Turning Away: A Haiku in Nine Parts

Once I said to you,
This is the essence of me.
You don't care, you said.

Boy or girl, it's me.
The body is not the truth.
Did it matter, dear?

Now, I end the pain.
Now, I match body and soul.
Does it matter, dear?

I come to you, now changed.
You turn away, it's not you!
But it is! Listen!

Dare to look. Please, please!
It is still me! I love you!
But you don't, you don't...

Brown-haired girl, it's me.
The body is not the truth.
Does it matter, dear?

But you turn away.
You deny our life, our love.
You say it's a lie.

I scream into space.
I die as my heart's ripped out.
I guess it mattered