It's Only Grief
You come up to me
Say “Why so sad?
You look so glum
you must feel bad”
I wish to say
“It's too much this pain
it overwhelms
comes again and again
But it's only grief
it's only grief”
You'd say “whats this pain?
What makes you down
and turns a smile
into a frown?”
I think “it's simple
I'm a man outside
but within my heart
a girl does reside
But it's only grief
it's only grief”
You'd ask“I'd like to know
how this could be
when you look
like a male to me”
“But it's true!”
I'd exclaim with zeal
“I know this girl
within is real
But it's only grief
it's only grief”
“You must be mad!
And put away!
We could cure you”
That's what you'd say
“No madness now”
I would reply
“And from such 'cure'
I would fly”
You would state
“you're lost in sin!
To think you're male without
and a girl within”
“No sin intended,
no shame, says I
For to God I cling,
and pray” I'd cry
“But it's only grief
It's only grief
Now speak no more!
Be silent, voice!
I cannot stop
I have no choice!
One day this grief
it will be gone
and left behind
while I go on”
Those are the words
inside my heart
but I dont say outloud
my lips don't part.
Athough my heart may break
no one will see
for I can't say yet
“Let me be me”
It's only grief
my secret shame
I hate it so
myself I blame
One day that will change
may it be soon
I pray to God
to grant this boon
I'll stand up proud
say with relief
“I will be true
have no more grief”
Until that day
I struggle so
and because of fear
you will never know