the dangers of being manic

For years, I was aware of how dangerous my depressions could be - I've been suicidal more than once in part thanks to the depression

But I really didn't understand that the manic phase was just as dangerous.

its the equivalent of being high as a kite, or being a "happy drunk", in terms of my lack of restraint.

I am so full of happy chemicals just about anything sounds like fun, and boy have I done stuff I regretted once the manic phase wore off.

But its more than just a tendency to do silly stuff. All my emotions are cranked to 11, so I can get angry at the drop of hat.

I also tend to "graze" more while in manic, eating anything I can get my hands on.

But the good news is I'm learning to understand and manage the manic phase.

Day by day, step by step, cycle by cycle, I am trying to do better.