Sometimes, it sucks to be me

I have learned, perhaps too late, that choices have consequences.

For example, a lot of the reason why I am in such pain is because I made poor choices with the food I ate and not doing enough physical activity, leading to me being overweight.

But that's not the worst consequence I'm facing.

See, I chose to get married. i did not choose well, but I chose.

And because I made that choice, and further made the choices that led to my separation, I do not have a special someone in my life, nor will I.

Now, you might be saying that I could hope for someone to come into my life, but you see, there is a problem.

My faith is clear on the subject - you get one chance at marriage, and that's it.

And I blew mine.

And as evil as I am, I will not, can not cross that line.

So I get to be alone.

Sucks to me.