The Family Girl #001: The not-so-prodigal daughter

The Family Girl Blogs (aka "The New Working Girl Blogs") Blog #1: The not-so-prodigal daughter To see all of Bobbie's Family Girl Blogs, click on this link: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/28818/family-girl-blogs

It's hard to do a Jack Nicholson imitation in text, but I'd like to say that "I'm baaack!"

Yes, that's right - I am back from my self-imposed exile from BC.   As I went through my quest to find myself, my quest, though only partly done, brought me to an unexpected realization that, well, I've already found myself.   Mostly.   And I think being around my friends here will not make me lose perspective nor cause me to lose all that I have learned about relying on myself.    (To understand what I'm talking about, see http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/blog/24045/working-girl-blog-5... )

I now think that visiting here, or posting or blogging once in a while won't cause me to "un-learn" anything in any way, and contrary to how many post-op TS folk feel, I feel okay to be here.   Don't get me wrong - I am still as neurotic as heck.   But I guess the fundamental thing is that I am not fighting the idea that I am really a girl, and that I am deserving to be a girl.   And that I believe there is a future for me.

Those simple lessons came at a high price, and my old Working Girl blogs perhaps hinted a little bit about that (see http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/19261/working-girl-blogs ).   But in the winter of 2010, I finally took the finals and passed.   Not with flying colors, perhaps, but passed nevertheless.

I am woman, hear me roar (or perhaps in my case, a tiny five-foot-tall meow).

So with this new assurance, I think I am safe to try and rejoin everyone here in the old stomping grounds.

For the past few weeks, I've been dipping my toe to test the waters, posting a couple of comments in some blogs, emailing some of my old BC friends, talking with some new BC folks via Yahoo, and visiting the ole chat room (but I have been a bit unlucky with the chat room since the old gang hasn't been visiting or maybe they have but I've just been unlucky with the timing).

I guess it's like someone peeking through the doorway, and looking around first before coming in.   

So here I am.

Like I said, lots have happened.   I am more-or-less okay with my folks, I am not too sure about the family on pop's side but those on ma's side seem okay with me, I am paradoxically relating better with my sis, my best friend knows about everything now and nothing seems to have changed between us, and my roommate and I moved out of the old apartment in DC and now have an honest-to-goodness house of our own ten miles away.   Still got the old Suzuki, but with all the expenses, Cricket won't be getting a brother or sister anytime soon.   That's not a problem since my roommate doesn't drive, so we will remain a one-car family for the foreseeable future, or until she finally gets the nerve to start learning to drive.

Yes, we are a family.   I now have a life-partner.   And that's the reason for the name of the blog.   Stuff to tell, but maybe later.

Suffice it to say, my little family of two's not perfect, but I think we are okay.   Superfine, actually.   Having a partner is pretty new to me.   My one miss that one other time didn't go well.   But this time it's different.

So you see it's no wonder I think it's great to be back.

Btw, stories comin up in a couple of days, too :)

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