These are the diary notes of a young man whom after taking a summer job experiences changes beyond anyone’s wildest imagination. It also suggests that there may be magic out there, not in the form of dramatic hocus-pocus but a more subtle one.

And sometimes that magic can come from something as inconspicuous as a pair of — Red Shoes.

Monday June 4

Yo Diary!
I’m so excited! Today school’s over and I start my new job tomorrow!

I got a job at a local air-conditioning and heating firm, I guess I will be scheduling jobs, answering phone, doing some computer work and who knows. I can’t wait. Last week it looked like I would get stuck doing nothing all summer and now I got a job.

My ma’ told me yesterday that the person that used to do what I will be doing there just up and quit, just like that. So, I called and went down to talk to them and apparently they liked me because I got the job. And, I’ll get my own cubicle with phone and computer and the works. Totally cool. They have a dress code though, of sorts. No denim jeans or shorts. Seems weird for a small place like that but who am I to argue? Guess I will have to see what I can dig out.

Texted my best friend Mike to tell him about it, he got a job to at the food store up town. Guess that means we won’t be able to hang out much this summer though.

~o~O~o~
Tuesday June 5

Dear Diary!
Today was great! I got to meet all the people at the company, everybody seems really nice. It’s a small company, only about 8 technicians, 2 in-house repair guys, a woman in the office doing book keeping and payroll and the owner.

From what I gather Mr. Richards, the owner, is not in much as he is either out on jobs or in the repair shop. So I guess it will be mostly Paula (the office woman) that I will work with. Not that it matters, she seems quite ok.
We spent most of the day going over the scheduling system on the computer and how the phones work. Good thing I’m quite tech savvy, there’s a few things I can help improve when it comes to the computers!

The one weird thing though was that Kelly, the girl who left, well she also left a lot of her stuff. She didn’t clean out her personal stuff in the drawers and she even left her shoes under the table (on the picture, right next to my bag). How weird is that? From what I gathered she had this big fight with the Mr. Richards and Paula last week and basically got herself fired. Paula said she left slamming the doors and cursing everybody. Well her loss, my gain!

At any rate, the day went by in like no time. Can’t wait to go back tomorrow! I might have to toss out those shoes though. And also clean up in the drawers, if I get the time.”ƒ

~o~O~o~
Wednesday June 6

Dear Diary!
Today was like crazy! The phones were ringing constantly, two guys called in sick and I was ready to go jump off a cliff. No not really! But it was very stressful trying to schedule calls when you are two people short. Paula helped me out a lot though and we managed to get most of it sorted out.

I meant to ask Paula about what to do with the old girls shoes and things in the drawers but I never got around to it. And those shoes really annoy me. I had kicked of my own shoes and when I had to go put paper in the copier I just step into them again. I was halfway to the copier when I realized that I was wearing those stupid red pumps! Luckily no one saw me, not even Paula I think. At least she didn’t say anything.

I swear they are like possessed though, when I left today it was like they were like glowing there under the table but really it must have been the sun reflecting someway. Freaky and totally weird! The red shoes must go!

~o~O~o~
Thursday June 7

Dear Diary!
Another hectic day, still two guys short, but I’m starting to get a hang of it. And yes, I accidently stuck my feet in the stupid pumps again. Honest to Pete! I have to admit though, they are pretty comfortable, I can see why Kelly kept them at the office. They seem to have this soft padding that makes it really comfortable to walk in them and they are really quite cool on the feet which is good because all of a sudden it is like my feet start burning and when I wiggle my toes around it’s like I get air in and they turn really cool again.

Not that I was wearing them a lot though, it’s just something I noticed and I always take them off every day before going home. In a way I wish that I could wear them home but I’m sure Ma’ would find that weird!

~o~O~o~
Saturday June 9

Mike came over and watched some movies downstairs and played some xBox. Then went up to my room playing on my computer but after just a few minutes Mike got the worst headache and went home. Got a bit of a headache myself and went to bed.

~o~O~o~
Sunday June 10
Woke up late, helped clean up around the house. Boring day.

~o~O~o~
Tuesday June 12

Dear Diary!
I can’t believe where the time goes! This last week and the weekend just seemed to fly by!
Today we were not too busy though so Paula and I caught up on some other things that need to be done around the office, like taking care of some of the plants and cleaning up the reception area. Not that I understand what we need a reception area for since we don’t have a receptionist. Probably because we don’t have a whole lot of walk in customers, just the the UPS guy but he’s not really a customer, but still! Well now it looks nice at least.

But I have to tell you about last Friday though. We were scrambling getting everything finished up before the weekend and in running back and forth between the copier, printer, the filing cabinet and Paula’s desk I just simply forgot that I had accidently slipped into those red pumps. I was standing right by Paula’s desk when I noticed and I got like beet red, but it was like she didn’t care. I stuttered something about ‘I didn’t even notice… how did that happen…’ and all she said was “So? They kinda look cute on you!”

Cute on me? I mean, really! I mean, they are cute… nice looking shoes. But still. I really should have got rid of them and I will. But they are kinda comfy though. Especially when my feet get hot and I wiggle my toes!

~o~O~o~
Wednesday June 13

Dear Diary!
I swear, those shoes must be cursed! Today I forgot to take them off after work and didn’t notice until I got home! Good thing Mom didn’t see that, she would have freaked! So, now my sandals are at work and I got the red pumps here, meaning that I will either have to drive to work in my old sneakers or wear the pumps. I’m thinking sneakers it is!

Got a text from Mike, he’s got the flu. Bummer!

~o~O~o~
”ƒ
Sunday June 17

Dear Diary!
Was doing some laundry today, seems like it have been piling up lately. I was hunting for the jeans I wore last week and just couldn’t find them. Then Mom pulled them out from a laundry basket, but I’m not just sure they are the same pants. I mean, they seem shorter in some funny way. They fit great up around but they are way short, like they end almost 10 inches from the floor! And they have this weird pattern on the back pockets. I can’t remember it being there but I’m sure Mom is right, it’s not like they could belong to anybody other than me!

Not that I mind the pants being a little shorter, it actually feels pretty nice and cool around my legs. The only thing is that if I accidently would put on those darn pumps it would be way more visible. I will have to be careful not to let that happen tomorrow.

~o~O~o~
Monday June 18

Dear Diary!
Something feels different; I just can’t put my finger on what it is. I packed my bag today the same way I always do, brought some bananas and yoghurt for lunch with me and headed to work. And the entire day I had this weird feeling that something was off. I don’t know, it’s just one of those days I guess or because of the weird dream I had. Yeah well I’m not really sure if it was a dream but it was weird.

I was dreaming about my shoulder bag of all things, that it was missing. I was looking all over for it and then I just woke up and I saw it where it was standing where I left it, by my closet. And here’s the weird thing; it was like glowing! Then when I sat up in bed and looked at it it was like the whole room was dark again! No more late snacks for me!

At any rate we had loads to do; several calls had come in over the weekend and now that we are back to full strength among the service guys things seems to move along better.

I asked Paula if she had noticed anything weird and she said “Not really, other than you seem to look a little pale.” When I had to go to the restroom I took a good look at myself in the mirror but couldn’t see anything out of place. Still the same scrawny face, small nose, too long hair (according to Mom) and blue eyes. I thought I looked ok, at least as ok that I am able to look!

~o~O~o~
Wednesday June 20

Dear Diary!
Almost had a major disaster today! Paula asked me if I wanted to go out for lunch today since for some reason both of us had forgot to bring anything from home. So I just grabbed my bag and off we went in her car. We stopped by the Dairy Queen takeout window and ordered two ham salads and then drove down to the riverfront park. We had almost finished when I dropped my napkin on the ground and when picking it up noticed that I was wearing the red pumps! Oh no! I was like totally in panic mode and I could feel my face taking on just about the same color as the shoes.

Paula calmed me down and told me it was no big deal and pointed out that they actually did go quite well with my shoulder bag, my white khakis polo shirt. ‘If you would have added a red belt you would have the outfit complete!’ We both giggled at that and I managed to somehow ignore about my predicament as we walked back to the car. Actually, once I knew what I had on my feet I noticed how nice they were to walk in. Much comfier than my old sneakers or sandals.

~o~O~o~
Friday June 22

Dear Diary!
Today was but strange and fun at the same time. Somehow I managed to oversleep and was late in. Well not late really but I really had to stress getting ready to make it in time. I was looking for a pair of regular jean again and al I could come up with was a pair of dark beige cropped pants with much shorter, or so it seemed, legs than the other ones. I really thought I still had those jeans but I must have grown out of them. I even looked through my hampers and all I could fine was the same style cropped summer pants as I am wearing now. Not that I don’t like them, it’s just weird. But I have to admit, with the summer heat it feels quite nice with some lighter clothes, even if the office is air conditioned. I managed to find a nice white polo top with thin red stripes around the collar and arms.

When I got to work Paula was of course already there and we got immediately busy. After finishing some calls and sending the guys out Paula looked at me and told me she thought I looked pale. I told her about my stressful morning and she just laughed a little.

“I know what you mean” she said. As she pulled out a compact and starting dabbing her cheeks and chin she said, “Maybe you should just try putting some color on your cheeks too. It would make you look less zombie-like and perhaps even alive!”

“Yeah right” I replied. “That would be a bit weird!”

“Why is that? It wouldn’t hurt to put a little color on your cheeks. It’s not like it would kill you, you know!”

During a restroom break I studied my face in the mirror. I guess she was right; I did look a tad pale and got to think about something I had seen in one of my desk drawers. I went back out, Paula was on the phone with a customer, and snatched a little bag with flowery patterns out of my desk.

Inside was various pencils, brushes, lipstick and god knows what else, and also a compact, just like the one Paula use. Not sure exactly how it worked I dabbed my cheeks, chin, forehead and neck and immediately liked the result. Although it was completely invisible it did in fact make me look more alive and fresh.

I was afraid that anyone would take notice but no one did. Not even the owner who made one of his rare appearances just before closing time. I still think Paula knew because she gave me a smile and cryptic wink while I was talking to him. But closing time came without any incidents and I reluctantly changed to my sandals and headed home.

I did stick the bag with the compact in my shoulder bag though. I don’t want to risk looking like corpse on Monday!

~o~O~o~
Saturday June 23

Mike was over again but got a headache after just a little while. What’s up with that kid? Must be remnants on the flu.

~o~O~o~
Sunday June 24

Dear Diary!
There’s another thing that bothers me and have been doing so for some days. I seem to itch all over.

I asked Mom and she said that it was because my skin was probably too dry now with the summer and all. That’s weird because I can’t remember it being itchy last year or anything. But I still took her advice and used a skin lotion she gave me and I have to admit, it made it feel a lot better!

Even around my chest, which has been giving me the most grief, I have noticed the itching going away. Not so much around my nipples though for some reason. Upon inspection they actually seem bigger, especially after coming out of the shower.

~o~O~o~
Monday June 25

Dear Diary!
I got to work well in time today, in fact almost 20 minutes before Paula. And it was while watering the lowers that we have hanging out by the entrance that I for some reason didn’t have to stand on my toes reaching up, almost like I had grown an inch or two over the weekend!

Completely silly of course, it must just be the fact that everything seemed a little weird being in so early in an empty building. Even the clicking from my shoes sounded louder!

The magic continues...

Tuesday June 26

Dear Diary!
I can’t figure this weather, today was actually quite cold outside! This became especially apparent when I heard Paula giggle as we were having lunch at the park again. I couldn’t quite figure what was so funny at first until she pointed at my chest. Both my nipples looked like they were trying to break out of the confinement of my, I guess too tight, tan polo shirt! How embarrassing! Luckily there were not a soul within sight but I still walked back to the car in fast pace with my arms crossed over my chest. I would probably have run if I could but the shoes don’t really allow any sprinting!

~o~O~o~
Wednesday June 27

Dear Diary!
Well I have found a solution to my nipple issue. While going through my drawer chest at home I found like a short tank top that does the perfect job preventing any further nipple issue. At first I thought it was a bra but really, what would a bra do in my drawers?? Besides, it looks nothing like the ones Mum uses; this one even says Adidas on it so there! At any rate, after putting it on I found that not only does it hold my little cherries in place, it also seem to support my upper body. In fact, it is almost like it makes me walk in a different way, more upright and straight. Weird. But quite comfy.

And oh, something else really weird happened today! I had just finished up a call with a customer when I looked over at Paula’s desk to ask her a question. She was completely engrossed in touching up her mascara and I must have looked a bit funny at her because she looked back and said,

“You know, it wouldn’t hurt you to use some too. I don’t understand why with those eyes and lashes of yours you don’t want to make the most of them.”

I had really not thought about it. Like seriously. She must have noticed me looking down at my purse because she said with a giggle, “Go on, it won’t bite!”

So, I took the bag from my purse, dug out the mascara and used the mirror in the compact to mimic Paula. I also noticed a shine on my nose that I covered up before putting it all back.

I must say I liked the look. I actually didn’t know that my eyes could be made to look that much better with just a little black goo on them. Amazing.

Paula also told me to use a remover to clean it off tonight. I asked Mum about what a remover is and if she had any. Which like duh, of course she does! She not only gave me some neato remover pads but also two lotions or crá¨mes. One for night and one for daytime.

Mom’s the best!

~o~O~o~
Saturday June 30
Mike texted and wanted to go hang out at the mall. I was getting ready but all of a sudden I came up with the worse migraine so I texted him back and cancelled. I think he’s bummed out with me. Can’t he just get that headaches like these are like totally devastating?

~o~O~o~
Monday July 2
Dear Diary!
I was totally stressed out today! For one thing I couldn’t find anything to wear this morning! I thought I had another pair other than white or beige pants like the short ones I’ve been wearing but I guess not. The only thing I could find was a pair of light blue full length pants. At first I couldn’t figure out how to put them until I realized that the zipper was in the back! Now who have heard of such a thing? After getting them on I have to admit that they are comfortable and I like the way they fall, I just wonder if they will be a bit too warm for summer?

Not only that, I also had another major disaster this morning and I’m sort of glad I don’t have to tell anyone other than my diary. I was in my bedroom and had just put my undies on and while I was putting some color on my face I noticed that I had a wet spot in my shorts. How embarrassing! And, it had to be one of my fav shorts too, really thin and silky. It has happened before during the night but that’s ok since I always change in the mornings, but never like this after a shower. Which made me think about how long it’s been since the last time I ‘played around’ with myself. I just haven’t had the urge I guess.

Anyways, I didn’t know what to do at first, and then I got to think about those pads Mum keeps in her bathroom cabinet. So, I sneaked in and borrowed a couple of them and put one in a new fresh pair of undies and one or two in my purse. I must say that it actually felt quite nice to know that I won’t have to worry about any leaks like that during the day, just imagine how embarrassing it would be if someone saw a wet spot in my crotch!

I did notice in the mirror that I might have to start watch what I’m eating; my chest seems to have swelled a bit. It’s not like I’m getting fat but I do seem to fill out a bit even though the tank tops still does seem to do a pretty good of a job to hold everything in place. I sort of wish that I could find something that is not as warm as they are, especially during the warmer days.

I was even thinking about borrowing a tank from Mum, I have seen her use some that seem to be in the same material as my undies. But for one thing they are all in very bright colors with lace and stuff and I don’t know that they would help very much hiding my nipples very well. I guess I just have to watch what I eat better!

At any rate, Paula complimented me on my outfit today (wore a red polo shirt with my pants) although she did hinted that it maybe wasn’t the perfect summer colors. I didn’t know there were different colors for the seasons but I guess she could be right when I think about it. Maybe if I didn’t have so much to do over the weekends with keeping the house up. Now that I’m working and Mum is working all week there are little time over to do anything but cleaning house and do laundry. It’s not that I mind, Mum is a lot of fun to be around and we seem to have grown closer in a way now since I got a job and at the same time we actually spend more time together.

I am going to have to find something that is cooler though, today was a scorcher and even if we have good AC in the building (Duh!), it’s way too warm when going to lunch. Tomorrow and the next few days they are promising rain though so it looks like I will get a break!

~o~O~o~
Tuesday July 4
Dear Diary!
Went to lunch in the rain today with Paula. Well not really lunch, we had an ice cream from Dairy queen in the car. Anyway, I have noticed that she, and too Mum for that matter, always seem to put lipstick back on the second they are done eating. I asked Paula about it and she said that apart from wanting some color on her lips it also help keeping the lips moist and made not dry out. That is something I can relate to, I use Blistex from time to time but haven’t lately.

Then later at the office while freshening up my face and lashes I noticed a lip-gloss in my beauty bag. I don’t know why I didn’t think about that before, I mean it’s almost like Blistex. It tastes a little different but it sure keep my lips moist and it definitely does look better too. The only thing is that it doesn’t seem to stay on very long but that’s ok; it doesn’t hurt checking yourself out in the mirror every now and then. Just to make sure you don’t look like total wreck! There’s no harm in making sure you look your best, is there?

~o~O~o~
Thursday July 6
Dear Diary!
Looong day today! First of we were really busy at work and don’t you know that when you have the most to do some people just can’t take a hint? Like the UPS guy today, Greg is his name, it seems like he is taking more time chatting away when all he is there for is to drop of deliveries. I tried to be nice but I really was busy and he just wouldn’t stop! I mean he’s nice and all, always looking so relaxed in his demeanor and a brown shorts and he’s really funny too but not when you like have a thousand things on your mind and need to get done. Geeez. Paula thought it was funny though, the way I tried to hint to him that I was like mega busy. Glad I can be of amusement!

And of course, today I forgot to change shoes before going home. I actually didn’t notice until I saw them sitting there on the floor beside my closet, right next to my purse. Figures! Oh well, no big deal.

And so anyway I was in my room trying to figure out what to pick out what to wear tomorrow when Mum walked in. she didn’t say anything about the shoes but she did notice my lip-gloss. At first I thought she was going to have a fit but she was really cool about and suggested that since I was using lip-gloss and mascara maybe it wouldn’t hurt putting some color on my eyes too. I really hadn’t thought about it and frankly didn’t see the point but after Mum had shown me how to apply just a tad I must say I like it.

After we had looked though my beauty bag Mum showed several other things I could use like a small pen she called kajal, some blush for the cheeks this really funky looking pliers thing that you use to curl your lashes with! It looked totally scary and painful at first but I must say that the result is super. I love it!

She also helped me pick out some things to wear for the next few days and even let me borrow a few things from her to match things up like this one totally adorable thin satin blouse in crá¨me white that goes super with a pair of medium cropped pant I have. I can’t remember when the last time I had so much fun with Mum!

~o~O~o~
Friday July 7
Dear Diary!
Total disaster today and at the same time a great day! Well the day went by pretty uneventful, even if Mr. UPS seemed to consider pitching a tent and move in today. I’m mean come on…

Anyways, it was when I got in my car to go home the stupid thing would not start, not for no amount of money. Dead. Didn’t even flinch. And of course, Paula had a hair appointment but offered to take me home after she was done. So since I couldn’t get hold of Mum (does cell phones ever work when you really need them to?) I had little choice but tagging along to her salon.

It hadn’t been more than a few minutes after Paula got seated that one of the beauticians came over and asked if I wanted my hair done too. I dunno, but since I didn’t have anything better to do and it’s be quite a while since I got it cut I just said ok and was led to a stool. I must say though that I had absolutely no clue what to say when she asked me what I wanted done. I remembered looking at some picture in one of the magazines and this one picture had got my attention for some reason. I pointed at the picture and the hair dresser something like it ‘would look really good on you’ and started to work.

It was weird when she put these foil thingys in my hair and when I asked about it she just said that I thought I could use some highlighting with the style I had choosen. Ohh Keeee…. I looked over at Paula and she just smiled and nodded so I like just went with it. And then, as the woman that was doing Paula’s nails, rolled her stuff over my way Paula said ‘My treat!’ So I got my nails filed and got some transparent polish put on them, just to make them stronger. Looked pretty cool actually and it was really, I mean really really, relaxing getting a little pampered and taken care of. Paula is such a sweetie.

And then, when we were about to leave the lady that had done my nails noticed my ear hoop and wondered why I only had one ear pierced. Funny but I had almost forgotten about it and I must say it did look a bit off with just one. So guess what, I now have studs in both ears!

Funny thing is, when I look in the mirror I can’t really remember what my hair used to look like before. I mean, I absolutely love the way it looks now, like it has more body and it’s kinda shiny. And the best thing is that all I have to do in the mornings is basically blow-drying it, add some mousse and spray it a tad.

On the way home I managed to get a hold of Mum and told her about my car disaster. She called AAA and had them take a look at it and bring the car home. Apparently someone forgot to turn off the lights so after charging it the car starts like a charm again. I’m so blonde sometimes!

PS
Mum loves my hair and so do I!

~o~O~o~
Saturday July 8
I was really tired today, slept till like 11. Got up, took a shower and helped Mum around the house. Feels like crap today, went to bed early. Have to iron clothes tomorrow. Texted Mike but he was at a game with some friends. Life sux.

~o~O~o~
Monday July 10
Dear Diary!
Got a compliment from the Mr. Richards today when he paid one of his rare visits to us in the office. He actually have a desk in our office too but seem to spend most of his time in the shop office with the other guys. At any rate he complemented me on my looks which was sweet of him. Not that I was wearing anything much different today, light grey cropped pants, a slight silverfish blouse (borrowed from Mum!) and a thin red belt. And my red shoes.

Then of course the UPS guy had to show up at the same time so there they were both telling my how nice I looked, before they drifted off to discuss football and whatever. I’m really not used to getting compliments and I know that at some point I did get a tad red. Luckily I think that my foundation might have prevented me from looking like a ripe tomato.

~o~O~o~
Thursday July 13
Dear Diary!
This morning while taking a shower I thought that I must have gained some more weight. I weighed myself after and the weird thing is that it rather looked like I had lost some! It’s just like when I was in the shower lathering myself down I just felt ‘fuller’ in some way. I can’t really see any difference; it’s more like a feeling.

My nipples seem to be way more sensitive too, ti-hi!, I actually enjoyed lathering them and stuff. I have to take care though because it made them grow to like twice the size. But I kinda enjoyed it. Besides, my top takes good care of hiding it all anyways.

Today was a pretty murky day outside but they are saying it will be way warmer tomorrow and over the weekend. Can’t wait for this rain to stop!

~o~O~o~
Friday July 14
My dear Diary,
Busy day again at work, like all Fridays. I’m getting better at doing the payroll even if I have to ask Paula a lot. Wore the blue pants and a white polo with a cute print on the pocket. I’m getting used to the no pocket business, I pretty much keep what I need in my tote bag anyways.

Mike called a while ago. A good while ago actually, time flies! Anyways, after that we went on Skype. Mike was a bit weird at first, said I looked different in some way but he like couldn’t or didn’t want to say in what way. I think I look pretty much the same. Could be my hair though I guess. But I think he liked it.

It was good talking to him, but I guess I got a bit of a back pain laying on my bed with my netbook. He was joking about that it looked like we were laying in the same totally huge bed looking into each others faces. I guess it did looked kinda weird but cute.

Nighty-nighty, Diary!

~o~O~o~
Saturday July 15
What is it with weekends? Thunderstorms and rain. I was so scared. Woke up in the middle of the night, the room was all weird. Must have been the storm. Put on a long tee, went into Mums bedroom and snuck down next to her.

~o~O~o~
Sunday July 16
More rain and storms. Watched TV and played board games with Mum. Got clothes ready for next week. My room is weird, I keep waking up to this weird light. It’s like my closet is glowing. Bad dreams. Headache all day again.

Monday July 17

Dear Diary!
Stressed out! Woke up late still with a an insane headache but the shower helped. Then I couldn’t find my tank top until I realized that I had folded them really small. For a second I thought I had gone insane then I realized that I actually have to button it behind my back. Duh. Must have a brain freeeze today. I’m thinking I might have washed it in too high temperature or dried it too warm but once I got it on I really liked how it sat.

I threw on a pair of my thinnest grey capris and light blue shirt shirt, did my make and threw my pumps on. They seemed to burn beyond belief at first but oddly enough, I hadn’t been in the car more than a few minutes with the AC blazing before my headache completely disapered and my shoes cooled of! Thank god for modern technology! Had a pretty good, but hot day at work. Tons of things to do.

Talked to Mike on Skype and he told me he got a new job, like a real one. It appears that he got a callback from a mining company where he applied. He was out to see them yesterday and it appears that he start there in just a few day. And it’s a good job too, he will be working mostly above ground, maintaining machinery and even doing office work. Very cool, I’m so happy for him.

And… I might have solved my problems with the headaches. At least I think so! Listen to this!

After I came home I was so warm an icky and went straight up, stripped and jumped in the shower. While I was drying my hair I noticed a headache coming back, it like started in the back of my neck and went down my back. But when I stretched I noticed it fading when I stretched my feet and stood on my toes. It occurred to me that maybe it comes from my back, you know with the shoes being a bit high and all. So I put them back on and guess what, after just a minute or so the headache was completely gone. Even as I’m laying here on the bed with my laptop typing away, wearing only my undies and my fav shoes!

Life is great!

~o~O~o~
Tuesday July 18

Dearest Diary!
Well today sure was interesting enough! Had a fairly stress-free day at work, believe it or not, and I hadn’t been home more than like 15 minutes before Mike was on the door. Apparently the dealership just outside town had got a car in that he wanted to check out, a Ford F150 no less. And of course he needed a driver to take him there. And of course I was it! So instead of changing out of my work clothes I dove in to the bathroom to do some minor repairs on my face and off we went.

At first Mike seemed a little apprehensive and weird, looking at me funny. At first I thought it was because of my, ok I admit it, rather large bag was sitting between us on the seat and he was embarrassed to that someone would think it was his. But that’s just silly.

At any rate after just a few minutes he warmed up and started to rant about this new truck of his, like as if he just bought it or something. Good grief.

Then as we arrived to the dealership I just had to check my face again and I was doing that he walked around the car and held the car door open for me. That was sweet!

You got to love car sales people. We hadn’t made it halfway to the door before I guy held it open and came out to greet us. From there on it was all ‘How are we today and cars this cars that, bla bla bla…’. The guys was nice but at the same time kinda creepy, kept looking at me weird all the time.
Then after a while the guy says to Mike, and get this… ‘So I bet you can’t wait to get the truck on the road and take your little lady out for a ride, right?’

Little lady??? The guy thought I was… Mikes girlfriend! I mean seriously! I had to giggle and Mike had a hard time reraining from laughing too. I could see he went all red trying to hold it in.
Sooo. At any rate, I guess Mike signed the papers. Like forever… and is now. Or at least in a week or so, the owner of a new Ford F150. Because they ofcourse did not have the color he wanted. He wanted a red one and the ones they had were blue or white.

We did laugh about the car guy when drove back home and mike even asked me ‘Well GIRLFRIEND, you wanna go for a ride in my new truck next week?’ I laughed like hysterically and said ‘Sure baby, I would looooove to’, using my best bimbo voice. Then we laughed hysterically again.

Can’t wait to see Mike’s new truck though. It will be like totally awesome!

~o~O~o~
Wednesday 19
Phew was it warm today, even in the office so it seemed. Skyped with Mike for almost two hours after I got home, he is still so excited about his new job. And his new truck. And he said something really sweet too…

It was like this, we were talking about yesterday and started to laugh again about the car guy and Mike said something like he got a good deal on the truck because of me. I couldn’t figure exactly what he meant by that and Mike said, and sounded kinda embarrassed, that the car guy seemed to like looking at me. At first I thought that sounded weird but I remember he was looking at me funny and so then it popped into my head to ask Mike if he liked looking at me too yeaterday. And he said ‘I like looking at you now. You look cute with your shoes on in bed!’, referring to me dangling my shoes up in the air laying on my belly Skyping. And then he added… ‘You looked…. pretty… yesterday…’ And he sounded so embarrassed when he said it and I swear I could see him blush a little!

I don’t know why but it made me so, I don’t know, happy, hearing him say that. Like I want to hear him say it again.

~o~O~o~
Thursday July 20

Dear Diary!
I can’t take this heat anymore! Heeeeeelp! For some reason the heat does not seem to bother Paula or Mum but I find it unbearable. I guess I was bitching about the dress code at work, not being allowed to wear shorts and I asked Paula how she could stand it?

“Well it doesn’t bother me that much since I always wear skirts or a dress. Besides I’m closer to the air conditioning!” She replied matter of factly.

She looked up at me and continued “And frankly I don’t understand why you don’t, rather than always dress in pants.”

“What, move closer to the AC” I replied.

“No, wear skirts, dummy. You certainly cannot have my desk!”

The thought had just never occurred to me, isn’t that weird? I mean, I do have skirts, or don’t I? I don’t wear them often but when she suggested it I did remember seeing some skirts in my closet. Maybe I should try that? And why are my feet suddenly burning again?

I know, Dear Diary, that you must think I’m weird but I really couldn’t think of what color or style they were until I came home and started to rummage around in my closet.

I did find a few things that I should be able to wear to work, like a black pencil skirt with sailor-button front, back zip and a ruffled back hem and a brown pleated, also pencil, skirt with braided synthetic belt, a shirred back and pleated hem. They are a little bit lady style and not really what I would prefer but at the same time I think they may be very appropriate for work.
I also found the cutest chambray skirt in grey with a pull-on smocked waist. Maybe not as great for work but definitely good for warm days after work!

I got to think about a few things I had seen in Mum’s closet and when I heard Mum downstairs and yelled for her to come up.

She seemed to be quite taken at first about my idea of wearing a skirt to work but she soon warmed up to the idea and we went to look for some things that would fit me and I could borrow and after trying a few on I had a good selection to choose from.

As I was hanging the skirts back on hangers in my closet Mom asked about whether I would have to wear hose with the skirt while at work. I said I didn’t know but I had noticed that Paula always did. Mom then suggested that I should probably do that too then.

At first this didn’t make any sense to me, I mean, the whole idea of wearing a skirt would be to avoid getting hot. Mum explained to me that rather than wearing pantyhose that could get warm I could use thigh highs or stay ups. Stay-ups are a sort of hose without a panty that stays up by having an elastic band or silicon strips around the thighs. It all sounded complicated to me but since I didn’t really want to upset anyone by not adhering to the dress code I agreed to give it a try.

I went to bed rather excited about the prospects of going to work in the morning not only in a new outfit but also without being warm. On recommendation from Mum I had shaved my legs while taking my evening shower and it really wasn’t before now when I’m in bed I notice how different and nice it actually feels with clean shaven legs. Not that I had much body hair to talk about it the first place, hardly any. Still, I shaved myself all over my body including arm pits and, yeah, you know…

It is amazing how much difference removal of the little hair I had can make, I just can’t stop rubbing my legs together. In fact, I don’t think I have ever felt something so... sensual. I lay here trying to write in my diary and all I can feel are my soft legs and body and my nipples poking the bed spread while rubbing my padded crotch against my soft sheets. It’s really quite hard to describe, it is like totally erotic in a way. I seriously feel better than I have for a long time. And I get this urge, this… I don’t know. I can’t explain it.

So good night Dear Diary. I think it is time for a little playtime…

~o~O~o~
Friday July 21

Dear Diary!
Had a great day! I woke up with a smile this morning, feeling so totally relaxed, content and ready to just go hug a brand new day! When I got out of the shower Mum gave me a lotion to rub on my legs, she said it would help my legs stay soft and moist after shaving them. The lotion smelled heavenly, kinda summer fruity and felt really nice and cool on the skin.

She also showed me how to put on the thigh highs, not that it was that complicated. They seem to fit well, are really thin and kinda shiny and don’t appear to be warm at all. It is a little like wearing another layer of skin on top of my own skin. I like it.

They also make my legs way more sensitive and actually feel really nice when I sit with my legs close together or are crossing them, something I noticed while I was in front of my vanity putting on my makeup and doing my hair this morning.

I selected the black skirt from my closet along with a silky cool white blouse with smocked arms, along with my fav red shoes. I must say that I was kinda amazed how good it looked and when I got to work (in time!) Paula praised me for my good taste!

I think that Greg the UPS guy liked it too because he sure took his time today, making all kinds of extra trips by my desk. If I didn’t know better I would say that he was checking out my legs. It made me feel sort of self conscious at first but in another way I also enjoy the attention. He has really put on a nice tan, I guess it comes from driving around in a half open truck and carrying boxes back and forth in the sunshine. It looks good on him.

We didn’t do much of a lunch today, just grabbed a couple of yoghurts and walked across the street down to riverfront park. The cool breeze from the river felt around my legs and thighs felt really good as we strolled along eating our yogis, just chatting away and having a good time. Paula is really becoming a very dear friend, even if she’s like really old. Like at least 35 or something. She was enquiring about my ‘over the top good mood’ and I almost told her that I had the most incredible orgasm ever last night but loud I just told her “It must be the weather!”

I did notice though that since my skirt is rather snug it restricted the way I walk, especially navigating the steps down to the riverfront; the skirt along with the heels forced me to take very small, almost sideway steps down the stone staircase to avoid tripping and making a fool out of myself!

I caught myself several times looking down at my legs and shoes as we walked; it’s something with the way it makes my leg look that I really like. Maybe it is the way the sun makes my hose shine, maybe it is the way my legs just seem to flow down from my skirt and down into my heels; it felt like my feet were partially on fire and partially ice cold. At any rate I just love it. I know I’m boring you my dear Diary, I just feel so like totally elated!

And another thing I noticed is all the looking you seem to get just for wearing a skirt. I mean like seriously. We passed several other people in the park and I noticed that almost always their eyes seemed to fall on our legs. Like hello! We are up here! Still I kinda liked the attention and I think so did Paula. Every time some other person out on a lunch stroll walked by she seemed to perk up a bit and so I tried to mimic her. It was really nice to get a friendly and appreciative smile and ‘Hello’ back every time we passed someone by. Even if they were looking at my legs and not my eyes!

Like when we got back to the office, Mr. Richards was standing talking by the door to a customer. At least I think it was a customer, he introduced himself as Steve Banks or something. Anyways he like shook my hand and stuff but then he like just stared at my chest, my butt and my legs. I mean like really. He was nice and all though, had really nice eyes and this cologne that smelt really good, so I don’t really mind him looking at my butt. It was actually kinda cute. Lol!

~o~O~o~
Saturday July 22

Dear Diary,
Today Mum and spent at the mall, almost all day. Well I got sort of a late start, had weird dreams again, but after ‘playing a little’ *hint, hint* I like totally passed out and woke up late and we didn’t get lo leave until like after lunch.

After a quick breakfast I jumped in the shower and I guess got to think about the guy yesterday and kinda checked myself out. Nope, never gonna win any beauty contest! Still, I like the shape of my body though, it actually felt nice tracing my lines with the soaped fluffy thing Mum has in there. My chest seems a lot rounder too and my nipples are sensitive, but like a good sensitive. Oh yeah…!

One weird thing is down there, you know. It feels weird without my panties and pad. It’s like… I don’t know… like I am not supposed to mess with it. I still did though and everything feels so weird. Small and even more sensitive. I know that I‘m still growing and hopefully everything will eventually be ok. I thought about talking to Mum about it but that would be like totally embarrassing! Besides, it works just as good rubbing myself through my panties and pad. Speaking of which…

OK, where was I?. Right. Since we were going to the mall I tried to take extra time with my face, I don’t want anyone thinking I’m like a weirdo or anything. I spent like an hour putting on foundation, powder, mascara, kajal, eye shadow, lip-gloss and it turned out pretty good I think. I blow-dried my hair just like the woman at the salon told me to and put some mousse in and then sprayed it.

Since it was still pretty warm I threw on that grey chambray skirt and a red and white striped top that looked cute with my shoes. But of course Mum had objections and said if I was going to wear a skirt like that I had to wear pantyhose. In like the summer! Like duh!

Anyway, I did put on the pair she gave me and they were actually not warm at all and I have to admit that it did made my legs look great. I think I like thigh highs better but for obvious reason I couldn’t really wear a pair of those!  And once we got to the mall I can sort of understand why she was so adamant about wearing hose; you just feel more dressed when you stand in the escalator or walking the steps. Oh yes, I got looks! From several people. Hello! I’m up here!

It was great spending the whole day with Mum. She was in such a good mood all day and so was I and we giggled at just about anything and, my feet did’t freeze up or got hot more than a few times. Then one time though was sorta bad, Mum said she wanted to go check a few things out at Victoria’s Secret. I wasn’t sure what kinda store it was but we had to stop before we got there because my feet really started to burn. Totally weird.

So we sat down at totally small little table and shared an ice-cream and pretty soon my feet were ok again, in fact they were almost frozen. That’s when we had one of our giggle sessions; the table was so small that we kept kicking each other’s shoes all the time and stuff. Amazing what some ice-cream can do!

I liked VC, like Mum called it. I’m not sure they have anything I could wear but I enjoyed browsing around while Mum tried a few things out. I was approached a couple of times by the sales ladies and it was totally embarrassing but I just told them I was waiting for my Mum. She did ended up buying a couple of things, not sure exactly what.

I did get a nice short and really thin cardigan in white at Penney’s that I figured I can just wear open with a thin belt. We also tried on like 200 pair of shoes. I don’t know what it is with shoes but I love them. None of them really felt as comfortable as my red ones, in fact the ones I bought, a pair of black (why it is called pumps when they really are just shoes?) and a pair of white sandals with the same type of heel as my red ones, I compared really close to my own. I even had to hold them sole to sole to make sure they were right. Mum thought that was really funny and like said I should put them on my feet instead and not be afraid if the red ones got jealous! And yes, we had another giggle attack!

After the mall we went to Olive Garden for dinner. I love that place! I had this totally fab Chicken Alfredo and Mum had a salad. I know I probably should have had that too but at the same time, I’m still growing!

So now here I am again, laying on my bed typing away. And in my closet are my two new shoes, side by side with my red fav ones. I think they’ll make up and become good friends!

~o~O~o~
Sunday July 23

Dear Diary,
Today is my birthday and I had like totally forgot! Mum had not and when I came downstairs for breakfast there was this gift bag and a cute card on the table for me!

She had got me sleep shirt yesterday and the cutest necklace and ear rings! I live her sooooo much! The ear rings are totally cute (even if I think the diamonds are not real) and they match together. The set is call Past, Present and Future and I love them!

The sleep shirt she actually got is a VC and is like really a long tee without arms. I wasn’t sure about anything from VC at first but after Mum made me model it I have to admit it feels pretty nice on. In fact, I have worn it all day!

Then guess what! Mike called to wish me happy birthday. He was so sweet and apologized for not being able to make it but he had so much to do with his new job. But he promised to make it up to me! He’s just so sweet.

Of course I had to try the sleep shirt on, actually I’ve worn it all day, did I mention that? I spent all day hanging out with Mom. We cleaned the house a little bit, put some really good steaks in marinade for dinner and also cleaned out some old clothes and stuff that we will give to the salvation army. It’s amazing how much old stuff we had between the two of us. And, in the process I found a lot of clothes in my closet that I had actually forgotten about. Totally cool!

Then, Mom had another surprise for me! She told me she had ordered a new vanity for her bedroom and she suggested that we put her old one in mine. I wasn’t sure at first that I really needed a vanity with mirror and all but it actually does make sense. Now I can sit in my room and brush my hair in the mornings and also fix my face. It will sure be nice having it all handy on a table instead working out of my beauty bag in the bathroom.

I also helped Mom do her nails, put new polish on and stuff. And the she did mine and my toes too! We had a great time sitting in the living room, watching some TV, tinkering with our nails, laughing and giggling a lot. Totally silly. My Mom is the best!

I love the way my nails turned out by the way. Mom also gave me some of her colored polish along with some other makeup stuff. It filled up my vanity pretty good. Well there’s room for a little more actually!

Well Dear Diary, I guess it’s time for some bed. Tomorrow is another week and I have a feeling its going to be a great one!

The Red Shoes had slowly started to remember. At first the memories had been vague. The only thing they had remembered was its purpose, and just barely at that. But now the memories kept coming back.

They now remembered the day they were born, they remembered its maker and they remembered its first owner. They had been handmade, many years ago and their maker had taken great pride in his craft. But most of all they remembered the powers that had been put in them. The purpose they had.

Through the years they had come to have many owners, carried their owners many miles and yet, never fully been able to fulfill their purpose. Sure, there had been occasions where they had been able to change their owners outlook in life, or helped their owners make a better choice when facing life changing decisions. But it had never really been able to fulfill their purpose. In order for this to happen they needed so many things to be aligned.

So they had waited, many times dormant. Going from owner to owner, from countless second hand and Salvation Army stores. It had fallen into hibernation, slumbering, waiting for things to be right.
It had been brought back to a semi consciousness by something being dropped on top of it. A bag. An inconspicuous tote bag.

The bag seemed ordinary enough at first glance. But it too had its share of purpose. It had seen many things and just like the shoes it have had many owners. The bag had visited many places; from the hills of the Himalayas (well the foot of the hills at least…) to the bazaars on Tangier in Morocco to the floating markets of Bangkok in Thailand. The bag had seen many things and absorbed even more in its travels. It too had seen many second hand stores and many owners and yte never understood any of it or even that it did have a purpose. It had been a repository for many things, seen and unseen. And not until it one day was placed on top of a pair of shoes had it nothing but this; a repository of collected energy.
The shoes had been able to feed from this energy and it had discovered its owner and reached out for her. And when the bags owner slipped in to the shoes that first time it had sensed that everything had finally aligned. The Red Shoes were so excited.

Their new owner was perfect. It had a completely open and virgin mind. It was free of prejudice and bigotry. The Red Shoes realized that their new owner was quite young and did not yet realize this, but it was all good. The Red Shoes would help its owner reach her full potential.

Then The Red Shoes had heard its owners wish. It was not so much an unspoken wish as a deep concern but it touched the Red Shoes very existence deeply and it aligned with its purpose.

The Red Shoes had sensed their owners deeply embedded fear of drifting apart with her childhood friend Mike. They had sensed their owners fear that this summer they would start to go separate ways and they had clearly sensed their owners subconscious wish that her and Mike would always be together.

So although yet very weak they had tried to pull some memories from its owner, to try and pinpoint what could be done. And the first memory they came across of Mike and their owner looking at a girl and Mike saying “I want a girl just like her!”

Upon this comment The Red Shoes had sensed something inside its owner. A fear that when Mike found his dream girl he would be gone. Forever.

This could not stand and so The Red Shoes decided to take action. They decided the now was the time because everything aligned. It felt its powers grow, it felt the accumulated energy from the old tote bag and it had the perfect owner.

It wasn’t until several days later that The Red Shoes realized their mistake. Their owner was not a her, it was a he! Yet The Red Shoes decided that it was too late to do anything about this and besides that; their owner clearly enjoyed wearing them.
So The Red Shoes went ahead, as careful and subtle as they could. The Red Shoes went ahead fulfilling its purpose.

And now they felt they were almost done; just a few more modifications. Time was short, The Red Shoes knew. And yet they had to e careful not to harm their owner. This was their greatest fear. The Red Shoes felt a deep love for their owner and wanted nothing but the best for… her. And yet they knew that the last step their owner would have to take alone. The Red Shoes was nervous but yet confident that when the time came their owner would do fine.

Soon, very soon. Just a little work remained. A few more tweaks.

* * *

To be continued...

Monday July 24

Dearest Diary,
So all of a sudden it’s a new week and I’m sooo looking forward to it! Can’t explain why, I’m just so happy! Will write more tonight!

So for one thing I wasn’t happy with my clothes today. I wore the brown skirt I found along with a plain white shirt but I dunno, I didn’t care for it. The skirt seems just so long and flimsy, I feel like it’s not my style really. Yet Mom did give me a compliment at breakfast about my looks but it might just be a tad too ‘adult’ for me.
Still I had a great day at work and if there’s anything positive about the skirt it’s that I could move easier in it; it’s not as restricting as the black was even if they are both pencil type skirts. I guess it’s because the pleats in the bottom. Whatever.

We only had a quick lunch today, soooo much to do. It appears Mr. Richards had a busy weekend because he had made all these sales and promised installations and deliveries all over the place. Crazy! Soon I’ll have to go out and install air conditioners and furnaces myself I bet. Not! I joked about it to Paula and she laughed and said that “I bet the customers would like that!”

I bet they would, I feel like totally clueless around anything technical. No, I think I’ll stick to what I’m good at; scheduling the guys and making sure everything runs smooth! I’m not cut out to lift that heavy stuff and I’d be too afraid to ruin my hose or even worse, my pretty nails!

Oh yeah my nails really are pretty I must say. I just put a new coat of color on them and I have to type really carefully as they dry. Should probably get another clear coat on them too after a while.
Oh cool, Mike’s on Skype! TTL!

That guy is just so sweet! Even though he has so much up with his new job he took the time to ask about my day, wanted to know how it went and stuff. And he complimented me on how good I was looking. And duh, after I hung up with him I realized that I was just wearing what I threw on after work!

Let me explain, Dear Diary: When I came home from work I went up to my room and got out of the skirt and shirt. I was rummaging around trying to find something simple to throw on when I found this flimsy white thing. I asked Mom about it and she looked funny at me and said “Honey, that’s just one of your camis”, like I was supposed to know what that means. At any rate, it fits just fine over my tiny tank that hold my chest in, even though it’s kinda tight in some places. But it’s feels cool against the skin and I really like it but I still think it’s really like a flimsy tank so I threw a cute yellow tee on over it.

Mom also told me to take good care of the thigh highs since they are more expensive than regular hose and if I wanted to wear hose around the house I should use pantyhose. I kinda like the way hose feels not to mention how they make my legs look so I grabbed a pair out of my drawer and just pulled a pair of denim shorts on over.
So anyways after dinner when I went back up again the short just irritated me when I plopped down on my belly on the bed to write you, my dearest diary, so I took them off.

And soooo… when I was hanging up with Mike on Skype I saw on my own camera a good view of my bum and legs. I seem to have this habit of dangling my legs and feet up in the air behind me when messing with the laptop so I could sort of envision what Mike had seen. Not too much of my bum maybe and not that it really matter, does it?

I actually still have the camera on, looking at myself. I kinda like the way it… I… look. I should probably wear something a little higher in the front though when I lie like this since you can sort of see my tank and chest pretty good. Then again, I only really Skype with Mike so I guess it’s not a big deal.
And besides, he did give me compliments!

~o~O~o~
Tuesday July 25

Had a GREAT day today, even if I was like in panic mode when I woke up. Why? Because I’m sleepwalking, that’s why! Get this; I was wearing my red shoes when I woke up!!! I mean, how weird is that! I like then and all but my ankles really hurt when I was standing flat on the floor. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to walk in show that don’t have a heel on them. LOLS!

So after a quick shower I fixed my hair and face and threw on some underwear. Good thing I seem to have some smaller tanks because I really wanted to wear this purple tee I found in my drawer. It seemed a little small at first but it fits like it was made for me. And… I found a tank the perfectly matches it in color! How cool is that! I must say that it’s the way tiniest tank I’ve seen but it too fits perfectly and it actually feels nice wearing it, almost like a second skin but not quite. It felt kinda thick when I first picked it up but once I got it on I felt almost like… perky! And it looks really nice with the top on.

Then I was like totally at loss about what bottom to wear. I knew I wanted something different from yesterday but I didn’t know what. Then I found this like white denim skirt in the back of my closet. It looked a little short at first but felt great. Of course I couldn’t wear thigh highs with that skirt but that’s ok, I just threw on a pair of pantyhose. And of course my red heels!

I think I’ve found my style! I felt really comfortable all day, even if I had to walk like a block and a half because someone stole my parking spot… jackasses! But that’s ok, it’s been nice all day and this morning was no different. Everyone I met seemed so happy, smiling at me that I was ion the best of moods when I got to work.

Work was pretty good even though we were busy. And in the middle of everything I had to help Mr. Richards get some decaf coffee for a customer. I mean who drink decaf? Seriously? I had to hunt for it in the cupboard in the kitchen and do you think anyone would help me reach the top shelfs? Of course not, too busy yacking around about god knows what. Good thing I wasn’t wearing the longer pencil skirts cuz I would never had gotten up on the chair to reach it. But at least I got compliments for the good coffee! Yay.

I was about to leave work when Mike called. The guy he was supposed to ride home with had to leave early and so he wondered if I could come pick him up. Like really? What am I like a taxi service now? Seriously, I was kinda happy that he asked, I just don’t wanted to sound too eager. I mean, its good to keep guys kinda short a little, right? But I had to admit I was a little anxious for him to see my new style, sort of. I think he liked it and he really must like pantyhose because he did look at them a lot!

I do like when Mike look at me though. It’s not like he is staring or anything. He looks. And he looks into my eyes. I like when he look into my eyes, he really have the prettiest eyes. It’s a nice feeling having Mike looking at me and liking what he sees. I like that a lot.

So anyways, I picked Mike up and on the way home Mike suggested we’d stop by the state park. Why? Because Mike is into something he calls Geocaching. People hide stuff in weird places and you have to use a GPS to go find them. I know, it sounds weird. And aomeone had just hid a new geothing and of course Mike wanted to be the first to find it so could we please…?

Sure. Why not. So there we were, down by some boat launch in the state park, looking for some small container among the rocks. Let me tell you, it’s not easy navigating uneven surfaces in these shoes! We got more than one strange look from a couple of guys trying to get a boat in the water and I couldn’t’ help but starting to giggle really silly. I like couldn’t stop!

But I was the one that found the container. It was actually in the guardrail just by the ramp. I got so excited that I tripped and almost twisted my ankle when I stepped over the railing. I would have fallen in the water I Mike wouldn’t have caught me! Now that would have been something!

It didn’t help my giggles either and we were laughing all the way to the car, even though I had to lean on Mike a little. He didn’t seem to mind though and silly as he is, when we got close to the car and I almost tripped again he just scooped me up in his arms and carried me the rest of the way. My is that guy strong, it was like I weighed nothing in his arms! He really is a great guy.

When we got to Mikes house it got a little awkward. We’d had such a good time and laughed so much and then it got like quiet in the car. Mike said thanks for taking him home and then he just sat there like he wanted to say something else. He kept looking at me and smiling and I just smiled back, looking into those eyes of his. I was almost like mesmerized and couldn’t think of what to do or say. I just sat there and fiddled with my hands in my lap. Then he leaned over and at first I thought he was going to kiss me! Like hello! But he just put his hand on my shoulder and squeezed it, saying thanks again for taking me home. And that was all I could thinking about driving home. His hand on my shoulder, looking into my eyes.

Maybe it wouldn’t have been so bad if he would have kissed me? I mean, I have hugged him before. If friends can hug, can’t they kiss? If they are close and special friends? I wonder what it would have felt like, Mike kissing me…?