A setback leads to tears

Well, I have gotten a setback in terms of getting SRS.

I was supposed to go to Arizona for a consult in January, but as I have not gotten notice that my plane ride will be covered by the Alberta government, I cant go.

I knew this was coming, its not a shock, really. And I've been trying to tell myself that it doesn't matter. It's not what's between my legs that makes me a woman.

Turns out I didn't believe me.

i sobbed on the phone with Jaci and another friend for five to ten minutes over this disappointment.

I'm far too scared of pain to arrange a little workplace "accident", so that's it.

I'll survive (I hope) but between this and the other crap going on right now, with my mom's surgery, my leg pain, and how much PTSD I've been coping with ...

All huggles and prayers appreciated.