Pain and agony

The infection is back and it's in full swing. My foot is swollen again all the way up to the calf muscle. I am in so much pain I cannot sleep. The doctor gave me pain pills. While they make my head all foggy and interfere with my ability to write, they do nothing for the actual pain. The doctor I have doesn't listen to a word I say, nor does she allow me to actually express everything that's on my mind as she hurriedly tries to shoo me out the door. I have obamacare, which let me go to one doctor which is a free clinic. Don't know what I'm paying monthly into. I told the doctor this pain pill didn't work from when they sent me home from the hospital with it, so she gave me a lower dosage. Beside the foot, I have a pain around my spleen that when it flairs up really hurts.

I am in a bit of a catch 22. If these new antibiotics don't work I need to go to the hospital for iv antibiotics. If I go in the hospital I will lose my job. It has been my contention that I once did something so bad that life is trying to even the score.