~* I am walking through a long corridor, I can't see any doors so I just kept walking wondering where am I.
'How did I get here?' I think to myself and keep walking.
After what felt like ages I see the end of the corridor at a distance and there is a door, also I see something else. Something is on the floor by the wall not far from the door and I decide to take a closer look. 'It's not like I have any other way to go.' I thought.
As I get closer I see it's not something, it's someone. A girl sitting down holding her legs and with her face buried in them. It seems she is crying.
“Hello.” I said as I got closer to her.
She raises her head, looked at me for a second or two, buried her head on her knees again and resumed crying.
“What's wrong? Are you okay?” I said slowly sitting down close to her hoping she doesn't freak out.
She shook her head and just kept crying.
“Is that a no nothing is wrong or I'm not okay?” I ask her.
“I... I'm... not... okay.” She said between sobs.
“What's wrong? Maybe I can help you?”
“I'm sad.”
“Why are you sad?”
“Because of you.”
“What? Why? I never saw you before. How can you be sad because of me?”
“That's why. You don't remember me and that makes me sad.”
“How can I forget someone as pretty as you?”
“I can't tell you that. You have to find out yourself.”
“And how do I do that?”
“The door.”
“What about it?”
“The answers are behind the door.”
“Is that it? All I need to do is go through the door?”
“Yes, but is not that easy.”
“How so? Is the door locked?”
“No, it isn't locked, and you'll see what I mean when you try to open the door.”
“Who are you? Why are you telling me all this?”
“I can't tell you who am I and I'm telling you this because I want you to remember me.”
“Can I at least have your name? Just the first name will be enough. It might help me a little.”
“D...Danielle.”
“That's a pretty name. I wish I could remember you.”
“You will and I can't wait for you to remember.”
“So all I need to do is go through the door?”
She nodded.
“Can you go with me?”
She shook her head and said. “No, you need to do it alone.”
“Will you be okay here?”
She just nodded her head again.
“Okay. I better do it then.” I said getting up.
“See you later Danielle.”
“I hope so Dan, I really hope so.” She said.
I started to walk towards the door again and look back to see her one more time but she vanished.
'What is going on? Was she real or am I losing my marbles?' I thought and decided to keep walking towards the door. She said the answers were there, but also that might be my only way out of here so I need to go through it anyway.
As I got closer, each step seemed to be harder to make. The door looks familiar but I don't know why. I started to get a sense of dread, like something really bad is behind that door. I can almost feel what it is and it scares the crap out of me.
I kept going slowly and the fear in me kept growing too. All I want to do is turn around and run away but something else tells me that not only something really bad is behind that door but also something very dear to me.
'She was right, this is not going to be easy. I hope she is worth it.'
It seemed that an eternity passed before I could reach the door. By the time I reached it I was shaking and very afraid of what might be behind it. I slowly reach for the doorknob. After a few false starts I finally was able to grab it. I was about to open the door when.... *~
The alarm starts screaming waking me up with a start.
'I hate this alarm. It is always scaring the crap out of me.' I thought after turning it off
'Gosh I hate that dream. I have been dreaming it every night since I made that stupid promise to Ashley. The girl is something new though. What does this dream mean? I better write it down before I forget. Maybe Ashley can help me get some sense out of it.'
Ashley is a long time friend of mine. She is a neighbor and we grew up together. She, Steve and I were always together. Steve is my best buddy but he has been acting strange for a while now and she keeps saying everything is fine but I know him. Something is bugging him and I think it is something to do with me.
Ashley is always there for me and keep having strange ideas. She is also always trying to make me dress like a girl but I always refused. I mean until last week when she tricked me to make that damn promise.
Before you ask me, no, she didn't dress me up, yet. She said something about doing it right, and needing some stuff. So, she said she would do it Saturday. The worst part is that Steve is also in cahoots with Ashley, and no she is not going to dress him up. Talk about being unfair. Of course there is no way he could ever pass as a girl. He is 17 years old, 6'2 and very athletic. By the way did I tell you he is also Ashley's older brother?
I am 16 and just 5'7 just like Ashley and people keep thinking I am a girl. I know I'm not buff like Steve but I don't think I look like a girl. Okay I confess I am scared shitless about Saturday. What if I really do look like a girl? I keep getting this sense of dread just like the one I sensed in my dream.
No I can't think like that. I know I don't look like a girl and they will see it soon. That's why I made that promise to Ashley. And yes she tricked me to make that promise. What can I say she knows me better than anyone and used it against me.
What did I promise? Well... it is the holidays season and she knows how much I like to help people out, specially children, and she... well... wanted us to volunteer to help out some children in the local hospital that will need to spend Christmas there. The thing is that she want us to volunteer as Santa's Helpers, yes you got it, female elves like those you see in the malls. So I promised her that if she can make me look like a girl I will volunteer with her. What can I say she appealed to my soft side. It almost makes me hope she can make me look like a girl so I can bring those sick kids a smile on their faces.
After I finished writing the dream down I quickly went trough my morning routine, grabbed a piece of toast for breakfast and flew out of the house to meet Ashley and Steve.
It didn't take long to meet them because as soon I got out of the house I bumped into Steve as he was about to ring the bell. I just didn't fall on my butt because he held me up before that.
'Gosh he is strong' I thought to myself
“Are you okay?” He asked me.
“Y...yes. Thank you Steve.”
“You are welcome, Danny.”
“Hi Danny.” Ashley said and gave me a big hug and a peck on my cheek.
“Hi Ashley.” I said and did the same to her.
“Did you sleep well?” She asked me.
“More or less. I had that dream again.”
“The one with the door?” Steve asked.
“Yes, the same one, but this time there was something different in it.”
“What was that?” Ashley asked.
“I wrote it down and you can read it later okay?”
“Okay.” They said.
“Oh, are you ready for tomorrow?” Ashley asked.
“What about tomorrow?” I asked her.
“Tomorrow is Saturday, remember?”
“Oh shit. I forgot. Steve, please get me out of this.”
“No can do Bro. It's your mess and I have nothing to do with it.” He said.
“Yeah right. I know you are dying to see me dolled up so you can laugh at me.”
“That's not true. I would never laugh at you, and to tell the truth I am kinda curious how you would look dressed as a girl.” He said.
“I am doomed.” I said and lowered my head.
The walk to the school was pretty quiet after that.
What can I tell you about my school life? Ashley and I are juniors and Steve is a senior. I dread the next year when I will be a senior. Why? Because my friendship with Steve have kept the bullies at bay so far as he can be very scary when he is protecting me or Ashley. Of course he will be at university next year and I will still be trapped here, at least I will have Ashley with me.
No I'm not a loner, lot by a long shot. I just don't have many friends and most of my friends are the same as Ashley's so I am always around girls, but I am just a friend for them and I am fine with that. Unfortunately that has a downside and they treat me like one of the girls and they talk about everything around me and I mean everything. For example I know more about periods than any guy should know. Also it seems that the guys at the school avoid me like plague. I hear them calling me names in the hallways and even some openly gay boys asked me for dates a few times. No I'm not gay. At least I don't think I am. To tell the truth I'm not attracted to boys or girls. I did hear some boys talking about “hard-ons” sometimes but I never had one and I wonder what it is like.
Yes you probably figured out by now that I didn't start puberty yet, but my parents said it isn't uncommon in our family for boys to start it late. My father only started bulking up when he was my age so I figure that it won't take long now.
I better stop rambling now
The morning was pretty uneventful and before I noticed it was lunch time. Today I sat with Ashley and Steve as they wanted to read what I wrote about my dream so we found an empty table at the corner of the cafeteria after we grabbed the grub they call lunch here.
As soon as we sat down Ashley said. “Okay, where is it?”
“Where is what?” I said feigning innocence.
“The paper with the dream, silly.”
“Do I have to?”
“Yes.” Both Steve and Ashley said firmly. One thing you can say about them, they are very close and get along very well.
“Can we eat first?” I asked them.
“You can eat while we read. What about that?” Steve asked.
“That won't work.” I said. “I will be too nervous to eat while you read.”
“Okay, we eat first, but as soon we, and by we I mean Ashley and I, finish our lunches we start reading, okay?” Steve said.
“That's not fair.”
“It is. I know you. If we don't do that way you will take your time eating and the bell will ring before you finish your lunch.” Ashley said.
Darn, they do know me well. That is exactly what I was planning to do.
“Fine.” I said and pouted.
It didn't take them much time to finish eating because they both wolfed the food down their throats. I never saw Ashley eat that fast though wolfing down is Steve's usual way of eating. I don't know how he can eat so much and stay in shape. I think he could eat an entire cow and then go back for seconds.
“Okay we are finished.” Steve said.
“But I hardly started to eat mine.” I said.
“You always eat slowly.” He said.
“Just as slow as Ashley usually.” I said.
“But you are eating more slowly today.” Ashley said.
“No, you did it like Steve today.” I said.
“I know.” She said. “It's because I want to read it without worrying about the time. The other dream was pretty interesting and you said something was different this time.”
“Okay, okay. Here it is.” I said producing the pieces of paper and giving it to Ashley.
They put it on the table and started to read together while I tried to eat the rest of the lunch.
By the time they finished reading they had a strange expression on their faces.
“What's wrong?” I asked them.
“N..nothing.” Steve said.
“Do you know something about the girl in my dream? Is she real?”
“We don't know anything, Dan.” Ashley said.
“Is it true?” I asked Steve.
“Y...yes.” He said.
“Why don't I believe you?” I told them.
“Please believe us, Dan. We don't know anything. We just found the dream a little strange and interesting.”
“Okay. I'll drop it for now.” I said.
The rest of the day was pretty quiet but I was a little distracted. Something kept telling me that they know something about the girl in my dream and are not telling me. I might be wrong and a little paranoid though, after all it was just a dream, wasn't it?”
After the end of the school day we walked back together. They walked me all the way home but had to leave because they had errands to run.
“That's okay guys. I'll see you tomorrow morning.”
“Yes, don't forget to shave before going to my place.” Ashley said.
“Shave? You know I don't shave yet, Ashley.”
“Not your face, silly. Pits and legs.” She said.
“But I hardly have any hair on my legs.” I whined.
“You want to do this right, don't you?”
“There is no way I can win this one, is there?” I asked looking at Steve.
“You should know that by now, bro.” He said.
“Fine. I'll do it right. I made you a promise after all.”
“Thank you, thank you.” She said happily and gave me a big hug.
“See you tomorrow at 9:00 then?” Steve asked
“That early?”
“No whining.” Ashley said.
“Okay, okay.” I said
Ashley
After we left Dan at his place we quickly went back home so he couldn't hear us talking.
“Do you think it is starting?” I asked Steve.
“I think so. It is about time.” He said.
~* I find myself again in that strange corridor without any doors around and unable to see the end of it.
'Come on, not this again. It is getting ridiculous. This gotta be a dream.' I thought to myself.
Okay, that is new. The other times I never had thought of this being a dream and I wondered if that's what people call lucid dreaming.
'I better get moving and find that dammed door so I can get out of here.' I thought and started walking again.
After a long time I saw Danielle again. She was sitting on the floor but she wasn't crying this time.
“Hello Danielle.” I greeted her.
“Hi Dan. It is nice to see you again. At least this time you remembered my name.”
“I remembered it from the last time I was here.”
“I know.”
“This is a dream, isn't it?”
“Yes, Dan. This is a dream.”
“But why do I know this is a dream? I never knew that before.”
“I'm not sure.”
“But you know something, don't you?”
“Yes, but I can't tell you that. You have to figure out yourself.”
“Is there ANYTHING you can tell me?”
“Just that it is starting.”
“What is starting?”
“Your journey to discover who you are.”
“But I know who I am.”
“Do you really? Don't you have any doubts about that? Don't you feel something is not quite right about your life?”
“Well... I'm not sure. I never really thought about that.”
“No, you did think about that. That is one of the reasons you forgot about me. I know you Dan, better than you know yourself.”
“How can you know?”
“This is a dream, remember? Everything you know, I know. Also I know things you don't remember or refuses to.”
“Let me guess, you can't tell me which things I don't remember, right?”
“You catch on quickly.” She said grinning.
“Okay. But there is anything you can tell me about the door? Why is so hard for me to open it?”
“I can't tell you much about it, and you still didn't open it because you are afraid of what is on the other side.”
“And what is on the other side.”
“I can't tell you that. All I can say is that the answers you seek are on the other side of it.”
“Grrrrr.... Are you always that cryptic?”
“I'm sorry Dan. If I could I would tell you. You are very important to me and there is nothing that I want more that you remember who I am, but I can't. To do that will serve no purpose. You need to figure it out yourself in order to find out who you really are.”
“But why do I keep dreaming about that dammed door every night?”
“Because you are getting ready to open it. The time for your awakening is approaching.”
“Awakening?”
“Yes, awakening as in removing the veil of your eyes and finally remember all the things you forgot.”
“Will I be able to open the door tonight?”
“I don't know.”
“But I do have to try, don't I?”
“If you wish to.”
“Did anyone tell you that talking to you can be very frustrating?”
“No, you are the only one I can talk to.”
“Oh yeah. I forgot this is a dream for a second. I better go try to open that door. This is getting out of hand. I want my regular dreams back.”
“Good luck with that Dan. I hope we can see each other again.”
“If I do open the door, will I be able to see you again?”
“More times than you can imagine.” She said smiling.
“What do you mean by that?”
“You will find out soon, Dan.”
“I better go, this talk is giving me a headache.”
“Good luck.”
“Bye Danielle.”
I turned around and kept walking towards the door. I looked back again to see if she would disappear like she did last night and when I looked back she wasn't there anymore.
'Okay, I really need to open that door. I can't take this much longer, I feel like I'm about to go insane.'
I kept walking towards the door and again like last night each step started to become harder to make than the previous one.
'It feels like something doesn't want me to open the door. But I have to do it.'
I kept walking slowly and after a long time I finally reached the door. I could feel a lot of things coming from it, some really bad things but also some extremely good ones things that I can't put on words yet because it is all overwhelming to me. It's like everything coming at once, confusing me and scaring the crap out of me.
I was about to reach for the doorknob when... ~*
The alarm started to scream at me again.
“Dammit, not again.” I said loudly as the alarm woke me up.
'This is ridiculous. Why the alarm has to wake me up every time at that point?' I thought.
'Why did I know I was dreaming this time? Maybe I will be able to open that door soon? I hope so.'
I decided to go on with my morning routine instead of writing the dream down as I felt I wouldn't forget this dream easily.
While having my morning shower I couldn't shake the feeling that Ashley and Steve know something about what is going on, but if they do, why aren't they telling me? They are my best friends and I trust them, but why can't I shake this feeling off? We grew up together and they were always there for me as I was always there for them. We don't have any secrets from each other. Maybe I am just being paranoid. That's it, I'm just being paranoid and my promise to Ashley probably had a bigger effect on me than I thought. Maybe I'm just scared that she might be able to pull it off and make me look like a girl. That's all there is, isn't it?
I went down to breakfast and mom was already there setting up the table.
“Good morning Dan. Did you sleep well?” She asked me.
“Morning, mom. Sort of. I keep having this really strange dream for the last few nights and it is really bugging me. Where is dad?”
“He left for work early today. Can you tell me about your dreams?”
“Sure, mom.” I said and started to tell her about the dreams and the things Danielle said. When I finished she had the same strange look Ashley and Steve had yesterday.
“Mom? Do you know something about those dreams?” I asked her
“N...no. Of course not.”
“So why do you have that look on your face?”
“What kind of look?”
“The look that you know something and are afraid to let is show.”
“I... I don't know anything, sweetie. It's just that it was a very strange dream and I was thinking about it, that's all.”
I sighed and said. “Okay mom. I know that if you knew something you would tell me. It's just that I'm getting tired of these dreams and I really want someone to know what the heck is going on so they can tell me. It is making me a little paranoid I think.”
“I'm sure you will find out sooner or later, after all they are your dreams. Maybe they are trying to tell you something and you are just afraid of what it might be.”
“I think you are right mom. The good old fear of the unknown, right?”
“I think so. Probably when your curiosity becomes stronger than the fear you will find out.”
“I hope so.” I said with a long sigh.
“Are you going to your friends house today?”
“Yes, right after breakfast.”
“I hope you have fun. Any big plans for today?”
“Not really. I think we will just hang out together and maybe study a little.”
(Megan) Dan's mom
Dan just left to see his friends when I collapsed to the floor and started to cry. I cried like I never did before.
'Oh my goddess. It is starting. I dreaded this moment for so long. She promised me that it wouldn't happen before his 18th birthday, but why is this happening now? Am I going to lose my son? I don't want to lose him. I love him so much. Please don't let me lose him.'
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“Hey Dan. Good morning.” Steve greets me as he sees me arriving at his house.
“Hey Steve. Good morning for you too. What are you doing out here? Isn't is getting a little cold to stay outside?”
“I just got outside. Came to get the newspaper.” He said lifting the newspaper and showing it to me.
“Oh. Didn't your dad pick it up this morning?”
“Nah. He and mom went out of town for the weekend. Something about needing to relax a bit.”
“So they won't be around?”
“Nope. They won't interrupt us.”
“Isn't there a way for us to not to do this?”
“Yeah, you can run away, but then you would break your promise to Ashley and she would never forgive you.”
“Aren't you exaggerating a bit?”
“Maybe, but she would definitely not speak to you for a few weeks.”
“Okay, okay. Let's get inside already. I'm freezing out here,”
We went inside and Ashley came running to me and gave me a big hug.
“Good morning Dan.” She said with a heart melting smile.
“Good morning Ashley.”
“Are you ready for today?” She asked excitedly.
“I'm scared shitless, Ash. I don't know what scares me the most. To look like a guy in a dress or that you pull it off and I look like a girl.”
“Are you afraid to look like a girl?”
“Yeah. I don't know why but I keep getting this feeling you will probably pull it off and I am scared. What if I look like a girl? What will it mean?”
“It won't mean anything you don't want.” She told me.
“I think you will look great, a real babe.” Steve said and I blushed.
“Did you shave like I told you to?” Ashley asked.
“Hummm.... I forgot?”
“You forgot?”
“Yeah, I had other things in my mind, okay? I had that same dream again, and every time something new happens. This time I was aware it was a dream.”
“Really?” Steve asked.
“Yeah. And I had a big talk to that Danielle girl. Man that girl is cryptic. She would never give me a straight answer. It was always I can't tell you or you will have to figure it out yourself. I feel like I am supposed to know her, but I can't remember her. Wait, if I am supposed to know her, maybe you two are supposed to know her too, after all we grew up together and we know all of each others friends.”
I see a mild panic look on their eyes after I said that.
“You know her, don't you?”
“N...not really.” Steve said.
“Ashley?”
“I think maybe we met once or twice.” She said.
“And who was she?”
“I don't know.” She said.
“Come on Ash, I know you know more than you are telling me. I never lied or hid things from you. Don't do that to me, please.” I pleaded.
“I'm sorry Dan. I can't tell you that, not yet.”
“Why can't you tell me?”
“Because you are not ready to know, and if I did you wouldn't believe me anyway.”
“So you do know something about what is happening.”
“Yes, and we are trying to help you.” Steve said.
“By dressing me up as a girl?”
“Yes.” He said.
“But why?”
“I think things will be a bit clearer after Ashley works her magic on you.”
“Magic?”
“Yeah, fashion magic.” She said.
“There is no way you two are going to tell me anything before that?”
“No.” They said together.
I sighed and said. “Okay. Let's get over it then.”
“Okay Dan, first you will need to shave your legs and armpits.” She said giving me a lady's razor.
“And how do I do that?” I asked her?
“Want me to do it for you?” She asked coyly.
“I don't know. I don't think so.” I said feeling embarrassed.
“Come on Dan, we grew up together. You can keep your underwear on.”
“It's not that.” I said.
“What is it?”
“I don't like to show my body.”
“Come on Dan, I won't make fun of you, okay?”
“O...Okay.”
We went to the bathroom and she asked me to strip down to my underwear. Of course Steve is downstairs waiting in the living room under the threat of losing his balls if he tries to peek on us. By the time I undressed I was blushing from head to toes, I never felt so embarrassed in my entire life before.
Ashley stood there looking at me for a few moments then shook her head.
I won't go into details about the shaving as it was one of the most embarrassing and sensual experiences I ever had. Good thing I never had an erection or I would have been even more embarrassed by now.
We got out of the bathroom and she led me to her room. As soon we got in she closed her door and asked me. “How long has this been happening?”
“What?”
“Your body.”
“What about my body?”
“You are getting a figure.”
“Huh?”
“Look at yourself in the mirror and tell me what you see.”
I turned around to see myself in her full lengh mirror and I said. “I see myself, why?”
“Don't you notice anything strange?”
“Like what?”
“Your waist. You are getting an hourglass figure.”
“WHAT? You mean like a girl's figure?”
“Yes. Didn't you notice it before?”
“No. I'm pretty sure I didn't have that figure a few days ago.” I told her.
“You mean it happened in just a few days?”
“I think so. I'm not sure. It's not like I look myself in the mirror much. And I don't have a full length mirror either.”
“So it might be happening longer than a few days?”
“I... I suppose. Ash, I'm scared.” I said starting to shake.
“What's wrong?” She asked me.
“I...I don't know.”
“Shhh... It will be okay.” She said hugging me.
“I'm scared.” I told her.
“Scared of what?”
“I feel like I don't know who I am anymore. I am scared that you will be able to make me look like a girl and I don't know how I will react.”
“Do you want to do it another time? We can wait a few days if you want to. I don't want to hurt you Dan. If this is too much for you to take right now we can wait.”
“No, I made a promise and I need to know.”
“If its because of that stupid promise you don't need to do it.” She said.
“Okay, it started because of the promise, but now I feel like I need to go through with this, I have to know. I am scared to death but something tells me I need to do it. I know it sounds crazy as I was still trying to get out of this when I got here.”
“Are you sure about that?” She said worriedly.
“Yes Ashley, I'm sure.
“Okay.” She said and went to her dresser and picked up a pair of panties.
“First you need to take off your ugly boxers and put this on.” She said giving me the panties.
“What? Are you serious?” I asked her.
“Hey, you gotta do it right or don't do it at all.” She said.
“Okay, okay. But turn around or I won't do it.” I told her.
She turned around and I took off my boxers. I picked up the panties and looked at it for a long time unsure of which side to put them on. I studied it a bit and decided to try to put it myself, the worst thing it would happen was that I would need to take it off and put it back on. I decided not to ask for Ashley's advice afraid that if I said anything she would want to put the dammed thing on me herself.
I put the panties on and it felt comfortable, too comfortable. 'I guess I got it right' I thought to myself.
“You can turn around now.” I told her.
She turned around and looked at me. I started to blush the second she looked at that panties.
“You are looking great, Dan. Did you tuck yourself?”
“Huh? Tuck?”
“Yeah, put your thing between your legs.” She said.
“No, I didn't know I needed to do that.”
“Apparently you don't need to. I don't see any bulge.”
I just sighed at that. It seems my little friend is smaller than I thought it was.
Next she handed me a bra to wear.
“What is this?” I asked her knowing exactly what it was.”
“You know what it is.”
“But why would I need one? I don't have anything on top.”
“Not yet, she said.”
“What do you mean?”
“Just put it on. Don't tell me you are going to fight me the whole time. If you are we will stop this right now.” She said angrily.
“I'm sorry, Ash.” I said sheepishly
It took me a few tries and a few minutes for me to put that damned bra on, and I only did it because Ashley helped me.
After that she decided to fuss with my hair, trying to give it a more feminine look. Oh I don't think I said before but I had a dark brown hair, almost black and it is about shoulder length. She took her time on my hair, combing it and trying different things. It was quite relaxing actually. She said my hair was still a little damp and used the hair dryer.
“You should have dried your hair correctly before leaving your house, Dan. It's too cold outside and you could get sick.” She admonished me.
“I'm sorry.”
“Okay, now the hair is done.”
“Can I take a look?”
“I think it is better not. I want you to see the end result when you are ready. She said and I noticed she covered her room mirrors.
'When did she do that?'
“I bet you are wondering when I covered the mirrors.”
“Are you psychic now?”
“I would be wondering the same thing.”
“Well?”
“Well what?”
“When did you cover them.”
“I'm not telling.” She said grinning
“Grrrrr.”
Again I won't get into details about the rest of my 'makeover' as I am still too embarrassed to talk about. Let's just say I blushed every step of the way, specially when she added some pads into the bra cups and made it look like I had breasts, they even jiggled every time I moved. There was also a couple times I feared for my eyes when she was doing my makeup. Yes makeup. She made me wear makeup too. Also she refused to let me wear pants and made me wear a skirt, something about making me look as feminine as possible. Thankfully we are not going outside so I won't get cold.
“I think we are done.” She finally said.
“It was about time.” I said.
“Come on, it wasn't so bad.”
“No I just feared for my life a couple times when you went to put the eyeliner on me.” I said.
“Don't be such a baby. You'll get used to it in no time. Now get up and let me give you a good look.” She said.
I slowly got up and she kept looking at me with a strange expression on her face.
“Ash? Do I look that bad?”
“Huh? Sorry.” She said shaking her head a little. “You look that good.”
“Can I see how I look?”
“Sure. I hope you are ready for this.”
“Come on, Ash. Don't make me sweat.”
“Okay.” She said leading me to the full length mirror.
“Are you ready?” She asked me.
“No, but I need to do see.” I told her.
“Okay. Close your eyes while I uncover the mirror.”
I closed my eyes. A few moments later she said. “You can open your eyes now.”
I slowly opened my eyes and looked at the mirror. When I saw the girl on the mirror everything went black and I fainted.
(Megan)
I was still crying when I heard the doorbell. I tried to make myself presentable and went to answer the door. When I opened the door I saw a pretty blond girl, about Dan's age standing there.
“Can I help you?” I asked her.
“Hello Megan. I came to talk to you about my daughter.”
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*~ I found myself in a big room feeling confused about how I got there. I looked around and see the door. 'Oh crap, not another dream.' I thought to myself.
“Hi.” I heard her voice coming from behind me.
I turned around to face her and asked. “What am I doing here? Where am I?”
“You fainted and ended up here.” She said.
“I fainted?”
“Don't you remember what were you doing?”
“I was at Ashley's house. We were... well...”
“Dressing you up as a girl?”
“How did you know that?”
“I know everything you know, remember?”
“Oh yeah, I forgot about that.”
“So you were at Ashley's and she was dressing you up as a girl.”
“Right.”
“So, what happened next?”
“Why do I need to tell you? Don't you know what happened?”
“I do, but I think you need to remember it too.”
“Okay, she was dressing me up, after she finished she took me to her full length mirror and asked me to close my eyes.”
“Go on.”
“Then she said I could open my eyes, I did so slowly afraid of what I would see. When I looked at the mirror I fainted.”
“What did you see in the mirror?”
“I... I... don't know. I... can't remember.”
“Can't or don't want to?”
“I don't know.”
“Do you want to know?”
“I do, but I am scared.”
“Scared of what?”
“Of what I will see.”
“You don't need to be scared to see yourself.”
“I guess not. But I am scared.”
“Do you want to keep running from yourself?”
“What do you mean by that?”
“I meant exactly what I asked. Do you want to keep running from yourself? Are you afraid of who you are or who you might be?”
“I guess I am afraid to find out who am I. I thought I knew but now I'm not so sure anymore.”
“Do you want to open that door?”
“You know I do.”
“You won't be able to do it unless you face yourself first.”
“Is there another way?”
“You can avoid facing yourself and keep dreaming about the door. Sooner or later you will be forced to do it or go insane.”
“Then I better get on with it. What do I do?”
“Close your eyes and try to remember looking at the mirror.”
I closed my eyes and started to remember the moment Ashley asked me to open my eyes. I remembered opening and looking at the mirror. The image is a bit fuzzy.
“What do you see?” She said gently.
With my eyes still closed I answered. “The image is fuzzy. I can't see it clearly.”
“Keep looking at the mirror, try to relax, breath slowly. There is nothing to be afraid of.”
I took a few good deep slow breaths and started to relax a little. She is right I can't be afraid of myself. Slowly the image started to get into focus. Slowly I started to recognize the face in the mirror.
“OH MY GOD!!!” I yelled and started to shake.
“What did you see?” I could clearly hear the anticipation in her voice.
“I... don't... understand.” I said shaking. “I... saw... you.... me...”
She hugged me for a long time and tried to calm me down a little.
“Everything will be fine. I know it is scary.” She said in a soft voice.
After a long time I finally calmed down a little. I looked at her and asked. “Am I you or are you me?” ~*
(Ashley)
I saw Dan look at the mirror looking transfixed at his (her?) own image and suddenly collapse on the floor.
“STEVE!!!!” I yelled.
Steve came running into my room and saw Dan on the floor unconsious.
“What happened?”
“Dan was looking at the mirror and when saw her reflection she fainted.” I said.
“Did you notice you just referred Dan as her?” He said while picking Dan up and placing her on my bed.
“Look at her. Can you call her him right how?” I asked.
“No I can't, and she looks even more beautiful than I remember.” He said.
“I know. How long has it been?”
“3 years since we last saw her.”
“I missed her so much.” I said. “But I think we went a bit too far. I hope she is okay.
“She will be okay. She has to.” Steve said and sat by the bed looking at Dan's unconscious body.
“You love her, don't you?” I asked him.
“Yes I do, sis. More than life itself. Am I crazy for feeling this way?”
“Not at all, Steve. I love her too, but like a sister so you don't need to feel jealous.”
“I'm afraid she will never be able to see me as nothing more than a friend.” He said sadly.
“Give her time, Steve. Everything will be too new for her and she will be confused. There is so much she can't remember right now. I hope those things will come back in time. Don't lose your hope just yet.”
“I won't. She is worth the wait.” He said and hold her hand lovingly. “I just hope she wakes up soon.”
(Megan)
“Aren't you going to invite me in?” The girl asked.
“Goddess? Is that you?”
“I'm glad you remember me Megan.” She said with a smile.
“Come in.” I said nervously.
She came inside and sat on the sofa. She motioned for me to do the same.
“Megan, I came here to talk about my daughter.”
“You mean Dan?”
“I think we should call her Danni.” The goddess said.
“It started, didn't it?”
“It did. I don't know why it happened now. It should happen only in a little over a year.”
“I don't want to lose my child.” I told her in tears.
“Who told you that it would happen? I never said you would lose your child when she reached 18.”
“But.. but I thought.”
“You thought that because she would finally become the girl she was supposed to be I would take her from you, right?”
“Yes.”
“Why would I do that?”
“Because she is your daughter. I am just her surrogate mother.”
“Oh Megan. I would never take your child away from you.” The Goddess said.
“You won't take her away?”
“No. She is much your daughter than she is mine.”
“I don't understand.” I said.
“Megan, genetically she is much your daughter than she is mine. I wanted a daughter and not a clone so I used the genetic code of one of your eggs to fertilize one of mine and place it in your womb.”
“So you mean she is really my child?”
“Yes Megan. I'm sorry I didn't tell you before. I shouldn’t have kept that from you.”
“But why did you use the code from one of my eggs and fertilized one of yours and not the opposite?”
“Because I wanted my daughter to grow up to become a goddess like myself.”
“So my daughter will be a goddess? And I am really her mother?”
“Yes, she is our daughter and she will be a goddess. It beats becoming a Doctor, doesn't it?”
“She could become a doctor too if she wants to too.” I said. “But why is this happening now?”
“I don't know. A lot of things has been happening lately and maybe it is time after all.”
“You think she will be able to control her abilities?”
“I think so, and she is older now.”
“I just don't want to go through what happened three years ago again.”
“I know. The first time her abilities surfaced was terrible enough.”
“Did you find out what happened to make them surface?”
“Her abilities are tied to her true feminine self. At the time she was exploring that without you knowing and something extremely stressful must have happened, forcing her abilities to surface to protect her.”
“And what happened?”
“I never found out. I had to suppress any knowledge she had of her true self in order to avoid a bigger tragedy. She wasn't ready for her abilities. If she is regaining her knowledge now we might find out.”
(Dan)
*~ “I am you.” She said to me.
“Why didn't you tell me before?”
“Would you believe me if I did?”
“No I wouldn't. So what do we do now?”
“Now you need to open the door and remember the things you forgot. The things you were forced to forget.”
“Forced to forget? Why?”
“That I don't know. I wish I did.”
“Will I still be myself after I remember?”
“You will still be yourself, but you will also change a little.”
“Change how?”
“You will be complete, have a better understanding about yourself and be happier because of that. Also I will be free too.”
“Free?”
“Yes, when you remember everything we will be one once again. You were forced to forget everything about me, that caused me to appear here. I am not real I am just an echo of those memories you lost.”
“So if I open that door and I remember everything I will never see you again?”
“Of course you will see me again. You will see me every time you look in the mirror. I am you.”
“You mean I will become a girl?”
“What do you mean become a girl?”
“Well, you are a girl and I am a boy.”
“Are you really a boy?”
“I am. At least I think I am.”
“Don't you think you should have all the information necessary before making that assumption?”
“I guess you are right. You think I will be able to open that door now?”
“Yes, I think you will.”
“Okay Danielle. Wish me luck.”
“Good luck Danielle.” She said giving me one last hug.
I walked towards the door and this time the steps weren't hard as they were the other times. I quickly reached the door. I turned around to see her smiling at me and giving me an encouraging nod.
I was still afraid of what was on the other side but that fear seemed meaningless. I knew I had to face whatever is on the other side. I gave her a last smile and I turned back to face the door. I reached for the doorknob, grabbed it, turned it and finally opened that door.~*
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Here I am sitting beside Ashley’s bed where Danni is unconscious. It has been over an hour now and she still didn’t wake up.
“I’m getting worried, Ashley. She has been unconscious for too long.”
“I think it was just the shock, Steve. She will wake up soon, I hope.”
“God I hope so. I’m so worried about her. I think that maybe we pushed things too fast and too far.”
“Maybe we did. But I don’t think there was any other way. I miss my best friend and it was so hard to see her suffering and not knowing why.”
“I still don’t know what happened 3 years ago. One day she was so happy and bubbly, having fun with us and the next day Dan was there and it was like some spark left his eyes. And it was like didn’t remember anything about Danni.”
“I know. It was terrible. When Dan forgot about Danni he never really smiled anymore.”
“You think Dan will ever be Danni again?”
“I think so. I think that according to the dreams Dan told us about Danni is screaming to get out. I just hope we didn’t mess up.”
“What could have happened to make such a drastic change in just one day?” I asked.
“I have no idea, but it was probably something really bad.” She said worriedly.
(Megan)
“Goddess, do you think there is any way to postpone her awakening?”
“Maybe if we get to her in time, but I don’t know if it would be wise.”
“Why not?”
“Because if we do that again and she finds out later she will probably hate us. Doing it the first time was bad enough. We can explain to her why we did it the first time, but there would be no real motive for us to do it again. She is awakening before we planned but maybe there is a reason for it.”
“What kind of reason?”
“I’m not sure yet. There are some things happening lately but I don’t know if it is related to what is happening to our daughter.”
“You know, you should have told me the truth about her being my daughter too. I don’t mean to disrespect you but I think I deserved the truth.”
“I’m sorry about that. When I used my magic to conceive her using our eggs I wasn’t the same person I am today.”
“I don’t understand.”
“Recently the way I look at things has been changing. We, the gods, for too long been apart from humanity, thinking we are better than humans because we are more powerful and immortal. Lately I met some people that is making me review those beliefs.”
“Is that why you look like that?”
“Not exactly, I choose this appearance because it would help me fit in with those people better and I thought it would be fun to be a teenager for a while, after all I never been one before.”
“Does it mean you assumed a human identity? Are you going to high school?”
“Yes to both questions. It is easier to interact with them better and protect them if the need arises.”
“Why are you telling me all this?”
“I’m not sure. Probably because I trust you and we do have a daughter together. I know you won’t tell anyone what we talked about. After all who would believe?”
“You have a point there. If I told anyone that I have a daughter with a goddess that looks like a teenager I would end up in the funny farm wearing a straightjacket in no time.”
“I would never allow that to happen, Megan. Danielle needs you.”
(Ashley)
I’m really getting worried now. It’s been two hours and Dan still didn’t wake up. ’What is going on inside her mind? Was the shock of seeing her reflection that big?’
“Steve, I’m getting worried. Maybe we should call her mother.”
“And tell her what? That we were dressing her son like a girl and he fainted when he saw his reflection?”
“I don’t think we have any choice.”
“We could dress her back into the clothes she was wearing when she came here.” He said.
“I don’t think it would be right. She needs to know what happened. We need to take responsibility.”
“But if we tell her the truth she will probably forbid Dan to see us again.” He said worriedly.
“And make Dan even more miserable? I don’t think so.”
“What about her father?”
“If he tries anything funny I will let you do whatever you want to him.”
“If he hurts her, he will wish he was never born.” He said with anger in his eyes.
“I’ll make the call.”
(Megan)
I was still talking to the goddess when my cell phone started to ring. I looked at her and she nodded, allowing me to answer the call.
“Hello.”
“Aunt Megan? This is Ashley. You need to come to my house quickly.”
“Ashley? What happened?”
“It’s Dan. He fainted over 2 hours ago and still didn’t wake up.”
“WHAT? I’ll be right there.” I said and turned off the phone.
“Goddess, something happened to Danni. She fainted 2 hours ago and still didn’t wake up.”
“WHAT? Where is she?”
“She is at her friend’s house. She is a neighbor and grew up together with Danni.”
“Then she probably knows about her.”
“I think so.”
“We better go there right now.”
“You think you should go?” I asked.
“No, I don’t think. I know I need to go.”
(Ashley)
Not long after I left the phone the doorbell rang. I opened the door and Dan’s mom was there together with a girl I never saw before.
“Where is sh... he?” Dan’s mom said.
Did I hear that right? Did she almost called Dan she?
“He is up in my bedroom. Come.” I said and we went hurriedly to my bedroom.
When we got there they saw Danni unconscious body and noticed how she was dressed.
“Why is she dressed like that?” Aunt Megan asked.
Before I could answer her I started to feel a light draft that soon became a wind. I looked at Danni and it felt like the air around her was moving, her hair was all over the place.
“What is happening?” I asked.
“She is awakening.” The girl said.
I looked at Danni again and it looked like she was starting to float a few inches over the mattress like the wind was lifting her. Steve had a shocked look on his face and I think I probably had the same look on mine.
“W…what is going on?” Steve asked.
“You caused her to awaken prematurely.” The girl cryptically said.
“Awaken?” I asked.
“Yes, she is awakening to her true nature, her heritage.”
I looked at Danni again and it looked like she was starting to change, not much, just subtle things. It seemed like she was developing right before our eyes.
“Oh my God. She is turning into a girl.” I exclaimed.
“No, she was always a girl. She is just maturing how she was supposed to.”
“Who the hell are you? How do you know these things?” Steve asked angrily.
“Steve, don’t talk to her like that. Show some respect.” Danni’s mom admonished me.
“Respect? I never saw her before and she seems to know what is going on with Danni. I want answers dammit.” He said with anger in his eyes.
“I can see you care deeply about her, Steve. The answers will come after she wakes up.”
(Danni)
*~As I said before I opened that fraking damned door that haunted my dreams for days. When I opened it at first I didn’t see anything so I slowly decided to step inside. I didn’t know what to expect but certainly it wasn’t what happened. As soon as I got inside the door closed and a bright light blinded me. I was overwhelmed by the memories flowing, at first came memories that I treasured so much and was forgotten. The ones that were among the most precious were the times I spent as Danielle with Ashley and Steve.
Steve. Oh Steve. I remember now. 3 years ago the best and the worst day of my life. The day we finally kissed. My very first kiss. We were hanging out in his place with Ashley, talking, playing games and having fun. I had such a crush on him. I think Ashley noticed that because she decided to give us some time alone saying she had something to do but wouldn’t take long. Such a lame excuse but it was exactly what I was hoping for. We were young I was 13 and Steve was just 14.
Ashley went upstairs leaving me and Steve alone in the living room. He looked so cute and was blushing furiously. I confess I was blushing too. We were just kids but our feelings for each other were growing. As I said before we grew up together and he was my best friend, well… he and Ashley of course. We stayed there a long time quiet, blushing and exchanging quick glances at each other. I didn’t think he would have any courage to say anything when Ashley came back and smacked him on the back of his head.
“You big dope! Kiss her already.” She said.
“What?”
“Kiss her you silly boy. Don’t you see she likes you?” At that point I was blushing from head to toes hoping a big hole appeared on the floor and swallow me in.
He turned to me and said. “Is it true?”
All I could do is blush even more and nod a bit.
“I like you too.” He said and I swear that when he said that my heart skipped a beat.
“Y…you do?”
“Y…yeah.”
“Really?”
“Really.”
“Really really?” Gosh I probably sounded like a broken record by now.
“Yes.”
“Kiss her or she will keep saying really.” Ashley said giggling.
He looked at me and said. “Do you want to me to kiss you?” Again all I could do was nod.
He came closer to me and I closed my eyes, uncertain of exactly what to do. After what it seemed to be a long time I was about to open my eyes thinking he would never kiss me when I felt his lips touch mine. I swear I saw fireworks right then. No there was no tongue involved. Just lips to lips contact but it melt me.
Too soon the kiss ended and I opened my eyes to see his face so close to mine. He had a big smile on his face and I am sure I had a bigger one on mine. The rest of the day I felt like I was walking on air. I was so happy.
It was getting dark when I got out of Steve and Ashley’s house. My house is pretty close to theirs, just four houses away. I was almost reaching home when I felt someone grab me from behind and put something on my mouth. After that everything went black.
I think it was a long time before I woke up in a strange place. I wondered where I was when a man appeared.
“Well, well. It seems the little faggot decided to wake up.”
“W…where am I?”
“It doesn’t matter. You won’t live long enough.” He said. “But before I kill you I will have some fun with you.”
“W…what a…are you g…g…going to do w…with me?”
“What do you think I’m going to do you little freak? First I’m going to have some fun with you then I’m going to beat your faggot ass and after that I am going to kill you.”
He came closer to me with a knife and started to cut my clothes off. At that moment I felt something build inside of me. I just wanted for him to leave me alone. I didn’t do anything to him. I didn’t want to die. I wanted to be with Steve. The anger kept growing and growing and suddenly I released it. I don’t know what happened because suddenly it seemed I was in the center of a hurricane. I looked around and only saw destruction before I passed out.
I was sure I heard someone talk to me after that, lifting me up and carrying me away. I felt so safe and loved right then and I knew everything would be okay.
The next day Dan woke up. Unaware of what happened the day before and about all the good times as Danielle. He felt empty and sad but didn’t know why. For a while Steve and Ashley acted very strangely around me but over time things seemed to get better.~*
I felt like I was floating on air and I heard some voices far away, too far to understand what they are talking about.
I can feel him next to me. Steve, my Steve. I can smell him. I slowly open my eyes to see him right there, sitting next to the bed looking at me.
“Dan? Are you okay?” He asked me.
“Dan is no more. I remember now. I am Danielle.” I said looking at his gorgeous bluish green eyes.
“You remember? Everything?” He asked me.
“Yes, everything.” I said and gave him a peck on his lips.
He blushed furiously, just like that day. Then I heard some other voices. I looked around and saw Ashley, my mom and another girl were there looking at us.
“Mom? What are you doing here?” I asked her.
“You fainted, sweetie. We were worried about you.”
“Did you see what I just did?” I asked nervously.
“Yes I did. Do you like him?”
“I do, mom. Does it makes me gay?”
“Gay? Did you take a good look at yourself?” She asked me.
“Huh?”
“Come here sweetie. I will let you see. Just promise me you won’t faint this time.”
“I’ll try not to.” I told her.
Mom guided me to the mirror and I took a good look at my reflection. I looked a little older now. Before I looked like a 13 or 14 year old. Now I looked my age. I had curves and I had… breasts?
“Mom? What happened?” I asked her. “Am I a girl?”
“Yes, sweetie. You are a girl.”
“H…how?”
“You just awakened to your heritage, child.” The girl said.
“My heritage? Who are you?”
I saw her look at mom and for a second and then she came closer to me, looked deeply into my eyes and said. “I am Artemis, the goddess of the hunt and you are my daughter.”
What can I say? I fainted again right there at that moment.
I opened my eyes to find myself again on Ashley’s bed looking at Steve. “How long was I out?”
“Not long. We just laid you down on the bed.” Steve said.
“I had a strange dream. I dreamed I woke up as a girl and a strange girl said she was a goddess and was my mother.” I told him.
“Huh… Danni?” Steve said
“Yeah?”
“It wasn’t a dream.”
“W…what?”
“Look.” He said pointing at something.
“I turned my head to where he was pointing to and I see mom, Ashley and that girl.”
“W….what is going on?” I asked them.
“Don’t ask me. I have no idea.” Ashley said.
“Mom?”
“Oh sweetie. What do you remember?”
“Not much, only that I woke up as a girl and that girl said she was my mother. That can’t be true, right?”
I looked at mom and the look at her eyes said it all.
“Mom? Is it true?”
“Yes, sweetie, it is.” She said in tears.
“Bu…but, If she is my mother does it mean you are not my real mom?”
“No my daughter, she is your mother as much as I am.” Artemis said.
“What about dad? Is he my father?”
“Not biologically.” She said.
“Are you really a goddess?”
“Yes, I am the goddess Artemis, but you can call me Diana, that’s the name I am using right now.”
“Why did I wake up as a girl? “
“You were always a girl. You only had a pseudo-male body.”
“B..but why?”
“For your protection. I had to disguise you.”
“My protection? Protection from what?”
“I couldn’t let the others know you existed. I didn’t want you to be raised among the gods. The disguise was to mask your true nature.”
“My nature?”
“Yes my daughter. You are also a goddess and from what I noticed you are attuned to the winds.”
‘Me? A goddess? Have the world gone nuts?’ I thought to myself
At that moment I started to feel angry. I just noticed that my entire life was a lie.
“Why didn’t I remember about me being Danielle?”
“I had to repress those memories. You were awakening too early and was too young to safely control your abilities in the human world.”
“WHAT? You did it on purpose?”
“I had to. There was no other way.” She said sadly.
“No other way? You made me forget my most precious memories. You made me suffer for so long, feeling that something was missing inside of me. “
“I’m sorry, but I didn’t want to risk losing you. Your abilities had just emerged and you cause a lot of destruction.”
“I remember. I was being ATACKED by a man that wanted to rape me and then kill me. I felt something building inside of me and I just released it. The next thing I remember was being in the center of what looked like debris caused by a tornado.”
“You were attacked?” Steve asked.
At that moment I started to cry. It just dawned to me that I had probably killed the guy and maybe others too.
Steve sat beside me and held me tight. I kept crying on his chest and said between sobs. “I… think… I… killed… him.”
“I never knew that. We never find out what happened.” Mom said coming closer to me and hugging me.
When she hugged me I pushed her away. “Don’t touch me.” I yelled.
“You knew everything, didn’t you? You knew I was a girl all along, didn’t you?”
“Yes… I did.” Mom said with her head lowered incapable of looking at me.
“You two have no idea what you did, do you? Before that I was happy but because you thought I wasn’t ready you made me forget everything that was dear to me? The guy tried to rape me and I protected myself, but you two succeeded in raping my mind. I spent 3 years feeling empty inside. You have any idea how many times I thought of ending it all? I woke up every day trying to find a reason to keep going.”
“You said you didn’t want to lose me? What you did almost made me take my own life. The only thing that kept me going was Steve and Ashley. They were always there for me. No wonder I felt empty. You made me forget how I felt about STEVE. I might have been young and I was falling in love with him and you TOOK THAT AWAY FROM ME! And what for? Because you love me? Because you didn’t want to lose me? I don’t even KNOW you!”
“What do you want from me? To be my mother? Too late. You two made sure that almost everything in my life was a lie and expect me to forgive you? Think again.”
Before anyone could say anything I stormed out of the room and started to run and cry.
(Ashley)
I saw Danni storm out and Steve running after her not long after.
I turned to Danni’s mother and the ‘goddess’ and said. “You two really messed things up.”
Danni’s mother (sorry I can’t call her aunt Megan right now) just sat on the floor and kept crying.
“My baby hates me now. I lost her. I lost her” She kept saying over and over again.
“Danielle will come back. She just need some time.” The ‘goddess’ said. I know I should respect a goddess more but I can’t, not after what she did to Danni.
“Do you think she will ever forget you? Do you have any idea how happy she was just before you made her forget about being Danielle?”
“No I haven’t. I remember feeling something was wrong with her and when I found her I found her in the center of a tornado she created. Not long after that the tornado was gone and I saw her collapse. She wasn’t ready for that kind of power and the only way to contain it until she could handle it was doing what I did.”
“You could have trained her.” I said.
“That would take months, maybe even a year where she would have to be apart from her family and friends.”
“It is better than forgetting the feelings you have about the person you love and forgetting who you are. She was so happy. After you did whatever you did I never saw her smile a single time. It was like a spark left her. Her eyes were empty. She was just existing. She wasn’t living at all. What did you expect to happen when she regained her memories?”
“I don’t know. I was too worried about her at the time and I did the only thing I thought could be done at the time. Now I probably lost my daughter, the daughter I longed for thousands of years because I was afraid of losing her.” She said crying openly now.
I looked at Danni’s mom and she was still there on the floor crying and saying the same thing over and over.
“I don’t know if she will ever forgive you but right now we need to help her ‘mother’. I think she is in shock.”
(Steve)
I kept running after Danni, calling her name but she was ignoring me. She was running faster than ever and I was having trouble keeping up to her.
After about 15 minutes we arrived at the park and I saw her collapsing on the ground next to a tree and cry. I called her name and started to walk towards her when I felt a strong gush of wind trying to push me back.
“ LEAVE ME ALONE” She yelled at me.
“I can’t. You are in pain and I can’t leave you alone like that.”
“Please leave me alone.” She said and another gush of wind almost knocked me of my feet.
“I can’t leave you alone dammit! I love you, don’t you see that?”
“Y…you love me?” She said still crying.
“I never stopped loving you, Danni.” I said while moving closer to her.
“B…but I thought….”
I sat down next to her and held her tight. “You thought that I stopped loving you because you forgot about us?”
“Y…yes.” She said crying to my chest.
“I could never stop loving you Danni. Why do you think we worked so hard in trying to make you remember?”
“Is that why you and Ashley dressed me up?”
“It was our last hope. We saw how miserable you were and we were afraid you would end up killing yourself if we didn’t do anything. I couldn’t stand the idea of losing you. Why do you think we came up with the Christmas elf idea? Christmas always were your favorite holiday.”
“I did think it was a bit strange. After all Christmas is still two months away. And next week is still Halloween.”
“I know. That’s why we came up with the pretense that you needed that time to practice. I know it was a low blow involving sick children but we didn’t know what to do.”
“Do you mean the Christmas elf thing is a lie?”
“No. It isn’t a lie, but we won’t force you to do it. You know we could never lie to you. You could always see in our faces when we did.”
“I know. I was sure you were lying when you said you didn’t know anything about the dreams I told you about.”
“I know and it pained me very much. We couldn’t tell you because you would never believe us.”
“I want to do it.” She said into my chest.
“Do what?”
“The elf thing. You know how much I love kids and it gave me warm feelings when you suggested it. I was at my hope’s end and it gave me a reason to keep going.”
We just stood there a long time holding each other in silence after that. I just noticed how close we were of losing her and hold her even tighter.
(Danni)
I stood there a long time in his embrace, his big strong arms around me, holding me tight. It made me feel safe and protected, a feeling I don’t remember ever having before. My father always seemed a little distant and now I know why. I know he loves me but I always felt like there was something between us. He never made me go into sports or forced me to do boy stuff. I guess he knew the truth and don’t know how to relate to me. Sometimes he would act indifferent and sometimes he seemed a little overprotective. I could always relate to mom better and we talked about almost everything. It hurts so bad to think I lived a lie all these years.
I raised my head and looked at Steve. “Steve, why do you think my parents lied to me?”
“I don’t know. Maybe they thought they were doing the right thing at the time.” He said.
“And what about Diana?”
“From what she told you I guess she was afraid. I know you were defending yourself but can you imagine what would happen if you lost control? What if you lost control while I was with you? You created a tornado. This is so strange.”
“God I could end up killing you if I lost control with you around.” I said and started to cry again. “I wouldn’t be able to handle killing you.”
“You would never hurt me, Danni. I know that. I was just giving an example of what could happen if Diana is right.”
“But she made me forget about myself, about us.”
“She did, but I think she did it out of love. She said you awakened prematurely that means you were meant to remember sooner or later. I guess you didn’t forget about us completely or you wouldn’t have worked so hard in remembering.”
“I thought it was because the dreams were making me crazy. I was afraid of what was on the other side, but every time I got close to that door I felt that there was something very dear to me there. I thought it was about Danielle but when I opened the door one of the first things that came to my mind after I recovered those lost memories was you, they way I felt about you. It was the day we kissed. I was my fondest and happiest memory.” I said and hugged him tighter.
“I am glad you came back. It was killing me to see you suffer like that.”
We kept holding each other for a long long time. I was basking in his warmth and loving embrace when I looked into his eyes and said.
“Steve?”
“Yeah?”
“You know I love you, don’t you?”
“I love you too, Danni.”
“So what are you waiting for? Kiss me already you big dope.”
And so he did. The poor boy can be so clueless.
Just like old times.