insights from my therapist

My therapist had a really good insight into what happened with the writing group:

"Sometimes when we're struggling with self-hate or loathing, we find ourselves sharing vulnerable aspects of ourselves to people who have not earned the right to our most intimate selves. It's almost like a test to those around us. And if they passed one test, we push again and we push harder.

When we're feeling that low, we often think that we're not good enough for anybody else and we end up in a self-fulfilling prophecy cycle. What I'm wondering, is if you think that there was a part of you on the inside that knew that sharing this part of yourself with that group would scare them off, and you figured better now than later, or you figured you're not worthy of them anyway?"

I think she might have a point