Too much

I think I might be at the breaking point.
I just spent the better part of the last two hours bawling my eyes out, and I hope to post this before the real breakdown starts.
I just called my mom for the first time in over a month, and guess what? I'm being served papers on my credit card I cut up months ago. Here I am haven't had money to buy f-king FOOD in two weeks, and I'm getting served. I'm not always sure I'll even have a place to sleep, and then this.
It's all my fault, I'm stupid and bad with money