under repair, please be patient

you know, when I first went for help about my abuse, I really didn't expect much. I hoped I would figure out if there was a connection between my abuse and my gender issues, and maybe I'd learn how to cope a little better, but that was all. Same thing was true when I first started thinking about transition - I fully expected that I'd hit a brick wall, and have to settle for being Dorothy online only.

But now, I find I have a bunch of other stuff to deal with too - a deficit in terms of my social skills, wild mood swings, and struggles with my weight and finances. With the last two I finally figured out what the problem is - I have a tendency to take the immediate gratification instead of sticking with my long term goals.

I find it ironic that my gender issues which I assumed would be unsolvable have actually turned out to be the area where I've made the most progress ...

I feel like hanging a sign on me - "Repairs in progress, your patience is appreciated"

Ah, well .