I don't know

Outside of stuff for work, I haven't really written anything in almost over two years. I've tried. I sit or lay down in front of my computer nearly every day to work on my writing.

I'm only posting this now because I was just reminded of this. I missed out on a comment someone left on one of my stories five months ago. I'd just stopped bothering to check on the writing sites for comments and reviews because I just wasn't writing anything so I wasn't logging in to check on things. The person said they really wanted me to continue writing what they read. I wish I could. I don't know what I'm doing wrong.

I feel terrible most of the time. I feel exhausted. I'm sick quite often. I have nothing to show for the last two years.

On a side note, I get clocked femme without even trying. It's surreal. I'm not dressing the part, wearing only male clothing. I just have long hair and I'm overweight. I'm really tall. I don't get it. I get young ladied, ma'am-ed, and miss'ed multiple times a week without trying. I'm not out and I'm not trying to pass at all. It just feels strange.