I'm Me

Sometimes I Can't Hold It In Any More

Joannebarbarella

I suppose I am what you can categorise as a frustrated transsexual. I am not a crossdresser although I dress in women's clothes as often as I can. I don't regard this as crossdressing. All I am doing is dressing in the clothes in which I should have been dressing all my life. Circumstances have prevented me from assuming my true sex throughout my life, so that I have had to masquerade as a man for more than sixty years.

I did have a period in my teens when I was able to live as a girl but the 1960s was a dangerous time for transsexuals (we didn't even have a name for us then) and I chickened out after being beaten shitless a couple of times and did not even keep the photos of myself from that era. I wish I had because I think I looked pretty good but paranoia was the word in those days.

Big Closet saved me from madness and gave me an outlet for my frustrations. I found friends here who understood me, so here I am.

So that's me....like me or loathe me, but I just couldn't keep myself hidden any more.