the Protectors."

I sneered at him. "Is that why you're here? Filling in for him?"

Bobby took a bite of his food, making me wait before answering. "Partly. Mostly, I'm here because I thought we were friends."

That threw me for a second. "Really?"

He nodded, looking at me as though I were an idiot. "Well, yeah! The four of us late arrivals gotta stick together!"

"Four?"

"Me, you, Andrew, and Stew."

"Stew? Oh, Stewart." I had not spoken two words to our sophomore bus partner since that first day, but I had seen him talking to Bobby and Andrew.

Bobby carefully sat down his fork and Looked at me. "Listen. Me and Andrew, we like you, even though you've been a bit of a bitch. Just saying," he said, raising his hands when I glared at him. "But come on, think about it."

"I'm not a--"

"Think."

I frowned at him, but the earnest look in his eyes made me listen to him. Had I really been that bad?

"Oh, god."

I had.

He nodded.

I wanted to sink down into the floor, and the more I thought about it, the worse I felt. He was right. Ever since my first day at Kingston, I had been pretty universally, for lack of a better word, a bitch. Andrew, Bobby, even around Leslie and the other Princesses.

"Why have you put up with me so long already?"

Bobby laughed, and rolled his eyes. "Because, for some reason, I get the feeling that that isn't you." He shrugged, and took another bite of his food. The two of us sat in silence, thinking, while he chewed.

Finally, he sat down his silverware again, his tray empty. "Just do me a favor, okay?"

"What? Anything," I said, feeling more guilty by the moment for my behavior the last few weeks.

"Try and ease up a little. There are some jerks around here, but most of us are good people. Give us a chance, you'll see soon enough." He picked up his tray and walked away, leaving me to stew on his words.

I received little rest that night, instead spending most of it thinking over what Bobby had said. While I felt I had not been as bad as he had made it out to be... I had been coming close.

Was it because of the Princess program? If so, then that was only a small part of the problem, and it was not something I was going to give up. There was no other job left on campus that paid as well, if there had been any others to start with, and there was no longer any way I could separate myself from the program short of shaving my head and growing a goatee, and knowing how I looked that probably would fail as well.

If there was any part of the Princess program that was to blame, it was part that I was only just coming to grips with myself. I liked being treated like I was special. Paradoxically, that was also why it made me so angry and upset all the time. I had thought I had escaped the influence of my stepfather and his insistence on the ways that men and women were supposed to feel and act, but I was finally realizing that his views had affected me more than I had thought.

I did not think it was being treated as a girl specifically that I liked, though; that just happened to be how I guess you could say it manifested. No, what I liked about it was that people looked at me as though I were someone respected, someone important. That feeling was intoxicating, at the same time as it infuriated me that I liked it so much. Or maybe it was the inability to turn it off that made me so mad. The others, except for Sarah, just had to put on a pair of pants and stop shaving and they were accepted as normal guys. Even Bradley/Brandy and Wilson/Wendy, the two freshmen who had agreed to join, could get by as guys without too much trouble, but not me. The closest I came to being treated as a normal guy came from the students who actively disliked the Princess program, and I did not feel that their angry refusal to so much as look at me without a scowl really counted.

For years I had been forced to listen to my stepfather's rants about how men and women were supposed to act and supposed to be treated. I had always told myself I would never let myself think like him, but I was finally noticing just how much of what he said had affected me. Here I was getting angry because I was being treated like a girl when I was a boy.

Why did it matter?

"Why does it matter?" I asked myself out loud. Unfortunately, the room had no better answer to the question than I did.

There and then, I made a resolution. My first day at the school dressed as a boy I had decided that I would be myself despite how the others treated me. That night, I decided that if I chose to do that, then I had no right to object to their reactions to it. If they saw me as a girl, then I could accept that without anger. I HAD to. Otherwise, I was no better than people like my stepfather, who insist on men and women in their places. If my dad could do it, then I could too. I just had to do it on a bigger level, is all, but I had the advantage.

The school was safe. As long as I stayed here, or with other students, there was little danger of me facing the same dangers and persecution I knew my dad had to face sometimes. So, I should just let myself enjoy it. Experiment, and find what makes me happy.

If part of that is that people treat me like I am some kind of delicate flower, then I can handle that.

Just making that decision had me feeling better, and at last, I could fall asleep.

-15-

"I still can't believe I let you talk me into this."

"Oh, quiet, you'll enjoy it. Trust me."

"I'm trying."

I had thought that canceling my plans to go into town with Sarah on Saturday would give me the entire three day weekend to decompress and be alone.

It had been some time around midday Sunday that she tracked me down and informed me that she had talked the Head into changing my town pass to Monday instead of Saturday rather than canceling it, and that since she had gone to so much work to allow me into town I had no right to refuse unless I just wanted to hurt her feelings. I still was unsure of whether I preferred guys, girls, or both, but seeing a girl pouting had the same affect on me as most other guys, and that in combination with my new resolution to be nicer led me to agreeing.

The dress had not been part of the agreement.

"Couldn't you have found me something a little less... revealing?"

"What? Besides, it's nice and cool."

"It's the middle of September."

"And eighty-five degrees out."

"It could start cooling down any time. In fact, I think I'm feeling a chill right now." I said, rubbing my hands up and down my arms for emphasis and trying to ignore the few beads of sweat that collected on them when I did.

She blew a raspberry at me and continued walking along the sidewalk. "Keep up or you'll have to be out like that all by your lonesome."

I rolled my eyes at her, but started walking again. At least the sandals were more comfortable than the heels I had worn Friday, even if they were wedges.

I had agreed initially to go into town with Sarah as a girl more out of boredom than any other reason, but seeing how happy she was to have someone to talk to outside of school made me begin to realize how alone she must feel on campus. Even among the Princesses, she stood apart as the only one of us as far as I knew who actually wanted to be a girl. That, I figured out, was why she had wanted me as a friend so badly -- because, while I had no desire to be a girl, I could never completely separate my boy self from the Princess. She might be officially dating Leslie now, which I knew had a lot of the regular boys at school scratching their heads, but in a lot of ways she was more comfortable around me.

To top it off, she was right. The dress was cool, and the strange padded bra-like object she had taped in place on my chest gave the impression of breasts beneath the yellow and white checkered material while still allowing the halter neck to showcase my bare back. All in all it was one of the oddest feeling outfits I had ever worn, and it was little comfort that she was wearing an almost identical dress in a solid green color.

"Ooh, come on in here! This is one of my favorite places in town!"

I followed her into "Chocolate Heaven" and up to the counter.

"Two large Chocolate Heaven Specials to go, please." She turned to me, her grin nearly splitting her face. "My treat."

"Coming right up, Sarah," the pimply faced boy behind the counter said before turning to the machines behind him.

My eyes nearly popped out of my head when he handed her two massive styrofoam cups with clear domed plastic lids, the kind with the large round hole in the top. The cups were filled to the brim with a dark, thick chocolate ice cream, and I could see large chunks of brownie and fudge penetrating the top. With a practiced hand, Sarah took a large canister of whipped cream off the counter and filled both plastic lids until there was an inch tall crest of white sticking right out of the top, and then handed me one of them, along with a long red spoon.

"Dig in!" She said, then took a large spoonful of her own, her eyes rolling back as she moaned in ecstasy. I looked over at the counter, and the pimply faced boy was watching her with a wide grin.

I hesitantly dipped my spoon into the sea of whipped cream, pressing downwards until I felt the ice cream begin to resist. I carefully pulled the spoon out, and looked at the dollop of chocolate topped in white cloudy cream. I closed my eyes so I could not see the boy behind the counter, and took a bite.

I heard another moan of pleasure, and opened my eyes to see Sarah giving me a triumphant look. The moan had been mine.

"I think we have another convert, Chuck," she said to the guy, and he just nodded before turning to the next customers in line.

We took our shakes and continued our exploration of the downtown area, Sarah giving me a brief history as she navigated.

"Persistence isn't a huge town, but that's one of the things I love about it. You can walk from the outskirts at one end all the way to the edge at the other in about seven hours, but in between there's lots of great little shops, restaurants, and places to hang out. It was great growing up here."

"You're local?" I asked her, surprised.

She nodded. "When I was offered a scholarship to Kingston my mom and dad were ecstatic. They thought that going to an all boys school, my dad's own alma mater in fact, would make me less girlish." She made a face, then laughed. "Luckily for me, I started the same year that Professor Uchiha took over from his dad and started the Princess program. My parents didn't like it much, but when they saw how much happier I was..." She grew quiet, a dark look crossing her face.

"Sarah? Are you okay?" I asked, approaching her and wrapping an arm around her shoulder.

She nodded. "Yeah. It was a lot harder that first year, you know? Now the students are more used to it, and the older ones help newer ones to not be so mean, but that first year there were... a few problems. That's why the Protectors were started, originally just by a few of the students who wanted to help us, but eventually the Head decided to make them part of the program so they would be compensated for what they were doing."

I squeezed her gently, and she wrapped her arm around me and squeezed back. Suddenly my dad's insistence on personal protection seemed much less overbearing than it had.

"Then why didn't they shut the program down if there were problems?"

"Because it also did what he had hoped it would. By the end of the first semester most of the troublemakers had been weeded out, and at the end of the second most of the student body agreed that they liked having the Princesses around. When we find two more freshman Princesses it'll be easier for you to see some of the things that caused so much trouble the first year."

"Like what?"

She sighed, but gave me a sad smile. "I think you'll probably find out soon enough."

We had been wandering around for a little over two hours when Sarah recommended we stop for lunch at a place called "Gizmo's," with a sign featuring a poorly drawn version of a mogwai holding a hamburger. Inside, the place was covered in old, dark paneling, and the booths looked like they were long past needing reupholstered. It was also stuffed full of kids around our own ages, all laughing, talking, and generally making a nuisance of themselves around the pool table and ancient pinball games in the far corner.

"Hey!" She called, waving to someone in a corner booth. I looked over, and there sat Leslie in boy mode waving us back, facing towards us across from someone else.

We pushed our way through the crowd and eventually reached the booth. Sarah slid in next to Leslie, giving him a quick peck on the cheek when he wrapped his arm around her, so I slid into the booth on the other side and out of the crowd before looking to see who was with us.

Almost like magic, all the noise around us died down at once, then after a few seconds, started up again.

"Did you eat already?" Sarah asked Leslie.

"Yeah, I hope you don't mind?"

"Nope! I'm not that hungry. Welp, we'll just leave you two alone, shall we?" She said, then stood up, pulling Leslie with her. I just continued to sit there, mildly stunned, while Leslie gave me a look that said 'what could I do?' before following Sarah to the counter to procure stools.

Andrew slid around the back side of the booth until he was sitting across from me, looking down into his plate of fries. "This wasn't my idea," he said, picking up his fork and idly playing with the soggy bits of potato, rolling them about in ketchup.

I nodded.

"If you want me to go, I can." He went to stand up.

"No! Don't leave me alone!"

He gave me a scornful look. "So now the Princess doesn't want to be alone?" Then his face fell. "Sorry." He sank back down.

I shook my head. "No... I'm sorry. About what I said Friday night..."

"Look, you don't have to explain," he started to say, but I raised my hand to quiet him.

"Yeah, I do. Look, I talked to Bobby on Saturday. Did he tell you?"

The beginnings of a smile quirked one corner of his mouth. "He said you looked real cute when you pouted, but that's it."

I rolled my eyes. It figured. "Well, he really put it in perspective for me how I've been treating you. Listen, I know I've been, well, a bitch, and I'm sorry. It wasn't fair to you."

"It's okay."

I shook my head. "It's not. You're probably the only guy at school who's really tried to be friends with me, and I've done nothing but push you away. Can you forgive me?" I lowered my head and looked up at him through my lashes, intentionally going for a girly pouty look like I had seen Sarah use when she wanted Leslie to do something for her.

Andrew laughed, loud and long, and when he looked at me again, he had an honest smile on his face. "Well, since it's rare for a guy to get a girl to admit she was in the wrong--"

"Hey! I'm not a--"

"I guess I have to accept," he finished, sliding back around next to me. He hesitated a moment, looking nervous, then dropped his arm around my shoulders. How could I help but laugh? I leaned into the gentle hug, and after a second he took his arm back away.

We sat there in silence, but a comfortable one this time, for almost a minute.

"He was right, you know." Andrew said, looking at me strangely.

"Who?"

"Bobby. You really do look cute when you pout."

"Oh, shut up," I told him, but I was laughing and smiling when I said it.

(End of Part 5)

NOTES:

I think this is actually one of the longer parts I've done of this story. Hopefully everybody likes it!

I know I've been focusing kind of heavily on the interplay between Beck/Becky and Andrew, but since I consider them the two core cast members there's a good reason for that. Don't worry, though! The other cast members, including out two newest Princesses who you haven't had a chance to really meet yet, will play more major roles as the story goes on.

As a side note, I think I'm finally getting into the swing of things and actually developing a stable voice for the story. Horray!

Thanks for all the comments on the other chapters! And as always, if you comment, more will come. IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME.

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire Part 6

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Manga or Anime Style

TG Elements: 

  • Girls' School / School Girl

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Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

Part 6: Princesses On Parade

-16-

I blew on my fingers, hoping to inspire some reaction in the polish I had applied that would make it dry faster. I looked over at Brandy, who was sitting next to me on my bed, and watched as she angrily grabbed the bottle of acetone and scrubbed her nails clean for the fourth time.

"Take it easy, you'll get it," Sarah told her with a smile from her position in the floor, where she was holding Leslie's hand and painting the nails while Leslie just gave her a sappy grin.

Sarah had quickly adopted Brandy as her own little sister in the Princess program, and for the past few weeks had been hard at work teaching her the ins and outs of presenting as a girl. At first Brandy had seemed to enjoy every lesson, but more recently she had begun to get frustrated with the hassle of getting dressed and presentable on our Princess duty days. Sarah's response when questioned was that while Brandy might be like her, she was much less feminine in her tastes than Sarah. None of us Princesses had asked her yet, but my view was shifting more and more toward Brandy being just a normal guy and not like Sarah, and I think Sarah agreed with me.

Of course, this gave me even more reason to again question why I was so accepting of things. Not that I "enjoyed" a lot of the Princess activities per se, but they were more annoying than frustrating, especially once I had grown used to them. I might not particularly like wearing makeup or girl's underwear, which I had found had an annoying tendency to ride up or down at inopportune times if I failed to choose the style carefully, but the accoutrements alone were never enough to make me angry, while Brandy seemed to get upset every time something came less than naturally to her.

"Here, let me help you," I said to her gently once my nails were sufficiently dry, and I lifted the polish from her trembling hands. "Lay your hand on my knee, and I'll do it." She gave me a relieved smile, and soon I was repairing the damage to her nails.

"She'll never get it if she doesn't do it on her own," Sarah complained, frowning.

"Maybe, but we all need to look our best for the show later. You can take the time to show her how to do it later, but for now it's better to have it done so we can get going."

Sarah pouted up at me, but I had grown more immune to her ever since the trip into town just over three weeks ago. My decision to lighten up on everyone had made a tremendous difference in a lot of the regular student population's reactions to me, and I had since managed to make a few friends among the "normal" boys at school. They still treated me like a Princess even when wearing the boy's school uniform, which is one thing that I did tend to find mildly frustrating sometimes, but I had determined that I just had to get over it, and had since worked hard at doing exactly that.

The entire school had been given the day off to help prepare for the drama class's production of "West Side Story," with those non-Princess parts of the student body either working on final touch-ups to props, setting up the seating and tables, or working on food preparation with the Culinary Arts club. The few students who had escaped any duties for the day were sent into town with several of the teachers to hand out last minute flyers and free tickets at a few key locations. We had sold most of our stock weeks ago, but the school was determined to have a sold out show for the evening.

Meanwhile, us Princesses had been confined to the "P" wing of the dorm hall to prepare for the evening. We had been divided into groups by Jules to help each other get ready, and had since been working slowly but steadily to prepare for the showing at 7, though we had to be ready by three both so we could have a final checkup on our costumes and serve as hostesses to the guests who would be attending the show, since even before the Princess program that had been standard procedure for the school.

"There, finished. Just don't touch anything with your nails for the next half hour or so just in case, and be careful with them tonight."

"Right," she nodded, smiling down at the color on her fingers. "Thanks." She gave my knee a gentle squeeze and stared at me for a moment.

"Uh, right. Oh! Isn't it time to meet up with Jules so we can all practice our lines a final time?"

Leslie looked at my alarm clock next to my bed while blowing on her own nails, and nodded. "Yeah, it's just about. We've got maybe another hour before we have to be behind the stage to make sure our costumes are fine, and then, ugh, the stage makeup."

Sarah made a disgusted face at the same time.

"What's so bad about the stage makeup?" I asked.

Leslie looked pained. "You remember when I did your makeup that first day? And you said it was all hot and heavy and too stark?" I nodded. "Stage makeup is like that, only worse. And we ALL have to have it done that way, even you and Sarah, and it's all oily and always makes my face break out."

I grimaced. That sounded like a horrible experience.

"Dammit!"

I looked over at Brandy, who was standing by the bathroom door looking down at her hand, and I sighed.

"Come here, let me fix it."

Not long after, there was a knock on the door -- the signal we had been waiting for to know when to head over to Jules' room for a quick final read-through of all our lines, for those of us that had lines, while the rest would read the guy's parts so we could practice our timing, at least a little. I had been less than surprised when I was told that because I had a higher voice than a lot of the other Princesses and had done well in the tests that I would have one of the larger speaking parts among the girls in the cast. While we would all have to help out as best we could in the singing parts, even Amanda, I would be one of the few who had to speak up at another time. I had chosen not to object mostly because I figured it would be good practice, since it seemed that most of the staff, and even the other Princesses, already expected me to be Sarah's successor as most-girlish Princess after she graduated the next year. If that were the case, I wanted to be as prepared as I could be for having to be.

The run-through of the lines went well. Those of us with lines had our parts down cold, and so long as nobody had an accident in the next few hours or messed up their dance steps we knew we would give a good performance. Brandy and Wendy just stood to the side, laughing at us in seeming confidence that they would be more comfortable than the rest of us since they were playing the greaser's girls, with their poodle skirts and leather jackets and only one line between them.

As we made our way to the backstage area, I felt a buzz start to go through me. I might not have been expecting it, but as the time approached for our production, I was growing more and more excited. In fact, I was finding that I was actually looking forward to doing the musical.

We had had to cut down and restructure some parts of the play to make it fit both our allotted time and because none of us were professional dancers or singers. As a result, while we had most of the major numbers, including "I Feel Pretty," to Sarah's delight, but had been forced to cut or combine some of the others. In the end, I felt confident that we had a solid interpretation of the story, and I was sure that our audience, which would mostly consist of parents and alumni would enjoy the show.

The fitters were waiting for us when we arrived, and the people who would do the stage makeup were right behind them. It was time to get started.

-17-

"It wasn't your fault, Leslie. Seriously, I doubt she blames you."

Leslie just sat on my bed with his hands in his hands, staring at the floor.

The musical had started off well, but unfortunately one thing after another had started going wrong less than halfway through. One of the speakers in the sound system blew, filling the room with static in the middle of a song, followed shortly by a miscue on the lighting throwing the entire stage into shadows when the people running the sound and lights panicked trying to fix it. While the lights were down, the actors on stage had stumbled around running into each other and generally having a chaotic time of it.

By the time the lights came up, props were knocked over, the stage completely trashed, and Leslie was laying at the floor at Sarah's feet, holding a long piece of cloth in her hands that had been the skirt of Sarah's dress.

There had been silence in the auditorium for what felt like five minutes before Sarah ran off the stage, crying while trying to cover herself. Leslie had just lay there with a shocked look on her face while everybody else tried to recover. In the end, the curtain was drawn, not to be raised again, and the showings for the next two nights were cancelled.

As soon as we had gotten back to our rooms, Leslie had changed back into his boy's clothes and came over to my room, where I had yet to change, too busy trying to figure out who to check on first. Consequently, I had been sitting next to him all night while he cried on and off, keeping him company and helping him cope. I wanted to check on Sarah, but I could not leave him alone in the state he was in.

"I have to talk to her," he finally said, his voice raw from crying. "I have to apologize." He stood up, but made no move for the door, instead giving me a pitiful look. "Will you go with me?"

"Yeah," I said, nodding, then stood up. I had been in the dress for over six hours now, and it was wrinkled from where I had sat on it as well as from Leslie's crying on my shoulder. "Can I change first?"

He nodded. "I guess so, but... no, never mind."

I looked at him, and I could see the question in his eyes. I closed my eyes for a moment before moving, but when I finally went to the closet, I pulled out a casual girl's top and a skirt.

"You don't have to..."

"I know," I said, cutting him off, "but you wanted me to."

Leslie just hung his head while I went to the bathroom to change.

I could understand. After sitting there crying on my shoulder for over three hours, he wanted to be faced with as little evidence of me being anything other than the girl Becky as possible. I had no doubt I would have felt the same way if it had been me crying on someone's shoulder, it just was not the kind of thing that guys typically did together. As tenuous as my grasp on being considered a guy even in boy's clothes might have been, it was still more than he really wanted to deal with.

Even with that, combined with how upset he was, he had thought enough of me to actually stop himself from asking, at least out loud. He would never force me to do it, but I would do it if it helped him to feel better.

Once the tank top and skirt were on and I had made sure I looked okay, I stepped outside.

"Ready?" I asked him, and he nodded. A quick glance at my bedside alarm told me it was almost midnight. With any luck, Sarah would still be awake, and the teachers would be lax on curfew.

We made our way down the silent halls, Leslie clutching my arm tightly. I was now more than glad I had made the decision to dress as a girl if Leslie were this bad before ever reaching the room. The last thing I wanted to imagine is how bad he would have gotten without me there for him to lean on, or worse I suspected, me there as a boy to try and be tough in front of.

When we finally reached Sarah's door, I was more than relieved to see a light still shining under it. I gave Leslie a gentle shove, but he remained frozen several feet back, his face ghastly white and his hand sweaty on my arm.

"I can't," he managed to gasp out, and tried to pull me back toward my room. I refused to move.

"You need to do this, Leslie," I said to him, placing my hand on his wrapped around my arm.

He gave me a desperate look. "Will you go in first?"

I sighed. "Fine. But if you run off while I'm talking to her, then that's it, and I won't help you next time, okay?" I did not wish to be mean to him, but I felt he had to understand. He nodded, and let my arm go, backing into the shadows away from the door.

Left alone, I walked up to the door and knocked gently.

"Go away!" I heard Sarah croak from inside.

"Sarah?" I called through the door, "it's me, Becky. Can I come in?"

"Becky?"

"Yeah."

I heard her sniffle, then a shuffling sound. Soon, the lock on the door clicked, and Sarah slowly cracked it open, looking out at me through the gap.

"Are you alone?"

I shook my head. "Wait!" I called when she went to close the door.

"I don't wanna talk to anyone else!"

"They'll stay out here, it'll just be me coming in, okay?" I gave Leslie a look in the shadows, and he nodded, sinking down to the floor.

There was silence for a brief moment, then the door cracked again before swinging open, letting me into Sarah's room.

I walked in, and gave Sarah a long hug before casting about for a place to sit. Unlike the other Princesses, Sarah's room had a decidedly feminine look to it, as though she were trying to emphasize her girlishness in the middle of the sea of masculinity that was the all boys school. The walls were a pale green, and she had throws and comfortable mushroom chairs strewn about the room. She also obviously had obtained permission for custom bedding, her twin topped with a purple and green striped comforter with a large stuffed tiger sitting in the middle.

I settled onto her bed, and in a flash she had wound herself around me the same as Leslie had done in my own room.

"Oh, Becky, it was so horrible! I was just standing there, and all the lights were on, and they SAW!"

"They saw what?"

"They SAW, Becky! IT!"

I squeezed her gently, trying to comfort her, but I still did not understand what she was saying.

"Sarah, I still don't know..."

"They saw my panties!" She wailed, digging her nails into my arm. I bit my lip to keep from crying out, and did my best to bear it. "I haven't... I can't until I'm eighteen, and even then... it's... they SAW, Becky!"

"Shh, shh, it's okay Sarah. It's okay. Shh." I continued to pat her back as she cried into my shoulder, big gasping sobs, and wondered what she had done without anyone around. Looking at the tiger, I noticed its crumpled appearance and the tear stains on it's fur.

"They know, they know and they hate me. They... oh, Becky, I never want to go outside again!"

I finally got it. Sarah worked so hard to prove herself a girl every day, and the one thing in the entire world that absolutely proved her body was different had been put on display. She was mortified, she was scared, and she had nobody to turn to.

Except me.

It must have been half an hour again that I sat there and let her cry into my shoulder before her sobs finally calmed down, and when I gently shook her arm her head snapped up and she looked at me groggily.

"Wha?"

I laughed. "Did you fall asleep?"

She frowned, but did not start crying again.

"It's okay," I said before she could object. "I do have someone outside who wants to talk to you, though."

Panic crossed her face. "No! They all know! I can't-"

"Sarah!" She went silent, shocked by the harshness of my voice. "Sorry," I said to comfort her, "I didn't mean to yell. Nobody hates you, okay? Okay?"

She nodded, but said nothing.

"In fact, the person who wants to speak to you wants to apologize for what happened, but they were too upset to come in themselves at first."

"Leslie?"

I nodded.

"But... she grabbed my skirt! It ripped and-"

"I know, but it wasn't on purpose."

"I know, but..." She mumbled something, too quiet for me to hear.

"What was that?"

She sighed, and tears began to fall from her eyes again. "She knows now, and... he won't like me any more."

I gave her one more squeeze, and helped her up. "I can promise you that's not true," I said, leading her toward the door. Then I looked down. "But you might want to get dressed before I bring him in."

She looked down at herself, and let out a soft "Eep" before dashing for the closet and locking herself inside.

"Sarah..."

"You saw too!"

"So?" I said, exasperated, but still concerned for my friend. "Sarah, everybody here knows, and most everyone who was at the show already knew too. If there were any who didn't, well, they probably weren't paying attention to your panties."

"It's embarrassing!"

"I know, sweetie," I said, surprising myself with my own words, "but you've just got to face them and be strong."

After a long moment, she came out again, wearing a pair of feminine track pants with a tank top rather than the tatters of the dress. I opened my arms, and she gave me another crushing hug.

"Now, are you ready to talk to Leslie?"

She looked into my face and nodded her head slightly, and together we opened the door.

-18-

"I'm really really sorry about yesterday."

I gave Sarah a thin smile. "It's okay, stop apologizing."

She continued to cling to Leslie's arm as we made our way to the cafeteria for breakfast, with me on her other side for additional support.

I was tired. I was cranky. And I was dressed as a girl, again, though I only had myself to blame for the last one. We had been up past three in the morning, Leslie assuring Sarah that no, he did not hate her and no, he did not think she was weird and yes, he still wanted to be with her, all while I sat by and watched and helped to calm Sarah down during her occasional freakout.

The end consensus was that Sarah would be okay, but the one accident was enough, and she was determined never to go on stage again. We had convinced her that nobody at the school would think less of her, but she had refused to come out of her room for breakfast until we had both agreed to walk with her.

We had all spent the night in her room. Leslie was still wearing the clothes he had put on the night before, a couple of traces of eye makeup and chipped paint on his nails the only remnants from the play. I had wanted to go back to my own room to change into perhaps a comfortable pair of sweats and a baggy tee, but looking at Sarah and Leslie, both still nervous wrecks despite being reconciled, I decided it would be for the best if I could remain there for them as much as possible. Instead, Sarah had insisted I borrow some clean clothes from her since mine were crumpled and stained with tears again, and after a quick shower I was now wearing a pair of girl's jeans and a peasant top, hoping to spend at least Sunday dressed as a slovenly boy before classes resumed on Monday.

The halls were surprisingly quiet, even for a Saturday, and though I had almost been expecting him to be standing at the foot of the stairwell waiting for me, Andrew was nowhere to be seen. I took this as a small blessing, as I felt the less personal interaction Sarah had with the non-Princess males at the school until we knew she could remain calm the better.

It was a long, slow trip to the cafeteria, with both Leslie and I worried about Sarah and determined to turn right back around at the first sign of tears in Sarah's eyes. Luckily, as we made the trip she seemed to emotionally steel herself against the onslaught of abuse she was expecting, and when we at last reached the cafeteria doors she had a determined look on her still somewhat pale face.

Leslie and I shared a look before pushing the double doors open and stepping into the room.

Nothing happened.

No one in the room turned to look at us, or to jeer, or any other cruel action. No conversations stopped. If anything was out of the ordinary, it was how abysmally ordinary the entire cafeteria was acting.

All but one table.

Off in the corner, away from our normal table at the head of the room, sat the Princesses. All of them, including a rather uncomfortable looking Brandy and Wendy, had dressed in casual girl's clothes, and were waving us over.

For a second I was unsure of what was going on, until I saw Sarah visibly relax at the sight. Then I knew.

I kept an eye out as we made our way to the table, and started to notice more details about the layout for the day. The two tables to the exposed sides of the Princesses were both mostly full of students I knew and recognized as members of the Protectors, while even as I watched there were three or four others, including Andrew, Bobby, and Charles, roaming about the other tables, talking to the other students and especially focusing on the couple of tables where I could see several students giving Sarah cold and calculating glares.

When we reached the table, all the Princesses stood up and came forward to take turns wrapping Sarah in hugs and give her words of comfort.

As I watched, and saw a few tears of relief fall down Sarah's face, I finally knew that the Princess program, even with all its problems and annoyances, was exactly where I wanted to be at the school. Despite being boys at heart, all of the Princesses had embraced their femininity as fully as they could for the day in order to give Sarah the support she needed after the accident last night, something that none of them could have done as their boy selves, nor did I think that Sarah would have let them.

We settled at the table, and Sarah began to talk. And talk, and talk. She let it all out, everything we had helped her through the night before, but this time, she kept from freaking out. This time, she knew that she had not just my support, and not just Leslie's, but everyone's.

Occasionally, one of the Protectors would come over and speak to one of the girls furthest from Sarah, gathering information on her condition I took, until near the end of the meal the Head himself came up to the table, smiling.

"Good morning Sarah. Girls," he said, nodding to the rest of us. His face shifted to one of concern. "I just wanted to make sure you were okay? If there's anything I can do, please, do let me know."

Sarah gave him a smile of her own. "Thank you, sir. But, I think I'm gonna be alright." She looked around at us, and gave Leslie a small hug and a peck on the cheek, drawing a slightly disapproving look from the Head, but he said nothing.

"Well, that's good. Just remember, if you ever need to talk, you can either come to me, or the school's counselor. We're here for you, if you ever need us."

"Yes, sir."

The Head nodded his approval, and turned to go, but only made it a few steps before spinning around with a nervous expression on his face. "Oh. And, Sarah?"

"Yes?" She asked, curiously.

"Please, try to keep the public displays of affection down. We don't want all the other boys here to feel jealous they don't have a beautiful girl on their arm."

With a twinkle in his eye, he turned again to leave, and our entire table burst out laughing while Leslie and Sarah shared an embarrassed grin.

(End of Part 6)

Notes: Another slightly rushed part, I'm afraid. We've had computer errors at work for the past week, leaving me quite stressed and with little time or desire to write. However, I made myself sit down and slog through the mush that's left of my brain just so that you wouldn't have to miss the next part :P

Coming Soon: It's Halloween at Kingston Academy, and Becky and the other Princesses are less than enthused about their costumes. In addition, there's a surprise in a freshman who steps forward and ASKS to join the Princess program! Coming next Sunday (with any luck,) Princess For Hire Part 7: Princess Buttercup?

And as always, remember: if you comment, more will come. IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME.

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire Part 7

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  • Rasufelle

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  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

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  • Crossdressing

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  • Teenage or High School

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Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

IN ADDITION, a special note for this chapter: at some point over the next couple of days I might go back and redo parts of this one. If I do, I'll post a blog about it, but it's pretty rough, sorry :(

Part 7: Princess Buttercup?

-19-

"Blossom, Bubbles, or Buttercup. Which one?"

"I didn't think you were serious about having us dress as the Powerpuff Girls!"

Julian just grinned, and held up the store-bought costumes again. "Well?"

Winston looked agonized, his eyes darting back and forth between the costumes, before closing his eyes and grasping one at random.

"Oh, good, you're Bubbles!"

"Aww, crap!"

We all laughed, though I could understand Winston's reluctance to wear the light blue costume and blonde wig. At the same time, though, I had little sympathy for him considering my own costume, and the fact that he at least would not have to suffer the indignity of being fitted for his by the tailors.

"Come on, Bradley, you next."

His eyes bulged for a second, before he blurted out "Blossom!"

Julian looked down at the costumes in her hand before grinning and tossing him the pink one with its matching red wig.

"What's gonna happen with the last costume?" Kirk asked from his perch atop the teacher's desk in the unused classroom we had been given to use for our Princess Program meetings.

"Why, do you want it?"

"NO!" He yelled, in a disturbingly high voice.

Julian gave a theatrical sigh. "Then I guess it's just going to have to go to our newest Princess."

The room was silent for a moment, before almost everyone began to speak at once.

"Who?"

"When?"

"WHY?"

"What?"

"Where?"

"And how!" Julian said, with a grin, then clapped his hands. "Come on in, newest Princess!"

I heard a timid shuffle from just outside the room's door, then a slow creak as it was pushed in.

"Come on, nobody here will bite you!"

In walked a boy I had never seen before. Most of the members of the Princess program were on the scrawny side, but the person who walked though the door looked as though they would disappear if they turned sideways. Mousy hair, freckles, and a pair of large, cheap glasses made it obvious why we had not considered him for the program earlier -- he was one of the most easily forgettable looking people I had ever seen.

"Um, hi," he said in a small voice as he walked into the room, watching his feet. Despite this, he somehow managed to trip over nothing coming through the door, and landed face down in the floor before any of us could catch him.

"Are you okay?" someone asked, but he simply nodded and pushed himself up off the floor.

"Ladies and gentlemen, I'd like to introduce you to the newest member of our little club, Rupert Jones, or, Ruby Jones, depending." Julian threw the last costume to our new arrival, who caught it clumsily. "Or, for Halloween, our very own Princess Buttercup."

"Hi," I said, amid a chorus of similar greetings from the other guys around me.

Rupert gave us all a small smile, then waved. Suddenly, he erupted in a blush befitting his new Princess name, and dashed from the room, gripping the costume to his chest. There was a small crash from the hallway, then the rapidly disappearing sound of footsteps.

"What was that all about?"

"We'll have to work on that shyness a bit, but I think we've got a good candidate there," Leslie said, looking at Sarah. "When is he moving into the "P" wing of the dorms?"

"Done did!" Julian said. "He was taking care of it with some of the Protectors while we had the first part of our meeting." He looked at Andrew. "He's got the room on the other side of your bathroom, I hope that's not a problem?"

Andrew shook his head.

"Good!"

After that, the meeting continued on as normal, or at least as normal as it could with everyone's attention turned to our newest member. Though we tried to return to business, it was quickly obvious that no more work would be done, so we spent the rest of the meeting discussing how Rupert/Ruby would do. The general consensus seemed to be that he would do well if we could get him to lighten up a bit.

Unfortunately, with Halloween only three days away, none of us expected to have him ready in time.

-20-

Again, I found my eyes inexorably drawn to Sarah's cleavage. The green of the Frankenwitch, or Witchenstein, I can never remember the name, actually looked good on her, and the choker with neck bolts attached was oddly cute. The rest, what little there was of it, was well made, if a bit... scarce.

I had trouble seeing Leslie's face through the wolf half-mask, but I was sure that under the foam rubber muzzle she had another one of her goofy smiles plastered on, since her eyes were pointed the same place as mine.

"Okay, you two, stop staring," Sarah said, wrapping her arms around herself in an attempt to cover up. She had an embarrassed expression, but it was tinged with a touch of what I thought was pride as well.

I looked down, then quickly regretted it. Looking down only served to draw my eyes to the overstretched bust of my own outfit.

Normally there was little to nothing that Princesses were required to do to simulate busts or other more feminine aspects to their figures unless they wanted to. A few of the other Princesses, like Amanda, used some padding and other helpers to enhance their look and draw away from their more masculine features, but I for one had never gone for it. With how many problems I had concerning my looks already, why would I?

Beside the few times I had gone out with Sarah as a girl and she had given me minimal padding to use, I had never had anything in the chest department, so the special cups sewn into the chest of my outfit filled with the same type of foam rubber as Leslie's mask had been made from made me supremely uncomfortable.

"They're 'C' cups."

"Oh, thank you SO much for that information," I told Sarah with a sneer.

"You look at mine, I look at yours," she said, coming forward and poking the padding on my left side.

"Hey!"

She giggled and stepped back. "Now you know what it's like."

Leslie wrapped her in a hug from behind. "Mr frflfr fr grwlfr."

"What?"

"Mr frflfr fr!"

Sarah spun around and slapped her on the shoulder playfully. "Take the stupid mask off you dope!"

Leslie reached up and unfastened the mask from the specially made strap behind her ears. "I said that I liked yours better," she said, grinning.

"Oh, shut up," Sarah complained, blushing.

"Alright, everybody, out!" I said, pushing the two of them still clinging to each other toward the door. "I need some sleep for tomorrow, and I'll be getting up early if I want to be able to get this costume on again in time."

We said our goodnights, and the other two left, leaving me to myself. I reached up to unfasten the cape from around my neck, but found myself stopping before I actually began. Instead, I walked over to the mirror on my closet door and looked at myself.

I had to admit, the outfit looked good. It was a bit different than the standard Vampwitch costume featured in the comic, but only in areas where it needed to be because of my unique situation. Instead of the low-cut top that would usually be worn underneath the decorative corset -- much more comfortable than the one sewn into my cocktail dress -- there was a light-fitting dressy blouse with something I think called a cravat attached. The cape was short, with a pattern on the inside picked out in a shiny black thread of spiderwebs, and on bottom I had the by-now almost ignorable short skirt, with fishnet stockings and a pair of knee high boots with some kind of odd cuff at the top. Close enough to the original that, when combined with the outfits of the other Princesses, there would be no question of who I was, and a lot more expensive-looking than I would have expected from the school.

Having around two months of occasionally dressing as a girl under my belt had at least allowed me to get comfortable enough with it to be able to identify what looked good on me and what failed, and the costume definitely looked good. As uncomfortable as they made me, the faux breasts did add a great deal to the overall effect. I still had no intention of making something similar a normal part of my costume, but the look was striking.

With a sigh I began the tedious work of removing the costume, glad that Sarah had agreed to wait until the morning to work on the makeup, meaning I did not have to worry about washing that off first. I was already expecting tomorrow to be a long and arduous day, and every second I had to sleep before then was precious.

As soon as I was stripped down, I slid into a pair of boxers and then into bed, to dreams of being Vampwitch and fighting the demons over New Salem.

-21-

For the first time since my arrival, I entered home room to the murmurs and whispers of the other students. I knew I looked different, even from my normal Princess attire, but I had not thought it was that different.

Soon, though, I realized that the murmurs were not for me. Instead, sitting there at the front of class, was...

"Ruby?"

The girl in the green outfit turned and gave me a timid little wave. Gone were the glasses -- was she wearing contacts? The wig looked like far better quality than the one that had been supplied with the costume, but had the same little flip to its style as the cartoon character, and the outfit itself was something to behold.

The store purchased costumes had been our idea as a kind of pseudo-hazing for the incoming freshmen, something I had luckily been allowed to skip, again because of my "unique situation." We had not wanted them to look bad, but we had wanted them to be obviously cheap. Her costume was fitted in such a way as to emphasize curves I was relatively sure had not been there when she had appeared before us in her boys' school uniform.

That, along with her makeup, which mimicked the rosy-cheeked look of the cartoon as closely as could be done in real life, added up to make her a far cuter Buttercup than I had anticipated.

The reactions of the boys around her proved it, as those sitting directly to either side of her seldom managed to remove their eyes from her face and legs. She stood up to come and greet me, her eyes still focused on the floor, when she tripped and started for the floor.

"Oof!"

"Ike!"

"Ow!"

Before she ever reached the tiles there were already three boys beneath her, cushioning her fall. With a start, she quickly pushed herself up and off of the pile, then covering her face dashed out around the desks and out the door.

I looked up to Professor Johnson, and without a word he waved me toward the door while rubbing the bridge of his nose. Without another second's delay I left the classroom.

She was standing just outside the door in the empty hallway, with her back against the wall and breathing hard. She glanced up at me nervously, with a look of fear in her eyes.

I hesitated to speak, afraid to run her off, but I eventually worked up my courage and asked as gently as I could, "is everything okay?"

She shook her head, but did not speak.

I was unsure of what to do, so to buy some time I leant against the wall next to her. "Is there anything I can do?"

She shook her head again. Finally, she seemed to work up the courage to speak. "I'm just scared, is all."

"Why?" I asked, then nodded. "Never mind, I think I know. It's a lot more nerve wracking than you thought it'd be, isn't it?"

She gave me a relieved grin.

"I thought so," I said so, smiling.

The grin faded from her face. "But it's so easy for you. Even on that first day, you were so... calm, and cool. I thought 'if she can do it, why can't I?'" She laughed nervously. "It wasn't as easy as it looked."

I passed an eye over her costume and makeup, and came to a realization. "This isn't your first time dressing, is it?"

She looked like she wanted to bolt again, so I gently laid my hand on her shoulder to calm her. "It's alright, you know. I don't think it's weird."

"...you don't?"

I patted her shoulder. "Nope! My dad's a drag queen, so he's told me a bit about why some people like to do it. What's your reason?"

She began to speak, but stopped herself before uttering a single syllable. Finally, after several more aborted attempts, she said, "I dunno. It's just something I have to do. I just feel so much more, relaxed I guess, when I'm dressed as a girl. I used to just do it when my big sister would dress me up in her clothes and we would play games, but then I started doing it on my own and..."

She sniffled for a moment, then looked up at me with sad eyes. "I thought, if I did this, it would help me fit in. Can you believe that? I did THIS," she gestured at her outfit, "to fit in."

I said nothing.

"It's pretty stupid, I know."

"No, it's not. Misguided, maybe," I said, grinning, "but it's better than my reason."

"Why did you join the Princesses?"

I shrugged. "Well, for the money, obviously."

She laughed. "With how you look I wouldn't think you had a choice." She saw the look on my face at that and blanched. "Oh god, I'm sorry, I didn't think."

I just shrugged again. "So, you ready to go back to class?"

We returned to class, and she gave everyone a smile, then returned to her seat.

"If the drama's over..." Professor Johnson said, and soon class was in full swing.

I spent the rest of the day casually looking out and watching for Ruby, shocked by how many classes of mine she was in and I had never noticed. At the same time, I found myself marveling at all the costumes, too many of them wonderful beyond description.

However, there was one person I found surprisingly absent.

I never saw her once all day, until at last dinner came around, and he entered.

"Hey, Julian, where have you been all day?"

He gave a loud guffaw, then pointed at all of us sitting at the table in our costumes. "I got to skip today, thanks to these great costumes!"

"What?"

"Why?"

We all wanted to know, but he happily strung us along all through dinner, until at the very end we pinned him in the corner and demanded to know.

With a final laugh, he waved his hand down his body. "Ladies, today I went to class... as Invisiwitch."

Those of us with food left threw it at him, while everyone else simply threw their hands in the air and groaned.

(End of Part 7)

END NOTES: As I said at the start, this part's really rough. I just finished it about ten minutes ago as of the time of writing this note, but if I wanted it up today I didn't have much choice but to post it as is. I'll probably look it over tomorrow and try to fix some of the problems, including how little focus there actually is on the Halloween aspect, but until then hopefully people will like what I've got.

If you think I need to rework it, let me know. If not, let me know too! Either way, always remember: if you comment, more will come. IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME.

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire Part 8

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

Part 8: The Princess's Attendance

-22-

"Mister Henderson, stop talking and pay attention!"

I looked up at Professor Swift and started to explain, "but sir..."

"Now, Mister Henderson. If you want to waste your time visiting with your friends, do so when you are not in my class, do you understand?"

Sarah glanced between the two of us, then gave me a light hug. "We can finish this later," she said, then waved to Professor Swift and left the room.

"Now that everyone is ready, shall we return to the lesson at hand before our distraction?"

I wanted to say something, anything, to the jerk standing at the head of the classroom, but I held my tongue and settled back in my seat. Who was he to pick on me in front of the entire class? Sarah had given him the note explaining why she needed to speak to me, and we had not been more than a couple of minutes when he had started in. While I could understand him not wanting his classroom time taken up, he could have just asked us to step out.

It was just another in a long line of actions I had witnessed Professor Swift perform that were unnecessarily mean toward either me or the princess program in general. Of all the teachers, he was the only one who objected to our occasionally having to leave class to prepare for our Princess duties, yet he did not hold the sports teams to the same standard. He would always try and find something wrong with out uniforms to get us in trouble when he would see us in the halls, and on more than one occasion I had heard that he had actually tried to prevent us from being allowed to attend his classes if we were dressed as Princesses.

I could not help but wonder what kind of absurd reason he had for hating us so, and I was determined to find out.

Even Algebra with Professor Cooper was not enough to keep me from thinking on the issues with Professor Swift, and I was distracted through my entire class. By the time etiquette class rolled around, I was thoroughly obsessed with finding out what his problem really was.

"Do you know why Swifty has such a problem with the Princess program members?" I asked Andrew as he pulled out my seat and gestured for me to sit.

"I dunno, Jules never said. She just always complained about him being a jerk."

I nodded as I took his hand to stand up again.

"Good!" The old bat called as she came toward us from across the room. "Did you all see how graceful miss Henderson was, and how gallant young mister Stone looked? That is why you must learn proper manners and etiquette. Everyone follow their example!"

I gave Andrew my "I hate it when she does that" look, and he answered me with his "I do too" look, an exchange we had shared many times since the etiquette class had been expanded to include the non-Princess program boys three weeks earlier. It being only another week and a half until Parents Day, and then the Thanksgiving break, I felt the school had cut it rather close if they wanted the guys to look natural using said manners in front of their parents, especially considering it had been deemed necessary that those of us playing the roles of Princesses needed almost two months more practice. Ever since "the boys" had joined, as those of us in the Princess program had taken to calling them, each day the old bat, whose name I could never remember, would pick a couple to stay together the entire class and demonstrate exactly what and what not to do.

For some reason, Andrew and I had quickly become her favorite targets, something Sarah, Leslie, and Jules all had an absolute blast teasing us over.

"Now, for those of you still having trouble with this most basic of..."

I tuned her out and quietly asked Andrew, "so what do you think we should do? I'm really getting tired of dealing with him in class."

"You could always ask the Head if he could change your schedule."

I shook my head. "That would just put things off until later. If I've got to deal with him, I'll get it out of the way early, but I'd much rather find out what's going on."

He gave me a funny look. "What's up with you and the Nancy Drew act all of a sudden?"

I smirked and poked him in the shoulder. "I just figured I needed another outlet since I'm not using you for an emotional punching bag any more."

"Thank god," he said, giving me a smile.

I think we were both relieved that the tension between us had relaxed so much. After Leslie and Sarah's less than subtle attempt to get us to talk on the trip into town, I had made a concerted effort to watch myself carefully for any signs of quote unquote "bitchiness." It had gone well so far, and after a while even Andrew's discomfort with seeing me as a girl seemed to have lightened up a great deal, an outcome I found more than worth the effort of keeping my own attitude in check.

By the end of class, though, we had come no closer to coming up with any ideas for how to find out what Professor Swift's problem was. With Drama being our next class, we knew we would not have any time there to plan anything, Professor Grumby already hard at work preparing us for our next production after the abysmal failure of West Side Story. Thankfully "Macbeth" required little in the way of singing or dancing, leaving less room for error outside of line readings, but that alone was enough of a problem for most of the class thanks to the archaic language of Shakespeare.

Instead, we planned to meet later that evening after dinner with a few of the others to see who, if anyone, had some idea of what was going on. If nothing else, it would give us a better place to start our search for answers, not to mention make everybody's days a little bit easier.

-23-

"Does it really matter?" Jules asked us. "From what I've heard Ol' Swifty's always been that way, even before the Princess program was started. I'm not going to say he didn't get worse with it, but what are we supposed to do about it?"

I looked at him, surprised at his unwillingness to take action. "Don't you think it's unfair how he treats us?" I looked around us, waving to the crowd of Princesses and Protectors. "Who of us hasn't had to deal with him being a jerk?"

"Exactly," Jules said smugly. "EVERYONE gets it, not just the Princesses. It's just the way he is."

I growled in frustration. "Yes, but WHY? Hasn't anybody complained about it?"

He shrugged.

"Don't you care?" I asked.

"Hey, I just want to finish school and have some fun why I'm here." Jules frowned. "I've stayed with the Princess program because it's kind of fun messing with people's heads, even when they're expecting it. Otherwise, what's the point?"

"The money."

"The girls."

"The clothes."

"Who knows?"

"Exactly," Jules said when everyone else had quieted down.

I rubbed my temples, hoping that would help to ease the headache that was starting to form. Then, without warning, I had an idea.

"Oh, no. What evil scheme are you planning now?" Jules asked with a weary look when he saw my smile.

"You like messing with people's heads, right?"

"Duh."

I felt my smile grow wider. "And what would mess with people's heads more than seeing Ol' Swifty being brought down a peg or two instead of being allowed to lord his authority over us like he does now?"

Apparently my smile was infectious, because a similar one began to sprout on Julian's lips.

"Wait a second, guys," Amos said, stepping out from the wall he had been leaning on and walking toward us. "I don't think this is such a good idea. If we go snooping around and asking questions about Professor Swift, he's bound to find out. All it will do is make him angrier."

"Wouldn't that be part of the fun, though? The danger?" Jules said, taking up the argument on my behalf.

I sighed and settled into a seat, prepared to let the two of them take over. There was a gentle nudge from my right.

"That was pretty sneaky, you know."

"What was?" I asked as innocently as I could.

"Convincing my brother that it'd be fun to do this crazy idea of yours so he'd handle the others."

"Did I do that? I wasn't aware."

In my peripheral vision I could see Andrew shaking his head. "You're something else, you know that?"

"I try to be."

We spent the next half hour watching Jules slowly convince the others to work with us on finding out what to do about Professor Swift. Someone would raise an objection, or bring up an issue, and Jules would find a workaround or through sheer charisma convince the others that it would not be an issue. Meanwhile, I simply sat back and watched it all unfold.

I felt a little guilty about manipulating the situation, but I also knew that Jules would have an easier time convincing the others to work together. There were still a few of the Princesses I hardly knew, while it always seemed that Jules had some kind of secret file on all of us of embarrassing stories or gossip. If anyone could convince you it was in your best interest to listen to them, it was Jules, and I was more than surprised I had been able to manipulate him as easily as I had.

"And you," he said, pointing to me after having talked all the others into agreeing to help.

"Me?"

"Yes, you. Don't think I don't know what you did earlier. I'm keeping an eye on you from now on." The others had already begun to file out, and he followed them, looking at me and pointing back and forth between us the entire time until at last only me, Andrew, and Sarah were left in the room.

"I feel sorry for you if this goes badly," Sarah said, her face blanched.

I simply nodded. The fact that Julian had still been smiling had been little comfort.

-24-

"I'm sorry I got you in trouble today."

"Don't worry about it."

"No, I mean, I should have known better than to do that when you had a class with Professor Swift."

I looked into my mirror and back at Sarah. "It needed to happen. No biggie. Besides, we need to finish the plans, otherwise we'll never be ready in time for Parent's Day."

She sighed, but did not look into the mirror or into my eyes. Instead, she turned her attention back to my hair.

"Can I do pigtails again?"

"You ALWAYS do pigtails," I harrumphed.

"Because you look good in pigtails."

"Oh, alright."

"Yay!" She said happily, clapping her hands and bouncing up and down.

I was less than enthused, myself, though I knew I should have expected it when I had agreed to let her play with my hair. Since the administration had decided to have of all things a pep rally the next day, though, including the bright idea of having us Princesses wear our cheerleader uniforms to class, Sarah had been excited about making as many of us look like authentic high school cheerleaders as possible.

I thought it was just an excuse for her to have fun doing something stereotypically girly, but it made her so happy I never had the heart to tell her no.

"So how are Rupert and Brandon doing under your expert tutelage?" I asked her, trying to restart the conversation that had suddenly stopped.

She laughed. "Well, Rupert seems to know almost as much about makeup and things as me, when you can convince him to actually share any information. Brandon... I'm still not sure about. He acts interested, up until it comes to actually learning all the information, then he gets frustrated if he doesn't get it the first time."

"And Wendy?"

"She's been working with Kylie more than me. They seem to have really hit it off, but I don't talk to them much."

I nodded, having begun to realize myself that even within the Princess program there were small cliques and groupings that had more in common with one another.

"What about you? You've been talking to Rupert a lot yourself."

I shrugged. "I think it's interesting how much he likes dressing as a girl, and how good he is at it."

"Kinda like you?"

I shook my head, causing her to complain when the pigtails flew into disarray.

"Sorry. No, he's not like me. I mean, not really."

I saw the smirk grow on her face in the mirror, but I ignored it. Despite what she might think, I had in fact been giving thought to what I thought of dressing as a girl pretty much constantly since joining the program. I was sure that I did not enjoy it in the same way that Rupert did, but talking to him and getting another perspective on things, from someone who did not necessarily want me to like dressing as a girl but did themselves, had begun to help me piece together my own feelings.

"I was also pretty surprised at you with that meeting this afternoon."

"Yeah, I'd thought it would be harder to convince Julian to go along with it."

"Nah, I knew you could do it. You've got more feminine wiles than you care to admit, and Jules has always liked playing pranks and getting into trouble," she said, soliciting a sharp "ow!" from me when she pulled on a particularly stubborn tangle. "I meant more that you wanted to take action to begin with. I had figured you more for the kind to sit back and deal with things as they come."

"Really?"

"Yeah."

I was quiet for a moment, thinking about how to answer her.

"Not that it's a bad thing," she said.

I reached up and scratched my nose, buying time before answering her.

"I think," I finally started, "it's because I feel like I need to DO something, you know?"

She shook her head while I struggled to find a better way to say it. In the end I gave up.

She finished my hair, and gave the pigtails a couple of playful bats before proudly proclaiming "done!"

I looked in the mirror, turning my head left to right and admiring her work with the school color ribbons entwined in my hair. "You realize, of course, I'll never be able to do this in the morning."

"I'll help!"

I had expected as much.

"And I think we should use the same style with the dresses we're wearing on Parent's Day."

"Ugh, please don't remind me," I complained, my mind rebelling against the vision of lace and ruffles and who knows what the tailors had worked up for our Parent's Day dresses.

She giggled as she collected her hair supplies and headed for the door that lead through the bathroom between my room and Leslie's. "Now I get to work on my boyfriend's hair!"

"What are you planning for him?" I asked.

She giggled again. "Oh, trust me, I have something REALLY special planned for her!"

I was unsure whether to feel Sorry for Leslie or not as Sarah's giggled died away with the closing of the door.

(End of Part 8)

Notes: This week's chapters are brought to you courtesy of Tom Servo and the rest of the MST3K crew. I found this site called justin.tv, and there's a user there with a channel that shows nothing but user requested episodes of MST3K 24/7, which I've had playing in the background while writing. So many bad movies, so little time to mock them. *sigh*

Hopefully the quality of the chapters this week is better than last week's. This part comes between some of the more interesting events of the story, so it's not as interesting as a lot of the others will be, but it needed to happen to move things forward. Trust me, it will all make sense and fit when we get to the end :)

And, as always, if you comment, more will come. IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME.

Melanie Ezell

PS: Special thanks for the ideas for the Parent's Day costumes goes to Princess Chelsea. While I'm keeping the exact details quiet for now, the next part is for you!

Princess For Hire Part 9

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

Part 9: The Princess And The Queen

-25-

I looked down at myself in my freshly pressed uniform and sighed. Parent's Day, and I found myself yet again stuck in a girl's uniform.

I hated to admit it to myself, but in actuality I would almost prefer to meet my dad wearing the girl's uniform rather than the guy's, if for no other reason than I knew it made me stand out. It had been over three years since we had seen each other in person, and I kept having these horrible thoughts of him walking in, and even though I would wave to him over and over to get his attention he would never recognize me.

On the other hand, when we finally met each other again after so much time, I wanted him to see someone he could be proud of, and for some reason I felt like seeing me in a skirt and blouse would be more likely to make him laugh.

Not that it mattered. All the Princesses would be wearing their girl's uniforms for the day, so at the least I knew that I was not the only freshman worried about what their parents would say when they saw them.

I cannot be certain how much longer I stood there, staring at myself in the mirror, but my attention was eventually broken by Leslie walking in through the bathroom door.

"Oh! Sorry, I figured you would be ready by now," she said, turning away with a blush.

"Don't worry, I am," I said, laughing. I turned around and on impulse gave her a hug.

"Uhmm, thanks?" She said, when I backed up. "What was that for?"

"For... I don't know... just being here." I looked down at my feet, studying the scuffs in my formerly shiny mary-janes. "You've been a lot of help lately and, I guess I'm just nervous."

Leslie giggled, squeezing me around the shoulder. "It's alright. You've been working a lot more with Sarah than me, though."

I shrugged. "Maybe, but you're still my big sister."

Her face lit up when I said that, and with a skip in her step she threw my door open and waved me out. "Come on, little sister and get a move on, it's Parent's Day!"

We stepped out of my room to find Sarah and Andrew already waiting for us. Sarah eagerly took Leslie's hand, giving her a quick peck on the cheek and admiring the Heidi braids she had put in the night before, while Andrew stood to the side, for once looking more uncomfortable than I in his stiff suit and tie.

"Rebecca," he said, giving me a sketchy bow.

"Andrew," I returned, dropping into a sloppy curtsey and fighting to keep a straight face.

"Alright you two, enough playing around, time to get going!"

"Yes, mom," I whined, standing up and rolling my eyes at Sarah, who giggled and started dragging Leslie down the hall, while Andrew and I followed along behind about a foot apart.

"She seems excited," Andrew said, as we watched Sarah talking animatedly to Leslie as the two of them led the way to the cafeteria.

"She is," I told him. "She's from Persistence. I'm looking forward to seeing my dad, since it's been years since we've seen each other, but it must be almost as rough on her, knowing her parents are so close but hardly ever getting to see them."

"Why haven't you seen your dad in so long?"

I sighed. I knew I would have to explain eventually, but today was not the time I wanted to. I decided to give him the short version. "When I was really little, my mom and dad divorced and afterward my dad came out as gay. I used to get to visit him fairly regularly, but about five years back he started to get into the drag scene and when my mom found out about it she threw a fit. She convinced the stepfamily to move further away, and my dad couldn't afford to pay my way each direction for me to see him, so I haven't had a chance to do more than talk to him over the phone since."

"But he's got custody of you now?"

"Yeah."

"How did that work out?"

This was where things really became uncomfortable. "I don't get along well with my stepfather. My stepfamily in general, really. I love my mom, and I know she thinks she was doing the right thing and all, but the rest of them don't care about me and think I'm some kind of freak."

"You're not," Andrew said, when I stopped there.

I gave him a smirk and gestured down my body. "My stepfather tried to tell me I couldn't go to Kingston when I was accepted. It hurt my mom's feelings, but I told her that if they didn't let me go, I would get Dad to take legal action. It was the first time I ever really stood up to my stepfather, and even then I had to do it through my mom." I laughed. "My mom gave my dad full custody after she had a fight with my stepfather over things. At least I think that's how it worked, I never did get all the details of how and why. Funnily enough, though, even though I was stuck there with them until school started nothing really bad happened. So, now my dad's got custody of me, and as far as I know my stepfather won't even let my mom write to me."

Andrew gently grabbed my arm and frowned down at me. "I'm sorry you had to deal with someone like that."

I shook my head, and looked up into Andrew's eyes. "I feel more sorry for my mom. I think things are better for her without me there, though." I could feel tears trying to flow, and quickly reached up to make sure they would not mess up the makeup I had worked so hard that morning to apply.

Andrew wrapped me in his arms. It was strange, the first truly intimate contact we had ever had, but I let him, and it did help me feel better.

"Ah hem," a teacher's voice came from behind me, sending me and Andrew flying apart.

"No PDA's, you two," professor Grumby said, giving us The Eye.

"No sir, I mean, we weren't..."

"Sir, it was just-"

"Now, now," he said with a smile, "I know how you kids are, and I'm a liberal, after all, 'no prop eight' and all that, but it's against school rules."

"Yes, sir," we said in unison, our voices so quiet as to be almost whispers.

"Good. Now, move along."

We moved, and made it around the next turn in the hall before we looked at each other and broke up laughing.

-26-

If there was one thing that I was not looking forward to concerning our contribution to Parent's Day, it was the outfits.

Not that they were bad outfits, per se, but rather that they were exceedingly feminine.

I gave Leslie a wry grin. "I don't think this is exactly what the school had in mind when it asked us what we would do for Parent's Day."

She laughed. "Me neither. But it is good for a laugh, wouldn't you say?"

"Only if you're laughing AT us."

"But of course," she said, with a grin of her own.

All of the campus clubs were required to contribute something to the Parent's Day activities, whether it be the drama club performing famous monologues from different plays, the culinary club providing refreshments, or the school band playing a selection of old Swing music in the cafeteria. The school considered the Princess Program to be a school club for the purposes of events like these, so in addition to any other club responsibilities we might have, we were all expected to provide some form of entertainment that only the Princess program could provide.

That was why I now found myself in a pink, ruffled dress covered in lace and holding a tray, waiting to deliver drinks to parents waiting in the next room.

I had to admit, I had worn far more revealing and provocative outfits before, but this one took the cake as far as embarrassment potential. Reaching to mid thigh, the skirt stood out a good six inches from my legs on all sides, supported by a cloud of netting and lace. Ribbons had been woven into the fabric, crisscrossing up and across my torso, adding a shiny rose detail to the otherwise pastel pink dress, with even more lace at the neckline and around the openings of the short, puffed sleeves. All of this was accented by yet more lace in the form of a short white apron, and cream stockings with more rose-colored ribbons wrapped about them.

The small, plastic tiara was just another laughable topping to the already horrendously little girlish outfit, leaving me feeling as though I were the victim of an explosion in a cotton candy factory.

"Here you are, sirs. Is there anything else I can do for you?" I asked as I curtsied to the gentlemen sitting at my assigned table. They shook there heads, and I began to turn around and head for my next table when there was a tug at my skirt.

"Ooh, ooh, mommy I want a picture with her!"

I looked down, and there stood an adorable little girl, wearing a dress that would have looked at home in a fairy tale book. She looked up at me with a broad toothy grin, and jumped up and down in excitement.

"Mommy, please, she's so pretty can I have a picture with her pleeeeeease?"

The woman standing behind her gave me an apologetic smile. "Sorry about this, but would you let me take a picture of you and her together?"

"Um, okay, sure," I said, blushing.

"Yaay!" The little girl said, jumping up and down even more, causing her pigtails -- very similar to mine, I was less than surprised to notice -- to bounce around merrily. "Over here!" She said, grabbing my hand and dragging me over to a table where Jules was busy serving drinks.

As we walked, the young woman with her bent down and whispered in my ear. "We didn't have the heart to tell her you were all boys. She's only six, and when she saw how much alike you looked she dragged me and her dad in here. If it's a problem we can tell her no."

I shook my head, and gave the gleeful little girl next to me a glance. "That's alright. I wouldn't want to spoil her day," I whispered back.

The girl's mother gave me another smile. "Thanks."

"Daddy, you take a picture with us too!"

"Okay, sweetheart," the man she had stopped next to said, picking her up and setting her on his knees. "Do you want to stand behind me, so we can all be in the shot," he asked me, "or would you prefer that I stand so you can sit down?"

The little girl fidgeted until she was only on one of her father's knees. "She can sit with me!"

"Honey, I don't know if that's appropriate..." her father started, but petered out when she gave him what can only be described as "puppy dog eyes." He gave me a desperate look.

I shrugged. I had done more embarrassing things since becoming a Princess, including wearing the dress to begin with. What could one photo hurt? "I don't mind, if it will make her happy."

"Are you sure?"

I nodded. We both shifted about uncomfortably for a moment, until finally I managed to maneuver myself onto the edge of his right knee.

We all smiled, and after a few quick flashes the photos were done. "Thank you so much!" The little girl said, jumping off her father's knee and wrapping me in an unexpected hug.

I gave her a quick squeeze back. "You're welcome."

She giggled, then ran off again, leaving me standing there with her parents.

"We're sorry, and thank you again for letting her have her picture. We can compensate you if-"

I waved them off. "No, that's alright. I didn't mind, really." I gave her father a smirk. "I'm more sorry if it embarrassed you, sir."

He laughed. "It's alright. I guess it's pretty obvious that she has me wrapped around her little finger, though."

I laughed along with him. "Just a little."

"Brother, see the princess I took my picture with?"

I looked up, and had to suppress a further laugh as Stewart stumbled up, hand held in a death grip by the little girl.

"Hi Stewart."

"Hi," he mumbled. "Um, Becky, isn't it?"

"Yep."

He tugged on the little girl's hand, causing her to giggle again. "Sorry if Rosie was being a nuisance."

"I'm not a nuisance!" The little girl, Rosie apparently, said with a pout.

He shook his head. "Well, um, it was nice seeing you again... I guess. See you around?"

I nodded, and gave Rosie a wave. "Bye Rosie!"

"Bye Princess Becky!"

I returned to my work, sure that I would be grinning like an idiot the rest of the day, and sure enough for the next half hour there was nothing too embarrassing or that could keep me from remembering how happy little Rosie had been with our picture. Then my day was made even better.

"Well, I certainly didn't expect to see you in something like this," a familiar voice said from behind me.

I spun around, and looked up into the warm, smiling eyes of one of my favorite people in the entire world.

"Dad!" I cried, as I wrapped my arms around my father's neck in the first hug we had shared in far too long.

-27-

I had known I would be emotional when I finally had a chance to see my dad in person again, but I had never expected to be so happy to see him that I would end up crying. Regardless, that is exactly what I did, tears of happiness running down my face as I kept a death grip on him. In the back of my mind I vaguely wondered if I would have felt so free to express myself if I had been dressed as a boy. Yes, I determined, I would.

It must have been at least five minutes before I finally let go, and when I backed away I saw that my dad had been crying too.

"Take the rest of the day off," I heard Jules say from behind me as her hand rested on my shoulder. "Go visit with your dad." I gave her an appreciative nod, then waved my dad toward an available table.

"Do you want to change before we sit down?" He asked me, gesturing to my outfit.

"Why?"

"No reason," he said, with a smile. He pulled out one of the chairs and waited expectantly.

"Oh!" I said, finally getting it and settling myself into the seat as he pushed it in to the table. He took the seat immediately across from me and sat, his hands clasped before him.

"You do look beautiful," he said, still with that same warm smile on his face. "I'm proud you've taken so well to things here."

"I like it here," I said. "It's a good school, and most of the teachers are great, and even this," I waved down my outfit, "can be fun sometimes."

He nodded, laughing. "Don't I know it. You have no idea how crazy some of the girls at the club went when I told them my son was a Princess at an all boys school. Of course, they went on to mention that it wasn't much of a surprise," he said, with a dramatic flourish of his hands, "given who your father is. They want pictures."

"Heh, they aren't the only ones," I said, then told him about Rosie.

"Well, I might have to track them down and ask for a copy or two of that."

"I doubt they'd mind." I sighed in contentment, and just looked at my dad for a moment. "I missed you so much," I finally said, feeling the tears start to well up again and fighting them back.

"I know, Beck, and I'm sorry it took so long for us to see each other."

"I understood," I said, wiping my face with a napkin. "I knew money was hard for you to come by even when we were living closer together, and that mom and... them, would have thrown a fit if we had asked them to help me visit you."

He nodded, a grimace on his face. "Still, I should have worked harder, I should have...." He choked up, then moved quickly to the chair beside me, wrapping me in a hug again from the side.

I leaned into my dad, enjoying the closeness. I felt him rumble slightly beneath me, and looked up.

"What?"

"We're getting some odd looks from the other parents, and a few of you fellow students."

"Who cares."

We just sat there for what felt like forever, and still all too short a time, just feeling the comfort of being near one another again. Eventually, though, I had to break the silence.

"Are you staying for Thanksgiving?"

"I wish I could, Beck, but I've got another show that the club manager said he needs me to do."

I sighed. "At least you made it down here for Parent's Day."

He squeezed me gently. "I wouldn't miss it for the world. So, what are your plans for Thanksgiving, then? I would take you with me, but-"

"Yeah, yeah, I know. We'd have to drive because you couldn't afford plane tickets for us both."

"And by the time we got down there,-"

"It'd be time to turn around and come back up," I finished for him, punching him playfully in the shoulder. That had been a major part of the reason that I had stayed with my mom between the custody change and school starting, after all. "But you are letting me come home for the summer, right?"

"Nope! I thought I'd send you out on your own, to explore the good old U S of A with nothing but a backpack and good intentions."

"And then bail me out when I'm arrested for hitchhiking."

"Good point," he said, cradling his chin in his hand with a look of mock pensiveness. "Perhaps it would be better to bring you home."

"I think so."

"Then that's what we'll do. But, Thanksgiving?"

I grinned. "My friend Sarah," I pointed her out to him, across the room and waiting on a table, "said I could spend it at her place if I couldn't go home with you."

"She's the local one, right?"

I nodded.

"Well, have fun. But not too much fun. Not until you're eighteen."

"Dad!"

"Well, she is a cute girl..."

"And dating Leslie, dad."

"Which one's Leslie?"

I pointed her out to him.

"Hah! Your school certainly is something else, that's for sure."

"Yeah," I agreed. "But... I think it's better like this."

"Me too, son, me too."

"Dad?"

"Yeah?"

"I'm wearing a dress."

We both fell apart laughing after that, and turned our conversation to catching up on everything we had missed over the last three years. There was a lot to catch up on, but I found myself focusing more and more on the events of just the past few months at the school.

All too soon, it was time for us to close up shop, and I had to tell my dad goodbye.

"I'll miss you, Dad."

He gave me one final hug, then backed away. "I'll miss you too, Becky. I'll try to save enough to have you home for Christmas, though."

I smiled, and nodded. "Now get out of here or you'll miss you plane!"

He started to walk away, then stopped and turned around again, a sad look in his usually happy eyes. "There are other planes, but I don't get to see you every day."

"I know," I said, "but we'll see each other again very soon."

"Maybe, but how soon?"

A single tear I could not stop traced down my cheek. "We'll find out soon enough."

(End of Part Nine)

Notes: I'm still not QUITE happy with this part. Like part 7, I'll probably go back and add more to this later, but it'll be after I finish the rest of the story, so no worries on it happening too soon :P

The comments on the last part were a bit scarcer than normal. As a result, funding for this post was cut. I had to hire an efficiency expert, who recommended laying off half the staff I use for proofing/editing/testing. Of course, half of 'none' is no major loss, so the story suffered little for this cutback.

As always, remember, if you comment, more will come. IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME.

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire Part 10

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

Part Ten: A Thanksgiving Interlude (1)

-28-

I tapped my foot, nervous and unsure about the coming weekend.

"Relax!" Sarah said as she lowered the handle on her rolling suitcase and sat down on it carefully. "Everything will be fine!"

I gave her a tight-lipped smile and tried to calm myself down, unsuccessfully. I knew she was telling the truth, and I had met her parents briefly just a few hours ago during our parent's day events, but that helped very little in the face of spending the next four days with them.

Sarah giggled, as best as I could tell amused at how tense I was. "Seriously, they liked you. Just try and have fun. And look on the bright side, no princess duties for four days!"

That had me grinning. Though skirts and the other accoutrements of the Princess program caused me few if any problems any more, it was still a relief not to have to deal with them in an official capacity for a few days. For once in a long time, I could escape the stress of being a Princess and just be Beck, or even Becky as I knew Sarah would ask if we could go out as girls at least once.

A few deep breaths, and I at last managed to calm myself, and settled down on top of my own duffel bag to wait for our ride.

Even without the Princess duties, I had still not managed to completely escape girl's clothes for the next four days. Without a whole lot of clothes at the start of the year I had expected to have to do laundry quite often. The Princess Program had helped to relieve my clothing problem somewhat, if in an unexpected direction, but the clothes were not exactly masculine. Despite that, I had taken to using some of the girl's underwear even on my days dressed as a boy to help fill in the time between laundry days. On top of everything else, once I had learned what styles worked for me and what did not, it had become more comfortable to wear the girl's underwear that fit rather than the old, threadbare boy's underwear I had.

I shifted on my bag, vaguely regretting my choice to bring only the girl's underwear.

"There they are!" Sarah called as she bounced to her feet, startling me. I looked up in time to see her mom, a short Asian woman who looked like an older version of Sarah, and her father, a stocky gentleman with graying hair, both walking toward us with smiles on their faces.

"Are you two ready?" Her father asked as he was assaulted by Sarah wrapping him in a hug. "Hey princess."

Her mom gave me a soft smile and reached out her hand. "Come on, we won't bite, I promise!"

I took her hand and stood up, then we both grabbed our bags and followed them out to their silver van, warm and waiting for us.

"Thank you for letting me come over to your house for Thanksgiving, mister and misses Graham."

"Please, call me Sakaki. And you're very welcome. We're just glad Sarah has another friend like herself at the school."

"Mom!"

"I'm sorry?" I asked, confused.

"You know!" She gestured at Sarah, a knowing look on her face.

"Um, Mom, Beck isn't... oh, god."

Now Mrs. Graham was frowning. "She isn't? But I thought with how she looked."

I sighed. "It's okay, Sarah." I looked her mom in the eyes. "I don't want to be a girl like Sarah does, Misses Gra- er, Miss Sakaki. I just, uh... look like this."

"But... when you stood up I saw your panties," she said, confusion evident in her tone.

"MOM!"

I sunk into my seat and wished desperately that I had simply stayed at the school.

We spent the rest of the twenty minute ride explaining to her parents exactly what my situation was. No, I was not 'like Sarah' in that I did not want to be a girl. Yes, I was part of the Princess program, they had seen me in my pink dress earlier. Yes, I knew I looked very pretty (their words) and not much like a boy. I quickly grew tired of their well meaning but still stressful attention.

Finally, I had enough. "I'm sorry I've caused you so many problems, if you need to take me back to the school I can-"

"Oh, no! We can't do that!" Sarah's father said, giving me a stern look in the mirror before giving that same look to his wife and daughter. "You are a guest of ours, and you will be treated with respect. I apologize for our confusion, we simply assumed that because Sarah always talked about you as a girl that was what you preferred."

I glanced over to see that now Sarah was the one with the blush on her face.

"Sorry," she said quietly, not looking me in the eyes.

I squeezed her shoulder lightly. "It's okay." When she looked up, I gave her a smile. "Really."

I turned to her father, already regretting what I was about to say. "Sir, if it would make things easier, I could be Becky for the weekend."

"Really?"

"NO!" Her father bellowed. He seemed shocked at his own outburst, but quickly recovered. "No," he said again, much more calmly. "You don't have to dress as a girl just because we had the wrong idea. Thanks to Sarah," he gave her a loving smile in the rear view mirror, "we've learned our lesson about making people be someone they're not."

I felt the tension I had not noticed building drain from my shoulders at his words. I truly did want to just relax this weekend, and while I could handle the clothes, knowing that I would not HAVE to wear them was a relief.

Sarah tugged on my sleeve lightly.

"Yeah?"

"Umm, even if you don't spend the weekend as Becky, can you at least spend one day as her? You don't have to," she said quickly, when she saw her father's glare in the mirror, "but if you want to, I was thinking we could just have some fun?"

Her mom coughed lightly from the front, gaining our attention, and gave me an apologetic smile. "I, uh, had planned for us to have a girl's day out on Saturday already."

"Sakaki, don't make him do it if he doesn't want to."

I shook my head. "It's okay." I sighed, and glanced over at Sarah again. "So long as the rest of the time it's up to me how I dress, okay?"

Everyone in the vehicle nodded their heads solemnly, and I sat back and pondered my situation. Something told me I would be spending more than just Saturday dressed as a girl. As I had said, so long as they did not pressure me into it, that was okay -- I had been expecting as much, hanging out with Sarah, and had packed a couple of outfits just in case as it were. It was looking more and more, though, like my Princess-free weekend was slipping away.

I vowed to buy some better fitting boy's underwear at the first chance, as well.

-29-

We pulled up in front of a beautiful two story white house in a nice neighborhood, complete with white picket fence and a large shaggy white dog tied to a lead in he front yard. As soon as Sarah climbed out of the car, he began to jump up and down, barking excitedly.

"Hey Marley," she said, jogging up to him and wrapping him in a hug as he eagerly licked her face.

I watched for a few seconds before heading around to the back to grab my bags, only to find Mr. Graham standing there with both Sarah's bags and mine thrown over his shoulders.

"Sir, I can help," I said.

"That's alright," he said, smiling at me. "Go introduce yourself to Marley while I take these inside."

I looked back over to see Sarah pinned to the ground by the large pooch and laughing as he slobbered all over her, seemingly immune to how dirty he was making her clothes. With a chuckle of my own I hurried over and crouched down next to her.

As soon as I approached Marley backed up, letting Sarah up, and gave me a curious look. His tail was still wagging, though, so I was pretty sure everything was okay.

"Marley, this is my friend Beck. Beck, this is my little brother Marley."

"Hey boy," I said, holding out my hand. In a flash I found myself on the ground in the same position Sarah had been moments before, a happy but heavy dog on top of me.

"Marley, down!" Sarah commanded, grabbing his collar and pulling him back, letting me up. "I think he likes you."

"I'm glad," I said, a bit breathlessly.

"Kids, come on in so we can get things sorted!"

"Coming Mom!"

I followed Sarah into the house, feeling more comfortable by the moment. The walls were filled with pictures of Sarah and her family, including a tall older boy I could not recognize. In all the pictures they looked very happy, almost like the perfect family.

"There you are," Sarah's mom said, coming around a corner and seeing us standing in the front hallway. "Oh, look at this, I'm sorry about that Beck, Marley is a big sweetheart, but he still thinks he's a puppy half his size."

"It's okay," I said smiling as she tried to dust the worst of the grass and dirt from mine and Sarah's clothes, tutting all the while.

"Well, you can change as soon as we get you settled." She gave me a nervous glance. "We, uh, had been expecting you to share a room with Sarah, but since things aren't exactly how we thought, I'm afraid you'll be sleeping on the living room couch."

"Can't Beck use Tommy's room?"

"And leave me on the couch?" I voice I had never heard called from the room she had came out of, followed by a tall, athletic looking young man who I recognized from the photos. "I don't think so."

"Tommy!" Sarah squealed with even more excitement than when she had greeted Marley. She tackled the tall young man, wrapping her arms around his neck. "I thought you were still on tour?"

"I got out home yesterday," he said, grinning, as he wrapped his own arms around her.

"Tour?"

"Tommy's in the army," Sarah answered me when she finally let him go. "Tommy, this is Beck, my best friend. Beck, this is my older brother Tommy."

He held out his hand to me. "I see you already met our little brother," he said, looking at my stained and dirty clothes.

"Yup. Nice to meet you," I said, taking his hand and preparing to shake it, but surprised when he instead lifted it and kissed the back.

"Charmed," he said, giving me a thousand watt smile while I stood there, speechless.

Sarah giggled. "Uhm, Tommy?"

"Yeah, sis," he said, never looking away from my face.

"Beck's not like me, he's a guy."

The smile slowly drained from his face, to be replaced by a blush. "Oh." He dropped my hand and stepped back, coughing nervously. "Sorry about that, dude."

I struggled to find something to say, while Sarah moved from giggling to outright cackling at our matching blushes.

"Sarah! Stop teasing your brother! Tommy, why don't you go help your dad with the steaks for dinner?"

"Yes, mom," both Sarah and Tommy said at the same time.

"Sarah, why don't you help Beck set up in the front room?" Mrs. Graham said, handing her what looked like a large-ish roll of plastic while Tommy made a beeline for what I assumed was the kitchen. Then she winked at me. "And I'm serious about not teasing your brother, he was only trying to be nice."

"Okay," Sarah said in a sad voice, then turned to me with a smirk on her face. "Come on, let's get you set up."

We entered the comfortable room and set about clearing a space out of the way where she unrolled what turned out to be a blow-up mattress and proceeded to fill it with a pump, taking turns.

After several turns each, I turned to Sarah. "Sarah?"

"Yeah?"

"Were you serious? About me being your best friend?"

She nodded. "Yeah! I mean, I know it's kind of weird since we've only known each other a couple of months and all, but... yeah."

I was taken aback. "But I thought Leslie was your best friend?"

"Well... I like Leslie. A LOT," she said, grinning with a far away look in her eyes. "But, I dunno, it's not the same." She frowned for a moment. "Don't take this the wrong way, okay?"

I nodded, having a feeling I already knew what she was going to say.

"Leslie, I see as a guy. And I'm sorry, but-"

"You don't see me as one," I said, interrupting her. She looked at me, and I thought for a moment she was about to cry, so I wrapped her in a hug. "It's alright, I guess. And I'm honored, really. You're my best friend, too."

"Really?"

"Uh huh."

It was true. Leslie might have been my mentor in the Princess program, and he was a great guy, but as much as it annoyed me, I knew he saw me as more like Sarah too, as did the other Princesses. What was it about me that made people think of me as a girl? Was it just my looks, or did I behave in some kind of overtly feminine way? Whatever the reason, it has created an almost imperceptible barrier between me and most of the other Princess program members that I had no idea how to cross. The only one who did not seem to have that was Sarah. As a result, I had grown closer to her than any of the others, and the more I hung out with her the easier it was for me to see how badly she needed someone else around who she could identify with.

We spent the rest of our time preparing the room in silence, but a comfortable one. Occasionally Sarah would look at me, and I imagined I could see a glimmer of relief in her eyes.

I had decided a while ago that I was not going to feel sorry for myself over things, and this was just another part of that. She really was my best friend. And if part of that was her thinking of me as a girl, then I knew that I could live with that if it helped her be more comfortable.

-30-

"Wake uuuuuup, sleepyhead."

I rolled over, pulling the blanket up around my head to block out the light.

A sudden tug and spin, and I screamed as my retinas were burned by the brightness.

"Come on!" Sarah said, lightly smacking me with the end of the blanket she now held in her hands. "I've been trying to get you up for half an hour! We gotta get ready to go to my grandma's for Thanksgiving!"

I clawed about for a pillow, slamming it over my eyes as quickly as I could. "Alright, I'm up! What time is it anyhow?"

Six thirty, we've gotta get ready if we want to make it to her place by two. If you get up soon there might be some of my dad's homemade waffles left."

"Waffles?" I asked, grasping for something to give me a reason to bother getting up.

"With chocolate chips, covered in karo syrup and butter..." Sarah said, in soft tones right next to my ear.

"MMmmmmm...."

"If you want them, then get up!"

"I bet I can get her up," I heard Tommy say. Then I screamed again as the mattress beneath me began to slide sideways. I reached for the edge blindly, but only managed to send myself rolling to the floor with a sound "thump."

"Oh, geez, are you okay?" Sarah asked, sounding worried.

I groaned. "Those waffles better be worth it."

Thank goodness they were.

Thanksgiving had dawned a bright and crystal clear if incredibly cold Thursday morning, and after finishing the world's most delicious waffles I was sorely tempted to curl up in a blanket near a heat vent and doze the day away. Unfortunately for me, all of the Grahams were almost annoyingly perky on this particular morning, and I soon found myself thrust into a bathroom with a handful of clothes and ordered to take a shower and get ready for a big day ahead of me. Luckily, long practice had given me the foresight to double check my clothes before starting my shower.

"Sarah!"

"Can't blame me for trying," she said sheepishly as she handed me a pair of my own jeans and a polo shirt to replace the skirt and blouse I had been given. As I washed, I cursed my bad luck that everyone around me any more seemed to be such morning people while I would not object to sleeping in until noon on a regular basis.

In addition to getting dressed, I was also expected to help prepare a handful of dishes to take as well. Sarah worked on a pie with her father while Tommy made some kind of casserole. Having admitted I had no experience cooking beyond the occasional bag of popcorn and a few other microwave dishes, I had been relegated to helping Mrs. Graham remove vegetable sushi from a large plastic container and arrange it on a platter to take with us.

"I can't cook to save my life, that's why Alan does all our meals," she said to my curious expression. "But when he first introduced me to his parents, they went crazy over the fact that I was from Japan, never mind that my family moved here when I was only six. Ever since, they've expected me to bring some kind of 'authentic Japanese food' to every family outing, and I've just never had the courage to tell them the truth." She grinned. "So we buy it from a restaurant in town and move it over to our own dishes. As far as I know, nobody's figured it out yet."

We both had a good laugh over that, and before I knew it it was time for us to pack up and head out. Because there were so many of us, it was decided to split into two vehicles. Tommy would ride with Sarah's dad, whose name I had learned was Alan, while Sarah and I would ride with Mrs. Graham and the food.

The trip out to Sarah's grandparents' house was filled with laughter and conversation, and I had a chance to experience a happy family situation like I had not seen since before my mom and dad had divorced. It was enough to make me long for such a family myself. In the end, though, I knew it was not meant for me, and instead contented myself to be able to be a part of this loving group even if just for one weekend.

After over two hours of driving we eventually stopped in front of a long ranch-style home in the middle of the woods with what must have been a dozen cars, trucks, and SUVs already parked in front. We waited for Tommy and Mr. Graham to arrive, and when they had caught up each of the adults took a dish and had Sarah and I lead the way to the house.

When we reached the front door, Sarah rapped the old iron knocker three times, then stood back, waiting for an answer.

(End of Part 10)

NOTES:

Sorry for this one being up a day late! I got an Xbox 360 last week (I know, I know, I'm a total game geek, okay?) so that kind of cut into my writing time a bit. On top of that, I spent a lot of time trying to work out how to get everything I wanted for the Thanksgiving break into one part, and it just wasn't happening, so we're looking at a two to three part set here, meaning that the time until I take my break has been extended by as much as two weeks!

I hope y'all enjoy this part of the story, I plan on it being a lot of fun, and it's part I've been looking forward to even though it isn't necessarily required for the main story arch.

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire Part 11

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Serial Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

Part 11: Thanksgiving Interlude (2)

-31-

I walked out of the bathroom clutching my old clothes in my hand to find Sarah standing there waiting for me. When she saw my face, she shrugged her shoulders and grimaced in a way that said quite clearly 'I tried!'

"Now come here, sweetie, let me see. Oh, now isn't that so much better on you than those old boy clothes, a girl as pretty as you shouldn't be dressing like that."

"Yes, Mamma Graham." I said, suppressing my sigh and trying to match her smile.

"Good. Now, come and help me with setting the table."

Sarah and I had been standing at the door for only a few seconds when it had been pulled open. Before me had been the biggest, most adorable eyes I had ever seen on a human even though they were on a small woman who must have been old enough to be my grandmother's mother.

"Good morning, girls!" She had said in a melodic voice and wrapped us both in hugs. "You must be..."

"I'm Beck," I had said, "nice to meet you, ma'am."

"You can call me Mamma Graham, sweetie" she had said, giving me an extra squeeze, and I had known then that I would never be able to say no to her.

Miss Sakaki, Mr. Graham, and Sarah all tried to tell her that I was a boy while Tommy had simply looked on bemused, but the little old lady was like a whirlwind of good-natured misunderstanding. She thought I was like Sarah, and could not be swayed, so I had eventually pulled the three of them off to the side and told them to let it drop.

That had been when she had spoken the ominous words.

"Dearie me, I was so glad when Sarah stopped trying to dress like a boy. Honey, come here, I've got something for you."

I had thought Sarah's puppy-dog eyed pout was bad enough, but I soon found out she held nothing on Mamma Graham.

At least the dress was warmer than my old clothes, I told myself, or as warm as a calf-length dress could be anyhow. My sneakers looked somewhat out of place with it, but the plain white did not clash too badly with the cream and yellow print dress.

As soon as I walked in the kitchen, I heard Miss Sakaki gasp, and when I looked about I saw Mamma Graham giving her a broad grin.

"See? She's so much prettier when she wears pretty clothes, isn't she?"

Sarah's mom simply nodded, giving me a sad look. I smiled at her, and shook my head, trying to let her know it was okay.

In a way, it was actually somewhat of a relief to get it over with. Though I had wanted to be a boy for at least the majority of the weekend, and everybody had told me that was fine, there had been a tension between us that I had known was because of my presentation. They had expected a girl, in a way at least, and instead had gotten me. It probably would not have been so bad, but with my looks...

Now, I knew that tension would be shattered. For better or worse, I was Becky for at least the rest of the visit at Mamma Graham's home, and more than likely the rest of the weekend. Considering it, I surprised myself by realizing how little difference it actually made to me.

Soon, all my thoughts were taken by helping the rest of the women in the house prepare the table and take care of any last minute food items that may have been forgotten. I had never gotten on well with my mother's or stepfather's parents, and my dad's parents had died before I was born. Seeing how much love there was not only between Sarah and her own parents, but her grandparents, and aunts and uncles and too many cousins to count, it was a powerful experience.

"Hey, are you okay?" One of the random aunts whose name I had not managed to catch asked me worriedly.

"Yeah, why?"

"Because you're crying," she said, with a frown, and reached up and wiped the tears I had not noticed falling from my cheek.

I laughed. "I'm fine, really. I'm just not used to seeing a family as close as this."

She gave me a small hug. "Well, get used to it," she said. "As long as you're here you're part of our family. Right girls?" She asked the rest of the room.

A chorus of yeahs, yups, and of courses answered her, and I found myself being passed around to all the aunts and cousins there. When I eventually reached Sarah and her mom, they both hugged me at once, while I no longer bothered to try and stop myself from crying. It was a surreal, but immensely happy feeling to be with these crazy, wonderful people, and a dress was an insignificant price to pay for that feeling.

"You girls go on, we'll finish up here," Mamma Graham said, shooing me and Sarah out of the kitchen. We ended up on the front porch, wrapped in our coats and sitting side by side on the old bench swing that hung there.

"Sorry about my family, I probably should have warned you they can be a little intense."

"A little?" I said, then laughed. "It's alright, I just didn't expect it is all." I paused, listening to the wind and watching it blow the dry brown leaves across the lawn.

"It's nice," I finally said, after what felt like five minutes of silence.

"I bet you would prefer to be with your own family, though."

"Are you kidding?" I asked her, giving her a look of disbelief. "Being tormented by my stepbrothers and cousins, listening to my stepfather argue with HIS brothers and their Aunt Mary, getting the standard speech from his grandparents on how I needed to cut my hair and start playing football. Having to WATCH football, ugh," I gave a thumbs down for emphasis. "This is infinitely better than any Thanksgiving I've had since my mom and dad were still together."

"Wow," she said, her eyes wide. "I'm sorry."

I shook my head. "Don't be. Even if I was with my dad, it'd just be us, or a few of his friends from the club. It wouldn't be anywhere near this wonderful." I grabbed her hand and squeezed it. "Thanks for inviting me."

"You're welcome," she said, smiling.

"Now, let's get back inside." I stood up, dragging her with me. "I'm hungry, and I don't want Tommy to eat everything before we get in."

"He would," she said, giggling as she followed me into the warm, inviting, and cheerful home of Mamma Graham.

-32-

I gave Mamma Graham another hug before loading into the back of Miss Sakaki's car.

"You come back and visit any time you want, honey."

"Thank you, ma'am. I will."

Sarah and I waved to her and the rest of them as we pulled away, including Tommy, who had stayed behind with Mr. Graham's SUV so he could play more football with his cousins.

I turned to the front, and caught the dirty look Miss Sakaki gave her husband as he cradled his bruised but not broken hand and grinned at her, a few pieces of grass still stuck in his teeth.

"I thought you promised not to play so rough? You could have gotten seriously hurt!"

"Yes dear."

"Most of those boys are half your age, and Tommy's not the only one in the army! What were you thinking!"

"Sorry dear."

He continued to grin, and it was not too much longer before Miss Sakaki's mask of anger cracked and she began to giggle, just like Sarah had a tendency to do. "Did you at least have fun?"

"Yes dear," Mr. Graham said in the same tone of voice he had been using when she had been berating him.

I looked over at Sarah, and we were both smiling at their antics.

"So, when we left the house, you were a boy," he said matter of factly, looking at me in the mirror. He was trying to be stern, but the leaf hanging off one ear and the grass in his hair made it hard to take him seriously.

"Um, yeah?" I looked down and nervously played with the hem of the dress Mamma Graham had told me to keep.

"They didn't make you change, did they?"

"Alan!"

"I just want to make sure," he said, interrupting her.

"Uh, no sir, not really."

"Not really?"

"Mamma," Sarah said, as though it was enough of an answer, and when I looked up Mr. Graham was nodding.

"The puppy dog eyes?"

"Yup."

"Uh huh," he said, biting his lip. "Do you want to stop somewhere so you can change?"

"No that's alright, I'm -- crap!" I said, realizing I had never grabbed my clothes.

"Don't worry, they're in a grocery bag in the back."

"Oh, thank god. Thank you so much, Ms. Sakaki."

She gave me a smile, then returned to her driving.

"You can change when we get home... if you want to," Sarah said with a shrug.

I sighed. This was going to be a difficult part no matter how they took it.

"Actually," I started, "I was thinking I'd just go ahead and be Becky for the rest of the weekend, if that's alright."

Mr. Graham's eyes popped up to look at me sharply. "Are you sure? Why?"

I shrugged. "It just seems... easier, is all," I said quietly, not looking at him.

He grunted. "We already told you to make yourself comfortable. If that's as a boy, then, well." He stopped.

"That's just it," I said, shaking my head. "It doesn't really matter all that much, it's just clothes. I mean, it doesn't matter to me, I mean I thought it did, but it's more, grh!" I hit my leg a couple of times in frustration, trying to work out how to say what I needed to say. Then it came to me. "The clothes don't matter so much to me, as how people act around me. When I'm dressed as a guy, I just want to be treated like a normal guy. If I'm gonna be treated like a girl, I might as well be a girl, or dressed as one anyway."

"But we weren't--"

"We were," Miss Sakaki cut him off. "We just didn't think about it." She turned to me. "Beck, I'm sorry, we can watch how we act around you more."

I shook my head again. "It's okay. Really." I was getting so tired of saying that. I knew what I had to say next would hurt them, but, it had to be said. "You weren't as comfortable around me as a guy as you are with me as a girl."

Everyone in the car was silent at that, even Sarah, who was staring at her shoes with a frown on her face.

"It's up to you," her dad said at last, after almost half an hour of silence.

I looked over at Sarah again. "I'll need to borrow some clothes, if that's okay?"

She finally looked up at me. She did not look happy, exactly, but she did look more comfortable. "Okay, we can find some when we get home."

"Good. So, where are we stopping to eat?"

That caused all of their eyes to boggle, and when I began to laugh the tension that had again built between us quickly drained as the conversation picked up again.

-33-

I flopped down on the inflatable mattress, glad to finally be able to rest after a long and stressful day.

"Was it fun?"

I looked over at Sarah, who had begged her mom until she had agreed to let her sleep on the couch in the room with me. "Thanksgiving? Yeah," I said, nodding sleepily.

"Not just that." She growled softly in frustration. "Being a girl."

"It was okay. I mean, I've gotten used to it."

"But you don't enjoy it?"

"Well, I won't say that," I said. "It can be fun sometimes, but it's mostly a hassle, and I get annoyed when people see me as a girl when I'm dressed as a guy."

"Why?" She asked, in a confused tone.

"Because I'm not a girl."

Sarah gave me a tired grin. "But sometimes you are." Then her eyes closed, and she fell asleep.

I wanted to drift off myself, but like so often lately, instead I found myself trapped in my thoughts.

I really had enjoyed the day immensely, and I knew that if Sarah ever asked me to stay over at her home again, I would probably accept. Her family was wonderful, and seeing how much they all cared for one another made me hope that some day, when I was older, I could have that kind of family too.

But that brought me back around to the whole issue of me being seen as a guy or a girl, not to mention my sexuality. Or did it? I was so confused.

Did it matter whether I was a boy or a girl? No, that was the wrong question. The question was, did it matter whether people saw me as a boy or a girl?

I thought over the last few months I had spent in the Princess program, and I could easily tell that it mattered to me a great deal. I was surprised to note, however, that I was only really irked when people determined me to be something other than how I was presenting. Being seen as a girl when dressed as a girl failed to bother me like it once had, but being seen as a girl when dressed as a boy still grated on my nerves. I imagined that being seen as a boy when dressed as a girl would bother me as well.

So, what did that say about me? Was I a boy who could play a girl well, or was I somewhere between boy and girl? I thought about what it might be like to actually be a girl in body, and I recoiled at the idea. Changing myself so drastically... for what? For the most part, I was happy with myself. Why would I change that just because nobody else saw me for who I was?

Who was I, exactly, anyhow? That was really the question, I told myself as I rolled over and wrapped up in the covers against the chill that had crept into the room. Was I Becky, or was I Beck?

What was the difference between Becky and Beck besides clothes?

If there was no difference, then why did everyone around me see one?

I tossed and turned, but eventually I must have fallen asleep, only to find myself trapped in my dreams, a princess trying to hide herself from an evil magician by dressing as a boy, but no matter where I ran, everyone saw through my disguise. No matter what I did, everyone would shout "there she is, there's the princess!" everywhere I went. Finally, after many days of torment and fear, I fled to the tower of a good wizard, who gave me a magic potion that he said would let me be whoever I wanted to be, and make the evil wizard leave me alone forever more.

I threw my head back and downed the potion in one gulp, then turned to watch my transformation in a nearby mirror. But before my changes were complete, the world around me began to shake, and with a start I sat up to find Sarah crouched over me with a worried expression on her face.

"Becky, are you okay? You were jerking around and mumbling something."

I sighed, and laid back down. "Yeah, I'm fine," I said, patting her shoulder gently. "Just trying to figure something out."

"Well, if I can help, let me know," she said, giving me a quick hug before climbing back onto the couch and wrapping up in her own blankets.

"I will," I said, then returned to sleep, this time without dreams.

(End of Part 11)

NOTES:

As I write this story, it's becoming more and more obvious to me that I need to get a thesaurus and work on my writing vocabulary. I seem to keep using similar phrases and actions over and over, mostly because I don't feel that I can properly express what's going on in the scene without them, but I know that there are probably better options out there sometimes.

Sorry for the end of this one turning kind of serious. I plan on the next one being a lot of fun, and it's also going to be my first ever attempt to write some kind of shopping experience, so be prepared for it being either a typical TG shopping cliche' or completely horrid, probably both :P Still, stories with that kind of thing tend to do okay, so who knows? We'll just have to see.

Am I making Beck too emo? I am, aren't I? Sigh. And, of course, IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME.

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire Part 12

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

Part 12: The Princesses shop (Thanksgiving Interlude 3)

-34-

I was hardly surprised to find that Sarah was the first of us to be ready for the shopping trip, but I was quite surprised to find that I was actually looking forward to it a great deal more than I had expected. Even the hour long car ride to reach the nearest mall had done little to dampen my spirits, with Sarah's giddy bouncing in her seat and constant chattering leaving me laughing any time I started to feel the slightest bit nervous.

That was until I saw the parking lot.

"Good god!"

Sarah's mom chuckled wearily as she trolled up and down the lanes, looking for an empty space in the sea of cars. "Trust me, it would have been worse if we'd come out yesterday. It's called Black Friday for a reason."

"Why?" I asked.

"'Cause even if a store's doing badly, after Black Friday, all their numbers will be 'in the black,'" Sarah said with one of her trademark giggles.

"Oh."

I watched the hordes of people entering and leaving the mall, and tried to imagine what it must have been like the day before, with all the so-called after Thanksgiving deals. I shuddered.

"It's not THAT bad," Sarah's mom said when she saw my reaction. "Though today we're less likely to find anything good than if we'd -- DAMMIT! Asshole!" She called out her window at the man who had just swerved into the lone empty parking space in the entire lot.

Fifteen minutes later, we finally managed to find a vacated space near the outside of the lot and far from the stores. The moment we parked, Sarah shot from her seat as though she were on a spring.

"Yay! SHOOOPPPIIINNNGGG!" She called as she raced ahead of us toward the mall, barely avoiding several other visitors and a rogue shopping cart.

Miss Sakaki nudged me with her elbow and grinned, crossing her arms. "Aren't you gonna follow her?"

I shrugged. "I'm not much of a shopper."

Her grin slipped, and a low sigh escaped. "Tell me about it. I'd much rather just buy things in the off season when they're cheap, or shop online even. But Sarah..." She watched as her daughter jumped up and down, causing the flaps and strings on her baggy toboggan cap to jump as well as she waved us toward the store.

I had a feeling I knew what she was thinking. Sometimes it was hard to tell how much of Sarah's personality was really her, and how much of it she put on because she thought that as a girl, it was how she should act. Just the day before I had caught sight of a stack of comic books in her room, but when I mentioned them she had hidden them away, saying they were "left over," even though I had noticed a few recent editions in the stack.

Regardless of what her motives might have been, the chill in the air was enough of a motivation for me to hurry toward the doors myself, and soon I was in the happy embrace of the mall's central heating, leaving me with a completely new dilemma.

"Come on, you know if you leave it on you'll be burning up pretty soon."

I could feel myself blushing as I undid the zip on the coat Sarah had lent me, and did my best not to look down -- seeing myself with a prominent chest once had been traumatic enough.

Not that refusing to look down helped any, as I could still feel the false breasts bouncing with each step. Sarah had said that they would help me blend in better, which I doubted, but her mother's argument had been the one that had convinced me to give them a shot.

"You were saying the other day that you wished there were more separation between you as a boy and as a girl, right?"

"Yeah," I had said, nodding while I was trying to get dressed that morning.

"Well, breasts would go a long way toward that."

"But I don't wanna wear fake boobs all day."

"I understand, but it would help to add another thing that makes your girl self different from you as a boy."

I could see where she was coming from, but as of yet I was still unconvinced. By the time I thought to argue, though, Sarah had already glued them on, and after a nasty trick where she pretended not to have any remover, we had gotten on our way. I could not let them be seen, since Sarah had a very different skin tone than I, but the effect they had on those around me already scared me.

I had gotten looks from people before, but now, there were many more of them, especially from the boys and men we passed. It truly is surprising how much difference a few ounces of silicone can make.

"Here's our first stop," Sarah said, grabbing my hand and dragging me headlong into a store before I could catch its name, calling out "this way," as she led me toward the girl's section.

I did my best to play along, matching Sarah's enthusiasm with if not an equal amount then at least enough to to keep her happy while Ms. Sakaki browsed the women's styles a little further down from us.

"And this... and this... oh, you'd look good in this too!"

"Huh?"

"Come on, the changing room's over here!"

"Wait!" I said, realizing I had missed something somewhere along the line. "Sarah, I can't go in there."

"Why not?"

"Because it's..." I quietened myself down to a harsh whisper. "It's a girl's changing room!"

"So?"

I tried to speak, but my mouth would not form the words. Instead, I numbly took the clothes from Sarah and entered the room, telling myself that it was not like there would be anyone watching me. I still did not feel comfortable, though.

-35-

"Yeah, you HAVE to have that."

I looked down at myself and fought hard to suppress the sigh that wanted to escape. Unfortunately, I did not fight hard enough.

"What? You don't like it?"

I turned away from the mirror and faced a confused looking Sarah. "It's not that, Sarah, it's fine, but..."

"You look nice in skirts," she said, with a shrug.

"I don't need to spend my money on skirts and dresses, Sarah," I said, giving her a meaningful look.

"Well, they've got some cute sweaters and things over-"

"No, Sarah," I almost snapped, then calmed myself. "I don't need any more girl's clothes."

"I think it's time for us to take a break," Sarah's mom said from the side, shushing Sarah before she could speak. I quickly returned to the changing room of our fourth store of the day and put back on my tee and jeans before exiting and handing Ms. Sakaki the sweater dress I had been trying on.

We said little to one another on our way to the food court, a small break I was immensely glad for. It had been non-stop trying on of clothes since we had arrived, and I had already spent more than I had wanted on dresses, skirts, shoes, tops, and a whole host of other things. Admittedly, ideally I would have spent nothing on them, but that was not the point, nor was the fact that it was thanks to the Princess program I had the money to spend.

After settling on a table, we all fell silent again until we had collected our food. I chose a burger and fries while Sarah and her mom both opted for a deli a few stalls down, and when we finally met back up at the table, Sarah looked very upset.

"What's wrong?" I asked, setting down my tray next to hers and scooting into the booth beside her.

She looked over at me. "Are you not having fun today?"

I sighed. "Of course I am, Sarah. Why?"

"Because, you looked like you were getting mad, and I'm just trying to help and I thought we were having fun with the clothes and things, and..." She stopped for a moment, breathing in and out before facing me again with red eyes. "Did I make you mad or something?"

I looked over at Ms. Sakaki for help, but she simply shook her head and gave me a look that said quite clearly; I had to do this myself.

"You didn't make me mad," I told Sarah, wrapping my arm around her shoulder in a light squeeze. "I just don't get into clothes as much as you do. And, Sarah?"

"Yeah?"

I hesitated, but had to say it. "As much as you might not agree with me, I'm a guy, not a girl."

"I know that!"

"Sarah." Ms. Sakaki said, in a sharp tone.

Sarah looked between the two of us with wide eyes.

"I do!"

I let her go and leaned back. "Sarah... what's my name?"

"Becky."

"Daniel."

"What?"

"Daniel. My name's Daniel. Beck is a nickname my dad gave me when I was little, 'cause he used to have this album he would listen to all the time and I would always sing along with it. He thought it was cute, so he started calling me Beck after the guy on the CD, and I liked it, so that's usually what I ask my friends to call me. But my name is Daniel."

This was the last thing I wanted to do, especially in the middle of a crowded mall. I could see Sarah growing more upset and confused. I gave Ms. Sakaki another pleading glance, and this time, she seemed to take the hint and stepped in.

"Honey, I think what Becky -- Beck," she smiled at me, "is trying to say, is that she... he, doesn't want to be a girl all the time like you."

I nodded. "Speaking of which, I NEED to get some boy's clothes today too. After that, we can do some more girl type shopping, alright? Just... can we tone it down a bit?"

"Umm, yeah?" She said, uncertain, so I gave her a hug.

"Thanks."

She squeezed me back, and held on for a moment before letting go.

"Now, if we're all through with that," her mom said, with a giggle that sounded exactly like Sarah's, " let's eat so we can get started again, and then GO HOME."

"Amen to that," I said, starting in on my fries.

"Aww," Sarah whined, but I was glad to see she no longer looked upset at us.

-36-

"I think I'll just hang back here while ya'll look, if that's alright."

"Are you sure?" I asked her.

"Yeah," she said, crossing her arms and staring at her feet. "I'll wait here."

I looked up at the sign. It said "boys and men." I shrugged. "Alright, I'll be right back."

"'Kay."

I turned to Ms. Sakaki, and without a word she nodded, crossing over to stand next to Sarah and hug her while I headed into the men's section in search of a few essentials.

Underwear. What size was I? I hazarded a guess a size larger than the worn-out ones I had back at school, grabbing two packs, and on impulse grabbed a couple of pairs of boxers as well. I needed jeans, too, and a few tee shirts. All in all, it took me less than ten minutes to find everything I needed and pay for it, and I was out the door, back with Sarah and her mom.

We tried a couple of stores on the other end of the mall, but it was obvious that Sarah was not really in the mood any more, so we soon wrapped up what purchases we had left to make and headed out for the car.

On the way home, Miss Sakaki and I talked a bit about school, and my dad, and a few other things, but Sarah stayed mostly silent, almost a complete reversal from her bright, sunny mood on the way out. As soon as we pulled in at her home, she climbed out and grabbed her bags, heading in without a word.

I went to follow her, but Miss Sakaki's hand on my shoulder stopped me.

When I looked at her, she shook her head. "Let her be alone for a little while."

I nodded, but inside, I felt like I had broken something. "I didn't mean to hurt her feelings."

She smiled. "I know. And I think she knows that too. But right now she wants to think, and she always does that best alone."

We grabbed our purchases and took them in, but I never unpacked mine. Instead, I collapsed onto my air mattress and had a good sulk of my own.

I had blown it. My best friend, and I had driven her off. Just the other day I had even told myself that being a girl was a small price to pay for her friendship, and then what do I do but to throw it all away over some crap about being a guy.

I wanted to kick myself, but more than that I wanted things to be simpler. Being a girl sometimes was not so bad, but I could never relax when dressed as a girl, not because of the clothes but because it always seemed to be associated with being busy, either with school, Princess duties, or like the last two days, with other people. I adjusted my bra strap, pulling on the false breasts and reminding me they were there. Had I really forgotten about them for the past... "Five hours?" I asked myself in amazement as I looked at my watch. Sure enough.

I must have lain there at least an hour, just stewing, before a gentle cough from the door distracted me.

"Can I come in?"

I looked up, and it was Tommy, Sarah's older brother.

"Yeah, sorry," I said, sitting up and wiping my eyes, making sure there had not been any tears.

He flopped down on the couch at the other end of the room, propping his feet up on the coffee table, then just sat there, saying nothing for a few moments, before finally speaking again.

"Sarah's really sensitive, you know."

I looked down. "Yeah. I know."

"Do you know why?"

"Because she's the only girl-girl at our school?"

He shook his head, then paused, steepling his fingers. "If I tell you this," he continued, "promise me you won't tell her I told you."

I nodded, but he said nothing. "I promise," I finally said, holding out my hand.

"Good," he said, and kissed the back of my hand again, just like that first day, but this time, there was something different in it, and it did not make me feel uncomfortable or blush. It was like sealing an oath.

"We hardly ever see Mom's side of the family. They don't talk about it when they think we can hear, but from what I understand they never approved of our dad."

"Why not?"

He let out a harsh laugh, devoid of humor. "Probably because he isn't a doctor or a lawyer or something like that. We were never supposed to hear, but when I was little I heard them telling Mom how disappointed they were that she hadn't married better. They were more concerned for social standing than her happiness. But Mom loved them, and they still loved her, so they worked through their differences for the most part."

"That was until Sarah came out." He leaned forward, bracing his elbows on his knees and staring into my eyes. "Dad takes the blame, but he wouldn't have pushed Sarah to try and be more boyish if grandpa and grandma Ichihara hadn't told him to. He wanted to be accepted by them just as much as we did."

"After being accepted into the Princess program, the first thing Sarah did the next time she came home was to throw out all her boy's clothes. Mom and Dad didn't like it, but it didn't really take her as much explaining as she thinks before she won them over to her side. Thanksgiving, well, it wasn't that much different from this year's. Dad's family is all pretty tightly knit, and now that they've accepted you you'll have to murder one of them before they'll disown you." He smiled when he said that, but his sombre mood quickly returned.

"At Christmas, though, we used to always go to Mom's family."

I felt a chill roll down my spine as I watched his mood visibly darken.

"They weren't cruel to her, but they were very cold. Don't get me wrong, they've never been like Dad's family, but before, we would always get a hug when we arrived, and one when we left. That year, they didn't hug anyone but Mom. We were no longer family; we were visitors.

Then we got around to presents. For most of us it was the normal selection of gifts, a cheap tie for Dad, some new button down shirts for me, and a nice dress for Mom. Then it came to Sarah, and they had a huge box for her. She was so excited, and looked so happy when she started to unwrap it." He stopped.

"What was it?" I asked.

"A complete new wardrobe."

I looked at him, confused by the anger in his voice.

"Pants, shirts, shoes, all in her old boy's sizes. 'It's time to end this silliness,' Grandma Ichihara said, and then she tried to drag Sarah into the bathroom and make her change, telling her she would never be a real girl."

I watched his fists clench and unclench as he sat there, the tension in him evident. I felt like I wanted to throw up.

"Mom grabbed Sarah and started yelling at Grandma, then Grandpa and Grandma both started yelling at Mom in Japanese, and we all left. Sarah wouldn't even come out of her room for almost a week after, and when she finally did, it was like she had changed. She still went to the school, but she won't admit to liking anything if it isn't considered feminine, and she tries as hard as she can to be as girlish as she can because she wants to prove Grandma and Grandpa wrong."

My vision began to blur, causing me to reach up and wipe my eyes, which is when I realized I was crying. "That's horrible," I said, dropping my hands in my lap.

"But that's Sarah. And now you know." Tommy stood up, then forced a smile onto his face. "Sarah talks about you all the time, you know. You're her best friend."

"I know."

He said nothing else, but nodded and left the room. As he left, I saw him look over and grow wide eyed, before nodding and heading upstairs.

As soon as he was gone, Sarah entered, her eyes red from crying.

"Sarah, I'm so sorry," I said, feeling my voice growing hoarse from trying not to cry.

She sat down next to me, and without saying anything we hugged one another, letting each other's tears fall freely, mine for her, and hers for... I cannot be sure, but I think herself, and for both of us too.

That night, we spent hours talking, her parents and Tommy never bothering us once. We talked about everything we could think of. Things that made us happy; things that made us sad; and things that we had no clue what to think about. And at the end of it all, we understood each other.

"Best friends forever?" She asked me, holding out her pinky with a small smile on her face as we lay facing each other on the floor.

"Best friends forever," I said, and took her pinky in mine, grinning back at her.

We never let go, even when we both fell asleep.

(End of Part 12)

END NOTES:

WOW. Talk about your characters rewriting a story for you!

I had been expecting this part to be lighthearted, and fun, and everything that in the end, it isn't. I had known that Beck would go shopping for boy's clothes, and what Sarah's reaction would be when that happened, but the rest of the events even took ME by surprise while I was writing it. I had known some of what made Sarah tick roughly, but this... again, most of this is as much a surprise to me as it was to you.

This also marks a landmark as being the part that officially pushes the PFH text document up past page 100, so yay for that.

Again, WOW.

I'm sorry I didn't give you the shopping trip I had been expecting, but who knows? Maybe at a later date I can pull it off. Hopefully, you like the exposition in this section enough to make up for it.

Melanie E.

PS: The usual. IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME!

Princess For Hire Part 13

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Serial Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

Part 13: A Princess With A Plan

-37-

"What do you mean nobody knows ANYTHING!"

I had never intended to yell, but apparently I had been, and with enough force that even Jules took a step back from me, his eyes wide in shock.

"We-well," he stammered about, before regaining his cool and glaring at me. "We tried! It's not like you've been any help, and this is your project!"

I rubbed my temples and squeezed my eyes closed, trying to calm down. He was right, but since returning from Thanksgiving break I had hardly had time to sit down, let alone invest any time into researching Professor Swift's past. With Sarah out of the running for the female lead, I had of course been drafted into the role of Lady Macbeth, which also happened to be the only female role in the entire play that required extensive costume fittings for what the director wanted to do. To top it off, my weekends had been filled with even more dance lessons, at Sarah's request. Combined with my regular classes and all the other Princess duties, free time was scarce.

I was about to turn the floor over to Jules for the next part of the meeting when an unexpected form popped up in the doorway.

"I might have some information you'll find useful," Mr. Uchiha said as he settled into one of the desks in the front row and gave me his friendly smile.

"Really?" I asked, surprised. I had had no idea he had even been aware of my plans to find out Swifty's problem.

"Indeed. After all, you're not the only person who wants this... straightened out in as equitable a manner as possible."

I nodded.

Mr. Uchiha pushed his glasses back up on his nose then came to the front of the classroom and stood beside me. With a small spin he stood, facing the rest of the princesses as though preparing to give a speech. "Mr. Ronald Swift attended out school some years ago. He graduated in the top of his class, and from what I've heard you already know about his college career. Upon graduating from college, he returned here and joined our staff, and for the past ten years has served admirably."

"Admirably? But he's always so mean to us."

The smile that had been plastered on Mr. Uchiha's face faltered. "I know. I wish I knew why myself. He always had a bit of a hard nosed streak, but it seemed to increase dramatically when the Princess Program was introduced. No one has been able to ascertain his reasons, though. That's really all I can say."

"Thank you, sir," I said, offering him my hand as I digested what he had just told us.

"You're most welcome. And if it comes up, you didn't hear any of that from me."

"Understood, sir," I said with a grin, as he walked out of the room, whistling merrily. The more I talked to him, the more the Headmaster surprised me.

With that out of the way, the meeting returned to Jules's control, and while everyone else talked about the next pep rally and any plans people had for Christmas break, now only three weeks away, I grabbed Andrew, Leslie, and Sarah and pulled them off to the side.

I leaned in close, pulling them all down with me. "I really want to figure out what's up with the Professor before the end of next semester."

"I agree," Leslie said, with a frown. "The other day he tried to send me to the office for wearing a skirt on a non-Princess day."

"Why were you wearing a skirt on a day you didn't have to?"

He glanced guiltily in Sarah's direction, causing her to blush, and I had my answer. She had told me about their occasional "sleepovers" over Thanksgiving break, and I had found it prudent not to ask exactly went on.

"I think I have an idea," Andrew said.

"Well, what it is?" I asked when he failed to continue.

"Huh?"

"What is it!"

He grinned and mussed my hair, then laughed when I scowled at him. "Ease up, Becky. It'll take some work, but I'll see if I can track down anything on what he did while at college. Where'd he go again?"

"I dunno. Penn State? I can't remember."

He nodded. "I'll find out, and get a friend of mine who's good with computers on it."

"Who?" I asked, curious.

"Stewart."

"Ah." I got it. It figured. "You don't think he'll get in trouble, do you?"

"Nah, I've watched him do some stuff. I have no idea what he did, but he was good at it. Besides, he wants to figure out Ol' Swifty as much as any of us."

"Ooh, yeah," Sarah said, flinching.

"What?"

"Oh, nothing, I was just remembering something that happened to him last year in Professor Swift's class."

"Well?"

She hesitated. "I don't think I should say. He should tell it himself, since I only heard about it through rumors."

That settled, we returned out attention to the meeting. I had a new ally, and a plan of action that would hopefully give us something useful.

Whether it would be soon enough to matter, that was still up for grabs.

-38-

"It's too small," I wheezed out as the seamstress continued to tug and pull on the material wrapped around me, cutting into my middle.

"It's not too small, you're too big. We can fix that."

"Nooo," I whined quietly. "Not another corset."

"Oh, of course not. We'll just use a waist nipper this time around; you don't need the full corset any more, with all the weight you've lost."

"I've lost weight?" Not that it was too surprising. It was probably all the stress.

"Though we'll have to do something to give ya some cleavage, a dress like this kind of demands it."

"What did you have in mind?" I asked nervously.

"Well, we could do a corse-"

"-but you just said I didn't need a-"

"BUT," she cut me off, threatening me with a pin, "I think we should consider glue on forms. That way we could also use them next time you have a costume that needs cleavage."

"Is it really necessary?"

She glared at me in response.

I sighed. "Alright. How much?"

"Comped by the school, since it's for a performance."

That made me feel a little better at least.

"Alright. Do it."

"Good."

I had been considering getting forms on Miss Sakaki's recommendation anyhow, but I had wanted to hold off and talk to my dad about it first. There was something about it that made it seem like a big decision, and just deciding arbitrarily to get them felt... wrong, somehow.

"Here they are."

"Already?" I asked, then it dawned on me. "You'd already ordered them."

"Of course."

"Why?"

"Because I knew you wouldn't want to wear the corset."

The fitting for the day finished up quickly after that, and with any luck the only fitting I would have left would be the one on the day of the performance. I chose to leave the forms in the fitting room for the moment, feeling I needed to think about the implications of having them for a while before taking them back to my room with me.

With classes finished, I returned to my room and did exactly that.

As I seemed to spend so much time the last few months doing, I stood in front of my mirror and stared at myself, studying my reflection. Would the forms really make enough of a difference between me as a boy and me as a girl to matter? That was the question.

I recalled the physical I had been given shortly before heading out for the school. The doctor had told me I was five feet seven inches tall, and a whole one hundred and thirty pounds. Had I really lost weight? I did not think so, but I did look skinnier than I had before coming to school? Maybe I was taller? With no tape measure or ruler available, nor a scale, I had no way of knowing.

One thing that I knew had not changed though was my face. The same nose, small and slightly upturned, the same eyes, the same mouth and narrow chin. My hair was longer than it had been, and probably better kept. My nails were short, but better kept as well, and only now did I notice that I still had a small bit of red polish around the base of my cuticles.

I looked at myself. I looked at myself, and I knew in my heart that even if the false breasts made a noticeable difference in my appearance, most people would still see a girl no matter how I looked. I had fought against it for a long time, and tried to tell myself that it was not true, but being around the other Princesses had opened my eyes, and I could no longer ignore it.

I looked like a girl.

For a brief moment, I entertained the frightening thought that maybe, just maybe, I was a girl, and the problem lay elsewhere, but I quickly dismissed that thought. After all, screwed up biology had nothing to do with my stepbrother bashing me in the face with a bat. Dumb luck or cruel fate, maybe, but not biology. I stripped off my shirt and pants, until I was standing there in nothing but my briefs, and continued to study myself. I was skinny, and mostly a uniform pasty white except for my face and the lower half of my arms and legs. My ribs stuck out, and I could see the bones of my hips. Was I not eating enough? Regardless, there was little if any "figure" there that would define me either way. My shoulders, while not broad and powerful, were not exceptionally narrow or sloped either.

"So," I asked myself aloud as I poked my side. "What if I had breasts?"

I imagined myself with the false breasts I had borrowed from Sarah glued to my chest, and had to laugh at the mismatch in tones. Then I thought of the ones that the seamstress had brought out, and I shuddered. They had not been perfect, but they had been far closer than I had imagined they would be, and a bit larger than I had expected too. "B" cup, I believe she had said. I thought back to my reflection in the mirror during the fitting, with them sitting perched proudly in the dress, and tried to imagine them on me without the dress holding them up.

I squeezed my eyes closed, but that was the bad part about imagining things -- shutting your eyes never helps to block the vision.

They would make a difference, that was for sure. But they would never help to change people's views.

With one of my patented heavy sighs I dressed myself again. Looking in the mirror one last time, I tried to see a boy, or a girl, or even something between the two. Instead, I just saw me, and I was unsure whether that was comforting or not.

-39-

"What's eating you today?"

"Huh?"

*SMACK*

"OW! What was that for?" I asked Jules, rubbing the back of my head furiously as I glared at him.

"You've been absorbed in something ever since you came in. So, what is it?"

"Nothing."

I was not expecting him to put his arm around my shoulder, but he did. "Hey, I'm sorry about smacking you in the head, but it wasn't THAT hard. You know you can talk to us, okay?"

"...Yeah. Sorry. I just... I need to think on it myself for a while, you know?"

"Sure thing. But when you're ready, I'll be available if you need to talk. You're practically my sister in law anyhow."

"Hey!" Andrew and I said at the same time. Jules just grinned back in response and turned back to his food, saying nothing.

I chose to just leave it alone, but Andrew it seemed did not have the willpower.

"We're not dating, Jules."

"Nope. You just escort her everywhere."

"I'm in boy mode today, Jules."

"My bad."

"Yeah, right."

"Well, ever since Thanksgiving you have kinda been more in the middle. I mean, you were always pretty bi, er, that's not the right word..." Amos thought for a moment, then gave up and gave me an apologetic shrug.

"Have not!"

"Have too!" Jules said with a smirk.

"Have not." I said, much more quietly, and crossed my arms over my chest.

"Enough you two," Sarah said, setting her own tray down. "So Beck, did you get a chance to ask your dad yet?"

"No, not yet."

"Ask him what?" Andrew asked.

"Oh! Sarah invited me and my dad to her place for Christmas, to save him the airfare here and back multiple times."

"Cool. Can I come?"

"Umm... no."

"Aww."

I gave Andrew a light punch in the arm, then went back to my own food, letting everyone else talk while I sat back and thought again, though this time on something other than fake boobs.

Jules's teasing me about Andrew had been getting worse lately, and I was unsure what to do about it. I looked over at Andrew, smiling and laughing with Bobby and some of the other Protectors who had taken to eating most meals with us, and contemplated our relationship.

Was there a relationship? Not in the romantic sense, but dealing with Andrew was the closest I had ever come to dating someone. Whenever I went on a trip into town, he was there, or to any event as a Princess, and even most of the time when I went as just me. We would joke around with one another, and when I went as a girl he would occasionally wrap his arm around my shoulder or something in a goofy manner, making a joke of it.

Was it really a joke, though? I needed to talk to someone about this. Sarah must have caught my turmoil, because she just nodded and pointed to her watch, then held up nine fingers. Nine o'clock tonight, in other words, she would come by to talk.

It could not come quickly enough.

I finished up what I could, then wished the rest of the table a goodnight. I started to head to my room, but on the way I remembered how much I truly did need to call my dad and ask him what he wanted to do, so instead I made a detour for the lobby phone.

Six rings later, the phone was picked up.

"Hello?" A gruff voice I didn't recognize asked.

"Uh, is Mr. Henderson there?"

The voice laughed. "Yeah, hold on." I heard the phone shift, then the voice call out as though from a ways away, "honey, someone on the line for you."

A few seconds later, there was more shifting, then I heard my dad ask breathlessly, "hello?"

"Hey, dad."

"Beck! It's my son, sorry, that was Mitch, my, uh..."

"Boyfriend?" I asked, and I hoped he could hear the smile in my voice. "Dad, are you saying you're gay?"

There was a pause for a moment, then I heard laughter roaring down the line.

Finally, it stopped, and I had to ask. "Dad, are you okay?"

"Yeah," he said, choking. "I'm fine. Sorry."

"It's alright. Why were you nervous?"

"You know? I don't know. So, what's up?"

"Well, dad, I have a question for you. See, Sarah had this idea..."

(End of Part 13)

END NOTES:

Okay, I think I'm gonna have to cancel my month-long break I was expecting to take. Not because I wouldn't like to take it, mind you. Mostly because even after just ONE WEEK of not working on this, it was tough work getting back to it, and I'm still not sure I caught the style right. So, I think that even if I do take a month off from posting, during that time I need to keep up writing on this story steadily until I get to the end, that way I'll have a bit of a buffer if I need one, and I don't lose sight of how things need to go.

That being said, the story should be back on track now. It took a lot of thinking to figure out where I wanted to go with this chapter, or even when I wanted it set. In the end, I set it about two weeks or so after their return from Thanksgiving Break, meaning that there are maybe two more chapters before the Christmas break, then whatever, if anything, I decide to write for over the break, followed by the second semester. I might even do the second semester as a new story and reset the chapter numbers, something like "Princess For Hire: Second Semester." So creative, no?

If you comment, more will come. IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME.

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire Part 14

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Serial Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

Part 14: A Princess And Her Prince

-40-

"Really?"

"Uh, yeah, sorry."

"Oh. Well, okay then. Umm... sorry for bothering you." The boy turned away from me and hurried away down the hall, leaving me standing there very much embarrassed myself.

Sarah's gaze jumped between me and his retreating back while she asked in a puzzled tone, "does that happen often?"

"Unfortunately, yes."

"Wow."

"Come on, we'll be late for class if we don't hurry," I said, wishing to think about something, anything, other than what had just happened.

"He was kinda cute, though."

"Sarah, can we please just, I dunno, NOT talk about it."

"Okay," she said. "For now," she added with a wicked smile.

I groaned, but by the time I came up with a response she had already split off for her own class.

I focused my entire mind on Professor Cooper's lecture about conic sections, and did my best not to let my thoughts wander to what had happened. It was the same procedure I followed every time that it happened, and it was facing the same downfall as well -- I just could not keep from thinking about it.

Why me? He could have asked anyone else in the Princess program -- all of us were dressed today, as cheerleaders again no less thanks to another pep rally -- but he had chosen me. Why?

Did I just LOOK like I liked boys, or what?

"Excuse me, Miss Henderson, but if you could please pay attention," Professor Cooper asked me with a smile on his face, making me blush and stutter out an apology when I realized I had been staring out the window instead of following his work.

It was not long though before my mind began to wander again.

What had made it worse, I thought, was that it was the third time in a week that someone had asked me out, the fifth overall since coming back from Thanksgiving vacation. It seemed the longer the Princess Program ran, the more often it happened. By the time I reached my senior year, would this happen daily?

I prayed desperately that that would not be the case.

"What's eating you?" Andrew asked me when he saw me sit down.

"Nothing."

"Come on, spill. We've got time."

I looked around. He was right, of course. Our etiquette lessons had ended the week before, leaving all of us with a study hall for the next two weeks, to be replaced with some kind of "Life Planning" course next semester. I caught sight of Sarah and Leslie already making their way over to our table, and resigned myself to having to explain things.

"Well?" Sarah asked the moment she sat down, and I could tell by the sly grin on Leslie's face that she already knew what had happened.

"What do you want me to say?"

"What happened?" Andrew asked.

Before I could answer Sarah jumped in. "Becky got asked out on a date today."

"Again?"

Sarah went silent as Andrew turned toward me, fighting back a laugh.

"It's not funny, Andrew," I said, hoping that I was not pouting as much as it felt like I was.

"But that's gotta be the third time this-"

"Week. Yes. I know."

At last, my unhappiness penetrated his sense of humor, and he became far more serious.

"This is really bothering you, isn't it?"

I started to give an adamant "yes," but hesitated. "I... kind of."

Sarah gave me a curious look. "Why? Just because they ask doesn't mean anything."

Andrew turned to Sarah. "I think I might know part of the reason."

"And?" Sarah egged him on, when he paused.

He looked at me, asking for permission, and I nodded.

"This is the first time this month it's happened when she was dressed as a girl."

"So?" Sarah asked, then Got It. "Oh. So the others were asking you as a guy."

I shook my head. "They were asking out Becky, not Beck or Daniel."

"But you were dressed as a guy?" Leslie asked, her first words in the conversation.

"Yeah."

"Ah."

"But what's the problem?"

I shook my head, but when I looked at Sarah, she honestly looked as though she did not understand the issue. Even after all of our conversations, she still had to work at it not to think of me as a girl.

I tried to form into words all my frustrations, everything that was bothering me, but I could not do it. Instead, I said, "I'll let you know when I figure it out."

-41-

I continued to be distracted all through dinner. No matter what anyone said or did, I constantly found myself slipping back into my own head, trying to work things out and still unable to clarify what my problem was. Finally, I had had enough, and took my tray to put away. When I turned around, however, there stood Andrew, waiting for me.

"Come on," he said, gesturing toward the door. "We need to talk."

"O...kay?" I said, unsure, but I followed him out. Instead of turning toward the dorms, he headed down one of the darkened halls, toward the classrooms. When we at last stopped, I realized with a shock that we were in the same alcove we had used to talk after the Alumni banquet, but quickly shoved that night out of my mind.

"So, what did you want to talk about?" I asked him.

With a sigh, Andrew placed his back against the wall and slid down until he was sitting on the floor. From that angle he could have seen up my skirt if I were not careful, so as best I could I slid myself to the floor across from him.

"Do you like guys or girls?"

Just as carefully as I had sat down, I stood back up. "Is that what this is all about?" I asked him.

He shook his head, but made no move to rise. "No, I just wanted to know."

I sat back down, but did not look at him. "I don't know, alright?"

He nodded. "But you don't like being asked out?"

"It's not that. It's flattering, it's just..."

"Just what?"

The thoughts I had been having all day finally coalesced, and I had my answer. "I just want to know it's ME they want to date."

"Huh?" Andrew asked, seeming to be genuinely thrown by my answer. Now that I had finally figured it out myself, though, I knew I could explain it, and grinned triumphantly.

"Everyone who has asked me out hasn't asked me as Daniel, or even as Beck. They've asked me as Becky. How many of them do you think would want to go out with me if they saw me as a boy? And before you say anything, yes, some of them have asked me out when I was dressed in my boy's clothes, but they always called me 'Becky.' We both know most people don't pay any attention to how I'm trying to present." I tried to hide the bitterness in my voice in that last sentence, but knew I had failed miserably.

"So you want a guy to ask you out as a guy?"

I huffed. "That's not it either. It's just... whoever asks me out, I don't want them to care about if I'm a guy or a girl, I want them to ask ME. Does that make sense?"

"...No."

I sighed. "Don't worry about it."

We sat there in the dark, neither of us saying anything and neither of us moving, each alone in our thoughts. Now that I had figured out what my problem was, it made dealing with my feelings about saying no easier, though it also brought along the question of whether I would have accepted if they had asked me out as a guy.

"You know, Beck..." Andrew said, shifting nervously.

"Yeah?"

"If you wanted people to stop asking you out, uh... jeez."

"What?"

"We could, well, I could, I mean, if you wanted to."

"WHAT?" I asked again, when he failed to continue.

"Well, I mean. Heck, we could always say we're dating." Even in the darkness, I could see the blush covering his face.

I fought the urge to laugh. Would that not be just too perfect? Tell everyone who had been saying we were dating for so long that yes, they were right, we were going out? But looking at Andrew, without any hint of a joke showing on his face, I knew he was serious.

"You're serious?" I asked. You can never be too sure.

"Yeah?"

I thought about it for a moment, until I had an idea.

"Stand up."

"Huh?"

"Stand up!" I repeated, waving my arms upward. When he finally did so, I stepped right in front of him and looked up into his face. "I'm a girl right now, right?" I asked, with as stern an expression as I could muster.

He looked down at me, confused. "Okay?"

"So if we were to do that, that would make me?"

"My... girlfriend?" He asked, as though he thought it were the answer but could not be sure.

"But tomorrow I'll be a guy. And we'll still be doing the pretend-dating thing. Which will make me?"
I waved my hands to urge him on.

He pondered it for a moment. "My... boy... friend?"

Bingo! "And this would be okay with you?" I asked him. It was the moment of truth.

He shrugged, still wearing his confused look. "You're still you."

At last, I let out the laugh I had been holding in and stepped to his side, wrapping my arm around his.

"So what just happened?" He asked, looking around us as though there would be someone with a camera waiting in the shadows.

"You won," I said. "We're officially pretend dating."

"Oh! Uh, great?"

"Now walk me to my room," I said, stepping out into the hall.

He followed me slowly at first, but it was not too long before he finally worked out what had happened, and laughed himself, getting into the game. Both of us already knew; this was going to be a blast.

-42-

As we walked down the hall between classes, his arm around my shoulder and chatting to one another quietly, it was amazing to watch the faces of all my fellow students as we passed.

Word had spread quickly, and by the end of they day I doubted there was anyone who had not heard. We had made it official. Andrew and I were dating.

Of course, there were a few people who we had decided the night before on the walk back needed to know the truth. Sarah, Leslie, and Bobby were on that list. We had debated on whether or not to tell Jules, but in the end we had decided that he would either not believe we were pretending or not approve for some reason, and so had decided to let him be fooled along with the rest.

As for me, I felt a sense of relief, at the same time as I had an odd feeling of... excitement? Relief, because I no longer had to worry about turning others away if they asked. After all, I was already taken, so anyone who would ask knowing that would be someone who I would not want to consider anyhow. Excitement, possibly from the thrill of pulling wool over the eyes of the entire school population.

The most amazing part was how little we had to change to pull it off. We walked a little closer, we would touch one another on the arm or smile at one another a little more often, and that was enough. We never out and out held hands, or even hugged that first day, but what we did was enough to tell everyone around; I was off limits. I was Andrew's girl.

It was absolutely hilarious, until after Drama.

We were on our way back to the dorms, and as an added bit of proof for our bit Andrew had given me his spare blazer that morning to wear instead of my own. It absolutely dwarfed me, but I was finding that an advantage in the chilly mid-December air as we crossed the quad. His arm was around my shoulder as well, further sheltering me from the cold wind, and we were both huffing and shivering when at last we reached the dorm building.

"It's freezing out there!"

"Really," he said, blowing on his hands as he tried to wring some warmth into them. "You want something to warm up?"

I nodded, "Sure," and started walking toward the small kitchenette in the dorm hall.

We were not allowed to have a full kitchen in the building, but the school had made sure that each floor of the dorm hall was outfitted with an area with a microwave and a sink, as well as a few basic dishes like cups and silverware. When we came to the counter, Andrew reached into his pocket and pulled out two packets.

"Instant apple cider," he said with a grin when he saw my curiosity. We each grabbed a cup and filled them with hot water before setting them in the microwave. When they were steaming hot, we took them to one of the nearby couches and poured in the mixes before stirring them.

For a while, I just sat there with the cup in my hands, luxuriating in the warmth as it spread up. At last, though, I took a drink.

"Mmm, that's good," I said. "Thank you."

"You're welcome."

I turned toward Andrew, to start talking about classwork, or our little charade, or anything really, only to find him looking at me intensely. My words died on my lips when I saw him looking at me.

'What is he doing,' I vaguely wondered as I took another drink of my cider. He looked away, and sat his own cup on the table before turning back to me.

He looked as though he wanted to say something, the frustration evident on his face as he seemed to fight with something.

Then he kissed me.

(End of Part 14)

END NOTES:

This is probably another one of those parts that, like the Halloween one, I will end up going back later and expanding. Parts of it seem to move too fast, but I'm out of time if I want to make my deadline for the week, SO *shrug*.

People have probably been expecting something like this to happen for a while. It was kind of inevitable, wasn't it? And, whaddaya know, with only one post left to go before the beginning of Christmas break. Won't THAT make for an exciting chapter?

I seemed to have a bit more trouble capturing some of the characters right this time around. If it's too jarring, let me know. Hmm.

Melanie E.

If you comment, more will come. IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME.

Princess For Hire Part 15: The End Of Book One

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Serial Chapter

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Princess for Hire

By Melanie Ezell

Daniel Henderson has managed to beat the odds and been accepted into Kingston Academy, one of the best private high schools in the country. However, when Daniel is invited to take part in a special program, he learns that there's more to the school than he had thought...

NOTE: This story is loosely -- as in VERY loosely -- based on the manga/anime "Princess Princess." After the initial concept, any similarities are mostly coincidental, unless they aren't. (Puzzle that out why don't ya.)

 


 
-43-

He kissed me.

He kissed me?

He kissed me!

I laid in bed, going over and over in my head the kiss. Had I enjoyed it? Had he enjoyed it? Why did he do it?

It had not been a long kiss. He had pressed his lips to mine, and held it for maybe a second before backing away. Regardless of how long it had lasted, though, the kiss had changed things irrevocably. Afterward, we had looked in each other's eyes for a moment. I could tell that he wanted me to say something, anything, but I had been too confused. Instead, I sat my cup, still half full of the cider he had given me, down on the table. He never said a word as I calmly stood up and walked to the stairs, nor as I went through the door. As soon as I had known I was out of sight, though, I had taken off running, until I was safely in my own room, locked away from the world.

That is where I had stayed, laying on my bed in the dark. Thinking.

I should apologize to him. Or should he apologize to me? Which one of us did the wrong thing?

I was so confused. It had already been over three hours since the kiss, but it still occupied my every thought.

Was it because I liked it?

I was not sure. I certainly had not hated it, but neither had I wanted it nor expected it. Then again, I was almost certain that if I had been expecting it I would have been more terrified by the implications of letting it happen than by the kiss itself.

What were the implications?

Things between me and Andrew would never be the same again. Whatever my decision about the kiss, we could no longer just be friends, at least, not in the way we had been. Or, I had thought we were. Would Andrew have kissed me if he had not thought there was something more between us?

Had I been leading him on?

I thought back on how I had always treated Andrew. Surely he never thought... but what could have told him differently? I was the one who always insisted on not pinning down their sexuality. I was the one who he spent all his time working with, and a good portion of that time had been as a girl. I could think of nothing I had done that might have said I was interested in him, but neither could I think of anything that I had done that might say otherwise. Thinking on it again, for a long time it had been our tendency to be physically close. Perhaps he had taken that as the indication that I "liked him" liked him?

Did I "like him" like him?

I growled in frustration as I rolled over and buried my face in my pillow, willing my brain to shut down but with no affect. The constant mulling over the issue had given me a headache beyond belief, but I knew that I would not be able to rest until I had figured this issue out.

A large part of the question was about my own sexuality. Did I like guys, or girls, or both? The easiest answer would be to claim I was bisexual until I had figured everything out, but that did nothing to help answer the question.

Of course, even if I did like guys, that would not mean I necessarily liked Andrew.

I really hated circular problems.

So, do I like Andrew or not? In the end, I decided that it was similar to the kiss; while I did not particularly dislike him or disapprove of the idea of dating him, neither was I sure I wanted to either, if he even liked ME after having walked out on him like that.

So what should I do?

Talking to Sarah was out of the question. She might be my best friend, but I doubted that she would understand my issues. She would probably tell me to just go with it and see what happens. Should I talk to Leslie then?

The question was taken out of my hands when I heard a quiet knock at the door to our shared bathroom.

"Come in," I said in a voice far more hoarse than I had expected it to be. I reached up and wiped my face, and to my surprise found my cheeks wet with tears. It was too late to do anything about them, though, as Leslie hesitantly pushed the door open and came into my room, a worried expression on his face.

"Is everything okay?" He asked as he crossed over to my desk and pulled out the chair, straddling the back as he watched me sit up on the bed.

"Yeah. Maybe? I dunno," I said, sniffling. "Andrew...."

"I heard."

"What?"

"You missed dinner, you know. He wasn't there either, so I asked Bobby what was going on, and he said that all he knew was that something had happened between you two and Andrew was upset about it. Lemme guess, he kissed you?"

"Uh, yeah," I said, feeling my cheeks grow red in embarrassment.

Pause.

"Well?"

"Well what?"

"What did you think?"

I shook my head. "I don't know, that's the problem! I don't know what to do."

"Hmm," Leslie said, crossing his arms on the back of the chair and setting his chin on top. "Do you want me to get Sarah?"

I shook my head again. "No, I already know what she'd say. She'd just tell me to run with it and see what happens, but it's more complicated than that."

"Because you think you're a guy."

I started to nod, but caught myself first. "What do you mean by that?"

Leslie sighed and shifted uncomfortably in his seat. "Well, all I mean is, hell, I shouldn't have to say it. You already know everyone pretty much thinks you're like Sarah."

I snorted. "Yeah. You'd think they would listen when I tell them I'm not." I gave him as sharp a look as I could. "You believe me, right?"

"Well... I know what you're thinking, and it's not like that! I guess, I don't think you're like Sarah so much, but you aren't like the rest of us either."

"And what's that supposed to mean?" I asked angrily.

"Hey, don't shoot the messenger, I'm just sayin'. Most of us, we try to separate what we do as Princesses from what we do as guys. You... don't. That's all it is, really, but it's a lot more important than you seem to think it is."

"Why?" I asked, honestly confused. "What difference does it make?"

He took his time before answering. "Okay. You act the same whether you're dressed as a guy or a girl. That isn't a bad thing, but the way you act FITS as either one mostly, and that's what causes people problems, Andrew included."

"I don't see how that's connected to anything, or why that makes people think I'm a girl."

"Because frankly, you're too pretty to be a boy."

I rolled my eyes. "Gee, thanks." Despite my sarcastic tone, though, I carefully avoided looking at the mirror.

I knew what he said was true, and I hated my stepbrother for doing it to me. No, that was wrong, and I had to admit that the accident had nothing to do with most of the rest of my appearance. My face might have been why I was chosen for the Princess Program so early, but it alone was not the reason people saw me the way I did.

That was a thought path I definitely did not want to take for the moment, though, so I tried to change the subject. "What does all that matter to Andrew k-k-kissing me?"

"With how the two of you were hanging all over each other today? I would have been more surprised if he hadn't."

"But we told you--"

"Yeah, you told us it was all just to get the other boys off your back, but do you really think Andrew would have agreed if he didn't actually like you?"

I was silent for a moment. "I dunno... maybe?"

Leslie gave me a disbelieving look, then shook his head in disgust and stood up. "Look, I can see why you got freaked out, but you can't mess with Andrew like you do and not expect things like this to happen. I know," he cut me off when I went to interject, "you don't think you're leading him on, or that there's anything between the two of you. But you need to open your eyes, and ask yourself honestly if you would act the same way you do with Andrew with any of the other boys in the school." He started to head out the bathroom door, but turned back to me before closing it behind him. "Just think about it," he said, then latched the door.

-44-

"What do you want?"

"Can we talk?" I asked him nervously, staring down at my feet rather than looking at his face.

"...Alright," Andrew said, then stepped aside, letting me into his room but leaving the door open.

"Can you shut the door so we have some privacy?"

"We're not supposed to when a Princess is in our room dressed like you are."

I looked down at skirt and fuzzy sweater. "Oh." I had thought that dressing like a girl might make him feel more at ease talking to me, but I had not thought about other ramifications of the decision. "Well," I stood up and walked to the door, closing it. "They'll just have to deal this time."

He sat down on his bed and stared at the floor. "Sorry about earlier."

I only hesitated a moment before making my decision, crossing the room and sitting next to him on the bed. "No, I'm sorry," I said, wringing my hands. "I shouldn't have run off like that, and I should have thought more about your feelings than I have. I... I know you, you like me."

"Duh," he said, still staring at the floor.

Now I felt even worse. "The thing is, I still don't know if I like guys or not. I wasn't trying to hurt you, but when you kissed me, it scared me." I silently congratulated myself on not stuttering on the word 'kiss' before going back to my speech. "If you don't want to talk to me right now I understand, but I just wanted to let you know I was sorry."

I stood up to leave, but before I could even take one step toward the door I felt Andrew's hand clasp my wrist gently.

"Becky -- Beck, wait. Please."

I sat back down, watching him cautiously. Finally, he turned to me and looked me in the face for the fist time since I had come to his room. Seeing the pain in his face, I almost wished he had kept looking at the floor.

"Beck, just tell me if you like me or not, okay? I just, I need to know."

I wanted to give him the answer I knew he wanted, but I could not. "I don't know."

Andrew chuckled for a moment and let go of my wrist, but continued to look into my eyes. "Seriously?"

I nodded.

"What's so hard to know?"

I sighed, and glanced down to my hands before answering him. "It's complicated."

"If it's about being gay or something--"

"It's not that!"

"Then what is it!"

"I... I just, dammit!" I punched myself in the leg, making myself wince. "Don't you think I wish I could answer you? I wish I could say yes, or no, or give a reason why I don't know, but I can't. I just can't."

He looked away again. "Then what do you want me to do?"

This was the part I had been dreading, for several reasons, but I knew I had to go through with it. "I don't know if I like you Andrew, not like *that* anyway. But, if you want to try, ah, dating, or something."

"I thought that was what we were doing? 'Pretend dating' so the other guys wouldn't bother you?"

"Yes, no, I mean... I mean, for real."

He gave me an incredulous look, but said nothing, so I carried on.

"If you want to try being my, my boyfriend, then I guess... that's okay?"

I had no idea if the path I was taking was the right one or not, but I knew that I had to give it a shot. If I did not, then I would always regret it, and who better to help me figure things out than Andrew?

-45-

I looked around my room and marveled at the difference only a few months had made. What had at first felt like nothing more than a dry dorm room now felt more like home than anywhere I had lived since before my mom and dad had divorced. Even in it's barren state now that I had packed most of my belongings for the just over two weeks I would be gone for Christmas break, I could feel how comfortable the room had grown to me.

With a heavier heart than I had expected I picked up the last of my bags and turned around to face Andrew.

"You ready yet?"

"Yeah," I said, lifting the bag onto my shoulder and leading the way out. Andrew came along behind me, bringing the rest of my baggage. Last time I had stayed at Sarah's I had been unprepared, but this time I knew better, and had brought more girl's clothes than boy's. What had on arrival been just enough clothes to fill my battered old military surplus duffel bag now filled an additional two bags that I had borrowed from Leslie, with more clothes left to spare in the closet.

I looked back at Andrew, lugging the two larger and heavier bags, and grinned. He had agreed to "taking it slow" when it came to our relationship, or whatever you would call it, and the most intimate contact we had had since that day was to hold hands on a few occasions. Even that small act of intimacy was more than I would have thought I could handle at the beginning of the year, but whatever I might eventually decide when it came to who and what I was, I already knew that I would never regret at the least giving Andrew a chance to prove himself.

We were both huffing when we finally reached the main building of the school, Andrew from exertion and me from the cold, and gladly dropped our bags just inside the front doors to await Miss Sakaki's arrival to pick me and Sarah up. Sarah should have already been down, but I had little doubt she was being held up sharing one last goodbye with Leslie before our departure.

We sat there in silence for at least five minutes, neither of us sure what to say. Finally, Andrew nervously reached across the gap between us and took my hand. I looked up into his eyes.

"Becky, I just wanted to say, thanks."

"What for?"

"For... I guess, a lot. At the start of the year I just thought you would be an interesting person to know, but then you joined the Princess program and that all changed. I don't know why, but when I'm around you, boy, girl, it doesn't matter."

"Andrew..."

"Please, let me finish." He looked eagerly into my eyes. "I really like you. Heh, I guess that's pretty obvious," he said, chuckling. "And I know that you still don't know if you like me, but I'm glad you gave me a chance."

I watched Andrew, unsure what to say, until the beep of a car horn from outside broke the moment. Andrew let go of my hand, and stood up.

"I'll see you after Christmas."

"Wait," I said, gripping his hand again.

He looked down at me, waiting for me to continue, so I stood up. Slowly, and much more sure of myself than I would have thought, I reached up and wrapped my arms around his neck in a hug. He hugged me back, and when we finally let go I gave him a quick peck on the cheek.

"Merry Christmas," I said as I took a step back, seeing beyond his goofy grin a pair of matching ones on both Leslie and Sarah.

Sarah stepped forward and grabbed my hand. "Come on, Mom's waiting for us."

I grabbed my bag, and watched as Andrew picked up the other two with that same look still plastered on his face. He and Leslie followed us out to the car and helped us load our bags, but neither one said a thing as we gave each of them another hug before climbing in the car, waving as we pulled away.

"Merry Christmas, girls!" Miss Sakaki said merrily, before giving me an apologetic look.

"It's alright," I said with a smile, more relaxed than I had felt in a while. "It will be."

My dad would be arriving at the airport the next day, but I could tell by the look on Sarah's face that I would be spending most of the night talking to her about Andrew. How did I feel about him? Were we serious? Was he a good kisser? I still knew none of the answers, but now I could safely say that I wanted to know them, and when Christmas break was over, I was sure that at least the first question would be possible.

I had come a long way since first arriving at Kingston Academy. In the last few months, I had been a cheerleader, a superhero, a waitress, and both someone's girlfriend and boyfriend. I had made many friends, and had experiences beyond my wildest imaginings.

What was waiting for me when I returned?

I was looking forward to finding out.

(End of Book 1)

END NOTES:

To reiterate my earlier blog entry, here it is, the last part of Book One of Princess For Hire. I'll start work on the next book immediately, but in combination with all my other commitments, please don't expect to see anything from it for at least six to eight months.

Also, I again apologize for there only being three chapters and not the full eight I had been aiming for. The story wrapped itself up nicely, and though I tried to extend it I couldn't really think of anything else to put that wouldn't have ended up just feeling like what it would have been -- filler.

I hope everyone has enjoyed the ride so far, and I'm looking forward to bringing you more of the adventures of Beck and co. in the future!

Until then, be excellent to each other.

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire: The Second Semester Part 1

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Serial Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • School or College Life
  • Voluntary
  • Identity Crisis

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  • Posted by author(s)

Princess For Hire
Book 2: The Second Semester
By Melanie E.

Beck returns to Kingston Academy after an eventful Christmas break, for all new adventures -- and maybe a little romance to boot!

Alright, before we start let me just say I hope I don't come to regret posting this so early. I was hoping to have the first nine chapters/three parts finished before starting to post the story, but as it is I've just finished the second part. I'm hoping that, like it worked with the first book, getting reader's comments will help to fuel my creative energies toward writing more quickly.

So, without further adieu, here we go!

Part 1: The Princess Returns

-1-

It was with a mixture of sadness and joy that I watched the gates of Kingston Academy roll into view. Joy, because I was finally returning to what I had come to think of as MY school, a place where I belonged. Sadness, because returning meant another four months before I would see my dad, someone I was just beginning to connect with again after our years apart.

I felt a hand reach down and take mine, squeezing it gently, and when I looked up Sarah gave me an understanding smile. "Come on, cheer up. I bet Leslie's waiting for us already. And Andrew, too."

I rolled my eyes, but felt my sullen mood lifting.

Christmas break had been an even more wonderful experience than I could have ever hoped for, even if it was far different than I had expected. The initial plan, where I would share the front room with my dad for the time he was there, was abandoned quickly when he arrived with his boyfriend Mitch in tow. He apologized to the Grahams extensively, but they just took it all in stride, and after a bit of finagling Sarah convinced them to move me into her room, the end result of which was that I'd had very little "Daniel" time over the past two weeks -- not that I was expecting to have much to begin with.

Thinking about everything that had happened over Christmas helped to drive away the rest of my bad mood. I had my dad again, and being around Sarah's family was oddly more comfortable than I had ever felt with any of my own.

"That's better. We're here!"

Sarah's father helped us unpack the car, leaving our luggage on the front steps, and true to her word Leslie and Andrew were there waiting to bring our bags up to the dorms. Seeing Andrew again sent nervous tingles down my spine. I had thought a lot about us while away on vacation, but I still had trouble coming to terms with the idea of actually dating another boy.

"Hey Sarah. Becky," he said, looking at the turtleneck and jeans I was wearing, both obviously girl's.

"Hey Andrew! Say hi, Becky."

I shot Sarah a withering glare, but she ignored me as she caught Leslie in a lip-lock, leaving me standing there across from Andrew even as I heard her parents' car pulling away.

"Uhm... hi," I finally managed to squeak out, before mentally slapping myself. Before I could get nervous about it again, I stepped forward and gave him a hug, which he returned warmly. When we let go of each other, he was smiling, and I felt the same begin to grow across my own face. "Hi," I said again, much more certain of myself.

"Are you ready to take your bags up?" Leslie asked us, reaching for the heavier of Sarah's bags.

"Are we ever! It's freezing out here!" Sarah complained, rubbing her arms through her thick coat.

Andrew grabbed the heaviest of my bags without even asking, and with that we were on our way through the building and to the dorms.

"So how were your Christmas breaks?" Sarah asked the boys as we trudged through the school's halls.

Leslie spoke up first, straining under the weight of Sarah's bags. "Fine. I got a new laptop. It has built in wireless, so I don't have to rely on that glitchy card any more."

"Good! I was missing your emails. What about you, Andrew?"

Andrew shrugged under the weight of my duffel bag. "Not bad I guess. Jules was impossible to live with as usual. Then again, you two know how he can be. I didn't get anything as fancy as a laptop though."

"Aww, so no sending love letters to Becky by email then?"

Andrew grinned. "I'll just have to write 'em by hand I guess."

"Oooh," Sarah said, as I tried to shrink down into my turtleneck and disappear.

"Alright, stop it you two," Leslie chimed in, the voice of reason. "You're embarrassing her. You don't like being picked on either, Sarah, so no excuses."

"But I'm not picking on her," she said, pouting. Leslie just glared at her.

"Stop or I won't let you do my hair again."

"But that's no fair!"

Luckily for me, the argument ended when we reached the outside doors. We would be in the dorms soon, but it was too cold outside to waste the time arguing.

We rushed as quickly as we could through the quad, and wasted no time once we reached the dorms, racing up the stairs to our rooms. I felt the tingle of excitement as we reached the "P" wing, the familiar smell of the hallway making me feel a sense of... something. I was not sure what I felt, but it was good.

Leslie and Sarah continued on down the hall to her room while Andrew and I stopped at mine. Putting my things up took a back seat, however, when as soon as our hands were free Andrew wrapped me in another hug. I resisted slightly at first, but his warmth changed my mind.

After a few seconds he pulled back a little, but did not let me go. "Becky, I've wanted to ask you this since before Christmas break. Can I... can I kiss you again?"

I cannot remember what I said. On the other hand, it must have been "yes," because that is what he did.

-2-

"So who else is back already?"

Leslie shrugged, sitting backward in my desk chair, as he often did when visiting my room. "Most of the other Princesses are back already, as well as a few of the Protectors, like Andrew and Bobby. For the most part, though, this is it until probably the day before classes start. I would have thought you and Sarah would have waited too, since she lives so close."

"Mr. Uchiha asked us to come a couple of days early. He said there was something he wanted to talk to us about before classes started and he'd be busy the day right before. We're supposed to meet with him about ten in the morning."

Leslie groaned. "Crap. First day back and already having to get up early?"

I nodded, not at all pleased myself. "Tell me about it. Then again, Sarah's entire family is early risers, so this will be like sleeping in for me."

Leslie's eyes grew wide as the implications of what that would mean if he stayed with Sarah sunk in. Leslie liked his sleep at least as much as I did.

"Don't worry, it's just me and her he wants to talk to. You're off the hook," I said, fighting not to laugh at the visible relief on his face. "So why aren't you in there with Sarah still? You two seemed pretty intense when we first got back."

He frowned. "I tried to explain to her why she needs to lay off you and Andrew, but she doesn't get it. We were getting kind of heated, so I backed off and left before we had a major fight."

I stopped my unpacking and went over to him, patting him on the shoulder. "It's okay, just because you're my 'big sister' doesn't mean you have to stand up to your own girlfriend for me."

"I just don't see why she doesn't understand! I mean, we all pick on you, yeah, and Jules is the worst. Then again, Jules is Jules, and Andrew's brother, so that's different. But Sarah's supposed to be your best friend and-"

"And she thinks of me as a girl." I didn't feel like having this conversation, but I knew we had to, and I had to let Leslie know what was going on. "She doesn't think of me as a guy at all, Leslie. Come on, most of the people in the school don't."

"But Sarah..."

"Sarah IS my best friend, and she tries to understand. But she still has problems seeing how my situation is different from hers."

"Why?"

I shrug. "Because she's normal?"

I thought Leslie was going to argue with me, but instead a light seemed to come on in his eyes as he got it.

"Exactly," I said, sitting back on the bed with a pleased look on my face.

"But it's still not nice of her to pick on you."

"It embarrasses me, yeah, but it's not that bad. She does it because she wants me to loosen up about it, and she's right, I need to."

Leslie still looked unconvinced. "Well, if you're sure..."

"I am," I said, nodding with more confidence than I felt.

He stood up. "In that case, I'm gonna go apologize to her."

I grinned. "Alright. If Ruby's here could you ask her to come visit with me?"

"Ruby? Oh! Right. Sure."

"Thanks."

He left, and I had just enough time to finish unpacking before I heard the unmistakable "oof!" of Ruby tripping over my door frame.

"Hi."

"Hey Ruby," I said, not being surprised upon turning around to find her a girl's school uniform. "Dressed a little early for classes, huh?"

She blushed. "I just like it is all."

"It's alright. So how was your Christmas break?"

She smiled, turning the chair Leslie had been perched on around and sitting carefully on the edge. "It was great! I got to see my sister again, and I told her all about the Princess program. She thought it sounded great, though..."

"What?"

She blushed again, and would not look me in the face. "She said she hoped grace lessons were part of it, 'cause I really need 'em."

Okay, it was kind of mean, but I couldn't help the laugh that bubbled up within me. I tried to fight it, but there was no way the snickers would remain contained. Finally, I let it out.

"It's not that funny!" She complained with a huff, but soon she was laughing too, just as hard as I was. Seeing her laughing, and eventually fall out of the chair, caused me to laugh even more. It was a couple of minutes before we could look at each other again without giggling.

All in all, it was good to be back.

-3-

If anyone were to ask where the idea came from, I would blame it on the corrupting influences of Ruby and Sarah. After all, I had only meant it as a joke -- it was the two of them who had run with the idea, drawing every other Princess who had shown up for the session early in with promises of food and bad horror movies. Who could resist?

The end result was that, with the house attendant's permission, we had organized an impromptu slumber party in one of the two lounge rooms on the ground floor.

It was surprising how many of us had shown up already for preparation for classes. The group consisted of Sarah, Ruby, Brandy, Amanda, Kylie, Leslie, Jules, and of course, me, all hanging about the lounge room with sleeping bags or blankets and pillows in varying levels of girly sleeping attire. I had on a plain set of pajamas I had bought to wear at Sarah's place, while Amanda and Leslie were in boxers and tees, their only concession to femininity being Amanda's breast forms and Leslie's painted nails and up-done hair. Brandy had appeared in of all things a long flannel nightgown that she had obviously received from her mom, blushing brightly at being seen in it, while Sarah and Ruby, of course, wore the most feminine nightgowns they had. Jules, to everyone's surprise, showed up in an extra-long sleep shirt with a picture of a kitten on it, stating it was a gag gift from Andrew for Christmas. All in all, we made an interesting collection to find in a boys' dorm hall.

What had at first started out as the group of us talking nervously in small clusters, no one quite sure of how to approach the event, soon evolved into a group conversation, and eventually into the night of board games and bad movies I had expected it to. Of course, given the nature of such events, and our unique situation, it became apparent that we would be acting out as many of the stereotypical girly-girl slumber party activities as we could get away with.

The pillow fight was a bust, since we all found it far more exhausting and irritating than fun, and though Sarah and Ruby spearheaded a makeover session that rapidly deteriorated as well when it was discovered that they were the only two who had anything more than the bare minimum of different styles of makeup necessary for school events. When the game of truth or dare came along, though, was when the night grew interesting.

"Alright alright alright, who's first?"

"Sarah!"

"Sarah it is!" Jules said, grinning evilly. "Well, then, Sarah. Truth or dare?"

Sarah wiggled uncomfortably. "Uh, truth?"

"Good. How about this, then. Have you and Leslie gone all the way yet!"

"Jules!" Someone interjected, but she ignored them, staring holes through the top of Sarah's head.

"Noooo," Sarah said, her face flushing.

"So then you've only gone so far as --"

"JULES!" The force of the voice convinced her to stop, though she looked dejected that she wouldn't get to finish her line of questioning.

"Sarah's turn to ask someone," I said, nudging her lightly since we were side by side in the circle the group had formed for the game.

"Oh! Okay. Amanda! Truth or dare?"

"I'll take truth as well."

"Do you like being a girl?"

Amanda hesitated before answering. "Well, it's okay. It doesn't BOTHER me. I dunno... sometimes?"

Brandy nodded. "It can be fun, but it's a lot more work than I thought it would be." Everybody around the circle nodded their agreement with that, even Sarah.

"But isn't it nice to feel pretty sometimes?"

Amanda shrugged. "I guess. I do like the way a lot of the clothes feel, and it's nice not to have to act tough all the time. When you're tall and black people tend to expect you to be some kind of athlete or something, but I've never really liked playing sports too much. It might sound kinda sexist, but I like not being expected to be all physically powerful when I'm dressed as a girl."

Sarah thought for a moment, then decided she was done. "Alright, your turn, who are you gonna pick?"

"Uh, how about Kylie?"

Kylie shook her head no, but everybody's urging finally pushed her over the edge, and she mumbled a quiet, "alright. Truth, I guess."

I listened avidly, waiting for Amanda's question. Of all the girls, I probably knew Kylie the least.

"Do you ever dress as a girl when you're not doing Princess stuff?"

Kylie's eyes grew wide.

"Well?"

She looked away, then squeezed her eyes tightly shut. "Sometimes," she said, too quietly to be heard if the room had not been dead silent.

After a few seconds of tense silence in which nobody picked on her or laughed, she finally opened her eyes to find us all watching her, smiling.

"Go on," Sarah said, in the same tone you would use to coax a scared puppy out from under the bed.

"Uh, when my cousin came over for summer break last year, she found some of my Princess clothes, and we spent a few days hanging out as girls? And again, when she came down for Christmas?" Finally realizing that none of us would pick on her for her answers, she opened up. "And sometimes... sometimes, just because."

"Because why?"

She shrugged. "Because."

The entire room was silent, contemplating her answer.

"Alright, do me next," Leslie said when things started to grow uncomfortable. "I'll be different and take a dare."

"Okay." Kylie brightened up, the spotlight being off her now. "I dare you to... gosh, this is hard."

Everybody laughed at that, but seeing they were laughing with her and not at her, Kylie relaxed even more, becoming more like the girl I had seen many times at meals. "How about this. I dare you to wear your Princess uniform underwear under your boy's uniform for the next month."

Leslie lit up a bright red, but everyone approved of the dare, and after much ribbing she finally nodded her consent, to cheers around the room.

"But how will we know if she does it?"

"Easy," Sarah said with a gleam in her eye, "I'll check." This was followed by a wolf whistle from Jules, but everybody ignored her as they clapped in approval.

"Now your turn. Who are you going to challenge?"

"Well, I've gotta pick on my little sister, don't I?" Leslie's words left my blood running cold. "Come on, Becky, it's your turn. Truth or dare?"

What should I do? I wrapped my arms around my knees as I thought for a moment, considering my options. If I did truth, the question would likely be something about being a girl, or about Andrew. If I did a dare, well, it would probably be the same. All the faces around me were waiting intently for my answer.

"Truth."

"Alright. Why don't you dress as a girl every day like Sarah does?"

I was shocked. Of all the people in the room, Leslie was the one I least expected to ask a question that loaded. Then I saw her face. I could read in her eyes the apology for the question, but there was something else there as well. An urging to answer.

She had given me the opening I needed to explain to everyone my position.

I took a deep breath. "Never."

There were many sighs and mumbles around the room, before I heard someone ask, "why not?"

"Because I'm a guy?"

"But you make such a good girl!" I looked in Sarah's direction, but she shook her head, telling me it hadn't been her who had said it.

"And even dressed as a guy you look like a girl."

"And you don't act very masculine either."

I shook my head, growing annoyed. "So what! So I'm happy with who I am, and I don't feel I need to change that for anyone. Why does that make me a girl?"

"Why does it make you a guy?" The same voice from before asked. Why couldn't I place who was asking? But more importantly, how do I answer?

Finally, I simply shrugged. "Does it really matter?" The edge in my voice was enough to prevent anyone else from questioning me, but even as we all called the game quits and began to clean up for sleep, I still found that I was questioning myself.

(End of Part 1)

NOTES: Yes, yes, I know, the "girly sleepover" is about as cliche' as you can get, but that's the point, after all! On the other hand, I'd *like* to think that I gave it an interesting twist, so hopefully that makes up for some of it.

This is just the beginning! I can't promise a posting every week like with book 1, though I will strive for it, but I can put in a good word for getting at least a new post every two weeks or so. I'm aiming for fifteen parts on this one, same as the first, so that should last you a good while, no?

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire: The Second Semester Part 2

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

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Princess For Hire
Book 2: The Second Semester
By Melanie E.

Beck's return to Kingston Academy has brought more to his plate than he expected. Can he handle the next turn of events? Or will he make a decision he'll come to regret?

(Beginning of Part 2)

Part 2: The Princess's Adviser

-4-

Waking up and not knowing where you are is never a pleasant experience.

It is even less so when you wake up to find yourself being crushed under someone else.

"Urrmph! Gerroff!" I pushed up with all my might, and finally managed to roll what turned out to be Amanda off of me and back onto her own pallet, about a foot away from mine.

I looked around the dark room, the digital clock on the mantle of the fireplace proclaiming it to be eight o'clock. Didn't I have something I needed to do today? Oh, yeah.

"Psssst. Sarah. Hey," I said, poking her in the back a few times for emphasis.

"Hnnh? What?" She asked, rolling over and rubbing her eyes sleepily.

"It's eight, we've got that meeting with Mr. Uchiha in two hours."

She nodded. "N'kay." With a mighty yawn she sat up and looked around the room. As the memories of the night before came back to her, she began to smile. "My first real slumber party. Probably my last, too. Oh, well."

"We can try and do this again some time."

She nodded. "I think I'd like that."

Now fully awake, we both carefully made our way through the tangle of bodies filling the floor and up to our own rooms to get ready for the day. I debated over whether to go as Becky or as Beck, not sure what capacity Mr. Uchiha was wanting to talk to us in. In the end, I settled on a pair of my regular boy's jeans with a turtleneck sweater in plain black, knowing that even though they were both from the boy's department nobody would be able to tell anyhow, a fact which irked me even as it played to my advantage for the moment.

Sarah was still not ready yet when I had finished dressing, so I made the walk to the school room where we would be meeting alone, using the time to think about things.

Christmas break had been full of fun and laughter, more so than any Christmas I could remember since before my mom and dad had split up. Seeing Sarah's family again had been great too, Mamma Graham welcoming me just as warmly as the first time, and giving my dad and his partner the same treatment. The fact that my dad was gay didn't seem to matter to her, or the rest of the family, in the least, and I had been able to tell that he'd had a hard time not breaking up at the warm welcome too.

The entire break, I had been Daniel, what, twice? On second thought, no, it had been once -- the day we had driven down to see my mom.

That meeting hadn't gone as well as the time at Sarah's. We had agreed she would drive half-way to meet us for dinner one night at a restaurant we all liked, so I had spent a good two hours making sure to remove all traces of Becky I could. It was a harder task than I had imagined, since that included using a different soap and shampoo than I had grown accustomed to so I wouldn't smell the same, and even carefully picking off the bits of nail polish around the base of my nails where the acetone wouldn't completely reach.

She had been waiting at the table when we arrived, standing up to give me a hug and my dad a cool nod of acknowledgement, but as the meal went on she began to look at me more and more strangely.

"Something's different about you," she finally said, after some few minutes of uncomfortable silence had passed. "There's something you're not telling me."

I had shrugged, but remained silent, not knowing what to say, or what specifically she might be thinking of from the myriad things I knew I wasn't telling her. Most of the rest of the meal passed in quiet contemplation.

When we all said our goodbyes, she hugged me again, but this time there was something more distant about it. She hadn't said a single word to my dad the entire meal, and after our uncomfortable pause little to me either. Watching her go, I had felt a pang of loss I hadn't expected, somehow knowing that things were different between us now, in a way I couldn't describe.

It was on our way home that Dad said the five little words that brought what had happened into focus. "You moved like a girl."

At first, I had no idea what he was talking about. Then it hit me. Spending so much time with Sarah, and as Becky, had I really started moving femininely? I must have. Now her reaction to me made more sense, even if it didn't hurt any less. All the monitoring of my appearance had been for nothing in the long run.

A burst of chill wind snapped me back to the present, the sparse trees of the quad doing little to hamper the rushing winter air.

I had been watching the way I acted since then, trying to tell the difference between how I behaved now and how I had before the Princess program began. At first I had noticed nothing, but now I was finally starting to see how much I had really changed. My walk was slightly different. I used my hands more when I talked. I was freer with my vocal range, something I was surprised not to have noticed before.

The next question, the one I still had not gained the nerve to tackle yet, was more important than what changes had occurred. Was I different because of the Princess Program, or just because I was less self conscious now than I used to be? That question alone made me laugh, as if anything asking it was an incredibly self-conscious thing to do. Yet the truth was, since joining the Princess Program I had stopped worrying near as much about how my actions and behavior affected what others thought of me. Until my meeting with my mom, so much of my actual behavior had become little more than background noise to the people and events going on around me, and my feelings.

The question from the night before was all that much more important to me because of all this. I thought of myself as a guy. But really, did I? Before the Princess Program -- no, before Christmas break, that would have been a definite "yes." Now, though, I was less sure. I thought of myself as many things; a student at Kingston Academy, a Princess, Andrew's boyfriend-slash-girlfriend, though that last one was still too new to really comprehend. Where did being a "guy" fit into any of that? Sure, Kingston was ostensibly a boys-only school, but Sarah blew that rule out of the water, and most of the student body would say I did as well despite my objections. Before the break that had made me angry, but now that I was coming to grips with why they felt that way I was starting to see their point.

"Grrgh, too much to think about this early in the morning," I muttered to myself as I pushed through the doors into the main building. Mr. Uchiha's office was close, giving me a perfect reason to put everything else on the back burner. For now, I needed to focus on the meeting at hand, and what it might be about.

-5-

"Good morning girls."

"Good morning, Mr. Uchiha," Sarah said while I simply smiled and nodded at our school's headmaster. A new shelf to the side of his desk showed me that he had managed to acquire more volumes of manga since the last time I had been in his office. When he caught where my eyes had wandered, he gave me a pleased grin.

"I might have some you would be interested in. You can take a look after our meeting if you would like, Beck. It is okay if I call you that, yes?"

"Yessir," I said. There was just something about the school's headmaster that made it impossible not to like him. "I would like that."

"Good. Now, to get under way with the reason I have called the two of you in here," he said in an official tone, pushing his glasses back up on his nose. From underneath his desk he produced a thin manila file folder. "I have come to understand that you two are considered the best Princesses in the school."

"Really?" I blurted, instantly regretting it.

Mr. Uchiha simply chuckled. "Because of this, you happen to be uniquely qualified for a project I am most excited to be allowed to do this semester." Sliding the folder across the desk to us, he flipped it open to reveal a series of documents and incomplete pamphlets.

"What are these, sir?" Sarah asked, picking up one part of the packet while I started skimming another.

"Those are mock-ups of a potential future introduction packet for the school, for which we would like the two of you to serve as models." Both Sarah and I stopped what we were doing to look at him incredulously. "Now, now. You're not the only ones who will be asked! However, you are potentially the two most important."

I took another look at the papers in my hands as the implications of what he was saying sank in. "You mean they're going to start advertising the Princess program?"

His grin grew even wider as he nodded enthusiastically. "Even though the program has another two years before we will be listing it as an official part of our school's teaching methods, it has garnered a great deal of praise from both students and those alumni who have been following it. As such, starting next year we will be offering a limited-release pamphlet including details on the Princess Program to judge how its inclusion affects the attitudes of potential students."

"And you want us to be your page five girls," Sarah said, with a giggle of her own.

"In a sense, yes."

"Absolutely! This will be so much fun!"

I didn't share Sarah's excitement. "I don't know. What will we have to do?"

Mr. Uchiha took another stack of papers from his desk and handed them to us. "The details are in here. For the most part, though, all that will be required is a few days of modeling for photographs, for which you will be paid the agency's normal modelling fee in addition to your normal Princess pay."

My eyebrows went up at that. Getting paid twice for dressing once sounded great, but there had to be a catch. "What's the catch?"

His eyes lit up as he answered. "Ever observant, aren't we? The catch is that as of yet I don't know what days the photographer will be in. As a result, I cannot guarantee that you won't have to perform a few extra days worth of Princess duties if they aren't available on the days that are already required."

I was sure that he was expecting me to protest, given my past history, but instead I simply shrugged. "I do it one day a week regardless, so it's not that big a deal."

"So you'll do it?" Sarah pleaded. When I nodded, she squealed and grabbed me in a hug. "Yes! This is gonna be so fun!"

"Very good, then. As with the Princess program, your parents will have to agree as well, but I doubt that should be a problem for either of you."

"No sir!"

"No sir," I echoed when Sarah finally released me.

As we left his office, Sarah started bouncing up and down. "This is gonna be so fun! Thanks for doing this with me Becky!"

I nodded, off in my own world. "Yeah, sure."

Sarah stopped her bouncing and looked at me worriedly. "Are you alright?"

"Yeah," I said, quietly, "I was just hoping it would be something about figuring out the problem with Professor Swift, not a job posing for a camera."

"Oh," she said, lowering her head. "I see. That is something we need to think about, isn't it. Do you think the others have come up with anything?"

"On Christmas break?" I scoffed. "No way!"

She laughed. "True."

Still, it was something to think about. More than anything else this semester, I was determined to figure Professor Swift out.

-6-

"So what was your meeting with the head about?"

"Oh, nothing," I said, staring into my bowl of soup.

"Nothing? Hah!" Jules said, glaring at me. "The head of the school doesn't call you in to meet him over nothing. Come on, spill."

I looked at the guys around me, unsure of what to do. Sarah was next to me, and seemed eager to share, though.

Finally, she couldn't stand it any more. "Ugh! He wants us to model for some school pamphlets. What?" She said when she saw the look I was giving her. "He didn't say we couldn't tell them!"

Jules grinned. "So what does that mean? You're both gonna be dressing up for photo shoots for the next few months?"

I nodded solemnly, while Sarah did the same with much more energy. "Pretty much, yeah."

"Cool!"

"Huh?"

I looked up, surprised by Jules's reaction. If anything I had expected him to tease us, or at least me. Instead, he thought it was...

"Cool?"

"Yeah!" He said, looking excited. "This means the Alumni like the program, right?"

"Umm, yeah?"

"Great!"

I looked around nervously, seeing that the few other students who were at the school already were looking at our table with curiosity. "Uh, Jules, could you keep it down a bit?"

"Huh? Oh, yeah, sorry," he said, much more quietly. "Don't you see why this is a good thing?"

I nodded. "Yeah, it means the program is succeeding."

He shook his head. "No! It means that until I graduate, I'm in for easy money!"

I cast my glance at the other Princesses, most of whom were nodding along with Jules's words.

"Yeah, I guess you're right."

"Come on, don't act so down about it, you're the one who'll have it the easiest!"

The meal ended soon after that, the rest of the Princess table wanting to stay and talk about what it would mean for them that the program was on the short track to being approved. I, on the other hand, just wanted some time to think.

"Hey, can I walk with you?"

I looked over my shoulder to see Sarah standing behind me, a smile on her face.

"Sure, let's go."

When we were finally out of earshot of everyone else she began to talk. "You're nervous about the pictures?"

I paused for a moment before answering. "A bit."

She hugged me. "You know you're my best friend, right?"

I laughed. "Yeah."

"Then take this for what it is. I think this could be a good opportunity for you to have fun being a girl a bit more."

I stopped cold. "Why?"

She looked at me seriously. "Beck... you don't think I see how hard this is on you, but I do."

"Sarah..."

"Really. I still remember what it was like, being... a guy. Or trying to act like one. I know that it hurts, being forced to be someone you're not. Please, just listen," she said, when I went to speak again. "You want to know why I push you so much on the girl thing?"

I gave in. "Why?"

She hugged herself tightly for warmth as we stood in the cold outdoor air, not looking at me. "Because I don't see that in you. Yeah, there are things you don't like about it, but I see you getting more frustrated trying to fit in when you're dressed as a guy then as a girl. I heard your dad talking to his boyfriend about the meeting with your mom."

I had a chill pass through me, but not from the night air.

"Beck, I'm not saying you're supposed to be a girl or anything. I've pushed you too far in the past a few times, and I'm sorry for that. What I'm trying to say is... give it a shot this semester?"

"Give what a shot?"

She shrugged. "I dunno what I mean exactly. Being a girl? Being yourself?"

I scratched my head as we began to walk again, the windows of the dorm hall glowing brightly in the distance. "I always try to be myself."

She laughed. "Really? Alright then, let me rephrase that. Be yourself, but try not to worry about being a guy so much."

"So I should be a girl instead?"

She huffed. "Now is that what I said?"

"Well, kinda?"

She sighed. "You know what? I'm not really sure what I'm trying to say either."

We both smiled at each other after that, which soon turned into us laughing, which is what we found ourselves doing the rest of the way up to our rooms.

After she was gone, I quickly descended back into my funk. I was really getting tired of this emotional mumbo jumbo and all the bouncing back and forth. Surely there was a way to get everyone off my case about the girl thing?

Like lightning, it hit me. I wanted everyone to leave me alone about being a girl. I wanted time to make my own decisions without having to deal with the frustration of their mixed reactions.

The answer was so simple it was painful. Sure, it might cause a stir for a while, but it's not like anyone could really object, and in the long run it would make things a ton easier, not to mention less frustrating to me.

But could I go through with it?

Did I want to?

Those were my thoughts the rest of that evening, as the beginnings of a plan began to congeal in my mind.

(End of Part 2)

NOTES:

Alright, so things pick up a bit here, and Beck has made a surprise decision! What is it? Do you know? You probably have an idea... but is it the right one?

So, Terrynaut's comments on the last part got me thinking, and gave me an idea that meant a bit of a rewrite on some things I had already written, and the urge to get this out as soon as possible. I hope everyone enjoys what's to come!

Princess For Hire: The Second Semester Part 3

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

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Princess For Hire: The Second Semester

Part 3
By Melanie E.

Beck enacts his plan. Or does he?

-----

(Beginning of Part 3)

Part 3:
A Princess's Princess

-7-

"Good morning, class."

"Good morning , Mr. Johnson."

"I trust everyone had a good Christmas break? Very well then, let us return to our books. If you can all pass the reports I assigned you over the break up to the front of the class."

The first school day of the year started almost identically to any other day, a fact I fully welcomed. It's weird, isn't it? You always find yourself wanting school to end as soon as possible, but when it does you're always eager to return.

Of course, it being our first official day back all of us Princesses found ourselves wearing our girl's uniforms. I was thankful for this, too, since it made the first stage of the plan I had worked out the night before that much easier.

My plan? Well, it was simple.

I had tried to be a guy. That didn't seem to be working out, even in a school with only a single female student.

So if I couldn't be a guy, and there was no way I was going to hurt myself, that really only left one avenue to explore.

"Miss Henderson? Mister Uchiha has requested your presence in the auditorium."

I thanked the teacher and followed the student who had given him the message to the auditorium, where I found Sarah and the headmaster already waiting for me, as well as a person I had never met before.

"Ah, Becky, at last," Mr. Uchiha said, standing up and gesturing toward the other person, a short, round black woman with a brilliant smile. "This is Sandra Kahn, the photographer who will be in charge of the shots of you and Sarah for the pamphlet. Sandra, here is your other model, Becky Henderson."

"Great to finally meet you," she said, holding out her hand to me to shake. "I've heard a lot of good things about you from this galoot, if half of them are true I'm sure we'll have fun during the shoot."

"I'm sure we will," I said, liking the woman right away. "Are we starting today?"

She laughed. "Eager are we? No, but I did want to get a chance to meet the two of you," she pointed at Sarah and me, "before shoots actually started. Now, I hate to ask, but are you like Sarah, or are you just a crossdresser?"

I gave her a curious look. "Why does it matter?"

She looked me up and down, calculatingly. "You know what? I don't think it will. If all of this," she waved up my body, "is you, then we should be alright. I wanted to know because I've got a few outfits I'm thinking about seeing the two of you in that, well, let's just say they wouldn't hide a lot of masculine features."

I glanced at Sarah, who had a nervous expression. "You're not talking bathing suits or something?"

The shock on Sandra's face was obvious. "What? No! Just a few casual clothes and dresses."

"Oh," I said, the relief I was sure evident in my voice. Even Sarah seemed to be regaining her color. "The breasts are glued on, but everything else is me."

"Okay, I can work with that."

Sarah looked at me strangely at the mention of gluing the breasts on. Since tomorrow would be our first day back in boy mode, I was sure she was wondering why I would waste the glue and solvent for such a short time, or why I would use them at all given my past objections. I shook my head at her, though, and mouthed "later."

"Thank you girls, you can go back to your classes now," Sandra said, giving us each an unexpected hug on our way out.

We were barely out the door before Sarah asked me with concern, "you used the glue?"

"Don't worry," I said, smiling at her. "I've got a plan."

She didn't seem reassured.

"I'll tell you tonight, okay? After classes. Tell Leslie to join us in my room, and I'll get hold of Andrew, since this kind of affects all three of you. Maybe the rest of the Princesses, too, but we'll wait to tell them."

"...alright." She grinned, bouncing a little. "NOW I'm really curious! I won't be able to pay attention in classes all day now, you know that, right?"

I shook my head. "Just do your best, it will all be explained later."

She giggled, and we split up at the next intersection, each of us heading to our own second period classes.

-8-

Of course, things can never go to plan, can they?

It seemed that mid-semester was schedule change time for a number of the students at the school, and as a result Andrew had been nowhere to be found all day. I grumbled to myself about unreliable boyfriends as I trudged through the halls on my way to lunch.

*thud*

"Ow! Watch where you're... oh, there you are!"

The wall of meat I had walked headlong into just happened to be the person I had been looking for all day. He stood and rubbed his sternum with a grimace. I guess I had run into him harder than I thought.

"Sorry?"

He grinned, then leaned down and kissed my forehead. "Eat lunch with me to make up for it."

"Alright," I said, taking his arm in mine and dragging him toward the cafeteria.

"Hey! I need to drop my books off first!"

"Oh! Sorry."

With a laugh he pulled his arm out of mine and mussed my hair before turning and heading back the way I had just come. "So what's got you so preoccupied you didn't even see me waiting for you?"

"Wouldn't you like to know," I asked teasingly as I followed him.

"Yup."

Now was my chance. "I'll tell you this afternoon. Sarah and Leslie should be there too."

"Where?"

"My room, after classes are over. It's important."

He looked worried. "It's nothing serious is it?"

"Uhh, maybe?" His look didn't improve. "It's nothing bad, I promise, but it can't really wait, and I'm going to need all three of you to help me out." I looked up at him pleadingly. "Please just say you'll be there?"

He stuffed his books in his locker before looking at me, blushing when he saw the pout I had put on. "Alright, just don't look at me like that, okay?" He had gotten a lot more comfortable around me, but it was kind of nice to know I could still throw him off balance if I needed to.

For the moment, though, I had more interest in food than teasing him, so as soon as he was ready I grabbed his arm again and began to drag him toward the cafeteria.

"Are you okay? There's something different about you today."

"I'm fine," I said, smiling.

In truth, I was a bit surprised at how liberating I was already finding my plan. Not worrying about making people see the difference between Beck and Becky meant I didn't have to think about how my actions would be seen when I switched roles, so I was free to do things I had been afraid of before. Beyond that, I also felt less afraid of pushing the boundaries a little bit more by flirting a little bit more openly with Andrew, something I still felt weird doing.

As we walked I felt him pull his arm out of mine again and wrap it around my shoulder. At first I thought I would be uncomfortable with the contact, but reminding myself of my dedication to giving the girl thing a shot, I made no move to change it. I guess he could feel my acceptance, because he gave me a small squeeze.

Perhaps I can handle this.

At least, that was what I thought until Jules saw us.

"Getting mighty comfy together, aren't ya?"

I felt myself stiffen, and I could feel Andrew's arm starting to shift. Wait. If I'm going to be a girl, then...

"And why not?" I asked, reaching up and pulling his arm back around my shoulder. "He IS my boyfriend, after all."

The smirk that had begun to form on Jules's face quickly died as she realized that her teasing wasn't having the desired affect. Rather than giving up, though, she shifted her target.

"Andrew, I'm surprised at you. You used to always be so nervous around Becky. What changed?"

Again I felt his hand shift, but I held it tightly in place until I felt him begin to relax. I smiled, and looked up at him.

"Would you get my tray for me?"

"Sure, what do you want?"

I told him, and once he had set off to get our trays I sat down next to Sarah with a look of triumph for a very vexed looking Jules. Sarah just looked amused, as did most of the other Princesses.

When Andrew returned, I took the chance to wind Jules up even further. "Thanks, sweetie," I said, taking my tray and giving him a kiss on the cheek. I heard Sarah snort, fighting down a laugh while Andrew burst out in another blush, but I ignored both and instead quirked an eyebrow up at the flabbergasted Jules.

Yes, the next few months were going to be quite fun.

-9-

"Ohmygod, I can't believe you DID that!"

I laughed along with Sarah as we sat on my bed waiting on Leslie and Andrew. She had followed me to my room after Drama, too eager to talk about the events at lunch to wait on them.

"I know! Did you see the look on Jules's face when I didn't let her teasing get to me?"

Sarah fell back on my bed giggling. "I think this is the first time she's ever been speechless like that! She's usually so in control of things."

It felt good getting my own back against Jules. I was sure she'd pay me back for it later with some kind of prank, but I was feeling too empowered to worry about that for the moment.

When her laughing finally calmed down, she looked at me sideways. "You did seem to be getting pretty cozy with him for the middle of the day though."

"Is that a problem?"

She shook her head with a grin. "Nope! Just saying. I don't think the teachers liked it much though, no PDAs and all that."

"None of them tried to stop us, though."

She giggled again. "I think some of them were just as happy to see Jules get what was coming to her as we were."

Jules hadn't said another word after my teasing back at her, simply looking at Andrew and I curiously. I liked her, and I knew that she liked me even if she did like to pick on people too much. I was just hoping I hadn't taken things too far.

"Knock knock," Andrew's voice said from the other side of the door, interrupting us.

"Come in."

Andrew came in, followed closely by a freshly showered and boy-ified Leslie.

"Not going to dinner as a Princess tonight?"

"Well, if he gets to hang out with his girlfriend," he punched Andrew in the shoulder hard enough to rock him sideways, "then I only thought it fair if I hung out with mine," he said as he sat down on the bed next to Sarah, grabbing her hand.

Andrew took my desk chair and straddled the back, facing the three of us. "Alright, so what is it you wanted to tell us?"

I stood up, going over in my head yet again the speech I had prepared for the three of them. "Alright, it's like this. You know how no matter how I dress and act people are always getting things mixed up? It's like even when I'm obviously trying to be a guy people see me as a girl." Leslie snorted, but a glare from Sarah shut him up. "Thank you. Anyway, I think I've come up with a plan to stop it."

A beaming smile began to grow across Sarah's face, while the color drained from Leslie's, and Andrew simply sat there, his brow furrowed in confusion. "You're quitting the Princess Program?"

I shook my head, biting my lip. "Not exactly."

Sarah jumped up and wrapped me in a hug, nearly knocking me down. "YES! Yesyesyesyesyes!"

I laughed. "I guess you approve then?"

"No."

Sarah released me, and as one we turned to Leslie, who looked far more upset than I would have expected.

"Why not?" I asked, genuinely curious.

He looked at me in disbelief. "You don't really think this will stop the confusion, do you? If anything, it will make it worse. Or were you planning to spend the rest of your time at the school as a girl?"

"No, just this year. Over the summer I'll be Beck full time, and when next year starts maybe I'll have developed enough that people will be less confused."

Now it was Sarah's turn to step back, looking worried. "Uh, Becky? I don't think that's likely to happen." She sighed. "As much as I'd like to have you around like this all the time, as long as you're part of the Princess program I don't think there's much you can do about how people see you."

I looked between the two of them, at their concerned expressions, and thought about what they had said. They were right, in a way, but....

I made a snap decision. "We'll see how it goes, then. If I can deal with it for one year, and what ya'll say is true and next year isn't any better than last semester we'll know if I can deal with being considered a girl all the time. If I can't, then I'll quit the Princess program." I turned and looked at Andrew, who had been quiet so far. "What do you think?"

He looked at me, not saying anything for several seconds, before standing himself and hugging me much like Sarah had. "It's up to you. I like having you around as Becky, but I like being around Beck too. Though, uh, I don't know how well everyone would react if you acted like you did today while dressed as a guy."

I fought the urge to laugh again as I pushed him away. "Don't worry, I wouldn't do that to you."

He smiled. "I told you before I liked you either way. I dunno, maybe that makes me bi or whatever, but you're still you."

"Alright," Leslie said, regaining my attention. His eyes were scrunched closed and he was rubbing his temples like he had a headache. "So you're gonna go through with this. What exactly are you going to do?"

I shrugged. "Well, just what I did today, mostly. I'll dress as a girl all the time. Since most people see me as one anyhow it should make things easier, and keep me from being frustrated when people call me Becky since that's who I'll be."

"And who all are you going to let in on this plan? Or were you just going to let everyone figure it out on their own?"

"Everyone thinks she's like me already," Sarah said, looking at me apologetically, "so most people probably won't think anything of it."

"You at least need to let the headmaster know, though," Leslie said, ever the voice of reason. "That way he can field any flack that might pop up with teachers and such. And they might make you change rooms, too."

That confused me. "Change rooms? Why?"

Sarah grinned. "To the one on the other side of my bathroom. They don't have a lot of rules in place for transgendered students, but one they have set up is that we're not to have paired rooms with anyone who isn't. Even though Leslie's a Princess, he doesn't count, but if you're dressing as a girl full time they'll probably decide that you do, even if you still identify as a guy."

I thought about that for a bit. Leslie looked annoyed by the idea of me sharing a bathroom with his girlfriend, though I wasn't sure which of the many possible reasons was bothering him. "Leslie, I really don't want you to have a problem with this. I'll need your support, not just as my big sister in the program, but as my friend."

The look on his face changed quickly from one of annoyance to one of abashed regret. "Sorry. It just seems so sudden, and after all the talk you've made of NOT being like Sarah, and your argument during the sleepover, I'm still not sure this is a good idea. Don't worry, I'll support you, though, whatever you do."

"Thanks."

Sarah poked Leslie in the side. "You're not worried about the room thing, are you? She never made a move on me when we shared my bedroom at my house, I doubt she would here."

"What!"

And that was the opening of a whole new can of worms.

(End of Part 3)

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Princess For Hire: The Second Semester Part 4

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  • Rasufelle

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Princess For Hire: The Second Semester

Part 4
By Melanie Ezell

It's the weekend, and Becky and Sarah are all ready for a little fun out on the town!

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Part 4: A Date With A Princess

-10-

Things were, to put it lightly, interesting for the next week and a half. The whispers were quick to start the next morning when I arrived to class in my girl's uniform again, and continued to grow throughout the weekend, when I remained a girl even on our days off. Monday saw my meeting with Mr. Uchiha to let him know what I was doing, to which he only smiled and nodded, and the entirety of that week things continued to swirl around me.

Things finally started to calm down on Friday, for which I was grateful. Now it was Saturday, and Sarah and I had special plans for this day.

"Where are you two off to?" Mr. Barber, this semester's house attendant, asked us as we bounced down the stairs dressed for the day.

"We got a day pass," Sarah said, "so we're meeting up with Leslie and Andrew for a walk downtown."

"Oh," he said, disappointed, "I'm afraid I scheduled the room move for today."

"I'm sorry, the room move?" I asked.

"To the transgendered room next to Sarah's."

"...Oh. Umm, can't it wait until tomorrow?" I had hoped that they had forgotten about the room situation, or that Leslie and Sarah had been wrong, but apparently they hadn't, and they weren't, respectively.

Mr. Barber huffed. "Well, I guess I can reschedule. You girls have fun today."

"Thank you," we said in practiced unison. It was something that Sarah had wanted to do, so I had reluctantly agreed to it, though I had to admit to enjoying the expressions on people's faces when we pulled it off.

Mr. Barber simpy shook his head and waved us off, so without further interruption we hurried to the front of the school, where the bus was already waiting for us to head out.

The way the school handled weekend passes was interesting to say the least. Of the nearly four hundred students who attended the school, about twenty-five passes were granted each weekend. Princesses usually had priority second only to the senior class, and of course, exceptions would be made for those who had family who would pick them up as opposed to using the school's bus and escorts, though permission slips were still needed, and no student would be granted more than one weekend pass a month without good reason, hence why Sarah and I had been so adamant about using ours.

Of course there were ulterior motives as well. It had been Sarah's idea that if I were truly interested in giving Andrew an honest shot that we had to go on a date, and if we were going to go on a date, then she was going to drag Leslie along on one of their own, and if we were both going on dates then we might as well double. And so our weekend had been set, leaving me much more nervous than I had been expecting.

"Relax, it'll be fun!"

Leslie and Andrew were already on the bus, having each taken a seat on opposite sides of the aisle and holding us spots. As soon as I slid in Andrew wrapped his arm around my shoulder and gave me a light squeeze.

"You seem nervous."

"Nervous? I'm not nervous. Why would I be nervous?"

"She's nervous because it's your first 'date' date," Sarah said, leaning over the aisle and poking me in the side. "Ease up, have fun!"

Andrew leaned down, his mouth close enough to my ear I could feel his breath. "If you don't feel comfortable with this, we don't have to do it."

I shivered at his closeness. Geez, this was going to be difficult. "No, I want to. I need to. If we're actually... boyfriend and girlfriend, then going on a date is kind of a necessary part of the whole 'dating' thing, you know?"

He chuckled. "I would think so," he said, nodding.

"SO," I reached up and held the hand wrapped around my shoulder. "Let's do this."

"Alright."

None of us said much on the bus ride into town, Leslie and Sarah too busy making moon-eyes at each other, while I leaned against Andrew's shoulder and thought about things.

Okay, so I had admitted to myself I liked a guy. That was easy enough. "Yeah, right," my inner monologue said, before I told it to shut up. Really, though, admitting I liked him was the easy part. Dealing with the repercussions of that were harder.

How do I react around him? I suppose I could just act like I've always seen girls act in movies and books with their boyfriends, but that doesn't seem like me, even if I am trying the whole "girl" thing out for a whirl. I felt him shift beneath me, and that brought my current situation into sharper relief.

I was cuddling with him on the bus ride into town for our first date. Holy crap, not just my first date with a guy, but my first date ever.

I was doomed.

"You alright? You look really pale."

"Huh?" I looked up into his concerned face, and forced a smile. "Yeah, I'm okay."

"Good," he said, leaning down and kissing my forehead softly.

Andrew really liked me. I liked him. Whew, okay. I can make this work.

"So what do you want to do while we're in town today?" I asked him.

"I dunno. Walk around a bit, maybe grab something to eat. Mostly just spend time with you."

"Right answer," I said quietly to myself as I settled back into his side, finally ready for my date.

-11-

"You seriously want ice cream? In the middle of January?"

"Hey! First of all, it's almost the END of January. Secondly, how can you not want ice cream?"

Leslie just shook his head, trying unsuccessfully to ward off the affect of Sarah's puppy-eyed pout.

"You know she won't give up until you buy her ice cream," Andrew said, laughing.

"And if you buy her some, I'll have Andrew buy me some, just to even things out."

"Yeah, we'll -- wait, what?" Andrew's voice drifted off into confusion.

Sarah and Leslie both started laughing, which led to me laughing, and Andrew catching up not far behind. With smiles on all our faces, we headed into the ice cream shop Sarah had introduced me to the semester before.

I did pay for my own ice cream, though. And Andrew's, to make it up to him for my teasing.

Our date day had gone quite well, I was more than pleased to say. Being winter, many of the more interesting shops were closed down until tourist season started in another couple of months. That was no deterrent to us, though, as we took advantage of the lack of traffic to take our time exploring as much of the downtown area as we could in the time we had available.

Sarah tried to take the opportunity to embarrass Leslie and Andrew by dragging them into one of the more risque clothing shops, only to have her plan backfire when Leslie started offering her suggestions while Andrew and I laughed at some of the outrageous outfits that people buy thinking they made them attractive. I was happy to learn that Andrew was just as confused by people's attraction to feathers, fur, and costumes as I was, though he did blush quite a bit when I noticed him eyeing a schoolgirl outfit and teased him about not getting enough of them during classes.

After that we had gone for food, at Mogwai's of course. It seemed that even most of the locals had opted to stay home, the weather still being bitterly cold and threatening snow, leaving us with virtually free reign of the antique jukebox and pinball machines the place was known for.

Then, of course, had been the requisite romantic walk around the park. The pond was iced over, though not thick enough to walk or skate on, but it was still beautiful to look at, watching what was left of the dead leaves blowing across the surface of the ice.

That was what had led to Sarah's craving for ice cream, hence our departure for the parlor down the street. Through the entire walk through the park, and even through eating our ice creams, Andrew's arm had never left my shoulder, and not only had I been glad for the warmth, but I was rapidly growing more comfortable with the feeling of him holding me so close.

It was a nice feeling.

As was to be expected, it was at the exact moment that I had finally relaxed completely into our "date" that it was time to head back to the bus for school, not without a few less-than-happy looks from the staff who had accompanied us for our so public displays of affection. I had heard the whispering at school, and I knew that even among the staff there was plenty of confusion when it came to just what I was doing, but I decided to just ignore them and play things by my own rules until someone said something, which none of them seemed intent on doing.

At Sarah's urging, we didn't let the end of our trip into town slow our date down any. Once back on campus, we went about arranging a movie night in the lounge.

"I say we watch something romantic."

"Uh, no," I said, giving Sarah a lopsided grin. "I saw what your idea of 'romantic' was back at your place. No offense, but I doubt either Andrew or Leslie would be able to stay awake through one of your period dramas."

"I dunno, 'Gangs of New York' was pretty good."

"We're talking more along the lines of 'Pride and Prejudice,'" I told Andrew, drawing a wince from him. "Hey, it's not that bad. I just didn't think you two would be up for something like that."

"Uhm, no."

"Why not 'Transformers?"

We all glared at Leslie, who shrank back. "You ALWAYS want to watch 'Transformers,'" Sarah said exasperatedly. "I know you have a thing for Megan Fox, but come on."

"The Road Warrior?"

"Nope."

"The Lion King?"

"We're not five!"

"Stomp The Yard?"

"...What?"

"Priscilla, Queen of the Desert?"

"You're kidding, right?"

"Alright, how about Maverick?"

Apparently Andrew was the only one of us who had seen it, but after he described it to us we all agreed it sounded like fun. Soon we were set up in the lounge, the flatscreen TV running the DVD, and a few other students trickling in to join us. Unlike the teachers, though, none of them looked at us twice as we snuggled on the couches, watching the movie, and that was perfectly fine by me.

-12-

"Urgh!"

I glared at Andrew. "Come on, those are the same bags you brought up to my room, what, two weeks ago?" Had it really been that recently? "They aren't any heavier now than they were then."

"What, not even a little sympathy?"

"I didn't tell you to get both at once."

"*Sigh* Alright then," he said, suddenly picking up pace and acting much less burdened. "It was worth a shot."

I fought down the chuckle that threatened to come out, not wanting to encourage him.

Moving rooms turned out to be much less of a chore than I had expected it would be. With few personal belongings in my room other than my clothes and a handful of books, it took precisely one load each for Sarah, Leslie, Andrew and I to move all of my things to the room connected to hers. Another twenty minutes, and I was unpacked and ready to go.

"So what now?"

"Now Sarah and Becky follow me to their first photo shoot," Mr. Uchiha said, strolling in through the open door of my new room.

Sarah groaned. "But we just finished moving and unpacking things! We'll be all sweaty and stuff."

I stared at her. "You carried one box and hung up my uniforms. You're all sweaty after that?"

"Not really, but I'm not getting photographed without cleaning up first."

Mr. Uchiha nodded. "Very well, then, Sandra expected as much. How's the new room so far?"

"Well," I said, looking around. "It's a room. It's not all that different than my other one, though it might take me a bit to get used to the new position of the bed." While my old room had been oriented with my head to the east, the new room had me turned west, a change that always left me feeling odd the first few days. I would have turned the bed, or flipped what end I slept at, but this kept the layout as close to my old room as possible.

Mr. Uchiha smiled. "I'm glad you seem to have settled in so quickly. I'll tell Sandra you will be ready in twenty minutes, she'll be waiting in the lounge."

"Alright, sir, thank you," Sarah said.

"No, girls, thank you. And have fun."

As soon as Andrew and Leslie left, Leslie somewhat reluctantly, Sarah and I took turns in the shower before getting dressed in our nicest school uniforms and heading downstairs.

"There you are," Sandra said with a smile as we entered the room. She stepped around us a couple of times, nodding to herself, before pulling out a legal pad and starting to write. "Alright, I think that for today your uniforms will be fine. Most of the clothes I was hoping to get you to eventually wear aren't appropriate for how cold it is at the moment anyhow. Now, if the two of you will follow me we can get started." She picked up a pair of large black bags that neither Sarah nor I had noticed and headed out the front doors, leaving me and Sarah with little choice but to follow her quickly.

From that moment on, the rest of our day was filled with posing, moving to a new location, watching Sandra set up her lights like she wanted them, and posing again. At first it was kind of annoying, being bossed around and told how to stand.

"Backs straighter."

"Alright, now lean over her shoulder and point to a page in the book."

"No, no, you don't look natural enough. Be looser."

After a while though, Sandra was correcting us less and less, and it started to be a little fun.

We finally finished up after about three hours, and Sandra gave us a beaming smile as she packed up her cameras and lights for the final time. "You girls did great. I'll probably be back some time later this week to do a few more posed shots once I've chosen the male models to join you. I was expecting this to take much longer, but if the two of you can keep this up I can have all the shots I need by the end of February, except maybe the warm-weather ones."

"Thanks! It was fun," Sarah told her. I just nodded, exhausted from the constant posing. It had been fun, but it was also tiring, having to hold the poses she wanted or repeat the actions she wanted to catch mid-motion over and over. I was glad it was over, but in a small way I was also looking forward to the next session.

We left Sandra at the entrance to the dorm hall and headed up to our rooms. I didn't know about Sarah, but I was tired enough to fall asleep, and that was exactly what I had planned until dinner rolled around.

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I was standing in a room, looking out on a crowd as cameras flashed around me. I could feel the sweat dripping down my back, but I forced myself to smile out into the darkness over the heads of the people everywhere around me. I was on a small stage, and there was a microphone in front of me. Just as I began to feel like the tension was too much to handle, a man with greased-back hair stepped up next to me, smiling through his teeth into his own microphone.

"Welcome to 'Ask And Tell,' Beck, and might I say you look lovely this evening," he said in an announcer's voice.

"Uh, thanks," I responded nervously. Looking down I saw that I was wearing a lilac dress made of some kind of soft shimmery material, with a neckline that provided just a hint of cleavage. When had I put this on? "It's a pleasure to be here?"

"It's a pleasure to have you," he said, his voice even greasier than his hair. With a leer towards my chest he settled into a chair I couldn't recall seeing there before, waving to one that had appeared behind me. "Sit down and talk with me, tell us all what it's like."

"What what's like?"

He laughed, and the people in the room around us laughed with him. "Why, being the first guy to grace the cover of the Sports Illustrated swimsuit issue, of course!" He snapped his fingers, and a monitor lit up behind us.

It was me, but it... wasn't. I was standing in a sexy pose, my hands behind my head and looking off to the side, with a yellow bikini on that left little to the imagination. I definitely didn't look like a guy in the picture, that was for sure.

My eyes narrowed as I recalled his choice of words. "Tell me, do I look like a guy in that picture?"

He shook his head, the same leering grin never leaving his face. I continued. "The story goes something like this..."

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*KNOCKKNOCKKNOCK*

"Hrnh? What?"

"Come on Becky, it's dinnertime," Leslie called through the door, sounding impatient.

With a yawn I stood up and stretched, fighting down the twinge of worry that had sprung up inside of me. I wasn't sure what the dream had meant, and I wasn't sure I wanted to find out, either.

(End of Part 4)

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NOTES:

I know, I know, I'm late on posting again... blame it on my lack of inspiration for most of the last two weeks. Last night I got a sudden burst, so here's the result presented in splendid Closetvision for all you readers out there!

As usual, if you comment, more will come! Lay it on me! Dis my work, tell me it sucks, then tell me how to build it back into something bigger and better! Let's do this right!

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Princess For Hire: The Second Semester Part 5

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

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Princess For Hire: The Second Semester
Part 5
By Melanie Ezell

After too long of a hiatus, we again return to Beck's adventures as a private school Princess!

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Part 5: Portrait Of A Princess

-13-

"That's really me?"

"That's really you," Sandra said, smiling as she showed Sarah and I the final proofs from our first photo shoot the week before.

The pictures were, well, surprising. I had expected to see me in the pictures. By me, of course, I mean the old me, Daniel. Wearing a skirt, yes, but still the same person as I had always seen. The same person I thought I saw each morning in the mirror underneath the makeup and school uniform.

No. Sarah was Sarah, but the other person in the pictures was someone I didn't recognize. She, and I really cannot emphasize the "she" enough, was confident, and smiling, and so many other things that I just couldn't see in myself.

"What's the matter? Do you not like them?" Sandra asked me, concern in her voice as she drew the photos back and looked over them critically herself. "I thought they came out great."

I shook my head, trying to shake the sense that I had just looked into an alternate reality. "Oh, yeah, sorry. The pictures are great, really."

"You sure?" She asked, seeming to second guess her own handiwork. "I won't show them to your headmaster if you'd be upset by them being used."

"No, they're great. I just didn't expect what I saw, that was all."

Her eyes lit up. "I see," she said, with a knowing look. "You are a beautiful girl, Becky. It's nice to have that confirmed every now and again, though, isn't it?"

I forced myself to smile as I answered her, "Yeah, you're right." I mentally chastized myself for slipping up in how I had been viewing myself.

If I was going to do this right, not just being a Princess, but giving actually being a girl a shot, then I couldn't just settle for being one to the outside world. If this was going to work, and not drive me crazy, I needed to see myself the same way everyone else did. That would be harder than it sounded, though.

"You girls ready to take some more photographs?"

"Yup!" Sarah said next to me, full of energy and ready to begin.

As for me, I gave Sandra another smile as I stood and nodded.

This time around, it was almost like we were old pros, finishing our shots in record time, with the grin on Sandra's face growing with each successive shot. Under the large elm tree out front, sitting and reading, or in the hallways between classes, other students rushing past us as we stood outside this locker or that, searching for the perfect location for the pictures.

The biggest surprise, though, came when we were brought to stand outside the front of the school. There stood Leslie and Andrew, talking to Mr. Uchiha, who burst out into a large smile of his own as we walked toward the small group.

"Ah, Sandra, and our two lovely models. How is today's shoot going?"

"Absolutely fantastic, the girls have proven very easy to work with. And I've got proofs from the last shoot, if you want to take a look at them after we're done."

"Very well. As for right now, a little birdie told me you would be shooting the front of the main hall today, and I had a pair of young men volunteer to join the girls in the shoot, if you would allow it."

Leslie and Andrew were grinning widely as they stepped toward us. Sandra seemed surprised when Andrew wrapped his arms around me, but that quickly passed, and soon all four of us found ourselves posing for her as she took shot after shot.

I was more than a bit jealous of the boys. While Sarah and I were being ordered to stand like this, move like that, adjust this part of our posture, the guys were simply given a loose approximation of where to stand and told to hold it. I knew that the two of us were the real focuses of the shoot, but it still seemed unfair.

Soon enough, Sandra dropped her camera and gave us all a radiant smile. "Alright, people, that's all for today. You've done great."

It was a struggle to hold in my sigh of relief as we said our goodbyes to Sandra. Andrew looked down on me with concern as I leaned heavily on his arm.

"Is everything alright? Every time you do one of these print shoots you look like you're gonna collapse afterward."

I looked up at him, my mouth hanging open. "Did you SEE how much she had me and Sarah moving around out there, or how we were posing? I'm exhausted because it's hard work."

He winced at the acid in my tone, but nodded and continued walking with me.

"I... I'm sorry for snapping, Andrew," I said, hanging my head. "I'm just a little preoccupied today I guess."

He nodded again, then stopped, his face registering surprise. "Oh, yeah, I forgot! Stew said he wanted to talk to you when you had a chance. Something about his little sister?"

My initial confusion quickly disappeared as I recalled the little girl who had been so enamoured with my dress during the Parents' Day events. "Rosie? Oh, I bet he has my part of the pictures of the two of us together!"

"That could be it. He also said he had some more information on Professor Swift."

The grin that had begun to grow on my face at the mention of Rosie grew when I heard that information. The sooner that was worked out, the better.

Feeling in a really good mood for the first time in days, I gave Andrew's arm a squeeze as I snuggled up more closely next to him. "So, you got any other plans for today? It is Saturday, after all -- no classes tomorrow, we could stay up late and watch a movie?"

"Heh, that sounds good, sure. Do you wanna invite Leslie and Sarah again, too?"

"Of course!" I didn't think Sarah would forgive me if I had a 'date night' without her. Suddenly, a wicked thought crept into my head. "Does Jules like guys or girls?"

Andrew paused for a moment, his eyebrows knitted as he thought. "You know? I can't remember. He was dating a girl back home before coming out here, but I think they broke things off when he got accepted here."

"Too bad, I was going to say we should see if he wanted to bring a date too, but I don't want to say something that will offend him."

Andrew gave me a quick squeeze and laughed. "I dunno, knowing Jules he'd invite a guy just to be a smart ass and try to make the rest of us uncomfortable."

If my last idea had been wicked, then the one that was now bombarding me was pure evil. "Ooh, that could be perfect."

"I don't know if I like the sound of that," Andrew said worriedly as I started to quietly cackle to myself.

-14-

I knocked softly on the frame of the open door. At first it didn't seem he had even heard me, but after only a few seconds' delay Stewart looked up at me.

"So what's up? You wanted to see me."

He nodded, and without a word closed down his laptop and picked up a folder next to it, holding it out toward me.

I guess today he was a man of few words.

I felt like an intruder as I entered his room. Like most of the other guys, Stewart was bunked with another student, someone named Ronald something-or-other according to Andrew, and it was immediately obvious looking around the room which side was whose. While the side Stewart sat on was clean and neat, his books all shelved and organized by height and his clothes neatly put away, Supposedly-Ronald's laundry was strewn about, his school books haphazardly stacked in a corner on top of a small refrigerator that had seen better days. All in all, it was not a room I felt comfortable in.

The folder was one of the heavy manila types used in file cabinets, and was stuffed full of papers covered in text, with a stack of photographs on top of who I was guessing was a much younger Professor Swift. My eyes grew wide as I looked through the contents of the folder.

"Driving records? School records? Personal email correspondences... holy crap!"

"Just don't ask how I--"

"I don't wanna know."

"Good."

I almost felt bad for Ol' Swifty if his personal information was so easy to obtain a high schooler could do it, then again, from what I had heard there wasn't a whole lot that Stewart couldn't do with a computer.

"This is also yours," he said, handing me a smaller, white envelope with "Princess Becky" written on the outside in yellow crayon.

"Thanks."

Stewart grunted, then looked toward his laptop longingly. I fought back the urge to laugh as I turned around and left, closing his door behind me on the way out.

---

"What's that you got there?"

"Huh? Oh!" I looked down at the envelope laying next to me. "Something Stewart handed me. It's from Rosie."

"Who's Rosie?"

"The little girl I had my picture taken with on Parent's Day."

Sarah stopped working on her history homework and bounced over to sit next to me on the bed. "Well, open it!"

I grimaced. I had been wanting to open it when I had gotten back to my room, but Sarah had knocked before I could, wanting to get my help on her History assignment. Not wanting to open it until I was alone, I had set it aside and started reading her parts of her workbook as she asked for them. Now, though, she had seen the envelope, and I knew I wouldn't be able to get away with not sharing it with her.

Hiding my annoyance, I picked up the envelope and carefully broke the piece of scotch tape holding it closed. My annoyance quickly disappeared as I pulled out the four folded sheets of kindergarten-ruled paper inside, held together by one of those stapleless staplers in the shape of a flower.

"What's it say?"

With a smile I began to read.

"Dear Princess Becky."

"So cute!"

"Shh!" When Sarah was quiet I started over. "Dear Princess Becky. Thank you for the picture you took with me. I hope you are liking your school. My brother told me you were a boy but I told him you were not because you were too pretty to be a boy. When I grow up I want to be pretty like you. My mom is making me a dress like yours so that I can be a princess too. When I visit again I hope I see you and we can play games together. I have a new doll and she is named Becky. Love, Rosie."

After finishing the letter, we sat in silence while I simply stared at the paper in my hand.

"That has to be the most adorable thing I've ever seen," Sarah said, breaking the silence at last.

"...Yeah."

"You're going to write her back, right?"

"Of course," I said, not even having to think about it.

"Good. So, can I see the pictures?"

"What pictures?"

"Of you and her!"

"Oh! Yeah!" I had completely forgotten about the pictures. After a hasty shuffle I found the folder and flipped it open, pulling out the pictures of me and Rosie and shutting the folder before Sarah could see what else was inside, though apparently not fast enough.

"What was the rest of that?"

I sighed. "Information on Swift."

"Ah. Pictures!"

With a small laugh I handed her the stack of prints from our impromptu photo shoot back in November and watched as she looked through them. I had to admit, they were cute. Rosie just looked so happy, while her father was obviously fighting to hide his discomfort at having me sitting on his lap. I couldn't help but giggle when I noticed that there was also a candid shot of Rosie with my legs in a death-grip of a hug, me smiling down at her.

"You really did have fun with her, didn't you?" Sarah asked, a soft look in her eyes.

"You know what? I think I did."

"And she's right, you made a beautiful Princess, even in those pink monstrosities we were wearing."

I looked at the photographs again, and for what felt like the first time, I didn't feel that looking pretty was a bad thing at all.

-15-

After reading the letter it was almost unbearable to have to sit through the rest of Sarah's History before she finally bid me goodnight with a smile and a wink. As soon as she was out the door, I had a notebook and pencil in hand and began to work on my response letter to Rosie.

"Dear Rosie," I wrote slowly at the top of the page, in the most feminine script I could manage.

Now what?

I scowled as I tried to work out what to write to her. She was only six. What do you write to a six year old about? Dolls? Clothes? I didn't know. I wanted to write a letter she could understand, but I didn't want to talk down to her either. This was becoming more difficult than I had expected.

Whew. Okay. Come on, Beck, you can do this.

Then it hit me. Perhaps that was the problem? I was thinking of this from the viewpoint of Beck, the boy who was living as a girl and a private school Princess. Maybe I needed to think from a different direction to do this right.

Setting the pencil and notebook down next to me on my bed, I closed my eyes and leaned back, thinking.

Beck. No, this isn't a letter from Beck, it's a letter from Becky. Princess Becky, I thought with a smile, remembering how much she had loved my dress. Yes, that was the ticket. Who was Princess Becky, and what would she write to a little girl?

That was all it took to inspire me.

"Dear Rosie,

Thank you so much for the letter! It was wonderful to hear from you again, and you looked beautiful in the pictures you sent me.

I am very much enjoying school. Everyone here is always very nice to me, and treats me just like a Princess should be treated. I was even in our school play!

Me and my best friend Princess Sarah," I laughed, imagining the kick Sarah would get out of reading that, "are always having great adventures with our friends Leslie and Andrew. Do you have a best friend at your school? We do everything together, and when you come back to visit she would love to meet you. She is very pretty too, just like you. We even spent the Christmas holiday together with our parents.

Did you have a good Christmas? I bet you were given lots of wonderful presents.

Love,

Princess Becky"

I read over my letter to her one more time. It was a little cheesy, I guess, but I was trying to keep the wording as simple as I could so she might be able to read it on her own. Likely she would have to have her mom read it to her, but remembering how nice her parents had been it occurred to me that they would probably enjoy doing so.

With that out of the way, I checked the clock. Drat! Only an hour to prepare for my date tonight! I guess that's one of the hazards of being a girl, huh?

I was dressed and ready in record time, just finishing up the last of my makeup when I heard the knock at my door.

"Who is it?"

"It's Sarah!"

"And Jules!"

I checked myself over, and satisfied that I looked sufficiently girly for the evening's events, swung the door open.

Sure enough, there stood Sarah with Leslie's arm draped over her shoulder, and next to them was Jules in boy mode, with...

I fought back a snort at the panicked look on Ruby's face as she stood there in her dress, Jules' arm around her shoulders just like Leslie was holding Sarah.

"Going after the young ones, Jules?"

"Well, I couldn't let you guys have all the fun of a date night, could I?"

This wasn't working out exactly to plan, but with a little more preparation, it could be just as good.

"Well, you guys stay out here, I have something I need to talk to Sarah and Ruby about."

Without waiting for an answer I grabbed the two girls and dragged them into my room, shutting the door behind us.

Sarah started giggling to herself the second the door was closed -- after all, she was already in on the plan, since we had discussed it earlier.

"What's going on, you two?" Ruby asked us, nervously fiddling with the hem of her dress.

"We had a plan for tonight, but you being here kind of throws it off a bit," I told her, shaking my head in mock disappointment.

"I'm sorry! Jules asked, and I mean, I thought she'd be dressed as a girl too and it would all be Princesses, but when I showed up she was a he, I mean... I can go back to my room if--"

"No, that's alright," Sarah interrupted her, with a warm smile. "It'll just take a little rearranging of things. You might have a little fun with it too, if you wanna play along with us to wind Jules up a bit."

"What do I have to do?" She asked, suspicion in her eyes. It was immediately obvious that she had not planned on her evening morphing into a date, and she was not ready for it.

"Nothing you don't want to," I said, watching the relief flood her face, "but here's what we had in mind..."

As we filled her in on the plan in whispers, she began to nod excitedly, and I knew the evening would be a blast.

(End of Part 5)

NOTES:

Alright, here it is! Sorry this took so long, peeps! But, thanks to the ever-inspiring Angharad, I'm back on track, and with any luck I'll have the next part(s) out quicker than this :(

Read! Enjoy! Comment!

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire: The Second Semester Part 6

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

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  • Sequel or Series Episode

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Princess For Hire: The Second Semester
Part 6
By Melanie Ezell

Undercover Princess

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(Beginning of Part 6)

Part 6: Undercover Princess

-16-

As the next week passed, I found myself slipping more easily into the role of Becky the girl than ever before. It was no huge surprise to me that applying the same mental shift I had used to write my letter for Rosie to other events in my life helped to make things easier, but it did worry me a little how much less effort such a shift was starting to take.

At first it was the little things that caught my attention, or more to the point didn't. The first time I caught myself looking through one of Sarah's clothing magazines and imagining myself in them outside the context of the Princess Program was when it finally occurred to me that I was finally settling into the whole girl thing.

Of course, realizing I hadn't been dwelling on things was enough to make me start to dwell on why I hadn't been dwelling so much, and that much dwelling is never good for one's psyche. I needed something, anything, to keep myself busy and keep the non-dwell going.

Without any photo shoots left to worry about until after spring break, I found myself turning my non-Princess non-classwork time to another pursuit that had been bugging me.

Professor Swift.

Stew's folder had been an enlightening read, not the least of which was the knowledge that Swift was a member of Stonewall. Him? Really?

That was only the tip of the iceburg, though. There was also several pages of internet mumbo jumbo I didn't fully understand that linked Swift with the pen name Kelly Brice, and a whole slew of papers written under that name for publications on LGBT rights. What was more confusing was that a lot of them focused on the mistreatment of transsexuals and crossdressers.

Wait. That doesn't make any sense. This couldn't be the same Professor Swift who was constantly berating us for wearing our Princess uniforms to class, could it? Though come to think of it I had never seen him have a significant problem with Sarah, at least not beyond what he had with the rest of the boys who were in his classes.

One of the papers I found especially interesting. It was titled "Transgender Teens in the Modern School Environment," and was all about the lack of actions taken by schools around the country to protect transsexual and "gender variant" teens, whatever that meant. I almost threw the paper down in disgust when I read the spirited defense of these kids in the paper, knowing it came from the biggest pain in the rear I had seen in the entire school for us Princesses.

How could he write something like this and then treat us the way he did? For all the papers I was reading talked about equality and acceptance, he had never shown either in his treatment of us in class! It didn't take me long to come to the conclusion that Stew must have made some mistake in his research, because there wasn't any way that this was the same man I had for Civics every day.

"There isn't a mistake."

"Are you sure?"

Stew sighed, not looking up from his lunch tray as I plopped down across from him, the folder between us. He didn't seem to be comfortable with my presence at his table, but I needed to figure this out, and fast.

"Yes, I'm sure. Hey, I was as surprised as you, and I thought the same thing at first, but I double and triple checked everything and... there's no way around it. Kelly Brice is Professor Swift."

"I can't believe it," I said, staring at the folder dumbfounded.

"Neither could I, but it does kind of make sense when I think about it."

Blink. "WHY?"

"Well, last year I had Swift for Civics, like you do. We were all assigned research papers, and for mine I chose to write a paper about the effect the Princess Program had on the student body. In it I described the Princesses as transgender a couple of times, and it seemed to go over well with the class."

"Yeah?" I urged him when he stopped. This was the most I had ever heard Stew talk, and I wasn't about to let him stop mid-story.

"I got an F, with a note telling me to more thoroughly research my paper next time before using terminology I didn't understand. Then he went off on a diatribe about the difference between someone who crossdresses and someone who is a crossdresser and transgender. He had treated me about the same as everyone else before, but after that paper he got really hateful toward me."

I thought back to the beginning of the year, and Swift's cruel comments toward Stewart that first day. "You haven't had any problems with him this year, have you?"

"Heh. No, I managed to avoid any of his classes this year. And I'm going to continue doing so for as long as I can. He's had it in for me for over a year now, and that was all before...."

"Before what?"

Stewart fidgeted with his food, blushing. "Just before."

I wanted to ask more questions, but before I could Stewart stood up and headed for the disposal window, half his lunch still on his tray.

I stood up, intending to follow him and continue to ask questions, when a very angry hand grabbed me by the shoulder and forced me back down into my seat with an unintentional squeak of surprise.

"We need to talk," Jules said as he sat down next to me, his voice calm but his eyes glowing with anger.

This was a conversation I had been avoiding for several days, and now that it had caught up to me I could feel the sweat dripping down my back as I braced for his anger.

"That was some shit the three of you pulled on Friday night."

I nodded, too scared by the look in his eyes to speak.

"Do you have any idea how that made me feel?"

Shakeshakeshake.

"I've never been so embarrassed in my entire life!"

Nodnodnod.

"And now you're going to pay for it."

Nodnod-SHAKESHAKESHAKESHAKESHAKE.

I jumped when Jules's hand slammed into the table, rattling it and sending food flying from several of the other students' trays. I watched nervously as he stood up and stomped off, fully expecting something else to happen, and somehow not all that relieved when it didn't.

Looking at the table where he had smacked it, there was a single sheet of paper there. With a great deal of trepidation I picked up the sheet, and after reading it I groaned aloud.

"What did you do to him?" Amos asked, slipping into the seat that Jules had just vacated, his eyes wide with awe.

Feeling a headache rising, I leaned back in my own seat and rubbed my temples. "Well, it was kind of like this..."

-17-

***Friday night, four days earlier***

Jules looked at us suspiciously as the three of us came out of my room, grinning conspiratorily.

"What do you guys have planned?"

"Oh, nothing," I said in a sing-song voice. "I'm just glad you decided to join us for our date night."

"Well, I've gotta guard my brother's honor after all," he said with a smirk. I'm sure he was expecting me to be caught off guard, but instead I simply smiled even more, to be rewarded with the first hint of uncertainty I had ever seen on his face.

"Let's gather up the boys, it's a little early but we can go ahead and get started."

As expected, both Leslie and Andrew were more than ready when we knocked at their doors, and without further ado our little group made our way to the common room. There was already a group there playing Halo on one of the televisions, but they agreed to turn it down so we could hear our movie on the other side of the room. The extra people weren't something I had accounted for, but it wasn't an obstacle my plan couldn't overcome.

"So what're we watching tonight?"

"Sarah and I already picked something," I said, pulling the DVD case out of my bag and handing it to Sarah without letting anyone else see what it was. Ruby knew, but she was part of the conspiracy now, and sworn to secrecy.

When the disc loaded up all three boys groaned as one.

"Pride and Prejudice?"

"Hey, I like this movie," Sarah said, smacking Leslie in the arm when she saw his grimace.

"You don't mind, do you?" I asked Andrew, seeing his eyes narrowing as he stared at the screen.

His face quickly changed to a smile when he looked down at me. "Nah, it's a good date movie."

"I mind," Jules said sourly from the other couch, where he sat with Ruby at arms length away.

I winked at her, and Ruby gave me a nervous grin before sliding closer to Jules and putting her arm around his waist. "But it's a great date movie! We can cuddle and watch it, it'll be fun!"

I fought not to laugh as Jules' expression morphed from cool disapproval to outright horror, his body stiffening as his gaze shifted down from the screen to the slip of a Princess gripping his waist and looking up at him with puppy-dog eyes.

"What exactly are you and Sarah planning for tonight?" Andrew whispered in my ear quietly, the music swelling as the opening credits rolled on the screen.

"Don't worry, you'll enjoy it. Trust me," I told him, seeing the same mischievous gleam in his eyes that must have been in mine.

For the first half hour of the movie, nothing happened. Sarah cuddled with Leslie, I curled up with Andrew's arm around me (a position I was still a little uncomfortable admitting I enjoyed, though it was growing easier,) and Ruby continued to hold Jules in a death grip, slowly pulling herself up until her head was on his shoulder while he sat rigidly on one corner of the couch, a deer caught in the headlights expression on his face.

The next step of the plan was the one Sarah was looking forward to, and while I was nervous, it would both work toward our goals and give me a better idea of exactly how comfortable I really felt with Andrew. I knew Ruby was as nervous about it as I was, but if all went to plan, she would have her revenge on Jules as well without having to go too far out of her comfort zone. I hoped.

Sarah made her move, and inched up Leslie's body, bringing his face down to hers in a deep kiss and holding it for as long as she could. Letting go long enough to take a breath, she then dived back in. For Leslie's part he was only shocked for a moment before getting into it himself, kissing her back just as passionately and with a grin growing on what was visible of his lips as he did.

I looked up from watching them to see Andrew looking at me intensely. I knew he had seen me watching them, and I knew that he was wondering what would happen next. My palms were sweaty, but I fought down my nervousness as I mimicked Sarah's movements, pulling myself up and kissing him gently. It might not have had the passion that she had shared with Leslie, but I could feel the heat growing in his face as he kissed me back. I wasn't sure I was ready for a full-blown makeout session yet, but a little kissing wasn't about to hurt me, and I knew Andrew wouldn't object. Besides, I owed him that much for putting up with all my crap over the last few months.

"Hey, what's going on herRMMPH!"

And that, I thought to myself as I smiled while keeping Andrew in a soft liplock, would be Ruby giving Jules the same treatment we were giving our boyfriends.

Time kind of got away from me after that, and I will admit to enjoying my close-up time with Andrew quite a bit more than I had been expecting. We never moved beyond light kissing, and him rubbing my shoulders, but it gave me a light-headed feeling I hadn't expected. When we finally broke away, I was less than surprised to see Ruby sitting quietly with her arm still wrapped around Jules' waist, a smug look on her face and an expression on his that could only be described as pure unadulterated embarrassment, the red seeping down his neck and reappearing on the upper part of his arms, his skin practically glowing.

When she saw me watching, Ruby pointed to Jules' mouth before pinching her nose with a grimace. Then she chuckled and gave me a thumbs up, turning back to the movie.

-18-

"You can't be serious."

I groaned. "We thought it was funny at the time."

Amos grinned, nodding. "Oh, it is, but I can tell you now, the three of you are gonna be paying for that for the next two years."

I groaned again, and Amos laughed at my discomfort.

"I don't see what the big deal is, it was just a joke! We even said so after the movie was over. He said it was okay, and went to bed, but ever since he's given me the death glare every time I've been near him."

Amos's grin disappeared. "Oh. Yeah. Well, he deserved it, but there's a reason for that."

"This isn't going to leave me feeling like a dirtbag for the joke, is it?"

"I hope not, it was a good joke."

"*sigh* Alright, spill."

"Jules sees the entire Princess thing as one big joke where he can push the limits of what the school is comfortable with without getting in trouble with it."

"Yeah, I know that much."

"The thing is, he kinda assumes that everyone else does too."

I shrugged. "I can't speak for everyone, but it's a bit different for me, and for Sarah."

"Yeah, but ya'll are girls."

"I..." I changed my mind on speaking. Now wasn't the time to correct him, and I wanted to hear where he was going. "Go on."

"Jules likes to mess with all the guys around here when he's dressed as a Princess, but as far as I know Jules is completely straight. My guess is that he brought along Ruby hoping to mess with you and Sarah, and probably her too, because he thought that like him you would all think of Ruby as a guy."

I shook my head. "Ruby's... Ruby. I don't think even she knows what she wants yet."

Amos smirked and rolled his eyes. "Well, Jules sees her as a guy, and when she kissed him I'm betting his brain was telling him 'guy' while his eyes said 'cute girl' and he didn't know what to do with everything. You made him question his sexuality. Any guy would take that rough."

I stared at Amos, a new appreciation for his intelligence growing inside me. "How do you know so much about Jules?"

He laughed, a deep, happy sound. For all his insecurities about his voice when dressed as Amanda, Amos's voice was always a joy to listen to when he spoke, with a rich Morgan Freeman-like tone. "We've shared a bathroom for the last two years. You learn a lot about a guy when you share a makeup mirror with him."

So I had hit Jules a bit harder than I had wanted to with my little joke. Well, not so little I guess, given how much it had affected him.

"So what's on the paper?" Amos asked when I had gone silent. It was a question I really didn't want to answer.

"Uhm, nothing."

"Come on, I shared with you about Jules."

"Urgh, alright," I said, reluctantly handing him the sheet that had sealed my doom.

He looked at it, and began to read. And read. And chuckle. And finally start laughing again, just as happily as before, though now I found it much less appealing.

"It's not funny!"

"Hahah! Yeah, it is, and just the kind of abuse of power Jules would use for revenge."

I pouted as I picked the page up and read it again, wondering why things like this always ended up falling into my lap.

Dear Reader:
You have been selected as the school's official representative for the Princess Program in the Persistence Saint Patrick's Day Parade.
As per your contract through the school for your services as a Princess, you shall receive standard rates for your service on this day despite its holiday status for all other school-sponsored student employment programs.
Your responsibilities as representative will include, but are not limited to:
---Helping to design the school's float.
---Participation in the Persistence Saint Patrick's Day Parade as part of the float's occupants.
---Serving as hostess at the school's booth at the Persistence Saint Patrick's Day Fair.
We thank you for your cooperation in this matter, and expect you to serve well in the honor of representing our school.

It wasn't a long letter, but it made it quite clear to me who had won this round.

"You win this time, Jules," I said under my breath, as I began to contemplate some way to get the upper hand again.

(End of Part 6)

NOTES:
Well, I hope people enjoy this chapter! The end bit (concerning the parade) wasn't something I originally planned, but I began to realize as I wrote the story that I hadn't really planned for any costumes this semester! For those who liked the cosplay/costumes element of the first book, this is my attempt to bring some of that back this semester.

So, any ideas on what kind of dress she should wear? Leave comments/pictures/ideas! Let me know!

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire: The Second Semester Part 7

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

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Princess For Hire: The Second Semester
Part 7
By Melanie Ezell

A Princess To The Rescue!

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(Beginning of Part 7)

Part 7: A Princess To The Rescue!

-19-

"I thought you said you could handle this job."

"I thought I could!"

"Then how do you explain THIS, then?"

Ronald, head of the St. Patrick's Day float committee, handed me a bundle of pathetic-looking streamers. At least, they had been streamers at one time, before I found out my scissors were broken, so I had to rip them apart instead of cutting them. And my glue was leaky, dripping everywhere and sticking things together, including what looked like a leaf. Then the tape had refused to come off its roll, giving me tiny strips I'd had to mash together into large tape-knots...

"I'm sorry?" I said, with my best puppy-dog eyes.

"Just... *sigh*," he said, shaking his head. "Why don't you go help Ace with painting the signs? I'll find someone else to do this."

I nodded, trying to hide my wince at being shoved off on yet another project. But how was it MY fault that things kept going wrong for everything I tried?

Nobody liked my ideas for the float even at the concept stage, saying they were too feminine for a boy's school, even if the centerpiece was supposed to be a Princess. Never mind they were almost all suggestions from the other Princesses I was asked to relay.

So, concept stage I was out. No one even asked me to help try and find someone who would volunteer a vehicle for us to use, proving that even in a school where the faculty tried to stress acceptance some sexual stereotypes still sunk in.

Now, at the construction stage, it seemed like I was incapable of doing anything without--

"Watch out!"

"Huh?"

*Sploosh*

I stood frozen in place as Ronald walked over and ever so calmly surveyed the damage to the Kingston Academy sign, or "Kingsy" I guess I should say, since the middle section was now nothing but a wash of green paint from the bucket I had accidentally kicked over.

"Becky, why don't you--"

"Yeah, I know," I groaned as I turned around and left the shop in search of Mr. Uchiha's office.

I had to give Jules credit where credit was due, so far his revenge plan was working out perfectly. I was just glad that my photo shoots were over until it warmed up a bit, because as things stood I was too frantically busy to make time for them.

If it wasn't the float, it would be Sarah dragging me to her room to look through potential outfits to wear, and then dragging handfuls of pictures and sketches to my appointments with the Seamstress to work on the design. So far they had had me set as a dancing girl, a leprechaun, and at one point even a full-blown Princess gown in emerald green, but none of them had seemed to fit with the float's design, which was, to say the least, rather minimalist. Sarah's latest idea was to have me in a kelly green wedding dress, which I thought was absolutely hideous. With any luck the seamstress would agree, and we'd be back to the leprechaun outfit, which we had set as our fallback if we couldn't find something better.

"Hey, fag, watch where you're going."

I stopped in my tracks. In most schools those words wouldn't have caused much of a stir, but this was the first time I had heard that kind of language here at Kingston.

"I wasn't--"

"Just watch it."

There was a soft "oof," followed by the crash of a body hitting a locker, before I saw two upperclassmen walking out of a cross hallway ahead of me and laughing. Neither one seemed to notice me as they went on their way, a minor miracle, and as soon as they turned into a classroom I made my way over to where the commotion had come from.

"Stew?"

"Wha? Oh, it's you. Just leave me alone, alright?"

He was slumped against the lockers on one side of the hallway, his left hand rubbing his right shoulder, I guess where the jerks had pushed him.

I ignored his protests as I walked toward him. "Come on, let me help you up." He tried to protest again, but before he could get a word out I was already at his side, steadying him as he stood.

"...Thanks, I guess."

"It's alright. What happened?"

"Nothing. Just, you know, jerks being jerks."

He refused to look at me as I helped him make his way to the nurse's office. There was more to the story here, a blind person could see that, but if he didn't want to talk about it I wasn't about to make him.

Ah, screw it. "Come on, Stew, tell me what's going on."

He glared at me angrily. "I'm sure you heard. I'm a faggot, so they decided to beat me up for it."

I felt my eyes widen as I stared at him. "You're gay?"

He slumped again, all the anger gone, and replaced by a weariness I never would have expected. "Yeah. So go ahead, yell at me or whatever."

"Why?"

"Because I'm a freak." I could see the tears in his eyes as he tried to turn away.

"Stew? Stew. Look at me."

Reluctantly he did, and as I waved my hand down my body I said in as sultry a voice as I could muster, "Oh, Andrew, you're so handsome..." Then I made a few kissy sounds.

At first, there was nothing. Then, a small smile cracked his lips, shortly before a laugh burst out from him.

"That's better."

"Thanks. I needed the reminder that I'm not the only freak in the school."

I ignored that remark as I helped him the rest of the way to the nurse's station. "So, now will you tell me what's really going on?"

-20-

The weather had been improving, and we were up to the mid-forties on a regular basis now, but that still didn't make the benches outside any more comfortable to sit on. On the other hand, it also allowed us to have a lot more privacy than we would have been able to find inside on a weekend like this, and I knew we'd need that if I were to get Stew to open up to me.

He rubbed his shoulder again where he had been shoved into the lockers. The nurse had said it would bruise up nicely but otherwise be okay, while Stew had refused to tell her what had happened. I kept my mouth shut as well, hoping it would help me to gain his trust a bit more.

"Please?"

He glared at me for a moment before lowering his head in defeat. "What do you wanna know that you don't already? I'm gay, they wanna beat me up over it, and my life sucks. Case closed."

"But the school..."

Stew let out a derisive snort. "The school's not as wonderful as you think. You're a Princess, royalty here at the school and part of one of our most prestigious programs, even if it's still being kept mostly under wraps. Even with that, you didn't think the Protectors were there just as arm candy, did you?" He asked acidly.

"Well, I hadn't really thought about it..."

"Exactly. And you don't have to, either, while those of us who aren't a part of the school's elite still have to deal with things like normal high schoolers."

I felt like slapping myself as the realization hit me. I had heard tales from Sarah and some of the others about how things had been rougher the first year of the program, and that instituting the Protectors had helped, but I had never thought about the effect it must have had on some of the other students.

We were the most obvious target for the bullies. Hell, we were teen boys running around in skirts and makeup, we were the obvious target for EVERYONE. And yet, beyond the occasional whispering and nasty look I had never been shoved, or hit, or even really verbally abused for being a Princess by any of the students. How much of that was acclimatization, and how much of it was the Protectors taking care of the problems before they arose?

Then there were the students like Stew, who didn't have the Protectors on their side...

"It must be awful."

The cold, humorless laugh he let out belied the tear I saw fall down his cheek.

"It was worse, last year."

"Professor Swift?" I asked, the clues sinking in.

He nodded. "All that stuff I gave you about him? I already had all that information, I'd started coming across it when I was writing my paper last year. When he treated my paper so badly, I got a bit defensive about it. I confronted him after class, and..."

"What?" I asked, when he stopped talking for a while, simply staring at the floor.

"I tried to explain that I understood better than he was giving me credit for. I thought that surely even someone as callous as him would be able to identify with another outcast, but instead he just sneered at me. I didn't know that a few other students had hung around after class to talk to him as well, but when he asked if they had enjoyed the show..."

"That's horrible!" I gasped, shocked that even Swift would be that nasty.

"You really DON'T get it, do you? Swift's just as big a bully as any of them, and just like them he's been denied his best target by the school, so he takes it out on whoever he can. He has to be more subtle about it, but he finds ways. Well, after that, let's just say that it got around the school pretty fast that I was gay, especially among the bullies."

"And nobody's tried to stop it?" I asked.

He shrugged. "What can I say? I'm not a Princess." While I was still reeling, Stew stood up and awkwardly dusted off his jacket. "Listen, thanks for listening to me. It... it felt good to talk. But I don't need your help, and if I'm seen hanging out with you too much it will just make things worse."

I watched him walk away, still nursing his bruised shoulder, and I thought.

In a way, what Stew said made a lot of sense. Who would the bullies turn to when as obvious a target as us was taken away? And I knew that the Protectors were put in place to keep us safe, but the idea that it made things worse for others felt, well, wrong, somehow.

Yet I couldn't deny what I had seen, and Stew's words definitely rang true. He might not want to be my friend, but I didn't think he would lie to me for no reason, either. Was this why Bobby and Andrew had befriended him, to try and help him? Or did they not know about any of this, either?

I had to laugh at myself for even considering it. Of course they would know, wouldn't they? It was their job to know. I was probably the only person in the entire school who didn't, actually, though given how self-absorbed I could be I guess I shouldn't be so surprised.

What really bothered me, though, was what this meant for the school as a whole. When I had joined the Princess Program, Mr. Uchiha had told me this school was safe. He told me the school was tolerant. He made it sound like the most wonderful place in the world, and for me, it had been.

Well, most of the time.

But for others?

-21-

Mr. Uchiha's office was pleasantly warm, and the gas fireplace in the corner cast a wonderfully homey glow about the room.

"Ah, Miss Henderson, and why do I have the pleasure of seeing you today?"

"Uh, I kinda messed the float up, sir. Again."

Mr. Uchiha's normally pleasant face took on a look of grim shock for only the briefest of moments before it again settled into its typical smile. "Not too badly, I should hope?"

I started to shrug, but not wanting him to worry I instead shook my head. "No, sir. They can fix it easily, I think."

"Without you there, I'm assuming?"

"That's the idea I got, sir."

He nodded in understanding. "Very well, then. I'm sure there are other things we can have you help with that would be more fitting with your skill sets. We still haven't decided on what to do for our representative booth at the fair following the parade, for instance, and I'm sure you are as ready as anyone to find out what that might be."

"Yessir."

"Very well. From now on I'll have you work on that. Perhaps by next weekend we'll have enough volunteers to start, though I suppose that means you'll have the rest of this weekend off?"

"If you say so, sir." I started to turn to go, when my conscience grabbed me by the throat. I didn't know if I could do any good, but I had to at least try. "Mr. Uchiha, sir?"

"Yes?" He asked, glancing back up from the manga he had been reading.

"I saw something earlier today that kind of upset me. I don't want to say any names, but there were some students beating up a friend of mine because he's... different."

Mr. Uchiha's face grew serious as he listened to me. "I see. This is disappointing news. Who were they beating up? Never mind, no names," he said, shaking his head in disappointment. "But why report it if you don't plan to let me take care of it?"

"Well, sir, I thought you said the school was a safe, accepting place? But after talking to my friend, he says it's only like that for the Princesses. Is this true?"

"I would hope not, but it seems I need to have another talk with some of my staff about properly monitoring the hallways, even on non-school days. Can you give me any more information at all?"

"They called my friend a fag, sir." I immediately regretted saying the word in front of the school's headmaster, but I had the feeling the only way to get my point across clearly was to be as blunt as possible.

He winced at my usage of the word, but simply nodded and gestured for me to leave the room, which I gladly did.

***

Classes on Monday started the same as any other day, but morning announcements brought a surprise.

"Dear students, it has recently come to my attention that we have in our school several students who do not share the school's views on tolerance and equality," Mr. Uchiha's voice rang out over the intercom. "While every student is entitled to their own opinion, it is inappropriate for those who do not agree with certain lifestyles to abuse other students, regardless of race, creed, or sexuality."

A murmur erupted around me, as the other students in my American History class began to wonder what was going on. Me? I just wanted to sink into the floor and disappear.

"In response to this, I have seen it necessary to start an organization within our school to help combat this intolerance. Many of you are familiar with out Princess program, and this organization will have the help of the Protectors in the same way that that program does. I would now like to introduce you to the co-presidents of the school's new Gay-Straight Alliance program, Stewart Davis and Andrew Stone."

Stewart? And Andrew?

"Uh, hi everyone. Umm... we, I mean, this group, is being put together so that anyone in the school who wants to, ah, show support for the gay students, or who thinks it's okay, can, um..."

"What my friend here's trying to say," Andrew's voice cut in, "is that we here at Kingston Academy should all try and be the best people we can be, regardless of whether we're gay, straight, or something else. As a member of the Protectors, I have the agreement of the rest of the group that we'll do anything and everything we can to help those who join the GSA to stop bullies and intolerance when we find it."

"Uh, yeah."

"Thank you, boys," Mr. Uchiha's voice came back on the line, and I would swear I could hear a smile in his tone. "Those who wish to join the Alliance may do so by speaking to either Mr. Grumby in the drama studio or Mrs. Edwards in our life planning facilities, as they will be our faculty sponsors for the program. Enrollment will be kept confidential for the time being. Thank you for your time."

As the chimes rang out indicating the end of the message, I know I wasn't the only person left reeling. How much of this was because of me, and how much of it was already planned?

And how had he talked Stewart into being President?

(End of Part 7)

NOTES:

Welp, I was right, publishing what I had of "Switcheroo" helped to inspire me for sure!

This isn't exactly what I originally had planned for this part, to be honest, but as I wrote it this is what came out.

I've got all 45 chapters of this book somewhat planned out already, with every part having a title and subline so I remember what's supposed to happen. The subline for this part was "In Which Becky Stops A Bully, And An Alliance Is Formed." I had intended it to be her and Stewart becoming stronger friends when she steps in and helps him with a bullying problem. Then, as I wrote it, the reason for the bullying just came out, and the "Alliance" moved from being simply their improved friendship to something that adds, I feel, a lot more to the universe while adding the same closeness to their relationship, as will be explained in later chapters.

I know this isn't up to my usual quality, and for that I apologize. I restarted this part several times, and what you see here now has poured out of me over a time period of just a little over two days, so I hope you enjoy it, and like where things are going!

Coming Soon -- Part 8: The Littlest Princess!

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire: The Second Semester Part 8

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

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  • Posted by author(s)

Princess For Hire: The Second Semester
By Melanie E.

Part 8: The Littlest Princess

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-22-

I had thought my experiences in the Princess Program had prepared me for anything.

I had thought that, surely, there was nothing that could challenge a mind that had wrapped itself around the concept of gender being mutable.

I was wrong.

"Beckyyy, come play with meee!"

"I'm coming, sweetie!"

Two weeks. Two weeks since Mr. Uchiha had talked Stewart into heading the school's GSA and so many things had changed. It had started small, with only a student here or there opening up about joining, but it wasn't long before all of us in the Princess program were talked into joining, and the Protectors, and after that, it snowballed.

Two weeks, and the GSA was the largest organization at the school, and Stewart was suddenly popular.

He said he hated it, but every time someone would look up to him with respect, it was obvious he was growing to like it.

"Beckyyy!"

"I'm here, Rosie, I'm here!"

"Aaaaaaahhh! Hehehehe!"

"Hey! You little sneak, get back here!" I yelled after her as she skipped behind the jungle gym and out of my sight again.

So how is that all related to me chasing a five year old through a playground in a dress?

"Don't forget me!"

Oh, yeah, and Sarah too.

"This isn't helping, Sarah!"

"No, but it's fun!"

Stewart's parents were so proud of him that they had set up a weekend off as soon as they could to come and visit him. Their plan was to spend a day with him, take him out to eat, and generally celebrate his coming out of his shell, if not necessarily coming out, since they already knew.

But there had been a problem.

She was three feet four inches tall, had curly hair, and as I was discovering, had a compact nuclear reactor hidden somewhere inside her to be running around as much as she was.

And no babysitter.

Another town pass in exchange for watching her for a few hours had sounded good on paper, and I had been expecting to have a lot of fun playing with her. With Sarah's help, what could go wrong?

"Ooof... Hey!" The dirt clod had come out of nowhere, smacking me squarely in the ear and nearly knocking me down.

"Sorry, my bad!"

"Sarah!" I called angrily, but it was too late, she had already disappeared again.

As I was discovering, Sarah liked children largely because she was still five years old at heart herself.

On the plus side, with St. Patrick's day being the following weekend things should settle down for a while after that, and there was no force in Kingston Academy or the world that was going to drag me out of bed the next day.

On the downside, now I had grass and dirt stuck in my hair.

With a defeated sigh I found a convenient log and sat down, taking a much-needed breather. We had already been out here for an hour, and I was the only one in the least tired.

"Gotcha!"

"Eeeek!"

I would have been embarrassed by my squeal if it weren't for the fact I was supposed to be a girl. As it was, the surprise hug from behind was enough to send me to the ground, rolling with a still-giggling Rosie holding onto my neck.

"I got you Becky!"

"Yes, yes you did," I said, laughing myself as I watched the pure joy on her face as she scrambled up from the pile of leaves she had knocked me into. "But Rosie, I'm really not dressed for this."

"Why not?"

"Well," I said, thinking carefully how to explain it to her. "Princesses usually don't go rolling around in the dirt when they're wearing pretty dresses."

"Why not?"

"Because they get dirty?"

"So?" She looked at me with honest confusion.

"*sigh* Never mind. You'll see when you get bigger," I said, picking her up and tickling her, illiciting another round of frantic giggles from her as I carried her toward a nearby bench.

"Hey, you're supposed to be finding me too!"

"You're big enough to find yourself, thank you very much," I said without turning around as I heard the telltale sound of Sarah's sneakers crunching across the pine needles behind us.

True, babysitting Rosie had been much more aerobic than I had been expecting, but as she wrapped me in another hug I couldn't say that It was something I didn't enjoy.

I checked my watch discreetly behind her back as she held me, surprised to see that we had actually been at the park for more than two hours, not the one I had thought. Time truly must fly when you're having fun, or being run silly by two little girls.

"Whadda you two say we go get some cocoa or something?" I asked when Rosie finally let me go, holding onto her shoulders to keep her from disappearing again. It might be March, but it was still chilly this far north, and I could imagine quite clearly how pleasant it would be to wrap my hands around a nice hot mug of cocoa.

That made me think of hot apple cider, which made me think of Andrew, which was somewhere I really didn't want to go at the moment. Luckily, two squeals of glee were enough to keep me distracted, and with smiles on all our faces we headed toward the entrance to the park.

-23-

"I still can't believe you turned down the wedding dress."

"It was hideous, Sarah. You know it."

"Well, I thought it was nice."

"Would you wear it, then?"

"Well, no..."

I simply gave her a steady look over my steaming mug of cocoa, one she refused to return.

"What dress?" A curious little voice asked, tugging gently on my sleeve. Rosie had decided to have chocolate milk instead of cocoa, and apparently the joy of blowing bubbles with her straw had finally worn off, as she was looking up at me with another one of her beautiful smiles.

It was time I had a little fun of my own this afternoon.

"Sarah's been being mean, and thought it would be funny to stick me in an ugly old green dress for the parade next weekend knowing I'd have to wear it in front of everyone in town."

"Hey!"

"I like green."

"You wouldn't have liked this," I said, giving Rosie a very serious look. "It made me look like an upside down cabbage."

"It wasn't that bad!"

"It had gold sequins sewn into the lacy things under the skirt."

"Petticoats."

"Petti-whats?"

"Like a fluffy slip, sorta. And they really weren't that bad!" Sarah was fighting to keep her face looking indignant at my slighting of her taste, but she was having a hard time of it.

"Yes they were! The whole thing was awful, and it looked like it would weigh a hundred pounds!"

"Just you wait 'til I get married, I'll make you wear it instead of a bridesmaid's dress."

"You wouldn't," I said, realizing only too late that I had virtually agreed to being a bridesmaid when Sarah eventually got married.

Things would have heated up from there, if not for the rather sharp cry of "Girls!" from above our booth.

"Mommy!" Rosie yelled happily, jumping up from her seat in our booth and catapulting herself across my lap to wrap her arms around Mrs. Davis, who gave us a mischievous wink when both Sarah and I looked up at her.

"Now, what is this I hear you two arguing about?"

"Uh, nothing," Sarah said, gaining her voice first.

Rosie wasn't having it, though. "Sarah wanted Becky to put on a wedding dress, but Becky says it's ugly."

At her questioning look, I answered simply "Green." She glared at Sarah like she had just beaten her child.

"It's not that bad!" Sarah said again, defending the dress to the death, even though Rosie was now joining me and her mother in our Glare of Doom. "Oh, alright!" With a flail of her hands Sarah gave in, laying her head on the table. "It's just a stupid Saint Patrick's Day parade, anyhow."

"Oh?" Mrs. Davis asked, now looking at me.

I shrugged. "I've gotta ride in the float we're making for the event, and after that I'll be heading up our booth at the fair. Hostessing."

"What kind of booth?"

Me and Sarah exchanged a wicked glance before we both burst out laughing.

"Oh, dear."

"It's not what you think," I said, wiping a tear of laughter off my cheek and only then noticing the dirt still covering my face from Sarah's dirt clod earlier. "Some of the guys were trying to get us to do a kissing booth, but since it's only us Princesses who are working it we decided that would be too weird." Mrs. Davis nodded, urging me to continue. "So, since our school just put together the group that Stewart's leading, we thought it might be a good idea to do a Pride and Acceptance booth instead."

"Pride and Acceptance booth?"

I nodded. "We'll hand out those little pink triangles, and rainbow bracelets, and things like that. We'll also have some of those glowing bracelets and necklaces, too, since those are rainbow-striped, and have pamphlets for anyone who's curious."

"That seems like a strange booth for a fair, especially for an all-boys school. And princesses," Mr. Davis said, walking up behind his wife and correcting himself at Rosie's glare.

I didn't have a chance to respond, since that was when the waitress showed up to escort them to their table.

"Can I eat with you and daddy and Stewart?" Rosie asked, refusing to let go of her mom's legs.

"But aren't you having fun with the Princesses?"

"It's great! But I wanna see my big brother too!"

Stewart, who none of us had noticed, came up right then. Gone was the nervous, quiet boy from so recently, replaced by a much happier young man who smiled as he bent down and picked up his giggling little sister. "Of course you can eat with us!" he said, tickling her lightly and causing her to giggle and squirm even more.

It was his next words that shocked me the most, though. "Becky, would you and Sarah like to join us?"

I glanced over at Sarah, and she gave me a shrug, telling me it was my choice. "I don't think so," I said, giving him an apologetic smile. "I think we've got enough money for a cab back to school, so unless you need us to stay...."

"That's alright," Mrs. Davis said with a smile.

"You're leaving?"

I looked up into Rosie's frowning face, and almost changed my mind; but seeing Stewart had made me ready to face something I had been avoiding for over a week, and I knew if I didn't do it soon, I would lose my nerve.

"I'm sorry, Rosie, but it's time," I said, standing up and giving her one last hug, followed by Sarah, before we both waved and made our way for the doors to the diner.

It was shortly after calling a cab that Sarah finally turned to me and asked, "Are you sure you're ready for this?"

There was no need for me to ask what she meant, just like there was no need for me to tell her what I was going to do. I just gave her a nod, and a smile, before we stood there in silence waiting for our ride to arrive.

-24-

I hadn't spoken to Andrew for eight days.

It had been eight days since the fight. Eight days since he had scared me so badly I hadn't known if I would be able to talk to him again.

Eight days that I had felt more miserable than I had since before coming to Kingston, with nothing to look forward to but Rosie's visit.

Now, that was done and gone, and here I stood in my same smudged dress and dirty hair from the day. If I had taken the time to clean up, I would have lost my nerve. That was why as soon as we had paid our cab fare Sarah had walked me to his door, giving my hand a gentle squeeze before leaving me to my fate.

I knocked on his door once, twice, softly.

I hesitated.

My hand was poised for the third knock when the door was pulled open, and Bobby's familiar face stared back at me. He waved me in, and then closed the door behind him as he left.

I stood there alone in the room with Andrew, looking into his sad eyes, and I forgot everything I had wanted to say.

The forming of the GSA had been a bit caused quite a stir in the school. At first it had seemed that everyone would accept it gladly and easily, with its numbers swelling quickly the first couple of days, first with the Protectors, then with us Princesses, and then the slow but steady flow of students who weren't afraid to stand up for what they thought was right.

But not everybody had agreed with it. While our school might be a lot more tolerant than most, it still has its own small club of bigots who would do whatever they could to prove their own views right.

The first official meeting of the club had been the first Friday after its formation, and it was that Friday that they decided to strike.

I still couldn't -- didn't want to -- remember all the details of what happened, but even now it pained me to look at Andrew and see where his eye still held the outline of the bruise from being punched in the face. We had all fought back, and for the life of us none of us could give any details of who had attacked us, me, Andrew, Stewart, Bobby, and Jules, but the next day six students whose names I refused to think about were gone from the school, and Andrew was the only one of us with any lasting marks.

I had been in a good mood all day, thanks to Rosie. Now I felt like the floor was going to swallow me as I tried to get over my own shame.

After all, I was the one who had hurt Andrew.

The initial conflict was short and to the point. We survived, they got away, end of story. At least, if it weren't for me being a self-centered bitch about things. Andrew had tried to comfort me, but I had angrily pushed his arm away as I had soaked in my self loathing.

"Get the fag and the fairy first," had been the only words we had heard before they had attacked, and those words were still ringing in my head even now as I stood before him again.

I had punched him. Hard. He had only been trying to comfort me, and what did I do? I punched him.

Why?

Because I wanted him to hate me. After all, if it weren't for me he wouldn't have been involved in any of this, right?

And after that, after nearly falling over and having to be steadied by Bobby and Jules, first thing he had done was try to comfort me again.

That was when I had ran.

"Becky..."

I looked into his eyes, and I hated what I had done. Not just the punch, but putting him in the situation that led to being attacked. I still didn't even know what I was doing, and here I was endangering someone else, all because of something that I couldn't help.

"I'm sorry..."

I tried to say more. I had planned so much more. I had planned to say how he was better off if we stopped talking, how he didn't have to be part of the protectors, how he had done enough already.

How I had hurt him enough already.

But I never got to say any of that. As I felt the tears burning in my eyes, for the third time I felt him come to me and try to wrap his arms around me, to comfort me.

This time, I didn't resist.

For eight days, I hadn't said a word to Bobby, or Jules, or Andrew, and only enough to Stewart to learn when I would be watching Rosie. I had even avoided talking to Sarah about it any more than I had to, though she had been worried about me. That all fell away as Andrew held me, and leaned down to kiss my tears away.

For the first time in our relationship, I didn't let myself dwell on it, and simply let myself enjoy it.

(End of Part 8)

AUTHOR'S NOTES:

Wow. It's been nearly a YEAR since I posted anything on this. It's hard to believe, and I hope that it doesn't hurt anyone's enjoyment of the story too much.

Just know that I'm trying to do better with this stuff. I'm getting back into writing a bit more -- as evidenced by cranking out this last night -- and... no, I'm not gonna make any estimations on when more will be out, since I'd just break them.

Instead, I'll end with my normal phrase for this story: IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME.

(Not necessarily soon, but it will.)

Princess For Hire: The Second Semester Part 9

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Fiction
  • Serial Chapter
  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • School or College Life

TG Elements: 

  • Girls' School / School Girl

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Princess For Hire: The Second Semester
By Melanie E.

Part 9: A Princess At Odds

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-25-

It's funny how something can be right there in front of you, staring you in the face, and you can still ignore it somehow until someone points it out.

That was the way it was with me and Swift's reactions to me. I had gone through the last two months oblivious to the fact that he had stopped glaring at me, at least any more than any other student, or trying to disrupt activities that pulled me out of his class.

In fact, if it hadn't been for the muffled comment of "teacher's pet," I heard one day after class, I would have continued on oblivious to his actions.

Had he really been treating me differently since I had begun to dress as a girl full-time?

Yes. He had, and though that fact should have made me happy, instead it disturbed me, not the least of reasons was because of his lack of support for the school's new Gay Straight Alliance.

Stewart's information was seeming more and more at odds with the person who Professor Swift showed to the school. How could he be so blase' about something that this mysterious background said should be important to him? Why did he treat the Princesses so cruelly? It had only been a couple of days since I had seen him chewing out Brittany on a Princess day for forgetting to keep her legs closed in class. She had almost been in tears afterward, and he had done it right in the middle of the hallway!

I had to do something soon.

"Mrs. Henderson, could you please go to the Headmaster's office?"

And what could this be about?

---

"Mr. Uchiha?"

"Yes, Becky, come in."

Mr. Uchiha's face was grim as I walked into his office. Gone were the laugh lines I had always thought were a permanent feature of his, and his glasses sat next to a bottle of aspirin. I had grown used to seeing a volume of manga open next to him any time I saw him at his desk, but today his keyboard had been shoved aside and its mahogany surface was covered with folders and paperwork. When he looked up at me, his eyes were red from strain.

"Sir?" I asked, on guard in case I were about to get in trouble.

"Ah, yes. Thank you for coming at such short notice," he said, trying to smile for my benefit, though it never reached his eyes. "Please, have a seat."

I sat down carefully in one of the wooden seats across from him. "Sir," I asked quietly, "did I do something wrong?" It had been weeks since I had stopped working on the float, so I was desperately hoping nothing had happened there the boys were trying to pin on me. I didn't think I'd caused any permanent damage.

"What?" Shock seemed to cross his features before he visibly relaxed, a soft laugh bubbling up from him. "Oh, no, nothing like that," he said, and this time his smile made it all the way to his temples. "No, this is something... something else. Something I know you've been working on, and I need your help with."

Somehow I instantly knew what he was talking about. "Professor Swift."

"Indeed," he said, the tension returning to his face in a rush. He seemed to hesitate for a second before continuing on. "I have been trying to avoid this for over two years, but it seems that despite my repeated attempts to get him to straighten up Ronnie is still dead set on acting out his own agenda on the student body." He looked at me, as though expecting confirmation that I understood so far, so I nodded. "The fact of the matter is, I know that Ronnie -- Professor Swift -- is a good guy at heart. He is," he said to my unwitting snort. "If it had been anyone else they would have already been fired, but I've known him for so long... you know who Kelly Brice is, I'm assuming?"

"I've read some articles by them, yes," I answered, trying to stay neutral on what I knew.

"Then you know that his actions and his words are at odds with each other. I'm not going to get into why, because it's not my story to tell, but unless we can fix that I've got a list of people waiting to take his job." After saying those words, Mr. Uchiha gave me a meaningful look. It didn't take a genius to get what he was trying to say.

"Why are you telling me all this, sir?"

"Because I want you to help me save his job."

"...Do I have to?"

Mr. Uchiha gave me another honest smile.

-26-

There was nothing I could do to make this any easier, I told myself as I stood outside the Professor's office door. I had been standing there for what felt like an eternity, trying to work up the courage to knock, or to call out to him, but my nerve never seemed to come.

Now or never, Becky, now or never.

*Knock knock knock*

"It's open," came the stressed and angry voice from the other side.

For the briefest of moments I wished I had grabbed Andrew or Leslie or someone to come with me. The last thing I wanted to do with my day was to have to face down one of my teachers, let alone Professor Swift. And yet, here I was. With one last breath to steady myself, I pushed the door open and walked into his office.

Professor Swift's office was a huge surprise. I'm not sure what I had expected, exactly, but the wild swirl of papers and books covering every free surface was not it. A decrepit laptop sat on top of the desk, and behind it sat Professor Swift himself, glaring at the screen while furiously writing on a legal pad.

“Sir?” I almost whispered, a little afraid of what would happen if he turned that same vicious concentration on me.

“What is it you--” he began, with the acid tone he normally used on the princesses, but stopped when he saw it was me. “Yes, Becky. What is it?” He said instead, in what was far from being a kind tone of voice but was still far better than his usual attitude.

We stared at one another in silence for a few seconds. The professor was obviously impatient to get back to whatever he was doing, and I could see the frustration building in his face as I continued to stand there doing and saying nothing, but I was too busy trying to reconcile the man before me with the person who's articles I had read.

Where was that person now?

I could almost feel the lightbulb going off over my head as I figured out how I was going to tackle my project.

“I just had a few questions, sir.”

“Well?”

I swallowed the lump that was trying to crawl up my throat and straightened my back. “It's about this civil rights journalist I've been reading. Kelly Brice?” I said as innocently as I could, shifting my eyes away from him and to the floor, but not fast enough to miss the color draining from his face at the name. I swallowed again, then forced myself to continue. “I've been reading a lot of their stuff, and it's all really good! And they obviously care a lot about people who are, umm, different?”

Professor Swift's hands began to shake as he stood up from his desk, the confident sneer and the vicious scowls I, and every other student, associated with him long gone from his face. “I think you need to leave, Miss Henderson.”

“But--”

“NOW!” He bellowed, slamming his hands down on his desk hard enough to send the antique green glass lamp that had been sitting on the corner crashing to the ground, shattering.

I let out a shocked gasp as I stepped back, surprised and afraid at the violence of his reaction. Then another emotion overwhelmed me instead, one that drove the other two far back in my mind.

Anger.

“No!”

“I SAID--”

“SHUT UP!” I screamed, seeing through the haze of my anger the same surprise I had experienced at his earlier outburst echoed on his own face. “I'm not leaving until you tell me what the hell your problem is!”

“Excuse me, girl, but you have no right to demand anything of me,” he said, obviously fighting to remain in control as he circled around his desk to stand face to face with me. “I owe no one any explanations, especially not some nosy little...” he stopped himself with a hand to his chest. “What do you think gives you the right to talk to me like this?!”

I could tell from the gleam in his eyes he was hoping to intimidate me into backing down, but there was no way. I'd seen him hurt my friends too many times, and seen the results of letting him keep doing things his way. I glared right back at him, standing as tall and straight as I could, then said the words I hoped would put him in his place. “I'm trying to save your job, you jerk!”

Professor Swift started to say something, then stopped. His mouth still hanging open he took a step back, bumping into his desk and knocking a paperweight off this time, though luckily it remained intact.

“I don't even know why I'm bothering,” I continued, taking a step forward and poking him in the chest. “You've been a cruel, malicious bully. So you're Kelly Brice too, big deal: all the writing in the world doesn't stop you from being the least accepting, most narrow-minded asshole in the school. Why Mr. Uchiha wants you to stay I'll never know, but he ASKED me to talk to you,” I finished, putting as much venom into my words as I could. Seeing I had him pinned against his desk with a look of bewilderment on his face I backed off, then gave an unlady-like snort. “Forget it, get fired for all I care,” I said, turning away from where he was frozen in place and starting for the door.

“Stop right there.”

“Why?” I asked, resting my hand on the door handle but not opening it.

“You want to talk? Fine,” he said in a defeated tone. I heard a scraping sound, and when I turned back around he was cleaning the papers out of one of the leather chairs that had been pushed against the wall. “Sit,” he ordered me quietly, starting to walk back around his desk but then instead pushing another pile of papers from another chair and sitting down across from the first one he had emptied.

I was still angry, almost as angry as I had ever been, but....

Mr. Uchiha wanted him here. Mr. Uchiha had asked me to talk to him. And, what the hell, Mr. Uchiha was paying me for this.

I sat down in the chair he had prepared for me, smoothing my skirt under me as I did so and hoping that papers were the only thing that had been left in the seat. “Fine,” I said petulantly, crossing my arms over my chest and managing to almost completely ignore the reminder I had breasts.

“Why would the headmaster send a student to talk to me about this instead of coming himself?” Professor Swift asked me, staring intently into my face.

I gave a shrug in answer, but when I saw the old sneer begin to return I decided to give him a bit more. “I'm not entirely sure. I think it has something to do with keeping things unofficial.” I gave him a long look of my own, not bothering to try and hide my unhappiness. “He said you used to be a good teacher, until the princess program started up, and that that's when you turned evil.”

“Evil?!”

I glared at him. “What would you call outing a student to bullies, or punishing students for doing what they're supposed to? If you're Kelly Brice, then why do you hate the Princesses so much?”

Swift wrung his hands as he began to mutter through gritted teeth. “Why do I hate the Princesses? I don't hate them. I hate what they stand for!”

“What?”

“It's a mockery!” He bellowed, slamming his palms into the armrests of his chair. “It's a drag show for the amusement of the boys. It's disrespectful to those who truly have gender issues, and makes a laughingstock of the school's history of tolerance and acceptance!”

I shook my head. “The only one making a laughingstock of the school is you!” I yelled back, barely holding myself back from standing up so I could look down on him. “We've done nothing wrong!”

“You and Sarah are different,” he said with a negligent wave of his hand. “The two of you see some benefit from the program, I'll admit, but the others? Mr. Stone, for example, going out of his way to tease and show off whenever he can. It's people like him who cause the trans community so much trouble!”

“And what about outing Stew? All he did was write a paper, and you made him the biggest target in the school!”

“He presumed to understand what being trans means, all because he is gay. They don't understand, none of them understand what we have to deal with! He deserved what he got!”

“Nobody DESERVES that!” I screamed, fed up with the man before me. Before I knew what I was doing I had stood up and had my hand raised to smack the professor, when something else he had said struck me. Wait a minute... “We?”

Through my anger I had failed to see Professor Swift's own emotions shifting, but when I looked down now, my hand still raised in the air, I saw that his head was hung low, and I could hear sobbing.

No way. I can't deal with this. This isn't my job to....

But I was the only one there.

“Professor?”

No response, just more sobbing.

“Professor?” I asked again, putting my hand on his shoulder. He still didn't answer.

Of all the emotions I had expected to feel during my encounter with Professor Swift, pity had never been among them. Still, my anger still lingered, and I had to say my piece.

“I don't know what's going on for you,” I said, taking my seat and looking on as Swift continued to sob. “But, geez, listen to yourself! Is that really what you think of what we've been doing? I don't think Mr. Uchiha would have ever allowed the program to go as long as it has if he thought like you do. And no matter what you say, you did the absolute worst thing possible to Stew, and he didn't deserve it. How can you talk about acceptance then turn around and do that to someone?!”

“I....”

I leaned back in my chair and closed my eyes, taking a few deep breaths to try and calm down.

“You're right.”

My eyes snapped open. Had Professor Swift just said what I thought he did?

The man looking back at me now was not the same professor I had entered the room to talk to. Instead of the cruel, angry face I'd come to recognize I saw someone who was broken, and hurting. “I'm sorry,” he said, looking to me for forgiveness.

I shook my head. “I'm not the one you need to say that to.”

A spark of the anger I had grown to expect from him returned, but just as quickly it disappeared. With a defeated expression on his face Professor Swift nodded. “You should go back to your dorm. I need to talk to the headmaster.”

I stood up, unsure of what to say, and started to walk toward the door when I paused. “Professor Swift?”

“Yes?”

“Good luck.”

I didn't wait for an answer, but closed the rest of the distance between me and the door as quickly as I could, and left the room.

-27-

Why me?

That was the thought that ran through my head over and over as I sat in my room, waiting for dinner time to roll around. After dinner I had a mini-date with Andrew, all part of our whole “getting to know you again” period after my immense foul-up, but until then I had plenty of time to sulk and feel put-upon by the world around me.

What would happen to Professor Swift? I hoped Mr. Uchiha would be happy with how I'd managed things, though I found it doubtful that he would approve of me yelling at Ol' Swifty like I had. What could he do, though, give me detention? I was there on his behalf, so I had leverage if he tried to punish me for how I had handled the situation, not that that helped me feel any better about what had happened. Instead, my mind kept going back to the things Swift had said, and how vehemently he had defended his position at first.

He had said “we.”

What did that make Professor Swift? Did he want to be a woman? I was unsure of how to interpret what he had said. Being a Princess and, more importantly, Sarah's best friend, I had started to have more and more exposure to information about being transgendered, so I knew that there was a whole lot more than just the two extremes of boy and girl going on with things. Heck, most people would say I was proof of that, and as much as I wanted to argue there was little point, not in this skirt anyhow.

Still, he said “we.”

Whatever his situation, he obviously felt that I fell into something of the same boat. Was that why Mr. Uchiha had sent me to talk to him? Did he know that Professor Swift would rather be a Rhonda than a Ronald? Surely not. Then again, Mr. Uchiha seemed to be pretty good at knowing everyone at the school, and he had known about all the Kelly Brice stuff too, so maybe?

It was all too much, and more than I wanted to deal with. I may have been smart enough to get into a private school on scholarship, but I was still only fourteen.

I heard a commotion in the hallway, and nearly jumped out of my skin when someone began pounding on my door excitedly.

“BeckyBeckyBecky!” Sarah's muffled voice came through the woodwork, followed by more pounding. With a groan I got off my bed, straightened my skirt, and checked my hair in my mirror before finally unlocking and opening the door just as she began to try and knock again, nearly tripping into my room in the process.

“Becky!” She said again when she regained her feet, grinning widely at me and oblivious to her near disaster. “You'll never guess what just happened!”

“You're right,” I said with a grin of my own, feeling her bright mood begin to pull me out of my funk. “What's up?”

“Swifty just resigned!”

“What?!”

“Really!” She said, mistaking my look of shock for one of disbelief. “Winston said he saw him collecting his personal stuff from his office, and when he asked around one of the seniors told him Swift was leaving the school!”

“Oh. Wow,” I said, trying my best to stay calm while on the inside I wanted nothing more than to curl up into a ball and hide away.

Mr. Uchiha had asked me to help him save Professor Swift's job, and instead I'd driven him away.

“Becky? Are you okay?” Sarah asked, not waiting for an answer before she wrapped me in a hug. “What's wrong?”

I couldn't tell her what had gone down between me and the Professor. It was too personal, and even after everything he had done it would not be right. Instead, I grabbed my stomach and twisted my frown into a grimace. “Nothing, just hungry is all.”

“...Okay,” Sarah said quietly, giving me some space. I knew she could see through my lie, but until I could figure out how I felt about what had happened I thought it wise not to talk to anyone about it.

Swift was gone, and everyone else was happy about that.

So... why wasn't I?

-=-

(End of Part 9)

Well, if THIS hasn't been a long time coming!

Yesterday I figured if re-reading The Right Hand of the Devil had been enough to inspire me to work on it and finish it, then maybe the same could be true of PFH! And, whaddaya know, it's working! Naturally this isn't the very end, but this is the beginning of it, if that makes sense.

Two more parts. Six more chapters. That's it, and the story will draw to a close. And I'll be starting writing them as soon as I post this. I had considered waiting until I had all three finished, then posting them all at once, but then the greedy needy side of me told me "hey, you'll get more comments if you post 'em separately!" So, here we are.

Unproofed, unedited, with the exception of the fact that, per Jill's suggestion (thankew!) chapter 26 is completely different than I'd originally written it.

As always, lemme know what y'all think, and IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME. Hopefully soon!

Love y'all!

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire: The Second Semester Part 10

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Fiction
  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • School or College Life

TG Elements: 

  • Girls' School / School Girl

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  • Posted by author(s)

Princess For Hire: The Second Semester
By Melanie E.

Part 10: Princess On Parade

-28-

Even after spending nearly eight months as a Princess the idea of riding through the middle of Persistence in a dress had me scared to death.

It wasn't so much the being on the float part that scared me: we had a stool built for me to lean against if I needed to, and one of my feet was held firmly in place thanks to a water ski-styled strap, painted close enough to the color of my shoes not to stand out too badly. It also wasn't the fact that I was a boy dressed as a girl, standing on a float for an all-boy's school decked out to the nines and having to wave merrily to the townsfolk as we rolled past with a phony smile plastered on my face.

No, what bothered me about it all was the dress itself.

For one thing, it was HEAVY. Made of velvet, the entire dress was emerald green and hung down nearly to the platform I stood on, less than an inch of space separating the two. There were no petticoats or anything like the wedding dress Sarah had wanted: instead, there was a silk lining sewn into the dress that almost made me wish I'd agreed to the lightweight taffeta and lace. Sure, it was warm, but now that spring was approaching that was less of a good thing too, and I had been more than happy to ditch the matching cape even before the parade had started.

It was long-sleeved, with those loops that go over your fingers as well, but it was also off the shoulder, and showed much too much of my chest for my comfort. I wanted to constantly pull the chest up to cover more, but after repeated needle stabs during the fittings and a good amount of yelling from the school's seamstress I had managed to at least keep that habit at bay. Still, the dress felt like it was constantly on the verge of sliding down around my hips.

Oh, and I had to wear one of those stupid corsets again to get it on in the first place.

All in all, I felt like I was a pair of heels and a misstep away from pure hell. Yes, I'd managed to talk them out of heels, instead wearing a pair of nice boots that went surprisingly well with the court dress. The concession I'd had to make in exchange was twofold: one, I had to wear a tiara, which I had pretty much expected given my role as a Princess anyway, and two, I had to agree to an extra last-minute activity Jules had come up with.

No longer was our school only handing out information on LGBT rights and acceptance, oh no. Now there was a raffle, too. The prize? Dinner with a Princess.

Which Princess? Guess.

Jules was so going to pay for that.

Despite how uncomfortable I was – or, perhaps, because of it – I focused as hard as I could on ignoring everything but my duties as the official representative of the school's Princess program. I simply had to remind myself that I was getting paid to do this, and from the smiles and waves I was getting back from the crowd it seemed they were enjoying it too. Still, I vowed that next year someone else could ride the float, and I would work on anything else in the sure knowledge that no matter how bad things got, they couldn't be as awful as a sweaty dress, a corset, and a slowly building case of motion sickness.

I was positively ecstatic when the parade floats finally finished their run. Andrew was there to greet me, and I was too impatient to even wait for the stepladder I knew they had waiting to help me get down, instead grabbing his hands and giving a small hop to get to the ground, dress be damned.

“Hi,” Andrew said once I'd regained my balance, not letting go of my hands.

“Hi back,” I answered with a smile, looking up into his eyes.

It had been less than a week since I'd rushed into his room and we'd made up, and neither of us had completely gotten over our awkwardness together again yet. I saw him start to lean toward me, then hesitate, like he was scared of how I would react if he kissed me in public. I was nervous, too, but I tried my best to ignore that as I lifted up on my toes and closed the distance myself, giving him a light peck on the lips before settling back on my heels again. He gave me a goofy grin at that, then pulled me toward him and into a much-needed hug.

If there was one feminine thing I would never complain about, it would be hugs. I had always loved them, and being able to give and receive them so freely now was an amazing thing.

After a few moments of just standing there in our hug a quiet “ahem” from behind reminded me that we weren't alone, so I reluctantly let go. Andrew kept one arm wrapped around my waist, though, so I slid around to his side and wrapped my own arm around him too.

“How do you feel?” He asked me as we walked away from the float, leaving it to the rest of the team to disassemble.

I groaned. “Tired. A little dizzy. My feet hurt, this corset's riding up, my tights are riding down, and it feels like it's two hundred degrees in this dress,” I said, picking at the offending garment.

“Well, hey, look on the bright side.”

“The bright side?” I asked, looking up at him.

“Sure! It could've been me,” he said with a grimace, and just the image of that in my head made me snort, then start to laugh.

“No, no it couldn't!” I said, giving him a small shove with my free hand, though not enough to push us apart.

“Okay, maybe not,” he agreed, squeezing me slightly again. “Besides, you look hot in a corset.”

I just shook my head at him in disbelief. “Perv.”

Andrew shrugged. “I'm a guy. We're all pervs.”

I decided not to argue with him there, though I did feel a twinge of bother that he seemed to not include me in that group, at least until I reminded myself about the whole gender-thing I was pulling.

“So,” he interrupted my thoughts, giving me another squeeze as we walked. “Ready to head out and check out the booths and things?”

“Hah! I wish,” I answered with a roll of my eyes. “I'm supposed to have a few photos taken with some of the other float participants, then I need to change into my other outfit and go work the school's booth.”

“Other outfit?” He asked, giving my dress another look. “What other outfit?”

I grinned, finally getting a chance to use a line I'd heard plenty of times since arriving at the school. “You'll find out soon enough.”

Andrew didn't seem any happier with it than I had ever been.

-29-

The photos went quickly, with most of the other float riders just as ready to get out of their costumes or out on the street as I was. I gave our float, already being disassembled, one last glance before I headed back into the changing area that had been set aside for us all. I felt momentarily guilty about not helping with the clean-up, since the float was supposed to be part of my duties for the parade, but most of the rest of the float team seemed just as happy to have me out of the way: not that I could really blame them, given my track record with the float on the whole.

Besides, it wasn't like I was getting off easy, anyhow.

I gave my second costume of the day an unenthusiastic once-over before unzipping my dress, debating if it was even worth changing. Then again, I had been threatened by the seamstress that if anything happened to the velvet dress I would spend the next several months without a dime to my name paying the school back for it, so I supposed the new costume would have to do.

Somehow, that didn't help me feel better about it.

I changed as quickly as possible, vowing to do something nasty to the seamstress for giving me two corset-required costumes in a row, then zipped the velvet dress into its bag and stepped out of the room, just waiting to be laughed at.

Andrew's eyes nearly popped out of his head when he saw me. “You're wearing... THAT?!”

I couldn't help it, I pouted. Instead of just standing there like an idiot, though, I instead walked past him and toward the doors, hoping to get the rest of the embarrassment out of the way as soon as possible.

“Hey, wait up!”

“I didn't think you'd want to be seen with me, not while I was wearing this,” I muttered as I continued to stomp off, not even waiting for him to catch up.

“What? Why?”

“Because I look stupid!” I groaned. “I look like some booth babe at a geek convention.”

“Well, isn't that what you're about to be? A booth babe, I mean?” He asked, freezing in place when I spun around and glared at him. “Hey! I think it looks good on you!”

I gave myself a quick glance, then rolled my eyes. “You would,” I said angrily, but tried to soften up the impact by following it with a smile.

Andrew grinned right back at me as he closed the distance between us, wrapping his arm around my waist again. “I thought sexy leprechauns were supposed to have red hair.”

“Hah! Leslie and some of the others might not mind wearing wigs, but there's no way in heck you'll ever get one of those things on me, and I'm not about to go to all the trouble of bleaching then dying my hair just for a Saint Patrick's Day costume.”

“That's good, because I like your hair just the way it is.”

I didn't know what to say to that, so instead of saying anything I stood up on my tiptoes and gave him a quick kiss on the cheek, leaving a green lipstick mark.

Green was the prevailing color in everything I was wearing. The boots were the same as for the dress, along with the stockings and other under-things, but that was all topped by a white blouse with little puffed sleeves and a kelly green jumper/skirt thing with green fluffy petticoats that did nothing to make the skirt any more decent, since the entire thing ended a good three inches above my knees. I was even still wearing the silly tiara with its green stones in it, since it was part of the whole princess shtick. The long gown had been too warm: in this getup I knew I'd be shivering the first time a strong breeze blew by.

I tried to comfort myself with the knowledge that Sarah was wearing a near-identical outfit and had been all day, but since we were the only two Princesses dressed as such it really wasn't much of a comfort at all.

“Remind me again why I'm doing this?”

“Because Jules is a heartless bastard.”

“Oh, yeah.”

“On the plus side, people really seem to like what we're doing. We had a group of students from Persistence High stop by and grab some of our acceptance materials to walk around and hand out themselves.”

“Really?”

“Yeah. Apparently Kingston isn't the only super-liberal school around here. Who knew?”

I shook my head, surprised by what Andrew was telling me. “I'd honestly expected us to catch a lot of flack for being deviants or something.”

“Oh, we've gotten that too,” Andrew said with a mischievous grin, “especially from some of the more conservative members of the town council. They tried to shut us down earlier.”

“What? They can't do that!”

“Yeah, I think they can, IF we were on city-owned property. Luckily for us the guy who owns the store we're set up in front of is an alumnus of the school, so he told us that if they pushed too much he'd just open up the store and move us in.” Andrew started to chuckle at that, obviously remembering something funny. I'd have to ask some of the others for more details later.

As we walked down the street toward where our own booth was set up I was amazed at the variety filling the sidewalks and plazas of downtown Persistence. I had thought it strange that St. Patrick's Day would be celebrated so much until Sarah had explained to me that not only was the town founded by a lot of Irish immigrants in the first place, but the town had officially been instated in March a hundred and fifty-something years ago as well. Because of this, everyone in town tended to treat St. Patrick's Day almost like a celebration of the town itself, hence closing off a couple of the streets downtown to vehicle traffic and filling them instead with games, snacks, and throngs of people looking to have a good time.

Next year, I vowed, I would get out and check out some of the sights. This year, though, I had a job to do, and I'd be darned if I would give Jules the satisfaction of seeing me complain about it.

Sarah and Jules were the only two people at the booth when we finally arrived, and as soon as she saw me Sarah rushed over and gave me a hug.

“Oh, thank god you're finally here! I really really need a break.”

“Hehe, no problem, Andrew and I can handle things for a bit. What do I gotta do?”

Sarah gave me an grateful look, then took my free hand and dragged me and Andrew behind the counter, pointing out where things were as she went. “Extra pamphlets are down here, we have another box of those rubber band rainbow bracelets, umm, here, but we're out of the glow sticks and necklaces. Some of the LGBT-friendly businesses have been leaving stacks of business cards with us, too, so those are over on that corner.”

“Gotcha,” I said, surveying the disarrayed stacks in front of me. “What about the raffle?” I asked, hoping that I could find an excuse to cut that off early and, maybe, never actually go through with it at all.

“Don't worry about the raffle,” Jules told me with a wicked grin. “Andrew and I will handle that.”

“But--”

“Trust me,” Sarah cut me off with a frown. “You don't wanna mess with it. They're raising good money with the tickets for the school's GSA, but some of the questions Jules and Stew have been fielding have almost sent me running away in tears.”

“Stew's here too?”

“He's on break. Which is where I'M heading, too,” Sarah said, giving me another quick squeeze. “Back in a couple of hours!”

With that, Andrew and I were left alone with Jules.

The job was simple enough, and between what I'd picked up from Sarah, what I'd read up on on my own, and what even a few things I'd found in the Kelly Brice papers I spent a lot of time answering questions, handing out leaflets and cards, and basically just talking to anyone who walked up about LGBT rights and Kingston Academy's stance on inclusiveness and tolerance. More than once I got questions about why the school didn't simply start admitting girls, and that was the one question I could never adequately answer, though I vowed to ask Mr. Uchiha that same question when I got the chance.

As for the raffle, I quickly learned just how right Sarah had been about it being best just to ignore it. There was a lot of interest, but more than once I heard people muttering less-than-flattering opinions about the whole thing, and after the third time Jules had to deny someone entry because of their attitude I tried my best to stay focused on my own work. I was a bit worried about what would happen if one of those people won the meal with me, but when I glanced over in Andrew's direction he just gave me a wink and held his hand up in the OK sign.

One hour passed, then two. Sarah showed back up nearly an hour late, but looking a lot less frazzled than she had been when we had first showed up, a funnel cake in each hand.

“These are for you guys,” she said, handing me one of the cakes and Andrew the other, “since I know that you didn't get a chance to walk around and check things out.”

“Wow, thanks!” Andrew said, taking his and stepping back from the counter.

“Thanks,” I echoed his comment, taking the plate from her and debating how best to eat the thing without messing up my outfit. Not for the first time that afternoon I wished I could have gotten away with my school uniform, like Andrew and Jules and everyone else, even if in my case that would have included a skirt.

“Here,” Sarah interrupted my thoughts, handing me a small package of plastic utensils.

“You're a life saver,” I told her, finding a corner where I could set the plate down and digging in.

“No, YOU are. If I'd been stuck standing here any longer...” she drifted off, giving a wistful glance over to where Leslie and some of our other fellow students were helping clean up one of the other booths. The St. Patrick's Day fair only had another hour or two before the booths would all need to close down so the streets could open back up and the adults could gear up for their own, alcohol-driven evening, and it was apparently tradition for the Kingston Academy students to help get the streets cleared before heading back to the school. “How much do we have left?”

“Not a lot,” I sighed, waving my hands over the scattered remnants of our carefully prepared booth. “A handful of business cards, about two dozen pamphlets, that's about it.”

“That's great! What about the raffle stuff?” Sarah asked Jules, who gave her a confident smirk.

“We sold all our tickets about half an hour ago. The drawing's in about forty-five minutes, and I've already got some of the guys spreading the word. Why don't you help Becky get ready for the big event?”

“You ready?” Sarah asked me, giving another nervous glance toward Jules. “That is, if you're still willing to go through with this.”

I gave Jules an angry glare. “Not like I have a lot of choice, is it?”

The smirk that had been on Jules' face drained away, replaced by a nervous frown. “You can still say no,” he said. “Everyone who's entered the raffle has a ticket stub, and we can issue refunds to anyone who wants one if you decide not to do this.” Then he grinned, the same confident grin he usually wore. “Or we could just offer them an alternative date. I've got my schoolgirl uniform handy if I need it too.”

“You do?” I asked, surprised.

Jules nodded, and for the third time his expression changed, this time being more serious than I had ever seen him. “This isn't slavery, Beck. I promise, though, we'll make sure you're safe with whoever wins.”

I looked at Jules, seeing the truth in his eyes. Then I glanced over at Andrew, who gave me another wink as he continued to munch on his funnel cake. There was something going on, I was sure of it.

Did I really want to quit and never find out what it was?

“Where can I get fixed up?” I asked Sarah as confidently as I could.

“Follow me, and I'll show ya.”

-30-

“You guys set me up,” I accused my dinner partner, staring at them across the table at Gizmo's while we waited for our food to arrive.

He laughed at me, taking a sip of his soda as he leaned back in his seat. “Of course it was a setup. You didn't think we would really put you in danger of having dinner with someone who wasn't comfortable with the Princess program, did you?”

I shook my head. “People are gonna be pissed when they figure out what you guys did.”

“Figure what out?”

“That you held a fake raffle.”

“The raffle wasn't fake,” my dinner party guest argued, his eyes twinkling with delight at my discomfort. “It was fixed. Big difference.”

“But why fix it in the first place?” I asked, desperate for our food to get to the table soon so I could get this over with and get back to the dorms.

“Because I wanted a chance to talk to you away from prying ears, or the restrictions of the school. Plus, it was the best way to get back at you.”

Jules and I stared at each other across the table, his look full of amusement, mine annoyance. The waitress stopped by with our appetizer, but neither of us made a move to eat anything as we continued our sparring match.

Finally, Jules gave me a wink that reminded me far too much of the ones I had gotten from Andrew earlier in the day, then reached out for the tray of appetizers, taking a loaded potato skin and munching on it thoughtfully.

“I was really pissed at you and Sarah at first, you know. The whole thing with Ruby, it got to me, I'm not gonna lie.”

I rolled my eyes, and took a potato skin of my own.

“You could have complained about the Saint Patrick's Day parade at any time and gotten out of it, but you didn't. Why?”

“Because I didn't want to give you the satisfaction,” I told him, giving him an icy glare.

To my surprise, Jules actually laughed.

“You know,” he continued, his voice taking on a thoughtful tone, “when you first arrived at the school I thought you'd be a lot of fun. You were so uptight about everything, I figured I'd be able to rattle your cage constantly. The fact that I could pick on my brother at the same time was just icing on the cake. You know by now how much I love messing with people, so it seemed like a perfect scenario for me.”

“When I first arrived,” I repeated, catching his words. “What changed?”

He laughed again. “I don't think anything changed, but I think I underestimated you, and my brother, too.”

I glanced around the room, irritated. “Did you really go to all this trouble to set up a fake date just to tell me that?”

“No. Andrew thinks I did this so I could compare notes on our little war, but it's not that either.”

“What is it, then?”

“I wanted to talk to you about him.”

My irritation faded as I caught the care in Jules' voice. “You wanted to talk to me about Andrew?”

“Yeah,” he said, staring at me intently. At that moment our food arrived, and after a few words with the waitress, and a couple of refills on our drinks, Jules' attention turned back to me. “Andrew really likes you, Beck.”

I had to chuckle at that. “I hadn't noticed,” I said through my laughter, wondering just where Jules was going with this.

“Okay, so that part's a bit obvious,” he went on, laughing as well. “But you're the first girl he's ever liked like this. He's always been really nervous around girls before.”

“He told me,” I admitted, picking at my chicken fillet with my fork but not eating any of it.

“You've been a bitch to him sometimes too.”

I winced at that, but didn't argue. How could I? I wasn't going to just take insults, though. “If you're here to give me the protective older brother thing, then don't bother. I don't want to hurt him, and I've tried not to.”

“I know. Don't think I can't see where some of this is coming from on your side too. You think you're being sneaky with the whole full-time girl thing, but the rest of us, we get you better than you think. Has it helped any?”

I sat in silence for a few moments, mulling over what he'd asked me. I didn't owe Jules any answers. I didn't owe him anything. Then I looked into his eyes, and saw something I'd never expected.

Concern.

“It's been easier,” I admitted, finally working up the nerve to take a bite of my chicken before continuing. “It's less frustrating, not switching back and forth and not having people not know what to call me one day to the next. Some things can be a hassle,” I said, giving one of my breasts a subtle poke, “but it's just clothes.”

“It's just clothes to you.”

I tilted my head, wondering what he was getting at.

“What are your plans for the future?” He asked me, taking a bite of his steak and giving me time to answer.

I shrugged. “Finish school, go to college, get a job?”

“That's not what I meant.”

I knew it wasn't what he had meant, but that was a question I wasn't sure I was ready to answer yet, not even to myself. Jules seemed to pick up on my discomfort, but surprising me again he didn't push it, instead changing the conversation over to talk about classes, and what I could expect the next year as a sophomore.

The rest of the meal passed unexpectedly pleasantly, and when the check arrived Jules waved off my offer to pay for my part of the bill, claiming it was the least he could do after putting me through the ringer on everything. Even the ride back to school was quiet and relaxed, both of us lost in our own thoughts.

It was only when we got back to P wing that things changed. Jules lightly grabbed my arm, stopping me outside my door.

“What is it?” I asked, nervous that he was about to try something, what I wasn't sure.

“I just want to ask you one thing.”

“What's that?”

“Don't break his heart, alright?”

I nodded, and that seemed to be enough answer for Jules as he started to walk toward his own room, then stopped and turned around. The smirk I had come to associate with him was back, and there was a cockiness in his tone when he yelled down the hall to me “I'll see you tomorrow, Beck.” He didn't wait for an answer before going into his own room, leaving me standing in the hallway alone, though not for long before Sarah stepped out and gave me a worried look.

“Everything okay?” She asked me, glancing between me and Jules' closed door. “He wasn't a jerk, was he?”

“Nah, everything's alright,” I told her, forcing a smile. “I'm kinda tired, though. See you tomorrow morning?” She nodded, then stepped back into her own room, leaving me to my own thoughts.

I had seen a different side to Jules tonight, and I didn't know what to think. What had him so worried about me and Andrew anyway? I just didn't know, and it was hours before I finally managed to get to sleep that night, thoughts of Andrew, Jules, Sarah, Ruby, Leslie, and my own future running through my head.

(end of Part 10)

Alright, so... yeah, I just commented yesterday that I was gonna wait 'til part 11 was finished before posting this, but... ah, fahgeddaboudit! Here's part 10, AKA the penultimate posting for PFH, in all its glory. Naturally I'll be going right into working on part 11 as soon as I'm finished posting this, which will, with even the slightest bit of luck, result in the entire story being FINISHED before the end of the week! Woot!

I'm gonna warn people right now that they might not like the ending. Do I like it? Yes. It's the ending I've intended for the series since the beginning (though admittedly with less build-up than I had initially intended) and I think is perfect for the characters in the story, and where I am cutting things off. That said, it likely will not be everyone's cup of tea.

Will there ever be more PFH past part 11? Actually, yes! Unfortunately, it will be as part of the bonus content for the published version of the story. No, it won't be necessary content to complete the story: it's mostly going to be background stuff and a short, fun piece that's meant to echo some of the more playful elements present in earlier chapters (since this story's gotten pretty darn serious toward the end.)

IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME. Well, okay, more will come regardless -- I'm too close to the end to stop now -- but still, comments are appreciated.

Melanie E.

Princess For Hire: The Second Semester Part 11 (The End)

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Fiction
  • Serial Chapter
  • Final Chapter
  • Sequel or Series Episode
  • Complete

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Identity Crisis
  • School or College Life

TG Elements: 

  • Girls' School / School Girl

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Princess For Hire: The Second Semester
By Melanie E.

Part 11: A Princess Goes Home

This part is dedicated to the memory of Wren Phoenix, Edeyn Blackeney, and Stanman. All three were very supportive of the story, and I'm incredibly sorry that they are not here to celebrate its completion with us.

-31-

The last day before a major break starts is always a hectic one. What do you take with you? What do you leave?

For me, that question had another layer: do I pack for Becky, or for Beck?

It was the day before spring break, and there were no classes for the day, since Kingston Academy wanted to make sure every one of us students had time to prepare for being gone. When I had first come to the school I had figured on spending most of my breaks except for summer vacation on campus, to save money and because I just wasn't sure exactly how good a relationship I would have with my dad after how long we had been separated from one another. Thanks to being a Princess, though, a lot of opportunities had opened up to me. Sarah had offered to let me hang out with her over the break, but I opted instead to pay for plane tickets out of my own pocket to visit my dad. There was a limit on how many days the program would pay you for dressing as a Princess per week, I had been a little let down to find out (though not surprised,) but even at that I had made plenty of money to afford the round trip.

I had offered to pay for Dad a ticket to come get me, but he insisted on taking care of at least that.

I'd had the tickets for a couple of weeks, but like any teenager I'd waited until the last minute to start any packing for the week and a half I'd be gone. Now it was less than three hours before Dad would arrive to pick me up, and I had... nothing.

Why nothing?

Being a Princess full-time had so far worked wonders for my school life. Without the issue of whether I was a guy or a girl getting in the way I was having a lot easier time dealing with all my fellow students, and for the first time I could remember my wardrobe consisted of more than just hand-me-downs that were a good three sizes too big for me.

Of course, almost all of those clothes were girl's clothes, and that was only where my problems began.

Jeans and tee shirts I could probably get by with either way, Beck or Becky, but I'd been spending so much time in Princess-mode that even the girly options for those were in short supply. Plus, it was starting to warm up, and warmer weather meant shorts, which I had none of at all. I could sacrifice my two pairs of boy's jeans to the god of cutoffs – they were frayed and ragged enough that if anything it would make them look better – but that was only a stop-gap measure. I could buy clothes when I got to my dad's, too, and that was the option I was looking at the most.

But boy's clothes, or girl's clothes?

It was all such a confusing mess, and no small part of that was the constant battle inside my own head to understand why I let the clothes matter in the first place.

Frustrated, I left my still-empty duffel bag on my bed and slipped on a pair of shoes. Maybe a walk would do me some good.

Walking around campus I couldn't help but admire the new life spring was bringing to the surface all around me. After months of cold weather, brown grass and even browner trees, the fresh buds sprouting from everything were a sight to behold. There were dogwoods spotted throughout the campus grounds, in lots of different colors, and the gardeners had already started preparing flower beds and trimming bushes. Even the sight of the second dorm hall's half-finished construction off in the distance did little to detract from what was a beautiful place to walk around and lose yourself in, and it wasn't long before I found my thoughts drifting away from the confusion and problems with my situation and, instead, on to some of the good things.

It was nice to have friends. Sarah, of course, Leslie too, and even Ruby. There were the rest of the princesses, too, and all of us had a special connection that the rest of the students didn't – couldn't – understand. Even Stew had warmed up to me more since the whole GSA thing, and I had been surprised to see him walking around the other day holding hands with a guy who looked suspiciously like Jules' escort to the alumni banquet so many weeks ago. I didn't see Bobby much, but every time I did he made sure to talk to me a little, so I was pretty sure that we were cool again after everything that happened with Andrew.

Andrew.

As much as things between me and Andrew still continued to confuse me, I had to admit that I liked him. A lot. If you had told me at the start of the year that I would have a boyfriend, or that I'd actually be upset by the idea of not seeing him over spring break, then... okay, I probably wouldn't have laughed in your face or anything, but it would have been a really hard sell. Now, though....

I'd had plenty of time over the last couple of weeks to think about Jules' warning about not breaking Andrew's heart. I knew he had his brother's best interest in mind, but the more I thought about it the more it pissed me off. For one thing, it was none of Jules' business, and for another, he seemed to think that boy or girl me mattered. Just to prove it didn't, I did something I never thought I'd have the nerve to do.

I straight up asked Andrew.

Sure, he had said when we had started “pretend” dating that it didn't matter to him, but having him say it again, with full conviction, had been a relief. What's more, I believed him, and more than that, I knew in my heart of hearts that it wouldn't make a difference to me either.

I was no longer embarrassed to say that, whether it made either one of us gay, straight, bi, or something else entirely, I liked Andrew. Not “liked him like a boy likes another boy” or “liked him like a girl likes a boy,” if there's even a difference. I liked him, full stop. I liked walking around with him, arm in arm, or arms around each other's waists. I liked his laugh, I liked his personality, I liked the smell of the cologne he always wore, even if he tried to claim he didn't.

I liked kissing him.

Even with nobody else around thinking about kissing Andrew caused a blush to rise in my cheeks. Sure, we had done it a few times here and there before I went and punched him, but the ones since we got back together, since I'd finally started to realize how much I cared for him, had been so much... more.

I'd miss Sarah over spring break. She was becoming more and more like a sister to me, and had pretty much taken over Leslie's job as Princess big sister too. I'd miss Leslie and the others, too. But, I'd miss Andrew more than any of them.

If spring break was messing with me this badly, I had no idea how I'd handle summer vacation when THAT rolled around.

“Becky? Miss Henderson, there you are!” I heard someone calling to me from down the path behind me.

“Mr. Cooper? What's wrong?”

“Nothing, nothing. The headmaster asked me to fetch you from your dorm, but when you weren't there some of the other students told me you were out here taking a walk. Shouldn't you be packing young lady?”

“Umm, yeah. I just needed some air.”

“Ah. Well, if you could head to Mr. Uchiha's office before you leave he would like to have a word with you. And might I say you look very nice today,” Mr. Cooper said with a kind smile, reminding me why he was one of my favorite teachers.

I couldn't help but laugh. “Thank you, sir. I'll head there straight away.”

“Good girl.”

Mr. Cooper turned around and started heading back down the path the way he had come, leaving me to find my own way to Mr. Uchiha's office, wondering all the way what it could be he wanted to talk to me about.

-32-

Mr. Uchiha's secretary was nowhere to be found when I reached his office, doubtless already off to enjoy the school's spring break in their own way, but the headmaster's inner office door was wide open, and I could hear him typing away at a keyboard inside.

“Mr. Uchiha?”

“Miss Henderson! Please, do come in.”

The last time I had been in Mr. Uchiha's office he had been stressed and frazzled, and even though I had been trying to find an opportunity to talk to him again since the incident with Professor Swift the two of us had never seemed to catch each other at a good time. Now, though, I could instantly see how much more relaxed Mr. Uchiha was than the last time we had talked, and he gave me a happy smile as soon as I stepped through his door.

“I'm glad you made it. I've been meaning to talk to you for some time. How are your classes going?”

“Good,” I said, taking one of the seats across from his desk and sinking into its softness. “I was expecting more trouble, to be honest.”

“Your records show you're maintaining a 3.8 average. I'm very proud of that, as is your father. He's been calling the school every couple of weeks to keep up with what's going on with you. You should be proud to have such a caring father.”

“Thank you, sir,” I said, unable to keep a grin from spreading across my face at the news. We'd talked to each other at least once a week since Christmas break, but I had been unaware he had been calling the school too.

“How has your extra study period been? I have a temporary replacement coming in after spring break until the Professor returns, but I'm sure you and your classmates haven't suffered too much in the class's absence?”

I started to shake my head, then froze. Had he just said what I thought he had said? “Professor Swift is returning?”

Mr. Uchiha nodded. “I understand there have been rumors circulating that he has quit. Given his reputation with the student body at the moment and the uncertain nature of his return I thought it prudent not to argue. He is, in fact, on a temporary leave of absence. With any luck he will be back at the beginning of next year a changed man, and it's all thanks to you.” Mr. Uchiha was smiling at me, obviously happy with the outcome of our bit of sneakiness, though I was still confused.

“I thought I'd driven him off,” I admitted, keeping my eyes pointed down toward the floor.

“No, you didn't drive him off, though you did embarrass him.”

“Oh. Umm... sorry?”

Mr. Uchiha laughed, shaking his head. “Don't be. I have confidence in the professor's ability to teach, but he most certainly needed to be taken down a peg or two. With any luck he will return with a better outlook on life. For now our sister school has agreed to lend us one of their teachers to fill his place.”

Now I was even more confused. “Sister school?”

“Of course! Silver Valley Academy for Girls. Didn't you know?”

“I had no idea, sir.”

He nodded. “Most students don't, though I expect that to change in a couple of years when we start an exchange program of sorts. No worries, bringing in female students will have no effect on the Princess program, unless it's to strengthen it.”

“How?” I asked, now genuinely curious.

“The Princesses will be our first exchange students, only for a few weeks. In exchange, they will send over a handful of their Princes for us to host during the same time.”

“Princes. You mean....”

“You didn't think we could truly promote equality and acceptance just with one side of the gender divide, did you?” He asked. I started to ask another question, but Mr. Uchiha waved me off and said nothing more, but gave me a knowing look.

-33-

I returned to my room, going over my new knowledge of the inner workings of Kingston in my head and still not being able to straighten any of it out. The fact that Kingston had a sister school just for girls made me wonder why Sarah had never transferred there, until it occurred to me that if I hadn't known about it it was entirely possible that Sarah didn't, either. I had my hand on the knob of my own door when I changed my mind and went down one more doorway, knocking on Sarah's door instead.

“The door's open,” she said, and when she saw me open the door Sarah immediately rushed over and wrapped me in a hug. “Becky! You sure you don't want to just skip visiting your dad and come home with me?” She asked wth a puppy-dog pout that only months ago would have broken my will almost immediately. I had since grown immune to the look, though, perhaps from over-exposure.

“Hah! I think not. This'll be the first time I've ever seen my dad's place, and I'm looking forward to it.”

“Alright then. But if you change your mind....”

“You're on my speed dial,” I told her with a grin, giving her another quick squeeze. “That's not why I came over here, though.”

“Ulterior motives, huh? Spill.”

“Did you know Kingston had a sister school?”

Sarah nodded, turning back to her own packing. “Yep. Silver Valley. Doesn't everyone?”

“I didn't.”

“Oh. And now you're wondering...” she trailed off, obviously slightly uncomfortable.

“Umm, yeah. Why didn't you transfer?”

Sarah sighed, turning around and plopping down on top of a pile of clothes and giving me a wary look. “Promise you won't laugh at me?”

“Of course!” I said without a pause, holding my pinky out to her as a reminder of Thanksgiving break. She smiled at that and linked pinkies with me. When she let go she fell back on her bed with another sigh.

“It's too far away. They don't go into Persistence on their breaks, because they're on the other side of the state, so it would be harder for me to see my family, a LOT harder. Plus, silly as it is, Kingston Academy looks better on your transcripts, despite both schools scoring nearly identically on most tests. Besides, Leslie's here,” she admitted with a blush, and I had to giggle at her.

“Okay, I was just curious.”

“Why?” She asked, sitting back up. “You thinking about transferring next semester?” Her voice had a note of worry in it.

“What? No! I only just found out about the school, and I was curious. And why would I transfer anyway?”

Sarah shrugged, but gave me a look that clearly said I should know why.

“Sarah....”

“Becky, I know what you're about to say. You're not like me. You're right. But.”

“But what?” I asked, honestly curious about what she was about to say.

“But... I think you might be. Eventually. Maybe. I don't know,” she groaned, collapsing back on the bed again. “Just... if you are, promise you won't leave me alone here, alright?”

I shook my head, laughing. “You're the one who's graduating next year, not me.”

“True!” She said with a giggle.

I left Sarah alone after that, heading back to my own room to contemplate my luggage again.

Okay, so I wasn't the only one confused by everything going on. I didn't know about what Sarah had said, about me maybe not being like her now but that changing in the future.

I mean, how could I change who I was?

Then again... would it really be a change?

Thinking back over everything that had happened since arriving at the school, I realized that things had been adding up to prove to me that I wasn't stuck having to be either a boy or girl. Sure, everyone thought I was a girl, but if I had been too worried about that a hair cut and some acting lessons could have stopped it. Instead, I'd stuck with the argument that no matter how I was dressed I was the same person.

Was that person a guy or a girl?

Did it really matter?

A grin began to spread across my face as I started packing with a sense of determination.

No, I didn't have an answer to any of my questions. I'd only been doing the whole girl thing for a few months, after all. What I did have was the opportunity to decide, an opportunity most people never had.

Regardless of what I chose, I had friends. I had a boyfriend who liked me. Sure, we might drift apart, but that wouldn't be because of me choosing to be a boy or a girl. I had a job that paid me well for doing next to nothing most of the time, and I had a school I was growing to love.

Would I be a boy next year? A girl? What about in the long run? I had no idea. I knew about what would happen when spring break was over – I was already committed there – but as to the rest of my life, that was a long way away. Why should I rush a decision?

“I'll find out soon enough,” I said out loud, zipping up my duffel bag and dropping it next to my knapsack at the foot of the bed.

For the first time all year, it was a liberating phrase instead of a confusing one.

(End of Part 11)

(The End of Princess For Hire: The Second Semester)

---

Welp, that's all folks! I hope everyone is happy with the way the story turned out. I know a lot of people were hoping for an ending that defined who Beck/y would be for the rest of their life, but really, s/he's fourteen years old, going on fifteen. There's all the time in the world to come to a decision, and no better place to take the chance to learn what that decision should be than Kingston Academy.

Now that the base story is complete, be sure to give me overall opinions about events in the comments. I read every comment, even if I don't respond to every one, and I have taken user response into consideration up to this point, and will take it even further as I work on editing the story for e-publication.

Also, now that the story is complete, I'm seriously considering opening the universe to other writers. Kingston Academy is ripe for the expansion of the current cast, or even the creation of new students! Since I started writing the story every student at the school would have graduated by now, so if anyone wishes to start working on an incoming class of 2014/2015, just let me know if you're interested! Plus, with the inclusion of the sister school in the mix now (I had the idea, and I just had to add it, sorry!) that opens the gates for even more adventures!

This has been quite a journey, hasn't it?

Kingston Academy Shorts #1: The Laundry Incident

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • Caught with Consequences
  • Crime / Punishment
  • School or College Life

Other Keywords: 

  • Princess For Hire

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Kingston Academy Shorts

#1: The Laundry Incident

By Melanie E.

For Julian Stone, signing up to be a Princess has been a stone gas. But when a simple prank goes horribly wrong, is this Princess man enough to own up?

-==-

It was cruel.

It was diabolical.

It was... absolutely... perfect.

"Muahahahaha," I chuckled, in my best Evil Mastermind laugh. I had spent years practicing it, and it was getting pretty good, if I do say so myself.

If anything deserved an Evil Mastermind laugh, it was this. I opened the bag and peeked at what was inside, then gave Robert a raised eyebrow. "Kinky."

"Hey, it's what you asked for. If anyone asks, though--"

"You were never here, we never spoke, and no money exchanged hands," I said, rolling my eyes. It wasn't the first time I'd used Robert as the middle man to get materials for one of my pranks, and I was used to his paranoia.

He sneered down at the bag he'd handed me, not entirely able to hide the blush that was creeping into his cheeks. "Wouldn't that have been easier for you to pick up anyway?"

"Who, me?" I asked in false innocense, putting a hand on my breastbone. "Not really," I followed in a more normal tone. "People get suspicious when I pick up anything out of the ordinary."

Robert snorted at that, but as he turned around and walked away I just barely heard him say "I can't imagine why!"

I idly considered what kind of prank I could play on him in the future, but for only a moment. After all, I had far more entertaining Evil to perpetrate.

-==-

"You sure about this Jules?"

"Yes I'm sure! Or do you not want the fifty bucks?"

"No! I want it! It's just...."

"Just what?"

"Why?"

Grrrr. Why do people have to question my plans anyway, when blind obedience is so much easier? "Because," I said into my phone, "she's the newbie, and the newbie gets pranked. Plus I'm not sure what's going on between her and my brother, and it's kinda creeping me out."

"So you're gonna--"

"YES. Now, are you in or not?"

"...Fine."

"Good," I confirmed before hanging up. This was turning into a singularly expensive prank, but I was certain the outcome would be wonderfully and hilariously gratifying. Using middle-men would keep things from getting linked back to me easily, and if everything went well the looks on Becky's face for weeks to come would be priceless.

-==-

The call had finally come in letting me know it was time to act, and I was more than ready. Just one phone call to make, and everything would be set. I took a deep breath before dialing the number for the laundry room, spending the time between rings wondering impatiently why Beck didn't have a cell phone.

"Hello?"

"Becky?" I asked, fighting back a snerk at the frustrated sigh from the other end. "Hey, this is Jules. Can you come up to my room for a moment?"

"I'm kinda in the middle of laundry. Can it wait?"

"It won't take a moment. Please?"

"I, ah... alright. Be right up."

"Great, thanks."

As soon as the line went dead I switched over to my texting screen and sent the message. Any time now....

*knockknockknock*

I opened the door to find an annoyed-looking Beck glaring at me, arms crossed and hip cocked. How does this kid think she even vaguely looks like a guy? I mean, even in scruffy jeans and a baggy tee I couldn't see anything but a Becky in front of me.

"You wanted me?"

"YES! Come in for a sec. You're in Johnson's first period American Lit class, right?" I didn't wait for an answer before continuing. "I have it third period, and I was wondering if you could help me out a bit?"

On the one hand, it was a valid distraction. On the other, American Lit was not and never would be my strongest subject, so why not kill two birds with one stone?

"Alright, I guess. What's the problem?"

"Well, we're reading 'To Kill a Mockingbird,' and it's just...."

With that, the conversation was off. I was surprised at how good Beck actually was, she'd obviously spent a lot of time reading and had a great comprehension of the book -- way better than mine at least. Beck was thoroughly distracted from even thinking about her laundry, and for the briefest of moments I felt a twinge of regret over what I was planning to put her through. Maybe I shouldn't have gone so far to prank her after all?

The more we worked the more guilty I felt, until finally I couldn't handle it any more. "Beck?"

"Yeah?"

"I need to--"

*BZZZZBZZZZBZZZZ*

"I think you have a text."

"Damnit!" I said, picking up my phone. As soon as I saw the message on my screen, though, my anger vanished, and I froze.

"What's wrong?"

Then the fire alarm went off.

-==-

"Mister Stone."

"Yes, Mister Uchiha."

"Ummhmm." The headmaster was sat behind his desk with his fingers steepled, glaring at me. I'd had to put up with this on a few occasions before, but he'd never looked this pissed before. Plus, this was the first time I wasn't sure the cause had been worth it.

"Two dryers, one washer, repairs to both the wall and floor as well as electrical, plus several students' clothes. This is, I believe, your most expensive 'prank' yet."

"Yessir," I said, bowing my head and staring at the floor.

"And all of that due to this," he said, dropping what little remained of the plastic bag that had held a variety of crotchless lace panties and g strings before it has been unceremoniously dropped behind one of the dryers in the laundry room when my planter freaked over someone walking in right before he replaced Beck's underwear with its contents.

A dryer that had, apparently, had a minor short in a wire that was aggravated when the bag bumped it.

Then caught fire.

"Yessir?"

"And you admit to this all being your idea?"

"It wasn't meant to--"

"I SHOULD HOPE NOT," Mr. Uchiha said in a forceful voice, not quite a yell, but right on the edge of being one. "Mr. Stone...."

"I'll pay for everything, sir. Really," I added, when he gave me another glare. "Just please don't kick me out."

"Kick you out?" He asked, and for the first time since I had stepped into his office the anger on his face gave way to a look of confusion. "Mr. Stone, if I wanted to remove you from the school you would already be gone."

"But with all the damage I thought--"

"Your education is worth more than the damage, Mr. Stone, and I've seen your work enough times to know that this is nothing like what you'd planned. If I'd thought for a moment you or one of your conspirators would have done this on purpose, we wouldn't be having this conversation at all."

I felt myself start to collapse in relief.

"That said," he continued, freezing me again. "You are being held responsible, Mr. Stone, and this WILL go on your record. I'll accept your payment for all damages. On top of that, your visitation privileges for town have been revoked for this semester, and you're lucky I'm not removing you from the Princess program. This is NOT the conduct we expect of you."

"Yessir."

"And one more thing."

"Sir?"

"Let's keep the source of this disruption quiet, shall we? I don't think it would do you any good if this got out, not even to Mister Henderson. He's lucky enough only one of the loads to be destroyed was his."

"No sir," I agreed. When Beck had found out that some of the clothes that had been destroyed had included his one pair of uniform pants, he'd been ready to murder someone.

"Good. Now go to your room; you're confined there until tomorrow morning."

I didn't have an escort back to my room, but I didn't need one. I'd never had a prank go this badly wrong before, and it was oddly worse that I was banned from letting Beck know what happened. There had to be something I could do to help, at least a little bit.

I might have been banned from leaving my room, but I still had my phone. I'd left it in my room for the talk with Mr. Uchiha, but as soon as I got back I had a phone call to make.

"Hey, Robert. No, not another prank, I promise. Can you get hold of a pair of uniform pants for me?"

-==-
End
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NOTES: Welp, here it is, the first Kingston Academy Shorts piece I've worked out. If it isn't entirely obvious, I've gotten a little out of practice again, so I'm not really proud of this one, but it's been running through my head for a little while, and I thought some people might find it a fun little addition to the PFH universe. Enjoy!

Kingston Academy Shorts #2: Ruby's Valentine

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing

Character Age: 

  • Teenage or High School

TG Themes: 

  • School or College Life
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Girls' School / School Girl
  • Valentine's Day

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
Kingston Academy Shorts
#2: Ruby's Valentine

By Melanie E.

Rudy/Ruby has been having a heck of a time with the Princess program. It all seemed like such a great opportunity to indulge, but it turns out it's a lot of work! Add in a mysterious valentine, and what's a boy/girl to do?

-==-

Holy crap.

Holy crap holy crap holy crap.

Crap.

"Hey."

"Eeep!" I squeaked as I spun around, my skirt flaring just so when I did. It was the type of twirl I'd spent hours in front of the mirror practicing, that perfect feminine twirl that comes close but doesn't quite show off your undies every time you do it. For the moment, though, I couldn't really appreciate it.

There, standing behind me, was a boy.

A tall boy. Looking down at me with concern.

Gulp.

"You okay?" He asked in the same scratchy-cracked voice he'd used before. "You just look like you've seen a ghost."

"Eeep," I said again, as fantastic with words as always.

"...Oh-kay. I'm just, umm... bye," he said, giving me one last worried look before hurrying off, leaving me alone in the hallway to yet again stare at the surprise I'd found waiting for me in front of my door.

It was a small vase, with a couple of pink roses in it, and an attached envelope.

An envelope with my name on it.

Holy crap.

Holy.

Crap.

Who'd give ME a valentine?

I spun around again and threw my door open, then just as quickly closed it behind me as soon as I was inside.

I needed to calm down. Calm down calm down calm down.

Deep breath. Hold it in. Let it out.

Whoosh.

Whew.

Okay.

A little calmer, I sat down at my desk and loaded up a few stories on my laptop I'd been meaning to catch up on, something to keep me occupied while I had a good hard thunk.

Joining the Princess program had been a dream come true. I'd never really fit in at my old schools, and we'd moved around so much because of my dad's job as a transportation engineer that the friends I would make had always been the temporary kind. I'd always been the small boy, the "girly" boy, and I hadn't thought that a private school would do a lot to change that. Dad had insisted, though, talking about how great Kingston had been to him as a boy. I'd been willing to come just for the chance to stay at the same school for more than a year or two.

Then I'd found out about the Princess program.

This... this couldn't be for real, could it? I'd asked myself that countless times after we were told about it at the first assembly and introduced to the "girls" who were a part of it.

Most people thought being small and girly was a bad thing, but it was one of the only things I'd ever really liked about myself, so much so that I'd made it a goal of mine to stay just that as much as I could. I'd skip meals, I'd go out of my way NOT to do things the other boys did just in case it made me more like them. It wasn't that I didn't like them or anything, but there was just something about being feminine that had always called to me. Mom had always been okay with it, and Dad had given up once he'd realized how much it upset me when he tried to make me change, so I'd grown up getting to spend time playing dress-up with my sister and indulging myself any time I wanted, so long as we were at home at least.

I'd thought that would all have to end coming to Kingston, though I'd packed a few things just in case. Then the Princess program was revealed, and I knew, just KNEW, that I'd be joining.

That had all been months ago.

It turns out that HAVING to dress up wasn't as much fun as GETTING to. Oh, sure, I still enjoyed it, but doing it in front of people other than my own family was so much more nerve-wracking, and my nerves had never been the greatest in the first place. I've always been a bit of a clutz, but the Princess Program seemed to bring out the worst of that, made all the worse by the boys.

Oh, goodness, the boys.

A lot of them were either indifferent or outright ignored me. I could deal with them okay. A few were a bit hostile, and I could deal with them too, even if I preferred not to. But it was the OTHER boys that made me nervous. I was used to being looked at by people trying to figure me out, but I wasn't used to getting Looked at by people trying to CHECK me out.

It was kind of a thrill, I'll admit, but it was also really really scary too.

And now this.

I closed my useless laptop distraction and instead turned my attention back to the envelope.

The envelope that had a card inside.

The card that had a heart on it.

Gulp.

I hadn't opened the card yet. I didn't want to open the card. But I did. But I really, really didn't.

But I really really really did.

Whoo. Okay. Come on Rube. You can do this. Buckle up and be a man about this.

Be a man? Hah! Not in this blouse!

It took another minute to work up the nerve to pull the card out of the envelope. It was a nice card, not expensive or anything, but it was very pretty; the kind I'd seen lots of guys get for girls they wanted to impress.

Double gulp.

Was there a name? Not on the outside of the card, no writing of any kind: just the flowery lacy heart design on a pale pink background. Likewise the envelope was bare except for my name, room number, and the logo of one of the florists in Persistence.

No choice. If I wanted to know who it was from I had to open it.

I started to lift the front.

*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*

"Eeep!" I squeaked for a third time in the last fifteen minutes, the card falling out of my hands.

"Hey, Ruby! Ready for dinner?" Came the muffled but distinctively deep voice of my dorm-mate through my door. I'd asked them to always knock on the front door rather than using the bathroom one, 'cause it might make me jump, but not nearly as much as the fright of having someone trying to climb out of the bathroom would.

Sigh. "Yeah, coming Amanda!"

The valentine would have to wait. I gave it one last weary glare as I stood up and--

"Oof."

-==-

"You're such a clutz, Ruby."

"Yeah, yeah," I groused, though the nasal sound of it made Amanda smile. My nose took entirely too much abuse from the floor.

Dinner was almost normal for me. Almost, except that I was even more paranoid than usual.

Was that boy looking at me oddly? What about him? Could it have been one of the other Princesses? None of them seemed the least concerned about my unusual behavior. Then again, me being lost in my own world during meals wasn't actually that unusual, come to think of it.

Despite my distraction I made it through the meal without stabbing myself in the hand with my fork more than once. Sadly, though, I was none the wiser as to who could have sent the valentine, though I did get a few nervous smiles from boys when I must have spent too long scrutinizing them.

I begged out early and made my way toward the doors out of the cafeteria, wondering if maybe leaving on my own would get the sender to follow me, then desperately hoping it wouldn't. Luckily for me I remained unfollowed and made it back to my dorm safely.

I had to know.

I just had to know.

I picked the card up and started to open it again.

Then I dropped it with a shiver.

Come ON, Rube! You can do this!

I picked it up again.

I stared at it.

The heart eyelessly stared back, taunting me.

With one last gulp in preparation, I opened the card, and read the cursive inside.

Dear Ruby,

Hey hon! We love you, and we're glad you've found a group of friends you feel comfortable with. He might not always be able to show it, but your dad's proud of everything you've accomplished, and the person you've become. WE'RE proud of you.

Your sister sends her regards as well, and hopes that you'll have lots of great stories to tell her when the two of you are home for the summer.

We know how nervous you can get, so we hope this card can give you a little mid-semester pick-me-up. And call home! We miss you!

Love,

Mom, Dad, and Sis

I read the card again.

One more time.

Once more, just to be sure.

Mom. And Dad. They'd sent me a Valentine's card.

I fought back the sniffles, but it wasn't any good, and soon I was laying flat on my back on my bed, tears running down my face.

The cry didn't last long, but it did a ton of good. Once I felt like I could talk again, I immediately picked up my phone and hit the first speed dial.

"Hey, Mom? Yeah, it's me. I got the card...."

-==-

So, I wanted to do something for Valentine's day, but I spent all day trying to come up with an idea that appealed to me, and buh. Nothing. Not until 10 O'clock in the evening. With just two hours left to go, I started typing, aaaand... here ya go, another Kingston Academy Short. I hope people enjoy it, and maybe this will give a bit of a glimpse into just why Ruby is the way he/she is :P

I hope people are liking these. It might not be as good as, say, an official sequel, or getting the final book version with the Sarah bonus story, but hopefully these are at least worthwhile distractions. Let me know what ya think, either way; I love reading comments, and would love to know how you feel about these.

If you comment, more will come. IF YOU COMMENT, MORE WILL COME.

Melanie E.

Kingston Academy Shorts #3: The REAL End

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Fiction

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
Kingston Academy Shorts
#3: The REAL End

By Melanie E.

Want to know how Princess For Hire really ends? Here's your chance to find out!

APRIL 2nd EDIT: This was an April Fool's Joke, so if you're reading it after April 1st, keep that in mind.

-==-

"--ck? Beck? Are you alright? Beck!"

"Ugh... mwu?" I groaned as I sat up, looking around myself in confusion.

"James, call the doctor! Honey, are you okay?"

"I dink fo," I said, then spat our a mouthful of something wet and warm.

"Oh, thank goodness! Don't talk, hon, you'll get blood in your mouth."

?

As my consciousness returned my face began to scream at me in pain. I reached up to feel what was wrong, and found a pulpy mess where my nose should have been. I looked over to the side, and there stood my stepbrother with a bloody bat in his hand and a look of horror on his face.

Was it all just a dream? But what about Sarah? Leslie?

Andrew?

I started to cry as I laid there, partially from the pain and partially because of everything I'd lost.

No, no, no....

"NO!" I screeched as I shot up in my seat, the belt barely restraining me as several of the other plane passengers around me jumped or screeched in shock.

"Ma'am, what's the matter?" The stewardess asked me with concern, rushing down the isle.

"Wha?" I grumbled, my eyes hardly able to focus though I was now wide awake. Reaching up I felt my small, perfectly not-bloody nose. I was still on the plane to Dad's for spring break. I was still Beck Henderson, Kingston Academy Princess.

I was still getting called a girl.

"Umm... bad dream?" I offered, and she gave me an understanding look and a pat on the shoulder.

"Okay, hon. We're about to land anyway."

"Thanks," I told her, then leaned back in my seat and rubbed my eyes.

There's nothing worse than a Dallas ending.

-=End=-

HAH! It was all just a dream! And THAT was all just a dream too!

Okay, so this is a pretty lame April Fools' Day joke. Sorry.

Melanie E.

Snippets Et Al

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Organizational: 

  • Series Page

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Snippets 2

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Snippets 2

Melanie Ezell

Another pair of short pieces, unconnected but too short to really post on their own. Hope you like 'em!

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-The Ivory Bangle-

It was a beautiful object to look at, Darren thought as he turned the clunky piece of jewelry over and over in his hands. The intricate engravings covering the creamy surface depicted a flowing flower and vines motif, and the weight felt comforting in his hands. But why had his grandmother willed it to him, of all people?

Darren had loved his grandmother dearly. Of all the grandchildren on his father's side of the family, he had been her favorite, or at least so she claimed when the two of them were alone together on the frequent occasions he had made his way to the home to visit her. He had suspected this had only been her loneliness talking since hardly any of the rest of the family ever seemed to visit her, but it still made him feel special. He always loved talking to her, listening to her tales of world war two, growing up during war time, and how different things had been as a teenager in the fifties than they were now. She always had a story about his father to tell him as well, giving him the sense of having known the man despite the fact that he had died shortly after Darren was born.

He was the only grandchild at her funeral, and it had hurt him deeply to see that he was one of only a handful of relatives to show up at all. The will reading had been a different matter all together, however, with every member of the family showing up to claim any piece of her estate they could get their hands on. Much of what she had owned went to her children, as was to be expected, but the only other person to receive anything was Darren. He had been surprised to receive anything at all, and per her wishes had held off from opening the wooden box he had been handed until he was alone. Once in his car, he had removed the decorative lid to find the bangle sitting there, wrapped in black velvet. She had worn this every day, as far as he could remember, and the significance of the gift touched him deeply.

Darren felt the hot tears burning his eyes again as he thought of her, and absently lifted his arm to wipe his face, knocking the box to the floorboards of his car. He cursed himself as he bent down to retrieve it, to find that the velvet had fallen out, uncovering an envelope taped to the bottom of the box, with 'Darren' written across its face in bold letters. Carefully, he removed the note from within, and began to read.

'Dear Darren,

First of all, I want to let you know how much I love you. I always looked forwards to your visits to me, and near the end, it was wanting to see you again that gave me the strength to continue on. I am sorry that I am not around to see you any more, but one day, I am sure we will be together to talk again.

I wanted you to have this bangle for a reason. While the family does not like to talk about it, I know you have heard about why much of the family ignores or hates me. After my wife, your Grandmother Edith, died, I thought long and hard about my decision before going ahead with my transition. It was a difficult decision, and I am not going to say I have never regretted it when faced with the disapproval and lack of understanding from my own children, but I felt it was necessary, and in the end, those regrets were short lived.

Of all our family, you father, and after his death, you and your mother, were the only ones who never held my decision against me, and who always accepted me no matter what. This is why I have given you this bangle- it belonged to my late wife, Edith, and has for years been my way of remembering and honoring her. She knew of my fight with who I was inside, and before her death, it was she who told me to pursue my happiness. This bangle has been passed down through her family for generations, to the eldest grand daughter. On her death bed, she gave it to me, to hold until it was time to pass it on to our own eldest granddaughter. Unfortunately, none of your cousins have proven worthy of the gift this bracelet really is, so I am passing the legacy to you.

Thank you, my beautiful grandson, for all the love you have given me. Please, be happy in your own life, and never let the prejudices of those around you steer you away from who you are.

Love,

Grandma Patty'

Darren smiled through the tears after reading the letter, and carefully folded it before returning it to the envelope. Replacing the note and velvet within the box, he ran his fingers over the bangle before placing it inside as well and closing the lid. He started the car and slowly pulled out of the parking lot of the lawyer's office, making his way home. He had much to prepare for. He would take his grandmother's advice, and live to make himself happy.

And he had a dress at home that would match the bangle perfectly.

---

-Blues-

People come from miles around to hear her. Every weekend she does two sets, both to packed houses, and always performed in the same perfect style.

The lights dim, and she steps forwards from the back. Mickey at the piano, Fry with his steel guitar, and Serena on the drums are all in spotlight, wearing their customary white suits, but she prefers to start her shows in the darkness. With the opening wailing riff on the guitar, the lounge goes quiet, and the show begins. Swaying from side to side, she moves to the music, her silhouette undulating across the stage. After the first few bars, the crowd is set, and she begins to sing in her deep, breathy voice. Today she has chosen to open with 'Stormy Monday'. "They call it Stormy Monday; but Tuesday's just as bad..."

As the crowd is absorbed by the music, the lights on stage slowly begin to rise in intensity. The sparkle of her silver dress draws the eyes to her, and every night there are gasps from the crowd as guests see her for the first time. Her six foot four frame is intimidating to behold, with her broad shoulders putting the lie to her feminine appearance. Yet none would dare call the creature before them, pouring her heart into the words of the song she sings, anything other than a woman. With tears in her eyes she wails into the microphone before her, and the crowd feels the pain of the music. Her voice, so powerful, is like a siren song, drawing them in and seducing even the hardiest of spirits. They love her, and she loves them. She moves on, bringing just as much spirit into her performance of 'Let's Go Get Stoned'. The sweat pours off her dark skin as she gives it her all, song after song, and at the end of the night, the crowd claps and begs for more. She always gives an encore.

After her performance is finished, she walks into the crowd around the stage and makes her way to the bar. Those who had been cheering for her a moment before part to let her through, some in reverence, others in fear. The bartender always has her drink ready, and she always drinks it in silence. Despite her performance, no customer dares talk to the menacing figure she cuts when off the stage. Were they to, they would find someone caring and compassionate, who appreciates their company and loves to talk. But none ever try. As Mickey, Fry, and Serena finish packing up and approach the bar for their own drinks, they are surrounded by customers applauding their performance and offering to buy them drinks or something more. They pass her a pitying glance as they mingle, but make no effort to join her in her solitude.

At the end of the night, she goes home alone.

Every weekend, she sings the blues. Every week, she lives them. Soon she will know the blues so well, she will have no need to perform at all.

---

Snippets 3

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Short-short < 500 words

Character Age: 

  • Preteen or Intermediate
  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Some more Snippets

By Melanie E.

Another set of super short shorts.

=====
With a Little Love
~

“With a little love,
And some tenderness,
We walk upon the water,
We rise above the mess,
With a little peace...”

Alex bobbed her head as she listened to the song playing over her headphones, never turning her attention from the subject before her as she sketched, sketched, sketched away, the charcoal in her hand scratching pleasantly across the rough surface of the paper. She hummed softly as, stroke after stroke, she brought just a little more life to the drawing.

“Hold my hand,
I want you to hold my hand,
Hold my hand,
I’ll take you to a place where we can be,
Anything we wanna be ‘cause,
I wanna love you,
The best that,
The best that I can...”

She couldn’t wait to see what her fans thought of her latest work. She had signed more sketches at the last convention than she could believe, every one to a fan whose eyes lit up when they saw her in the room. And for a brief moment, she was happy. Her fans were there, cheering her on, and she could forget for however brief a time all the pain she felt.

“Well I was wasted,
And I was wastin’ time...”

That’s why she did her artwork, after all. They loved it. She loved it. It was her escape. When she had started, webcomics had still been a fairly new field, and what better way to speak your mind and stay in the background at the same time than to be online? As the years had gone by, though, she had increased in popularity, and now what once was her way to be herself but stay out of the eyes of critics had become the only place she could escape to get away from them. She laughed at the cruel irony that by trying to find a way to express herself, she had inevitably shoved herself even more deeply down inside to keep her problems out of the public eye.

A hand on her shoulder pulled her attention from her sketch pad. Turning around, she found a member of the hotel staff holding a message for her.

“Mr. Bradford, they’re expecting you in meeting room B for the talk on line theory.”

With a sigh, Alex stood up. Adjusting her mental focus, he packed his things away. Mike Bradford, webcomics genius, made his way to talk to the aspiring artists who had come to see ‘the man behind the ‘Alex Nova’ comic series’.

=====
Happiness
~

"Mom, can you please do my hair?"

"Sure, honey, come here."

Leslie sat down and lovingly braided her child's long, silky hair. Aiden had begged her to let it grow long, and she had never been able to deny her child anything. Aiden was the last thing she had to remember her husband by, and she would be damned if anything interrupted their happiness.

"There you go, sweetie. All done."

"Thanks, Mom," Aiden said as he turned around, giving her a wonderfully tight hug. "Can I go down to Jessica's house to play now?"

Leslie nodded, and sent him along down the street to his best friend's house. She wondered what they would do today, and how careful they would be to cover their tracks. She was sure Aiden had no idea she knew about his dressing up in Jessica's clothes while the two of them played, but Jessica's mother had made sure to let her know the first time it happened. She was fine with it, so long as he was happy, and let her friend know not to bother them about it.

While she had the time, she started on cleaning their small home. As she was putting away the laundry in her son's room, she was less than surprised to find several pairs of young girl's underwear in his bottom drawer. Smiling, she carefully hid them again and went back to her work.

Eight years old was so young. She would love her child forever, no matter what, boy or girl.

So long as Aiden was happy.

Snippets

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • 500 < Short Story < 7500 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Melanie E.

A pair of short pieces I thought up last night. They could go many places- or nowhere at all. It's all up to your imagination to fill in the details I've left out.

---

-Parenting-

A large, balding man wearing a shabby suit and gold rimmed glasses greeted Angela as she stepped forwards through the open door of the stuffy office, the smell of cheap air freshener almost, but not quite, covering up the odor of stale cigar smoke. "Good afternoon, Mrs. Wood. You are Alex's mother, correct?"

She took the old principal's offered hand and shook it before carefully taking the available seat opposite his desk with a frown. "Yes sir. I'm sorry, but why did you call me in today? Is Alex in some sort of trouble?"

"Well... not exactly, Mrs. Wood." The principal lowered himself into his office chair, a worried look on his face. "Mrs. Wood- Angela, if you don't mind me asking, have you talked to your son at all about the differences between boys and girls?"

Angela nodded. "Sir, with all due respect, Alex is eleven years old. Yes, we have talked about it a few times. Why do you ask?"

The principal sighed, rubbing his forehead. "Perhaps it would be easiest just to show you, Ma'am." Reaching into a folder sitting upon his cluttered desk, the principal withdrew a single sheet of paper and handed it to Angela. Slightly confused, she took the sheet of loose leaf and began to read.

-MR. GRIFFINS:

I MUST INFORM YOU THAT I WILL BE WITHDRAWING MY CHILD FROM YOUR SCHOOL. I REFUSE TO PLACE MY CHILD UNDER THE CARE OF A FACILITY THAT WOULD ALLOW HIM TO BE EXPOSED TO INDIVIDUALS SUCH AS THIS ALEX WOOD. THAT YOUR SCHOOL WOULD ALLOW A BOY TO ATTEND CLASSES IN DRESSES AND SKIRTS IS BAD ENOUGH, BUT TO THEN PUNISH MY CHILD FOR SAYING HIS BEHAVIOR IS WRONG IS UNACCEPTABLE. I CAN ASSURE YOU THAT I AM NOT THE ONLY PARENT OF A CHILD AT THIS SCHOOL WHO FEELS THAT ALLOWING SUCH A THING IS INEXCUSABLE, AND UNTIL YOU HAVE REMOVED THIS ALEX WOOD FROM YOUR FACILITIES MY CHILD WILL NOT SET FOOT ON YOUR SCHOOL'S GROUNDS AGAIN.

The signature at the bottom of the letter had been edited out of the photocopy she held, but Angela was sure she knew who had written it. Without a word she handed the sheet back to the principal.

"Mrs. Wood, while under state law I cannot legally deny your child his right to attend our school, this is not the first letter like this we have received. It has become somewhat of a problem as well for our teachers to watch out and prevent your son from being bullied by the other children."

"Sir, I hope you aren't suggesting that I try and find another school. We have discussed it before, and Alex wants to remain with her friends here."

Picking up a pen from his desk, the principal began tapping out a nervous rhythm. "I understand, ma'am, but there is an excellent school just on the other side of the city-"

"An hour's bus ride from our home, sir, and it is well known that Franklin's curriculum is the better of the two. Do you want me to sacrifice my child's education because some parents are uncomfortable with who she is?"

"Ma'am, I simply think that your son could-"

Angela had had enough, and stood up angrily. "My DAUGHTER, Sir. I do believe we have already had this discussion with the school board about how the teachers and staff here were supposed to refer to her."

"Be that as it may, Ma'am, Alex is still a boy under his clothes, and the parents of our other students have objected to his crossdressing on campus."

"Very well, then, Sir. I see the issue."

The principal sighed in relief. "I'm glad you see what I've been dealing with, Ma'am."

Angela grinned unpleasantly. "Quite. I'll be calling the school board tonight to lodge an official complaint."

"What?" The principal screeched, but Angela's back was already disappearing through the office door.

---

-Without a Doubt-

"...Man and Wife. You may kiss the bride."

I clapped along with the rest of the crowd as I watched my two best friends in the whole world embrace one another and kiss passionately. My mind has always loved to wander, and as I watched from my place as best man I mused on how, if things had only been a little different, I might have been the one wearing the wedding dress.

Greg was the first person I ever told about myself, back when we were still in high school. Like the great friend he was, he accepted me without a problem when I told him about how who I was on the outside didn't match the me on the inside. We even tried dating a few times, but it didn't work out in the end. There was always that knowledge that things weren't what they seemed, and it made both of us uncomfortable.

In college, we met Mary. It didn't take long for the three of us to form an inseparable team, and within weeks I was 'out' to her as well, the two of them giving me every opportunity they could to be myself, never laughing at how rediculous I would look at first when I tried to dress up, and both supporting me fully when I started low doses of hormones. I gave the dating thing a shot with Mary, too, but we had the same problems I had with Greg, and called it quits good naturedly after not too long.

The two of them hooking up wasn't really a surprise, and they set the wedding for the week after graduation. Greg wanted me to be best man, and Mary wanted me to be her maid of honor, both of which I had at first refused, but let myself be talked into it when Arnold got sick and couldn't make it. So, here I am, standing around with my breasts strapped down wearing an ill fitting suit and uncomfortable shoes, witnessing what's one of the happiest days of my life.

At the reception afterwards, Greg's mom came up to me and smiling took my arm, leading me out to the dance floor. It was a slower number, and she always said I was one of the best dance partners she ever had. While we were swaying slowly to the music, she leaned in close to me and began to whisper.

"You know, I expected for the longest time it would be you and Greg getting married, especially with how close you two were in high school. If you two had not told me what was going on, well, the rumor mill was pretty entertaining your senior year."

I just grinned, as I was sure it was. "They make a great couple, though."

She nodded. "That they do." Then she smiled. "It's too bad I didn't get a chance to see you in a bridesmaid dress, though."

I just cringed. I've never been one for dresses, and lime green just made it worse. "But then I wouldn't be able to dance with you, Ma'am."

I could feel her laugh as she hugged me. "I wouldn't have cared either way. You're like my own kid, Sam, you know that."

I hugged her back. Later that night, I danced with Mary, the Maid of Honor, and even Greg, which brought laughs from the crowd around us. It was great to be around the people who mattered the most in my life- no matter who I was.

---

Well, there ya go, people, two new mini-stories, low on details but hopefully they can entertain you for a little bit :)

Snippets 4: The Big One

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

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  • Restricted Audience (r)

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  • Fiction

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Snippets 4

By Melanie E.

A Short Introduction:
This volume of Snippets is quite a bit different from the first three. Rather than being short, but complete, stories, this is more of an actual collection of snippets -- pieces of stories I've been working on. Some of these are relatively recent, being born from brainstorming sessions as I try to get myself back into writing. Some of these are years old, and have been mentioned in previous blogs and postings of mine as "works in progress."

All of them, however, have one definite feature in common: they are far from being finished, and I'm not sure if they ever will be.

Therefore, I have decided to post what I have, as is, for reader's enjoyment thereof. Some of these I might attack again at some point in the future, fleshing them out and finishing them off. Perhaps they will appear as something almost completely unrecognizable from what they are here.

Others, if the author is right, I might pass on to another, should someone I think could do a good job of them ask for one.

For now, this is what there is, and this is what readers will get.

Enjoy.

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Java
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"Hi."

I looked up from my laptop at the guy leaning over my table. "Um, hi?"

He turned his head and gave me an odd look for a moment, then began to smile. "I'm sorry, I'll leave you alone."

"No, that's alright," I said, closing my laptop and slipping it into its sleeve. "I wasn't trying to be rude. Go ahead and sit down."

He glanced about before sitting down across from me, then gave me an awkward grin. "To be honest, uh, I had thought you were a girl."

Now it was my turn to grin. "Oh really?" I looked him up and down, and mentally sighed. He was cute, that was for sure. At least six two I would say, with a dark complexion and deep brown eyes, and short cropped black hair, he was just my type. He even had the kind of goatee I always found so attractive on guys, and looked well built to boot.

"Uh, is there a problem?"

I shook my head, clearing it of the erroneous thoughts going through it. "No, nothing." If he had come over because he thought I was a girl, then he was obviously straight, and until I could afford to start seeing a doctor there was nothing I could do to make myself his type. But that was another problem entirely.

"So what were you working on?"

"I was just playing Everia, their wireless is better here than at home."

"Really? I play too. Avian rifleman, you?"

"Fae arcanist," I smirked.

That led us into a discussion of games that helped to ease the awkward tension that had begun to form between us, and before I knew it we had spent more than an hour talking.

"I really need to get going to class," I said apologetically, picking up my laptop sleeve and bag.

"Me too," he said, standing up himself. "What's your name?"

I had an idea that was too intriguing to pass up. "You thought I was a girl at first right?"

He nodded, rubbing the back of his neck in embarrassment.

I looked at my cold cappuccino, then around me at the coffee shop. "You can call me Monica," I said, then left him there with a bewildered look on his face.

~

"So, what's a girl like you doing in a place like this?"

With a grin I closed my book, marking my page with my finger. "Apparently serving as practice for the world's cheesiest lines." I cleared room at the small table for him to set his tray down, taking the opportunity to admire his musculature in the loose basketball jersey he had on.

"It was Monica, right?"

"That's what I said."

He gave me another odd look, then shrugged. "Okay."

I watched as he shoveled food into his mouth, marveling at the massive quantities he was consuming. "You never gave me your name, though," I said, when he finally came up for air.

"I'm Michael," he said, holding his hand across the table to me. I reached out and shook it. "So what's your real name?"

I gave him a hurt look. "You mean Monica isn't good enough for you?"

He laughed. "Alright, then. Monica it is. So, MONICA," he said, emphasizing the name, "what's there to do around here? I just moved down from Brighton, and you're the only person I've talked to besides a couple of my coworkers."

"Where do you work?"

He waved out the window toward the building across the street. "Over there, at the newspaper. I'm the new reporter."

I gave him a disbelieving glance. "You don't look like a newspaper reporter."

"And what exactly is a newspaper reporter supposed to look like?"

I framed my head with my hands. "Fedora. Scruffy beard. Maybe a cigar and a trenchcoat, walks around with a tape recorder and a legal pad all the time."

"HAH! Where did you get an idea like that?"

I shrugged. "From the movies."

"Oh, of course," he said sarcastically. "But seriously, what is there to do around here."

I thought for a moment. "What kinds of things do you like?"

He leaned back, and I was surprised to see the massive pile of food he had brought was already gone. "Well, I like computer games, sports, cheesy horror movies and good music."

I wanted to die. This guy was perfect, and here I was unable to do a thing about it. Damn hormones. "Okay, well, there's 'The Killing Quarter,' that's the arcade up the street, there's a fitness center with open basketball courts downtown, and a local dollar theater that plays some of the worst movies you'll ever see. Not much in the way of music around here, though, besides the bar scene."

He nodded. "Sounds like this place is just about perfect."

"Yeah, it is," I said.

"So, what about you? What do you do?"

I raised the book I still held in my hand and indicated the title.

"'Teaching Through Tenderness?'"

"Yup. I just started at the local elementary school, teaching kindergarten."

He looked me up and down. "You don't look like a kindergarten teacher. They're usually wrinkly old ladies with those weird shaped glasses and a thing for cats."

I chuckled. "I deserved that I guess." Not that I was what you would call an outstanding example of manhood, one of the few things I felt happy about. At five ten I was a bit taller than I would have liked, but the hormones I had been on for the past two months had finally started to show some results, softening my skin, adding weight in my hips, and I had managed just the week before to finish my last session of beard electrolysis. With my shoulder length dirty blonde hair, it was no surprise that he had thought I was a girl when he had seen me the day before. "It's just something I've always wanted to do. Working with kids, I mean. I don't think anybody actually grows up wanting to be a teacher."

"I thought it was pretty common for kids to want to be teachers?"

"Oh, we all say that when we're growing up, but what we really want to be is archaeologists like Indiana Jones, or scientists like Madame Curie, or great writers like Mark Twain."

"Nope!"

"No?"

"Not a bit," he said, grinning from ear to ear. "I wanted to be a reporter, just like Clark Kent."

"And be Superman by night, I bet," I teased, before mentally slapping myself for the flirty tone in my voice. Bad girl!

The confusion from our first meeting was back in his eyes as he stood up, leaving money for his meal -- and, I noticed, mine -- on the table.

"You know..."

"Yes?" I asked when he failed to continue, though I couldn't bring myself to look up at him.

"Monica really does suit you."

With that, he left the diner, leaving me blushing and grinning, wondering when we would next meet again.

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Tickets
~~~~~~~~~<3

Have you ever wanted something so deeply, so badly, that you would do anything in the world to have it?

What would you do if you were given the chance to do exactly that?

"You won?!"

"I won!"

I smiled for Lonnie's benefit, but inside I was seething. He didn't even LIKE Grace Atkins, yet here he was, holding two tickets to her concert. A concert that had been sold out for two weeks.

A concert I had been trying to find tickets for.

"I didn't think you even liked her music. How did you know the answer to the question?"

He gave me a look that said 'really?'

"Really?"

I nodded.

He laughed wickedly. "You're always going on about 'Grace Atkins this' or 'Grace Atkins that,' how was I NOT gonna pick up some of that trivia hanging around you?"

He was still laughing, but I felt my own expression souring. The rat had won the contest because of me!

"I'll give you two hundred bucks for one of the tickets."

"Not on your life."

"Lonnie!"

He backed away from me, waving the tickets in the air like a trophy. "Hey, this is a great opportunity for me! Do you know how many girls would kill for a chance to get to go to this concert?"

"YES. Please, man? Com'mon! Two hundred, PLUS my Xbox!"

"Nope."

"I'll give you ANYthing, just please!" I sniffled, hating myself for wanting to cry. Even before the concert sold out I hadn't been able to lay my hands on any tickets I could afford, and now I was standing mere feet from them, and there was nothing I could do.

Lonnie looked at me, his green eyes flashing as I watched the cogs working in his head. "Anything?"

"Yes!"

Pocketing the tickets, he held up his hand in a boy scout salute. "Do you, Mason Damon Wooster, so promise to do whatever it is I ask of you in order to obtain my extra ticket?"

My hand shot up immediately, but my common sense caught up quickly. I hesitated.

"Well?"

"Lemme think for a moment."

"You got five minutes," he said, keeping his hand in position while checking his watch on his other wrist. I'm sure he would have started whistling the theme to 'Jeopardy' if he could, but Lonnie had never been able to get the hang of whistling.

We had been friends since we were little, growing up next door to one another. We had been born only a week apart to moms who had been best friends since THEY were little kids. We had done just about everything together, and now that we were in college, it had only been natural that we had gone to the same school. He had even agreed to pay half the rent for an off campus apartment to help me out.

On the other hand, Lonnie had a mischievous streak a mile wide. If I agreed to this, there was no telling what he would get me involved in.

Then again, he'd probably talk me into whatever he wanted to do anyhow. He usually did.

"One minute forty-five seconds."

"Deal."

"What?" He held his hand to his ear, immitating being hard of hearing.

With a sigh I held up my hand in a mockery of his own salute. "I, Mason Damon Wooster, do so solemnly swear to do whatever it is that my good, caring friend Lonnie Samus Masterson asks in exchange for a ticket to the Grace Atkins concert."

"You forgot good looking. BUT... I'll let it slide this time," he added when he saw me gearing up for a good scream.

I felt my shoulders slump at the relief of having the ticket. Hey, just 'cause I'm twenty doesn't mean I'm not allowed a good yell every now and then. "So, can I know what I've gotta do now, or are you gonna hold this out for the next time you really need something?"

He shook his head, grinning like the fool I knew he wasn't. "No, I already know exactly what I want you to do."

"What's that?" I asked, feeling my palms grow sweaty as I waited for his answer.

"You have to go as Masey."

Blink.

"You're kidding."

"Them's the breaks, kiddo," he said, giving me a not-ungentle noogie.

Okay, at this point, a little explanation is in order.

I've never been what you would call a 'normal' guy. When we were little, Lonnie would be the one who would play in the mud and run about climbing trees while I watched and laughed, being careful not to get dirty. When we got older, we would take turns choosing activities, him generally picking out toy guns or vehicles while I would go for playing zookeepers with our stuffed animals and pets, or other games of pretend. When we got older and started playing video games, things stopped being so frustrating, though he would still pick the shooting or fighting games while I preferred the building games and RPGs.

It was shortly after we turned thirteen that he had first caught me wearing a dress.

At first I had played it off as another game of pretend, saying I had just been curious and picked it up at the flea market for a couple of bucks. He had merely shrugged, and in exchange for not telling anyone got my help in what was to be the first of a long line of pranks on his older sister that would nearly get us hung on a regular basis.

The second time he caught me, I used the same excuse, and he let it slide.

The third time, I finally admitted to him that I was a girl.

In all the stories I've read online, this was usually the turning point for whether the main character was accepted or hated. In Lonnie's case, he said nothing to me and left the house.

We didn't talk for almost a month after that. I lived each day in terror that Lonnie would tell someone, or beat me up, or worse, keep simply ignoring me.

When he finally did speak to me, his words were simple and to the point.

"So what do I call you when you're dressed as a girl?"

Mason Darla Wooster was quickly shortened to "Masey," and after that any time he would come over and our parents weren't around it would be a toss-up as to which me he hung out with.

That was why we had an off campus apartment. This way, I could be a girl when I needed to without running into roommate problems or similar issues. In exchange, I cooked all our meals and kept the place clean.

Hey, I might be a walking stereotype sometimes, but damnit if I wasn't happy with the arrangement.

The only problem was that I had always refused to go out as a girl.

Since we were sixteen, Lonnie had been trying to convince me I looked good enough to go out. Several times we had almost done it, but something had always come up to prevent it.

The very idea scared the hell out of me.

Back to now...

"You can't be serious, Lonnie. There's no way."

"Alright then. Do you think Jenny would go with me? I hear she likes Grace At-"

"NO!"

He laughed. "Well, then. Either Masey goes, or another girl does. Your choice."

I glared at him.

"Hey, you cut the deal, I'm just laying the terms."

"...I hate you, Lonnie."

"And I love you too. The concert's tomorrow night, but you probably already knew that. Do you have something nice enough to wear?"

Despite my protests, I nodded glibly as Lonnie simply stood there, his ever-so-confident smile making me want to smack him.

Oh, he would pay for this. Believe me, he would pay.

~~~~~~~~~<3

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Not ANOTHER Cheerleading Story!

==

"Hurry up, Evan!"

"I'm coming!" I yelled down the hall after my brother's retreating back.

"No yelling in the house!"

"Sorry Mom!"

It was always like this in the mornings. We were never late, but Adam always had to make everything a competition, and he had proven before that if I was more than five minutes behind him getting ready he wouldn't hesitate to leave me to find my own way to school.

I did one last quick check to make sure I had everything I needed before blasting down the stairs myself, making it just in time to see Adam heading out the door. I fought the urge to curse, another no-no in the house, as I dashed out the front door, making it to the car just as he fired up the engine.

"Good to see you made it."

"We've got an hour before school starts, and it only takes fifteen minutes to get there. Could you please tell me why you do this every morning?"

"We're twins, shouldn't you be able to read my mind and figure that out or something?" He asked with a sneer.

"No, I don't think so, or would want to," I sneered right back.

Despite being born on the same day to the same parents, Adam and I had almost nothing in common. "Paternal twins" the doctors had said even before we were born, due to our already marked differences. Even as babies Adam had been bigger than me, though I was the one who had been born with a full head of hair, a rich dark brown as opposed to Adam's dirty blond. Hoping we would be a boy and a girl, and in a fit of Christianity they had regretted ever since, our mom and dad had chosen the names "Adam" and "Eve." When it turned out I was a boy and not the girl they had wanted they changed it to "Evan," luckily for me.

Our differences had only grown more pronounced as we had grown older. I had continued to be the smaller of the two of us, and everyone assumed that Adam must be my older brother despite the fact that I was born a whole fifteen minutes before him, thank you very much. He had become the family jock, big, strong, and with the competitive spirit to match. Not that I couldn't be competitive, but I preferred to turn that competitiveness in on myself, always striving to do better than I had in the past at anything I tried.

Looking at us now, him in his letterman jacket proclaiming him varsity basketball captain and me in my cheerleading jacket, it was almost laughable to consider us twins. Yes, I'm a cheerleader. Currently I'm the only guy on the squad, since our other three graduated last year, but that hadn't stopped me from joining again.

Soon our ride was over, neither of us saying much, and as we pulled into the school I had an unexpected surprise.

"Hey, Ev, over here!"

Tina and Ryley waved to me from the sidewalk of the school, both bouncing excitedly. Two of my better friends, we had been on the cheer squad together for three years, but I still always felt the urge to grin when I would see them. Like Adam and I they were fraternal twins. They both had dark hair down to their shoulders, but Tina was the taller of the two, while Ryley was a little stockier and if anything the friendlier of the two.

"Hey girls, what's up?" I asked, giving them both small hugs as we met up, Adam simply rolling his eyes.

"Nothin', just wanting to talk to our FAVORITE person in the entire world about a little something-something we were working on."

"Good luck," Adam said, waving to me as he walked off, leaving me to the girls' mercy. When Tina and Ryley teamed up with a "plan," it was almost never a good thing for any of the other persons involved.

I backed up a step, looking at the girls. Both of them smiled at me, scaring me even more.

"Pleeeease?" They asked in unison.

I sighed. "It depends, what is it?"

"Well, it's kinda like this..."

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"What? Why!"

"Because it'll be fun!"

"Because it'll be funny!"

"Because it makes things easier," Ms. Bailey, our cheer coach, chimed in from directly behind me, making me jump with an embarrassingly high-pitched yelp.

"I don't think I follow," I said, looking into her dark eyes.

She smiled at me, showing a full set of perfect teeth. "You're the only guy on the squad, and if you recall, not a single boy made it past tryouts last year."

I nodded and winced at the same time, recalling just how bad the two 'applicants' had been.

"That gives us a choice. We can do the coed competitions, where we will be unable to do many of the required stunts. You're a fine young man, but you just aren't strong enough for any of the one-man stunts the judges find impressive."

It hurt, but she was right.

"Or, we can register as a girls-only squad this year. The regional rules allow a single boy to be on the squad and still qualify as an all-girls team as long as our program sticks to the guidelines provided concerning stunts. You're an excellent tumbler, and do wonderful work as a base when we're doing thows and lifts, so this is the way I would prefer to go."

"Okay," I said, seeing her logic, and finding the urge to point out the one critical flaw irresistible. "But why does that mean I have to wear a girl's uniform?"

"That was our idea," Ryley said in a small voice, raising her hand.

"But... why?"

"We already told you! It'll be fun!"

I stared at Tina, one eyebrow raised, until she began to giggle and blush. It had worked since we were kids -- we called it The Giggle Stare. "Come on, there's gotta be more to it than that."

"Alright already," Ms. Bailey said, clasping my shoulder gently. "They thought it would be a good joke, but it really does have a lot of benefits for the squad." When I didn't say anything, she continued. "First of all, it wouldn't have to be at games, just at competitions. Squads that have a guy on them in the all-girl competitions are supposed to be judged impartially, but always get treated a little different by the judges. They'll still know we have a guy on our team, but I'm hoping that by having you blend in with the other girls," a choice of words I didn't miss, "they will ignore that and judge us fairly."

I shook my head, and began to walk away.

"Hey! Where are you going?"

I laughed as I turned around, seeing Ryley watching me in confusion. "Sorry, girls, but you know this would never work. The first time one of our classmates went to a competition, or we competed against one of the local teams who had seen me at a game, what do you think would happen to us?"

All three of them frowned, obviously painfully aware of what I was pointing out.

"The only option would end up being for me to wear the girl's uniform all the time, wouldn't it?"

They nodded slowly.

The smile I had been wearing for most of the conversation slid into a scowl. "I've got the highest GPA in our class, girls. I'm not stupid. Not only that, but we've been friends since we were kids, and never in that entire time have you been able to hide things from me. Just tell me what's going on."

Tina pouted, but stepped forward and shrugged. "We really did just think it would be fun, and when we told coach she liked the idea. We didn't think you'd agree, but wanted to ask anyway because..."

"Because it was fun to ask," I finished for her, drawing another nod from all three.

We were silent for a moment. I turned around, looking away from them as I mulled over things.

"I'll think about it."

"Huh?" Was the astonished response from behind me, but by that time the first bell had already rung, and I was on my way to class.

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The nice thing about the first few weeks of school, at least for me, was always how little work there was. Sure, there was plenty of
review of things most of the class probably forgot over their vacation, but I had never had that problem, and all my teachers knew it.

That was probably the only reason I made it through the day without getting in trouble for daydreaming.

What the girls had asked me to do... well, it wasn't the first time they had ever asked me to dress up as a girl. We had, on more than one occasion, gone out to the movies, or just to hang out, as Tina, Ryley, and Eva. Not that Adam, or our dad, had ever known, though I had a good feeling that Adam expected as much.

And I had looked pretty good. Nobody had ever expected I wasn't a girl, at least, and I had even been hit on a couple of times, to the girls' delight.

But this. This was more than just us playing around. I hadn't been lying when I said that doing it at competition meant I might as well do it all the time. No matter what, people would see, and instead of ripping the band-aid off slowly it would be better to just never cover it up to begin with. Add to that the times we had gone out before, and it was inevitable that someone would recognize me as Eva.

Yet, for some reason, I still wanted to do it.

Me and the girls had been friends for so long for a reason. I agreed with them that it seemed like it would be a blast, seeing people's reactions to it. And maybe, just maybe, it would give me a chance to go out with the girls as Eva a little more often, if we could use the cheerleading deal as an excuse or jumping off point somehow.

Maybe it was a little weird, but spending more time as Eva was the main draw of the deal for me. I had never kept it a secret from the girls how much I enjoyed our times out together, which I'm sure had played some part in their plan. It had always just seemed to me that I was more comfortable in my skin when we went out as girls. Perhaps this would give me a chance to figure out why.

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The Notch System

===

If you were to ask us, neither Will nor I would be able to tell you exactly when it was that we started using our "notch system." It was just one of those things that happened, but over the years it had become one of our most steady competitions.

Any time one of us would do something that hurt the other or pissed them off, they would earn a "notch" on a pole we kept at Will's place. There were of course rules, and some things could even result in more than one notch being added, but for the most part how many notches one of us had never came into contention, since even with such a system in place we both trusted each other not to cheat the other. Even then, we let each other get away with a lot of "notch worthy" transgressions, and after so long doing it only the worst mistakes and foibles would be added.

When it was time to cash in the notches, though, we always knew we would be in trouble. We had an agreement that if there was a favor we needed that we knew the other would hate or never do under most circumstances, we could cash in part of our notches in exchange for the favor, no questions asked. In all the years we had been doing it, neither one of us had ever cashed in what we had reverently begun to refer to as a "notch favor," something we had steadily grown more and more weary of. As time went by, it almost became another competition entirely to see who would cash out their favor first.

Until now.

===

"I'm cashing in my notches."

Will said it so casually, an outsider would never realize how major his statement had been.

"...wait. What?" I looked up from my game to see Will standing next to the television with a sick look on his face. Carefully, I paused my game and set the controller down. "You're serious?"

"Uh, yee-eah." He shuffled his feet, staring at the floor like he always did when he had to say something he knew I would not like hearing.

Silence.

"Well."

"You're not gonna like it."

I chuckled humorlessly to myself, trying not to let my nervousness show. "Of course not. Geez, man... is it really that big?"

"Yeah."

I stared at him for a moment, taking in how nervous he was. Whatever he had to ask, it must be major, even for a "notch favor."

"Whoo, boy. Well, what is it?"

"I, uh..." He stopped talking, and instead scratched his neck uncomfortably. "I need you to go to my sister's wedding with me.

I felt the tension that had been slowly building in my chest deflate at those words. "Alright, that's fine. What was the big deal?"

"As my date."

"...oh." That certainly changed things. He never had to say what that would entail. "Will, you know I'd do anything for you, but I have to ask. WHY?" I knew the volume of my voice was rising, but there was little I could do to stop it. "You know I haven't done anything like that in years, and you're wanting me to do it now? In front of your family? Who all know me, by the way, so just what do you think they'll say when you show up with a girl who looks exactly like me?"

"Well, Shana always said you looked pretty when you let her dress you up."

"And what does that have to do with anything?"

"It was her idea."

I had stood up from the couch at some point during my rant, but now I sank back down into the cushions, cradling my face in my hands. I gave myself a moment to calm down. "Okay, why does she want me to go with you? Surely you could find someone else?"

He sat down in the recliner across from me and leaned back, rubbing his temples. The sickly pallor had started to drain from his face, leaving him looking merely stressed. "I know, and I could, except... you remember Holly Freeman, don't you?"

"Yeah. Isn't she your sister's best friend?"

"Yup. My sister said she's been asking about me, and wants to hook us up, but if I show up stag at the wedding I'll just look desperate. I told her I didn't know any of the girls around here well enough to ask them to attend the wedding with me, especially on a 'just friends' basis if I'm going to be hitting on another woman right in front of them."

"So she suggested me," I said matter-of-factly.

"You got it."

"Damn." I flopped back into the cushions and thought for a moment about exactly what he had asked me, and by extension his sister had asked me. I had stopped dressing up around the time I had started growing facial hair, because I was becoming a man, and men did not dress up like girls. Since then I had learned differently, both from television and the wonders that are on the Internet, but I had refused to try it again for fear that I would like it too much.

"Listen, man, I know you don't want to do this, and if you say no then I'm not gonna make you. I'm offering the notches as a bribe, not as a pressure. But if you do, I promise not to let anything happen, and Shana said she'd help you out if there were any problems."

"And what about Holly? I know for a fact that you went on a few double dates with her back when Shana was still dating Mr. Groom-
to-be."

"Lucas."

"That's what I said. Back then, your sister cock blocked you all the way. what's changed now?"

"Holly's... it's complicated. Apparently her husband's been beating her."

"She's married, with an abusive husband, and your sister wants to hook you up with her. That's great. You realize your sister's fucked in the head, right?"

"Hey, don't say that!" Will gave me an icy glare, like he gave anyone who insulted his sister. "She's hoping that if Holly and I hit it off, she'll work up the nerve to leave her husband. Jesus Christ, Tom, I don't like this any better than you do, but Shana said that she's tried everything else to get Holly to leave the asshole but she's too depressed to do it."

"And she doesn't think you'll look like a creep showing up with a date and hitting on a married woman?"

"She's told Holly I'm showing up with someone who's 'just a friend' and that I wanted to talk to her about old times or some shit like that."

I laughed bitterly. "So in other words Shana's already set all this up without our input and now she expects us to go along with it."
Will nodded sourly.

I kept myself from saying it, but I still though it -- this was typical Shana. Will had always looked up to his older sister, and she had always used him. It always came just short of bullying, but if he refused what she wanted he always paid for it in some way later. The sad thing was, Will never seemed to notice how badly she used him, and the times I had brought it up were some of the few times that Will and I had ever had fights.

Unfortunately, I had always had a hard time saying no when Will asked me a favor, and having my "notches" cleared was a huge sacrifice for him to make.

"How far away is the wedding?"

"Next weekend."

"That's only ten days to get ready."

"I know."

I looked at Will's face again, and made a decision. "Let me see what I can do, and I'll give you an answer day after tomorrow, 'kay?"

Will gave me a nod, relief fighting on his face with embarrassment at even having to ask. "Thanks, man. Want a beer?"

"I don't think there's anything else I want more right now."

===

I took the box out from its hiding place in my closet and opened it up for the first time in months. Inside were the few girl's clothes I had bought myself, back when Shana had thought it was fun to occasionally dress me up, along with photos, a handful of costume jewelry, and the wig I had used. None of it would fit me any more, of course, but I had kept it as a reminder of how much fun it had been.

Back then, Will had not been the only one who looked up to his sister. I had been an eager accomplice in many a plan of hers, most of which had, for one reason or another, required me to be dressed as a girl. It had not been until after I started refusing that she had started her act of abusing Will's good nature. We always had fun together, and though sometimes her schemes would get us into tight situations, together we always found a way out of them.

This wedding scheme was most definitely Shana at her finest, I mused as I looked through the photos in the box, smiling as each one prompted fond memories. I had not spoken to her since her graduation -- had she changed since? If she was still coming up with plans like this, then it seemed doubtful, but if Will wanted me to give her another shot I owed him at least that much.

I closed the box up, keeping the pictures out, and put it away in the top of the closet again. While there, I took down my emergency sewing kit, and removing the measuring tape, set about finding out exactly how much work I would have to do to make this work.

Despite my refusing to ever dress as a girl, Shana's adventures had greatly affected me in other ways I had never been able to shrug off. I had always watched my weight carefully, and after the first time she had prompted me into shaving I had always kept my body devoid of hair, disgusted by the feeling of it growing. Will always thought it was hilarious, though he knew the reasons, and often picked on me about it. Now, it was looking like those same affectations would turn out to be useful.

Four hours and a good six hundred dollars later, and everything I could think of needing for the trial run was on its way, express shipping. In two days it would all be at the apartment, and the moment of truth would be imminent.

No matter what happened, though, I knew that the moment I put the first article of clothing on, everything would change for me.

There was no doubt in my mind I would like it. The only question was -- how far would this go?

===

It was only five days before the wedding that I finally revealed myself to Will. I had spent the two days between my packages arriving and my moment of unveiling practicing: doing my makeup over and over, dressing and undressing, trying new ways to make my body as feminine as possible. I even went so far as to call in all my vacation days for the year at work so that I would have time not only to prepare myself for the wedding, but afterward, to work on changing back.

The shock on Will's face was wonderful to see as I walked into the living area of our apartment. His game forgotten, the controller clattered to the floor as he stood up, gaping at me. I simply smiled, and did a small spin for him to get a better look.

"What do you think?"

"...Wow."

"Will I do okay for the wedding?"

"Okay? Christ, you look better than when Shana used to do it."

"Really?"

"WAY better."

I looked down at myself. I had chosen the least feminine outfit I could from the women's clothing I had purchased, on the assumption that if I could pass when dressed down then dressing up should be no problem. A pair of fitted jeans with a dark grey tank top under one of my old men's work shirts, buttoned but hanging loose, with a pair of simple tennis shoes made up my entire ensemble. If it had not been for my breasts and the shape of my compressed midsection beneath the shirt, it would have almost passed as a normal outfit for me.

The most notable differences beyond the breast forms were above the neck. A short but feminine haircut hung in a shaggy mop, just brushing my freshly shaped eyebrows at the front and the collar of my shirt at the back, while I had spent well over half an hour working on my face, making sure to cover up even the slightest bit of masculinity I could find. Old tricks I had learned at Shana's side had come back far more easily than I had expected them to, and I needed no mirror to know that anyone else in the room would have been just as shocked as Will at my transformation.

I allowed myself a chuckle as I crossed the room and picked up the controller from the floor and turned the game off, catching Will's reflection in the now blank TV screen staring at my backside in the somewhat tight jeans.

"It's still me, you know," I said, turning around to face him again.

With a shake of his head, he sat back down, resting his elbows on his knees. "I know, but... damn. I knew you'd look good, but... damn." He closed his eyes and leaned back. "How'd you make it look so, realistic?"

"It's amazing what a waist cincher and a little padding can do," I said as I lowered myself onto the seat next to his, doing my best to remember the mannerisms Shana had drilled into me when we were younger.

In truth, I had been just as surprised at how easily I had managed the charade. I simply didn't have the nerve to let him know that besides the breast forms and waist cincher, everything else was me, including the ass he had been staring at moments before.

"So, you still want me to do it?"

"Hell, I dunno. What do I call you when you're dressed like this?"

"Well, when we used to do this with Shana I always used the name Lacey, but I don't think that really fits me."

"Heh, not really," he said, looking up and down my body before shaking his head again. "How about Tamara or something like that?
Close to Tom, but different?"

I shook my head. "Too close. We need something different."

"Halle? Buffy? Candy?"

"NO!" I said, louder than I had intended, then started laughing. "No stripper names either, perv." I thought for a moment. "How about Amber?"

"And you said no stripper names..."

"What was that?"

"Nothing! Amber's great, I like Amber."

"Good," I said, standing up. "In that case, nice to meet you Will, I'm Amber." I held out my hand to him.

With a chuckle of his own he stood up and took my hand, lifting it to his lips and gently kissing the back. "Lovely to meet you, Amber," he said, grinning.

"Now that that's out of the way, how about taking a girl out for something to eat?"

"My pleasure." He offered me his arm, just like when we had occasionally "doubled" with Shana as part of one of her pranks. I blushed, but knowing it was an act we would have to get used to if we were going to the wedding together, I took his arm. I surprised myself with how little hesitation I felt as I took my first steps out into the world as a woman in over ten years.

We decided to go ahead with the plan, and Will even agreed to pay for the dress I would need for the wedding. We also decided that it would be best if I spent the rest of the time until the wedding as Amber, giving us a chance to get used to the difference in how we had to act around one another.

Meanwhile, in the back of my mind, I was working on a plan of my own for confronting Shana. Will showing up stag at the wedding was a poor excuse for getting me to dress up as a woman, and even if Will refused to admit it I knew that Shana was up to something else as well. What could it be? I was determined to find out.

===

"I dunno, Amber. I'm having second thoughts."

"Not now, Will. It's too late."

It was. Here we were, packing up for the drive to his parents' house where the wedding would take place, and there was no turning back. We had already had the same discussion the day before, and come to the same conclusion, so there was no way in hell I was turning back now.

As it was, I doubted Will was that much more nervous than me. Which one of us was it who had endured the bikini wax at the beauty parlor down the street, including being mildly ridiculed by the attendant when she learned who I was? ME. Though I did get my own back when her boss, who happened to be transsexual, found out. Who was it who would be wearing tight clothing and uncomfortable shoes for the next four days, and then had to work to change back? ME. Who was it whose bank account was suffering the most due to having to buy a designer dress to fit in with his family? Okay, that was Will, but I earned it, dammit.

But I knew what was really bothering him. For the last three days he had been living with a woman for all intents and purposes, and one he was obviously attracted to to boot. I had caught him I don't know how many times following me with his eyes and jerking his gaze away when he realized what he was doing. He thought I looked good, and it was messing with his head far worse than any prank I had ever pulled on him.

Me? I reveled in it. Will knew I was bi with a preference toward men, but it had never been an issue with our friendship, but this was the first time since, well, since I had quit dressing up, that I had ever really held a man's eyes. As a guy my affectations kept me from being very impressive, but as a girl those same idiosyncrasies helped to make me more than passable. I might not have been beautiful, but I was attractive in my own way, and that way obviously caught Will's eye.

We finished our packing and started on the eight hour drive to his parents', mostly in silence. Will was apprehensive about what his sister had planned for him, and I used the time to think.

I had thought about what it would be like to pursue a relationship with Will for a long time. He was straight, but he had admitted to me on more than one occasion that if he did find himself attracted to a guy he was open to considering the possibility. The problem was that I had never wanted to run the risk of losing my best friend.

Perhaps this was my chance to experiment with the idea in a way that, just maybe, Will would feel better about as well? It gave me an idea, one just crazy enough it just might work.

"Will?"

"Yeah?"

"What exactly was Shana's plan for hooking you up with Holly?"

He gave me a half-shrug, keeping his eyes on the road. "Honestly? I don't think she's thought that far ahead."

I figured. Always the schemer, Shana's plans always fell down when it came to the details. "I have an idea on that."

"Go on."

"The practice run for all of this is tomorrow afternoon, right?"

He nodded, his brows crinkling in worry. "Yeah?"

"Well, perhaps your sister was wrong about you coming with just a friend."

"WHAT!" He swerved dangerously, nearly hitting the car next to us, but recovered in time, eliciting nothing more than some angry honking from our neighbors.

"Just listen!" I said, once I managed to pry my acrylics from the dashboard. "We're more than friends, alright? But perhaps we have a fight at the church after the practice run. You're broken up, and need someone to comfort you, and we arrange it with your sister ahead of time so that Holly's the only one around at the time. You two can bond over complaints about your significant others. It's a start."

He thought about that for a moment. "Alright, I guess. It makes sense."

I nodded, then reached for his hand on the car's shifter knob. This time he managed to keep control of the car, but I could see the sweat beading up on his forehead.

"Uhm, Amber?"

"Yes, honey?" I asked, smiling sweetly at him and sliding closer on the bench seat.

"...Nothing," he croaked out, licking his lips and darting his eyes back and forth between our hands and the road.

It might have been a little evil, but it was oh so much fun.

We rode like that for almost ten minutes before I finally gave in and let go of his hand, bursting out into a cackling fit over the relief on his face.

"You shoulda seen yourself!" I said when I could finally speak again. "It was great!" I knew my makeup had to be running from the tears of laughter running down my cheeks, but I couldn't care less.

His expression soon changed from relief to one of plotting. "Oh. So that was all just you picking on me huh?"

I nodded, afraid to speak again lest I lose control again.

"Well, fine," he said, a smirk crossing his features as he slid his hand off the shifter and up onto my leg.

I let out a high pitched "Eeep!" as his hand slid higher, resting under the hem of my sundress on my thigh a good four inches above my knee.

I looked into his face. He really thought he had me in a more uncomfortable position than I had gotten him. He began to rub my thigh softly, lightly squeezing it.

The look on his face changed quickly when I squeezed his hand between my thighs and sighed softly. It took him a second to pull his hand free, returning it quickly to the shifter knob.

I couldn't help but laugh, seeing his cherry red blush, and I continued to chuckle the entire rest of the trip.

===

I grabbed his hand again as we made our way to the door of his parents' home, shushing him quietly when he went to complain. So far I was enjoying this little charade, and I wasn't going to give him the chance to ruin my fun.

Besides, as much as I hated to admit it, how I felt about Will was perhaps more than just a little crush. It had been for a long time, and there was no way I was going to lose this opportunity to act on my feelings.

He rapped the bronze doorknob three times, the same rhythm he had used for as long as we had been friends. Less than a minute later, the door was flung wide as a short, high-speed missile with white hair shot out and practically tackled him.

"Mom!"

"Sweetie, it's so good to see you! You never call, and we get so worried, but when Shana said you'd agreed to be in her wedding I just knew you'd return home to us and -- who's this?" His mom asked, finally noticing my presence, and my fingers still entwined in his.

"Uh, Mom? This is my, ah, girlfriend. Amber. Amber, this is my mom."

"Hi Missus Reese," I said in my softest voice, offering her my hand that was not holding onto Will.

I had known the little fireball that was Angelina Reese long enough to know that her natural hair color had once matched her fiery personality, so when she glanced at Will and then gave me a knowing smile I knew I was in. "Sweetheart, this family hugs. Come here." She let go of her son and I bent down to give her a gentle squeeze, trying my best not to give her any indication of who I was.

"We'll talk later," she whispered into my ear as we embraced, and I gasped quietly. When she let me go, she gave me a quick wink before leading us in and up the stairs. "I've prepared your old bedroom for your stay at home. It should have plenty of room for the two of you," she said, swinging the door wide and stepping aside. "You two take your time unpacking, dinner is in three hours. Your father and I will be in the den if you can spare the time to talk to us."

"Thanks mom," Will said, giving her another quick hug before going back downstairs to grab our bags. I tried to follow him, but his mom stopped me.

"Let him grab your things. We need to talk."

"Yes ma'am," I said, smoothing my dress and sitting on the bed.

Angelina gave me one of her patent smiles as she came over to stand before me. "Don't you ma'am me. You'll call me mom, just like you always used to when you were a little boy."

I slumped into the bed, all pretense forgotten. "Sorry mom."

"You should be. Now, which one of you had this brilliant idea then?"

"Shana."

She huffed. "I thought so. Will always has been a pushover."

I grinned. Angelina and I had always gotten along well -- she really was like a second mom to me.

"Now, can you explain why you were hanging all over my son on your way up here?"

I proceeded from there to tell her the plan, such as it was, to hook Will up with Holly. She nodded as I described Shana's proposed plan, and then my own additions to it.

"Well, I would tell you not to do it but I know you won't listen. Just be careful not to get hurt."

"I'll make sure Will doesn't bite off more than he can chew."

"I was talking about you, dear," she said enigmatically. Just as I was about to ask her what she meant, Will returned with our bags, and she left us alone.

"What was that about?"

I shook my head. "Nothing you want to know about. Trust me."

He nodded, and without another word we unpacked our bags. When that was done, he turned to me with a yawn.

"I think I'm gonna take a nap before dinner. What about you?"

I took the chance and ran with it. "Sounds great!" I said, then closed and locked the door before pulling a pair of terrycloth shorts and a tank top out of one of my recently-packed drawers.

He looked at me, stunned, as I dropped my dress right in front of him and slipped on my clothes to sleep in. "But..."

I spun around to face him, and when I saw his eyes dart from me to the bed I sighed. "We'll have to share the bed tonight, Will, so just get used to it."

He hemmed and hawed for a moment, but finally gave in and stripped down to his own boxers before climbing into the bed next to me, but on top of the sheets I had climbed under.

I still had one last dig to get in, however. "Goodnight, sweetie," I said, then snuck a kiss in on his forehead before turning over and closing my eyes, still grinning from ear to ear.

===

Dinner that night with his parents was more stiff than I was used to as his father tried to feel me out with conversation while his mother simply watched, her amusement obvious by the smile in her eyes. I wondered if she would tell him about me later, but figured the answer was probably no, since she was the one Shana and Will got their prankster streak from. I did my best to weave a believable web of lies, Will pointedly ignoring my many attempts to draw him in for backup.

Maybe that kiss was a bad idea after all.

After dinner I excused myself and with a less than ladylike nudge informed Will that he would be taking me for a walk around the grounds, which he did reluctantly.

As soon as we were out of earshot of the house, I started the conversation I knew we would have to have eventually.

"Alright, Will, I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable but if we're supposed to be dating then--"

"Stop," Will said, with an edge to his voice I hadn't heard in a long time. When I looked at his face, I involuntarily took a step back. He was pissed.

"Will?"

"What's going on, Amber? Okay, you're dressed the way you are because I asked you to, and Shana asked me. I get that. I even get that you're supposed to be my date so we need to be comfortable being close in front of other people. But what the fuck?"

I had blown it royally. I had pushed him too far too fast, and now I had to explain everything. Was this what Angelina had warned me about? I thought it was.

"Okay. I'm sorry, alright? I'm sorry. I just..." I stopped, unable to make myself go on. How do you admit to your best friend you've wanted to be with them for years?

"Is it because you're in love with me?"

"What!"

Will stared at me, his face now calm. "Is this because you're in love with me?"

"Mighty full of ourselves, aren't we?" I asked, my irritation showing through.

Will sighed. "Oh, come on. I've known for a while you were attracted to me."

"Says the guy who's been staring at my ass for nearly a week."

The anger flared in his eyes again, and I knew I was pushing too far. But what was I supposed to do? Here he was, confronting me with something I had thought I had kept secret, and he had known?

My face must have betrayed my thoughts, because of all the things he could have done at that moment, he laughed. "You really thought I didn't know? We've been friends since what, preschool? I've seen the way you look at people you like, and I've seen the way you look at me. I'm not an idiot."

I lowered my head. "Alright, so MAYBE I've had a bit of a crush on you for a while, okay?" I rushed the words out, trying to say them before I locked up again. "But as Tom I never would have tried anything you know that, but since I'm Amber at the moment I thought it wouldn't hurt and you'd probably react better if I looked like a girl and, uh."

"So I was right."

Silence.

"Yeah?"

He nodded. He no longer looked pissed, but he still looked far from happy. "Listen, Amber. You're my best friend, and you know I care a lot about you but I'm still a bit uncomfortable with all this. I..." He paused, seeming to be unsure of his own words. "Can we just cool it a bit when it's just the two of us? I'm not saying no to you," he said when he saw my face, which must have looked horrible, "but I don't know if I can handle this, you, right now, okay?"

I didn't say anything.

"Friends?" He asked me, opening his arms toward me, and I gladly hugged him. "Now come on, let's go back inside." He offered me his hand, and I took it far more nervously than I had back in the car. No longer was I just testing the waters to see how he would react. I had pushed it too far, but he had responded with the same friendship we had always shared.

As we walked back to the house, I thought about his words from earlier, and wondered if what I felt for him really was more love than a crush. I was starting to think it was. Suddenly, I knew exactly what his mom had been talking about.

===

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Body Work

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I guess I can't say I wasn't expecting SOMEthing to happen. Well, of COURSE I was expecting something to happen, that's the entire point of the thing, but I really wasn't expecting something like THIS.

Where to start? I guess the beginning is always the best. My name's Cody West, and at the time this all started I was just beginning my sophomore year at Charlotte Hamilton Isenberg College, though most everyone around here knows it better as CHIC College. No, it isn't a girl's only school, though I think something like seventy percent of the student body is female. Actually, it's a pretty good liberal arts college, and is named after a rich lady who used to own the land it was built on. Since it's so small, tuition's pretty low, but I had lost one of my part time jobs after having a little too much fun my freshman year - what with LAN parties in the computer lab, tabletop games in the cafeteria, and all the parties held the rest of the time, I could never find time to work in my busy social schedule. Losing that money really hurt my finances, and even though I had learned my lesson, my one part-time job wasn't going to cut the gap in my tuition. I had two choices, drop the cost of the dorms and move back home - an hour and a half drive each direction every day, and no bus route anywhere near my parent's place - or find another way to make some money that wouldn't take away from my study time.

My roommate Justin tried to be supportive, but we both knew it was my own stupid fault, and he couldn't keep himself from picking on me about it.

"Don't you wish you'd listened to me last year when I told you that you should spend less of your time playing Half-Life with your little geek friends?"

I hung my head. "YES. I know. I was stupid. Can we please just STOP TALKING ABOUT IT," I asked as I continued to riffle through the want ads, "I need to find another part time job, or a full time one that won't mess with my classes, otherwise not only will I be outta here but you'll be having to deal with a new roommate."

"I'll help you look."

"Thanks."

Justin picked up one of the papers I had strewn around me on my bed and started looking for jobs for me. Justin was a great guy, but he had some pretty bad trust issues after his freshman roommate took most of his stuff at the end of the year. When I moved in as a freshman he was a sophomore, and weary of having to deal with someone else around all his things, but we established a good set of rules quickly. He knew he could trust me, and I knew I could trust him, even though we were as different as, well, as college roommates tend to be.

I dunno, is it a rule or something? If you're a geek in high school, your college roommate is gonna be a jock. If you were gay, you're gonna end up with a homophobe, country boys will get gangster wannabes, the list goes on. Unless they requested roommates, every person I knew on campus had their polar opposite as a roommate, and me and Justin were no exception. While I was pasty and, admittedly, a bit frail from spending way too much time playing games and reading, Justin was your typical good ol' boy minus the bigoted attitude. For every hour I spent in high school in my room shooting friends up online he must have been outside digging ditches or hauling hay or any number of other manly farm-things from the way he described it, but even with our very different backgrounds we found common ground in our intelligence, both of us being honors students and living in the male honor's dorm.

"Ooh, here's one. 'Waiter needed for new club down on'... no, never mind, it's that new gay bar down the street, I heard they only hired drag queens."

"What kind of normal guy would take a job like that?"

"I dunno. 'Sides, you aren't skinny enough to pass as a girl, even if you are a CHIC."

I mumbled something that was undecipherable, but may well have been "Go fuck yerself with a hammer." My weight was one issue I was NOT going to get into with Mr. Ideal standing right there. What can I say? 'Dews and Slim Jims combined with hours in a computer chair do not a striking figure make, unless you're doing a belly flop. I still wasn't as bad as most of the guys in my gaming group, I mean, I wore a size 40 jean and that isn't all that bad for someone six foot tall.

One caught my eye. "How about this. 'Seeking responsible young adult for afternoons in sales at'... crap, no, they only sell makeup there. Last thing people want is to see my acne-covered face tryin' to sell them foundation."

Justin and I sat in silence for a while, reading over the stack of papers and cruising the various want ads. It wasn't long before we were done with the entire stack, and I still hadn't found a job worth picking up that wouldn't interfere with either my classes or the job I already had at the game store down the street.

Justin flopped backwards on his bed with his arms behind his head. "I dunno, dude. I guess there's always medical experimentation."

"Hyeah, like we haven't heard enough horror stories about THAT."

---

"Welcome, sir, are you here for the experiment?"

I nodded my head, and took the paperwork she handed me without a word.

It had been two weeks, and while I had managed through some creative wrangling and distribution of paperwork to acquire another scholarship that would help me out immensely, it wouldn't be coming in until the beginning of the winter semester. Until then, I still needed that second job, and the only thing I was qualified for that fit into my schedule was the job of medical guinea pig. At the end of the day, Justin and I agreed it was probably worth the risk, so there I was.

I tried to fill the paperwork out as quickly as possible, but kept getting distracted by the large number of incredibly beautiful girls in the office. There must have been at least twelve of them, all with these insane bodies and super-sexy faces, several talking to equally impressive guys. I felt even lower thinking about being an overweight gamer in a room full of characters right out of a soap opera, but didn't let that stop me from checking them out. I made a lot of mistakes on the paperwork doing that, and had to scribble through a lot, which got me a nasty look from the duty nurse when I handed her the sheet, but she said nothing as I returned to my seat.

I was still trying to catch a look up the skirt on the really hot brunette across from me when I heard my name being called from a door at the end of the room, and reluctantly tore my attention away from her to follow the older lady who was waving at me back into the offices.

"I've got to run some tests on you before you see the doctor."

We ran through the normal tests, you know, height, weight, blood pressure, eyes, all that, as well as some more interesting ones, like having me flex my arms and measuring my muscles and flexibility. Then she left me in a quiet little room to wait for the doctor. I was counting the tiles on the sagging ceiling for a fourth time when he finally entered.

"Ah, so you're... Cory, is that right?"

"Cody."

"Ah, sorry. And... you're another college student from CHIC, right?"

I nodded.

"We get a lot of your type in here. Now, you understand that what we're doing here is still medical testing, which means there may be some unexpected side effects."

I nodded again, and tried to keep the exasperated grimace I felt crawling up from showing on my face.

"Sir, I know the risks, but I need the money."

"I understand that, but I can't promise you that you'll have the same results as the other volunteers, so I don't want you to get your hopes up."

"Okay. Can I meet some of the other volunteers before we start, if you don't mind?"

"Normally that's not a good idea, we don't want it to skew the test results any, but in this case you already did, out in the lobby."

"The supermodels?" I asked in disbelief.

The Doctor, Huxtable I think his name was, nodded and laughed. "Yes, the drug has worked quite well for them, hasn't it?"

I was stunned. "What the hell are you giving them."

"The same thing I'll be giving you, if you agree to it."

"Who wouldn't jump at the chance to look like one of those guys?"

"Apparently a lot of people. We've had far more female applicants to this particular experiment than male, so I was especially happy to see you come in today. I think in your case the changes will be quite drastic."

That hurt a bit, but I tried to hide it. "When can we start?"

We had a long discussion about the do's and don't's of medical experimentation, as well as what I would be required to do while helping with it, and I left the doctor that afternoon with a bottle of pills and a five hundred dollar check that was going directly towards my tuition. He had shown me some 'before' and 'after' pics of some of the other members of the experimental group, and it was impressive what these pills could apparently do. He went on about them breaking down the inaccurate or damaged sections of your genetic code or something, and a chemical that restarts puberty so your body develops to its maximum potential, and some more things I didn't understand. All I knew is I had a shot, I had the pills, and I had the money. Pretty soon I should have a hard, super-attractive body that would mean girls would want to go out with me more often, too. Just thinking about the girls in the office, and being able to date someone as hot as them, brought a smile to my face.
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“Good afternoon ma'am, can I help you?”

The old lady turned to me from the rack of games before her and frowned haughtily. “Yes. I'm looking for a game for my grandson's birthday. Do you have any recommendations?”

I nodded. “What kind of game system does he have?”

“I don't know. I think it's a black one.”

Shit.

That sentiment pretty well summed up how the last few days had gone for me. After the doctor's appointment I felt fine, but the next morning I woke up in a cold sweat and feeling like I had a hangover. Classes were hell, and no matter what I did for the rest of the week I couldn't get it to quit until some time around mid-Friday, when it just stopped. Because of the dizziness and a weird lack of appetite, I could tell just by looking down at myself that I had lost a lot of weight, but I wasn't going to complain about that. It was Saturday and since I had called in sick earlier in the week due to the dizziness, I HAD to show up today. I had trouble keeping my work pants up since I didn't own a belt, and my shirt looked huge on me. Oh, well, if these experimental drugs work like they're supposed to, I'll be needing new clothes at the end of the test anyways, though how I would afford that I had no idea.

Through process of elimination - What color is it, black, does it play cds, yes, how old is it, about five years - we managed to slim our choices down enough that I could make an accurate guess at what he had, and I prayed to god she wouldn't be back. I couldn't help but give her the finger as she left, which made Lindon, the burned-out cashier there that day, grin.

"A tough customer?"

I nodded. "People need to know what they want when they come in here looking for gifts. Is it so hard to know what system to buy for?"

"Well, asking would kinda ruin the surprise, wouldn't it?"

"No more than getting a game for the wrong system would," I grimaced. That had happened to me once, when I was little, and I had been so excited thinking I would get the system too only to be crushed to find out Uncle Lenny didn't know the difference between Sega and Nintendo.

"True," Lindon agreed slowly, and with a look of concern asked me, "hey, man, you alright? You've been kinda shaky today, and you're pretty sickly lookin'." Then, in a whisper, "You ain't jonesin', are ya? 'Cause if you are, I can hook you up with some-"

"NO!" I butted in. "No, dude, but thanks. I'm doin' a drug test - not THAT kind of drug, Lindon - for the medical place downtown, and it hasn't been agreeing with me too well."

"Dude, that's rough. If you change your mind, though, I got a friend who can get you the good shit."

"Uh, Thanks, Lindon," I said, not adding that if 'the good shit' resulted in me still working in a game store when I was thirty-seven like him, and I wasn't the manager at least, I'd stick to the old 'just say no' mantra.

The next day I was feeling a lot better, and by Monday I was actually feeling pretty good. My next appointment with Dr. Huxtable wasn't for another week, and I was really hoping to see some changes that could be attributed to the drugs by then. My weight loss I was pretty sure was all thanks to how sick I had been feeling, but besides that I hadn't noticed any major changes to my appearance, and I was pretty sure that my weight would appear again in no time, with how much my appetite had picked up.

The time for my second visit rolled around, and by then I was feeling really good, great even. I felt like I had more energy, and my acne had began to clear up, a blessing in itself since my mom still had acne when she was well into her forties, and I had taken after her in that regard. I was still the ugly duckling in the waiting room, sitting on the outside and watching the sex gods and goddesses who were further along in the program flirting and talking, but at least I didn't feel as bad as I had the last time I had been there.

At least, not until I entered the doctor's office. Dr. Huxtable took one look at me, and began to frown.

"Have you noticed ANY changes?"

"Well, um, I felt really bad that first week after you gave me the shot and I started the pills, and I lost a bunch of weight 'cause I couldn't eat, but then I got feeling better, and I haven't put the weight back on."

"Anything else?"

"My acne's a bit better?" I added hopefully.

"No, no, NO. You should be further along than this. The nanobots-"

"WAIDDAMINUTE! Nanobots? Since when did we go all freaky-deaky sci fi here?"

The doctor didn't seem amused, but then again, I wasn't either. "You agreed to the experimental procedures when you signed the paperwork, Mr. West. Trust me, they're perfectly safe, we know what we're doing."

"Yeah, so did Wesley Crusher."

"What?"

"Nothing. So, explain this to me... HOW did you make these things?" I know, I should have been more worried, but my inner Trekkie and all around future tech junkie had to know.

The doctor still looked like he was about ready to shit pricks over how little I had changed, but calmed down a bit and tried to explain. "It isn't the same as what you've seen in movies and books. They're actually genetically engineered virii that we've found a way to force into playing host to additional genetically engineered bacteria and other microorganisms. We mix them with a blood sample of yours prior to injection, and they adopt your DNA into their makeup, that way when we do inject them into you they will affect you and only you, with no risk of spreading to others even through sexual contact. We built off the most stable virii and bacterial agents we could find, so they have an incredible life span when within you, but have a low likelihood of mutating, and will quickly die out if transferred into another person."

Oh-kay, I've read enough Crighton and other sci-fi for that to make some sense. "But how does that make me 'better, stronger, faster' and all that?"

"Well," the doctor huffed, "at the core of it's being it's still a virus. We simply tell it what cells and chemicals in your body to attack, and engineer it to only attack them if certain key elements are present or conditions met using the bacteria we have infected the virii with. I think. Something like that. The point is, the virus will eat anything that doesn't fit what we want in your body, and produce elements that help create the body we want; in this case, we're going for perfecting your own genetic code, so you should be showing the absolute best your family's genetic makeup is capable of producing. By now, there should have been SOME muscle gain, or an increase in body mass, but instead, nothing."

"Sorry for disappointing you, Doc, but apparently your little nanobots don't work on me like the others."

He nodded, "Obviously, not. Are you still going for the experiment?"

I shrugged, "Sure." I still needed the money, and if I already had the damn things in me, what could I do?

"In that case, I'm gonna give you a booster shot of some more nanobots. Virusbots. Whatever you want to call them."

I thought about what he was saying for a moment. I had agreed to a drug trial, that's it, and this was obviously something more, WAY more. BUT, there was the idea of being able to look like those guys out in the front office, or being able to get one of those girls. I mean, that brunette was here again, and if anything she was even MORE stacked this time.

I raised myself up off the bed and turned around, lowering my pants. "Ready whenever you are, Doc."
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"No shit?"

"Nope. That's what he said."

"Whoa. And you let them put MORE of those things in you?" John asked me. Being the better prepared of the two of us, he had acquired enough scholarships to pay all of his tuition, so he didn't have to work if he didn't want to. And he didn't.

He was already in our room when I returned, so I wasted no time telling him about what the doctor had told me. He was quick to start in about how science wasn't ready to be trying stuff like that yet, as well as a lot of other arguments trying to prove what I was saying wrong, but in the end gave up. Neither of us knew enough about viruses and bacteria to be sure whether or not they could actually do what the doctor told me these would, but I was willing to give it a chance. I had another bottle of the puberty-boosting pills too, which I now knew also had a chemical in them that the viruses and bacteria needed to survive, so if I did decide to stop the test all I had to do was stop the pills, and all the nanobot things would die, after which the changes would stop.

"I dunno, man, I think they should have told you something like this before the test. I mean, this is a lot more than just some pills that pump up your testosterone or something."

"I know, but..." I was getting frustrated trying to get him to understand. "I really wanna see this through. You didn't see the people in the doctor's office, the girls were super hot, and the guys looked like everything I've always wanted to be."

"What's wrong with what you look like now?" John asked me, like it wasn't obvious.

I gave him a disbelieving look. "You're kidding, right? I'm fat, I've got bad skin, and no muscles whatsoever."

"I just don't think you should be trying to change your body like that. If you wanna get more fit, you could start running with me every morning, and stop eating all the crap you're always shoveling down while playing your games." He reached over to the top drawer of my desk and pulled out one of the bags of chips I had stuffed in there. "How many of these do you go through a week? Four? Five? You don't need some miracle robots, Cody, you just need to prioritize a little."

He still didn't understand, did he? "I eat a lot because I hate myself and it makes me feel better. I don't have the energy to exercise because I'm depressed all the time. Dammit, don't you think I've tried? I always get so frustrated having to wait on results, it just doesn't work for me!"

"But-"

"NO! No 'but's,' I am TIRED of looking around and seeing people ignore me and snub me because of how I look!" I was also tired of trying to explain, and he still wasn't getting it, so I turned around again and left a stunned Justin sitting at his desk while I headed out to walk around campus.

What was so hard for him to understand? I fought my frustration as I walked a circuit around the campus, trying to ignore the chill that was already starting to set in the air even though October had barely begun. Why shouldn't I take this chance to better myself? Whatever he said, he just didn't get that things didn't work the same for me as they did for him.

Or could they? I was walking the same route he took every morning for his run. Why didn't I join him?

Because, I reminded myself with a snide chuckle, there was no way in hell, even in my currently improved fitness, that I could ever keep up with him. I might be able to make it half a lap around before I would be wheezing and straining just to stand up.

That's why I needed the experiment. Once it was over, I could start working out with him, no questions asked. I smiled as I thought that maybe, I would even be better than him! That would show him! See who looks better in the jogging shorts THEN.

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Sitting In

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"Excuse me."

"Yes?" I said, as I felt the hand that had touched my shoulder gently turn me around.

"That's the men's room, miss."

I sighed. "I know," I said as I rocked Anthony gently, hoping to calm him down. He needed changing, and I was tired of being stopped like this every time I tried. "I am a guy."

The security officer started to laugh, until he saw the serious look on my face. Without a word I handed him my ID: Clarence Daniel Hartman, Male. "Well, then. Ah, sorry for bothering you."

I nodded, and pushed my way into the restroom, making a bee line for the changing table.

I should be used to the comments. After all, how many teenage guys do you know who do babysitting? Okay, so there are a few, but they're few and far between compared to the number of girls who do it, and my appearance doesn't exactly scream He-Man. What can I say? Fine features run in my family on both sides, as does my skinny build.

"There," I said as I stuck the last tab on Anthony's diaper, "that's better, huh?"

He gurgled happily in reply before making a face that long experience had told me meant another diaper was in order.

"Aww, Tony," I whined, but did my doodie duty, as it were, and with that finished -- and another diaper in place, hopefully for longer this time -- I packed up my baby supplies, ready to head back out into the mall.

While washing my hands on the way out, though, I took a long look at myself in the mirror. My baggy button-down shirt, one of my dad's old ones and a good two sizes too big for me, hung half way down my thighs, the sleeves rolled up several times but still hanging past my elbows. My hair was pulled back behind my ears and mostly tucked under my baseball cap, but some of it had fallen out, covering part of my face. With a snort I took off my cap and pushed it all back again, telling myself that some time soon I needed to get it cut, since it was almost long enough to pull into a ponytail. Another snort, this time for the too-androgynous image before me, and I made my way for the food court, where I was supposed to meet two of my friends for lunch.

Well, to be honest, "friends" might have been pushing it a bit. Lauren and Erin both lived in my neighborhood, and between the three of us we split most of the babysitting jobs for a few blocks around. We had started hanging out mostly due to having the babysitting in common, but I always felt a little out of place with them, like there was something they didn't want to share with me because I was a boy. Despite that, though, they were almost my only contact with kids my own age outside of school, since my appearance and occupation made me somewhat of a pariah among the guys.

"It's about time," Lauren said, grinning at me as I slid into the booth next to her. "What kept you so long."

"Security didn't wanna let me in the restroom," I told her without looking at her face.

"Again?" Erin asked, her voice breaking into a squeak near the end like it tended to do when she was surprised.

Lauren laughed. "Well, can you really blame him? If I saw you walking into the boy's room I'd stop you too."

"Come on, don't rub it in."

"I'm not, I'm just saying you're not doing yourself any favors with the way you dress. I mean, most girls in our class wouldn't be caught dead wearing that outside the house, but it's not that different from the clothes I wear when I feel like being a little slobbish."

I looked at Lauren in her peasant top and jeans, and for the life of me I couldn't recall ever seeing her in anything remotely "slobbish." Erin was a bit more casual in her style, hardly ever wearing anything other than her hoodie and cargo pants, but even those were always clean and presentable.

"Well," I said, "it's not like I have a lot of choice, is it? My mom and dad can't afford to buy me a lot of clothes, so I gotta make do with what I've got."

"What about your babysitting money?"

"What?" I laughed. "I'm not gonna spend my money on clothes if I don't have to! I've got better things to spend it on."

"Like anime," Erin said, pointing with her fork at the FYE bag sitting at my feet.

"And greasy food," Lauren added, staring at my chicken nuggets and fries in disgust.

"Well, not all of us can be vegans like you."

"Not on your life," Erin agreed before taking a bite of her own greaseburger and moaning in pleasure.

"Ugh, you two are disgusting," Lauren said before closing her eyes and digging into her salad.

"So, watching Little Tony today?"

I nodded, sharing one of my nuggets with the small boy, who gummed it happily while I dug into the rest. "Yeah, his mom and dad are visiting some relative in the hospital and didn't want him around all the sick people since he's just gotten over that ear infection."

"Ooh, yeah, not a good idea." Erin lightly rocked the child in the carrier next to her, who was fast asleep despite the noise of the room. "I've got Carly 'cause Aunt Rachel didn't feel up to it." We all three commiserated over the horrors of having to work for family for free, even though Lauren and I both knew that Erin would spend every day with Carly if she could.

That was probably the real reason our little group stayed together. Even with our differences, we all shared one common feature -- we all loved taking care of the children we watched. Lauren and Erin were the only two who I had ever admitted it to, but it was a long held secret of mine that I found babysitting more fun than any video game or sport. Even having to change diapers and all the other gross jobs associated with their care weren't enough to change that.

I was looking down at Anthony, rocking him gently in my arms as he too succumbed to sleep, when I heard Lauren say quietly, "You look so pretty when you're doing that."

"He does, doesn't he?"

"Huh?"

The two girls laughed softly, trying to be quiet so as not to wake the babies. Lauren had an odd look on her face though, as she stared at me and Anthony.

"I think I've got an idea."

Uh oh.

"What?" I asked, afraid to know but more afraid of not knowing.

"A bet," she said, with a grin.

"What stakes?"

"New clothes for you. If you win, we'll buy them with our next babysitting weeks, whatever clothes you want. But if WE win, you have to spend your next two weeks on them, and we get to pick."

I shook my head. "No deal." We all three had agreed some time before on a single rate we all charged our customers, and on average our weekly totals usually added up to about a hundred dollars each. There was no way I was going to agree to spending that much money on something I didn't think I needed, especially when I already had plans for it. On the other hand, though, I didn't want to make the girls mad by completely refusing, so I decided to bargain them down. "How about half of each week? And half of a week from each of you?" That would still give me plenty of money for what I wanted, I just wouldn't be saving any back.

Lauren looked at Erin, who grinned and nodded. "Deal."

We all shook on it. "So what's the bet?"

Lauren gave me an evil look, and I started regretting the bet immediately.

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"I can't believe I agreed to this."

"Oh, come on, it'll be fun!"

"It'll be embarrassing."

"Only if you get caught."

I snorted. "Like I won't?"

"We'll see."

The three of us were standing in line, waiting to sign up for one of the many summer classes being offered by the local community college. The classes were two-week courses available to anyone who wanted to sign up and could afford the fee, but since we went to the local high school we could take any of them we wanted for free on the basis that if we were willing to continue our educations during our summer break we should be compensated in some way.

"Can I help you ladies?"

Lauren and Erin giggled, while I just stood back and watched, fighting the blush that fought to rise in my cheeks.

"Yes," Lauren said, stepping toward the girl at the sign-in desk, "we'd like to sign up for the child care class?"

The girl looked at the list in front of her and smiled. "You're in luck! There's room for three more in Miss Anderson's class on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Will that work for the three of you?"

"That sounds perfect!"

"Then if you'll just sign in right here, and show me your student IDs we can get you going."

Lauren and Erin looked at each other worriedly, enacting the next stage of their plan. "Um, the two of us have our IDs, but Claire," they said, pointing at me, "just moved here and doesn't have one yet."

The girl gave them another radiant smile and nodded. "Well I'll make an exception for her this time then since she's obviously with the two of you. She doesn't say much, does she?"

"She's a little shy, but we're hoping to change that."

"Well, good luck with that! I used to be a wallflower myself, and now look at me!" The girls signed the sheet of paper, then beckoned me up to sign beneath them. I bit my tongue as I concentrated on signing my name as "Claire Danielle Hartman" as cleanly as possible.

"Thank you. See you Monday!"

"See you Monday," Lauren called, elbowing me.

"Ow! Monday," I said too, waving to the college student, who waved back with a wink. "I still can't believe I let you two talk me into this."

"You'll enjoy it, trust me," Erin said confidently.

I'd known I should have declined the bet the instant they laid out the terms, but at the time I had thought I had a chance. Now, I wasn't so sure.

The bet? I had to attend the course for two weeks without anyone twigging to my being a guy. A course that would mostly be filled with kids from my own school or other locals.

I was so dead.

"Don't worry so much, you don't look all that much like yourself right now, and if anyone asks you're a cousin visiting for the summer," Lauren said, seeing my nervousness.

"And what if they ask why I'm never seen with myself? Or why I'm always with you two? We're kind of a recognizable group."

She stopped for a moment in thought. "We'll work something out."

Yeah, right, I didn't say. "I still don't feel comfortable," I did.

"Try taking shorter steps."

I glared at her.

Part of the agreement concerning the class was that I would dress the part, so to speak, wearing whatever Lauren and Erin could find for me that made me pass as sufficiently girly to them. The end result had been that my big sister was in the loop now too, and had given the pair of them permission to raid her closet for clothes for me while she was away discovering America or whatever it was she was doing with her friends this summer. Her clothes were a little loose on me in a few key areas, but the girls told me that would be fine for the moment since my sister had almost the same build as I did, just with a few minor curves I didn't have that could be faked if it was really needed.

That was why I found myself wearing a pair of her jean shorts with another one of my dad's baggy flannel shirts on top of a spaghetti strap tank, my hair brushed out and shaped with gel into what Erin said was a flip or something like that. I had even agreed to shaving my legs to improve the illusion, though I had drawn the line at wearing my sister's underwear. There were just some boundaries you didn't cross, even if my boxers were bunched uncomfortably in the loose hips of the shorts to keep them from hanging out.

Erin looked at Lauren and I. "What do you two have planned for the day?"

Lauren shrugged. "Nothing much."

I grimaced. "Going home to change."

"Oh, come on, you look cute!"

I looked down at myself in the short-shorts that didn't even peek below the hem of the shirt. "These shorts aren't the most comfortable, you know."

"That's just 'cause of your underwear, we can fix that easily you know."

"I already told you I'm not wearing my sister's."

"What about some guy's bikinis then?"

I thought about it. "Would it make that big a difference?" They looked at me like I was an idiot. "Sheesh, alright then!"

Lauren smiled at me, rubbing my shoulder. "Tell ya what, I'll even pay for them. If you win, we'll take it out of what we owe you in clothes, if we win, you'll pay us back for them, okay?"

"Dammit. Fine. Can I still go home and change out of these first?"

"Nope!" Erin said with a giggle that disappeared quickly when she saw my frown. "Alright, if you really want to, but we don't mind and I doubt anyone else will notice. Heck, I'll drive us to a store out of town it would make you feel better about it. Please?"

I sighed again. I found myself doing that a lot lately. "Alright, fine. Can we just hurry? I'm starting to chafe in these things."

"Eww, gross!"

"Off to underwear!" Lauren cried triumphantly, drawing stares from the people around us.

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True to her word, Erin drove the extra hour to a shopping center in another school district, alleviating at least some of my fears of getting caught. Unfortunately, none of us expected a different problem we encountered.

"Umm, Claire?"

I wanted to complain about the name, but thinking about my appearance was enough to stop it. "Yes?"

"I don't think any of these will be small enough to fit you."

"Oh you've got to be kidding me."

Between us we searched high and low, looking for the missing underwear, only to find that Lauren was right -- the store was completely out of my size in the men's bikinis.

"Alright," I said, hoping for a more amenable answer, "what about some plain tightie whities?"

"Eww, no way! NOBODY looks good in those," Erin said, sneering.

"Well, we're not buying them to look good."

"Nuh uh, no way," Lauren shook her head, fists on her hips. "If I'm buying them then they're gonna look good. We'll just have to check the girls' section."

I stopped. "I'm sorry?"

"Well you're not big enough for the women's section. Juniors maybe. Jeez, your family is built small!"

"We're not small. We're just... compact."

"Gotcha."

"And I don't think I wanna wear girl's underwear."

"Why not?"

I stared at her. "Because it's girl's underwear."

Erin rolled her eyes, giving me a light punch in the shoulder. "It's not like we're asking you to wear anything fancy. Heck, if we're going with girl's stuff we can get you regular briefs and be fine."

"But. It's GIRL'S. UNDERWEAR."

Lauren looked at me like I was being an idiot. "You're wearing a cami top and a pair of girl's jean shorts with hearts on the pockets. I don't think panties are gonna make a big difference in people's perception of you."

I wanted to argue, but couldn't. "What if I buy them?"

Lauren and Erin looked at each other, then as one pouted at me.

"Oh, come on, that's not fair!"

A single tear rolled down Erin's cheek.

"...alright."

"YES!"

"The tear works every time," Erin said, wiping her face then giving me a light hug. "Come on."

I was shocked. We had been hanging out for a while, but this was the first time either of the girls had ever hugged me or anything. Come to think of it, they had been a lot friendlier the last couple of days since the bet was made.

"What's wrong?" Lauren asked, when she saw that I wasn't moving.

I shook my head. "Nothing," I said, then followed them to the juniors section of the store.

A short while later I found myself walking out of the store, my boxers and four-fifths a pack of underwear in the bag in my hand.

"So, any better?"

"I dunno yet. Maybe?"

"Six dollars and it's just a 'maybe?'"

I glared at her. "Well, considering I don't normally wear panties--"

"Ugh! Hussy!" An old woman walking near us exclaimed, looking at me in shock before scurrying away.

I looked around, embarrassed. "Uhm... oops?"

Lauren and Erin started laughing, and soon I couldn't help but join in.

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Dinner with my parents that night was interesting, to say the least.

"So what's this I hear about you borrowing your sister's clothes?"

"What?" I asked nervously, seeing the smile on my mom's face.

"She called me and said a couple of girls had asked her if you could borrow some of her things?"

My dad glared at me across his peas. "What's this about?"

I bowed my head, defeated. "It's like this..."

I described the bet to my parents, leaving out the part about the girl's underwear but including everything else I could think of. When I finished, my mom was giving me that same enigmatic smile while my dad sat staring at me, expressionless.

I looked between the two of them, hoping for some kind of sign that they would object. Instead, my dad's mask of composure finally cracked, and he began to cackle uncontrollably, tears running down his face. My mom joined in shortly, and I simply sat there confused as they basked in their mirth.

When Dad finally calmed down, he said in between breaths, "You realize, of course, that if they win, they're going to be buying you girls' clothes anyhow." My eyes grew wide as the truth of what he had said dawned on me, only to be emphasized my Mom's emphatic nodding.

"You won't let them, right?" I asked, almost begged, my parents.

Dad shook his head. "You know we've always tried to let you and your sister make your own mistakes. Besides, it wouldn't be the first time the guys in our family have ended up dressed as girls."

"Huh?"

Mom giggled. "I made a similar bet with your dad in college. I'm almost ashamed to say he looked better in my clothes than I did!"

"Oh, please tell me you're kidding..."

"Nope!" My dad said with a grin. "That's why your Uncle Simon calls me 'twinkle toes.' He's never really handled our little game well."

"That's because he can't get over the embarrassment of asking you out."

"Well, I told him I was taken."

"Yes you are." Mom leaned over and gave my dad a kiss on the cheek, making him blush. Hey, I come by it naturally!

"So what you're saying is that if they want to put me in girl's clothes, you're going to LET them?"

Dad shrugged, going back to his food with gusto, while Mom nodded.

"I'm doomed."

I finished my dinner and made my way to my room after a quick "goodnight" to my parents, but had barely finished changing when there was a knock at my door.

"Come in."

At my answer Mom came into the room, smiling at me again. This time, though, it was her Mom-smile that told me we were about to talk about something important.

"Clarence, honey, can we talk?"

"Sure, Mom," I said, sitting down on my bed. She settled in next to me, wrapping her arm around my shoulder.

"Do you really want us to tell the girls 'no' on this for you?"

"You would do that for me?"

She nodded. "We want you to learn from your actions, but we're still your parents. If you think you're in over your head, we'll always be there to help. I'd hope you knew that."

I gave her a hug. "I know, Mom. And thanks."

She hugged me back. "So do you want our help?"

I paused. "I... I don't know. Were you and Dad serious? About what you did in college?"

She laughed. "Yes, AND about my brother." She looked at me seriously for a moment, though I could still see the humor in her eyes. "Can I share a secret with you?"

"What?"

She leaned down next to me, and whispered into my ear, "we still go out together like that sometimes."

I jumped back in shock, staring into my mom's eyes. "Really?"

"Yup! Your dad's a very special man. And so are you," she said, leaning forward and kissing me on the forehead.

I thought about what she had said. My dad dressed as a girl sometimes?

I thought and thought, and finally came to a decision.

"Mom?"

"Yes honey?"

"I, well, I think I wanna go through with it?"

She gave me another gentle squeeze. "Are you sure?"

I shook my head. "No. I get picked on sometimes because of how small I am already, and if this gets out it will only get worse. But the girls are the best friends I have, so I don't think they'd do anything to try and hurt me?"

Mom nodded. "I asked your sister, and she got that impression as well, though I'll still be talking to them about what they plan on doing before I let you go through with this."

"Mom, I'm almost seventeen. I think I can handle telling them 'no' if it gets to be too much for me."

"Positive?"

"Yes!" She gave me the Mom-stare. "...Okay, not really. They're girls! Girls are tricksy."

She laughed again, ruffling my hair. "Tricksy, are we?"

"Erin can cry on demand."

Mom scowled. "Sorry, but I'll definitely be having a talk with them before this goes further."

"Mom!"

"Clarence!"

I sighed. "Alright Mom. I love you."

"I love you too, sweetie. Now get some sleep," she said, standing up. "Miss Olivera called earlier and wants you to watch Candace tomorrow."

"'Kay," I said, covering myself up as she turned off the lights and left the room.

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The Oliveras were a nice enough family. Mr. And Mrs. Olivera both worked for one of the local country music radio stations, and Candace was their only child. She was ten years old, and though she was old enough not to need a babysitter any more, I wasn't about to give up the money if I didn't have to, and since I would play with her when she wanted and leave her alone otherwise she wasn't too bothered by the arrangement, though we both agreed that if they still wanted her to have a babysitter when she turned twelve we would sit them down and have a talk with them.

"Hey Candace."

"Hi Clarence," she said, turning back to her video game as I sat down on the couch and watched her play.

"Whatcha playing?"

"Go Go Super Animal Prince Kyashi," she said, like that was any kind of explanation.

"Ah."

"You wanna play?"

"No thanks," I said, watching her bounce some kind fo half-human half-cat thing around the screen while other characters spouted seemingly random japanese phrases. I closed my eyes, but the colors continued to swim before them. Some games were just too weird for me to enjoy. "Have fun, though," I told her, but by then she was already absorbed into her game again.

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Living the Life of a Heroine

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I remember thinking I was the luckiest guy in the world when I first found the ad. Isn't it every game geek's dream to work for a software company? I mean, sure, I'd never heard of 'em before, and it wasn't the most prestigious of jobs, but still- working in the game industry had been my dream for as long as I could remember. So, I wrote down the number, and I called in and set up an interview.

I was so nervous that first day. They had me sitting in an office with probably a dozen other guys, all trying out for the same job I was. Some of them big and muscular, some of them big and... well, obviously geeks. Most of us were somewhat tall, so at least I wasn't entirely out of my element, I remember thinking, though as the two hours of interviews passed the thought crossed my mind more than once that I didn't stand a chance in hell of getting the job. Here I was, a tall, geeky lookin' guy with a week's worth of beard stubble and a suit from Penney's making up my attempt at looking professional and attractive for today's interview. I heard them call "Ren Harris" on the intercom- that's me- so I got up and tried smoothing my jacket and wrinkled button-down shirt as best I could before heading down the hallway for the door at the end. They had it set up so that we would enter on one side and exit on the other, so that those who were still waiting wouldn't get a chance to see or talk to anyone who had gone before. As a result, I still had no idea what they were looking for, I just knew I wasn't it.

The ad had been almost stupefyingly simple. It was nothing more than a small text block in that week's paper, 'New game company seeking hard working individual for mascot. Must be reliable, social, and love games.' They'd also included the name of their company- Sabretooth Games- along with the address and phone number. Workin' for the pizza place just was barely covering the rent, so I figured 'what the hell' and called 'em. So there I was, wondering just exactly how embarrassed I would be when they saw me and instantly called out 'next' despite me being the last interview left.

"Stand straight and walk down the middle of the room towards the table," I heard a scratchy male voice coming from the other end of the room. Looking up, I saw a long table with five people sitting at it, slightly in the shadows so I couldn't make out what they really looked like. I started walking towards the table like I had been told. About half way there, the voice chimed in again. "Raise your arms out to the side and turn around twice. Slowly."

What kind of interview was this? I was feeling pretty stupid, standing there spinning like a little kid, especially with knowing I wasn't gonna get the job. What can I say, I have a bad habit of smarting off when I'm in a bad mood. "Would you like me to do a pirouette too, or is that good enough."

The light chuckle was unexpected. "That's good enough. How tall are you, son?"

"Uh, I'm not really sure." I scratched my chin trying to remember what the doctor had said last time I'd seen one. "I think six two, maybe six three."

"Hmm. And do you know how big around your waist is?"

What the hell? "Well, I wear a size thirty two jeans." I could see the figures in the shadows twisting around and leaning towards one another, and I could hear them talking quietly, though I did manage to make out the word 'stick'. Not like it was anything new, of course, or unexpected- I worked hard not to be the fat kind of geek, though delivering pizzas didn't help. I couldn't help it, my mouth got the better of me again. "Listen, I know I'm probably not what you were looking for, so let's cut the crap. Which one of the other guys do you want me to send back in when I go out?"

I heard that laugh again, and I really wanted to smack the person behind it. "Oh, I don't think you need to send anybody back in, though if you can't control that mouth we might change our minds, mister... Harris, is it?"

I was a bit shocked, to say the least. "Ah, call me Ren. You mean I got the job?"

"Well, you're about what we were looking for as far as height goes, and if you can keep your mouth in check and channel some of that attitude into hard work I think we could work together. It says here that... you have no previous experience in modeling. Why did you apply for this job, Mister- sorry, Ren. If I may say so, you don't seem too thrilled to be here."

I shrugged. "Sorry 'bout that, I just figured I didn't stand a chance after seeing the other guys and got kinda pissed about it."

"Not every job in entertainment calls for a body builder, Mister Harris."

"Uh, yeah. As for why I applied? Well, I like games."

There was a long pause before anyone replied. "Is that it?"

"Y-yeah," I nodded. "That's about it."

That damned chuckle again. "Well okay then. Mister Harris, I was very impressed today, and I think we might be able to work well together. However, we do have another two days of interviews for the job before we make our final decision. I promise you, though, as soon as we have our decision we will give you a call, one way or the other. Be expecting us to contact you in a few days, sir."

A creak to my left drew my eyes to where a square of light had appeared on the wall, with a flashing 'exit' sign above it. The sarcastic "I guess I'm excused then," escaped my lips before I could stop it, and without waiting for an answer I made my way out the door.

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The next couple of days after that were not what I would call my best. I was nervous, irritable, and constantly checking my phone for new messages, just in case, you know, I missed the call in the five minutes since the last time I had checked. By the middle of the third day after the interview, I had calmed down a lot- if they called, they called. By the end of the fifth day, I had reached the assumption that I hadn't got the job, and they had been lying when they said they were gonna call. What had ever possessed me to think they might actually call me? I was twenty four, living in a rathole in a bad part of town, and I delivered pizzas. That was my lot in life, and I had best accept it.

It was a week after the interview that I got the call. I had been cruising the mall looking for Bruce Campbell memorabilia- nothing says good decorating sense like a Bubba Ho-Tep poster over your mantelpiece- when out of nowhere the Firefly theme came on. 'Oh, right, cell phone.' I pulled my phone out, and my heart skipped a beat when I saw the caller ID tag 'saber games'. Could they really be calling me back? I fumbled for a moment getting the phone open, hoping against hope my voice wasn't shaking when I said, "Hello?"

Fran Drescher answered, "Yeah, is this Mista Ren Harris?"

I nodded, then remembered I was on the phone. "Yeah- I mean, yes, this is me, er, him. He. I'm Ren."

"Hi, Mista Harris, I'm Laurie, with Sabatooth Games. I was told to let ya know we need you to come in to tha studio tomarra to talk to Mista Wesley about tha mascot job." I felt more than heard the sound of a nail file on the other end of the phone, and fought my instinct to cringe. "He's expecting ya at eleven in tha moaning, do ya need tha address?"

"Uh... yeah, hold on." I scrabbled madly in my pocket for something to write with and on, pulling out my grocery list and flipping to the back. "'Kay, shoot." I carefully took down the address she gave me as well as the time and office number. "Thanks, I'll see ya tomarra- er, tomorrow."

"Yeah, shua. See ya then." The line clicked off, but I kept the phone on my ear for at least a minute after, still trying to sort out what had just happened.

And so the next day I found myself sitting in a parking lot in one of the less industrial sections of the industrial district, trying to remember how the hell the knot on a tie works before giving up and taking it off. I had even taken the opportunity to shave this time, only cutting myself once. Straightening my suit one last time and checking my watch- ten to eleven- I opened the door and stood up. After only minor cursing, I managed to unlatch my seatbelt, and gave standing up another and far more successful shot.

The building wasn't much to look at, being your typical cinderblock two storey building with the big glass windows that don't open and a badly done hand painted sign over the double doors out front that read 'Sabretooth Games' in a weird pointy script. Just inside the doors was a cheap metal desk, with a woman with frizzy blonde hair sitting behind it typing on a keyboard.

I approached the desk and coughed lightly, trying to get her attention. Unfortunately, that didn't seem to work, so I ended up resorting to being a bit more pushy. "Hey, uh, Miss Warner? I'm here to see a Mister Wesley about a job?"

"Huh? Oh! Ah you Ren?" I nodded. "Hi!"

"Um... hi?"

"Oh, fahgive me, I'm Laurie Wahnah, the secretary you talked to yestaday." She held out her manicured hand to me to shake, so not knowing what else to do, I did. "Call me Laurie."

"Okay, Laurie. So, is he here?"

The smile never left her face. "Who?"

"Mr. Wesley?"

"Oh, yeah, right through thea, go on ahead." She pointed to a door to her right, then went back to her computer work like I wasn't there. I wasn't sure if I trusted that this Laurie girl knew what she was doing- I was vaguely unsure if she even knew where she was working- but decided to ignore that for the moment and went through the door she had pointed to.

Inside, I found a neat little office with a pair of large windows facing out over the industrial park behind it. At the desk across from the door sat a squat, older man with whispy brown hair brushed over a bald spot in a vain attempt to disguise it, yelling into a phone. Sitting across from him was a tall, elegant looking blonde girl with the most beautiful face I had ever seen and a nice set of, ah, 'assets' to boot, though the effect was somewhat ruined by the disdainful scowl she wore as she looked me up and down.

"-if I've told you once, I've told you a hundred times, we need that project done by the end of next month! No, I can't delay release again, you're already four months behind schedule. Thank you. Good bye," he hung up angrily. When he turned to face the pair of us, though, his expression quickly shifted to a sly businessman's smile. "Now, where was I? Oh, both of you are here I see. Mr. Harris, it's good to see you again. Please, take the seat next to Miss Romaijn, and we can get started."

No longer as sure of what I was doing as I had been, I sat down nervously in the hard plastic chair. "If this is a bad time, sir, I can come back later," I said, glancing at the girl next to me.

"What? Bad time? Nonsense. Now that you're both here, we can begin talking about your assignment."

Both? I looked at the girl next to me again. Would I be working with her? She sneered at me again, leaving me to wonder if looking at her body would be worth putting up with the matching attitude.

Apparently she felt the same way. "Excuse me, but I was told this was a modeling job," she said, her voice conveying her dissatisfaction clearly.

"And so it is," Mr. Wesley said, his own smile never slipping.

"Then what is... THAT, doing here?" She asked, waving her hand at me without looking in my direction.

In an instant Mr. Wesley's smile was gone, replaced by a scowl. "Miss, if you have a problem with who I choose to represent our company then I can assure you, you are not the only model I considered for your part. Mr. Harris, on the other hand, is exactly what we need for the part he is here for. Is that clear?"

Her eyes grew wide as she nodded confirmation that she did indeed understand him. Meanwhile, I just sat there growing more confused by the minute. Did he really just say that I was more important than the bombshell sitting next to me? Talk about your ego boosts!

After a few moments of silence, he managed to force his businessman smile back on. "As I was saying, I couldn't be happier to have the two of you here. Tell me, do either of you follow developments in the video game industry?"

"No," the apparent Ms. Romaijn said quietly.

"Do you, Mr. Harris?"

I shook my head. "Not a lot. I mean, I play a lot of games, but I usually don't have the cash to buy them when they're new, so I don't get my hopes up by keeping track of what's coming out."

He nodded his understanding. "Well, with any luck that soon will change. The two of you are here today because we want you to work on the ad campaign for our new game 'Lunar Knight.' Let me tell you a bit about the game..."

With that, he proceeded to give us a rundown of the game's story and characters. The main character, a mercenary named Raven Knight, is hired by a corporation to quell an uprising at one of their moon-based research and production facilities. On arriving, though, she ends up siding with the rebels against the corporation, which has been performing illegal genetic experimentation on many of its own employees. From what he described, the game would essentially be a Metroid ripoff with mutants instead of aliens, right down to the designs he showed us for the main character's armored suit.

"I'm going to be stuck in that thing?" Ms. Romaijn asked, looking at the suit with obvious distaste.

"No, of course not. This will be more like your suit," he said, showing another picture of a woman who looked similar to the model wearing a tight fitting bluish purple jumpsuit of some kind.

"Who's that?"

"It's still Raven, but this is her outside of the combat suit. There will be sections of the game where she's wearing this instead."

"Oh!" The model said, obviously much more impressed with the figure-flattering outfit than with the massive armor.

"And will I be playing one of the mutants?" I asked, my curiousity getting the better of me as I flipped through the various sketches of other characters from the game.

"No, you'll be in the combat suit."

I almost dropped the cardstock in my hands at his words. "I'm sorry, but could you repeat that?"

"You'll be wearing Raven's combat armor," Mr. Wesley said with a grin.

I looked at the picture of the armor laying on his desk. With trembling hands I picked it up and studied it more closely. Despite the dangerous and, admittedly, badass look of the armor, it was obviously shaped to convey the impression of a female figure beneath, and an attractive one at that, right down to the rediculous raised heels on the slender boots.

I almost stood up right then and walked out the door, but something stopped me. Was it curiousity? No, it was greed. "How much are we talking here?" I asked as calmly as I could, laying the pile of pictures I had collected back on his desk.

"Four thousand per event, plus the cost of accomodations and travel fare."

"Accomodations?"

"Well of course. You would be modeling for us at conventions across the country."

"I was told this was commercial and photo work," Ms. Romaijn butted in again, obviously still not pleased with the goings on.

"There will be that as well," Mr. Wesley said, shooting her a look of mild annoyance, "and you would be payed well, in addition to royalties any time we reused your images. It's all outlined in the contract," he said, pulling two stacks of paper out of his desk and handing one to each of us.

I looked over the paperwork carefully, putting all the knowledge I had gained in my half semester at community college to the test trying to detangle the legal mumbo jumbo. I whistled out loud when I got to the part about what we would be paid. It most definitely left my pizza delivery job in the dust, to say the least!

I bit the tip of the pen that had been clipped to the contract as I thought carefully about signing. On the positive side, it was damn good money, and for what, attending gaming conventions and posing for a few pictures? What could be easier? On the other hand, as obscure as it might be I would still be essentially dressing as a girl. In addition to that, I knew enough about costumes to know that the suit would be hot as hell, especially crammed into a convention hall full of people, and uncomfortable to boot. Did I really want to put up with all that trouble?

For that kind of money, yes. I signed the papers and initialled them where needed, handing them back to Mr. Wesley, who was wearing what I was sure had to be the first real smile of the meeting. Shortly afterward, a much more hesitant Ms. Romaijn handed her own contract back.

"Good, I'm glad this all worked out. If the two of you could come in tomorrow, we can get to work on getting you fitted. Oh, and Mr. Harris," he said, stopping me as I had begun to rise from my seat.

"Yes?"

"Bring the attitude next time, it's part of why I picked you."

"Oh. Alright," I said, slightly confused. Wasn't that what had gotten Little Miss Stuck Up in so much trouble?

"Good on ya," he said, slapping my back harder than I would have expected from someone with his build.

I waved goodby to Laurie on my way out, but I don't think she even noticed. What had I gotten myself into?

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Like the game company itself, the photo studio they had chosen to take our photos for the game advertisements was small, located on a street made up mostly of old warehouses and smelling strongly of fish despite not being anywhere near the harbor. Nevertheless, once I mustered up what courage I could and walked through the doors I found myself surprised by the clean and professional look the studio had on the inside.

"You must be Ren," the cute receptionist said as she stood up from her chair and offered me her hand.

"That's me."

"Welcome to our studios, Mr. Harris. Let me show you to the sound stage where you will be working today."

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Welp, that's the end of this episode of "Snippets."
Again, if someone finds one of these appealing to continue, let me know, and depending on the story I might just let it go. This is by no means everything I've got in the works at the moment, though this does clear out quite a bit of backlog, at least as far as getting it aired.
So, pick something and ask for it, or even pick something and bring it up as one you would particularly like to see continued -- or better yet, left as nothing more than a snippet and tossed out.
...Just lemme know, okay?

Special Someones by Melanie E on Kindle

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Special Someones
by Melanie E
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What if your secret admirer... was really your best friend?

What if you can only be yourself... when you're someone else?

What if your beautiful roommate... was another boy?

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  • Reluctant
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Switcheroo

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Louis Phelps has recently come into the somewhat dubious honor of holding the powers of the long-running superhero Switcheroo! The only problem? Louis is a guy, and Switcheroo... is a heroINE!

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What happens when the only candidate available to inherit a superpower is more than a little different than those who have had it before? Louis Phelps is about to find out.

Switcheroo

By Melanie E.

Chapter 1
So It Begins

Beebeebeep... beebeebeep... beebeebeep.

There was something I was supposed to do today, wasn't there?

Beebeebeep... beebeebeep... beebeebeep.

Oh, yeah. Absolutely nothing.

Beebeebeep... beebeebeep... beebeebeep.

"Lou, honey, get up and get dressed or you'll be late for your job interview!"

Crap. And if I didn't do it I just knew Mom would keep yelling up the stairs for the rest of the morning.

Beebeebeep...

"Shut up!" I yelled at the alarm clock as I smacked it into submission.

It couldn't have been more than, maybe, another fifteen minutes before I managed to stumble down the stairs to the kitchen, but from the look my mom gave me you would think I had just stumbled through the door after a night of binge drinking -- something I hadn't done since before I dropped out of college.

"Don't worry Mom, I'll make the interview," I said in an attempt to comfort her and confirm that I wasn't walking around in my sleep.

"You better, Louis James Phelps, or so help me..."

I tuned the rest of her rant out as I went about my usual morning routine of toast and O.J. in preparation for another failed interview followed by a long day of video games and self pity. Don't get me wrong, I wanted a job, or to get back into college, or anything to straighten my life up; it just didn't seem that anyone was interested in having me.

"If only you were more like your sister," managed to slip through my hearing before I could turn it off again, and I couldn't repress a sigh in response. My perfect little sister.

"Did you see her on the news last night?" I asked Mom in an attempt to change the subject.

"Yes, poor dear. It must have been frightening, having to rescue all those people from that bridge collapse."

"I'd imagine," I said as I sipped on my O.J. and nodded. That was my little sister, though. College sophomore, cheerleader, and ever since the incident six months ago, superheroine.

Yep, that's right, my sister Lesli was the ever-so-lucky bystander who inherited Switcheroo's superpowers when she was crushed by that boulder in that fight with Collision Course. It's all Mom had talked about since. That, and my failing as the eldest child to "set an example for my younger siblings." As if either her or Lucas -- our sixteen year old younger brother -- needed it. I was the only one of us with problems.

Little did I know how much worse those problems were about to get.

I had just finished my toast and risen from the table when a crash and thud from the front room brought me and Mom running. There we found Lesli, laying in the floor and covered in blood. I could see the remnants of the Switcheroo outfit still clinging to her body. I'm not sure which one of us it was who screamed, but I fell to my knees next to my sister at the same time as Mom, who cradled her head and began to cry.

"Mom...?" My sister rasped out, her voice weak. "Mom, help me..."

"My baby! Lesli!"

Lucas chose that moment to come downstairs, sleep still filling his eyes, but the instant he saw us, piled in the floor around a blood-covered Lesli, his eyes shot open.

"Call an ambulance!" I screamed at him, and I guess he heard me, because he dashed for the kitchen phone, but I already knew it was too late. I could feel her grasp on my hand weakening as I watched the last of the color fade from her face. "Come on Lesli, stay with us, please!"

Her eyes opened one last time, and she gave my hand a final squeeze as she gasped one word, "Weaver...." As her face went slack, I heard Mom wail in agony, but I couldn't move. As the tingling sensation passed over my body, my head began to swim.

That's when I passed out.

-

I'm still not sure exactly how long I was out for, but when I finally awoke I was laying on the couch in our front room, and Mom was still sitting in the floor, weeping, next to a bloody stain in the carpet. "Mom?" I asked weakly, "where's Lesli?"

"They took her!" She cried, her voice hoarse. "They came and took her away!"

"Who took her?"

"Some guys in hazard suits," I heard Lucas say from the direction of the kitchen. "They said that they didn't want any bleed-off from her powers hurting us or something like that. They got here just after you fainted."

I wanted to argue with him, but I knew that now wasn't the time. With a sick feeling in my stomach, I got up off the couch and knelt next to Mom, hugging her fiercely. She turned towards me and gripped me tightly, crying into my shoulder, repeating Lesli's name over and over in between sobs. I looked over towards Lucas, but he just stared at the blood stained carpet, his arms wrapped around himself and tears streaming down his face.

I didn't want to move, I didn't want to think, but I knew that I had to stay in control if I wanted to help Mom. I could feel my heart tearing even as it slowly dawned on me that my sister was really gone. I may have complained about her, but she had been my little sister, and she had meant the world to me. "Come on, Mom," I said, pulling her up and guiding her out of the front room and into the kitchen. "Lucas?" He ignored me. "Lucas!"

"What!"

"Call Aunt Sharon, have her come over and get Mom. Then call Dad, let him know that-"

"How can you be so calm! We just watched Lesli die and get taken away by some kind of Men in Black, and you're just-"

"Lucas!" I yelled, silencing him. "I'm just as tore up about this as you are, but.... but. Mom needs our help. Will you help me?"

We stared at each other a long time, neither of us moving, before he finally nodded and gave Mom a pitying glance before taking the cordless phone and heading out onto the back porch.

I remember comforting Mom, and holding her tightly until Aunt Sharon and Dad arrived, within seconds of one another. After that, the next week was a blur. Lesli was gone, and we couldn't even have a funeral for her because "they" had taken her away. Instead, we arranged for a small memorial service in her honor, and scattered her favorite flowers -- Chrysanthemums -- across the park where we would play as kids. There were also lots of questions, from news crews, the government, and the local law enforcement concerning what happened. Our answers were always the same, no matter what the question.

"What happened to your daughter?"

"We don't know."

"Who could have done this?"

"We don't know."

"Did she see anybody else before she returned home?"

"We don't know."

"How are you going to handle the loss your family has suffered?"

"We don't know."

We moved out of the house and into an apartment across town. None of us could handle living there, after what happened, but neither could Mom and Dad stand to part with our family home. It was more expensive, keeping both properties, and because of that it was suddenly the wake of a tragedy and more important than ever that I find a job.

After a couple of weeks I finally managed to find work stocking shelves for a local convenience store, but I was fired after only a few days for punching a customer for insulting my sister.

"Stupid bitch, thinking that just 'cause she was some kind of superpowered freak she could do whatever she wanted. She deserved to die."

Finally, relief for us came from an unexpected source. I was sitting in our apartment, watching mindless daytime TV, when a knock at the door startled me.

"Who is it?"

"My name is David Stone. I knew your sister."

I was weary of meeting any more so-called friends, more like stalkers, of my sister, but I opened the door, prepared to tell this one off just like I had done to the last dozen or so who came by.

"Listen, you..."

My throat dried up as I looked up and up into the face of the tallest man I had ever seen. He was smiling, but I could see the sadness in his eyes as he looked down at me. He extended his hand towards me, and I wordlessly shook it.

"Can I come in?"

"Huh? Oh!" I shook my head to clear the cobwebs from it as I stepped out of the doorway.

Mr. Stone must have been almost seven feet tall, with a perfectly smooth shaved head and the darkest skin of anyone I had ever seen. As he walked in, I couldn't help but balk at seeing how massive he was. Even in his obviously expensive charcoal grey suit I could see that his arms must have been almost as big around as my depression-shrunk waist, and he moved like he was weary of something attacking from behind every piece of furniture. He carefully lowered himself onto the rickety sofa that had come with the apartment, and I could have swore I heard the seat creak and strain as he sunk down into it.

"Please, sit down," he told me, gesturing to the seat across from him. "I need to speak to you."

"Yes, sir," I said, dropping into the chair. I wondered at why I was listening to him without any questions, but another look at his sheer size reminded me why. "How can I help you?"

He seemed to consider his words for a moment before speaking. "How much do you know, about what your sister did as Switcheroo?"

I shrugged. "I just know that when the last Switcheroo died she somehow inherited her powers."

He nodded. "Did your sister ever tell you about how she received the powers?"

I shook my head. "No, she just said that she was in the right place at the right time."

He nodded again. "I figured as much."

I was confused. "Why are you asking me this?"

"Because I needed to know. Did she mention anything to you about giving the powers to someone else?"

"No, she didn't." I was starting to get tired of his questions, and big or not I knew that if Mom or Dad were to come home and see him here, and he were to ask them, it would only cause them pain. "Is that all, sir?" I asked, hoping he would take the hint.

He sighed, and nodded. "I guess Switcheroo really is gone, then. Thank you for your time." He stood up, and began to walk towards the door, but stopped short of opening it. "Oh, I forgot." He turned around and came back to stand before me. "We have heard about your problems finding a job. We can help you find something, if you want. We always try to make... accommodations, for the families of fallen comrades." With that, he handed me a card, and let himself out the front door.

I stared after him a whole five minutes before finally looking at the card he had handed me.

David Stone
Director of Operations
Mount Drake Special Powered Forces, August Branch

At the bottom was a number with an extension for his office. I just sat there stunned. The MDSPF were the organization responsible for keeping track of all the licensed superpowered people in the United States! That means that he was my sister's boss for all the superhero work she did.

A sudden rush of anger caused me to crumble the card and scowl. Had he been the one who sent her out to die? Was he the reason she got killed? I forced myself to relax. I knew it wasn't his fault, and I had been watching his face. He had obviously been distraught by my sister's death. And besides, why would he help us if he had killed her?

Two hours later, I made my decision and dialed the number.

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Chapter 2
The New Job

I pulled up outside the building and just sat for a moment, second third and forth thoughts all occupying my head at once. Mom had been livid when I had told her that I was going to work for the same people that she blamed for Lesli's death, while Dad had just given me a tired glance and walked away, just like he had every other time I'd made a decision that disappointed him. Well, tough. Nobody else would hire me, and with everything else we needed the money. I wanted to argue with them that the safest place I could be in the entire world had to be in an armored building surrounded by superheroes, but I knew they wouldn't listen.

I straightened my suit before opening the front doors of the surprisingly nondescript office building and making my way for the empty receptionist's desk. I was searching for a bell, or something to get someone's attention, when a flash of light and a low electronic whirring startled me and caused me to take a step back.

Behind the desk an image began to rez up, until finally there was a pretty young woman sitting at the office chair and smiling at me. The only odd thing about her was that I could see right through her.

"Good morning, Mr. Phelps. It's nice to finally meet you! I'm Dia."

"Uh, hi... Dia."

She laughed, as she tapped away at a keyboard that upon closer inspection was just as transparent as she was. "It's short for Digital Interactive Assistant."

"So you're a computer program?"

Her smile flickered -- literally -- and she rolled her eyes. "I'm a visual representation of the artificial intelligence running the entire facility. 'Brain the size of a planet,' you know how it goes."

I grinned, and nodded.

"And that's why you're here," a familiar voice echoed from behind me. I turned around and watched as a lift descended from the ceiling with a slight 'hiss,' and there stood Mr. Stone in another immaculate suit. "Dia," he said, nodding to the holographic woman behind me with a smile.

"Mr. Stone."

"You're dismissed," he said, and I could have swore I heard a satisfied sigh as the whirring from behind the desk died down. "You, on the other hand," he said, turning to me. "Have a job to do."

It didn't take me long to get into the swing of things, and the job was surprisingly easy. I was to be the front lobby receptionist. I would greet visitors and direct them to their various destinations, and answer the public telephone line. I had been afraid I would be responsible for handling national emergencies and other big cases, but Mr. Stone eased my mind when he told me that they had a separate phone line linked directly into Dia to handle those kinds of calls, and that all I had to do was handle the more mundane situations.

And handle them I did for over two months, directing people from one part of the building to another, talking to the tourists who wanted to know what a superhero's base looked like, and generally being a good little desk monkey. As part of the benefits of working for MDSPF I also had access to the "baseline human" portion of the center's exercise facilities, and I had managed to work myself into better, leaner shape than I had ever been in my entire life despite spending most of my time sitting around and arguing with Dia over why it was a waste of her resources for me to be playing minesweeper on my terminal.

That's probably why the blast wave didn't kill me when it blew up my desk.

In all the movies the explosions are always gigantic, with lots of smoke and fireballs and people flying through the air in slow motion. When the front wall of the office blew in, all I heard was a low thudding tone before the wave of shrapnel caught me and propelled me backwards against the far wall. Somehow I managed to stay conscious, though, and as I watched two figures came in through the hole blown in the front of the building. Both were wearing dark hoodies that extended down across the top halves of their faces with gaps for their eyes and sewn on fingerless gloves, but beyond that there was almost no similarity between the two, one a short, wiry and catlike girl and the other a tall, somewhat heavy man holding what looked like a microphone. They cast their eyes around the office quickly, taking stock of the situation before making their way for the elevator. Neither one said a word.

I knew I had to do something, but what? My panic button was gone with the desk, and though I knew that the automated cutout would have already sent a distress signal, something inside me just wouldn't let it wait until someone else showed up. Whatever they were after, it was apparently important enough to walk right into an entire nest of superheroes to get, and if it was that important then I probably didn't want them having it.

It took a lot of effort to stand up, but afterward a quick check revealed no permanent injuries. After offering a prayer to whatever deity was responsible for THAT little stroke of luck, I stepped carefully through the wreckage and approached the dastardly duo from behind. Without superpowers, I knew that anything I did would have to be sneaky, and it would have to be quick, so without further preamble I sprinted and dove, nailing the short one right in the back.

A half second later I was pinned to the wall, her feet against my throat, and she was standing on her hands, glaring at me while I could only choke and cough.

"Where is Corridor 7?"

"What?"

"Where's Corridor 7 asshole!" She repeated, kicking me in the head for emphasis with one foot while the other kept me pinned.

"Ow! I dunno! Jeez!"

"Leave the Mundane alone," the tall guy said in a voice so deep it put James Earl Jones to shame. "We're here to do a job."

"Pssht, fine," the girl hissed as she released me. I fell to the ground and nearly threw up on myself, but instead a completely different kind of vomit came out.

"So, what, I'm not worth the effort? I could take you both down." Where the hell had that come from?

The small girl had been walking away from me, but spun around with a maniacal grin. "Oh, yeah?" She cackled. "Then take this you stupid shit!."

She swung a spinning kick at me that I was sure would take my head off, but I managed to block it -- and then my claws came out.

Literally.

How exactly does one explain the feeling when your powers first manifest? I suppose it isn't so bad if you're expecting it, but all I remember is this searing pain as it felt like my brain expanded three sizes while my head kept the same shape, and then all of a sudden my vision went completely gray. A look of shock came across the portions of her face that I could see, and I heard a roar as I rose to my feet and leapt at her.

Turned out, it was me. I landed on top of her and raised my paw to rip her throat out. I was in mid-swing when the blast of force knocked me off of her and into the wall again, but this time I hardly felt it. The big guy was standing to one side with his hands cupped in front of his face, and he was humming, or clicking, or something, and every time he made a noise I felt another wave crash into me, keeping me pinned. The girl was approaching me again, with that same terrible grin on her face, and I just knew that this time, I was gonna die.

"Stop!" A raspy male voice I could just make out over the throbbing around me called, but neither the girl nor Tall-guy stopped.

There was a change in the texture of the air, and an incredibly loud "snak," and all of a sudden there was the biggest pistol I had ever seen placed against the girl's temple.

"I said, stop," the man in the gray faceless mask repeated. "What are you two doing here?"

What followed was pure chaos, but I'll try my best to explain it. Tall-guy stopped clicking and humming at me and changed his focus to the guy with the gun, at the same time as the girl did some kind of sideways flip and nailed him in the stomach with her foot while grabbing his gun. I was left free now, though, and the thought of escaping never crossed my mind. Instead, I leapt at Tall-guy, knocking him down. He struggled, so I bit him on the arm, causing him to let out a scream that shook the tiles from the roof and busted what windows were left.

Then I was knocked back for what felt like the hundredth time that day, and by the time I recovered the girl and Tall-guy were already escaping through the big gaping hole in the front of the building.

I paced back and forth, growling in frustration.

"Switcheroo?"

A hand rested on my flank, and I spun around to bite whoever it was, but stopped when I saw it was the man in the gray mask.

"But, I thought..."

"Armory! Report!" Mr. Stone's voice echoed through the now completely trashed lobby. "What happened here?"

"Two supers, undefined powers, blew out the front wall. I came in to stop them, and... Switcheroo?" The gunman, who I now recognized as the hero Armory, said. If it hadn't been for his face mask, I was sure he would have had a confused expression.

Mr. Stone, decked out in his full Martial uniform, turned toward me. At first, I thought he was growing angry, but then an unexpected laugh erupted from him as he fell to his knees. "Well, well, well, it looks like your sister passed her powers on after all!"

Huh? Waiddaminute.... I looked down at myself for the first time. The fur, the huge paws, the tail. Switcheroo's lioness form!

'But how?' I wanted to ask, but all that came out was a feline "growmf?"

Martial laughed again as he approached and scratched behind my ears, which felt surprisingly good. "Come on, I'll explain it all as far as I can tell what's happened. Then we'll get you suited up."

-

"That... sucks."

Mr. Stone seemed happy to have another Switcheroo, but I didn't think that having superpowers was worth losing my sister. The rest of the supers in the room just seemed uncomfortable in general with what had happened, and for good reason -- Switcheroo has always, and I mean ALWAYS, been a girl.

Mr. Stone sighed, and placed one of his platter-sized hands on my shoulder, driving me another couple of inches down into the couch I was sitting on and making the blanket I was wrapped in for decency's sake almost slip off. "I agree with you, son, but once the powers have been passed on they're yours until you pass them on to the next person."

"Well, then why don't we go ahead and do that?"

"Because you can only pass them on when you're about to die."

"Oh."

"Come on, surely there's some way around that!" Armory said, staring at me with anger. Without the featureless helmet on, he was a guy around my own age with shaggy black hair and gray eyes. He stormed towards me, pointing viciously. "He doesn't deserve them!"

"Armory!" Mr. Stone bellowed. "Sit down, NOW." He turned back to me. "There isn't any choice in the matter. What's done is done."

"The backups won't be happy," a woman I had never seen before in a dark colored pant suit said, giving me a once-over before facing Mr. Stone, still wearing his Martial uniform.

"They'll just have to deal with it."

"Backups?" I asked, confused.

Dia appeared before me. "Backups are the common term used for approved candidates for power transferal. All Legacy-class power users are closely monitored, and when it is known that they will be entering a potentially fatal situation or conflict the top candidate for power transferal is located and prepared in case they are needed. The purpose of this is to guarantee that Legacy-class powers are always obtained by individuals with similar personalities and features so that re-manifestation has a minimal affect on them, as well as to guarantee that such powers never fall into the wrong hands."

"... so it's like backup dancers."

Dia's projection nodded. "Except with dorkier costumes," she said with a smirk.

"Which is another issue," another Super, I think her name was Cherrybomb, said. "What are we gonna do about getting him a costume?"

Mr. Stone closed his eyes for a second and sighed. "I'm not sure. We'll have to worry about that later. For now, we need to find out all we can about those two Supers who broke in. Any information yet?"

The woman in the dark suit stepped forward, brandishing some kind of digital display showing images of the two people who had attacked us. "Not much yet, sir, beside names and basic powers. The man is called Beatbox, and he can control sound waves. Specializes in percussive blasts, that type of thing. The girl is called Dervish, and from what the authorities have gathered she's some kind of Super martial artist, a little stronger than she looks but not by much, just fast as hell." She pressed a button on the screen, and a video played of the two of them robbing a bank, the big guy blasting open the safe while the girl did some kind of flip and a spin, leaving all the guards laying on the floor unconscious. "As of yet we haven't determined what they were looking for."

I raised my hand, and Mr. Stone nodded to me. "They said something about a 'Corridor Seven?'"

Mr. Stone looked shocked, while the woman in the dark suit narrowed her eyes and approached me. Before I knew what was happening, she had grabbed me by the throat and lifted me off my seat.

"What did you say about it!"

"N-nothing!" I choked out, my vision blurring. "I'd never heard of it before!"

She released me, and I fell to the floor, coughing. "Good," she said, then walked away, leaving the room.

"Who the hell was that?" I asked, rubbing my throat. What was with people going after my throat?

"That's Weaver, she's our information specialist, and the person responsible for organizing power transferals and backups."

"Weaver?" My brain gave me a jolt. "My sister said something about a Weaver right before she died!"

Mr. Stone nodded. "She probably wanted to get hold of her to find a replacement before it was too late, though how Weaver lost track of her in the first place I have no idea. I told you we keep track of all Legacy-class power users," he said in response to my blank look. "Something happened the day your sister died. She went off our grid, and by the time we managed to track her again, it was already too late. I'm just glad she managed to pass her powers on."

I snorted, trying to cover up the depression that talk of my sister's death caused me to feel. "It's not like it matters, though. Who ever heard of a male Switcheroo anyhow?"

"That is a problem," he admitted. "But, I'm sure we can figure something out."

"Sir," Dia's voice came on over the intercom system, "there's someone here to see you, a Mr. Blade."

"Ah, that would be my five O'Clock. Armory, if you would please show our newest recruit to the fitting room. I think it's time Dia prepped him a costume, no?" With that, Mr. Stone straightened his suit and stepped into the lift, taking it down to the lobby I knew was already in the process of being cleaned up and repaired.

Armory gave me a cold look as he waved toward a door behind him. "Follow me," he said, leading the way further into the base, and to my first real experience as a superhero.

-

Chapter 3
Not Your Average Superhero

"You've got to be kidding me," I said, looking down at myself in the costume Dia had generated.

"What? I kinda like it." Dia pouted indignantly, at least as much as a computer can pout, which given her holographic interface was a good deal.

"Well, I don't." I said, holding my arms out from my body as though I were covered in something nasty and were reluctant to touch it.

I was, on both accounts. A side effect of taking on a role historically filled by a girl was that Switcheroo's classic color scheme and pattern were both much better suited to a member of the finer sex. Call me sexist, but powder pink and cream with orange sherbet detailing are not only horrendously eighties, but probably about as girly as you can get, and the typical layout of said colors was meant to emphasize body parts that, frankly, I simply did not possess.

Though sadly enough, that shortcoming was not as noticable as I had anticipated.

To be clear, I have never been what you would call "built," but I had thought that my constant workouts and increased strength and stamina from the gym would have shown a more masculine physique in the tight spandex outfit. Instead, I looked more like an underdeveloped version of my sister, an even more embarrassing outcome when you consider my being five years older than her.

"Is there a problem?" Mr. Stone's voice asked over the intercom, as the door beeped indicating he was just outside.

"I'm allowed to change the costume, right?"

"Why do you asnnerhrk." Mr. Stone covered his mouth and tried his best to contain his laugh, but soon the rumbling echo of his chortle filled the room.

"I still like it," Dia said, finding no amusement in Mr. Stone's reaction to her costume design. "And with the future possibility of his-"

"That's enough," Mr. Stone said, the smile rapidly disappearing as he gave Dia's projection a smoldering look. "We'll discuss that later, if it becomes an issue."

"What are you talking about?" I asked, looking between the two for any clue as to what might be going on.

"It's nothing to worry about. For the moment," Mr. Stone added, looking up and down my body with a slightly worried expression on his face. "No matter. Dia, work with him to find something that the two of you can agree upon. It's been a while since Switcheroo's look changed much -- I think we can stand to let you rework the outfit," he said, addressing me directly. "Just don't go crazy. We're not the X-men, and this ain't no comic book. There's a lot more to that suit than you might think." With that, he turned around and left again, leaving me to argue with Dia about what to do with the suit.

"Well?"

"Oh, alright," she said. "But I'm keeping this on file just in case."

I sighed, but agreed to the concession.

It took longer than I had expected it to, but eventually we agreed on a look that we both thought worked. The cream became a more subdued off-white, while the orange returned, though toned down a bit. I focused on those two as the primary colors, since Dia absolutely refused to budge when it came to the pink. Instead, I insisted that the pink remain limited to minor trim details, and added a good deal of black hoping to darken the look a bit. The fit and overall build of the suit otherwise remained unchanged, since there was little I could do to it -- it had been designed specifically to allow Switcheroo to shapeshift as efficiently as possible. That was one element I definitely did not want to change, recalling pictures I had seen of Switcheroos from before the shifting material had been invented, clad in little more than scraps of what had been their fighting togs. I did change the print pattern though to something that did less to emphasize my chest and rear, a modification that Dia found far too amusing.

"What? You've got a cute tush, you should work it a bit."

"Not when I'm wearing spandex, thank you very much."

"It's not spandex, it's-"

"I know I know. It's a polymer whatever."

She sighed. "Close enough. So, are you happy now?"

"I guess as much as I can be."

"Good. 'Cause we just got a call I think would be perfect for your first time out."

"What? But I don't even know how to use my powers yet!"

"No time! Suit up!"

"Aww, hell."

Soon I found myself being escorted by Dia down the halls to the elevators, and finally up to the top of the building. As soon as the doors opened I stepped out onto the landing pad, and nearly ran headfirst into the back of the tallest girl I had ever seen.

"Huh? Took you long enough to... who the hell are you?" She asked, sneering as she gave me the once over.

"Uhm, I'm the new Switcheroo?"

Her expression softened a bit, and she shrugged. "Oh, didn't recognize you in the costume. Not as built as the last girl, but you'll do. Come on, we're running late."

"I'm not a girl," I said, as calmly as I could as I followed her to the waiting chopper.

"Whatever. I'm Cherrybomb, and my friend here is Tag," she said, waving to another person who was already waiting for us in the chopper.

"Hi," I said with a small wave, taking a moment to examine their costumes. Cherrybomb's outfit consisted of what looked like a battered white Gi over a pair of black cargo pants and combat boots, with matching white tape wrapped around her forearms and hands except for her fingers and a Ninja Turtles style bandana with eye holes, her flame red mohawk sticking out the top like a beacon. Tag, on the other hand, looked like a Darth Vader wannabe in some kind of breathing mask and a couple of large tanks strapped to her back with nozzles leading down her arms. I only knew Tag was a she from the news stories I had read about her -- looking at her costume, you would never guess.

I looked down at my own costume again and failed to suppress the sigh that welled up. My costume was by far the most feminine in the group. "Dia, I'm going to kill you," I hissed under my breath as the chopper lifted off, taking us who knows where to fight who knows what.

-

"You've got to be fricken' KIDDING me," I said as I looked out the door of the helicopter and saw the pile of wreckage that had once been the Cedar Falls Community Center. "What the hell happened?"

Cherrybomb laughed. "Science experiment gone wrong, apparently. Today was Cedar Falls Elementary's science fair, after all."

I gave her an incredulous look. "You think an elementary student did... THAT?"

She nodded, never losing her manic grin.

"Time's up, kids. Come on," Tag said, jumping out the door of the helicopter.

"Wait, we're not even using parachutes?"

"Nope!"

With that, Cherrybomb shoved me out the door.

The Switcheroo powers are focused around the ability to shapeshift. More accurately, the ability to take on the form of one of five animals, and while the lioness and timberwolf forms are by far the most popular among Switcheroo's fanbase, being the flashiest ones, the other three forms have their own uses.

I am not too proud to admit it. I panicked. Luckily, the air rushing around me carried away the embarrassingly shrill scream I let out as I fell. Unluckily, by the time my new instincts kicked in and shifted me into Switcheroo's -- that is to say, my -- eagle form, it was already too late to completely arrest my momentum. With an almighty squawk I slowed myself just enough to send myself tumbling across the field of rubble, leaving me battered, bruised, and ruffled, but amazingly still alive.

The sound of screams told me there was no time to sit and complain about my fall. Without really thinking about it I shifted into my timberwolf form.

I could smell something... wrong, on the other side of the wall of rubble to my left. I made my way around the pile of broken concrete and bricks, and there was the thing that had caused so much devastation.

It was no eldritch horror, but it was well on its way. Half octopus, half amorphous mass, and half hardware store, the thing was steadily ripping its way out of the containment field of nets and barbs that Tag had erected around it, and seemed to be unconcerned by Cherrybomb's steady bombardment of explosive punches against the metal plate that made up a portion of its head. I growled as I leapt forward and snapped at one of its tentacles, only to be batted away by another tentacle that had finally managed to escape Tag's restraints.

"This... thing's... tougher... than... I... was... expecting!" Cherrybomb said, her speech interrupted by a staccato rhythm of punches.

Tag formed an electric blue spear of whatever it was she formed her powers around and launched it at the creature's eye, where it bounced harmlessly off. "Agreed. Dia?"

"Help is on its way," I heard Dia's voice ring clearly in my head. "Bard's caught in traffic, but he'll be there as soon as he can, and I've got Totem on standby if-"

"Get us Armory, this thing's big."

"Come on, it's a kid's science project, not some kind of nigh indestructible... oh. Never mind. He'll be there as soon as possible."

"Thanks."

While Tag had been talking to Dia, Cherrybomb had continued her mission to brain the octo-bot while I had been looking for an in to bite something.

"Switch, use your bear form!"

Oh, yeah. I thought about the bear form I had seen Switcheroo use on several occasions, and before I knew it there I stood in all my mottled brown and grey glory. Another tentacle lashed at me, but this time taking its hit was much easier with my beefier form. I swung my paws at the tentacle and managed to dig my claws into it, pulling it toward me and ripping into the sensitive underside with my teeth, drawing a rather satisfying shriek from the creature.

"Good one!" Cherrybomb bellowed just as one of her punches finally managed to blast a hole in the plate beneath her, allowing her to reach in and rip out a bundle of wires. The thing shrieked again and then thrashed about wildly, throwing both me and Cherrybomb off, knocking down two of the few walls left standing.

The taste of the ichor in my mouth from the hole I had tore in the thing's tentacle was foul, but I knew that I could not let myself cower away from the fight. I charged across the rubble and made a dive for the still convulsing beast, the tentacle that swung at me missing by a fraction of an inch, then began frantically ripping and biting at the sensitive flesh where the tentacle met the thing's body. There was a hiss, and I felt a burning sensation down my back, but I ignored it as I continued my work to neuter the whatever-it-was before me.

After what felt like ages of clawing and snapping, the tentacle finally separated from the thing's side, drawing another satisfying shriek as the tentacle squirmed across the floor, knocking down anything left standing in its way. With that done, I turned to start in on the next tentacle, only to be grabbed around what served as my waist by another and lifted into the air, where the octoborg glared at me balefully with his real eye while the mechanical one began to glow.

This was it, I just knew it. My first real mission, and I was about to be laser blasted into steaming chunks by a disfigured octopus. I felt sick. I wanted to scream in defiance, to cry in frustration, I wanted to be freed. I squeezed my eyes shut... and felt myself involuntarily begin to shift.

I slipped out of the tentacle and fell to the floor just as the laser blast seared through the spot where I had been. I was human again. I spit out a mouthful of the ichor that I could still taste in my mouth, and was overwhelmed by the sick feeling again. Now that I was freed, though, I fought it back, and dodged the tentacle as it came crashing down to grab me once more.

Using what strength I had left I skittered across the floor for the nearest pile of rubble to hide behind and reassess the situation. Using her strength Cherrybomb was busy merrily ripping through the mixture of wires and entrails she had uncovered beneath the plate, but her efforts seemed to do little more than piss the thing off, while Tag continued to run interference, erecting spikes and nets to keep the thing contained. They were doing well, or at least better than I was, but even a rookie like me could tell that it was only a matter of time before the Icky Ichor Ichythoid wiped the floor with us.

A strange static wave passed over me, and before I knew what was happening Armory had grabbed my hand and helped me up. "Report! What's the situation!"

"Huh? Oh! It's an octopus with a laser beam in it's head, and we're barely touching it."

"Go on."

There was a scream from behind me that definitely did not sound like the creature. "No time, come on!" I said, forcing myself to morph into my lioness form as I turned around and barely managed to leap over the tentacle that whipped past, taking out the pile of rubble I had hidden behind and nearly decapitating Armory in the process.

I looked over at him just long enough to see a massive gun appear in his hands before I leapt back into the fray, digging into the nearest bit of slimy flesh and slashing away with everything at my disposal.

-

"Well?"

"Then he shot the thing and it died."

"That's it?"

"That's it," I agreed, drawing a disappointed look from Dia as she stood up, my tale done.

"But that's lame! No running guns versus laser battle or anything?"

I shook my head. "Nope! He shot it, in the laser eye, and it died. End of story."

"Aww."

"And good riddance, too," I said, finally managing to get the last strip of what was left of my costume loose from the glue-like substance coating me. The death might have been quick, but we had all suffered from the resulting splash. "Now I need a shower."

"Sure thing, right over here," Dia said, disappearing and reappearing near a booth on one side of my private changing room.

Not too long later I was clean and out, belatedly remembering that I had no clothes with me, since my old clothes had been pretty much tatters after the first encounter of the day. Had it really been that short a time ago? It felt like so much longer.

"Dia? Are there any clothes I can wear?"

"I'll send some down from the exercise room."

"Thanks."

There was a quiet "whoosh," followed by a louder "ding" from the direction of a box on one wall of the room, and as I crossed over to check it out a door opened on the front, revealing a pile of clothes. As quickly as I could I donned the grey track pants and hoodie, sparing only a moment's disgust at the large pink and orange team logo and "Switcheroo" displayed on the right breast. I would have to do something about that, but not right now. The shoes, a pair of track shoes also in 'my' uniform colors, were more of a problem for me, but I eventually gave in and wore them as well, surprised at how comfortable everything turned out to be.

"If you're ready, it's time for the debriefing in the board room," I heard Dia's voice ring out from the speakers overhead. I didn't bother to answer her directly, just nodding and heading out the door, then toward the room I had been "debriefed" in just a few hours earlier.

"Glad you could finally make it," Mr. Stone said as I walked through the door, the last member of the team there.

"Sorry, but I had to have a shower and I didn't have any clothes."

"It's okay. Find your seat and let's begin."

"Um, excuse me, but who is this?" A tall black man I had never met asked. He wasn't in uniform, but from association with the team I guessed he was probably Bard, the team's speedster and TK expert. Next to him was the only other member of the team I hadn't met yet, but Totem -- the team spiritual expert -- was hard to miss, with her glowing white eyes.

"Roland, I would like you to meet our newest team member, Louis Phelps. Also known as Switcheroo."

"What? Phelps... wasn't that Lesli's last name too?"

"Louis is her brother. Apparently, she passed the powers to him right before she died."

The look of confusion on Bard's... Roland's face slowly drained away to one of understanding, then amusement, then horror. Before he could ask whatever question had entered his mind, though, Mr. Stone shook his head definitively, stopping him.

What followed was another retelling of all the events of the day, starting with the raid on the office and ending with our return after the Robo-pus was put down. It was finally starting to sink into my own brain just how lucky I had been to survive.

"Sir, surely you can't mean to have him take over the duties as Switcheroo. You know what that would mean."

"Now, Roland, we don't know that--"

"He deserves to know," Totem said, her first words since the meeting had begun.

"Know what?" I asked, glaring at Mr. Stone. I might not have the mental capacity of my sister, but I was no slouch in the brain department, either. I had figured out earlier that he was hiding something from me, and now I was ready for answers.

Mr. Stone stared at me for a moment before rubbing the bridge of his nose and mumbling something that even with my enhanced hearing I couldn't quite make out. "Alright," he said at last, looking up at me again with a resigned expression. "It's possible that the Switcheroo powers could... change your appearance, somewhat."

"How so?"

"Well, a lot of powers come with a physical template, usually based on a rough concept of the original user's physical ideal," Bard said, taking over when Mr. Stone faltered. "Since most powers are linked to the one who manifests them in such a way that they can never be transferred or shared, this is of little concern. However, in the case of Legacy-class powers, or those powers that can be passed on from user to user, these changes can sometimes be life alteringly drastic."

"So you're saying that I'm going to turn into the original Switcheroo's idea of an ideal superhero?"

"In a way, yes," he said, hesitating before continuing. "Part of the reason for our choosing the inheritors of the Switcheroo powers is to minimize the physical and mental effects on the bearer by picking those individuals who already closely fit the ideal, since it has been proven that those who have to make drastic changes often have a harder time dealing with them. We've only had one male Switcheroo before, and he went insane when the physical manifestations began to become obvious."

That was when it clicked. "Physical manifestations." I looked down my body, at my frame that had been slimming down even as it had grown stronger. My long legs. My narrow waist. My hips that now looked broader to my searching eyes than they had before. "Oh, shit." It was a close thing, but I managed to keep from throwing up, and instead asked, "is there any way to stop it?"

Bard shook his head. "At best the change can be slowed by not using the powers. However, I'm afraid that the more you use your Switcheroo abilities, the more quickly the changes will begin to manifest."

"So, I can either use the powers and change quickly, or not use them and change slowly?"

"Well, slower," Mr. Stone said, finally looking me in the face again. "I had Dia take a sample of your DNA during your costume fitting. I was hoping she could find a way to prevent the physical changes, which is also why I summoned Dr. Blade. I was wanting to keep this quiet from you until we had no choice but to tell you," he gave Roland a stare that said "we'll talk about this later."

"But if using the powers makes it happen faster, then why did you send me on the mission earlier today?"

He looked sheepish. "Because, as many resources as we have at our disposal, I was afraid we wouldn't be able to find a way to prevent it, and I wanted to give you a chance to see what being a hero was like without the issue of the change hanging over your head."

I looked around the table, at the people I had already begun to think of as my teammates. Cherrybomb gave me a thumbs up. Tag simply sat there, her mask portraying no emotion whatsoever. Armory no longer looked angry at me, but instead his face held pity, which was in a way worse. Weaver simply ignored me, studying the digipad in her hand while typing furiously on its display. Bard shrugged his shoulders, and Totem...

Totem stood up and circled around the table, resting one of her pale hands on my shoulder. "It will be okay, Louis. We are here for you."

"I need to go home."

"Come. I will take you," she said, helping me up.

-

Chapter 4
For The Greater Good

My mom and dad were pissed about the suit I had been wearing being ruined, especially when I told them about the attack on the base. I chose not to tell them about my new powers, or what was happening to me, though. I was not sure what to think of them yet, myself, and the last thing I needed was their yelling and screaming to make my thinking even harder.

Mr. Stone called later that day and told my mom I had the next two weeks off with pay. She thought it was to make up for being banged about by a supervillain -- which it was, in a way -- but in reality, he was giving me time. Time I needed if I was to decide what to do.

That night, and the next, and the rest of the first week, I got little sleep. Instead, I paced and paced as I thought. For some reason I was finding it easier than usual to face my problems objectively. Then a passing comment from earlier about mental changes popped into my memory, and helped to shatter what little confidence I had been building in myself. Just how much of me was truly ME any more, and how much was Switcheroo? And worse, how much of "me" would be left if I DID embrace the change? Would I lose myself completely? I needed help, some one to turn to.

Someone I could share my secret with.

"Pssst. Lucas."

"Whahrnh?"

"Get up. I need to talk to you."

"Can'wait 'til morn'n?"

"No. Please?"

"...H'kayh."

It was almost twenty minutes before he was up and dressed, and the minute his door swung open I grabbed him and drug him to my own room.

"What's up?" He asked, still somewhat groggy, but more awake now that he had seen the stress on my face, stress I had been working to fight when around him and my parents for the past week.

"Can you keep a secret?"

"Why?"

"I need to know you can keep a secret Lucas, please."

"Alright alright, yeah. Now what's going on?"

I reconsidered for a moment. What if he told our parents? Then I saw the concern in his eyes. I had been the first person in the family Lesli had talked to when she had received the powers. I could trust Lucas like she had trusted me. He was my brother.

"If you're not gonna talk, I'm goin' back to bed."

"Lucas, I'm... I'm Switcheroo."

"And I'm George Clooney. Can I go back to sleep now?"

"No, seriously, Lucas," I said, then concentrated on shifting. It was harder than in the heat of battle, but I managed a fairly smooth transition into my lioness form and back, miraculously avoiding ripping my boxers to shreds in the process. "See?"

His eyes grew wide, and he nodded.

"Please don't tell mom and dad."

He nodded again.

I sighed. Maybe this was a mistake. "Lucas, I need someone to talk to. Can you snap out of it and help me out here?"

With a shake of his head, his eyes returned to normal, and he looked at me seriously. "Alright, what's going on here? Did this happen when Lesli died?"

I nodded, and when he said nothing, I sat down on my bed and began to tell him the entire story, starting with the tingling feeling as I held Lesli when she died, that I now knew was her giving me her powers, and ending with Bard and Mr. Stone's revelations at the debriefing.

I unexpectedly found myself crying as I poured my heart out to him, and uncharacteristically for him, he sat down next to me on the bed and began to pat my back.

"Hey, Lou, it's okay. Man, this is... it's a lot. So you're turning into a girl?"

"I think so. The way they said it it seemed like that was pretty much the case."

"Well that explains a few things," he said, looking down at my skinny, hairless arms and legs and then at my face, which even I had been able to watch transforming day by day in the mirror.

"Don't tell Mom and Dad."

He let out a bark of laughter, but quickly calmed himself. "Like they would believe me. Imagine you as Switcheroo."

I had to laugh too. "I know, right? Lesli was always the responsible one. The good kid, the one they were proud of. Me? I'm just the failure."

"Now look who needs to snap out of it," he said, getting up off the bed and staring at me. "I loved Lesli, she was my sister, but the two of you were so close it wasn't funny. You know something? I never told you this, but when you first left for college, she came into my room that night crying."

I was stunned. "Really?"

He nodded. "You and her were a lot more alike than you might think. Lesli looked up to you. Why do you think she pushed herself so hard? She saw you buckling under the pressure from Mom and Dad, and thought that if she proved herself capable they might lay off you a bit."

"It didn't work."

"And she blamed herself for that. Jeez, Lou," he said, angrily shaking my shoulders. "You're probably the reason she agreed to being Switcheroo in the first place. And now you've got the powers."

"I can never replace her."

He shook his head. "No. But you can prove how much you loved her by doing the right thing."

"Since when did you become so smart?" I asked, smiling up at him.

"Since I watched my big sister die in my brother's arms," he said soberly, making me wince at the pain in his face.

"But I'm afraid of losing who I am."

"You won't. Haven't you listened to me? You and Leslie were more alike than you give yourself credit for. She was stronger, maybe, but she gave you that strength when she gave you the powers."

I thought about what he said, and realized he was right. Suddenly, all the pain I had felt seemed to drain away as I knew what I had to do.

"And one more thing."

"Yeah? Anything," I said, rising and giving him a loving hug.

"Can you set me up with Cherrybomb? Lesli always said 'no' when I asked her."

I shook my head. "I don't think you could handle Cherrybomb. I could always get you put on the Switcheroo waiting list though, if you wanted?"

"NO way," he said, backing up. "Two in the family's enough. Besides, you really shouldn't be walking around without a shirt any more, Lou."

"AND with that, we're done," I said, blushing. "G'night, bro."

"Night."

Finally, for the first time in days, I slept well.

-

END OF ISSUE ZERO

NOTES: Welp, here's the introduction story for my superhero universe. Those who frequent the Whateley forums may notice a handful of characters I originally introduced there, but I've decided to instead use them here.

There will be more of this story. This is one of the two stories I'm spending the most time on right now, with the second book of "Princess For Hire" being the other.

SO. Let me know what you think! Like the universe? Like the characters? Want more background? I've got it all!

Melanie E.

Switcheroo Issue 1

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Serial Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transformations
  • Superheroes

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Louis's sister, Lesli, as Switcheroo

Switcheroo: Issue 1

By Melanie E.

The continuing adventures of Louis Phelps as he learns what being a superhero is all about.

Yes, this time I started with a TG fiction cliche', so sue me.

=====

Chapter 5
All In A Day's Work

I looked in the mirror and sighed.

Dia had greeted me enthusiastically when I had returned to headquarters a week early, but Mr. Stone had been far more sombre. The results had come back from Dr. Blade, and things looked less than stellar for any chance of me retaining my manhood. Apparently the powers had started work on my body the moment I had absorbed them, and while using them did help to speed the transformation somewhat, they would slowly transform me whether I wanted it or not.

I think Mr. Stone was surprised by my acceptance of the facts with little more than a nod. The conversation with Lucas had been what I needed to make a decision, and that decision had been to give the world a Switcheroo regardless of the personal sacrifices I had to make.

Beyond that, I couldn't deny that there was a certain part of me that held a dark fascination with what the transformation would really mean. I had never been what you would call studly to begin with, so pretty much anything the powers did to me would probably be considered a step up, depending on how you defined up. Would I be as pretty as my sister? Probably. She had only had the powers for a few months, so not all the physical changes had finished -- not that they would have been as noticeable on her as on me anyhow.

Which brought me to where I stood now, in front of the mirror with mixed feelings of revulsion and fascination for what I saw before me.

It had been almost two weeks since my return to duty as Switcheroo, this time officially, and in that time I had been involved in several more fights with thugs and criminals around the city. Nothing major, mostly just common thieves, robbers, and crooks, with the occasional low-powered super thrown in for fun, but it had kept me on my toes, and led to my fair share of injuries.

A villain with the name "Refrigerator" doesn't sound all that menacing until you find your feet trapped in a block of ice while he merrily helps himself to the contents of the vaults in the bank you were supposed to protect.

But I digress. With each fight, as I grew more beat-up and damaged, I healed back just a little more feminine than before. It had become almost a soap opera for me, getting up each morning and checking to see what else had changed over the last day or so. Luckily for me my face hadn't changed all that much yet, but on the other hand, I also hadn't had to shave in over a week.

What was the most disturbing, though, were the scars. Any time I would get scraped or cut, they would inevitably be healed by the next morning -- one of the myriad advantages of being a super -- but the skin would always be softer than my normal skin, and usually hairless. As my body grew more and more beat up, these "beauty scars" as I had come to think of them were slowly spreading, almost like they were infecting the skin around them. It was freaky, and the reason I wore long sleeved shirts all the time now.

Of course, things wouldn't be so bad if I could have told my mom and dad about being Switcheroo. It was accepted in the super-community that family were generally exceptions to the ban on sharing your identity, unless there was a major trust issue involved. But really, would YOU want to tell your parents that you had taken up the mantle that had led to your sibling's death? I think not. They already hated it enough that I worked for the MDSPF, and that I was out at all hours of the afternoon and night. The absolute last thing I needed was to have them glaring at me over this, too.

So I hid it the best I could, despite the fact that I knew it wouldn't be all that longer before hiding it would no longer be an option. When that happened, I had been promised by Martial that there would be a place for me at headquarters if I wanted to stay in the barracks, but I still couldn't stand the idea of abandoning my family.

"Hey, you about done in there? I'm dyin' for a piss!"

Lucas dashed in as soon as I opened the door, slamming it fast enough to hit me in my slightly-altered ass on my way out. I ignored it, though, like I did so much else, as I headed for my room to get ready for work in the suit I would be wearing all of maybe an hour for the day.

"Good Morning," Dia greeted me cheerily as I walked through the front doors of the building. I watched her image fuzz and then reconstitute as one of myself just before I entered the elevator and typed in the code to allow me access to the non-public areas of the base.

"So, anything new today?" Dia's voice chimed over the elevator's speaker system.

"Nothing new," I said with a smile, as she huffed in mild frustration. For some reason Dia had taken an interest in my change, and checked with me most days to see what was new. Of course, she always received copies of my medical exams for securing in my file as well, but I think she just liked having someone to talk to who didn't treat her like a computer.

Which reminded me. "Dia?"

"Yeah?"

"Can you go places? I mean, outside the base?"

She was silent for a moment. Even computers with brains the size of planets sometimes need to think. "I can surf the internet, and access computer networks and most places' security systems from there, but I doubt that's what you mean."

Okay, that was a little creepy, but understandable. "So you can't wander the city or anything."

She sighed. "I wish. Just because I started out as a computer doesn't mean I'm not a person, too. I'm an AI, we're just like you, except smarter and with interchangeable parts."

That was what I loved about Dia. Was it possible to be friends with a computer? If so, I would like to think we were on our way.

"Why did you ask?"

"No reason," I said, causing her to huff again. I tried to keep my laugh in check, but it was hard work.

We didn't say another word to one another for the rest of my elevator ride, giving me time to think on the way to change into my Switcheroo costume. I was intercepted before I reached my room, though.

"Hello, Louis," Totem said as she approached me and greeted me with a small hug. While Totem always seemed creepy in the press releases and pictures of her, I had found that if you looked past the pale skin and glowing eyes she was a good, caring person. And a hugger.

"Hi, Jami. What's up?"

"We have an urgent meeting in the briefing room. Come, there is no time to change."

I groaned, the Switcheroo suit being embarrassing but far more comfortable than my stuffy business suit, but followed her without question. When we reached the briefing room, everyone else was already there, sitting at their assigned seats.

"About time," Nate AKA Armory said as we walked through the door. I did my best to ignore him; he had been gruff with me ever since I had joined, and I had only found out a couple of days ago that it was because he had been dating my sister. How was that related? I wasn't too sure, but I was wary of him.

"That's enough," Mr. Stone said, glaring at Nate. "Now that everyone is here we can finally begin." He turned to the wall behind him and pressed a button, making the formerly featureless display light up. "For the last few weeks Weaver, Dia, and I have been working on trying to track down more information on the pair that broke into our base and harassed Louis, trying to figure out who they were working for. Unfortunately, as of yet we have been poorly underinformed, with no way to improve things. Until now."

He reached up and touched one of the icons on the screen, opening what looked like a police file. "This man goes by the code name Horus," he said, pointing at the photograph of a man in his mid-to-late thirties, clean-cut and well dressed, with the appearance of a scholar about him. "He is an information broker who contacted us this morning and said he could help us. We need a group of volunteers to go meet with him."

Weaver stood up, her digital pad crashing to the table. "Why was I not informed of this ahead of time? We cannot go about setting up meetings with these... hooligans, like this! I haven't had time to research him, to compile background information, to--"

"There is no time!" Mr. Stone said in a booming voice, quieting Weaver quickly. "If someone outside the organization knows about Corridor Seven, then it needs to be taken care of immediately."

"Um, excuse me," I butted in, raising my hand, "but I still don't have any clue what this Corridor Seven thing is. Can someone fill me in?"

Bard started to speak, but Mr. Stone waved him off. "Once you have been a member for three months you'll gain access to all of the facility's services, including information on all but the most secret of projects. I'm sorry, but it is part of procedure that I am not allowed to break and ANYONE," he said, glaring around the table, "caught talking about it to someone without clearance is to be dealt with harshly."

The room was silent for a moment. I knew I wasn't the only one who chafed under some of the rules the MDSPF had in place. Finally, though, it was Tag who broke the silence. "How do we know we can trust this Horus? What if it is merely a trap by the enemy to gain more information for themselves?"

Mr Stone nodded. "We can't trust him. On the other hand, he called me on a private line whose number is known only to the other branch heads, managing to somehow get through several levels of security clearance to do so. If he could find that out, then we need to learn how, and we need to do it as quickly as possible. With those kinds of skills, he very likely could know what we need."

"I'm in," Cherrybomb chimed in from across the table from me. "I can be very persuasive." She slammed her fists together, generating a thunderclap from the kinetic impact.

"Me too," Totem added, standing up. Mr. Stone nodded his acceptance of both -- Cherrybomb might be muscle, but Totem was the best negotiator on our team.

What the hey. "I'll go," I said, standing up as well. I received a few surprised looks from the others around the table, since this was the first time I had volunteered for anything beyond basic city patrol, but Totem smiled and gave me a nod.

"Very well. The three of you will do fine as our front team. Armory, I want you to provide them with long-range cover. The rest of you patrol the city within a three mile radius of this location," he said, tapping another icon and bringing up an image of a building and a map of the surrounding area. "Let's go."

With that I was finally free to go change into my costume. However, I was in for a nasty surprise when the chute opened up.

"Dia, this isn't my costume."

"Oh, I'm sorry, but I can't locate the file for the new appearance options in my systems."

I sighed. "Is this because of earlier?"

"...maybe."

"Come on, Dia."

"Oh, alright." The chute clunked again as a new, far more acceptable uniform fell into it. "But I still think the old design was better."

I didn't say anything else as I donned my suit and made my way for the helipad.

-

Chapter 6
Intelligence Failure

I watched Cherrybomb carefully as we approached our designated landing zone, just in case she should decide to try pushing me out again. Not that I was nervous at all.

"You're shaking."

Okay, maybe a little.

The entire ride over, Cherrybomb and I had watched silently as Totem used her powers to prepare herself for the coming meeting. Unlike most of us on the team, Totem's abilities weren't some kind of superpower or mutation. Instead, her abilities came from years of training as a spiritualist for her tribe. As far as I knew she had never actually told anyone what Native American tribe she was actually from, but they apparently had kickass supernatural powers, because her ability to communicate with and summon spirits made her a formidable member of the team.

It was kind of creepy, watching her stare across the bay with her blank, empty eyes as the electic blue mist-like forms of the spirits she was talking to zipped around and through her. Every time they passed through her she would spasm, as though being shocked, and I couldn't help but imagine how much it must hurt her to do what she did.

We were already descending when the spirits finally disappeared, and Totem -- I couldn't call her Jami when she was like this -- looked at us wearily.

"Does it hurt?" I asked before I could stop myself.

She gave me a weak smile. "Not really, but it is uncomfortable. In exchange for their service, I must give the spirits a small piece of my own life force. I will recover soon."

"So what did you find?" Cherrybomb asked, bouncing in her seat.

Totem grimaced. "Not much. This man calling himself Horus is a mystery even to my spiritual companions. This is odd as those with superpowers usually attract spirits very easily. Even knowing where he is supposed to meet with us, I am unable to find any spirits that know of him."

"What does that mean?"

"I'm not sure what it means. Perhaps he does not have any powers, and since I am tuning my search to feel for those who do I cannot find him. Or perhaps..."

"What?" I asked, when she stopped.

"It is unlikely, but perhaps he is not human."

"We're here, let's go," Cherrybomb said, interrupting us. Sure enough, the blades of the helicopter were winding down as we settled into the gravelly yard of the old water treatment plant.

Why had he chosen to meet with us here? The place had not been used for over twenty years, and now was little more than a collection of rusted buildings and old concrete pipes. I remember as a kid hearing about a gang that had used the pipes as a hiding spot for stashes of drugs until one of the superheroes of the time, I think his name was Dogstar, found out and busted their operation. Since then, nobody had really talked about the place much.

Totem led our little group as we wound our way around the decrepit structures of the plant, occasionally reaching out a hand where a spirit would briefly manifest then float away. Meanwhile, I scanned the area with my enhanced vision -- another big thank-you to the Switcheroo powers for that -- while Cherrybomb, as the only one of us who couldn't see well in the darkness around us, watched our backs for any potential sneak attacks.

It wasn't an ideal arrangement, but we made it to the basin where he had told us to meet him without running into any trouble. There, squatted down next to one of the supports, was a man almost identical to the one from the photograph Mr. Stone had shown us at the meeting, with the exception of a pair of strange glasses on his face. He stood as we approached him and spread his arms wide.

"As you can see, I am unarmed. There is no reason to be so wary, my friends. I am Horus, the keeper of wisdom, and you should fear no harm from me."

He had a strange way of speaking, but Totem's nod was enough to convince me to release some of the tension I hadn't realized I had been holding in. I relayed her message to Cherrybomb with a quick nod of my own, and the three of us approached the man as relaxed as we could be, which wasn't very.

The man clapped his hands as we came closer. "Totem and Cherrybomb, August Branch's Good Cop Bad Cop team, eh? And if it isn't our newest Switcheroo along for the ride. Have you discovered who murdered your sister yet? By your expression I would guess not."

"What do you know!" I yelled, feeling the fur bristle along my back as I involuntarily began to change. His oh-so-casual mention of my sister's death had brought my anger and pain to the surface far more quickly than I could have anticipated.

"Easy, easy," he said, raising his hands but still not losing his infuriating smile. "It is related to the mission at hand, and solving one will give you answers you need in seeking the other. Like a great game of Go, where only one piece must be placed to leave the opponent's carefully laid strategy in ruins. You could be that piece, Louis. Or perhaps not."

Totem stepped in before I could tackle the man, rubbing the back of my head gently. I hadn't realized how close I had been to transforming until I heard myself begin to purr at her stroking, and quickly regained control of myself.

"What information do you have for us concerning the intruders who attacked our base?"

"As, straight to the point as always, my priestess. Yes. The ones known as Beatbox and Dervish attacked you, but it was not their desires that led to their actions. To find the one responsible, you need only look beneath the rug, where all the dirt is swept. But I have said too much, and until I am paid I shall speak no more."

Cherrybomb stepped forward. "Paid? Nobody mentioned anything about paying you, twerp."

The man chuckled, steepling his fingers before his nose. "Maybe not, but nevertheless such an exchange must take place before I will share any more of my information with you."

"How much will it take?" Totem asked, waving Cherrybomb down.

The man paced for a moment, looking down as though in thought. "Not how much, but what, is the question. There is an item that you must obtain for me, and in exchange the information is yours. Of course, I could always retrieve the item myself, but it is always so much more... entertaining, to send another to do the work for me. It will give you a chance to prove yourselves worthy, as you so wish to do, right, Louis?"

I growled again, but managed to calm down on my own. Instead, I did my best to ignore him and scanned the area around us for trouble.

"What is it you want us to retrieve?"

The man smiled again, showing his teeth, and I couldn't help but shudder at the image.

-

To be continued

NOTES:
Sorry for the crappy image, it's the best I could do at work without a reference (and 4 AM to boot :P) That should give you a rough idea of what the original idea that Louis hated so much looked like, though. I'm working on a badly-colored version for the next posting, so we'll see how that goes.

So, what do people think so far? Ideas, questions, concerns? Lay it on me!

Melanie E.

Switcheroo Issue 2

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Transformations
  • Adventure
  • Superheroes

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Switcheroo: Issue 2

By Melanie E.

Horus's information provides Louis and the rest of the team with an unexpected answer to several questions at once.

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Chapter 7
The Raid

"Are you sure we should be doing this?"

"No," Totem said, grimacing.

"Good. Just wanted to make sure we're on the same page here."

I shifted into my lioness form as we crossed the ground between the outer fence and the only building for miles about. Why were there no guards? And what was this place anyhow?

"I still don't know why we didn't ask Weaver for intel on this place before doing this," I heard Cherrybomb mumble from behind me as I scouted ahead, using my improved night vision to scan the area ahead of us for any possible ambushes or traps. So far I had come up empty handed.

"We didn't have the time to ask. We need whatever information it is he has too desperately to delay our actions." Totem seemed to have no trouble making her way through the near pitch-black grounds, using her spirit companions to provide Cherrybomb with a modicum of light to find her way by. "And I have been receiving mixed signals from Weaver as of late. She has always been very guarded around us, me in particular, but she seems... desperate, almost. And very very irritable. I do not know, perhaps it is simply anxiety over having lost track of Lesli, and I'm sure this Corridor Seven business is not helping, but there's something about her that--"

Her words were cut short by the snap of a spotlight popping on, the focus of its beam mere yards ahead of us. With a growl I lept into the air and felt myself morph into my eagle form. Flapping my wings to gain altitude, it was harder to see in the dark with my new telescopic vision, but once I had gained enough height the lights along the edge of the building revealed what I needed.

Twelve guards, two patrolling each edge of the roof with the last two standing guard at the helipad. As I watched, another spotlight came on in the center of each of the other three walls, and all four began to slowly scan across the surface of the ground. Another sound came to my attention as well -- the unmistakable whine of a helicopter approaching.

Spreading my wings wide, I caught an updraft and silently surveilled the guards more closely. Each one was wearing light body armor, with basic sidearms, and no identifiable security company insignia. So, not your average rent-a-cops, then. One of the guards at the helipad seemed to have something else as well, what looked like some kind of digital tablet he was tapping away at. None of them seemed to be aware of our presence, though, so reassured I gently spiralled my way back down to a few yards behind where I last recalled Totem and Cherrybomb being, switching back to my lioness to track them down.

"There you are, what's up?" Cherrybomb asked in a harsh whisper as I slunk up to their position.

Once reunited with them, I changed back to my own form, shaking myself a bit to knock off the uncomfortable feeling I always get after several quick changes. "There's fourteen guards on the roof, but they haven't seen us yet. There's also a helicopter on the way I think, so maybe they're just getting ready for an inspection or something."

"Or to move something. We don't have much time." Totem rubbed her temples, her eyes shut. "Whatever it is, I'm betting they know someone's after it."

I nodded.

"Welp, no time like the present!" Cherrybomb said, standing up and starting to stretch.

"Not so fast, Jacinda. We need to do this carefully."

"Jacinda?" I gave Cherrybomb a disbelieving look. "Your name is Jacinda?"

"Give it a rest, alright? So what's the plan, then?"

Totem closed her eyes, and I watched as more of her spirits passed through her. She looked tired when her eyes finally opened again, but determined. "They are preparing a container in the storage room closest to us for transport up to the roof," she said, pointing at an area of the wall ahead of us. "The only way into the facility is through the gates at the front or the windows, but we don't have time for the first and the second all grant access to the second floor only. By the time we could get to the bottom, it would be too late."

"Leave the entrance to me," Cherrybomb said, thankfully refraining from her standard thunder-fist punctuation to such phrases.

Totem shrugged. "Guess the subtle approach is ruled out, anyhow. Switch, did you manage to find out who the guys up top work for?"

I shook my head. "No idea. They didn't have anything identifying them on their uniforms. One of them had some kind of datapad, I think he might have been in charge but I really don't know."

"Great," she said sarcastically. "Alright, then, we'll just have to hope that Stone can be prevented from blowing a gasket should this be a government installation or, worse, some supervillain's hideout."

"You're kidding, right?" I scoffed. "Things can't be that cliche."

Even with her pure white eyes, I could see the disbelief on her face. "You are standing here dressed in what amounts to fancy spandex, work out of a headquarters for superheroes, and are friends with a computer."

She had a point. "So when do we make our move?"

It was at that moment that the spotlight locked onto us, and almost instantly the whine of a siren began.

"Oh, I think about now's a good time."

-

As soon as the crater left by Cherrybomb's blow cleared of smoke, I leapt through and into the warehouse, my paws silent and stable upon the rubble. One of Totem's many spirits spun off through the air ahead of me, and I followed it without waiting for the others, knowing they could handle themselves.

The place was like a maze, boxes and crates turning the vast open floor space into a series of corridors and alleyways, some tight even for my wolf form. I kept focused on the spirit, following its lead through the clutter, until we came upon a clearing. One side was a concrete wall with a large industrial elevator in the center, and two men grumbling as they stumbled their way toward it, each holding a square metal case in their hands. We had already been spotted, and I knew that it would only be a matter of time before whoever we were annoying at the moment had their security forces on us, so I made my move, padding silently across the space between us until I knew I was close enough.

I let out a piercing howl, causing the man only a couple of feet in front of me to scream as he leapt in terror, dropping his crate on one of his own feet. I used his injury as a distraction and leapt, bringing him to the floor with a satisfying 'conk' as his head met the concrete. His eyes fluttered closed as he lost consciousness, and now I was free to take care of my other opponent.

I turned in time to see him drop his own case and draw a gun, pointing it directly at me.

"Don't come any closer!"

I could see the fear in his eyes as his finger slowly tightened on the trigger suddenly disappear as one of Totem's spirits drifted through the side of his head. In its place was a blank expression as he redirected the pistol above me and fired, elliciting a gurgle from a member of their team I had apparently missed. As the spirit swept its way back out of his head, he crumpled to the ground unconscious as well.

"Aww, I missed all the fun!" Cherrybomb moaned as she climbed over a stack of crates and dropped down beside me. "These boxes the things we're after?"

"You two grab them, I will take care of anyone in our way," Totem said even as I shifted into my own form and took the nearest metal box. I looked at the two men on the ground, relieved to see that both appeared to be still breathing, but I didn't have the courage to check on the one that had been shot. "This way!" Totem yelled, following another set of winding paths through the boxes.

-

Chapter 8
The Reveal

We returned to the water treatment plant to find Horus standing in the exact same place we had left him just over four hours before. He smiled as we approached, and I felt myself involuntarily shudder.

"Ah, yes, I see you have retrieved my packages for me. Well done."

Cherrybomb and I dropped our cases in front of him then stepped back next to Totem, who was staring at the cases warily.

"What's the matter?"

"I can't see what's inside."

"Of course you can't," Horus said as he crouched beside the cases and pulled a metal cylinder from his pocket, running it over the top of each. "They are lead lined, a material even your spirits cannot penetrate. I could not have you spoiling the surprise." As the cases slid open, he reached in and took a glass from one and a bottle from the other. Popping the cap, he filled the glass, then reached into the first case and pulled out a hand full of ice cubes and added them to the drink. "A fine scotch is quite a treasure, is it not?"

"You had us go through all that for BOOZE?"

"Well it would not have been much of a test had I not," he said, sipping his drink. "I do hope you did not hurt too many of my boys in acquiring the prize, but no matter. You have proven most entertaining, and so I shall share with you what information I have." This time he reached back into the case that had contained the drink and removed a black, metal box. "This hard drive should have everything you need. And I would not waste my time scanning it for fingerprints, should you wish for more information on me."

"Why not?"

"I don't have any. Now if you will excuse me, I must be going," he said. With a nod, he turned and walked away, disappearing into the shadows while we were all too stunned to react.

Totem studied the black box, a cheap external hard drive in a shock-proofed case, while I examined the cases. There was no obvious way of opening them, so I assumed the black cylinder he had must have been involved somehow. I checked the label on the scotch, and let out a soft "oof" of appreciation. "Fine" was an understatement -- the stuff in the bottle went for around two hundred dollars for a sixteen ounce bottle. Beyond that, and a handful of extra ice cubes, the cases were filled with nothing but packing foam.

"Come on, guys, let's get this to Stone."

-

Mr. Stone's face was a mask of anger as we watched the content of the hard drive streaming across the screen before us. Page after page of documents, hour after hour of video and audio surveillance from places a character like Horus should never have been able to gain access, and all the evidence adding up to one person.

"Dia."

"Yes, sir?"

"Call a meeting of the entire team immediately."

"I'm on it, sir."

I made myself as small as possible as Mr. Stone stomped through his office, seething. I had been allowed to stay and view the evidence because of my inclusion in the team sent to retrieve it, an honor I was now wishing I had never had. I had wanted to find my sister's killer, but not like this.

It was less than an hour after the meeting was called that everyone from the team was gathered in the meeting room, silent as they looked upon Stone's rage-filled countenance. For the first time, I could see why criminals still cowered when "Martial" was mentioned, even though he rarely went out in uniform any more.

"Today we are gathered to review the information gathered in our recent covert mission to contact this 'Horus' character. I must say, what he has provided us with has proven most... enlightening. Dia, would you please load the files that I indicated to you earlier?"

"Sure thing."

On screen appeared several pages of documents concerning a criminal organization that had recently began operating in the local area, including police reports linked to their hits and heists as well as profiles of several of the members. Next were personal correspondences between members of the group and an individual whose name was replaced with a black line -- a black line that had not been there when we had viewed the documents earlier. More and more information was streamed to the screen, but none of it the most incriminating of what we found.

"Any questions so far?"

Armory stood up. "Yeah, when are we gonna hit these bastards?"

Stone shook his head. "When the time is right. There are other issues we have to take care of first. Anything else?"

Weaver stood next, her face pale. "Yes. Why was I not called to review this information first? I can't make adequate threat assessments on missions if I don't have all the information!"

"We'll cover that in a moment, in a private session. Everyone else is dismissed. Weaver, stay here."

Weaver remained where she stood as everyone except for Mr. Stone, Totem, Cherrybomb, and I left the room. As soon as they were gone, Mr. Stone pressed a button on the wall behind him, and I heard a distinct "Snikt" as the bolts in the door slid into place, sealing the room.

"Jacinda, if you would."

"Absolutely," Cherrybomb said as she stepped over to Weaver and grabbed her arms, twisting them behind her back.

"What? What are you doing!" Weaver asked, her face twisting with anger. "Let me go now!"

"Now I'm going to ask this once and once only," Mr. Stone said, stepping toward Weaver with murder in his eyes. "Why."

She glared at him. "I have no idea what you're talking about."

I had seen video footage of Martial fighting criminals and other supers in old news footage, but it was nothing like seeing him do it in real life. I'd always assumed the meaty 'smack' you hear in movies was fake, but the sound filled the room as his fist connected with the side of Weaver's jaw, nearly knocking her out of Cherrybomb's grasp.

I would have expected her to be knocked out, super or no, but instead I heard a wet, nasal croaking. It was her laughing.

I heard the sound of rushing wind, but turned too late to avoid the impact of the punch as a gigantic woman slammed her fist into my stomach. I felt myself fly through the air and impact the wall, watching with blurred vision as Collision Course, one of the city's best known supervillains, stepped out of some kind of whirling vortex into the room, followed by a small group of black armored thugs. With one hand she grabbed the meeting table and flipped it, throwing it into a surprised Martial and Cherrybomb as Weaver ducked beneath, taking advantage of their surprise to run over to the portal, where I could see Totem fighting uselessly against a pair of the thugs holding her against the wall.

Normally, this would be the point in the comics and cartoons where the villain turns to the hero and monologues about their plans, explaining everything and giving the hero the chance they need to stop them. Instead, as the base's alarms began to sound and I heard the doors snap open, the rest of the team just outside, Weaver turned to me with an evil smile on her face, took a pistol from one of her lackeys, and shot me in the head.

-

TO BE CONTINUED...

NOTES: I'm not going to end these with my Princess For Hire "If you comment, more will come" ending, but I would appreciate input on how people feel about the story. So far the response has been great! Please, keep it up, it helps to keep me inspired, and writing all my stories!

Melanie E.

Switcheroo Issue 3

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Transformations
  • Adventure
  • Superheroes

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Switcheroo Issue 3

By Melanie E.

Louis wakes up to find his whole world has changed, again.

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Chapter 9
Prehistory

I stood at the front of the classroom, nervously clutching my report in my hands as I waited my turn to give my presentation. I was next to last in line to speak, and I stared out at the rest of the class who had already finished, wondering what they were thinking and hoping that nobody would laugh at me.

"...And that is why I want to be a doctor when I grow up."

Everybody clapped as Lillian finished her report and returned to her seat, happy with her reception.

"Louis Phelps, it is your turn. Please take the podium."

I felt the sweat begin to pour as I crossed the short distance to the worn-out podium at the front of the room. My hands shook as I placed my report before me on the stand and cast my eyes around the room. Mrs. Hanson's fourth grade class stared back at me, most of them disinterestedly, but a few sniggered as they noticed my discomfort.

I took a deep breath, and closed my eyes. I didn't need to open the report to give my presentation -- I already had it memorized.

As clearly as I could, I said, "When I grow up, I want to be a superhero."

-

"There's a lot of blood, doctor."

"I know. It's bad, he's lucky the bullet bounced off his skull, but even with that a shot like he took would have killed most people, regenerative capabilities or not."

The pain in my head was tremendous, even trying to open my eyes sending tendrils of electricity shooting through me.

"Doctor, he's trying to wake up!"

"Damn! He's developing a tolerance to the anesthesia faster than I expected. Nurse, increase the dose to..."

-

I heard my mom shriek in terror as the building before us began to shudder, windows breaking and cars slamming into one another, but I could only watch raptly as the hero Warhammer brought his namesake down in an arc, generating one of his trademark waves of force that pushed the falling rubble back and away from the civilians surrounding him, cowering in terror. Efreet was getting away, but Warhammer had no choice -- it was either save the civilians, or catch the enemy.

"Louis, get back here! It's not safe to be that close!"

I ignored her warning, too fascinated by watching Warhammer using his powers to control the building's collapse, directing wave after wave of force with his hammer to keep the collateral damage to a minimum.

I might have only been fourteen, but there was nothing I wouldn't do for the chance to be a hero.

-

The incessant beeping was the first thing to penetrate my consciousness, followed shortly by the feeling of pressure on my head. I groaned as I tried to feel what was pressing on me, only to follow it up with a hiss as I felt the needles pulling on my hand.

"Shhh, don't try to move. You're going to be fine. The doctors managed to get all the fragments out of your face and repair most of the damage, but you're still pretty chewed up."

I recognized that voice. "Dia?"

"It's okay. I'll summon a nurse if you want, or I can administer some painkillers myself since the medical systems are part of my network. Is there anything you need?"

"Sleep," I mumbled as I felt myself slip back into unconsciousness.

-

I fought back the tears, not wanting to give them the satisfaction of knowing how much they had hurt me. Not that they could see me, up in my room away from them all, but the red eyes would be a dead giveaway when I had to go back down later, and only add fuel to their anger.

I ignored the knocking at my door the first and second times she came by, but the third time I finally gave in. "Come in."

Lesli opened the door slowly, like she was worried I would lash out at her when she came in. "Are you okay?"

"I'm fine," I said, not bothering to turn over to look at the door, or her. I didn't want to move from my spot on my bed, and the wall was much safer to stare at.

"I'm sorry Mom and Dad are mad at you." When I said nothing, she continued. "Is there anything I can do to help?"

"Be stupider," I wanted to say to her, but I knew it wasn't her fault. "Nothing," I said instead, still not turning over.

"Alright, I'll leave you alone, then." I could hear the disappointment in her voice, but if I looked at her I would cry, and I couldn't allow that. I heard her move something on my desk, and then the door closing as she left.

Once she was gone, I forced myself to sit up. On my desk was a box wrapped in newspaper, with a note that said "From Lesli." At first I refused to open it, but it wasn't long before my curiosity got the better of me and I carefully undid the paper.

Inside was an Iron Maiden tee shirt. No, not the band, the heroine, standing strong and proud with the MDSPF logo behind her in crimson, and across the bottom her signature in permanent marker. It was the tee shirt that Lesli had won in the scholarship speech contest, the same contest my mom and dad had been pressuring me to enter. I had refused, public speaking still scaring the living daylights out of me, but Lesli had had no such problem. Besides being presented with the scholarship by Iron Maiden herself, Lesli had also been given the tee shirt I now held.

When Mom and Dad had found out Lesli had won, they were ecstatic, showering praise on her. When they were done, though, is when they had turned on me, berating me for not entering and going on about how I would never make anything of my life if I didn't apply myself like Lesli did. Perfect little Lesli.

Yet I couldn't be mad at her. After all, I had helped her write the speech that had won the scholarship for her, not that my mom or dad wanted to hear that. Lesli was a great little sister, they were the ones with the problem.

I looked down at the tee shirt in my hands again, and something inside finally snapped, the tears that had been fighting their way to the surface falling freely.

-

"Come on, sleepyhead, time to get up."

The light stung as I eased my eyes open, the bright reflective white of the walls and ceiling only making the effect that much worse. Finally, after what felt like ages, my eyes began to adjust, at the same time as what had happened came rushing back.

"So, Doc, will I ever be able to model again?"

"You always had a face made for radio, so anything would be an improvement I'd think," Dia said, a teasing tone in her voice.

"Dia, now's not the time," I heard Mr. Stone say as his face swam into view above me. "We were worried about you."

I smiled. "Thanks. So what's the damage?"

"It's not too bad. Since you're still undergoing the body changes associated with acquiring your powers Doctor Blade said he doubts it will even scar, though you might not like some of the side effects much."

I sighed. "Can I see?"

"Do you think you can stand up?" He asked.

I gave my arms and legs an experimental flex, and nodded. "I think so."

He held out his hand, and using it I pulled myself into a sitting position, taking a break to let the momentary dizziness pass before swinging my legs off the bed and standing up with surprisingly little trouble.

"So how long was I out?"

Mr. Stone grimaced. "Almost a week."

"A WEEK!"

He nodded. "For a face wound like you had? Even for a Superhuman, a week is amazing recovery time. All the Switcheroos have always had good regenerative powers, but it seems that the extended time it is taking your body to adapt has given yours an extra boost."

I felt a twinge as my dreams, memories of past times, came back to the forefront of my mind. "Lesli must have been... really badly hurt, to have died, wasn't she?"

Mr. Stone hesitated before answering, staring at the floor, but when he looked up into my eyes I could see legitimate sorrow there. "I didn't want to tell you before, but now that we have found out Weaver was responsible there's no reason not to. I managed to track down your sister's autopsy reports -- please, don't ask how since I can't tell you, and even I'm not supposed to have that level of government clearance. Beyond her injuries, she had also been poisoned. One or the other she could have survived, but the two combined was too much for her regenerative powers to handle. The particular poison involved was specifically engineered to counter her immune system, indicating to us that someone on the inside had been involved for the enemy to be able to get that kind of information. I swear to you, we had no idea it was Weaver until you brought in the hard drive though."

I looked at Mr. Stone, and for the first time I realized how old he truly was. Mr. Stone, as the hero Martial, had been in the business since the early seventies, and had taken over as the director of the local MDSPF almost twenty years ago. Despite that, under the years of bureaucracy and working with the system there still beat the heart of the hero he had been, and I could see how much his impotence was hurting him.

I led the way to the small bathroom in my hospital room, clutching my robe closed behind me as I walked. Just walking told me a number of things about what changes had occurred, but I tried to ignore them until I had a chance to see it all at once.

Looking in the floor-length mirror in the bathroom, though, what I saw was more of a shock than I had expected.

"My god...."

-

Chapter 10
No Going Home

I knocked on the door for a second time, hoping someone would answer soon. It was an uncomfortable feeling, standing outside my own front door waiting for what I knew would be a train wreck of a meeting, but I had no choice. Not after what I had gone through.

This superhero stuff could be a real bitch.

"Coming," I heard my mom yell through the door as I prepared to knock again, only to have the door swung open seconds later. "What do you..."

I looked down at the shock and pain on my mom's face and felt something twist inside me. I fought it down, though, and looked her in the eyes. "I just came to let you know I was alive."

"Lesli?"

I sighed. "No, Mom, it's me, Louis."

She looked between me and Mr. Stone, her eyes registering confusion. "We were told there was an accident at work, you were alive but they wouldn't let us see you... what's going on?"

"Mom, it's hard to explain. Can we come in?"

"Honey, who's here?" My dad called, walking into the room even as Mom waved us to the couch.

My parents settled into the two seats across from the couch while Mr. Stone and I sat side by side. I placed as little weight on the couch as I could, still afraid that its creaking under Mr. Stone was a sign of imminent collapse.

"Louis, what happened to you?"

I looked at the ground. I couldn't stand to see the pain on my mom's face any more. "Mom, you remember when we were holding Lesli? The day she... the day she died?" I looked up to see her nodding wordlessly. "I didn't know it at the time, but when she died she gave me her powers."

"What do you mean?"

"Mom. Dad. I'm the new Switcheroo."

Neither one of them said a word for what felt like forever, but when one of them finally came around it was my father, who burst into derisive laughter. "You can't be serious? Switcheroo's always a girl, I don't think a guy can even have the powers. Not that looking at you you'd be able to tell."

I looked up into his glaring face, and something in me snapped. "Well you're right about that, Dad. The powers are changing me so I look more like the Switcheroos who came before me. That's the trade off, that to be able to use the powers I've gotta be a girl." I could hear my voice rising, partially in anger and partially to be heard over my mother's mounting sobs, but there was nothing I could do to stop it. "It's not like I asked for this, alright?"

I wanted to feel sorry for my parents, but seeing them like this, my father growing red-faced with anger while my mother cried, not for me, but for the loss of her daughter, I felt nothing but outrage. When my mother would look at me, I could see the blame in her eyes. I had Lesli's powers. By taking them, I had condemned her daughter to death. I knew it was a lie, but I also knew there was no way I would ever convince her otherwise.

No tears fell from my eyes as I stood up, and while trying to ignore the shouts from my father walked to my room to gather the few things I wanted to take with me.

"--ungrateful little bastard, after all we've done for you. How DARE you come into my house looking like some sissy and tell us you're a superhero? You were never the person Lesli was, and now--"

I spun around and roared, stopping my father in his tracks. "You're RIGHT, Dad, I was never the person Lesli was. I was ME! And you two hated me. I loved Lesli, but from the moment she was able to talk all I ever got from you two was lecturing on why she was better than me. You know what? I just woke up from being shot in the HEAD, and you don't even ask if I'm alright? Fuck you."

It only took me a few moments to load a duffel bag with the things I wanted to take with me, mostly photographs and a few mementos. I left all of my old clothes -- none of it would fit me for much longer anyhow, but that was something I didn't want to think about at the moment. With that bag over one shoulder and my laptop case over the other, I scribbled a quick note for Lucas and slid it under his door before trudging back through the living room and out the door, Mr. Stone close behind me.

We were halfway down the stares before either of us said a word.

"I'm sorry," Mr. Stone said, resting his hand on my shoulder. The force caused me to have to lock my knees just to keep from collapsing.

"Fuck them. I've dealt with that shit all my life, I'm sure as hell not putting up with it now."

"Maybe they'll come around eventually, give them time."

I shook my head. "No. Lucas knows how to get in contact with me, if they want to apologize they can do it through him. But I'm not going to be the one who makes the effort to fix this. They're the ones with the problem, not me, so they're the ones who will have to change."

Mr. Stone smiled as he looked down at me. "You really are more like your sister than you think. She could be just as bull-headed when she believed in something."

"Yeah, well, Lesli was special. My parents were right about one thing, I'll never be able to live up to her as Switcheroo, but I'm damned sure going to do my best."

He nodded, still smiling. "And you'll do fine. Come on, I called ahead while you were packing to make sure Dia had your room set up before we got back. I had been hoping we wouldn't have to use it."

I shrugged the duffel and laptop into better positions on my shoulders and continued my way down, fighting back my tears the best I could. "Honestly? So was I."

-

TO BE CONTINUED

NOTES: Sorry this one took so long to get out! I'll try to have the next chapter up sooner, and I promise it'll be back to action and adventure and hitting things :P

No, Louis and Mr. Stone don't mention any specifics about where his appearance is at at the moment. Yes, it will be covered in the next issue. Thank you.

Switcheroo Issue 4

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Transformations
  • Adventure
  • Superheroes

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Switcheroo
Issue Four

By Melanie E.

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Chapter 11
Changes

My eyes stung from the sweat streaming down my face, but I wasn't about to let that stop me. One, two, one, two, punch, kick, punch, punch, groin shot, roundhouse, repeat. The workout helped to take my mind off of my situation, as well as burn off some of my excess energy -- something that I seemed to have in spades, now that my transformation was slowing down.

I heard the door buzz, indicating someone else had entered the base's training facilities, but I ignored it as I continued administering my beating to the punching bag before me, fighting the urge to morph into my bear or lioness form and tear the thing to shreds.

Unfortunately my peace wasn't to last, as Roland circled around behind the bag and braced it against my strikes.

"How's the training going?"

"Good. Getting better control. Less tired after changing." I punctuated my short sentences with strikes to the bag, seeing how far I could slide him. Being a super, he was quite stout, and my shots to the bag barely caused any visible reaction.

"And the changes?"

I shot him a glare. "Don't wanna talk about it. Maybe later." Punch, kick, punch.

Roland was one of the three members of the team I had gotten to know the least. Nate -- Armory -- avoided me because of his relationship with my sister, though I'd be damned if I knew why that mattered, and Tag, well, nobody really knew all that much about her. Roland, on the other hand, just never seemed to be around. As Bard, he was known for his mysterious vanishing and reappearing act, as well as his showmanship, but as a person all I had been able to tell about him so far was that he was really into folklore, and had an on-again off-again relationship going with Jami that seemed like a match made in spooky heaven.

"You've been in here for four hours."

"I know."

"Stone's getting worried."

"I'm fine."

"So's Jami," he said with a significant look.

"I'm fine. Really."

He nodded, and held the bag in silence for a few minutes.

"Is this about the bra thing?"

That stopped me cold.

"Well?"

"No."

"You're a terrible liar."

"Shut up."

The punching bag didn't hold any interest for me any more, and I was sure he would follow me no matter what piece of equipment I moved on to, so I decided to take advantage of his presence and headed for the free weights in the corner of the room. I was up to two hundred pounds, which was damn good for my size, but I was finding myself having to work harder at it than ever before.

"Spot me."

"No."

I shrugged. "Suit yourself." I bent down to pick up the weight, only to find him standing before me, his foot holding the barbell in place. I gave him a cold stare. "Move it or lose it."

"You won't hurt a team mate. That's not like you."

"How would you know? This is the most you've spoken to me since I started here."

"Jami likes you. She doesn't like assholes."

I snorted. "So you're the exception?"

He grinned. "Sometimes."

He was right, though. As angry as I was, as frustrated as I felt, I wasn't about to strike one of my team mates without a really good reason.

I sighed. "So why didn't she come down here to stop me herself? Why'd she send you?"

Roland grimaced, rubbing the back of his neck. "She doesn't know I'm here."

"Okay. Then why are you here?"

"For the reasons I gave you." I glared at him some more. "Aaaand because your being upset is upsetting her."

"Hah! Why would it be doing that?"

"I can answer that one," Dia said from the speakers above me. "Many of the spirits that communicate with Totem on a daily basis are highly sensitive to emotional states, and can pass the discomfort they feel from negative emotions on to her."

"So you're saying my bad mood's giving her the heebie jeebies?"

"In a way."

With a defeated growl I crossed the room and plopped myself down on the edge of the sparring platform, wrapping my arms in the ropes. "Fine, then. Lay it on me. Make me feel better."

Roland smiled, a far more pleasant affair than the serious expression he usually wore in debriefings and on missions. He sat down next to me on the platform, but said nothing.

"Well?"

He shrugged. "You're the one who needs to talk, not me."

I grunted. "If I wanted to talk I'd have done it with Jami herself. Or Dia."

There was a telltale whirr, and less than a second later Dia stood before me, complete with workout clothes. With a snap of her fingers a chair formed behind her and she sat down. "Deal. Now talk."

I looked at the two of them. Then I looked at the door.

"Nah ah," Dia said. "Not 'til you've talked."

I had to laugh. "About what? About turning into a girl? About losing my family because of it? About knowing who killed my sister, and not being able to do a damn thing about it? WHAT," I screamed, feeling the anger building, "do you want me to TALK about, exactly?!"

"You haven't turned into a girl yet," Dia said, giving me a small smile.

I didn't return it.

"No, you're right, I haven't. Instead I'm stuck as THIS," I said, standing up and gesturing down my body.

A lot had changed in the week since I had left my parents. Mr. Stone had been right, the gunshot had done something to speed my transformation to the point that anyone looking at me would no longer doubt what they saw. My waist had shrunk down, at the same time as my face had softened. Most of my body hair had disappeared and what little was still there had morphed into the same golden blonde color as my hair, which had taken on a life of its own. My chest now sported a very obvious if not overly large set of breasts. Even my voice had completely changed. In fact, the only thing about me that still reminded of me was, well, reminding me less and less every day.

But none of that compared to the biggest problem. Turning into a girl wouldn't have been so bad, if it wasn't what girl I was turning into.

Roland nodded. "You're looking more and more like your sister every day."

"I KNOW!" I screamed, feeling the dam burst. "I know and I HATE IT! SHE, I, I can't... I can't..."

"What?"

"I CAN'T BE HER!"

Roland stood up and placed his hand on my shoulder gently. I tried to knock it away, but his grip only tightened slightly, my strike doing more to move me than him.

"No one expects you to."

"You ALL do!" I cried -- yes, cried. "Everyone always has! And now I'm even supposed to LOOK like her? I can't be me? How is this fair!" I slid to my knees, and Roland lowered himself with me, holding me stable.

Once I was no longer falling over, he looked at me and shook his head.

Dia crouched next to me, a sad expression on her face. "It's not fair, but none of us can change what's happening to you." She placed her hand on my forehead. I couldn't feel the actual contact, but where her hand touched me I felt a strange tingling sensation. "Your hormones are all over the place right now, Lou. Do you know what that means?"

I sniffled, feeling like a complete waste as I sat on the floor in tears. "No."

She gave me a serious look. "It means that your emotions are going to be all over the place too."

I laughed again, a humorless, cold sound. "So you're saying even my emotions are being turned into those of a girl?"

Roland turned to Dia. "I'm gonna go get Jami, okay?" Dia nodded, and he left, leaving me there alone with her.

"You gonna leave too?"

"Not on your life," she said, with a small smile. "Friends don't abandon friends when they need them." We were both quiet for a moment, before Dia asked me softly, "Is it really so bad?"

"What?"

"The changes in your body. Why are you letting it hurt you so?"

"My body is... it's part of who I am."

She looked confused. "Why?"

"Well... you know."

She shook her head. "Not really, no."

Before I could try to explain further Jami, in full Totem garb, came in, Roland in tow.

"Are you okay?"

I sniffled again. "Yeah, I'll be alright."

"Good," she said, stepping forward and giving me a hug. "I'm sorry about him. If I had known he would be such an idiot-"

"-hey!"

"-I wouldn't have told him about how I felt."

"No, it's okay," I said, stepping back to see her face. "He was just trying to help."

She frowned, and turned to him. "That's not how you go about it with girls! Or people who are turning into them," she said, giving me an apologetic glance.

While they stood there, warming up to an argument of their own, I waved to Dia before stepping around them and out the door.

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NOTES:

Alright, so this is my first posting using the experimental single-chapter setup. Questions, concerns?

Come on, people, comment! It was kinda empty here last chapter, ya know? :P

Switcheroo Issue 5

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Transformations
  • Adventure
  • Superheroes

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Switcheroo
Issue Five

By Melanie E.

With a little help Louis starts to come to terms with his changes... just in time for a mission that could bring him the satisfaction he wants.

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Chapter 12
Reconstruction

Living at a superhero base was quite a bit different than living at home. On the plus side, I wasn't alone, since most of the rest of the team for one reason or other had chosen to use the base's accommodations rather than going to the expense of paying for their own. At the moment, though, that also served as probably the biggest disadvantage, as well.

Over the last two hours it seemed like everyone and their brother had come by and tried to get me to talk with the surprise exception of Dia. Sure, I knew she was monitoring me at all times regardless of what I did, which was another part of staying at a superhero base that took some getting used to, but at least she was being quiet about it.

I looked around my room. A week wasn't a whole lot of time to personalize a space when you're as busy as I had been, but I had done my best with the few things I had brought from home. A picture of me and my sister together sat on the desk in my room, next to the tee shirt she had given me in a special frame. A handful of posters and an old Dreamcast were the other personal touches I had managed yet, leaving the largeish room feeling cavernous in its emptiness.

"I think it could use some curtains, maybe a couple of futons or something to sit on. We can look at things online later if you want."

I sighed, and stared at the ceiling as I answered Dia. "The windows are just computer screens anyhow, so what's the point?"

"To make it more your own."

I stood up and walked to one of the "windows," watching the linked three dimensional screens displaying a view of the city outside from cameras far up the building. Reaching to the control panel next to me, I rolled the time back a few days, to the beginning of the thunderstorm that had only just passed. The speakers around me vibrated with the crash of thunder as the screens lit up with a brilliant flash of lightning.

"What's the point?" I asked with a frown. "In another week I'll probably just have to redo it anyhow when the mental changes kick in."

Dia appeared next to me, now dressed in jeans and a tank top. "I don't think so."

I glared at her. "Why not? Everything else about me is changing, why not that?"

She looked at me confused, a frown of her own on her face. "I still don't see why you think your body dictates who you are. It's one of the elements of human behavior I've never understood."

"What do you mean?"

She sat down on the ledge of the window, reaching one of her hands through and watching the rain run down her arm. I knew it was just an illusion, but it still made me smile to watch. "Lou, do you think of me as a computer program first or a person?"

I shrugged. "You seem as real as I am."

She smiled. "Thank you for saying that. But you know that all I am is a computer program, right? Just a few million lines of code operating together to create the person you see before you."

"Maybe, but you don't act like a computer program."

"No, and there is quite a bit more to me than there is in those crappy games you play on that thing," she said, pointing to my Dreamcast in the corner.

"Hey!"

"But why do you think that is? It isn't because of the server towers that make up my processing units, or the thousands of terrabytes of hard drive space that make up my memory. All of those things can be changed around, switched out, improved or broken. As long as my core program is intact, though, I'm still the same, just with different parts."

She looked me up and down. I was leaning against the wall next to the window, and knew that the outline of a lot of my body could clearly be seen through the thin exercise clothes I still wore. For a second she fuzzed out, and when she came back I was looking at a mirror of myself.

"It's not the same."

"Why not?" She came over to stand right in front of me. A wall appeared behind her, and she leaned against it, duplicating my pose. "The human body is just like the computer parts that make up my central systems, just smaller and messier. Your parts might be harder to replace than mine are, but they no more dictate who you are than mine do."

I stared at her, looking at me so smug, like she had broken any argument I had. "Really? Well, what do you have to say about the reprogramming I'm supposed to undergo?"

"Is that what you think is going to happen?" With another fuzz she was stood there before me again in her normal body.

"That's what everyone said, and I can... feel it. The changes." I slid down the wall to sit on the floor, looking up at Dia. "I don't want to be someone else, is that so bad?"

She sat against the wall next to me. "Lou, you aren't going to change that much. Yeah, some things will be different for you, but... it's more like added elements, okay? Just because a new program is loaded into me doesn't change me, either. I take what is in it and incorporate it into my systems, and from that I improve. Isn't this a lot the same?"

I thought about what she had said. "So you're saying I'm not going to change as much as I thought?"

She shook her head. "No! I'm gonna let you in on a secret, okay?" I nodded. "There's more to being able to take on the Switcheroo powers than just being in the right place at the right time. The best we can tell, there are certain markers that legacy powers look for when they are transferred before they will manifest. For the longest time sex was thought to be one of Switcheroo's, though you've apparently blown that out of the water. But the other markers we've noticed -- courage, ingenuity, a caring personality -- you've got all those already. The changes the powers put you through might make them more obvious, but they've always been a part of you."

"Really?"

"Yeah."

I shook. "But, what about... people? I mean, like, am I going to start liking guys now? Or will I be a lesbian? And everything affects me so much more now..."

She laughed softly. "That would be the hormones talking, I warned you about those. Being a girl is different than being a guy. Your body will behave differently, but the way things are interpreted will still be you. Your sexuality is another issue, though. Honestly I don't know on that one. From past experience Switcheroos have always been heterosexual, but I don't know how your unique situation will affect that."

"That's not much help."

"It isn't? I was sure it would be," she said with a grin.

I thought about what she had said, and gained a new appreciation for her. "How'd you get so smart?" I asked, feeling myself calming down.

"I guess I was just made that way. As were you."

I smiled at her. "Thanks for the help, Dia. I'd give you a hug if I could, but..."

Her image flashed for a moment. "Thanks." She started to say something else, when her eyes grew wide shortly before she disappeared completely, warning klaxons around the base going off as her voice came over the speakers. "ALL TEAM MEMBERS. An emergency meeting of August Branch members has been called in the briefing room. Please report there immediately. Repeat: an emergency meeting of August Branch members has been called in the briefing room. Please report immediately."

With a sense of dread I bounded up from my spot against the wall and rushed out the door.

-

"Can't we go a single week without the world coming down around us?"

"One of the perils of being a superhero," Bard said, sliding into his designated spot at the table.

The tension around the table was "palpable," I do believe is the word. Not one of knew what the emergency was. The klaxon that had been used indicated it wasn't an attack on the base, but emergency meetings were never called for something minor.

We had just begun to discuss what the problem might be when Mr. Stone, in full Martial regalia, marched into the room, a grimace plastered on his face.

"Sir, what's the problem?"

He took his place at the head of the room, and while looking directly at me said, "We know where Weaver has gone."

That was enough to silence everyone. Her betrayal had caused rifts in the team that were just starting to heal over, and all of us were ready for a little payback.

"Well?" Cherrybomb asked impatiently when Martial failed to continue.

"She has been monitored entering and leaving this building several times over the past few days," he said, touching the wall behind him and bringing up an image of a large office building I instantly recognized.

"Isn't that the replacement for the old Rhodes Building after Warhammer's fight with Efreet a few years back?"

He nodded. "It is. Further investigation has led the officials at the MDSPF main branch to the discovery that while most of the building is used by Rhodes Industries still, these floors," he pointed to the seventeenth through twentieth levels of the building, "are being rented to another company by the name of McCree Business Operations. Both the MDSPF and my contacts in the government agree that Rhodes Industries is about as clean as a big company generally gets, but so far nobody has been able to track down any information on this other company."

"So you think that might be where she's working from."

"I don't know," he said, leaning on the table, "but it's a start."

I stood up. "So what do we do?" I could feel the anger rising in me. Weaver had killed my sister, and tried to kill me -- there was no way in hell I was letting her get away again.

Martial touched the wall behind him again, and a series of dossiers appeared. "We're working with the local police on this one. Since we don't have any proof of wrongdoing they're going out on a limb helping us, but they have agreed to sending us up with a police escort while we ask some questions. We have to do this RIGHT," he said, glaring at me when I started to protest. "Too many supers forget that we don't have any legal jurisdiction to do what we do. The government overlooks this most of the time, but if we fly in and start busting heads and turn out to be wrong, we WILL be prosecuted to the full extent of the law. Do I make myself clear?"

I sat back down in my seat, thoroughly chastised but still fuming.

He smashed the table with his fist hard enough to crack the marble surface. "I want to get the bitch just as bad as you, but unlike the rest of you I've SEEN what the government will do to a Super that doesn't toe the line. Weaver is smart, smarter than any of us, and she wouldn't be this blatant about where she's going if she didn't think we were powerless to do anything to her. She WANTS us to go in angry and fuck this up. We. Can't. Do. That. Understood?" Everyone nodded. "The police are interested in bringing Weaver in as well due to her assault on Louis and a pending investigation into his sister's death, but there isn't enough evidence for them to justify doing this on their own, and that's the ONLY reason they've agreed to work with us on this."

"So when are we going in?"

"Tomorrow morning. I'll let everyone know later who is going with me. For now, you're all dismissed. Louis, stay here."

Everyone else walked out, leaving me sitting at the table with Martial -- I couldn't call him Mr. Stone when he was wearing his uniform.

"What did you need, sir?"

He sat down across from me, looking at me seriously. "I heard you're having trouble adjusting."

"I think I'm getting over it, sir. Dia's helped a lot."

He nodded. "Good. Because I want you on the team tomorrow. If you can keep your temper in check, that is."

My eyes narrowed. "If we see Weaver, sir, I can't make any promises."

"If we see Weaver, I don't think any of us would try to stop you Lou, unless you looked like you were in danger. That's not why I want you on, though."

I leaned back in my seat, staring at him. "Why, then?"

His expression eased into something that wasn't quite a smile. "You've been on the team for almost two months now and I haven't worked with you yet. Tomorrow should be non-combat, but I want to see how you handle yourself around civilians. Consider this part one of your first review."

He stood up and waved me toward the door, indicating our meeting was over. I shook his hand on the way out, going over and over in my head all the things I wanted to do to Weaver when I caught her.

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NOTES: I know I tend to go overboard with the whole "emotional introspection" thing in my stories. Suffice it to say that short of major changes that would affect ANYone, most of the emotional vascillating for this story is done, so be prepared for a mostly straight-forward superhero story from here on out with the TG issue used more for flavoring than as the significant driving force behind the story -- at least that's what I'm hoping for.

Questions? Comments? Concerns?

Excelsior?

Switcheroo Issue 6

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Serial Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Transformations
  • Adventure
  • Superheroes

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Switcheroo
Issue Six

By Melanie E.

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Chapter 13
Dirty Business

When most people think of superhero cars they tend to focus on the iconic ones from comic books and television. The Batmobile, Black Beauty, the Fantasticar, hell, even the Freakmobile. A white Honda Civic usually doesn't make it onto the list.

And yet, that is what I found myself sitting in, along with Martial, Totem, and Bard, arguably the three best negotiators and talkers on our team. I was along mostly due to my connection with Weaver, but also as backup for Martial should things devolve into a fight at some point. Totem could direct her spirit companions to do some pretty nasty things, but it usually took a little preparation, and Bard's super-speed and TK blasts would do more harm than good in an enclosed space like an office building, though his TK barrier might serve us well in an emergency. Between Martial's superman-type abilities, minus the flight, and my own shapeshifting badassery we would have to take care of most of the opponents.

That is, of course, provided they didn't collapse from laughing first.

Dia had argued the point, and Martial had overridden my arguments when it came to returning my costume to an appearance closer to its original look. While changing its appearance had worked to distract from my lack of assets and different body shape before, now that my body had begun the process of filling out to a more classic Switcheroo shape the two of them had tag-teamed me into returning to the older design.

"Stop picking at it, you look fine."

"So says the lady who isn't wearing a spot of pink on her," I said with a glare for Totem's predominately white costume.

Martial sighed. "We can continue the costume argument when we get back to the base. For now, just deal with it."

"Says the man in the navy fatigues and a half-mask."

"Enough. We're here."

The Rhodes Legacy Building was one of the staples of Cedar Falls' riverside skyline. With its asymmetrical and chunky plate glass design, it looked more like some kind of strange statue than an office building. Nevertheless, it was bustling with activity as we exited our car and joined the police officers who were already waiting for us.

"Officer Crowley, good to see you again."

"You too... Martial. I take it you've explained the situation to those you're bringing in?"

"Yessir. They are aware that we are here to ask questions only."

Officer Crowley frowned, an expression that sat all too comfortably on his aged face. "Alright then. I'll admit, I'm not too happy with this plan myself. Back in the day we used to get things done, now with all this bureaucratic malarkey it takes six weeks of paperwork just to get permission to take a piss."

Martial bared his teeth in what could only be described as a snarl. "Let's hope that something happens to change the situation, then."

Crowley chuckled. "If it does, just make sure my men get out of there alive."

"You know me, Mike. I'll do my best."

"Alright then. Let's get a move on."

As a group we moved in on the building, Martial and Officer Crowley at front, Totem, Bard, and I next, with two more officers taking position behind us. The Rhodes employees gave us no problems, if more than a few strange looks, as we made our way through the ground floor and up the elevator to the seventeenth floor.

Whereas the ground floor had been largely modern minimalist in design, all chrome and glass with the occasional black or white accent, stepping off the elevator onto the seventeenth floor was like stepping into some kind of military base. Plain cinder block walls under a coat of white paint were lit by dim fluorescent lights overhead, our footsteps echoing off the walls as we followed the featureless hallway down to the empty metal desk at the end.

Even in human form I felt my hackles rise at the situation. Whatever was going on here, they obviously weren't too concerned about the front they put on for the public. Martial and Bard both looked just as nervous as I felt, and Totem had her eyes closed as she walked, small spirits zipping in and out of her barely visible even to my enhanced vision.

"Did they make a runner when they found out we were on our way?"

"I don't know. Either way, I don't like it."

As we approached the desk, a small disk above it lowered slightly, and I heard a familiar whirring as the image of a woman materialized before us.

"Greetings, I am DiVA, how may I help you today?"

Martial's eyes narrowed as he watched the computer generated woman closely. Her movements were stiffer than Dia's, and her image grainier, with less emotion, but it was obviously the same technology that was being used at our own base, and he didn't seem to like it. "Is this McCree Business Operations?" He asked.

"Yes sir, we are McCree Business Operations, premier enterprise in business applications of state of the art digital, virtual, and electronic systems. How may I help you today?"

"DiVA?" I said aloud, and the image spun in place to face me.

"I am DiVA, a Digital Virtual Assistant designed by McCree Business Operations to aid in the interaction between people and today's advanced computer technologies. How may I help you today?"

"How long have you been in service here?" Bard asked, walking around the desk and studying the projector mount as best he could.

"I am a prototype. I have been installed in this location for approximately seventy-six hours, eight minutes."

"We're not here to question the... computer, Bard," Martial said, gesturing to Bard to join us again before turning his attention back to the hologram. "Can you escort us to whoever is the supervisor at this location?"

"I am sorry sir, my operational parameters do not extend beyond approximately two feet away from this desk." She paused for a moment, her image frozen, before resuming movement with a jerk. "I have just been informed that the resident supervisor is expecting you. Please follow this map to locate his office." her image disappeared completely to be replaced by a map of the floor, with a glowing line indicating where we needed to go.

Without another word for the computer Martial led us down the hallways toward the destination marked on the map. I was sure I wasn't the only one curious about DiVA's presence, but none of us seemed ready to bring it up while still inside the building, though I could see Martial's expression darkening with each step we took toward the office. Whatever was going on here, it had Weaver written all over it.

There was another thing bothering me as we walked the halls. I couldn't quite place what it was, until one of the policemen behind me said quietly, "where's all the doors?" Sure enough, the place was full of corridors, but beyond the elevators at the beginning, I had yet to see a single door in the entire structure. Whatever was going on here was shady as hell, and I was beginning to fear that if things went south Martial and I would be hard pressed to get everyone out of this death trap alive.

We finally reached the first doors we had seen, right where we had been told the office would be. Bare metal security double doors, the only indication of their contents was a small plaque attached to the left-hand door that read "Supervisor's Office." Martial eyed the doors wearily before finally reaching forward and pushing them open with one fluid movement.

Inside we were faced with yet another surprise. Light streamed in through the large plate glass windows on two sides of the square room, illuminating the polished wood floors, and the long, cherry wood desk occupying the right side of the room, but suspiciously devoid of any papers, computers, or other sign of use except for the man behind it.

He was tall, and looked something like Patrick Stewart if he had been built like a wrestler. As he circled around the desk, he extended one well-manicured hand from the sleeve of his expensive suit toward Martial.

"Greetings," he said, in a subtle English accent, "I'm Anubis McCree."

-

NOTES:

Dun dun DUUUUUNNNN!!!

Yeah, it's been a while. I'm not writing very fast at the moment, sorry for that! Hopefully I'll be able to make up for it soon. In the mean time, comment and let me know what ya'll think!

Switcheroo Issue 7

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Transformations
  • Adventure
  • Superheroes

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Switcheroo
Issue 7

By Melanie E.

REEEEEAAAADD MMMEEEEEE!!!!!

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Chapter 14
Impotence

With a groan I sat up in my bed and immediately regretted it, the swimming of my head telling me to lay back down immediately -- an order I was all too willing to comply with.

"Nuh uh, now that you're awake you're getting up," Dia said, dialling up the lights in my room to "sun going supernova" and pulling a scream from my lips as I covered my eyes with my arm. "It's your own dumb fault, you know. You should have known better."

"Leame alone," I mumbled, wincing at the pain in my head as I turned over, burying my face in my pillow.

"Even supers can get hangovers. With how much you drank last night, I'm surprised you aren't crouched over the toilet already."

"Mebbeh when ah can feel mah legs aggin."

"...are you still drunk?"

"Ah wish."

This was why I had stopped drinking in college. I was always a real lightweight when it came to alcohol, and the effects were debilitating on me. Even a superhero's regenerative capabilities didn't seem to make a dent in it, though everything considered they were probably overloaded just keeping me from dying of alcohol poisoning.

But last night had warranted it.

I fought down a whimper as I rolled over, forcing myself to bear the light shining through my eyelids. "Did I do anything embarrassing last night?"

"Nothing worth posting to YouTube. I can show you the security cam footage later if you want."

"Urgh, no thanks."

"I'll save it for blackmail footage then. So, are you getting up or do I need to get Jacinda in here to throw you out of bed."

"No, I'm up."

....

"Being up means getting out of bed, which means opening your eyes."

"I'll open my eyes when the room decides to stop spinning."

"Not gonna happen. Get up, throw up, and get a move on. Mr. Stone is waiting for you."

Luckily I managed to avoid the second option as I hauled myself out of bed, though it was a close thing. Looking in the mirror of my bathroom gave me a shock, though.

"What the hell!?"

"It was Jami's doing. She's the one who put you to bed last night."

"And you let her?"

"I thought you looked good."

How I looked was not the issue I had, what I looked like was. At least the camisole and sleep shorts were in cream -- I think I would have passed out again if they had been pink.

"Where did she find girl's clothes in my size?"

"Well, you'll be needing them soon, so... I kinda have some ready?"

"And she just happened to know this because?"

"She helped pick them out."

"Ah."

I finally gave in and took the option to vomit.

"I will not kill Dia, I will not kill Dia, I will not kill Dia," I repeated to myself over and over until I finally started to believe it, and only then did I stand back up from the toilet to find her standing behind me with an apologetic expression.

"Sorry?"

I waved her off. Intellectually I knew it had to happen sooner or later, but unlike so many other things in my life I had hoped this was something I would have had some control over. With a sigh I cleaned myself up and stripped off, hoping a shower would remove the last of my dizziness.

Mr. Stone was less than pleased when I finally stumbled into his office looking about as well as I felt, though I was at least clean.

"I want you to understand one thing," he said, staring into my eyes. "Last night was the first and last time you will EVER get drunk so long as you are working within my organization. We're supposed to be heroes, and the last thing I need is for a member of my team to fuck something up because they felt like getting tipsy. DO YOU UNDERSTAND."

I flinched back from his anger, nodding furiously.

"Good," he said, calming himself as he lowered into the large chair behind his desk. "That said, I'm not going to punish you for last night. I would have gotten drunk too if I were in your position."

"That sonufabitch didn't even deny that she worked for him, and we couldn't do a damn thing."

Mr. Stone's glare returned, though this time I knew it wasn't directed at me. "I know. We need to fix that."

-

I felt my hackles raise as I watched the man before us, studying him even as he studied us. He was strong, that was obvious, and smart, I could tell by his eyes. But there was something else that had me even more on edge. He wasn't scared of any of us.

"Anubis McCree? So you're the one who owns this company then?"

The man smiled, though it never reached his eyes. "That I am, though this is more of a hobby really. I've made my money through independent investments; this is just my way of returning some of that good fortune to the people of the world."

Martial took the man's hand and shook it firmly before McCree returned to his seat behind the desk. "And how is it that I might help our resident superhero squad today?"

"We have a few questions we would like to ask you, if you will agree."

McCree nodded. "Absolutely. Anything to help our boys -- and girls," he said, looking at Totem and then me, "in spandex."

This man was too confident, and I wasn't the only one who had noticed. Nobody was this calm around us, not even the police who had escorted us up.

"Good," Martial said, stepping up to the desk and pulling a pair of photographs out of a pocket discreetly hidden in the chest of his suit. "What can you tell us about this woman?"

McCree looked at the photographs, that same damning smile never leaving his face. "Ah, you mean Daisy."

Daisy? Weaver's name was DAISY?

"She came in and applied for a position with my company about six months ago. I was reluctant to hire her at first, but I must say that since she has joined us she has provided us with some quite interesting technology. DiVa is one of her creations. Quite a wonder, wouldn't you agree?"

"That technology is stolen, and we have reason to believe she is responsible for the death of at least one member of our team."

McCree chuckled. "Really now? Daisy has never struck me as the killing type. As for the technology, I can assure you that everything needed to produce DiVa was manufactured in our own facilities, and is in the process of being patented as we speak. If the technology is stolen, then I believe that the creator is the only one with whom we would have an issue, and if he or she does not step forward I'm afraid there's nothing I will do to prevent our version from going into production."

I watched anxiously as Martial's eyes narrowed. "Nevertheless we would like to question her. If you can provide us with some way to contact her, we would be more than happy to let you return to your... business."

"Oh? Well, I'm truly sorry, but I'm afraid that, as you can see, our records are at the current time unavailable to me as my computer terminal is down for maintenance. Until they have it updated to itegrate with DiVa's systems, there really is not a terrible lot that I can provide you with, I do apologize." As he talked, I could see the expression on McCree's face shift. The smile was still there, but it was no longer the smile of a businessman conning his way through a meeting -- it had become something much darker, and I involuntarily shivered when he looked at me again. "Switcheroo, isn't it? I am glad to see that you have finally recovered from the incident a few months ago. I had heard you were dead, but that is obviously not true, isn't it?"

Still smiling, he stood up from his desk and bowed to our group. "Now, if you don't mind, I'm afraid I must bring this meeting to a close. I do apologize for being so little assistance. I trust you can find your way out?" As McCree talked he opened a drawer in his desk and pulled out a class and a bottle of scotch, pouring himself a double while never taking his eyes off our group.

I could see the tension in his body as Martial turned around stiffly. "Let's go," he said, heading toward the door.

-

"What's the matter?" Mr. Stone asked me as I sunk down into one of the chairs across from his desk, my legs suddenly going weak.

No. It couldn't be. Could it?

There had been something familiar about that Scotch. The bottle, the smell.

"Sir? I think I know where we can get more information on McCree, though I'm not sure how to get in contact with him."

"How?" Mr. Stone asked, but before I could answer, the bright blue telephone on his desk -- the MDSPF private line -- rang. "Hello? Who? Yes." With a cold expression he stood, and held the phone across the desk to me.

"Huh?"

"It's for you," he said, without expression. I took the phone nervously.

"Hello?"

"Ah, if it isn't our wonderful new Switcheroo," a voice I recognized said from the other end of the line.

My hand started to shake as I answered. "Hello, Horus."

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NOTES:

So, whatcha think? Huh? HUH? Tell me!

Seriously, though, do I need more action? More buildup? More supers? More Dia? Give me a few suggestions here and there on how to improve things, so I know what people wanna read.

Writing for a web site like Big Closet isn't as dry and lacking of input as something like writing a novel on your own. I WANT people's opinions, not just blind praise, so that I can write a story that everyone will enjoy.

I've been more than happy with the numbers as far as comments so far, and I know I couldn't ask for a better audience, so now I need you to tell me what it is you want.

Thank you.

Melanie E.

Switcheroo Issue 8

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Serial Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Transformations
  • Superheroes

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Switcheroo
Issue 8

By Melanie E.

Just like PFH, sorry for the long wait!

Horus is on the line, and Lou is less than happy about it. What could the mysterious information peddler have this time, and what will Lou have to give up in exchange?

EDIT: Now with corrected outline with chapters 6 and 7 linked by request!

(For those of you looking for superhero fights -- I'm sorry to disappoint you, but I promise they're coming! Issue Ten at the latest!)

Chapter 15
Insecurities

"It is so nice to hear your dulcet tones yet again, my dear Switcheroo. Have you... adapted, to your new role, yet?"

"What do you want, Horus."

A sigh emmanated from the other end of the line. "Ah, I guess you are still having issues, then. To be expected, given the nature of your changes. As to my reasons for calling -- by now I would guess you have at least started the reconstruction of the pieces of the puzzle, even if the solution should still elude you."

"You knew. Even before you met with us, you already knew who she was working for," I barked down the line, feeling the itch in my teeth that usually preceded changing into my lioness form.

"Of course I knew, but that information was not on the table for bargaining at the time, and even had it been, you would not have been ready to accept it."

"You bastard." I fought to control my anger, even as Mr. Stone gestured to me that I needed to keep him talking. "Tell me what you know about McCree."

"Alas, that is not something I can share as of yet. I can, however, present you with information on where our Lady Weaver shall next be easily available, should you care to bargain for it."

"Bargain for it?"

"Yes, bargain. Though I must warn you, you are not going to like it."

-

"It's all a game to him. Who wins, who loses, who dies, he doesn't care."

"Be that as it may, he's the best lead we have on this. And the two of you are going to be responsible for handling any and all dealings with him."

Totem looked less than pleased with this pronouncement, but Mr. Stone's tone of voice told both of us that his words were final.

Not that I was happy with the state of things, either. After all, Totem just had to be the diplomat who dealt with the bastard. I was the one he had plans for.

Horus's demand had been simple. In exchange for the information on where Weaver would be, and a promise that we would have her, we were expected to make a promise of our own. A promise I was less than willing to give in to.

"Why didn't he ask us to stop the MDSPF's investigations into him? Or another raid like the one he had us do on the warehouse? This is ridiculous!"

Mr. Stone rubbed the bridge of his nose as he glared at me. "I don't know why, but you're damn well better going to do what he asked or so help me I will MAKE you, are we clear."

"Crystal," I said calmly, but glaring right back at him.

Whatever Horus's plans might have been, his demand had been that I had to start presenting as a girl. What in the hell kind of a demand was that for him to make?! It made no sense to any of us, yet he had been adamant.

"Just tell me what your demand is."

"I want to see you in a pretty dress."

"Go to hell."

"My dear, I am Horus. I have seen hell many times. If you want your information, you will have to prove to me that you take being our beloved Switcheroo serious. As Switcheroo is always a woman, this is of course part of your duties to the station.

Otherwise, no information."

He had hung up immediately after that, leaving me standing there with a dead phone line and a rising sense of frustration.

The way I saw it, Totem was right, it was nothing but a game to him. But what kind of game? And why was I a part of it anyhow?

"Sir, I don't know what you expect me to do. It's not like I can afford to just go out and buy a new wardrobe or something."

"Why not? The MDSPF provides you with free living quarters here and a mess hall, I don't see what else you're spending your money on."

"I am NOT wasting my money on... clothes!"

"RAAAAH!" Mr. Stone screamed as he slammed his fist into his desk, splintering it on impact. "YOU will do what is necessary! I have HAD IT with your attitude, and frankly it's about time you faced the facts."

"Just what is that supposed to mean?"

With fury in his eyes, Stone turned from me to Totem. "Get her out of here and explain things. Please, before I do something I'll regret."

"Come on," Totem said, grabbing my arm and dragging me out the door as quickly as she could. As soon as we were clear of it, the door slid into place with a resounding 'thunk.'

Totem stared at me with disbelief. "I can't believe you spoke to him like that!"

"It's fricken' clothes!"

The last thing I ever expected was for Totem, Jami, to slap me.

"What was that for?"

"You just said it yourself! It's. Just. Clothes. Dammit, Lou, when's the last time you really looked at yourself?"

I gave her my best death-stare. "This morning, when I saw what you had put me in."

"And what did you see?"

I couldn't answer her. Instead, I turned away, and stomped off toward my room.

"You already mostly wear girl's clothes anyhow, Lou."

"I don't wanna hear this."

"Your body's just not built for the guy's stuff any more!"

"I don't wanna hear this!"

"You don't really have a choice any more!"

"DAMMIT, LEAVE ME ALONE!"

I slammed the 'close door' button on the inside of my room's door frame, but nothing happened, and Totem stormed into my room, grabbing me by the arm again and dragging me into the bathroom.

"Look at yourself. Look!"

I did.

-

"Pleeease, Lou? PLEEEEEASE?"

I looked down into Lesli's eyes, and felt my strength start to wane.

"Can't we play something else, Lesli? Everyone will laugh at me if they see."

"No they won't! I'll make you look sooo pretty, everyone will love you!" She said it with all the conviction of a seven year old who knew that it was only a matter of time before her older brother gave her her way, and that smile that always melted my heart.

*sigh* "Alright, but I'll only play with you inside of the house, okay?"

"Yay! Thank you, Lulu!"

"Lulu?"

"That's what I'm calling you while we play!"

Suddenly I had a feeling this would be the longest Saturday ever.

I had no idea where she found a dress in my size. It wasn't one of hers, and it certainly wasn't one of our mother's, but nevertheless there it was. No shoes, and my short hair looked rather rediculous even at that age, but it looked better on me than I had expected it to, and soon I completely forgot about it as we played together.

"Kids, I'm home! Lesli honey, I brought you a -- Louis James Phelps, what the hell are you wearing! Get out of that piece of shit this instant or I have half a mind to make you wear it to school on Monday!"

I looked over at Lesli, and I could see the fear in her face. Fear of what would happen if I told our mother the truth.

Hiding my own fear the best I could, I turned back to our mother. "I'm sorry Mom, I just thought it would be fun to play with Lesli for a little bit."

"Don't you DARE talk back to me, young man," she said, reaching out and grabbing the sundress by the neck, trying to rip it off of me. "If I EVER catch you dressed like this again, you will get a whipping like you won't believe!"

I cried as she dragged me to my room by the neck of the dress while Lesli watched, tears in her own eyes, but too afraid to do anything.

-

"Lou? LOU!"

"Grrrrgh, wha?"

Everything was fuzzy when I first opened my eyes, but it wasn't long before Totem's worried face swam into view above me.

"What happened?"

"Lou, I'm sorry. Are you alright? I dragged you over to the mirror and you looked at yourself, but then your eyes just went blank and you fainted."

That would explain the headache, I thought as I tried to sit up. At least this time I was still wearing the sweats I had slipped into before heading off to talk to Mr. Stone.

"I'm fine," I said, swinging my legs over the side of the bed. "And for what it's worth, I'm sorry too."

One good thing about my involuntary nap was that it seemed to have drained all my energy for feeling angry, and now I was left with nothing but grim disappointment with what I knew was expected of me. They might be right about how I looked, and what I needed to do.

But there was no way I was giving up without a fight.

"Jami?"

"Yeah?"

"If we're gonna do this, I've got some requirements of my own."

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NOTES:

Okay, I know a lot of people probably won't be very happy with this chapter, and BEFORE THE ANTI-MARTIAL CROWD STARTS YELLING ABOUT UNFAIRNESS, I should point out a few things:

A) Lou isn't the only person on the team who's been having issues dealing with things lately. Martial, as the director of their team, is being held personally responsible by the entire MDSPF for Weaver's infiltration, something that will probably be touched on more later in the story. This might not forgive his behavior, but it does go a ways to explaining it.

B) We're only seeing things from Lou's side, and trust me, s/he's a snarkier piece of work than most of the dialogue so far has let on. I'll be working on getting this through better later, but writing a superhero story's a new experience for me, so I hope a few issues in style/substance will be forgiven.

Alright, now let the comments rip!

Melanie E.

Switcheroo Issue 9

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Serial Chapter

Genre: 

  • Superheroes

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Switcheroo
Issue 9

By Melanie E.

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Chapter 16
Concessions

Dia gave me a look of sick disappointment as I deleted almost every reference to the original Switcheroo costume from the system with a a final 'click' of the delete key at her core terminal.

"I can't believe you would be this petty."

"Petty? Please. For all I've given up since getting these powers, you owe me this much."

She continued to frown, but didn't argue with me as I turned around and left the dark, claustrophobic room that housed her core systems. Walking in there had been like stepping inside my friend's brain, and it was not a pleasant experience in the least.

But it was part of my requirements to the team for me meeting Horus's demands. From now on, I had full control of my own costume design, legacy issues be damned. The mere thought of spending the time designing something new for myself was enough to help me build the confidence I needed for what lay ahead of me.

Raiding my own closet.

It might have been my own room, but the door before me led to a section of the apartments that I had never entered. With some hesitancy I took the necessary step forward and pressed the panel next to the door.

And gasped at what I saw.

When Totem had told me that Dia had been purchasing clothing online, I had thought for sure it would have been maybe a few pairs of jeans and tee shirts, maybe a couple of skirts and dresses if I were really unlucky. I had thought wrong.

"Why is it that I even need to leave the base to go shopping for clothes again?" I asked the air as I entered the spacious closet that held more clothes than I had owned in my entire life.

Dia appeared next to me in a flash, pride beaming from her face. "Because what you have here is a little bit of everything. I bought a lot of different styles because I couldn't be sure what you would prefer."

"And where did the money for this come from?"

She laughed. "You don't think you're the only member of the team who's not spent much of their wages yet, do you?"

I paused in surprise. "They PAY you?"

"Well, of COURSE they do! I might be a computer, but I'm still sentient. Sure, I don't make as much as you guys do since a portion of my 'wages' goes toward maintenance and power consumption, which is no small amount believe me, but I've got a game library like you wouldn't believe tucked away in here. They're not as much of a challenge when you can modify the source code on the fly to let yourself win, though," she said with a frown.

"I'd imagine not," I chuckled, turning toward a set of cabinets against one wall that, upon opening, contained an embarrassing array of undergarments. My nervousness suddenly came back full force. "Are you sure I have to do this?"

"It's way past time, Lou," she said with a sympathetic smile before facing the cabinet herself. "You'll have to face this sooner or later, and it's better to get it out of the way now than have to live your life worrying about it."

"I never expected I'd live long enough for it to be an issue."

"Please don't say that."

It was true, though. Of all the Legacy powers that were out there, it was well known that the Switcheroo powers tended to mean a short life expectancy. Sure, occasionally there was someone who would surprise you -- the Switcheroo my sister had inherited the powers from had been at it for more than twenty-five years, a feat we had hoped she would be able to equal if not surpass -- but most of the time those who wielded the powers died within a decade of getting them.

My own sister had only survived six months. Why would I expect to live even that long? And yet here I was, already at the two month mark myself.

Thinking about what happened to my sister only served to make me angry, though, and the LAST thing I needed was to get angry again. The Hulk might have gotten his powers in the comics from his rage, but all it did to me was make me impulsive and stupid. I guess we have that in common, actually. Regardless, if I was going to do this, I needed a cool head, and to keep my emotions in check.

"Alright, so what should I wear today?"

The squeal of glee I received in response chilled me to my core.

-

Jami gave me a glare that could have killed at a hundred paces.

"What?"

She folded her arms across her chest and sighed as she shook her head. "I can't believe this. Most girls would kill for measurements like that, and you're whining over it!"

"Hey, I was a guy not too long ago!"

"Apparently longer than you thought."

I stared at the list of measurements Dia had printed out for me and, I'll admit it, I pouted. Thirty-six inch chest. Twenty-eight inch waist. Thirty-four inch hips. I was by no means tiny, but damn. "B" cup? It sure looked like a hell of a lot more than something that would be called a "B" to me.

Combined with the clothes she had picked out for me, I was having a hard time seeing a guy when I looked at myself.

She had wanted to put me in a dress or skirt, but I had flat out refused that. Wasn't it enough that I was consenting to girl's clothes at all? What I had ended up with was a pair of jeans and a tank top. I had thought they would feel just like my old clothes, but it really was amazing how much of a difference the cut made.

And the underwear, but I wasn't ready to think about that just yet.

The tank was green, "to match my eyes" according to Jami, though when I mentioned her wearing something white to do the same she had given me a death-glare similar to the one over my measurements. She had even insisted on giving my hair a quick trim to make it fit the look better. Personally, I wasn't about to look in a mirror until I'd had time to mentally prepare myself. Maybe next Tuesday, if I really worked at it. The cargo pants were, well, cargo pants, though a bit lower rise than I was used to, and I had managed to talk them into a pair of red Converse sneakers instead of the horribly uncomfortable looking boots they had tried to hand me.

Once I grew used to it, though, I decided I could handle this, and they agreed to leaving the makeup until I was better prepared for it at least. It might not be exactly what Weaver asked for, but dammit, at least I was making the effort.

"Ready to go?"

"As ready as I'll ever be, I guess."

"Good," Jami said, slipping on a pair of glasses. I gasped when I saw her eyes change from their normal, slightly glowy milky white color to a deep brown. When she saw my expression, she laughed. "The glasses are a new thing. They were built by the guy who originally designed Dia, with some kind of one-way screen thing that overlays an image of a normal pupil and iris on my eye when people look through the lenses. I'm trying them out today in hopes that they'll replace the itchy contacts I usually have to use," she said with a grimace. "I hate those things."

I stepped around her, looking at the glasses from different angles. From the side I could see her normal eyes, but from the front she looked like any other girl. "Let your hair down," I told her, indicating her long braid she almost always wore. Reluctantly she complied, and when I circled her again her hair fell around the sides of her face, easily hiding her eyes the rest of the way. "Perfect."

"Then let's go."

-

Of course, saying you're ready for something and actually BEING ready are two entirely different things, aren't they?

It was another twenty minutes before I finally worked up the courage to follow Jami down to the garage, and another five before I had enough to actually climb into her silver Impreza. As soon as I was in, though, she was on the gas and out the door.

"Put this in your ear," she said, handing me a black block of plastic. "It's not a babelfish or nothing, just trust me," she told me with a chuckle at my confusion.

With a shrug I did as she asked, to be greeted by a series of beeps followed by a very familiar voice.

"Hey girl! This is gonna be great!"

"Dia?"

"The one and only! I might not be able to join you on the shopping trip, but I still wanted to find some way to come so The Doctor worked this little device up for me."

"Who?"

"No, not that doctor, Dr. Steven Doctor, the guy who built me."

"...You can't be serious."

"I am, and trust me, he hates Dr. Doctor jokes. Anyway, this little device is basically just a bluetooth headset with a pinhead camera in it I can use to look around while we're shopping. You don't mind, do you?"

"No, Dia," I said with a smile. "Far be it from me to deny you your shopping trip."

I heard Jami giggling, and looked over to see a similar black block next to her ear.

"If you're comfortable enough for wisecracks then you're comfortable enough for a day out."

I still wasn't sure if I agreed, but I didn't bother to argue with her either.

August Branch headquarters lay near the center of Cedar Falls, our home city. This was a good thing when it came to our work, since we were never more than a twenty minute 'copter ride from any location we needed to be at, but it was a bad thing when it came to driving around town, since it meant traffic was always a bear to deal with.

On the other hand, with Jami and Dia preoccupied planning their order of attack for the day, I had some time to consider my situation in relative peace.

If I gave in and got rational about things, something I was very reluctant to do, then I had to admit it was about time I started dealing with things better.

The entire team was under a lot of stress, and tensions had been running high ever since Weaver's betrayal. Mr. Stone was being held personally responsible for the branch's lack of preparation not only by MDSPF main headquarters but also by their government contacts, and as much as he tried to hide it his nerves had been growing more frayed by the day as he worked at dealing with that along with his other duties as head of our branch.

I hadn't been helping the situation, to be sure. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't about to apologize for how I had acted, but I could see why he had finally snapped. Everyone else was either too busy handling their own feelings, or in the cases of Jacinda and Tag, whose name I still hadn't gotten, didn't care what I did, but Mr. Stone had no choice but to deal with it.

And I doubt Dia would have let him even ignore it even if he had tried.

Still, I wasn't about to just lie down and let them dictate my life for me. I needed their help if I wanted to catch my sister's killer, but the MDSPF had been short on recruits the last few years, and they needed me just as much as I needed them. If this partnership was going to work, they were going to have to deal with giving me a few of my own demands.

The costume, at least, was a start, though one I probably could have thought through better. They had the design I had made when I had first joined still on file, and until I took the time to work something new out with Dia it would have to do, but I wasn't about to go traipsing about in the skin tight not-lycra-polymer-stuff any longer than I had to. Even as a guy I had always thought it was a bit ridiculous, and I had teased Lesli about it a few times, to her annoyance. Now that it was me in the costume I was sure she was laughing at the turnaround from wherever she was now.

"Hey, Lou, are you listening?"

"Huh? What was it?"

"We'll start with Sears and work our way up from there, alright? If things get too much for you, let us know and we'll call it quits."

I couldn't help but smile at the concern in Jami's voice. She was trying, at least, to help me with this. "That sounds fine to me."

-

***Forty-Five Minutes Later***

"Hurry your ass up before something else falls on us!"

"Hey, gimme a chance to catch my breath, I--"

"Duck!"

We both hit the ground just in time for the chunk of concrete to wizz past our heads, shattering the brick wall behind us.

"Dammit! Where are you, you little bitch." The gruff woman's voice reverberated off the crumbling structure around us, causing more rubble and dust to fall.

I didn't answer. Instead, I scrambled over the debris to where Jami lay and made sure she was alright before signalling her to follow me.

We almost made it to out the doors before a meaty hand grabbed me by the ankle and lifted me up.

"Not so fast. We've got a score to settle," Collision Course growled before flinging me bodily into the nearest wall.

-

NOTES:

Alright, so this might not be exACTly what people were wanting, but I'm trying to move the story forward, people! So comment, let me know what ya think!

And, enjoy!

Melanie E.

Switcheroo Issue 10

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Sequel or Series Episode

Genre: 

  • Transformations
  • Adventure
  • Superheroes

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

Switcheroo
Issue 10

By Melanie E.

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This is mostly just a good faith gesture letting people know I really AM still writing. I had originally intended this to be a "Special Double Length Tenth Issue Spectacular" but it's taking me too long to write, so here's a normal length episode instead. We'll save the double-length issue for 25 or so. Sound good?

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Chapter 17
Beat 'Em Up

Why can't real-life superheroing be like the comic books? You know, where the hero always recovers almost instantly from any injury and comes back to win the day?

The truth is, getting the wind knocked out of you by being flung into a concrete wall HURTS, and there's no getting up quickly from something like that no matter how good your healing abilities are.

After sliding down the wall I had just enough energy to roll over on my back and groan, which wasn't a big help in the current situation.

Of course I knew who Collision Course was. While she was mostly a B-list villainess, doing odd jobs for a few of the higher-ups in just about any criminal organization that could afford her rates, she had gained some reknown about nine months ago when she killed the Switcheroo before my sister. It was more bad luck on Switcheroo's part than CC's skill, though -- there was no way either could have predicted the CO2 tank would explode on impact when she had smacked the last Switcheroo with it, but it had been enough to end things for her in a rather swift and chilly way. The boulder that was dropped on her after probably didn't help either.

After joining the ranks of the MDSPF myself I had found out that she'd had a long-running vendetta with my forerunner due to being another applicant for the powers. She had been deemed a bad choice due to mental instability, and in a rage had gone to "the other side," so to speak. What they gave her was a banned Super Soldier syrum that they were experimenting with. It made her super strong, and able to withstand just about anything short of a direct hit from a .30 cal, but at the expense of most of her sanity.

She didn't seem to miss it all that much.

The rubble strewn around what had been a Dillard's only a few minutes ago slowed Collision Course down just enough that I managed to catch my breath in time to roll out of the way of the support beam she brought down, moments before it took my head off.

"I've killed you before, I can do it again, bitch!"

I mouthed a word of apology to Jami and the store as I transformed, ripping the first -- and hopefully last -- skirt I had ever been convinced to try on to shreds in the process. It seemed to me that my bear form would be the toughest of the bunch, and I was happy to see Collision Course's expression change from one of triumph to one of rage, and finally surprise as with a swipe of one massive paw I sent her flying across the room.

I roared as I charged across the rubble after her, my large footpads and paws easily finding purchase on the debris. I wasn't about to give her a chance to get up, either, and as soon as I reached her I swiped my claws down her exposed back.

I'd like to say I didn't enjoy her scream, but that would be a lie.

Before I could attack her again, she rolled over, throwing a foot into my stomach on the way. As a bear I had a lot better resistance to her strike, but it still hurt like hell, and sent me reeling backward from her. She didn't even bother to check her back as she stood up and leapt at me, clutching her fists together and bringing them down as one.

I reacted on impulse, ducking and morphing at the same time and came back clamping my wolf's teeth hard on her ankle. Just like her back, I knew that it would heal almost as soon as I let go, but I had to do something to keep her attention and draw her away from the store and any more destruction.

Another kick, and I was sailing through the air out the doors, morphing into my lioness on the way and scrambling to my paws as soon as I hit the ground. I could hear her thundering toward me, pushing shelves and displays aside like they were nothing. I knew she would follow me, and not knowing anywhere close that would get her safely away from people I decided the parking lot would be the best I could do.

I let out a growl as I leapt from car to car, drawing her as much into the open as I could. She complied with my wishes, knocking the cars out of the way in her rush to get to me.

That was when I saw it. The lone figure, perched atop the building with a gun almost as large as he was in his hands.

One of the nice things about being in animal form -- you always had the best poker face possible.

I heard the whistle, and watched her eyes widen in surprise before rolling up into her head as Collision Course lived up to her name, slamming into the pavement with a sickening thud. Sticking out of her back were three massive tranq darts, leaving me wondering just how many chemicals it must have taken to put her down like that.

I padded over to her fallen body and sniffed her carefully. Her fingers twitched briefly, raising my hackles, but then her breathing shifted, and I knew she was out cold.

"Lou? Lo-Switch! There you are!"

Jami came toward me, jogging slowly and nursing her left arm. I felt a twinge of guilt inside that I hadn't managed to keep her from getting hurt, but I knew there hadn't been much I could do. She slowed down as she came closer though, her eyes narrowing when she saw the tranq darts.

"Alright, Nate, come on out!"

"No need to yell," a mechanical-sounding voice said as I saw the figure from the roof approaching. Nate, or Armory, looked a little crazy walking around in a tee shirt and jeans with his suit's helmet and wrist computer. As he walked toward us, he typed away at the console on his arm and both disappeared with a strange metallic flash. "The cops should be here soon, and we should get going before a crowd gathers."

I looked around us and saw that sure enough, all the mundanes who had fled when Collision Course had first called me out in the store were now flocking to the scene, cameras and cell phones at the ready.

"Alright," Jami said with a defeated sigh. "Let's get inside so Switch can change and put on some clothes. I guess my shopping mood has been shot to shit anyhow."

'Aww, jeez, and I was just getting into it too,' I thought to myself sarcastically, though all that came out was a feline "Growmf."

"Don't you start with me, girl."

"Gramflwrl."

"Just deal with it."

I continued cursing her in cat the rest of the way to the building, but she just ignored me as she started searching through the rubble for our shopping bags.

"Aha!" She called triumphantly as she pulled them out of the remains of a rack of shoes. "Get your tail over here and change so we can go."

I hid behind the fallen stands as best I could while I transformed, the cold air from the surprisingly still working A/C in the building leaving me covered in goosebumps. Digging through the bags, I cursed in english this time as I realized that there was no way in hell I was getting out of here looking the least bit like a guy.

I reluctantly slid the panties up my legs before pulling on a pair of jeans that were far lower rise than I could have ever imagined myself wearing. Looking down at myself, then at the bags, I realized a problem.

"Jami, there aren't any shirts in here."

No answer.

"Jami?" I called again, standing up to look for her only to find myself eye to eye with Nate. Or, in his case, wide eyes to breasts.

Time stood still as I stared, frozen in shock, at the man who had helped me defeat Collision Course now ogling my much-maligned boobs.

"Hey Lou I was looking for any sales assistants left to see if I could buy a..." Jami slid to a half when she saw us, before bursting out in a hysterical laugh.

Nate spun around, blood rushing to his face, as I felt my own skin starting to burn. I wrapped my arms around my chest and slid back down behind my temporary wall, wishing the floor would open up and swallow me.

"Ahem."

I looked up to find an arm hanging over the wall, holding a tee shirt. "Put this on."

I snatched the shirt from the hand above me and slid it on as quickly as I could, unable to cover myself fast enough.

Standing up again, this time fully clothed, I saw Jami grinning like a fool next to a now-shirtless Nate, who seemed to have developed a sudden extreme interest in a pile of bricks near his feet.

At least now I knew where the shirt had come from.

"Can we go now?" I asked, picking up the bag of clothes next to me and looking longingly toward the door.

"We'll need a ride. Collision Course kinda smashed my car up trying to get to you."

"Sorry."

Jami shrugged. "It happens. Superhero insurance covers it."

Nate coughed. "My truck's around the corner."

"Lead the way then."

We managed to lose ourselves in the crowd outside the store, nobody realizing we were partially involved in all the commotion. It had always struck me as strange how easily people forgot you were a Super when you weren't using your powers, but for the moment I was happy to just be left alone.

Nate led us around the back of the mall and through the employee parking lot, to an impressive black dually. With a beep the doors popped open, and we all climbed in, still not saying a word.

-

"No."

"Okay, how about this?"

"No."

"This?"

"HELL no."

"Maybe... this?"

"You're kidding, right?"

Dia morphed her clothes back to normal from her latest super-offering, a frustrated grimace marring her cute features. "Aww, come on, they're good designs!"

I stared at her in disbelief. "Just how many comic books do you read, anyhow?"

"All of them."

"Hah! Figures."

Comic books were the best comparison I could come up with for what she had offered me. There was the Wonder Woman-esque outfit, consisting of a tiger-striped bustier and hot pants. Then there was the Supergirl leotard and cheerleader skirt combo. Then there was the classic X-men body stocking with a pink and orange diamond pattern.

And there was no way in hell I would be caught dead wearing any of them.

"Well, then, why don't you tell me what you want?"

"Can do!" I said happily, pulling a sketch book out of my messenger bag. It was as close to carrying a purse as I was willing to come, and anyone wanting to argue with me could stuff it.

Dia looked over my shoulder as I flipped through the pages of designs I had worked up for possible costumes. I was rather proud of them myself, especially considering I'd only had a day to come up with them, but her frown told me she was less than happy.

"What's wrong?"

"Where's the pink?"

"There isn't any," I said with a grin.

"But... you're Switcheroo. And Switcheroo wears pink."

I shook my head. "Not this one."

"But--"

"Listen," I cut her off, an edge in my voice, "I know all the reasons why people with Legacy powers usually keep the same color schemes and costumes as the people who had the powers before. I ALSO know that I'm not the first person to change that. The old costume was only half a step away from fetish wear, and made me look like an extra from Flashdance. I'm willing to compromise on a lot of things, but in the end I have final say on the costume, okay?"

She flinched, making me feel bad, but she was nodding agreement.

Feeling a bit guilty, I offered a compromise. "Look, the pink is out, but if you want we can work with the orange color a bit, alright?"

The beginnings of a smile began to form on her face again, and I knew I had made the right decision.

"So, how can we make this work?"

She looked over my sketches again for a moment, looking thoughtful. "All of these have baggy clothing elements to them."

I nodded. "I wanted it to be comfortable and functional even when I'm not in animal form." It still tired me out to change as often as I tended to when fighting, and the last thing I wanted to have to worry about was a leotard riding up in places it had no business going on top of that.

"I can see that, but the problem is the polymer used for the material has to fit close to the skin in order to be able to change with you. With something like this," she pointed to one of my favorite combos, basically a tank top with combat fatigue cargos, "your pants would be ripped to shreds because they wouldn't be tight enough to react to your body chemistry."

"Well... shit." I could see what she was talking about, and why that threw most of my designs out the window. "Is there no way to make the material work further away from my body?"

"Not that I know of," Dia said, drumming her fingers on the table. Hearing the sound of their tapping coming from the speakers around us rather than the table itself was odd, but once you were around Dia for a while things like that tended to stop bothering you as much. "There is one person who might know, though."

"Who's that?"

She grinned. "My dad, of course."

-

NOTES:

Yes, I'm still writing. Yes, that includes "Princess For Hire," for those who are waiting ever-so-patiently for that -- the two or so left :P
Life's good at the moment, if hectic, and things are a bit slow in my personal writing world, but we'll see if getting this out there helps to spur me on or not.
As always, thanks for reading, and commenting, and not ripping me a new one over my mistakes and whatnot.

Melanie E.

The BigCloset User Guide (New Users, Start Here!)

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • General Audience (pg)

Publication: 

  • Non-Fiction
  • FAQ

Genre: 

  • Illustrated

TG Themes: 

  • Real World

Permission: 

  • Created by BC staff


The BigCloset User Guide

-or-

New Users, Start Here!

A Hopefully Helpful Handout from Melanie E.

-==-

Table of Contents:

Introduction
What This Guide Provides
Part 1: The Front Page
Part 2: Creating An Account
Part 3: Basic User Functions
Part 4: Comments and Messages
Part 5: Creating New Stories or Blogs
Part 6: Learning the Editing Interface
Part 7: Advanced Features

Introduction: What Is BigCloset?

Hello, and welcome to the BigCloset! TopShelf, that is, at least in its current iteration.

Most folks who come by are already going to be well aware of who/what we are, but for those who aren't a quick primer:

BigCloset TopShelf (BCTS for short) is one of the internet's premier repositories of transgender fiction. More than that, we are one of the internet's premier transgender communities, with roundabout 25 years in the business!

Whether you're a crossdresser, a transwoman, a transman, nonbinary, or anything else in between or beyond the fringes, we welcome you to come and enjoy some of the fantastic stories our little corner of the web has to offer.

Not JUST stories, mind: we also have a fantastic community! Writers who share their work, commenters who share their thoughts, and bloggers who share their lives and opinions. We are one part escapist literature, one part support group, and it all operates on three simple rules:

Rule One: Keep it Friendly

Rule Two: Give Everyone the Benefit of the Doubt

Rule 3: It's Not About You

All of this sound good? Then let's move on.

What This Guide Provides

What this guide aims to provide new community members with is a quick reference on how to use some of the most common posting features, as well as guidance on a few Best Practices for story presentation.

By the end of your time with this guide, you should be familiar with the following:

  • Creating an account with the site
  • Locating basic access functions on the main page
  • How to make comments and send private messages
  • The three most common content types (Fiction, Blog, and Organizer)
  • Categorizing your content
  • Using the text editing window and its most common functions
  • Adding a book or story to an existing outline
  • Uploading images and adding them to posts

Are we ready? Then let's begin!

Part 1: The Front Page

If you've made it this far then at the very least you've overcome the first and most basic hurdle: finding the site itself, and deciding if you want to join our community, either as a writer or a commenter, or just to make it a little bit easier to keep track of your favorite stories.

BigCloset's main page is divided into three columns of content, plus a header section. The three columns of content roughly divide as follows:

Left column: Fast content.

This is the column that includes recent comments and blog posts, as well as the list showing who is currently online. From here you can quickly see what users are saying about stories, how people's lives are going, and even catch a random finished story suggested at the top of the list!

Middle column: Story content.

This is the main focus of the front page. At the top of this column you find the site's support advertisers, followed by a simple search system for roughly sorting categories and the like. Beneath that you'll find the "Quick Cuts," a text-only listing of the most recent stories users have posted to the site, who posted it, and a few other minor bits of information, like if the story is a solo (complete in one post, no other reading necessary to understand,) or if it's a book promotion.

Beneath the "Quick Cuts" is the main meat of the middle column, and that's the more detailed listings for the most recent stories. Here you'll find detailed information on what tags and categories the story falls into (more on tags and categories later,) any blurbs or cover art the author has provided, and a quick glance at a few other statistics like total hits and comments.

"Solo" stories currently stay on the list for three weeks, whereas chapters of serials or other multi-post work retire after two weeks. These numbers are subject to change based on frequency of posts at any given time. Promoted books will fill out the list past this point: BCTS relies on book sales as part of keeping the site funded, so be sure to give our releases a look if you would like to help us out!

Right column: General Information.

The right column is where you'll find other, largely more static information on the site. This is where you can find links to things like the Discord, as well as any information associated with your user account and our memorial board for lost members.

If you have yet to join our community, or haven't signed in for a while, then this is where you will also find the login box.

Part 2: Creating An Account

Create Account.jpg

Just below the hatbox/donation panel you will find the User Login panel. Every user has a username and a password.

Once you've entered your details, checking the "remember me" box will tell the website to remember you've logged in (on your current computer) for up to two weeks. This does NOT retain your login information in the text input boxes: that is a browser-side function, not server-side. If you try to log in and your password doesn't work, you can use the "Request new password" link to attempt to recover your login.

If you're new to the site, simply click the "Create new account" link to move on to the next step.

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Simply fill out the fields and confirm the CAPTCHA to move on to the next step: email verification.

Log in to the email account you registered with. You should have a message confirming account registration, and asking you to log in to your new account with a blank password. Clicking the link will take you to the following page:

Set Password.jpg

Simply click the "Log in" button to be taken to the next page.

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From here, enter your brand-new password. The dialogue box beneath the password input text boxes will prompt you with the requirements.

In addition to setting your new password, there are several other options you can fill in while on this page:

  • Signature -- This is a tagline or byline that will appear at the end of every comment you leave on the site. It uses the same toolset as story or blog posts for formatting and adding content. These tools will be explained in Part 4: Creating New Stories and Blogs.
  • Picture -- Here you can upload a profile pic, to be included next to posts you make.
  • Personalize Blocks -- In this section you can enable or disable various features of the front page, to customize your experience with the site. This includes a great deal of the site's advertising (though we would request that unless you absolutely have to you leave it up.)
  • Private Messages -- here you can enable or disable the private message service of the site, allowing (or disallowing) other users to send you private correspondence in response to content you share, including comments.
  • Locale settings -- this will determine the time zone that story postings and other information are listed from for you.

Once you have finished setting up your account and doing any personalization you wish to do, click the "Save" button at the bottom of the page to validate your account.

You can change any information tied to your account at a later time.

Part 3: Basic User Functions

You've logged in! Time for your official welcome to the BCTS community! Chips are on the table at the back, sodas in the fridge.

Your new account gives you a few new features.

  • Front page customization. Disable various features/content on the front page to only provide you with the things you want to see.
  • Faster access to new content Unregistered users see an archived version of the site, generally about 5 minutes old. Users with accounts will typically see content appear a bit sooner than non-logged users will.
  • Content creation. You can now write blogs, stories, and forum posts, as well as leave comments on other community members' blogs and stories..
  • File upload. It's the easiest way to include images in the stories or blogs you create, and more reliable than links to external sources.
  • Private messaging. Talk one-on-one with your favorite authors or friends in the community.
  • Alternatively... Ignore list. Auto-hide and block content from users or creators if you feel their actions are detrimental to your experience.

Most of these features can be accessed via the user panel in the right column of the home screen.

Basic User Functions Nonadmin.jpg

Most of the links provided should be relatively self-explanatory, but for clarity we will go over each one.

  • Home -- This is a direct link to the home page of the site.
  • Add a Story -- This will take you to the page for creating a story submission.
  • Forums -- This will take you to the site's forums.
  • Frequently Asked Questions -- This takes you directly to the subsection of the forums dedicated to user and author questions regarding site functionality.
  • My Account -- This takes you to the page where you can change your password, signature, and more. From here you can update your profile picture, re-configure front page elements, and change your time zone as well.
  • My blog -- This takes you directly to a listing of blog entries you have posted to the site.
  • My ignore list -- This will show you a listing of the individuals you have blocked on-site, and let you remove blocks.
  • My Messages -- This will take you to a listing of all private messages you have received or sent (covered in more detail later.)
  • Create content -- This takes you to a page with dedicated links to each type of content you can produce and feature on BCTS, with short descriptions of each.
  • Web Links -- External links to other friendly or associated websites.
  • Log out -- This will allow you to log out of your current active BCTS account.
  • Alphabetic Stories -- Takes you to a sorting page where you can explore all stories on the site by alphabetic order. Story, author, and date posted are the only data provided in the listings.
  • Monthly Story List -- Allows you to view stories broken down by the month they were posted in. Archive covers from July 2003 to now.
  • Feed aggregator -- Provides a page where you can obtain a link to add BCTS to your feed of choice.
  • Purchase Hatbox Membership -- Subscribe to BCTS and gain access to a collection of subscriber-only content, including stories and ebooks only available to Hatbox members.

While not directly associated with account management, the directories provided below the account features list can be quite useful as well. In addition to offering resources for people in need of aid, there is a link provided to the BCTS Discord, where you can chat live with a number of the site's users, engage in brainstorming sessions for stories, keep up to date on Patreon and DopplerPress releases before they appear on-site, and even play tabletop games via VoIP.

Part 4: Comments and Messages

For the majority of users, the most common types of content they will create for the site are going to be comments and liking posts.

Comments are a great way to show a blogger that you care about what they have to say, or a writer that you loved the fiction they produced. In both cases, they are very easy to do as well. In many cases, if you do not feel you have a comment to make, you can still click the thumbs-up icon to let a writer know you enjoyed their work, or the like/love/thank options beneath blogs.

Comment.jpg

When you have finished reading a story, you will find a number of options provided following a double-line break.

If you would like to leave a thumbs-up on the story, clicking the icon (in orange above) will register your vote of confidence in the story's contents. Blogs will have three options here in the place of the thumbs up: Like, Love, or Thank. Choose according to the sentiment you wish to express to the author.

Further down, you will find a series of links allowing you to interact with the story in other ways.

  • Add new comment --- Clicking this link will take you to the comment creation screen.
  • Ongoing/Solo/Complete -- this will indicate whether a story is part of a continuing series, a finished tale, or a story that stands alone in a single posting. Do not click this unless the story you have read is incorrectly labeled.
  • Read count -- not a link, but a display of the total number of times the particular story page you are looking at has been viewed.
  • Ignore user -- Set the creator of the story or blog page in question to your "ignore" list. Ignored content can still be viewed (by clicking a link that replaces the content in the window,) but is otherwise hidden from you unless you choose to engage with it.
  • Printer-friendly version -- Takes you to a version of the current page optimized for printing out.
  • Send author a message -- Send a private message to the creator to discuss their work.
  • ++Bookmark -- Adds the story to your "bookmarked" stories in your account.

Should you choose to leave a comment, you will be taken to the following screen:

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Most of the features of the text entry screen here will be covered in-depth in Part 6: Learning the Editing Interface, but for now we will keep it simple.

The "Subject" line represents the title of your comment. These have a limited number of characters, but show in bold text outside the comment box.

The main body of your comment goes in the box beneath. In the case of you having a signature filled out on your profile, that will be added automatically to any text you enter for a comment.

Type the comment you wish to make, then either click "Preview" to review how the comment will display to the author and other users, or "Save" to finalize your post.

In addition to being able to comment on blogs and stories, you can also provide comments on other users' comments. When doing so, nested comments will be displayed with an indent to indicate relevance.

Messaging works similarly, however, the subject line of a message will be automatically filled out when you click to send one. Messages will only be seen by the recipient.

If you wish for a private message to be seen by more than one user but not be a public comment, then additional recipients can be added to a message. To do so, click in the text field (above the subject line) and add the users you wish to receive the message. Include a comma at the end of each user name. The field is designed to help you find users' names, and should offer suggestions when you begin typing.

Up to 25 comments can be displayed on a story page at a time. Should the story surpass that many comments, a link will be provided allowing you to view additional comments. Likewise, there will be links available to sort comments you see in various ways.

For private messages, up to 10 messages will be displayed per page. Should a message thread pass 10 messages, links will be provided to page through older messages.

Part 5: Creating New Stories or Blogs

BigCloset TopShelf is a writing site first and foremost, and to accomplish those ends the site has a great many tools for community members to use.

Whether writing a blog or a new piece of fiction, however, the toolset is more or less the same.

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In the header at the top of every page users can find the ++Fiction and ++Blog options. Clicking either one of these will take you to an editor interface, but both have different intents.

++Fiction is intended for use primarily as a way to share stories, either chapters of serials or stories that are complete in one posting. Despite the name, this option can also be used for posting essays, non-fiction, and other content -- like comic pages, song lyrics, and poetry.

The "Add A Story" option in the right column (in the section for account details) takes you to the same interface, and it can also be reached via the "Create Content" link.

The ++Blog option is intended for announcements, help requests, newsposts, and other topical or current event type information. This is also the category you would use if you wanted to leave a public note for a site admin, advertise a book or event, etc.

Canny-eyed observers will note three other links in the site header that seem similar to these two -- ++Organizer, ++Topic, and ++WebLink. These will be discussed in Part 7: Advanced Features, but for now we will focus on the basics of posting a story: categories, tags, and text formatting.

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Pictured above is the ++Fiction editing interface. While it may seem daunting at first, a great many of the features of it are easily handled.

The following parts of the interface are mandatory to fill out for all content created.

Title

The Title section is straight forward: this is where you type in the title of your story. While generally anything goes when it comes to titling a story, there are a few best practices we recommend:

1. Titles should be consistent from part to part of your story, and punctuation in titles kept simple so as to make managing problems with them easier (covered in more depth in part 7.)

2. Arabic numerals (1, 2, 3, 4, 5) are recommended for indicating part order, and for ease of sorting parts, keep any text prior to numerals consistent. For example, "The Lord of Lies 1," "The Lord of Lies 2: Lies Harder," and "The Lord of Lies 3: Lies with a Vengeance" are easier to manage in-person and in software than "The Lord of Lies (Prelude)," "The Lord of Lies Part II: Even More Lies," and "The Lord of Li3s: Apocalyptica."

3. There is a character limit for titles. Due to the nature of the front page, and the site's desire to keep screen space viable on lower-resolution and older systems, story titles can only be so long. If you want an extra long title, then consider using a truncated standard in the title field, and featuring the full title in the body text of your story.

Author

The Author menu is where you select who wrote the story. If you are a new author and posting your own work, you may not have an entry in the list: use the New Author option at the top of the list, and an administrator will add you to the list as soon as possible.

Do not tag authors who did not contribute to a story. If multiple authors contributed to a work, then multiple authors can be chosen by holding the CTRL key (or your Mac equivalent) and selecting multiple authors from the list. Such operations may be more difficult on smart phones or tablets.

Audience Rating

Audience Rating is an indicator for readers of what to expect in terms of sexual or mature content in your story.

The ratings are as follows:

  • General Audience (PG)
  • Younger Audience (G/Y)
  • Mature Subjects (PG15)
  • Restricted Audience (R)
  • Adult Audiences (R21/A)
  • EXPLICIT CONTENT
  • EXTREMELY EXPLICIT

We do not provide detailed descriptions of what these ratings mean for a reason: like trans issues itself, a great deal of content is highly subjective in terms of its appropriateness for audiences of different ranges. On many sites the content simply being trans-oriented would be enough to push a minimum of a teen rating, but we do not believe that is appropriate, and we believe that most users will be able to figure out roughly where in the above content rating system their submissions would fall.

The best rule of thumb is to look at what you think the appropriate rating is, and if you think someone would question that for a reason not related to purely trans-focused content (crossdressing, gender swap, etc.) then consider bumping it up a level.

Site administration generally keeps a light hand on ratings and tags in general: however, if extensive complaints are made about content or you post content knowing that it could get the site in trouble, site administration reserves the right to remove any/all content that doesn't meet the guidelines of the Three Rules.

Publication

This is a general guide on the length and nature of the content you are posting.

Permission

This represents the permission(s) you as poster have to provide the work you showcase. While it is not REQUIRED that you be the originator of a work to share it here, it is held as poster's responsibility to only share content that they have the legal right to do so. Content found in violation of that will be removed.

Optional Categories and Tags

The following drop-down lists all contain optional content to include. Please note that, while including things from them IS optional, doing so helps readers with finding stories that fit their tastes and helps them avoid stories that may cause trigger issues. As such, all of them are highly recommended.

In all cases, multiple terms from each drop-down menu can be chosen: simply hold CTRL (or the Mac equivalent) and select each term you with to include in your story's metadata.

  • Contests -- BCTS has in the past run many writing contests and challenges, and will run more. Should the content you create be intended for one of these contests or challenges, select it from this menu.
  • Genre -- A guide on the key type of content your story is intended to represent.
  • TG Themes -- Select the tropes and running stereotypes your story uses (or lampshades) here.
  • TG Elements -- A list of common searched kinks or plot elements from transfic. Similar to Themes, but with a different focus.
  • Character Age -- The loose age category your point-of-view character(s) fall into.
  • TG Universes & Series -- If your story takes place in a commonly used TG fiction universe, you can select it here.
  • Caution -- Trigger warnings and other indicators of elements that may disturb or upset readers.
  • Other Keywords -- Self-defined keywords you feel are appropriate to your story here. Typing here will bring up other related terms used by other writers before, allowing you to tag your story/stories to tie into other searches that may not use more typical keywords.
  • Taxonomy upgrade extras -- unused. Leave blank.

Body

Here is where the actual text of your story goes.

NOTE: Will be expanding this with the next 2 1/2 parts later, but wanted to get what I've written so far posted so I could get feedback on it so far.

Things to add include the aforementioned parts, as well as a section early on explaining more about the header section of the site.

If there are any site features you struggle with that aren't mentioned there, or ones you want me to pay special attention to, LET ME KNOW!

Thanks.

Melanie E.

The Right Hand Of The Devil

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Organizational: 

  • Title Page

Audience Rating: 

  • Restricted Audience (r)

TG Universes & Series: 

  • Comics Retcon Universe by Lilith Langtree et al.

Taxonomy upgrade extras: 

  • Fiction
  • Posted by author(s)
  • Mystery or Suspense
  • Horror

The Right Hand Of The Devil

By Melanie E.
Hey Mistah J!

The Right Hand Of The Devil, Part 1

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Restricted Audience (r)

Publication: 

  • Fiction
  • Serial Chapter

Genre: 

  • Mystery or Suspense
  • Horror
  • Fanfiction

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Universes & Series: 

  • Comics Retcon Universe by Lilith Langtree et al.

Other Keywords: 

  • non-canon
  • disturbing

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)

The Right Hand Of The Devil, part 1 of 3

By Melanie E.

Harold Quinzel has a long-held fascination with the criminally insane, and his job at Arkham Asylum has given him plenty of opportunities to indulge.

On this fateful night, however, a new arrival brings about an unexpected twist that will change Harold's life forever.

NOTE: THIS STORY IS FANFIC. ALL CHARACTERS WHO ARE OBVIOUSLY BORROWED FROM COMICS ARE TRADEMARKS OF SAID COMPANIES AND USED HERE WITHOUT PERMISSION. IN ADDITION, THIS STORY IS NON-CANON FOR THE COMICS RETCON UNIVERSE. NO CONNECTION WITH ANY OTHER WRITER'S WORK IS MEANT TO BE IMPLIED OR ASSUMED. THANK YOU.

Image found on a message board somewhere, copyright whoever made it.

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Part 1

I've always had an attraction to... "extreme" personalities.

I guess you could say that was the reason I had applied for the job as a nurse at Arkham Asylum. After all, how much more extreme could you get than THOSE lunatics? Murderers, thieves, and psychopaths to the last, each one more frighteningly insane than the one before.

And I was free to study them as much as I wanted.

The building was old, full of dank passages and decaying stone work, but its appearance fit its purpose quite well, and to me, it was like a home away from home.

"Harold Quinzel?"

"Yessir?"

"Sparky wants you to help with one of the new arrivals. Says he's right up your alley."

"Right away, sir."

Working here was a dream in another way, as well. I only had another year and a half before I would have my own degree in criminal psychology, and what better way to get your foot in the door for your dream job than to be in the right place at the right time? Several of the doctors at the hospital knew this, and would request my help when we had especially unruly patients, though my ease of interaction and connection with the patients seemed to make some of the doctors nervous.

I'll admit, even I was a little surprised when I passed the psyche evaluation necessary to work at Arkham, but there was no way I would throw away the opportunity.

I made my way down the halls as quickly as I could, eager to see just what kind of surprise they had in store for me today.

I was not to be disappointed.

The interrogation room was one of many we had at the Asylum, all of them featuring the same general appearance. A dark, neutral gray paint covered the cracked vinyl padding on the walls of the small room, the only furniture present being a card table likely brought in by the doctor and two metal chairs bolted to the floor, both occupied.

"Name, please?"

"James Hetfield. No, Don Johnson. Nonono, wait, it's Jack Frost."

"Very funny. Real name, please." Doctor Stacy was obviously frazzled already, glaring at the man in the chair before him.

"Why? You didn't believe any of the others, what makes you think you'd know even if I told you the truth?"

"Is everything alright, doctah? Err, doctor?" I asked, my New Jersey accent I worked so hard to hide breaking through in my excitement.

Doctor Stacy gave me a cold stare. "You're kidding, right? I haven't been able to get a straight answer out of this guy since we got him in. No ID, and he's burned his fingerprints off with bleach."

"Blood work?"

"You know how long that takes. And frankly, none of us want to touch him."

I could see why. He was truly a fascinating creature. Long, stringy black hair to the middle of his back, and a tattered green peacoat covered in patches gave him the appearance of any typical vagrant at first, until you noticed the relatively new Italian shoes, and his eyes. Those eyes, brimming with insanity, and intelligence... and something else.

Of course, that was the reason they called me in in situations like this. Where others were driven away, I found myself drawn to the likes of this man.

"Hi, I'm Harold," I said, kneeling down in front of him. "Nice to meet you."

The good doctor looked at me in disgust, obviously put off by my interest in the creature, but I was used to that. Instead, I looked our newest inmate in the eyes for as long as I could. It was only a few seconds -- his gaze was truly intense.

"My, how polite of you, Harold. James Jonah Jameson, pleased to meet you as well," he said with a chuckle.

"Oh, but we both know that's not your name either, is it?" I asked, risking another look into his eyes. I had seen a pattern, though, and I was ready to run with it. "How about I just call you Mistah J instead?"

A smile graced his crooked features for a moment. Not a nice smile, but an approving one.

"We seem to have a winner here."

"I can't put that on his paperwork as anything other than an alias, but I guess it will have to work for now." The Doctor checked his watch nervously. "I've got other patients to attend to. Since you seem to be getting along famously, I'll sign off on letting you take care of this one if you think you can handle it."

"You got it," I said, never even turning around to watch the doctor leave.

"It takes one to know one," I heard him mutter as the door slid shut behind me, but again, I was used to that kind of thing.

"So, Mistah... ahem, Mister J. What brings you in to us today?" I asked as I settled into the doctor's vacated chair.

"A 2006 Dodge Charger police car with two cops on their way home from the donut shop."

I smiled. "And why did they bring you here?"

"I blew their car up with a rocket launcher."

My smile disappeared. "And why would you do that?"

Pause.

"Tell me, 'Harold,' what is a fine, upstanding citizen like you doing here when they could be anywhere else they wanted?"

I shrugged. "I like the work."

"Working with criminals? Seems pretty dangerous to me."

"We're in an Asylum," I pointed out. "It's the safest place in Gotham to be. Besides, I like the sense of danger I get from working with extreme personalities, such as yourself."

"Oh, really? And what could a little thing like you do if one of us were to, oh, I don't know, attempt escape?"

"I'd take you down," I said, not biting at the bait he had dropped in my lap. I might be small, but years of martial arts practice meant I was far from the weak, defenseless child most people expected when they messed with me, and I had proven it in more than one dark alley at night.

"My my my, such big words for such a delicate frame. Tell me, Harold -- what color lingerie are you wearing right now?"

Again I refused to take the bait. "I'm sure we'll have plenty of time to discuss that, later. For the moment, I'd rather talk about you."

"Me?" He asked in feigned surprise. "Well, that's a rather long story, and it is so very uncomfortable sitting here handcuffed to the chair," he said, jangling the cuffs that held his hands behind his back.

"They won't let me uncuff you."

"No?" He said, pouting. "But I was all ready to talk if you did? Oh, well, too bad."

It was a trap. I knew it was a trap -- how could it be anything else? But it was a trap I wanted to spring. Besides, the doors to the interrogation rooms could only be opened from the outside. What's the worst that could happen?

"Very well," I said, standing up and circling around behind him. It took only a moment to uncuff him, and just as quickly I had his hands in front of him and cuffed again with a satisfying 'clink' as the hooks caught.

He pouted again. "You ARE a tough one, aren't you? Very well, I suppose I'll have to take what I can get," he said, propping his feet up on the card table in front of him, the cuffs that should have been holding his feet dangling merrily from his ankles as he rested his head in his hands.

I hid my surprise as best I could, ignoring the breach in security and settling back into my own chair. I looked into his eyes again, and it was clear that he was studying me as much as I was studying him. Testing me, playing with me. The worst part was, I had no idea what the rules of the game were.

"Are you ready to talk now?"

He nodded. "It all started on my eighth birthday. My father, a great blustering man with a penchant for bribery and a taste for whores, refused to take me to see the bats at the zoo. I always have had a fascination with bats, you see."

"Really, now?"

"Oh, yes," he said, his eyes gleaming evilly. "Of course, I had to punish him for that, so the next time he headed down to our basement I locked him in, and refused to let him out until he promised to buy me a pony."

"And where was your mother in all this?"

"In a cooler downstairs. I told you he had a taste for whores, and there never was a bigger whore than she. Her liver lasted him two meals alone."

"You can't be serious."

"No? Would you rather I told you I had a perfectly happy, normal childhood, and that I simply did what I did because I WANTED to?"

"I'm not sure I would believe that eithah."

"Well, there's just no pleasing you, then, is there?"

"You could tell me the truth."

He frowned, his expressive face conveying a whole range of emotions sane and otherwise. "But the truth is so BOR-ing. Life needs a little spice to it, don't you think? A little fire every now and then keeps things interesting, and gunpowder and gasoline make such GREAT seasonings."

I watched him as he sat there, unsure of what to say. So much of what he had said was completely repulsive, but the WAY he said it, with such clarity and joy. He was an incredibly fascinating character. In fact, he was quite possibly the most interesting person I had ever seen! And even as I was watching him, he was watching me right back, with those intense, piercing eyes.

"Was this your first crime?" I asked him, when I remembered to speak again.

He grinned. "Of course not."

"...Well?" I asked, when he refused to continue.

"Well what? You want to know what else I have done? Nothing too grand, I assure you. A bank robbery here, an assassination there."

"Any that you're particularly proud of?"

"Well, last summer I DID sneak into the police commissioner's house and replaced all his underpants with a beautiful collection from Victoria's Secret. And just last week I paid someone off to shut down the Asylum's power and replace all the cuffs with cheap pot-metal knockoffs."

"What?"

That was when the lights went out.

-----

NOTES:

So, I couldn't sleep last night for some reason, and while I was lying awake a comics retcon idea I'd had for a while about Harley Quinn and the Joker started to finally coalesce into a writable form in my head. Since it's fairly appropriate for Halloween, here's the first part of three that will be written over the next couple of days.

Yes, I'm still working on other things, too, but this MADE me write it.

If this story steps on anyone else's retconning toes, I do apologize, but I simply couldn't resist, and hey, it's non-canon! So, no harm no foul, right?

Melanie E.

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The Right Hand Of The Devil, part 2 of 3
By Melanie E.
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Harold Quinzel has a long-held fascination with the criminally insane, and his job at Arkham Asylum has given him plenty of opportunities to indulge.

On this fateful night, however, a new arrival brings about an unexpected twist that will change Harold's life forever.

NOTE: THIS STORY IS FANFIC. ALL CHARACTERS WHO ARE OBVIOUSLY BORROWED FROM COMICS ARE TRADEMARKS OF SAID COMPANIES AND USED HERE WITHOUT PERMISSION. IN ADDITION, THIS STORY IS NON-CANON FOR THE COMICS RETCON UNIVERSE. NO CONNECTION WITH ANY OTHER WRITER'S WORK IS MEANT TO BE IMPLIED OR ASSUMED. THANK YOU.

Part 2

The dull throbbing of my head told me I was finally coming out of the black dream I had been having, and with a moan of pain I rolled over, hoping that whatever bender I had been on last night's visions would fade faster than the hangover I was suffering.

"Ah, good, you seem to be awake. The police tend to frown upon it when I present them with hostages who are already dead."

"Wha?" I started to ask, when it sunk in. Going to work, and meeting that intensely insane man... "Mistah J?"

"At last sleeping beauty rises from the slumber of the damned to join me once more. I would appreciate you not fainting again, we will move much quicker if you can keep the pace on your own."

I opened my eyes, and there he was, standing over me, his long, unkempt hair falling around his face and obscuring his features, but not those eyes. No, never those eyes.

"Where are we?"

"A drainage ditch just beyond the Asylum's walls," he said with a manic grin. "An old acquaintance of mine told me about the way out, and I needed to see for myself that it truly worked, in case they should ever catch me and leave me in need of an escape."

"But isn't that what happened?"

"Ah, now you see the clever ruse," he said, tapping the side of his nose. "I let them catch me on PURPOSE to make sure the path was there."

"And if it wasn't?"

"Then I would have simply killed everyone and been done with it. Though I must say, this way is MUCH more fun!" He clapped his hands merrily as he stood up, and for the first time I got to see my captor in all his glory.

Like his face, his body was long, and thin to the point of emaciation, while still somehow carrying an underlying sense of muscular power. Gone was his peacoat, leaving him standing there in rolled up shirt sleeves, suspenders holding up his muddy pinstriped pants.

"Well, are you going to lay there all day, or are you coming along? We're on the run, and we must make way before the police catch us."

I shook my head, amazed at his pure energy. "I thought I was a hostage?"

His eyes flashed in the dark. "Oh, you are, my little buffoon. But a good hostage knows when to fight their captor, and when to grap a gun and shoot like they're told. Which one seems the better idea to you?" He asked, pulling a long, thin blade out from seemingly nowhere.

Without another word I stood up, and together we began to trudge through the mud.

It was only a few minutes later that the road out from the Asylum loomed out of the darkness, and I knew that his plan was set for failure. "You can't make it out on the road, they'll already have the police out looking for you."

"Oh, I've no doubt about that. That's what makes it so fun! Ah, here they come now."

And, surely, around the curb ahead of us came a cop car, lights flashing but siren eerily silent.

'This is it,' I thought to myself as their headlights approached us, feeling both relieved and strangely regretful that my journey into madness should end so soon.

Rather than hiding, or running, like I would have expected, my companion simply stepped into the middle of the road and waved happily to the car as it approached, chuckling.

With a screech of brakes the car jerked to a stop mere feet before him, with the cops out an instant behind.

"Hands up! Keep your hands where we can see them!"

"Who, me?"

"Yeah, you," the other officer said as he approached carefully, his partner's gun trained on their suspect. Neither seemed to notice me, crouched beside the road and quiet, as they both kept their eyes on 'Mister J.'

"Get over here," he said once he was close enough to touch Mister J's arm, and dragged him to the hood of the police car. The search began, and I breathed a sigh of relief. It was over.

Then I saw a flash of metal, and the cop began to slump to the ground. The glare from the headlights in the dark was enough to tell me that the long blade I had seen before was now buried in his guts.

The second cop never stood a chance, frozen in place as his murderer skipped up and almost playfully snapped his neck, catching his pistol before his body hit the ground.

"Well, come on, then."

Whether out of fear or fascination, I'm still not sure, I left my hiding place and approached the car.

"Ladies first," he said, holding open the passenger side door to the cop car and gesturing me to sit.

"I'm not a girl," I pointed out, one last act of defiance in the case of his indomitable will.

"Ah, but you're my hostage, and the police always react better to a damsel in distress than they do some boy. Of course, we'll have to work on you fitting the part a bit, but we'll have it done soon enough. Oh, my little buffoon is soon to become a harlequin. Isn't this fun!"

I simply sat there in silence, too in awe to even bother crying for help, as we drove over the bodies of the dead policemen and into the night, toward the streets of Gotham.

----

Like a good little hostage I sat in silence for the first half an hour of our journey to wherever it was that this man was taking me.

The longer I sat, though, the more my curiousity built. As cruel and violent as I had seen him be, he still somehow drew me to him in a way I couldn't yet describe.

"Why?"

"Hmm?" He said, pausing in his repeated humming of "Ride of the Valkyries" to look at me. "Why what?"

I shrugged. "Why everything?"

He looked up at the roof for a moment, thoughtful. "Well, I have always loved a good joke."

I was appalled. "So this is all just a big joke to you?!"

He laughed. "The biggest and best! You don't get it?"

"No!"

His laugh turned sour as he grimaced at me. "By the time I'm done with you, I promise -- you will."

---

NOTES:

Alright, I'm not entirely happy with this part, and I'll probably come back and add to it/expand it at a later time, but I said I'd try to have all three parts up over three days, and this one's almost twelve hours late as is, so *shrug*

On the plus side, I know exactly what direction I'm going/where the last part is going to end, so that's good.

Melanie E.

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The Right Hand of the Devil, Part 3

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The Right Hand of the Devil, Part 3 of 3?
By Melanie E.

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Harold Quinzel has a long-held fascination with the criminally insane, and his job at Arkham Asylum has given him plenty of opportunities to indulge.

On this fateful night, however, a new arrival brings about an unexpected twist that will change Harold's life forever.

NOTE: THIS STORY IS FANFIC. ALL CHARACTERS WHO ARE OBVIOUSLY BORROWED FROM COMICS ARE TRADEMARKS OF SAID COMPANIES AND USED HERE WITHOUT PERMISSION. IN ADDITION, THIS STORY IS NON-CANON FOR THE COMICS RETCON UNIVERSE. NO CONNECTION WITH ANY OTHER WRITER'S WORK IS MEANT TO BE IMPLIED OR ASSUMED. THANK YOU.

Part 3

Oh, how I wish I could say there was silence during our ride down the dark, dessicated road that was the only way in our out of Arkham's grounds. Instead I was treated to sporadic snippets of song and deranged poetry, interspersed with tales of Mister J's exploits.

"...And that was when the wire broke. The splat when the Greysons hit the ground, hoohoo!"

"That was you?!" I asked, in awe despite myself. Despite the police's insistence the Greysons' deaths were accidental nobody in Gotham had ever truly believed it. Was I really sitting with their killer now?

Somehow I doubted he was lying.

"You're more like me than you think, you know." Mister J said into the silence, ignoring the road at he stared at me once again with his cold, steely eyes.

"Wha?" I asked, momentarily thrown by the disconnect between where we had been and what he was talking about. Talking to Mister J was like riding a rollercoaster with a missing bolt: the twists came fast and hard, and always with the potential that this was the one where everything would fall apart. "No, I don't think so."

"Oh really? Tell me, Harley. Did you ever pull the wings off a fly as a child?" He asked. "I did it all the time. It was always fascinating to watch them scurry and twitch, trying to escape their inevitable end and never realizing how futile their attempts were, wasn't it?"

"I wouldn't know," I objected with a sneer. "I never did that kind of thing."

"No? But you thought about it a lot, didn't you?" He asked, then waited for my answer. When I didn't give one, he began to chuckle inanely. "The difference between you and me, Harley, is that I've never been afraid of who I am."

"My name," I said in a cold tone, "is Harold."

With only the soft snikt of metal slicing though the air Mister J's knife was at my throat, his arm stiff as an iron bar. The sweat beaded on my forehead as I caught the vague smell of the blood of the cop that still clung to the steel.

"Harley."

I gave a gulp, but did my best not to move as I felt the edge of the blade barely skim the flesh of my throat.

"You know, you would be so much more fun if you would only stop being such a coward."

"I'm not--" I began, only to stop with a whimper when I felt the sting of the blade moving, taking me a breath closer to my end.

"You are. You're nothing but a scared little girl." Moving quick as a flash Mister J took the knife from my throat and plunged it into the leather seat directly between my legs. I gave an involuntary scream of terror that set Mister J to laughing again. Then he did the unimaginable: he let the knife go, returning both his hands to the wheel.

Silence settled over us as we left the canopy of dark trees and entered the outer limits of the city. I stared straight ahead, thinking over everything I had seen on this crazy night and trying to wrap my head around it all.

He was a murderer. A psychopath. Just a transient with a knife and more derangements than I could ever dream of chronicling.

He was also brilliant, and insightful, and there was something about him that drew me in like a moth to a flame.

I idly fingered the handle of the dagger between my legs with one hand while my other gently rubbed my throat where the blade had been pressed. Pulling my fingers away brought only the slightest traces of blood to my vision.

He had given me his knife.

I knew better than to imagine that he was anywhere near defenseless: after all, it was less than an hour since I had watched him gleefully slaughter two police officers with guns without so much as an ounce of hesitation.

But I had the knife.

I wouldn't even have to really stab him, would I? Just scare him enough he ran off the road. Then I could get away. I could flee, and maybe return to the way my life was before.

Before tonight.

Before him.

The car began to slow, then drew to a stop. Surprised, I gazed out my window to see that we had pulled up outside of Gotham Mall, closed at this hour but still lit up like a beacon in the darkness.

I could run here. Find people.

My fingers wrapped around the handle of the knife.

"You can end it all now, with just one move. I won't even try to get away," he said. I couldn't look at him: I was too scared what would happen if I did. "You have a choice to make, Harley. Kill me now and be a hero."

"Or?" Slipped out of my mouth unbidden. I continued to stare at the mall, only yards away yet at the same time leagues ouf from where I was floundering in the inky depths of my own mind.

"Or," he continued, wrapping his long, bony fingers around my own and pulling the knife from the seat. I could feel him maneuvering it over his chest. "Or, you can let go, and I can give you everything you've ever wanted. Take you on a ride into psychosis like you've never imagined you could ever experience. You would have to make some changes, of course."

"Changes?"

"Nothing a shopping trip and a little manslaughter wouldn't fix. Trust me."

I've always felt an attraction to... extreme personalities.

Working up my nerve, I turned away from the mall and looked at my hand, poised to plunge this murderer's dagger straight into his own heart.

Then I looked into his eyes.

Those soul-piercing eyes.

"Mister J...."

"Make the choice. Are you Harold? Or, are you my little harlequin...."

-=End=-

Wow. THIS has been a long time coming, hasn't it? What can I say? I've offered this story to a couple of people to complete before, and both seemed interested, but then neither went ahead with doing anything with it. Then, tonight I was trying to get inspired to write something by looking through my old stories... and this came up.

I've been looking to complete some of my unfinished work. Why not take care of this first?

Not that it was easy to write. The Joker is not a fun character to write for, nor is the mind of a psychopath or sociopath something I think I'll ever make the choice to delve into again. So, this is it. What happens from here? We all know who Harley Quinn is, but perhaps, just perhaps, Harlold finds his way out.

What do you think?

My normal closing remarks would be "if you comment, more will come," but not in this case. This is as far as I'm taking this tale: if anyone else wants to write a continuation, contact me and we'll see if we can come to an agreement; otherwise, Harold and Mister J's journey ends here, with more implied than said, but with enough said that the implications are clear.

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I liked my uncle Sammy, and my uncle Sammy liked me. Whenever him and Aunt Brenda would come around he would always sit with me and play with my cars and legos, and tell me the funniest jokes.

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It's always Wednesday somewhere, innit?

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Wednesday Knights
by Melanie E
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When the gaming group is invited to do an (almost) all-expenses-paid live show at a well-respected convention, things become even more complicated. Of course, Leigh will dress as their character -- the half-elven sorceress Lunea -- but that's only the tip of the iceberg. And Brian, Leigh's best friend will dress as Burg, Lunea's...lover?

Well, sure. The fact that everyone else sees the relationship as romantic on both levels is their problem, until it increasingly becomes Leigh's problem, too. And Brian's, sure.


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Long Live the Queen

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Wednesday Knights

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A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

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Chapter 1 - Now Streaming

"You successfully make camp for the night on the moors, the whispering spirits on the wind doing little to interrupt your rest. You rise the next morning and... Lunea?"

"Ugh," I groaned, already knowing what was coming. I picked up my twenty-sided die and rolled it, then winced. "Five."

"With your--"

"That's with my con bonus."

Maria hissed through her teeth and gave me an apologetic look. "You know what that means."

I did. I gave my best wretched groan as I turned from the table and mimed vomiting behind myself, only feeling slightly mollified by the sound of Jonah dry heaving from the other side of the table.

"Morning sickness again?" Brian asked me. Well, Burg asked Lunea, to be more accurate, as I felt him gently rub my back.

"Urg," I gurgled in response, giving another half-heave before turning around and theatrically wiping my mouth with my arm. He offered me my water bottle, and I gave him a thankful smile as I opened it and took a long swig.

"We should have left her in town," Jonah, IE "Black John," hissed, glaring at me. "She's a liability."

"Oh, shove off, you sourpuss," Sydney said in her Sunny voice, giving him a none-too-gentle shove of her own as she said it. "The girl's tough, and need I remind you if it weren't for her magic we'da never gotten ya out of that poison trap you failed to disarm last time?"

"Psht," he scoffed, turning his glare on her. "You're a dwarf, and *dwarves* are tough. She's a stinking half-breed. Their elven blood makes 'em weaker than wet paper dolls. First furback we come across so much as breathes on her we'll be down a party member and up a dead weight."

"What's that about elven blood?" Deidre asked from his other side, giving Jonah a look that said, none too subtly, just how much she wanted him to say something else in front of her own full-blood elf character.

"Yeah, but you're a cleric," he argued, "not some half-dressed enchantress slut who--"

"*John*," Maria said in her Voice of Command.

Jonah looked around at the rest of the table and finally read the room. "Whatever." He gave me one last withering look before turning an icy smile on Maria. "I'm gonna scout ahead a little bit, while everyone else gets things packed up."

"You do that," Maria agreed in a calm tone, though her eyes still held a steely edge. "And if nobody else has anything they want to take care of, I think we're all a little on edge, so we'll call it here for tonight."

The rest of us shook our heads.

"In that case," Maria said, turning her attention from us to the camera at the end of the table, "thank you all for joining us. Wednesday Knights will return with more adventures next Wednesday! There will be a live chat stream re-run on Friday, and don't forget to catch our new series Gnome Bowl this coming Monday, hosted by our own Aaron Verre! But for now, remember: we love you, be kind, and as always... keep adventuring."

The lights went down as the end of stream music played, and we all sat in silence for a few minutes, both to make sure the stream was off air and catch our breaths.

One of the assistants moved through the shadows to Maria's side, and after another moment, the lights came back up. "Alright, folks," Maria said, in the exasperated way that told us we were in trouble. "I'd hoped we'd get another half hour or so in tonight, try and get y'all to the next town, but here we are."

"Maybe if we'd made it there we coulda dropped the dead weight."

"Don't start on this again, man," I said, hanging my head in frustration.

"I'm just sayin' you fucked up and oughta just roll a new character," Jonah said, ignoring the fact that both Deidre and Sydney had stood up from their seats and were glaring down at him. "Maybe one with a dick this time."

"Hey hey hey," Aaron, the sixth player in our game, finally spoke up from where he'd sat silent to my right. "For real, enough of this. You've been ragging on Leigh about this for months, man. What the hell?"

"Fuckin' whatever," Jonah said, slamming his chair back and standing up. "I'm goin' out for a smoke. I'll catch up on the after-game notes later." He gave me one last nasty look before knocking Sydney with his shoulder and heading out the side door, our production staff giving him a wide berth like they usually did after sessions.

As soon as the door clicked closed behind him, the energy in the room relaxed considerably.

Maria cracked her neck. "Alright, now the drama queen's gone, down to business."

"Don't let him catch you calling him that," Sydney said, sitting down on the edge of the table and crossing her arms. "Even if it's the truth."

Deidre collapsed back into her own seat, tossing a wary glance toward the side door. "I swear he gets worse every session."

"Guys..." Maria started, then sighed. "Can we forget about Jonah for now? Aaron, you did great this session. It seems like you're finally figuring out how you want to handle Adrian's powers."

Aaron blushed at Maria's praise but nodded. "Yeah. I'm figuring out who he is, and how his relationship with Shanah works. When we get a chance, I think he'd like to pursue a higher rank in his order."

"That could open up some fun questlines for us, and improving the party's relationship with the Paladins of Shanah would be a good arc in our storyline," Maria agreed, giving him another encouraging smile. "On the other end of the spectrum, Brian? You seemed to struggle with Burg's druid abilities more this session than usual."

Brian groaned and leaned back in his chair, balancing it on its back feet in that way that always made me worry he would topple over, even if he never had. "Yeah, I'm not liking this class as much as I thought I would. The whole 'guardian of nature' thing is neat, but the restrictions are a real pain in the ass."

"Yeah, I warned you about that when we were planning this campaign. Do you want to work toward switching characters?"

Brian looked pensive for a moment, then shook his head. "Not on your life. I like Burg a lot, it's just the class restrictions that are rubbing me the wrong way. Besides, no way am I gonna abandon my baby mama like that," he said, giving me a wide grin.

"Hmmm." Maria tapped her lips with her pen a few times, then took some notes. "I'll message you some ideas later. Work on a class change story arc of some kind, perhaps?"

"That'd be cool, yeah," Brian nodded, his eyes brightening at the idea of getting to change his character up.

"Cool. And speaking of your baby mama..." Maria gave me a long look.

I grunted. "I'm not making a different character."

"I wasn't gonna ask you to."

"No way," Sydney chimed in. "Lunea's one of our viewers' favorite characters. Not only would it hurt our views, but it'd mean we'd have to re-work a lot of our party's reasons for adventuring."

"Jonah can get fucked by a freight train," Deidre chimed in with her usual nuance as she casually doodled a penis on the cover of the character sheet he had left behind.

Maria sighed again. "Really, guys, just... Deedee, put the pen down, you know that just pisses him off. I'm tired of Jonah's bullshit too, but...."

"But?"

"But he's one of us."

Silence.

"Anyway, what I was gonna say is that I'm liking the way you're developing Lunea as a character, and a lot of the acting you're bringing into your play. We've gotten a lot of comments from moms who follow our show about how they appreciate seeing you protect your baby bump and the humor you've brought into presenting the challenges of being a pregnant adventurer."

I breathed a sigh of relief. "That's great to hear. It's a difficult topic to research, so I've been worried I wasn't doing a good job of it."

"You're doing great!"

"I've loved it!"

"You sure you aren't really pregnant?"

I glared at Brian for that one.

"Hey, don't look at me like that. You're the one who bought that mustard flavored ice cream that's in the fridge."

"I didn't know it was mustard flavored!"

"It says Grey Pupon right on the carton."

"I thought that was a tea or something!"

I stared daggers at Brian, while he just grinned back in the same way he did every time he teased me, which was far too often in my opinion.

"One thing's for sure, you two definitely act like a couple," Sydney said with an amused grin of her own.

"We do not!" Brian and I said at the same time, definitely not helping.

"Alright already! Jeezus," Maria said, then crossed herself. "Just keep up the good work. I've been doing research of my own, and we're about sixteen weeks in, so by estimation you're definitely showing at this point, but I think I'm gonna go ahead and drop the DC and frequency on the nausea checks since we're well into your second trimester now."

"Oh thank god!"

Maria chuckled. "You say that now, but just wait 'til the third trimester. Penalties on Dex and Con checks 'cause of side effects of the pregnancy, and I've got something special I'm trying to plan us toward for the birth."

"There's a lot of talk in the forums about that," Sydney said. "Lots of speculation on if the baby's gonna be human or half-elf, a boy or a girl, and more."

"All good questions. Some I've already got answers to," Maria said, her eyes sparkling. "And none I'm answering just yet."

"When we get to town Dahlia wants to buy some yarn and knitting needles so she can start making clothes for the baby during our downtimes."

"I didn't know you'd specced points into that kind of thing."

"I didn't," Deidre said, a wicked glean in her eyes.

Great.

"I did," Aaron said, blushing when we all turned our attention to him. "Remember, my character background is I was a tailor's apprentice before I received my call to serve?"

"I don't know that tailoring and knitting qualify as the same skill set," Maria countered, " but I'll check."

Aaron shrugged. "If I can, I'll help her with the clothes."

"Thanks!"

Sydney hissed through her teeth as she scanned her phone. "There's already some talk in the forums about Jonah's blow-up earlier."

"They're calling that a blow-up? That was hardly anything. Remember how he acted last series, when we killed the demon he was trying to convince Maria to let him bind to his warlock's will? That was a blow-up."

We all laughed at that.

"We'll deal with Jonah when we gotta," Maria said solemnly. "But for now, his character fills an important role in the party, so until we figure out what we want to do about that... let's talk about the upcoming convention instead."

"They've confirmed Samoa Joe is gonna be there!" Deidre squealed, bouncing in her chair excitedly. "He's supposed to do a panel on the live-action version of Battle Droid Phoenix."

"Ugh. Another live-action movie based on an anime. Those are always terrible."

"Well, I'm excited for it."

"More importantly, we should talk about our show at the con, right?" Maria said, using her mom-voice. "We're just over two weeks out, so if anyone has issues with being there the full weekend, now's pretty much the last time to air them."

I shook my head, as did everyone else at the table. We'd all been excited for the convention ever since we'd been invited to hold a two-night event, and I didn't think there was anything short of Armageddon itself that would keep us from being there.

"Good. I've reached out to Aunt Cici about our costumes, and she should be getting back to us next week to finalize fittings on everything."

"Cool!"

"Hell yeah!"

"Hmmm. Unless anyone has anything else they wanna talk about, I think that's probably it for tonight."

None of the rest of us seemed to have anything else to add, so like most Wednesday nights we said our goodbyes and headed out to our cars, another week's adventuring done.

-==-

NOTES:

So, here it is, the first chapter of my next work-in-progress book! I'll be posting these chapters here a week and a half after they appear on the BCTS Patreon, so if you want a leg up on seeing where the story is going, feel free to stop by there and give us a like, comment, or more!

All feedback is appreciated, and I hope you fall in love with these characters just like I have.

Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 2: The Ride Home

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Fiction
  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Adventure
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 2 - The Ride Home

It was half-way to my car that Brian grabbed my shoulder and stopped me.

"Hmm?" I asked, turning and looking up at him.

"Keys."

"What?"

"Gimme the keys."

I scoffed and tried to turn away, but his hand held me in place. "Why?"

Brian frowned. "Because you're still upset, and you scare the hell out of me when you drive upset."

"I'm not--"

"Hold out your hands."

"You can't just... ugh." Giving in, I held my hands up, fighting unsuccessfully to quell the tremor I knew they would hold.

"See?"

"*Fine.*"

I fished my keys out of my messenger bag and handed them over to Brian, getting a shoulder-pat in thanks.

"Next week we're taking separate cars."

"Next week it's my gas we're burning."

"Maybe the week after that then," I decided, pausing only a moment when we reached my car to circle around to the passenger side while Brian hit the beeper to unlock the doors.

I settled in to the seat, the sound of Brian cursing as he adjusted the driver's seat and wheel making me feel at least a little better about the whole thing. Our almost foot of height difference meant it was always a struggle whenever we tried to drive each others' vehicles, though at least my car had electric adjustments for everything: I had to keep wooden blocks behind the seat of his truck for the rare times I'd drive it just so I could reach the pedals.

"Y'know, this car."

"Don't start this again, man."

Brian chuckled. "I'm just sayin', a more manly car might help cut down on people thinking you're a girl."

"How do you figure that?" I asked him while he continued to fiddle with the seat and mirrors. "'S not like driving a Viper or something is gonna suddenly make me five inches taller or spontaneously sprout a porn 'stache."

"No, but..."

"But?"

"It's a yellow Fiat 500, Leigh. Most guys wouldn't be caught dead owning one of these."

"You borrow it all the time."

"Well, yeah, but it's not *mine.* And if anyone asks I tell 'em it's my girlfriend's."

"You wish!"

"I do, just not for you," he tossed back, seemingly happy with his adjustments at last. "We stopping for burgers or something on the way back?"

"Up to you, I'm not starving."

"Burgers it is," he said, firing up the engine then revving it a couple times before putting the car in gear, just like he always did.

Without asking I turned on the satellite radio to one of the stations playing pop music and leaned back in my seat, closing my eyes and just Thinking.

The convention.

It wasn't the first convention we'd ever attended, or even the first time we'd done a panel, but it was the biggest, and the most complex.

We'd all started the whole tabletop streaming thing about four years ago. I was having pretty decent luck with streaming myself talking about tabletop games and playing video games, so thought hey, why not see if my friends wanted to give it a shot too? At the time it had just been the six of us, but when we'd decided to give the streaming a shot we brought Jonah in, both as an extra party member and as our tech to manage cameras and editing.

For the first couple of years, that's all things had been. We were small-time, but developing enough of a following to slowly increase production values, adding lighting and music and better mics.

Then we got the sponsorship, and everything changed.

We'd been running Faelands since the beginning, because it was the system Maria and I liked the most. When American Tabletop Games, the company who made Faelands, reached out to us and asked if we wanted an official partnership, we didn't think twice before jumping at the opportunity. Apparently some of the folks at the company were fans of the show, and especially of Maria's worldbuilding and game mastering, and wanted to help make our show more visible to help advertise the system.

And make our show more visible it did. Our viewership tripled in the first month of the sponsorship, and had hardly slowed in the last two years, getting another massive boost last year when we started a new campaign in the most recent version of the system. ATG had been so impressed with our performance, and the revenue we'd brought to them, that they were even in talks with Maria about releasing an official campaign setting based on her world.

Even with all that, though, our fame and performance were relative. We were in the top 10 most popular tabletop gaming groups, for sure, but Faelands as a system still struggled to compete with some of the bigger names in the industry like Wayfinder and Temples and Trolls, and likewise our viewership numbers, while impressive, still looked like small fries compared to a group like Critical Hit or Geek Stuff.

That was why this convention was so important. It would be our first showcase in front of an audience, and we'd been booked to basically headline the convention for two nights in a row! Austin was a long way from our home town of Bayonet, Louisiana, but ATG saw this as a big opportunity for both them and us, and were paying our expenses to go.

Maria was in charge of all the game-related business for our group. Sydney managed our socials. Deidre kept on top of incoming and outgoing art and merchandising... but I was the one responsible for public relations for the Wednesday Knights as a whole. Was it any wonder my nerves were shot?

I would like to say that it wasn't because of Jonah... but yeah, it was because of Jonah.

The rest of us, we'd been playing together for years. Hell, I'd been gaming with Maria since we were in middle school. When I'd gone to college and met my roommate Brian, I'd immediately set to work baiting the trap to get him into a game with us, and he brought along Aaron, a friend of his from high school. Sydney and her then-roommate Deidre answered an open call for players, and our group was set. By the time we were seniors and I convinced the rest of the group to give the streaming deal a shot we'd all been playing together for about four years at that point, and were friends not only in-game but out of game as well.

From the first moment I met him Jonah was a bit surly, and more of a power gamer than the rest of us, but he was also very enthusiastic about the idea of working on the show, so we had all agreed to give him a shot. He had proven himself invaluable, managing the cameras during streams and handling edits afterward for posting to WooTube, and even if there were obvious differences in his play style from the rest of us, we'd felt sure that over time we'd all be able to work those differences out and find a way to play that worked for everyone.

For a while, it had worked. Maria adjusted her game to have a bit more mechanical focus and offer more challenging mechanical play for Jonah, but kept the strong focus on character play that the rest of us loved, and the world that responded to our actions like, well, like a believable place. Jonah didn't always like the restrictions he'd get on what he could do -- most often along the lines of us not letting him kill or brutalize NPCs we wanted to work with -- but he kept himself in check.

The bigger we got, though, and the more complex our production, the less that seemed to work for him. He was still technically head of our production staff, but we had a full-on tech team now, not just a couple cameras on tripods, and the more technical work was pulled out of his direct control the more control he seemed to want to enforce on the actual game. It wasn't long after we had started the current campaign that we'd been forced to decide as a group to more or less strip his title back to being a figurehead only position, due to too many times our WooTube edits had turned into The Jonah Show, cutting out character and story development aspects of the game if they weren't related to his character and being more combat clip shows than anything else.

Then I got pregnant.

It wasn't anything we'd planned, and the roleplay between me and Brian had been incredibly embarrassing for both of us. That said, it just... fit. Of all the party members they were the closest two in age, and a few lucky and unlucky rolls early on meant Burg proved his mettle protecting Lunea quickly. We'd had inter-party romances before -- heck, the last campaign had ended with Sydney and Deidre's characters getting married -- but the little romance plot between Lunea and Burg took on a mind of its own quicker than any of us anticipated, and after about five months of play we finally agreed during a drunk chat stream that our characters had, indeed, "done the deed" at some point, which naturally inspired Maria to pop the question about whether we wanted to roll to see just how lucky we'd been.

Never agree to making story-critical rolls while drunk.

We all regretted our decision the next morning, and even had a discussion about proclaiming the rolls non-canon... but we couldn't. The news was out, and it was everywhere, and despite being part of a silly drunk stream and not a regular gameplay stream, it got us trending harder than anything else before.

Unless we wanted to risk the wrath of hundreds of thousands of fans, new and old, Lunea was staying pregnant.

It had been a marketing bonanza since. Almost weekly Sydney fed into the buzz, with fake "baby updates" from her Dwarf barbarian's point of view. She prided herself on Sunny almost always coming top of the polls for character popularity, but was also having fun spurring on a friendly rivalry between Sunny and Lunea, using the baby as bait. Deidre had likewise used it as a jumping off point for a few community art competitions, that had returned a lot of artwork both adorable and disturbing, and even Aaron had been leveraging it during his fantasy sports streams, taking fantasy bets from viewers on what the baby would grow up to be.

Meanwhile, Brian had been playing the Proud Father to Be role to the hilt every stream, and me? I got to learn what it took to be a mommy.

Even sitting in the car, away from the actual game, I found myself unconsciously using the same arm gestures I'd adopted as Lunea, cradling the imaginary bump that held my child. With a roll of my eyes I forced myself to move my arms away from my belly and to my sides, hoping Brian hadn't noticed.

My baby had taken over marketing for our entire show, and everyone was all in on making the most of it... except for Jonah.

"If any character gets to fuck the half-breed it's John, he has the highest charisma."

Yes. He actually said that during a crew meeting.

As far as Jonah was concerned, the baby was a menace and a distraction. Even before my pregnancy he was annoyed at Maria's plot for the game, which focused around a political intrigue storyline built off my character being the heiress to a kingdom in peril, looking for allies to help re-take her throne. While the plot was there, the story really wasn't about my character, but about the people around her, our other players' characters, and how we all would work together to reach our goal, but he didn't want that. He was convinced that as the best player at the table -- his words -- he should be the center of the action, and the center of the story.

And things had deteriorated from there.

Things were at a point where I was sure the rest of us were on the same page. Jonah was burning his bridges in a spectacular fashion, and there was no way we could keep him in the group... but we didn't want to kick him, either. He'd been an important part of founding the show, and he had his own portion of the fanbase who loved his character and more technical play focus.

All of us were hoping he'd chill enough to at least make it to the end of the campaign. Personally, I just hoped he could manage until after the convention.

Just two and a half more weeks. Inevitably another crisis and stress-storm would come after, but for now, just make it past the convention.

Please.

My musings were interrupted by the smell of food, and I opened my eyes just in time for Brian to drop a warm bag in my lap.

"Junior burger?"

"And onion rings," he confirmed, handing me a coke as well.

"Mmmmm."

"Hey, gotta take care of my baby mama, right?"

"Fuck off."

"Love you too."

-==-

NOTES:

Chapter 2! Woo!

Apologies for the late arrival of chapter 3 on Patreon: we're adjusting things so Wednesday Knights, appropriately, arrives on Wednesday in both locations :)

If you like this chapter, and don't want to wait a week to check the next one, well, it's over on the BCTS Patreon! In addition to Wednesday Knights, there's all kinds of other great tales there, both free (like mine!) and even more if you want to drop a buck or two in the site coffers!

Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 3: Fans

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Fiction
  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Adventure
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 3 - Fans

"Damnit!"

I tapped furiously at the respawn key, even though I knew it wouldn't get me up any faster than if I just waited for the timer to run down. It was better than doing nothing.

"Hey, Ollie! I got flattened. Can you get Marill over to cover aggro while I respawn and try to get back?"

"Sure thing, Sprite," a scratchy voice responded back. "I saw you get hit by that hammer. Pretty brutal."

"Rrrgh." The meter finally filled, letting me re-spawn back at our base camp, but it would be a solid couple of minutes for me to make it back through the dungeon to the raid boss. "I hate this game."

"And yet you've got, what was it, twelve hundred hours logged on stream?"

"Yeah, well, I hate it, but the viewers love it," I countered, hitting the command to activate my wings in the hopes the boost from my hover speed would get me back in the action that little bit faster. Since I had the time anyway, I went ahead and checked on some of the live chat from said viewers. "LittleEvie, thanks for the resub! AlabasterSkye, thanks for three months! And KidClean, thanks for the bits!"

I read a bit more in chat as I made the mindless trek back and frowned.

"Folks, I've already told you, I don't wanna talk about Wednesday's game tonight, so can we drop it?"

More chat, confirming they very much would not.

"Come on guys, anything else we can talk about?"

"How about water?"

"Hmm? Oh, hey Brian. Chat, say hi to Brian! What's up?" I asked, turning around in my chair but keeping one hand on the keyboard to keep my character running the right way.

Brian handed me a bottle of water, then winked at the camera. "Just making sure you stay hydrated." That got the normal and expected flood of heart and swoon emojis from my chat.

"Thanks!" I said, uncapping the bottle and taking a long, greedy sip. "He's right, folks. Hydrate up before we get back to the action. Speaking of which..."

I turned back to my computer and set the water bottle down on the coaster next to my keyboard. Far enough away it was out of camera shot, but close enough I could grab it again when I had a chance.

"Hey Sprite, get yer ass up here. I'm down to my last Rush stack and need to trade out for a bit!"

"On my way!" I called in, hitting the key combo that would activate my character's shields and taking my place at the front of the pack.

I watched my cooldowns closely, making sure to re-up my shields first chance I got. Pixies didn't make the best tanks, but of the three classes introduced in the new Heimdall Online expansion, the Valkyrie was the only one that had really piqued my interest, so there I was, my avatar giving her all as she bashed back at the massive ogre with her own diminutive sword. I couldn't take a hit as well as someone playing a Hill Giant or an elemental, but if I played right, I could leverage my speed and maneuverability to my advantage, keeping aggro on myself while actually tanking through as few connecting hits as possible.

It took us another eight minutes to finally take down the ogre, and I wasn't the only member of the party sweating their ass off as the victory music chimed and the loot shower played on screen, a fountain of blues, greens, and the occasional but much lusted-after gold or pink.

"All right folks, that's raid five for today, and I think that's all I've got in me."

"Yeah, me too," Ollie said, sounding just as tired. "We doing the next round of raids on Monday?"

"I... yeah, I guess," I said, seeing the enthusiasm in the chat and not having the heart to disappoint them. "I think I need something light to cool me down, though. Folks, say good night to Ollie, Marill, and TimSkittles, and why don't we hop over to, I dunno, some Bridge Too Fall?"

The chat seemed to be enthusiastic enough about that, as they generally were, and Bridge Too Fall was casual enough that it'd give me a chance to ease my heart rate down before the end of the stream and keep up a bit more chat engagement too.

"Let's call a ten-minute break while I get things set up. Grab a snack, grab a drink, and stretch a bit, and we'll be right back!"

I turned on the intermission screen and music, closed out of HE, and took a minute to just lean back and breathe.

"A'ight, Leigh. You got another hour on your schedule, then you're free."

I usually enjoyed my gaming streams, chatting with folks and getting in some time playing my favorite games, but with everything else going on it was one of those rare nights that it was really feeling more like a job than a passion.

Once again, I reminded myself that we just had to make it through the convention and things would calm down a bit. I normally streamed my own content every Saturday and Monday, but I'd already let my stream know I'd be absent the weekend and week after the convention. In fact, all of us were taking the week after off, planning re-runs of the convention sessions for that Wednesday and Friday night so we could all take what I felt was a much deserved vacation.

"Blargh," I said to myself and rolled my neck, then took another slug of water from the bottle Brian had brought me before launching Bridge Too Fall and getting my costume sorted.

One last breath and I dropped the intermission card and eased audio back over to my mic.

"All right, everybody, FireSprite here, and we're back, with a bit of Bridge Too Fall! Let's see, last time I was... oh yeah, I was tackling some of the time trial challenges. How about we continue those, and I can do a bit of chat Q and A while we're going along?"

I picked up my controller and leaned back.

"QuirkyOtter, thanks for the sub and congrats on two years as a Firestarter! Blaze360, welcome to the group too. First question: PleasantPixel asks..." I sighed. "How long have Brian and I been dating? Folks, we're still not dating. We're just roommates."

I hissed, almost missing a jump from a spinning log, but caught the next platform just in time.

"Elderbarry asks, 'what is this con people are chatting about?' Good question, Barry: most of the Wednesday Knights crew is going to be attending LSGC, that's, the Lone Star Gaming Convention, in Austin next month. We've been asked to do a couple special gaming sessions in front of a live audience, and we're all really excited for it! If you want more info, there should be a... yeah, just type hashtag LSGC in chat, and it will give you links to get tickets, but even if you can't make it, we'll be streaming the events on the Wednesday Knights channel the week after while we all take a break. And remember, folks, I won't be streaming here for that week either: all of us are taking a bit of a vacation."

I paused my commentary and grinned as I watched the support rolling in from folks excited for the convention.

"Ice-- damnit! Welp, gotta start this one over, folks. IcicleMoon asks...." I gave the camera a long look. "You and Brian are so cute together, and Lunea and Burg make such a great couple. I, thanks, I guess, but that's not a question? Seriously, folks, there's nothing between Brian and me."

As expected that got the normal smattering of clown and thinking emojis.

"Really. I'm gonna put a moratorium on questions about me and Brian, even donation-boosted ones. Ask me something else. Oh, here's a good one: ToadSux asks, 'Hey Sprite, don't you feel bad about promoting a convention in a state that's, I'm not gonna finish the question because of the language, but I will answer it. Yeah, we thought long and hard about whether we wanted to go, because we had the same reservations about things. If it makes you feel better, we've all agreed to donate the fees the convention offered to pay us to two separate organizations there in Austin, one for LGBT support and the other to help women get life-saving medical help they need, and we're gonna have a lot of our Rainbow Knights merch at the event too, with the profits from those going to the same charities."

I whooped and pumped my fist as I finished the next level. My time was hardly top of the leaderboards, but my friends list showed I'd beaten Aaron's time, so I could at least rub that in his face.

"Oh, hey, congrats WigglyWoo, on getting the gift sub; thanks for that Toad. Hope you stick around; the firestarters have fun, don't we folks? Let's see, here's, nope, not that again, how about, all right. TwoBucketLimit asks -- ooh, Weasel gets the new top donation spot for the month, nice! Thanks, Weasel! Aaah, yeah, TwoBucketLimit asked why I don't do stuff like hot tub streams or anything, since... why is this a promoted question? A couple answers here. One, hot tub streams are stupid. Two, I've not got anything worth showing off, I mean." I sat my controller down on the desk and stood up, turning around so the camera could get a good shot. "Hardly one of the Masters of the Universe, right?"

I rolled my eyes as the pancake stack emojis rolled in.

"Come on, I've... folks? I'm flat up top, I'm... why do I bother?"

I played another few challenge stages and finished up my hour, but kept the rest of my chat interaction to mostly inane responses.

"Thanks again for joining the stream folks, I'm gonna send y'all on a raid of Duckwalker's stream, she's doing some neat stuff in DinoFighter right now, so be sure to give her as much love as you give me! This is FireSprite, signing off!"

Ten minutes later I collapsed on the couch in our sitting room, a fresh bottle of water in my hand.

"Good stream?" Brian asked me, sparing me only a moment's glance before turning his attention back to the demon he was trying to turn into mincemeat on the TV.

"Same old, same old," I complained, slouching further down. "Hype for the convention, folks wanting to spend the entire stream talking about the last Knights session and last night's recap stream. Questions about you."

"They still think we're a couple?"

I huffed in answer.

"I've given up on reminding them I'm a guy. The new members don't buy it, and the older ones who should know better keep acting like it's a running joke or something."

"Your streamer tag is FireSprite and your channel icon is a fairy with flaming wings."

"It's not a fairy, it's a sprite! Like the name. And it's clearly a boy."

"It's wearing pasties and a bikini bottom."

"The pasties are only because he got flagged as pornographic without them."

Brian gave me a Look.

"Don't even--"

"Pizza for dinner?"

"...Fine."

"Cool, there's a couple frozen ones in the top of the fridge."

"I...you...."

I glared at Brian, but all I got was a mirth-filled smirk in response.

"Fine, but you'll have to come get your own when they're done."

"Some girlfriend you are."

"Pssht."

By the time the oven was pre-heated, and the pizzas were in, a lot of my head of steam had boiled off, so I once again settled down on the couch to watch Brian play some more, this time with a wine cooler in place of water.

"Hey, you didn't-- thanks," he said, taking the beer I'd brought him and toasting me with it before going back to his game, giving me my space.

I watched him play and just basked in the companionable calm.

It always baffled me how Brian took the constant rumors and speculation about our relationship in stride, but then again, Brian took most things in stride.

I'd been nervous about who my roomie would be when I'd first headed off to college, but it had taken all of five minutes for me to feel comfortable around him. Yes, he was tall and good-looking in a sort of angular way, and all these things I wasn't, but we'd bonded over the one passion almost every young adult in the world seemed to share anymore: video games. Before two hours had passed, we'd bunked our beds and turned half our dorm into as much of a gaming nest as we could manage, and for the rest of the year, we'd been *the* gaming hot-spot on our floor.

When it came time to prep for the next year, we made sure we were rooming together and did the same thing. Then we decided to share an off-campus apartment, giving me room to start streaming on my own. When graduation rolled around we had the group stream, and we were still getting along great, so when Brian asked if I wanted to get another apartment with him closer to his work I'd happily accepted.

Throughout all of it Brian had always been Brian. Cool-headed, easily amused, and just about the most likeable guy I'd ever met, while I'd been... me, the short boy with the big, angled eyes that always got me comments about being Asian even though, as far as I was aware my mom was French Creole and my dad was full-blooded Black Irish.

I blamed my eyes for why so many folks mistook me for a girl. I was a bit on the short side, but not THAT short, and yeah, I'd always been pretty skinny -- I tended to forget to eat if I didn't have someone around to remind me -- but I kept my hair short, usually in a fauxhawk style that was easy to manage, and the only time I wore makeup was for cosplay.

The ding told me it was time to pull the pizzas out, so I made one last check of Brian's game progress before getting up and heading that way; the hot grease and meat smells reminding me I hadn't eaten anything since the live chat stream recap the night before. Pizza then, too, funnily enough.

Pans up on the stovetop. Slice slice. I grabbed a plate from the cabinet and two slices of pie for myself, then after a short pause, grabbed another plate and two more slices, carefully balancing the dishes on one arm as I made my way back to the living room.

Brian looked up when I entered and, on seeing the two plates, gave me another grin. "I could kiss you, you know."

"Ugh, don't. That's the last thing the rumor mill needs."

"So you're sayin' to wait 'til next time we need to trend, then do it on camera."

"I'll kill you," I said, handing him his plate of pizza.

"Well, that'd probably get us trending too."

Okay, that got a laugh out of me and helped to calm the last of my post-stream jitters.

With my meal in hand, I curled back up on my corner of the couch and went back to watching Brian eat and play.

-==-

NOTES:

Chapter 3, on time! Around this time chapter 4 is going up on the Patreon as well, so if you liked this and wanna get ahead a bit, check it out! It's part of the free tier, so anyone can read it, and you might find a story or two that's new to you while you're over there!

All comments appreciated. :)

Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 4: Plans and Alterations

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Adventure
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 4 - Plans and Alterations

I basked in the feel of the icy air coming out of the vent over my head, grateful to whoever had arrived early and turned the temperature controls in the studio to something between "arctic circle" and "absolute zero," even as I dreaded seeing what it would do to the electric bill at the end of the month.

Streaming? Fun. Playing games with friends? Fun. Being self-employed? Stressful, but usually pretty cool. The costs *involved* with all those things? Gutwrenching.

Also, whoever decided that the majority of commercial buildings in the American South should be giant poorly-insulated metal boxes with piss-poor ventilation, insulation, and HVAC needed shot.

"A'ight, Leigh, out of the freezer and back to the rest of us," Sydney giggled, grabbing me and dragging me back toward the table.

"Do I hafta?"

"Yep! We gotta get these costumes sorted before the game, remember?"

"Yeah, yeah," I complained, but winked at Sydney so she'd know I was only joking.

I was half-excited for the costume discussion and half-not. Why only half? Well, that should be obvious. Me? Leigh. Man. My character? Lunea. Woman. My already questionable masculinity? Nowhere to be found in costume-land.

On the OTHER hand, there was something about cosplay I always enjoyed. Getting to transform yourself into someone else, seeing the awe on other peoples' faces when they see a character they know and love standing big as life in front of them, it was always a blast. And, who was I kidding, I was the one who chose to play a female character, so I kind of wrote my own death sentence there.

I took my seat at the table and looked around, taking stock. There was our usual spread of water bottles and low-crunch, stream-friendly snacks, as well as our various piles of books and paperwork. Most of that was for show since we did most of our actual character management on the Faelands app on our tablets, but they were still nice to have, especially for the homebrew information we needed for Maria's campaign. Instead of the mood music, we would have at game time, the overhead speakers were playing some soft jazz like they usually did whenever the studio was occupied but not filming.

Maria was at her seat, head of the table as was proper for a game master. She already had her books set out and a covered table behind her, likely with miniatures and maps for the game later. I flinched just thinking about the metal ruler she'd smacked me with the one and only time I'd ever tried to sneak a look underneath. I didn't see it around anywhere, but I'd seen her bust it out often enough to know it was always present lest someone get too handsy. Tonight there was another small table to the side with some sweet jasmine incense smoldering away in it, filling the room with the flowery fragrance and reminding me I needed to pick up some incense for at home.

Aaron sat around the corner of the table, to Maria's left and my right. He looked and smelled like he'd just stepped out of the shower and thrown on the first thing he could find, which he probably had: how the hell he could spend every afternoon playing basketball with kids at the youth center and still come in ready for three plus hours of tabletop I had no earthly idea, but then again, it was Aaron. Even with the stream's success, he seemed the most determined of all of us to put his degree to work, and I knew a lot of the income he made off Wednesday Knights went into trying to make life better for some of the worse-off kids he worked with.

On my left was Brian, of course, munching on his ritual pre-game taco. I could smell the double-dose of jalapenos from where I sat. At my disapproving grimace, he rolled his eyes and took some paper napkins out of the bag, laying them on the table and tucking one into the neck of his tee shirt. It seemed my complaints about sauce drips on materials and on his clothes on camera were finally hitting home. He then reached into the bag and pulled out a second taco and a handful of napkins and offered them to me. I tried to wave them off, only for him to shake his head and set them in front of me anyway with a pointed look.

At the end of the table, opposite Maria and where we'd normally have a tripod and camera, sat a figure that looked like a version of Maria that had heard of BoHo and adopted it as a religion. It was, of course, Carmen, "Aunt Cici," there to talk to us about costumes. She gave me one of her brilliant smiles, and I couldn't help but smile back: Maria and I had spent a lot of summers and weekends in high school at Carmen's studio, watching her work on historic recreations and other projects, and we'd always gotten along great.

Next seat down, across from Brian, sat Sydney. Bright eyes, her dark red hair pulled back in a scrunchie and her figure shown off by the yoga top and pants she'd worn in. Unlike Aaron, Sydney liked to get her exercise in right before stream, topping up with a couple of laps around the building "for the glow" whenever it was possible. It was a good look for her and seemed to contribute to her popularity with the male just-over-half of our viewership, as she was always more than ready to brag about. She was less glow-y than normal for the moment, likely to avoid a chewing out like she'd gotten last time we'd done a costume session, since Carmen hated sweaty fittings.

The next chair was empty. Jonah had always insisted on doing his own costumes, or more accurately costume, since the only thing he'd changed from our last campaign to this one was dropping the crappy-looking horns he wore as his demonkynd. Other than that, it was the same long black leather coat, the same fingerless gloves, the same black pants and combat boots, and a white poet's shirt he'd started wearing after we convinced him that, no, his character probably didn't own a Megadeth tee shirt. He'd inevitably walk in twenty minutes before the session, as per usual, now that he didn't have to set the cameras up or prep the streaming software.

Finally, in the last seat and to Maria's right, Deidre. Sketchbook in hand, looking down her nose through her glasses at what I was sure were page after page of sketches she'd been working on and sending back and forth with Carmen. She was always the most hands-on of us in terms of designing her own costumes, almost always with some neat touch from a culture the rest of us weren't familiar with. She'd shaved her head again, showing off the little sprig of flowers she'd had tattooed over her right temple, and whatever she was looking at it had her smiling.

I was just about to give in and reach for Brian's bait taco when Maria clapped her hands once. Like the trained puppets we all were, we went silent and turned to face her. Before we'd started streaming she'd always used that clap to signal the start of the session, and even now, it was an effective tool to get us in Serious Mode for meetings.

With all eyes on her, Maria tossed her dark curls and smiled. "All right! Looks like everyone's here," she said, giving Jonah's empty seat barely a glance. "Everyone said hi to Aunt Cici?"

Nods all around the table.

"Good. First thing on the agenda, Sydney, how're the socials looking?"

"Looking good, Boss," Sydney said, glancing down at her tablet and swiping a couple times before looking back up. "The kerfuffle at the end of last session caused a little stir, but I think me and Aaron got it calmed down during the live chat replay on Friday," she said, giving Aaron a big thumbs-up. The live-chat replay was the re-stream we'd do of Wednesday's game every Friday, with two of us and a special guest there to talk about their impressions of the game in real time. "There's a lot of excited chat about the upcoming con and the expected complaints about our plans to take the week after off, but for the most part, things are peachy keen."

"Glad to hear it!" Maria said happily. "And speaking of the con, ATG called me this morning and asked me if I thought everyone would be down for a bit of a publicity deal before hand. Anyone have big plans for the Thursday before con?"

"Nothing I can't re-organize."

"Not really?"

"A pick-up game, but I can be replaced."

Maria nodded. "That's great news, 'cause they're offering us a ride on the Golden Goose." Maria gave us all a moment to absorb that, before adding the kicker. "They want to give us the overnight experience on it, so we'll be heading down to Cypremort Point that morning for the launch at 10."

"Sweet!" Sydney crowed. "Riverboat gambling!"

Maria laughed. "Sure, but there's a catch. They're gonna send a film crew of their own with us, and they want us to do the whole tour in character."

That raised a few eyebrows.

"Umm, why?" Brian asked, sending a blast of jalapeno breath across the table.

"Apparently, they want to use it for some ad material on their site? I didn't ask a lot of questions, to be honest." She looked to the end of the table. "It might mean we need an extra set of cosplay outfits."

Carmen chuckled. "I can revive some of your older costumes. I'll figure it out once I update everyone's measurements. And I was already making a spare for Leigh, so we're good."

Pause.

"Why were you already making a spare for me?" I asked, feeling a chill run down my back as I gave Carmen a worried look.

All she did was grin back, which did nothing to set me at ease.

"Sounds good to me. I've already told 'em that Jonah probably wouldn't join us, but does everyone think they can make that?"

"Yeah."

"Sure thing."

"We'll be there."

"All right. Let's see... they also let me know the prep for the stage show is on schedule. I'm still nervous about not getting to play around with things before we get there, but they assured me it'll all work," Maria said, a bit less confidence in her tone than I was used to hearing. She had some big surprises planned for the live show, and I understood her worry one hundred percent.

"It'll be great, Boss. We'll make sure of it."

"And we'll look damn good doing it."

"You got this."

Maria nodded. "Thanks guys. I think that's it for what I needed to chat with folks about. Anything anyone else needs to bring up?" After the quick chorus of 'no's and head-shakes she nodded to the end of the table. "In that case, Aunt Cici?"

"Ay!" Cici said, standing up and clapping in much the same way Maria had to start the meeting. "Who's ready to get touched in all the bad places first?"

"Cici!"

"What?" Cici grinned and pulled out her measuring tape. "Brian, sweetie, you first. Come here."

We spent the next half an hour hanging out and chatting while Cici would occasionally pull one of us aside to measure and talk. As usual, she took care of Brian and Aaron first, both of their measurements and discussions going pretty quickly. Next was Sydney, who took a bit longer, but had a huge grin when she came back. Normally she would call me next and Deidre last, with the two of them spending the longest time discussing what she would do, so it surprised me when she called Deidre instead of me.

"Eat your taco and stop worrying," Brian said, nudging me gently with his elbow.

"I'm not worried," I sneered, but picked up the taco to give my hands something to do anyway, giving it a careful examination.

Brian huffed. "No jalapenos, ya baby. And extra cheese sauce. You'd know that if you'd been listening when I ordered."

"Nice," I agreed, taking a happy bite. "I was distracted."

"You were rubbing your legs together like you needed to pee," he said, chuckling.

"Like I said, distracted," I countered, blushing.

"I'm tellin' ya, you might as well just keep 'em shaved. You know she's gonna want you to every time we do one of these things."

"Yeah, well... shut up," I said, taking another bite of my taco to ensure I did the same.

I was just shoveling the last bite of taco in when Deidre trotted over.

"Your turn, shortie."

I made sure my hands were clear of any taco gunk, then headed to the back corner myself, where the grinning Carmen awaited me.

"Ah, mijo, I see you remembered this time," she said, giving my legs a once-over then pulling me in for a hug. "And your hair! I wish you wouldn't hurt it so," she frowned, tsk-ing as she looked at the close-cropped sides of my head. "It's so pretty when you let it grow out."

"Yeah, well," I started, but couldn't think of anything to say. I was pretty sure that if I ever gave in and grew my hair out like Carmen wanted she wouldn't let me stop 'til it reached my ass. "So what torture do you have for me this time?"

Carmen gave me a puzzled look. "Torture? I make you beautiful, and you call it torture? Pfft." She turned her back on me and began digging through a bag she'd brought. "Just for that, you get to put this on without me explaining it first."

"Put what-- what the hell is that, Aunt Cici."

"Nope!" She said, shaking her head as she pressed the bundle of folded cream-colored material into my hands. "Go put it on like a good girl so I can see."

"But—"

"Nah ah! Go!" She said, swatting my butt and pointing toward the restrooms.

I gulped but headed off. Maria's ruler didn't scare me half as badly as an angry Aunt Cici. I'd been 'accidentally' stabbed by one too many pins during a fitting to not have a healthy fear of the woman.

I didn't unwrap the bundle until I was secured away in the little bathroom at the back of the studio. When I did, I was left even more confused. I was used to Carmen handing me weird clothing items to wear as part of my costumes, things like tight shorts with hip pads in them, but this was... a fat suit? It looked like a women's one-piece half my size, with snaps in the crotch and… was that the front or the back? There was a large, rounded area of padding sewn into one side, and...

Oh no.

I glanced at the door, but remembering pins past, I winced.

With a sigh I stripped off my shorts and tee and studied the item. I'd expected some kind of something from Carmen, so wore what she called "appropriate" underwear, some men's bikinis, just to be on the safe side. After some consideration, I went ahead and snapped up the crotch and stepped into the legs of the too-small suit, double-checking one last time I had it the right way around before pulling it up.

"Oof."

I tried again. This time I got the garment up and around my thighs. Another tug, and it was up on my hips, and I could finally pull the straps up and over my arms.

A look in the mirror confirmed what I'd feared, but I took the time to smooth things out and push them around a bit before I let myself really bask in the horror.

The garment was tight, very much so, and nipped my sides in nicely, with the fit of the lower part keeping me flat in front but lifting my butt in back, with some of my nipped waist seemingly pushed down to fill out my cheeks in a way I was sure they didn't normally look. The back of the garment came up to just under my shoulder blades, splitting into wide straps that came over my shoulders and, rather than joining together like a tank top over my chest, then wrapped down and to the sides, then up and under, with a small bit of wire reinforcing the scalloped shape at the top. Knowing what Carmen would expect, I did a little more kanoodling with my flesh, and yep: the shapes pushed up by the compression of the rest of the garment and the formed wire across my ribs gave the impression of breasts.

It was what lay underneath the breasts that made me gulp in fear.

I should have known.

While my stomach and sides were compressed, my figure was filled out in a long, smooth curve of padding from just below the wire at my ribs down to my crotch. The padding curved out a bit at my hips, and turning sideways, the overall result was undeniable.

There, standing in the mirror, was a very pregnant looking Me. And judging by the color of my face, the morning sickness was about to strike yet again.

-==-

NOTES:

Chapter 4! Chapter 5 is also now available over on the Patreon for folks who don't want to wait!

As always, comments and likes are appreciated.

Melanie E.

Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 5: Proud Mama

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Body Suits
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 5 - Proud Mama

"No way in hell!"

"But mija, you look so cute! Oh, wait," Carmen said, reaching back into the same bag that had held the torture device I already wore and pulling out another, smaller bundle of cloth. "Go put this on too."

I took the object she handed to me, then groaned. "Aunt Cici!"

"Now now," she said, stepping forward and wrapping me in a hug. "Trust me, okay?"

"But..." I looked at the bra in my hand. "Ugh."

I didn't say another word as I returned to the restroom, stripped my tee off again, and put the bra on over everything else, already feeling the heat of the multiple layers building. The bra was lightly padded, and combined with the re-arranging done by the pregnancy suit made for a very noticeable amount of boobage, especially on my slight frame. I frowned, but slipped my tee shirt back on and stepped out the door.

"Ah, much better. You make a beautiful mama."

"I'm gonna have the worst swamp ass imagineable with all this stuff on," I complained, doing my best to sound as non-"mama" as possible. "And I can already feel this thing pressing on my bladder. I'm gonna be up every twenty minutes having to pee."

Carmen chuckled. "Welcome to motherhood, mija. It's all part of the package."

"Maria!" I called out across the table to my long-time friend. "Tell your crazy aunt I can't wear this to the con!"

"Why?" Maria asked, grinning back.

"What?!"

Sydney came up and hugged me, raising my temp even more. "Come on, Leigh. Even in your street clothes you look cute! I'm sure Carmen's got some fantastic costumes to go with this, right?"

"Oh, yes! Fantasy maternity wear is a bit of an unexplored field, you know," Carmen said, her eyes shining with excitement. "I've got all these ideas, far too many to fit in for the convention."

"Brian?" I asked, once again looking for support. Instead, I found my roommate giving me an odd look.

"Hmm?"

I sighed. "Brian, tell them how stupid this is."

It seemed to take a moment for his eyes to focus, shifting from my faux pregnancy to my face. "Uh, I actually think it's a good idea."

I'm sure if I'd had any scrap of psychic or magical power in real life the look I gave him would have set him ablaze, but instead it just seemed to make him chuckle.

"Now, Leigh," Carmen said, stepping forward and taking my arm. "Come here and let me get some measurements, would you? I think I know what the results will be already, but always double check, yes?"

"Rgh. Fine. Then I can take all this off, right?"

"Ehhhhh..."

"Cici...."

Cici gave me an apologetic look even as she started taking my measurements. "It needs some, ah, stress testing. I would at least like you to wear it for the game tonight."

"For the game!"

"Well, yes. It's--"

Cici's explanation was cut off by the sound of the studio's front door slamming open. If that weren't enough of a clue, the loud "What the fuck!" as he saw me standing there, be-boobed and be-babied, signalled Jonah's arrival.

"Oh, good, you made it," Maria said brightly. "Carmen's just finishing some measurements, and--"

"The fuck is he wearing?"

"Young man, language!"

Jonah ignored Carmen as he walked up and poked me in the belly.

"Hey!" I recoiled, instinctively wrapping my arms over my new bump protectively.

Jonah laughed cruelly as he looked around the group. "What, acting like a slut in game wasn't enough, you needed to take it to the next level?"

"Jonah!"

Jonah turned to me again, a much darker look in his eyes.

Was he going to?

"Hey."

I watched as two hands landed on his shoulders, Brian appearing on one side and Aaron on the other.

"Hey, man, back off. It's for the cosplay stuff," Aaron said, giving me a concerned look. "You okay Leigh?"

I continued to guard my belly as I backed up, Carmen and Sydney rushing to my sides. Deidre and Maria were in my peripheral vision, talking to some of the film crew who had arrived and watching us warily.

"Leigh?" Aaron asked again, and I saw his fingers tighten on Jonah's shoulder.

"Yeah. I'm fine," I finally said, my voice cracking a bit. "We're fine. Right?" I asked, looking pointedly into Jonah's eyes, still smoldering with anger... but at what?

He closed his eyes and shook his head. "Yeah, sure. Fine." He seemed to shrink in on himself a bit, and Aaron and Brian backed up, giving him some space. "I'm gonna go catch a last smoke," he said, turning his back on me and walking back toward the door.

I watched him until he was out the door, only for my vision to then be filled by a tall masculine form. I looked up, into Brian's concerned eyes. "Brian?"

I wasn't expecting the hug, but felt some of the tension drain out of me as he pulled me in.

"He didn't hurt you, did he?"

"I... no, just poked me."

"Good."

Brian held me for a moment longer, perhaps a moment too long, then let go and backed away, shuffling awkwardly. "I'm--"

"I need to get the last few measurements," Carmen said, cutting him off.

"Ah, yeah. Right." Brian gave me one last Look then headed back to his seat, joining the rest of our group who all looked just as nervous.

Carmen pulled me aside and gave me a follow-up hug of her own. "Oh, mija, I'm so sorry. I'll get my measurements and you can change back, and--"

"No."

Carmen paused. "No?"

I shook my head, feeling an entirely different heat rise in me than earlier. "You want a stress test? You got one. As long as it takes."

"I... okay," Carmen said, smiling and sqeezing my shoulder. "I'm proud of you."

I smiled back.

The whole situation was out of control, and no, I didn't want to wear any of this stuff.

But I'd be damned if I'd let Jonah intimidate me.

I rubbed my belly where he'd poked me, and thought, and plotted. I was well padded, sure, but he'd poked me hard enough I had a sore spot underneath everything. Who does that?

He wanted to be pissed at me for Lunea being pregnant? That was fine. I'd give him something to be pissed over.

-==-

NOTES:

A bit shorter chapter this time, but if you're looking for more to read, then don't forget to hop over to the BCTS Patreon, where Chapter 6 is already available, free to read for anyone who stops by!

Spoilers: chapter 6 contains stuffies.

Whether you hop over to check out chapter 6 or not, feel free to leave comments and likes! I always appreciate them, and have been trying to be better about responding too.

Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 6: Baby Games

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Body Suits
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Pregnant / Having a Baby
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 6 -- Baby Games

"They have a what?!" Jonah asked, seeming on the verge of a fit.

"A baby store," Maria said calmly, trying -- and almost successfully -- to keep the evil glee from showing on her face. "Right next to the magic shop."

"Excellent!" I crowed, bouncing happily in my seat. "I want to go in and take a look around."

I watched the purple tone rising in Jonah's face, and, just for a moment, worried I was pushing things too far.

Only for a moment, though.

Jonah's smoke break had given me just enough time to chat with Maria, and with her permission, I had enacted a plan. Well, okay, not much of a plan, per se, but more an act of vengeance.

It had started even before the game began, with me mimicking more morning sickness as soon as we heard Jonah re-enter the building, and from that moment, I had stayed in character as much as possible, but with a twist. I'd done my best in the past to show Lunea handling her pregnancy, even show her being both apprehensive and excited for her coming child, but I'd never been terribly enthused about it myself. It was a good roleplay exercise, and a fun character arc, but nothing more.

Not so anymore.

I'm not normally a particularly vindictive person. I'd let a lot of bullying slide over the years, and even on my streams, I tended to let people go further with jokes than I should, so long as they were at my expense. Hell, I'd been letting them have their fun with the running joke that I was really a girl for years.

But this was different. It was anger at me, but it also wasn't. There was anger at my baby. Yeah, the baby wasn't real, but that still rubbed me the wrong way. Who blames a baby? Who *hates* a baby? Who pokes even a fake baby bump as hard as they can?

Someone who deserves twenty minutes of me roleplaying a shopping trip through fantasy OshKosh B'gosh, that's who.

"Ah! Look at this!" I squealed, pretending to hold up a small piece of clothing -- maybe a onesie or a gown -- for Sunny to check out. "Isn't that cute?"

"It sure is! Not as cute as this, though!" She held up her hands like there was a small box in them. "Baby's first battleaxe!"

I dropped my own fake prop and frowned. "My baby isn't going to be a barbarian, Sunny."

Sunny cocked her head and frowned. "Why not? Barbarians are great!"

"I mean, sure," I said, with all the false sincerity I could muster. "But she -- or he -- is going to be royalty. They need to be refined. Genteel."

"Potty trained," Dahlia added, convincingly faking sifting through a pile of goods of her own.

"Hey!" Sunny gave Dahlia a hurt glare, then turned it on me. "I'm totally refined and genteel and all that."

"Sunny, last time a barmaid brought you the wrong drink, you threatened to behead her."

"See? Exactly like royalty."

"That's...." I rubbed the bridge of my nose. "No, Sunny. No battleaxes."

"Ugh. Fine." She rolled her eyes. "Next thing you'll be telling me is you won't let them have the traditional feral wolf pup to grow up with."

"No!"

"Umm..."

"*NO,*" I re-iterated, giving Burg a pointed look. "No wolf pups. No battleaxes." I said, picking up the outfit I'd dropped and shaking it at them. "Cute and refined. Like me."

"So, a spoilt, obnoxious little snot," Sunny sneered, not looking at me.

"Point," Dahlia once again added, still not giving us so much as a glance.

"I'm not obnoxious," I pouted, then turned to Maria. "Am I obnoxious?"

"No comment," she said without missing a beat. "Is there anything, in particular, you're looking for while you're here?"

I thought for a moment. "Not really. It's still a few months before I'm due, and I don't want us to have to carry around a lot of things we don't need right now."

"Then what was the point of all this?" Jonah asked. leaning back with his eyes closed.

"Because it's fun?"

"It's SO much fun!"

"Laugh a minute."

"AGH!"

"I think this is as good a time as any for a break," Maria said, no longer even trying to hide her amused smile as she turned to the camera at the end of the table. "We'll be back in about twenty minutes folks. In the meantime, we've got some excellent fan art for you to check out, and a few sponsors who we're sure would love your consideration. See you back here then!"

I waited for the lighting change that would signal we were officially in break mode, then breathed a heavy sigh. "Ugh. Gotta pee, gotta pee."

"Again? Sure you aren't really pregnant?" Brian asked, grinning as I stood and groaned.

"Ha. It's the baby belly; it presses down on stuff."

"I'm sure it does," he said, patting my belly gently when I moved past him. Sydney saw and gave me a funny look that I ignored as I made my way as quickly as possible toward the restroom, worried I'd already waited too long. The only person in more of a hurry to get out of the room than me was Jonah, who was already out the door by the time I made it to the bathroom.

Brian wasn't wrong. I'd had to slip away from the table halfway through the two hours we'd already played and was carefully considering my fluid intake for the rest of the night, and what chaos this would spell for our live show if I wasn't careful.

Okay, so maybe there'd been a point to Carmen wanting a test run on everything.

Speaking of Carmen, she was waiting for me when I stepped back out into the main studio.

"So? How is the bodysuit holding up?" She asked me, clasping her hands nervously.

"Good, I guess," I told her honestly. "I thought it'd make me sweaty, but it's not been as bad as I expected."

She nodded. "Bien. It should breathe well. I tried to make it so that you could wear it for long periods without it becoming too uncomfortable."

"The wire at the top digs a bit, though," I told her, checking around to make sure nobody else was watching to reach up and adjust said wire a bit.

"Hah! Yes, well, some sacrifices for beauty. And it helps your breasts look much better."

"I don't have..." I stopped myself. "It's all just padding and trickery."

"When isn't it?" Carmen asked me in a conspiratorial tone.

"True?" I ventured, which seemed to be the right answer since it got me a hug.

"Oh, you make a beautiful mama. Maybe..." she began, then caught herself and shook her head. "I'm sorry. Go back to your game, and we will talk after."

I smiled at her, then made my way back toward the table, checking in with a couple of our techs on the way to make sure everything was going well. With their assurances, I settled back into my seat and grinned at Maria.

"So, think he's had enough?" I asked her.

Maria twisted up her face in thought for a moment, then nodded. "Probably. It's all fun and games to wind him up, but we don't want him actually doing anything to hurt the game."

"Or Leigh," Brian added, resting a hand on my shoulder.

"That too," Maria agreed. "So, when he comes back, let's move on with the story. It's gonna be tight, but I can get us to where we need to be for what I've got planned at the con."

"Sounds good to me," I said, only a little disappointed. I'd been having fun with the sillier elements of the roleplay, but ultimately our goal was to tell a story, and I was ready to play my part.

Carmen let us know she was going to grab something to eat, and as she was heading out the door, Jonah came in. The smoke break seemed to have done him some good, with his color closer to normal, and he didn't even glare at me as he passed by my seat on the way around to his.

"All right, everyone back in their spots? Prepare to go live again in five... four... three...."

-==-

"So you will take the request then?"

I looked around at my fellow party members nervously.

What the duke was asking of us would be a huge challenge. On the other hand, it would also assure his alliance in the war I feared would break out on my quest to overthrow my uncle, and every ally we could make was a blessing.

I looked to Sunny, who gave me a vigorous thumbs up. She was always down for a challenge if it meant showing off her combat skills.

Adrian, in his shining armor, gave me a small nod and an even smaller smile. As a Paladin it was his duty to follow the word of law, and he likely would have insisted we follow the request regardless simply due to his oath to serve, but I knew that when it came down to it he was looking forward to the coming challenge just as much as Sunny.

John was too busy eying the silver decorations around the room to notice me, which was fine. I still didn't trust his intents, but he had helped us out of pinches in the past, and I was sure the gold offered was enough to buy his loyalty to a point.

Dahlia gave me one of her patented unreadable smiles, the same ones I had seen so often growing up whenever there was a big decision to be made and she was trusting me to make the right call. There was nothing I dreaded more than the day her trust in me might prove unfounded.

Lastly, Burg. He had trimmed his beard and hair for the meeting with the duke, and I couldn't help but muse that he would make a fine lord, should we survive our quest and defeat my uncle.

I took one last nervous breath, then turned back to the duke.

"Milord, we accept your request."

The duke smiled down at me, relief clear on his face. "I do thank thee, lady. This trade route is vital to my city's survival. Whether through war or through wiles, I care not, but seeing the fire giants gone will relieve me of a great deal of stress."

With our work decided, we headed back out, the Duke's messenger who had tracked us down in town showing us the way.

"Are there any other preparations we need to make before we set out?" I asked my companions.

"None I can think of."

"Nah, the sooner we get there, the sooner I get to bash some giant skulls in."

"I believe we have everything we need. Do we want to rest here overnight and head out tomorrow?" Adrian asked, looking to the darkening skies above us.

Out of character, I gave Maria a significant look, and she simply shrugged.

"I think that would be wise, too. All agreed?"

At the chorus of ayes, we made our way to the inn we had located earlier in the day.

The innkeeper was more than happy to have us, and after the exchange of what felt like a silly amount of gold we made our way to our rooms: Adrian and John, Sunny and Dahlia, and lastly... me and Burg.

"Are you sure?" He asked me, amused at my choice of roommates.

I blushed. "I... we are with child. Are we not?"

"We are," he agreed.

"Well, then it's to be expected."

"It is," he said, with that same amused smile.

The rooms were simple, but comfortable. Nothing to match the luxury of my life before exile from the palace, but far from the worst accommodations I had experienced in my time adventuring. I was about to get ready for bed, when Burg's hand caught my elbow.

"Yes?" I asked, looking up into his eyes, deep and sapphire blue.

"I have a gift."

"For me?"

He chuckled. "Not exactly," he said, before pulling a small cloth bag from behind his back. "But you should be the one to open it."

"Hmm." I took the bag curiously and undid the soft gold tassel holding it closed. I reached in and withdrew a soft, furry lump. I gave it a close look and laughed.

"You may deny my child many things, but you will not deny them a wolf companion," Burg said, reaching out to toy with one of the small, stuffed figure's floppy ears.

"I suppose not," I said, looking up again just in time for the kiss that I had fully expected would come.

"Are you two really gonna kiss this time?"

"Wha?" I jumped a bit, startled by Sydney's voice pulling me out of the game-space, only to realize just how close me and Brian really were. "Ah, no."

"Damnit!"

"Hey!"

Brian, too, seemed to be shaking a haze out of his head as he sat back in his chair, leaning away from me.

"Welp, on that very sweet note, I think we'll call it here, folks!" Maria said, smiling more broadly than I had seen her do at the end of any session in a while.

"Remember, everyone, that next week the Wednesday Knights won't be going live on Wednesday. That doesn't mean we don't have some great content for you, though! The tech crew are going to run a special one-shot for you guys that evening, and of course, you'll be able to catch us live both Saturday and Sunday when we livestream our live audience sessions at LSGC! And be sure to tune in Friday for the live chat recap of tonight's game. Our costume designer Carmen will be there as a special guest!"

The closing music began, and the lights began to fade, and I found myself idly fiddling with the very real plushie that was sitting in my arms as we sat through the fade out on the stream. It looked back at me with its big, shining eyes, the same color as Burg's.

The same color as Brian's.

As the lights came up, I once again found myself looking at Brian, who was Looking at me.

"I was wondering what was in that bag," I said, feeling oddly shy.

Brian chuckled, folding the little gift bag in his hands. "I texted Carmen to see if she'd mind picking it up. I remembered seeing them a while back, and after the session at the baby store, I thought it'd be fun. Canon-wise, Burg picked it up when he snuck off to get a trim."

It was certainly a cute thing, and I was finding it embarrassingly hard not to hug the toy as I held it.

Jeezus, maybe I am a girl.

"This isn't a wolf, though," I pointed out, wanting to distract myself as much as anything else. "It's a husky."

"Close enough for roleplay, right?"

"Yeah."

"Hey, you two, wanna get a move on so we can close up?" Maria asked me, her gaze moving between me and Brian with a look that I really didn't want to try and figure out right then.

"Ah, yeah," I said, starting to stand up only to realize... "Oh crap! Where's Carmen?"

"She's riding back to my place with me. She's waiting over there," Maria said, pointing to the corner of the room, where sure enough, Carmen was waiting, seemingly trying to stay out of the way of the crew as they packed things up.

I made my way over to her, and once again got a warm hug. "Mija, it's always so fun to watch you and Maria play your games." She looked down at the stuffie still in my arms and gave me an enigmatic smile. "It was a sweet gesture, was it not?"

"Yeah."

She looked over my shoulder, and following her line of sight, I saw Brian collecting our things.

"He's a good man."

"Yeah," I said again, in a softer tone.

"A-anyway," I said, shaking my head and turning back to her. "If you'll hold this, I'll go change." I offered her the stuffed pup, but she didn't take it.

"Nah ah!" Carmen shook her finger at me. "You said you'd wear them as long as I needed you to."

Oh shit.

Seeing my expression, she nodded. "I know it's going to be tough, but if you can, I would like for you to wear the bodysuit for at least the next couple of days. I need to know for certain it will not be a problem at the convention, and this will be a good test for it."

"Couple of days?!"

Carmen waved her hands to calm me down. "Now, now. I will be here again Friday for the... commentary thing? Come by then, and we can sort you out. Until then, I would appreciate you only taking it off to shower."

"And sleep," I added, only to get another long look. "No?"

"I can't make you do this," Carmen said, then shrugged.

"I--"

"Hey, ready to go?" Brian asked, walking up behind me, our things gathered in his arms. "I was thinking subs on the way home, sound good?"

"Ah, sure?" I said, glancing between him and Carmen, and seeing their two smiling faces, both asking me similar questions.

I let out a sigh and hugged my stuffed pup.

It seemed for the moment I'd be eating for two.

-==-

NOTES:

The usual, folks. If you don't wanna wait another week to see what happens next, then Chapter 7 is live on the Patreon!

https://www.patreon.com/posts/wednesday-7-by-e-80089761

It's free to read for anyone and everyone, so check it out! But fair warning: Patreon is once a week too, so don't blame ME if you still gotta wait!

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 7: Chocolate Chips

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Fancy Dress / Prom / Evening Gown
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 7 -- Chocolate Chips

The sound of my phone dinging with a message is what jolted me awake, but it was the smell wafting into my room from the kitchen that kept me there.

Good thing, too. The dream was already fading from my mind, but it had involved Lunea, Burg, and rather acrobatic activities I didn't want to contemplate in my waking state. I found my hands idly moving to cradle my baby at the thought and pulled them violently back to my sides. One of them landed on something unexpected and furry and lifting it up to get a blurry look I recognized it as the stuffed puppy Brian had given me the night before.

I stared at it.

It stared back with its glittering eyes and innocent, adorable doggy smile.

I sat it on my pillow and gave its head a small pat. Not like I could blame my dreams on an inoffensive piece of fluff.

"Urgh," I grumbled as I sat up and searched my end table with bleary eyes and clumsy fingers, looking for my phone. I found my glasses first, and slipped them on, rendering my eyesight problems solved and shortly thereafter found the phone, which had vibrated its way to the floor. A few swipes later and I had the message pulled up:

Carmen: Heya, sweetie! Just a reminder to wear panties under the body suit.

I rolled my eyes. "They're men's bikinis," I said to nobody in particular. They were the closest concession I'd been willing to make to Carmen's wish that I wear "appropriate" underwear with her costumes, but she made a point of referring to them as panties every chance she got.

NP, I texted back before dropping the phone back on the end table and deciding to investigate the mouth-watering aroma drifting into my room. Costume concerns could wait: Brian's pancakes absolutely could not.

I was padding my way toward our kitchenette when Brian turned around; what seemed to be the last batch of pancakes making their way to the platter, already piled high with buttermilk goodness. He gave me a huge, sappy grin and held up a finger, then turned back to the griddle, shutting things down and stacking his dirty dishes while I settled onto one of the stools at the island and eyed the pile hungrily.

Getting a better look at the platter close-up, I had to swallow before I drooled all over myself. "Ohmigod, chocolate chip?" I pumped a fist in the air. "I didn't know we had any in the house!"

"We wouldn't have had any if I'd let you know we did," Brian said, returning to the island with dishes, butter, and syrup.

I frowned. "I eat one bag of chips, and I get branded untrustworthy for life."

"Two bags."

I shook my head. "That other one was peanut butter chips and doesn't count," I said, taking the plate and fork he offered me and spearing a couple cakes from the platter. "'Sides, I'd told you to buy the large bag."

"That was the largest bag the store had."

"Then it's the store's fault for not selling big enough bags." I added a pad of butter between my cakes and started sliding the top one around on top of the bottom one, spreading the butter with it, then poured a healthy dollop of the syrup on top.

Brian watched me fix my cakes, then took three for himself, going heavier on the butter and syrup than I had.

I took a bite and felt my eyes flutter as the chocolate and syrup hit my system. Brian slid a glass of milk across to me, and all I could do is give him an appreciative and thankfully closed-mouthed grin.

That was it for conversation until the pancakes were almost gone.

"Only four?" Brian asked, chuckling as he put the extras in a freezer bag. "You usually eat at least six."

"Stupid bodysuit," I groaned, leaning back as much as I dared on the stool and stretching.

"If it's that tight, probably best you don't try to eat more anyway. Might all go to your boobs."

"I don't have boobs!" I huffed, crossing my arms across my currently unpadded but still wire-enhanced chest.

"You ain't flat," Brian countered, still putting away the breakfast fixings and loading the dishwasher. "Even without the help."

"That's pecs," I argued, for some reason wishing I'd put the bra on instead of just wearing the jersey I normally slept in.

"Pecs don't jiggle when you jump."

"I don't have boobs," I said again, more forcefully than I'd intended, and almost fell off my seat. "And I need to pee," I said, climbing down from the stool and turning my back to him. I did my best to ignore his chuckling as I stomped off toward the bathroom.

"Stupid Brian," I grumped as I undid the snaps on the bodysuit. "Stupid bodysuit," I grumped, as I slid my underwear down and dropped on the seat. "Stupid... pecs," I grumped, as I poked one of said pecs as I sat.

It was hard to tell through the baggy jersey, but perhaps it did have a little jiggle to it.

"I do not have boobs," I said again, crossing my arms to ensure no more jiggling would occur.

I'd had the same argument with Maria back when we were in high school. I'd always been pretty skinny, but never really bony. Instead, I'd always just kinda been a little soft. Yes, that included my chest.

But I didn't have boobs, and Maria had even agreed when I'd finally consented to let her and Carmen measure me. They'd consented that I'd barely qualify for an A cup, if that, and it was just puppy fat.

I looked up from where I was sitting on the commode to the bra I'd given a quick hand-wash the night before and tossed over the shower rail. Finishing my business, I washed my hands and checked to see if it was dry. Since it was, I pulled off my jersey -- fighting not to lose my glasses in the process -- and slipped the bra on over my head, taking a few moments to adjust things for comfort.

Looking in the mirror, I couldn't help but frown. "Now I have boobs," I conceded, reaching up and gently poking one again. The bra did its job: the support minimized the jiggle, and the padding minimized the impact. I rolled my eyes and slipped my jersey back on before heading back out to the kitchen.

"Better now?" Brian asked, putting the griddle on the counter to dry. The rest of the dishes were already chugging along in the dishwasher.

"Yeah. Sorry."

"Well, make it up to me by paying for lunch today while we're out."

"Okay. Wait. Why are we going out?"

Brian pointed at the trash. "That was the last of the buttermilk, and the chocolate chips, and we need to pick up a few other things too."

I felt woozy for a second as the implications of going out hit me. "Can't you go on your own?"

"You don't want to?"

"I can't!" I squeaked. "Not like this!" I waved down at myself.

"Don't bother me," he said, smiling. "And you could just take it off."

"I..." I stopped. "I can't."

"Why not?"

I sighed. "I told Carmen I'd wear it all day today," I said, resting a hand on my bump.

"Sure," Brian said slowly, giving me a long look. "But I doubt she meant you should embarrass yourself in public. If you don't think you can wear it out, I'm sure she'd understand."

"Maybe, but." I looked down and away. "The convention's next weekend, and I'm not used to it?"

"Well," Brian started to speak, then stopped himself. "All right, I want you to go shopping with me today, so maybe if you just wear something loose, nobody will notice."

"Y'think?" I asked, looking down at myself. I didn't see how I could hide it.

"Yeah. Just throw on a baggy hoodie or something, or... wait here," Brian said, dashing out of the kitchenette and down the short hall to his room. A few seconds later, he returned and handed me a pile of cloth. "Problem solved."

I unfolded the bundle and looked at... "One of your shirts?"

"Sure," Brian said, shrugging. "You tend to wear your clothes a bit tight, so you're right, I don't think you've got a hoodie loose enough that the baby wouldn't show. So."

I looked at the shirt, then at Brian. Then back at the shirt. Then back at Brian.

Brian grinned at me, seeming as proud as if he'd just solved world hunger.

"You realize how ridiculous I'll look walking around in one of your tents for a shirt?"

"Just try it on."

"...Fine."

Once again, I found myself storming off, this time back to my room, apparently to get dressed to go grocery shopping.

I tossed Brian's shirt on the bed and frowned at it. It was a long-sleeved button-down, blue-on-white plaid. It would be a last resort.

I walked over to my closet and began digging through what was on the rail and what was in the drawers beneath, grabbing a few options and tossing them on the bed next to Brian's last resort shirt, then got to work getting dressed.

The problems started with pants. My baby bump pushed the front of any pants I tried on out and down, which would pull the back up and tight, turning every pair of what were already mostly skinny jeans into ass-huggers. Shorts fared a bit better, but being currently hairless, my legs stood out like crazy, at least to me. So, tight-ass jeans it was.

Delving into shirts, I immediately ran into similar problems. I wouldn't call my wardrobe 'tight' per se, but in context, nothing I owned did anything to hide either the baby or my enhanced boobage.

I looked at the third hoodie in a row and felt deflated. It would have been too hot for a Louisiana August anyway, but even without that, it made me look, well, pregnant.

"I should just take the suit off," I told myself as I stripped the hoodie off. "Why not?"

That really was the important question. Why not?

I flopped back on the bed, in between piles of rejected clothes, and thought about it.

In the pros column of removing the bodysuit was, of course, the simple fact that I wouldn't be wearing the bodysuit. I wasn't sure exactly what Carmen had made it out of, probably some form of silicone, but it was heavy, and warm, and pressed on me in weird ways. If I took it off, I'd avoid all those things, and be able to wear anything I wanted.

Less self-consciousness. Less chance of public embarrassment. Less questions.

In the negatives? If I got used to wearing it now, it really would be easier to handle when the convention came around. Plus, I had promised Carmen I'd wear it. That might not seem like a lot, but I took promises very seriously and hated breaking them without a good reason.

Was public reception a good enough reason?

I'd lived in Bayonet for almost eight years. I'd gone to college here, built a life here after college, made friends here. It wasn't the biggest place in the world, but it wasn't tiny either, and the likelihood we'd run into someone I knew was relatively high.

Then again, a lot of folks assumed I was a woman anyway. Hell, I had college professors who were still calling me Miss when I graduated, and last time I'd seen our apartment's super, he'd done the same. A few folks might bat an eye, but even for the folks who knew me by name, how many of them would care?

Of the ones who might ask or say something, how many of them would find it any weirder if I was doing this as a guy or a girl?

Then, there was the other, much weirder part to consider...

Did I *want* to take it off?

There was the immediate mental Yes, for all the reasons mentioned above. But there was another part of me that disagreed.

As part of my research into what Lunea would go through with her pregnancy and motherhood, I'd read a lot of articles about daily life as a pregnant woman. The feet swelling, the challenges of handling the growing child. But I'd also read about so many good things, too: the sense of fulfillment, the feeling of contentment and love that came from knowing your baby was there.

Once again, I found myself gently cradling my baby bump, but this time I didn't jerk my hands away.

I felt like I'd gotten a bit of that in my normal roleplay sessions as Lunea. I'd certainly tried. But last night, there had been something different. As silly as it may sound, actually carrying around the weight of my baby, feeling the pressure, having that physical presence -- artificial as it may be -- had made everything more intense.

I didn't like the bodysuit... but I liked the feeling of being a mom-to-be. That was terrifying in and of itself, but again, there was a part of me that didn't want to give it up just yet.

*Sigh.*

I sat up and reached for Brian's shirt. I'd agreed to at least try it on, so that's exactly what I was going to do.

I felt like I was donning a poncho as I slid my arms into the sleeves, then bunched the sleeves up as much as I could so my hands were clear to do up the buttons on the front of the shirt, all but the top two. With the shirt buttoned, I rolled the sleeves up, one, two, three times, 'til they fell just past my elbows, with enough material in the cuff I was afraid if I rolled them up any more I'd look like I was wearing floaties.

I tugged the shirt this way and that a bit, swimming in it, then looked in the mirror again.

And laughed.

The wide collar of the shirt left a lot of neck and chest on display, and a quick bend showed me a generous view down into my wire and padding-enhanced cleavage. It did, in fact, hide my baby bump, but mostly by virtue of being so big and loose that it made me look like a twelve-year-old wearing their dad's clothes.

Or, I guess more accurately, with the bedhead I still sported, a girlfriend wearing her boyfriend's.

I stopped laughing as I considered that.

Here I was, standing in the apartment I shared with Brian, wearing his clothes, after having eaten a breakfast he'd fixed for me. As far as most people were concerned, that was probably three-quarters of the way to qualifying for the morning-after girlfriend role.

Still looking at myself in the mirror, I played with my hair a bit, using my fingers to brush it all to one side instead of the gelled spikes I normally would do. Without the gel, my hair tended to fold over in a bit of a soft wave, shiny and straight.

Stare.

Fuck it.

Brian was sitting on the couch with his back to me when I walked back out of the room. "Sorry that took me so long," I said, plopping down next to him with shoes in hand.

"No prob, I'm used to... it..." he trailed off as he looked at me, his jaw going slack.

"What?" I asked, tying up my converse.

"Uh... you're still wearing your glasses," he said after a long pause.

"Yeah, well. One more thing to make me look different than I usually do," I told him, which was true. I usually only wore my glasses long enough to find my contact case and put them in, but seeing how I looked in the mirror with the tortoiseshell frames and slightly too-big lenses, it felt like keeping them on might help people not recognize me so quickly.

"Ah, yeah. Good idea. You look, umm...."

"Like I'm thirteen?"

Brian laughed, the spell seeming to finally break. "I was gonna say you look cu--... good."

"Oh," I said, blushing a bit. "Well... thanks." We shared another awkward look. "So! Uh, where to first?"

"Right," he said, standing up. I did the same. "I wanna go by the game store first. Heimdall Nine is out today, I'd like to pick that up. Then the grocery store?"

"Sounds good to me," I agreed, grabbing my messenger bag and heading toward the door. "So, how about we get started before I change my mind?"

"As you wish, milady," Brian said in the voice he used for Burg, passing me and holding the door open.

I gave him another sideways look but said nothing as I stepped out and into the hallway.

-==-

NOTES:

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 8: The Family Way

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Fancy Dress / Prom / Evening Gown
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 8 -- The Family Way

I wasn't sure what I'd expected of our trip shopping... but it wasn't the almost complete and utter indifference we received.

Perhaps I was overestimating my public profile. Perhaps I'd just misjudged how many folks already assumed I was a girl. Either way, I'd expected at least a few head turns or eye rolls when people noticed me, and at least one person to question why I was out looking more like a soccer mom killing time before she has to pick the kids up at school than a successful streamer out to get groceries.

The fact I wasn't sure what a successful streamer out to get groceries SHOULD look like wasn't relevant. It would probably involve a selfie stick, though.

That wasn't to say that I wasn't getting SOME looks. Just not the ones I was expecting.

The game store was pretty normal. The girl was working the counter today, so that was at least better than when it was the bald guy who always made me uncomfortable. Even our first stop at the discount store had been blasé, with few people giving me a first glance, let alone a second one.

The grocery store was proving to be an entirely different beast, though. I'd noticed several women giving me appraising glances and sneering right up until Brian would move near me when the sneers would change to looks that were, best I could tell either jealousy or amusement. I'd had one woman who had to be at least in her fifties look between the two of us, Brian pushing the cart and me filling it, and give me a wink and a thumbs-up as she scanned him up and down.

Brian, of course, seemed to miss more than half of it, and what he did notice seemed to amuse him greatly. Rather than helping, he would lean into it, putting a hand on my shoulder or leaning in close to speak to me.

That was bad enough, but it was the things I wasn't sure he noticed he was doing that were starting to agitate me more. Stuff like getting things off tall shelves for me without asking or opening the doors in the freezer aisle for me and holding them while I shopped, or just....

He kept looking at me.

He was looking at me.

"What?" I asked him, feeling a self-conscious blush rising in my cheeks.

"What?" He asked back, seeming to snap back to reality. He glanced away for a second, then gave me a goofy grin.

I sighed.

Brian looked through the cart, then asked, "What else do we need to grab?"

"Hmm." I checked our cart versus the list on my phone, and the mental list I had of the things that always inevitably managed to wind up not getting put on the official list and thought. "I think we've got everything we needed to pick up. Was there anywhere else you wanted to go today?"

"Lunch."

I rolled my eyes at that. "We've got frozen stuff in the cart."

Brian shrugged. "Let's take everything home first, then go get something. You're buying, remember?"

I groaned. "Ugh. Yer killin' me, Smalls."

"Look who's talking," he said, reaching out and patting my head a couple times.

"Agh!" I squeaked, much to my own consternation, as I backed away and guarded my head. "Stop it! Or no lunch for you."

"Yes, ma'am."

That got another glare from me, which of course, only made his goofy grin spread wider.

We checked out, Brian putting the groceries on his card (I'd transfer him my half later) and soon were back in his truck, puttering through the moderate mid-day traffic.

Bayonet wasn't a huge place. About thirty thousand people strong, with a healthy percentage of that being students or faculty attached to the liberal arts college that shared the town's name. Nevertheless, it was about a fifteen-minute drive from the grocery store back to our apartment on the outer edge of the town once the stop lights and meandering streets were taken into account.

I glanced to my left, only to catch Brian looking at me again.

"Eyes on the road?"

He laughed but turned his attention back to his driving. "Sorry, it's just a little surreal seeing you like...."

"Like what?" I asked, annoyed.

"Like *that.*"

I sighed. "Hey, it was your idea for me to come shopping."

"I know! And I'm glad you did. It's always better when you're along," he said, giving me another sideways Look and a smile. "And it was fun putting on a show for the grandmas too."

I wanted to argue with him on that but found myself sharing his smile. "Okay, yeah, that was a little fun. Hopefully, they don't remember what I look like next time we go shopping, though."

"Why? Worried they might expect us to hold hands or something?"

I fought the blush that rose unbidden to my cheeks. "No! Just might be awkward if they realize I'm not..."

"Pregnant?"

It wasn't what I was going to say, but I nodded anyway and hugged myself.

"Yeah, well, if my shirt did its job, maybe they didn't notice that part."

"Maybe," I agreed, playing with the hem of the shirt a bit as I looked down at it. "I guess being out like this wasn't as bad as I'd expected."

"I'm glad," Brian said, reaching over and giving my knee a pat and squeeze before returning his hand to the wheel.

I couldn't help but let out a pup-pup of laughter as a thought occurred to me. "Imagine if we'd run into Jonah today, though."

I was expecting Brian to laugh at the thought too, but instead, he seemed to frown at the idea.

"What?"

Brian shook his head. "I'm worried about him."

"I... I kinda am, too," I agreed, looking back out the window instead of at Brian's furrowed brow. "He seemed to calm down about things yesterday, though."

"Yeah, he was pretty quiet after the mid-point break," Brian agreed. "But he was still giving you some odd looks."

"He was?" I asked.

"You had to notice, right?"

I rolled my eyes. "Brian, he wasn't looking at me any different than he ever does. It's always either angry glares or...."

"Or what?"

I shook my head. "I dunno."

"I think I do," Brian said, in a tone that gave me a chill. I turned, and he was Looking at me again.

"Hmm?"

Now Brian laughed, though there was little humor in it. "Come on, Leigh. You know what he's thinking when he looks at you like that."

"I'm sure I don't," I said, turning away again as my cheeks burned.

But I did.

"Guy's had a crush on you for years," Brian said, vocalizing out loud something I'd been ignoring as best I could.

I shook my head again. "No, he hasn't." Brian was about to argue again, but I stopped him. "Really, I don't think so. I think he has a crush on my characters, not me."

Brian went quiet for a moment. "Okay. What's the difference?"

"Sex?" I shrugged. "Jonah reminds me of... did I ever tell you about Evan?"

"Evan, the asshole?"

"I guess I have," I laughed, glad to have something to lighten the mood a bit.

Evan had been part of the group Maria ran when we were in high school and, in a lot of ways, made Jonah's attitude look positively mild-mannered by comparison. He would constantly be trying to tell the rest of us what we should do with our characters, how to play the game 'right,' and fight with Maria over lore and rules.

We had put up with it for a long time simply because we were young, and finding people to play with us was hard enough without banishing a player from the group.

That all changed when we were in tenth grade, and Evan... broke. He spent half a session yelling at me and Kayla, a friend of ours who played with us, that we were cockteases and one of us -- his focus on Kayla -- owed him some "relief."

Parents became involved, and Evan never spoke to any of us again.

I didn't get it then, and I didn't get it now.

Yes, I always played women in games if I had the option. So sue me, but I just found them more interesting and compelling characters. You read fantasy books, and the men are always these strong brutes or frail masterminds, but the women? The women could be those things too, but they were also cast as the savvy gray sorceress, or the mysterious guide, or the sensual assassin. There was just so much more variety in who it felt like they could be.

And the art! The men were always the same: chiseled jaws, shining armor, all dull colors and deep-voiced and... generic. But the women could be in armor or gowns, robes or bikinis, and anything and everything in between and beyond.

The men were fine, but the women were always so much *more.*

As I got older, a lot of that romantic vision died as I familiarized myself more and more with the broad spectrums of fantasy. I started to recognize the sexism in the depictions, the less-than-subtle ways that those masculine ideals that I found so unappealing to engage with were pushed as heroic while the more interesting elements so often associated with femininity in the medium were seen as deceitful or antagonistic.

Yet I'd still found myself drawn to playing women who both embraced and defied those things.

"I think," I started, then paused for a moment to make sure I had what I wanted to say clear in my head.

"Hmm?"

"I think," I started again, "that Jonah is unhappy with his life, and sees the game as a way to get things he wants. Strength, wealth, power."

"Okay."

I took a deep breath before I continued. "Jonah wants to win, and I think part of that is feeling like the game is about his character, and them getting what they want. And since I tend to play women...."

Brian nodded. "Okay, but why doesn't he do the same to Deedee and Sid? They sit side by side with him every game."

I laughed out loud at that. "I think they intimidate him too much. And Maria's the boss, and you don't mess with the boss."

Brian cocked his head as he seemed to get it. "So, if he goes after one of their characters, he has to deal with--"

"Yep," I nodded. "But I'm short and scrawny, so not a threat to him. And I tend to play very, umm, femme characters." I shrugged. "So, he can want my character, and not be scared of having to talk to a real girl about it."

Brian nodded, thinking. "I can see that, mostly."

"Mostly?"

"Mostly," Brian said again, as he turned into the parking lot at our apartment building.

I silently contemplated what he could mean by that as we pulled into his spot and grabbed our bags out of the bed of the truck. Up the stairs, in the door, and to the kitchen I went, putting away groceries while Brian sorted out the toiletries and other pick-ups.

"You picked up two bags of chocolate chips?"

"Yeah, maybe that way, one of them will survive for more pancakes."

I rolled my eyes at that but couldn't help smiling as I stuck them up in the cabinet.

Ten minutes later, we were out the door and heading back down the stairs to the truck. I couldn't resist any longer, and asked, "So, why mostly?"

Brian chuckled. "Because the looks don't stop when you're out of character."

Instead of saying anything else I settled for a groan of effort as I hauled myself up and into the passenger seat of the truck. Brian waited until I was buckled in to start moving, and as we pulled out of the lot again, he turned to the right instead of the left, away from town.

"Where are we going?" I asked him, wondering what was happening.

"Someplace a bit out of the way, but I think you'll like it."

"Is it far?"

"Thirty, forty minutes?"

"Forty minutes!"

"Trust me," he said, smiling at me and once again reaching over to pat my knee.

Much as I might not want to, I did.

-==-

NOTES:

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Warning: may contain alligators and/or gumbo.

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 9: Gumbo

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 9 -- Gumbo

"We're lost."

"No, we're not," Brian assured me for the third time, the truck bouncing its way from pothole to pothole on the deeply rutted and far too narrow dirt road he'd turned off on. "It's a shortcut."

"A shortcut to where? If we'd stuck to pavement, we coulda been in Baton Rouge by now," I said, then let out a squeak of mixed alarm and pain as we bounced through another rut. I was glad we were in his truck and not my little Fiat.

Brian rolled his eyes at me, but the grin never left his face. "What, you tellin' me you've never been out in the *oof* real bayou?" He asked, slowing down to ease into the ditch on his side of the road and maneuver around a cypress hanging too low for the truck to pass under.

"This isn't the bayou. This is the opening shots of the movie before we wind up at the murder hobo's shack," I said, frowning and rubbing my temple where the last bump had sent me head-first into the window. "See? It's right there." I pointed at the shack in question, ahead of us and on the left.

"And that's the paved road again right next to it," Brian argued, pointing. "Murder hobos never live on the paved road."

"There's a first for everything."

"Is there?" He asked me, then pulled over into the dirt lot next to the shack. "Well then, let's find out."

Brian hopped out of the truck and started toward the shack, but stopped when he realized I hadn't followed him. Instead, I sat resolutely in my seat, studying the rather dubious building.

I'd seen places like it before, sure, but mostly in the post-hurricane clean-up period when people were scrounging for shelter and scrapping what they could. The walls were a mixture of old tin and cedar slats, though the roof itself looked to be more recent, with only mild rust spots breaking up the metallic gleam of the bare tin in the sun. The doors were open, and a couple of moisture-wilted fans spun lazily on the broad porch at the front of the building. "Delray's" was written on the big sheet glass window in white paint, rough and streaky.

If this wasn't a murder hobo shack, then it was the place where the unlucky couple met the murder hobo before being led *to* the shack.

Brian came back to the truck and opened my door, giving me an annoyed look. "Come on, you said you trusted me."

"Yeah, but-- is that an alligator?!" I asked, the chain link fence behind the place finally catching my attention, as well as the long brown and green shape behind it. "It is!"

"That's just Zeke," Brian said like it was nothing.

"It has a name?" I looked to the building, then the gator, then back to Brian again.

Brian sighed. "This is why I haven't brought you here before. Listen, it's fine. It's an old family place, and the food's great," he said, looking defeated.

Shit.

I looked at the place again. Then I looked into Brian's sad eyes.

"If there are any eyeballs, gonads, or brains in anything I eat here, it will be in your floorboards before we get home," I warned him, sliding down into the narrow space he'd left between himself and the truck. Getting down out of the thing was always an adventure, but the baby bump made it more so, and I found myself unsteady on my feet in the red clay and brown dirt that made up the lot. I wobbled, but Brian caught my shoulder and held me steady.

"Deal," he said, his expression brightening as he gave my shoulder a squeeze. "But if you love it? You owe me."

"Deal," I agreed reluctantly, as Brian's thumb continued to caress my collarbone.

Once again Brian was grinning as he slid his hand from my shoulder to the middle of my back and began leading me toward the building, kicking the truck door closed behind him as we went.

As we passed through the doors and my eyes adjusted to the light inside, I realized that the interior of the place was a lot nicer than the outside. The concrete floor was bare but clean, and the large room was filled with a mixture of weathered and beaten chairs, stools, and old dining booths, with equally worn-looking tables, but it was all clean, and the smells wafting in from the double doors at the back of the room, between the glass-doored cases of drinks, had me fighting to swallow before I drooled all over myself.

Of course, Brian noticed.

"Now, THAT is a proper reaction to Delray's," he said, finally taking his hand from my back, walking over to the double doors, and pushing them open. "Hey, Lorne!" He bellowed, then walked back over to me.

Moments later, a figure burst through the doors, looking for all the world like one of the worst stereotypes of Louisiana imaginable. His white tee shirt was covered in stains, as well as the apron he wore over it, his arms thick and red from the flash of fire and slick with sweat, and his face equally red, his thinning hair pulled back from his face in a low ponytail. I could see the resemblance between him and Brian, in their height and lanky builds, but it was immediately obvious that this man enjoyed eating his food as much as he enjoyed making it, having at least forty pounds on Brian.

"Lordy! If 'taint lil' cousin Brian, outta da city t' bum about wit us Cowpeas!" He said, marching forward and wrapping Brian in a massive hug, lifting him off the floor. "Been a bit, cuz, been a bit!"

"Hah! Yeah, sorry about that. You know I couldn't stay away forever, though."

"You bet! Don' feed ya right in da city, eh?" The big man laughed, poking Brian in the belly with one of his thick fingers before turning his grin on me. "And who's da lady?"

"Oh, ah. Lorne, this is Leigh. Leigh, Lorne," Brian said, rubbing his neck awkwardly. I gave him an annoyed look, but he just shrugged helplessly.

"Hi," I said, holding out my hand for a shake, only for the man to take it and lift it gently, kissing the back.

"Whatsa pretty ting like you doin' wit a Venable, huh? We Cowpeas got all da good looks," he said, waggling his eyebrows at me and winking.

I couldn't help but laugh, which seemed to be the right answer since it got an even wider grin out of the man, whose eyes were twinkling as he took a step back. "Waiddaminit. Dis is Leigh?" He asked, giving Brian a disbelieving look. "Well, Brian talk about you all da time. Way he say it, we thought you was a guy!" Lorne said, laughing loudly. "I'll be sure ta let Cousin Ella know he been keepin' you away!"

With every word that left Lorne's mouth, I could see Brian turning redder and redder, and I was sure I was doing much the same, but that only seemed to make his cousin even more amused.

"Cut it out, will ya, Lorne? And knock it off with the accent too. That's terrible, and Uncle Delray would smack you if he heard you."

Lorne gave Brian a sour look and crossed his arms. "Hey, now. That accent makes me bank when the tourists come through. Don't go ruinin' my mystique, cuz." Then he turned to me and winked again. "It is good to finally meet ya, though, Leigh. We've heard a lot about ya, so it's nice to put such a pretty face to the name."

"I, I'm not..." I started, but just couldn't find the words.

"The usual?" Lorne asked, turning to Brian again and wiping his hands on his apron.

"Yeah, for both of us. Go light on the spice on Leigh's."

"A'ight, gimme twenty, and it'll be out, take a seat and grab a drink."

"Can do," Brian said, though his cousin was already disappearing through the double swing doors. Brian shook his head, then came over and put a hand in the middle of my back again, nudging me toward the drink coolers. More quietly, he continued. "Sorry about that. Lorne can be a bit much."

"Cowpea?" I asked, grabbing a blue cream soda out of the rack.

Brian chuckled and grabbed a sarsaparilla out of one of the other cases. "It's Coupe," he said, pronouncing the name coo-pay, "but Lorne and his sister used to wind Uncle Delray up by mispronouncing it on purpose. Don't let the outfit fool ya: Lorne spent a few years as an attorney before moving back home to help watch Uncle Delray and Aunt Lois and still does pro bono work for some of the folks around here. Only reason it's so quiet is it's early on a Thursday afternoon: if we'd come down here after work on a Friday, or on the weekend, this place would be full up. Uncle Delray's gumbo is a bit of an institution around here."

"Is it now?" I asked, as more mouth-watering aromas drifted out from the room beyond the doors. We settled down at one of the booths, and I popped the top off my bottle and took a long sip.

"Yeah. And before you ask, no: I've tried to get Lorne to share the recipe with me, and he refuses."

"Course not," Lorne yelled from the back room. "Ain't no Venable getting the Cowpea secret recipe!"

I quirked an eyebrow at Brian, but he took a swig of his own drink before saying anything else. "There was... history between the families before Mom and Dad got married. Something about a stolen mule or something."

"Borrowed mule! Borrowed!"

I tried not to laugh, and very nearly succeeded.

Brian rolled his eyes. "Borrowed," he said, extra loudly. "Without permission. It's complicated."

"I'll bet," I agreed, trying unsuccessfully to hide my grin behind my bottle.

I leaned back and closed my eyes, just soaking in the ambiance. The fans in the room did little more than stir the muggy late August air, and I could hear an old Elvis song playing from some hidden speakers nearby, somewhat indistinct and interrupted by the sounds of the animals outside, and the occasional slap of water that I was sure was the alligator behind the place getting up to something.

Okay, so maybe this place wasn't so murder-hobo-ey after all.

"So, ah, Leigh."

"Yeah?" I asked, opening my eyes again. Brian was giving me an odd look, but before he could say anything else, we both heard the double doors to the kitchen open.

"Two bowls of authentic Cowpea gumbo, cornbread on the side. One of them family-spiced, the other tourist-grade," Lorne said, setting a steaming bowl of soup in front of each of us and smiling.

"Tourist grade?" I asked, feeling somewhat offended even as I leaned forward to get a deeper sniff of the heady tones drifting out of the bowl.

Lorne laughed. "Brian, let her take a nose full o' yours," he said, shifting our bowls so that now Brian's was before me.

I gave Brian a nervous glance, but all he did was shrug and grin like he knew what was coming. A little irritated at their seeming shared opinion that I couldn't handle it, I leaned forward once again and took a deep breath...

"Ack!" I jerked back and coughed, immediately reaching for the napkins on the table to stop my sinuses up. "Holy crap!"

Now they were both laughing, loud and long, even as Lorne swapped our bowls again. "If Brian has one saving grace, it's that he has a proper Cowpea appreciation for the finer things in life."

"Like chemical weapons?" I asked between bouts of blowing my nose and wiping it.

"Well, that's why you got the tourist grade," Brian said, picking up his spoon and taking a bite of his soup. I watched as the sweat beaded on his forehead, but nothing else even hinted at the utterly inhuman level of spice I knew he had just eaten. He caught me looking and winked before going for another spoonful.

With my nose clear and dry, I finally grabbed my own spoon and dipped it into the murky bowl before me, lifting a healthy little pile of okra, shrimp, and other mysteries out. I took one more sniff, reassuring myself I had the right bowl, before eating it.

"*Mmmm-mmmm.*"

Lorne pulled a chair up to our booth from another nearby table and spun it around, straddling the back and grinning at us. "And yet another woman falls for the charms of the Cowpea gumbo recipe."

"Mmm-mmm," I moaned again, around a third spoonful of soup.

"Y'know, y'leave this chump in the mud and stay with me, and you could eat this every day."

"Lorne...." Brian started, but his cousin cut him off.

"Y'know, back when he was in high school lil' Brian here would bring every girlfriend he got here on their first date. Impress 'em with our food, then ply 'em with the Venable wiles."

"I didn't..." Brian started, then gave me a worried look. I raised an eyebrow, and he sighed. "Uncle Delray's gumbo is the best, and I got the family discount."

"And made good use of it too," Lorne said, with a mock disapproving tone. "But then you moved off to town and started going to that lefty college and haven't brought a girl by since. Just you on your lonesome when you come down for the holidays."

"It's a long drive for gumbo," Brian said, red in the face as much from embarrassment as the heat of his soup.

"But she's worth it?" Lorne asked, looking from me to Brian, then back again.

"I'm paying," I said, doing my best to hide my own embarrassment with a forced laugh.

"Wha? Well, we can't have that!" Lorne said, taking a tea towel off his belt and smacking Brian upside the head with it. "If this lout won't pay for ya, then Lorne's got ya covered. Call it a thank you for keeping my cousin in line."

"I'm not--"

"We're not--"

I looked at Brian.

Brian looked at me.

Gumbo dripped.

With a resigned slump of my shoulders, I gave Lorne my best smile. "I'll do my best," I agreed. "But I'd like to pay anyway."

"We're cash only."

"Oh." I blushed. "Ah, in that case, thank you?"

Lorne laughed again, then stood up. "You city kids. Brian used to know better, but he's getting soft. I'll leave you two to it and be back with some beignets for dessert here in a bit."

"You don't have to--"

Brian held up his hand to stop me. "If Lorne's making beignets, you don't say no."

Once more, Lorne laughed as he disappeared back into the kitchen, leaving us alone with our meal.

The frogs sang. The fans whispered. The King crooned.

-==-

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 10: Bitties

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 10 -- Bitties

"ShitshitshitshitSHIT! YES!" I let out a whoop as my kart crossed the finish line, narrowly bumping TimSkittles' own out of the way and granting me victory.

"Well, monkeyfarts," Tim said, his voice tinny and scratchy over his cheaper headset.

I duplicated the dance my avatar was doing as she stood atop the podium, waving her trophy and smiling.

It was a hard-won victory, too. Tim was an expert at PlumberKart Ultra, and usually creamed the rest of us when we would play, but we were playing the new downloadable course pack, and for once, he didn't have hundreds of hours more practice than the rest of us. My victory was narrow but earned.

"Folks wanna do another round?" I asked my streaming companions, only to get a round of reasons they couldn't. "How about you, Tim?"

"I think I want more practice first," he said, laughing a bit on the other end of the call. "But thanks, Sprite. I'll be sure to take you more serious in the future."

"That's ominous," I said, getting another laugh before Tim hung up. "Well, folks, I guess that's it for PlumberKart for tonight. We have at long last proven Queen Apple's superiority as a kart racer and must now depart for more adventures! But how about some chat questions while I figure out what we'll play next, hmm?" I asked, leaving the Queen to dance as I half-scanned chat and my list of installed games.

I had the new Radical Amphibian Fighters collection, that could be fun, and I hadn't played any of them since I was a kid. The remaster of We Are Left Alone was finished installing, too: I'd skipped the original when it came out, so wasn't sure I wanted my first experience with such a story-driven game to be on-stream. Hmmm....

A quick look at chat gave me more pause. "Two Fiddy sent eight hundred bits. Thanks a bunch! Eli_Engarde says 'lots of love for Queen Apple, wish she got another game of her own.' Same, Eli, same," I said, spotting another highlighted post and frowning. "IntoTheAether, this is your last warning. I will have the mods ban you." I sighed and leaned back in my chair. "For the last time, folks. It was just a suit worn for the game, and I'm not actually pregnant. See?" I asked, standing up and pulling my tee shirt tight. "No baby bump."

I sat back down and perused my game list again. I could play some Colonizers, but that didn't tend to keep my audience's interest much. I had Hoe Warrior installed, but folks had gotten tired of the combination platformer/gardening sim pretty fast. Hmmm.

"BigCh33se asks, 'Hey Sprite! Was wondering why you don't... *sigh.* Was wondering why you don't wear makeup on stream.' I only wear makeup when I'm in costume, Cheese. Otherwise, it's au naturel for me." I looked at my game list and smiled. "All right, folks, how'sabout we relax with some classic Crystal Adventurers? I haven't played the remake yet, so let's check it out!"

I booted the game and tried to relax a bit as I watched the revamped intro cinematics.

The truth was, I was more on edge than usual, and it was entirely that stupid body suit's fault.

After our late lunch/early dinner Thursday, we'd returned to the apartment, and things had mostly been pretty normal. *Mostly.* We'd gone about our normal routines, games and projects and phone calls and socials, but....

I dunno. It was different somehow. It seemed like every time we were in the same room, we'd catch each other just watching. Was he looking at me different, or was it just my imagination?

Was I looking at him differently? Or was the whole day out and the way people had treated us just getting to my head?

Brian was out of the apartment most of Friday -- the stream brought in enough that he didn't have to work full-time, but he still liked to put his engineering degree to use with the occasional consulting gig -- so I'd spent the day alone up until it was time to head to the studio and turn the body suit back in to Carmen. It hadn't taken long for me to get a bit bored, and I'd found myself trying on different clothes I had, to see how they looked with the bodysuit.

It was... weird how not-weird it looked, if that makes sense. And the more I saw myself in it, the less odd it felt to do so.

"Okay, let's see. Party members... we'll go with the classic lineup, Fighter, Monk, Cleric, Wizard. Oh, hey, they included female sprite sets this time, neat! Fighter can be Brian. Monk is gonna be Syd, of course. I'll be the Cleric, and we'll make the wizard Aaron. Deedee and Maria, you're sitting this one out, sorry!" I glanced at chat again. "Fartastic, thank you for the donation! Oh, and it looks like my mods have put up a poll?" I looked and frowned. "Guys, no. I don't care what the poll says, I'm not gonna do makeup for a stream."

I shook my head and turned my attention back to the game. "I will, however, fireball some gobbos. Sound good? Good."

I finished my shopping in the first town of the game and began the standard round of grinding, filling the space between fights with inane chatter as I continued to think about how weird the last few days had been.

Carmen had, of course, been super happy to see me show up at the studio still wearing the bodysuit, and had immediately pulled me into the bathroom and asked me to strip down so she could check some stress points while I was still wearing it. It was embarrassing, but it was far from the most nude I'd ever been in front of her and had seemed to go well. She'd marked a few spots with the weird pen thing she used to label alterations, then stepped outside so I could take the suit off for the final time, at least until we got ready for the con.

I'd expected to feel relief at finally being rid of the suit, free of the weight and the heat and the alterations to my appearance.

Instead, I'd felt... exposed? Putting on my tee shirt and the athletic shorts I'd worn to the studio, it didn't feel like I was free of a burden, but instead like something was missing. I'd place a hand where the bump should be, and it was absent, and the lack of constriction around my back and my not-boobs was almost more unsettling than its presence had been when I'd first donned the suit.

I hadn't stuck around at the studio long after changing out of things, lest I got roped into sitting in on the restream (it had happened before,) and as soon as I'd gotten home, I'd stripped down and put a tank on under my tee, just for some sense of similarity to how I'd felt the prior two days.

"Yeek! That was close. Let's go back to town and heal up. Then I think we're high enough level now to tackle the first dungeon and take on the Dark Knight Tinsel. Chat says... thanks for the bits Donovenn! And thanks for the follow! Don't forget, folks, our goal for the month is twenty-five hundred subs. If we can reach that, then I'll go for a hardcore run through Living Undead 3! Anyway, chat chat chat," I frowned. "I already said 'no' to the makeup thing, guys." I rolled my eyes and stood up again. "Seriously, look at me. I'm not a girl," I said, plopping down in my chair. "Even if I play one in games."

I turned my attention back to the game at hand, knowing full well that my statement would be ignored. It wasn't the first time I'd told them flat-out that I wasn't a girl, and I doubted it would be the last.

"All right, healed up, re-stocked on healing items from the shop just in case. Let's head toward the castle." I looked at chat again and groaned. "No, I don't mean I'm a full-grown woman. LarryT, you've been subbed since I was at like 20 subs. You're not helping. Folks, I'm..." I sighed and set my controller down on my desk.

It wasn't anything I wasn't used to. This was just Chat being Chat, and I knew it. But sat there in my tee with another tank top underneath, still feeling strangely incomplete and confused over the last two days, knowing that didn't help.

I sniffled, and realized, to my surprise, that I was crying.

I was crying on stream.

I sniffled again and sat up, wiping my eyes. "Guys... y'know what? I can't deal with this right now." I saved my game and closed it, then gave chat one last look before clicking the sign-off button in the stream window.

Chat, of course, was going wild. There were people defending me, people laughing, and people complaining. My mod team was trying to wrangle them, but it wasn't helping any.

"Did she quit?"

"She can't quit. I just donated 20 USD, ripoff!"

"Haha little baby crying 'cause chat was mean, loser."

"Is she okay?"

I shook my head and tried to laugh, but it came out more like a sob. Even my mod team were calling me 'she' and 'her' in their responses.

Why did I even bother?

I ignored all the pings and PM requests I was getting and sent one final message in mod chat, letting them know I wouldn't be talking to anyone for a couple of days. On impulse, I added that I was canceling Monday's stream too.

I hesitated before hitting send, wondering if what I was doing was a bad idea, but shook my head and hit the button anyway.

I shut down my computer, and once more leaned back in my seat, and this time, simply let myself cry.

I don't know how long I was sitting there, just softly crying and feeling sorry for myself, but I let out an embarrassingly shrill "Eep!" when I felt someone grab my shoulders. I looked up, and there was Brian's upside-down face, looking back with a sad smile.

"You okay?" he asked, squeezing my shoulders gently as he kept my chair in its leaned-back position.

"Yeah?" I reached up and wiped some of the tears off my cheek and couldn't help but laugh. "No. Just being stupid," I said, tapping his hand until he let me go. I sat up and spun around to face him right side up.

"Wanna talk about it?" He asked, pulling over my guest chair and plopping down across from me.

"Not really, but yeah." I let out a long, slow breath and leaned forward, resting my elbows on my knees. "Just stressed. The convention, and Jonah, and streaming, and... we're down five percent in merch sales over the last month compared to the previous one. What does that mean? And Syd sent me some screenshots of a troll who's causing issues in the community forums, and Maria's annoyed because the folks at ATG asked her not to use some homebrew monster she's been working on for our campaign, and...."

"And?"

"And I just..." I wrapped my arms around myself and sat back up, looking anywhere but at Brian. "What am I doing, Brian? Everyone in chat was going on about the bodysuit, and my mods are doing polls for makeup, and it's all--I know it's meant to be fun, but."

I was sniffling again and didn't even flinch when Brian crouched in front of me and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me into a tight hug I didn't want to want. Nevertheless, I found myself relaxing as he held on.

"It sounds like a lot to take in," he said, his voice rumbling through his chest.

"Yeah," I said in muffled agreement, headbutting his shoulder gently to get him to let me up. He did so but stayed crouched in front of me instead of sitting back in his chair, his face only inches from mine as he watched me.

"But?" he asked gently, with just the slightest hint of amusement.

“But," I agreed. "It's always a lot. But that's part of the whole streaming business, y'know?" I sighed and sat back, closing my eyes.

I heard the sound of a shifting chair, and then Brian had his arm around me again, this time from the side. I let him pull me over until my head was on his shoulder, but only let it stay there for a second before sitting up again and giving a harrumph.

"And this," I said, glaring at him and waving down at us. "Like, what is this? Are we…? And your cousin?"

Brian actually had the nerve to laugh. "Hey, I said sorry about Lorne, but what was I supposed to tell him?"

"That I'm a guy? And your roommate, not your…" I paused, trying to decide how to continue.

"My girlfriend?" Brian asked, somehow still smiling.

"That."

Brian chuckled, then moved into a full-on laugh when I glared at him. "Leigh, do you think he would have believed me?" he asked, then before I could answer, he continued. "Or what about that lady at the gas station on the way home? Or the ladies at the grocery store? Or," he pointed at my computer. "Do they believe it?" Brian moved back a bit, until only his hand remained on my shoulder, and gave me a long look.

I shook my head but said nothing.

Brian was right, after all. People would believe what they wanted. I knew that: I'd known it for a long time. Even when we were in college, we'd gotten comments about being a couple, sometimes from Brian's actual girlfriends.

Maybe I could have helped that a bit if I'd been more prone to dating too, but... why? I had my friends, both guys and girls, and that kept my social calendar full on its own. Like, I hadn't *not* dated, mostly girls, but out of curiosity, I'd gone out with a couple guys too, and it'd been fun, but not anything I couldn't do with Brian, or Maria, or Syd or Deedee or even Aaron.

You could argue that sex was more an option with someone I was dating than one of my friends, but if that was all I was dating someone for, then I might as well just go on a date with my hand.

As far as my streaming audience was concerned, me and Brian might as well be married. He'd been part of the background since the beginning, and I'd had him on for local multiplayer games a couple times every year since. He was always bringing me water or popping in to make sure I didn't need anything, because that's just Brian, looking out for others.

What were they supposed to think?

I sighed. "I did something stupid," I said, staring at my hands.

"Oh?"

I nodded. "I sent my mods a message saying I was canceling Monday's stream. I just, I know I shouldn't have, but--"

"Yeah, you should've."

"What?" I asked, turning to face him again.

Brian squeezed my shoulder again and nodded. "If things have you this stressed, then taking some time off is the right decision. You were already planning on taking next weekend off anyway; just call this starting your vacation early."

"But the metrics."

Brian chuckled. "Yeah, you'll lose some subs. But you didn't really wanna play Living Undead anyway, and the hype train for the convention is gonna make up for some of that too."

"True," I agreed, finally smiling.

Brian looked away for a moment, then nodded to himself. "Monday off and keep it open. I think... yeah."

"What?"

"It's a surprise," he said, now grinning from ear to ear.

"Brian...."

"Nope! A surprise," he said again, standing up from his seat and pulling me up in the process. "So, just relax. Turn off your phone, call it an early night, and then you can spend all day tomorrow fretting about what I've got planned for us."

"I don't fret!" I said, only a little fretfully.

Brian just gave me another hug, and this one, I returned with yet another sigh.

"There's plenty of time to worry about everyone else later, 'kay?"

"...Okay," I agreed, pulling back and looking up at him. "Just promise me no dirt roads this time, all right?"

"No dirt roads," Brian agreed. "And come on out to the kitchen. I was just about to nuke some frozen lasagna."

Oh joy.

-==-

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 11: B-Minus

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 11 -- B-Minus

On any normal day, someone walking into my bedroom would be greeted by a whole lot of boring. Plain white walls, in deference to not wanting to re-paint when we eventually move out. Twin bed with no headboard, a burnt orange comforter and matching checked pillowcases (or an equally earthy red on off weeks,) discount store rug so my feet don't freeze on the faux wood slat linoleum when I get up. A couple statuettes from special editions of games, and my little bookshelf, stuffed full of tabletop game manuals and the few board games I kept at home instead of in the communal collection at the studio.

Normally that would be it. No clothes lying about, no dishes. A clean place that I mostly only stayed in long enough to sleep and get dressed. Most of my personal belongings that really conveyed personality were kept in the spare room we'd turned into an office and used to give it the proper "gamer" feel for streams.

I say all this to emphasize that the piles and piles of clothes on my bed, floor, and the spare kitchen chair I kept around were not normal, nor was my agitation as I moved things back and forth and searched my wardrobe for something, anything, that felt right.

Brian had been cagey for the last two days about what we would be doing today. All he'd told me was to be prepared to be outside most of the day, which in itself set some hard limitations on wardrobe given that temps were supposed to be in the high nineties with lots of sun.

My first inclination was a pair of shorts and a tank, but thanks to preparations for the upcoming convention, that meant putting my legs, arms, and everything else on full display. I knew it was silly to worry about, but still.

That was what I was dealing with as I stared at myself in the mirror on the back of my closet door and frowned.

I'd showered the night before, and yes, I'd re-upped the shaving routine, because I wasn't gonna deal with scratchy stubble until after the convention if I could help it, embarrassment be damned: shiny legs were preferable to grasshopper legs any day of the week, so I'd only go through that when I had to.

Then there were my tank tops. My collection came in two flavors: tight, or loose. The tight ones were what I would normally wear as an undershirt and had been doing more so than usual for the last few days, but they were, well, tight. That wouldn't be a problem if I didn't feel like the result was an emphasis on not-boobage that I absolutely wouldn't have been concerned with only a few days ago, but now I couldn't seem to keep from noticing every time I dressed.

The loose ones more or less had an opposite but similar problem. I had a few old-style basketball jerseys and other tanks that would hang loose and not emphasize my body shape, but that looseness included broad necks and open arms. In other words, the clothes didn't hug me, but I showed enough bare skin it didn't make a difference.

I could wear a regular tee, or a loose button-down, over one of the regular tanks, but that was extra layers. If they were light enough, extra layers were fine, but in the southern Louisiana humidity, extra layers didn't tend to stay light for long, and once you were soaked in sweat, you'd stay soaked until you changed.

There was the third option, and that was two tanks: a tight one, with one of the looser sports jersey types over top. It solved the problems of both, but it introduced an obvious problem of its own: the bottom tank inevitably wound up looking like I was wearing a bra under the outer tank.

Even going without a tank and *just* wearing a loose tee or button-down wasn't a perfect solution either. Not only had I firmly gotten used to the lower layer as part of my normal attire, but there was still the humidity to consider: if I wore a tee without a tank beneath, the heat and humidity would mean I'd look like I'd entered a wet tee shirt contest, and I'd be just as exposed as in just the tight tank. Heck, that was part of the reason I had the tight tanks in the first place. As for button-downs, all of them I owned were too heavy for the weather or in dark colors, another killer in the heat.

I growled in frustration. Why was it that even without the baby bump on, it was still messing with my head this bad?

If we'd done this last Monday, I wouldn't have thought twice about just wearing one of my tanks, but between the body suit and Brian's comments about my shape with or without it, my self-consciousness was through the roof, and all I could see when I looked at myself in the mirror was the looming threat of perceived boobage.

Maybe if I asked him nicely, he'd change our plans to something where I could wear a hoodie or something else to cover up more, like a tour of a meat packing plant or something?

Then I thought of the sparkle in Brian's eyes each time I'd seen him sneaking around and planning yesterday. Whatever he was planning, he was excited for it, and for us to be doing it together.

I huffed again and went back to picking through what I had.

Finally, I decided to say screw it. If I was going to be self-conscious no matter what I wore, then I may as well be cool. I grabbed an old Pelicans jersey I'd stolen from my dad, and on impulse, paired it with one of my tighter tanks that came as close to matching the navy blue in the logo as I could. It was going to be obvious I had another shirt or something on underneath no matter what color I chose, so it might as well be something that would both match and not show any moisture stains from the day as badly.

With that decided, I dove into my shorts. I could go with board shorts, athletic shorts, or just about anything, but settled on a pair of khaki shorts I couldn't remember the last time I'd worn.

Strip, strip, don, don, bam. Once again, I was standing in front of the mirror and looking at myself.

The two tanks did, indeed, look less like two tanks than a tank over a sports bra, but I was resigned to the fact that was going to be the case already. I had forgotten how long the Pelicans jersey was, though, and was surprised to see it almost completely covered my shorts, leaving only a couple of inches of khaki material poking out underneath.

"This is a stupid idea," I told myself, even as I lifted the jersey and cuffed the legs of my shorts up a couple of times on each side, then dropped the jersey again.

Yep, that did it. No more shorts showing at all, just six inches of bare leg above my knees, then the jersey.

Committed now, I finger-brushed my hair back into the same loose style I'd put it in on Thursday and grabbed the oversized prescription sunglasses Maria had talked me into getting, but I never wore, off my chest of drawers, sliding them on, then up onto my forehead.

I looked back at my image and did my best to view it objectively.

Slim arms. Slim legs, long for my height but with no real definition, and smooth from shaving the night before. My torso was mostly shapeless thanks to how the jersey hung, but the tank underneath hinted at an attempt to cover something of greater importance than was actually there and combined with my bony but not particularly wide shoulders, there could be a shape there or not, who knew.

And my face was my face.

I turned from side to side, studying myself, then slumped a bit and sat on my bed, suddenly exhausted.

"Maybe I'm the one who's wrong," I mumbled, flopping back and kicking my feet into the air. I stared at my toes and wriggled them a bit, trying to decide if whatever Brian had planned would be a shoes or sandals deal.

As if I'd summoned him, I heard a rap-rap-rap on my door, followed by Brian's voice. "You decent?"

"As I ever am," I called back, then sighed. "Come on in."

From my angle, I couldn't see Brian enter, but I heard the door open and heard him laugh. "Trying to walk on the ceiling?" He asked, moving into my line of sight and giving my legs and feet an amused glance. "Or decide on a toenail polish color?"

I frowned at him. "Well, I wasn't, but since you bring it up." I dropped my legs and grunted in annoyance. "This is all your fault."

"All what?" He asked, still grinning.

"This," I said, waving down at myself.

Brian gave me a once over, and his grin, if anything, grew wider. "Cute?"

"That's what I'm saying!" I groaned, throwing my hands in the air and then letting them fall straight out across my bed. "If your stupid penis hadn't gotten me knocked up--"

"Hey!" He said but shut his mouth when I glared at him.

I sat up and braced my hands on the bed, scrunching my shoulders. Looking down, I saw what I expected to see, and flopped back again. "Brian? Be honest with me. Do I have boobs?"

"Yes," he said, without hesitation.

"I do not!"

I felt the bed creak as Brian dropped onto it. His back was to me, but I could see him looking down at my legs. "Then why ask?"

"Because for the last five days or so, I haven't been able to stop thinking about them."

Brian whistled. "Only five days? I'm going on probably fourteen years."

"Ha. Ha." I said, in as sarcastic a voice as I could manage. "I meant on me." I sat up again, but this time avoided scrunching my shoulders, choosing to bump Brian's shoulder with mine instead.

"You look good with boobs," Brian commented, followed by a muffled grunt of pain when I poked him in the ribs.

"I'm a twenty-five-year-old guy," I said. Not sure where to go with that, I stood up and started putting away some of the clothes I'd strewn about. Brian watched me for a few seconds, then stood and started helping, focusing on things that went in my closet while I folded and put away the stuff that went in my chest of drawers.

I was checking to make sure nothing had gotten kicked under the bed or mysteriously made its way into the living room when Brian grabbed me by the elbow.

"Text Carmen and ask."

"What?"

"Text Carmen and ask her about your boobs."

"I don't..." I started, then stopped. "I don' wanna," I finally finished, sounding whiney even to myself.

Brian shrugged. "All right, I will," he said, pulling out his phone.

"Don't you dare!" I gasped, reaching for his phone, but he easily kept it away from me.

"Well?"

I stomped my foot and jumped, trying to reach his phone, to no avail. "Ugh, alright! But I'm not asking her that. I'll, I dunno."

Brian smirked but lowered his phone. "Just ask her your cup size."

"... I can do that," I conceded, then walked over to my bedside table and grabbed my own phone.

**Hey Carmen, fight W Brian. What’s my cup size**

"She's not gonna answer this early," I said once I'd fired the text off. She would either be at work or--

DING

Or I could be wrong.

**34 B- :)**

I blinked. No way could that be right.

Without thinking, I hit the button to call her, and in less than two rings got an answer.

"Hey mija! Is everything--"

"What do you mean B minus?"

Carmen laughed on the other end of the line, the sound of machines behind her telling me she was probably already at work in her shop. "It's nothing to worry about, the right bra and--"

"Aunt Ceecee!" I snapped. Brian, who had been standing nearby and listening, jumped. I sighed and took a calming breath. "Sorry, Aunt Ceecee. I meant I can't be that big, can I? I thought you'd said I barely could qualify as an AA cup."

There was silence on the other end of the line for a long moment. "Sweetie, that was eight years ago. You've grown up a bit since then."

"And out, apparently," I grumbled, looking down at myself again. "That still sounds awfully big."

Carmen giggled on the other end of the line. "First time I've heard that! Oh, sweetie, it's nothing. It's not uncommon for young men to have some breast development. You may be a bit beyond average, but it's nothing to be..." She stopped. "Did Brian do something to you?" she asked, in a much darker tone.

Blink. "Ah, no, we were just--"

"Because I like that boy, but if he hurts you--"

"Nonono! It's." I sighed. "I'm okay, Aunt Ceecee. Just surprised, is all."

"Well," she said, then huffed into the line. "If he does, you just let me know, and I'll sew a pair of E cups into his next costume."

I glanced over at Brian, and, just for a moment, imagined what that would look like, and couldn't help but dissolve into laughter. "I'll tell him you said that!" I said, getting a nervous glance from him that I waved off.

"You do!" She said, laughing herself. "Are you sure you’re okay?"

"Yeah, I think... yeah," I said again, smiling. "Thanks."

"Any time, mija. I love you."

"Love you too, Aunt Ceecee. Goodbye."

"Hasta luego, sweetie."

*click*

I dropped my arms to my sides and gave Brian a long, cold look as things sank in for me.

"Hey, you okay?" He asked, moving closer and reaching to touch my shoulder, but stopping short.

I just stood there and silently thought.

I have boobs.

How many free shows had I given my stream followers, pulling my tee shirt tight to show I didn't? How many times had I flashed folks bending over wearing tanks in the past?

How many times had I flashed BRIAN, I wondered, giving him another long look. As if sensing what I was thinking, he took a step back and blushed.

I knew Carmen wasn't wrong, and that it probably wasn't as big a deal as it felt like. But it was one thing to think about someone like Aaron or Brian with a bit of extra chest, and another thing to think about it on me. On Brian or Aaron, it would just look like extra padding on the pecs, maybe a bit of baby fat.

"Ah, Leigh?" Brian said, working up the nerve to finally come toward me and touch me, wrapping his arm around my shoulder and giving me a small hug.

I closed my eyes and took yet another deep breath, centering myself. "Sorry. I'll be fine. Just a paradigm shift, nothing to worry about, heh," I said, trying for humor, but even I could hear the note of desperation in my voice.

Brian gave me another little squeeze. "Hey, if things are too much, we can stay home."

I considered it, I really did, but shook my head. "No."

"You sure?"

"No," I said again. "But it doesn't sound like this is anything new. People have been telling me for years what I look like." I reached up and gave Brian's hand a quick squeeze before lifting it off my shoulder, pretending not to notice as his fingers brushed my ass on the swing down. I forced a smile and stepped away, looking up at him. "So, if I can't do anything about it, just deal with it, right?"

"Leigh...."

"Shoes or sandals?" I asked him.

"Hmm?"

"Do I wear shoes or sandals today? I don't know what we're doing. Do I need the foot protection?"

Brian studied my expression, then smiled himself and seemed to relax a bit, which helped mine to grow more genuine. "Sandals are fine. Don't forget sunscreen."

"I'll prep a bag," I said, walking back to my closet and reaching first for a pair of flip-flops before changing my mind and going for the leather strap sandals. "Sunscreen, a couple of towels, some water. A couple extra shirts?" I asked, looking over my shoulder to find him still watching me.

"Ah, yeah, good idea. I'll go grab a shirt and the towels and be right back."

"Sounds good," I agreed, strapping my sandals on and pulling my spare messenger bag out of the closet so I wouldn't have to unpack my normal one. "Oh, and Brian?"

"Yeah?" He said, stopping in the doorway and turning back to face me.

"Let's have fun today," I said, grinning.

"We will," he said, giving me a dazzling grin back. "Promise."

-==-

NOTES:

Another week, another chapter! Even as I post this Erin's getting part 12 assembled to go up on the BCTS Patreon, so if you wanna see what happens a bit early, feel free to hop over there and take a look!

Comments and kudos appreciated. *hugs*

Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 12: Bog Bottom

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 12 -- Bog Bottom

It took me a while to figure out where we were heading. I'd lived in Bayonet for almost a decade, but I'd grown up further north, closer to Alexandria. Brian, on the other hand, had lived his entire life relatively local, and knew the back streets and little side roads like the back of his hand. He was avoiding the worst of them since we were in my car rather than his truck, but it was still an adventure of unnamed places that hadn't seen a re-pave in decades.

Me? It took me two months before I could make it from the studio to our apartment without my GPS on.

I didn't dare say anything about my confusion, not after Thursday, but I still felt myself relax when I started to recognize some of the roads we were on, even if I couldn't place where we were heading.

Then I saw the sign, and Brian hit his turn signal.

"No way," I said, laughing. I turned to look at Brian, and all he did was give me a wink. "Bog Bottom? Really?"

"Really," he said. "They don't officially re-open 'til next summer, but they're doing some test days, and one of my friends at work offered me a couple tickets a while back. I'd planned on seeing if you wanted to check it out after the convention was over, but thought you could use the escape, so." He shrugged and actually blushed a little.

I couldn't help but bounce in my seat a bit, excited. "Are you kidding? This is great!" I said, my face starting to hurt from how wide my smile was.

Bog Bottom!

As a kid I'd heard of the place, but my family always went to either Texas or Arkansas for our vacations, so I'd never been there. When I came down to Bayonet for college, it was on my To Do list, but I was bound for disappointment, finding out when I moved onto campus that the park had shut down a couple of years earlier due to the cost of maintenance being too high for the owners to keep up with. It was a shame: all the locals had nothing but good things to say about the place.

I'd heard a couple of years ago that someone had bought it and was planning on re-opening it, but nothing since.

Brian pulled onto another side road, this one much better cared for than some of the others we'd passed, and as the gates to the park emerged from the trees ahead of us, I couldn't help another happy bounce.

We pulled up to the gates, and a rather bored-looking security guard came forward, leaning down to look in Brian's window. "Sorry, folks. The park isn't open yet. Staff and special guests only."

"We're special guests," Brian said, pulling a thin envelope out of his pocket and handing it to the guard.

The guard opened the envelope, scanned its contents, and grinned. "Oh, you're Mister Venable then? And guest?" He looked across the car at me, and his grin grew wider. "Welcome to Bog Bottom, and thanks for helping us test the place out! Things are still rough around the edges, so you'll need this," he said, reaching into his back pocket and pulling out a brochure he handed to Brian. "There's a map in there, updated this morning to show what rides and shops are up and what isn't. Park in the area highlighted in pink; the rest of the lot is reserved for work crews and materials still."

"Thanks. Don't get too hot out here," Brian said, glancing at the map.

The guard laughed. "Hey, new owners put A/C in the entrance hut. I'm good."

Brian laughed too, and we waved to the guard as we passed on through.

Even without the map, finding the section of the parking lot cordoned for guests would have been easy: it was the only part of the lot that was clear of debris and work vehicles. Instead, it had some thirty or forty miscellaneous vehicles parked in it, from family-sized SUVs to fancy sports cars and everything in between. I wondered for just a moment how many of the cars were 'special guests' like us and how many were the folks who would be working the rides and stores, but I didn't have long to think about it before Brian found a spot of our own and parked us.

My belt was off almost before the engine, and I was out the door with my bag on the hood of my car almost as quickly. Brian wasn't far behind me for speed, and while I double-checked the contents of my bag and applied some sunscreen, he laid the pamphlet out on the hood across from me, looking at the map.

"Looks like we'll have access to about two-thirds of the park," he said. "They don't have Bandit up yet," Bandit being the big steel coaster that so many commercials had featured back in the day, "but Smokey is ready for test runs between noon and three, along with some of the other rides, and they're opening some of the water park stuff after, looks like they'll let that run 'til they close up at five." He checked his watch and smiled. "It's only ten thirty. We made better time than I expected, so."

Happy with my double-check of our bag, I walked around the hood and joined him studying the map. "What's open this morning, then?" I asked, leaning in close to get a better look.

"Hmm. Looks like the go-kart track is available all day. Fright Manor is open, too: I heard they've torn down the original and built an all-new ride-along version, so that might be fun. And they've got most of the Bog Bottom Village businesses showing as open too."

"What's that?" I asked, looking at the solid quarter of the park's footprint straight down the middle that was color-coded as part of the village.

"It's sort of an old-timey crafts and... tell ya what, why don't we start there?" He asked me. "It's open all day, but we can check some stuff out, and if you see anything you like, we can stop back by and get it before we leave. Stretch a bit before doing any rides."

"Sounds like a plan!" I said, stepping back and clapping my hands together. "I'm gonna buy one of those big bear statues carved out of a log and make you carry it."

"Or you could carry it and I could take the bag of stuff," he said as he folded the map and slipped it into his pocket.

"Nope! My bag, my stuff. And I'll be carrying all the candles and crap anyway. My hands will be far too full to carry the bears."

"Oh, it's *bears* now?"

"Well, you can't have just one," I explained to him as we headed toward the second set of gates, these person-sized. "You need one for each side of the door. Like gargoyles."

"Mm-hmm," he said, clearly not buying it. "I don't think the super would let you keep those out on the landing."

"Hmmm," I said, pretending to think about it. "Maybe you're right. Hold off on the bears for now."

"Thank god," Brian said, sounding legitimately relieved, which set off my own laughter as we reached the second gate. Another guard stood here, but instead of checking us for tickets or anything just waved us on through, I guess assuming that if we made it past the first gate, we were good.

Anyone who's ever visited an amusement park knows that special feeling you get when you cross the threshold between the real world and the park grounds. It's an odd sense of passage, marked by a change in the texture of the sounds and smells like they're so much more on one side of the wall or fence than on the other.

Even in the heat, I felt a little chill as we stepped out onto the brick path beyond the gate and shivered.

Brian seemed to feel the excitement too, and I'd swear I felt an electric spark pass between us when he placed his hand in the middle of my upper back and just stood next to me, taking things in.

Despite its name, Bog Bottom was nothing close to an actual bog. The entrance of the park sat at the top of a long incline, with the pathways making a sort of long, narrow oval as they stair-stepped down and down. The result was a kind of large, cobbled courtyard, with old-timey-looking buildings crowding along its edges punctuated by additional pathways leading to the park's various sub-sections, narrower than the central loop but themselves still broad enough for parade floats and service vehicles. Tall trees filled in the space behind the buildings, giving the impression of the forest closing in, but the gleaming steel of the rides beyond jutted out of the treescape, breaking the illusion.

In the middle of the long oval was a large, raised dais, at least forty feet in diameter. I knew from the commercials I'd seen as a kid that the dais had at one time had a set of hangman's stocks along one edge, used as part of some of the shows that would be put on for visitors, but those hadn't been used since the 80s, and it seemed the new owners had made a point of removing them. At the far end of the oval, at the very bottom of the slope, was a long pier with a tall guard rail, bordering on one of the local rivers. Even after the park's closure, the pier had seen a lot of use, since Bayonet had leased it from the owners of the park every year as the launching point of the city's own fireworks show. I imagined the city was more than happy to let the owners take over the expense for that!

My eyes must have been a mile wide because Brian took one look at my face and laughed. "Yeah, it's pretty neat," he said, moving his arm to around my shoulders and gesturing around the park. "The coasters are both to the left, down that first path. Then just down from there is the go-karts, and the last path on that side leads to the water park rides."

He shifted to my other side, swapping arms, and continued to point. "Over here, you have the kiddie rides first, then the mansion and a few of the other more carnival-type things, and then down near the shore, they've got another, longer boardwalk out of sight behind the buildings, with more of the games and amusement stuff. At least, that's how it used to be," he said, frowning just a bit and pulling out his map.

It really did look fantastic, though the overall effect was marred a bit by its clearly unfinished state. Several of the "old-timey" buildings' illusions were broken by half-assembled facades and construction equipment sitting in the middle of the paths in front of them, ropes and tape directing us away from getting too close, and temporary barriers stood in front of the paths Brian had mentioned leading to the coasters, water park, and amusement games.

And so few people! What shops weren't under renovation had friendly folks milling about in front, and from our vantage, I could see a few small groups of people, mostly in threes and fours, exploring, kids laughing, adults smiling. But it was almost eerily quiet: no music over the loudspeakers, some of which were still sitting on the ground, ready to be mounted. No announcements. No constant low roar of thousands of people in proximity.

"It's like visiting a ghost town," I said without thinking, once again getting a chuckle from Brian.

"A bit, yeah. But hey: no waiting in line for anything!"

"True!" I said, laughing too. Then something caught my eye. "Oooh, how about we start there?"

"You lead the way," Brian agreed, and I grinned excitedly as I led him toward our destination.

That was how we spent our first forty minutes or so in the park: walking from little shop to little shop, checking out what they had for sale. It was mostly what you would expect: cheap souvenirs, with or without the Bog Bottom name plastered across them, 'old time' craftworks that almost all had stickers on the bottom proclaiming their Chinese origins, and things like that. In between those, you had the businesses that tried to show the old ways of doing things, and were halfway between stores and shows, with hands-on crafts for things like candle-making, an old printing press where you could use the blocks to create your own stationery and even a blacksmith's furnace.

The buildings that were still seeing maintenance were almost universally the restaurants that would normally populate the square, but there was a funnel cake stand open, and another selling hot dogs, soft pretzels, and soft drinks, so we weren't completely reliant on the bottles of water we'd probably broken rules by bringing in.

We looked, but I didn't buy anything, not yet. We had hours to go in the park, and the last thing I wanted was to walk around all day toting things I could have picked up right before time to leave.

Once we had checked out all the little shops, it was time for some rides.

"Go-karts?" Brian asked, a bit too casually.

"Hmmm," I said, remembering the last time I'd gone go-karting with him. I tapped my lips with my finger as I thought. "How about we save the go-karts for last and use them to dry off after we check out the water park rides."

"You just want to tire me out first," he accused, his eyes twinkling.

"Yes," I agreed without hesitation. "Last time we did go-karts, you pit maneuvered me."

"You were in my way."

"I was a lap behind you!"

"And in my way," he said again.

"I... you...." I was trying to stay mad, but I was failing. He wasn't helping either, giving me his best look of faux innocence.

"Don't smile."

"Shut up!" I said, my composure finally cracking as I began laughing. "S'not funny!"

"Well, then I guess we can save go-karts for last," he agreed. "But."

"But?" I asked, wiping a couple tears from my eyes as my giggle-fit faded.

"But only if you make me a promise."

"Oh? And what's that?" I asked, doing my best to sound confident despite still wanting to crack up.

"Ya gotta promise that if I win...."

"What?!" I asked, anxiously.

Brian grinned. "I'll tell ya after."

"That's not--"

"Promise?"

"Brian!" I whined, to no avail, as he just stood there, arms crossed and with that confident smirk he always got when he was planning something nefarious.

"Go-karts last," he finally said, giving me a Look. "We've still got a while before the coaster opens, so, Fright Manor and some carnival games, or check out the other rides first?"

"Regular rides first," I said, still not sure if I'd won on the go-kart argument or not. "Then the coaster should be open, and we can do the haunted house and the carnival stuff after until the water rides open?"

"Deal." Once again, he put his arm around my shoulder, and we began walking back toward the top of the courtyard, side by side.

I looked around, seeing the occasional couple or family doing their own thing too. The paths leading to the rides and amusements certainly seemed busier than the courtyard itself, but given how few of us there were in the park, that wasn't much of a surprise.

Then I looked up at Brian. Catching my gaze, he smiled and gave me a little squeeze, and I found myself smiling back even as I wondered just what the hell we were doing.

Growing up, my family was always very touch-ey. Hugs were given multiple times a day, foreheads were kissed, backs and shoulders were rubbed. Brian seemed to have had the same kind of upbringing, and as our friendship had cemented,we'd long gotten over any sense of awkwardness over touching each other’s arms, or hugging, or anything else.

But when had that changed into this, I wondered, even as I chose not to object to being tucked into Brian's side as we walked despite the heat.

I'd noticed it when we were out on Thursday, but I didn't think that was the first of it, just like it wasn't the first-time people had assumed we were together as more than just friends: it was just the first time in a long time I'd given any thought to it.

I thought about what we must look like, and truth be told if I'd seen two people walking together like we were, 'just friends' probably wouldn't have been my assumption either.

So, why wasn't I pulling away?

I looked around myself again and sighed. It was damn hot, but there was a breeze coming off the river, bringing with it the smell of the water, and a hint of the funnel cake vendor's wares. I checked out the facades of the buildings, the ones that were up and the ones that were still under construction and thought about how much work went into putting on the appearance of one thing while underneath, something else was going on.

Once again, I looked up at Brian, but his attention seemed to be on something else entirely. Turning to track his gaze, I saw an older man walking along with a woman, his arm wrapped around her much like Brian's was around me. The two of them were talking, laughing, and smiling at each other in that way that comes from a lifetime of love.

When I looked up again, Brian's attention was on me, his own eyes and smile saying....

Saying what?

I smiled back, and that seemed to satisfy him.

"They used to have this horse-drawn carousel that, hey, they still do!" He said happily as we walked down the path to the rides. With a gentle nudge, he directed me toward a pen to the right of the path, and beyond it, I could see a white-and-red carousel roof. Instead of the horses and unicorns, I would have expected to see hanging beneath it, though, there were simple wooden swings, only two of them occupied, with the only horse in sight being a tall Clydesdale, clip-clopping along around the outside of the carousel. On his back was a rider in full cowboy gear, holding a long rope attached to a ring attached to the carousel's rim, and as they rode around, he was keeping tension on the rope, so that the horse's slow but steady trot kept the carousel itself moving.

When the rider noticed our approach, he gave us a grin that went all the way up to his temples. "Heya! Line's around the corner, another loop, and we'll be ready for the next group."

Brian gave him a wave in thanks, and together we walked further down the fence to where it attached to an old log shack, or what looked like one. Inside the shack was a turnback line, with a single other couple, a man and a woman, and their toddler waiting.

"When I was little, this was the first ride my grandma would always take me on," he told me as we walked through the line. "She said it had been here since she was little, back when this was a logging camp."

The woman ahead of us turned to watch us approach and smiled. "My grandpa used to do the same when I was little. I'm so happy I get to bring Sandy here to ride it too," she said, tugging gently on the hand of the toddler at her side, who seemed more interested in watching the horse than paying us any mind. "My grandpa passed not long after the park closed, but it's a bit like having him in her life, you know?"

"Yeah," Brian said, squeezing me tighter against him. "Grandma passed when I was in high school, but she always told me she hoped she'd get to bring my kids here too."

I didn't need to hear the touch of strain in Brian's voice to know to hug him back.

"Do you two have any--" the woman started to ask us, but thankfully her question was interrupted by a whistle from the direction of the carousel.

"Thank you for yer patience, folks; right this way, and we'll load up," the gentleman in the cowboy outfit said, riding up to the end of the line on his horse. "Opposite sides of the carousel, helps it balance that way."

The woman and her husband waved at us before walking toward the carousel, pulling the toddler along behind her. who was watching the big horse in awe.

"You two, over here," the cowboy said, directing us to another bench swing.

The swings set a bit off the ground, and I was trying to figure out how best to climb on when I felt Brian's hands on my waist. With a quick twist and an "Alley-oop!" he spun me around and had me on the swing.

"Eeep!" I managed, in embarrassment or surprise or both, then let out another of mild alarm when Brian hopped up on the seat next to me, setting the bench swinging.

"Everyone aboard?" The cowboy asked, looking to the other couple and then to us. Satisfied, he trotted the horse back to the rope, and with a call of "One horse power!" and a whistle, we were off, the carousel slowly lurching to almost silent life.

As the world softly began to turn around us, Brian's arm once again rested around my shoulders.

This time, I didn't question it at all.

-==-

NOTES:

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 13: Ol' Smokey

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 13 -- Ol' Smokey

The best-laid plans never seem to survive contact with reality, and so it was with our day at the park.

We had just finished taking a spin on Swamp Thang -- think teacups, but with swamp boats, faster, and the whole thing constantly tilting at odd angles -- when the member of the staff running the ride gathered everyone they could find together to let us know that the opening of the coaster would be delayed for about an hour and that the water park wouldn't be opening at all due to technical issues.

A few people were disappointed at the news, especially some of the kiddos.

"Hope this doesn't ruin your day at the park," Brian said, seeming honestly worried.

"Are you kidding?" I laughed, giving him a quick hug. "Brian, this has been great so far. So what if a few rides are down: that just gives us reason to come back sometime, right?"

"Right," he agreed, laughing too. "Any time."

With the delay to the coaster opening, we decided to re-work our itinerary a bit, and after we were finished sampling the other open rides, we made our way to what Brian called the 'carnival district' of the park.

Like the central courtyard, there was still a lot of work being done in this part of the park, with a number of the amusements only half-way renovated and not yet open. To make up for it, one of the small amphitheaters had been kitted out with a few of the boardwalk games that would usually be down near the shore, and we managed to keep ourselves busy with a mixture of carnival and arcade games.

I even let Brian win a few of them.

Eventually, the time for the roller coaster to open began to loom, so we made our way toward our last stop in the carnival district: Fright Manor.

"When I was growing up this was just a regular haunted house, and a kinda hokey one too," Brian said. "From what Frank told me, though, it's one of the attractions the new owners have spent the most on."

"Frank?"

"My friend who got us the tickets. And it looks like he was right," Brian said, looking up at the edifice before us.

"I'll say!"

Our entire time hanging out in the carnival district, we had seen hints of Fright Manor in the background, looming just beyond the trees on the east side of the district. It wasn't until we approached that the place really began to make its presence known, though. Bottles hung from the trees, clinking away in the warm breeze off the river, and whether through careful gardening or barely controlled chaos, the grounds that separated the manor from the rest of the district had a definite oppressing presence to them.

The manor itself, much like the rest of the park, was still somewhat under construction. While the main facade on approach from the park was there, giving the impression of a proper spooky plantation house, there were still a number of places along the expansive wings where the concrete and steel inner walls of the structure were visible, not yet covered with either their decorative veneers nor grown over with the plant life that was obviously intended to help disguise the more industrial extensions on the structure.

Still, I could see what they were going for, and I imagined the place would be pretty unsettling once it was finished.

Most of the rides and amusements we'd gone to, we had been accompanied by at least a couple of other people, but when we walked through the large double-doors at the front of the manor, we found nobody there but a bored-looking attendant, leaning on a podium near the front.

When she noticed us, the attendant shuffled to her feet and did her best to put on a happy expression. "Hi there, welcome to Fright Manor! Sorry for the less-than-terrifying entryway: we're still getting a lot of the actual texture of the place in order. That includes a lot of the features along the way, but we're open for folks who want a preview of what we're planning!"

"So, the ride's not finished yet?" I asked, as though the stacks of building materials and the smell of paint in the lobby didn't make that clear enough.

"Not nearly," the attendant said, her shoulders slumping in her park-issue polo. "Like, the RIDE ride is, but it's this sort of Pirates of the Caribbean deal. We've got all these dioramas and animatronics, and... it's being a butt," she admitted.

"Bugs in the system?" Brian asked as we came to a stop in front of the podium, the girl making no move to rush us into the waiting cars.

"Literally, in some cases," she said. On seeing our expressions of confusion, she continued. "The designers didn't take into account the local wildlife when designing some of the maintenance accesses, so it's been an adventure as they've tried to figure out how to keep the frogs and snakes and lizards and everything else from gumming up the works or making it too dangerous to keep running. The ride's all fun and games 'til what you thought was a fake creepy-crawly tries to climb in the car with you."

I looked at the low side walls on the cars in question, and just imagining what might try to get in with us made me shiver, probably more than anything the ride could show us would.

"Sounds like maybe we shouldn't do this one," Brian said, giving me a worried look.

"Oh, it's safe!" The girl assured us, waving her hands and looking upset. "I didn't mean to drive ya off! Right now, they're keeping the lights up so that things are super-visible, and I've got monitors right over here behind the wall letting me keep an eye on pretty much everything," she said, waving to a section of wall that jutted out next to her podium. "So, if there is a... there won't be a problem," she said, realizing she wasn't really helping.

I wasn't convinced, and from the look on his face, neither was Brian. "How long is the ride?" I asked the girl.

"It's about ten minutes right now: it'll be longer when they have all the features in place, and they slow the speed of the cars down?"

I looked up at Brian, asking the question.

He looked back down at me.

As if to confirm our decision, a loud bang followed by a gruff "Sonuva!" from somewhere out of sight but inside the structure caused both of us and the girl at the podium to jump.

"Damnit, Dave, what's it this time!" She yelled down the tunnel, only to duck and shriek when a barn swallow flew out and over our heads, darting out the door. Right behind it came a dirty man in a pair of coveralls.

"Did it leave?" He asked the girl, then turned to us before she could answer. "Did it leave?!"

"Ah, yeah. Flew out the door," I said, pointing with my thumb.

"Good," he said, then sat down on the rounded front of one of the cars. "Damn things keep trying to nest in the haunted swamp section."

"Isn't it a bit late in the year for swallows to still be nesting?" I asked, looking over my shoulders back toward the exit.

"You askin' me?" The man shrugged and wiped his forehead with a grimy work rag. After a moment, he seemed to realize we were guests, not other workers, and tucked the rag away and blushed. "Ah, sorry, folks. Were you wantin' to, ah," he looked down and patted the side of the car he was leaning on, leaving a greasy handprint on the dark red paint.

"I think we'd decided against it," I admitted, catching Brian's nod in my peripheral vision. "But thanks."

"You sure?"

"We're sure," Brian said, even as we were already backing toward the entrance. "Maybe next time."

"Probably for the best," the guy agreed, wiping his forehead with his bare hand this time.

"Thanks for coming by anyway," the girl attendant said, giving us a friendly wave.

We waved back, then turned and got out of the place as quickly as we could.

I waited until we were clear of the cyprus trees with the bottles before looking back over my shoulder and grinning at Brian. "Maybe hokey was better?" I asked him, getting a choke of laughter in response.

"Yeah, well, they've still got, what, nine months to work out the kinks?"

"I'm less worried about the kinks than the skinks," I said, less laughing than giggling at my own joke.

"Skinks? Oh, heh," he agreed, giving me a quick hug around the shoulders. Like at home, his hand caressed my ass on the way down, this time seemingly less by chance than the first.

Even less by chance, I felt his fingers brush the side of my hand.

I looked up at him again, but his eyes were looking anywhere but at me, even as I felt his fingers brush the back of my hand again.

I looked away too but turned my hand palm-up, fingers open.

A second later, I felt his questing fingers slip across my palm and gently take hold.

Another look his way, another expression of determinedly not looking back at me, though his fingers did squeeze my hand gently.

I squeezed back and looked forward again. Whatever was going on between us, for the moment, I was content to just let it be and figure it out later. After all, this was my day off, I was supposed to be relaxing and enjoying myself.

And I was, I reminded myself with a contented smile and a bounce in my step.

The barriers were still in place, letting guests know that the paths to the roller coaster were still closed, but there was already a group of people huddled outside them when we arrived.

"Any news?" Brian asked one of the other men, a tall, balding fellow in a faded polo shirt.

"One of the workers came by about five minutes ago, and said it would be about ten minutes from then," the guy said, double-checking his watch. "Y'all enjoyin' the park so far?"

"Yeah," Brian and I said at the same time, getting me a hand squeeze and a grin from him. "It looks like they're putting a lot of money into the place."

"Betcher ass," the man said, getting a dirty look from a woman nearby who was there with a young boy. "I'm Charles Wilkins, head of marketing," he said, giving our clasped hands a glance before offering his own hand to Brian.

"They want me to get a feel for the place so I can start working on some early ad campaigns." He kept a grip on Brian's hand after their shake and leaned in close to us. "Between you and me? I don't know if they can get everything done before opening day. But hey, when are things ever done on time?" He asked, then leaned back and laughed.

Brian laughed too. "Yeah, the haunted house...."

"Ah! Don't even get me started on that shithole," the man said, getting another nasty look from the lady with the boy, who covered his ears and led him over to one of the nearby shops. "I tried to tell 'em that nobody wants animatronics nowadays, they'da been better off investing in one of those three-dimensional virtual rides, but the new owners really wanted a Haunted Mansion equivalent for some reason, and see what it's getting them. I don't--"

"FWEEET!"

We all turned to watch as a trio of workers approached us from beyond the barrier, the lead woman dropping her whistle as she neared.

"All right, folks, the time you've been waiting for is here!" She said, the other two workers taking position near the barrier, ready to move it. The whistle had done its job, catching the attention of park-goers further away, and she gave the crowd a few moments to coalesce before continuing.

"A few rules before we open the barriers. Ol' Smokey is in fine working order, but you'll still see equipment around for the work on the water park and Bandit: please stay clear of any machinery you see, even if it's not active.

“Likewise, for the test period, we're only going to be running a maximum of three cars at a time: I know a lot of you were looking forward to not waiting in lines today, but them's the breaks," she said, getting a few chuckles from the crowd. "Now, keep calm and walk, don't run, to the coaster. Fellas?"

The two workers with her took hold of the sides of the barrier and swung it open, and without another word, the woman with the whistle turned around and began to head back down the path, leaving us to follow.

"So, what's special about Smokey?" I asked Brian as we walked along.

"It's an old-style wooden coaster, the oldest one in Louisiana," Brian said.

"Not as old as the carousel," I asked, a little worried.

"Hah! No. The first version of Ol' Smokey went up in the nineteen fifties. They re-worked the whole thing in the late nineties when they built Bandit, but I'm not sure what all they've done to it since re-opening the park."

"I can tell you that!"

"Hmm? Oh, hey Frank!" Brian said, giving the worker approaching us one of those one-armed back-slapping man-hugs. "Didn't know you'd be here today!"

"Well, they got me doing some tests on the reinforcements to Bandit's structure, make sure they're up to modern code," Frank said, his eyes sparkling when he saw me standing next to Brian.

"Sounds fascinating," I said, only half-sarcastically.

"Oh, it is," Frank agreed, eyeing me hungrily. "Though there are certainly more fascinating sights in the park. Francois Pinchot," he said, offering me his hand.

"Ah, Leigh," I said, taking the offered hand and getting a surprisingly gentle shake in response.

"Venable?" He asked, giving Brian a sideways look.

"No? Serrano."

"Fascinating indeed," he said, letting go of my hand and stepping back.

"Frank...."

"What?" He asked, chuckling at Brian's scowl. "You know I have a thing for sporty girls," he said, his gaze traveling to my jersey but his focus clearly on what was underneath.

"I'm not a, I mean I'm not that," I trailed off, blushing as both men looked at me. Brian squeezed my hand again, but I could tell he was torn between annoyance at Frank and wanting to laugh at my reaction.

I wasn't torn at all and glared at both of them.

Frank chuckled, then turned his attention back to Brian. "I think you've told me about her before, haven't you? Your roommate, right?"

"Yeah. Leigh's had a rough week, 's why I asked for the tickets today. Thanks for that, by the way."

"Hey, what are friends for it not sharing, right?" Frank asked, looking my way again.

I frowned and pulled my hand from Brian's so I could cross my arms across my chest. "I'm not property, Francis," I said pointedly.

"Francois," he said, his smile faltering a bit.

"I kinda like Francis," Brian said, putting his arm around my shoulder. I glanced up at him and saw something in his eyes that made me feel a little scared... but also set some butterflies in my stomach.

Frank coughed. "Ah, my apologies, I... sorry," he said, giving me a respectful nod. "I hope you two enjoy the coaster, and just let me know if you want tickets again." With a dramatic gesture he lifted his arm and looked at his watch. "I should get back to work. See you back at the office?"

"In a couple weeks," Brian agreed, relaxing a bit.

"Sure. You two take care," Frank said, then walked off.

We continued standing there for almost a minute, I think neither one of us sure what to make of what had happened, until finally I felt the tension in Brian's arm relax as he began to chuckle.

"What's so funny?" I asked, frowning up at him as he shook with restrained humor. "He was a creep!"

Brian gave me a squeeze and a little nudge to get us walking again, and after only a moment of stubbornness I went along with it. "Yeah, he's always talked a big game at work, and I knew a lot of the women at the company avoided him, but I didn't figure he'd be that blatant, especially...."

Pause.

"Especially if he thinks we're on a date?" I asked, surprising myself by finding the nerve to say the quiet part loud.

"Yeah," Brian agreed, squeezing me again.

We walked along in silence for a little while. Most of the crowd we had started out as part of had passed us by during our conversation with Brian's "friend," and I could hear the coaster starting its first run some way ahead of us, the clanking of the carriage accompanied by some loud but generic country music.

I thought about our day so far and smiled.

"I've had worse dates," I said quietly, reaching up with my left hand to take hold of his where it sat on my shoulder.

As we came closer to the old, converted lumber mill that made up the entrance to the coaster, I couldn't help but think about something Brian had said earlier in the day.

"Brian?"

"Yeah?"

"Now will you tell me what you want if you win at the go kart track later?"

"No."

"No?!" I dropped his hand from my shoulder and spun to face him, walking backwards as I did so. "I won't agree if you don't tell me."

"You won't agree if I do," he argued, giving me a cocky wink.

"So, it's something embarrassing?"

"Maybe at first," he agreed, in a teasing tone. "But honestly? I don't think you'll mind it once you get used to it."

The butterflies in my stomach returned. "It's not... dirty, is it?" I asked, blushing.

Brian looked to the sky dramatically, pretending to think about my question. "I suppose that depends on how much of a prude you are. You might wanna turn around."

"Hmm? Oh!" I said, turning around just in time to stop myself from backing right into the rear of the line of people waiting for the coaster.

Brian's hand was in the middle of my back again as I thought about what he had said, and the possibilities for what he was thinking.

In the distance, I heard a girl screaming as the coaster raced along its course, and I knew that soon enough, that could very well be me, yelling at the top of my lungs as we zipped around the curves and over the hills. Somehow, I doubted the adrenaline rush would help calm down my fluttering pests at all.

I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself. I thought I had a good idea of what Brian was planning on asking as a forfeit if I lost....

And I intended to make him earn it.

-==-

NOTES:

As per usual, the next chapter is now up on BCTS Patreon! We're approaching the half-way point of the story too!

Comments and kudos welcome and appreciated.

Melanie E.

Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 14: Forfeit

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 14 - Forfeit

*Bzzzzzzzzt*

I released the buzzer and waited, hoping the third time was the charm. I was about to hit it again when I heard a click, and the speaker next to the panel of buttons came to crackly life.

"Door's open, come on up," said a low-quality version of Maria's voice, as I heard the chunky clonking of the electric lock on the main door release. I didn't hesitate to push the door open and head up the flight of stairs to her landing, knowing that if I wasn't quick the door was prone to locking itself again. Once there, it was a short jog to her apartment and in the door, locking it behind me.

"Gimme another half an hour, would ya?" Maria asked from her kitchenette, accompanied by the smell of brewing coffee.

"I can give you a whole one," I agreed, making my way toward the smell to find her leaning on the counter with her eyes closed. "If you promise not to fall back asleep."

"No can do," she said, but gave me a sleepy grin. "But I'll try. Not every day you ask me to go shopping with you."

"Yeah, well," I frowned and sat down at her counter, pulling a mug off the little copper mug tree she kept there as much to keep my hands busy as in anticipation of coffee. "I don't wanna make this shopping trip alone, and I wasn't gonna invite Brian along," I said, a little more heated than I'd intended to.

"Oh?" Maria said, perking up. She turned her attention back to the coffee pot just long enough to slide the pot out and replace it with her mug in one smooth, well-practiced move. "You didn't tell me what we were shopping for last night, but it sounds like you're still pissed about whatever it is."

"I'm not pissed!" I said, pissily, then sighed. "I'm *not.* Just... it's stupid."

"Can't be any more stupid than the half hour I spent arguing with Craig yesterday about whether I could use a monster based on the Balrog without having to get the Tolkien trust's permission," she scowled, bringing the pot over to fill my cup too. Craig was the name of the Knights' lawyer, and Maria's nemesis. "So, what is it?"

I blew on my coffee, both to cool it down a bit and delay having to say anything. "I need to buy underwear," I finally said, fighting through the blush.

Maria chuckled. "Okay, and why does this require my help?"

"Not underwear underwear," I managed, feeling like my face was ready to pop from the heat. "I... women's underwear."

Maria's chuckles turned into full-on giggles. "Aunt Cici finally break you down, huh? No?" She tilted her head as she thought. "It doesn't sound like you want to do this."

I sighed. "It's... it's Brian's fault!"

"How is it his fault?"

"He beat me at go karts and now I have to buy panties," I mumbled, torn between indignance and shame.

"Waitasec, what?" Maria shook her head, still giggling like mad. "What happened?"

I took a sip of my coffee with shaking hands. "It's... Brian challenged me that if he beat me at go karts, I'd have to do something he asked me to, and he won, and told me he wants me to buy... panties... to wear under my costumes for the weekend."

"Sounds like you made a stupid bet," Maria said, sipping her own coffee.

"Well, I didn't think he was gonna ask me to buy freaking panties!"

"What did you think he was gonna ask for then?" She asked me, her grin widening as I felt my blush somehow escalate to a new level of strength. "Oooooooh. Do I need to tell Sydney her ship has arrived?"

"What do you--no! It's not, argh!" I pushed my cup away and thonked my head on the counter, hoping it'd knock some sense into place. "I was caught up in the day, okay?"

"So, it was a good day at the park then?"

"It was... yeah. It was great," I agreed, lifting my head enough to cross my arms beneath it and turn to face Maria's way again. "Still about half-finished, but we had a good time, and."

"And?"

"And... okay, so I may have gotten the impression that Brian might want to... but I was wrong. He just wanted to tease me."

"That's what guys do when they like you," Maria said, shrugging. "Like when Devon used to tug on your shirt tail whenever you'd stand up."

"That was fourth grade, and Devon was a twerp."

"A twerp with a crush."

I shook my head. "Whatever." I raised back up and grabbed my cup. "It doesn't matter anyway."

Maria slid her stool over and gave me a quick squeeze. "Sure, it does. You wanted a kiss and didn't get one. It's perfectly fair to feel disappointed."

I opened my mouth to argue but closed it again as I thought about what she'd said.

Was that really what I was angry about? Not the whole underwear thing, but the kiss thing?

Immediately my mind went to thinking about Brian, holding my hand tightly as I screamed in joy on the coaster, and the anticipation I'd felt about....

I shook my head. "I'd as soon kiss Jonah," I argued, remembering just as clearly the look of delight on Brian's face when he'd explained the terms of his victory.

That got Maria giggling again. "He'd probably like that, actually!" She said, punching me lightly in the shoulder. "Lunea, breaker of all the men’s hearts."

"I'm a man too," I pointed out, rather weakly, getting an eye roll from Maria in response.

"Well, now I know what we're shopping for, I've got Ideas," she said, sliding away a bit to give her elbows more room on the counter. "But first things first: are you sure you're okay with this?"

"I guess I agreed to it."

"Nuh uh," Maria said, shaking her head vehemently. "No guessing, no putting it on anyone else. I'm not gonna drag you from store to store while you mope about and act like some kind of martyr."

"Maria..."

"Aaaaht!" She said, cutting me off. "My aunt didn't make you do this, and Brian can't either. Either you're doing this because you're willing to, or you're not. So, what is it?"

I tried to glare at her, but my heart just wasn't in it.

I sipped my coffee again and thought.

And thought some more.

Maria, for her part, went back to her own coffee and let me be. When her first cup was empty, she filled it again, but this time left me in the kitchenette and headed for her room.

Feeling a bit restless, I stood up and walked around Maria's apartment while I waited on her.

Maria's place was smaller than mine and Brian's, a little one-bedroom affair with her computer shoved into one corner of the living area, piles of paperwork scattered around it and her sketch table set up to the side. As a kid she'd always had a sketchbook in hand, and I knew that it had been her dream when we'd headed off to college to be a big-name illustrator one day.

Now, instead, I saw the drawing table plastered with print outs of other people's art, with names and contact information. Artists the company wanted her to consider for the source book they were producing for the world she ran our game in. Next to their art were a few half-finished sketches of her own, done in the snippets of time I knew she struggled to find between working on everything she took care of for the Knights.

How many of us had sacrificed any semblance of the lives we'd expected in the name of the game?

Sydney worked our socials full-time, and Deidre I knew had a meeting today with a new supplier who wanted to try and buy out our clothing contract. Jonah used to spend a lot of time organizing our tech upgrades and editing, but as our staffing needs had grown, had sort of organized himself out of a job, and I had no idea what he did in his downtime now.

Brian still put his mechanical engineering degree to work now and then, in between side projects and helping the rest of us manage our parts of the business, and I... well, I had my own streaming to deal with, and the bills, and making sure everyone got paid, and....

I'd gone to college so I could teach, and I paid the yearly fees and took the yearly tests to keep my certifications up to date. I'd always planned on getting a job at a little elementary school somewhere, spending my days helping eight-year-olds figure out their multiplication tables and all of that.

Instead, the only math or history I taught anyone was whatever applied to my character sheet.

It seemed like the only one of us actually using their degree for much was Aaron, but I knew that he was struggling to find the time to keep up with the social work he did with the local kids in between the extra shows he was trying to do for the company too, all in service to the all-powerful metrics.

I sighed and sat down on the edge of the hide-a-bed, already unfolded and made up for Aunt Cici's arrival in the afternoon. Sometimes she'd make the drive down and back when she helped us with our costuming, but more often than not she'd stay the night in Maria's apartment, since the drive back home was long and lonely.

Still looking around, my eyes landed on Maria's bookshelf. Unlike mine, hers were almost floor-to-ceiling, stuffed with books on mythology, fantasy, and entire collections from multiple game systems, a few I'd never even heard of, all for research into what was once a hobby for us and now a full-time job.

Standing out from the books, however, was a single framed photo that made me smile. It was me and Maria, standing side by side and hugging each other, grinning like crazy and holding the golden streaming icon we'd received when Wednesday Knights had reached a million followers a couple of years ago. Brian had snapped the photo for us before we'd all headed out and gotten horrifyingly drunk in celebration, all of us waking up the next morning sprawled across the hide-a-bed I now sat on or Maria's floor, including Jonah.

I'd woken up in Brian's arms, and the rest of the group had been quick to give us a hard time about it, but there wasn't much to say either: we'd all passed out fully clothed, and to this day as far as I knew it was as simple as us passing out side-by-side and slipping into that position while we slept.

I'd objected to all the teasing, of course, going red in embarrassment -- about as red as I'd been earlier in the morning talking to Maria about having to buy panties. But Brian had remained cool about it, shrugging and smiling and having a good time.

I looked at the photo again and remembered that the entire time me and Maria were standing there grinning like fools, Brian was grinning right back at me.

It wasn't a grin like he'd given me when he told me what my forfeit was for losing the go kart races. No, that was his shit-eating 'I just got you' grin.

The grin he gave me over the streaming icon was more like the one he was wearing when he was holding my hand, the one where his eyes would sparkle and the right corner of his mouth would raise just a little more than the left, showing off his dimple on that side.

The one he was wearing when I thought, just for a little while, that maybe he wanted to kiss me.

"Stupid panties," I mumbled as I stood up, feeling like I'd been calling a lot of things stupid lately and wondering unkindly if I should admit that the common denominator to all of them was me.

"You say something?" Maria called through her door.

"Just talking to myself."

"'Kay."

I walked back to the kitchen and, having nothing better to do, washed my coffee cup in Maria's sink as I thought some more about today's trip.

Brian's grin after letting me know what he wanted for his victory was short-lived, and the ride home after was almost completely silent. I was annoyed, and I was hurt, and I was one hundred percent sure of why on the former but completely unsure of the reason for the latter.

No, that's a lie. I knew the reason I felt hurt.

I'd wanted Brian to kiss me.

And I was pretty sure he wanted that, too.

When I'd left that morning, he'd given me a look that seemed like it held just as much pain as I felt, so maybe he still did?

Did I still want it, too?

I shook my head and sat back on the stool I'd taken when I'd first entered the kitchenette earlier, elbows on the counter and chin in my hands.

I didn't want to want Brian to kiss me. I didn't want to think about wanting Brian to kiss me, or to think about him kissing me, or holding me, or....

"Blurgh," I grumbled, as the thoughts came anyway.

I'd rather stay pissed off about the panties, I reminded myself, but instead found I wasn't so pissed off about them at all anymore.

Maria was right, after all. There was nothing Brian could, or would, do about it if I didn't buy them, or even if I did buy them but didn't wear them.

On top of that, he was far from the only person who'd ever tried to talk me into them. Maria had tried when we were still in high school, mostly because she'd thought it'd be funny, and Aunt Cici had been trying to talk me into changing over for years, mostly for costumes, but there'd been hints she thought they'd fit me better anyway.

I'd texted her for my sizes before leaving the house that morning, so I had all the numbers I needed if I decided to do this.

I'd have Maria by my side for moral support and, inevitably, some mild teasing about it all.

And there was nobody who was going to make me do anything I wasn't willing to do.

For a moment I considered not doing it specifically because people, especially people named Brian, wanted me to, but I quickly chided myself for how petty that was. Brian was teasing me when he announced his expectations, but I also knew that he'd be the last person to judge me for going through with it too.

I was sure that anyone watching me would see steam rising from my ears as my brain worked overtime to try and decide what the right call was.

I was still thinking it over when Maria walked out of her room, dressed to de-stress in a pair of cutoff sweatpants and a baggy tee with flip flops. "So, what's the call?" She asked me, walking over to the sink to wash her own cup.

"I think," I said, then paused, letting the last of my thoughts settle into place. "I think we start off by going somewhere and getting something cheap and basic, then head back here, and see how I feel."

"Cheap and basic what?" Maria asked, gently pushing.

I sighed and stood up from my stool. "Let's buy me some panties," I said, feeling the blush rise again but mostly keeping it in check.

Maria gave a little squeal and rushed me with a hug. "This is gonna be so fun, hon! Trust me."

"Just don't tell Aunt Cici," I asked her. "She'll never let me live it down."

"She'll find out tomorrow anyway, assuming you go through with this."

"True, but that's a problem for Future Leigh. Right now, Present Leigh is overwhelmed enough."

"Fair. Probably means a g string is out of the question then."

I whimpered in answer, which set Maria to giggling.

At least I knew one of us would be having fun with things.

-==-

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 15: Final Fitting

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 15 -- Final Fitting

"Stop it."

"I'm not doing anything."

"Well, stop it anyway," I said, glaring at Brian for a brief moment before turning my attention back to the road. He still had the same stupid smirk plastered across his face he'd been wearing when I'd gotten back home the day before, bags in hand, not all of them particularly subtle about what was inside.

I was never going underwear shopping with Maria again.

"Are they that different from--"

"Brian!"

"Road!" He croaked, grabbing the dash as I had to slam on the brakes to keep from plowing into the rear bumper of the car ahead of us. "Alrightalright, sorry."

I grumped a bit, more to hide my embarrassment than in actual anger.

I'd intended to keep things simple on the shopping trip: a pack of cheap women's undies, in, out, done. Maria, however, wasn't content with that.

"If you're gonna get 'em, be serious," she'd said, and after we'd made the stop for the cheap and cheerful ones, she'd dragged me to a couple of the stores she preferred, the kind of stores that I'd always walked briskly past in case someone thought I was a perv for looking at the manikins in the windows.

I'd never figured I'd own anything from those stores myself.

I was wrong.

I did have to admit, though, there was a degree of method to Maria's madness. She'd assured me the cheap-o pack we'd picked up -- high cut bikinis, at her suggestion -- would be comfortable enough, but that if I was going to make a habit of wearing women's underwear I needed to know a bit more about what styles I liked and didn't, and materials. She'd also insisted that if I was going to be buying lingerie (her term) to wear with my costumes, then I needed to "embrace the sexy" and get something that would make me feel right from the skin out. The result was more than just underpants in the lurid pink, green, and silver bags I'd brought home.

I could have said no. I probably *should* have said no. But....

I squirmed in my seat again, not out of discomfort, but out of confusion at the lack thereof, I guess.

In the end, Aunt Cici was brought into the fold via a quick phone call to confirm the things she thought would work best with the costumes she had planned, and a few "extras" she felt that I should have as well, for Reasons. I was wearing one of those extras now, what Maria and Cici had called a tee shirt bra. They'd assured me that it would minimize the chest I was now all too aware I had and, so long as I wore a tank over it, wouldn't be obvious under any of my tees or anything either.

It was soft. It had wide straps, and little hooks in the front, and the last thing I was about to admit to *anyone* was the immediate reduction in jiggle I hadn't even realized was a problem only a week ago.

I felt like an idiot. I felt like everyone was going to notice what I was wearing. I felt like I was doing something wrong. But damn if I didn't also feel less exposed, and if Aunt Cici hadn't been right: the panties *did* fit better than even the men's bikinis did.

I glanced toward Brian as we pulled into the lot at the studio, and wilted a bit when I caught the look of regret on his face. Sure, he'd called the forfeit, but he hadn't actually done anything to force me to do it, and I'd been surly at best with him for almost two days now.

I pulled into our normal parking spot at the studio and shut the car off, but before Brian could climb out I locked the car doors. A symbolic gesture at best, since they'd automatically unlock if you pulled the handle from the inside, but it caught Brian's attention.

"Leigh...."

"No, can I, let me go first," I said, unbuckling my seat belt and turning to face him. Brian gave me a smile, but I could see a wariness behind it that set off a pang in my chest. "Listen, I'm sorry I've been such a--"

"No, I should never have--"

"I know you didn't mean it like--"

"I thought it'd help and be fun but--"

"Brian."

"Leigh."

We both stopped talking at the same time, and I found myself staring into Brian's eyes, my heart skipping a beat as he reached out and touched my shoulder, just for a moment, before dropping his hand again.

Sigh.

"Just..." I stopped talking again, taking some time to figure out what I needed to say. "I don't... you weren't *wrong,* I don't think," I finally said. "It just feels like everything's being super weird all of a sudden, and…"

Brian nodded. "You always freak a little before conventions," he said, the tension fading in his eyes. "But maybe the baby thing was a bit much."

"A bit," I agreed, rolling my eyes at the understatement. "But it's also a fun idea. I don't know if I'd have agreed to it if I'd known Aunt Cici had something like it planned, but I think it's gonna be popular with our followers and--"

"Leigh."

"Hmm?" I asked, the bit of agitation in Brian's voice throwing me off.

Brian sighed. "Don't... I'll back you up if you want to tell Cici and the others you've changed your mind about the baby part of the costume," he said, pushing his hair back from his face. "And I'm sorry -- I am -- that I've pushed you even more about things after."

"You didn't--"

"I did," he said, cutting me off. "I thought... it doesn't matter what I thought. Or think," he said, glancing down at my chest just long enough for me to scowl at him, which only made him smile even more. "Just like it doesn't matter if the stream loses every follower it has. I want to know you're comfortable with what you're doing."

I think I surprised both of us by laughing at that.

"Comfortable?" I said, unable to keep the disbelief out of my voice. "Brian, when am I comfortable with anything?" I closed my eyes and laughed a little more, more to myself than anything. "If I only did what I was comfortable with I'd still be sitting in my room at home, playing my Game Kid and refusing to interact with anyone."

"You had a Game Kid? I didn't get a handheld 'til the TS," he said, laughing along with me.

"Phillistine," I said, but smiled at him. He reached out and rubbed my shoulder again, and I couldn't fight the urge to reach up and give his hand a squeeze before dropping it on the back of my seat.

I thought about what Brian was saying. In a lot of ways it was the same kind of thing Maria had said to me the day before... and in the end, I had to answer it the same way.

"I think I need to do this," I said, looking him in the eyes. "I think I need to see where this goes, because it feels like it's important?"

"I'll be here for you no matter what," he said, and I could see in his eyes the truth in his words.

"I'll hold you to that," I said back, quietly, as we kept looking at each other.

*KNOCKKNOCK*

"Eeek!" I squeaked and jumped in my seat, turning to the front of my car to see Sydney leaning on the hood, watching us.

"Either start making out or come inside," she said, rapping on the hood again and giving us a shit-eating grin before turning around and heading toward the building.

I gave Brian one more look. "Shall we?"

"Make out?' He asked me, waggling his eyebrows, which set off my laughter again. By the time I'd recovered he was already out of the car and around to my side, waiting to hold the door for me when I finally opened it.

-==-

I looked at the two garment bags Cici was trying to hand me warily.

I knew what was in them. I knew they fit. I knew how to put them on.

They still scared the hell out of me.

"I promise you, mija, you can handle them," she said, giving me a one-armed hug and laying them in my limp arms. "Do you have your makeup?"

"Yeah, I picked it up from Maria's yesterday," I agreed, still unsure.

"Bien. Use the color guide I gave you for the princess gown from last convention for the dress for tomorrow morning, and the guide for the emerald robe for the one on Friday, and I'll give you a touch-up when you get to the hotel." She gave me another, longer hug this time. "Oh! I wish I were going on the boat with you!"

My nerves relaxed as she continued to hug me, and I finally freed one of my arms to hug her back, laughing a little. "Maybe next time, Aunt Cici."

Aunt Cici let me go and looked like she had something more to say, but was interrupted by one of her assistants calling her over to the temporary barriers they'd set up giving each of us a smaller, more private changing and fitting area. I think that assistant was working with Deidre. Aunt Cici gave me a long look, then left my little room, closing the curtain behind her.

With Aunt Cici gone, I carefully hung the garment bags from a piece of conduit running along the wall and sat down on the single chair in my own little area, taking a deep breath.

Four dresses. *Four. Dresses.*

Okay, so it was more like three dresses, since I wasn't sure the fourth really counted, being more like a fancy sorceress' robe. That one was something else: it was a deep crimson velvet for the most part, it had a train, and I was one hundred percent sure I wouldn't be able to risk eating or drinking anything the entire time I was wearing it lest I ruin the damn thing.

The other three were less worrisome, but still far from anything I would say I was excited to wear.

Aunt Cici had truly gone above and beyond this time around. For the first day on the boat she'd designed me something she claimed was similar to a dirndl, a cobalt blue with a white blouse underneath that she said should be easy to wear but also fit my character. To fantasy it up a bit she'd paired it with a light cape and hood in a matching blue, but with silver symbols sewn into it to give it a more mystical look.

I could see why she wanted me to use the same makeup colors as I had with the gown from the last convention: it was a very similar blue, but I was already thinking of ways I could change up the look a bit, since I didn't want to deal with the high-maintenance look we'd done with that gown.

For Friday she'd surprised me again, with a dress that seemed like a similar style, but this time in a dark green, with a brown blouse for underneath. Instead of a cape, though, she'd paired this one with a handful of props to go along with my character's magical abilities, like a leather belt covered in pouches, some of them full of things like cotton fluff and bits of string, and a silver diadem with orange and red jewels in it.

Those were the two dresses that now sat in the garment bags beside me, along with notes on which lingerie she expected me to pair with them and the pair of long brown boots she'd paired them both with, *thankfully* with a very low, flat heel. Shoes had long been a point of contention for us on my costumes, but I was glad that even Aunt Cici didn't want me trying to wear something silly on a boat.

Saturday's outfit was a long, white dress that Aunt Cici told me was based on an early nineteen hundreds lingerie dress. "It's very anachronistic, but you kids have guns and airships and magic in your game, so I'm taking creative license," she'd told me when I'd asked about the time period. Unlike the other outfits for the weekend, this one went all the way up to my neck and fully covered my arms as well, and was paired with another short cape and hood, similar to the one for Thursday's dress, but in white.

As much as Sunday's dress scared me for its slinkiness and material, Saturday's scared me for an entirely different reason. Seeing myself in the mirror wearing it I hadn't been able to resist a comment about how much like a wedding dress it looked, and the sparkle in Aunt Cici's eyes at the thought was enough to chill me to the bone.

Thankfully, both the Saturday and Sunday outfits were safely out of sight, secured on a costume rack somewhere outside my little booth and set to make the trip to the convention in the back of a van, giving me a merciful two days before I'd have to think about either one again.

My musings on my fashion future were interrupted by a light knocking on the thin barrier in front of me. "You decent in there?" Brian asked.

"Sure, come on in," I said, standing up and, for some reason, double-checking my appearance in the long, thin mirror one of Aunt Cici's assistants had set up in the booth.

Brian peeked through the curtain before opening it up and stepping inside, closing it behind him. He had a garment bag of his own draped over one arm, bulkier than either of mine.

"Only one bag?"

"Yeah, she made me some new armor and leather pants, but said I have most of what I need at home already," he said, waving a list in his free hand before glancing at my own garment bags. "She sending all of yours with us?"

I shook my head. "Those are just for the boat trip. She's got Saturday and Sunday out on the rack."

"Four different costumes?" He said, then chuckled. "I guess that makes sense for a princess, doesn't it."

"I guess," I said, trying not to pout a bit. "None of mine have armor or anything with them, though."

"Your fault for playing a squidgy mage," he said, grinning.

"You say that, but she didn't give me any armor for my cleric last campaign either."

"Did you ever ask her to?"

"I... shut up," I said, fighting not to laugh at the goofy looks Brian was giving me.

"She spends more time on your costumes than anyone else's except Deidre's," he said, hanging his garment bag next to mine.

"Yeah, Aunt Cici's always loved dressing me and Maria up. You wouldn't believe some of the Halloween costumes she made us growing up."

"Disney princesses?"

"No!" I snapped, blushing. "I mean, she *wanted* to, one year, but we nixxed that," I said. "We did dress as our game characters a few times, but I was playing a lot of rogues and rangers at the time, so it was a lot more pants and cloaks than anything else." I thought for a moment, and frowned. "And even *then* she never made me armor!"

Brian laughed. "I'm trying to imagine like a fifteen year old you running around dressed like Jonah's idea of a rogue, and it just doesn't work."

"Ugh, never," I huffed, crossing my arms and glaring at him. "Nitara wouldn't stoop so low."

"So even then it was girls' costumes?"

"I... I mean, technically?" I shrugged. "I dunno. Aunt Cici's designs have definitely gotten more...."

"Feminine?"

"I guess," I admitted, "as we've gotten older." I thought about all the bits of my costumes from high school that I'd kept and worn on occasion as regular wardrobe, like the leather vest she'd made for Nitara or the bracers for Killi, and for the first time wondered just how much of that read more girl than boy to everyone else around me.

"Deep thoughts?"

"Nah, just embarrassing ones," I said, sliding down to sit cross-legged on the floor. "Now you've got me wondering what kind of costume she would have given fifteen-year-old me for Lunea."

"Probably something with a higher neckline."

"Maybe not," I said, smirking as I thought about the lingerie dress again. "But yeah, I don't think she'd let me show as much skin as she has me show now, most of the time."

"Shame."

"What?"

"Nothing," Brian said, a rare blush of his own showing. "Ah, hey, I'm gonna go get us some tacos," he said, after a few awkward moments, then left the booth, leaving his garment bag with mine.

Had he really...?

I shook my head and laughed. We hadn't even set out on the boat trip yet, and already this whole convention ordeal was off to an embarrassing start.

Idly, I cradled my baby bump. It had been the first thing Aunt Cici had given me to put on, and I had been entirely unsurprised when she'd asked me to wear it overnight to get used to it again before the trip. I knew that a second bodysuit and bump were in the bag with the dress for Friday, too, and she'd told me she had a special one for Sunday, something that filled me with even more dread than the gown for that day.

Today. Thursday. Friday. Saturday. Sunday.

Was I really about to be dressing as a pregnant half-elf princess for four, make that four and a half, days?

I was glad to be already sitting on the floor when the wave of dizziness hit me as what I was committed to finally sank in.

-==-

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 16: The Golden Goose

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer

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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 16 -- The Golden Goose

There were many things that had me on edge Thursday morning.

There was the makeup I'd spent half an hour getting right. Not that most people would consider that too terribly long for cosplay makeup -- and it wasn't -- but it was hardly my normal morning routine.

There was the way the lingerie I'd swallowed hard and steeled myself before donning felt next to my skin. The cotton stuff from the day before had been one thing, but today's set was some kind of stretchy silky material that was distracting for a number of reasons.

There were the thigh-high stockings I hadn't noticed in the bag until I was getting dressed that morning, and the way I'd kept having to try and find secret moments to tug them up slightly ever since putting them on, since the stickum around the top didn't seem to appreciate my nervous perspiration.

And there was the way that Brian's eyes seemed to keep getting drawn to the hem of the skirt on my dress, which had seemed a good foot longer in the mirror Wednesday than it felt sitting in the cab of Brian's truck.

The fact that I outright knew he'd gotten a panty shot when helping to lift me into the cab didn't help either.

I was used to some of those things, even the skirt, since I'd dealt with them in the past for other cons. Even Brian's gaze wasn't really anything new since seeing me in skirts always seemed to amuse him.

Still.

I did my best to ignore the feeling of the thigh-highs rubbing together as I crossed my legs and kept my gaze determinedly out my window, not even risking looking forward lest I catch Brian in my peripheral vision.

The night before had been better than the prior two, at least. We'd gotten pizza on the way home and just chilled in the living room, playing games and watching movies, almost like old times.

Almost.

So what if maybe our hands had lingered in the popcorn bowl together for longer than normal? And it wasn't a big deal that when I'd been startled by the jump scares in the movie, Brian had given my arm a squeeze of reassurance rather than teasing me.

Maybe it was worse that I fell asleep and woke up with my head on his shoulder, but it also wasn't the first time that had happened, was it?

I shook my head and went back to trying to count the trees as we zoomed past, something to stop thinking about all the things I was noticing and what they might mean.

"Are we there yet?" I asked, barely able to crack a smile at the banality of the question.

"Another ten minutes, maybe, and we'll be at the docks," Brian said, sounding just as out of sorts as I felt.

Not that what I was feeling was unpleasant. In truth, there was a large part of what I felt that I could chalk up to normal Con Jitters, though the idea of the overnight boat ride held some of its own anxiety-inspiring potential pickles. But, beyond all that, there was something else there, a feeling of....

Anticipation?

Realization?

Discovery?

I didn't know, but whatever it was, it was tying my stomach up in knots enough that I'd skipped breakfast, much to Brian's disapproval.

It was easy to find where we were supposed to go at the docks: all we had to do was find the crowd of out-of-place people in fantasy costumes and camera gear. Brian pulled into an empty spot right next to Maria's car, and almost immediately, people began to come toward us.

Brian's door was barely open before one of our show assistants was there to take his keys. That was all part of the plan: some of our show staff would be there that morning to collect our cars and take them back to the studio. From there, they would prep what they would need for recording the stage shows at the con and meet us there, and come Sunday night or Monday morning, we'd either bum rides off them to get back home or rent cars of our own.

While he was handling things with her, including showing her where my blocks were hidden behind his seat if she had trouble with the pedals, my own door was opened by none other than Aaron, looking very regal in his tabard and leather pants.

"M'lady," he said, offering me an arm and grinning as he helped me hop down from the truck, thankfully this time with no flashing involved.

"Good sir," I said back once I was safely on the ground, giving him a little dip before breaking out in what was probably a more giggly laugh than I'd have preferred. "I guess we're the last ones here?"

"Nah," Aaron said, leading me around to the back of the truck and unlatching the cover on the bed. "I volunteered to come down early with Maria. Deedee just got here about ten minutes ago and has been talking to the film crew, and Sydney still hasn't come in."

I reached into the leather satchel I carried with most of my costumes and pulled out the small pocket watch I kept in it. "Well, she has another twenty minutes before we were supposed to arrive. Thanks," I said, taking the two garment bags he handed me and watching him unload the rest of our bags.

"How much stuff did you bring?" he asked me, handing me my staff.

"Not that much!" I said, blushing and studying the stone in the top of the staff rather than looking at him. "Just a bag for accessories and makeup, and the garment bags for my costumes, and an overnight bag with some pajamas and casual clothes and other stuff just in case...."

"So all Brian has is the one bag?" he asked, holding up the garment bag from Brian's own costume and the belt that had his cosplay weapons on it.

"He just tossed his extra stuff in there," I said. "What?"

"Nothing," Aaron said, shaking his head and passing Brian's belt and bag to him as he came around the back of the truck sans keys.

"Thanks."

"No prob. Y'all need help taking these?"

"Nah, we got it," Brian said as he strapped his belt on and took both my smaller bags in one hand and his garment bag in the other.

"Sure thing. Looks like Syd's here so I'm gonna go check on her: Maria's waiting over there," Aaron said before jogging off, giving us one last wave on his way.

"You sure you don't need me to take one of those?" I asked Brian, looking at his full hands.

"Nah," he said again, hefting my bags easily and adjusting his garment bag on his shoulder. "'Sides, looks like they've got a cart over near Maria for our stuff."

"Oh, guess they do." I gave the rickety luggage cart a dubious look, but happily unloaded my bags onto it when we got there, Maria giving us a giant smile.

"Lookit, you!" She said, coming over and giving me a hug. "You look so cute!"

"Hey, what about me?"

"You look cute too," she told Brian, reaching up to pinch his cheek, though he backed away before she could. He certainly did look his part, in the "enchanted" wooden armor he'd been so stoked to show me when we'd gotten home the night before, with his olive-green gambeson underneath and mace hanging by his side. It had taken some work, but I'd even convinced him to let me do a little makeup work, too, adding just a little more definition in his cheekbones and some depth around his eyes, and a smidge of grime too.

"I love the new robe," I told her after she finished trying to chase Brian down. I meant it: Aunt Cici always made Maria these big, flowing wizard-y robes for cons, and she'd outdone herself this time around, the whole thing having this iridescent blue-green swirl to it and silver runes and stars picked out all over.

"Thanks! I do too. And best of all, this one's thin enough I shouldn't overheat in it," she said, holding one of the arm holes open so I could see the tank and shorts she was wearing underneath. "Not like that one from MagiCon last spring."

"Ooooh, yeah," I agreed, grimacing in memory. Weather predictions leading up to the con had been expecting cool temps, but Louisiana being what it is, we'd instead had one of those eighty-degree March weekends that pop up on occasion. Aunt Cici had made Maria a wool robe in expectation of the cold, and instead, she'd spent most of the convention either out of costume or guzzling water to deal with the warmth.

"Must be nice," Brian said, reaching up and tugging on the neck of his gambeson. It wasn't even ten in the morning yet, but I knew he must be warm in the layers of armor he had on. I knew Aunt Cici had tried to make everything light and breathable, but long sleeves in August in the bayou were a great way to ward off mosquitos and a terrible way to regulate body temps.

"Wanna trade?" I asked him, flipping the edge of my skirt his way.

He actually looked thoughtful for a moment. "Keep my own underwear?"

"Nope."

"No deal."

"Your loss," I said with a sigh, tossing the thankfully lightweight cape of my costume back over my shoulders.

I was just about to ask Maria a question about finances for the trip and remind her I'd need receipts from the crew when I noticed her looking off toward the other end of the parking lot with a surprised expression.

"Holy crap, he showed up."

"Who... oh!"

I turned to see what she was looking at and was just as surprised as she was to see Jonah climbing out of his beat-up Wrangler. He barely gave us a glance before opening the rear door and pulling out the long coat he always wore with his costumes and what looked like a small overnight bag.

"I honestly didn't expect you to show up," Maria said when he reached us and tossed his small duffel on the cart with the rest of our bags.

"Is that a problem?" Jonah asked, giving the rest of our group a look, his eyes lingering on me for a second too long.

"No, we have accommodations for you," Maria assured him. "But you didn't stay for any of the meetings, so we kinda assumed you weren't doing the boat."

"Yeah, well. I've been dealing with shit," Jonah said, for the first time I could remember actually looking a little apologetic. "But I'm here now, so." He shrugged, then looked at Brian again. "Nice armor."

"Oh! Thanks!"

"Looks kinda warm though," Jonah added, lifting his own jacket hanging over his arm for emphasis.

"It's not as bad as it looks," Brian said, seeming to stand a little taller and pointedly ignoring the bead of sweat rolling off his forehead.

Jonah gave me another look and frowned. "You certainly don't look too hot," he said, his gaze going straight to the generous cleavage the combination of the body suit and padded bra gave me.

I crossed my arms over my chest and glared at him. "Yeah, well--"

"It's pretty," he said, still frowning, but also... blushing?

What the heck?

"Ah--"

"HEY!"

We all turned to see Sydney rushing our way, a large bag thrown over one shoulder and her plastic battleaxe over the other. She'd added extensions to her hair, which now fell down to her waist in thick red braids, highlighting her bare midriff and the faux-fur-lined halter top she was wearing, a very much sexier version of the hide armor her character was depicted in our official campaign art. She was all smiles and only slowed down a little when she realized who was standing with us.

"Fancy seeing you here!" she said to Jonah after dropping her own bag off on the cart, which gave a dejected creak at the force of the drop.

Jonah shrugged and looked anywhere, but at the acres of flesh Sydney had on display. "Well, I'd have to be crazy to turn down a trip on the Golden Goose, right?"

"Sure thing!" Sydney said, giving him a slap on the shoulder hard enough to make him stumble forward a foot. "Anyone been on the boat yet?" she asked the rest of us, turning to look at the boat in question.

"Not yet," Maria said, as the rest of us turned to look too. "They're loading supplies still. We're boarding here, with the crew, to make filming easier, then the boat will pull down the dock to another mooring point for the regular passengers."

I heard Maria's words, but now that I'd been reminded of the boat, I was finally taking a good, long look at it.

The Golden Goose was definitely impressive. I'd heard about it but never actually seen it, and was surprised at its appearance. I'd expected it to look like an old riverboat, with big wheels on the sides and a huge open deck. Instead, what greeted us looked more like a cruise ship, with deck after deck stacked on top and the paddle wheel itself being a huge, menacing-looking red thing strapped to the back end of the ship, towering as tall as the uppermost decks above it.

"She's got four floors above the level of the main deck," Jonah said, once again surprising us all. "Two of them are guest cabins, one of them is the dining and entertainment rooms, and one is exclusively for the casino."

"What's below the main deck?"

"Mostly storage, engines, bilge system," he said. "It's not just a passenger ship: it'd be kind of a waste given how much of the ship's interior isn't really suited for guests, so they also haul a lot of cargo along the coast while doing their tours. About half the stops it makes, they'll load and unload cargo while the passengers are off on whatever they've got set up for that stop."

"Huh," I said, watching the crew members using a small forklift to move some crates onto the ship. "Been reading up on this then?"

"Who'da thunk Jonah'd have a thing for boats!" Sydney said, going in for another shoulder slap that Jonah dodged this time.

We were all still looking toward the boat when I noticed a figure walking toward us from its direction, a tall, thin man in a suit.

"Looks like it's just about time to go," Maria said. "Everyone ready?"

"Yep!"

"Sure thing, boss."

"I guess so."

The man continued to approach us, and when he reached our group gave us all a big smile as he clapped his hands. "I take it you're the... Wednesday Knights, wasn't it?"

"That's us," Brian said, stepping next to me and putting his arm around my shoulder.

"Very good!" The man said, turning his attention to Brian and offering his hand. "I'm Thomas Sinclair, and I'm the one in charge of the production of this little special we're filming."

"Brian. And this is Leigh," Brian said, shaking his hand before pointing at me.

"Oh, you're Leigh!" The man said, looking surprised. "I apologize, I was told you were a man, so I assumed... well, anyway."

I frowned up at the tall man. He was almost as tall as Brian, but even wirier, and with a bald spot on his crown that gleamed in the morning sun. I immediately disliked him. "When are we getting started, Mr. Sinclair?" I asked him, looking back at the rest of the group, all of whom seemed equally unimpressed.

"Ah, yes. Well, they're just about finished loading the freight, then our crew will get things set up for your entrance. I'd wanted to have a script, but my employers assured me that you're all experienced with improv, is that correct?"

"It's kinda our whole deal," Aaron said, stepping up on my other side.

"That's good, then. I'll have one of my assistants come back over in about half an hour to get you, and we can get started then," Mr. Sinclair said, giving our group a small wave, then heading back where he'd come from.

I shook my head. "Does he not even know what he's filming?"

"Maybe not," Maria said, stepping up behind me. "ATG told me they had to hire someone new last minute after the guy they were bringing on got the 'rona. I'd offered to direct myself, but they said no, something about the licensing rights for the filming."

"I really need to read back over that contract when we get back home," I said, the squeeze Brian gave my shoulder doing little to calm the nerves I felt building up again.

"Sure thing. But for now, let's get ready for the boat."

"Sounds good to me."

"Already on it."

"Whatever."

I shook my head, then looked up at Brian, who was doing his best to give me a reassuring smile.

I'd been feeling relatively confident, but the director and his seeming lack of awareness of what he was even there to film had raised my hackles in a big way. We were half an hour out from boarding a floating casino and showboat for a thirty-ish hour trip, and there I was, wearing a short dress and realizing, for the first time, that I'd probably be having to show folks my ID if we spent any time in the casino at all.

Fan. Freaking. Tastic.

-==-

NOTES:

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 17: Belle of the Ball

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 17: Belle of the Ball

I looked at the glass in my hand and frowned.

To be honest, I've never been much of a drinker. Sure, I'd had a wild night here or there with my friends, or the occasional wine cooler to wind down at the end of a long day at home, but I was normally a 'one-and-done' kind of person.

Unfortunately, it seemed the Golden Goose was intent to keep that 'one-and-done' at a 'none-and-done' level instead since every attempt to get anything alcoholic had gotten me dirty looks, and an orange juice or Shirley Temple pushed my way.

"Stupid baby bump," I mumbled under my breath, not for the first time, as I leaned back against the bar and surveyed the noisy room around me.

How do I describe my day aboard the Golden Goose?

It'd taken us five attempts before we boarded the boat in a way that our director was happy with, which seemed to be four more attempts than the staff on the boat had been ready to deal with. Likewise, he'd made us re-shoot checking our tickets, and our reactions to our rooms and the boat as a whole, multiple times as well.

It quickly turned what should have been a fun bit of exploration or discovery into a chore. In every case, an initial friendly interaction or bit of excitement had to be faked over and over until it "looked real" to him.

We'd all put up with that for the first three hours of the trip and through the first tourist stop along the coast. The little town with a fur trading post turned museum had been at least as annoyed as we were by Mr. Sinclair's insistence that we "get the tour right." He even made our guide re-shoot entire parts of her presentation.

I suppose it could have been worse: we had our own guide, and onboard the ship, there were a couple of ship staff assigned to help us out specifically to make accommodating the film crew easier. But even with those leniencies in place, none of us were at all surprised when, at around four in the afternoon, the ship's captain called us back to one of the staff rooms for a firm talking to about disrupting the normal operation of the ship.

He let us know in no uncertain terms that, while we were free to film, we were not in a studio or on a set, and any further disruption of the staff or other guests would get us all removed from the boat.

Mr. Sinclair didn't like that, of course, and impatiently chewed the captain out about his vision for the promotional video we were shooting and the necessity of the ship and all those on board to work to make that vision happen.

Thankfully there was cell service along the coast since it meant there was a car arranged to pick him up at the boat's next stop, and just like that, Maria got her wish: she was now the de facto director.

"Hey, Loonie, can I get a shot of you smiling? We're supposed to be having fun!"

I looked Maria's way, then at the member of the film crew next to her. I gave them my best 'go to hell' sneer and almost flipped them off, but instead just went back to my drink.

"Well, that's not nice," Maria said, stepping up next to me and leaning against the counter too. "Not having fun?"

I sighed and pointed across the room before us, at the gambling tables and the happy crowds gathered around them. "Aaron's holding his own at the blackjack tables, barely. Sorry, 'Adrian,'" I said, with proper air quotes, remembering we were supposed to be referring to each other in character while on the trip just in case Something Special happened on camera.

"Dahlia's been sitting at the same slot machine for the last two hours and consumed at least three margaritas. Jonah, I mean, John, stomped off to the dining room twenty minutes ago after blowing his allowance on the craps tables, and Burg ran through his allowance and now is using mine on roulette. And I'm pretty sure Sunny has been betting with her own money for the last hour at least 'cause she seems to be losing a lot more than I gave her."

Maria laughed and bumped my shoulder with hers. "Hey, they're having fun, and so are the people they're playing with. Did you see that guy who pretended to try and steal one of Adrian's swords a bit ago?"

"I don't think he was pretending."

Maria shrugged. "Okay, maybe not at first, but when Adrian stopped him and gave him the whole Paladin speech, it was great. It got a laugh and clapping from the guy's date, and the guy signed off on us being able to use the whole thing in the film, too."

I did chuckle at that, and smiled as I watched Aaron-slash-Adrian intently following the cards on the table before him, and the gleam in his eyes when the dealer busted and pushed a small pile of chips his way.

"See? There's a smile. You get that Mikey?"

"Got it, ma'am."

"So come on, lighten up a bit, and get yerself a real drink."

"I've tried," I told her, then pointed down at my midsection. "But this keeps getting me told no, and none of the bartenders believe me when I tell them it's fake."

"Hmmm." Maria frowned for a moment, giving me a thoughtful look, then started grinning again. "Here, here's fifty bucks in chips," she said, pulling out some orange chips and pressing them into my empty hand. "Go pick a game to play, and I'll be with you in a moment."

"I don't--"

"GO!"

"Fine!" I huffed, taking the chips and leaving my now empty glass on the counter. I gave Maria one last glare, but all she did was giggle and wave me away from the counter.

Sigh.

That, of course, gave me an entirely new problem: figuring out what to play.

I could join Brian at the roulette table, but I'd honestly never really liked the game: I knew full well how badly games of pure luck could go. That also ruled out the craps tables for me. The slot machines were also pure chance, but they were also the lowest stakes games in the casino, so I could trade in a ten-dollar chip and even without a win, stay busy for a decent amount of time.

I reached in my bag and pulled out my pocket watch again, double-checking the time. Six thirty. We had about an hour and a half before the last scheduled stop for the evening, and after that, the dance floor would open up, a prospect I found a lot more appealing than gambling, especially since I was the one who knew exactly how much we were losing on this little trip.

I shook my head and tried another smile, hoping this one would stick. After all, we'd budgeted for the games, and nobody had a way of losing us more than that. I had one of the company cards, and Maria had the other, so if someone got a little too gung ho and needed a loan when we got to Marisol, we had a way of helping to cover things, but all in all, much as I might angst about it, I knew that we were good on money for the trip and that I should just enjoy myself.

If only it were that easy.

I took another look around the room and finally settled down at one of the low-stakes poker tables, not that far away from where Brian was concentrating on the roulette wheel. I placed my chips on the table, and the dealer gave me a pleased nod. "Texas hold 'em, no wilds," he reminded me, then waited for my nod before he proceeded to begin his deal.

I'd just folded on my second hand when Maria showed up.

"Winning?" She asked me after tapping my shoulder, then handing me a drink.

"Not yet, but not really losing either," I said, giving the glass a suspicious look. "Another orange juice?"

"Nope! Fuzzy navel," she said, grinning.

"Ooh," I said, taking a ginger sip and smiling. "Thanks."

"Can I get a toast for the camera before we move on?"

'Sure." I did just that, with a much more genuine smile this time, and when the camera operator gave us a thumbs up, Maria hugged me.

"There ya go. I'll get ya another drink when that one gets low."

"I mean, one'll probably do me."

"Not tonight, girl!" She said, slapping my shoulder then stepping away laughing.

I shook my head, but I was still smiling when I turned back to the table.

#

The clanging of the bell announcing our stop was alarming, and I let out an embarrassed eep that got the other players at my table laughing.

I looked at my cards. I looked at the river. I looked at my empty glass, my third since settling down at the table. I looked at the small pile of chips before me, mostly reds and oranges.

I looked back at my hand again and thought.

What the hell.

"All in," I said, pushing my entire pile of chips toward the center.

"The lady goes all in. That's... one hundred twenty-five dollars," the dealer announced after a quick assessment of my chips.

"Fold."

"Shit. Fold."

"Call."

"Fold."

I looked across the table at the man who had called my bet. He looked like he was tall, but it was hard to tell with us all sitting down, and I doubted he was as tall as Brian. He had sandy hair, a broad build, and was giving me a smile I couldn't help but smile back at. When I did, he added a wink, and I found myself blushing.

"Players, reveal your hands," the dealer said, distracting me from the fuzzy feeling in my head that the wink and my three drinks had caused.

"Oh, uhh, straight," I said, laying down my hand next to the river. My ten and eight combined with the three jacks, nine, and queen on the table left me confident I had a strong chance of winning.

"Very good. And you, sir?"

The man across from me was still grinning and laid down his own hand. "Full house," he said, showing two aces.

"Well, shit."

I whimpered as I watched the dealer help the man scrape all the chips on the table his way, then hung my head in defeat.

"Hey, don't feel bad. You played really well," the man said.

"Not well enough to win."

"Yeah, well. There's different ways of winning," the guy said, handing me a scrap of paper as he stood up from the table and traded chips with the dealer for a more portable collection.

I took the paper, confused, but before I could check it was further distracted by Maria once again appearing at my shoulder.

"Hey, dance floor's opening up, and we need to get some shots there. You ready to head out?"

"Umm, yeah," I said, glancing back down at the now-empty table before me. I went to stand up, only for my head to begin swimming the moment I did so, leaving me leaning on the table for balance. "Whoa!’

Maria giggled and offered me an arm for balance. "A little tipsy?"

"Maybe a little," I agreed, finding myself giggling with her as I fought to find my center, once again thankful my boots were short and chunky.

"Good. Loosen ya up," she said, helping me take a few steps until I felt I had my balance again, then letting me go.

I thought that would be it, until I felt another arm wrap around mine from the other side. I looked up, and there was Brian, smiling down at me, which for some reason made me giggle again.

"Heya, mind if I escort you to the club floor?"

"Sure thing, Burg," I told him, doing my best to stay in character. "Are we going to dance?"

Brian gave me an amused grin. "Do you want to?"

"Maybe."

"Then maybe."

"Cool."

I giggled again.

Giggled?

Whatever.

-==-

NOTES:

Sorry this is a day late. Things have been crazy this side of things.

Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 18: Mistakes Were Made

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 18 -- Mistakes Were Made

We were almost to the stairs leading down to the deck with the dance club when I felt the ship lurch, causing me to grip Brian's arm even tighter as my compromised balance sent me wobbling, with even more associated laughing.

"How many drinks did you have?" He asked me, letting me lean against his chest for a moment as I got used to the ship's movement again.

"Three? I think?" I thought for a moment, then nodded. "Yep. Three. Waddabout you?"

"I had a few," he admitted. "Mostly stuck to beers, though."

"Not me!" I said, with more laughing as we started walking. "Couldn't get a dring from the bar lady 'cause o' this thing," I said, giving my baby bump a gentle pat. "Maria brought me some hairy navels at the table, though."

"Hairy... oh!" Brian chuckled too, and I enjoyed the rumble through his body as we walked. "And what about the guy who won?"

"What about him?"

"He handed you something?"

"Oh!" I looked down at the piece of paper still clutched in my hand. "What is it?" I asked him, handing it to him.

Brian unfolded the paper. He frowned but tried to smile again when he noticed I was watching him. "It's, ah, it's his name and number."

"Oh? Oh," I said, feeling a little wooziness that had nothing to do with alcohol wash over me.

"Did you wanna keep it?"

"Do I?" I asked, then thought for a moment. There was something important about that question, but for the life of me, I couldn't figure out what it was. "I don't think so?"

"Good," Brian said, seeming to breathe a sigh of relief as he slipped the paper into his own pocket.

"Good," I agreed, leaning on him a bit more and wondering why I was feeling the alcohol more now than when I'd been drinking it.

We walked together down the walkway around the outside edge of the ship, looking out at the water, until we reached the doors for the dance club, a fact made obvious by the thump of loud music from beyond them.

Standing just outside of them on the walkway were Maria and the rest of the crew, even Jonah, as well as the camera people, creating a bit of a traffic jam for anyone who wanted to walk past the club itself. When she spotted us, Maria quickly waved us over.

"How'd you beat us up here?" I asked her, maybe a bit accusatorily.

"I walked a straight line," she said, which got a laugh from the rest of the crew, a few of whom looked just as wobbly on their feet as I felt.

"I thought we'd take our time, give Leigh, ah, Lunea a chance to get her sea legs back," Brian said, looking over Maria's shoulder at the film crew.

"Probably a good idea," Maria agreed, looking at how tightly I was holding onto Brian's arm and grinning. "Well, now that you're here, I wanted to talk through the plan with everyone before we head in."

"Sounds good to me."

"About damn time!"

"Whatever."

There really wasn't that much of a plan.

I learned that the dance floor wasn't *officially* open to everyone yet, but instead that we had about half an hour for just our crew before the rest of the ship's guests would be allowed in. After that, we'd stick mostly to one side of the floor, so the camera crews wouldn't get in the way of the other couples, and Maria wanted footage of all of us dancing together, as well as individual dances between as many team members as she could get.

It was simple enough, and with a final whoop as a group, we pushed the doors open and headed in.

For as loud as the music was from outside closed doors, it was deafening within. Later on in the night, the press of bodies as the room filled with guests would probably help to dampen down the sound, but as it stood, with only our little group and a couple of staff behind the bar at one end of the room, the music playing over the sound system reverberated off every surface and hit me like a ton of bricks.

"Whoa," I said, stumbling again as Brian held on to me, the combination of the music and the swimming lights doing nothing for my already shaky equilibrium.

"Easy, easy," he said, barely audible over the thump of the music despite how close we were. "Here."

Brian stepped in front of me and grinned down. one hand still holding my elbow to keep me stable. He asked a question with a quirk of an eyebrow, and I must have nodded because his other hand took my other elbow and lifted my arms until my hands were on his chest. With another quick question in his eyes, he moved his hands to my hips, and just like that, we were dancing.

We were dancing.

The first song on play was a fast number, and our close dancing didn't really fit, but the next song on was a slower country ballad. As the lap steel began to play, Brian shifted our rhythm to match, and we began the shuffling sway of a slow dance together. With every step, I could feel the slight pressure as the baby bump relayed to my own abdomen each time it brushed against Brian, but for some reason, all I could seem to do was smile up at him as he smiled down at me.

Just like it had in Maria's apartment, my mind drifted to the different types of smiles Brian had given me over the years, and I found myself trying to place the one he was giving me now: his eyes soft, his face relaxed and open, the dimples in his cheeks on full display.

It was a nice smile.

The song began to slow as it came to its end, and we slowed with it until we came to a stand-still as the last notes echoed around us, still standing there, looking into each other’s eyes, and oh so close.…

"Hey," came a masculine voice from behind me as someone else's hand touched my shoulder. "Can I have the next dance?"

As I turned and looked up into Aaron's eyes, I heard a familiar laugh from my left, and there was Sydney, reaching out and pulling Brian away from me. "Yeah, come on, you two, save it for the room after. Partner swap time!"

I gave Brian another glance, but he was already being dragged off by Sydney, who was gyrating in a way that I never could as another fast song took over.

"Hey," Aaron said, getting my attention again. "Come on, let's have some fun." He gave me a smile of his own, nice in its own way but not like Brian's, and with a quick step and a flick of his wrist, I found my hand in his as he seemed to sling me out then spin me back in.

I couldn't help but laugh as Aaron took the lead in an almost swing-y dance that left me with nothing to do but hold on and follow along. It wasn't the kind of dancing I would have expected for the pop-y number playing over the stereo, but it was fun, and for the first time in a long time, I felt loose and just let myself go with the flow, only stumbling a little bit, and never more than a step before he would take hold, re-center me, and we'd be off again.

After Aaron, my next partner was Deedee, who tried to teach me a few basic steps that involved a lot of hips and a lot of shoulder action and that I couldn't seem to manage more than two or three beats of before dissolving in laughter.

That got her laughing too, and when Sydney joined us for the next song after, it wasn't long before all three of us spent just as much time leaning on one another and laughing as we did dancing. It was all a lot of fun, though, and by the time we finished trying to dance as a trio, I could almost manage the little hip-wiggle that they were trying to teach me, or at least imagined I could.

When another male hand touched my shoulder, I was so sure it was Brian that I even tried to do the silly hip wiggle as I turned to smile at him, only to almost fall on my ass when it turned out to be Jonah, of all people.

"Oh! Ah, hi?"

"Ahem," he coughed, looking flushed in the crazy lights of the dance floor. "Ah, Maria told me I had to dance with you."

"Oh, okay," I said, stepping toward him, only for him to take a quick step back when I did. "Umm."

As if it was able to read the awkwardness between us and wanted to make it that much worse, the tempo slowed as another country ballad began to play across the speakers, and the lights changed, the warm tones shifting to softer blues.

Great.

I made another move toward Jonah, only to get another flinch away until I finally let out a frustrated sigh and darted forward, almost winding up in the floor but somehow managing to catch him by the shoulders in the process.

"Hey, hey," I said, when he just stood there frozen. "We get this done, you don't gotta touch me again the rest of the night."

"I, ah," he muttered, now gone from flushed to pale white, but gave me a nervous nod before flailing his hands about, seeming unsure of where to put them. Finally, he seemed to settle on my waist, and we began a far more awkward form of the rocking-swaying I'd been doing with Brian seemingly forever ago now.

With Brian, I'd spent the dance watching him watch me. With Aaron, there had been a friendly, carefree energy. With the girls, there had been lots of laughs, hugs, and silliness. But with Jonah, it seemed like the only thing between us was nerves, as he did his best to look anywhere but at me while he moved in a stiff, jerky fashion.

I sighed again. "Jonah, I know you hate me, but try to act like you're having fun, okay?"

"Huh? I... hate you?" He asked me, licking his lips nervously. For the first time since our dance had begun, he looked me in the eyes before quickly looking away again, a frown on his face. "I don't...."

"Hmm?"

"This is stupid," he said, stopping mid-step. I wasn't ready for it and stumbled. Every other partner I'd had all night had been there to prop me up when the alcohol got the better of me, so it surprised me even more when instead, Jonah pulled his arms wide and stepped back, leaving me grasping at empty air as my ankles tangled with one another, and I went down.

THUD

"Oh, shit! Sorry, I--"

"Jonah!"

Even over the music I could hear the anger in Maria's voice, and as I was pulled back to my feet it was her hands that helped me up, and her arm that went around my shoulder.

"The fuck, Jonah!"

"I didn't do anything!"

"Then why was she--"

"HEY!" I shrieked, loud and high enough that it even hurt my ears. "It... it was just an accident, okay?" I said, grabbing Maria's hand and squeezing it to get her to look at me. "Okay?"

"You sure?"

"Yeah. Jonah...." I looked over to where he'd been standing only moments before, shock on his face, but now all that was there was empty space.

"That little--"

"Maria, really. It wasn't... he didn't do anything," I assured her again.

Maria sighed and waved someone away. I looked up and saw it was Brian, who had broken off from a dance with Deedee to come check on us. He gave me a long look and waited until I waved him off, too, before returning to his dance while the camera crews made a point of focusing on him, Aaron, and the girls and giving Maria and me our space.

"Come here," she said, then pulled me over toward the bar. "We could both use something to calm our nerves."

"Fresh air?"

"Mojitos."

"Ah."

It seemed like Maria had barely snapped her fingers when two fruity drinks appeared on the counter before us, this new bartender barely giving my enhanced belly a disapproving glance.

"Drink up," Maria said, handing me one glass while she kept hold of the other. She tilted hers my way, then took a long pull on the straw, giving me a Look until I did the same, wincing only slightly as the freezing cold bite of the alcohol hit me.

"Bleegh," I said, shaking my head, only for another Look from Maria to send me right back to the straw, where she obviously wanted my attention focused.

Thankfully, it only took another couple of cringes at the taste, and another couple of long drags on the straw, before I felt myself loosen up again, and Maria's Look gave way to a broad grin.

"Better?"

"Sure?"

"Good. 'Cause you have at least one more dance to go."

"I do?" I asked, but she was already walking away from me toward the DJ booth.

I took another sip of my mojito, barely noticing the alcohol at all this time, and just leaned back against the bar, catching my breath. The last time I'd been at a bar drinking with Maria, just the two of us, we'd gotten horrendously sick on cheap hurricanes, badly enough we'd both sworn off them forever.

I idly wondered just how much similarity there was between a hurricane and a mojito but was distracted from my thoughts by Maria returning to me with Brian in tow.

"Uno mas?" I asked, pointing toward the dance floor with my drink, only for both of them to give me amused grins.

"After this song is over. I put in a special request just for the two of you."

"I should give up on this, then," I said, placing my now two-thirds-empty glass on the bar. "Otherwise, no dancing for me."

"If I may," Brian said, reaching past me to the glass. Without waiting for an answer, he finished off the last third in one long pull, smacking his lips and shaking his head after.

"Too much?" I asked him while he stood there, eyes squinted closed.

"Brain freeze," he said, which of course, got both me and Maria giggling. We kept giggling right up until the music began to fade.

"Time for y'all to head back to the dance floor."

"If you would?" Brian asked me, opening his eyes and giving me another amazing smile as he backed up and offered me his hand.

I said nothing as I took it and let him pull me in, continuing to back toward the dance floor as his hands again found my hips and, this time, my own hands snaked their way up to his neck, the better to hang on for balance.

I didn't recognize the ballad at first, with its jazzy notes, and the extra alcohol from the mojito was starting to do funny things to my head, but as the chorus kicked in and Brian pulled me in even closer, I couldn't help but start to laugh as I laid my head on his chest and listened.

She's havin' my baby; what a beautiful way of sayin' how much she loves me....

Brian was humming along to the song too, and when I looked up again, he was looking down again. The fuzzy lights behind him were almost like a halo, and my eyes drifted closed even as his hazy face seemed to slip closer and closer to my own.

-==-

NOTES:

As per usual, the next chapter is already available over on the BCTS Patreon for anyone who wants to hop over and read it!

Comments and kudos appreciated.

Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 19: Did We?

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 19 -- Did We?

“You okay?”

I sighed. “Yes. For like the fifth time, I’m fine.”

Brian held up his hands and leaned away from me but continued to smile. “You’re just fidgeting a lot, is all.”

“Yeah, well.” I harrumphed and crossed my arms. “I’m just ready to get off this boat.”

“You and me both,” he said, laying a hand on my shoulder and giving it a squeeze.

I tried not to flinch at his touch, but I could see the shift in his eyes when he caught how forced my smile was, and he quickly dropped his hand.

I gave myself a mental kick. “Promise, I’m all right,” I told him again, reaching out and squeezing his arm instead. “Just a bit too much alcohol and not enough aspirin,” I said, trying to give him a more genuine smile. It seemed to do the trick, as I watched some of the stress leave his features as he turned around and started fiddling with his phone again.

It wasn’t a lie, after all. Not entirely.

It just wasn’t the whole truth, either.

I hiked my bag up on my shoulder and couldn’t help but fidget just a bit more as I looked around the little room our crew had gathered in, waiting for our chance to unboard with all the complications the film crew would add to that, and thankful that it would be the last shots we had to do for the advertising video. All of us were halfway in our own worlds, what with plans for the convention and the trip there.

Unfortunately, that left me plenty of time to get lost in my own head when that was the last thing I wanted to do….

#

Waking up in our room on the ship that morning had brought with it a number of pleasant and unpleasant sensations.

The feel of the soft, warm sheets on my skin.

The gentle swaying of the boat.

The pounding headache and wooziness told me mojitos were going on the same Do Not Call list as hurricanes, and that I should never trust anything Maria handed me with an umbrella in it again.

“Mrrrngh,” I moaned, sliding my arms out of the warm sheets so I could press my palms to my temples, desperate to squeeze a bit of pain out through my ears.

“Hrmfrmf,” someone else moaned, rolling to face away from me and taking the sheets with them, exposing the rest of my body to the cooler room.

I froze, goose pimples rising on every inch of my skin, both from the temperature and from the realization that I wasn’t alone in bed.

My eyes shot open, and I slowly turned over, like the character in some horror movie, to see what hideous monster might lie in wait to gobble me up.

Worse than that, the back of a very familiar head of sandy blond hair stared back at me, its owner lightly snoring on the other side.

Hangover be damned, I crabbed my way off the bed and into the floor faster than the time I’d fled the dobsonfly that got in my room.

About that time, the cool air and the carpet worked together to bring to my attention another terrifying realization: my dress was nowhere to be found.

I let out a strangled gurgle that might have been anger, or might have been shame, or any number of other brain-shattering emotions and skittered for the bathroom, slamming the door behind me and leaning against it.

Huff, huff, huff.

There was my dress, draped across the side of the tub, my boots and accessories laying in the (thankfully dry) tub behind it.

Well, that was one small mystery solved, at least.

We must have hit a wave because I felt the boat take a bigger lurch than normal. Combined with the swimming my head was already doing, that was enough to send me staggering for the toilet, the mojito, the fuzzy navels, and what seemed like everything else I’d consumed in the last week, making a final and successful bid for escape.

“Hurk,” I murmured, reaching down to cradle my stomach, only to find a soft and squidgy obstacle in the way. The mental image of Maria asking me to make a con save versus morning sickness entered my head, and I could swear I could hear the dice bouncing across the table.

I rolled a one.

“Hurph.”

I dry heaved a couple more times before it felt like things calmed down enough, I could stand again. I held on to the edge of the sink tightly with one hand while I used one of the paper cups from the dispenser next to the mirror to rinse my mouth out at least four times before I was convinced I’d cleared the last of the nasty.

That’s when I finally glanced in the mirror itself.

I looked a mess. Wild hair. Smeared makeup, from my eyes to my chin: if there had been any hope of determining the night’s activities based on my lipstick, it was long gone with one glance. My bra was still on, thankfully, though it was pulled up so that the band rested uncomfortably directly across my nipples, a problem that, now I noticed it, required immediate correction. And, there below it, that evil mound of rubber and goop and trouble.

And below that, just the barest visible hint that I really, really needed to pee.

For one bleary-eyed, headache-fueled moment, I considered standing up to do so – just to prove the point – but another lurch of the ship was enough to convince me that was a bad idea. “Not like these underwear have a flap anyway,” I muttered as I undid the snaps on the bodysuit, lowered my panties, and plopped on the toilet, whimpering only a little as the jostling caused ripples of pain through my skull.

As I sat there, I looked down at myself and thought.

Okay, Leigh. What’s the sitch?

I got drunk last night. Easy bead on that, at least. More to the point, I got drunk while on a casino boat while dressed as a pregnant elf sorceress. Blackout drunk, even. So, that’s a story to never, ever let anyone tell my future kids.

And this morning, I woke up in bed, in only my underwear, with my best guy friend and roommate, Brian.

What in God’s name happened in between?

I looked at my costume, draped across the tub. It didn’t look like it had been tossed there haphazardly, and it looked like everything I’d left the room with the night before was still present. So, that means that either I regained consciousness long enough to strip down, or someone else stripped me down. I couldn’t imagine Brian or Maria leaving everything in the bathroom, so it was probably me.

So, what about…?

Blushing, I lifted my hand to my face and used it to sniff my breath. I grimaced at the smell of nasty from throwing up but didn’t smell anything else. With an even deeper blush, I shifted on the toilet seat, seeing if anything felt… off down below that I might have missed in my panicked rush earlier. As far as I could tell, there wasn’t any pain or anything, so that probably didn’t happen either.

I didn’t even consider anything in the other direction as a possibility.

Okay, so. If there was any drunken debauchery, it was, at worst over-the-clothes stuff, even if that was less clothes than I’d hoped. Then again, all evidence pointed to my state of undress being my own doing, too, so nobody to blame there.

Maybe it was all just an innocent thing?

BANGBANGBANG

“Eeep!”

“Hey, you about done in there?” Brian’s groggy voice came through the door. “I got about a gallon of beer I need to get rid of.”

“Ah, yeah, just a moment!” I called back, higher pitched than I’d intended. “Just, umm, cleaning off my makeup!”

"Well, can I come in and piss while you're--"

“NO!”

“Okayokay! Five minutes.”

I heard him step away from the door, grumbling something that sounded suspiciously like “sorry princess” under his breath, not that I could blame him.

Feeling drained in more ways than one, I stood up, wiped myself down, and pulled everything back in place before going back to the mirror to do exactly what I’d told him I was already doing. I pushed through the pain with only a little more moaning and gathered my costume pieces to carry back to the room with me.

Brian gave me a winning smile the moment I opened the door, one that never left his face even as he very stiffly walked over, pushed past me, and closed the bathroom door behind himself, the latch barely clicking into place before I heard what sounded like a faucet running and a very satisfied sigh.

I rolled my eyes and dumped my costume stuff on the bed before going to the closet and pulling out my overnight and garment bags.

First things first, I dug in the little pocket on the side of my bag for the bottle of aspirin I always kept there, popped two, and almost packed it again before changing my mind and instead setting the bottle on the end table next to the bed we’d shared the night before, in case Brian needed any.

I started to strip off my body suit but hesitated. What if Brian walked in on me while I was naked? It wouldn’t be the first time he’d seen me undressed, sure, but it felt different now. More… I dunno. It just didn’t feel like something that should be that casual?

Thankfully the sound of the shower turning on told me I had at least a few minutes before I had to worry about him coming back out. I considered waiting and taking a shower myself, but the last thing I wanted was to still be standing there in my underwear when he came back out, so I gave myself a sniff, decided I was okay for another day and stripped down.

As soon as the body suit was off I stretched and let out a long sigh of relief, fighting the urge to scratch at all my newly exposed skin. Instead, I reached back into the side pocket of my bag and pulled out the pack of baby wipes there and gave myself a wipe down before pulling on fresh underwear, then grimaced as I opened my second garment bag and took the second suit out of it.

I’d thought it was bad enough when Cici had made one, but knowing that there were now three of these things out in the wild, all made specifically for me, sent a bit of a shiver down my spine that had nothing to do with the quickly drying moisture from the baby wipes.

I took one last breath, enjoying my freedom, and pulled on my pregnant prison.

By the time Brian came back out of the bathroom, a towel around his waist and his hair still dripping wet, I’d mostly finished putting on my new outfit.

“Cute,” he said, watching me buckle up my boots while he air-dried.

I started to say thanks but instead found myself looking at his abs and blushing. Gah, get it together, Leigh! “Ah, thanks. I still have to do my makeup.”

“Well, bathroom’s yours again,” he said, spying the painkillers on the nightstand and grinning slightly as he went for them.

“Cool.”

“Cool.”

I tried to think of something else to say, but unable to do so, I grabbed my makeup bag and headed for the bathroom instead, just catching a glimpse of his bare ass in the mirror on the back side of the door before I closed it behind me.

....

Whoo boy.

I set my makeup bag on the little counter next to the sink and once again looked at myself in the mirror. My makeup was gone, but my cheeks still held a flush, and for some reason, my breathing was tight.

“And this is just the second day of the trip,” a voice inside my head that sounded suspiciously like Brian’s reminded me.

I shook my head and got to work fixing my face.

#

“Lunea!”

“Wha?!” I jumped, Maria shaking me with enough force that I almost dropped my staff. “Sorry, umm.”

Maria rolled her eyes while Brian gave me a look that was half-amusement, half-concern over her shoulder. “We’re ready to go. Did you hear the plan?” Without waiting for my answer, she continued. “John and Adrian will lead us off, followed by you and Burg, then Sunny and Dahlia. I’ll come down last.”

“Oh, okay.”

“Oh, and can you hold on to Burg like the two of you are in love?”

“...Yes?” I responded, Brian’s grin over her shoulder turning my affirmation into more of a strangled question.

“Good!” She said, then clapped her hands. Turning around, she yelled, “Okay, folks! Hit the deck!”

The crew cleared out of the room to take their places at the top and bottom of the ramp, leaving the rest of us to find our positions. Jonah and Aaron got their things around and took position at the door, then I stepped up behind Aaron, Brian on my left.

“So, you wanna hold hands now, or wait ‘til we step outside?” Brian asked me, adding an elbow bump for good measure.

“Umm—”

“You should do it now,” Deidre said from directly behind me. “In case the cameras are rolling when we step out.”

I looked over my shoulder at Deidre and Sydney. Deidre looked calm, but I could see the crinkle at the corner of her eyes that told me she was trying not to crack. Sydney, on the other hand, wasn’t even attempting to hide her opinion, giving me the toothiest smile she could manage, with two thumbs up to boot, only slightly hampered by the axe and shield in her hands.

I rolled my eyes, but when I looked at Brian, I saw his eyes twitch down. Following his gaze, I saw that he’d put his sword in its sheath and was offering me his hand.

I looked up to his eyes again, and for the first time since waking up in bed that morning, really studied his expression.

If we had done anything the night before, he hadn’t mentioned it, nor had he made any insinuations that things were any different between us than they’d ever been.

But for whatever reason, they felt different.

I felt different.

Like our trip to the park, I felt butterflies in my stomach that seemed to leave the boundaries of my real body and fly through the silicone baby bump that was even now pushing my dress outward, visible for the world to see. A baby bump that represented our baby in-game.

No, I reminded myself. Not our baby: our characters’ baby.

But really… was there a difference?

I shook my head, hoping the jostling would knock the intrusive thoughts away, but all it did was make me a little dizzy.

I felt Brian’s fingers touch my hand and almost unconsciously opened my own, letting him slide his fingers across my palm as he took my hand in his.

-==-

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 20: From Here to There

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 20 – From Here to There

“Ugh,” I grumbled as I shifted in my seat, trying to find a comfortable position.

“It’s not that bad,” Brian said, humor in his voice even though his eyes and attention were on the road and not my squirming.

“Says you,” I mumped with another grumble. “The seat belt is twisted, the seat adjuster is broken, and the pleather is cracked and keeps pinching my ass.”

“Shoulda worn thicker pants,” he said happily, shimmying a bit in his own seat. “Or any pants at all.”

“I’ve got basically two pairs of p… undies on, and the skirt is lined, and I’m still pretty sure I’m gonna have blisters on both cheeks by the time we get to the hotel!”

Brian rolled his eyes but still didn’t look at me. “It’s a rental car. That’s how rental cars are. I’m just glad we got one that doesn’t smell like week-old farts.”

“Ew.”

Brian nodded.

I wanted to complain more, but instead, I turned and looked out the window, adjusting my seat belt to find a position where it didn’t press uncomfortably on either my… chest, or my artificially extended midsection. It made me wonder how I hadn’t noticed the seat belts in either my car or Brian’s truck doing this kind of thing. Then again, we’d long ago gotten the belts in both adjusted mostly to our liking, so maybe I just wasn’t aware of it anymore?

I was certainly aware of it now, and the views beyond the window, pretty as the pastures and hills were, weren’t doing anywhere near enough to distract me from it.

“Two more hours.”

“Hmm?”

“’Til we get to the hotel.”

“I didn’t--”

“But you were going to.”

“Was not!”

Brian gave me a disbelieving side-eye.

“I mean, not yet.”

“Mm-hmm.”

Rather than acknowledging Brian’s smug response, I looked back at the uninspiring scenery yet again.

Marisol itself had been interesting, if not particularly alluring. A mixture of warehouses and old, somewhat run-down shops, the place had clearly seen better days, and all the cheery old-timey set decoration on the warehouses and businesses along the dock couldn’t hide the underlying sense of listlessness places like that developed when their heyday was gone, but the buildings themselves remained.

Maria had been sure to get shots of us checking out the handful of touristy places that had taken root near the docks, and even of us waving to the crew of the Golden Goose as it pulled away, most of whom were probably smiling so much because they didn’t have to deal with the pain-in-the-ass film crew anymore.

Or maybe I was still just a little on edge.

We said our good-byes to the ATG film crew there at the docks, since our own crew would be handling the staging and filming of the con events, but not before Maria collected a whole stack of business cards and promises to be in contact about the final editing on the film.

With that done, there was a sense of relief as we wandered down what passed for a boardwalk toward the building where our rental cars were supposed to be parked.

I’d taken one look at them and decided that next convention, I’d be springing for the upgrade. When I’d e-signed the paperwork for two compact cars and a minivan, I’d expected at least one of them to be from this century. Nevertheless, Brian had nabbed us the one with a working tape deck and a copy of Styx’s greatest hits, and we’d set off.

“Coffee?”

“Hmm?” I looked back at Brian, who spared a hand from the wheel long enough to point at a familiar fast-food logo on the horizon. “Oh! Sure, that sounds good. Maybe a bathroom break?”

“Sure thing,” he agreed, activating the turn signal while I fired off a text to the others, letting them know about our stop.

We pulled in and parked, and I let Brian take the duty of fetching our coffees while I went in search of the restrooms, finding them in the typical little hallway to the side of the kitchens. I hesitated only a moment before pushing open the door of the one marked “women:” even with Texas’ current slate of laws, something told me it was a safer option than risking my luck in the men’s room. Thankfully what lay beyond the doors was a neat and clean-ish little room with two sinks, two stalls, and a mirror that was still half-decent at its job.

I’d finished my business and was washing my hands when, of course, the door creaked open and another person entered the room, stepping up next to me and using the adjoining sink.

“Just washing my hands ‘fore eating,” she told me with a smile that, to her credit, barely faltered at my somewhat off-the-wall ensemble. At least, that was until she saw my belly. “Oh, how far along are you?”

I blushed. “Umm, four months?” I said, trying to remember how far along my character was. Was that right?

“Oh, wow! I’m only about three, I think,” she said, stepping back and spreading her arms. Sure enough, I could see just the hints of a belly like mine through the fabric of her sweater. Not as big, yet….

“Congratulations?” I hazarded, shutting off the water but keeping my hands over the sink since she stood between me and the towel dispenser.

“Thanks,” she said sweetly, then sighed, her shoulders sagging.

“Is something wrong?” I asked her, then instantly regretted it when the girl started sobbing and rushed me, wrapping me in a hug.

“Guh,” she said, gasping for air as she squeezed mine out through my ears, even as I tried to give her a comforting back pat while also trying not to drip water on her from my still-wet hands. “S-sorry, just… men fucking suck, y’know?”

I blushed even more. “Umm, yeah,” I agreed, thinking of Jonah. Then Brian and Aaron came to mind, too. “I mean, some of them.”

She sighed again and let me go, wiping her eyes and nose with the back of the sleeve of her sweater. “Oh geez, I didn’t mean to… that other guy’s your husband, I guess? The one in the armor?”

“No, he’s just…” I trailed off, realizing with horror that I had no idea how to describe our relationship at the moment. “It’s complicated?” I finally settled on, more to shut down my own runaway thoughts than to really answer the question.

“Oh, but he’s the daddy, right?”

“That’s… also complicated,” I said. Then seeing the confusion on her face, I added, “But yeah?”

She laughed at that. “I getcha. Wanted to do the deed, but doesn’t want the responsibility?” I started to open my mouth to answer, but she waved me off with a bitter puff. “Sorry, that’s harsh. He’s here, and that’s something, right?”

I nodded, not sure what else to say.

She seemed to deflate again, leaning back against the sinks but still not giving me a route to the paper towels. “I guess I really can’t blame anyone but myself. I knew he was a piece of shit, and I shoulda never trusted him when he said he couldn’t have kids. I’m still gonna be laughing all the way to the bank soon as I can get a paternity test done, though. I just wish things weren’t so rough, y’know? Like, the morning sickness passes, but the swelling and the cravings….”

“Support hose,” I said, the information from my research into pregnancy popping into my head unbidden. “It can help with the swollen ankles.”

“Really?” She said, surprised, then looked down at my legs. “Are you wearing them?”

“Umm, no,” I admitted. Why did that make me feel a little embarrassed?

“Huh. Well, worth a shot,” she said, smiling again. “Hey, I’m sorry about this, it’s just--”

“No, it’s all right,” I said, cutting her off. I gave her my best smile and, figuring it was my best option, another small hand-less hug. “I hope things get better for you.”

“They will, just… thanks,” she said, giving me a finger wave and heading back out the door.

Alone in the room again, I looked down at myself, and at my still drippy hands. Then, I looked further down, at my bare legs and my boots.

Should I be wearing support hose?

I shook the stray thought away, rinsed my hands again, and finally dried them, checking my appearance in the mirror before heading back out into the lobby.

Brian was waiting for me near the doors, two coffees and a small bag in his hands. I looked around the sitting area and spotted my bathroom companion sitting at a table by herself on the other side of the room. She caught me looking at her and gave me a small smile and a wave, so I smiled and waved back before opening the doors for Brian.

“Who was that?” He asked me on the way to the car.

“Just a lady I met in the bathroom,” I told him, not sure how much I wanted to reveal about our conversation.

“Well, I hope everything came out okay,” he said, chuckling when he saw my scowl. “Hey, it’s all good. We got coffee, and I got us a couple of apple pies too.”

“Really?” I said, the little bag in his hands suddenly seeming a lot more interesting.

“Yep. But let’s get back on the road first, pinch-y pleather seats and all.”

“...Those apple pies better be amazing.”

“Aren’t they always?”

“Fair.”

###

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 21: Weapon of Choice

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 21: Weapon of Choice

The last thing I wanted after that fiasco was to get stuck in my own head again, but it wasn’t long before the underwhelming scenery and post-apple pie torpor had my mind circling the drain.

What WAS going on with my relationship with Brian anyway? Were we still just roommates and best friends? Or….

I thought about that morning in our room and waking up in bed next to him. I’d freaked out a little, sure, but if I were being honest with myself, I was more upset about not knowing what we’d done than the idea that we might have done anything. Heck, I still wasn’t sure we hadn’t, only that whatever it was hadn’t involved anything that would require my panties to come off.

Brian certainly wasn’t a bad-looking guy, after all. Better looking than most of the girls I’d dated in college, and definitely more handsome than the few guys I’d experimented with. And Maria had been telling me for a while I needed to get my oats sowed, so to speak. Truth be told, my last date was quite a while back, and my last time with a partner was even longer than that.

Actually, I couldn’t remember dating anyone since college, which surprised me. It hadn’t been that long, had it?

Come to think of it, how long had it been since I’d seen Brian bring home a date?

I glanced at Brian, careful not to make it obvious, and studied his profile. Strong jaw. Deep blue eyes. A few days’ worth of stubble, because, according to him, it made his characters look more rugged and manly. I couldn’t imagine why any girl wouldn’t want to date him.

I remembered the feel of that stubble, brushing my face, as we’d danced, and as we’d….

Blushing, I turned away again.

Okay, so my memory was clear that we’d at least kissed. Probably more than once, if I were to guess. Historically I only ever really got drunk when hanging out with Maria. We both could get a little touchy-feely when we got a few drinks in us and had kissed a couple times when that happened too.

Then again, when we’d been drunk and kissed, it was because she was wanting to get the attention of a guy she was into. Why had she thought that would get his attention, again?

Oh yeah, because he’d thought I was her girlfriend, I remembered, rolling my eyes. If memory served, that was also the Night of the Hurricanes and just another reason to never repeat that evening ever.

So maybe that wasn’t so much like kissing Brian last night after all. Yes, there was alcohol involved, but as far as I knew, neither of us was trying to get anyone’s attention.

Another fuzzy memory, of a phone number on a scrap of paper, floated through my brain, just out of reach, followed by Brian’s bare ass in the bathroom mirror.

“Grrrr.”

“Something wrong?” Brian asked, the sound of his voice making me jump.

“Hmm? What?”

“You growled.”

“I did?”

“You did.”

“Oh.” I didn’t dare look his way, knowing already that he’d be giving me one of his smarmy smiles and not wanting to deal with it at the moment. “Just ready to get to the hotel, is all.”

“Ah. According to my phone, we’re about another half an hour out.”

“Great.”

That seemed to be enough to reassure Brian since he didn’t say anything else, and once again, I was left to my thoughts, watching as the scenery beyond my window made the transition from fields to suburbs in preparation for the city itself.

We’d been to a con in Houston a couple of years and somewhere north of a million subs ago, around the time we got our ATG sponsorship. At the time, we’d been there as fans, not as guests, though we’d still managed a few photo ops with the rare fan of our show, or sometimes just folks who loved our costumes. I guess it made sense that the structure of Austin had me thinking of that: the same quasi-western aesthetic mixed with standard American Industrial, the same dust hanging over everything.

The same tingle of excitement in the pit of my stomach as each mile fell in our inevitable approach.

I’d been stressing for weeks, if not months, about what this con could mean for us as a business. Sure, ATG was picking up a big chunk of the bill, but we still had our own expenses, including the rental cars and partial accommodations for our crew when we opted to use our own people instead of letting ATG arrange it themselves.

Much as we loved the Faelands system, ultimately, the show we were putting on wasn’t a Faelands game: it was OUR game, and we wanted OUR people who’d helped to make it possible there with us. Then there was renting our own booth space, and making sure we had enough swag to give away and sell, and it was all just a lot to deal with.

But that was all in the past. The organizing was done, and with the retrieval of the rental cars, my part in organizing anything at all was more or less done unless an emergency popped up.

For the first time since we’d accepted the offer to appear, I was thinking about the con as something to look forward to more than something to dread, and even with all the other shenanigans going on in my life, I couldn’t help but smile.

My smile slipped as I found myself having to adjust my seat belt again. There were still at least a couple of things to stress over, after all.

Brian’s ‘thirty minutes’ wound up being closer to another hour thanks to inner city traffic, but with a little help from his phone’s GPS, we wound our way through the city streets and toward our destination.

The Randal Floyd Convention Center was certainly something else: a long, stucco-covered building full of tall windows, that looked squat from a distance until you realized the whole thing was probably two city blocks long all on its own. I knew that somewhere in there was the exhibition floor where the convention would take place, and that somewhere near that would be the small auditorium that ATG had rented for our shows.

Our first destination, however, was across the road from the convention center: the Kramer Hotel.

I had spent a lot of time researching the hotels that were available and had more than one heated discussion with the ATG organizers about our needs. We’d settled on the Kramer for two reasons: it was connected to the convention center by a skyway, so we’d be able to travel back and forth without dodging traffic, and it was the only place that had suites available when we’d gone to book.

It was certainly a nice hotel, with gleaming metal supports contrasting with the creamy texture of the con center across the way, and not for the first time, I was glad we were only footing half the bills for the crew’s rooms and not our own.

“No more cars for three days!” I crowed happily once we were safely parked in the underground garage at the hotel.

“Not unless we go somewhere to eat.”

“No more cars for three days,” I said again, with extra emphasis.

“Okie doke.”

It didn’t take long to grab our stuff and find the elevator, and from there make our way to the hotel lobby.

The lobby was a sight to behold. It was clear that the hotel was all-in for the gaming convention, complete with banners and a number of other be-costumed con-goers milling about, either checking in themselves or taking a break from the activity and noise across the street. I eagerly looked around as I let Brian lead the way to the desk, clearing a path for us while I admired the costumes, but once we reached the desk, he stepped aside.

“Hello, miss,” the lady at the reception desk said, giving the slight points of my prosthetic elf ears only the smallest of glances and never dropping her smile. “Do you have a reservation?”

“Yes, we should have a room registered under Leigh Serrano?”

“Do you have an ID?”

I pulled out my wallet and handed her the ID. She barely glanced at it before turning back to her computer and typing. “I don’t… wait, here it is. Wednesday Knights?” She asked.

“Our streaming group,” I told her, unable to keep a bit of pride out of it.

“I see,” she said, without any hint that she knew what it meant. She turned back to the monitor and clicked on the screen a few more times, then picked up an envelope. I started to reach for it, but instead of handing it to me, she offered it to Brian. “Your room is five twenty-four, part of one of our suites. Your key cards will open your room, the main suite entrance, and the door between your room and the main suite. If you need anything else, just let us know.”

“Thanks,” Brian said, taking the keys but handing them to me. “That everything we need?” he asked me.

“Yeah,” I said, trying not to sound too annoyed.

The girl at the desk smiled again, still oblivious. “Enjoy your stay at the Kramer!”

Without another word, we turned and headed for the elevators. Brian pulled out his phone and was sending texts while I called us a car, and somehow, we managed to get one just to ourselves. I made the assumption that room five twenty-four would be on the fifth floor, hit the button, and held my breath through the initial lurch.

Tap tap tap.

“Maria and Cici have the other room in the suite,” he told me, putting his phone away and lightly bumping my shoulder with his elbow.

“Great,” I said, a little huffily, though I was genuinely relieved: I’d forgotten how we’d split the suites, and the last thing I wanted to do was deal with sharing a common area with Jonah for three days straight. “So that means that costumes and makeup are in our common room?”

“And the equipment is in the other, yep,” Brian confirmed for me. “By the way, can I get a key back?”

I pretended to think about it for a moment. “Hmmm. Maybe.”

“I mean, I was nice enough to give them to you,” he said, nudging me again.

The elevator dinged, and my stomach dropped as we came to a halt and the doors slid open. “I hate it when they do that,” I grumbled as we stepped out of the elevator, though I did pull one of the cards out and hand it to him.

“The elevator or the keys?”

“Both?” I admitted. “But mostly the key thing.”

“It’s only because I’m so tall and confident-looking.”

“It’s because you have a mace,” I argued, double-checking the legend on the wall and following the arrow toward our room.

“It is a pretty impressive mace,” he agreed, nodding sagely.

“Well, it’d have to be. Gotta compensate somehow,” I tossed back, a smile creeping across my face.

“Ouch!”

We were both smiling and laughing as I scanned my card in the door and swung it open….

Right up until I saw the room.

And the single king-sized bed in the middle.

###

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 22: Fit for a King

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 22 -- Fit For A King

“Here you are, miss, enjoy!” The chipper booth girl said.

I thanked her and took the small bag from her hands, dropping it in the cavernous mouth of the complimentary oversized tote the con had given me when I’d registered. It wasn’t overly full yet, but I could already feel it weighing down my shoulder and wondered if I should head back to the room to empty it before coming back.

No, I reminded myself. That would just mean seeing the room again, and I certainly didn’t want to do that at the moment.

It wasn’t the hotel’s fault, not really. I knew that, and double-checking their site, it was clearly stated that one of the rooms in a suite held two full-sized beds and the other held a king bed. It wouldn’t even be an issue on almost any other weekend, since hotels like the Kramer always had roll-aways available, and the common rooms for the suites usually held convertible couches.

Unfortunately, this was a con weekend. All the roll-aways were claimed, and like generous fools, we’d offered to let them re-locate the couch from our suite to another room that needed a roll-away for the con. It hadn’t seemed like a big deal, since we were planning to use the common rooms for staging and changing, so if anything, getting the couch out of the way would work out for the better, right?

I grunted as a rotund man in a Superman costume rammed my shoulder. “Hey!” I called after him, but he never even bothered to turn around and look at what he’d hit. I was ready to turn back around and just carry on when another man, wearing a Doctor Strange costume, stepped in front of him.

“Hey, man. Apologize to the lady,” he said, pointing at me.

Superman turned and gave me a sneering leer… right up until he saw my belly. “Oh! Geez, I’m sorry!” He said, turning as red as his too-tight spandex trunks.

I let out a heavy sigh, trying not to let my temper get the best of me. “It’s all right, just watch where you’re going a bit more, okay?” I gave a small wave at the crowd that was flowing around us. “You never know who you’ll run into.”

“Ah, yeah,” he agreed, blushing even more. He turned back around, and Doctor Strange nodded at him before stepping aside and letting him pass.

“Thanks,” I said, smiling up at the tall be-cloaked man.

“Hey, no problem. Guys like that should keep a closer eye where they’re going.”

“Yeah ....”

“Especially if it means missing someone as cute as you.”

“Oh,” I said, blushing.

“I’m Ben, by the way.”

“Oh! Leigh,” I said, taking his offered hand for a gentle shake.

“Yep. You do that streaming show.”

“You watch us?” I asked, surprised.

“Only a couple of times,” he admitted. “My girlfriend is a big fan, though.”

“You have a girlfriend? I mean, not… you know what I mean.” Why was I a little flustered?

He laughed. “Hey, you’re not the only girl who likes geeks. If you need any help with other jerks, just keep an eye out for the cape,” he said, shaking one of the gold-tasseled corners at me.

“Will do,” I agreed, laughing too. “And thanks.”

We parted, and I smiled after him for a moment before shaking my head and going back on my way.

The baby bump had been an experience so far. I’d thought that wearing it around the house and even out around town a few times would prepare me for wearing it at the con, and from a physical perspective, it had. The difference was, at home, I’d tried to keep it hidden. Here, at the con, my costume had it shown off for the world to see, and the responses had been unexpected.

A lot of people still ignored me, sure, but I’d also gotten a lot of surprising looks from both men and women. I was used to guys leering a bit when I came to cons dressed as my characters, but so many of those leers were turning into frowns or, occasionally, crude, knowing smiles when they noticed the baby. Women, on the other hand, seemed more prone to smiling at me, and at one booth I’d gone to, one of the booth girls had even given me a discount because I was “just so darn cute.”

It was all almost novel enough that I could ignore the increased strain on my back as I traveled the concrete floors and the extra space I needed to get through crowds.

Almost.

Again, I considered heading back to the room, not only to drop things off but maybe to take a quick nap as well. The only thing any of us had planned for the evening was a panel Maria was asked to speak at for game masters working with streaming groups, and she’d specifically asked us players not to attend, “lest you hear something you shouldn’t.” The booth floor was staying open until eight, so I could nap for an hour or two and still have another two or three hours to explore after, and it’s not like we wouldn’t have time the next couple of days to wander a bit too….

But once again, going back to the room would mean facing the king-sized bed.

I re-considered Maria and Cici’s offer to take the king and let us have the double, but like when they’d asked, I kicked the idea. I’d shared a bed with Maria before, and I wasn’t about to subject Cici to the kicking, the shoving, and the cover stealing Maria was prone to. Likewise, in the other suite Sydney and Deidre were themselves sharing the king room, leaving the double room for Aaron and Jonah, and like with our suite, we’d let the couch be taken for a room that had pre-booked a roll-away.

I didn’t even consider forcing Aaron to share a bed with Jonah. Didn’t none of us want to do that.

My phone dinged, so I pushed my way through con-goers until I reached a bench along one of the walls. It took me a bit of effort to shift my bags and props around enough to get my phone out, but when I did, and saw what the ding was about, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to burst into laughter or huff angrily.

It was a text from Brian, and attached was a picture of him standing in the middle of three ladies dressed as elves, all of whom were heavily pregnant, and all of whom were hanging onto him or kissing his cheeks. “Found my new harem,” the text itself said.

I blinked, then frowned and started to put my phone away, only for it to ding again. Another text from Brian, this one simply saying, “Wanna join?”

I frowned more deeply, and silenced my phone, making sure this time it got put away. Changing my mind, I pulled it back out and started a group text.

“Tired. Going back to room for a nap,” I typed and sent. Then, feeling just a bit annoyed, sent an extra one just to Brian that said “ALONE.”

“Hmmf,” I said to myself with a satisfied nod as I put away my phone yet again and stood up, taking a moment to orient myself before starting the adventure that was navigating the crowds in the other direction. I must have still looked a bit pissed because the crowds parted ahead of me more easily than before.

Stupid Brian. He wasn’t bothered by the situation in the least, it seemed, and had actually laughed – laughed! – when he’d seen the room. Sydney and Deidre had just rolled their eyes, Maria had shrugged ....

I sighed as I trudged and squeezed and trudged some more. Dodging con-goers took my focus for a bit, but soon the crowds thinned and I spied the skyway to the hotel in the distance. The closer I got to the skyway the quieter the noise of the con itself became, and the clearer my thoughts.

I wanted to stay mad, but I just couldn’t manage it. I was too tired, and too frazzled, and the truth of it was, after spending all day worrying about having already spent a night in bed with Brian, it was getting just a bit old to keep dwelling on it. After all, what was the big deal anyway?

I closed my eyes for a moment as I crossed the skyway itself and took a deep breath before continuing on.

It was a big deal to me, I admitted, mostly because it seemed like it was ONLY a big deal to me. Brian hadn’t thought twice about us sharing a bed, or sharing one again. Nobody else thought it was a big deal, either. If I were being honest, I didn’t even feel like it was a bad thing, just… I don’t know. Worth acknowledging, at least?

I was still pondering that when I made it to the door of the room and scanned my card key. The lights came on automatically as I walked toward the bed, sitting there and staring me down with its oxblood-red comforter with the navy-blue trim and matching pillows… and the stuffed pup sitting in the middle of it.

I dropped my things off in one of the chairs tucked into the corner near the little table every hotel room had, and approached the stuffie, looking at it closely.

Sure enough, it was the one from my bed at home.

When had he snuck in and grabbed it? WHY had he snuck in and grabbed it? I pondered both those questions as I sat down on the bed, sinking deep into the rich plushness, and reached out to pick the pup up.

“How did you get here?” I asked it accusingly.

The pup stared at me with its sparkly, friendly eyes, with a puppy smile that said I was its best friend in the world.

With a harrumph, I dropped back onto the bed and pulled the pup up to sit on my chest. Thinking better of it, I tucked it down into the crook of my elbow.

“What are we gonna do?” I asked it as I closed my eyes, not expecting an answer and thankfully not getting one.

Soon enough, the roaring of my thoughts calmed enough I felt myself slip into sleep.

-==-

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Well, dinosaur. Singular.

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 23: Waking Up

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 23 -- Waking Up

I was dreaming.

I knew I was dreaming because I normally didn’t have afternoon tea with banana-yellow velociraptors in the waking world.

“That is a conundrum, dearie,” Mrs. Raptor said, sipping her tea primly.

“Yeah,” I agreed, sipping my own equally carefully. She’d already chided me once – gently – for letting some tea drip onto my dress, and I wasn’t looking forward to Aunt Cici’s reaction when she saw the dark brown spots on the delicate lace. “I just wish I knew what to do about him.”

“Well, you could start by answering your phone,” Mrs. Raptor told me with a smile that was warm despite the razor-sharp teeth it bared.

“My phone?” I asked her, as the droning noise that had been eating at the back of my mind clarified into the sound of a classic bell ringtone.

“Mrrfm,” I grumbled as I sat up on the bed, my arms still wrapped around the stuffed pup. It took me another minute or so – and another round of ringing – before I woke up enough to realize it was the room’s phone, not my cell phone, and flopped over to reach the handset on the side of the bed.

“Hmmfh?” I mumbled into the phone as I rolled over on my back, lifting the stuffed pup to sit on the baby bump.

“Wake up call for one Miss Serrano?” A woman’s voice said.

“Nnh.” I grumbled, blinking. “I didn’t order a wake-up call.”

“No, ma’am. The request was placed by Mr. Venable.”

Brian.

“Fine,” I whined. Then, remembering I was talking to a person and not a computer, I blushed. “Umm, thanks.”

“You’re welcome,” the woman on the other end said, chuckling slightly.

I hung the phone back up on the second attempt and considered going back to sleep but thought better of it. If Brian put in a wake-up call for me, then there must be something I needed to be up for.

“You got any ideas?” I asked the pup, fiddling with one of its ears while I waited for a response.

Getting no help from the stuffie, I moved them up to the pillow and rolled off the bed, groaning a bit more than the effort probably warranted but less than I really wanted to. I started for my bag to grab my phone, but changed my mind on the way and instead went to the bathroom to relieve some of the baby-worsened pressure before returning and checking for messages.

“Three missed calls?” I said, surprised by the notification on the front of my phone until I remembered silencing it before heading back to the room. “And two texts.” Two of the calls were from Maria, shortly after I’d sent the group text I was going to lie down, and the last one was Brian. Both texts were from Brian, too, and later than the call, so I decided to check those before returning any calls.

As soon as I opened the first text, I started laughing. It was another photo of Brian, this time surrounded by big, burly men all glaring down at him. Attached was the message “oops, the husbands showed up.” The second text had been sent shortly after his attempted call and just said, “called you in an alarm. Dinner with the crew @ 5:30, hotel restaurant.”

Checking the clock on my phone; it was just after five. I considered texting him back I didn’t feel like eating, but my belly grumbled at the idea of missing the meal, so instead, I got up and headed back to the bathroom, this time to make sure I was presentable. That done, I made sure my things were in my bag and left the room, ignoring the elevator and instead heading for the stairs, since I had the time.

I cradled the baby bump as I walked. Truth be told, I was almost used to the weight now. I wondered how accurate it was to a real baby, and how different it would feel to really be pregnant. To have a life growing inside of you….

I almost smiled at the idea, which also made me want to frown, but I also didn’t want to frown at the idea of a baby, so instead, I felt my face twitch in protest at the mixed signals it was getting and settle on a sneeze.

I fetched a tissue from my bag and laughed as I made sure my nose was clear. How foolish was I being about all this anyway? I’d spent the last couple of weeks in a massive fuss about the belly, and the costumes, and people seeing me as a woman, and now here I was thinking about real babies?

I was still laughing as I lowered myself onto one of the steps. I still had plenty of time, right? I pulled my phone out again to double-check, and while I had it out turned the ringer back on and sent out another group text, letting everyone know I’d be down for dinner. That done, I once again found myself cradling the baby.

My baby.

Brian’s baby?

No, Lunea and Burg’s baby, right?

It sure felt like it was my baby.

My laughter died as I fought not to cry instead. I’d spent my entire life being mistaken for a girl, being told I acted like one or looked like one or sounded like one. I’d fought it, I’d deluded myself into thinking it wasn’t true; it was all just people giving me a hard time because I didn’t fit their ideas of what a guy was.

Now here I sat, in what I had to admit was a very cute dress and elf ears and makeup… and with a baby bump protruding beneath a set of tits that were more real than I would have admitted even a week ago. I was on my way down to have dinner with my best friends, including the guy who was, for all intents and purposes, my baby’s father, and now I was having an emotional meltdown in the stairway after having napped with the stuffed dog he bought me after getting pissed over a picture of him with other girls hanging off him.

“Rrrrrgh!” I growled, the sound echoing off the walls around me but still not picking up much real menace. I’d never been able to conjure menace well, and the elf princess getup didn’t make me any better at it.

Why hadn’t I just played a guy character like Brian and Aaron? I almost always played girls in games when I had a chance, even when I streamed, and I knew that didn’t help my case. I should just play guys. Then none of this would happen, right?

I thought about that, about the changes I’d have to make if I wanted to prove I was a guy. They weren’t hard, or really time-consuming or anything.

So... why didn’t I actually want to do them?

The answer struck me, and again I found myself letting out a tired laugh.

I didn’t want to do them because they weren’t fun.

I’d played guys in tabletop before. I’d played guys in video games where I could make my own characters, too. I’d played guys in games that had character choice. But I’d always ended up feeling like I was missing out on the real fun I could have, like I was having to play in ways that didn’t feel enjoyable to me.

Playing girls felt… right, in a way that guys didn’t. Playing girls felt more fun.

I looked down at my baby bump again, my arms still wrapped around it protectively.

Even with all the confusion about whether I was a man or a woman, a guy or a girl, I’d kept picking girls or feminine characters because I enjoyed them more. Even sitting in the too-warm stairway in my too-short dress, I couldn’t imagine having not played Lunea, or having not made the decisions I had. Yeah, I was frustrated at a lot of what was going down, but if I could go back and actually change any of my choices, would I?

Would I?

....

“No.”

I said it aloud, the words echoing in the stairwell with more strength than my earlier growl had.

“No,” I said again, smiling around the word.

I liked Lunea. I liked Burg, and Sunny, and my teammates, and the adventures we’d had together.

And I liked Brian, and Sydney, and my friends, and the stories we’d told. I liked streaming tabletop, and streaming video games, and my mod team and my game streaming friends I’d race and do raids in Heimdall with. They were all good.

They were all fun.

So… why wasn’t I letting it be fun right now?

I’d spent so much time recently worrying about money, and about metrics and marketing, and making a career of the games I used to love.

That I still love.

Where in there did I lose sight of just letting myself enjoy them? And where in all of that did I stop thinking about what I wanted and instead start thinking of it as what others wanted?

What DO I want?

“I want to have fun,” I said, once again out loud. Once again, the echoes called back to me, loud and proud.

I looked down at my baby bump again and thought about what it represented. The experiences not only of my character, but of me as a player, and as a person. The hard work that had gone into making all this happen, and the pride of the people who had helped me get here. For so many of them, it wasn’t about doing it for our fans: they helped me because they wanted to do it for me.

I patted the baby bump gently, then stood up.

“Come on, Leigh,” I said to myself, trying to sound as confident as my echo. “Let’s have fun.”

###

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 24: An Evening With Friends

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 24 – An Evening With Friends

It took another three and a half flights of stairs for me to get down to the lobby and another flight back up once I learned the restaurant was on the building’s second floor. I was mulling over the desk attendant’s somewhat confusing directions when I pushed open the second-floor door, only to see Brian about ten feet from the door on the other side.

“Oh!” I said, jumping a bit but quashing the instinct to step back into the stairwell.

Brian chuckled. “I was just coming to make sure you were doing okay.”

“I’m fine,” I said, smiling up at him. “Why were you coming toward the stairs instead of the elevator?”

“You took them, didn’t you?”

“...Touché,” I agreed, giving him a suspicious look. “You know me too well, and now you must perish.”

Brian laughed again and closed the distance between us, wrapping an arm around my shoulders and giving me a gentle squeeze. “Can it wait ‘til after dinner?”

“This time,” I agreed, bumping him with my elbow and getting a happy but odd smile. “What?”

“Hmm? Oh, you just seem like you’re feeling happier, is all,” he said, squeezing me again as we walked down the hallway.

“I think I just needed a nap,” I told him.

“Maybe so,” he agreed, sounding unconvinced. “It’s nice to see though.”

“Oh, have I been too grumpy lately?” I asked, scowling at him.

“I wouldn’t say that,” he said, backing away from me a bit and putting up his hands, though his eyes were still crinkled with humor.

I sighed. “I kinda have been though,” I admitted. “But that’s gonna change. I’ve decided that this stuff’s supposed to be fun, so might as well try and enjoy it, right?”

“Right!” He agreed. “And left.”

“What?”

“To the restaurant.”

“Oh!”

The restaurant was called Cafe Kramer – appropriate, I suppose, given the hotel – and was made up to look like something I could only describe as halfway between an old-west saloon and a Cracker Barrel. The walls were covered in carefully faux-aged wood slats and old, rusty farming implements, and it had a darker floor that looked wood at first glance but felt like either tile or linoleum over concrete under my feet.

Combined with the country music blaring over the sound system and the bare tin with rough-cut wooden guards separating the tables and booths, it looked exactly like any of a number of “good ol' south” type restaurants I’d seen back home.

“Four hundred miles from home, but it almost feels like we never left,” Brian said with a heavy sigh, causing me to laugh since I’d been thinking almost the exact same thing. “Group’s over there.”

“Then lead the way, good Druid.”

“That I will, M’lady, that I will.”

The others waved as we approached, but nobody bothered to call out to us over the noise of the room. Brian using a hand in the middle of my back to guide me to a chair and then pulling it out for me did get us a couple of amused looks, but I ignored them.

“She finally makes it!” Maria crowed from her position at the nominal head of the table. “We thought you’d gotten abducted or something.”

“Nay, the brave druid kept me safe,” I tossed back, still in character after my and Brian’s exchange on the way to the table.

“Ah, so he did!” Aaron said, jumping into character as well. “Our thanks to the Druid who brought our princess safely to thine tavern.”

“Hail!” Sydney cheered, loud enough the table behind her turned to see what the fuss was.

“Hail!” Maria, Brian, and Deidre tossed in, too, before we all burst into laughter. Jonah rolled his eyes but didn’t even smirk when he did so, so I considered that as much positivity as I was gonna get from him for the evening.

"And would the noble lady care for a drink?" asked a waitress who seemed to apparate to my shoulder. To my surprise, she was in costume like us, with one of the restaurant's aprons tied over a set of neat-looking leather armor and her own set of elf ears peeking out through her hair.

"Indeed!" I said once I'd regained my composure. "What ales and fine wines do you have on offer, wench?"

She rattled off a list of drinks to me, then looked down and seemed to notice my baby bump for the first time. "M'lady...."

I sighed. "Just a coke is fine," I said, breaking character, but gave the waitress a smile to make sure she knew I wasn't upset.

"Very well. I'll be back to take food orders shortly."

I thanked her, then turned back to the rest of the table, who were looking at me with a mixture of amusement and puzzlement.

"Been getting that kind of thing a lot today?" Maria asked me, then took a sip of her own obviously alcoholic beverage.

"UGH," I groaned in response, slouching in my seat for just a moment before pulling myself back upright so as not to hurt my dress. "You wouldn't believe some of the crud I've had to deal with today."

"Guys holding doors for you, kindly older ladies asking when she's due, people offering you seats?"

"I mean, yeah," I agreed, shrugging. Then I glared at Maria. "She?"

"I'm kicking around ideas for if your kiddo's a boy or a girl, so I've got plans whatever the dice decide."

I tried to glare harder at her, but that only made her grin all the wider, so I brushed it off and continued. "I think I need to get a wedding band or something to wear with this damn thing, just so I get fewer questions about that, too."

Suddenly everyone's gazes turned to Brian.

"Hmm?" he said, looking up from his menu and shrugging. "What?"

"Nothing," Sydney said in a sing-song voice, then continued the sing-songiness into humming a few lines of 'Here Comes the Bride.'

Brian looked at her.

Then he looked at me.

Then he looked at the baby bump.

"Paternity test first."

"Hey!"

The rest of our friends laughed, and after a moment -- and a playful wink from Brian -- I did too.

"If you need a ring, I bet Aunt Cici can set you up with something later," Maria assured me. "She brought along a toolbox full of spare incidental props and repair materials just in case. I'd imagine she's got a wedding band in there somewhere."

"Aww, so no proposal?" Sydney asked, seeming legitimately disappointed.

"Not yet," Deidre said without looking up from her own menu.

Ugh.

"Dinner's on the business account. One alcoholic drink each," I made sure to get in before the cheering got too loud. That got a snort from Jonah and a few disappointed frowns from the rest of the table, but I found it hard to feel bad about it.

We spent the next few moments studying the menus, and I did my best to tune the sounds and smells of the room out as I figured out what I wanted. When the waitress returned with my drink, I was ready.

"Loaded baked potato."

"Ooh, that sounds good. Me too," Brian said.

"Coulda got tacos," I pointed out to him.

"Nah," he said, pointing to one of the nearby tables, where a plate of tacos sat. "See the shells? That ain't a taco."

"Aah," I said, rolling my eyes but not disagreeing with him. If there was one thing Brian took seriously, it was his tacos.

With the food order placed, and the waitress aware that I was taking care of the bill, the conversation resumed.

"...and after I got Jackson's autograph, we took some photos with fans in front of the doors to the auditorium. Have you guys seen that place yet?" Sydney asked around a mouthful of fried zucchini appetizer.

"Only in photos," I admitted. "It looked pretty big, though."

"Big is an understatement! I've been to concerts in smaller places!"

"That wasn't a concert. It was your cousin's band playing in the basement of an old flophouse," Deidre disagreed.

"We had to pay cover, so it counts! Anyway, place is massive."

"I didn't think anyone other than staff was supposed to be in there yet," I said, a little surprised. "I was told it was only being used for our shows, so we could leave things set up."

"Oh, Todd -- the camera guy we hired back in January? -- he let me in to check things out."

"Hmm," I hmmm'd.

"Don't be like that. He's been trying to get in my pants and just wanted to show off a bit. It's fine."

"Funny, guys don't usually have to try that hard."

"Hey!" Sydney complained, not at all actually offended by Deidre's barb. "Todd's a bit of a tool, but he wears a size fourteen shoe, so who knows," she said, giving me, Maria, and Deidre significant looks. "He -- oh, hey, food!"

The food was enough distraction that all conversation ceased for a while, giving me time to contemplate Syd's shoe comment.

Brian wore a size thirteen, didn't he?

I was pretty sure he did.

For some reason, that made me blush.

The potato was good and even bigger than I'd expected, enough so I was barely halfway through with it and considering a to-go box when I saw that Brian's plate was already empty.

"Did you even taste it?" I asked him, causing Aaron to choke-laugh around a mouthful of the steak he had ordered.

"A bit here and there," Brian agreed, eyeing my own plate. "You not gonna eat any more than that?"

"I don't think I could if I tried," I said, pushing my plate his way.

"And here I thought pregnant girls were supposed to be insatiable."

"That's ice cream and pickles," Maria said, getting a nod of agreement from Deidre.

"Ice cream?" I said, perking up a bit at that. "I mean, I could probably find a little more room...."

It was... fun, just sitting and chatting with everyone, and for the first time in a while, I felt like I was actually relaxing around my friends.

Just how long had I been letting the stress get to me?

And why?

"Hey, you all right?" Brian asked, leaning over and giving my shoulder a squeeze.

I looked in his eyes and saw the care and concern there. Then I looked around the table at all my friends, smiling and laughing. Oh, and Jonah was there too, and he didn't even seem to be trying to look annoyed.

"I'm great," I said, reaching up and squeezing his hand but letting it go just as quickly. I was great, but I was still confused by us.

That could wait 'til later, though.

"So, what's everyone else got planned for tonight?" Maria asked the table as the waitress cleared away the last of the dinner and dessert plates, mine not being the only ice cream bowl.

"Updating our social feeds," Syd said, with less enthusiasm than she'd had during the meal.

"I need to get back to our merch agent about an issue with the new mugs," Deidre said, holding up her phone for us to see the email displayed on it.

"I have to call one of the donors to the youth center to double-check a pledge," Aaron admitted, shrugging.

"Wow, busy, busy," Maria said. "I guess I could double-check my materials for the game tomorrow?"

I looked at the group again, seeing hints of the same stress I had been feeling. Maybe I wasn't the only one who needed to relax a bit more.

I pulled out my program for the con and looked over the night's events and couldn't help but laugh. "Guys, I got a better idea."

"Hmm?"

I held up the program so everyone could see it. "Who here wants to see a Rocky Horror show?"

"The merch guy can wait," Deidre agreed, her eyes sparkling.

"I can probably put together a Magenta costume if you give me half an hour. Think Cici would help?" Syd asked, giving Maria a pleading look.

Maria chuckled. "Guess if things go sideways tomorrow, I'll blame Leigh. Sure, let's go!"

I looked over at Brian again, saw his smile, and smiled back. He squeezed my shoulder again, and this time when I squeezed his hand, I kept mine there.

-==-

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 25: Bolster

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 25 -- Bolster

I woke up the next morning warm, comfortable and feeling oddly heavier than normal. I laid there for at least ten minutes, half-asleep and trying to figure out why I seemed to be held in place before my brain began to sort things out.

I was in a king-size bed in a hotel room in Austin, Texas.

I was tucked against the bolster Brian and I had made the night before to give us separate sides of the bed, my back pressed firmly to it.

I couldn't move because, at some point in the night, Brian had wrapped an arm across the bolster and was holding on to me, his hand resting on the baby bump.

Just the morning before, waking up next to Brian had sent me into a panic, not helped by my alcohol-fueled discomfort. With a clearer head and my resolution from the stairwell in mind, I took a deep breath and kept relaxed. As if he sensed my waking, Brian grumbled sleepily, his face pressed into the bolster, and gave the baby bump a gentle pat.

I considered moving his arm but decided against it. Instead, I laid my own arm on top of his, my fingers atop his knuckles, and kept my eyes closed, enjoying the luxurious sheets and the sense of safety I felt.

Why had being so close terrified me the day before but not now? Was the bolster what made the difference? Or just my awareness of the situation?

We'd all had a blast at the Rocky Horror presentation. Sydney had, indeed, managed a half-decent Magenta, but the rest of us had simply gone in our con outfits. Once again, Jonah surprised me by coming along with us, even if he did hang back from the group.

When we'd gotten back to our room, Brian had given me a long look and asked, "Do you want me to sleep on the floor?"

I think I surprised both of us with how quickly I said, "No."

We were both smiling as we rolled up one of the spare blankets out of the closet and slid it under the sheets, and Brian made sure the stuffed pup was on my side of the bed when things were done.

There was a good night hug and a delay after before we let each other go. I don't think I was the only one of us wondering if more would happen... but it didn't.

Brian flexed his fingers, rubbed my baby bump, and mumbled something again. I patted his hand gently, and that seemed to calm him back down.

Had we been curled together like this the day before, before I woke up?

I wish I could remember.

I suppressed a yawn as I finally forced my eyes open, moving as little as possible while I did a visual search of the bedside table until I found the alarm clock.

Nine fifteen.

This time I didn't try to suppress the yawn or the follow-up groan of disappointment as I gently moved Brian's arm off of me and floundered about until I managed to roll myself off the entirely too-large bed.

"Hrmph?" Brian mumbled, seeming to have finally extracted his face from the bolster.

"Go back 'sleep," I grumbled as I stood up.

"H'nkay." I turned around in time to see Brian toss his arm across the bolster again, and the little frown that crinkled the corner of his mouth as he searched for me before he fell asleep again.

"Nine fifteen," I whispered to myself as I opened my bags and started sorting through things.

My itinerary for the day was fairly open until about four that evening. Unlike Maria, I hadn't been asked to speak at any panels during the con, so I was pretty well free to do what I wanted until the group photos and pre-game planning session at four that afternoon. Now that I was awake, though, I could already hear activity in the common room attached to our suite, telling me that either Maria or Aunt Cici -- or both -- were already at work on something or other.

I gave Brian's still-sleeping form a smile, then tossed on one of the terrycloth robes the hotel had left in our room and, quietly as I could, opened the interconnecting door.

Maria was sitting on one of the stools at the small island-cum-bar in one corner of the room, sipping a mug of coffee and looking for all the world like she was ready to crawl right back into bed, down to her lemon-yellow pajamas. Aunt Cici, on the other hand, was already dressed in full boho, her multicolored broomstick skirt and peasant top fluttering about as she went from one garment rack to another, to a toolbox, to a table where she had a sewing machine set up. Both of them stopped what they were doing and turned to watch me as I entered.

"Ah, mija! You're awake! And so cute!" Aunt Cici said, dashing across the room and giving me a big hug. "I'm so sorry I was not here to give you a touch-up yesterday when you got in!"

"It's okay Aunt Cici," I said, chuckling a little as I hugged her back. "It's not like I've never done repairs on my con makeup before."

"Oh, and you were beautiful! Maria sent me pictures!" Aunt Cici crowed, holding me at arms' length and looking me up and down. "Even now, you are adorable, mija."

"And stinky," I countered, stepping away from her but still smiling. "What has you two up so early?"

"Paperwork," Maria moaned, waving at the island that I now noticed was covered in folders and notebooks. "I had an email from ATG when I got back to the room last night asking me if I'd gotten the contracts with our artists for the book taken care of, since their records aren't up to date, so." She picked up a sheaf of papers and rattled it.

"Yeesh."

"You're tellin' me. When Aunt Cici's alarm went off this morning I got up to take care of it. I figure I'll give 'em two hours this morning, and if it runs longer than that, they'll just have to wait 'til we get back."

"You work yourself too hard, pollita. You should be having fun with your friends!" Aunt Cici said, frowning at the papers in front of Maria. "Let the men in suits worry for a day or two. They send you here to advertise for them, you will do a better job with a smile than with a furrowed brow."

"I..." Maria grinned and stacked her paperwork with a sigh. "You're right."

"Of course I am," Aunt Cici said, walking over and wrapping Maria in a hug before turning her attention back to me. "So, miss stinky, you go shower and put on that white lingerie you sent me pictures of, and when you get back, we will get you sewn into your dress for the day."

"Yes ma'-- wait. Sewn?"

"Shoo!" Aunt Cici said, explaining no more as she pushed me back through the adjoining door, though I heard Maria cackling from behind her.

The heavy click of the door closing behind me seemed to be the final nail in the coffin for Brian's own sleep, and he gave me a drowsy one-eyed grin over the bolster as I stood just inside the door.

"Did I hear something about you doing some sewing?"

"No," I said as I went over to my bags again and started putting aside the things I needed. "I guess Cici has to sew me into my dress for today."

"Huh. Kinky."

I rolled my eyes and tried to ignore the grunts from behind me as Brian had his turn to swim across the bed in search of an edge. "Bathroom bathroom," he said.

"Be quick, I need a shower!" I called as he dashed past me.

"Me first," he said, chuckling as he closed the door behind him.

"Brian!"

*CLICK*

I gave the now-locked door my most dangerous glare, but it simply stood there in stalwart silence.

When I heard the sound of water splashing in the toilet bowl, it reminded me that I hadn't gone to the bathroom yet, either.

"Brian!!"

"Ten minutes!"

"Nnngh!"

I looked at the bathroom door, then at the interconnecting door. I needed to pee, but I also didn't want to run the gauntlet of Aunt Cici and Maria -- and their inevitable teasing -- to borrow their bathroom.

And I really did feel stinky.

More petulantly than I would prefer to admit, I flopped down on the bed and picked up my stuffed pup, hugging it to me while I crossed my legs tightly.

"Your daddy is a butt," I told the pup. Realizing what I'd said, I felt a blush rise in my cheeks but didn't try to correct myself since it's not like the pup would hear it anyway.

And Brian was a butt.

-==-

NOTES:

It's finally the day of the first con performance! Whoo hoo! I hope people are excited!

As per usual with Wednesday Knights, the next chapter is already up over on the BCTS Patreon. It's free for anyone to read, so if you're impatient -- or just wanna see what the Patreon has -- check it out!

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 26: Skimpies

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel Chapter

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 26 -- Skimpies

Eight minutes and forty-three seconds later, the bathroom door opened, and like a flash, I was there waiting to get in. I'd have pushed past him, but something about seeing him there almost naked and still dripping made me stop in my tracks.

Brian jumped a little when he found me standing outside the door waiting for him but was in no hurry to step through. "Need in?" He asked, giving me a toothy grin.

"I'm stinky, and I need to pee," I complained, grimacing a bit at how whiny I sounded, even to myself.

"Oh?" He stepped out the door, but rather than stepping aside to let me through, he brought his hands up to my shoulders and leaned forward, sniffing my hair. "You don't smell stinky to me."

"I..." I swallowed hard, feeling my heart thump out a tango in my chest as the steam from the bathroom and Brian's still-damp body, only covered by a short towel around his waist, began to soak through my robe. "I need to pee."

"Mmm," he rumbled, still so close to my ear I could feel each breath tickling the lobe. When he did back off, there was still a bit of a grin on his face, but also an intense look that quickened the pace of the tango still beating in my heart. "Bad?"

"Yeah?" I said meekly, though in that moment, my bladder seemed far less important.

"...Okay."

I almost fell down when he finally let me go, though when I'd stopped supporting myself and started to rely on his hands to hold me up, I had no idea.

The spell seemingly broken, my bladder's needs came back full force, and I almost whimpered as I ducked around him and into the bathroom, barely getting the door closed before I disrobed, unsnapped the crotch of the body suit, and got my panties down far enough to collapse on the toilet.

What the hell just happened?

I brought a hand to my chest to cover my still dancing heart, but in the process encountered not only the now-expected obstruction of my boob but the less-expected one of a very hard point on the tip of it.

I dropped my hand again and blushed. Nope: not thinkin' about that right now.

The most urgent part of my business done, I stripped down for my much-needed shower. Once it was off, I gave the body suit a careful sniff and determined that it would be fine for another day, which was good since the other one definitely needed washed, and I didn't want to tempt the fates by finding out what Aunt Cici's 'special' one involved just yet.

Laying the bodysuit on the counter also reminded me that in my rush to get to the bathroom, I'd left my clean lingerie laying on the bed. I considered opening the door and asking Brian to bring it to me, but something about standing in the bathroom naked while asking him to fetch what I had to admit was pretty sexy skimpies for me seemed a bridge further than I was willing to go at the moment.

"Shower," I reminded myself. "Clean first, anxiety attack after."

I was tying my robe and wondering what I would do to get Brian out of the room so I could put on my underwear when a knock on the bathroom door made me jump.

"Ack!"

"Sorry. Hey, I'm gonna go down to the restaurant and grab a biscuit or something for breakfast. You want anything?"

I almost said, "No," but the rumble from my briefly unrestricted tummy made me think twice. "Yeah, sure. A fruit bowl or something?"

"Coming right up! Be, I dunno, twenty minutes?"

"'Kay, I'll probably be in the common room when you get back."

"Rodger dodger, I'll grab something for Maria and Cici, too, then."

I waited until I heard the room door click closed behind him before I breathed a sigh of relief and unlocked the bathroom door.

I put my fancy lingerie on as quickly as possible, followed by the bodysuit, and made sure not to look in the mirror as I did so. With my robe tossed on over the top, I took a deep breath and opened the door to the common room.

Aunt Cici immediately stopped working on what looked to me like a suit of chain mail and came over to hug me. "She is back! Are you ready to put on your dress?"

"As ready as I can be?" I said, toying with the tie on my robe but not undoing it. "Can I take it to my room?"

"Nonsense! It is just us girls here, and I have seen you undressed many times."

"Me too," Maria agreed, sipping what I expected was at least her third cup of coffee for the morning, given how bright her eyes were. "And I wanna see you in that fancy set of Vicky's rags we picked up."

"Vicky's?" Aunt Cici asked, then nodded. "Ah, yes. Do let us see, mija."

I thought about protesting more, but the truth of it was that they were right. I'd managed to get away without modeling any of our purchases when Maria and I had gone underwear shopping earlier in the week, but even then, she'd promised me I wouldn't get away with that forever.

With a sigh, I stopped fiddling with the tie on my robe and pulled the knot loose.

"Oh, mija...."

-==-

*knockknockknock*

"You decent in there?" Brian asked, cracking the connecting door between the common room and our room.

"No!" I hollered, causing Aunt Cici and Maria to giggle.

"Well, now I definitely wanna come in," Brian said, also laughing.

"Of course, she is decent! Get in here, pallaso."

"Too bad," Brian said, pushing the door open with his elbow. "I've got some breakfast stuff, didn't know if y'all had already eaten, so just brought some things off the continental table." He hefted two plates in his hands, one full of pastries and the other covered in mixed fruit. "I was gonna bring some drinks but didn't have an extra set of arms to -- wow." The last was said as he stopped and stared at me.

I blushed.

Truth was, I had been staring at myself in the mirror on the end of one of Aunt Cici's garment racks the entire time she'd been working, trying to figure out just when I had stopped looking like me and started looking like... that.

The dress had long sleeves and a high collar, with a stiffened spray of lace that came up far enough that it almost touched my ears. I'd thought I had all my accessories already, but when I'd mentioned grabbing them, Aunt Cici had shaken her head and pulled a box out of the same garment bag she'd had the dress stored in.

Inside the box had been a golden chain diadem with a crystal in the middle of it and a matching anklet that I wouldn't have thought would ever show below the hem of the dress, since it brushed the floor, but with how light and fluttery the whole thing was it seemed to constantly be catching the light, drawing attention to the ballet shoes she'd given me to wear.

"Boots would be more traditional," she had told me as I'd given the shoes an untrusting look, "but this dress is already an anachronism, and these will be more comfortable walking around the convention hall and on the stage."

"My boots yesterday were fine," I'd argued, but she shook her head.

"Trust me, mija."

Lord help me, I did.

With the dress, jewelry, and shoes in place, I looked like something half-way between a Tolkien elf and an advertisement for David's Bridal, and that absolutely terrified me.

"Do I look too ridiculous?" I asked Brian, watching him set the trays down on the counter without ever taking his eyes off me.

"No," said Aunt Cici, working to secure the last few stitches at my lower back to literally sew me into the dress.

"No," said Maria, grabbing my chin and holding it still while she worked applying gold and silver eyeshadow despite my protests I could do my own makeup.

"No," said Brian, walking toward me and only stopping when his choices were to do so or step on Maria. "You look...."

"Like an angel," Aunt Cici said, completing Brian's sentence for him while he continued to stare at me with a goofy grin. "And there is only one thing left to add."

"What's that?" I asked, finding myself smiling back at Brian despite my embarrassment.

"The wedding rings."

"Right, the -- wait. What?!"

I could practically hear the record scratch as both Brian, and I turned to look at Aunt Cici, Maria cursing and throwing her hands in the air when I pulled my face free of her hands.

"Yes!" Aunt Cici crowed, lifting a small box from her tool chest. "Maria told me last night that you were having trouble with the men at the convention and said you asked about wedding rings to help. I was planning to make these a gift when your characters got married in the game--"

"When?" I interrupted, giving Maria and Brian a panicked look.

"--but it seems you need them now," Aunt Cici continued, opening the box reverentially then turning it so that Brian and I could see the contents.

"Wow," I said, echoing Brian's earlier comment, while he nodded in agreement.

-==-

NOTES:

Yesterday's chapter, today!

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 27: Rings

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 27 -- Rings

I didn't care if they were for girls, I was buying myself a pair of ballet shoes when we got home, I'd decided. And I was never questioning Aunt Cici's shoe recommendations again.

It being Saturday meant the convention was in full swing, the throngs of people packed at least twice as tightly as they had been the day before. Normally, that would mean nothing but stress for me as I tried to navigate between booths and panels, due to my size.

Not so this time.

No, this time, I had a Brian with me: a Brian with armor, and a mace, and a matching wedding band to the one I now wore.

When I'd popped off the comment about a wedding band the night before, I'd been less than half serious about it. After all, what difference could a little piece of metal make? As it turned out, the answer was 'a lot,' especially when combined with Brian's insistence that he play the part. Despite the heat from the press of bodies around us, he was always touching me, with his hand on my shoulders or his arm across them, or even just holding my hand, with none of the hesitation in reaching for it he'd shown at Bog Bottom.

I could have, perhaps should have, made a fuss about it and asked him not to, but....

I was enjoying the escape from all the annoyances I usually had at cons. No guys hitting me up or getting handsy in lines. No getting bumped around by the people who didn't notice me at all. No getting talked down to by vendors because I couldn't possibly know anything about what they had or because I wouldn't let them up-sell me on something I didn't want.

No going at it alone.

Brian was busy trying to talk a vendor down on the price for a mech model, so I took the opportunity to study the ring on my hand again. It was truly beautiful, and not one band of gold but two, tightly braided together with a single, small stone embedded in the top. The braids were fine but just a little rustic, like they were done by hand, and though I doubted the stone was a diamond, it certainly sparkled like one. There was a small indent in the bottom side of the band where Aunt Cici assured me the engagement ring would normally snug around it, but when I asked about that ring, she told me she was holding on to it until I actually got engaged.

I'd considered complaining about the idea that I'd be the one getting the engagement ring but thought better of it considering what I was already wearing.

I glanced over at Brian's hand, the one holding most of our swag bags and vendor purchases. His ring was much like mine, only the band was wider, with a small sapphire in place of my diamond. I'd have thought that an emerald or other green stone would fit his character better, but it hadn't taken me long to pick up on how the glint of the sapphire had a lot of the same blues as his eyes.

Eyes that were glinting themselves as he turned back to me, smiling triumphantly.

"Get yer discount?"

"Yep! Market value plus ten bucks. I don't think he was expecting anyone here to know the price since the model only released two days ago."

"Con geeks not knowing market value on a model?" I asked incredulously as we walked away.

"I know, right?" Brian chuckled, shifting bags around so he once more had a free hand to reach out and take my own, his fingertips playing with the band on my ring finger as we walked. "Though if I'm being honest, I'da settled for twenty over. They're already selling out at all the retailers online, and it's -- what?"

"Nothing," I said, fighting back the laughter that wanted to bubble out. "I just forget how much you get into the mech models sometimes."

"Well, you won't be able to forget again once we start sharing a room."

"Sharing a room?"

"Well, we're married now," he said like it was the most natural thing in the world. "Means we gotta go get a queen-sized bed and make room in my closet for your clothes."

"It does not!"

"Yep! And it means every morning you'll wake up to the glory of my model shelf at the foot of the bed, the Model Z from Mecha Symphonia Metallicum greeting you with its laser sword held high."

"We're not actually married!" I whisper-yelled at him, afraid to say it louder lest it break whatever magic the bands were working on the crowds around us.

Brian just laughed at that and lifted my hand, kissing the gem on my ring and following that up by winking at me.

I shook my head and laughed too, which got my hand another squeeze.

We were quiet for a while, Brian leading the way between con-goers and stalls and me content to be guided, just taking in the sights and sounds and not worrying about where we were headed.

I'd promised myself to let things that were supposed to be fun, be fun. What could be more fun than spending time at a con with your best friend?

Even if we were pretending to be married.

Even if pretending to be married hadn't actually been part of my idea with the rings.

Even if....

"What's up?" I asked Brian, noticing that we'd moved into an out-of-the-way alcove.

Brian just stood there, looking down at me with those intense eyes of his.

When had he taken both my hands in his?

"Leigh...." He breathed a heavy sigh, closing his eyes for a brief moment before opening them again and smiling at me, a softer smile than his typical smarmy one.

"Brian," I began, but he lifted my hands and kissed the ring again, silencing me.

"Listen, I know it's... I know you don't...." he trailed off, his smile flickering for a moment before returning. "No, sorry. I think it's time we talked about...."

"Hmm?"

"This."

"This?" I asked, almost imperceptibly lifting our linked hands.

Brian nodded. "This. Us." He let go of my right hand but lifted my left higher. Without thinking about it, I let him lead me through the twirl, our free hands naturally catching one another again at the end. "What do we call this? It's not just being best friends, is it?"

I shook my head, feeling the heat rising in my cheeks as the seriousness of what he was asking sank in.

"So, what is it? Am I your boyfriend?" He asked me the question making my stomach twist in an unexpectedly pleasant way.

I gulped. "If -- if -- you were... and I'm not saying you are," I emphasized, his eyes twinkling when I did so. "But just supposing... what would that make me?" I asked him, almost whispering it. Was I excited to hear his answer... or terrified?

Both, I decided.

Brian's smile grew. "You're--"

"HEY!"

I winced, the pain feeling all too real as Brian's eyes ripped away from mine to focus somewhere over my shoulder. He dropped my hands, and I turned in place to see where he was looking. Approaching us were two people, a short but somewhat stacked girl dressed as an elven ranger, complete with an obviously fake but nicely detailed bow, and....

"Bob?" I asked, then smiled. "Ben," I corrected myself, looking up into the slender man's eyes. "I almost didn't recognize you without the cape."

"Oh, so you two did meet each other yesterday!" The short stack said, giving me a detailed once-over, then tucking herself into Ben's side.

"Told ya!" He said, wrapping an arm around her shoulders and bending down to kiss her head, then grinning at me. "Yeah, the cape doesn't go so well with this costume."

I studied his new costume, a black and gray flight suit of some kind, and hazarded a guess. "Some mecha show?"

"He's Aruko Suzumaki from Mecha Symphonia," Brian said, wrapping his own arm around my shoulders much like Ben had around the elf girl's. "Leader of the Dragon Team."

"Ah, a man of taste as well! I knew I liked you," Ben said, giving Brian a thumbs up. "But no. I'm Ichi Suzumaki, his--"

"His evil twin! From episode twenty-"

"Eight, yeah," Ben said, just as excitedly as Brian. "See the maroon pinstripe?"

"Oh, yeah. How'd I miss that?"

I looked at the short stack. She looked back at me. We both rolled our eyes.

"I'm Leigh," I said, holding out my hand to her and ignoring the guys talking over our heads about giant robots and space opera politics.

"I know. I'm Laura," she said, taking my hand and giving it a firm shake.

"Better than short stack," I admitted, blushing when I realized what I'd just said aloud.

Thankfully, Laura laughed. "Not the first time I've heard that! But hey, a handful's enough, right?" She asked, poking me in the side of the boob with the limb of her bow. "It's nice to see you wearing something that shows off your figure, though. You always wear those plain tees and stuff on the show, you almost look like a boy!"

"Hah, I know, right?" I mumbled, not missing the hitch in Brian's conversation as he chuckled.

"Dunno how you've been hiding that, though!" She said, pointing at my belly now. "When I saw it last week I practically choked Benny to death. I knew you two were actually a couple!"

"You did?"

"I mean, yeah!" She said, throwing her hands up like it was obvious and sending a sympathetic wave through other parts of her anatomy. "All the touchy-feely stuff, and the looks."

"Looks?"

"Yeah, you know." She gave me an example, opening her eyes wide and giving Ben a soft, doe-eyes look of pure love before turning it off just as quickly and smiling at me. "Like that."

"Brian never looks at me like -- oh." I felt myself blushing again. Did I really do that?

"But wow! I thought last series had some tension between your characters, but this has been on another level! So, is Lunea and Burg's baby something that was brought in because, you know...."

"Huh? Oh! No," I admitted, realizing I'd wrapped my arms protectively across the baby bump and forcing myself to drop them to my sides. "This is just a prosthetic. I'm not actually pregnant."

"No shit?"

"Umm, no."

"Damnit," She sulked. "Looks like I owe Angie fifty bucks. She's my group's DM and usually watches your streams with me, and we had a bet on... anyway. So you two aren't?"

"Not for lack of trying," Brian said, squeezing my shoulders with his hands.

"WHAT?!" I screeched, loud enough to hurt my own ears as I spun on him. "Brian!"

I glared at him, all the while trying to ignore the raucous laughter from the other members of our party. "We're not... I mean, we haven't...." I trailed off, not really sure what I was trying to say.

Brian reached down to take my hand again, and I almost pulled it away before I saw the look of amusement mixed with apology on his face. "Sorry, I couldn't resist. No, we're still trying to figure out where things are going," he said, lifting my hand to his face and once again kissing the ring on my finger.

"Ohmigod, that ring!" Laura said, standing on her tiptoes to get a better look at my hand. "Is that--"

"It's just a prop, too," I admitted, pulling my hand free of Brian's once again so I could hold it out for her to see. "I was getting some looks yesterday with the belly and everything--"

"I'll bet!"

"--so our costume designer gave us these to wear. She said she had them made for our characters, but...." Once again, I found myself trailing off, looking at the ring.

"Well, they're fantastic! Do you think she'd make a set for us?"

"For you?" I asked, looking at Laura and Ben and pulling my hand back.

"Oh, not identical! But something similar? We've been looking for a nice set."

"I... sure, I guess," I agreed, reaching into my bag and pulling out one of the cards Aunt Cici had given me to pass out. "Here's her card. She works out of Baton Rouge, but she ships all over the place."

"Awesome!" Laura crowed, holding the card up triumphantly. "Hey, hon, let's go back to the room and call her!"

"She might be--"

"Pleeeease?"

Ben looked down at Laura's puppy-dog eyes, then looked further down as she bounced on her heels a bit before looking back up at Brian and shrugging. "It's been nice meeting you two," he said.

"It's been great! We'll be at the show later tonight, front row!"

We shared a few more pleasantries before they wandered off, once again leaving me and Brian tucked back from the action in our little alcove.

"Well," Brian said, breathing a heavy sigh. "That was...."

"Yep."

"And did you see her--"

"Yep."

Pause.

"How about some lunch?" he asked, taking my hand again. "I heard there's a good Japanese place about a block down the street."

"Sounds expensive."

"That's why we're putting it on the company card, right?"

I glared at Brian again, but he just laughed and gave my hand a gentle tug.

I could have fought the pull he had on me.

But I didn't.

-==-

Notes:

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 28: Mic'd Up

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-
Chapter 28 -- Mic'd Up

“Stappit!”

“Sorry!” I replied meekly, holding my hands up and away from myself as Ellie – our sound tech – came over and re-clipped my lapel mic again. “It’s pulling on the neckline of my dress and --”

“I don’ care if it’s pullin’ yer hair and callin’ you Rhonda, you leave that thing where it is!” She said exasperatedly. “Damn lace dress has all o’ two places I can clip the goddamn thing an’ we wanna hear youtalkin’, not yer cooch, so it has to go here.”

She tugged on the strip of reinforced material above my left breast, and I involuntarily shifted my neck to pull back when she did so, pulling the material out of her fingers and, in the process, unclipping the lapel mic yet again.

“Oh, fer the luvva… Venable! Hold her still, would ya?”

“Sure thing,” Brian said from behind me, making me jump when he placed his hands on my shoulders.

“Good,” Ellie said, then went back to fiddling with the lapel mic, only to swear and back off. “Little bastard. Hold ‘er there while I go get a safety pin from somewhere.”

“Will do,” Brian agreed, giving my shoulders a squeeze while Ellie stormed off, leaving my lapel mic hanging from its battery pack. I breathed a sigh of relief as she disappeared around the corner, wondering how Aunt Cici would react to someone jabbing safety pins through the lace dress and deciding I was willing to let Ellie take responsibility for that decision.

“Relax,” Brian cooed in my right ear, once again squeezing my shoulders. “Remember that time Sydney knocked over one of the boom mics and broke it ten minutes before filming? Ellie cussed up a storm but got a new one in place and configured fast enough we didn’t even have to delay the stream.”

“I know,” I said, rolling my shoulders a little and taking a deep breath. “She’s good at her job.”

“’S why you hired her.”

“No, I hired her ‘cause she’s high school friends with Deidre,” I chuckled. “It is why we kept her around, though.”

“See? You’re relaxing already.”

“I guess,” I admitted, leaning back into Brian’s hands, only for him to slide them up and across my shoulders, wrapping me in a hug from behind.

Sydney glanced over at us and gave me a huge grin and a thumbs-up, which I pretended not to see. I knew that Brian and I were acting a bit closer than friends, but at the moment, I was finding it hard to really care what people thought about it.

“Five minutes, folks,” said a stagehand, not one of ours but one provided by the con.

“She’ll be back,” Brian assured me again when I must have tensed a bit.

Even before I could say anything in response, I saw Ellie coming around the corner.

“Rhonda?” I asked when she got close enough, but only got the expected glare in response, so remained quiet as she put my mic in place again now she was armed.

Even without my mic issues, the air was tense for all of us. We’d spent an hour going over stage blocking earlier in the afternoon, covering where would be good places for us to walk to or interact if we wanted to get away from the table. Being on the stage, even with an empty auditorium, save for a few stagehands, had already been daunting enough, the cavernous, dark room feeling foreboding as we’d done our final stage setting and equipment tests.

We’d retreated to the backstage area when con-goers had begun wandering in to nab seats early, but even backstage, there had still been plenty to do, from costume touch-ups to makeup adjustments to things like Ellie’s never-ending battle with the lapel mics we’d bought and brought along but never tested with our costumes.

Even as we got settled in backstage, the action calming as the last nitpicky details got taken care of — or ignored — before the show, we could all hear the noise of the crowd amping up, a dull roar that kept building as more and more people filed in to fill the seats.

When I’d first seen the hall, I’d wondered how they ever expected us to fill such a large space. Now, judging from the noise I could hear, I couldn’t help but wonder if the space was big enough.

He must have felt the tension building in my shoulders again because Brian gave me another squeeze as we stood there. “Hey, we got this. It’s just like any other session: all we gotta do is roll some dice, stay in character, and have fun.”

“No sodas on the table,” Sydney said, frowning a bit. Being denied her mid-game caffeine had been a big damper on her excitement for the evening.

“We’ll live,” Aaron said, bumping her with one of his pauldrons.

“No chairs,” Deidre added, picking at a loose bit of paper sticking out of the hardbound sketchbook she was carrying in place of a holy book for her cleric.

“Sacrificed so we can move around the stage and act things out a bit,” Maria said, straightening her hood and fanning the sides of her cloak. Lightweight or not, it was eighty backstage, if it was anything. “And there are some folding chairs if we need ‘em.”

“No mid-game tacos,” I said, feeling Brian’s arms stiffen around me.

“Maybe we should reconsider--”

“Live in one!”

Brian whimpered, just loud enough for the rest of us to hear.

-==-

“Halt!”

My shoulders tensed, the conversation I was having with Sunny forgotten in an instant as we both turned our attention to where Adrian stood with his shield raised, eyes alert. I heard the soft sounds of metal on leather as my companions drew their weapons around me, and I grasped my own staff tightly, wringing my hands around the bindings to free them of sweat.

We had expected some kind of ambush even before we’d entered the narrow canyon and had prepared accordingly, donning armor and stowing what we could in our Bottomless Bags to keep our load light. With Adrian at our front and Burg taking rear guard, we were prepared for an assault from either direction, but even with our paladin’s warning, I couldn’t see any threat before us.

Then I smelled it, the sickening meaty stench of--

“Wretches!” Sunny called, half in alarm and half in glee, as the attack came not from ahead or behind but from the cliffs above us, the half-rotten corpses tumbling down the walls without regard for injury in their haste to capture us.

“Both sides!” Dahlia yelled, even as I felt the frosty crackle of her protective magics flowing over me, knowing without being told that she had cast a spell over our party to help ward against the evil undead.

As the corpses gathered around us, moving in like a festering wave of malignant, hungry flesh, my companions brought their weapons to the ready, the last glimmers of daylight glinting off their steely blades and maces, even as the sun, already low in the sky, sunk even further beyond the edge of the canyon above us, enveloping us in shadow.

##

“Everyone, roll for initiative.”

It took me a moment to shake my head clear, my fingers aching as I loosened my grip on the staff I was holding at the ready, just like Lunea had been.

The table the convention had provided us with was a large half-circle conference table our stage crew had placed near the center-back of the stage, with us arranged in wings to either side of Maria. I was in the middle on the stage-left side, placed as usual between Aaron and Brian. I had walked around the table, acting out my roleplay, but it was only a few steps to get back to the table and grab my dice.

“Fifteen.”

“Seven.”

“Eighteen.”

“Twenty-two.”

“Eleven.”

“Leigh?”

“Four,” I whimpered, wishing – and not for the first time – I’d taken the feature to let me act faster during combat. The crowd seemed to agree as I heard a few pained sounds coming from the shadows beyond the edge of the stage.

“Oof,” Maria said, rolling a few of her own dice and wincing before giving me an apologetic look.

##

I screamed as the Wretch’s claws tore through the material of my robe, a spray of blood flying from the wound as I spun about to face my attacker. My skin crackled where the claws had rent it, assuring me that Dahlia’s magic was doing its work, preventing the necrotizing poison from affecting me.

The spell I had been planning to cast fizzled on my lips as I stared into the thing’s sunken, soulless eyes, glowing in the dark with the power of the necromantic magic that kept them alive.

The beast let out an unholy bellow and lunged again, but this time I caught its claws with my staff, bringing the heavy jewelled head around to bash the creature in the side of the temple. It fell to the ground, stunned, and I wasted no time as I recited the incantation for my Fire Pillar spell, engulfing the creature in a jet of fierce energy that helped to light the area around us.

There were more of them, so many more. My companions were making quick work of individual Wretches, but such creatures never came in small groups, and for every one we took down, three more seemed to fill its space.

Could we…?

I placed a hand protectively on my belly – my child – and grinned.

We could. And we would.

Seeing an opening between my friends, I pointed my staff and bellowed the words for another Fire Pillar spell, channeling some of the latent magic in the air around us to boost its power.

This one would take out more than just one lowly Wretch.

Many, many more.

##

I breathed heavily as I held my staff above my head and cried out. The answering cry from the crowd startled me, the reminder of who and where I was almost as much of a shock to my system as I imagined the pain from the Wretch's claws was to Lunea.

But I wasn't Lunea. I was Leigh, and I was standing on a stage, dressed as an elven sorceress and screaming at fake monsters while protecting my unborn child.

For a moment, I wasn't sure if I was having the best or worst time of my life.

##

The familiar tinkling of Maria's play bell pulled my eyes back toward where she still stood at the table. "We're gonna pause here for the mid-session break, folks. Normally we'd break for about fifteen minutes, but we're taking twenty due to the live nature of the show. I've been asked to remind everyone that both refreshments and merch are available out front. Thank you."

The stage lights dimmed as applause washed out from the audience, and I felt more than saw the curtain pull into place between us and the crowded room beyond. There was still enough light for me to see my fellow cast members, most of them out in the middle of the stage just like I was and breathing just as heavily.

"Mics off," one of the hands called from stage left, and I heard more than one of my friends let out a sigh of relief.

"That was . . . ." Aaron began, then huffed a bit and leaned on the table.

"Intense," Sunny said, dropping the head of her axe to the stage and leaning on the handle. "Acting stuff out's a lot more tiring than just roleplaying at the table."

"You coulda stayed at the table if ya wanted," Deidre reminded her, dropping into a seizen position I wished I could do in my own costume.

"And be shown up by her?" Sunny asked, pointing at me and grinning. "No way!"

I blushed. "Well, we have the whole stage, and we set it up so we could come out here…."

"Don't worry about it," Brian assured me, almost wrapping an arm around my shoulders before changing his mind and patting my back instead. "Did you hear how much more into it the crowd got when we started acting stuff out?"

"Not really," I admitted, blushing even more. "I was kinda getting a bit too focused?"

"We noticed," Maria said, laying her robe over the back of one of the unfolded chairs and running her fingers through her sweat-soaked hair. "I want to make a few changes to things after tonight's session to make the whole acting part easier."

"Sorry!"

"Don't be!" she said, wrapping me in a tight hug despite our sweatiness. "I'm loving it!"

Everyone else was nodding their agreement, so I shook my embarrassment off.

"Fifteen minutes," one of the hands called, probably the same one from earlier.

"Anyone got anything they need to do before the next part of the session?"

"Pee!" Sunny called, racing past us, her axe abandoned on the floor.

"Meditate," Deidre said, closing her eyes and rolling her neck and shoulders.

"Snack," Brian admitted, shrugging his shoulders. "You want anything?"

"A bucket of ice?"

"How about a cold water?"

"Deal," I agreed, unfolding another one of the chairs and dropping into it.

I leaned back as much as I could and stretched my shoulders, then pulled the pocket watch out of my belt pouch and checked the time.

Another hour and a half of playtime once the break was over, and that's assuming we didn't run over. There was nothing else planned for the auditorium, so it was fine if we did, but still.

And now I had to pee, too.

Whoo boy.

-==-

Notes:

it's the usual, folks! Chapter 29 is now up over on Patreon, so if you want to check it out a week before it hits the BCTS shelves, you can! You don't have to be a member, either (though if you decide you wanna be....)

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 29: Three's a Crowd

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 29 -- Three's A Crowd

"...and as you stack the last of the corpses on the bonfire, you hear the approach of heavy, largefootsteps."

I whimpered and looked around at the rest of the crew nervously. I was almost entirely out of magic power, and with us being on the way to the Hold of the Fire Giants, that was a dangerous situation to be in.

"From the gloom beyond the firelight emerges a shadowy form, tall as a tree, the red tones in its skin matching those of the flames."

Oh shit.

"The figure bends down and grins at your party, its head full of wild smoke-like hair billowing in the draft from the fire. 'Greetings, little ones,'" Maria said, shifting her tone of voice as she got into character. "'Mah name's Mato, and Ah'm here to help.'"

"Help?" I asked, a bit more panicked than I'd have liked, and jumped as once again Maria's play bell rang out.

"And that's where we're stopping for today," Maria said, receiving a mixture of clapping and disappointed catcalling from the audience. "Hey, if I were to push on, we'd be here all night!"

"Go for it!" A guy's voice came from the audience, followed by laughter and cheers from a number of folks.

"We would," Maria responded, "but we're all tired, and thirsty, and hungry."

"And sleepy," Deidre added, yawning. I felt myself involuntarily yawn with her, realizing just how drained I truly felt.

'Plus," Maria continued, "if we stayed up all night playing, there's not enough caffeine in all of Austin to keep everyone awake for the con events tomorrow. We'll be back here tomorrow evening at six. For now, we love you, we thank you for coming, and good gaming."

More cheers came from the crowd as the curtains fell once again, though not before the auditorium lights came on, and I had a chance to see just how many people were watching us.

Holy . . . .

"Mics are off."

"Place has a capacity of about eleven hundred people," Sydney said, hugging me from the side. "Todd texted me at half-time, said we had the place at about seventy percent capacity. I hear they're considering having the crew move our stuff to the main show hall for tomorrow night's game, just in case."

"Seventy... that's over seven hundred people!"

"Hits a bit different than when they're on the other side of a computer, don't it?" Maria said, hugging me from the other side.

"...Yeah."

We continued staring at the back of the curtain for a few more moments, just thinking about all the people who had been on the other side.

"Is this a private love-in, or can I join too?" Brian asked, wrapping his arms around my shoulders from behind once again.

Sydney laughed. "You can have my spot. Anyone seen Jonah?" She asked, stepping away from me.

"He's talking to the camera crew about tonight's footage," Maria said, also letting me go.

"Probably making sure at least half of it's focused on him."

"He did that once," I pointed out, not sure why I was defending him given he'd been just as surly during the game as usual. "And to be fair, that was that time his warlock critical killed that bandit leader who'd slaughtered your character's family."

"True," Syd admitted, shrugging. "Still."

As she walked off, I looked around to see where the rest of our crew had gotten to.

Deidre was off to the side, sitting in a folding chair and sipping at a bottle of water while talking to the hands about something to do with the set decorations, and I just caught Aaron's back as he walked off the set, cell phone to his ear, probably talking to someone about one of the youth centers. Our film crew was bustling about adjusting this or moving that.

"Five minutes, and we'll gather near the makeup area for a post-action review," Maria said, giving Brian's arms wrapped around my shoulders and neck a delighted grin. "I think I need to call the office at ATG: I'm pretty sure tonight's audience response was the bargaining chip I need on my monster."

"All right," Brian answered for us, squeezing me gently. I smiled and waved at her as she walked away, leaving the two of us standing there. We were in the middle of all the action, but in another way, very much on our own.

"What time is it?" I asked, leaning back against Brian and closing my eyes.

"Almost eleven."

"Really?" I wasn't sure whether I was more surprised at how late it was, or that it wasn't even later.

"Yep."

"How--"

"Photos at four, pre-game meeting at five, position marking at five-thirty," he rattled off, tapping out each point above my right breast as he did. "We got the session started on time, took a break a bit after eight. We started again about eight-thirty, aaaand... yep."

"I didn't think we'd go that much over," I mumbled, suddenly feeling even more tired.

"Yeah, well. 'S why they don't have anything else booked for the stage."

"And when we get out of here, there'll be people waiting," I whined, just a little bit, thinking about how much longer I'd be on my feet. I liked our fans, for the most part, but I could live without that for the evening.

"Not tonight," Brian assured me, squeezing me again before letting go, then taking my hand and pulling me toward stage left. "The con's got security set up to keep that down, remember?"

"Oh, yeah." I nodded as I followed him, recalling the plan. "Meeting with fans tomorrow before the game."

"And after, if we want," he agreed. "The con's officially over at ten tomorrow night, but we've got dispensation to go 'til midnight to wrap things up."

I thought about that. "We're not getting out of bed until at least noon tomorrow," I decided.

"Fine with me," he agreed with a lecherous grin.

I blushed and stammered, "I-I-I didn't mean--"

"Pizza?"

"Huh?"

"When we get back to the room," he said as we reached the makeup stations, where our friends were already waiting for us. "Medium pineapple and bacon, medium chicken and mushroom?"

"Sure," I agreed, dropping into one of the makeup chairs and finally letting go of his hand.

Or was it him finally letting go of mine?

Aaron was still on his phone, and so was Maria, though she mouthed 'two minutes' at me when she saw me watching her. Sydney and Deidre were both checking out something on a tablet and Jonah . . . .

Jonah was glaring at me.

Sigh. Of course, he was.

Maria finished her call, and as if on cue, Aaron closed his only a hair's breadth after.

"All right, folks, post-game discussion time!

"First off, great work making use of the stage! I think that really helped keep our audience interested, and it was a lot of fun watching you act out -- more than usual," she added, which got the expected laughs. "Next time we do this, we need to figure out a better way to handle the dice, though. And all of you need to give the stagehands a big thanks when we get home for stepping up and rolling for you, especially you, Leigh."

"Umm," I started, but didn't know what else to say, so just nodded. I had gotten a bit too into the whole on-stage part of things, I guess.

"Don't worry about it, I think people loved it."

"They did," Sydney interjected, holding up the tablet so the rest of us could squint at the social feeds she had displayed. "Comments went wild the moment one of us stepped out from behind the table and started acting things out. There's questions about if this is our new full-time format, with a lot of interest in seeing more of it."

"Our studio isn't big enough."

"I don't have the energy."

"I need tacos. Oww, what?" Brian complained when I pinched him, though his eyes were twinkling when he did so.

Maria rolled her eyes. "I agree with Leigh, our studio isn't big enough, and we have too many other projects needing the space as-is. Maybe in another few years, if we keep growing, we can get a bigger space and consider it. I do think this is a good reason for us to do more conventions if we can book them, though."

"Agreed," Syd said, tapping at her tablet again. "We're getting almost three times the normal post-game engagement, thanks to a lot of our audience members live-posting about things or sharing their experiences after."

"Fan art server's getting inundated with new content too," Deidre added while looking at her phone, cracking a rare smile. "Some of it's even safe for work."

"Sure," Jonah huffed, kicking one of the makeup tables. "Get the girls out there dressed like sluts and of course people're gonna be hanging on every second of it."

"Hey!" Sydney objected, standing up so she could glare down at Jonah. "I'm not a girl, I'm a woman,bub!"

Jonah flinched but didn't step back. "You three hogged all the attention tonight, especially the princessover there, with her theatrics!"

"I was just--"

Jonah cut me off. "You were showing off for everyone. 'Oh, look at me, star of the show,' making the rest of us look bad."

"I didn't--"

"Not her fault you stayed behind the desk and acted like a stiff," Deidre said, giving Jonah the coldest glare I'd ever seen from her.

"Yeah," Aaron said, standing up himself. "I was nervous about the whole thing too, but it was all for fun, and it's our job to entertain the audience. That's all Leigh was doing."

"It's our job to play the game," Jonah argued, "and all of y'all got so caught up in the acting part, that was forgotten! I coulda been sneaking ahead, scouting things out. I coulda seen that ambush before it happened if y'all hadn't been hogging the play!"

"All right!" Maria yelled, busting out her play bell again and ringing it loudly enough to set my head ringing too. "Enough! Jonah!"

"I'm not--"

"You're right."

"--you can't... what?"

Maria took a deep breath, taking advantage of the temporary stunned quiet in the group. "You're right. You were trying to chip in during the gameplay leading up to the ambush, and I was focusing on the others instead of you because of the acting they were doing."

"I... yeah," Jonah agreed, sitting down. Sydney and Aaron sat down too, both looking a little chastised. "I'm a rogue, that's what I'm there for."

"Uh-huh." Maria nodded. "But with you at the table and the rest up and moving, it was difficult for me to keep switching my attention back and forth." She was quiet again for a moment, and to my surprise, nobody tried to say anything else. "I know that you don't like the acting bit."

"At all."

"Right," Maria agreed, just a hint of annoyance creeping back into her voice. "But... maybe tomorrow, just get up and move around with them. You don't have to act things out," she clarified when Jonah looked ready to object, "but having all of you in front of me might be easier to track than shifting my attention back and forth between the table and the floor."

Jonah opened his mouth, a sneer on his lips, then closed it again. "I'll try," he finally said, almost whispered, as he looked at the rest of us with a mixture of anger and, I think, a bit of embarrassment.

"Okay. Is there anything else we need to cover tonight, or are we good until the meet and greet tomorrow afternoon?"

"I need a smoke." Jonah stood up and walked out, as usual, but the rest of us stayed there a little bit longer.

There were a few minor things the others wanted to cover, but it was mostly pretty standard accounting for ammunition and items, and a desire to catch a little more rest before risking any run-ins with people on the way to our rooms.

Soon enough, things were truly wrapped up, and a good thing, too: I was almost falling asleep, only Brian nudging me with his shoulder keeping me awake. We stayed seated while the others filed out, Sydney giving me a thumbs-up on the way through the door and Maria winking at me.

We really had some stuff to figure out.

"Pizza in the room?" Brian asked again.

"Pizza in the room," I agreed, dragging myself up. "After I've changed," I added, looking down at the still milky-white dress I was wearing and contemplating the chewing-out I'd get for pizza stains.

"Deal," Brian said, holding the door open for me, and once again taking my hand as we left the makeup tables behind.

###

Notes:

Sorry for there being a couple days delay on this one folks. We've been a bit under the weather here around the house lately.

Anyway, part 30 is now up over on Patreon as well! There is a strong possibility that something people have been Wanting To See happens in that chapter.

*hugs*

Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 30: Aftermath

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 30: Aftermath

"Holy cheezits is that better," I grumbled as I flopped on the foot of the bed, just carefully enough not to send pizza flying from the boxes in the middle. "If I never have to wear another ankle-length dress, it'll still be too soon." Especially one I had to be sewn into, and seam-ripped out of.

"What about your dress for tomorrow?" Brian asked, leaning back on his elbows and plucking a slice of pineapple-encrusted pizza from the box.

I groaned. "That's not a dress. That's . . . ."

"What?"

"I don't know," I finally conceded, thinking about the velvety red monstrosity. "But calling it a dress gives it too much credit."

It wasn't a lie. The damn thing had a neckline I was pretty sure would make Cassandra Peterson blush, and I still had no idea what shoes I was supposed to wear with it. Surprisingly, I found myself hoping for another pair of ballet slippers like I'd worn all day, though I had the sneaking and terrifying suspicion that heels were going to be involved.

I hated heels. They always made my instep itch.

I let out a heavy sigh and closed my eyes, just for a moment, thanking the heavens Aunt Cici had agreed to be in the common room at eleven to help me get ready.

"Don't fall asleep."

"Yeah, I know, pizza," I grumbled but pulled myself up again.

"And a Talk."

"A talk?"

"A Talk," Brian repeated, so I could hear the capitalization.

Great.

"Cute, by the way."

"Hmm? Oh, this old thing?" I rolled my eyes and grabbed a slice of pineapple pizza before it all disappeared. 'This old thing' was one of Maria's nightshirts, a baseball tee style one with a picture of one of the classic My Little Ponies on the front. "Maria objected to the boxers I was gonna change into. I think she's been planning to stick me in this for weeks: she already had it in the common room."

"Probably," Brian half-mumbled around a mouthful of food. "Still cute though."

"I guess," I admitted, while also more than a little annoyed that I was just as worried about getting pizza drippings on the nightshirt as I had been about the dress itself. "I look like a tweenage girl in it, though."

"Not with that, I'd think," Brian countered, patting my baby bump. "Well, hope."

"Fair."

Brian turned on the TV in the room, and we watched some silly cartoons for a bit while we ate.

It was... not uncomfortable.

Tense? Maybe.

Brian was right: we needed to talk. And I knew that no matter how things shook out, our relationship wasn't going to be the same after.

Who was I kidding? Our relationship had already changed: it had just taken us this long to realize it.

I looked over at Brian, eating his pizza and carefully Not Looking Back at me.

The more I thought about it, the more I wondered if maybe I was the only one who had been in the dark.

Not a comforting thought.

We sat through a couple of episodes of whatever it was we were watching. It was one of those "edgy" cartoons with cutesy animation right up until a swear word came out of the cartoon animal's mouth, and they did something obscene. I'd never cared for shows like that -- I preferred the actual cute cartoon animals and silly nonsense, the kind of stuff I'd laughed at as a kid. Still, it was a half-decent distraction while we ate our pizza and thought.

After two slices and half a bottle of soda, I surprised myself as much as Brian when I reached out and turned the TV off.

Maybe if we got The Talk out of the way, I could eat more pizza after, but somehow I doubted that.

I looked into Brian's eyes. He smiled back, then glanced away long enough to close the lids on the pizza boxes and move them to the little table he'd slid near the bed on his side.

....

"So," I started, then immediately stopped.

"Us," Brian said, still smiling.

"...Yeah." I fiddled with the hem of my nightshirt a bit more, wishing I could remember if My Little Pony ever had any episodes about awkward talks with roommates who might be your boyfriend, and you just didn't know it, but everyone else did.

It seemed unlikely.

"Want me to start?"

"No. I mean, yeah, but...." I trailed off again, then huffed in frustration with myself. "I just... did we?"

"Did we what?"

I blushed. "Did we... kiss?" I looked away, not wanting to see Brian's reaction to my question. "On the boat?"

"During the dance?"

"Y-yeah," I said again. "I was kinda smashed, and--"

"Kinda?"

"Hey!" I whined a bit, finally looking at Brian again. Thankfully he was still smiling. "I just don't remember, and then we woke up in... in the same bed."

"You don't remember at all?" He asked, his eyes twinkling.

"No? I mean, I remember falling down, and us dancing after, but not." I stopped again, feeling more than a bit like Violet Beauregard, swollen up and ready to pop.

"Well, we danced," Brian said, sliding closer to me. "Close, and slow."

"Mm-hmm," I agreed, barely a whisper.

"I drew you in," he said, wrapping his arm around my shoulder and doing so there at the foot of the bed.

"I...." I swallowed. "I think I remember that. A bit?"

"You looked up at me, with those big eyes of yours, holding on tightly...."

I felt my breath quicken as he pulled me closer.

"Then I leaned down, and...."

"And?" I squeaked, as he looked into my eyes just like he'd described, and eased closer.

"And...."

*peck*

I tried to cross my eyes as he leaned forward and kissed me in the middle of the forehead, softly and slowly, then eased back to smile at me again, looking amused at my obvious confusion.

"That's it?!"

"That's it," he agreed, chuckling a bit and squeezing my shoulder. "Well, mostly it. You passed out when I went to do it, and kinda headbutted me in the teeth a bit," he admitted.

"So we didn't...."

"Nope. I took you up to the room and was going to lay you in your bed, but you wrapped your arms around my neck and wouldn't let go."

"But my clothes?" I said. "Who took them off me?"

"You did that about two in the morning."

I groaned. Of course, I did.

I sank against Brian's shoulder and let out something halfway between a laugh and a wail of despair. "Oh gawd, I've been worried sick for two days about what I was thinking we might have done."

Brian laughed, squeezing me again. "Hey, never let it be said I besmirched a lady's good name, even when given the opportunity."

"I'm no lady," I grumped.

"Right," he agreed. "Princess, my bad."

"I'm not... ugh." I pulled away from him, more than half reluctantly. "You know what I meant."

"I do," Brian said, a bit more seriously, moving his arm down to rest his hand on my knee.

I looked down at his hand and thought.

"Everyone else thinks we're a couple," I said, still staring at his hand.

"Yep."

"Are we?"

I looked up into his eyes once again, as the silence piled on top of me and made it hard to breathe.

Brian looked back at me; his face serious. "Leigh."

"Are we," I asked again, swallowing a heavy gulp of air.

Brian gulped, seeming to have just as much trouble with the air as I was. "I... I think." He stopped again.

"You think?"

"I think I should kiss you," he finally said, forcing the words out quickly, nervously. "Can I kiss you?" He asked, his hand now moving to my cheek, caressing it.

"I...." I reached up and placed my hand over his, still looking him in the eyes but unable to say anything more.

It must have been enough of an answer because he leaned forward once again. Only this time, his eyes never left mine as our faces grew closer, only losing contact when I closed my own... and felt his lips press into mine in a kiss without question.

A kiss without concern for boyfriend or girlfriend, man or woman, or any of the other complications we both knew would, could, come.

Our first?

It certainly felt like it.

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 31: Pillow Talk

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 31: Pillow Talk

Was I dreaming?

It had to be a dream, I decided, because we were on a beach, watching the sunset, and I didn't think Lake Travis was big enough to lose the horizon in the water and clouds.

It also had to be a dream because, for whatever reason, I was wearing a bikini.

Even in a dream, I couldn't help but roll my eyes at that. My whole life, I'd been called a girl, told I looked like one, acted like one, even sounded like one. Despite all that, until the past week, I'd never crossdressed or anything outside of cosplay... and, okay, a few one-off times with Maria. Now even my dreams were getting in on it.

At least the sunset was nice, and the waves crashing on the beach.

The company wasn't bad, either.

"Whatcha thinkin'?" Brian asked me, leaning back on his elbows and basking in the warm light. He was one of those guys who always had just a touch of a tan, and it glowed in the afternoon sun. Unlike me, he was wearing a very practical pair of grey-and-white trunks.

"I shouldn't be in a bikini," I whined, picking at the silly suit with the strings tied on my hips and my chest barely covered by the triangles of material that passed for a top. At least it had the good sense to be a nice plum purple and not something godawful like pink.

"Why not?" Brian smiled and reached out to untie one of the bows holding my bottoms on.

I batted his hand away and scowled. "Because I'm not a girl."

"You sure about that?"

I glared at him. "This is my dream. Shouldn't you be trying to seduce me or something?"

"Don't work when you know it's a dream," he said, in the same kind of deadpan-with-smirk way his waking-world counterpart would. "And is that really what you want?"

I thought about that for a moment. "I mean... it might be nice? It's been a while since...." I trailed off. "This is stupid."

"Well, it's your dream," he said, standing up and plucking a surfboard from the sand next to him.

I stood up too and stepped forward, once again by his side.

"Even in my dreams, you're a butt."

"Yep!" He agreed. "Also, honk."

"Honk?"

Then he reached over and squeezed my right tit.

#

"Wha?!"

I jerked awake, dislodging the very real hand that had just groped me but not the arm it was attached to. I only panicked for a moment before remembering the night before.

Conversation.

Pizza.

Kissing.

I took a deep breath and felt my heart rate slow as I sank back into the mattress, cuddling up to the shape behind me in the bed -- not a bolster, but Brian's chest, gently rising and falling as he breathed.

He snuffled a bit as I snuggled in, raising the hand that had groped me to move my hair out of his face, but soon enough, the arm returned to its place around me, the hand this time settling into a gentle pat on the faux baby bump I still wore.

"G'sleep," he mumbled, still muffled by my hair despite having moved it.

"I am," I assured him, getting another pat on my baby bump in response.

A quick glance at the alarm clock on my side of the bed showed me the time was barely after six a.m. Brian was right: I needed to go back to sleep.

Not that I could.

With my eyes closed tight and the sound and rhythm of Brian's steady breathing filling me with a sense of calm, I lay there and thought.

I thought about the upcoming game and felt the fluttering in my belly as I wondered how the night's performance would go.

I thought about the robe, dress, whatever it was I would be wearing, and felt a fluttering of an entirely different sort at the idea of being so exposed.

I thought about kissing.

Specifically, I thought about kissing Brian.

The last guy I could remember kissing was in our sophomore year of college. I'd been experimenting at the time, and I'd gone on a couple dates with him. I let him kiss me, and it was nice, but he was adamant that the kiss lead to something more, and I wasn't ready for that. It was our last date.

I'd kissed a couple of girls since, not counting Maria, and there was the time Sydney got drunk at a party and tried to make out with me. Those had all been fun, but there had been something missing in it.

Something exciting that I needed from it and wasn't getting.

Something I'd found, immediately, when Brian kissed me. His lips warm, his hands gentle, the tilt of my head as....

I sighed and snuggled back just a little more, getting another grumble from Brian and a poke from something lower down.

The kissing had been wonderful. The first one, the second one, the fifth... but kissing was all we had done. Brian's hands had not lingered north of the band of my bra, and my hands had stayed safely above his waist.

The kissing had been enough, but....

I thought about the last time I'd felt that same prodding and blushed.

If I hadn't been drunk and passed out on Thursday night... if we had talked about all of this before the trip... would we have?

The bolster was gone, but there was still one important question we never answered the night before:

I was pretty sure that Brian was, officially, my partner -- my boyfriend -- now. Provisionally at the very least.

But what did he consider me?

Seemingly sensing my unease, Brian squeezed me again and mumbled something that might have been "pancakes."

The more I thought about it, the more the answer seemed clear to me, if no less confusing despite that clarity. For all my arguing I wasn't a girl, for all Brian's acceptance of me for being me, I couldn't pretend like there was anything like a boy-boy dynamic between us.

Brian might try to soft-pedal it, but if I couldn't even convince myself that we were boyfriend and boyfriend, I was pretty sure he wasn't convinced either.

Sigh.

I thought about my commitment I'd made only -- was it really only two days before? -- to let what was fun be fun, and not over-think it all. At the time, I'd known -- if only subconsciously -- that would include trying not to fight what was going on between me and Brian, trying to relax and see where things went.

I hadn't thought things would all change so quickly, though.

I guess if anything, that was just proof they hadn't changed as much as I thought, I just wasn't trying to ignore them anymore?

Somehow that wasn't as comforting as I'd hoped it would be.

Despite my confusion, I didn't pull away from Brian.

I didn't want to.

If we both wanted to be together, then did the labels really matter? I knew they would to some folks, even some of our own friends, though I didn't think many of them would make a big deal about it even if they disagreed with us.

Should we be together, and risk it making it hard to work together?

That was just me being paranoid, and I knew it. I couldn't imagine a situation where, even if we broke up -- once again presuming we were a "thing" now -- that I would stop being at least friends with Brian. We went back too far, and I knew him too well: if that were going to happen, it already would have, and I'd seen him with enough girlfriends to know he wasn't likely to pull any Asshole Dominant stuff.

Girlfriends.

Girlfriend?

I thought about it some more and fought the urge to shake my head again. I knew that in the eyes of most folks, that was what I was.

Hell, in the eyes of most folks, I'd been that for a long time.

But it still didn't feel like it fit to me. Didn't feel cromulent.

"Mrvf vm."

"Hmm?" I asked, turning my head to once again get my hair out of Brian's face.

"Luff yoo."

I felt a pang in my heart, like the tiniest guitar string being plucked.

"I... I love you too."

"Gud. Then go sleep. Yer think'n's wakin' me up."

"Sorry," I half-apologized, half-chuckled, once again snuggling myself in. "I'll try to think more quietly at least."

"Think later. Sleep," he said, kissing the back of my head.

"Alright," I agreed, and tried to comply.

Lover?

I thought about the word and rolled it over in my head a couple of times.

I wasn't Brian's boyfriend, I didn't think. Not really. And girlfriend didn't seem right either. Too much to unpack there, both in terms of who others saw me as and how the last couple of weeks had made me start to reconsider myself.

Too many distractions, not enough certainties. Too many questions, not enough epiphanies.

But lover?

Lover, I think, I could handle.

With that settled, I smiled and felt myself begin to drift off again, the feeling of Brian's breath on my neck reminding me of sand, and beachside breezes, and lying in the sun together.

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Sorry for the delay folks. We're caught up to me in terms of posting, but I'm hoping the next (and last!) three chapters won't be delayed.

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Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 32: Bwahaha!

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 32: Bwahaha!

"Bwahahaha!"

The fire giantess slapped her knee as she laughed, the gust of wind produced by the impact upsetting the tripod, suspending our kettle over the campfire. Adrian rushed to set it back up while our unexpected guest continued to cackle in glee.

"Yae think a little gaggle o' bairns like ye'self can jus' wend yer way up the canyon, in the gates, and 'ave a wee chat wit tha Chief?" She chuckled some more. "Whoa me, ah ain't heard a line tha' rich in ages."

"Well, what do you propose we do then?" I huffed, more than a bit annoyed that our "guest" had managed to eat over a week's worth of our rations in one sitting and drank an entire barrel of Sunny's ale.

"Taern back," the fire giantess said, leaning back against the cliff wall. "An' ferget yae ever came this way."

"We can't do that," Adrian said, tossing a few more bits of wood on the fire. "We promised the people of the town we would open the pass, and we shall do so."

"Ye'll get yerselves dead."

I shuddered a bit at the cold certainty in her voice. I'd been dead before: I didn't want to experience it again.

"We just want to talk to him," Burg said.

"Yeah. I'll only slice off some unnecessary bits."

"Sunny!"

"...Just a toe?"

Burg rolled his eyes.

"Ye'll never make it past the gate gairds, an' the wall defenses," Mato -- our giantess companion -- said, picking her teeth with a short sword she'd drawn from one of her pockets.

"Are there no other ways in?" John asked, drawing one of his daggers back and forth across a whetstone. I knew that before we headed out in the morning, the shiny edge would be coated in ash to disguise its glint. "Old trade passages, or waterways?"

"Nae that I can recall," Mato said, then stopped picking her teeth and looked off into the distance. "Well, wai' a minit."

"What?" John asked, as we all perked up.

#

"Roll me a Charm check."

"Fuck," Jonah said, stepping back to the table and grabbing his dice. Unsurprisingly, charm was not one of his character's strong suits.

"Can I assist him?" I asked.

Maria thought for a moment. "How would Lunea go about helping him with the check?"

"Hmmm. I walk over behind John, place a hand on his shoulder, and I cast--"

"--I don't think I need--"

"--Boon of Charm."

I smiled. Boon of Charm would give him a second roll if his first one went badly on the Charm check.

"I resist," Jonah said, giving me an annoyed look.

Maria rolled her eyes. "You resist a buff?"

"I don't want it. I can--"

"Fine. Roll me a Mental Resist check."

"Whatever, it-- fuck!"

"You get the charm buff anyway!" Maria said, grinning. "Now roll me that charm check."

Jonah grumbled but grabbed a second twenty-sided die and rolled both together. The first die -- his normal go-to one -- rolled a one, a critical failure that could have meant Bad Things for our party: fire giants weren't known for taking slights with any kind of aplomb.

The second die rolled a fourteen.

"Fourteen, plus?"

"One," Jonah admitted, glaring at me again.

"That just passes," Maria said.

The crowd cheered, and Aaron walked over and slapped me on the shoulder.

#

We gathered close around the patch of earth, crowding in to see the details in the flickers of firelight that could make it between our bodies.

"So that's the plan then," John said. "We go in through the water inlet. Lunea casts Bubble Head on everyone, and that should give us up to half an hour before we have to re-surface."

I nodded but couldn't shake my nervousness. "Just remember, if any of you have to surface before we're inside, the Bubble Head spell on you will pop. Once it's on us, we're under there until we're out."

Everyone assured me they understood, which helped me feel a little bit better. I'd never had to use my Bubble Head spell for anything more than a bit of fun swimming in the lake back home; I hoped it would prove reliable enough for such a high-stakes situation.

"'Magine tha', a buncha lil' bairns figurin' out a ways inta the keep!" Our fire giant compatriot crowed, looking surprised. "I s'pose they'll have ta figger out how ta fix this after yer done!"

"Yeah, well. With any luck we'll be leaving by the front gate, assuming our full charm offensive can keep us off the end of the king's spear."

"That it might, that it might," Mato agreed, tapping the side of her nose. "He respects ingenuity an' creativity, though I s'pect the vizier may not."

'Yeah, well, we'll burn that bridge when we come to it," Burg said.

"We're fire giants. Ye'll burn a lot earlier'n that," Mato reminded him, though she was still grinning when she did.

#

I waited for the curtain to close before I let my shoulders slump, a small whine escaping as I slid down to the floor, careful as possible to avoid messing up my gown while also trying not to put too much on display.

The latter was easier said than done.

My fears about the gown had been well-founded, and only compounded when I'd found out that the "special" feature Aunt Cici had brought along for me was a silicone rubber baby bump that matched my own skin almost to a T. This one covered my chest as well, and she'd blended it at my neck with some makeup.

On the plus side, the way it was designed meant no bra necessary.

On the downside, it was designed that way because, with the gown, I couldn't wear one anyway.

Glancing down, I adjusted the neckline again to try and cover up a bit more skin, but as had been the case throughout the rest of the day, my efforts were stymied by the double-sided tape Aunt Cici had used to prevent wardrobe malfunctions in the first place.

"Good thing the curtain's closed, or some of the guys in the audience might be getting Ideas," Brian said, dropping his weapons and easing down onto the floor next to me.

I blushed and let go of the material. "Yeah, well. They probably had ideas anyway."

"I know I do," Brian said, waggling his eyebrows and bumping me with his shoulder, making me blush even more. "So, can I kiss you in front of everyone, or?"

"I... I guess so," I admitted, feeling a tingle run through me as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder and pulled me close.

"Or."

"Or?" I asked, our faces only an inch or so apart.

"Would you rather kiss me?" He asked, looking deep into my eyes. I could tell from the crinkle at the corners of his own that he was grinning, probably in a smarmy way too.

What kind of question was that anyway?

I leaned forward and closed the distance between us, hoping that by kissing him I could knock the smarm off his face.

Not that I could tell if it worked.

Not that I really cared, either, as I lost myself in the kiss.

It felt like far too early when we pulled apart, but judging by my own breathing -- and the flush on Brian's face -- I didn't think we could have gone much further before one of us passed out.

Then the clapping started.

"At last!" Sydney crowed, dancing about and whooping. "I knew y'all were together!"

I almost said something, but once again I felt Brian squeeze me gently. I turned to look at him again, and he stole one more quick kiss.

With a sigh I gave up and leaned against his shoulder.

"So, when's the real baby due?"

"Syd!"

"What? You can't tell me the two of you haven't--"

"SYD!"

Sydney winced as Maria's voice cut through her whining. "Eep! Ah, yeah, not my business, sorry."

I could feel Brian chuckling, but kept my own lips in a tight grimace, despite my own desire to laugh.

The grimace turned more real when I felt someone bump into us from behind before stumbling around in front of us, cursing.

"You two makin' out on stage now?" Jonah asked, his voice slightly slurred as it had been all night. "Fuckin'--"

Sydney stepped up and grabbed him by the shoulder, and Jonah groaned in pain.

"Whatever you were about to say? Don't."

"Agh! Fuckin' alright!" He said, trying unsuccessfully to shrug her hand off before ducking and pulling loose. "But don't blame me when we all get killed 'cause the bitch...." Jonah trailed off on his own, waving his hands. "Whatever," he finally finished, then stumbled off.

We all frowned in the direction he left.

"Y'know, we're gonna have to--"

"I know," I agreed, tucking myself more firmly into Brian. "But not tonight. Not at the con." I curled up my nose, thinking about the smell that had wafted off him when he'd bumped into us. "He's lit, but he isn't drunk. And I don't think the audience noticed anything wrong."

"Nothing more than usual," Adrian agreed, dropping down on the floor across from me and Brian and rolling water bottles our way. He gave our embrace a moment of attention, then just smiled and nodded. "But Syd's right. We have to figure something out."

"Leigh's right too, though," Brian said, squeezing me again. "Not at the convention. Not before we get home. Too much that can go wrong."

Adrian and Syd both nodded.

"Besides that, it needs to be the whole group, not just us."

"Kick 'im," Deidre said, walking by us with one of the other crew. "Bastard stepped on the trail of my robe and ripped it."

I shook my head. "Come on guys. Not right now." I shifted uncomfortably, then looked up at Brian. "Maybe this was a bad idea."

Sydney laughed. "What, you two hooking up? About time if you ask me."

"Yeah, but what if Jonah's right and--"

"He isn't," Adrian assured us, standing back up. "I don't see you two changing anything about how you play just because you're out now."

"Out?" I asked, confused.

Syd laughed again, standing up as well. "Oh, come off it, Leigh. You and Brian have been a thing for years. Now you even have the rings to make it official."

"They're not actually--"

I flinched as a loud beep echoed across the stage.

"Break's over," Syd sighed, reaching down to help me up while Adrian offered the same to Brian. "But don't worry, I'll tell you everything about how obvious you've been after the game."

"Everything?" I questioned her.

"Obvious?" Brian chipped in, giving me a look that was one part amused, one part curious.

I would have asked more questions, but there was another beep over the loudspeaker, followed by one of the staff warning us on our earpieces that our mics would go live in less than a minute.

Questions would have to wait: it was time for more game.

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NOTES:

Sorry it took me so long to respond to folks last time.

As always, chapter 33 is available right now over on the Patreon! It features more fire giants! It's also free to read for anyone who wants to check it out.

Comments and kudos appreciated.

Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 33: Man Down

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

Permission: 

  • Posted by author(s)
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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 33: Man Down

We'd screwed up.

The infiltration had gone fine. With John leading, we'd snuck our way through the guards at the perimeter surrounding the keep, following the waterways up to the portcullis that served as a drain for the keep's water systems.

If you ever have a chance to check out the drain-off from a fire giant privy, word of advice: don't.

Once we had reached the wall, it was my turn to cast my Bubble Head spell on each member of the party as we entered the disgusting water. With that done, we'd slipped through the more than amply-spaced iron bars beneath the water line and into the keep, following the large semi-underwater pipe until we came across what seemed like a good, out-of-the-way location to enter the keep proper.

The goal was simple: we would get in, skulk around until we could get into the chieftain's chamber, and talk to him. According to Mato, getting in was the hard part, and the chieftain was at least as likely to talk to us as have us killed on the spot since he liked a good show of initiative.

If only we'd made it that far.

It was Sunny's fault. At least, sort of. Being vain for a dwarf, she had insisted on cleaning up before we moved from the privy we'd snuck in through into the rest of the keep. While we debated the point, the truth was that we all wanted to be rid of at least the worst of the waste, so it wasn't hard for her to convince us to take a few moments to do so.

The fire giant who walked in while we were half out of our gear was as surprised as we were.

Her buddy who had accompanied her wasn't.

#

"Lunea, roll me a reflex check."

I stared at my dice and tried not to cry. We were on stage in front of thousands, and I was wearing makeup: if I cried now, I'd never live it down.

Our movement room in front of the table had been cut down by a large model of the keep that had been brought out and placed in the center, cameras pointed down at it from above, showcasing the playfield on rolling screens at the back of the stage for the audience to see more clearly.

It was a fantastic model. Maria had cleared the funds to commission it as soon as we'd gotten the gig for the convention, and it was worth the money, with dry ice features billowing smoke around glowing lava-filled pools and stackable layers of playfield for our miniatures to explore.

Right now, things were configured to show only the southwest portion of the map, the rest hidden by fog-of-war panels, so we couldn't see things that were outside our characters' experience.

What it showed wasn't good for us.

The fire giants who caught us hadn't reacted well to doing so, and we had failed a few key checks to turn that around. Because of that, we'd been occupied by the one giantess while the other ran off and sounded the alarms, alerting the entire keep to our presence.

That had been an hour ago in real-time.

We fought the first fire giantess and handled her without too much trouble, but we knew that our goals of stealth and hopeful diplomacy were out the window. It was a battle now, and a long one, enough so that as soon as she'd had to bust out the map, Maria had sent a message to the con runners to let them know we'd be running over our time.

Some days the dice bless you. They make you look like an absolute badass, popping off spells left and right and being a big damn hero.

Some days you're cursed no matter what you do.

"Lunea?" Maria asked me, prompting me for the results of my roll. The numbers from the dice were on the screens behind her, but I needed to add my bonuses and give her the total.

"Eight."

#

I screamed as the wall to my right exploded, the spell I was preparing fizzling as I was knocked on my ass.

The fire giant roared as he lifted his mace and brought it down.

I tried to crawl away, but I was too slow, too stunned. There was a sickening metallic thud as the mace smashed into my leg.

No. Not into my leg. Through it.

I wanted to scream again, but the pain was too immense, too much to bear.

My vision blurred, and the world faded away.

#

The sound of the audience erupting in surprised and horrified outrage was almost too much for me as I watched Maria walk around the table, grimace, and tip the little figure representing me over.

"Lunea is down," she said, her voice calm but with an edge to it that betrayed her own nervousness. "Sunny, what do you do?"

"Shit!" Sidney cried, her eyes darting between my miniature and where hers stood, face to face with a fire giant opponent of her own. "Umm, ahh, do I see what happened to Lunea? Or hear it?"

"Roll and see."

"Fffff, three." Sunny, not the most aware of our characters at the best of times, had not been blessed by the dice gods either.

"Sunny is too preoccupied with her own situation to notice."

I gulped. I wasn't dead yet, but I was dying. Each time my turn came around, I would have a chance to stabilize, but if an enemy hit me again while I was down, then that was it. My only real hopes were for one of our party members to reach me before then and heal me, with a potion or a spell.

Sydney gave me an apologetic glance. "I guess I use my Stalwart Defense power, then hit the giant in front of me with my axe." She rolled her dice again and perked up a bit. "Does a twenty-two hit?"

"Yes."

"For... nineteen damage. Oh, can I do a Crippling Strike?"

"Sure."

"Eighteen?"

"The fire giant falls to one knee, leaning on its mace for support."

"Yes!!!" Sydney crowed, clapping her hands. "Can I see if I notice Lunea is down again?"

"Not until your next turn," Maria said, shaking her head. "Do you want to move?"

"I can't while using Stalwart Defense," Sydney grumped, frowning. "Sorry Luney!"

I did my best to smile, though I'm sure it came across as more of a grimace. "It's fine. That's how the game works, right?"

"Adrian, what are you doing?"

Aaron frowned, too, looking the board over closely. "Do I notice?" He asked, rolling his dice before Maria could answer and shaking his head. "I move over behind the giant Sunny just brought to its knees and use Holy Strike on it."

"That will take you through the zone for the giant fighting Burg," Maria pointed out.

"Yeah, but if we take that giant out, we can hold that doorway, and I don't know that the wall is broken in yet."

"Okay," Maria agreed, rolling some dice as Aaron moved his mini into position. "The giant swings at you as you pass, but you deftly dodge its strike. The giant you're circling would normally get a chance to attack because of the tight area, but because of its downed state, it doesn't. Make your attack."

"Twenty-eight," Aaron said, picking up his damage dice and rolling them. "For... dang. Nine regular damage, and five holy."

"The giant bellows in pain as you rip a wide gash in the armor across its back, sending bits of stone-like flesh and blistering hot blood spraying in the wake of your sword."

"Still alive?"

"Barely," Maria confirmed, shifting her attention back to the board. "As your group is dealing with the threats at hand...." She gulped, rolled some dice, then nodded to herself. Taking a deep breath, she continued. "Another wall caves in, and another giant steps through."

"Where does it-- oh no."

Maria gave me a pained look. "The new giant approaches where Lunea lies and raises its mace to finish her off." She rolled her dice again. "It hits."

Brian rapped on the table, getting Maria's attention. "Can I use a reaction to get over there and help her?"

"You used your reaction earlier to ward off a stunning strike," Maria reminded him. "Do you have any fate points?" Fate points would let him take an action outside his turn if he had any.

"No."

"Do you?" She asked me as well.

"Of course not," I said, more snippily than I'd intended to. If I'd had any, I would have already used them to stabilize.

Someone else rapped on the table. "I have a fate point."

I wasn't the only one to turn and look at Jonah in surprise.

The game had not been going well for any of us, and that included Jonah's character, John. He'd lost over half his hit points in the encounter with the first fire giant and was hanging on by a thread. Thieves weren't known for their resilience, but he'd been holding his own, using his abilities to deal bonus damage where he could.

He wasn't....

"You don't have any defensive abilities, do you?" Maria asked him.

"No," he said, acidly. "But I can take the hit, so breeder bitch doesn't die."

"Why?" I found myself asking without intending to.

Jonah barked a humorless laugh. "Fuck if I know. But much as your character sucks, John can't let a baby get killed if he can stop it."

There was silence on the stage and in the audience.

Finally, Maria shook her head and said, "All right then. Do you use your point to reach her and take the hit?"

"Fuck it. Yeah."

"All right then. I need to re-roll the attack, and... shit."

"What do you-- aww fuck."

Maria rolled some more dice, her expression souring even more as she looked up at the camera showing her dice. There would be no fudging of the rolls, not with the cameras showing them for everyone to see.

"Critical hit, double damage, maxxed. How many hit points did John have left?"

"Four."

I looked at Deidre, who was studying her character sheet with a look of quiet dread. Did she have any reviving magic prepared? When she noticed me, she looked back and shook her head, the question not needing to be asked aloud.

Maria sighed. "As the mace comes down toward Lunea's head, John dives from the shadows, shielding her body. With a sickening crunch, the mace shatters his chest. Jonah, please hand me your character sheet."

The crowd remained silent as Jonah pulled off his mic. Rather than handing his sheet to Maria he gathered his sheet and his dice, and without a word to anyone else -- without even a snide glance -- he walked off the stage.

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NOTES:

While this isn't the next-to-last CHAPTER, this IS the next to last post of Wednesday Knights coming to BC.

No, I'm not leaving a chapter off BC. Rather, chapters 34 and 35 are going to be posted as one piece (just like they're being posted right now over on the Patreon,) because they are both rather short, and combined close up most of the plotlines of the story.

Again, thanks to everyone who's kept up reading with me.

I'd love to see comments and kudos. I know I didn't get around to responding to them on the last chapter, but to be fair, I DID end up writing two more chapters in the intervening time, so hopefully I can be forgiven for that :)

Wednesday Knights -- Chapter 34 and 35: Finale!

Author: 

  • Rasufelle

Audience Rating: 

  • Mature Subjects (pg15)

Publication: 

  • Novel > 40,000 words

Genre: 

  • Transgender
  • Crossdressing
  • Fantasy Worlds
  • Romance

Character Age: 

  • College / Twenties

TG Themes: 

  • Reluctant
  • Androgyny
  • Identity Crisis
  • Real World
  • Romantic
  • Sweet / Sentimental
  • Voluntary

TG Elements: 

  • Costumes and Masks
  • Performer/Entertainer
  • Slice of Life

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Wednesday Knights

By Melanie E.

A group of friends streams their gaming on Wednesday nights. But not all the action is on the dining room table.

-==-

Chapter 34: Closing Remarks

The roar of the crowd was only slightly muffled by the curtains as they drew closed.

I'd survived.

I was down a leg for the moment, but in a fantasy world that could be fixed.

We were battered, and at the end of our ropes, but we had gotten out. Our goal wasn't completed, but we would live to try another day, and really, after how things had gone, that was all we could ask.

At least, most of us had survived.

Once again I found myself sinking to the floor, the dress and propriety being damned as the energy drained out of me. My makeup I had been so worried about earlier in the session was, I was sure, ruined by the sweat pouring off me, as much from stress as from the hot lights of the stage.

Dahlia had used her last prepared healing spell to get Lunea back up, and I'd taken a cue from the fire giants themselves, and used my own final prepared spell to blast open one of the walls of the fortress. We had fled, Burg carrying Lunea and Adrian carrying John's body. Peppered by arrows and stones, our last resources being chipped away, we'd somehow managed to lose the fire giants in a nearby forest thanks to Burg's druidic powers.

And that was where we were, and would be in another week and a half when we played again.

The crowd, of course, had loved it. There were people shouting in concern, people screaming in support, and almost too much noise to bear as we'd concentrated on getting away without taking more casualties. Sunny had pulled her phone out even before the curtain had closed completely, and I was sure she was eagerly studying viewer engagement metrics and all of that stuff.

All I wanted to do was let my heart calm down, and get a good hug.

"Hey."

"Hey," I said back, taking Brian's offered hand and letting him pull me back to my feet. Almost immediately I was in that hug I'd needed so much, the relief and comfort almost too much for me to bear as I fought to not give into the tears.

Not here. Not yet.

When we finally let each other go Maria and the rest of the gang were standing nearby, waiting for us. The moment I was free Maria stepped forward and gave me a hug of her own, followed by Sunny, then Deidre, and lastly Aaron.

"You feel up to an after game review?" Maria asked me, sounding nervous and as tired as I felt.

"I don't... no. I mean, yeah," I grumbled. "But can we do it somewhere else? I don't...."

"Yeah," Sunny chipped in. "I kinda wanna get away from, ah, this. And I could use something to eat."

We started walking off the stage, discussing where we could go for food and whether to change first or not, when we all stopped silent in our tracks as soon as we'd stepped backstage.

There, leaning against a trunk, was Jonah, vaping and staring off into space.

He stood up and started walking over to us, and I felt my entire body tighten like a spring. I didn't want to be yelled at. I didn't want the screaming, and the arguing, and--

"That's it then."

What?

I looked at Jonah's face.

There was no sneer. No anger. No disgust.

There was only exhaustion.

"Jonah--" I started, but he waved me off.

"Look, Leigh. I... I'm an asshole," he said, taking another puff of his vape and looking away. "I know I'm an asshole. All o' y'all take the game so casual most of the time, and it pisses me off, and... sigh." He rolled his shoulders, and looked right at me again. "Just... if you'd fucked something up tonight, then whatever. But ya didn't. Ya got fucked." He gave my faux baby bump a look when he said that, and almost grinned.

Almost.

Stepping back, he eyed the rest of the group. "Y'all've been thinking about dumping me from the group," he said, giving everyone a moment to respond. When nobody did, he continued. "I get it. Camera crew's got the tech locked down, I'm not needed for that. I'm not popular with the viewers, and I don't fit with the group any more. Never really did."

I tried to say something again, but this time it was Brian who stopped me, gently squeezing my shoulder.

Instead, it was Aaron who stepped up. "I've got your character's body. We can get him revived at a temple if--"

"Nope," Jonah said, cutting him off. "No fuckin' way. Not... I can't."

I glanced up at Brian, who shook his head, but I stepped away from him anyway. "Jonah...."

To my surprise, Jonah didn't try to cut me off.

I forced my shoulders to relax, and surprised myself by actually laughing a little. "You have been an asshole, you know that?" I was relieved when he chuckled and took another hit of his vape. "And yeah, we've been talking about things. But you don't have to leave the group. We don't want you out."

Jonah looked up at me again, a touch of surprise in his eyes, then over at the others. The surprise faded. "Y'know? I actually think you believe that," he said, sounding far more tired than I felt. "Maria?"

"Yeah?" Maria said, in almost a whisper.

Jonah stepped forward and extended his hand, his crumpled character sheet looking as ragged as the rest of us. "Here's John's sheet. Don't revive him, but I dunno. Y'all can put him up for folks to have or whatever."

"O-okay."

Jonah turned around, and was starting to walk away, but I couldn't let that happen.

"Jonah!" I called out, stepping toward him. I was a little surprised when he turned around to face me, but I didn't let that stop me.

He was stiff as a board when I reached out to hug him, but didn't try to pull away. I kept it short, but we had been friendly -- no, friends -- for too long to part like this.

"When we start planning the next campaign I'll give you a call, okay?"

"I don't think--" he started, but stopped, looked over my shoulder, then slowly nodded. "I... yeah, okay."

"Okay," I agreed, stepping back from him.

He gave the smallest, just the tiniest, of smiles, before rolling his eyes, hitting his vape again, and walking away from us for one last time.

We all stood there, watching him, until he'd disappeared around the corner.

I let out a tense breath as I felt Brian's arms wrap around my shoulders from behind.

Maria stepped next to me. "Y'know," she said quietly. "Things change. People change." She looked down at the character sheet in her hand. "When we get to town, you're reviving John," she said, a certainty, not a suggestion. "He can go away for a while, maybe for the rest of the campaign. But if Jonah wants to come back...."

I nodded.

If Jonah wanted to come back... his place would be there.

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Chapter 35: Post Partum

I picked at my breakfast plate with my fork, shuffling things around a bit but not really interested in eating any of it.

My shoulders were slumped, and I knew that my eyes betrayed how tired I felt, or would have if not for the makeup Maria had insisted I put on before leaving the room that morning, among other things.

I laid my hand that wasn't busy Not Eating across my belly, taking note of the one big thing they hadn't had me put back on, and feeling weirdly uncomfortable not having it.

I jumped a little when another fork struck at my plate, spearing a piece of cantaloupe.

"Hey!"

"What?" Brian asked, only slightly muffled by the stolen fruit. "You weren't actually eating any of it."

"Yeah, but...." I trailed off, too tired to even work up a good head of steam about the theft.

It had been after three AM before we'd gotten back to our rooms. That wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for the fact that even with a late checkout already approved, we had to be out of our rooms by one in the afternoon, and we had a lot -- a lot -- of stuff that needed packing.

We'd been too tired on getting back to the room to do more than change out of our costumes and kiss a bit before zonking out, and there was a part of me that was disappointed by that. If the way we had woken up that morning was any indication, there was an even bigger part of Brian that was.

I smiled, just a little, at my private joke. Privates joke, I couldn't help thinking, and that made me smile even more.

"Pervert," Brian said, stealing a piece of melon off my plate that time.

"I'm not-- stop reading my mind!"

"No can do. Been roomies for like eight years: it's a permanent thing now," he said, this time taking a grape.

I rolled my eyes and decided that if I was going to get a chance to eat anything, I should get started. With one last glare at Brian, I nabbed a chunk of pineapple off my plate and stuck it in my mouth, resisting the urge to stick my tongue out at him when I did.

"Good. I'm gonna go grab some more," he said happily. "Back in a sec."

I watched him walk off, chewing my pineapple and surprising myself with the realization I already wanted more. Maria caught my gaze and waved from her table but didn't try to come over: she was in the middle of her third or fourth phone call since we'd gotten up with the ATG folks, who were trying to convince her to agree to us doing another con here in a month or two.

Normally arranging that kind of thing would be my job, but Maria had told me the night before that I wasn't allowed to think about work for at least two days, until the team meetup on Wednesday we were doing in place of a game this week.

Who was I to argue with that? Especially after she threatened to make me wear a skirt to the next game session if I tried.

What I'm wearing NOW is bad enough, I thought as I nabbed another chunk of something, maybe mango, off my plate and munched on it.

I had never agreed to wear women's clothes home, but apparently, I was, courtesy of a first-thing-in-the-morning ambush by Maria, Sydney, Deidre, and Aunt Cici. At least I'd won the fight over a skirt, but I was still wearing a pair of girly-looking capris and a flowery lightweight tank with some frou-frou around the neck.

I hadn't fought them on the sports bra, though, and was already planning on ordering some more of them when I got home.

I shivered just a little bit. The tank was light, as were the capris, and the AC in the hotel was still set on Nuclear Winter despite the fact that we were some of the last people leaving.

Yet another reason to be happy for the sports bra, I guess, I mentally grumbled, wondering how I'd gone for years without thinking about my chest, only to now be acutely aware of it almost constantly.

Thankfully Brian got back to the table then, another plate piled high with fresh(ish) fruit and pastries from the remnants of the hotel's continental breakfast table.

"We eating all of this?" I asked him, eyeing the plate dubiously.

He grinned and kissed me on the tip of the nose. "Most of it. Calorie load before the drive home."

"Mmf."

"Although...."

I put down the strawberry I'd been picking up and gave Brian a wary look. "Brian...."

"Hey!" He raised his hands defensively, his eyes gleaming in mischief. "I'm just sayin', it's about a six-hour drive from here home, and we don't have anywhere to be until Wednesday, right?

"Right?" he prompted again when I didn't immediately answer.

"Yeah," I agreed, curious where he was going with things.

His grin grew wider. "Well, we don't have any company materials in the rental car, we've got the cars 'til Wednesday too. I'm thinkin' we make a detour or two on the way home."

"That... could be fun," I said, taking a cautious bite of my strawberry. "Where were you thinking?"

Brian actually looked a bit embarrassed. "Well, your folks are living in--"

"Woodcock," I reminded him.

He nodded. "And my folks still have the old family place outside Bayonet."

"What are you getting at, Venable?" I asked him, giving him the side-eye and feeling a shiver pass through me that had nothing to do with the cold air.

"Well." He grinned. "Now that we're, y'know, officially a Thing. Maybe we should tell our parents?"

!

"Leigh?! Leigh, are you okay?!"

I coughed, keeping my breakfast down, but just barely. "Ack! Ah, yeah, ah. Ahem. You've met my parents!" I croaked. "I've met yours!"

"Well, yeah," Brian said. "But that was as friends. Not as, y'know... ummm."

I sighed. We still hadn't figured out exactly what our relationship was. "Partners?"

"Lovers?" He suggested, quirking an eyebrow and grinning smarmily.

"Not yet," I teased back, feeling a little tingle rush through me at the 'yet' part of that statement. Brian seemed to notice it too, the smarm in his grin increasing.

"Partners works," Brian agreed, sliding over and reaching under the table to take my hand that was still resting on my baby bump-less belly. "For now."

"For now?"

"For now," he said again, lifting my hand and kissing it. "Though I've got bad news for you."

"And what's that?"

"My mom's always wanted to see you in a dress."

I wasn't sure how to feel about that. Annoyed? Upset? Tired?

I settled instead on laughter.

And it felt right.

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Notes:

Well, that's the end of Wednesday Knights! I hope folks enjoyed the journey as much as I did!

This isn't the end of the line for Leigh and Brian and the gang, but it is, at the very least, an extended hiatus. I want to spend some time on other writing projects for a while before I return to them. In the meantime, assume at least two things:

1. Brian and Leigh are Absolutely A Thing.

2. Everyone gets their happy ending, whatever that may be.

Normally this would be the point at which I link you over to the BCTS Patreon for the next chapter, but, well, here we are. Nevertheless, I'll include a link to the Patreon anyway, in case you want to see what else is going up over there (hint: new Pete, and a few other stories by both Joyce and Melanie Brown!)

The BCTS Patreon

If I may, I would also like to do a bit of direct self-promotion, and say that, if you would like to support me directly, I've got a Kofi now. Not only can I take donations if you'd like, but I also offer art commissions through it, and post non-TG articles and the like there (currently there's only a couple up, but I've got more in the works now that Wednesday Knights is done with.) All profits from my book sales go directly to supporting BC, so if you want to support me directly, then my Kofi is the best way to do it.

My Kofi account

GuerillaGrue is a name I use on most of the rest of the net (as opposed to rasufelle) nowadays, so don't be confused by that :)

Finally, Wednesday Knights in print! We're planning on the book coming out most likely near the end of November. When that happens, the chapters hosted here will mostly be made unavailable and what's on the Patreon will likely be moved to a paid tier in order to make sure that BC can benefit from book sales as much as possible, so if you want to read the whole story for free, now's the time to do it! The print version will include at least one additional exclusive short story about Leigh and Brian.

Anyway, that's it for now! As per usual, comments and kudos are welcome.


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