Mixed Blessing-1 By Stanman63 Thanks To JennaFL For Proofing And Nora Adrienne for editing Synopsis:When a boy's desire to be a girl overcomes him, he must face the dilemma of fear versus desire. His Mother teaches him how to be a girl and his best friend treats as a woman. But an attack forces him to become a woman before he is ready and now must face the consequences of his decision.

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I am a woman, now. But my journey was fraught with many unnecessary dangers as I found myself unable to resist my need to be a girl. But now that I am a woman, I find that it's a mixed blessing as I have lost as much, or more than I gained.
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I was born Heath Aaron Norris. I had strawberry blond tresses that fell in waves that was kept in a page boy cut, like Mommy's. Mommy was Constance (Connie) Abigail Norris who looked like a blond Catherine Bach when she was Daisy Duke, but petite.

Growing up with only Mommy, I had no real male role model to look to. Just before I was born, my dad, Seth Orville Norris and my baby sister Jillian Annette Norris died when his Ford Ranchero was run off of the road into a snow bank by a drunken truck driver.

The impact killed both, but left the car basically intact. Mommy won a big settlement that let her continue her education as a teacher and repair Daddy's car. Now with Mommy's matching Gran Torino, she has matching cars to drive.

She has a camper for the Ford Ranchero so that we can go camping when she doesn't use it whenever we go shopping. She drives the Torino at other times and keeps both well maintained. She even converted them to a dual power system, turning them into electric powered cars thanks to the Warner High School Auto Shop.

Growing up, I wanted to be like Mommy. To me, she was what I wanted to be. I didn't know anything about gender. I thought that I was a smaller version of Mommy. What made it really confusing for me was that she'd dress me up in my sister's stuff and later on, I'd dress up as a girl with the neighbor's daughters.

I found that I liked wearing dresses and tights and even wore tights in the winter under my jeans to keep warm. In a way, I was lucky, the boy's summer uniform for Warner Grammar School, Warner Middle School and Warner High School was navy or red shorts and a navy or red shirt with white socks and sneakers. Me, I imagined that I was a girl since they had the same uniform plus skirts, skorts and dresses.
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It was during my senior year at Warner High school that things changed for me. I had been dressing as a girl for years at home thanks to Warren High School's Drama club. Mrs. Serena Davenport had chosen me to play a girl's part in a few plays, so had helped me by getting me breast forms and a gaffe. Once I had them on, only a gynecologist could tell that I was a boy, and I could do anything that a girl could do, too.

Mommy had gone to work that Saturday, leaving me home alone for the day. She did not know that on these occasions, that I become a girl. At first, it was simply to be like Mommy, but when I learned about the differences between boys and girls, I decided that I wanted to be a girl.

That was why I joined the Drama Club at school. Miss Serena told us that originally, there were only male actors, that certain men were chosen to portray women and that boys with a beautiful voice were gelded so that they'd keep their voice after puberty. THAT told me all that I needed to know in order to become a girl.

I had used the internet to learn about how to become a girl, so I got my own herbal pills and started taking them when I was ten. They didn't really do anything but keep me from getting facial hairs and keep a girly voice, but that was enough. Imagine my surprise when my hips started getting wider in my freshman year in Warner High School.

When I told Mommy, she simply thought that it was my growth spurt as there was no evidence of my taking any herbs. Now I started wearing girl's jeans and even panties, but the panty was really Speedo swim trunks.
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After Mommy left, I put on my breast forms and gaffe from school, then white pantyhose under cream panty and bra. Over that, I stepped into an ivory sundress with a mid thigh hem and slits to the waist on the sides. Then I put on a pair of silver ballet flats and went to the kitchen for lunch. I'd just sat down to my lunch of a B.L.T. with chips and a soda when Mommy came in wearing her nurses white uniform dress and hose.

"Well, I am glad to finally meet my daughter," she smiled at me.

"WHA?"

Mommy hugged me, "It's alright, Darling. I LOVE you and want to help you to be who you want and need to be," she promised.

Finally, I got my bearings back as my mind cleared, "How long have you known?" I cried.

"Ever since you brought home your ENHANCEMENTS from high school, last year."

"But they are fitted to only ME!"

"True, but getting your teacher to let you have then AND the glue and solvent told me that there was more to this than any play. Are you ready to tell me why you dress as a girl?"

I looked at her, and saw compassion. Now that she knew the secret, my emotions burst forth in a torrent of raw emotions that left me tired, but rested, as if a great weight was gone. As my tears flowed away, Mommy led me to the sofa in the den where I napped after my ordeal.

When I woke up, Mommy had made me my favorite breakfast for me and had put the plate on the dinner tray table that I used whenever we'd watch a movie while eating. Most of the time, we ate in the dining room alcove.

"My Child, do you feel better, now?" asked Mommy as she bathed my face with a washcloth.

"Yes, Mommy. I do," I sighed. "I've kept this secret for years! Now that you know, a great weight has been lifted," I admitted as I tucked into the hash browns with cheese, ham, onions and 'shrooms, covered with sausage gravy.

She smiled at me, "I could tell. Now that I know about this, I will do what I can to help."

"But why?"

"As a nurse, I've seen too many patients who like you, were men who wanted to be women. Some of them made very beautiful women who'd had surgery to become women, and some were waiting for their final surgery. Those were the ones who'd found peace," she sighed.

I placed my hand on hers, "What of the others?"

"The others had either despaired of finding peace, or were brutalized when they were discovered. Their groins were hopelessly mutilated, and many suffered from other injuries, as well," she cried.

"What does that have to do with me?"

"I can't let you despair, or be hurt by someone finding out the truth. I can use my resources to make sure that you can pass as a girl, if that's what you want."

"I do!"

"Heath, how long have you wanted to be Heather?"

I smiled at her usage of my feminized name, "I've known that I was Heather ever since I was a baby."

"Oh?"

"Yes, when I was a baby, I thought that I was a smaller version of you, and once I knew that I was a boy, and you were a girl, I wanted to be a girl, Mommy."

"Is that why you joined the Drama Club at Warren?"

"Yes, because I'd read where in the past, only girly men played women and that boys with pretty voices were gelded so that they kept their voices."

"Do you know that gelded means that their testicles were removed?"

"Testicles?"

"Their nuts' or balls."

I reached down to where mine were, "OUCH!"

Mommy laughed, "OUCH indeed."

"I didn't realize that," I laughed back.

"Did you do any research on the internet?"

I blushed, "Yes, but I NEVER thought about losing what I have," I admitted.

"Well, for you to become a girl, you must take hormones and blockers so that you develop a girl's body. THEN you have surgery where your penis and testicles are turned into a vagina."

"But what if I don't want THAT surgery?"

"Well, there are a few who choose to not have the surgery, but their chances of being discovered are greater than those who have the operation."

"Can't they wear a gaffe?"

"They can, but any close inspection will reveal the truth."

"You mean INTIMACY."

"Yes, THAT'S where many of those who've been brutalized come from. They are usually victims of a rapist."

I felt myself grow cold as I thought about how easily it was that I could be such a victim. NO lady should be brutalized for the sickening, perverse pleasure of any man! Sex should be a joining of two bodies and souls as the partners explore each other’s bodies.

Mommy held me as I shivered in pure fright over what could happen to me if I continued to dress as a girl, THEN a calm came over me as I felt PEACE. I had to be a girl as much as possible, and consequences be damned! I WOULD become a woman in spite of the opposition.

As I came to that epiphany, Mommy knew that my fear was gone and that I was ready to face the consequences. She'd felt my body stop being wracked with shuddering sobs as I gained the inner strength that I'd need to deal with my ordeal.

"What happened?"

"Mommy, I know that I could become one of those brutalized women that you've seen in the hospital, but I must become the woman that I am inside. I can't let fear stop me, now can I?"

She looked at my steely resolve and sighed, "No, you can't. I was hoping to scare you back into being a boy. But now that I see that you are resolved to become a woman, you have my support," she declared with a hug.

"Thanks, Mommy."

She looked at my plate and began giggling as she pointed towards my now empty plate.

"WHAT?"

"You may want to be my daughter, but you STILL have a boy's appetite!"

"GEE! Thanks a lot! Mom! I so needed to hear that!" I huffed in humor.

That's OK, my daughter. When do you come out?"

"Mainly when you're gone to work for the weekend. Then I get dressed and sit here. I never go anywhere!"

"OK, I don't recognize what you're wearing.'

"I got everything from the DOWNTOWN THRIFT STORE from my earnings cutting grass."

She looked me over with a critical eye, "Very good choices. Do you have a wardrobe?"

I got up and opened the chest under my window and the one at the foot of my bed to reveal my stash of girl's clothing. She gave everything a critical eye, then smiled at me, "How appropriate, using your HOPE CHESTS .
I blushed, "It just seemed right."

"True, but my daughter will need her own room," she declared.

"HUH?"

"The spare room will become YOUR bedroom while my son will keep his stuff in the attic where he's been wanting to move to for a while."

I saw her strategy, we had an attic that we'd put up as my clubhouse, but even though it had been remodeled, she refused to let me stay up here. NOW was the perfect opportunity since the attic had been made over into an efficiency apartment, just like the basement.

Mommy loved the idea of helping to temporarily housing any visiting missionaries from KENT COMMUNITY CHURCH, and so did I. Now though, with me in the attic where both of my wardrobes could be safely stored, the two apartments in the basement would do nicely.
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"Well, we'll need to transfer your clothes up to the attic and your computer. Do you want the hope chests?"

"Since it'd be a big hassle to move them, why not transfer my stuff via laundry baskets? Then I can switch the keys to the chests with you and get my key to the attic, as well."

We spent the rest of the morning transferring everything to the attic after I'd put my dirty dishes in the dishwasher. Mommy was giving my wardrobe a critical eye as she saw my meager stash of girl's clothing and how worn some were getting.

"Heather, you have done very well in acquiring a wardrobe with your limited funds, but MOST of this is ready for the trash heap, unless you want to make repairs," she sighed.

"Well, to tell the truth, MOST of what you see is from when I first started being Heather," I admitted.

"Oh? Then where is the rest?"

"Ever since I got the breast forms and gaffe, I've spent any money for clothing on the glue and solvent as well as lingerie."

Mommy hugged me, "I NEVER thought about how much that you've sacrificed to be a girl, Heather. We can order you a bodysuit that will transform you into a woman, but once you've worn it, Heath is no more," she declared with tears in her eyes.

I saw in that moment that Mommy was afraid of what could happen to me even more than I had been. As a nurse, she knew the physical trauma inflicted upon the poor souls that had despaired of becoming women and had mutilated their bodies as well as those in transition who were caught and brutally attacked. But I somehow knew that there was something that she was not telling me.

"Momma, what are you not telling me?"

"No matter what, you can never pass as a girl with a gynecologist, nor pass a D.N.A. test."

"Not even with the suit?"

"With the suit, you can after it has changed your chromosomes and made the physical changes,, but not until then."

"What do you want to do then?"

"Get yourself totally cleaned up, then come to my room in bra, panty and hose."

I went to my bathroom and showered, taking care to get my enhancements clean, even douching the gaffe to ensure that I was clean there. Even though I'd never had sex as a girl, I had urinated as a girl, and knew that I could come down with a yeast infection as any girl could.

But with my enhancements applied, was there a danger that I could still be outed? Were there some homophobes who had a way of checking to see if a girl was really a girl? If so, then my actually going out as a girl would truly be sending me out into the lion's den to become a victim of a hate crime.

But as much as I was scared to be hurt, there was the primal center of my being that would defy them and defeat them, no matter the cost. It was this inner calling that was driving me to be a woman against all odds.

My only drawback was if Mommy was to be hurt by them. She was innocent of my needs and drives, and had warned me of the trouble that I was heading into, only to help me when I proved to be willing to go through with my plans. If that was to happen, NOTHING IN HEAVEN NOR HELL WOULD STAY MY VENGEANCE.
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By the time I stepped out of the shower my skin was smooth and hair free, with no trace of a beard. Due to my wearing the enhancements, I didn't need to shave and any body hair was fine and smooth.

"You ready?" she called out.

"Yes, Mommy, What are we about to do?"

"We're going to go and get you a nice wardrobe."

"Why? I already have a substantial wardrobe."

"Because I have yet to really enjoy shopping with my daughter.'

"Are you sure about this, Mommy?"

Very sure. After we're done shopping, I'll tell you why."

"Okay."
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We went to Victoria's Secret where we got me lingerie, hosiery and special ointments for my enhancements that would make it so that I could wear everything for up to a year before having to remove everything for a weekend to let my body recover.

In the mall, we found a selection of clothing that could be mixed and matched to give me plenty of options in my wardrobe as long as I kept them stain free since most were cotton. It was while we were eating lunch that we met my best friend Hank. I was scared at first because only Mommy had seen me out in public as a girl until now and he knew me very well.

"Mommy, that's Hank Hemshaw! What do I do?"

She patted my hand, "Relax! Does he know about your dressing as a girl?"

"Well, yeah! In fact, he kinda likes it."

"Then, what's the problem?"

She calmed my fears so that I could act like the girl that I was around Hank, and he treated me like I was a girl.

"Hello there, you two."

"Why, Hello, Hank. How are you?"

He chuckled, "Much better now that Heather has chosen to go out as a girl."

"WHAT?"

He at by me and smiled, "Heather, I've seen you in plays as a girl and at Halloween. I've seen you in your back yard as a girl, and that's when I took a fancy to you."

I looked into his smiling blue eyes and saw that my best friend wanted to be my boyfriend. I had to be sure that he knew what he was getting into.

"Hank, there are those who'd hurt me if they knew the truth about me. Are you willing to protect me, even if it means sharing my hurt?"

"I've talked it over with Dad and he agrees that you are a sweet girl and is willing to help you, too."

"He is? But he's a Vice Cop!"

"Yes, Mrs. Morris. And he has seen what has happened to girls like Sasha. He wants it to stop, just as many others on the force."

She smiled, "Well, then Sasha has two friends that I know of. Can your dad help with her I.D.?"

He produced four cards, "Already done. Here is her State Driver's License, State Student I.D., School I.D.., and County Library Cards."

I took them with trembling hands, "Why?"

He placed his strong hands on mine, Because I love you, Sasha! Be you boy or girl."

I knew then that I'd met my soul mate. I felt totally safe with him; little knowing how much our love would be tested.

"Hank, these gifts are a godsend. Has your dad compromised his position by doing this for me?"

"No, Dad is a part of an alliance of individuals who are working to help those who need help to survive against the bigots of society, Sasha"

"Then how come I'm not a member?"

"Because of your child. Heather's upcoming battle precludes you from actively joining. But you are being guarded and whenever you come across certain patients, their needs are met as well as their families."

"Is that why those poor souls seem so happy? I thought that they were simply being brave."

He smiled, "Now that you know different, do you trust me to keep Sasha safe?"

"I do."

"WAIT A MINUTE! I AM HERE! IF YOU ARE ASKING ABOUT ME, THEN ASK ME !"

"Heather, will you go to the movies with me this Friday night?"

"Yes."
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To Be Continued In Mixed Blessing-2

Mixed Blessing-2 By Stanman63 Thanks To JennaFL For Proofing And Nora Adrienne for editing Synopsis:When a boy's desire to be a girl overcomes him, he must face the dilemma of fear versus desire. His Mother teaches him how to be a girl and his best friend treats as a woman. But an attack forces him to become a woman before he is ready and now must face the consequences of his decision.

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AM I CRAZY? WHY DID I JUST AGREE TO A DATE WITH HANK? DO I WANT TO BE OUTED?

Mommy saw my confusion and patted my hand as Hank left, whistling, "You're wondering why you accepted, right?"

"Uh, huh."

"Sweetie, your Heart spoke out, just now."

"Huh?"

"Your Heart knows who you Love, Hank is the One for you."

"But he knows me!"

"Yes, and accepts and approves. What more could you ask of him?"

"To NOT Love me and stay safe from the bullies." I confessed.

"Not likely, from what I can see," she sighed.

"Mommy, I don't want for him to get hurt because of me."

"If he is truly the One for you, no danger will stop him from loving you."

We finished our shopping and went back home where we filled my girl's wardrobe with a selection of girl's clothing that I sadly lacked. We did get four Sunday dresses and matching sundresses as well as a selection of active wear that could be mixed and matched with the school clothes.

The lingerie was an item that made me blush as I showed my mother how I looked in my bra and panty with pantyhose. Until now, I never knew just how great it was to model clothing for others.
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Most of my wardrobe was in the school colors to allow me a greater selection of school clothing since school policy was to wear either the school uniform or school colors as long as the clothing met the minimum decency allowances.

With the rise of unwed pregnancies and gang violence, the county had imposed a strict dress code that banned designer clothing, forcing the students to wear uniforms or school colors as long as there were no tummies, nor underwear displayed except for those of cheerleaders, dance team or bloomers with cheerleader length skirts.
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"I suppose you're wondering why I'm doing this."

"I am."

"We both need it. You for your wardrobe, me because of your sister Jillian Annette Norris who died with your father. Ever since she died, I've wondered what she would look like. Now I'll have the chance to see," she sighed.

I looked at her, saw the tear in the corner of her eye and went to her, hugging her close, my own tears running down my cheeks, dripping on her blouse, "I miss them, too. I guess that in this way, that you get her back in a way, right?"

"In a way, but you are not her," she sighed.
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When Daddy and Jillian died, their deaths devastated us. We both lost someone close to us whose absence left a void that was near impossible to fill. But filled it we did with work for Mommy and my wanting to be like my mom.

If Dad and Juliet had lived, how different would our lives be? Would I become like my Dad or would I still want to be a girl? I don't know and I don't know how to find out.

All that I knew was that I felt complete as a girl and that I had to be a girl, no matter the consequences to me. But if I knew then what I know now, I'd have given up being a girl to avoid the pain that my actions would cause.
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"But by my wearing girl's clothing, you have a daughter again. Do you miss having a son?"

"Heather, with you dressing as a girl, I have BOTH a son and a daughter in one. And if you choose to become a girl, you will still be my son," she affirmed.

Now I felt a great weight lift from me that I did not know was there. I had been worried that by choosing to be a girl, that Mommy was losing her son, but she saw it as the BEST OF BOTH WORLDS for me to be a girl, an attitude that could be a balm on my spirit in the days to come.
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The next day, Mommy and I got ready to go out again, but this time, just as two girls out on the town as a reward for getting me my wardrobe, yesterday.

The idea of going out in public excited me and caused me to fear for Mommy. I wanted for the world to see the new me, but at the same time, I wanted to protect my mother against any attacks if I was outed. We were at the Mall Cafe when my next door neighbor Gail saw Mommy.

"Hi, Mrs, Morris. Where's Heath?"

"You don't see my son?"

"No. Where is he?"

"He's out looking at some new books for his library. You know how long that takes," she giggled.

Then Gail looked at me and knew who I was, "Heath?"

"Yes. It's me, Gail."

"You make a very pretty girl, Heather. I'm glad that you've finally decided to be the girl that I know you are."

"You mean to tell me that you've been waiting for Heath to start dressing as a girl?"

"No, for Heather to start BEING a girl."

"You know that Heather is a boy, don't you."

"MOTHER! I AM A GIRL! REMEMBER THAT!" I whispered to her.

Mommy looked at me with sorrow, and pride in her eyes, "My child, you have chosen who you are. Now we must face off against the consequences of your choice."

"If you're talking about Jake and his goon squad, don't worry."

"Why?"

"After their last altercation with the police, any more incidents and they go to the maximum security prison down south."

"Okay, Gail. Now you must promise to keep Heather's secret."

"ARE YOU KIDDING! HEATHER HAS NO REASON TO FEAR ME! I'LL TREAT HER AS IF WE'RE SISTERS."

"So, you see my child as your sister. Can I trust you to NEVER out my child to those who would take great delight in hurting Heather?"

"Heather has nothing to worry about from me and the other cheerleaders."

That surprised me, "OH?"

Gail hugged me, "We cheerleaders and the dance team have adopted you as one of our own. We've even gotten you uniforms that you can wear after you have transitioned into a girl."

"How do y'all know that I want to be a girl?"

"I was born a boy, but due to an accident when I was twelve, I became the girl that I wanted to be. So I know what it's like, Heather."

Her words were a balm upon my tortured soul that was seeking out a reason to continue to be the girl that I wanted to be. Even though meeting Gail had destroyed my confidence, her story about how she became Gail reassured me that I could become the girl that I wanted to be.
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Dinner was at the mall was uneventful, except for a few Romeos trying to score with us. Having boys show interest in me. I was worried that somebody would start a witch hunt with me being the witch, but that never happened. Then I got a surprise from one of Mommy's fellow workers.

"Brenda, I thought I saw you sitting here with these two beautiful young ladies."

"Martin, this is Gail and Heather, Heather is staying with me for the school year while Heath is away during his tour of duty in the Army and Gail is my neighbor."

"A pleasure to meet three charming young ladies. I am about to go to the Skating Rink with my wife and girls. Y'all wanna come?"

I could see that Gail wanted to go as well as Mom, which gave me the confidence to ask, "Are there dressing rooms there where I can put on a skirted leotard and tights?"

"Should be since that's where my daughter Ali goes for ice dancing," he chuckled.

We went with him and his family to the rink and had fun skating. I even had a few guys to chat me up for a date, but I could tell by the swelling in their jeans that they had more in mind than skating, so I declined.

Skating in my red skirted leotard and Danskin tights, I knew that I looked as good as most of the other girls out there that night, but there were a few cheerleaders and dancers who were way better than I was simply because they could do the splits, and other moves that I couldn't without causing myself injury by crushing what little I had into a gooey mess.
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The weekend that I spent as Heather helped me to become as much of a girl as a guy can be without any surgery. I learned much about being a woman from Mommy and Gail. From Gail, I learned how to be a teen girl, but Mommy taught me the poise and demeanor of a lady.

On Monday I went back to school as my male self (of course), waiting for the end of school to become Heather again, perhaps forever, if thing went right and Mommy and I moved out of the county and into Kent County District Ten which was a secured gated community.

I was successful in being Heath, and even had the fun of taking Gail out after the game on Friday night. She looked great in her cheerleader dress, and flesh tone fishnet hose that she wore for me.

Dwight, the leader of the Sharks saw us cuddling in the Boyle's Full Gospel Youth Center and decided to make a play for her but, pinching her leg, ripping her hose.

"HEY! BACK OFF CREEP!"

"Who's a gonna make me?"

I let her sit on the recliner while I stood up to him.

"I am, Dwight. You have accosted Gail and ripped her hose. Do you have the money to pay her for a new pair?"

He laughed at me, "Kid, by the time that me and my friends are through with hr, she'll thank us for treating her like a woman."

"YOU MEAN LIKE A SLUT, YOU PIG!" yelled Gail as she punched him in the gonads.

He crumpled into a heap and his buddies gathered around him. But then Hank and the football team strode in with cops in riot gear.

"Dwight, I've told you before that accosting students would earn you time in Juvenile Hall. Let's go." said an older cop.

"But that bitch assaulted Dwight!" said a red headed goon sporting a MR.T. haircut.

The older cop looked at me, Is this true, sir?"

"Yes, but Dwight did rip her hose and bragged about how he and his friends would make her a woman after they got through with her."

Hank handed a C.D. to the cop. "Officer Trent, this C.D. has the entire incident on it."

Trent scanned the C.D. that he placed in a Blackberry, and smiled, "Miss, Dwight now owes you One Thousand Dollars. Either he or his old man must pay it before Dwight is released from the Hall."

"All that I really need is a new pair of fishnets, the rest can go into the school's cheerleader slush fund."

Trent nodded his head, "Escort Dwight to the E.R. , but take his buddies to the station so that their parents can pick them up."
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We breathed a sigh of release as Dwight and his cronies were led away into the paddy wagon. The Paddy Wagon was a Ford 350 club cab with a titanium steel cargo body that was proofed against most any small arms fire. Basically, anything that could breach it, would kill the prisoner who were generally bolted to the seats and gassed before and after delivery so that no guards wee needed in the actual prison, itself.

Police Chief Dale O'Hara had upgraded the Police Force with S.W.A.T., S.E.A.L. and Ranger training from veterans with the endorsement of Homeland Security with the aim of helping the F.B.I., N.S.A. and C.I.A. to keep the city free of any terrorist since with our city being a main hub for trains, aircraft and shipping, we are a prime target for terrorist organizations.
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Hank looked at me with wonder in his eyes, "Here all this time, I thought that you were unable to fight. Glad to see that I'm wrong."

"No, Hank. I am pretty weak. But I couldn't let them hurt Gail, now. Could I?"

"Guess not."

"What about the Sharks? Will they be out, soon?"

I turned to see that it was Miss Jane Hollbrooks, the Girl's Adviser. She looked like Janet Woods from Three's Company and always wore a skirt suit with matching sandals and hose.

"Depends upon if they make bail, if Judge Harris sets bail," announced Hank with a sigh.

Judge Harris was known has the hanging judge always went for the maximum penalty whenever any gang member was in his courtroom, but the chance of them going to his court were slim and none with a liberal court system that favored the gangs. But that was to change all too soon.
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It was finally the week before graduation, and everything was looking bright for me. Dwight and the Sharks were still in the Hall for the many cries that they'd committed, leaving the school free to implement the TRANSGENDER RIGHTS POLICY that the State had been wanting to initiate.

The Policy allowed a student that was in transition to dress as the gender the student was transitioning into. Throughout the school were Teacher's Lounges and Unisex toilets with privacy stalls so that a student could take care of business without others interfering.

Me, I went to school as Heather and with the School's indulgence, wore the Cheerleader, Dance team, majorette, or color guard uniforms on game days and went to the games wearing the field uniform, rather than the pep rally uniform.

I was heading to my locker after lunch when I saw the most horrible thing in the world, Mommy, Gail, and Hank were being held by Dwight and the Sharks. It was plain to see that Mommy and Gail had been sexually assaulted.

"WHAT IS THIS?"

"Easy there, Cupcake. Me and the boys have been having a bit of fun while we've been waiting for you," he sneered.

"Heather, they RAPED me! Just because I am your mother!"

Dwight tried to slap her, but I threw him away using karate and placed my foot on his neck, "Pay the price , beast!" Then I broke his neck.

The Sharks came for me, but once I freed Hank, Gail, and Mommy, I was ready for the fight of my life. Hank stayed with me while Mommy and Gail escaped via the elevator.

Standing back-to-back, we defending ourselves against superior numbers until Hank was taken out by a cheap shot to the head, then I felt a searing pain as I blacked out.
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I awoke to find Mommy wiping my forehead with a damp cloth, "Feeling OK?"

"Feel numb," I mumbled.

"Well, the good news is that will pass as soon as you're healed."

"?????????"

She looked away, crying.

Gail held my hand, "Heather, give her time, she was raped, like I was because of you," she sighed.

"Are either of you pregnant?"

"No, but we both must face the nightmare of the assault for as long as we live. Thankfully, we have some counselors who can help us to cope, just as there are counselors to help you with your assault."

"MY ASSAULT?"

"Heather, after the Sharks took out Hank, they destroyed your gaffe, and tore away your testicles and penis. The surgeons had to place you in a bodysuit after swig you up to keep you from dying from shock."

"You mean?"

She pulled away the sheet to reveal me wearing a flesh tome leotard that displayed my breasts and groin to utter perfection. I fainted.
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When I awoke, Hank was by me, "Hello, Princess."

"GO AWAY! I AM A FREAK!"

"Because your new body is from a bodysuit?"

"Yes," I sighed.

"Heather, you would have been placed in the bodysuit even if those cads hadn't of attacked."

"But they raped..."

"I know! But do you want to honor their sacrifice and be Heather? Or become Heath?"

"Become Heather. But I also want to make them pay!"

"They have, already."

"OH?"

"They were placed in State Maximum Security Prison where the Sharks became minnows to a few of the more sadistic prisoners. They didn't last a week before they committed suicide."

"How long have I been out?"

"A week."

And you still want me?"

Yes."

"But what of the future?"

Then Hank sang My World Is Beginning, Today from Santa Claus Is Coming To Town.

ll the little cares picked along the way
Suddenly have disappeared with yesterday
Tossed about the fields and lost among the winds
My world is beginning today.

Oh, so many times have I walked this way
And never seen the little things I see today
Never had my head so high above the clouds
My world is beginning today.

I know something's gonna happen
But it's out of my hands
Things are gonna start snappin'
Without any plan.

All the little cares picked along the way
Suddenly have disappared with yesterday
Tossed about the fields and lost among the winds
My world is beginning today
My world is beginning today!

Then he asked me, "Will you marry me?"

In response I said "Yes," and sang I Will Follow Him from Sister Ac

I will follow Him from Sister Act
[Slowly]
I will follow him
Follow him whereever he may go
And near him I always will be
For nothing can keep me away
He is my destiny

I will follow him
Ever since he touched my heart I knew
There isn't an ocean too deep
A mountain so high it can keep
Keep me away
Away from his love

[Moderately Fast Rock]
I love him, I love him, I love him
And where he goes I'll follow, I'll follow, I'll follow
I will follow him
Follow him whereever he may go
There isn't an ocean too deep
A mountain so high it can keep
Keep me away

We will follow him
Follow him whereever he may go
There isn't an ocean too deep
A mountain so high it can keep
Keep us away
Away from his love

(I love him) Oh yes I love him
(I'll follow) I'm gonna follow
True love, he'll always be my true love
(Forever) From now until forever
I love him, I love him, I love him
And where he goes I'll follow, I'll follow, I'll follow
He'll always be my true love, my true love, my true love
From now until forever, forever, forever
There isn't an ocean too deep
A mountain so high it can keep
Keep us away
Away from his love
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Hank and I were soon married after graduation and went onto college where we both became counselors. Gail and Mommy and I are still dealing with our assaults, but are refusing to let the attack dominate us.

Gail and Mommy became counselors, using their experience to help others as they cope with their own issues and are now employed at the school which has since hired T.G. teachers, and staff to become a haven for T.G. students and their families.

Me, even though I still have nightmares about that fateful day, I know that I made my choice to be a girl in spite of the high cost if I was caught. I am now facing the demons of my desire with the realization that Hank sees me as a woman, which in a way, makes this mixed blessing worthwhile.
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FINIS