Strange developement after coming out to my mother

I am away on business tonight. It offers me an opportunity to be Leeanna. Normally I would get a quick bite to eat, shower, remove whatever excess hair I have, then dress and makeup. I don't get many chances to be "me" , so usually do it everytime I stay away.

I have been away twice since telling my mother that I always wanted to be her daughter. The first time I was held up in traffic. This time I arrived at the hotel at 630pm. I feel no desire to dress though. I don't undertand it. I used to do it every chance I could. I would go away for holidays alone and spend whole days as Leeanna. My mother has offered to come with me and help me.

I just don't seem to feel the same pressure mentally as I did. Very odd.