Caught!

(Based on "Damaged" by Danity Kane)

Do you want to talk about it honey

Please how do I repair your trust in me

I need your patient understanding

But you might need some time

to figure out your heart and mind

Please don't you leave me

can't live without you, see

Baby, But this need is driving me crazy

and you caught me dressed as a lady

And I know it caused you some

Damage, damage, damage

I know I should have let you know

now your trust in me is damaged

damaged, damaged

And its all my fault, I know

Tell me how to fix this, fix this, fix this

Baby, I've got to know

What are you going to do?

Baby I've got to know

Do you think we're through?

Yes I want to talk about it honey

We can get through this, trust me

I have patience, understanding

I have not stopped being yours

and you are always going to be mine

But I must have lost your trust?

“Sorry” doesn't seem enough

my actions must have hurt you so much

tell me please

is our marriage in pieces

or can we put it together again?

I'm past the damage, damage

now that I finally know

hiding it from me caused us damage damage

but I forgive you, you know

together we can fix it, fix it, fix it

Baby, you got to know,

we can make it through

Baby, you got to know,

I will always love you

If you will be truthful now

we can still make it somehow

no more damage

Together we are up to the challenge

get past the damage,

damage, damage

finally I let you know

inside of me was damaged,

damaged, damaged

hiding from you was wrong, I know

stop the damage, damage

can i ever be made whole

I'll help you with the damage, damage

I will still be yours

together we can fix it, fix it, fix it

(Oh hon, this pain)

together we can fix it, fix it, fix it

(couldn't keep it inside)

together we can fix it, fix it, fix it

(Sweetie you're not alone)

together we can fix it, fix it, fix it

(we will pray, we will try)

our love it isn't damaged, damaged

(and it's going to be all right)

Our love isn't damaged, damaged

(this too shall pass)

Our love isn't damaged, damaged

(I understand your pain)

our love isn't damaged, damaged

(soon we will just have joy)

Hon, my love hasn't changed

no matter what we go through

this too shall pass.

Dorothy Leads the Show
Based on "Come and Join the Show, which you can find here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q37pqbKFx5E

Dark thoughts cling like ink

As the black dog tries to claim

It will take me to the brink

Saying I am the one to blame

I’m sinking, sinking, sinking

My thoughts dive into the dark,

But the dark will no longer rule me

The light soon will spark

I won't sink into the abyss below

Though of my faults I’m well aware

You will see it, it will be such a show

I won't mind if you stare

Depression lies to tangle in

Tries to get me lost to fear

It counts out each and every sin

But soon I’ll be in the clear.

I’m so much more than it can know

It says there’s nowhere left to go

But take a seat, Depression

Dorothy leads the show.

I was lost in the depths of dark

My world filled with fear and dread

But an angel was inside my heart

And she beat the demon in my head

I was sinking, sinking, sinking

My fears ruled my home

But each step since has me thinking

I’ll turn my fear to foam

Won’t sink into the abyss below

Depression’s tricks I’m well aware

My heart it soon will glow

I will soar into the air

No web of lies to struggle by

My path it is so clear

The future it will be mine

As Dorothy does appear

I’ll show all there is of me to know,

Upward is where I will go

Take a seat, Depression,

Dorothy leads the show.

Depression lied, I was not on my own

It made me moan but I found my home

The path before me God’s always known

One day I’ll be before his throne

Go forward wont backtrack

Depression I will attack

It won't make a comeback

It tries to attack, but it cannot hack

My heart is no longer black

No cage for me my soul has flown

I will cling unto the Stone

Soon Depression will depart

Won’t wallow in the dark

It tried to fill me with disgust

So I’d see myself as unjust

But soon my heart will glow

Be a dove and not a crow

Won't sink into the abyss below

Depression’s tricks I’m well aware

My heart it soon will glow

And fly into the air

No web of lies to struggle by

My path ahead is clear

The end of depression is nigh

As Dorothy does appear

I’m so much more than it can know

Upward is where I will go

So take a seat, Depression

Cause Dorothy leads the show

Dysphoria

(With apologies to Rhianna)

What’s wrong with me?

Why do I feel like this?

I’m going crazy now ...

Want to give up the mask

(don’t how to get started)

Not sure I’m up to the task

(how how to talk about it)

Always hiding in my head

(tired of thinking about it)

Feels like I’m going insane ...yeah

It’s a pain in the night and it grabs me

Creeps up inside and consumes me

A hole in my heart and it breaks me

Where can I find comfort?

Time to break out

Or sit back and wonder

Can I pay the price

Or will I just go under ?

Always think twice

And start to flounder

So though I might falter

It’s time ...

My mind is in dysphoria

It’s like nothing feels right

Dysphoria

I’m scaring me tonight

My mind is in dysphoria

Not as brave as I’d like

Dysphoria

(bum bum be-dum bum de dum bum) (x4)

Pictures of me when I was small

Feels like they’re mocking me

Disconnected from my soul

Forgotten how to sing

I gotta get out, or figure this stuff out

I could use some comfort - oh

It’s a pain in the night and it grabs me

Creeps up inside and consumes me

A hole in my heart and it breaks me

I feel like a monster

Time to break out

Or sit back and wonder

Can I pay the price

Or will I just go under ?

No time to think twice

My course is set I can’t falter

Cause if i stop now, I will die

My mind is in dysphoria

It’s like nothing feels right

Dysphoria

I’m scaring me tonight

Dysphoria

My mind is in dysphoria

Not as brave as I’d like

Dysphoria

Can I get out of this mess I’m in

Trying my best but strugglin’

But its time for me to go-o-o

I think I’m gonna

Time to break out

Or sit back and wonder

Can I pay the price

Or will I just go under ?

No time to think twice

Or I might start to falter

So even if I stumble, it’s time ...

No more dysphoria

Time to step into the light

Dysphoria

Even though I’m scared I’m gonna try

Cant take the dysphoria

So no matter what you like

Dysphoria

Time is now, here I go ...

End

Girl ‘n Boy
(with apologies to Katy Perry)

I would like to
Be a girl, wear the clothes
Yeah I am a mess

As boy,
don’t you know
I over-think
Never speak
Keep inside me
I should know
Its not good for me

(chorus)

I’m girl, I’m a boy
My gender a toy
I just want to shout
Got to get it out
I’m wrong it’s not right
But it’s not black and white
I fight it I lose
No way I can choose
One side to stay how?
When both I’m in now
I’m a boy, I’m a girl
Give each side a twirl
I just want to shout
Got to get it out
Or I will fall down

I used to be
So confused, gone insane
I was just lost,
Yeah, totally
Unable to move,
do anything
My mind might as well,
be gone fishing
I know now
I’m not going to change

(repeat chorus)

Someone call a doctor
Got a case of bi-gender
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can’t get off this ride

I would like to
Be a girl, wear the clothes

(repeat chorus)

God's Design (sung to the tune "Flawed Design, by Sabilo)

When I was a young boy, knew I was different,

had feelings in me that I tried to control,

I was tempted no matter how I'd run

Then as I got older things got worse

'cause this need it beat me,

could not stop myself from wanting it

I tried to resist them cause I felt the difference

between what I needed and the world's view

Though I could not be happy, and hated my failing,

tried to act as a male, felt I could not give in

So I had to turn off

Had to shut down

resist the force within,

hide it under ground

I had to turn off

Had to shut down

and tried to pray instead

God, I die
I have the need here

to be female all the time

God, I try

to fight against it,

but could it be all be just a part of

Your design

But lately I have figured out,

could not worry about other people,

want to be able to sleep at night

So I ask for your permission

and I hope that its okay

I promised to serve you

and I will trust you

I am trying to make sure,

I know the devil is devious,

I feel its not a sin to re-make myself,

and that soothes my conscience

God I'll try

its time to be me,

to be female all the time

no need to fight against it,

I am now sure that its all a part of

Your Design

No need to hide myself,

that's what I now believe

I can be honest now,

have a smile on my face

No need to hide myself,

that's what I now believe

I can be honest now,

have a smile on my face

Don't have to turn off

Don't have to shut down

Now my heart is fertile ground

Don't have to turn off

Don't have to shut down

my soul is at rest,

no pain in my head.

No need to die

be who I need to

be female all the time

so I'll try

and I am sure now

God is with me,

and it is all

In God's Design

Being a girl’s (got me shook)

Chorus:
Being a girl’s got me shook
I have come to realize
Nor more time for lies
Having to fake it got to me

Tired of the masking
Want to dance and sing
And say just what I like
No longer weak, being me is sweet
don’t turn off the all the lights
‘cause it finally feels right
Being a girl’s got me shook

Ready to take a risk
With the help of my clique
Before it gets too late
And I am swallowed by hate
Look at me what do you see
Take another look please
Look inside I might just blow your mind

Couldn’t concentrate, keeping it inside
Was killing me
Now I can be cool, no need to be slick
Now that I know I am a chick
Its what I feel inside
Want it to come out right
And finally be real tonight

Repeat Chorus

Go shopping, its like a fashion show
Takes forever to get to go
Look in the mirror - hay
Seeing a girl at last - yay
Sporting some sexy gear
To help control my fear
I’ve got a secret, but this girl’s ready to hang with
Couldn’t concentrate, keeping it inside
Was killing me
Now I can be cool, no need to be slick
Now that I know I am chick
Its what I feel inside
Want it to come out right
And finally be real tonight

Repeat chorus.

I can’t wait (to do it again) (with apologies to Miley Cyrus)

I’ve got my sights set on this
Its become my aim
I’ve got this need that can’t
Be explained
I need something special
And its not a game
Now I cant wait to do it again

No one near believes me
But it feels right
I can’t deny the power
Of a feminine life
I have tried to suppress it
Tell the world lies
Now I cant wait to do it again

(chorus)
The first time I freaked out
I was just starting out
But I felt so beautiful
It was all I could think about
Felt like I couldn’t breathe
To see this side of me
I could tell myself
I’m finally being Dorothy
The next time I go out
I will be myself
My mind cant rest ‘til then
Whoa! Whoa! I
I cant wait to do it again

I’ve got this crazy feeling
Deep inside
Like she was calling me to
Let her out right
I’m not an expert here
But I can read the signs
And I cant wait to do it again

(repeat chorus)

I’ve got my sights set on this
Its become my aim
(repeat chorus)

I changed to a girl
(with apologies to Katy Perry)

This is exactly what I planned
Its my intention
But I’m not brave my heart in hand
Its desperation

It is what I want to
Just want to try it on
I’m curious are you?
Its my obsession

(chorus)

I changed to a girl and I liked it
The taste of wearing lipstick
I changed to a girl just to try it
Hope all my friends don’t mind it
It feels so wrong and yet so right
Don’t mean I’m insane tonight
I changed to a girl and I liked it
I liked it

You don’t even know my name
Or why it matters
There is no one else to blame
Its not in nature

Its not what good boys do
Not how they should behave
My head is so confused
Hard not to obey

(repeat chorus)

You girls you are so magical
Dresses, high heels and sweet perfume
Hard to resist I want them all
Try to deny it
It’s a big deal not innocent

(repeat chorus)

I dont wanna do this anymore ...

This one is based on "Unfaithful" by Rihanna, which can be found here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rp4UwPZfRis&ob=av2e

This one has some strong themes, read with caution

Story of my life,

knowing I dont have the right

to live the truth buried deep in me

The sorrow in my soul

I know you think its wrong

but staying this way will kill me

I tried to be a man

promised you my love

That’s the reason I’m so blue

A storm is rolling in

cause you’d be gone again

Unless I hide the truth

But I know I’m transgender

and it kills me inside

You know I cant be happy

trying to be a guy

Can’t you see I’m dying?

(chorus)

I dont wanna do this anymore

will you really be the reason why

I’m afraid you’ll walk out the door

make me die a little more inside

I dont wanna hurt you oh no

But I just cant live a lie

and do you wanna be

a murderer

(verse 2)

I can see you always stare

checking my nails and hair

make me hide another day

but if I gave you just a peek

could you accept reality

There’s nothing in me to hate

I try to hold on

Pretend I’m not a girl

A lie I’m to tired to tell

If you could only know

That I’m about to blow

And I know it very well

cause I know I’m transgender

and it kills me inside

trying to be happy

pretending to be a guy

Cant you see I’m dying

(Repeat chorus)

love lost, now mistrust

you might as well take a gun and

put it to my head

Get it over with

I cant do this anymore

(Anymore)

(Repeat chorus)

I think I'd Never Look Back

Author’s note: This is based on "I think I’d have a heart attack", which you can find a version of here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xR0HrrIXjBk

I always had my defences up
never could admit who I was
because if I ever did that
I know I could never look back

Always knew that I had to hide
Always had to try to be a guy
Never talk about what I want
Even though it made life so tough

Pretended I didn’t care
that they took my girl doll
and cut my hair
though inside I felt the fall

Inside I always felt like a girl
wanted to paint my nails and wear high heels
knew if I gave in that things would soon get out of hand

Must keep up the show
I cover up, won't let it show
So I'm put my defenses up
Cause I don't wanna be found out
If I ever did that, I think I'd never look back
I think I'd never look back

Never could really be like other guys
but cant tell the truth, I’m paralyzed
And every time I want to be myself
It comes out wrong like a cry for help

It's just not fair
assigned me a sex at my birth
I gasp for air
and everyday it only hurts

Inside I always felt like a girl
wanted to paint my nails and wear perfume
knew if I gave in that things would soon get out of hand

Must keep up the show
I cover up, won't let it show
So I'm put my defenses up
Cause I don't wanna be found out
If I ever did that, I think I'd never look back
I think I'd never look back

The feelings got lost in my lungs
They're burning, I'd rather be numb
And there's no one else to blame
So scared I'll take off and run
I'm flying too close to the sun
And I'll burst into flames

Must keep up the show
I cover up, won't let it show
So I'm put my defenses up
Cause I don't wanna be found out
If I ever did that, I think I'd never look back

I think I’d never look back
I think I’d never look back
I think I’d never look back ...

guess what I never looked back!

I want a huggle-bug for Christmas

I want a huggle-bug for Christmas
Only a huggle-bug will do
I don't want a doll, no dinky Tinkertoy
I want a huggle-bug to play with and enjoy
I want a huggle-bug for Christmas
I don't think Santa Claus will mind, do you?
He won't have to use our dirty chimney flue
Just bring him through the front door
That's the easy thing to do
I can see me now on Christmas morning
Creeping down the stairs
Oh, what joy and what surprise
When I open up my eyes
To see my happy huggle standing there
I want a huggle-bug for Christmas
Only a huggle-bug will do
she can spread the girly-germs
to every girly-girl
And even tomboys like me too
I want a huggle-bugs for Christmas
a huggle-bug is all I want
And if I were to get two
I'll share one with you!

I Write Sins . . .

With apologies to Panic at the Disco

Oh, well imagine, as the bride paces the pews of a church corridor, and she

Can’t help but to hear, no she can’t help but to hear an exchanging of words

“What a beautiful wedding. What a beautiful wedding” says the bridesmaid to a waiter

“And yes what a shame, what a shame the groom is really a trans girl”

She chimes in with “Haven’t you people ever heard of loving a trans girl? I wanted to marry someone with a sense of grace and femininity”

She chimes in with “Haven’t you people ever heard of loving a trans girl? I wanted to marry someone with a sense of . . . oh”

“Well in fact”, she says, “look at it this way I mean so what the secret is out. This calls for a toast so pour the champagne.” (ohh)

“Well in fact”, she says, “look at it this way I mean so what the secret is out. This calls for a toast so pour the champagne, pour the champagne.”

She chimes in with “Haven’t you people ever heard of loving a trans girl? oh, I wanted to marry someone with a sense of grace and femininity ”

She chimes in with “Haven’t you people ever heard of loving a trans girl? Oh, I wanted to marry someone with a sense of grace . . . and femininity . . .”

Again . . .

(repeat and fade)

End

I’m glued

(with apologies to Eiffel 65)

Yo listen up
Here’s the story
About a little guy
That lives in a glue world
And all day and all night
Everything he sees is
Just glued
To him inside, and outside
Glued in a dress
Glued to some high heels too
And glued to a corset
And everything is glued
Including his breasts
And he sings to himself
Cause he aint got nobody to listen ..

(chorus)

“I’m glued ...

Da Ba de da ba die
Da ba de da ba die
Da ba de da ba die

Da ba de da ba die
Da ba de da ba die
Da ba de da ba die
Da ba de da ba die

I’m glued ...

Da ba de da ba die
Da be de da ba die
Da be de da ba die

Da be de da ba die
Da be de da ba die
Da be de da ba die
Da be de da ba die

(verse)

Glued to a blue dress
And glued heels oh no!

Glue is the reason for of all that I wear
Glued are my breasts and my vag too

I had a girlfriend
She’s the reason I’m glued.

Glued is the makeup the change so profound
Glued is the corset so I can barely sigh
Dont know what to say or even what to think
I think I like this, what’s that say about me?

(repeat chorus)

(repeat verse)

(repeat chorus)

End?

If I were a girl
(With apologies to Beyonce)

If I were a girl
Even just for a day
I’d take an hour to get ready
‘cause I’d know they’d have to wait

Go shop with the girls
And laugh at the boys
I’d be welcome at the party
Get to be so pretty
‘cause then I’d be free to be me

If I were a girl
I’d make them understand
What it’s like to be feminine
No need to pretend to be a man
They’d listen to me
‘cause they know how it hurts
Trying to be someone you’re not
Tie yourself up in to knots
And end up being destroyed

If I were a girl
I would turn on my phone
Tell everyone to call me
‘cause it’s better than being alone

I might hike up my skirt
Maybe wiggle and wink
‘cause that’s how to get my way
And I know how guys think

But I’m just a boy
I don’t understand
Don’t know why I have this need
To know how it feels to be a girl
Sometimes I wish I were a better man
They don’t listen to me
Don’t care if I’m free
Or if I lose everything I’ve wanted
They are taking me for granted
And I risk being destroyed

I’m just a boy . . .
(for now)

It’s not a disease
With apologies to Matchbox 20

Some say it's a mistake

But I got tired of the heartbreak

But I had to let Todd go

Cause he was just a show

Being trans was a pain

Even on my good days

It was scary, I’m sure you know

But I had to let him go

I had to turn me over

Had to say I tried,

No longer hold Dorothy down

Had to be a girl

Or it would break my heart

It’s not a disease

A girl deep inside me

Always felt uneasy baby

I needed to live true

What else was I supposed to do about it

Don’t need to keep your distance from it

You got to listen to me

It’s not a disease

You might think I’m a mess

Wanting to go around in a nice dress

But Dorothy was a fire

And every day I burned

No it's not that tragic

Being me it feels like magic

Being a girl

Now I can breathe

No it’s not a disease

A girl deep inside of me

Always felt uneasy baby

I found a way to live true

What else could I do about it

Don’t need to keep your distance from it

You got to listen to me

It’s not a disease

Some think that I’m sick

But if you would just take the time to listen to me

Being Dorothy is freedom honey

Don’t you see I’m better honey

Listen to this song

I’m telling you it’s not that wrong

I have no disease

No it’s not a disease

I’m free to be me

And it's not a disease.

Jaci and the Dot

Its Jaci and the Dot,

Jaci and the Dot

one admits she's girly, the other says she's not

They're transgender girls

wear dresses give them a twirl

They're Jaci, Jaci and the Dot, Dot, Dot . . .

Before this song is done, their girl germs will be hurled

by the dawning of the sun, they'll girlify the world

They're Jaci and the Dot,

Jaci and the Dot

We'll let you in on the plot

girl germs they have brought

to prove their girly worth

they'll girlify the Earth

They're Jaci, Jaci and the Dot, Dot, Dot, Dot . . .

Jess is a girl (Thanks to Renee M for the edit)

this is based on the old song "Jessie's girl", a version of which can be found here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hiaKiqIsi2s

Jess is my name,
yeah, they said I've been a boy all my life,
But today something changed
that ain't hard to define.
Now they know I am a girl and that I was all the time.
I was watching girls with my eyes;
And I was envying their bodies,
couldn’t hold it.
And I was praying to my God
every single night.

But now, they know that Jess is a girl,
they know that Jess is a girl.
Finally came out as a woman - like that.

I got tired of the charade
I finally knew it was time,
I had to change.
I used to feel so dirty wanting to be cute,
wish that I had come out sooner, but that feeling's kinda moot.

I kept watching girls with my eyes,
And I was envying their clothes and couldn’t stop it.
And I was praying to my God every single night.

But now, they know Jess is a girl
They know that Jess is a girl.
Finally came out as a woman - like that.
Know that Jess is a girl,
they know that Jess is a girl.
Came right out as a woman,
as a woman - like that.

And I looked in the mirror all the time,
hating the boy I would see instead of me.
I would struggle and would cry all the time,
ain't it finally time for me to be me?

So I,
Came out as a woman - just like that,
out as a woman - just like that.
Now they all know Jess is a girl,
they know that Jess is a girl.
Came out as a woman - as a woman - like that.
Yes, Jess is a girl,
no doubt that Jess is a girl,
you’ll see that Jess is a girl

Just a ghost
(Based on "Ghost" by Fefe Dobson
 

I'm a go-go-go-ghost
just a go-go-go-ghost

Once a girl in a photograph
but can I ever get me back?
Or become just a memory
not my real identity.

I had a name
fought the fight
now I wonder if I'll ever get it right

feel the shame
live the lie
praying in the middle of the night

I'm scared I will become a ghost
once all my dreams were oh so close
But my fears have made me start to fail
will the real me disappear?
I'm scared I will become a ghost
not true, not true
Please God no
My fears make me start to fail
will the real me disappear?

Be a go-go-go-ghost
just a go-go-go-ghost

will I lose the gift of being me
let the real me get away
let being real become a dream
and live only in misery

I had a name
fought the fight
now I wonder if I'll ever get it right

feel the shame
live the lie
praying in the middle of the night

I'm scared I will become a ghost
once all my dreams were oh so close
But my fears have made me start to fail
will the real me disappear?
I'm scared I will become a ghost
not true, not true
Please God no
My fears make me start to fail
will the real me disappear?

Be a go-go-go-ghost
just a go-go-go-ghost

Got to be out
but now I'm not
Don't want to let Dorothy go
cause she is my soul

I had a name
fought the fight
now I wonder if I'll ever get it right

feel the shame
live the lie
praying to God in the middle of the night

I'm scared I will become a ghost
once all my dreams were oh so close
But my fears have made me start to fail
will the real me disappear?
I'm scared I will become a ghost
not true, not true
Please God no
My fears make me start to fail
will the real me disappear?

Be a go-go-go-ghost
just a go-go-go-ghost (repeat and fade)
 
"Ghost" by Fefe Dobson video can be found here:
 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXrFBsYKrgE

LET IT BURN
(sung to the tune of "Walk through the fire" from Buffy the Vampire Slayer)

I touch the clothes and it changes me
They show everything I lack
I’d like to change, my body re-arrange
And never to look back

Now in my head, she calls to me
She want to begin the change
To seize the day, or just fade away
The choices are insane

But can I have my desire
Or where else can I turn
Because they are a fire
And it . . .

The cross I bear is crushing me
The devil’s laughing I have no doubt
It makes me cry, it makes me want to die
But I have to tough it out

‘cause I am drawn to desire
I think I’ll never learn
The urge is a fire
And it . . .

Will it really change me
Imprison or will it free me
And am I too far gone to care

What if I went ahead and did it
Reach for the dreams I’ve needed
Or I could give up and just stare

I’ll make it through, its what I have to do
So I will turn from my desire

So day by day I stagger through
Without my dreams my life is cold
But what’s inside, I must always hide
And it never can be told

I walk on the edge of danger
Don’t know what can save me
Everything is becoming dark

Though I reach out in prayer
The situation’s still the same here
wonder if there will ever be a spark

These endless days, will end in a blaze

And I am caught by desire
The point of no return
The urge is a fire
And it,
Burns
Let it burn, let it burn,
Let it burn

Let me go (Parody of let it go)

I dont really want to argue tonight

cover ground we’ve already been

I’m tired and so frustrated

Its time for me to be seen

You always were denying that I was stuck inside

You couldn’t keep me down, even though you tried

Please let me out

please let them see

there was always a real girl inside of thee

dont hide what we feel

its time to let them know

Its my turn to show

Let me go, let me go

dont hold me back anymore

Let me go, let me go

no more hiding behind the door

I know you’re scared

about what will they say

but its past time now

and it cant get worse here anyway

its funny how life works

you tried to make me so small

all that fear controlled you

couldnt keep me down at all

its time to see what I can do

break the closet and step through

Its right, not wrong, to let me be

so free ...

Let me go, let me go

I believe that I can fly

Let me go, let me go

there’ll be no more tears to cry

I know you’re scared

about what will they say

but its past time now

I’ve always been part of you, even when I made no sound

I promise to do you proud, if only I am allowed

It will be an adventure, such a blast

Its time to let me out, let the past be in the past

Let me go, let me go

Its time to be moving on

Let me go, let me go

the boy-mask should be gone

I know you’re scared

about what will they say

but its past time now

and it cant get worse here anyway

End.

Note: “Let it go” from Disney’s “Frozen” can be found here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=moSFlvxnbgk

Nightmare Dance

Verse 1: I can't take it anymore

I've considered sleeping on the floor

as every time in sleep I drift away

my mind and body they begin to play

I'm always thrashing, as dreams go through my mind

cause my subconscious hunt for darkness to find

my pillows fly from the bed on which I lay

and the covers go they never want to stay

Chorus: its always been this way,

it never seems to change

and I just can't find

a way to calm my mind

Every night I'm thrashing, doing the nightmare dance (x2)

Verse 2: no one can tell me that it's fair

sometimes I sleep better than in a chair

I never seem to have a happy dream

and every night you can hear my screams

(Repeat Chorus)

nightmare's expire - yeah (x2)

one day I hope no more nasty dreams

silence instead of nightly screams

one day I'm hoping I wont be doing the nightmare dance (x4)

End

No more waiting, oh

Parody of "What you waiting for" by Gwen Stefani which can be found here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f5qICl3Fr3w

I know it’s finally time
Time for all to see
Too many years gone by
Now I have to be free ...

(Tick-tock, tick tock, tick- tock ..)

Since I was born,
mistaken for a boy
Internal conversations,
How much could I take?

What if they say I’m a sinner ?

Naturally I worried I’d be all alone.
Everybody seems to care,
Even if it’s my life I should get a chance to make
And take a chance, see what grows

Oh ...
No more waiting
No more waiting
No more waiting ...
No more waiting
oh ...
(x2)

Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock
I’ll take the chance see what grows

Going round in circles
Repeating myself
I know my heart,
No more standing in one place
Dorothy blossoms or I’ll perish ...

I’ll have trouble because of my sex chromosome
People will think I’m messed up
It’s how our society thinks
But life is short, and I’m capable

Oh ...
Look at my life now
Showing all I am a female
Got my ID and all that
No more running round the boy track

No more waiting
No more waiting
No more waiting
No more waiting
No more waiting
Oh ...
(X 2)

Couldn’t wait no more
no going back in my plans
It’s here that I take my stand

Dorothy Colleen, oh ...
Yes I am a girl,
Working on my own kind of style
Woah ...

Look at my life now
Showing all I am a female
Got my ID and all that
No more running round the boy track

No more waiting
No more waiting
No more waiting
No more waiting
No more waiting
Oh ...
(X 2)

No more waiting, oh
No more waiting oh
Took a chance to see what grows

Took a chance
See what grows

No more waiting, oh
No more waiting oh
Took a chance to see what grows ...

T-Girl’s dream (With apologies to Katy Perry)

Based on "Teenage Dream" by Katy Perry

Wish I was pretty
I’d put some make-up on

I’ll tell you hunny
the feeling is quite strong

Can you get me
can I let my walls come down ...
Down ...

If I just let me
stop trying to be a fake
But things
can be real heavy
Time to bring me to life
Yes I think it might be
my time ...
my time

Gonna go all the way
tonight
no more fear
just time

start to live, before
I die
Yes can I
Now be real forever

I’ll be free
Living a
T-Girl’s dream
that’s why I sing this song
I can’t stop
can’t turn away
can’t ever go back ...
can’t ever go back

My life starts
When I’m finally me
Just one day
If I can believe
time to be real
Gonna take a chance and
never go back
never go back

Call me Dorothy
gonna be my name now on
I’m here to tell
build a life and be strong

I finally realize
that I deserve some peace
be complete

Gonna go all the way
tonight
no more fear
just time

start to live, before
I die
Yes can I
Now be real forever

I’ll be free
Living a
T-Girl’s dream
that’s why I sing this song
I can’t stop
can’t turn away
can’t ever go back ...
can’t ever go back

Being fake stops
You just wait and see
Just one day
finally I believe
She is real

I’ll take a chance and
never look back ...
never look back
Keep my heart beating
finally be the real me
Live a T-girl’s dream tonight

You’ll all see
me just being me
Live a T-girl’s dream tonight

Caaann you see me
Living a T-girl’s dream
that’s why I sing this song
Dont wake me
going all the way and
never going back
never going back

nooo

My life starts
oh can’t you see
just one day
if I can believe
She is real
gonna take a chance and
never look back
never look back

Keep my heart beating
finally be the real me
Live a T-girl’s dream tonight

You’ll all see
me just being me
Live a T-girl’s dream
Tonight

Tonight, tonight, tonight

End

Katy's song can be found here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=98WtmW-lfeE

Ballad of Ted Bandpat

Come listen to my story
About a man named Ted
A poor trans girl
Lived inside his head
Then one day when crying feeling blue
She decided she would stop being a fake dude
Be a girl, that is, both pretty and bold
Be called a “she”

Well the first thing you know
She was out and didn’t care
Even though her friends online
Said “move away from there”
But her family showed their quality
And loved her so she didn’t have to flee
Surprised her, they did
Held her hand, and had her back

She said good-bye to Ted, not gonna be one of the men.
And she would like to thank her folks for dealing with the spin
And if you are ever near to her locality
She’d be glad to show you hospitality
Girly style that is. Pink tablecloth. Perfume in the air
So you all go down there, you hear?

Its time to be me

Its my hope that you wont be upset
Because of the truth I have said
Hope you will be ok with what I do

Used to hide away every night
Trying to pretend it wasn’t what I’d like
But my story wont be done till I’m true

I want short skirts instead of t-shirts
To be the cheer captain, no longer on the bleachers
Dreaming of the day when I would finally find
Its what I have wanted the whole time

Finally ready to be the real me
She’s been inside all along you see
Its time to be me, its time to be me

Walking down the street its like a dream
I’ve always known its how it aught to be
Laughing at my fear, just being myself
Although it wasn’t easy

Now I’ve got a smile instead of a frown
No more keeping my real self down
I’ll be fine you can count on that
Now that I’ve let this girl in me be free

Wearing my high heels, no more sneakers
Be the Cheer captain and not on the bleachers
No more dreaming of what I would find
Now I am the me I needed to be the whole time

Finally ready to be the real me
She’s been inside all along you see
Its time to be me

Time for me to go out the door
This is what I’ve been waiting for
Yeh, its time to be me, time to be me

I remember I tried so hard to fight
All the time all I did was cry
It was all my hopes and dreams
But now its finally time to be me

Don’t know if anyone understands me
She’s been in me all along see
Now its time to be me, time to be me

Its time to be me
I’m almost ready
Its time to be me
Time to be me

We can’t be Erased

Ah, I can't help but weep for the status of my nation.

Bigots have been unleashed, like for a signal they were waiting

What I would see as a nightmare, they see as the best dream

All us trans folks ground up in the machine

I see the product of the hatred, I fear I will have to fight

Or soon all people like me will be denied their human rights

They have freed themselves from reason, see things in black and white

They call me a seed of evil, but that’s the hate they have let into their mind;

It started out on four-chan, now it’s becoming policy in time

Do they really mean it or is it a way to keep their fans in line

Stacking the courts, claim it pleases the divine

Can be this what they believe, cause I think its deceiving them with lies

Holy God, can you see all of my tears?

It appears they might want me murdered here

Bible Thumpers I have learned to fear

Kinda reminds me of the Nazi’s work here

Why is this happening, my own life I just want to be living;

I don’t know how to respond to people calling me a demon

But if they think I’m alone, they better recount the gate

Cause alone is one thing that I am surely aint

I will keep my own happiness, I won't drown in dark despair;

Those who would discriminate they better think and beware

Hope is mightier than fear, it has no limitations

No matter what they do nothing can erase us now

We will fight and will not surrender

No matter what the cost

We want the harm to pause

Just go ahead and let us live our life

You wanted us shamed and disgraced

You’re tainted by hatred we can’t be erased

Even if allies betray us we go on to state

No matter what you do, we can’t be erased;

I am not a monster, I am just the same as you

But I will not stand by while trans folks are abused

The hate is growing

The laws are coming

But I will not run even if the brown shirts are coming

I’ll gather all my friends, together we’ll make a stand

Right from the start our resistance is planned

I have hope and faith and maybe holy light

Wont just hide, I will stand and fight

Hateful people on my TV

They always say I cannot be real

But stop the nonsense, I’m just as real

As any of them, they are going to have to deal

To their humanity I must appeal

I hope it's there, just concealed

Fact is we exist no matter what they feel

They must be stopped, the world must heal

A little love is needed quick

So all these hateful acts will soon quit

I know they’re scared that I have a dick

I wish it gone, so I could just be a chick

I’m saddened by this evil growing, trying not to give in to people loathing

The darkness is not hiding it is showing, hearts must be open not be closing;

Flood the internet where the hate is flowing, replace it with loving knowing;

There is no way we will be going

My spirit will never be kept from floating

Join with me, our strength will be showing

No trans folk should be feeling lonely

Progress will be made very slowly

But I believe our cause is holy

You wanted us shamed and disgraced

You’re tainted by hatred we can’t be erased

Even if allies betray us we go on to state

No matter what you do, we can’t be erased;

Author's Note: This is based on the song "Can't be erased, which you can find here:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VNdIvPb196s

What do you want to be?
(based on the Adam Lambert song “What do you want from me?”

Hay, stop with the frown
What do you want to be ?
What do you want to be?

Don’t, be afraid,

What do you want to be?
What do you want to be?

Its not a crime
to be yourself today
don’t you know by now,
That I don’t give a dam

And now, here you are
So what do you want to be?
What do you want to be?

(chorus)

And don’t give up
Keep working it out
Please don’t give in
It will bring you down
The world’s messed up
Need courage to be
Just keep from going down
Hey!

What do you want to be?
What do you want to be?
What do you want to be?
What do you want to be?

Yeh, it’s plain to me
You could be beautiful
And there’s nothing wrong with you
You say, “I’m a freak”
But you’re easy to love for me
And I want you to be free

Yes, I know your mine
I won’t let you slip away
I hate to see you cry
I think it could save your life

(Repeat chor)

What do you want to be?
What do you want to be?
What do you want to be?
What do you want to be?

Don’t give up I plead

Hey, I don’t want you down
I don’t want you down

(repeat chorus )

What do you want to be?

(repeat chorus)

What do you want to be?
What do you want to be?
What do you want to be?
What do you want to be?
What do you want to be?
What do you want to be?

Why is being transgender so complicated?

(Based on Avril Lavigne's "Complicated", here's a link to the original:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5NPBIwQyPWE

Uh huh, life sucks like this

Uh huh, that’s the way it is.

‘Cause life sucks like this

And that’s the way it is.

(Verse 1:)

Sometimes, wonder what I’m striving for

‘cause I’ve always failed before

But if you could look in me, you might see

I’d like to be myself at last

no more controlled by my past

This is the message I send

tired of having to pretend

(Chorus)

I’m somebody else

around everyone else

I’m watching my back

I can’t relax

act like I’m cool

But who do I fool

But me

Tell me

Why is being transgender so complicated?

havin’ to act like I’m somebody else gets me frustrated

But life’s like this

I fall and I crawl and I break and I take what I get and I turn it to

honesty, I say to thee I can no longer fake it

no, no no

(Verse 2)

You came over unannounced

found me dressed like someone else

Who i am, its more that what you know

Don’t laugh, if I strike a pose

wearing my pretty clothes

tired of fooling everyone

havin’ to become

somebody else

around everyone else

I’m watching my back

I can’t relax

act like I’m cool

But who do I fool

But me

Tell me

(Repeat Chorus)

(Repeat Verse 1)

(Repeat Chorus 2 times)

no, no, no.

Will I need stitches?
(with apologies to Shawn Mendes)

I thought it was time you knew the score
Even though I’ve been burned risking before
Your love helps me get through the night
But once you know will you want to fight

Got a feeling we’re getting closer
But will you want to break the ties that bind
You might quit calling me your lover
And move on ...

(Chorus)

Got a secret that I cant keep
Fear has me falling onto my knees
I might end up without your kisses
Or maybe needing stitches

I used to be fighting with myself
Praying begging for God’s help
Tell me will I be without your kisses
Or will I be needing stitches

Last time a man held me to blame
Hit me till I passed out from pain
Being trans was my only crime
They said I reaped what I sowed
The fault all my own

But got a feeling we’re growing closer
But will you want to break the ties that bind
Will you quit calling me your lover
And move on ...

Got a secret that I cant keep
Fear has me falling onto my knees
Will I be without your kisses
Or will I be needing stitches?

Used to be fighting with myself
Praying begging for God’s help
Will I be without your kisses
Or will I be needing stitches

Needle and thread
Applied up to my head
Needle and thread
or maybe wind up dead

Needle and thread
Applied up to my head
Needle and thread
Or maybe wind up dead

Needle and thread
Applied up to my head
Needle and thread
Or maybe wind up dead

Needle and thread
Applied up to my head
Needle and thread
Or maybe wind up dead

Needle and thread
Applied up to my head
Applied up to my head

Got a secret that I cant keep
Fear has me falling onto my knees
I might end up without your kisses
Or will you give me stitches

I was fighting with myself
Praying begging for God’s help
Will I be without your kisses
Or will you give stitches?

Will I be without your kisses
Or will I need stitches?

Will I be without your kisses
Or will I need stitches?