A Loving family
By
Jacquimac

Pt One
The beginning.

We`ve a good life together Richard and me, our four children are grown and themselves are now grandparents.
Today is Richards 75th Birthday and the whole family will be arriving in the next hour for the Usual celebrations.
You would think the family had planned all the birthdays they way they`re spread out through the year.We`re pretty well spead out across the country but we always get together for any family celebration, it`s not good for a family to loose contact or just pick up the telephone or drop a letter, being together whether times are good or bad means a lot to us all, anyone of us that needs help or has a problem knows that our within loving family they can get help, advice or can just talk.Oh we have our fights like any other group of people, I mean wouldn`t it be great if we were all alike? like hell it would, life would be damned boring,but for all our fights and arguments which never last long as we love each other whatever our faults.

Richard and myself never really new love until we found each other all those years ago, we were from poor working class families and rarely saw our parents due to them having work long hours just to pay the bills, we were what they called in those days `Latch Key Kids` Pocket Money was a rarity, when we went shopping with our mothers you never asked for anything as we knew they could`nt afford it.
There were no computers in those days ,in fact there were no pocket calculators if you had to do any counting or maths calculations you use the calculator between your ears (Your Brain) with a pencil and paper,
Toys? we never had many usually we had a cricket bat or a football we made our own fun.There were no amusment arcades, cinemas? there were a few of those but like I said money was tight so we had to make our own games,Oh didn`t mention we`re from the 1950`s generation, World War 2 had only just ended and the Korean war was the latest topic and food rationing in the UK had just ended.

Richard was born in England in1950 and I was born in a Small town In Scotland 1953. My parents moved to England when i was about 6 months old leaving me with one of my grandmothers.I didn`t join my parents until I was around 6yrs old by which time I had a sister and a brother.The house was a 2 up 2 down with old stone slab floors, no hot water and an outside toilet and outside coal shed.
All the houses in the area were the same and every family was more or less in the same financial situation ,damned poor.
Just about all the parents worked in the local cotton mills usually doing 12 hr shifts.All the kids in the area were well fed and although our clothing was full of patches they were clean, families would swap old clothing with other families especially when the kids had out grown them. We lived in real communities were everyone looked for each other, local shops were small family owned used passed down from the parents.Everybody knew each other and usually each others business.
the Kids usually all went to same local primary,junior or senior school unless you went to a domination school or won a scholarship to grammar school.
Yes we lived by todays standards in the Darkages,I think there one television in our street a black and white 14inch tube set that used to take around 10minutes to warm up, no and only 1 channel to watch at first,nobody owned a car even if they could drive.there was a bus service with buses every 20 minutes or so.Yes times were tough but a lot slower than today.

to be continued.........

A Loving family
By
Jacquimac

Pt Two

Childhood and Schooldays

When I eventually joined my family in England and found I had a Sister who 4 1/2 yrs old and a 6 month old brother, I spoke with a thick Glaswegian accent and except for my parents people had difficulty understanding what I was saying, you`d have thought I was from a foreign country the way everybody acted,mind you I had trouble sometimes with the regional accent.School was especially difficult at first as the teachers didn`t have any patience with me and I was continually ridiculed in front of the class.

That wasn`t the only way I ridiculed at school,It would start with the first class of day when the register was taken,The girls who were always called by they`re christian names were called out first, then the boys who were always called by they`re surnames.This was the usual format in all schools, but in our class I was the exception to the rule.I had been called John by my parents after an uncle but was usually call Jacky as uncle john was usually called Jack,I suppose it stopped any confusion when the family got together as they did for wedding or any other major family get together.

Sport was compulsory at school and for the boys there was choice of Football or Rugby both of which were contact sports though Rugby was more like a demolition rally, Football didn`t have as much contact but could still get rough with tackles, which left Cricket and that was non-starter as I could never see the balled once it left the bowlers hand,I wore spectacles so my eyesight wasn`t particularly good and I had to be careful not to get them broken as I didn`t have a spare pair.Because I could play the sports that were played at school and becuase sport was compulsory this led to further embarressment as the only sport deemed as non-contact was Netball which was girls sport although it was a minor embarressment what made it worse was that I had to comply with dress code which meant white vest,navy blue knickers, white knee socksand white plimsoles like the girls wore.This along with the fact that I to change with boys earned me the name Sissy,imagine a load of boys in the sports jerseys,shorts and boots and one wearing a girls vest and knickers.Sometimes the other boys would get violent and when I fought back I was the only one to get blamed and punished.When I told parents what was happening all they said was "tough , I had to comply with school dress code and that if I didn`t start fights with the others i would be left alone", so much for parental support.
I suppose if they had brought me up themselves instead of leaving with my one of my grandmothers things might have been different.

I did excel academically and the only other activity other than sport we had to take was scottish dancing, which I was damned good at having been taught it at school in Scotland and being a Scot of which i`m proud I enjoyed showning of the boys rest up.A couple of weeks after the dance classes started another 2 boys joined the school which meant there was a shortage of girls and this initially caused a bit of problem.The problem was eventually sorted out by a meeting of the teachers.it was decided that since I was playing netball with the girls, I would take the place of a girl in the dance classes to which I tried to no avail fight against.The dance teacher said that as I could already do the dances beiing taught I would now learn how to dance as girl.

to be continued......

A Loving family
By
Jacquimac
Pt Three

Childhood and Schooldays Continued

School was getting worse everyday,I singled out by the teachers as a troublemaker,I was forced to play netball dressed like a girl in vest and knickers and now I had to wear a dress in dance class, this carried on all through Primary and junior school.
After school no one play with me so I used to bury my head in a book, some of the neighbours saw how the other kids treated me as tried to get them to play with me but the kids refuses saying they wouldn`t play with a sissy.
Home life was even harder I suppose if i hadn`t been brought up by my grandmother for most of the first 6 years of my like things might have been different.My sister was daddy`s little princess and my brother was my mothers favorite,if they did anything wrong it was immediately my fault and I would be giving a thrashing.

I would still have to attend school covered in cuts and bruises but nobody cared,sometimes I was so sore I could barely move but I would still have to attend school.When we started swimming lessons the bruising would be even more apparent but the cold water would lessen the pain and stiffness a bit.Eventually I did get start to get a few friends but they all girls, i would watch them playing they`re games like hopscotch or skipping but would just and watch,some of them would sit and talk to me while they were waiting they`re turn.
At the end of Junior school we could pick our choice of schools in the area, and as the other kids were going to grammar school or attending the local secondary modern, I opted for one about 6 miles away, there it was great for the first year, as well as the usual lessons we also had craft lessons which meant boys did woodwork and metalwork and the girls did cooking and sewing.Yes the first year was good, nobody bullied me and I could do the same lesson the other boys did, well except for sport but I didn`t have to do the girls sports at this school I was one of boys, but that was about to change.

The Education Authority to save money started to close some of the older victorian schools down and one of the schools first to be closed was the one I had avoided.About 1/2 of the pupils form that school were now sent to the new school were I was already attending along with a few of the teachers.The school as I said was about 6 miles way, a long walk especially in the winter and get a bus to reach there meant first getting a bus into town.I`m sure my parents were masochists as they made me walk to school were the other kids got the bus,so I had to leave home a 7am to get to school by 9am.The other kids thought it was funny when I arrived and it was raining and I was soaked through to the skin. One day it was like a monsoon and I got to school with the water was running out of my clothes, everybody teachers included though it was hilarious,there was one teacher a Miss Wright who taught English was a kindly soul and sent me to the school secretary to see if they find something dry for me to put on.Oh yes they found something alright it seems that a couple of pupils that had attended the school the year before and had since left had donated all they`re school uniforms,so I was given a box with a complete uniform including regulation underwear.I was taken to empty room and told to change and bring my wet clothes to the office, when I inspected the I found it to contain a GIRLS uniform, I too it back to the office and told them it was a mistake, I was then told in no uncertain terms by the deputy head that was all there was and I would have to wear it.when I refused the Deputy head and the secretary dragged me into the empty room stripped me and dressed me in the dry uniform.I tried to fight them but with my size compared to their`s what is the borg say "Resistance Is Futile" .In the early 60`s you didn`t go to school with long hair but as I had suffered a scalp injury a few months earlier and was excused haircuts until my head became less sensative my hair was almost as long as most of the girls, so as well as having to wear to girls uniform as punishment for trying to defy the deputy head I ahd to suffer the further indignity fo having ribbons put in my hair. I was then dragged off to my next Class to be confronted by a room full a laughing a jeering pupils.

A Loving family
By
Jacquimac

Pt Four
Childhood and Schooldays Continued

When the laughter and jeering died down, the class teacher told me take my seat,when I went to my usual desk the teacher asked were I was going, when I told him to my desk,he sneered and told me to sit on the other side of the class with rest of girls.
This carried on for the rest of day,when school finally ended for the day I went to the office to retrieve my hopefully dry clothing, when I had changed i returned to the office to hand back the uniform I had been forced to wear that day and was told to keep it my longer, that I would more than likely end up wearing it again.On exiting the building I ran into a group of boys who started the usual name calling but I just kept on walking,one of them punched me in the shoulder and I turned to face him. Even though he towered above me I wasn`t afraid of him and before I realised what was going on I had let my anger explode from me and ended fighting and him getting the worse of it.
My problem lay with my gallic temper, once I started to see red I couldn`t stop and sometimes my opponent could be seriously hurt.
Eventually we forced apart with two of teacher holding me down, my opponent was being taken into the school to be cleaned up.

When I calmed down I was dragged to headmasters office and the police and my parents were called, my parents weren`t pleased to be called out work and one thing led to another and i was taken into custody by the police.At 12yrs old this is frightning,but from the police and legal system you expect justice.I ended up being sent to facility for pschyciatic evaluation.when we attended court six weeks laterit was stated that I was emotionally unstable a habitual liar and a danger to those around me, this resulted in me be sent to home for the mentally unstable.It was like everything that I told the shrinks was totally ignored,nobody cared what had happened to me over the years and it looked like I had been abandoned my my parents.During the next year I was subject to test after test and went along with doctors and nurses not like I really any choice,about a year later i was moved to another home were I eventually managed to run away.
Once out of the gates I ran like the hounds of hell were chasing me till I was well out sight that the home. I might have seemed stupid running away in the middle of December but the way I figured it was that it being late in the afternoon and it would be dark by around 5pm it would be harder to find me. There was large wood about 10miles away from the home so I headed there to think out what to do next.Yes I really plan ahead, heres me 13yrs in the middle of winter with just the clothes on my back, no food, no money and nowhere to go,my former jailers only 10 miles away,most probably the police were looking for me,but there was no way I going to go back at least not with a fight or dead.It was a bitterly cold night with temperatures below zero I was in real trouble, as soon as I had rested for about 20minutes I carried on through the woods.
I don`t remember how long I walked or how far before I found shelter, it was an Old hut miles from nowhere.I entered the hut and finding a load of empty sacks contrived to make myself as comfortable as I could.The cold had taken it`s toll and I fell into unconsciousness,I was discovered the next day and taken to hospital and on awakening found myself handcuffed to the bed.I was eventually returned to the mental home and transferred to a more secure facility were I was subjected to more interviews with a different bunch of shrinks,i found out later that some of older ones wanted me to be Lobotomised in order to control me instead I was given a regime of pshycotherapy and more pacifying drugs. Eventually I learned it was useless to resist and if I was ever going to get out of here I needed to control my temper.

A Loving family
By
Jacquimac

Pt Five

Freedom

I was 21 when I was eventually released from the mental home,a job and a place to live had been found for me,I now lived in a bedsit and the job in a factory and consisted of sweeping floors and emptying bins.I managed to enrol in nightschool to get my education up to a more acceptable level as I realised that my education was severely lacking.I was quick learner and very soon I had caught up, my tutors suggested that I enrol at the local college to get some qualification so I went along to see what I could what courses I could get.The local college was affiliated to a nearby University and I was told that with hard work I would be able to attain a degree, the problem was as I had been confined for so long I didn`t really know what a normal life was like.I talked to councillor and as I was competative and because of size and build It came down to some sort of office work.After looking at the options we finally decided on business studies with a secretarial course thrown in.they even managed to get me grant and sponsorship from a local business.

It wasn`t easy to hold down job even it was now part-time and study at the same time, but as I didn`t socialise i managed it took me three years gain my qualifications, a degree in business Management a certificate in basic secretarial duties.I now had to find a job to match qualifications which was extremely difficult thanks to being registered as having a mental disability.I did however manage to a secretarial job with the help of local mental health charity on the provision that I carried on at nightschool to gain the full secretarial qualification.The work could have been carried out by a school leaver as it was really an office boys job, but at least it was rung on the ladder.

At first it was fetch and carry with a bit of filing but as time went on I was filling in for people who were absent for one reason or another and always under the eye of Sarah the office manager.I didn`t have much to with the rest of staff and kept to myself not because I wanted it that way,they had heard about my background or should I say what the reports from the mental homes said and were wary of me.The staff usually took they`re coffee breaks at they`re desk, but at lunch time we used the canteen, everyone with they`re little groups of friends and me sitting alone at a table in the corner.watching everyone laughing and joking with each other makes loneliness that little unbearable so I started going and having my lunch on one of benches in front of building.Hail rain or snow I would be sitting on the bench 5 days a week at lunch time,eventually one of department supervisors asked why I did this even in bad weather so I told her.

I found she was called Marjory and she asked why someone of age was in such a junior position so I told her my story,after listening she informed me that the girls in the offices had been told something different and that was why they treated as they did.
Marjory said that she was having a staff meeting before we finished work on friday and would stay behind as she would introduce me to her department in the proper manner, she also said that there would be an opening in her deparment soon for a fully qualifide secretary and she would talk to Sarah to see if I could get the position.I thanked her but told her not to get into any trouble on my account as I wouldn`t like her to lose her job.

Friday came and after work I was introduced to all the women in marjory`s dept,there were one or two who seemed to still be wary of me but on the whole the majority of them apologised for as they said giving me the cold shoulder but I told them I understood and didn`t bear a grudge.The next few weeks went by a couple of girls started in Marjory`s dept so I reckoned that Sarah had Vetoed Marjory`s request although neither of them said anything and as far as I was concerned it was business as usual.Then one day I sent for by the Personnel Officer who informed me that as from the following monday I was being moved to another building but my job and pay would change.I didn`t know it but the company had branched out in a new area business.I was handed a envelope which I was told held everything I needed to know about the new office building, how to get there,who to report to and to retain my present ID card until a new one was processed.I was now 26 and seemed to be getting somewhere,I knew it would be difficult if not impossible to put my past behind but I had to find some balance somehow. somewhere and this seemed a good place to start.

From a life torn apart
I`ll make a brand new start
The loneliness cannot last
don`t to look to the past
Just keep going ahead

A Loving family
By
Jacquimac

Pt Six

A new Beginning

I arrive at my new place of work at 8 am as I wanted to make sure I got to the right place, to check in with security and to see about my new ID.The security guard took my Old ID card of me and handed me a temporary on, he told me that the card were also swipe cards to enter the building and showed me how to use it.At the reception desk I introduced myself and was told to take a seat, a few minutes later a young lady arrived and after handing me a booklet took me on a tour of the building and explained procedures for getting into secured areas. Eventually we arrived on the top floor and I taken to the Personnel Office and asked to wait,I thanked the young lady and she left.

At Exactly 9am the personnel officer asked me to enter his office and have a seat,we talked for about an hour and 10am Marjory entered the office,after greetings all round she asked me to follow her to her office.Marjory explained to me that she hadn`t forgot her promise to talk to Sarah about me and the position she offered, but after her last managers meeting had been told not to say anything to me.I thanked her and told her that I thought she being too busy with the increased work load she might not have had time to talk to Sarah.In reality I had no trust in other people no matter how trusting and sincere they appeared, too many times i had been fooled into thinking I was safe.

The rest of day I spent setting the new office I was assigned to, there was a desk for secretary just outside the door and I supposed that it was were I was to work from, I still hadn`t been told what my new position was to be.Everybody was setting furniture and other things into place, we had to up and running ready for the new clients in four weeks and boy were we pushed everybody from the top to the cleaners were doing 12 hour shifts 7 days a week for 2 weeks, but we finally got everything in place the next 2 weeks assigning staff as teams and for training.Midway through the final week the new CEO started to meet with all the office staff on an individual basis.

When I met the CEO Philip Andrews I got one hell of a shock,I had thought that I would end up doing secretarial work instead I was going to an assistant to the senior accounts manager with a very large increase in wages.Before were my pay left me  £2 or  £3 a week spare my wage were going to more than double and after 6 months my performance would be look at with the possibllity of further promotion.Mr Philips stated he had a doctor examine all the medical reports and that a further investigation was to held as the Psychiatric reports form various doctors conflicted with each other so much other that they had been thrown into doubt.
After I left the meeting I felt as though a great weight had been lifted from my shoulders and hopefully I would have a much a better future,I knew however that it depended on me how my new career either advanced or ended.

That night I called into the local fish & chip shop rather can cook something out of tin or a packet as I usually did then went home to my dreary one room bedsit,Hopefully after my next performance revue I would be able to look for a better place to live hopefully somewhere nearer the office and quieter with no gangs of thugs roaming the area at night.First thing I had to do what get some clothing for work but I`d ask for advice on that tomorrow when I met my new boss who I was to meet at the personnel office in the morning.

The next few months were a time of learning for me and after my revue I met with CEO again after which I took over the department completely, my boss had retired and the company was branching out again. I managed to get a few multimillion accounts by listening to team , listening to heads of the other departments and studying the options I soon found out which contracts to take and which to reject.This earned me a huge bonus with which I bought a small house in a respectable area about 2 miles away,I now had a company car and even better I had a few friends.I still met Sarah and Marjory every weekend, although I did`nt smake or drink alcohol Iwould go to they`re houses for meals and I would entertain them at my home.

I was 30 yrs old when everything started to wrong in my life,It wasn`t anything to do with work.
It was nice warm day in June and I decided to have lunch outside in the local garden area with a few of my departmental managers,we had bit of laugh and enjoyed the weather.As we were entering the building I notice a slab of concrete crack of a couple of women were underneath it and I pushed them out of the way and tripped.I came to in hospital a few weeks later and immediatley panicked,I tried to get out bed and pulled out most of the tubing that had been stuck into me.This set of alarms at the nurses station and they found me lying on the floor still trying to get out of the room,as soon the doctor arrived he sedated me and sometime later I came round and found myself secured to the bed with tubes once again sticking out of me.

A Loving family
By
Jacquimac

Pt Seven

A new Beginning

Sarah and Marjory visited a couple of days of my panic attack, after greeting each other we chatted for a while, I still had no idea how or why i came to be in hospital.The two women looked at each other in surprise, they were shocked that nobody had me about the accident.Sarah whispered something to Marjory that I didn`t catch and left to find the doctor who handling my case.I asked Marjory what was going on and she said to wait till the doctor arrived which he did about 30 mins later.He was accompanied my another much older doctor and a nurse carrying a covered tray.He asked the girls to wait in the office for a while,so Sarah & Marjory left the room.

The 2 doctors moved into a corner with the medical notes provided by the nurse, a short time later another pair of doctors arrived and they went outside the room for a conferance.I asked the nurse what was going on and she just shrugged her shoulders.When the doctors returned they asked the nurse to removed all my dressings, then started examining my injuries,they still acted as if I was lump a meat on a butchers slab.Once they had finished the Oldest of them introduced himself and his collegues, he was shrink, there were 2 specialist surgeons and a medical physician and they with a team of nurses and other specialist were responsible for my treatment and after care.Apparently I was in private hospital and all medical bills were being met by parties unknown to them.I was informed that due to nature of my injuries I would be under they`re care for many months to come with prolonged after care.

The nurse gave me and injection and told me that they were preparing me for further surgery, I still had no idea what the extent of my injuries were or what injuries I had recieved.I tried asking the nurse but my mouth didn`t want to work as the anaesthetic took affect.
I don`t know how long I was in surgery in fact I didn`t even know how long ago I had been injured and nobody saw fit to inform me.
Over the next few weeks I had been operated on several times I had been told that my condition had been stabalised during the first few days and that all major surgery was completed but that some surgeries were likely.

Every time I recovered an operation the shrink was there asking question after question but not giving me any answers to any of my questions.All he would say was that all my questions would be answered in time.Every day was the same, a nurse would come in and feed me,I would be given a daily bed bath,dressing would be removed while the surgeons examined, dressing replaced,fed again at the meal, watch TV for while, and fed again.I would be given whatever medication I was prescribed at intervals and slept quite a bit.
I was ready to go insane with all the inactivity,I was no visitors for some time and was still starpped to the bed, so that i didn`t undo the surgeons work.

Weeks went by and after another morning of examinations the case doctors decided that I was fit to start Physiotherapy.They finally answered my questions.My injuries hadn`t been caused by the falling concrete but bu the rods that held it in position. they had penetrated my body in various places but thankfully missed any major organs.The trauma form the injuries had caused severe tissue and nerve damage, which is why I had so much surgery done.The shrink asked the other doctors to leave, then he pulled up a chair,sat down and told me I would have to be strong as one injury couldn`t be repaired.He told me that the restraints would remain in place until he could be sure I wouldn`t hurt either myself or others.He then informed that my genitalia had been damaged beyond repair, I was stunned, I asked him to repeat what he said and he confirmwd what I had heard the first time. I could`nt believe I was so calm, at least I was still alive even if was as I thought sexless.

I was left with thoughts seeing no one except for meals and medication for the rest of the day, I still couldn`t understand why I was so calm.The next morning thr restraints were removed and after a light breakfast (if you haven`t eaten Hospital food your not missing much) I had a visit from one of physiotherapists, who told me what my recovery program as far her department consisted of,I new that with being inactive for so long it would be a while before I was fit again and that even more hardship was ahead.
All I could do was keeping going and deal with problems as they arose

A Loving family
By
Jacquimac

Pt Eight

A new Beginning

The next day found me being tortured by the physiotherapist until lunch time,then I had my first visitors for over a week.Sarah and Marjory entered the room accompanied by the Philip Andrews the CEO.After the usual greetings and enquiries on how I was feeling.The CEO informed that as I was going to unable to work for the unseeable future,I had been replaced at work.he did assure me that I would still receive my pay and that a position would be found for me on my return to work.The company were in the process of suing the contractors the worked on the buildings facade on my behalf,we chatted for a while longer and after apologising for not being to spend more time talking he left.

The girls hadn`t uttered a word while the CEO was present,but as soon as he left they opened up.The people who had been present at the time of accident sent they`re best wishes and were sorting out who would come and visit and when since visiting restrictions had been lifted.Marjory asked what injuries I had received and they both went white with shock when I told them,I explained that the surgeons were unable to replace my male sex organs and had given me option of remaining as I was sexless or having a surgically made vagina and becoming female,a decision I had yet to make.Sarah asked if the company had been notified and I told her that the company medical officer was being sent a full report when I made my choice.

Both girls stated that whatever choice I made they give me they`re full support,at this point I burst out laughing and the girls seemed upset.I apologised and explained that I wasn`t laughing at them.I told them about my childhood, and how people punished me by forcing me to dress as a girl.Now it seems that life hasn`t left me much choice,I would have urinate sitting down as a woman would,male underwear wouldn`t fit me anymore as they were made in such a way to accomodate one`s manhood, which I no longer possessed, so It looks like I will end up as the shrink and surgeon suggested becoming female.

I knew a decision had to made and soon,my body no longer testosterone and blood tests showed that my adapting by producing more eostrogen.Depending on the decision I made I would have to take some sort of hormone replacement for life or eventually die.Death didn`t frighten me, some times had been so badly that I actually wished for death to take me.I had always found it harder to live and I had never had a normal life,always even by those who were supposed to love and protect I was mistreated and abused both mentally and physically. After a couple of hours talking with the girls they left and said they would return the next day,I asked them not to return until the following monday as I had some serious thinking to do and they agreed.They asked for the keys to my home so they could check on things for me,so I gave them the keys and they left.

3 months have gone by and I have finished with physiotherapy,I made ny decision under went the neccessary surgery to make me female.Everyday Sarah and Marjory visited, they seemed happy with my decision and are being supportive later on today when they get sometime from work they are picking me up and taking me home.I`ll be glad to see get away from here after 5 months.
I will take a couple of weeks off before I contact work and see about starting back doing what I haven`t a clue.I know it`s going to be difficult not least because of my new gender.

The 2 girls picked me up at the hospital but we didn`t go my place as I expected, I was taken to a friend of Sarah`s who lived near me.I had rough idea were we ended up, but not knowing the area very well even though I had lived here for 2yrs.Except for work i didn`t mix with people so it was case of going to work and coming home,I didn`t even know who my neighbours were as I had trouble with trusting people and those I did trust i was still skeptical of at times.

Sarah introduced me to Beverly who Sarah informed me would be helping me to adapt to my new life during the next few weeks.Beverly made a pot of coffee and one of tea so we could all talk while relaxing,I was asked if there was anything at home that I wanted,when I asked why Marjory said that they were getting rid of everything as I wouldn`t need it anymore and the house was to sold in order for me to move to a newer property.This surprised me and I asked on who`s authority they were doing this,they all looked startled.admittedly there was nothing in house that was any use to me.All the clothing was male and no longer required, all the furniture what there was of it was second hand and not in the best condition it did it`s job but that was all,the only thing I had bought when I moved in was a new bed.The house itself still needed some minor repairs to it, repairs that were due to be started but for the accident.

A Loving family
By
Jacquimac
Pt Nine
A new Beginning
I thought about for a few minutes and said there was nothing I needed except for a file containing some personal papers,I apologised to them for being so abrupt and Sarah told me that she had been told that I had been informed about the selling of the house.I was given a box that contained all my mail,I didn`t have any bills as they were all paid by standing orders throught my bank,so the box just contained junk mail easy to dispose of into the dustbin.

After Sarah left Beverly showed me to the bedroom I would be using,I didn`t have anything to unpack so we went back to the lounge were she explained what would be happening during my stay.I would be taken to a store that she owned and fitted out with a complete wardrobe, after that I would be learning how to walk,talk,about fashion,how to apply makeup etc, everything a woman would know to enable me to function in the world.I realise that I would have to learn a whole new way of live, but I didn`t have much choice .She explained that she would teach me about clothing and fashion and that several others would be helping me.

Days turned into weeks and weeks into months and finally it was declared that I was now ready to face the world.Christmas was about a week away but I had never celebrated it,the girls were looking forward to christmas and seemed a bit put out that I didn`t show any enthusiasm about the so called season of goodwill.I explained to them that I knew nothing about christmas and never celebrated it, Marjory said just think it`s your birthday and the whole world is at the party,laughing I told her I never celebrated that either and that I had to look at my birth certificate just to remember my date of birth.

Did I come from another planet?? they gave me a really weird look and if there was anything I celebrated and they all amazed when I asked "Whats is there worth celebrating". Beverly said that I surly celebrated things with my family and I told her I hadn`t when I was with them.She didn`t know my background so I told her that I was one of lifes real losers until I started my last joband that except for in the office at work the only socialising i did was when Sarah, Marjory or myself invited the others round for a meal.I wasn`t a people magnet and got on better with animals.2 days after Christmas day Sarah and Marjory collected myself and Beverly around 10am, we drove for about 1/2 an hour and arrived at a newly built housing developement.

The area had about 30 to 40 houses and a few other buildings, there was only one house that appeared occupied going by there curtains and vases of flowers in the window but a few others looked like people were slowly moving into them.I wasn`t surprised when the door opened as we approached and we were greeted by a very smartly dressed young woman who introduced herself as Jeanette,we were shown in and given a tour of the property ,there was a lounge,dining room, a well equiped kitchen,laundy room and various smaller rooms on the ground floor,Upstairs had 5 bedrooms with large fitted closets 2 bathrooms and a couple of smaller storage rooms.There was also a ladder that was hidden in what appeared to be a cupboard that led to loft.The house also had large gardens front and rear and a double garage.I was asked by Jeanette what I thought of it and I said it was nice.She then hande me a clipboard to read which I did, but I was very surprised when I was asked to sign a bunch of documents.I asked what I was signing for and told I was signing for the house and contents,I looked at her bewildered until she explained that she worked for the Legal dept.I still hadn`t a clue what was going on so she made a phone and we then had to wait for her boss to arrive.When he arrived and introduced himself as Daniel we moved into the lounge and then he started explain everything from the day of accident.

There had been of the front of the building some sort of concrete statue fastened to the wall by steel rods about half way up the wall.the rods had pulled away due them not being strong enough to hold the weight, nobody is sure why they tore out of the wall or the statue but they did.although I had pushed everyone out of the way of the falling wreckage a couple of the rods landed on they`re end and bounced,it was these rods that caused my injuries.As the company knew what my health records contained and the then ongoing investigation into my previous treatment by mental health officials, they were advised to apply to courts under the Mental Health Act 1959 to gain power of attorney on my behalf, which they did and as well as handling my day to affairs they also placed lawsuits against the Corporation that built the office building.

Basically Daniel told me that my previous mental history had been looked into and they found that the so called experts ahd been incompetant and just took my parents statements as face value, so all medical records were ordered by the courts to be amended and sealed.the court case was settled out of court with a very large settlement,and all medical bills for anything caused by the accident and subsequent recovery was also met. A few other details were dealt with and he asked if I was satisfied with the house, I said yes and after looking over everything I signed for the property and contents.He took me out to the garage and opened the door to reveal a new car, I laughed and asked what it was for as I didn`t drive and due to my mental health records wasn`t allowed to hold a driving licence.
He reminded me that the only all my old mental health records ahd been wiped clean and the only records were appertaining to the accident and its aftermath.

A Loving Family

By
Jacquimac
Pt Ten

A new Beginning

After the christmas holidays I went into the office for a meeting with Daniel from the legal dept,hopefully everything would be resolved and become clearer to me,I didn`t have much cash in my purse,no credit cards and no cheque book.I also didn`t know if I still had a job as they had filled the position I had held due to the length of time it took me to recover.When I was shown into the conference room Daniel came over and welcomed me he then proceeded to introduce the others that were present.Matthew the Companies Chief Medical Advisor,
A Mr Watkins the lawyer representing the construction firm,Jeanette who I had already met who would be helping me with finalising all the documentation,and Mr Devlin who was the local branch manager of the bank I had my account with.

The meeting proceeded well and was over by lunch time and all parties seemed seemed happy with the resutls, not least myself as I had been awarded  £4.5million in compensation as well as the cost of everything else.The only provision was that I didn`t disclose any particulars of the deal to the press,Daniel suggested that any approach by the any of the Media be referred to him and he would give a statement that had already been agreed to by all parties,of course I agreed as I didn`t know how to deal with the Media.

Mr Devlin the bank manager handed me a new Cheque Book,Credit Card and my new bank details, my old account had been closed and a new one opened under my new identity,he also handed a bundle of bank notes to tied me over as he put it and suggested that I make an appointment to see about investing some of the money.After the meeting we all shook hands and with the exception of Daniel and Jeanette they all left.We talked for a while and then I asked them to accompany me to lunch which they agreed to after making sure they had no further appointments for the day.

After lunch I went in to see personnel or as it was now called "Human Resouces" to find out about work prospects.The new HR manager was called Steve and he said he had been expecting me.He informed me that the company was now a lot bigger thanks to business picking up with quite a few Overseas clients.A brand new office complex had just been completed not far from where i now lived and I was being moved there,It was going to the corporate headquarters and I would be working there with all new staff except for the dept managers some of who i already new.Sarah and Marjory had been promoted and would be working directly under me,although they hadn`t yet been told.They had been told they were moving to new site but not what they were going to be doing, they were due to be informed later that day.

The new complex with the exception of the security and ground/maintainance staff were all female which surprised me,but it turned out that the majority of the work that would processed there was for companies that were owned by women.I was to be in charge of the department that dealt with these companies.I was given the details of were the new site was along with a new ID card and Steve then told me that I was to have a look around around my old office and see if there was anyone there I would like to have on my staff.I got an appointment with the bank and invested half of the money in my account after seeking independant advice as stocks and shares were a complete mystery to me.

I hadn`t looked in my closets thoroughly so when I reached home I had a good through to see what they contained, there was plenty of clothing for all occasions with matching accessories and shoes.As I checked through the closets I found several suits that were suitable for work so I didn`t have to go on a spending spree,there was plenty of jewellry though I couldn`t tell if it cheap or expensive, but a lot of seemed ok and flashy,the cosmetics were expensive brands, so all in all I pretty well had everything I needed.

I invited Sarah,Marjory,Beverly and Jeanette to stay over for the weekend and they had accepted.Sarah,Marjory had young children and I said to fetch them along if they liked but they made arrangements for them to stay with family members for the weekend so that left us free to do whatever we wanted.As they were arriving straight from work I planned to take them to a nearby restaurant which I was told was pretty good but expensive, well the cost wouldn`t bother me not with my bank balance.I called into an upmarket jewellers and bought each of them a matching set of jewellry with they`re birthstones set into each piece as thank you for all the help and support they had given me.

On Friday evening they all arrived, I showed them to they`re rooms and let them freshen up and couple of hours later we were sat in the restaurant enjoying an excellent meal.After the meal I gave them each they`re gifts and told them I had appreciated all they`re help and support even though at times I had been pretty nasty to them.They said they understood and that having to go through a life change so quickly they expected me to be a lot worse.When we got back to the house I made tea or coffee as they preferred and we talked about the working for the company,Sarah, Marjory and Jeanette told me they had all been promoted and were moving to a new complex.
I congratulated them, and Marjory told me they had a new boss but didn`t know who she was, she seemed a bit put out,I smiled at this and Jeanette catching the smile shouted "you know don`t you" so I came clean and told them I was they`re new boss.

A Loving Family

By
Jacquimac
Pt Eleven

A New Start in life

The following day we decided to go shopping,Sarah was the first to be ready and had decided she would drive.Ihad finished getting ready and asked her to go to garage with me.I opened the garage door and told her to take her pick,she was surprised and chose the bigger of two cars or the " Jag " as she called it.She asked why I had two cars when I didn`t drive so I told her they came with the house.She looked at me and said that I had done pretty well out of deal,all I could was agree but i couldn`t tell her how well.Eventually the other three girls joined us and after locking everything up we drove off to town.

On the way Beverly who knew I was still a bit uneasy shopping for womens clothing assured me that everything would be OK and reminded me I wasn`t on my own.what started out as a nervous day turned out to be a fun day,we shopped till we were hungry then shopped till the stores closed then went home.Everyone had got what they wanted which wasn`t as much as I thought the whole day only cost me a couple of thousand.Considering that Jeanette knew how much I was now worth she only picked out a couple skirts and bloused.I wasn`t worried about spending money but after seeing that the girls hadn`t got that much I realised they weren`t going to take advantage of me.

The shopping trip had finally taught me that not everyone is bad ,it was new experience having people I could finally trust.It had taken me a long time but I was getting there.The rest of weekend we just sat around and talked watched some TV and a couple of videos.
We didn`t have to be in work till tuesday,so monday we cleaned up the weekend wreckage and then they went Sarah and Marjory picking up they`re children on the way.

Tuesday arrived and we met in staff canteen for coffee before everything got started,for the next couple of weeks all the contracts were staying at the other building until all staff had bee through the induction procedure. We had a staff of 200 not including myself and the other 10 managers, the first day was taken up with introductions and organising the 8 teams so they could get to know one another.
As I already the managers I still had to meet with the rest of the women and 200 interviews were going to take the best part of the week,
all in all they seemed to be enthusiastic about the new set up and the facilities provided.

As all the managerial staff had been through the induction it meant that I could talk to each them during the morning and start the other interviews in the afternoon.Sarah and Marjory weren`t required for interview by me so they could interview each of they`re 4 junior managers.As the first day was for the 200 women to go through the security briefing and get their new ID`s we set up 11 offices ready for the interviews to start the next day, so I interviewed the 8 junior managers.At the end of the day I got all the managers together in the canteen and told them that I thought the first day went well and thought we would all work well together,I then allowed Sarah and Marjory to have their say and then we all went home.

The rest of the week as I said was taken up with various induction lectures, interviews and setting up each of the eight teams of 25 under a junior manager.Once each team was set they began the task of getting their work stations set up to their individual preferences, the only thing I banned from the desks was any thing containing liquids that might damage the word processors if there was an accidental spill,but they seemed satisfied with that.By close of play on friday everyone was tired but morale seemed high,I had an open door policyand only had to deal with one or two minor problems.I went down to reception were I waited for my taxi and finally reached home at around 6.30pm.

Monday arrived all too soon and the task of setting up continued,Trucks arrived carrying boxes of files that needed filed in they`re respective cabinets.The team managers took charge of that and each truck was soon on it`s way empty,which left Sarah,Marjory and myself to deal with more difficult problems.There were a few problems with the team placements but with shifting a few people around we sorted that out,and by the end of day everyone was ready to home.This went on for the rest of week and surprisingly except for a few petty squabbles it looked like each team had settled down,well monday was the big day so I felt the first few weeks were critical and some reshuffling might be needed but on the whole and after talking to all the managers I felt sure that we ready for anything that came our way.

After the first few weeks each team had finally finished shuffling people around and worked in tight knit teams, occassionally teams would work together on various projects.We worked a happy enviroment with happy people who supported each other when things got tough.A fully day care nursery was set up and mothers could either leave their children there or we would try and arrange their working hours to suit them.

A Loving Family

By
Jacquimac
Pt Twelve

A New Start in life

The big day arrived and I arrived an hour early, much to my surprise all the other managers arrived a few minutes later, we all a got a drink either tea or coffee and move into my office and they all expected a pep talk , but all I said was that I had confidence in their abilities and that the first few weeks were going to start slowly and the work load would build up gradually until we going flat out.
I reminded them that there was Sarah, Marjory and myself if they had any queries or problems that they couldn`t deal with.

After they all left my office I sat and reflected on my life and considering the poor start I had things were looking up, at very least they couldn`t get worse that what I`d been through.Here I was 30yrs old and moving up in the world.I had a beautiful home a very healthy bank balance and most of I had friends that I loved and trusted.I hadn`t even in my wildest dreams have thought I would end up changing sex, but overall I was satisfied.

The CEO arrived for an informal visit to the department and seemed impressed with the way we had set everything up,once I had taken him around initially I suggested that I left so he could talk to any of the staff without the staff feeling intimidated, to which he agreed.A couple of hours later he arrived back at my office and told me that he thought we had a good set up and that everyone he talked to seemed happy with everything.He then brought the subject of what had happened to me and we talked for a while,one thing he did ask me was if I felt comfortable in my new gender, I told him I did but that I would have as a male if I had been able.I thanked him for everything the Company had done on by behalf and he just shrugged it off, saying he would have done it for any of his staff.

Months went by and everything was going exceedingly well, I had met most of owners of the various companies we did work for and were on first name terms with quite a lot of them.They were impressed with our set up and the way the teams worked.As some of companies were local we decided we would get together with them and have a fun weekend, my idea was that the managers form the various companies and ours could meet they`re counterparts and meet each other staff.The weekend happened and it was very successful and would hopefully be repeated each year.

One thing I did request was that Daniel,Jeanette and few of the Legal dept set up a new department, as were starting to get more and more business from abroad I felt that we should have a our specialists in various aspects of international law. It was agreed and now we had to find suitable office space for them.Daniel called me and if he could come over and see me so I agreed, about an hour later he arrived accompanied by Jeanette,we hashed out what he equipment was required, found offices that would suitable and all the details that we think of. I made a call to the company and asked about financing the requirements for Daniels dept as was informed that there was no problem and just to submit the necessary requirements,I was also informed that Daniel would be given his own budget for the running of the new dept.

A year later and we had double the amount staff in the department,Daniel had left a few weeks ago for family reasons and Jeanette was now in charge of the legal dept with a staff of 50. It had been decided that we would a Grand Ball to celebrate and the company were paying for it, to be honest I was looking forward to it. I had finally become used to my new gender and had been on a shopping spree with of girls for a ballgown,I hadn`t seen anything I liked in any of stores so I talked to a dress designer and after looking at her designed and found one I liked had her make for me. The dress and accessories cost me around  £5000 in total which I didn`t mind, I wasn`t going to go looking like something the cat dragged in.

The day of ball arrived, during the morning I cleaned the house after lunch I showered and headed for my appointment at the beauty parlour. I returned home 3 hours later, laid out my gown and accessories then relaxed until it was time to get ready.A couple of the that had a good bit to travel girls arrived with their husbands or dates, I showed them their rooms and left them to their own devices until it was time to get ready. We were due to leave at around 7.30pm and I had hired 2 Rolls-Royces and drivers for the evening so that we could arrive in style.

We arrived at the venue just before 7.50 and I waited till the others had entered under the pretext of giving the drivers they`re instruction, The drivers ahd already been told been told to arrive back by 2 am, what I was actually doing was slipping each driver  £50 so that could a meal they knew they were in line for a bonus if they didn`t screw up so I knew they wouldn`t be drinking. I left the car amd entered the venue alone as I didn`t have a date not that it bothered me but I expected that I wouldn`t be only one, I had attended as I felt it was expected with me being their boss.

The venue was a huge undercover sports arena, there was area were you have a meal and around the arena several bars, with the main area being taken over with a stage for the bands and a dance floor.When I entered I handed in my invitation and was taken to a table that had been reserved for the top management, I wasn`t surprised to the CEO and his wife Abigail in attendance along with 2 other executives Leon Jeffries and his wife Joan, and Richard Gibson.

A Loving Family

By
Jacquimac
Pt Thirteen

A New Start in life

Richard hadn`t hadn`t been with the company more than 3 months and I didn`t know a great deal about him other than he was some sort of Financial Wizard.During the first part of the evening I moved around spending a few minutes socialising with as many people as I could,I saw that the other managers were attempting to do the same but as most of them had their wives or girlfriends with them I didn`t expect them to spend a lot a lot of time away from their loved ones.

Halfway through the evening I rejoined with the people sitting at my table and made my apologies, but they were waved off by the CEO and the executives.We moved into the dining area and ordered a meal making small talk while our orders arrived,after the meal myself and the rest of ladies in our little group went to the ladies room,it still felt strange when the men stood up while we left.

While we setting our make-up to rights we admired each others dresses,Mrs Philips pulled me into a corner and asked how I was coping. I must have looked at her in a funny way btu she explained that her husband had told her about my situation, I said I was doing alright but it still felt strange everytime I got I up from the table that all the men did, all the ladies heard what I said and laughingly said "enjoy it while you can girl".

There was an ante-room of to one side just outside where the dance was being held so we all went and found seats so we could have a chat without the men,Sarah and Marjory came over and joined us and as they new they already knew the other women introductions weren`t needed.I didn`t know till we started talking that they all knew my background and stated that they were there for me if I need any help or advice.I thanked them and after we had been chatting for about 30 minutes went back to our tables.

Not long after we sat down Richard asked me for a dance, I tried to explain that I didn`t know how but he he still pulled me on to the dance floor. I don`t know how I managed it but I managed to to get round with tripping up, standing on his or otherwise making a fool out of my self. We danced together several times that night, and I danced with several other men,some I knew and some I didn`t. At the end of night I was asked to say a few words, I thanked everyone for attending and hoped that everyone enjoyed themselves, I wasn`t used to making speeches,I also thanked the CEO and Executives for making the Ball possible, the CEO joined me on the stage and said how much he, his wife and the rest of his party had enjoyed themselves and it had been the companies pleasure to pick up the full bill for the evening. The CEO`s wife walked onto the stage with a large bouquet of roses and handed them me, she said she admired my courage after what I had endured and had enjoyed herself immensely at that she hoped we would have another in near future.

I saw to the departure of my guests and then managed to end up seeing everyone else leave and being thanked for an enjoyable evening. I finally managed to gather my wrap then went and found the function manager and asked him if I could say a few words to his staff. After a few minutes all the staff assembled and after thanking them and shaking each of them by the hand, I asked the manager if he give could me a complete list of all the staff that made the Ball such a huge success. He ensured me that he would bring a list to my office personnally first thing on monday. I thanked him and left to join the guests who were staying with me and were waiting outside in the Cars.

After The Ball was over

After the ball is over,
After the break of morn —
After the dancers' leaving;
After the stars are gone;
Many a heart is aching,
If you could read them all;
Many the hopes that have vanished
After the ball.

It was around 5am when we finally got home and we all agreed that it had been an enjoyable event.Everyone went to bed for a few hours sleep,but I found sleep hard to find and my thoughts were in turmoil.

A Loving Family

By
Jacquimac
Pt Fourteen

After the Ball was over

I didn`t sleep very well that night and got up around 6 am, after having a bath I decide to have breakfast before dressing for work. I was listening to local news on the radio and I heard that a there was a power cut in the area I worked in, I tried phoning in but couldn`t get an answer so got a taxi to work. On arrival I could see that there was a problem as the staff couldn`t get access into the building, Jeanette who me walking towards the entrance came over and asked if there was a problem with the company. It seemed that nodody had listened to news that morning so I told them that there was a power cut in the area. I asked everyone to sit in their cars out of the wind why I attempted to find out remedy the problem, as I was dialing the number for the other building Richard pulled up in his car and informed me that we were shut down for the week as the power transformer for the area had gone into melt down and needed to be replaced.

The CEO phoned me before I left home and told me to take the week off and that the rest of my staff were at that moment being given the same instructions by the switchboard if they were able to be contacted or at reception when they checked in. I had just changed into something more comfortable when the doorbell rang,on answering the door I found Richard with a large bouquet of flowers which he handed me, I invited him in and he told me that he knew I usually walked to work if the decent was decent and just in case I was contacted at home he thought he drive along the roads and intercept me to tell me the news.

We were having a coffee and he invited over to his house to meet his family, which I accepted. As we sat in the lounge a young woman who I thought was his wife entered with 4 boys aged from 14 to 10, the young woman he introduced as his younger sister. He explained that his wife had been killed in a car accident 5 years earlier and his sister looked after his children whenever he was at work. The boys had gone playing in the large garden at the rear of the house so the three of chatted a while, when he drove me home he asked that I spend the weekend with them and I agreed. The rest of week I looked at some files I had brought home, it contained improvement suggestions from the dept managers.

On friday afternoon Richard collected me from home and after collecting his sons left for a country estate that he owned. After dinner and with the children in bed Richard told me that he needed some advice from me. He knew my background and it seems that he had a problem with one of sons, the only thing I could suggest was that he talked to a specialist and gave him the telephone number of the shrink I had been seeing.
The weekend went well with us taking long walks, visiting some of sights in the area, meeting the locals,I didn`t know it at the time but he was one of the biggest landowners and the richest in the area.

Richard appeared more and more in the building and eventually moved his office there. He was seen more often around the department and some of the staff seemed to be worried, were jobs in danger, had something been done in a manner that required an investigation? Marjory came to see me and asked if I knew what was going on, I had to tell her I knew nothing. I went to see Richard and told him that the staff were getting worried by his presence and he told me that he felt it about time he took a more active part in the business and was impressed by the way the staff worked together and that on friday he wanted to meet each one of personally.

It wasn`t long before before he started to ask me to accompany him to various functions that he had to attend and eventually we started dating.
I got to know his children well and found out that the two younger boys (twins) had gender problems one of them was intersex and the other wanted to be a girl while the two eldest boys didn`t understand they were supportive of their younger siblings..Richard told me that they all seeing a gender specialist and could use my help, while his sister taught the boys about being girls he felt that if they knew I was once a man it might give them something to relate to, so I agreed to give what help I could.

We sat down and started to discuss how we could deal with the problems that the 2 boys would have, schooling was the first problem that reared it`s ugly head, I knew from previous experience the pain and suffering that these children would suffer from their peers so it was decided that home schooling with private tutors would be best. As the boys were known quite well in the local area something had to done about peoples attitude towards the Transgendered, we got the local priest and vicar to come to a meeting which also included the parish council.
We had over the course of several weeks quite a few meeting, the priest at first was reluctant to even discuss the matter ranting about it being a sin, the vicar on the hand simply said that we as we are all gods children, we shouldn`t judge or condemn people and that these were special people made in gods own image. I was taken by surprise at this attitude especially after my own past experience with the clergy.

A Loving Family

By
Jacquimac
Pt Fifteen

A Fresh Start for All

After a couple of months of meeting it was discovered that there were a couple of other transgendered children in the village as well as a couple of adults, overall the village turned out to be quite accepting for these people. A new school was to built financed by Richard as well as other projects that would help the local economy. The work force would if it was possible be mainly the locals with specialists being brought in were needed.

I was now 33 and had been seeing Richard for well over a year. It was at this point in my life that my parents and siblings started to plague me again, it was about 20 years since I had last seen or heard from them I had all but forgotten about them. I didn`t know it but they had somehow found out that I was doing OK for myself and also had a very large bank account. I stopped seeing Richard , quit my job although I kept in touch with my friends, sold everything and moved away from the area. I went into hiding hoping against all odds that I could somehow get rid of them, but no such luck.

After about 6 months of continually moving I quite by accident bumped into Richard again, he demanded to know what was happening, so I told him. I had been living in the back of an old van I had bought and must have looked like something the cat dragged in.
Oh I was clean as was my clothing even it did look shabby and torn. I wasn`t the well groomed professional I once was and I had lost a lot weight. Richard took me back to his home and brought his lawyer to see me, after making a statement to the lawyer I was told to leave everything in his hands.Three months went by when I heard from Richards solicitor and was informed that I would have no further problems with my family, it turned out that somehow they managed to find out I was quite wealthy and were attempting to gain control of eveything.

After a year Richard proposed me and to my astonishment I accepted, I always figured I would remain alone in life and had accepted that I would die alone. I mean okay I have a few friends but friends come and go over the years no matter how loyal they they are,It`s just the way things happen. Even when people don`t mean to lose contact they do due to reasons outside their control.
A church wedding was planned which meant that I had 3 months to get everything everything done, I told the girls at work and they were overjoyed and straight away took control of everything, Marjory told me that a girl shouldn`t have to plan her own wedding, but what do I know ? I hadn`t been a girl all that long, and wedding were a mystery to me I had never attended a wedding in my life.

I planned to quit work after the wedding and concentrate on 2 things, a) My new family, b) our new projects in the village.
I called my accountant and asked for a complete statement of all my assets which arrived a week later , I was know worth in the region of  £20 million, don`t ask me how I let him invest my money and do the deals. One thing I do know a large chuck of money was made through buying and selling land. Richard and I decided to set up a trust and would provide  £5 million each to get it up and running, the money would be used for the benefit of the village with around 3/4 of the money being invested to provide future finance.

I won`t go into details of the wedding but will say there was a large turnout and everyone enjoyed themselves, we decide not to have a honeymoon because we didn`t want to leave the children alone, they had go used to me and were calling mum, I loved them as much as they loved me, they knew that they could talk to me about any problem they had and I would help were I could. Unless it something serious they knew I wouldn`t tell their dad, and if I had to tell Richard then it would end up with everyone in a family conference unless it some personal then it would be dealt with by the 3 of us.

The eldest boys didn`t understand what was wrong with the twins so Richard feeling I was the best person to help them understand left it my hands. Sheesh what did I know ? my life wasn`t exactly wine and roses, I contacted my old therapist and set up a meeting with the whole family attending, I did tell the boys what had happened to me expecting to see them change towards me. There was no reaction form the boys as Richard had already told them and as far they were concerned I was the mum that they loved and could confide in.
The therapist arrived at the time we agreed and explained in laymans terms what was happening to the twins, she answered all the questions put to her by Richard and the boys. She took the twins on as patients and we asked if she could set a weekly clinic in the village after we told her about our plans, she readily agreed and set aside one day week for the task providing she could include a few other patients to fill the days appointments.

Richard found out about smallish compamies that were looking for a location for expansion and after talking with them got a few of them to set up saying that he would build what ever they needed. So things were getting of the ground at last. I gave Richard a Bankers draft for the agreed amount and he handed it over along with a matching draft from his account to the new village co-operative. I didn`t realise until a few years later he would end up using over  £100million and it wouldn`t even make a dent in his finances thats how rich he was. I didn`t believe in wasting money but then again for a lot of years I had lived hand to mouth barely managing to survive, so I was cautious about spending and would scrutinise every bill.

A Loving Family

By
Jacquimac
Pt Sixteen

A Loving Family

Eventually the 2 youngest boys transitioned, it wasn`t easy for them but then again life is hard, they coped and within a year were married . the twins had married the year before, their wifes had no problems accepting their husbands new sisters and so was the foundations were laid for a family that truly loved and supported one another.The two young women had changed their names and were now named Julie Anne, and Tanya Marie, they did have trouble finding boyfriends but eventually found their future husbands. Although they were unable to have children of theur own they found and adopted a pair of twins each.

I look back over the years remembering the horrors and suffering of my own childhood and early years of my adult life and then I remember the vow I took that no child of mine would ever suffer what I did , I was fortunate to find such a loving husband and loving friends that still see of lot of each other for all the years that have passed. We older ones are retired and although not as active as we once were still enjoy the lives and friendship we have.

Over the 5 years our grandchildren gave birth to our 4 great grandchildren the youngest of who will see later today.
We still live for the most part in the village were we invested so much time and money and which has suceeded beyond our wildest dreams. The industry we started in the village itself we have since moved to a site several miles away nearer the city, we always planned to keep mainly as place for people to live in peace and quiet. The people that in the area haven`t change much, they are still supportive of each other, not only of their own families but the other families young or old, ablebodied or handicapped it doesn`t matter to them. There is enough suffering in the world today but woe betide the person that injures one of them or their neighbours.

Richard doesn`t know that not only are our Family attending todays celebration but all our friends and a few not so friendly aquaintances and the whole of the village. Today he not only celebrating 75 years of life, he is being Honoured with a special presentation for the work he has done for the Transgendered. It seems funny that the man presenting the award was Richards worst enemy, but like the rest of us he has mellowed over the years and like Richard doesn`t hold a grudge anymore. What it was about I have been told but thats between them and nothing to do with me.

Yes I finally have a loving family, although we`ve been together for over 40 years Richard has never fallen out of love with Anne Marie his first wife, I know he dearly loves me and don`t hold it against him I`m sure I would have been great friends with her and I hope if she looking down on us she sees her children and their families and how loving and caring they are.

A Loving Family is not just a family that loves each other but also supports and has time to share with each other, and in due time passes this love and support onto future generations. Our family isn`t only our immediate family and their children but also our friends and neighbours and their children, we are there for each other at all times

We are now walking down to the Village green Richard and myself in the lead with our family and friends following,we`re walking holding hands like two young lovers. I can`t wait to see the look on his face when he sees the reception awaiting him, it`s a good job he got a clean bill of health at the doctors the other day.

A loving Family of several hundred all to celebrate the life of loving my husband.

The End