I am doing it for the right reasons?

I wonder if I am going to be doing my SRS/GRS for the right reasons. My friend mentioned that if you are not doing it for the sex, then why do you do it?
No I might hope that I could have a sexual relationship, given my age and my social awkwardness, it seems unlikely to ever happen.

Now that has gotten me doubting myself and my decision to do GRS. Somehow it feels that “because I want to” is not a sufficient reason. There are some others, but even then a shallow operation (zero depth of vulvoplasty) would solve most problems as well as not having to dilate and easier “maintenance”.

Have I been idolising having a vagina? Do I consider this as a right of passage somehow? If this because I think I have to conform to some out-dated idea of what a woman is supposed to be.

I don’t know anymore. I am confused, I am worried, I am afraid, I am angry (at myself for not thinking this through completely first). I have a gnawing feeling that if I go for a vulvoplasty (shallow or zero depth) I’m gonna regret this later

Can the collective wisdom on this site help? At least with some fresh perspectives?