Does Detransitioning mean you were not Transgendered?

I've felt a bit odd lately and have gone out in full male mode a few times. If my facial structure was more feminine, I could look like a Butch Dyke, pardon me. I had my hair all cut off to about to about 6.5 mm (1/4"). I am going out today for several hours and plan to do more of that. To me, it seems that my transition, including bottom Surgery, might have been ill advised. Warnings from the Psychological Community seem dire because many of them feel that it is a precursor to Suicide. I'm not feeling that. My children would undoubtedly support detransition. I have other friends who would be shocked and I am sure they would end our friendship. I am Native American and Two-Spirit. I would be quite happy being gender fluid, maybe I am? I am part of a group that insists that I have to be Trans. I intend to make myself happy.

Gwen