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Valerie: *grumbles to herself*

Cynthia: Morning! Remember, Val, we've got a whole lot of stuff we need to do today. If you'd rather anyone else front just say so, okay?
Valerie: Naaaah, I think I got this. Y'all can rest.
Well, would you look at that?
Y'know. I guess we don't really take in just how much progress we've made over the years, hmm?

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Valerie: *stretching* hnnngh.. sigh...
Aubrey: I know that look.
Larissa: Valeria! Hey! We need to work today! What are you doing?
Valerie: *more grumbling*

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Somtimes, you feel great about yourself, and it can be instantly ripped out from under you. Body dysmorphia sucks. I won't deny the progress we've made with our body over the years we've been on estrogen. But I still feel in a constant war with my body. Especially given I have to lose weight to get bottom surgery -- which that itself I don't fully know if I'm gonna be able to get at this point. I try to tell myself it's a "when" rather than an "if" but it feels like it's going to have to be a "never" at this point.

Also yeah, "we need to work today" has become the all-encompassing thing. I started a job and it took up a lot of my time. Didn't have much energy afterwards for art or streaming. Then I lost that job again and have been struggling increasingly financially, with little reprieve to be seen in that regard. I'm applying like a madwoman, but I'm honestly grateful I've been able to work on more creative endeavours. There should be some new song covers releasing soon that Tresenella and I have been working on. And even more art as long as I'm not pulled into too much busy work. I have tried to stream full time but it's just not worth the effort for the return when I can just focus on my art.

If you love what I do, feel free to support me over on my ko-fi! I would greatly appreciate any and all support with all of my work. I try to post often and I might open commissions there too. I just can't make promises about frequency.
https://ko-fi.com/lariumbreon

You can also find me on Bluesky now! (https://bsky.app/profile/lariumbreon.bsky.social) Bigcloset, Bluesky, and Tumblr have slowly become my primary social media sites, so if you're interested in my day to day, that's where to go.

Sometimes meeting new headmates show up to some... Explosive results.

This is probably the longest comic I've drawn to date, and it's taken quite a few months. Which is the key reasoning for the shift in art style halfway through. I got really busy, and came back months later and my whole process had changed. It happens.

This is sort of a retelling of how I finally met Valerie. The latest facet in our system. In the previous Alternate Cuts, I came out as plural, having been diagnosed with OSDD from a young age. Valerie is a Succubus. She is the culmination of a lot of my sexual trauma and hypersexuality. Having resolved a lot of my trauma, I was still left with a lot of shame about being hypersexual on occasion. I'd regularly lash out due to the shame of having obsessive fantasies. I'd also lash out internally and self harm with sleep deprivation, and fostering my addictions to alcohol and painkillers. While it's only a part of all my struggles, my hypersexuality has been a constant. Always in a punching match with my borderline personality disorder.

Needless to say, finally accepting Valerie has helped quite a lot. She's allowed me to release and refocus my urges, and I'll always be grateful for her existing inside of my head. If only, though, her powers to warp bodies could work outside of our head. That'd solve many, many more problems!

Thank you for reading this very long comic. I know Big Closet isn't exactly the premiere place for artwork. But I do intend to only post this comic, along with future NSFW comics of this same vein here. I have many plans for more TGTF comics and you can read them all here!~