Dream of depression

Caution: referenced suicide attempt

so last night I dreamed that I was back in university and upon arriving in class I realized not only did I not bring my assignment, but I couldn't even figure out what the assignment was supposed to be.

But my reaction to this kinda scares me: I quietly packed up my stuff, slipped out of the class while the teacher was distracted, and started to walk back home.

If that wasn't bad enough, I planned that once I made it to my residence, I was going make a few preparations and then find a way to end my life.

I can only assume the sense of failure that was driving me in the dream has a lot to do with my current situation, where I've been struggling with that feeling in regards to my mom.

hugs appreciated, folks.