Just an odd question

I have just arrived back from a short break where I got to be "Leeanna" . I was staying on my own for a few days. I dressed for extended periods and even went out for a walk.

Like many of the ladies on here to a varying degree, I realised I wanted to be a girl when I was young. Around five years old in my case.

When I was growing up, all my positive role models were women. Men on the other hand were mostly angry and drunk. I had a great aunt that would threaten me with "be good, or a man will come and get you." It may also have been my mother and her sister had 7 boys between them, and no girls. Any girl they saw was doted on. I always envied them for being pretty, and being able to wear pretty clothes.

While I was relaxing reading stories on here a few nights back, I wondered.

If women dressed, looked the same (as much as possible, short hair , no makeup)acted and were treated the same as men, would I still want to be one? So imagine a world where we all wore grey jump suits , and underneath a plain grey vest and shorts.

I understand with some people there are varying degrees of dislike for their male genitalia. Is this due to what they represent? Or is it deeper that?

Please understand i really don't mean to offend with this question, just trying to understand more.

Thanks