Ohhh ahh the smell of this place! (In the basement with the forever picture above the desk) Everytime I enter supply to see that picture of a rat getting it from another rat and there is a line of rats waiting there turn behind him. Thats why I figured people never complain to one another in there. Like the quote says your gonna get it wheather you ask for it or not.
Must be something left over from Viet Nam. The skipper was there with the big red one. Now that term always made me cringe. Oh I know how it goes there the guys who jump out of hueys face first ,repelling through the air. Sarg has more experience in this motorpool than being able to do that anymore.

Well here we are getting our lbe stuff and gear for the field with live ammo and c4 bombs.. My turn to get geared after specialist Borjia. Next we get geared up and ready to muster after we draw weapons.
I got here only not even a year ago as a green e1. What do they hand me but an m60 and the bag with extra barrel plus a 45. I had over 200 lbs of gear to hump my first field time. My gunny assistant pvt knockless gets trench foot the first big push that year. The biggest field exercise Once a year held in the snow. SUNKNOW! Now I had to go before the promotion board against five other people to win my second stripe.
I went from e1 to e4! Why me I dunno because the others were here before me. I can't judge but I would not have picked myself. I would be proud to be just going before the board at all.

Anne and Penny are joking now. I got here with Anne Borjia who was a pfc and supply sgt P. Watkins was here now three years! Her able spec James Lee from Alabama. Sgt Barber from Kansas city Kansas and our squad leader of the motor pool just came to the supply basement now and he is smiling as usual. I met them before they got this stripe now. Feels good and an honor to serve with men and women as them plus all the others here and our sister units.
We are close and getting a hard bond from backing each other now. I get this knowing so able to command my countanance away from here from them even me. I will die.

I KNOW death has come for me and I will never see home again. I will make only two of my four year hitch. Silent screems of fear and terror holding me. Man! I don't want to die! Eyes darting but know one suspects me. I plan to get out in four years! Man! Maybe its my nerves? Maybe I made myself scared? Yeah I WILL JUST SHAKE(death knowing impending doom and despare take over) ᬔ  á²Æ’Æ’…

Thinking to myself I'm gonna die(looking at my buddies) I know I'm marked by death. There is nothing I can do or say to my buddies. I know we will miss each other. I can't feel emotion now because death has my hand up when we go to the field.

You know like the Christmas Carol story renoun,'Scrooge'! Remember the three spirits ,his back from the dead business partner § the first to visit before bedtime? The three spirits of Christmas pastΔ, presentâ„—, and futureΩ.

As I live I know death and I know life ,I know both as one and the other, I know them. Its a horrable thing when your called to die and you can't escape it. You don't remember anything about the instruction given before going to earth or even your family in heaven.

All you know is that a supernatural knowledge has you going to die soon. You can't run or hide or plead to anyone you know.
Your scared so you go forward hopping upon hope you get a repreave from death like Ebanezer did.

Now Patricia spirit the second one left her memories with the number three spirit. The third spirit told me of her memory when she was but a teenager or nearing the twenties. She told it as a dream she had but the truth is as she experienced the vission it was. She was amazed and over time she allowed herself to believe the vission but a dream.

In it God tells her in the awaken state that one day at the end of this century or close because He would not specify, she would become completely different. She would become a whole new and different person than she is now. Yes He told her she would become completely opposite to what she is now. She would die and a new completely different person would emerge in her place. She repeated His words to be clear she heard Him correctly. She ask him well will it hurt? Much? He told her no you won't feel a thing. She said are you sure? He told her I will be with you to carry you. She said change? Really change? He told her Yes and said don't think about it to much because you are going to forget it for sometime.

Eventually it will float into your mind a dream knowing knowledge. One you believe a dream but cannot escape it either. When the time comes I will tap your shoulder to Remember it.

Now Patricia second spirit exited her body in december 7, 1982 and she was around 25 years old. She remembered knowing it would hurt in the vission but knew God was not lieing either.

Although at the time she did not know that seven years later after the vission she would be carried to Heaven from a military hospital december 7, 1982.

Now the third spirit in the Patricia body was telling me in 2007, this with the memories of her own from suffering the experience of the vission that she lived out ,that same vission told from God to the exited second spirit of the Patricia body in december 7, 1982.

The third spirit of the Patricia body suffered the vission beginning in 1999 and ending in 2004. The third spirit was sharring the Patricia body with Patrick:
> >>   >>   >>   About the twin
>> thought: yeah
>> >>   because I could
>> >>   >>   see one of the
>> >>   >>   >>   reasons they monitored
>> me 2003 to
>> >>   2004 or 5.
>> >>   >>   The body and
>> >>   >>   >>   mind were not only
>> changing from
>> >>   fe to male
>> >>   >>   but (which by
>> >>   >>   >>   the way trish is gone
>> completely
>> >>   now)fe and
>> >>   >>   male were
>> >>   >>   >>   sharring not just the
>> body but
>> >>   the mind at
>> >>   >>   the time! Growing
>> >>   >>   >>   up the fe and the
>> male(me) shared
>> >>   the body
>> >>   >>   and mind but not
>> >>   >>   >>   at the sametime. (I
>> don't
>> >>   recall). So I was
>> >>   >>   going from her
>> >>   >>   >>   to me(him) back and
>> forth. Kinda
>> >>   like one
>> >>   >>   was fighting the
>> >>   >>   >>   other for dominance
>> from the womb
>> >>   even! No
>> >>   >>   wonder I was so
>> >>   >>   >>   out to lunch all the
>> time with my
>> >>   head in
>> >>   >>   the clouds growing
>> >>   >>   >>   up!

>> Lol trish went
>> >>   to the fed
>> >>   >>   for help in
>> >>   >>   >>   august 2003 due to our
>>body dieing. Not
>> >>   another
>> >>   >>   day could I have
>> >>   >>   >>   survive as a trish.
>> Already
>> >>   trish was
>> >>   >>   looking more and
>> >>   >>   >>   more a man! They were
>> scared,
>> >>   horrified, and
>> >>   >>   traumatized. For
>> >>   >>   >>   her to end up in the
>> emergency
>> >>   ward at the VA.
We were an inch
>> >>   >>   >>   away from death. No
>> one could
>> >>   help me and trish
>> >>   >>   had nowhere else
>> >>   >>   >>   to turn. When we got
>> there they
>> >>   were waiting
>> >>   >>   for us and we got
>> >>   >>   >>   help and knowledge to.
>> So did
>> >>   they and
>> >>   >>   together we have been
>> >>   >>   >>   learning. Well see
>> when trish went to
>> >>   the fed
>> >>   >>   trish memories tell me that she was going
>> >>   >>   >>   inside and I patrick
>> was
>> >>   emerging. Well when
>> >>   >>   this was
>> >>   >>   >>   happening trish took
>> it from 2002
>> >>   til aug
>> >>   >>   2003 because the
>> >>   >>   >>   pain was very intense. Now pre history that for a moment as trish was beginning menopause like symptoms emotionally at first only say starting around 1999. She was suffering emotional breaking and was at a loss for help. She instinctively refused any doctor for help for why she did not know. Now to top it off life sucked and in december 13, 1999 she gets an incurable pnuemonia the VA tells her she should be dead! Now 2002 to 2003:
>> Like the
>> >>   movie kinda
>> >>   >>   where spock has enormous pain
>> >>   >>   >>   to go through puberty
>> again in
>> >>   Genesis film.
>> >>   >>   Trish did not   get help and was
>> horrified but
>> >>   knew just
>> >>   >>   enough that no
>> >>   >>   >>   doctor could help her.
>> She
>> >>   instinctively
>> >>   >>   protected me but
>> >>   >>   >>   was confussed as to
>> what was  
>> >>   happening to
>> >>   >>   her. All the
>> >>   >>   >>   while she did not know the pain was her female reproductive organs disintigrating and my male reproductive organs were comming to take their place. Her family and
>> friends are
>> >>   seeing
>> >>   >>   her looking
>> >>   >>   >>   like a man more and
>> more. BINGO
>> >>   trish takes
>> >>   >>   us to the FED
>> >>   >>   >>   while she is still
>> dominant. She
>> >>   knows she
>> >>   >>   is expirring or
>> >>   >>   >>   disappearing but the pain feels like labour. The Fed
>> knows trish
>> >>   dna is xy
>> >>   >>   but told her
>> >>   >>   >>   they did not tell her
>> because
>> >>   they did not
>> >>   >>   want to mess up
>> >>   >>   >>   her life incase she
>> identified as
>> >>   a female!! And later asked to study her. She was in shock! She knew all her life and even had her secret name for him, Patrick. Later after 2004 I was well along into my puberty like 2008 at 13 or 14, I was told I was bi sexual with two sex set ups. They did not think I could handle knowing to soon. I admit it too. Trish memories don't know anything about that either other that in 2000 she felt like God was beginning stripping her identity off. Tarring off the old past and it hurt a lot!

Ok
spead up to 2005
when me and Paula meet. Well Paula did not know the quiet boy was sad. That he was rapidly continuing to grow in mind and body, a boy of ten years old. But she knew guys who looked twelve when they were 30 even and acted 3. She asked questions later in 2006 and the officials monitoring phenomina gave her answers on me. She went from acting wife to acting mother. By 2005
>> >>   I was the
>> >>   >>   dominant and
>> >>   >>   >>   trish was inside. I
>> became the
>> >>   intersex male
>> >>   >>   instead of
>> >>   >>   >>   trish being dominant
>> as the
>> >>   intersex female.
>> >>   >>   So the time was
>> >>   >>   >>   past that me and trish
>> used our
>> >>   mind and
>> >>   >>   body at the
>> >>   >>   >>   sametime from 2003 to 2004. One of us while in the consciousness and the other in the sub conscious kinda floating above the body. By 2005 I was
intersex male and she my   life memories.
I suffered her gone as a loss and I
morned her passing for   3 years.

When me patrick came into
being my consciousness in the body was in 2004 or the end of 2003 somewhere in that time. I left this body as a child of say 9 because my body was actively male. People were forcing me to be a girl so I ask Him and He did. Now in 2003 Patricia spoke and I said only to her and she took us where she knew to go. I had no knowledge of this 2003 as I had memories of 1965. I depended on her so I spent mostly in our subconscious than.

She left our body at the end of 2004 when I was getting the enjoyment of a kid ten years old living life with new fun. By the time I notice she was gone I was thinking she was comming back. When I got tired of waiting and reality set in I was very sad.
She told me from her memories how she learned during early 2004 from doctors about what was happening in the body. She knew than Yahs vission had unfolded, there was a tap on her shoulder.

It was later in 2007 when trish told me about her vission from Yah, around 1973. I was in awe of it and told Paula later. Since 2006 trish has shared her memories with me of our past so I would know my history from december 12, 1964 to december 12, 2004. But I don't feel an emotion connection from beyond 1965 until august 2003. 2005 was my first year on my very own ever. I have my own memories from than til now 2009 and if Yah says than beyond.

The only part I cannot proove to them is about heavenly spirits sharring this body one at a time and by two together in 2004. They may take the evidence of there own many scientist researchers who have died and been revived. They also have gotten advice from known respected seers and suchas these:

>>Part about a seer is not denying someones sight with my sight. This is easy but inside myself the truth speaks out to my soul ears. I can't deny my judgements within my soul. So I seek not to argue although I do even if it is me I am arguing with.

>>To answere with my own knowledge is my sight truth. Patricia died in 1982 to rise from death of flesh to live again a flesh and soul woman in 1982.. This is set in the military records at the veterans administration. There was no dna lab analysis until 1990. I have shared my view with them and associate groups about the three spirits to enhabit this body. Two of which shared it at the sametime in 2004. Now all angels are males in heaven.

>>The angel set to re-enter the body of patricia in the morgue, saw the spirit that exited patricia dead body from the morgue, in heaven standing before the Son of God. He was an angel in heaven at the time and waiting for God to give him his instructions for life in Patricias risen body from the dead. He lived in Patricias revived body from december 08, 1982 until the end of 2004. The first spirit is the original spirit that was born in Patricias body in december 12, 1955 and exited before ten years old. The second called Patricia had a hard time in that body because it had inner male genitals covered by female genitals. The first had a hard time in it and exited before ten years old because the male genitals were active but hidden and the female were not yet more vissable to doctors.

>>They have always wanted to study God under a microscope. A microscope as big as a wharehouse to study the god ion. The part of the atom force unseen which moves the electrons and holds the positrons to the nutrons. The doorway to heaven and the link connecting this earth dimention to heaven.

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That part of the human strane that raised 'it' ,were known as the overcommer. A people whos toughness out lasted other humanbeings and to earn them the title of overcommer. The family of overcommers wanted a girl as they had 40 sons and no daughters to date. After having more babies they had no baby girl yet. The part we observe about overcommers is hope ever abounds next to having babies.

A condon or candon is what overcommers and humans in some general sense call babies or a baby. A condon or candon eventually is a candor/condor and are known travellers of space for vacation or work. They are a social welfare society for orphan unknown societies qualified for their condon programs by space travel. An outreach throughout galaxies and,for ions in time.
SOCIAL SERVICES ORBITAL OFFICES
"We never interfere with humans at all as the prime directive yCLEAREAREARLYy states".
"Oh would you stop with the Nixon impressions"?! "I'm I'm I'm getting concern for this earthling stran" "Why, ahhye hate you", There you get it". Yosemite Sam and I don't like your remark about Peresident Nixion and mua. "Yeah, least I'm not living with Moe, Larry, and Curly anymore". "Well hehehe least until we have to earthworm it through that galaxy again. "Ey erra, hehe 99" , "awww Max", "chief you call... me.. and at your service its Maxwell Smart"! "Karrroookoookookookoo it chicken man", Never Fear Underdog is here"! "Hey Rocky watch me pull a rabit out of my hat".
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"Oh yeah the wormhole for solar system odie. "How earth transmissions got all the way there past odie"? "Well it is space pollution now its getting out of hand you know". "Well wormholes need not be polluted like that because we can't turn it off when we are in animated sleep and for years"! "Years of hearing "oh but Rhickayyy ahhhhhhah"! "Ok no more pollution solution complaints".
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We put the dna together with ours and vuwalla! A made to order baby earthling girl". The earth overcommer will not know different than they got a girl finally." Yeah so she is what age now ahhhh? Hmmm well here is the life report on her." I got so many cases this century"! Been really busy so what is your concern about , ahh the half earth girl"?
Well we observed that she has been pregnant since 13 years old." She gets pregnant and miscarries within the period cycle of 28 earth days". Umm she has been doing this since 13 years old each month until 45 years old". Her stomach did not get large until age 38 than she looked forever 10 to 15 weeks pregnant. But was earth medically confussed as being obeese". So than whats the problem"? We do that all the time here except we have candons."

Well she turns out to be getting herself pregnant with the male inner genitals we gave her along with her own female genitals." Well that's how candons get here too so"? But that was not the intention for her..."we err ahh thought she has to survive in harsh earth enviroments." Ahhh we ddidnt knowww....hmm we though...I mean ahh...we were trying to give her an out later if she didn't like earth odie style...hehe...see"?

You meen we goofed on her dna match to a candon"? Yeah".... oh just say we earthed 'IT' up"!!! Hmmm so what were you trying for?
Eventually she would find out she is half human and half condon right"?
Ohh you didn't"??
Well not by you Curly"!
Ohh no you don't at least I am not what I sound like but you made mistakes mismister"!
Ahhh as they say on earth....shit!" "on me"!

Well I say candon and he says condon, both are used. The report tells how she stop getting herself pregnant from her male sperm or as we say keep your dancer in you're pancer instead of pregnant. I should catch up on the reading of my older reports. Says Hmmm .. She stop cycling an egg each 28 days...sheee we never run out...poor girl. But the male part she named Patrick ,kept producing sperm....hmmm now that's the candor in her, and you go girlfriend"! (Snaps 4 fingers to his huge thumb in the air with a swish of her candor hips)

The female ovas move with the male testies in the region below the human navel but have no eggs anymore. "Hmm.. well that part works were ovas and testies stay together." The pain was severe when the female carriage disintigrated as refuse out of the body. Without eggs the body return to all male. shehe never had a bacon....(erases) canby. "Much better". Well to many good candon dna going to waste than"!

Now the observed report on the 'it' goes on to state shehe has adapted to an overcommer life. Shehe became he and the female pregnant look, the conby or bacon holder ,exited down into the earth ground hole carried by h ²0. The overcommers don't like to be condon and seek half condon living where two half condons make a condon. Therefore it is felt that humans of the overcommer are not a good mix in races with condon culture. We will look at other human stran for our dna tests.

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First the thrill of going by thought was a releaf. I got out of the closet but it was awkward as I had to face I was dead. I couldn't get use to my body. Look like me but there was no lips to move and you don't use air. The nose was not or the eyes. I kept at first trying to move lips that were not there. Same with the nose, eyes, and hands on the body. No feeling or touching things anymore and it was desparring. I was in morning for my dead body. Oh if I could only tell it how sorry I was that I took it for granted!! I would give anything to touch it and beg its forgiveness. Well stuck with this superior body and it was awkward to use. Easy well to easy and I kept trying to use it through earth birth body controls. All I had to do was think a thought and it was so easy the Voice was coaching me now. Oh, how, hhah I missed my dead inferior body. The better I got I was speeding everywhere with my laughter com trails sounding. I was having a blast once I got the hang of it became addicting fun. Well I stopped and refuused to have anymore fun. "Here"! I told the Voice. " I don't want this body"! "I want my dead one back"! I cried like a kid who lost his best buddy or blanket or stuft doll or sucking his thumb because only babies do that. No amount of superior fun would take me away from my me. How could I have forgotten I had died! How could I loose knowing I had left my body? I had gone into denial alright. I refussed to believe it! I was blind to my death. I was still me and the same person. My personality was alive and no changes there.

Hi, yeah a lot for trish during the years following 1982 because she suffered from the trauma death brings during the death process. She suffered the trauma of dieing and the trauma of experiencing death itself then, for years after she suffered the trauma of "rememberance" of the death experience.

Oiay vey! How to explain to you understanding it?

I won't give you a bad understanding beyond what I wrote. If you want me to tell you in detail how she suffered the actual death and rememberance after, and for years to come than you may not know what your asking.
1982 December 7 she died. 8 hours later on December 8th 1982 she revives in the 5th general hospital at Stuttgart Germany.

Now this event followed her after she revive and was sent back to garrason to link back with her unit. It followed her in her millitary records and from that post oversea to post in the USA in Texas. From there the record in her medical files followed her into civillian life as a vet. Everytime her medical records were open it was on top for the doctor to see. No one knew if it was true back in 1982 to 1989. Even the Germany doctors who pronounced her dead than talking to her after she revives the next day wondered what was real? And they were there! So anyone reading the medical records was far more not sure.

In 1982 especially and up until 1989 there was very little to nothing medically known about near death experiences. Near death means you and death got married and went honeymooning. You died completly or in part for some and then ,came back to life. The only ones with knowledge by researching nde's at that time was the government. The information was classified for only people allowed to have it namely government researchers and not regular millitary medical staff who practice on the living. The public had at that time no knowledge in fact about nde's. In the earlier years of the 1970s and 1980s the research was a big unknown secret that research on nde's was in progress. Nde research was a secret government project that the government did not believe that the public could "handle" knowing about that people have died and revive to tell about the experience of death than back from death to reliving again. Around 1985 the word about nde's was circulating.

The information leaked out or spoon fed by government but just a little at a time so not to scare anyone. Just enough information the government felt the public could absorb emotionally and intellectually. I could go on about how cult tv shows started to spring up, lol. Anyway by 1989 paranormal phenominon was a big business where the public was absorbed in wanting to know more and more about paranormal phenominon to include ETs. By 1990 the the government discovered dna from dna research they were doing in secret. Shall I tell you about her pnemonia in 1999?

Raced to fast for my own good but what a sight and let me add rush. I can be honest the faster I went the scareder I got a little. Well the galexies are many until they run out. Yeah they run out and I got a little scared. Well I wondered what's after? You know at first I couldn't remember and I didn't know how I got there or where I was prior and even where I was. I couldn't see anything and the darkness was thickest I'd ever seen. I said, "who put me in this closet to leave me"? I though did they lock me in? How dare they! I can't see my hands so I move forward to find a wall to lead to a door. I paniced and breathing was heavy. I couldn't find a wall and the deeper I moved forward there was only dark. I screamed over and over where is the wall and how do I find the door to get out of here. I pleaded at a door I hoped that was there in the dark for someone to please let me out! I was begging soon and despare was entering me. My mind rushed my thought at first was this was a cruel joke and anger turned to pleading. No walls or door and nobody helps me. I looked up and begged God to please help me get out of this dark closet without walls or a door. I was scared I would die in there. How did I get in there? Was I at a party? Let me think and my thoughts rushed. I couldn't remember and panic lead desperation. I lunged forward trying to feel a wall or door. I gave up and sat there still in the dark wondering at how cruel a joke. Silently weep to my mind to tired to hear by voice. How do I get out of here? How? Please how? Over my right shoulder a soft voice near my ear said,"just go". Then I said, "huh jhust gho"? I knew that Voice. I was dead.

I knew than I am dead. I felt like I look like I lost my best friend. Oh I can't just go I whined,"dead people can't do anything. There's no use trying". I cryed but I half grunted then, over grunted a try. The soft Voice upon the second time says,"just go". I did it, was seezy! The second time hearing the Voice gave ability to do a thought. Ahseezy! All the speed going up like a mad rush of air with stars everywhere. Faster I went the stars rush by until I was saying,"let me go back please I don't want to be dead". I want to breath air and move my lips or smell through my nose. Please let me feel my body once again! I wanna go back! But I argued with the Voice,"I'm not done yet with what I have to do yet". You see I told the Voice,"you gave me these things to do now I'm not done". I pleaded with ultra stubborness. Oh how I am exactly the same dead as living. Stubborn. The Voice said don't you like this body it is much better? You can go when you want as you want and you don't get sick either. I said,"I much prefer my dead body with me in it breathing the old fashion way! "Please let me see with my eyes again"? "I tell you but please I'm not done". "My family will never get over their only daughter and all". "Besides I was only 25 years old"! Why do I have to go now I asked the Voice? I need to go back home I begged. The Voice said,"little one you are home". "I need you to come home now and you have to come in the soft Voice repeated. My reply was the same repeated back. When did I finally stop arguing? Well I put it on hold as I zoomed higher and the stars were gone. The exchange to light everywhere and my body had gone from a replica of my former body to a ball of bright light. I met people I knew that I forgot and they welcome me home again. The name as the language escapes me now. My heaven memories never lived on earth returned and I woke up realizing I had been dreaming.

All the way up and up past the moon. What room where and when. Hmmm yes the room I was there. Well as I recall the guy left the room running. Oh yes I was there but the room I left itb so fast thhat I hardly remember a ceiling. I saw stars above the clouds and the moon came rushing by.
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